Yahi Hai Jindgi

Author(s): Bhadraguptasuri
Publisher: Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra Koba
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/009641/1

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() yahI hai jindagI zrI priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI kabhI kAMToM meM bhI tAjagI kabhI phUloM se nArAjagI kabhI patAroM sI sAdagI kabhI hai bahAroM kI baMdagI yahI hai jindagI, yahI hai jindagI zrI priyadarzana [AcArya zrI vijayabhadraguptasUrijI mahArAja] For Private And Personal Use Only

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punaH saMpAdana jJAnatIrtha-kobA dvitIya AvRtti vi.saM.2067, 31 agasta-2009 maMgala prasaMga rASTrasaMta zrutoddhAraka AcAryadevazrI padmasAgarasUrinI __kA 75vA~ janmadivasa | tithi : bhAdra. suda-11 di. 31-8-2009, sAMtAkrUja, muMbaI mUlya pakkI jilda : rU. 179-00 kaccI jilda : rU. 80-00 Arthika saujanya zeTha zrI niraMjana narottamabhAI ke smaraNArtha ha, zeTha zrI narottamabhAI lAlabhAI parivAra prakAzaka zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdira kobA, tA. ji. gAMdhInagara - 382007 phona naM. (079) 23176104, 23276171 email : gyanmandir@kobatirth.org website : www.kobatirth.org mudraka : navaprabhAta prinTarsa, amadAvAda - 9825598855 TAITala DIjAina : Arya grAphIksa - 9925801910 For Private And Personal Use Only

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pUjya AcArya bhagavaMta zrI vijayabhadraguptasUrIzvarajI zrAvaNa zuklA 12, vi.saM. 1989 ke dina pudagAma mahesANA (gujarAta) meM maNIbhAI evaM hIrAbahana ke kuladIpaka ke rUpa meM janme mUlacandabhAI, juhIM kI kalI kI bhAMti khilatIkhulatI javAnI meM 18 barasa kI umra meM vi.saM. 2007, mahAvada 5 ke dina rANapura (saurASTra) meM AcArya zrImad vijayapremasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA ke karamakamaloM dvArA dIkSita hokara pU. bhuvanabhAnusUrIzvarajI ke ziSya bane. muni zrI bhadraguptavijayajI kI dIkSAjIvana ke prAraMbha kAla se hI adhyayana adhyApana kI sudIrgha yAtrA prAraMbha ho cukI thI.45 AgamoM ke saTIka adhyayanoparAMta dArzanika, bhAratIya evaM pAzcAtya tatvajJAna, kAvya-sAhitya vagairaha ke 'milasTona' pAra karatI huI vaha yAtrA sarjanAtmaka kSitija kI tarapha mur3a gaI. 'mahApaMthano yAtrI' se 20 sAla kI umra meM zuru huI lekhanayAtrA aMta samaya taka athaka evaM anavarata calI. taraha-taraha kA maulika sAhitya, tatvajJAna, vivecanA, dIrgha kathAe~, laghu kathAe~, kAvyagIta, patroM ke jariye svaccha va svastha mArgadarzana paraka sAhitya sarjana dvArA unakA jIvana saphara dina-ba-dina bharApUrA banA rahatA thA. premabharA ha~samukha svabhAva, prasanna va mRdu AMtara-bAhya vyaktitva evaM bahujana-hitAya bahujana-sukhAya pravRttiyA~ unake jIvana ke mahattva capUrNa aMgarUpa thI. saMgha-zAsana vizeSa karake yuvA pIr3hI. taruNa pIDhI evaM ziza-saMsAra ke jIvana nirmANa kI prakiyA meM unheM rUci thI... aura isI se unheM saMtuSTi milatI thI. pravacana, vArtAlApa, saMskAra zibira, jApa-dhyAna, anuSThAna evaM paramAtma bhakti ke viziSTa AyojanoM ke mAdhyama se unakA sahiSNu vyaktitva bhI utanA hI unnata evaM ujjvala banA rahA. pUjyazrI jAnane yogya vyaktitva va mahasUsa karane yogya astitva se sarAbora the. kolhApura meM tA.4-5-1987 ke dina gurudeva ne unheM AcArya pada se vibhUSita kiyA.jIvana ke aMta samaya meM lambe arase taka ve aneka vyAdhiyoM kA sAmanA karate hue aura aise meM bhI satata sAhitya sarjana karate hue dinAMka 19-11-1999 ko zyAmala, ahamadAbAda meM kAladharma ko prApta hue. For Private And Personal Use Only

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prakAzakIya pUjya AcArya zrI vijayabhadraguptasUrijI mahArAja (zrI priyadarzana) dvArA likhita aura vizvakalyANa prakAzana, mahesANA se prakAzita sAhitya, jaina samAja meM hI nahIM apitu jainetara samAja meM bhI bar3I utsukatA aura manoyoga se par3hA jAne vAlA lokapriya sAhitya hai. pUjyazrI ne 19 navambara, 1999 ke dina ahamadAbAda meM kAladharma prApta kiyA. isake bAda vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTa ko visarjita kara unake prakAzanoM kA punaH prakAzana banda karane ke nirNaya kI bAta sunakara hamAre TrasTiyoM kI bhAvanA huI ki pUjya AcArya zrI kA utkRSTa sAhitya janasamudAya ko hamezA prApta hotA rahe, isake liye kucha karanA cAhie. pUjya rASTrasaMta AcArya zrI padmasAgarasUrijI mahArAja ko vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTamaMDala ke sadasyoM ke nirNaya se avagata karAyA gayA. donoM pUjya AcAryazrIyoM kI ghaniSTha mitratA thI. antima dinoM meM divaMgata AcAryazrI ne rASTrasaMta AcAryazrI se milane kI hArdika icchA bhI vyakta kI thI. pUjya AcAryazrI ne isa kArya hetu vyakti, vyaktittva aura kRtittva ke AdhAra para saharSa apanI sahamatI pradAna kI. unakA AzIrvAda prApta kara kobAtIrtha ke TrasTiyoM ne isa kArya ko Age cAlU rakhane hetu vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTa ke sAmane prastAva rakhA. vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTa ke TrasTiyoM ne bhI kobAtIrtha ke TrasTiyoM kI divaMgata AcAryazrI priyadarzana ke sAhitya ke pracAra-prasAra kI utkRSTa bhAvanA ko dhyAna meM lekara zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobAtIrtha ko apane TrasTa dvArA prakAzita sAhitya ke punaH prakAzana kA sarvAdhikAra saharSa sauMpa diyA. __isake bAda zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobA ne saMsthA dvArA saMcAlita zrutasaritA (jaina buka sTaoNla) ke mAdhyama se zrI priyadarzanajI ke lokapriya sAhitya ke vitaraNa kA kArya samAja ke hita meM prArambha kara diyA. zrI priyadarzana ke anupalabdha sAhitya ke punaH prakAzana karane kI zRMkhalA meM yahI hai jiMdagI graMtha ko prakAzita kara Apake kara kamaloM meM | prastuta kiyA jA rahA hai. For Private And Personal Use Only

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zeTha zrI saMvegabhAI lAlabhAI ke saujanya se isa prakAzana ke liye zrI niraMjana narottamabhAI ke smaraNArtha, haste zeTha zrI narottamabhAI lAlabhAI parivAra kI ora se udAratA pUrvaka Arthika sahayoga prApta huA hai, isaliye hama zeTha zrI narottamabhAI lAlabhAI parivAra ke RNI haiM tathA unakA hArdika AbhAra mAnate haiM. AzA hai ki bhaviSya meM bhI unakI ora se sadaiva udAratA pUrNa sahayoga prApta hotA rahegA. isa AvRtti kA prUphariDiMga karane vAle DaoN. hemanta kumAra tathA aMtima prUpha karane hetu paMDitavarya zrI manojabhAI jaina kA hama hRdaya se AbhAra mAnate haiM. saMsthA ke kampyUTara vibhAga meM kAryarata zrI ketanabhAI zAha, zrI saMjayabhAI gurjara va zrI bAlasaMga ThAkora ke hama hRdaya se AbhArI haiM, jinhoMne isa pustaka kA suMdara kampojiMga kara chapAI hetu baTara priMTa nikAlA. Apase hamArA vinamra anurodha hai ki Apa apane mitroM va svajanoM meM isa preraNAdAyaka satsAhitya ko vitarita kareM. zrutajJAna ke pracAra-prasAra meM ApakA laghu yogadAna bhI Apake liye lAbhadAyaka siddha hogA. punaH prakAzana ke samaya graMthakArazrI ke Azaya va jinAjJA ke viruddha koI bAta raha gayI ho to micchAmi dukkar3am. vidvAna pAThakoM se nivedana hai ki ve isa ora hamArA dhyAna AkRSTa kareM. anta meM naye AvaraNa tathA sAja-sajjA ke sAtha prastuta graMtha ApakI jIvanayAtrA kA mArga prazasta karane meM nimitta bane aura viSamatAoM meM bhI samarasatA kA lAbha karAye aisI zubhakAmanAoM ke sAtha... TrasTIgaNa zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobA For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra cintA : Aga ciMtana : cirAga * www.kobatirth.org eka jindA jalAe - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir eka jindagI ko rAstA batAe cintana ! bar3A bhArI evaM bojhila zabda lagatA hai, Ajakala ciMtA ke caurAhe para bhaTakane vAle hama logoM ko ! para jIvana ko saMtulita evaM sAmaMjasyapUrNa banAye rakhane ke lie ciMtA nahIM varan ciMtana kI pagaDaMDI para calanA jarurI hotA hai! ciMtana kI barasatI cA~danI meM hI niraMtara cidAnanda kI anubhUti prApya hotI hai ! bikharAva, tanAva evaM TakarAva ke sAye meM simaTI - simaTI jindagI kahIM kuMThA, hatAzA evaM saMtrAsa kA zikAra na bana jAe, isake lie atyaMta Avazyaka hai ki ciMtana kA nanhA sA bhI diyA bhItara meM jalatA rahe! kAphI vaividhya bharA hai, prastuta pustaka ke pannoM para bikhare ciMtana meM! hAlAMki yaha ciMtana sarjaka kA sva kA hai... nijI hai... para unhoMne jIvana ke hara ekha pahalU ko bhinna-bhinna aMdAja meM jAnane-parakhane kA sArthaka prayAsa kiyA hai... zAyada unake ciMtana kI koI ekAdha cinagArI bhI hamAre bhItara meM ciMtana kI mazAla jalA de ! aura hamArA vicAra - vyoma usa prakAza se Alokita ho uThe! vaise jindagI aura kucha bhI nahIM hai... janma se mauta taka kA phAsalA! para vaha dUrI bhI taya karane meM AdamI hA~pha jAtA hai... kitane bhI rupa racAe.... kitane bhI nAca dikhAe ... yA koI bhI aMdAja sikhAe... Akhira jindagI kA mukAma hai mauta ke nAma ! isI bAta ko bar3I khUbasUratI ke sAtha pustaka ke AvaraNa meM peza kiyA gayA hai ! 'A journey from Credal to Crematirium' or from 'Womb to Tomb' kA satya jisane samajhA, jisane pAyA hai, vaha to bhItara se mAlAmAla ho gayA... varanA dila kI duniyA to sadiyoM se kaMgAla hai hamArI...! mATI, mATI meM mila jAe yA khAka ho jAe isase pahale use mahakAe~ ciMtana kI sadAbahAra khuzabU se tAki mauta ke bAda kA saphara bhI barakarAra rahe kudarata ke kArobAra meM ! bhadragupta vijaya For Private And Personal Use Only

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dharma kalA va zruta-sAdhanA kA AhlAdaka dhAma zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobA tIrtha ahamadAbAda-gAMdhInagara rAjamArga para sthita sAbaramatI nadI ke samIpa suramya vRkSoM kI ghaTAoM se ghirA huA yaha kobA tIrtha prAkRtika zAntipUrNa vAtAvaraNa kA anubhava karAtA hai . gacchAdhipati, mahAna jainAcArya zrImat kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. kI divya kRpA va yugadraSTA rASTrasaMta AcArya pravara zrImat padmasAgarasUrIzvarajI ke zubhAzIrvAda se zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra kI sthApanA 26 disambara 1980 ke dina kI gaI thI. AcAryazrI kI yaha icchA thI ki yahA~ para dharma, ArAdhanA aura jJAna-sAdhanA kI koI ekAdha pravRtti hI nahIM varan anekavidha jJAna aura dharma-pravRttiyoM kA mahAsaMgama ho. etadartha AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI kI mahAna bhAvanArUpa AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdira kA khAsa taura para nirmANa kiyA gayA. zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra anekavidha pravRttiyoM meM apanI nimnalikhita zAkhAoM ke satprayAsoM ke sAtha dharmazAsana kI sevA meM tatpara hai. (1) mahAvIrAlaya : hRdaya meM alaukika dharmollAsa jagAne vAlA carama tIrthaMkara zrI mahAvIrasvAmI kA zilpakalA yukta bhavya prAsAda 'mahAvIrAlaya' darzanIya hai. prathama tala para garbhagRha meM mUlanAyaka mahAvIrasvAmI Adi 13 pratimAoM ke darzana alaga-alaga deriyoM meM hote haiM tathA bhUmi tala para AdIzvara bhagavAna kI bhavya pratimA, mANibhadravIra tathA bhagavatI padmAvatI sahita pA~ca pratimAoM ke darzana hote haiM. sabhI pratimAe~ itanI mohaka evaM cumbakIya AkarSaNa rakhatI haiM ki lagatA hai sAmane hI baiThe raheM. _ maMdira ko paraMparAgata zailI meM zilpAMkanoM dvArA rocaka paddhati se alaMkRta kiyA gayA hai, jisase sIr3hiyoM se lekara zikhara ke guMbaja taka tathA raMgamaMDapa se garbhagRha taka kA hara pradeza jaina zilpa kalA ko Adhunika yuga meM punaH jAgRta karatA dRSTigocara hotA hai. dvAroM para utkIrNa bhagavAna mahAvIra deva ke prasaMga 24 yakSa, 24 yakSiNiyoM, 16 mahAvidyAoM, vividha svarUpoM meM apsarA, deva, kinnara, pazu-pakSI sahita vela-vallarI Adi isa maMdira ko jaina zilpa evaM sthApatya ke kSetra meM eka apratima udAharaNa ke rUpa meM saphalatApUrvaka prastuta karate haiM. mahAvIrAlaya kI viziSTatA yaha hai ki AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI For Private And Personal Use Only

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ma.sA. ke antima saMskAra ke samaya prativarSa 22 maI ko dupahara 2 bajakara 7 minaTa para mahAvIrAlaya ke zikhara meM se hokara sUrya kiraNeM zrI mahAvIrasvAmI ke lalATa ko sUryatilaka se dedIpyamAna kare aisI anupama evaM advitIya vyavasthA kI gaI hai. prati varSa isa AhlAdaka ghaTanA kA darzana bar3I saMkhyA meM janamedanI bhAvavibhora hokara karatI hai. (2) AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri smRti maMdira (guru maMdira) : pUjya gacchAdhipati AcAryadeva prazAntamUrti zrImat kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI ke puNya deha ke antima saMskAra sthala para pUjyazrI kI puNya-smRti meM saMgamaramara kA nayanaramya kalAtmaka guru maMdira nirmita kiyA gayA hai. sphaTika ratna se nirmita anantalabdhinidhAna zrI gautamasvAmIjI kI manohara mUrti tathA sphaTika se hI nirmita guru caraNa-pAdukA vAstava meM darzanIya haiM. (3) AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamandira (jJAnatIrtha) : vizva meM jainadharma evaM bhAratIya saMskRti ke vizAlatama adyatana sAdhanoM se susajja zodha saMsthAna ke rUpa meM apanA sthAna banA cukA yaha jJAnatIrtha zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra kI AtmA hai. jJAnatIrtha svayaM apane Apa meM eka labdhapratiSTha saMsthA hai. AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdira ke antargata nimnalikhita vibhAga kAryarata haiM : (i) devarddhigaNi kSamAzramaNa hastaprata bhAMDAgAra (ii) Arya sudharmAsvAmI zrutAgAra (mudrita pustakoM kA graMthAlaya) (iii) AryarakSitasUri zodhasAgara (kampyUTara kendra sahita) (iv) samrATa samprati saMgrahAlaya : isa kalAdIrghA-myUjIyama meM purAtattva-adhyetAoM aura jijJAsu darzakoM ke lie prAcIna bhAratIya zilpa kalA paramparA ke gauravamaya darzana isa sthala para hote haiM. pASANa va dhAtu mUrtiyoM, tAr3apatra va kAgaja para citrita pANDulipiyoM, laghucitra, paTTa, vijJaptipatra, kASTha tathA hastidaMta se banI prAcIna evaM arvAcIna advitIya kalAkRtiyoM tathA anyAnya purAvastuoM ko bahuta hI AkarSaka evaM prabhAvotpAdaka DhaMga se dhArmika va sAMskRtika gaurava ke anurUpa pradarzita kI gaI hai. (v) zahara zAkhA : pUjya sAdhu-sAdhvIjI bhagavaMta evaM zrAvaka-zrAvikAoM ko svAdhyAya, ciMtana aura manana hetu jainadharma ki pustakeM samIpa meM hI upalabdha ho sake isalie bahusaMkhya jaina bastIvAle ahamadAbAda (pAlaDI-Tolakanagara) vistAra meM AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdira kI eka zahara zAkhA kA I. saM. 1999 meM prAraMbha kiyA gayA thA. jo Aja caturvidha saMgha ke zrutajJAna ke adhyayana hetu niraMtara apanI sevAe~ de rahI hai. For Private And Personal Use Only

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(4) ArAdhanA bhavana : ArAdhaka yahA~ dharmArAdhanA kara sakeM isake lie ArAdhanA bhavana kA nirmANa kiyA gayA hai. prAkRtika havA evaM rozanI se bharapUra isa ArAdhanA bhavana meM muni bhagavaMta sthiratA kara apanI saMyama ArAdhanA ke sAtha-sAtha viziSTa jJAnAbhyAsa, dhyAna, svAdhyAya Adi kA yoga prApta karate haiM. (5) dharmazAlA : isa tIrtha meM AnevAle yAtriyoM evaM mahemAnoM ko Thaharane ke lie Adhunika suvidhA saMpanna yAtrikabhavana evaM atithibhavana kA nirmANa kiyA gayA hai. dharmazAlA meM vAtAnukulita evaM sAmAnya milakara 46 kamare upalabdha hai. prakRti kI goda meM zAMta aura suramya vAtAvaraNa meM isa tIrtha kA varSa bhara meM hajAroM yAtrI lAbha lete haiM. (6) bhojanazAlA va alpAhAra gRha : tIrtha meM padhAranevAle zrAvakoM, darzanArthiyoM, mumukSuoM, vidvAnoM evaM yAtriyoM kI suvidhA hetu jaina siddhAntoM ke anurUpa sAttvika upahAra upalabdha karAne kI vizAla bhojanazAlA va alpAhAra gRha meM sundara vyavasthA hai. (7) zruta saritA : isa buka sTAla meM ucita mUlya para utkRSTa jaina sAhitya, ArAdhanA sAmagrI, dhArmika upakaraNa, kaiseTasa evaM sI.DI. Adi upalabdha kiye jAte haiM. yahIM para esa.TI.DI TelIphona bUtha bhI hai. vizvamaitrI dhAma - borIjatIrtha, gAMdhInagara : yoganiSTha AcArya zrImad buddhisAgarasUrijI mahArAja kI sAdhanAsthalI borIjatIrtha kA punaruddhAra parama pUjya AcAryadeva zrI padmasAgarasUrIzvarajI ma.sA. kI preraNA evaM zubhAzIrvAda se zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra saMlagna vizvamaitrI dhAma ke tattvAvadhAna meM navanirmita 108 phITa u~ce vizAlatama mahAlaya meM 81.25 IMca ke padmAsanastha zrI varddhamAna svAmI prabhu pratiSThita kiye gaye haiM. jJAtavya ho ki vartamAna mandira meM isI sthAna para jamIna meM se nikalI bhagavAna mahAvIrasvAmI Adi pratimAoM kI pratiSThA yoganiSTha AcArya zrImad buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAja dvArA huI thI. navIna mandira sthApatya evaM zilpa donoM hI dRSTi se darzanIya hai. yahA~ para mahimApura (pazcimabaMgAla) meM jagatazeTha zrI mANikacaMdajI dvArA 18vI sadI meM kasauTI paththara se nirmita bhavya aura aitihAsika jinAlaya kA punaruddhAra kiyA gayA hai. vartamAna meM ise jainasaMgha kI aitihAsika dharohara mAnA jAtA hai. nissaMdeha isase isa tIrtha parisara meM pUrva va pazcima bhArata ke jainazilpa kA abhUtapUrva saMgama huA hai. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AcArya zrI bhadraguptasUri (priyadarzana) racita va sarjita sAhitya aura vizvakalyANa prakAzana, mahesANA dvArA prakAzita upalabdha pustakeM (aba zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobAtIrtha se upalabdha va prakAzyamAna) hindI pustakeM pravacana 1. parva pravacanamAlA 25.00 2-4. zrAvakajIvana (bhAga 2, 3, 4) 150.00 5. zAMtasudhArasa (bhAga 1) 50.00 kathA-kahAniyA~ zodha-pratizodha (samarAditya : bhava-1) 30.00 dveSa-adveSa (samarAditya : bhava-2) 30.00 vizvAsaghAta (samarAditya : bhava-3) 30.00 vaira vikAra (samarAditya : bhava-4) 50.00 sneha saMdeha (samarAditya : bhava-6) 50.00 saMsAra sAgara hai 30.00 *prIta kiye du:kha hoya DI.-195.00/ja.-90.00 vratakathA 15.00 kathAdIpa 10.00 phUlapattI 8.00 choTI sI bAta 8.00 12. *kalikAla sarvajJa DI.-120.00/ja.-55.00 13. hisAba kitAba 15.00 14. naina bahe dina raina 30.00 15. sabase U~cI prema sagAI 30.00 tattvajJAna jJAnasAra (saMpUrNa) 50.00 *samAdhAna 50.00 mAraga sAcA kauna batAve 30.00 *pIo anubhava rasa pyAlA DI.-101.00/ja.-42.00 zAnta sudhArasa (artha sahita) 12.00 motI kI khetI 5.00 prazamarati (bhAga - 2) 25.00 nibaMdha : maulika ciMtana 1. svAdhyAya 30.00 2. ciMtana kI cA~danI 30.00 11. - o For Private And Personal Use Only

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- anukrama .......... 1. kisI ko samajhAne se pahale use samajho 2. A~sUbharI abhyarthanA ...... 3. tumhI tumhAre nirmAtA.. 4. sabake sAtha dostI ..... 5. zukladhyAna kA rAstA : dharmadhyAna ke mahala meM 6. milana aura judAI, rahe sadA nahIM bhAI!.. 7. svayaM ko jagAne kA parva 8. jApA kA pAramAkA................... 9. kevala dekhanA hai... kevala jAnanA hai! .................. 10. dRzya eka... dRSTi aneka... draSTA aneka... 11. tRpti ke tIra para .................. 12. rAga kI Aga bar3I khataranAka. 13. zraddhA kA sahayoga 14. apekSA tairA bhI de... girA bhI de.. 15. bAhara bhogI : bhItara yogI bAhara yogI : bhItara bhogI .......... 16. honA mujha ko nibaMdhana 17. avinAzI ke anurAgI honA ... 18. dekho... magara paradA uThAkara .... 19. saba kucha 'sva' meM hai ... 20. zramaNa jIvana kI sArthakatA .... 21. siddhazilA para jAnA hai . ............ 22. khilA do kamala, kRpAsiMdhu! ........ 23. janma-maraNa miTeMge kaba? 24. sukhoM kI yAda nahIM, duHkhoM kI phariyAda nahIM.................... 25. saMvAditA kI zahanAI 26. yauvana ko ujiyArA do! ..... 27. svamAna samhAlie .... 28. prIta, eka paramAtmA ke sAtha .................... ........ For Private And Personal Use Only

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58 ........80 ........tara ...64 ............... ..........66 .........68 70 ...........72 ..........74 ........76 .........78 .......80 2 ......84 29. sevA bhI sadbhAva pUrNa! .... 30. virati para viraktibharI... 31. zabda sahanA bhI sAdhanA hai! 32. pasaMda-nApasaMda meM se mukti cAhie .. 33. mokSa : yahIM para... abhI! 34. naye varSa kI pyAsa ....... 35. kyA hai pasaMda? kSamA yA sajA? 36. ekAMta : aMgArA bhI... amRtadhArA bhI... 37. AnaMda kI AmraDAlI 38. sahane kI zakti denA mere deva!. 39. AnaMda kI anubhUti kA rAjamArga ................ 40. AvaraNa utAra do Agraha ke 41. pasaMdagI kI 'rAmAyaNa' 42. honI to hokara rahe ... 43. alaga ho atRpti se. 44. para kI AzA... sadA nirAzA... ................. 45. koziza... para kisalie? ....... 46. kucha bhI nahIM cAhie : sivA tumhAre!.. 47. pala-pala badalate rizte 48. icchAoM se mukta baneM .... 49. apane ko kevala mAdhyama samajheM . 50. abhinaya jaba jIvita ho uThatA hai| . ................ 51. siddhi cAhie yA prasiddhi? .. 52. jIne kA tarIkA 53. cala akelA... cala akelA... .. 54. pApa tumhAre khola do ... 55. pahale sthira banie. 56. caleM sUkSma vizva kI yAtrA para 57. akelApana akharane na lage 58. bAhara nahIM... bhItara dekho.. | azApta sa .................. ..........86 ......... 4 .......... .......... ...92 .......... 8 ........ .......96 ............... ...........100 .......98 102 ............ 104 ........... 106 .108 .........112 .......... ...........114 .....116 For Private And Personal Use Only

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118 ............120 ..... .122 ....... ...124 ..........126 .........128 .130 ..........133 .......... P .........135 .. 137 ....... 139 141 143 145 ........... 147 59. bhakti kI zakti 60. 'ahaM' kA vahama chor3eM ... 61. khudA ko khuda hI rUbarU dekhanA hai . 62. lagAva nahIM alagAva rakheM 63. sapane dekho... magara sacce-sacce 64. rUpa-anurUpa kI dhUpa ... 65. dA~va para saba kucha lagA do. 66. karuNAbharI kAmanA / 67. adhyAtma yAnI kyA?. 68. bhItara kA siMgAra karo . 69. jhagar3A dekhane kA .................... 70. yAda karo... phariyAda mata karo 71. aba pachatAe kyA hoya? 72. duHkha kI jar3a Asakti ............ 73. daMbha eka graMthi hai ...... 74. karuNA mA~geM... paramAtmA kI .. 75. mujhako nirbhaya honA hai.. 76. nirdabha banane ke lie nirapekSa bananA jarUrI 77. saMbaMdha jaba zoSaNa karate haiM 78. vItarAgI kI lagana lagAe~ .. 79. anajAna kyA AtmIya nahIM ho sakate? 80. vartamAna meM jInA sIkho 81. jIvana tere rUpa aneka .. 82. Asakti se bacate rahanA 83. mokSa kahA~ hai? kyA hai? 84. ophphoha! ye kyA ho rahA hai? .. 85. vahA~ nahIM, yahA~ dekheM! 86. AnaMdamaya jIvana ho . 87. apane ko U~cAiyoM para pahu~canA hai .. 88. jIvana-saphara AnaMda se paripUrNa ho. .......... ...........149 .. 152 .................... ..........155 ........... 158 ....... ........... 161 164 167 170 173 ............ ................ .................... ...........176 ..........179 9. ............... .......... ............. ............ .........185 ..........188 191 .......... For Private And Personal Use Only

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194 ............ ...........197 ......200 .......... .......202 ..........204 .......206 .208 .210 212 214 .......216 219 225 .........228 89. samaya ko samhAla kara rakheM. 90. pyArabharI cAhanA 91. paramAtmA kA prabhAva .. 92. paramAtmA kI jIvanayAtrA 93. paramAtmA kI sAdhanA .... 94. paramAtmA kI dharma-prabhAvanA ... 95. paramAtmA kA viraha . ......... 96. tuma hI tumhAre sAtha ho .. 97. namana meM zraddhA kA janama .. 98. Aja ke dina itanA karo! 99. khuda ho sone jaise ....... 100. 'alphA ' se 'omegA' taka, 101. samajhadArI kI mA~ga 102. tulanA kareM, para kisase? 103. koI tumheM dekha rahA hai! 104. virakti viziSTa zakti hai 105. tuma khuda mahAna ho ..................... 106. bolI se pahacAnie ...... 107. sabase bar3I samasyA - 'maiM!' .. 108. ahaMkAra aprastuta hai ... 109. bhedabharI duniyA meM kheda ... ................ 110. dhAraNA para dhIraja ke sAtha 111. duHkha ke kAraNa jAna lo .... 112. bhAva kA prabhAva ......... 113. bacapana cAhatA hai tumheM 114. saMbaMdhoM kI buniyAda : vizvAsa ..... 115. nahIM kisI se nArAjagI. 116. aparAdhI ko kSamA .... 117. AkrAmaka para audAryasahita 118. khudI ko jarA bulaMda karo .. .230 zAha ............. 232 .....235 ...237 .239 .241 ....... ....... ...........244 ...247 ......250 ...... ..252 270 .......254 .....256 .........259 ......261 ...263 For Private And Personal Use Only

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.......265 ........267 ............ ...269 ................. .......... 271 119. bolo, para soca-samajhakara .. 120. dekara ke lIjie . 121. abhI Age aura mukAma hai ... 122. badalA lene kI rIta .. 123. kahA~ se kahA~ taka?.. 124. 'yaha bhI calA jAyegA'...... 125. prema 'plasa pAiMTa' dekhatA hai . 126. tulanA ko bhUlanA hogA...!. .273 275 .277 .............279 For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 1. kisI ko samajhAne se pahale use samajho madhyarAtri kA samaya thaa| dharmasthAna meM nIrava zAMti thii| pAsavAle vRkSa para kabhI-kabhI pakSiyoM kA kalarava sunAI detA thA aura dUra se kucha yaMtrAlayoM kI tAlabaddha dhvani A rahI thI... bAhya vAtAvaraNa zAMta-prazAMta aura AhlAdaka thA... paraMtu nidrA nahIM A rahI thii| kyoMki mana kucha maMthana kara rahA thA... mana meM prazna thA, uttara nahIM mila rahA thA! samasyA thI, samAdhAna nahIM mila rahA thA! 'bAta acchI aura saccI hone para bhI vaha kyoM nahIM mAna rahA hai?' mana kA aisA Agraha prabala ho rahA thA / 'merI bAta acchI aura saccI hai - phira bhI vaha kyoM svIkAra nahIM karatA? use svIkAra karanI caahie|' __kyA merA mana aise Agraha se azAMta thA? jahA~ Agraha vahA~ azAMti / tatkSaNa merI vicAra sRSTi meM zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI kI karuNAmaya mUrti ubhara AyI... unhoMne kyA jamAlI muni ko... jo unake jAmAtA the... jo unake ziSya the... saccI bAta samajhAne kA prayatna nahIM kiyA thA? jamAlI muni nahIM mAna rahe the 'kaDemANe kaDe' kA siddhAMta | bhagavAna ne kaI dinoM taka jamAlI ko siddhAMta samajhAyA... siddhAMta acchA thA, saccA thA, phira bhI jamAlI ne nahIM maanaa| __ aisA koI niyama (Rule) nahIM ki hara manuSya saccA aura acchA mAne hii| satya sabako acchA nahIM lagatA! jo acchA lagatA hai... vaha saba saccA hI ho - aisA bhI niyama nahIM hai| ve to sarvajJa vItarAga paramAtmA the... na thA unako rAga, na thA unako dveSa! thI eka parama karuNA! jaba apane ziSya ne satya ko svIkAra nahIM kiyA, kaha diyA : 'jahA sukkhaM devANuppiyA! - he devAnupriya! tujhe jaise sukha ho, vaisA kara!' mana ke prazna kA uttara mila gayA! samasyA kA samAdhAna mila gayA! AnaMda-AnaMda ho gayA... citta kI asvasthatA dUra ho gayI... mana meM saMvAditA pravAhita hone lgii| ___ mujhe Agraha chor3a denA cAhie, mana meM bhI Agraha nahIM rakhanA caahie| dUsaroM ke lie satya kA Agraha nahIM, svayaM ke lie avazya! satya ko pratyeka jIvAtmA svIkAra nahIM kara sktaa| satya-svIkAra ke lie AtmA kI viziSTa yogyatA caahie| aisI yogyatA kucha 'karmoM ke kSayopazama' se prakaTa hotI hai, kucha 'kAlaparipAka' se prApta hotI hai...| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 'Aja bhale hI vaha satya ko svIkAra nahIM kare, bhaviSya meM karegA... samaya -kAla para chor3a do use... jaba usakI AtmA yogyatA saMpAdana karegI, satya ko svIkAra kara legii|' dUsarI bAta : jo bAta bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI apanI ziSyA ko... apanI putrI priyadarzanA ko nahIM samajhA pAe, mahAna zrAvaka saddAlaputra ne usa siddhAMta ko samajhA diyA! Aja maiM usako saccI bAta nahIM samajhA sakatA hU~, koI ciMtA nahIM, satya samajhAne meM dUsarA koI nimitta banegA! aba maiM aisA Agraha nahIM rakhUgA ki merI bAta usako mAnanI hI caahie| kisI dUsare se bhI vaha saccI bAta mAnegA to bhI mujhe prasannatA hogii| mana kA samAdhAna ho gayA! vyavadhAna dUra ho gayA! satya kA saMvidhAna mila gayA! dharmadhyAna laga gayA! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 2. A~sUbharI abhyarthanA saMdhyA kA samaya hai| pazcima dizA ke vAtAyana meM akelA baiThA huuN| ina dinoM kyA patA... akelApana acchA laga rahA hai| kSitija kI ora dekhatA hU~| lAla-pIlA-kAlA ye sAre raMga kSitija ko raMga rahe haiN| samaya vyatIta hotA hai... manamohaka raMgalIlA dhIre-dhIre samApta hone jA rahI hai| mana meM eka vicAra A jAtA hai': 'ThIka isI taraha jIvana ke raMga bhI adRzya ho jAe~ge? mRtyu kA aMdhakAra chA jAegA? kaba? nahIM jAnatA huuN|' anaMta-anaMta janmoM se nitAMta parAbhUta, asahAya, nirupAya... anAtha sA bhaTaka rahA hU~ isa aMta, hIna saMsAra meM! kitanI AkAMkSAe~, kAmanAe~, kalpanAe~ aura saMkalpa-vikalpa ubhara rahe haiM, isa mana meM! kahatA hU~ ki 'mujhe mukti cAhie' cAhatA hU~ baMdhanoM ko! pyAre lagate haiM rAga-dveSa ke asaMkhya baMdhana! mukti kaba aura kahA~ hogI, nahIM jAnatA huuN| ___ mere aparAdhoM kA aMta nhiiN| jaba mere asaMkhya aparAdhoM kI duHkhada smRti ho AtI hai, mujhe lagatA hai, maiM dIna aura dayanIya ho gayA hU~ | maiM anaMta kAla se anaMta jIvoM kA aparAdhI hU~ | apane hI kSudra svArthoM se maiMne kitanI jIvahiMsA kI hai? kitanI nirdayatA aura nirmamatA se jIvoM ko kaSTa diye haiM? na koI glAni... na koI virkti...| apanI dina-dina gaharI hotI isa AtmavyathA meM maiM apane Apako arakSita... azaraNa pA rahA hU~... kahA~-kaise rakSA hogI... zaraNa milegI - nahIM jAnatA huuN| bAra-bAra AtmA becaina ho uThatI hai...| citta kA udvega bar3hatA hI jAtA hai| kyA maiM svayaM becainI aura udvega meM apane Apako ulajhAe nahIM rakhatA hU~? dUra se eka marIcikA pUrNa Avega se khIMca rahI hai| AhA... maiM apane Apase hI chala kara rahA hU~, apane se hI A~kha micaulI khela rahA hai| jIvana nIrasa, jar3a aura cetanAhIna bana gayA hai| nahIM hai navIna tAjagI, nayA utsAha aura abhinava cetanA / mahAyAtrA - muktiyAtrA kA nakzA banate-banate ulajha jAtA hai... yAtrApatha avaruddha ho gayA hai| viphalatAoM ke zUnya kAle dhabboM se A~kheM murajhA gaI haiN| mahAyAtrA ke patha para se avarodha kaba dUra hoMge - nahIM jAnatA hU~| phira eka nayA Avega nasa-nasa meM laharA jAtA hai| asaMkhya kAla se calI AI tIrthaMkaroM kI alabhya... mahAmUlyavAna jJAnasaMpatti ke ratna-bhaMDAra dekhatA For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI hU~... acintya aura akalpita ratna yahA~ saMgrahIta haiN| dekhakara kSaNabhara mukha para muskAna khila jAtI hai... AnaMda kA unmukta pravAha A~khoM se baha jAtA hai| yaha jJAnAgAra... yaha akSaya saMpatti... sabake lie labhya hai| mana AhlAdita ho jAtA hai... paraMtu vikalpa uThatA hai : isa amUlya jJAnasaMpatti ko pAne meM koI maryAdA, koI zarta, koI aMtarAya, koI vyaktibheda, koI vidhi-niSedha...? are, aise kSudra vikalpoM se merA chuTakArA kaba hogA? nahIM jAnatA huuN| nirdvandva aura nirUdvega bana jAU~... paraMtu kaise? yaha prazna bAra-bAra hRdaya ko biMdha rahA hai... pAgala mana kA samAdhAna nahIM ho rahA hai... A~khoM meM se A~sU bahane lagate haiM... sAzru-nayana maiM paramAtmA se prArthanA karatA hU~ : 'he zaraNya! he kAruNya! bolo, tumhIM batAo, merA isa saMsAra se kaba chuTakArA hogA? mujhe kaba mukti milegI? maiM nahIM jAnatA huuN|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 3. tumhI tumhAre nirmAtA koI bhI prasaMga ho, koI bhI ghaTanA ho, hama usa prasaMga ko yA ghaTanA ko dekhakara, sunakara athavA par3hakara kyA socate haiM - utthAna aura patana kI... vaha vicAradhArA, vaha ciMtana hI AdhArazilA hai| prasaMga kaisA bhI ho - pApamaya ho yA dharmamaya, ghaTanA kaisI bhI ho - pApayukta yA dharmayukta, koI mahattvapUrNa bAta nahIM hai| mahatvapUrNa hai hamArA ciMtana, hamArI vicAradhArA! koI jarUrI nahIM ki prasaMga hamAre sAtha banA ho, ghaTanA hamAre sAtha ghaTI ho| hamane dekhA, hamane sunA, hamane par3hA - basa, vaha prasaMga hamArA ho gayA! kyoMki hamArA mana turaMta usa para vicAra karane lagatA hai| __ zmazAna thA, rAjarSi prasannacaMdra sUrya kI tarapha animeSa dRSTi sa~joe hue eka paira para khar3e the| citta meM zuddha-buddha-mukta AtmA kA dhyAna thA... rAjarSi AntarabAhya ugra dharmasAdhanA kara rahe the| magadhezvara zreNika usa rAste se gujara rahe the, unhoMne rAjarSi prasannacaMdra ke darzana kie, rAjarSi kI ati bhavya ArAdhanA dekhakara gadgada ho ge| ve pahu~ce paramAtmA mahAvIra svAmI ke caraNoM meN| ___ magadhezvara ke gujarane ke bAda usI rAste se do ghur3asavAra gujare / rAjarSi ke darzana kara eka ghur3asavAra ne khUba prazaMsA kI, dUsare ne nindA kI! rAjarSi ke kAnoM ne nindA-prazaMsA donoM sunI / AtmadhyAna bhagna ho gayA, dUsarI vicAradhArA pravAhita huii| hA~, dRSTi sUrya ke sAmane hI thI aura eka paira para hI khar3e the| usameM koI parivartana nahIM AyA thaa| bAhya sthiti vahI thI jo pahale thii| Antara sthiti - vicAradhArA badala gaI, dhyAna kA viSaya - Subject badala gyaa| nindA karane vAle ghur3asavAra kI bAta sunakara ve mana se hI yuddhamaidAna meM pahu~ca gae... apane putra ke sAtha dhokhA karanevAle apane bhAI ke sAtha ghora saMgrAma khelane lge| udhara samavasaraNa meM bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ne, magadhezvara ke prazna ke pratyuttara meM batAyA ki abhI yadi rAjarSi kI mRtyu ho jAya to sAtavIM narka meM jAe~ge! dUsarI bAta isase bilkula viparIta banI thI vinItA nagarI meM! Adi tIrthaMkara bhagavAna RSabhadeva ke putra bharata cakravartI, snAnavidhi se nivRtta hokara, suMdara vastra aura mUlyavAna AbhUSaNa zarIra para paridhAna kara - 'maiM kaisA suMdara For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI lagatA hU~', dekhane ke lie 'AInA bhavana' meM gae | vahA~ bar3e-bar3e kA~ca lage hue the... cakravartI ne apanI zarIra-zobhA dekhI, apanI asAdhAraNa suMdaratA dekhakara mana hI mana khUba prasanna hue| paraMtu vahA~ eka ghaTanA banI... sAdhAraNa ghaTanA... jisakA koI vizeSa mahattva nahIM... vaisI ghaTanA banI... unakI eka aMguli meM se mudrikA nikala gaI, jamIna para gira gaI...! kyA yaha koI ghaTanA hai? kyA yaha koI prasaMga hai? yahI bAta hai - ajJAnI kI dRSTi meM jo bAta arthahIna hotI hai, jJAnI kI dRSTi meM vahI bAta arthapUrNa hotI hai! ajJAnI kI dRSTi meM jo bAta mahattvapUrNa hotI hai, jJAnI kI dRSTi meM vahI bAta mahattvahIna hotI hai| aMguli meM se mudrikA nikala gaI... mudrikArahita aMguli ko dekhA... usa para vicAradhArA pravAhita huI... aisI vicAradhArA prasphurita huI ki cakravartI ajara-amara zAzvata aura pUrNa AnaMdamaya AtmA kI agama-agocara sRSTi meM pahu~ca gae | bAhya koI parivartana nahIM thA, vahI vaibhavazAlI vezabhUSA thI... vahI ThAThabATa thaa| parivartana thA bhItara meM | dhyAnamArga hI AtmA ko agama-agocara bhUmi para pahu~cAtA hai| dhyAnamArga milatA hai jJAnadRSTi se| bharata cakravartI ne aisA ciMtana kiyA - mudrikArahita aMguli ko dekhakara | pariNAmasvarUpa ve vItarAga bana gae, sarvajJa bana gae! rAjarSi ne eka bAta sunI - usa para aisA ciMtana kiyA ki jo ciMtana sAtavIM narka meM le jAya! cakravartI bharata ne eka ghaTanA dekhI - usa para aisA ciMtana kiyA ki jo ciMtana AtmA ko vItarAga-sarvajJa banA de! AtmA ko pUrNAnandI banA de! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 4. sabake sAtha dostI kitanA mArmika sUtra diyA hai maharSi ne - 'mitti me savvabhUesu' | sarva jIvoM ke prati merI maitrI hai| saba jIva mere mitra haiN| 'yadi maiM isa sUtra kA Adara karatA hU~, svIkAra karatA hU~, to mujhe saba jIvoM ke prati sneha se dekhanA hogaa| saba jIvoM ke sAtha mitratApUrNa vyavahAra karanA hogaa| saba jIvoM ke sAtha maitrI kA saMbaMdha sthApita karanA hogaa|' jaba maiM isa vicAra kI gaharAI meM gayA, bar3I ajIba sI lagI yaha bAta! saba jIvoM ke sAtha maitrI kaise ho sakatI hai? acche vyakti ke sAtha to mitratA ho sakatI hai, bure vyakti ke sAtha kaise mitratA ho sakatI hai? hamAre sAtha sadvyavahAra karane vAloM ke sAtha to maitrI saMbaMdha ho sakatA hai, paraMtu durvyavahAra karane vAloM ke sAtha maitrI kaise? acche dhArmika AcAravAloM ke sAtha mitratA kA nAtA bA~dhe to ucita kahA jAye, paraMtu pApAcAroM meM pravRtta jIvoM ke sAtha mitratA kA nAtA kaise bA~dhA jAye? sAdhu ke sAtha maitrI aura DAkU ke sAtha bhI maitrI? hameM sukha dene vAloM ke sAtha maitrI aura hameM barabAda karane vAloM ke sAtha bhI maitrI? to kyA 'mitti me savvabhUesu' kA sUtra denevAle maharSi ne asaMbhava bAta kaha dI? azakya bAta kaha dI? azakya aura asaMbhava bAteM karane kA maharSi ko kyA prayojana? lobha-tRSNAoM se mukta maharSi azakya aura asaMbhava bAta kyoM kareM? duvidhA meM pha~sa gayA! kahate haiM ki sItAjI ke pApodaya se rAmacandrajI kA unake prati sneha nahIM rahA / aMjanAsuMdarI ke pApodaya se pavanaMjaya ke hRdaya meM aMjanA ke prati snehabhAva nahIM rahA aura zatrutApUrNa vyavahAra huaa| isakA artha kyA? jisa jIva kA aisA pApodaya hogA usake sAtha hamArI maitrI nahIM ho skegii| to phira sarva jIvoM ke sAtha maitrI kaise ho sakatI hai? jaba dUsare jIvoM ke pApakarma hameM una jIvoM se maitrI karane se roka sakate hoM taba to... sarvajIvamaitrI asaMbhava hI ho gii| aba buddhi Age nahIM bar3ha sktii| socanA baMda ho gayA... A~kheM baMda ho gaI, vicAroM se mana mukta ho gayA... bhItara prakAza hI prakAza dikhane lagA... aura eka bhavya dehAkRti prakaTa hone lagI... karuNAmayI netra aura prasanna mukhAkRti... adbhuta rUpa... apUrva saundarya! koI parama yogI the ve| maiM natamastaka ho gyaa| unake AzIrvAda mile... merA hRdaya divya AnaMda se bhara gyaa| unhoMne kahA : For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 'vatsa! samaSTi ke prati maitrI dhAraNa kara, vyakti ke prati nirvairabhAva! mere netra khule| dharmasthAna meM nIrava zAMti thii| rAtri ke cAra baje the... bhitti ke ghaTikAyaMtra meM cAra Takore baje / merA mana praphullita thaa| mere prANa prasanna the| merI duvidhA miTa gaI thii| samaSTi ke prati maitrI, vyakti ke prati nirvairabhAva! __'saba jIva mere mitra haiN|' isa vicAra meM kisI vyakti kA vicAra nahIM hai| isa vicAra se mujhe apane citta ko, apane hRdaya ko prabhAvita karanA hai| kevala samagratA se saMbaMdha | kisI ke vyaktigata guNadoSa kA vicAra nhiiN| jaba vyakti kA vicAra A jAya, nirvairabhAva se vicAra karane kA | mujhe kisI jIva ke sAtha vaira nahIM hai| saba jIvoM ko jaba maiMne mere mitra mAna lie, taba unase zatrutA kaise ho sakatI hai? ___ mana prazna karatA hai : terA usane bigAr3A hai, terA nukasAna kiyA hai... phira kAhe kA terA mitra? ___ bhItara se samAdhAna milatA hai : koI jIva kisI kA nahIM bigaadd'taa| tujhe bAhyadRSTi se, ajJAnadRSTi se dikhatA hai aparAdhI ke rUpa meM jIva / paraMtu jIva aparAdhI nahIM hotA, aparAdhI hote haiM apane hI bA~dhe hue pApakarma / apane hI pApakarmoM se apanA kArya bigar3atA hai, nukasAna hotA hai | jIva to nimittamAtra banate haiN| mitra ko paristhitivaza... saMyogavaza... nahIM cAhate hue bhI kabhI nimitta bananA par3atA hai| __ maiMne nirNaya kara liyA : saba jIva mere mitra haiM, maiM kisI jIva se zatrutA nahIM rakhUgA... kisI kA kucha bhI nahIM bigAi~gA.. saba jIvoM ke sukha kA hI vicAra kruuNgaa...| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 5. zukladhyAna kA rAstA : dharmadhyAna ke mahala meM jaba usa mahAtmA cilAtIputra kA vicAra AtA hai, taba mana meM eka tUphAna sA uThatA hai| kaisA thA vaha cilAtIputra ? eka zreSThi ke vahA~ naukara thA bacapana se| seTha kI hI lar3akI suSamA se pyAra karane lagA thaa| seTha ko cilAtIputra ke badairAdoM kA zAyada qhyAla bhI nahIM hogA / seTha ne cilAtIputra ko apane ghara se nikAla diyaa| cilAtIputra calA gayA, paraMtu apane hRdaya meM vaha suSamA ko sAtha le gayA / dina-rAta suSamA ke vicAroM meM khoyA-khoyA cilAtIputra jaMgaloM meM bhaTakatA hai| usakA citta 'ArtadhyAna' aura 'raudradhyAna' se jala rahA hai| vaha DAkU bana gyaa| DAkuoM kA giroha banAyA, cilAtI usa giroha kA saradAra bana gayA / usane socA... 'mA~gane se suSamA milanevAlI nahIM, suSamA ke binA mujhe caina nahIM... kisI bhI prakAra se suSamA ko uThA lAU~...' eka dina usane apane DAkU-sAthiyoM ke sAtha seTha ke ghara para DAkA DAla diyA ... cilAtIputra ne suSamA ko uThAyA aura usake sAthiyoM ne dhana-daulata kI gaThariyA~ uThAI .. jaMgala kI tarapha saba bhAgane lge| suSamA ko apane kaMdhe para uThAkara cilAtIputra bhAgA jA rahA thaa| suSamA ke pitA aura suSamA ke cAra bhAiyoM ko suSamA kA apaharaNa jJAta hote hI, ghor3e para baiThakara, naMgI talavAroM ke sAtha ve DAkuoM ke pIche daur3a pdd'e| cilAtIputra paidala daur3a rahA thA... DAkU - sAthIdAroM ko dUsare rAste se bhejakara, vaha dUsare rAste... akelA hI, suSamA ko uThAkara daur3a rahA thaa| usane ghur3asavAroM kI padacApa sunii| vaha ghbraayaa| suSamA ko uThAkara vaha tIvra gati se daur3a nahIM sakatA thA... suSamA ko chor3a bhI nahIM sakatA thA.... kyoMki suSamA ke lie to usane yaha sAhasa kiyA thaa| becArI suSamA... kitanI komala... kitanI mugdha thI vaha... binA virodha kie.. bahatI jA rahI thI cilAtIputra ke sAtha ! cilAtI ne suSamA kI ora dekhA... usakI A~khoM meM A~sU bhara Ae.. kyoMki usane apane mana meM eka bhayAnaka vicAra kiyA thA.... 'mujhe suSamA kA mukha pyArA hai... maiM suSamA ko uThAkara aba bhAga nahIM sakatA..... pIche ghur3asavAra A rahe haiM... mArA jAU~gA... nahIM, maiM suSamA kA sira le jAU~gA... usakA zarIra yahA~ rAste meM chor3a dU~gA...' For Private And Personal Use Only

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10 yahI hai jiMdagI kitanA ghora pApavicAra karatA hai vaha DAkU? apanI vAsanA ko tRpta karane ke lie dUsare jIva kI hatyA! jisako vaha cAhatA hai... jisase vaha khUba pyAra karatA hai... usakI hatyA! hA~, kara dI usane suSamA kI hatyA! suSamA kA sira bA~dha liyA apane gale se...! khUna se usake kapar3e raMga gae.. vaha tIvra gati se bhAgA... nadI kA kinArA AyA, kinAre para vRkSoM kI ghaTA meM jAkara baitthaa| suSamA ke prANahIna... cetanAhIna cehare ko dekhatA hai... ha~satA hai... rotA hai...| vRkSaghaTA meM se bAhara nikalA aura nadI ke taTa para calane lgaa| taTa para eka jagaha usane eka mahAtmA ko dhyAnastha avasthA meM khar3e hue dekhaa| cilAtIputra unake pAsa gayA... mahAtmA kI zAMta, prazAMta aura prazamarasanimagna mukhamudrA ko dekhA... vaha dekhatA hI rhaa| khar3A rahA... hAtha meM khUna se sanI huI talavAra aura gale meM laTakatA huA suSamA kA sira... vaha khar3A rhaa| mahAtmA ne dhyAna pUrNa kiyA... kamala se netroM se cilAtIputra ko dekhaa...| cilAtI ne prazna kiyAH 'kauna ho tuma? yahA~ kyoM khar3e ho?' ___ muni ke mukha para thor3I-sI muskarAhaTa... aura mukha se 'dharmalAbha' ke AzIrvAda! muni ne cilAtI ke prazna kA pratyuttara nahIM diyA... cilAtI ke mana kI ulajhanoM kA... samasyAoM kA ve pratyuttara denA cAhate the... unhoMne kahA : 'cilAtIputra! upazama... viveka... saMvara / ' / / itanA hI kahakara ve mahAmuni AkAzamArga se cale gae.. cilAtIputra AkAza kI ora dekhatA hI rahA... jaba taka muni dikhate rahe... dekhatA hI rahA... jaba munirAja adRzya bana gae, cilAtIputra munirAja kI madhura smRti meM DUba gyaa| unakI prazAMta mukhamudrA... karuNAmaya locana aura madhu se bhI jyAdA madhura unake tIna zabda : upazama, viveka, saMvara! muni aura muni ke vacanoM meM vaha DAkU kho gyaa| bAhya duniyA se mukta ho gayA.... raudradhyAna calA gayA, ArtadhyAna calA gayA... dharmadhyAna A gayA / jo gayA, svAbhAvika gayA... jo AyA, svAbhAvika AyA... suSamA kI sUrata vismRta ho gaI, muni kI mUrata mana para chA gii| mana se azAMti aura udvega dUra hote gae, roSa aura viSAda vilIna hote gae... mana zAMta banatA jAtA hai, halkA banatA jAtA hai, prasanna aura nirudvega banatA jAtA hai...| prakRti bhI prazAMta thii| nadiyoM kA kalakala bahatA nIra aura malayAcala se AtA maMdamaMda sugaMdha samIra... cilAtIputra kI dharmadhyAna kI dhArA meM sahAyaka bana rahe the| For Private And Personal Use Only

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90 yahI hai jiMdagI ___ mana ke krodha aura lobha upazAnta hone lage | mana meM upazama-rasa pravAhita ho gyaa| kisI bhI jIvAtmA ke prati roSa nahIM, risa nhiiN| kisI jar3a padArtha kA lobha nahIM, tRSNA nhiiN| cilAtIputra vivekI bana gayA... viveka-jJAna kA pradIpa prajvalita ho gyaa| deha-AtmA kA bhedajJAna ho gayA... 'maiM AtmA hU~... ajara... amara... zAzvata! yaha deha maiM nhiiN| AtmabhUmi ke Asrava-dvAra baMda ho gae, jina dvAroM se anaMta anaMta karmoM kA pAnI AtmabhUmi meM AtA thaa| karmoM kA pravAha ruka gyaa| 'saMvara' ho gyaa| zuddha AtmasvarUpa kA dhyAna kevala dharmadhyAna banakara miTa nahIM gayA, vaha dhyAna 'zukla' bana gayA | dhyAna zukla banA, AtmA ujjvala bnii| gale meM laTaka rahA thA suSamA kA sira, hAtha meM thI khUna se sanI huI talavAra... aura cilAtIputra ko ho gayA kevalajJAna! ve sarvajJa bana gae, vItarAga bana gae | jisa dina corI... apaharaNa aura hatyA jaise ghora pApa kie... usI dina vItarAgatA aura sarvajJatA prApta kara lI! eka hI 'Teknika' thI vahA~ / dharmadhyAna meM se zukladhyAna meM praveza ho gayA! yadi dharmadhyAna ke mahala meM chipA huA vaha zukladhyAna kA gupta mArga mila jAya... to sarvajJatA dUra nahIM, vItarAgatA aprApya nhiiN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI va6. milana aura judAI, rahe sadA nahIM bhAI! __ jar3a yA cetana, jo bhI mujhe priya lagatA hai, iSTa lagatA hai, anukUla hotA hai, maiM unakA saMyoga cAhatA hU~ | kyoMki unake saMyoga se maiM apane Apako sukhI mAnatA hU~, sukha kA anubhava karatA huuN| kucha jar3a-cetana padArtha aise haiM mere pAsa, jo mujhe priya lagate haiM, acche lagate haiM - maiM cAhatA hU~ ki inakA saMyoga sadaiva banA rahe! kucha jar3a-cetana padArtha aise haiM, jo mere pAsa nahIM haiN| hAlA~ki mujhe pasaMda haiM, iSTa haiN| unake abhAva meM maiM kabhI-kabhI becaina ho jAtA huuN| una padArthoM ko pAne kI vRtti aura pravRtti banI rahatI hai... isase ciMtA aura saMtApa bhI banA rahatA hai| mere jIvana meM maiMne aisA anubhava kiyA hai ki mere priyajanoM kA mujhase viyoga ho gayA! maiM nahIM cAhatA thA ki unakA viyoga ho - phira bhI ho gayA... mere prayatna viphala ho gaye... maiMne gaharA duHkha anubhava kiyaa| jisa vyakti ke prati hameM sneha ho, rAga ho, gaharA prema ho, usake sAtha hamArA saMbaMdha kyoM viccheda ho jAtA hai? mere mana meM prazna uThA | maiM kisI ke badalate hue mana ko nahIM roka sakatA... kisI ke tana se nikalate prANoM ko nahIM roka sakatA... merI vivazatA para mujhe napharata-sI ho gii| mana meM hajAroM vikalpa uThe... zAMta ho ge| vikalpoM meM se ciMtana meM praveza ho gyaa| maiMne svayaM se pUchA : jisa vyakti kA tere prati sneha hai, tere sAtha ghaniSTha saMbaMdha hai, kyA unake prati terA mana kabhI nahIM badalA hai? kyA unako chor3akara tere prANa nahIM jA sakate? yadi yaha saMbhava hai, to vaha saMbhava kyoM nahIM? vahA~ jinavANI sunAI dI : priyajanoM kA saMyoga anitya hai, caMcala hai, asthira hai| tU kyoM asthira ko sthira mAna letA hai? tU kyoM caMcala ko sthira aura anitya ko nitya mAna letA hai? hA~, priyajanoM kA zArIrika saMyoga jaise anitya hai vaise mAnasika saMyoga bhI caMcala hai| manuSya ke manobhAva bhI sthira nahIM hote| kSaNa meM rAga, kSaNa meM dveSa! kSaNa meM rAjI, kSaNa meM nArAja! __ priyajanoM kA sadaiva sAtha-sahayoga aura sahAnubhUti cAhane vAlA mana isa parama satya se prabhAvita ho gayA / saMsAra ke daihika sthUla saMbaMdhoM kI yathArthatA dRSTipatha meM aayii| saMyoga aura viyoga kI akATya zRMkhalA dikhAI dii| saMyoga-viyoga kI abhedya zRMkhalA ko koI nahIM tor3a sktaa| saMyoga-viyoga For Private And Personal Use Only

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43 yahI hai jiMdagI saMsAra kI anAdi-anaMta rIti hai, sthiti hai, paristhiti hai| to phira kyA kiyA jAye? priyajanoM kA saMyoga to rahegA hI, unake sAtha sneha kA saMbaMdha to rahegA hI! saMyoga kA sukha aura viyoga kA duHkha rahegA hI! __bhale priyajanoM se saMbaMdha rahe | usa saMbaMdha ko 'anitya', 'asthAyI', 'vinAzI' mAnA jAya, to viyoga itanA akharegA nhiiN| saMyoga ke svarUpa kA jJAna mana ko prabala rAga-dveSa se bacA letA hai| saMyoga aura viyoga kA svarUpa-jJAna rAgadveSa kI graMthi ko bhedatA hai, AtmA pUrNa jJAnI bana jAtI hai| jaba ciMtana kI isa dhArA meM bahatA rahA, kalpanA-sRSTi meM karuNAmUrti paramAtmA mahAvIra ubhara aaye| unake sAtha unake prathama ziSya indrabhUti gautama bhI upasthita hue| gautama ko bhagavAna mahAvIra ke prati kitanA apUrva prema thA! mahAna jJAnI gautama ne mahAvIra ke sAtha apane pragAr3ha sneha-saMbaMdha ke bAre meM socA hI nahIM thA! saMyoga ko socA hI nahIM thaa| paraMtu eka dina jaba mahAvIra kA viyoga huA, gautama jaise jJAnI puruSa - santa puruSa phUTa-phUTa kara ro par3e... viyoga meM rudana-krandana karate-karate 'saMyoga-viyoga' para cintanazIla bane / ciMtana kI dhArA meM bahate-bahate ve pUrNatA ke mahodadhi meM pahuMca ge| sneha ke sAre baMdhana TUTa ge| _ 'anityaH khalu parasaGgamaH' jar3a ho yA cetana ho, paradravya kA saMyoga anitya hai| kabhI na kabhI viyoga hogA hii| phira kyoM saMyoga meM rAgI banU~? mujhe jaba ayogI bananA hai, to saMyoga-viyoga ke viSacakra meM kyoM ulajha jAU~? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 14 7. svayaM ko jagAne kA parva / ahaMkAra ne mujhe kSamA mA~gane se rokA hai| tiraskAra ne mujhe kSamA dene se rokA hai| maiM nahIM samajha pAtA hU~ ki merI kaI varSoM kI dharma-ArAdhanA se merA ahaMkAra kyoM adRzya nahIM huA? tiraskAra tirohita kyoM nahIM huA? Aja jaba maiM apane Apako dekhatA hU~ - merA rUpa mujhe acchA nahIM lagatA hai| ___ aparAdha kie haiM, aparAdhI hU~... phira bhI maiM kSamA nahIM mA~ga sktaa| mujhe koI rokatA hai...| hA~, bhItara se koI dhImI-dhImI AvAja meM mujhase kaha rahA hai jarUra - 'tere aparAdhoM kI tU kSamA mA~ga le...|' paraMtu maiM usa bAta ko sunIanasunI kara detA huuN| kSamA na mA~gane kI merI jida banI rahatI hai| alabattA, merA zAstrajJAna mujhe kSamAdharma kI mahimA batAtA hai| maiM apane Apako zAstrajJa aura zAstrAnusArI mAnatA hU~ | 'kSamA dharma hai' aisA kahatA bhI huuN...| paraMtu maiM kSamA nahIM mA~gatA / aparAdhI hone para bhI kSamA nahIM maaNgtaa| yaha merA ahaMkAra nahIM to kyA hai? dila kholakara batAtA hU~ ki maine apane ahaMkAra ko una zAstroM se hI posA hai| ahaMkAra ko zAstrajJAna se surakSita kiyA hai| maiMne hamezA dUsare jIvoM ko hI aparAdhI siddha kiyA hai| maiM apanI tIvra buddhi se aura akATya tarkoM se dUsare niraparAdhI manuSyoM ko bhI aparAdhI siddha karatA AyA huuN| kahie, maiM kyoM kSamA mAgU? mere bAhya-Antara aparAdhoM kI sImA nahIM hai| phira bhI apane Apako maiM niraparAdhI siddha kara sakatA hU~ aura merI bAta duniyA ke kucha loga mAna bhI lete haiM - aise logoM ne mere ahaMkAra ko puSTa kiyA hai| kevala ahaMkAra hotA, taba to kabhI na kabhI merA uddhAra ho hI jAtA | paraMtu ahaMkAra ke sAtha tiraskAra kA gaThabaMdhana ho gayA hai| dUsare jIvoM ke prati maiM ghora tiraskAra kI bhAvanA rakhatA hU~| jinakA maiM aparAdhI hU~ - unake prati tiraskAra! bhUla gayA, maiM apane Apako aparAdhI hI kahA~ mAnatA hU~? dUsaroM ko hI aparAdhI mAnatA hU~ aura aparAdhiyoM ke prati tiraskAra karane kA adhikAra bhI mAnatA hU~| zAstrIya DhaMga se tiraskAra kI upAdeyatA siddha kara sakatA hU~ | jo mere vicAroM ke khilApha haiM, jo loga merI khilAphata karate haiM, jo loga merI mahattvAkAMkSAoM meM pUraka nahIM banate haiM... jo loga mere svArthoM ko paramArtha For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI samajha kara pUrNa nahIM karate haiM, jo loga merI dRSTi se dharmaviruddha AcaraNa karate haiM... una saba ke prati tiraskAra, ghRNA ityAdi maiM kara sakatA hU~... phira bhI maiM niSpApa hU~... maiMne puNyabaMdha kiyA, maiMne dharmarakSA kI... aisA maiM Apako bhI kabUla karavAtA huuN| aise logoM ko kSamA nahIM denI cAhie, daMDa hI denA cAhie - aisA pratipAdana kara sakatA hU~ - zAstroM ke nAma pr| jisa manuSya ke prati tiraskAra paidA ho gayA hai, vaha manuSya kSamA mA~gane AegA to bhI maiM kSamAdAna nahIM duuNgaa| tiraskAra kSamAdAna karane hI nahIM detaa| prati varSa saMvatsarI parva AtA hai - hRdaya meM ahaMkAra aura tiraskAra surakSita rakhate hue, kSamA kI lena-dena kA DrAmA (nATaka) karatA AyA hU~... vyavahAradharma ke pAlana meM AtmavaMcanA kA pApa karatA AyA huuN| ___ kauna batAyegA - ahaMkAra aura tiraskAra kI ina duSTa vAsanAoM se mukta hone ke upAya? hA~, Apako upAya jAnane haiM to maiM batAU~gA... paraMtu mujhe kauna batAyegA? ina do vAsanAoM se mukta hue binA kSamAdharma ke AdAna-pradAna kA yaha mahAparva mere lie Atmazuddhi kA parva nahIM bana sakatA - bhale maiM cautha kI saMvatsarI karU~ yA paMcamI kI karU~! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI khA. jIvana kI paribhASA __ mAnava jIvana kA anurodha hai anaMta aura akhaMDa kI ora Age bddh'naa| jabaki vartamAna jIvana kI paribhASA ho gaI hai kevala saMgharSa! svArthoM ke lie saMgharSa! mAna aura tRSNA ke lie saMgharSa! usameM uddezya hai kevala apane tuccha pArthiva svArtha aura ahaMkAra kI tuSTi! varSA hone ke pazcAt rAtri kI nIravatA ciMtana ko gahana banA rahI thii| saMsAra ke bhinna-bhinna kSetroM para dRSTi daur3a rahI thii| khoja rahI thI merI dRSTi dharma kA zAsana / kahA~ hai dharma kA zAsana? sarvatra AtaMka kA zAsana hai| svArthoM aura ahaMkAroM kA saMgaThana hai| kahA~ hai Atmahita aura AtmarakSA kI bhAvanA? kahA~ hai jIvamAtra ke prati maitrI aura karuNA kI pavitra kAmanA? lupta ho gae haiM nyAya-anyAya, nIti-anIti aura puNya-pApa ke bheda | gupta par3e haiM dharma, yoga aura adhyAtma ke gahana rahasya / hRdaya meM eka tIvra vedanA aura gaharI vyathA-sI hone lgii| jaba dharmakSetra meM bhI... dekhatA hU~ - oha! kyA yaha bhI ho sakatA hai sAdhu kA rUpa? saMta kA rUpa? kyoM nirdayatApUrvaka apane hI bhAvaprANoM kI hatyA kara rahA hai? kyA hai isakA prayojana? kucha sabala puruSoM kI mahattvAkAMkSAoM aura mAna-tRSNA kI tRpti ke lie ajJAnI aura vivaza jIvoM kA itanA nirmama prapIr3ana kyoM? manuSya ke jJAna-vijJAna, puNya-vaibhava... tapa-japa, usakI sAdhanA-ArAdhanA kA kyA yahI zreSTha rUpa hai? jaba vartamAna dharmakSetra meM pravartamAna gatividhiyoM ko dekhatA hU~ to apanI A~khoM meM lajjA, mana meM karuNA, AtmA meM glAni aura santApa ubhara Ate haiN| ___ cAhe dharmazAstroM kA pANDitya kyoM na ho, bhale hI vAcaspati ko parAjita karanevAlI vAkpaTutA ho, bhale hI kAyA ko jarjarita karanevAlI ugra tapazcaryA ho... paraMtu karanA kyA hai? bhautika zaktiyoM aura vibhUtiyoM para apanA prabhutva sthApita karanA hai| ve nahIM jAnate haiM ki svayaM hI una jar3a zaktiyoM ke dAsa ho gae haiN| apane hI AtmanAza ko ve apanA AtmavikAsa samajhane kI bhrAnti meM par3e haiN| isa aparAdha kA unmUlana karanA hogaa| kyA yaha choTA aparAdha hai? dharmakSetra meM kleza, saMtApa, azAMti aura kolAhala kaise nibhAyA jA sakatA hai? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 17 mana kSubdha aura caMcala bana gayA / nahIM, Aveza aura cunautI ko jhalakane nahIM denA hai ! to kyA bAhara kI cher3achAr3a athavA kaTutA kI avajJA kara usake sammukha sarvathA mauna rahanA hai ? mAnavajIvana... ati alpakAlIna mAnavajIvana kA carama uddezya kyA hai ? ziva, acala, anaMta... avyAbAdha siddhigati ko prApta karanA, yahI na? taba to mujhe bhItara meM hI dekhanA hogA / bhItara meM jo zAzvata birAjamAna hai usakA lagAtAra sannidhAna karanA hogA / vahA~ nahIM hai nirbalatA, nahIM hai zoSaNa! vahA~ nahIM hai ApAdhApI, nahIM hai chInA-jhapaTI ! vahA~ hai bAhya jagata se mukta paramAnanda kA anaMta anubhava ! rAta kI gahana aura gambhIra zAMti meM eka pracchanna paraMtu mRdu ... komala svara havA meM gU~jatA huA sunAyI detA hai: 'Atman! amiTa ullAsa apane hRdaya meM bharakara Age clo| saMsAra aisA hI hai... duHkharUpa ! anAdi aura anaMta hai| saMsAra kA kabhI bhI aMta nahIM, tumhArA khuda kA aMta karo! tumhAre sAMsArika virUpa kA aMta kro| tumhAre vizuddha svarUpa kA prAraMbha karo... vaha anaMta hogA / mokSamArga kI sAdhanA vyaktiniSTha sAdhanA hai, samaSTigata sAdhanA nahIM / tumheM apanA zuddha AtmasvarUpa pAnA hai ? to bAhya - Antara visaMvAdoM se mukta raho / jIvana meM saMvAditA sthApita karo / saMgharSa nahIM, zAMti ko jIvana kI paribhASA bnaao|' kaisI divya dhvani!! AnaMda kI eka apratihata dhArA meM merA sArA vaiSamya baha gyaa| hRdaya Azvasta ho gayA... aura na jAne kaba maiM gaharI nIMda meM so gayA / For Private And Personal Use Only

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18 yahI hai jiMdagI ba9. kevala dekhanA hai... kevala jAnanA hai! sirpha jJAtA, sirpha dRSTA kaba banU~gA? jAnane meM rAga-dveSa na hoM, dekhane meM rAga-dveSa na hoM, aisI AtmadazA kaba prApta hogI? yaha asaMbhava bAta to nahIM hai! kyoMki aisA jAnane ko milA hai ki anaMta AtmAe~ aisI ho gaI haiM ki jo kevala jJAtA aura dRSTA thii| vartamAna meM bhI eka pradeza aisA hai - 'mahAvideha' usakA nAma hai| zAstroM meM, prAcInatama graMthoM meM 'mahAvideha' kSetra kA nAma aura vahA~ kI bhaugolika, zArIrika, mAnasika, AdhyAtmika paristhitiyoM kA varNana bhI par3hane ko milA hai| vahA~ usa 'mahAvideha' ke pradeza meM bhI aise lAkhoM puruSa haiM jo kevala jJAtA aura dRSTA haiN| unake jJAna meM, unake darzana meM nahIM hotA hai rAga, nahIM hotA hai dveSa / yaha jAnatA hU~ ki merI AtmA anaMta-anaMta janmoM se rAga aura dveSa karatI AyI hai| rAga karanA, dveSa karanA mere lie sahaja aura svAbhAvika sA ho gayA hai| kabhI aisA vicAra A jAtA hai - rAga bhI na karU~ aura dveSa bhI na karU~, to karU~ kyA? mana ke lie tIsarA bhAva kauna-sA hai? paraMtu isakA samAdhAna to kabhI kA mila gayA hai| binA rAga kie, maiMne kucha kSaNoM ke lie dekhA hai - jAnA bhI hai| vaise binA dveSa kie bhI maiMne dekhane kA aura jAnane kA anubhava kiyA hai| paraMtu kucha kSaNoM ke lie hI! aisA anubhava dIrghakAla taka nahIM TikatA hai| rAga-dveSa A hI jAte haiN| 'kevala jJAtA aura dRSTA banane meM nIrasatA nahIM hai, nirAnanda nahIM hai, balki pUrNAnanda kI anubhUti vahA~ hotI hai| saMpUrNa rasAnubhUti vahA~ hotI hai| usa sarvocca Atmasthiti meM hI yaha anubhUti saMbhava hai|' maiMne jaba isa parama satya ko jAnA, merA mana tar3apa uThA - 'maiM kaba aise pUrNAnaMda kI anubhUti karU~gA? mujhe pUrNAnaMda hI caahie| aisA AnaMda jo kabhI apUrNa na ho! kabhI khAlI na ho! mujhe aisI rasAnubhUti cAhie jo kabhI nIrasatA ko mere pAsa Ane bhI na de, maiM svayaM rasamaya bana jaauuN|' ___ atIta meM bhI aise pUrNa jJAtA, pUrNa dRSTA uttama puruSa ho gae haiM, jinhoMne atIta aura vartamAna ke sAtha anAgata kAla ko bhI dekhA thA, jAnA thaa| unakA jo anAgata kA darzana thA, anAgata kA jJAna thA, vahI Aja hamArA vartamAna hai! vartamAna meM jo kucha ho rahA hai, hamAre lie bhale vaha nayA ho, unakI jJAnadRSTi For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI meM saba kucha dikha cukA hai| anaMta kAla pUrva Aja kA hamArA vartamAna dikhA huA hai| unhoMne pUrNa jJAna meM jo dekhA thA, jo jAnA thA, vahI Aja hama kara rahe haiM! __taba mujhe jJAta huA ki maiM jo Aja likha rahA hU~, jo kucha bola rahA hU~ - kucha bhI nayA nahIM hai! anaMta kAla pUrva usa pUrNa jJAna meM yaha dikhA huA hai! yaha bolA huA hai! eka akSara bhI nayA nahIM... eka zabda bhI nayA nahIM! are hA~, merA ciMtana-manana bhI nayA nahIM! Aja maiM jo kucha socatA hU~, manana karatA hU~, vaha bhI anaMtakAla pUrva usa pUrNa jJAna meM socA huA hI hai, manana kiyA huA hI hai| pUrNa jJAna... anaMta jJAna... sirpha jJAtRtva-sirpha dRSTatva! na koI rAga, na koI dveSa, na koI moha! carAcara vizva ko dekhanA va jAnanA! vizva ke sabhI dravya, dravyoM ke sabhI atIta-anAgata aura vartamAna ke paryAya... eka-eka dravya ke anaMta-anaMta paryAya! jAno aura dekho! anaMtakAla taka jAnate raho, dekhate raho... koI udvega nahIM, koI viSAda nahIM! saMpUrNa AnaMda kI satata anubhUti! kaba aisI AtmadazA prApta hogI? rAgayukta darzana, rAgayukta jJAna kaba miTegA? samagra vizva ko jAnanA hai, sabhI dravya aura dravyoM ke sabhI paryAya jAnane haiM, dekhane haiM... pratyakSa! kaba aisI durlabha... adbhuta... anupama kSaNa AegI, nahIM jAnatA hU~| kaise jAne? rAgadazA, dveSadazA jAnane hI nahIM detii| aise pUrNa jJAtA aura pUrNa dRSTA parama puruSoM ko punaH punaH namaskAra ho mere! nata mastaka hokara, unakI pUrNAnaMdI AtmA ko namana karatA huuN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 10. dRzya eka... dRSTi aneka... draSTA aneka...3 'dRzya jagata vahI hai jo anaMta atIta meM thA aura anaMta anAgata meM rhegaa| baMdhana aura mukti kA AdhAra dRzya nahIM hai, paraMtu dRSTA hai| dRSTA kI jaisI dRSTi hogI, vaisA karmabaMdha hogA athavA karmakSaya hogaa| eka hI dRzya hotA hai - usa dRzya se eka dRSTA pApakarma bA~dhatA hai, dUsarA karmakSaya karatA hai| __ dRzya acchA ho yA burA, vivekI dRSTA bure dRzya ko dekhakara bhI karmakSaya karatA hai aura avivekI dRSTA acchA dRzya dekhakara bhI pApakarma bA~dhatA hai|' jaba maiM socatA calA... maiM una kevalajJAnI bane hue ilAcIkumAra ke pAsa pahu~ca gayA! unakI dRSTi meM vItarAgatA thI, unakI vANI meM kevalajJAna kI abhivyakti thii| una paramarSi ke caraNakamala meM natamastaka ho gayA... hRdaya harSa se gadgad ho gayA thA, A~kheM harSa ke A~sU se bhara gaI thiiN| darzana aura sparzana se apUrva ... adbhuta AnaMda kI divya anubhUti ho rahI thii| aise kitane pAvana kSaNa vyatIta ho gaye... mujhe jJAta nahIM huaa| dhIre-dhIre mere mana meM eka jijJAsA jAgrata huI, maiMne pUcha liyA : 'bhagavaMta, mujha para kRpA kara batAiye ki bAMsa para nAcate-nAcate Apako kevalajJAna kaise ho gayA? rAga se bharA hRdaya vItarAgatA se kaise bhara gayA?' kevalajJAnI maharSi ne mere sAmane dekhA | unakI dRSTi se kRpArasa kI vRSTi ho rahI thI! unhoMne kahA : ___ 'ajJAnatA aura mohAndhatA se ghirA huA maiM rassI para nAca rahA thaa| mujhe pAnA thA usa rUpavatI naTaputrI ko, paraMtu jaba taka rAjA prasanna hokara khUba dhana na de taba naTa apanI putrI denevAlA nahIM thA, isalie maiM nAca rahA thA...! prAtaHkAla taka nAcatA rahA... rAjA prasanna nahIM ho rahA thA... vaha to cAhatA thA ki maiM rassI para se nIce gira jAU~ aura merI mRtyu ho jAya!' 'aisA kyoM cAhatA thA prabho!' maiMne bIca meM hI pUcha liyaa| 'kyoMki rAjA bhI usI naTaputrI para mohita ho gayA thaa| merI mRtyu ho jAya to naTaputrI ko rAjA pA sake! nAcate-nAcate maiM thaka to gayA hI thA... prabhAta ke samaya maiMne pAsa vAlI havelI meM eka dRzya dekhA aura merI dRSTi khula gii| raMbhA jaisI rUpavatI seThAnI hAtha meM miSTAnna kA thAla lekara mahAmuni ke sAmane For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI khar3I thI... munivara ko miSTAnna lene kA Agraha kara rahI thI, paraMtu munirAja kI A~kheM jamIna para hI sthira thiiN| seThAnI ke sAmane bhI unhoMne nahIM dekhA... miThAI to lI hI nhiiN| mujhe zurU meM to Azcarya huA ki aisI rUpavatI nArI sAmane hote hue bhI yaha muni usako dekhate kyoM nahIM? paraMtu turaMta hI una mahAtmA ke prati mere hRdaya meM pramoda jAgrata huaa| muni kI zreSThatA aura merI adhamatA kA vicAra aayaa| maiM eka naTaputrI ke pIche pAgala banakara bhaTaka rahA hU~... maiMne mAtA-pitA kA tyAga kiyA, kulamaryAdA kA bhaMga kiyA, sukha-vaibhava ko chor3a diyA... eka rUpavatI ke lie! aura ye mahAtmA... yauvana hote hue bhI unameM unmAda nahIM, rUpa hote hue bhI garva nahIM... kaisA saMyama!' mere paira nRtya kara rahe the, ghugharU baja rahe the... paraMtu maiM dekha rahA thA usa dRzya ko| merA rAga maMda hotA gayA, ajJAnatA ke bAdala haTa gae.. maiM AtmasauMdarya ke vicAra meM car3ha gayA / vaha dRzya haTa gayA... AtmA hI AtmA kI dRSTA bana gii| maiM aMtarmukhI bana gyaa| merI AtmacetanA jAgrata hone lagI... maiMne apUrva samatAsukha kA anubhava kiyA...| rAgadazA vilIna ho gaI, vItarAgatA prakaTa ho gii| ajJAnatA kA ghora aMdhakAra dUra ho gayA, kevalajJAna kA pUrNa prakAza prakaTa ho gyaa|' naTa ko nAcate-nAcate kevalajJAna ho gayA! rAga kA pAtra sAmane hote hue bhI ilAcIkumAra vItarAga ho gae! dRzya ko dekhane kI divya dRSTi kI yaha karAmAta thii| kSaNabhara mujhe glAni ho AyI... 'naTa ko nAcate-nAcate kevalajJAna, mujhe nahIM? maiM to sAdhaka hU~... mokSamArga kA ArAdhaka hU~... maiMne bhI aise kaI dRzya dekhe haiM... paraMtu mujhe kevalajJAna kyoM nahIM?' samAdhAna ho gayA! 'dRzya hai paraMtu divya dRSTi nahIM hai| dRSTA hU~ paraMtu darzana kI kalA nahIM pAI hai| phira kaise vItarAga banU~? kaise kevalajJAnI banU~? jaba taka dRzya kA darzana karane kI divya dRSTi nahIM khulegI taba taka vItarAgatA nahIM milegI, pUrNa jJAna prakaTa nahIM hogaa|' ciMtana ke Aloka meM maharSi ilAcIkumAra se hue saMparka ne dRzya, dRSTA aura dRSTi kA divya jJAna pradAna kiyaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 11. tRpti ke tIra para / mana kA kaisA svabhAva hai! kabhI mana ko akelApana akharatA hai, kabhI akelApana bahuta acchA lagatA hai! bahuta dinoM ke bAda kucha ghaMToM ke lie ekAMta milaa| akelA hI thA... saba sAthI so gae the| logoM kA AnA-jAnA bhI baMda thaa| mana prasanna huaa| pAsavAle vAtAyana se anaMta AkAza kI ora dekhA... eka maharSi kA vacana sahasA mana meM sAkAra banAH 'bhava tRpto aNtraatmnaa|' unhoMne tRpta banane ke lie kahA hai| aMtarAtmA se tRpta banane ke lie kahA hai| kitanI gaMbhIra aura gahana bAta kahI hai unhoMne! atRpti hI to azAMti kI jar3a hai! Asakti aura atRpti! jar3a paudgalika viSayoM meM ghora Asakti-atRpti hI banAe rakhatI hai| Asakti se atRpti paidA hotI hai| __viSayAsakti kA kAraNa hai bahirAtmadazA / jaba taka AtmA bahirAtmA banI rahegI taba taka viSayAsakti akhaMDa banI rhegii| jyoM hI AtmA aMtarAtmA banI, viSayAsakti dUra hogI aura anAsakti jAgrata hogii| anAsakti meM se tRpti kA amRta prakaTa hotA hai| usa amRta se AtmA amara bana jAtI hai| 'kaivalyaupaniSad' kA vaha prasiddha sUtra yAda A jAtA hai : 'na karmaNA na prajayA dhanena, tyAgenaike amRttvmaanshuH|' Asakti ke mukhya pAtra haiM kAyA, kaMcana aura kaaminii| ina tInoM kI kitanI bhI prApti ho, kitanA bhI upabhoga ho, tRpti hotI hI nhiiN| adhikAdhika prApta karane kI, adhikAdhika upabhoga karane kI pyAsa banI hI rahatI hai| yaha atRpti hI azAMti kI jananI hai| atRpta mana sadaiva azAMta banA rahatA hai| tRpta mana hI parama zAMti kA anubhava karatA hai| tRpti meM zAMti hai, atRpti meM azAMti hai| thor3e kSaNoM ke lie AtmA aMtarAtmA bana gaI! anAsakti kA apUrva anubhava huA... mana tRpta ho gayA... ahA! kaisA AnaMda pAyA maiMne! kaise batAU~ zabdoM meM? paraMtu durbhAgya hai... yaha aMtarAtmadazA dIrghakAla taka sthAI nahIM rahatI hai| aMtarAtmadazA calI jAtI hai aura bahirAtmadazA A jAtI hai| mana kSubdha ho jAtA hai| Asakti... kisI bhI viSaya kI Asakti mana ko For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI kSubdha kara hI detI hai| paraMtu hA~, abhI merI kSubdhatA usa Asakti ke kAraNa nahIM hai, abhI to bahirAtmadazA kI vivazatA ke kAraNa kSubdhatA hai| aMtarAtmadazA TikatI nahIM hai - isa kAraNa se kSubdhatA hai | sadaiva aMtarAtmAmaya kaise banA rahU~? sarvakAla anAsakta yogI kaise banA rahU~? sarvadA tRpta kaise banA rahU~? yadi isa sAdhanA meM saphala bana jAU~ to kitanI parama zAMti pA lU~! parama zAMti hI to merA aMtima lakSya hai| isI lakSya se to maiMne mokSamArga para calanA zurU kiyA hai| varSoM se cala rahA hU~... calatA hI jA rahA huuN...| paraMtu... 'atRpti kI akulAhaTa aba sahana nahIM hotI hai| atRpti kI ghabarAhaTa aba nahIM caahie| atRpti kI vivazatA aba miTAnI hI hai|' __kaba taka yaha vicAradhArA bahatI rahI... patA nahIM! ciMtana kI madhuratA raha gaI! aisA akelApana milatA hI rahe to kitanA majA A jAya! tattvaciMtana kA amRtapAna aise ekAMta meM, akele-akele karane meM hI majA AtA hai| tattvaciMtana karane meM bhale hI mana atRpta rahA kare! aisI atRpti meM hI to parama tRpti ke bIja par3e hue haiM! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 24 12. rAga kI Aga bar3I khataranAka __ AtmA para rAga kA kitanA prabala prabhAva hai, kitanA gaharA asara hai - isa viSaya para soca rahA thaa| prabhAta kA samaya thA / pUrva dizA lAla-lAla ho gaI thii| hariyAlI se harAbharA vana thaa| sarpAkAra rAstA vana meM se gujara rahA thaa| hamArI padayAtrA cala rahI thii| hama saba mauna cala rahe the| merA mana rAgadazA para soca rahA thaa| aise hI bIhar3a jaMgala meM mahAsatI sItA kA zrIrAma ne tyAga kara diyA thaa| nirdoSa sItAjI kA, lokApavAda se bhayabhIta zrIrAma ne tyAga kara diyA thaa| sItAjI ke citta meM phira bhI zrIrAma ke prati vaisA hI rAga thA! itanA hI nahIM, sItA ke satItva kI ayodhyA ko pratIti karAne hetu agniparIkSA kI gaI, sItAjI ko agni-khAI meM praveza karavAyA gyaa| satItva ke prabhAva se agni-khAI pAnI se bharA sarovara bana gii| zrIrAma ne sItAjI ko ayodhyA meM padArpaNa karane ke lie kahA... usa samaya sItAjI ne svayaM kezaluMcana kara cAritra-jIvana svIkAra kara liyA! sItAjI sAdhvI bana gaI... tyAgI-vairAgI bana kara cala dii| lekina hA~, taba bhI sItAjI ke hRdaya meM... gaharAI taka zrIrAma ke prati rAga chupakara baiThA hI thA! sAdhvI sItA kI AtmA mRtyu ke pazcAt bArahaveM devaloka kI iMdra bnii| zrIrAma ke prati jo rAga thA, kama nahIM huA thaa| idhara zrIrAma lakSmaNajI kI mRtyu se virakta bana gae the| rAjya kA tyAga kara ve tyAgI zramaNa bana gae the| unake hRdaya meM nahIM thA rAga, nahIM thA dveSa / eka jaMgala meM patthara kI caTTAna para baiThakara unhoMne dhyAna lagAyA thaa| usa sIteMdra ne avadhijJAna se zrIrAma ko dhyAnastha avasthA meM dekhA...| zrIrAma ke virakta hRdaya ko dekhA | unake hRdaya meM sIteMdra ne sItA ko nahIM dekhA... sIteMdra ke hRdaya meM zrIrAma birAjamAna the, mahAmuni zrIrAma ke hRdaya meM sItA nahIM thI! sIteMdra ne dhyAnamagna zrIrAma ko dhyAna se vicalita karane ko socA : 'yadi zrIrAma zukladhyAna meM cale gae to ve vItarAga bana jAyeMge, sarvajJa bana jAyeMge, ve siddha-buddha aura mukta ho jAyeMge... taba phira unakA aura merA saMbaMdha isa saMsAra meM kabhI bhI nahIM ho skegaa...|' rAga saMbaMdha kI kAmanA karavAtA hai| sIteMdra kA rAgI hRdaya zrIrAma ke sAtha punaH saMsAra meM saMbaMdha cAhatA hai! sAdhvI-jIvana meM usa rAga kI Aga para rAkha, For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI saMyama kI rAkha DAla dI gayI thI, Aga bujhI nahIM thii| kaise bujhatI vaha Aga? rAga kI Aga sAmAnya Aga nahIM hotI, dAvAnala hotA hai! dAvAnala ko bujhAnA sarala kAma nahIM hai| strIrAga yA puruSarAga hI prabala hotA hai, aisA nahIM hai| pitRrAga, bhrAtRrAga ityAdi bhI utane hI prabala hote haiN| zrIrAma ko lakSmaNa ke prati kitanA pragAr3ha rAga thA! lakSmaNajI ke mRtadeha ko apane kaMdhe para lekara cha: mahIne taka ayodhyA meM zrIrAma bhaTake the! aise prabala rAga-dAvAnala ko jo bujhAte haiM, isa Aga se jo virakta banate haiM... ve hI mahAtmA haiM, ve hI mahAvIra haiM, ve hI mahApuruSa haiN| zrIrAma vaise hI mahAvIra-mahAtmA puruSa the| sIteMdra unako dhyAnabhraSTa nahIM kara skaa| zrIrAma vItarAga bana gae, sarvajJa bana ge| sIteMdra ne vItarAga zrIrAmacandra mahAmuni ke caraNoM meM virakta hRdaya se vaMdanA kii| pUrA prasaMga mere ciMtana kA pradeza bana gyaa| sIteMdra ke prati kucha sahAnubhUti jahA~ huI, zrIrAmacandrajI kI vItarAgatA ke prati hRdaya gadgada ho gayA, unako anaMta-anaMta bhAvavaMdanA kara lii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 13. zraddhA kA sahayoga 'jisa duHkha kI kalpanA bhI na ho, jisa AghAta kA AsAra bhI na milA ho, vaha duHkha, vaha AghAta acAnaka A jAe... usa samaya mana azAnta na ho, becaina na ho, vyathita na ho - aisI manaHsthiti kA nirmANa kaise ho? aisA nizcala AtmabhAva kaise prApta ho?' ___ paira vartamAna para cala rahe the, mana atIta kI pagaDaMDiyoM para cala rahA thaa| vana nIrava thA, pavana zItala thA, nIlAkAza ke nIce paMkha phailAye paMkhI nirAbAdha ur3a rahe the| ciMtana kA mArga sApha thaa| aise vAtAvaraNa meM majA AtA hai usa ciMtana meM, agama-agocara AnaMda kI divya anubhUtiyA~ hotI haiM usa ciMtana meM! merA mana pahu~ca gayA una sudarzana zreSThi ke pAsa, unakI dharmapatnI manoramA ke pAsa / abhI-abhI hI sudarzana usa sUlI ke siMhAsana se utarakara ghara para Ae the| ghara ke bAhara hajAroM strI-puruSoM kI bhIr3a thI... ve saba sudarzana kI jayajayakAra kara rahe the| maiM bar3I muzkila se usa bhIr3a ko cIratA sudarzana kI havelI meM pahu~cA | maiMne sudarzana ke caraNoM meM baiThI usa suzIlA, suprasannA, sannArI manoramA ko dekhaa| donoM ne merA satkAra kiyA, Asana pradAna kiyaa| maiMne manoramA se prazna kiyA : 'maiM Apase kucha pUchanA cAhatA huuN|' 'avazya niHsaMkoca pUche / ' manoramA ne apane pati ke sAmane dekhate hue mujhe pratyuttara diyA / mujhe dekhakara havelI meM se 3-4 devakumAra jaise lar3ake bhI vahA~ A gae aura manoramA ke AsapAsa baiTha ge| maiM samajha gayA ki ye sudarzana ke hI putra haiN| maiMne prazna kiyA : ___ 'devI, sudarzana zreSThi para kalpanAtIta kalaMka AyA, kalpanAtIta sajA huI... Apake parivAra para ghora saMkaTa AyA, usa samaya Apake mana kI sthiti kaisI rahI thI? usa samaya Apane kyA kiyA thA? manoramA kI dRSTi jamIna para sthira thii| vaha merA prazna dhyAna se suna rahI thii| usane pratyuttara diyA : 'prAtaHkAla jaba maiMne unake Upara lagAye gae iljAma ke viSaya meM bAta sunI, maiM kSaNabhara stabdha raha gaI thii| paraMtu mujhe una para, unake akalaMkita caritra para pUrNa vizvAsa thaa| aisA akArya unake jIvana meM kabhI bhI nahIM ho sakatA / avazya kisI pUrvakRta pApakarma ke udaya se ghaTanA banI hai| bAda meM jaba For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 27 maiMne sunA ki unako sUlI para car3hAne kI sajA huI hai, maiMne arihaMta paramAtmA kI zaraNa le lii| saMsAra meM aisA saba kucha ghaTa sakatA hai, maiM jAnatI thii| mujhe jinavacana para pUrNa AsthA thii| maiMne unakI (sudarzana kI) samatA-samAdhi ke lie paramAtmA se prArthanA kI aura maiM arihaMta paramAtmA ke dhyAna meM lIna ho gii|' ___ maiMne bIca meM hI pUcha liyA : 'aise saMkaTa meM mana dhyAnamagna kaise ho sakA? aisI sthiti meM to mana caMcala ho jAtA hai|' 'azraddhA meM se caMcalatA paidA hotI hai / ajJAnatA meM se asthiratA janma letI hai| mujhe jinavacana para jJAnamUlaka zraddhA hai| inake (sudarzana ke) sahavAsa se merI vaha zraddhA puSTa huI hai| aba to... vaha zraddhA sudRr3ha ho gaI! arihaMta paramAtmA ke acintya prabhAva se hamAre sAre saMkaTa dUra ho gae, sAre nagara ke logoM ko dharma para, dharma ke prabhAva para zraddhA ho gaI... aura kyA cAhie?' manoramA ke mukha para sAkSAt dharma-teja camaka rahA thaa| dharma kI acintya-anaMta zakti para akhaMDa zraddhA manuSya ko kalpanAtIta Apatti meM bhI dhIratA aura sthiratA pradAna karatI hai, yaha parama satya maiMne pAyA aura mana se usa daMpatI ko abhivAdana kara vApasa lauTa aayaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 14. apekSA tairA bhI de... girA bhI de... 'sAvekkho buDaDaI' - sApekSa jIva DUbatA hai| yaha ArSavANI hai| bAta niHsaMdeha satya hai| paraMtu yaha bAta jitanI vyavahAra meM satya hai, vicAroM meM viparIta hai| nirapekSa vicAroM vAlA jIva DUbatA hai! isakA artha yahI ki : O vyavahAra meM nirapekSa rho| 0 vicAra meM sApekSa rho| samagra jIvana vyavahAra meM nirapekSa bhAva se jInA hI sukha aura zAMti kA sahI mArga hai| kisI vyakti se, kisI padArtha se, kisI sthAna se, kisI kAla se baMdhanA nahIM! nibaMdhana jIvana jiinaa| yadi isameM se kisI se bhI baMdha gae to azAMti kI Aga lagI smjho| isa vyakti ke binA nahIM cala sakatA...' isa prakAra ke mAnasika baMdhana nahIM caahie| nibaMdhana rahate hue bhI sabake sAtha vyavahAra cala sakatA hai| sabhI prakAra ke saMbaMdha nibhAye jA sakate haiN| khAnA, pInA, rahanA... saba kucha ho sakatA hai| vaise, dUsare manuSyoM ke acche-bure bhAvoM kI bhI apekSA nahIM cAhie / 'usakA mere prati prema honA caahie|' yaha bhI eka apekSA hai / 'usakA mere prati dveSabhAva nahIM honA caahie|' yaha bhI eka apekSA hai| aisI asaMkhya apekSAoM meM manuSya kho gayA hai| apanI zAMti, apanI prasannatA saba kucha usane kho diyA hai| vaise, apekSAoM kA aMta nahIM hai| anaMta apekSAoM ke sAgara meM DUbA huA manuSya ghora mAnasika pIr3AoM kA anubhava karatA hai| aneka prakAra ke hiMsA, asatya, corI Adi pApoM kA AcaraNa karatA hai| isalie apekSAoM kA mUla se uccheda karane kA bhagavAna mahAvIrasvAmI ne upadeza diyA thaa| hamArI vicAradhArA sApekSa caahie| jinavacana kI apekSA se honI cAhie | hamArA eka-eka vicAra jinavacana ke anurUpa honA caahie| isake lie hameM jinavacana kA yathArtha avabodha honA caahie| satya sadaiva sApekSa hotA hai| nirapekSa bAta kabhI satya nahIM ho sktii| jaina darzana ne jo 'sApekSavAda'-'anekAntavAda'-'syAdvAda' kA siddhAMta pratipAdita kiyA hai, usa siddhAMta kA hameM yathArtha avabodha honA caahie| isa siddhAMta kA yathArtha jJAna hue binA hamArI vicAradhArA satya aura sundara nahIM ho sktii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI sAta andha puruSa aura hAthI kA udAharaNa dekara bhagavAna mahAvIra ne vastu samajhane kI divya dRSTi dI hai| sAta andhoM ke sAmane prazna thA : 'hAthI kaisA hai?' sabane hAthI ko sparza kara apanI-apanI dhAraNA ke anusAra uttara diyA / eka dUsare kI... sabakI dhAraNAe~ bhinna-bhinna thIM / parantu viSamatA vahA~ paidA huI ki 'merI hI dhAraNA sahI, dUsaroM kI galata!' basa jhagar3ane lage saba Apasa meM / 29 ko vaicArika saMgharSa isa prakAra paidA hote haiN| dUsaroM ke vicAroM kI apekSAoM kA ciMtana kara satyAsatya kA nirNaya karanA cAhie | jinavacana yaha batAtA hai ki kisa apekSA se kauna-sI bAta satya ho sakatI hai! For Private And Personal Use Only niSkarSa yaha hai ki jIvana - vyavahAra meM apekSArahita bane rahane kA prayatna kareM / vicAroM meM sApekSa-apekSA sahita bane rahane kA abhyAsa kreN| vicAra aura vyavahAra meM isa prakAra saMvAditA sthApita ho jAya to mAnavajIvana saphala ho jAya !

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yahI hai jiMdagI 15. bAhara bhogI : bhItara yogI bAhara yogI : bhItara bhogI karor3oM rupayoM kI saMpatti cora uThAkara le jAte hoM, saMpatti kA mAlika svayaM dekhatA ho... phira bhI vaha cora ko rokatA nahIM hai... zora nahIM macAtA hai! usake mana meM koI ciMtA nahIM hotI hai...! kaisA hogA vaha AdamI! hA~, vaha sAdhu nahIM thA, tyAgI yA saMnyAsI nahIM thA... vaha thA eka sadagRhastha! gyAraha karor3a rupayoM kA mAlika aura gyAraha patniyoM kA patideva / usakA nAma thA zreSThi suvrt| isa vicAra ne merI nidrA chIna lii| 'yaha kaise saMbhava huA hogA? kyA aisA saMbhava ho sakatA hai? mere jIvana meM yaha kaise saMbhava ho sakatA hai? mere vastra, pAtra, pustaka mere dekhate hue koI uThA le jAye... phira bhI mere mana meM koI glAni na ho! uThA le jAne vAle ke prati roSa na ho! hA~, Aja to maiM kaisI manaHsthiti meM jI rahA hU~? zramaNa hote hue bhI ramaNa karatA hU~ pudgalabhAvoM meN| koI merA pAtra le jAtA hai, mujhe pUche binA le jAtA hai, to bhI mukhamudrA aura mana bigar3a jAte haiM! koI cora nahIM, koI dUsarA zramaNa hI le jAtA ho, maiM roka detA huuN...| merI isa manodazA para Aja mujhe ghora ghRNA ho AI.. aura maiM usa mahAmanA sAdhuhRdaya suvrata zreSThi ke pAsa daur3a gyaa| 'zreSThivarya! tuma saMsArI hote hue bhI sAdhuhRdaya, virakta mahAtmA ho| karor3oM kI saMpatti ke bIca rahate hue bhI mUrchArahita aparigrahI santa puruSa ho! tumhArI kitanI uccatama Atmasthiti? saMpatti para rAga nahIM, coroM para dveSa nahIM! coroM para kitanI karuNA barasAyI Apane? aparAdhI ke prati bhI karuNA? kaise kI Apane karuNA? mujhe to apane aparAdhI ke prati tiraskAra ho AtA hai| aparAdhI ko dUsarA koI sajA karatA ho to merA mana nAcane lagatA hai| jabaki Apa to daur3e rAjA ke pAsa aura mA~ga liyA abhayadAna una coroM ke lie| ___ sacamuca, tumhArI kahAnI mere lie Aja pahelI bana gaI hai| maiM antaHkaraNa se kahatA hU~, mujhe tuma jaisI nirlepa AtmadazA hI pasaMda hai| vaisI AtmadazA prApta karane ke lie to maiMne yaha sAdhanAmArga liyA hai| mujhe jinavacana para zraddhA hai - aisA maiM mAnatA huuN| mere pAsa zAstrajJAna hai, isameM saMdeha nhiiN| maiM aneka For Private And Personal Use Only

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31 yahI hai jiMdagI sadAcAroM kA pAlana karatA huuN| isa bAta ke aneka gavAha haiM... phira bhI hRdaya Apa jaisA virakta nahIM banA hai| virakti priya hai, vairAgya iSTa hai... phira bhI rAga aura rati ko maiM chor3a nahIM sakatA... yaha merI karuNApUrNa vivazatA hai| __ Apake pAsa vipula vaibhava-saMpatti hone para bhI Apane 'yaha merA vaibhava hai, merI saMpatti hai, aisA bhAva dRr3ha nahIM kiyA hogaa| maiM 'isa saMpatti se, svajanoM se, parijanoM se aura isa deha se bhinna hU~, nyArA huuN...|' isa divya vicAra se aneka bAra apanI AtmA ko bhAvita kI hogI...| aho! tuma bhogI dikhate the, kiMtu the tuma yogI! maiM dikhatA hU~ yogI, paraMtu hU~ bhogii...| sahI hai na? anyathA itane varSoM kI dharma ArAdhanA ke bAda bhI merA hRdaya nirlepa kyoM nahIM banA? karuNA se bharapUra sAgara sA kyoM nahIM banA? he AtmaniSTha mahAtman! ApakI dRSTi sthira, zAzvata aura avinAzI tattvoM ke prati khula gaI thii| asthira, nAzavaMta aura kSaNabhaMgura tattvoM se ApakA mana Uba gayA thaa...| yahI rahasya hai na ApakI nirlepa AtmadazA kA? virakti aura karuNA kA subhaga milana huA thA Apake jIvana meM... maiM apane jIvana meM inhIM do tattvoM ko pAne ke lie ati Atura hU~| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI ___ 32 . .. 16. honA mujha ko nirbaMdhana 3 baMdhana, baMdhana hI rahegA! bhale vaha baMdhana dravya kA ho, kSetra kA ho, kAla kA ho yA bhAva kA ho / bhale baMdhanoM meM alpa samaya ke lie majA AtA to, AnaMda milatA ho... phira bhI ve baMdhana haiM... baMdhana meM karuNa krandana chupA huA par3A hai| rAga prabala baMdhana hai! dveSa itanA prabala baMdhana nahIM hai / Antara-pratibaMdha hI baMdhana hai, bAhya baMdhana usa Antara-pratibaMdha para avalaMbita hai| paraMtu bAhya baMdhanoM meM vyathita manuSya ko Antarika bandhanoM ke viSaya meM vicAra hI nahIM aataa| 'mujhe aise vastra hI cAhie', - mila gae vaise vastra, mujhe AnaMda huA / paraMtu jaba eka dina mujhe manacAhe vastra nahIM mile, mujhe kitanA duHkha huA thA! kaisI ghora vyathA anubhava kI thI maiMne! 'mujhe to isa nagara meM hI rahanA pasaMda hai, mujhe usa nagara meM nivAsa mila gayA, maiM bahuta prasanna huA, usa nagara se mujhe pyAra ho gayA! paraMtu eka dina mujhe jaba vaha nagara chor3akara jAnA par3A thA... mujhe kitanI vedanA huI thI? maiM kaisA mohamUr3ha ho gayA thA? 'mujhe sardI ke dina hI acche lagate haiM... garmI meM to mara jAtA hU~...' mere mana meM aisI graMthi baMdha gaI thI? jaba-jaba sardI ke dina Ate the, maiM khuza hotA thA aura jaba garmI ke dina Ate the, maiM nArAja ho jAtA thA, murajhA jAtA thaa| 'mere prati mere sahavAsiyoM kA prema honA cAhie, sadbhAva honA cAhie... mujhe unake sneha-bharapUra zabda sunane milane cAhie...' jaba-jaba mujhe unakA prema, sneha aura sadbhAva milA, maiMne niravadhi AnaMda paayaa| paraMtu jaba mujhe una logoM se sneha aura sadbhAva milanA baMda ho gayA, maiMne ghora vedanA anubhava kii| __ bandhanoM meM AnaMda kSaNoM kA, udvega dinoM kA | AnaMda dinoM kA, udvega mahInoM kA | bandhanoM meM nirantara AnaMda kahA~ se mile? bandhanoM meM sadaiva sukha kahA~ se mile? jaba taka hRdaya nirbaMdhana na bane taba taka lagAtAra Antara AnaMda kI anubhUti nahIM ho sktii| isalie maiM cAhatA hU~ ki merA hRdaya nibaMdhana bane / rAga ke baMdhana se mukta bane / virAga... virakti kI mahimA aba maiM smjhaa| usa zloka kA pATha to varSoM se kara rahA thaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI iSTaviyogApriyasaMprayogakAMkSAsamudbhavaM duHkham / prApnoti yatsarAgo na saMspRzati tad vigtraagH|| 'priya ke viyoga kI aura apriya ke saMyoga kI AkAMkSA se utpanna jo duHkha rAgI pAtA hai, rAgarahita vyakti ko usa duHkha kA sparza bhI nahIM hotaa|' maiM par3hatA thA isa zloka ko... parantu isakA bhAva mere hRdaya ko sparza bhI nahIM karatA thA... kaise kare? rAgI hRdaya ko jinavANI kaise sparza kare? paraMtu mere rAgI hRdaya ne priya ke viyoga kI kalpanA se jo duHkha anubhava kiyA, jo vedanA anubhava kI... mujhe yaha zloka yAda aayaa| maiMne apane hRdaya ko kahA : 'hRdaya, tU rAgarahita bana jaa| tU rAgI banA hai isalie duHkhI hotA hai|' maiMne jaba apane hRdaya ko rAgarahita banAne meM apanI asamarthatA samajhI, maiM vItarAga paramAtmA kI zaraNa meM gyaa| maiMne paramAtmA se prArthanA kI : 'he vItarAga! mere hRdaya ko rAgarahita banA do, rAga kI jar3oM ko ukhAr3a kara pheMka do| mujhe aba rAgajanya sukha nahIM cAhie, rAgajanya AnaMda nahIM cAhie | rAgarahita hRdaya kA paramAnanda cAhie | mujha para basa, itanI kRpA kara do| mujhe vizvAsa hai ki ApakI acintya kRpA se merA hRdaya virakta banegA hii|' merA rAga kA baMdhana TUTa jAye, maiM nirbaMdhana bana... oha, merA vaha dina kitanA dhanya hogA! maiM nissIma AnaMda kA anubhava kruuNgaa| mere hRdayamandira meM virAga kA divya dIpaka jgmgaayegaa| merA vaha dIpaka kabhI bujha na pAye... usakI jyoti amara jyoti bana jaaye...| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI ____34 17. avinAzI ke anurAgI honA / asthira ko sthira mAnA, vinAzI ko avinAzI mAnA, kSaNika ko zAzvata mAnA... asaMkhya janmoM se merI yaha mAnyatA calI A rahI hai| isa vartamAna janma meM bhI isI mAnyatA ko lekara jIvana jI rahA hU~... jJAna ho gayA hai mujhe ki kyA asthira hai aura kyA sthira hai? kyA vinAzI hai aura kyA avinAzI hai? kyA kSaNika hai aura kyA zAzvata hai? zAstroM meM se mujhe jAnakArI milI hai| mahApuruSoM se mujhe jJAna milA hai| parantu kyA patA... merA hRdaya kyoM asthira, vinAzI aura kSaNika sukhoM kA anurAgI bana rahA hai? kyoM sthira, zAzvata aura avinAzI Atmasukha ke prati abhimukha nahIM hotA? asthira yauvana ke anurAga ne mujhe becaina kiyA hai| vinAzI vaibhava ne mujhe viSAdagrasta kiyA hai| kSaNika sneha-saMvedanoM ne mujhe atyaMta vyathita kiyA hai... jAnatA hU~ maiM, phira bhI maiM nahIM samajhatA hU~ ki janma-janma ke isa anurAga ko kaise miTAU~? Antara nirIkSaNa meM se basa, vyathA hI vyathA pragaTa hotI hai| isa vyathA kI kathA kisako sunAU~? sunAne se bhI kyA? sunane vAlA kyA karegA? AzvAsana ke do zabda kahegA... upadeza ke pA~ca-dasa vacana sunA degA... parantu isase merI vyathA miTa nahIM sktii| maiM khojatA hU~ aise kisI yogI puruSa ko! jo sthira, zAzvata aura avinAzI parama tattva ke anurAgI hoM... vAstavika anurAgI hoN| jinake darzana se, jinake satsaMga se maiM bhI sthira, zAzvata aura avinAzI tattva kA anurAgI bana jAU~! aise mahApuruSa kI chAyA banakara jIvana kRtArtha kara duuN| bhale ve mahApuruSa na boleM mere sAtha, unakA mauna bhI mere lie preraNAsrota bana jaayegaa| unakA eka izArA hI mere lie pathapradIpa bana jaayegaa| parantu aise mahApuruSa kahA~ mileMge? kaba mileMge? patA nahIM! kahate haiM ki yogIpuruSoM ke darzana bhI puNyakarma ke udaya se milate haiN| aise puNyakarma kA udaya kaba hogA? nahIM jAnatA hU~! asthira, vinAzI aura kSaNika dravya-kSetra-kAla aura bhAva meM jInA par3atA hai, yaha maiM jAnatA huuN| parantu unase anurAga honA, saba duHkhoM kI jar3a hai - yaha jAnate hue bhI maiM anurAgI bana jAtA hU~... yaha merI vivazatA hai| jaba-jaba merA mana azAnta huA... merA hRdaya viSAdapUrNa ho gayA, becainI ne mujhe ghera liyA... For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 35 maiMne socA ki 'mujhe aisA kyoM huA?' maiMne pAyA ki merI azAMti kA kAraNa merA asthira viSayoM kA rAga thaa| mere viSAda kA kAraNa merI kSaNika padArthoM kI Asakti thii| merI becainI kA kAraNa vinAzI snehabaMdhana the! / dUsaroM ke jIvana meM bhI maiMne dekhA hai| kaI Astika-nAstika strI-puruSa mere pAsa Ate haiM, kaI dhArmika-adhArmika vyakti mere pAsa Ate haiN| ve loga jyAdAtara azAMti aura becainI kI zikAyata karate rahate haiN| maiMne jaba unakA manovaijJAnika vizleSaNa kiyA, mujhe lagA ki ve loga asthira, vinAzI aura kSaNika bhAvoM ke anurAgI the! isa anurAga se hI ve azAnta the! becaina the! ___ maiMne anubhava kiyA hai ki asthira, vinAzI aura kSaNika bhAvoM meM hRdaya sadaiva atRpta rahatA hai| kabhI-kabhI tRpti kI DakAra AtI hai, parantu vaha tRpti kSaNika hI hotI hai| asthira aura vinAzI hotI hai| thor3e samaya ke pazcAt vahI kI vaha atRpti! ___ hA~, mujhe thor3e kSaNoM ke lie sthira, zAzvata aura avinAzI paramAtmatattva kA AsvAda milA hai, isalie maiM usakA anurAgI banA rahanA cAhatA hU~, anyathA vaisI cAha honA saMbhava hI na hotaa| maiM nahIM jAnatA ki merI yaha tIvra cAha kaba pUrNa hogI? mujhe vaha AsvAda sthira, yAda AtA hai... maiM apUrva AnaMda kA anubhava karatA huuN| merA yaha AnaMda zAzvata aura avinAzI ho jAya to! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 36 18. dekho... magara paradA uThAkara 3 'dravya' aura 'paryAya' ke tattvajJAna para cintana karatA hU~, to nayA prakAza pAtA huuN| asaMkhya vikalpoM ke babUla-vRkSoM ke nibir3a jaMgala meM se bAhara nikalane kA mArga dikhAI diyaa| merA mana nAca uThA / abhinava utsAha se merA hRdaya bhara gyaa| jinavacana kA yaha atyaMta rahasyabhUta tattvajJAna hai| __ dravyadRSTi aura paryAyadRSTi! ye do dRSTi khula jAe to basa, mujhe dUsarA kucha nahIM caahie| carmacakSu ke binA cala sakegA, divyacakSu ke binA nahIM clegaa| dravyadRSTi aura paryAyadRSTi divya cakSu haiN| jitane mAnasika vicAra haiM, vikalpa haiM, sAre ke sAre paryAyadarzana meM se paidA hote haiN| kevala paryAyadarzana! dravyadarzana ke binA kevala paryAyadarzana se rAgadveSayukta asaMkhya vikalpa paidA hote haiN| paryAyoM kA bhI yathArtha bodha nahIM! maiMne kitane rAga-dveSa kiye? kitane-kitane pApakarmoM ke baMdhana mola lie? yadi mujhe dravya aura paryAya kA tattvajJAna bAlyakAla se mila jAtA to...? samagra vizva kyA hai? jIvadravya aura pudgaladravya kA sNyog| isa anAdi saMyoga kA viyoga ho jAe to AtmA paramAtmA bana jAe! parantu jIvadravya kA yathArtha bodha cAhie, jIvadravya ke anaMta paryAyoM kA bodha cAhie | pudgaladravya kA aura usake anaMta paryAyoM kA jJAna caahie| isa jJAna se hI pragAr3ha mohavAsanAoM kA vinAza ho sakatA hai| dravya kI bhinna-bhinna avasthAe~ hI to paryAya haiN| maiM una avasthAoM ko hI dekhatA hU~ aura una para vicAra karatA huuN| mujhe jJAna hI nahIM thA ki avasthA hamezA parivartanazIla hotI hai| avasthA zAzvata nahIM ho sakatI, avinAzI nahIM ho sktii| dravya kI acchI avasthA dekhakara maiMne anurAga kiyA, burI avasthA dekhakara vidveSa kiyaa| ___ manuSyatva kyA hai? AtmA kI eka avasthA! devatva kyA hai? AtmA kI eka avasthA! nArakatva aura tiryaMcapana bhI avasthAe~ hI haiM | mAnavajIvana ke avAntara paryAya haiM - bAlyakAla, yauvanakAla... vRddhatva Adi / avasthAe~ badalatI rahatI haiM, dravya sthira rahatA hai - eka-sA rahatA hai| svarNahAra kyA hai? sone kA eka paryAya! svarNakuMDala... svarNakaMgana... ityAdi kyA hai? paryAya! jo kucha hameM A~khoM se dikhatA hai, kAnoM se sunAI detA hai, jihvA rasAsvAda karatI hai, camar3I sparza kA anubhava karatI hai aura nAsikA For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 37 gandha grahaNa karatI hai, ye saba paryAya haiN| dRzya jagata paryAyoM kA jagata hai| hama dRzya jagata ko hI dekhate haiM... parantu dRzya jagata kA AdhAra adRzya dravyoM kA jagata nahIM dekhate, samajhate bhI nahIM... yahI hamArI karuNatA hai| ___ paryAyoM se kyA prema karanA? aura kyA dveSa karanA? parivartanazIla avasthAoM ke prati rAga yA dveSa karane kA pariNAma duHkha aura azAMti hI hai| maiMne kaI bAra socA : 'mujhe azAMti kyoM huI? mujhe udvega kyoM huA?' mujhe apanI aMtarAtmA meM se pratyuttara milA : 'tU paryAyoM ke prati rAga-dveSa karatA rahegA, taba taka tujhe azAMti aura udvega hI milegaa| tU yadi azAMti nahIM cAhatA hai, kleza aura saMtApa se mukta honA cAhatA haiM to paryAyoM ke prati rAga-dveSa karanA chor3a de| zuddha Atmadravya kA anurAgI bana | jo sadaiva ziva hai, acala hai, amara hai, anaMta hai, avyAbAdha hai, aise Atmadravya kA premI bn| saba jIvAtmAoM ke prati AtmadRSTi se dekha | jIvoM ke rUpa, raMga, deha, indriyA~ Adi paryAyoM ko mata dekha | dekha bhI le to una para rAga-dveSa mata kara / deha meM rahe hue parantu deha se bhinna Atmadravya ko dekh| dravyadarzana kA punaH punaH abhyAsa paryAyadarzana kI anAdi Adata se mukta karatA hai| isalie maiM cAhatA hU~ ki maiM paryAyoM kA sirpha jJAtA aura dRSTA hI banA rahU~... na rAga, na dveSa! kaba aisA dhanyAtidhanya avasara AegA... nahIM jAnatA hU~! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 38 19. saba kucha 'sva' meM hai AzA hI saMsAra hai| apekSA hI saMsAra hai / sirpha AzA aura apekSA ! koI AzA pUrNa nahIM hotI, koI apekSA pUrNa nahIM hotI isa saMsAra meM! AzA pUrNa hotI huI dikhatI hai... jaise dUra kSitija para pRthvI ko AkAza milatA huA dikhatA hai... parantu vaha kevala dikhAvA hI hotA hai .... vAstavikatA kucha nahIM! saMsAra meM aisA hI hotA hai na! kevala dikhAvA hai... dUra se saba sundara dikhatA hai... pAsa jAne para saba kurUpa lagatA hai| dUra se jo nandanavana dikhatA hai, nikaTa jAne para vahI bIhar3a vana dikhatA hai| saMsAra kA yaha svarUpa una mahAkavi kI samajha meM A gayA hogA, isalie unhoMne gAyA hai : ' AzA aurana kI kyA kIje... jJAnasudhArasa pIje...' apanI AtmA se bhinna dUsare kisI bhI padArtha kI AzA karane jaisI nahIM hai / AzA hI saMsAra hai, jisane karor3oM ... asaMkhya... anaMta jIvoM ko dhokhA diyA hai| sAMsArika jIvana hI eka dhokhA hai / kyA pAnA hai aise saMsAra se ? kucha nahIM / mRgajala ! dUra se pAnI dikhatA hai... pAsa jAne para dhUla ! dUra se saMsAra meM sukha dikhate haiM... pAsa jAne para duHkha ! taba taka AkarSaNa banA rahatA hai saMsAra ke sukhoM kA, jaba taka ve sukha hameM mila nahIM jAye | jo sukha hamAre pAsa haiM, hama una sukhoM kA mUlyAMkana nahIM krte| jo sukha hamAre pAsa nahIM haiM, una sukhoM ke prati hameM AkarSaNa hotA hai| isI prakAra hamArA jIvana vyatIta hotA jA rahA hai| kaba dRSTi khulegI? kaba yaha vAstavikatA AtmasAt hogI ? kaba isa vAstavikatA ko svIkAra karegA mana? isako svIkAra kiye binA mana zAMti kA anubhava nahIM kara sktaa| sthiratA ke binA zAMti nahIM Tika sakatI / saMsAra kI hara paristhiti ko svIkAra karake hI jIvana jInA hogA / For Private And Personal Use Only saMsAra kI vAstavikatA kA pratidina ciMtana karane kA jinezvaroM kA upadeza kitanA yathArtha hai! parantu saMsAra ke avAstavika sukha - duHkhoM kI kalpanA-jAla meM hama ulajhe hue haiN| isa ulajhana meM hamArI dharma ArAdhanA bhI ulajha gayI hai| dharma ArAdhanA kA vAstavika pariNAma hama nahIM pA rahe haiN|

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yahI hai jiMdagI 39 aba mujhe isa saMsAra se kucha bhI nahIM pAnA hai / pAne jaisA hai bhI kyA ? kisI ne kucha nahIM pAyA saMsAra se / mRgajala se jala kisane pAyA ? aba to pAnA hai AtmA meM se / pAnA hai paramAtmA se akSaya aura avinAzI ko pAnA hai / zAzvata aura anaMta ko pAnA hai| yaha pAne ke lie jo bhI tyAga karanA hai, kruuNgaa| jo svIkAra karanA hai, kruuNgaa| jAnatA hU~, yaha mArga durgama hai / parantu isa mArga para calanA hI hai| tIvra gati se na sahI, maMda gati se cluuNgaa| jAnatA hU~ ki yaha mArga bhI saMsAra meM se hI gujaratA hai| AzA aura kAmanAoM ke Antarika AkramaNa AyeMge... parantu phira bhI calanA hai| AkramaNoM se DaranA nahIM hai, unase lahU~gA / jaya ho yA parAjaya, lar3ate-lar3ate marU~gA / yaha to aMtarAtmA kA dRr3ha nirNaya hai ki AtmA meM se hI parama AnaMda aura anaMta samRddhiyA~ mila sakatI haiN| kalikAlakevalI zrI upAdhyAya yazovijayajI ne saca hI kahA hai : aMtarevAvabhAsante sphuTAH sarvAH samRddhayaH / sarva zAzvata samRddhiyA~ aMtarAtmA meM se hI prakaTa hogI / saMsAra se kucha nhiiN| saMsAra mithyA hai| AtmA hI sat hai, parama sat hai, pAramArthika sat hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 20. zramaNa jIvana kI sArthakatA 3 maiM saMsAra ke sarva jIvoM ko kSamA detA hU~, nirvaira banatA hU~, saMsAra ke saba jIva, mujhe kSamAdAna do! maiM Apa sabase kSamAyAcanA karatA huuN| Apa saba mere mitra haiM, mujhe kisI se bhI zatrutA nahIM hai| Apa saba jIvAtmAe~! bhUla jAo ki Apane mere prati aparAdha kie haiN| aparAdha Apane nahIM kie haiM, karmoM ne Apase aparAdha karavAe haiN| Apa nirdoSa haiN| Apake svabhAva meM hI nahIM hai aparAdha krnaa| dUsarI bAta : mere pApakarmoM ke udaya ke binA merA koI kucha nahIM bigAr3a sakatA | kisI se yadi merA kucha bigar3atA hai to vaha mere hI pApakarmoM kI vajaha se! jaba maiM ina jinavacana ko nahIM jAnatA thA usa samaya maiMne duniyA ke jIvoM ko hI aparAdhI mAne, unake prati zatratA kI, vaira-virodha kiyaa| maiMne bhI una jIvoM kA ahita socA, ahita kiyaa| isakA pariNAma bhI maiMne dekha liyA / pariNAma viparIta hI AyA hai| merA hI ahita huA... mere hI tana-mana saMtapta bane, jo pApakarmoM kA baMdhana huA hogA vaha to sarvajJa jAne | kyA pAyA maiMne? badalA lene kI vRtti kA kSaNika saMtoSa! ___ ajJAnadazA meM maiMne, jo jIva kSamA mA~gane Ae, unheM kSamA nahIM dii| maiMne ghRNA kI, tiraskAra kiyaa| aba maiM usa zatrutA ko hRdaya se nikAla detA hU~| saba jIvoM ko kSamA pradAna karatA huuN| itanA hI nahIM, saba jIvoM se vinamra banakara kSamAyAcanA karatA huuN| kSamA kI bhikSA mA~gatA huuN| maiM merI tarapha se sarvajIvamaitrI ghoSita karatA huuN| isalie sarva jIvoM ke prati sneha karane lagA hU~ | maiM kisI kA bhI ahita nahIM karU~gA | jo sabake lie hitakArI hogA, vahI kruuNgaa| snehI kA, mitra kA ahita kaise ho sakatA hai? ___ oho! merA parama saubhAgya hai ki mujhe sarva jIvoM ke sAtha maitrIpUrNa jIvana jIne kA puNya avasara mila gayA hai! mujhe zramaNa jIvana milA hai| sUkSma ekendriya jIvoM kI bhI rakSA karane kA jIvana! pRthvI-pAnI ke jIva, agni-vAyu ke jIva aura vanaspati ke jIva, saba jIvoM ko maiM abhayadAna de sakA huuN| mere sukha-svArtha ke lie kisI bhI jIva kI na to hiMsA karanI hai, na hI kisI jIva ko pIr3A pahu~cAnI hai! mere khyAla se zramaNa jIvana ke alAvA kisI bhI jIvana meM sarva jIvoM ke For Private And Personal Use Only

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41 yahI hai jiMdagI sAtha maitrI nahIM ho sakatI hai| ekendriya, dvindriya... Adi jIvoM kI bAta chor3a deM, manuSyoM ke sAtha bhI saMsAra meM maitrI karanA aura nibhAnA asaMbhava-sA lagatA hai| zramaNa jIvana meM, kevala manuSya hI nahIM cAra gati ke aura caurAsI lAkha yoni ke sarva jIvoM ke sAtha maitrI sthApita ho sakatI hai aura nibhAI jA sakatI hai| parama upakArI sarvajJa paramAtmA ne, sarvajIvamaitrI kI mahattA apane dila aura dimAgoM meM banI rahe, isalie pratidina ciMtana karane kA sarala sUtra diyA : khAmemi savva jIve, savve jIvA khamaMta me, mitti me savva bhUesu veraM majjhaM na kennii|| 'he paramAtmana! sadaiva merA mana nirvaira banA rhe| sabhI jIvoM ke mana nirvaira bane rheN| sabake hRdaya maitrI se, sneha se bharapUra bane rheN| saba jIva paraspara kA hita hI soceM aura hita karane vAle hI bneN|' ___ Aja merA nirvaira mana kitanA prasanna hai! kitanA prazAMta hai! Aja maiMne divya sukha kA anubhava kiyA! kSamA kA AdAna-pradAna mokSa-sukha kA AsvAda karA sakatA hai| jayatu kSamAdharmaH | For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI ___ 42 21. siddhazilA para jAnA hai / pratidina bolatA hU~: 'arihaMte saraNaM pavajjAmi, siddhe saraNaM pavajjAmi, sAhU saraNaM pavajjAmi, kevalipannattaM dhamma saraNaM pavajjAmi...' paraMtu kala rAta jaba nidrA nahIM A rahI thI, sahasA eka vicAra ne mujhe hilA diyA : 'kyA maiMne arihaMtoM kI zaraNAgati svIkAra kI hai? kyA maiMne siddhoM kI, sAdhakoM kI aura dharma kI zaraNAgati svIkAra kI hai? maiM kitane varSoM se zaraNAgati kA sUtra bola rahA hU~? zaraNAgati ke pariNAma svarUpa jo samarpaNa kA divya bhAva jAgrata honA cAhie thA, abhI taka jAgrata huA kyA? kyoM nahIM?' bahuta derI se soyA thaa| cAhatA thA ki nidrA A jAya, paraMtu isa vaicArika AkramaNa ne nidrA ko bhagA diyA! 'zaraNa' tattva para maMthana zurU ho gayA / zaraNa kI pUrvabhUmikA pAI zraddhA meM | zraddhA hI zaraNAgati ko svIkAra karavAtI hai| zraddhA meM zaraNabhAva svataH jAgrata hotA hai| zaraNabhAva Age bar3hakara samarpaNa meM pariNata ho jAtA hai! isa vAstavikatA se maiM paricita hU~, phira bhI pariNata nahIM ho pAyA hU~! jina-jina parama tattvoM ko zaraNAgati svIkArane kA 'kartavya' adA karatA hU~, una-una parama tattvoM kA zraddhApUrNa bhAvoM se smaraNa karatA hU~ kyA? 'arihaMta' kA smaraNa ho AtA hai yA karanA par3atA hai? lagatA hai ki smaraNa karanA par3atA hai| are, smaraNa karane - dhyAna karane baiThatA hU~ taba mana usa smaraNa meM kahA~ AnaMda pAtA hai? calA jAtA hai dUsare padArthoM ke pAsa... jahA~ usako AnaMda AtA hai| pA~ca indriyoM ke priya viSayoM meM daur3a jAtA hai| iSTa-aniSTa kA vicAra karane laga jAtA hai| samajha meM nahIM AtA ki zraddhA kA dIpaka hRdaya meM jala rahA hai yA nahIM! jaba zraddhA hI na ho to phira zaraNAgati kA bhAva to jAgrata hI kaise hogA? 'arihaMte saraNaM pavajjAmi' kyA sirpha rAtri ke lie hI hai? suptAvasthA hI arihaMta kI zaraNa meM? jAgrata avasthA meM arihaMta kI zaraNAgati Avazyaka nahIM? __jyoM-jyoM socatA calA, hRdaya meM utpAta ho gyaa| nidrA to jA cukI thI, maiM uTha khar3A huA / vAtAyana ke pAsa jA kara khar3A huaa| nIrava zAMti thI, azoka-vRkSa para baiThe hue pakSiyoM ke paMkhoM kA kaMpana sunAI de rahA thaa| bahuta U~ce AkAza meM ghanaghora bAdala daur3a rahe the| kyA patA unako kahA~ barasanA hogA...? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 43 anaMta AkAza meM koI vIthI nahIM hai, koI janapatha nahIM hai... ki jisa para daur3atA huA... siddhazilA para pahu~ca jAU~ / jo-jo AtmAe~ vahA~ gaI, unhoMne apane padacihna bhI nahIM chor3e... anyathA una padacihnoM ke sahAre dhIre-dhIre bhI calatA huA... vahA~ maiM pahu~ca jAtA ! maiM abhrAkula AkAza kI ora dekhatA hI rahA... bAdala haTa jAe aura Upara siddhazilA dikhAI de to ...? mana mUrkhatApUrNa vikalpa karane lgaa...| 'siddhe saraNaM pavajjAmi' mu~ha se sahasA nikala gyaa| 'he anaMta siddha bhagavaMta! mujhe Apa apanI zaraNa meM le lIjie... Apa mujhe apane pAsa bulA liijie...|' ve loga hI vahA~ jA pAte haiM jo sAdhaka puruSa hote haiM, jinake hRdaya meM dharma hotA hai| isalie mujhe una sAdhakoM kI zaraNa lenI caahie| unake hRdaya meM jo dharma hai, usa dharma kI zaraNa lenI cAhie... / hRdaya meM avyakta apUrvAnanda ubhara AyA... hRdaya gadgada ho gayA, A~kheM azruoM se bhara AyIM... manasA - vacasA - kAyena maiM una zaraNya tattvoM ke prati samarpita ho gayA...! vaha rAta maiM kabhI nahIM bhUla sktaa...| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 44 vaya khilA do kamala, kRpAsiMdhu . khilA do kamala, kR nirvANa! kArtika amAvasyA... madhyarAtri... zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra kA nirvANa ho gyaa...| sadeha bhagavAna videha ho ge| pArthiva deha ke baMdhanoM se caitanya mukta ho gayA... rUpI-arUpI bana gayA... mUrta amUrta bana gayA...! aba usa arUpI, amUrta... pUrNAtmA ko kabhI bhI janma nahIM lenA hogA... kabhI bhI vyAdhi-vedanA nahIM... kabhI bhI mRtyu nahIM! AtmA kA pUrNa svAdhIna astitva! anaMta-anaMta muktAtmAoM kA saMpUrNa svAdhIna sAmrAjya! usa sAmrAjya meM paramAtmA mahAvIra kA astitva vilIna ho gayA... aba vahA~ ve 'mahAvIra' nahIM rhe| koI nAma nahIM... sabhI vahA~ anAmI! anAmI muktAtmAoM kI virATa duniyA meM kho gae mere parama priya paramAtmA...! prabho! aba maiM kitanA bhI pukArU~ Apako, Apa merI pukAra sunoge, paraMtu Apa mere pAsa nahIM Aoge na? Apa merI karuNAspada sthiti dekhane para bhI mere pAsa nahIM Aoge na? kaise Aoge Apa? vahA~ gayA huA koI bhI isa pArthiva duniyA meM lauTatA nahIM hai... maiM Apake pAsa A sakatA hU~... Apa mere pAsa nahIM A sakate... yaha kaisA baMdhana hai? / ___ anaMta jJAna, anaMta darzana... anaMta vIrya... anaMta AnaMda Apane pA liyA mere paramAtmA! Apa kRtakRtya ho gae.. Apa siddha-buddha ho ge| jo Apane pA liyA... kyA mujhe usa divyAtidivya svarUpa kI prApti ho sakatI hai? Apa kyA mujhe vaha upalabdha karA sakate ho? o parama kRpAsindhu! mujhe to Apake pAsa hI le lo| he vizvezvara! Apake nirvANa kA dina mere lie divya preraNAsrota bana gayA hai| kaI bAra... usa madhyarAtri ke samaya ApakA niraMtara smaraNa karate-karate hRdaya vyAkula bana gayA hai| A~kheM DabaDabA gaI haiM... kyA kahU~ mere nAtha, Apa dekha hI rahe ho... Apa saba kucha jAnate ho... mere aMtaryAmI! merI vyAkulatA... merI vivazatA...Apa kaba taka dUra karoge? Apake sivA merA hai bhI kauna? nikala par3A hU~ Apake pAsa Ane ke lie... mere nAtha! maiMne ghara chor3a diyA hai, mAtA-pitA, snehI-svajana vagairaha kA tyAga kara diyA hai... cala par3A hU~ For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 45 Apako pAne ke lie... paraMtu Apake pAsa Ane ke mArga aspaSTa ho gae haiM.... anaMta mArgoM meM se Apake pAsa pahu~cane kA mArga kauna-sA hai ? bhaTaka rahA hU~.... mere prANa tarasa rahe haiM Apake darzana ke lie... kaba hogA darzana, nahIM jAnatA hU~ / yadi merA dhairya TUTa gayA... merA vIrya khatma ho gayA... merA dIpaka bUjha gayA... to kyA hogA mere bhagavan ? kyA merI yAtrA apUrNa raha jAegI? kyA Apake pAsa nahIM pahu~ca pAU~gA? nahIM-nahIM, aisA mata hone denA / aba mRtyu nahIM cAhie... aba to nirvANa caahie| jo nirvANa pAtA hai... vaha Apake pAsa pahu~ca jAtA hai! o karuNAsAgara! yaha pUrA jIvana hI tere caraNoM meM samarpita kara diyA hai, paraMtu yaha samarpaNa terA sAnnidhya pAne ke lie kiyA hai| terI Atmajyoti meM vilIna ho jAne ke lie kiyA hai| kaba pUrNa hogI merI yaha manokAmanA? kaba tRpta hogA merA pyAsA hRdaya ? Aja merI AtmA ke asaMkhya pradezoM meM spaMdana paidA ho gae haiM... Aja merI samagratA Apa-maya bana gaI hai, mere prANanAtha! Aja mere prANa pulakita ho gae haiM... mana mukharita ho gayA hai... jIvana dhanya ho gayA hai| basa, Aja mere hRdayamaMdira meM ghaMTanAda ho rahA hai / padhAro nAtha, padhAro mere hRdaya - maMdira meM ... aura sadaiva birAjo! banA do mere hRdaya ko siddhazilA ... aura sadaiva birAjo usa siddhazilA para! isako hI maiM apanI mukti mAnU~gA... isameM hI parama tRpti anubhava karU~gA / kara do kRpAnidhi ! itanI kRpA mujha para ... For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI ___ 46 23. janma-maraNa miTeMge kaba? i janma, jIvana aura mRtyu kA cakra anAdikAla se gatizIla hai| jAnatA hU~ ki jaba taka isa cakra kI gati sthira nahIM hogI, taba taka sukha-duHkha ke dvaMdva miTane vAle nhiiN| phira bhI usa anAdi cakra kI gati sthira karane kA puruSArtha nahIM ho rahA hai! janma ho gayA hai, jIvana vyatIta ho rahA hai aura mRtyu Age mu~ha phAr3a kara khar3I hai| mRtyu kA vicAra jIvana ke prati jAgrata kara rahA hai| mRtyu ke pazcAta janma aura jIvana nizcita hai... paraMtu 'janma kahA~ hogA? jIvana kaisA hogA?' kevala kalpanAe~ saMjotA rahatA hU~| aspaSTa kalpanA... saMdigdha kalpanA! jitanA bhaya mRtyu se nahIM lagatA hai... utanA bhaya mRtyu ke bAda kI kalpanA se lagatA hai| mRtyu to kSaNoM kA khela hai, usakA koI bhaya nhiiN| mRtyu to eka anivArya prakriyA hai jIvana- parivartana kii| vaha parivartana kaisA hogA? jaba zAstroM meM par3hatA hU~ : 'marate hue baMdara ko eka munirAja ne zrI navakAra maMtra sunAyA aura baMdara kA parivartana devarUpa meM huA,' mana Azvasta ho jAtA hai| jIvana meM kabhI bhI navakAra maMtra kA jApa-dhyAna nahIM karane vAlA baMdara mRtyu ke samaya navakAra maMtra ke zabda sunakara deva bana sakatA hai... to mere lie devagati nizcita hI lagatI hai| paraMtu jaba dUsare graMtha meM par3hatA hU~ : 'muni ne krodha kiyA... mRtyu ke samaya bhI krodhavAsanA raha gaI, to unako sA~pa kI yoni meM jAnA par3A,' to AtmavizvAsa hila jAtA hai| bAra-bAra krodha, mAna, mAyA aura lobha meM pha~sane vAlA maiM - merA kyA hogA? nATaka ke raMgamaMca para nRtya karate-karate kevalajJAnI banane vAle ASADhAbhUti kA vRttAMta par3hatA hU~ to mana praphullita ho jAtA hai, 'mujhe saralatA se kaivalya kI upalabdhi ho jAegI..' paraMtu jaba ghora tapazcaryA karane vAle tapasvI kA durgati meM patana hone kA kissA dharmagraMtha meM par3hatA hU~, to phira mana udvigna ho jAtA hai! ugra saMyama kA pAlana karane vAloM ko ekAdha bhUla se pazuyoni meM jAne kI bAta par3hane para citta caMcala bana jAtA hai| 'aneka burAiyA~ hone ke bAvajUda, ekAdha acchAI 'vItarAga' banAtI hai... aneka acchAiyA~ hone ke bAvajUda, ekAdha burAI durgati meM le jAtI hai...' yaha bAta mere mastiSka meM ghora pIr3A paidA kara rahI hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 47 zAdI karate-karate hastamilApa ke samaya kevalajJAna! kitanA bhAgyazAlI vo guNasAgara! zuddha bhAvoM ke bala para usane kevalajJAna pA liyA thA! aura kaI varSoM se saMyamadharma kI pAlanA karane para bhI kevalajJAna nahIM! kevalajJAna to nahIM sahI, pUrA zrutajJAna bhI nahIM! mana tar3apatA hai... bilakhatA hai| jaise zuddha bhAva usa guNasAgara ke the, kyA vaise zuddha bhAva mere citta meM nahIM A sakate? kyoM jJAnI puruSoM ne una zuddha bhAvoM kA varNana nahIM kiyA? yadi kiyA hai varNana, to usa varNana ke anusAra zuddha bhAva Ane para bhI 'kevalajJAna' kyoM nahIM pragaTa ho rahA? jJAnI kahate haiM : 'unake jaise tIvra zuddha bhAva Ae~ge, taba hogA kevalajJAna!' vo tIvratA kaisI hai? munihatyA karane vAle rAjA ko usI dina kevalajJAna! aura maiM munisevA karane vAlA... varSoM se munisevA karane vAlA... mujhe kevalajJAna nahIM? usa rAjA ne ghora pazcAttApa kiyA thA isalie kevalajJAna milA, ThIka hai, to munisevA kI acchI anumodanA karane vAle ko kevalajJAna kyoM nahIM? mana becaina bana jAtA hai| mRtyu ke bAda kI kalpanA aspaSTa hI banI rahatI hai| kauna yaha becainI miTAegA? koI aise divyajJAnI mahApuruSa nahIM hai Aja isa vizva meM... kisako jAkara pUcha? kisase mere mana kA samAdhAna pAU~? kSitija para jaba saMdhyA ko DhalatI huI dekhatA hU~... jIvana-saMdhyA DhalatI huI dikhatI hai| anaMta anAgata meM koI mArga nahIM dikhtaa| ajJAta bhaviSya meM kho jAne kI kalpanA kitanI DarAvanI hai! ajJAta mahAsattA ke hAthoM meM jakar3A huA maiM kitanA vivaza hU~! kitanA paravaza hU~ | merI yaha vivazatA... paravazatA... mujhe vikSubdha kara rahI hai| intajAra karatA hU~... kaba merA janma, jIvana aura mRtyu kA anAdicakra sthira ho jAe... aura to kyA kara sakatA hU~? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 48 va24. sukhoM kI yAda nahIM, duHkhoM kI phariyAda nahIM...3 sukhoM kI yAda! duHkhoM kI phariyAda! yAda aura phariyAda meM ulajha gayA hai mana! vicArasRSTi ke kendrabindu bana gae haiM, sukha aura duHkha / apane hI sukha yAda Ate haiM, apane hI duHkhoM kI phariyAda karatA huuN| jAnatA hU~ ki yaha 'ArtadhyAna' hai / ArtadhyAna kA phala bhI jAnatA hU~... phira bhI isase mukti nahIM pA rahA huuN| isa baMdhana meM bhaya aura pralobhana panapa rahe haiN| nirbhayatA aura niHspRhatA se vaMcita raha gayA huuN| nirbhayatA kA AnaMda aura niHspRhatA kI prasannatA svapna banakara raha gaI hai| sukhoM kI yAda meM khyAla hI nahIM rahatA kI 'maiM pralobhana ke nAgapAza meM jakar3A jA rahA huuN|' duHkhoM kI phariyAda meM bhAna (hoza) hI nahIM rahatA ki 'maiM bhaya-viSadhara se kATA jA rahA huuN|' vanavAsa meM zrIrAma kA anusaraNa karatI... zrIrAma ke padacihnoM para prasannacitta calatI huI sItAjI kA vicAra karatA hU~... usa mahAsatI ke caraNoM meM bhAvavandanA ho jAtI hai| sukhoM kI koI yAda nahIM! duHkhoM kI koI phariyAda nahIM! lakSmaNajI kI ora isa dRSTibindu se dekhatA hU~... ve bhI yAda-phariyAda se mukta! unako apane duHkha-sukha kA vicAra hI kahA~ thA? zrIrAma aura sItAjI ke hI sukha-duHkha ke vicAra the unake mana meM! ___ socatA hU~... kaise ve yAda-phariyAda ke binA jIvana jI rahe the? sItAjI ne kabhI bhI dazaratha ke viruddha yA kaikayI ke viruddha phariyAda nahIM kI! are, rAmacandrajI ke viruddha bhI lava-kuza ke sAmane kabhI phariyAda nahIM kI! sItAjI ko jahA~ apane sukhoM kI hI yAda nahIM thI... phira duHkhoM kI phariyAda hotI kahA~ se? apane sukha-duHkhoM ke vicAroM meM unhoMne apane mana ko ulajhane nahIM diyaa| jaba taka ve zrIrAmacandrajI ke pAsa rahIM, unhoMne zrIrAma ke sukha-duHkhoM ke vicAra kie | jaba ve zrIrAma ke pAsa nahIM rahIM, lava-kuza ke sukha-duHkha kA khyAla karatI rahIM! jaba lava-kuza bhI unake pAsa nahIM rahe, ve Atmazuddhi ke tyAgamArga para cala pdd'ii| mere mana meM yaha nirNaya to ho hI gayA hai ki sukhoM kI yAda aura duHkhoM kI phariyAda se hI azAMti aura saMtApa haiM, rAga-dveSa ke aneka dvaMdva haiM | maiM cAhatA For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 49 hU~... samagratA se cAhatA hU~ ki mujhe ina dvaMdvoM se mukta honA hai| kabhI-kabhI aMtarAtmA ArtanAda karatI hai - 'mujhe isa duniyA meM dUsarA kucha nahIM cAhie, mujhe to nirdvadva bananA hai| prazamarasa meM nimagna bananA hai| kisI sukha kI cAha nahIM, kisI duHkha kA dAha nahI!' duniyA meM araboM manuSyoM ko jaisA jIvana nahIM milA hai, vaisA uttama saMyama jIvana, zramaNa jIvana mujhe mila gayA hai| isa jIvana meM nirdvadva banane kI sAdhanA zakya hai| jaba duniyAdArI kA koI baMdhana mujhe nahIM hai, to phira maiM sAmane calakara rAga-dveSa ke baMdhana kyoM mola lU~? sukha-duHkhoM kI yAda-phariyAda meM kyoM ulajha jAU~? maiMne svecchA se sukhoM kA tyAga kiyA hai, svecchA se duHkhoM ko svIkAra kiyA hai... phira sukhoM kI yAda kyoM? duHkhoM kI phariyAda kyoM? Antara-sAdhanA kA kitanA mukta jIvana mila gayA hai mujhe! paraMtu duHkha-sukhoM kI yAda-phariyAda se mukta jIvana ko baMdhanagrasta kara liyA hai maiMne | kabhI-kabhI baMdhana mIThe lagate haiM... madhura lagate haiM! paraMtu baMdhana to baMdhana hI raheMge | baMdhana meM prazama kA AnaMda kahA~? baMdhana meM prasannatA kI anubhUti kahA~? bAhya sukha ke sAdhana upalabdha hone para aura bAhya duHkha nahIM hone para bhI sukha-duHkha ke vicAra citta ko azAMta hI banAe rakhate haiN| he paramAtman! mujhe sukhoM kI yAda se mukta kara de| duHkhoM kI phariyAda se mukta kara de| basa, mere Upara itanI kRpA kara de, itanI kRpA kara dI to mujhe saba kucha mila gyaa| yadi mujhe aisI mukti nahIM milI to merI apAtratA para A~sU bahAU~gA...! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 50 25. saMvAditA kI zahanAI kyA vyartha vivAdoM meM hI jIvanayAtrA samApta ho jAegI ? bAhya jagata meM vivAda aura Antara jagata meM bhI vivAda ! saMvAda kahA~ hai ? bAhya jagata meM saMvAditA ho hI nahIM sktii| jagata yAnI visaMvAda ! sarvatra vivAda ke Dhola baja rahe haiM aura asaMkhya manuSya usa Dhola ke sAtha nAca rahe haiM! hara bAta meM vivAda ! vivAda karanA aura vijayI honA ... dUsaroM ko parAjita karanA... basa, isI meM AnaMda, isI meM santoSa ! khaira, duniyA meM aisA calatA AyA hai aura calatA rahegA, parantu dharmakSetra meM bhI vaisI hI vikRta manovRtti ? dharmazAstroM ko lekara bhI vivAda ? kaba taka ye sAre vivAda hote raheMge? kabhI aMta nahIM AegA? eka vivAda miTA ki dUsarA vivAda paidA huA hI samajho! kyA manuSya-svabhAva hI aisA hai ? saMvAda mAnava svabhAva nahIM hai ? kabhI kisI ko kahate hue sunatA hU~ : 'yaha vivAda sulajha jAe to samAja meM zAMti sthApita ho jAe... parivAra meM zAMti ho jAe...' mujhe ha~sI AtI hai| jisako vivAda meM hI majA AtA hai, ve saMvAda pasaMda nahIM kreNge| 'vAda-prativAda se tattvanirNaya nahIM ho sakatA hai,' aisA bolanevAloM ko bhI vAda-prativAda se hI tattvanirNaya karane kI jida karate hue dekhatA hU~, taba mana stabdha ho jAtA hai| ve becAre tattva hI nahIM samajhate haiM, phira nirNaya kisakA kareMge? atattva ko tattva samajhakara nirantara vivAda karate rahate haiM / 'ahaM' ko puSTa karate hue ghora azAMti ke zikAra bana jAte haiM / vivAda meM azAMti hai, saMvAda meM zAMti hai ! kisako samajhAU~ yaha parama satya ? hA~, merA mana mAna le yaha satya, to bhI bahuta hai / hai / merA mana bhI to vivAdapriya bana gayA hai! saMvAda ko vivAda se sthApita karane calA hU~! kaise saMbhava hogA? saMvAda ke lie vivAda karanA Avazyaka nahIM hai / dUsaroM kA vivAda miTAne ke lie bhI vivAda jarUrI nahIM hai! For Private And Personal Use Only aMtaHkaraNa bhI kaisA vivAdagrasta ho gayA hai... aMtarvRttiyoM kA vivAda ! aMtardvadvoM kA vivAda ! kaise samarasa kI prApti karU~ ? vivAdagrasta aMtaHkaraNa meM paramAtmA kI pratiSThA nahIM hotI hai / paramAtmA kI pratiSThA hotI hai, saMvAditA

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yahI hai jiMdagI se surabhita aMtaHkaraNa meN| paramAtmA kI pratiSThA ho jAe, to hI samarasa kI prApti hogI, anyathA nhiiN| paramAmRta kA AsvAda tabhI ho sakatA hai| sirpha mandiroM meM paramAtma-pratimA kI pratiSThA karane se AtmabhAva nirmala nahIM banate, AtmA meM saMvAditA kI zahanAI nahIM bjtii| manomaMdira meM saMvAda kI pratiSThA honI caahie| vivAda... visaMvAda kA kitanA ghRNAspada zora macA hai? vivAdajanya vijaya kA unmAda... vivAdajanya parAjaya kA karuNa krandana...| harSa aura viSAda ke viSacakra meM pha~sa gayA hai merA mana | kaba mukta hogA mana isa viSacakra se...? kAla avirata gati se vyatIta ho rahA hai... mAnavajIvana kA samaya druta gati se nikala rahA hai| ___aMtarAtmA saMvAda cAhatI hai| saMvAditA kI cAha hai aMtarAtmA ko| parantu vAsanAvAsita mana vivAda meM ulajha rahA hai, yaha bhI visaMvAda hai na! Antara saMgharSa! bhale saMgharSa calatA rahe, saMgharSa kA pariNAma yadi saMvAditA meM A jAya to basa! indriyA~ zAnta ho jAe aura mana prazAnta ho jAe to saMvAda hI saMvAda hai| prazAnta mana meM paramAtmA kA pratibimba par3atA hai, zAnta indriyA~ usa pratibimba meM keMdrita hotI haiM... taba apUrva samatva kI upalabdhi hotI hai| paramAtmA kI vItarAgatA aura sarvajJatA jaba mana ko bhA jAtI hai... taba sahaja rUpa se paramAtmA kA manomandira meM padArpaNa ho jAtA hai| paramAtmA kA padArpaNa hone para koI vivAda nahIM rahatA, koI visaMvAda nahIM rhtaa| maiM to itanA samajhatA hU~ ki manuSya ke manomaMdira meM paramAtmatattva kI sthApanA hue binA saMvAda kI zahanAI nahIM baja sktii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 52 26. yauvana ko ujiyArA do! i yauvana! kyA yauvana abhizapta hai? unmAda, auddhatya aura avicAritA ne yauvana ko ghera liyA hai| jo yauvana isa pracaMDa ghirAva se baca gayA hai vaha yauvana AzIrvAdarUpa hotA hai| AzIrvAdarUpa yauvana ko kahA~ jAkara khocU~? __ pA~coM indriyA~ unmatta banakara tAMDava nRtya kara rahI haiM... usa bhISaNa tAMDava nRtya meM kaisA DarAvanA vinAza ho rahA hai... pavitratA naSTa ho rahI hai, prasannatA naSTa ho rahI hai| apanI zAMti kA nAza, dUsaroM kI zAMti kA nAza... unmatta yauvana vinAza kA DamarU bajAtA huA avirata nAca rahA hai| isa vinAza-nRtya meM parivAra, samAja aura rASTra sammilita ho gaye haiM... are, vizvamAnava sammilita ho gayA hai... bahuta thor3e loga prekSaka banakara dekha rahe haiM... kauna isa bhISaNa nRtya ko roke? jo rokane kI bAlaceSTA karane jAtA hai... vaha bhI usa nRtya meM zAmila ho jAtA hai| zabda, rUpa, rasa, gaMdha aura sparza ke asaMkhya viSayoM kA pracchanna aura prakaTa bhoga-upabhoga yauvana ko pratikSaNa unmatta banA rahA hai| unmAda ke sAtha auddhatya hI mitratA karatA hai, aucitya nhiiN| abhizapta yauvana ke sAtha aucitya kI mitratA ho hI nahIM sktii| yauvana se Aja vinaya, namratA aura zAlInatA kI AzA karanA vyartha dikhAI detA hai| pArivArika jIvana-vyavasthA meM se vinaya sthAnabhraSTa huA hai| namratA kA koI sthAna nahIM rahA aura zAlInatA svapna bana gaI hai| sAmAjika jIvana-paddhati meM auddhatya praviSTa ho gayA hai| jJAnI aura anubhavI puruSoM kA anAdara ho rahA hai| 'bahumata' aura 'alpamata' ke bhUtoM ne samAja ko grasita kara liyA hai| ajJAnI aura anubhavavihIna logoM kA bahumata ho gayA hai| aise samAja meM aucityapUrNa vyavahAra kaise ho sakatA hai? unmatta yauvana kA auddhatya samAja meM azAMti, kalaha aura vaimanasya phailA rahA hai| unmatta hRdaya meM aucitya ke vicAra jAgrata hI nahIM ho sakate / auddhatya upakArI-paropakArI puruSoM kA anAdara karatA hai| isase 'upakAra-tattva' kA hrAsa ho rahA hai| upakAra kI pratiSThA TUTatI jA rahI suvicAra, dIrghadRSTi kA vicAra... AtmalakSI vicAra... unmatta yauvana meM aba dekhane ko nahIM milegA / zAnta aura svastha yauvana meM hI suvicAra ho sakatA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 53 saMyamI yauvana ke pAsa hI dIrgha dRSTi ho sakatI hai| jJAnapUta yauvana meM hI AtmalakSI vicAradhArA baha sakatI hai / yauvana ke sAtha avicAritA saMbaddha ho gaI hai| T yuvAna Aja apane svayaM ke bhAvI jIvana kA bhI vicAra kahA~ kara rahA hai? apane Arogya kA, apanI zAMti kA, apanI pavitratA kA vicAra kahA~ kara rahA hai? pAralaukika jIvana kI to usako kalpanA bhI nahIM hai / Atmazuddhi kI bAta to usakI svapnasRSTi meM bhI nahIM aatii| sirpha vartamAnakAlIna vaiSayika bhogopabhoga meM DUbA rahatA hai| unmatta, uddhata aura avicArI yauvana para dharmopadezoM kA koI asara nahIM ho sktaa| aise logoM ko dharmopadeza dene kA bhI jJAnI puruSoM ne niSedha kara diyA hai| unmatta ko upadeza mata do, uddhata ko upadeza mata do, avicArI ko upadeza mata do! yadi diyA to usakI pratikriyA galata aaegii| bahuta soca rahA hU~... yauvana ko isa abhizApa se kaise mukta kiyA jAya? unmAda, auddhatya aura avicAritA kA abhizApa kaise dUra kiyA jAya ? upAya nahIM mila rahA hai| jo upAya milatA hai... azakya - sA lagatA hai| rASTravyApI vizvavyApI... isa abhizApa ko dUra karanA sarala kArya to nahIM hai / samaSTirUpa nahIM to vyaktigata rUpa se bhI isa kArya kA prArambha karanA cAhie / kama se kama dharmakSetra meM praviSTa ho cuke yuvAvarga ko to isa abhizApa se mukta karanA hI caahie| isalie vividha upAyoM kA Ayojana honA caahie| vinaya, namratA aura vicArazIlatA se yauvana ko surabhita karanA caahie| aisA surabhita yauvana hI dharmapuruSArtha ke lie sakSama banegA / For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 54 27. svamAna samhAlie usane mujhe eka dina kahA : 'mahArAja sAhaba, maiM abhimAna karanA pasanda nahIM karatA, parantu svamAna ke lie to prANa bhI de sakatA huuN|' maiMne usako usa samaya koI pratyuttara nahIM diyA thA, parantu usake do zabda 'svamAna' aura 'abhimAna' vizeSa artha meM mujhe yAda raha gaye / yAda raha gaye itanA hI nahIM, mere cintana ke viSaya bhI bana gaye! 'svamAna' upAdeya kaise? 'abhimAna' tyAjya kaise? eka dUsarA mahAnubhAva milA, kucha par3hA-likhA thA, usane bAta-bAta meM mujhase kahA : 'mahArAjazrI, maiM svAbhimAnI AdamI huuN| insAna ko svAbhimAnI honA cAhie! pahale vyakti ne 'svamAna' upAdeya batAyA, dUsare vyakti ne 'svAbhimAna' upAdeya batAyA, kartavyarUpa btaayaa| mAna aura abhimAna tyAjya, svamAna aura svAbhimAna upAdeya! aisI mAnyatA kaise banI hogI? jJAnI puruSoM ne to 'mAna' ko 'kaSAya' kahA hai aura kaSAya ko heya yAnI tyAjya batAyA hai| mAna-kaSAya "svamAna' kA yA 'svAbhimAna' kA mukhauTA pahana le, to kyA vaha 'kaSAya' miTa jAtA hai? usameM heyatA nahIM rahatI? ajJAnI logoM kI bAta chor3o, maine acche-acche vidvAnoM se sunA hai : 'svamAna to sabhI ko pyArA hotA hai! hama apamAnita honA pasanda nahIM krte|' jaba svamAna ke sAtha rahanA saba pasanda karate haiM, taba svamAna ke viSaya meM gaMbhIratA se socanA Avazyaka bana gayA mere liye! mAna aura abhimAna ke Age 'sva' jor3ane se, sva-mAna, sva-abhimAna! kyA patA, kaisA jAdU ho jAtA hai ki heya upAdeya bana jAtA hai! aprazasta prazasta bana jAtA hai! yaha jAdU 'sva' kA hai! 'sva' kA artha hotA hai apanA! svamAna = apanA mAna! mAna aura apanA mAna, inameM zAbdika aura Arthika kyA phAsalA hai? maiMne bahuta socA, citra spaSTa nahIM huA | bahuta dinoM taka aspaSTa banA rahA isa viSaya meN| kala rAta ko acAnaka eka AvAja sunAI dIH 'dehAbhimAna chor3a, AtmAbhimAnI bana!' AvAja kahA~ se AyI... kauna bolA... mAlUma nahIM par3A, parantu bAta mahattvapUrNa thii| 'sva' kA bheda khula gayA / 'sva' yAnI AtmA! svamAna = AtmA For Private And Personal Use Only

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55 yahI hai jiMdagI kA mAna, svAbhimAna = AtmA kA abhimAna | AtmA kA abhimAna to honA cAhie! AtmA ke astitva kI sabhAnatA, zuddha AtmasvarUpa kI sabhAnatA honI hI caahie| ___ maiM jar3a nahIM hU~, paudgalika nahIM hU~, maiM caitanya-svarUpa Atmatattva huuN| anAdi-kAla se jar3a karma-pudgaloM ne mujha para Adhipatya sthApita kiyA hai... mere sAtha aisA vyavahAra karate haiM ve karma-paramANu, ki jaise merA koI astitva hI na ho! una jar3a karma-paramANuoM se mujhameM anaMta gunI jyAdA zakti hai... maiM aba karmoM kI sirajorI sahana nahIM kara sakatA...! ___ maiM pUrNa jJAnI aura pUrNAnandI hU~ aura mujhe ina karmoM ne ajJAnI aura viSAdapUrNa banA diyA hai, isako maiM merA apamAna samajhatA huuN| maiM akaSAyIvItarAga huuN| duSTa karmoM ne mujhe rAgI-dveSI banA diyA hai, maiM isako merA ghora apamAna mAnatA huuN| maiM anaMta zakti kA mAlika hU~, ina karmoM ne mujhe azakta, nirvIrya aura kAyara banA diyA hai, isako maiM apanA apamAna samajhatA huuN| maiM amUrta hU~, arUpI hU~, karmoM ne mujhe mUrta aura rUpI-bahurUpI banA diyA hai, kyA yaha merA apamAna nahIM hai? maiM janma-mRtyu se mukta hU~, ajanmA aura amara hU~, karmoM ne mujhe janma-mRtyu kI jAla meM phaMsA diyA hai, kyA yaha merA svamAna-bhaMga nahIM hai? __aisA AtmAbhimAna to honA hI cAhie manuSya meM / AtmasvarUpa kA apamAna, AtmasvarUpa kI avahelanA bardAzta nahIM karanI caahie| dehAbhimAna jarA bhI nahIM honA caahie| kisI ne merA apamAna kara diyA, mere bAhya vyaktitva ko ThukarA diyA, mere nAma ko badanAma kiyA, bhale kiyaa| mujhe isameM merA apamAna nahIM mAnanA cAhie | sammAna aura apamAna, donoM karmoM kI bheMTa hai! svamAna aura svAbhimAna kA rahasyodghATana ho gayA! mana AnaMda se bhara gayA! aba svamAnI bane rahane meM majA A jAyegA! apamAna sahajatA se sahana karane kI kalA prApta ho gaI! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 2. prIta, eka paramAtmA ke sAtha I 8. prIta, eka paramAtmA ke sAtha rAgI aura dveSI jIvoM ko khuza karane ke liye kitanA mUlyavAna samaya bitA diyA? mAnavajIvana kA samaya vyartha gavA~ diyA... yaha koI mAmUlI aparAdha nahIM... yaha koI choTA-sA duSkRtya nahIM, yaha bar3A duSkRtya hai| vItarAga paramAtmA se pyAra nahIM kiyA, unako khuza karane kA koI prayatna nahIM kiyaa| kaise unase pyAra karatA? unakI pahacAna hI nahIM thii| unake maMdira meM avazya jAtA thA, unakI mUrti kA darzana bhI karatA thA... stutiprArthanA bhI karatA thA, parantu unase pyAra nahIM huA, unako khuza karane kA vicAra bhI nahIM AyA... kaisA ghora durbhAgya thA merA? mujhe paramAtmA se koI matalaba hI nahIM thA! mujhe matalaba thA duniyA se! maiM samajhatA thA ki 'duniyA meM jIne ke lie duniyA ko khuza rakhanA cAhie | duniyA khuza hogI to mujhe mere manacAhe sukha mila jaayeNge| duniyA nArAja hogI to duniyA se mujhe sukha nahIM mileNge|' maiMne merI duniyA ko khuza rakhane kA bharasaka prayatna kiyaa| itanA hI nahIM, jinase mujhe sukha kI AzA nahIM rahI, jina-jina se mujhe koI matalaba nahIM rahA, unako khuza karane kA prayatna chor3a diyA / nayI duniyA ko khojane lagA... mila gaI koI choTI-sI duniyA... to use khuza karanA zurU kara diyA...! maiMne duniyA kA tyAga nahIM kiyA, duniyA kA parivartana hI cAhatA rahA... Avartana aura parivartanoM meM ulajhatA gayA...| paramAtma sRSTi se koI nAtA nahIM rahA, koI lagAva nahIM rahA, koI vicAra bhI nahIM rhaa| 'sakala vizva meM sneha aura prema karane yogya paramAtmA hI hai, yaha bAta samajhA hI nahIM thaa| samajhAne vAlA koI milA hogA - Aja yAda nahIM hai, parantu maiM samajhane vAlA hI kahA~ thA!! paramAtmA ko bhUlane kA kitanA bar3A duSkRtya mere jIvana meM ho gayA? duniyA ko khuza karane kA jitanA prayatna maiMne kiyA, utanA prayatna nahIM... usase AdhA bhI nahIM... thor3A-sA bhI prayatna paramAtmA ko khuza karane ke lie karatA, paramAtmA se sneha bA~dhatA... to Aja merI AtmA kaisA svAdhIna avinAzI sukha pA letI! duniyA ke loga... rAgI-dveSI loga mere prati khuza ho yA nAkhuza... mere prati For Private And Personal Use Only

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57 yahI hai jiMdagI rAgI ho yA dveSI... mujhe unase koI matalaba nahIM, mujhe unake prati koI dveSa nahIM, vaira nhiiN| merA bhItarI sambandha aba kevala paramAtmA se rhegaa| aba merA sArA prayatna paramAtmA kI prIti prApta karane hetu rhegaa| aba mujhe dRr3ha vizvAsa ho gayA hai : paramAtmA se prIti ho sakatI hai aura paramAtmA se Antara jagata meM sambandha sthApita ho sakatA hai| aba maiMne isa Antara jagata kA kucha AbhAsa pA liyA hai| usa Antara jagata meM hI parama AnaMda milatA hai, parama sukha kA AsvAda hotA hai| yaha bAta samajhAne se koI nahIM samajha sakatA / dIrghakAlIna anubhavoM meM se gujarane ke bAda yaha bAta svayaM sphurita hotI hai| duniyA kI asaMkhya galiyoM meM bhaTaka-bhaTaka kara... jaba tRpta ho jAe, 'duniyA se sukha... zAMti... prasannatA nahIM mila sakatI hai... kabhI bhI nahIM mila sakatI hai...' yaha bAta anubhava se jJAta ho jAe, taba sambhava hai ki paramAtmA ke prati dRSTi khula jaay| rAga-dveSa kI pracuratA bhayAnaka hai| isa prAcurya meM paramAtma-mAdhurya kA anubhavaasambhava! moha ke prAbalya meM paramAtmA kA mA~galya asambhava! rAga-dveSa aura moha upazAnta ho, tabhI paramAtma sRSTi ke prati dRSTi khulatI hai| paramAtmA se prIti bA~dhane kA vicAra tabhI AtA hai| paramAtmA ke alAvA kisI se bhI prIti nahIM bA~dhane kA saMkalpa tabhI hotA hai| mahAna yogI zrI AnaMdaghanajI ke zabda yAda Ate haiM : ___'RSabha jinezvara prItama mAharo re, aura na cAhU~ kaMta...' 'merA priyatama hai paramAtmA RSabhadeva, unake sivAya aura kisI ko bhI merA priyatama banAnA nahIM cAhatA huuN|' maiM bhI yahI saMkalpa karatA hU~ ki 'aba mere priyatama paramAtmA hI haiM, unake sivA maiM kisI ko bhI merA priyatama banAnA nahIM cAhU~gA... aba koI rAgI-dveSI aura mohAndha mere prema kA pAtra nahIM rhegaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI * www.kobatirth.org 29. sevA bhI sadbhAva pUrNa! - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir kala rAtri ke samaya mahAmuni naMdISeNa yAda A gye| dharmagrantha meM kucha varSa pUrva par3hA thA unko| usa samaya hI unake prati hArdika Adara jAgrata ho gayA thA? kyoM ho gayA thA ? patA nahIM! aisI koI viziSTa pratibhA nahIM thI unameM, nahIM thI aisI koI adbhuta vidvattA / na the ve pravacanakAra, nahIM the kavi yA labdhisaMpanna camatkArika puruSa / maiMne usa grantha meM par3hA thA ki ve eka vinamra sAdhusevA karanevAle mahAtmA the| kevala bAhya sevA nahIM, unake hRdaya meM rugNaglAna sAdhupuruSoM ke prati prema thA, avicala prIti thI / 58 mere hRdaya meM nandISeNa ke prati prIti ho gaI, isakA kAraNa to dUsarA hI hai| sAdhuprIti aura glAnasevA jaise guNa to Ajakala bhI maiMne kaI sAdhupuruSoM meM dekhe haiN| parantu aprIti aura abhAva pradarzita karanevAloM ke prati prIti aura sadbhAva rakhanA asAdhAraNa guNa hai / dveSa - gussA karanevAloM aura kSaNa-kSaNa jhuMjhalAnevAloM ke prati dveSa na karanA, nArAja nahIM honA - yaha asAmAnya bAta hai / nandISeNa muni meM yahI asAdhAraNa bAta thI / 'sAdhu bImAra ho gayA hai, mala-mUtra se sArA zarIra vilipta ho gayA hai, akelA... asahAya hai ... cillAtA hai ... darda se karAhatA hai, jaMgala meM par3A hai' kisI ne Akara nandISeNa ko samAcAra diyaa...| nandISeNa tapazcaryA kA pAraNA karane baiThe hI the... hAtha dhokara khar3e ho gye...| samAcAra denevAle ne bhI kaisI karkaza bhASA meM samAcAra diyA thA ! 'udhara to becArA sAdhu ghora vedanA se karAhatA par3A hai... aura tU yahA~ peTa bharane baiTha gayA hai ? bar3A A gayA sevA karanevAlA....' parantu nandISeNa ke mu~ha para koI roSa nahIM... koI nArAjagI nhiiN...| nandISeNa ke mana meM bhI koI durbhAva nahIM jagA / pAraNA nahIM kiyA aura pAtra meM nirdoSa prAsuka jala lekara cala diye| For Private And Personal Use Only T jaba ve usa bImAra sAdhu ke pAsa pahu~ce, bImAra ne nandISeNa ko kaThora.... karkaza aura asabhya zabda sunAne zurU kara diye / parantu nadISeNa ke mana meM phira bhI durbhAva nahIM AyA / ve zAMti se ... prasannacitta se bImAra sAdhu kA zarIra pAnI se dhone lge| mala-mUtra se sanA huA zarIra unhoMne sApha kiyaa| mu~ha para aprIti kI koI rekhA nahIM / zabdoM meM koI karkazatA nhiiN| bahuta snehapUrNa zabdoM se bharA vyavahAra !

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59 yahI hai jiMdagI bImAra sAdhu nandISeNa ko parezAna karane kI ceSTA karatA rahatA hai... nandISeNa koI parezAnI mahasUsa nahIM krte| unake mana meM koI azubha vikalpa nahIM uThatA hai : 'kaisA hai yaha sAdhu... maiM usakI sevA karatA hU~, vaha mujhe kosatA hai... maiM usakI azuci sApha karatA hU~, vaha mujhe kaise kaTu zabda sunAtA hai| isako merI koI kadara nahIM hai to mujhe isase kyA matalaba?' __ maiMne apanA Antara nirIkSaNa kiyaa| yadi aise sAdhu kI sevA karane kA kartavya mere sAmane AyA ho to maiM kyA karU~? mujhe gAliyA~ sunAnevAle kI kyA maiM sevA karU~? mujhe parezAna karanevAle kI maiM sevA karU~? nahIM... maiM to apanI kadara cAhatA huuN| mere acche kAryoM kI prazaMsA sunanA cAhatA huuN| mere acche kArya kI koI prazaMsA nahIM kare to maiM acchA kArya bhI chor3a detA huuN| ___ nandISeNa mahAmuni ke prati mere hRdaya meM isIlie bahuta Adara paidA ho gayA hai| unako apanI prazaMsA sunane kI koI bhUkha nahIM thii| koI unako abhinandana de yA kaTu AlocanA kare, una mahAmuni ko koI asara nahIM thaa| nindAprazaMsA unake liye samAna thii| unako matalaba thA sAdhuprema se | unako matalaba thA sAdhusevA se | unakI ghora bhartsanA karanevAloM kI bhI ve prasannacitta se sevA kara sakate the| svayaM tapazcaryA karate hue bhI ve dUsare sAdhuoM ke liye bhikSA le Ate the| mauna aura muskarAhaTa! sevA aura sahanazIlatA! nirantara karmanirjarA... niraMtara Atmavizuddhi! maiM cAhatA hU~ aisA jIvana... parantu kyA sabako aisA jIvana sulabha ho sakatA hai? aisA jIvana pAne kA bhAgya cAhie, saubhAgya cAhie... kahA~ se lAU~ aisA bhAgya-saubhAgya? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 30. virati para viraktibharI... __ 'virati to hai, virakti hai kyA?' yaha prazna kisI dUsare kA nahIM hai, mere hI hRdaya kA hai| virati yAnI tyAga, virakti yAnI vairaagy| saMsAra ke prati vairAgya honA, saMsAra ke indriya viSayaka sukhoM ke prati vairAgya honA eka bAta hai, aura sAdhujIvana ke prati AkarSaNa honA dUsarI bAta hai| vairAgya ke binA bhI sAdhujIvana ke prati AkarSaNa paidA ho sakatA hai... sAdhutA kA svIkAra bhI ho sakatA hai| parantu vairAgyahIna sAdhujIvana meM AtmAnanda kI anubhUti nahIM ho sakatI hai| sAdhujIvana yAnI pApatyAga kA jIvana / isa jIvana para jaba indriyoM kA unmAda chA jAtA hai, kaSAyoM kI Aga laga jAtI hai, vaibhavoM kI tRSNA phaila jAtI hai, taba tyAga kI bhAvanA vilupta ho jAtI hai| pApa pyAre lagane lagate haiM... jIvana meM pApoM kA praveza ho jAtA hai| ___ eka daphA pApoM kA tyAga kara diyA, itane mAtra se maiM virAgI bana gayA... aisA mAna lenA bhrama hai| indriyoM kA apane-apane viSayoM meM punaH-punaH lolupatA se praveza hotA ho aura vairAgya? kabhI krodha, kabhI abhimAna, kabhI mAyA... kabhI lobha... hotA hI rahatA hai... phira bhI vairAgya? aizo-ArAma kA jIvana ho... phira bhI vairAgya? __virati kA jIvana yAnI pApatyAga kA jIvana | svIkAra karane ke bAda vairAgya tabhI akhaMDita raha sakatA hai jaba viSaya-virAga ho, kaSAya-vijaya ho aura aizo-ArAma se nivRtti ho| pApoM se virakta honA sarala hai, pAparAga se virakta honA sarala nahIM hai| isalie eka maharSi ne kahA : 'virAgamArgavijayo duradhigamyaH' ___ maiMne mere jIvana meM anubhava bhI kiyA haiM ki virAgamArga para calanA AsAna nahIM hai| pAparAga kI vAsanAoM ko nirmUla karanA sarala nahIM hai| jaba taka pApoM kA rAga nahIM TUTatA... vairAgya nahIM aataa| jaba-jaba hRdaya ko TaTolatA hU~, pAparAga kI Aga sulagatI dikhatI hai| asaMkhya viSayoM meM iSTa-aniSTa aura priyApriya kI kalpanAe~ akhaMDita baiThI hai... phira vairAgya kaisA? yaha acchA, yaha burA! yaha For Private And Personal Use Only

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61 yahI hai jiMdagI priya, yaha apriya! yaha iSTa, yaha aniSTa... kSaNa-kSaNa mana meM asaMkhya dvandva uchalate rahate haiM, aisI manaHsthiti meM kaise mAnU~ ki 'maiM virAgI hU~, virakta hU~!' yogIjIvana kA prArambha hI 'bhavodvega' se hotA hai| sahaja bhavodvega... saMsAra ke prati svAbhAvika udvega! bhavodvega hI vairAgya hai| __paramAtmA se pratidina prArthanA karatA hU~ - prArthanA kA sUtra bolatA hU~ ki 'he bhagavaMta, mere hRdaya meM vairAgya paidA ho| maiM viratidhara to hU~, paraMtu mujhe virakti cAhie, ApakI parama kRpA se mujhe virakti kI prApti ho|' sAdhujIvana kA Antara-AnaMda virakti meM se paidA hotA hai| virakti ko surakSita rakhanA ati Avazyaka hai | cAhe saba kucha luTa jAe, cAhe saba snehIsvajana cale jAe, yadi virakti surakSita hai to saba kucha surakSita hai| isa virakti kI surakSA ke liye hI to dharmagranthoM kA svAdhyAya aura paramAtmabhakti vagairaha ArAdhanAe~ batAyI gaI haiN| tapazcaryA aura sevA-suzrUSA bhI isI hetu se batAyI gaI hai| virakti ko surakSita rakhane ke ye sAre racanAtmaka upAya haiM | jo sAdhaka ina upAyoM kA anAdara karatA hai, vaha virakti ko gavA~ detA hai| sAdhu ho yA gRhastha ho, jisa kisI ko Antara zAMti, prasannatA aura AtmA kI divya anubhUti karanI hai, usako hRdaya meM virakti sthApita karanI hI pdd'egii| virakta hRdaya hI isa bhISaNa saMsAra meM svastha raha sakatA hai| dvandvoM se bharI duniyA meM nirdvandva raha sakatA hai| ___ 'virati' 'virakti' meM sahAyaka hai| viratidhara manuSya ke lie virakti kI sAdhanA sarala bana sakatI hai, parantu virati hI virakti nahIM hai| hamArA pApatyAga pAparAga miTAne hetu honA cAhie | pApatyAga karane vAloM kI duniyA ijjata karatI hai, pApatyAgI manuSya kA duniyA meM yaza phailatA hai| yadi yaza kI aiSaNA pApatyAgI manuSya ke hRdaya meM jAgrata ho gaI... to pAparAga banA rahegA... pApatyAga karane para bhI! hRdaya virakti ke amRta se sadaiva abhisiMcita rahe... yahI eka kAmanA zeSa For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI ____62 31. zabda sahanA bhI sAdhanA hai! i zramaNa paramAtmA mahAvIra bhagavanta ke samaya kI bAta hai| bhagavAna kI pramukha sAdhvI thI candanabAlAjI | candanabAlAjI ke pAsa eka rAjakumArI ne dIkSA lI thI, nAma thA mRgaavtiijii| eka dina candanabAlAjI samagra sAdhvI-parivAra ke sAtha bhagavAna ke samavasaraNa meM upadeza zravaNa karane gaI thiiN| sUryAsta ke pahale-pahale upadeza sunakara ve apane sthAna para pahu~ca gaI, parantu mRgAvatIjI samavasaraNa meM hI baiThI rahI... bhagavanta ke madhuratama upadeza sunane meM ve itanI tallIna ho gaI thIM... ki unheM kucha khyAla hI nahIM rahA... ki 'saba sAdhvIjI calI gayI haiM... mujhe apane sthAna para pahu~ca jAnA caahie...|' ___ jaba mRgAvatIjI apane sthAna para pahu~cI, aMdherA ho gayA thaa| guruNI candanabAlAjI ne unheM madhura zabdoM meM upAlambha diyA : 'tumhAre jaisI kulIna sAdhvI ko itanI dera taka samavasaraNa meM nahIM rahanA caahie|' basa, jyAdA kucha nahIM khaa| mRgAvatIjI ne natamastaka hokara upAlambha suna liyaa| sunane ke bAda unhoMne aisA kucha cintana kiyA... aisA kucha socA... ki usI rAtri meM unako 'kevalajJAna' ho gyaa| ve vItarAga bana gii| ___ kyA socA hogA unhoMne? kaisA cintana kiyA hogA unhoMne? guruNIjI kA upAlambha sunane para aisA kauna-sA uccatama bhAva unake hRdaya meM... unakI aMtarAtmA meM pragaTa huA hogA... ki jisase unako kevalajJAna kI upalabdhi ho gaI? upAlambha ke vacana nahIM, upadeza ke vacana sunakara bhI mujhe kevalajJAna nahIM ho rahA hai... upAlambha ke vacanoM se kevalajJAna kaise huA hogA? upAlambha sunanA acchA nahIM lagatA hai, apriya zabda se vairAgya nahIM bar3hatA hai, roSa bar3hatA hai| kaTu zabdoM se AtmabhAva nirmala nahIM hotA hai, malIna hotA hai... upAlambha se vItarAgatA!! mRgAvatIjI kI kaisI hogI Antara sAdhanA? guruNI kA upAlambha sunakara, guruNI ke prati roSa nahIM kiyA... risa nahIM kI... apane Apako niraparAdhI siddha karane ke liye tarka-vitarka nahIM kiye... aisA kucha socA... ki vItarAga bana gaI ve pUjanIyA sAdhvI! kAza... vaha cintana kisI ne granthastha kara liyA hotA to!! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI sarvajJa-vItarAga banane ke pazcAt kyA unako kisI ne prazna nahIM kiyA hogA? unhoMne batAyA bhI hogA na! kisI Agamagrantha meM par3hane ko nahIM milA vaha cintana... kahAnI par3hane ko milI, parantu kahAnI kA hArda nahIM milA...| dUsaroM ke kaTu zabda to apriya lagate haiM, upakArI mahApuruSoM ke kaT zabda bhI apriya lagate haiN| upakArI puruSoM ke prati bhI roSa A jAtA hai| kaisI nimnastarIya AtmadazA hai merI? kaTu vacana ko 'pariSaha' batAyA gayA hai| tIrthaMkara bhagavantoM ne 'vacana-pariSaha' samatA ke sAtha sahana karane kA upadeza diyA hai| rAga-dveSa kiye binA kaTu zabdoM ko sunane kI kalA hastagata ho jAya, to sAdhanA saphala ho jAya / itanA jAnane ko milA hai ki mRgAvatIjI ko apanI galatI mahasUsa huI thI aura unheM ghora pazcAttApa huA thaa| 'merI vajaha se merI upakAriNI guruNIjI ko kitanI mAnasika vyathA huI...? maiM unakI mAnasika azAMti meM nimitta bana gaI... kaisI maiM ajJAnI hU~... kaisI maiM abhAgina hU~...' pazcAttApa ke bAda unakI AtmA samatAbhAva meM lIna ho gaI hogI...| dharmadhyAna meM se 'zukladhyAna' meM praviSTa ho gaI hogI... zukladhyAna kI guphA meM kevalajJAna kA ratnadIpaka jagamagAtA hI hai| ____ maiM sacce dila se cAhatA hU~ ki apriya aura kaTu zabda sunane para bhI roSa na ho! upakArI mahApuruSoM ke upAlambha maiM binA roSa kiye suna sakU~... upAlambha denevAloM ke prati kabhI durbhAva na ho... kabhI roSa na ho...| 'AtmabhAva nirmala hue binA, prazAnta hue binA yaha sthiti prApta nahIM ho sakatI...' - yaha jAnatA huuN| parantu AtmabhAva nirmala kaise banA rahe, prazAnta kaise banA rahe? bhinna-bhinna nimitta, bhinna-bhinna prasaMga AtmabhAva kI nirmalatA naSTa karate rahate haiM, prazAnta bhAva ko dhvasta kara dete haiN| svapnasRSTi meM bhI mRgAvatIjI Akara apanA cintana batA jAya... to merA kAma ho jAya! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI ____64 2. pasaMda-nApasaMda meM se mukti cAhi apriya kA saMyoga! priya kA viyoga! abhI apriya kA saMyoga huA bhI na ho, priya kA viyoga huA bhI na ho, kevala sambhAvanA dikhatI ho - kalpanA paidA ho gaI ho, mAnasika duHkha zurU ho jAtA hai| usake sAtha rahanA par3egA? usake sAtha jInA par3egA? vaha to mujhe atyaMta apriya hai... jarA bhI pasanda nahIM...' basa, mAnasika tanAva zurU ho gayA! ___ priya vyakti ke viyoga kI saMbhAvanA ne bhI mujhe kitanA parezAna kiyA hai! maiM kitanA asvastha aura azAMta bana gayA thA? usa samaya mujhe khayAla AyA thA ki merI buddhi, merA jJAna... kaisA thA, kitanA thA! priyajana ke viyoga kI sambhAvanA ne mujhe... mere jJAna ko hilA diyA thA... alpa samaya ke liye to mujhe lagA thA ki 'merA sArA zAstrajJAna vyartha hai|' kisI eka bhI jar3a-cetana padArtha kI Asakti... anurAga jIvAtmA ko azAMti ke udadhi meM DubA sakatA hai| priya-apriya kI kalpanAoM kA samUla ucchedana karanA anivArya hai, anyathA sArA jJAna, tapa-tyAga vagairaha vyartha calA jaayegaa| eka mahAna tapasvI aura saMsAratyAgI sAdhupuruSa ko maiMne azAnta isaliye pAyA, kyoMki unako priyajana ke viyoga kI sambhAvanA pratIta hotI thI! 30-30 sAla kI tapazcaryA aura 40-40 varSa kA tyAgamaya jIvana... phira bhI priya-apriya kI kalpanAe~ salAmata thI! kucha to ve priya kA saMyoga cAhate the! kucha apriya kA viyoga cAhate the! priya ke viyoga kI saMbhAvanA se vyathita the, apriya ke saMyoga se azAnta the! maiMne mere jIvana meM bhI aisA anubhava kiyA... maiM cauMka pdd'aa| priya-apriya kI kalpanAe~ mere hRdaya meM itanI pragAr3ha ho gaI thI ki priya ke viyoga meM aura apriya ke saMyoga meM jIvana jInA mujhe muzkila sA lagA... maiM sAvadhAna to ho hI gyaa| saMbhala gyaa| priya-apriya kI kalpanAoM se mana ko mukta karane kA prayatna zurU kiyaa| sAdhaka jIvana meM punaH punaH anityAdi bhAvanAoM kA cintana karane ke lie tIrthaMkara bhagavaMtoM ne kyoM kahA hai, isa bAta kA rahasya merI samajha meM aayaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI anitya, azaraNa, ekatva Adi bAraha bhAvanAoM se AtmA bhAvita honI cAhie | bhAvita banegI, tabhI bAhya nimittoM ke prabhAva se mukta raha skegii| ___ kamaTha aura dharaNendra ke prati samabhAva rakhane vAle paramAtmA pArzvanAtha kI pratidina stuti karatA hU~ ki 'prabho, mujhe bhI aise samabhAva kI prApti karAiye... duHkha denevAloM ke prati dveSa na ho, sukha denevAloM ke prati rAga na ho! koI priya na lage, koI apriya na lage! kucha iSTa na lage, kucha aniSTa na lage! priya kA saMyoga aisA na ho ki usake viyoga meM maiM udvigna ho jAU~ / priya ke sAtha hRdaya kA baMdhana na ho, apriya ke sAtha bhI hRdaya jur3A huA na ho! priya-apriya se hRdaya alipta ho... taba AtmAnanda kI anubhUti ho sakatI hai, taba Antara prasannatA kI anubhUti ho sakatI hai| yahI to sAdhaka jIvana kA sukha hai| yahI to sAdhaka jIvana kI pragati hai| dvandvoM se bhare hue saMsAra meM hRdaya ko nirdvandva banAye rakhanA zuddha AtmajJAna se hI sambhava ho sakatA hai| jJAnadRSTi jIvana ke tamAma kSetroM meM khulI rahanI cAhie | bAraha bhAvanAoM ke mAdhyama se cintana-manana aura avalokana honA caahie| jAnatA hU~, phira bhI bAra-bAra bhUla ho hI jAtI hai| priya-apriya kI kalpanAe~ ubhara AtI haiM aura harSa-udvega ke dvandva se hRdaya kaluSita bana jAtA hai| hAlA~ki isa dizA meM maiM sajaga bana gayA hU~... isalie AzA baMdhatI hai ki kabhI na kabhI saphalatA milegii| paramAtmA pArzvanAtha bhagavaMta kA isa dRSTi se kiyA huA dhyAna sahAyaka bana sakatA hai| paramAtmA kI 'tulyavRtti' kA dAna kabhI to mujhe milegA! priya-apriya kI kalpanAe~ nAmazeSa bneNgii| AtmAnanda kI anubhUti prApta hogii| ___ paramAtmakRpA se... paramAtmA ke acintya anugraha se hI yaha sambhava ho sakatA hai, yaha merA vizvAsa hai| paramAtmakRpA kA pAtra bananA hI Avazyaka hai| isI jIvana meM pAtratA siddha ho jAe to kAma bana jaae| phira dUsarA cAhie bhI kyA? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 33. mokSa : yahIM para... abhI! I eka prAcIna maharSi ne yahA~ - isa saMsAra meM hI - mokSasukha kA AsvAda karane kA prayoga batAyA hai! apanI AtmA meM hI mokSasukha bharA par3A hai... bAhara lene jAne kI AvazyakatA nahIM... bhItara meM dabA huA sukha kA srota pragaTa karanA hai| pragaTa ho sakatA hai vaha srota, paraMtu usa para jamI huI caTTAnoM ko tor3anA hogA, miTTI ko khoda nikAlanA hogA! maharSi cAhate haiM : (1) mada aura madana para vijaya paao| (2) mana-vacana aura kAyA ke vikAra dUra kro| (3) para-AzAoM se nivRtta ho jaao| itanA puruSArtha karo, yahIM mokSasukha kA AsvAda karoge! siddhazilA kA mokSasukha to dUra hai... yahA~ 'sempala' cakha lo... phira vaha zAzvatkAlIna sukha to milegA hii| __tIna bAtoM ko varSoM se par3hatA AyA hU~... hajAroM bAra isa zloka ko doharAyA hai| artha bhI jAnatA hU~, ina bAtoM para cintana bhI kiyA hai| itanA hI nahIM, ina bAtoM kA hajAroM logoM ko upadeza bhI diyA hai| parantu Antara nirIkSaNa karatA hU~ : 'maiM kahA~ hU~? kahA~ taka pahu~cA hU~?' to ghora nirAzA meM DUba jAtA huuN| abhI-abhI nIrava nizAkAla meM ina bAtoM ko lekara khUba vicAra aae| mokSasukha pAne kA puruSArtha karane ke lie to saMsAra ke sukhoM kA tyAga kara sAdhu banA hU~... parantu sAdhanA kahA~ hai? mada-abhimAna ghaTAne kA puruSArtha kahA~ hai? madana-viSayavAsanA ko miTAne kA puruSArtha kahA~ hai? kabhI-kabhI to aisA lagatA hai ki abhimAna bar3ha rahA hai! vAsanAe~ unmatta bana rahI haiM... mana meM saMkalpa-vikalpa bar3hate jA rahe haiM... vANI aura kAyA kI pravRtti avazya kama huI hai, aisA lagatA hai| parantu parapudgala kI AzAe~... tRSNAe~ kahA~ kama huI haiM? __kabhI-kabhI hRdaya vedanA se karAhatA hai - kyA jIvana aise hI pUrA ho jAyegA? isa jIvana meM mokSasukha kA kSaNika AsvAda bhI nahIM milegA mujhe? mada aura madana kA dAvAnala kyA maiM nahIM bujhA pAU~gA? mana-vacana aura kAyA ke vikAra-kaMTakoM ko nahIM nikAla sakU~gA? para-AzAoM ke lauhabandhanoM ko nahIM tor3a sakU~gA kyA? maiM TaTolatA hU~ mere satva ko! maiM pUchatA hU~ mere hRdaya se! dUsaroM ko to pUch hI kyA? yaha vedanA merI apanI hai... yaha prazna For Private And Personal Use Only

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67 yahI hai jiMdagI merA apanA hai| mujhe hI socanA hogA aura mArga DhU~DhanA hogaa| bAhya vAtAvaraNa meM mada aura madana ke jaharIle jaMtu vyApta haiM, isI vAtAvaraNa meM jInA hai! bAhya-avakAza meM anaMta vikAra vyApta haiM aura tRSNA ke sUara galI-galI meM bhaTaka rahe haiM... isa vAtAvaraNa meM jIvana vyatIta karanA hai aura vAtAvaraNa ke prabhAva se mukta rahanA hai! kaise mukta rahA jAya? kitanI Atmazakti jAgrata ho taba mukta rahA jA sake? kahA~ se lAU~ itanI Atmazakti? __ abhI-abhI eka jijJAsu bhAI ne pUchA thA : 'mASatuSa muni ke jIvana meM aisI kauna-sI sAdhanA hogI ki do zabda bhI yAda nahIM kara sake aura bAraha varSa bItane para unako kaivalya kI prApti ho gaI?' / maiMne unako yaha bAta kahI thI : 'zAstra ke zabda unako yAda nahIM rahate the, parantu zAstra ke bhAva AtmasAt hote jA rahe the| ve kramazaH mada-madana para vijaya pAte gaye, mana-vacana-kAyA ke vikAroM se mukta hote gaye aura parapudgala kI AzAoM se nivRtta hote gye| caritralekhaka to manuSya ke bAhya kriyAkalApoM ko sparza karate haiM, ve Antara jagata meM kaise praveza kareM? mokSamArga kI sAdhanA jitanI bAhya nahIM hai, utanI Antarika hai| mokSasukha kA AsvAda Antarika sAdhanA se hI saMbhava hai| bAhya kriyA-kalApa Antarika sAdhanA meM pahu~cane ke sopAna mAtra haiN| sopAna para hI khar3e raha jAne se maMz2ila para nahIM pahu~cA jA sakatA hai| kabhI-kabhI paramAtmA se bhI kaha detA hU~ : 'he karuNAsindhu! basa, mujha para eka karuNA kara de / jitanA jAnatA hU~, utanA maiM kara sakU~! jAnane para bhI nahIM kara sakatA hU~, isa bAta kI mujhe apAra vedanA hai| merI isa vedanA ko miTA de| mere paramAtman! merI eka lAlasA hai ki maiM isa jIvana meM mokSasukha kA kSaNika AsvAda kara lU~... phira bhale mauta A jAye! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI __ 68 34. naye varSa kI pyAsa / logoM ne dIpAvalI parva kAphI harSollAsa se manAyA aura nUtanavarSa kA parva bhI AnaMda se manAyA... kyA patA kisa-kisa ne isa parva meM mahAvIra-gautama kI smRti kI hogI...| jaba nUtanavarSa ke prabhAta meM loga harSa se jhUma rahe the... merI A~kheM A~sU bhara kara baiThI thI... hRdaya vyAkulatA kA saMga kara baiThA thaa...| apane priyatama paramAtmA ke nirvANa se atyanta vyAkula gautama ko maiM mauna rahakara dekha rahA thA... unakI hRdaya-vyathA mere hRdaya ko vyathita kara rahI thI, unakI azrudhArA merI hRdayabhUmi para baha rahI thii| atyanta Ardra... atyanta vedanApUrNa svaroM meM... nIlagagana ke usa pAra... jahA~ mahAvIra cale gaye the... usa siddhazilA kI ora dekhate... ve pukAra rahe the| vIra vahelA Avo ne... 'gautama' kahI bolAvo ne... darizana vaheluM dIjie ho jI... merA to kaMTha hI avaruddha ho gayA thA... maiM bhI vIra ko pukAranA cAhatA thA... eka zabda bhI nahIM nikalA mu~ha se...| gautama jamIna para gira par3e the... unake A~sUoM se jamIna gIlI ho gaI thI... kyA karanA... mujhe kucha sUjhatA hI nahIM thA... hajAroM kevalajJAnI ziSyoM ke guru ko maiM ajJAnI kyA AzvAsana dU~? cAra-cAra jJAna ke dhanI ko mere tuccha zabda kyA dilAsA de sakate haiM? sivAya rudana ke... mere pAsa kucha nahIM thaa| gautama kA vilApa tIvra ho rahA thA... jo nahIM Avo to thAze sevakanA behAla re... prabhu, tu niHsanehI hU~ sasanehI ajANa re... vIra vahelA Avo ne... "he vIra, yadi Apa zIghra nahIM Aoge to ApakA sevaka behAla ho jAyegA... prabho, Apa sneharahita haiM, parantu maiM to snehabharA hU~... ajJAnI hU~... vIra! Apa zIghra aaiye...|' naye varSa kA prabhAta kitanA viSAdapUrNa ho gayA thA... gautama ke karuNa vilApa ne jaMgala ke pazuoM ko, pakSiyoM ko bhI rulA diyA thA... vRkSa ke parNoM For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 69 se bhI A~sU Tapaka rahe the... sArI prakRti zokamagna ho gaI thI... eka jJAnI kA parama jJAnI ke prati apAra sneha... eka mahAtmA kA eka paramAtmA ke prati niHsIma prema... Aha aura A~sUoM meM anubhUta ho rahA thA...| gautama kI anaMta labdhiyoM ke pujArI loga... gautama kI guru-prIti... paramAtma-prIti ko kaise pahacAna sakate haiM!! 'paramAtmapremI gautamasvAmI ko merA namaskAra ho|' aisA kauna likhatA hai? aisA namaskAra kauna karatA hai? 'anaMta labdhinidhAna gautamasvAmI' ko saba loga namaskAra karate haiN| yaha namaskAra gautama ko nahIM hai... yaha namaskAra to unakI labdhiyoM ko hai | yaha arthalolupatA kI hI abhivyakti hai| ___ kahate haiM ki paramAtmA ke prati gautama ko rAga thA isalie gautama ko kevalajJAna nahIM huA... unakA rAga kevalajJAna meM pratibandhaka thaa| gautama ke pAsa kevalajJAnI the - paramAtmA the, unako kevalajJAna se kyA matalaba thA? paramAtmapremI ko paramAtmapada kI cAha nahIM hotI hai| unako to paramAtmA kI hI cAha hotI hai| gautama kA rAga paramAtmA ke prati thaa| rAga kA viSaya zuddha thA, sarvazreSTha thA, isIlie prazasta thaa| gautama kI paramAtma-prIti niSkAma thI, nirUpAyika thI... isIlie to unakI paramAtma-prIti ne alpa samaya meM hI unakA paramAtmA se abheda milana karavA diyA! nUtana varSa ke prabhAta meM gautama ko 'kevalajJAna' prApta huaa| kevalajJAna ke prakAza meM gautama ne siddhazilA para paramAtmA mahAvIra ko pratyakSa dekha liyA! aba vaha darzana zAzvata thA! aba vaha indriyAtIta milana zAzvata thaa| ___ eka adbhuta paramAtmapremI kI smRti kA parva bana gayA nUtana varSa! gautamasvAmI jaisI paramAtma-prIti jAgrata ho jAya AtmA meM to!! dUsarA kucha nahIM cAhie... na labdhiyA~ cAhie... na kevalajJAna cAhie! janma-janma taka he prabho! mujhe tere caraNoM kA dAsa banAnA... tere caraNakamala kI sevA karatA rahU~... premabhakti ke A~sUoM kA abhiSeka karatA rahU~...! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 70 35. kyA hai pasaMda? kSamA yA sajA ? aparAdha ke sAtha do bAteM jur3I huI haiM : eka sajA aura dUsarI kSamA / aparAdhI ko yA to sajA milatI hai yA kSamA milatI hai / aparAdhI svayaM sajA nahIM cAhatA, vaha kSamA cAhatA hai| loka-vyavahAra meM sajA ko mahattva milA hai, saMtoM kI duniyA meM kSamA ko pradhAnatA prApta huI hai / sajA kA mahattva siddha karanevAle tarka dete haiM : sajA karane se aparAdhI punaH aparAdha karane se rukatA hai / kSamA kI pradhAnatA siddha karanevAle tarka dete haiM: kSamA karane se aparAdhI phira se aparAdha nahIM karegA / tarka to donoM samAna pratIta hote haiM / parantu donoM tarkoM meM kitanI saccAI hai - isakA nirNaya to hameM karanA hogA / maiMne eka bAta 'mArka' kI hai ki jaba hama svayaM aparAdhI hote haiM, taba kSamA kI pradhAnatA ko svIkAra karate haiM aura jaba dUsarA aparAdhI hotA hai taba sajA ko mahattva dete haiM! jaba manuSya dUsaroM ke aparAdha sahana nahIM kara pAtA hai taba vaha sajA karane ke lie tatpara ho jAtA hai / asahanazIlatA meM se sajA karane kI vRtti aura pravRtti paidA hotI hai| usa vRtti aura pravRtti kI yathArthatA siddha karane ke liye hama kitane bhI tarka deM, usase yathArthatA - vAstavikatA siddha nahIM ho sktii| eka jIvAtmA dUsare jIvAtmA ko kaise sajA karegA ? dveSa aura durbhAvanA ke binA sajA kaise ho sakatI hai ? dveSa aura durbhAvanA ko kaise ucita mAnA jAya ? isameM bhI, jo aparAdhI apane aparAdhoM kA pazcAttApa karatA huA A~sU bahAtA hai, jo aparAdhI punaH aparAdha nahIM karane kI pratijJA karatA hai, usako sajA kaise kI jAya ? maiM to sajA nahIM kara sakatA ! For Private And Personal Use Only eka mitra ne kahA : yadi tU isa aparAdhI ko kSamA karegA to vaha phira se aparAdha kregaa| yaha aparAdhI kSamApAtra nahIM hai... vizvAsapAtra nahIM hai... vaha tere sAtha dhokhA kregaa...| maiMne kahA : vaha vizvAsapAtra kyoM nahIM ? kyoMki usane eka bAra aparAdha kiyA hai, isalie na ? yadi maiMne eka bAra aparAdha kiyA hai to maiM bhI vizvAsapAtra nahIM rahA na ? maiM isa bAta ko nahIM mAna sakatA /

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71 yahI hai jiMdagI ve sabhI jIva kSamApAtra haiM, jo kSamAyAcanA karate haiN| kSamAyAcanA karanevAloM ko yadi hama kSamAdAna nahIM dete haiM, to hama aparAdhI banate haiM! ___ bhale, hama aparAdhI ko sajA na deM, athavA na de sakeM, parantu 'aparAdhI ko sajA honI cAhie, aisI bhAvanA bhI pApabhAvanA hai| 'sajA honI cAhie' kA artha hotA hai 'du:kha milanA caahie| kisI bhI jIvAtmA ko - pApI jIvAtmA ko bhI - duHkha milane kI icchA karanA ucita hai kyA? __mitra ne kahA : yadi usako (aparAdhI ko) duHkhI nahIM hone diyA to tU duHkhI hogaa| vaha tujhe duHkhI kregaa| sahI bAta thI mitra kI! svakendrita manuSya aisA hI soca sakatA hai| svakendrita manuSya apane hI sukha-duHkha kA vicAra prathama karatA hai| dUsaroM ke sukha-duHkha ke vicAra gauNa hote haiN| maiM kaise mitra ke vicAroM ko svIkAra karU~? maiM kaise aparAdhI kI kSamAprArthanA ko ThukarAU~? maiM kaise apane sukha-duHkha ke vicAroM ko pradhAnatA dU~? kyA maiM mere hI sukhoM ke liye jI sakatA hU~? kyA maiM apane hI duHkhoM kA vicAra karU~? nahIM, bhale mere sukha cale jAyeM... bhale maiM duHkhoM ke samudra meM DUba jAU~... maiM dUsaroM ke duHkha dUra karane kA prayatna nahIM chor3a sktaa| aparAdhI ko bhI duHkhI hotA huA nahIM dekha sktaa| ___maiM svayaM kyA aparAdhI nahIM hU~? anaMta janmoM se aparAdhI nahIM hU~? kyA maiM sajA cAhatA hU~? kyA maiM paramAtmA se kSamA nahIM cAhatA? maiM apane aparAdhoM kI kSamA cAhatA huuN| isIlie maiM dUsaroM ke aparAdhoM ko kSamA denA cAhU~gA | maiM apane aparAdhoM kI sajA ko svIkAra karU~gA, parantu mere aparAdhiyoM ko to kSamA denA hI caahuuNgaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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72 yahI hai jiMdagI 36. ekAMta : aMgArA bhI... amRtadhArA bhI...3 khalIla jibrAna ne eka jagaha likhA hai : 'vicAroM kI parI, jaba hama ekAnta meM hote haiM tabhI apane pAsa AtI hai|' ____ 'ekAnta burA hai|' yaha bAta bhI maiMne kisI pustaka meM par3hI hai| akelA rahanA... ekAnta meM rahanA acchA bhI hai, burA bhI hai! vAstava meM, ekAnta na to acchA hai aura na hI burA / yadi manuSya acchA hai to ekAnta acchA hai, manuSya burA hai to ekAnta burA hai| ekAnta... jahA~ manuSya ko koI dekhane vAlA nahIM hotA, sunane vAlA nahIM hotA... jahA~ manuSya kA svayaM hI astitva hotA hai... vahA~ acchA sRjanakArya ho sakatA hai... vahA~ adhama kRtya bhI ho sakatA hai| jisako parokSa... agocara tattvoM kA cintana, manana aura paryAlocana karanA hai, jisako paramAtmadhyAna meM tallInatA prApta karanI hai, jisako apanA tattvaciMtana, apanI tattvAnuprekSA granthastha karanI hai, usako ekAnta cAhie hii| usake lie ekAnta lAbhaprada hI hogaa| janasamUha meM baiThakara aise mahAna kArya siddha nahIM ho skte| satata janasaMparka, satata lokavyavahAra kI vyastatA apanI svasthatA ko, ekAgratA ko, cintana-manana ko naSTa kara detI hai| koI bhI mahAna sarjana nahIM ho pAtA hai| mere eka mitra munivara ne eka gAMva ke viSaya meM zikAyata karate hue kahA : 'gAMva meM hama gaye, sAre dina hama do sAdhu hI upAzraya meM baiThe rahe | koI AyA hI nhiiN| hama to dUsare hI dina vahA~ se cala diye...|' ____ maiMne unase kahA : 'maiM aisA hI gAMva pasaMda karatA! mujhe aise gAMvoM meM rahane kA avasara nahIM miltaa| yadi mila jAe... to kucha dharmagranthoM para, adhyAtma ke granthoM para mujhe vivecanA likhanI hai... maiM likha lU~ | dhyAnamArga meM bhI kucha pragati ho ske| parantu aise ekAnta sthAnoM meM rahane kA samaya hI nahIM mila rahA hai|' __mitra munivara ne kahA : 'Apa lokopakAra ke kArya karate rahate haiM... hajAroM logoM ko dharmopadeza dete haiM, jo-jo Apake pAsa Ate haiM, unakI AtmA ko zAMti milatI hai... kyA yaha lAbha kA kAma nahIM hai?' For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI ___73 maiMne kahA : 'mahAtmA! paropakAra karanA apanA kartavya hai, logoM ko pApoM se bacAnA evaM dharmasammukha banAnA apanA pharja hai, maiM mAnatA huuN| parantu maiM yaha bhI socatA hU~ ki kyA yaha saba karate hue apanA svayaM kA AtmabhAva prazamarasanimagna banA rahatA hai? svabhAvadazA banI rahatI hai? kahIM kIrti, pratiSThA aura mAnasammAna kI azubha-apavitra vRttiyA~ vyApaka to nahIM ho rahI hai? koI IrSyA aura spardhA kI vAsanA to nahIM satAtI hai? mere priya munivara! dharmaprabhAvanA kI satata pravRttiyoM meM satata jana-saMparka banA rahatA hai, isase apanA jIvana sAmAjika bana gayA hai| apanI sAdhutA-sAdhakatA kI mastI kho gaI hai... aisA nahIM lagatA hai? subaha se zAma taka kisI na kisI vyakti kA saMparka banA rahatA hai... aisI sthiti meM kaba naye-naye granthoM kA adhyayana kareM? kaba nayAnayA tattvaciMtana kareM? kaba vidvAnoM ke sAtha tattvaparAmarza kareM? aura kaba tattvaciMtana ko granthastha kareM? ___ maiM to yaha mAnatA hU~ ki sAdhaka AtmA ko jyAdA se jyAdA samaya ekAnta meM vyatIta karanA caahie| ati Avazyaka ho, utanA hI janasaMparka rakhanA caahie| sAdhaka kI sAdhanA nirantara sAmAjika saMparka se naSTa ho jAtI hai! hA~, sAmAjika pratiSThA bana jAtI hai! lokaprazaMsA mila jAtI hai! lekina vaha bhI puNyakarma kA udaya ho to! ekAnta jagaha kA, ekAnta samaya kA acchA upayoga kara leN| aise ramaNIya aura pavitra apane tIrtha sthAna haiM... jaMgaloM meM haiM... pahAr3oM para haiM... nirjana pradezoM meM haiM... vahA~ ekAnta mila sakatA hai | mahInoM taka aise sthAnoM meM baiThakara jJAnopAsanA kI jAe to kitane dharmagranthoM kA - adhyAtmagranthoM kA adhyayana, ciMtana aura lekhana ho jaae| aise sthAnoM meM dhyAnopAsanA kI jAe to AtmA meM kaisA AnaMda prakaTa ho jAe! kaise agocara tattvoM kA prakAza prApta ho jAe! kaise divya anubhavoM kA saMvedana ho jAe!! hA~, jise jJAnopAsanA aura dhyAnopAsanA meM ruci nahIM hai, usa vyakti ko ekAnta meM nahIM rahanA cAhie... usake lie to samUha-jIvana hI zreyaskara hai| parantu jJAnopAsanA aura dhyAnopAsanA ke binA sAdhu jIvana kA artha hI kyA? jJAna-dhyAna ke binA kyA mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA ho sakatI hai? For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 74 37. AnaMda kI AmraDAlI AnaMda manuSya kA svabhAva hai / koI bAhara ke jar3a-cetana padArthoM meM se AnaMda kI prApti kA prayatna karatA hai, to koI bhItara se AnaMda kI anubhUti karane kI ceSTA karatA hai / rAga-dveSa aura ajJAna se AvRtta jIvAtmA kyA kisI ko bhI akhaMDa... avicchinna aura pravarddhamAna AnaMda pradAna kara sakatA hai? kSaNa-kSaNa parivartanazIla vicAroM vAlA mAnava kyA kisI ko niraMtara AnaMda pradAna kara sakatA hai ? hama bhI vaise hI insAna haiM na? kyA Apane apane kisI bhI snehI ko, svajana ko, parijana ko akhaMDa aura avicchinna AnaMda pradAna kiyA hai ? kyA Apane apane mitroM ko, paricitoM ko niraMtara AnaMda diyA hai? kabhI na kabhI to aruci, dveSa gussA yA abhAva paidA ho hI gayA hogA! to phira una mitroM se yA snehIsvajanoM se Apa akhaMDa AnaMda kI apekSA kaise rakha sakate haiM? paradravyoM se sukha kI, zAMti kI yA AnaMda kI apekSA rakhate hue hamane sukha kho diyA hai, zAMti naSTa kara dI hai, AnaMda miTA diyA hai| jar3a dravya ho yA cetana dravya ho, apanI AtmA se bhinna jo bhI dravya haiM, padArtha haiM, unase hameM AnaMda kI apekSA nahIM rakhanI hai| hA~, hameM dUsare jIvoM ko nirapekSa bhAva se AnaMda pradAna karate rahanA hai| manuSya kA aisA svabhAva hai ki vaha jise cAhatA hai, jisase prema karatA hai, usa vyakti se sadaiva AnaMda kI apekSA rakhatA hai| vaha bhUla jAtA hai ki parivartanazIlatA to saMsAra kA svabhAva hai| Aja jisa vyakti se sneha milA, saMbhava hai ki kala usa vyakti se sneha nahIM mile| rAgI aura dveSI jIvAtmA se sadaiva sneha-AnaMda nahIM mila sakatA / usakA citta caMcala, vaise hI usakA sneha bhI caMcala ! sthira aura zAzvata sneha hotA hai vItarAga meM! lekina vItarAga se snehaAnaMda pAne kI kalA hameM hastagata honI caahie| pahale hameM hI vItarAga paramAtmA se prIti karanI hogii| nirapekSa prIti bA~dhanI hogI / usa prIti ko nibhAnA hogaa| prIti karanA AsAna hai, nibhAnA muzkila hai| For Private And Personal Use Only bAisaveM tIrthaMkara bhagavAna neminAtha ke sAtha rAjImati ne kaisI prIti nibhAI thii| nau-nau janmoM se prIti - saMbaMdha calA A rahA thaa| saMsAra ke aMtima janma meM

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yahI hai jiMdagI 75 bhI nemikumAra rAjImati ke pAsa zAdI karane ke bahAne se gaye aura jyoM rAjImatI ne nemikumAra ko dekha liyA, nemi ne apanA ratha lauTA diyaa| bhakta kavirAja jJAnavimalasUri ne isa prIti-saMbaMdha ko 'dhanya kahAnI' batAkara prasannatA vyakta kI hai| rAjImati zuM pUravabhavanI prIti bhalI pare pAlI re... pANigrahaNa saMkete AvI... toraNathI ratha vAlI re... nemi niraMjana nAtha... rAjImati ne duniyA ko prema kA eka mahAna aura adbhuta Adarza pradAna kiyA hai| prIti kevala bhoga meM hI nahIM hotI, tyAga meM bhI prIti ho sakatI hai| nemikumAra ne saMsAra kA tyAga kara zramaNatva ko svIkAra kiyA, to rAjImati ne bhI unhIM neminAtha se... neminAtha ke hI karakamaloM se zramaNatva ko svIkAra kiyaa| bhagavAna neminAtha kA akhaMDa sneha rAjImati ne pAyA / neminAtha kI amara Atma-jyoti meM rAjImati kI Atma-jyoti vilIna ho gii| yA to apanI AtmA meM se hI jJAnAnanda... sahajAnanda prApta kareM yA phira paramAtmA se paramAnanda prApta karane kA jIvana paryaMta prayAsa karate rheN| isake alAvA kisI se bhI AnaMda pAne kA prayatna mata krnaa| duniyA se hI AnaMda pAnA ho to anaMta AkAza se pAnA... anaMta AkAza meM mukta uDDayana karate vihaMgamoM se pAnA... uchalate sAgara se pAnA... niraMtara bahatI nadiyoM se pAnA... hare-bhare phala-phUloM vAle vRkSoM se paanaa...| prakRti kI goda meM AnaMda ke amRta ko khojanA... prakRti kI goda meM hI hara pala AnaMda kI amRtadhArA phUTatI hai... prasannatA chalachalAtI hai... kyoMki usameM rAga-dveSa kI Aga nahIM hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 76 sahane kI zakti denA mere deva paramAtmA se pratidina prArthanA karatA hU~ : 'he paramAtman! pratikUlatAoM ko sahane kI zakti mujhe do! pratikUlatAe~ jaba mujhe ghera le, taba maiM abhaya banA rahU~ aura AtmadhyAna meM sthira banA rahU~ | pratikUla saMyogoM meM, pratikUla paristhitiyoM meM merA mana caMcala na ho, merA citta asvastha na ho... aisA kucha kara do|' hRdaya meM zraddhA kA dIpaka kabhI-kabhI maMda ho jAtA hai... kabhI bhaya lagatA hai ki yaha dIpaka bujha na jAya! zraddhA kA sahArA yadi calA gayA to yaha jIvana besahArA banakara saMsAra meM bhaTaka jaayegaa...| 'anukUla saMyogoM meM, anukUla paristhitiyoM meM kyA dharmapuruSArtha kara liyA jAtA hai? anukUlatAoM kA phAyadA kyA AtmavikAsa kI dRSTi se uThAyA jA rahA hai?' jaba maiM apanI aMtarAtmA se ye prazna pUchatA hU~, pratyuttara nahIM milatA hai| gaharI vedanA anubhUta hotI hai| taba eka bhaya-prerita vicAra AtA hai : 'anukUla paristhiti meM jaba AtmavikAsa kA puruSArtha nahIM ho pAtA hai, taba pratikUla paristhiti meM kyA hogA? pratikUla saMyogoM meM dharmadhyAna kaise banA rahegA? jIvana meM pratikUlatAe~ hI jyAdA hotI haiM... kyoMki pApakarmoM kA bojha jyAdA hai... puNyakarma bahuta thor3e haiN| kisI ke bhI jIvana meM sabhI prakAra kI anukUlatAe~ nahIM hotI haiN| koI na koI pratikUlatA to hotI hI hai| bar3A sattAdhIza ho, bahuta bar3A zrImaMta ho, mahAna prajJAvaMta ho... yA jJAnI ho! koI na koI pratikUlatA jIvana ke sAtha jur3I huI hotI hI hai| dUsarI ora mana kA svabhAva bar3A vicitra hai| mana bArabAra pratikUlatA kI ora AkarSita hotA hai| anukUlatAe~ hone para bhI pratikUlatA ke sAtha mana jur3a jAtA hai aura azAMta banA rahatA hai| __jaba dharmagranthoM meM bar3e-bar3e mahAtmAoM ko ghora kaSToM ke bIca sthira, svastha aura nizcala dekhatA hU~... taba mujhe merI niHsattvatA para, pAmaratA para napharata sI paidA ho jAtI hai| Ajakala utane ghora kaSTa kahA~ Ate haiM? kauna mere kAnoM meM kIle gAr3ane AtA hai? kauna mujha para kAlacakra kA prahAra karane AtA hai? kauna sara para aMgAre bharane AtA hai? kauna talavAra kA prahAra karane AtA hai? kauna mujhe patthara mArane AtA hai? kauna zarIra kI camar3I utArane AtA hai? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 77 kauna kolhU meM hameM pIsane AtA hai? aisA koI saMkaTa... koI upadrava nahIM A rahA hai... na aise upasarga sahana karane ke lie hama sAmane calakara jAte haiN| kisI ne kaTu zabda sunA diyA... mAno ki kAlacakra kA AghAta ho gayA! zarIra meM sAmAnya bImArI A gaI, mAno kisI ne zarIra para aMgAre barasA diye! kisI ne kabhI mAmUlI apamAna kara diyA, mAno ki zarIra kI camar3I utara gaI... kitanI nirbalatA A gaI hai mana meM? kitanI niHsattva bana gaI hai? aisI niHsattva AtmA kyA mokSa pA sakatI hai? niHsattvoM ke lie mokSa kahA~ hai? unake liye to naraka taiyAra hai| jaba taka pratikUlatAe~ sahana karane kI kSamatA nahIM AtI hai taba taka koI dharmaArAdhanA phalavatI nahIM bana sktii| magadha-samrATa zreNika ko usake hI priya putra ne kArAvAsa meM banda kara diyA thA na? itanA hI nahIM, putra pitA ko cAbUka se pratidina burI taraha pITatA thaa...| usa samaya zreNika ne kitanI samatA rakhI thI? kitanA dhairya rakhA thA? koI Akroza nahIM... koI rUdana nahIM... koI phariyAda nahIM! kitanA sattva hogA usa mahApuruSa meM? kaisI adbhuta jJAnadRSTi hogI usa rAjapuruSa meM? paramAtmA mahAvIra deva kI sevA ne kyA usameM yaha sattva paidA kara diyA hogA? paramAtmA ke prati unakI jo avicala zraddhA thI, usa zraddhA ne kyA usameM jJAnadRSTi jAgrata kara dI hogI? samatA se, sahajatA se kaSToM ko sahana karane kI kSamatA A jAye, basa, vahI paramAtmA kI parama kRpA hai| aisI kRpA kA pAtra bana jAU~... to jIvana saphala hai, dharmaArAdhanA saphala hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 78 va 39. AnaMda kI anubhUti kA rAjamArga 3 vicAroM meM samatA aura AcAroM meM sthiratA Ae binA AnaMda kI anubhUti asaMbhava hai| vicAroM meM ugratA bharI huI hai aura AcAra meM asthiratA A gaI hai, to azAMti aura asvasthatA hI bhugatanI pdd'egii| ___ jaba vicAroM meM krodha aura lobha praviSTa ho jAte haiM, mAna aura mAyA kA praveza ho jAtA hai, taba vicAra caMcala bana jAte haiN| Aveza, ugratA... dInatA... hInatA aura kSudratA vicAroM kI samatA ko naSTa kara dete haiN| ___ jaba vicAroM meM samatA nahIM rahatI hai taba AcAra-vyavahAra bhI asthira bana jAtA hai| kartavyapAlana meM asthiratA A jAtI hai| kabhI kartavyapAlana hotA hai, kabhI nhiiN| vicAroM kI samatA banAye rakhane ke lie kSamA, namratA, saralatA aura nirlobhatA kA sAtha kabhI nahIM chor3anA caahie| hamAre vicAra sadaiva kSamAzIla bane rahane caahie| hamAre vicAroM meM sadaiva namratA kA AsvAda milanA caahie| sadaiva hamAre vicAroM para saralatA kA sAmrAjya chAyA rahanA caahie| sadaiva hamAre vicAra lobha se mukta rahane caahie| __samarAditya kevalI kA caritra sAmane AtA hai... taba guNasena ke vicAroM kI samatA AkRSTa kiye binA nahIM rhtii| agnizarmA ke prati guNasena ne kabhI bhI apane vicAroM ko ugra nahIM banane diye| kevala eka jIvana meM nahIM, nau-nau janmoM meM guNasena ne vicAroM meM samatA hI rakhI... to nauveM bhava meM ve samarAditya bane aura vItarAgatA prApta kara lii| vairAgya ke sAtha-sAtha samatA kI unhoMne akhaMDa upAsanA kii| ___ agnizarmA ne ghora tapazcaryA kI thI, paraMtu vicAroM meM samatA nahIM rakha paayaa| guNasena ke prati usake vicAra ugra bana gaye... ugra banate hI gaye... guNasena kA ghAtaka bana gayA aura bhISaNa saMsAra meM bhaTaka gyaa| nau bhavoM meM guNasena aura agnizarmA ke ati nikaTa ke saMbaMdha bhI rahe... paraMtu ye saMbaMdha prema ke saMbaMdha nahIM raha ske| pitA-putra ke aura pati-patnI ke bhI saMbaMdha hue the, paraMtu una saMbaMdhoM meM sneha aura sadbhAva nahIM the| agnizarmA kI AtmA una bhavoM meM ucita kartavyapAlana bhI nahIM kara pAyI thii| kaise kara sakatI thI? yadi vicAroM meM samatA na ho to jIvana-vyavahAra meM sthiratA bhI nahIM rahatI hai! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 79 kyA kiyA jAe...? vicAroM meM samatA kI avicala sthApanA kaise kI jAe? khUba cintana-manana karane para eka upAya mila gayA...! vaha upAya hai vizvAsa kA! paramAtmA ke prati dRDha vizvAsa sthApita ho jAe... zvAsa meM vizvAsa ghula-mila jAe to vicAroM meM samatA sthira bana sakatI hai| __kevala zAbdika vizvAsa nahIM, zvAsoM ke sAtha vizvAsa ghula-mila jAnA caahie| 'jo kucha ho rahA hai, mere paramAtmA ne jAnA huA hai, dekhA huA hai| phira mujhe kisa bAta kI ciMtA? kisa bAta kA bhaya?' cintA aura bhaya hI to vicAroM meM viSamatA paidA karate haiN| mujhe cintAmuktabhayamukta bana jAnA cAhie | paramAtmavizvAsa hI mujhe cintAmukta-bhayamukta kara sakatA hai| cintA calI gaI, bhaya calA gayA ki mana meM samatA A gii| paramAtmA ke aciMtya prabhAva se cintAoM kA aura bhaya kA samUla uccheda ho jAe, to mana samatA se prazAnta ho jaae| mahAsatI manoramA ne apane mana meM aisI samatA prasthApita kI thii| zreSThi sudarzana para kalaMka AyA aura sUlI para car3hane kI sajA ho gaI... to bhI manoramA bhayabhIta nahIM huI... vaha paramAtmadhyAna meM lIna bana gii| sudarzana aura manoramA ke vicAroM meM ugratA nahIM AyI, viSamatA paidA nahIM huii| unake jIvana-vyavahAra meM asthiratA nahIM aayii| kisI ke bhI prati durvyavahAra nahIM kiyaa| jisa rAnI abhayA ne sudarzana ko kalaMkita kiyA thA, usa rAnI ke prati bhI roSa nahIM kiyA, durvyavahAra nahIM kiyaa| aisI AtmadazA kaba prApta hogI? kaise prApta hogI? paramAtmakRpA hI eka upAya hai| paramAtmavizvAsa hI eka sahArA hai| mere hara zvAsocchavAsa meM vizvAsa ghula-mila jAya to basa! vicAroM meM samatA banI rahegI aura AcAra meM sthiratA banI rahegI... isase jIvanayAtrA AnaMdapUrNa bana jaayegii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 80 40. AvaraNa utAra do Agraha ke 3 0 kyA AtmA meM mukti kI kAmanA jAgrata huI hai? 0 kyA maiM mumukSu banA hU~? 0 kyA Antara-bAhya baMdhana apriya lagate haiM? O kyA citta anAgrahI banA hai? 0 kyA samatA kA saMga priya lagatA hai? kitane-kitane prazna aMtarAtmA meM ubharate haiM? jahA~ ekAnta milA, aise praznoM kI paraMparA zurU! jaba praznoM ke sukhada pratyuttara nahIM milate haiM, mana becainI se bhara jAtA hai| AtmA ke pradeza-pradeza meM khojatA hU~, usa mukti kI kAmanA ko! bahuta dinoM se khojatA hU~... nahIM mila rahI hai vaha kaamnaa| yadi AtmA meM mukti kI kAmanA hI nahIM hai to phira mumukSu kaise kahA jA sakatA hU~? mumukSutA binA kA mumukSu yAnI mAnavatA binA kA mAnava! mAnavatA na ho to mAnava kaisA? yadi kevala mAnava deha se mAnava mAnA jA sakatA ho, to kevala vezabhUSA se mumukSu mAna leM! nahIM, nahIM, isa taraha apane Apako mumukSu kaise mAna lU~? kitane-kitane bAhya baMdhana priya haiM... kitane-kitane Antara baMdhana priya haiM? krodha priya hai, isalie to krodha kA sahArA letA hU~! abhimAna priya hai, isalie abhimAna kA sahayoga letA hU~! mAyA aura lobha priya hai, isalie mAyA aura lobha kA sahakAra letA hU~! ye jo priya haiM ve hI to baMdhana haiM! vaise pA~ca indriyoM ke kitane viSaya priya haiM! zabda, rUpa, rasa, gaMdha aura sparza ke asaMkhya viSayoM kA rAga kitanA pragAr3ha baMdhana hai? jaba taka viSayoM kA rAga akhaMDa banA rahA hai taba taka mukti se prema kaise ho sakatA hai? kyA viSayoM kA rAga burA lagatA hai? yadi vaiSayika rAga burA nahIM lagatA hai to AtmA kI zuddha avasthA kA... paramAtmadazA kA anurAga acchA kaise lagegA? mana niraMtara baMdhanoM se pyAra kara rahA hai... aMtarAtmA mukti kI icchA meM tar3apa rahI hai| __ mana kitane-kitane AgrahoM meM baMdha gayA hai? mumukSu anAgrahI honA cAhie / parokSa padArtha ke nirNaya meM bhI Agraha anAvazyaka hai| parokSa bAtoM ko siddha karane ke lie aneka tarka karanA bhI vyartha hai| zuSka tarka nahIM karane cAhie | For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI zuSka tarkoM kI jAla bichAnevAloM para mithyA abhimAna savAra ho hI jAtA hai| aise zuSka tarka karane vAle paNDitoM ko nahIM dekhe haiM kyA? unakA apAra mithyAbhimAna nahIM dekhA hai kyA! isase mumukSutA kalaMkita hotI hai| mumukSu zuSka tarka karane vAlA zuSka paNDita nahIM hotA hai| mumukSu to AtmAnubhava kI ora nirantara pragati karatA sAdhaka-mahAtmA hotA hai| mumukSu sadaiva samatA kA saMga karatA hai| eka kSaNa bhI vaha samatA kA tyAga nahIM karatA hai| yAnI prabala rAga-dveSa meM pha~satA nahIM hai / mumukSu ke mana meM samatA hotI hai... vANI meM samatA hotI hai... kAryakalApa meM samatA hotI hai| samatA ko surakSita rakhane ke lie vaha nirantara jAgrata banA rahatA hai| kahIM para bhI viSamatA nahIM, kahIM para bhI vyAkulatA nhiiN| kaise bhI viSama saMyoga paidA ho jAe, kaisI bhI viSama paristhiti paidA ho jAe... mumukSu samatA kA saMga nahIM chor3a sakatA hai| sadaiva citta anAgrahI banA rahe aura nirantara samatA kA sAtha banA rahe... to mumukSu-jIvana dhanya bana jAya, kRtArtha ho jAya | Antara-bAhya baMdhana apriya ho jAe aura mukti kI kAmanA prabala bana jAe... apUrva AtmAnanda kI anubhUti hone lge| kaba aise dhanya kSaNa AyeMge jIvana meM? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI kha 41. pasaMdagI kI 'rAmAyaNa Rtu suhAvanI thI, vana bhI upavana jaisA thA, mArga svaccha thA, prabhAtakAlIna AkAza nirabhra thA, vAyu bhI manda-manda gati se pravAhita ho rahI thI... hama loga padayAtrA kara rahe the| mere sAtha eka yuvaka mauna dhAraNa kiye cala rahA thA / merA paricita thaa| maiM use acchI taraha jAnatA thaa| usake mukha para viSAda chAyA huA thA... maiMne anumAna kiyA ki usakA hRdaya vyathita honA caahie| vAtAvaraNa praphullita thA, yuvaka vyathita thA! AsapAsa saba kucha sundara aura suhAvanA thA, parantu yuvaka viSAda-grasta thaa| jaba usase merI bAta huI taba vAstavikatA prakaTa huI! usa yuvaka kA mana priya vyakti ke viraha se vyAkula thA! apriya ke saMyoga se vyathita thA! __marubhUmi kA pradeza thA, vaizAkha-jeTha ke mahIne the| asahya garmI thI, ujjar3anirjana pradeza meM basa... reta hI reta ur3a rahI thI... rAstA bhI kaMTakAkIrNa thA... patharIlA thA... hamArI padayAtrA cala rahI thii| mere sAthI muni kI ora maiMne dekhA | unake mukha para prasannatA prasphuTita thii| mu~ha para prasveda ke bindu jame hue the| phira bhI unakI A~khoM meM se sneha Tapaka rahA thA... mukha para smita bikharA huA thaa| vAtAvaraNa udvegapUrNa thA, muni praphullita the! AsapAsa saba kucha viSAdapreraka thA, parantu muni prasannacitta the! gA~va meM pahu~cane ke pazcAt jaba maiMne una munivara se bAta kI, mujhe jJAta huA ki unako priya ke saMyoga kI koI abhilASA nahIM thI, apriya ke saMyoga kI koI vyAkulatA nahIM thii| sukha, AnaMda, prasannatA... kA mUlAdhAra mila gayA! priya ke saMyoga kI abhilASA nahIM cAhie, apriya ke viyoga kI koI kAmanA nahIM cAhie! priya kA saMyoga mile yA na mile, apriya kA saMyoga rahe yA na rahe mana priyApriya kI kalpanAoM se mukta rahanA caahie| ___ mana ko priyApriya kI kalpanAoM se mukta karane ke lie mana ko prazasta yoga meM, dharmatattvoM ke cintana-manana meM jor3a denA cAhie | tattvacintana meM mana kA abhiramaNa hone lagA ki svayaMbhU AnaMda paidA hogaa| parantu tattvacintana kI ramaNatA jaba taka sthAyI nahIM banatI hai, kSaNika rahatI hai... jJAnAnanda bhI kSaNika bana jAtA hai... aura mana priyApriya kI kalpanAoM meM kho jAtA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI priya-saMyoga kI abhilASA... vAsanA kitanI gaharI hai...! apriya-viyoga kI kAmanA kitanI prabala hai...? varSoM taka prayatna karane para bhI ina vAsanAoM se mukti nahIM mila rahI hai! hAlA~ki merA prayatna itanA prabala nahIM hai, jitanI prabala ye vAsanAe~ haiM! kyoM prayatna prabala nahIM ho pAtA hai? kyoM itanA AtmavIrya ullasita nahIM hotA hai? socatA hU~... bahuta bAra socatA hU~... to apanI niHsattvatA ke sAtha-sAtha karmoM kI prabalatA kA bhI vicAra AtA hai| jIvana askhalita gati se vyatIta ho rahA hai, jIvana-zakti kSINa hotI jA rahI hai... saMdhyA ho jAyegI... aMdherA chA jAyegA... bhava vana meM AtmA bhaTaka jAyegI... ye sAre vicAra AtmA ko jhakajhora dete haiN| udvega-viSAda se mana bhara jAtA hai| parantu apanI isa vivazatA para turaMta hI tiraskAra A jAtA hai| priyApriya kI kalpanAoM ko naSTa kara dene kI prabala bhAvanA jAgrata hotI hai...| __ parantu yaha bhAvanA bhI kSaNika bana kara bikhara jAtI hai! kaisA hai mana? kaisI hai bhAvanAe~? parantu phira bhI nirAzA ke AMcala meM muMha chipAkara jIvana nahIM jInA hai| jinavacanoM ke sahAre satata puruSArtha karate hue maranA hai! priyApriya kI kalpanAe~ rahe yA na rahe... For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 42. honI to hokara ra sarvajJa vItarAga bhagavAna mahAvIra ke pAsa jaba rAjakumAra jamAlI ne vairAgyapUrNa hRdaya se aura namratA bhare zabdoM se prArthanA kI thI ki 'bhagavana, merA mana vaiSayika sukhoM se virakta banA hai aura maiM Apake caraNakamala meM apanA jIvana samarpita karanA cAhatA hU~,' taba sarvajJa paramAtmA mahAvIra deva ne jamAlI ko kyoM cAritradharma pradAna kiyA? mana meM yaha prazna paidA huA, prazna kA samAdhAna DhUMDhate-DhUMDhate kitane dina bIta gaye! paramAtmA sarvajJa the, jar3a-cetana sabhI padArthoM ke sarvakAlIna bhAva jAnate the! sabhI dravyoM ke sabhI paryAyoM ko jAnate the... unase koI bhI bAta ajJAta nahIM thI... to kyA 'yaha jamAlI sAdhu banane ke pazcAt, zrutajJAnI banane ke pazcAt, mere hI siddhAntoM kA khaMDana karegA aura mere viruddha logoM meM pracAra karegA...' yaha bAta nahIM jAnI hogI unhoMne? jamAlI kA bhaviSya kyA unase ajJAta rahA hogA? nahIM, yaha bAta saMbhava nhiiN| yadi saMbhavita mAneM to mahAvIra kI sarvajJatA nahIM mAna sakate! yadi sarvajJatA ko svIkAra karate haiM, to jamAlI ke anAgata kAla kA jJAna svIkAra karanA hI hogaa| __ bhagavAna mahAvIra jAnate the ki 'jamAlI mere dvArA pratipAdita siddhAnta kA virodha kara, zramaNa saMgha kA tyAga kara calA jAyegA aura vaha apane siddhAnta kA pracAra karegA' phira bhI bhagavAna ne jamAlI ko cAritradharma diyA! apane zramaNa saMgha meM sammilita kiyA! prazna yahA~ paidA hotA hai ki aisA jAnane para bhI unhoMne jamAlI ko dIkSA kyoM dI? yadi mujhe jJAta ho jAe ki 'yaha vyakti bhaviSya meM merA hI duzmana hone vAlA hai, to maiM usa vyakti ko svIkAra nahIM kruuNgaa| koI bhI nahIM kregaa| to bhagavAna ne jAnane para bhI use kyoM svIkAra kara liyA? - isa prazna kA samAdhAna bhagavAna mahAvIra ke batAye hue eka siddhAnta se ho gayA! vaha siddhAnta hai 'bhavitavyatA' kA! hara jIvAtmA kI apanI svatantra 'bhavitavyatA' hotI hai| hara jIvAtmA kI gati, pragati, avanati nizcita hotI hai| hara jIvAtmA kI unnati... avanati nizcita hotI hai| jo pUrNa jJAnI mahApuruSa hote haiM, unake jJAna-prakAza meM yaha saba pratibiMbita hotA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 85 zramaNa jamAlI kA yaha krama nizcita thA - rAjakula janma lenA... yauvana meM rAjakumArI priyadarzanA se zAdI karanA... phira saMsAra se virakta honA.... jIvana svIkAra karanA... zrutajJAnI honA... bImAra honA... dUsare zramaNoM ke sAtha saiddhAntika matabheda honA... bhagavAna mahAvIra kI avajJA karanA... zramaNasaMgha se nikala jAnA... yaha saba nizcita thA bhagavAna mahAvIra ke kevalAloka meM / bhagavAna mahAvIra kI apanI bhI bhavitavyatA thI na ! jamAlI ko dIkSA denA aura zramaNasaMgha meM lenA- bhagavAna kI bhavitavyatA thI ... usa bhavitavyatA ke anusAra hI unhoMne jamAlI ko dIkSA dI thI aura zramaNasaMgha meM praveza diyA thaa| ve jAnate the ki 'eka dina yaha merA virodhI bana jAyegA, merI sarvajJatA kA anAdara karegA, phira bhI unako bhavitavyatA ke anusAra hI calanA thA / gozAlaka ko 'tejolezyA' kI zakti prApta karane kA upAya batAte samaya ve jAnate the ki isa zakti kA prayoga gozAlaka mere para hI karegA... phira bhI 'tejolezyA' de dI! bhavitavyatA ne dilavAI tejolezyA ! upAdhyAya zrI vinayavijayajI ne 'zAntasudhArasa' meM gAyA hai 'yena janena yathAbhavitavyaM tadbhavatA durvAraM re...' 'jisa manuSya kI jaisI bhavitavyatA hogI, vaha vaisA banegA hI, koI use roka nahIM sakatA / ' For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 86 43. alaga ho atRpti se eka vicAra sAmane AyA : 'tRpti se mukti !' jaba taka manuSya viSayabhoga se tRpta nahIM hotA hai usakI mukti nahIM ho pAtI ! tarka diyA gayA hai : 'yadi manuSya viSayabhoga se atRpta rahatA hai to usako vaha atRpti satAtI rahatI hai, atRpta kA dhyAna nahIM lagatA hai... dhyAna ke binA mukti nahIM milatI hai !' vicAra prastuta karane vAle ko maiMne kahA : 'bhAI, viSayoM ke upabhoga se kabhI tRpti saMbhava hai kyA? tuma mAnate ho na ki atItakAla meM apanI AtmA ne anaMta janma liye, una janmoM meM anaMta viSayopabhoga kiye, parantu kyA tRpti huI ? kaba tRpti hogI aura kaba mukti pAoge? yadi isa AzA meM rahe ki 'maiM khUba vaiSayika sukha bhoga lU~, tRpti ho jAyegI aura phira mukti mila jAyegI !' yaha tumhArI bhramaNA hogI! eka vRddha puruSa mRtyu- zayyA para soyA thA / usakI patnI dharmaparAyaNA thI / 'pati ko mRtyu ke samaya gurumukha se zrI navakAra maMtra sunane ko mila jAe to pati kA paraloka sudhara jAe...' isa bhAvanA se prerita hokara vaha mujhe bulAne AyI, maiM gyaa| usa vRddha puruSa ko maiMne navakAra maMtra sunAyA aura usakI AtmA ko samatA-samAdhi mile, vaise do zabda khe| usa vRddha puruSa ne kahA : 'mahArAja sAhaba, eka bAta mere mana meM cintA paidA kara rahI hai... aba bhI mujhe strI ke aMgopAMga dekhane kI Asakti banI huI hai... aba kyA hogA ?' maiMne pUchA : 'kyA jIvana meM kabhI bhI viSaya-vAsanA se mukta hone kA puruSArtha kiyA thA? kyA kabhI isa mAnavadeha kI azucitA kA cintana kara, dehAsakti ko miTAne kA prayatna kiyA thA?' unhoMne kahA : 'nahIM, vaisA to maiMne kucha nahIM kiyA / ' yadi viSayopabhoga se tRpti ho jAtI to isa vRddha puruSa ko tRpti ho jAnI cAhie thii| parantu tRpti nahIM huI, mRtyu paryaMta atRpti banI rhii| AnevAle bhava meM gaharI atRpti lekara janmegA ! For Private And Personal Use Only tRpti se mukti nahIM parantu pahale to atRpti se mana ko mukta karo / viSayopabhoga karate rahane se kabhI bhI atRpti miTegI nahIM, atRpti kI Aga vizeSa prajvalita hogii| atRpti se mukta hone ke lie 'tyAga' kA mArga svIkAra karanA hI hogaa| viSayopabhoga kA tyAga karanA hI hogA /

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87 yahI hai jiMdagI jisa viSaya kA mana se aura tana se tyAga kiyA jAtA hai, usa viSaya kA AkarSaNa TUTa jAtA hai| dIrghakAlIna viSaya-tyAga se viSayAsakti TUTa jAtI hai| alabattA, tyAga kevala zarIra se nahIM, mana se bhI honA caahie| tyAga karane para, jisa viSaya kA tyAga kiyA ho, usa viSaya kA mAnasika AkarSaNa uTha sakatA hai| parantu 'cittanirodha' kI lagAtAra sAdhanA karane para viSayAsakti mara jAtI hai| vaiSayika vAsanA ko svIkAra mata kro| vAsanA para vijaya pAne kA sadaiva puruSArtha karate rho| vijaya pAne meM bhale hI do-cAra janma lene par3eM... janamajanama taka vAsanAoM se lar3ate raho, vAsanA avazya naSTa hogii| AtmA kI vijaya hogii| AtmA kI vAsanA para vijaya hI to mukti hai! AtmA ko AtmaguNoM meM tRpta kreN| svabhAva dazA meM tRpti kA anubhava kreN| AtmaguNoM meM tRpti pA sakate ho| vaiSayika sukhoM meM kabhI bhI tRpti nahIM pA skoge| AtmA ke jJAnaguNa meM, darzanaguNa meM, cAritraguNa meM tRpti pAne kA prayatna kreN| yaha tRpti avinAzI hogI, akhaMDa hogii| yaha tRpti pAne para viSayoM kI atRpti miTa jaayegii| tRpti se mukti nahIM, atRpti se mukti pAne kA prayatna kreN| yaha prayatna hai, viSayopabhoga se virakti kA / For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI ___88 44. para kI AzA... sadA nirAzA...3 vAstavikatA kA ajJAna hI to vyathA aura vedanA ko janma de rahA hai| jo paradravya haiM, jo para-pudgala haiM, usakoM maiM apanA mAna rahA hU~! usako apanA banAnA cAhatA hU~, apanA banAye rakhanA cAhatA hU~! yaha ajJAnatA nahIM hai to aura kyA hai? paradravyoM ke sahAre maiM apanA vyaktitva apanA prabhAva banAnA cAhatA hU~... yaha bhI ajJAnatA hI hai na? yaha vyAmoha nahIM hai to aura kyA hai? jAnatA hU~ ki paradravya kabhI svadravya nahIM bana sakatA, phira bhI paradravya ko 'svadravya' mAnane lagA hU~! isI vajaha se mana meM abhAva... nyUnatA, dInatA... mahasUsa karatA huuN| isI vajaha se mana hajAroM vikAroM se bhara gayA hai| mohAkrAnta aura ajJAnAvRta duniyA kI nigAhoM meM apane ApakA ucca aura bhavya pradarzana karane ke lie paradravyoM kI tIvra AvazyakatA mahasUsa kara rahA huuN| kyoMki duniyA manuSya kA paradravyoM ke mAdhyama se mUlyAMkana karatI hai| jisa manuSya ke pAsa bahuta jyAdA paradravya hote haiM, duniyA usako mahAna mAnatI hai| Atmatattva ke alAvA sabhI dravya paradravya haiN| svajana, parijana, vaibhava aura zarIra paradravya hai| yadi merA koI svajana nahIM hai to merA mana kucha abhAva mahasUsa karatA hai| yadi merA koI parijana nahIM hai to merA mana kucha vyathA anubhava karatA hai| yadi mere pAsa vaibhava nahIM hai to merA mana dInatA anubhava karatA hai... yadi merA zarIra acchA nahIM hai to merA mana viSAdagrasta bana jAtA paradravyoM kA yaha tIvra lagAva jaba taka banA rahe, taba taka zAMti aura prasannatA kaise mile? Antara-AnaMda kI anubhUti kaise ho? paradravyoM kI Asakti se hRdaya bharA huA hotA hai taba tapazcaryA bhI zAMti pradAna nahIM kara sakatI hai| vrata aura niyamoM kA pAlana bhI AtmAnanda kI anubhUti nahIM karA sakatA hai| paradravyoM kI AzA-AkAMkSA se mana kaba nivRtta hogA? mujhe vaha nivRtti cAhie! mujhe vaha mukti cAhie! siddhazilA para jAne meM derI hogI to calegA, mokSa derI se milegA to calegA, parantu para AzAoM se mukti pAne meM derI hone For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI se tIvra vyathA anubhava karatA huuN| para AzAoM se mujhe zIghra mukti cAhie | yaha mukti mila jAe to basa, mujhe yahI mokSa mila gayA! ___ mana eka bhI paradravya kI AzA nahIM kare, paradravya ke saMyoga-viyoga meM harSazoka nahIM kare... tabhI AtmadhyAna meM - paramAtmadhyAna meM sthiratA... lInatA... tallInatA A sakatI hai... tabhI AtmAnanda kI apAra anubhUti ho sakatI hai| __ jIvana kI yaha vAstavikatA hai ki paradravyoM ke saMyoga-viyoga hote rahate haiM! saMyoga meM harSa aura viyoga meM zoka karanA vAstavikatA nahIM hai! vahA~ vAstavikatA hai kevala jJAtA bananA! kevala dRSTA bananA! vAstavikatA ke anurUpa jIvana jIne para, duniyA kI dRSTi meM acchA lagUM yA burA lagUM, mujhe koI cintA na ho, koI bhaya na ho! aisA manobala, aisA Atmabala kaba prApta hogA? kadama-kadama para duniyA kA vicAra karanA svayaM kI kamajorI nahIM hai to aura kyA hai! duniyA avAstavika ko vAstavika aura vAstavika ko avAstavika mAnatI rahI hai aura mAnatI rhegii| aisI duniyA ke sAtha merA saMbaMdha kaise raha sakatA hai? duniyA se vimukha hue binA vAstavikatA ke mArga para nizciMtatA se nahIM calA jA sktaa| paradravyoM kI AzAoM se mukti pAye binA azAMti, saMtApa aura aMtarvedanA se mukti nahIM mila sktii| kaba aise dina AyeMge jaba sabhI paradravyoM se nirapekSa bana, svAtmadravya meM abhiramaNa karatA rahU~gA! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 90 45. koziza... para kisalie ? kSaNika ko zAzvata banAne kA prayatna, vinAzI ko avinAzI banAne kA prayatna, asthira ko sthira banAne kA prayatna ! kyA yahI puruSArtha calatA rahegA jIvana meM ? mana kyA isI kI yojanA banAtA rahegA ? to phira jo vAstava meM zAzvata hai, avinAzI hai... sthira hai, usako pAne kA puruSArtha isa jIvana meM hogA hI nahIM ? saMsAra-vyavahAra aura vyavahAra-dharma kyA kSaNika ko nibhAne kA, vinAzI ko pakar3a kara rakhane kA, asthira ko apane pAsa banAye rakhane kA upadeza detA hai ? to phira mana kI zAMti, paramAtmadhyAna meM sthiratA aura tattvaciMtana meM lInatA kaise sambhava hogI ? kSaNika, vinAzI aura asthira vastuoM ke sahAre ijjata banA lI hai saMsAra meM! kSaNika, vinAzI aura asthira bAtoM para bharosA kara zurU kara diye haiM sAmAjika kArya? kaise banI raha sakatI hai ijjata aura kaise saphala bana sakate haiM kArya? priyajanoM ke saMyoga kyA zAzvata haiM ? nahIM, phira bhI priyajanoM se inakA viyoga hogA hI nahIM, isa dhAraNA para vizvAsa kara liyA hai! vaiSayika sukha ke sAdhana kyA avinAzI haiM ? nahIM, phira bhI una sAdhanoM para bharosA kara liyA hai ki 'ye sukha ke sAdhana mere pAsa raheMge hI... kabhI naSTa nahIM hoNge|' kyA zarIra kA Arogya sthira raha sakatA hai ? nahIM, phira bhI vaise zarIra para bharosA kara, kaI aise kArya zurU kara diye haiM... aisA samajha kara ki Arogya kabhI naSTa hogA hI nahIM!' priya vyaktiyoM ke saMyoga ko zAzvata mAnakara unake vizvAsa para kucha sAmAjika kArya prArambha kara diye / priya vyaktiyoM kA saMyoga jaba gar3abar3AtA hai, TUTane kI sambhAvanA jJAta hotI hai, taba usa saMyoga ko zAzvata banAne kA viphala prayatna karatA hU~! bhaya satAtA hai... 'yadi yaha vyakti calA gayA to prArambha kiyA huA kArya saMpUrNa kaise hogA? yadi saMpUrNa nahIM huA to duniyA meM merI badanAmI hogI... loga kyA kaheMge? For Private And Personal Use Only nIrogI zarIra ke vizvAsa para kArya to uThA liyA... logoM ne merI khUba sarAhanA kI ! prazaMsA sunakara khuza bhI huA / parantu jaba lagA ki Arogya

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yahI hai jiMdagI bigar3a rahA hai, ghabarAyA! mana meM aneka vikalpa paidA ho gaye! asthira Arogya ko sthira karane ke bharasaka prayatna zurU kara diye! mana cintAoM se vyAkula bana gayA! samAja meM... gAMva-nagaroM meM merA yaza phaila gayA... merI pratiSThA jama gaI... loga merI ijjata karane lage... maiMne yaza ko zAzvata mAna liyA! bhramaNA meM pha~sa gyaa| aba usa yaza... ijjata aura pratiSThA ko zAzvata banAye rakhane kI yojanA banAne lagA! parantu jaba lagA ki yaza kA mahala hila rahA hai, mahala girane vAlA hai... mana atyanta vyathita ho gayA, yaza ke mahala ko sthira rakhane kI daur3a-dhUpa zurU kara dI! yaza kI eSaNA ne merA galA ghoMTanA zurU kara diyA / atyadhika mAnasika tanAva se mana vikSipta ho gyaa| yauvana aura jIvana kA vyAmoha bhI, yauvana aura jIvana ko avinAzI banAye rakhane kI kalpanA detA hai| kalpanA meM se pravRtti paidA hotI hai| jAnatA hU~ ki kSaNika kabhI bhI zAzvata nahIM bana sakatA, vinAzI kabhI bhI avinAzI nahIM bana sakatA, asthira kabhI bhI sthira nahIM bana sakatA... phira bhI kyoM kSaNika ke prati, vinAzI ke prati aura asthira ke prati itanA AkarSaNa banA rahatA hai? kyoM unake prati anAsakti nahIM AtI? zAzvata, sthira aura avinAzI Atmatattva ke prati kyoM tIvra AkarSaNa nahIM banA rahatA? paramAtmatattva ke prati anurAga kyoM paidA nahIM hotA? kucha bhI ho - kSaNika, asthira aura vinAzI kA anurAga to TUTanA hI caahie| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 46. kucha bhI nahIM cAhie : sivA tumhAre! 3 eka vRddha sajjana paramAtmA ke maMdira meM baiThe the| dRSTi paramAtmA kI pAvanakArI pratimA para sthira thI aura mana paramAtmA ke dhyAna meM lIna thA / hoThoM para paramAtmA kA nAma thaa...| do ghaMTe vyatIta ho gaye, taba use eka Antara dhvani sunAI dI : 'tujhe kyA cAhie? jo cAhie so mA~ga le|' vRddha muskarAyA... manomana pratyuttara diyA : 'mere bhagavana, kyA tU degA mujhe.. jo mujhe cAhie?' javAba milA : 'kyA tujhe mere prati zraddhA nahIM hai? sacce hRdaya se jo mere dvAra para AtA hai, nirAza hokara nahIM jAtA... isalie tU socakara kala prAtaH mere pAsa aanaa|' vRddha ne harSa ke A~sU bahAte hue paramAtmA ke caraNoM meM namana kiyA aura apane mukAma para A gyaa| ___vRddha rAta bhara socatA rahA... usakA roma-roma pulakita ho rahA thA... kalpanAsRSTi meM paramAtmA kI karuNAmayI pratimA prasannatA bikhera rahI thii| 'mujhe prAtaHkAla bulAyA hai... maiM kyA mA~gUMgA? mujhe kyA cAhie?' vaha socatA hI rhaa| vRddha ke pAsa baMgalA nahIM thA, putra nahIM thA, vaibhava nahIM thaa...| prAtaHkAla uThakara vaha paramAtmA ke maMdira meM gayA / maMdira meM koI bhakta nahIM thA, pUjaka nahIM thA, pujArI nahIM thaa| paramAtmA ke caraNoM meM bhAvapUrNa hRdaya se namana kara vaha sAmane baiTha gyaa| paramAtmA kI pratimA madhura smita bikhera rahI thii| vRddha ne paramAtmA ke nayanoM se trATaka kiyaa| phira A~kheM mUMda lI... eka divya dhvani sunAyI dI : 'bola tujhe kyA cAhie?' vRddha ne kahA : 'prabho, mujhe mukti cAhie...' 'mukti... mokSa cAhie? bahuta muzkila kAma hai...|' 'ApakI kRpA ho jAya to sarala kAma hai!' 'dUsarA kucha mA~ga le... dhana, saMtAna vagairaha mA~ga le|' 'prabho, Apase maiM kSaNika nahIM, zAzvata mA~gane AyA hU~... mujhe dhana-saMtAna vagairaha nahIM caahie|' 'mukti pAne kA mArga kaThina hai... bahuta se saMkaTa A sakate haiN| tU saMkaTa sahana kara sakegA? jo sukha tere pAsa haiM, ve bhI cale jAyeMge | tU una sukhoM ke binA jI sakegA?' For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI __ 93 'kucha bhI ho jAe, mujha para kRpA karo, mukti dilA do|' 'tthaa'stu|' vRddha ke roma-roma khila utthe| usake hRdaya-maMdira meM lAkha-lAkha dIpaka jala uThe | vaha ghaMToM taka vahA~ baiThA rahA aura paramAtmadhyAna meM tallIna ho gayA / jaba vaha apane ghara lauTA, usakI AtmA apUrva AnaMda se bharapUra thii| usake hRdaya meM vizvAsa ke sahasradala kamala khila gaye the| bAhya daridratA ne usako dIna nahIM banAyA / putra ke abhAva ne usako duHkhI nahIM kiyaa| maiMne eka dina usa vRddha se pUchA : 'kyA bhautika sukhoM kA AkarSaNa kabhI nahIM jagatA?' 'jagatA hai kabhI... taba apane paramAtmA se kahatA hU~ : 'prabho, mujhe ina bhautika sukhoM se bacA lenA...' aura mere prabhu mujhe bacA lete haiN|' maiMne usa vRddha puruSa kI isa bAta para gaMbhIratA se socaa| vaisI kauna-sI yogyatA usameM thI ki usakI AtmA paramAtmA se tAdAtmya pA sakatI thii| maiMne sUkSmatA se usake vyaktitva ko samajhane kA bhI prayatna kiyA aura mere mana kA samAdhAna ho gyaa| nirapekSa vRtti| niSkAma bhkti| ye donoM tattva usa vRddha puruSa meM pAye gaye | mokSaprApti ke liye yaha yogyatA manuSya meM honI anivArya hai| nirapekSa vRtti vAlA manuSya hI niSkAma bhakti kara sakatA hai| saMsAra ke bhautika sukhoM kI koI apekSA nahIM honI caahie| __ aisI nirapekSavRtti kaba AegI mere jIvana meM? bAhya apekSAoM ke anaMta AkAza meM kaba taka ur3anA hogA? ur3anA aura giranA - anaMtakAla se cala rahA hai| kaise mukti milegI? kaise AtmA pUrNAnanda kA anubhava kara sakegI? kaise paramAtmasvarUpa meM lInatA prApta hogI? jAnatA hU~ ki niSkAma bhakti karanevAlA manuSya hI dhyAtA-dhyeya aura dhyAna kI ekatA prApta kara sakatA hai| niSkAma bhakti se hI AtmA niravadhi AtmAnanda kI anubhUti kara sakatA hai| nirapekSa vRtti aura niSkAma bhakti se nirantara merI AtmA praphullita rahe... svabhAva meM ramaNatA karatI rahe aura AtmA mukti kI ora Age bar3hatI rahe... yahI hArdika kaamnaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 94 47. pala pala badalate rizte saMdhyA ke badalate hue raMga dekhatA hU~, mausama ke badalate hue raMga bhI dekhatA hU~ aura saMsAra ke saMbaMdhoM ke viSaya meM svataH cintana zurU ho jAtA hai / saMsAra ke sAre sambandha bhI kaise badala jAte haiM ! viziSTa jJAnI puruSoM ne apane jJAnabala se kucha jIvAtmAoM ke janma-janma ke saMbaMdhoM ko jAnakara duniyA ke sAmane prastuta kara diyA hai / yadi duniyA ke loga gaMbhIratA se una parivartanazIla sambandhoM kI niHsAratA samajha leM to aneka zArIrika-mAnasika tanAvoM se mukta ho sakate haiN| kalikAlasarvajJa zrI hemacandrasUrijI ne rAmAyaNakAlIna pAtroM ke janma-janma ke aneka sambandhoM para prakAza DAlA hai / bhUtakAlIna sambandha to batAye hI haiM, kucha bhaviSyakAlIna sambandha bhI prakAzita kiye haiN| jaba rAvaNa kI AtmA 'tIrthaMkara' banegI taba sItAjI kI AtmA gaNadhara banegI! jisa rAvaNa ke prati sItAjI ne apanI dRSTi bhI nahIM DAlI thI, jisa rAvaNa kA sItAjI ne ghora tiraskAra kara diyA thA, jisa rAvaNa kA eka kSaNa bhI apane citta meM smaraNa nahIM kiyA thA... usa rAvaNa ke sAtha sItAjI kA bhaviSya meM kitanA pragAr3ha snehapUrNa sambandha hone vAlA hai ! gaNadharoM kA tIrthaMkara ke prati pragAr3ha - prazasta rAga hotA hai / sItAjI kI AtmA gaNadhara banakara rAvaNa kI tIrthaMkarapada prApta AtmA se AtmIya sambandha bA~dhegI! tIrthaMkara kI ArAdhanA - upAsanA kara apanI AtmA ko siddha, buddha, mukta kara degI! yAnI sItAjI kI AtmA, rAvaNa kI AtmA ke AlaMbana se mokSa pAyegI / For Private And Personal Use Only Aja isa jIvana meM jisa vyakti ke prati manuSya ghora dveSa karatA hai athavA pragAr3ha sneha karatA hai, Avazyaka nahIM ki AnevAle dUsare jIvana meM unake sAtha dveSa hI karatA rahe yA sneha hI karatA rahe! usI rAmAyaNa meM zrI hemacandrasUrijI ne eka mAtA-putra ke sambandha kI niHsAratA batAte hue batAyA hai ki rAjakumAra sukozala apane pitA - munirAja ke darzana kara sAdhujIvana aMgIkAra karane ke lie tatpara ho jAtA hai| usakI mAtA sukozala se khUba pyAra karatI hai..... usane sukozala ko manA kara diyA ... vaha nahIM cAhatI thI ki sukozala sAdhu bne| isaliye vaha yaha bhI nahIM cAhatI thI ki sukozala ke pitA - munirAja usa

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yahI hai jiMdagI nagara meM padhAreM! vaha jAnatI thI ki yadi rAjakumAra apane pitA-munirAja ke paricaya meM AegA to pitA ke sAtha calA jAyegA! parantu eka dina vaisA hI huA! sukozala apane pitA-munirAja ke sAtha sAdhu banakara calA gyaa| isase mAtA ke hRdaya meM putra ke prati roSa paidA ho gyaa| putra ko prANa se bhI adhika mAnanevAlI mAtA putra ke prati tIvra dveSa vAlI bana gaI! pahale to hRdaya meM sambandha kA parivartana huA, bAda meM bAhya saMbaMdha bhI badala gyaa| mAtA marakara eka pahAr3I meM zeranI banI! usI pahAr3I kI eka guphA meM munivara sukozala apane pitA-munirAja ke sAtha AtmadhyAna karane gaye the| jaba pitA-putra usa pahAr3I se nIce utarate haiM, taba usa zeranI ne donoM ko dekha liyA... aura tIvra dveSa kI vAsanA ubhara AyI, usane zIghra hI sukozala muni para hamalA kara diyA... sukozala muni to nirmama... niHsaMga bane hue the! zarIra aura AtmA kA bhedajJAna pA liyA thA, unakA mokSa ho gyaa| __pUrva janma kI mAtA... marakara zeranI bane aura apane hI putra kA zikAra kara de! saMsAra ke sambandhoM kI niHsAratA ko samajhane ke liye isase bar3hakara dUsarA kauna-sA udAharaNa cAhie? ___ saMsAra meM kabhI koI sambandha janma-janma taka TikA huA rahatA hai, aise prasaMga-dharmagranthoM meM par3hane ko milatA hai, parantu aisI ghaTanAe~ apavAdarUpa haiN| kinhIM uttama jIvAtmAoM ke bIca aise sambandha ho jAte haiM aura nirvANa taka bane rahate haiN| aise kucha apavAdoM ko chor3akara dekheM to sAre saMsAra ke sambandha anizcita, parivartanazIla aura niHsAra haiN| jaba saMsAra ke saMbaMdha aise hI haiM to phira kyoM kisI se sneha-saMbaMdha bA~dhanA? kyoM kisI sambandha ko sthAyI banAne kA niSphala prayatna karanA? kyoM kisI saMbaMdha ko lekara rAga-dveSa karanA? yadi sambandhoM ke baMdhana TUTa jAye to mana avazya paramAtmadhyAna meM aura tattvaciMtana meM sthira bana jAyeM! 'he paramAtmana! sAre sambandhoM ke baMdhana tor3a do aura Apake sAtha mere mana ko jor3a do... Apase aura kucha bhI nahIM caahie|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 48. icchAoM se mukta baneM 3 zrI indrabhUti gautama ko bhagavAna mahAvIra ke prati jaise ananya anurAga thA vaise hI mokSa pAne kI bhI tIvra abhilASA thI! unhoMne apanI A~khoM se kaI zramaNoM ko evaM zramaNiyoM ko nirvANa pAte hue dekhA thA... kaiyoM ko kevalajJAnI banate dekhA thA... usa samaya unake mana meM yaha prazna paidA hotA thA : 'mujhe kaba kevalajJAna hogA? merA nirvANa kaba hogA?' zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra gautama ke manobhAvoM ko jAnakara samAdhAna bhI karate the! taba taka gautamasvAmI ko kevalajJAna nahIM huA jaba taka unakA hRdaya anurAgI thA! guru-anurAga aura mokSa-anurAga jaba taka banA rahA, taba taka ve sarvajJa nahIM bane! jaba anurAga kA baMdhana TUTA taba turaMta hI ve sarvajJa-sarvadarzI bana gye| yaha eka vAstavikatA hai| dUsarI ora dekheM to guru-anurAga aura mokSAnurAga ke binA AtmavikAsa kA prArambha hI nahIM hotA hai! AtmasAdhaka mahAtmA jaise saMsAra ke prati virAgI hotA hai, vaise hI guru ke prati aura mokSa ke prati anurAgI hotA hai! yaha anurAga AtmavikAsa meM, jJAna-darzana-cAritra ke vikAsa meM sahAyaka banatA hai| aSTApada tIrtha kI yAtrA ke liye gaye hue gautamasvAmI ke prati 1503 tApasoM ko pragAr3ha anurAga ho gayA... aura unakI aMtaryAtrA kA prArambha ho gayA... bhagavAna mahAvIra ke pAsa pahu~cate-pahu~cate to 1503 tApasa kevalajJAnI bana gaye! paraMtu ve tabhI kevalajJAnI bane hoMge... jaba unakA guru-anurAga samApta ho gayA hogA! jaba unakI mukti-kAmanA bhI samApta ho gaI hogI! sarvajJatAprApti ke pUrva-kSaNoM meM pUrNa samatva AnA anivArya hai| pUrNa samatva ke bAda hI pUrNajJAna kI upalabdhi hotI hai| pUrNa samatva meM nahIM hotA hai rAga, nahIM hotA hai dveSa! prazasta rAga-dveSa bhI nahIM caahie| prazasta rAga-dveSa taba taka hI upAdeya mAne jAte haiM jaba taka aprazasta rAga-dveSa AtmA meM ubharate rahate haiM! saMsAra kA rAga miTAne ke liye paramAtma-rAga, guru-rAga aura dharma-rAga upAdeya haiN| jaba AtmA samyagjJAnadarzana-cAritra meM paripakva bana jAtI hai, taba usakI ArAdhanA samatva ko siddha karane kI ora mur3a jAtI hai| vaha prazasta rAga se bhI mukta hone kA prayatna karatI hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 97 aSTApada ke pahAr3a para Atmalabdhi se car3hane ke liye kaI dinoM se ugra tapazcaryA karane vAle 1503 tApasa, gautamasvAmI ke milana ke bAda aSTApadayAtrA ko bhI bhUla gaye the ! jaba gautamasvAmI ne una tApasoM ko bhagavAna mahAvIra ke pAsa calane ke lie kahA taba tApasoM ne nahIM kahA thA ki 'gurudeva, pahale hamako aSTApada kI yAtrA karA do, bAda meM Apake gurudeva ke pAsa cleNge|' unhoMne kucha nahIM kahA! gautamasvAmI se milane para zeSa koI icchA hI nahIM rahI! kSIrAnna se pAraNA karate-karate ... rAste para calate hue aura dUra se bhagavAna mahAvIra ke darzana karate hI kaba una tApasoM kA guru-rAga bhI calA gayA aura kaba pUrNa samatva pA liyA... yaha rahasya to pUrNa jJAnI puruSoM ke pAsa hI chipA huA hai! samavasaraNa meM pahu~cane para sabhI tApasa kevalajJAnI bana gaye the| paramArhat rAjA kumArapAla ne vaisI Atmasthiti kI kAmanA kI thI aura paramAtmA se prArthanA kI thI : 'kadA mokSepyaniccho bhAvitAsmi nAtha: ?" he nAtha! mokSa ke prati bhI icchArahita kaba banU~gA? kumArapAla ke hRdaya meM usa samaya saMsAra ke sukhoM kI koI icchA nahIM rahI hogI! mokSaprApti kI icchA se bhI ve mukti cAhate the ! icchAoM se mukti, saMsAra se mukti kA upAya honA cAhie ! maiM bhI icchAoM se mukti cAhatA huuN| sabhI vaiSayika bhautika sukhoM kI icchAoM se kaba mukti milegI ? yaha jIvana pUrNa ho jAe, isase pUrva kyA icchArahita bana sakU~gA? yadi isa jIvana meM icchAoM se mukti nahIM pAI to bhaviSyakAla meM AtmavikAsa saMbhava ho sakegA kyA ? icchArahita banane kI icchA se to abhI mukta nahIM bananA hai / yaha icchA to taba taka banI rahegI, jaba taka icchArahita na bana jAU~ / icchAoM se mukti mila jAe, basa! karmoM se mukti milane meM derI nahIM hogI / For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 98 49. apane ko kevala mAdhyama samajheM / usane zikAyata ke svaroM meM kahA : 'mere bhAiyoM ke liye maiMne kitanA tyAga kiyA hai... kyA batAU~? Aja mere ve donoM bhAI merI ora dekhanA bhI nahIM cAhate, aba unako merI koI AvazyakatA nahIM rhii...|' bolate-bolate usakI A~kheM DabaDabA gii| maiMne usako AzvAsana diyA, hArdika bhAvoM se usake hRdaya ko bhara diyA... usakA citta zAMta ho gyaa| parantu maiM socatA hI rhaa...| bhItarI mana se prazna uThA : 'kyA koI vyakti, koI eka AtmA dUsarI AtmA ke lie kucha kara sakatA hai? kartRtva kA yaha abhimAna sahI hai kyA?' ___ karma-siddhAnta ke anusAra socatA hU~ to kartRtva kA abhimAna mithyA lagatA hai| maiM tabhI dUsare ko sukha de sakatA hU~ athavA duHkha dUra kara sakatA hU~, jaba dUsare kA puNyakarma udaya meM ho! dUsarA vyakti tabhI merA azubha kara sakatA hai, merA sukha chIna sakatA hai, mujhe duHkha de sakatA hai, jaba merA pApakarma udaya meM AyA ho| ___ maiMne usa bhAI se kahA : 'tumane apane bhAiyoM ke liye kucha nahIM kiyA hai, tumhAre bhAiyoM ke puNyakarma ne tumhAre pAsa kucha karavAyA hai| tumhAre hRdaya meM bhAiyoM ke prati jo prema hai, vaha bhI bhAiyoM ke puNya-karma kI vajaha se hai! yadi unakA pApakarma udaya meM A jAe to tumhAre hRdaya meM unake prati prema nahIM rahegA, tuma unako ghara se nikAla doge...| tuma mAnoge ki 'maiMne unako ghara se nikAla diyaa|' yaha bhI bhramaNA hai...| unake pApakarmoM ne tumhAre pAsa yaha kAma karavAyA... unako ghara se niklvaayaa| yadi tumhAre bhAI yaha mAna leM ki 'hamAre bar3e bhAI sAhaba ne hamako ghara se nikAla diyA...' to galata hai! bhramaNA hai! do bhAiyoM kI ghara se nikala jAne kI kriyA avazya huI hai, parantu kisane nikAlA?' isakA nirNaya jJAnadRSTi se honA caahie| __ choTe bhAI samajheM ki 'bar3e bhaiyA ne hamako nikAla diyA', to galata hogaa| kyoMki unake hRdaya meM bar3e bhAI ke prati roSa paidA hogaa| roSa se pApakarma bNdhege| bar3A bhAI samajhe ki 'maiMne do bhAiyoM ko nikAla diyaa...|' to bar3e bhAI kA mithyAbhimAna dRr3ha hogA, isase pApakarma baMdhege! jisa mAnyatA se pApakarma baMdhate hoM, vaha mAnyatA sahI nahIM ho sktii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 99 'maiMne usake liye apanA sukha chodd'aa|' yaha mAnyatA... yaha dhAraNA taba duHkha detI hai, jaba vaha vyakti mere liye apane sukhoM kA tyAga nahIM karatA hai ! 'maiMne tere liye apane sukhoM kA tyAga kiyA thA aura tU aba mere liye sukhoM kA tyAga nahIM karatA hai?' yaha dhAraNA manuSya ko duHkhI karatI hai / 'maiMne tujhe usa samaya duHkha meM sahAyatA kI thI aura Aja tU mere duHkhoM ko dekhate hue bhI ha~satA rahatA hai? mujhe sahAyatA nahIM karatA hai?' yaha vikalpa trAsadAyaka banatA hai| dUsare jIvoM ko sukha dete samaya, dUsare jIvoM kA duHkha dUra karate samaya yaha sAvadhAnI baratanI hI hogI ! kartRtva kA abhimAna jarA-sA bhI na A jAya! 'maiM parabhAvoM kA kartA nahIM hU~... / ' isa tattvajJAna ko AtmasAt karanA hI hogA / mAnasika vikalpoM se jo azAMti paidA hotI hai, usa azAMti ko tattvajJAna se hI miTAyA jA sakatA hai| dUsarA koI upAya nahIM hai / tattvajJAna AtmasAt honA caahie| tattvajJAna aura vicAroM meM bheda nahIM raha jAnA caahie| jaisA tattvajJAna vaisA vicAra, jaisA vicAra vaisA tattvajJAna ! aisI Atmasthiti kA nirmANa karanA cAhie / cAhatA hU~ ki tattvajJAna se bhinna merA koI vicAra zeSa na rahe ! sva aura para sabhI ke liye mere vicAra tattvajJAnamaya bane raheM...! paraMtu yaha kaba hogA ? kabhIkabhI 'vyavahAramArga' se TakarAva ho jAtA hai...! kucha ajJAnamUlaka... mohamUlaka vyavahAra dharmakSetra meM bhI praviSTa ho gaye haiM, jahA~ koI dharmagrantha sAkSI nahIM hotA hai! phira bhI una vyavahAroM kA pAlana karanA anivArya hotA hai! koI vivazatA hotI hai na! 'parabhAvoM kA... paradravyoM kA maiM kartA nahIM huuN...|' isa tattvajJAna ko AtmasAt karanA hai... kaba hogA ? dRr3ha saMkalpa ke sAtha paramAtmA se prArthanA karatA hU~ ki 'he bhagavaMta! merA kartRtva-abhimAna nirmUla kara de... / ' yadi paramAtmA kI divya kRpA se kAma ho jAe, to dhanya bana jAU~! mAnavajIvana kI eka bahuta bar3I upalabdhi ho jAe / usa bhAI ko to zAnta kara diyA thA... parantu apane Apako upazAnta karane ke liye... apane mana ko prazAnta karane ke liye nirantara yaha cintana karatA rahatA huuN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 100 va50. abhinaya jaba jIvita ho uThatA hai| abhinayasamrATa ASAr3hAbhUti cakravartI bharata kA abhinaya kara rahe the| hajAroM darzaka cakravartI bharata ke AInA-bhavana meM bharata kA anupama-advitIya saundarya dekhakara mugdha bana gaye the| cakravartI bharata AInA meM apanA zRMgAra dekhane meM lIna the... aura unakI eka aMgulI meM se mudrikA nikala gaI, jamIna para gira gii...| cakravartI bharata kSaNabhara mudrikA ko dekhane ke pazcAta, mudrikArahita apanI aMgulI ko dekhate rahe aura tattvaciMtana meM DUbane lge| unake mukha se vaha tattvaciMtana dhIra-gaMbhIra dhvani meM prasphuTita hone lagA... darzaka maMtramugdha bane sunate rhe| cakravartI kA tattvaciMtana gaharA banatA calA... unakI AtmA bolane lagI... AtmA para lage hue moha aura ajJAna ke baMdhana TUTane lage aura abhinaya vAstavikatA meM badala gayA! cakravartI kA abhinaya karanevAle ASAr3hAbhUti svayaM sarvajJa-vItarAga bana gaye! AkAza meM deva pragaTa hue aura ASAr3hAbhUti ko namana kara, unako sAdhuveza samarpita kiyaa| usI nATakagRha meM devoM ne ghoSaNA kI : 'ASAr3hAbhUti rAgavijetA bane haiM, sarvajJa-vItarAga bane haiN...|' nATakagRha meM kaisA sannATA chA gayA hogA? jaba usa prasaMga ko kalpanA kI A~khoM se dekhatA hU~... maiM bhI stabdha ho jAtA huuN| zramaNa jIvana kA tyAga kara, do abhinetriyoM ke mohapAza meM jakar3A huA vaha ASAr3hAbhUti abhinaya karatekarate AtmA kI pUrNatA pA letA hai... aura maiM, tyAga aura saMyama ke patha para calanevAlA maiM... kaI bAra tattvaciMtana... AtmaciMtana meM DUbanevAlA maiM... kyoM mohavijetA-vItarAga nahIM bana pAyA? prazna paidA hotA hai... hRdaya meM vyathA hotI hai... aura udAsI ke sAgara meM DUbane lagatA huuN| ___ ASAr3hAbhUti kA vaha tattvaciMtana jisase unhoMne vItarAgatA pA lI, sarvajJatA pA lI, kyoM kisI pUrNa jJAnI ne lipibaddha nahIM kiyA? kyoM usa ciMtana kA koI zAstra nahIM banA? kyoM vaha ciMtana mumukSuoM ke liye saMgrahIta nahIM huA? kahate haiM ki unhoMne 'anitya-bhAvanA' kA ciMtana kiyA thA... to maiM bhI kaI bAra anitya bhAvanA kA cintana karatA hU~! kaI sAdhaka-sAdhikAe~ cintana karate haiM... kyoM ve mohavijetA-vItarAga nahIM banate haiM? isa prazna kA uttara nahIM mila rahA For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 101 hai| ASAr3hAbhUti kI ghaTanA para avizvAsa karane kA koI kAraNa nahIM hai| ghaTanA kaise banI, yaha khoja kA viSaya hai| ___ eka ora, ghora... kaThora tapazcaryA karanevAle bar3e-bar3e muni-mahAtmAoM ke koI ekAdha galatI karane para sAdhanApatha se bhraSTa ho jAne ke dRSTAMta par3hane meM Ate haiM, bhavasAgara meM DUba jAne kI bAta sunane meM AtI hai| dUsarI ora, aise ASAr3hAbhUti jaise puruSoM ke dRSTAnta par3hane ko milate haiM ki jo patana kI gaharI khAI meM gira gaye the aura sAmAnya nimitta milane para Upara uThe, sarvajJavItarAga bana gaye! aisI bAteM par3hakara mana dvidhA meM ulajhatA hai| bahuta socA, kaI bAra cintana kiyaa| tattvajJAna ke mAdhyama se isa prazna ko sulajhAne kA prayatna kiyaa| eka dina... padayAtrA meM calate hue samAdhAna mila gayA! niHsIma AnaMda kI anubhUti huii| ASAr3hAbhUti ke upAdAna kI ora dRSTi gaI... aura bAta spaSTa ho gaI! unakA munijIvana se jo patana huA thA, vaha patana vAstava meM patana nahIM thaa| parantu unako jo karma bhogane zeSa the, ve bhogasukha bhoge binA kSINa nahIM ho sakate the aura aise bhogasukha munijIvana meM nahIM bhoge jA sakate the| una bhogasukhoM ko bhogane ke lie unheM saMsAra meM jAnA anivArya thA... isaliye unheM saMsAra meM jAnA par3A | bhogasukha bhoga liye, karma naSTa ho gaye... aura AtmA anAsakta bana gaI! anAsakta AtmA raMgamaMca para AyI... 'bharata-kevalajJAna' kA abhinaya karate samaya avaziSTa mohanIyakarma naSTa ho gayA! AtmA vItarAga bana gayA! jisa samaya ASAr3hAbhUti abhinetA banakara raMgamaMca para Ae the, usa samaya ve anAsakta yogI bane hue the! abhinaya karane ke pazcAt ve mokSamArga kI sAdhanA karane hetu punaH tyAga, saMyama ke mArga para calane ke lie kRtanizcayI the! upAdAna AtmA kI vaiSayika sukhoM meM anAsakti, vItarAga banane kI gurucAbhI (Master Key) hai! anAsakta AtmA ko sAmAnya nimitta bhI vItarAga banA sakatA hai| viSayAsakta AtmA ko mahAna - asAdhAraNa nimitta bhI vItarAga nahIM banA sakatA hai| 'anAsakta yogI banane kI AMtarecchA kaba phalavatI banegI?' yaha prazna to abhI taka prazna hI banA huA hai! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 102 va51. siddhi cAhie yA prasiddhi ? adhyAtmamArga ke mahAyogI kahate haiM ki kisI bhautika siddhi kI kAmanA se koI dharmasAdhanA mata kro| sahajatA se, svAbhAvikatA se koI siddhi prApta ho jAe to usa siddhi kA upayoga mata karo, 'mujhe siddhi prApta huI hai, aisA garva mata kro| siddhijanya camatkAroM se duniyA ko AkarSita karane kA prayatna mata karo, anyathA adhyAtmamArga se bhraSTa ho jaaoge| __ kitanI acchI sAvadhAnI dI hai yogI puruSoM ne! adhyAtmamArga ke yAtriyoM kI aMtaryAtrA nirvighna calatI rahe aura ve apanI maMjila para pahu~ca jAe... isa pavitra bhAvanA se prerita hokara yogI puruSoM ne ye bAteM kahI haiM | jo sAdhaka isa sAvadhAnI kI upekSA karatA hai vaha adhyAtmamArga se cyuta ho jAtA hai evaM bAhara kI duniyA meM ijjata aura pratiSThA kamAne ke liye Atura rahatA hai| eka bhAI ne kahA : 'merI kuMDalinI jAgrata ho gaI hai... maiM dUsaroM kI kuMDalinI jAgrata kara sakatA hU~, AjJAcakra khola sakatA hU~... isake AjJAcakra maiMne khola diye haiM...!' dUsare bhAI ne kahA : 'zrI navakAramaMtra kI ArAdhanA se maiMne aisI zakti pAyI hai ki maiM dUsaroM ke roga miTA sakatA hU~! zarIra meM jisa jagaha roga ho usa bhAga para maiM apanA hAtha pheratA hU~ aura roga dUra ho jAtA hai!' tIsare eka bhAI ne kahA : 'maiMne dhyAna meM aisI siddhi pAyI hai ki dUsaroM ko dhyAna meM le jAkara unake roga dUra kara sakatA huuN| kucha logoM ke roga dUra bhI hue haiM!' maiM ina logoM kI bAteM sunatA rahA... mauna rahate hue sunatA rhaa| kaI dinoM taka una bAtoM para socatA rhaa| ye bAteM karane vAle apane Apako adhyAtmamArga ke yAtrika mAnate haiM! AtmA kI bAteM bhI karate haiN| parantu Atmaprema ke badale apanI siddhiyoM ke pradarzana kA prema jyAdA pAyA! svAbhAvika thA unake liye! sattvahIna manuSyoM meM aisI vikRtiyA~ paidA honA svAbhAvika hotA hai| prApta siddhi ko pacAne kI kSamatA aise jIvoM meM kahA~ se ho? ___ 'paropakAra' karane kI bAta to eka paradA hotA hai! prazaMsA aura pratiSThA kA vyAmoha hI pradhAna kAraNa hotA hai| Antara-nirIkSaNa ke binA yaha bAta samajha For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 103 meM nahIM A sktii| parantu vyAmoha Antara-nirIkSaNa nahIM karane detA! padapratiSThA kA vyAmoha bahuta hI bhayAnaka hotA hai| ___ jo mahAyogI hote haiM, jo AtmapremI mahAnubhAva hote haiM, unake pAsa siddhiyA~ aura labdhiyA~ hone para bhI ve isa svArthI duniyA se dUra rahanA pasanda karate haiM! rAgI-dveSI jIvoM se alipta rahanA cAhate haiN| apanI zaktiyoM kA ve pradarzana karanA kabhI nahIM cAhate haiN| zakti-pradarzana, siddhi-pradarzana kI AkAMkSA kahA~ se uThatI hai? 'merI zakti, merI siddhi dekhakara loga merI prazaMsA kareMge! logoM kI mere prati zraddhA bddh'egii| maiM asAdhAraNa vyakti bana jaauuNgaa|' isa prakAra kI vRttiyA~ hI siddhi-pradarzana ke liye manuSya ko uttejita karatI haiN| aisI vRttiyA~ adhyAtmamArga kI yAtrA meM bAdhaka bana jAtI haiN| sAdhaka, sAdhaka hI nahIM raha pAtA hai| sAdhanA, sAdhanA nahIM raha pAtI hai | sAdhanAmArga se sAdhaka bhraSTa ho jAtA hai| ___ 'to kyA siddhi kA koI vizeSa prayojana nahIM hai?' mana meM prazna paidA huaa| bhUtakAlIna mahApuruSoM ke prati mAnasayAtrA prArambha huii| aneka yogasiddhiyoM se vibhUSita kalikAla sarvajJa zrI hemacandrasUrijI ke pAsa mAnasayAtrA ruka gaI! kevala dharmarakSA ke liye hI siddhi kA upayoga! kevala dharmaprabhAvanA ke liye hI yogasiddhi kA upayoga! svamahattA kI koI kAmanA hI nhiiN| svamahattA ko bar3hAne ke liye siddhi kA koI prayoga nahIM! yogasiddhi se ve AkAzagamana kara bhRgukaccha bhI gaye the aura yogasiddhi se devI kaMTakezvarI ko bhI jhukA diyA thaa| yogasiddhi se mugala bAdazAha ko palaMga ke sAtha ur3A kara bhI le Ae the! parantu koI svArtha nahIM thA unko| sirpha thI dharmarakSA, dharmarakSA kI maMgalamaya kaamnaa| aisI to koI zakti una tInoM mahAnubhAvoM meM nahIM hai... phira bhI ve ahaMkAra se phUle nahIM samAte! maiM to cAhatA hU~ ki jaba taka sattva vikasita na ho taba taka siddhi prApta na ho! jaba taka svamahattA kI kAmanA nAmazeSa na ho taba taka siddhi prApta na ho! siddhi prApta hone para bhI siddhi-pradarzana kI vAsanA jAgrata na ho! bhautika siddhiyA~ prApta karane kI icchA hI jAgrata na ho! paramasiddhi prApta karane kI bhAvanA kabhI bhI naSTa na ho| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 104 52. jIne kA tarIkA / vyaktitva kA moha? ijjata aura pratiSThA kA vyAmoha! kabhI-kabhI mahasUsa karatA hU~ ki yaha moha-vyAmoha manuSya ko daMbhI banA detA hai| bhayabhIta banA detA hai... azAnta aura becaina banA detA hai| ijjata aura pratiSThA kA sambandha duniyA se hotA hai| isalie, ijjata se jIvana jIne kI spRhAvAlA manuSya duniyA kA khayAla karatA rahatA hai| 'duniyA kI nigAha meM merA vyaktitva giranA nahIM caahie| duniyA kI dRSTi meM merA 'sTeTasa' banA rahanA caahie...|' yaha khayAla kitanA nukasAna karatA hai - yaha gaMbhIratA se socanA Avazyaka lagatA hai| 'duniyA meM jInA hai to duniyA kA khayAla rakhanA cAhie...' isa vicAra ko dRr3hatA se pakar3ane vAlA insAna sarvaprathama to 'daMbhI' banatA hai| duniyA kI dRSTi meM jo burA kAma hogA, vaha kAma yadi usako karanA hai, vaha duniyA se bacakara kregaa| kucha kAma aise hote haiM ki jo manuSya ko acche lagate haiM, sukhadAyI lagate haiM - parantu duniyA kI dRSTi meM acche nahIM hote| manuSya aise kAma 'prAiveTa' meM karatA hai| duniyA ko vaha batAtA hai ki 'maiM aise kAma nahIM karatA aisA daMbhI jIvana nirbhaya nahIM hotaa| satata bhayagraMthi banI rahatI hai| bhayabhrAnta mana caMcala banA rahatA hai| caMcala mana kAryasiddhi nahIM kara sakatA / caMcala mana azAnta banA rahatA hai| azAnta mana jIva ko duHkhI karatA hai| sukha ke sAdhana upalabdha hone para bhI vaha 'sukhI' nahIM bana sakatA hai| zAMti ke sthAna meM hone para bhI vaha 'zAMti' anubhava nahIM kara sakatA hai| dharmasAdhanA kA avasara prApta hone para bhI vaha dharmasAdhanA meM pravRtta nahIM ho sakatA hai| jIvana duHkhapUrNa bana jAtA hai| kaI dinoM taka socatA rahA / 'kyA manuSya duniyA kI paravAha kiye binA nahIM jI sakatA...?' prazna utthaa| _ 'kyoM nahIM jI sakatA? avazya jI sakatA hai| duniyA se nirapekSa jIvana jIne ke liye cAhie niHspRhatA / niHspRha banane ke liye cAhie apane zubhAzubha karmoM para vizvAsa / ijjata aura pratiSThA zubhakarma kA - puNyakarma kA utpAdaka For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 105 hai! maiM kucha bhI karatA hU~... yadi merA zubhakarma hogA to duniyA meM merI pratiSThA banI rahegI... yadi merA pApakarma udaya meM AegA to merI pratiSThA Tikane vAlI nahIM hai... phira, kyoM na maiM acche kAma karatA rhuuN| isaliye, ghabarAye binA duniyA ke sAmane apanI jIvana -kitAba khulI rakhanI caahie| duniyA na to duHkha de sakatI hai, duniyA na to sukha de sakatI hai| mujhe duniyA se kucha bhI nahIM caahie...|' isa vicAradhArA meM bahatA rahatA hU~ to duniyA tRNavat lagatI hai / 'nispRhasya tRNaM jagata' yaha ArSa vacana nirbala mana kI 'baiTarI' ko 'cArja' kara detA hai / parasApekSa ijjata-pratiSThA kI kAmanA karanA hI galata hai| paradravyasApekSa aura paravyaktisApekSa ijjata - pratiSThA kA khayAla karanA hI mUrkhatA hai / isa vastu se merI pratiSThA hai... isa vyakti se merI pratiSThA hai' - yaha vicAra hI ajJAnamUlaka hai| kevala bhramaNA hai / kevala mAnasika vikRti hai| 'mere paise cale jAyeMge to merI ijjata calI jAyegI... merA baMgalA calA jAyegA to merI ijjata naSTa ho jAyegI... merI patnI mujhe chor3akara calI jAyegI to merI pratiSThA calI jAyegI... merA lar3akA yA lar3akI calI jAyegI... to merI pratiSThA ko dhabbA lagegA... mujhe sajA hogI to...' aisI-aisI kalpanAe~ karane vAle duniyA ke loga kitanI ghora azAMti bhogate haiM ? duniyA kI nindA se... ki jo duniyA bhI vaisI hI hai... aura duniyA meM aisA saba kucha honA svAbhAvika hai, Darate haiM! ghabarAte haiM! duniyA ko bolanA ho to bolane do! sunanA hI nahIM ! kyoM sunanA ? kyA lenA hai duniyA se? puNyakarma kA udaya hogA to duniyA merA kucha bigAr3a nahIM sakatI! pApakarma kA udaya hogA to duniyA mujhe sukhI nahIM kara sakegI! 'ijjata se jInA cAhie' isa sUtra ko miTA do! 'himmata se jInA cAhie' isa sUtra ko yAda rakho ! ' zraddhA se jInA cAhie', 'nirbhayatA se jInA cAhie', 'niHspRhA se jInA cAhie', ina sUtroM ko ghU~Ta - ghU~Ta kara jInA cAhie ! jIvana pIne kA AnaMda tabhI milegA / For Private And Personal Use Only

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106 yahI hai jiMdagI va 53. cala akelA... cala akelA...3 bahuta varSoM se 'ekatva' kI ArAdhanA kara rahA huuN| rAtri ke ghora aMdhakAra meM... jaba sahavartI sabhI nidrAdhIna hote haiM... jaba nikaTastha vRkSa para vihaMgama bhI vizrAmalIna hote haiM... taba maiM aneka bAra 'ekatva' ke cintana meM DUbA hU~... ekatva kI amRtadhArA mere aMtastala para bahatI rahI hai| nirjana aura sunasAna jaMgaloM meM se gujarate samaya bhI, jaba sAthI-sahayAtrI Age-pIche hote haiM, maiM 'ekatva' bhAvanA ke ciMtana meM lIna banA hU~... aura maiMne varNanAtIta Antara AnaMda kI divya anubhUti kI hai| jaba kabhI rAste para, kisI zavavAhinI meM mRtadeha dekhI hai, taba 'jIva isa deha ko chor3akara akelA calA gayA... akelA AyA thA... akelA calA gayA...' aise vicAra Ae haiM aura A~kheM mUMdakara ekatva kI amRtadhArA meM bahA huuN| jaba kabhI kisI anAtha ko, nirAdhAra ko... kisI vRkSa ke nIce... yA nIlAkAza ke nIce... bhUkhA-pyAsA-karAhatA dekhA hai, taba dayAmizrita... karuNAmizrita ekatva ke vicAroM meM DUbA huuN| rAta meM, zayana se pUrva 'ego'haM natthi me koI0' gAthA kA pATha karate samaya, 'merI AtmA akelI hai...' isa vAstavikatA kA maiMne zItala sparza pAyA hai| anekatva kI jhUThI... mithyA kalpanAoM se usa samaya chuTakArA pAyA hai| __ parantu anekatva kI mithyA-kalpanA, anekatva ke sAtha jur3I huI ijjata kI kalpanA, anekatva ke sAtha baMdhI huI sukha-suvidhA kI kalpanA... manuSya ko anekatva ko satya mAnane ke liye majabUra kara detI hai! aisI majabUrI bhI maiMne kaI bAra mahasUsa kI hai! vyavahAramArga meM 'anekatva' ko bahuta prAdhAnya diyA gayA hai| itanA prAdhAnya diyA gayA hai ki becArA mAnava ekatva kI bAta se hI ghabarAne lagatA hai| jIvana-vyavahAra meM anekatA kI anivAryatA svIkRta kara lene para, 'ekatva' sirpha 'pustaka-jJAna' bana kara raha jAtA hai| 'ekatva' kevala vicAra-bindu bana kara raha jAtA hai| 'to kyA 'ekatva' kevala vicAra-bindu hI hai? jIvana-vyavahAra meM ekatva ko koI sthAna nahIM hai?' yaha eka vikaTa prazna hai| anekatA kI dRr3ha dhAraNA ke sAtha, anekoM kI prabala apekSAoM ke sAtha 'ekatva' kI bhAvanA kA astitva bhI saMbhava hai kyA? kaisI samasyA banI huI hai? kyA, ekatva kI bhAvanA kA For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 107 prayogAtmaka rUpa nahIM honA cAhie? jIvana-vyavasthA meM ekatva kA sthAna nahIM honA cAhie? jIvana ke prArambha se aMta taka, anekatA se jakar3I huI jIvanavyavasthA, AtmA ke AbhyAntara vikAsa meM bAdhaka nahIM hai? saMsArI jIvana meM to anekatA kI pratiSThA hai, zramaNa jIvana meM bhI anekatA kI hI pratiSThA? anekatA kI anivAryatA? jIvana kI kisI bhI bhUmikA para ekatva kI pratiSThA nahIM? kevala upadezoM meM hI ekatva kI mahattA gAne kI hai? prAcIna zramaNa-paramparA meM 'ekatva' kI pratiSThA thii| zramaNa yogya bhUmikA prApta karatA thA, jJAna-dhyAna aura tapa-titikSA dvArA viziSTa yogyatA saMpAdana karatA thA, taba usako ekatva kI sAdhanA ke liye mukta kara diyA jAtA thaa| varSoM taka 'ekatva' kI bhAvanA, jo kevala vaicArika bhUmi ko navapallavita karatI rahatI thI, bAda meM jIvana-vyavahAra meM otaprota ho jAtI thii| advaita kI ArAdhanA kA apUrva AnaMda mahasUsa hotA thaa| vartamAnakAlIna zramaNa-paraMparA meM aisI koI vyavasthA nahIM hai, aisI koI sAdhanA-ArAdhanA kI paddhati dRSTipatha meM nahIM A rahI hai| pariNAma kitanA cintAjanaka dikhatA hai? anekatA ke sAtha jur3e hue rAga, moha, IrSyA, spardhA Adi aneka dUSaNa zramaNa jIvana meM bhI praviSTa ho gaye haiM! anekatA meM se ekatva kI ora agresara hone kA koI abhigama hI nahIM bana rahA hai| nahIM dikhatI ekatA aura nahIM dikhatA ekatva! nahIM rahA saMgha kA saMgaThana aura nahIM rahA anekatA kA vighaTana...!! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 108 va 54. pApa tumhAre khola do 3 'yahA~ apane pApoM kA sacce hRdaya se prakAzana karo aura pApamukta bano... pApoM kA pazcAttApa, manuSya ko zuddha-buddha banAtA hai|' kaccha kI dharA para aisA eka pAvanakArI tIrtha dekhA! 'aMjAra' kaccha ke purAne nagaroM meM se eka aitihAsika nagara hai| aMjAra ke bAharI pradeza meM 'jesala-torala kI samAdhi' Aja bhI maujUda hai| jesala DAkU thA, hatyArA thaa...| jesala kI naiyA jaba samudra meM DUba rahI thI, usa samaya torala ne usake pAsa, pApoM kA pazcAttApa karavAyA thA... jesala ne apane sAre pApa dila kholakara batA diye the aura usakI naiyA pAra laga gaI thii| Aja bhI, kaI strI-puruSa jesala-torala kI isa samAdhi ke darzana karane Ate haiM, darzana kara... ro par3ate haiM... A~sU bahAte hue apane pApa vahA~ prakAzita karate haiM... hRdaya kA bojha dUra hotA hai... A~kheM nirmala hotI haiM aura prasannacitta lauTa jAte haiN| patA nahIM ki yahA~ se jAne ke bAda ve punaH vaise pApa karate haiM yA nahIM! jesala ne to punaH vaise pApa nahIM kiye the| __ pApoM kA pratikramaNa karanA, pApoM kA ikarAra karanA, paramAtmA se pApoM kI kSamA mA~ganA... vagairaha bhinna-bhinna dharmoM meM batAyA gayA hai| kucha zraddhAvAn strIpuruSa vaisI kriyAe~ karate bhI haiM..., parantu patA nahIM ki ve sacamuca pApoM kA pazcAttApa karate haiM, yA sirpha eka kriyA karane se hI saMtoSa mahasUsa karate haiM | eka dina yAda AtA hai... sAMvatsarika pratikramaNa ho rahA thA... eka bhAI vaMdittusUtra [pApoM kA pazcAttApa karane kA sUtra] bola rahe the aura ro rahe the! ve vAstava meM pazcAttApa kara rahe the... unakA sUtra sunate-sunate... aura unako dekhate-dekhate kaiyoM kI A~kheM cUne lagI thii| pApoM kA saccA pazcAttApa ho rahA thaa| parantu, manuSya pApa chipAne meM nipuNa hai| pazu pApa karatA hai avazya, parantu chipAtA nahIM hai| manuSya pApa karatA hai aura chipAtA hai! kyoMki vaha pApAcaraNa se nahIM DaratA hai, kintu duHkha se DaratA hai! 'maiM pApa karU~gA to azubha karmabaMdha hogA, isase bhaviSyakAla meM mujhe tIvra For Private And Personal Use Only

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109 yahI hai jiMdagI vedanAe~ sahanI par3egI...' yaha vicAra nahIM AtA, usako vicAra AtA hai - 'merA pApa loga jAna leMge to merI beijjatI hogI, merA apamAna hogA... maiM kisI ko mu~ha dikhAne ke yogya nahIM rhuuNgaa...|' duHkhoM ke bhaya se pApoM kA pazcAttApa to phira bhI loga kara lete haiM, parantu jisa pApa ke pIche koI bhaya nahIM lagatA hai, jo pApAcaraNa koI dekhatA nahIM hai... phira bhI pApa kA pazcAttApa hama kareM tabhI saccA pazcAttApa hai| __AsapAsa ke sabhI loga jo pApa kara rahe hote haiM, usako to 'pApa' mAnanA hI muzkila hotA hai| jisako 'pApa' nahIM mAne, usakA pazcAttApa kaise? __bhale manuSya pApa ko pApa nahIM mAne, bhale pApoM kA pazcAttApa nahIM kareM, parantu isase vaha pApamukta nahIM bana jAtA! pApoM kA bojha usake hRdaya meM bar3hatA jAtA hai| dhIre-dhIre usakI becainI bar3hatI jAtI hai| vaha samajha nahIM pAtA ki 'merA hRdaya bhArI-bhArI kyoM rahatA hai?' yadi usako pApa-pazcAttApa kA mArga nahIM milatA hai, to zIghra usakA hRdaya baMda ho jAtA hai aura AtmA pApoM kA bojha liye, paralokayAtrI bana jAtI hai| ___ mauta se pUrva he paramAtmana! sahaja bhAva se mere pApoM kA pazcAttApa ho jAya... vaisI kRpA kareM | pApoM kA prakAzana karane meM rukAvaTa karane vAle tattvoM kA nAza kara do prabho! pApoM kA aisA pazcAttApa ho ki bhaviSya meM pApoM kA koI AkarSaNa hI nahIM rhe| pApecchA hI naSTa ho jAya / he vItarAga! tere acintya anugraha se mujhe pApecchAoM se mukti pAnI hai| yadi usakA upAya 'pazcAttApa' kA ho... to vaisA pazcAttApa maiM karane ko tatpara hU~... Apake hI pAvanakArI caraNoM meM... For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 110 55. pahale sthira banie unhoMne kahA : abhI aisI sthitaprajJatA nahIM calegI, apanI jimmedAriyoM ko vahana karanA caahie| usane kahA : sthitaprajJatA prApta kiye binA, jimmedAriyA~ vahana karane kI yogyatA prApta hotI hai kyA? unhoMne kahA : vyavahArapradhAna jIvana meM sthitaprajJatA kaise A sakatI hai aura kaise Tika sakatI hai? usane kahA : vyavahArapradhAna jIvana kaba taka nibhAne kA? jIvana ke uttarArdha meM to AtmalakSI jIvana bananA cAhie na? kyA aMtima zvAsocchavAsa taka vyavahAroM kI ulajhaneM banI rahanI cAhie? dUsarI bAta, sthitaprajJa bane binA zuddha vyavahAra kA pAlana saMbhava hai kyA? dhArmika kSetra meM bhI azuddha vyavahAroM kA pracalana, kyA sthitaprajJa netRtva ke abhAva kA pariNAma nahIM hai? aneka acchIburI AkAMkSAoM ko lekara, parasApekSa jIvana jIne kI rur3ha paramparAoM meM, AtmA aura paramAtmA kevala nAmazeSa raha gaye haiM - aisA nahIM lagatA? prajahAti yadA kAmAn sarvAn pArtha! manogatAn / AtmanyevAtmanA tuSTaH sthitaprajJaH tadocyate / / __ mana kI tamAma icchAoM se mukta bana, AtmA se AtmA meM tuSTa bananA sthitaprajJatA hai! saMsAra-vyavahAra meM to icchAoM kI pracuratA rahegI hI! svajIvana ke sukhaduHkhoM kI icchAe~ aura parajIvana ke sukha-duHkhoM kI icchAe~ banI hI rhegii| duHkha ke vicAroM meM udvega aura sukha kI kalpanAoM meM AnaMda hotA rahegA! isase rAga, bhaya aura krodha jIvana para Adhipatya jamAkara bane hI rheNge| unhoMne kahA : dhArmika kSetra meM bhI kucha hada taka rAga-bhaya-krodha Adi Avazyaka tattva mAne gaye haiM! parantu ina tattvoM ko 'prazasta' mAnakara istemAla kiye jAte haiM...! usane kahA : jo manuSya sthira buddhivAlA nahIM hotA hai, jo sthitaprajJa nahIM hotA hai, kyA vaisA manuSya rAga, dveSa, krodha Adi ko 'prazasta' rUpa de sakatA hai? yAnI hRdaya se virAgI rahate hue bAhara se rAga kI abhivyakti kara sakatA For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 111 hai? hRdaya se adveSI rahate hue bAhara se dveSa kI abhivyakti kara sakatA hai ? hRdaya se nirbhaya rahate hue bAhara se bhaya pradarzita kara sakatA hai ? kahA~ hai sthira buddhi ? udvega aura AnaMda meM buddhi asthira bana gaI hai / duHkha meM udvega ho hI jAtA hai! sukha meM AnaMda ho hI jAtA hai! vyavahAra ke siddhAMta meM udvega ko upAdeya mAnA gayA hai| AnaMda ko bhI upAdeya mAnA gayA hai| isakA tAtparya yaha hai ki vyavahAra-mArga meM sthira buddhi saMbhava nahIM hai! rAga, dveSa aura bhaya se AkrAnta jIvana jInA hai ? nahIM, aisA jIvana jIne kA koI prayojana nahIM hai / aise sukha hI nahIM cAhie ki jo rAga-dveSa aura bhaya se prApta hote hoM / bhayAkrAnta sukha to vAstava meM sukha hI nahIM hai| eka maharSi ne to kahA bhI hai ki saMsAra ke sabhI sukha bhayAkrAMta haiN| sabhI sukhoM ke Upara bhaya ke bAdala maMDarAye hue haiM! isalie jIvana aisA jInA cAhie ki bAhya sukhoM kI apekSA bahuta hI kama rhe| kucha bhI ho, isa jIvana meM sthitaprajJatA prApta karanI hai| sthitaprajJatA prApta karane ke lie jo kucha tyAga karanA par3egA, kara dU~gA ! jaisA jIvana apekSita hogA, vaisA jIvana svIkAra kara lU~gA / AtmA ke dvArA AtmA meM saMtuSTi kA AsvAda to pAnA hI hai! jaba saMsAra ke sAre bAhya baMdhana tor3a diye haiM, sAre rizte chor3a diye haiM, zramaNa jIvana ke vrata - niyamoM ko saharSa svIkAra kara liyA hai, taba sthitaprajJatA prApta karanA, sthitaprajJatA se prApta AtmAnanda kI anubhUti karanA mere liye anivArya hai| sthitaprajJatA ke abhAva meM yadi jIvanayAtrA samApta ho gaI... to niHsIma pazcAttApa hogA / sthira buddhi aura sthitaprajJatA, AtmAnubhUti ko cAhane vAloM ke liye kevala Avazyaka nahIM, anivArya hai| kucha tuccha vyavahAroM kI zRMkhalA ko tor3akara bhI sthira buddhi aura sthitaprajJatA kA abhyAsa kara hI lenA cAhie / vyavahAra-parasta duniyA ke pratyAghAtoM kI aba koI paravAha nahIM karanI hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 112 56. caleM sUkSma vizva kI yAtrA para 3 saMpUrNa vizvadarzana saMpUrNa jJAna se hotA hai| vizva jitanA indriyoM ke mAdhyama se jAnA jAtA hai aura dekhA jAtA hai, vaha to bahuta hI alpa hai| indriyAtIta vizva anaMta... apAra hai| prAcIna dharmagraMthoM meM par3hate haiM ki pUrNajJAnI-kevalajJAnI AtmA saMpUrNa vizva ko dekhatI hai, jAnatI hai| vizva meM jar3a dravya anaMta haiM, cetana dravya bhI anaMta haiM! sabhI dravyoM kI bhUtakAlIna avasthAe~ anaMta haiM, bhaviSyakAlIna avasthAe~ bhI anaMta haiN| avasthA ko 'paryAya' bhI kahate haiN| kevalajJAnI ina sabhI paryAyoM ko jAnate haiM aura dekhate haiM! jAnane aura dekhane ke do upakaraNa hote haiM - kevalajJAna aura kevaladarzana / ye donoM upakaraNa guNAtmaka hote haiN| isa siddhAnta se yaha phalita hotA hai ki sakSma vizva meM jisa prakAra sAre dravyoM kA nitya astitva hai vaise sAre paryAyoM se yukta dravyoM kA bhI astitva hai| bhUtakAlIna sabhI dravyoM kA, sabhI paryAyoM se yukta astitva hai vaise bhaviSyakAlIna sabhI dravyoM kA, sabhI paryAyoM se yukta astitva bhI hotA hai! tabhI to pUrNajJAnI, bhUtakAlIna aura bhaviSyakAlIna sabhI dravyoM ko sabhI paryAyoM ke sAtha dekha sakate haiM! sthUla vizva meM jisa vastu kA nAza hotA dikhAI par3atA hai, sUkSma vizva meM, usa vastu kA, usa paryAya meM astitva rahatA hai! tabhI to bhUtakAlIna paryAya ke rUpa meM usakA jJAna pUrNajJAnI ko hotA hai! yadi dravya kI avasthA kA - paryAya kA astitva samUla naSTa hotA to vaha jJAna kA viSaya nahIM bana sakatA | usI prakAra, bhaviSyakAlIna dravyoM ke paryAya yAnI sabhI paryAyayukta sabhI dravya kA astitva nahIM hotA to una dravyoM kA, sabhI paryAyoM ke sAtha, jJAna nahIM ho sktaa| ___ aisA jJAna hotA hai avazya! isalie mAnanA hI par3egA ki sUkSma vizva sabhI dravyoM se... sabhI paryAyoM se paripUrNa hai! naSTa honA aura utpanna honA; indriyapratyakSa vizva kI kriyAe~ haiN| jisa prakAra pratyakSa vizva meM, manuSya kI mRtyu ho jAtI hai, parantu usakI phoTo raha jAtI hai! phoTo eka paryAya hai, eka avasthA hai! manuSya mara gayA... usakI eka avasthA phoTo ke rUpa meM raha gayI! sUkSma vizva meM sabhI dravyoM ke sabhI paryAyoM kI dhruva sattA hai| bAhya vizva meM utpatti-sthiti aura nAza kI prakriyA nirantara cAlU rahatI hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 113 vItarAgI pUrNajJAnI banatA hai! sUkSma vizva meM praveza karane ke liye rAga-dveSa ke vikAroM se saMpUrNatayA mukta honA anivArya hai| sUkSma vizva meM na rAgI praveza kara sakatA hai, na dveSI praveza kara pAtA hai! aisA kyoM? ___ kyoMki vAstavikatA aisI hI hai| rAga-dveSa se mukta AtmA meM pUrNa jJAna kA niHsIma prakAza jagamagAne lagatA hai| yaha prakAza zAzvata hotA hai, avinAzI hotA hai| isa jJAna-prakAza meM pratikSaNa... pratipala... saMpUrNa sthUla aura sUkSma vizva pUrNarUpeNa dikhatA rahatA hai| sabhI padArtha dikhate haiM, sabhI padArtha kI sabhI avasthAe~ dikhatI haiN| pUrNa darzana meM rAga nahIM hotA, dveSa nahIM hotA! rAga-dveSa hote haiM apUrNa darzana se! kaba miTeMge rAga aura dveSa? ___ hAlA~ki maiM jAnatA hU~ ki merI AtmA kI rAga-dveSa se mukta avasthA bhI sUkSma vizva meM hai hI! parantu usa avasthA kI, usa paryAya kI anubhUti sUkSma vizva meM praveza kiye binA saMbhava nahIM hai| kaba hogA sUkSma vizva meM merA praveza? maiM nahIM jAnatA hU~! ___ padArthoM kI priya-apriya avasthAoM ke darzana se rAga-dveSa ho hI jAte haiM! paryAya-darzana miTe kaise? darzana hotA hai paryAya kA hI! paryAya ke binA dravya kA astitva asaMbhava hai! dravya kI paribhASA hI yahI hai nA - 'guNaparyAyavad dravyam'! priya-apriya ke vikalpoM se mukti mila jAya to mAna lU~gA ki maiM siddhazilA para pahu~ca gayA! azAMti, saMtApa aura udvega ke mUla srota haiM ye priyApriyatva ke vikalpa! priyApriya ke viSaya hote haiM dravyoM ke paryAya! dravyoM kI bhinna-bhinna avasthAe~! jahA~ dekho vahA~ paryAya! jahA~ jAo vahA~ paryAya! / __sUkSma vizva meM praveza jaba hogA aura kSetra-kAla ke baMdhanoM se mukta sabhI dravyoM kA... sabhI paryAyoM ke sAtha jJAna-darzana hogA... tabhI na hogA rAga, na hogA dveSa / vizvAsa hai ki eka dina maiM isa avasthA ko upalabdha kara luuNgaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 114 57. akelApana akharane na lage i AkAza meghAcchAdita thaa| dhImI-dhImI barasAta barasa rahI thii| maiM soca rahA thaa| mere kamare kI eka khir3akI khulI thii| mujhe nIMda nahIM A rahI thii| merI dRSTi khir3akI kI ora thii| nIrava zAMti thii| maiMne khir3akI ke dvAra para eka cir3iyA ko baiThe hue dekhA / zAnta baiThI thI... akelI thii| mujhe mAlUma nahIM ki usakA koI snehI hogA yA nahIM! yaha bhI nahIM jAnatA ki usa cir3iyA ke mana meM kaise vicAra Ate-jAte hoMge! yaha to jAnatA hU~ ki cir3iyA ko mana hotA hai... aura mana hotA hai isalie kucha vicAra to Ate-jAte rahate hI haiM! ___ maiM cir3iyA ko dekha rahA thA aura usake viSaya meM soca rahA thA... parantu usane mujhe dekhA hogA yA nahIM... maiM nahIM jAnatA! vaha mere viSaya meM socatI hogI yA nahIM... yaha bhI nahIM jAnatA! parantu mere mana meM prazna paidA huA : 'maiM isa cir3iyA ke viSaya meM socatA hU~, karuNA se socatA hU~, parantu vaha mere sAmane bhI nahIM dekhatI... vaha mere viSaya meM socatI hogI?' prazna kA samAdhAna maiMne svayaM kara liyA : 'vaha kyoM mere sAmane dekhe? vaha kaise mere viSaya meM soce? use mujhase koI apekSA nahIM hai... aura mere viSaya meM socane kI usakI mAnasika kSamatA hI nahIM hai|' ___ usane apane paMkha hilAye... apane paira Age-pIche kiye... aura punaH sthira ho gayI... apane meM kho gayI! nIMda nahIM A rahI thI... cintana-yAtrA zurU ho gaI thii| merI A~kheM baMda thii| bhItara se maMda-maMda parantu madhura dhvani karNagocara ho rahI thii...| jaise koI bahate nirjhara kI AvAja ho! lagA ki hRdayagiri meM koI choTA-sA jharanA baha rahA hai...| kinAre para jA pahu~cA...! oha... yaha to thA ekatva kA punIta jharanA! svaccha nirmala jalapravAha thaa...| dekhane kA majA thA... sunane kA majA thA...! AnaMda hI AnaMda! ekatva kA... nirdvandva kA AnaMda thaa| jaba A~kheM khulI... vaha cir3iyA vahIM baiThI thI... aura barasAta bhI maMda gati se barasa rahI thI... mere kamare meM maiM akelA hI thaa| ekatva acchA lagA... ekatva se pyAra ho gyaa| ekatva ke AnaMda kI kSaNika anubhUti, anekatva ke AnaMda kI kSaNika anubhUti se jyAdA miSTa lagI... jyAdA svaccha lgii| anekatA ke abhAva meM 'akelApana' tabhI akharatA hai, tabhI becaina banAtA hai, For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 115 jaba hamane ekAnta ke kSaNoM meM ekatva kA AnaMda' anubhUta nahIM kiyA hotA hai| aneka vyakti aura aneka vastu ke sAtha jIvana jIne kI Adata manuSya ko isa taraha parezAna karatI hai, jisa taraha zarAba kI Adata zarAba ke abhAva meM zarAbI ko parezAna karatI hai| yaha nahIM bhUlanA cAhie ki aneka priya vyaktiyoM kA saMyoga aura aneka iSTa vastuoM kI prApti parAdhIna hai! prArabdha ke adhIna hai| aneka priya svajanoM kA kSaNa meM viyoga ho jAtA hai... aneka abhISTa padArtha kSaNa meM naSTa ho jAte haiM... manuSya akelA raha jAtA hai... Upara AkAza aura nIce dharatI! usa samaya yadi usake pAsa 'ekatva' ke AnaMda kI sAdhanA nahIM hai, to usako 'brenahemareja' ho sakatA hai, yA vaha pAgala... zUnyamanaska bana sakatA hai... athavA AtmahatyA kara sakatA hai| anekoM ke sAtha rahate hue bhI, hRdayagiri meM ekatva kA jharanA bahane do! kabhI-kabhI... ekAnta ke kSaNoM meM usa jharane ke pAsa baiThA jAe... usa jharane meM DUbA jAe, usa AnaMda ko mana bhara kara pIyA jAe... to hI anekoM ke abhAva meM akelepana kI udAsI, dila-dimAga para nahIM chaayegii| anekoM ke abhAva meM 'ekatva kI sAdhanA' kA avasara dikhegA, ekatva meM DUbane kA AnaMda milegA! mana meM udAsI kA praveza hI nahIM hogaa| ___ aisA koI acchA kArya, manapasanda kArya khoja lenA cAhie jise ki ekAnta ke kSaNoM meM... dinoM meM... varSoM meM karate raheM... AnaMda pAte raheM aura kabhI bhI 'mujhe akelApana nahIM suhAtA hai...' aisI zikAyata nahIM kreN| zikAyata to nahIM kareM, apane mana meM bhI aisA gama nahIM lAyeM ki 'maiM akelA hU~... merA koI nhiiN...|' ___ 'maiM akelA hU~, merA koI nahIM hai,' adIna bhAva se cintana karate-karate kaba so gayA... patA hI nahIM rhaa| prAtaHkAla huA... AkAza svaccha thA... aura cir3iyA ur3a gayI thI...! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI ___ 116 58. bAhara nahIM... bhItara dekho i AsapAsa sarvatra nIrava zAMti thii| zvAna bhI mauna the aura pAsavAle vRkSa para vihaMgama bhI nidrAdhIna the| candra bAdaloM kI oTa meM thA, maiM jAgrata thaa| aMtaryAtrA anavarata gati meM thii| parantu rAste meM eka nayA sundara epArTameMTa AyA aura khar3A rhaa| khulI A~khoM ne usa bilDiMga kA saundarya dekhA, nAvinya dekhA... aura bhavyatA dekhii| dhIre-dhIre A~kheM nimilIta hotI gaI aura antaH-cakSu kA unmilana hone lagA...! mere sAmane eka khaMDahara khar3A thA... na thA usameM saundarya, na thA nAvinya aura nahIM thI bhavyatA | khaMDahara meM dikhAI diye kucha sarpa! dikhAI diye kucha pakSI... aura pattharoM ke Dhera | khaMDahara meM se A rahI thI tIvra durgNdh| __ vahA~ se Age bar3ha gyaa| kucha kadama hI Age bar3hA aura mere sAmane eka navayauvanA strI dikhAI dii| mere carmacakSu ne usa rUpavatI nArI meM yauvana dekhA, lAvaNya dekhA... unmattatA dekhI aura kamanIyatA dekhii| mere deha meM kampana huA... mere mana meM spandana paidA hue| saMyoga kI kalpanAe~ ubharane lagI... parantu zIghra hI mere antaHcakSu ne usa nArI meM, nArIdeha meM kucha ajIba-sA parivartana dekha liyA / usa deha meM yauvana nahIM thA, vRddhatva thA! lAvaNya nahIM thA, kurUpatA thI! unmattatA nahIM thI, vivazatA thI... durbalatA thii| kamanIyatA nahIM thI, jugupsA thii| khUba DarAvanI thI vaha dehaakRti| na rahA rAga, na rahA AkarSaNa, na rahI saMyoga kI koI kalpanA, maiM cala diyA vahA~ se...| Age-Age calatA rhaa| nagara se bAhara nikala gayA thaa| calate-calate eka bhUmigRha ke dvAra para jA pahu~cA / 'kyA hogA isa bhUmigRha meM?' jijJAsA jagI aura bhUmigRha ke sopAna utarane lgaa| patA nahIM kitane sopAna the, parantu bhItara andhakAra thA, durgaMdha thI aura DarAvanA pradeza thaa| maiMne nAsikA para vastra bA~dha liyA aura Age bar3hatA gyaa| eka dIvAra ke sAmane jA pahu~cA / dIvAra para donoM hAtha pheratA huA daravAjA khojane lagA | bhAgya se daravAjA mila gayA...! daravAjA kholakara bhItara gayA... aura merI A~khoM ne kyA adbhuta dRzya dekhA! ratnoM ke prakAza meM bhavya... vizAla khajAnA dekhaa| amUlya khajAnA thA vaha / merI A~kheM cakAcauMdha ho gaI thiiN| bhUgarbha meM aisA khajAnA pAkara dimAga pAgalasA ho rahA thaa...| aura... usI samaya koI 'karanTa' sA lagA... A~kheM banda ho For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 117 gaI... mana mUrcchita-sA ho gyaa| eka bhayAnaka svapna ne mujhe ghera liyA...| jahA~ maiMne khajAnA dekhA thA vahA~ kAle pattharoM kA Dhera hI thA aura una pattharoM ke irdagirda DarAvane bhUta nAca rahe the| mere cAroM ora bhayAnaka soM ke phUMkAra ho rahe the| bhUtoM ke aTTahAsya sunakara merI kAyA pasIne se snAna kara rahI thii| maiM zIghra hI vahA~ se bhaagaa...| eka sAtha tIna-tIna sopAna car3hatA huA bhUmigRha se bAhara nikala aayaa...| ___ pAsa meM hI eka saritA baha rahI thii| pUrva dizA ne lAla cUnarI or3ha lI thii| AkAza ke jharokheM meM vihaMgamoM ne naubata-zahanAI bajAnI zurU kara dI thii| mere zvAsocchavAsa kI tIvra gati aba kucha manda ho rahI thii| saritA ke taTa para jA pahu~cA, eka pASANa-caTTAna para jA baiThA / maiM akelA hI thA, niHsarga kI goda meM thaa| mana meM prazna the| 'maiMne jo kucha dekhA - kyA vaha sahI thA yA mithyA thA? kauna vAstavika thA? mere carmacakSu kA darzana vAstavika thA yA mere antaHcakSu kA darzana vAstavika thA? kyA satya thA, kyA mithyA thA?' __'rAga aura dveSa se AvRta carmacakSu se kyA samyagdarzana ho sakatA hai? dekhane kA, darzana karane kA upakaraNa hI azuddha ho, to kyA zuddha kA darzana ho sakatA hai? dekhane kA upakaraNa hI mithyA ho, to kyA satya kA darzana ho sakatA hai?' kaisI gaMbhIra bhUla kara rahA hU~ jIvana meM? bAhya indriyA~, jo ki rAga-dveSa se AvRtta haiM, una para bharosA karake, indriya-pratyakSa jJAna ko sahI mAna rahA hU~! vAstavika mAna rahA hU~! jo vAstavika hai usako avAstavika mAna rahA hU~, avAstavika ko vAstavika mAna rahA hU~! kAlpanika ko satya mAna rahA hU~ aura satya ko kAlpanika! Aja merI aMtaryAtrA dilacaspa rahI! mere antaHcakSu ne gRha, strI aura saMpatti kI vAstavikatA kA darzana karavAyA / eka divya dhvani sunAyI dI : 'padArtha ke paryAya dekhakara hI mata ruka jAo, mUlabhUta dravyoM ko bhI dekho! paryAyoM kI parivartanazIlatA ko dekho! parama sukha pAoge!' For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 118 59. bhakti kI zakti paramAtmabhakti kA mahotsava thaa| sundara maMDapa banAyA gayA thaa| rajata ke siMhAsana para vItarAga paramAtmA kI nayanaramya mUrti sthApita kI gaI thii| ghI ke dIpaka jala rahe the aura sugaMdhita dhUpa kI sugaMdha phaila rahI thii| saMgItakAroM kI maMDalI prabhubhakti ke gIta gA rahI thii| aneka strI-puruSa zAMti se gIta suna rahe the| vAtAvaraNa meM bhakti kI sugaMdha thii| vahA~ zraddhA thI, vizvAsa thaa| ___ maiM bhI vahA~ upasthita thA / merA mana paramAtmA kI 'anaMta zakti' ke viSaya meM soca rahA thA / 'aMtarAya karma' ke kSaya se AtmA meM anaMta zakti kA AvirbhAva hotA hai, aisA dharmagranthoM meM maiMne par3hA hai| mere mana meM prazna thA - 'paramAtmA kI anaMta zakti kA upayoga kyA? zArIrika zakti kA upayoga, arthazakti kA upayoga, aNuzakti kA upayoga... aura dUsarI aneka zaktiyoM kA upayoga to mere khyAla meM hai, yAnI maiM una zaktiyoM kA upayoga to jAnatA hU~, parantu Atmazakti kA upayoga kyA? paramAtmA kI anaMta zakti kA upayoga kyA? duniyA meM anaMta duHkha haiM, anaMta vedanAe~ haiM, kyoM paramAtmA kI anaMta zakti ina anaMta duHkhoM ko nahIM miTAtI? kyA vaha zakti duHkhanAza nahIM kara sakatI hai? duniyA meM anaMta pApa haiM! anaMta doSa haiM... kyA paramAtmA kI anaMta zakti ina anaMta pApoM kA nAza nahIM kara sakatI? pApanAza karane kI kSamatA kyA paramAtma-zakti meM nahIM hai? duHkhanAza karane kI aura pApanAza karane kI zakti honI cAhie paramAtmA meM, kyoMki eka sUtra meM paramAtmA se mA~gA gayA hai : dukkha-khao kamma-khao, samAhimaraNaM ca bohilAbho a| saMpajjau maha eaM tuha nAha! paNAma krnnennN...|| 'he nAtha! tujhe praNAma karane se mujhe duHkhakSaya, karmakSaya, samAdhi-mRtyu aura bodhilAbha kI saMprApti ho!' yadi duHkhanAza karane kI, karmanAza karane kI, samAdhi-mRtyu dene kI aura bodhilAbha dene kI paramAtmA meM zakti nahIM hotI, to yaha saba mA~gane kI bAta maharSi nahIM karate! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 119 ___ una maharSi ne apane divya jJAna meM, apane anubhava-jJAna meM paramAtma-zakti kA paricaya prApta kiyA hogA, parantu mere pAsa to nahIM hai vaisA divya jJAna, nahIM hai anubhava-jJAna... to maiM paramAtma-zakti kA paricaya kaise prApta karU~? mere jaise dUsare asaMkhya jIva bhI kaise paricaya prApta kara sakate haiM? aisA divya jJAna bhI paramAtma-zakti se mila jAnA cAhie | jaba bodhilAbha aura samAdhi-mRtyu paramAtmA de sakate haiM, to divya dRSTi bhI ve hI de sakate haiM! rahI bAta hArdika praNAma karane kI, pratidina vaisA praNAma karatA hU~ maiM... phira bhI jaba phala prApta nahIM hotA hai to nirAzA chA jAtI hai| __yoM to saMsAra meM dekhA jAtA hai ki karuNAvaMta puruSa, duHkhI jIvoM se praNAma kI bhI apekSA nahIM rakhate aura duHkha dUra karane kA prayatna karate haiN| to phira anaMta karuNA ke sAgara paramAtmA duHkhI jIvoM ke praNAma kI apekSA kyoM rakheM? praNAma kI apekSA rakhe binA bhI jIvoM ke duHkha dUra kara sakate haiM na? praNAma karane vAloM ke to duHkha dUra kara hI dene cAhie na? paramAtmA ke prati zraddhA hai, bhakti hai, bahumAna hai... pratidina unakA nAmasmaraNa karatA hU~, unakI mUrti kA darzana-vaMdana karatA hU~... aura unakA dhyAna bhI dharatA hU~... phira bhI kyoM duHkhanAza aura karmanAza nahIM hotA? kyoM pApakarma ke udaya satAte rahate haiM? kyoM duHkha ke bAdala chAye hue rahate haiM? __ he paramAtmana, jo tere prati zraddhA nahIM rakhate, jo terI bhakti nahIM karate, jo terI zaraNAgati svIkAra nahIM karate, unake du:khoM kA aura karmoM kA nAza tU nahIM karatA hai, vaha to ThIka hai, parantu jo terI zaraNa meM haiM, jo nizadina terA nAma japate haiM aura antaHkaraNa se tere prati sneha rakhate haiM, aise jIvoM ke to tU pApa naSTa kara de! duHkhanAza kara de! anyathA terI anaMta zakti para jIvoM kA vizvAsa kaise sthira rahegA?' jaba maiM vicAra-nidrA se jagA aura paramAtmA kI mUrti ke sAmane dekhA, mUrti mere prati smita bikhera rahI thI! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 120 60. 'ahaM' kA vahama chor3eM 'ahaM' ko lekara hI sArI dvidhAe~ utpanna hotI rahatI haiM! 'ahaM' ke kitane sAre rUpa haiM! 'maiM balavAna, maiM buddhimAna, maiM kulavAna, maiM vidvAna, maiM dhanavAna...' ina kalpanAoM ko, dhAraNAoM ko surakSita rakhatA huA maiM jIvanayAtrA kara rahA hU~ / yAtrA kitanI duHkhapUrNa, tanAvapUrNa aura azAMtimaya ho gaI hai! kleza..... vivAda... jhagar3e aura visaMvAdoM meM kaisA ulajha gayA hU~ ? jIvanayAtrA ko sukhapUrNa aura zAMtipUrNa banAne ke liye maiMne tyAga kiyA, tapa kiyA, dAna diyA aura zIla kA pAlana kiyA, parantu phira bhI Antara sukha, Antara zAMti nahIM milI / kaise mila sakatI hai? hRdaya meM 'ahaM' kI kalpanAe~ surakSita haiM! hA~, jaba una ahaMjanya kalpanAoM ko puSTi milatI hai, kalpanAe~ sAkAra banatI haiM... taba AnaMda hotA hai, parantu vaha AnaMda kSaNajIvI hotA hai, alpakAlIna hotA hai / jaba 'ahaM' ko Thesa lagatI hai, 'ahaM' para AkramaNa hotA hai taba duHkha aura azAMti se tar3apane lagatA huuN| sukha aura duHkha kI kalpanAoM se mana ko mukta karanA cAhatA hU~ ! isaliye 'ahaM' kI kalpanA se mukta honA cAhatA hU~ / nA'haM! nA'haM! nA'haM ! maiM nahIM hU~... maiM nahIM hU~... maiM nahIM hU~ ! maiM apane astitva ko hI bhUla jAnA cAhatA hU~ / astitva ke sAtha vyaktitva kA vyAmoha mere mana ko ghera letA hai| uccatama vyaktitva kI kAmanA mana meM ubhara AtI hai| vyaktitva kI vAsanA jyoM-jyoM prabala banatI jAtI hai tyoM-tyoM azAMti aura asthiratA bhI prabala banatI jAtI hai| isaliye 'ahaM' ko hI miTAnA hogaa| kisI bhI prakAra se 'ahaM' kI vAsanA se mukti pAnI hogI / For Private And Personal Use Only mujhe kucha kSaNoM kA aisA anubhava bhI hai ki ahaM kI vismRti meM kaisA AnaMda milatA hai! kaisI avarNanIya antaHprasannatA kI anubhUti hotI hai| hAlA~ki vaha anubhUti kucha kSaNoM kI hI thii| phira bhI na bhUla sakU~ vaisI anubhUti thI / isaliye cAhatA hU~ ki vaisI anubhUti kA samaya bar3he ! jIvanaparyaMta vaisI hI anubhUti karatA rahU~! mere 'ahaM' kI vismRti zIghra hI ho... isake liye mujhe eka upAya bhI mila gayA hai ! vaha upAya hai paramAtmA kI premapUrNa smRti !

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yahI hai jiMdagI 121 'ahaM' kI vAsanA jyoM-jyoM vilIna hotI jAyegI tyoM-tyoM 'mama' kI vAsanA bhI maMda hotI jaayegii| 'ahaM' ke sAtha 'mama' kA gaharA sambandha hai / maiM aura merA! yadi maiM hI nahIM hU~, to merA kyA hai? kucha nahIM! 'ahaM' ko mama hotA hai| 'ahaM' nahIM to 'mama' nhiiN| 'nA'haM! na mama!!' mahAmaMtra hai yaha! moha ke jahara ko utAranevAlA hai yaha mhaamNtr| isa mahAmaMtra kA smaraNa kiye binA, jApa kiye binA moha kA jahara nahIM utregaa| tapa karane para, zAstra par3hane para aura sevA karane para bhI moha kA jahara nahIM utregaa| ___ 'merA kucha nahIM, yaha vicAra to maiM kabhI-kabhI karatA thA, parantu mamatva se mukti nahIM pA skaa| kyoMki 'maiM nahIM hU~, yaha vicAra to maiMne kabhI kiyA hI nahIM! 'maiM nahIM hU~', isa vicAra ke binA 'merA kucha nahIM hai, yaha vicAra koI nizcita prabhAva paidA hI nahIM kara sakatA hai| kevala bolane kA hI raha jAtA hai... 'merA kucha nahIM hai|' 'maiM nahIM hU~' yAnI maiM rUpI nahIM hU~, maiM nAmI nahIM hU~, maiM kucha bhI nahIM huuN| merA kucha bhI nahIM hai| Aja dina taka maiMne mohavaza sArI duniyA ko... ki jo mithyA hai, usako merI mAnA thA... duniyA ke padArthoM meM mamatva kiyA thA... isase maiM du:khI banA, azAnta banA... bhaTakatA rhaa| apane nAma aura rUpa ko yathArtha mAnatA rhaa| rAga-dveSa, harSa-zoka aura khuzI-nAkhuzI ke dvandvoM meM ulajhatA rhaa| bhramaNAoM meM bhramita hotA rhaa| aba bhramaNAoM ke ghanaghora bAdala bikhara gaye! mahAmaMtra mila gayA mujhe| mere parama priyatama paramAtmA ne mujha para parama kRpA kI! 'nA'haM na mama...' isa mahAmaMtra kI nirantara raTanA hotI rahe mere ghaTa-ghaTa meM! isa mahAmaMtra kA avirata guMjana calatA rahe merI AtmA ke asaMkhya pradezoM meM...! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 122 1. khudA ko khuda hI rUbarU dekhanA hai| usane khUba AtmIyatA se kahA : Apako ziSya-sAthI bar3hAne cAhie, jyAdA ziSya hone para ApakA prabhAva bar3hegA... jaba Apake pAsa aise loga Ate haiM... to Apako inkAra nahIM karanA caahie...| ___ maiM jAnatA hU~ ki usakA mere prati sneha hai, sadbhAva hai, isaliye vaha merI unnati meM hI prasanna rahatA hai, merI kIrti bar3he, yaza bar3he... to vaha harSa se pulakita ho jAtA hai| maiMne usakI sadbhAvanA ko Thesa na lage, usakA khyAla karate hue kahA : terA yaha khayAla sAmAjika dRSTi se sahI hai| samAja meM yaha khayAla vyApaka hai ki jisa guru ke jyAdA ziSya, ve guru bar3e! jisa guru ke jyAdA anuyAyI, ve guru mahAna! parantu, tujhe kevala sAmAjika dRSTi se nahIM socanA cAhie, AdhyAtmika dRSTi se bhI thor3A socanA caahie| AdhyAtmika dRSTi se tU socegA to tujhe sAmAjika khayAla galata lgeNge| ___ para dravyoM se, para dravyoM ke saMyoga se prApta pUrNatA vAstava meM pUrNatA nahIM hotI hai, vaha pUrNatA apUrNatA kI ora le jAne vAlI eka bhramaNA hI hotI hai| mere adhika ziSya hoMge to saMgha-samAja meM maiM jyAdA sammAnya banU~gA! merA prabhAva bddh'egaa...| yaha vicAra kitanA bhayAvaha hai? usane kahA : aise vicAra to nahIM hone cAhie, parantu 'maiM adhika se adhika manuSyoM kA mokSamArga meM sahAyaka banU~, unake AtmavikAsa meM sahayogI, AlaMbana banU~...' aise vicAra se to ziSya banAye jA sakate haiM na? ____ maiMne kahA : 'kisako mokSamArga para calanA hai? kisako mokSamArga para calane ke liye mArgadarzana cAhie? kisako AtmavikAsa karanA hai? kahA~ hai zraddhA? kahA~ hai zaraNAgati aura kahA~ hai samarpaNa? ziSya vaha manuSya hI bana sakatA hai ki jisameM guru ke prati apUrva zraddhA ho! saMpUrNa zaraNAgati ho aura niSkAma samarpaNabhAva ho| kyA ye bAteM Aja ke svArthI, sukhazIla aura daMbhI manuSya meM saMbhava hai? tyAga aura vairAgya kI bAteM bar3I lubhAvanI haiN| hA~, svArthI manuSya tyAga aura vairAgya kA dikhAvA kara sakatA hai... vaha hI daMbha hai| duHkhoM se pIr3ita hokara jo sAdhu banate haiM, ve sAdhu banakara bhautikazArIrika sukha khojate rahate haiM aura jo sukhoM kA tyAga karake sAdhu banate haiM, For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 123 ve jyAdAtara ahaMkAra aura tiraskAra ke gulAma bana jAte haiM | 'maiM lAkhoM rupaye chor3akara sAdhu banA hU~ isaliye dUsare sAdhuoM kI apekSA maiM V.I.P. hU~! maiM vizeSa mahattva rakhatA hU~!' phira vohI mAnapAna aura khAnapAna ke cakkara calane lagate haiN| ___ virata honA sarala hai, virakta honA bahuta vikaTa hai| isaliye to bhagavAna umAsvAtI ne kahA hai : 'tatprApya viratiratnaM virAgamArgavijayo durdhigmyH|' sAdhu bana jAnA sarala hai, parantu vairAgya ko sthira rakhanA bahuta hI muzkila kAma hai| vairAgya yAnI zama! vairAgya yAnI prazama! vairAgya yAnI upazama! kahA~ khojane jAU~ ina zama-prazama aura upazama ko? cAroM ora azAMti, udvega aura Akroza kI agni-lapaTeM dikhAyI de rahI haiM, IrSyA, spardhA aura vidveSa kA asAdhya vyAdhi phaila gayA hai| sarvaviratimaya sAdhujIvana denA sarala hai, parantu usa sAdhujIvana ko zAMti, samatA aura virakti ke bhAvoM se harAbharA banAnA ati-ati duSkara kArya hai| __ sarvaviratimaya sAdhujIvana svIkArane para bhI indriyoM kA saMyama, kaSAyoM kA upazamana, gAravoM kA zamana, pariSahoM para vijaya... Adi ke liye puruSArtha karanA hotA hai| kauna cAhatA hai yaha puruSArtha? aisA puruSArtha? aisA puruSArtha karane ke liye jo nirdabha hRdaya se tatpara hoM, vaise vyakti ko sahayoga dene ke liye maiM sarvadA taiyAra huuN| mArgadarzana dene ke liye taiyAra hU~... parantu vaisA puruSArtha karane ke liye sAnukUla vAtAvaraNa bhI cAhie na? kahA~ milegA vaisA vAtAvaraNa? isaliye, ziSya-bhakta aura anuyAyI kI phikara chor3a kara merI to eka hI tamannA hai : I want to see God face to face! maharSi aravinda kI yaha bhAvanA merI tamannA bana gaI hai! mujhe paramAtmA kI najara se apanI najara milAnI hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 124 62. lagAva nahIM alagAva rakheM / jaba manacAhI do-cAra anukUlatAe~ mila gaI, taba maiMne mAna liyA ki ye anukUlatAe~ sadaiva banI raheMgI! cAra-pA~ca varSa taka ve anukUlatAe~ vaisI kI vaisI banI rahI, merA vizvAsa dRr3ha ho gyaa| cAra-pA~ca varSa meM una vastuoM se aura vyaktiyoM se lagAva ho gayA, Antara sneha baMdha gayA... aura eka dina merI dhAraNAe~ galata siddha ho gaI! merA vizvAsa galata siddha ho gyaa...| apanepana ke mere khayAla galata siddha hue| __ maiMne apane bhItara ko TaTolA! merI AtmabhUmi para bahatA thA jo vairAgya kA jharanA, maiM usako khojane lgaa...| khUba-khUba khojA usa vairAgya ke srota ko, parantu nahIM milA...| vaha sUkha gayA thA... kevala nizAna bacA thaa| mere zvAsa ruka gaye... A~kheM gIlI ho gayIM... maiM baiTha gyaa| 'yaha kyA ho gayA? vairAgya kA srota sUkha gayA? aba maiM kahA~ jAkara snAna karU~gA? kahA~ jAkara zItalatA prApta karU~gA? kisa jagaha jAkara apanA kheda-udvega dUra karU~gA?' ___ hAlA~ki yaha merI hI bhUla kA pariNAma thaa| pA~ca-pA~ca varSa taka maiMne AtmabhUmi kI ora dekhA hI nahIM thA... vairAgya ke jharane kI khabara bhI nahIM lI thI... usameM snAna bhI nahIM kiyA thaa| maiM rAga aura rAgI ke vizvAsa meM bahatA rahA thaa| sneha aura pyAra kA viSaprayoga kara rahA thaa| aura jisa hRdayagiri se vairAgya kA pravAha nikalA thA... vaha hRdayagiri hI jar3a-sA bana gayA thA... atyaMta ghanIbhUta bana gayA thaa| hRdayagiri dravita ho... tabhI punaH vairAgya kA pravAha nikala sakatA thaa| sahI bAta thI, pA~ca-pA~ca sAla se hRdaya ko dravita karane vAlI koI ghaTanA hI nahIM ghaTI thI na! hA~, jaba vaisI koI anahonI duHkhadAyI ghaTanA banatI hai... taba to hRdaya dravita hotA hai! eka bAra dravita hone ke bAda, duHkhapUrNa saMsAra kA darzana-cintana bhI usa virakti ke pravAha ko pravAhita banAye rakhatA hai| hRdayagiri ko dravIbhUta karane vAlI durghaTanA bana hI gaI...! Aja nahIM to kala, durghaTanA banane vAlI hI thI... isa bAta kA koI aphasosa nahIM hai...! antaHcakSu kholane vAlI durghaTanAeM hotI raheM... to maiM jyAdA prasanna banU~gA... mujhe jyAdA khuzI hogii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 125 eka bAta kA aba nirNaya ho hI gayA hai... hRdaya meM vairAgya kA jharanA bahatA hI rahanA caahie| virakti kA zubhatama bhAva akhaMDa rahanA caahie| __kevala sAdhujIvana meM hI nahIM, gRhastha jIvana meM bhI vairAgyabhAva utanA hI upayogI aura upakAraka siddha hotA hai| jaba taka dvandvoM meM jInA hai, visaMvAdoM meM jInA hai... taba taka vairAgyabhAva sirpha Avazyaka hI nahIM, anivArya rUpa se honA caahie| bhItara ko rAga se alipta rakhanA hI to vairAgya hai| bhItara ko dveSa se nirlepa rakhanA hI to virakti hai| bAhara kI duniyA meM to rAga-dveSa hone vAle hI haiN| bhItara taka ve nahIM pahu~cane caahie| bhItara ko chUne nahIM caahie| hRdaya 'rAga-prUpha' bana jAnA caahie| hAlA~ki, bAhya jIvana aura Antara jIvana meM bheda to A hI gayA hai| AnA bhI cAhie thA! bAhya duniyA jisa prakAra ke vyavahAroM kI apekSA rakhatI hai, bhItara meM una vyavahAroM kA koI bhI mahattva nahIM hai| bhItara meM jo bAteM socasamajha kara rakhane kI, una bAtoM kA bAhya duniyA meM koI mUlyAMkana nahIM hai, koI mahattva nahIM hai| ___ bhItara kI... vairAgya-plAvita bAteM, isa duniyA ko kahane lAyaka bhI to nahIM hai! mujhe bhI nahIM kahanA hai! kahanA to kevala itanA hI hai ki bhItara kI zAMti, Antara-prasannatA aura AtmAnanda kA anubhava karate rahane ke liye vairAgya-bhAva hI eka sahI mArga hai| sahI rAstA, sarala na bhI ho, vikaTa ho sakatA hai... parantu usa rAste para calane meM eka prakAra kA majA hai! kAMToM para calane meM vaisA majA kabhI anubhava kiyA hai! vaha bhI eka majA hai! tabhI to bhagavAna umAsvAtIjI ne 'prazamarati' meM kahA hai : 'dRr3hatAmupaiti vairAgya bhAvanA, yena yena bhaaven| tasmin tasmin kArya kAyamanovAgbhirabhyAsaH / / ' mana-vacana aura kAyA se vaisA prayatna karo ki vairAgya bhAvanA balavatI bana jAe! vairAgya kA srota taba taka bahatA cale... jaba taka vItarAgatA ke sAgara meM na mila jAe! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 126 . sapane dekho... magara sacce-sacce usake mukha para udAsI phailI huI thii| yUM to makAna ke pAsa khar3A babUla kA per3a bhI udAsa thA aura usa per3a ke nIce baiThA huA bhikhArI bhI udAsa dikhatA thaa| madhyAhnakAlIna udAsI pUrI galI meM chAI thii| kahIM se bhI ha~sane kI AvAja nahIM A rahI thI... koI bhI vyakti ha~satA huA nahIM dikhAyI de rahA thaa| usane udAsa svara meM pUchA : 'merA mokSa kaba hogA?' usake prazna kA uttara mujhe nahIM denA thaa| mere pAsa kahA~ vaisA viziSTa jJAna thA ki maiM usakA bhaviSya batA sakU~? vAstava meM usako bhI 'mokSa' pAne kI icchA hogI yA nahIM, maiM nahIM jAnatA, parantu duHkhoM se chuTakArA pAne kI, azAMti aura saMtApa se chuTakArA pAne kI icchA to thI hI, yaha maiM jAnatA huuN| parantu usakA prazna sunakara merA mana bhI kucha udAsa ho gayA! manuSya jaba kisI gahare vicAra meM kho jAtA hai taba kyA usake mu~ha para udAsI dikhAyI detI hogI? kyA gaMbhIratA ko loga udAsI mAna lete hoMge? usakA prazna mere cintana kA viSaya bana gayA! 'kyA mujhe mokSa cAhie?' maiMne svayaM ko prazna kiyaa| 'maiM hI kho gayA hU~ phira mokSa kisako cAhie?' prazna kA javAba prazna meM thaa| jaba taka 'maiM aura merA' se merI mukti nahIM hogI taba taka mokSa kI talAza vRthA hai| 'ahaM' se mukti aura 'mama' se mukti vartamAna jIvana kA 'mokSa' bana sakatA hai| isa mokSa ko pAye binA vaha 'mokSa' - sarva karmoM ke kSaya se prApta hone vAlA mokSa nahIM pAyA jA sakatA hai| ___ maiM aura merA-kI kalpanA se asaMkhya icchAe~ paidA hotI rahatI haiM aura ve icchAe~ hI duHkhI karatI haiM, azAnta karatI haiM! icchAoM se mukta nahIM honA hai aura zAMti kI talAza hai! kaisA visaMvAda cala rahA hai jIvana meM? zAMti kI talAza... talAza hI banI rahegI kyA? azAMti hI jIvana kA paryAya banI rahegI kyA? vaha mere sAmane hI baiThA thA... maiMne usake sAmane dekhA... mere mu~ha se zabda nikale : 'jaba tU icchAoM se saMpUrNa mukta hogA taba terA mokSa hogaa| jaba maiM icchAoM se mukta banU~gA taba merA mokSa hogaa| icchAoM se taba mukti milegI, jaba hama 'maiM aura merA' - kI kalpanA se mukta hoNge|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 127 usakI udAsI calI gaI... usakI A~khoM meM nayI rozanI AyI aura vaha bolA : 'saca bAta hai, saca bAta hai... I svapna ! nidrA ke svapna aura jAgRti ke svapna ! nidrA ke svapna para apanA adhikAra nahIM hotA, jAgRti ke svapna para apanA adhikAra hotA hai / bhaviSya ke suhAne svapna dekhane kI kyA manuSya ko Adata hotI hai ? bhaviSya ke duHsvapna dekhane kI bhI manuSya kI kyA sahajavRtti hotI hai ? bhaviSya kI koI na koI kalpanA! kisI kalpanA se bhaya... avyakta bhaya lagatA hai, kisI kalpanA se avyakta khuzI kI anubhUti hotI hai / jaba anukUla paristhiti AtI hai, taba svarga kI kalpanAe~... svarga ke svapna dekhatA huuN| jaba pratikUlatAe~ ghera letI haiM taba narka ke svapna ubharane lagate haiN| svapna kA svarga jaba dUra-dUra jAtA hai, svarga kI jagaha ujjar3a... bIhar3a jaMgala dikhAyI detA hai, taba manuSya nirAza, udAsa aura bhagnahRdaya ho jAtA hai / phira bhI svapna dekhane kI Adata se mukti nahIM pAtA hai / kabhI koI svapna sAkAra banatA hai... svapna dekhane kI Adata balavatI bana jAtI hai| dekhatA jAtA hai svapna / gAtA jAtA hai niSphalatA ke karuNa gIta aura jiMdagI kA jIrNa janAjA uThAkara calA jAtA hai paraloka kI yAtrA para... | jiMdagI kA svapna pUrA ho jAtA hai / svapna dekhane kA kAma pUrA nahIM hotA / jAgRti meM svapna dekhane kI Adata se mukta honA, vartamAna ko sukhamaya banAne kA uttama upAya hai / mana kI Adata se chUTanA sarala to nahIM hai | svapna dekhatA hai mana / svapnoM ko chor3akara vAstavikatA kI bhUmi para TikanA mana ke liye muzkila to hogA, parantu sukhaprada - AnaMdaprada bhI hogaa| yadi jAgRti ke svapna ko sAkAra karanA hai to dRr3ha manobala rakhanA hogA, saMgharSa ke liye nirantara taiyAra rahanA hogA / niSphalatA meM nirAza nahIM honA hogaa| saphalatA nahIM mile vahA~ taka puruSArtha karate rahanA hogaa| do mArga hai| svapna dekho mata, athavA svapna ko sAkAra banAne kA bharasaka prayatna... niraMtara saMgharSa karate rho| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 128 va 64. rUpa-anurUpa kI dhUpa 3 eka bhavya citra-pradarzanI thii| pradarzanI dekhane hajAroM loga Ae the| pradarzanI meM lage hue citra bikate the| eka grAmya pradeza kA citra thA, usameM eka grAmya garIba mahilA kA AkarSaka citra thA | bahuta hI sundara citra thaa| eka zrImanta ne 50 hajAra rupaye meM vaha citra kharIdA aura pradarzanI ke bAhara niklaa| pradarzanI ke dvAra para eka strI khar3I-khar3I bhikSA mA~ga rahI thii| usane usa zrImanta se pA~ca paise mA~ge... zrImanta gussA ho gayA aura usakA tiraskAra karatA huA nikala gyaa| usake hAtha meM citra thA... usa strI ne usa citra ko dekhA, vaha usI kA citra thA! bimba kI upekSA huI thI, pratibiMba kA mUlya huA thA! saMsAra meM aisA hI ho rahA hai na? AtmA kI hI upekSA ho rahI hai, cetanA kI hI upekSA ho rahI hai aura usake pratibiMboM kA mUlyAMkana ho rahA hai! pratibiMboM ke mUlyAMkanoM meM jhagar3e ho rahe haiM, pratibiMboM se rAga-dveSa ho rahe haiN...| Atmadravya kI siddhi ke liye hajAroM grantha likhe gaye, lAkhoM tarka kiye gaye, paraMtu Atmadravya kI sarAsara upekSA kI gii| tarkoM se Atmadravya kI siddhi karake, nAstika para vijaya prApta karake, vijayonmatta vidvAn AtmA kI hI upekSA kara rahA hai! Atmadravya ke astitva kI siddhi kisaliye? dUsaroM para vijaya pAne ke liye yA apane para vijaya pAne ke liye? AtmasvarUpa kA nirNaya kisaliye? vaha svarUpa prApta karane ke liye yA apanI tarkazakti kA abhimAna puSTa karane ke liye? tarkasiddha AtmasvarUpa kA jJAna kyA kevala buddhi kI saMtuSTi ke liye hai? kucha aisA hI ho rahA hai jIvanayAtrA meM | jIvanayAtrA ho rahI hai, aMtaryAtrA kA prArambha hI nahIM huA hai| aneka zAstra par3he, aneka tarka kiye... aura AtmA kA astitva siddha kiyA / AtmasvarUpa kA nirNaya bhI kiyA... parantu dUsaroM ko samajhAne ke liye! AtmA ke vizuddha svarUpa se pyAra nahIM kiyA / AtmA ke pratibiMboM se hI pyAra aura napharata karatA rahA / AtmaviSayaka zAstrajJAna prApta kiyA, parantu AtmAnubhUti kA AnaMda prApta nahIM kiyaa| ___AtmAnubhUti hotI hai dhyAna meM! viSaya-kaSAya jaba upazAnta hoM tabhI dhyAna meM sthairya prApta hotA hai| pratibiMboM ke khela meM viSaya-kaSAya upazAnta nahIM hote, pradIpta hote haiN| kaba yaha khela samApta hogA? kaba AtmAnubhUti kI aMtaryAtrA prArambha hogI? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 129 ___ maharSi pippalAda ne apanI mAtA suvarmA se sunA ki usake pitA maharSi dadhIci ne, devarAja indra aura anya devatAoM kI prArthanA svIkAra kara, apane deha kA tyAga kara diyA thA! dadhIci kI asthiyoM ko lekara vizvakarmA ne vajra banAyA aura usa vajra se indra ne asuroM kA saMhAra kiyA evaM svarga para apanA adhikAra punaH prApta kara liyaa| yaha vRttAMta jAnakara maharSi pippalAda kA mana devoM ke prati ghRNA se bhara gyaa| unhoMne saMkalpa kiyA ki tapa ke dvArA bhagavAna AzutoSa ko prasanna kara maiM unase devatAoM ko naSTa karane kA varadAna maaNguuNgaa| __pippalAda ne gomatI nadI ke taTa para tapazcaryA Arambha kara dii| tapazcaryA se maharSi kA zarIra tRNa jaisA kRza ho gyaa| bhagavAna AzutoSa prasanna hue, prakaTa hue aura bole : 'vatsa! tumhArI tapazcaryA se maiM prasanna huA hU~, vara mA~go!' pippalAda ne kahA : 'yadi Apa mujha para prasanna hue haiM to apanA rudra svarUpa dhAraNa kara, samasta devagaNoM ko naSTa kara ddaalie|' bhagavAna ne kahA : 'vatsa, merA rudra svarUpa kevala devatAoM ko hI bhasma nahIM karegA, usase sArA jagata naSTa ho jaayegaa| tuma punaH soco|' pippalAda ne bhagavAna ke rudra svarUpa ke darzana kiye, pippalAda ne anubhava kiyA ki vyApaka vinAza kA AhvAna karate hI unakA svayaM kA roma-roma jalA jA rahA hai! unako lagA ki kucha hI kSaNoM meM ve cetanAhIna ho jaayeNge...| pippalAda ne ArtanAda kiyA aura A~kheM khola diiN| bhagavAna kA saumya svarUpa unake sAmane AyA...| pippalAda ne pUchA : 'yaha kyA bhagavan, yahA~ to maiM svayaM hI dagdha ho rahA huuN...|' bhagavAna ne kahA : 'vatsa, sArA saMsAra naSTa hogA to tuma kaise baca sakoge? beTA, ise samajho, kisI kA bhI amaMgala cAhane para svayaM pahale apanA amaMgala hotA hai|' basa, pippalAda kI aMtaryAtrA prArambha ho gii| pitA ke pratibiMba ko lekara unake mana meM roSa... ghRNA aura vairAgni pradIpta huI thI, biMba kA anubhava hote hI, maharSi dadhIci kI zAzvata AtmA kA bodha hote hI, vaha vairAgni zAnta ho gii| kaSAya kA dAvAnala bujha gyaa| vinAza kI kalpanA vinaSTa ho gaI, vizvamaMgala kI zubhakAmanA prakaTa huii| vizuddha AtmasvarUpa kI anubhUti ke liye unhoMne tapazcaryA aura dhyAna kA mArga liyaa| pratibimboM ke moha ko jalAyA tapazcaryA se aura AtmAnubhUti kA AnaMda pAyA dhyAna se| bimba kI upekSA na ho, pratibimboM kA vyAmoha na ho! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 130 ___130 65. dA~va para saba kucha lagA do i kucha pAnA! kucha chor3anA! manuSya kucha chor3atA jAtA hai, kucha pAne ke liye! jo pAtA hai, eka dina usako chor3atA hai! mAnava-mana kI eka Adata ho gaI hai - kucha pAnA, kucha chor3anA! jIvana yAnI pAnA aura chor3anA! anaMta icchAoM kA kendra banA hai, pAnA aura chodd'naa| asaMkhya pravRttiyoM kA kendra banA hai pAnA aura chor3anA! aMta hI nahIM hai isa cakra kaa| eka dina jisako pAnA cAhatA thA Aja usako hI chor3anA cAhatA hU~! eka dina jisako chor3anA cAhatA thA Aja usako pAnA cAhatA hU~ | kaisA hai mana? 'kolareDo' meM jaba sabase pahalI daphA sone kI khadAneM milI to sArA amarIkA daur3a par3A thA kolareDo kI trph| logoM ne kolareDo meM jamIna kharIda lii| eka karor3apati ne apanI sArI saMpatti lagAkara pUrI pahAr3I hI kharIda lii| bar3e-bar3e yaMtra lgaaye| choTe-choTe loga choTe-choTe khetoM meM sonA khoja rahe the, yaha bar3A AdamI thA, bar3I mazIneM lagAkara sonA khoja rahA thA! bar3I khudAI kI, parantu sone kA koI patA nahIM lgaa| logoM meM ghabarAhaTa phailanI zurU ho gii| usa karor3apati ne sArI saMpatti lagA dI thI na! vaha bahuta ghabarA gyaa| apane snehI-svajanoM se kahane lagA : 'hama to mara gye|' jaba pahAr3I lI thI taba bolA thA : 'hama to mAlAmAla ho gaye!' Aja jaba sonA nahIM mila rahA hai taba bolatA hai : 'hama to mara gaye!' usane vijJApana diyA ki 'maiM pUrI pahAr3I becanA cAhatA hU~, khudAI kA sArA sAmAna sAtha hogaa|' ghara ke logoM ne kahA : 'kauna kharIdegA? saba loga jaba jAna gaye haiM ki pahAr3a khAlI hai, usameM sonA nahIM hai! usameM lAkhoM rupaye kharAba ho gaye haiM, aba kauna pAgala hogA jo isako kharIdane AegA?' ___ parantu eka pAgala mila gayA kharIdane vAlA! becane vAle ko mana meM huA ki usako kaha deM ki 'pAgalapana mata karo, kyoMki maiM mara gayA huuN|' parantu usako to aba chor3anA thA... pahAr3a becanA hI thA... kyoM kahe aisA? usane beca diyA / becane ke bAda kahA : 'Apa bhI ajIba pAgala mAlUma hote ho!' usa AdamI ne kahA : 'jindagI kA koI bharosA nahIM hai, jahA~ taka tumane khodA, vahA~ taka sonA na ho! lekina Age ho sakatA hai! aura jahA~ tumane nahIM khodA hai vahA~ para For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 131 sonA nahIM hogA, yaha to tuma nahIM kaha sakate!' usane kahA : 'hA~, yaha to maiM nahIM kaha sktaa|' ___ Azcarya! bahuta bar3A Azcarya! hotA hai aisA saMsAra meN| pahale dina hI eka phUTa kI gaharAI meM, sone kI khadAna zurU ho gaI! vaha AdamI jisane pahale kharIdI thI pahAr3I, chAtI pITakara pahale bhI rotA thA aura bAda meM to aura bhI jyAdA chAtI pITakara rone lagA! usane pahAr3I kharIdane vAle ko kahA : 'dekho bhAgya kA khela!' usane kahA : 'bhAgya kA nahIM, tumane dA~va pUrA nahIM lagAyA, eka phUTa aura khodakara dekha lete...|' __pahale pahAr3I pAne kI tIvra icchA banI, jaba sonA nahIM milA, pahAr3I becane ke liye becaina banA! beca dI pahAr3I, phira jaba sonA nikalA, taba punaH use pAne kI icchaa...| ___pAne aura chor3ane kI hI kyA yaha jindagI hai? pAne meM bhI rAga-dveSa aura chor3ane meM bhI rAga-dveSa! rAga-dveSa meM se kleza... azAMti... sNtaap...| isa prakAra anaMta janma bIta gye| kucha aisA pA lU~... phira kucha bhI pAne kI icchA hI nahIM rahe! eka bAra jo chor3anA par3e, chor3a dU~, punaH kucha chor3ane kI icchA hI na rhe| saba kucha dA~va para lagA denA hogaa| koI ghabarAhaTa nahIM cAhie, koI adhIratA nahIM caahie| bAhara se barabAda ho jAnA par3e to barabAda honA mujhe svIkRta hai, parantu merA bhItara kA AnaMda bar3hatA hI rahegA! bhItara kA AnaMda hI to mujhe pUrNAnanda kI ora le jaayegaa| bAhara kA saba kucha kho jAe to kho jAe, yadi mujhe bhItara kA AnaMda milatA hai! rAstA lambA hai| maiM jAnatA hU~ ki isa yAtrA meM kaiyoM ne dhIratA ga~vAyI __hai, kaI vApasa lauTe haiM, kaI bhayabhIta hokara mArgabhraSTa bane haiN| maiM jAnatA hU~ kaiyoM ko unake mana ne dhokhA diyA hai| aMtaryAtrA meM bhI kucha pAne kI, kucha chor3ane kI Adata mana nahIM chor3atA hai! priya-apriya kI aneka kalpanAoM meM mana jaba ulajhatA hai, to pAne kA aura chor3ane kA khela zurU ho jAtA hai| jyoM yaha khela zurU huA ki rAga-dveSa... IrSyA... azAMti... saMtApa vagairaha ke Antaradvandva zurU ho jAte haiN| saba kucha dA~va para lagA diyA hai| mana-vacana aura kAyA saba kucha dA~va para lagAkara aMtaryAtrA para nikala par3A huuN| hAlA~ki abhI bahuta Age jAnA bAkI For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 132 hai| jisa caramabindu para pahu~canA hai vahA~ taka abhI nahIM pahuMca pAyA hU~, phira bhI dhIratA akSata hai, abhaya akhaMDa hai aura utsAha pravAhita hai| jisa caramabindu para pahu~canA hai, vahA~ pahu~cane ke bAda 'pAnA aura chor3anA...' vAlA khela samApta ho jaayegaa| koI icchA zeSa nahIM rhegii| hA~, usa caramabindu taka pahu~cane kI bhI tIvra icchA nahIM karatA huuN| usa dizA meM merI sahaja gati hotI rahe! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI www.kobatirth.org 66. karuNAbharI kAmanA Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir & bhagavAna nRsiMha ne prahlAda para prasanna hokara kucha varadAna mA~gane ke lie Agraha kiyA taba prahlAda ne pahale to kahA: 'bhagavan, mere mana meM koI kAmanA hI nahIM paidA ho, vaisA varadAna do / 133 bhagavAna ne 'evamastu' kaha kara Agraha kiyA ki 'tU apane lie kucha mA~ga le|' prahlAda ne socA : 'bhagavAna itanA Agraha karate haiM mA~gane kA, to avazya mere mana meM koI kAmanA honI caahie|' usane bahuta socA, kAphI manomaMthana kiyA, parantu aisI koI kAmanA nahIM mila... taba prahlAda ne kahA : 'bhagavAna, mere pitA ne ApakI bahuta nindA kI hai aura AstikajanoM ko bahuta kaSTa diye haiN| ve apane jIvana meM ghora hiMsaka rahe haiN| maiM yahI cAhatA hU~ ki ve ina pApoM se chUTakara pavitra ho jaaeN|' bhagavAna ne kahA : 'vatsa, dhanya ho tuma, jisake mana meM yaha kAmanA hai ki apane ko kaSTa dene vAle kI bhI durgati na ho / ' prahlAda kI kahAnI kahane vAle maharSi ke mana meM prahlAda kI Antarasampatti kI kaisI bhavya kalpanA hogI ! bAhya bhautika sampatti se duniyA ko khuza kara sakatA hai manuSya, parantu paramAtmA ko to Antara guNasampatti se hI prasanna kiye jA sakate haiN| Antara guNasampatti kA eka anamola ratna hai : aparAdhI ke prati bhI karuNA ! kaSTa dene vAloM ke prati bhI nirvairavRtti ! kaba AegI aisI karuNA ? kaba paidA hogI aisI nirvairavRtti ? maiM jAnatA hU~ ki 'samyagdarzana' guNa AtmA meM prakaTa hone kI yaha eka nizAnI hai : aparAdhI kA bhI ahita nahIM socanA, ahita nahIM karanA / to kyA AtmaguNasvarUpa samyagdarzana mujhe prApta hI nahIM huA hai ? kyA maiM kevala vyavahAradRSTi se hI samyagdarzana kA dhAraka hU~ ? aura isa bhUmikA para hI saMtoSa mAnakara baiThA rahA hU~? jisa pitA hiraNyakazipu ne ghora yAtanAe~ dI thI, unake prati kumAra prahlAda nirvairavRtti aura karuNA rakha sakate haiM / For Private And Personal Use Only jisa rAnI abhayA ne kutsita kalaMka lagAyA thA, unake prati zreSThi sudarzana nirvairavRtti aura apUrva karuNA rakha sakate haiN|

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yahI hai jiMdagI 134 jina coroM ne karor3oM rupayoM kI corI kI thI, unake prati suvrata zreSThi nirvairavRtti aura divya karuNA rakha sakate haiN| ___ jisa caMDakauzika ne tIvra vidveSa se bharakara paramAtmA mahAvIradeva ko daMza diyA, usake prati bhI ve nirvairavRtti aura divya karuNA rakha sakate haiN| to maiM sAdhAraNa aparAdha karane vAloM ke prati nirvairavRtti aura karuNA kyoM na rakha sakU~? kabhI eka bhUla ho jAyA karatI hai| aparAdhI ke aparAdhoM ko sudhArane kI bhAvanA se maiM svayaM koI aparAdha kara letA huuN| jinako apane mAne hue hote haiM, unake aparAdha bardAsta nahIM hote| jo kabhI bar3A nukasAna kara baiThate haiM, unakA aparAdha sahana nahIM hotaa| unako sajA karane kA vicAra A jAtA hai| 'vaha duHkha pAyegA tabhI sudhregaa...|' aisA mithyA vicAra A jAtA hai| ___ jAnatA hU~ ki aise vicAra, tAttvika vicAroM ke kSetra meM praveza nahIM pAte haiN| aise vicAra karmanirjarA ke hetu bhI nahIM bana pAte haiM, phira bhI mana kI nirbalatA ke kAraNa aise vicAra Ate rahate haiM aura vaicArika kSetra ko kaluSita karate haiN| ___ hAlA~ki, maiMne kucha prasaMgoM meM 'aparAdhI ke prati bhI karuNA' ke divya vicAra kiye haiM aura usake bahuta hI madhura pariNAma prApta kiye haiN| jaba eka vyakti ne Akara mujhase kahA : 'Apake ve..., ApakA ghora avarNavAda karate haiM, Apake viruddha pracAra karate haiM... ApakA caritra hanana karate haiM... maiMne zAMti se sunA aura kahA : 'paramAtmA kI kRpA se unako sadabuddhi prApta ho... paranindA ke pApa se ve mukta hoM! mujhe koI prativAda nahIM karanA hai|' unakI bAta sunakara jaba mere sAthI roSayukta ho gaye the aura prativAdapratikAra kI yojanA banAte the, taba bhI mere mana meM khUba zAMti thI, prasannatA thii| maiMne apane sAthiyoM se kahA thA : 'koI bhI pratikAra mata kro| unakI buddhi nirmala ho, vaisI prArthanA kro|' aparAdhI apane aparAdhoM se du:khoM ko nimantraNa detA hai| vaha vaise pApakarma bA~dhatA hai ki jinake pariNAmasvarUpa duHkha hI mile| aparAdhI kI bhaviSyakAlIna duHkhamaya avasthA kI kalpanA, usake prati karuNA paidA karatI hai| 0 mana meM se sabhI aparAdha-bhAvanAe~ naSTa ho jaae| 0 mana meM aparAdhI jIvoM ke prati bhI divya karuNA bahatI rhe| 0 sabhI jIvoM kI 'aparAdha-bhAvanA' dUra ho! 0 sabhI jIvoM ke hRdaya meM prema aura karuNA kI gaMgA bahatI rahe! 0 sabhI aparAdhoM ko sahajatA se sahana karane kI kSamatA prApta ho! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 135 67. adhyAtma yAnI kyA? 'Spiritualism is useless if not practical, it is practical.' 'zaoN DesamanDa' kI 'nobaDI heja evara DAiDa' kitAba meM jaba ye do vAkya par3he, maiM usa para cintanazIla bnaa| adhyAtmavAda kevala vAcika vAda-vivAda taka hI sImita rakhA jAe to usakA koI mUlya nahIM rhtaa| jIvana meM bhautikavAda! vANI meM adhyAtmavAda! yaha hai sabase bar3A visaMvAda! adhyAtmavAdiyoM ke jIvana meM hI visaMvAda? isase adhyAtmavAda kI pratiSThA ko bahuta bar3A dhakkA lagA hai| 'adhyAtma' kI paribhASA karate hue upAdhyAya zrI yazovijayajI kahate haiM : ___ 'AtmAnamadhikRtya yA pravartate kriyA... tadadhyAtmam / ' AtmA ko kendra meM rakhate hue jo kriyA sampanna ho, vaha adhyAtma hai| 'merI AtmA pApakarmoM se lipta na ho!' 'merI AtmA para lage hue karmoM kA nAza ho!' 'merI AtmA ke jJAnAdi guNoM kA AvirbhAva ho!' yaha hai adhyaatmdRsstti| isa adhyAtmadRSTi se jIvana kI eka-eka kriyA sampanna ho| AtmA kI ajara-amara-akSaya sthiti kA bhAna sadaiva rhe| bhautika vizva ke dvandvoM meM bhI mana sthira aura svastha rhe| svabhAva dazA kI cAha bar3hatI rahe! vibhAvadazA kI ramaNatA ghaTatI rhe| zubhAzubha karmoM se utpanna paristhitiyoM meM bhI merA dharmadhyAna akhaNDa rahe | sAdhanabhUta bhautika padArthoM meM merI Asakti kabhI baMdhe nhiiN| kSaNika ke lie zAzvata AtmA ko kabhI bhUlU~ nhiiN| mere samagra jIvana-vyavahAra meM merI adhyAtmadRSTi pratibimbita hotI rhe| mere vicAra, merI vANI aura merI kAyA adhyAtmarasa se niraMtara siMcita rhe| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 136 adhyAtmavAda mujhameM nirantara AnaMda-paramAnanda paidA karatA rahe... aura maiM vizuddha AtmA kA naikaTya banAye rakhU... yahI merI kAmanA ho| 0 eka dampatI ne apane putra ko kho diyaa| putra kI mauta ho gii| jyoM-jyoM snehI aura mitroM ko samAcAra mile tyoM-tyoM milane ke liye Ane lage aura AzvAsana dene lge| ___ pitA ne kahA : hama nahIM mAnate ki hamArA putra mara gayA hai! vaha hamase dUra gayA hai| usake samAcAra hameM milate rahate haiN| hama svastha haiN| mAtA ne kahA : 'putra Akhira to eka AtmA hai! AtmA amara hai! hama nahIM mAnate ki AtmA bhI maratI hai| hameM koI duHkha nahIM hai|' yaha thA 'prekTIkala spiricyualijanma' - jIvana meM jIvaMta adhyAtma! 0 eka mahAmuni the| kainsara ne muni ke zarIra ko ghera liyaa| bhaktoM ne kahA : 'oNparezana karavA deN|' muni ne kahA : 'kyoM? kainsara zarIra ko huA hai, hone do| maiM to saccidAnanda AtmA huuN| maiM nirogI hU~, maiM amara huuN| Apa merI cintA na kreN| maiM AtmabhAva meM lIna hU~| sar3anA aura galanA to zarIra kA svabhAva hai|' muni ne svabhAvastha dazA meM deha kA tyAga kiyaa| yaha thA bhautikatA para adhyAtma kA vijaya! 0 eka sadgRhastha the| unake pAsa karor3oM rupaye the| eka dina sArI sampatti naSTa ho gii| snehI-svajana aura mitra... saba dUra ho gye| maiMne kahA : 'Apa para bahuta bar3A duHkha A gyaa...|' unhoMne kahA : 'nahIM jI, mujhe tanika bhI duHkha nahIM hai| maiMne sampatti ke mAdhyama se apane Apa ko sukhI mAnA hI nahIM thaa| maiM jAnatA thA, mAnatA thA ki sampatti caMcala hai, kabhI bhI jA sakatI hai| sampatti calI gaI! jo nazvara thA vaha naSTa ho gayA! merI apanI AtmaguNoM kI sampatti avinAzI hai aura vaha Aja bhI hai! maiM prasanna huuN| yaha thA jIvita adhyAtmavAda! isa adhyAtmavAda ne mujhe khUba prabhAvita kiyaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 137 68. bhItara kA siMgAra karo I apane vicAra apanI duniyA banAte haiN| Our thoughts make our world. jaise vicAra vaisI duniyA! yadi vicAra nimna stara ke hoMge to duniyA nimna stara kI bnegii| yadi vicAra ucca stara ke hoMge to duniyA bhI ucca stara kI bnegii| yA to jaisI duniyA banAnI ho vaise vicAra karate raho yA to apane vicAroM se jaisI duniyA bane usako svIkAra kro| ___ apanI vartamAna duniyA apane hI vicAroM se banI huI hai| vartamAna ke apane vicAra apanI bhaviSya kI duniyA kA nirmANa kara rahe haiN| __ jaise bAhara kI duniyA hai, vaise apane bhItara bhI apanI svatantra duniyA hai| parantu durbhAgya yaha hai ki hama bAhara kI duniyA ko hI dekhate haiM, bAhara kI duniyA ko mAnate haiM, bhItara kI duniyA kA khayAla hI nahIM hai| bhItarI duniyA ke viSaya meM ghora ajJAna hai| vicAroM se Antara duniyA to banatI hI rahatI hai, cAhe manuSya jAne yA na jaane| ___ bAhara kI duniyA acchI milane para bhI, yadi bhItara kI duniyA nimna stara kI hogI to manuSya zAMti kA, prasannatA kA anubhava nahIM kara sakegA | bAhara kI duniyA nimna stara kI milane para bhI, yadi bhItara kI duniyA ucca stara kI hogI to manuSya atyaMta zAMti aura prasannatA kA anubhava kara skegaa| duniyA kI, bAhya duniyA kI zikAyata mata kro| bhItara kI duniyA kA uccastarIya nirmANa karane kI dizA meM Age bddh'o| sAre vicAra vidheyAtmaka - Positive banAte clo| niSedhAtmaka vicAroM ko badalane kA prayatna kro| __ bAhara kI duniyA ko badalane kA prayatna abhI nahIM karanA hai| tumhArA astitva aura tumhArA hI vyaktitva aisA banAte calo ki svataH jisako apane Apako badalanA hogA vaha badala jaayegaa| apane samaya para hI jIvAtmA badalatA hai| ___ apane pavitra, udAtta aura prazAnta vicAroM se apanI Antara duniyA ko badalane kA kArya karate rho| vartamAna jIvana aura pAralaukika jIvana - donoM jIvana AnaMdaprada bana jaayeNge| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI www.kobatirth.org * eka khUbasUrata yuvaka hai / usake pAsa saMpatti hai, patnI hai, bacce haiN| zarIra nirogI hai| yAnI usakI bAhya duniyA sukhaprada hai, parantu phira bhI vaha du:khI hai| usake vicAroM se mAlUma huA ki dUsaroM kI jyAdA saMpatti se usake mana meM IrSyA hai| dUsarI strI ke prati usake mana meM prema hai| apane baccoM ke prati usako prema nahIM hai / - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir paramAtmabhakti nahIM hai aura satsamAgama nahIM hai / yAnI usake nimna starIya vicAroM se usakI bhItara kI duniyA duHkhapUrNavedanApUrNa banI huI hai| - 138 dUsarA eka yuvaka hai, mAtA aura pitA kA svargavAsa ho gayA hai| nahIM hai usake pAsa saMpatti, nahIM hai saundarya / usakI bAhya duniyA duHkhoM se bharI huI hai, parantu phira bhI usake mu~ha para sadaiva smita rahatA hai, A~khoM meM camaka dikhatI hai aura badana meM sphUrti hI sphUrti rahatI hai| usake vicAroM se jJAta huA ki - apanI maryAdita Aya se vaha saMtuSTa hai / apane parivAra ke prati karttavyaniSTha hai / paramAtmazakti meM vaha vizvAsa karatA hai / paropakAra ke kAryoM meM dilacaspI rakhatA hai / dUsaroM ke guNa hI dekhatA hai| apanI AvazyakatAe~ maryAdita rakhatA hai| yAnI usake uccastarIya vicAroM se usakI bhItara kI duniyA sukhapUrNaAnaMdapUrNa banI huI hai / For Private And Personal Use Only unnata vicAroM se, pavitra vicAroM se apanI Antara duniyA ko sundara aura samRddha banAne kA saMkalpa kara, he Atman! usa puruSArtha meM laga jA / mAnavajIvana ke mUlyavAna samaya ko sArthaka banAne kA bharasaka prayatna kara / 'jaisI dRSTi vaisI sRSTi' isa satya ko hRdayastha karake, dRSTi ko divya banA le !

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yahI hai jiMdagI 139 69. jhagar3A dekhane kA gaMgA jaisI nadI thii| nadI kA paTa vizAla thA / eka kinAre se dUsare kinAre para pahu~cane ke lie nadI meM nAveM calatI thiiN| gaurAMga dhanI parivAra kA lar3akA thA, usakI apanI nAva thii| apanI nAva meM baiThakara vaha dUsare kinAre jA rahA thaa| sAmane se eka naiyA AyI aura gaurAMga kI nAva se TakarA gii| gaurAMga AgababUlA ho gayA / vaha apanI nAva meM khar3A ho gayA aura usa nAva meM dekhane lagA - parantu vaha nAva khAlI thI! usameM koI vyakti nahIM thaa| gaurAMga kA gussA zAnta ho gyaa| vaha baiTha gayA aura nAva Age bddh'ii| kinArA najadIka thA aura eka dUsarI nAva gaurAMga kI nAva se TakarA gii| gaurAMga khar3A ho gayA - roSa aura krodha se vaha kAMpane lgaa| usane usa nAva meM eka vyakti ko dekhA aura usake sAtha lar3ane ko taiyAra ho gyaa| yaha hai manuSya kA prAkRta svabhAva! __nAva TakarAne kI ghaTanA donoM samAna thii| eka ghaTanA meM krodha zAnta ho gayA, dUsarI ghaTanA meM krodha dhadhaka utthaa| krodha se bacane kA upAya isI ghaTanA meM se mila gayA / jJAnadRSTi se dekheM to hameM duHkha pahu~cAne vAlA koI jIva hai hI nahIM! koI cetana dravya hameM duHkhI nahIM karatA hai| hameM duHkha pahu~cAte haiM, jar3a karma! nAva jaise jar3a hotI hai vaise 'karma' bhI jar3a haiN| jaise nAva para gussA nahIM kiyA jAtA vaise karma para bhI gussA karane kA artha nahIM hotA / 'apane hI karmoM se maiM duHkhI ho rahA huuN|' yaha hai jnyaandRsstti| eka dUsarA dRzya : gaurAMga apane ghara para aayaa| naukara dUdha kA pyAlA lekara aayaa| gaurAMga ne dUdha pI liyaa| naukara khAlI pyAlA lekara jA rahA thA... Thokara lagI, pyAlA hAtha meM se gira gyaa| pyAlA kA~ca kA thA, phUTa gyaa| gaurAMga kA krodha naukara para barasa pdd'aa| __ zAma kA samaya thA, gaurAMga kA tIna sAla kA choTA munnA khela rahA thaa| bacce ne kA~ca kA glAsa uThAyA aura jamIna para paTaka diyA... pyAlA TUTa gayA...| gaurAMga daur3atA AyA aura munne ko uThA liyA, dekhatA hai ki usake zarIra para coTa to nahIM AyI! For Private And Personal Use Only

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140 yahI hai jiMdagI naukara para gussA AyA, munne para gussA nahIM AyA! ghaTanA donoM samAna thI - kA~ca kA pyAlA TUTane kii| naukara ke prati prema nahIM thA isalie usa para krodha AyA / munne ke prati prema thA isalie usa para gussA nahIM aayaa| pUrNajJAnI mahApuruSoM ne isIlie kahA hai ki saMsAra ke sabhI jIvoM ko apanA mitra maano| prema ke binA mitratA nhiiN| sabhI jIvoM ke prati... unake zuddha caitanya ke prati hameM prema honA caahie| zuddha caitanya ko jJAnadRSTi se dekhate raheM to samagra cetanasRSTi ke prati prema ke puSpa khileMge hii| vaha prema divya hogA, vaha prema niSkAma hogA, vaha prema advitIya hogaa| premamUlA maitrI bana jAne para kabhI kisI jIva ke prati durbhAva paidA nahIM hogaa| hama maitrI kI bAteM karate haiM, parantu prema nahIM krte| hama azuddha caitanya ko hI dekhate rahate haiM, phira maitrI banegI kaise? karmoM se azuddha Atmasthiti kA darzana hameM kAma-krodha Adi vikAroM meM pha~sAye rakhatA hai| __jisa para hamArA prema hogA, hama usake sabhI aparAdha sahana kara leNge| prema hameM sahanazIla banAtA hai| prema hameM acchAiyoM kA darzana karAtA hai| vaha prema honA cAhie vizuddha AtmasvarUpa se, caitanya se / jar3a padArthoM ke sAtha rAga karate-karate anaMtakAla nikala gyaa| Adata ho gaI hai jar3a se rAga karane kI! usa Adata se mukta honA hI hai aura usakA upAya hai caitanya kA prema! caitanya kA prema bar3hatA jAyegA aura jar3a kA rAga ghaTatA jaayegaa| antaHkaraNa se cAhatA hU~ ki aba kabhI bhI kisI jIvAtmA ke prati tanika bhI durbhAva na A jaae| sabhI jIvoM ke prati merI maitrI akhaMDa rhe| sadaiva mere hRdaya meM jIvahita kI bhAvanA pravAhita rhe| isalie paramAtmA se prArthanA karatA hU~ ki 'he karuNAsAgara! zuddha caitanya kA darzana karane kI mujhe divyadRSTi pradAna karo... prApta divyadRSTi kI Apa rakSA karo aura mere jIvanapatha ke pradarzaka bno|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 70. yAda karo... phariyAda mata karo briTana kI prasiddha nartakI 'elijAbetha TvisTiMgTana hiMgisa' 25 varSa kI umra meM poliyo kI zikAra ho gaI, jaba ki vaha prasiddhi ke zikhara para thii| usako pUchA gayA : 'kyA Apako bhAgya ke sAmane koI zikAyata hai ?' usane kahA : 'Izvara ko dhanyavAda ! mujhe koI zikAyata nahIM hai, mujhe jIvana meM bahutakucha milA hai|' jisa yuga meM zikAyata jIvana kA paryAya bana gaI hai, aise samaya binA phariyAda ke prasannatAmaya jIvana jInA sarala to nahIM lagatA / parantu eka nartakI yadi aisA jIvana jI sakatI hai to, phira eka sadgRhastha, eka zramaNa to vaisA jIvana jarUra jI sakatA hai... parantu vaisA jIvana kahA~ dekhane ko milatA hai ? yaha nartakI to bhAgya ko bhI nahIM kosatI hai ! Izvara ko bhI upAlaMbha nahIM detI hai ! manuSya ke sAmane phariyAda kI to bAta hI nahIM ! eka jagaha par3hA thA ki 'kisI bhI jIvAtmA kA doSa dekhanA aura usako kosanA anAryatA hai / ' usI saMdarbha meM par3hA thA ki 'jo Arya hotA hai vaha apane hI karmoM ke doSa dekhatA hai|' - www.kobatirth.org parantu merA prazna to yaha hai ki jo vyakti karmoM kA - bhAgya kA bhI doSa nahIM dekhatA hai, usako kyA kaheMge? vaha to Arya se bhI Age bar3ha gayA! - manuSya jaba taka yaha socatA rahatA hai ki 'mujhe yaha nahIM milA hai aura merA vaha calA gayA,' taba taka vaha azAMta banA rahegA aura azAMta manuSya zikAyata karatA hI rhegaa| azAMti ke raNapradeza meM zikAyatoM kI dhUla ur3atI hI rahegI / merA durbhAgya hai ki maiM zrImanta nahIM bnaa| merA durbhAgya hai ki mujhe acchI patnI nahIM milI / merA durbhAgya hai ki maiM niHsaMtAna hU~ / merA durbhAgya hai ki merI pratiSThA nahIM bana pAtI / merA durbhAgya hai ki merA svAsthya acchA nahIM rahatA / merA durbhAgya hai ki ghara meM merA kahA koI mAnatA nahIM / = Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir - 141 - - For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI www.kobatirth.org - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir merA durbhAgya hai ki loga merA tiraskAra karate haiN| bhAgya ko isa prakAra kosane se kyA ? phariyAda karane se bhAgya badalatA nahIM! phariyAda karane se duniyA badalatI nahIM! to phira phariyAda kyoM karanI cAhie? dRSTi hI badalanI hogI socane kI / 142 bhAgya ne mujhe kyA-kyA diyA hai, kitanA diyA hai, vaha hI mujhe dekhanA hogaa| maiM cAhatA hU~ aura mujhe nahIM milA hai - isako paramAtmA kI kRpA hI mAnanI caahie| sadaiva prasannacitta rahane kA rahasya isa vizvAsa meM chupA par3A hai| kaisI bhI vikaTa paristhitiyoM meM svasthatA banAye rakhane kA rahasya isa zraddhA meM chupA par3A hai| bhAgya ne mujhe kitanA diyA hai! yadi maiM usakA sadupayoga karU~ to jIvana satkAryoM se bhara jAe, mana AnaMda se chalakatA sAgara bana jAe / ' - jo mere pAsa nahIM hai usako mujhe yAda nahIM karanA hai| - jo mere pAsa se calA gayA hai, usako mujhe yAda nahIM karanA hai| - mujhe kisI vyakti se phariyAda nahIM hai, mujhe apane bhAgya se phariyAda nahIM hai| hA~, koI mere pAsa phariyAda lekara AegA to maiM sunU~gA zAMti se / usakI phariyAda sahI hogI to nivAraNa kA prayatna bhI karU~gA / yadi phariyAda sahI nahIM hogI to phariyAda chor3a dene ko samajhAU~gA / phariyAda karane kI Adata se chuTakArA pAne kA upAya batAU~gA / jisa mAnava-jIvana meM paramAtmA ko yAda karate rahanA hai, usa jIvana meM phariyAdoM kA sthAna hI kahA~ hai ? - jisa mAnava-jIvana meM mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA hI karanI hai, usa jIvana meM zikAyatoM kA sthAna hI kahA~ hai ? - jisa mAnava-jIvana meM samagra jIvasRSTi se maitrI - saMbaMdha sthApita karane haiM, usa jIvana meM zikAyateM kisase karanI hai ? For Private And Personal Use Only - jisa mAnava-jIvana meM AtmapariNati prApta karanI hai, AtmAnanda kI anubhUti meM DUbanA hai, usa jIvana meM phariyAdeM kaise kara sakatA hU~ ? 'mujhe kisI se koI phariyAda nahIM hai, mujhe bahuta kucha mila gayA hai|'

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yahI hai jiMdagI 143 71. aba pachatAe kyA hoya vaha sar3aka ke kinAre baiThA thaa| vaha apaMga thA, usake do hAtha nahIM the| usake koI svajana nahIM the, mitra nahIM the| hA~, koI na koI dayAlu... karuNAvaMta mila jAtA thA...| rahane ko ghara nahIM thA, parantu kisI vRkSa kI chAyA, kisI nirjana makAna kA bAhya bhAga... usakA ghara bana jAtA thaa| usako vizeSa koI tRSNA nahIM thii| pahanane ko ekAdha vastra... aura peTa bharane ko do-cAra roTiyoM se jyAdA vaha kisI se mA~gatA nahIM thaa| ___maiM usako dekhatA rahA... usane bhI merI ora dekhA...| maiM usake pAsa gayA, kucha kSaNa mauna khar3A rahA, phira kahA : 'tU roTI kaise khAtA hai? tere donoM hAtha to haiM nahIM ... / ' 'mahAtmAjI, rAste para se gujarate logoM ko pukAratA hU~: 'o bhAI, o bahana... mujhe jarA roTI khilA do... dayA karo... mere donoM hAtha kaTa gaye haiN...|' yUM to loga mere sAmane dekhate hI nahIM haiM... parantu phira bhI dina meM dotIna bhAI-bahana to mila hI jAte haiM... mere mu~ha meM roTI ke Tukar3e DAla dete haiM aura cale jAte haiN| ___ maiMne usake pAsa pAnI se bharA pyAlA par3A huA dekhA... aura pUchA : 'pAnI kaise pItA hai?' ___'pazu kI trh...| jamIna para jhUka kara pyAle meM mu~ha DAlakara pItA huuN|' vaha to sahaja bhAva se bolatA thA, parantu merA hRdaya kA~pa rahA thaa| maiMne pUchAH 'tujhe macchara bhI kATate hoMge... kabhI-kabhI sUkSma jaMtu bhI tere zarIra para car3hate hoMge... tU unako kaise dUra karatA hai?' __ 'kabhI jamIna ke sAtha... dIvAra ke sAtha sara ragar3atA hU~... zarIra ko ragar3atA hU~... dekhie n...|' yUM kaha kara usane apanA zarIra dikhAyA... jagaha jagaha khUna ke dAga the... camar3I phaTI huI thii...|' 'tere mana meM kaise-kaise vicAra Ate haiM?' 'vicAra? kabhI-kabhI maiM bhagavAna ko kahatA hU~ : he bhagavAna, kisI insAna ke hAtha mata kaTane denA... | maiMne ina hAthoM se bure kAma kiye hoMge... isaliye mere hAtha kaTa gae... bhagavAna sabakA bhalA kare / ' For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 144 mere sAtha vAle sadgRhastha ne usako roTI khilAyI, pAnI pilAyA... aura hama vahA~ se cale / apane sthAna para pahu~cane ke bAda bhI vaha vikalAMga bhikSuka mere mana meM aneka gaMbhIra bAteM paidA karatA rahA / vaha socatA hogA : 'yadi bhagavAna mujhe donoM hAtha de deM to maiM una hAthoM se kabhI bhI burA kAma nahIM karU~gA / hAthoM se hiMsA nahIM karU~gA, chInA-jhapaTI nahIM karU~gA, kharAba likhU~gA nhiiN| corI nahIM karU~gA... koI bhI burA kAma nahIM kruuNgaa...|' vaha aisA socatA hogA kyoMki vaha itanA to samajhatA hai ki 'maiMne ina hAthoM se bure kAma kiye hoMge isalie mere hAtha kaTa gae haiN...|' aba, jaba usake hAtha nahI rahe..... hAthoM kI upayogitA... mahattA usake khayAla meM A rahI hogI | taba to kyA yaha mAnava-svabhAva hai ki jaba taka usake pAsa mAnavadeha hai taba taka usakA sadupayoga... usakI mahattA ... mUlyAMkana vaha nahIM samajha pAtA ? jJAnI puruSoM ne to mAnavadeha kA mUlya amUlya batAyA hai ... mAnava - jIvana ko durlabha batAyA hai... parantu phira bhI kyoM manuSya apanI durlabha deha kA durupayoga kara rahA hai? kyA, jaba usake pAsa mAnavadeha nahIM rahegA taba vaha mAnavadeha ke lie tarasegA ? jisakI A~kheM calI gaI hotI haiM, andhApana A gayA hotA hai taba usako A~khoM kA sadupayoga karane ko sUjhatA hai / A~kheM hotI haiM taba to A~khoM kA durupayoga hI karatA rahatA hai| eka zrImanta ko maiMne kahA thA : 'tumhAre pAsa acchI saMpatti hai to usakA sadupayoga kara lo... dharmakArya meM vyaya kro|' usane merI bAta eka kAna se sunI, dUsare kAna se nikAla dii| kucha varSa bAda jaba vaha milA, zrImaMta nahIM rahA thA, nirdhana ho gayA thaa| maiMne usako kucha nahIM kahA, parantu vaha bolA : 'gurudeva, aba yadi mere pAsa saMpatti AegI to maiM dharmakArya meM lagAU~gA, saMpatti kA sadvyaya karU~gA / ' sAdhana jaba hamAre pAsa hote haiM taba hama sAdhya bhUla jAte haiM! sAdhana jaba hamAre pAsa nahIM rahate - taba hama sAdhya ko yAda karate haiM! kitanI bar3I bhUla hai apanI? hamArI eka-eka indriya kA sadupayoga hameM karanA caahie| durupayoga to karanA hI nahIM hai| anyathA, hamArI indriyA~ vikala ho jaayeNgii| hama jaba paravaza ho jAyeMge taba hamAre duHkha-darda kI sImA nahIM rhegii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 145 72. duHkha kI jar3a Asakti kazmIra-nareza lalitAditya vizAla senA ke sAtha paMjAba jA rahA thaa| rAste meM sAgara sI sindhu nadI aayii| sindhu kA jalapravAha bar3ha rahA thaa| rAjA lalitAditya cintAmagna ho gayA / 'aise jalapravAha ko kaise pAra kiyA jAya?' rAjA ke sAtha unakA mahAmaMtrI ciMkUNa bhI thaa| ciMkUNa ne rAjA ko AzvAsana dete hue kahA : 'mahArAjA, Apa cintA nahIM kareM, sindhu ko pAra kara hama paMjAba meM praveza kara skeNge| ApakI dharmaprasAra kI bhAvanA saphala hogii|' rAjA lalitAditya senA ke sAtha sindhu ke taTa para pahu~cA | maMtrI ciMkUNa ne apanI jeba se aika tejasvI maNi nikAlI aura sindhu ke jalapravAha meM DAla dii| zIghra hI pAnI do bhAga meM pRthak ho gayA... sAmane vAle kinAre taka mArga bana gyaa| rAjA senA ke sAtha sAmane kinAre pahu~ca gyaa| mahAmaMtrI ne dUsarI maNi jalapravAha meM DAlI aura jalapravAha pUrvavat ho gyaa| maMtrI ne donoM maNi nikAla liiN| rAjA Azcaryacakita ho gyaa| usane ciMkUNa ko kahA : 'tujhe mere khajAne meM se jo bhI uttama vastu cAhie, mA~ga le aura mujhe ye do maNi de de|' maMtrI ne kahA : 'mahArAjA, Apako cAhie to ye donoM maNi le leM parantu mujhe bhagavAna buddha kI vaha mUrti dene kI kRpA kareM ki jo magadha - nareza ne Apako bheMTa bhejI hai|' rAjA ne bhagavAna buddha kI mUrti ciMkUNa ko de dii| ciMkUNa mUrti pA kara bhAvavibhora ho gayA... virakta banA huA ciMkUNa mUrti lekara apane vatana calA gyaa| __ kahAnI to itanI hI hai, parantu ciMkUNa ne mujhe vicAramagna kara diyaa| usane sahajatA se candrakAnta maNi jaisA mUlyavAna, prabhAvazAlI aura camatkArika maNi rAjA ko diyA! aura badale meM buddha kI mUrti mA~ga lii| kyA socA hogA usa prajJAvaMta mahAmaMtrI ne apane mana meM? yaha candrakAnta maNi to eka nadI se pAra utarane meM sahAyatA kara sakatA hai... jabaki yaha mUrti bhavasAgara se pAra utarane meM sahAyatA karegI... mujhe bhavasAgara se pAra utaranA hai... nirvANa pAnA hai...| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 146 kyA aisA hI kucha socA hogA usa mahAmaMtrI ne? kyA usake hRdayagiri meM vairAgya kA jharanA bahatA hI rahA hogA? mahAmaMtrI ke pada para AsIna vaha mahApuruSa kyA sacamuca virAgI hogA ? Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir - hA~, duniyA meM aisI koI vastu nahIM hai ki jo virAgI tyAga na sake ! vizva kA sAmrAjya bhI vairAgI tyAga sakatA hai| rUpasundariyoM kA antaHpura bhI tyAga sakatA hai... apanI deha kA bhI utsarga kara sakatA hai| - aMtarAtmA ke dharAtala para vairAgya kA jharanA nirantara bahate rahanA cAhie / yogamArga meM virakta AtmA hI praveza pA sakatI hai| vairAgya sahaja honA caahie...| vairAgya kA dikhAvA nahIM, vairAgya kA abhinaya nahIM / vairAgya kA sambandha hRdaya se hai, antaHkaraNa se hai| hRdaya virakta honA caahie| virakta hRdaya udAra, vizAla aura karuNa hotA hai / virakta antaHkaraNa meM hI samyagjJAna kA ratnadIpa jagamagAtA hai| bAhara se manuSya rAjA ho, maMtrI ho, zreSThi ho yA majadUra ho... bhItara se vaha virAgI raha sakatA hai / virAgI manuSya, sukha-duHkha meM samatva rakha sakatA hai| vairAgya aura samatA kA ghaniSTha sambandha hai / virAgI hI sadaiva zAMti aura prasannatA kI anubhUti kara sakatA hai| - - virAgI nirbaMdhana hotA hai| use koI bAhya abhyaMtara baMdhana nahIM hotA / dravya-kSetra-kAla aura bhAva ke baMdhanoM se mukta hotA hai vairAgI / - - virAgI hI saccA zraddhAvAn hotA hai, sAdhu-saMnyAsI hotA hai| jo virAgI nahIM vaha zraddhAvAn nahIM, sAdhu nahIM, saMnyAsI nhiiN| jisa vyakti meM rAga aura Asakti kA viSa bharA ho ... vaha tyAgI kaisA ? kevala vezaparivartana se sAdhusaMnyAsI nahIM bana jAte / upAdhyAya zrI yazovijayajI ne saca hI kahA hai : 'tyAgAt kaMcukamAtrasya bhujaMgo na hI nirviSaH / ' hRdaya sadaiva anAsakta banA rahe yahI eka mana:kAmanA hai... For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 147 73. daMbha eka graMthi hai cIna ke tattvajJAnI kanphyUziyasa 'yu' rAjya ke 'zI' prAnta meM paribhramaNa kara rahe the| eka jagaha, eka kabra ke pAsa eka mahilA karuNa vilApa kara rahI thii| kanphyUziyasa ne usa mahilA ko rudana kA kAraNa pUchA / mahilA ne kahA : 'isa jagaha eka bAgha ne mere sasura ko mAra DAlA thA, usake bAda mere pati ko bhI bAgha ne isI jagaha mAra DAlA aura abhI-abhI mere putra ko bhI...' vaha strI karuNa rudana karane lgii| __'to tuma isa jagaha ko chor3akara dUsarI jagaha kyoM nahIM calI jAtI?' kanphyUziyasa ne usa strI se khaa| ___ 'kyoMki yahA~ kA rAjA julma nahIM karatA hai... isa rAjya meM prajA nirbhaya aura nizcita hai|' kanphyUziyasa ne apane ziSyavRnda kI ora dekhA aura bole : 'yaha bAta tuma sabako yAda rakhane yogya hai : surAjya ho to bAgha kA trAsa bhI sahana kiyA jA sakatA hai|' rAjya meM julma nahIM ho, gA~va-nagara meM julma nahIM ho, parivAra meM julma nahIM ho... vaise sthAna meM rahanA cAhie | sthAna nirAkula va nirApada honA caahie| yadi vaisA sthAna prApta ho aura dUsarI aneka takalIpheM bhI ho, to bhI vaha sthAna nahIM chor3anA caahie| yadi surAjya meM jyAdA dhanadaulata nahIM milatI ho to bhI surAjya kA tyAga nahIM karanA caahie| jo loga isa bAta ko nahIM jAnate haiM, ve loga dhanalAlasA se AkarSita hokara julmI dezoM meM jAte haiM (islAmI dezoM meM) aura duHkha pAte haiN| jahA~ para phaujI zAsana hotA hai athavA tAnAzAhI hotI hai vahA~ julma kA zAsana hogA hii| vaise dezoM meM dharmapuruSArtha nahIM ho sktaa| zAMti aura prasannatA se jIvana nahIM jI skte| ___ surAjya ko manuSya jaba nahIM samajha pAtA hai, surAjya ke lAbhoM ko nahIM samajha pAtA hai taba sAmane calakara vaha AphatoM ko nimaMtraNa de detA hai| surAjya ke lAbhoM ko ga~vA detA hai| dharmapuruSArtha to nahIM, vaiSayika sukha-bhogoM se bhI vaha For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 148 vaMcita rahatA hai| duHkha-trAsa aura viDaMbanAoM se usakA jIvana bhara jAtA hai| eka prazna mana meM uThA : - kyA nirgranthatA ke sAtha nirdabhatA kA koI sambandha hai? - kyA dambha granthi nahIM? jaise rAga granthi hai, dveSa granthi hai, vaise dambha granthi nahIM hai? -- nirgrantha ke jIvana meM jaise rAga-dveSa heya mAne gaye haiM vaise dambha bhI heya nahIM hai? -- 'dambha heya hai, tyAjya hai,' itanA kaha dene se nahIM calegA! jIvana vyavasthA meM dambha ko sthAna milA ho aura kaha deM ki 'dambha heya, dambha tyAjya hai, to prazna kA samAdhAna kaise hogA? - gRhastha kI jIvana vyavasthA meM to dambha nitAnta Avazyaka mAna ligA gayA hai, parantu nirgrantha ke jIvana meM bhI dambha Avazyaka? kyoM? - 'dambha, muktirUpI latA ko jalAne vAlI Aga hai, dambha mokSamArga meM rukAvaTa karanevAlI argalA hai, dambha jahara hai...' aisI dambha-nindA dharmagranthoM meM kI gaI hai| - dharmagranthoM ko par3hanevAle aura sunanevAle sabhI loga dambha-nindA ko jAnate haiM phira bhI 'itanA dambha to karanA par3atA hai...' aisI bAteM karate haiN| - kyA zramaNa-jIvana meM, nirgranthatA ke mArga meM dambha Avazyaka hai? hA~, jaba taka zramaNa-sAdhu sAmAjika banA rahegA taba taka usako dambha kA sahArA lenA pdd'egaa| -- parantu, sAmAjika mAna-pratiSThA ke vyAmoha meM pha~se hue bAhya nirgrantha nirdabha jIvana nahIM jI sakate / sAmAjika kAryoM meM rAgI-dveSI aura dambhI jIvoM ke saMparka, anivAryarUpa se hote haiM | 'sNsrgjnyaagunndossaaH'| ___- nirdabhatA ke binA nirgranthatA nahIM, yaha bAta nirgrantha sAdhu ke hRdaya meM sthira honI caahie| nirdabha banane kA usakA saMkalpa dRr3ha honA cAhie | ___'mujhe sAmAjika pratiSThA nahIM cAhie, mujhe to AdhyAtmika niSThA cAhie' aisA AntaranAda gUMjatA rahe... to nirgranthatA kI prApti ho sakatI hai aura Antara saMtoSa kI anubhUti ho sakatI hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI Lux www.kobatirth.org - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir 74. karuNA mA~geM... paramAtmA kI maiMne eka vyakti ko pUchA : 'punaH vahI tapazcaryA kyoM karanA cAhate ho?' usane kahA : 'aura to kucha nahIM, parantu gharavAloM kI ora se sahAnubhUti to milegI / ' manuSya cAhatA hai apane prati kisI kI sahAnubhUti ... kisI kI premasikta karuNA! jisako vaha cAhatA hai, jisako vaha apane svajana mAnatA hai, unakI ora se vizeSa rUpa se yaha apekSA rahatI hai / 149 yadi sahAnubhUti milatI hai, to manuSya apane Apa ko sukhI mAnatA hai ! - yadi sahAnubhUti nahIM milatI hai, to manuSya apane Apa ko duHkhI mAnatA hai! - sukha aura duHkha parasApekSa banA diye... yahI kyA ghora ajJAna nahIM hai? yaha manovRtti jIvana ko vivaza - paravaza karane vAlI nahIM hai ? - dUsaroM kI sahAnubhUti pAne ke lie tapazcaryA! kaSTa sahana karane vAloM ke prati logoM meM karuNA paidA hotI hI hai! rAste para aise khela karane vAloM ko maiMne dekhA hai ki jo logoM meM darzakoM meM anukampA paidA karane ke lie lar3ake ke mukha meM kaTArI ghuser3ate the... khUna bahatA ... darzakoM ke mu~ha se 'ararara...' jaise karuNa svara nikala jAte ... / phira vaha lar3akA... khUna se sane hue mu~havAlA lar3akA darzakoM ke pAsa jAkara paisA mA~gatA thA... aura darzaka kucha na kucha dete the! maiM tapazcaryA karU~gA to ghara ke loga mere prati kaThoratApUrNa vyavahAra nahIM kareMge... ve soceMge - 'usakA Aja upavAsa hai... usako parezAna mata karo.... maiM koI kAma karU~gA to ghara ke loga kaheMge- 'yaha kAma tuma mata karo, kyoMki tumhArI tapazcaryA cala rahI hai...|' koI hamAre lie aise sahAnubhUti bhare zabda bolatA hai, to hameM khuzI hotI hai! hameM khuzI cAhie... isalie svajanoM kI sahAnubhUti cAhie... isalie tapazcaryA! For Private And Personal Use Only * mAtA jaba bacce kI upekSA karatI hai, bacce ke prati dhyAna nahIM detI hai taba - baccA rotA hai... paira pachAr3atA hai... bhojana nahIM karatA hai... snAna nahIM karatA

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yahI hai jiMdagI 150 hai... taba mAtA ko usake prati dhyAna denA par3atA hai... apane utsaMga meM lenA par3atA hai! bacce kI tapazcaryA saphala hotI hai! ___- satyAgraha bhI eka prakAra kI tapazcaryA hI hotI hai na? kaSTa sahana kara, dUsaroM kI anukampA prApta karane kI eka paramparA duniyA meM cala par3I hai| - kyA aisI paramparA ko dekhakara yogIzvara AnaMdaghanajI ne kahA hogA ki: 'koI patiraMjana ati ghaNuM tapa kare, patiraMjana tana-tApa, e patiraMjana meM nahIM citta dharyu raMjana dhAtu-milApa...' - tapazcaryA se tuma apane snehI ko apane vaza karane kA prayatna karate ho - yaha sahI rAstA nahIM hai| tuma usake AdarzoM ko mAna kara calo! vaha tuma para khuza ho jAyegA! -- paramAtmA ko prasanna karanA hai kyA? mahAtmAoM kI kRpA prApta karanI hai kyA? to unake upadezoM kA apane jIvana meM pAlana karate calo! vahI zreSTha tapazcaryA hai! upadezoM kA pAlana nahIM karanA hai aura kRpA-anukampA cAhie? isalie ghora tapazcaryA karate ho? mArga galata hai| vicAra vikRta haiN| - eka vyakti ke jIvana meM kucha pApAcAra haiN| dUsaroM kI nahIM, parantu AsapAsa vAloM ko to usake prati anAdara ho hI jAe, tiraskAra ho hI jAe, vaisI usakI pravRttiyA~ haiN| vaha vyakti bhI samajhatA hai yaha bAta / usane tapazcaryA zurU kara dii| basa, logoM ko usake prati kucha anukampA paidA ho gaI! 'kaisA bhI hai, parantu tapasvI to hai!' vaha bhI nirbhaya ho gayA... ki aba maiM apanI pravRtti karatA rahU~gA... logoM ko mere prati tiraskAra nahIM hogA!' aura bAta to vahI karatA hai 'tapa karane se karmoM kI nirjarA hotI hai!' -- aisI tapazcaryA se karmanirjarA nahIM hotI hai| aisI tapazcaryA se Atmavizuddhi nahIM hotI hai| aisI tapazcaryA se antatRpti nahIM hotI hai! ___ - aura tapazcaryA se duniyA ke rAgI-dveSI jIvoM ko khuza karane kI manovRtti to kitanI ajJAnamUlaka manovRtti hai? __- duniyA ke rAgI-dveSI aura mohI jIva apane prati khuza ho to kyA, nAkhuza ho to kyA? unakI khuzI bhI kSaNika aura nAkhuzI bhI kSaNika! Aja khuza, kala nArAja! - aise logoM kI anukampA-sahAnubhUti bhI kSaNika hotI hai / kSaNika sahAnubhUti se kyA khuzI? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 151 tU apane hRdaya meM dRr3ha nizcaya kara le : mujhe rAgI -dveSI jIvoM kI sahAnubhUti nahIM cAhie / sahajatA se paraspara sahAnubhUti honI caahie| dUsaroM ke prati merI sahAnubhUti vaisI hI rahegI / - sahAnubhUti kI yAcanA to nahIM honI cAhie / Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir yAcanA se prApta sahAnubhUti dInatA paidA karatI hai, vivazatA paidA karatI hai| hInabhAvanA paidA karatI hai| kRpA cAhie paramAtmA kI, anukampA cAhie paramAtmA kI, sahAnubhUti cAhie saMtoM kI ... ki jisase maiM adIna bhAva se jIvana basara kara sakU~! paranirapekSa jIvana jI sakU~ / For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI - www.kobatirth.org 75. mujhako nirbhaya honA hai maiM nirbhaya kaise banU~? jar3a aura cetana padArthoM kI anaMta apekSAoM se hRdaya bharA huA hai.... apekSAoM kI mAyA - marIcikA meM mana sambhrAnta banA hai| - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir * mana ko dvaita pasanda hai, advaita ko asaMbhava mAna liyA hai| vyavahAramArga para - mana daur3a rahA hai... svabhAva hI dvaitapremI bana gayA hai| - 152 kucha chupAne kI vRtti hai, kucha denA hai, kucha pAnA hai... kartRtva kA abhimAna hai...| mana ina bAtoM meM hI ulajhA huA rahatA hai...| mana kA bhaTakAva niraMtara cAlU hai| moha-senA se ghirA huA hU~ / moha-senA ko zatru senA bhI mAnane ko mana taiyAra nahIM hai...| phira, usa senA se lar3ane kI to bAta hI kahA~ ? lar3ane ke lie jo brahmAstra cAhie vaha bhI mere pAsa kahA~ hai ? mujhe lar3anA hI kahA~ hai ? - maiMne apanA svAbhAvika AnaMda kho diyA hai...| mere AnaMdavRkSa para asaMkhya bhaya-sarpa lipaTe hue haiM... maiM A~kheM kholakara dekhatA bhI nahIM huuN| mere AnaMdavRkSa ko bhaya-sarpoM se mukta karane kA vicAra bhI mujhe nahIM AtA hai... phira, maiM kyoM jJAnadRSTirUpa mayUrI kA praveza mere Atmavana meM karavAU~ ? - moha ke prahAra mujhe prahAra hI nahIM lagate ... mujhe to ve alaMkAra lagate haiM / mohavRtti aura mohajanya pravRtti mujhe priya haiM... phira maiM kyoM AtmajJAna kA kavaca apane badana para dhAraNa karU~ ? AtmajJAna ke abhAva meM bhayoM kA cakravAta mujhe AkAza meM ghumAtA hai... maiM vyAkula hU~, vyathita hU~, bhayoM se bacane ke lie paramAtmA ko pukAratA huuN...| - citta meM cAritra nahIM hai, dRSTi meM jJAna nahIM hai, hRdaya meM zraddhA nahIM hai..... maiM kaise bhayamukta bana sakatA hU~? kaise vivAdarahita ho sakatA hU~? For Private And Personal Use Only yadi mujhe nirbhaya honA hai, AtmAnanda kI anubhUti karanI hai... merA nizcala nirNaya hai, to mujhe advaitagAmI honA hI par3egA / dvaita kA moha chor3anA hI pdd'egaa| mujhe apane svabhAva ko hI advaitapriya banAnA hogA / bhayAkrAnta bhavasukhoM kI apekSAoM kA tyAga karanA par3egA / mana ko nirapekSa

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yahI hai jiMdagI 153 banAnA pdd'egaa| 'saMsAra' kA eka-eka sukha bhaya se AkrAnta hai, isa satya ko svIkAra kara, mana ko bhavasukhoM se ni:spRha karanA pdd'egaa| ___ - mere pAsa aisI koI vastu nahIM honI cAhie, aisI koI bAta nahIM honI cAhie ki jisako chupAnA pdd'e| merA jIvana khulI kitAba jaisA honA cAhie | jo cAhe vaha merI jIvana-kitAba par3ha ske| ___- 'mujhe dUsaroM ko kucha denA hai, yaha vicAra bhI nahIM cAhie / 'mujhe dUsaroM se kucha pAnA hai, yaha vicAra bhI nahIM cAhie | saMsAra ke sAtha lena-dena kA vyavahAra kevala vyavahAra banA rahe! mana usa vyavahAra se mukta rahe! ___ - mujhe saMsAra ke sabhI jar3a-cetana padArthoM ko 'jJeya' rUpa meM dekhane hoNge| binA rAga-dveSa dekhane hoNge| binA rAga-dveSa dekhane kI jJAnadRSTi mujhe prApta karanI hogii| mujhe kevala 'jJAtA' bananA hogaa| - jJAtA banane ki lie 'jJAnadRSTi' cAhie / jJAnadRSTi kahA~ se prApta karU~? zAstroM se? dharmagranthoM se? zAstroM ke arthaghaTana meM tIvra matabheda pravartita haiN| unhIM dharmagranthoM ke mAdhyama se vyavahAra ko - dvaita ko puSTa kiyA jA rahA hai| vyavahAra bhI zuddha nahIM, azuddha aura azubha! kevala vidhi-vidhAnoM meM aura vAdavivAdoM meM zAstravettA ulajhe hue haiN| ___ - jJAnadaSTi prakaTa hotI hai, vizaddha cAritra meM se / vaha cAritra citta meM honA caahie| mere citta meM cAritra kahA~ hai? mere deha para cAritra ke upakaraNa haiM, mere citta meM asaMyama kI gaMdagI bharI huI hai| asaMyama meM se jJAnadRSTi nahIM prakaTa hotI hai, ajJAna hI prakaTa hotA hai| - citta meM cAritra ke phUla khila jAeM... taba to ber3A pAra laga jAe! -- dRSTi meM jJAna ke dIpa jalate rahe... to phira aura kyA cAhie? nirantara prakAza kI gaMgA meM snAna kiyA kruuN| ___- nirbhaya tabhI bana sakatA hU~... bananA bhI hai... parantu nirbhaya banane kI prakriyA vikaTa hai, zarte jyAdA kaThora haiN| maiM tana-mana se nirbala hU~, ina zartoM kA pAlana kaise karU~? - nirbhayatA kA mArga mere mana ko pasaMda A gayA hai, parantu usa mArga para calane kI zakti kahA~ hai mana ke pAsa? to kyA dUsarA koI zakya-sarala mArga hai hI nahIM isa kAla meM? karuNAvaMta sarvajJa bhagavantoM ne isa kalikAla ke jIvoM ke lie nirbhayatA prApta karane kA dUsarA koI sarala mArga batAyA to hogA hI! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 154 parama karuNAvaMta sarvajJa paramAtmA kI zaraNAgati aura unake Age sabhI duSkRtyoM kA prakAzana - yaha eka mArga lagatA hai nirbhayatA prApta karane kaa| - dUsarA mArga : duSkRtyoM ke phalasvarUpa jo bhI duHkha Ane saMbhavita hoM, una duHkhoM ko sahajatA se svIkAra krnaa| ___- tIsarA mArga : parapadArthoM kI apekSAe~ kama karatA cluuN| apekSAoM kI vRddhi to honI hI nahIM caahie| nirbhayatA meM hI sukha hai| nirbhayatA meM hI AnaMda hai| mujhe nirbhaya honA hI hai... For Private And Personal Use Only

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155 yahI hai jiMdagI 76. nirdabha banane ke lie nirapekSa bananA jarUrI 13 mahAtmA bhartRhari eka gA~va ke bAhya-pradeza meM panaghaTa ke pAsa eka vRkSa kI chAyA meM vizrAma kara rahe the| panaghaTa para do panihAriyA~ pAnI bhara rahI thiiN| donoM kI nigAheM mahAtmA bhartRhari kI ora gii| eka panihArI ne dUsarI se kahA : 'dekha to usa mahAtmA ko| isane rAjya kA tyAga kara diyA... saMsAra kI mohamAyA chor3a dI... parantu takiye ke binA nahIM cltaa| hAtha kA takiyA banAkara soyA hai|' ye zabda bhartRhari ne suna liye| bhartRhari to sarala svabhAva ke mahAtmA the| panihArI kI bAta sunakara unhoMne AtmanirIkSaNa kiyA... aura turaMta hI mastaka ke nIce se hAtha haTA liyA / panihArI ne dekhA ki bhartRhari ne hAtha haTA liyA, usane dUsarI panihArI se kahA : 'are, isa mahAtmA ko merI bAta se burA lagA... dekha, usane hAtha haTA liyA... saMsAra chor3A, parantu rIsa nahIM chodd'ii|' bhartRhari ne ye zabda bhI sune / unako ha~sI A gaI : isa duniyA ko koI khuza nahIM kara sktaa| he Atman, tU apanI rAha para calatA rhe| ___ - 'duniyA ke loga kyA kahate haiM? duniyA ke loga kyA soceMge? duniyA ke logoM ko kyA acchA lagatA hai?' ye vicAra kyoM karane cAhie? ina vicAroM meM kitanA aucitya hai? ___ - jisako duniyA se kucha pAnA hai, duniyA ko kucha denA hai... ve bhale hI ina vicAroM meM aucitya dekhate hoM, parantu jinhoMne duniyA se nAtA tor3a diyA hai, duniyA se kucha pAnA nahIM hai... ve duniyA ke logoM ke viSaya meM kyoM soceM? loga khuza hoM yA nArAja, mahAtmAoM ko kyA lenA-denA? ___- ye ve loga haiM ki jinhoMne sItAjI kI prazaMsA bhI kI thI aura nindA bhI kI thii| sItAjI ne logoM kA kucha bhI nahIM bigAr3A thA... phira bhI logoM ne sItAjI ke jIvana meM hastakSepa kiyA thaa| sItAjI ke svaccha nirmala vyaktitva ko kalaMkita kiyA thaa| ___ - 'ziSTa logoM kA vicAra to karanA cAhie na?' aisA mata puucho| kauna haiM ziSTa loga? kyA rAmarAjya meM koI ziSTa puruSa nahIM thA? kyA zrIrAma svayaM For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 156 ziSTa nahIM the? kyoM unhoMne logoM kI asatya bAta mAna lI? kyoM sItAjI ko nahIM pUchA? ___ - kyA bahuta sAre dharmagrantha par3ha lene mAtra se manuSya ziSTa bana jAtA hai? kyA bahuta dhana kamA lene se manuSya ziSTa bana jAtA hai? kyA bar3I umra hone se manuSya meM ziSTatA A jAtI hai? - jo manuSya dravya-kSetra-kAla-bhAva kA sApekSa vicAra nahIM kara sakatA hai, vaha kyA ziSTa kahalAyegA? jo manuSya ahaMkAra aura tiraskAra se bharA huA hai, vaha manuSya ziSTa kahalAyegA? ___- koI to batAye... ziSTa puruSa kahA~ hai? svotkarSa aura parApakarSa meM DUbe rahane vAle logoM ko ziSTa kauna mAnegA? Aja to sarvatra svotkarSa aura parApakarSa kA asAdhya roga vyApaka bana gayA hai| aise asAdhya roga se parAbhUta logoM kI paravAha saccA saMta, saccA sAdhaka nahIM kara sakatA hai| - saMtoM para zrImantoM kA prabhutva dekhatA huuN| zrImantoM para sattAdhIzoM kA adhikAra dekhatA huuN| sattAdhIzoM para artha aura kAma kA Adhipatya dekhatA huuN| aise logoM meM ziSTatA ho sakatI hai kyA? nahIM, ziSTatA kA lopa ho gayA - jo ziSTa nahIM haiM, aziSTa haiM... aise loga kucha bhI boleM, kucha bhI soceM... hameM unakI paravAha nahIM karanI hai| ___ - aziSTa aura abhadra loga khuza hoM yA nAkhuza hoM - hameM harSa-zoka nahIM karanA hai| aise loga nindA kareM yA prazaMsA kareM, hameM samabhAva meM rahanA hai| ___ - prazaMsA karane vAloM ko ziSTa mAna lene kI bhUla nahIM karanI hai| nindA karane vAloM ko aziSTa mAna lene kI jaldabAjI nahIM karanI hai| Aja nindA karanevAle kala prazaMsaka bana sakate haiN| Aja prazaMsA karanevAle kala nindaka bana sakate haiN| - duniyA se nirapekSa saMta hI nirdabha jIvana jI sakatA hai| duniyA kI nigAha meM acchA dikhane kI apekSA, manuSya ko daMbhI banAtI hai| ___- AtmasAkSI se jIvana jInA hogaa| nirbhayatA se - nizciMtatA se jIvana jInA hogaa| yadi hamAre jIvana meM burAI hai, to burAI ko svIkAra karanA hogA... binA kisI hicakicAhaTa ke| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 157 logoM ke kahane se koI saMta nahIM bana jaataa| logoM ke kahane se koI zaitAna nahIM bana jAtA / Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir - duniyA meM rahanA hai para duniyA se nirapekSa rahanA hai| logoM ke bIca rahanA hai para logoM se nirapekSa rahanA hai| isa nirapekSatA meM nirAkulatA honI cAhie / nirAkulatA kA janma kyA nirapekSatA se nahIM hotA ? sApekSatA meM AkulatA hai, - nirapekSatA meM nirAkulatA hai| H For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 158 77. saMbaMdha jaba zoSaNa karate haiM 3 kabhI aisA bhI hotA hai ki hama jisakA hita karate haiM vaha hameM ahitakArI mAna letA hai| hama jisako sukhI karanA cAhate haiM vaha hameM duzmana samajha letA hai| usa samaya mana asvastha bana jAtA hai... mana becaina bana jAtA hai | nahIM honA cAhie mana asvastha, maiM mAnatA hU~, parantu ho jAtA hai... aura baukhalA uThatA 'nahIM karanA hai usakA hita, vaha yadi mujhe ahitakArI mAnatA hai, duzmana mAnatA hai, to phira maiM kyoM usake lie hita-pravRtti karU~? jaise usake karma hoMge vaisA phala paayegaa...|' _vaise hI, kabhI aisA bhI hotA hai ki jisake prati hamAre hRdaya meM prema hotA hai, sneha hotA hai, vaha vyakti hamAre zubha Azaya meM zaMkA karatA hai... aura cillAtA hai: 'tuma mere prati dveSa rakhate ho... tuma mujhe duHkhI karanA cAhate ho... tumhAre mana meM mere prati durbhAvanA hai...' vgairh...| taba mana caMcala ho jAtA hai... viSAda meM DUba jAtA hai| kaise usako samajhAU~ ki 'bhaiyA, tere prati mujhe koI durbhAvanA nahIM hai... tere prati mujhe saccA prema hai...|' yadi maiM aisA kaha bhI detA hU~, to bhI vaha merI bAta para vizvAsa nahIM krtaa...| mana udvigna ho jAtA hai| - mana meM prazna paidA hotA hai : kyA dUsaroM kA hita karanA hI chor3a dU~? kyA dUsaroM se sAre sambandhoM ko tor3a dU~? - 'dUsaroM ke lie mere mana meM hita kI bhAvanA banI rahanI cAhie, pravRtti mujhe apane Atmahita kI hI karanI cAhie,' aisA eka samAdhAna milatA hai| -- 'dUsaroM se kevala aupacArika sambandha banAye rakhane cAhie, hRdaya ko nibaMdhana rakhanA cAhie,' aisA dUsarA samAdhAna milatA hai| - hita ko ahita mAnanA, hitakArI ko ahitakArI mAnanA... sukha ko For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 159 duHkha mAnanA aura duHkhadAyI ko sukhadAyI mAnanA...| aisI eka avasthA hotI hai jIvoM kI! jaba taka cetanA kI AdhyAtmika vikAsayAtrA zurU nahIM hotI hai, taba taka yaha avasthA banI rahatI hai| aise jIvoM ke prati roSa kyoM karanA? __ maiM jo bAta hitakArI mAnatA hU~ usake lie, vaha usa bAta ko ahitakArI mAnatA hai... mAna sakatA hai...| jo vastu jaisI hai vaisI parakhane kI kSamatA sabhI jIvoM meM nahIM hotI hai| samajhAne para samajhane kI kSamatA bhI sabhI jIvoM meM eka samAna nahIM hotI hai| to phira vaise ajJAnI jIvoM ke prati durbhAva kyoM rakhanA? - sambandhoM kA bNdhn| sambandha baMdhana hI nahIM lagate haiM... jaba taka Apasa meM prema hotA hai| prema naSTa ho jAtA hai aura sambandha kA mRta kalevara mastaka para uThAe jInA par3atA hai... vaha bar3A trAsa detA hai| duniyA kI nigAhoM meM sambandha kA bar3A mahattva hai...| kucha hada taka sambandha banAye rakhanA Avazyaka bhI hai... parantu sambandha baMdhana... akATya baMdhana to haragija nahIM bananA caahie| - sambandhoM meM kartavyapAlana anivArya hotA hai| yadi sambandha banAye rakhane haiM, to pArasparika kartavyoM kA pAlana karanA hI hogaa| yadi kartavyapAlana meM kSati huI to sambandha duHkhadAyI bana jaayegaa| kartavyapAlana kA mArga sarala nahIM hai| kartavyapAlana meM kabhI apane svArthoM kA visarjana karanA bhI Avazyaka hotA hai, vaha yadi nahIM hotA hai, to sambandha duHkhadAyI baMdhana bana jAtA hai| - sambandha bA~dhanA sarala hai, nibhAnA sarala nahIM hai| sambandha bA~dhatA hai manuSya sukha pAne ke lie hI, parantu sambandha duHkha kA nimitta bhI bana jAtA hai| - 'binA kisI sambandha, kyA maiM jI sakatA hU~?' maiMne apanI cetanA se eka dina pUcha hI liyaa| cetanA stabdha ho gii| kabhI isa prazna para gaMbhIratA se socA hI nahIM thaa| sambandha jIvana kA paryAya bana gayA hai| sambandha ke binA jIvana kI koI kalpanA bhI nahIM ho sktii| kisI na kisI vyakti se yA vastu se saMbaMdha to banA hI rahatA hai| vyaktiyoM se sNbNdh| vastuoM se sNbNdh| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 160 saMbaMdhoM kI jAla karmoM kI jAla se kama nahIM haiN| saMbaMdhoM ke baMdhana karmoM ke baMdhana se kama nahIM haiN| ___ jyoM-jyoM saMbaMdha kama hote jAte haiM tyoM-tyoM karma bhI kama hote jAte haiN| saMbaMdhoM ke baMdhana TUTa jAyeMge taba karmoM ke baMdhana bhI TUTa jaayeNge| donoM kA aMta eka sAtha hogaa| yadi yahI siddhAMta hai to... - saMbaMdha bar3hAne kI pravRtti sthagita karanI hogii| - saMbaMdhoM ke mAdhyama se mahAnatA kI kalpanA ko galata mAnanA pdd'egaa| - saMbaMdhoM kI upayogitA kama karanI hogii| - anivArya saMbaMdhoM se hRdaya ko alipta rakhane kA abhyAsa karanA hogaa| - niHsaMgatA kI ora pratipala Age bar3hanA hogaa| 'kaba merI AtmA aisI avasthA prApta karegI? kaba sabhI saMbaMdhoM ke baMdhana TUTeMge?' yaha prazna to Aja bhI binA pratyuttara hI khar3A hai...| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 161 kha 78. vItarAgI kI lagana lagAe~ 3 'maiM kisI bhI manuSya ko duHkhI nahIM kara sakatA, na kAyA se, na vacana se| kabhI bhUla se kisI ko duHkhI kara detA hU~, to bAda meM hRdaya udvigna ho jAtA hai| to kyA yaha merI mAnasika kamajorI hai?' yaha eka mitra kA prazna hai, merA bhI yaha eka prazna hai| - kevala manuSya hI nahIM, kisI bhI jIva ko maiM duHkhI karanA nahIM cAhatA huuN| kisI bhI jIva ko duHkhI karanA yAnI apane Apa ko duHkhI karanA / jaba jAnatA hU~ ki mere kAraNa kisI jIva ko duHkha huA hai, merA hRdaya duHkhI ho hI jAtA hai| ___ - parantu, jaba koI vyakti Akara mujhe kahatA hai : 'Apa hamAre duHkha dUra nahIM karate haiM, Apa hamArI upekSA karate haiM, Apake mana meM hamAre prati sneha nahIM hai...' to merA mana bahuta duHkhI ho jAtA hai aura roSa bhI A jAtA hai| __- hAlA~ki duHkhI jIvoM ke duHkha dUra karane kI merI bhAvanA to banI hI rahatI hai, zakya prayatna bhI karatA rahatA hU~, parantu kabhI prayatna saphala nahIM bana pAtA hai... taba maiM kyA karU~? -- kisI kA mujha para aisA adhikAra to ho nahIM sakatA ki maiM unake duHkha dUra karU~ hii| yadi maiM unake duHkha dUra nahIM kara sakatA hU~, to ve mujhe doSI aparAdhI mAna leN| maiM, mujha para kisI kA bhI aisA adhikAra mAnya nahIM rakha sakatA hU~...| parantu merA mana duHkhI to hotA hI hai... unake duHkha dUra nahIM kara sakane ke kaarnn...| vyavahAra-dazA hI kucha aisI hai ki icchA nahIM hote hue bhI dUsaroM ke duHkha meM nimitta honA par3atA hai| sahajIvana vyavahAra kA hI eka bhAga hai| sahajIvana meM sahavartI manuSyoM ko kabhI-kabhAra tana-vacana se duHkha pahu~catA hai| ___ - dUsaroM kI sabhI apekSAe~ kauna pUrNa karatA hai? maiM bhI dUsaroM kI sabhI apekSAe~ pUrNa nahIM kara sakatA hU~, isalie dUsare duHkhI hote haiM... maiM kyA karU~? phira bhI merA mana azAnta ho jAtA hai| - maiM karuNAzUnya nahIM ho sktaa| - maiM dayAhIna nahIM ho sktaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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162 yahI hai jiMdagI - maiM bhAvarahita nahIM bana sktaa| - kyA isako maiM apanI kamajorI mAnUM? mAnasika azakti mAnU~? -- kyA kaThoratA kA nAma zakti hai? nirdayatA kA nAma zakti hai? aisI zakti mujhe nahIM caahie| ___ - eka maharSi kA vacana mujhe yAda A rahA hai : karuNAvaMta sadaiva duHkhI hotA hai, dUsaroM ke duHkhoM se! dUsaroM ke duHkha usake svayaM ke duHkha bana jAte haiN| ___- to kyA merA mana sadaiva du:khI rahegA? du:khoM kA aMta duniyA meM hone vAlA nahIM hai... anAdi-anaMta vizva meM duHkha bhI anAdi-anaMta haiN| - 'jaba taka jIvAtmA dUsaroM ko duHkha detA rahegA taba taka usake duHkhoM kA aMta nahIM hogA...' yaha bAta to saca hI hai| ___- vyavahAra-dazA meM manuSya dUsaroM ko duHkhI kiye binA nahIM jI sakatA hai| isalie aisI jIvanapaddhati khojanI hogI ki jisameM kisI bhI jIva ko duHkha pahu~cAye binA jI skeN| ___- svayaM bhI pUrNa zAMti kA anubhava kara sakeM / zAMti ke sAgara meM nimagna raha skeN| __- vartamAna jIvana to dvandvAtmaka hI hai| zAMti aura azAMti, AnaMda aura udvega, sukha aura duHkh...| ina dvaMdvoM meM mAnasika saMtulana banAye rakhanA hogaa| ___ - mAnasika saMtulana bhI to sadaiva nahIM banA rahatA hai na? kabhI-kabhI saMtulana kho jAtA hai| bhAvoM ke Avega saMtulana ko dhakkA de dete haiN| svayaM ke duHkhoM se jitanA vicalita nahIM hotA hU~, utanA maiM dUsaroM ke duHkha dekhakara vicalita ho jAtA huuN| vaha vicalana maiM jyAdA sahana nahIM kara sakU~gA, aisA mujhe lagatA hai| yadi isa bAta ko merI kamajorI kahU~, to yaha kamajorI mujhameM hai hii| ___ - yaha kamajorI kyA mujhe dUsaroM ke duHkha dUra karane meM niSphala to nahIM banAyegI? isa bAta se kabhI-kabhI maiM ciMtita ho jAtA huuN| - dUsaroM ke duHkha dUra karane kA sAmarthya to mujhameM honA hI caahie| vaha sAmarthya jaise bhI prApta hotA hai, karanA hai| mAnava-jIvana kI sArthakatA isI meM hI mAnI hai na! - dUsarI bAta : dUsaroM ke duHkha dUra karane kA artha hotA hai apane hI duHkha dUra krnaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 163 __ paraMtu aisA kyoM dikhAI detA hai : dUsaroM ke duHkha dUra karane meM maiM apane Apako duHkhI mahasUsa karatA hU~ | kyA itanA duHkha sahana karanA isa mArga meM Avazyaka hogA? anivArya hogA? - nirmala pAnI denevAlI nadiyoM meM loga malamUtra DAlate haiM na? - mIThe-madhura phala denevAle vRkSa para loga patthara mArate haiM na? prahAra karate haiM na? __- sukha denevAloM ko duHkha denA isa duniyA kA niyama hai kyA? cAhe niyama na ho, parantu vaisA hI ho rahA hai| ___- jar3a-bhAvahIna vastuoM ke sAtha durvyavahAra karane se una vastuoM para bhAvAtmaka duSprabhAva nahIM par3atA hai, parantu cetana-saMvedanazIla vyakti ke sAtha durvyavahAra karane se, usa vyakti para bhAvAtmaka duSprabhAva par3atA hI hai| - hA~, yadi vyakti vItarAga bana jAe, rAga-dveSarahita ho jAe, to usa para koI bhAvAtmaka duSprabhAva nahIM par3atA hai| duniyA kitanA bhI durvyavahAra kare unake sAtha, ve kabhI duHkhAtmaka saMvedana nahIM kareMge! - sabhI praznoM kA samAdhAna vItarAgatA meM hai! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI www.kobatirth.org - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir 79. anajAna kyA AtmIya nahIM ho sakate? usane eka dina eka aparicita vyakti kA apamAna kara diyA / apamAna karane kI dUsarI koI vajaha nahIM thI... eka hI vajaha thI ... vaha vyakti aparicita thA! merA mana asvastha bana gayA, maiMne nArAjagI se pUchA : ' kyoM re.... usake sAtha abhadra vyavahAra kyoM kiyA ?' 'vaha aparicita thA.... .' usane pratyuttara diyA / 'kyA vaha bhaviSya meM paricita nahIM ho sakatA hai?' vaha mauna rahA... merA bhItara mana bolatA rahA... aparicitatA kyA apamAnapAtra hai ? mujhe koI aparicita mAna kara merA apamAna kare to ? mere sAtha abhadra vyavahAra kare to ? - 164 duniyA meM kyA paricaya kI hI pratiSThA hai ? paricaya kA hI bolabAlA hai? Aja kA aparicita... kala paricita ho sakatA hai ! Aja aparicita mAna kara jisakA tiraskAra kiyA ho, kala usI ke sAmane natamastaka honA par3a sakatA hai ! zrI rAma, lakSmaNa evaM sItA ke sAtha paribhramaNa kara rahe the... 'tApI' nadI ke taTa para 'aruNa' gAMva meM pdhaare| sItAjI tRSAtura the| gAMva meM praveza karate hI eka jIrNa gRha dekhA / vaha eka daridra brAhmaNa kA ghara thA, brAhmaNa kA nAma thA kpil| usakI patnI kA nAma thA suzarmA / suzarmA ne zrIrAma kA svAgata kiyA, sammAna diyA / kapila ne isase pahale tInoM kA tiraskAra kiyA thA, anAdara kiyA thA / parantu vahI kapila jaba yakSanirmita rAmapurI meM pahuMcA, rAjasabhA meM praveza kiyA taba zrI rAma... lakSmaNa aura sItA ko dekhate hI kapila brAhmaNa ghabarAyA ! For Private And Personal Use Only 'are... ye to ve hI haiM... jinakA maiMne ghora apamAna kiyA thA... maiM jina para AgababUlA ho gayA thA ! are bhagavAna... aba merA kyA hogA? maiM to AyA thA dAna lene... merI daridratA miTAne... parantu...

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165 yahI hai jiMdagI sItAjI ne prema se suzarmA ko apane pAsa bulAyA aura prema se kuzalatA puuchii| lakSmaNajI ne kapila ko nirbhaya kiyaa| usakI daridratA dUra kara dii| -- taba kapila ko kitanA pazcAttApa huA hogA? aparicitoM meM koI bhagavAna bhI hote haiM... koI mahAtmA bhI hote haiM... koI bar3e sattAdhIza bhI ho sakate haiM... koI bar3e jJAnI bhI ho sakate haiM... isalie kisI bhI aparicita kA anAdara yA tiraskAra nahIM kareM | 0 smita ke sAtha Adara deN| 0 sabhyatA se bAta kreN| aparicita ke prati vizvAsa karanA yA nahIM karanA - yaha bAta to vyaktiniSTha hai| maiM nahIM kaha sakatA ki sabhI aparicitoM para vizvAsa kara leN| vizvAsa nahIM kareM to calegA, tiraskAra nahIM karanA hai| -- vizvAsa paricaya ke bAda kiyA jAtA hai| - dUsarI bAta, kyA sabhI paricita bhI vizvasanIya hote haiM? kyA paricita bhI vizvAsaghAta nahIM karate haiM kabhI? - aparicita kabhI... pUrI niSThA se vizvAsa nibhAte haiM, paricita kabhI ghora vizvAsaghAta karate haiM! - vizvAsapAtra kauna? paricita yA aparicita? donoM meM se koI nahIM! aura donoM meM se koI bhI! - dharmagrantha kahate haiM : manuSya ke puNyakarma kA udaya hotA hai to use vizvAsapAtra vyakti mila jAtA hai| manuSya ke pApakarma kA udaya hotA hai to koI bhI vyakti vizvAsaghAta karatA hai! puNyakarma kA udaya badalatA rahatA hai! pApakarma kA udaya bhI badalatA rahatA hai! 'to kyA kareM?' prazna uThatA hai mana meM! hama kisI kA vizvAsabhaMga nahIM kareM! paricita kA yA aparicita kA! kisI ke sAtha vizvAsaghAta nahIM kareM, yaha hogI hamArI guNAtmaka yogyatA! - guNAtmaka yogyatA vAlA manuSya hI vizvasanIya banatA hai| - guNavAna manuSya aparicita hogA to bhI vizvasanIya hogaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 166 hanumAna, sugrIva, vibhISaNa... vagairaha zrIrAma ke paricita kahA~ the? phira bhI ve zrIrAma ke paricita ho gaye the aura vizvasanIya bana gaye the na? bIhar3a jaMgala meM sItAjI ko rAjA vajrajaMgha jo milA thA, aparicita hI thA na? parantu kitanA parama vizvasanIya bana gayA thA? - koI hamArA vizvAsaghAta karatA hai, to hameM apane pApakarma kA udaya mAnanA caahie| - hama yadi kisI kA vizvAsabhaMga karate haiM, to apanI ayogyatA mAna lenI caahie| - paricita aura aparicita - sabhI ke vizvAsa kA sampAdana karanA cAhie | jIvanayAtrA meM kabhI koI paricita aparicita bana jAtA hai... kabhI koI aparicita paricita bana jAtA hai! yaha eka vAstavikatA hai| hameM isameM Azcarya nahIM honA caahie| udvega bhI nahIM honA caahie| - janma-janmAntara kI kahAnI to isa vAstavikatA se bharI par3I hai! mRtyu... eka aisA parivartana kara detI hai ki paricita paricita nahIM rahate, aparicita ho jAte haiN| aparicita kSetra meM praveza jaise romAMcaka hotA hai, vaise aparicita vyaktiyoM kA paricaya bhI romaharSaka hotA hai! aparicitoM se paricaya karane kI kalA caahie| aparicita AtmAoM se... aparicita mahAtmAoM se... aparicita paramAtmA se... paricaya karate raheM...| paricaya meM prema ho, Adara ho... to vaha paricaya pApoM kA nAza kara sakatA hai| aparicita kA svAgata smita ke sAtha karo... For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI * www.kobatirth.org 80. vartamAna meM jInA sIkho 'jaoNna raskina' vicAraka manuSya thA / vaha apanI meja para eka patthara rakhatA thaa| usa patthara para 'Aja' likhA huA thA / 'mere hAtha se kahIM vartamAna yoM hI na nikala jAe, isalie maiM yaha patthara apane pAsa rakhatA huuN|' yaha thA jaoNna raskina kA pratyuttara / Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir jisa prakAra manuSya dhana-saMpatti kA, sneha-saMbaMdhoM kA, zarIra evaM parivAra kA mUlyAMkana karatA hai, usa prakAra kyA vartamAna samaya kA mUlyAMkana karatA hai ? - 167 zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ne kitanA gahana eka sUtra diyA hai / 'samayaM goyama! mA pamAyae' eka kSaNa kA bhI pramAda mata kara, gautama / ' paramAtmA to pUrNa jJAnI hote haiM / ve eka-eka kSaNa kA mahattva jAnate hI haiN| unhoMne mokSamArga ke yAtriyoM ko yaha mahattva samajhAyA / 'eka-eka kSaNa mUlyavAna hai, usakA mUlyAMkana karo, sadupayoga kro|' - tIvra vedanA kI anubhUti hotI hai yaha socakara ki tamAma umra bhramoM meM jItA rhaa| apanA kImatI vakta aMtahIna ulajhanoM meM gujArane ke sivAya kucha bhI nahIM kiyA hai| samAja meM sarvatra anavarata zikAyatoM kA aMtahIna silasilA cala rahA hai... kaba rAhata milegI isa damaghoMTa umasa se ? - gardabharA maTamailA AsamAna dekhatA hU~... kyA jarA sI bhI phuhAra nahIM barasegI AsamAna ke kisI kone se ? - mujhe apane vartamAna kSaNa ko ... hara vartamAna kSaNa ko jJAnavAri se navapallavita karanA hai... kyA ghanaghora varSA hogI? zAstroM kA... dharmagranthoM kA jJAna hai... phira bhI eka virATa khAlIpana se merA dama ghuTatA hai| yaha riktatA bharIpUrI jindagI meM nirarthakatA kA ahasAsa paidA karatI hai| mere bhItara... paMkha phar3aphar3AtA Atama-paMkhI... anaMta AkAza meM ur3Ana bharanA cAhatA hai... siddhazilA taka use pahu~canA hai... parantu maiMne sabhI daravAjekhir3akiyA~ banda kara lie haiN| kyA isase mere bhItara kA vaha paMkhI ... ghuTanabharI mauta kA zikAra ho jAyegA ? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 168 kyA AtmajJAna pAne ke lie vigata meM lauTanA Avazyaka hai? atIta ke asaMkhya smRti-khaMDoM meM bhaTakanA jarUrI hai? - kyA advaita avasthA prApta karane ke lie anAgata kI anaMta kalpanAoM meM ulajhanA, buddhimattA hogI merI? sirpha andAjoM se tRpti ho sakatI hai? - mujhe to pala-pala... kSaNa-kSaNa jAgRti meM jInA hai| eka-eka kSaNa ko AnaMda se tarabatara karanA hai| - eka daridra manuSya bolatA rahatA hai : mujhe zrImanta honA hai... dhanavAna honA hai...| - eka rugNa manuSya bolatA rahatA hai : mujhe pahalavAna bananA hai... rogahInatandurusta bananA hai... - eka mUrkha manuSya bolatA rahatA hai : mujhe tIvra medhAvI... prajJAvanta bananA hai... ___ hama ina logoM kI bAteM sunakara ha~sate haiM na? koI TokatA bhI hai : 'ha~so mata... unako duHkha hogaa...|' ___ hA~, merI bAta para bhI Apa mata ha~sanA / 'yaha kyA vartamAna meM jIyegA? atIta-anAgata ke anaMta mahAsAgara meM gote khAne vaalaa...| vartamAna kA vicAra bhI nahIM kara sktaa...|' mujhe duHkha hogaa...| ___ - socanA ho aisA to soca sakate ho| manuSya kI yogyatA kA yadi atIta ke sahAre mUlyAMkana karate hoM to mUlyAMkana kara leN| merA atIta maiM bhUla jAU~gA... kyA Apa yAda rakheMge? - Apa kyA yAda rakhate haiM aura kyA bhUla jAte haiM - yaha bhI mujhe nahIM socanA hai, yaha socanA bhI vartamAna kSaNa kA pramAda hI hogA na? isalie maiM to mere sAmane vAle patthara para likhUgA : 'kssnn'| ___ - jaoNna raskina ke 'Aja' se bhI merA 'kSaNa' mujhe jyAdA jAgrata rakha skegaa| mujhe pramatta nahIM hone degaa| - zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIrasvAmI kA 'samaya' to bahuta sUkSma kAlakhaMDa hai| vaha samaya-samaya kI jAgRti to isa janma meM saMbhava nahIM lagatI hai...| - mana sazakta cAhie, mana samartha cAhie vaisI jAgRti ke lie | - vAtAvaraNa pavitra cAhie, nirmala cAhie... vaisI jAgRti ke lie| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 169 - jIvana-vyavasthA svastha-tandurusta cAhie vaisI jAgRti ke lie| mana nirbala hai, vAtAvaraNa dUSita hai, jIvana-vyavasthA jaisA kucha hai hI nahIM... - jaba isa avadazA ko socatA hU~, taba hajAroM bicchuoM ke DaMkoM kI cubhana hotI hai... tilamilAhaTa bharI ghora yAtanA hotI hai... aura aisA mahasUsa karatA hU~ ki jaise cetanA kI taheM chIlI jA rahI hoM... ___ 'nahIM socanA hai aisA kucha bhI...' nirNaya merA DagamagA jAtA hai... socane lagatA huuN| patA nahIM lagatA ki jAgRti kI kisI khuzanumA subaha kI osa meM kaba snAna karU~gA? ___ - pramAda kI kucha avasthAe~ jIvana ke sAtha tIvratA se jur3I haiN| pramAdAcaraNa se chuTakArA milane kI koI sambhAvanA nahIM dikhatI hai... aura pramAda priya bhI lagatA hai mere mana ko... kaisI ulajhana paidA ho gaI hai? ___ - yAda karatA hU~ una apramatta sAdhaka mahApuruSoM ko... bhAvapUrNa namana karatA - zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ke vacanoM ko yAda karatA hU~... satya mAnatA huuN| mere 'kSaNa' ko ve sabhI anavarata AnaMda se bharapUra rakheM... prasannatA se jIvaMta rakheM... to hI kRtArtha ho sakatA huuN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 170 81. jIvana tere rUpa aneka dekhanA... kevala dekhanA... usameM AnaMda hai...| -- maiMne pahAr3a dekhA, pahAr3a kA saundarya dekhA... | mujhe icchA huI ki maiM pahAr3a meM kho jAU~... usake zikhara para pahu~ca jAU~ / jaba maiM pahAr3a para gayA... vahA~ mujhe patthara hI patthara najara Ae... vRkSa hI vRkSa najara aae| vaha saundarya mujhe nahIM dikhA, jo maiMne dUra se dekhA thaa| - usane puSpa dekhA, puSpa kA saundarya dekhA | puSpa pAne kI icchA huii| usane use pA liyA... parantu jyoM-jyoM dina DhalatA gayA, puSpa kA saundarya naSTa hotA gyaa...| vaha ro pdd'aa...| ___ - vizva ke sabhI padArthoM kA saundarya dekha kara, una padArthoM ko prApta karane kI icchA jAgRta hotI rahegI taba taka duHkha, azAMti aura vedanA banI rhegii| - jJAna ho, bodha ho, parantu icchA nahIM honI caahie| saca bAta hai| sambandhoM ke viSaya meM bhI icchA hI duHkha detI hai| - jAnatA hU~ ki icchAe~ rAga meM se paidA hotI haiN| rAgadazA ko nirmUla karane kA sarvajJa paramAtmA kA upadeza kitanA yathArtha hai| __vItarAgatA pragaTa hone para icchAe~ nahIM rahatI haiN| isalie pratidina vItarAga kI upAsanA karatA huuN| para, yaha upAsanA kaba pUrNa hogI? mana kaba icchAoM se mukta hogA? - mujhe bananA hai kevala jJAtA aura dRssttaa| 0 0 0 hama donoM paramAtmA ke maMdira meM gye| usane kahA : isa mUrti kA pASANa kitanA sundara hai! kitanA mUlyavAna hai! zilpI ne kitanI sundara mUrti banAyI hai! maiM sunatA rahA, maun| thor3I kSaNoM ke bAda maiMne kahA : maiM isa pASANa kI mUrti meM paramAtmA kA svarUpa dekhatA hU~ | mujhe A~khoM meM karuNA kA sAgara dikhatA hai| hRdaya meM vItarAgatA kA zAzvata dIpaka jalatA dikhAyI detA hai| mukha para sarvajJatA kA teja dikhAyI detA hai...| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 171 - vaha sunatA rahA, mauna / phira vaha bolA : Aja dina taka maiM paramAtma-svarUpa meM patthara dekhatA rahA, Aja maiMne patthara meM paramAtma-svarUpa ko dekhaa| - patthara kI mUrti meM paramAtma-svarUpa kA darzana kaise ho? pahale to paramAtma-svarUpa kA darzana karane kI prabala icchA honI cAhie na? isI icchA se prerita hokara paramAtma-maMdira meM jAyA jaae| paramAtma-maMdira meM zAMti ho, prasannatA ho, pavitratA ho| isIlie maMdira meM ghI ke dIpaka jalate haiM na? isIlie sugandhI dhUpa hotA hai na? parantu... jo loga paramAtma-svarUpa kA darzana karane nahIM Ate haiM maMdira meM, jo kevala bhautika sukha pAne ke lie Ate haiM, ve maMdira ke vAtAvaraNa ko dUSita karate haiN| - dUSita hRdaya vAle maMdira kI pavitratA kaise samajheMge? smita! Have a friend for a smile and a smile for a friend. - apanI Antara prasannatA ko smita ke rUpa meM pragaTa hone do| - smita Antara prasannatA kI abhivyakti hai| parantu vaha smita sahaja honA caahie| eyara hosTesa kA bhI smita hotA hai aura selsamena kA bhI smita hotA hai... parantu vaha smita 'vyavasAya' kI dRSTi kA hotA hai, sahaja nahIM hotaa| ___ - smita kA ghora akAla par3A hai... aura samasyA vikaTa to yaha hai ki anna kI taraha smita videzoM meM AyAta nahIM kiyA jA sktaa| ___ - Antara prasannatA se abhivyakta smita, mitratA kA abhivAdana hai| mAnavatA kA saccA svIkAra hai| yadi mitra ko, snehI ko, svajana ko dekhane para tumhAre mukha para smita nahIM khilatA hai, to tuma nizcita hI vyathita ho athavA ciMtita ho| mere paricita eka munirAja ke muMha para maiMne kabhI bhI smita nahIM dekhaa| hAsyarasa kI kitAba bhI ve gaMbhIratA se par3hate haiN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 172 __- muni ke mukha para to smita kI gaMgAlahara ur3atI rahanI cAhie... kyoMki vaha to 'mobAila tIrtha' hai na / - smita eka zAnta... zItala gaMgApravAha hai...| nirdoSa-nirdabha... sahaja smita sadaiva tumhAre mukha para dekhanA cAhatA huuN| spardhA aura tulanA | ina do bAtoM ne manuSya ke jIvana ko ghora azAMti meM Dubo diyA hai| yaha vyakti mujhase jyAdA dhanavAna nahIM honA cAhie, maiM usase jyAdA dhanavAna bane...' 'isa vyakti se maiM vizeSa prasiddha banU~...' 'isa vyakti ko maiM mujhase Age nahIM bar3hane dUMgA...' aisI to asaMkhya spardhAe~ cala rahI haiM manuSya ke jIvana meM...! aura hara bAta meM ho rahI hai tulnaa| sAja-sajjA meM tulanA, rahana-sahana meM tulanA, bolane-calane meM tulanA... saMpatti kI tulanA... - dUsaroM se bar3hakara hai, to ahaMkAra | - dUsaroM se nimna stara kA hai, to diintaa| isa spardhA aura tulanA kI ulajhana meM pha~sA manuSya kaise 'Atmatattva' kA vicAra kara sakatA hai? kaise usake mana meM paramAtmA kA pratibiMba par3a sakatA hai? ___ - jIvana ke hara kSetra meM ye do vikRtiyA~ praviSTa ho gaI haiN| AdhyAtmika vikAsa meM to ye do vikRtiyA~ bAdhaka haiM hI, sarala aura sarasa jIvanapravAha meM bhI avarodhaka banI huI haiN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI www.kobatirth.org 82. Asakti se bacate rahanA prazna : ko'ndhaH ? andhA kauna ? uttara : yo viSayAnurAgI / jo viSayAnurAgI hotA hai / Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir 3 173 viSayAsakta manuSya apanI A~khoM se dekhate hue bhI andhA hai / viSayAsakti mana kA andhApana hai| mana kA andhApana manuSya ko vivekabhraSTa karatA hai| vivekabhraSTa manuSya jo bhI pravRtti karatA hai, usake pariNAma svarUpa vaha du:kha hI pAtA hai| eka nayA-nayA AtmasAdhaka puruSa, apane gurudeva ke pAsa gayA aura prazna kiyA : 'gurudeva, mujhe 'Asakti' ke viSaya meM spaSTa bodha karane kI kRpA kareM / ' gurudeva ne kahA : 'vatsa, tU kala eka piMjarA aura kucha svAdiSTa phala lekara AnA / ' dUsare dina vaha puruSa lohe kA eka piMjarA aura svAdiSTa phala lekara guru ke pAsa phuNcaa| eka vRkSa kI chAyA meM donoM baitthe| guru ne kahA : 'vatsa, eka phala tU bAhara nikAla kara vRkSa se thor3A dUra rakha de|' usane phala rakha diyaa| vRkSa ke Upara baiThe hue baMdara ne vaha phala dekha liyA / dhIre se vaha nIce utarA aura phala lekara vRkSa para jA baiThA / phala khAyA... aura dUsare phala kI AzA meM vaha usa puruSa kI ora dekhatA rahA! guru ne kahA : 'vatsa, thor3e dUra jAkara isa piMjare meM phala rakhanA aura piMjare ko khulA rkhnaa|' usa puruSa ne guru kI AjJA kA pAlana kiyA / baMdara vRkSa se nIce utarA, piMjare ke pAsa gayA... jyoM hI usane piMjare meM For Private And Personal Use Only hAtha DAlakara phala uThAyA, tyoM hI piMjarA baMda ho gayA! baMdara kA hAtha pha~sa gyaa| yadi vaha phala ko chor3a detA hai to hAtha bAhara nikala sakatA hai, parantu vaha phala chor3atA nahIM hai| guru ne usa puruSa ko kahA: 'vatsa, jAkara piMjare kA dvAra khola de / ' usane khola diyaa| baMdara mukta ho gayA aura phala lekara vRkSa para jA baiThA / phala khA liyA /

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174 yahI hai jiMdagI guru ne punaH piMjare meM phala rakhavAyA... phira se baMdara nIce AyA, phala lene piMjare meM hAtha DAlA aura hAtha pha~sa gyaa| hAtha meM se phala chor3atA nahIM hai aura cillAtA hai| guru ne phira se baMdara ko mukta krvaayaa| baMdara vRkSa para car3ha gyaa| guru ne usa puruSa ke sAmane dekhA aura bole : 'vatsa, isI ko kahate haiM Asakti! isI ko kahate haiM viSayAsakti! baMdara isI viSayAsakti se andhA banA thaa| phala kI Asakti ne usako bAra-bAra piMjare meM phNsaayaa| - saMsAra ke vaiSayika sukhoM ko ahitakArI mAnate hue bhI hama kyoM nahIM chor3ate? kAraNa hai aaskti| pA~coM indriyoM ke viSayoM meM Asakti! - viSayoM meM rasAnubhUti hote hI Asakti paidA ho jAtI hai| isalie viSayoM meM rasAnubhUti hI na ho, vaisA upAya karanA cAhie | vaha upAya hai satsamAgama / satsaMgatve niHsNgtvm| - satpuruSoM kA samAgama hI Asakti se mukti dilA sakatA hai| - anAsakta yogI hI satpuruSa kahalAte haiN| Asakta puruSa yogI nahIM hotA, muni nahIM hotA, sAdhaka nahIM hotA... vaha to hotA hai gaMbhIra marIja! -- viSayoM meM jaise Asakti nahIM cAhie, vaise vyaktiyoM meM bhI Asakti nahIM cAhie | apane prati zraddhA, sneha aura Adara rakhane vAloM meM bhI Asakti nahIM caahie| yadi yaha Asakti nahIM hogI to dUsaroM ke prati dveSa nahIM hogA, tiraskAra nahIM hogaa| - satpuruSoM kI khoja karanI pdd'egii| Aja sabase jyAdA akAla par3A hai, satpuruSoM kaa| - dhArmika kSetra meM aura AdhyAtmika kSetra meM bhI anAsakta yogIpuruSoM kA akAla par3A hai| dUsare kSetroM meM to ghora akAla hai satpuruSoM kaa| - eka andhA dUsare andhoM kA patha-pradarzaka banA hai! hai na kAla kI viDaMbanA? -- andhA kahatA hai : maiM hI jJAnI hU~... maiM hI dhyAnI hU~... maiM hI saccA hU~... maiM hI saba kucha hU~...! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 175 - isIlie kahatA hU~ ki satpuruSoM kI khoja khUba sAvadhAnI se karanA / anyathA, nAma anAsakti kA hogA aura kAma Asakti kA hogaa| Asakti ke baMdhana dRr3ha ho jaayeNge| - viSayAsakti andhApana hai| - viSayavirakti divya dRSTi hai| - divya dRSTi ke prakAza meM hI paramAtmA kA patha dikhAyI detA hai| - mArga ko dekhe binA usa para calanA kaise saMbhava ho sakatA hai? - andhApana miTAnA hogA, divya dRSTi prApta karanI hogii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 176 83. mokSa kahA~ hai? kyA hai? - karIbana do hajAra varSa pUrva, eka vidvAna ke mana meM ugra vicAra AyA : 'sAdhu ko vastra nahIM pahananA caahie| kyoMki vastra pahanane se vastra para mamatva hotA hai, aura mamatva AtmA kA mokSa nahIM hone detA hai|' - usa sAdhu ne vastra utAra pheMke, nagna rahane lagA | jo sAdhu vastra pahanate the, unako vaha sAdhu nahIM mAnatA thA, unake prati usane virodha jAhira kiyaa| ___ - 'dizAe~ hI mere vastra haiM,' aisA vaha logoM ko samajhAne lgaa| jo unakI bAta mAnate unako vaha apanA anuyAyI mAnane lgaa| ___ - usane vastra kA mamatva chor3A, parantu anuyAyiyoM kA mamatva jor3A, apane 'saMpradAya' kA mamatva bA~dha liyA / - dizAe~ kyA kabhI vastra bana sakatI haiM? vastra jo kAma karatA hai, vaha kAma kyA kabhI bhI dizAe~ kara sakatI haiM? koI naMgA manuSya Apake pAsa Akara kahe ki 'mujhe vastra cAhie...' Apa usako kyA kaheMge ki 'ye dizAe~ hI vastra haiM, tU pahana le|' - hajAroM... lAkhoM logoM ne yaha Azcaryajanaka bAta mAna lii| duniyA hai nA? mUoM ne mAna lI aura buddhimAnoM ne bhI mAna lii| vastra kA rAga yadi mokSaprApti meM bAdhaka hai to vastra aura vastradhArI kA dveSa mokSaprApti meM bAdhaka nahIM hai kyA? mokSaprApti meM kyA-kyA bAdhaka hai, yaha jAnate ho? - apane paMtha kA rAga, dUsare paMthoM ke prati dveSa karavAtA hai| yaha rAga-dveSa, vastra ke rAga-dveSa se kyA jyAdA hAnikartA nahIM hai? - khaira, 'vastra ke prati rAga ho jAtA hai' isa dRSTi se vastra kA tyAga kara diyA, parantu 'zarIra ke prati rAga ho jAtA hai, to kyA zarIra kA tyAga kara doge? - zarIra para rAga hotA hai na? - zarIra para kA rAga mokSaprApti meM bAdhaka hai na? - to kyA AtmahatyA kara lenI cAhie? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 799 -- AtmahatyA se zarIra chUTa jAyegA / 'kArmaNa zarIra' aura 'taijasa zarIra' jo sUkSma zarIra hai, ve chUTa jAyeMge kyA? - eka vyakti meM se eka saMpradAya khar3A ho gyaa| - kisI bhI saMpradAya kA prArambha eka vyakti se hotA hai| hara vyakti ko apanI samAna vicAradhArA ke kucha loga to mila hI jAte haiN| basa, kucha logoM kA samUha banA... bana gayA saMpradAya / apane saMpradAya ke prati rAga aura dUsaroM ke prati dveSa | ___- aise rAga-dveSa karane vAle 'mokSa' kA upadeza dete haiM duniyA ko| __- khuda jamInakaMda khAne vAle dUsaroM ko jamInakaMda nahIM khAne kA upadeza deM to? ___ - svayaM vezyA, dUsarI mahilAoM ko 'satI' banane kA upadeza de to? - duniyA meM mila jAyeMge aise upadezoM ko sunane vAle! duniyA meM mUoM kI kabhI bhI kamI nahIM rahI hai| ___ - vastra pahanane se hI mokSa milatA hai - yaha bAta jaise asatya hai vaise 'nagna rahane se hI mokSa milatA hai' - yaha bAta bhI jhUTha hai| ___ - rAga-dveSa kA tyAga karane se hI AtmA kA mokSa hotA hai, yaha bAta satya kisI vyakti ke prati rAga-dveSa nhiiN| - kisI vastu ke prati rAga-dveSa nahIM... kevala samatAyoga | samatAyogI hI karmabandhanoM ko tor3atA hai| samatAyogI ko karmabaMdhana tor3ane nahIM par3ate haiM, baMdhana svataH TUTa jAte haiN| - samatAyogI indriyoM kA vijetA hotA hai| - samatAyogI kaSAyoM kA vijetA hotA hai| aisA samatAyogI vastradhArI bhI ho sakatA hai aura vastrarahita manuSya bhI ho sakatA hai| - samatAyogI kI dRSTi meM vana aura sadana meM koI bheda nahIM hotA hai, dina aura rAta meM koI bheda nahIM hotA hai| - samatAyogI kI dRSTi meM koI pApI nahIM hotA, koI puNyazAlI nahIM hotA...| koI nirdhana nahIM hotA, koI zrImanta nahIM hotA...| For Private And Personal Use Only

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178 yahI hai jiMdagI - mokSa aise samatAyogI kA hotA hai| samatAyogI to 'mokSe'pyaniccha:' hotA hai yAnI mokSa pAne kI bhI icchA unameM zeSa nahIM rahatI hai| sabhI icchAoM se mukta manuSya hI sabhI karmoM se mukti pA sakatA hai| ___ - parantu mokSa cAhie kisako? - indriyoM kI paravazatA kA tyAga karanA nahIM hai aura bAteM banAte haiM, mokSa kii| - kaSAyoM kA sahArA chor3anA nahIM hai aura bAteM karate haiM, mokSa kii| nirI AtmavaMcanA... nirI paravaMcanA.. - jaba taka ina vaMcanAoM se mukti nahIM pAyeMge taba taka karmoM se mukti kaise pAyeMge? he prabho, mujhe rAga-dveSa se mukta kara do... mujhe samatAyogI banA do...| kaba maiM samatAyogI banU~gA? kitane janma lene par3eMge samatAyogI banane ke lie? patA nahIM... For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 179 ophphoha! ye kyA ho rahA hai cupa-cupa giratI, nAmAlUma-sI bAriza ke daramiyAna maiM mauna dhAraNa kiye baiThA thaa| saMgha aura jinazAsana ke viSaya meM soca rahA thaa...| eka hA~phatI-sisakatI-sI Antara-AvAja, vicAroM kI taha para reMgatI huI... bAhara taira AyI thii| ___ - apane Apako 'jaina' kahalAne vAloM ke hRdaya meM, 'jina' ke prati, jinavacanoM ke prati zraddhA kA dIpaka jala rahA hai kyA? 'jina' kA artha bhI jAnate haiM kyA? - zraddhA kevala nAmazeSa hI raha gaI hai? -- kevala kucha dhArmika kriyAkalApoM meM hI zAsanaparastI raha gaI hai kyA? - choTI-bar3I zobhAyAtrA-julUsa nikAlane meM hI zAsana-prema mAna liyA jAe? - aura samyagjJAna? ekAntavAda se bharapUra dharmopadeza denevAloM meM samyagjJAna? - jinako nahIM hai nizcaya-vyavahAra kA jJAna, jinake pAsa nahIM hai utsargaapavAda kA jJAna, jinako nahIM hai naya aura nikSepa kA jJAna... jinake pAsa nahIM hai jinAgamoM kA jJAna... vaise dharmopadezaka kyA samyagjJAna de sakate haiM? jo svayaM samyagjJAnI na ho, vaha dUsaroM ko samyagjJAna kaise de sakatA hai? ___- Aja jinazAsana ke kauna saratAja haiM? apane Apako saratAja mAna lene vAle to aneka haiM, parantu vaha eka mithyA garva hai, pAkhaNDI abhimAna hai| __- ajJAna aura anAcAroM meM pathabhraSTa bane hue aneka jainoM kI ghora upekSA kauna kara rahA hai? ina logoM ko jJAna kA prakAza dene kA evaM sadAcAroM kA amRta pradAna karane kA kartavya kisakA hai? ___- sArI kI sArI burAiyoM ko 'kAla' aura 'karmoM' para chor3akara zAsana ke sUtradhAra kahalAne vAle mahApuruSa apanI-apanI gA rahe haiM... kyA yaha eka jaghanya aparAdha nahIM hai? - jaina-parivAra kevala bhArata meM hI nahIM, vizva ke aneka dezoM meM hajAroM kI saMkhyA meM phaile hue haiM, lAkhoM jaina videzoM meM rahe hue haiM, una logoM ko zraddhA, For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 180 jJAna aura cAritra kI preraNA kahA~ se milegI ? una sabhI jIvoM ko jinavacanoM kA amRta kauna pilAtA hai ? kyA kisI kI bhI jimmedArI nahIM hai ? zraddhA kI jar3e hila gaI haiM... azraddhA paramaM pApam vyApaka hotA jA rahA hai| www.kobatirth.org jJAna kA dIpaka bujha - sA gayA hai... cAritra ke phUla kumhalA - se gaye haiM.... phira, mAnava-jIvana kI saphalatA kisa bAta ko lekara gAI jAe? 'azraddhA ghora pApa hai' - jo Aja jana-jana meM Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir ajJAna kA ghora andhakAra jyAdA pragAr3ha hotA jA rahA hai, manuSya isa andhakAra meM bhaTaka rahA hai... - cAritra kSata-vikSata hotA huA vilakha rahA hai... phira bhI zAstra aura zAstrakAroM kI duhAI dete hue aneka 'paNDita' zAradIya meghoM kI taraha garjanA karate haiM / eka bUMda bhI AkAza se barasa nahIM rahI hai... kevala meghoM kI garjanA .... phira bhI kucha mora nAcate jarUra haiN| kekArava bhI karate haiN...| - andhA anukaraNa ho rahA hai phaizanoM ko apanAne meM nahIM hai zarIra - svAsthya kA khayAla, nahIM hai maryAdAoM ke pAlana kA khayAla... / - aneka bure vyasanoM meM loga burI taraha pha~sa rahe haiN| phalasvarUpa loga aneka rogoM ke zikAra banate jA rahe haiM / vaiSayika sukhoM kI tIvra lAlasA bhar3aka uThI hai| dhArmika sthAnoM meM bhI sattAkAMkSI logoM ne aneka jhagar3e khar3e kara rakhe haiN| ajJAnI aura alpajJa logoM ke ahaMkAra ne maMdiroM meM evaM dharmasthAnakoM meM klezapUrNa vAtAvaraNa paidA kiyA hai| zrImantoM kI saragarmI bhI dharmasthAnoM meM jyAdA ugalatI hai / zrImantAI ke auddhatya se bacane vAle zrImanta kitane ? zrIhIna zrImantoM kI saMkhyA bar3hatI jA rahI hai| alpajJa loga 'sarvajJa' kI taraha dharmakSetra meM hastakSepa karane lage haiN| ekAntavAda kI bolabAlA ho rahI hai| 'anekAntavAda' zAstroM meM banda par3A hai| zAstra-nirapekSa bAteM bahuta ho rahI hai / For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 181 __- kauna kisako kahe? koI kisI kI sunane ko hI taiyAra nahIM hai| sunAne ko sabhI taiyAra haiN| - naye-naye bhavya jinamaMdira bana rahe haiM, darzana kara apUrva AhlAda hotA hai, parantu jinapratimAoM ke cakSuoM meM jaba upAlambha kA bhAva par3hatA hU~, taba hRdaya citkAra kara uThatA hai... - 'mere vacanoM kI, merI AjJAoM kI avahelanA... upekSA kara ke kyA tuma merI bhakti karate ho? isa prakAra kyA tuma mokSamArga para cala sakate ho? bhramaNA meM mata raho... mokSamArga para calane ke lie merI AjJAoM ko ThIka rUpa meM smjho|' __ he prabho, yaha to maiMne apane hRdaya meM uThane vAlI bAteM kaha dI hai... tere saMgha aura zAsana ke maujUdA hAlAta ko dekhakara, jo duHkha aura vedanA dila meM paidA huI...ugala dI hai...| yadi merI koI bhUla hotI ho... to mujhe kSamA kara denA... merI dhAraNAe~ badala denA... anyathA saMgha aura zAsana kI zAna ko punaHsthApita kara denA... For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 182 va 85. vahA~ nahIM, yahA~ dekheM! 3 eka dina mayUra ko apanI karkaza AvAja se kheda huaa| usane devI sarasvatI ko kahA : 'devI, maiM ApakA vAhana huuN| phira bhI merI AvAja karkaza kyoM? koyala kI AvAja, merI AvAja se madhura kyoM? kyA mere lie yaha duHkhaprada ghaTanA nahIM hai?' __ devI ne kahA : 'vatsa, madhura svara se koyala sukhI hai, tU apane sundara picchoM se sukhI bn|' mayUra ne kahA : 'aisI sundaratA se kyA, jabaki AvAja madhura na ho?' devI ne kahA : 'jo vizeSatA tujhe milI hai, isase saMtoSa mAna le... dUsaroM kI vizeSatAoM ko dekhakara IrSyA nahIM karanI cAhie, IrSyA se duHkha bar3hatA hai|' 0 0 0 - manuSya ke mana kI bAta mayUra ne kaha dI hai, tAki manuSya ko duHkha na lage! manuSya ko kitanA bhI sukha milA ho, vaha usase saMtuSTa nahIM hotA hai| vaha dUsaroM ke sukhoM ko dekhatA rahatA hai aura IrSyA se jalatA rahatA hai| ___- IrSyA Aga hai| jisa hRdaya meM vaha rahatI hai usI hRdaya ko jalAtI rahatI hai| ___ - eka vyakti kahatA hai : 'mere lar3ake to acche haiM parantu merI patnI lar3AkU hai, mere mitra kI patnI kitanI zAnta aura prasanna hai...' vaha apane Apako patnI ke viSaya meM duHkhI mAnatA hai, vaha kabhI putroM ko lekara apane Apako sukhI anubhava nahIM karatA! - dUsarA vyakti kahatA hai : 'merA parivAra to acchA hai, parantu mere pAsa rupaye nahIM haiM, mere bhAI ke pAsa lAkhoM rupaye haiM...' yaha vyakti apane bhAI ke rupayoM ko hI dekhA karatA hai aura isa bAta se vaha duHkhI hai... - eka mahAnubhAva kahate haiM : 'mere pAsa lAkhoM rupaye haiM, parantu samAja meM merI ginatI nahIM hotI hai, merA mitra samAja meM pramukha vyakti mAnA jAtA hai... ye mahAnubhAva mitra kI sAmAjika pratiSThA ko dekhakara duHkhI hai| - manuSya ke pAsa jo hotA hai, usase usako saMtuSTi nahIM hai| jo sukha For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 183 usake pAsa nahIM hai, isase vaha duHkhI hotA hai| eka sAmAnya bAta bhI manuSya kyoM nahIM samajhatA hai ki eka manuSya ke pAsa sabhI prakAra ke sukha nahIM ho skte| jo sukha apane pAsa ho, usameM saMtoSa mAnanA aura dUsaroM kA sukha dekhakara prasanna honA hI sukha kA saccA mArga hai| - prsukhtussttirmuditaa| dUsaroM ke sukha dekhakara saMtuSTa honA 'muditAbhAvanA' hai, yAnI pramoda bhaavnaa| pramoda bhAvanA se prabhAvita manuSya kabhI apane Apako duHkhI anubhava nahIM karatA hai| vaha sadaiva sukhI hotA hai| - mana ko badalanA pdd'egaa| vicAradhArA badalanI pdd'egii| manuSya badala sakatA hai apanI vicAradhArA ko / mAnasika duHkhoM se tabhI mukti mila sakatI hai 0 0 0 he bhagavaMta! mujhe nahIM cAhie jJAna, mujhe nahIM cAhie ajJAna... mujhe cAhie vizuddha prema | jJAna ne mujhe abhimAnI banAyA hai, ajJAna ne mujhe udaMDa banAyA hai| he vItarAga! mujhe nahIM cAhie pavitratA, mujhe nahIM cAhie apavitratA.. mujhe cAhie vizuddha prema | pavitratA ne mujhe ciMtita banAyA hai, apavitratA ne mujhe azAntavyAkula banAyA hai| he arihaMta! mujhe nahIM cAhie dharma, mujhe nahIM cAhie adharma... mujhe cAhie vizuddha prema! dharma ne mujhe rajoguNa diyA hai, adharma ne mujhe tamoguNa diyA hai...| he karuNAmaya! mujhe vizuddha prema pradAna kro| ___ samagra jIvasRSTi ko maiM mitratA pradAna kara sakU~ | sArI sRSTi mujhe mitratA kI dRSTi se dekhe / Apa hI aisI divya dRSTi pradAna kara sakate haiM | maiMne ApakI zaraNa lI hai, Apa hI mere sarvasva haiN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 184 ___ Apa mujhe darzana deMge? maiM jAnatA hU~ ki Apa arUpI haiM, isalie maiM ApakA darzana nahIM kara sakatA, parantu maiMne yaha bhI jAna liyA hai ki Apa 'rUpI' bhI haiM! Apake darzana koI kara sakate haiM, parantu taba to darzana kI pyAsa hI nahIM rahatI hai na? binA pyAsa, darzana kA AnaMda kaise milegA? jaba pyAsa hai darzana kI, Apa mere liye 'arUpI' rahate haiM... jaba darzana kI pyAsa hI nahIM rahegI, Apa mere liye 'rUpI' baneMge... kyA matalaba? kyA mere hRdaya meM vizuddha prema paidA hogA taba darzana deMgeM? to zIghra hI mere hRdaya ko usa premAmRta se bhara do| he aNtryaamii| Apa mere nirdabha hRdaya ko jAnate haiN| Apa mere ArtanAda ko sunate haiN| Apa mere manobhAva ko pratyakSa dekhate haiM... phira bhI Apa udAsIna bhAva kyoM dhAraNa kiye baiThe ho? yA to Apa mujhe spaSTa kaha deM : 'tU ayogya hai... terI pAtratA nahIM hai... tujhe vizuddha prema nahIM mila sakatA...' Apa cAheM jitane prahAra kareM... __ to phira mujhe yogyatA-pAtratA kauna pradAna karegA? Apa hI ko pradAna karanI hogI... kyoMki Apake sivA aura kisI se bhI maiM yAcanA nahIM karatA, nahIM kruuNgaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 185 va 86. AnaMdamaya jIvana ho / upaniSad ke paura RSi ko ziSya ne prazna kiyA : 'gurudeva, jIvanadarzana kyA hai?' paura RSi ne kahA : 'AnaMda!' 'prabho, hameM jIvanadarzana karAne kI kRpA kreN|' 'vatsa, isa eka zabda meM hI jIvanadarzana samAyA hai|' 'mahAtmana, hama nahIM samajha paaye...|' 'AnaMda apane jIvana kA udbhavasthAna hai| AnaMda hI apanA kendrabindu hai, AnaMda apanA svabhAva hai... aura AnaMda hI apanA antima lakSya hai|' - AnaMda amRta hai! viSayAnanda nahIM, AtmAnanda amRta hai| priya viSayoM ke abhAva meM AnaMda kI anubhUti hotI rahe, vaisI sAdhanA Avazyaka hai| - maiMne aise loga dekhe haiM ki jo zAstrajJa haiM... parantu viSAda se mukta nahIM haiN| maiMne aise loga dekhe haiM ki jo maMdiroM meM jAkara paramAtmA kI pUjA karate haiM, parantu udvega se mukta nahIM hai| maiMne aise loga dekhe haiM ki jo ghora tapazcaryA karate haiM, parantu unakI mukhAkRti para udAsInatA chAyI huI hai| ina logoM ke pAsa 'AnaMda' nAma kA amRta nahIM hai| ye loga svabhAva dazA se hajAroM kosa dUra hote haiN| - pratikSaNa AnaMdamaya honA caahie| koI kheda nahIM, koI udvega nahIM, koI viSAda nhiiN| - pUrNa jJAnI puruSoM ne kahA hai ki zraddhAvAna, jJAnavAn aura cAritravAna manuSya kabhI bhI khedayukta, viSAdayukta nahIM hotA hai| - A~khoM meM AnaMda ho| - hoThoM pe AnaMda ho| For Private And Personal Use Only

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186 yahI hai jiMdagI - zabdoM meM AnaMda ho| - dila meM AnaMda ho| - mana meM se AnaMda kI avirata dhArA pravAhita ho| kaisI bhI bAhya paristhiti ho... dhana calA gayA ho, snehI-svajanoM kA viyoga ho gayA ho... duniyA ne kalaMkita kara diyA ho... zarIra rogagrasta bana gayA ho... phira bhI mana meM se AnaMda kA pravAha bahatA rhe| - eka dina, svAmI rAmatIrtha ko saradAra pUraNasiMha ne pUchA thA : 'Apake jJAna kA rahasya kyA hai?' 'mere jJAna kA rahasya itanA hI hai : hara hAlata meM khuza rhnaa|' 'isase kyA lAbha?' 'jaba se maiM pUrNa nizcita banA hU~ taba se sRSTi kI zahanazAhata kA anubhava karatA huuN|' - kitanI acchI aura rahasyapUrNa bAta kahI hai svAmI rAmatIrtha ne? samyagjJAna manuSya ko nizcita nirbhaya banAtA hI hai| nizcita-nirbhaya banA manuSya sadaiva AnaMda kA anubhava karegA hii| - AnaMdapUrNa vyakti ke sAnnidhya mAtra se hI dUsaroM ke kleza-udvega dUra ho jAte haiN| __- jina logoM ke nikaTa aise AnaMdapUrNa vyaktitva vAle mahApuruSa hoM, ve dhanya banate haiN| aise mahApuruSoM ke sAnnidhya se jinako AnaMda kA amRta prApta hotA hai, ve dhanyAtidhanya banate haiN| - AnaMda kA abhyAsa karanA cAhie | jaba kabhI prAkRtika saundarya se harebhare kSetra meM jAe~, A~kheM mUMdakara... prakRti kA hI, praphulla prakRti kA hI darzana kareM... AnaMda ko bhItara meM bharate rheN| ___ - jaba kabhI kisI ramaNIya tIrtha meM jAe~... logoM kI bhIr3a na ho, kolAhala na ho... nayanaramya paramAtma-pratimA ke sAmane baiTha jAe~... A~kheM mUMdakara usa pavitra vAtAvaraNa ko bhItara meM bhareM... AnaMda se paripUrNa paramAtmA se AnaMda prApta kreN| ___ - jaba kabhI kisI prasannamanA mahAmuni ke pAsa jAe~... unake sAmane mauna baiTha kara, AnaMda kI anubhUti kreN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 187 - jaba kabhI kisI duHkhI jIvoM kI sahAyatA kara, unake viSAda ko dUra kareM, unake mukha para AnaMda ke phUla khileM... taba Apa bhI AnaMda se bhara jAyA kreN| __zAMtiniketana meM kavivara ravIndranAtha, apane nivAsasthAna ke Age maidAna meM baiThe the| A~kheM baMda thI aura hoThoM para smita thaa| kalAkAra naMdalAlabAbU Akara pAsa meM hI baiTha gaye the| ravIndranAtha ne jaba A~kheM kholI... nandabAbU ko dekha, pUchA : 'kaba Ae nandabAbU?' 'AdhA ghaNTA huA, Apa bhAvasamAdhi meM the...' 'maiM AnaMda kA abhyAsa kara rahA thaa|' 'AnaMda kA abhyAsa? vaha kaise?' 'hA~, aise madhura aura tejomaya vAtAvaraNa ko hRdaya meM bharate rahane se AnaMda kA abhyAsa hotA hai| naMdabAbU, AnaMda to amRta hai amRta! - sabhI jIva AnaMda ko prApta kareM... - sabhI jIvoM ke kheda... udvega... viSAda dUra ho... For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 188 va87. apane ko U~cAiyoM para pahu~canA hai 3 eka prazna : aisA puruSa kahA~ milegA ki jo caMdana sA ho, jo svAti kI jalabUMda sA ho? jo pArasamaNi sA ho? jo kalpavRkSa kA jIvaMta udAharaNa ho? ___- mere pAsa isa prazna kA uttara nahIM hai| kula ke jaina aura veza ke sAdhu bar3hate jA rahe haiM... parantu ve isa prazna ke uttara nahIM bana skte| ___ - udAtta, bhAvanAzIla aura mahAna AdarzoM ko jIne vAle manuSyoM kA akAla par3A hai| aise loga hI deza kA, samAja kA, dharma kA aura samaya kA saubhAgya hote haiN| aise puruSa hI sRSTi kA jIvanta vaibhava hote haiN| Aja vaha vaibhava kahA~ hai? - Aja kitane logoM ke sIne meM hRdaya dhar3akate haiM? kitane logoM meM bhAvanA, saMvedanA... karuNA nAma ke tattva jIvanta haiM? kitane logoM meM mamatA, AtmIyatA, zAlInatA aura sneha-saujanya kA amRta pAyA jA sakatA hai? ___ - to phira candana se loga... pArasamaNi se loga... kalpavRkSa se loga kahA~ mila sakate haiM? - guNAtmaka vyaktitva kI upekSA kara, AdhyAtmika unnati kI upekSA kara, Aja manuSya, divya vibhUtiyA~ aura siddhiyA~ prApta karane ke divAsvapna dekha rahA hai...| ___ - aura aise divAsvapna dikhAne vAle, kevala kucha karmakAMDa ke AdhAra para camatkAra dikhAne kI upahAsAspada bAteM karate haiN| bhale dikhAyeM ve camatkAra, parantu usako adhyAtma nahIM kahA jA sktaa| jAdUgarI kaha sakate haiN| adhyAtma isase bhinna hai| - vinAzaka vibhISikAoM se bhare ApattikAla meM se hama gujara rahe haiN| AdhyAtmika sAdhanAe~ yA carcA karane vAle mUka darzana kara rahe haiM... ve nirAza dikhAI par3ate haiN...| - ujjvala bhaviSya kI saMracanA kyA asaMbhava hai? na dhana kI kamI hai, na sAdhanoM kii| na zikSA kI kamI hai, na kalA kii| na zAstroM kI kamI hai, na vidvAnoM kii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI cht... I - www.kobatirth.org parantu kamI hai, candana se mAnavoM kI kamI hai, yaha kSatipUrti manuSya hI kara sakatA hai na ? Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir deza, samAja, dharma aura vyakti kI garimA, pahAr3a jitane granthoM se aura AkAza cUmane vAle mandiroM se hI nahIM hai| unakI garimA hotI hai hemacandrAcAryoM se, kalikAcAryoM se, kumArapAloM se aura vastupAla - tejapAloM se...| yadi unakA abhAva rahA to hamAre samRddha jJAnabhaMDAra aura hajAroM jinAlaya bhI surakSita nahIM raha skeNge| 189 kalpavRkSa se mahAmAnavoM samaya kI mahatI samasyAoM ke samAdhAna ke lie anivArya AvazyakatA hai, mahAmAnavoM kI paramparA kI / purAne mahApuruSa asta ho cuke haiM yA asta ho rahe haiN| jo jIvita haiM unake bujhane kA samaya nikaTa hai| - Ane vAlA samaya ghora saMgharSa kA hai / saMkaTa saghana hai| aneka burAiyoM se jUjhanA hogA aura aneka satpravRttiyoM ke bAga lagAne hoNge| doharI jimmedArI hai / - jinake hRdaya meM amIrI kA vyAmoha hai, jinake dila meM vilAsitA kI Aga jalatI hai, aise pAmara loga ... cAhe kucha ghaMToM ke liye... yA kucha dinoM ke liye... 'zAsana sevaka' banane ke ahaMkAra kA pradarzana karate raheM, aise loga doharI jimmedArI nahIM nibhA skte| mahAmAnavoM kA nirmANa karanA, isa samaya kA zreSTha karttavya hai| dUradarzitA apanAnI hogI, dhairyapUrvaka pratiphala kI pratIkSA karanI hogI / zreya pAne ke liye kucha dera to ThaharanA hI par3atA hai / dUradarzitA kA abhAva dikhAI detA hai, dharmakSetra meN| dharmakSetra meM Apasa ke jhagar3e isa bAta ke sAkSI haiM / dUragAmI pariNAmoM ko nahIM dekhane se ghATA hI ghATA hai| kisI bhI upAya se mahAmAnavoM kI paMkti meM baiTha jAne kA moha, 'kRtrima mahAmAnavoM' ko paidA kara rahA hai| thor3A-sA dhana dekara, thor3A-sA samaya dekara ... thor3A-sA zrama dekara ... 'mahAmAnava' nahIM banA jA sktaa| mahAmAnava kI paMkti meM baiThane ke lie to manuSya ko samarpita honA par3egA, pUrA kA pUrA samarpita honA pdd'egaa| apane svArthoM kA visarjana karanA hogA / * AtmanirIkSaNa, AtmasudhAra aura AtmavikAsa kI sAdhanA Arambha kara For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 190 denI pdd'egii| kevala manokAmanAoM kI pUrti aura camatkAroM kA manoratha bA~dhate hue devadarzana, devapUjA, gurudarzana... yA dharmakriyAe~ karate rahane se mahAmAnava nahIM banA jA sktaa| - yAda rakheM, apanI sattA evaM garimA vyApaka hai| kUpamaMDUka kI taraha yA piMjare ke pakSI kI taraha sImAbaddha rahakara jIvana vyatIta karanA zobhArUpa nahIM hai| saMkIrNatA kA tyAga kareM, vizAla kSetra meM praveza karane ke lie kaTibaddha bneN| - hameM to cAhie candana se mahApuruSa! kalpavRkSa se mahApuruSa! svAti kI jalabUMda se mahApuruSa! pArasamaNi se mahApuruSa! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 68. jIvana-saphara AnaMda se paripUrNa ho 133 191 'oNbarna' nAma ke pahAr3a para eka kabra hai / usa para saMgamaramara kA eka choTA patthara lagA huA hai, usa para sirpha cAra zabda aMkita haiM : 'vaha khUba ha~samukha thii|' - isa eka vAkya meM se saMpUrNa jIvana kI rasamayatA TapakatI hai / usa strI ne apanI svarga kI yAtrA ko basantI pavana kI laharoM se bhara diyA hogA / jIvana eka yAtrA hai / yAtrA to ha~sate-ha~sate karanI cAhie na ? yAtrA meM zoka-udvega nahIM cAhie, yAtrA meM glAni aura viSAda nahIM caahie| yAtrA meM udAsI nahIM caahie| yAtrA meM to prANa praphullita hokara khila uThane caahie| umaMga aura utsAha se paripUrNa rahane caahie| pratipala cetanA AnaMda se... ullAsa se chalakatI rahanI caahie| vaha AnaMda aura ullAsa A~khoM se barasatA rahanA caahie| 'merI AtmA kA svabhAva hI AnaMda hai|' yaha satya bAra-bAra smRti meM AnA caahie| AnaMda-svabhAva kI punaH punaH smRti, mana ko sadAbahAra banAye rkhegii| yadi AnaMda kA, khuzI kA AdhAra, bAhya duniyA meM khojeMge, to vaha AnaMda- vaha khuzI kSaNajIvI bneNge| isase sthAyI AnaMda nahIM milegA / - AnaMda kA kendra khulanA cAhie bhItara meN| aisA 'pIna poInTa' khula jAnA cAhie ki vahA~ se AnaMda kI dhArA bahatI hI rhe| - hamAre priya vyakti na hoM, priya padArtha na hoM, taba bhI hamAre bhItara kA pravAha bahatA hI rahe / For Private And Personal Use Only bAhya duniyA kI ghaTanAoM se apane mana ko prabhAvita nahIM hone denA caahie| nirbala mana ke logoM para bAharI ghaTanAoM kA zIghra prabhAva par3atA hai, isalie ve rAga-dveSa ke dvandvoM meM pha~sa jAte haiM aura AnaMda se vaMcita ho jAte haiM / bAhya paristhitiyoM se mana prabhAvita ho jAe, to turanta jAgrata banakara, una prabhAvoM ko dho ddaalo| zarIra gaMdA hotA hai to use dho dete haiM na? kapar3e

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 192 gaMde hote haiM to dho DAlate haiM na? vaise mana para par3e hue bure prabhAvoM ko avilaMba dho ddaalo| tattvacintana se dho DAlo ... paramAtma-bhakti se dho DAlo .... - gurusevA se dho DAlo... jaba apanI icchA ke anukUla kucha nahIM hotA hai, jaba icchA ke pratikUla kucha karanA par3atA hai, jaba apriya... kaTu zabda sunane par3ate haiM... - - www.kobatirth.org - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir taba kheda... glAni... viSAda se mana bhara jAtA hai / duHkha aura vedanA se mana karAhatA hai| jIvana arthahIna lagatA hai| 'hama AnaMda se kaise jIyeM? koI icchA saphala hI nahIM hotI hai... na paisA... na prema... na prakAza...!' tattvaciMtana kI mahattA yahIM sthApita hotI hai / tattvaciMtana, AtmaciMtana... manuSya ke lie yahIM sahArA bana jAtA hai| - * sUrya ke prakAza meM ghI yA tela ke dIpaka mahattva nahIM rakhate haiM / andhakAra meM, ghora andhakAra meM hI dIpaka kI mahattA sthApita hotI hai| sukhoM ke hajAroM sUrya jIvana- AkAza meM jhagamagAte hoM... usa samaya tattvaciMtana kA dIpaka arthahIna laga sakatA hai, parantu sUryAsta hone para.... ghora andhakAra chA jAne para, dIpaka arthapUrNa banatA hai / - parantu ghara meM dIpaka taiyAra par3A ho to hI jarurata par3ane para jalAyA jA sakatA hai na? dIpaka taiyAra hI na kiyA ho to ? - jisa gA~va meM 'bijalI' kabhI bhI calI jAtI hai, 'bijalI' para bharosA nahIM hotA hai... vahA~ loga ghara meM tela ke dIpaka yA momabattI taiyAra rakhate haiN| bijalI calI jAne para turanta dIpaka yA momabattI jalA lete haiN| - * saMsAra ke, bhautika sukha bhI vaise hI haiM... bharose ke lAyaka nahIM haiN| kabhI bhI ve sukha cale jA sakate haiM... usa samaya hamAre pAsa tattvacintana ke ratnadIpaka taiyAra hone cAhie, ve dIpaka hameM rozanI dete rheNge| hamArA AnaMda akhaNDa rahegA / - hameM tapa-tyAga kI ArAdhanA bhI AnaMda se karanI caahie| hameM jJAnopAsanA bhI AnaMda se karanI caahie| hameM vrata - niyamoM kA pAlana bhI AnaMda se karanA For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 193 caahie| hameM dAna denA hai AnaMda se, hameM zIla kA pAlana karanA hai AnaMda se, hameM paramArtha-paropakAra karanA hai AnaMda se| - hameM saMyama-jIvana jInA hai - vaha bhI AnaMda se | na ho hamAre hRdaya meM glAni, na ho hamAre mukha para udAsI, na ho hamAre kAryakalApoM meM kheda, na ho hamArI vANI meM vissaad| - sAdhaka kI hara sAdhanA, upAsaka kI hara upAsanA magnatA se paripUrNa honI caahie| - calo... paramAtmA se milakara prArthanA kareM : 'he AnaMda sindhu! sabhI jIvoM ke zoka-udvega dUra karane kI kRpA kro| sabhI jIvoM ko AnaMda se pallavita kro| sabhI jIvoM ko... sabhI dizAoM se AnaMda dhArAe~ milatI rhe| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 194 va 89. samaya ko samhAla kara rakheM 3 basa'nDa rasela ne likhA hai : 'phurasata kA samaya buddhipUrvaka bhara dene kI zakti honA saMskRti kA antima pradAna hai|' ___ parantu 'raskina' to kahatA hai ki manuSya ko phurasata hI nahIM honI cAhie | usane likhA hai : 'yadi tumheM jJAna kI pyAsa hai to tumheM parizrama karanA hogaa| yadi tumheM khurAka kI AvazyakatA hai to bhI tumheM mehanata karanI hogii| yadi tumheM khuzI cAhie, to bhI mehanata ke binA nahIM milegii| mehanata hI kAnUna hai|' ___ - jo manuSya ArAmapriya hotA hai, kisI bhI prakAra kI mehanata karanA nahIM caahtaa| ___ - ArAmatalaba vyakti yadi thor3A buddhimAna hogA to vaha hara bAta meM ArAmapriyatA kI vakAlata karatA rhegaa| - AlasI aura pramAdI manuSya apanI phurasata ke samaya kA upayoga buddhipUrvaka nahIM krte| - vahI AlasI aura pramAdI hotA hai, jisako samaya kI saMpatti kA mUlyAMkana karanA nahIM AtA hai| kucha bhI nirmANa kI dRSTi jinake pAsa nahIM hotI hai| - jo vyakti apane kartavyoM ko nahIM samajhate haiM, jo vyakti apane kartavyoM ke prati udAsIna hote haiM, ve loga tana-mana kI zakti hone para bhI mehanata, puruSArtha nahIM karate haiN| aise loga parivAra meM apriya banate haiM, samAja meM nagaNya banate haiN| - hara kArya kI saphalatA kA AdhAra manuSya kA puruSArtha hai, mehanata hai| thake binA mehanata karane vAlA manuSya hI saphalatA ke zikhara para pahu~catA hai| ___- mehanata karate-karate jaba vizrAma kI AvazyakatA ho, vizrAma kara leN| parantu vizrAma ke samaya kA upayoga bhI buddhipUrvaka kara leN| hara kSaNa ko 'zubhanirmANa' kI jananI banA leN| kyoMki manuSya-jIvana kI eka-eka kSaNa 'zubha-jananI' banA lene meM hI buddhimattA hai| ___- jaise vyasanI loga, vyasana sevana meM saMpatti kA durvyaya karate haiM, vaise AlasI-pramAdI loga samaya kA durvyaya karate haiN| - nikamme... AlasI manuSya hI ghara meM, samAja meM aura nagara meM upadrava paidA For Private And Personal Use Only

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195 yahI hai jiMdagI karate rahate haiN| arthahIna carcAe~ karate rahate haiN| nindA-rasa ke pyAle pIte rahate haiN| ___ - aise logoM kA janma-jIvana aura mRtyu, koI mahattva nahIM rakhatA | janamAnasa para, aise logoM kI smRti bhI nahIM rhtii| - kAryakSetra koI bhI ho, buddhimattA se, pUrI lagana se yadi mehanata kI jAya, to vaha kArya hI vyakti kA bhavya-smAraka bana jAtA hai| ___- samrATa saMprati ne savA lAkha jinamaMdiroM kA nirmANa karavAyA thA aura savA karor3a jinapratimAe~ banavAyI thiiN| choTe se jIvana meM itane bar3e kArya, sudIrghakAlIna mehanata ke binA ho sakate haiM kyA? - AcArya zrI haribhadrasUrijI ne apane zramaNa-jIvana ke choTe se kAla meM 1444 gaMbhIra granthoM kA sarjana kiyA thA, kaisI kar3I mehanata kI hogI? ___ - AcArya zrI hemacandrasUrijI ne sADhe tIna karor3a saMskRta-prAkRta zlokoM kI racanA kI thii| jJAnopAsanA ke, sAhitya sarjana ke kSetra meM kaisI adbhuta sAdhanA kI thI unhoMne? - prasiddha vaijJAnika 'eDisana' kA eka mitra likhatA hai : 'maiM eDisana ko usa samaya se jAnatA hU~, jabaki vaha abhI caudaha varSa kI Ayu kA hI thaa| maiM apane nijI jJAna ke bharose se kaha sakatA hU~ ki usane jIvana meM kabhI... eka dina bhI sustI yA zithilatA meM nahIM gujArA / nidrA ke kSaNoM ko chor3akara vaha sadaiva kucha na kucha sIkhane meM hI lagA rahatA thaa|' - Alasya, sabhI kSetroM meM - yAnI dhArmika kSetra meM, vyAvahArika kSetra meM, rAjanaitika kSetra meM... manuSya kA kaTTara zatru hai | Alasya, manuSya ko tana-dhana se to girAtA hI hai, buddhi se bhI girAtA hai| 000 -- he prabho, maiM kabhI bhI bAhya athavA Antarika puruSArtha karane meM AlasI na banU~, kartavyapAlana ke satkarma karane meM sukhazIla na banU~ aura paropakAra karane meM eka kSaNa kA bhI vilamba na karU~, aisI mujha para kRpA krnaa| ___ - he anaMta zakti! tU tejarUpa hai, mujhe teja denaa| tU vIryarUpa hai, mujhe vIryavAna bnaanaa| tU balarUpa hai, mujhe balavAna bnaanaa| tU ojasa hai, mujhe UrjasvI bnaanaa| tU puNyaprakopa hai, mujhe puNyaprakopa denaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI - - he paramAtman! - www.kobatirth.org mujhe pratipala, pratikSaNa tere hI kAryoM meM niyukta kara / maiM nirantara kAryarata rahU~, eka pala kA bhI pramAda kiye binA / mujhe tere hI kAma karane haiN| jahA~ dhikkAra hai, vahA~ prema bahAnA hai| Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir jahA~ zaMkA hai, vahA~ zraddhA paidA karanI hai| jahA~ hatAzA hai, vahA~ AzAoM kA saMcAra karanA hai / jahA~ zoka hai, vahA~ AnaMda bikharenA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only 196

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yahI hai jiMdagI ____197 90. pyArabharI cAhanA / he paramAtman! - 'kabhI-kabhI merI bhI bhUla ho sakatI hai, aisA divya bodha mujhe dene kI kRpA krnaa| -- 'hara prasaMga meM aura hara viSaya meM mujhe kucha kahanA hI cAhie,' aisA mAnane kI merI duSTa Adata se mujhe bacA lenaa| ___ - 'maiM sabakI sArI samasyAoM kA samAdhAna karatA rahU~,' isa dussAhasa se mujhe roknaa| ___'maiMne tujhase zakti mA~gI thI ki jisase maiM siddhi prApta kara sakU~, parantu tUne mujhe nirbalatA dI... prabho, mujhe terA pradAna svIkAra hai, maiM terI AjJA kA pAlana kara skuuNgaa|' ___ - maiM terA upakAra mAnatA hU~ kyoMki tUne samRddhi nahIM dI, tUne mujhe daridratA dI... maiM daridratA meM jyAdA samajhadAra banU~gA! __acchA kiyA tUne mujhe sattA nahIM dI, sattA meM maiM logoM kI prazaMsA pAtA... parantu tUne mujhe nirbalatA dI... isase maiMne terI pratipala AvazyakatA mahasUsa kI hai| he bhagavan! maiM isa duniyA kI ora hI dekhatA rahA hU~... yaha dekhanA kaba baMda hogA? terI ora dekhanA kaba priya lagegA? tU hI aisI kRpA kara ki terI ora hI merA mana dekhatA rhe| ___ maiM tujhe kabhI bhI bhUla na sakU~, vaisA yadi kara de aura mere hRdaya ko isa saMsAra ke jAla meM pha~sane na de... to phira terI hara AjJA kA pAlana karane ke lie taiyAra huuN| he nAtha! 'mujhe sukha denA,' aisI yAcanA maiM nahIM karatA hU~, parantu 'duHkha sahane kI mujhe zakti denA, aisA to maiM mA~ga sakatA hU~ na? jitanA isa saMsAra meM bhaTakanA hogA... bhaTakatA rahU~gA... parantu bAda meM maiM For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 198 tere hI caraNoM meM A sakU~... aura merI sArI thakAna dUra ho jAye, aisI kRpA mujha para brsaanaa...| he kRpAnidhi! saMsAra meM mujhe jitane nukasAna hone hoM, ho jaaye| saMsAra meM mere sAtha jitanI pratAraNA honI ho, ho jAye; parantu mere hRdaya meM ina bAtoM kA gama na ho - itanA kara doge? 'mere kaSToM kA bojha Apa uThA lo...' aisA maiM kabhI nahIM kahU~gA, parantu vaha bojha uThAne kI mujhe zakti to doge na? jaba vedanAoM ke ghanaghora bAdala ghira AyeM... aura pairoM ke nIce se dharA phisala jAtI ho... usa samaya bhI, 'Apa mere sAtha ho hI,' aisI merI zraddhA banI rahe... vaisA to kara doge na? he divyAtidivya! itanA cAhatA hU~ ki prati prabhAta meM, mujhe Apake darzana hoM! ApakA milana ho... basa, phira sukha mile yA duHkha mile... maiM saba kucha sahana kara lU~gA | koI zikAyata nahIM karU~gA ki 'Apake hote hue mujhe duHkhoM ne kyoM ghera liyA hai?' he jagabandhu! terA batAyA huA mArga mujhe acchA lagatA hai, parantu usa mArga para calane kI merI zakti nahIM hai... phira bhI maiM usa mArga para calane kI bAla-ceSTA karatA hU~ | giratA hU~... coTa bhI AtI hai... phira khar3A hokara calatA hU~... kabhI thor3I dera ke liye mArga se nIce bhI utara jAtA huuN...| maiM koI mahAna sAdhaka nahIM hU~... maiM ApakA ananya bhakta hU~,' aisA bhI merA kahanA nahIM hai... prabho, hA~, maiM Apase prema karatA hU~...' itanA to kahU~gA | kyA maiM Apake pAsa pahu~cU~gA? saghana rAtri hai, mArga anajAna hai, vighna hai, bhaya hai... AnA Apake pAsa hai... kyA hogA, maiM nahIM jAnatA huuN| eka bAta nizcita kara lI hai 'Apake pAsa pahu~canA hai|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 199 yadi yaha saMbhava na ho to Apa mere pAsa pahu~ca jAnA... kyoMki Apa to sarvazaktimAna haiN| he karuNAsindhu! Apane kahA hai : 'sabhI jIva ko apane mAna kara jIvana jInA', maiM vaise hI jIU~gA, sabhI jIvoM ko mere mitra mAna kr...| Apane kahA hai : 'terA koI nahIM hai... aisA mAnakara mRtyu ke lie taiyAra rahanA... pratipala,' maiM vaise hI taiyAra rahU~gA... mRtyu ke intajAra meM | mRtyu to Apake kSetra meM praveza pAne kA dvAra hai na prabho? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 200 91. paramAtmA kA prabhAva jo jANadi arihaMte dvvttgunnttpjjvttehiN| so jANadi appANaM moho khalu tassa jAdi layaM / / 'jo arihaMta ko dravya se, guNa se aura paryAya se jAnatA hai, vaha AtmA ko jAnatA hai aura usakA moha naSTa hotA hai|' 'pravacanasAra' kA yaha kathana jaba par3hA taba merA mana ullasita huaa| mohanAza kA zreSTha aura sarala upAya mila gayA! 'arihaMta' paramAtmA ko, unake guNaparyAyoM ko gAte hue smRtipatha meM lAne kA prayatna kiyaa| isa prayatna meM sahAyaka banA hai eka prAcIna grantha 'arhnnmskaaraavlikaa'| hAlA~ki yaha grantha prAkRta-gadya hai...| 'arihaMta' viSayaka cintana-paribhAvana ke lie atyanta upayogI hai| mere lie to yaha grantha kAphI upayogI siddha huA hai| AIe, 'arihaMta' paramAtmA ko, unakI alaukika vizeSatAoM ko gAte hue, unake pAvana caraNoM meM vandanA kareM__ he bhagavanta! Apa mAtA ke udara meM Ate haiM taba mAtA caudaha svapna dekha kara harSita hotI hai| samagra vizva ko harSita karane kA prArambha mAtA se hI ho jAtA hai! ___ he paramAtman! mAtA ke udara meM - garbhAvAsa meM bhI Apako tIna jJAna hote haiM - matijJAna, zrutajJAna aura avadhijJAna | garbhAvasthA meM bhI Apake pAsa zreSTha prajJA hotI hai, samagra zAstroM kA jJAna hotA hai aura AtmapratyakSa jJAna hotA hai | he jinezvara! jaba ApakA janma hotA hai, taba devendra Apako merugiri para le jAte haiN| 64 indra milakara Apako nahalAte haiM! harSAnvita hokara Apake sAmane nRtya karate haiN| ve jAnate haiM ki ApakA janma jagata ke jIvoM ke uddhAra ke lie huA hai| ApakA janma hote hI tInoM loka meM prakAza phaila jAtA hai aura sabhI jIva kSaNika AnaMda kI anubhUti karate haiM | he hitakArI! dikkumArikAe~ ApakI sevA karatI haiM ananya prema se! devendra kusumAMjalI se ApakI pUjA karate haiM ananya bhakti se / kSIrodadhi ke jala se For Private And Personal Use Only

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201 yahI hai jiMdagI Apako nahalAte haiM... ananya prIti se| devaduMdubhi se brahmANDa ko AMdolita karate haiM ananya anurAga se | gozIrSa caMdana se Apake zarIra para vilepana karate haiM, ananya ullAsa se | sugaMdhI puSpoM kI mAlAe~ Apake gale meM Aropita karate haiM, ananya umaMga se| kAnoM meM kuMDala DAlate haiM, hAthoM meM ratnajar3ita kar3e DAlate haiM, aura mastaka para ratnoM se prakAzita mukuTa pahanAte haiM... ananya bhaktibhAva se| he sukhakArI! svarga kI kinnariyA~ Apake sAmane nRtya karatI haiM... taba vINAvAdana hotA hai, mRdaMga bajatA hai, bAMsurI ke sura prasphuTita hote haiN| tAlabaddha nRtya karatI huI devAMganAe~ punaH-punaH Apake caraNoM meM vandanA karatI ___ he paramanAtha! harSAtireka se devagaNa jayanAda karate haiN| jayanAda karate hue ve Apako mAtA ke pAsa lAkara sulA dete haiN| devendra Apake aMguSTha meM zreSTha sudhArasa bhara detA hai... Apa usI sudhA ko cUsate rahate haiN| Apa stanapAna nahIM krte| he vItarAga! Apa bhojana/kavalAhAra karate haiM, parantu chadmastha jIva Apako AhAra karate hue nahIM dekha pAte haiN| vaise hI nihAra-kriyA bhI chadmasthoM ke lie agocara hotI hai| nahIM hotA hai Apake deha meM prasveda, nahIM hotI hai koI vyAdhi aura nahIM hotA hai maila | zveta sudhA jaisA hotA hai, ApakA khUna aura mAMsa / pArijAta kI saurabha jaisA hotA hai, ApakA zvAsocchavAsa aura zarIra para hote haiM, eka hajAra ATha sulkssnn| hAtha meM aura caraNoM meM hote haiM chatra, cAmara, dhvaja, staMbha jaise cihna / aise he arihaMta! Apako merI bhAvavaMdanA ho| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 202 S 92. paramAtmA kI jIvanayAtrA he arihaMta! bAlyAvasthA meM bhI Apa viziSTa jJAnI hote haiN| jJAnaprakAza se ApakI pratibhA dedIpyamAna hotI hai| Apake jJAna se aura Apake rUpa se saMsAra ke nara-nArI mugdha ho jAte haiN| Apake jJAna-vijJAna kA vaibhava saMsAra ko cakita kara detA hai| he bhagavaMta! ApameM javAnI kA unmAda nahIM hotA hai| yadi ApakA, saMsArasukha bhogane kA 'karma' avaziSTa hotA hai to Apa nirAgI citta se zAdI karate haiN| saMsAra-sukha bhogate hue bhI Apa virakta hote haiN| jyoM hI vaha preraka karma naSTa hotA hai, Apa brahmacarya ko dhAraNa karate haiN| zabda, rUpa, rasa, gaMdha aura sparza ke viSayoM meM Apa anAsakta hote haiN| AtmabhAva meM vizuddha adhyavasAyoM meM lIna rahate haiN| he prabho! ApakA rAjyapAlana karane kA karma yadi zeSa hotA hai to Apa rAjyapAlana bhI karate haiN| prajA kA vAtsalya bhAva se pAlana karate haiM phira bhI ApakA hRdaya virAgI hotA hai... Apa pratipala svabhAva meM jAgrata hote haiN| jaba rAjyapAlana kI avadhi pUrNa hotI hai... 'lokAntika deva' apUrva bhaktibhAva se Apake caraNoM meM Ate haiM aura vinamra bhAva se prArthanA karate haiM : 'bhayavaM! titthaM pavattehi' 'bhagavaMta, dharmatIrtha kA pravartana kro'| Apa to svayaM saMbuddha hote haiN| Apako kisI ke bhI dharmopadeza kI apekSA nahIM hotI hai| Apako kisI bhI vyakti kI preraNA kI apekSA nahIM hotI hai| Apa to apane jJAna se Alokita mArga para calate rahate haiN| Apa rAjyoM meM ghoSaNA karavAte haiM - 'AIye, sabako iSTa vastu prApta hogii|' Apa eka varSa taka mahAdAna dete haiN| lAkhoM logoM kI daridratA Apa dUra karate haiN| apane kartavya kA pAlana karate hue deva Apake mahala meM dhana kA Dhera lagAte rahate haiN| he jinezvara! jaba saMsAravAsa kA tyAga karane kA dina AtA hai taba devendra ikaTThe hote haiM aura ApakA abhiSeka karate haiN| zreSTha vastra se ApakI komala deha ko For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 203 jalarahita karate haiN| uttama vastroM se ApakI pAvana deha ko sajAte haiN| Apa devanirmita zibikA-pAlakI meM ArUr3ha hote haiN| lAkhoM mAnava Apake dIkSAmahotsava meM sammilita hote haiN| he vItarAga! nagara ke bAhara Akara suMdara vRkSaghaTA se suzobhita udyAna meM, devanirmita Asana para birAja kara Apa alaMkAra evaM vastra kA tyAga karate haiN| bAda meM Apa svayaM apane kezakalApa kA luMcana karate haiN| cAroM tarapha asaMkhya deva aura manuSyoM kI bhIr3a jamI huI hotI hai| sabhI visphArita netroM se, eka nigAha se Apako nirakhate haiM, saba mauna dhAraNa kiye hote haiN| vAjiMtra bhI mauna dhAraNa kara lete haiM... usa samaya Apa anaMta siddha bhagavaMtoM ko vaMdana karate haiM aura sabhI pApoM ke tyAga svarUpa pratijJA dhAraNa karate haiN| ratnatrayI ko grahaNa karate haiM... mahAna cAritrapatha para ApakA prayANa zurU ho jAtA hai| he jagadAnanda! Apako usI samaya nirmala 'vipulita manaHparyayajJAna' pragaTa ho jAtA hai| dUsare jIvoM ke mana ke vicAra par3ha lene kA viziSTa jJAna Apako prApta ho jAtA hai| parantu, jaba taka Apako kaivalya kI prApti nahIM hotI hai taba taka Apa mauna rahate haiN| kSamA vagairaha dasa prakAra ke zramaNa dharma kA Apa pAlana karate haiN| he azaraNa zaraNa! jaba-jaba merI kalpanA-sRSTi meM Apako maiM pRthvI para vicaraNa karate dekhatA hU~... ApakI nirmama...nissaMga avasthA dekhatA hU~... nirbhaya aura nirAkala avasthA kA darzana karatA hU~... taba merA mana bhI Apake padacihnoM para calane ke lie lAlAyita ho jAtA hai| merI yaha lAlasA, prabho! kyA kabhI pUrNa hogI? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI ___204 204 93. paramAtmA kI sAdhanA 3 he vItarAga! aNagAra bana kara Apa pRthvItala para vicarate haiN| - Apa kamala-patra kI taraha nirlepa hote haiN| kamala-patra ke Upara pAnI kI bUMda bhI nahIM cipakatI hai! ApakA AtmabhAva bhI vaisA hI hotA hai| rAga-dveSa kI eka bUMda bhI Apa para nahIM cipaka sakatI hai| - ApakI gati apratihata hotI hai jIva kI taraha! AtmA jaba karmabaMdhana se mukta hotI hai... eka samaya meM hI siddhazilA para pahu~ca jAtI hai... mArga meM koI vastu gati meM rukAvaTa nahIM kara sakatI hai... vaise he bhagavaMta! Apa isa pRthvI para bhI apratihata gati karane vAle hote ho! __- Apa guptendriya hote ho| jaise kUrma apane aMgopAMgoM ko chipAkara rakhatA hai, vaise Apa apanI indriyoM kI caMcalatA ko miTA kara, zubha yogoM meM pravRtta karate ho| ___- jaise pakSI nirbaMdhana hokara AkAza meM uDDayana karatA hai, vaise Apa nibaMdhana hokara bhAvAloka meM uDDayana karate ho| ___ - 'bhAraMDa' nAma kA pakSI jaise apramatta bhAva se jIvana jItA hai vaise Apa bhI apramatta bhAva se apanI jIvanayAtrA karate rahate ho| Apake tana-mana meM tanika bhI pramAda ko avakAza nahIM hotA hai| ___- jaise baliSTa vRSabha akelA hI 32 maNa kA bojha vahana karatA hai, vaise Apa bhI mahAvratoM kA hajAroM Tana kA bojha vahana karate ho| - ku~jara jaise Apa zUravIra hote ho, - siMha ke samAna Apa nirbhaya hote ho, - sAgara jaise Apa gaMbhIra hote ho... - pUrNimA ke candra jaise Apa saumya hote ho| - tapateja se Apa sUrya ke samAna dedIpyamAna hote ho! - saMsAra ke jIvoM ko maitrI, karuNA, pramoda aura mAdhyasthya bhAvanAoM kA upadeza dekara harSavibhora karate ho| Adhi-vyAdhi se utpIr3ita jIvoM ke hRdaya For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 205 ko harSAnvita karane kA ApakA upakAra avarNanIya hai / zabdoM meM kRtajJabhAva kaise vyakta karU~ ? www.kobatirth.org zAradIya jala kaisA nirmala hotA hai! Apake AtmabhAva to usase bhI jyAdA nirmala hote haiM... jIvopakAra ke utkRSTa bhAva se Apa grAma - nagaroM kI padayAtrA karate rahate ho / jaMgaloM meM... vRkSoM kI ghaTA meM... parvatoM kI guphAoM meM dhyAnanimagna rahate ho / - Apa kitane upasarga-pariSahoM ko samabhAva se sahana karate ho! Apa pRthvI jaise sahanazIla aura meru jaise niSprakaMpa hote ho / - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir jaba taka kevalajJAna prApta na ho taba taka Apa ugra tapazcaryA karate ho / kisI bhAgyavaMta- puNyavaMta gRhastha ko hI Apako pAraNA karAne kA dharmalAbha prApta hotA hai / pAraNA karAne vAlA gRhastha dhanyAtidhanya ho jAtA hai / Apa parigraha se sarvathA mukta hote haiM / nahIM hotA hai bAhya parigraha, nahIM hotA hai abhyaMtara parigraha ! na koI Asakti, na koI mamatva! - vizuddha dhyAnadhArA meM bahate hue Apa zukladhyAna meM praveza karate ho / cAra ghAtI karmoM kA nAza kara Apa sarvajJa - vItarAga bana jAte ho / lokAloka prakAzI kevalajJAna kI mahimA kina zabdoM meM gAU~ ? aisA pUrNajJAna prApta kara liyA Apane! deva-devendroM ne svarga se Akara bhavya mahotsava manAyA...! rajata, svarNa aura ratnoM se unhoMne samavasaraNa kI racanA kI / divya maNiyoM se suzobhita siMhAsana para Apa ArUr3ha hue| cAroM dizAoM meM cAra siMhAsana... aura cAroM dizAoM meM Apake darzana hote haiM / - he karuNAnidhAna! Aja to maiM kevala dharmazAstroM ke mAdhyama se, kalpanAloka meM hI ApakA darzana kara sakatA hU~... parantu kalpanA to kalpanA hI hotI hai .... kucha kSaNoM ke lie hI kalpanA hotI hai...| jaba kalpanA kA samaya pUrNa ho jAtA hai... maiM apane Apako, visaMvAdoM se evaM vyathAoM se pUrNa isa saMsAra meM khar3A pAtA huuN| rAga-dveSa aura moha ke baMdhanoM meM jakar3A huA pAtA huuN| - kucha kSaNoM kA bhAvAloka meM hotA huA ApakA milana... kyA kabhI zAzvata milana meM pariNata ho sakegA ? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 206 | 94. paramAtmA kI dharma-prabhAvanA he tIrthaMkara deva! jisa samavasaraNa meM birAjamAna hokara Apa dharmatIrtha kI sthApanA karate haiM, usa samavasaraNa kI kaisI adabhuta zobhA hotI hai! saMpUrNa samavasaraNa ke Upara azokavRkSa chAyA huA rahatA hai| Apake mastaka ke Upara tIna chatra rahate haiN| mastaka ke pRSTha bhAga meM 'bhAmaMDala' hotA hai| Apake donoM tarapha deva caMvara lekara khar3e hote haiN| AkAza meM se deva kusumavRSTi karate haiN| duMdubhi bajAkara ghoSaNA karate haiM 'o devo aura mAnavo! yahA~ AIye aura tribhuvanatAraka karuNAsAgara tIrthaMkara bhagavaMta kI dharmadezanA sunie / ' he utkRSTa puNyarAzi! ApakA rUpa utkRSTa! ApakA jJAna utkRSTa! ApakA puNya utkRSTa! Apake bhAva utkRSTa! ApakA saba kucha utkRSTa hotA hai! Apake samavasaraNa meM deva Ate haiM, manuSya Ate haiM, vaise pazu aura pakSI bhI Ate haiN| ApakA dharmopadeza jaise deva aura manuSya samajhate haiM, vaise pazu aura pakSI bhI samajhate haiN| jo AtmAe~ 'bhavya' hotI haiM... kabhI na kabhI mokSa pAne vAlI hotI haiM... Apake darzana se unake hRdayakamala khila jAte haiN| ApakA upadeza sunakara unake prajJAkamala vikasita ho jAte haiN| unakI mohanidrA dUra hotI hai aura ve ApakI caraNa-zaraNa svIkAra kara lete haiN| ___ Apa jina prajJAvaMta puruSoM ko gaNadhara pada para sthApita karate haiM, unako tIna pada pradAna karate ho : 'uppannei vA, vigamei vA, dhuvei vaa|' ve prajJAvaMta gaNadhara ye pada sunakara vahIM para 'dvAdazAMgI' (bAraha dharmazAstra) kI, mAnasika bhUmikA para racanA kara dete haiN| he bhagavaMta! Apake gaNadharoM ke race hue una dharmazAstroM ke kucha aMza hI Aja hamako mile haiN| use bhI hama pUrA nahIM samajhate haiN| apanI-apanI alpa buddhi se saba For Private And Personal Use Only

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207 yahI hai jiMdagI usakA artha karate haiN| visaMvAdoM kI koI sImA nahIM hai| na koI avadhijJAnI mahAtmA hai... jinake pAsa jAkara zaMkAoM kA samAdhAna kara skeN| he jinezvara! Apane sAdhu, sAdhvI, zrAvaka aura zrAvikA - isa prakAra caturvidha saMgha kI sthApanA kii| ApakA yaha caturvidha saMgha eka jaMgama mahAtIrtha ho gyaa| jisa kisI vyakti ko bhavasAgara tairanA hai, vaha isa mahAtIrtha kI yAtrA karatA hai aura pAvana hotA hai| vizva meM yahI eka aisA mahAtIrtha hai ki jisako deva-devendra bhI namana karate haiN| he karuNAsindhu! dharmatIrtha kI sthApanA kara, Apane samagra jIvasRSTi para mahAna upakAra kiyA hai| ekendriya se paMcendriya - samagra jIvasRSTi ke prati dayA-karuNA kI vRSTi kI hai| 'sabhI jIvoM ko sukha priya hai, duHkha kisI ko bhI priya nahIM hai - isalie kisI bhI jIva kI hiMsA nahIM karanI cAhie,' aisA upadeza dekara jIvoM ko abhayadAna diyaa| 'anekAntavAda' kA siddhAMta batAkara hara bAta ko sahI artha meM samajhane kA mArga btaayaa| ekAntavAda ke durAgraha ko miTAne kI divya jJAnadRSTi pradAna kii| he vItarAga nAtha! Apake caraNoM meM vizva kI bar3I-bar3I vibhUtiyA~ natamastaka hotI haiN| gahana se gahana praznoM kA samAdhAna, prajJAvaMta loga Apase pAte haiN| Apake sannidhAna mAtra se rogI loga nIrogI ho jAte haiN| jahA~-jahA~ ApakA caraNasparza hotA hai... vahA~ sukha, AnaMda aura ullAsa se vAtAvaraNa bhara jAtA hai| he nAtha, kaba mujhe Apake caraNakamala kI sevA prApta hogI? kaba Apake vadana-kamala para guMjArava karane vAlA bhramara banU~gA? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 208 95. paramAtmA kA viraha he arihaMta bhagavaMta! ApakA guNasthAnaka terahavA~ hotA hai| zukla lezyA hotI hai| jaba ApakA AyuSya pUrNa hone vAlA hotA hai... Apa samavasaraNa meM birAja kara antima dharmadezanA dete haiN| anAdi saMyoga se AtmA ke sAtha lage hue anaMta-anaMta karmoM kA Apa caudahaveM guNasthAnaka para nAza kara dete haiM / audArika-taijas aura kArmaNa zarIra ke baMdhana TUTa jAte haiM... eka samaya meM hI ApakI mahAna AtmA siddhazilA para pahu~ca jAtI hai| Apako parama pada prApta ho gayA... Apa siddha-mukta bana gaye... parantu bhagavaMta! Apake jAne se yahA~... isa bharatakSetra meM to ghora aMdhakAra chA gayA hai| __ - rAga-dveSa ke vipula jala se bhare hue saMsAra-sAgara ko Apa to taira gaye, parantu hama to usI sAgara meM DUbe hue haiN| ___ - aba Apako vahA~ upadrava nahIM hai... vighna nahIM hai, parantu hama to asaMkhya upadravoM se grasta haiM, apAra vighnoM se ghire hue haiN| - Apa vahA~ para acala ho gye| ApakI AtmA acala ho gii| parantu hamArA paribhramaNa to cAlU hai... janma-mRtyu pAte hue cAra gatiyoM meM bhaTaka rahe haiN| ___- Apa vahA~ para akSaya bana gaye! Apake anaMta guNoM kA bhaMDAra Apako mila gayA... aba usa bhaNDAra kA kabhI bhI nAza hone vAlA nahIM, paraMtu hamAre AtmaguNa to kabhI pragaTa hote haiM... kabhI adRzya ho jAte haiM! Apa vahA~ cale gaye bhagavaMta, vahA~ se aba kabhI bhI isa saMsAra meM nahIM AyeMge | hamArA kyA hogA? hama to vahA~ Ane se rahe... hamase Apa jaisI ghoravIra aura ugra sAdhanA kahA~ hone vAlI hai? hamArA pramAda... Alasya... rAgadveSa... moha... kaba dUra honevAle haiM? Apake binA kauna dUra karane vAlA hai? Apake binA kauna hameM mohanidrA se jagAne vAlA hai? cAroM tarapha aMdhakAra hai prabho! Apake binA prakAza kI kiraNa dene vAlA kauna hai? For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI he bhagavaMta ! 209 maiM to Apake anaMta guNoM ke sindhu ke do bindu bhI nahIM jAnatA huuN| merA ajJAna pragAr3ha hai| parantu, Apake prati mere hRdaya meM avicala zraddhA avazya hai / kyA ajJAnI parantu zraddhAvAn jIva ke prati ApakI karuNA kA pravAha nahIM bahatA hai? kyA zraddhAvAn kA premapravAha Apa taka nahIM pahu~catA hai ? zraddhA ne hI mujhe mukhara banA diyA hai| tere guNa gAne kI merI kSamatA nahIM hai... kyoMki maiM koI kavi - mahAkavi nahIM hU~ / mere pAsa zabdoM kA vaibhava nahIM hai... bhAvoM kI abhivyakti karane kI kalA nahIM hai / thor3e se zraddhA ke sumana haiM mere pAsa / tere caraNoM meM car3hA diye haiM / tU avazya svIkAra karegA na? mere prANoM ke AdhAra ! tere batAye hue mokSamArga para calane kI ceSTA karatA hU~... parantu paira lar3akhar3Ate haiN| zakti paryApta nahIM hai| tere prati prema hai... parantu tere pAsa pahu~cane kI zakti nahIM hai| azakti mahasUsa karatA hU~ / tere vacana mujhe khUba pyAre lagate haiM, parantu jIvana meM una vacanoM kA yathocita pAlana nahIM kara pAtA huuN| prayatna karatA hU~... parantu merA prayatna mujhe santuSTa nahIM karatA hai| prabho, terA dharmazAsana mujhe bahuta hI acchA lagatA hai, parantu merI rAga-dveSa kI prabalatA... mujhe usa dharmazAsana kI ArAdhanA nahIM karane detii| kisI jIva kI pAmaratA ko Apa kSamA pradAna karate ho yA nahIM - maiM nahIM jAnatA, parantu pAmara ko paramezvaratva pradAna karane se saMsAra meM ApakI kIrti avazya phailegI! he arihaMta bhagavaMta ! For Private And Personal Use Only Apake vacanoM kA... upadezoM kA saMsAra meM nirantara prasAra karatA rahU~.... aura saMtapta jIvoM ko zAMti detA rahU~... basa itanI dayA karanA mujha para .... /

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yahI hai jiMdagI 210 96. tuma hI tumhAre sAtha ho / usane kahA : merA eka hI sahArA thA... vaha TUTa gayA... merA to hausalA hI TUTa gayA... kucha samajha meM nahIM AtA ki kyA karU~? mere mitra, svayaM hI svayaM kA sahArA bno| TUTate hue dila ke hausale ko svayaM hI sahArA do| svayaM hI hRdaya kI vyathAoM ko sahalA lo| ___ 'kisI ne mere gama ko, merI vyathA ko nahIM jAnA...' aisI zikAyata bhI mata kro| apanI pIr3AoM ko pI jAne kI taiyArI karo / eka kaTu bAta kahatA hU~... mitra ko kaha sakatA hU~ svayaM kI kucha bhrAntiyoM ko chor3a do| asImita kAmanAoM ko miTA do| jAnate ho ki bhrAntiyoM ne aura kAmanAoM ne tumhAre mana ko dhUmila sitAre jaisA banA diyA hai| - para kI AzA... yaha tumhArI pahalI bhrAnti hai| - dUsaroM kA bharosA... yaha tumhArI bar3I galatI hai| kisI ko kyA ki tumhArI bha~vara meM pha~sI nAva ko bacAne ke lie majhadhAra meM kUda par3e? tuma svayaM hI nAva ko khekara kinAre taka le jaao| svayaM ke hI bharose jindagI kA krama bnaao| svayaM ke hI bharose jIvanayAtrA kA krama bnaao| svayaM ke hI bharose yojanA pariyojanA bnaao| koI yadi sAtha nahIM detA hai to bhI apane vizvAsa ko TUTane mata do| eka kavi ne kahA hai : _ 'sahAre to sahAre haiM kisI dina TUTa jAyeMge, kinAre to kinAre haiM kisI dina chUTa jaayeNge| kisI ko kyA ki tumhAre ajJAna ke andhakAra ko miTAne ke lie vaha jJAna kA dinakara banakara Ae? tuma dUsaroM ke bharose para mata rho| tuma hI samyagjJAna ke dIpaka ko apane AtmamaMdira meM sthApita kro| para kI AzA chor3a do| tumhArI svayaM kI pyAsa kama kara do... phira koI pAnI kA nirjhara bana kara tumhAre pAsa nahIM AtA hai... to tumheM kyA? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 211 mitra mere, nirAza mata bano / sAhasa ko marane mata do| saMjIvanI ko pI lo| apane Atmagaurava ko mata bhuulo| eka bAta mAnoge? tuma kevala apane lie hI mata jIo... samagra jagata ke lie jInA zurU kro| jIvamAtra ke lie jInA prArambha kro| jaba taka manuSya kevala apane lie hI jItA hai, taba taka hI vyathA aura vedanAe~ rahatI haiN| taba taka hI vaha dUsaroM kA sahArA khojatA hai| tujhe to svayaM dUsaroM kA sahArA bananA hai| - tujhe to svayaM dUsaroM kI divya AzA bananA hai / Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir vizvAsa rakha, tU dUsaroM kA sahArA bana sakatA hai, dUsaroM kI AzA bana sakatA hai| - duniyA meM phUloM se pyAra karane vAle bahuta milate haiM... parantu svayaM phUla banakara dUsaroM ko sugaMdha dene vAle bahuta kama milate haiN| gaMgA kI yAtrA karane vAle to isa deza meM karor3oM loga hote haiM, parantu svayaM gaMgA banakara bahane vAle... kitane mileMge ? - svayaM puSpa bana jAnA hai.... svayaM gaMgA bana jAnA hai... pyAre mitra, ajJAna kI A~dhiyoM ke bIca tumheM jJAna ke dIpa jalAne haiN| - divya jIvana-racanA ke kArya meM tumheM apanA sattva nicor3anA hai| jana-jana meM zAMti, samatA aura prasannatA ke puSpa prasphurita karane haiM / bhUlanA mata ki... - * hama bahuta kucha kho cuke haiM pramAda meM, aba nahIM khonA hai| isa manuSya-jIvana meM aba sote-sote samaya nahIM ga~vAnA hai... yaha to jAgRti kA hI jIvana hai / eka mahattvapUrNa kArya karanA hai jIva-jIva meM... manuSya - manuSya meM maitrIbhAva ko bar3hAnA hai / hara manuSya meM jIvana ke prati vizvAsa paidA karanA hai| paramAtmA kI eka-eka kalyANakArI AjJA kA jana-jana meM prasAraNa karanA hai / to hI tuma sabake sahAre banoge ! For Private And Personal Use Only

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212 yahI hai jiMdagI va 97. namana meM zraddhA kA janama : vaha eka paropakArI yuvA saMnyAsI thaa| usake pAsa aisA rasAyana thA ki jisakI eka bUMda pAnI meM milA dene se rogI acche ho jAte the| hajAroM rogI usa saMnyAsI ke pAsa Ane lage aura nirogitA prApta karane lge| saMnyAsI kI prasiddhi ho gii| usa saMnyAsI ke guru the, unako acAnaka kaI rogoM ne A gheraa| ziSya kI prasiddhi unhoMne sunI thii| ve ziSya ke pAsa gye| ziSya ne guru ko sammAna diyA aura harSa vyakta kiyaa| usane guru ko apane rasAyana kI bUMda pAnI meM DAlakara guru ko pilA diyaa| guru khUba prasanna hue| unake sabhI roga dUra ho gye| dhIre se ziSya ko pUchA : 'beTA, isa rasAyana kA nuskhA mujhe bhI batA de, tAki Age vyAdhi hone para maiM prayoga kara sakU~ / ' ziSya guru ko ekAnta meM le gayA aura kahA : 'gurudeva, yaha ApakA hI caraNodaka hai| hara gurupUrNimA ke dina maiM Apake caraNa-prakSAlana kA jala lAtA hU~ aura usI kI eka-eka bUMda sabako detA hU~... Apako bhI vahI diyA hai|' guru apane Azrama meM pahu~ce aura apane paira dhokara ghar3oM meM pAnI ekatra kiyaa| vyAdhigrasta logoM ko rasAyana pilAyA gyaa| parantu kisI ko lAbha nahIM huaa| logoM ne usako pAkhaMDI kahA | cAroM tarapha apayaza phaila gyaa| guru ziSya ke pAsa gaye aura apanI durdazA batAyI / namratA se ziSya ne kahA : 'gurudeva, kevala caraNodaka nahIM, merI gaharI zraddhA kA puTa bhI usameM rahatA hai| jaba ki Apake caraNodaka meM Apake ahaMkAra kA viSa ghula gayA... isIlie vaha upahAsa kA kAraNa bnaa...|' 0 0 0 - vinamra manuSya kI zraddhA, sukhada camatkAra paidA karatI hai| - ahaMkArI manuSya ke pAsa zraddhA kA dhana ho hI nahIM sakatA hai... phira bhI yadi vaha camatkAra karane jAtA hai to upahAsa kA pAtra bana jAtA hai| raziyA meM 'jUnA dapitAzvalI' nAma kI mahilA hai| vaha kisI bhI auSadha ke binA, kisI bhI prakAra ke upacAra ke binA logoM ko rogamukta karatI hai| 73 varSIyA isa mahilA ko pUchA gayA ki binA davAI aura binA upacAra tuma kaise For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 213 dardI ko rogamukta kara sakatI ho? usane kahA : 'kucha nahIM hai, kevala Izvara ke prati vizvAsa se kAma karatI huuN| Izvara-vizvAsa se maiM rogI ke svAsthya ke lie prArthanA karatI huuN| vizvAsa phalita hotA hai aura rogI nirogI bana jAtA hai|' __vinamra jUnA ne sArA yaza Izvara ko diyA! yahI usakI saphalatA kA rahasya hogaa| loga bhale jUnA ko yaza deM, jUnA to Izvara ko hI yaza detI hai| ahaMkAra ko apane hRdaya meM kabhI praveza nahIM detI hai| ___ - manuSya meM kucha vizeSatA AtI hai... ki sAtha hI ahaMkAra aura tiraskAra praveza kara jAte haiN| 'maiM hI saba kucha hU~,' yaha hotA hai ahaMkAra / 'dUsare kucha mahattva nahIM rakhate...' yaha hotA hai tiraskAra | - ahaMkAra aura tiraskAra se mukta vyaktitva kI divyatA svataH AvirbhUta hotI hai| vaha divyatA hI zraddhArUpa hotI hai| zraddhAvAna meM zraddheya kI divyatA saMkrAnta hotI hai| zraddheya se zraddhAvAn kA jaba abhedabhAva se milana hotA hai taba zraddheya kI divya zakti zraddhAvAna kI divya zakti bana jAtI hai| ___- zraddhA meM se utpanna hone vAle camatkAroM ko buddhi se nahIM samajhA jA sktaa| tarka se pramANita nahIM kiyA jA sktaa| zraddhAjanya camatkAroM ko zraddhA se hI mAnane hoNge| - jaise sAgara ko pyAle meM nahIM bharA jA sakatA... vaise AtmA kI evaM paramAtmA kI anaMta... niHsIma zaktiyoM ko tarka ke/buddhi ke pyAle meM nahIM bharA jA sktaa| - buddhi meM se ahaMkAra janamatA hai... - zraddhA meM se vinamratA janamatI hai| - vinamratA meM se namaskAra janamatA hai aura namaskAra 'mahAmaMtra' banakara divyatA ko pradarzita karatA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 214 . Aja ke dina itana Aja! Aja maiM khuza rahU~gA! Aja maiM acche aura vidheyAtmaka vicAra hI karatA rhuuNgaa| 'sva-mana kI prasannatA durlabha hai' - isa kathana ke Azaya ko caritArtha karane kA prayatna kruuNgaa| mana kI prasannatA akhaMDita rakhane ke lie jAgrata rhuuNgaa| __Aja maiM apane snehI-svajana evaM mitroM ke sAtha anukUla pravRtti kruuNgaa| unake sAtha durvyavahAra nahIM kruuNgaa| unakI acchI pravRttiyoM meM sahayogI bnuuNgaa| kisI ke kleza meM nimitta nahIM bnuuNgaa| unake guNoM ko hI dekhane kA prayatna kruuNgaa| doSa nahIM dekhuMgA, phira bhI doSadarzana ho gayA, to doSoM ko mahattva nahIM duuNgaa| Aja maiM apane mana ko sthira, pavitra aura prasanna rakhane kA prayatna kruuNgaa| mana ko phAlatU bAtoM meM bhaTakane nahIM duuNgaa| mana ko phurasata hI nahIM mile, vaise svAdhyAya-ciMtana meM nimagna rkhuugaa| acche sevA-kAryoM meM lIna rkhuugaa| Aja, merI aMtarAtmA ko tRpti mile vaisA eka acchA kArya to avazya kruuNgaa| 'mAnava-jIvana, dharma-puruSArtha kara lene ke lie ati durlabha samaya hai,' yaha bhagavada vacana Aja maiM nahIM bhuuluuNgaa| maiMne acche kAryoM kI eka sUcI banAyI hai, merI abhirUci ke anuruup| usa sUcI meM se koI eka kArya Aja mujhe karanA hai| ___ Aja maiM apane zarIra kI svasthatA kA bhI khyAla kruuNgaa| merI zArIrika prakRti kA mujhe jJAna hai| apanI prakRti ke anurUpa bhojana hI maiM kruuNgaa| bhojana meM dharma kI AjJAoM kA pAlana karU~gA | kupathya kA sevana nahIM kruuNgaa| zarIra ko sAdhana ke rUpa meM svastha evaM nIrAgI banAye rakhane kA prayatna kruuNgaa| pramAda nahIM karU~gA, vaise ati zrama bhI nahIM kruuNgaa| saMtulita bhojana kruuNgaa| zarIra ko jar3a, azakta yA pramAdI nahIM hone duuNgaa| Aja maiM aise bhI do-tIna acche kArya karU~gA, jo kArya karane ko mana nahIM mAnatA hai! kucha kArya acche hone para bhI mana una kAryoM ko karane ke lie tatpara nahIM hotA hai| mana kI isa Adata ko miTAne ke lie Aja maiM vaise dotIna kArya avazya kruuNgaa| Aja maiM mana kI dUsarI bhI eka burI Adata ko miTAne kA prayatna karU~gA! vaha Adata hai - apane kiye hue acche kArya dUsaroM ko batAnA aura prazaMsA For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 215 sunanA! maiM Aja apane acche kArya dUsaroM ko nahIM batAU~gA... na hI prazaMsA sunane kI icchA rakhUgA / ___ Aja maiM apane paricitoM meM se kisI ke bhI satkArya kI mukta mana se prazaMsA kruuNgaa| prazaMsA karU~gA, khuzAmada nhiiN| satkArya kI prazaMsA, sadaguNa kI prazaMsA kruuNgaa| Aja maiM sabhI kA priya banane kA prayatna kruuNgaa| maiM apanI yogyatAnusAra vastra pahanU~gA | mere paricitoM ko merI kaisI vezabhUSA pasaMda hai, yaha maiM jAnatA huuN| maiM vaisI vezabhUSA pahanU~gA evaM sabake sAtha vinaya se aura viveka se vyavahAra kruuNgaa| kisI ke sAmane kisI kI nindA nahIM kruuNgaa| kisI bhI vyakti ke Upara doSAropaNa nahIM kruuNgaa| __ Aja maiM apriya nahIM bolU~gA / ahitakArI nahIM boluuNgaa| kisI ke hRdaya ko duHkhAne vAle zabda nahIM bolU~gA | yadi dUsare ke hita ke liye apriya bolane kA prasaMga A gayA to mIThe zabdoM meM bolUMgA aura kSamAyAcanA bhI kara luuNgaa| yadi mauna rakhanA ucita hogA to mauna rhuuNgaa| Aja maiM paramAtmA kA vidhipUrvaka darzana-pUjana kruuNgaa| Aja paramAtmA ke prati prIti-bhakti ke bhAvoM kA saMvedana karU~gA | mana-vacana-kAyA kI ekAgratA se paramAtmA kA dhyAna kruuNgaa| kucha kSaNoM ke lie bhI maiM Aja paramAtmasvarUpa meM lIna banane kA prayatna kruuNgaa| Aja mujhe Aja kA hI vicAra karanA hai| Ane vAle anaMta bhaviSya kI kSaNoM kA bojha mujhe Aja para nahIM DAlanA hai| mujhe pA~ca-pacAsa sAla kI koI pariyojanA nahIM banAnI hai, mujhe to Aja kI hI yojanA banAnI hai aura Aja ko hI bhavya, sundara aura AnaMda se paripUrNa banAnA hai| ___ atIta kI asaMkhya, vyathApUrNa smRtiyoM ko aura anAgata kI asaMkhya cintAoM ko 'Aja' para maMDarAne nahIM denA hai| Aja ke eka-eka kSaNa ko AnaMda kA srota banAnA hai| Aja yadi kisI ne mere sAtha durvyavahAra kiyA, to maiM jJAtA-dRSTA banakara usa vyavahAra ko dekhuugaa| rAga-dveSa se mana ko kaluSita nahIM hone duuNgaa| ___ Aja yadi kisI ne apriya zabda sunAye, to maiM jJAtA-dRSTA banakara ve zabda sunuuNgaa| rAga-dveSa se mana ko caMcala nahIM hone duuNgaa| merI 'Aja' AtmA kI Aja bana jAe aise hI kArya kruuNgaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 216 . khuda ho sone jaise eka siddha puruSa the| unake viSaya meM eka kiMvadantI thI ki ve tAMbe ko sonA banAne kI vidyA jAnate haiN| bahuta loga usa vidyA ko pAne ke lie unake pAsa jAte haiM, siddha puruSa unase kahate haiM : 'bAraha varSa mere pAsa raho, sevA karo, bAda meM vidyA btaauuNgaa|' itanA dhairya kahA~ se lAnA? koI cAra/cha: mahIne rahakara calA jAtA hai, koI eka/do sAla rahakara calA jAtA hai| nirbala saMkalpazakti aura adhIratA kisI ko bAraha varSa Tikane nahIM detI hai| parantu eka dhIra-vIra yuvaka vahA~ pahu~cA | vaha bAraha varSa siddha puruSa ke pAsa rhaa| usakA saMkalpa bala dRr3ha thA, usakI dhIratA adbhuta thii| siddha puruSa ne usa sAtvika yuvaka ko apane pAsa bulAkara kahA : 'vatsa, mere vacanAnusAra aba maiM tujhe suvarNasiddhi denA cAhatA huuN| Aja se hI usakA upakrama zurU kara dete haiN|' 'gurudeva! kSamA kareM, maiM suvarNasiddhi nahIM caahtaa|' 'kyoM?' guru ko bar3A Azcarya huaa| 'kyoMki Apake pAsa bAraha varSa raha kara, ApakI kRpA se maiM hI sonA bana gayA hU~| aba to maiM AjIvana Apake caraNoM meM rahU~gA, AtmakalyANa kI ArAdhanA kruuNgaa| svarNa ikaTThA kara, tRSNA aura vilAsa meM mujhe jIvana naSTa nahIM karanA hai|' 'tU supAtra hai, tujhe devIkRpA prApta hogI vatsa!' guru ne ziSya ko hArdika AzIrvAda diye| 0 0 0 svarNa... rajata.... rupye...| arthapradhAna bana rahA hai pUrA vizva | dharmapradhAna deza bhArata bhI artha pradhAna bana gayA hai| kyA ho gayA hai logoM ko? dharma aura mokSa ko bhUla rahe haiM, artha aura kAma ko hI sarvasva mAna liyA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 217 - hara vyakti kA svapna banA hai apAra saMpatti, amApa vaibhava / isalie jo kucha karanA par3e vaha karane ko taiyAra haiN| anyAya, anIti, dhokhAdhar3I, corI, lUTakhasoTa... apaharaNa... aura hatyA / arthalipsA kauna-sA pApa nahIM karavAtI hai? - sabako sonA caahie| kisI ko sonA bananA nahIM hai| - jo sone jaisA zuddha bana jAtA hai, vaha sonA to kyA hIre, motI aura nIlama ko bhI ThukarA detA hai| usakI parizuddha dRSTi meM hIre-motI vagairaha patthara dikhate haiN| - paise ke pAgaloM ko patthara meM hIre dikhate haiN| - paise ke pAgaloM ko dhUla meM svarNa-kaNa dikhate haiN| - paise ke pAgalapana ne pavitra sambandhoM kI pavitratA naSTa kara dI hai| hara sambandha meM mAdhyama bana gayA hai, paisaa| - binA paise ke koI sambandha nahIM rhaa| 0 0 0 eka mahAnubhAva ne kahA : aba to dharma kA sambandha bhI paise se jur3a gayA hai| dharmasthAnoM meM dhArmikoM kA mahattva nahIM rhaa| zrImantoM kA mahattva bar3ha gayA hai| - zrImanta ko sadAcArI honA, dayAlu honA, guNavAna honA, vratadhArI honA jarUrI nahIM hai... yadi vaha pAMca/dasa lAkha rupaye dharmakSetra meM kharca kara detA hai to! ___ - jo brahmacArI haiM, vratadhArI haiM, guNavAna haiM... dayAlu haiM, parantu zrImanta nahIM haiM, hajAroM-lAkhoM kA dAna nahIM de sakate haiM, unakA aba koI mahattva nahIM rahA dharmasthAnoM meN| - manuSya ko sonA banAne kA kAma, jo sAdhu-saMtoM kA kAma thA, ve aba manuSya se sonA pAne kA kAma nahIM kara rahe haiM kyA? maiM yaha nahIM kahatA ki unakA koI nijI svArtha hogaa| maMdira banavAte hoMge, dharmazAlA banavAte hoMge, zAlA-mahAzAlA banavAte hoMge... paraMtu manuSya ko sonA banAne kA kAma adhara meM laTaka gayA hai| - yadi manuSya sonA nahIM banA, to vaha maMdiroM ko bhraSTa karegA, maMdiroM ko naSTa kregaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 218 -- yadi manuSya sonA nahIM banA, to dharmazAlAe~ pApazAlAe~ bneNgii| - manuSya ko sonA banAne kA kAma, niSkAma... sadAcArI... prajJAvaMta mahApuruSa hI kara sakate haiM | thor3e manuSya bhI sonA bana jAeM to pUre samAja ko sonA banAyA jA sakatA hai| - AcArya Arya-suhasti ne samrATa samprati ko sonA banAyA thA na? samprati ne pUre bhArata meM svarNayuga pravartita kiyA thaa| - AcArya zrI hemacandrasUrijI ne samrATa kumArapAla ko sonA banAyA thA na? kumArapAla ne pUre gujarAta meM ahiMsA kA svarNayuga pravartita kara diyaa| - manuSya! manuSya ko svayaM sonA bananA hogaa| - sonA banAne vAloM kA satsaMga karanA hogaa| - sonA pAne ke lie saMta-sAdhuoM ke pAsa nahIM jAnA hai, sonA banane ke lie jAnA hai... bAraha sAla nahIM, pUrA jIvana bhI unake caraNoM meM bItAnA par3e to bItA deM, parantu sonA bana jAnA hai| sau TaMca kA sonaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 219 va100. 'alphA' se 'omegA' taka i leTina meM 'alphA' kA artha hotA hai pahalA aura 'omegA' kA artha hotA hai antima / pazcima kA tattvaciMtaka 'TelhArDa DI cArDina' kahatA hai "God is the Omega Point'. paramAtmA, vikAsa kA antima bindu hai| vikAsa kI antima saMbhAvanA hai| - hamAre vikAsa kA lakSya kyA hai? - kyA hamane vikAsa kI dizA, vikAsa kA antima bindu nizcita kiyA hai? zAMti ke kSaNoM meM socanA Avazyaka hai| ___ - bhautika kSetra meM vikAsa kI kitanI saMbhAvanA hai? antima bindu kauna-sA hai? isa jIvana meM usa antima bindu taka pahu~ca sakate haiM kyA? adhUrA vikAsa, Ane vAle janma meM Age bar3ha sakatA hai kyA? bhautika vikAsa kA antima lakSya banAyA eka lAkha araba rupaye / isa jIvana meM eka hajAra araba rupaye pA liye, mRtyu huI, dUsare janma meM kyA zeSa 99 hajAra araba rupaye pA leMge? - mAna lo ki antima bindu taka pahu~ca gaye, kyA eka lAkha araba rupaye hamAre pAsa hamezA ke lie raheMge? yadi nahIM rahate haiM to phira usako vikAsa kaise kaheM? - AtmavikAsa kI saMbhAvanA kA ciMtana kreN| - AtmavikAsa kA artha hai guNoM kA vikAsa, Atmika guNoM kA vikAsa / jJAna kA vikAsa, vairAgya kA vikAsa, karuNA kA vikAsa, kSamA vagairaha guNoM kA vikAsa! - AtmavikAsa kA antima bindu hai prmaatmaa| - hara AtmA paramAtmA bana sakatI hai| paramAtmA banane kA spaSTa lakSya nirdhArita karanA caahie| - paramAtmA banane ke bAda jIvAtmA nahIM bananA pdd'taa| - paramAtmadazA kSaNika nahIM hotI hai, zAzvata hotI hai| paramAtmadazA kA vinAza nahIM hotA hai, vaha avinAzI hotI hai| -- paramAtmadazA meM pUrNa jJAna hotA hai, pUrNa vItarAgatA hotI hai, saMpUrNa guNasamRddhi hotI hai| pUrNa sukha hotA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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220 yahI hai jiMdagI - paramAtmadazA yAnI puurnntaa| kabhI apUrNa nahIM bane vaisI puurnntaa| - manuSya hI vaisI paramAtmadazA kI ora vikAsayAtrA prAraMbha kara sakatA hai| - bhautika kSetra meM vikAsa ho sakatA hai, parantu usakA koI antima bindu nahIM hai| rAste meM kahIM para bhI vikAsa vinAza meM badala sakatA hai, manuSya ke hajAroM prayatnoM ke bAvajUda bhI... ___ - AdhyAtmika kSetra meM vikAsa kA antima bindu hai| asaMkhya... anaMta AtmAe~ usa antima bindu taka pahu~cI huI haiM! sarvajJa puruSoM ne dekhA hai aura bAda meM batAyA hai| - hamAre bhItara usa antima bindu taka pahu~cane kI yogyatA par3I huI hai| 'DI cArDina' ne kahA hai - Omega is also the Alpha! jo antima hai vahI pahalA bhI hai! - kitanI rahasyapUrNa bAta kahI hai cArDina ne! antima hai paramAtmA, pahalI hai AtmA! AtmA meM hI paramAtmA nihita hai! hara AtmA kA zuddha svarUpa paramAtmA kA hai| vikAsayAtrA meM azuddhiyA~ dUra karane kI hotI haiM aura zuddha svarUpa pragaTa karate hue calanA hai| jaba sabhI karmajanya azuddhiyA~ dUra ho jAyeMgI, AtmA hI paramAtmA bana jAyegI! - pahalI AtmA hai, antima paramAtmA hai| svayaM yaha nirNaya kareM ki - maiM AtmA huuN| - abhI maiM rAga-dveSa-moha Adi doSoM se azuddha hU~, - merA vAstavika svarUpa yaha nahIM hai| - maiM vAstava meM zuddhAtmA hU~, paramAtmA huuN| - mujhe apanA vAstavika svarUpa pAnA hai| - isalie isa jIvana meM vahI kAma karanA hai| - duniyAdArI ke kAma kevala sAkSIbhAva se kruuNgaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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221 yahI hai jiMdagI - jJAtA aura dRSTA banane kA prayatna kruuNgaa| - svajana-parijanoM se mamatva tor3ane kA prayatna kruuNgaa| - vaibhava-saMpatti kI Asakti ko nAmazeSa kara duuNgaa| - zarIra ko kevala sAdhana ke rUpa meM grahaNa kruuNgaa| - mana ko, AtmajJAna ke zAstroM ke svAdhyAya meM lIna rkhuugaa| - ucita kartavyoM kA nirAzaMsa bhAva se pAlana kruuNgaa| merI yaha vikAsayAtrA isa jIvana meM pUrNa na bhI ho, antima bindu para na bhI pahu~ca sakU~, mujhe aphasosa nahIM hogaa| kyoMki Ane vAle janma meM yahI vikAsayAtrA Age bar3hane vAlI hai| jahA~ se yAtrA adhUrI chUTa gaI hogI, vahA~ se zurU hogii| mujhe vizvAsa hai ki tIna yA sAta/ATha janmoM meM maiM antima bindu para pahuMca jaauuNgaa| God is the Omega Point. For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 222 201. samajhadArI kI mAMga 101. samajhadArI kI mA~ga icchA... cAha... kAmanA! yadi manuSya meM koI icchA nahIM hai, koI cAha nahIM hai... koI kAmanA nahIM hai... to kaisA hogA usakA jIvana? - yadi prakAza kI cAha nahIM hai to aMdhakAra... - yadi amRta kI cAha nahIM hai to viSa... - jIvana meM utsAha, umaMga, sAhasa... dhairya ityAdi ke lie manuSya meM cAha honI cAhie, kAmanA honI caahie| - parantu binA jJAna kI cAha aMdhakAra kI ora le jaayegii| - binA jJAna kI cAha halAhala viSa kI ora le jaayegii| - sA~pa kA jJAna nahIM hai bacce ko, usako khilaune kI cAha hai... vaha sA~pa ko khilaunA samajha kara pakar3a leM, to kyA hogA? ___- svarNa kA jJAna nahIM hai, svarNa kI cAha hai, kyA hogA? svarNa mAnakara pItala le aaegaa| ___ - jisa vastu kI icchA kareM, usa vastu kA jJAna prApta karanA caahie| usa vastu kA svarUpa, usa vastu kA upayoga, usakA pariNAma... jAnanA caahie| - eka bhAI ko ghara meM TI.vI. seTa basAne kI icchA hii| paise the pAsa meM. raMgIna TI.vI. le aae| ghara meM skUla-kaoNleja meM par3hane vAle lar3ake the| TI.vI. dekhane meM unako majA A gayA... par3hAI chUTa gaI, parIkSA meM phela ho gye| aba vaha mahAnubhAva ghara meM se TI.vI. nikAlanA cAhate haiM, lar3ake aura lar3akoM kI mA~ rakhanA cAhate haiM! samasyA paidA ho gii| isalie kahatA hU~ - binA jJAna kI icchA duHkha aura azAMti kI ora le jaayegii| binA jJAna kI icchA andhI hotI hai| icchA karane vAlA bhI andhA hotA hai... gaDDhe meM girane se kauna bacAyegA? __- binA kriyA kA jJAna nirarthaka hai| nirarthaka hI nahIM, apitu anarthakArI hotA hai| ___- mArga kA jJAna ho, parantu mArga para soce-samajhe binA cale to maMjila para kaise pahuMcegA? For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI jJAna ke anurUpa kriyA honI cAhie / Aja dharmakSetra meM yahI viSamatA phaila gaI hai| jJAna vAle kriyAoM ke prati udAsIna bane haiM, kriyA karane vAle jJAna ke prati lAparavAha bana gaye haiN| donoM pathabhraSTa bane haiN| - www.kobatirth.org eka kriyAjar3a banA hai, dUsarA jJAnamUr3ha banA hai ! donoM apanI-apanI tAna meM abhimAnI bane hue haiM I - 'jJAna - kriyAbhyAM mokSaH' yaha vidhAna donoM bhUle hue haiN| jJAna ke prakAza meM dekhatA hai ki 'yaha heya hai, tyAjya hai...' parantu tyAga kI kriyA nahIM karatA hai / dekhatA hai ki 'yaha upAdeya hai, grahaNa karane yogya hai, ' parantu grahaNa nahIM karatA hai ! 'maiM jAnatA hU~, maiM jJAnI hU~...' yaha abhimAna lie phiratA hai| - jJAna hai ki 'ye sAre vyasana mujhe barabAda kara deMge, phira bhI vyasana chor3ane kA kArya nahIM karatA ! kyA phAyadA usa jJAna se ? Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir - - jAnatA hai ki pAsa vAle ghara meM daridratA hai, bImArI hai... phira bhI usakI daridratA ko dUra karane kA, sahAyatA karane kA kArya nahIM karatA hai, to usa jAnakArI kA kyA artha ? 223 zAstroM kA jJAna hai, parantu kisI jijJAsu evaM pAtra manuSya ko jJAna detA nahIM hai... pramAdI bana kara par3A rahatA hai, to kyA mahattva hai usa zAstra - jJAna kA? - aizvarya kI caMcalatA jAnate hue bhI yadi usakA tyAga nahIM karatA hai to kyA phAyadA usa jAnakArI se? - binA prema kA kArya, kArya nahIM hotA, begAra hotA hai, bojha hotA hai| koI choTA-sA bhI kArya kareM, prema se kareM / - kisI bhikSuka ko kevala eka roTI deM, pAnI kA eka gilAsa deM, prema se deM, sasmita deN| kisI ko kArya meM sahayoga deM to prema se deN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 224 eka cIMTI ko bacAne ke lie paira idhara se udhara rakhanA hai, prema se rakheM aura zera ke pairoM meM se kAMTA nikAlanA hai, to bhI prema se nikaaleN| kisI bImAra ko dina meM eka bAra davAI denA hai, prema se deM aura dasa bAra davAI denA hai, to bhI prema se deN| - prema se kArya karane se donoM ko khuzI prApta hogii| - ghara meM bhI prema se kArya karanA cAhie, bAhara bhI prema se kArya kreN| jaba kArya karanA hI hai to acche DhaMga se kareM, muskAna ke sAtha kArya kareM, utsAha se kArya kreN| - eka bAta nahIM bhUlanA - satkArya aura akArya kA bheda samajhanA | anivArya saMyogoM meM akArya karanA hI par3e to prema se nahIM karanA / taTastha buddhi se karanA athavA pazcAttApa ke sAtha karanA / 0 binA icchA kA jIvana aMdhakAramaya hai| O binA jJAna kI icchA aMdhI hai| o binA kArya kA jJAna nirarthaka hai| 0 binA prema kA kArya kevala bojha hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 225 102. tulanA kareM, para kisase? masjida meM eka amIra puruSa namAja par3hane aayaa| usake pairoM meM hIre-motI jar3e hue jUte the| zekha sAdI ne usa amIra ko dekhA aura usake jUte bhI dekhe| unhoMne usa amIra ko pUchA to mAlUma par3A ki vaha varSa meM eka bAra hI namAja par3hane AtA hai| zekha sAdI mana meM socane lage - 'maiM pratidina kaI bAra namAja par3hatA hU~, phira bhI mere pAsa phaTe hue jUte haiM aura yaha amIra sAla meM eka bAra namAja par3hatA hai, phira bhI usake jUte jdd'aauu...|' ve mana meM duHkhI hote haiN| thor3I dera ke bAda eka apaMga, ki jisake donoM paira kaTe hue the, vaha apane zarIra ko ghasITatA huA masjida meM namAja par3hane AyA / usako bhI zekha sAdI ne dekhA... ve gahare vicAroM meM DUba gaye... unhoMne AkAza kI ora dekhA ora bole - 'khudA! tUne mujhe do acche paira diye haiM, yaha kyA kama kRpA hai?' - tulnaa| - hara bAta meM dUsaroM se tulnaa| -- manuSya kA kyA yaha svabhAva bana gayA hai? jo garIba hai, dhana se aura mana se - ve loga zrImantoM se apanI tulanA karate rahate haiN| 've zrImanta kyoM? hama garIba kyoM?' __ jJAna to hotA nahIM! svayaM apane ko prazna to pUcha lete haiM, javAba sahI AtA nahIM... galata javAba milatA hai aura gumarAha ho jAte haiN| ___ - zrImanta bhI, jo mana se zrImanta nahIM hotA, vaha apane se bar3e zrImanta kI ora dekhatA hai aura tulanA karatA hai / 'usake pAsa jo saMpatti hai, mere pAsa to usakI dasa pratizata bhI nhiiN...|' apane ko hIna bhAvanA se bhara detA hai| - Aja zrImantoM aura zrIsampantA kI ora logoM kA AkarSaNa bar3ha rahA hai| - sabako zrImanta honA hai| - apane se jyAdA garIba kI ora, apane se jyAdA vikala kI ora, apane se kucha kama aklavAloM kI ora, apane se kucha kama jJAnavAloM kI ora yadi dekhA jAye, to mana kA kucha samAdhAna mila sakatA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 226 - unnati kA lakSya honA cAhie, parantu jo unnata hai, unase tulanA nahIM karanI caahie| - jo avanati meM gire haiM unake prati tiraskAra kI bhAvanA nahIM honI cAhie, parantu unake uddhAra kI bhAvanA honI cAhie | ___- apane se jyAdA unnatoM kI ora hIna bhAvanA se nahIM dekhanA hai, prema se dekhanA hai| IrSyA se bacanA hai| 'apane meM bhI dUsaroM se bar3I koI vizeSatA hai' - vaha DhU~DhanA hai| aisI koI kalA, aisI koI bAhya-Antarika zakti, aisI kisI viziSTa kAryadakSatA ko pAkara apanI 'vizeSatA' ko sthApita karanA hai| - candra kI apanI vizeSatA hai zItalatA pradAna karanA, to sUrya kI apanI vizeSatA hai prakAza denA / bAdaloM kI apanI vizeSatA hai pAnI denA, to pAnI kI apanI vizeSatA hai jIvana denaa| ___ - pahAr3a vRkSoM se IrSyA nahIM karate, vRkSa pahAr3oM kA tiraskAra nahIM krte| saba apanI-apanI vizeSatA liye jIte haiN| ___- koyala kI apanI vizeSatA hai, mayUra kI apanI vizeSatA hai| - jo manuSya apane meM koI vizeSatA nahIM pAtA hai, dUsaroM kI vizeSatA dekhakara khuza nahIM ho sakatA hai| vaha IrSyA... nirAzA... niMdA... vagairaha doSoM kA zikAra ho jAtA hai| - jo manuSya apanI vizeSatA ko ubhArane ke lie dUsaroM kI vizeSatAoM kI majAka ur3AtA hai, avahelanA karatA hai, vaha apanI vizeSatA kA avamUlyana karatA hai| - ve donoM sUrya kI kiraNeM thiiN| eka kiraNa par3I kIcar3a meM, dUsarI par3I eka puSpa meN| puSpa kI kiraNa ne dUsarI kiraNa ko kahA : 'jarA dUra rahanA, chUkara mujhe bhI apavitra mata krnaa|' dUsarI kiraNa bolI : 'bahana, hama isa kIcar3a ko sukhAe~ nahIM, sApha na kareM, to isa phUla kI rakSA kaise hogI?' puSpa kI kiraNa lajjita ho gii| - kIcar3a kI kiraNa kI vizeSatA ko puSpa kI kiraNa samajha nahIM pAyI thI, isalie usako lajjita honA pdd'aa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI dUsaroM kI viziSTatA ko asahiSNu logoM ke lie kaise saMbhava hogA ? tulanA bar3e se nahIM kreN| tulanA choTe se kareM / 227 dekhakara apane mana ko svastha rakhanA, asaMtoSI 'usake pAsa itanA vaibhava, mere pAsa nahIM... - 'usake pAsa aisA acchA parivAra, mere pAsa nahIM... ' - 'usakI itanI bar3I ijjata, merI nahIM .... aise vicAra manuSya ke mana ko rogI banAte haiM, athavA rogI mana meM hI aise vicAra Ate haiN| Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir // For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 228 103. koI tumheM dekha rahA hai! ve pitA-putra the| pitA corI karatA thA, putra ko sAtha meM rakhatA thaa| eka dina donoM eka kheta meM corI karane gye| pitA ne putra se kahA : 'beTA, tU yahA~ kheta ke bAhara baiThanA, koI AtA huA dikhAI de to mujhe sAvadhAna kara denA / maiM phasala kATa kara ikaTThI karatA huuN|' pitA phasala kATa kara ikaTThI karane lgaa| udhara lar3ake ne AsamAna meM dekhA / usako lagA ki koI divya AkRti usako dekha rahI hai| usako eka saMta puruSa kA upadeza yAda A gayA : 'bhagavAna hamezA hameM dekhatA rahatA hai...|' lar3akA cillAyA : 'pitAjI, hameM bhAganA cAhie... dekhanevAloM ne dekha liyA hai!' pitA ghbraayaa| kATI huI phasala chor3akara putra ke sAtha bhAgane lgaa| ghara para jAkara pitA ne putra se pUchA : 'beTA, kauna thA vaha dekhanevAlA?' putra ne kahA : 'bhagavAna / ' pitA putra ke nirdoSa cehare ko dekhatA rhaa| usane corI karane kA pApa chor3a diyaa| - Upara... sabase Upara... 'siddhazilA' hai| vaha lokAnta hai| - vahA~ anaMta-anaMta zuddha-buddha-siddha AtmAe~ rahatI haiN| - jo jIvAtmA sabhI karmabaMdhanoM se mukta hotI hai vaha vahA~ calI jAtI hai| anaMta kAla vahIM para sthira rahatI hai| - ve siddha bhagavaMta, samagra jar3a-cetana vizva ko niraMtara dekhate haiM aura jAnate haiN| - una siddha bhagavaMtoM ko hama pUjanIya mAnate haiM, zraddheya mAnate haiN| kyA hameM smRti hai ki - hamArI hara kriyA ko ve dekhate haiN| - hamAre hara vicAra ko ve jAnate haiN| - hamArI koI bhI kriyA, hamArA koI bhI vicAra unase chipA huA nahIM raha sakatA hai| ___- vaise, jo bhI kevalajJAnI hote haiM, pUrNapuruSa hote haiM, ve hamAre sabhI kAryoM ko aura vicAroM ko dekhate haiM, jAnate haiN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra - yahI hai jiMdagI 229 manuSya kI eka vRtti hai ki jo kArya galata hotA hai, samAja meM, rASTra meM aura dharmakSetra meM niSiddha hotA hai - vaha kArya yadi usako karanA hotA hai to vaha chipakara karatA hai! choTA baccA mA~ se chipa kara galata kArya karatA hai / pati patnI se chipa kara karatA hai, patnI pati se chipa kara karatI hai, naukara seTha se chipa kara karatA hai ! galata kAma karane vAlA yaha cAhatA hai ki mujhe koI dekhe nahIM, merA galata kAma koI jAne nahIM / - www.kobatirth.org galata kAma karane vAlA samajhatA hai ki 'merA galata kAma kisI ne dekha liyA yA jAna liyA to merI badanAmI hogI, logoM kI nigAhoM meM maiM gira jaauuNgaa|' isalie vaha galata kAma, pApakArya chipa kara karatA hai / - paraMtu yaha bhI sajjanoM kA vicAra hai / Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir - durjanoM ko badanAmI kA bhaya nahIM hotA hai| - sajjanoM kI sajjanatA unako pApabhIru banAtI hai, lajjAzIla banAtI hai, isalie ve pApa karate haiM to chipa kara karate haiN| - aise sajjanoM ko samajhanA cAhie ki pUrNa AtmAoM se kucha bhI chipA huA nahIM hai| guphA meM jAkara pApa kareMge to bhI ve dekhate haiM aura sAgara ke tale jAkara pApa kareMge to bhI ve jAnate haiM / isalie chipakara bhI pApa karane kA nahIM soceM / * prakaTa to nahIM, chipa kara bhI manuSya pApa nahIM karatA hai, taba vaha 'mahAna' banatA hai| - aisA jIvananirmANa karanA hai ki kisI se kucha chipAnA na ho, kisI se kucha bhI gupta na rakhanA ho / jAnatA hU~ : vyavahAroM meM ulajhe hue jIvana meM yaha bAta saMbhava nahI hai .... AzAe~... tRSNAe~... AkAMkSAe~... koI na koI pragaTa yA pracchanna pApa karavAtI hI rahatI hai...| he siddha bhagavaMta! jaise Apa hameM bAhara se aura bhItara se jAnate haiM... dekhate haiM... vaise Apa anaMta zakti ke nidhAna haiM / Apa hama para kRpA kareM ki hamAre jIvana meM Apako koI pApa na dikhAI de / hamArA jIvana hI aisA ho jAe / For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 230 104. virakti viziSTa zakti hai / dhUpa svarNadhUli sI phailI huI hai| havA meM sarasarAhaTa hai, jaise sone ke kaNa idhara-udhara ur3a rahe haiN| merA mana... aMtarmana tattvaciMtana kI gaharAI meM pahu~cA hai... aura tattvoM ke motI khoja rahA hai| mana meM prazna uThA : kyA virakti azakti hai, manuSya kI? - vaibhava-saMpatti calI gaI aura saMsAra ke prati virakti A gii| - priyajana kI mauta ho gaI aura hRdaya virakta ho gyaa| - zarIra meM aneka roga paidA ho gaye aura duniyA ke prati virakti A gii| - kisI mitra ne vizvAsaghAta kara diyA aura mana virakta ho gayA... - virakti ne saMsAra kA, gRhavAsa kA tyAga karavA diyaa| kyA isako azakti kahA jA sakatA hai? ___ - vaibhava-saMpatti ko punaH prApta karane kA prayatna karanA, rogI zarIra ko nirogI banAne kA prayatna karanA, dUsare priyajanoM kI khoja karanA aura dUsare vizvasanIya mitra kI khoja karanA... kyA zakti evaM sAmarthya kI pahacAna hai? ___ - merI kalpanA ke Aloka meM laMkA kA rAjA vaizravaNa ubhara aayaa| rAvaNa ke sAmane yuddha kiyA, hAra gayA aura samUce saMsAra kA tyAga kara zramaNa bana gyaa| kyA yaha usakI azakti thI? nahIM, yaha usakA advitIya parAkrama thaa| parAjaya ne usakI jJAnadRSTi khola dI thI - 'yaha jIvana bAharI duzmanoM se lar3ane ke lie nahIM hai, yaha jIvana to bhItara ke kAma-krodha vagairaha duzmanoM se lar3ane ke lie hai|' bhItara ke duzmanoM se lar3ane ke lie zramaNa kA jIvana hI jInA par3atA hai, jaise bAhara ke duzmanoM ke sAtha lar3ane ke lie sainika kA jIvana jInA par3atA hai| __- kalpanA ke Aloka meM zrI rAmacandrajI upasthita hue| lakSmaNa kI mauta se ve atyanta udvigna bane the| udvega se virakti paidA huI thI aura virakti ne unako saMsAratyAga karavA diyA thaa| ve mahAmuni rAma bana gaye the| lakSmaNa kI mRtyu ne unakI jJAnadRSTi khola dI thI - 'saMyoga zAzvata nahIM hai| priyajanoM kA saMyoga eka dina viyoga meM badala jAtA hai| saMyoga aura viyoga ke dvandva rAgadveSa ke prabala nimitta haiN| aba ina dvandvoM se mukta honA hai, nirdvandva bananA hai|' nirdvandva banane kA puruSArtha virakta munijIvana meM hI ho sakatA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 231 - kalpanA ke Aloka meM cakravartI sanatkumAra sAmane Ae / unako adbhuta sundara zarIra milA thA / devaloka ke deva unakA saundarya dekhane Ae the! aura usI dina unake zarIra meM solaha roga utpanna ho gaye the| unakA mana virakta ho gayA aura ve zramaNa bana gye| kyA yaha unakI azakti thI ? nahIM, rogoM ke hamale ne unakI jJAnadRSTi khola dI thI - ' mAnavazarIra aisA hI hai| usakA saundarya zAzvata nahIM hai, zAzvata saundarya to AtmA kA hotA hai| AtmA kA saundarya pAne ke lie zarIra kI Asakti tor3anI hogI / virakti hI Asakti ko tor3a sakatI hai|' kyA cakravartI kI virakti azakti thI? nahIM, virakti ne mamatva ke bhItarI baMdhanoM ko tor3ane kA pracaMDa puruSArtha krvaayaa| - www.kobatirth.org kalpanA ke Aloka meM rAjA bhartRhari ubhara AyA / rAjA kI priya rAnI ne vizvAsaghAta kara diyA / parapuruSa ke sAtha usane zArIrika saMbaMdha bA~dha liyA thA / bhartRhari ne jaba isa durghaTanA ko jAnA, usakA mana saMsAra se virakta ho gyaa| usane rAjamahala kA tyAga kara diyA, vaha saMnyAsI bana gyaa| rAnI ke vizvAsaghAta ne rAjA kI jJAnadRSTi khola dI thI - 'rAnI kA kyA doSa ? usake bhItarI zatru kAmavAsanA ne usako parapuruSagAmI bnaayii| sabhI pApoM kA mUla ye bhItara ke zatru hI haiN| mujhe tatkAla apane bhItara ke zatruoM ko parAsta karane hoNge| anyathA ve mere pAsa bhI anartha karavA sakate haiM / bhItara ke zatruoM ko parAsta karane ke lie saMnyAsI kA jIvana hI upayukta hai|' kyA bhartRhari kI yaha azakti thI? nahIM, virakti svayaM mahAzakti hai jo ki bhItara ke zatruoM kA nAza karatI hai| - - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir mamatva meM DUbe hue manuSyoM ko virakti azakti lagatI hai| bhautika sukhoM kI Asakti meM baMdhe hue manuSyoM ko virakti azakti lagatI hai| vaiSayika sukhoM kI tIvra cAha vAle manuSyoM ko virakti azakti lagatI hai / virakti azakti nahIM hai| virakti AtmA kI mahAzakti hai / virakti anaMta anaMta karmoM kA nAza karatI hai| virakti AtmA kI anaMta zakti ko jAgrata karatI hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI www.kobatirth.org 105. tuma khuda mahAna ho - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir eka zramika thA / pahAr3I para patthara tor3a rahA thA / patthara tor3ate-tor3ate vaha thaka gayA / eka vRkSa ke tale jAkara vizrAma karatA hai aura socatA hai : mehanata kama karanI par3e aura lAbha jyAdA ho ... vaisA koI upAya mila jAye to acchaa| vaha pahAr3I ke zikhara para pahu~cA / vahA~ eka devakulikA thI / zramika ne socA : yaha deva mahAna hai, maiM isakI pUjA karU~gA, prArthanA karU~gA to mujhe jyAdA dhana milegaa| vaha vahA~ raha gayA aura pUjAprArthanA karane lgaa| kucha dina bIte / zramika ko koI lAbha nahIM huA / usane socA : isa deva se kisI bar3e deva kI pUjA karU~ / usane AkAza meM sUrya ko dekhA / vaha sUrya kI upAsanA karane lagA / 232 eka dina usane dekhA, bAdaloM ne sUrya ko Dhaka diyA thA! zramika ne socA : sUrya se bAdala mahAna haiM, isalie maiM bAdaloM kI pUjA kruuN| vaha bAdaloM kI pUjA karane lgaa| eka dina usane dekhA ki bAdala to pahAr3a se TakarA kara gira jAte haiM! usane bAdaloM se pahAr3a ko mahAna mAnA aura vaha bAdaloM ko chor3akara pahAr3a kI pUjA karane lagA / dUsare hI dina usako vicAra AyA : pahAr3a ko to mere jaise zramika rojAnA kATate haiM! to kyA pahAr3a se bhI mere jaise zramika mahAna nahIM haiM ? mujhe svayaM hI mahAna hone kA puruSArtha karanA cAhie / zramika puruSArthazIla banA aura samRddhi kI ora agrasara huA / ajJAna ke aMdhakAra meM bhaTakatA huA manuSya, dUsaroM ke sahAre cAhatA hai ki koI eka nayA cA~da kA Tukar3A Akara nayI cAMdanI phailAye ! koI deva-puruSa Akara navIna jIvana aura navIna ullAsa - umaMga pradAna kare! kucha samaya kA iMtajAra karane para jaba aisA kucha nahIM banatA hai taba vaha kSubdha aura Ahata ho jAtA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only manuSya apanI akarmaNyatA ko durbalatA nahIM mAnatA hai aura 'maiM besahArA hU~... maiM anAtha hU~...' aisA cillAte hue apane Apako jyAdA durbala banAtA jAtA hai|

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 233 kevala bhAgya ke sahAre, prArabdha ke sahAre jInevAle, svayaM apane sadbhAgya ke dvAra baMda karate haiN| naye sadbhAgya kA nirmANa karane kA prApta suavasara kho dete haiM / - www.kobatirth.org jJAnI-udbuddha puruSoM ne manuSya - jIvana ke gIta race haiN| unhoMne manuSyajIvana ko puruSArtha kA kSetra mAnA / isI jIvana meM pAmara puruSottama bane ! - isI jIvana meM kSudra bhI zreSTha bane! - isI jIvana meM saMsArI mukta bane ! unhoMne sahI dizA meM pracaMDa puruSArtha kiyaa| akhaMDa puruSArtha kiyaa| * nizcita dizA meM puruSArtha karanevAloM ko o vighnoM ko kucalanA hogA / 0 saMkaToM meM dhIra rahanA hogA Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir O AphatoM kA dRr3hatA se mukAbalA karanA hogA / * duHkhoM ko ha~sate-ha~sate sahanA hogA / * AzA, utsAha aura umaMga ko jIvita rakhanA hogA / - kabhI lenA par3e dUsaroM kA sahArA to lenA, parantu kucha samaya ke liye hI / kisI ke sahAre jIne kI Adata burI hai / - dUsaroM kA sahArA khojane ke bajAya, dUsaroM kA sahArA banane kA soceN| dUsaroM kA sahArA banane meM bhI eka sAvadhAnI rakhanI cAhie : sahArA lenevAlA vyakti parAzrita na bana jAye, puruSArthahIna na bana jAye / sahArA lene meM 'dInatA' se sAvadhAna rahanA par3atA hai| sahArA dene meM 'abhimAna' se sAvadhAna rahanA par3atA hai ! Atmabala, AtmazraddhA, AtmajAgRti hI puruSArtha meM preraNA banatI hai| puruSArtha karane para bhI nizcita kAlAvadhi meM saphalatA prApta nahIM hotI hai, taba saMbhava hai ki nirAzA se mana bhara jAye / usa samaya hameM aisA preraNAsrota mila jAye ki jo hamArI nirAzA ko miTA kara mRta utsAha ko jIvita kare.... to usako 'bhAgya' mAnanA / usa bhAgya kA sahArA lekara punaH puruSArtha ke mArga para cala denaa| - For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 234 paramAtmA to sadA-sarvatra hamAre preraNAsrota haiM hii| preraNAsrota ke rUpa meM hI unakA avalaMbana grahaNa karanA hai| puruSArtha to hameM svayaM hI karanA hai| puruSArthazIla manuSya duHkhoM se nahIM DaratA hai, sukhaprApti ke lie Atura nahIM hotA hai| puruSArtha kI ArAdhanA karane ke lie hI yaha manuSya-jIvana hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 235 6. bolI se pahacAni eka rAjA thaa| vanavihAra karane jaMgala meM gyaa| sAtha meM senApati thA aura sainika bhI the| rAjA ko pyAsa lgii| pAnI nahIM thaa| rAjA ne cAroM ora dekhA, dUra eka jhoMpar3I dikhAI dii| rAjA ne vahA~ sainika ko bhejaa| jhoMpar3I meM eka aMdha puruSa baiThA thaa| usake pAsa pAnI se bharA ghar3A par3A thaa| sainika ne kahA : 'o aMdhe, eka loTA bhara ke pAnI de de|' ___ andha puruSa akar3a gyaa| usane kahA : 'calA jA yahA~ se, tere jaise sainika se maiM DaratA nahIM huuN| pAnI nahIM milegaa|' jaba pAnI liye binA sainika vApasa AyA taba senApati gyaa| usane kahA : 'o andhe, tU pAnI degA to tujhe paise mileNge|' andha puruSa ne kahA : 'tU usa sainika kA saradAra lagatA hai| lAlaca batAkara dabAtA hai! calA jA yahA~ se, pAnI nahIM milegaa|' aba rAjA svayaM usa jhopar3I meM gayA / rAjA ne andha puruSa ko praNAma kiyA aura bolA : 'pyAsa se merA galA sUkha rahA hai| eka loTA pAnI doge to mahatI kRpA hogI bAbA!' andha puruSa ne rAjA ko apane pAsa biThAyA aura bolA : 'Apa jaise zreSTha puruSoM kA maiM rAjA jaisA Adara karatA huuN| pAnI to kyA, merA zarIra bhI ApakI sevA meM hAjira hai|' rAjA ne pUchA : 'Apa dekha nahIM sakate, phira bhI Apane sainika ko, senApati ko aura mujhe kaise pahacAna liyA?' andha puruSa ne kahA : 'rAjan, vANIvyavahAra se hara vyakti kA vAstavika vyaktitva jJAta hotA hai|' - kyA vANI-svAtaMtrya ne RSi-muniyoM ke upadeza ko bhulA diyA hai? - RSi-muniyoM ne aura manISiyoM ne priya aura hitakArI vANI kA upadeza diyA hai| unhoMne kahA hai : priya bolo aura sva-para ke lie hitakArI bAta bolo| - apriya bolanevAle apane Apako 'spaSTa vaktA' mAnakara gaurava rakhate haiN| - apriya bolakara priya banane kI icchA rakhate haiM! mArate haiM patthara aura cAhate haiM prazaMsA! For Private And Personal Use Only

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236 yahI hai jiMdagI __ - kaTu-kaThora zabdoM kA vyavahAra vyApaka banatA jA rahA hai| - gharoM meM kaTu zabdoM kA prayoga ho rahA hai| dharmasthAnoM meM kaTu zabdoM kA prayoga ho rahA hai| samAja meM aura zaharoM meM kaTu zabdoM kA prayoga ho rahA hai| pariNAma? __- kleza, dveSa, vaira, saMgharSa, jhagar3e... aura hatyAe~! - kyoMki kaTu zabda prema se suna lene kI zakti kaTu zabda bolanevAloM meM nahIM rahI hai| - apane prati sneha, prema aura Adara rakhanevAloM ke sAtha bhI kaTu zabdoM kA upayoga karane meM kauna-sI buddhimattA hai, yaha maiM nahIM samajha pAyA huuN| - 'bolane meM bhI kyA buddhimattA cAhie?' eka prazna aayaa| 'buddhimattA, jIvana ke kauna-se vyavahAra meM nahIM cAhie?' maiMne pUchA / yadi Apa ghara meM zAMti se jInA cAhate ho to ghara meM priya bolo| yadi Apa samAja meM zAMti cAhate ho to samAja meM priya bolo| yadi Apa apane sabhI saMbaMdhoM ko acche banAye rakhanA cAhate ho, to sabhI saMbaMdhiyoM ke sAtha priya bolo| - Apake sAtha apriya bolanevAloM ke sAtha bhI Apa priya bolo| isake liye apriya zabdoM ko zAMti se sunane kI kalA prApta karanI hogii| -- maiMne dekhe haiM kucha aise parivAra | eka-eka vyakti priya bolatA hai... alpa bolatA hai| mAtA, pitA, putra, putrI aura naukara bhI! kyoMki priya bolane kI unakI kula-paraMparA hai| - kyA manuSya aisI acchI paraMparA sthApita nahIM kara sakatA? - mAtA-pitA Apasa meM priya zabdoM se vArtAlApa nahIM kara sakate? apanI saMtAnoM ko acchA Adarza nahIM de sakate? prAraMbha to janma denevAloM ko hI karanA pdd'egaa| __ - dharmasthAnoM meM to apriya, kaTu aura kaThora zabda bolane kA sakhta pratibaMdha honA caahie| paraMtu pratibaMdha karegA kauna? anuzAsana ke nAma para apriya aura ahitakArI vANI kA svAtaMtrya milA huA hai| __- vyakti ko yadi apane vyaktitva ko udAtta, unnata aura tejomaya banAnA hai, to apanI vANI priya aura hitakArI banAnI hI pdd'egii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 237 107. sabase bar3I samasyA - 'maiM! vizvaprasiddha manovaijJAnika 'kArla juMga' bImAra huaa| gaMbhIra bImArI thii| juMga kI patnI ko lagA ki 'juMga bacegA nhiiN|' vaha mahilA bhI viduSI thii| usane juMga ko pUchA : 'Apa bar3e vaijJAnika haiN| itane sAre varSa Apane mAnava-mana ke abhyAsa meM bItA diye haiN| kyA Aja bhI Apako aisI koI bAta lagatI hai ki jo Apake liye rahasyamaya rahI ho?' juMga ne maMda svara meM kahA : 'hA~, manuSya jisako 'maiM' kahatA hai, vaha 'maiM' mere liye Aja bhI samasyArUpa hai| hama 'maiM' ke viSaya meM kucha bhI nahIM jAnate haiN| jo kucha jAnate haiM vaha kevala AdhArahIna dhAraNAe~ haiN| ___ - bhArata meM tattvaciMtana kA prArambha 'ko'haM' - 'maiM kauna hU~?' kI jijJAsA se hotA hai| ___- videzoM meM tattvaciMtana kA prArambha 'sRSTi kahA~ se utpanna huI?' kI jijJAsA se huA hai| - hamAre deza meM svalakSI ciMtana huA, videzoM meM paralakSI ciMtana huaa| kyoMki hamAre deza meM asaMkhya varSoM se 'AtmA' ciMtana-manana kA viSaya rahI hai| ___ - videzoM meM sRSTiviSayaka ciMtana huA, zarIraviSayaka ciMtana huA, manaviSayaka ciMtana huA... parantu 'AtmA' viSayaka ciMtana nahIM huaa| yadi huA ciMtana, to bahuta kama huaa| isalie 'maiM' jo ki AtmA hai, vaha samasyArUpa rhaa| - AtmA hai| - prati zarIra meM bhinna-bhinna AtmA hai| - zarIra badalate jAte haiM, naSTa hote haiM, AtmA naSTa nahIM hotI, AtmA to zAzvata hai, avinAzI hai| - A~khoM se pratyakSa zarIra dikhatA hai, svajana dikhate haiM, parijana dikhate haiM, vaibhava-saMpatti dikhatI hai... AtmA nahIM dikhtii| isalie manuSya pratyakSa dikhanevAle padArthoM meM ulajha gyaa| pratyakSa dikhanevAle padArthoM ke vicAra karatA hai, ciMtA karatA hai, ciMtana karatA hai| - jo mana hai vaha AtmA nahIM hai| AtmA mana se bhinna hai| - mana ko, parokSa AtmA ke sAtha jor3ane se 'maiM kauna hU~' - yaha samasyA sulajha jAtI hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 238 pratidina 'ko'haM?' - 'maiM kauna hU~?' kA ciMtana karane kI jJAnI puruSoM ne preraNA dI hai| jisase 'AtmA' smRti meM banI rhe| - maiM zarIra nahIM hU~, maiM indriya nahIM hU~, - maiM mana bhI nahIM hU~, maiM AtmA hU~! nayI jijJAsA paidA hotI hai : 'maiM AtmA hU~, kaisI hU~?' - isa jijJAsA ko bhI pUrNajJAnI mahApuruSoM ne tRpta kiyA hai| maiM jJAnamaya hU~, maiM darzanamaya hU~, maiM cAritramaya huuN|' - 'abhI maiM karmoM se malIna huuN| karmajanya rAga-dveSa ke bhAvoM se malIna huuN|' - mujhe apanI malInatA dUra karanI cAhie / - maiM jaise zarIra kI malInatA dUra karatA hU~, vastroM kI malInatA dUra karatA hU~, makAna kI malInatA dUra karatA hU~... vaise mujhe apanI malInatA bhI dUra karanI caahie| - yaha manuSya-jIvana merI malInatA dUra karane ke lie milA hai| AtmA ko pUrNarUpeNa vizuddha, manuSyajIvana meM hI kiyA jA sakatA hai| ___- jo maiM nahIM hU~, jo apanA nahIM hai, usakI malInatA dUra karane meM jIvana kA zreSTha samaya mujhe barabAda nahIM karanA caahie| mujhe svayaM zuddha hone kA puruSArtha karanA hai| - Atmazuddhi kA puruSArtha hI dharmapuruSArtha hai| - jo AtmA ko zuddha kare, vahI dharma / - vaha dharma hai samyagdarzana, samyagjJAna aura smykcaaritr| - jyoM-jyoM AtmA zuddha hotI jAyegI tyoM-tyoM - 0 vicAra pavitra, prazAMta aura parArthamaya bneNge| 0 vANI hitakArI, priya aura satya bnegii| 0 indriyA~ zAnta, sanmArgagAmI aura saMyamita bnegii| O AtmajJAna meM, zAstrajJAna meM nimagnatA aaegii| 0 paramAtmasvarUpa se nikaTatA prApta hogii| he paramAtman, maiM (AtmA) kaba aisI vizuddhi prApta karU~gA? isa jIvana meM basa, itanA upakAra kara do... maiM vizuddha bana jAU~! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 239 va 108. ahaMkAra aprastuta hai : - nadI meM pAnI kI bAr3ha thii| nadI para pula thA, parantu purAnA thaa| eka gilaharI pula ke pAsa khar3I thii| usako nadI pAra karanI thI, parantu purAne jIrNa pula para se gujarane meM vaha ghabarA rahI thii| itane meM vahA~ eka hAthI AyA / gilaharI ne hAthI ko pUchA : 'bar3e bhaiyA, Apa kahA~ jA rahe ho?' hAthI ne kahA : 'nadI ke usa pAra / ' 'kyA Apake sAtha mujhe bhI le caloge?' gilaharI gidd'gidd'aayii| 'cala, baiTha jA mere Upara |' gilaharI hAthI para baiTha gyii| hAthI ke vajana se lohe kA vaha jIrNa pula kA~pane lgaa| hAthI dhIre-dhIre calatA hai, phira bhI pula hilatA hai| hAthI sAmane kinAre pahu~ca gyaa| gilaharI nIce utara kara nAcane lgii| hAthI ne pUchA : 'kyoM nAcatI hai?' 'Aja hamane gajaba kA kAma kiyA!' 'kyA?' 'hama donoM ne milakara isa bUr3he pula ko hilA diyA...!' - gilaharI kI yaha bhASA thI ahaMkAra kI, mithyA ahaMkAra kii| - ahaMkAra do prakAra ke hote haiN| - hAthI ahaMkAra karatA, to vaha sahI ahaMkAra kahalAtA! - gilaharI kA ahaMkAra mithyA ahaMkAra thaa| hAlA~ki, ahaMkAra kevala mithyA hai, phira bhI eka manuSya sahI rUpa meM eka mahAna kArya karatA hai aura 'ahaMkAra' karatA hai : 'maiMne yaha kArya kiyA hai, maiM hI aisA kArya kara sakatA hU~, dUsarA koI yaha kArya nahIM kara sktaa|' - ThIka hai, muzkila kArya kiyA hai aura garva dhAraNa karatA hai| duniyA suna letI hai aura dhanyavAda bhI detI hai| - parantu mahAna kArya karanevAloM ke sAtha rahanevAle, sAtha calanevAle (kArya kucha nahIM karate!) jaba garva karate haiM taba ve prazaMsApAtra nahIM banate, zraddheya nahIM bnte| - bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ke sAdhanAkAla meM, svayaM ziSya banA huA For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra - www.kobatirth.org yahI hai jiMdagI 240 gozAlaka, bhagavAna ke sAtha-sAtha calatA thA aura bhagavAna ke divya prabhAvoM ko apane prabhAva batAtA thA / duniyA ne usakI ha~sI kI thii| logoM ne usakI piTAI bhI kI thii| bAra- bAra bhagavAna ne usako bacAyA thA / pitA ke mahAna kAryoM para, niSkriya aura pramAdI putra garva karatA hai / kahatA phiratA hai : 'hamane ye ye bar3e kArya kiye haiM!' jabaki usane bar3A satkArya karanA to dUra, choTA satkArya bhI nahIM kiyA hotA hai ! - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir - jo kArya manuSya ne nahIM kiyA hai, vaha kArya apanA batAnA bahuta bar3A doSa hai| dUsaroM ke kAryoM ko, zubha kAryoM ko apane kArya batAkara prazaMsA pAne kA prayatna kitanA bacakAnA prayatna hai ! dUsaroM ke bar3e kAryoM meM apanA sAtha - sahayoga ATe meM namaka jitanA na hone para bhI, yaha batAne kA prayatna karanA ki 'isa kArya meM merA bharapUra sahayoga rahA hai... athavA merI vajaha se hI yaha kArya saMpanna ho sakA hai,' mithyA AtmasaMtoSa pAne kI kitanI adhama manovRtti hai ? eka munirAja mere pAsa baiThe the| eka bhadra puruSa ne Akara unakA abhivAdana kiyA aura vaha bolA : 'Apane bahuta bar3I tapazcaryA kI ! eka mahIne ke upavAsa kiye Apane... dhanya hai Apako!' una munirAja ne mere sAmane dekhA... aura ve muskuraaye| maiMne pUchA : 'Apane kaba mahIne ke upavAsa kiye ?' vaha prazaMsA karanevAlA puruSa calA gayA thA / munirAja ne kahA : 'maiMne to mahIne ke upavAsa to kyA, cAra dina ke upavAsa bhI kabhI nahIM kiye!' maiMne kahA : 'to phira Apane usa bhAI ko aisA kyoM nahIM kahA ki 'mahIne ke upavAsa maiMne nahIM kiye haiN|' Apane to maje se suna liyA... prazaMsA suna lI ! ' unhoMne to koI javAba nahIM diyA, paraMtu maiMne apane bhItara ko TaTolA | kyA mere mana meM to aisI mithyA prazaMsA sunane kI vRtti nahIM par3I hai na? jhUThA yaza pAne kI malIna vRtti nahIM par3I hai na? kabhI mujhase koI mithyA ahaMkAra to nahIM ho jAtA hai na? - - usa gilaharI kA kissA par3hakara... apane bhItara meM maiMne gaharAI meM jAkara ttttolaa...| aise kucha vicAra - bIja par3e the bhItara meM! dekhakara cakita raha gayA / * khoda-khoda kara una vicAra - bIjoM ko bAhara nikAle aura jamIna meM gAr3a diye... jJAnAgni meM jalAkara ! tAki ve bIja vApasa kabhI uge hI nahIM / For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 241 109. bhedabharI duniyA meM kheda / eka gA~va thaa| vahA~ rahate the paramAtmabhakta raaNkaajii| unakI patnI kA nAma thA baaNkaajii| donoM jaMgala meM lakar3I kATane ke liye jAyA karate the| eka dina kI bAta hai| Age rAMkAjI cala rahe the, pIche bAMkAjI cala rahI thii| bAMkAjI thor3I dUra cala rahI thii| rAMkAjI ko Thokara lgii| unhoMne dekhA to vahA~ sone ke sikke se bharI thailI par3I huI thii| rAMkAjI jamIna para baiTha gaye aura usa thailI para dhUla DAlane lage| bAMkAjI ne yaha dekhA, usane pUchA : 'kyA karate ho Apa?' 'sone se bharI huI thailI yahA~ par3I hai| sonA dekhakara terA mana vicalita na ho, isalie dhUla se use Dhaka rahA thA...' bAMkAjI ne kahA : 'mere svAmI, dhUla para dhUla Dhakane se kyA lAbha? sone aura dhUla meM koI bheda hai kyA? sone aura dhUla ke nirarthaka bhrama meM Apa nahIM rheN|' patnI kA nirlepabhAva dekhakara rAMkAjI stabdha sA ho gyaa| - saMsAra meM sarvatra bheda dekha rahA huuN| - yaha patthara hai, yaha hIrA hai| - yaha miTTI hai, yaha sonA hai| - yaha jhoMpar3I hai, yaha baMgalA hai| - yaha acchA kapar3A hai, yaha gaMdA kapar3A hai| - yaha sundara baccA hai, yaha kurUpa baccA hai| - yaha lAvaNyamayI strI hai, yaha kurUpa strI hai| - yaha sundara zahara hai, yaha gandA zahara hai| - yaha sundara vRkSa hai, yaha ujar3A huA vRkSa hai| - yaha svAdiSTa bhojana hai, yaha besvAda bhojana hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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242 yahI hai jiMdagI - yaha acchA bichaunA hai, yaha bichaunA gandA hai| - ye baratana mUlyavAna haiM, ye baratana ghaTiyA kisma ke haiN| - yaha merA acchA dosta hai, yaha acchA dosta nahIM...! bheda... bheda... aura bheda! acche-bure kA bheda karatA rahatA hU~ aura rAga-dveSa ko bar3hAtA rahatA huuN| phira bhI mAnatA hU~ 'maiM jJAnI hU~... maiM tapasvI hU~...!' - durbhAgya merA yaha hai ki jahA~ mujhe bheda karanA cAhie, vahA~ maiM abheda mAnakara calatA huuN| - zarIra aura AtmA meM maiM bheda nahIM krtaa| - zubha vicAra aura azubha vicAra meM maiM bheda nahIM krtaa| - heya aura upAdeya kA bheda yAda nahIM rhtaa| - tIrthaMkaroM ne kahA hai ki ina bAtoM meM bheda kro| phira bhI maiM nahIM karatA aura mAnatA hU~ apane Apako tIrthaMkara kA parama upAsaka! kabhI-kabhI ekAnta kSaNoM meM merA mana ghora vyathA kA anubhava karatA hai| mere daMbha para mana hI mana tiraskAra chUTatA hai| - mujhe zarIra aura AtmA meM bhedajJAna karanA hai| - mujhe svajana aura AtmA meM bhedajJAna karanA hai| - mujhe parijana aura AtmA meM bhedajJAna karanA hai| - mujhe vaibhava-saMpatti aura AtmA meM bhedajJAna karanA hai| - AtmA ko hI zreSTha aura uttama samajhanA hai| - zarIra, svajana, parijana, vaibhava-saMpatti kI ora mamatvahIna bananA hai| anAsakta bananA hai| - aura he bhagavaMta! mujhe to aisI avasthA prApta karanI hai ki miTTI aura sonA donoM meM koI bheda nahIM dikhAI de| saMsAra aura mokSa meM mujhe koI bheda nahIM dikhAI de| ___ - kyA mere liye saMbhava hai yaha avasthA? - maiM kaI bAra socatA hU~... nirAzA hI hAtha lagatI hai| apanA mana mujhe kamajora, azakta aura caMcala lagatA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 243 ___- kacce sUta ke dhAge ke sahAre maiM AkAza ko chUne kI icchA karatA rahatA - mujhe zarIra dikhatA hai, zarIra se prema hai| - mujhe AtmA nahIM dikhatI, AtmA se prema bhI nahIM hai| - jIvana bIta rahA hai... pratikSaNa jIvana kaTa rahA hai...| jahA~ bheda dekhanA hai, vahA~ abheda dekha rahA huuN| jahA~ abheda dekhanA hai, vahA~ bheda dekha rahA huuN| ___- jIvana kA yaha bar3A visaMvAda hai... patA nahIM, kaba saMvAditA sthApita hogI mere jIvana meM...! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI X 110. dhAraNA para dhIraja ke sAtha anumAna... manuSya ko anumAna karane kI Adata hai| vaha karatA rahatA hai anumAna...! cAhe usake sau anumAnoM meM se dasa anumAna bhI sahI nahIM nikalate haiM... phira bhI anumAna karatA rahatA hai ! - anumAna sahI nikalatA hai, to khuza hotA hai, garva karatA hai| anumAna galata siddha hotA hai to nAkhuza hotA hai, dIna banatA hai / - - merA yaha paricita hai, mere prati zraddhA aura sneha rakhatA hai, usane eka dina mujhase kahA : 'merA anumAna hai ki maiM AnevAle cAturmAsa meM ATha dina ke upavAsa kara skuuNgaa|' paraMtu cAturmAsa ke bAda jaba vaha milA, mujhe mAlUma huA ki usakA anumAna galata nikalA thA / 244 paraMtu jaba anumAna ke viSaya meM gaharAI meM jAkara socatA hU~, to lagatA hai ki hara manuSya ke jIvana meM anumAna jur3A huA hai| hara vyakti anumAna karatA hai| - jindagI hai to anumAna hai ! - jIvana ke viSaya meM to manuSya anumAna karatA hI hai, mRtyu ke viSaya meM bhI anumAna karatA hai ! - 'mujhe lagatA hai ki merI ... isa varSa meM mauta hogI / ' mujhe lagatA hai ki... itane varSa ke bAda maiM karor3apati banU~gA / ' 'merA anumAna hai ki zAdI hone ke bAda lar3akA sudhara jaayegaa|' 'merI aisI dhAraNA hai ki lar3akA bar3A DaoNkTara hogA aura lAkhoM rupaye kmaayegaa| hamArI (mAtA - pitA kI) sevA karegA / ' 'merA anumAna hai ki isa DaoNkTara kI davAI se merA darda dUra hogA...' - aise aneka anumAna manuSya karatA rahatA hai, paraMtu kitane anumAna sahI nikalate haiM ? 'merA yaha mitra to mujhe kabhI dhokhA nahIM degA / ' aura mitra ne dhokhA diyA... vaha ghora nirAzA meM DUba gayA / For Private And Personal Use Only

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245 yahI hai jiMdagI ___ - 'merA pati kabhI bhI merA tyAga nahIM kregaa|' aura pati ne dUsarI strI se zAdI kara lii...| usa aurata ne AtmahatyA kara lii| ___ - jJAnI puruSoM kA kahanA hai ki anumAna galata siddha hone para nirAza nahIM honA, dIna nahIM honA...rAga-dveSa meM ulajhanA nhiiN| kyoMki___- anumAna siddha hone meM nirNAyaka tattva hotA hai manuSya kA puNyakarma / alaga-alaga prakAra kI saphalatA ke alaga-alaga puNyakarma kAraNa hote haiN| -- Apa zarIra ke Arogya ke viSaya meM anumAna karate haiN| saphalatA kA AdhAra hai Apake 'zAtA-vedanIya' puNyakarma kA udy| - Apa kisI lAbha ke viSaya meM anumAna karate haiN| saphalatA kA AdhAra hai, Apake lAbhAntarAya karma kA kSayopazama / - Apa kisI zakti ko pAne ke viSaya meM dhAraNA banAte haiN| saphalatA kA AdhAra hai, Apake vIryAntarAya karma kA kSayopazama / - Apa ijjata... lokapriyatA pAne kA anumAna karate haiN| saphalatA kA AdhAra hai, Apake yaza-kIrti-nAma karma kA udaya | - Apa jIvanamaryAdA kA anumAna karate haiN| saphalatA kA AdhAra hai, ApakA aayussy-krm| - Apa apane prabhAva-pratApa ke viSaya meM anumAna karate haiN| saphalatA kA AdhAra hai, ApakA parAghAta-nAma karma / - paraMtu hama nahIM jAnate haiM ki apanI AtmA meM ye sAre karma haiM yA nhiiN| yadi ye karma nahIM hai, karmoM kA kSayopazama nahIM hai, to apane anumAna galata siddha hoNge| ___ - ve hI anumAna saphala siddha hoMge, jinake AdhArabhUta karmoM kA udaya hogaa| - hama anumAna nahIM kareMge, to bhI jaba ve karma udaya meM AyeMge taba jo prApta honA hai, vaha prApta hogA hii| jo duHkha dUra honA hai, dUra hogA hii| - sukha aura duHkha ke viSaya meM manuSya anumAna nahIM karegA to bhI clegaa| kyoMki anumAna ke AdhAra para sukha-duHkha nahIM milate haiN| -- sukha-duHkha ke AdhAra, manuSya ke karma haiN| pUrvajanmoM meM jaise bhI karma saMcita kiye haiM, tadanusAra yahA~ sukha-duHkha milanevAle haiN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 246 __ - anumAna karanA hai, dhAraNAe~ banAnI haiM, to zuddhi-azuddhi ke viSaya meM bnaayeN| AtmA kI zuddhi ke viSaya meM soceN| - merI AtmA itane samaya meM kaSAyoM ke prabhAva se mukta honI caahie| - merI AtmA itane samaya meM viSayavAsanA kI prabalatA se mukta honI caahie| - merI AtmA itane samaya meM saMsAra ke baMdhanoM se mukta honI cAhie aura isa dizA meM ucita puruSArtha zurU kara denA caahie| - anumAna kA viSaya badala deN| saphalatA hI saphalatA hai! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 247 111. du:kha ke kAraNa jAna lo i usa dina mana bahuta becaina bana gayA... ve bhAI-bahana the| na suna sakate the, na bola sakate the...| sunA hai aura par3hA bhI hai ki duniyA meM mUka aura badhira lAkhoM kI tAdAda meM haiM, parantu sunanA yA par3hanA eka bAta hai| pratyakSa dekhanA, viziSTa paristhiti meM dekhanA dUsarI bAta hotI hai| - bhAI sundara dehAkRtivAlA thaa| - bahana bhI sundara dehAkRtivAlI thii| - donoM par3hAI meM tejasvI the! - zrImanta gharAne ke ye bhAI-bahana the| jaba ve mere pAsa Ae, taba mA~ viSAdapUrNa thI, pitA gaMbhIra the... parantu bhAIbahana svastha the! __- beTe-beTI kI mUkatA aura badhiratA, mAtA-pitA ko vyathita karatI thI aura vaha svAbhAvika bhI thaa| ___ - pahale to merA mana bhI viSAda se bhara gyaa| unake prati karuNA kA bhAva bahane lagA... parantu bAda meM karmasiddhAnta ke AdhAra para ciMtana zurU ho gyaa| - pApakarma aura puNyakarma kA kaisA mizra udaya! - puNyakarma ne una donoM ko snehapUrNa mAtA-pitA diye haiM, zrImantAI dI hai, zarIra-sauSThava diyA hai... acchI buddhi dI hai... jabaki pApakarma ne unakI vacanazakti aura zravaNazakti chIna lI hai...| - 'karmoM kI aisI kuTilatA kyoM?' mana meM prazna utthaa| - jo jIva apanI indriyoM kA durupayoga karatA hai, jo apane mana kA durupayoga karatA hai usa jIva ke sAtha karma krUratA se peza Ate haiN| - ina bhAI-bahana ne pUrvajanmoM meM zravaNendriya kA aura rasanendriya kA durupayoga kiyA hogaa| isalie isa janma meM unako zravaNazakti nahIM milI aura vacanazakti nahIM milii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 248 - pUrvajanmoM meM jIvadayA kA pAlana kiyA hogA, isalie isa janma meM nirogI zarIra milA aura rUpa milaa| ___- pUrvajanmoM meM dAnadharma kA pAlana kiyA hogA, isalie isa janma meM zrImanta ghara meM janma milaa| ___ - pUrvajanma meM paramAtmA kI pUjA kI hogI, isalie isa janma meM saubhAgya milaa| ___ - parantu Aja to eka aise choTe bacce ko dekhA ki janma se jisako A~kheM nahIM haiN| na sunatA hai, na bolatA hai, na zarIra nirogI hai...| - dekhakara hRdaya kA~pa utthaa| - 'hara acchI-burI kriyA kA phala kabhI na kabhI milatA hI hai' - yaha bAta dRr3ha ho gaI hRdaya meN| - kisI janma meM isa bacce ne A~khoM kA durupayoga kiyA hogaa| kisI kI A~kheM phor3a dI hogI! - isa janma meM to usane koI duSkRtya nahIM kiyA hai| - duSkRtya ke binA duHkha nahIM AtA hai| vartamAna meM duHkha hai, to usakA kAraNa honA hI caahie| - usane pUrvajanmoM meM jIvadayA kA pAlana nahIM kiyA hogA, anyathA yahA~ usako rogagrasta zarIra kyoM milatA? - parantu, isa bacce kA janma bhI zrImanta ghara meM huA hai| - usake mAtA-pitA prema se, dayA se usakA pAlana kara rahe haiN| - usako bhojana milatA hai, ArAma milatA hai| - ina bAtoM ke bhI kAraNa hone caahie| _pUrvajanmoM meM isa jIva ne dUsare jIvoM ko sukha diyA hogaa| dUsaroM ko prema diyA hogaa| kisI tyAgI sAdhupuruSoM kI sevA kara lI hogii| thor3A-sA dAna bhI diyA hogA! ___ - manuSya apane jIvana meM kabhI acchA kArya karatA hai, kabhI burA kAma karatA hai...| kabhI acchI bAteM karatA hai, kabhI burI bAteM karatA hai...| kabhI acche vicAra karatA hai, kabhI bure vicAra karatA hai...! usakA phala bhI use usI prakAra kA milatA hai| sukha-duHkha kA sammizraNa! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 249 - isa kArya-kAraNabhAva ko apane pUrNa jJAna ke Aloka meM dekhanevAle karuNAvaMta paramAtmA ne duniyA ko batAyA ki 'tumhArI hara kriyA kA phala milanevAlA hai| bure kAma mata karo, bure vacana mata bolo, bure vicAra mata kro...|' - isa duniyA ke duHkhI jIvoM ke duHkha dekhakara, duHkha ke kAraNoM kA vicAra karanA cAhie aura apane jIvana ko niSpApa banAnA cAhie | jIvana ko guNamaya aura dharmamaya banAnA caahie| - aisA yadi karate haiM to hama tattvajJAnI haiM, anyathA mUrkha hI haiN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 250 112. bhAva kA prabhAva raziyana vaijJAnika 'kAmeniyova' aura amarIkI vaijJAnika DaoN. rUDolphakIra ne paMdraha varSoM meM hajAroM prayoga kara siddha kiyA hai ki sadbhAvoM se, maMgala bhAvanAoM se bharA huA manuSya, apane hAthoM meM pAnI se bharA huA ghar3A le kara, una maMgalamaya bhAvanAoM ko bahAtA rahatA hai, to usa pAnI meM guNAtmaka parivartana AtA hai| aisA pAnI, kheta meM boye hue bIja para chir3akA gayA, to bIja zIghra aMkurita hue| bar3e suMdara phUla Ae aura phala Ae / pauMdhA jyAdA svastha bnaa| 000 jaba zrImada ratnazekharasarijI kI 'zrIpAla-kathA' par3hI thI, usameM mayaNAsuMdarI ne yaMtra kA pUjana kara, usa pUjana kA jala apane pati zrIpAla para chir3akA to zrIpAla kA kuSTharoga miTa gayA - aisA par3hane meM AyA thaa| zraddhA se mAna bhI liyA thaa| kyoMki sAdhanA ke mArga meM maiM buddhi ko mahattva nahIM detA hU~| sAdhanAoM kI bhinna-bhinna aneka prakriyAe~ hotI haiN| una saba meM kyoM?' aura 'kaise?' maiM nahIM puuchtaa|| phira bhI buddhi hai na? vaha apanA kAma karatI rahatI hai| 'siddhacakra yaMtra kA abhiSeka-jala mayaNAsuMdarI ne zrIpAla para chir3akA... aura zrIpAla kA kuSTharoga miTa gayA! kaise? kyA vaha camatkAra thA? camatkAra thA, to kisakA?' jaba-jaba buddhi aise tarka-vitarka karatI taba maiM use rokatA thaa| jo viSaya zraddhA kA hotA hai vahA~ buddhi kA praveza nahIM hone denA cAhie, aisA maiM mAnatA rahA huuN| athavA sAdhanA ke kSetra meM jahA~ buddhi ruka jAtI hai, vahA~ se maiM zraddhA ko sAtha lekara calatA rahatA huuN| kahIM na kahIM buddhi kI maryAdA A jAtI hai, zraddhA kI maryAdA nahIM hai | bhAvoM kA prabhAva! 0 0 0 siddhacakra kI nau dina kI ArAdhanA-upAsanA karane se mayaNAsuMdarI ke bhAva prabhAvazAlI bane hoMge | zubha bhAva prabala bane hoNge| 'karuNA' tIvra banI hogI aura aise bhAvoM se paripUrNa bana kara usane siddhacakrajI kA jalakuMbha apane hAthoM meM lekara zrIpAla para vaha jala chir3akA hogA! - mayaNA ke bhAvoM para prabhAva thA siddhacakra kA / For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 251 - pAnI para prabhAva thA mayaNA ke tIvra zubha bhAvoM kaa| - zubha bhAvoM se prabhAvita pAnI kA prabhAva par3A thA zrIpAla para! 0 0 0 bAta yahIM pUrNa nahIM hotI hai| - zubha bhAvoM ke prabhAvoM ko grahaNa karane kI pAtratA caahie| - zrIpAla ne bhI siddhacakrajI kI ArAdhanA kara ke vaisI pAtratA pAyI thii| zubha bhAvoM ko grahaNa karane ke lie bhI zubha bhAva caahie| __- siddhacakra kI ArAdhanA se zrIpAla ne zubha... pavitra... nirmala bhAva pAye the| usake mana meM kisI bhI jIva ke prati dveSa-zatrutA kA bhAva nahIM rahA thaa| sabhI jIvoM ke prati maitrI kA bhAva jagA thaa| parahita kI pavitra bhAvanA se vaha bhara gayA thaa| - maitrIbhAva se karuNAgrAhakatA pragaTa huii| - karuNAbhAva se bhAva-prabhAvakatA pragaTa huii| - bhAva kI grAhakatA cAhie, tabhI bhAva kI prabhAvakatA phalavatI hotI hai| - hameM mahApuruSoM kI parama karuNA ke grAhaka bhI bananA hai aura apane zubha bhAvoM ke prabhAvaka bhI bananA hai| - grAhaka banane ke lie maitrIbhAva kI vRddhi karanA hai| - prabhAvaka banane ke lie karuNAbhAva kI vRddhi karanA hai| mandira meM, hAthoM meM zAMtikalaza lekara baiThanevAle, zAMtistotra kA pATha karate hue zAMtikalaza ko pAnI se bharanevAle... yadi maitrIbhAvanA se aura karuNAbhAvanA se otaprota ho jAyeM... to vaha zAMtikalaza kA pAnI avazya guNAtmaka parivartana lA sakatA hai| - kriyA zubha bhAvoM se phalavatI banAyI jA sakatI hai| - ye sArI kriyAe~ viziSTa jJAnI puruSoM kI batAyI huI haiN| - ve jJAnI puruSa karuNA ke kSIrasAgara the, maitrIbhAva kI gaMgA ke pravAha the| - saMsAra ke sabhI jIvoM ko duHkhoM se mukta karane kI unakI karuNA thii| - saMsAra ke sabhI jIvoM kA paramahita karane kI unakI maitrI thii| he prabho! Apake acintya prabhAva se mere hRdaya meM maitrIbhAvanA ke puSpa khileM aura maitrIbhAvanA ke ratnadIpaka jagamagAne lageM... basa, itanI hI merI prArthanA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 252 252 113. bacapana cAhatA hai tumheM 3 'losa enjilsa' nagara kI yaha bAta hai| 'hAvarDa meksavela' apanI beTI 'meliMDA' se khUba pyAra karatA hai| cAra sAla kI apanI beTI ko apanI goda meM biThAkara usako pratidina kahAnI sunAtA hai| ___eka dina meksavela bAjAra se 'thrI liTIla pigsa' nAma kI pustaka kharIda kara le aayaa| usa kitAba meM se meliMDA ko kahAniyA~ sunAne lagA | meliMDA ko majA A gyaa| pratidina kahAnI sunane kA Agraha karane lgii| meksavela ne sabhI kahAniyoM ko 'Tepa' kara liyaa| ___ zAma ko jaba meksavela ghara AyA, meliMDA ne kahAnI sunAne ko khaa| meksavela ne TeparekaoNrDara zurU kara diyaa| meliMDA ne cupacApa suna liyA aura so gyii| dUsare dina bhI TeparekaoNrDara se kahAnI suna lii| tIsare dina usane meksavela ko kahA : 'mujhe kahAnI sunAiye / ' meksavela ne kahA : 'tU svayaM TeparekaoNrDara zurU kara ke kahAnI kyoM nahIM suna letI?' __ meliMDA ne kahA : 'pappA, TeparekaoNrDara se kahAnI suna lU~, parantu vaha mujhe apanI goda meM to nahIM biThAyegA na?' 0 0 0 - baccoM ko prema caahie| - mAtA kA prema cAhie, pitA kA prema caahie| - bacce mAtA se bAteM karanA cAhate haiM, pitA se bAteM karanA cAhate haiN| ve mAtA se, pitA se kahAniyA~ sunanA bhI cAhate haiN| -- mAtA-pitA kahAniyoM ke mAdhyama se baccoM meM saMskAroM kA siMcana kara sakate haiN| jIvana jIne kI kalA sikhA sakate haiN| - kahAnI kA mAdhyama, baccoM ke liye vizeSa rUpa se upayukta hotA hai| - baccoM ko mAtA-pitA kA prema milane se baccoM ke hRdaya komala banate haiN| mAtA-pitA ke prati prema banA rahatA hai, isase baccoM meM AjJAdhAritA AtI hai| - kevala upadeza dene se baccoM ko saMskArI nahIM banAyA jA sktaa| - baccoM ke prati Akroza karane se unako sudhArA nahIM jA sktaa| - kaTutApUrNa vyavahAra karane se baccoM ke hRdaya meM pratikAra kI icchA prabala banatI jAtI hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 253 - isalie kahatA hU~ ki baccoM se premapUrNa vyavahAra kreN| - pitA kA prema paise para kendrita ho gayA hai| - mAtA kA prema phaizana para kendrita ho gayA hai| - baccoM ko aba mAtA kI goda nahIM mila rahI hai, naukara kI goda milatI hai| durvyasanI naukaroM kI chAyA meM bacce palate haiN| - mAtAe~ apanA ghara bhUlatI jA rahI haiM, parivAra ko bhUlatI jA rahI haiN| - unako aba klabeM, sinemAgRha, sabhAgRha... vagairaha priya laga rahe haiN| - bImAra baccoM ke pAsa narsa rahane lagI hai, mAtA mArkeTiMga ke lie calI jAtI hai| -- bImAra baccoM ko davAI milatI hai, paraMtu mAtA kA sAnnidhya aura vAtsalya nahIM mila rahA hai| ___ - baccoM ko ucca zikSA mila rahI hai, paraMtu dUra-dUra haoNsTaloM meM| unako sahajIvana... pArivArika jIvana kA AnaMda nahIM mila rahA hai| rasoIdAroM ke hAtha kI rasoI milatI hai, mAtA ke vAtsalyapUrNa hAthoM kI rasoI durlabha ho gaI hai| - vAtsalya hai kahA~? - kisakA kisake prati vAtsalya hai? - vAtsalya kA jharanA adRzya ho gayA hai| - svArtha, abhimAna, durAgrahoM ke patthara hI patthara dikhAI dete haiN| - saMskRti kI jananI svayaM vikRti kI zikAra ho gaI hai| - vAtsalya kA dikhAvA kara, krUratA kA nRzaMsa vyavahAra karane vAle mAtApitA 'pUjanIya' kaise bana sakate haiM? unake caraNoM meM prema se bacce apanA sara kaise jhukA sakate haiM? sira jhukatA hai, vAtsalya ke caraNoM meN| - phaizanebala kapar3e, ilekTraoNnika khilaune aura saundarya ke prasAdhanoM meM baccoM kI parAdhIna jindagI AnaMda le rahI hai| ___- jaba dekhatA hU~ baccoM kI sRSTi ko, hRdaya karuNA se bhara AtA hai| barabAda hotI huI unakI jindagI ko bacAne ke lie prayatna karatA hU~, to unake mAtApitA vighna bana jAte haiM... Akhira, baccoM para adhikAra to unakA hai na! ___- binA vAtsalya kI, binA jJAnadRSTi kI adhikAra-bhAvanA parAdhIna baccoM kI jindagI ko barabAda kara rahI hai... he prabho! tU hI rakSA kr| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI ___ 254 114. saMbaMdhoM kI buniyAda : vizvAsa ha eka jijJAsu vyakti, eka tattvajJAnI ke pAsa gayA aura pUchA : 'maiM saMnyAsI banU~ yA gRhastha?' tattvajJAnI ne kahA : 'jo bananA ho so bana, paraMtu Adarza-zreSTha bnnaa|' tattvajJAnI ne apanI patnI ko kahA : 'dIpaka lAnA, kapar3A bunane meM saralatA rhegii|' patnI ghara meM calI gaI aura dIyA lAkara pati ke pAsa rakha diyaa| tattvajJAnI ne usa jijJAsu ke sAmane dekhA aura kahA : 'gRhasthajIvana meM paraspara kA aisA vizvAsa caahie| merI patnI ne nahIM pUchA ki 'dina meM - madhyAhna ke samaya jabaki sUrya kA itanA prakAza hai, phira dIye kI kyA jarUrata hai? jo merI icchA, vahI usakI icchA rahatI hai|' 0 0 0 vizvAsa! - saMbaMdhoM kA zvAsocchavAsa vizvAsa hai| - zvAsocchavAsa ke binA manuSya mara jAtA hai, vizvAsa ke binA saMbaMdha mara jAte haiN| __ - gRhastha-jIvana saMbaMdhoM kA hI paryAya hai| - janma hote hI saMbaMdhoM kA janma ho jAtA hai| mAtA-pitA ke sAtha saMbaMdha ho hI jAtA hai| - bAda meM saMbaMdhoM kA jAla phailatA jAtA hai| - vahI saMbaMdha akhaMDa-avicchinna rahatA hai, jisakI jar3a meM vizvAsa hotA hai| - paraMtu vizva meM jaise vizvAsa kA tattva anAdi hai, vaise zaMkA evaM vizvAsaghAta kA tattva bhI anAdi hai! - vizva anAdi hai... vizva meM bahuta se tattva anAdi haiN| - vizvAsa ko naSTa karane vAle zaMkA ke kITANu bhI manuSya ke bhItara par3e hue hote haiN| paraMtu paripuSTa vizvAsa ko ve kITANu nahIM laga skte| kamajora vizvAsa para zaMkA ke kITANu hamalA kara dete haiN| gRhastha-jIvana meM paraspara ke saMbaMdha apekSita hote haiN| saMbaMdhoM meM vizvAsa apekSita hotA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 255 - binA vizvAsa ke saMbaMdhoM ko nibhAnA, 'oNksIjana' para rahe hue bImAra manuSya jaisA hai| - binA vizvAsa ke saMbaMdhoM ko nibhAnevAloM kA jIvana azAMti, udvega, becainI aura kaTutA se pUrNa hotA hai| ___ - hamArA dUsaroM para vizvAsa honA eka bAta hai| dUsaroM kA hama para vizvAsa honA dUsarI bAta hai| hama dUsaroM para vizvAsa karate haiM, dUsaroM ke puNya ke mAdhyama se aura dUsare hama para vizvAsa karate haiM, hamAre puNya ke mAdhyama se | - vizvAsa kI AdhArazilA 'puNyakarma' hai| - zaMkA aura avizvAsa kI jar3a hai - 'pApakarma' | isa gUDha satya kA jinako samyagjJAna nahIM hotA hai, ve loga jIvAtmA ko aparAdhI mAnate haiN| ___- hamAre prati koI zaMkA kI dRSTi se dekhatA hai, avizvAsa kI dRSTi se dekhatA hai, usa samaya usake prati durbhAvanA paidA ho jAtI hai| vaha durbhAvanA paidA nahIM honI cAhie | hameM yaha socanA cAhie ki 'mere pApakarma kA udaya hai| maiM vizvasanIya nahIM rhaa|' __- hameM dUsaroM ke prati niSprayojana zaMkA kI dRSTi se nahIM dekhanA caahie| yadi dekhanA hai to usake sAtha saMbaMdha nahIM rakhanA caahie| ___ - hamane bhUla kI hai, galatI kI hai aura saMbaMdhita vyakti hameM zaMkA kI dRSTi se dekhatA hai, to usake prati nArAja nahIM honA caahie| ___ - bhUla nahIM kI hai, koI galatI nahIM kI hai, phira bhI saMbaMdhita vyakti hamArI ora zaMkA kI dRSTi se dekhatA hai, to bhI usake prati roSa nahIM karanA hai| 'mere pApakarma ke udaya ke binA aisA nahIM ho sakatA hai| pApakarma ke udayakAla meM mujhe vizeSarUpa se zAMta aura svastha rahanA caahie|' ___ - aneka vyavahAroM meM baMdhe hue samAja meM vizvasanIyatA ko nibhAnA muzkila hai| dUsaroM ke vyavahAroM ko mAdhyama banA kara dekhA jAtA hai| - vyaktitva nirmala hone para bhI duniyA vyavahAra ko jyAdA mahattva detI hai| - isalie daMbha paidA huaa| vyavahAra ko acchA rakhanA, vyaktitva bhale hI nirmala na ho| - daMbha ke AdhAra para vizvAsa kahA~ taka TikatA hai? daMbha kA paradA kacce dhAge kA hotA hai| - daMbharahita vizvAsa hI Apasa ke saMbaMdhoM ko madhura evaM dRr3ha banAye rakhatA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 256 115. nahIM kisI se nArAjagI co arco irco eka maharSi kA vacana par3hA - 'yadi tU dharmodyata hai to kisI kI aprIti meM nimitta mata bnnaa|' isa bAta para ciMtana calatA rhaa...| kyoMki maiM dharmodyata hU~| cAritradharma meM udyata hU~, Atmadharma meM udyata huuN...| - kyA maiM kisI ko nArAja to nahIM karatA hU~? - kisI ke mana meM roSa to paidA nahIM karatA hU~? - kisI ko kaSTa to nahIM pahuMcAtA hU~? maiMne AtmanirIkSaNa kiyA... becaina ho gyaa...| mere jIvana meM Dhera sArI aisI pravRttiyA~ haiM... jina pravRttiyoM se dUsare jIvoM ko aprIti hotI hai, duHkha hotA hai, mere prati roSa hotA hai...| isase maiM azubha karmAnubaMdha kara rahA hU~? avazya! - dUsaroM ko duHkha pahu~cAne se azubhAnubaMdha hotA hai| - dUsaroM ko duHkha-azAMti nahIM pahu~cAne se zubhAnubaMdha hotA hai| yaha sarvajJavacana hai, maiM mAnatA huuN| 'to phira galata pravRtti kyoM hotI hai?' kyoMki maiM AtmabhAva meM jAgrata nahIM hU~, maiM gaharI nIMda meM huuN| maiM sukhoM kI spRhA karatA huuN| maiM vaiSayika sukha ke sAdhana cAhatA huuN| sukhoM kI tIvra spRhA meM se, aisI pravRtti paidA ho jAtI hai... jisa pravRtti se dUsare jIvoM ko duHkha ho, azAMti ho| - jahA~ tIvra spRhA hotI hai vahA~ jAgRti nahIM rhtii| - jahA~ jAgRti nahIM hotI vahA~ anucita pravRtti ho jAtI hai| isalie, vaiSayika sukhoM kI spRhA ko hRdaya se nikAla kara, mujhe AtmabhAva meM jAgrata rahanA hogaa| jAgRtipUrvaka calanA hogA, jAgRtipUrvaka khAnA hogA, jAgRtipUrvaka sonA hogA... jAgRtipUrvaka bolanA hogA... jAgRtipUrvaka lenA hogA aura jAgRtipUrvaka denA hogaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra to? yahI hai jiMdagI 257 choTe-bar3e kisI bhI jIva ko kleza na ho, saMtApa na ho, azAMti na ho... vaisA jIvana mujhe jInA hai / vaisA merA saMkalpa hogA ! - mujhe kyA karanA cAhie ? - mujhe vaha sthAna chor3a denA cAhie / mere nimitta jahA~ kisI ko duHkha hotA ho, azAMti hotI ho, mujhe vahA~ nahIM rahanA cAhie / mere mana meM bhI kleza- saMtApa nahIM hone cAhie / aisA jAgRtipUrNa jIvana hone para bhI koI mere nimitta aprIti - udvega kare - vaisA sthAna chor3ane meM mujhe koI duHkha nahIM hogA, azAMti nahIM hogii| maiM svastha rahU~gA, samatAbhAva meM rahU~gA / - haiM / zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra apane sAdhanA - kAla meM, tApasoM ke usa Azrama ko, varSAkAla meM bhI chor3akara nahIM cale gaye the? unake nimitta tApasoM ko aprIti huI thI... kyoMki bhagavAna ne unakI jhoMpar3I kA ghAsa khAnevAlI gAyoM ko nahIM bhgaayaa| ghAsa khAne diyA thA gAyoM ko! svayaM to dhyAna meM nimagna rahate the| tApasoM ko pasaMda nahIM AyA... bhagavAna sahajatA se cale gaye the! tApasoM ke prati unake mana meM aprIti kA bhAva nahIM jagA thA / ajJAnI jIvoM ke prati aprIti kyA karanA ? ve to karuNA ke pAtra hote bhagavaMta ne apane zramaNasaMgha ke lie aisI hI jIvanapaddhati kA pratipAdana kiyaa| jisase kisI bhI jIva ko duHkha na ho, aprIti na ho| - kisI ko aprIti na ho usa taraha bhikSA lene ko kahA / kisI ko aprIti na ho usa taraha nivAsa karane ko khaa| kisI ko aprIti na ho usa taraha mala-utsarga karane ko kahA ... kisI ko aprIti na ho usa taraha bolane ko kahA! - phira bhI aprIti ho jAye to vahA~ se cale jAne kI AjJA dI ! - mere nimitta kisI jIva ko aprIti na ho, For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 258 - kisI jIva ke nimitta mujhe aprIti na ho... aisA jIvana maiM cAhatA huuN| - pUrNarUpeNa aisA jIvana to mokSa kA hI jIvana hai - maiM jAnatA hU~, paraMtu... yaha AzA to azakta paMgu kI 'evaresTa' zikhara para pahu~cane kI AzA jaisI hai...| ___ - khaira, kahate haiM ki AzA kabhI to phalavatI hotI hI hai! phira, yaha AzA to acchI hai na? For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 259 116. aparAdhI ko kSamA aparAdha kI kSamA nahIM mA~ganA to bhUla hai hI, parantu aparAdhI ko kSamA nahIM denA bhI bar3I bhUla hai| eka vayovRddha mahAnubhAva ne eka dina mujhase kahA : merI lar3akI ne merI icchA ke viparIta premavivAha (lava-mereja) kara liyA thaa| maiMne usako kaha diyA thA : 'Aja se maiM mAnatA hU~ ki merI lar3akI mara gaI hai, mujhe terA mu~ha mata btaanaa...|' bAda meM tIna bAra vaha mere pAsa kSamA mA~gane AyI thI, maiMne tInoM samaya usako dutkAra diyA thaa| parantu merA mana hamezA azAnta rahA, becaina rhaa...| gata varSa maiM bImAra par3A... mauta mere sAmane thii| mere mana meM beTI ko kSamA kara dene kA prabala bhAva paidA huA... maiM acchA ho gayA! sIdhA beTI ke ghara gyaa| beTI... jamAI... pautra mujhe dekhakara stabdha raha gye| merI A~kheM cUne lagIM... maiMne beTI ke sara para hAtha rakha kara kSamA de dI aura usako pIr3A pahu~cAne ke aparAdha kI kSamA mA~ga lii| maiM svastha ho gayA! merA mana aba prasanna rahatA hai... 0 0 0 eka ajaba ghaTanA! eka yuvaka ne sunAyI thI yaha ghttnaa| 'mujhe mere pitA ne ghara se nikAla diyA thA... merI bhUla thii| 25 varSa taka maiM pitAjI se dUra rahA, na maiMne unakA mu~ha dekhA, na unhoMne merA | 25 varSa ke bAda acAnaka eka dina zAma ko ve mere ghara para aae| mujhe unakI sIrIyasa bImArI kA samAcAra milA thaa| acAnaka unako ghara para Ae dekha kara maiM cakita raha gyaa| unhoMne mujhe kSamA de dI... mere aparAdhoM ko mApha kara diyaa| ve baiThe hI the aura DAkiyA AyA / mere nAma kA TelIgrAma thA... pitAjI kI mRtyu ke samAcAra the... subaha unakI mRtyu ho gaI thI! maiM stabdha-sA ho gyaa| ghara meM jAkara jahA~ pitAjI baiThe the vahA~ dekhatA hU~ to pitAjI nahIM the... sirpha sugandha thI! 000 For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 260 eka puruSa ne vRddhAvasthA meM putrI ko kSamA pradAna kara ke zAMti pAyI, dUsare ne marane ke bAda deva banakara kSamA pradAna kI aura zAMti pAyI! jo hamase kSamA cAhate haiM, unako kSamA de do / unako apane aparAdhoM kA ahasAsa ho gayA hai, taba to ve hama se kSamAyAcanA karate haiM / - dUsaroM ke aparAdhoM ko apane mana meM saMgrahIta kara, hama svayaM aparAdhI bana jAte haiM - yaha bAta hama nahIM jAnate ! - dUsaroM kI bhUleM apane mana meM kyoM bharanA ? apane mana ko bhUloM kA bhaMDAra kyoM banAnA? aisA karane se nukasAna apane ko hI hotA hai| - azAMti, udvega, becainI aura dveSa ! www.kobatirth.org - yaha nukasAna, lAkhoM-karor3oM rupaye ke nukasAna se bhI jyAdA hai| nahIM samajhanA ho to mata samajho, Agraha nahIM hai, parantu samajha jAe~ to zAMti hai, samatA hai, prasannatA hai / - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir kSamAyAcanA karanevAle kA tiraskAra karanA, apamAna karanA... ucita hai - zAnta dimAga se socanA / - * 'yaha sacce mana se kSamA nahIM mA~gatA, kapaTa karatA hai, dikhAvA karatA hai / ' cAhe dikhAvA sahI, vaha namra bana kara hamAre pAsa to AyA hai ! kahA~ taka - 'usako hamase svArtha hai, isaliye AyA hai...' cAhe svArtha sahI, Apa usakI svArthapUrti na karanA, kSamAdAna to de sakate haiM! - - kSamA kA dAna dene se Apako bar3A phAyadA hai / nahIM dene meM bar3A nukasAna hai| kSamAyAcanA sacce mana se ho yA kapaTa se ho, Apa sacce mana se kSamAdAna de do! anyathA, eka dina Apako kSamA kI yAcanA karanI par3egI / jaba taka hama choTe-bar3e aparAdha karate rahate haiM, taba taka hameM dUsaroM ke aparAdhoM ko bhUla jAne kA, mApha kara dene kA sIkhanA hogA / For Private And Personal Use Only - kyoMki hara vyakti cAhatA hai ki dUsare loga usake aparAdhoM ko mApha kara de| hameM apane aparAdhoM kI mAphI cAhie to dUsaroM ke aparAdhoM ko mApha karanA hI hogaa|

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261 yahI hai jiMdagI va117. AkrAmaka para audAryasahita 3 usa yuvaka ne kahA : 'mujhe vizva meM pravartita anyAya, nIcatA, trAsa, adhamatA, kuTilatA aura bhraSTAcAroM ke sAmane bagAvata karanI hai, krAnti karanI hai...|' 0 0 0 maiMne usako kahA : bhaiyA, jina aniSToM ke sAmane tU bagAvata karanA cAhatA hai, una aniSToM ko tUne acchI taraha jAna liyA hai kyA? una aniSToM kA adhyayana kiyA hai kyA? gaMbhIra ciMtana kara, una aniSToM kA vizleSaNa kiyA hai kyA? - tUne nyAya-anyAya ko sApekSa dRSTi se dekhA hai kyA? - nIcatA aura uttamatA ke udgamasrotoM ko dekhA hai kyA? - trAsa aura dayA ke viSaya meM gahana ciMtana kiyA hai kyA? - sadAcAra aura bhraSTAcAroM ke aucitya-anaucitya ke bAre meM gaMbhIra adhyayana kiyA hai kyA? aisA ciMtana kiye binA yadi tU krAnti karane jAyegA, to mujhe lagatA hai ki tU dUsaroM ke prati anyAya kara baiThegA! tU dUsaroM para trAsa barasA degA... nIcatApUrNa vyavahAra kara degA! - kucha bhI karane se pahale, socanA Avazyaka hai| - kucha kara DAlane kI jaldabAjI anartha paidA karatI hai| - jaldabAjI meM ciMtana ko sthAna nahIM hotaa| - isaliye to bhagavAna mahAvIra ne kahA ki jaise puNya ko jAnanA hai, vaise pApoM ko bhI jaano| - puNya karanA hai, pahale puNya ko jaano| - pApa nahIM karanA hai, pahale pApoM ko jaano| - jAnane kI kriyA vyApaka, gahana aura gaMbhIra banAnI caahie| - thakanA nahIM hai jAnane kA parizrama karane meM! anavarata jAnate rahanA hai| - jAnanA anaMta hai! - samajhanA anaMta hai! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 262 - jAnane... samajhane meM na rahegA rAga, na rahegA dveSa! - AtmA ko jAnate hue aneka loga paramAtmA bana gye| - puNya ko jAnate-jAnate aneka jIva sahajatA se puNyazAlI bana gaye! - pApoM ko jAnate hue aneka jIva niSpApa bana gaye! dUsaroM ko pApamukta karane kI icchA hai na? isakA bhI yahI sarala upAya hai : pApa karanevAloM ko pApoM ke viSaya meM ciMtanazIla banA do| unako ciMtana ke liye prerita karate rho| unake Upara AkrAmaka mata bnnaa| unako niyaMtrita karane kA prayAsa mata krnaa| - yaha adhikAra terA nahIM hai| - AkrAmaka ciMtanazIla nahIM hotA hai aura jo ciMtanazIla nahIM hotA hai... vaha mUrkha hotA hai| mUrkha AkrAmaka ho jAye to? ___ - mahAvIra tIrthaMkara the na? dharmatIrtha ke pravartaka the na? phira bhI ve kisI ke Upara AkrAmaka nahIM bne| - AkrAmaka ziSya ke prati bhI AkrAmaka nahIM bane... kaI dinoM taka ve jamAlI muni ko samajhAte rahe... kabhI bhI apane adhikAra kA upayoga nahIM kiyA | jamAlI ko socane ke liye prerita karate rhe| ThIka hai, jamAlI ko nahIM samajhanA thA, vaha calA gayA! - jamAlI ke cale jAne se duniyA meM koI viplava nahIM ho gayA... na koI pralaya A gayA! - maiM tujhe kahatA hU~ : jisa pApa se tujhe mukta honA hai, usa pApa ke viSaya meM tU niraMtara adhyayana kara, manana kara | mahInoM taka... varSoM taka ciMtana karatA raha... pApa svataH chUTa jAyegA! pApa kA rAga TUTa jAyegA! - niraMtara parizramapUrvaka adhyayana karate raho, - adhyayana kI vArSika, dvivArSika yojanA banA lo, -- jisa jJAnI puruSa kA graMtha par3hA, usake hRdaya taka pahu~cane kA prayatna kro| - adhyayana ke bAda manana, ciMtana karane se apUrva AnaMda kI anubhUti kroge| jIvatva ke sAtha tAdAtmya hotA jAyegA... aura tumhArA hRdaya sneha-sahAnubhUti se paripUrNa hotA jaayegaa| - duniyA meM burAiyA~ dikhegI, paraMtu koI burA nahIM lagegA! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 263 118. khudI ko jarA bulaMda karo jaMgala meM se eka yAtrIvRMda gujara rahA thA! rAste meM eka vizAlakAya vRkSa girA huA par3A thaa| eka yAtrika bolA : 'havA kA tUphAna pracaMDa thA... dekho, aisA vizAlakAya vRkSa bhI dharAzAyI ho gayA hai...|' dUsare yAtrikoM ne sahamati meM kahA : 'sahI bAta hai, tUphAna bhArI thaa...|' eka vanavAsI yAtrikoM kA vArtAlApa suna rahA thA, usane kahA : 'Apa kI bAta sahI hai, tUphAna bhArI thA, paraMtu isa vRkSa kI jar3eM khokhalI ho gaI thIM isaliye dharAzAyI ho gayA! yadi jar3eM majabUta hotI... to ghora tUphAna ke bIca bhI khar3A rhtaa| dekho, dUsare vRkSa khar3e haiM na? unakI jar3eM majabUta haiN|' 0 0 0 - saMsAra meM Adhi-vyAdhi-upAdhiyoM kI teja havA calatI hI rahatI hai| - kabhI zArIrika rogoM kA tUphAna AtA hai| - kabhI Arthika nukasAna kA tUphAna AtA hai| - kabhI sAmAjika badanAmI kI AMdhI uThatI hai| - kabhI snehI-svajanoM ke manamuTAva kI AMdhI calatI hai| - AMdhI aura tUphAna! Aga aura bAr3ha...! - jo kamajora haiM, ve miTTI meM mila jAte haiN| - jo khokhale haiM, ve havA meM ur3a jAte haiN| - jo azakta haiM, ve bAr3ha meM baha jAte haiN| - jo bhayabhIta haiM, ve Aga meM jala jAte haiM...! manuSya kI jar3a hai usakA manobala / jisakA manobala dRr3ha hotA hai, jisakA manobala vajra jaisA dRr3ha hotA hai, vaha manuSya AMdhI meM dharAzAyI nahIM hotA, tUphAna meM ur3a nahIM jAtA, Aga meM jala nahIM jAtA... bAr3ha meM baha nahIM jAtA! ___ mahAsatI aura mahApuruSa ve kahalAye, jinakA manobala dRr3ha thA! saMkaToM kI bhayAnaka AMdhI una para se gujara gayI... paraMtu aDiga khar3e rahe! ve gire nahIM, jale nahIM, bahe nahIM, ur3e nahIM! himAlaya jaise aDiga rahe / meru kI taraha nizcala rhe| For Private And Personal Use Only

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264 yahI hai jiMdagI __- duHkha, Apatti, saMkaTa to saMsAra meM svAbhAvika hai| saMsAra kA mAno svabhAva hai! - inako bhUtakAla meM koI nahIM miTA sakA hai| na tIrthaMkara miTA sake, na ckrvrtii| - asaMbhava ko saMbhava banAne kI ceSTA bAlaceSTA hai| - jo saMbhavita hai, usako pAne kA puruSArtha karanA buddhimattA hai| - azakta mana ko sazakta banAnA saMbhavita hai| - bhayabhrAnta mana ko sudRr3ha banAnA saMbhavita hai| - kamajora mana ko sudRr3ha banAnA saMbhavita hai...| - khokhale mana ko Thosa banAnA saMbhavita hai...| banA lo mana ko aisA nirbhaya, sudRr3ha, sazakta aura Thosa! basa, phira Ane do AMdhI ko, tUphAna ko aura jhaMjhAvAta ko| ve hameM hilA sakeMge, girA nahIM sakeMge! - mAmUlI 'hArTa-eTeka' AyA... aura gira gayA...! - thor3A-sA Arthika nukasAna huA... aura gira gayA...! - thor3I-sI badanAmI huI... aura gira gayA...! - kisI ne dhokhA diyA... aura gira gayA...! cAroM ora gire hue manuSyoM kA zmazAna dikhAyI de rahA hai Aja / pauruSahIna puruSoM kI saMkhyA bar3hatI jA rahI hai| duHkha aura vedanA ke cItkAroM se bhUmaMDala AkrAnta ho gayA hai| - zaktihInatA, sattvahInatA aura pauruSahInatA - mana ke gaMbhIra roga haiN| mana kI gaMbhIra bImArI hai| usako miTAne ke upAya turaMta karane hoNge| - mahAmaMtra navakAra ke smaraNa se | - paramAtmA ke bhAvapUjana se| - tattvajJAna ke gahana adhyayana se.... -- sattvazIla puruSoM ke niraMtara samAgama se mana sattvazIla banegA, zaktizAlI banegA... nizcala aura nirbhaya bnegaa| aise mana se jIvanayAtrA karane kA AnaMda adbhuta hotA hai| manuSya-jIvana isa taraha jInA hai! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI - 119. bolo, para soca-samajhakara patthara ne phUla se kahA : 'tU merI zakti jAnatA hai? mere eka hI prahAra se tujhe cUra-cUra kara sakatA hU~ / ' phUla ne muskarA kara kahA : 'mitra, taba to tuma mujha para bar3A upakAra karoge! merI sugaMdha cAroM ora phailegI !' www.kobatirth.org - na patthara bolatA hai, Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir na phUla javAba detA hai ! isa prakAra ke pratIkAtmaka saMvAda manuSya ko abhinava jIvanadRSTi pradAna karane ke lie race jAte haiN| 265 jo patthara jaise kaThora hRdaya ke loga hote haiM, ve dUsaroM ko kucalane meM apanI zakti kI sArthakatA samajhate haiM / - kisI ke tana ko kucalate haiM, kisI ke mana ko / patthara nahIM jAnatA hai ki usako bhI koI tor3anevAlA hai ! usako bhI koI pIsakara 'pAvaDara' banAne vAlA hai! phUla ke pratyuttara paraMtu, Aja mujhe patthara kI bAta nahIM karanI hai, Aja to kA vizleSaNa karanA hai / bahuta acchA lagA phUla kA pratyuttara / phUla to priya lagatA hI hai, phUla kA pratyuttara bahuta priya lagA ! kyoMki isa pratyuttara meM Positive thinking bharA huA hai / - vidheyAtmaka ciMtana ! - patthara kI bAta sunakara phUla ghabarAyA nahIM, Dara se murajhAyA nahIM / yadi vaha niSedhAtmaka ciMtana karatA to bhaya se murajhA jAtA / maiM mara vaha kaha detA - 'nahIM, nahIM, mujha para prahAra mata karanA... jAU~gA...' athavA akar3a kara bolatA - 'kara to sahI prahAra... kaise karatA hai prahAra... maiM bhI dekha lU~... / ' yadi aisA pratyuttara detA, to maiM samajhatA ki vaha kAgaja kA phUla hai... paudhe kA phUla nahIM ! For Private And Personal Use Only usane kahA : 'terA prahAra bhI mere liye upakArI siddha hogA / mere kucala jAne se merI sugaMdha jyAdA tIvra hokara cAroM ora phailegI / merA astitva isIliye to hai! dUsaroM ko sugaMdha denA!'

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yahI hai jiMdagI 266 __- uttama puruSoM ke guNoM kI, satkAryoM kI sugaMdha, prAyaH unakI mRtyu ke bAda jyAdA phailatI hai! ___- samatAbhAva se jinhoMne kucalA jAnA pasaMda kiyA, unake gIta hajAroM varSa taka duniyA gAtI rahI hai aura gAtI rhegii| - samatAbhAva kA srota hai, vidheyAtmaka ciMtana-'paoNjITIva thiMkiMga!' - ve khaMdhaka muni! rAjA ke sevakoM ne jAkara kahA : 'hamAre rAjA kI AjJA hai Apa ke zarIra kI camar3I utAra lene kii...|' ___- munirAja ne usI samaya kaha diyA : 'bhaiyA! tumhArA upakAra mAnatA huuN| aisA upakAra to sahodara bhI nahIM kara sktaa| utAro zarIra kI camar3I... tuma kaho vaise khar3A rahU~... tumheM camar3I utarAne meM saralatA rahe...! - yaha thA munirAja kA Positive thinking! vidheyAtmaka ciMtana! aisA ciMtana vahI manuSya kara sakatA hai, jo hara paristhiti ke liye taiyAra hotA hai| ___ - sukha aura duHkha jisako samAna lagate haiM! sukha se lagAva nahIM, duHkha se dveSa nahIM! - hara bAta meM koI zubha aMza chupA huA hotA hai... jo manuSya usa aMza ko dekha letA hai, vaha nirdhAnta hokara, hara paristhiti ko svIkAra kara letA hai| ___- auraMgajeba kI senA maMdiroM kA dhvaMsa karatI huI gujarAta meM phuNcii| eka maMdira meM vRddha pujArI thaa| senApati ne kahA : 'hama maMdira toddeNge|' pujArI ne senA dekhii| 'ye loga maMdira tor3eMge hI,' samajha liyA aura nirbhayatA se kahA : 'tumheM tor3anA hai to bhale tor3o maMdira, mujhe bhI khuzI hogI! kyoMki eka maMdira TUTegA... aneka maMdira paidA hoNge| eka-eka patthara meM se eka-eka maMdira paidA hogA!' - aisA hI huaa| hajAroM naye maMdira bana gaye! niSedhAtmaka ciMtana, bhaya-ciMtA-vedanA paidA karatA hai| kyoM kareM vaise vicAra? jIvana-vyavahAra meM vidheyAtmaka ciMtana kA prayoga kareMge! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI www.kobatirth.org 12 120. dekara ke lIjie eka mahAnagara kI sundara hoTala ke dvAra para borDa laTaka rahA thA - 'priya grAhaka! bhItara padhAriye, hamArA svAdiSTa bhojana kIjie! ApakI kRpA se hama bhI bhojana pA sakeMge!' Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir yaha to grAhakoM ko AkarSita karane ke lie pablisiTI hai, paraMtu isameM se eka gUr3ha rahasya phalita hotA hai| hAlA~ki yaha rahasya usa pablisiTI karanevAle ko bhI jJAta nahIM hogA ! 267 'dUsaroM ko bhojana dene se hameM bhojana milatA hai' - isa bAta para kabhI ekAMta meM ciMtana kiyA hai ? nahIM na? - 'hamAre dene se dUsaroM ko bhojana milatA hai' - yaha vicAra dimAga meM jamA huA hai na? yaha vicAra kyA sahI hai? socanA / - saca to yaha hai ki dUsaroM ko bhojana dene se hameM bhojana milatA hai! vaha dene kI kriyA maitrIprerita, dayAprerita, bhaktiprerita yA kartavyaprerita honI caahie| - hoTalavAle kI pablisiTI meM se to svArtha kI durgaMdha hI AtI hai| usakA nimaMtraNa svArthaprerita hai / sadbhAvaprerita nimaMtraNa sugaMdha prasArita karatA hai / - 'dUsaroM ko sukha dene se hameM sukha milatA hai' - isa satya ko svIkAra karanevAlA manuSya, sukha bA~Tane ke liye dUsaroM ko prema se nimaMtrita karatA hai| - sukha lene ke liye koI dvAra para AtA hai, vaha khuzI se jhUma uThatA hai / koI bhojana lene AtA hai, koI pAnI lene AtA hai, koI vastra lene AtA hai, koI Azraya lene AtA hai, koI paise lene AtA hai, koI jJAna lene AtA hai, koI AzvAsana... sahAnubhUti lene AtA hai.... yadi hai Apake pAsa dene ko, harSavibhora hokara diyA karo ! dene yogya vastu Apake pAsa kyoM hai- jAnate ho? Apane pUrva janma meM dUsaroM ko diyA thA! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI 268 - lenevAle pUjya haiM to bhaktibhAva se do, lenevAle mitra haiM to premabhAva se do, lenevAle du:khI haiM to karuNAbhAva se do, lenevAle saMkaTa meM haiM to sahAnubhUti se do! - lenevAle lete haiM... ve Apa para upakAra karate haiM! - Apa dekara upakAra nahIM karate, ve lekara Apa para upakAra karate haiM- yaha bAta barAbara yAda rakhanA! - www.kobatirth.org kyA Apane 'karmasiddhAMta' par3hA hai? dUsaroM ko sukha denevAlA manuSya kauna - sA karma bA~dhatA hai yaha bAta Apane 'karmazAstra' meM par3hI hai ? maiMne par3hI hai... sirpha par3hI hI nahIM hai, usa para varSoM taka ciMtana kiyA hai| isaliye kahatA hU~ ki isa jIvana meM ho sake utanA sukha dUsaroM ko do| - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir sukha pAne kA sarala upAya hai : dUsaroM ko sukha denA / kevala manuSya ko hI nahIM, pazu-pakSI ko bhI sukha diyA karo / Apa aisA puNyakarma bA~dhoge... ki jaba vaha puNyakarma apanA phala dene lagegA... taba Apake pAsa sukhoM kA himAlaya jitanA Dhera kara degA / - - hA~, kabhI hamAre pAsa dene yogya sukha na ho aura hama na de sakeM, saMbhava hai| paraMtu isakA artha yaha nahIM hai ki hama dUsaroM ko duHkha deN| dUsaroM ko duHkha dene se, dUsaroM kA sukha chInane se, dUsaroM ke sukha kI IrSyA karane se, Apa svayaM duHkhoM se bhara jaaoge| hamAre duHkhoM kA kAraNa yaha hai / dUsare koI hameM duHkhI nahIM karate haiM, hama hI duHkhoM ko nimaMtraNa dete haiN| isa jIvana meM isa bhUla ko doharAnA nahIM hai / isa jIvana meM to duHkhoM ko svIkAra karate hue, dUsaroM ko sukha dene kA hI kAma karanA hai / - 'AIye hamAre pAsa, sukha ko svIkAra kara, hameM sukhI karane kI kRpA kIjie !' For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 269 121. abhI Age aura mukAma hai / - AzA, pratIkSA aura svapna, manuSya ko kahIM nahIM le jA skte| - usake cAroM ora kI sthitiyA~ hI usake liye saba kucha nirdhArita karatI haiM - vAMchita-avAMchita, anukUla-pratikUla | __- alabattA, sthitiyA~-paristhitiyA~ manuSya kI niyati ke adhIna hotI hoMgI, parantu niyati ko ajJAnI kaise jAna sakatA hai? niyati nizcita hai, hama anizcita haiN| - niyati ke sAtha-sAtha hamArI AzAe~ nahIM calatI haiM, hamAre svapna nahIM calate haiN| niyati kucha hotI hai, hamArI AzAe~ kucha aura! hama sukhoM kI AzAe~ saMjoye rakhate haiM hamAre bhItara aura saphalatA kI pratIkSA karate rahate haiN| svapna bhI una sukhoM ke dekhate rahate haiM! pratikUla niyati hamArI AzAoM ko miTTI meM milA detI hai, hamAre svapnoM ko havA banA detI hai| __- Adata ho gaI hai AzAe~ karane kI! - vyasana ho gayA hai sukha ke svapna dekhane kA! dasare bAhya vyasanoM se chuTanA AsAna hai, isa bhItarI vyasana se chuTanA AsAna nahIM hai| isa vyasana se kaise chuTakArA ho? - ciMtana kA viSaya bana gayA hai| - sthitiyoM-paristhitiyoM ke prati Akroza karanA vyartha hai| paristhitiyoM ke nirmANa meM dUsare manuSyoM ke doSa dekhanA bhI vyartha hai| paristhitiyoM ke pIche niyati khar3I hai! manuSya kI khuda kI niyati! ___ - jo kucha hamAre liye nizcita hai, hameM sahajatA se usako svIkAra kara lenA caahie| sahajatA se sukha-duHkha ko svIkAra kara lenA cAhie | sahaja jIvana meM hI sahaja zAMti milatI hai| _ 'mujhe kisI sukha kI AzA nahIM hai, kisI sukha kI pratIkSA nahIM hai... kisI sukha ke svapna nahIM haiN|' punaH-punaH isa saMkalpa ko bhItara meM doharAte rahanA hai| - vartamAna niyati meM paritRpti! - hara paristhiti kA sahaja svIkAra! - koI phariyAda nahIM, koI zikAyata nahIM! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI jo paristhiti Aja hamAre sAmane hai - vahI hamArI niyati hai / - vartamAna niyati ko hI hama jAna pAte haiM, vartamAna kSaNa kI niyati ko hI ! dUsare kSaNa kI niyati se hama anabhijJa haiN| hA~, dUsare kSaNa niyati badala sakatI hai ! * isa kSaNa jIvana hai, dUsare kSaNa mRtyu ho sakatI hai| * isa kSaNa priya kA saMyoga hai, dUsare kSaNa viyoga ho sakatA hai| O isa kSaNa nirogitA hai, dUsare kSaNa rugNatA ho sakatI hai| * isa kSaNa svAdhInatA hai, dUsare kSaNa parAdhInatA ho sakatI hai| O isa kSaNa zAMti hai, dUsare kSaNa azAMti ho sakatI hai| 0 niyati nizcita hai ... pratyeka jIvAtmA kI / bhaya, ciMtA aura udvega se mukti milegii| - harSa-viSAda aura rati- arati se mukti milegI / - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir * utthAna aura patana nizcita hai, pratyeka jIvAtmA ke / * unnati aura avanati nizcita hai, pratyeka jIvAtmA kI / pratyeka jIvAtmA apanI-apanI niyati se Abaddha hai / niyati ke baMdhana se koI jIvAtmA mukta nahIM hai ! - na rahegA kartRtva kA abhimAna, na rahegA niSphalatA kA avasAda ! 270 * paraspara ke saMbaMdha - snehasaMbaMdha bhI niyati ke adhIna haiM / 'saMbaMdhoM kA bananAbigar3anA niyati ke adhIna hai' - isa satya ko hajama karane para saMbaMdhajanya rAgadveSa se mukti milegI... jIvasRSTi ke prati sahaja maitrI bana jAyegI / AzA, pratIkSA aura svapna hameM kahIM nahIM le jA sakate haiM, na hameM kucha banAte haiM, hamArI niyati hI hameM svarga meM yA naraka meM le jaayegii| hameM manuSya, pazu yA deva, niyati banAyegI / adRzya, azrAvya aura aspRzya hai, yaha niyati kA tattva! sabhI AtmAoM ke sAtha jur3A huA hai / hara eka mukAma se Age mukAma hai terA / jiMdagI niyati ke khilaune ke sivA aura kucha nahIM ! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI www.kobatirth.org 122. badalA lene kI rIta `Worldly Goods' nAma kI novela meM 'pola phAsTara' ne eka suMdara vAkya likhA hai : Living well is the best revenge. 'duzmanI kA badalA lene kA uttama mArga hai suMdara jIvana jInA / ' Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir kyA patA, pola phAsTara ko yaha satya amarIkana presIDenTa abrAhama liMkana se prApta huA hogA yA dUsare se, paraMtu liMkana ke mu~ha se bhI eka bAra aise hI zabda nikale the| 271 abrAhama liMkana ne eka bAra apane dakSiNa ke virodhiyoM kI prazaMsA kI / suna kara eka mahilA jhuMjhalA gaI : 'kyA Apa apane duzmanoM kI prazaMsA karate ho? duzmanoM kA to nAza hI karanA cAhie / ' liMkana ne muskarA kara kahA : 'vahI to maiM kara rahA hU~! unakI saccI prazaMsA kara, unako maiM apane mitra banA rahA hU~ ! kyA isa taraha maiM duzmanoM kA nAza nahIM kara rahA hU~?' - duzmana... zatru ... vairI... dveSI ! koI hamAre hote haiM, hama kisI ke hote haiN| jo mahAtmA hote haiM, jo satpuruSa hote haiM, jo yogI hote haiM, ve kisI ke zatru nahIM hote haiM, parantu unake prati duzmanI rakhanevAle, zatrutA rakhanevAle loga hote haiM! - - bhagavAna mahAvIra jIvamAtra ke mitra the, paraMtu unake prati zatrutA rakhanevAle gozAlaka vagairaha aneka loga the| - rAma ke zatru the aura kRSNa ke bhI zatru the| - hemacandrasUri ke zatru the aura upAdhyAya yazovijayajI ke bhI zatru the| paraMtu bhagavAna mahAvIra ne zatrutA ke sAmane, duzmanI ke sAmane hiMsA kA mArga nahIM liyA, ahiMsA aura karuNA kA mArga liyA / hiMsA kA mArga sAmAnya vIra kA hogA, ahiMsA kA mArga mahAvIra kA hai| zatru kA nAza nahIM, zatru ko mitra banAkara zatrutA kA nAza karanA hai / - apane prati zatrutA - duzmanI rakhanevAloM ke prati 'mujhe inheM bhI mitra banAne haiM,' aisA vicAra paidA honA cAhie hRdaya meM / For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 272 ___ - 'cAhe ve mujhe duzmana mAneM, maiM unako mitra mAnatA hU~ aura mAnatA rhuuNgaa|' aisA dRr3ha saMkalpa caahie| ___ - zatru ko mitra banAne ke liye mana meM maitrIbhAva, vANI meM prazaMsA aura kArya meM hitakAritA rakhanI hogii| ___ - vaha kucha bhI soce, kucha bhI bole, kucha bhI kare... hameM usakI upekSA karanI hogI aura hamako nirvaira bhAvanA ko akSuNNa rakhate hue suMdara jIvana jInA hogA | - muzkila to hai mahAvIra ke mArga para clnaa| paraMtu satya aura prazasta mArga yahI hai| __- hamane sahanazIlatA kho dI hai| hama asahiSNu bana gaye haiN| - hama apane eka zabda kI niMdA bhI samatA se nahIM suna skte| niMdA karanevAle ko duzmana mAnate haiN| __- thor3A-sA bhI hamArA ahita karane vAle ko, nukasAna karane vAle ko hama mitra nahIM mAna sakate haiM, zatru hI mAnate haiN| ___ - saMsArI kI aisI sthiti hai, sAdhu bhI aisI sthiti meM dikhAyI dete haiM / zatru ke prati zatrutApUrNa vANI aura vyvhaar| - prema, maitrI aura karuNA ke prati vizvAsa hI nahIM rahA hai| - phira paramAtmA ke prati vizvAsa kisa bAta kA? vizvAsa nahIM rahA hai, vizvAsa hone kA daMbha ho rahA hai - phira bhI nirdabha hone kA dikhAvA...!! samajhadAra hone kA dikhAvA! aise samajhadAroM ko to bhagavAna bhI nahIM samajhA skte| ___ - koI hamAre sAtha kaisA bhI vyavahAra kare, hameM to zubha, suMdara aura maMgalamaya jIvana hI jInA hai| isalie hameM apanI sahanazakti bar3hAnI hai| duHkhoM ko sahane kI zakti prApta karanI hai| kisI bhI jIva ko duHkhI karane kA to vicAra bhI nahIM karanA hai| - aisA jIvana kaba banegA? aisA jIvana... mahAvIra kA mArga a~ca to gayA hai dila aura dimAga ko, paraMtu ho nahIM rahA hai aisA jIvana / duHkha hai isa bAta kA hRdaya meN| ciMtA bhI hotI rahatI hai ki 'isa manuSya-jIvana ko yadi suMdara nahIM banAyA... to phira kyA hogA?' he prabho! mere samagra astitva ko premamaya, maitrImaya aura karuNAmaya banA do... Apa se aura kucha bhI nahIM mA~gatA huuN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 273 [ 123. kahA~ se kahA~ taka? | ya cIna kA prAcIna tattvaciMtaka 'lAotse' rAste para se gujara rahA thaa| eka paricita ne pUchA : 'Apa kahA~ jA rahe ho?' lAotse ne kahA : 'maiM jahA~ se AyA hU~, vahA~ vApasa jA rahA huuN|' usa puruSa ne kahA : 'lekina isa taraha adRzya ho jAyeMge to loga ciMtA kareMge Apake viSaya meN|' lAotse ne kahA : 'merA janma huA taba maiM ajJAnI thA, isalie janma ke samaya thor3I AvAja... thor3I halacala... aura thor3A zora huA thaa| paraMtu merI mRtyu jJAnI kI mRtyu hai| mRtyu ke samaya koI AvAja na ho - usakI maiM sAvadhAnI rakhatA huuN| merI mRtyu koI ghaTanA na bana jAe, isakA khayAla karatA huuN|' - ajJAnI janamatA hai to zora aura AvAja! - ajJAnI jItA hai to zora aura AvAja! - aura ajJAnI maratA hai to bhI zora aura AvAja! - eka mAtra tIrthaMkaroM ko chor3a kara, jo bhI jIva janamatA hai, ajJAnI hI hotA hai aura usakA ronA... cillAnA svAbhAvika hotA hai| paraMtu jo jJAnI hote haiM (tIrthaMkara) ve janamate samaya bhI rote nahIM haiM, cillAte nahIM haiN| ___ - ajJAnI ko ha~sanA pasaMda AtA hai, ronA aura rulAnA bhI pasaMda AtA hai| basa, AvAja karanA! bolate rahanA! cillAte rahanA! - aise loga marate haiM to bhI cillAte hue! eka ghaTanA bana jAtI hai usakI mRtyu | loga yAda rakhate haiM usa mRtyu kI ghaTanA ko- 'arere, becArA marate samaya kitanA karAhatA thA? kitanA cillAtA thA? naraka kI vedanA sahate hue mraa|' - ajJAnI ko ghaTanAe~ jyAdA pasaMda AtI haiN| ghaTanA meM logoM kI dilacaspI bhI adhika hotI hai| - mauna... zAnta... dhyAnastha vyakti kI ora loga nahIM dekhate haiM, paraMtu koI garaja-garaja kara bolatA hai, sar3aka para daur3atA hai, rotA hai yA gAtA hai... to loga usako dekhate haiN| kucha nahIM to jora-jora se khA~satA rahatA hai to For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 274 AsapAsa ke loga to usako dekheMge hI! ajJAnI ko ghaTanA pasaMda AtI hai jJAnI puruSa ghaTanA pasaMda nahIM krte| jyoM-jyoM jJAna kI pariNati bar3hatI jAtI hai, tyoM-tyoM jJAnI mauna ke mahAsAgara meM utaratA jAtA hai| duniyA ke logoM se alipta banatA jAtA hai| loga usako bhUla jAya~, yaha bAta usako pasaMda AtI hai| Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir - ve apane jIvana ko 'ghaTanA' nahIM banane dete| ve zAMti se, mauna se jInA pasaMda karate haiM, vaise mRtyu bhI nIrava zAMti meM hI pAnA cAhate haiM / mauna ke mahAsAgara meM DUba jAnA cAhate haiM / - duniyA ke loga aise jJAnI puruSoM ke Age-pIche zora karate haiM, jayajayakAra kI dhvani karate rahate haiM / - duniyA ke loga to zora kareMge hii| unako zora macAne meM hI majA AtA hai / - jJAnI zora ke bIca bhI mauna rahate haiM / bhItara bhI mauna aura bAhara bhI mauna ! bhItara bhI zAnta aura bAhara bhI zAnta ! - mauna ke mahAsAgara meM gote lagAte hue unako bhItara meM paramAtmA ke darzana ho jAte haiN| paramAtmA bhItara hI milate haiM na / apUrva AnaMda kI anubhUti hotI hai vahA~ / - phira ve bAhara ke kSaNika AnaMda kI icchA bhI kyoM kareMge ? icchA uThane kA savAla hI nahIM rahatA / ve samatA-samAdhi aura jJAna - dhyAna meM lIna rahate haiM / vizva kA avalokana bhI ve madhyastha bhAva se karate rahate haiN| AtmanA AtmAnamAtmani pazyati / AtmA se AtmA ko ve dekhate haiN| AtmA se bAhara kucha bhI nahIM! 'aNu' ko dekhane-parakhane meM bhI vijJAnI ko kitanI sUkSmatA meM utaranA par3atA hai ! to phira aNu-paramANu se bhI bahuta hI sUkSma AtmA meM utarane ke liye... kitanI gaharAI meM jAnA par3e? - - mauna se, zAMti se... samatA se hI bhItara kI gaharAI ko chU sakate haiM.... ki jahA~ paramAtmA kA darzana hotA hai, divya AnaMda kI anubhUti hotI hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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yahI hai jiMdagI 275 va 124. 'yaha bhI calA jAyegA' i abrAhama liMkana ke Tebala para yaha sUtra rahatA thAThis day also will pass.' 'yaha dina bhI calA jAyegA! - jaba manuSya zAnta aura prasanna hotA hai taba vaha yaha nahIM socatA hai ki 'kaba yaha dina pUrA hogA?' paraMtu jaba vaha azAnta hotA hai, duHkhI hotA hai taba yaha socatA hai ki 'kaba yaha dina pUrA hogA?' vaha aisA mahasUsa karatA hai ki jaise samaya sthagita ho gayA hai... sUrya sthira ho gayA hai...! __- aise azAnta, udvigna aura saMtapta manuSya ko apane samakSa yaha sUtra rakhanA cAhie - This day also will pass! - samaya kabhI sthagita nahIM hotA hai| kAla kA pravAha avirata gati se baha rahA hai| anaMta kAla se bahatA rahA hai, anaMta kAla taka bahatA rhegaa| anAdianaMta hai kAlapravAha! ___ - mana ko yaha satya a~canA cAhie | jaba naraka aura nigoda kA bhayAnaka duHkhamaya kAla vyatIta ho gayA hai to phira isa manuSya-jIvana kA 50-100 sAla kA kAla vyatIta hone meM kyA dera lagegI? eka dina vyatIta hone meM kyA dera lagegI? - dhairya dhAraNa karanA hogaa| - hA~, kucha duHkha to samaya ke sAtha baha jAte haiN| - duHkha ke vicAroM se, azAti ke nimittoM se mana ko mukta karane kI kalA prApta karanI hogI aura vaha kalA hai, apane priya.. manapasaMda kAryoM meM otaprota rhnaa| - isalie, apane priya kArya eka-do nahIM paraMtu pA~ca-dasa hone caahie| kyoMki priya kArya bhI dIrghakAla taka karate rahane se mana thaka jAtA hai| yadi hameM dUsare bhI kArya priya haiM to eka kArya ke bAda dUsarA kArya kara ke mana ko AnaMda se bharA huA rakha sakate haiN| dina, mahInA, varSa... kaba pUrA ho jAyegA, mAlUma hI nahIM pdd'egaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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276 yahI hai jiMdagI __- kabhI aisA bhI hotA hai ki eka kArya karane ke saMyoga nahIM hote haiM taba dUsarA priya kArya kara sakate haiN| vaha kArya karane ke saMyoga nahIM ho to tIsarA priya kArya kara sakate haiN| ___- eka mahilA isalie duHkhI thI ki vaha bImArI kI vajaha se tapazcaryA nahIM kara sakatI thI aura tapazcaryA usakA priya viSaya thA | maiMne usako kahA : 'tuma paramAtmabhakti karake apanI AtmA ko saMtuSTa karatI rho|' paraMtu paramAtmabhakti usakA priya viSaya nahIM thA! maiMne kahA : 'tuma acchI saMskArapoSaka kitAbeM par3hatI raho aura prasannatA se samaya vyatIta kro|' usako kitAbeM par3hane meM bhI rasa nahIM thaa| maiMne kahA : 'tuma paramAtmasmaraNa-jApa karatI rho|' usako jApa-dhyAna meM bhI rasa nahIM thA! usako to kevala tapazcaryA meM hI rasa thA aura vaha tapazcaryA nahIM kara sakatI thii| isalie usakA samaya udAsI se vyatIta hotA thaa| aMta meM maiMne kahA : 'dhairya dhAraNa karo, bImArI dUra ho jAyegI aura tuma punaH tapazcaryA karane meM samartha bnogii|' taba usake mukha para prasannatA A gayI! ___ - jina logoM ke pAsa acche kArya nahIM hote haiM, ghara kA kAma bhI nahIM hotA hai, sAmAjika pravRtti yA dhArmika pravRtti meM rasa nahIM hotA hai, vaise loga 'TAima pAsa' karane ke liye sinemA dekhate haiM, viDiyo dekhate haiM, haoNTaloM meM jAte haiM, zarAba pIte haiM... juA khelate haiM aura aisA karate hue ve apane mana-vacana-kAyA ko naSTa kara dete haiN| ___ - priya kArya bhI acchA honA caahie| jIvana ko UrdhvagAmI banAnevAlA honA caahie| svayaM ke liye aura dUsaroM ke liye hitakArI honA caahie| aise kucha acche kAryoM meM rasAnubhUti hotI rahe... to jIvana sadaiva, pratikSaNa AnaMda se paripUrNa banA raha sakatA hai| - anyathA, koI bhI upAya nahIM hai zAMti aura sukha pAne kA | saMsAra meM koI eka viSaya kA AnaMda sadaiva prApta nahIM ho sakatA hai| ___ saMyogoM ke parivartana ke sAtha hamAre priya kArya badalate rahane cAhie / kArya ke parivartana meM koI glAni nahIM honI caahie| koI hicakicAhaTa nahIM honI caahie| eka priya kArya chor3akara dUsarA priya kArya apanAne meM hicakicAhaTa kaisI? bhojana karane ke bAda ArAma karane meM kyA manuSya hicakicAtA hai? For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI (125. prema 'plasa pAiMTa' dekhatA hai 277 'cekhova' kI eka acchI- bar3hiyA kahAnI hai / eka strI apane pati ko dUsarI strI ke viSaya meM kahatI hai : usa strI ne eka bhraSTa, pApI manuSya ke sAtha zAdI kI... kaisI adhogati ? usakI jagaha maiM hotI aura merA pati vaisA hotA to eka kSaNa bhI usake sAtha maiM nahIM rahatI, usako chor3akara calI jAtI / patnI kI bAta sunakara pati dhIre se apane jIvana kI bAta karatA hai ki usane kaise-kaise bhraSTAcAra kiye the, kaise pApakArya kiye the| patnI kahatI rahI : 'nA, nA, aisA to Apa kareM hI nahIM... athavA aise-aise saMyoga meM Apako vaise kAma karane par3e hoNge...|' paraMtu pati ne spaSTa zabdoM meM kahA ki maiMne aise galata kArya kiye hI haiN| cekhova likhatA hai : pAThaka mujhe pUcheMge - 'kyA yaha saba sunakara patnI pati ko chor3akara calI gaI?' 'hA~, calI gaI, paraMtu pAsa vAle kamare meM !' kitanI marmasparzI kahAnI likhI hai cekhova ne ! manuSya ke mana kI gaharAI ko chUtI hai yaha kahAnI / jahA~... jisake prati prema hotA hai, usake doSa dekhane para bhI mana doSa nahIM mAnatA hai, doSa sunane para bhI doSa nahIM mAnatA hai| doSa sunakara yA dekhakara vaha samAdhAna kara letA hai mana ke sAtha - 'kyA kareM? aise saMyoga meM aisI galatI ho hI jAtI hai / athavA isameM kyA ho gayA ? yaha koI galatI hai kyA...?' For Private And Personal Use Only jisake prati prema nahIM hotA hai, lagAva nahIM hotA hai ... aruci yA abhAva hotA hai... usakA choTA-sA bhI doSa dekhakara yA sunakara usa doSa ko bar3A dekhatA hai manuSya / doSa ko 'enlArja' kara vaha duniyA ke sAmane rakhatA hai| usa strI ko apane pati se prema thA isalie pati svayaM apane doSoM ko batAtA hai, phira bhI mAnane ko taiyAra nahIM hotI hai! una galatiyoM ko mahattva nahIM detI hai| isase usakA patiprema akhaMDa rahatA hai / kleza aura jhagar3e se vaha baca jAtI hai| donoM kA jIvanapravAha askhalita bahatA rahatA hai / bhaviSya meM prema ke mAdhyama se vaha pati ke doSoM ko sudhAra bhI sakatI hai|

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278 yahI hai jiMdagI dUsarI bAta : - doSadRSTi se jisake bhI doSa manuSya dekhatA rahatA hai, usake prati dveSa ho hI jAtA hai| - phira doSa-prakAzana kA kAma hotA hai| - bAda meM vaira baMdha jAtA hai| - lar3AI aura khUna-kharAbA ho jAtA hai| - jiMdagI aise hI vyartha pUrI ho jAtI hai| - parantu jiMdagI kA sArthakya, doSadarzI kahA~ samajhatA hai? dUsaroM se prema... sneha... sahAnubhUti rakhane kI bAta unake jar3a dimAgoM meM kahA~ utaratI hai? unako majA AtA hai (kSaNika) sirpha dUsaroM ke doSa dekhane meM, dUsaroM kI nindA karane meM... aura dUsaroM se ghRNA karane meN| ___- yaha saba karane ke bAda ye loga bhogate rahate haiM, azAMti aura udvega | sahate rahate haiM, trAsa aura viddNbnaaeN| phira bhI ve apanI doSa-darzana kI bhUla nahIM samajha pAte haiN| punaH-punaH yaha bhUla karate rahate haiM aura.. ___- tIrthaMkaroM ne aura sabhI AptapuruSoM ne 'guNadarzana' karane kA upadeza diyA hai, mArgadarzana diyA hai| - 'doSa apane dekho, guNa dUsaroM ke dekho|' parantu kauna mAnatA hai isa upadeza ko? kauna jItA hai apane jIvana meM isa upadeza ko? upadeza kevala zAstroM meM raha gayA hai| - dUsaroM ke doSa dekhanevAle kyA svayaM doSarahita haiM? parantu doSadarzI kI yaha Adata hotI hai ki jo doSa usameM hotA hai, vaha doSa dUsaroM meM dekhakara nindA karanA! are, dUsaroM meM doSAropaNa bhI karate haiM aura nindA karate haiN| ___ - guNadarzana hI karate rheN| doSa dekhanevAloM meM bhI hameM guNa dikhAI deM...| AtmA ke... vizuddha AtmA ke anaMta guNa dikhAI deM... basa, jIvana sArthaka bana jaae| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra yahI hai jiMdagI & www.kobatirth.org - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir 126. tulanA ko bhUlanA hogA...! tulanA ! manuSya kI Adata ho gaI hai tulanA karane kI / vaha apane se bar3e ke sAtha apanI tulanA karatA hai, vaise apane se choTe ke sAtha bhI apanI tulanA karatA hai| jaba bar3e ke sAtha tulanA karatA hai taba hInabhAvanA se bhara jAtA hai aura jaba choTe ke sAtha tulanA karatA hai taba zreSThatA ke ahaMkAra se bhara jAtA hai / - hInatA kI bhAvanA aura zreSThatA kI bhAvanA - donoM khataranAka haiM / hInatA kI bhAvanA meM se udAsI aura nirAzA paidA hotI hai| kabhI IrSyA bhI paidA hotI hai| 'yaha mere se jyAdA dhanavAna hai, yaha mere se jyAdA buddhimAna hai, se jyAdA lokapriya hai, yaha mere se jyAdA balavAna hai...' - 279 * kabhI usako girAne kI icchA hotI hai, kabhI svayaM gira jAtA hai! - hInabhAvanA se prerita hokara choTe bhAI ne bar3e bhAI ke ghara meM jAkara bhojana meM jahara milAyA hai| aise hI zreSThatA kI bhAvanA ke kaTu pariNAma dekhane meM Ate haiN| dUsaroM ko dutkAranA, dUsaroM ke sAtha aziSTa vyavahAra karanA, aziSTa, asabhya aura kaThora bhASAprayoga karanA, - * hInabhAvanA se prerita hokara bhAI ne bahana kI jiMdagI meM Aga sulagAI hai| hInabhAvanA se prerita hokara manuSya ne AtmahatyA kara lI hai / hInabhAvanA se prerita hokara manuSya ne dUsaroM kI hatyA karane ke prayAsa kiye haiM / yaha mere For Private And Personal Use Only kabhI dUsaroM ko kaSTa denA, dUsaroM kI hatyA karanA / isa prakAra donoM prakAra kI bhAvanAoM ke kaTu pariNAma haiM, aisA jAnakara, ina bhAvanAoM se mukta honA caahie| paraMtu mana kahatA hai- 'koI eka bhAvanA to A hI jAtI hai / ' kyoMki hama apane jIvana - kAryoM meM rasa nahIM lete haiN| hama apanI sundara kalpanAsRSTi nahIM raca sakate haiN|

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280 yahI hai jiMdagI ___ - apane svayaM ke kucha acche racanAtmaka kArya hone cAhie aura una kAryoM ko jyAdA se jyAdA sundara banAne kA niraMtara prayatna honA caahie| - apane aura apane mitroM ke liye sundara bhaviSya kI kalpanAe~ honI caahie| kevala kalpanA nahIM, paraMtu yojanAbaddha kalpanAe~ honI caahie| - yadi hama hamArA choTe se choTA kArya bhI sundara banAne ke liye dattacitta hoMge to ve hInabhAvanAe~ aura uccatA kI bhAvanAe~ hamAre mana meM praveza hI nahIM kara paayeNgii| - hamAre choTe-bar3e kAryoM meM hameM masta rahanA hai| cAhe hamAre cAroM ora kSubdhatA ho, kolAhala ho yA prapaMca ho| hai bhI sahI yaha hamAre cAroM ora | phira bhI hamAre priya kArya meM hameM masta rahanA hai| - hA~, jahA~ prema kI apekSA ho vahA~ hArdika prema denA, paraMtu mamatA kA khAlI dikhAvA nahIM krnaa| vaise hI, dUsaroM ke prema ko kevala dikhAvA nahIM mAnanA hai, prema ko vakratA se nahIM dekhanA hai| - yadi hInabhAvanA se mana bharA huA hogA to dUsaroM kA prema kevala dikhAvA lagegA, dUsaroM kI mamatA sirpha pravaMcanA lgegii| ___- yadi zreSThatA kI bhAvanA se mana bharA huA hogA to khuda kA prema saccA lagegA, dUsaroM kA prema dNbh| ___ - paraMtu ye donoM prakAra kI asat bhAvanAe~ niSkriyatA meM se paidA hotI haiN| jaba manuSya ke pAsa koI acchA... priya kArya nahIM hotA hai, vaha niSkriya hotA hai... taba baiThe hue aisI tulanAe~ karatA rahatA hai| isalie kahatA hU~ ki binA prayojana dUsaroM kI saMpatti mata dekho, dUsaroM kA parivAra mata dekho, dUsaroM kA vyaktitva mata dekho, Apa to apane hI kAryoM meM nimagna raho jIvanaparyaMta! jaba kArya na ho taba paramAtmA ke jApa-dhyAna meM nimagna ho jaanaa| svastha... prasanna aura saMtulita jiMdagI jIne kA kyA yaha sahI rAstA nahIM For Private And Personal Use Only

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AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdira / kobA tIrtha asagardo Sri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kanda koba Tirth, Ganatinagur 362007 (GU) INDIA Websitewww.kobatirthiorg E-mail: gyanmandir@kabatirth.org ISBN: 978-81-89177-11-9 For Private And Personal Use Only