Karmpath

Author(s): Premnarayan Tandan
Publisher: Vidyamandir Ranikatra Lakhnou
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/010395/1

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REPAR r MERecra want : Amers I premana paNa TaMDana, ema0 e0 sAhitya ratna vAdira.

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karmapatha cAra ekAMkI premanArAyaNa TaMDana, ema0 e0

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prakAzaka vidyAmaMdira, rAnIkaTarA, lakhanaU prathama saMskaraNa vijayadazamI, 1650 mUlya-savA rUpayA mudraka vidyAmaMdira presa, rAnIkaTaga, lakhanaU

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nivedana "preraNA' (1645 ) merA prathama ekAMkI-saMgraha thA aura 'saMkalpa' (1646) dUsarA / cAra varSa bAda aba yaha tIsarA saMkalana prakAzita ho rahA hai| prathama ke prakAzana ke avasara para bo saMkoca thA, usase bahuta kucha mukti 'saMkalpa' ke sAtha mujhe mila gayI thii| aura aba 'karmapatha' para mai nirbhaya hokara vicara rahA huuN| AlocakoM kI sammati kA savinaya svAgata karane ke lie Aja maiM prastuta huuN| unakI niSpakSatA merA patha prazasta karegI, isakA mujhe vizvAsa hai| -pre nA0 TaMDana

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sUcI 1 karmapatha 2 rogI ke vacce 3 lekhaka kI patnI

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Any ziSyavara premanArAyaNa TaMDana saphala pAlocaka hI nahI hai, pApana lalita sAhitya kA nirmANa bhI kiyA hai / prastuta pustaka meM unake cAra ekAMkI nATaka saMgRhIta hai| pahalA 'karmapatha' atukAMta padya meM hai| Rgvaidika gAthA kA eka choTA sA aMzale kara suruguru dvArA apane putra ko Adeza dene ke bahAne kuzala lekhaka ne bhAratIya navayuvakoM ko karmapatha para calane ke lie lalakArA hai suno karuNa kraMdana apanI mAtAoM kA, ArtanAda . hRdayavidAraka dalitoM kA ; bahate dekha cuke to aneka bAra A~sU khUna ke ; aba to uTho, kartavya nija soco svadeza ke prati tuma, mAtA tAka rahI hai prAzA ho usakI, tuma hI AzA ke prANa ho; sa~deza hai merA tumase, navayuvakoM se nija svadeza-prAsAda ke pramukha stambhoM se / isa lalakAra ke pahale suruguru apane putra ko isa karmapatha kA saMketa jI kahate haiM jAo tuma prAta hI pAsa zrI zukrAcArya ke dAnavoM ke guruvara haiM jo ati vijJa haiM

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( 6 ) saMjIvanI vidyA meM; sIkhanA unase yahI / svataMtra bhArata kI vartamAna paristhiti meM suruguru ke Adeza bhAratIya navayuvakoM ke lie bhI ghaTita hote haiM ki surabhUmi bhArata AdhyAtmikatA kA keMdra rahA, mAnavatA ke pATha hama par3hate-par3hAte rahe, paratu dAnavoM kI saMjIvanI vidyA arthAt vijJAna se anabhijJa rahe / ataeva devAsura saMgrAma meM devabhUmi kI hAra huii| asuroM kI pArasparika mArakATa ke pariNAma me devabhUmi bhArata ko svataMtra hone kA avasara milA hai to zIghra hI Adhunika zukrAcArya se hamAre navayuvakoM ko vijJAna kI saMjIvanI vidyA sIkhanI hai, tabhI hama apanI svataMtratA kI rakSA kara sakeMge / surugura kA putra 'kaca' zaMkA karatA hai: sivAyage riSu kA ho vidyA saMjIvanI ve kATeMge hAtha se DAla apanI kyA svayaM hI ? usakA samAdhAna suruguru karate haiM siddhi yahI vidyA kI / vidyA dAna se hI bar3hatI hai, pAzcAtya vidvAnoM ne vaijJAnikoM meM vijJAna - vinimaya karake hI vaijJAnika unnati kI / prAcya saMsAra na use chipAne aura baMda rakhane kA prayatna kiyA gayA / ataeva yahA~ vidyA phUla - phala na sakI / isa ekAMkI nATaka kA eka ghaMTe ke bhItara saralatA se abhinaya ho sakatA hai /

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agale tIna ekAMkI gadya meM hI haiM / pahale 'rogI ke bacce' meM bhAvuka sAhityika ke roga-grasta hone para usake pArivArika jIvana kA eka kAruNika dRzya hai / rogI ke tIna bacce hai / daza varSa kI zIlA ne mA~-bApa se bhojana kI kamI para dArzanikatA prakaTa karanA sIkhA hai, apane choTe bhAI satIza ko vaha samajhAtI hai aura phira donoM kA zaMkA-samAdhAna unakA bar3A bhAI rAkeza karatA hai / vArtAlApa meM bAla-manovijJAna kI rakSA bar3e kauzala se kI gaI hai| inake vArtAlApa kI pRSThabhUmi meM par3osI saMpanna parivAroM ke baccoM ke DhaMga kA raMga car3hAkara lekhaka ne ina tInoM pAtroM kA citraNa bahuta kAruNika kara diyA hai / bacce bhagavAna ko kisa pralAra samajheM, unheM bhagavAna se AzA aura sAMtvanA mile, yahIM para isa ekAMkI kI carama sImA hai zIlA-bhaiyA, tuma kyA mA~goge rAma jI se ? ' rAseza-maiM ! mai to yahI mA~gUgA ki hamAre bAbU jI ko acchA kara do| ve.......... ve acche ho jAyeMge to hamAre lie miThAIkapar3e sabhI kucha le paaeNge| [ satIza aura zIlA rAkeza kI ora dekhate haiM / pazcAta, donoM eka dUsare kI ora dekhate hai / ] zIlA-(kucha socatI huI) ThI bhaiyA meM bhI yahI maaNguugii| satIza-calo, calo maiM bhI yahI mA~gUgA / yahIM nATaka samApta hotA hai aura darzaka bhI yahI mA~gane lagata haiN| ' yadi yaha ekAMkI bAlakoM ke vidyAlaya meM abhinaya karane yogya hai, to isake bAda 'lekhaka kI patnI' kA abhinaya bAlikA vidyAlaya meM honA

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caahie| yaha ekAMkI par3hakara mujhe sudarzana-kRta 'kavi kI strI' kI yAda A gayI / kavi kI strI patita ho jAtI hai, paraMtu isa ekAMkI meM lekhaka kI patnI apanI mAlatI aura niraMjanA jaisI sakhiyoM ke udyoga se baca jAtI hai / vaha apane pati kA mahatva samajhane lagatI hai rezamI sAr3I kA mUlya maiM samajha gaI hU~, mujhe aba khaddara kI sAr3I hI lA denA / (hAtha jor3akara sajala netra) merI aba taka kI bhUla ke lie kSamA kro| aMtima ekAMkI meM IsA bhAratIya guru kA mAnavIya saMdeza lekara usakA apanI janmamUmi meM pracAra karate dikhAye gaye hai| IsA kA to eka ziSya unhe krAsa taka pahu~cAtA hai, paraMtu vaha use bhI kSamA karate hai aura krAsa kA dRzya dikhAna ke pahale yavavikA gira jAtI hai / becana zarmA 'ugra' kA 'mahAtmA IsA' unakI sthAyI sAhityika kRti hai| paraMtu usakA abhinaya tIna-cAra ghaMTe se kama meM samApta nahIM hotaa| isa ekAMkI kA abhinaya eka ghaMTe ke bhItara samApta ho sakatA hai / IsAI vidyAlayoM meM ho nahI, anya vidyAlayoM meM bhI isake abhinaya se bAlakoM kA manoraMjana to hogA hI, usase ve usa pATha kI punarAvRtti bhI kara sakeMge jise Adhunika kAla meM sakriya rUpa meM mahAtmA gA~dhI ne hama diyA hai| premanArAyaNa jI aise hI, inase bhI acche, ekAMkI nATaka likha sake , yahI merI zubha kAmanA hai / -kAlidAsa kapUra

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karma patha

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pAtra vRhaspati - devatAoM ke pUjya AcArya; unake zubhacintaka, 5,, yuddha meM nirdezaka aura nAyaka / vRddhAvasthA / kaca ---- zrAcArya bRhaspati kA ekAkI putra | yuvAvasthA meM padArpaNa karatA kizora, jo svadeza - gaurava kI rakSA meM mara miTane ko parama saubhAgya samajhatA hai / sthAna amarAvatI meM zrAcArya kA tapovana /

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pUrvakathA deva-dAnava-yuddha meM svapakSa kI hAra dekha sureza ne parAjaya kA doSa zrAcArya vRhaspati ke mAthe mar3hA aura bharI sabhA meM unakA apamAna kiyA / vRddha zrAcArya isa para kupita ho pada tyAga sabhA-bhavana se cale ge| parantu, dUsare hI kSaNa, sthiti kI bhayaGkaratA ne unheM deva-rakSA aura kalyANa ke lie koI upAya socane ko vivaza kiyaa| usI samaya kA dRzya hai|

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( 12 ) [ unnata mArtaNDa ke patana kA samaya thA; yauvana-mada utara cukA thA dineza kA; uddaNDatA na bacI, gambhIratA chA rahI thI, prakharatA bhI zAnta ho gaI thI dhIre-dhIre--- aoja jyoM pariNata huA ho mAdhurya meM---.. yA dukha, kSobha, glAni se rakta-varNa huaA ho kudazA dekha atyAcAra-pIr3ita janoM kI / svAbhAvika dIkhate prakRti ke dRzya mabhI--- vAyu meM zeSa rAva-sAhacarya kA aMza thA, para nirbala huaA thA umake patana se / nirjIva-se hue prANImAtra kumhalAe-se, cara-acara sabhI usa Rtu meM grISma kI / zAnta ravikara-nikara nirakha sA~sa lii| santoSa kI unhoMne mana meM yoM mudita ho, kaThora zAsaka ke patana se prasannatA, hotI jyoM prajAjanoM ko bar3e bhAgya se kabhI : jIvana-dAna taba dene lage vahA~, ahA ! AzvAsanA-sA vATikA meM sahRdaya sabhI ; tapta latAoM au' taruvaroM ko mIMcate the, nija kara se uThAte unheM the dhIre-dhIre, raja dhote taba unake mRdu pallavoM kI,

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( 13 ) bahuta mIna dhAra se zotana vAri ko---- dalita achuta putroM ko cumakAratA ho, koI jyoM ; athavA sujana vraNa dho rahe hoM, Ardra bhAva se gghilakara, satarkatA se, kimI sukomala-kalevarA ke zarIra ke / zItala nikuJja kI chAyA meM khar3e dokhate, suraguru the, cintA-dhanAcchAdita ravi-se, vyoma meM ; vicAramagna, sara jhukAe hue, vyasta, ve Tahalate the| A~dhI sI uTha rahI, thI mastiSka meM unake ] suraguru sthiti aisI meM hai kyA kartavya aba merA ? pada tyAga cukA hU~ maiM, ThIka hai ; para janmabhUmi kA RNa to mujhe cukAnA hI hai abhI--kartavyabaddha taba thA, dharmabaddha aba bhI hU~ maiN| [sahasA dekhane lagate haiM ve sAmane ati tIbra dRSTi se eka Taka kSaNa bhara /

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( 14 ) uRNa to ho nahIM sakU~gA kabhI maiM apane isa jIvana meM jananI ke RNa se; kucha cAha bhI nahI-bhAra hI ilakA karanA cAhatA ati vinamra ho, svIkAra kara kRtajJatApUrvaka use maiN| [mocate hue kucha lagate haiM Tahalane / ] vRddha ho gayA hU~, hAya, zAka hai itanA hI, apamAna yaha anyathA dho det| zatruoM ke zANita se yuddha meM, sureza ke samakSa hii| [unnata lalATa para vArivRnda jhalake, bhRkuTI bhI kucha Ter3hI huI ; tabhI unase zAnta ravi-karoM ne zrI vinaya ko yatna se, lupallavoM se chanakara-zAnta ho, zAnta ho / / aura beTA indra ! [svara hai zrAvezarahita / ) Azcarya hai mahAna, sAhasa huA itanA tujhe kaime, kare jo apamAna merA sabhAmadhya ? bhaya bhI na huA tujhe mere zApa kA ? zApa dekara tujhe hA, prasanna na hU~gA maiM ;

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( 15 ) jhoMka sakatA bhAga meM kahI putra ko pitA dAruNa dukha yaha sahe cAhe kitane ho / zikSA saba vyartha huI terI ; lajjita hU~ maiM, guru janoM hI kA sammAna karanA na pAyA jo tujhe, aura kahalAtA surarAja hai tU ? [kara yugala malane lage kheda kara ve bar3A ; pochakara bArivRnda dAhane kara se, dekhakara zUnyAkAza kI ora, unhoMne lI eka bAra lambI usA~sa kucha nirAza ho mana meM aura phira nija mastaka jhukA liyA / nija suputra kaca kI yAda zrI gaI unheM, vicAra-taraGga mAnasAndhi meM lauTatI thii| hRdaya kucha halakA-sA ho gayA unakA, zAnta huzrA ho azAnta sAgara-vega jaise jhaJjhA ke bAda hI / mana meM kucha mudita ho, kSaNabhara pulakita-se socane lage ve ] suputra hI prANAdhAra hotA vRddha pitA kA jagatI para ; suzIla ziSTa dekha use hI nija jIvana janaka sArthaka samajhate / merA bhI hai A~kha kA tArA eka, sumana-sA

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khilA ahA ! sugRha-vATikA meM merI; priya prANapyArA hai lAla vaha jananI kA apanI, dekha-dekha mudita hotI nitya hii| [ lage dIkhane dRgo meM premAzru do unake, sravita hotI paya-dhAra jyoM mAtRstanoM se, umar3atI mamatA hai jaba putra ke lie / para kahA saMyata svara meM unhone-] dUMgA balidAna maiM use hI pUrNAhuti meM jananI-prati-kartavya-pAlana suyajJa kI; praNa-pAlanArtha dayA thA balidAna jaise hRdaya-sA suvana saharSa moradhvaja ne / jananI bhI saMtuSTha ho jAyagI lakha ise, RNabhAra kucha halakA ho jAyagA merA, aura amareza kA zaGkA-samAdhAna hogAna soca sakeMge taba phira ve kabhI-dete na samucita dhyAna guruvara hI hamAre / [ garva se U~cA ho gayA mastaka prAcArya kA / praNAma karatA huzrA nata jana uThA hai nija zIza jyoM Iza ke samIpa, apane ko bhUlakara ati ho bhakti-bhAva se tyoMhI

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* nija bhakta-jana-praNata-pAla kA dhyAna hai kiyA mana hI mana moda-magna atIva ho suvinamra-bhAva se sura-kuleza-pUjya ne / vara-rUpa se mA~gA unhoMne nija Iza se-] deva ! abhilASA hai basa itanI hI merI, tava dAsAnudAsa kI, samajha yaha sake putra merA-sauMpatA hU~ tumheM saharSa isenija mAtRbhUmi ke prati kartavya apanA; jovita rahe tA use hI pUrA karane ke lie- saphala kara kAmanA merI--anyathA, bhAra bana jInA isakA vyartha hai sarvathA / [ jhuke rahe zrAcArya kSaNa bhara zrAveza meM; bhakti se paripUrNa huaA mAnasa unakA; gadgadkaNTha the hue ve, pulakita bhI; nayana sajala donoM kucha muMde hue the / zrAbhAsa-mA huaA unheM--sAkAra viSNu jaise khar3e muskarA rahe hoM samakSa unake / kara kaJja dAhanA, uThA phira dhIre-dhIre; vacana-misa phUla jhaDe ye ha~samukha se---- dhanya hai vorabara ! tyAga ko tumhAre /

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kartavya-pAlanAdarza sujhAyA jagata ko; cira RNI saMsAra samasta tava rahegA; pUrNa saphala hogI zubha kAmanA tumhArI / par3hatI thIM una para lAla-lAla kiraNeM, anurAga se anuraJjita huaA ho jaise / ravi bhI; kara rahA ho prAliGgana moda se / manda-manda baha rahI thI vAyu zItala mI, parasato vaha bAra-bAra zrIcaraNAmbujoM ko, pramannatA ho rahI thI bar3I mana meM ume. sva-maubhAgya sarAhato ho mAno mudita ho; athavA prakaTa karatI thI sva bhAva yahI---- dhanya he tumheM vIravara, tyAga ko tumhAre / hilate the supallava zIza para unake kucha mRdulatA se, ati hI ruciratA se; samAtI na ho praphullatA vyoM aGga-aGga meM; athavA kaha rahe ho taruvara unasedhanya hai tumheM vIravara ! tyAga ko tumhAre / sajala nayana huye ve, premAzru jhalake gAMbujoM meM / zubha darzanArtha zrIvara ke uThAyA unhoMne nijAnana gadgadkaNTha ho /

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( 16 ) dekhA--priya parama suvana aAtA dUra se, zrabhita-sA uThA rahA thA paga jaise gina gina kara / dAhanA kara thA usakA asi-mUTha para; bAhara nikalI huI thI dhAra kucha; camakatI thI vaha vidyuta-sI ghana zthAma meM / caJcalatA-sI dhUma rahI thI netra-dRSTa, hU~r3hatI thI kisI ko, hU~datA jyoM phaNI khoI nija maNi hai vikalatA se / aTaka gaI dRSTi usakI taruvara ke nIce pUjya khar3e the jahA~ zrAcArya usake / devane lagA vaha aura unakI dhyAna se; . gar3I netra jyoti caraNoM meM ; kara rahA ho praNAma jaise vinaya se nata ho, athavA svAgatArtha pitA ke A~kheM bichA dIM putra ne / nikale ve azoka ke nIce se azoka ho, mudita ho moda jaise ; paira bar3hane lage, hAtha uThane lage apane Apa usake / svajana:-tulya rAjIvalocana rAma se milane ko bar3he the bharata jyoM, bar3hA tyoM hI kaca bhI vahA~ aAturatA se, vinamratA se chUne caraNa-kamala janaka ke apane /

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lalakakara lagA liyA lAla ko chAtI se ; cUma liyA ani prema se subhAla usakA / chalaka pAyA prema-vAri unake dRgoM meM ; chalakatA jyoM ahA, nIranidhi kA nIra hai deva priya zazi pUrNa ko rAkA nizA ke / kiJcit saGkoca se kahA putra ne-] pitA jI! [ ani prema se lagana se bahuta pherate hAtha the ve zIza para putra ke ; sulajhAne the kucha ulajhe hue. kucha bigvare hue bAla umake, hilate hue kara kI-par3I thIM jhurriyA~ jisameM zrau' kampana vizeSa thA uMgaliyoM se / rakha diyA kramazaH unhoMne - mukha apanA usake zIza para, cUma ke use phira eka bAra mRda lie apane netra aura taba phira aceta-me ho gae / zAnti milI kSaNa bhara kanca ko bhI isame para zIghra, vikalatA se kiMcita, usane simaTate hue kahA dhIre-dhIre ]

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( 21 ) kaca pitA jI! [ meMde netra kI guruvara ke, jhukI dAhanI palaka para aTakI thI zrAdhI bUda---girI thI AdhI jhapakane se netra ke dhIre dhore, ulajha gaI bAloM meM au' phira girI / saceta huaA kaca zIghra ho, dekhane lagA vaha pitA ko ora ; nikalA vismaya se bar3e, usake mukha se--] kaca pitA jI ! Apa are ! kara rahe haiM yaha kyA ? dukhita haiM kyoM aise ? [ svAbhAvika saralatA se dekhA zrAcArya ne unakI ora ; suskaMdha para thA kara vAyA~, / dAine meM lie hue vAma kara uskaa| pUrNa zAMti mukhamaMDala para yI virAjatI ; hAsya kI maMda rekhA bhI khiMco huI thI vahA~ / dekhate rahe kucha dera ve mukha usakA ; devI eka bAra nikalI thI asi-dhAra jo; socate rahe kucha, taba phira gaMbhIra hue, athAha sAgara dIkhatA zAMta Upara jyoM / ]

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dhadhaka rahI hai Aga bhavAnaka ura meM mere, he pitA jI, sunA hai jaba se. huA hai sAhasa mureza kA itanA, sAmane kare jo A~kha aapke| [ zrAcArya kI ora dekhatA huaA aAveza se ] geke rahA aba taka maiM apane roSa ko, apane Apako-bar3hatI krodhAgni meM jalA jA rahA hU~ svayaM ; AjJA deM mujhe aba Apa ; tahasa-nahasa kara dUM senA maiM amareza kii| [ zAMta dRr3hatA se saMyata karake svara ko | chUkara Apake zrIcaraNa karatA praNa maiM - bA~dha ke sAmane lA karU~gA khar3A tatkAla hI zakrapANi ko, ahaMkArI bhI sadA. kRtaghnI bhI bar3e jo| / jhuka gayA yuvaka vaha caraNoM meM pitA ke / zIghra uTha khar3A huaA vaha ; dekhA pitA ko aora / kA~pa rahA thA kaca ati ropa se ; lAla ho rahA thA mugba usakA ; krodhAgni meM

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jalakara tapa rahA thA vIra, tapatA hai susvarNa nagarAne se jalatI A~ca para jaise / dekha rahe the zrAcArya bhI putra ko apane / gambhIratA chA raho yo mukha ra unake ; digvalAI de rahI thI garva kI eka zrAbhA ; ani pulakita ho rahe the ve suna-suna ke garvokti priya prANa sama putra ko apane / bole gaMbhIra girA---] suraguru bhUla jAo beTA, abhI sabhA ke apamAna ko ucita nahIM hogA aise samaya pha~sa jAnA gRha kalaha meM / kaca bhUleM ? bhUlane kI bAta yaha kaisaM pitA jI ? bujhane kI kaise samucita daMDa die binA, zrAga jo kI ? bahatI raho havA yaha kahIM yadi deza meM, gurujana taba to nitya hI isI taraha apamAnita kie jaayeNge| suraguru ThIka hai yaha para ucita nahIM tumhAre

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nie daMDa denA unheM-daMDa kI bAta bhI socanA ; mamaya svayaM daMDa de degA unheM ; sIkha jAyage ve apane Apa---ucita yA anucita hai unake au' deza liye kyA ? kaca dekheM para kaise apamAna gurujanoM kA ina A~khoM se ; deva-dekha rakta khaulatA hai zranyAyiyoM ko---nirbala hoge jo ve bhI kabhI sahana na kara sakeMge uddaDatA aimI / suraguru paraMtu soco jarA, tumhArI yaha ceSTA bhI to kahAyagI uddaDatA hii| [mumakarAe zrAcArya yoM kaha / bole phira umI svara meM beTA, prasanna hU~ maiM bar3A sAhasa tumhArI dekhakara aura nyAyapriyatA bhI tumhaarii| para daMDa dene kA adhikAra nahIM koI---- svakartavya hI basa pAlanA cAhie hameM / kaca kartavya hai merA kyA, sujhAe~ mune Apa hii|

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( 26 ) damakatA mugtra maMDala zrAlokita huA usakA divya prabhA se / ravimaDala usI kSaNa huA asta dUsarI zrora ; cakita ho, mugdha-se kucha pulakita-se jyoM mUda lie anuraMjita netra apane sUrya va ne / 5 mRdu madhura kalarava chA gayA nabha meM vihaMgama-vRMda jayajayakAra karate jaise doM moda se / gaurava kI unake divya anubhUti ne prerita kiyA sabhI kA / pitA sammukha khar3e the usake / uThatI thIM 1 gaNita, vRddha hRdaya meM suraguru ke garva-gauravayukta balavatI bhAvanAe~ / dolita hRdaya kA dvaMdva pariNata ho cukA thA sahaja svargIya sukha meM unake / bhavya prabhA - jyoti-kalikA zrahA ! khila uThI / sarala zrabhimAna-jIvana se siMcita-sI hokara mukhodyAna meM / nimagna ho gae ve AnaMdAvi meM; pA liyA ciravAMchita jaise

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( 26 > kartavya pAlana kara hI mu~ha dikhAU~gA, lauhU~gA amarAvatI meM na anyathA kabhI / ; [ gar3a gae netra donoM mukha para putra ke le rahe the thAha hRdaya kI usake jeme / dRSTi meM dRr3hatA thI, kiMcit utsukatA bhI / hotA uthala-puthala kucha hRdayAbdhi me maca rahA dvaMdva thA mamatva meM, kartavya meM spaSTa thI mukha-paTala para chApa jisakI / ; ; asta ho cukA thA sUrya arddha, dIkha rahA thA zeSa ruka-rukakara dekha rahA ho jaise kaThina saMgharSa vAtsalya kA aura dharma kA / nizcala mI kula vAyu thI, prakRti zAnna ho, niHzvAsa roka sunanA cAhatI ho mAno hRdayodgAra pitA-putra ke / na hilate the patra taruvaroM ke, hataprabha cakita - se. mugdhamana dIkhate the sabhI usa sA~jha ko / sahaja saralatA khela rahI thI kaca ke mukha- prAMgaNa meM / nirbhIkatA TapakatI thI nayanoM se usake ! jhalakatA kartavya thA

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( 27 ) nija priya deza ke prati ; cihna the bhakti ke, vinaya ke apane janakavara ke lie / dUsare hI kSaNa sahaja garva - gaurava se uTha gaI grIvA ; tanakara khar3A ho gayA yuvaka yoM hokara prati mudita mana meM, manonIta vastu mAnoM mila gaI ho use / kara baddha karatA bolA vinIta svara meM - ] kaca pitAjI ! pUjya mere ! ahobhAgya samajha~gA pAlana yadi kara sakA AjJA kA ApakI ; cintA nahIM, prANa para khelanA par3e mujhe-ha~sate-ha~sate hI balidAna yaha hogA saMketa mAtra para Apake putra ApakA | [ zrAveza meM zrA gayA yuvaka vara vIra ya, saghana kAnana kuja meM zayana karate zizu - siMha ko cher3a diyA ho kisI se aTTahAsa karake - apamAna - sA usakA jaise | vIrabhAva se, kiMcit darpa se, garjana-sA karane lagA / netroM meM usa samaya pitA ke garva thA, utsukatA thI, kucha prazAMta-sI

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( 32 ) tyoMhI nija janaka pUjya parama ke zrahA ! zubhAzIrvAda kI maMgaladAyinI mamatAmaya kSamatA apAra kA pAkara sahArA diya-bhUmi urvarA meM guru- netra jyoti kI, kartavya pAlana punIta priya sahaja-sI, bhAvanA-lalita kA mRdu bIja ho gayA aMkurita utsAha - jIvana ke zubha yoga se / vila uThA mugva- kizora khilate sumanA kI priya saralatA khilatI hai sparza meM jyA, udita hote tamAri ko prathama razmi ke | garva - gaurava mahAna bhAvanA ko jananA hI netroM meM nAca uThI mUrtimAna bAlikA mo jaise | pUchA momita zabdoM meM yuvaka ne --] - kaca AjJA hai kyA pUjya pitA jI, aba mere liye ? [ bole guruvara taba gambhIra svara meM - sugguru jAo tuma prAtahI pAsa zrI zukrAcArya ke, dAnavoM ke guruvara haiM jo, prati vijJa haiM saJjIvanI vidyA meM, sIkhanA unase yaho /

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( 25 ) karanA ucita hogA isa samaya mere lie kyA ? [gvIjhakara pUchA putra ne pitA se ; svara meM bhI umake kicit kaThoratA thii| muskarAe mana hI mana zrAcArya ; netroM meM unake jhalaka zrI vAtmalya kI, gaMbhIratA yo svAbhAvika svara naM / bole samajhAne ko-] nija karttavya-pAlana beTA. sahaja nahIM ; samajhA paryAya ise asidhAra-vrata kA / jUjhanA par3egA kAla se. nitya hI rahegI jAna hathelI para ; hoMge saphala phira bhI asaphala hI athavA-kucha nizcita nhiiN| / kaca dekha rahA thA aura pitA ko apane nirbhIkatA se bar3I, para jhuMjhalAhaTa tho . citavana meM usakI ; kiMcit vyagratA bhii| tabhI prAcArya ne punaH kahA apane priya putra se suraguru praNa karo kaca ! vIravara ataeva, ho sakU~gA nizcita maiM tabhI, saMtuSTa bhI / kaho

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( 30 ) ; laukika amaratva pada tabhI unhoMnebhaTakatA jisake lie hA ! nara-loka hai jIvana bhara cAhatA putra mAMga-sA hI ekAkI ; nija samasta puNya purAtana tathA cirasaMtrita saMpatti paitRka ke badale / mUda lie mugdha netra donoM apane / kara baddha kara die Iza-bhakti-bhAvanA ne unake | kiyA praNAma mana-hI-mana meM; kRtajJatA se prati natamastaka ho gae / " " -mA kucha kSaNa bAda hI khule phira netra donoM unake bhakti se, vAtsalya se jhalakaMne-sa lagA, utsuka mAno, kiMcit nIra unameM / sneha ko sarala dRSTi zrahA ! nAca rahI thI kSINa rasa-parta ra mudita sau unakI * khelatI thI dIpa jyoti bhara ati moda meM, jala- cAdara para, pUrva samaya meM jaise 1 keli kAr3A karane lagI sarala bAlikAkalpanA taba rucira prAMgana meM mastiSka ke / netra-nIra - cAdara pAra dekhA yoM usanezobhita hai vijaya vaijayatI zrahA ! gale vivi kI zubhra sI priya putra ke /

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nA, ( 31 ) 6705 pusta para isake mukuTa bhI lalATa sakAjaya ) vijaya cihnamA zoSita hai suvarNa kA / hindustAna, vRddha RSivara bhI ; moha ke kalpita topa me ati vibhora se | bar3hakara Age paga eka, rakgvA dRr3hatA mekara dAyA~ zIza para putra ke unhoMne / tanakara kucha phira khar3e hue ve ; bolegarva aura prasannatA ke gaMbhIra svara meM - ] suraguru AzA thI priya putra tujhase mujhe aisI hI / mata samajha paraMtu parIkSA samApta ho gaI terI / AraMbha hogA usakA abase / detA AzIrvAda prasanna hoke tujhe maiM-vacana hoM satya tere samasta ; dRr3ha rahe una para tU / vighna bAdhAe~ saba naSTa hoM / saphalatA svayaM hI cerI bane terI sadA / | damaka uThA mukhaM-maDala vara vIra kA / jalada-paTala bedhakara nija zakti se, zobhita hotA hai ravi-maMDala gagana meM jaise kAMti lekara pUrva, teja bhI dUnA,

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( 28 ) .. vyagratA thI ullAsapUrNa usa hRdaya meM / ] kaca mAra dUMgA lAta samasta saMsAra ke mabhI prala bhanoM para ; jananI svabhUmi ke lie arpaNa kara dUMgA prANa bhI saharSa hI maiN| jUjha jAU~gA zatruoM se ha~sate-ha~sate ; tila-tila kaTa jAya cAhe deha apanI, nahIM paraMtu paira pIche dharU~gA kabhI maiM / nizcita rahiye pitA jo ! putra zrApakA hU~tana meM mere rahegA rakta eka bUMda bhI .. pAlana svakartavya kA karatA raha~gA maiM / lAMchana-vraNa na laga sakagA marane ke bAda bhI mere, yazaH-zarora para aapke| avasara na hogA svajana parajana ko kiMcit bhI paraspara ugalo uThAne kaa| [ kara dAhanA uTha gayA taba Upara ko svayaM hI kaca kA / prerita kiyA ho mAnoM praNa-pUrti ko prabhu-pratinidhi-svarUpiNI parama zakti ne, sthita rahatI sadaiva hI hRdaya-siMhAsana para madA prANiyoM ke /

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( 33 ) bhUla jAo tuma kucha dina ke lie -- hA~, kevala thor3e dina ke liye hI, apane ko, apanepana ko, nija sukha ko, aizvarya ko / nazvara basa mAnoM saMsAra ke vaibhava ko, athavA kSaNika, caJcata ati, bhUlo use / suno karuNa krandana apanI mAtAoM kA, nAda hRdaya vidAraka darjitoM kA; - bahate dekha cuke ho aneka bAra A~sU khUna ke; aba to uTho, kartavya nija soco svadeza ke prati tuma / mAtA tAka rahI hai| ora tumhArI hI Aja A~sU bharI A~khoM seAzA ho usakI, tuma hI AzA ke prANa ho sandeza hai merA tumase, navayuvakoM se, nija sthadeza - prAsAda ke pramukha staMbhoM se / [ bhArata ke bhayaGkara yuddha meM kA~pa uThe ye suna bhImanAda vara vIra bhISma kA jyoM kauravadala - nAyaka surazrI mahA sabhI, vRddha siMha kI garjanA ghora suna kA~pate iThalAte bala- mada meM zRgAla nava-se--- cauMka par3A kaca yoM vRddhAveza ko, kA~patI vRddha krodha kI pratimUrti dekha aMgAra-sI /

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socA thA usane, hogA Adeza jUjhane kA raNabhUmi meM, kATane kA nija zatruoM ko; aramAna nikala sakegA dhadhakatA-sA vinAzakArI mUla se mukhIjvAlA kI jvAlA tarala-sA / khinna ho kiJcit bolA pitA se-] kaca sikhAeMge ripu ko hI vidyA-saJjIvanI ve, kATeMge hAtha se DAla apanI kyA svayaM hI ? [ mauna muskarAhaTa ko garvamayI zrAbhA ... kSaNa eka ko chAI mukha para prAcArya ke .. bole ve mudita svara meM--].... suraguru siddhi yahI vidyA kii| [ zaGkA kI phira putra ne---] kaca hAni sahakara bhI? . suraguru guru-RNa cukAnA hai bar3hakara hAni nija se; mahatI manuSyatA sikhAtI yahI hai hameM /

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( 35 ) kaca jo AjJA; karmapatha hogA yahI aba meraa| [ jhuka gayA putra tabhI caraNoM meM pitA ke / pulakita ho ati vRddha pitA ne kA~patA kara dAhanA rakhA mastaka para usake / A~khoM meM unakI donoM A~sU bhara Aye the| ] yavanikA )

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rogI ke bacce

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( 38 ) [sthAna makAna ke bAhara kA barAmadA jo galI se lagabhaga cAra phITa U~cA hai| do sIr3hiyA~ car3hakara barAmade meM pahu~canA hotA hai / vahA~ eka takhata par3A hai jo bilkula . sApha hai ; jAna par3atA hai, sabere hI dhoyA gayA thaa| . galI ke kinAre makAna hone se barAmade meM hara samaya cahalapahala rahatI hai| galI ke donoM tarapha U~ce makAna haiN| isase kar3I dhUpa kI tapana se jhulasA huaA aAdamI vahA~ pahu~cakara aArAma kI . sA~sa letA hai| aAsapAsa ghanA basA mohallA hone ke kAraNa galI meM eka-na-eka saudA becanevAlA barAbara AtA hI rahatA hai / phala, miThAI, khilaune, gAne kI kitAbeM, matalaba yaha ki jarUrata kI sabhI cIjeM loga dina bhara becate phirate haiN| ___usa galI meM bhikhAriyoM kI bhI kamI nahIM rahatI / kabhI koI bUr3hA apAhija aAtA hai, kabhI koI jaTAdhArI bAbA / zrAdhe vastra pahane bhikhArine bhI goda meM baccA lie yA u~galI pakar3e ikkA-dukkA dikhAI de jAtI haiM / ___ kuttoM, gadahoM, gaiyoM aura bakariyA~ kA galI meM tA~tA baMdhA rahatA hai / inake sAtha vahA~ khelanevAle lar3ake aura lar3akiyoM apanI zakti aura sAmUhika ekatA kA dhyAna karake avasara ke anukUla vyavahAra karatI haiN|

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( 36 ) samaya apraila kA aMtima ravivAra jaba lakhanaU meM kAphI garmI par3ato hai aura lU bhI calane lagatI hai| jo bAbU loga roja daphtara meM ArAma se khasa kI TaTTiyoM aura paMkhoM kA AnaMda lete the, Aja ghara ke tapate kamaroM meM par3e haiN| dhUpa kI camaka se bacane ke lie daravAje jaba ve baMda karate haiM to pasonA parezAna karatA hai aura jaba daravAje bola lete haiM to A~kha sAmane nahIM kI jAtI / baccoM ke lie yaha samaya svataMtratA kA hai| bAbU jI kamare meM zrArAma kara rahe haiM, mAtA jI dahalIja meM leTI haiM, aba unheM koI ToMkanevAlA nahIM hai| do-tIna ghaMTe taka unakI bulAhaTa na ho sakatI, yaha ve jAnate haiN| pAtra / zolA-- rogI kI putrI / dasa varSIya bAlikA / dubalI-patalI / raMga khulatA huzrA / cehara-moharA sAdhAraNa A~kheM aura bAla kucha bhUrApana lie hue / raMgIna phirAka aura sapheda jA~ghiyA pahane hai / satIza sAta varSIya dubalA-patalA bAlaka / raMga bahana zIlA se milatA julatA / eka baniyAyana aura nekara pahane / svabhAva se sodhA, buddhi

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( 40 ) meM avasthA se adhika catura aura samajhadAra | harI- . gyAraha-bAraha varSa kA lar3akA, jo par3osa ke dhanI lAlA kA putra hai| acche hAtha-paira / caMcala, teja aura niDara / raMga sA~valA hai ; mukha para kAMti hai jo dekhanevAle kA dhyAna AkarSita karatI hai / dRzya kucha lar3akoM ke sAtha haro galI meM khela rahA hai / kabhI vaha eka se lar3a baiThatA hai, kabhI dUsare ko pITa detA hai| zIlA aura satIza ko usakI prakRti kA pUrA paricaya hai| zAyada isIlie dubale-patale ye donoM bhAI-bahana unase Darakara upara barAmade meM aAkara khar3e ho gae haiN| aura takhata para baiThakara do-phITa U~ce chajje se jhA~ka rahe haiN| sAmane galI meM vilaunoM kI DaliyA lie eka bUDhA baiThA hai / lar3ake use ghere hue haiN|

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( 41 ) satIza (bAna zIlA ke kAna ke pAsa mu~ha karake ) kitane accheacche khilaune haiM isake pAsa ! zIlA acche to haiM, para ye TUTa bahuta jaldI jAte haiM ; bAbU ' jI ne usa dina kahA thaa| yAda hai ? satIza yAda hai / kahA thA-kitAboM kI acchI-acchI tasavIreM dekhA karo hara roj| zIlA yaha bhI to kahA thA ki tasavIra dekhanevAle lar3ake rAjA hote haiN| satIza hA~, kahA thA / mujhe to ve rAjA bhaiyA pukArate bhI hai| [isI samaya harI gasa khar3e lar3ake ko bUr3he para Dhakela detA hai aura svayaM phurtI se pIche haTa jAtA hai| giranevAle lar3ake ko bUdA jhakajhora detA hai / zIlA aura satIza bAta karanA baMda karake khilaunevAle kI tarapha dekhate haiN| ] harI ( banAvaTI krodha karake ) kisane dhakkA diyA thA isa bacce

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( 42 ) kA ? abhI bUr3he ke coTa laga jAtI to ? 'mohana tumhIM ne to dhakkA diyA thaa| harI maiMne ? ( kucha Age bar3hakara ) jhUTha bolanA hai ? bUr3hA bhaiyA lar3o na / ( khilaunoM kI DaliyA uThAkara nira para ragva letA hai ) jAo, khelo saba milakara / zIlA ( dhIre se ) harI bar3A zaitAna he ; sabase lar3atA hai satIza bar3A burA hai vaha ; bUr3he ko satAtA hai| maiM kabhI nahIM satAtA kisI ko| zIlA tU to rAjA hai| . satIza rAjA loga bhI to lar3ate haiM Apasa meM / zolA ve rAjA bhaiyA thor3I hote haiM ! tU to rAjA bhaiyA hai|

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satIza bUr3hA calA gayA ; abakI AyagA to maiM bhI khilaune lNgaa|| zAlA zIlA maiM bhI bar3I sI gur3iyA luuNgii| [ eka phalavAlA AtA hai| saMtare, kele, kakar3I, kaserU, sabhI kucha usake pAsa hai| sudhA usakI AvAja sunakara daur3atI huI AtI hai| sudhA ATha-nau varSa kI bAlikA jo haro kI choTI bahana hai| dhanI kI kanyA hone ke kAraNa lAr3a-pyAra se palI hai| raMga sA~valA hai, nAka-nakasa moTA aura anAkarSaka rezamI phirAka ke Upara mahIna dhotI pahane hai| svabhAva se lar3AkA, cir3acir3I aura haThIlo hai|] sudhA kelevAle ! o kelevAle ! eka kelA de de| kitane tA hai ? phalavAlA (kelA dekara ) doM paise kA vittiyaa| sudhA (ikannI pheMkakara ) do paise kI kakar3I bhI de|

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( 44 ) / phalavAlA do choTI choTI kakar3iyA~ detA hai| harI do kele, do saMtare aura cAra kakar3iyA~ uThA letA hai aura dAma detA hai taba baha ko cir3hAtA huzrA khAne lagatA hai| aura bhI do-eka lar3ake phala lete haiM / ] sudhA mujhe bhI saMtarA de! ( sIgA dikhAkara ) le siiNgaa| tUne eka kelA liyA, maiMne do ; tUne do kakar3I lIM. maiMne caar| aura do saMtare ghAte meN| (jaldI jaldI khAtA aura mu~ha cir3hAtA hai| phira saMtare kA chilakA usakI tarapha pheMkakara ) le saMtarA! / sudhA rotI huI ghara calI jAtI hai| harI usI taraha khAtA rahatA hai|] satIza satare bar3e mIThe aura rasadAra hote haiN| unase tAkata AtI hai| zIlA hA~, tabhI bAbU jI saMtarA roja khAte haiN| satIza mujhe to eka phA~ka roja dete haiM

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( 45 ) zIlA mujhe bhI / (harI kI tarapha izArA karake) harI do saMtare akele khA gayA ! sudhA bicArI rone lagI / thaa| satIza akele nahIM khAnA cAhiye kucha usa dina mA~ ne batAyA zIlA maiM to saba cIjeM tujhe dekara khAtI huuN| tU kabhI detA hai, kabhI nahIM detA / satIza jarA sI jo cIja milatI hai, vaha tujhe nahIM detA; bahuta milatI hai to detA hU~ / [ eka pherIvAlA kapar3e kI gaTharI pITha para lAde zrAtA hai aura nikala jAtA hai / lar3ake usakI ora dekhakara kAnAphUsI karate haiM / kapar3evAlA dUra nikala jAtA hai to harI zrAvAja detA hai - kapar3evAle ! zrI kapar3evAle ! pherIvAlA lauTatA hai| pAsa zrAkara pUchatA hai - kisane bulAyA ? harI ha~sa par3atA hai; usI ke sAtha saba ha~sane lagate haiM / kapar3e vAlA krodha se ghUratA huA lauTa jAtA hai / ] zIlA ammA ne kahA thA -- sAr3I ma~gA dU~gI / so rahI haiM, nahIM to Aja le letI /

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satIza .. mere liye bhI kamIja kA kapar3A lene ko kahA thaa| zIlA abakI zrAvegA to saba le leNge| satIza mA~ to kahatI haiM, kapar3e milate hI nhiiN| yaha to gaTara lAde hai| cAhe jitane le lo| zIlA hA~, haiM to bahuta kapar3e isake pAsa / [ eka gadhA aAtA hai| lar3ake use IMTa-patthara se mArate haiN| gadhA la~gar3AtA huA calA jAtA hai| ] satIza bar3e bure haiM ye lar3ake / becAre gadhe ko mAra rahe haiN| zolA usake bhI coTa lagatI hogI, ina lar3akoM ko nahIM mAlUma / satIza becArA gadhA mana meM rotA hAgA / zIlA agale janma meM ye lar3ake gadhe hoMge aura gadhA hogA ldd'kaa| taba vaha bhI inheM mAregA; inase badalA legaa|

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. ( 47 ) satIza taba ye loga bhI khUba roe~ge / | ganne kA rasa becanevAlA AtA hai| sAre muhalle ke lar3ake dhIredhIre usake pAsa juTa Ate haiN| isI samaya ghara se rAkeza bAhara zrAtA hai / rAkeza - rogo kA bar3A putra hai / avasthA bAraha-teraha varSa / raMga sA~valA, mukha para donatA kI chApa se yukta bholApana jo dekhanevAle ke hRdaya meM sneha nahIM, dayA umar3AtA hai| choTe-choTe rUkhe bAla jo kAphI dinoM se kaTe nahIM jAna par3ate haiN| zarIra dubalA-patalA hai, jisane samaya se pahale ho kAphI kaSTa saha liye hai / khAko nekara ke Upara AdhI bA~ha kI kamIja pahane hai jo na bahuta ujalI hai aura na mailI ; jisakI sikur3anoM se patA calatA hai ki vaha ghara para ho dhoI gaI hai / rAkeza kI dRSTi ganna vAle para par3atI hai; phira vaha bhAI-bahana kI tarapha dekhatA hai / kSaNa bhara socatA raha jAtA hai / pazcAta, takhata para yahA~ baiTho / zIlA aura satIza donoM 1 baiTha kara kahatA hai - zrAzro, I usake pAsa jAkara baiTha jAte haiN| tInoM kucha samaya taka cupa rahate haiM / ] rAkeza bAhara kI koI cIja nahIM khAnI cAhiye; usa para makkhiyA~ bhinabhinAtI haiM / khAnevAle bImAra ho jAte haiM /

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( 48 ) satIza bAbU jI to bahuta dinoM se bImAra haiN| unhoMne kyA bAha. kI cIja khAI thI ? rAkeza ( kucha uttara na soca pAkara ) hA~ aura kyA ! zIlA ye lar3ake to roja bAhara kI coja khAte haiN| ye kabhI bImAra nahIM hote| rAkeza hote kyoM nahIM ? tumheM yAda nahIM hai, usa dina harI khATa para par3A cillA rahA thA ? satIza bhaiyA, usake to coTa laga gaI thii| ( jarA-mA uncakakara galI ko tarapha jhA~katA hai ) ganne kA rasa hotA khUba mIThA hai| kala bAbU jo ne eka gaDerI mujhe dI thii| zIlA usameM barpha par3a jAya to kitanA ThaMDA ho jAtA hai ! satIza hamArA zaravata bhI mIThA hotA hai, para usameM barapha nahIM DAlI jAtI kbhii|

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( 46 ) rAkeza barapha kitanI gaMdI hotI hai, yaha bhI to bAbU jI ne usa dina samajhAyA thA tumhe ? zIlA saba loga barapha khAte haiM, hama mA~gate haiM to kahate ho gaMdI hotI hai / satIza bAbU jI ne Aja apane dosta ke liye bhI to barapha ma~gAI thI / rAkeza ( bAta badalakara ) tumane kitAboM meM chapI tasvIreM dekhI haiM ? kitanI bar3hiyA haiM ? satIza mujhe to halavAI kI dUkAna vAlI tasvIra acchI lagatI hai / hA~, kitane bar3e bar3e apanI dUkAna para | zIlA thAloM meM miThAI sajA rakhI hai usane khatIza hameM to bahuta dinoM se miThAI nahIM milI hai khAne ko / 1

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rAkeza . miThAI khAne se dA~ta kharAba ho jAte haiN| satIza thor3I dera pahale harI ne khAI thI, sudhA ne khAI thii| sabhI roja kha.te haiN| . [ rAkeza kucha uttara nahIM detA, sudhA aura satIza donoM usakI aora tAkate haiN| phira eka bAra ganne vAle ko ucakakara dekha lete haiN| rAkeza aba bhI cupa hai / ] satIza ( punaH umI svara se ) bahana ke dA~ta to kharAba hI haiN| inhoMne kaba miTAI khAI thI ? zolA maiMne to bahuta dinoM se cakkhI bhI nahIM hai mitthaaii| gur3a kabhI kabhI mila jAtA thaa| ammA~ kahatI haiM-gur3a bhI aba nahIM miltaa| satIza haro, sudhA, mohana, saba zakara kI miThAI khAte haiN| hameM kabhI gur3a bhI nahIM miltaa| | hli aisA kyoM hai bhaiyA ?

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( 51 ) rAkeza aAjakala bahuna ma~hagI hai| satIza ma~hagI ! ma~hago kyA bhaiyA ? rAkeza Ajakala jarA sI cIja kharIdane meM bahuta se rupae dene par3ate haiN| [ galI meM gannevAle ke cAro tarapha lar3ake-lar3akiyoM kI bhIr3a hai / ekAeka bar3e-bar3e sIMgoM vAlI eka gAya zrAkara ganne ke cIphuroM meM mu~ha mAratI hai / rasavAlA use mArakara bhagAtA hai, Dara kara lar3ake bhI bhAgate haiN| rAkeza, zIlA, satIza tonoM takhata se uThakara khar3e ho jAte haiM aura jIne ke Upara khar3e hokara dekhane lagate haiN| thor3I dera bAda zrAkara phira baiTha jAte haiM ] satIza . gAya hai acchI, para dubalI-patalI hai| zIlA hot cur Mici hamAro taraha usake bhI saba haDDiyA~ nikalI huI haiN| rAkeza inheM bhI Ajakala peTa bhara khAne ko nahIM milatA hai| satoza ___ dUdha to detI haiM ye / hama bAbU jI ke lie roja lAte haiN|

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( 52 ) zIlA maiM bhI jaba bImAra par3I thI, taba maiMne dUdha piyA thA / rAkeza maiMne bhI usa dina piyA thA jaba vaha kAlI bakarI ghara meM baMda kara lI thI aura ammA ne usakA dUdha duha liyA thA / satIza mujhe pahale milatA thA dUdha AdhI kaTorI ; aba nahIM milatA / zIlA aba to tU bar3A ho gayA hai| dUdha to bacce pIte haiM / satIza sAta-ATha barasa kA hI to hU~ / kahatI hai, bar3A ho gayA / rAkeza dUdha zrAjakala acchA nahIM milatA ; nirA pAnI hotA haiN| aise dUdha se na pInA acchA / zIlA ammA kahatI thIM, sabako dUdha taba mile jaba bahuta se rupae hoM / para hamAre pAsa rupae nahIM haiM, hama garIba haiM / satIza jisake pAsa rupae na hoM vaha garIba hotA hai ?

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( 53 ) zIlA aura nahIM to kyA ! tabhI to ammA kahatI thIM ki garIboM ke lar3akoM ko paise nahIM kharacanA cAhie / rAkeza tumane dekhA hai kabhI mujhe eka paise kI cIja kharIdakara khAne ? aisA hI tuma loga bhI kro| satIza' dUsaroM ko rupae kahA~ se mila jAte haiM ? zIlA unake bAbU jI lAte haiN| hamAre bAbU jI bImAra haiM bahuta dinoM se ; kAma nahIM kara skte| satIza to calo hama loga le AveM / kahA~ mileMge rupae ? rAkeza hama logoM ko nahIM mileMge ; hama choTe haiM abhii| satIza choTe haiM ! are, saba kAma to karate haiM hama ! dUkAna se rAzana lAte haiM, cakkI se ATA pisAte haiM, tarakArI lAte haiM, dUdha-dahI lAte haiM, taba kyA vaha 'kAma nahIM kara karate jisameM rupae mileM ?

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{ 54 ) rAkeza ( phIkI ha~sI ha~sakara ) rupae unhIM ko milate haiM jo ( hAtha U~cA karake ) itane bar3e ho jAte haiM / satIza bahana kahatI hai maiM bar3A ho gayA; para itanA bar3A hone meM to bahuta dina lgeNge| * rAkeza hA~, tabhI rupae mileMge / satIza ( kucha dera socakara ) detA kauna hai rupae ? rAkeza kyA karoge yaha jAnakara ? satIza usase calakara kaheMge, hamAre bAbU jI bImAra haiM / unake rupae hameM de do / rAkeza rupae rAma jI dete haiN| unake yahA~ eka kA rupayA dUsare ko nahIM diyA jAtA / zIlA rAma jI kauna ? kahA~ rahate haiM ?

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rAkeza (kitAba khola kara eka tasavIra dikhAtA huA) yaha dekho haiM rAma jI / yahI sabako rupae dete haiN| [ satIza aura zIlA bar3e dhyAna se tasavora dekhate haiN| rAkeza unakI dRSTi bacAkara ganne vAle kI tarapha dekhatA hai / gannevAlA dhIre-dhIre jAne lagatA hai| jAte-jAte aAvAja detA hai-rasa ganne kaa| zIlA aura satIza donoM cauMka par3ate haiM / ] satIza rahate kahA~ haiM ye ? rAkeza ( Upara u~galI uThAkara ) bAdala meM, AsamAna meM rahate haiN| [ zIlA aura satIza Upara dekhane lagate haiN| jaba chata ke atirikta kucha nahIM dikhAI detA to donoM phira tasavAra dekhane lagate haiM / ] satIza (tasavIra para hI dRSTi gar3Ae hue ) bAdala meM rahate haiM rAma jI! ( rAkeza kI ora dekhakara ) havAI jahAja para jA sakate haiM unake pAsa hama ? rAkeza rAma jI kisI se milate nhiiN| unase jo koI kucha mA~gatA hai de dete haiN|

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kaise mA~geM ? ( 56 ) zIlA rAkeza vaha jo ThAkuradvArA hai, vahA~ clo| hAtha jor3o, A~kha mU~do / * taba rAmajI se jo kucha mA~goge, mila jAyagA / zIlA maiM to apanI gur3iyoM ke lie kapar3e mA~gU~gI aura apane lie acchI sAr3iyA~ | gahane nahIM mA~gegI tU ? rAkeza zIlA gahane to ammA kahatI haiM, sasurAla se mileMge mujhe| satIza maiM to rupae mA~gU~gA khUba / rupae se miThAI, phala- kapar3e sabhI mila jAte haiM / zIlA kaba caloge ThAkuradvAre ? rAkeza usa samaya calanA jaba koI na dekhe / kisI ne dekha liyA to phira rAmajI kucha na deMge /

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( 57 ) zIlA bhaiyA, tuma kyA mA~goge rAma jI se ? rAkeza maiM? maiM to yahI mA~gUgA ki hamAre bAbU jI ko acchA kara acche ho jAyeMge to hamAre lie miThAI, kapar3e do / ve sabhI kucha le ya~ge / [ satIza aura zIlA donoM rAkeza kI ora dekhate haiM / pazcAt, donoM eka dUsare kI ora dekhate haiM / ] zIlA ( kucha socatI huI ) ThIka hai bhaiyA, maiM bhI yahI mAgU~gI / satIza calo, calo, maiM bhI yahI mAgU~gA / [ tInoM jAte haiM / ]

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lekhaka kI patnI

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pAtra rAjIva-lekhaka kAMti-rAjIva kI patnI zacI-rAjIva kI putrI mAlatI-kAMti kI sakhI niraMjanA-kAMti kI sakhI sthAna lekhaka ke makAna kA eka kamarA

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( 61 ) [sthAna aThAraha phITa laMbA aura bAraha phITa caur3A kmraa| bIca meM sirpha caTAI bichI hai / usa para likhane kI choTI Deska dAhanI ora hai jisake Upara eka kone para davAyata rakhI hai aura dUsare para peparaveTa / Deska para lAla khATiMga bichA hai| rAjIva usa para kAgaja rakhe likha rahA hai| usake bAI ora tIna-cAra kitAbeM, do-tIna patrikAe~ aura eka kAgajoM se bharI phAila hai / usI ke pAsa hAtha se jhalane kA paMkhA par3A hai| caTAI ke dUsare kinAre para zacI baiThI hai| __dIvAroM kI saphedI mailI ho calI hai / usa para koI citra nahIM hai| sAmane kI dIvAla para bIcobIca meM eka klAka TaeNgI hai| usake nIce eka alamArI hai jo baMda hai para tAlA nahIM lagA hai| usakI kuMDI ke sahAre eka kurtA laTaka rahA hai| alamArI ke daravAje sAde haiN| klAka ke donoM ora do choTI choTI khir3akiyA~ hai jina para kAle parade par3e haiN| teja garma havA ke calane se ve bArabAra ur3a rahe haiN| dAhanI ora kI khir3akI ke nIce eka tipAI para surAhI rakhI hai jisa para zIze kA gilAsa DhakA hai| ___ kamare ke dAI aura bAI ora eka-eka dvAra hai / lekhaka kI bhora kA dAyA~ dvAra ghara se bAhara aura bAyA~ bhItara jAne ke lie hai| samayajana kA mhiinaa| dina ke do baje haiN| kar3Ake kI garmI par3a

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( 62 ) rahI hai aura lU kA jora khUba bar3hA huA hai| kamare meM bar3I tapana aura jarA jarA sI dera meM paMkhA jhalanA par3atA hai / rAjIva tIsa varSa kI avasthA / khulatA huA gehuA raMga / bAla ghu~gharAle para kAna ke pAsa donoM ora khicar3I ho cale haiN| mukha para gaMbhIratA mizrita malinatA hai / ikaharA zarIra, para bhujAoM kI machaliyoM se jAna par3atA hai ki bahuta dina pahale kucha kasarata kI thI / moTI dhotI baMgAlI DhaMga se bA~dhe aura saiMDokaTa vaniyAna pahane hai / A~kha para cazmA hai kAle phrema kA jo jyAdA acchA nahIM lagatA / kabhI dAhane hAtha se paMkhA jhalatA hai kabhI bAe~ se aura kSaNa bhara ruka kara phira likhane lagatA hai / zacI dasa varSIya bAlikA / raMga gehuA, AkRti sundara / mukha para bholApana aura saralatA hai; paraMtu ha~satI kama hai| eka phirAka aura jA~ghiyA pahane hai | mukha para lAla TikulI kI biMdI hai / hAtha meM ra~gIna cUr3iyA~ haiM / sleTa aura kitAba lie eka choTI caukI sAmane rakhe baiThI hai| par3hane likhane kI ora usakA dhyAna kama hai / pitA kI ora bAra bAra dekhatI hai jaise kucha kahanA cAhatI hai / ] rAjIva ( likhate likhate rukakara a~gar3AI letA huA ) zacI ! pAnI tola | beTI !

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( 63 ) [ bAe~ hAtha meM paMkhA lekara jhalane lagatA hai / zacI usakI ora dekhatI huI uThatI hai| surAhI se gilAsa bharakara detI hai / rAjIva pAnI pItA huA usakI ora dekhatA hai| ] zacI ( dhIre se ) pitA jI ! rAjIva ( gilAsa usakI ora bar3hAkara ) kyA hai beTI ! [zacI kucha kahatI nhiiN| gilAsa surAhI se dhokara use Dhaka detI hai aura lauTa kara apanI caukI ke pAsa khar3I ho jAtI hai| ] rAjIva ( muskarAte hue ) kyA bAta hai zacI ? zacI (sakucAte hue dhIme svara meM ) mAtA jI ko Apa............ve rotI kyoM rahatI haiN| rAjIva ( cauMkakara paraMtu kiMcita udAsInatA se ) maiM to kisI ko bhI nahIM rulAtA beTI ! ( muskarAtA huA ) tumhIM ko dekho......kitanA pyAra karatA hU~ maiM ! mAtA jI terI roja mAratI haiM tujhe ; ( ha~sakara ) batA, kabhI mArA hai......maiMne ? zacI (dhyAna se sunatI huI ) ve nArAja kyoM rahatI haiM Apase, mujhase, sabase ?

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( 64 ) [ kAMti kA vAe~ dvAra se praveza / kAMti " rAjIva kI patnI / lagabhaga pacIsa varSa kI avasthA / gorA raMga nAka-nakasa sundara, para AvazyakatA se kucha adhika sthUla jisase zArIrika AkarSaNa kucha kama ho jAtA hai / mukha para lAla biMdI khilatI hai; mA~ga bhare / bar3hiyA ikalAI kI dhotI pahane hai; rezamI jaMpara / paira meM cappala jaise kahIM jAne ko taiyAra ho / ] zacI ( kAMti kI ora dekhakara ) kahA~ jAtI ho mAtA jI ! hama bhI cleNge| kAMti tU rahane de Aja ; phira le calU~gI / [ rAjIva eka bAra usakI ora dekhakara kalama uThA letA hai aura likhane lagatA hai, para kalama Age nahIM cltii| do-cAra zabda kATakara kanakhiyoM se patnI kI ora dekhatA hai / ] 1 zacI ( kAMti ke samIpa jAkara ) nahIM mAtA jI ! mujhe bhI le calo. apane sAtha | 3 kAMti ( kiMcita kaThoratA se ) kara diyA, eka bAra, Aja mata cala / ( kucha ruka kara, rAjIva kI ora dekhate hue jaise use hI sunAnA

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( 65 ) cAhatI ho ) jAyagI tU........"kapar3e bhI haiM ThIka tere pAsa ? [zacI sahamakara cupa ho jAtI hai aura pitA jI kI ora dekhatI huI Akara apanI jagaha baiTha jAtI hai| kAMti putrI para eka dRSTi DAlakara rAjIva kI ora dekhane lagatI hai| rAjIva sara uThAkara aparAdhI kI bhA~ti usakI ora tAkatA hai| kAMti dUsarI ora muha phera letI hai / zacI kabhI mAtA kI ora dekhatI hai aura kabhI pitA kI ora / vAtAvaraNa kSaNa bhara ke lie stabdha ho jAtA hai| ] rAjIva ( adhIna svara meM ) kyA eka bhI phirAka nahIM hai. isake pAsa ThIka ? kAMti ( usakI ora dekhatI huI ) paMcAsoM banavA dI haiM na tumane ? (kucha rukakara zacI kI ora mu~ha pherakara ) hotI to kisI aura ke lie rakha letI maiM ? rAjIva (sAhasapUrvaka ) abhI usa dina to banI thIM do ? koti * moTI phirAka pahanAkara maiM nahIM le jA sakatI ise apane sAtha / ( zacI kI ora dekhakara ) yahIM rahanA ; AtI hU~ maiM thor3I dera meN| zacI sara nIcA kara letI hai ; kAMti bAharI dvAra kI ora bar3hatI hai / rAjIva beTI kI tarapha dekhane lagatA hai|]

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( 66 ) rAjIva ( kucha dRr3hatA se ) use bhI leto jAo sAtha apane ; merA kahanA mAno / kAMti ( mur3akara sateja ) tumhArA kahanA mAnakara hI to yaha dazA huI merI aura isakI bhI / rAjIva ( use zAMta karane kA prayatna karatA huA ) jo kucha honA thA, ho gyaa| isa becArI kA kyoM mana mAratI ho ? kAMti mana mArakara nahIM kaTegI to kyA sukha se kaTegI jiMdagI tumhAre sAtha kisI ko ? ... isase to mujhe... ..... rAjIva ( su~jhalAkara) acchA bhAI, kSamA karo / lAkha cAhatA hU~ ki tumheM prasanna rakhU~ ; para bhAgya hI khoTe haiM mere to kyA karU~ ? kAMti bhAgya tumhAre kyoM, mere phUTe haiM aura mere sAtha phUTa gae isake bhI / zacI (. eka bAra mAtA kI ora dekhakara rAjIva se ) pitA jI, maiM nahIM jAU~gI kahIM /

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( 65. ) rAjIva (Asvara meM ) na, beTI, tU jarUra jAyagI abhI / ( patnI kI ora dekhakara ) batA sakatI ho kahA~ jAnA hai tumheM isa samaya ? kAMti (AtaMkita hokara sIdhe DhaMga se ) mAdhavI ke yahA~ jA rahI huuN| kIrtana hai ; seTha jI kaha gaye haiN| rAjIva kauna ? seTha lAlacaMda ? (kucha soMca meM par3a jAtA hai ) jaba maiM bAhara thA, taba yahA~ bahuta AtA thA ; vahI na ? kAMti (kucha saMkoca se ) hA~, kabhI kabhI ve AyA karate the| aksara unake yahA~ kathA-vArtA hotI rahatI hai| Aja bhI kIrtana hai| rAjIva . para mujhase to nahIM kahA unhoMne ? kAMti ve jAnate haiM ki aise loga kahIM Ane-jAne ke nhiiN| sirpha duniyAdArI nibhAne ko kaha gaye haiM unheM bhI bhejnaa| para kapar3e to............| rAjIva (Aveza meM ) taba Aja maiM jAUgA jarUra aura jAU~gA

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( 68 ) apane khaddara ke hI kapar3oM meN| ( punaH zacI kI ora dekhakara ) jarA dera ruka sakatI ho ? ( uThatA huA ) abhI zacI ke lie phirAka lAyA maiN| (alamArI kI kuMDI se kuratA utArakara pahanatA huA ) jAnA mata mere Ane se pahale, hAtha jor3atA hU~ tumhaare| [rAjIva alamArI kholakara eka baMDala nikAlatA hai / pazcAta, cappala pahanakara beTI kI ora dekhatA huA bAhara jAtA hai / zaMcI kabhI mAtA kI aura dekhatI hai aura kabhI jamIna kI ora tAkane lagatI hai| kAMti hatabuddhiM-sI udhara hI dekhatI raha jAtI hai jidhara pati gayA hai| usakI samajha meM hI nahIM AtA ki ise apanI vijaya samajhe athavA parAjaya / kucha dera bAda vaha lar3akI ke pAsa Akara baiTha jAtI haiM aura usakI pITha para hAtha pherane lagatI hai|] moTI phirAka mujhase nahIM pahanI jAtI haiM mAMtI jI! tumhAre pAsa to bar3e acche acche kapar3e haiM ! : (ThahI sA~sa lekara ) aba kahA~ haiM beTI ! pahale ke hI cala rahe haiM jo kucha the| zaMcI pahale ke kaise mA~ ?

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( 66 ) kAMti (smRti meM vibhora hokara ) teraha varSa pahale ke jaba.. jaba vivAha huA thA merA, tbke| zacI ( bar3I ruci se ) vivAha meM sabako khUba acche acche kapar3e milate haiM mA~ ? kAMti sabako nahIM, jinake bhAgya....""(putrI kI ora sasneha dekhakara) para tujhe to khUba ""aise hI ghara byAhU~gI tujhe jahA~ se khUba bar3hiyA r3hiyA gahane kapar3e mileM tujhe| ( bAta roka kara ) jarA pAna to le yA beTI! [ zacI jAtI hai / mAlatI kA zIghratA se praveza / mAlatIbAisa varSa kI gorI yuvatI / dubalI-patalI, para svastha / ha~sI usake mukha para isa taraha khelatI hai jaise vikasita kaliyoM para sukumAratA / ikalAI kI sAdhAraNa sAr3I pahane hai| mA~ga meM seMdura aura mukha para lAla choTI biMdI khUba khilatI hai| paira meM mAmUlI cappala hai| hAtha meM eka patrikA liye hai| kAMti muskarAkara usakA svAgata karatI hai| donoM Deska ke pAsa kI caTAI para Akara baiTha jAtI haiN|]

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( 70 ) mAlatI devI jI to kahIM jAne ko taiyAra baiThI haiM isa lU-dhUpa meM ! kAMti hA~. maiM to tumheM bulavAnevAlI thI / calogI nahIM kIrtana meM ? mAlatI kIrtana meM ! kisake yahA~ ! ( jaise kucha yAda A gayA ho) macchA ! maiM samajhI ! mujhe nahIM jAnA hai kisI ke yahA~ ! kAMti kyoM ? unake yahA~ to calo ... bar3e bhakta AdamI haiM ve to ! itane bar3e hokara bhI kitane milanasAra haiM ! kitane hNsmukh| mAlatI ( muskarA kara ) hA~ ss, bar3e milanasAra haiM, bar3e bhakta haiM, bar3e ha~samukha, bar3e AdamI '' aura * .... aura... saba bAtoM meM bar3he-car3he haiM ve| kAti ( sAzcarya ) tuma to jaise ha~sI ur3AtI ho unakI ? mAlatI (saMyata svara meM ) hama choTe AdamI kisI bar3e kI ha~sI kaise ur3A sakate haiM ? ( kAMti usakI ora dekhatI rahatI hai ) hA~, hamArI bhI kaLa ijata hai. maryAdA hai|

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( 71 ) kAMti ( cauMka kara ) kailI paheliyA~ bujhA raho ho ? bAta kyA sApha kaho, kyA kahatI ho ? "ve hai ? mAlatI batAU~go phira kabhI / saMpAdaka jI haiM ? kAMti ( upekSA se ) mujhe kyA mAlUma ? kahIM gaye hoMge / mAlatI aisI lU dhUpa meM inheM bAhara na jAne diyA karo isa taraha | sunA tumane dasa-bAraha AdamiyA ko lU lagI kala ( kAMti cauMka par3atI hai ) kisI jarUrI kAma se gae haiM ve ? kati kya jAne kyoM gae haiM / ( bAhara kI ora dekhakara ) lU to bar3I teja hai Aja | mere kAma se| koI kyA jAne kisI ke mana kI bAta ? mAlatI jAnatI ho tuma jarUra / A~kheM kaha rahI haiM tumhArI / ( muskarAtI hai ) mujhe batAnA nahIM cAhatIM to jAne do / kAMti ( ha~sa kara ) rUTha gaI ! mujhe ThIka nahIM mAlUma ki kAhe ke lie gae haiN| 'basa, abhI AyA maiM jarA dera meM' kaha kara cale

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gae the| ( bAhara kI ora jhA~kakara ) bar3I tar3aka hai dhUpa meM (viSaya badalatI huI, mAlatI ke hAtha kI patrikA ko saMketa karake ) yaha kyA hai ? mAlatI isameM unakA lekha hai-'saMpAdaka kA jovana' / ( dRSTi gar3Akara usakI mukhAkRti kA adhyayana karane ko prayatnazIla hokara ) tumane to par3hA hogA ise ? kAMti ( utsuka hokara paraMtu udAsa svara meM ) unakA lekha ! maiMne to nahIM par3hA / ( Age bar3hakara patrikA hAtha meM letI huI, dhIme svara se ) 'saMpAdaka kA jIvana / ' mAlatI hA~, bahana ! par3ho jarUra ise tum| (kucha ruka kara AtmIyatA jatAte hue ) burA na mAnanA...."mAlUma hotA hai . saMpAdaka jI se tuma saMtuSTa nahIM ho / para..... / kAMti (taTastha bhAva se ) saMtuSTa-asaMtuSTa hone kA savAla hI kahA~ uThatA hai jIvana meN| bhAgya ne jo kucha likha diyA,""""jisase saMbaMdha ho gayA, vaha to nibhAnA hI par3atA hai yhaaN| [mAlatI usakI ora tAkane lagatI hai; tabhI kAMti ke mukhamaMDala para upahAsa kA bhAva khila uThatA hai aura vaha ha~sa par3atI hai|

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mAlatI yaha lekha par3ha DAno tuma, taba jaisA tuma kahogI, mAna lUMgI maiM / isa samaya calane do / ( uTha khar3I hotI hai / calate-calate ruka kara ) aura hA~, thor3I dera meM hI AU~gI maiM / taba taka mata jAnA tuma kIrtana meM / tumheM kasama hai merii| kAMti ( use roka kara ) kyoM ? bAta kyA hai ? tuma jAogI nahIM, mujhe bhI nahIM jAne dogI? mAlatI batAU~gI pAkara bAta saarii| [ mAlatI calI jAtI hai| kAMti patrikA lie Deska ke pAsa Akara baiThatI hai ; paraMtu lekha par3hanA zurU na karake kavara kA citra dekhane meM lIna ho jAtI hai| zacI do pAna lAkara mAtA ko detI hai| svayaM apanI jagaha para na baiThakara surAhI se pAnI pItI hai| phira kone meM jAkara apalI cappala uThAkara kapar3e se pochane lagatI hai| kAMti kA dhyAna baTa jAtA hai / patrikA se havA karate hue vaha usakI ora dekhtii|] zacI kIrtana meM to prasa da milega donA bhara". - sabake yahA~ baTatA hai, ve to khUba amIra haiN| kAMti hA~, bttegaa|

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( 74 ) ' zacI bar3e acche haiM seTha kii| bAbU jI jaba bAhara gaye the taba roja Ate the yhaaN| kAti ( kucha socatI huI ) hA~, kabhI kabhI Ate the| zacI phala-miThAI bhI lAte the| mujhe paise dete the| aja bhI de gaye the eka innI mujhe| [ kAMti sahasA cauMka par3atI hai| mAthe para pasIne kI mahIna phuhAra-sI jhalakane lagatI hai / unheM poMcha kara vaha paMkhA hA~kanI hai| niraMjanA kA muskarAte hue praveza / kAMti Age bar3hakara usakA svAgata karatI hai aura Azcarya se usakI aora isa taraha dekhatI hai jaise isa samaya usake Ane kA kAraNa jAnanA cAhatI ho| niraMjanAkIrtana vAle seTha kI bahana / avasthA lagabhaga pacIsa varSa / gorA raMga, ceharA-moharA bahuta AkarSaka ; vastrAbhUSaNoM se alaMkRta hone para para suMdaratA aura bhI bar3ha jAtI hai| sapheda silka kI bar3hiyA sArI jampara pahane hai / bAta-bAta meM ha~satI hai / kaMTha bhI rasIlA hai| ] niraMjanA tuma to kahIM jAne ko taiyAra ho jaise !

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___ kAMti ( bhItarI daravAje kI ora dhUpa kI tar3aka dekhatI huI ) tumhAre bhaiyA ke ghara hI to jAnA hai ! Aja kIrtana hai na ! tuma nahIM gaI ? niraMjanA bhaiyA ke yahA~ ka rtana ! kAMti hA~, ve hI to bulA gae the sabere ! (ha~satI hai ) aura tumheM patA bhI nahIM ? nirajanA bhaiyA ke to nahIM hai kIrtana / sunA hai par3oma meM kisI bhaura ke yahA~ hai / bhAbhI jAya~gI vhaaN| unhoMne kahalAyA bhI thA calane ke lie ; pA maiM nahIM gii| koti para... tumhAre bhaiyA bhAye the bulAne aura ( kucha saMkoca se ) mAlatI ke yahA~ bhI gaye the| [niraMjanoM kucha uttara nahIM detIM ; soca meM par3a jAtI hai / kAMti bAra-bAra usakA mu~ha tAkatI hai| usakI samajha meM kucha AtA nhiiN| niraMjanA (zacI se ) beTI, pAnI to lA jarA / (zacI zIghratA se jAtI hai / kucha dera mauna rahakara ) mAlatI jA rahI hai ?

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( 76 ) kAMti nahIM, usase kahA to thA maiMne ; para vaha jAne ko taiyAra nahIM huii| nirajanA koI kAraNa nahIM batAyA usane ? kAMti na, basa, ja nA asvIkAra kara diyaa| abhI Ane ko kaha gaI hai vaha / pUchanA tum| niraMjanA ( gaMbhIra hokara ) hU~ sss / ThIka hI kahA usane / (kucha soMca kara ) tumheM nahIM manA kiyA usane ? kAMti kiyA thaa| bolI-jaba taka maiM na A jAU~, jAnA mata / (AtmIyatA ke svara meM ) kasama bhI dharA gaI hai apanI / niraMjanA aisA hI karanA tuma / jAnA mt| . kAMti para,..... para ... kyoM ? mAlatI bhI virodha kara rahI hai, tuma bhI roka rahI ho? [niraMjanA koI uttara nahIM detI / kAMti usakI ora jijJAsA se tAkatI hai| eka gilAsa meM jala aura tastarI meM pAna lie

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( 77 ) zacI kA praveza / niraMjanA pAnI pIkara pAna khAtI hai / zacI gilAsa lekara calI jAtI hai| niraMjanA bahana. strI kA caritra jAna lenA jisa prakAra puruSa ke lie saMbhava nahIM hai, vaise hI vaise hI puruSa kI prakRti hamAre lie bhI atyaMta raha yapUrNa hai / jo bahuta jinheM hama / kAMti ( usakI ora tAkatI huI ) kyA. maiM samajhI nahIM matalaba tumhArA / niraMjanA vahI to kahatI hU~ ki jinheM hama bahuta mIdhA sAdA sajana samajhate haiM, ve bar3e ku Tala ho sakate haiM aura jinheM / kAMti to kyA tumhAre bhaiyA .. niraMjanA (sAveza) hA~, ba ta bar3I kaTu hai| hamAre bhaiyA ko loga jitanA sajjana aura dharmAtmA kahate haiM, ve... , mujhe kahate zarma AtI hai, ve vaise haiM nahIM ! kAMti ( sAzcarya ) kyA kahatI ho bahana tuma !

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( saba niraMjanA ( dRr3hatA se ) saca bAta kahatI hU~ / bhAI haiM ve ... rakta kA saMbaMdha hai unase / paraMtu duniyA ko sadA dhokhe meM rakhA hai unhoMne / 78) kAMti dhokhA ! dhokhA eka-do ko diyA ja sakatA hai; unheM to "sabhI bar3AI karate haiM unakI / niraMjanA imI meM to kuzala hai ve ! para ha ajJAna hai tumhArA jo sabhI ko unakA prazaMsaka samajhatA ho / kAMti kaise mAnU~ bAta tumhArI ? niraMjanA vaise hI jaise apanI sagI bahana kI mAnatI / ( kAMti usakI aura isa taraha tAkatI hai jaise aba bhI usakA Azaya na samajhI ho / ) bahana, paise meM bar3A bala kahA jAtA hai aura baha bala yahI hai ki logoM ke mu~ha para tAlA laga jAtA hai| bhaiyA ke prazAsaka mana kI bAta nahIM kahate / kAMti do-eka kA hI mu~ha vaMr3a kiyA jA sakatA hai bahana ! niraMjanA baMda kiyA nahIM jAtA, apane Apa ho jAtA hai| rASTra kA

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( 76 ) vibhinna vargoM meM vibhAjana Aja Arthika dRSTi se hai| jo dhanI haiM. unakA svara eka hai cAhe ve zikSita hoM athavA apar3ha vyvsaayii| madhyama varga vAloM meM jitanoM kA inase kisI taraha kA saMbadha hai, ve sabhI inako prazaMsA karate haiN| zeSa taTastha rahate haiM / aura aura nimna vaga to dhaniyoM ko apanA poSaka hI samajhatA hai| kAMti tumhAre bhaiyA to .. / niraMjanA hA~, bhaiyA bhI dhanI haiM aura isalie vilAsI haiM jaise sabhI dhaniyoM kA prANa vilAsa vihAra meM hI bapatA hai| nArI unake lie vilAsa kA sarvazreSTha sAdhana hai| - kAMti (kiMcita bhayabhIta hokara ) kyA kahatI ho bahana ! tumhAre pati * / niraMjanA ( ThaThAkara ha~satI huI ) mere pati bhI dhanI varga ke hI haiM aura aura jAna rakho ki bhaiyA se unakI paTatI bhI khUba hai / kAMti maiMne to unheM do-tIna bAra dekhA hai ; ve to becAre bar3e sIdhe... ... /

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( 5 ) niraMjanA aise sabhI vyakti isa kalA meM nipuNa hote haiM / ve kitane haiM, isakA patA mujhe hai, tumheM nahIM / ( kAMti punaH sAracarya 1 usakI ora tAkatI hai; kucha uttara nahIM detii| ) saMpAdaka jI se kabhI bAta kI hai tumane isa viSaya meM ? kAMta kisake ? dhaniyoM ke niraMjanA hA~. unhoMne kabhI dhaniyoM kI prazaMsA kI - bhaiyA kI yA unakI yA kisI aura dhanI kI ? kAMti unheM to dhaniyoM se jaise cir3ha hai dhanI AdamI kI hara bAta unheM burI lagatI hai / nAca raMga sinema -nATaka sabhA-samAja yahA~ taka ki dAvata jyonAra meM bhI jAnA unhoMne isalie baMda kara diyA hai ki vahA~ dhaniyoM kA hI jamaghaTa rahatA hai / niraMjanA merA bhI yahI anumAna thA / ve madhyama zreNI ke taTastha vyakti haiM / ye dhanI varga kI vizeSatAe~ samajha gae haiM ! tuma abhI nahIM jAnatIM / kAMti mujhe to kabhI avasara milA nahIM; tumhIM logoM ke yahA~ do bAra bAra kAma-kAja meM gayI AdhI hU~, basa /

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/ 81 ) niraMjanA yaho to kahA maiNne| tumane dhaniyoM kI UparI tar3aka-bhar3aka bhara dekhI hai / tumheM hamAre jI kA hAla kyA mAlUma ? kAMti tumhAre jI kA hAla ? tumheM dugva hai kyA koI ? niraMjanA (ha~sakara ) dugva !.... 'dukha bhalA phaTaka sakatA hai hamAre pAsa ? mere bhaiyA lakhapatI, mere pati lakhapatI ! dhana devI-devatAoM ko mola le sakatA hai, phira saMsAra ke sukhoM ko na le sakegA ? kAsi tuma to jaise vyaMgya kara rahI ho / niraMjanA vyaMgya kaisA! duniyA yahI samajhatI hai ki sukha to jaise hamAre ghara meM TA~ga tor3akara baiThA hai / tuma bhI to yahI samajhato ho ? kAMti bhAI, merI samajha meM to yaha AtA nahIM ki tumheM koI dukha ho sakatA hai kbhii| niraMjanA yahI to kaha rahI hU~ maiM ki dugva to hamArI chA~ha bhI nahIM chU sktaa|

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( 82 ) kAMti aba maiM tuma to ... niraMjanA yahI na ki tumane hameM bar3hiyA se bar3hiyA sAr3iyoM meM lipaTe dekhA hai, jar3AU gahanoM se lade dekhA hai, ghara meM naukaroM se ghire aura bAhara moTaroM para car3he dekhA hai / basa, samajha liyA ki saMsAra kA sArA sukha yahI lUTa rahI haiN| kAMti (vizeSa utsukatA se ) kyA ho gayA hai tumheM Aja ! niraMjanA ( pUrvavat ) saca batAnA, tuma inhIM bAtoM ko dekhakara to kahatI ho ki bar3e ghara kI lar3akI hai, bar3e ghara kI bahU hai yA aura kucha dekha samajhakara ? kAMti aura dekhe bhI kyA koI ? kisI ke ghara kA hAla kyA mAlUma kisI ko niraMjanA yahI to kahatI hU~ ki bhItara kI bAta jAnatI to zAyada tuma dhaniyoM kI striyoM para dayA karatI ; unako saMsAra kA sabase nirAzraya prANI samajha tiiN|

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( 83 ) kAMti ( ha~sakara ) ghara se lar3akara to nahIM AI ho Aja ? niraMjanA lar3atI kisase ? dovAroM se ? kAMti dIvAroM se kyoM ? apane unase / niraMjanA yahI to tumheM malUma nahIM hai ki lar3ane kA saubhAgya bhI dhaniyAM kI striyoM ko prApta nahIM hai / usa strI ko bar3I bhAgyazAlino samajho jo adhikAra ke sAtha kabhI ha~sakara kabhI mAna karake pati se kucha kaha sake / [ kAMti sahasA cauMka par3atI hai / kSaNa bhara vaha cakita-sI raha jAtI hai| usakA mukha-maMDala lAla ho jAtA hai / pazcAta vaha sagarbha niraMjanA kI ora dekhane lagatI hai / ] kAMti maiM samajhI nahIM Azaya tumhArA / niraMjanA merA matalaba hai ki dhanI kI nArI ko tuma mRka aura jar3a prANI samajho jise vilAsa kI anya vastuoM ke samAna unhoMne kharIdA hai aura jisakA pUrNa upabhoga svAmI kI svecchA para hai / svayaM strI ko icchA a nacchA se kisI bAta meM bolane kA koI adhikAra nahIM rahatA /

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[ DAkiyA aAvAja detA hai / zacI bhItara se daur3atI huI zrAtI hai / DAka lekara pitA jI kI Deska para rakha detI hai| kucha kArDaliphAphe haiM aura do-tIna ptr-ptrikaaeN| zacI eka bAlopayogI patrikA pahacAnakara kholatI hai aura manacAhI cIja pAkara prasanna ho jAtI hai| patrikA lie vaha bhItara calI jAtI hai / niraMjanA zepa patrikAe~ lekara dekhatI hai / eka jagaha use rAjIva . kA citra dikhAyI detA hai / vaha use dhyAna se dekhane lagatI hai| kAMti ciTThiyoM ke pate dekha-dekhakara alaga rakhatI jAtI hai| kisI ko par3hane kA prayatna nahIM krtii|] niraMjanA isameM to lekhaka jI kA citra hai ! dekhA tumane ? kAMti (ciTThiyoM ko eka tarapha rakhatI huI, vizeSa utsAha na dikhAkara ) hogA, chapatA hI rahatA hai| niraMjanA (patrikA para dRSTi gar3Ae hue ) aura bhI patroM meM chapatA hai ? kAMti ( pahale ke svara meM ) hA~, pratimAsa kaiyoM meM chapA karatA hai| niraMjanA bar3A garva hotA hogA ina citroM ko dekhakara tumheM ? ( kAMti kucha uttara nahIM detI, phira patra dekhane lagatI hai ) lekhaka jI kA

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( 85 ) bar3I dUra dUra taka nAma hai| ( kAMti phira bhI mauna rahatI hai|) bar3o bhAgyazAlinI ho tuma / ( kAMti ciTTiyA~ hAtha meM lie hue usakI ora isa taraha dekhatI hai jaise usake kathana meM nihita bhAvanA jAnanA cAhatI ho ) isameM lekhaka jI kA lekha bhI hai pArivAraka prazAMti' ; tumane to yaha pahale hI par3hA hogA ? kAMti maiMne ? ( mukha kucha malina ho jAtA hai ) maiMne no nahIM par3hA / niraMjanA aiM ! aise lekha to numase salAha karake likhe jAte hoMge ? kAMti mujhase ? mai bhalA kyA salA dUMgI kisI ko ? niraMjanA ( citra ko kholakara usake sAmane rakhatI huI ) merI ora dekhate samaya yaha citra gaMbhIra ho jAtA hai, para tumhArI ora kitanI muskarAhaTa se dekhatA hai yaha ! (kAMti ur3atI huI dRSTi citra para DAlatI hai ) eka bAta pUchU tumase, batAogI ? kAMni chipAyA hai maiMne tumase kabhI kucha : niraMjanA lekhaka jI ko pati-rUpa meM pAkara sugbI ho tama? / kAMti ( muskarAkara ) kahIM tumheM IrSyA to nahIM hotI hai mere bhAgya se ?

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( 86 ) niraMjanA ( kiMcita saMkoca se ) dekho, ha~sI meM mata ur3Ano bAta merii| maiM pUchatI hU~ vaha batAo phle| kAMti are, yaha bhI kAI pUchane kI bAta hai ? unakA sA pati pAkara koI bhI strI apanA bhAgya sraahegii| niraMjanA ___ maiM sabakI nahIM, sirpha tumhArI bAta jAnanA cAhatI hU~--tuma sugvI ho yA nahIM ? kAMti apanI hI bAta kaha rahI huuN| suvI na hotI to isa taraha moTI tAjI rahatI ; ha~satI-khilatA tumhAre sAmane ? niraMjanA Izvara tumheM sadA svastha aura sukhI rakkhe ; paraMtu tumhaar| mpaSTa uttara na denA hI yaha sUcita karatA hai ki tuma'.. tuma unase saMtuSTa nahIM ho| kAMti (kicit udAsa hokara ) to ina lekhoM meM ve apane ghara kI hI ba teM likhA karate haiM ? | niraMjanA kina lekhoM meM ? yaha lekha to aba dekhA hai mana ; par3ha kahA~ pAyI hU~ abhI ?

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( 87 ) kAMti phira tumhAre anumAna kA AdhAra kyA hai ? niraMjanA (lekha kI ora iMgita karake ) isake zIrSaka se anumAna hotA hai ki kamI-kabhI pArivArika samasyA unheM ciMtita kara detI hogI ; anyathA lekhaka to kalpanA kI manorama va TikA meM ho vicaraNa karanA cAhatA hai| kAMta paraMtu hama pArthiva jagata ke jAvoM kI pahu~ca vahA~ taka kaise ho sakatI hai? niraMjanA bar3I saralatA se| lekhaka no apane saMparka meM Ane vAle sabhI vyaktiyoM ko usa ramya loka ko saira karanA cAhatA hai, phira tuma to unakI mahacarI ho / tuma to" kAMti (saruci ) kyA ? niraMjanA nArI to lekhaka kI sphUtidAyinI hotI hai aura jaba... .. kAMti hogI, mujhe to ... maiM to pratyakSa kI bAta jAnatI huuN| kalpanA kI amRtadhArA kisI pyAse ko tRpta nahIM kara sktii|

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( 88 ) niraMjanA ThIka / paraMtu pyAsa eka Avazyaka hotI hai aura dUsarI aniyamita / pahanI jala jAtI hai ; dUsarI hAlA kI ora iMgita karatI hai| tuma jala ca hatI ho yA hAlA ? kAMti bhUgva pyAsa auH panna-jala--banacaroM-sA jIvana kA kramakimI ko priya nahIM ho sakatA / mAnava kI cetanA usase yahI cAhatI hai ki vaha inase Upara utthe| sugva kI kAmanA tyAjya samajhatI ho tuma? (sahasA mAlatI kA praveza ) mAlatI sugva kAmanA to prANI janma se pAlatA hai| kAMti yahI to kahatI hU~; saMsAra meM lipta aura virakta - sabhI imI ko khoja meM vyasta rahate haiM ; nitya naye sAdhana juTAte haiN| ima loka meM hI nahIM, paraloka meM bhI sukha cAhane kI cAha meM, ye apane ko ghulA DAlate haiM / kyA sukha ko tyAjya samajhate haiM ye ? niraMjanA suva tyAgane ko maiM kaba kahatI hU~ ! paraMtu sukha ke rUpa aura Adarza meM aMtara to rahatA hai na ? amRtapAna aura madapAna kA a'naMda to samAna nahIM kahA jA sakatA ?

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( 86 ) mAlatI tumhArA bhI samarthana karatI hU~ maiM bahana ! isa lU-dhUpa meM kIrtana kA AnaMda lUTane se mujhe to kinI ThaMDI jagaha meM eka nIMda le lenA kahIM jyAdA sukhadAyI mAlUma par3atA hai| [niraMjanA aura kAMti donoM ha~sa par3atI haiN| kAMti kI ha~sI kA svara niraMjanA se halkA rahatA hai|] nigjanA paraMtu apane sukha ke cAha dUsare para lAdanA burA hai / inako kyoM roka liyA bhaiyA ke yahA~ jAkara kIrtana kA sukha lUTane se ? mAlatI __maiMne rokA kahA~ ? maiM to itanA kaha gayI thI ki jaba taka maiM na zrA jAU~ taba taka na jAnA vhaaN| aba jA sakatI haiM ye / tuma jA rahI ho vahIM ? niraMjana kahA~ ? bhaiyA ke kIrtana hai bhI ? / ( rahasyapUrNa DhaMga se ha~sakara ) isI se to roka gayI thI inheM / maharI ko bhejakara puchavAyA thA unase ki kitanI dera hai kIrtana meM / so usane to.......... kAMti kyA kahA usane

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(60 ) mAlato (niraMjanA kI ora dekha kara ) kyA batAU~, kucha samajha meM nahIM AtA ki kahA~ taka usakI bAta ThIka hai| niraMjanA (phIkI ha~sI ha~satI huI lajjita sI ) saMkoca mata karo ki seTha jI bhAI haiM mere / mujhe mAlUma haiM unakI karatUteM / kAMti (kiMcita bhayabhIta-sI, paraMtu utsukatAvaza ) kyA huA? kyA kahA unhoMne ? niraMjanA roka liyA hogA usako aura kyA karate ? kAMti aiM ? kyoM ? niraMjanA kyA kahU~ ?..."maharI - seTha jI ... [ kAMti sA~sa rokakara usakI bAteM sunanA cAhatI hai; niraMjanA kabhI kAMti kI ora dekhatI hai, kabhI nigAha nIcI kara letI hai| mAlatI kI ora dekhane kA use sAhasa nahIM hotA / usakA ceharA phIkA par3a jAtA hai|] niraMjanA merA saMkoca kara rahI ho tuma ?

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( 11 ) mAlatI nahIM - - seTha jI ne kahalAyA usase ki jaldI hI kortata zurU hogA / loga Ane vAle haiM / niraMjanA tuma chipA rahI ho kucha, bahana, tumhArI A~kheM kaha rahI haiM / [ mAnatI kucha lajjita ho jAtI hai / kAMti kabhI usakI ora dekhatI hai, kabhI niraMjanA kI ora / ] mAlatI chipAU~gI tumase ? "kahU~ bhI kaise ? isase hI saba samajha lo ki seTha jI ne use rupayA diyA, kahA- jaldI | vi kara lAnA mAlakina ko / [ mAlatI jaldI se kaha jAtI hai / usakA svara dhIre dhIre dhImA hojAtA hai / kAMti ke mAthe para pasInA A jAtA hai; vaha svayaM lajjita sI ho jAtI hai| niraMjanA kA sara bhI jhuka jAtA haiM / isI samaya do AdamiyoM kA sahArA lie behoza se A~kha mU~de rAjIva kA praveza / tInoM striyA~ har3abar3Akara khar3I hotI haiM / ] niraMjanA aura mAlatI ( sammilita svara meM ) kyA huA inheM ? eka sahAyaka garmI se jarA cakkara A gayA hai| ghabar3Ae~ nahIM Apa | dasapaMdraha minaTa meM ThIka ho jAya~ge / liTA dIjie ArAma se inheM /

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(62 ) [ mAlatI lapakakara pala~ga bichA detI hai| rAjIva ko sahArA dekara usapara liTA diyA jAtA hai / niraMjanA paMkhA lekara hA~kane lagatI hai / kAMti pala~ga ke samIpa hatbuddhi-sI khar3I raha jAtI hai| bhItara se zacI daur3atI huI aAtI hai| pitA ko palaMga para par3A dekhakara ghabar3A jAtI hai|] zacI are ! kyA huA pitA jI ko ? dUsarA sahAyaka le beTI, yaha davA inheM pilA de| aura ArAma se leTA rahane do kucha dera, abhI ThIka ho jAya~ge / ( striyoM kI ora dekhakara ) jarA sI garamI car3ha gayA hai dimAga para inake / pahalA sahAyaka / (eka baMDala zacI ko dekara ) le beTI, yaha baMDala inakA hai . ArAma se leTe raheM ye ; abhI ThIka ho jAya~ge / mAlatI bar3A kaSTa huA Apa logoM ko| isa kRpA ke lie hama sadaiva kRtajJa raheMge aapke| pahalA sahAyaka (hAtha jor3akara ) isameM kaSTa kI kyA bAta hai ! yaha to dhama thA hama logoM kaa| Apa ghabar3Ae~ nahIM ; abhI uThakara Apase bAteM kareMge ye|

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( 63 ) dUsarA sahAyaka (hAtha jor3akara ) acchA, aba AjJA deN| [ donoM 'namaste' karake jAte haiN| mAlatI A~gana kI ora kA daravAjA baMda kara detI hai| niraMjanA aba bhI havA kara rahI hai / kAMti mUtivat khar3I hai ; samajha nahIM pAtI ki kyA kare / zacI pala~ga ke paitAne khar3I hai / vaMDala usake hAtha meM hai| ] niraMjanA ( dhIre se ) garamI aura lU hai bho tA gajaba kii| merA to yahA~ taka Ate-a te jaise dama nikala gayA thaa| ___ mAlatI aura phira ye to kahIM Ate-jAte nahIM lU dhUpa meN| jo nikalatA ho, usakI Adata banI rhe| niraMjanA Aja na jAne kyoM bAhara gaye / ( kAMti se ) inheM bAhara mata jAne diyA ko dopahara ko| [ kAMti kucha uttara nahIM detI ; dRSTi bacAkara zacI kI ora dekhatI hai aura saMketa se cupa rahane ko kahatI hai|] kAMti jarA sA pAnI diyA jAya ? mAlatI abhI maka jAgo / pahale davA de do|

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( 64 ) kAMti zacI, pyAlI to le aa| [zacI jaldI se alamArI kholakara pyAlI lAtI hai aura hAtha kA baMDala vahIM rakha pAtI hai / kAMti surAhI se gilAsa meM jala lekara niraMjanA aura mAlatI kI sahAyatA se davA pilAtI hai| ] niraMjanA ( muskarAkara kAMti se ) bama, abhI ThIka hote haiM ye| tumhAre hAtha kI davA amRta kA kAma kregii| [ mAlatI bhI muskarA detI hai| kAMti ha~sakara kucha lajA jAtI hai| zacI pyAlI dhokara alamArI meM rakha detI hai| kAMti niraMjanA ke pAsa jAkara paMkhA lenA cAhatI hai| niraMjanA nahIM detI ! ] niraMjanA itanI sukumAra nahIM hU~ ki mere hAtha thaka jaayNge| [ kAMti aura mAlatI muskarAne lagatI haiN| isI samaya rAjIva A~kheM kholakara sabakI ora dekhatA hai| niraMjanA para dRSTi par3hate hI hAtha jor3akara namaste karatA hai / niraMjanA muskarAkara uttara detI hai|] rAjIva pine kaise kaSTa kiyA isa samaya ? niraMjanA maiM AyI thI yaha dekhane ki lU-dhUpa meM bhI Apa ghara para baiThate haiM yA nahIM ?

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( 5 ) rAjIva eka jarUrI kAma se calA gayA thA / [ rAjIva eka bAra punaH sabakI ora dekhatA hai| kAMti se bhI isa bAra cAra A~kheM hotI haiN| kAMti dRSTi nIcI kara letI hai| ] mAlatI aba kaimA jI hai ApakA ? rAjIva (baiThakara ) ThIka hai, jarA cakkara A gayA thaa| Apa logoM ko bar3A kaSTa huA mere kAraNa / baiThie aba / [rAjIva svayaM paMkhA le letA hai| tInoM striyA~ caTAI para baiThatI haiM / niraMjanA aura mAlatI kA mukha rAjIva kI ora hai ; kAMti dUsarI ora dekhatI hai| rAjIva ( svastha svara meM niraMjanA se ) ApakA lekha par3hA thA maiMne / niraMjanA para chApA nahIM ? rAjIva ( ha~sakara ) hA~, abhI to nahIM chapA hai| niraMjanA Apa vaha mujhe de diijie| maiM use jarA bddh'aauuNgii|

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rAjIva puruSAM ko phaTakAra vAlA hissA nikAla deMgI yA.... .. niraMjanA ( mAlatI kI ora dekhakara sAbhimAna ) aura kar3I phaTakAra duuNgii| rAjIva aisA karane se lAbha kyA hogA ? niraMjanA lAbha ho yA na ho, jisake jaise karma hoMge, kahA hI jAyagA / rAjIva tumhArA lekha mAlatI ke nAma se chApa dU~ ? niraMjanA nhiiN| kyoM ? / rAjIva apane nAma se chApa dU~ to ? niraMjanA (kucha socatI huI ) acchA, chApa dojie| maiM maiM to use chapA dekhanA cAhatI huuN| rAjIva arthAt Aja ke puruSa ko phaTakArA jAya, koI bhI phaTakAre / (ha~satA haiM ) acchI bAta hai| sudhAra denA use| kisI na kisI

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(67 ) ke nAma se chApa duuNgaa| ( punaH ha~sakara ) use chApanA isalie bho Avazyaka hai ki kahIM tuma mujhe puruSavarga kA himAyatI na samajha baitthaa| paraMtu tumhAre nAma se nahIM chApa mahU~gA ; isake lie kSamA karanA / tuma svayaM samajhadAra ho| ___ mAlatI ApakA saMpAdaka kA jovana' zoka lekha chapa kara AyA hai Aja ! rAjIva ( kAMti kI ora dekhakara ) yoM hI likha diyA thaa| niraMjanA aura 'pArivArika zAMti' vAlA ? rAjIva usameM bhI mere vicAra haiM; dUsaroM ke vicAra bhinna ho sakate haiN| niraMjanA maiM Azaya nahIM samajhI aapkaa| rAjIva aise viSayoM para hamAre anubhava ekAMgI hote haiM, yahI eka doSa hai| sabakI samasyAe~ bar3I jaTila hotI haiN| isalie ina viSayoM para likhate samaya udAra rahakara hI hama saphalatA pA sakate haiN|

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( hada ) [ ghar3I meM cAra vajate haiN| niraMjanA aura mAlatI uTha khar3I hotI haiM / ] niraMjanA aba AjJA dIjie; phira darzana karU~gI / rAjIva ( hAtha jor3akara ) dhUpa meM kaSTa na kIjiegA / mAlatI ( do patrikAe~ uThAkara ) inheM liye jAtI hU~ / sabere de jaauuNgii| Apa to nahIM par3heMge ? rAjIva bAda ko dekha lU~gA / le jAie Apa / [ donoM jAtI hai| kAMti unheM pahu~cAne ke lie bAhara taka jAtI hai| rAjIva zacI se lekara pAnI pItA hai; phira leTa jAtA hai ! kAMti lauTakara palaMga ke pAsa AtI hai| rAjIva kI A~kheM baMda haiN| kAMti jhukakara sara para hAtha rakhatI hai / ] kAMti kaisA jI hai ? rAjIva bilakula Thoka hai / aba calI jAo kIrtana meM zacI ko lekara / ( cAro ora dekhakara ) baMDala kahA~ gayA ? lAye nahIM ve loga ?

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(66 ) [ zacI daur3akara baMDala nikAla lAtI hai| rAjIva kholakara do rezamI phirAkeM aura eka sAr3I nikAlatA hai| phirAkeM putrI ko detA hai / zacI eka bAra mAtA kI ora dekhakara sacAva le letI hai / sAr3I patnI kI ora bar3hAtA hai| kAMti hAtha bhI nahIM hilaatii|] rAjIva maiMne socA, varSoM se tumhAre lie kucha nahIM laayaa| Aja eka sAr3I hI letA calU / [ kAMti phira bhI hAtha nahIM bar3hAtI ; hA~, zacI kI ora sasneha dekhatI hai| rAjIva jAo aba, dera kyoM kara rahI ho ? kAMti maiM vahA~ nahIM jAU~gI ava / rAjIva kyoM ? abhI dera thor3e hI ho gayI hai| kAMti phira dekhA jAyagA kisI dina / rAjIva acchA to eka bAra yaha sAr3I pahana lo| [ kAMti 'abhI AyI' kahakara jaldI se bhItara calI jAtI hai / rAjIva usakI ora saprema dekhane lagatA hai / zacI apanI eka phirAka lie laMbAI nApatI hai| ] .

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( 100 ) rAjIva ( sasneha ) pahanakara dekha ThIka hai tere / zacI ( sacAva dekhatI huI ) jaba kahIM jAU~gI, taba phnuuNgii| rAjIba pahanakara dekha to eka bAra | [ zacI Darate-Darate bhItara kI tarapha dekhatI hai; phira phirAka pahanakara prasanna ho jAtI hai / ] rAjIva jA, mAtA jI ko dikhA zrA aura dUsarI saMdUka meM rakha thA / [ zacI phirAka lie bhItara calI jAtI hai| rAjIva uThakara Deska para se ciTThiyA~ uThA lAtA hai aura palaMga para leTakara par3hane lagatA hai / kAMti kA eka saMtarA lie praveza / isa bAra vaha khaddara kI moTI sAr3I pahane hai / rAjIva usakI aura acaraja se dekhatA hai / ] krAMti lo, yaha khA lo / pahale yaha sAr3I pahana rAjIva I lo kAMti itane rupae kahA~ se mila gaye ?

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rAjIva kahIM se A gye| kAMti tumheM kasama hai, saba btaao| rAjIva kucha kitAbeM beca dI aura bAkI rupae udhAra kara diye| kAMti ( cauMkakara ) aiM ! udhAra liye tumane ? rAjIva ( ha~satA huA ) U~ha, do-tIna lekha limva duuNgaa| zrada ho jAyeMge saba dAma / kauna bar3I bAta hai| (sAr3I uThAkara ) pahana lo ise eka baar| dekhU, kaisI lagatI hai ! bahuta dina se rezama sAr3I pahane nahIM dekhA hai tumko| kAMti nahIM, ise phera denA Aja hii| rAjIva yaha kaisA hogA ? kAMta yahI karanA, merI bAta maano| ( saralatA se ) maiM aba khahara kI sAr3I hI phnuuNgii|

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( 102 ) rAjIva kyAM ' bAta kyA hai ? kAMti rezamI sAr3I kA mUlya maiM samajha gayI huuN| mujhe aba khaddara ko sAr3I ho lA denA / ( hAtha jor3akara sajala netra hokara ) merI Aja kI bhUla ke lie kSamA kro| [rAjIva saprema usake jur3e hue hAtha apane hAthoM meM le letA hai|

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pAtra mahAtmA IsA-IsAI dharma ke pravartaka eka bhAratIya sahapAThI cAra ziSya eka senAnAyaka aura sainika pAtrI mAtA mariyama-IsA kI mAtA

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( 105 ) [yUrosalana ke makAna kA eka bar3A kamarA / mahAtmA IsA ziSyoM ke sAtha baiThe haiM / rAtri kA samaya hai; bhojana samApta ha / cukA hai / kRSNa pakSa kI a~dhiyArI cAroM ora chAI hai / ] pahalA ziSya sAmrAjya kI prajA meM Aja bahuta jAgRti dikhAyI de rahI hai / dUsarA ziSya jAgRti Aja ! jAgRti to usI dina ho gayI thI jaba atyAcArI aura krUra rAjA ne dharmapitA kI hatyA karAyI thI ! IsA ( dUsare ziSya se) saMyama se kAma lo / kisI ke lie bhI aise vizeSaNoM kA prayoga mata karo jinase ghRNA yA kSobha prakaTa ho / dUsarA jisa samrATa ne dharmapitA kI hatyA karAyI usake prati prema ! usake prati dayA ! IsA hA~. saMyama isI kA nAma hai / gAla para thappar3a mArane vAle ke hAtha sahalA do ki usake coTa laga gayI hogI / sahanazIlatA kA vikAsa AtmA ke aise hI saMyama kA AdhAra cAhatA hai / prathama bhagavana ! inI vicAroM ke anusAra AcaraNa karanA kyA sAdhAraNa janatA ke lie saMbhava hogA ?

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( 186 ) IsA janatA ke lie nahIM, tumhAre lie saMbhava honA cAhie / ina vicAroM para AcaraNa karane se samAja meM zAMti hogii| sabako sukha milegaa| tuma janata ke sevaka ho| usake sukha-dukha kA dhyAna rakhanA tumhArA kartavya hai| [ IsA ke eka bhAratIya sahapAThI kA praveza / IsA uTa kara bar3a prema se hAtha pakar3a kara use apane pAsa baiThAte haiN| donoM ziSya bhI bhAratIya kA sAdara abhivAdana karate hai / ] IsA Ao bhAI, tumase bAteM karate jI nahIM bhrtaa| bhAratIya (muskarAkara) yaha merA saubhAgya hai| yahA~ Akara mujhe yaha dekha bar3A saMtoSa ho rahA hai ki apane deza kA uddhAra karane meM bahuta-kucha saphalatA tumane prApta kara lI hai| IsA aisA mata kaho bhAI ! prakRti parivartanazIla hai| eka sI sthiti meM rahanA usakI pravRtti ke pratikUla hai ! aise parivartana kA zreya kisI vyakti kA ...! bhAratIya niSkAma sevA kI prati mRti ! kabhI hama logoM kI yAda bhI tumheM AtI hai ?

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( 187 ) IsA tumhArI yAda ! tuma logoM kA snehapUrNa vyavahAra, tumhArA Atithya prema, tumhArI udAratA, kyA bhulAne se bhI koI bhUla sakatA hai ? bhArata ya bhArata meM tumhArI yAda sabhI kiyA karate haiM / tumhArI saralatA aura snehazIlatA sabhA ke hRdaya para akita hai / IsA gurU jo kabhI merI carcA karate haiM ? bhAratIya carcA ! ve to tumhArI prazaMsA karate thakate ho nahIM / Azraya meM lagAye hue tumhAre Ama ke per3a khUba phalate haiM gurUjI kahate haiM ki inakI miThAsa IsA kI vANI aura vyavahAra ke mAdhurya kA phala hai| IsA ( natamastaka aura gadagada ) merA janma sArthaka huA jo gurujI kI mujhapara itanI kRpA hai / unake caraNa chUkara merA savinaya praNAma kahanA | tIsarA ziSya ( praveza karake) eka rogI dvAra para hai / maiMne kahA - sabere AnA ; para vaha jAne kA nAma nahIM letA /

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( 108 ) IsA (tatkAla uThakara) tumane pahale sUcanA kyoM nahIM dI ? usakA roga to sabere taka merA rAstA nahIM dekhegaa| (bhAratIya sahapAThI se) bhAI, abhI AyA maiM / (tIsare ziSya ke sAtha prasthAna) bhAratIya (IsA ke donoM ziSyoM se) tumhAre deza ko dazA to bar3I zocanIya hai ! pahalA ziSya kyA kiyA jAya ! rAjA kA atyAcAra pratidina bar3hatA jA rahA hai| darabAra meM rAjya bhara ke cApalUsa jamA haiN| prajA lUTI jA rahI hai aura dhana usakA vilAsa meM luTAyA jA rahA hai / dinadahAr3e lUTa-mAra hotI hai| prajA kI jAna-mAla kA koI rakSaka nahIM hai| bhAratIya yahI to sabase burA hai| prajA kI rakSA karanA to rAjA kA sabase pahalA kartavya hai| dUsarA ziSya prajA kI rakSA karanA to chor3ie ; hamAre dharma sthAna bhI pApa ke aDDe ho rahe haiN| dharma-karma karane vAle pujAriyoM ko haTAkara peTU, zarAbI, jupArI aura pApI vyakti unake sthAna para mahaMta banA diye gaye haiN| devasthAnoM meM ve hI jAne pAte haiM jo acchI

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( 106 ) bheMTa de sakate haiM, nidhanoM ko to Thokara mAra kara nikAla diyA jAtA hai / ghUsa ke binA jaise Izvara bhI prasanna nahIM hotaa| bhAratIya taba to rAjA adharmI bhI hai ! aisA rAjya adhika samaya taka nahIM cala sktaa| pahalA ziSya rAjA ke atyAcAra ke viruddha jo bhI AvAja uThAtA hai vahI talavAra ke ghATa utAra diyA jAtA hai| hamAre dharma-pitA ne jaba ima atyAcAra kA virodha kiyA to unhe bhI maravA diyA gayA / bhAratIya (gabhIra aura vicAra magna hokara) atyAcAra jaba sImA ke bAhara ho jAtA hai tabhI krAMti hotI hai| krAMti ke lie thiti rAjA ke atyAcAra ne prastuta kara dI hai| kevala pUrNAhuti kI AvazyakatA hai| IsA (praveza ka ke) isakA bhI prabaMdha ho gayA hai bhAI / (bhAratIya sahapAThI usakI ora dekhane lagatA hai ; donoM ziSya bhI cauMka paDate hai / tInoM vizeSa utsUkatA se unakI ora tAkate haiN| IsA zAMta bhAva se baiTha jAte haiN|) donoM ziSya kyA kahA Apa ne abhI ?

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mujhe bhI pakar3A apanI bali denI hogI / Apako pakar3Ane aura nIca hogA itanA ? ( 110 ) IsA "apane deza ke uddhAra ke lie mujhe dUsarA ziSya 'deza ke udvAraka ko ? kauna kRtaghna IsA vatsa, vANI ko vaza meM kro| jo honA hogA ho ho jAyagA / bhaviSya kI ciMtA karake apane vartamAna ko naSTa na kro| hA~ to, ( bhAratIya se pUrvavat prasannacitta hokara ) tumheM dekhate hI bhAratIya pravAsa kI sArI ghaTanAe~ jaise mere sAmane ghUmane lagatI haiM / bhAratIya itanI jaTilatAoM meM rahakara bho tuma una dinoM kI bAteM bhUle nahIM ? IsA bhUlU~gA kaise ! maiM to samajhatA hU~ ki sabhyatA kyA hai, sahRdayatA kyA hai, mAnavatA kyA hai, yaha saba sIkhane ke lie hameM bhArata jAnA hogaa| maiMne vahA~ rahakara jo kucha sokhA thA usakI parIkSA denA abhI zeSa hai| taba kyA usa deza ko hama kabhI bhUla sakate haiM ?

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( 111 ) bhAratoya ( sasaMkoca) tumane to bhArata kI prazaMsA ke pula bA~dha diye haiN| IsA prazasA nahIM, ye hRdaya ke udgAra haiM ! apane deza meM prema, vizvAsa aura dharma ke nAma para ghora pAkhaMDa kA pracAra jaba maiM dekhatA hU~ tabhI svabhAvataH mujhe usa devabhUmi kI yAda A jAtI hai jahA~ mere jIvana kA svarNakAla bItA thA; jahA~ maiMne zikSA prApta kI thii| pahalA ziSya (bhAratIya para jijJAsu kI dRSTi DAlakara IsA se) usa devabhUmi kI aura kyA vizeSatAe~ haiM ! IsA vizeSatAe~ ! vizeSatAoM kI carcA karane kA samaya hI aba kahA~ hai ! kucha dera bAda"........? basa, itane meM hI bhArata kA mahatva samajha lo ki vahA~ ke loga sva-para ke AdhAra se Upara uThakara paradezI ko bhI bhAI mAnate haiN| pahalA yahA~ bhAI-bhAI ko zatru aura avizvAsI samajhatA hai| dUsarA yaha pArasparika zatrutA aura avizvAsa hamAre rAjA ke atyAcAra kA hI to phala hai|

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( 112 ) bhAratIya bhAiyoM, tumhAre rAjA ke atyAcAra kI kahAnI thor3I-bahuta maiM bhI sunatA AyA huuN| merI samajha se to tuma logoM ko usakA kRtajJa honA cAhie, use dhanyavAda denA cAhie ! pahalA aiM, kyA kahate haiM Apa! bhAratIya atyAcAra bar3hane para hI dharma kA sthApana karane vAlI zaktiyA~ avatIrNa hotI haiM aura 'taba hama vizvAsa karate haiM ki hamArA rakSaka bhI koI hai| IsA hamAre dharma-pitA bhI nissaMdeha aise hI eka the| bhAratIya ThIka hai / (dRr3ha vizvAsa ke sAtha) ye zaktiyA~ manuSya ko pazu hone se bacAtI haiM / prema, karuNA aura sahiSNutA ko dIkSA dekara use sabala banAtI hai aura taba""taba (kiMcita muskarAkara) darzana karane ke lie hamAre jaise ... loga hajAroM mIla calakara unake pAsa Ate haiN| IsA (sasneha hAtha pakar3akara) bhAI, aba to tuma bar3e vAkATu ho gae ho!

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( 113 ) bhAratIya vaha vAkapaTutA nahIM hai / apane dezavAsiyoM kI sevA jisa prakAra kaSTa sahakara tuma kara rahe ho, sarvatra usakI prazaMsA maine sunI hai| tumhAre zatruSoM kI saMkhyA kama nahIM dikhAyI detI aura saMbhava hai ki tumheM unake hAthoM kaSTa bhI uThAnA par3e / IsA ( sotsAha) mujhe kaSToM se bhaya nahIM hai / hamAre deza kI prajA kisI prakAra sukhI ho jAya, mere jIvana kA parama uddezya yahI hai / isake lie mujhe yadi kA~ToM kA tAja pahinanA par3e to mai ha~sate-ha~sate use svIkAra kara lU~gA / bhAI, AzIrvAda do ki maiM apane nizcaya para dRr3ha raha sakU~ / tIsarA ziSya ( praveza karake bhAratIya se) Apa ke vizrAma kA prabaMdha ho gayA hai / IsA jAo bhAI vizrAma kro| hA~, suno, eka prArthanA hai / jaba bhArata lauTanA to gurU jI ke caraNa chUkara itanA nivedana kara denA ki maiM zakti bhara Apa ke AdezoM ko kAryarUpa de rahA hU~ / bhAratIya kala maiM svadeza ko prasthAna karU~gA; abhI se saMdeza diye dete ho ; kyA bheMTa nahIM karoge kala !

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( 114 ) IsA bhAI, na jAne kyoM yaha icchA ho rahI hai ki abhI hI tumheM gale bhI lagAlU~ ! __ bhAratIya (hAtha phailA kara) acchI bAta hai, (gale lagA kara) bar3e bhAvuka ho! IsA calo, tumheM thor3I dUra pahu~cA dU~, vidA karane kI rasma bhI maiM abhI hI pUrI kara lenA cAhatA huuN| (donoM ziSya se) tuma loga yahIM rahanA / abhI AyA maiM / (bhAratIya sahapAThI ke sAtha IsA kA prasthAna / donoM zi yo kucha dera usI ora dekhate rahate hai|) pahalA gurudeva kI prakRti meM zrAja tuma kucha parivartana lakSya kara rahe ho ? dUsarA yahI maiM bhI soca rahA thaa| unake mukha para Aja saralatA nahIM khela rahI hai ; jaise kisI gaMbhIra sthiti para ve vicAra kara rahe haiN| pahalA tumhArA anumAna ThIka hai| Aja unameM bhAvoM kA Aveza

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( 115 ) bhI adhika hai / kucha kAraNa samajha meM AtA hai isakA ? dUsarA kAraNa !... maiM to mujhe Aja kucha anahonI ghaTanA ghaTita hoto dikhAyI detI hai| pahalA Izvara dayA kare ! dharmapitA ke aMtima darzana jaba maine kiye the taba unake mukha parabhI aisI hI raha yamayatA thI / ve barAbara merI tarapha isa taraha dekhate haiM ki jaise kucha kahanA cAhate hoM, parantu na jAne kyA ka jAte haiN| dUsarA Thoka kaha rahe ho ; itanI dera kI bAtacIta meM hI kaI bAteM to adhUrI kahIM unhoMne aura kaI kA uttara nahIM - ... (kisI ke Ane kI AhaTa hotI hai| donoM dvAra kI ora dekhane lagate hai| koI AtA naho / pahalA isa makAna meM Aja na jAne kaisA bhaya sA lagatA hai / dUsarA merA kalejA bhI dhar3aka rahA hai ; jI roU~ - roU~ sA ho rahA hai| pahalA Izvara kA hI aba sahArA hai / vahI dayA" "

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( 116 ) (praveza karake) ThIka, Izvara bar3A dayAlu hai ! usako dayA para vizvAsa rakhane meM hI hamArA kalyANa ho sakatA hai| (baiThakara) Azro baittho| (donoM baiThate hai ) maiMne abhI taka tumheM jAne nahIM diyaa| isakA vizeSa kAraNa hai / donoM AjJA dIjie gurudeva ! IsA _ maiM Aja eka bAta pUchanA cAhatA hU~ (donoM vizeSa utsuka hote hai) bAta tumheM vicitra lagegI, parantu na jAne kyoM pUchane kI icchA ho pAyI hai| donoM (eka dUsare kI ora dekhakara) kyA AjJA hai hamAre lie ? IsA Aja taka hama saba kA dhyeya thA janatA kI sevA krnaa| sukhI rahakara, dukhI hokara jisa taraha se bhI huA aba taka hama saba isa mArga para bar3hate rahe / maiM jAnanA cahatA hU~ ki mere bAda kyA tuma loga isa kAya ko Age bar3ha te rahoge ? donoM Apa ke bAda""yaha kyA kahate haiM Apa ! IsA maiMne tumase kahA na ki na jAne kyoM Aja ina bAtoM kI

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( 117 ) jAnane kI icchA ho Ayo hai| ataeva ina praznoM kA uttara de do jisase maiM saMtuSTa ho jaauuN| / pahalA __ hamAre kArya se Apa aba taka saMtuSTa rahe haiM aura hama Apa ko viravAla dilAte haiM ki bhaviSya meM bhI hama vahI kareMge jisasa Apa ko pUrNa satASa ho| * IsA maiM Azvasta huaa| itanA aura dhyAna rakhanA ki pratyeka vyakti hamAre prema kA pAtra hai / kara sakoge sabase prema ? dUsarA anyAyI se, adharmI se, atyAcArI se bhI kyA ? . IsA inase hI nahIM, inase bar3hakara jo pApI ho usase bhI prema karo, tabhI mujhe saMtoSa hogA / bolo, ho taiyAra ? dUsarA taiyAra haiN| IsA maiM parIkSA lU~gA! dUsarA kisI bhI kasauTI para kasiye ; Apa ke ziSya khare utareMge ! (tIsare ziSya kA zIghratA se praveza / saba usakI aora sAzcarya dekhate haiN|)

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( 118 ) tIsarA ziSya bhagavana, rAjya ke sainik......| donoM ziSya aiM..... sainika ! rAjya ke ? IsA kyA kiyA sainikoM ne ?' tIsarA dUra para veza badale hue bahuta se sainika ghUma rahe haiM ! unakA lakSya yahI makAna jAna par3atA hai| acchA, bAhara jaao| koI vizeSa bAta ho to sUcanA denaa| (tIsare ziSya kA prasthAna) pahalA to kyaa.......| ve mujhe baMdI banAne Aye haiN| usakI ciMtA chodd'o| maiM kaha rahA thA tumase ki parIkSA lU~gA tumhArI / samaya kama hai| isalie sApha-sApha suno ; mujhe baMdI karAne meM mere eka nAsamajha mitra kA bhI hAtha hai| donoM (acakacAkara)aiM! Apake mitra kA hAtha !

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( 116 ) IsA hA~, mitra, sakhA, bhAI, ziSya jo cAho kaha lo ! parantu usase na tuma aprasanna honA, na usapara krodha karanA aura na tiraskAra hI krnaa| vaha becArA dayA kA pAtra hai| prema kA bhUkhA hai / usapara tuma dayA karanA, prema krnaa| bolo ! merI itanI bAta mAna sakoge tuma ? pahalA aise ko karanI jA sunegA vahI dhikkAregA ora..........! dUsarA .. aura Aja hI kyA, jaba taka yaha saMsAra rahegA, bhAI-cAre yA gurU-ziSya kA saMbaMdha rahegA taba taka usakA nAma tiraskAra se liyA jaaygaa| bhAI, maiM tumhArI bAta pUcha rahA huuN| mere hRdaya meM usa vyakti ke prati jo mamatA pahale thI usase Aja bahuta adhika hai, isa para vizvAsa rakho / isI prakAra maiM cAhatA hU~ ki merA pratyeka mitra usakA isI prakAra Adara-satkAra kare jaisA aba taka karatA rahA hai| dUsarA kSamA kiyA phira hamane usako / IsA bhAI, kSamA karane kA adhikAra manuSya ko nahIM hai, prema

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( 120 ) karane kA hai, tuma bhI usase prema karanA / (senAnAyaka kA cAra sainikoM ke sAtha praveza / IsA ko ghera kara cAro sainika khar3e ho jAte haiM / ) IsA Ao bhAI, svAgata ! kaise kaSTa kiyA isa samaya ? senAnAyaka Apako baMdI banAne kI AjJA dI hai samrATa ne ! IsA merA aparAdha ? senAnAyaka samrATa kA yaha AjJApatra hai| isameM aparAdha ke ullekha kA sthAna hI nahIM hai| IsA aura jo na jAU~ maiM tumhAre sAtha ? senAnAyaka to mujhe bala kA prayoga karanA pdd'egaa| taba Apa ke sAtha zrApa ke kucha ziSya bhI baMdI banAye jaayNgeN| pahalA ziSya (talavAra para hAtha rakha kara) apane bala kA ghamaMDa hai Apako to...

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( 121 ) . IsA zAMta ! itanI jaldI bhUla gaye mero zikSA ! tumhArA Aveza merA mastaka nIcA karA degaa| (senAnAyaka kI ora saMketa karake) ye samrATa ke sevaka hai| AjJApAlana karanA inakA kartavya hai; isakA inheM vetana milatA hai| ataeva ye bhI prema ke pAtra haiN| (senA-nAyaka se) maiM prastuta huuN| (senAnAyaka Age baDha kara hAtha-paira bAMdhatA hai| donoM ziSya kucha krodhita hote haiM ; IsA unheM saMketa se zAMta karate haiM ; sabhI calane lagate haiM, tabhI zIghratA se mAtA mariyama kA praveza, IsA ko dekhate hI usase lipaTa jAtI hai ) mariyama mere lAla ! yaha kyA dekha rahI hU~ maiM ? (senAnAyaka se) bhaiyA, kyoM bA~dha rakkhA hai isako tumane ? kyA aparAdha hai isakA ? merA beTA kitI kA rAjya nahIM cAhatA, dona-dukhiyoM kI sevA karatA hai, rUkhI-sUkhI khA letA hai| taba kyoM ise bA~dhe liye nA rahe ho tuma ? senAnAyaka apane putra se ho pUcha lIjie uttara isakA / mariyama bolo beTA, kauna sA aparAdha kiyA hai tumane ? kisakA aparAdha kiyA hai ? maiM usase kSamA mA~ga luuNgii|

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( 122 ) IsA samrATa mujhase aprasanna haiM aura ye becAre unake sevaka haiM / samrATa ko AjJA kA pAlana karane yahA~ Aye haiM, na merA koI aparAdha hai aura na inakA hii| mariyama (senAnAyaka se) mere lAla ko na le jAkara mujhe baMdI banA lo to kyA tumhAre samrATa kA krodha zAMta na hogA ? senAnAyaka hameM inhIM ko lAne kI AjJA milI hai| mariyama to mujhe bhI le calo isake sAtha-sAtha / samrATa se isake aparAdha kI kSamA mA~ga lU~gI maiM / IsA mAtA jo, koI aparAdha nahIM kiyA hai maine / dIna-dukhiyoM se prema karanA, unako sevA karanA, unake adhikAra batalAnA yadi aparAdha hai to nizcaya hI maiM aparAdhI huuN| aura bhArI se bhArI daMDa mujhe milanA cAhie / ha~sate - ha~sate maiM use svIkAra kara luuNgaa| mariyama hAya beTA ! rAjA kitanA hatyArA hai ! anaginatI nAgarikoM kI hatyA, dharma-pitA kI hatyA aura tujhe bhI usane.." (vilakhatI hai)| Damanna .

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( 123 ) IsA mAtA, kyoM dukhI hotI ho tuma itanA ! kyA isa zarIra ke lie ? yaha to nAza hotA hI eka dina ; taba dukha kI kyA bAta hai ? aura phira isakI bali dI jA rahI hai deza aura jAti kI sevA ke nAma para - ataeva mujhe saMtoSa hai ki yaha niruddezya naSTa nahIM hogA / maiMne zakti bhara apane kartavya kA nirvAha kiyA hai ; tuma bhI saharSa vidA karo mujhe / mariyama beTA, beTA, mAtA ko yaha AtmA gaurava nahIM cAhatI, yaza nahIM caahtii| uddezya aura kartavya ko U~cI bAteM maiM samajha nahIM pA rahI hU~ | merA kalejA Tukar3e-Tukar3e ho rahA hai / ( senAnAyaka se ) Apa ke pAsa bhI pitA kA hRdaya hai; mAtA ko mamatA kA anubhava Apa bhI kara sakate haiM / Apa se maiM bhikSA mA~gatI hU~ ki mujhase mere lAla ko mata chIneM / IsA mAtA, mAtA, mujhe bhI to Aja tumhAre caraNoM se alaga honA par3a rahA hai, aba maiM inakI raja apane mastaka para car3hAkara garva se iThalA na sakU~gA / itanI paravazatA meM bhI dekho, maiM ha~sa rahA hU~ / mAtA, tuma bhI saharSa mujhe vidA kro| tumhAre A~sU moha kA paradA kahIM mere sAmane na DAla deM ; dhairya dhara kara mujhe AzIrvAda do, bala do ki maiM apane nizcaya

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( 124 ) para dRr3ha raha kara tumhArA mantaka U~cA kara skuuN| (senAnAyaka se) calie, aba dera kyoM karate haiM ? mariyama (sAveza) acchA beTA, jA ; tujhe maiM saharpa vidA karatI huuN| dekha, merI A~khoM meM A~sU nahIM haiM; dekha, mere hRdaya meM vyAkulatAsUcaka koI halacala nahIM hai| (senAnAyaka se) tuma dekha rahe ho, tuma sAkSI rahoge ki IsA kI mAtA ne putra ko ha~sate-ha~sate bali hone ke lie bhejA thaa| putra ko bhejate samaya usake A~khoM meM A~sU nahIM the, mukha para udAsI nahIM thI, hRdaya meM halacala nahIM thI .. ... ... ... ... (svara kramazaH kSINa hotA jAtA hai ; vaha muMha Dhaka letI hai / ) [ senAnAyaka saMketa karatA hai / sainika IsA ko ghera kara calanA cAhate hai| IsA ke donoM ziSya hakke-bakke se khar3e haiM / mariyama 'hAya beTA' kaha kara mUrchita ho jAtI hai / donoM ziSya use samhAlate hai| tabhI IsA ke cauthe ziSya kA praveza / ] cauthA ziSya gurudeva, deva, jAne se pahale mere pApa kA mujhe daMDa dete jaaie| Apako baMdI banAne kA aparAdhI zrApakA yahI kalaMka ziSya hai, jise Apane sadaiva pyAra kiyA hai, sadaiva dularAya hai / (mUrchita mariyama ke pAsa baiTha kara) mAtA, tumhAre putra ka ghAtaka tumhAre sukha kA saMsAra ujAr3ane vAlA yaha nIca yaha baiThA hai / sone ke Dhera ke lobha meM usane yaha pApa kamAyA hai

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( 125 ) mAtA, mujhe zApa do-usa sone ko dekhane kI cAha rakhane vAlI ye A~kheM phUTa jAya~, use lene ko bar3hane vAle ye hAtha gala jAyeM: hAya, kyA kara DAlA maiMne ( donoM hAthoM se mu~ha chipA letA hai ) .......] IsA uTho vatsa ! tuma ne jo kiyA hai usakI sUcanA mujhe mila cukI hai / tumhArA koI doSa nahIM hai - manuSya -""" cauthA ziSya bhagavan! ApakI kSamA / IsA pUrvavat hI priya rahoge aura tumhAre ina pahale sA hI rahegA / tuma mujhe sadaiva bhAiyoM kA prema bhI tuma se cauthA ziSya dayAlu deva ! pAkI kSamA mahAn hai / parantu mere pApI hRdaya ko zAMti tabhI milegI jaba Apa mujhe kucha daMDa deMge / IsA acchA to daMDa hI svIkAra kro| merI mAtA kI sArI dekhabhAla tuma para rahI / ( sainikoM se ) calo bhAiyoM ! [ senAnAyaka kA sainika aura IsA ke sAtha prasthAna ] cauthA ziSya ( mAtA mariyama ke caraNa meM loTa kara ) hA~, yaha daMDa mere upayukta hai / putra ke viyoga meM jaba mAtA gAya kI taraha .

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( 126 ) DakarAyagI, taba maiM sAMtvanA dene kA prayatna karUMgA, Aha ! putra kA hatyArA mAtA kI sevA kregaa| khUba rahA ! (donoM ziSyoM se) bhAiyoM, tuma sAkSI ho, guruvara ne mujhe kSamA kara diyA hai| isI prakAra mAtA se bhI kSamA karavA denA / ... parantu kyA merA hRdaya mujhe kSamA karegA ? zroha, pazcAtApa kI jvAlA bhItara hI bhItara sulaga kara mujhe sadaiva jalAtI rahegI / saMsAra mujha para thUkegA, merI chAyA se, mere nAma se ghRNA karegA, tabhI isa kalaMkI hRdaya ko zAMti milegii| mere lobha ne gurudeva kI hatyA kI hai, hatyArA, pApI maiN"....| [cauthA ziSya mUrchita hokara mAtA mariyama ke samIpa gira par3atA hai / pahalA ziSya mAtA para aura dUsarA, mUrchita ziSya para hAthoM se havA karatA hai]

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hamArA AlocanA-sAhitya 1. godAna : eka adhyayana (premacaMda kRta) 1 // ) 2. gavanaH eka adhyayana ( ) 11) 3. nirmalA: eka adhyayana ( , ) // ) 4. godAna-gavana (sAmmalita ) eka adhyayana 2 // ) 5. ajAtazatru eka adhyayana ( 'prasAda' kRta ) 1 // ) 6. caMdragupta : eka adhyayana ( ) 1 // ) skaMdagupta : eka adhyayana ( ) 1 // ) dhra vasvAminI : eka adhyayana ( . ) 1) 6. paMcavaTI : eka adhyayana ( gupta jI kRta ) // 4) pathika : eka adhyayana (tripAThI kRta) // ) 11. citralekhA : adhyayana (varmA jI kRta ) // ) 12. hiMdI-racanA : usake aMga ( cauthA saMzodhita saMskaraNa) 2 // 13. hiMdI-sAhitya kA sarala itihAsa __ pracArita naI pustakeM 14. sAhitya kA marma (paM0 hajArI prasAda dvivedI) 11) 15. hiMdI kAvya zAstra kA itihAsa ( thIsisa ) 10) 16. adhyayana (DA0 mizra ke ucca koTi ke nibaMdha) 3) vidyAmaMdira, rAnIkaTarA, lakhanaU 13)

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anya upayogI pustakeM paMcavaTI : eka adhyayana imameM bA0 maithilI zaraNa gupta ke prasiddha khaMDa kAvya ko aAlocanA hai / bahuta thor3I praniyA~ baca rahI haiM / mU0 I). pathika : eka adhyayana paM0 rAmanareza tripAThI ke prasiddha kAvya ko sarala aura mubodha AlocanA / mU0 // hiMdI sAhitya kA sarala itihAsa baMbaI hiMdI vidyApITha kI hiMdI bhASA-ratna aura jJAnalatA paMDala baMbaI dvArA saMcAlita 'bhAratIya vidyApITha' kI 'rASTrabhASA ratna' ke lie svIkRta / hiMdustAmI pracAra sabhA, madrAsa ke vidyArthiyoM ke lie bhI bahuta upayogI hai / mU0 11 citralekhA : eka adhyayana .. zrI bhagavatI caraNa varmA kA jo prasiddha upanyAsa vizArada tathA anya parIkSAoM ke lie svIkRta hai, usI kI AlocanA aura vyAkhyA sahita adhyayana / mU0) vidyAmaMdira, sanIkaTarA, lakhanaU

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- ur ; hamArA AlocanA-sAhitya 1. godAna : eka adhyayana ( premacaMda kRta ) 1 // ) 2. gavana: eka adhyayana ( , ) 1 / nimalA: eka adhyayana ( ) |) godAna-gavana ( sammilita ) eka adhyayana 2 // ajAtazatra eka adhyayana ( 'pramAda' kRtaM ) 1|| caMdragupta : eka adhyayana ( , ) 1| 7. skaMdagupta : eka adhyayana ( )1 // 8. dhra vamvAminI : eka adhyayana ( , ):) 6. paMcavaTI : eka adhyayana ( gupta jI kRta ), 112) 10. pathika : eka adhyayana ( tripAThI kRta ), ) 11. citralekhA : adhyayana ( varmA jI kRta ) ) 12. hiMdI-racanA : usake aMga ( cauthA saMzodhita saMskaraNa ) 15. hiMdI-mAhitya kA marala inihA.. ) pracArita naI pustakeM 14. sAhitya kA marma (paM0 hajArI pramAda dvivedI) 11) 15. hiMdI kAvya zAstra kA itihAsa ( thIsisa ) 10) 16. , adhyayana (DA. mizra ke ucca koTi ke nibaMdha) 3) vidyAmaMdira, rAnIkaTarA, lakhanaU 2|