Shantipathno Yatri Swapnadrushta Chitrabhanu

Author(s): Clare Rosenfield
Publisher: Navbharat Sahitya Mandir Ahmedabad
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/001805/1

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zarmAntapathano yAtrI svapnadraSTA yitrabhAnuM anu. pro. hasamukha zeTha

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zAktapathano yAtrI svaMDhaSTA citrabhAnuM ': mULa lekhaka : kalera rojhanaphilDa ': anuvAdaka : pro. hasamukha zeTha

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zAntipathano yAtrI : svapnadraSTA citrabhAnu prakAzaka : navabhArata sAhitya maMdira mULa lekhaka : klera rojhana philDa anuvAdaka : pro. hasamukha zeTha sAgara ArTa grAphIkasa 2/c-42, 301, zAMtinagara, mIrAroDa, (muMbaI) prApti sthAna : navabhArata sAhitya maMdira 134 prinsesa sTrITa, muMbaI-40 02. gAMdhI mArga, amadAvAda - 380 06 jaina prakAzana maMdira 394, khatrInI khaDakI dozIvADAnI poLa, amadAvAda-380 06 mUlya : rUA. 15/

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- - - maMgala bhAvanA - - maitrIbhAvanuM pavitra jharaNuM muja haiyAmAM vahyA kare, zubha thAo A sakala vizvanuM evI bhAvanA nitya rahe, guNathI bharelA guNIjana dekhI, haiyuM mAruM nRtya kare, e saMtonAM caraNa kamalamAM muja jIvananuM artha rahe, dIna, kUra ne dharmavihoNA dekhI dilamAM darda rahe, karuNAbhInI AMkhomAMthI azruno zubha srota vahe, mArgabhUlelA jIvanapathikane mArga ciMdhavA Ubho rahuM. kare upekSA e mAraganI, toye samatA citta dharuM, citrabhAnunI dharmabhAvanA, haiye sau mAnava lAve, verajheranAM pApa tyajIne, maMgala gIto sau gAve. saprema..

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mAre kahevuM che....... mAnavInI karI che. e ane meM pustaka puruM karyuM. AMkho baMdha karI. mana vicAronI pAMkhe caDIne uDavA lAgyuM. adbhuta vyaktitva che, anero mAnavI che, anokho eno prabhAva che. A mAnavInI jIvanakathA nathI. A to AkAze viharatI, jamIna tarapha kadI najara na karatI sUrya ane caMdranI pelI pAra javAnI IcchA dharAvatI mukta paMkhInI kathA che. enI pAMkhomAM akathya joma che, hiMmata che, hAma che. * enuM manobaLa polAdI che. A mAnavapaMkhI pAse lokhaMDI tAkAta che. 307 pAnAnuM moTuM pustaka huM vAMcI gayo tethI mane ja navAI lAgI. kAraNa ke ghaNAM samayathI moTAM pustako ke lAMbA lekho vAMcavAnI Adata chUTI gaI che. paNa Clare Rosen Field HlHall oldal qual Gurudev Shree Chitrabhanu a man with a vision' nAmanI jIvanakathA vAMcI tyAre mane lAgyuM ke A mahAmAnavanuM vyaktitva gharanI dIvAlo, kuTuMba premarUpI baMdhano, dharmanI dIvAlo, prAMta ke dezanI dIvAlomAM purI zakAya evuM nathI. A AtmAnuM Agamana to traNe ya lokane potAnuM vatana banAvavA mATe ja pRthvI para thayuM che. kevo yogAnuyoga! sI.ema. gAMdhIe mane kahyuM, citrabhAnujI amerIkAthI lAvela uttama hadayanA vAlva jarUrata hoya tene Ape che. huM to mAnato hato ke teo paradeza ja rahe che. paNa sI.ema. gAMdhIe kahyuM ke thoDo samaya ahIM paNa rahe che. mAnavasevAnA kAma karanAra mAnavI vize jANuM chuM ke tarata mane amerikAnA kavi eDavina mAkahimanI kavitA yAda Ave che.

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eka mocIne sapanuM AvyuM ke enI dukAna para prabhu padhAravAnA che. e vahelo taiyAra thaIne dukAne jaIne beTho. savAre eka vRddha Avyo. e thAka utAravA mocInI dukAne beTho. e atyaMta garIba hato. enA phATelA bUTa joIne mocIe navAbUTa ApyAM. bapore bhUkhanA du:khathI bhAMgI paDelI strI AvI. mocIe ene jamADI. sAMje raDato raDato eka bALaka Avyo. mocIe ene teDayo ane enA ghare mUkI Avyo. rAta paDI mocI karuNa kaMThe bolyo, "A te kevuM kahevAya prabhu, tame Aje mane maLavA AvavAnA hatA. e bhUlI gayA CCC ene madhura komaLa avAja saMbhaLAyo, 'udAsa na thA bhakta. meM mAruM vacana pALela che. te bUTa paherAvyAM e garIba vRddha huM hato. te peTa bharIne jamADI te strI huM hato. jene vahAlathI teDIne tuM enA ghare mUkI Avyo e bALaka paNa huMja hato. A mAnava sevAno Adarza citrabhAnujInA dareka kAryamAM meM joyo che. emanI jIvanakathAmAM meM vAMcyo che. e kathA maLI emAMya yoganuyoga kAma karI gayo che. jyAre sI.ema. sAthe vAta thaI e divasomAM kAlabAdevI parathI Hobson ane Jobon ne tyAMthI navA jUnAM pustakonuM lisTa AvyuM. emAM citrabhAnujInI jIvana kathA paNa hatI. te ja divase kharIdI Avyo. pachI maLyo citrabhAnujIne. mAro paricaya Apyo. saMkSiptamAM anuvAda karavAnI rajA mAgI. teo bolyA, "bhAI, e pustaka mAruM nathI. mArI koI cIja nathI. karmamAM lakhyuM hatuM tethI dasa varasa saMsAra bhogavyo. have huM saMsAramAM sAdhaka rahIne enAthI alipta rahuM chuM. dhyAna dharuM chuM. mauna rahuM chuM. lekhana karuM chuM ane duniyAmAM mahAvIrano ahiMsAno saMdeza pahoMcADavA ghUmato rahuM chuM. duniyAnA loko zAkAhArI bane evA prayatna karuM chuM. tame anuvAda mATe rajA levA AvyA cho? aneka megejhIno to, mAru je chApavuM hoya te chApe che

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ane kopI paNa nathI mokalatA. meM jIvanakathAno anuvAda karavAnuM nakkI karyuM. citrabhAnujI sAthenAM A prathama milanane aMte meM emane kahyuM ke gurUdeva 1948mAM Apa boTAdamAM comAsAnAM cAra mahinA rahyA hatAM. tyAre meM ApanA vyAkhyAno rasapUrvaka sAMbhaLyA hatAM. Aje 1991nI sAlamAM maLuM chuM. A ya te lekha lakhyAM haze ne? tyAra pachI meM mArA nAnA ane pitAjI vize kahyuM. emane badhuM ja yAda hatuM. bIjA milana vakhate 1950 AsapAsano mArA pitAjI sAtheno phoTo paNa mane Apyo. jIvana kathAno anuvAda thaI gayo pachI maLyo zrI jehAna dArUvALAne. tIkSaNa dRSTi, apUrva pratibhA ane mAnavIne maLatAM ja ene pagathI mAthA sudhI oLakhI kADhavAnI emanA jevI sUjha meM kyAMya joI nathI. emaNe mArI vAta sAMbhaLI ane jIvanakathA levA hAtha laMbAvyo. zrI jehAna dAruvALAno AbhAra mAnavA avanInA kayA ArethI zabdone DhUMDhuM ? sorI, emano AbhAra mAnavA mane zabdo maLatAM nathI. ane AbhArI chuM 'muMbaI samAcAra'nA vAcaka mitrono emaNe to mane Dhagale DhagalAM prema Apyo che. huM rojhana philDano paNa AbhArI chuM. temaNe pUjya zrI citrabhAnujInA jIvanano UMDo abhyAsa karIne A jIvanakathA lakhI che. e mATe bevAra to te bhArata AvyAM hatAM. A jIvanakathA 1980 sudhInI che. hasamukha zeTha 14-jagara nivAsa sAyana haoNspiTala sAme, muMbaI-400 022.

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zAntipathano yAtrI svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM - putrano janma thayo. haiyAmAM hetanI helI caDI. thAnelAmAMthI dUdhanI dhAra thaI ane snehALa hoThamAMthI amRtavANI sarI :sidhdhoti budhdhosi niraMjana si saMsAra mAyA parivarjitosi | saMsAra svapna tyaja mohanidrA madAlasA vAkyamavAca zaivama mAtA madAlasAe A hAlaraDuM gAyuM hatuM. mAtA cunibAInA mukhamAMthI evA ja zabdo sarI paDayAM. kAraNa ke enI kUkhe khelavA rUparAjendra AvI gayo hato. gurUdeva citrabhAnunuM bacapaNanuM nAma rUparAjendra hatuM. mAne mana e rUparUpano aMbAra hato. mAtA cunIbAI namra ane sAtvika svabhAvanAM hatAM. dharmanA raMge raMgAyelI mAtAe putra sAme sneha nitaratI najara nAkhI ane hRdayamAMthI ApoApa vANI vahevA lAgI, 'he AtmA; tuM pUrNa che, tuM jJAtA che, tuM pavitra, nirdoSa ane rAgadveSa rahita raheje.' A paDachAyA jevI duniyAthI tuM mukta che." he pUrNAtmA! A duniyA aMtahIna svapna che. tethI tuM jAgRta raheje' A rIte mAtA putrane dhArmika saMskAranuM pAna karAvI rahI hatI tyAre pavitra dilanA, bhadrika chogAlAla oraDA bahAra ubhA rahIne jinaprabhunuM smaraNa karatA hatAM. emane dharmamAM apAra zraddhA hatI. -- - -- zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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rUparAjendrano janma thayo. mAtApitAe kharA aMtarathI prArthanA karI, he deva ! amane vadhu tAvato nahi. amArI zraddhAnI have tuM vadhu kasoTI karato nahi. amArA A putrane tuM pUrNa taMdurastI Apaje. pitAnA hRdayamAM jIna stuti hatI. AMkho charachara varasatI hatI. manamAM tIkho vedanAjanya anubhava hato. emanI najara sAme bhUtakALa khaDo thayo hato. barobara traNa varasa pahelA potAnA eka varasanA saMtAnane kaMpatA haste dharatIne aMka soMpyo hato. e pahelA emano eka putra svarge sidhAvyo hato. e samaye cunibAIe javALAmukhI jevA unA unA nizvAsa choDayA hatA. have pharI ekavAra sunibAInA paDakhAmAM tenA DhagalA jevo, prema jharaNuM vahAvato, bALuDo sUto hato. chogAlAla rAjasthAnanA rahevAsI hatA. temanA pitA sAthe teo vepAra arthe dakSiNa bhAratamAM AvyA hatAM. teo beMgalora pAse TumakuramAM sthAyI thayA hatA. rUpa traNa varasano thayo tyAre ene sAtha ApavA, enI sAthe ramavA, jhagaDavA ane tophAna mastI karavA nAnI bahena AvI caDI. nAnI bahenanuM nAma magI pADyuM. chogAlAlano kApaDano vepAra khUba jAmyo hato. dharmapremI chogAlAlamAM gAmanA ane AjubAjunA gAmaDAnA grAhakone vizvAsa besI gayo hato. pramANikatAne teo dharma mAnatA hatA. tethI loko AMkha mIMcIne emanI dukAnethI kharIdI karatA hatA. emanA vepArano vikAsa thayo tethI emaNe beMgaloramAM bhAgIdArImAM bIjI dukAna zarU karI. bhAI bahena gharanAM sAttvika vAtAvaraNamAM ucharI rahyAM hatAM. gharanA AnaMdamaya vAtAvaraNamAMthI emanA para sukhazAMtino varasAda varasI rahyo hato. zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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- - paNa acAnaka rUpanA jIvana para kUra prahAra thayo. enA thanaganatA paga sthira thaI gayA. eno gulAbI cahero karamAI gayo. enI AkhamAM amITa udAsI chavAI gaI. rAtanA kAjaLa kALA aMdhakAramAM eNe pUchayuM. 'bA, kyAM?' 'bA kyAM?' e zabdo na hatA. e zIrNavizIrNa hRdayanI marmavidhI cIsa hatI. bAnA paDakhA vinA rUpa ke magIne UMgha AvatI na hatI. zA mATe Aje pitA bAjumAM sUtA che e emane samajAtuM na thayAM che. Artasvare karaze kAkA kahona nI AMkho enA taMdrAmAM ane UMghamAM rUpa haLavethI gaNagaNato hato, "kahone kahetAM kema nathI, mArI bA Aje amArI pAse sUtI kema nathI?' bIje divase rUpe enI viSAda gherI AMkho enA pitAnA eka mitra tarapha TheravIne pUchyuM, "kAkA kahone mArI bA kyAM che?' e Artasvare pharIvAra bolyo, "sau kahe che, bA pAchA thayAM che, A pAchA thavuM' eTale zuM?' pitAnA mitro enA vAMkaDiyA jhulphA para sneha bharapUra tharakatI AMgaLIo pheravatA rahyA. rUparAjanI AMkha sUkI banI ane du:khano Ubharo zAMta thayo tyAre enA pitAnA virasa mukha tarapha joIne kAkAe divya vAtsalyadhArA vahAvatA kaThe kahyuM, "UMce je rUpa, avakAzamAM jagamagatA tArA dekhAya che? atyAre na dekhAya beTA, sUryaprakAzane lIdhe e na dekhAya che tyAM ja che. rAte e jhagamagI UThe che. e jhaLahaLatA gharamAM bA rahevA gaI che.' rUpe kAkA sAme virahavyAkuLa najare joyuM, thoDI kSaNa pachI tharathara kaMpatA kaThe kahyuM, 'mane mArI bA pAse laI jAvane kAkA, laI jazone ?' "Aje na javAya mArA vahAlA rUpa, Aje nahiM paNa koIvAra ApaNe saue e devanagaramAM rahevA javAnuM che. tyAM je - zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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mAnavI udAtta hoya che ene jagA maLe che ane je mAnava mAtrane madada kare che ene to devanagaramAM devo paNa AvakAre che. jyAre A jamIna paranuM kAma pramANikatAthI puru karI A ghara choDIzuM tyAre ApaNane AkAzanA prakAzamAM ghara maLaze. tuM satkArya karato raheje. tane paNa tyAM sthAna maLaze." cAra varasanA bALa mana para A zabdo zIlAlekha jema kotarAI gayA. cira milanAtura bALaka AkAzamAMthI AvanAra prakAzanA saMdezanI rAha jovA lAgyo. koIvAra e nirAzAmAM sapaDAto tyAre ene nakArAtmaka vicAro AvatA. ene lAgatuM hatuM ke bA mane zA mATe yAda kare? e to tyAM sukhamAM mahAlatI haze, rAtabhara e AkAzI dIvaDAnA saMgamAM rahenArI mane bhUlI gaI haze?' vaLI ene vicAra Avato ke bA jo maLe to huM enAthI rIsAI jaIza. pachI tarata enA pAlavamAM mukha chUpAvIne ene evI rIte vaLagI paDIza ke ene kadI choDIza nahi. divaso vItatA hatA. A bAnI gerahAjarImAM rUpa ane manI ekakSaNa paNa ekabIjAthI dUra jatAM na hatAM. emanA saMbaMdho gADha mitro jevA banI gayA, rUpane evo paNa vicAra Avato hato ke huM eno moTobhAI chuM. mAre enuM dhyAna rAkhavuM joIe. rUpano bahena tarapha anupama aparimita prema hato chatAMya e kulaparI jevI bahena sAthe jhagaDavAnA prasaMga AvatA hatA. eka divasa rUpe gharamAMthI thoDuM paracuraNa lIdhuM bahenane muThThImAM rahelA sikkA batAvIne kahyuM, "cAla bahena, bahAra jaIe. khUba nAsto karIzuM bahena bhAI sAthe kUdatI kUdatI gaI. pheriyA pAse jaIne manabhAvato nAsto karyo. - zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAna

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--- - - - - teo pAchA pharatA hatAM tyAre rUpe kaDaka avAje kahyuM. "jo magI, Aje ApaNe bahAra nAsto karyo che e pitAjIne kahevAnuM - nathI.' - - - - - - - - - - - - paNa bhoLI, nirdoSa ane pavitra dilanI bahene gharamAM dAkhala tathA ja kahyuM. "pitAjI, ame kyAM gayA hatA, kahuM? ame to IDalI, DhosA ane halavo khAdho che. amane bahu majA paDI hatI.' "rUpa, paisA kyAMthI lIdhA bhAI? pitAjIe priya putrane amRtazItaLa kaMThe pUchayuM, "gharamAM tane je joIe te che, to bahAra khAvuM na joIe. bhale nAsto karyo, paNa AvIne tAre mane tarata kahevuM joItuM hatuM.' rUpe pitAnI karuNamadhura vANI sAMbhaLI ane enA hRdayamAM dardanI zULa bhoMkANI to ya pachIthI e bahena para gusse thayo. bAnuM mRtyu thayuM pachI vidhavA gajarAphebA bhAI sAthe rahevA AvyAM hatAM. varaso vAtamAM vItI gayAM. rUpa agiyAra varasano thayo ane magI ATha varasanI thaI hatI. phebAne potAnA kuTuMbIjano yAda AvatA hatA. potAnA vatana taraphanuM AkarSaNa rAjasthAna javA emane preratuM hatuM. paNa mA jagyA bhAInI ciMtA haiye hatI. pote vatana jAya tyAre bhAIne takalIpha na paDe e mATe magIne sAthe laI javAnuM nakkI karyuM. kALanI gati nyArI che. bhAI kaI rIte jANe ke bahenanuM A aMtima prasthAna che, pitAne zuM khabara ke putrIne e ciravidAya ApI rahyA che. hetALa phibA kyAMthI jANe ke bhatrIjIne pArthiva sImAthI para je pradeza che tyAMthI bolAvo AvI gayo che. madhanA jharaNAM jevI bahenathI bhAI jIvanamAM pahelIvAra judo paDato hato. bhAIe bahenane lAgaNIsabhara vidAya ApI. phaibA rAjasthAna pahoMcyA. - - na nananana zAntipatha yAtrI : svapna drA citrabhAnuM

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tyAM baLiyAnA vAyarA hatAM. ghareghare baLiyAnA bhoga banela bALako hatAM. TapoTapa bALajIvo pRthvI parathI vidAya letA hatA. mIne baLiyA nIkaLyAM. vidhinuM AkramaNa acAnaka ane atijhaDape thayuM. bhAI ane pitAne maLavAno samaya na rahyo ane asahAya phaibAnI azrubharI AMkha sAme magIe haMmezane mATe AMkha mIMcI lIdhI. mInA svargavAsanA karuNa samAcAra maLyAM. chogAlAlanA jIvanamAM viSAdanI kAlImA chavAI gaI. rUpa para jANe vIjaLI paDI! e jANe kASTanuM putaLuM banI gayo ! rUpa samajaNo thayo tyArathI potAnI bahAdUrInI DaMphAsa hAMkato hato. paNa A kudaratano kAramo ghA sahana karavAnI zakti enAmAM na hatI. e ajabanI asahAyatA anubhavI rahyo. vaLI pitAnI nitAMta vedanA rUpa samajI zakato hato. putrInI ciravidAyanA samAcAra AvyAM ne emaNe traNa divasa ane traNa rAta pANInuM TIpuM paNa na pIdhuM. e nakoDA upavAsa hatA. chogAlAlane mana magI phakta potAnI putrI na hatI. e to sahadharmacAriNI cunIbAIe soMpela anAmata hatI. e amUlya anAmata jatAM chogAlAlanA kALajAnAM jANe kaTakA thaI gayAM, emanA zivazarNa manane kyAMya zAMti na maLI, gharanI hara cIja emane putrInI yAda ApatI hatI. tethI putrane laIne teo gAma pAsenI TekarI para AvyA. ahIM digaMbara jaina maMdira hatuM. pitA putra A pavitra vAtAvaraNamAM dharmadhyAna karavA dasa divasa rahyA. deha mana para * thayelA ALA ghA para thoDI rUjha * AvI tyAre teoe gharamAM paga mUkyo. paNa rahI rahIne rUpanA saMtapta hRdayamAMthI avAja Avato hato, 'bahena nathI to huM kema chuM, e maraNa pAmI che to huM jIvita kema chuM?' 6 zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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- ene ghara bheMkAra lAgatuM hatuM. khAlI gharamAM ene bhaya lAgato hato. bahenanA sAtha vinA e khAlIpAno anubhava karato hato. ene ekalatA pIDA ApatI hatI. rUpanA jIvanamAM nirAzAnI kAlimA chavAI gaI hatI. bahenanA viyogamAM enuM jIvana ulaTapAlaTa thaI gayuM hatuM. hRdayamAM saLagatI viyoganI javALAe enuM cena harI lIdhuM hatuM. kadAca tethI ja zALAnA tophAnI vidyArthIonuM bejavAbadArIbharyuM jIvana ene gamavA lAgyuM. eka divasa A dostoe Agraha karyo, "are mitra, Aje to tAre amArI sAthe sIgAreTa pIvI paDaze. dama kheMcavAnI majhA to kaMpanImAM ja paDe! vadhu nahi, ekAda be phUMka mArajo.' mitroe Agraha karyo. teo DAMgaranA khetaramAM bhUsAnA DhagalA pAchaLa chupAyA ane rUpe pahelIvAra sigAreTa pIdhI. dhUmADo chAtImAM jatAM ja rUpane udharasa caDhI. udharasa khAI khAIne enI chAtI du:khI gaI. A ToLInA eka sabhya bhUsAnA DhagalAmAM saLagatI divAsaLI pheMkI DhagalAmAM Aga lAgI. badhA bhAgyAM. vADI mAlika pAchaLa paDayo. eNe rUpane oLakhI kADhayo. rUpanI pAchaLa koI bUma mArIne kahetuM hatuM, 'e rUpa, Ubho rahe, sAMbhaLe che ke nahi?' mitro rUpane choDIne dUra nIkaLI gayA hatA. rUpa DarathI kaMpato hato. e pakaDAyo nahi paNa ghare javAnI hiMmata na hatI. ghare sau potAnuM parAkrama jANavAnA hatA. tethI rUpa sIdho ja sTezana pahoMo ane Trena pakaDI. e beMglora pitAnA mitrane tyAM pahoMcyo. emaNe rUpano snehabhIne satkAra karyo. rUpano cahero enA aparAdha bhAvanI cADI khAto hato. zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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ja lIdho paNa e ja che jaiza mAM e lokoe chogAlAlano tarata saMparka sAdhyo. pitAno mANasa teDavA Avyo. rUpa phaphaDatAM haiye ghare pahocyo. pitAe madhura muzkerATathI eno satkAra karyo. na karI sajA ke ThapakAnA be veNa paNa na kahyAM. rU5ne Dara hato ke potAnI avahelanA karavAmAM Avaze paNa pitAe AnaMdapUrvaka eno svIkAra karyo hato. e svaccha, AnaMdita vismaya anubhavI rahyo. eka divasa rUpane mAthe hAtha mUkI kahyuM. "basane rUpa, have to zAMtithI vAta karavA samaya maLato nathI. tuM mArA zvAsozvAsa che e to tuM jANe che. tethI mArI vAta sAMbhaLa. tuM nAsI gayo hato, bhale e anubhava lIdho paNa kahe joIe, nAsI, nAsIne tuM jaIza kyAM? bhUlato nahi bhAI, jenAthI tuM nAsIza e ja tArI pAchaLa Avaze. tuM tArI jAta sAthe pramANikapaNe vartatA zIkhI jA. je tuM tArA prati pramANika haze to mArI sAthe pramANika banI zakIza. tArA manamAM je hoya te nikhAlasatAthI mane kahe. te pramANika haze, nikhAlasa banIza to tuM hiMmatathI spaSTa vAta karI zakIza. tuM hiMmatavAna banIza." rUpe pitAnA zabdo ekacitte sAMbhaLyAM paNa enA mane e bodhano svIkAra na karyo. enI para pelI tophAnI ToLInI asara hatI ane dehamAM tarUNAIno mada hato. eNe to jAheramAM sIgAreTa pIvAnuM zarU karyuM. - divaso vItatA hatA. tAmasI ane sAtvika vicAronuM manamAM daMDa cAlatuM hatuM. eka divasa aMtaramAMthI vivekapUrNa avAja uThyo, kahe rUpa, tu sIgAreTa pIve che ke sIgAreTa tane pIve che? sIgAreTathI azAMta citta zAMta thAya che ke vadhu vyagra bane che?' rUpe manomana javAba Apyo, huM eka bUrA aMtahIna Avegano gulAma banyo chuM. huM svataMtra banIza. e bUrI Tevano huM aMta lAvIza.' zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna drA citrabhAnuM

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rUpe draDha nizcaya karyo ane eka bapore eNe paccIsa sIgAreTa kharIdI. te ekalo ekAMte jaIne beTho. eNe eka sIgAreTa saLagAvI. eka pUrI thAya tyAre bIjI saLagAvI. rUpa eka pachI eka sIgAreTa pIto rahyo. aMte e thAkI gayo. sIgAreTanA dama mAravAthI phephasAnI zakti khalAsa thaI gaI. te UMghI gayo. jAgyo tyAre bIjI sIgAreTa taLAvamAM nAkhI dIdhI. eNe nakkI karyuM ke have mitro tyAga kare to paNa sIgAreTane hAtha lagADIza nahi. potAnI jAta paranI, potAnA mana para A prathama jIta hatI. rUpe jANyuM ke manobhAvane jItI zakAya che. ene bhUtano bhaya lAgato hato. nAnapaNathI oge bhUta vize ghaNI vAto sAMbhaLI hatI. rUpe pitA sAthe khullA mane vAta karI. pitAe kahyuM, 'bhayano sAmano karavAthI ja bhayamukta thavAya che. bhayane bheTavA tuM sAme jA. tuM nirbhaya banIza." rUpe bhUtane maLavA, bhUtane jovA prayatna karyo paNa bhUta kyAMya na jaDyuM. enA manamAMthI bhUtano bhaya adrazya thayo. hiMmatano saMcAra thayo. enAmAM udbhavelI navI hiMmatano kasoTIno prasaMga tarata Avyo. e zALAethI ghera AvI rahyo hato. be chokarAo eka chokarI pAchaLa cAlatA hatA ane enI mazkarI karatA hatA. pelI pAchaLa pharIne bolI, 'zA mATe mane herAna karo cho bhAI, huM to tamAruM nAma letI nathI." pelAoe TIkhaLa karavAnuM cAlu rAkhyuM. pelAnA nirlaja hasatA caherA joIne chokarIe bUma pADI, koI bacAvo e casamAM rUpane magIno avAja saMbhaLAyo. enuM dhyAna eka vRkSanI sUkI DALa para gayuM. eNe e DALI upADI ane pelA moTA chokarAo para tUTI paDyo. chokarAo UbhI pUchaDIe bhAgyA. - - - - - - - | zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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e tyAM Ubho hato. krodhathI kAMpato hato. chokarIe AbhAra mAnyo, e gaI paNa rUpane kaMI dekhAtuM na hatuM. krodha zamatA lAMbo samaya gayo. pachI vicAra Avyo ke zuM potAnAmAM Avo bhayaMkara krodha vase che? nAnI evI hiMmata batAvI tyAM abhimAnathI kevo phulAI gayo chuM. ene pastAvo thayo. eka jamaNamAM ene behada khAdhuM. ghare AvIne e AkuLavyAkuLa banI gayo. ene ulaTI thaI. ene vicAra Avyo, 'jIbha para kAbU hovo joIe? rUpa dareka bAbata vicAravA lAgyo hato. potAnA vicArone amalamAM mUkato hato. potAnI bhUla thAya tyAre sudhAravA prayatna karato hato. zALA jIvananA divaso AnaMdamAM pasAra thatA hatA. enI kannaDa mAdhyamanI zALAmAM vidyArthIone eka divasa prakAzahIna divasa vitAvavAno hato. Avo anubhava levA mATe vidyArthIe AMkhe pATA bAMdhI rAkhavAnA hatA. A prajJAcakSu mAnavIno anubhava levAno rUpano vAro Avyo. A to gADha aMdhakArano anubhava hato. hAtha pATo choDavA vArevAre uMco thato hato. aMdhakAra aNagamato banyo. prakAza pAmavAnI IcchA tIvra banI. aMte AMkha paranI paTTI khulI. AMkha sAme madhamadhato prakAza hato, hRdayamAM hatuM svaccha, AnaMdita vismaya. sAme hatI taddana navI duniyA. e vicAravA lAgyo, duniyAnuM yathArtha rUpa kayu, sAme dekhAya che e ke nitAMta aMdhakAramAM lapeTAyuM hatuM e? rUpa gADha vicAramAM DUbI gayo. 10 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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enA manamAM tophAnI tAMDava nRtya cAlI rahyuM hatuM. 2 - - - - - - rUpanuM manomaMthana zarU thaI gayuM hatuM. ciMtana karavAnI Teva paDI gaI hatI. ene eka savicAra Avyo," lenAra karatAM ApanAranA hAtha pavitra che. huM Apato rahIza, je haze te Apato rahIza.' ane enA zikSake kahela zabdo aMtaramAM UgI AvyA, 'eka eka rAta suhAga rAta che.' ugato hara navo divasa nUtana varasa che.' eNe hAtha sIdho karyo. hatheLI bhUmi tarapha rAkhI ane manomana bolyo, he prabhu sadA sarvadA, sarva koIne, sarva kaMI ApavAnI mane zakti deje.' have to rUpanA dehamAM yuvAnIe praveza karyo hato. paga bhUmi para TakatA na hatA. mana AkAzagAmI kalpanA karatuM hatuM. ane hRdayamAM hato AdarabhAva, sau jIvana pratye AdarabhAva, prANImAtra pratye prema. enI vicArarItimAM AmUla parivartana AvyuM hatuM. zALAne have e sarasvatI mAtAnuM maMdira mAnavA lAgyo hato. varga ane mana pavitra sthAna hatuM. zikSako vaMdanIya gurU hatA. zikSako je jJAna Ape te svIkAravA e zabda zabda sAMbhaLavA mATe caMcala manane kAbumAM rAkhavA prayatna karavA lAgyo. A rIte ekAgra rahevAnI Teva paDI. vargamAM eka citte dhyAna rAkhato hato tethI ghare na vAMce to ya badhA viSaya AvaDatA hatA. zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna drasA citrabhAnuM 11.

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- - vAtavAtamAM zALA jIvana purU thayuM. rUpane kolejamAM javAnI IcchA na hatI kAraNa ke pitAne choDavA na hatA... vaLI ekalatA ane ekAMtano sAmano karavAnI IcchA na hatI. paNa pitAe ene dhakelyo. rUpa beMgalora Avyo. A lIlAchama nagaranI suMdaratAthI enA zarIramAM amRtagaMgA vahetI hatI. eka divasa e zravaNabelagolA gayo. TekarI caDIne bAhubalInI mUrti samakSa Ubho rahyo. e suMdara, baliSTa ane unnata mUrti pAse Ubho hato, e addabhuta zilpamAMthI jANe saMdeza AvI rahyo hato, 'baLavAna bana" tuM tArAmAM rahelA duzmano ane nabaLAIone jItavA prayatna kara !' tapasvI bAhubalIno saMdeza rUpanA aMtaramAM utarI gayo. samaya ati jhaDape vIte che. koleja jIvana puruM thayuM. rUpa sAIkaoNlojI sAthe bI.e. thayo. ane DIgrI maLI ane kolejamAMthI jaDI eka gADha sakhI. A sakhInuM nAma uSA hatuM. - e ghare AvI gayo pachI karma ane mokSa vize bahu vicAra AvatA hatA. e mAnavA lAgyo hato ke je banyuM che ane je bane che e karmanA phaLa che. karmanuM phaLa sau koIe bhogavavuM paDe che. rUpa sakhata bImAra paDayo. tAva utarato na hato. A bImArI vakhate uSA covIsa kalAka rUpanI sevAmAM hAjara hatI. tAvamAM eka vAra mana vicitra anubhavamAMthI pasAra thavA lAgyuM ane eka svapna dekhAvA lAgyuM. pote sonA-cAMdIno moTo vepArI che. dhIre dhIre ene ghareNAMo tarapha napharata thavA lAgI. e ghareNA sApa banI gayAM ane enI najara sAme sarakavA lAgyAM. vaLI ene sakhata bhUkha lAgI. e ekalo aneka mAnavIno - ---- --- -- -- - - --- - - - ---- - - - 1 2 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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khorAka khAI gayo. eja vakhate enA hAthamAM eka phaLa AvyuM. e phaLa eNe momAM mUkyuM to mukha rAkhathI bharAI gayuM. rUpa AvA vicitra anubhavamAMthI pasAra thayo hato tyAre enA kAnamAM avAja AvavA lAgyo, 'tuM upavAsa kara, tAre tapa karavuM joIe. tAro deha zuddha banaze, tuM buddha banIza.' rUpe A anubhUtine taraMga mAnyA. ene lAgyuM ke A eka bhrama che athavA korI kalpanA che. chatAMya je samajI na zakAya evuM AMtarayuddha zarU thaI gayuM hatuM. kadAca e sad ane asadno saMgharSa hato. e nakkI hatuM ke manamAM tophAnI tAMDava nRtya cAlI rahyuM hatuM. A AMtarayuddhe ene pocopaca banAvI dIdho ane nAnA bALakanI jema e dhUske dhUske raDavA lAgyo. e kSaNe koI vahAlabharyo hAtha deha para pharato hoya evo anubhava thayo. vaLI mAtA jevo komaLa, vahAlabharyo avAja saMbhaLAyo, 'beTA, AMkho khullI rAkhaje. tAre je jovuM che e dekhAze.' A bimArI ane A anubhavathI rUpane vicAra Avyo, 'mArI pathArI pAse kuTuMbIjano, snehIo ane vahAlI sakhI dUra khasatA nathI paNa teo mAruM du:kha laI zakatA nathI.' eNe gharanI eka eka cIja tarapha najara pheravI ane vicAryuM, 'huM ahIM atithi chuM. mAro mukAma vaNajhArAnI jema alpakAlina che. mAre yAda rAkhavuM joIe ke huM pRthvI para mahemAna chuM.' eka mitre mosaMbIno rasa pIvarAvyo ane te bolyo, 'bahu vicAra na kara. sau sArA vAnA thaze.' A mAMdagImAM ene jAtajAtanA anubhava thatA hatA. ekavAra ene sakhata tarasa lAgI hatI. enA hAthamAM rUpAno pyAlo hato. sAme amRtakumbha hato. eNe pyAlo amRtathI bharyo. pyAlo hoTha zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 13

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pa pAse Avyo tyAM khAlI thaI gayo. cAlyo Ava,' enI aMdarathI avAja uThato hato, badhu choDIne mArI pAse cAlyo Ava.' Ava, mArI pAse Ava. A koI agama anubhava thaI rahyo hato. koI agama nigamano avAja saMbhaLAto hato. manamAM paDadhA UThatAM, 'jIvana che tyAga ane samarpaNanuM pratika. jIvana eTale sugaMdha phelAvatuM phUla, jIvana eTale saLagIne suvAsa phelAvatI agarabattI.' rUpa sAjo thayo. navA anubhavonuM bhAthuM laIne e navajIvana pAmyo hato. pANa enI smRti cAlI gaI hatI. mitrone e oLakhI zakato na hato. jIvana tarapha udAsIna banI gayo hato. A kaparA kALamAM uSAe ghaNI jahemata uThAvI. eNe rUpane bolato karavA, ene saghaLI yAda ApavA satata prayatna karyo ane thoDA divaso pachI rU5 bolato thayo. enI smRti pAchI pharI. A samaye rUpanA hRdayamAM premanAM aMkura phUTyA. uSAne enA hRdayamAM sthAna maLyuM. banneno prema zuddha hato. A to AtmAe AtmAne oLakhyo hato. paNa rUpa koI navA mArge javA Icchato hato. ene svataMtra banavuM hatuM. dezasevA karavI hatI. mAnava mAtrane upayogI banavuM hatuM. rUpanI AvI manodazA hatI tyAre gAMdhIjI rAjakIya takhtA para AvyA. gAMdhIjInA saMparkamAM AvyA pahelAM rUpa mAnato hato ke AjhAdI meLavavA hiMsA jarUrI che. paNa ene jJAna thayuM ke koInA jIvana para ghA karavo vyartha che. koInA ghA rUjhavavAnuM kArya sAmarthyavAna vyakti ja karI zake che. 14 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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AvI lAgaNIno paDagho ene gAMdhIjInA AdarzamAM saMbhaLAyo. e koMgresamAM joDAyo ane jIllA pradeza samitimAM kAma karavA lAgyo. thoDA samayamAM rUpane gAdhIjInA pAradarzaka vyaktitvano paricaya thayo. eNe ahiMsAne jIvana dhyeya banAvyuM. satyAgrahamAM bhAga lIdho ane sainikonI beyoneTathI ghavAyo ane hospiTalamAM pahoMcyo. haoNspiTalamAM paDayA paDayA eNe hiMsA ane ahiMsA vize vicAra karyo, ciMtana karyuM ane gAMdhIjInA sAthamAM ene hiMsA ane ahiMsAno sUkSmabheda barAbara samajAyo. rUpa svAtaMtryanI caLavaLamAM joDAyo hato paNa beMgloranI yAda AvatI hatI. tyAM kuTuMbIjano hatAM ane tyAM hatI zraddhA ane vismayathI paripUrNa netrathI sudhA varasAvatI uSA. uSA apUrva premabhAvathI AvakAratI. eka divasa teo ghoDA para besIne pharavA nIkaLyAM. pharatA pharatA teo dUra dUra sudhI pahoMcI gayA. rastAmAM eka nadI AvI. teo aTakyA. ghoDAnI lagAma DhIlI karI. ghoDA pANI pIvA lAgyA. rUpa A nadIno bhavya manohara kinAro, stabdha svaccha AkAza ane haLave haLave vahetuM amRta jevuM jaLa jeI rahyo. uSA nIrakhatI hatI eka kamanIya purUSa. jotAM ja gamelo eka savighArthI. uSA bolI, 'rUpa, je, sAme kevAM suMdara phlo che. A khIlelAM phUla para najara paDatAM ja mane vicAra Ave cheke mAruM jIvana A phlu jevuM maghamaghatuM bane. phlanuM jIvana kSaNika che to ya phUla jevA pUrNa banavAnI mArI IcchA che.' rUpa ghoDethI utaryo. eNe zItaLa jaLamAM jhaMpalAvyuM ane kSaNamAM zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 15

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sAme kinAre pahoMcI gayo. uSA dhIre dhIre enI pAse pahoMcI. 'rUpa, bolavuM che te bolI zakAtuM nathI paNa Aje kahyuM chuM ke tArA sAtha mATe, tArA sneha mATe huM sarva kaMI karavA taiyAra chuM.' uSA bALaka jevI nirdoSatAthI bolI. e aTakI, nIce joI gaI. rUpanA hoTha phaphaDavA lAgyA paNa e bole te pahelAM uSA mRdu kaMThe bolI. 'huM tArA premamAM gaLAbUDa chuM. mAruM hRdaya uchaLI, uchaLIne tane pAmavA Icche che.' uSAno sneha nItarato deha, mukha para suMdaratAnI mRdu chAyA ane vizvane moha pamADe evuM enuM hAsya rUpa mANI rahyo. 'prema che. AtmAnuM milana' rUpa haLavethI bolyo. pUrNatA prApta karavA e kudaratano Adeza che. huM e Adeza anubhavI rahyo chuM. ApaNe banne AjathI eka chIe.' 'huM phakta eTaluM ja jANuM chuM ke huM ekatva pAmI chuM.' 'ApaNo jIvana paMtha A nadInA kinArA jevo lIlochama rAkhIzuM.' premano ekarAra thayo. jIvanabhara sAthe rahevAnuM svapna joyuM. baMnee jIvanasAthI banavAnuM nakakI karyuM. ekavAra rUpa beMglora Avyo. ene khabara paDIke uSA kalakattA gaI che. ene tyAM sakhata tAva Ave che. rUpane vicAra Avyo ke kadAca meleriyA haze. toya e kalakattA javA taiyAra thayo. pitAe kahyuM, 'thoDI rAha jo. bIjo saMdeza Avaze. javuM hoya to pachI jaje.' paNa rUpanA aMtaramAMthI avAja Avato hato, tuM tarata kalakattA pahoMcI jA." rUpa kalakttA pahoMcyo. 16 zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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---- - --- -- - -- - uSA sakhata bImAra hatI. e dasa divasathI pathArIvaza hatI. roganuM nidAna thayuM na hatuM. rUpa tyAM pahoMcyo tyAre uSAmAM bolavAnI zakti na hatI. enI aMtima kSaNa pAse hatI. e bannenuM chelluM ni:zabda milana thayuM ane rUpanI namelI AMkha sAme uSAe chello zvAsa lIdho. kaLI khIlI na khIlI ane karamAI gaI. paDado khUlyo na khUlyo, ane jIvana nATakano aMta AvI gayo. paNa rUpe anubhavelo anivarcanIya praNaya rasa enA jIvananuM amUlya ghareNuM banI gayuM. rUpa kakaLatA kALaje ane bhakaThe gaNagaNato hato, 'hamaNAM enAmAM bharapUra jIvana hatuM. kSaNamAM e nirjIva banI che. A nirjIva deha ahIM che to emAM je nathI te zuM? enuM prayANa kaI dizAmAM thayuM? e zA mATe gaI, badhu ja choDIne zA mATe gaI hai?" uSAnA maraNane lIdhe bAnA maraNanI kAtila yAda tAjI thaI. ] jhAkaLanA biMdu jevI akalaMkita magInI yAda jIvaMta banI. rUpa tumula vedanA anubhavI rahyo. ene uSAnA marmasthaLane bhedatA vacano yAda AvyAM. mAruM jIvana kla jevuM maghamaghatu bane ema huM IcchuM chuM. pachI bhale e kSaNika hoya.' kevI che A jIMdagI? kSaNa pahelA harato pharato deha kSaNamAM nizcaMta banI jAya che. e acetana deha rAkhano Dhagalo banI jAya - - - - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - -- che." ane muThThI rAkha dharatImAM maLI javAnI? 'zuM A che jIvana ?' zuM Avo aMta eja jIvananI siddhi che? ahIM sarva kaMI choDIne khAlI hAthe javAnuM che? rUpane potAnI gaMbhIra bImArI yAda AvI. e mAMdagIne bichAne paDayAM paDyAM premaaMkura phUTyA hatA. zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM 17

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- e premano taMtu have tUTI gayo hato. zarUAta thaI na thaI, tyAM prema duniyA tyajI gayo hato. bALapaNa sAruM hatuM. bA tArAo vacce rahevA gaI che. e tane bolAvaze. A AzvAsanathI jIvana jIvavuM saheluM banyuM hatuM. paNa juvAnajodha rUpane uSAnA mRtyu samaye AzvAsananA evA zabdo asara kare evuM na hatuM. mana have to A duniyAnI vastuomAMthI uThI gayuM hatuM. jANe samagra dehamAM vairAgya jAgyo hato. toya lohI nItaratA hRdayamAMthI prazna jAgato hato. mAro e prema saMbaMdha alopa thaI gayo. mArA jIvanamAM AvanAra uSA ajoDa hatI. eNe mane premanI madhuratA cakhADI. bA ane bahenanA premathI vaMcita evA mane uSAe je prema Apyo e premanA sahAre huM jIvI jAta paNa uSA AMkhathI ojhala thaI gaI? jo vahAlAono kAyama mATe viyoga AvI paDavAno hoya to jIvanano artha zuM, konA mATe jIvavuM, zA mATe jIvavuM?" rUpamAM manomaMthana jAgyuM. e manomaMthane ene navI dizAmAM navA daravAjA kholI ApyA. 'zuM huM paNa A acAnaka, sarva bhautika sukha ane saMpatti choDIne cAlyo jaIza?' je aNadhAryuM javAnuM ja hoya to huM sakriya rahuM ke niSkriya rahuM tethI zuM phera paDavAno che?" AvA vicArone lIdhe kApaDanI dUkAna parathI enuM mana uThI gayuM. enA hRdayamAM zULa bhoMkatI hoya evI vedanA thatI hatI. mana aMzAta hatuM. azAMta mana vicAro karatuM hatuM ke mAre mRtyu vize jANavuM joIe. potAnA A navA vicArane amalamAM mUkavA rUpa pitAnI rajA laI araviMda AzramamAM gayo. 18 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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tyAM ekAda mahino rahyo paNa mana TharyuM nahiM. araviMda AzramamAMthI te gAMdhIjI pAse gayo. emane maLyo ane potAnI manodazA jaNAvI. ane kahyuM, mAruM jIvana navI dizA zodhe che. kaI rIte e dizAmAM pahoMce.' gAMdhIjIe kahyuM, 'tane je paMtha game te mArge tuM prayANa kara. tArA mArgadarzaka tarIke prakAzane svIkAraje. e je dizA batAve e dizAmAM jaje. eno kadI tyAga karato nahi.' vardhAnI mulAkAta purI thaI. ene ramaNa maharSi pAse javAnuM mana thayuM. gAMdhIjInuM mArgadarzana dilamAM bharIne te ramaNa maharSi pAse pahoMcyo. ramaNa maharSinA sAnidhyamAM mana zuM thoDI zAMti maLI. tyAM dhyAnamagna rahevA lAgyo. vaLI ghare Avyo ane tyAM gayo. maharSi AMkho vaDe ja potAne vyakta karatA hatA. e AMkhanI bhASA ene sparzI gaI. rUpa koIvAra savAla karato. maharSi AkAza tarapha AMgaLI karIne mauna vANImAM kahetA, 'urdhvagamana karaje.' vaLI ramaNa maharSi potAnI chAtI para AMgaLI rAkhIne nayanathI samajAvatA, tuM ja te che, tuM ja te che. tuM aMtaramAM utarI rUpane emanA sAnidhyamAM avanavo anubhava thayo ane aMte e ghera Avyo. paNa gharamAM mana coMTatuM nahi. ekalA rahevAnI IcchA hatI. ene himAlaya ke kAzI javAnuM mana thayuM. pitAe kahyuM "tArI jyAM IcchA hoya tyAM jaje paNa huM IcchuM chuM ke tuM pAlItANA jA. tArI e jAtrA mane gamaze.' rUpe pitAnAM sUcanane vadhAvI lIdhuM ane te pAlItANA javA nIkaLyo. e TrenamAM beTho tyAre ene mahAtmAgAMdhInA zabdo yAda AvyA, | zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draznA citrabhAnuM 19

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'prakAzanA sAthamAM jIvaje." enA hRdayamAMthI paDagho uo., liva Ina lAITa' rUpa prakAzanI zodha karavA Icchato hato.. e vicArato hato, jIvana zuM che e huM jANIza. mRtyunA rahasyane huM pAmIza, koI vAra, kadI.' zihora pasAra thaI gayuM. pAlitANA bAra mAIla dUra hatuM. Trena dhIrI gatithI sarakI rahI hatI. rUpanuM dhyAna gayuM ke pAvana zatruMjayanA darzana thaI rahyA che. eNe zira namAvyuM. ene lAgyuM ke e pavitra parvatanA kaNa kaNa ene bolAvatAM hatAM ane kahI rahyAM hatAM, Ava, ahIM Ava, cAlyo Ava. zaMkA kuzaMkAno tyAga karI haLavo thaIne cAlyo Ava. ahIMthI tArI bhavya zodha zarU thaze. - - - - - - - - - - | 20. zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu |

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jenI dizA nakkI nathI enA pathano aMta nathI 3 rUpa pAlitANA pahoMcyo. bIjA divasanI savAra paDI. eNe zaMtrujaya parvata caDavAnI zarUAta karI. A parvata para aneka dharmapurUSonAM pagalAM thayAM che. tethI A pavitra parvata aMtaramAM prakAza pAthare che. A evo parvata che je parvata hajAro varSathI urdhvagAmI jIvana pathikonuM AkarSaNa rahyo che. A eka mahAna tIrtha che. pavitra tIrtha e evo pula che je, jIvana naiyAne bhavasAgaranI pelI pAra utArI zake che. yAtrALuo ahIM du:kha sAgara jevA saMsArane pAra karavA, janma maraNanA pherA TALavA ane mukti pAmavA Ave che. - A parvata AdIzvaradAdAnI caraNa 2jathI pAvana thayela che. A parvata caDatAM lAge che ke hRdayamAM pavitra lAgaNIo jAge che. mana zuddha bane che. ethI aMdara rahelA zatrune jItI zakAya che. mAnavImAtramAM zatruo vase che. mananI nabaLAI, dehanI Asakti, lobha, moha ane mAyA e mAnavInA zatru che. A zatruo mAnavInI urdhvagamana yAtrAne rUMdhe che. paNa zatruMjayanI yAtrA kare che, te zatruone jIte che. A parvatano kaNakaNa yAtrALunA hRdayamAM zubha bhAva jagADe che. je AMtarika zatruone jIte che. enA janma maraNanA pherA TaLI jANe che. rUpa parvata caDatAM zatruMjaya viSe vicAro karato hato. enI . zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAna 21

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najara sAme vAdaLothI gherAyeluM AkAza hatuM. zatruMjayanA zikharo sAthe vAdaLA saMtAkUkaDI ramatAM hatAM. ghaDImAM zikharo AMkha sAme khaDAM thatAM hatAM to ghaDImAM najarathI ojhala banI jatAM hatAM. rUpa vicArato hato, "zuM ahIM koI mArI rAha joI rahyu haze, mane je sAda daIne bolAve che e koNa haze, A parvata enI lAMbI bhUjAothI mane zA mATe AvakArato haze ?' rUpa enA pitA sAthe agAu bevAra Avyo hato. eNe sapheda ArasanA derAsaromAM birAjamAna devadevInAM darzana karyAM hatAM. ahIM zikhara para derAsaronuM nagara khaDuM che. A nagaramAM AThaso derAsara che. rUpe agAu A maMdironAM nagaramAM je joyuM hatuM e carmacakSuthI karela darzana hatAM. have dardInI pelI pAra je tattva che enI sAthe anusaMdhAna sAdhavuM hatuM. e tattvane pAmavAnI tAlAvelI rUpane lAgI hatI. rUpa agAu Avyo hato tyAre tIrtha para darzana arthe pharyo hato. have e koI nizcita dizAmAM AgaLa vadhavA Icchato hato. e jANato hato ke dizA nakkI na hoya e pathika cAlato rahe che paNa paMthano aMta Avato nathI. paNa jeno paMtha nizcita che, jene jIvana dhyeya nakkI karela che, e rasto aMtahIna hoya to paNa ene cheDe jhaDapathI pahoMcI zake che. rUpanA manamAM satata raTaNa cAlatuM hatuM, 'zrI zatruMjaya AdinAthAya nama:' A jApa ene pitAe zIkhavyo hato. e manomana prArthanA karato hato, mArI nabaLAIone jItavA mATe, mArA du:kha dardIne visaravA mATe, mArA manamAM rahela bhramanuM nirasana karavA ane mArA krodhane jItavA tuM baLa Apa. 'mAre jIvanano marma jANavo che. mAre satyane oLakhavuM che. tuM tArI kRpAdiSTa varasAva' ArohaNano aMta Avyo ane rUpa AdIzvaradAdAnA darabAramAM jaIne Ubho rahyo. sAme hatI vizAla bhavya mUrti. ahIM abhimAna 22 zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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- -.. - - ogaLI jAya evuM vAtAvaraNa hatuM. ahIM jIvananA sarva saMtApa zamI jAya evI asara thatI hatI. rUpane lAgyuM ke e devAdhideva sAthe ekAtmabhAva anubhavI rahyo che. rUpa roja jAtrA karavA lAgyo. pAMcamuM divase e parvata utarato hato tyAre AcArya bhaktisUrijI parvata caDatA hatA. teo kSaNa be kSaNa UbhA rahyA emaNe zaktizALI cuMbakanI jema AkarSatuM madhamIThuM hAsya ApyuM: rUpe namIne vaMdana karyA. ene lAgyuM ke A gurUnA sAnidhyamAM mane zAMti maLaze, kadAca teo mane yogya jIvana paMtha darzAvaze. bIje divase rUpa emane maLavA gayo. rUpa emane maLyo. emanA sAnidhyamAM thoDo samaya beTho ane eNe emanI pAse rahevAnuM nakkI karyuM. AcArya bhaktisUrie rUpanuM barAbara nirIkSaNa karyuM. eka divasa emaNe dhIra gaMbhIra kaThe kahyuM, "AtmAnuM kalyANa karavuM hoya to A saMsArano tyAga kara. vicAra karaje. pitAnI rajA leje. pachI ja huM tane svIkAravA taiyAra chuM." rUpe saMsAra choDavAno nirNaya karyo e nirNaya pitAne jaNAvyo. dIkSA levAnI IcchA vyakta karI ne eNe rajA mAgI. zuM kahe che, rUpa?' pitAe vismayapUrNa kaThe pUchayuM: mAre saMsArano tyAga karavo che." chogAlAla TIkITIkIne putranA caherA sAme tAkI rahyA. hasyA ane avicalita kaMTha svare kahyuM, 'rUpa, tuM mAro vicAra kara ApaNA kuTuMbamAM tuM eka dIkaro che. ApaNA vepAranuM zuM thaze, kahe to?" "A kuTuMba, A vepAra mArI mAtAne jIvana bakSI na zakyAM. A samRddhi ApaNI pAse rahI ane vahAlI bahena cAlI gaI. pitAjI ApaNe kSaNekSaNe mRtyu tarapha dhasI rahyA chIe. kahezo, mRtyu che zuM? pitAjI mota mane grasI le e pahelA mAre ghaNuM -- - | zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM 23

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jANavuM che. mAre je jANavuM che e jJAna, saMsAra ApI zakaze nahi. mane mAre paMthe javA do.' 'tArA karmamAM je lakhyuM haze e huM ke khuda tuM paNa mithyA karI zakaze nahi. paNa atyAre mAruM mAna ane ghare cAla, pachI bIjo vicAra karIzuM. rUpa ghare Avyo. rUpa kuTuMbano eka mAtra yuvAna hato, tethI kuTuMbe dIkSA sAme ugra virodha karyo. kAkIe AMkhamAM AMsu sAthe karela virodha rUpathI sahana thato na hato. kAkI raDatAM raDatAM kahetAM hatAM, 'tuM ApaNA vaMzano aMta lAvavAnuM na vicAra. ame sneha siMcI siMcIne tane ucheryo che. zuM amArA snehane tyajIne tuM cAlyo jaIza? na jato bhaIlA.' rUpa tIvra manomaMthana anubhavI rahyo hato. e dukAne jato paNa ene vicAra AvatA, "dhana kamAvA mATe savArathI sAMja eka ja prakAranuM kAma karavAnuM? A kAryamAM mAro vikAsa kaI rIte thaze? pitAjI kApaDanI dukAne ocho samaya ApatA hatA. emano vadhu samaya dharmadhyAnamAM jato hato. zA mATe huM Akho divasa dhyAnamAM na gALI zaka?' rUpe pitA pAse dila kholIne vAta karI, "be TaMka peTa bharavA covIsa kalAka gharanI dIvAlomAM baMdI banI rahevAnI mArI IcchA nathI. mAre jIvana maraNano bheda jANavo che. mane mArA paMtha para Daga mAMDavA do. kSaNakALa chogAlAla ni:stabdha banyA pachI amI najare putra sAme joyuM ane svaccha aMta:karaNathI AzIrvAda ApatA hoya ema kahyuM, 'tAro paMtha tane mubAraka hajo paNa jayAM mahAvIra prabhue prathama ane aMtima zvAsa lIdho hato ane jyAM aMtima bodha Apyo hato e pAvApurInAM darzana karI AvIe." teo divALInA divase pAvApurI pahoMcyAM. darzana karatAM rUpane mahAvIra prabhunuM kathana yAda AvyuM, kerInI goTalImAM AMbo samAyo zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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. . - - - che evI ja rIte mAnavI mAtramAM paramAtma tattvano vAsa che.' rUpe prabhunI pAdukA pAse zira namAvyuM. e kSaNe e koI anero anubhava karI rahyo. enA aMge aMgamAM jANe dIvA pragaTyA. . A jAtrAthI baMnene kadAca lAgyuM ke A yAtrA anaMtakALathI karI rahyA chIe ane hRdaya mana svaccha banyAM che. tarata pitAputra bheTyAM. pitA zAMta, madhura ane mRdu kaMThe bolyA, "have ApaNe pAlItANA jaIzuM, tyAM zrI AnaMdasAgarasUrIzvarajInA sahavAsamAM tArI sarva manokAmanA siddha thAya evI huM prArthanA karIza.' lAMbI musApharI karIne teo pAlItANA pahoMcyA. AnaMdasAgara sUrijIne maLyA. rUpe vaMdana karyA. baMnenI AMkha maLI. rUpanA aMtaramAM jANe valoNuM pharavA lAgyuM. eno AtmA jANe jAgI uThyo! ene lAgyuM ke jenAmAM pUrNa vizvAsa rAkhIne sarvasva jenA caraNamAM dharIne nizcita thaI zakAya evA A guru che. enA manomaMthano zamI gayAM. enA sarva tarkavitarka manamAMthI vidAya thaI gayA. mahArAjazrIe karuNAbharyA avAje pUchayuM, he dharmAtmA, kahe, have ahIM zA kAraNe Avyo che?' gurUnI madhamIThI vANI sAMbhaLIne rUpanI AMkhamAM AnaMdanA pUra umaTyAM. e AMsubhInA nayane bolyo, "mArI jananI, mArI mA jaNI bahena ane mArI gADha sakhIne meM gumAvI che. emanA cetanahIna dehane bhaDabhaDatI AgamAM saLagatAM meM joyAM che. mArA hRdayamAM jAgelI agni mane saMtApe che. huM azAMta chuM, huM vyathita chuM. mane kahezo gurUdeva, mRtyu zuM che, e kema AvatuM hoya che? have huM akhaMDa zAMti cAhu chuM. e zAMti mane kema maLe?" 'tArA manamAM uThelA sarva tophAna zAMta thaze. tArA ghA rujhAze. zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna drA citrabhAnuM 25. - - - -

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A du:khamAMthI sukhano sUraja ugaze. tArA mana para haLanAM cAsa paDyAM che. tethI ja mana koLI UThaze. saMsAranI sarva yAtanAmAMthI tuM mukta thaIza." 'tuM ahIM Avyo ja che to rahI jA, juvAna, tuM bhale Avyo. ahIM tuM tArI jAtane oLakhI zakIza. huM tane mArga batAvIza paNa tAre e mArge cAlavuM paDaze. tAro paMtha tAre khoLavo paDaze.' 'ApanI kRpAthI huM e paMthane DhuMDhIza.' pitAnI rajA laIne rUpa pAlItANA rahI gayo. rUpa judAjudA AzramamAM rahyo hato. have e upAzrayamAM jaina sAdhunA saMgamAM rahevA lAgyo. koIpaNa mArge, koI paNa dharmadvArA jJAna meLavIne rUpa potAnI jAtane jItavA Icchato hato. e mukti Icchato hato. gurU kahetA, dhIraja dharaje. utAvaLathI koI artha saraze nahi. bhagavAna mahAvIre bAra varasa ane cha mahinA tapa karyuM hatuM. tyAre temane paMtha jaDyo hato.' gurU rUpa tarapha khAsa dhyAna ApatA hatA. teo ene satata pravRttimAM rAkhatA hatA. rUpa pAlItANA pahoMcyo tyAre tyAM Agama maMdira baMdhAtuM hatuM. prabhunA upadezane ArasapahANa para kotaravAmAM Avato hato. kAma dhamadhokAra cAlatuM hatuM. gurUe rUpane Agama maMdiranAM kAmakAjamAM rokI lIdho. kAma pUrajosamAM cAlatuM hatuM. aneka prakAranA kAma hatA. rUpa e kAmamAM racyopacyo raheto. koIvAra dilamAM dharabAyeluM du:kha caherA para AvI jatuM paNa pravRttine lIdhe e du:kha tarata alopa thatuM. rUpane Agamo vAMcavAnI IcchA thatI. e graMthono abhyAsa zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 26

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- - - karavA Icchato hato. gurU kahetA, hamaNAM graMthono upayoga karavAnI jarUra nathI. hAla to tuM navA prakAranA jIvanano anubhava le. eka samaya Avaze jyAre tuM Agamo samajI zakaze. tAre je jANavuM che, je samajavuM che te tArI AMkha sAme khulluM thaze. e mATe rAha jovI paDaze. dhIraja dharavI paDaze.' rUpa guru AjJA mujaba kArya karato hato. , thoDA samaya pachI rUpane muMbaI mokalavAmAM Avyo. tyAM paMnyAsa caMdrasAgarajI pAse ene rahevAnuM hatuM. rUpa muMbaI sAdhuo sAthe rahevA lAgyo. e jIvI rahyo hato enA karatAM alaga ane nirmaLa jIvana jIvavAnuM hatuM. enI taiyArI rUpe ene savAre sADA cAra vAgye jagI javAnuM hatuM. jAgyA pachI eno abhyAsa zarU thato. rUpa have upAzrayamAM raheto hato. sAdhuo sAthe vihAra karato hato ane sAdhuonI jema ja jIvato hato. rUpa dhyAna dharato hato. jo ke zarUzarUmAM mana pUrNapaNe sthira thatuM na hatuM. mananA tAra aMtaranA tAra sAthe ekAtmabhAva anubhavatA na hatA. koIvAra mananuM tAMDava dhyAnamAMthI calita karatuM hatuM. dharidhara mana dhyAnamagna banavA lAgyuM. A duniyA sAthe ekAtmabhAva anubhavavA lAgyuM. zrI caMdrasAgarajIe pUchayuM, 'dhyAna kema cAle che?' "mana avanavo anubhava karI rahyuM che. jANe snehabharI AMgaLIonA TeravAno mRdu sparza thato hoya evuM lAge che. - gurUne rUpanA mananI sthiti jaNAvI emanI salAha lIdhI. gurUne lAgyuM ke rUpa dIkSA mATe yogya che. ene boraDI gAmamAM dIkSA ApI. enuM nAma caMdraprabha sAgarajI rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. gurUe kahyuM tuM navA paMthe prayANa karI rahyo che. saMsAra zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM -- -

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tyAgIne huM sAdhu banI rahyo che. mAyA mamatAnI, lobhanI ane apekSAnI duniyAne tuM choDIne A navo mArga grahaNa karI rahyo che. have tAre dehathI ekalA rahevAnuM che paNa manathI vizva sAthe anusaMdhAna sAdhavAnuM che.' gurUnA vacanonuM pAna karIne sAdhue potAnA saMsArI pitA tarapha eka najara nAkhI. potAnA putrane sAdhuveze joIne pitAnA hRdayamAM avanavA bhAva jAgyA. teo tRpta thaIne ghare javA nIkaLyA. caMdraprabhasAgare pahelI rAta pasAra karI. vahelI savAre teo dhyAnamAM beThA. so ahamno jApa karavA lAgyA. huM koNa chuM? e praznano javAba jANe aMtaramAM UgI nIkaLato hato. dehamAM amRtagaMgA vahetI hatI. AMkhamAM AnaMdanA pUra dhasI AvatA hatAM. aMtaramAM harSa ubharAto hato. samaya pasAra thayo ane gurU sAthe vihAra zarU thayo. roja vahelI savAre cAlavAnuM zarU thatuM bAra mAIlano paMtha kApavAmAM Avato. pachI upAzrayamAM virAma letA hatAM. thoDA divasamAM caMdraprabhasAgarajI anubhavavA lAgyAM ke emanI urdhvayAtrA zarU thaI che. sAdhu tarIke bharacaka dInacaryAmAM chatAM ya mana bhUtakALamAM sarI paDatuM hatuM. manamAM yAdonI vaNajhAra zarU thatI, 'zuM bA, bahena ane uSA pharI kadI jovA maLI zakaze, je gumAvyAM che ene kema maLI zakAtuM nahi hoya ?' mana sAme savAla karatuM, 'have to tArI urdhvagAmI yAtrA zarU thaI che. e ja tAruM je jIvana dhyeya che to vikhUTA paDelAne maLavAno moha zA mATe?' 28 zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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vaLI mana zAMta thatuM. eka gAmathI bIje gAma cAlIne javuM, dehane TakAvavA gocarI mATe nIkaLavuM, badhA padArtha ekaThAM karIne khAvA jethI svAdano moha na rahe ane dharmadhyAna karavuM. A sarva pravRttio hovA chatAM potAnI sAthe rahI zakAtuM hatuM. have ghara, kuTuMba, vepAra ane sarva cIjono tyAga karyo hovAthI mana havAmAM kharatAM pIMchA jevI haLavAza anubhavatuM hatuM. tAMya koIvAra bhUtakALa bojo banIne manamAM dAkhala thaI jato hato. bhUtakALanI yAdo pIcho choDatI nahI ane koI ajANyA DarathI mana bharAI jatuM hatuM. muni caMdraprabhasAgarajIne lAgatuM ke mRtyu game tyAre teno paMjo mArI para phelAvaze. enA paMjAmAMthI bacavAnuM zakya nathI. paNa mRtyu pachI huM kyAM jaIza?' A vicAra Avyo. mRtyuno Dara gherI vaLato! vaLI vicAra Avato ke huM bacapaNathI mAnato Avyo chuM ke huM bahAdura ane nirbhaya che. have mane lAge che ke e AtmavaMcanA hatI. huM mArI jAtane chetarato hato. saghaLA DaranuM mULa mRtyu che. mRtyuno Dara huM jItI zakyo nathI. koIvAra emanI para nirAzA savAra thatI. gusso caDato. pote upekSita hoya evI lAgaNI jAgatI ane sarva kAryamAM nirthakatA bhAsatI. mana jAtajAtanA palaTA letuM hatuM. evo vicAra Avato ke saMsAramAM huM mukta hato. jyAM javuM hoya tyAM jaI zakato hato. ahIM to gurUnI AjJA sivAya DagaluM bharavAnuM na hatuM. ' gurU pUchatAM, kyAM javuM che, zA mATe javuM che, keTalA samayamAM Avazo?' A rIte manamAM yogya ane ayogya, sArA ane bUrA vicAro zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna drazna citrabhAnuM

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dhamasANa macAvatA. . emaNe gurUne pUchayuM, huM zuM karuM garUjI, mana asvastha rahe che. dhyAnamAM besuM chuM paNa citta zAMta thatuM nathI. koIvAra manamAM zetAnI vicAro Ave che. mane lAge che ke huM mArA mana parathI kAbU gumAvI daIza, rAte bhAtabhAtanAM svapna mArI niMda harAma kare che?' gurUe zveta smita ApyuM, prasanna najare joyuM ane kahyuM tArI jijJAsA ane tArI hiMmata mATe mAna thAya che. te aMtara paDado kholyo e sAruM karyuM. tuM je anubhavI rahyo che e sau koI anubhavatuM hoya che. A zakya che. IcchAne nAthavI sahelI nathI. eka IcchA para kAbU meLavIza tyAre bIjI IcchA jAgRta thaze. caMcaLatA e manano svabhAva che paNa nirAza na thA. e mana para kAbU meLavI zakIza, e muzkela che paNa azakya nathI.' huM prayatna to karuM chuM. paNa gaIkAlane visarI zakato natI. saMsAra ane saMsAra paMthe maLelA sAthIo ane snehIo yAda Ave che. emanI yAdothI huM sukha ke du:kha anubhavuM chuM.' 'A to eka Teva che. tuM makakama banaze to e Teva cAlI jaze. tuM je sukha duHkhanI lAgaNI anubhave che e lAgaNI to tane sahAya karavA Ave che. e dvArA ja tAre je pAmavuM che te pAmI zakIza." gurUnI zIkhane haiyAmAM utArIne muni manane ekAgra karavA prayatna karavA lAgyA. dhyAna vaDe deha mananI sarvazakti jAgrata karIne manamAM rahelA sarva saMtApa ane nirAzAne hAMkI kADhatA hatA. vAta karatA traNa mahinA vItI gayA. chogAlAla dukAne besatA paNa emano jIva vepAramAM na hato. e gharamAM rahetA paNa gharanI dIvAlo emane guMgaLAvatI hatI. chogAlAlane saMsAra khAro lAgato hato. teo sAdhuvezamAM zobhatA potAnA saMsArI putra pAse AvyA. 30 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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upAzrayamAM dAkhala thatAMja emanuM mana sAtA anubhavavA lAgyuM. eka nirNaya karyo ane caMdraprabhasAgara pAse raju karyo. emaNe pUrNa svastha avAje kahyuM, 'huM zA mATe saMsAramAM chuM, huM zA mATe dhana ekaThuM karuM chuM? AvA vicAro mane satAvavA lAgyA tethI huM ahIM Avyo chuM. bacapaNathI mane dharmamAM pUrNa zraddhA che. have dharma prati anero anurAga jAgyo che tethI mAre dIkSA levI che. munie saMsArI pitA sAme najara mAMDI. jANe muni emanA manamAM DokiyuM karavA mAgatA na hoya! 'tame sAcu kaheje," munie avicalita kaMTha svare pUchayuM, huM ahIM chuM tethI dIkSA levA IcchatA nathI ne, mArI sAthe rahevAnI nirbaLa manokAmanA tamane ahIM kheMcI lAvI nathI ne?' ' nA, nirbaLa paLe nahi paNa sabaLa paLe meM A nirNaya karela che. chellA traNa mahinAthI huM kaparI manovedanA anubhavI rahyo chuM; meM tIvra manomaMthana anubhavyuM che. aMte koI zubha paLe meM nirNaya lIdho che ke huM saMsArano A parigraha tyajI daIza. mArA jIvanamAM e paLa AvI che ke mAre mArA Atma kalyANa arthe mAro saMsArI veza tyajI devo joIe." ane chogAlAle paNa potAnuM yathArtharUpa jANavA mATe saMsArano tyAga karyo. emaNe dIkSA lIdhI nAma pADayuM munizrI candrakAntasAgarajI. '' | zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM For Private & Personal use only 31

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- - - - - - - - - jIvanano vikAsa tamArA ja hAthamAM che caMdraprabhasAgarajI dehane zistabadhdha jIvatA zIkhavavA tapa karavA lAgyA. tapa vaDe teo manane nAthavA IcchatA hatA. krodha para jIta meLavavI hatI tethI ekAMte teo dhyAna dharatA. upavAsa karIne dehane zista ApatA. bIjA sAdhuonI sevA karavA lAgyA jethI aham kSINa banIne nAza pAme. huM zabdano upayoga nahivat karavA lAgyA. huM ne badale ame' zabda bolavA lAgyA. dhIrajane jIvanamaMtra tarIke svIkArI. mauna rAkhavAnuM zarU karyuM. emane lAgyuM ke maunathI mana svaccha bane che. maunathI jIvamAtra sAthe ekatA anubhavI zakAya che. jaina muni AvI aneka tAlima le che paNa munine eka niyama na gamyo. e niyama mujaba munie ochAmAM ochuM pANI vAparavuM joIe. jethI pANImAM rahelA jIvana nAza na thAya ane hiMsAthI bacI zakAya. A niyama pAlana arthe sAdhune nAhavAnI manAI hoya che. | munie gurUne kahyuM, 'mAruM zarIra svaccha haze to ja huM taMdurasta rahIza. snAna vinA na cAle gurUdeva, thoDI hiMsA to thavAnI ja paNa svaccha zarIrathI mana prasanna rahe che. gurUe snehapUrvaka ziSyane sAMbhaLyA ane roja eka bAladI pANI vAparavAnI chUTa ApI. jo ke pANI karakasara karI ene saMbhALapUrvaka vAparavAnuM hatuM. - - - 32 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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gurUnI udAratAno A prasaMga hajI tAje hato tyAM eka bIje prasaMga banyo. gurUe jemAM mahAvIra prabhunI vANI zabdastha karavAmAM AvI che e AgamonA ekaso dasa sUtra mukhapATha karavAnuM kahyu. je sauthI pahelA e sUtro karI lAve ene Agama maMjUSA bheTa ApavAnI jAherAta karI. Agama maMjUSA e eka khAsa prakAranI peTI hoya che jemAM Agama graMthonI prato mUkavAmAM Ave che. A spardhAmAM muni jItyA. kSaNabhara to chAtI phUlANI paNa emaNe joyuM ke bIjA eka sAdhu nirAza thayA che. muni gurU pAse gayA ane Agama maMjUSA parata levA vinaMtI karI. gurUe kSaNabhara muni * sAme joyuM. emanI tIkSNa buddhie muninI ArapAra joyuM ane ziSyanI kadara karatAM hoya evA namra avAje kahyuM, 'huM tAro bhAva samajyo chuM. mane have lAge che ke sAdhuo vacce spardhA na hovI joIe. meM spardhA yojI e mArI bhUla hatI.' gurUnA abhimAna rahita zabdo sAMbhaLIne ziSye zira namAvyuM. have muni potAnI jAta para prayogo karavA lAgyA. cAlavuM kema, UbhA kevI rIte rahevuM. UMghavuM kema vagere prayogone lIdhe muni potAnI jAtane oLakhavA lAgyA. munine ema paNa lAgyuM ke potAnAmAM je cetana tattva che enuM anusaMdhAna brahmAMDa sAthe che. A brahmAMDa sAthe anusaMdhAnanI anubhUti thatAM muni manomana kahe che, 'AkAzamAM cAMdo ane tArA ugavA lAgyA, sUraja ane graho dekhAvA lAgyA e pahelA huM tyAM hato.' 'huM sat, cit ane AnaMda chuM.' 'huM avinAzI chuM, huM anaMta ane asIma chuM. huM parama zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 33

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sukha ane pUrNa AnaMda chuM." "huM hato, huM chuM ane huM hoIza.' muninuM vicAracakra cAlu rahetuM. teo vicAratA, huM mArI lAgaNI ane mArA vicArone tyajyA sivAya, A duniyA spezya sivAya je jIvI zaku to ekeya baMdhana mane bAMdhI zakaze nahi. jo huM prema, zAMti, AnaMda ane sAdhanApUrvaka jIvI zaku to have pachI zuM banaze enI ciMtA mAre na karavI joIe." "AvatIkAla e svapna che. Aja e vAstavikatA che. mAre vAstavikatAne oLakhavI joIe.' manamAM je khoTI, nakArAtmaka lAgaNIo che e manane ayogya mArge vaLavA devAthI Ave che. je sthiti che e sthitimAMthI nAsI javAno artha nathI. e sthitino sAmano karIne ene badalI zakAya che.' "jIvanano vikAsa potAnA hAthamAM che. mArAmAM je zakti che e ja Izvara che. e zakti dvArA mArI sarva manokAmanA huM siddha karI zakIza.' | muninI sAdhanA cAlu hatI. teo potAnI jAta sAthe gADha saMparkamAM AvatA hatA. emane jIvana mATe ane jIvamAtra mATe AdarabhAva vadhato jato hato. je potAnI jAta sAthe gADha saMbaMdhamAM jIvatA zIkhI jAya che temane pote je bole, pote je vartana kare, are! pote je halanacalana kare enuM pote jAte ja nirIkSaNa kare che. pote ja potAnA kArya pAchaLanA hetuone barAbara tapAse che. potAnA hoThamAMthI je zabdo bahAra paDe e cokasAIpUrvaka bole che ane potAnI sarva pravRtti para bArIka najara rAkhe che. A rIte AvI vyakti bIjAnI lAgaNI dubhAvavAnA doSathI bacI jaze. muni A rIte mana, vacana ane karmathI ahiMsA pALavA IcchatA hatA. 34 34. . zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna drA citrabhAnuM

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jaina sAdhu haMmezA khullA page rahe che. muni jyAre zAMtipUrvaka, ekAMte, ekalA dhIre dhIre cAlatA tyAre emane lAgatuM ke huM kudaratano sahavAsa mANI rahyo chuM. emanA taLiyAne mA jevI snehasabhara bhUmino jIvaMta sparza thato tyAre emane lAgatuM ke A mAtA ja che kAraNa ke A bhUmi vRkSone janma Ape che. lIlAchama choDavAne pedA kare che. e sivAya potAnA garbhamAMthI khanijone pALI poSIne taiyAra kare che. bhUminA saMparkathI munine lAgatuM ke huM kudarata sAthe ekatA anubhavuM chuM. mArI ane kudarata vacce sumeLa che. koIvAra muni bhumi para pocA Daga bharatAM bharatAM vicAratA ke bALaka cAlatA zIkhe tyAre aneka pachADI khAya che. dareka munie bALakanA A prayatnane najara sAme rAkhavo joIe. muninI urdhvayAtrAmAM satata jAgRta rahevAnuM che. mana pachADI khAya to paNa munie aTakavuM na joIe muni mAnavu che. e bhUtakALa sahejamAM na bhUlI zake, snehIonI yAda ene satAvI zake che, potAnuM ghara ane priya sthaLo vagerene bhUlIne munie cAlatA rahevuM joIe. A rIte cAlatA cAlatA e zAzvatano musAphara banI zake che. e ja rIte je sanAtana ane nitya che. ene pAmI zakAya che. potAnI jAtanuM nirIkSaNa karatA emaNe anubhavyuM ke sIdhA, TaTAra UbhA rahevAthI dehamAM rahela zaktino srota mana sudhI pahoMce che. A sthitimAM jJAnataMtuo karoDa rajjune tathA zakti pedA karanAra dehamAM Avela sAta biMdune joDe che. sIdhA ubhA rahevAthI e biMdu kAryarata bane che. emane joyuM ke deha e TevonuM poTaluM che. ayogya ke khoTI Tevo dUra karavA sArI ane yogya Tevo pADavI joIe. sArI Tevo pADavA mATe muni roja rAte divase karela sarva pravRttine yAda karatA. manamAM eno hisAba mAMgatA. teo yAda zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 35

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karatA ke Aje meM koI mATe bUro vicAra karyo nathI ne? koIne zabda prahArathI ghAyala karyo nathI ne? kaDavA veNa uccAryA nathI ne? asatya bolyo nathI ne? ane mane je ApavAmAM AvyuM na hoya e meM laI lIdhuM nathI ne?" muni A rIte jIvanamAM pUrepUruM parivartana karavA IcchatA hatA. teo zabdo tarapha ahobhAvathI jovA lAgyA. emane lAgyuM ke zabdo mArA snehALa mitro che. e mArA saghaLA manobhAvane vyakta kare che. mArA hRdayamAMthI jAgelA zabdo para mArA dilano raMga caDe che. 'zabda e zakti che. e zakti mAnavInA mana ane hRdaya para asara kare che. jo huM sArA zabdo bolIza to huM bIjAnA jIvanamAM AnaMda reDIza. mArA mIThA zabdo sAMbhaLIne sAmI vyaktinA caherA para madhura hAsya Avaze. jo mArA mukhamAMthI kaDavAzabharyA, AkarAM zabdo bahAra paDaze to sAmI vyaktino cahero utarI jaze ane e phikko paDI jaze,' muni tarata nirNaya kare che, huM toLI toLIne bolIza. huM mauna dvArA zabda zakti para kAbU meLavIza.' emaNe bIje nirNaya karyo, "je mana DahoLAyeluM haze ke huM gussAmAM hoIza tyAre huM mauna rAkhIza." potAnI jAtanuM nirIkSaNa karatA "mahAvIra bhagavAne kahyuM che ke je prathama pagaluM bhare che tene jyAM pahoMcavuM che tyAM pahoMcI zake che, e pahoMcI ja gayo che. chatAMya yAda rAkhajo ke utAvaLe AMbA pAkatA nathI. AMbAne taiyAra thatAM varaso lAge che. tAre phakta jAgRta rahevAnuM che.' muninuM vAMcana vadhI rahyu hatuM. emaNe ekavAra vAMcyuM ke tArI jAtane tuM pUrNa mAna ane tuM pUrNatA prApta karI zakIza.' munine vicAra Avyo, 'mAnavI jo mAne ke huM pApI chuM to e pApamukta thavA prayatna nahi kare. je potAne apUrNa mAne che te pUrNa banavA prayatna karatA nathI. A ajJAna che. - zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu lain Education International

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muni vAre vAre yAda karatAM ke huM koNa chuM huM zuM chuM?' ane teo zubhatattva tarapha manane ekAgra karatA. teo mAnatA ke aMtaramAM rahela zubhatattva mane yogya mAnava banAvaze. muninuM jIvana jIvavA mATe je kaThina tAlima levI paDe che, tapa karavA paDe che e sarva teo karI rahyA hatA. abhyAsa satata cAlu hato. A daramyAna je jJAna maLyuM e jJAna dvArA potAnI jAtane ane samagra mAnavajAtane pote maitrInI eka judI ja najare jovA lAgyA. paNa saMsAra ane saMsArI kuTuMbIjanone manamAMthI nirmULa karI zakyA na hatA. saMsAramAM hatA tyAre potAnI para pitAe kI koI baMdhana lAdyA na hatA. emano vikAsa mukta rIte thayo hato. kadAca pitA mAnatA hatA ke bIjAnI para potAnA vicAro lAdavA, bIjAne potAnI IcchA mujaba jIvavAnI pharaja pADavI e paNa hiMsA che. pitAe bacapaNamAM dhArmika saMskAro pADavA baLajabarI karI na hatI. tethI pote jaina dharma ane jaina tattvajJAna vize kaMI ja jANatA na hatA. saMsArane yAda karatAM karatAM potAnI janmabhUmi rAjasthAna yAda AvI. e to zUravIronI bhUmi che. e bhUminA lagnagItomAM paNa yuddha ane zaurya vaNI levAmAM AvyuM che. e gADha jaMgalono lIlochama pradeza che, to sUsavAI lU vAya evo Aga jharato raNapradeza che. potAnA pradezane aneka rUparaMga che. emane potAnA vatana javAnI IcchA thaI. e potAnI janmabhUmi hatI. jIvananA prathama mahinAomAM e bhUminI zuddha havA phephasAmAM bharI hatI. jANe e bhUmi bolAvatI hoya evI anubhUti munine thavA lAgI. zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 37

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mahAvIra prabhunA upadezanuM pUrepUruM adhyayana thaI gayuM hatuM.have potAnA pradeza ane tyAMnA mAnavIone jANavAnI IcchA jAgI hatI. vaLI je bhUmi para janma lIdho hato e bhUmi para khullA page vihAra karIne bhUmino paricaya sAdhavo hato. koIvAra saMsArI pitA para najara jatI ane muni vicAratA ke jevA prANa mArAmAM che evA ja prANa emanA che. AtmA jIvanazaktino dhodha che. AtmA e vyaktimAM rahela brahma che. enI uMcAI ke gaharAI mApavI zakya nathI. koI vAra pitA kahetA, "be be saMtAnone agnine aMke soMpyA pachI tuM Avyo hato. tArA AyuSya mATe ame kharA dilathI prArthanA karatA hatA. tuM amArI AzA hato.' tuM amAru sarvasva hato. bA jIvatI hatI tyAre huM AkAze viharatA pakSI jevo hoIza. mArA divaso hAsyathI guMjatA haze. huM sadanasIba hato. huM sadanasIba chuM. paNa AzA ane utsAhanA vicAro vacce koIvAra nirAzA phUTI nIkaLatI. mana udAsa thaI jatuM. AvA samaye muni eka zlokanuM raTaNa vArevAra karatA hatA. huM ekalo chuM. jJAna mAruM dhana che. darzana mAro vaibhava che. bIjuM mAruM kaMI nathI. eka paNa cIja mArI nathI. muni mAnatA hatA ke A zraddhA mane nirAzAmAMthI ane AtmadayAmAMthI bacAvaze. A ja zloka mArAmAM vizvAsa jAgRta karaze ke AtmA mane aMkuzamAM rAkhaze. eja mAruM niyamana karaze. munino abhyAsa jema jema vadhato gayo tema teo mAnavA lAgyA ke A jJAna jIvanarasa sUkavI nAkhavA mATe nathI. A jJAna jIvana jIvavAnI manAI pharamAvatuM nathI. A jJAna dvArA potAnA manobhAvo ane potAnI IcchAo jANavAnI che. e jANyA pachI zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 3.

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bAhya AdhAra kevI rIte ocho levo te zIkhavAnuM che. sAdhu potAnI jarUriyAto para jIta meLave ane potAnAmAM pUrNa bane che. sAdhu potAnI vadhatI jatI IcchAno nAza kare che. IcchAno nAza thatAM du:kha, darda ane pIDA dUra thaI jAya che. gurU tIkSNa najare munino vikAsa joI rahyA hatA. emano je rIte vikAsa thaI rahyo hato e joIne gurUne lAgatuM hatuM ke A ziSya bIjA ziSyo karatAM nokhI mATIno che. e anero che. e kaMIka navuM karI batAvaze. e cAre dizAmAM dharma pracAra karI zake evo zaktizALI che. gurUe ziSyane vyAkhyAno ApavA kahyuM. vaLI gurUe jijJAsuonA praznonA uttara ApI emanI jijJAsA saMtoSavAnuM kArya paNa soMpyuM. gurUne vizvAsa hato ke A rIte muni enI jAtane sudhAraze, enuM jJAna paNa vadhaze ane bhaktane sAcI dizAmAM vALaze. gurUe potAnI IcchA munine jaNAvI. emanuM mana Dagamathala anubhavavA lAgyuM. emane vicAra Avyo, 'huM dhyAna dharavA TevAyelo chuM. mane mauna rahevAnI Teva paDI gaI che. moTe avAje bolavAnI Teva to samULagI chUTI gaI che.' paNa muni A paDakArane jhIlI levA taiyAra hatA emaNe vyAkhyAnanI taiyArIo zarU karI. emane zarUAtamAM nAnA gAmamAM vyAkhyAna ApavAnuM hatuM. emaNe vyAkhyAna ApavA mATe zraddhApUrvaka pATa para jaMgA lIdhI ane saccAIthI raNakatuM tathA lAgaNIthI dhabakatuM vyAkhyAna emaNe ApyuM. prekSako stabdha banIne sAMbhaLatA rahyA. vyAkhyAna puru thAya tyAre praznottarI zarU thatI. Ane lIdhe lokonA saMparkamAM AvavA lAgyA. emanI sAthe hradaya mana kholIne vAto karavAnI taka maLI. A saphaLatAthI emane lAgyuM ke mArAmAM vadhu zaktino saMcAra zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 39

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thaI rahyo che. teo bAraDolI gAmamAM hatA. ahIM emaNe yuvAnone vyAkhyAna ApyuM. muni bolyAM ke namaste dosto, mArA yuvAna mitro, jemanA aMgomAM yauvanano dhodha vahe che ane je zaktinA uchaLatAM kuvArA che evA tamane maLatAM huM AnaMda anubhavuM chuM. tamArA bAvaDAmAM evI tAkAta che ke tame dhAro to sAgarane taLiye jaIne motI lAvI zako cho. paNa, barAbara sAMbhaLo mitro, jo tame dhAro to. paNa phakta manamAM dhArIne vicAra karIne besI rahevAthI motI maLavAnA nathI. motI meLavavAnA sapanA jovAthI motI maLaze nahi. e mATe tamAre samudrano tAga levA DUbakI mAravI paDaze. ane DUbakI mAravA mATe hiMmatanI jarUra paDaze. . tamAre je karavAnuM che, je meLavavAnuM che te atyAre ane Aje ja. AvatI kAle to yuvAnI vItI jaze. pachI tame sAgara kinAre besIne chabachabiyAM karI zakazo, chIpalAM vINI zakazo paNa taLiye jaIne tAga lAvI nahi zako. A kSaNa che tame je dhAro te karI zakazo. mATe Aje ja kaMIka zarU karo. eka kalAka vyAkhyAna cAlyuM pANa jemanA aMgomAM juvAnInuM joma che. je cetanAnA phuvArA che tevA yuvAno sthira, zAMta besIne pravacana sAMbhaLatA rahyA. yuvAnone lAgyuM ke A muninA vyAkhyAnamAM koro upadeza nathI paNa rasika bhASAmAM ApaNA jIvanane navI dizA ApavAnI zakti che. e vyAkhyAna puruM thayuM pachI yuvAnone muninA vyAkhyAnanuM gheluM lAgyuM. aneka yuvAnone emanA vyAkhyAnathI preraNA maLI. 40 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM |

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jIvamAtra svabhAve mAyALu che pa. yuvAnone Apela vyAkhyAnamAM muni caMdraprabhasAgarajIne saphaLatA maLI hatI. dhyAnamAM besavAnI emanI Tevano vikAsa thaI rahyo hato. e Teva draDha banI hatI. dhyAnathI mana pUrepUruM zAMta banyuM hatuM. je mana ekavAra AjJA karatuM zeTha hatuM. have e ja mana AjJAMkita nokara banyuM hatuM. muni anubhavI rahyA hatA ke je meLavavuM che te meLavavA mATe jhagaDavuM vyartha che. levAnI apekSAno tyAga karIne je hoya emAMthI udAratApUrvaka ApavuM joIe. ApavAmAM je AnaMda che e meLavavAmAM nathI. je hAtha Ape che e hAtha urdhvagAmI che. emanA vicAromAM parivartana thaI rahyuM hatuM. Aja sudhI potAnA guru, gurUbaMdhuo ane saMsArI pitA sAthe je AtmIyatA lAgatI hatI evI ja AtmIyatA have sau koI mATe lAgatI hatI. A lAgaNI jAgatA emane lAgyuM ke mAruM vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLanAra prekSaka gaNanI maryAdA che. mAre to sArA ya samAjanuM bhaluM karavuM joIe. e mATe mAre zaktizALI mAdhyama samAcAra patromAM lakhavuM joIe. emaNe adhyAtmika saMdeza phelAvatA vRtapatromAM lakhavAnuM zarU karyuM. - teo udarvagAmI paMthe AgaLa vadhI rahyA hatA tethI emane vicAra AvatA hatAM ke eka eka hRdaya e mAruM nivAsasthAna che. mAnavInuM mana e mAre mana maMdira che. mAre cintana ane lekhana dvArA lekho lakhIne emanA hRdaya ane manane vizALa banAvavuM | zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM :

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joIe. jethI mAnavI mAnavI vacce premano setu keLavAya. darekamAM je zakti paDI che enuM emane jJAna thAya. A kArya mATe je dIvAlo baMdhanamAM bAMdhatI hoya e dIvAlone dUra karavI joIe. dIvAlothI gherAyela ghara rakSaNa ApI zake che paNa prema nahi. tethI mAre takhallusa rAkhIne lekho lakhavA joIe. je upanAmathI lekho lakhIza to sau koI vAMcaze, nahi to phakta sadharmIo ja mArA lekho vAMcaze. emane emanA lakhANane nAtajAta, rUDhi, raMga ke koI eka dharmanA baMdhanamAM bAMdhI rAkhavA na hatA. tethI potAnuM upanAma citrabhAnu rAkhyuM. citrabhAnu lekhanadvArA mAnavInI nirAzA dUra karavA IcchatA hatA. mAnavInA mana paranAM jALAMne vALIjhUDIne sApha karavA IcchatA hatA. ajJAnatA dUra karI jJAnano prakAza phelAvavA IcchatA hatA. ane mAnavInA jIvanane eka navo rAha batAvavAnI emanI manokAmanA hatI. A manokAmanA pUrNa karavA emaNe saMdeza samAcAra patramAM lekho lakhavAnuM zarU karyuM. thoDA lekho prakAzita thayA tyAM vAMcakonA aneka patro presa para AvyA. A citrabhAnu che koNa? vAcako lekhakane oLakhavA ane emane jANavA utsuka hatAM. aMte e jAhera thayuM ke A navI jIvanarItino mArga darzAvanAra 'citrabhAnu" e khuda caMdraprabhasAgara mahArAja che. muni satata abhyAsamAM rata rahetA hatA. jema jema abhyAsa vadhato gayo ema emanI mAnyatA draDha thatI gaI ke huM je jJAna meLavI rahyo chuM e jJAna jIvanarasathI maitrI ane premathI bharapUra A jJAna to mAnavInA manobhAvo ane enI ajJAta, apragaTa IcchAone, potAnI AMkha sAme prakAzita kare che. e prakAza 42 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna sA citrabhAnuM

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kAkA mAmA - dvArA joI zakAya che ke 'bAhya AdhAra ocho karatA jAva. jarUriyAta para jIta meLavo. e jJAna pUrNa banatAM zIkhave che. IcchAone jItatA zIkhave che. e jJAna zIkhave che ke jo apekSAo nAza pAme to A dunyavI darda ane pIDAthI para banI javAya che. emanA vyAkhyAno hRdayamAMthI vaheto pravAha hato, emAM saccAIno raNako hato. tethI prekSako maMtramugdha banIne emane sAMbhaLatA hatA. A prekSako sAthe saMparka vadhyo. teo hadaya kholIne muni pAse mArgadarzana mAgavA lAgyA. emanA saMparkane lIdhe munine lAgyuM ke temanAmAM zaktino saMcAra thaI rahyo che. citrabhAnu khaMbhAta gAmamAM hatA. tyA yuvAno mATe emanuM khAsa vyAkhyAna goThavavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. tamArAmAM hiMmatanI kamI nathI kAraNa ke hiMmatanuM bIju nAma che yuvAnI. Aje yuvAnI AvI che. kAle te vidAya leze. pachI motIono je khajAno tamArI rAha jue che e khajAno meLavavAnI tamArI zakita nahi hoya. A kSaNa che jyAre tame je dhAro te karI zakazo. citrabhAnuno upadeza koro na hato. emAM hakIkato hatI. tethI yuvAno yuvatIo emanI tarapha AkarSAyA emanA bhakta banyA ane emane cAhavA lAgyAM. citrabhAnu eka gAma AvatA. vaLI bIjA gAma tarapha vihAra karatA hatA. teo saurASTramAM hatA. gIranA jaMgalamAMthI pasAra thatA hatA. tyAM eka vanavAsIno meLApa thayo. jhUMpaDI bahAra beThela e vanavAsI ane siMha vacce dostI thaI hatI. pelA vanavAsIe citrabhAnune, ghAyala thayelA siMhanI pote sAravAra karI, ene khavarAvyuM, pIvarAvyuM ane enAmAM zakti AvI tyAM sudhI enI sevA karI e vize mAhitI ApI. ane kahyuM, zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 43.

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'gurUjI, A to premanI zakti che, have to huM ene mAro putra mAnuM chuM." citrabhAnune A abhaNa vanavAsInA zabdo sparzI gayA. emane vicAra Avyo, 'je ekabIjAno vizvAsa rAkhe che, je eka bIjAne sneha kare che temanI vacce sahaja prema jAge ekavAra muninA deha para sApa caDI gayo hato. e sApe emanuM nukazAna na karyuM, emane tyAre vicAra Avela, "eka jIvathI bIjA jIve DaravuM na joIe. jIvamAtra svabhAve mAyALu che.' sneha ane mAyAne lIdhe prANI ane mAnava paNa mitro bane che. rAtre sUtA hoIe deha para vajana lAge, saLavaLATa thato hoya ane cAdara dUra karIe tyAre dhaba karato avAja Ave. e ja kSaNe najara sarakatA sApa para najara paDe. muni mATe A navo anubhava hato. A anubhavamAMthI eka navuM jJAna maLyuM. "sApa jherI hoya che. sApathI cetIne cAlavuM joIe." 'paNa je mAnavImAM mAnavatAno aMza nathI, je mAnavI bIjAno vizvAsaghAta kare che ene zuM kahevo, mAnavI ke sApa?' mAnavatAhIna mAnavI sApathI vadhu bhayaMkara che. sApane chaMcheDavAmAM Ave to ja DaMkha mAre che paNa mAnavI bagalamAM chupAvela chUrIno upayoga vinA kAraNe karato hoya che. AvA ghA jenA dila para thAya che e ghA rUjhavavA kaThina hoya che. citrabhAnunA jIvanamAM thatAM eka eka anubhava emane jJAnanuM bhAthu baMdhAvatA hatA. emane navA navA paMtha dekhADatA hatAM. ekavAra teo sAta sAdhuo sAthe vihAra karI rahyA hatA. emanI sAthe emanA sAdhu banelA saMsArI pitA paNa hatA. gAma badalAtA, rastAo badalAtA, navA navA mAnavIonuM 44 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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milana thatuM ane navAnavA anubhavo thatAM hatAM. teo dAhodanI gADha jhADImAMthI pasAra thatA hatA. gAma dUradUra hatAM. ekAMta hatuM. vanavAsIonI eka ToLI emano rasto rokIne UbhI rahI. emano hetu luTa karavAno hato paNa sAdhuo pAse kaMI na hatuM. sAdhuo zAMtithI ubhA rahIne luMTAruo para amI najara varasAvatA rahyA. vanavAsIone bhUla samajANI emane namana karyA. pagamAM paDI gayA ane cAlyA gayA. vaLI eka navo anubhava bhAvanagaramAM thayo. comAsAnA cAra mahinA eka ja sthaLe rahIne teo eka rAta eka phekaTarInA mAlikane tyAM rahevA gayA hatA. aDadhIrAta vItI gaI. meDI para sAdhuo sUtA hatA. kuTuMbIjano hatA ane phekaTarImAM kAma karanAra karmacArIo paNa sUtA hatA. aDadhIrAte acAnaka rADabUma paDI. AkhuM makAna AganI javALAomAM lapeTAyuM hatuM. citrabhAnu e bhaDabhaDatI AgamAMthI ghaNAMne UMcakIne bahAra laI AvyA. emano deha AgathI dAjhayo hato. cAmaDImAM kALI baLatarA thatI hatI. muninI sAravAra zarU thaI. teo sUtA hatAM. ane vicAratA hatA, 'evI AgamAMthI mAnavIone UMcakI UMcakIne huM kaI rIte bahAra lAvyo? pharIpharI AgamAM kaI rIte jaI zakyo ? emane samajAyuM ke A IcchAzaktinI tAkAta hatI. draDha manobaLa, keLavIne mAnavI himAlayane khaseDI zake che.' 'A jIvana eka camatkAra che,' vicAratA hatAM kAraNa ke dhyAna dvArA teo tarata ja sAjA thaI gayA hatA. IcchAzakti eka mahAna baLa che. zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 45

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satya ahiMsA ane maitrIbhAva e munino muDhA lekha hato citrabhAnu potAnA anubhavo vyAkhyAnomAM kahetA hatA. bodha ApatA hatA. lokonA jIvanamAM parivartana lAvavA prayatna karatA hatA. - teo kahetA ke eka eka mAnavI sAthe maitrI bAMdho. emanAmAM paNa AtmA vase che. e paNa tamArI jema ja prabhunuM saMtAna che. satyano tyAga karazo nahi. ahiMsAne tamAruM jIvana dhyeya banAvajo. satya, ahiMsA ane maitrIbhAva e munino mudrAlekha hato. e mudrAlekhane mAnava hRdayamAM utAravA satata prayatnazIla rahetA hatA. teo jANatA hatA ke bhAratIya samAjamAM nAtajAtanA pAyA bahu ja majabUta che. kone sparza karAya ane kone aDavAthI apavitra thaI javAya e mAnyatA kaDaka rIte amalamAM mUkavAmAM Ave che. je haMmezA pavitra che e jaLa konA gharethI pIvAya ane konA gharanA goLAnuM pANI na pIvAya e paNa nakakI karavAmAM AvyuM che. muni A UMca-nIcanA bheda para joradAra zabdothI prahAra karatA hatA. teo samajAvatA ke jaina darzanamAM nAtajAta ane strI puruSanAM bheda nathI. mAnavamAtra eka che. strIone paNa mokSa maLI zake che. teo dasADAmAM hatA. corA pAse emanuM vyAkhyAna cAlu hatuM. gAmamAM zAMti hatI. e zAMtine cIrato DAbalAno avAja Avyo. thoDI kSaNomAM pANIdAra ghoDo ane majabUta deha tathA mArakaNI 46 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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AMkhovALo asavAra vyAkhyAna sthAna pAse Avyo. asavAre thoDo samaya muninuM vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLyuM. enI kAtila najara cArebAju pheravI ane asavAre ghoDo mArI mUkyo. - bhalAbhoLA grAmajanonA hRdaya dhaDakatAM hatAM kAraNa ke e mAthA pharela mAnavI jIvo revALa hato. eNe cAre bAju enA dUra kama dvArA AtaMka phelAvyo hato. paNa muninI svastha ane zAMta vANI sAMbhaLI thoDIvAramAM bhaya dUra thayo ane vAtAvaraNa zAMta banyuM. ekAda divasa pachI muni vihAra karIne bIje jatA hatA. eka TekarI parathI muni jatA hatAM tyAM acAnaka jIvo revALa dekhAyo. enI sAthe eno zikArI kUtaro hato. e aTakyo. muni sAme joyuM. jarA namyo. muni enI sAme sthira najare joI rahyA hatA. teo hasyA ane AzIrvAda ApyA. ane pUchayuM, 'bhAI, kAle tane joyo hato. Aje tuM maLyo. kahe, tuM kema che?' 'tame mane oLakhatA nathI. mAruM nAma jIvo revALa che. mAruM nAma paDe tyAM A Akho paMthaka tharathara kAMpe che.' enAthI tane zuM lAbha?' munie pUchayuM ane teo cAlavA lAgyA. jIvo emanI sAthe cAlato hato. teo vaDa nIce aTakyA. kahe to, tuM luMTaphATa kare che. mArAmArI kare che mane kema kaMI na karyuM?' huM jANuM chuM. sAheba, A kAmathI mane lAbha nathI to ya huM e karuM chuM. saMta mahAtmA pAse jUhuM zA mATe bolavuM? tethI kahuM chuM ke tame koInuM buruM karatAM nathI tethI meM tamAruM buruM karyuM nathI.' citrabhAnue ene vera bhAvanAno tyAga karavA samajAvyuM. A apakarmo maraNa pachI paNa enI sAthe Avaze e vize kahIne karma AtmAne kevI rIte vaLage che te kahyuM. 47 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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jANe paththara mINa banI gayo. enI AMkhomAM jhaLajhaLiyAM AvyAM. eNe potAnuM hRdaya kholyuM. e dardamaya avAje bolyo. huM jyAre jelamAM hato tyAre mArI prapautrI maraNa pathArIe paDI hatI. enI gaMbhIra mAMdagInA mane samAcAra maLyA ane huM du:khI du:khI thaI gayo. mane mArI lADakIno avAja saMbhaLAvA lAgyo, 'dAdA, tame kyAM gayA cho, dAdA tame kyAM cho?' mAruM mana ene maLavA talasatuM hatuM. meM rajA mAgI paNa mane jelavALAoe rajA na ApI. mArA manamAM Aga lAgI ane tyArathI huM Aje je che te banyo chuM. mane mANaso mATe ke A samAja mATe lAgaNI nathI. to ya A jIvanathI huM thAkyo chuM. mAre have lokone lUTavA nathI, trAsa Apavo nathI ke emane Dhora mAra mAravo nathI. huM thAkyo chuM. mane zAMti joIe che." munie ene navuM jIvana zarU karavA samajAvyo. e gAmanA ThAkora zrI pIrabhAne kahIne ene gAmanA rakhevAlanI nokarI apAvI. vaLI khetaronuM rakhopuM karavA kAme lagADayo. citrabhAnune emanA jIvana paMtha para khAnadAna, sajana ane saMskArI mAnavIo maLatAM hatAM. jemanuM hRdaya vizAla hatuM. jemane potAnI unnatimAM rasa hato. emane TUMkA mananA mAnavIo paNa maLatA hatA. AvA mAnavIo potAnA uccakuLa ane ucca jJAtinA abhimAnamAM rAcatA hatA. A vicAradhArAne lIdhe nAtajAtanI dIvAla UMcI banatI hatI. uccanIcanA bheda vadhI rahyA hatA. mAnavI mAtra ane Izvara che e svIkAravA ghaNA taiyAra na hatA. dareka mAnavIne mAnava tarIke jIvavAno adhikAra che,' muni vicAratA hatA. munie AvA mAnavIo mATe eka vyAkhyAna ApyuM. e vicAro AgamamAM uttarAdhyAyana sUtramAM che. A sUtramAM brAhmaNa 48 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna drA citrabhAnuM

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viSe kahyuM che, 'sAMbhaLo, je koIthI Darato nathI, je koIno tiraskAra karato nathI, je nispRha che e brAhmaNa che. je jIvamAtranuM rakSaNa kare che e brAhmaNa che. je cIja ApavAmAM na Ave ene hAtha lagADato nathI e brAhmaNa che. saMsAranA sukhane je jaLamAM rahela kamaLanI jema taTastha bhAve mANe che te brAhmaNa che.' eka mAnavIne aDAya, bIjA mAnavIne na aDAya A bhAvanA munine pasaMda na hatI. teo bhAvanagaramAM hatA. emaNe jANyuM ke mahAvIrane pUjanArA judA judA jame che. bhAvasAra ane vANiyAonA be cokA hatA. munie baMne komane ekaThI karI. samajAvI ane sAthe jamavA mATe taiyAra karI. thoDo virodha thayo paNa mahAvIravANI sAMbhaLIne virodhIono virodha zAMta thaI gayo. emane samajAyuM ke jainadharmamAM nAtajAtano kadI svIkAra karavAmAM Avyo nathI. - teo boTAdamAM cAturmAsa hatA. emanA vyAkhyAnamAM sau koI AvatuM hatuM. mATalA banAvIne potAno kAma dhaMdho karanAra kuMbhAra jJAtinA bhAIo paNa AvatA hatA. emanA manamAM eka bhAva jAgyo, emaNe saMkoca saha munine jaNAvyuM ke Apa amArA AMgaNe Avo ane amArA rasoDe banAvelI cokakhI rasoIne vahorI jAva. kuMbhArane tyAM uccavarganA loko khAtApItA na hatA. e bhedabhAva para ghA karavA emaNe kuMbhakAra bhAIonuM AmaMtraNa svIkAryuM ane emanA ghare banela khorAka vahorIne lAvyA. gAmamAM chAnochapano gaNagaNATa thayo hato. muni jANatA ja hatA ke parApUrvathI cAlyA AvatA rIvAjo toDavA haze to mAre hiMmatabharyA pagalAM bharavA ja paDaze. bIje divase vyAkhyAna zarU thayuM. e vyAkhyAnamAM munie kahyuM ke mahAvIra prabhue ekavAra potAnI jAtane pUchyuM hatuM, 'tu - - --- - -- - ---- - - ------- zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM 49

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ekeya evuM kArya kare che jenAthI bIjAnI lAgaNI dubhAya? je ema hoya to e kArya karavuM na joIe.' bIjAnI vedanA joIne mahAvIra vedanA anubhavatA hatA. bIjAnA du:kha joIne emane du:kha thatuM hatuM. jIvamAtra tarapha anukaMpAthI bharela hRdaya dharAvanAra prabhue nAtajAta kadI svIkArI na hatI. A rIte emaNe zrAvakone, prekSaka gaNane nAtajAtano nAza karavA samajAvyuM hatuM. citrabhAnu phakta koI eka jAtane eka dharmanA mAnavIone yogya rAha batAvavA mAgatA na hatA. teo phakta sajjano ane khAnadAnakuLane jJAna ApavA mAgatA na hatA. tethI teo lUMTArAo, vezyAo, halakI nAtanA tarachoDAyelA vageremAM UMDo rasa letA hatA. teo samAjane dharmajJAna ApatA hatA ane mAnava sevAnA mahAnuM dharma tarapha samAjane vALavA prayatna karatA hatA. samAja jene tiraskAre che evA tarachoDAyelA mAnava mATe muni kahe che, "bIjAnI nabaLAIne ApaNe svIkArI zakatA nathI. ApaNe emanI TIkA karIe chIe, bIjAno nyAya tolavA besIe chIe ane emanAthI dUra cAlyA jaIe chIe.' "A rIte eka mAnavI bIjA mAnavIne tiraskAre che. mAnavIo vacce dUratA nahi paNa saMbaMdhanI kaDI baMdhAya e jarUrI che. mAnava mAtrane enI nabaLAI sAthe cAhavo joIe.' Aje jenAmAM doSa dekhAya che te kAle nirdoSa banI zake che. Ajano pApI AvatIkAle puNyazALI banI zake che." 'du:kha ane vedanA mAnavIne ghaDe che. eno vikAsa kare che. Aje e bhale anya mArge hoya, ApaNAmAM enA mATe prema ane zraddhA haze to eka divasa e yogya mArge Avaze ja." 50 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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lAgaNIone bhasma karI zakAtI nathI 7 muni zrI citrabhAnujI mAnatA hatA ke gunegAramAM paNa prabhutA che. tethI teone taka maLatA sAbaramatI jelamAM kedIone vyAkhyAna ApavA jatA hatA. ekavAra teo sAbaramatI jelane daravAje pahoMcyA emane vicAra Avyo, 'ApaNe badhA kedIo chIe. teo jelanAM saLiyA pAchaLa che tethI kedIo che. ApaNe ApaNI lAlasA, moha ane vAsanAnA kedI chIe. guno karIne jelamAMthI chUTavuM saheluM che. paNa vAsanA ane moharUpI jelamAMthI chUTavuM duSkara che. jelamAM muni nAnI vArtAo, bodhadAyaka TUcakAo ane dalIlo karIne kedIone manamAM saLagatI veranI Agane zAMta karavA samajAvatA hatA. emane kahetA, 'tame ahIMthI mukta thAva tyAre bahAra jaIne koI tarapha vera na rAkhatA. tamane jeNe ahIM mokalyA che ema mAnatA ho ene paNa mApha karo. yAda rAkhajo, vera e jhera che. jhera tamane ja bharakhI jaze. bhUlecUke duzmanAvaTano jUno hisAba samajavAno prayatna na karatA. tamArA bhalA khAtara ane tamArA vinA parezAna banI gayela tamArA kuTuMbIjano mATe manamAM saMgharela vera ane dveSane hAMkI kADho; ene ukheDI nAkho, ene dUra pheMkI dejo.' 'je banI gayuM che te bhUlI jo' 'je mApha karI jANe che e prabhune vahAlA che.' je prema ane anukaMpAthI jIve che, jenAmAM dayA ane zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 51

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karUNA che e mAnavI varasatA vAdaLA jevo che. e vAdaLa mAnavIne AnaMda Ape che. ane bhUmine navajIvana Ape che. bhUmimAM dharabAyelA bIjane navajIvana Ape che.' 'tame vAdaLa jevA bano." citrabhAnu karma vize kedIone samajaNa ApatA hatA. emaNe kahyu hatuM, jevA karma karazo evuM phaLa maLaze. sau koIne karmabhogavavA paDe che. emAMthI koI bacI zakatuM nathI. tamArA pUrvanA karmone lIdhe tame ahIM cho. kadAca tame atyAre nirdoSa hazo to paNa tame bIjA koI karmanuM phaLa bhogavI rahyA cho ema vicArajo.' | munie A rIte jelamAM jaIne emanA jIvanane navo moDa ApavA prayatna karyo hato. emanAmAM sadbhAvano saMcAra karyo hato. Ama to muni, saMta sAdhunI jIvana saphara urdhvagAmI hoya che. saMsAranA sarva moha tyAgIne, aparigraha vrata dhAraNa karIne ane badhI Indriyone kAbUmAM laIne teo jIvanapaMtha para sAcavIne Daga mAMDatA hoya che. paNa hRdayane kacarI zakAtuM nathI. lAgaNIone saLagAvIne bhasma karI zakAtI nathI. A kathanane satya puravAra karato eka prasaMga bhagavAna mahAvIranA jIvanamAM banyo hato. mahAvIra ane emanA ziSya gautama vacce atUTa nAto hato. prabhu jANatA hatA ke gautama potAnA tarapha anahada mAyA mamatA rAkhe che. tethI jyAre emaNe jANyuM ke have mAro AtmA dehatyAga karaze. e samaye prabhune vicAra Avyo ke mAro AtmA dehatyAga karaze e drazya gautama joI zakaze nahi. e kSaNa enA mATe mahAkaSTadAyaka thaze. tethI emaNe potAnA ziSyane bIje gAma bodha ApavA mATe mokalyo. gautama prabhuthI dUra hatA. prabhunI muktinA samAcAra ApyA. teonuM aMtara lohIlohANa banI gayuM emanA hRdayamAM marmaghAtaka - - - para zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna drA citrabhAnuM

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vedanAnuM valoNuM pharatuM hatuM. thoDI kSaNo vItI. emanI tulanAtmaka buddhi jAgRta thaI ane emane samajAyuM, "moha, mAyA ane mamatAne lIdhe du:kha thAya che. prabhu taraphanA snehane lIdhe mane kaSTa thAya che. paNa prabhuno jIvanadIpa bujhAtA amAro snehasaMbaMdhano aMta Avyo nathI.' e saMbaMdha zAzvata che. 'emanA caraNamAM besIne mane je jJAna maLyuM che e jJAna avinAzI che. have mAre prabhunA jJAnano pracAra karavAno che.' "satya ane ahiMsAno saMdezo mAre cAre dizAmAM phelAvavAno A prakAre vicAratA emanA mohanA baMdhano tUTyAM mAyA chUTI | gaI ane kevaLajJAna thayuM. AvuM ja citrabhAnunA jIvanamAM banyuM. emanI sAthe emanA saMsArI pitA sAdhuveze vicaratA hatA. te eka divasa thAkelA lAgatA hatA. emano aMtakALa pAse AvI rahyo hato. emano jIvanadIpa bujhAvavAnI taiyArImAM hato. saMsAra tyAgavAthI mamatA chUTI jatI nathI. AdhyAtmika jJAna meLavavAthI snehabaMdhano saMpUrNapaNe kApI zakAtA nathI. saMsAranI A vAstavikatA che, A hakIkata che. ethI jyAre vahAlAnI vidAyano prasaMga jIvanamAM Ave che, jyAre lohIno saMbaMdha tUTI paDavAnI taiyArImAM hoya che tyAre hRdayane sonAnI sAMkaLathI bAMdhI zakAtuM nathI. tethI AvA prasaMge tyAgavIra paNa marmadhAtaka vedanA anubhave che. citrabhAnunA pitA e emanuM sAra sarvasva hatA. emanI bA hatA, emanA bhAI hatA, emanI bahena hatA ane emanA gurUbaMdhu hatA. mitra hatA. mArgadarzaka hatA. AdhyAtmika paMthanA sAthI hatA. e dubaLI pAtaLA mAnavI zaktithI bharapUra hatA. mAIlonA - - -- ---- -- - - zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM 53

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mAIlo sudhI cAlavA chatAM teo kadI thAkatA nahi. teo ogaNasItera varSanA hatA. taMdurasta hatA jIvananA sarva saMtApa ogALIne teo dharmakarmamAM rata rahetA hatA. emano aMtima samaya taddana pAse che evI kalpanA thaI zake ema na hatuM. emanA dehapiMjaramAMthI AtmA uDI jaze evI lezamAtra zaMkA na hatI. evI koI cetavaNI na hatI. paNa koIvAra AvI rahela banAvano paDachAyo paDato hoya che. koIvAra paDachAyo oLakhI zakAya che. koIvAra e kALo paDachAyo oLakhI zakAto nathI.' e divase munino sADatrIsamo janma divasa hato. muni vahelI savAre dhyAnamAM beThA hatA. e dhyAnabhaMga vAraMvAra thato hato. emanI AMkho kSaNekSaNe khulI jatI hatI. citrabhAnujI mATe A dhyAnabhaMgano anubhava navo hato. e anubhava zAno che e vize muni ajANa hatA. | munino janma divasa hovAthI amadAvAdavAsIo ane Akhu navaraMgapurA emanI anumodanA mATe AvyA hatA. upAzrayamAM mAnavIono maherAmaNa umaTayo hato. emanA saMsArI pitA gurUbhAI pATa para besIne vyAkhyAna ApatA hatA. emaNe vyAkhyAnamAM mahAvIra prabhue potAnA aMtima samaye enA vhAlA ziSya gautamane dUra mokalI dIdho hato e Akho prasaMga bhAvavAhI bhASAmAM rajU karyo. ane moha, mAyA, mamatA ane Asakitano tyAga karavA bodha Akho. emaNe kahyuM ke jaDa deha joIne mAnavIe udAsa thavuM na joIe. deha nAzavaMta che. AtmA avinAzI che. je duniyAno tyAga karI jAya e to visAmo khAIne vaLI enI zAzvata saphara zarU kare che. A mRtyu pAme che. ane e navajIvana pAme che. - vyAkhyAna purU thayuM. divasa paNa vItI gayo rAta paDI. 54 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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pitAe chAtImAM dukhavAnI vAta karI. emanA caherA sAme najara jatAMja munie emanuM mAthu khoLAmAM laI lIdhuM. emanI chAtI para masAja karavA lAgyA. ATalI vedanA chatAM pU. candrakAntasAgarajI mahArAja namo arihaMtANaM namo siddhANaM' A be maMtro bolI ja rahyA hatA. emano saMyamI ane tapasvI deha motiyAnA parasevAthI bhIno thaI gayo hato. du:khamAM paNa emano A jApa satata cAlu hato. kSaNamAtramAM AtmA enA paMthe paDayo. e zAzvata saphare upaDI gayo. na samajI zakAya, na mAnI zakAya evI jhaDape je banavAnuM hatuM e banI gayuM hatuM. eka kSaNa pahelA pitAno deha, sajIva deha muninA khoLAmAM hato. bIjI kSaNe sajIva deha nirjIva banI gayo hato. A kema mAnavuM? kema svIkAravuM? A kevI rIte sahana thaI zakaze? citrabhAnu vicAratA hatA. hRdayamAM ghanIbhUta vedanA ghoLAtI hatI. aMta:karaNa zokathI pUrNa hatuM mukha nirAza ane glAnimaya hatuM. kALa ni:stabdha banIne khaDo hato. traNa divasa marmavedhI vedanAmaya hatA. traNa divasa kASTanA pUtaLAnI jema avAka sthitimAM vItyA. vaLI e samaye manamAM eka bIjo pravAha vaheto hato. mRtyune samajavAno, ene oLakhavAno prayatna cAlu hato. - aMte e mRtyune paNa svIkArI lIdhuM. bA, bahena, mitra ane have pitA. mRtyu, pachI mRtyu, pachI mRtyu. hara mRtyu dvArA maLatuM eka navuM jJAna. - - - 55 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna drA citrabhAnuM

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e jJAna kahetuM hatuM ke rUdana Ave che. vedanAthI aMgomAM kaDAkA bole che. AMkho udAsa che kAraNa ke huM mArA pitAne vaLagI rahevA IcchuM chuM. emanI tarapha prema che, moha che ane mAyA che tethI huM pIDA anubhavuM chuM. nA, mAre zoka na karAya, e avyakta rahasya mane saMdeza Ape che. emanuM ahIMnuM kArya pUruM thayuM che. A bhavanI leNadeNa cUkate thaI che. tethI teo temanA navA mArga tarapha AgaLa vadhyA che. kyAMka, koI kArya emanI rAha jotu haze. tyAM javAmAM moDuM na karAya. teoe yogya samaye paMthe prayANa karyuM che. . mArI sAthenA RNAnubaMdha pUrA thayA haze. muninuM vicAracakra cAlu hatuM. emane pitAnuM chelluM vyAkhyAna yAda AvyuM. gautamano prasaMga yAda AvatA du:kha ane maMtraNA cAlI gaI. emaNe dhIredhIre mana para kAbU meLavyo. mana svastha thatAM pitAe kahela ghaNI vAto yAda AvI. jo ke yuvAnImAM pitA kahe te badhuM gamatuM na hatuM. paNa kadI emano anAdara karyo na hato. pitA kahetA, "mRtyu AvavAnuM che. huM jaIza paNa huM pathArIvaza banIne, kaNasato ke rIbAto marIza nahi. mArI dharmazraddhA mane kahe che ke huM zAMtipUrvaka A jagatano tyAga karIza. huM dharmanI sAdhanA sAcA dilathI karuM chuM. chatAMya mRtyu samaye je huM dharma bhUlI jAu to mAnaje ke dharmamAM mArI zraddhA adhUrI hatI.' pitAnI dharma prati manadehathI zraddhA hatI. kSaNamAM teo pArthiva sImAthI para cAlyA gayA. vaLI eka baMdhanamAMthI mukta thavAyuM. manamAM dhIra manthara gatie asimita vicAro AvyA hatA. pitA jUnI peDhInuM saMtAna hatA. emanA vicAro rUDha hatA. -- - - zAnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 56

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-- - -- --- - koI koI vicAro munine rUDhicusta lAgatA hatA. chatAMya emane Thesa na lAge, potAnI avahelanA thAya che evI lAgaNI na jAge e mATe pitAnI ekaeka IcchAne mAna ApatA hatA. emanI vidAyane lIdhe mana ulaTasUlaTa thaI gayuM hatuM. avanavI lAgaNIono sukhakara sparza thato hato. hRdaya saMvedanAthI raNajhaNatuM - - - - koI adhUruM ajJAta manamAM paDela svapna AkAra laI rahyu hatuM. koI ajANI durdama kAmanA jAgI rahI hatI. AMkha sAme aneka viTaMbaNAothI gherAyelo mAnava samAja hato. A aMdhakAramAM sabaDatI mAnava jAta mATe kaMIka karavAnI bhAvanA hatI. manamAM dharabAyelo jIvamAtra pratino karUNAbhAva tIvratAthI sapATI para AvI gayo hato. cittamAM amRtagaMgA vahetI hatI. potAnI bhAvanAne mUrtasvarUpa ApavA emaNe muMbaI tarapha javAnuM nakkI karyuM. zAntipathanI yAtrI : svapna drA citrabhAnuM 57.

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jagatamAM jevu bolazo tevo paDagho sAMbhaLavA maLaze vihAra karatA karatA teo dariyAthI gherAyela muMbaI beTa sudhI AvI pahoMcyA. muMbaImAM dAkhala thavA mATe teo relvenA pula para haLave haLave cAlatA hatA. emanI najara gaI eka lAkaDAnAM DhIma para. eka nAnI mAchalI paDI hatI. kadAca koI mAchANanA suMDalAmAMthI paDI haze. munie potAnA hAthamAM rahela daMDathI mAchalIne dhakelI. haLavo dhakko lAgatAM mAchalI pANImAM gaI. pANIne sparza karyo na karyo ane mAchalI uchaLI. jANe havAmAM taravA lAgI hatI. aDadhI kSaNamAM banI gayela A banAva muninA manamAM jaDAI gayo. mAchalI pANI vinA mRtyunI rAha jotI paDI hatI. pANI maLatAM e navajIvana pAmI hatI. enAmAM zaktino saMcAra thayo hato. jANe navajIvanano ullAsa vyakta karavA e havAmAM uchaLI hatI. e jIvana maLyAno harSa hato. . kevo che A jIvano moha! A mIThuM madhuruM jIvana saune game che. duniyAmAM eka rAgatA che. susaMgatA che. snehano sparza sau jANe che. snehano sparza aMgaaMgamAM AnaMda prere che. muninA paga DagalAM bharatAM hatAM ane emanuM mana doDatuM hatuM. - 58 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna sTA citrabhAnuM . .

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vihAra karatAM, visAmo letA ane vaLI AgaLa vadhatA, teo vAMdarA pAsethI pasAra thaI rahyA. emaNe gIdhane AkAzamAM uDatAM joyA. emane jANa thaI ke ahIM talakhAnuM che. emanA hRdayamAM karuNA AgI. emanI najara sAme bhUtakALano eka prasaMga dekhAvA lAgyo teo amadAvAda hatA. teo vahoravA gayA hatA. khorAka laIne teo pAchA pharatA hatA. rastAmAM eka ghAyala gadheDo paDayo hato e azakta hato. pitA e nabaLA prANI pAse UbhA rahyA. potAnA mATe lAvela khorAka gadheDAne khavarAvavA lAgyA. e samaye pitAnA caherA para zAMti, madhuratA ane harSa hato. muninA manamAM navajIvana pAmelI mAchalI, azakta gadheDo ane katalakhAnAmAM katla karAtAM prANIo hatAM. bIjI tarapha emanI najara sAme muMbaInA mAnavIo hatA. A nagaranA mAnavIo be TUMka mATe doDatAM hatA. vaLI Akho divasa doDIne dhana ekaThuM karavA chatAM tRpta na thatA mAnavIo joyA. ahIM garIba ane dhanavAnanA bheda hatA. nAtajAta hatI. mAnavI bIjA mAnavInuM zoSaNa karato hato. emane lAgyuM ke ahIM ghaNuM karavAnuM che. ghaNuM badalavAnI jarUra che. ahIM mAnava mahimA jAgRta karavAnI jarUrata che. je paDela che ene UbhA karavAnI jarUra che. du:khIonA du:kha dUra karavAnI jarUra che. paNa bIje varga che je dhananI pAchaLa doDIne pote ja du:kha UbhuM karyuM che tethI pote ja potAnI jAta para julama kare che. manamAM rahelA ayogya vicArone lIdhe, ayogya Tevone lIdhe zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 59

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mAnavI mArga bhUlyo che. A paMtha bhUlelAne emanI jAtane sneha karatAM zIkhavavuM paDaze. mAnava deha amUlya che e emane samajAvavuM paDaze. A amUlya dehane sAcavavA zIkhavavuM paDaze. jyAre deha bhAMgI paDe ema jIvIne manane khoTA kAryamAM rokIe chIe tyAre potAnI jAtane nukazAna karIe chIe. pote ja potAnI jAtane sneha nahi kare to koNa karaze? muninI A AkhI vicAradhArAnuM pratibiMba emanA vyAkhyAnomAM paDavA lAgyuM. mAnavIne potAnI jAtamAM zraddhA vadhe e mATe ene lagatA viSayo para bolavA lAgyA. muni kahetA, "A jagata "Iko paoNInTa che, je bolo eno ja paDagho, tamArA ja avAjamAM tame sAMbhaLazo, jevuM bIja vAvazo evo pAka laNazo' "A sRSTi ane tamArI vacce sanAtana saMbaMdha che. tamArAmAM apAra zakita che. tame je dhAro e karI zako cho. koI tamane bacAvaze, koI tamane tAraze evI AzA na rAkhazo. tamArAmAM je akhUTa umadA zakti che ene tamAre jAgRta karavAnI che. zraddhA dvArA e thaI zakaze. jo tamane tamArAmAM zraddhA haze to evuM eke kArya nathI ke je tame na UI zako. vyAkhyAnamAM muni eka vArtA kahetA hatA, 'eka bALaka parvatanI kaMdarA pAse rakhaDato hato.' eNe bUma pADI, tuM koNa che?' sAmethI javAba Avyo, 'tuM koNa che?' bAlaka paDadho paDe e jANato na hato, tethI DarI gayo. e DarathI bacavA moTethI rADa pADI, huM tArA karatA baLavAna chuM." . sAme eja javAba maLyo. vaLI bALaka bolyo "tuM zetAna che.' zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna drA citrabhAnuM

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"tuM zetAna che." e javAba sAMbhaLIne bALaka gabharANo. e doDato ghare gayo. enI bA pAse jaIne e raDavA lAgyo. eNe enI bAne kahyuM, 'bA parvata para sAme zetAna rahe che." bA zANI hatI. e samajI gaI. bA eno hAtha pakaDIne TekarI para laI gaI. pelA "iko poInTa' pAse UbhI rahI ane bALakane kahyuM, jo, jorathI bola, tuM brahma che." tuM brahma che' uttara maLyo. ApaNe sau bALako chIe tethI vizvAsa nathI ke ApaNAmAM brahmanuM teja che. ApaNe brahma chIe." || C _ __ niyAno pAyo sakha rA vimAnuM zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draznA citrabhAnuM

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paDakAra jhIlavo e emano svabhAva hato muni zrI citrabhAnuM vyAkhyAno vaDe mAnavImAM AtmazradhdhA jAgRta karatA hatA. emane lAgyuM ke A upadeza kta cAra dIvAlomAM na apAya. e upadeza lokonA dila sudhI pahoMcADavo joIe. e mATe upAzraya ane dharmasthAnako ja nahi paNa zerImAM, bajAramAM ane cokamAM jaIne vyAkhyAno ApavA joIe. potAnA vicArono munie amala karyo. sAthe sAthe mAnava sevAnAM kArya karavA mATe emaNe DivAIna noleja sosAyaTInI sthApanA karI. teo copATI pAse pArzvanAthanA derAsaranI bAjumAM eka rUmamAM rahetA hatA. ahIMthI emaNe mAnava sevAnA kArya zarU karyA. eka ziSya emanA mATe khorAka lAvato hato. e je lAve che teo jamI letA hatA. bIjo samaya jJAnamAM dhyAnamAM athavA maLavA AvanArane mArgadarzana ApavAmAM jato hato. emanI saMsthA je dizAmAM dardamaya cIsa uThatI e dizAmAM madada karavA doDI jatI. gujarAtano ke bihArano dukALa hoya ke koyanAno bhUkaMpa hoya emaNe taiyAra karelA kAryakaro tyAM pahoMcI jatA. muni potAnA vyAkhyAnamAM phaMDa mATe Tahela nAkhatA. jotajotAmAM dAnano pravAha vahevA lAgato. jyAM zakya hoya ane je jarUra hoya to svayaMsevakone paNa mokalavAmAM AvatA. citrabhAnu navA navA sapanA jotA. eno amala karatAM. ene maLavA have to deza paradezanA loko AvatA hatA. jene muMbaImAM lUMTI levAmAM AvI hatI evI eka paradezI yuvatI emane maLavA AvI. 62 zAntipathanI yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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citrabhAnujIe ene kahyuM 'ApaNe bIjAne je ApIe chIe te ja pAchuM maLe che. jo koIno tiraskAra karIe to e pAcho Ape che. sneha ane mitratA ApIe to eja maLe che. 'to eno artha e ke meM je ApyuM te mane maLyuM 'meM kadI corI ke lUMTa karI nathI to mane lUMTArA kema maLyA ?' 'kadAca e tArA nakArAtmaka vicAro ke rano paDagho tArA jIvanamAM paDyo haze. have tane koI lUMTI jaze, corI thaze evA vicArone manamAM sthAna na ApatI. bhUtakALane bhUlIne tuM hakArAtmaka vicAro karavA lAgI jA. teM kyAMka kaMIka lIdhuM haze. have tAro hisAba cokakho thaI gayo.' koI potAnA du:kha dardanI kathA laIne emane maLavA AvatA to koI potAnI jijJAsA saMtoSavA AvatA. nyujhIlenDanI krikeTa TIma muMbaImAM ramavA AvI hatI. e TImanA khelADIo munine maLavA AvyA. teo muni zAkAhArI che e jANIne savAla pUchyo, 'Apa zAkAhArI cho chatAM AvA taMdurasta kaI rIte rahI zako cho?' munie anAjanA dANAmAM rahela zakti vize kahyuM. AnAjano dANo ke koI paNa bI jamInamAM paDe ane pANI tathA khAtara maLe ke teno vikAsa zarU thAya che. e jamInamAMthI ane sUryamAMthI zakti meLave che. tethI zAkAhAra e pUrNa khorAka bane che. dareka zAkAhArI mAnavI bIjA karatAM vadhu sArI taMdurastI dharAve che. zAkAhArI ghoDA, baLada, hAthI ane hIpo kevA baLavAna che! tyAra pachI zAkAhAramAMthI deha kevI rIte satva meLave che e citrabhAnujIe khelADIone samajAvyuM hatuM. eka khelADIe pUchyuM. 'tame zA mATe ochA kapaDAM pahero cho, zuM tame garIba cho?' munie javAba Apyo ke A bhArata deza che, ahIM samRddhinA zIkhare beThela mAnavI paNa jJAna thAya ane karmano udaya thAya zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 63

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tyAre aparigraha vrata dhAraNa kare che. aparigraha vrata eTale ochamAM ochI cIjono saMgraha karavo. bahuja thoDI vastuothI calAvI levuM. jarUriyAta ochI hoya to sAdhana sagavaDatA taraphanI paraMtatratA ghaTe che. je parataMtra che,ochI cIjathI calAvI zakatA nathI temane ekAda cIja ochI maLe, eka vastu khUTe to pIDA thAya che. aparigrahane lIdhe svataMtra banela mAnavIne abhAva pIDA Apato nathI. te haMmezA AnaMdathI jIve che. saMgraha karavo e mananI eka sthiti che. chatAM ya saMgraha karavA karatA ApavAmAM vadhu sukha maLatuM hoya che. paradezIo mATe A vicAradhArA navI hatI, AkarSaka hatI. svIjharalenDanI sorelA nAmanI eka yuvatI bhAratamAM maLI hatI. ene muni pAsethI dhyAna dharavA vize jJAna meLavyuM hatuM. e muMbaI AvI munine maLI ane dhyAna vaDe enA jIvanamAM thayela parivartana vize kahyuM, e manane kAbUmAM laIne kevA AnaMdamAM divaso vItAvatI hatI e vize kahIne potAnI sakhInI karama kathanI kahI. enI sakhI varasothI azAMta hatI, DaratI hatI, bIjA vizvayuddhamAM enA gharanI pAchaLa eka boMba paDyo hato. yuddha cAlu hatuM tyAre mRtyuno Dara satata satAvato hato. emAM boMba paDayo. jIvaMta mRtyu joyuM. eNe bhayaMkara avAja sAMbhaLyo. te kSaNathI enA manano Dare kabaje lIdho hato. e boMbano avAja sAMbhaLe ke boMba zabda koI bole toya tharathara kaMpatI hatI. yuddha pUruM thayuM pachI paNa e Darane pUrepUro jItI zakI na hatI. je divase boMba paDela e divasa pAse Ave tyAre eno bhaya vadhI jato hato. boMba paDayo e 64 divasa Ave tyAre e yuvatI kAMpavA lAgatI zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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hatI. munie ene maLavAnI taiyArI batAvI. thoDA samaya pachI yuvatI munine maLI. munie ene dhyAnanI apAra zakti vize samajAvyuM. dhyAna dharatA zIkhavyuM. vaLI kahyuM ke tame tamArA manane kaho, 10nI sAlamAM je banyuM hatuM e kadI banaze nahi. yuddha samApta thaI gayuM che. Aje zAMti che. huM mArI jAtane bhUtakALathI kApI nAkhuM chuM. bhUtakALa e kabaramAMno deha che. bhUtakALa e kaMI ja nathI. huM Ajane bhUtakALa sAthe joDIza nahIM. bhUtakALane huM vartamAna banAvIza nahIM. tame dhare dhare UMDA zvAsa lo ane choDo. aTako ne manomana bolo, "huM Aja chuM. huM gaIkAla nathI. boMba bhUtakALamAM paDayo. hato.' "huM vartamAnamAM jIvI rahI chuM.' AtmasUcana ane dhyAna dvArA pelI yuvatIne mananI zAMti maLI hatI. IjharAyelanA vidvAna mI. razida duniyAnI Tempala opha anDarasTenDIMga'nI konpharansamAM AvyA hatA. e citrabhAnujIne maLavA AvyA. emanI vAtacItamAM ghaNA pratho carcAyA. deza ane sarahadano viSaya Avyo tyAre munie kahyuM, 'gAma, jIllo, prAMta, rASTra, dharma deza ane paradeza A saghaLA bheda mAnavIe pADayA che. jamInamAM bheda nathI. pANImAM bheda nathI. hiMdu pANI ane musalamAna pANI e zabdo ayogya lAge che havAne dezakALanA ke nAtajAtanA baMdhana hotA nathI. baMne jaNA saMmata thayA ke "mAru' ane 'tAruM' e mananuM saMkucita valaNa che. na muni aneka lokone maLatA tyAre emane lAgatuM ke mAruM kuTuMba - - - zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM 65 |. - - - -

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- - - - e phakta bhAratavAsIonuM baneluM nathI. mArA kuTuMbIjano duniyAnA sarva bhAgomAM vase che. mAruM vatana A pRthvI che, A vizva che jyAM prANa, prema, prakAza, pANI ane pavana maLe che. emaNe mAnavasevAnA kAryo zarU karyA hatAM. kAraNa ke emane dareka mAnavImAM Izvara dekhAto hato. teo bhedabhAvathI para banI rahyA hatA. te ja vakhate sekanDa spiriTyUala samITanuM emane AmaMtraNa maLyuM. A konpharansa jInIvAmAM maLavAnI hatI. e sAla hatI 1970nI. zrImatI saralA ane bI.ke. bIralA e AmaMtraNa ApavA AvyA. kahevAmAM AvyuM ke pUrva ane pazcimanI dUratAne najIkatAmAM badalavAno samaya pAkI gayo che. vijJAna e kArya karI zakaze nahi. e kArya dharmadvArA ja thaze. tethI dharmapurUSoe ekaThA thavAnI jarUra che. satya ane ahiMsAno upadeza tame uttama rIte ApI zakazo. tamArI bhASA ane tamAruM prabhAvI vyaktitva, tamArA jaina dharmanA siddhAMto ahiMsAnI havA phelAvavAmAM madada karaze. citrabhAnujInA jIvanapaMthamAM aneka vaLAMko AvyA hatA. bacapaNamAM bA ane bahenanA mRtyune lIdhe emanI para du:khanI vIjaLI trATakI hatI. hRdayamAM zUnyatA chavAI gaI hatI. paNa yuvAnImAM uSA jevI snehALa sakhI, lAgaNIthI chalakAtI mitra ane yuvAna hRdayane samajanArI eka zANI chokarI maLI hatI. jIvanamAM gulAbI sapanAo jAgI uThyAM hatA. paNa pharI e sapanAo tUTelA kAcanI jema kaNakaNamAM verAI gayAM hatA. have paMtha para eka navo paDakAra Avyo hato. paDakAra jhIlavo e citrabhAnujIno svabhAva hato. * madada karI. - - zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draznA citrabhAnuM ! - - - -Press - " " baerFre":"en drg Jale se" - --- --

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navA yuganA eMdhANa teo pArakhI zakyA nathI 10 emanuM vicAracakra ane manomaMthana cAlatuM hatuM. lAgatuM hatuM ke potAnuM sapanuM sAkAra thaI rahyuM che. paradeza javA mana uchaLavA lAgyuM. sAgaranI pele pAra satya ane ahiMsAno mahAvIra saMdeza pahoMcADavo hato. svadharmanuM jJAna gorAone ApavuM hatuM. ahiMsAno pracAra karI hiMsAthI trasta samAjanA manane zAMti ApavI hatI. citrabhAnujIe dariyo kheDavAno nirNaya karyo e samAcAra jAhera thayAM. eka sAMje thoDAka vRddha hitecchuo ane snehALa bhakto maLavA AvyA. A bhakato muninA vyAkhyAnamAM niyamita AvatA hatA. tethI muni tarapha ananya bhAva hato, kuNI lAgaNI hatI. 'Avo,kema, majAmAM cho ne ?' ATale moDethI kema AvyAM cho, kuzaLa cho ne ?' munie bhaktone AvakAryA. 'ame tamArA tarapha Adarane lIdhe eka namra vinaMtI karavA AvyA chIe. tamane salAha ApavAno amane adhikAra nathI chatAM ya ame anAdhikAra ceSTA karI rahyA chIe.' 'are mArA bhAIo, tamAre je kahevuM hoya te dila kholIne kaho. mane kharAba lAgaze nahi.' 'amane tamArI tarapha uDI, snehabharI lAgaNI che. ane tamArA jJAnathI prabhAvita thayA chIe. Aje tamArA bhakta tarIke AvyA chIe.' 'tamArI mamatA mATe mane mAna che' zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 67

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C - -- - - --- - ame sAMbhaLaLyuM che ke tame koI avicArI pagaluM bharI rahyA cho. ahIM tamArA asaMkhya bhakto che. bAreya varNanA loko tamArI tarapha mAna dharAve che. paradeza javAnuM nakkI karIne tame tamArI kIrti, tamAro mAnamobho ane tamAruM munipaNuM hoDamAM mUkI rahyA cho. e paNa ajANyA yuvAno mATe! basa, AthI vadhAre amAre kaMI kahevAnuM nathI. amArI saunI IcchA che ke tame paradeza na jAva.' 'tamArI e vAta to kharI che ke dariyApAranA mAnavIone huM maLyo nathI. tethI teo ajANyAM che paNa huM to jIvamAtra tarapha anukaMpA rAkhavAnuM bacapaNathI zIkhyo chuM.. jaina dharma A ja jJAna Ape che. dareka mAnavImAM je cetana tatva vase che te eka samAna che. e rIte teo ane huM ajANyAM nathI. sau eka chIe. teo dariyAnI pelI pAra rahe che. tethI emanAmAM rahela cetanatatvamAM phera paDI jato nathI." 'paNa e na bhulazo ke tame page cAlIne saphara karanAra cho, vAhanamAM besavuM e tamArA mATe varjya che. tame niyamono bhaMga karI rahyA cho.' niyamo jaDa na hovA joIe. mAruM svapna darzana A pagaluM bharavA mane prere che. A kIrti, A mAnamobho ane vAha-vAha A svapna darzana AgaLa havA-havA jevA vAmaNA lAge che. lAkho jIvananA abhayadAnamAM nimitta thavA mArA A svapna darzanane tamArA AzavAda khape che. svapna darzana ane prere che. lAkho jIvonA abhayadAnamAM nimitta thavA prema prere che. mane to jevo tamArA para prema che evo ja prema sarva mAnavI mATe che. tame mane kharA hRdayathI salAha ApavA AvyA cho e badala huM tamAro AbhAra mAnuM chuM.' huM jANuM chuM bhAI, Aje tame mane svIkArazo nahI. mAru AjanuM pagaluM gamaze nahI. samagra vizvamAM je mAnavIoe na 68. zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM !

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.. - pagaluM bharyuM che, navA paMthe prayANa karyuM che temane harahaMmeza virodha thato Avyo che.' kharuM kahuM chuM bhAI, jyAre huM mahAvIra vANI duniyAmAM vahevaDAvIza tyAre tame mArA nirNayane vadhAvazo. eka evo divasa Avaze jyAre tame, sau virodha karanArAo mane abhinaMdana Apazo A mAruM abhimAna nathI. A mArI zraddhA che. munino draDha nirNaya jANIne vRddhAtmAnA manamAM je kaDavAza ane krodha hato tenuM pratibiMba enA caherA para paDayuM munie emane AzIrvAda ApyA, "dharmalAbha.' pelA bhAI gayA paNa muninA manamAM valoNuM pharavA lAgyuM. A mAnavI sIttera varasa sudhI samAja kahe ema jIvatA AvyAM che. samAja sAme AMkha uMcI karI nathI. emane huM kema samajAvuM ke samAja enA aMga jevA mAnavIne dhokA vaDe dhoIne, dhANanA ghA jhIMkIne, TIMcIne, TIpIne sapATa banAvI de che. samAja mAnavIne potAnA mAyalo eka banAvavA Icche che. enA dhaNamAMthI ekeya Dhora chaTakI na jAya, enI ToLImAMthI ekeya vyakti AgaLa na nIkaLI jAya enuM dhyAna rAkhe che. mAnavIne rUDhinA baMdhanonI beDI paherAvanAra samAja che. huM e yugonA baMdhana toDIza. munie paradeza javAnuM nakkI karyuM. emane vidAya ApavA eka samAraMbha yojAyo. A samAraMbha biralA kiDA kendramAM rAkhavAmAM Avyo hato. e divase mukhya mahemAna mahArASTra rAjyanA spIkara bhArade hatA. emaNe kahyuM, citrabhAnujI bhAratanI AdhyAtmika samRddhi pazcimamAM vaheMcavA mATe ApaNA elacI tarIke jAya che." citrabhAnujI satya ane ahiMsAno saMdeza pahoMcADavA jaI rahyA hatA tethI eka varga utsAhathI emane vidAya ApavA Avyo hato. zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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- paNa rUDhicusta loko bIralA kriDA kendra bahAra ubhA rahIne rADabUma karatA hatA. teo munine paradeza javA devA IcchatA na hatA. 'paradezamAM dharma dhajA pharakAvaje.' eka varga kaheto hato. bIjo varga Icchato hato, evuM ame kadI thavA daIzuM nahIM.' zAMti hatI. saMgharSa hato, kodhanI avirSa hatI. spIkare vadhu polIsa bolAvI. citrabhAnujIe kahyuM ke huM mAro virodha karanArane maLavA IcchuM chuM. huM emanI sAme javA IcchuM chuM.' ToLAmAM hoya tyAre mAnavI kevo pAgala bane che e polIsa sArI rIte jANatI hatI. polisa kamizanare munine rokyA. muni bolyA je divase teo jANaze ke meM paradezamAM mahAvIra vANI saMbhaLAvIne dharma dhvajA pharakAvI e divase huM emanA svapnamAM AvIza. teo pastAvo karaze ane mane svIkAraze." polIsa gharSaNa thavA devA IcchatI na hatI tethI munine polisavAnamAM besADIne bIje mArgethI bahAra laI gayA. vimAnaghara para rAtre eka vAge javAnuM hatuM. teo emanA bhaktanA ghare gayA. manamAM prabhunuM nAma hatuM. samaya thayo. muni emanA sAthIo sAthe vimAnaghara pahoMcyA. emane paradeza jatA rokavA mATe daseka hajAra loko emanuM svAgata karavA hAjara hatA. AkAza cIrI nAkhatuM hoya tevI cIso pADatA hatA. gurudeva viruddha apazabdo bolatA hatA. koI dhRNA vyakta karavA chAtI kuTatA hatA. maraNa prasaMga hoya ema poka mUkatA hatA. muni polIsa rakSaNa nIce vimAnaghara sudhI pahoMcyA. eka bhakate kahyuM "muni saMtApa karazo nahi. tame zAMtipUrvaka tamArA mArge AgaLa vadhajo ame tamArI sAthe chIe.' munie kahyuM "mane lezamAtra saMtApa nathI. A mArA mitro 70 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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ajJAnavaza mArI para gusse thayA che. teoe je joyuM che e sivAya bIju kaMI, koI navIna paMtha jovAne, samajavAne azakta che. teo parivartana sahana karavA zaktimAna nathI tethI krodhe bharAyA che. navA yuganA eMdhANa teo pArakhI zakyAM nathI. tethI teo krodhAyamAna che. huM khuzIthI, mArI IcchAthI A saMpradAyamAM Avyo hato. Aje Avyo hato eja rIte e saMpradAya choDI jAuM chuM. ziyALAmAM paherelA garama kapaDAM huM unALAmAM utArI nAMkha to zuM e gunho che?' A kSaNe tastha chuM. rAgadveSathI para chuM. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu A For Private & Personal use only

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pavitra kArya kare che tenA manamAM zAMtanA bIja vavAya che 11 vimAna uDatuM hatuM. citrabhAnujI jyAM duniyAbharanA saMtamahaMto maLavAnA hatA tyAM manomana pahoMcI gayA. teo tyAM pahoMcyA tyAre muMbaInA banela banAvanI saghaLI mAhitI tyAM pahoMcI gaI hatI. ATalI pratiSThA ane prasiddhine hoDamAM mUkI potAnA Adarza khAtara bahAra nIkaLanAra citrabhAnujInA haste konpharansanuM udghATana karAvavAnuM kamiTIe nakakI karyuM. e dharma pariSadanuM udghATana citrabhAnujIe karyuM. teo vyAkhyAna ApavA jaI rahyA hatA tyAre anAunsara juDI holisTare emanI oLakha mAIkamAM vahetI karI, "phakta be sapheda kapaDAmAM potAnA dehane DhAMkIne ahIM AvanAra muni have tamane saMbodhaze. teo ApaNI mAnavajAtane eka banAvavAnA prayatnamAM sAtha ane sahakAra ApavA teo ahIM AvyA che. e zAnti dUta che. muni maMca para AvyA. AMkho mIMcI navakAramaMtra bolyA ane pachI pariSadane khullI mUkI. teo kannaDa ane aMgrejI mAdhyamanI zALAmAM bhaNyA hatA. pachI gujarAtI zIkhyA hatA. lAMbA samayathI teo gujarAtImAM ja bhASaNo ApatA hatA. aMgrejImAM bolavAno mahAvaro ocho hato. ane sAme beThA hatA, duniyAbharanA vidvAno, A vidvAno potAnA dharmanuM UMDuM jJAna dharAvatA hatA. emanI sAme pote aMgrejI 72 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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- -- -- bhASAmAM potAnA vicAro kaMI rIte vyakta karI zakaze? aMgrejImAM vAtacIta karavI ane vyAkhyAna ApavuM e alaga bAbata che. teo vicAratA hatA, have zuM thaze, saphaLatA maLaze ke nahi?' ekAda be kSaNa muMjhavaNa anubhavI. emaNe UMDo zvAsa lIdho. ane potAnI vicAradhArA badalI. potAnA manane bIjI dizAmAM vALI dIdhuM. "mAre niSphaLatA vize vicAravuM na joIe. huM eka hetu, eka dhyeya siddha karavA ahIM Avyo chuM. e dhyeya siddha karavA saphaLa thavAnuM ja che, huM avazya saphaLa thaIza.' emaNe eka kSaNa AMkha mIMcI, prabhu smaraNa karyuM, ane AMkha kholIne manomana bolyA, "he mahAvIra prabhu, mArI jAtane huM tane samarpaNa karuM chuM. mAtra nabaLA vicAra, nakArAtmaka valaNane huM tArA caraNe dharuM chuM, tame mArI sAthe cho, huM ahIM tame Apela ahiMsA ane satyano saMdeza ApavA Avyo chuM. pazcimanI prajAe bhayAnaka yuddho joyAM che. eka eka gharamAMthI puruSo yuddhamAM marAyA che. emane zAMti joIe che. huM jANuM chuM ke tArA ciMdhyA mArge cAlanAra pUrNa zAMti pAmaze.' "A duniyA para satya Takaze. asatyano nAza thaze. vaLI huM emane anekAntavAda vize kahIza. jethI dareka sthitimAM teo vicArI zake ke Ama paNa hoI zake che. AvuM paNa banI zake - ---- --- ---- mahAvIra tuM mArI vANImAM vaheje.' citrabhAnue A prekSakagaNa pAse satya ane ahiMsA vize vyAkhyAna ApyuM. emaNe vaLI kahyuM "jIva mAtra sAthe mitratA karo. jyAM mitratA che tyAM tiraskAra TakI zakato nathI.' "je mitratA baMdhAze to mitra potAnA mitranuM khUna karavAnuM Icchaze nahi, jhagaDAo aTakI jaze, yuddha thaze nahi ane A duniyAmAM sau zAMtipUrvaka jIvaze." zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna drA citrabhAnuM

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- - - - - - - jIvana tarapha Adara haze to eka mAnavI bIjA mAnavIne madada karavA taiyAra thaze. bIjAne madada karavI e pavitra kArya che. je pavitra kArya kare che tenA manamAM zAMtinA bIja vavAya che.' 'jenA manamAM zAMti haze te zAMtithI jIvI zakaze ane bIjAne zAMtipUrvaka jIvavA deze.' 'munie anekAMtavAda para vistArapUrvaka samajAvyuM ane kahyuM ke mahAvIrano spaSTa saMdeza che ke ApaNI najare ja duniyA jevI na joIe. sAmAnA draSTibiMduno paNa ApaNe khyAla karavo joIe.' prekSajJANe mahAvIra prabhu vize jANyuM. ghaNAkharA jaina dharma vize prathama vAra sAMbhaLatA hatA. emanAmAM vadhu jANavAnI utkaMThA thaI tethI aneka loko munine maLyA ane bhagavAna mahAvIra tathA jaina dharma vize prazno karyA. emane saMtoSa thAya evA javAbo munie AkhA. konpharansano chello divasa Avyo. e divase teonI sabhA tyAMnA prAcIna carca saMta pITaranA carcamAM maLavAnI hatI. carca hatuM. vAtAvaraNamAM bhagavAna IzunI yAda hatI. enI havAmAM bAIbalanA pATha hatA. tyAM citrabhAnujIe navakAramaMtranuM gAna karyuM. bhaktAmara bolyA, baMne vize TUMkamAM samajAvyuM ane kahyuM 'vyaktinA sukhamAM samaSTinuM sukha samAyuM che. A sRSTimAM ekavAkyatA che. A sRSTi pUrNa che.' "A duniyAnA eka cheDe je karIe chIe enI asara duniyAnA bIjA cheDA sudhI thAya che. tethI A dharmanI prArthanAmAM duniyAnA sarva jIvone samAvI levAmAM AvyA che. mArI draDha mAnyatA che ke jIvanano AnaMda mANavAno phakta mAnavIone ja nahi, prANI mAtrane adhikAra che.' huM prArthanA karIza ke mAnavajAta para cAre dizAmAMthI AzIrvAda utare. ApaNuM jIvana mAnavI mATe upayogI bane. jIva mAtra 74 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna dvaTA citrabhAnuM

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- - - - - - mATe AzIrvAda bane.' konpharansano chello divasa pUro thayo. ahiMsAnI vyAkhyA ane ahiMsAno saMdeza sAMbhaLIne aneka dezanA patrakAroe emano InTaravyu lIdho. bI.bI.sI. ane voIsa oNpha amerIkAe emano ahiMsAno saMdeza jagatabharamAM prasArita karyo. tyAMthI muni emanA eka phrAnsanA vatanI ziSyanA AzramamAM gayA. ziSya potAnuM nAma haMsAnaMdajI rAkhyuM hatuM. te eka parvata para be guphAmAM Azrama calAvatA hatA. tyAM dhyAna zIkhavavAmAM Ave che ane tyAM navakAramaMtrano jApa karAvavAmAM Ave che. e guphAonA pavitra vAtAvaraNamAM muni be divasa rahyA. tyAMthI briTana gayA. tyAM cArlsa DArvinanA prapautrane maLyA. eNe kahyu ke, 'tame je vize amane kahevA mAgo cho emAM eka viSaya zAkAhAra che. tethI kahuM chuM ke mArA dAdAe jIvananA chellA varasomAM phakta zAkAhAra karyo hato. vacana ApuM chuM. huM paNa be varasa mATe prayatna karIza.' briTanamAM oksapharDa, kembrIja jevI vidyAnagaramAM ane yunika vidyApIThamAM pravacano ApI tyAMthI roma AvyA. romanA veTikana sITImAM popa pola sAthenI maitrI bharI mulAkAtamAM ahiMsA ja dharmano pAyo che e vAta upara carcA vicAraNA thaI. ane chelle munizrIe e vAta para bhAra mUkyo ke prANIdayA dharmapuSpanI suvAsa che. enAthI ja jagatamAM zAMti Avaze. prANIonA zrApa nahi AzIrvAda ja zAntino mArga che. teo cha aThavADiyA sudhI yuropano dharma pravAsa karIne pAchA kApI tI bharI mulakAi. avAra pharyA. 75 | zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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haMsAno saMdeza e zAzvata jJAna che teo AvyA ane comAsAnA cAra mahinA thANAnA upAzrayamAM rahyAM. thANAmAM bhaktoe emane premathI AvakAryA ane premathI rAkhyAM. thANAno upAzraya zAMta che. tyAM savAra sAMja thoDo TrAphIka hoya che. bIjA samayamAM akhaMDa zAMtino anubhava karI zakAya che. muninuM mana sthira ane zAMta hatuM. sthira ane zAMta pANInA taLiye zuM che e joI zakAya munine A comAsAnI RtumAM aMtaramAM DokIyuM karavAnI taka maLI. emaNe emanA bhUtakALanA jIvana para najara karI. emane lAgyuM ke, "jo dareka kALanA cokaThAne goThavuM, jo mArA jIvana ane kAryane eka sAthe jouM to ja huM pUrNa banuM chuM.' "emane lAgyuM ke me je kArya upADyuM che e kArya prati lagAva, e kArya prati kharA hRdayano sneha to pahelethI ja hato. mArA samagra astitvamAM enI hAjarI hatI. e hAjarI have kAryarata banI che." huM zAMti mATe kArya karIza. huM zAMtino saMdeza ApavA mATe janmyo chuM. havethI mAruM jIvana ane mAruM samagra astitva mAnavajAtanI zAMti mATe hovuM joIe, jyAM azAMti ke jhaghaDo hoya tyAMthI mAre dUra cAlyA javuM joIe.' athavA azAMtinI jagyAe zAMti sthApavI joIe. jhaghaDo hoya tyAM suleha karAvavI joIe. zAnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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muninA manamAM navA vicAro navuM kArya ane navI jIvana paddhati AkAra laI rahI hatI. e paddhatimAM have jambara zakti pedA thaI hatI. e zaktine lIdhe manamAM ane aMgomAM ghaNaghaNATI bolatI hatI. navuM karavAnI tamannA jAgI uThI hatI. teo vicAratA hatAM. 'vRkSa uge pachI ene vADanI jarUra hotI nathI. vADanuM baMdhana dUra thatAM ja eno vikAsa sarva dizAmAM thavA lAge che.' 'mAre vADa ThekavI joIe.' vaLI vicAra AvatA ke, "sAdhu jIvane mane zista zIkhavI che. sAdAI zIkhavI che. kaThora ane kaDaka sadAcAranA pATha zIkhavyA che ane dehadamana zIkhavyuM che. dhyAna dvArA meM mArA jIvanamAM DokiyuM karyuM che. jAtane jANI zakyo chuM." 'mane jIvamAtranA du:khe du:khI thavAnI mRdutA dharmamAMthI maLI sAdhu jIvana e mArI zALA hatI. e jIvana jIvIne mane zikSaNa maLyuM che.' sAdhu jIvana mArI vADa hatI. e vADanA sahAre me mAro vikAsa sAdhyo che.' have jo mAre vadhu vikAsa sAdhavo hoya, mane je kAMta darzana thaI rahyuM che ene bhUmi para avatAravuM hoya to bAhya baMdhanone tyAgavA joIe.' "koI niyamonI dIvAlo koI nAta, jAta, raMga ke dharma dvArA maLatA vyaktitvano mAre have tyAga karavo joIe.' mane have koI khAsa prakAranI oLakha nathI khapatI. mAre have mAnavajAtano phakta eka aMza banavuM che. mukta pravAsI banavuM "mAre mAruM jIvana samagra mAnava jAta mATe arpaNa karavuM zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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beIe.' munine eka krAMta darzana thatuM hatuM. jene manamAM sAcavI rAkhyuM hatuM. jyAre guDha darzanano pratyakSa paricaya thAya evuM lAgyuM tyAre teo yuropa javA taiyAra thayAM hatAM. mAnava mAtra sukha samRddhi Icche che. e maLe paNa che. sukha samRddhi sAthe mAnavI zAMti paNa Icche che. paNa zAMti kyAMya nathI. mAnavI rAgadveSathI gherAyo che. vairavRttine tyajI zakato nathI. hiMsAthI nakha kharaDAyelA che. tethI duniyAnA koIne koI khUNe yuddha ane khUnAmarakI cAlu rahe che. 'huM emane ahiMsAno prema saMdeza ApIza.' ahiMsAno saMdeza e sanAtana saMdeza che. e zAzvata jJAna che. A mahAmUlA jJAnane dezanI sImAonI pAra laI javAnI jarUra che. rahuM paMtha bhUlelAone paMtha batAvIza. hiMsAno mArga tyajavA kahIza. ahiMsA parama dharma che e samajAvIza.' emane vera ne badale premathI jIvatA zIkhavIza. A saMdeza emane navA mArganuM jJAna Apaze jIvana jIvavAnI anokhI rItanuM emane jJAna thaze. draDha nirNaya karI lIdho. paNa pharI khoTI dhAMdhala dhamAla na thAya, lokomAM virodhanA juvALa jAge, ane rAga, dveSa ane vera na vadhe e mATe potAnA nirNayano cUpacApa amala karavAnuM munie nakakI karyuM. je sthAna para hatA e sthAnano tyAga karavAnuM manamAM nakkI karI lIdhuM hatuM. emane je jarUrI hatuM teno tyAga karyo. teo phakta citrabhAnu banyA. citrabhAnu eka mAnavI hatA, mukta hatA, sarvasaMbaMdhathI para hatA. A samAcAra AphrikA pahocyAM. tyAM vasatA jIjJAsu jIvo 7. zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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lAMbA samayathI emane AphrikA bolAvatA hatA. anekavAra emaNe AgrahabhabharyA kaheNa mokalyAM hatAM ke Apa ahIM Avo. ahIM haMmeza mATe vasavATa karo. ane amArI AdhyAtmika jJAna pAmavAnI tRSAne zAMta karo. emane lAgyuM ke AphrikA javAno samaya pAkI gayo che. citrabhAnujIe hegamAM varlaDa vejITerIyana konpharansamAM bhAga levA ane mahAvIra saMdezane AphrikAmAM guMjato karavA hega javAnuM nakakI karyuM. have emanuM mana sAgaranI jema ghughavatuM hatuM. je bIja cha sAta varasathI manamAM phUTyuM hatuM e bIja vikAsa pAmavA mathatu hatuM. paNa citrabhAnue bIjano vikAsa na thAya e IcchatA hatA. e bIjane tyAM ja ropI rAkhavA mAgatA hatA. toya manocakSu sAme je dekhAtuM hatuM te spaSTa hatuM paNa ajJAta manamAM bhaMDArI dIdhuM hatuM. e bIja to dariyAnI joradAra bharatImAM taNAI gayuM hatuM. have to . bharatInA mojA uchaLI uchaLIne AkAze AMbavA mathatA hatA. koleja jIvanamAM uSA maLI hatI. e uSAne citAnA prakAzamAM saLagatI joI hatI. e prema prakAza rAkhanA DhagalArUpe joyo hato. hato. khobo bharIne prema Apavo hato. khobo bharIne prema pAmavo maLI hatI muThThIbhara snehanI bhasma. zuM bhasma pharI kadI premanuM rUpa laI zake? eno javAba che nA, eno javAba che hA. uSAnuM darzana thavAnuM na hatuM. pramodA zAha premarUpe avatarI hatI. e mAro prema hatI. ene joI tyArathI manamAM avanavI lAgaNIo jAgatI hatA. mananI sarva zakti viramI jatI, nAza pAmatI ane phakta prema zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 79

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zakti jIvaMta rahetI. e jJAna pAmavA AvI hatI. ene joI teja divase hRdayamAM toDaphoDa macI hatI. hRdamAM visphoTanA bhayaMkara bhaDAkA thatA hatA. Ire dhIre e snehanI lAgaNIe komaLatA ane madhuratA dhAraNa karI hatI. paNa e mRdu lAgaNI polAdI zakti dhAraNa karIne magajane chinna-bhinna karavA IcchatI hatI. e alaukIka, daivI lAgaNI vyakta karavA hRdaya pAMsaLInA baMdhano toDIne bahAra AvavA IcchatuM hatuM. je koleja jIvananI sakhIrUpe AvI hatI teja pramodA zAha rUpe AvI hatI. je prema koleja jIvanamAM anubhavyo hato ane je prema kudarate citAmAM saLagAvI dIdho hato e prema agnimAM tapIne vadhu paripakva thaIne zuddha thaIne hRdayane koI khUNe beTho hato. e pharIthI jAgRta thaI gayo hato. 'je karma bhogavavAnA che e karma choDavAnA nathI. karma bhogavyA sivAya chUTako nathI', pitAnA zabdo yAda AvatA hatA. 'mArA karma mane evA mArge laI jatA hatAM je anubhavAtIta hatA. rUDhIyonI pelI pAra, vADAo ane sImAo toDIne mArA karma mane mahAkhaMDanI ArapAra laI janAra nIvaDaze.' e karmane tAbe thavAnI IcchA thatI hatI. saMsAra choDayo hato. pharI saMsAra zA mATe zarU na thaI zake? kadAca A saMbaMdha janma janmAMtarano haze. e saMbaMdhano vikAsa haze. e saMbaMdha AnaMdadAyaka haze. vaLI bhoga bhogavAze, karma baMdhana tUTaze ane pharI AdhyAtmika paMthe prayANa karIza. saMsArI nahi, sAdhaka banIza. citrabhAnu daMbhI jIvana jIvavA IcchatA na hatA tethI ekavAra pramodA sahakuTuMba thANA maLavA gayA tyAre emaNe potAno manobhAva jaNAvyo. 80 zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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- - teNIe prathamavAra hRdaya kholyuM ane spaSTa jaNAvyuM ke je tame Aje kaho cho e lAgaNI huM chellA sAta varSathI anubhavI rahI chuM. enA hRdayamAM premamaya Adara hato paNa e lAgaNI chupAvI rAkhI hatI. e vyAkhyAnamAM Ave to chelle besatAM, kadI bolyAM na hatAM. paNa DivAIna noleja sosAyaTInuM megejhIna kADhavAmAM sahAya karatA hatAM. emane sarva cIjono svecchAe tyAga karavo hato. saMsAramAM rasa na hato. paNa baMne jaNAe maLIne jIvamAtranI sevA karavAnuM nakkI baMne AtmAnuM milana nakkI thayuM. ane citrabhAnu AphrikAnI saphare gayA. - - - ----- - - 1 | zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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je zuddha che te bIjAne zuddha banAve che 13 citrabhAnujI lagna ane prema vize vicAravA lAgyA. aMte nirNaya karyo ke lagna e to be hadayanuM joDANa che. pUrvajanmanA saMbaMdho ane praNayanA baMdhana no virAma che. ekabIjAnA sahayoga dvArA jIvanane urdhvagAmI banAvavAno hetu che. emanA lagna be snehIonI hAjarImAM pratiko dvArA karavAmAM AvyAM. prathama emaNe dIpa pragaTAvyo e jhaLahaLatI jyota sAme najara karIne emaNe nirNaya karyo ke ekabIjAnA jIvanamAM prakAza pAtharIzuM. jyoti zuddha che. je zuddha che te bIjAne zuddha banAve che. bIjI vidhimAM maghamaghato dhUpa mahekAvyo. dhumrasera saMdeza Ape che ke mArI jema urdhvagAmI bano. karma khapAvavA prayatna karo. vizva jIvanamAM sugaMdha phelAvaje. A kSaNe jevI suvAsa prasarI rahI che evI ja suvAsa tame tamArA karma dvArA phelAvaje. tyAra pachI lanI Apa le karI. phUla e suMdaratAnuM pratika che. phUle e komaLatAno avatAra che. phUla potAnA aMta sudhI maheke che. phUla saMdeza Ape che ke tame paNa suMdara ane komaLa banajo. tame tamArA karmavaDe bIjAnA jIvanamAM sukha zAMtinI sugaMdha phelAvajo. phUlanuM AdAnapradAna puruM thayAM pachI bhAla pradezamAM caMdananA tilaka karyA. A tilaka tamArI prajJAnI trIjI AMkha kholaze. tame baMnne DahApaNapUrvaka vartajo jethI tamAruM jIvana snehanA prakAzathI ujavaLa bano. 82 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM !

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- - chelle eka bIjAne hAra paherAvavAmAM AvyA. klanA hAra e ekatAnuM pratika che. dareka phUla aneruM che. te dorAnI sahAyathI eka bIjAnI sAthe rahe che. hAramAM jema phala sAthe rahe che ema be mana, be hadaya ane be AtmAe eka banIne sAthe rahevAnuM che. zrI. citrabhAnue bhAratIya AdhyAtmika saMskRtie svIkArelI pUrNa sAdAIthI thaI zake evA gAMdharva lagna karyA. kAraNa ke jhanUnI svabhAvanA thoDAM jUnavANI, rUDhicusta mAnavIono zuM pratibhAva Avaze te teo jANatA hatA. je samAja vezane ja behada mahattva Ape che ane jIvanabhara apramANika kArya kare che, sadAcArane jIvanamAMthI dezavaTo Ape che ane zubha kAryamAM mAnava sevAmAM paiso vAparato nathI e samAjano sabhya hovA chatAM huM judo chuM. mAruM vyaktitva huM mAnavasevA karIne pUrNa karIza. emaNe chaMcheDAyelA samAjane tarata samAcAra na ApyA. samaya vItaze tyAre ja potAnA pagalAMne svIkArI zakaze. pote pracalita praNAlikAmAM gharamULathI pheraphAra karI rahyA hatA. samAja praNAlikA bhaMga sahana karI zakaze nahiM, evI udAratAnI, e sahAnubhUtinI AzA daMbhI samAja pAse rAkhavI vyartha che. paNa jo huM zubha karmamAM racyopacyo rahIza to mAro jIvanapaMtha mArA prakAzathI ujajavaLa banaze.' je samAjathI eka DagaluM AgaLa vadhI jAya che tene loko vahelA ke moDA AvakAre che, sanmAne che. emaNe AphrikAnA judA judA dezamAM vyAkhyAno ApyAM hatAM. eno mukhya sUra maitrIbhAvanA hato. teo vyAkhyAnamAM kahetA, "Aje A duniyAne sauthI vadhu jarUra che mitratAnI, mitratA eTale ni:svArtha sneha. maitrI e evo saMbaMdha che ke jyAM zAMti ane saMtoSa maLe che. mitratA zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna drA citrabhAnuM

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eTale pUrNavizvAsa. be mitro kadI ekabIjAnI harIphAI karaze nahi. harIphAI rahita samAjamAM IrSA ane vera rahI zakatA nathI. citrabhAnujInA vyAkhyAnamAM kALA ane dhoLA mAnavIo AvatA hatA. teo kahetA, 'pazcima pAse sAdhana sagavaDatA che paNa jIvanano mArgadarzaka paMtha nathI. phakata bhautika sukha samRddhi manane zAMti ApI zakatuM nathI. pUrva pAse AdyAtmika vAraso che je saMtoSapUrvaka jIvatA zIkhavIne AtmAno vikAsa sAdhavA mArga batAve che. paNa pUrva pAse jIvananI prAthamika jarUriyAta pUrI karavAnA sAdhano nathI. jo pUrva ane pazcima eka banaze to baMne eka bIjAnA pUraka banaze. emaNe hegamAM vejITeriyana konpharansamAM hAjarI ApI hatI. emaNe hegamAM kahyu hatuM, 'jIvana jIvavA mATe khorAka jarUrI che. khorAka vinA deha Takato nathI. paNa jene urdhvagAmI jIvana mArge javuM che, AtmAno vikAsa karavo che emane zAkAhArI khorAka levo joIe. "je deha hiMsA karIne meLavela khorAkathI poSaNa pAme che enuM mana kadI ahiMsaka vicAronuM kendra banaze nahiM. lohI reDIne meLavela khorAka umadA vicAronuM saMgrahasthAna banI zake nahi. mAMsAhArI mAnavInuM mana tAmasI bane che." 'zAkAhArI khorAka lenAra mAnavI pUrNa taMdurastI prApta karI zake che." "vaLI kudarate mAnavIne bIjA jIvo karatAM ucca sthAne mukyA che, pATavI kuMvaranI pharaja che ke potAnA sau nAnA baMdhuonI sArasaMbhALa rAkhe tethI eNe jIvamAtranuM ane jemAM jIvana che e vanaspatinuM paNa rakSaNa karavuM joIe. 'potAnA khorAka mATe je mAnavI prANIne mAre che eja mAnavI dhana ke jamIna mATe khUna karatAM acakAto nathI, kAraNa ke lohI reDavAmAM ene duHkha thatuM nathI." - 84 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu |

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'hiMsA dvArA hiMsA vadhe che tethI hiMsAno tyAga karavo joIe.' hegamAM citrabhAnue kahyuM ke ApaNe thoDA mAnavIne zAkAhArI banAvI zakIzuM to ApaNI konpharansa saphaLa thaI gaNAze. samaya vItato gayo. citrabhAnu duniyA khUMdavA lAgyA hatA. jIvanamAM sAdAIno tyAga karyo na hato. sapheda kapaDAMno tyAga karyo na hato. navuM jIvana zarU thayuM hatuM. vaLI temane AdhyAtmika pariSadanuM AmaMtraNa AvyuM ane teo amerIkA gayA. A pariSadamAM dharmapurUSo, sAdhu saMto, yahUdI guruo ane potAnI jAtane zodhanAra mAnavIo hatA. A pariSada AtmajJAna meLavanAra mAnavIono meLo hato. bArabAra dharmanA dharmapremIo ahIM ekaThA thayA hatA. A pariSadamAM emaNe kahyuM : "eka bAgamAM ugelA aneka phUla e che dharma.' "khAtara eka, pANI eka ane ekaja bhUmimAM phUlo Uge che toya koI lAla raMganuM hoya che, koI pILuM, sapheda vagere raMganA hoya che. dareka phUlanI zobhA nirALI che. eka klanI khUbU bIjA karatAM caDhiyAtI che.' dareka sugaMdha mAnavIne masta banAve che.' dharma mAnavIne yogya mArga dekhADe che.' citrabhAnujInuM vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLIne paradezIo pUchatAM ke karma che zuM, punarjanma che ke nahi ane mukti kevI rIte maLe?' teo A paradezIonA mananuM samAdhAna thAya e rIte emaNe samajAvatA. ahIMthI pramodA zAha zikAgo gayA. ahIM be pAMca jhanUnIoe emanI para esiDa balba pheMkavAno prayatna karyo hato tethI teo cUpakIdIthI cikAgo pahoMcI gayA. ahIM citrabhAnujI rAha jotAM ka pa ma ra - - - zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu 85

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hatAM. cAreka mahinA pachInuM e madhura milana hatuM. A cAra mahinAmAM AMtara ane bAhya pheraphAra thayA hatA. jIvana sthira banyuM hatuM. ane pramodA mAtRpada pAmyA. rAjIvano janma thayo. jANe eka svapna phaLyuM. have amerIkAmAM teo eka amerIkana sajjanane tyAM rahevA lAgyA ane dharmapracAra karavA lAgyA. ahIM prANAyAma zIkhavatAM, jaina yoga bhaNAvatA ane jaina tatvajJAnanuM bhAthu emanA ziSyone ApatAM hatA. tyAre bhAratamAMthI emane AmaMtraNa AvyuM. bhAratamAM copATI para sarvadharmanA dharmapurUSo ekaThA thaIne vizALa relIne saMbodhavAnA hatA. e sabhAnuM pramukhapada svIkAravA citrabhAnu para saMdeza Avyo hato. citrabhAnujIe DivAIna noleja sosAyaTIne jaNAvyuM ke mAro paradeza AvavAno hetu, mAruM kArya mArI najare ane mArI bhAvanAne AdhAre mUlavo pachI mane teDAvajo. huM AvIza. paNa emaNe jANyuM ke pote bhArata choDavA taiyAra thayA tyAre je virodha hato te zAMta thaI gayo che. ugra virodhIo paNa kUNA paDI gayA che. emanA pravAse vizvamAM navI ahiMsAnI bhAvanA jagADI. 86 zAnnipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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vItelI kSaNa kadI AvatI nathI 14 dasa varSa sudhI eka dhAryA ahiMsAnA pracAra ane pravAsanI pravRtti vadhI jatAM, citrabhAnujIe senDIegonA sAgara kinAre eka mahino saMpUrNa nivRtti lIdhI. A upAsanA hatI svamAM ramavAnI veLA hatI. citrabhAnujI savAra-sAMja kalAko sudhI sAgaranI ceta retI para cAlyA jatA. vizALa sAgara taraMgono nAda sAMbhaLatA ane maunanI mastI mANatA. zAnta vAtAvaraNa hatuM. nirmaLa nIra hatAM, nisarganuM saundarya hatuM A manohara prakRtimAM emanuM citta prasannatAthI khIlI uThyuM. maunathI vANI zuddha thaI. saMyamanA tapathI Indriyo nirmaLa thaI. dhyAnathI citta ujjavaLa thayu. koI navI ja anUbhUti thaI. tanamananI svasthatA sAthe e pAchA nyuyorka AvyA. citrabhAnujIe eka navo nirNaya karyo ane e nirNaya jAhera paNa karyo ke, have huM eka dharma, eka jJAti, eka prAMta ke eka dezano vatanI nathI.' huM duniyAno mukta musAphara chuM ane vizva e mAruM ghara che.' ane mArA gharamAM je jJAna mane maLyuM che, je dharma gaLathuthImAM meM gaLe UtAryo che e jainadharmamAM je sanAtana satyo che ene duniyAmAM huM vahetA mUkanAra mAnavI chuM.' mAre ahiMsAno saMdeza brahmAMDamAM pahoMcADavo che.' citrabhAnujIe copATI para bharanArI sarvadharma sabhAnuM prabhukhapada svIkAryuM ane bhArata AvyA. ahIM vyAkhyAna ApyuM : aneka zubhecchakone maLyA ane teo nyuyorka pahoMcI gayA. have emaNe nyuyorkamAM vasavATa zarU karyo hato. zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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teo roja vahelI savAre pharavA nIkaLatA. teo navaprabhAtane harSabhera AvakAratA, uSAne vadhAvatA ane prabhAtanA komaLa prakAzane teo mAnathI jotA hatAM. temane vicAra Avato, 'jIvana e camatkAra che. rAte ghasaghasATa UMghI javuM ane savAre praphulla mane jAgRta thavuM e camatkAra che." suSupti ane jAgRti e abhUta anero anubhava che. 'A kSaNe huM jAgRta chuM. A kSaNa mArA mATe suvarNamudrA che. A kSaNa vItaze. vItelI kSaNa pharI kadI AvatI nathI. kSaNamAtra amUlya che tethI huM pramAda karIza nahi.' 'mAre bhUtakALa nathI.' vartamAnamAM huM jIvuM chuM. mAre vartamAnano upayoga karavo che. kaLAkAra jema AMgaLio vaDe kalAne ghATa Ape che ema mAre sukhazAMti IcchatI mAnavajAtane ghATa ApavAno che.' vartamAna bhaviSyane janma Ape che paNa bhaviSya mAruM nathI.' 'A kSaNa sarakI jAya tyAM sudhI mArI che. Ajano divasa raLiyAmaNo che." e divasanI kSaNa kSaNano mAre upayoga karavAno che. sthira pagathI cAlavAnuM che. mana makakama banAvavAnuM che. have A bhUmi mAruM pleTaphorma che, maMca che. e maMca parathI huM satata satya ane ahiMsAnA sanAtana mUlyo vize kahIza." nyoyorkamAM teo dhyAna dharatA zIkhavatAM. jaina yoga vize jJAna ApatAM. emanI pravRttio joIne ekavAra nyuyorka TAImsa lakhyuM hatuM. 'te zraddhAnA dvAra kholIne svaccha havAne hRdayamAM dAkhala karI de che.' nyuyorkamAM emanI pravRttino vikAsa thaI rahyo hato. teo roja vyAkhyAna ApatA hatA. paradezIone jIvamAtra tarapha Adara rAkhavAnuM kahetA hatA. judA judA maMDaLo ane duniyAnA judA judA dharmasthAnakomAM citrabhAnu vyAkhyAna ApavA jatA hatA. nyuyorka yunivarsiTImAM pUrvanI zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnuM

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saMskRti, dharma ane dharmanuM jIvanamAM sthAna vize abhyAsa karAvavAno hato. - potAnI pravRttino vyApa vadhAravA emaNe ghare ghare jaIne vyAkhyAno ApavAnuM zarU karyuM. jenA ghare vyAkhyAna hoya enA ghare e bIjA snehI, saMbaMdhIone bolAvatA ane phakta zAkAhArI bhojana saune jamavA maLatuM. emanA saMbaMdho vadhatA gayA. aneka paradezIo sAthe gADha saMparkanI sthApanA thaI. e sau jaina dharmamAM UMDo rasa levA lAgyA. tethI emaNe eka saMsthAnI zarUAta karI jemAM jaina tatvajJAnanuM jJAna ApavAnuM zarU karyuM. ahIM aThavADiyAmAM traNa ke cAra vyAkhyAna goThavavAmAM AvatAM hatA. jIjJAsuonI saMkhyA vadhatI gaI. bIjA ziSyo paNa dhyAna keMdra calAvavA lAgyA. A rIte jaina meDiTezana InTaranezanala senTaranI zarUAta thaI. A dhyAna seMTara paradezIo mATe AkarSaNanA kendra banI rahyA hatA. jIvanamAM pahelIvAra A kendra emane emanA aMtaramAM DokiyuM karatAM zIkhavatAM hatAM. potAnI jAtane oLakhavAnI taka ahIM maLatI hatI. ane bhautika sukhamAMthI je zAMti gorA mAnavIo meLavI zakyA na hatAM e akhaMDa zAMtino anubhava dhyAna vaDe maLato hato. dhyAnamagna ziSya bhUtakALane bhUlI jato hato. jene bhaviSyano Dara lAgato hato te e Daramukta banato hato e vartamAnamAM AnaMdavibhora banI jato hato. ahIM jIvanano marma jANavAnI emanA mATe taka hatI. A kendramAM AvIne anekanA jIvanamAM parivartana thayuM hatuM tethI e kendranI kIrti phelAvA lAgI jethI amerikAmAM aneka prAMtomAM citrabhAnunA vyAkhyAno goThavAvA lAgyA. teo kahetAM, duHkha dUra karavAnuM kSaNa mAtramAM zakya nathI. nadI kinArAno paththara jema dhIre dhIre ghasAIne suMvALo bane che ema dhyAna vaDe dhIre dhIre sarva du:khanI smRti dUra thaI jAya che ane phakta sukhano ja anubhava thAya che." zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna drA citrabhAnu 89

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nAna dhyAna kendra eTale vedanAnI jagyAe AnaMdanuM Agamana. aparigraha vize zIkhavIne manane dareka sthitimAM zAMta rAkhI zakAya evuM jJAna ApavAmAM AvatuM hatuM.' dhIre dhIre amerikAmAM ghaNA dhyAna kendronI sthApanA thaI. paradezIo jaina dharmanA maMtro bolavA lAgyA. emano dharmarasa joIne citrabhAnue emane bhAratanA tIrthadhAmonI jAtrA karAvavAnuM nakkI karyuM. teo dara varase thoDA paradezIone laIne tIrthadhAmamAM jAya che tyAre paradezIo eka avAje kahe che, "A zatruMjaya parvata para Avela maMdironuM pavitra nagara, AbunA delavADAnAM derAsaranA darzana ke rANakapuranA maMdirane jotAM ja ame koI anahada AnaMdAnubhUtimAM garaka thaI jaIe chIe." evI AnaMdAnubhUti pazcimamAM kadI maLavI zakya na hatI.' ekavAra Abu parvata para eka mAnavIe nirdoSatAthI prazna karyo, 'tame zA mATe paradeza gayA hatAM?' 'paradezIone ahIM ghare lAvavA mATe.' uttara sAMbhaLIne pelo mAnavI khuza thaI gayo hato. dhyAna kendrano vyApa vadhato gayo tyAre emAM zAkAhAra vize paNa jJAna ApavAnuM zarU karyuM ane zAkAhArano pracAra zarU karyo. ene lIdhe judA judA dezomAM aneka lokoe zAkAhAra zarU karyo che. citrabhAnuM kahe che, "duniyAmAM kadI na hatI eTalI snehanI, mitratAnI ane dharmanI jarUrata che. ApaNe duniyAne premano saMdeza ApavAno che ke dveSano e ApaNe nakkI karavAnuM che.' 'ApaNe zAMti joIe che ke yuddha e ApaNe vicAravAnuM che.' 'jo yuddhathI bacavuM haze, verano tyAga karavo haze to ApaNe jIvamAtrano Adara karatAM zIkhavuM paDaze.' phakta ahiMsA dvArA ja A duniyAne sukhazAMtinA mArge laI jaI zakAze' (saMpUrNa) 90 zAntipathano yAtrI : svapna draSTA citrabhAnu

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