Aatmsamvedan

Author(s): Bhadraguptasuri
Publisher: Vishvakalyan Prakashan Trust Mehsana
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/004554/1

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L prakAzaka zrI vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTa mAjApIra roDa, mahesANA. [gujarAta] D mUlya rUA. dasa D. te prathama AvRtti : nakala : be hajAra ] dvitIya AvRtti : nakala : traNa hajAra ] T vi. saM. 2039, aSADa suda : 6 : zukavAra D mudraka [ kezavajI hIrajI gAgarI harSA prinTarI, 122, DaeN. maizerI roDa, muMbaI - 400 009. Jain Education For Private Personal use only

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nivedana zrI vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTanI sthApanA pachInAM varSomAM * mananu dhana , ' AMtaranAda' ane 'citta prasannatA ? nAmanI pokeTa buka prakAzita thaI hatI. aneka AvRttio prakAzita thaI hatI. tyAra pachI vi. saM. 2033 mAM A traNe pustikAonuM vibhAgavAra saMkalana karavAmAM AvyuM ane * AtmasaMvedana' nAme pustaka prakAzita thayuM. chellAM cAra varSathI A pustaka aprApya hatuM ane enuM punaHmudraNa jarUrI hatuM tethI A bIjI AvRtti prakAzita karavAmAM AvI che. - pUjya gurudevazrInA maulika ciMtananA A aNu mAla thALa che. jaina ho ke jainetara ho, sahunAM cittane zAnti, AnaMda ane prasannatAthI bharI denArUM A ciMtanapUrNa sAhitya che. suMdara-kalAtmaka chApakAma karI ApanArA harSA prInTarInA mAlika zrI kezavajIbhAI, aMgata lAgaNIthI prerAIne amArAM TrasTanAM bIjA paNa pustakonuM kALajIpUrvaka chApakAma karI rahyA che, emane kema bhUlI zakAya ? sahu keAI A pustakanA vAMcana-mananathI jIvanamAM zAnti anubhave ane divyadRSTi prApta kare e ja zubha kAmanA. mahesANA : jeTha suda : 1 vi. saM. 2039 jayakumAra bI. parIkha menejIMga TrasTI zrI vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTa im Fare Only

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| sAcuM zaraNa : tamArA jIvanamAM zuM kayAreya koI muMjhavaNa nathI AvI ? Apatti nathI AvI ? tame tamArI muMjhavaNa ke Apattine dUra karavA svayaM asamartha banyA tyAre tame konI pAse gayA ? kenuM zaraNa lIdhuM ? - zuM tame kayAre ya duHkha ApattinI muMjhavaNamAM jinezvaradevanuM zaraNa lIdhuM ? tamArA hRdayamAM zuM e daDha nizcaya-zraddhA che ke zrI jinezvara bhagavaMta ja A jagatamAM sAcuM zaraNa che? emanA sivAya A jagatamAM kaI sAcuM zaraNa ApI zakanAra nathI ? bhAgyavaMta ! bhUlA na bhame. ka9pavRkSane tyajIne bAvaLanA zaraNe javAnI bhUkhatA na karo. nirNaya karo: parama kRpALu paramAtmA sivAya huM koInuM ya zaraNa lenAra nathI.... e ja zaraNa che.... ? huM zaraNAgata ! arihaMte saraNaM pavajjAmi siddhe. saraNaM pavajjAmi sAhU saraNaM pavajjAmi kevalipannataM dhamma saraNaM pavajjAmi // roja prabhAte ane rAtre sutI vakhate A pramANe zaraNa svIkAranI pratijJA kareH "huM paramAtmAno zaraNAgata chuM. " A bhAva paramAtmA pratye daDha anurAga janmAvaze. pachI saMsAranA rAga moLA paDI jaze. jema jema paramAtmA pratye rAga vadhato jaze tema tema viSayasukhamAMthI rAga nivRtta thavA lAgaze A janma jarA mRtyuthI bhayaMkara saMsAramAM paramAtmA sivAya ApaNA AtmAne keNa bacAvI zakanAra che? e ja zaraNa che. e ja tAraka.... e ja bAdhaka.... Atmasa vedana

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he parama pitA....parama kRpAnAtha ! anAdi kALathI saMsAramAM rakhaDate rakhaDate huM ApanA dvAre Avyo chuM. nAtha ! mArA para eka daSTi karo....premanI.... karuNAnI, mArA deva ! huM ApanuM zaraNa aMgIkAra karuM chuM. ApanA caraNe. mArU sarvasva arpaNa karI dauM chuM.... Apa mArI rakSA karo.... ' have mAre ApanuM ja zaraNa che....ApanA sivAya, Apane choDIne huM kayAMya javAno nathI.... mArA AtmAnI tamAma javAbadArI huM Apane soMpuM chuM.... - Apa kaho....mArA svAmI...! have huM zuM karuM ! Apa je kaho te karavA taiyAra chuM. | mArI makhatA... he anaMtajJAnI nAtha ! e Aja dina sudhI meM mArI icchAone pUrNa karavA ApanI pAse prAthanA karI ? kevI mArI mUkhatA.. - mArI IcchA mArA hitamAM che ke ahitamAM enuM te mane bhAna nathI.... huM ajJAnI chuM.... ane mArI IcchAne tAbe thavA meM Apane AjhaDa karyo..... | nAtha ! mArI A bhUlanI kSamA Apaje. he kRpAnidhi, Apa anaMtajJAnI che....mArU hitAhita Apa jANo che. jemAM mArUM hita hoya, emAM ja mAro viniga karI dejo ! je padAtha nA saMcAga mArA ahitamAM hoya, tene mArAthI vicAga karajo ! bhale pachI emAM huM raDuM ke game te karUM. he hRdayeza ! meM mArI koI IcchA rAkhI nathI...rAkhavI paNa nathI....meM mAruM saMpUrNa samarpaNa ApanA caraNe kayu che. AtmasaMvedana For Private Personale library.org

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darzana Ape ? he vAtsalyanidhi vItarAgadeva ! mAre ApanuM dhyAna dharavuM joie, e vAta sAcI paraMtu huM ApanuM dhyAna kevI rIte dharUM ? ApanuM smaraNa kevI rIte karuM? ekavAra paNa anubhavamAM AvelA AtmanuM smaraNa thaI zake.... ApanuM dhyAna kevI rIte dharU ? nAtha ! ekavAra darzana Apo ! pachI je huM Apane bhUlI jAuM, te Apa mane zikSA karaje. devanAM rUpa karatAM paNa Apanu rUpa anataguNa che ! evuM rUpa joyA pachI jarUra huM jagatane bhUlI jaIza. Apa kadAca kaheze " mArI mUrtinuM dhyAna dhara.' paNa kevI rIte karavuM dhyAna ? kAraNa ke mUtinA raudaya karatAM jagatamAM bIjA saudaya caDhIyAtA che ! huM ApanA zaraNe AveluM chuM....Apa dazana Ape... dayA karo ! karUNA kara ! mArA AtmAne uddhAra kare ! mArA AtmAne pavitra banAve ! mArI to ApanA pAse eka ja prArthanA che. " Apa mane darzana Ape, ekavAra dazana Ape." Atmasa vedana

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prahAra kara ! : huM hRdayezvara ! jo tAre maLavuM ja na hAya te tuM Aje ja mane kahI de ke hu tane nahi maLI zakuM...... kAraNa ke tu nahi maLe enI zaMkA sadaiva mane satAvyA kare che. jagata mArI zaMkAne daDha kare che. " varSAthI ame enI pAchaLa bhamIe chIe. e nathI maLye te tane kayAMthI maLaze ?" paNa chatAM ya "kadAca tuM maLI jAya te ?" evI sabhAvanAne hRdayamAM saMgharIne huM tane zeAdhI rahyo chuM. zeAdhavAmAM mane AnaMda Ave che. paraMtu tu ema kahI de " huM tane nahiM maLuM" tArA e prahAranI vedanAne sahuvAmAM mane ati AnaMdaeN thaze. tArA prahAra paNa tuM maLyA jeTaleA ja harSa Apaze. prema na Ape to bhale prahAra kara....mArA nAtha! kahI de.... " huM tane nahi maLuM. " parizeAdha : mArA maneAnAtha! meM tane ana Mta AkAzanA kaiDI vinAnA pradezamAM zeAdhyA... gADha timirathI AvRtta giriguphAomAM tArI zeAdha karI.... gaganacuMkhI ma MdirAnA dhUpathI maghamaghAyamAna vAtAvarNamAM tane jovA prayatna karyAM.... girInadI sAgara...kayAMya na maLyeA. huM pAchA vaLyeA, aMdhAruM thai gayuM hatuM. gAvALAnI vAMsaLInA sUro sabhaLAtA khaMdha thai gayA hatA. vihaMgamAnuM AkAzauDDayana paNa thaMbhI gayuM hatuM. me' mArI nAnakaDI kATaDInAM dvArA khAlyAM. divAsaLIthI me nAnaDA.... AMkhA dvIpaka peTAjyeA. mArI dRSTi kATaDInA khUNAmAM paDI, eha..... mArA nAtha tame ahIM ? tamane joi huM kheAlI na zakayA.... me tamane eLakhyA! tamArI sAthe khelavAnA zabdo na jaDayA" huM stabdha banIne joI ja rahyo... Atmasa vedana 5 www.jainellbrary.org

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eka Acamana : he kRpAsAgara devAdhideva ! mArA hRdayamaMdiramAM meM ApanI pratiSThA karI che. paraMtu.... mAruM maMdira pavitra rAkhI zakato nathI.... emAM kacarAnA Dhaga jAmI gayA che... pUjananI sAmagrI veraNacheraNa thaI gaI che. chatAM ca mAre ApanuM pUjana karavuM che. pUjana mATe huM usuka chuM. prabhAtane ghaMTArava, dhUpanA maghamaghATa....dIpakano jhaLahaLATa mane ApanI pAse kheMcI lAve che.... | he mUMjhAI gayeA chuM. Apa mArA prasanna na bane to ? nArAja banI jAe te ? e kapanA mane dhrujAvI mUke che.... huM... mAruM mana beheza banI jAya che. kRpAnAtha ! e Apa mArI azakitane kSamA Apajo. mane....mArA haiyAmAM ApanA pratye pUNa prema che. bhakita che.... huM ApanI sevA nathI karI zakate...Apa mArA pAsethI jeTalI apekSA rAkhe che, te huM pUrNa karI zakatA nathI. A Apa nArAja na thaze. kRpA jhaMkhatA bALane ApanA kRpA-saravaramAMthI ekAda Acamana karavA deze ? Atmasa vedana

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be mAga : he parama pitA ! tArI pAse AvavAnA che anata mAge AlekhyA che... evI ja rIte, te mA jevA bIjA bhrAmaka mAge mAyAe mUkelA che.. huM muMjhAyA chuM, zuM huM tArA ja mAge cAlu chu ? te mAga mane tAro sudhI pahoMcaoNDaze ? mArU mana vizvAsa dhAraNa karatuM nathI.... | aMdhAruM thayuM che. dIpa jhAMkhe che.... tArA nagaranAM nAmanizAna dekhAtA nathI....eka aMdha manuSya jema cAle.... mArI tevI dazA che....nAtha, tArA anaMta rahasyAthI bharelA zabdone huM mArI sthaLa buddhithI samajavA prayatna karuM chuM.... eTaluM ja nahi, temAM Agraha sevuM chuM.... ane ene ja sAce mAga samajavA-samajAvavA prayatna karuM chuM....mArI A pravRtti gatAnugatika che.... | tu ja cAhaje ! mArA deva ! e zAstrakAre mane kahyuM ke tuM badhAne jue che. paNa badhA tane joI zakatA nathI. tAre ATalA badhA chupA rahevAnI zI jarUra che ? je tane cAhe che tenAthI paNa te chupe kema rahe che ? tuM anaMta samRddhizALI che. pachI tane Dara zAnA che ? tAre premI tArI pAse je mAge te tuM ApI zake ema che ! tuM pragaTa thA. | paraMtu huM tane AvI prArthanA karuM chuM tyAre cAgI. puruSa mane kahe che "Izvara mArI sAme pragaTa che." - te pachI tane je priya che, tene tuM darzana Ape che, emane ? tane je cAhe che tene tuM adhira banAve che kharuM ne ? te pachI tane huM nahi cAhuM' ! tuM ja mane cAhaje, huM tane joI zakatA nathI, tuM mane joI rahyo che.... brusa maiAre mana e ja ghaNu" che. Atmasa vedana For Private & Personal use only

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paramAtmAnI prApti : koI vAra ati tRSAmAM pANI vinA guMgaLAmaNa anubhavI che? kaI vAra ati tApamAM pavana vinA zuM gaLAmaNa anubhavI che? koI vAra ati sudhAmAM AhAra vinA tIvra guMgaLAmaNa anubhavI che ? paramAtmatatva vinA... paramAtmatatvanI prApti vinA... ApaNane tIvra becenIne anubhava che ? jyAre ApaNe paramAtmatatva vinA kSaNavAra paNa sukhacena nahi anubhavIe tyAre a9pa kSaNomAM ja ApaNane paramAtmatatvanI prApti thaze. | paramAtmatatvanI prAti sivAya jyAre ApaNane keAI ja jhaMkhanA nahi rahe tyAre ApaNe paramAtmatatvanI prAptinA sakhata purUSAtha" karI zakIzuM. prIti : he deva ! kRpAnAtha ! huM ApanI sAthe prItine saMbaMdha bAMdhI zakuM, eno koI upAya mane batAve ! vizva sAthenI sevAdhika prItithI virakta banavuM che... te dhanya divasa jevA huM cAhuM chuM ! huM jANuM chuM Apa vizvathI para che. huM jyAM sudhI vizvathI para na banuM tyAM sudhI mArI ApanI sAthe saMbaMdha thaI zake nahIM, jagatanI prItimAM phasAyelAne mukta karo ! e kAma ApatuM nathI ? - mArA para prIti karanArane huM cAhuM chuM. e mane cAhavAnA DALa kare che...huM enI kapaTalIlA jANI zaktA nathI.. huM ene mArU hadaya ApI dauM chuM....mArA hadayanA TukaDA thaI jAya che. - mArA hRdayeza ! prANeza ! mArI AvI karUNa sthiti Apa juo cho....jANe che....chatAM mArI upekSA kema karo cho? Apa mArA para kAmaNa kare...huM Apane banI jAuM !.... huM Apane ja jauM....ApanA sivAya mane kaMI ja na dekhAya ! Atmasa vedana

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premanuM rahasya : he jagadagurU ! teNe ApanA caraNe sarvasva dharI dIdhuM che ! chatAM e kahe cheH me kaI ja apa"Na nathI kayuM' ! tyAre te huM tene samajI na zakyA paraMtu Aje mane samajAyuM ke premanI parAkASThAmAM manuSya sarvasva ApI de che, chatAM mAne che ke meM kaMi ja ApyuM nathI. jayAre premanI bhUmikA para haju jeNe paga paNa nathI mUko, te thoDuka kaMi Ape che ane mAne che ke " meM ghaNuM-ghaNuM ApyuM !" nAtha ! ApanA premanuM rahasya mane samajAyuM ... ApathI jayAre prema baMdhAya che, tyAre mAruM kaMi rahetuM nathI ! sarvasva ApanuM ja banI jAya che ! pachI " meM ApyuM ??...AvuM abhimAna Ave ja kyAMthI ? have mAre ApanI pAse yAcanA karavAnI rahetI nathI...kAraNa ke huM ja ApanA banI gayA chuM ! | samarpaNa : he karuNAsiMdhu ! mArI pAse je kaMI che e ApanuM ApeluM dAna che.... enA para meM mArAnuM lebala mArIne Apane droha karyo che.... mArA pAsenI pratyeka cIja para Apane adhikAra che. ene upaga ApanI IcchAnusAra karavA mATe huM baMdhAyelo chuM. ApanI IcchA savasva laI levAnI hoya te paNa kaho, huM e ApanA caraNe dharavA taiyAra chuM. ApanuM che ane Apane ApavAnuM che... temAM mAre lAMbA vicAra za karavAnA? mane vizvAsa che ke huM sukhI thAuM te ja Ape icacheluM haze. Atmasa vedana Jan Education international For Five person USE O

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huM zuM Apu ? trilokanAtha ! | huM ApanA dvAre yAcanA mATe khaDA chuM. huM ApanI pAse yAcanA karuM chuM....kAraNa ke huM bhavanI galIomAM rakhaDatA bhikhArI chuM. huM yAcanA karU temAM khATuM nathI....paraMtu A to Azcaya ! Apa mArI pAse yAcanA karo cho ? - " mikSa di'' nAtha huM to bhikhArI chuM.... * mikSa di ?" mArI pAse kaMI nathI.... "mikSAM di " huM muMjhAuM....chuM... Apane zuM ApuM? bhikhArInA mAMgaNe bhIkha mAMgavAnI hoya ? mane zaramAve nA. huM yAcanA karUM temAM huM zaramAtuM nathI....Apa jyAre yAcanA kare che.... tyAre zaramathI huM marI paDuM chuM. | "mikSa reTiM" meM ApavA mATe mArA gharamAM zodhavA mAMDayuM....eka TUkaDA maLe....premane....bhakitane ! Atmasa vedana. , www.jainelibrary.corg

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huM Aje sanAtha : tamAre azubha vicArothI mukita meLavavI che? cittamAM apUrva adhyavasAyanI prApti karavI che? te tame parama kRpALu jinezvara bhagavaMtanA zaraNane svIkAro. bhagavaMtanuM zaraNa svIkAravuM eTale emanI ApaNA mATenI AjJAnuM pAlana karavA baMdhAI javuM. ' mArA nAtha....mArU rakSaNa karanAra tribhuvananAtha che. huM nirbhaya chuM. pApa vicAro....pApa karmo mArU ahita karI zakavA samartha nathI. huM Aje sanAtha banyo chuM." | basa, jyAM koI kAdhano, mAnano ane lAbhanA vicAra manamAM ghusavA Ave ke bhagavaMtanA nAmanuM smaraNa karavuM. AMkha baMdha karIne emanA dehane smRtimAM lAvavA. pelA duSTa vicAre bhAgyA samaje ! * jarAya dInatA na kare, ApaNA mAthe traNa jagatanA nAtha che, ApaNe kai vAtanI kamInA nathI...badhuM ja ApaNane maLI gayuM che.... Amasa vedana Jain Education international For Private Personal use only

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tane joI rahela che! anaMta anaMta siddha bhagavaMto tane pratisamaya joI rahyA che, e dhyAna rAkhe che ? e tArI sAme jue che ane tuM jagatanI sAme jue che! kevI gaMbhIra bhUla thaI rahI che! zrI sima'dharasvAmI vigere vicaratA titha kara bhagavate tane joI rahyA che, e vicAra paNa tane Ave che? jagatanI sAme jovAnuM meAkupha rAkha bhAi, ane tane joi rahela paramAtmatatvanI sAme jo! enI sAthe sabaMdha joDa. e sabadha joDavAthI tArAmAM aciMtya zakita jAgrata thaze...ane zaktie dvArA tu abhedabhAve e paramAtmatatvamAM lIna thaI jaIza. 5 sAcI sagAI : arihaMta paramAtmAnI aciMtya zakitanA lAbha meLavavA mATe ApaNe paramAtmA sAthe kAi sAcI sagAi AMdhavI joie. ApaNI sthULa buddhinA vicAro mujaba emaNe anusaravu joie tevA Agraha cheADI devA joie. e anaMta jJAnI che. anaMta zaktizALI che, ApaNI tamAma muzkelIthI teo jJAta che. ApaNe bahu utAvaLA thavAnI jarUra nathI. te je karaze te ceAgya ja karaze. evI zraddhAthI emanI upAsanAmAM lAgI javuM joie. 1ra Atmasa vedana

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- tamane e joI rahyA che : tame e parama pitA tarapha te dRSTi karo....e paramakRpALu sadaiva tamane joI rahyA che....tame emanA tarapha nathI jotA ! tame te emanI tarapha jaI rahyA che ke je tamArI tarapha javA taiyAra nathI ! e karuNAnA sAgara....anaMta zakitanidhAna paramAtmA tamane pratisamaya joI rahyA che, pachI tamane duHkha zAnuM ? azAnti zAnI ? je bALaka mAtAnI daSTimAM che, te bALaka jANe che ke mArI mAtA mane joI rahI che, pachI du:kha nathI anubhavatuM. tame e parama pitA tarapha dRSTi karo... ene jovA mATe dRSTine sUma banAve. ene jovA bAhya jagatanA jhagamagATamAMthI mukata thAo. AMkha baMdha karIne sthira bane....pachI e paramapitAnuM nAma laine pAkAra karo, jyAM sudhI enAM darzana na thAya tyAM sudhI pokAra cAlu rAkho. adhIra na bane. eka vakhata darzana thayA pachI kayAreya e tamane choDI jaze nahi. Atmasa vedana Jain Education international

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sAdhanAnI cAvI : tAre je sAdhanA karavI che, te tArUM citta svaccha ane svastha joie. kAraNa ke sAdhanAnA kendrasthAne paramAtmatatva che. e paramAtmatatvanuM pratibiMba ApaNA cittamAM paDe, tyAre ja sAdhanAnA mAge gati thaI zake. | malina ane asvastha cittamAM e paramAtma-tatvanuM pratibiMba kevuM paDaze ? DahoLAyelA pANImAM tamArUM meTuM jarA juo to ! | e cittanuM svasthapaNu lAvavA mATe paramAtmatatva para zaMkA vinAnI zraddhA sthApita karavI paDaze. zraddhA vagara cittasvasthatA prApta thaI zakatI ja nathI ! nA tuM sAdhaka ! tArA hRdayamAM paramAtma-prIti jAgI nathI. paramAtmAnA sAnidhyamAM kalAkonA kalAke vyatita karavAnuM tane gamatuM nathI. thoDIka kSaNe tu' vyatita kare che temAM paNa tAru citta paramAtmA pratye anurAgI banatuM nathI. tuM kaI jAtanA sAdhaka ? tuM zAnI sAdhanA karI rahyo che? gatAnugatika sAdhanA karIne tuM sAdhaka kahevarAve che ? tArA jevA sAdhakonA ToLA bhegA rahe che mATe sAdhaka kahevarAve che ? - paramAtmAne joine tArA haiyAmAM AnaMda thAya che? e AnaMdanI dhArA cAle che? nA. ane ema ja varSo vitAvI rahyo che ! aMtarAtmAnA AnaMdanI anubhUti vinA tuM kevI rIte jagata samakSa sAdhutAno dekhAva kare che ? e viSayenA upabhegano AnaMda, mananI keTalIka dhAraNAenI siddhine AnaMda tuccha che. tAre te AMtaraguNAnI prAptine AnaMda anubhavavAno che. Atmasa vedana

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madhu paramAtmAnuM ! tamArI pAse je kaMI che te tamArUM nathI, evo nirNaya tamArA haiyAmAM thaI jaze pachI evo vicAra dRDha karajo ke " mArI pAse je kaMi che, te badhuM mArA paramAtmAnuM che.... enA upara paramAtmAne adhikAra che.' - ane kharekhara, je vicArazo to tamane samajAze ke tamArI pAse je kaMI sAruM che, te badhuM ja paramAtmAnI kRpAthI tamane maLyuM che. A vicAra jema jema daDha banatA jaze, tema tema saMpattinA upaga tame paramAtmAe batAvelA mAge" vinA sa koce karavAnA. eka bAju tame saMpatti parathI tamAro adhikAra uThAvI lIdhA ane bIjI bAju saMpatti para paramAtmAno adhikAra sthApita karI dIdhA. pachI paramAtmAe batAvelA mAge e saMpattino vyaya karatAM tamane saMkoca thavAno ? " mArI pAse je kaMi che te badhuM ja paramAtmAnuM che...? Atmasa vedana Jain Education international For Private Personal use only

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kRpA je kaMI maLyu' che temAM evA meAhita na thaI jAva ke jethI, jenI kRpAthI maLyuM che tene bhUlI javAya. evA savanA tyAga karI devA joIe ke jemAM Asakata thavAthI kRpALune bhUlI javAnuM khanatuM hAya. sukhanI prApti thAya che puNyanA udayathI. puNyanA udaya thAya che puNyanA baMdhanathI. puNyanA baMdha thAya che. dharmAMnA ArAdhanathI. dhama maLe che parama kRpALu paramAtmA pAsethI. sukhanuM mULa kAraNa taraNu--tAraNa paramAtmA che. e paramAtmAne ja jIva bhUlI gayA! ane emanI kRpAthI maLelA vaibhava sukhamAM ja rAcI rahyo ! zuM A kRtaghnatA nathI ? paramAtmAnI kRpAthI maLelA vaibhavanA upayAga have paramAtmAnI AjJAnusAra karavA paNa taiyAra nathI ! yAna rAkhA ! paramAtmAne na bhUle. sauMdaya : saudaya vinA ANu thatuM nathI. AkaNu vinA citta cAMTatuM nathI. svAtmA pratye citta cAMTatuM nathI ne paramAtmAmAM paNa citta khecAtuM nathI. kema Ama ? zuM AtmA ane paramAtmAmAM sauMdaya nathI ke te dekhAtuM nathI ? 5 paramAtmAnu` sauMdaya jovA mATe dRSTi sUkSma banAve. sUkSma dRSTithI e sauya nirakhyA ja karo....pachI citta ceAMTI jaze. paramAtmAmAM citta coMTayA pachI AtmAnuM sauMdaya khIlavA mAMDaze. emAMthI apUrva rasAnubhUti thaze. 16 Atmasa vedana

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paramAtmasmaraNa jemanI anata karUNAthI tuM zvAsa lai rahyo che, jemanI agamaageAcara kRpAthI tuM eka ucca manuSyarUpe jIvI rahyo che, te parama kRpAnidhi paramAtmAnA tArA para Ache upakAra che? te anaMta upakArane karanAra parameApakArInuM smaraNa tArA cittamAM vAraMvAra tuM kare che? jo nA, te pachI tu ceAganA mArge nathI AvyeA ema samaja. ceAganA mArge caDhelA AtmA paramAtmAnuM vAraMvAra smaraNa karanArA hAya. pratyeka prasa`ga ane pravRttinI sAthe paramAtmAne kAIne koI sabaMdha rahelA che, te sakhadhane zeAdhI kADhI paramAtmAne smRtipathamAM lAve. ApaNane e paramakRpALue eTalu badhuM ApyuM che ke have navu emanI pAse mAgavAmAM paNa zaramAi javu joIe. emaNe je ApyuM che teneA sadupayeAga karIne te badhuM temanA ja caraNe dharI devu'. temAM ja jIvananA parama AnaMda rahelA che. anubhavI joje. jaya vIyarAya ! vItarAganA jaya eTale dhama tItha nA jaya. dharmAMtIthanA jaya eTale meAkSamAga nA jaya, meAkSamAga nA jaya eTale zramaNamAga nA jaya ! teM 'jaya vIyarAya' nI gheASaNA karI eTale vItarAganA kAya'mAM ane vItarAganI vANImAM tArI anumati ApI ! eTale have tAre mAthe e javAbadArI AvI ke vItarAganA kAya ane vANInI viruddha tArAthI kaMi ja na thAya. evI kAI ja karaNI na thaI zake ke jethI vItarAganA kAya mAM kei vighna UbhuM thAya ! jenA teM jaya peAkAryAM, tenI pAchaLa ja tAre rahevu joie, e vAta tAre jacAvavI joie. Atmasa vedana 17

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- e kaLA Ape he parama kRpALu paramAtmA ! Apa ApanA ane te vijJAnamAM carAcara samasta vizvane joi rahyA che. temAM Apa A pRthvI para ApanI mUtithI maDIta madirAne paNa joi rahyA che.... aMdha dizamAM ApanI smRti ene bismAra hAlatamAM joi rahyA che...kAI ajJAna jIvA ApanA madiranI, ApanI mUrtinI avahelanA karI rahyA che, e paNu Apa pratyakSa joI rahyA che....chatAM Apa nathI rASa karatA ! nathI dveSa karatA ! prabhe ! Apane vizvadazananI kevI anupama kaLA prApta thai che! mAre ApanI pAsethI evI kaLA joie che. mane khabara paDe ke keAI mArA nAmane gALeA de che. mArI AkRtinuM apamAna kare che, teA e gALA denAra ane apamAna karanAra pratye mane rASa Ave che. mArA nAmane ane AkRtine je cAhe che, prema kare che, tenA pratye mane rAga thai jAya che! khasa, rAga-dveSane miTAvavAnI kaLA mane Ape! 18 Atmasa vedana

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zAntinA upAya ? tatvane jANavuM juduM ane tatvane pAmavuM e juduM. tattvane pAmavA mATe tatvathI bhAvita thavuM paDe. vAraMvAra e tattvane bhAvIne AtmasAt karavuM paDe. eTale A bhAvanAo vAraMvAra bhAvavAnI che. eka vakhata vAMcIne mUkI devAnI nathI. A zabdonA sathavAre vAstavikatAmAM DUbakI mAravAnI che. AkhAthI dekhAtI duniyA vAstavika nathI. vAstavika duniyA AkhothI joI zakAtI nathI....e jovA mATe jJAnanayana khUlavAM joIe. te mATe A bhAvanAo bhAvavI ati Avazyaka che. | saMsAranA sukha-duHkhanAM, khuzI-nAkhuzInAM, rAga-dveSanAM dvandromAMthI manane mukta rAkhavA mATe A bhAvanAe adabhUta upAya che. roja A bhAvanAe bhAvavAnI che. vAraMvAra bhAvavAnI che. tamane keAI kuleza ke satApa satAvI nahIM zake. tamArI samatA ane samAdhi akhaMDita raheze. A bhAvanAo vinA vidvAnonAM citta paNa zAntasudhArasa anubhavI zakatAM nathI. A Atmasa dina

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bhAvanA ? bhAvanAothI bhAvita thayA vinA cittanI parama zAnita anubhavI zakAtI nathI. jJAnathI....zAstra-jJAnathI vidvattA jarUra prApta thAya che. paraMtu bhAvanA vinA jJAnane rasAsvAda anubhavI zakAtA nathI. bhAvanA keI ekAda vakhata pA kalAka bhAvI levAthI nahi cAle. bhAvanA to jIvananA pratyeka prasaMge bhAvavAnI che. mananA pratyeka vicArane paNa bhAvanA dvArA bhAvita banAvI devAno che. pachI jo je kevA rasAsvAda Ave che ! e ahIM tamane jIvananA bhinnabhinna prasaMgeAe kevI rIte ane kaI kaI bhAvanA bhAvavI joie tenI rUparekhA batAvIza. mArUM kAma batAvavAnu, tamArU kAma pracAra karavAnuM ! / ST fko vAsanA ne bhAvanA : je tArA aMtaHkaraNamAM tane je je vAsanA satAvI jatI hoya tenI pratipakSI bhAvanAomAM tu vAraMvAra ramaNa kara. jyAre pelI vAsanA jAge, Take ke tarata ja pelI pratipakSI pavitra bhAvanA dvArA tene bhagADI de. AMtarika patanamAMthI ugaravAnA AnA sivAya bIjo kaI mAga samajAtA nathI. sAthe sAthe A mAga ghaNA kAragata nivaDe che, evo anubhava che, hakIkata che. mATe tane paNa huM" - eja mAga batAvuM chuM. tuM prayatna kara, zraddhA dhAraNa karIne prayatna kara. saphaLatA maLaze. vAsanAonA juvALa caDhatA joI hiMmata na hArI jaIe. AtmasaMvedana 21

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anitya : tamArA tenI sAthe gADha saMbaMdha hatA. tenA para tamArA vizvAsa paNa pUNa hatA. paraMtu Aje teNe tamArA sAthenA saMbaMdha toDI nAMkhyA....vizvAsabhaMga kya.... tethI tame duHkhI banI gayA.... tamArA cittamAM bhAre azAnti vyApI gaI... kema Ama thayuM ? kema tame duHkhI banI gayA ? zuM tame ema mAnI lIdhuM hatuM ke tenI sAthenA tamArA saMbaMdha kayAreya tUTavAnA na hatA ? enI sAthenA sneha nitya hato ? samajI rAkhe ke ISTa jana sAthenA saMbaMdha anitya che... e kyAreka tUTavAne jarUra.... je anitya che te pitAnA svabhAvane anusare, temAM duHkha zAnu ?) rAga-dveSa : tuM jenA para rAga dhAraNa kare che, te rAga ane je tArA para rAga dhAraNa kare che, te rAga, A banne rAga anitya che. te te barAbara samajI rAkha.. 'je mane cAhI rahyA che, te eka di' mArA pratye dveSa karavAnA che," A samaja je pAkI haze to tuM duHkhI nahi thAya. eTaluM ja nahi paraMtu teo pratye tane tiraskAra ke udvega nahi jAge. - rAga-dveSa ane bhAve anitya che. anityamAM nityapaNAnI buddhi ja jIvane duHkhI banAve che. jeo tane peve cAhatA hatA teo Aje tane cAhatA nathI. balake dveSavALA banyA che, tene zuM tane anubhava nathI ? AtmasaMvedana

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saMcAga-viyeAga ph enu mRtyu thaI gayuM'. ene deha paDI rahyo....e peAte cAlyA gayA. tame raDA nahi. zAka na kareA. enA para tamAre rAga hatA, gADha sneha hatA.... te vAta sAcI, paraMtu e vAta paNu na bhUlaze ke tame enI sAthenA rAgamAM e bhUlI gayA hatA ke "sayeAganeA kayAreka aMta Ave ja che." kAne saceAga kAyama rahyo che? evuM eka paNa dRSTAMta tame batAvaze ke sarcALa pachI vicAga na thayeA hAya jenI sAthe sabaMdha joDA, e samajIne joDajo ke A saMbaMdhane kayAreka aMta AvavAnA che. ' 66 saceAga nitya nathI, anitya che. mATe saMcAgajanya sukha meLavavAnA krADa tyajI do. sava duHkhA sacAgamAMthI ja janme che. rAja rAtre sUtI vakhate sava sabadhAne vAsarAvI de. sava samadhAnI anityatA vicArA....basa pachI priyajanAnu mRtyu thatAM paNa tamArA hRdayamAM zAka..du:kha nahi thAya, Atmasa vedana CAUSE 23

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sapatti H DS tamArI pAse sa*patti che ? tame e sapattine kevI mAnI rAkhI che ? nitya mAnI che ke anitya ? jo nitya mAnIne rAkhI che te te tamArI brAMti che. bhalA ! e te vicArA ke keAnI pAse saMpatti nitya rahI che? meATA rAjA mahArAjAe ane zeTha zAhukArAnI saMpatti paNa cAlI gai.... ane jemaNe saMpattine nitya samajIne rAkhI hatI ...tee pAka mUkIne raDayA. sapatti anitya che, jyAre jyAre e sapatti tarapha tamArI daSTi jAya tyAre tame e vicAra karajo : "A anitya che. cAlI javAnI che...." A vicArathI tenA tarapha tamArI Asakti nahi thAya. eTaluM ja nahi paNa kadAca e sapatti cAlI paNa jAya, tyAre tamane duHkha nahi thAya. vaLI, sapattine anitya mAnI, eka divasa janArI ja samajI lIdhI, pachI e sapattinA sAta kSetramAM sadupayeAga karIne puNyAnukha dhI puNya upArjana karavAnI paNa buddhi jAgaze. 24 Atmasa vedana

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Arogya ? tamArI kalpanAmAM na hatuM ke tamArA dehamAM AvA roga vyApI jaze ! haju thoDA mahInA, varSo pahelAM to tamAro deha nirAgI hatI.... ane enA tamane AnaMda paNa hato.... | tame rogone dUra karavA prayatna kare che....davAo karo che.... abhakSya davAonA paNa sahAro le che....chatAM tame rogamukata banI rAkayA nathI.... tame azAMta....vivaza ane dIna banI gayA che.... - have, tamAre AvI sthitimAM paNa mAnasika svasthatA samAdhi prApta karavI che? to tame tamArA vicAramAM parivartana karo. e "Arogya asthira che, kadI ekasarakhuM Arogya keInuMya rahetuM nathI. kyAreka aNadhAyu te cAlyuM jAya che.... ane rogathI zarIra gherAI jAya che... sa'sAranI A eka na nivArI zakAya tevI sthiti che.... to pachI mAre zA mATe duHkha mAnavuM ? zA mATe azAnti anubhavavI ? have te evA ArogyanI paramAtmA pAse prAthanA karo... ke je akSaya che... ene meLavavA prabaLa puraSAthakaro. 25 - Atmasa vedana Jalin Education imem automar For Free Fesse Omy

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yauvana : samajI rAkheA ke A yauvananA thanaganATa kAyama TakavAne nathI, yauvana anitya che. e yauvanane TakAvavA mATe vyatha prayatna na karo. eka divasa cauvana teA cAlyuM jaze, paNa yauvananA unmAdamAM karelI pApalIlAe cAlI nahi jAya.... e tA A AtmAmAM jAmI jaze ane enAM dAruNa phaLa bhavAMtaramAM bhAgavavA paDaze. anitya yauvanamAMthI akSaya yauvana prApta karI levAne purUSAtha karI leA. te purUSAtha cAra prakAraneA che : A cAra prakAraneA puruSAtha jo tamArA yauvanakALamAM thai gayA tA khasa ! tame yauvanane akSaya khanAvI dIdhu.... pachI A cAmaDAM-hADakAnuM yauvana cAlyuM paNa jaze, chatAM tamane duHkha nahIM thAya. 26 - (1) brahmacaryanu' pAlana. (ra) tapa ane tyAga. (3) deva, guru ane dhama'nI sevA. (4) sevA-parepakAra. Atmasa'vedana

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zaraNuM : je tane zaraNa Ape ema nathI ene teM zaraNu ApanAra mAnyA che! zaraNa ApanAra samajIne te enA pratye prema ane vizvAsa dhAraNa karyAM. paNa samajI rAkha ke devAdhideva paramAtmA sivAya traNe leAkamAM keAI zaraNa ApanAra nathI. emane cheDIne tuM game tyAM jaIza...zaraNa nahi maLe...kadAca tane zaraNa maLatu dekhAze teAya te pelA meAkaDAne kasAInA ghera maLatA zaraNa jevu haze! kheAkaDAne kasAi zaraNa Ape, khavarAve-pIvarAve... navarAve. paNa aMte ? jagatanA viSayeAnA zaraNe janAranI aMte evI ja kadanA thAya che. kaiA niva zaraNam ! janma-jarA ane mRtyunAM bhayakara du:khAthI tane kANu bacAvI zake ema che ? Adhi-vyAdhi ane upAdhinA bhISaNa trAsathI tane keANa macAve ema che? keAI (vadyA, maMtra ke auSadha tane nahIM khacAvI zake. kAi mahArAjA ke deva-devendra nahIM khacAvI zake... e madhA ja mahAkALanA kALiyA khanI gayA ! Rys samagra saMsAra duHkharUpa che, tu tene zaraNe jaIza? je svaya' azaraNu che te tane kevI rIte zaraNa Apaze ? je sAcu' zaraNa Ape che, temanA zaraNe gayA vinA tu niya ane nizcita nahIM banI zake mATe arihaMtanA zaraNe jA. siddhonA zaraNe jA. zramaNeAnA zaraNe jA. hyumanA zaraNe jA. 27 Atmasa vedana jainelibrary.org

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kaDhagA saMsAra anatakALane AMkha sAme rAkhIne jo tame snehI saba'dhIenI pratye joze te tamArA hRdayamAM rAgadveSa prAyaH ghaTI jaze. e tA, kahe, kayA jIva sAthe karyA saMbadha nathI karyAM ? kaceA saMbadha Aje kAyama rahyoche! nathI mitrAneA saMbadha kAyama rahyo, ke nathI zatrunA sabaMdha kAyama rahyo. eka vakhatanA zatru mitra banIne Ave che ane mitra marIne zatru banI jAya che. mAtA marIne putrI thAya che.... putrI marIne mAtA thAya che. patnI marIne putrI thAya che ane putrI marIne patnI thAya che! AvA kaDhaMgA saMbaMdhAvALA saMsAramAM keAnA pratye rAga karavA ane kAnA pratye dveSa karavAnA ? saMsAranA svarUpanA ekagracitte vicAra karo. thAya che. mAna duHkharUpa sa'sAra ! sa'sAra duHkharUpa che. duHkhalada che ane duHkhAnukha dhI che, A vAta khUba gaMbhIratAthI vicAraje. duHkharUpa saMsAramAM tu sukhanI zeAdha karI rahyo che? maLe kharU sukha? sAcuM paramasukha saMsAramAM maLe ja nahIM. jene tuM sukha mAnI rahyo che e duHkhAne neAMtaranArUM che! duHkhAnI para'parA calAvanAra che. saMsAranI cAre gatimAM joi le. devagatimAM paNa nitya sukha nathI. bhayarahita sukha nathI. svAdhIna sukha nathI. bIjI gatiemAM te sukhAnI vAta ja kevI ! duHkharUpa saMsAramAM rahevA jevu nathI. A saMsAranA badhanA tADI meAkSane ja pAmavAneA puruSAtha kara. e mATe saMsAranAM sukhAne svecchAe ahiSkAra kara. 28 Atmasa vedana

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bhava65 mAne ke koI duSTa purUSAe tamane bebhAna banAvI dIdhA ane eka kUvAmAM nAkhI dIdhA. be-cAra kalAka pachI tamane bhAna AvyuM. "are, huM' ahIM kUvAmAM kayAMthI ? mane ahIM kANe paTakI dIdhA !?? A vicAra Ave ke nahIM ? A vicAranI sAthe bIje vicAra-"have mAre A kUvAmAMthI kevI rIte bahAra nikaLavuM ??? paNa Ave ne ? tamArI daSTi kUvAmAM laTaktA eka doraDA para paDe....ke turata ke AnaMda thAya ? temAM vaLI tame kUvA upara joyuM te eka karUNAvaMta puruSa tamane bahAra kADhavA UbhA che! tyAre te keTalA badhA harSa ? kUvAmAM paTakAI paDavAthI tamAruM zarIra du:khe che. mAthAmAMthI leAhI paNa TapakI rahyuM che.... chatAM tame turata deraDuM pakaDIne upara caDhavAno prayatna karavAnA ne ? || zuM saMsAra kUvo che, evuM bhAna thayuM che ? " A saMsAramAM... A pApamaya saMsAramAM huM kevI rIte phasAyA ? have mAre kevI rIte bahAra nikaLavuM??? A vicAra Ave che ? bahAra nikaLavA mATe bebAkaLA banI gayA che ? A | | juo, A saMsArakUpamAMthI bahAra nikaLavA mATe paramakRpALu paramAtmAe dharmasAdhanAnA dAraDAM laTakAvelAM che. tene pakaDI laI upara caDhavAne puruSArtha kare. kUvA upara parama kArUNika sAdhu puruSe tamane sahAya karavA UbhelA che. temane joine keTalA haSa thAya che ? prazna e che : saMsAranA... bhavanA kUvAmAMthI bahAra nikaLevuM che ? AtmasaMvedana Jain Education national FOR Private Personal use only

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tAruM zuM ?, huM eka chuM'...A saMsAramAM mArU keI nathI....." A bhAvanAthI tamArA hRdayane vAsita karI do. tamArI bhautika svAthanI siddhi maiTe tame jene jene tamArAM mAnyAM che, temAM koI ja tamArUM nathI, ema zrI jinezvara bhagavata kahI rahyA che. he' eka chuM ?? eno artha e che ke " huM zuddha Atmadravya chuM ...kamanI mAyAjALa mArI nathI.... zubhAzubha kamenA udayAne huM mArA nahi mAnuM. mAruM je che te to zuddha jJAna che, te mArU che ane mArUM ja rahevAnuM che. e kadI paNa mArAthI aLaguM thavAnuM nathI." - kharekhara, A saMsAramAM jIva, je potAnA nathI temane potAnA mAnImAnIne ja du:khI thAya che.... ane je pote che, je potAnuM che, tene oLakhatA nathI, tethI bhramaNAmAM aTavAyA kare che. tuM sahuthI bhinna ! tamAre Atmahita karavuM che, temAM tame bIjA sAmuM zA mATe juo cho ? - tame ekalA ja jamyA che, ekalA ja mRtyu pAmavAnA che. ana'ta bhavamAM tame tamArA puNya-pApane laIne bhaTakayA chA.... have e paribhramaNano aMta tamAre ja lAvavAno che. - bIjAnA eTale badhA vicAra na karo ke A mahAna mAnava jIvana e.ma ja cAlyuM jAya, dhama puruSAthanI aNamola ghaDI cAlI jAya , tame tamArA AtmA sAme te juo ! e keTale duHkhI che? e keTale malIna che ? e keTale azAMta che? tamAre enuM du:kha, malInatA, azAMti dUra karavA mATe puruSArtha vinA vilaMba karavA joIe. ] tuM sahuthI bhinna che... tuM eka che. tuM tArA vicAra kara. tAza eMbhAnA vicAra kara. 30 Atmasa vedana Jain Education Intematonal

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azAMti nivAraNa moTA bhAge citta tyAre azAMta bane che ke jyAre svajano, parijana yAvatu potAnuM zarIra, manuSyanI IcchA, virUddha pravRtti kare che. manuSyano e svabhAva che ke jyAre svajana-parijana pitAnAthI virUddha bAle ke AcaraNa kare tyAre te azAMta banI jAya che. du:khI banI jAya che. paraMtu te vicAratA nathI ke svajana-parijanA ane zarIra paNa potAnAM nathI. pote e savathI bhinna che... ane je potAnAthI sarvathA bhinna hAya, te zuM sadA pitAnA abhiprAya mujaba, IcchAnusAra rahe kharA ? e vicAre ke "huM svajanothI bhinna chuM, parijanAthI aLago chu', vibhAthI ja do chuM....zarIrathI paNa anyU chuM ..." A vicAra jema jema cittamAM daDha thato jaze tema tema tamArA cittamAM zAMti, prasannatA, ane sukha AvavA lAgaze. zAka ane saMtoSa bhAgI jaze. " badhu parAyuM ! tamane kadAca ema prazna thaze ke "je A saMsAramAM keAI ja mArU nathI evA dRDha vicAra thai jAya to pachI saMsAramAM kema rahI zakAya ? vastu parAyI che e samajIne vastune upayoga karanAra vastu para rAgI nahi bane. jyAre vastune potAnI mAnIne upacAga karanAra vastu upara rAgI banaze.... ane e vastu jyAre cAlI jaze tyAre bhAre du:kha anubhavaze. jyAre vastune parAyI mAnanAra jIva vastu cAlI jatAM du:khI nahi thAya, kAraNa ke eNe samajI ja zamyuM che ke, "A vastu mArI pAsethI cAlI javAnI ja che." - paDozIne tyAMthI tamAre kayAreka koI vastu lAvavI paDatI nathI ? tame teno upaga paNa kare che, chatAM e vastu jyAre pADozI pAchI laI jAya che tyAre tamane du:kha nathI thatuM. basa, tamArI pAse je kaMi che te parAyuM che, A vicAra daDha anAve. Atmasa vedana 36 For Private Personal use only

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kAyAnI mAyA tamane zuM priya che ? tamArA deha ? tamArI daSTi je tamArA deha para ja haze te bIjA jIvanA paNa tame deha ja jevAnA. tamArI daSTi je tamArA AtmA para haze to bIjA tarapha javAno prasaMga AvatAM bIjAnA AtmA tarapha daSTi javAnI. e deha para rAga, prema khataranAka che. jyAM sudhI e rAgaprema tUTe nahi tyAM sudhI tame cittazAMti, parama zAMti anubhavI zakaze nahi. AtmA tarapha tamArI dRSTi jaze nahi. AmAnI duda zA dekhAze nahi... ene dUra karavAnA purUSArtha tame karI zakaze nahi. deha parathI daSTi haTe to ja AmA para daSTi pahoMce. Atmadarzana karavA mATe deha paranI rAgadaSTine haTAvavI anivAya che. vaLI deha para rAga karavA jevuM che paNa zuM ? - kolasA jevI kAyA cAmaDAM, hADakAM ane mAMsanuM baneluM zarIra tamane game che ? vahAluM lAge che ? anaMta guNothI bharele, sat cit AnaMdamaya AtamA vahAlA lAgatuM nathI ? zarIramAM kaMI ja sAra nathI. enA para rAga na karo. rAga karI karIne zarIrane vizuddha karavAnA prayatna kare che, paraMtu zarIra vizuddha thavAnuM nathI. Aje tame zarIrane zuddha karyuM, kAle te azuddha banI jaze ! Aje tame jene puSTa banAvyuM, kAle te svayaM nirmALa banI javAnuM. ja kolasAne game teTale devAne purUSArtha karI, e kALA ja rahevAne. re mATInI kaThIne game teTalI dhUo, mATI ja nIkaLavAnI ! - zarIranI cAmaDI na juo, zarIranI aMdara je AtmA che tene jue, rUpa e te pudagalanI mAyA che. AmAM arUpI che....zarIranI bibhatsatA vicArI tenA para virAgI banoM. 32 AtmasaMvedana

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gaMduM zarIra tane badhuM svaccha, zuddha ane sudara game che ne? tA pachI tane zarIra kema game che? A audyArika zarIra svaccha che? zuddha che? suMdara che? jarA zarIranI aMdara tA jo. zuM khahAranuM joine ja rAjI thaiza ? zarIranI aMdara bharelI ga MdakI nahIM jue ? maLa-mUtra ane majjA, leAhI, mAMsa ane hADakAMthI bharelA zarIra upara tuM meAhI paDIza ? UbheA rahe. zAMta citte vicAra kara. tArA peAtAnA zarIra upara ke bIjAenA zarIra upara rAgI banavAnuM adha kara. zarIranI a MdaranI azuddhi joyA pachI e rAganAM pUra osarI jaze. jyAre jyAre zarIranI uparanI cAmaDI tane gamI jAya tyAre tUta tu aMdara Dokiyu' karI leje. rAga upara breka' lAgI jaze. zarIranA upayAga zarIranI eTalI badhI te Asakti nahAvI joie ke je dhama sAdhanAmAM vighnabhUta mane. zarIranA upayAga AtmAnA utthAna mATe, kalyANa mATe ravAnA che. AtmA mAlika che. zarIra neAkara che. mAlike neAkara pAsethI kAma levu joie. zarIra e teA sAdhana che. enA upayeAga karavA joie... bhAgamAM nahi paNa tyAgamAM. zarIra pAse tapa karAveA, zarIra pAse sadAcAranuM pAlana karAveA, zarIrane paramAtmAnI bhaktimAM joDA, zarIrane paramAtha-paropakAranAM kAmeAmAM thakavI nAMkheA. enA artha e nathI ke zarIramAM rAgeA thaI jAya tema vartavuM. hA, rAgeA utpanna thaI jAya, tyAre zeka na karaze, paNa azarIrI manavAnuM dhyAna dharajo. Atmasa vedana 33 www.ainelibrac

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pApa Azrava tame e te vicAra kare ke tamArA AtmAmAM keTalI jagAethI karyAMnA pravAha AvI rahyo che ? roja AtmAmAM ana Mta ana Mta pApa karmAM AvI rahyAM che. eneA bhaya tamane che? jo hAya tA e dvArAne satvare khaMdha karo. mithyAtva, avirati, kaSAya, mana, vacana kAyAnA azubha yeAge ane pramAdanAM dvArA satvare khaMdha karo. mithyAtva tamane aneka UMdhI panAomAM khe'cI jAya che. avirati tamane kAi puNa prakAranA pApanA pratijJApUrvaka tyAga karavA detI nathI. kaSAya tamane krAdhI, mAyAvI ane leAlI banAve che. mana, vacana ane kAyAnA duSTa ceAgeA tamane pApamAM ramADe che. pramAda viSayAmAM AkaSaNa karAvIne dhama sAdhanAthI tamane vimukha banAve che.... A pApAzravAne vicAra kareA. dvAra baMdha karA tane samajAya che kharUM ke tArA AtmAmAM pratisamaya zuM AvI rahyuM che? zu zu bharAI rahyuM che? enAthI tAre AtmA kevA manI rahyo che? anaMta anaMta karmonA pravAha AtmAmAM AvI rahyo che. mithyAtva, avirati, kaSAya, yAga ane pramAdanA dvArAmAMthI e pravAha AvI rahyo che, e dvArA adha karavAnAM che. e adha karyA vinA karmAMnA pravAha aTakavAneA nathI. e pravAha aTakayA vinA karmanA bharAvA AchA thavAnA nathI. bhale ne tuM karmAMnI nija rA karatA rahe! paheluM kAma AzraveAnAM dvAra aMdha karavAnuM karavuM paDaze. 34 Atmasa vedana

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samyaktva samyaktva,virati, kSamA, namratA, saraLatA, nilebhitA, mana, vacana, kAyAnI zubha pravRtti ane apramAda, A che savara. samyaktvane dRDha kare, paramakRpALu vItarAga sanadevane paramAtmA mAneA. emanA para ja zraddhAne sthApita karI. emanA sivAya kAI mithyAdaSTi deva-devIenI upAsanA na karo. evI rIte paMca mahAvratadhArI sadguru para ja gurumuddhi karo. kanakAminInA saMgI da"bhI sAdhuethI aLagA raheA. temane guru na mAne. ema, sarvajJa bhagavate batAvelA dhamane ja dhama mAne. A rIte jo tamArU samyaktva dRDha banI gayuM te Azravanu eka dvAra baMdha thaI gayuM samajo. pratijJApUrvaka tyAga je pApA karyA vinA tamArU' jIvana cAlI zake che, e pApeA na karavAnI tA pratijJA karI ja lejo. tethI pApanI apekSA tUTI jaze. jarUrI pApAne paNa tyAga karavAnu lakSya cUkaze| niha. e tyAga karavAmAM sahana karavuM paDaze. chatAM jo tamane tyAga karavAnuM phAvI gayuM te tame phAvI gayA. je tyAga karo te pratijJApUrvaka tyAga karazeA. arihaMta paramAtmAnI sAkSIe, siddha bhagavaMtanI sAkSIe, sAdhu puruSAnI sAkSIe ane AtmAnI sAkSIe pratijJA karavAnI che. tyAM sudhI sAmarthya pragaTAvavAnu che ke sava` pApavyApAneA tame tyAga karI cAritrane svIkArI zake. cAritra svIkAryu` ke sava` saMvara thaI gayA. Atmasa vedana 35

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CC A khavAya, A na khavAya, A pIvAya, A na pIvAya, A paherAya, A na paherAya.... AvI vAtA karavI te kevaLa dhAmika gAMDapaNa che. duniyAmAM je badhu che te bhAgavavA mATe.." A vicAranA pracAra Aje vadhI rahyo che....bhAgAsata manuSyane A vicAra priya lAge. para MtuA vicArane yathAtha samajanAra AjanA buddhizALIne mArA eka prazna che: eka prazna tame jyAre bimArImAM paTakAI jAo che, vaidya yA DAkaTara pAse jAe che, tyAre zu vaidya-DAkaTara tamane nathI kahetA "amuka padAtha na khAzeA, amuka padAtha na pIzeA, AvAM kapaDAM na paheraze...?" DAkaTara jyAre tamane khAvA-pIvAmAM ane paheravA pharavAmAM amuka niSedha kare che tyAre tame tene kayuM gAMDapaNa samajo che ? DAkaTaranI vAtAne kayA zabdomAM hasI kADhA che ? tyAM tamane DAkaTaranI vAta yathArtha lAge che! bhalA, zArIrika roga miTAvavA mATe amuka padArthA na khAvA, na pIvA....vagere tamane yuktiyukta lAge che te AtmAnA rAgeAne mITAvavA mATe dhArmika vidhi-niSedhA kema yathAtha yuktiyukata nathI lAgatA ? tame AnA javAba ApatAM acakAze! sAMbhaLe. jyAre mAnasika rogeA, Atmika rAgeAthI tame akaLAze, e rAgAne dUra karavAnI bhAvanA jAgaze tyAre tame, dhame jene niSedha karyAM che te nahIM khAvAnA, nahIM pIvAnA, nahIM paheravAnA. 36 Atmasa vedana

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kaSAya ? kaSAyanI vRddhimAM duHkha che. kaSAyenI hAnimAM sukha che. jayAM du:khano anubhava thAya tyAM tapAsavuM ke mULamAM ka kaSAya kAma karI rahyo che ? keAI eka kaSAya jarUra tamane jovA maLaze. tame e kaSAyane dUra karaze ke tarata ja duHkha ravAnA thaze. duHkhane bAhya pratikAra karavA jatAM duHkha vadhI jAya che. kAraNa ke tema karavA jatAM kaSAye vadhe che. du:khanuM kAraNa kaSAya che, te kaSAyone ja dAbavAne prayatna karo, pachI AMtara zAMtino anubhava thaze. e kaSAyenA dhamadhamATamAM je sukhano anubhava thato hoya te te kharajavAne khaNavAmAM anubhavAtA sukhanA jevo samajajo. ri, pUrva taiyArI krodhano prasaMge upasthita thAya che ne tame phodha karI bese che. abhimAnanA hamale thAya che ne tame parAjita banI jAo cho. mAyAnI jALa patharAya che ne tame phasAI jAo cho. lebhanA dhasAro thAya che tame daTAI jAo cho... eka bAju tame dhamakriyAo kare che ane bIjI bAju jayAre tamArI AvI paristhiti tame juo cho tyAre tamArA cittamAM prazna uThe cheH "dhama karavA chatAM kaSAcAne paravaza kema thaI javAya che....??? . bhAgyazALI ! zatruono sAmano karavA mATe, zatruo jayAre caDhI Ave tyAre taiyArI karavA na besAya, e to hamalA thavA pUrva taiyArI karI rAkhavI joIe. zatruno hemalA catAM ja tenA pratikAra karI zake tevA zastro taiyAra rAkhavA joIe. Atmasa vedana Jain Education imema om 37 op

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zA mATe rASa kareA che? rASa karIne tame tamArA AtmAmAM azAMti pragaTAvA che. rASane jAgrata thavAnA prasaMge kSamAne dhAraNa kare. kSamA dhAraNa karavA mATe nIcenA upAyA tamane upacAgI banaze. 38 krAyazamana (1) hRdayamAM roSa jAgatAM ja mauna dhAraNa karo. (2) je prasaMga pAmIne rASa jAgyA hAya te prasaMgane yAda na karA (3) e jagAethI cAlyA jAo. (4) zrI navakAra maMtranu smaraNa kare. (5) tamArA pApeAdayanA vicAra karA (6) jenA pratye rASa thayA hAya, tenA vizuddha AtmasvarUpane kSaNabhara yAda kare. (7) krAdha-rASa karavAthI sva-para AtmAne azAnti vadhe che. e samajo, A rIte maLajabarIthI paNa krAdha para tame niyaMtraNA karazeA teA jate divase tamArA hRdayamAM krAdha jAgaze paNa nahi. krodhane DAmavAnuM sAdhana kSamA che. Atmasa vedana

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kama, zatru karmone zatru mAnyA pachI, e karmo taraphathI maLatI anukULatAne svIkArI zakAya ? zatrunuM dAna lenAra zatrunA prabhAva nIce dabAI jAya che. zatruno te mukAbalo karI zakato nathI. karmone mArI haTAvavA mATe karmone zatru samajo. zatru samajIne tenA taraphathI maLatI dhana-saMpatti rUpa-saundarya, kIti, pratiSThA....vagerene tuccha samajI svIkAre nahi. hAya tenA tapa-tyAga ane dAna dvArA nikAla karI do. mekSa ema ja nahi maLI jAya. karmono kSaya karyA vinA mokSa maLaze nahi. te kSaya karavA mATe kamara kasavI paDaze. karmonI mAyAjALamAM phasAIne besI rahe kema ja cAlaze ? kamaza3 taraphathI atyaMta jarUrI sahAyatA levI paDe, te paNa te du:khAte haiye ane ati apa levI joIe. krodha, mAna, mAyA, lobhane zAstrakAroe "AMtarazatru " kahelA che. zatru sAme jhajhumyA vagara zatrune bhagADI zakAze nahI. vaLI A to khaMdhA banI gayelA zatru ! anaMtakALathI ApaNA AtmA para satata zAsana karatA AvelA ! temane dUra dhakelI devA mATe kevA ghera saMgrAma khelavA paDe, e zuM nathI samajAtuM? yuddha mATenuM medAna maLI gayuM che. yuddha mATenI zastrasAmagrI taiyAra che. yuddha mATe vyuharacanA karanAra taiyAra che. basa, ApaNe kRtanizcayI banIne medAnamAM UtarIe teTaluM ja bAkI che ! jo A jIvanamAM kaMI na kayu" to pachI dIrghatidIrghakALa ravAnuM raheze.... Atmasa vedana 39 Jain Education international

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. . zatru kayAre humaleA kare che ? zatru kayA sthAnethI humaleA kare che? 0 zatrunI vyUharacanA kevI che? ra 0 zatrunI sahAyamAM kANu kANu che? 0 zatrunuM baLa keTalu che? ATalI khAkhatAne jhINavaTathI abhyAsa karIne tenI sAme ApaNA saMrakSaNanI ceAjanA ghaDavI joie. vyUharacanA .. krAdha vagere kayAre humaleA kare che? 7 kayA sthAne krAdha vagere humalA kare che? 0 krAdhAdinI vyUharacanA kevI che? 0 krAdhAkrinI sahAyamAM kANu kANu che ? 0 krodhAdinu khaLa keTalu che ? ATalI jhINavaTabharI mAhitI meLavI lIdhA pachI tenA humalAne mArI haTAvavA mATe ApaNI ceAjanAnA vicAra karavA joie. te ja ApaNe kraSAdithI bacI zakIe. 2 Atmasa vedana

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laDatA rahA vAtavAtamAM krAya na Ave, prasage prasaMge abhimAna na Ave, sthAne sthAne mAyA na jAge, avasare avasare leAbha na jAge, tenuM nAma che zAnti! tenuM nAma prathama ! AvI zAnti ahIM prApta thaI jAya teA samajavu* ke meAkSasukhanI AMzika prApti thaI. mATe jIvananu Aja lakSya banAve. krAdhAdi kannAyAne nAthavAnA ja prayatnamAM lAgyA raheA. pratyeka dhama sAdhanA karatI vakhate A lakSamAM rAkhA ke 'mArA kreAdhAdi kaSAyeA keTalA zamyA ?" bIjI bAju kSamA- namratA-saraLatA ane niibhattAnuM lakSa rAkhI sthAne sthAne tenA prayAga karo. 6 hatAza na thaze|. kreAdhAdi sAme jiMdagI sudhI laDavuM paDaze. zraddhA rAkhA ke * avazya mAro vijaya thaze". sUkSma dRSTithI nirIkSaNa karaze! teA samajAze ke dinapratidina tame vijayanI tarapha prayANa karI rahyA che, ane e khyAla jyAre Avaze tyAre tamArUM hRdaya AnadathI bharAi jaze. Atmasa vedana 41

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karmanija rA karmonI nijA karyA vinA AtmasvarUpa nahIM ja pragaTe. je tuM AtmAthI ke AtmasvarUpane rAgI che te tAre kamenA kSaya karavo ja paDaze. pApakarmono ane puNyakarmone - sava kamano kSaya karavo paDaze. | karmonI nijAnA upAya jANe che ? tuM e upAya jANu ane kSaya karavAno puruSArtha kara. tapazcaryA e kamakSayane kriyAtmaka mAga che jyAre dhamayAna ane zukaladhyAna e kamakSayane bhAvAtmaka mAga che. A baMne mAganuM cita avalaMbana laIne kamakSaya karate cAla. alabatta, tAre to puruSArtha ja karavAno che, karmakSaya svayameva thato jaze, ananta janmanAM bAMdhelAM kame eka janmamAM nija rI zake ! eka janmamAM bAMdhelAM kame asaMkhya janmamAM na nijare....AvuM banI zake. jAgrata thA. pramAdano tyAga kara. ane karmakSayano puruSArtha AraMbhI de. Atmasa vedana

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dhamanA zaraNe tuM dhama'nI kriyAeA kare che, tuM dharmAMnuM jJAna meLave che, tuM dhama' pratye zraddhAvAna paNa che, parantu te kayAreya zAnta citte dharmAMnA mahimA aMge vicAyu" che ? dhamanA acintya prabhAva age manana karyu'' che? dhamanI zaraNAgati svIkAravA mATe A manana karavuM khUba jarUrI che. devA ane dAnavAe je jinadhanA caraNe mastaka namAvyAM che, rAjA-mahArAjAoe je A dUdhama ne hRdayamAM dhAraNa karelA che, meAhanA gADha aMdhakArane je kSaNavAramAM bhedI nAMkhe che, rAga ane dveSanAM halAhala jherane UtAranArA je mahAmaMtra che, sava kalyANanA je kada che... evA dhamanuM ciMtana karatAM hRdaya gadgad thaI gayuM che ? je dhama dhana Ape che, bhAgasukha Ape che, svarganAM divya sukha Ape che ane paramasukhamaya meAkSa Ape che, e dhamanA zaraNe jA. rAja, savAra apeAra ne sAMja vahipAtta dhamma saraLa vavajJAni nA pATha kara. dhamanA zaraNe ja rahe. eja sAcu zaraNa Apaze. Atmasa vedana Jain Education international 43

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lokasvarupa vizALa vizvane te ! cauda rAjalokamaya kevuM A vizva che! cAra gatie emAM samAya che ne cArAzI lAkha cenio emAM samAya che. anaMtAnaMta jIvo A vizvamAM jIvI rahyA che... keAI evI khAlI jagA nathI ke jayAM citanya dhabakatuM na hoya ! koI evI jagA nathI ke jayAM ApaNA jIve janma-mRtyu pAmyAM na hoya. vizvamAM mukhya tattva che caitanyamaya jIvAtmA. bIjA cAra to che jaDa. jIvane sahAya karanArAM e tattva che. tenAM nAma cheH dharmAstikAya, adharmAstikAya, AkAzAstikAya, ane pudagalAstikAya. bhautika sukha-duHkhanI apekSAe jotAM nIce duHkha che, upara sukha che ! vacce sukha-duHkhanAM mizraNa che... mananI pAMkhe UDIne samagra cauda rAjalekamAM viharI te jo ! tane khUba AnaMda maLaze... khUba jANavAnuM ne jovAnuM maLaze hA, rAga ane dveSa vinA mAtra jevAnA ane jANavAno Anada A rIte tane anubhavavA maLaze. caudarAjalAkanA aMte rahelI siddhazilA upara siddha buddha-mukata banI besI javAnI tIvra abhilASA pragaTaze. Atmasa vedana

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edhimIja tane je durlabha vastue maLelI che, enuM tane jJAna che? tane zuM zuM dula bha maLyuM che? jo A vicAra karIza tA tu kayAreya dIna-hIna nahIM mane. kayAreya nirAza ke hatAza nahIM ane. manuSyajIvana ane dhama zravaNa, A be dula bha vAta tane maLI che ne ? ethIye vadhAre durlabha tane kheAdhi' maLI che ! edhi eTale zraddhA. tArA hRdayamAM AtmatattvanI zraddhA che ne ? e parama vizuddha AtmadazA pAmavAnu pathadarzana karAvanArA gurujane pratye tArA haiyAmAM vizvAsa jAgyA chene? e AtmadazAne pAmavAnA vividha dhamamAgeryAM tane gamyA che ne ? A zuM mAmulI upalabdhi che ? tuM A prAptineA ha anubhava. Ana Mda anubhava. A edhinI prApti ghaNIghaNI dulabha che. anaMta anaMta jIvAne e edhi nathI maLI, tane maLI gai che, enu hArdika sukhada saMvedana kara. yo0,9 Atmasa vedana For Private & Personal Use On 45 Tainelibrary.org

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maitrI : A jagatamAM je keInI sAthe tAre maitrI karavI haze, tAre te vyaktinA keTalAka dASA sahana karavA paDaze. enA keTalAka agata matabyA sAme mauna rahevuM paDaze. tArAmAM rahelA doSone je kAi sahana karatuM nahi hAya, tArA amuka matabyAnI sAme je prahAro karatuM haze. tArAmAM rahelA guNAnA je anuvAda karatuM nahi hAya, enA pratye tuM maitrI dhAraNa karI zake che ? nA ! maitrI mATe mAtra bhAvanAthI huM cAle. siddhi karavA mATe kaMika karavuM joie. tAre maitrInI khIjo jIva tArI rhiMsA kare te tane tuM khIjAnI hiMsA kare che, te khaTake che? sAthe jUTha kheAle te pasaMda nathI, paraMtu tuM khele che te khaTake che? tu khIjA taraphathI jevuM AcaraNa cAhe che, khIjA tarapha evuM AcaraNa karavA mAMDa. tuM khIjA taraphthI sukha cAhe che, tA bIjAne sukha ApavAnuM kAya paNa tAre karavuM paDaze. khIjAne du:kha ApIne sukha levAnI vRtti khataranAka che. khIjA pratye nathI gamatuM paraMtu, bIjo manuSya tArI khIjA sAthe jUTha khIjAne du:kha devAnI vRtti-pravRtti teA tAre cheADavI ja rahI, jo tAre sukhI banavuM che teA. khIjAne duHkha dIdhA vinA je sukha maLe temAM ja tAre saMteSa mAnavA joie. emAMthI paNa bIjAne sukhI banAvavA mATe tyAga karavA paDe te karavA joie. 46 Atmasa vedana

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jIvanaparivartana mATe bIjA jIvane dhama pamADavA pUrve tAre e tapAsI levuM joIe ke e jIvane tArA pratye dveSa to nathIne ? tArA pratye rAga che ke nahi ? je tane khabara paDe ke tArA pratye ene dveSa che, te tAre e dveSane mITAvavAnA prayatna karavA ane tArA pratye e anurAgI ane e rIte enI sAthe vartAva rAkhavo. basa, pachI tAre je dhama" pamADavo haze te dhama saraLatAthI tuM pamADI zakIza. paNa bIjAnA Sa dUra karavA mATe tAre dhIrajathI kAma levuM paDaze. utAvaLa kare nahi cAle. jema jema eno zreSa ghaTatA jaze tema tema ene tArA tarapha anurAga paNa vadhata jaze. ene dveSa dUra karavA mATe tAre enA tarapha bhAvakarUNAno vicAra kara. ene e pratIti karAvavI ke tuM ene cAhe che. , bIjAnA jIvana-parivartana mATe ATaluM to karavuM ja paDaze. | satkAyanI prazaMsA ? bIjA jIvanA satkAyanI tAre prazaMsA karavI joIe. enAthI bIjA AtmAne vadhu ne vadhu satkAya karavAnI preraNA maLe che. ane tArAmAM guNAnurAganA guNa khIle che ! AmAM dviguNa lAbha thAya che. vaLI, tArA satkAyanI bIje jIva prazaMsA kare, evI te IcachA rAkhe che. te tAre bIjAnA satkAryanI prazaMsA karavI ja joIe. | satkAya paramAtmAnuM kAya che. satkAyanI prazaMsA te karI eTale paramAtmAnI prazaMsA karI kahevAya. e rIte paramAmAnI kRpAnA pAtra banI zakAze. AtmasaMvedana

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prIti prIti karavI che ? jenI sAthe prIti kare temAM evI cIja joIne prIti karajo ke je cIja enAmAM kAyama rahenArI hoya... je cIja kAyama rahenArI na hoya, parivartanazIla hoya te joIne tenA pratye AkarSAIne je prIti karI to e prIti TakI zakaze nahi. prItinA sthAne cheSa Avaze. rUpa, bala, dhana, saMpatti, sattA, prema...rAga.... AmAMnuM kaMI paNa jeIne prIti karI, te ate pastAvAnuM thaze. kAraNa ke rUpa vagere badhuM parivartanazIla che. sAmI vyakitamAM te kAyama TakanAra nathI. guru sAthenI prItimAM paNa A dayAna rAkhaje. gurumAM je guNa kAyamI hoya, te guNa pratye tamane je anurAga hAya, te te guNathI prIti karaje, te kyAreya pastAvAno avasara nahi Ave ! bIjI eka vAta dhyAna rAkhaje-jenI sAthe prIti kare tenA pAsethI koI paNa levAnI spRhA na rAkhaze. samarpaNanI bhAvanA rAkhaje. 48 amasa vedana

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DAyarI tame tamArI eka AgavI DAyarI banAvo. temAM tamArA kuTuMbanA dareka sabhyanAM nAma lakho. pachI tamArA paricayamAM 2helA dareka snehI saMbadhIonA nAma lakhA....pachI guru mahArAjanAM nAma lakhA. dareka nAmanI sAme, te nAmavALI vyaktine eka mahatvanA guNa lakhe, koIne koI guNa to tamane dekhAze ja. zodhIne paNa....lakho. pachI roja ekavAra savAre ke rAtre e nAmanI sAthe lakhelA e guNAne pATha karavAnuM zarU karo. pachI jyAre e vyaktine tame joze tyAre, tame ene je guNa lakhyA haze, te guNa tamArI sAme AvIne UbhA raheze ! pachI enA pratye tamane dveSa nahi thAya ! guNapakSapAta guNone pakSapAta manuSyane guNI banAve che. manuSyanI sAme guNa ane deSa sAthe upasthita thAya tyAre te ja guNanA pakSa karIne doSanI upekSA kare che te samajavuM joIe ke e manuSya guNane pakSapAtI che. - enI daSTi mAM javAnI tyAM guNanuM ja dAna karavAnI ane tenA ja pakSa karavAnI, tenI vANI guNanAM ja gANAM gAvAnI. kAraNa ke jene jenA pakSapAta hoya che te tene ja jue che, ane tenI ja prazaMsA kare che. * bhale e guNa tamArAmAM nathI, paraMtu e guNAne je pakSapAta che te Aje nahI to kAle, e guNa tamArAmAM AvyA vinA nahI rahe. mATe guNonA pakSapAtI banA.. Atamasa vedana

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2Atmadarzana ( guNo jovA eTale AtmA jovA. kevaLa guNA ja dekhAtA thaI jAya tene AtmasAkSAtkAra thaI jAya. AtmasAkSAtkAra karavA mATe guNA ja jovAnI vRtti-pravRtti hAvI joIe. | doSa jevA eTale deha jovA. paranA doSa jonArane kadIya AtmasAkSAtkAra na thAya, kAraNa ke doSa ane dehane vyApya- vyApaka bhAva che. O) dhumADe joine keAI manuSyanuM anumAna nathI thatuM, paraMtu agninuM thAya che. kAraNa ke agni sAthe dhumADAnA vyAkhyavyApaka bhAva che. arthAtu jyAM dhumADA hAya tyAM agni hoya che. agni vinA dhumADe hAI ja na zake. tema doSa hoya tyAM deha hoya ja. deha vinA deSa hoI ja na zake. eTale doSa dazana keyu ke deha para ja daSTi javAnI. dehanuM ja bhAna thavAnuM, AtmAnuM nahi. ' AtmAnuM bhAna karavA mATe to guNa-dazana karavuM joIe. guNadazana vinA AtmAnuM bhAna thaI zake ja nahi. vaLI saMsArastha AtmA mATe to AtmAnuM pratyakSa darzana azakya che. ene to anumAna pramANuthI ja AtmAnuM darzana karavAnuM hAya che. ane anumAna pramANamAM te li"gInuM jJAna karavA ligajJAna joIe ja, mATe AtmAnuM jJAna karavA mATe guNAnuM dazana avazya joie. vaLI ApaNe to guNa ane guNInA abheda sa'madha paNa mAnIe chIe. guNa joyA eTale guNI joyA. arthAta ApaNe jyAM koInA guNa jo ke enA AtamAM ja joye ! pratipaLa Atmadazana karavAnA A kevA saraLa, sacoTa ane sarasa prAga che ! jI vacce paraspara ni:svArtha sneha sahadayatA ane maitrInI pratiSThA karavAnA A kevA suMdara upAya che ! pa0 Amasa vedana

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prayAga : 0 bIjAnA guNo ja jovAnI Teva pADo. - 0 e mATe bIjAnA guNo ja jovAnA vicAra karo. - 7 pratyeka jIvamAM koI ne koI viziSTa guNa rahelA ja hoya che, te zodhI kADhe. jAmI 7 bIje jIva tamArA doSa jue, te paNa tame | BEST tenA doSa na juo. / 0 bIjAnA doSa dekhAI jAya to tarata ene manamAMthI phekI daI enA guNa tarapha vaLA./ 0 AtmadezananA A amUlya upAya dvArA saunuM 'T kalyANa thAo. tArA doSa tu je Ktu A vizvane kaI daSTithI jue che, enA para tArA cittasukhane AdhAra che. (O)))))), | tu duHkhI che ? to tArI dRSTinuM saMzAdhana kera ! "doSano koi kaNa khU'pI gayA hoya... prAyaH to haze ja ! to tene bahAra khecI kADha. hRdayamAM jAmI gayelA du:khanA hImAdri ogaLI jaze.... | | | | | | | | 1 tArI jAtane jyAM sudhI sudhAravAnA prayoga cAle tyAM sudhI tuM jagatanA keAI jIvanA doSa na joiza. doSa jevA akhataro na karIza. bIjAnA doSa jovA pUve tuM nirdoSa banI jA. na jagatanA ghaNA evA bIjAnA doSa jevAnuM kAma karI rahyA che. tuM e kAma na kare te cAlI zakaze. are, tArA doSa 6 jenAranA paNa tAre doSa jovAnI jarUra nathI. te | tuM tArA potAnA ja doSe joI zake nahi, joIne dUra - na karI zake, tyAM sudhI bIjAnA doSa jovAnI Adata tane ? du:khanA javALAmukhImAM dhakelI deze.. Atmasa vedana pa1 For Private & Personal use on

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doSadRSTi jenA pratye tAre anurAga TakAvA che, tenA doSa na joIza. enA deASa tuM sAMbhaLIza paNa nahi. doSadarzana Sajanaka che. ' jyAM tuM emanA doSa jovA mAMDIza, tyAM emanA pratye cittamAM aNagamA jAgavA mAMDaze... aprIti pragaTa thaze. emanA pratye dveSa dharanArA banI jaIza. - emAM emane te nukasAna thaze tyAre thaze, paraMtu tane te turata ja nukasAna thaze ! tArU citta udvigna banaze.... aprasanna bano. bIjAo bhale tArA doSa jue, tArA doSa jonArAnA tu paNa doSa jovA mAMDIza te pachI bIjAomAM ane tArAmAM zuM taphAvata raheze ? pachI emane gunegAra kahevAne tane adhikAra nathI. deASadazanane bhayaMkara roga vyApaka banatuM jAya che. e rAgamAM seMkaDo sAdhake paNa pIDAI rahyA che. emAM tuM na sapaDAI jAya mATe jAgrata raheje. paranA guNadoSamAM tArA cittane jatuM rAka. Amasa vedana

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dRSTi badalA eka vakhata jenA guNa gAvAmAM tame thAkatA na hatA. Aje kema e gAvAnuM baMdha thaI gayu ? ane doSa balavAnA zarU thaI gayA ? bhAgyazALI ! kAI paNa cetana jIvanA doSo jovAnI kuTevane tyajI do. jo tame doSo joze te AtmAne nahi, joi nAkA... bIju eka bhAre nukazAna thaze tenI tamane khyAla che? bIjAnA doSa jovAthI e doSa tamArAmAM Avaze ! pachI tame pote ja e doSathI rIbAze.... tame deASa jue che, kAraNa ke UMDe UMDe paNa tamane e doSa game che ! jene je vastu gamatI hoya che, te vastu prAya : tenI pAse Ave che. doSa jovAnI lata choDI do. vAta avikArI svarupa ' parano doSa tyAre vadhu ciMtA upajAve che ke jayAre e doSa mane nukazAna karatA dekhAya che. tu paNa vicAraje. tane paNa A satya samajAze. paraMtu paranA doSa ApaNane nukazAna karate jyAre dekhAtA nathI tyAre ApaNe ene halako gaNIne ke karUNApAtra gaNIne besI rahIe chIe. HER'parihara paracintAparivAram / / A upadeza ApIne pUjya upAdhyAyajI vinayavijayajI mahArAja ene amala karavAnA upAya paNa batAve che. | 'vittaja nigama vivAdam' tuM tArA avikArI svarUpane vicAra ! vicAravAnuM evuM anaMta kSetra ApaNane ApI dIdhuM ke jiMdagI sudhI e kSetramAM vicaryA ja karIe ! pachI paradoSa ApaNane nukazAnakartA ja nahi lAge. tramAM jaina ApI parI svarUpanuM ja Atmasa vedana 53 Jain Education memanoma For Face Resomair use is nelibrary.org

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paraduHkha parihAra - tArA sukhanI khAtara tuM koIne du:kha ApatA nathI ne ? tAre samajavuM joIe ke tane jema duHkha priya nathI tema kAI jIvane duHkha priya nathI, te tArAthI bIjA jIvane duHkha kema ApI zakAya ? . te pachI tane prazna uThaze ke bIjAne duHkha ApyA vagara sukhI jIvana jIvI zakAya kharU ? hA ! koIne ya duHkha ApyA vagara parama sukhI jIvana jIvavAnI mAga parama kRpALu paramAtmAe batAvelA che. . have amArA tane prazna che ke tAre evuM jIvana jIvavuM che kharU ? che. have amAvela che. 1lAnA mAga bhaS:kha ApyA tArA hAthe kAI jIvane pIDA thai, duHkha thayuM ke mRtyu thayu, e joIne tArA dilamAM zuM vicAra Ave che ? | 'ahA, mane pApa lAgyuM. bhavAMtaramAM mAre e pApanuM phaLa bhogavavuM paDaze. mATe lAva prAyazcita karI lauM...." ne sAdhujIvananI bhUmikAe tane A vicAra Ave, tenI AgaLa koI ja bIjo vicAra na Ave te ghaNuM ja zAcanIya gaNAya. tArA hAthe ajANatAM jIvane pIDA thaI, duHkha thayuM ke mota thayuM, e joine tArA dilamAM arerATI....dhrujArI AvI javI joIe. ahA, mArA pramAdathI A jIvane duHkha thayuM, pIDA thaI. e jIvanA duHkhe du:khI thaI javAnI, e jIvanI pIDAe piDIta thaI javAnI bhUmikA prApta karavI joIe. tane du:kha tArA pApanA kAraNe AvanArA duHkhanA bhayathI nahi, paraMtu sAmA jIvanI pIDAnA kAraNe lAgavu" joIe. 54 Amasa vedana

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avinIta pratye avinItAnA avinaya sahana karavAmAM tane to lAbha ja che...tuM roSa na karIza. tArA rASathI kAMI teo vinIta nathI thavAnA. savatra aucityanuM pAlana AtmAmAM tyAre ja Ave che ke tenA bhAvamaLanA kSaya ghaNA thaI gayA hoya ane jIva cara mAvatamAM AvI gayA hoya. - tArA hadayamAM te tenA jIvana pratye bhAvakarUNA ja joie. emane jJAnadaSTi prApta thaze tyAre svabhAvika rIte ja aucityanA pAlanavALA banaze. evA jIvo pratye tArU jo koI kartavyuM hoya te te eka ja che : - \ temanI jJAnadaSTine kholavAmAM nimitta banavuM. \ bAkI temanA pratye udAsInatA rAkhavI. zA mATe paraciMtAmAM tAre tArU prazAma sukha gumAvI devuM' ? ApaNuM" prazama sukha jALavIne ja jeTalI thaI zake teTalI parahitanI ciMtA karavAnI che. prathama sukha gumAvIne nahIM'. ' jagata pratye dRSTi / viveka zunya...ocitya zunya manuSyanAM jevAM tevAM , vacano sAMbhaLIne tuM zAno vicAra kare che ? // / A gAMDA manuSyanA davAkhAnAmAM DeAkaTare gAMDA mANasane kaI dRSTithI jue che? kaI draSTithI sAMbhaLe che ? / / bicAro 1 gAMDA che...??.A daSTi DAkaTarAnA hadayamAM - dveSa jAgavA detI nathI. tAre paNa jagatanA ajJAna jIve prati AvI koI daSTi keLavI levI joIe. // 88khicArA ajJAnI che.?? T basa, ATalA vicAra karIza to tArA hadayamAM azAMti - udvega nahiM jAge. jagatamAM gAMDAonuM ja pramANa moTuM che. sAha... ajJAnanA roga jIvane gAMDA banAve che. chatAM e jIva pote to potAnI jAtane mahAna DAhyo mAne che. te Daa je potAne gAMDA mAne tene to gAMDA kahevAya ja kema ? AtmasaMvedana - 55 www.alinelibrary.org

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- ghaTamALa eka divasa evo hato ke e tane cAhatA hatA ane enA pratye aNagamAvALA hatA. Aje e tArA pratye aNagamAvALA banyA che ane ene cAhI rahyA che ! have tuM enA snehane meLavavA mATe zAne kheda kare che ? kSaNamAM rAgI ane kSaNamAM virAgI banatA evA emanI pAchaLa zA mATe kaleza anubhave che ? jagatanI AvI ja rIta-rasamA che ! tu bIjAnA rAgadveSano vicAra kyu vinA tArA rAgadveSane ghaTADavAnA purUSArtha kara. . jyAM tAre emanI joDe lAkho varSa pasAra karavAnAM che ? pa-rapa vaSa paNa nahi ! pachI zA mATe vihavaLa bane che ? jema jema tArA rAgadveSane ochA karato jaIza tema tema badhuM zubha vAtAvaraNa jAmatuM jaze. paraMtu vizuddhi tarapha dhasatA AtmAne enI paNa paDI nahI hoya. parama sukha pratyeka manuSyanA vicAronI pAchaLa paNa tenA karmonI preraNA hoya che. enA vicAro tamArA vicArone pratikULa hoya temAM te doSita nathI, paraMtu enA kame doSita che. - A dRSTine ghaDI kADhayA sivAya cittanI zAMti nahI maLe. eTalA mATe zrI vinayavijayajI mahArAja kahe cheH pANi ( ra mana:pariNAgam . - nilanikapatyanuNA re........... basa! e jete thaI jA. prAmanuM sukha anubhavavA maLaze. bAkI e sivAya vidvattA ke tapazcaryA paNa tane prazamasukha nahiM ApI zake. 2 3 tu tArU lakSa pheravI nAkha. tu vidvattA ke bIjI bAhya upAsanAomAMthI sukha meLavavAnI jhaMkhanA tyajI de. have te bhAvanAjJAna tarapha vaLa, tyAM prazama-sukhanI pAtAla sera 2helI che. mA ApI zake. kiravI nAkhavuM ano tyajI daMtAla pa6 AtmasaMvedana www.jainelibraron

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vizvadazana tArI sAme jagatanI jaDa racanAo ghaNI Ave che. tuM racanAone mAtra uparanI daSTithI joiza te tArA rAgadveSa vRddhi pAmaze paraMtu je tuM e jaDa racanAone AdhyAtmika dRSTithI joIza, emAMthI koI sanAtana satya samajavA prayatna karIza, te rAgadveSathI para apUrva AnaMda anubhavI zakIza. - te caMdrane keTalI vAra joyA haze ? paNa te e caMdramAMthI keAI. satya meLavyuM' ? caMdra sArAya vizvane prakAza ne zitaLatA Ape che. caMdranA prakAzamAM lAkho karoDo ja AnaMdanI anubhUti kare che....paraMtu e caMdra rAhuthI grasita bane che. tyAre e lAkha karoDa jemAMthI koI paNa ene mukata karAvavA jatuM nathI ! puruSArtha karatuM nathI ! chatAM caMdra jIve para roSa nathI karatA ane rAhuthI jema jema mukata thatA jAya che, tema tema puna : jIvone prakAza ApavAnuM, AnaMda ApavAnuM zarU karI de che. manuSya bIjA upara upakAra kare che paraMtu e jIve taraphathI ke jemanA para pate upakAra karelA che. pratyupakrAranI apekSA rAkhe che ! paraMtu jyAM e jI taraphathI sahAya maLatI nathI.... ke manuSya emanA tarapha TheSa dhAraNa karI le che pachI emanA para upakAra karavAnI vRtti jAgatI nathI. candra kahe cheH - 8 tame tamAru' katavya bajAve jAo sAmA taraphathI badalAnI AzA tyajI do. ?" kahA, A satya kevuM jIvanopayogI ane apUva che ? ema dareka padArtha nuM nirIkSaNa karatAM karatAM navuM navuM rahasya prApta thatuM raheze. pa7 Atmasa vedana Jain Eduardo momento ent r e Private Personal use only je mejorar como

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upadeza tene jIvanane sudhAravuM nathI. jevuM te jIve che tevu ja jIvana tene vahAluM che, pachI tuM zA mATe kheda kare che? bhale tane enu jIvana pasaMda nathI. paNa tethI te enA jIvanane nahi sudhArI zake. ema sudhAryA jatAM teA e tArA para paNa dveSI banI jaze. je tArI pAse upadeza sAMbhaLavA mAge che, ane tArA ja sahAre jemane jIvana parivatana karavAnI bhAvanA che. temane jatuM upadeza Apa mAkInAone tArA upadeza prakeApa mATe anaze. tArA jemanI sAthe saMbaMdha che, javAbadArI che, emane paNa upadeza maryAdIta ja kharekhara! peAtAnI jAtane mUkha mAnanAra ja.... aMtaHkaraNathI jANanAra ja gurujanAnA upadeza premathI ane utkaMThAthI sAMbhaLI zake che. Aje peAtAnI jAtane mUkha mAnanArA keTalA ? ne peAtAne sarvajJa mAnanArA keTalA tArA jemanI Apa. citakAmAM sa zAstra ane zlAka tA enA eja hAya che. paraMtu bhinna bhinna thayApazamavALA citakA enA atha jyAre bhinna kare che, tyAre sAmAnya janatA bhramaNAmAM paDI jAya che! chatAMya manuSya peAtAnA zraddheya puruSa para vizvAsa mukI daI nizcita banI zake che. paratu eka ciMtaka khIjA ci MtakanA abhiprAyane sahana nathI karatA tyAre sagha-samAjamAM eka meTA kAlAhala macI jAya che! khIjAnA abhiprAya (zAstra a) cAgya che ke aceAgya ane vicAra khUba madhyasthatApUrvaka karavA joie. ane te paNa sazva zAMtinA bhaMga na thAya te rIte. tA ja dhama mAge zAMti rahe. ane madhyastha dRSTivALA jIvA dhama mALe AkarSAya. 58 ( Atmasa vedana

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bhAvanA 'hu' AtmA chuM. huM zarIra nathI. huM zarIrathI judA chuM'. zarIranA dhama judA che. mArA dhama judA che...' A bhAvanAthI tAre bhAvita thavAnI jarUra che. jyAM sudhI tuM A bhAvanAthI bhAvita nahi bane tyAM sudhI tAro bAhirbhAva nahi aTake. AMtarabhAva nahi pragaTe. - jyAre bAhirAtmabhAvanuM nAma ja saMsAra che ne! e saMsAramAMthI mukata karanAra che aMtarAtmabhAva. jyAM aMtarAtmabhAva AvavA mAMDayA tyAM vAsanAo osaravA mAMDaze. | mATe uparokata bhAvanAthI khUba khUba bhAvita thavA prayatnazIla banaje. AtmasmRti AmAnI sanmukha thayA vinA dhamasAdhanAno AnaMda nahi anubhavAya. kAraNa ke dhamasAdhanA Atmasanmukha thavA . mATe che. - are, AtmAnA lakSapUvaka thatI kyiA ja dhamakriyA kahevAya ! je AtmAnuM lakSa keLavyA vinA ja jIvananA aMta AvI jaze, te parAkramAM zuM thaze ? mATe pratyeka kriyAnA prAraMbhe huM AtmA chuM...... mAre mArA AtmAne vizuddha karavA che........ A vicAra hovo joie. Atmasa vena

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AtmAnI smRti AtmAnI smRti vinA AtmAnI vizuddhi kevI rIte karaze ? zarIranI satata smRtinA kAraNe zarIranI vizuddhi vAravAra karA che. huM AtmA chuM." A smRti sadaiva rahevI joie. pachI enI vizuddhi karavAnA vicAra jAgaze. icchA jAgaze. tIvra bhAvanA jAgaze. AtmavizuddhinI tIvra bhAvanA tamane paramAtmAnuM smaraNa karAvaze, kAraNa ke paramAtmA sivAya tame Atmavizuddhi karI zake| ja nahi. ane e rIte Atmavizuddhi mATe tame paramAtmAnuM smaraNa dazana ane arcana karaze, temAM tamArAM tana-mana tallIna anI jaze. pachI cittanI caMcaLatAnI phariyAda nahi rahe. bhUlaze nahi. A jIvana Atmavizuddhi mATe che. mAnavajIvana sivAya kayAMya Atmavizuddhine prayAga thaI zakatA nathI. mATe A mahAna kavyane majAvavA jAgrata manI jAe. AtmaprIti AtmAnI vismRti thai jAya tevuM meleA nahi. tevuM AcarA nahi. kadAca pramAdathI evu' kheAlI javAya ke AcaraNa thaI jAya, tA turata ja AtmabhAvamAM pAchA AvI jAe. paramAtmAnuM Alekhana paNa AtmAnI smRti mATe karA. paramAtmAnI mUrti arisA che temAM ApaNuM svarUpa jovAnuM che.... paramAtmA para prIti karavI enA atha e che ke ApaNA ja AtmA para prIti karavI. je jIva paramAtmA para, paramAtmAnI mUrti para prIti nathI karatA te jIva peAtAnA eka mAtra AtmA para prIti thai jAya, dRDha prIti thaI jAya. basa, pachI ciMtA karavAnuM kAraNa nathI. e ja prayatna ane eja puruSAtha karA. A jIvana prIti nathI karatA. te Atmasa vedana AtmA para paNa 61

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AMtara-AnaMda AMtaradaSTi to ughaDaze jo bAhyadaSTi baMdha karo. bAhyadaSTi baMdha karavI eTale jagatanuM bahu jovAnuM ane sAMbhaLavAnuM baMdha karavuM. jagatanA padArthone jovAmAM ane sAMbhaLavAmAM jyAM sudhI rasa che tyAM sudhI AMtaradaSTi nahi khule.. jema jema tuM jagatano paricaya (jaDa padArthonA saMga) ocho karIza tema tema aMtaHkaraNa tarapha javAne mAga maLaze. - jagatanA paricayamAM tuM je sukhane anubhava kare che, tenA karatAM aneka ghaNe adhika madhura anubhava tane aMtaHkaraNamAMthI maLaze. sthira bana ! sthiratA tane sukhanA khajAnA batAvaze ! V T jagatanA sa ba dha > bhautika jagatanA AnaMda karatAM AMtara jagatanA AnaMdanI anubhUti apUva che. cirasthAyI che.... abhayamadA che. te ekAdavAra te AMtara jagatanA AnaMdane anubhava kara... gabharAIza nA. tane Anada jarUra maLaze....AnaMdanA sAgaramAM manamAnI sahelagAha karavAnI maLaze. e mATe tuM jagatanA saMbaMdhothI para thaI jA. zarIra uparanA gumaDAne kApI nAkhatAM saheja baLatarA to uThavAnI ja, paratu e kApe ja chUTakA ! jagatanA sa ba dhAne kApI nAkhatA saheja...ke vadhu baLatarA thavAnI, paraMtu pachI apUrva AnaMda ! Atmasa vedana

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Anada | tAre svaga nA Anada joIe che ? svaganA AnaMda abhayaprada nathI ! bhayanA bhiSaNa meLAo e AnadanI cAre kAra dekhA de che... tuM jayAM e svaga"nA AnadamAM bhAna bhUlIza ke e bhISaNa rAkSase tane bharakhI jaze. . AnaMda zodha, nibhaya Ana de zodha! je AnaMdanI anubhUti pAchaLa koI bhAvI dakha nirmANa na thatu hAya. je AnaMdanI anubhUtinI pAchaLa koI bhAvI du:kha nirmANa thatu* hAya tevA Anadano tyAga karavuM anivArya che. tAre evA AnaMdanI lisAno tyAga karavo ja joIe. \" ( AMtara nirIkSaNa tAre AMtaranirIkSaNa karavuM joIe, emAM ja tAre khAvAI javuM joIe... jema jema te AMtara nirIkSaNa karato jaiza tema tema A duniyA parathI Asakti osaratI jaze. duniyAnA vicAramAM paNa tArA cittamAM nahi praveze. tuM tArAmAM u`DA UtarIza.... evA virATa pradezamAM tu' pahoMcI jaIza ke jayAM svaga che..naraka che.... mAkSa che ! tAre je joItuM haze... tuM je cAhatA hAiza, te badhuM tane tyAMthI maLI raheze. A eTaluM dhyAnamAM rAkhaje ke uMDANanA e agama pradeza ' para paramAtmAnuM sAmrAjaya che, enI pratyeka paLe smRti rAkhaje. 5. te Atmasa'vedana 63 For Private & Personal use only

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Atma prApti tAre zuM prApta karavuM che ? zuM prApta karavA tu purUSArtha karI rahyo che, A vAta vicArI che? - je kaMi paNa prApta karavA jevuM hoya to te tAro AtmA che. AtmAne prApta karavAnA purUSAtha" sivAya bIjo kAI purUSArtha karavA jevo nathI. | AtmA sivAya kaI paNa meLavavA jevuM nahi lAge tyAre ja cAganA mAge tArA prayANano prAraMbha thaze ! AtmAne ja meLavavA mATenA purUSAthamAM tuM lAgI jaIza tyAre tuM cAgI banIza. cAgI banyA vinA AtmAnI prApti nahIM thAya.... AtmAnI prApti eTale kamamukata AtmAnI avasthAnI prApti. AtmAnuM zuM che? tArA AtmAthI bhinna evA jaDa ke cetana padAthanI prAtimAM tuM tArI pUrNatAnuM darzana kare che. e tArI kevI gaMbhIra bhUla thaI rahI che ? tArU katavya jarUra juduM che. tArI pAse je para padArtho nathI, tenI pRhA te tAre karavAnI nathI ja, paraMtu je che tene tAre tyAga karavAnA che ! bIjA pAse, tArA karatAM adhika jaDa padArtho joI, tAre tenI abhilASA nathI karavAnI.... paraMtu enI pRhA tane na lAgI jAya, te mATe jAgatA rahevAnuM che ! te AtmA che. AmA zuM che? teno ja vicAra kara. Atmasa vedana

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dvaita-advaita jyAM sudhI dveta che, dvaitanA mAha che tyAM sudhI AMtarakhAdya vikSepe AvavAnA. advaita na pragaTe, paranI apekSA tUTe nahI tyAM sudhI duHkha ja rahevAnuM. mirAjiSa e saMsAranA tyAga kevI rIte karyAM hatA? dvaitamAM temaNe du:kha joyuM: advaitamAM temaNe sukha anubhavyuM! ane te rAjya cheADI nIkaLI paDayA. te paNa gharamAra cheDayAM che...para Mtu te navA dvaitanA jagatamAM praveza karyAM che, mATe ahI paNa tuM mAnasika phUleze! anubhavI rahyo che! parapadArthAMnI ane parabyaktionA tu cheADa...e khurI lata che....duHkhane tArA AtmAmAMthI ja AnaMdanA anubhava karavAnA prayatnamAM lAgI jA. tuM ghaNuM sukha anubhavIza. anurAganI apekSA neAMtaranArI che. a jIvana parAdhInatA mITAvI devA mATe che; A samajane hRdayastha karIne tAre jIvavAnuM che, e bhUlI jaiza mA. arthAt e sthitie tAre paheAMcavAnuM che ke jyAM jIvana jIvavA mATe mAhya eka paNa jarUrIAta na rahe. jaDanI pugalanI jarAya sahAya vinA kevaLa caitanyanA sahAre jIvavAnu che. Atmasa vedana jIvana zA mATe ? jIvana zuM mATe AjathI ja jIvana jIvavAmAM khAhya jarUriyAta para kApa mUka. 65

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svarUpanA rAga jenA para tane rAga che. ene viyeAga thAya athavA tA e tArA para nArAja thAya tyAre tuM du:khI na thaIza. tu azAnta na thaIza. tuM tArA svarUpe sahuthI bhinna che. svajaneAthI tuM judo che. parijanAthI bhinna che. vaibhavathI anya che, are! tArA zarIrathI tuM judo che! teA pachI zA mATe e badhAnI khAtara kheda kare che? je tuM nathI, je tArA nathI, e kadIya tArA thavAnA nathI, ema tuM samajI le. tArA svarUpane tuM rAgI bana. AtmasvarUpanA rAgI mana. AtmAnI svabhAva dazAnA rAgI jIva AtmAnI vibhAvadazAmAM harSoM-zAka na kare. vibhAva dazAnA teA jJAtA-draSTA khanavAmAM ja majhA che, zAnti che. tArA svarUpanA rAgI manavA mATe paramAtmarAga jAgrata kara. jema jema paramAtmaprIti dRDha thatI jaze tema tema svarUpanA rAga paNa vadhatA jaze. svabhAva dazA tAre svabhAva dazAnuM lakSa na cukyu joie. ane tArI sAme je prasa`geA ane tene tAre svabhAva dazAthI nihALavA. te aneka mAnasika viSamatAothI bacI zakIza. vibhAvadazAnA AkaSa NA jarUra pramaLa che. svabhAva dazAmAMthI vicalita karI denArAM hrAya che, paratu svabhAva tarapha hRdayanI jhukAvaTa thayA pachI vibhAvamAM kheMcAi javAnuM nahi mane. svamAM ja lIna manavAnI kaLA hastagata karI levA jevI che. Atmasa vedana

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kevA banavuM che ? zilpI paththara para TAMkaNuM mAravA taiyAra thAya che, te pUve tenA cittamAM eka kalpanA-AkRti spaSTa hoya che. ane te ka95nA AkRtine upasAvavA... pragaTAvavA mATe DhAMkaNAthI paththarane kAre jAya che. ApaNe ApaNA AtmAnuM kevuM ghaDatara karavuM che? ApaNI ka95nA sRSTimAM AtmAnuM kevuM svarUpa ApaNane game che ? te mujaba tapa, tyAga, dayAna, jJAna vagerenA DhAMkaNAM paDavAnAM ! AtmAnI kalpanA-AkRtinA bhAna vinA jema tema TAMkaNAM mAravA jaizu to eka kaDha'gI ane jevIya na game tevI AkRti ghaDAI jaze.... . kevA banavuM che? e spaSTa karI ! | guptabhaMDAra tuM je bahAra zodhe che, tene tArI pAse zodhI joyuM ? je tArI pAse haze te bIje kayAMthI maLaze ? bIje zodhavA jatAM to kevaLa kheda-kuleza ane saMtApa ja pAmIza. tAre tAre guptabhaMDAra tapAsavA paDaze. e guptabhaMDAranA mArgo paNa tAre zodhI kADhavA paDaze. e mArgo aTapaTA ane mUMjhavI denArA haze ! paraMtu jo tuM jarAya nirAzAne sthAna ApyA vinA AgaLa purUSArtha karatA ja rahIza te e guptabhaMDAramAM pahoMcI jaIza. - pachI to tArA AnaMdanI sImA nahi rahe. e gupta bhaMDAramAM ja tane evuM badhuM maLI jaze ke pachI bahAra javAnI ke bahAra javAnI eka kSaNunI paNa IcchA nahi thAya. bahAranuM paribhramaNa have baMdha kara. ane tArA AMtarapradeza tarapha vaLa. e pradeza anaMta che. AhalAdaka che. e pradeza zodhI kADhavAmAM ja mukelI che. pachI te AnaMda, Anada ne AnaMda che. Atmasa vedana

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ahu-mama aruM'ane 'mama' e meAharAjAnA maMtrAkSara che. ApaNA jIva e maMtranA jApa karatA rahe che. tethI ajJAnane adhakAra AtmAmAM gADha khanatA jAya che.... e matre te sArA jagatane AMdhaLuM anAvI dIdhuM che. tame jo tamArA hitane joi zakatA nathI, tA samajavuM joie ke ahamamamanA jApa cAlu che. tenAthI divya dRSTi khIDAI gaI che. jo tamAre divya dRSTi khAlavI che teA ahammamanA matrAkSarane bhUlI javA paDaze. ane enA sthAne 'nAha - na mama" nA maMtrAkSara japavA paDaze. 6 6 huM nathI, mArUM nathI " A vicArane AtmAmAM daDha karI devA paDaze. arhatva ane mamatvane haTAve ja chuTakA che. jo tamAre tamArA kalyANa mAga ne jovA che ane e mAge cAlavuM che tA. parahitanI pravRtti paranuM hita tyAM sudhI karavAnu` che ke jyAM sudhI tArU Atmahita na ghavAya. paratuM hita karavA jatAM khAhya nukazAnInI paravA na karIza. paraMtu tArA AtmAnuM nuksAna na thAya tenI khuba paravA rAkhaje. kayAreka paranuM hita karavA jatAM abhimAna vadhe che. kayAreka mAnAkAMkSA tIvra bane che, kayAreka daSTidoSa tA kyAreka doSadaSTi jAgI jAya che. kayAreka zIla ane sadAcAra bhayamAM mUkAi jAya che. A badhAM nukazAne na calAvI levAya. e mATe sadaiva jAgRti rahevI joie. AvA nukazAnanA aNusAre thatAM ja e parahitanI pravRtti baMdha karI devI joie. parantu' hita karavA mATe paranA sacAgamAM AvavuM paDe che. e saMcAganI maryAdAonuM lakSa na cUkavu joie. jo e lakSa cUkAyuM / . svaparanuM hita nahi paraMtu javAnuM. ahita ja thai 68 Atmasa vedana

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mana e te ApaNu lADaku khALaka che. e mana-khALane ApaNe sughaDa rAkhavuM joie. enu saundraya jALavavA ApaNe jAgrata rahevu joie. e gadavADa na cUMthe, e jayAM tyAM ALeATIne enu suMdara zarIra meluM na kare eneA khyAla rAkhavA joie, chatAMya e teA bALaka kahevAya ! e meluM thavAnuM ja ! enAM kapaDAM bagaDavAnAM ja ! ethI ApaNe akaLAi javuM na joIe. paNa vAraMvAra ane svaccha karavu joie. e gaMdavADamAM ramavA na cAlyuM jAya, evI jagAe ene rAkhavu' joIe. ene ramavAM mATe ramakaDAM paNu ApavA paDe ! paNa ene evAM ramakaDAM ApavAM ke e ramakaDAM enAmAM sArA saskAra pADe. vaLI, e mALakane sArA mANasAnA hAthamAM ramADavA Apavu joie. mana-mALa vyasanI, pramAdI ane aNughaDa mANusene ApaNuM manabALaka na soMpavuM! mATe teA satyamAgama karavAnA che! 70 02 Atmasa vedana

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vicAra-khorAka nAnA bALakane tame sArU-pauSTika khAvAnuM nahi Ape to te narasuM, zarIra bagADanAruM khAvAnuM, e narasuM na khAI jAya te mATe mAtA gharamAM enA mATe sAruM khAvAnuM rAkhIja ApaNuM mana nAnA bALaka jevuM che. ene ApaNe sadvicArone pauSTika khorAka nahi ApIe to te halakA vicAre karavAnuM ja. mana-bALaka mATe ApaNe saddavicAronA DAbaDA rAkhI ja mUkavA paDaze ! jyAre ene khAvAnI irachA thAya tyAre e DAbaDA khAlIne ApavAnuM ! | tame kahezeH ene kaMI ja khAvA na ApIe to ? manamAM sArA ke narasA kAI ja vicAra na karIe to sAruM ne ? - are, nAnA bALakane te bhUkhyuM rakhAya ? nAnuM bALaka / bhUkhyuM rahI zake ? balAtkAre bhUkhyuM rAkhavAthI te enI khAvAnI IchA tIvra banI javAnI ane taka maLatAM je maLaze khAvAnuM, tenA para tUTI paDaze ! ApaNA manane bilakula bhUkhyuM rAkhI zakAya ema nathI. nivikalapa samAdhi ApaNA mATe nathI ! ApaNe te mana-bALakane pace eTale sAtvika saddavicArane khorAka Apavo ja paDaze ! tmasa vedana Jain Education internauonal For Private Personal use only www.janelibrary.org

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mananuM dhana je makAnamAM bahu ja dhana hoya te makAnanI tame keTalI takedArI rAkhe ? kevI cAkI mUke ? mananA makAnamAM dhananA Dhera paDelA che, e tame jANo che ? eka eka saddavicAra eka eka ratna che. ApaNe mananA makAnanI keTalI takedArI rAkhIe chIe ? keI cAkI mUkI che? ApaNe kharekhara bramaNAmAM aTavAyA chIe, tananA makAnanI ja ApaNe takedArI ane cAkI rAkhIe chIe ! ke je tanamAM hADakAM, mAMsa ane lehI sivAya kaMI nathI.... je dhULa samAna che.... je ApaNane vAstavika sukha, zAnti ApavA samartha nathI. mananA makAnanI rakSA karo.' mananuM dhana koI cArI na jAya, saddavicAra cArAi na jAya tenI kharekharI takedArI rAkhe, cokIdAra barAbara goThavI do. sAtvika bhAvone poSanAra graMtha, AMtaradaSTine ughADI ApanArA sAdhu purUSA, kRpAsAgara tArake paramAtmA.... A badhA cAkIdAro che. mananA dvAre Amane sthAna Ape, tamArUM mananuM dhana surakSita raheze, ane e dhana dvArA ja tame akSaya ane anaMta sukha meLavaze ! 9. AtmasaMvedana

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manaHsthiratA tArU mana sthira rahetuM nathI, evI tArI phariyAda che, kharuM ne ? tAre tAruM mana sthira banAvavuM che? cokakasa banAvavuM che ? te manane bhaTakavAnAM sthAne ochA kara. vAraMvAra jayAM mana jatuM hoya te viSaya pratye virAga keLava ane enA tyAga kara. manane sahelagAhI karavAnAM pavitra-ucca sthAna UbhAM kara. manane vAraMvAra tyAM laI jA ane e sthAnamAM kalAke sudhI besADI rAkha. tArUM mana sthira ane pavitra banaze. kRta nizcayI banI jA. mana sthira-pavitra thaI zake ema che ! A AMtara vizvAsa keLavIne prayatna kara, mananuM ghaDatara je tAre tArA mananuM sAtvika ane pavitra ghaDatara karavuM hoya te : - dazana, zravaNa ane vAMcana, sudhAravAM paDaze. badalavAM paDaze. vAsanoraMjaka dAnAM daza"na vAsanottejaka zravaNa ane malina vAMcanathI tArUM citta apavitra ane ni:satva banyuM che. - evuM jovAnuM, sAMbhaLavAnuM ane vAMcavAnuM tuM baMdha karI de. ane enA sthAne pavitra sthAno ane vyakitanA darzana kara. bhAvanAttejaka zravaNa kara ane udAra vicArasaraNI ghaDanAra graMthanuM vAMcana kara. AtmasaMvedana 73 Jalin Education International For Private & Personal use only www.latinelibrary.org

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vyakitatvanuM ghaDatara tamArA gharamAM kevA mANasonI avarajavara thAya che enA para tamArI sajajanatA ke dujanatAnuM mApa nikaLe ne ? - hiMsake, jUThA, cAra, durAcArI mANasane tamArA gharamAM Avara-jAvaro haze te tame dujana banyA samajo ! - ema, ApaNA manamAM kevA vicAronI avarajavara thAya che. tenA para ApaNA vyakitatvanA ghaDatarane AdhAra che. ApaNA manamadiramAM kevA puruSone DAyaro jAme che enuM ApaNe nirIkSaNa karavuM joIe. e nirIkSaNa karatAM dekhAze ke ApaNA manAma'diramAM evA vicAronA aDDA jAmelA che ke je hiMsaka che ! je juThA che ! je cera che ! je durAcArI che. AvA vicArone satvare hAMkI kADhavA joIe. e mATenA upAya paNa bahu saraLa che ho ! ApaNe satyarUSane-saddavicArone manamaMdiramAM padhAravAnuM saprema AmaMtraNa ApavAnuM ! emanI avara-javara dhIme dhIme zarU karavAnI. basa ! saddavicAronI avarajavara zarU thaI, ke ApaNuM vyakitatva UMcuM ghaDAyuM samajo ! sArA banavA saddavicAra karavA ja paDaze. ApaNe kharAba banyA chIe kharAba vicArethI. Oy AtmasaMvedana

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jIva-maitrI tamArUM kapaDu meluM thayeluM joine tamane zu vicAra Ave che? kapaDAne ujaLuM banAvavAnAne ? doSAnA melathI milana thayelA jIvane joine tamane zuM vicAra Ave che? enA doSa-mela dUra karIne ujavala banAvavAnA ? kevI kamanazIkhI ! doSayukta manuSyane jIvane joI ne enA pratye khIjA raskAra jAge che, dhikakAra jAge che..... khIjA jIvAnA doSa-melane dUra karIne ene ujjavala banAvavAnA vicAra tyAre ApaNe karI zakIzu ke jyAre e jIvAne ApaNe ApaNA mitre mAnIzu ! khIjAnuM kapaDuM meluM joI ne ujaLuM karavAnA ApaNane vicAra nahi Ave, ema jyAM sudhI jagatanA jIvAne ApaNe 'khIjA' mAnIzuM tyAM sudhI emanA doSA dUra karavAnA vicAra nahi Ave. bIjAnA doSA joIne tiraskAra karavA te jIva pratyenuM vaira che. banA khIjAnA doSo joI ne ene dUra karavAnA vicAra karavA te jIva pratye maitrI che. Atmasa vedana ()" ); 100 75

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mAtRhRdaya mAtAne be bALake che. eka che taMdurasta, bIje che nAdurasta. mAtRhadaya nAdurasta-bimAra putra pratye adhika karUNa banavAnuM, adhika saMbhALa rAkhanArUM banavAnuM. enA pratye tiraskAravALuM ke dhikkAravALuM nahi. ema sAdhuhadaya eTale mAtRhRdaya che. jagatanA doSita AtmAo pratye emanuM hRdaya karuNAbhInuM hAya. doSita AtmAo aMge teo sadaiva ciMtAtura rahe che. deSita pratye temanA haiyAmAM dhikakAra ke tiraskAra na hoya. rogI mANasanI traNa kakSA pADI zakAya. (1) pitAnA rAganI bhayaMkaratA samajIne tene dUra karavA taiyAra thanAra. (2) roganI bhaya'karatA sAMbhaLatAM hatAza thaI janAra. | (3) roganI bhayaMkaratA batAvanAra pratye tiraskAra batAvanAra. deSita AtmAo paNa A traNa kakSAnA kahI zakAya. ApaNe enI kakSAno vicAra karIne pachI e dUra karavAno upAya zodhavo joIe. paNa e mATe mAtRhRdaya joIe. mAmasa vedana

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uchaLatA pANInI nIce zuM paDeluM che, te dekhAya nahi. emAM jonArane peAtAnuM meAM paNa na dekhAya....ane dekhAya tAya kheDALa ! ema jyAM sudhI ApaNuM citta caMcaLa che tyAM sudhI ApaNe ApaNI jAtane paNa joi zakatA nathI. ane kadAca joie chIe to beDoLa dekhAie chIe ! kheDALa zAMta....prazAMta cittamAM ApaNI jAtanuM jevu che tevu suMdara darzana thaI zake che ane e dazana karyAM pachI jAtane bAhya padArthothI suMdara banAvavAnA keDa thatA nathI. pANI jema bAhya ane AMtarika vikSepeAthI cacaLa thAya che....uchaLe che. tema ApaNuM citta paNa bAhya ane AMtarika vikSepeAthI cacaLa mane che. khAdya che jagatanA viSaye ane AMtarika che pApakarmAMnA udayeA. cittane zAMta-prazAMta banAvavA mATe A ane prakAranA vikSepone dUra karavAnA upAyA zodhI kADhavA joie. e upAyA jinazAsana khatAve che. Atmasa vedana 77

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ApanAra ane TALanAra jyAre tamAruM makAna duzamanathI, DAkuothI gherAI gayuM hoya tyAre tamane kaI yAda Ave che? tame kene yAda kare cho ? milITarIne (sipAIo ) ne ? arthAt duHkha ane ApattinA kALe duHkha ApanArane vicAra kare che ke du:kha TALanArane ? ApaNe duHkhI chIe enuM A eka asAdhAraNa kAraNa che. duHkha ane ApattinA TANe ApaNe duHkha ApanArane ja vAraMvAra yAda karIe chIe ane manane azAMta banAvIe chIe. je ApaNe duHkha ane ApattinA kALe duHkha TALanArane | vicAra karIzuM to ApaNuM citta azAMta nahi bane. | caMdanabALAne mULAmAtAe mAthuM mUDIne, beDI paherAvIne adhArI oraDImAM pUrI hatI tyAre caMdanabALA kene yAda karatI hatI ? mULAne ke mahAvIrane ? je mULAne yAda karatI hota to saMbhava che ke enuM nAma mahAsatIonA lIsTamAM na noMdhAyuM hota ! e te eka zvAsocchavAsamAM so vAra mahAvIrane yAda karatI hatI ! kAraNa ke mahAvIra duHkhane TALanArA hatA. S8 Atmasa vedana

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kRtajJatA tame bahu du:khI che. khAvA mATe anna nathI, paheravA mATe vastra nathI, rahevA mATe ghara nathI, zarIra paNa rAgathI gherAyu che. tyAM kAI sajjana purUSa tamArA hAtha pakaDe, tamane khAvA mATe khuba anna Ape, paheravA mATe suMdara vasro Ape, rahevA mATe maMgaleA Ape, DAkaTara pAse davA karAvI tamane ArAgya Ape. tame e sajjana mATe manamAM zu' vicAravAnA ? emAM eNe zAnA upakAra karyAM ? ene peAtAnA pApa khapAvavAM hatAM eTale A badhu karyu..' Ave! vicAra kare teA tamArAmAM mANasAi che, ema kahI zakAya ? ema tamane kahevAmAM Ave ke 'paramAtmA tItha karadeve vizva upara apAra karuNAthI vizvane parama sukhI manAvI DhavAnI zubha bhAvanAthI dhamatIyanI sthApanA karI ane e dhatInA puNya prabhAve ja Aje ApaNe sukhI chIe.' AnI sAme jo tame kaheA: e tA tItha karane peAtAnuM tIthaMkara nAmakama' khapAvavuM hatuM mATe dharmAMtI nI sthApanA karI ane dezanA ApI....emAM vaLI karUNA zAnI?' te tame kRtajJa ke kRtaghna ? Atmasa vedana S www.jainelibrary org

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ucca sevA hadayamAM paDelA nAnakaDA DAgha (kANu) mazInanI sahAyathI DokaTara tamane moTo karIne batAve che, to DokaTara tamane kevA lAge che? upakArIne? tema ApaNA nAnakaDA doSane keI moTuM svarUpa ApIne batAve to ApaNe tene TIkAkhora kahIne vakhoDI kADhavA na joIe. paraMtu eka nidAnakuzaLa DeAkaTaranI jema tene upakArI mAnave joIe. bIjA ApaNA doSa batAve che, te te ApaNI ucca kakSAnI sevA kare che. ApaNane ApaNI jAta mATe sAvaceta ne sAvaceta rAkhe che. jema ApaNA DeAkaTara ApaNA pUyA vinA ApaNA rAge batAvI "maphata sevA ApatA hoya ane ApaNane te eTale vahAlA lAge, eTale ja pelo 'deASadazaka" vahAlA lAge ! e ane A daSTinuM ghaDatara thayuM eTale to pachI ApaNe bhavasAgara taryA samajo ! bIjAmAM so guNa haze paNa ApaNA doSa batAvavAne eka doSa enAmAM haze to ApaNe tene niguNI ja mAnavA TevAyelA chIe ane A dRSTi ja ApaNane bhavasAgara taravA detI nathI. Atmasa vedana

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rastA parathI pasAra tame adhArI rAte kAI ajANyA thAe che. tamane khakhara nathI ke vacce kUvA che. tame acAnaka kUvAmAM khasI paDayA. bhAgyayeAge aMdaramAM pANIne badale ghAsa hatu. macI gayA. tyAM koI vaTemArgune khabara paDI, tamane ahAra kADhayA ane peAtAnA raste cAlyeA gayA. tamArA sAtha na karyAM, sAtha karyA vinA UtAvaLe UtAvaLA cAlyA gayA. daivI sahAya chatAM enA pratye tamArA haiyAmAM keTaleA adheA prema jAgavAnA ? tame ene daivI sahAya mAnavAnA ! enA upakAra gAtA pharavAnA. je gurue tamane bhavakUpamAMthI bahAra kheMcI kADhayA, prema ane karUNAthI; te guru pachIthI kadAca tamArI sabhALa na kare. kadAca emanu zivaprayANa jhaDapI hAya, tame pAchaLa rahI jAe.... te emanA pratye prema rahevAnA kharA ? emanA upakArane daivI sahAya " mAnavAnA ? emanA upakArane gAtA pharavAnA ! bhavanA kUvAmAMthI gurue je ApaNane bahAra kADhayA che, te ja temanA mahAna upakAra che. enI smRti sateja rAkhIza to ja ApaNe ' kRtajJa kahevAIzu have sanI Atmasa vedana 81

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es paga upara gumaDAM dekhAtAM hAya, hAtha para cAThAM dekhAtAM hAya....paratuM mukhanuM sauMdaya addabhUta hAya, teA tame zu jovAnA ? gumaDAM ane cAThAM joine ghRNA karavAnA ke suMdara mukha joine AkarSAI javAnA ? ( ema kAI AtmAmAM kAya...mAna...mAyA....lAla vagere doSA dekhAtA hAya.... paraMtu sevA, paropakAra.... vagere kAi guNa adbhUta hAya te tame zuM jovAnA! e addabhUta guNa joIne AkarSAI javAnA kharA ? ke doSanA gumaDAM joine ghaNA karavAnA ? 82 dehanA ekAda guNu.... rUpa, ghATa, bAMdhe....joine paNa rAga thAya che, tema AtmAnA ekAda guNu kSamA, namratA, sevA paropakAra joine ApaNane anurAga thavA joie. te ApaNe guNAnurAgI kahevAie ane vyaktinA ekAda guNu paNa ApaNane AkaSanArA banaze, pachI enA doSo joI tiraskAra ke ghaNA nahiM jAge. paraMtu enA dASAne dUra karavAnI karUNA jAgaze. guNAnurAga ane karUNA pragaTayA pachI enA dASA bIjAne kahevAnI adhamatA rahe ja kayAMthI ? ja A guNAnurAgI Atmasa vedana www.jainellbrary.org

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khIja vAvIe ghauMnA moTA pAka joitA hAya te khetaramAM ghauM ja vAvavA paDene ? ema anaMta guNAne pAka ApaNe joitA hAya te| guNanAM ja khI vAvavA joie ne? guNanAM khI vAvyA vinA anaMta guNaneA pAka na maLe. mATe zrI jinezvara bhagavate AtmakSetramAM 21 guNa-bIja vAvavA upadeza karyAM che. guNAnAM bIja vAvyA vinA karelI dhamasAdhanA e te, khetaramAM bIja vAvyA vinA karelA kheDANane pAvAmAM AvatA pANI jevI che! khIja vAvyA vinA khetarane game teTalu kheDavAmAM Ave, pANI reDavAmAM Ave, vADa karavAmAM Ave.... chatAM badhuM niSphaLa, tema guNNAnAM bIja vAvyA vinA karAtI dhamasAdhanA niSphaLa che. AnI sAme AvI dalIla na karatAM 'guNA hAya teA pachI dhama sAdhanA na karIe te cAlene?" A te dalIla kevI che? keAI kahe: khetaramAM khIja vAvIe pachI vADa na karIe, pANI na pAie teA cAlene?" tevI ! guNAnAM bIja vAvyA vinA ja dhamanI khetI--majUrI karI che ana'takALamAM, have bIja vAvIne khetI karIe. Atmasa vedana 83

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prArabdhanI TAMkI TAMkImAM pANI na hoya te naLamAM pANI Ave kharuM ? pachI e naLanI pAse tame eka kalAka UbhA raho ke cAvIsa kalAka UbhA raho ! buddhimattA to emAM che ke TAMkImAM pANI bharavAnI cejanA karavI. pachI jyAre pANI joIe tyAre naLa vATe maLI raheze. ema tamAruM prArabdha jo puNya vinAnuM che, pachI tame bajAramAM eka kalAka ubhA rahA ke covIsa kalAka UbhA rahA.... saMpatti nahi maLe. game teTalI mathAmaNa karo paraMtu kaMI vaLaze nahi. TAMkImAM pANI na hoya pachI naLa sAthe mAthuM pachADaze toya pANI nahi nIkaLe. lehI nIkaLaze ! ema prArabdhamAM saMpatti nathI, pachI game teTalA dhamapachADA karaze tAya saMpatti nahi maLaze. kevaLa phaleza maLaze ! kAma te prArabdhane puNyabharapUra banAvavAnuM karavA jevuM che ane e mATe dhamasAdhanA karavAnI che. dhamasAdhanA dvArA puNyanA bhaMDAra tara thAya che, evuM puNya baMdhAya che ke e puNyathI maLelI saMpatti dvArA tamane punaH dhama karavAnuM ja sUjhe! paNa e dhama niSkAma bhAve karajo che ! GOLDS TO, Atmasa vedana

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bIja ane pAka khetaramAM bIja paDeluM hoya che ane anukULa varSA thAya che te managamato pAka taiyAra thAya che. ApaNAmAM guNAnAM bIje paDela che bIja rUpe che eTale ApaNane pratyakSa kadAca na dekhAya. have ApaNe eka kAma karavAnuM che. dharma sAdhanAnI anukULa varSA karavAnI che. varSA karIne ApaNe jovAnuM te eja che ke guNAnA aMkura phUTayA ? aMkUrAmAMthI choDavA thayA ? choDamAMthI moTA choDa thayA ? . enA para pAkanA dANA phUTayA ? e tArA re | mAtra varSA karIne Anada... saMtoSa nathI mAnavAne. ApaNe kaMika evA ja saMtoSa mAnatA thaI gayA chIe. fa Y dharma sAdhanA karIe chIe paNa guNAnuM lakSa nathI rAkhyuM, kevaLa varasAda paDatA joIne to bALaka rAjI thAya, kheDUta te tyAre nAce ke jayAre pAkanA anAjathI enA kaThora bharapUra thAya. dayAnamAM rAkho ke mekSamAM anata guNa che. dhama- sAdhanA nathI ! guNAnA bhaMDAra bharAya enA para ApaNe rAcavAnuM che. Atmasa vedana Jain Equine ............ 85 ajalnelibrary.org

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guNane zodho sUya ane candranI hAjarI hoya eTale mANasane paDachA paDavAnA ja, ane evA paDachAyA tame joyA che ne ? paNa zuM paDachAyAnI tame gaNanA kare che ? pAMca mANasa tamArA ghera AvyA, to zuM tame dazanI rAI karAvavAnA ? basa ! karmonI hAjarI jayAM sudhI che. tyAM sudhI manuSyamAM doSa dekhAvAnA ja. paNa te doSanI ApaNe khUba gaNanA karIe chIe. doSanA mApe ApaNe mANasanuM mApa kADhIe chIe. che Sii paNa paDachAyA kALe hoya tethI zuM mANasa kALA hoya ? dhALA mANasano ya paDachAye to kALA ja hAya! ema zu guNIyala mANasamAM deSa na hoya ? deASa hAya tethI zuM saMpUrNa manuSya doSita banI jAya ? ne are, kALA paDachAyA je, eTale keAI gulAbI manuSya hAya ja, evo ApaNe niNa ya karIe chIe. tema doSa dekhAya eTale 'guNa hovo ja joIe. ? ema nirNaya karavo joIe. doSa hoya tyAM guNa hovAnA ja. deASa joIne aTakI na jAo, guNanI zodha karo. guNanI gaNanA karI ane guNanA AdhAre mANasanuM mApa kADho. TOGG.) Do ).S AmasaMvedana

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nAriyeLane ApaNe maMgaLa mAnIe chIe. ghaNA chetarAM ane kAcalAM hovA chatAM nAriyeLa pratye ApaNI draSTi mAMgalika rahe che! AnAM chetarAM ane kAcalAnA rakSaNa taLe rahelA ToparA ane pANI para ApaNI najara phare che. mAMgalika dRSTi tyAre jIvAtmA pratye ApaNI daSTi kevI ? jIvAtmAnAM darzana ApaNane mAMgalika lAge che? dASAne duguNAnA chetarAM tathA kAcalAnI nIce dabAyelA zuddha caitanya tarapha ApaNI daSTi jAya che ? ane jyAM sudhI zuddha caitanya pratyenA anurAga udbhave nahi tyAM sudhI eka jIva bIjA jIvane vizuddha premanu apaNuM nahi karI zake. cAmaDAM ane hADakAM sudhI ja daSTi pahoMce che tyAM sudhI malIna roga ane duSTa dveSanI ane eDIemAMthI jIva mukta nahi bane. sIjhanaroga zuddha caitanyanI avagaNanA karIne nAriyeLane mAMgalika mAnanAra kevA ajJAnI kahevAya ? kahevAya ? zuddha caitanyanu bahumAna karanAra AtmAne mATe samasta vizva mAMgalika manI javAnuM! Atmasa vedana 87

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saMdha-zarIra tamArA paga para gumaDuM thayuM hoya. tyAre tame zuM vicAra karo ? ' mAre zuM ? mArA pagane gumaDuM thayuM che..... paga saMbhALaze ! " AvA vicAra karo cho ? nA ! paga e zarIranA ja eka bhAga che mATe paga duHkhI to tame duHkhI. , have eka vAta vicAro. tamArA saMghamAM koI AtmA duHkhI che, ene joI tame zuM vicAro cho ? - 'mAre zuM ? .... enuM e jANe....!" che tamAro A vicAra zuM cagya che? tame saMghathI bhinna nathI, ne sAdhamika e saMdhazarIranA ja eka avayava che, eka bhAga che. enuM duHkha eTale tamAruM duHkha. . / zarIranA pratyeka aMgane tamArI jAta samaje cho ne ? tA saMghanA pratyeka AtmAne tamArI jAta kema nathI samajatA ? saMghanA pratyeka AtmA tamArI jAta che, A bhAvanA mULa samyagadazana dhamane TakAve che, vizuddha kare che. A bhAvanA jAgrata thaI eTale saMgha-zAsana pratye jarUra prema... mamatva.... vAtsalya pragaTaze. 8 8 8 8 8 8 8 ) nathI. tamArI A ja enu' e jANe..,, 88 AtmasaMvedana

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doSanuM oparezAna DAkaTara daradInA gumaDAnuM oparezana kare che te joyuM che ? e pahelAM to daradIne AnaMdamAM lAvaze. pachI bahu haLavA hAthe gumaDAne tapAsaze... davAthI dhoI nAMkhaze.... 'Ithara" ke InajekazanathI cAmaDIne buThThI banAvI deze. pachI cakamakatI charI gumaDA para pheravI deze ! | vaLI, tarata ja sAphasuphI karI daI navA suMdara pATe bAMdhI deze ! _ A badhuM te khAsa rUmamAM karavAnA. deASa e AtmAnu gumaDu che. 4 ApaNI samakSa evA gumaDAvALA AtmAo keTalA Ave che ? ApaNe e gumaDAonuM oparezana kevI rIte karIe ? enA doSa--gumaDA para ApaNI tIrNa vANI-charI pharI vaLe, te pahelAM zuM ApaNe daradIne AnaMdita karIe chIe ? haLavA hAthe gumaDu tapAsIe chIe ?.... vagere. tIrNa vANI-charIthI deASa gumaDAne kApI nAMkhIne pachI pAchA sudara pATo bAMdhIe chIe ? paraMtu kahA ne, ApaNe kAcA gumaDAM ja kApIe chIe ! eTale kApyA pachI daradInA duHkhane pAra nathI raheto ! vaLI, kApIe chIe jAheramAM ! " Atmasa vedana 89 Jain E .

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Aga lAge tyAre kuvA khAdavA na besAya....? A kahevatanA vyavahArU atha te ApaNe jANIe chIe, paraMtu ene AdhyAmika atha paNa ApaNe jANavA joIe. kSamA-jala pahelethI kavA khAdI rAkhyA hAya te Aga lAgatAM kUvA kAma lAge che. e vakhate navA kUvA khAvA besanAraneA prayatna niSphaLa ane che. ApaNe krodhanA prasaMge ja kSamA-jalanI zodha karavA besIe chIe ! paraMtu pahelethI kSamA jalane kUvA khAdI rAkhatA nathI ! pariNAma e Ave che ke ApaNuM Atma-ghara krodhanI AgamAM maLIne khAkha thai jAya che ! jo ApaNe krAdhanI Agane bujhavIne Atmadharane surakSita rAkhavu hAya teA kSamAjalanA kUvA pahelethI khATTI rAkhavA joI e. arthAt, jyAre kAI krodhanA prasa`ga na heAya tevA samaye ApaNe manamAM vicAravAnu ke jo AvA krodhane prasaMga ubhA thaze te te vakhate huM zAMta rahIza. bhale mArA guneA nahi hAya, chatAMya huM sAmeA krodha nahi karuM. samatA rAkhIza. enI asara jarUra sAmI vyakti para thaze ane e paNa zAMta paDaze !" AvA kSamAnA vicAra vAravAra karI rAkhavAnA. pachI nathI ne kyAreka evA krodhane prasaMga upasthita thaze tyAre pelA khAdI rAkhelA kSamA-jalanA ( kSamAnA vicAro ) kUvAnA tarata ApaNe upayeAga karI zakIzuM ! MGL Atmasa vedana

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mAchaluM ane manuSya ApaNe bhavasAgaramAM chIe. ' paNa sAgaramAM mAtra manuSya ja hoya, tevuM nathI, mAchalAM paNa hAya che. manuSya to sAgaramAM hoya chatAM sAgaranA kinAre ja tenuM lakSa hoya che. ane tethI sAgaranA kinAre pahoMcADanAra sTImaranI te talAza karatA hoya che. potAne keAI sahisalAmata kinAre laI jAya te satata jhaMkhatA rahe che. che jyAre mAchalAne kadIya samudranI bahAra nikaLavAnuM gamatuM nathI ! ene koI pakaDavA Ave ane ene khabara paDe to te bhAgI javAnuM ! E ApaNe ApaNI jAtane kevI mAnIe chIe ? zu - ApaNe manuSya chIe ? zuM ApaNuM vatana ane ApaNA vicAra mAchalAnA vatana ane vicArane anusaratA nathI ? che. ApaNe bhavasAgaramAMnA mAchalA chIe ke manuSya ? paNT 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 Atmasa vedana 81 www.jainelibrary Jalin Education International

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ApaNane kAnI gerahAjarI sAle che? dhananI gerahAjarI sAthe che, ArogyanI gerahAjarI sAle che. buddhinI gerahAjarI sAle che. guNAnI gerahAjarI karyuM che. A mAgya prApta paNa zuM guNAnI gerahAjarI ApaNane sAle che? dhananI gerahAjarImAM jIva ecenI anubhave che mATe dhana meLavavAne sakhata puruSArtha kare che. AreAgyanI gerahAjarImAM jIva AkuLatA anubhave che mATe AreAgya prApta karavA satata jAgrata rahe che. buddhinI gerahAjarImAM jIva vidbhavaLa khanI jAya che te mATe buddhi meLavavA jyAM tyAM phAMphAM mAre che paNa.... guNAnI gerahAjarImAM nathI teA jIva mecenI anubhavatA, AkuLatA anubhavatA ke vihvaLa banatA, pachI guNeA meLavavAne puruSArtha ja kayAMthI karavAne ? ane jyAM sudhI guNasapatti hAya nahi tyAM sudhI dharmaratna te kevI rIte meLavavAne dhamaratna vinA teA jIvanuM anAdikAlIna bhavabhramaNa sITe ema nathI ane bhavabhramaNa mITe nahi tyAM sudhI zAzvata sukha ane anaMta zAMti maLe nahi. hera guNusaMpatti mATe puruSAtha jarUrI che. sapa Atmasa vedana

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dhama mahelanA pAyA keivAra pAyAmAM vadhu khaca lAge, evu paNa ane ne ! paNa makAnamAM caNatara karatAM pAyAmAM vadhu khaca lAge tethI makAna na khoMdhAvA ? guNe! e dhama mahelanA pAyeA che. pAyA vinA jema makAna na baMdhAvAya, tema guNNA vinA dhama' na AcarI zakAya. kadAca AcarA tA paNa te paDI jatAM vAra na lAge. pAyA vinAnuM te ghara keTale Take ! ApaNe makAna caNavu' che, pAyA vinAnuM ! dhama karavA che paNa guNasAdhana vinA! Aje meTA bhAge ApaNI jiMdagI AvI pasAra thai rahI che, evuM lAge che kharU ? guNA vinAnA dhamIoe dhama'nu teja jhAMkhuM pADayu che. guNA vinAnA dharmAtmAee navA jIvAne ugatI peDhIne dha sAdhanAthI vegaLI rAkhI che. vaLI, ApaNI dRSTi paNa kevI ghaDAI gaI che ! guNa vinAnA dharmIe jema ApaNane game che tema dhama vinAnA guNIyala AtmAe nathI gamatA ne? \000,20, Atmasa'vedana 93

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sahiyArA puNyAdaya tamArI pAse dhana che, Arogya che, parivAra che... A tamArA puNyAya che, ema tame mAneA che ne? A tamArA ja puNyAya che ema mAneA che mATe ja tame e dhana vagerenA upayAga bIjA mATe karatAM pAchA paDA che ! puNyAdaya kayAre thayA ? puNyama dha karelA mATe. ma puNyama dha zAthI thayA? dharmArAdhana karyu hatuM mATe, dharmArAdhana paNa kayAre karI zakelA ? e dhamane ArAdhanArA sAdhaka vaga sAthe hatA mATe ! tamArA puSNeAdaya kevaLa tamArA nathI paraMtu sahiyArA puNyAya che ema mAne! A nakkI kare ke 'mArA puNyAya upara kevaLa mArA adhikAra nathI emAM pratyeka sAdhamikanA hissA che. pachI tamArA sAmika pratye tamArI diSTa kevI banaze te jANe! che? tamArA eka nikaTanA snehI pratye jevI draSTi hAya tevI ! e dRSTi ja tamane pachI udAra banAvaze ane A rIte AvelI udAratA dhama mahelanA nakkara pAcA banI jaze! Atmasa vedana

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guNAnI tAlIma yuddhanA medAna para jatA pahelAM sainikane tAlIma levI paDe che, e mATe enI khAsa kAlejamAM dAkhala thavuM paDe che. dhama sAdhanA eTale yuddha che. AtmA ane kama vacce, dhama ane kama vacce. dhamasAdhanAnA yuddhamedAnamAM javA pahelAM ApaNe tAlIma lIdhI ? tAlIma lIdhA vinA sainika yuddhanA medAna para jAya tA tenI kevI durdazA thAya ? jenA pakSamAM hAya tenA pakSanI kevI nAlezI kare? ApaNI evI ja durdazA thai rahI che. paramAtmAnA dha pakSanI evI ja ApaNe nAlezI karI che. dha sAdhanAnA medAnamAM javA pUrva guNAnI sAdhanAnI tAlIma levAnI che. ekavIsa guNAmAM ekkA banIne pachI zrAvakapaNAnI sAdhanAnA medAnamAM jAo. jue pachI e yuddha kevu' jAme che? karmonI senAne kevI hAra maLe che! kuzaLa.... khAheAza sainikanI sAme zatru jhAjho kALa TakI na zake. pachI tame jemanA pakSamAM rahIne laDazeA, je paramAtmAnA pakSamAM rahIne, te pakSanI kIti ane pratiSThAne vadhAranArA anavAnA. guNAnI tAlIma lIdhA vinAnI dhama`sAdhanA zatrune harAvI nahi zake. Atmasa vedana 95

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sAgara tAphAnI che. jalacara bhayakara pazuothI bharelA che. tame je kinAre ubhA che e kinArA bhaya bharelA che. zikArI pazuone ane luMTArAenA bhaya che, sAme kinAre gayA vinA cAlI zake ema nathI. kinAre be jAtanI hADI paDI che, eka hADIne halesAM mAravAM paDe ema che, khIjI sTImaleAMca' che! tame bemAMthI zAmAM besavAnu pasaMda karA ? ane hADIvALA tamane premapUrvaka Ama trI rahyA che. sTImaleAMca ja tame pasada kare ne ? pasaMdagI saMsAra-sAgara teAphAnI che. kAdha-mAna-mAyA-lAbha vagere pazuothI bharelA che. tame je manuSya jIvananA kinAre ubhA che, e kinArA paNa bhayAkula che. saMsArasAgaranA sAme kinAre gayA vinA cAlI zake ema nathI. e hADI ubhI che, (1) dezivarati dha'nI hADImAM halesA mAravAM paDe ema che. (2) jyAre savavarita dhama e 'sTImaleAMca' che ! TImaleAMcanA kaptAna AcAryAdi munivarA tamane premapUrvaka AmatrI rahyA che. tame sTImaleAMca ja pasada karavAnA ne? da Atmasa vedana

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suvAsahIna manuSya e eka bhavya paramAtmAnuM maMdira hatuM. | karUNasidhu paramAtmAnI pratimAmAMthI karUNAnI dhArA vahI rahI hatI. en be pUja ke hAthamAM pUjananA thALa laI maMdiramAM pravezyA. eka pUja ke gulAbanAM suvAsabharapura pupethI bhagavaMtanI pUjA karI. bIjA pUjaka pAse pupa hatAM paraMtu suvAsa na hatI. teNe te puSpa bhagavaMtanA caraNe caDhAvavA mATe hAtha laMbAvyA, tyAM pelA pUja ke pUchyuM :- 'A kayA puSpa che ? suvAsavALA ke suvAsa vinAnAM ?" bIjA pUja ke kahyuM : "suvAsa vinAnAM.. pahelA pUjaka jarAka AkaLA thaIne belyA : " suvAsa vinAnAM puSpa bhagavAnane te caDhAvAya ? kaI bhaNyA che ke nahi?" bicArA pUjaka te cUpa thaI gacA tenA para pelA prathama pUja ke AkarA prahAro karavA mAMDayA. ane suvAsavALAM ja puSpa bhagavatane caDhAvAya tenu joradAra pratipAdana karyuM. - A dazya joIne mArA manamAM eka prazna uThA : - suvAsa vinAnuM puSpa jo paramAtmAne caraNe caDavA mATe agya che to guNAnI suvAsa vinAnA manuSya zuM paramAtmAnA caraNe aDavA mATe ayogya nathI ? Atmasa vedana

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siMha ane uMdara pAMjarAmAM te baMne hoya cheH siMha ane uMdara. paraMtu pAMjarAmAM ane pAMjarA bahAra baMnenI vRtti ane pravRttimAM bheda hoya che. pAMjarAmAM roTalInA TukaDA joIne uMdara pAMjarAmAM pesavAno vicAra kare che ane pravRtti kare che. pAMjarAmAM peThA pachI jyAM sudhI ene khAvA-pIvAnuM maLe che tyAM sudhI temAMthI nikaLavAno prayatna nathI karatA. jyAre, siMha pAMjarAmAM game tevo zikAra jue paNa pAMjarAmAM pesavAno vicAra ke pravRtti nathI karate. chaLakapaTathI e purAI jAya che te hara sekaMDa e pAMjarAmAMthI mukata thavAnA vicAra ane pravRtti kare che; ane lAga maLatAM bhAgI chUTe che. saMsAra paNa eka pAMjaru che ne ? pAMjarAmAM vividha prakAranI pAMca indriyanA viSaye joine tamane zuM vicAra Ave che ? e meLavavA pAMjarAmAM tame vase che ? jyAM sudhI pAMjarAmAM viSayo rahe tyAM sudhI pAMjarAmAMthI nikaLavAnA vicAra ke pravRtti thAya che? | tame saMsAranA pAMjarAmAM purAyelA uMdara che ke siMha ? saMsAranA pAMjarAmAMthI chaTakavAnI vRtti ane pravRtti je hoya te siMha ! Atmasa vedana

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bhavanuM jaMgala jagalamAM tame bhUlA paDayA. rakhaDI rakhaDIne thAkI gayA. tyAM tamane eka ghaTAdAra vaDalo dekhAya. tame najIka gayA. tyAM vaLI pANInI paraba ane sadAvrata dekhAyAM ! tamane AnaMda thaye, tame khAdhuM, pIdhuM ane vaDalAnI chAyAmAM sutA. chatAM rAta paDe e pahelAM tame tamArA gAme pahoMcavAnuM bhUle kharA ? kAI bIjo musAphara AvIne tamane kahe, "cAlo mArI sAthe tamArA gAme ja mAre javuM che ! te vaDalAnI chAyA choDIne, taDake paNa cAle ke nahi ? pANInI paraba ane sadAvratane choDI jatAM tamane duHkha thAya kharuM? ApaNe bhavanAM jaMgalamAM bhUlA paDayA chIe. anaMta anaMtakALathI rakhaDIne thAkI gayA chIe. tyAM A manuSya jIvana eTale vizrAmasthAna maLyuM. khAvAnuM, pIvAnuM ane suvAnuM ! mRtyunI rAta paDe e pahelAM ApaNA gAme-zivanagare pahoMcI javAnuM yAda che ne ? ApaNuM gAma siddhazilA che ! tamArI pAse e gAme janAra koI vizvAsapAtra musApharI AvIne tamane kahe-"cAle, veLAsara tamane tamArA gAme pahoMcADI dauM..." te tame taiyAra thaI jAo ne ? pavitra sAdhu puruSa zivanagarInA bhomiyA musApharo che. emanI sAthe jatAM, vizrAmasthAna choDI javAnuM duHkha na thAya ne ? Atmasa vedana Jalin Education International

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mAneA ke tame eka jagalamAM bhUlA paDI gayA che. vaizAkha-jeThanA dhAma dhakhatA divaseA che. tame khUba khUba bhaTakayAM....tyAM tamane rAjamAga maLI AvyeA. eTaluM ja nahi, rAjamArga para zitala jalanI parakha paNa dekhAI, khAjumAM sadAvratanu` makAna paNa joyuM, keTaleA badhA AnaMda thAya ? tame jhaDapathI tyAM pahoMcyA. sadAvratamAM jai peTa bharIne bheAjana karyu. parame jaine tRSA miTAvI ane vizALa vaTavrukSa nIce jai tame ArAma karyAM. pravAsa A khAvAmAM-pIvAmAM ane ArAma karavAmAM zuM tame tamArA sthAne javAnu* bhUlI jAe kharA ? zuM svasthAne javAnu mAMDavALa karI do. kharA? kai vaTemArgu AvIne kahe ke "ame amuka gAme jaie chIe. Avavu hoya teA sa'gAtha thaze." zu javAkha Ape? "tamAre javuM hAya teA jAe, ahIM khAvAnuM maLe che, ArAma mATe majAne vaDalA che.... tA ahIMja rahIza....?" ema ? ke sagAtha maLatA ArAma cheDI cAlavA mAMDA ? tame jANA che ke sUrya asta thayA ke parama adha thaI jAya che. sadAvrataneA neAkara cAlyA jAya che. pachI te hAya che ja galanA pazue. tame sUryAsta pUrve peAtAnA gAme pahoMcI javA mATe sadAvratane, paraaneA ane vaDalAnA meha cheDI cAlavA mADeA che. bhava-araNyamAM bhaTakatAM bhaTakatAM A manuSya jIvana maLyu che, ke je sadAvrata, parakha ane vaDalA jevu che. zu tame tamArA svasthAna mAa kSe javAnu bhUlI teA nathI gayA ne? nigraMtha sAdhu puruSe meAkSa nagare janArA vaTemArgu che. zu tamane emanA saMgAtha game che ? 100 Atmasa vedana

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emanI sAthe cAlI nIkaLavA taiyAra che ? te mATe gharabAra moha choDavA taiyAra che ? dhyAna rAkhe. AyuSyane sUrya asta thaI gayA pachI A bhavATavInAM kura pazuonA hAthe cUMthAI javAnuM thaze. jo khAvA-pIvAmAM ane ArAma karavAmAM bhAna bhUlI gayA che ! bhUlI na jAo ke tamAruM nagara mekSa che. tyAM jema bane tema jaladI pahoMcavAnuM lakSa rAkhI AgaLa vadhatA jAo. sAdhu puruSone saMgAtha choDe nahi. koTamAM kesa bhagavAna jinezvara devanI korTamAM ApaNe ApaNA zatru karmonI sAme kesa dAkhala karyo che. anaMta kALathI ApaNane pIDI rahelA karmothI mukata thavA mATenI ApaNI mAgaNI jinezvara bhagavaMta samakSa rajU karI che. fa fApaNI buddhi a95 che. zatrunA pakSe moTA moTA berIsTaro, sAlI sITo rahelA che. to zuM ApaNe paNa berIsTarone, solIsITarone ApaNA pakSe ne rAkavA joIe ? | pUjya guru mahArAja ApaNA berIsTaro ane sAlIsITa che. emanI salAha-sUcanA laIne ja ApaNe kAma karavuM joIe. jyAM sudhI kesa cAle, ApaNA vijaya jAhera na thAya tyAM sudhI ApaNA berIsTarone sapaka satata rAkhavA joIe te mATe jeTale tana-manadhanano vyaya karavo paDe te karatAM acakAvuM na joIe. kAraNa ke vijaya maLyA pachI anaMta saMpatti ApaNane maLI javAnI che, ke je ApaNI che. AtmasaMvedanA 101

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mutinuM sarjana eka nayanaramya mUrtinuM sarjana kevI rIte thAya che? sarva prathama, kuzaLa zilpI joie. tenI kalpanAmAM bhavyatA, saundraya ane utsAha hAvA joIe. pASANamAM paNa vizeSa ceAgyatA joie. pASANa nimaLa joie. zilpInAM TAMkaNAM sahana karI zake tevA joie. zilpI kuzaLa hAya, tenI panA paNa bhavya-suMdara hAya, utsAha adamya hAya, paraMtu pASANu doSayukta hAya ane TAMkaNuM paDatAM ja cUrecUrA thaI jAya tevA hAya teA ? zuM nayanaramya mUti anI zake kharI? ApaNe jo AtmAnuM unnata-pavitra sarjana karavuM che te ApaNA AtmAne gurudevanA hAthamAM seAMpI devA joie. gurudevane temanI bhavya suMdara kalpanA mujakha ApaNA para TAMkaNAM mAravA devAM joie. sthiratAthI e TAMkaNAMnA prahAra sahana karavA joie... teA pASANa jevA AtmAmAMthI paramAtma- svarUpa upasI Avaze. pASANa kaTTIe Agraha karatA nathI ke " mArI IcchA mujaba TAMkaNAM mArA"e te zilpInA hAthamAM peAtAnuM sa'pUrNa samapa Nu karI de che! zilpI peAtAnI IcchAnusAra jyAre cAhe tyAre TAMkaNAM mAre che. jeTalAM mAravAM hAya teTalAM mAre che! ApaNe ApaNI IcchAone khAjue mUkIne kuzaLa gurudevane samipata thaI javu joie. temanA utsAha ane bhavya--suMdara kalpanA mujakha temane kAma karavA devu joie. 102 Atmasa vedana

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duSTa vicArA rastAmAM cAlyA jatAM acAnaka khADA Ave ne paDI javAya....tyAre keTaluM duHkha thAya che? joine na cAlyA tene keTalA badhA pazcAttApa thAya che? ema keAI duSTa vicAranA khADAmAM mana paDI jAya tyAre keTaluM duHkha thAya che? keTalA pazcAttApa thAya che? kharAma vicAra karyAM pAchaLa tIvra duHkha ane pazcAttApa vinA punaH ApaNe e vicArathI pAchA nahI paDIe. kharAba vicAra eTale UDA kuvA! evI AtmapratIti vinA teA kuvAmAMja paDavAnuM thaze. kharAkha vicAra aTakAvavAnI tIvra rukhanA vinA kharAba vicAre nahI ja aTake. AtmAnA rAga dehanA rogA batAvanAra pratye prema jAge che ne? dehane sUkSmamAM sUkSma rAga paNu kahI ApanAra vaida-DAkaTarane tame nidAnakuzaLa kaheA che ! AtmAnA rAgeA batAvanAra apriya lAge che! tamArA AtmAnA kAI rAga tamane kAI paNa na batAve ane tamArA AtmAnI prazaMsA ja karyAM kare, te te priya lAge che! jyAM sudhI A sthiti na sudhare tyAM sudhI Atmavizuddhi nahi thai zake, tyAM sudhI dhamanI ArAdhanA nahi thaI zake. dhama' e mAtmaroganuM auSadha che. AtmAnA rAgeza ja niha dekhAtA hAya, pachI e auSadha levAnI vAta ja kayAM rahI ? 103 Atmasa vedana

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and rasAnubhuti sinemA jotI vakhate mana ema kahe che ke, "sinemA jaladI pUruM thai jAya tA sAruM!" sinemA joine bahAra nIkaLyA pachI mana para sinemAnA dachyA ramatAM rahe che.... mukha enI praza'sA kare che. S bhagava'tanA darzana karatI vakhate mana zuM anubhava kare che ? jaldI bhagavAnanAM madiramAMthI na nikaLAya teA sAru!" ema? maMdiranI bahAra nIkaLyA pachI mana para bhagavatanI mUrti ramatI rahe che ? darzana karyA pachI... khahAra nIkaLIne mukhamAMthI enI praza MsA karAya che? 104 bhAgyazALI ! pratyeka dharmasAdhanAmAM rasAnubhUti karyA vinA Atmasa MtAya nahi thAya. ekAda dhama sAdhanA te evI pakaDI le ke jenuM vyasana lAgI jAya rAta itenuM smaraNa ane prazaMsA karavAnu dila thAya. pachI meAkSa dUra nathI. Atmasa vedana

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divya TelIphona tamAre zuM joIe che? guNAne ? jAo, zrI parameSThi bhagavatAnI dukAne te maLaze. zuM tame cAlavA asamartha che ? kaMI vAMdho nahi. tame Teliphona karIne ! tame jANo cho e divya TeliphAna kayA che ? zrI paMca parameSThi bhagavatenuM nAmasmaraNu.... dhyAna.... e TelIphAna che. enA dvArA tame kalAko sudhI peTa bharIne vAtacIta karI zakaze. are, jayAre muzkelI Ave, mujhavaNamAM paDe tyAre sIdhe A TelIphona hAthamAM levA ! zrI paMca parameSThi bhagavaDatAnI dukAna eTale guNAnI dukAna che. emanI dukAne ApaNe jaIe chatAM guNe lIdhA vinA pAchA vaLIe te te keTalI badhI mukha kahevAya ! miThAIvALAnI dukAne jAo....kahIne ke "huM miThAIvALAnI dukAne jAuM chuM..." ane ghera pAchA Ave.... hAtha halAvatA, tyAre gharamAMthI Thapako maLe ne, ke "miThAIvALAne tyAM javuM tamAru' cutha che....? ApaNe paramAtmAnA maMdire rAja jaIe chIe ne ? ghare keAI Thapako ApanAra che? Atmasa vedana 105 Jalin Education International For Private & Personal use only

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mAnada ano | tamArI pAse eka maNa ghau' paDayA che. tamAre te keAI kAraNasara kADhI nAkhavA che, te tame zuM karavAnA ? tamArI pAse je Avaze tene ghauM ApavAnuM tame lakSa rAkhavAnA. koI tamane ApavA Ave tevI abhilASA nahi ja rAkhavAnA ane koI tamane ApavA Avaze te tame nahi ja levAnA ! ema je ApaNe "mAna"nI anaMta rAzI ApaNA AtmAmAMthI kADhI nAMkhavI che, te ApaNe zuM karavuM joIe ? je ke ApaNI pAse Ave athavA ApaNe jenI pAse jaie tene "mAna ApavAnuM lakSa rAkhavAnA ne ? koI ApaNane "mAna" Ape tevI abhilASA to svapnamAM paNa na jAge ne ? ane jo koInA mAnadAnanI ApaNe abhilASAvALA chIe to e phalita thAya che ke ApaNe ApaNI pAse paDelA mAna"nI anata rAzI kADhI nAkhavI nathI ! rAkhavI che.... vadhAravI che ! manuSya "mAnada' banavAnI jarUra che. ApaNe jo mAna... abhimAna kADhI ja nAMkhavuM che te mAnane pAtra anya jIvane mAnanuM dAna karavuM joIe. pI, koI ApaNane "mAna na Ape tene kheda te rahe kyAMthI ! balake kayAreka koInA satyAgrahathI levuM paDe te kheda thAya ! "are, mAre je kADhI nAMkhavuM che, te vaLI kayAM gaLe vaLagyuM...?" Avo baLApa thAya. Atmasa vedana www.jainelibrary.or

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davAkhAnu DokaTaranA davAkhAnAmAM e prakAranA mANase Ave (1) dardIe ane (2) mitrA. dIA Ave che peAtAnA rAgane miTAvavAnI davA levA. mitrA. Ave che DAkaTarane maLavA mATe ane vAtA karavA. dadI DAkaTaranI pAse peAtAnA dardanI vAta karaze, ane ene dUra karavA mATe ceAgya auSadheApacAranI prAthanA karaze. jyAre mitrA AvIne duniyAbharanI vAtA karaze. paraMtu peAtAnA roganI vAta nahIM kare ! sAdhupuruSA bhAvarAganA DokaTara che. temanA pAse tame kevA svarUpe jAe che ? dardI tarIke yA mitrarUpe ? zuM tame tyAgI virAgI--jJAnI sAdhu pAse jaine tamArA mananA, hRdayanA AtmAnA rAgeA kahyA ? kevI rIte kahyA ? hasatAM hasatAM ke rAtI sUratamAM ? tame te roga dUra karavA mATe auSadha upacAra mAgyA ? kadAca auSadha upacAra vagaramAge sAdhu puruSe tamane batAvyA-AkhyA, tame tenA ceAgya upayAga karyAM ? zuM sAdhupuruSA pAse jaine duniyAbharanI vAtA te nathI karatAne? DAkaTaranA tA tame DAkTara nathI banI jatAne? (vagara DIgrInA !) vAstavamAM jene peAtAnA rAga sAle che ane te dUra karavA mATe DAkaTara pAse jAya che, tenI dRSTimAM DokaTaranA rAga (hAvA chatAM) dekhAtA ja nathI ! tenuM mana tA peAtAnA ja rAga tarapha lAgelu rahe che. rAgI DAkaTara paNa bIjAne nirogI banAvI zake che. paraMtu tene nirogI banAvI zake ke je DAkaTara pAse nirAgI manavA jAya che. Atmasa vedana 107

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tame dezanA koI mahAna netAne tamAre ghera AmatraNa ApyuM. dezanetA tamAre ghera AvyA paNa kharA, paraMtu emane eka melAghelA oraDAmAM utArI Ape.... je te khAvAnuM- pIvAnuM ApeA, emanI sAthe zAMtithI besIne vAta paNa na kareA tA zuM pariNAma Ave ? ema, tame zrI navakAravALI ( mALA ) hAthamAM lIdhI eTale paramAtmAne tamAre ghera AmatraNa ApyuM, paNa temane melAM--gaMdA mananA eraDAmAM UtArA ApyA... utArA ApIne temanI sAthe vartAva kevA rAkhyA AraDAma apamAna zuM mALA hAthamAM laI, je te vicArA kare temAM Amatrita parama puruSa paramAtmAnuM apamAna nathI thatu? ane evu apamAna karIne e paramapuruSa pAsethI kalyANanI AzA rAkhA che ? bhagavatanI mUrtine jema pavitra bhUmi para sthApana karA che tema bhagavaMtanA nAmane paNa pavitra maneAmaMdiramAM sthApana karavuM joie. azuddha ane malIna bhUmi para smRtinI sthApanA karavAthI AzAtanA thAya che, e vicAra Ave che? pachI mana zuddha zAthI thAya? 108 Atmasa vedana

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patananI uMDI khINamAMthI nIkaLIne unnatinI Toce paheAMcelA koI AtmAne tuM jue che tyAre zu vicAra Ave che? 'enA puNyanA udaya....ApaNA pApaneA udaya....' Ama mana manAvI te letA nathI ne? jo e rIte manane manAvI laiza te tu' unnatinA caDhANanu' ekAda pagathiyuM paNa nahIM caDhI zake! unnatinA upAya : tuM e vicAra ke e patananI UMDI khINamAMthI kevI rIte nIkaLyeA ? eNe nIkaLavA mATe kAnA sahArA lIdhe ? tu ene maLIne, e unnatinI Toce kevI rIte pahoMcyA, enI rasabharI ane rAmAMcaka vAta sAMbhaLa. basa, pachI tuM paNa e rIte prayatnamAM lAgI jA. unnatinI Toce jarUra pahoMcIza. 10 Atmasa vedana www.jainellbrary.org

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vighnavijaya tuM mAnasika vighneAthI DarIne pAA na paDIza. kayuM evuM satkAya' che ke jenI ADe vighna nathI Avatu? tuM vighnAnA vicAra karIne aTakI na jA! e vidhnA para vijaya kema meLavAya tenA vicAramAM tuM parAvAi jA. vighnA para vijaya meLavavAnA mArgo zuM nathI ? asaMkhya mArgI che! tuM vicArIza....khUba khUba vicArIza te tane e mArgo maLyA vagara nahIM rahe, zrI jinezvara bhagavAe apAra kRpA karIne e mAgeryAM upadezelA che.... e vidhnA para vijaya hAMsala karavAne tane je mAga maLe, e mArga para tuM zraddhA rAkhIne prayANa kara. vicArAnuM ciMtana pralayaMkara ApattienA samaye je mahApuruSAe ane mahAna satI strIee samatA ane samAdhi pUrvaka jIvanane samatAla TakAvI rAkhyuM hatu, temanA maneAmaLaneA tuM vicAra kara. emaNe emanA manane kevuM banAvyuM haze ? emaNe kayA vicArAnI vidyuta tithI manane gitazIla rAkhyuM haze ? te vicArAnuM ciMtana karatAM jo tane enu rahasya samajAi jAya, te khasa ! tAru kAya siddha thai gayu ema mAnaje! rAmacaMdrajIe jyAre garbhAvasthAmAM sItAjIne vananI vATe vaLAvyAM, ajanA ne sAsu ketumatie sagarbhAvasthAmAM jagalanA mAge dhakelI, gheAra aTavImAM naLe damayaMtIne tyAga karyAM.... tyAre kaI zakita para te mahAsatIe jIvana TakAvI zakI hatI? manane kevI rIte temaNe dArUNa zAka-udvega ane mRtyuthI bacAvI lIdhuM hatuM ? Atmasa vedana 11

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pratikULa sacAgA pratikULa sa'jogA tArA mATe upakArI che! pratikULa saMjogAmAM tu jeTalu AtmaciMtana karI zake che, teTalu* ciMtana anukULa saMjogeAmAM nathI karI zakatA! tuM asvastha na bane, adhIra na bana, eka vakhata je je vyakita tane anukULa hatI te te Aje pratikULa che.... kAraNa ke jIvanA bhAvA parivartanazIla che! tu ja vicArane! tArA bhAvA khIjA mATe eka sarakhA ja rahyA che? pratikULa sacAgAne taramaNatA ane paramAtmadhyAnanI taka samajI le pratikULatA anukULatAe kema meLavavI, enA vicAreA karavA karatAM pratikULatAone kema sahavI enA vicAro karavA jevA che. bhale Aje kAI pratikULatAe Upasthita na hoya chatAM ya, bhaviSyamAM te AvavAnI che, ema kalpanA karIne, tenA zUravIratApUrvaka kema pratikAra karavA tenI ceAjanAe vicAravI joie. manuSyanuM jIvana vizeSa karIne pratikULatAethI bhareluM che ane jyAre enA sAme pratikULatA AvIne UbhI rahe che, tyAre te azAMta banI jAya che, du:kha anubhave che. A paristhitinuM parivartana karavA uparAkata sUcana che. kharekhara te sAcA AnaMda tyAre anubhavavA maLe che ke jyAre pratikULatAneA vIratApUrvaka sAmaneA karAya, athavA sahana karavAmAM Ave. 112 Atmasa vedana

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sAcuM jJAna tAre evuM jJAna meLavavu joie ke je jJAna tane du:khamAMthI kevI rIte sAttvika ane pavitra jIvana jIvavuM, te zikhave. temAMya kAyika duHkhA karatAM mAnasika duHkhAmAM jIva marI rahelA hAya che. e mAnasika duHkhAne dUra haTAvavAnI zakita sAcA jJAnamAM rahelI che. jo ApaNe mAnasika duHkhAne mArIne dUra haTAvI zakatA hAIe tA samajavuM joIe ke ApaNane sAcuM jJAna prApta thayu che ! jema jema jJAna vadhatu jAya tema tema mAnasika duHkhA paNa vadhatA jatAM hAya tA ? AMtara nirIkSaNa karaje. jJAna eTale UMDI sAcI samaja. duHkhanu auSadha tane khIju kAI duHkhI karatuM nathI, tArI peAtAnI vAsanA tane duHkhI kare che. je di' tArI vAsanA naSTa thaI jaze te di" koI duHkha nahIM rahe. " kaI tArI mAnaprAptinI vAsanA che, ane kAie tane mAna ApyuM nahIM, tyAre tuM tene duHkha ApanAra mAne che ! paraMtu kikatamAM jo mAnaprAptinI tArI vAsanA ja na hAta tA tene tuM du:kha ApanAra na mAnata. mATe jyAre jyAre tane lAge ke "huM duHkhI chuM" tyAre tyAre enI pAchaLa kAya karatI vAsanAne zeAdhI kADhaje ane ene nimULa karavAnA upAyeA karaje. pachI bIju kAi tane duHkha ApanAra nahi lA pAyA Atmasa vedana 113

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( 2 bhavitavyatA - bhavitavyatA ! bhagavate " bhavitavyatA''ne kevA mahAna siddhAnta batAvyA che ! - tu saMtApa na kara. kaleza na kara. tArU' abhilaSita siddha na thAya tyAre kAInA doSa nA jo. koInA para roSa na kara. A vicAra kara "jevI bhavitavyatA hatI tevuM banyuM ! ane che, ane anaze !) - puruSAtha bhale prabaLa hAya, bhAvanA,paNa bhale nirmaLa hAya paraMtu tevI bhavitavyatA anukULa na hoya to kAyasiddhi na thAya. temAM bhale bIjA jIva nimitta banI jAya. mukhya kAraNa bhavitavyatA ! A siddhAMtane avasare avasare je amalamAM mUkavAmAM Ave to tethI ghaNI cittazAMti rahe che. kalpanAnI kaLA du:kha ? tu duHkhI che ? kAnA, kevaLa 95nA ! sukha ane duHkha ApaNI kupanAnAMsajana che. :khanI kalpanA ja na kare te ? A kaLA hastagata karI lenAra saMsAramAM koI duHkhanuM dazana nahi karI zake ! pachI dIna thavAnI vAta ja kyAM rahI ? . / jayAre koI prasaMga, vyakita ke padAtha, tArA cittamAM aprasannatA ubhI kare, te prasaM'gAdina' A paNa bhAvimAM kaI sukha mATe che.... A vicArathI darzana kara. ka9panA sukhanI banI jaze. ? \ tuM A vAta para svastha citte vicAraje. A bahe kaThIna vAta nathI. thoDoka mAnasika puruSArtha karIza, eTale tane A kaLA hastagata cavA mAMDaze.) - jIvanamAM racanAtmaka kaIka vicArIza to saphaLa thaze. kevaLa bhAvanAnA gheADA ke jenA para ArohaNa thaI zake nahi, tenAthI kaMI vaLaze nahi. tArA jIvanamAM upayogI evI kaLA hastagata karI le. 300 114 AtmasaMvedana

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| bhaca-abhaya bhaya ? zAno bhaya ? apakItinA ? kevuM tAruM ajJAna ! apakIti ne vaLI bhaya rAkhavAnA hoya ? pUrvajanmakRta pApanA udaya jo thavAnA haze to ja thaze, temAM DaravAnu zA mATe ? je bhAve avazya thavAnA ja hoya, tenI pAchaLa cittane bhaya- zekathI vihavaLa zA mATe banAvavuM ? . - nirbhaya bana. bAhya bhayathI AMtara zAMtine luMTAvI na de ane abhayanI lahANI karI rahelA jinezvaradevanA zaraNe jA 5 - tu jo sanmAge che, te DaravAnI jarUra nathI. Aje tArI apakIti karanAra kAle kItinuM tilaka karatA Avaze.Aje tArI badanAmI karanArA kAle tArA nAmano jayajayaskAra bAlAvo adhIra na bana. sanmAga para nirbhayatAthI cAlyA ja. arihaMtadeva tArI rakSA karaze, // tane tArA bhaviSyanI cA kekasa mAhitI nathI, tevI paristhatimAM tAre bhaviSyanA sAcA khATA khyAle karIne rAgadveSa na karavA joIe. | keTalAka zubha vicAro paNa parasApekSa hoya che. paraMtu tevA vicAro bahu karavAmAM cittanI prasannatA corAI jaze. | tane....tArA AtmAne nirbhayatA hoya tevA ja manoratha | karavA. parAdhIna manoratha karavA jevA nahi. | A, - paNa...A jIvana ja evuM che.... tevA vicAro jayAre saphaLa na thAya tyAre udvega na karItha.. - Amasaravedana

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eka pasaMda karo tamAre zuM joIe che? bAhya sukha ke AMtara zAMti ? tame baMne mAMgaze te nahi maLI zake ! kema ? e prazna na karaze. evI ja sanAtana vyavasthA che. - bemAMthI eka pasaMda karo. tame je bAhya sukha mAgaze, to paNa maLI zakaro, dhama e paNa ApI zake che....paraMtu bAhya sukhe tamArI pAse Takaze nahi...tamane nirbhayatAnuM sukha nahi maLe. tame e sukhImA parataMtra banI jato. e sukhAnA upabheganI Adata paDI gayA pachI jyAre e sukhe tamArI pAsethI cAlyAM jaze, tyAre tamArI sthiti kevI sajAze, enA vicAra karo. tame je AMtara zAMti mAMge che, te tamAre tatkAla ta, tyAganA abhyAsa kALamAM kaSTa sahana karavAnI taiyArI rAkhavI paDaze. AMtara zAMti mATe jema bAhya sukhAne tyAga karavAno che tema AMtara kaSAyone paNa tyAga karavAnA che. jema jema baMne prakAranA tyAga thatA jaze, tema tema tame AMtara zAMti anubhavaze. Atmasa vedana www.jainellbar

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manuSya "na tAt mAnuSAnuM gaLacet...." bhagavaMta umAsvAtijInuM A kathana jyAre jyAre smRtimAM Ave che tyAre dila dhabakI uThe che.... zuM huM manuSya nathI? zuM huM manuSya tarIkenI gaNanAmAM nathI ?... jyAM sudhI vaiyika sukhA mArA puruSArthanuM lakSa che, tyAM sudhI huM manuSya nathI, "viSayarati" manuSyane na chAje. Dagale ne pagale jyAM mRtyunA bhaNakArA vAgI rahyA hoya, tyAM viSayarati ? ApaNI rati--AnandanuM pAtra viSayeA nathI, ApaNI ratinu pAtra teA che paramAtmA tItha karadeva. paramAtmA pratye rita karI zakIe teA manuSya chIe! LIP rAga vItarAgane anusaravA mATe rAganA saMga vajavA joie. rAganA saMga rAkhIne vItarAgane anusarI zakAze naRsi. rAganeA tyAga karavA mATe rAganA sAdhanAnA tyAga kareza, evAM sthAnAne paNa tyAga karo. anivAya rUpe . je kai rAganA sAdhanAnA saga rAkhavA paDe, tenA pratye paNa vivekadRSTithI vyavahAra rAkhavA. rAganA rUpakAnA paNa paricaya karI lejo. kAraNa ke rAga bhinna bhinna svarUpe jIva para humalA kare che. jIvane khyAla nathI rahetA ke "mArA para rAge humalA karyAM che." mATe pahelethI ja rAganAM svarUpAne khyAla karI lejo. rAga uparathI te mitranA dekhAva kare che. mitra banIne jIvane phasAve che ne pachI krUra manIne jIvanA behAla kare che Atmasa vedana 117

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bhavavairAgya sava" guNo ane sava" dhama bhavavairAgya para rahelA che. eTale jIvanamAM sau prathama "bhavavairAgya keLavavAnA purUSArtha karavAnA che. bhavavairAgya keLavavA mATe cAra vAto para lakSa kendrIta karavuM paDe. (1) bhavasvarUpanuM ciMtana. (2) kamavipAkano vicAra. (3) AtmAnA zuddha svarUpanuM bhAna. (4) paramAtmAnI AjJA pratye bahumAna. A cAra vAto manamAM ramaNa karatI thaI gaI eTale bhavavairAgya AkhyA samajavA. pachI bIja guNA ke dharmo mATe mahenata karavI nahi paDe. sahajapaNe ja guNa Avaze ane dhama tarapha vaLAze. . hatI , che B varAgI vairAgya eTale saMsAra para dveSa, evA atha" na karazA ! vairAgya eTale rAga ane dveSanI lAgaNIo maMda thaI javI. - je AtmAone viSA pratye rAga ane dveSa hoya tenA pratye vairAgI to karUNAsabhara hoya. "huM" e AtmAene kevI rIte rAga-dveSamAMthI bacAvI lauM." je vairAgIne bIjA jIvA pratye dveSa thAya che, te UMDe UMDe paNa viSaya pratye rAga rahelo che, ema samajavuM. - DAS vairAgImAM dveSa na hovA joIe. 118 Atmasa vedana www.jainelibrar o

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sahana karA sukhanI pipAsA ane duHkhane dveSa tArA aMtarAtmAne zAMtinA sumadhura anubhava nahi karavA de. zAMtine sumadhura anubhava karavA mATe tAre sukhane tyAgatAM ane duHkhane sahatAM zIkhavuM paDaze. tAre sukhane kyAM khahu tyAga karavAnA che? sukha che ja thADu'! mahenata te duHkhane sahuvAmAM karavAnI che! kema ke duHkha ja ghaNu' che ! paraMtu ahIM 50-100 varSanI jiMdagImAM AvatA duHkhane samatApUrvaka sahana karIza te bhaviSyakALanuM ane tu sukha tArA caraNeAmAM AvI paDaze. tyAga jenA te jJAnapUrvaka tyAga karyAM, have tenA upabhAganA vicAra na karavA joie; e vicAra vAra vAra AvatA hAya te tene badha karavA mATe tAre turata upAceA karI levA joie. je tyajavA yAgya tuM jANatA hAya, ane tene tyAga na karI zakatA hAya tA tenA mATe paNa tAre vicAravu joie ke 'tu kema tyAga nathI karI zakatA. tAre e rIte vicAravu joie ke eka divasa tuM tyAganI sAcI bhUmikA para paheAMcI zake. tyajavA cAgya tyAga karyA pachI ja sAcI zAntinA mAsvAda prApta thaze. tyajavA ceAgyanA upabhAgathI je sukhanA anubhava thAya che, te vAstavika anubhava nathI. te kRtrima che. sukhane anubhavatA AtmAnA jJAnAdi guNAmAM ramaNatA karavAthI prApta thAya che. Atmasavedana 119 www.jainelibrary org

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Atmavizuddhi mATe sahanavRtti ane tyAga, A be vAtA para pUrNa dhyAna rAkhazeA. IcchA mujakha na maLe te sahana karI levu. jo jarUriyAtathI adhika sapatti maLI jAya te tenA tyAga karI devA. sukhI ane zAMta jIvana jIvavAnA A mAga che. bhAga-AnadanI vRtti tamane sAcuM zAMtimaya jIvana jIvavA detI nathI. A jIvana Anada mATe nathI, A jIvana jagatanA jaDa padArthA pAchaLa bhaTakavA mATe nathI, e na bhUlazeA. A jIvana teA ucca maneAkhaLapUrvaka Atmavizuddhi karavA mATe che. A vAta satata yAda rAkhajo, trividha zuddhi Atmazuddhi karavA pUrve kAyAnI zuddhi ane mananI zuddhi karavI jarUrI che. abhakSya bhAjananA tyAga, apeya pAnanA tyAga, ane saMsagane! tyAga karavAthI kAyAnI vizuddhi thAya che. pachI karavAnI mananI zuddhi zabda, rUpa, rasa, gadha ane spazanA malIna vicArAne manamAM na pesavA devA. te mATe paMcaparameSThinI duniyAnI kalpanA sthira karo. jyAre vicAra karI tyAre pacaparameSThi-viSayaka ja vicAra karo. pachI karavAnI Atmazuddhi tapa, tyAga dvArA, jJAna-dhyAna dvArA, vinaya-bhakti dvArA, kAnA kSaya karavA tenuM nAma Atmavizuddhi. A rIte trividha zuddhi dvArA jIvanane saphaLa manAvavAnu che. 120 Atmasa vedana www.jainelibrary

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mahAtmAnA paricaya jagatanA paricaya eche karyAM vinA tane zAMti nahi maLe...jagatanA vadhune vadhu paricaya tArI zAMti jhuTavI leze. jagatanA paricaya A karavA mATe tAre tArA aMtarAtmAnA piracaya karavA paDaze. mahAtmAnA paricaya vinA aMtarAtmAnA paricaya tuM nahi karI zake. mATe mahAtmA purUSone paricaya ja zAMti... parama zAMti prApta karavAnA zreSTha mArga che. mahAtmAonA paricaya eTale mAtra emane vaMdana karavuM, eTalA ja nathI. va'daina pachI emanI payu pAsanA karavI, emanA eka eka vacananI gabhIratAne samajavA prayatna karavA. dharma zravaNu naLa khullA mukI, DAla tenI nIce na mukatAM khAjue mukI rAkhe te bharAya kharI? ane evI rIte pANI bharanAre manuSya DAhyo gaNAya kharA? tame dhanu' zravaNa kevI rIte karA che ? sadgurU dha vANIneA pANInaLa khullA muke che, tyAre tamArA mananI TAla naLa nIce rAkhA che ke mAjIe muThThA che ? dhama zravaNu karatI vakhate ekAgra maneA, paDatI vANI tamArA manamAM jhIlI leA.. eka chAMTA paNa bahAra na jAya tenI takedArI rAkhA. Atmasa vedana 121

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buddhi ane hRdaya mahApuruSonA hRdaya sudhI jayAre ApaNI buddhi pahoMce che tyAre buddhi aTakI jAya che ane ApaNuM hRdaya nAcI uThe che. mahApuruSAnA satkAryAnI pAchaLa temanA je bhAvA jAgrata thayelA hAya che, te bhAvAnA jayAre bhAvanA bharelA haiye vicAra karIe chIe tyAre evA akRtrima ane anahada b AnaMda anubhavAya che ke je vaNa nAtIta che. paraMtu mahApuruSonA hRdaya sudhI ApaNA hRdayane laI javA mATe vAhana joie che. vAhana che-muddhi. niLa buddhi, nima La buddhinA vAhana para AruDha thaine ApaNuM hRdaya mahApuruSAnA hRdaya dvAra paheAMcI zake che. buddhi ane hRdaya A rIte kAma karatAM thai jAya, khasa ! pachI sukha, zAnti ane AnaMdanI avidha nahIM rahe. maharSi vacana davyadraSTA mihaSi enAM vacanA kayAreka ApaNI sthUla buddhithI na samajAya tyAre ApaNe ApaNI azakita kabUlavI joIe. buddhinuM abhimAna mahiSa enAM vacanene paNa avagaNI nAMkhavAnuM kyAreka duSkRtya karI bese che. jayAM buddhi na pahoMce tyAM zraddhA-sthApita karI mahaSi vacanAne vaLagI rahevu joie. sara Atmasa vedana www.jainellbrary o

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mauna pudgaleSvapravRttistu yogInAM maunamuttamam / kevaLa bAlavAnuM baMdha karavuM, tenuM nAma mauna nathI, viSayakaSAcAmAM vacana-kAyAthI pravRtti na karavI enuM nAma mauna che. e mauna dhama bane che. e dhama pApono kSaya svaparanA hitanuM sAdhaka vacana bolavAmAM maunanA bhaMga thatA nathI, jayAre sva-paranA hitane khAdhaka vacana bolavAmAM mauna bhaMga thAya che. evA vicAra paNa manamAM na pesavA devA joIe ke jethI AtmAnuM ahita thAya. A che mauna dhAraNa karavAthI AMtarazakita pragaTe che. A pahe bAlavAmAM zakitano nAza thAya che, bahu bolavAmAM vivekanA paNa nAza thAya che. eTaluM ja bolavuM joIe ke je bAle lakhI levAmAM Ave to tenI nIce tame tamArI sahI karI zako. mauna ejhAdInI ArAdhanA karIne mana-vacana-kAyAnA ne cAgAne pApa pravRttiothI aLagA karavAnA che. . ke satya e satya che, jyAre jIvanamAM satyanI jarUra paDe che, satya svIkAryA vinA jIvana becena banI jAya che, tyAre satya satyasvarUpe samajAya che. che. meM tene jyAre e satya kahyuM hatuM tyAre teNe tene asatya kahIne avagaNI nAMkhyuM hatuM. kAraNa ke tyAre tene e satyanI jarUra na hatI ! puratu Aje be varSanA aMte eNe e satya vinA jIvanamAM muMjhavaNa anubhavI tyAre eNe e satyane maunapaNe svIkArI lIdhuM. . Atmasa vedana 1raha. www.Jainelibrary.org

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kAi paNa vAta koine kAI kALanI bhUmikAnuM satya hAya che. te kALanI bhUmikA AvethI te satya samajAya che. khIjA samaye te asatya lAge che. mATe kAinI paNa vAtane asatya karIne avagaNI nAMkhatA pUrve enI vAta kaI kALa-- bhUmikAnI che, te vicAravu joIe. tyAre satya prakAzita thaze. prazna prazna ? prazna ja nathI ? hRdayamAM keAi prazna nathI satAvatA ? tA samajI rAkha, tane jJAnanA prakAza prApta nadghi thAya. aMdhakAra jyAM sudhI satAve nahi, tyAM sudhI dIpakanI zodha ke dvIpanI prAptinA Anada kayAMthI thAya? zuM dutinA tamAma mAgeryAM te baMdha karI dIdhA? zuM akSaya sukha ane avinAzI zAnti tane prApta thaI gayAM ? chatAM tane prazna UThatA nathI? Azcaya! jyAre saMsAranA du:khA tArA para tUTI paDe che tyAre ja tArA cittamAM praznonI hAramALA jAge che! paraMtu jyAM saMsAranu` mAmulI sukha maLI jAya che ke tuM vicArazUnya manI jAya che. paNa jo tu vicAre te tyAre paNa vicArI zakAya. saMsAranuM sukha kema kAyamI TakatuM nathI ? kAyamI Take evuM sukha kayAM maLe ? tu A e prazno para vicAraje pachI enA pratyuttara tane na maLe te koI jJAnI gurune zeAdhaje. 124 Atmasa vedana www.jainelibrary

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DaravuM, konAthI? parAkanA jaya... hugatinA bhaya jyAre pratipaLa jAgatA rahezo tyAre ja he Atmana ! tuM pApakRtyAthI pAchA paDIza.' 'ha jIva ! tuM duHkhathI Dare che? to tAre pApakRtyothI paNa DaravuM joIe. koI taracha sukhanI lAlasAmAM kheMcAIne tu pApakRtya karavA prerAya che. te vakhate te vicAra kara ke 'e pApakRtyanuM pariNAma kevuM dArUNa Avaze ?" A vicAramAM evuM' adbhUta baLa che ke tarata ja pApakRtyAthI tane dura ke gALI deze. nathI ne pApa karIza te paNa rasa eAsarI jaze, pazcAttApa thaze.... guNa ane puNya tuM zAnI jhaMkhanA rAkhe che? puNyanI ke guNAnI ? puNya haze paNa guNA nahI hoya to tArI durdazA sajAze. | doSAnendaguNone puNyane sahAro maLe te jIvanA bAra ja lAgI jAya! puNyanA sahAre pelA doSa jIvanI pAse pApakRtya karAvaze ! pariNAme pApa karmonA udaya Avaze. tyAre duHkhanA DuMgara tUTI paDavAnA. guNo tArI pAse pApanA udayamAM paNu akalyA nahi karAve ! puNyanA udayane dhamakaraNImAM jaDaro. pariNAme puNyane baMdha ane sukhanA sAgara ! ) ) ghAtI kamauno kSayaparAma karI tArA Atma-tejane pragaTa kara.. Atmasa vedana 125 an Education International

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tArI A vacanA mane asahya lAge che. eka to te tArA badaIrAdAothI ane anyAya karyo ane tuM kahe che.... 'sahe puNyAdhIna che....! zuM enA a9pa puNyA hovAnA kAraNe ene anyAya thA ? | - tArA taraphathI, tArI mithyAvAsanAonA pApe, te jene guno karyo che, ene tuM pApa-puNyanA upadeza ApavA na besI jA. tu tArA pApa-puNyane jo. ke tArA para jyAre Apattio varasaze tyAre Apattio varasAvanArA tane kaheze 'tArA pApanA phaLa rUpe A Apatti AvI che mATe samatA rAkha !? tyAre te samatA rAkhI joje ! kevI samatA rahe che, te tuM tyAre jAhera karaje ! vicAre jyAre ApaNe koI ApattimAM phasAIe chIe tyAre e ApattinuM kAraNa zodhavA ApaNe prayatna karIe chIe. 'A pUva bhavanA pApanuM phaLa che." ema tUrata ja mana manAvI laIe chIe. pariNAma e Ave che ke ApaNI vicArakatA ochI thatI jAya che. ApaNI vata mAna bhUlano khyAla bhUlAI jAya che. - E | bIjAnI bhUlane kSamA karavA mATe enAM pUvakRta kamenuM A pariNAma che, e jIva to bhale che." AvicAra jarUrI che.. 126 smAtamasa vedanA www.jainelba

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premanA patha tane enA pratye kharekhara prema che? kevA prema che? tu enI pAsethI kaI apekSA rAkhe che? jenA para ApaNane prema che, tenA pratyenI ApaNI zI zI pharajo che, eTale ja vicAra Ave, te e prema sAceA che ane eja prema akhaDita rahI zake. jenA pratye tane prema che, enA taraphathI je tu keI paNa apekSA rAkhIza teA tu prema TakAvI nahI zake.... ane eka di" enA ja pratye dveSa dhAraNa karanArA banI jaIza. mArI vAta teNe na mAnI mArA rucyA.... mane duHkha thayu?... zAthI? mane kANu ? me' khUba vicAyu', 'mArA vicAra eNe mAnavA joIe... ene rucavA joie'... A vicAra paNa eka prakAranI vAsanA che. ema mane lAgyuM. pachI meM vicAyu ! * mAre tenI samakSa enA kalyANunA AzayathI mArA vicAro rajU karavA joie... mAnavA ke na mAnavA..e enI icchA ' 6 eka anubhava vicAro tene na duHkha ApanAra A vicAre mArA para jAdu karyAM ! have jayAre koi mArI vAtane na mAne, yA tA ene na ruce tyAre duHkha nathI thatuM! Atmasa vedana 127 www.jainellbrary.org

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129 Jain Education Inta fatic zivamastu sarvajagataH / parahitaniratA bhavantu bhUtagaNAH / doSAH prayAntu nAzam sarvatra sukhI bhavatu lokaH // Atmasa vedana www

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pU. paMnyAsapravara zrI bhadraguptavijayajI gaNivara janma : zrAvaNa suda 12, vi. sa", 1989 dIkSA : vi. sa. 2007, poSa vada-5 gurUdeva : A. zrI vijayabhuvanabhAnusurijI janmabhUmi : pugAma ( mahesANA ) dIkSAbhUmi : rANapura ( saurASTra ) munizrInuM vyaktitva bahura gI (Colourful) che, teozrI lekhaka che, vaktA che. preraka ane praNetA che. bahuzruta che. vyavahArika abhyAsa-meTrika sudhIno che. paraMtu dhAmika abhyAsa vizALa che. pUjya divagata AcAryazrI vijaya premasUrizvarajI mahArAja, pitAnA zraddheya gurU deva ane anya paMDito pAse teozrIe che dazana, jaina nyAyanAM granthA, 45 Agamo (saTIka ) temaja pUvacAnA granthA AdinuM yana kayu che. mAtRbhASA gujarAtI uparAMta hindI, saMskRta, prAkRta ane aMgrejI bhASA para sAruM prabhutva dharAve che. dIkSA lIdhA pachI cothA ja varase 'mahApaMthanA yAtrI' nAmanuM pustaka lakhI lekhana kSetre praveza karyo. sa. 2011 thI atyAra sudhImAM aMgrejI, hiMdI, gujarAtImAM 100 lagabhaga pustakaeN lakhyAM che. bALazailImAM bALake mATe lakhAyelAM puratakAnI 66 AvRtti thaI che. tenAM hiMdI ane aMgrejImAM paNa bhASAMtara thayAM che. "jJAnasAra' mane prazamarati' grantha jevA gaMbhIra grantho lakhyAM che. jaina rAmAyaNa ane "a janA' jevI dhAmika navalakathAo paNa lakhI che. arala ta' (hindI mAsika patra) dvArA teo niyamitapaNe lakhe che. teonA vADalabhrAtA pU. munirAja zrI dharmaguptavijayajI ma. sA. paNa jaina saMdhanA prasiddha vidvAna munivara che. | jJAnasatrA-dhAmika zibiranI preraNA karI potAnI madhura ane jJAnapUta vANIthI seMkaDo yuvAna ne bALakaione AmadharmanA rasiyA banAvyA che. temanI A jJAnayAtrA prasannacitte athANa cAlu ja che. www.jainelibra