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There has never been suspicion over the ego. Suspicion occurs over everything but not over the ego. Suspicions over the belief, 'This Chandulal is me,' is considered suspicions over the ego.
And you are not to get rid of your suspicion over Chandulal; you simply have to keep it 'dramatic'. A performer playing the role of King Bhartruhari is required to play his role very precisely. He will shout, he will renounce, he will cry, he will make all the gestures that will convince the audience of his sorrow. Later on, if we ask him, 'were you hurting you a lot?' He will tell you, 'No! I am Laxmichand. I was simply playing the role of King Bhartruhari.' That is exactly how you will have to play the role of "Chandulal' in your worldly interactions. Your work is done when you realize , 'Who am I?
Suspicion-free that 'I am Chandulal' for countless past lives
No one has any suspicions or doubts about, 'Who am I?' really.Even the greatest of acetics and spiritual masters have never had suspicions over their identity with their name. If suspicions were to arise then we can know that they are approaching samyak darshan - the right vision. However, that suspicion does not arise in the first place! On the contrary, they strengthen it and because of that, anger-pride-attachment-greed remain intact. Holding on to the non-truth turns the non-truth into truth. If one hangs on to the nontruth for a long period of time, that non-truth becomes the truth for him. If the non-truth becomes deeply engrained in his belief, it becomes the truth and then he will never come to the realization that it is the non-truth; it will always be the truth for him.
Hence anger-pride-attachment-greed will go away if suspicions about one's true identity arise, but such suspicions never do. How would they? Who would help you in doing so? Man has been suspicion-free about his real identity for endless past lives, who can introduce a suspicion in this? Whatever name he was given in any life, he assumed it to be the truth. Suspicion has never arisen, about it have it? How tremendously difficult this is? And anger-pride-attachment-greed remain intact because of that. You do not need anger-pride-attachment-greed if you are the pure Soul and if you are Chandulal, you need anger-pride-attachment-greed. The 'solution of all the scriptures comes from knowing only this - the knowledge of the Self. But how can one attain the knowledge of the Self? After attaining the
