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when one says, 'I do not want anything,' that too is also considered a spruha inclination. That too is an ego of ‘not wanting anything'. Have you ever seen such nispruhi men? I have.
One such nispruhi had come to me. He showed me his lock. He had made a hole through his penis and put a lock through it. He removed his clothes and told me, 'Look!' You fool! Why do you have to put a lock on a sense organ? What crime did the organ commit that you are putting a lock on it? Those days I did not have Gnan so I was strong and biased and onesided. I asked him, 'Why are you here? Why are you doing this? Why are you showing me this?' So he tells me, 'I have put a lock, Can't you see it?' I told him, 'I do see it. Why did you put it in only one place? Why did you not put one on the back hole too?' He responded, 'Why do you talk to me like this? I asked him, so what do you want from me?' He says, "Give me five rupees right now.' I told him, 'I do not have any rupees if you threaten me, but I do have money if you were to ask me for it. I have all the money that you ask for but I do not have any money for your threats. My guru has told me to give to anyone who requests it but not to give to anyone who demands from me.' So he became belligerent, 'I am going to do this to you! I am going to take care of you!" I told him, 'You are a big man. You can do whatever you choose. I have nothing so what am I capable of doing? And the money that I have is for the one who ask s with humility' He then said, ‘Nothing for me?' so I told him, "Take one rupee.' He did not say anything right away and as he started to walked out of the gate I invited him back in and served him tea and gave him five more rupees. Then he did not say anything more.
So these nispruhi persons go around saying, "What is it to me...what is it to me...?' They end up wandering life after life, and they take others on the same path. And what is a Gnani Purush like? He has spruha acquisitiveness and inclination for the Self in you, and interested in your salvation. He is nispruha nonacquisitive and non inclined in your worldy bhautik matters. He does not want anything worldly. His only inclination spruha is how the salvation of all can be attained. Yet, he is not completely nispruha without inclination. And that is why 'we', the Gnani Purush, are nispruha-saspruha a state of being nonacquisitive towards the non-Self, and acquisitive of the Self. What does this mean? Neither that shore, the non-Self, nor this shore, the absolute Self is where 'we' are. Therefore, 'we' are nispruha not inclined towards the-your', non-Self and saspruha inclined towards 'the-your Self. Therefore even if you curse and insult, 'we'
