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have to become, you have a long way to go and it is not easy to become Absolute.' So he tells me, 'But the ego is gone.' I said to him, 'It has not gone. It is all there. You have not checked into it."
But it goes away gradually. As one suffers in the experiences of worldly interaction, and makes an internal adjustment through Gnan, then the real experience anubhav arises within, and when such experiences increases, to that extent the 'I-ness' potapanu leaves. To say that the ego is gone means the 'I-ness' is gone. The end of ego means the end of 'Iness'. One will have to go through a lot of experiences before even a percentage of the e 'I-ness' goes. (There is a lot of difference between worldly experiences and the real experience within that ultimately makes one the absolute Self).
The main ego, the charge ego, is gone. That is precisely what is called the ego ahamkar. But it is not at all easy to get rid of the discharge ego. What does it mean to claim that the ego has gone away? It means there is no garva doership, no garavata wallowing and remaining stuck in worldly comforts and no potapanu 'I-ness'. Should all that not go? After Gnan, the ego is gone for sure; the charge ego is gone, so what kind of ego remains? The discharge ego! The discharge ego will dissipate in proportion to the experience (real) and then the 'I-ness' will gradually decrease. Otherwise, it will not do so, not on its own. This is not an easy thing to accomplish. One may ask, 'Can it not be accomplished during the course of my life?' I say, Moksha final liberation can be attaind in one or two more life times. What is the point of expecting anything else?" What is the benefit of wrong expectations?
All this is also I-ness
Once the 'I-ness' has dissolved away, there will not be any more garva or garavata. Here the garva and garavata still remain (in discharge). What are the attributes of the one without I-ness? Such a person will accept whatever abuse people give him. He will accept any beating. To side with the ego is considered I-ness. To lose upayogaawareness of 'I am separate from the body', is called 'I-ness'.
Even when You lose upayoga for a little while, it is called I-ness. You say that you 'become one with whatever goes on inside, you become tanmayakar-engrossed with it but later you become aware of it", all that
