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Shanka no karnaar tey, acharaj eyj amaap.'
The existence of the soul is being suspected by the soul itself, This is verily a matter of immeasurable amazement.
Who has suspicions about the Soul, is it the soul or is it the intellect buddhi?
Dadashri: Suspicions about the Soul are done by the soul, the intellect is not the one doing the suspecting. By the soul, 'we' mean the soul that is in your belief or projection and not the main Soul; the two are completely separate. What you call the atma is the atma that is associated with the intellect and the ego. The ego, the intellect etc., collectively begin to have suspicions about the main Soul. What suspicions do they have? 'It does not seem like the main Soul. It does not feel like that.' They have suspicions and uncertainties about what the Soul must be like.
Questioner: So besides the intellect, the atma is there too, is it associated with the intellect?
Dadashri: What do you or the world currently believe the soul to be? One believes 'I am Chandulal. The intellect is mine. The ego is mine. I myself am the soul and I have to make the soul pure.' That is what one believes. He does not realize that the main Soul is pure shuddha indeed and all other things that have a form is something that has been created. Therefore the ego is in all this, the intellect is there too and that is what creates suspicions. The intellect alone does not create suspicions; the intellect along with the ego creates suspicions. That is the one who is suspecting
"The existence of the Soul is suspected by the soul (ego and intellect) itself."
One is the soul and he has suspicions about his own self. So besides ‘him', who else would have suspicion? Neither the complex of anger-prideattachment-greed nor the mind or the intellect does the suspecting. It is the soul (non-Self realized) that has suspicions about the Soul. It is a wonder it says. It suspects its own self. The ignorance one has, has pervaded to such an extent that he begins to suspect his own existence: do I or do I not exist?'
