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Dadashri: Be careful; do not ever say that. People who are nirmani have the ego of being free from pride. They have the ego, 'I am a nirmani". And proud people maani have the ego of maan.. The ego of a proud man is better, but in which lifetime will you be able to get rid of the ego of being nirmani? The ego of not having pride is a subtle ego, which is very hard to get rid of once you, have it. Such a nirmani -the ego of being prideless person will keep telling everyone, I am nirmani, I am nirmani.' There is a subtle ego behind that. Gross ego is better, because even others will tell you that you have so much ego that you walk around with an inflated chest. Would people say that or not? But in the other case, there is no one to tell him so no one to tell him off, so his ego will continue to grow day by day. That is why I have to say this directly to such nirmani persons. Understand this otherwise you will end up wandering around. You will have to become ego-free nirahamkari. Just being nirmani will not do. Do you understand what nirmani means?
When I give you Gnan, you become nirahamkari ego-free. It is a big ego to be a nirmani. Alas! That lafroo - something that possess a person is very big. This lafroo of maan i.e. wanting importance and recognition is better; it is docile. Someone will come and tell you, 'why are you walking around with your chest inflated? Will people not comment this way? You yourself will comment to someone, 'I don't walk around with an inflated chest even when I am working, so why are you?" But no one will make a comment or say anything to a nirmani. The state of a nirmani is a state of subtle ego. What does this mean? It means his external 'horns' have been cut off but his internal ones still remain. Neither external nor internal 'horns' are acceptable. Internal horns will create an internal sting but he does not hurt anyone externally, does he? For him everything on the outside is a clean slate. His servants will take out the bedbugs and the mosquitoes for him. So they do not have anything bothering them on the outside or they do not have any external problems or afflictions. But how will the inner stinging leave him alone? The inner stinging is more intense. Have you ever seen or experienced inner stinging?
Questioner: I have seen it and experienced it too.
Dadashri: So one will have to become ego-free, being nirmani, the ego of being prideless, will not do.
Nirmohi: the ego of being without attraction
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