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So who experiences suspicions over doee ship, over the belief, 'I am the doer'? Whenever you have such a suspicion, know that the Self is present there and that is why that suspicion fades away.
Questioner: As long as the light of Gnan is burning that is when suspicions arises. How can there be suspicion when there is no such light?
Dadashri: Yes. You can see insects being crushed by a car only if the car's headlights are on but what if there is no light? There will be no suspicion at all.
You do not become tanmayakar i.e. you do not become engrossed or become one with your relative self because of the Gnan 'we' have given to you. But You may feel and wonder whether You did, however You do not, that is merely a suspicion. The Lord says the fact that you have suspicions means you are in Gnan, because others (people without Gnan) will not have such suspicions as to whether they become tanmayakar one with the self. In fact they are always tanmayakar. You have this Gnan and so you will have the suspicions of, 'Did I become tanmayakar or not?' and that is the suspicion! Still the Lord says, 'I forgive You for that suspicion. One may ask, 'Lord! why are you so forgiving?' He will tell you, 'You did not become tanmayakar, there is a misunderstanding on your part.'
You do not become tanmayakar; it is merely your suspicion. Why do others not have such suspicions? Do other people have suspicions like that? No. they have never even had a thought of 'I am separate and free'. Therefore, You are definitely separate. The Lord even pardons your suspicions of, 'Did I become tanmayakar or not?' But the Lord also says that even such suspicion should not arise with gradual practice.
Suspicionfree as to the purity of the Self
In reality the Soul is like the space, and 'Shuddhatma' is a sangnya - an understanding through association, a symbol or a sign of sort. What is that sangnya?
Questioner: I don't know.
Dadashri: No. No matter what kind of deeds are done by this body body, good or bad, You are pure shuddha. One may say, 'Dear Lord, I am
