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insult, but he will not be able to tolerate respect (excessive). Yes, to tolerate respect is like swallowing lead. When a newly married man bows at his father's feet for blessings, the father immediately gets up from his seat. If you ask him, 'Why did you get up?' He will tell you that he cannot handle it.
Questioner: And yet he does not like insult, what is that?
Dadashri: It is very wrong not to like an insult. No body likes insults. The energy shakti to like an insult has not arisen in anyone. People should hire someone to insult them, but no one does! And when people are truly insulted, they get hurt and feel let down. One should be thankful to the person insulting him but instead he feels hurt and let down. One should not feel hurt and let down after an insult, but should feel oblidged to the person hurling the insult. If one truly insults you, consider him doing a great favor to you upkari. You should decide, 'it would be great if he is around all the time.'
Love for insults
When a person insults you, he is simply a nimit (instrumental in the process; an apparent doer) in the fruition of your past karma. How can that poor man be the guilty one when you have to enjoy the fruits of your own karma? So try looking at it this way. Understand that it is a fruition of your own karma when someone insults you. What would you do if a piece of rock stone tumbled from a hill and falls on your head?
Questioner: I would get hurt if it were in my fate.
Dadashri: No, not so. When the rock comes tumbling down and hits you, you do not get upset when you look up to see who threw it and find no one up there. You do not do kashaya with anyone. But if someone throws a stone at you, you will do kashay- become angry with him. What is the reason behind this? It is because there is a difference in your understanding. In the former case, the hill threw the stone at you and in the latter case, it also a hill' that throws the stone. There is no pure consciousness shuddha chetan in the person; it is mishrachetan a mixture of the non-Self, and the Self, worldly being. He too is a 'rock'; he is a 'hill', the poor fellow! If you 'see- understand' it this way, then it is more than enough.
