Ek Rat Anek Vat

Author(s): Bhadraguptasuri
Publisher: Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra Koba
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/008896/1

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zrI priyadarzana Fu Ren Ren eka rAta aneka vAta

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eka dAtA aneka vAta zrI priyadarzana [AcArya zrI vijayabhadraguptasUrIzvarajI ma. For Private And Personal Use Only

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punaH saMpAdana jJAnatIrtha - kobA tRtIya AvRtti vi.saM. 2035, 31 oNgasTa 2009 maMgala prasaMga rASTrasaMta zratoddhAraka AcAryadevazrI padhasAgarasUrijIno 7pamo janmadivasa. tithi : bhAdaravA suda-11, tA. 31-8-2009, sAMtAkrujha - muMbaI) mUtha pAku peThuM H rU141.00 kAcu puDuM : rU. 31.00 Arthika saujanya zeTha zrI niraMjana narottamabhAInA smaraNArthe ha. zeTha zrI narottamabhAI lAlabhAI parivAra usleLS zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra AcArya zrI kelAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdira kobA, tA. ji. gAMdhInagara - 382007 phona naM. (079) 23276204, 232762pa2 email : gyanmandir@kobatirth.org website : www.kobatirth.org mudraka : navaprabhAta prinTarsa, amadAvAda - 98255988papa TAITala DIjhAIna : Arya grAphiksa - 9925801910 For Private And Personal Use Only

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pUjya AcArya bhagavaMta zrI vijayabhadraguptasUrIzvarajI zrAvaNa zuklA 12, vi.saM. 1989 ke dina pudagAma mahesANA (gujarAta) meM maNIbhAI evaM hIrAbahana ke kuladIpaka ke rUpa meM janme mUlacandabhAI, juhI kI kalI kI bhAMti khilatIkhalatI javAnI meM 18 barasa kI umra meM vi.saM.2007, mahAvada 5ke dina rANapura (saurASTra) meM AcArya zrImad vijayapremasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA ke karamakamaloM dvArA dIkSita hokara pU. bhuvanabhAnusUrIzvarajI ke ziSya bane. muni zrI bhadraguptavijayajI kI dIkSAjIvana ke prAraMbha kAla se hI adhyayana adhyApana kI sudIrgha yAtrA prAraMbha ho cukI thI.45 AgamoM ke saTIka adhyayanoparAMta dArzanika, bhAratIya evaM pAzcAtya tatvajJAna, kAvya-sAhitya vagairaha ke 'milasTona' pAra karatI huI vaha yAtrA sarjanAtmaka kSitija kI tarapha mur3a gaI. 'mahApaMthano yAtrI' se 20 sAla kI umra meM zuru huI lekhanayAtrA aMta samaya taka athaka evaM anavarata calI. taraha-taraha kA maulika sAhitya, tatvajJAna, vivecanA, dIrgha kathAe~, laghu kathAe~, kAvyagIta, patroM ke jariye svaccha va svastha mArgadarzana paraka sAhitya sarjana dvArA unakA jIvana saphara dina-ba-dina bharApUrA banA rahatA thA. premabharA ha~samukha svabhAva, prasanna va mRdu AMtara-bAhya vyaktitva evaM bahujana-hitAya bahujana-sukhAya pravRttiyA~ unake jIvana ke mahattvapUrNa aMgarUpa thI. saMgha-zAsana vizeSa karake yuvA pIr3hI, taruNa pIr3hI evaM zizu-saMsAra ke jIvana nirmANa kI prakiyA meM unheM rUci thI... aura isI se unheM saMtuSTi milatI thI. pravacana, vArtAlApa, saMskAra zibira, jApa-dhyAna, anuSThAna evaM paramAtma bhakti ke viziSTa AyojanoM ke mAdhyama se unakA sahiSNu vyaktitva bhI utanA hI unnata evaM ujjvala banA rahA. pUjyazrI jAnane yogya vyaktitva va mahasUsa karane yogya astitva se sarAbora the. kolhApura meM tA.4-5-1987 ke dina gurudeva ne unheM AcArya pada se vibhUSita kiyA.jIvana ke aMta samaya meM lambe arase taka ve aneka vyAdhiyoM kA sAmanA karate hue aura aise meM bhI satata sAhitya sarjana karate hue dinAMka 19-11-1999 ko zyAmala, ahamadAbAda meM kAladharma ko prApta hue. For Private And Personal Use Only

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prakAzakIya pUjya AcArya zrI vijayabhadraguptasUrijI mahArAja (zrI priyadarzana) dvArA likhita ane vizvakalyANa prakAzana mahesANAthI prakAzita sAhitya jaina samAjamAM ja nahIM parantu jainetara lokomAM paNa khUba ja utsukatA sAthe vaMcAtu lokapriya sAhitya che. - pUjyazrI 19 navembara 1999nA roja amadAvAdamAM kALadharma pAmyA pachI vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTanuM visarjana karI teozrInA prakAzanonuM punaHprakAzana baMdha karavAnA nirNayanI vAta sAMbhaLIne amArA TrasTIone bhAvanA thaI ke pUjya AcAryazrInuM utkRSTa sAhitya janasamudAyane hameMzA maLatuM rahe te mATe kaMIka karavuM joIe e Azaya sAthe vizvakalyANa prakAzananA TrasTamaMDaLane A vAta pUjya rASTrasaMta AcArya zrI pAsAgarasUrijInI saMmati pUrvaka jaNAvI. baMne pUjya AcAryonI parasparanI maitrI ghaniSTha hatI, aMtima divasomAM divaMgata AcAryazrIe rASTrasaMta AcAryazrIne maLavAnI icchA vyakta karI hatI. pUjyazrIe A kArya mATe vyakti, vyaktitva ane kRtitvanA AdhAre potAnI saMmati prerakabaLa rupe ApI. teozrInA AzIrvAda pAmIne kobAtIrthanA TrasTIoe A kAryane AgaLa dhapAvavA vicakalyANa prakAzana TrasTanI pAse prastAva mukyo. - vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTanA TrasTIoe paNa kobA tIrthanA TrasTIonI divaMgata AcAryazrI priyadarzananA pracAra-prasAranI utkRSTa bhAvanAne dhyAnamAM laI zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra-kobAtIrthane potAnA TrasTa dvArA prakAzita pustakonA puna:prakAzananA badhAja adhikAra saharSa soMpI dIdhA. te pachI zrI mahAvIra jene ArAdhanA kendra saMsthAnA kRtasaritA (jaina bukasTola)nA mAdhyamathI zrI priyadarzananA lokapriya pustakonuM vitaraNa jAhera janatAnA hitamAM cAlu karyuM. zrIpriyadarzananA anupalabdha sAhityanA punaHprakAzana karavAnI zRMkhalAmAM prastuta zrI eka rAta aneka vAta graMthane punaHprakAzita karIne vAcakone upalabdha karAvI rahyA chIe. zeTha zrI saMvegabhAI lAlabhAInA saujanyathI A prakAzana mATe zeTha zrI niraMjana narottamabhAInA smaraNArthe ha. zeTha zrI narottamabhAI lAlabhAI parivAra taraphathI je udAra Arthika sahayoga prApta thayo che e badala amo samagra zeThazrI narottamabhAI lAlabhAI parivAranA RNI chIe tathA teonI - - -- For Private And Personal Use Only

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hArdika anumodanA karIe chIe. AzA che ke bhaviSyamAM paNa teozrI taraphathI Avo ja udAra sahayoga maLato raheze. A AvRttinuM praphariDIMga karI ApanAra zrI jagadIzabhAI prajApati, zaileSabhAI zAha tathA phAInala prUpha karI ApavAmAM saMsthAnA paMDitavarya zrI manojabhAI jena, zrI AziSabhAIno tathA A pustakanA suMdara kampojhIMga tathA seTIMga karI ApavA badala saMsthAnA kayUTara vibhAgamAM kAryarata zrI ketanabhAI zAha, zrI saMjayabhAI gurjara tathA bAlasaMgabhAI ThAkorano ame hRdaya pUrvaka AbhAra mAnIe chIe. Apane amAro namra anurodha che ke tamArA mitro ane svajanomAM A preraNAdAyI sAhityanI prabhAvanA karo. zrutajJAnanA pracAra-prasAra mATe apAyeluM nAnakaDuM yogadAna Apane lAbhadAyaka thaze. punaH prakAzana vakhate graMthakArazrInA Azaya tathA jinAjJA viruddhanI kAMI kSati rahI gaI hoya to micchAmi dukkaDam. sujJone dhyAna AkRSTa karavA vinaMtI. anta, navA kalevara tathA sajjA sAthenuM prastuta pustaka ApanI jIvanayAtrAno mArga prazasta karavAmAM nimitta bane ane viSamatAomAM samarasatAno lAbha karAve evI zubha kAmanAo sAthe.. TrasTIgaNa zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra For Private And Personal Use Only

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* praveza kare rAjagRha nagaranA guNazIla caiityamAM zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra birAjamAna hatA. devoe vizALa suzobhita samavasaraNa racyuM hatuM. samavasaraNamAM besIne bhagavaMta dharmadizanA ApatA hatA. samavasaraNamAM dezanA sAMbhaLavA devo AvyA hatA, manuSyo AvyA hatA, pazu ane pakSI AvyAM hatAM. bhagavaMta ardhamAgadhI bhASAmAM dezanA ApatA hatA, paraMtu sAMbhaLanArAM sahu potapotAnI bhASAmAM samajatAM hatAM. dezanAno pavitra pravAha anavarata vahI rahyo hato. tyAM eka tejasvI deva Avyo, teNe bhagavaMtane bhAvapUrvaka vaMdanA karI. te harSavibhora banIne yogya sthAne besI gayo. dezanA pUrNa thaI, tyAM magadhasamrATa zreNike UbhA thaI, bhagavaMtane vaMdanA karI prazna pUchyo : he karuNAnidhi, A bharatakSetramAM aMtima kevaLajJAnI koNa haze?' bhagavaMte kahyuM : zreNika, hamaNAM ja je deve AvIne mane vaMdanA karI, harSavibhora banIne beTho che, te vidyumbhAlI deva A bharatakSetramAM aMtima kevaLajJAnI banaze!" samavasaraNAmAM beThelAM sahue vidyumnAlI sAme joyuM. vidyunAlIe be hAtha mastake lagADI, prabhune namana karyuM. bhagavaMte kahyuM : "zreNika, A devanuM sAta divasanuM AyuSya bAkI che. AyuSya pUrNa thatAM devalokathI tenuM cyavana thaze. tenI sAthe tenI cAra devIonuM AyuSya paNa pUrNa thaze. te pAMceya tArA A rAjagRha nagaramAM janma leze!" "prabho! rAjagRha nagara dhanya banI jaze!' hA, zreNika! caramazarIrI AtmAothI te te nagara ane te te kula dhanya bane che. A nagaranA zreSThI RSabhadattanA gharamAM vidyummAlI deva putrarUpe janamaze. tenuM nAma "jaMbUkumAra' rAkhavAmAM Avaze, te aMtima kevaLajJAnI banIne mokSamAM jaze." bhagavaMtanI vAta sAMbhaLIne, samavasaraNamAM beThelo eka deva Ubho thaIne nAcavA lAgyo...! samavasaraNamAM beThelA devo ane manuSyo AzcaryathI e devane joI rahyA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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zreNike bhagavaMtane pUchyuM : 'he nAtha, A deva harSanA atirrakathI zA mATe nAcI rahyo che?' bhagavaMte kahyuM : 'zreNika, A nagaramAM guptamati nAmanA eka zreSThI hatA. temanA be putro : eka RSabhadatta ane bIjo jinadAsa.' pelo deva potAnI jagAe besIne bhagavaMtanI vAta ekAgratAthI sAMbhaLavA lAgyo. 'be bhAIo vacce moTuM aMtara hatuM. RSabhadatta amRta to jinadAsa viSa! moTo nyAyaniSTha, nAno ghora anyAyI. moTo sadAcArI, nAno vyasanI. guptamati zreSThIno svargavAsa thaI gayo hato. moTobhAI RSabhadatte jinadAsane vyasano choDI devA, anyAya-anIti choDI devA khUba samajAvyo, paraMtu jinadAsa na samajyo. roja roja jinadAsanAM tophAnonI phariyAdo AvavA mAMDI. RSabhadatta badhuM sahana kare che, paraMtu eka divase kaMTALIne RSabhadatte jinadAsane gharamAMthI kADhI mUkyo. jinadAsane jugA2 2mavAnuM vyasana hatuM. tenI pAse paisA na hatA, chatAM jugArIonA aDDAmAM jaIne jugAra ramavA mAMDyo. eka pachI eka dAva te hArato gayo. jugArIoe paisA mAMgyA... jinadAsa kyAMthI paisA Ape? jugArIoe tene mAravA mAMDyo... khUba mAryo... jinadAsa maraNatola thaI gayo. jIvana-maraNa vacce jholAM khAto jinadAsa rastA pa2 taraphaDe che... tenA svajanoe jinadAsanI A hAlata joI... teo RSabhadatta pAse doDatA pahoMcyA. temaNe RSabhadattane kahyuM : 'he mahAnubhAva, jinadAsa game tevo che, chatAM tAro nAno bhAI che. tene mAravAmAM Avyo che.. rastA vacce lohIluhANa hAlatamAM te paDyo che, jIvanamRtyu vacce jholAM khAya che. he RSabha, tuM dayALu che. duHkhI jIva dayApAtra hoya che... A to tAro sahodara che... duHkhanA samaye duHkhInA avaguNa nA jovAya...' RSabhadattanI AMkhomAM AMsu AvI gayAM. tarata ja te doDyo... jyAM jinadAsa paDyo hato, tyAM pahoMcyo. jinadAsanuM mastaka potAnA khoLAmAM laI... vAtsalyathI tenA mAthe hAtha pheravatAM teNe kahyuM : 'mArA vahAlA bhAI, tuM ciMtA na kara. svastha thA. huM hamaNAM ja tane vaidya pAse laI jAuM chuM...' jinadAse AMkho kholI. eNe AMsu sAratA RSabhadattane joyo... teNe maMda svare... tUTatA avAje kahyuM : 'moTAbhAI, mArA aparAdha mApha karo... mane kSamA ApyuM... huM durAcArI... have mAre jIvavuM nathI. jIvavAnI jarAya icchA For Private And Personal Use Only

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nathI... mArA bhAI... mane anazana karAvo... mane dharma saMbhaLA... mAro paraloka sudhare... basa...' RSabhadatta codhAra AMsue raDI paDyo. teNe jinadAsane anazana karAvyuM.. ane kahyuM : "mArA vahAlA bhAI, tuM saMsAranI badhI mamatA tyajI de... zarIrane paNa bhUlI jA... eka mAtra arihaMta paramAtmAne jo.. emanuM zaraNa laI le... bhAI, tuM prakAza tarapha prayANa karIza.' RSabhadatta aMtima ArAdhanA karAvato rahyo... ane tyAM ja jinadAsanuM samAdhipUrNa mRtyu thayuM. marIne e devayonimAM utpanna thayo. jaMbUdvIpano svAmI banyo, e ja A "anADhI" deva che... ke je hamaNAM nAcI rahyo hato. potAne sadgati pamADanAra moTAbhAI RSabhadattanA gharamAM aMtima kevaLajJAnI thanAra AtmA avataraze.. e jANIne te harSavibhora banIne nAcavA lAgyo.!" magadhasamrATe anADhI deva sAme joyuM. be hAtha joDI praNAma karyA. te pachI vinmAlI deva sAme joI praNAma karyA. vidyummAlI devanuM teja , ojasa ane saubhAgya joI zreNike punaH bhagavaMtane pUchyuM : he tAraNahAra! A vidyummAlI devane jouM chuM.... ne mane khUba prema jAge che. mITho lAge che A devI ane prabho, enuM teja kevuM jhaLahaLe che? hajAro devomAM Avo deva to eka vidyummAlI ja joyo. he nAtha, A deve enA pUrvajanmamAM evI kevI dharma ArAdhanA karI haze? kevAM vrata pALyAM haze? kevuM utkRSTa puNyakarma bAMdhyuM haze? prabho, A badhuM jANavAnI mArI tIvra jijJAsA che." A praznanA uttaramAM maLe che je bUkamAranA pUrvajanmonI romAMcaka ane rasapUrNa vArtA. vArtA kahenArA che sarvajJa-vItarAga bhagavAna mahAvIra. sAMbhaLanArA hatAM samavasaraNamAM beThelAM devo, manuSyo ane pazupakSIo. e badhAMmAM mukhya zrotA hatA magadha samrATa zreNika. meM A vArtA vAMcI mahAkAvyanI bhASAmAM. mahAkAvyanI racanA karanArA hatA nyAyAcArya nyAyavizArada upAdhyAya zrI yazovijayajI vi. saM. 1739 mAM khaMbhAta zaheramAM A mahAkAvya racAyeluM che. cAlo, have A vArtA kahuM chuM gadyanI bhASAmAM! For Private And Personal Use Only

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gharma, kalA tathA zrata-sAghanAnuM AphlAdaka dhAma zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAghanA kendra, kobA tIrtha amadAvAda-gAMdhInagara hAIve para AveluM sAbaramatI nadIthI najIka suramya vRkSonI ghaTAothI chavAyeluM kobA tIrtha prAkRtika zAMtipUrNa vAtAvaraNano anubhava karAve che. gacchAdhipati, mahAna jainAcArya zrImad kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. nI divya kRpA ane yugaSTA rASTrasaMta AcArya pravara zrImad padmasAgarasUrIzvarajInA zubhAziSathI zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendranI sthApanA 26 Disembara 1980 nA roja karavAmAM AvI. AcAryazrInI evI IcchA hatI ke ahIM dharma, ArAdhanA tathA jJAna-sAdhanAnI koI ekAda pravRtti ja nahIM, paNa anekavidha jJAna ane dharmapravRttino mahAsaMgama thAya, eTalA mATe AcArya zrI kelAsasAgarasUrIzvarajInI ucca bhAvanArUpa AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdiranI sthApanA karavAmAM AvI. zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra anekavidha pravRttio paikI nIcenI zAkhAomAM satata prayatnothI dharmazAsananI sevAmAM tatpara che. (1) mahAvIrAlaya: hRdayamAM alaukika dharmollAsa jagADanAra parama tIrthaMkara zrI mahAvIra svAmIno zilpakalAyukta bhavya prAsAda mahAvIrAlaya jovA lAyaka che. pahelA mALe garbhagRhamAM mULanAyaka mahAvIrasvAmI vagere 13 pratimAonA darzana alaga-alaga derIomAM karI zakAya che tathA grAunDa phalora para AdIzvara bhagavAnanI bhavya pratimA, mANibhadravIra tathA bhagavatI padmAvatI sahita pAMca pratimAnA darzana karI zakAya che. tamAma pratimAo eTalI suMdara ane cuMbakIya AkarSaNa dharAve che ke jANe ke sAme darzana karavA beThA ja rahIe! maMdirane paraMparAgata zailIthI zilyAMkanothI rocaka paddhatithI alaMkRta karavAmAM Avela che. jemAM pagathiyAMthI zarU karIne zikharanA guMbaja sudhI tathA raMgamaMDapathI, garbhagRhano dareka pradeza jotAM jaina zilpakalA Adhunika yugamAM punaH jIvita thaI hoya tevuM lAge che. daravAjA para kotarAelA bhagavAna mahAvIranA prasaMgomAM 24 yakSa, 24 yakSiNIo, 16 mahAvidyAo, vividha svarUpothI sajja apsarAo, devo, kinnara, pazu-pakSI tathA latAmaMjarI vagere A maMdirane jaina zilpa tathA sthApatyanA kSetramAM eka apratima udAharaNa pUruM pADe che. mahAvIrAlayanI khAsa viziSTatA e che ke AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. nA aMtima saMskArano samaya eTale ke dara varSe 22 me nA roja bapore For Private And Personal Use Only

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be vAgye ne sAta miniTe mahAvIrAlayanA zikharamAMthI sUryakiraNa zrI mahAvIrasvAmInA kapALane sUryatilakathI jhagamagAve evI anupama tathA advitIya vyavasthA karavAmAM AvI che. dara varSe A AlAdaka prasaMganA darzana khUba moTI saMkhyAmAM loko bhAvavibhora banIne darzana kare che. (2) AcArya zrI kelAsasAgarasuri smRti maMdira (gurumaMdira) : pUjya gacchAdhipati AcAryadeva prazAMtamUrti zrImad kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajInA puNya dehanA aMtima saMskAranA sthaLa upara pUjyazrInI puNyasmRtimAM saMgamaramaranuM nayanaramya kalAtmaka guru maMdira banAvavAmAM AvyuM che. sphaTika ratnothI banAvelAM A maMdiramAM anantalabdhi nidhAna zrI gautamasvAmIjInI manohara mUrti tathA sphaTikamAMthI ja banAvelI caraNapAdukA kharekhara darzanIya che! (3) AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdira (jJAnatIrtha) : vizvamAM jaina dharma ane bhAratIya saMskRtinA jJAna vArasAnA vizALatama saMgraha dharAvatA adyatana sAdhanothI saMpanna zodha saMsthAnanA rUpe potAnuM nAma jALavI rAkhatuM A jJAnatIrtha zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendranA AtmA svarUpe che A jJAnatIrtha potAnA kAryo dvArA samAjamAM pratiSThita saMsthA tarIke nAma dharAve che. AcArya zrI kalAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdiranI aMtargata nIce pramANenA vibhAgo kAryarata che. (a) devardhvigaNi kSamAzramaNa hastaprata bhAMDAgAra (ba) Arya sudharmAsvAmI zutAgAra (prinTeDa graMthonI lAyabrerI) (ka) AryarakSita zodhasAgara (kapyuTara vibhAga sAthe) (3) samrATa sammati saMgrahAlaya-A kalApUrNa myujhiyamamAM purAtattvanA adhyetA tathA jijJAsu darzako mATe prAcIna bhAratIya zilpakalAnI paramparAnA gauravazALI darzana ahIM karI zakAya che. pASANa tathA dhAtunI mUrtio, tADapatra tathA kAgaLa para lakhelI sacitra hastaprato, laghucitrapaTa, vijJaptipatro, kASTha tathA hAthIdAMtamAMthI banAvelI prAcIna temaja arvAcIna advitIya kalAkRtio temaja anya prAcIna vastuone khUba ja AkarSaka tathA prabhAvazALI DhaMgathI dhArmika tathA sAMskRtika gauravane anurUpa pradarzita karavAmAM AvI che. (6) zahera zAkhA-pUjya sAdhu-sAdhvIjI bhagavaMto temaja zrAvaka-zrAvikAonA svAdhyAya, ciMtana ane manana mATe jainadharmanI pustako najIkamAM ja maLI rahe te hetuthI jaina loko jyAM vadhu rahe che tevA amadAvAdanA pAlaDI Tolakanagara vistAramAM AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdiranI eka zaherazAkhA I. sa. 1999 thI zarU karavAmAM AvI che ke je Aje caturvidha saMghanA zrutajJAnanA adhyayana mATe satata sevA ApI rahI che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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(4) ArAdhanA bhavana : ArAdhako ahIM dharmArAdhana karI zake eTalA mATe ArAdhanA bhavananuM nirmANa karavAmAM AvyuM che. kudaratI vAtAvaraNa tathA prakAzamaya be upAzrayomAM muni bhagavaMto nivAsa karIne potAnI saMyama ArAdhanAnI sAthe-sAthe viziSTa jJAnAbhyAsa, dhyAna, svAdhyAya vagereno yoga prApta kare che. (5) dharmazALA : A tIrthamAM AvatAM yAtriko temaja mahemAnone rahevA mATe Adhunika suvidhAothI saMpanna yAtrikabhavana ane atithibhavana banAvavAmAM AvyAM che. dharmazALAmAM vAtAnukUlita (e.sI.) tathA sAmAnya ema badhA maLI 46 rUmonI suvidhA che. (7) bhojanazALA ane alpAhAra gRha : A tIrthamAM padhArelA zrAvako, darzanArthIo, mumukSuo, vidvAno temaja yAtrikone jaina siddhAMtane anurUpa sAttvika bhojana maLI rahe te hetuthI vizALa bhojanazALA ane alpAhAragRha (kenTIna)nI suMdara suvidhA upalabdha che. (7) zrutasaritA : A bukasTolamAM vyAjabI bhAve jaina sAhitya, ArAdhanA sAmagrI, dhArmika upakaraNo jevA ke keseTa, sI.DI. vagere puruM pADavAmAM Ave che. ahIM esa.TI.DI. TelIphonanI paNa suvidhA upalabdha karavAmAM AvI che. prakRtinA khoLe zAMta ane suramya vAtAvaraNamAM A tIrthasthAnano varSa daramyAna hajAro yAtriko lAbha le che. (8) vizvamaitrIdhAma-borIjatIrtha, gAMdhInagara : yoganiSTha AcArya zrImad buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjanI sAdhanAnuM sthaLa borIjatIrthano punaruddhAra parama pUjya AcAryadeva zrI padmasAgarasUrIzvarajI ma. sA.nI preraNA temaja zubhAziSathI zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra sAthe saMlagna vizvamaitrI dhAmanA tattvAvadhAnamAM prAcIna derAsaranA jIrNodvAra rUpe navanirmita 108 phUTa UMcA vizALa mahAlayamAM 81.25 IMcanA padmAsanastha zrI varlDamAnasvAmInI pratiSThA karavAmAM AvI che. vartamAna maMdiramAM A sthaLa para jamInamAMthI nIkaLelI bhagavAna mahAvIrasvAmI vagerenI pratimAonI prathama pratiSThA yoganiSTha AcArya zrImad buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAja dvArA karavAmAM AvI hatI. navuM maMdira sthApatya temaja zilpa e baMne jovA jevA che. ahIM mahimApura (pazcima baMgALa)mAM jagat zeTha zrI mANikacaMdajI dvArA 18 mI sadImAM kasoTI paththarathI banAvelAM bhavya ane aitihAsika jinAlayano punaruddhAra karavAmAM Avyo che. hAlamAM tene jainasaMghanI aitihAsika dharohara mAnavAmAM Ave che. nisaMdeha emAM A tIrthanA parisaramAM pUrva ane pazcima bhAratanAM jainazilpano abhUtapUrva saMgama thayelo che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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* anukrama = = o o .......... o ...... o - ............ .CO 1. bhavadata. 2. bhavadeva............. 3. vyathA haiyAnI... 4. bhavadatta muni ............... pa. nAgilA . ............ 6. ghaTanAcakra ... ......... 7. sAgaradatta .... 8. zivakumAra ................................................. .............. 9. vairAgInI vedanA ... ............ 10. zivakumAranA upavAsa .... .................. 11. kalyANamitra : dharmeza .... 12. svargavAsa . .................. 13. jaMbUkumAra ........ ............ 14. jaMbUno vairAgya . ......... .... 9 : 15. lagna nakkI thayAM. ..... 103 16. prabhava maLe che!. .. 11) 17. prabhava-pratibodha ............ .... 117 18. samudrazrI ane padmazrI .............. .. 126 19. pAsenA ....... .... 134 20. kanakasenA ane nabhasenA ... ................ ....143 21. kanakazrI ane kamaLavatI 22. jayazrI .......... 157 23. dIkSA. dIkSA... dIkSA.... ....... 163 24. sAcI prIta ........ 171 25. prabhava jayapuramAM ...............................................................177 26. prabhu sAthe pallImAM ........ .................. 184 27. prabhavanI dIkSA ................ .................191 28. jaMbusvAmInuM nirvANa ............... .. 197. ..... 22. zrA ******************************************************************** For Private And Personal Use Only

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| 1. bhavadad | e kALe AcAryazrI mahIdhara mAgadha bhUmine pAvana karI rahyA hatA. mAgadha prajA teone tAraNahAra mAnatI hatI. lAkho jabAno para temanA jJAnanI ane cAritranI prazaMsA ramatI hatI. sugrAma nagaranA bAhya udyAnamAM teo munirvAda sAthe birAjyA hatA. pratidina hajAro nagarajano temano dharmopadeza sAMbhaLI harSa vibhora banatA hatA. madhu ane zarkarAthI paNa vadhAre madhura vANI AcAryadevanI hatI. temanI AMkhomAMthI kRpAnI niraMtara varSA thatI hatI. temanI vANImAMthI samatAnuM mIThuM amRta jharatuM hatuM. zrotAo maMtramugdha banIne vacanAmRtanuM pAna karatA hatA. eka yuvaka niyamita AcAryadevano dharmopadeza sAMbhaLavA Avato hato. tenuM nAma hatuM bhavadatta. sugrAmanA dhanapati rASTrakUTano e moTo putra hato. jevo e rUpavAna hato, tevo ja guNavAna hato. jevo e buddhimAna hato tevo ja sattvazIla hato. khUba tanmaya banIne te upadeza zravaNa karato hato. zravaNa karyA pachI UMDA ciMtanamAM DUbI jato hato. je divase eNe upadezamAM saMsAranAM sukhonI AsaktinAM bhayaMkara pariNAmo sAMbhaLyAM, naraka ane tiryaMcagatinAM duHkhonuM varNana sAMbhaLyuM, krodha-mAna-mAyA ane lobhanA karuNa aMjAma sAMbhaLyA, tenuM kALajuM kaMpI UDyuM. e ghera gayo paNa bhojana na bhAvyuM. e palaMgamAM sUto paNa nidrA na AvI. bIjA divase savAre snAnAdithI jaladI paravArIne te AcAryadeva pAse pahoMcyo. vinayapUrvaka vaMdanA karIne aucitya jALavIne te beTho. AcAryadeve tene dharmalAbhano AzIrvAda Apyo. bhavadatte be hAtha joDI, mastaka namAvIne kahyuM: gurudeva, gaI kAlano Apano dharmopadeza sAMbhaLIne mAruM mana udvigna thaI gayuM che. gharanuM koI kAma gamatuM nathI, saMsAranuM koI sukha gamatuM nathI." mahAnubhAva, tArA hRdayamAM vairAgyano bhAva jAgrata thayo che. saMsAranA sukhonuM svarUpa jANyA pachI ane sukhabhoganAM kaTu pariNAma jANyA pachI haLukarmI AtmAmAM vairAgyano bhAva jAge che." AcAryadeve bhavadattanA uddegane vaiirAgyarUpe oLakhAvyo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta 'paraMtu gurudeva, mAro A vairAgya kSaNika to nahIM hoya ne?' 'kSaNikane sthAyI banAvavAno prayatna karavo joIe. saMsAra-svarUpanuM punaH punaH ciMtana-manana karavAthI vairAgyabhAva dRDha thAya che. tuM buddhimAna yuvaka che. tIrthaMkaronAM vacano sAMbhaLIne, e vacarnA para ciMtana karato rahIza to jarU2 tAro vairAgyabhAva sthAyI banaze,' 'gurudeva, mArA mananuM samAdhAna karavAnI Ape mArA para mahAna kRpA karI.' e pachI to avAranavAra bhavadatta AcAryadevanI pAse Ave che, prazna pUche che, samAdhAna meLave che... ane viraktinA bhAvane puSTa karato jAya che. kyAreka AtmAnA zuddha svarUpane samaje che, to kyAreka karmabaddha AtmAnA vaibhAvika svarUpane jANe che. kyAreka samyagdarzananuM svarUpa samaje che to kyAreka samyak caritranA svarUpane jANe che. teno vairAgya jJAnamUlaka banyo. teNe AMtara nirIkSaNa karyuM : 'huM sAdhudharmanuM pAlana karI zakIza ke nahIM? jIvanaparyaMta mahAvratonuM pAlana karavAnuM mAruM sattva che ke nahIM? teNe manomana sAdhudharma aMgIkAra karavAno nirNaya karyo ane eka divasa mAtA revatI ane pitA rASTrakUTanI AgaLa potAno nirNaya jAhera karyo. revatI ane rASTrakUTa saraLa prakRtinAM daMpatI hatAM. zIla ane saMskArothI suzobhita hatAM. temane baMne putro para samAna rAga hato. bhavadattanI vAta sAMbhaLI, baMne raDI paDyAM. temaNe koI javAba na Apyo. bhavadatte paNa sahajabhAve kahI dIdhuM : 'Apa baMne mArA upakArI cho... baMnenuM mArA para apAra vAtsalya che... ApanI anujJA maLaze... tyAre ja huM gRhavAsano tyAga karIza. mane vizvAsa che ke Aje nahIM to kAle paNa Apa mane anumati jarUra Apazo ja.' bhavadattanA samagra jIvanavyavahAra para vairAgyanI chAyA AvI gaI hatI, chatAM e ucita kartavyonuM pAlana karye jato hato. revatI ane rASTrakUTa bhavadattanA virakta hRdayane samajI gayAM hatAM. 'have A putra gharamAM rahIne sukhI nahIM rahI zake. enuM mana vaiyika sukhomAMthI UThI gayuM che.' ghaNIvAra revatI ane rASTrakUTa A viSayamAM vArtAlApa karatAM hatAM. eka For Private And Personal Use Only

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bhavadatta divasa temaNe bhavadattane cAritramArge javAnI anumati ApavAno nirNaya karI lIdho. temaNe bhavadattane bolAvIne kahyuM : "vatsa, ame keTalAya divasothI joIe chIe ke tAruM mana gRhavAsamAM TharatuM nathI. tAruM virakta mana cAritradharma aMgIkAra karavA utsuka banyuM che. virakta AtmA gRhavAsamAM duHkha anubhave che. ame tane duHkhI karavA nathI icchatAM. alabatta, tane cAritramArge javAnI anumati ApatAM amArA baMnenuM hRdaya duHkha anubhave che. chatAM ame samajIe chIe ke amAro rAga amane duHkhI kare che... tuM prasanna citte cAritradharma aMgIkAra karI, tArA AtmAne karmanAM baMdhanothI mukta karavA ujamALa bana..." rASTrakUTa raDI paDyA. revatI raDI paDI. nAno bhAI bhavadeva paNa raDI paDyo. bhavadatte mAtA-pitAnAM caraNomAM potAnuM mastaka mUkI dIdhuM. tenuM hRdaya gadgad thaI gayuM hatuM. teNe kahyuM : tame mane janma ApIne, lAlana-pAlana karIne, zikSaNa ane saMskAro ApIne to mahAna upakAra karyo ja che... paraMtu Aje mane cAritra-dharma aMgIkAra karavAnI anumati ApIne to mahAna upakAra karyo che. jIvanaparyata huM tamAro upakAra nahIM bhUluM.. huM icchuM chuM ke mAre A saMsAramAM pharIthI janma levo paDe to tArA jevI mAtAnI kUkhe janma maLe!" revatIe putranA mAthe punaH punaH AliMgana ApyuM. te bolI : "vatsa, vIra banIne... parAkramI banIne tuM mokSamArge jAya che. vIra banIne cAlaje. rAgaleSa para vijaya prApta karaje..." bhavada, AcAryadeva mahIdharanA caraNomAM jIvana samarpita karI dIdhuM. AcAryadeve vidhivat bhavadattane zramaNa banAvyo ane sugrAma nagarathI vihAra karI dIdho. AcAryadeve bhavadatta munine pAMca samiti ane traNa guptinuM jJAna ApIne kahyuM : "vatsa, A samiti-gupti zramaNajIvananI mAtA che. A mAtAnuM tuM barAbara pAlana karaje.' gurudeve bhavadara munine mahAvratonuM svarUpa samajAvIne kahyuM : "vatsa, A mahAvratanuM pAlana, e ja zramaNa jIvana che. mahAvratonA pAlanamAM jAgrata banIne jIvavAnuM che. pratidina mahAvratonI bhAvanAomAM ramatA rahevAnuM che.' AcAryadeve bhavadatta munine sAdhujIvananAM kartavyo samajAvatAM kahyuM : "vatsa, gurujanonI sevA, vRddha sAdhu-purUSonI sevA, bImAra munionI sevA-vaiyAvacce For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta zramaNajIvananuM paheluM ane zreSTha kartavya che. A kartavyanuM pAlana ullasita manathI karato raheje. thAkyA vinA karato raheje. vinamra ane vinIta banIne karato raheje.' AcAryadeve bhavadatta munine zramajIvananI dinacaryA batAvatAM kahyuM : "vatsa, divasa ane rAtrinA 24 kalAkamAM 15 kalAka svAdhyAya karavAno che, 6 kalAka nidrA levAnI che ane bAkInA traNa kalAkamAM AhAra-nihAra ane vihAra karavAno che." gurudeve bhavadatta munine bhikSAvRttinA niyamo batAvatAM kahyuM : "vatsa, 42 doSa TALIne gRhasthonA gharomAMthI bhikSA levAnI che ane pAMca doSa TALIne AhAra karavAno che. mAtra cAritradharmanI ArAdhanAnI dRSTie zarIra dhAraNa karavAnuM che.' bhavadatta muni suMdara saMyama dharmanuM pAlana kare che. gurudevanAM caraNomAM besIne vinayapUrvaka dharmagraMthonuM adhyayana kare che. sUtra ane arthagrahaNa karI, enA para anuprekSA kare che. thoDAM varSomAM teo viziSTa koTinA vidvAna banyA. gurudevanI AjJAthI bIjA sAdhuone teo adhyayana karAve che. khUba AnaMda-ullAsapUrvaka temanI saMyamayAtrA cAlI rahI che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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| 2. bhavadea ] AcAryadevazrI mahIdharasUri vihAra karatA karatA vatsadezamAM padhAryA. vatsadezanI rAjadhAnI hatI kauzAmbI. AcAryadeve kauzAmbIne pAvana karI. kauzAmbInI prajAe AcAryadevanuM bhavya svAgata karyuM. AcAryadeve kauzAmbImAM mAsakalpanI sthiratA karI. prajA AcAryadevano dharmopadeza sAMbhaLe che. sAdhuo jJAna-dhyAnamAM lIna rahe che. zramaNavRdamAM eka zramaNa vatsa dezanA che. kauzAmbInI pAse ja emanI janmabhUmi che. janmabhUminA eka sajjane AvIne munivara zrI prabhAsane kahyuM : "mahAtmanuM, tame to saMsArano tyAga karI, mAnavajIvanane saphaLa banAvanAra cAritradharmanuM pAlana karo cho. tamAro nAno bhAI vilAsa che ne? tenAM lagnanI taiyArIo cAlI rahI che.' prabhAsa munirAje samAcAra sAMbhaLI lIdhA. pelA sajjana cAlyA gayA. munirAjanI smRtimAM nAno bhAI upasthita thayo... ane vicAro zarU thaI gayA. vilAsa lagna karaze? saMsAranA baMdhanamAM jakaDAze? saMsAra to duHkhapUrNa che.. vaiSayika sukhonI lAlasAmAM kheMcAIne... e manuSyajIvanane vyartha gumAvI deze... eno AtmA bhavasAgaramAM DUbI jaze...?' munirAjanuM hRdaya bhAI pratyenI bhAvadayAthI UbharAvA mAMDyuM... "huM ahIM najIkamAM AvI gayo chuM. huM enI pAse jAuM? ene samajAvuM? Ameya enA hRdayamAM mArA pratye pUjyabhAva to hato ja. huM ene saMsAranI asAratA samajAvuM... vairAgI banAvuM. tene dIkSA ApI sAdhu banAvuM.." laghu bhrAtAne cAritrI banAvavAnI tIvra icchA thaI AvI. teo tarata ja AcAryadeva pAse gayA. AcAryadevane vaMdanA karIne vinayathI kahyuM : gurudeva, mArI janmabhUmi najIkamAM ja che. mane samAcAra maLyA che ke mArA laghu bhrAtAnAM lagna thavAnAM che... jo Apa mane AjJA Apo to tyAM jaIne bhAIne pratibodha pamADuM. saMsAra pratye virakta banAvuM. tene dIkSA ApI mokSamArgano ArAdhaka banAvuM." For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta AcAryadeve kahyuM : "vatsa, tArI bhAvanA uttama che. nAnA bhAIne pratibodha pamADavA tame janmabhUmimAM jaI zako cho.' prabhAsa muni AnaMdita thayA. teo potAnI janmabhUmi tarapha javA taiyAra thayA. tyAM upasthita eka munie AcAryadevane pUchyuM : gurudeva, prabhAsa munirAja zuM ekalA ja vihAra karaze?" hA mahAnubhAva, prabhAsa munirAja "gItArtha che. gItArtha muni ekalA paNa vihAra karI zake." gurudeva, je muni gItArtha nathI, zratadhara nathI... paraMtu tapasvI hoya, cAritravaMta hoya, te zuM ekalA vihAra na karI zake?" nA, jinezvara bhagavaMtoe be ja prakAranA vihAra batAvelA che. eka vihAra gItArthano ane bIjo vihAra gItArthanI nizrAno. je gItArtha nathI, temaNe gItArthanI nizrAmAM vihAra karavo joIe." prabho, gItArthatAnuM ATaluM badhuM mahattva zA mATe tIrthakaroe batAvyuM haze?" "vatsa, gItArtha utsarga-apavAdanA jJAtA hoya che. kyA utsarga-mArganuM AlaMbana levuM ane kayA apavAda-mArganuM AlaMbana levuM - te gItArtha jANatA hoya che. vihAramAM kyAMka apavAda-mArganuM AlaMbana levuM paDe! jo gItArtha na hoya to? je sthaLe ane je samaye je ucita lAge te gItArtha kare. gItArthanI pravRttimAM koI zaMkA ke saMdeha karavAno nathI. jinazAsana eTale gItArthanuM zAsana!' muninAM mananuM samAdhAna thayuM. gItArthatAnuM gaurava tenA manamAM aMkita thaI gayuM. 0 0 0 prabhAsa muni potAnI janmabhUmimAM pahoMcyA. potAnA saMsArI ghare gayA. "dharmalAbhanA AzIrvacana sAthe temaNe gharamAM praveza karyo. mAtA-pitAe putramunirAjanAM darzana karI AnaMda vyakta karyo. gharamAM vilAsanAM lagnanI taiyArIo cAlI rahI hatI. snehI-svajanono meLo jAmelo hato. acAnaka prabhAsa munirAjane AvelA joI sahunAM mana AnaMdita thayAM. munirAjanI AMkho vilAsane zodhatI rahI. vilAsa potAnA mitro sAthe vArtA-vinoda karI rahyo hato. For Private And Personal Use Only

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bhavadeva teNe prabhAsa munirAjane joyA, paraMtu na te Ubho thayo ke na teNe vaMdanA karI. chatAM munirAja tenI pAse gayA. vilAse jarAya Adara na Apyo. munirAjanuM mana khinna thaI gayuM. temaNe vilAsanA mukha para prasannatA na joI... emaNe vicAryuM : vilAsane mAruM Agamana paNa gamyuM nathI. to pachI ene upadeza Apavo vyartha che. nathI te vinaya karato ke nathI sadUbhAva pradarzita karato... kharekhara, eNe mULabhUta yogyatA khoI nAMkhI che. huM ene upadeza ApIza... to paNa tene nahIM game.. kadAca mArA pratye dveSa thaI jAya.. khera, jevI enI bhavitavyatA! mAre ene kAMI ja kahevuM nathI." teo tarata ja pAchA vaLI gayA. kauzAmbI tarapha prasthAna karI dIdhuM. prabhAsa muni gItArtha hatA, kRtadhara hatA. temanA manamAM nAnA bhAI pratye koI durbhAva pedA na thayo. tenA pratye bhAvakaruNA ja vahetI rahI. "jyAre enI kALasthiti paripakva thaze tyAre jJAnadRSTi khUlaze." Atmasthiti, bhavasthiti vagerenuM ciMtana-manana karatA teo kauzAmbI AvI gayA. AcAryadevanAM caraNe AvI vaMdanA karI, mAtRbhUmimAM je banyuM tenuM yathArtha nivedana karyuM. AcAryadevanI pAse ja bhavadatta muni ane bIjA munivaro upasthita hatA. prabhAsamuninI vAta sAMbhaLIne bhavadatta muni bolyA : "mahAtmanuM, A to moTI durbhAgyanI vAta kahevAya. agraja muni bhrAtAne anuja baMdhu namana-vaMdana paNa na kare ?' sAcI vAta che tamArI; paraMtu sAdhuno saMyoga priya lAgavAno anujano paNa puNyodaya joIe ne? to mArA kartavyanuM pAlana karyuM.' 'bhale tame mana manAvo, paraMtu kAryasiddhi mATe prabaLa praNidhAna joIe. prabaLa praNidhAnathI vighnono nAza thAya che ane kAryanI siddhi thAya che." bhavadatta munivara, kAryanI siddhimAM mAtra puruSArtha ja kAraNa nathI ne? kALa, karma, bhavitavyatA Adi kAraNo paNa apekSita hoya che ne?" tyAM bIjA eka munirAja, ke jemane prabhAsa muni tarapha sahAnubhUti hatI, teo bolyA : bhavadatta muni prabaLa praNidhAna karIne, temanA laghu baMne pratibodha pamADavA jarUra jaze ane pratibodha pamADIne tene dIkSA Apaze.!! For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta avazya!" bhavadatta muni makkama svare bolyA. magadhamAM gurudeva vihAra karaze, mane AjJA Apaze to tamArI A manoratha pUrNa karIza. huM koI paNa kArya cAre bAjuno vicAra karIne karuM chuM.' eka munirAja bolyA : "e to have samaya Avye khabara paDaze! sAdhue pukhta vicAra karIne bolavuM joIe." "huM pukhta vicAra karIne ja kahuM chuM... chevaTano nirNaya to gurudeve karavAno carcAno aMta lAvatAM gurudeve kahyuM : "ApaNe jyAre magadhamAM vicarIzuM tyAre A aMge vicArIzuM.' sAdhuo potapotAnI dinacaryAmAM gUMthAI gayA. bhavadatta muninI kalpanAsRSTimAM laghubhrAtA bhavadeva sAkAra thayo. "mAro nAno bhAI vinIta che. mArA pratye eno apUrva anurAga che... ame sAthe ramelA chIe, sAthe jaMgalomAM rakhaDelA chIe... taLAvamAM sAthe karelA chIe... kyAreka jhagaDI paNa paDatA. paraMtu mane enA vinA na cAlatuM, ene mArA vinA na cAlatuM... e to meM joyuM hatuM ne.... jyAre meM gRhavAsano tyAga karyo... tyAre te kevo rahyo hato? raDI raDIne enI AMkho sUjI gaI hatI... ane pachI paNa jyAre gurudevanI sAthe "sugrAmamAM gayo hato tyAre mane joIne te kevo AnaMdavibhora thaI gayo hato...! e to meM ene e vakhate gRhavAsa tyajIne dIkSA levAno upadeza nahoto Apyo.. enAmAM bhale vairAgya nahIM hoya, paraMtu mArA pratye anurAga to che ja! huM e anurAganA mAdhyamathI dIkSA ApIza.... gRhavAsano tyAga karAvIza. sAdhuonI vacce uccAreluM vacana pALI batAvIza.. mAruM vacana mithyA nahIM thavA dauM...!' AcAryadeve muni parivAra sAthe magadha deza tarapha vihAra karyo. sugrAmanagaramAM zreSThI rASTrakUTa bhavadevano lagnotsava Ayojita karyo che. te ja nagaranA zreSThI nAgadatta ane emanI dharmapatnI vAsukInI putrI nAgilA sAthe bhavadevanuM lagna thayuM che. bhavadatta muni nathI jANatA ke bhavadevanuM lagna thaI gayuM che. gurudevanI anumati laIne teo sugrAma nagare Ave che. je divase teo sugrAma nagaramAM pahoMcyA e ja divase lagnotsava pUrNa thayo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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bhavadeva munirAjane potAnA ghara tarapha AvatA joIne revatI ane rASTrakUTa AnaMdathI nAcI UThyA. tyAM upasthita snehI-saMbaMdhIone saMbodhIne rASTrakUTe kahyuM : juo, juo. ApaNe tyAM eka utsava pUro thayo. tyAM bIjo mahotsava maMDANo che! amArA bhavadatta munirAja padhArI rahyA che!" revatI ane rASTrakUTanI sAthe aneka snehI-svajano munirAjanI sAme gayA. bhAvapUrvaka munirAjane vaMdanA karI, munirAje gharanA AMgaNe lagnamaMDapane jo. snehI-svajano ane mitrone joyA. teo samajI gayA ke bhavadevanuM lagna thaI gayuM che! gharanA dvAre AvatAM svajanoe prAsuka-acitta pANIthI munirAjanA paga dhoyA... e pANIne sahue potapotAnA mAthe caDhAvI kRtArthatA anubhavI. bhavadatta munirAje kahyuM : "mahAnubhAvo, tame lagnotsavamAM vyasta lAgo cho, eTale huM vadhu rokAIza nahIM." he munirAja! Aje ApanAM pAvana pagalAM thayAM... tethI ame keTalA badhA AnaMdita chIe! ame Aje dhanya banI gayA... Aje putravadhUnAM panotAM pagalAM thayAM gharamAM ane Aje Apa puNyanidhAna amArA ghera padhAryA... mahAtmanuM, ApanA darzana-vaMdanathI ame dhanya banI gayA. Apa prAsaka bhikSA grahaNa karI amArA para upakAra karo..." munirAjanI AMkho bhavadevane zodhatI hatI! paraMtu bhavadava to uparanI meDIe patnIne zaNagAravAmAM rasalIna hato. te kALe evo kulAcAra hato! pati patnIne zaNagAre! haju aDadho zaNagAra thayo hato, tyAM bhavadeve bhavadatta munino avAja sAMbhaLyo. tenA hAtha thaMbhI gayA.. nAgilAe bhavadeva sAme joyuM. bhavadeve kahyuM : "priye, mArA vaDIla bhrAtA munirAja padhAryA lAge che... meM hamaNAM temano avAja sAMbhaLyo." bhavadeva Ubho thaI gayo. nAgilAe kahyuM : "paraMtu Apa UbhA kema thaI gayA?" huM bhrAtA-munirAjanAM darzana-vaMdana karIne AvuM...' paNa mane Ama ardha-zaNagArelI mUkIne jazo?' "huM hamaNAM ja pAcho AvuM chuM !' bhavadeva meDI uparathI nIce Avyo.. bhavadatta munine joI tenI AMkho nAcI UThI... tenA zarIre romAMca thaI gayo... teNe UlaTabhera vaMdanA karI ane bhikSA ApI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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10 eka rAta aneka vAta bhavadatta munie vAtsalyabharI AMkho bhavadevanI snehabhInI AMkhomAM parovI dIdhI. bhikSA laIne munirAja gharethI nIkaLyA. vidAya ApavA mATe revatI, rASTrakUTa ane bIjA snehI-svajanonI sAthe bhavadeva paNa munirAjanI pAchaLa pAchaLa cAlyo. bhavadatta muninA hAthamAM bhikSAthI bharelA pAtranI jhoLI hatI. bhavadeve vajanadAra jhoLI joI kahyuM : gurudeva, mane A jhoLI ApavA kRpA na karo? huM upADI laIza." bhavadatta munie eka kSaNanoya vilaMba karyA vinA bhikSApAtranI jhoLI bhavadevane soMpI dIdhI. sAdhujIvananA niyama mujaba bhikSApAtranI jhoLI gRhasthane upADavA na ApI zakAya... paraMtu bhavadatta muni to gItArtha hatA...gItArtha munine je kALe je ucita lAge te niyama! gItArtha muni dIrghadRSTivALA hoya. gaMbhIra AzayavALA hoya. sarvasAdhAraNa niyamo temanA mATe baMdhanakartA na hoya. zerInA nAke pahoMcyA eTale snehIo vaMdanA karIne pAchA vaLyA. gAmanA pAdare pahoMcyA eTale revatI-rASTrakUTa vagere svajano vaMdanA karI pAchA vaLyA. bhavadeva manamAM vicAre che : "munirAje pAchA javAnuM kahyuM nahIM, chatAM A badhAM sagA-saMbaMdhIo pAchAM pharI gayAM... bhale, e pAchAM gayAM. paraMtu jyAM sudhI bhAI-munirAja mane pAchA pharavAnuM na kahe tyAM sudhI mArAthI pAchA na ja pharAya... A mArA moTAbhAI che. vaLI, meM mAMgIne temanI jhoLI lIdhI che.... e pAchI na mAge tyAM sudhI mArAthI jhoLI pAchI kema apAya? hA, nAgilA mArI rAha jotI haze... vAMdho nahIM, bhAI-munirAjane emanA sthAne pahoMcADIne jaladI pAcho AvI jaIza." bhavadeva nahoto jANato ke sAdhu koI gRhasthane pAchA javAnuM na kahe! vaLI, bhavadatta muni to bhavadevane potAnI sAthe gurudevanI pAse laI javA AvyA hatA! teo bhavadevane pAchA pharavAnuM kahe ja zAnA! bhavadeva, A e ja UMcAM UMcAM vRkSo che. ApaNe bacapaNamAM A vRkSo para caDhatA hatA.. yAda Ave che? "hA... ane A sarovaramAM ApaNe kalAko sudhI karatA hatA... eka divasa magaramaccha mane pakaDavA Avyo hato. tyAre Ape mane bacAvI lIdho hato! For Private And Personal Use Only

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bhavadeva 11. "ane sarovaranI pALe besIne huM vAMsaLI vagADato tyAre tuM mArI sAme TagaraTagara joI raheto hato. ane mane kaheto hato "kevI sarasa tame vAMsaLI vagADo cho bhAI... juo A gAyo paNa tamArI vAMsaLI sAMbhaLIne ahIM doDI AvI che!" "jyAre varasAda Avato, A kapUra jevI retI jAmI jatI tyAre ApaNe A mATInAM ghara banAvatA! kyAreka tamAruM ghara huM toDI nAMkhato tyAre..." huM tane mArI besato. te roto. pachI huM tane manAvato... ane pachI ApaNe hasatA-ramatA ghare jatA!" 'pachI mA ApaNane lADa-premathI bhojana karAvatI." "hA, tane dUdha bhAvatuM nahIM... mA tane samajAvI paTAvIne dUdha pivaDAvatI!" pelA ApaNI zALAnA paMDita.. zuM nAma hatuM temanuM?" candramaulI?" "hA, te jIve che ke svargavAsI thayA? ApaNA baMne para emane khUba prema hato, nahIM? hA, teo gayA varSe ja svargavAsI thaI gayA... chellI avasthAmAM temanI sevA karanAra koI na hatuM... pitAjIe khUba sahAyatA karI hatI." pUrvAvasthAnAM saMsmaraNo manuSyane gamatAM hoya che. emAMya jyAre ghaNAM varSe svajana maLe tyAre e saMsmaraNo vAgoLavAno AnaMda apUrva hoya che. bhavadeva, bhavadatta muninI sAthe vAtomAM evo lIna banI gayo ke eka gAu cAlIne kyAre upAzrayanI pAse AvI gayA tenI khabara ja na paDI. upAzrayanI bArIethI sAdhuoe bhavadatta munine bhavadeva sAthe AvatA joyA. aneka tarka-vitarko karavA lAgyA. sAthe Avyo che te yuvaka bhavadatta munino bhAI lAge che..." hA, juone bannenI mukhAkRti maLatI Ave che..." "dIkSA ApavA ja bhAIne lAvyA hazene?" e to zI khabara? hamaNAM gurudeva pAse Avaze eTale khabara paDaze!' 'bhAI che to rUDo rUpALo!' rUDo rUpALo hoya eTale dIkSA laI le, ema?" For Private And Personal Use Only

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12 - eka rAta aneka vAta "ema nathI kaheto, dIkSA le to zobhe sAro!' gurudeva na sAMbhaLI jAya e rIte, kutUhalapremI sAdhuo paraspara vAto kare che, tyAM bhavadatta munie 'nisahi... nisAhi... nisAhi... namo khamAsamaNANuM..." kahIne upAzrayamAM praveza karyo. gurudevanI pAse jaIne "mahUeNa vaMdAmi' kahIne vaMdanA karI. gurudeve, bhavadatta muninI pAse UbhelA bhavadeva sAme joyuM. pachI bhavadatta muni sAme joIne pUchyuM : mahAnubhAva, A yuvaka koNa che?" gurudeva, A mAro laghu bhrAtA che; tene dIkSA ApIne bhavasAgarathI tAravAnI kRpA karo." bhavadeva, bhavadattamuninAM vacano sAMbhaLIne kSaNabhara stabdha thaI gayo. tyAM gurudeve ene pUchyuM : vatsa, zuM tuM gRhavAsathI virakta banIne cAritradharma aMgIkAra karavA Avyo che?' bhavadeve bhavadattamuni sAme joyuM. eka kSaNa manamAM vicAra karI lIdho. bhAI munirAja che. temanuM vacana jUThuM na paDavuM joIe." teNe gurudevane kahyuM : sAcI vAta che gurudeva; huM dIkSA levA Avyo chuM.' ' bhavadevanA pratyuttarathI bhavadatta muninuM hRdaya AnaMdathI chalakAI UDyuM. temaNe vijayI mudrAthI, tyAM UbhelA sAdhuo sAme joyuM. sAdhuo eka-bIjA sAme joI ahobhAva vyakta karavA lAgyA. AcAryadeve bhavadatta munine kahyuM: "mahAnubhAva, tamArA laghu bhrAtAne vidhivat dIkSA Apo. atyArano samaya sAro che." bhavadevane dIkSA ApavAmAM AvI. bhavadeva sAdhu banI gayA... bhAImunirAjanA vacananI khAtara bhavadeve gRhavAsa tyajI dIdho. navoDhA patnI nAgilAne tyajI dIdhI. - paraMtu A vairAgya vinAno tyAga hato. - bhAI-munirAja taraphanA kartavyapAlanano tyAga hato. - A tyAgano bhavadevanA hRdaya sAthe koI saMbaMdha na hato. gurudeve anya sAdhuone AjJA karI : nUtana munine laIne tame atyAre ja ahIMthI vihAra karIne bIjA gAme For Private And Personal Use Only

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bhavadeva 13 cAlyA jAo. bhavadatta muni ane bIjA cAra-pAMca muni mArI pAse ahIM rokAze. ame AvatI kAle vihAra karIne tamane bhegA thaI jaIzuM.' bhavadeva munine laIne sAdhuoe tyAMthI vihAra karI dIdho. divasanA traNa prahara vItI javA chatAM, bhavadeva ghare pAcho na Avyo eTale zreSThI rASTrakUTanA manamAM ciMtA thaI. temaNe revatIne kahyuM : 'bhavadeva haju pAcho Avyo nathI, to ame loko gurudeva jyAM birAjyA che, te pAsenA gAmamAM jaIne AvIe chIe.' rASTrakUTa zreSThI thoDA mitro sAthe bhavadevanI bhALa meLavavA upAzraye pahoMcyA. bhavadatta muninI dhAraNA hatI ja ke pitAjI jarUra bhavadevanI bhALa levA Avaze. rASTrakUTa vageree gurudevane vaMdanA karI; pachI bhavadatta munine vaMdanA karI ane bhavadeva aMge pRcchA karI. jyAre temaNe jANyuM ke 'bhavadeve cAritradharma aMgIkAra karI lIdho che.' teo kAMI ja bolyA vinA tyAMthI cAlI nIkaLyA. ghera AvyA. ghera AvatAM ja revatIe pUchyuM : 'bhavadeva kyAM che?' rASTrakUTa mauna rahyA. temanA mukha upara udAsI hatI. AMkho bhInI hatI. revatInA manamAM dhrAsako paDyo. teNe pharIthI pUchyuM : 'mAro lADalo kyAM che?' 'te sAdhu banI gayo devI...' revatI behoza banI jamIna para paDI gaI. oraDAmAM UbhI UbhI... sasarAnI vAta sAMbhaLI nAgilA cIsa pADIne jamIna para DhaLI paDI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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3. vyathA haithAnI... rASTrakUTa : beTA bhavadeva, teM A zuM karyuM? teM tArA A vRddha pitAno vicAra nA karyo, vAtsalyabharI tArI mAno vicAra nA karyo... are, rUpavatI... guNavatI... koDabharI mArI putravadhUno paNa vicAra nA karyo? zuM tArA manamAM UMDe UMDe vairAgya bharelo hato? beTA, teM mane kyAreya vAta paNa nathI karI. teM tArI mAne paNa tArA vairAgyanI jANa nathI thavA dIdhI. zuM tuM tArA vaDIla zrAtAnI rAha joto hato? mArA bhrAtA-munivara padhAraze tyAre huM gRhavAsa tyajI daIza." zuM Avo tAro saMkalpa hato?" - vatsa, tArA pratye tArA A pitAne keTalo moha che, te zuM tuM nathI jANato? tAro lagnotsava meM kevA ullAsathI karyo? mahotsavano harSa haju hRdayasAgaramAM UchaLato ja hato. tyAM acAnaka e sAgaramAM oTa AvI gaI. hRdaya kevuM vidanAthI valurAya che beTA, tuM samajI zakIza? kevI rIte samajI zakIza? virAgI manuSya... rAgInI vyathA kevI rIte jANe? jANe. to paNa tenA hRdayamAM sahAnubhUti na janme. vatsa, huM cAritradharma sAro mAnuM chuM. mukti pAmavAno e ja eka zreSTha mArga che... ane eTale to meM bhavadattane e mArge javA anumati ApI hatI. te paNa jo anumati mAMgI hota to....? nA nA, tane kadAca huM anumati na ApI zakata... emAMya lagna pachI to anumati ApavAno prarana ja na raheta... beTA, saMyamadharmane huM upAdeya mAnuM chuM... chatAM ene grahaNa karavA huM kyAM samartha chuM? jeTaluM sAruM mAnIe, sAcuM mAnIe e badhuM jIvanamAM jIvavuM saraLa nathI. emAMya mArA jevA ni:satva jIva mATe to asaMbhava che.. tuM beTA, sattvazIla nIkaLyo... acAnaka... te gRhavAsa tyajI dIdho.. zuM tArA agraja munirAje tArA hRdayamAM vairAgya pedA karI dIdho? zuM emanI preraNAe tArAmAM apUrva sattvano saMcAra karI dIdho? ke pachI. agrajano anurAga tane e mArge kheMcI gayo? tArA vinA A ghara sUnuM sUnuM thaI gayuM che. sarvatra udAsI chavAI gaI che. tArI mAtAnI hAlata to mArAthI joI zakAtI nathI... haju ene AzvAsananA For Private And Personal Use Only

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vyathA haiyAnI... 15 be zabdo paNa kahI zakyo nathI... kevI rIte kahuM? haju mArUM ja hRdaya azAnta che, becena che... vyathita che... kharekhara, beTA... Aje huM besahArA banI gayo chuM.. dizAzUnya banI gayo chuM... Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir ane putravadhU...? e bicArI pANI vinAnI mAchalInI jema taraphaDI rahI che... eno vicAra karUM chuM... ne mArUM kALajuM phaphaDI UThe che... beTA, tane zuM kahuM? tAre nAgilAno vicAra to karavo ja joIto hato. bhale, teM cAritradharma svIkAryo, nAgilAnA mananuM samAdhAna karIne athavA ene paNa sAthe laIne teM svIkAryo hota to... mane ane tArI mAtAne ati vedanA na thAta... A to jyAre jyAre e mugdhAne jouM chuM... tyAre apAra vedanA anubhavuM chuM. enA manamAM e zuM vicAratI haze? are...... vicAre zuM bicArI? zUnyamanaska thaI gaI che e. alabatta, e tAruM azubha to nahIM ja vicAre. bhale teM eno tyAga karI dIdho... e enA hRdayamAMthI tAro tyAga nahIM karI zake. meM ene parakhIne putravadhU banAvI che. e tArA sivAya bIjA puruSano vicAra paNa nahIM karI zake. paraMtu enI lAMbI jiMdagI kevI rIte pasAra thaze? ame to have beTA... vadhu samaya jIvI nahIM zakIe...' revatI : rASTrakUTa dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDyA... raDI raDIne sUjI gayelI AMkhoe revatIe rASTrakUTa sAme joyuM. te palaMgamAMthI nIce UtarI rASTrakUTanA palaMga pAse AvI. teNe dhIrethI potAnI sADInA cheDAthI rASTrakUTanI AMkho lUchI. rASTrakUTe revatI sAme joyuM, revatInA baMne hAtha potAnAM hAthamAM jakaDI lIdhA. revatI jamIna para palaMganA sahAre besI gaI. tenA cImaLAI gayelA caherA tarapha rASTrakUTa joI rahyA. revatInI dRSTi jamIna para sthira hatI. te mauna hatI. revatInuM manomaMthana cAlu hatuM. beTA, tArI dareka vastumAM mane tuM dekhAya che... tArA kapaDAmAM, tArA palaMgamAM, tArI besavAnI jagAmAM... are, gharanA eka eka bhAgamAM tuM ja dekhAya che... vatsa, tane zuM thaI gayuM? zuM tane mAro koI zabda Akaro lAgyo? For Private And Personal Use Only

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16 eka rAta aneka vAta tArA bApujIe tane koI Thapako Apyo? nA, nA, tArA bApujI tane kyAreya dubhave nahIM.. to pachI Ama acAnaka tuM kema cAlyo gayo? ApaNA gharamAM koI vAte UNapa nathI. zuM nathI ApaNA gharamAM? tuM je mAgato hato te tane maLatuM hatuM... tArI dareka IcchA pUrI thatI hatI. chatAM tuM kema cAlyo gayo? tane beTA, mAnA haiyAno vicAra na Avyo? tArA pitAnA hRdayano vicAra na Avyo? tArI vahu paNa tane yAda nA AvI? kevI rUpALI che mArI vahu? kevI guNiyala che vahu? tane paraNAvIne to ame.. huM ane tArA pitA.. keTalAM nizcita banI gayAM hatA? keTalI badhI sukhanI kalpanAo bAMdhI hatI? amArI kalpanAonI imArata tUTI paDI... beTA, tArA vinAnuM A ghara zUnya bhAse che... kAMI ja gamatuM nathI. amAro AnaMda DhoLAI gayo... amAruM sukha nAza pAmI gayuM... badhuM ja hovA chatAM ame jANe nirAdhAra banI gayAM.. ThIka che.. tane gamyuM te kharuM. te kaMI khoTo mArga lIdho nathI, mAraga to sAro ja che, sAco ja che. paNa mArI modazA mane raDAve che... mAro rAga mane duHkhI kare che. bhavadattane muniveSamAM joIne huM gAMDI-ghelI thaI gaI hatI. eNe mArI kUkha ujALI che... eNe kuLa ane vaMzanI kIrti vadhArI che... huM enA guNa gAtAM thAkatI nathI. te paNa beTA e ja mAraga lIdho che... kAMI khoTuM nathI karyuM... paNa mAro tArA uparano moha che ne? beTA, tuM tArA moTAbhAIne vaLAvavA gayo hato.. ne Ama acAnaka. sAdhuno bhekha kema laI lIdho? amane pUchuyA vinA eka pagaluM nahIM bharanAro tuM. kevo vinayI.... kevo mAtRbhakta kevo pitRbhakta! ane teM amane ajANa rAkhIne saMyama mAraga laI lIdho? acAnaka tane zuM thaI gayuM hatuM? tAro amArA sahunA uparano moha kevI rIte UtarI gayo? to bhaIlA, tuM ahIM AvIne mArI moha paNa utArI nAkha. have to jo ke jIvavAno ja moha rahyo nathI... konA mATe jIvavAnuM? chatAM jIvavuM to paDaze ja. mArI vahunA mATe jIvIza. e bicArIne have amAre ja sAcavavAnI che ne? sAcavIza, enA tanane sAcavIza, enA manane sAcavIza. have mAre e ja beTI che... ane e ja beTo che... kAMI nahIM, vatsa, tuM sukhI rahe, sukhathI jIve.. AtmAnuM kalyANa kare eTale basa. tArA sukhe ame sukhI...' For Private And Personal Use Only

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vyathA heyAnI.. acAnaka pAsenA khaMDamAMthI nAgilAnI cIsa saMbhaLAI. revatI UbhI thaIne jhaDapathI nAgilAnA khaMDamAM doDI gaI. nAgilA jamIna para paDI hatI. be hAthe mukhane DhAMkIne karuNa rUdana karI rahI hatI. revatI tenI pAse besI gaI. tenuM mAthuM potAnA khoLAmAM laI lIdhuM. ne tenA mAthe potAnA banne hAtha pheravavA mAMDI, nAgilAe paoNtAnA banne hAtha revatInI kamare vIMTALI dIdhA... revatInI AMkhomAMthI mauna AMsuo nAgilAnA mastaka para paDavA lAgyAM. nAgilA : acAnaka tane zuM thaI gayuM? mAro tyAga tuM kevI rIte karI zakyo? tAro mArA tarapha ke tIvra prema hato? mArA hRdayanA dvAre teM snehanAM toraNa bAMdhyAM hatAM. hRdayanA AMgaNe premanI raMgoLI pUrI hatI... meM tArI AMkhomAM premano sAgara ghUghavato joyo hato. tuM mane zaNagArato hato.. tArI eka-eka AMgaLImAMthI anaMgano sparza Tapakato hato. tuM mane kaheto hato - 'nAgilA, tuM mane khUba gamI gaI che... tArI AMkhoe to jANe mArA para kAmaNa karI dIdhuM che. tArI kamanIya kAyAnA eka-eka aMga-upAMganI mane mAyA lAgI gaI che.. tuM maLI gaI eTale jANe mane svarga maLI gayuM! priye, ApaNuM jIvana premanuM svarga banaze. tane huM mArA hRdayamAM sadA mATe jakaDI rAkhIza...' are, AvuM Ave to teM mane keTaluM kaheluM? huM zaramanI mArI tArI sAme paNa joI zakatI nahatI. tuM be hAthe mAruM mukhaDuM pakaDIne UMcuM karato. ne Tagara Tagara mArI AMkhomAM joI raheto.. mAro zaNagAra karatAM karatAM te aTakI jato hato.. zuM tuM A badhI vAto bhUlI gayo. ATalI jaladI? nA, nA... tuM mane nA bhUlI zake... mArA hRdayezvara..! mane vizvAsa che tArA para... tuM mane nA bhUlI zake. vairAgI nA banI zake. evuM kAMI ja banyuM nathI ke tuM vairAgI banI jAya. mArA nAtha! tuM jaladI AvI jA mArI pAse. tuM nahIM Ave to huM jIvI nahIM zakuM. mArI vyathA... mArI vedanA tuM kevI rIte jANe? roI roIne mArI AMkho kevI sujI gaI che? mAruM zarIra kevuM thaI gayuM che? tuM atyAre AvI jAya to.... kadAca tuM mane oLakhI nA zake... oLakhe to tArI AMkho varasI paDe... zuM kharekhara tuM zramaNa banI gayo che? zA mATe? mane kAMI samajAtuM nathI.... evA kevA saMyogo pedA thaI gayA ke tAre zramaNa banI javuM paDyuM? tuM to bhAI For Private And Personal Use Only

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18 eka rAta aneka vAta munirAjane vidAya ApavA gayo hato... hA, tane bhAI-munirAja pratye khUba prema hato, e huM jANuM chuM. mane aDadhI zaNagArelI paDatI mUkIne tuM nIce UtarI gayo hato... bhAI pratye anurAga hoya paraMtu te vairAgI na hato. rAgIne paNa sAdhuo pratye prema ta hoI zake... tArA gayA pachI tArI rAha jotI huM besI ja rahI... keTalI badhI zaMkA-kuzaMkAo mArA manamAM AvI hatI? paraMtu jyAre mAtAjIe AvIne AMsu nItaratI AMkhoe mane kahyuM : "beTI, have e nahIM Ave... e zramaNa banI gayo che...' jANe dharatIkaMpa thayo hoya tevo AMcako mane lAgyo... nAtha, tame mAnazo? huM mUDha thaI gaI... jaDa thaI gaI... mAtAjInI sAme zUnyamanaska banIne apalaka jotI rahI. mArA prANezvara, mArA jIvanamAM A paheluM ja duHkha AvyuM... asahya duHkha che A. nAtha, tArA-mArA-ApaNA manorathonI imArata kaDaDabhUsa thaI gaI.... kAMI ja na bacyuM.. kalpanAnuM svarga verAna ujjaDa thaI gayuM... AMsuo, vyathAo, vedanAo ane nisAsAo sivAya zuM rahyuM mArA jIvanamAM? priyatama, chatAM mane tArA pratye jarAya roSa nathI.... tArA tarapha huM nArAja nathI. tArA pratyeno mAro prema akhaMDa ja che, abhaMga che. kAraNa ke "jANIbUjIne teM mAro tyAga nathI karyo' - A vAta mane nizcita lAge che. koI saMyogane AdhIna banIne,.. koI paristhitine paravaza banIne tAre zramaNa banavuM paDyuM che... pachI huM tArA pratye nArAja thAuM kharI? ane jo tAre anicchAe zramaNa banavuM paDyuM haze. to tArA manamAM paNa kevI vyathA haze? kevI ghora vedanAthI tAruM hRdaya valurAtuM haze? huM tane kSaNe kSaNe yAda AvatI haIza... kharuM ne? tuM tArI A priyatamAne eka kSaNa paNa nahIM bhUlI zakato hoya... mArA vinA tuM becena haze.. ane kyAreka tArI AMkho paNa bhInI thaI jatI haze! o bhagavAna... amArA para pApI daiva rUThI gayo che. zuM tuM amArI rakSA nahIM kare? amArI saMbhALa nahIM le? tuM dayALu che, karuNAvaMta che, o prabhu! amArA para tArI karuNAno dhodha varasAva.. nahIMtara ame vedanAnI bhaDabhaDatI AgamAM baLIne rAkha thaI jaIzuM. keTalI nAnI uMmara che amArA bannenI? keTalI lAMbI haze amArI jIvanayAtrA? For Private And Personal Use Only

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vyathA haiyAnI... 19 jhUrI jhUrIne jIvanayAtrA pUrI thaze? AvuM jIvana jIvavAno artha zo? konA mATe jIvavAnuM? . meM evAM kevAM pApa karyAM haze mArA pUrvajanmomAM? meM ghaNI vAra dharmakathAomAM sAMbhaLyuM che ke pUrvajanmomAM karelAM pApo jyAre udayamAM Ave che tyAre du:kha Ave che. hA, A jIvanamAM to meM evuM koI pApa karyuM nathI. mArUM kaumArya abhaMga che. meM jANIbUjIne koIne duHkha ApyuM nathI... jarU2 pUrvajanmonAM pApa udayamAM AvyAM che. amAruM lagna na thayuM hota, ekabIjA pratye tIvra prema na thayo hota. ne e zramaNa banI gayA hota athavA huM zramaNI banI gaI hota... to koI du:kha na lAgata. zuM karUM ? aMdhArI rAte ekalI cAlI nIkaLuM koIne kahyA vinA? tane gAmanagaromAM zodhatI zodhatI AvuM tArI pAse? paraMtu AvIne zuM karIza? mAtAjI kahe che ke jaina zramaNa strIne sparza nathI karatA. rAgathI strInI sAme paNa nathI jotA... huM AvuM tArI pAse, ane tuM snehabharI AMkhe mane jue paNa nahIM... to to tyAM ja mArA prANa nIkaLI jAya... ane kadAca, tArA niyamo... baMdhanonA kAraNe tane mArUM Agamana nA game to? jaina zramaNonA niyamo ghaNA AkarA hoya che, ema mane mAtAjIe kahyuM. tuM kevI rIte pALIza e badhA niyamo? anicchAe niyamo pALavA duSkara hoya che... nahIMtara tuM zuM ahIM nA AvI zake? nahIM AvI zakAtuM hoya... khera, tuM tArA manane samajAvIne svastha raheje... tArI nAgilA tArI ja raheze; e tuM nakkI samajaje. A tana-mana upara tAro ja adhikAra raheze. bhavadeva muni H meM bhrAtA-munirAjano vicAra karyo... 'emanuM vacana mithyA na thavuM joIe...' ane meM sAdhutA svIkArI lIdhI... meM mArI mAtAno vicAra na karyo, pitAno vicAra na karyo... atyaMta snehathI bharelAM mAtA-pitA, mArA vinA kevAM du:khI du:khI thaI gayAM haze? mAre emanA snehabharyA haiyAno vicAra karavo joIto hato. ane, nAgilAno vicAra paNa meM nA karyo... mane e samaye bIjuM kAMI ja yAda na AvyuM... mArI sAme mAtra bhAI-munirAja hatA... alabatta, mane temanA pratye prema che, kti che... paraMtu mAre Avo nirNaya nahoto karavo For Private And Personal Use Only

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20. eka rAta aneka vAta joIto. meM bhAvAvezamAM taNAIne khoTo nirNaya karI dIdho. huM gurudevane kahI zakata : "mArA bhrAtA-munirAjanI mane sAdhu banAvavAnI bhAvanA sArI che. paraMtu gurudeva, haju gaIkAle ja mArAM lagna thayAM che. mArAmAM vairAgya nathI... vairAgya vinA dIkSA laIne zuM karuM? hA, bhAI-munirAja lagna pahelAM AvyA hota... mane vairAgI banAvyo hota to jarUra huM dIkSA leta..." AvuM kahIne tyAMthI nIkaLI gayo hota to sAruM thAta. mArI saraLa mA... bicArI raDI raDIne marI jaze. mArA virahanI vedanA te nahIM sahI zake. te sahanazIla che. chatAM A vaja prahAra te sahI nahIM zake... tenA manamAM keTalI badhI becenI haze? teNe khAvA-pIvAnuM paNa tyajI dIdhuM haze. Ameya mane ane pitAjIne jamADIne pachI e jamatI hatI. keTalA vAtsalyathI te mane khavaDAvatI hatI? teNe mane kyAreya nArAja nathI karyo. mArI eka-eka icchA eNe pUrI karI che... enA manamAM mArA sukhanA ja vicAro ramatA rahetA hatA. lAkhomAM eka hatI mArI mA. bhavadeva muninI AMkho bhInI thaI gaI. are, mArA pitA kevA gumasUma thaI gayA haze? e pocA hRdayanA che. jevA premALa che tevA gaMbhIra che e potAnuM duHkha mArI mAne paNa kahetA nathI. kyAreya roSa nahIM ke rIsa nahIM. aDhaLaka saMpatti hovA chatAM temanAmAM jarAya abhimAna nathI. temane dharma game che, dharmaguruo game che, paramAtmA pratye temane zraddhA che. kyAreya koInI niMdA nahIM, koInuM ahita karavAno vicAra paNa nahIM! kevA sapuruSa che e? mArA pratye apAra vAtsalya dharAvatA mArA e pitAnuM zuM thayuM haze? mArI mAtAnuM du:kha. eno kalpAMta. pitAjIthI sahana nahIM thaI zake. meM emanA jIvanamAM Aga lagADI dIdhI. mAtA-pitAe mane sukha ApyuM, meM emane duHkha ApyuM. emaNe mane vAtsalya ApyuM, meM temane vedanA ApI. emaNe mane sneha Apyo, meM emane ukaLATa Apyo. huM kuputra nIvaDyo. huM adhama nIvaDyo..' ekAMtamAM beThelA bhavadeva muni raDI paDyA. ane... nAgilA? koDabharelI mArI priyatamA mArI rAha jotI kalAko sudhI meDI para besI rahI haze." hamaNAM pAcho AvuM chuM, kahIne huM meDIethI nIce UtarI gayo hato. meM vacana na pALyuM. meM eno vizvAsaghAta karyo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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21 vyathA heyAnI... kevuM enuM rUpa... kevA enA guNa... kevuM hatuM enuM samarpaNa! mana-vacanakAyAthI e mane samarpita hatI. thoDA kalAkono ja eno paricaya.. paNa eTalA TUMkA paricayamAM eNe mAruM dila jItI lIdhuM hatuM. thoDA kalAkomAM e to thoDI kSaNo ja bolI hatI. meM ja mArA hRdayanA bhAva kalAko sudhI vyakta karyA hatA. mArAM vacano para enA manamAM gADha vizvAsa beTho hato. ane meM paNa ene ekeya vAta kyAM khoTI kahI hatI? mAruM hRdaya nikhAlasa hatuM. meM ene je kahyuM hatuM... e huM jarUra karI batAvata, huM ene kyAreya dago na deta. jo amArAM karma anukULa hota to ame amArA saMsArane svarga banAvata... jarUra banAvata, devI, tuM mArA aparAdhanI kSamA ApIza? meM tAro ghora aparAdha karyo che paNa jANIbUjIne meM aparAdha nathI karyo. zuM karuM? evuM ja kAMIka banI gayuM acAnaka... bhAI munirAja pratyenI lAgaNInA pravAhamAM huM vahI gayo.. e kSaNe mane tAro vicAra ja na Avyo. pachI to kSaNe kSaNe tArI smRti AvI rahI che. tArA manamAM mArA mATe kevA kevA vicAra AvatA haze? ane mArA vinA.... tArI kevI kaphoDI hAlata thaI gaI haze? roI roIna tArI AMkho sujI gaI haze... tArI sukomaLa kAyA cImaLAI gaI haze.. vyathA ane vedanAthI tArUM mana bharAI gayuM haze. badhI ja AzAonA.... caNelA minArAo tUTI paDayA... priye, ApaNuM kalpanAnuM svarga mabhUmimAM badalAI gayuM te chatAM priye, tuM bhAI-munirAja para nArAja na thaIza. huM paNa emanA para nArAja nathI. emano Azaya pavitra hato. ane e to mahA virakta AtmA che.. bhUla mArI che. meM avicArI nirNaya karI lIdho. mArA pratye paNa tuM nArAja na thaIza. tane duHkhI karavAno mane vicAra paNa nathI Avyo... tAro tyAga A janamamAM to nahIM, koI janamamAM huM karuM nahIM. ane mArA hRdayamAMthI tAro tyAga kyAM karyo che? tuM mArA hRdayamAM che ne rahIza. devI, tuM mArI che ne huM tAro chuM... emAM tuM kyAreya zaMkA na karIza. eka divasa huM tArI pAse AvIza, jarUra AvIza. Ama to hamaNAM ja AvI jAuM. paraMtu hamaNAM AvuM to bhAI-munirAja duHkhI thAya, sAdhu samAjamAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta 22 emanI apakIrti thAya... nA, huM evuM nA karI zakuM. bhale mAre duHkha sahevuM paDe... hRdayamAM vyathA bharIne jIvavuM paDe... paraMtu bhAI-munirAjane huM du:khI nahIM karI zakuM. hA, jyAre bhAI-munirAjanuM AyuSya pUrNa thaI jaze, tyAre huM tArI pAse doDI AvIza... tyAM sudhI he priye, tuM dhIraja rAkhaje. mArI rAha joje. hA, huM tArI pAse ja cAlyo AvIza. huM samajuM chuM ke A zramaNajIvana zreSTha jIvana che, paraMtu A jIvana jIvavA mATe huM lAyaka nathI. A jIvana vairAgI manuSyo mATe che, huM vairAgI nathI. A jIvana tyAgavIra puruSo mATe che, huM bhogI chuM... viSayapipAsu chuM. mArA mATe A jIvana upayukta nathI... zuM karuM? paristhitivaza A jIvana svIkAravuM paDyuM che. jenI khAtara A jIvana svIkAryuM che, enI khAtara mAre A jIvana jIvavuM paDaze... emanA jIvanakALaparyaMta ja jIvavuM paDaze... pachI A jIvana sAthe mAre koI nisbata nahIM rahe. mAre nisbata che mArI priyatamA sAthe... jyAre nIrava rAtrimAM mArI AsapAsa zramaNo dharmadhyAnamAM nimagna hoya che, tyAre huM priye! tArA dhyAnamAM lIna houM chuM. mAre dhyAna karavuM paDatuM nathI, dhyAna thaI jAya che. hA, kyAreka mArI mAtAnA dhyAnamAM paNa khovAI jAuM chuM kharo. badhA zramaNonI sAthe huM dharma kriyAo karUM chuM, paraMtu mArUM mana e kriyAomAM lAgatuM nathI. mArUM mana to devI! tArAmAM ja ramyA kare che... zuM karUM ? baMdhanomAM jakaDAI gayo chuM. sAcuM kahuM chuM... mahAvrato mane baMdhanarUpa lAge che... mArUM mana akaLAya che... mUMjhAya che. kyAreka mane lAge che ke mArA bhrAtA-munirAja mArI AvI sthiti joIne manamAM duHkhI thAya che... mArI udAsI temane mUMjhave che. teo mane kAMI kahetA nathI... chatAM UMDe-UMDe teo potAnI bhUlano pastAvo karatA hoya, ema mane lAge che. tyAre mArUM mana duHkhI thaI jAya che. mArAthI temanuM duHkha jovAtuM nathI. eTale huM temane mArA mananI koI vAta ja karato nathI. kharekhara, teo mahAna AtmA che. bhItaramAM virakti ane bahArathI prasanna! teo mahAna jJAnIpuruSa che. aneka zramaNIne teo jJAnadAna Ape che. emanA guNavaibhava para ovA2I jAuM chuM. huM hamezAM teonA sAMnidhyamAM 2hevA chatAM, he priye! mArUM mana to tArI pAse For Private And Personal Use Only

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vyathA haiyAnI... 23 ja rahe che. kevI vicitra che mArA mananI sRSTi? kyAreka to pUrI rAta mane UMdha nathI AvatI. anaMganI tIvra pIDA UpaDI Ave che...ane mArI becenI mAjhA mUkI de che. zuM tuM kalpI zakIza mArI A hAlatane? khera, game teTalI AMtarika vyathA sahevI paDe, huM sahIza, paraMtu jyAM sudhI mArA bhAI-munirAja che tyAM sudhI huM A sAdhuvezamAM ja rahIza. A mAro aphara nirNaya che. pachI bhale vyathA-vedanA asahya banI jAya.... ane prANa nIkaLI jAya.. prANapriye, tuM dhIra banIne mArI rAha joje. huM hamezAM tArA sukhanI kAmanA karIza. AvI paDelA ghora duHkhane sahavAnI tane zakti maLe. tevI paramAtmAne prArthanA karuM chuM. - kadAca.. A sAdhuvezamAM sugrAmanagaramAM AvavAnuM nahIM bane... amAro vihAra e bAju nahIM thAya. te chatAM bhaviSya aMge huM kAMI ja jANato nathI..." vicAromAM rAtrinA traNa prahara vItI gayA hatA. cothA praharano prAraMbha thayo hato. bhavadeva munie pAse joyuM to bhavadatta muni UbhA hatA. bhavadevA muni UbhA thayA... bhAI-munirAjanAM caraNomAM mastaka mUkI dIdhuM. bhavadatta muninAM caraNo bhIMjAI rahyAM hatAM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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4. bhavadata muni bhavadatta muninuM hRdaya vyathita hatuM. kyAreka to vyathA tIvra banI jatI hatI. bhavadeva muninA mukha para hamezAM rahetI udAsInatA, temanI AMkhomAMthI jhakhyA karatI vedanA ane emanA manamAMthI saMbhaLAtA upAlaMbha bhavadatta muninA hRdayane hacamacAvI mUkatA hatA. meM jinAgamonuM gahana adhyayana karyuM che. ghaNAM sUtro mane kaMThAgra che. ekaeka sUtranA arthonAM rahasya meM jANayAM che. ane A rIte huM "gItArtha banyo chuM. mahAvratonuM pAlana karuM chuM. samiti-guptinA pAlanamAM jAgrata chuM." zuM meM bhavadevanA jIvana sAthe krUra vyavahAra nathI karyo? "vairAgya vinA A zramaNa-vata koIne apAya nahIM, AvuM jinavacana jANavA chatAM meM bhavadevane zramaNa banAvyo. enA hRdayamAM kyAM vairAgya hato? e to enA "dAkSiNyatA" guNanA kAraNe zramaNa banI gayo. mArA vacananI khAtara teNe saMsAranAM sukho tyajI dIdhAM! keTalo mahAna che mAro ladhu bhrAtA? kharekhara, e guNiyala che. eNe zramaNa banyA pachI paNa kyAreya mane kahyuM nathI ke moTAbhAI, tame mane chetarIne sAdhu banAvI dIdho.... sAruM na karyuM...' nA, kyAreya teNe phariyAda nathI karI. huM samajuM chuM ke e bhItaramAM vyathita che. enA hRdayamAM rAga che! saMsAranAM sukho pratye rAga che... sAdhujIvanamAM e rAga sAthe jIvavuM ghaNuM ghaNuM duHkhadAyI hoya che. zuM ene sAdhu banAvavAnI pAchaLa enA AtmakalyANanI bhAvanA mArA manamAM hatI kharI? nA, mAre to mArAthI bolAI gayeluM vacana siddha karavuM hatuM. sahavAsI zramaNone mAre batAvI ApavuM hatuM ke huM dhAruM to mArA bhAIne sAdhu banAvI zakuM chuM.." pelA subhASa muni potAnA nAnA bhAIne pratibodha pamADyA vinA pAchA AvelA tyAre meM temano upahAsa karyo hato. meM mArA "ahaM' ne poSavA, rAgIne vairAgInAM kapaDAM paherAvI dIdhAM.. bhogIne tyAgInAM vrata ApI dIdhAM.. enA jIvanano, enI bhItaranI bhAvanAono koI vicAra nA karyo. are, mArA eka vacanane siddha karI batAvavA meM keTakeTalA jIvone asamAdhi ApI? bhautika dRSTie ane AdhyAtmika daSTie mane sukha ApanArAM mArAM mAtA-pitAnAM komaLa hRdaya upara kevo vajaghAta thayo haze? keTakeTalA manoratho sAthe emaNe bhavadevane paraNAvyo For Private And Personal Use Only

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25 bhavadatta muni haze? emane bhavadeva upara keTaluM badhuM vAtsalya hatuM? A AghAta zuM temanA prANa to nahIM laI le ne...? ane pelI navoDhA patnI? jyAre eNe jANyuM haze ke "eno pati sAdhu banI gayo che.." tyAre e kevI zunyamanaska thaI gaI haze? kevuM kAramuM kalpAMta karyuM haze? A badhAM duHkhomAM huM nimitta banI gayo. hA, mAre bhavadattane dIkSA ApavI ja hatI, to mAre ene virakta banAvavo joIto hato. enA hRdayamAM vairAgyano dIpaka pragaTAvavo joIto hato. bhale, e mATe mAre cAra cha mahinA sugrAmamAM rahevuM paData,... ke bAra mahinA rahevuM paData.. sAthe sAthe mAtA-pitAne paNa dharmopadeza ApIne, temanA mamatvabhAvane to toDI zakAta. vAstavikatA vicAruM chuM to, bhavadeva enI potAnI yogyatAnA kAraNe anicchAe sAdhu banyo che. "meM ene sAdhu banAvyo..' AvuM mAnavuM mithyA che. bhale sahavAsI munivaroe mane dhanyavAda ApyA ane e dhanyavAda pAmIne huM harakhAyo, paraMtu e narI AtmavaMcanA che. meM enA premano droha karyo che. meM enA mArA pratyenA pUjyabhAvano geralAbha uThAvyo che. meM enI saraLatA sAthe prapaMca khelyo che. he bhagavAna... meM A zuM karI nAkhyuM? anicchAe eNe zramajIvana svIkAryuM che ane anicchAthI A jIvana, jIvye jAya che. chatAM mArA pratye eNe kyAreya paNa avinaya karyo nathI, anAdara karyo nathI. eno bhaktibhAva akhaMDa che... chatAM A badhuM kyAM sudhI cAlaze? enI bhItaramAM bhaMDArAyelo asaMtoSa zuM sphoTaka nahIM bane? hA, A pavitra vAtAvaraNamAM jIvatAM jIvatAM, jinAgamonuM adhyayana karatAM karatAM, zramaNajIvananI vividha dharma-kriyAo karatAM karatAM.. enI rAgadazA dUra thaI jAya, saMsArasukho pratye anAsakti pragaTI jAya... to to enuM jIvana dhanya banI jAya. bhAvacAritranI prApti thaI jAya. pachI koI ciMtA nahIM. tIrthakara bhagavaMtoe AvI saMbhAvanA batAvI paNa che. dravyacAritra bhAvacAritranuM nimitta banI jAya che. chatAM nimitta bane ja, evo koI niyama nathI... jo bhavadevane bhAvacAritranI prApti na thAya to? khera, bhAvacAritranI prApti na thAya to bhale na thAya, paraMtu cAritradharma tarapha enA manamAM dveSa na thaI javo joIe. aruci na thavI joIe. jo dveSa-aruci thaI jAya to bhavobhava ene cAritradharmanI prApti ja na thAya.... e For Private And Personal Use Only

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26 eka rAta aneka vAta bhISaNa bhavanamAM bhaTakato thaI jAya... emAM mULabhUta nimitta huM banI jAuM... bIjA jIvane evI rIte to dharma na ja Apavo joIe ke enA manamAM dharma pratye dveSa thaI jAya. dharma na Acare to cAle, paNa dharma pratye dveSa thaI jAya te na cAle. jo ke bhavadeva sAdhujIvananI ekeeka kriyA vidhipUrvaka kare che; huM barAbara joyA karuM chuM. kaI kriyA pratye anAdara jovA maLato nathI... chatAM enA mananA bhAvone to huM jANI zakato nathI. basa, huM to eTaluM icchuM chuM ke enA manamAM kyAreya cAritradharma pratye dveSa na jAgavo joIe. enuM mana vyathita to che ja. bhArobhAra duHkha bharyuM che enA manamAM, zuM karuM? ene upadeza ApavA to mArI jIbha ja nathI paDatI. huM ene kevI rIte upadeza ApuM? aparAdha mAro che, eno nathI. meM kapaTa karIne ene sAdhu banAvI dIdho che. meM jinAjJAnuM paNa ullaMghana karyuM che. mArAthI enI vedanA joI jatI nathI. pelA divase rAtrInA chellA praharamAM.. mArA page paDIne e keTaluM raDyo hato? enA e rudane ghaNuM badhuM kahI dIdhuM hatuM.. badhuM zabdothI ja kahevAya, evo niyama thoDo ja che? keTaluMka maunathI kahevAya che, keTaluMka rudanathI kahevAya che... keTaluMka mAtra dRSTithI kahevAya che. to zuM karuM? ene premathI ekAMtamAM pUchI lauM? "vatsa, tAruM mana A zramaNajIvanamAM lAge che ne? jo na lAgatuM hoya.. ane khUba pIDA... vyathA thatI hoya to..." nA, nA, mArAthI ene gRhasthAvAsamAM javAnuM to nahIM ja kahI zakAya. kAraNa ke gRhavAsa paNa sukharUpa to nathI ja. gRhavAsa duHkharUpa che. duHkharUpa gRhavAsamAM javAnuM huM ene na kahI zakuM. hA, e gRhavAsane atyAre sukharUpa mAnI rahyo che ane ene vaiSayika sukho sukharUpa lAge che... eTale ja e sukhonuM AkarSaNa enA manamAM che. je saMsArasukho duHkharUpa che, tene te sukharUpa mAnI rahyo che ane je saMyamanAM kaSTo sukharUpa che, tene te du:kharUpa mAnI rahyo che...! A ja mohadazA... ajJAna-dazA jIvAtmAne anaMtakALathI saMsAramAM bhaTakAvI rahI che ne..? zuM kyAreya tIrthaMkara bhagavaMtono enA para acitya anugraha nahIM thAya? zuM kyAreya gurudevonA hArdika AzIrvAda enA para nahIM avatare? avataraze, For Private And Personal Use Only

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bhavadara muni 27 jarUra avataraze. e tIrthakarono anugraha pAmaze.... enAmAM maulika guNonI yogyatA che. guNavAna jIvAtmA kyAreka ne kyAreka paramAtmakRpAne pAtra bane ja bhavadeva guNavAna che, saMyamazIla che, sattvazIla che, nahIMtara e anicchAe mahAvratonuM pAlana na karI zake. kaThora pratijJAonuM pAlana na karI zake. eka vAta nizcita che; icchA vinA paNa vacana-kAyAthI kareluM mahAvratonuM pAlana, sukhadAthI ja bane che, niSphaLa nathI ja jatuM.. A dRSTie bhavadevanuM meM ahita to nathI karyuM... meM ene ayogya mArge to nathI vALyo. e bhale Aje na samaje, paraMtu huM ene sukhanA mArge laI Avyo chuM. mArga sAro che, sAco che, niSpApa che... "bhAI... vansa... bhavadeva, tuM vyathAmukta thaIne, zAnta citta vicArIza to tane jarU2 A cAritramArga sukharUpa lAgaze. indriyonI paravazatAthI mukta thaIne ciMtana karIza to tane A saMyamapaMtha ja sAco zAntipatha lAgaze. paraMtu te A vAta Aje nahIM vicArI zake, tAro doSa nathI. tane A prakAranuM jJAna nathI maLyuM, saMskAro nathI maLyA. tane samajaNa maLI che saMsAranAM vaiiSayika sukhonI. tArI sukhanI kalpanA indriyonA priya viSayo sAthe baMdhAyelI che! basa, teM e sukhono tyAga karI dIdho mAtra mArA khAtara...! mArA vacananI khAtara...! jarAya khacakAyA vinA, gabharAyA vinA te gurudevane kahI dIdhuM - 'hA gurudeva, huM dIkSA levA Avyo chuM..." to he vatsa, jema mArA vacanane satya sthApita karavA te saMsAranAM sukho tyajI dIdhAM, tema tArA AtmAno uddhAra karavA mATe tuM tArA manathI e sukhono tyAga na karI zake? jo manathI duniyAne vismRtinA dariyAmAM pheMkI de to tuM parama AnaMda anubhavI zake A jIvanamAM. zuM tuM vAtsalyamUrti mAtAne bhUlI zake? zuM tuM udAracetA pitAne bhUlI zake? premanA sAgara jevI navoDhA patnIne bhUlI zake? zabda, rUpa, rasa, gaMdha ane sparzanAM sukho vinA AnaMdathI jIvI zake? e sukhone bhUlI zake? zarIrano moha tyajI zake? jeno teM tyAga karyo che, te badhAM taraphanuM mamatva choDI zake? vatsa, jo tuM mamatva tyajI de to tAro badho viSAda palavAramAM dUra thaI jAya. tAruM mana praphullita thaI jAya.. tuM bhAvacAritrI banI jAya. khera, mane eka vAtano to vizvAsa che ke tuM zramaNajIvana tyajIne gRhavAsamAM to nahIM ja jAya. indriyonA Avego upara saMyama rAkhavAnuM tAruM sattva che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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28. eka rAta aneka vAta yauvana hovA chatAM tArAmAM unmAda nathI. tAruM vyaktitva zAMta-prazAMta che. A dRSTie to huM nizcita chuM. huM vyathita chuM tArI manovyathAnA kAraNe, kAraNa ke emAM huM nimitta banelo chuM. kharekhara, vItarAga sarvajJa paramAtmAe bhavasthiti vicitra batAvI che, te yathArtha che. karmaparavaza jIva na karavAnuM karI bese che. nahIMtara, huM to zramaNa hato ne? mAre zA mATe AvI vAtamAM paDavuM paDe? dIrghadRSTithI vicAryA vinA AvuM kAma zA mATe karavuM paDe? paraMtu A karmaparavaza sthiti ja evI che. huM houM ke bhavadeva hoya... koI paNa karmaparavaza jIva... jANe-ajANe bhUla karI bese che. basa, have to karmabaMdhanone toDavAno mahAna puruSArtha karI levo joIe. karmonI parAdhInatA miTAvavI ja joIe. AtmAne zuddha, buddha karavAnA eka ja lakSyathI jIvana jIvavuM joIe. zramaNajIvana e mATe to lIdhuM che.' bhavasthitinuM ciMtana karatAM karatAM bhavadatta muni prazAnta banyA. temanI glAni dUra thaI, viSAda dUra thayo. vairAgyabhAva tIvra banyo. "zramaNajIvananAM mArAM kartavyonuM pAlana karato rahIza, paraMtu have huM zuddha AtmasvarUpamAM ramaNatA karato rahIza. vizuddha AtmadRSTithI jIvasRSTinuM avalokana karato rahIza. AtmAnubhava pAmavAnI dizAmAM prayatnazIla banIza. bhavadevane paNa enA vizuddha AtmasvarUpamAM joIza. enA zuddha Atmadravyane joIza. nirlepa bhAvane puSTa karato rahIza. apramata dazAne ujAgara karato rahIza. dravya-kSetra-kALa-bhAvanA pratibaMdhone toDI nAkhIza. tapa-tyAga ane titikSA dvArA zarIranA rAgane bhUMsI nAkhIza. hA, huM bhavadava tarapha nirapekSa nahIM banuM. enI upekSA nahIM karuM. enI cAritra sthiratA mATe ene vAtsalya ApIza. ene mArgadarzana Apato rahIza. enI javAbadArI barAbara adA karIza. enA zubhanI, enA kalyANanI kAmanA mArA haiye raheze. enA manane barAbara sAcavIza. mAre A rIte nizcaya' ane vyavahAra" banne dharmonuM yathocita pAlana karavAnuM che. huM karIza'. bhavadatta muninI vicAradhArA vizuddha-vizuddhatara banatI cAlI... temano AtmabhAva ullasita banyo. Akhara, teo viziSTa jJAnI-puruSa hatA ne? jJAnI puruSono viSAda kSaNajIvI hoya che. viSAdamAMthI vairAgyamAM sarI paDatAM temane vAra nathI lAgatI. ugamAMthI AnaMdamAM UtarI paDatAM temane vAra nathI lAgatI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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29 bhavadatta muni eka divasa AcAryadevazrI mahidharasUrijIe bhavadatta munine bolAvIne kahyuM: "mahAnubhAva, bhavadeva muninA AMtarika bhAvothI paricita cho ne? ene samAdhi rahe, e svastha rahe te mATe yogya karo cho ne?' hA gurudeva, enA pratye huM jAgrata chuM. saMyamabhAvamAM enI sthiratA rahe te mATe saMyamayogomAM pravartAvuM chuM.' chatAM e udvigna rahe che, udAsa rahe che.' prabho, e mArI bhUlanuM pariNAma che...' 'evuM na vicAro mahAmuni! tame ene, enI icchA vinA paNa, sanmArge laI AvyA cho." "e sAcuM hovA chatAM gurudeva, mArA manamAM hamezAM e vAta pIDe che... ke meM enI sAthe kapaTa karyuM... kapaTa karIne ene zramaNa banAvyo..." have e vAta yAda na karo. tame kapaTa karIne enuM ahita nathI karyuM... ene tame uttama jIvana ApyuM che. khera, enA manamAM mokSamArga ja cavo joIe. prayatna e dizAmAM karavo jarUrI che. jo ke mAro ane tamAro prayatna cAlu ja che, chatAM ApaNe vizeSa dhyAna ApavAnuM che.' gurudeva, e sattvazIla che. grahaNa karelA mahAvratonuM doSarahita pAlana kare. mane to haLukarmI jIva lAge che. enAmAM ghaNA badhA maulika guNa mane dekhAya che. Aje bhale, tenuM mana mahamAM mUMjhAtuM hoya, paNa e mohanuM AvaraNa, pragADha nathI. ekAda nimitta maLatAM e AvaraNa bhedAI jaze." bhavadatta muninI AMkho harSAzruthI bharAI gaI. temaNe AcAryadevanA ullaMgamAM potAnuM mastaka mUkI dIdhuM. AcAryadevano varada hasta mastakane paMpALato rahyo. gad svare bhavadatta muni bolyA : "basa bhagavaMta, huM e ja icchuM chuM... enuM mohanuM AvaraNa bhedAI jAya. e AtmabhAvamAM lIna bane... bAhya duniyAne bhUlI jAya." "zraddhA rAkho, yogya kALe e banaze ja. AtmAnA utthAnamAM "kALa' paNa mahattvano bhAga bhajave che. "kALalabdhi" paNa eka adazya chatAM sakriya tattva che ne!' ApanuM kathana yathArtha che gurudeva, ApanA vAtsalyabharapUra sAMnidhyamAM e AtmA saMyamajIvanamAM sthira raheze ja, enI udAsInatA dUra thaze ja.' For Private And Personal Use Only

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30. eka rAta aneka vAta e mATe eka ja upAya che, ane te che svAdhyAyamagnatA, jJAnamagnatA! divasa-rAtanA ATha praharamAM pAMca prahara jJAna-dhyAnamAM rahevuM joIe. azubha vicArone manamAM pesavAno mArga ja na maLavo joIe. jJAna-dhyAna vinA mana sthira na rahe, zuddha na rahe. ArtadhyAnamAM cAlyuM jAya... ne kyAreka saMyamajIvanane nuksAna kare. tame nizcita raho, bhavadeva munine huM pote ja jJAnadhyAnamAM joDIza. tenuM yogakSema karIza. saMyamajIvanamAM sthira karIza." prabho, bhavobhava Apa gurudevanuM zaraNa maLo.' bhavadatta munie AcAryadevanA caraNe mastaka mUkIne vaMdanA karI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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5. nAgilA revI ane rASTrakUTa mATe bhavadevano viraha asahya banyo. virahanI vedanAmAM banne jhUratAM rahyAM. eka varSa, be varSa... traNa varSa vItyAM. banne mAMdagImAM paTakAyAM, nAgilA sAsu-sasarAnI dinarAta sevA kare che. alabatta, nAgilAnA hRdayamAM pativirahanI vyathA bharelI ja hatI, chatAM te sAsu-sasarAne AzvAsana ApatI rahI ane sevA karatI rahI. zreSThI rASTrakUTe eka divasa nAgilAne potAnI pAse besADIne kahyuM : 'beTI, have mane lAge che ke huM mAMdagImAMthI UThIza nahIM... huM thoDA divasano mahemAna chuM... ane A (revatI) paNa vadhu divasa nahIM kADhe... beTI, amArA be vinA...' rASTrakUTa raDI paDyA. nAgilAnI AMkhomAMthI paNa AMsu vahevA lAgyAM... thoDIka svastha banIne nAgilA bolI : 'pitAjI, Apa AvuM nA bolo. du:khI nA thAo... huM ApanI pAse ja chuM... Apa jaladI sArA thaI jAo... te mATe meM kuLadevatAnI pUjA paNa karAvI che...' 'tArI bhAvanA zubha che beTI, paNa have jIvavAno moha ja nathI rahyo... basa, eka ja ciMtA che... amArA gayA pachI tAruM koNa? 'evI ciMtA Apa nA karo. Apa svastha bano... pachI e ciMtA nahIM rahe.' 'have huM svastha nahIM banI zakuM. mane mAruM mRtyu nikaTamAM dekhAya che... eTale ja eka vAta tane kahevI che... jo tuM mAnI jAya to...' 'Apa saMkoca rAkhyA vinA ko pitAjI.' rASTrakUTe nAgilA sAme joyuM. enA mAthe potAno dhrUjato hAtha mUkyo. nAgilAe be hAtha joDI mastaka namAvIne rASTrakUTane vaMdana karyuM. 'beTI, tuM lagna karI le... tArUM jIvana surakSita banI jaze... pachI ame banne nizciMta banIne motane bheTIzuM.' 'nahIM pitAjI, jema Apa ApanA putrane bhUlI zakatA nathI tema huM paNa emane bhUlI zakatI nathI, bhUlI zakIza nahIM. emanA sivAya A janamamAM bIjo pati svapnamAM paNa nahIM karI zakuM... A mAro nirNaya che pitAjI. ane mArI surakSAnI Apa ciMtA na karo. mArA pitAjI che, mAro bhAI For Private And Personal Use Only

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32 eka rAta aneka vAta che... mArI mAtA che. A gAmamAM ja che ne? e loko mArI pUrI kALajI rAkhaze." nAgilA eka zvAsamAM bolI gaI... paraMtu tarata ja ene khyAla Avyo ke gaMbhIra mAMdagImAM paTakAyelA sasarA enI vAtane sahI zakaze kharA? teNe khUba mRdu zabdomAM kahyuM : pitAjI, mArI vAtathI Apane duHkha thayuM ne? mane kSamA karajo... mArI bhAvanAne meM ekadama pragaTa karI dIdhI...' nA beTI, tArI vAtathI mane duHkha nathI thayuM. paraMtu harSa thayo che. mArI putravadhU mahAsatI che! sAkSAt devI che... huM mArI jAtane dhanya mAnuM chuM beTI.. mane tArA jevI putravadhU maLI.." rASTrakUTa bolatAM bolatAM thAkI gayA. temaNe AMkho baMdha karI. baMdha AMkho sAme temane bhavadeva dekhAyo.. nAgilAe UThIne rASTrakUTane davA ApI. anupAna ApyuM ne te revatInI pathArI pAse gaI. revatInuM zarIra sukAIne asthipiMjara banI gayuM hatuM. enI AMkho UMDI UtarI gaI hatI. tenAmAM bolavAnI paNa hAma rahI na hatI. teNe sUkI AMkhe nAgilAne joI. nAgilA pathArI pAse besI gaI. revatIne auSadha ApyuM, anupAna ApyuM ane dhIre dhIre revatInA mAthe hAtha pheravavA lAgI. khUba ja dhImA svare revatI bolI : beTI, tArA sasarAe tane kAMI kahyuM?" nAgilAe revatInA kAna pAse mukha rAkhIne javAba Apyo. "hA mA." teM hA pADI?" nA, mA...' kema beTI?' mArUM mana nathI mAnatuM... huM tamArA putrane bhUlI na zakuM." "paNa... pachI tAruM koNa?' "mA, pachInI ciMtA nA karo... mArI rakSA bhagavAna karaze." revatI nAgilAne jotI rahI.. pachI AMkho baMdha karI nAgilAnA hAthane paMpALatI rahI. traNa varSathI nAgilAne revatI-rASTrakUTa taraphathI naryuM vAtsalya.. naryo prema maLato rahyo hato. sneha ane sahAnUbhUtino dhodha enA hRdaya para varasyo hato. For Private And Personal Use Only

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nAgalA e kALamAM strI vidhavA banyA pachI bIjI vAra lagna karI zakatI hatI. tatkAlIna samAja-vyavasthAmAM vidhavA-vivAha niSiddha na hato. chatAM nAgilAe punarlagna karavAno vicAra paNa na karyo. eNe bhavadevane mana-vacana-kAyAthI cAhyo hato. eNe pUrNapremathI bhavadevane svIkAryo hato. nAgilAnA pitA nAgadatta zreSThIe ane mAtA vAsukIe nAgilAne punarlagna karavA mATe samajAvavA prayatna karyo hato. nAgilAe temane paNa spaSTa nA pADI dIdhI hatI. nAgilAnuM kaumAryavrata akhaMDa hatuM. te potAnuM mana manAvavA dhArata to manAvI zakata, paraMtu teNe AtmasAkSIe punarlagna nahIM karavAno nirNaya karI lIdho hato. sAsu-sasarAnI sevA, gharanuM kAmakAja ane paramAtmAnAM darzana-pUjana-smaraNamAM te potAnA divasa pasAra karI detI hatI. enA manamAM e vAta paNa spaSTa thaI gaI hatI ke "bhavadeva have ghare nahIM Ave. bhavadeva pAsethI vaiSayika sukha nahIM maLe. gharamAM rahIne ene sAdhvInuM jIvana jIvavAnuM che.' eNe koI ja dInatA vinA, AvI paDelA paDakArane jhIlI lIdho! AjIvana brahmacaryanuM pAlana karavAno nizcaya karI lIdho. revatI-rASTrakUTanI mAMdagI gaMbhIra banI. vaidyoe zakya teTalA tamAma prayatno karI lIdhA. paraMtu eka divasa revatIe aMtima zvAsocchavAsa levA zarU karyA. nAgilA sAvadhAna hatI. eNe revatIne aMtima ArAdhanA karAvavA mAMDI. cAra zaraNa aMgIkAra karAvIne zrI navakAramaMtranuM dhyAna karAvyuM. saMsAranAM badhAM ja mamatvanAM baMdhano toDavAnI preraNA ApI, paramAtmAmAM AtmabhAvane sthira karavA prayatna karyo. revatIne samAdhi lAgI gaI ane eNe prANano tyAga karyo. revatInuM mRtyu thayuM.... nAgilA dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDI. mAtA-pitA paNa AvI gayAM hatAM. nAgilAne bIjA oraDAmAM laI jaI tene zAnta karI. revatInA mRtyunA samAcAra saMgrAmamAM phelAI gayA. hajAro strI-puruSo bhegAM thaI gayAM. revatInAM aMtima saMskAra karI, sahu revatInA guNono anuvAda karatA pota-potAnA ghare gayAM. - nAgilAnAM mAtA-pitA revatInA ghare rokAI gayAM. kAraNa ke rASTrakUTa paNa gaMbhIra bImArImAM hatA. revatInA mRtyuthI rASTrakUTa ati vihvaLa banyA hatA. vAraMvAra raDI paDatA hatA. nAgadatta zreSThI rASTrakUTanI pAse ja besatA hatA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta rASTrakUTane samatA baMdhAvatA hatA. paraMtu rASTrakUTanuM mana nabaLuM paDI gayuM hatuM. teo kyAreka bhavadevane yAda karIne rudana karatA to kyAreka revatIne yAda karIne rudana karatA. nAgilA apramattabhAve rASTrakuTanI sevA karatI rahI. paraMtu eka divasa rASTrakaTe paNa aMtima zvAsocchuvAsa laI lIdhA. temanuM mRtyu thayuM. samagra saMgrAme zoka pALyo. nAgilAe udAratAthI dAna-puNya karyA. 0 0 0. vAsukI ane nAgada nAgilAne potAnA ghare laI javA ghaNI samajAvI, paraMtu nAgilA na mAnI. teNe mAtA-pitAne kahyuM : "jyAM sudhI huM saMsAramAM chuM tyAM sudhI A gharamAM ja rahIza. A gharanI ghaNI badhI smRtionA sathavAre mane jIvavAnuM baLa maLaze. avAranavAra tamArA ghare AvatI-jatI rahIza. tame paNa ahIM AvatAM jatAM rahezo. vaLI, A gharamAM mane koI bhaye nathI. pADozI bhalA che, suzIla che. badhAnI A ghara pratye lAgaNI che, sahAnubhUti che. ane have to mAre mArA jIvane dharmadhyAnamAM ja joDavAno che. havethI saMsAranA vyavahAro mArA mATe baMdha che.' | vAsukI-nAgadattanI AMkho bhInI thaI gaI. teo vizeSa Agraha na karI zakyAM. putrIne khUba vAtsalya ApIne teo potAnA ghare gayAM. vizALa gharamAM have ekalI nAgilA rahI. manuSya sukhada yA du:khada bhUtakALanI smRtiothI bacI zakato nathI. svAbhAvika rIte manuSyane nivRttinA samaye e smRtio AvatI hoya che. paraMtu kyAreka kyAreka pravRtinA samaye paNa e smRtiomAM DUbI jato hoya che. jJAnI puruSa, jJAna-dhyAnanA baLe manane e smRtiothI bacAvato hoya che. chatAM jJAna-dhyAna sivAyanA samayamAM e paNa smRtionA vaMToLamAM aTavAI jato hoya che. bhale nAgilAno bhavadeva sAtheno sahavAsa thoDA kalAkono rahyo hato, paraMtu e thoDA kalAkonA sahavAse nAgilA para gherI asara karI hatI. vItelAM varSomAM teNe anekavAra e sahavAsane manamAM vAgoLyo hato. bhavadevane aharniza snehathI yAda karyo hato. bhavadava uparano teno anurAga akhaMDa rahyo hato. enA manamAM pAkI khAtarI hatI ke bhavadeve eno tyAga dveSathI ke vairAgyathI nathI ja karyo. koI asAdhAraNa kAraNathI tene tyAga karavo paDyo che. koI viSama paristhitie ene tyAga karavA mATe vivaza karyo che. A samajaNanA lIdhe enA manamAM bhavadeva pratye kyAreya aruci ke abhAva jAgyo na hato. doSadarzana thayuM ja na hatuM, pachI prema naMdavAya ja kevI rIte? For Private And Personal Use Only

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nAgilA eno prema akhaMDa hato, avicchinna hato. eTale vAraMvAra enI smRtimAM bhavadeva AvI jato hato. sAsu-sasarA jIvatAM hatAM tyAre gharamAM anekavidha pravRttio rahetI eTale bhavadevanI smRti eTalI badhI satAvatI na hatI. have gharamAM e ekalI hatI. vyavahAranI pravRtio baMdha thaI gaI hatI. lokonI avarajavara paNa nahivat thaI gaI hatI. eTale bhavadevanI smRtino kALa asImita banI gayo hato. jo bhavadeva gharamAM hota to? jo eno sahavAsa maLyo hota to? A vicArabIjamAMthI aneka asaMkhya sukhada vicAro enA manamAM utpanna thAya che. e vicArone e roke che. koI kAmamAM potAnA manane joDe che. vaLI pelA vicAro zarU thaI jAya che. punaH e vicArone roke che. mananI A gaDamathala cAlatI rahe che. te divasamAM mAtra eka samaya bhojana kare che, paraMtu miSTa ane madhura bhojana te nathI karatI. te snAna kare che, paraMtu mAthe tela nathI nAMkhatI, zaNagAra nathI karatI. te sUI jAya che paNa gAdI-takiyAno upayoga nathI karatI. sAdhvInI jema zveta vastra dhAraNa kare che ane vadhu samaya mauna dhAraNa kare eka divasa vAsukI ane nAgadatte nAgilAne kahyuM : "beTI, jo tArI icchA bhavadeva muninAM darzana karavAnI hoya to ame tapAsa karAvIe. e je gAmanagaramAM haze tyAM ApaNe jaIzuM." nAgilA mAtA-pitAno prastAva sAMbhaLIne vicAramAM paDI gaI. teNe koI javAba na Apyo. vAsukIe pUchyuM : beTI, javAba kema na Apyo?' mA, huM vicArIne javAba ApIza." nAgilA potAnA oraDAmAM cAlI gaI. tenuM hRdaya bhavadevanI smRtithI bharAI AvyuM. te jamIna para sUI gaI. be hAthamAM mAthuM dabAvIne te paDI rahI. "zuM emanAM darzana karavA jAuM? ATalAM traNa-cAra varSa pachI emanuM zarIra kevuM badalAI gayuM haze? tapazcaryAthI kAyA kRza thaI gaI haze. mukha para udAsI... glAnI... nA, nA, huM emane joI nahIM zakuM. nathI javuM mAre emanI pAse. ane e mane joze tyAre? cAra varSa pahelAMnI nAgilA Aje kyAM che?' For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta - nAgilAe kabATamAMthI arIso kADhIne emAM potAnuM mukha joyuM. tenA mukhamAMthI cIsa nIkaLI gaI. arIso teNe kabATamAM mUkI dIdho. teNe be hAthamAM potAnuM mukha chupAvI dIdhuM. nA, nA, mAre emanI pAse nathI javuM. e mane oLakhI ja nahIM zake. emanA manamAM mAruM je citra che, te nAgilA to marI gaI.." te dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDI. tenI cIsa sAMbhaLIne, vAsukI enA oraDAnA dvAra pAse AvIne UbhI rahI gaI hatI. tenI AMkhomAMthI AMsuo vahI rahyAM hatAM. jyAre nAgilA dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDI, vAsukI oraDAmAM AvI. nAgilAne potAnA khoLAmAM laI lIdhI. dhIre dhIre nAgilAnAM DUsakAM zAnta thayAM. teNe vAsukIne kahyuM : "mA, ApaNe emanAM darzana karavA nathI javuM..." | vAsukI kAMI bolI nahIM. te putrInI vedanAthI vihavaLa hatI. nAgilAnI vyathA tene vyathita karI rahI hatI. jANe ke nAgilAne khyAla AvI gayo. te vAsukInI sAme besI gaI. teNe potAnI oDhaNInA cheDAthI vAsukInI AMkho lUchI, potAnA be hAthamAM mAnuM mukha laI te bolI : "mA, huM tane duHkhI karI rahI chuM ne? tuM mAruM duHkha dUra karavA prayatna kare che, huM tane duHkhI...' nA, nA beTI, tuM mane duHkhI kare kharI? amArAthI tAruM du:kha sahana nathI thatuM." mA, tuM zA mATe duHkhI thAya che? mArA pitAjI paNa zA mATe duHkhI thAya che? eka divasa teo jarUra ahIM A gAmamAM Avaze ja... mA, teo mane eka kSaNa paNa nahIM bhUlatA hoya.." beTI, e to sAdhu thaI gayA.. e tane have zAnA yAda kare? e to paramAtmAnuM smaraNa karatA rahe." bhale karatA paramAtmAnuM smaraNa, mane e nahIM bhUle.' vAsukI nAgilAne jotI rahI-nAgilA potAnA ja zabdo para vicAra karatI rahI - "zuM emaNe mane nahIM bhUlavI joIe? nA, e mane bhUlI jAya e ja sAruM. e sAdhu che. e mane bhUlI jAya to ja paramAtmAnA dhyAnamAM emanuM mana lAge ne? huM emane na bhUluM te barAbara che, emaNe mane bhUlI javI joIe." For Private And Personal Use Only

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37 nAgilA jema jema divaso... varSo vItatAM gayAM, nAgilA svastha banatI gaI. eNe potAnA jIvanaparivartananI sAthe sAthe antarmukhI vyaktitva vikasAvavA mAMDyuM. have te udAsImAM DUbI jatI nathI, AMsunI avirata dhArA vahAvatI nathI. have te sUnamUna banI bhavadevanI smRtimAM khovAI jatI nathI. nathI tenAmAM dInatA rahI ke nathI tenAmAM hInatAnI bhAvanA rahI. teNe paramAtmAnuM AlaMbana lIdhuM. paramAtmAnAM smaraNa-darzana-pUjana-stavanamAM teNe rasAnubhUti karavA mAMDI. zrI navakAramaMtranA jApa dhyAnamAM te lIna thavA lAgI. anitya, azaraNa, ekatva, anyatva Adi bhAvanAonA ciMtanamAM magna rahevA lAgI. ghare maLavA AvanArI strIo sAthe dharma carcA karavA lAgI. gAmamAM AvatI sAdhvIono bahumAnapUrvaka saMparka karavA lAgI. sAdhvInA jIvananuM avalokana karavA lAgI. tene e jIvana gamyuM. sAdhvIono sahavAsa gamyo. teNe manomana nirNaya karI lIdho - "A jIvanamAM eka divasa huM sAdhvI banIza." teNe yauvanane zAnta karyuM. tapazcaryAthI dehanuM damana karyuM. tene na rahyo rUpano moha, na rahI yauvananI spRhA. rUpa-yauvana tarapha niHspRha banIne AtmAparamAtmA tarapha te abhimukha banI gaI. vaiSayika sukhonI icchAothI paNa te sahajatAthI virAma pAmI. lagna pachInAM bAra varSa A rIte vItI gayAM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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9. ghaTanAthajI AcAryazrI mahidharasUrijInA svargavAsanA AghAtamAMthI mAgadha prajA haju bahAra nIkaLI na hatI. samagra zramaNAsaMgha haju jemanA guNAnuvAda karatAM thAto na hato, tyAM bhavadatta muni mAMdagInI pathArIe paDyA. bhavadatta muni sthavira muni hatA, gItArtha muni hatA. saMgha ane samAjamAM suparicita hatA. aneka zramaNonA vidyAguru hatA. aneka zramaNIonA preraNAsrota hatA. sadeva prasannavadana ane madhurabhASI hatA. teo bImAra paDyA. temanI sevAmAM aneka zramaNo tatpara hatA. bhavadeva muni apramatta bhAvathI sevA karI rahyA hatA. bhavadatta muninA manamAM eka ja ciMtA pragADha banelI hatI. bhavadeva muninA sthirIkaraNanI, paraMtu teo jJAnI purUSa hatA. mananuM samAdhAna karI ciMtAne dUra karI hatI. temane lAgyuM ke "have mAruM AyuSya thoDA divasanuM ja zeSa che." teo AtmabhAvamAM sthira thayA. zuddha AtmasvarUpanA ciMtanamAM pravRtta thayA. svaAtmAne paramAtma svarUpe jovA lAgyA. apUrva AtmAnaMdanI anubhUti karavA lAgyA. AtmA ane zarIranuM bhedajJAna teoe prApta kareluM hatuM. bhedajJAnanA mAdhyamathI temaNe zarIra uparanuM mamatva toDeluM hatuM. dehAdhyAsa, dehAsaktithI teo mukta banelA hatA, eTale zarIranA rogo, zarIranI pIDA temane asvastha karI zakatI na hatI. teo koI ja skUlanA vinA AtmaraNatA karatA hatA. - kAkaMdI nagarInAM hajAro strI-puruSo upAzrayanI bahAra bhegAM thaI gayAM hatAM. sahu bhavadatta muninA svAthya mATe manomana paramAtmAne prArthanA karI rahyAM hatAM. bhavadatta munie anazana karI lIdhuM. prabhAtano samaya hato. sthavira munioe bhavadatta munine aMtima ArAdhanA karAvavAno prAraMbha karyo. be ghaDI sudhI ArAdhanA cAlatI rahI ane pUrNa samAdhimAM bhavadatta muni mRtyu pAmyA. bhavadeva muni dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDyA. anya zramaNo, zramaNIo, zrAvakazrAvikAo paNa raDI paDyAM. sthavira zramaNoe mahApAriniSThApanikAno For Private And Personal Use Only

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ghaTanAcakra 39 kAyotsarga karI, bhavadatta munino mRtadeha aMtima saMskAra karavA gRhasthone soMpI dIdho. bhavadatta munino AtmA "saudharma-devalokamAM deva thayo. sthavira munioe bhavadeva munine sAMtvanA ApI. temanA zokane dUra karavA prayatna karyo. temanuM rudana to baMdha thayuM, paraMtu jANe ke emanuM sarvasva lUMTAI gayuM hoya, evI mAnasika sthiti thaI gaI. temanuM hRdaya viyoganI vedanAthI valurAvA mAMDyuM. bAra-bAra varSa jemanuM apAra vAtsalya maLyuM hatuM, jemano nirmaLa sneha maLyo hato, jemanI bharapUra karuNA maLI hatI, te bhavadatta muni avirata, bhavadeva muninI smRtimAM rahe che. temanA aneka guNo kalpanAlokamAM sAkAra bane che. divaso vIte che. zUnya banI gayelA manamAM nAgilAnI AkRti UpasavA mAMDe che. bhavadeva muni vihvaLa banI jAya che. jIvananI nIrasatA nAgilAnI kalpanAkRtine pakaDI le che. huM nAgilAne cAhu chuM. nAgilA mArA hRdayamAM che. e paNa mane cAhe che. huM eno prANavallabha chuM. ame eka-bIjAne cAhIe chIe. huM ene bhUlyo nathI tema e paNa mane na ja bhUle. bhale; meM bAra varSa sudhI mahAvrata pALyAM, moTAbhAIne lIdhe, emanA vacananI khAtara meM pALyAM che. moTAbhAI svargavAsI thayA. have mAre konI khAtara A vrata pALavAnAM? vaLI, jyAM niraMtara mAruM hRdaya nAgilAnA virahathI saLagatuM ja rahyuM che, tyAM A vrata-mahAvrata mArA mATe guNakArI kevI rIte bane? vrata-mahAvrata to emanA mATe guNakArI-hitakArI bane che ke jeo vaiSayika sukhonI lAlasAthI mukta hoya. jeo e lAlasAne kacaDI nAMkhavA icchatA hoya. huM to e lAlasAne pUrI karavA icchuM chuM. mAre to nAgilAnuM sukha joIe che. e sukha meLavavA huM bAra-bAra varSathI taDapI rahyo chuM. mArI bhItaranI e AgathI mArA zarIramAM lohI-mAMsa sukAI gayAM che. loko ema mAne che ke tapa-tyAgathI mAruM zarIra zoSAI gayuM che! teo mArA bhItaranI vyathA kevI rIte jANe? sAdhujIvananI aneka kriyAo meM karI, paraMtu ekeya kriyAmAM mAruM mana kyAM joDAyuM che? mana vinAnI A badhI dharmakriyAo vyartha gaI che. koI ja dharmakriyAmAM mArUM mana lAgyuM nathI. ane lAgavAnuM nathI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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40. eka rAta aneka vAta ' are, dharmakriyAomAM to mana nathI lAgatuM, khAvA-pIvAnI kriyAmAM paNa mAruM mana kyAM lAge che? mane khAvA-pIvAnuM paNa nathI gamatuM. mane rAtre UMgha paNa kyAM Ave che? nAgilA sivAya badhuM ja nIrasa ane nirarthaka banI gayuM che. enA virahanI Aga have mArAthI nahIM sahI zakAya, lAkaDAnI Aga to pANIthI bujhAvI zakAya, paraMtu A kAmapIDAnI Aga... enI pracaMDa jvAlAone bujhAvavI mArA mATe azakya che. keTakeTalAM AMsu vahAvyAM? chatAM AMsunAM pANIthI e jvAlAo bujhAI nathI. kRpAvaMta AcAryadeve ane karuNAsAgara moTAbhAIe mane vairAgyano upadeza zuM ocho Apyo che? chatAM, e jinavacanothI paNa mArI bhItaranI Aga bujhAI nathI. hA, emAM caMdana jevAM zItala jinavacanono doSa nathI, doSa che mArI vaDavAnala jevI pracaMDa kAmavAsanAnI Agano. virahAgninI Aga mArA aMgeaMgamAM phelAI gaI che. sarvabhakSI banI gaI che. e rUpasuMdarI nAgilAnI suMdara kAyA, mArI kalpanAnA sAgaramAM taryA kare che. enA lAla-lAla paravALA jevA hoThamAM amRta bhareluM che. ujjavala candra jevuM enuM mukhaDuM zItaLa jyotsanAno chaMTakAva karanAruM che. enI mIThI mIThI vANImAM sAkarano AsvAda rahelo che. mRNAladaMDa jevA tenA be bAhu svargIya sukha ApavA AhvAna karI rahyA che. teno unnata urapradeza ane mukta kelikriDA karavA mATe nimaMtrI rahyo che. AvI priyA mArA manamAM vaselI che. A vrata-mahAvrata zuM kAmanAM? e bicArI mArI priyatamA. ToLAthI vikhUTI paDelI hariNI jevI... enuM zuM thayuM haze? kevI kevI abhilASAo laIne e AvI hatI? meM ene tyajI dIdhI. meM ene duHkhI karI.. huM paNa bAra-bAra varSathI duHkhI thaI rahyo chuM. paraMtu haju kAMI moDuM thayuM nathI. haju e 2527 varSanI ramaNI che ane huM 28 30 varSano yuvaka chuM. haju amArUM yauvana che. A sAdhuveSa tyajI dauM? ane ghare jaI, enI sAthe gRhasaMsAra zarU karI dauM? e mArI prANezvarI banI raheze. huM eno dAsa banI rahIza. ekeya vAte huM ene duHkhI nahIM karuM. enI eke-eka vAta mAnIza. enI eka-eka icchA pUrNa karIza. e risAze to huM ene manAvIza. jo ke e paNa mane kyAreya du:khI kare evI nathI. mane duHkhI joIne to e bora-bora jevaDAM AMsu pADe. he bhagavAna... jo teM mane pAMkho ApI hota to hamaNAM ja UDIne huM enI pAse pahoMcI jAta. For Private And Personal Use Only

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ghaTanAyaka 41 have ahIM mane koNa rokanAra che? moTAbhAI cAlyA gayA... emanI ja zarama mane naDatI hatI. hA, sahavartI sthavira mahAtmAone khabara paDI jAya to teo mane rokI rAkhavAno prayatna jarUra kare. paraMtu huM emane khabara ja nahIM paDavA dauMne? koIne khyAla na Ave e rIte ahIMthI nIkaLI jaIza. sugrAma ahIMthI bahu dUra nathI. hA, huM ahIMthI sAdhuveSamAM ja jaIza. nAgilAne maLyA pachI sAdhuveSano tyAga karIza. bAra-bAra varSanAM vahANAM vAI gayAM. e mArA sukAI gayelA zarIrane joIne duHkhI thaI jaze. e samajaze ke 'sAdhujIvanamAM meM khUba tapazcaryA karI che...!' nA re nA, huM ene sAcuM kAraNa batAvI daIza. 'priye, tArA virahanI pIDAthI A zarIra sukAI gayuM che. nathI mane khAvAnuM bhAvyuM, nathI pIvAnuM gamyuM ke nathI UMgha AvI.' enI AMkhomAMthI AMsu vaheze. huM ene khUba premathI zAnta karIza. have mAre vilaMba na karavo joIe. nirbhaya... nizciMta banIne nIkaLI javuM joIe. jo ke sugrAmanA koI samAcAra mane maLyA nathI. nathI mAtA-pitAnA samAcAra maLyA ke nathI nAgilAnA koI samAcAra maLyA.' bhavadeva muni UMDA vicAramAM DUbI gayA. 'mArA ahIMthI gayA pachI zramaNasaMghamAM hobALo thaI jaze. mArI niMdA thaze. sAthe sAthe moTAbhAInuM paNa khoTuM dekhAze. loko kaheze : 'bhavadatta muninA bhAI bhavadeva muni cAlyA gayA.' khera, bolanA2A bolaze. thoDA divasa duniyA mArI carcA karaze. pachI badhuM zAnta thaI jaze. paraMtu have lokaniMdAnA bhayathI huM mAro nirNaya nahIM badaluM. jiMdagI mAre jIvavI che. huM nAgilA vinA have eka divasa paNa zAntithI pasAra karI zakuM ema nathI. mArUM mana vaiyika sukha icche che. mArI A prabaLa icchAne have huM dabAvI zakuM ema nathI. mAro saMyamano baMdha tUTI gayo che. huM nAgilA pAse jaIza. kAle vahelI savAre...... koIneya kahyA vinA ahIMthI nIkaLI jaIza.' vahelI savAramAM bhavadeva muni upAzrayamAMthI nIkaLI gayA. sugrAma javAno rasto temaNe joyelo hato, jhaDapathI teo sugrAmanA raste AgaLa vadhavA lAgyA. cAlatA ja rahyA... cAlatA ja rahyA. saMdhyA samaye sugrAmanA bAhya pradezamAM pahoMcI gayA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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42 eka zata aneka vAta sugrAmanI bahAra eka prAcIna zivamaMdira hatuM. maMdiranI sAme gAmakUvo hato. bhavadeva munie zivamaMdiramAM rAta pasAra karavAnuM vicAryuM. zivamaMdiramAM koI rahetuM na hatuM. maMdiranA eka bhAgamAM teo rokAI gayA. have temane koI dharmakriyA karavAnI na hatI, koI svAdhyAya karavAno na hato. temanuM mana mAtApitA.. patnI... snehI... svajanonA vicAromAM parovAI gayuM. UMgha AvatI na hatI. besI besIne thAkI jatA tyAre maMdiramAM AMTA mAratA. maMdiranA oTale AvIne sugrAma tarapha mITa mAMDIne joI rahetA... vaLI pAchA potAnA sthAne AvIne besI jatA. " kyAre savAra paDe ne kyAre ghare jaIne svajanone maLuM?" rAta pUrI thaI. prabhAta thayuM. gAmanI strIo pANI bharavA kUvA para AvavA lAgI. bhavadeva muni maMdiranA oTalA upara besI rahyA hatA. gAmanAM koI strI-puruSa maLe to emane gharanA samAcAra pUchIne pachI ghare jAuM." sUryodaya thaI gayo hato. dUrathI be strIone maMdira tarapha AvatI joI. eka strI AdheDa uMmaranI hatI. bIjI strI nAnI uMmaranI hatI. nAnI uMmaranI strInA hAthamAM phUlonI mALA hatI. banne strIo najIka AvI. bhavadeva muni te banne strIone joI rahyA. be strIoe bhavadeva munine joyA. temaNe munine praNAma karyA. bhavadeva munie AdheDa uMmaranI strI sAme joIne pUchayuM : "he puNyazAlinI, A gAmamAM rahetA rASTrakUTa ane revatIne tame jANo cho? teo kuzaLa che ne?' prazna sAMbhaLIne, nIcI dRSTie UbhelI nAnI uMmaranI strIe muninI sAme joyuM ne teNe javAba Apyo : he mahAtmanuM, e banneno thoDAM varSa pahelAM svargavAsa thaI gayo che'. munie e strI sAme joIne bIjo prazna pUchyo : temanI putravadhU nAgilAne tame jANatA ja hazo? tenA pati bhavadave, lagna karIne tarata ja eno tyAga karyo hato ne e sAdhu banI gayo hato. hA, tamArI vAta sAcI che. tame koNa cho ane zA mATe A badhuM pUcho cho?' huM? huM ja bhavadeva chuM. (....) nAnI uMmaranI strI camakI gaI. tenA hAthamAMthI phUlanI mALA jamIna para paDI gaI. te visphArita AMkhe bhavadeva munine joI rahI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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43 ghaTanAcakra . tame tame bhavadeva cho? ahIM kema AvyA cho?' nAgilAne maLavA...." "nAgilAne maLavA? zA mATe tamAre nAgilAne maLavuM che? e nAgilA huM pote ja chuM.' tuM? tuM pote nAgilo che? nA, nA, tuM asatya bole che." bhavadeva muni vihvaLa banI gayA. ciMtA, Azcarya, saMzayanI mizra lAgaNIo emanA mukha para patharAI gaI. nAgilAe potAnI sAthe AvelI AdheDa uMmaranI strInA kAnamAM kAMIka kahyuM. pelI strI tyAMthI cAlI gaI. pachI teNe bhavadeva munine kahyuM : "cAlo, ApaNe maMdiranI aMdara besIne vAto karIe.' bhavadeva muni zUnyamanaska jevA thaI gayA. teo nAgilAnI pAchaLa maMdiramAM gayA. nAgilAe kahyuM tyAM besI gayA, nAgilA vinayapUrvaka muninI sAme besI gaI. bhavadeva muni nAgilAne jotA ja rahyA, animeSa nayane! nAgilAnA mukha para smita AvI gayuM. te bolI : 'tame pahelAM joyelI nAgilAne zodho cho ne? paraMtu e nAgilA tamane have nahIM maLe... have to je tamArI sAme beThI che e nAgilA che.' bhavadeva muni be kSaNa AMkho baMdha karI, lagna samayanI nAgilAnI kalpanAmAM DUbI gayo. nAgilAe kahyuM : "mahAtmana, tame sAdhu thaI gayA. cAlyA gayA mane choDIne, te pachI traNa varSa to ghora vyathAmAM gayAM. tamArA virahanI pIDA asahya hatI. paraMtu tamArAM mAtA-pitAnA svargavAsa pachI huM svastha banI gaI. meM tapazcaryA karavA mAMDI. meM manomana saMkalpa karyo ke tame Avazo tyAre huM paNa saMsArano tyAga karI sAdhvI banI jaIza." "sAdhvI banavAmAM zuM bAkI rahyuM che? nathI rahyuM rUpa, nathI rahyuM yauvana... nathI karyA zaNagAra... mArI badhI AzAo para pANI pharI vaLyAM." kevI AzAo laIne AvyA cho munirAja?" mArI kalpanAnI nAgilA sAthe saMsArasukha mANavAnI ane jIvanaparyata ene sukha ApavAnI.' saMsAra ane sukha? A saMsAramAM kyAM sukha che? mahAtmanuM, saMsAra duHkharUpa For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta che. tamane tamArI kalpanAnI nAgilAnI kamanIya kAyAnA upabhogamAM sukha bhAse che, te narI bhramaNA che. mAMsa, rUdhira ane hADakAMmAMthI banelI kAyAmAM sukha Ape evuM zuM che? mAtra rUpALI cAmaDI! have to cAmaDInA rUpa paNa nathI rahyAM...' tuM kyAMthI jANe mArA mananI vyathA? bAra-bAra varSathI tArI smRtimAM jharato rahyo chuM. bahArathI tyAgI rahyo, bhItarathI bhogI rahyo. moTAbhAI bhavadatta munirAjano svargavAsa thayo, ane huM ahIM Avyo." 'bhale AvyA, ApanAM darzana karI huM dhanya banI gaI. have mArI eka ja vinaMtI che ke Apa lIdhelAM mahAvratonuM mana-vacana-kAyAthI pAlana karo. huM paNa sAdhvIjI pAse jaIne cAritradharma svIkArI laIza." bhavadeva muni gaMbhIra vicAramAM paDI gayA. emanA mukha upara glAni. udAsI... udvignatA patharAI gaI. bAra-bAra varSathI je nAgilAne hRdayamAM saMgharI rAkhI hatI.. te nAgilAnA hRdayamAM to vairAgyano dIvo saLagI gayo hato! te nAgilAnuM rUpa ja badalAI gayeluM hatuM. temanI kalpanAono mahela kaDaDabhUsa thaI gayo. temanAM sukhanAM sajAvelAM svapno badhAM ja dhULamAM ragadoLAI gayAM. temanI AMkho bhInI thaI gaI. udAsa na bano mahAtma! tamane mArA para prema che ne? e prema mArA zarIra para nahIM, mArA AtmA para karo. mArA vizuddha AtmA para! zarIranI azucitAnuM ciMtana karI, zarIrano rAga dUra karo. vaiSayika sukhonA kaTu vipAkonuM ciMtana karI, uddipta vAsanAne zAnta karo. tame to bAra varSamAM ghaNuM jJAna meLavyuM che. e jJAnathI tamArA mananuM samAdhAna karo." paraMtu meM tane duHkhI karI." e badhuM bhUlI jAo. anicchAe paNa tamane samyagdarzana, jJAna ane cAritranI prApti thaI gaI che! te traNa aNamola ratna che. anaMta puNyanA udayathI ja A ratna prApta thAya che. te khoI nAMkhavAnI bhUla nathI karavAnI." tArI vAta sAcI che, paraMtu..." mArA uparano moha dUra thato nathI ne?' hA... teM mArA mananI vAta kahI dIdhI...." For Private And Personal Use Only

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ghaTanAcana 45 'paraMtu zuM haju A rUpavihIna, yovanavihIna zarIra para Apane moha che? ane have e rUpa, e yauvana A jIvanamAM pharI AvavAnuM nathI! eTaluM ja nahIM, mArA sivAya bIjI koI rUpavatI navauvanA strIno vicAra paNa ApanA manamAM Avyo nahIM hoya... to pachI ' 'ekadama sAcI vAta che tArI. tArA sivAya bIjI koI ja strI tarapha rAga thayo nathI ke thavAno nathI...' 'e ApanI uttamatA che munirAja! have Apa mane bhUlI jAo... mArA zarIrane bhUlI jAo... tapa-tyAga ane jJAna-dhyAnanA pavitra mArge daDhatApUrvaka AgaLa vadho. 'zuM tuM e ja icche che? 'hA jI, mArI A ja icchA che. mAtra ApanA mATe ja nahIM, mArA mATe paNa meM e ja mArga pasaMda karyo che.' bhavadeva muni nAgilAnA tejasvI mukhane joI rahyA. tenA mukha para makkamatA hatI, tenI AMkhomAM avikAritA hatI. tenA zabdomAM jAdu hato. bhavadeva muninuM mana svastha banatuM jatuM hatuM. nAgilAnA lAgaNIbharyA zabdo bhavadevanA aMtaHkaraNane sparzatA hatA. jenA pratye sAco prema che, enI vAta manuSyane sparzatI ja hoya che, bhale e vAta anukULa hoya ke pratikULa hoya. bhavadeva munie AtmasAkSIe nirNaya karIne kahyuM : 'nAgilA, tuM suzIlA mahAsatI to che ja, paraMtu ethIya paNa vizeSa che mArA mATe. teM mArA 52 mahAna upakAra karyo che... mane sanmArgamAM sthira karIne...... 'evuM na bolo munirAja! Apa mahAna cho. huM to ApanAM caraNonI raja chuM. Apa saMyamadharmamAM sthira banI gayA, tethI huM dhanya banI gaI, kRtArtha banI 21...' 'huM Aje ja ahIMthI pAcho sthavira munivaro pAse javA nIkaLIza. paraMtu ahIM Avyo chuM to... snehIjanone maLI lauM... ghaNAM varSe teo mane joIne AnaMdita thaze...' nA re nA, koNa che evAM snehIjano ahIM? snehIjana to teo kahevAya For Private And Personal Use Only

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Ga eka rAta aneka vAta ke jeo Atmahitano vicAra kare. koNa che evAM snehIjano? koIneya maLavAnI jarUra nathI. Apa to ahIMthI ja sIdhA kAkaMdI tarapha prayANa karo. gurujano pAse pahoMcI jAo... cAritradharmanuM vizuddha pAlana karo ane AtmAnaMdanA mahodadhimAM lIna bano.' 'tuM have zuM karIza?' huM paNa eka-be divasamAM gharanAM kAma sameTIne sAdhvIjI pAse jaIne cAritradharma aMgIkAra karIza. have mAre konA mATe rahevuM che gharamAM? basa, ApanI rAha jotI hatI,.. ApanAM darzana thaI gayAM... have ApanI pAchaLa ja ApanA ja mArge cAlI AvuM chuM... bhavadeva muni gAmanI bahAra AvelA jinamaMdiramAM gayA. paramAtmAnI stavanA karI ane kAkaMdI tarapha prayANa karyuM. sthavira munivaro pAse jaI, hRdaya kholIne potAnI mAnasika moha-vikalatA kahI dIdhI. sthavira munivaroe je prAyazcitta ApyuM teno svIkAra karyo. varSo sudhI zreSTha sAdhujIvana jIvyA. eka divasa temanuM AyuSya pUrNa thayuM. teo pahelA devalokamAM deva thayA. indra jevA tejasvI, indra jevA vaibhavazALI! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra zarIra nAzavaMta che, AtmA zAzvata che. AtmAnuM astitva kyAreya lopAtuM nathI. jUnAM zarIra chUTatAM jAya che, AtmA navAM zarIra dhAraNa karato jAya che. duniyAmAM jAtajAtanAM ne bhAtabhAtanAM asaMkhya prakAranAM zarIra che. dareka AtmAe e badhAM zarIra, ekavAra nahIM, anaMtavAra dhAraNa karyA che. dareka AtmA potapotAnAM karmonA anusAre zarIra dhAraNa kare che. - www.kobatirth.org bhavadatta munino svargavAsa thayo, teo devalokamAM deva thayA. temaNe vaikriya pudgalonuM divya zarIra dhAraNa karyuM. . 7. sAgaradatta eka manuSya tapa-tyAga ane vrata-saMyamanI ArAdhanA karIne deva banI zake che. eka manuSya hiMsA, asatya, corI vagere asaMkhya pApo karIne nArakImAM pazu-pakSInI yonimAM jaI zake che. - - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir eka sAmAnya yuvAna, sAdhu zramaNa banI gayo! zramaNa marIne deva banI gayo! - deva enuM AyuSya pUrNa thatAM punaH manuSya bane che! e paNa sAmAnya manuSya nahIM, rAjakumAra bane che! e paNa, A bharatakSetramAM nahIM, paraMtu 'mahAvideha' kSetramAM! - mahAvideha kSetra! A sRSTi ghaNI vizALa che. Aje duniyAnA nakazA upara je jovA maLatI nathI... evI vizALa sRSTi, sarvajJa mahApuruSoe zAstromAM batAvI che. evo eka vizALa-virATa pradeza che... ApaNA mATe agama-agocara! tenuM nAma 'mahAvideha.' - tyAM manuSyo che, pazuo ane pakSIo paNa che. paraMtu ApaNA karatAM ghaNAM moTAM... UMcAM ane virATa, temanI sAme ApaNe nAnakaDA kIDA jevA lAgIe! * tyAM hamezAM tIrthaMkaro hoya ja. kyAreka thoDA to kyAreka vadhAre, tyAMthI jIvAtmAo karmakSaya karIne mokSamAM paNa jaI zake ane karmo bAMdhIne For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta sAtamI narakamAM paNa jaI zake! - koI divyazaktino sahAro maLI jAya to ApaNe tyAM jaI zakIe! - bhavadattano AtmA mahAvidehanA "puSkaLAvatI' nAmanA khaMDamAM, puMDarikiNI nAmanI nagarImAM janma pAme che. -- te khaMDana cakravartI rAjA hato vajadatta. tenI rANInuM nAma hatuM yazodharA. - yazodharA eka zubha rAtrImAM garbhavatI banI. rAjaparivAromAM eka jIvanapaddhati hatI ke garbhavatI rANInI dareka icchA rAjA pUrNa karato rahe. icchA pUrNa thavAthI rANI praphullita rahe. tethI enA garbhastha zizune sukhano anubhava thAya. rANI yazodharAne sAgaramAM snAna karavAnI icchA thaI. teNe rAjAne potAnI icchA jaNAvI. nagarathI thoDe dUra sAgara jevI vizALa ane sAgara jevI gaMbhIra "sItA" nAmanI nadI vahetI hatI. rAjAe rANIne e nadImAM snAna karAvavAno nirNaya karyo. rANIne rathamAM besADIne sItA nadInA tIre lAvavAmAM AvI. rAjAe kahyuM : devI, A kevo vizALa sAgara che!' "hA, nAtha, huM AmAM snAna karIza!' rANI sAthe rAjAe e nadImAM snAna karyuM. yatheccha kriIDA karI. rANI harSavibhora banI gaI. rAjAe rANIne kahyuM : "devI, ApaNe ApaNA putranuM nAma "sAgara" pADIzuM!" prANanAtha, mane A nAma gamyuM!" ApaNo putra sAgara jevo gaMbhIra haze! sAgaranA peTALamAM jema ratno hoya che tema ApaNA putramAM guNonA ratno haze!" rANInI AMkhomAM harSanAM AMsu AvI gayAM. rAjA-rANI rathamAM besIne rAjamahelamAM AvI gayAM. yogya samaye koI ja pIDA vinA sahajatAthI rANIe putrane janma Apyo. rAjA ane prajAe putrajanmano bhavya mahotsava Ujavyo. kArAvAso kholI nAkhavAmAM AvyA. garIbone bharapUra dAna ApavAmAM AvyuM. samagra "puSkaLAvatI' khaMDa AnaMdathI jhUmI UThaDyo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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sAgaradatta rAjakumAranuM nAma "sAgaradatta' rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. sAgaradatta rUpa-rUpano aMbAra hato. saubhAgyano bhaMDAra hato. sahune te gamI gayo... tenuM zarIra sauSThavayukta ane lakSaNayukta hatuM. sAva nIrogI zarIra! pUrvajanmamAM bhavadatta muninA janmamAM) ahiMsA dharmanuM vizuddha pAlana karyuM hatuM. tenA phaLarUpe A janmamAM be vAto janmathI maLI-Arogya ane saubhAgya! pUrvajanmamAM samagra jIvasRSTi pratye maitrIbhAva rAkhyo hato, enA pariNAmarUpe A janmamAM apUrva lokapriyatA maLI. pUrvajanmamAM koI jIvane duHkha ApyuM na hatuM, koInuM sukha jhUMTavyuM na hatuM, enA phaLarUpe A janmamAM duHkha vinAnuM apUrva sukha maLyuM... zreSTha koTinA rAjavaibhava maLyA. kAraNa vinA koI kArya karatuM nathI. koI kAraNa vartamAna jIvanamAM maLI Ave to koI kAraNa pUrvajanmamAM maLI Ave. sAgaradatta jema jema moTo thato jAya che tema tema tenI buddhi, tenuM jJAna, tenI kaLAo vikasatI jAya che. zreSTha kalAguruo, pavitra vidyAguruo pAse tenuM vidyAdhyayana cAle che. tenA vinaya-viveka-namratA-parAkrama-paropakAra Adi aneka guNone joIne rAjA-rANI prasanna banI jAya che. bAlyakALa vItI jAya che. kizorAvasthA paNa vItI jAya che! sAgaradatta yauvanakALamAM praveze che. mahAvideha kSetramAM jema hamezAM tIrthakaro hoya tema hamezAM rAjAo hoya. kAraNa ke tIrthaMkaro hamezAM rAjakuLamAM ja janme! rAjaparivAromAM, rAjakumArI potAnA varanI pasaMdagI svayaM kare. te mATe rAjA "svayaMvara'nuM Ayojana kare. dUranA ane najIkanA rAjAone, rAjakumArone svayaMvaramAM padhAravA nimaMtraNa apAya. temano Adara-satkAra thAya... temano paricaya rAjakumArIne ApavAmAM Ave. je rAjA ke rAjakumAra pasaMda paDe tenA gaLAmAM rAja kumArI varamALA Aropita kare. rAjA vajadattanI rAjasabhAmA AvAM svayaMvaronAM nimaMtraNa AvatAM rahe che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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50. eka rAta aneka vAta rAjA sAgaradattane svayaMvaramAM mokale che... je je svayaMvaramAM sAgaradatta jAya che tyAM rAja kumArIo sAgaradattanA gaLAmAM ja varamALA paherAve che! ane A rIte sAgaradattane aneka rUpavatI-guNavatI rANIonI prApti thaI. vizALa sAmrAjyanI samagra javAbadArIo rAjA vajadara saMbhALatA hatA, eTale sAgaradatta mukta manathI patnIo sAthe divasa-rAta sukhamagna rahe che, pAMceya indriyonAM zreSTha viSayasukho bhogave che. pUrvajanmamAM sahu jIvo mATe hitakAmanA karelI hatI, enA phaLarUpe A janmamAM badhAM svajano enA tana-manane sukha ApanArAM maLyAM! koI patnI sAgaradattanA manane paNa dubhavatI nathI. badhI ja patnIo tene sukhanA AnaMdanA sAgaramAM DUbakIo khavaDAve che. e ja rIte kumAra paNa sarve patnIone saMtuSTa rAkhe che, AnaMdita rAkhe che. sukhamAM samaya tIvra gatithI vahe che. divaso, mahinAo ne varSo vItI jAya che, ane A to mahAvideha kSetra! tyAMnAM strI-puruSonuM AyuSya paNa karoDo varSonuM! yuvAnIno kALa ghaNo moTo hoya. sAgaradattanA sukhabharapUra jIvanane joIne rAjA-rANI paNa saMtuSTa rahe che. potAne kRtArtha samaje che. putranuM sukha, teo potAnuM sukha mAne che. paraMtu A saMsAra che! pUrNA jJAnI puruSoe saMsArane duHkharUpa joyo che ne jANyo che. saMsAranAM sukhone kSaNika ane vinAzI joyAM che ne jANyAM che. sAgaradatta patnIonI sAthe mahelanA jharUkhAmAM beTho che. sAme vizALa AkAza patharAyeluM che. pazcima dizAnI kSitija para sUrya pahoMcI gayo che. kSitije lAla cUMdaDI oDhI lIdhI che... ne sUrya DUbI jAya che. kumAra animeSa dRSTithI kSitija tarapha joI rahyo che. saMdhyAnA raMgoe abhuta AkRtio sarjavA mAMDI che. eka vAdaLa AvI caDhe che... saMdhyA tene sonerI raMgothI raMgI de che... vAdaLa merU parvatanuM rUpa laI le che. kumAranI AMkho nAcI UThe che... mana DolI UThe che. tenA mukhamAMthI "adbhuta...adbhuta!' zabdo sarI paDe che. patnI paNa AnaMdathI jhUmI UThe che. paraMtu... thoDI kSaNo vItI na vItI... pavanano tIvra susavATo Avyo ne vAdaLa vikharAI gayuM.. merU kaNa kaNa banIne verAI gayo... kSitija para aMdhAruM UtarI AvyuM... For Private And Personal Use Only

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pa1 sAga2dA kumAranuM mana khinna thaI gayuM.... aMtaHkaraNa valovAI gayuM.... tenI AMkho to anaMta AkAza tarapha ja che... paraMtu tenuM mana bhItaramAM UtarI gayuM. vikharAtA vAdaLe kumAranA manane dhakko mArI bhItaramAM utArI dIdhuM. ciMtanamagna kumArane koI vikSepa na paDe. eTalA mATe patnI dhIre dhIre mahelanA aMdaranA khaMDamAM cAlI gaI. jharUkhAmAM rahyo mAtra ekalo kumAra sAgara sAgara ghUghavavA lAgyuM. sAgara UchaLavA lAgyo. e ghughavATa vicArono hato. e uchALa vicArono hato. jema saMdhyAnA raMgo ane vAdaLanI Akatio kSaNika che, tema A jIvana.. A yauvana... A vaiSayika sukho... zuM kSaNika nathI? mahAkALano pracaMDa susavATo vAtAM ja A badhuM, hatuM na hatuM nahIM thaI jAya?" pUrvajanmamAM vAvelAM vicAra-bIja naSTa nathI thatAM... te AtmAnI bhUmimAM rahe che... nimitta maLatAM e bIja aMkurita thAya che. bhavadatta muninA bhavamAM bhAvelI satata vairAgya bhAvanAnAM bIja, sAgaranA bhavamAM akabaMdha paDelAM che! vikharAtA vAdaLanA nimitte e bIjamAM visphoTa karyo.... ne aMkura pedA thayA. rAganI mATIne bhedIne aMkura dekhA de che. bIja bhale mATImAM daTAyeluM rahe, aMkura mATImAM dabAyelo na rahe. A rAjya... A vaibhava. A priya svajanono saMyoga, badhuM ja kSaNika che; nAzavaMta che, anitya che. huM kSaNika para rAgI banyo chuM... zAzvatanI bhramaNAmAM aTavAIne... nA, nA, A badhuM je mane dekhAya che te kSaNika che. sAruM thayuM, Aje mArI bhramaNA bhAMgI gaI. kSaNika kSaNika samajAI gayuM.... nahIMtara jyAre ra badhuM nAza pAmI jAta tyAre huM duHkhI duHkhI thaI jAta! mAro rAga, mAro moha mane duHkhI karI deta...' vairAgyano aMkura vikasato jAya che, puSTa thato jAya che. priyajanono saMyoga viyogamAM pariName che. saMyogamAM meM sukha mAnyuM... viyoga thatAM huM duHkhI thaI jAta.. nA, nA, huM have svecchAthI viyoga svIkArI For Private And Personal Use Only

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para. eka rAta aneka vAta laIza. kSaNika upara rAga zA mATe karavAno? rAga karIza have zAzvata upara, avinAzI upara... zAzvanuM che AtmA, avinAzI che AtmA. huM mArA vizuddha AtmAno anurAgI banIza. AtmAno viyoga kyAreya thato nathI! AtmA para lAgelAM karmonAM baMdhano toDavAno puruSArtha karIza... e puruSArtha che samyagdarzana- jJAna ane cAritrano!" meM tIrthakara bhagavaMtanI dharmadezanAmAM A ja vAta sAMbhaLI hatI. huM mAtA-pitAnI anumati laIne, saMsAravAsano tyAga karIza... have huM gRhavAsamAM nahIM rahI zakuM." jharUkhAmAMthI UThIne te mahelanI aMdara Avyo. zayanakhaMDamAM jaIne teNe rAta pasAra karI. te rAtabhara AMkho baMdha rAkhIne jAgato rahyo. prabhAta thayuM. nityakramathI paravArIne te mAtA-pitA pAse gayo. mAtA-pitAnA caraNomAM vaMdana karIne teNe kahyuM : "he tAta, he mAtA, tame mane saMsAranAM apAra sukha ApyAM ne meM bhogavyAM.. paraMtu gaI kAlanI saMdhyAe mArI bhramaNAne bhedI nAMkhI che. A badhAM ja sukho mane kSaNika samajAyAM che... vaiSayika sukho uparano mAro rAga naSTa thayo che.. huM virakta banyo chuM. Apa mane anumati Apo... to huM zramaNa banI mArA AtmAne zuddha, buddha ane mukta karavA puruSArtha karuM..." rAjA-rANI avAku banI gayAM. temanA prANa gUMgaLAvA lAgyA. temanI AMkho AMsubhInI thaI gaI. mAtAe putrane potAnA bAhupAzamAM jakaDI lIdho. nA beTA, ame tane zramaNa banavAnI anumati kevI rIte ApIe? tuM amArA jIvanano AdhAra che. tArA upara amAro kevo prabaLa moha che? eka kSaNa paNa tane amArI AMkhothI dUra.' rANI dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDI. mohanAM baMdhana kAramAM hoya che! rAganAM doraDAM loDhAnAM hoya che! vAta kumAranI patnIo pAse paNa pahoMcI gaI. rudana.. kalpAMta.. vyathA ane vedanAthI sahu strIo behoza jevI thaI gaI... paraMtu dhIme dhIme svastha banIne temaNe kumArane kahyuM : For Private And Personal Use Only

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: 57 sAgaradatta 'he prANezvara, ApanI koI icchAthI ame viparIta AcaraNa karyuM nathI. je ApanI icchA te amArI icchA. ApanA sukhanA mArgamAM ame vighna nahIM banIe.' Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir kumAre kahyuM : 'A ja tamAro sAco prema che. tame paNa saMsAranAM sukhone kSaNika samajo... mAno... ane enA pratye virakta bano.' he nAtha, ame paNa ApanA ja mArge cAlIzuM!' rAjA-rANIe jyAre A vAta jANI, temaNe paNa putranI icchAne pUrNa karavA anumati ApI. nagaranI bahAranA udyAnamAM viziSTa jJAnI 'amRta-sAgara' nAmanA munirAja padhArela che. rAjakumAra sAgaradatta temanI pAse jAya che. 'mane cAritra ApI bhavasAgarathI mAro uddhAra karo,' evI vinaMtI kare che. sAgaradatta zramaNa banI jAya che. gurucaraNe samarpita banI jAya che. AtmabhAvonI nirmaLatA dina-pratidina vadhatI jAya che. enA pariNAme eka divasa e mahAmunine 'avadhijJAna' prApta thAya che. vicaratA vicaratA teo 'vItazokA' nagarImAM pahoMce che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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| 8.zivakumAra bhavadevanA AtmAe "saudharma devaloka'mAM asaMkhya varSaparyaMta vaiSayika sukho bhogavyAM devalokanuM tenuM AyuSya pUrNa thayuM. teno janma paNa mahAvideha kSetramAM, puSkaLAvatI-khaMDamAM thayo. puSkaLAvatI khaMDamAM "vItazokA" nAmanI nagarI hatI. te nagarIno rAjA hato pamaratha ane rANI hatI vanamAlA. vanamAlA garbhavatI banI. garbhavatI banyA pachI vanamAlAnA vicAromAM parivartana AvyuM. tene paramAtmabhaktinI icchA jAge che. sAdhupuruSone dAna ApavAnuM mana thAya che. pahADonI guphAomAM jaI mauna dhAraNa karI dhyAnastha banavAnI bhAvanA pragaTe che. kyAreka vairAgyabhAva ullasita bane che. rAjA padmaratha rANInI dareka icchA pUrNa kare che. rANI prasannacitte garbhanuM pAlana kare che. samaya pUrNa thatAM e eka suMdara putrane janma Ape che. candra jevo saumya ane caMdana jevo zItaLa! rAjA rANI enuM mukhaDuM jotAM dharAtAM nathI. kumAranuM nAma "zivakumAra' rAkhavAmAM AvyuM, kAraNa ke teno janma thatAM dezamAMthI aziva-upadravo dUra thayA hatA. zreSTha puNyakarma laIne janmelA zivakumAranuM suMdara lAlana-pAlana thavA lAgyuM. zastrakalA, zAstrakalA vagerenuM uttama koTinuM prazikSaNa maLavA lAgyuM. sahajatAthI bAlyakALa vItI gayo. sahajatAthI taruNa avasthA vItI gaI. zivakumAre yauvanakALamAM padArpaNa karyuM. yauvanano kALa eTale vaiSayika sukhabhogano kALa! temAMya A to rAjakuLanuM yauvana hatuM. zivakumAranAM lagna puSkaLAvatI khaMDanI zreSTha rUpasuMdarI rAjakumArI kozalA sAthe thayAM. bharapUra sukhabhogomAM kumArano samaya vIte jAya che. koI duHkha nathI, koI azAnti nathI, koI kleza ke saMtApa nathI. AnaMda che, ullAsa che, prasannatA che. 0 0 0 For Private And Personal Use Only

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zivakumAra - papa rAjamahelanI sAme nagarazreSThI "kAmasamRddhanI bhavya havelI hatI. rAjamahelanI agAsImAMthI havelIno madhyabhAga joI zakAto hato. madhyabhAgamAM rasoIghara hatuM. zivakumAra mahelanI agAsInA agrabhAgamAM rahelA jharUkhAmAM Ubho hato. nagaranA rAjamArgo para cAlI rahelI cahalapahalane joI rahyo hato. teNe eka kRzakAya tapasvI munirAjane nagarazreSThInI havelImAM bhikSA mATe pravezatA joyA. kumAra munirAjanAM prathama darzane ja prabhAvita thaI gayo. munirAja havelInA madhyabhAgamAM jaIne UbhA zreSThI ane zreSThInA parivAre bhAvapUrvaka munirAja nuM svAgata karyuM, vaMdanA karI ane apUrva harSathI bhikSA ApI. e ja vakhate AkAzamAMthI havelInA madhyabhAgamAM sonAmahoronI vRSTi thaI. sonAmahorono Dhagalo thaI gayo. - zivakumAra animeSa nayane A badhuM joI rahyo che. tenuM haiyuM gadgad thaI gayuM. te tarata ja mahelamAMthI nIce UtarI Avyo ane sIdho ja zreSThInI havelImAM pahoMcyo. teNe munirAjane bhAvapUrvaka vaMdanA karI. munirAje kumArane joyo. temanA zarIre romAMca thayo. kumAranAM hRdayamAM munirAja tarapha apUrva snehabhAva ullasita thayo. kumAre pUchyuM : "he mahAtmanuM, Ape kayA sthAnane pAvana karyuM che?' kumAra, ame nagaranI bahAra udyAnamAM sthiratA karelI che." kumAra rAjamahelamAM Avyo. teNe mAtA-pitA ane patnIne kahyuM : "ApaNe nagaranA bAhya udyAnamAM birAjelA tapasvI munirAjanAM darzana karavA ane dharmopadeza zravaNa karavA javAnuM che." ratha taiyAra thayA. kumAra parivAra sahita rathamAM besIne udyAnamAM pahoMcyo. munirAje mahinAnA upavAsanuM pAraNuM karI lIdhuM hatuM. teo svastha hatA. rAjaparivAre bhAvapUrvaka munirAjane vaMdanA karI ane vivekapUrvaka sahu munirAjanI sAme besI gayAM. munirAje "dharmalAbhano madhura AzIrvAda ApIne dharmopadeza zarU karyo. temaNe manuSya jIvananI durlabhatA batAvI. AtmAnuM zuddha-azuddha svarUpa samajAvyuM. saMsAranAM vaiSayika sukhonI niHsAratA batAvI, saMyamadharmanI upAdeyatA samajAvI. zivakumArane to munirAja ja gamI gayA hatA! emano upadeza enA hRdayamAM UtarI gayo. upadeza pUrNa thayA pachI kumAre vinayapUrvaka pUchyuM : For Private And Personal Use Only

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56 eka rAta aneka vAta "he mahAtmanuM, Apane jotAM ja ApanA pratye mArA hRdayamAM apUrva harSa kema thayo? ApanAM darzana karatAM mArI AMkho dharAtI kema nathI? prabho! zuM ApaNo koI pUrvajanmano sneha-saMbaMdha che?" A munirAja hatA sAgaradatta! teo avadhijJAnI hatA. avadhijJAnanA prakAzamAM teo temanA ane zivakumAranA pUrvajanmane pratyakSa jotA hatA. temanA mukha upara madhura smita AvI gayuM. temaNe kahyuM : kumAra, ApaNo pUrvajanmano gADha snehasaMbaMdha che! ApaNe bharatakSetramAM be bhAI hatA. tAro mArA pratye avihaDa prema hato. mane tArA pratye vAtsalyabhAva hato. meM saMsAra tyajIne saMyamadharma svIkAryo hato. te pachI je divase tArAM lagna thayAM hatAM, e ja divase huM bhikSAnA bahAne ghare AvIne tane mArI sAthe mArA gurudeva pAse laI gayo hato ane kapaTa karIne tane sAdhu banAvI dIdho hato! alabatta, mArA pratyenA tIvra premathI ja tuM sAdhu banI gayo hato. teM bAra varSa sudhI bhAva vinA, mana vinA sAdhujIvana jIvyuM hatuM. mArA svargavAsa pachI tane tArI paraNetara strI nAgilAe saMyamadharmamAM sthira karyo hato. pachI to teM utkRSTa koTinuM saMyama pALyuM hatuM. enA pariNAme tuM paNa marIne, huM je pahelA devalokamAM deva thayo hato, tyAM deva thayo! mAruM devalokanuM AyuSya pUrNa thayuM. mAro janma A ja khaMDamAM puMDarIkiNI nagarImAM thayo ane tAro janma paNa A ja khaMDamAM vItazokA nagarImAM thayo! huM saMsAranAM sukho pratye virakta banIne zramaNa banI gayo ne tuM haju saMsAranAM sukhomAM magna che!" "he bhagavaMta, Ape ApaNA pUrvajanma kevI rIte jANyA?' "avadhijJAnathI kumAra!' he prabho, Ape kahyuM ke mane kapaTathI Ape sAdhu banAvyo hato to pachI ApanA pratye mAro sneha tUTI gayo haze ne?' nA, tAro snehabhAva akhaMDa rahyo hato; avicchinna rahyo hato. ema vicArIne tArA mananuM samAdhAna kareluM ke "moTAbhAIe mArA hita mATe ja mane sAdhu banAvyo che. huM sAdhujIvana jIvavA azakta chuM. mAruM mana mArI patnImAM rame che." tArA manamAM mArA pratye jarAya aNagamo jAgyo na hato. A ja tArI mULabhUta yogyatA hatI. alabatta, mArA manamAM tArI udAsInatA joIne duHkha thatuM hatuM. "meM khoTuM kAma karyuM che- ' evA vicAro paNa mane AvI gayA hatA.' For Private And Personal Use Only

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- pa7 zivakumAra evA vicAro kema AvelA? Ape to mArA kalyANa mATe mane sAdhu banAvelo ne?' nA, tArA kalyANanI bhAvanAthI nahIM, paraMtu mArA mukhamAMthI nIkaLelA vacanane siddha karavA meM tane kapaTathI sAdhu banAvelo ke jyAre tArAM lagna thaI gayelAM. tArA manamAM saMsArasukha bhogavavAnI prabaLa icchAo hatI. eTale mane kyAreka pastAvo thato hato.' paraMtu he bhagavaMta, have A bhavamAM to huM pUrNa icchAthI saMsArano tyAga karI, ApanAM caraNomAM saMyama dharma aMgIkAra karIza. have huM ApanI pAse ja rahIza." sAgaradatta munirAje zivakumAranA bhaviSyane potAnA avadhijJAnanA prakAzamAM joyuM. teo mauna rahyA. zivakumAre kahyuM : "he kRpAvaMta, Apa mane ApanA caraNomAM rAkhazo ne?' "vatsa, amArI pAse AvavA mATe, jIvana samarpita karavA mATe mAtApitAnI anumati levI paDe!" "mArAM mAtA-pitA bahu sArAM che. mArI dareka icchAne pUrNa kare che. teo mane anumati Apaze ja." kumAra, saMsAranAM sukhonI icchA pUrNa karavI eka vAta che, ane sAdhu banavAnI icchA pUrNa karavI bIjI vAta che. mAtA-pitAnA saMtAno upara jo tIvra rAga hoya che to teo anumati nathI ApatAM!" jo ke mArAM mAtA-pitAnuM mArA upara gADha mamatva che. kadAca teo mAro viraha na rahI zake.. ne tethI anumati na Ape. te sAcI vAta che, paraMtu mane have mAtA-pitA pratye nathI rAga rahyo ke nathI mamatva rahyuM... bhale teo anumati na Ape.... huM to ApanI pAse AvI jaIza.' 'na AvI zakAya kumAra! tuM rAja kumAra che ne? tIrthakaronI AjJA che ke rAjakumArone mAtA-pitAnI anumati vinA dIkSA na ApI zakAya." e AjJAnuM rahasya zuM che bhagavaMta rAjA sAdhuone dveSI banI jAya. te potAnA rAjyamAMthI sAdhuone bahAra kADhI mUke athavA sAdhuone mArI naMkhAve. sAdhu dharmanuM pAlana karavuM duSkara banI jAya. eka vyaktinA kAraNe samagra zramaNasaMghane kaSTa sahana karavAM paDe." For Private And Personal Use Only

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58. eka rAta aneka vAta taddana sAcI vAta che bhagavaMta, paraMtu Apa ahIM ja rahejo. huM mArAM mAtApitAne samajAvavA prayatna karIza. teo zuM kahe che te Apane nivedana karIza." kumAre punaH munirAjane vaMdanA karI ane rathamAM besIne te nagaramAM gayo. 0 0 0. zivakumAranI samagra vicAradhArAno pravAha badalAI gayo. tenuM mana sAgaradatta munirAjanI AsapAsa pharavA lAgyuM. rathamAM pAse beThelI yuvarAjJI kozalAnI sAthe eka zabda paNa na bolyo. are, enI sAme paNa na joyuM. kozalAnuM haiyuM phaphaDI UThyuM. "Apane zuM thaI gayuM acAnaka?" eTaluM paNa pUchavAnI tenI hiMmata na rahI. rAjamahelamAM AvyA pachI paNa kumArane teNe UMDA vicAromAM khovAyelo joyo. kozalA be ghaDI sudhI kumAra pAse maunapaNe besI rahI. kumAre jyAre tenI sAme joyuM, teNe pUchyuM : nAtha, Apa gahana vicAramAM DUbI gayA cho... meM kyAreya Apane AvI sthitimAM joyA nathI." devI, kharekhara huM gahana vicAromAM DUbI gayo chuM! munirAje kahelI amArA pUrvajanmanI vAto mArA hRdayane hacamacAvI rahI che.." kyAre e vAta kahI munirAje?' dharmopadeza sAMbhaLIne jyAre mAtA-pitA cAlyAM gayAM ane tuM udyAnamAM pharavA gaI hatI tyAre e badhI vAto thaI. munirAja avadhijJAnI che ane pUrvajanmanA mArA sagA moTAbhAI che! meM emane jyAre pahelavahelA joyA... mArA hRdayamAM snehanI saravANI phUTI nIkaLI hatI.. eka ajANyA puruSane jotAMnI sAthe sneha athavA dveSa jAge che. tenI pAchaLa pUrvajanmanA saMskAra kAraNabhUta hoya che." "to ApaNo paNa pUrvajanmano koI saMbaMdha haze? pahelI najare ja Apa mArA manamAM vasI gayA hatA ane Aje paNa mane ApanA upara eTalo ja prema che.' hoI zake pUrvajanmano koI saMbaMdha! kAraNa vinA koI kArya banatuM nathI." kozalA kumAranI sAme tAkI rahI. kumAre gaMbhIra avAje kahyuM : "kozalA, A munirAje pUrvajanmamAM mArA upara mahAna upakAra karelo... mane emaNe zramaNa banAvelo... e zramaNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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zivakumAra pa jIvananI sAdhanAnA phaLarUpe mane devalokamAM devanuM asaMkhya varSanuM jIvana maLyuM... e jIvana pUrNa thayuM ne ahIM A nagarImAM mAro janma thayo!' 'adbhuta kahevAya!' 'AvA jJAnIpuruSo ja AvI adbhuta vAto batAvI zake...' 'sAcI vAta che ApanI.... kumAra punaH ekadama UMDA vicAramAM UtarI gayo... e vicAra hato nAgilAno, 'mane saMyama mArgamAM sthira karanArI mArI patnI nAgilAnuM zuM thayuM haze? e marIne kaI gatimAM gaI haze? meM munirAjane enA viSayamAM to pUchyuM ja nahIM... are, huM paNa kevo... nahIMtara jyAre munirAje nAgilAnI vAta karI tyAre ja mAre pUchI levuM joItuM hatuM. A to avadhijJAnI munirAja che... mane jarU2 eno vRttAMta batAvI deta. jo eno mokSa nahIM thayo hoya to avazya e mArI AsapAsamAM ja hovI joIe... koI paNa rUpe, koI paNa avasthAmAM... jo moTAbhAI maLI gayA to e paNa maLI javI joIe.' kozalA tyAMthI Avazyaka kArya mATe cAlI gaI hatI. khaMDamAM ekalo kumAra hato. te Ubho thayo. jharUkhAmAM jaIne Ubho. te mahelanA udyAna taraphano jharUkho hato, pakSIonA madhura kalarava sivAya pUrNa zAnti hatI. 'have mAre mAtA-pitAnI anumati meLavavI joIe. zIghra saMyamadharma svIkArI, adhUruM raheluM AtmavizuddhinuM kArya pUrNa karavuM joIe. paraMtu atyaMta prema dharAvatAM mAtApitA mane sAdhu banavA deze kharAM? anumati Apaze kharAM? jo ke kozalAne to huM samajAvI daIza. Ameya e strI mArI icchAne anusaranArI che, bhale ene mArA upara pragADha prema hoya, chatAM e mArA mArgamAM vighna nahIM bane. paraMtu mArAM mAtA...pitA?' emanI anumati vinA huM sAdhu nahIM banI zakuM! A paNa kevuM baMdhana? kAraNa ke huM rAjakumAra chuM... hA, huM rAjakumAra na hota to A baMdhana na hota. mAtA-pitAne samajAvavA chatAM e na mAnata to paNa huM sAdhu banI zakata. khare, je bane te kharuM . huM have saMsAranAM sukho nahIM bhogavI zakuM. mArUM mana A badhAM sukho ta2pha virakta banI gayuM che. mA2I vikti joIne mAtApitA mane avazya anumati Apaze...' kumAra punaH sAgaradatta muninI smRtimAM sa2kI gayo. sAgaradatta munivaranI sAthenuM munivRMda enI kalpanAmAM AvI gayuM. temanA kriyAkalApo... je teNe For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta udyAnamAM joyA hatA, te kalpanAmAM AvyA. "kevuM niSpApa jIvana! kevuM jJAnadhyAnanuM jIvana! mane gamI gayuM e jIvana...' bhavadevanA bhavamAM sAdhujIvana jIveluM hatuM. tenA gADha saMskAro AtmAmAM paDelA ja hatA. A jIvanamAM nimitta maLatAM e saMskAro jAgI gayA. bhojanano samaya thaI gayo hato. kozalA AvIne kumAranI pAchaLa UbhI rahI gaI hatI. teNe dhIrethI kahyuM : nAtha, bhojanano samaya thaI gayo che. pitAjI ApanI rAha jue che.' kumAre kozalA sAme joyuM, ne te jhaDapathI bhojanagRha tarapha cAlyo. tenA manamAM vicAra AvI gayo "bhojana karyA pachI pitAjIne vAta karIza. mA paNa hAjara haze...' teNe rAjA parathanI sAthe besIne bhojana karI lIdhuM. rAjA pAratha bhojana karIne tarata ja tyAMthI cAlyA gayA. kumArano vicAra kumAranA manamAM ja rahI gayo. teNe sAMjanA bhojana pachI vAta karavAnuM vicAryuM. teNe kozalAne kahyuM : "huM udyAnamAM munirAja pAse jAuM chuM. ekAda prahara lAgI jaze.' te rathamAM besIne nagaranI bahAranA udyAnamAM pahoMcyo. munivaro AhAra karIne nivRtta thayA hatA. teNe sAgaradana munirAjane bhAvapUrvaka vaMdanA karI ane anumati laIne yogya jagAe besI gayo. gurudeva, ahIMthI ghare gayA pachI mArA manamAM eka prazna jAgyo. jo Apa anumati Apo to pUchuM." pUchI zake che vatsa!" gurudeva, mArA bhavadevanA bhavamAM, je mArI patnIe mane saMyamamArgamAM sthira karyo hato, e upakAriNI strInuM zuM thayuM ane atyAre te kyAM janmI che?" sAgaradatta munirAje AMkho baMdha karI jJAnano upayoga mUkyo... ane temaNe AMkho kholIne kumArane kahyuM : kumAra, tAruM sthirIkaraNa karyA pachI e satI strIe cAritradharma aMgIkAra karI suMdara ArAdhanA karI hatI. e ArAdhanAnA pratApe, samAdhi mRtyu pAmIne te paNa pahelA devalokamAM deva banI hatI. devalokanuM AyuSya pUrNa karIne e A ja vItazokA nagarImAM janma pAmI che! For Private And Personal Use Only

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zivakumAra AzcaryathI kumAra UchaLI paDyo. "prabho, A ja nagaramAM e mahAna AtmA che?' "hA, ane e tAro parama mitra che!" gurudeva, A nagaramAM kaho ke AkhI duniyAmAM kaho, mAro eka ja mitra che... ane te dharmeza che!" e dharmeza, ke jenuM mULa nAma "daDhadharmA' che, te ja nAgilAno AtmA che! tArA pratye ene aMtaraMga sneha che. ane A jIvanamAM paNa tane e ja mahAna AtmA preraka ane sahAyaka banaze!" zivakumAranI AMkho harSanAM AMsuthI bhInI thaI gaI. teNe AMkho baMdha karIne dharmezane yAda karyo. gurUdevane punaHvaMdanA karIne kumAra rathamAM besI tvarAthI mahelamAM Avyo. eka navuM rahasya pAmyAno apUrva AnaMda tenA hRdayamAM UchaLI rahyo hato. dharmezane maLavAnI utkaTa icchA enA manamAM jAgI gaI hatI. kAza... Aje paNa AvA avadhijJAnI, kevaLajJAnI mahApuruSo hota to...? For Private And Personal Use Only

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9. vairAgInI vedanA nagarazreSThI kAmasamRddhano ekano eka putra hato dRDhadharmo. rAjaparivAramAM sahu tene 'dharmeza' kahIne bolAvatA hatA. zivakumAra sAthe tenI aMtaraMga maitrI hatI. te rUpavAna hato, buddhimAna hato, priyabhASI hato ane sarvajanavallabha hato. rAjamahelanI sAme ja nagarazreSThInI havelI hatI. eTale banne mitronI eka-bIjAne tyAM rojanI avara-javara hatI. banne parivAramAM banne mitro priya hatA, rAjA padmarathane ane rANI yazodAne dharmeza upara putravat vAtsalya hatuM. tevI rIte nagarazreSThI kAmasamRddhane ane zeThANI vatsalAne zivakumAra upara bharapUra prema hato. banne mitro guNavAna hatA, zIlavAna hatA, bannenA jIvanapravAha gaMgAnA pravAha jevA nirmaLa hatA. banne vacce aMtara hatuM... eka vAtanuM! dharmeze gurudevo pAsethI arhat dharmanuM jJAna meLaveluM hatuM, zivakumAra pAse e jJAna na hatuM. dharmeza zrAvaka jIvananA kAryakalApone ane zramaNajIvananA AcAramArgane jANato hato, zivakumAra jANato nahoto. alabatta, kyAreka kyAreka dharmeza dharmacarcA karato, zivakumAra ekAgra citte sAMbhaLato. A rIte zivakumAre sAmAnya jJAna meLaveluM hatuM. sAgaradatta munirAja pAsethI teNe zramaNajIvanano AcAramArga jANyo hato, kAraNa ke e mArge ene javuM hatuM. kumAra udyAnamAMthI AvIne mahelamAM jaI, vastraparivartana karI sIdho dharmezanI havelImAM pahoMcI gayo. dharmeza gharamAM ja hato, banne mitro dharmezanA khaMDamAM jaIne beThA. 'ziva, tuM bAhya udyAnamAM gayo hato ne huM mahelamAM gayo hato!' 'kema?' 'tane maLavA! tuM na maLyo... to yazodA mAtA pAse beTho...' 'zuM vAto karI?' 'tArI vAto! tArA pUrvajanmanI vAto!' 'paNa meM to mAne vAta ja nathI karI...' For Private And Personal Use Only

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63 verAgInI vedanA teM nathI karI, yuvarAjJIe karI! ane yazodA mAtAnA peTamAM phALa paDI gaI che.." huM dIkSA laI laIza... e vAtanI phALa paDI che ne? cAlo, sAruM thayuM. vAta karavAnI pUrvabhUmikA banI gaI!' kaI vAtanI pUrvabhUmikA?' mAtA-pitAnI anumati vinA dIkSA na levAya ne? eTale anumati mAMgavI ja paDaze.' "tuM zuM vAta kare che? tuM dIkSA laIza?' "hA dharmeza, have huM A gRhavAsamAM nahIM rahI zake. duniyAnAM tamAma sukho pratye mAruM mana virakta banI gayuM che. have to mane sukha maLaze eka mAtra gurudeva sAgaradana munirAjanA caraNomAM pUrvajIvanamAM ArAdhelA sAdhudharmanA saMskAro mArA AtmAmAM jAgrata thaI gayA che.." dharmeza zivakumArane visphArita AMkhe joI rahyo. zivakumAranA mukhe pahelI ja vAra tyAga-vairAgyanI vAto Aje e sAMbhaLato hato. te UMDA vicAramAM DUbI gayo. kema, tane mArI vAta na gamI?" zivakumAre dharmezanA be hAtha potAnA hAthamAM letAM pUchayuM. zuM kahuM tane? mane tArI kaI vAta nathI gamI - te mane kahe.." tuM mauna thaI gayo eTale pUchyuM...' kumAra, zramaNajIvana uttama ja che, paraMtu e jIvana jIvavuM saraLa nathI. e jIvana kaThora hoya che." pUrvajanmamAM meM jIveluM che e jIvana!' paraMtu tyAre tuM rAjakumAra na hato... ATaluM suMvALuM... komaLa jIvana na hatuM tAruM.." tethI zuM pharaka paDe che? sAgaradatta munirAja paNa vartamAna bhavamAM rAja kumAra ja hatA ne? chatAM teo zramaNa banI gayA ne? kevuM ucca koTinuM zramaNajIvana jIve che? khera, e vAta ApaNe pachI karIe, tuM e kahe ke mAe zuM pratyAghAta ApyA? "mArI AgaLa vAta karatAM te raDI paDyAM ne bolyAM : "huM jIvuM chuM tyAM sudhI ziva dIkSA nahIM le. e mane choDIne nahIM jAya. huM ene nahIM javA dauM.' For Private And Personal Use Only

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74 eka rAta aneka vAta dareka mAtAnA hRdayamAM putra upara moha hoya ja." hoya, paraMtu yazodA mAtAno tArA upara prabaLa moha che. tArA upara agAdha prema che!' "eTale to mArA manamAM ciMtA che ke mAtA ane pitAjI mane anumati Apaze ke kema..." 'ciMtA na kara. anumati mAgI che...' anumati na Ape to? huM rAjaputra chuM... anumati vinA gurudeva mane dIkSA na Ape.' "sAcI vAta che, rAjaputrane mAtA-pitAnI anumati levI anivArya hoya che." "mane gaI kAle gurudeve ja A vAta samajAvI hatI.' "anumati meLavavAno prayatna karavAno vAraMvAra prayatna karavAno... kyAreka to mAnaze ne?' kyAreka eTale? have to huM eka divasa paNa gRhavAsamAM rahevA nathI icchato... huM kharekhara tane kahuM chuM... mAruM mana gRhavAsamAMthI UThI gayuM che.' zivakumAranA mukha para uga tarI Avyo. dharmeze tenI pITha para hAtha pheravatAM kahyuM : "hiMmata rAkha. tArI icchA pavitra che, uttama che, saphaLa thaze.' "huM Aje sAMje mAne vAta karIza." barAbara che." dharmeza vicAramAM paDI gayo... thoDI kSaNa banne mauna thaI gayA. ziva, jIvAtmAmAM kyAre kevuM parivartana AvI jAya che? nimittonI jIvAtmA para kevI asara paDe che? munirAjanuM nimitta pAmIne tArAmAM kevuM parivartana AvI gayuM? alabatta, tArA upAdAnanI paNa yogyatA.. paripakvatA AmAM kAraNabhUta che ja. tArA AtmAnuM upAdAna yogya na hota to nimittanI asara na thAta. pUrvajanmamAM teM karelI saMyamadharmanI ArAdhanAthI tAro AtmA ghaNo yogya banI gayo che. AtmAnA mULabhUta guNa vItarAgatA che, vairAgya enI nikaTano guNa che... vairAgI AtmA vitarAgatAnI nikaTa hoya che. kumAra, tAro vairAgya mane paNa halAvI gayo che... mAro paNa vaiSayika sukhono rAga dUra thaze ja .. ane kadAca huM paNa tArA pagale pagale saMyamadharma svIkArI laIza." For Private And Personal Use Only

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65 vairAgInI vedanA zivakumAre dharmezanI sAme joyuM. tenA hRdayamAM niravadhi AnaMda UchaLI rahyo. e vicAre che : "mAre atyAre dharmezanA pUrvajanmanI vAta nathI karavI. eno AtmA paNa pUrvajanmanA sAdhuno che ne? enAmAM saMyamadharma pALavAnI icchA pedA thavI sahaja che. vaLI, pUrvajanmano eno mArA pratyeno anurAga paNa che." dharmeza, have huM mahelamAM jAuM chuM. tuM mane kAle maLaje.' dharmeza zivakumArane jato joI rahyo. enA hRdayamAM snehanI saravANI phUTI nIkaLI. "tuM jo tyAgI banIza, to huM paNa tyAgI banIza ja..." e manomana babaDyo. 0 0 0 sAMjanuM bhojana patI gayuM. zivakumAra rANI yazodA pAse beTho. yazodA mauna hatI. zivakumAre yazodAno hAtha pakaDIne kahyuM : mA, mAre tane eka vAta karavI che.' kara beTA." "mA, te jANyuM che ne ke bAhya udyAnamAM birAjelA sAgaradatta munirAja, ke jeo avadhijJAnI mahAtmA che, teo mArA pUrvajanmanA moTAbhAI che..." hA beTA, mane kozalAe vAta karI che.' mA, ame banne bhAIo pUrvajanmamAM sagA bhAI hatA ane ame bannee dIkSA lIdhI hatI. banne sAdhu banyA hatA." avadhijJAnIe kahyuM che eTale sAcuM ja mAnavuM paDe beTA!" "mA, avadhijJAnIe to pachI kahyuM, e pahelAM meM jyAre emane nagarazreSThInI havelImAM sarvaprathama joyA, tyAre ja emanA pratye mArA hRdayamAM snehabhAva jAgI gayo hato. eTale pUrvajanmano koI snehasaMbaMdha hovo joIe, ema mane lAgeluM. mA, jevI rIte pUrvajanmanA snehasaMbaMdhanA lIdhe mArA manamAM snehabhAva jAgyo che, tevI rIte pUrvajanmanA vairAgyanA saMskAro paNa mArA hRdayamAM jAgI gayA che." For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta "eTale zuM beTA?" yazodAe saciMta banIne pUchyuM. eTale mA, huM A saMsAranAM sukho pratye virakta banyo chuM. gRhavAsa mane akaLAve che... huM sAgaradatta munirAjanAM caraNomAM jIvana samarpita karavA cAhuM nA beTA nA, e to kadApi nahIM bane..' yazodA raDI paDI. zivakumAra mauna thaI gayo. jamIna para dRSTi sthira karIne besI rahyo. yazodAe potAnA komaLa hAtha kumAranA mAthe mUkyA. kumAre nIcI dRSTie ja pUchyuM : "mA, to zuM mane tuM saMyamamArge javAnI rajA nahIM Ape?" eTale zuM tAro mArA uparano sneha UtarI gayo beTA? tArA pitA uparano... kozalA uparano prema UtarI gayo? pUrvajanmanA bhAI maLyA. eTale A bhavanA snehIone... emanA premane bhUlI javAno?' mA, pUrvajanmanA bhAI to nimitta banyA che. temaNe mane mohanidrAmAMthI jagADyo che. vAstavamAM mArA pUrvajanmanA vairAgyanA saMskAro jAgI gayA che... pUrvajanmamAM saMyamadharmanI ArAdhanA adhUrI rahI che.' game te hoya beTA, huM tAro saMyoga cAhuM chuM. tAro viyoga huM sahana nahIM karI zake. tuM vairAgI thayo che, huM to rAgI chuM. tane mArA para moha.. prema nathI rahyo.. mane to tArA para agAdha prema che. huM tane nahIM javA dauM...' - virAgI uparano rAga! - anAsakta uparanI Asakti! - nirmohI uparano moha! eTale du:kha, azAMti, udvega ane saMtApa! yazodA duHkhI thaI gaI. azAnta banI gaI.. zivakumAra to jANato ja hato ke Ama saraLatAthI mAtA anumati nathI ApavAnI. mAtAnA premabharapUra hRdayane te jANato hato. tene mA pratye koI aNagamo na thayo. te Ubho thayo. yazodAe teno hAtha pakaDI tenI sAme joyuM. beTA, tuM...' For Private And Personal Use Only

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verAgInI vedanA "mA, tArI anumati vinA huM gRhatyAga nahIM karuM. basa?' yazodA Azvasta banI. kumAra potAnA khaMDamAM gayo, khaMDamAM kozalA vicAramagna thaIne beThI hatI. kumAranA Agamanano tene khyAla na rahyo. kumAre kozalA sAme joyuM. thoDI kSaNa e joto ja rahyo. pachI dhImethI teNe kozalAne bolAvI : kauzalA! kozalA camakIne UbhI thaI gaI. teNe kumAranI pAse AvIne namana karyuM ane palaMganI pAse jamIna upara besI gaI. kozalA, eka vAta tane pUchuM?' "ema kema pUchavuM paDyuM? eka nahIM, hajAra vAta pUcho... ApanI dareka icchA mane svIkArya che. je vAtamAM Apa sukhI te vAtamAM huM sukhI.." have tane mArA taraphathI vaiSayika sukha nahIM maLe, kAraNa ke mAruM mana pUrNatayA avikArI banI gayuM che. eTale have jyAM sudhI mAre saMsAramAM rahevuM paDaze tyAM sudhI ApaNe bhAI-bahenanA bhAvathI rahevAnuM che.' e rIte ApanA AtmAne sukha maLatuM hoya to huM rAjI chuM. Apa mane preraNA ApIne, upadeza ApIne nirvikArI banAvI dejo." zivakumArane kozalA sAmAnya strI nahIM paNa mahAna sannArI dekhAI. 0 0 0 prabhAtano samaya hato. dugdhapAna karIne zivakumAra pitAjI pAse pahoMcI gayo. alabatta, e jANato hato ke mAtAe pitAjIne vAta to karI ja haze. Ava ziva, mArI pAse besa.' mahArAjA padharathe zivakumArano hAtha pakaDIne potAnI pAse besADyo. tArI mAtAe mane vAta karI che. te saMsAranAM sukho pratye virakta banyo che ane gRhatyAga karI sAdhu banavA icche che." sAcI vAta che pitAjI, enA mATe ApanI anumati cAhuM chuM. Apa mane anumati ApI mArA para upakAra karo. have mAruM mana gharamAM lAgatuM nathI... asaMyamamAM mAre jIvavuM nathI.' kumAra, huM tane eka prazna pUchuM chuM, tuM mane eno spaSTa javAba Apaje. tArA hRdayamAM mAtA-pitA pratye bhakti che ke nahIM?" che.' kumAre tarata ja javAba ApI dIdho. For Private And Personal Use Only

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38_ eka rAta aneka vAta "to huM tane kahuM chuM ke tuM gRhatyAgano vicAra tyajI de. sAdhu banavAnI vAta bhUlI jA. kAraNa ke tArA vinA tArI mAtA ane huM jIvI zakIe ema nathI." paraMtu pitAjI.' "kumAra, huM bIjI koI vAta sAMbhaLavA icchato nathI. tAre mahelamAM rahIne je dharmArAdhanA karavI hoya te karI zake che. sAdhu banavAnI vAta have te pharIthI karIza nahIM.' kumAranA mukha para glAni AvI gaI. tenI AMkho bhInI thaI gaI. te Ubho thaI gayo ne potAnA khaMDamAM cAlyo gayo. khaMDamAM te ekalo ja hato. kozalA rANI yazodA pAse hatI. te besI na zakyo. khaMDamAM AMTApherA mAravA lAgyo. tenA manamAM vicAronuM ghamasANa macI gayuM hatuM. zuM karuM? zuM na karUM? ene kAMI sUjhatuM nathI. rAjakumAra tarIkenI parAdhInatA ene satAvavA lAgI. bhojanano samaya thayo. kozalA bhojana mATe bolAvavA AvI. teNe kahyuM : "mane sudhA nathI. huM bhojana nahIM karuM." paraMtu pitAjI ApanI rAha jue che.' temane kaheje ke mane kSudhA nathI eTale huM bhojana nahIM karuM." kozalAnI AMkho bhInI thaI gaI. te dhIme page cAlI gaI. yazodAne teNe kahI dIdhuM. yazodAe pAratha sAme joIne kahyuM : "huM zivane bolAvI lAvuM chuM." yazodA zivakumAranA khaMDamAM AvI. kumAra be hatheLImAM mukha dabAvIne palaMgamAM sUto hato. yazodAe palaMganA kinAre besIne kumAranA mAthe hAtha mUkyo. kumAre AMkha kholIne joyuM. beTA, bhojana karI le... cAla mArI sAthe." "mA, mane sudhA nathI. huM bhojana nahIM karuM." yazodA mauna besI rahI. kumAra maunapaNe sUto rahyo. rAjA padmarathe paNa bhojana na karyuM. kozalA yazodAnAM caraNomAM AvIne besI gaI. mahela glAnithI, vedanAthI.. saMtApathI bharAI gayo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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| 10.zivakumAranA upavAsa | Aje mAre upavAsa che ane mauna che." savAre UThIne kumAre kozalAne kahyuM. rAtre te jamIna upara sUI gayo hato. rAtre ja teNe kozalAne kahI dIdhuM hatuM : "havethI huM bhUmizayana karIza." kozalA paNa jamIna upara sUI gaI hatI. kozalAe raDatI AMkhe yazodAne kahyuM : "Aje emaNe upavAsa karyo che ne maunavrata dhAraNa karyuM che.' yazodAnuM haiyuM bharAI AvyuMte raDI paDI. beTA, tuM ahIM besa, huM mahArAjA pAse jaI AvuM.' rasoIgharamAM kozalAne besADI yazodA mahArAjA padmaratha pAse gaI. mahArAjA gaMbhIra vicAramAM garakAva thayelA hatA. yazodA temanI sAme jamIna para besI gaI. yazodAnI AMkhomAM AMsu joI pArathe pUchyuM : "kema zuM thayuM?" kumAre Aje upavAsa karyo che. maunavrata lIdhuM che.' mahArAjA kAMI bolyA nahIM. AsanethI UbhA thaI khaMDamAM AMTA mAravA lAgyA. zuM tame jaIne kumArane na samajAvo?' "nA, huM ene samajAvavA nahIM jAuM. e bhale upavAsa kare.... keTalA divasa upavAsa karaze? keTalA divasa mauna raheze? e game te kare, huM ene sAdhu banavAnI anumati nahIM ApI zakuM.' yazodAe koI pratyuttara na Apyo. te UbhI thaIne rasoIgharamAM AvI. kozalAne kahyuM : "beTI, Aje mAre paNa upavAsa che. rasoI mahArAjA mATe ane tArA mATe banAvaje." "mA, mAre paNa upavAsa che. huM mAtra pitAjI mATe rasoI banAvuM chuM." tuM kumAra pAse besa, huM rasoI banAvI dauM chuM." kozalA potAnA khaMDamAM praveze che. stabdha thaI jAya che. khaMDamAMthI badhAM ja citro bahAra nIkaLI gayAM che, palaMga, bhadrAsano, gAlIcA.. badhuM ja bahAra paDeluM che. kozalAnAM zRMgAranAM sAdhano... vastronI peTIo vagere bAjunA khaMDamAM paDeluM che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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70. eka rAta aneka vAta kumAre zveta vastra dhAraNa karelAM che. eka UnI Asana upara padmAsana lagAvIne kumAra beThelo che, dhyAnamAM nimagna che. anAyAse kozalAnuM mastaka jhUkI gayuM... be hAtha joDAI gayA... te bAjunA khaMDamAM sarakI gaI. peTI kholIne teNe zveta sADI.. zveta vastro kADhayAM. zarIra parathI saubhAgya cihna sivAyanA badhA alaMkAro utArI nAkhyA. zveta vastro dhAraNa karI lIdhAM. potAnA khaMDamAMthI teNe badho zaNagAra dUra karI dIdho. kumAranA khaMDa jevo ja potAno khaMDa banAvI dIdho. jANe ke eNe saMkalpa karI lIdho. "je vastu, je vAta kumArane na khape te vastu, te vAta mane paNa na khape! 0 0 0 kumAranA upavAsano Aje AThamo divasa hato. tenA zarIra para enI asaro spaSTa dekhAtI hatI. paraMtu te mauna hato. yazodA vyAkuLa hatI. vedanAthI tenuM haiyuM valurAI rahyuM hatuM. kozalA mauna hatI... zAnta hatI. mahArAjA padmaratha gaMbhIra hatA, udvigna hatA. tame kema kumArane pAraNuM karavA kahetA nathI? zuM A rIte putrane motanA..." "evuM na bolo devI, zuM mane putra vahAlo nathI? jo vahAlo na hota to ene sAdhu banI javAnI anumati na Apata? tame kahetA ho to anumati ApI dauM... to hamaNAM e pAraNuM karaze.' nA, nA, huM mArA lADalAne sAdhu to nahIM ja banavA dauM... paNa Aje ATha-ATha upavAsa ene thaI gayA... enuM zarIra kevuM thaI gayuM che? game te bIjo upAya karIne upavAsa to enA choDAvo ja." "zodhuM chuM upAya.. paNa jaDato nathI..." kAMI paNa karI... mArAthI A badhuM sahana thatuM nathI...' yazodA dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDI. zuM karUM devI? virakta AtmAne bhaya ke lAlaca DagAvI zakatAM nathI.... ApaNo putra virakta banI gayo che. alabatta, ApaNA pratye enA haiyAmAM bhakti che, eTale e mahelamAM rahyo che..." "mahelamAM rahevAthI zuM? mahelamAM e sAdhu banIne rahyo che, joI Avo eno khaMDa...upAzraya banAvI dIdho che." chatAM devI, e ApaNI pAse che. ApaNe ene nihALI zakIe chIe." For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra zivakumAranA upavAsa www.kobatirth.org sAcI vAta che ApanI... paNa...' Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir 31 'upavAsa choDAvavA che, e ja tame cAho cho ne?' 'hA, ene pAraNuM karAvo.' 'vicAruM chuM, upAya jaDI jaze jarUra, tame ciMtA na karo.' padmaratha mahelanA jharUkhAmAM jaI UbhA rahyA. anaMta AkAza sAme mITa mAMDI. AkAzamAM UDatAM pakSIo joyAM. dakSiNa tarapha doDI jatAM vAdaLo joyAM. dhIme-dhIme emanuM mana zAnta thavA lAgyuM. 'huM zivane nahIM samajAvI zakuM. mane to e eka ja vAta kaheze. 'sAdhu banavAnI anumati Apo.' huM ene anumati ApI zakuM ema nathI. kadAca huM mArUM mana dRDha karI zakuM, mArA hRdaya upara paththara mUkIne anumati ApI dauM... paraMtu enI mA? e to jhUrI jhUrIne marI ja jAya. jo A rIte ziva upavAsa karato rahe to enuM zuM thAya? e vAta paNa eTalI ja gaMbhIratAthI vicAravI jarUrI che, ene koNa samajAvI zake?' be ghaDI sudhI e vicAratA rahyA ne acAnaka eka vyakti smRtimAM AvI gaI. temanuM mana haLavuM thaI gayuM. hRdaya uparano so maNano bhAra dUra thaI gayo. 'putrane, yuvAna putrane jyAre mAtA-pitA nathI samajAvI zakatA tyAre mitra samajAvI zake che. huM dharmezane bolAvIne, zivane samajAvavAnuM kahuM. e jarUra zivane samajAvI zakaze. dharmeza buddhizALI che. zivano aMtaraMga mitra che.' mahArAjAe potAnA vizvAsapAtra sevakane dharmezane bolAvI lAvavA mokalyo. havelI sAme ja hatI. sevake jaIne dharmezane mahArAjAno saMdeza Apyo. dharmeza sevakanI sAthe ja mahelamAM AvI gayo. te mahArAjAnA khaMDamAM gayo. 'Ava dharmeza...!' mahArAjAe dharmezane bolAvyo. potAnI pAse besADyo. thoDI kSaNa maunamAM vItI gaI. 'beTA, tuM zivanI vAta to jANe che ne? eNe ATha divasathI upavAsa cAlu rAkhyA che. enI sAthe enI mA ane kozalAe paNa.' mahArAjAno svara gaLagaLo thaI gayo. For Private And Personal Use Only 'eNe jidda pakaDI che sAdhu thavAnI... e saMsAra pratye virakta banI gayo che... sAdhu banavAnI e mArI pAse anumati mAge che...' mahArAjAnI AMkhomAMthI AMsu sarI paDyAM,

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eka rAta aneka vAta beTA, tuM jANe che. mAro ane enI mAno enA para kevo dRDha rAga che.. ame kevI rIte ene anumati ApIe? anumati nathI ApatA to e upavAsanuM pAraNuM nathI karato... ame to evI mUMjhavaNamAM mukAI gayAM chIe... ke koI upAya ja nathI sUjhato. e jo upavAsanuM pAraNuM na kare to.." mahArAjAnA gaLe DUmo bAjhI gayo. dharmeza gaMbhIratAthI mahArAjAnI vAta sAMbhaLato rahyo. e ATha divasathI mahelamAM Avyo ja na hato. samajI-vicArIne nahoto Avyo. rAjA-rANIne evo abhiprAya na baMdhAI jAya ke 'zivakumArane dIkSA levA dharmeza caDhAve che.' kAraNa ke dharmeza dhArmika prakRtino yuvaka hato. tenA Adarza paNa sAdhujIvanano ja hato. mahArAjAe kahyuM : "beTA dharmeza, e mArI ke enI mAtAnI pAraNuM karavAnI vAta to nahIM mAne. alabatta, amArI anumati vinA gRhatyAga to e nahIM ja kare. enI amArA pratye bhakti che. paraMtu eno vairAgya bhAva ene tyAga ane tapazcaryA mATe prerita kare che. e paNa huM mAnuM chuM ke ene amArA pratye aNagamo nathI, keSa nathI. vairAgI banI gayo che... zAnta-prazAnta banI gayo che... mauna dhAraNa karyuM che. snAna karato nathI. suMdara vastro paherato nathI. zveta vastro dhAraNa karyA che. jamIna para zayana kare che... vatsa, bIjuM badhuM to bhale kare, amane vAMdho nathI, paraMtu eNe upavAsanuM pAraNuM to karavuM ja joIe. e mATe ene tuM samajAvI zake. tuM eno aMtaraMga mitra che. tArI vAta e nahIM TALe.." mahArAjAe dharmeza sAme joyuM. mahArAjA, huM ene samajAvavA prayatna karuM, paraMtu e mane kahe ke tuM pitAjIne samajAva ke teo mane sAdhu banavAnI anumati Ape.. to?" e to saMbhava ja nathI. dharmeza, enA vinA ame jIvI zakIe nahIM. mAro ane enI mAtAno kevo gADha moha che e zuM tuM nathI jANato?' jANuM chuM. eTale to ATha-ATha upavAsa thaI gayA chatAM Apa anumati nathI ApatA.' paraMtu enA jIvananI eTalI ja amane ciMtA che. enI mA paNa kyAM bhojana kare che? kozalAne paNa ati Agraha karIne be divasa pahelAM bhojana karAvyuM.' For Private And Personal Use Only

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zivakumAranA upavAsa mahArAjA, zivane samajAvavAnuM kAma ghaNuM kaparuM che." "eTale to tane bolAvyo... tuM ja ene game te upAya karIne samajAvI zakIza, evo mane vizvAsa che. hA, ema sIdhI rIte to e nahIM mAne. manAvavAno koI sAro upAya tAre karavo paDaze." dharmeza vicAramAM paDI gayo. mahArAjAe kahyuM : "beTA, ene sAdhu banavAnI anamati nahIM ApIne enA hRdayane meM duHkhI karyuM ja che... nAchUTake... mArA svArthanA kAraNo... have huM ene kaTu zabda kahIne vadhu duHkhI nahIM karI zakuM. ane huM samajAvavA jaIza... to kadAca mArA mukhamAMthI kaTu zabda nIkaLI jaze.. enuM hRdaya TukaDA thaI jaze. nA, huM evuM karavA nathI icchato.eTalA ja mATe meM tane bolAvyo che.' "mahArAjA, ApanI vAta sAcI che. Ape kyAre paNa zivanA manane dubhavyuM nathI. e prasannacitta rahe, e mATe enI dareka icchAne pUrNa karI che... huM jANuM. chuM ApanA hRdayane... enI mAne to tuM jo.. ATha divasamAM enuM zarIra kevuM thaI gayuM che? raDI 2DIne enI AMkho sUjI gaI che. zarIra kRza thaI gayuM che." eTalAmAM rANI yazodA ja tyAM AvI gaI. dharmeze UbhA thaI rANInA caraNomAM praNAma karyA, yazodAe dharmezanA mAthe hAtha mUkyA... dharmeza yazodAne joI rahyo. tenI AMkho bhInI thaI gaI.. "mAM, tame have kalpAMta na karo. huM zivane samajAvavA prayatna karIza. enA upavAsanuM pAraNuM karAvIza.' basa, beTA! e pAraNuM karI le... bhojana kare. huM eTaluM ja icchuM chuM. bAkI bhale ene game te dharmArAdhanA kare. huM ene rokIza nahIM..." yazodA pAsenA bhadrAsana para beThI. dharmeza yazodAnAM caraNomAM besI gayo. enA hRdayamAM yazodA pratye bhakti hatI, bahumAna hatuM. yazodA dharmezanA AzvAsanathI kAMIka svastha banI. teNe kahyuM : beTA, huM zramaNajIvanane sAruM mAnuM chuM. sAdhutAno mArga khoTo nathI, sAro che. paraMtu mAro putrasneha pragADha che.. enA vinA huM jIvI na zakuM." "huM jANuM chuM mA! mahadazA vicitra hoya che..." beTA, tuM ene kaheje ke tAre mahelamAM rahIne bIjI je koI dharma-ArAdhanA karavI hoya te kara, paraMtu upavAsanuM pAraNuM karI le." For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta huM ene samajAvIza mA! mane AtmavizvAsa che... e mArI vAtane samajavA prayatna karaze. e guNavAna che!' 'tuM vilaMba na kara.' mahArAjAe kahyuM. mahArAjA, Aje to huM enI pAse nahIM jAuM. kAraNa ke mAre ene samajAvavAnI prakriyA vicAravI paDaze. mArI vAta enA gaLe utAravI paDaze ne? AvatI kAle prabhAtamAM enI pAse jaIza." te Ubho thayo. rAjA-rANIne praNAma karyA ane potAnI havelImAM AvI gayo. havelImAM zreSThI kAmasamRddha ane mAtA vatsalA dharmezanI rAha jotAM hatAM. dharmeze mAtA-pitAne rAjamahelanI paristhiti jaNAvI. zivakumAranA upavAsanI vAta sAMbhaLIne vatsalA raDI paDI. nagarazreSThI gaMbhIra vicAramAM paDI gayA. beTA, tAre kumArane manAvavo paDaze.' zreSThIe kahyuM, "pitAjI, ene kevI rIte banAvavo e mATe Aje rAte huM vicArIza.. paNa e mATe mAre kadAca moTo tyAga karavo paDaze.' bhale beTA, tAre ke amAre... je kAMI karavuM paDe te karavAnuM. paraMtu kumAranA upavAsa choDAvavAnA." vatsalA bolI. "rAjaparivArano ApaNA upara mahAna upakAra che. mahArANI ne mahArAjA ApaNane potAnA svajana mAne che, AvA duHkhamAM ApaNe emanA paDakhe rahevAnuM che." vatsalAe kahyuM. dharmeza mAtAnA uddagArothI gadgad thaI gayo. te potAnI mAne bheTI paDyo.. "mA, tuM kharekhara mahAna che!" beTA, tame pitA-putra bhojana karI lo. pachI tArA pitA paNa mahArAjA pAse jaI Ave." tame paNa mArI sAthe Avajo. mahArANI pAse besajo. AzvAsana Apajo." 0 0 0 For Private And Personal Use Only

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zivakumAranA upavAsa rAtrinI nIrava zAnti hatI. dharmeza havelInI agAsImAM Ubho hato. * "ziva bhAva-sAdhu banI gayo che. tenA AtmabhAva sAdhutAthI raMgAI gayA che. vaiSayika sukhothI pUrNatayA virakta banI gayo che. zarIranuM mamatva paNa rahyuM nathI... kharekhara, eno AtmA.. mahAtmA banI gayo che, aMtarAtmA banI gayo che.' paraMtu koI avarodhaka karma ene naDe che. nahIMtara rAjA-rANIno ATalo badho pragADha moha na hoya. ene sAdhutA mATe anumati maLI javI joIe... jo ke A avarodha mAtra sAdhuveza mATe che. sAdhutA to ene maLI ja gaI che.' dharmezanA manamAM acAnaka eka vicArano jhabakAra thayo. tenA zarIre romAMca thaI Avyo. te svagata bolI UThyo - "e upavAsanuM pAraNuM jarUra karaze... huM ene A rIte samajAvIza...' te potAnA khaMDamAM jaI nidrAdhIna thayo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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11. kalyAimatra :dharmeza dharmeze zveta vastra dhAraNa karyA. mAtA-pitAnI anumati lIdhI ane te rAjamahelamAM Avyo. - zivakumAranA vizALa khaMDanA dvAre AvI traNa vAra "nisahI' bolyo. mastake aMjali jaDI teNe zivane praNAma karyA. "satyae vaMdAmi' kahI khaMDamAM praveza karyo. - zivakumAra pAse jaI vastrathI bhUmi-pramArjana karI vidhivat "bAdazAvata vaMdana' karyuM. "mama aNujANaha' bolIne te kumAranI sAme beTho. | zivakumAra kAMIka AzcaryathI.. kAMIka zaMkAthI dharmezanI A badhI kriyAo joI rahyo hato. AvI badhI kriyAo meM kyAMka joI che..." manomana te yAda karavA lAgyo. tene yAda AvI gayuM : "gurudeva sAgaradatta munirAjanI pAse teNe Avo vinaya karatA munivarone joyA hatA. AvA prakArano vinaya to sAdhupuruSono karavAmAM Ave che, dharmeze mAra vinaya kema karyo?" teNe pUchyuM : dharmeza, Avo vinaya teM mAro kema karyo? Avo vinaya to saMyamadhArI munivarono karavAmAM Ave che.' 'he kumAra, tame sAdhuveza vinAnA bhAva sAdhu cho. tamArA AtmAmAM sAcI sAdhutA pragaTI gaI che. huM e sAdhutAnA zreSTha bhAvane vaMduM chuM." kumAra dharmezanI sAme joI rahyo. dharmezanA mukha para ahobhAva tarato hato. tenI AMkhomAM snehano sAgara UchaLato hato. te bolyo : "mahAtmanuM, eka prazna pUchI zakuM?" kumAre mastaka namAvIne hA pADI. tame bhojana kema karatA nathI?" bhojana kevI rIte karuM? mArA nimitte banato AhAra to azuddha kahevAya, sAvadya kahevAya.... ane A mahelamAM rahIne huM nirdoSa AhAranI bhikSA levA to jaI zakuM nahIM." dharmezanI AMkho AMsubhInI thaI gaI. gaga svare teNe kahyuM : "kumAra, sAce ja tame sAdhutA pAmyA cho... dhanya banI gayA cho tame, AjathI ApaNo saMbaMdha badalAya che.' "te kevI rIte?' kumAre pUchyuM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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9 kalyANamitra : dharmeza huM tamane mArA guru mAnuM chuM... ane huM tamAro ziSya banuM chuM. AjIvana huM tamArI pAse rahIza." mahAnubhAva, guru-ziSyano saMbaMdha to zramaNomAM hoya, ApaNe to gRhavAsamAM chIe.... vaLI, umaramAM to tuM mArAthI moTo che.. pachI ApaNo guru-ziSyano saMbaMdha kevI rIte bane?' mahAtmanuM, sAdhuvezanuM mahattva "vyavahAranayanI dRSTie manAyeluM che. nizcayanayanI dRSTie sAdhutAnA bhAvanuM mahattva jinazAsanamAM batAvAyeluM che. duniyAmAM vyavahAranI pradhAnatA hoya che. eTale "sAdhuveza"nI anivAryatA samaje che duniyA. jJAnI puruSo nizcaya-nayanI mahattA samaje che. arthAt "bhAva'nI pradhAnatA mAne che. jinazAsanamAM banne "nayamAnya thayelA che. sAdhuveza dhAraNa karavAnI tamArI prabaLa bhAvanA che, eTale tame vyavahAranayanI upekSA nathI karatA, tame sApekSa bhAva dhAraNa karelo che. nizcayanayathI tamArAmAM sAdhutAno bhAva AvI gayo che. eTale tame bhAva-sAdhu cho. mATe ja huM tamane mArA guru mAnIza ane huM tamAro ziSya banIne tamArA mATe nirdoSa AhAra lAvIza pratidina." paraMtu zramaNa to kezalucana karatA hoya che... huM kezaluMcana nathI karato....' "kezaluMcana karavA mAtrathI koI sAdhu banI jatA nathI, e to eka vyavahAramArganI kriyA che. vAstavamAM to AtmAmAM paDelA kapAyonuM laMcana karavAnuM che. kapAyo upazAnta karavAnA che. AtmabhAvamAM lIna banavAnuM che. tame AtmabhAvamAM lIna banelA cho.. eTale gharamAM rahevA chatAM tame sAdhu ja cho. mArI vAta para vizvAsa karajo kumAra, huM tamane khuza karavA tamArI khuzAmata nathI karato. huM tamAro kalyANamitra chuM. tamArA Atmahitane jonAra chuM. meM je jinamatanuM adhyayana-manana kareluM che, tenA AdhAre huM vAta karI rahyo chuM. tame bhAva-sAdhu cho... e niHzaMka vAta che. bIjI vAta tame je kahI-huM uMmaramAM tamArAthI moTo chuM to tamAro ziSya kevI rIte banI zakuM? mokSamArganI ArAdhanAmAM umaranuM koI mahattva svIkArAyeluM nathI. ahIM mahattva che jJAnanuM ane cAritraparyAyanuM. mArA karatAM tamane paheluM AtmajJAna prApta thayeluM che ane mArA karatAM vahelo cAritrabhAva tamane pragaTa thayelo che. A banne dRSTie tame mArAthI For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta moTA cho... tethI meM tamane mArA guru mAnyA che ane huM tamAro ziSya banyo vaLI, A saMbaMdhane ApaNe duniyAmAM kyAM jAhera karavo che? ApaNe bannee ja A saMbaMdha jANavAno che. ApaNe ahIM ja rahevAnuM che ane bhAvasAdhutAne jItavAnI che." eTale zuM mArAM mAtA-pitA ane gRhavAsano tyAga karavAnI anumati nahIM ja Ape?" kumAra, emano tamArA uparano moha pragADha che... tame ATalA upavAsa karyA... mauna dhAraNa karyuM che... eka sAdhunI jema ja tame kriyAo karo cho.. chatAM temano moha dUra nathI thayo. A uparathI mane lAge che ke teo gRhavAsanA tyAganI anumati nahIM Ape.' to mArA upavAsa AjIvana cAlu raheze...' zA mATe evo Agraha rAkhavAno kumAra? ApaNe to gRhavAsa ane vanavAsane samAna samajavAnA che. gRha ane vana vacce koI bheda mAnavAno nathI. chevaTe samatA yogamAM ja sthira thavAnuM che ne? samatAyogI banIne anaMta anaMta karmonI nirjarA karavAnI che. sarva karmono nAza karavAno che.. jevI rIte grahavAsa ane vanavAsane samAna mAnavAnA che, tevI rIte bhojana ane upavAsane paNa samAna mAnavAnAM che, bhojana karIza ja" evo Agraha na joIe, tevI rIte "upavAsa ja karIza," evo Agraha paNa na joIe. AtmA mULa svabhAve to aNAhArI ja che. AtmA enA zuddha svarUpe AhAra grahaNa ja nathI karato! AhAra grahaNa kare che. zarIra, AhAranI jarUra che zarIrane..' mane zarIra para mamatva nathI, pachI zarIrane zA mATe AhAra Apavo?' "zarIra para mamatvarahita yogI, zarIrane mokSamArganI ArAdhanAnuM mAtra sAdhana mAnIne tene TakAvavA mATe AhAra Ape che, zarIranuM lAlana-pAlana karavA mATe te AhAra na Ape. AtmA para lAgelAM anaMta-anaMta kamano nAza karavA mATe sAdhanA-ArAdhanA to karavI paDaze ne? e ArAdhanA zarIranA mAdhyamathI saMbhava che. eTale zarIrane TakAvavuM Avazyaka che... anAsakti bhAvane kAyama rAkhavAno che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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kulyANamitra : dharmeza 79 kumAra, jema zarIra pratye rAga nathI rAkhavAno tema enA pratye dveSa paNa nathI rAkhavAno... samabhAvane siddha karavAno che.' dharmeza, jo huM AhAra grahaNa karIza. to mArAM mAtA-pitA mane A jIvanamAM kyAreya gRhatyAganI anumati nahIM Ape.' bhale na Ape! gharamAM rahIne sAdhujIvana jIvavAnI anumati to ApI che ne? tame ATalAM divasothI upavAsa karI rahyA cho, mauna dhAraNa karI rahyA cho, brahmacaryanuM pAlana karI rahyA cho. snAna nathI karatA, suMdara vastro nathI paheratA, rAjasabhAmAM nathI jatA. chatAM tamane kyAreya tamArA mAtA-pitAe Thapako Apyo che? tamArI pAchaLa teo paNa keTalo moTo tyAga karI rahyAM che, e tame jANo cho? kozalA to sAdhvI jevuM ja jIvana jIvI rahI che.. mahAtmana, gRhatyAgano vicAra ja manamAMthI kADhI nAMkho. gRhavAsano moha dUra thaI gayA pachI, gRhasthajIvananAM sukho pratye vairAgya jAgI gayA pachI, gRhatyAganuM vizeSa mahattva rahetuM nathI. eTale, he gurudeva! have mane AhAra lAvavAnI anumati Apo. ApanA mATe nirdoSa AhAra huM laI AvuM." zivakumAra gaMbhIra vicAramAM DUbI gayA. dharmeza mauna dhAraNa karIne tyAM ja besI rahyo. "mArUM mana AhAra grahaNa karavA mATe nathI mAnatuM... tuM mane Agraha na kara.' munirAja, nahIM mAnatA manane manAvavuM te paNa dharma ArAdhanA che! koI Agraha che manano, mATe te nathI mAnatuM. Agraha che tyAM sudhI samatva nathI. anAgrahI mahAtmA ja samatAyogI banI zake. mahAtma, have "gRhatyAganI anumati meLavavI che. A vAtane ja bhUlI jAo. have to A vAta yAda rAkhavAnI che ke "mAre bhAvasAdhutAnI zreSTha sAdhanA karIne mArA AtmAne karmabaMdhanothI mukta karavo che." zuM gRhatyAga karavAthI ja karmakSayano puruSArtha thaI zake? jemaNe jemaNe gRhavAsa tyajI sAdhuveza paheryo, zuM te badhA karmamukta banI gayA? meM tIrthakara bhagavaMtanA mukhe sAMbhaLyuM che ke gRhavAsa tyajavA chatAM je AtmAo kaSAyone na jItI zakyA tevA anaMta AtmAo A saMsAramAM bhaTakI rahyA che... he For Private And Personal Use Only

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80 eka rAta aneka vAta guruvara, Apane vizeSa zuM kahuM? gRhasthaveze paNa AtmAone kevaLajJAnanI prApti thaI che, thaI rahI che ane bhaviSyamAM thaze. vaLI, A rIte bhAva-sAdhutAnI ArAdhanA karatAM-karatAM kyAreya mAtApitAnuM mana mAnI jAya ane gRhatyAganI anumati ApI de to e ja samaye gRhatyAga karatAM vAra keTalI? tamAro A ziSya paNa gRhatyAga karIne tamArI sAthe ja cAlI nIkaLaze.' zivakumAranuM haiyuM gadgad banI gayuM. dharmeza mAro kharekhara kalyANamitra che. mArA mATe e keTalo badho tyAga karavA tatpara banyo che? mArI khAtara e enAM tamAma vaiSayika sukhono tyAga karI rahyo che.' bhale dharmeza, huM nirdoSa AhAra grahaNa karIza... paraMtu e nirdoSa AhAra lukho joIe, rasahIna joIe, svAdarahita joIe.' eTale AyaMbilano AhAra joIe?' ha, AyaMbila karIza ane te paNa be upavAsanA pAraNe! jyAM sudhI gharamAM rahevuM paDaze tyAM sudhI A ja krama cAlu raheze... be upavAsa ane AyaMbila... be upavAsa ane AyaMbila...' gharmaze AMkho baMdha karIne, be hAtha joDI, mastaka namAvIne zivakumArane vaMdanA karI. Aje to AThanava upavAsanuM pAraNuM che ne? Aje to thoDuM dUdha, thoDuM ghI...." "nA, nA, evuM kAMI paNa na joIe. Aje paNa AyaMbila ja karIza.' jevI ApanI icchA ane AjJA. huM AyaMbilano AhAra laI AvuM chuM. ApanA nimitte nahIM banyo hoya tevo prAsuka AhAra lAvIza." bAjunA khaMDamAM beThelI kozalA, banne mitrono vArtAlApa ekAgra banIne sAMbhaLI rahI hatI. kumAre upavAsanuM pAraNuM karavAnI hA pADI, e jANIne te bhAvavibhora banI gaI. te doDIne rANI yazodA pAse pahoMcI gaI. mA, teo Aje upavAsanuM pAraNuM karaze!' kozalA yazodAne bheTI paDI. tenI AMkhomAMthI harSanAM AMsu varasavA lAgyAM. "beTI, to pachI pAraNAnI taiyArI karIe..." For Private And Personal Use Only

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kalyANamitra : dharmeza nA mA, tamAre pAraNAnI taiyArI karavAnI nathI!" dharmeze khaMDamAM pravezatAM kahyuM. : "kema beTA?' yazodAe dharmezane paNa zveta vastromAM joyo. kAraNa ke te Aje AyaMbilano AhAra leze. te paNa rAjamahelamAM banelo AhAra nahIM le. huM enA mATe nirdoSa AhAra bhikSAmAM laI AvIza.." "eTale beTA, tuM zuM nagaramAM bhikSA levA jaIza?" "hA mA, have kumAra kumAra nathI. te gharamAM rahelo bhAva-sAdhu che. e mArA guru che, huM emano ziSya chuM. huM have divasa-rAta emanI pAse rahIza mA!' yazodA dharmezane AzcaryathI tAkI rahI. tenuM mana kAMIka Azvasta banyuM. raDI raDIne sUjI gayelI... zuSka banI gayelI AMkhomAM AnaMdanI bhInAza pragaTI. beTA, tuM kumAra mATe.. tArAM sukha zA mATe choDe che...?' mA, have A jIvanamAM kumAra ja mAruM sarvasva raheze. jyAM e... tyAM huM! e ja mArI gati ane e ja mArI mati..." kozalA ahobhAvathI dharmezanI sAme natamastaka banI gaI. tenI AMkho varasI paDI. tenuM hRdaya pulakita banI gayuM. "mitranuM A kevuM adbhuta samarpaNa! kevo niHsvArtha prema!' te manomana bolI UThI. "samarpita sAthI-saMgAthI maLavAthI kumAra... mArA nAtha... kAMIka svastha banaze. emane premathI kevA samajAvI dIdhA dharmeze? kevA kevA tarka karyA? kevA kevA siddhAMto samajAvyA? samajAvavAnI rIta paNa kevI saraLa? A rIte emanI pratidina dharmacarcA-vArtAlApa cAlato raheze. to banneno samaya AnaMdathI vyatIta thaze. alabatta, be-be upavAsanA pAraNe AyaMbilanuM rUkSa bhojana karavAthI zarIranI zakti to ghaTavAnI, paraMtu have mAnasika rIte temanI svasthatA sArI rahevAnI. mahArAjA padharathane samAcAra maLatAM teo paNa tyAM AvI gayA. teo khUba prasannacitta hatA. kAraNa ke temanuM anumAna sAcuM paDyuM hatuM. "kumArane dharmeza samajAvI zakaze." A temanuM anumAna hatuM. dharmeza! beTA, teM amane jIvana ApyuM. kumAranA prANa to bacAvI lIdhA, amane paNa ghora saMkaTamAMthI ugArI lIdhA.... kharekhara, teM mitradharmanuM yathArtha pAlana karyuM che." mahArAjA, have huM Apane vinaMtI karuM chuM ke Apa kumArane putra na mAnazo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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82 eka rAta aneka vAta. e ApanA gharamAM rahelo niHspRha... virakta sAdhu che. bhAvasAdhu che. eNe svajana, snehI... ane zarIranuM mamatva paNa tyajI dIdhuM che. basa, eka mAtra mAtA-pitA pratyenI bhaktithI... ane ApanA atyAgrahathI te saMsAramAM rahelo. Apa enI koI ciMtA na karazo. have dina-rAta huM enI pAse rahIza." mahArAjAnuM hRdaya dravita thaI gayuM. teo dharmezane bheTI paDyA. mahArAjA, Aje kumArane pAraNuM che. huM AyaMbilanI bhikSA levA jAuM dharmeza mahelamAMthI nIkaLIne sIdho potAnI havelImAM gayo. rAjA, rANI ane putravadhU.. A phirastAne jato joI rahyAM.. lAkha lAkha dhanyavAda ApatAM rahyAM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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12. svargavAsa Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir divaso vIte che. mahinAo vIte che... varSa upara varSa vIte che... bhAva-sAdhu banelA zivakumAra chaThTha-tapanA pA2Ne AyaMbilano tapa karatA rahe che. zarIra kRza banyuM che, azakta banyuM che. jarjarita banyuM che. dasa-dasa varSa thaI gayAM che. dharmeza emanA mATe doSarahita bhikSA laI Ave che. be-be divasanA AMtare AyaMbilanuM lUkhuM bhojana kare che. rAjya aMgenI koI vAta nahIM, deza mATenI koI vAta nahIM, strI aMgenI carcA nahIM ke bhojana aMge koI vAta nahIM. zivakumAranA khaMDamAM bahAranI koI vyakti pravezI zakatI nathI. bahAranA mANaso gaNo to mAtra dharmezanAM mAtApitA ane dharmezanI suzIla patnI. teo paNa kyAreka kuzala-pRcchA karavA Ave eTaluM ja. zivakumAra ane dharmezanI vacce haMmezAM tattvacarcA thAya che. kyAreka teo 'sthavirakalpa' ane 'jinakalpa' nI vAto kare che. kyAreka 'naya-nikSepa' ane 'saptabhaMgI' nI vAto kare che. kyAreka AtmatattvanA zuddha-azuddha svarUpanI carcA kare che, kyAreka 'karmasiddhAMta' upara parAmarza kare che... to kyAreka bAra bhAvanAonA ciMtanamAM DUbI jAya che. eka divasa... banne saMsAramAM thatA jIvonA parasparanA saMbaMdhonI vAto karatAM hatA. saMbaMdhonA parivartananI vAto karatAM karatAM zivakumAre kahyuM : 'dharmeza, sAgaradatta munirAje amArA pUrvajanmanI vAta karI, e vAtamAM eka vAta emaNe e karI ke pUrvajanmamAM huM sAdhu banelo... lagna karIne tarata ja... e paNa moTAbhAInA vacanane mithyA na thavA devA mATe......! sAdhunA vezamAM paNa meM mArI patnI nAgilAne hRdayamAM rAkhelI... enA u52no moha dRDha rahelo... jyAre moTAbhAI kALadharma pAmyA... tyAre huM mArI e patnIne maLavA ane punaH gRhavAsa mAMDavA mArA gAme gayelo. tyAM gAmanI bahAra ja mane mArI patnI maLI gayelI... teNe mArA asthira ane caMcaLa banelA manane sthira ane nirmaLa banAveluM. mArA manamAMthI moha dUra karI dIdhelo... pachI to For Private And Personal Use Only

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84 eka rAta aneka vAta huM saMyama dharmamAM sthira banI gayelo. eNe (nAgilAe) paNa cAritradharma svIkArI lIdhelo... meM sAgaradana munirAjane pUchyuM : "bhagavaMta e nAgilA kALadharma pAmIne kyAM gaI ane atyAre e AtmA kyAM che?" zuM kahyuM munirAje?' utsukatAthI dharmeze pUchayuM. sAgaradatta munirAje kahyuM : "e kALadharma pAmIne pahelA devalokamAM gaI ane tyAMthI cyavana pAmIne te A ja vItazokA nagarImAM janmI che!" hai? A ja nagaramAM? te koNa?' te bIjuM koI nahIM paraMtu nagarazreSThIno putra dharmeza!" dharmeza AzcaryathI... harSathI... gadgad thaI gayo. te ekITase zivakumArane joI rahyo.... pachI te bolyo : mahAtmanuM, mArA mananuM samAdhAna thaI gayuM Aja! huM e vicArato hato ke mane tamArA pratye ATaluM badhuM kheMcANa kema thAya che? tamArA tapa-tyAga ane saMyama kema game che? tamArI pAse ja rahevAnuM kema game che? samajAI gayuM Aje!' teM pUrvajanmamAM mane cAritra dharmamAM sthira karyo, A janmamAM.. mane cAritra dharmanA (bhAva-cAritranA) pAlanamAM sAtha Apyo...banne janmamAM teM mArA upara parama upakAra karyo che... tArA A upakArano badalo huM kevI rIte vALIza?' zivakumArano kSINa avAja gaLagaLo thaI gayo. koI janamamAM.kadAca huM saMsAranI jALamAM phasAI jAuM. to temAMthI mAro uddhAra karIne badalo vALajo! eTale zuM haju ApaNe saMsAramAM janma-maraNa karavAM paDaze?" jo karavAM paDe to?' nA, nA, have to A saMsAramAM janamavuM ja nathI. have to anaMta siddha bhagavaMto mane pokAre che..." tyAM paNa ApaNe sAthe hoIzuM!" 0 0 0 nAtha, kumAranuM zarIra kevuM thaI gayuM che? dasa-dasa varSathI ekadhArI kaThara tapazcaryA.." rANI yazodA raDI paDI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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svargavAsa, devI, ghaNIvAra meM mArA manane tapAsyuM che...' kema ATalo badho moha che putra upara? kumAranI AvI ghora tapazcaryA jovA chatAM.. ene aNagAra banavAnI anumati ApavA mana kema mAnatuM nathI? devI, eka divasa dharmeza sAthe tattvacarcA karatAM, teNe mane kaheluM : karmanA udayo sApekSa hoya che. eTale ke eka jIvanA zubhAzubha karmonA udayo, bIjA jIvonA karmonA udayane sApekSa hoya che. kumArano aMtarAya karmano udaya ApaNA mohanIya karmane sApekSa hoI zake! ApaNo moha enI cAritranI bhAvanAmAM vighna banyo che ne? eTaluM ja nahIM, A vAtane samajavA chatAM moha ghaTato nathI. ApaNo maha nAza pAmato nathI-e karmanI kevI pragADhatA?" nAtha, eno artha ema thAya ne ke kumAranuM aMtarAyakarma tUTe to ApaNA moha nAza pAme?' evuM paNa bane, ane ApaNo moha nAza pAme to enuM aMtarAyakarma tuTe, ema paNa bane!" "to ApaNane ene cAritra levAnI anumati ApavAnuM mana thaI jAya, emane?" hA, paraMtu dasa varSa vItI javA chatAM ApaNe ene anumati nathI ApI zakyAM.... kevAM bhAre karma che ApaNAM? sAcuM jANavA chatAM... e AcarI zakatAM nathI. mArA hRdayamAM kyAreka kyAreka A vAtanI bhAre pIDA thAya che...' moha hovA chatAM sAcuM jJAna hoI zake? "hA, mohadazA ajJAnadazA kAMika maMda thAya eTale sAcuM jJAna thAya, ene tIrthaMkaro "samyagdarzana' kahe che. AtmAmAM samyagdarzana pragaTe eTale mokSamArga game.. paraMtu e mokSamArge cAlavAnI icchA to tyAre pragaTe ke jyAre mohanIyakarma sarvathA nAza pAme.." zivanuM mohanIyakarma ghaNuM nAza pAmyuM che ne? gharamAM rahIne e kevI utkRSTa dharmArAdhanA kare che? kevI ghora tapazcaryA kare che?' devI, e to gharamAM rahelo sAdhu ja che." "sAcI vAta che ApanI. ane dharmeza paNa kumAranI sAthe sAdhu jevuM ja jIvana jIve che ne? mitranI khAtara eNe potAnAM badhAM ja bhautika-sukha tyajI dIdhAM che...!! For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta "duniyAmAM Avo mitra maLavo durlabha che. sAthe sAthe zeTha ane zeThANIno tyAga paNa nAno-sUno nathI... kharekhara, e parivAre ApaNA mATe adbhuta samarpaNa karyuM che.." rAjA-rANI vicAromAM DUbI gayAM. rAtrIno samaya hato. zeThANI vatsalA, zreSThI "kAmasamRddha' nI pAse beThAM hatAM. vatsalAe maunano bhaMga karatAM kahyuM : svAmInAtha, rAjA-rANInI mohadazA ghaNI prabaLa che... ne? dasa-dasa varSa vitI gayAM, kumAra kevI AkarI tapazcaryA kare che.... chatAM e bannenAM hRdaya pIgaLatAM nathI." "A saMsAramAM mohanuM sAmrAjya che.' "chatAM ApaNe dharmezano moha toDyo ne? koInA upara mohano pragADha prabhAva hoya che, koInA upara ocho... ApaNI mohadazA na hota to saMsArano tyAga karI cAritranA mArge na jAta? ApaNe saMsAramAM kema rahyAM chIe?' ApanI vAta yathArtha che svAmI, chatAM ApaNe putramoha to choDyo che ne?' devI, e ApaNuM kartavya banI gayuM hatuM. kumAranI khAtara... enI uccatam bhAvanAnI khAtara... dharmeze je nirNaya karyo tene vadhAvavAnI ApaNI pharaja hatI. kyAreka bhAvanAo karatAM kartavya mahAna banI jatuM hoya che. bhAvanAone kacarIne paNa kartavyapAlana karavAnuM hoya che. kartavyanI upekSA karIne bhAvanAnA pravAhamAM vahI na javAya. mArA-tamArA hRdayamAM putra pratye zuM prema nathI? che ja, paraMtu kartavyanI AgaLa e premane gauNa karavo paDyo. tame dharmezanA tyAganI vAta karo cho, paraMtu putravadhUno tyAga kAMI ocho che? e paNa dharmezanI icchAne zAnta cita kevI anusarI che? ane yuvarAjJIe paNa kevo mahAna tyAga karyo che? devI, kumArano, dharmezano ane ApaNo A mahAna puNyodaya che ke ApaNane anukULa parivAra maLyo che. bhale rAjA-rANI kumArane cAritranI anumati nathI ApatAM, paraMtu kumAranI bhAva-sAdhutAnI ArAdhanAmAM koI aMtarAya paNa nathI karatA! A dRSTie kumArano puNyodaya paNa nAno-sUno nathI." For Private And Personal Use Only

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svargavAsa 'hA, kumAra koI ja rokaToka vinA, samatAbhAve ArAdhanA karyuM jAya che. badhAM ja svajano anukULa che. badhAMne kumAra pratye sahAnubhUti che ane ahobhAva dasa-dasa varSathI lagAtAra chaThThanA pAraNe AyaMbilanuM tapa karIne... zarIra kevuM kRza karI dIdhuM che? sAthe sAthe kaSAyone paNa kevA phaza karI dIdhA che? na roSa, na abhimAna, na mAyA, na lobha! kevI apUrva samatA eNe sAdhI lIdhI che? jANe ke saMsAra ane mokSa pratye paNa samabhAva AvI gayo che. sAthe sAthe dharmeza paNa kevo anAsakta yogI banI gayo che? eNe paNa badhI mAyA-mamatA utArI nAMkhI che. mAruM mana to kahe che ke A be AtmAo nikaTanA bhaviSyamAM mokSadazA prApta karI leze. nAtha, mArA mananI eka vAta kahuM?' vatsalAe pUchayuM. "saMkoca vinA kaho!" mane kyAreka kyAreka A saMsAra tyajI sAdhvI banavAnI icchA thaI Ave che. zuM Apa mane anumati Apazo?' zreSThI vatsalAne joI rahyA. teo bhAvavihvaLa banI gayA. temaNe kahyuM : devI, anumati to maLaze ja, paraMtu tamArI sAthe huM paNa saMsArano tyAga karIza... paraMtu hajI vAra che... kumAra ane dharmezano ApaNe khyAla karavAno che. emanI kALajI rAkhavAnI che. emanI ArAdhanAmAM sahAyaka banavAnuM che.' vatsalA AnaMdavibhora thaI gaI. 0 0 kALa vahyuM ja jAya che. e kyAre paNa Ubho raheto nathI. e rIte anaMta kALa vItI gayo che. to pachI dasabAra varSane vItatAM keTalI vAra? gharamAM rahIne, ugra tapazcaryA sAthe bhAva-sAdhutAne jIvatAM jIvatAM zivakumAranAM bAra varSa vItI gayAM. kumAranuM yauvana-bharapUra akALe jIrNa-zIrNa banI gayuM. lohI ane mAMsa sukAI gayAM... rahyuM mAtra asthi-pija2. paraMtu e mahAtmAne zarIranI paravA ja kyAM hatI? e to zAzvat.. avinAzI AtmAno Azaka banelo hato. AtmAnaMdamAM teNe lInatA sAdhelI hatI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka rAta aneka vAta eka divase kumAre dharmezane kahyuM : mitra, have A dehanuM devaLa jIrNa thaI gayuM che. thoDAka divasomAM e paDI jaze, ema mane lAge che." mahAtmA, tame pratipaLa jAgrata cho AtmabhAvamAM!' chatAM kadAca A kSAyopathamika bhAvanI jAgRti dago daI jAya... to tuM mane aMtima ArAdhanA karAvaje. AtmasamAdhimAM lIna banyo rahuM. basa, vizeSa koI icchA nathI.' dharmezanI AMkho AMsubhInI banI. kumAre kahyuM : dharmeza, have huM anazana karI levA cAhuM chuM. tIrthaMkara bhagavaMto kahe che ke jyAre mRtyu nikaTa bhAse tyAre anazana karI levuM joIe. mane mAruM mRtyu nikaTa bhAse che.' pAsenA khaMDamAM besIne be mitrono vArtAlApa sAMbhaLI rahelI kozalA dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDI. "huM mRtyuno mahotsava UjavIza dharmeza!' tame jIvanane jIvI jANuM che... eTale mRtyu mahotsavarUpa banI ja javAnuM che. paraMtu atyAre zA mATe mRtyuno vicAra karavo? mRtyuno nahIM, samAdhi-mRtyuno vicAra karavo ja joIe, mRtyu paNa tattvaciMtanano viSaya che ne? alabatta, huM motathI nirbhaya chuM. huM motanuM svAgata samatA ane samAdhi dvArA karIza!' dharmeza jANe Aje mauna thaI gayo hato. kumAre kahyuM : anazana karavA pUrve huM sahunI sAthe kSamApanA karavA icchuM chuM. tuM badhAM svajanone ahIM bolAva.. have vilaMba nathI karavo." dharmeza kumAra sAme joyuM. UMDI UtarI gayelI AMkhomAM samatAnI bhInAza varatAtI hatI. sukAI gayelA mukha upara tapazcaryAnuM teja patharAyeluM hatuM. te thoDI kSaNa joto ja rahyo. kAMIka vicAryuM. Ubho thayo ane mahArAja padmarathanA khaMDa tarapha cAlyo. teNe khaMDamAM akALe vRddha banI gayelAM rAjA-rANIne beThelAM joyAM. udAsI, vyathA... vedanA ane ajaMpAe temane gherI lIdhAM hatAM. dharmeze khaMDamAM praveza karI, rAjA-rANIne praNAma karI kahyuM : For Private And Personal Use Only

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80 svargavAsa mahArAjA, Apa jANo cho ne juo cho ke kumArano deha ati jarjarita thaI gayo che. Aje kumAre mane kahyuM che ke have te Aja ke kAlathI "anazana" karaze.' "anazana?' mahArAjA UbhA thaI gayA. rANI becena thaI gaI. 'hA mahArAjA, mRtyune mahotsavarUpa banAvavA mahAtmA puruSo anazana karatA hoya che. ane anazana karavA pUrve teo sahu jIvo sAthe kSamApanA karI AtmabhAvane vizeSa nirmaLa karatA hoya che. kumAra sahu jIvo sAthe kSamApanA karavA sAthe, Apa sahunI sAthe vizeSa prakAre kSamApanA karavA icche che. mATe Apa sahu kumAranA khaMDamAM padhAro.' mahArAjAe rANI sAme joyuM. rANI yazodA codhAra AMsue raDI rahyAM hatAM. mahArAjAe kahyuM : devI, zAnta thAo, svastha thAo. ApaNe kumAranA jIvanane to mahotsavarUpa na banavA dIdhuM, have mRtyune mahotsavarUpa banAvavAmAM to nimitta banIe. huM chellA cha mahinAthI kumAranA zarIrane joI rahyo chuM. te ati kSINa thatuM cAlyuM che. devI, have ApaNe kumAranI icchAne AdhIna banIe. cAlo, kumAra ApaNane bolAve che. kezalAne paNa bolAvI lo. ane dharmeza, zeTha-zeThANIne paNa bolAvI lAvo. e paNa amArA parivAranA abhinna svajano che." 0 0 0 kumAranA khaMDamAM rAjaparivAra ane zreSThI parivAra besI gayo. dharmeza zivakumAranA paDakhe besI gayo. kumAre gaMbhIra... mRdu.. maMda svare kahyuM : Apa sahu mArA upakArI cho. ApanA mArA para nAnA moTA aneka upakAro thayelA che. mArAthI jANatAM-ajANatAM ApanA koI aparAdha thayA hoya, ApanA dilane dubhavyuM hoya, huM e aparAdhonI kSamA yAcuM chuM. Apa mane kSamA Apo. huM Apa sahu pratye kSamAbhAva dhAraNa karuM chuM. A jIvasRSTimAM mAro koI zatru nathI. sarva jIvo mArA mitro che. huM punaH punaH Apa sahune khamAvuM chuM.' kumAra bolatAM bolatAM thAkI gayA. mahArAjAe kahyuM : he vatsa, huM ane tArI mAtA, ame tAro akSamya aparAdha karyo che. tArA zreyamArgamAM viSNabhUta banyAM chIe. mohavaza... ajJAnavaza... ame tArA manane For Private And Personal Use Only

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9o eka rAta aneka vAta kaSTa pahoMcADyuM che. teM amane kSamA ApI ja dIdhI che. chatAM ame banne punaH punaH kSamAyAcanA karIe chIe. - vatsa, teM anazana karavAno zubha saMkalpa karIne mRtyune mahotsavarUpa banAvyuM che. tuM samatA-samAdhimAM lIna ja che. tAruM Urdhvagamana nizcita ja che. he mahAtmanuM! tAro mArga kuzaLa ho." - mAgha zuklA paMcamInI vahelI savAre, brAhma muhUrtamAM zivakumArano AtmA jUnuM ne jIrNa dehamaMdira tyajI gayo. pAMcamA devaloka (brahmadevalokomAM eno janma thayo. tenuM nAma vidyumbhAlI! - kumAranA svargavAsa pachI tarata ja dharmezanI sAthe zeTha-zeThANI ane dharmezanI patnIe cAritradharma svIkAryo. - zalAe paNa saMyamamArge prayANa karyuM. - saMsAravAsamAM rahelAM rAjA-rANIe zreSTha koTinuM zrAvakajIvana jIvIne devagati prApta karI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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| 13. jaMbUkumAra | devI, tamAruM zarIra dinapratidina kRza thatuM jAya che - ema mane lAge che." nAtha, mAruM zarIra sAruM che. mane koI roga nathI.' zarIramAM bhale koI roga na hoya, manamAM koI ciMtA hoya, udvega hoya to paNa zarIra para asara thAya che. kyAreka tamArA mukha para udAsInatA dekhAya che. UMDI ciMtAnI rekhAo mukha para dekhAya che.' nAtha, tamArA premALa sAMnidhyamAM mane koI vAte duHkha nathI.' to pachI ciMtA zAnI che? mane nahIM kaho?" nagarazreSThI RSabhadatte zeThANI dhAriNInI AMkhomAM AMkho parovIne mRdu zabdomAM sahAnubhUtipUrvaka pUchayuM. RSabhadatta zreSThI rAjagRha nagarano karoDapati sArthavAha hato, magadhasamrATa zreNikano prItipAtra zreSThI hato. rAjagRhanI prajA mATe sahAro hato, Azraya hato. rAtrino samaya hato. zayanagRhamAM ratnadIpakono prakAza patharAyelo hato. RSabhadatta sonAnA palaMga para beTho hato. enA caraNomAM jamIna para dhAriNI beThI hatI. nAtha, mane kaI ciMtA hoya, te zuM Apa nathI jANI zakatA? eka strInA jIvanamAM.." zuM nathI maLyuM devI tamane? ApaNI pAse kubera jevo vaibhava che. ApaNAM zarIra nIrogI che. mahArAjA mane cAhe che. tamane mAro pUrNa prema maLe che. ne kuLadevInI ApaNA para parama kRpA che." nathI kRpA kuLadevInI nAtha, jo kuLadevInI kRpA hota to mane koI vAtanI ciMtA na hota.' pabhadatta vicAramAM paDI gayo. thoDI kSaNo vItI. teNe dhAriNI sAme joyuM. tenA mukha para thoDI glAni UpasI AvI. teNe kahyuM : devI, have samajI gayo tamArA du:khanuM kAraNa... strIne patino game teTalo prema maLe, chatAM enuM hRdaya saMtAnane jhaMkhatuM hoya che. saMtAnanuM sukha e cAhatuM hoya che." dhAriNInI AMkhomAMthI AMsu TapakavA mAMDyAM. RSabhadatte potAnA uttarIya vastrathI AMsu lUchI nAMkhyAM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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92 eka rAta aneka vAta dhIraja rAkho devI, e sukha paNa ApaNane maLaze... deva-devIno anugraha yogya kALe thato hoya che. bhAgyodaya paNa enA nizcita samaye thato hoya che. bIjo badhI jAtano bhAgyodaya thayelo che... to e bhAgyodaya paNa thaze... ciMtA choDI do. koI sukhanI tIvra icchA na karavI joIe.' ApanI vAta sAcI che nAtha, paraMtu mArA manamAM saMtAna-sukhanI tIvra icchA jAgI gaI che." 'e icchAthI mukta thavA have huM tamArI sAthe vadhu samaya gALIza. ApaNe sAthe sAthe ramaNIya sthaLomAM paribhramaNa karIzuM. rasamaya vAto karIzuM... tethI pelA vicAro karavAno tamane avakAza ja nahIM maLe.' to to mArAM ahobhAgya mAnIza. ApanA sAMnidhyamAM huM bIjI badhI vAto bhUlI jAuM chuM." "AvatI kAle ApaNe rAjagRhanA ekAda ramaNIya pahADa upara ja IzuM." RSabhadattanAM snehabharyA ane sahAnubhUtibharyA vacana sAMbhaLIne dhAriNI AnaMdita banI gaI. bIjA divase prabhAte, Avazyaka kAryothI paravArI, dhAriNInI sAthe kSabhadatta rathamAM besI, vaibhAragirinI taLeTImAM pahoMcyo. rathane taLeTImAM mUkI, patipatnI pahADa para caDhavA lAgyAM. RSabhadatta dhAriNIno hAtha pakaDIne, pahADa uparanAM vRkSono paricaya karAve che. pakSIonI oLakhANa Ape che. vRkSo para laTakatAM phaLanuM varNana kare che. dhAriNI apUrva AnaMda anubhave che. pahADanI upara banne eka drAkSanA bagIcAmAM jaIne bese che. tyAM temaNe yazomitra nAmanA siddhaputrane joyo. RSabhadatta yazomitrane oLakhato hato. are yazomitra, tame ahIM zA mATe AvyA cho?' yazomitre RSabhadattane joyo. te pAse Avyo. RSabhadatte UbhA thaIne yazomitranuM svAgata karyuM. zreSThI. ahIM zrI mahAvIra svAmInA ziSya sudharmAsvAmI birAjelA che. huM temanAM darzana mATe jaI rahyo chuM. zuM tamane jANa nathI thaI?' nA re, huM jANato ja nathI!" to cAlo mArI sAthe, huM tamane e mahApuruSanAM darzana karAvuM." yazomitranI sAthe RSabhadatta ane dhAriNI, zrI sudharmA svAmInAM darzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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bUkumAra karavA cAlyAM. yazomitre raste cAlatAM cAlatAM zrI sudharmA svAmInA guNonuM varNana karyuM. teonI kSamAzIlatA, namratA, saraLatA, nirlobhatA.. indriyavijaya.. AtmasvarUpanI ramaNatA... vagere guNo batAvIne ahobhAva vyakta karyo. vaibhAragiri uparanA udyAnamAM munirvAdanI sAthe sudharmAsvAmI birAjelA hatA. yazomitranI sAthe RSabhadatta ane dhAriNIe sudharmA svAmIne bhAvapUrvaka vaMdanA karI ane vinayapUrvaka jamIna para beThAM. sudharmAsvAmIe dharmano upadeza Apyo. upadezanuM zravaNa karatAM karatAM dhAriNInA manamAM vicAra Avyo : "AvA trikAlajJAnI gurudeva maLI gayA che, to huM temane pUchI lauM ke mane saMtAnanI prApti thaze ke nahIM! upadeza pUrI thayo eTale dhAriNIe vinayapUrvaka pUchyuM : gurudeva, mane putranI prApti thaze ke nahIM? sudharmA svAmInA mukha para smita AvI gayuM. temaNe yazomitranI sAme joyuM. yazamitre tarata kahyuM : "he bhAgyazAlinI, A ApaNA saMsAranI vAta che. AvI vAta munivarane na puchAya. AvA praznano pratyuttara gurudeva na ApI zake. A tamArA praznano uttara huM ApuM chuM.' A dhAriNIne potAnI bhUla samajAI. tene glAni thaI AvI, tyAM yazomitre kahyuM : "tamane putranI prApti thaze. tamane siMhanuM svapna Avaze. e svapnanI sAthe ja eka deva tamArA udaramAM avataraze." "he mahAnubhAva, tamArI amRta jevI vAta sAMbhaLI meM apUrva AnaMda anubhavyo che. huM A nimitte ekaso ne ATha (108) AyaMbila karIza" teNe RSabhadatta sAme joyuM. trapabhadatte dhAriNInA saMkalpane anumodana ApyuM. temaNe punaH gurudevane vaMdanA karI ane ghare javA pAchA vaLyAM. 0 0 0 divaso vItyA. eka rAtre dhAriNIe siMhanuM svapna joyuM. svapna joIne te jAgI ane zrI navakAra maMtranuM smaraNa karyuM. zrI sudharmA svAmInuM smaraNa karyuM. prabhAta sudhI te jAgatI rahI. prabhAtamAM teNe RSabhadattane svapnanI vAta karI. RSabhadane kahyuM: devI, siddhaputra, yazomitranI bhaviSyavANI sAcI paDI. tame putranI mAtA banazo! tamArI saMtAna sukhanI icchA pUrNa thaze." For Private And Personal Use Only

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94 eka rAta aneka vAta dhAriNI garbhavatI banI hatI. tenA manamAM aneka zubha manoratha jAgavA lAgyA ane RSabhadatta e manoratho pUrNa karavA mAMDyA. dhAriNI garbhanuM samucita pAlana karatI rahI ane eka divase teNe koI paNa jAtanI pIDA vinA suMdara putrane janma Apyo. pelo vidyummAlI deva ja putrarUpe avataryo! vidyumnAlI deva, e ja zivakumArano jIva! RSabhadatte putrajanmano bhavya mahotsava mAMDyo. garIbone dAna ApavA mAMDyuM. svajanono satkAra karyo. paramAtmAnAM maMdirone zaNagAryA. bhAvapUrvaka pUjA karI. putranuM nAma jaMbUkumAra pADavAmAM AvyuM. 0 0 0 A ja nagaramAM RSabhadattanI kakSAno eka zreSThI hato samudrapriya. tenI patnInuM nAma hatuM padmAvatI. temane eka ja putrI hatI. tenuM nAma hatuM samudrazrI, evo ja bIjo dhanADhya zreSThI hato samudradatta. tenI patnI hatI kanakamAlA. temanI putrInuM nAma hatuM padmazrI. trIjo zreSThI hato sAgaradatta, tenI pAse paNa vipula saMpatti hatI. tenI patnInuM nAma hatuM vinayazrI. temanI putrI hatI padmasenA. cothA zreSThInuM nAma hatuM kuberadatta ane tenI patnInuM nAma hatuM dhanazrI. temanI putrI hatI kanakasenA. A cAra kanyAo-samudrazrI, padmazrI, padmasenA ane kanakasenA svargamAM vidyumbhAlI devanI devIo hatI. svargamAMthI cyavane te cAreya rAjagRhamAM janmI hatI. pAMcamo zreSThI hato kanakasena. tenI patnInuM nAma hatuM kanakavatI. temanI putrI hatI nabhasenA. chaThThA zreSThInuM nAma hatuM zramaNadatta. tenI patnI hatI zrISeNA. temanI putrInuM nAma hatuM kanakazrI. sAtamAM zreSThInuM nAma hatuM vasusena. tenI patnI hatI vIramati. temanI putrInuM nAma hatuM kanakavatI. AThamo zreSThI hato vasupAlita. tenI patnI hatI jayasenA. temanI putrInuM nAma hatuM jayazrI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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jaMbUkumAra 85 A ATha zreSThIo jevA dhanavAna hatA evA ja guNavAna hatA. temanAM kuLa uttama hatAM. temanI ATheya kanyAo jevI rUpavatI hatI evI ja guNavatI hatI. suzIla hatI ane buddhimatI hatI. umara paNa lagabhaga badhAMnI samAna hatI. ATheya zreSThIo paraspara saMbaMdhothI saMkaLAyelA hatA ane RSabhadattanI sAthe ATheya zreSThIono mITho saMbaMdha hato. eka divasa jogAnujoga samudrapriya zreSThInI havelImAM ATheya zreSThIo bhegA thaI gayA. saMsAra-vyavahAranI vAto karatAM karatAM samudrapriye kahyuM: "mArI icchA samudrazrInuM sagapaNa jaMbUkumAra sAthe karavAnI che. RSabhadatta mArI mAgaNI mAnya rAkhaze ja.' samudradatte kahyuM : "mArA manamAM paNa e vAta ghoLAyA kare che. huM paNa padmazrInuM sagapaNa jaMbUkumAra sAthe karavA cAhuM chuM." tyAre sAgaradane kahyuM : "to pachI ApaNI ATheyanI ATha kanyAone jaMbUkumAra sAthe paraNAvI daIe to kema? jo ApanA sahunI icchA hoya to ApaNe ATheya jaNA RSabhadattanI pAse jaIne ApaNI icchA batAvIe. mane to zraddhA che ke RSabhadatta ApaNI icchAno svIkAra karaze ja. ApaNane sahune e cAhe che." sAgaradatta zreSThInI vAta sahune gamI. ATheya zreSThIoe RSabhadattanI pAse javAno nirNaya karyo ane divasa nakkI karyo. tatkAlIna samAjaracanAmAM eka puruSa aneka patnIo karI zakato hato. alabatta, puruSamAM aneka patnIonuM pAlana karavAnuM sAmarthya apekSita hatuM. tanathI baLavAna ane dhanathI samRddha puruSa aneka patnIo karI zakato hato. eka zubha divase samudrapriya zreSThInI AgevAnI nIce sahu zreSThIo RSabhadattanI havelI para pahoMcyA. potAnA svajana jevA ATha zreSThIonuM RSabhadane umaLakAthI svAgata karyuM ane satkAra karyo. arasa-parasa kuzalapRcchA karyA pachI RSabhadatte kahyuM : zreSThIvaryo, kRpA karIne kaho ke ahIM zA mATe, zA kAme Apa sahu padhAryA cho? samudrapriya zreSThIe kahyuM : "ame eka mahattvapUrNa kAma mATe AvyA chIe." tame Aya bhegA thaIne AvyA tyArathI ja huM samajI gayo hato ke vizeSa prayojana hovuM joIe. kaho, mArA yogya je koI sevAkArya hoya te niHsaMkoca kaho." For Private And Personal Use Only

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96. eka rAta aneka vAta amAre sahune eka eka kanyA che, e Apa jANo cho. amArI e ATheya kanyAonuM pANigrahaNa ApanA suputra jaMbUkumAra sAthe thAya, evI amArI icchA che. samudrapriye madhura zabdomAM vAta mUkI. be kSaNa vicAra karIne RSabhadatte kahyuM : "zreSThIvaryo, huM tamane svajana sadaza mAnuM chuM. tamArI kanyAo sAthe mArA putrano saMbaMdha thAya, e yogya ja che. paraMtu haju mAro jaMbU ane tamArI kanyAo nAnI che." bhalene nAnAM hoya bALako, sagapaNa to thaI zake che. lagna tame kahezo tyAre karIzuM." RSabhadatte aMdaranA khaMDamAM jaIne dhAriNI sAthe parAmarza karyo, dhAriNIe e ATheya kanyAone joyelI hatI. e ATha ghara sAthe Ameya RSabhadattanA sArA saMbaMdho hatA. dhAriNIe saMmati pradarzita karI. RSabhadatte maMtraNAkhaMDamAM AvIne ATheya zreSThIone kahyuM : "he zreSThIvaryo, mArA putra jaMbU sAthe tamArI ATha kanyAono saMbaMdha thAya, te amane iSTa che. A saMbaMdha ApaNA sahu mATe sukhadAyI banaze, gauravarUpa banaze." samudradatta zreSThIe harSathI gadgad svare kahyuM : "he zreSThIratna, tame amArI kanyAono svIkAra karIne amArA upara mahAna upakAra karyo che. amArI kanyAono mahAna bhAgyodaya thayo che." mahAnubhAvo, tame sahue paNa mArA para evo ja upakAra karyo che. ApaNA saMbaMdhone daDha karyA che. ATha zreSThIo prasannacitte potapotAnA ghare cAlyA gayA. ghare jaIne dareke potapotAnI patnIone badhI vAta karI. kanyAoe paNa vAto sAMbhaLI. te AnaMdavibhora thaI gaI. jaMbUkumAra jevo pati maLavA badala teo potAne bhAgyazALI mAnavA lAgI. rAjagRhanA ghare ghare A navA saMbaMdhanI vAta pahoMcI gaI. lokoe prazaMsA karavA mAMDI. koI jaMbUkumAranA puNyanI prazaMsA kare che to koI ATha zreSThI kanyAonA bhAgyanI sarAhanA kare che. koI e zreSThIonI khAnadAnInI prazaMsA kare che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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14. jaMbUno vairAgya ! kALa niraMtara gatizIla che. divaso vIte che, mahinAo vIte che, varSo vIte che. A rIte anaMtakALa vItI gayo che ane anaMtakALa vItI jaze. anaMta jIvo A kALacakramAM bhIMsAI rahyA che. to anaMta jIvo A kALacakrane bhedIne janma-mRtyuthI mukta thaI gayA che. rAjagRha nagarano jIvanapravAha AnaMda-ullAsathI vahI rahyo hato. prajA sukha-zAntithI dharma-artha ane kAma-puruSArthamAM nirata hatI. RSabhadatta zreSThInI havelImAM bAre mAsa utsavanuM vAtAvaraNa jAmeluM hatuM. khUba lADa-pyArathI jaMbUkumAranuM pAlana thatuM hatuM. zeThANI dhAriNI svayaM jaMbunI kALajI rAkhatAM hatAM. havelImAM nokara-cAkaro ghaNA hatA. jaMbU mATe zreSTha adhyApako niyukta karavAmAM AvyA hatA. akSarajJAnathI mAMDIne aneka viSayonuM jJAna jaMbUne ApavAmAM AvatuM hatuM. aneka kaLAo paNa tene zIkhavavAmAM AvatI hatI. jaMbUkumAranuM guNamaya vyaktitva sahu koI paricita-aparicita lokone AkarSatuM hatuM. tenAM madhura vacano sahunA hRdayamAM sneha pedA karatAM hatAM. tenI samajaNabharI vAto sAMbhaLatAM snehIjano dharAtA na hatA. jyAre jaMbUkumAra soLa varSano thayo tyAre rAjagRhamAM zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIranA paTTadhara gaNadhara zrI sudharmAsvAmI padhAryA. samagra magadha rAjyamAM teo parama AdaraNIya hatA, ArAdhya hatA ane pUjanIya hatA. teo bhUtabhAvi ane vartamAnanA jJAtA hatA. teja:puMja hatA. indriyavijetA hatA. teo utkRSTa puNyazALI mahAtmA hatA. hajAro sAdhu-sAdhvIne teo mokSamArganI ArAdhanAmAM mArgadarzaka hatA. rAjagRhanA bAhya pradezamAM AvelA guNazIla caityanA vizALa udyAnamAM teo birAjamAna hatA. rAjagRhanAM hajAro strI-puruSo temanAM darzana karavA ane temano dharmopadeza sAMbhaLavA udyAnamAM pahoMcI gayAM. jaMbUkumAra paNa rathamAM besIne udyAnamAM pahoMcyo. gaNadhara bhagavaMtanAM darzana karIne vinayapUrvaka te dharmopadeza sAMbhaLavA besI gayo. ekAgra citte tanmaya banIne sAMbhaLato rahyo. te enA nAnakaDA jIvanamAM sarvaprathama upadeza sAMbhaLato For Private And Personal Use Only

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98 eka rAta aneka vAta hato. upadeza sAMbhaLatAM sAMbhaLatAM pUrvajanmonA tyAga, vairAgyanA saMskAro jAgrata thavA lAgyA. tene saMsAranAM sukho svapnavata-mithyA lAgavA mAMDaDyAM. zramaNajIvananuM AkarSaNa pragaTavA mAMDayuM. vaiyika sukhonI icchAo virAma pAmavA mAMDI, traNa kalAkamAM eNe potAnA manamAM jIvana-parivartanano nirNaya karI lIdho. upadeza zravaNa karIne loko praphullita citte nagara tarapha cAlyA. jaMbUkumAra tyAM besI rahyo. badhA loko cAlyA gayA pachI e zrI sudharmAsvAmI pAse gayo. traNa pradakSiNA dIdhI. bhAvapUrvaka vaMdanA karI ane vinayapUrvaka bolyo : 'gurudeva, Aje Apano upadeza sAMbhaLatAM mArUM mana gRhavAsa pratye virakta banyuM che. zramaNajIvana jIvavA mATe mAro AtmA tatpara banyo che. prabho, Apa ahIM rokAvAnI kRpA karazo. huM mAtA-pitAnI anumati laIne zIghra pacho AvuM chuM. Apa mane cAritradharma ApIne, A bhavasAgarathI mAro uddhAra karazo ne?' 'vatsa, tArA hRdayamAM uttama bhAva jAgyo che. cAritradharmathI ja AtmAnI mukti thAya che ne parama sukha prApta thAya che. ame ahIM sthiratA karavAnA chIe. tArI pavitra bhAvanAne saphaLa banAvavAmAM vilaMba na karIza.' 'bhagavaMta, huM vilaMba nahIM karI zakuM. mArUM mana ApanAM caraNomAM AvI javA mATe utkaMThita banyuM che. huM hamaNAM ja ghare jaIne mArAM mAtA-pitAnI samakSa mArI bhAvanA vyakta karIza. mane pUro vizvAsa che ke mArAM mAtA-pitA mArI icchAne pUrNa karaze.' vatsa, tAro mArga kuzaLa ho.' zrI sudharmA svAmIe AzIrvAda ApyA ane jaMbUkumAra rathamAM besI nagara tarapha cAlyo. jyAre teno 2tha naga2nA mukhya dvAra pAse pahoMcyo tyAre tyAM seMkaDo hAthIghoDA joyA. hajAro sainikone joyA. tenA rathane nagaramAM pravezavAno mArga avaruddha hato. teNe nagaranA bIjA daravAjA tarapha rathane haMkAryo. bIjA daravAje AvIne jaMbUkumAre joyuM to dvAra upara paththaranI moTI-moTI zilAo laTakatI hatI. duzmanothI bacavAno e rakSAprabaMdha hato. e daravAjAmAM praveza ka2vAnuM jokhamabharyuM hatuM. jaMbUkumAra vicAre che : 'sAhasa karIne daravAjAmAM praveza to karI lauM, paraMtu kadAca ekAda zilA mArA para paNa tUTI paDe... ne prANa nIkaLI jAya mArA, to huM cAritrya dharmanA pAlana vinA ja A manuSyajIvana For Private And Personal Use Only

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99 jaMbUno verAgya gumAvI dauM... nA, nA, evuM khoTuM sAhasa mAre nathI karavuM... jo ke mAre nagaramAM to javuM ja paDaze. sAhasa karavuM paDaze. paraMtu e pUrve huM gurudeva pAse jaIne brahmacaryavrata to laI AvuM. pachI kadAca mota paNa AvI jAya, to mane paralokano bhaya rahe nahIM. brahmacArInI sadgati ja thAya che-ema gurudeve kaheluM che." teNe rathane pAcho guNazIla caitya tarapha vALyo. rathamAMthI UtarI te zrI sudharmAsvAmI pAse gayo. vaMdanA karI ane gurudevane kahyuM : "bhagavaMta, mane AjIvana brahmacarya vrata ApavAnI kRpA karo. jIvanano koI bharoso nathI. mAre vratarahita avasthAmAM maravuM nathI.' teNe nagaranA dvAra para je joyuM hatuM te kahI batAvyuM. gurudeve tene brahmacarya vrata pradAna karyuM. tene parama saMtoSa thayo. te thoDo samaya tyAM rokAyo. punaH e nagaranA mukhya dvAra para pahoMcyo tyAre rasto sApha hato. teNe nagaramAM praveza karyo. te potAnI havelIe pahoMcyo tyAre dvAra para ja RSabhadatta ane dhAriNI maLI gayAM. 0 0 0 pitAnI sAthe jaMbUkamAre bhojana karyuM. udyAnamAMthI AvatAM kema vilaMba thayo e vAta karI. paraMtu brahmacarya vrata lIdhAnI vAta teNe na karI. dhAriNI pAse ja beThelI hatI. jaMbUkumAre kahyuM : pitAjI, Aje gaNadhara bhagavaMtano upadeza sAMbhaLIne kharekhara mane apUrva AnaMda thayo." beTA, zrI sudharmAsvAmI parama jJAna mahApuruSa che. temano upadeza sAMbhaLIne hajAro strI-puruSoe saMsAra tyajI saMyama dharma svIkArelI che, ne svIkArI rahyA "pitAjI, ApanI vAta yathArtha che. teono upadeza sAMbhaLIne mAruM mana paNa saMsAra pratye virakta banI gayuM che. vaiSayika sukho pratye mArA manamAM koI rAga rahyo nathI. eTaluM ja nahIM, mAruM mana saMyama dharma svIkAravA tatpara banI gayuM che. Apa mane anumati Apo pitAjI! mAtAjI! huM saMyama dharmano svIkAra karI mArA AtmAne parama vizuddha karavA IcchuM chuM." For Private And Personal Use Only

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100 eka rAta aneka vAta jaMbUkamAranI vAta sAMbhaLIne dhAriNI ane RSabhadatta stabdha thaI gayAM. bannenI AMkho bhInI thaI gaI. dhAriNI bolI UThI : "nA, beTA nA, tuM AvI vAta na kara. tAro viraha huM jarAya sahana nahIM karI zakuM. tArA upara amAro kevo prema che, te zuM tuM nathI jANato?' RSabhadatte kahyuM : "vatsa, bhale tArA hRdayamAM vairAgya rahe... mane vAMdho nathI. virakta hRdayathI saMsAranAM bhogasukho bhogavaje, paraMtu sAdhu banavAnI vAta na karIza.' "pitAjI, mArA pratye mArI mAtAnI keTalI mamatA che te huM jANuM chuM. Apano kevo pragADha rAga che, te paNa huM jANuM chuM, chatAM A rAganAM baMdhana toDavAM to paDaze ne! eka ne eka divasa saMyogano viyoga thavAno ja che ne!' vatsa, tArI vAta sAcI che. saMyogano viyoga thAya ja che, paraMtu atyAre tuM zA mATe amane viyoganuM duHkha Ape che? tAruM hRdaya vairAgI haze to tuM saMsAranAM sukho bhogavIne pachI paNa saMyama dharma svIkArI zakIza.' "pitAjI, jIvanano AyuSyano zo bharoso che? zramaNa banyA pahelAM ja mRtyu AvI jAya to? zramaNajIvana jIvyA vinA manuSya janmano aMta AvI jAya to.. jIvanano koI artha na rahe. vaLI, saMsAranAM bhogasukho pratye mArA manamAM jarAya AkarSaNa nathI rahyuM. pachI te sukho bhogavavAnI vAta ja kyAM rahe che? mATe mane anumati ApavAnI kRpA karo.' beTA, zramajIvana jIvavuM saraLa nathI. e ghaNuM duSkara jIvana che. e jIvana jIvavAnuM tArUM gaju nathI. mATe e vAta bhUlI jA." e jIvananuM prabaLa AkarSaNa mArA manamAM jAgI gayuM che pitAjI. have huM gRhavAsamAM nahIM rahI zakuM. zramaNanuM kaThora jIvana jIvavA huM tatpara chuM.' dhAriNI codhAra AMsue raDI rahI hatI. RSabhadatta jaMbUne samajAvavA prayatna karI rahyA hatA. jaMbU tenA vicAromAM daDha hato. teNe dhAriNIne zAnta karavAno prayatna karyo. dhAriNIe tene potAnA khoLAmAM laI lIdho. AMsu bharelI AMkhe teNe jaMbU sAme joIne kahyuM : "beTA, zuM tuM tArI A mA pratye paNa virAgI banI gayo? tane tArI mAno koI vicAra nathI Avata? tArA vinA beTA zuM huM jIvI zakIza?" jaMbUkamAra mauna rahyo. tenI AMkho bhInI thaI. teNe mAtA sAme joyuM. dhAriNIe tene potAnI chAtIsaraso cAMpI dIdho. For Private And Personal Use Only

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jaMbUno vairAgya 101 mA, kharekhara huM saMsAramAM nahIM rahI zakuM. mAruM mana UThI gayuM che... A vaiSayika sukhomAMthI..! gurudevanA mAtra eka vAranA saMparkathI mArA AtmAmAM jANe ke pUrvajanmonA saMskAra jAgI gayA che. jANe ke mArA AtmAne jagADavA ja gurudeva ahIM padhAryA che, mA, tAro mArA upara sAco prema che.. huM jANuM chuM. meM mArI eka eka irachA pUrNa karI che. te pratipaLa mArA tana-mananI kALajI rAkhe che. tuM kadAca mane cAritra mArge javAnI anumati nahIM Ape to huM rahIza gharamAM, paraMtu.." jaMbUkumArano svara bhAre thaI gayo. ghAriNIe RSabhadatta sAme joyuM. RSabhadatta gaMbhIra vicAramAM DUbelA hatA. dhAriNIe kahyuM : "vatsa, vadhu nahIM, mArI eka icchA pUrNa kara. "jaMbUkumAre mA sAme joyuM. tuM lagna karI le. mane peTabharIne tAro lagnotsava mANavA de. mArI putravadhUone A gharamAM mAre jovI che." hA vatsa, amArI ATalI icchA pUrNa kara.'RSabhadatte dhAriNInI vAtane anumodana ApyuM. pitAjI, mAtAjI, mAnI lo ke huM lagna karI lauM, te pachI to mane saMyama mArge jatAM nahIM rokI ne? pachI to anumati Apazo ne saMyama mArge javAnI?" dhAriNI ane RSabhadatta vicAramAM DUbI gayAM. jaMbUkumAre kahyuM : "mAtApitA, mAlika ane sadgurunA upakArano badalo vALavo ghaNo muzkela hoya che. tamAro mArA upara moTo upakAra che. tame mArI badhI ja icchAo pUrNa karI che... to tamArI eka icchA pUrNa karavAnuM mAruM kartavya che. huM lagna karIza... paraMtu te pachI tarata huM saMyama dharma svIkArIza, tyAre tame mane nahIM roko ne!' vatsa, tArI vAta upara amAre vicAra karavo paDaze. vaLI ATha kanyAone ane emanAM mAtA-pitAne paNa pUchavuM paDaze. te pachI je te nirNaya karI zakAze.' bhale, Apane je ucita lAge te karo, paraMtu have vilaMba na karazo." jaMbUkamAra mAtA-pitAne praNAma karI potAnA khaMDamAM cAlyo gayo. dhAriNI ane RSabhadatta gaMbhIra chatAM zAnta mudrAmAM jatA putrane joI rahyAM. 0 0 0 dhAriNInA kalpAMtano pAra nathI. dhAraNInI AMkhomAMthI satata AMsu vahI rahyAM che. RSabhadatta maunapaNe tenA pratye apAra sahAnubhUti vyakta karI rahyA che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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10ra eka rAta aneka vAta rAga jema hasAve che tema rAga raDAve che. rAgadazAnI sAthe sukha-du:kha joDAyelAM che. rAgadazAnI sAthe harSa-udvega joDAyelA che. saMsAramAM jIvAtmAthI sahajapaNe rAga thaI jAya che. mAtA-pitA putrapremano vilApa kare che, paraMtu putra vilApa nathI karato. kAraNa ke tenA manamAMthI rAganAM pUra osarI gayAM che. te virakta banI gayo "devI, kalpAMta na karo. jaMbU virakta banI gayo che. e saMyamanA mArge jaze ja.... ane e mArga uttama che. ApaNo rAga ApaNane raDAve che." nAtha, ApanI vAta sAcI che; paraMtu mane ema lAge che ke e lagna karaze. ane ATha-ATha vahuo gharamAM Avaze... e vahuo ja ene samajAvIne saMyama. mArge nahIM javA de! athavA vahuone joIne jaMbU emanA premamAM paDI jaze.... saMyamanI vAta bhUlI jaze. ATheya vahuo rUpavatI che, guNavatI che ane buddhimatI che. teo jarUra jaMbUnA manane mohI leze.' tamArI vAta ThIka che, paraMtu mAno ke jaMbUnuM mana vairAgyamAM daDha rahyuM ane te dIkSA levAnuM nakkI karI nAMkhe to? ATha putravadhUonuM zuM thAya? temanAM mAtA-pitAone ApaNe zo javAba ApavAno?' "to pachI...?' "vaLI, eka vAta ApaNe banne vicArI laIe. jaMbU jo saMyama dharma aMgIkAra kare to pachI ApaNe zuM karavAnuM? zuM ApaNe saMsAramAM rahIzuM? zuM ApaNe saMsAranAM sukha bhogavIzuM? "nA, nA, enA vinA ApaNe saMsAranAM sukha na bhogavI zakIe. enA vinA A havelImAM eka kSaNa paNa rahI na zakIe." dhAriNI raDI paDI. to pachI ApaNe paNa putranI sAthe cAritra dharma aMgIkAra karavAno ne?" hA, hA, putra tyAganA mArge to ApaNe paNa tyAganA mArge ja javAnuM." ane putravadhUonI icchA tyAgamArge cAlavAnI na thAya to emane koNa sAcave? emane sAcavavA, emanI jIvanarakSA khAtara paNa ApaNe saMsAramAM rahevuM paDe! dhAriNIne RSabhadattanI vAta samajAI. RSabhadatte kahyuM : devI, eTale huM ema vicAruM chuM ke ApaNe ATheya kanyAonAM mAtApitAne kahevarAvI daIe ke zrI sudharmA svAmIno upadeza sAMbhaLIne amAro putra vairAgI banyo che. amArA AgrahathI teNe lagna karavAnI hA pADI che, For Private And Personal Use Only

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jaMbUno vairAgya 103 paraMta lagna karyA pachI te saMyama dharma svIkAravAnI vAta kare che. eTale, tame A paristhitino vicAra karIne, lagna karavAM na karavAM - teno nirNaya karazo ane amane jaNAvazo.' "svAmInAtha, A rIte jaNAvI devuM sAruM che. saMbaMdhomAM pahelethI spaSTa vAta karI devI sArI." vaLI, A vAta upara kanyAone paNa vicAravAno samaya maLaze! temane paNa potAnA jIvana aMge vicAra karavAno avasara Apavo joIe ne?" "Apavo ja joIe. temane aMdhArAmAM na rAkhI zakAya.' RSabhadatta UMDA vicAramAM DUbI gayA, dhAriNI RSabhadattane jotI rahI. RSabhadatte dhAriNI sAme joyuM. RSabhadatta bolyA : devI, kevuM banI gayuM acAnaka? jaMbU vairAgI bane.. tyAganA mArge javAno vicAra kare evo vicAra paNa ApaNane ke koIne Avyo nathI. saMsAramAM AvuM Akasmika banI jatuM hoya che. na dhAreluM bane... enuM ja nAma saMsAra.." daMpatI ekabIjAnI sAme joI rahyAM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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15. lagna nakkI thayAM, zreSThI RSabhadattano saMdezo ATheya vevAIone pahoMcI gayo. jANe dharatIkaMpano AMcako lAgyo hoya tema teo halI gayA. mUDha banI gayA. zreSThI samudrapriye tarata saMdezA mokalIne bAkInA sAta zreSThIone potAnA ghare bolAvyA. sahu gaMbhIra hatA. sahunA mukha para ciMtAnI rekhAo UpasI AvI hatI. samudrapriyanI putrI samudrazrIe eka pachI eka zreSThIone havelImAM pravezatA joyA. sahune udAsa ane ciMtAmagna joyA. teNe potAnI mAtA padmAvatIne pUchyuM : 'mA, Aje A badhA zreSThI ApaNe tyAM zA mATe AvyA che? badhA udAsa dekhAya che...' padmAvatI putrInI sAme joI rahI. tenI AMkhomAMthI be AMsu jamIna para TapakI paDavAM. samudrazrIe mAtAnA be hAtha pakaDI lIdhA. e samajI gaI ke jarUra kaMI azubha banI gayuM che. padmAvatIe kahyuM : "beTI, ApaNA sahu mATe vikaTa prazna Ubho thayo che. zreSThI RSabhadane saMdezo mokalyo che ke "jaMbUkamAra vairAgI banyA che. amArA AgrahathI teo lagna karavA to taiyAra thayA che, paraMtu lagna karyA pachI teo dIkSA levAnuM kahe che, eTale tamAre tamArI kanyAonAM lagna karavAM che ke nathI karavAM, teno nirNaya jaNAvo.' e nirNaya karavA mATe A badhA zreSThIo ApaNe tyAM AvyA che. padmAvatInI vAta sAMbhaLIne samudrazrI gaMbhIra vicAramAM paDI gaI. te cUpacApa tyAMthI potAnA khaMDamAM cAlI gaI. 0 0 0 mahAnubhAvo, zreSThI traRSabhadattano saMdezo ApaNane sahune maLI gayo che. huM Apa sahune vinaMtI karuM chuM ke Apa sahu nikhAlasa manathI potapotAno abhiprAya vyakta karo." samudrapriya zreSThIe vAtano prAraMbha karyo. pAse ja beThelA zreSThI samudradatta kahyuM: "jaMbUkumAra vairAgI banyA che. temanI potAnI icchA lagna karavAnI nathI. temanAM mAtA-pitAnA AgrahathI teo lagna karavA taiyAra thayA che. ne lagna karyA pachI teo dIkSA levAnuM kahe che... A paristhitimAM huM mArI kanyAnuM lagna karavAnuM pasaMda nathI karato." For Private And Personal Use Only

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lagna nakkI thayAM 10pa "sAcI vAta che ApanI..." vAtano dora laMbAvatAM zreSThI sAgaradatta bolyA. kumAra dIkSA laI le... pachI ApaNI putrI zuM kare? enA jIvananuM zuM? eTale huM paNa mArI putrInuM lagna jaMbUkumAra sAthe karavAnuM pasaMda nathI karato." kuberadatte kahyuM : "jo ApaNI kanyAone saMsAranAM sukha maLavAnAM ja na hoya, to pachI lagna karavAno artha zo? hA, ApaNe sahu jaIne jaMbUkUmArane samajAvIe... ne teo dIkSAno vicAra paDato mUkI de.. to lagna karI zakAya.' e vAta mane zakya lAgatI nathI." zreSThI kuberadatte kahyuM. emane samajAvavAno prayatna emanAM mAtA-pitAe khUba karelo che. chatAM teo mAnyA nathI. to ApaNA samajAvavAthI e mAnaze kharA? bhale e dIkSA le... huM to mArI kanyA mATe bIjA suyogya chokarAnI tapAsa karIza.' "huM paNa e ja vicAruM chuM... jaMbUkumAra jevA bIjA paNa zreSThIputro maLI jaze...' kanakasena zreSThIe kuberadattanI vAtane Teko ApatAM kahyuM. vairAgI banelA kumAre lagna ja zA mATe karavAM joIe?' e svayaM to lagna karavA icchatA ja nathI. A to emanAM mAtA-pitAnA AgrahathI lagna karavA saMmata thayA che ane Agraha karavAnuM prayojana mane to e lAge che ke eka vakhata lagna thayA pachI ATha patnIonA mohamAM dIkSAnI vAta bhUlI jAya kumAra!" zreSThI zramaNadatte potAno abhiprAya vyakta karyo. eTale, jo ApaNI kanyAo mAnI jAya ane lagna karIe... to mane vAMdho lAgato nathI.' A aMge, to pachI ApaNI kanyAone pUchavuM paDe ne? kanyAone vizvAsa hoya ke "ame lagna karIne kumArane rAgI banAvI zakIzuM... ne dIkSA nahIM levA daIe to lagna karavAmAM mane kAMI khoTuM lAgatuM nathI.' zreSThI vasusene kahyuM. vasupAlite kahyuM : "kanyAo to utsAhamAM "hA" kahI de. paraMtu teo kumArane rAgI na banAvI zake ne kumAra dIkSA laI le... to pachI e kanyAone poka mUkIne jiMdagI sudhI rahevAnuM ne? mATe evuM sAhasa na karavuM joIe." sAteya zreSThIonA abhiprAya jANyA pachI samudrapriya bolyA : mahAnubhAvo, tamArA badhAnA kahevAno sUra mane eka lAge che ke ApaNe ApaNI kanyAonuM lagna jaMbUkumAra sAthe nathI karavuM! barAbara ne?' hA, hA, nathI karavuM. badhA zreSThIo bolI UThyA. "to pachI ApaNe atyAre ja ApaNo nirNaya temane jaNAvI devo joIe.' For Private And Personal Use Only

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106 eka rAta aneka vAta "jaNAvI ja devo joIe. vilaMba zA mATe karavo?" zreSThI samudradatte kahyuM. Apano abhiprAya jaNAvavAnI utAvaLa na karazo pitAjI!' samudrazrIe maMtraNAgRhamAM praveza karIne dhaDAko karI dIdho. sahu zreSThIo samudrazrInI sAme joI rahyA. beTI, tuM zA mATe ahIM AvI?' samudrapriye jarA nArAja thaIne samudrazrIne kahyuM. "eTalA mATe pitAjI huM AvI chuM ke Apa amArA mATe koI nirNaya na karo. amArA bhaviSyano nirNaya amane ATheya kanyAone karavA do." "eTale?' pitAjI, ame ATheya kanyAoe uparanA mALe bhegI thaIne nirNaya karyo che ke ame jaMbUkumAra sAthe ja lagna karIzuM." paNa e tuM lagna karIne dIkSA levAnA che." bhale le dIkSA.. Ape sahue vacana ApeluM che kumAra sAthe amArAM lagna karavAnuM. e vacana Ape pALavuM ja joIe. ApanuM vacana mithyA na thavuM joIe." ame vacanabhaMga nathI karatA. A to jyAre kumAra lagna karyA pachI tarata ja dIkSA levAnI vAta kare che, eTale amAre punarvicAra karavo paDe che. tamArA hitano vicAra ame nahIM karIe to bIjo koNa karaze?" pitAjI, huM je kAMI Apa pUjyonI samakSa kahIza, te amArA ATha vatI kahIza." samudrazrIe ATheya zreSThIo tarapha dRSTi karIne gaMbhIra svare kahyuM : "he pUjyo, Apa amArAM hitano vicAra karanArA cho, emAM jarAya zaMkA nathI. Apa amArA upakArI cho, amArA pAlanahAra cho. amane ucca koTinA saMskAro paNa Ape ja ApelA che. Ape jyArathI amArI sagAI jaMbUkumAra sAthe karI, tyArathI ame emane amArA hRdayamAM patirUpe birAjita karIne haMmezAM emanI mAnasapUjA karI che. have ame emano tyAga karI zakIe kharI? amArA mATe zakya nathI pitAjI, amArA hRdayanA deva to e ja raheze. e vairAgI thayA che. bhale thayA. ame emane rAgI banAvavA pUrA prayatno karIzuM! bhAvo parivartanazIla hoya che. rAgI ja virAgI banI zakato hoya to For Private And Personal Use Only

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lagna nakkI thayAM 107 virAgI rAgI kema na banI zake? he pUjyAM, ame ATha chIe.. e ekalA che! ame emane zuM rAgI nahIM banAvI zakIe? kadAca e rAgI nahIM bane to ame virAgI banIzuM! eTale ke teo amane ATheyane vairAgI banAvI deze! e je mArga leze te mArga ame laIzuM. eTale Apa amArA mATe bIjo vicAra na karazo." zreSThI samudradatte kahyuM : "beTI, tame ATheya kanyAoe bhegA maLIne je vicAryuM che te tamArA ucca koTinA saMskArone anurUpa vicAryuM che. tame mahAna Adarzane AMkho sAmI rAkhIne vicAryuM che. paraMtu beTI, Adarza ane vAstavika jIvana vacce aMtara hoya che... Adarzane jIvanamAM jIvavo saraLa hoto nathI. tame zuM saMyamajIvana aMge vicAryuM che? kumAranI sAthe tame paNa saMyama dharma aMgIkAra karIne sAdhvI banI javAnuM vicAro cho - te aMge huM pUchuM chuM.' samudrazrIe kahyuM : "he pitAtulya zreSThIvarya! ame e aMge paNa svasthatAthI vicAryuM che. Ameya ApaNA gharomAM zramaNa saMskRtithI sahu paricita to che ja. bhagavAna sudharmA svAmIno prabhAva ApaNA sahu upara che. sAdhujIvanathI ApaNe sAva ajANa to nathI ja. jo kumAra zramaNajIvana aMgIkAra karI zake to ame kema na karI zakIe? e je sAdhujIvananAM kaSTo sahI zakaze to ame kema nahIM sahI zakIe? emanI khAtara amAre bhaDabhaDatI AgamAM kUdI paDavuM paDe to paNa kUdI paDIzuM... paraMtu emane choDIne ame A jIvanamAM bIjA koI puruSane pati nahIM karI zakIe...' zuM A nirNaya tamAro ATheya kanyAono che?" zreSThI kuberadane pUchyuM. hA jI, A nirNaya amArA ATheyano che. chatAM Apa sahu potapotAnI kanyAne ekAMtamAM pUchI paNa zako cho. ane eno je pratyuttara maLe te pramANe karI zako cho." zreSThIo eka-bIjAnI sAme jovA lAgyA. emaNe karelA nirNayano, kanyAoe bhUko karI nAMkhyo hato. keTalAka zreSThIone kanyAono nirNaya gamyo hato, keTalAkane nahoto gamyo. samudrapriye pUchyuM : "beTI, tame tamAro nirNaya tamArI mAtAone nahIM jaNAvyo hoya?' "nA pitAjI, ame nirNaya karIne pahelAM Apane ja jaNAvyo che. mAtAone have jaNAvIzuM." For Private And Personal Use Only

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108 eka rAta aneka vAta 'teo nahIM mAne to?" "ame jarUra manAvIzuM. amArI nirNaya aphara che.' samudrazrI maMtraNAgRhamAMthI nIkaLI gaI. punaH ATheya kanyAo bhegI thaI, samudrazrIe ATha zreSThIo sAthe thayelI vAto kahI saMbhaLAvI. sahue potAno daDha saMkalpa puna: doharAvyo : "ame jaMbUkamAra sAthe ja lagna karIzuM.' sahu kanyAo potapotAnA ghera pahoMcI gaI. zreSThIo paNa "pharIthI kanyAonA nirNayane cakAsI joIzuM." evo nirNaya karIne potapotAnI havelIe pahoMcI gayA. zreSThI RSabhadattane bIjA ja divase pratyuttara ApavAno hato, eTale darekanA mana upara bhAra hato. kanyAoe potapotAnI mAtAone potAno nirNaya vinayathI jaNAvI dIdho. pahelAM to mAtAoe rudana karyuM. paraMtu pachI kanyAonA apUrva sattvane joI "A kanyAo amArI kUkhane ajavALavAnuM pagaluM bharI rahI che..." A satyane samajI temaNe kanyAone AzIrvAda ApyA. kanyAo prasannacitta, prasannamukha thaI gaI. rAtrinA samaye zreSThIoe aMtima nirNaya lIdho - "ame amArI kanyAone jebUkumAra sAthe paraNAvIzuM.' 0 0 0 bIjA divase prabhAtamAM ja ATheya vevAIonA ratha zreSThI RSabhadattanI havelInA dvAre AvI pahoMcyA. RSabhadatta sahunuM bhAvabhInuM svAgata karyuM ane vizALa maMtraNAkhaMDamAM teone dorI gayA. kuzaLapRcchA karIne RSabhadane kahyuM : "mahAnubhAvo, mAro saMdeza sAMbhaLIne Apa sahune AMcako lAgyo haze... paraMtu zuM karuM? vAstavika paristhiti Apa sahune jaNAvavI jarUrI hatI, ke jethI bhaviSyamAM mana-duHkha thavAno prasaMga na Ave." zreSThIvarya, Ape saMdezo mokalIne kharekhara, amArA para upakAra karyo che. amane sahune vicAravAno avasara Apyo. ame to vicAryuM paraMtu amArI kanyAoe paNa vicArI lIdhuM!" zreSThI samudrapriye kahyuM. Apano nirNaya niHsaMkoca jaNAvavAnI kRpA karo." RSabhadatte be hAtha joDI mastaka namAvIne kahyuM. mahAnubhAva, ame ATheya maLIne to lagna nahIM karavAno nirNaya karyo For Private And Personal Use Only

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109 lagna nakkI thayAM hato, paraMtu amArI kanyAoe lagna karavAno aphara nirNaya amane jaNAvyo che ane ame sarvee kanyAonA nirNayane svIkAryo che. samudrapriye kahyuM. bahu ucita nirNaya karyo che Ape. mArI putravadhUono nirNaya kharekhara dUradarzitAbharyo che. amArI dhAraNAne saphaLa banAvanAro nirNaya che. huM tamane sahune ane tamArI kanyAone hArdika dhanyavAda ApuM chuM. punaH puna: abhinaMdana ApuM chuM. ApaNo snehasaMbaMdha vadhu pragADha banyo che. have ApaNe lagnano zubha divasa paNa Aje ja nakkI karI nAMkhIe." RSabhadatte tarata jyotiSIne bolAvI lAvavA mATe potAnA munImajIne ravAnA karyA. bIjI bAju RSabhadatte dhAriNInI pAse jaIne zubha samAcAra ApyA. dhAraNI AnaMdathI nAcI UThI. dhAriNI sIdhI jaMbUkamAranA khaMDamAM pahoMcI. jaMbUkamAre UbhA thaIne mAtAnuM svAgata karyuM ane tene bhadrAsana upara besADI. dhAriNIe Asana para besIne kahyuM : beTA, te to amArI vAta mAnI, amArI putravadhUoe paNa lagna karavAnI hA pADI dIdhI jaMbUkumAranA mukha para smita AvI gayuM. dhAriNInA AnaMdanI sImA na rahI. ane hamaNAM ja jyotiSI pAse lagnanuM muhUrta paNa jovarAvavAnuM che. pahelA muhUrtamAM ja lagna levAnAM che...' dhAriNIe jaMbUkamAranA mAthe hAtha pheravatAM kahyuM. mA, ane pachI pahelA ja muhUrta mAre dIkSA levAnI che!' huM tane nahIM rokuM beTA! tArA pitAjI paNa nahIM roke... paraMtu AvanArI putravadhUo roke... to..." "mA, e ciMtA na karIza, emane huM samajAvI daIza!' kadAca e tane samajAvI de!" dhAriNI hasI paDI ane UbhI thaI potAnA khaMDa tarapha cAlI gaI. jaMbUkumAra svagata bole che : "mA, tArA jevI atyaMta pyAra bharelI mAtAne meM samajAvI dIdhI... to pachI e ATha strIone samajAvavI mAre mana atyaMta saheluM kAma che.' lagnanuM muhUrta jANavA jaMbUkumAra mAtAnA khaMDamAM pahoMcyo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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110. eka rAta aneka vAta jyotiSI AvI gayA hatA. temaNe sAta divasa pachInuM vaizAkha suda trIjanuM muhUrta ApyuM. sahu zreSThIoe muhUrtano svIkAra karyo. RSabhadatte jyotiSIne uttama vastra ane alaMkAra ApIne temane vidAya ApI. RSabhadatte kahyuM : "mahAnubhAvo, ApaNane lagna mahotsavanI taiyArI mATe sAta divasano samaya maLyo che. ApaNI icchA mujaba bhavya taiyArIo karI zakIzuM.' ATheya zreSThIoe vidAya lIdhI. potapotAnA rathamAM besI ravAnA thaI gayA. RSabhadatta emane vidAya ApIne sIdhA dhAriNInI pAse AvyA. jaMbUkumAra paNa tyAM ja hato. RSabhadane lagnanA muhUrtanI dhAriNIne jANa karI ane lagnamahotsavanI taiyArIo karavA sUcanA ApI. dhAriNInI AMkhomAM harSanA AMsu UbharAyAM. teNe jaMbUkumArane vAtsalyathI navarAvI dIdho. RSabhadata mAtA-putranA milanane snehabharI AMkhe joI rahyA.... For Private And Personal Use Only

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1 . prabhava maLe che!! jayapura nAmanuM nagara hatuM. vidhyAcalanI taLeTImAM vaselA e nagaranA rAjAnuM nAma paNa viMdhyarAja hatuM. viMdhyarAjanA be putra hatA. moTAnuM nAma hatuM prabhava ane nAnAnuM nAma hatuM prabhu. prabhava parAkramI hato, paraMtu svataMtra prakRtino hato. tene je vAta ThIka lAgatI te taDa ne phaDa kahI deto. vidhyarAjane paNa kaTu vacana saMbhaLAvavAmAM te acakAto nahIM. teno vyavahAra rUkSa hato. tenI vANI kaDavI hatI... AnA kAraNe tenAmAM rahelA udAratA vagere guNo prazaMsA nahotA pAmatA. prabhu paNa vIra rAjakumAra hato. te vinayI, vivekI ane vyavahAradakSa hato. viMdhyarAjano prema teNe saMpAdana karelo hato. tenI vANI madhura hatI. te prajAvatsala hato. viMdhyarAja rAjanItimAM prabhunI salAha letA hatA, evo e buddhimAna hato. vidhyarAja jyAre saMsAranA sukho pratye virakta banyA, tyAre temaNe prabhune rAjA banAvavAno vicAra karyo. maMtrIonI salAha lIdhI ane prabhunA rAjyAbhiSekanI rAjyamAM ghoSaNA karAvI dIdhI. prabhava camakI UThyo. prAcIna rAjaparaMparA mujaba jyaSTha putra rAjyanA adhikArI banato hato, rAjAno uttarAdhikArI banato hato. A paraMparAne viMdhyarAje toDI hatI. svamAnI prabhAvane potAnuM ghora apamAna lAgyuM. tenA manamAM pitA pratye dhora deSa jAgI gayo. te prabhunA rAjyAbhiSekamAM upasthita na rahyo. rAjyAbhiSekanI AgalI rAtre ja te jayapura choDIne dUra cAlyo gayo. teNe viMdhya parvatanI khINomAM... guphAomAM ane zikharo para paribhramaNa karavA mAMDyuM. tenuM mana azAnta hatuM. tenuM hRdaya saMtapta hatuM. eka divasa te eka guphAmAM vizrAma karavA pravezya. guphAmAM eka yogIpuruSa nirAzavadane beThelo hato. prabhave tenI pAse jaI praNAma karyA. yogIe prabhavane joyo. teNe pUchyuM : tuM koNa che? For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra 112 www.kobatirth.org 'eka apamAnita rAjakumAra...' 'ahIM zA mATe Avyo che? 'zAnti mATe...' 'mArUM eka kAma karIza?' 'jo yogya lAgaze to karIza.' Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir eka zata aneka vAta 'huM eka viziSTa siddhi prApta karavA sAdhanA karI rahyo chuM. paraMtu uttarasAdhaka vinA mane sAdhanAmAM saphaLatA maLI rahI nathI. tuM vIra che, parAkramI che ne nirbhaya che, jo tuM mAro uttarasAdhaka banIne ahIM rahe to mane avazya siddhi prApta thaI jAya.' 'tame kaI siddhi prApta karavA sAdhanA karo cho?' 'AkAzamArge UDavAnI siddhi!' 'addabhuta kahevAya! tamArI pAse bIjI paNa siddhio haze?' 'siddhio meLavavAnuM to mArUM jIvana che!' prabhava te yogIno uttarasAdhaka (sahAyaka) banI gayo ane e ja divase rAtrinA samaye yogIne siddhi prApta thaI gaI. yogI prabhava upara saMtuSTa thaI gayo. teNe kahyuM : 'kumAra, tuM parAkramI che, nirbhaya che... chatAM tArA jIvanamAM keTalAMka varSo jaMgalomAM bhaTakavAnuM nizcita che. huM tane be vighAo ApuM chuM. A vidyAo tane upayogI banaze. pahelI vidyA che 'avasvApinI nidrA.' jenA upara tuM A vidyAno prayoga karIza, e ghasaghasATa UMdhavA mAMDaze. bIjI vidyA 'tAlodghATinI.' A vidyAthI game tevAM tALAM paNa khUlI jaze.' yogIe prabhavane be vidyAo ApI. prabhave yogIne praNAma karyA ane guphAmAMthI bahAra nIkaLyo. For Private And Personal Use Only prabhava vicAre che : 'yogInA kahyA mujaba mAre keTalAMka varSo bhaTakavAnuM nakkI che, to pachI viMdhyAcalanA jaMgalamAM ja mArUM sthAna kema na banAvuM? thoDA sAthIdAra paNa meLavI lauM. ane rAjA banelA prabhune paNa camatkAra batAvato rahuM... e prajAnI kevI rakSA kare che... e paNa joI lauM...'

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prabhava maLe che! 113 prabhava parAkramI to hato ja, temAM tene be vighAo maLI gaI, eTale vizeSa zaktizALI banI gayo. teNe judAM judAM gAma-nagaromAM moTI moTI havelIonAM tALAM toDavA mAMDyAM ane havelInA mANasone vidyAzaktithI UMghADI daI... moTI corIo zarU karI dIdhI. thoDA divasomAM ja teNe aDhaLaka dhana bheguM karI lIdhuM ane pacAsa sAthIdAro paNa meLavI lIdhA. sAthIdArone te khUba paisA ApavA mAMDyo. dhIme dhIme teNe viMdhyAcalanI surakSita jagAmAM potAnA pAMcaso sAthIdAronuM nAnakaDuM gAma vasAvI lIdhuM. rAjA prabhu mATe te mAthAno duHkhAvo banI gayo. prajAmAM te priya banavA lAgyo. garIbone chUTA hAthe dAna ApavA lAgyo. zrImaMtone dhoLA divase lUMTavA mAMDyo. rAjagRhamAM jaMbUkumArano bhavyAtibhavya lagnotsava maMDANo. samagra rAjagRhane zaNagAravAmAM AvyuM. garIbone dAna ApavAmAM AvyuM. maMdiromAM phaLa-naivedya caDhAvavAmAM AvyAM. ATha kanyAo sAthe jaMbUkumAranAM lagna thaI gayAM. kanyAonA pitAoe karoDo rUpiyA kanyAdAnamAM ApyA. RSabhadattanI havelImAM rUpiyAnA DhagalA thaI gayA. ATha patnIo sAthe jaMbukumAre kuLadevatAnI pUjA karI. tyArapachI jinamaMdire jaI vidhipUrvaka jinezvara bhagavaMtonI pUjA karI ane havelImAM pAcho Avyo. dhAriNI AnaMdavabhora banI gaI. ATha putravadhUone potAnA khaMDamAM besADI dhAraNIe khUba premathI kahyuM : 'tame jANo cho ke mAro putra vairAgI banelo che. amArA AgrahathI teNe lagna karyAM che. ame Agraha eTalA mATe karyo che ke tame ATha vahuo maLIne mArA putrane rAgI banAvo. tamArI pAse rUpa che, kalAo che... tamAre jaMbUne mohapAzamAM jakaDI levAno che... ene tyAgamArge javA devAno nathI.!' 'mAtAjI, Apano Azaya ame pahelAM ja samajI gaI hatI. ame emane rAgI banAvIne ja jaMpIzuM. moTA moTA yogIpuruSo paNa strInA eka kaTAkSa AgaLa jhUkI gayelA che... to pachI...' samudrazrIe dhAriNInA prastAvane vadhAvatAM kahyuM. 'basa, tame ATaluM kAma siddha karI do! bIjI koI vAte mAre kamI nathI... tame A havelImAM svarganAM sukha anubhavo... e mArI icchA che.' For Private And Personal Use Only

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114 eka rAta aneka vAta ATheya strIone dhAriNImAM premALa mAtAnAM darzana thayAM. temanAM mana prasanna thaI gayAM. dhAriNIe AThe putravadhUone potAnA hAthe bhojana karAvyAM. bhojana karIne temaNe suMdara zaNagAra sajyA ane jaMbUkumAranA bhavya zayanakhaMDamAM praveza karyo. 0 0 0 "saradAra, rAjagRhathI ame AvIe chIe.' prabhavanA be guptacaroe AvIne nivedana karyuM. "rAjagRhanA nagarazreSThI RSabhadattanA putra jaMbUkumAranuM ATha zreSThI kanyAo sAthe lagna thayuM che. kanyAonA pitAoe karoDo rUpiyAnuM kanyAdAna ApyuM che. RSabhadattanI havelImAM sAMbhaLavA mujaba 99 karoDa rUpiyAnA DhagalA thayA che!" prabhave guptacaronI vAta zAntithI sAMbhaLIne pUchyuM : RSabhadattanI havelImAM surakSAno prabaMdha kevo che?" saradAra, RSabhadatta potAne ajAtazatru mAne che. eTale eka paNa cokIdAra nathI. te nizcita che. eTale ApaNA mATe mArga saraLa che." prabhave thoDI kSaNa mATe AMkho baMdha karIne vicAra karyo. teNe manomana nirNaya karyo ane pacIsa cunaMdA sAthIdArone rAjagRha cAlavA AjJA karI. prabhava zastrasajja thayo. sAthIo paNa zastrasajja thayA. sahu potapotAnA azvo para ArUDha thayA ane rAjagRha tarapha prayANa karI dIdhuM. rAtrino eka prahara pUro thayo hato ane prabhave rAjagRhamAM praveza karI dIdho, guptacaroe AgaLa cAlIne RSabhadatanI havelIno rasto batAvyo. azvone temaNe nagaranI bahAra eka surakSita jagAmAM bAMdhIne be sAthIdArone tyAM mUkI dIdhA hatA. prabhave RSabhadattanI havelIne cArebAju pharIne joI lIdhI. havelImAM pravezavAno mArga joI lIdho. potAnA sAthIone izArAthI potAnI pAchaLa AvavA samajAvI dIdhuM. havelImAM pravezIne tarata ja teNe avasthApinI-vidyAno prayoga karI dIdho. RSabhadatta-dhAraNIthI mAMDI havelInA ekeeka strI-puruSa upara enI asara thaI. sahu gADha nidrAmAM paDI gayAM. prabhave jaMbUkamAranA zayanakhaMDamAM praveza karyo. teNe ATha navoDhA strIonA zarIra para ratnajaDita svarNAlaMkAro joyA. eka-eka strInA gaLAmAM nava-nava For Private And Personal Use Only

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prabhava maLe che: 115 lAkha rUpiyAnI kiMmatanA mUlyavAna hAra hatA. ratnakaMkaNa hatAM. bAjubaMdha hatA... ane ATheya strIo nidrAdhIna banI gayelI hatI! teNe jaMbUkamArane palaMga upara beThelo joyo. tenI AMkho baMdha hatI. te bhIMtanA Teke sahajatAthI beThelo hato. prabhave potAnA sAthIdArone kahyuM : "A strIonA zarIra uparathI badhA ja dAgInA utArI lo...' tyAM jaMbUkumAre AMkho kholI ane kahyuM : "dUra UbhA raho, koIe paNa e strIone aDavAnuM nathI, juo, huM jAgato ahIM beTho chuM." prabhava stabdha thaI gayo. ekITase te jaMbUkumAra sAme joI rahyo. "A kumAra upara mArI avasthApinI vidyAnI koI asara kema na thaI? gajaba kahevAya. ATalAM varSomAM AvI ghaTanA pahelI ja vAra banI... avazya, kumAra pAse "stRbhinI' vagere vidyAo hovI joIe. kumAra jAgrata che, nirbhaya che, svastha che! vidyAzaktio vinA A na banI zake. teNe jaMbUkumArane kahyuM : kumAra, huM viMdhyarAjano putra prabhava chuM. huM tAro mitra banavA icchuM chuM. tArI pAse jema vighAzaktio che tema mArI pAse paNa vidyAzaktio che. tArI pAse je "stRbhinI' ane "mokSaNI' be vidyAo che te tuM mane Apa ane huM tane "avasvApinI" tathA "tAloddaghATinI' nAmanI be vidyAo ApuM. A rIte ApaNI mitratAne bAMdhIe.' prabhave jaMbUkamAra pAse AvI mastake aMjali joDI praNAma karyA. jaMbunA mukha para smita AvI gayuM. teNe kahyuM : prabhava, mAre AvI vidyAonI koI jarUra nathI. huM to A havelI.. A strIo.. A vaibhava-saMpati.... svajano badhuM ja choDIne bhagavAna sudharmA svAmInAM caraNamAM jIvana samarpita karI sAdhu banavAno chuM... mAre mArA AtmAne karmonA baMdhanothI mukta karavo che. kahe, huM vidyAzaktione zuM karuM?" prabhave avasvApinI vidyAne saMharI lIdhI. jaMbUkumAranI ATheya patnIo vidyAzaktinI asarathI mukta thaI. jAgrata banIne temaNe prabhava tathA tenA sAthIdArone joyA. devI, tame Darazo nahIM. have A prabhava, ke je eka nAmI cora che, te mAro mitra banI gayo che." jaMbUkumAre ATheya patnIone Azvasta karI. prabhave kahyuM: For Private And Personal Use Only

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116 eka rAta aneka vAta kumAra, tArI vAta mane jarAya samajAI nahIM. tuM gRhavAsa tyajI sAdhu banavAnI vAta kare che... zA mATe sAdhu banavAnuM? ATalA vipula pramANamAM tane bhogasukho prApta thayAM che. te bhogavavA mATe to maLyAM che.. tuM e choDavAnuM vicAre che? mane tArI vAta samajAtI nathI ane sAdhu ja banavuM hoya to pachI banI zakIza. A yauvanakALamAM to AvI apsarA jevI patnIo sAthe bhogasukha bhogavI le." prabhavanI vAto sAMbhaLIne samudrazrI vagere strIonA mukha para prasannatA chavAI. jaMbUkumAre prabhavane besavA mATe eka Asana ApyuM. prabhavanA sAthIo ekabAju khUNAmAM besI gayA. jaMbUkumAranA tyAganI vAte sahune nakhazikha halAvI nAkhyA hatA. jaMbukamAre kahyuM : "prabhava, tuM jevI rIte dhanavaibhava ane svajanomAM sukha jue che, yauvanakALane bhogasukha bhogavavAno kALa samaje che... tevI rIte huM paNa mAnato hato, paraMtu je divase meM bhagavAna sudharmA svAmInI vANI sAMbhaLI.. mArI bhItaranI AMkho khUlI gaI... emanI vAto meM khUba vicArI, mane e vAto saMpUrNa satya lAgI. je viSayomAM huM sukha mAnato hato, te viSayomAM mane naryuM duHkha dekhAvA lAgyuM. pAMca indriyonA viSayabhoganuM sukha kSaNika hoya che, alpakAlIna hoya che, jyAre enuM pariNAma dIrghakAlIna duHkhonuM hoya che. vaiSayika sukhonA anurAgamAMthI duHkha janme che. jyAre mane A vAta samajAI, tyAre mAruM mana virakta banI gayuM." 'kumAra, A tArI eka prakAranI samajaNa che. vAstavikatA judI che. madhura zabda sAMbhaLavAthI sukha anubhavAya che. suMdara rUpa jovAthI sukha lAge che. sugaMdha manane prasanna karI de che. priya bhojana sukha Ape che. priya pAtranA saMbhogathI apUrva sukhanuM saMvedana thAya che. kumAra, A ApaNA sahunA anubhavanI vAta che. vAstavika che A anubhava. tene choDIne tuM mAtra eka prakAranI samajaNane anusarI... A sukhono tyAga karavAnuM vicAre che, te tArI moTI bhUla mane lAge che." prabhavamAM beThelo rAjakumAra jAgI gayo hato ane e bolI rahyo hato! dhyAnamAM, jevI rIte indriyo ane mananA saMyogathI vaiSayika sukhono anubhava thAya che tevI rIte AtmAno potAno svataMtra sukhAnubhava hoya che. indriyonA ane mananA sahayoga vinA.. AtmA parama sukhane anubhavI zake For Private And Personal Use Only

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prabhava maLe che! 117 che! e anubhava paNa vAstavika hoya che. paraMtu mitra, e anubhava pAmavA mATe viSayaka sukhono tyAga karavo paDe che. vaLI, vaiSayika sukhonA anubhava karatAM AtmAnA sukhano anubhava dIrghakAlIna hoya che. Atmasukhano anubhava zAzvat hoya che, nirbhaya hoya che ane svAdhIna hoya che..." kumAra, khoTuM na lagADIza, paraMtu A badhuM tuM je bole che te zrI dharmAsvAmI pAsethI sAMbhaLeluM nathI bolI rahyo? buddhimAna puruSa, koInI pAsethI sAMbhaLelI vAto para jaladI vizvAsa nathI karato. ATalI nAnI uMmaramAM tuM AtmasukhanA anubhavanI vAta kare che. te na samajAya evI vAta che.' "prabhava, sarunI vANI to eka nimitta banatI hoya che. eka AlaMbana banatI hoya che. e vANInA sahAre manuSya svayaM ciMtana karavAnuM hoya che. ciMtana karatAM karatAM e vANIno marma samajAto hoya che. huM e marma pAmyo chuM. tethI A vaiSayika sukhonuM mAruM AkarSaNa nAza pAmyuM che. vaiSayika sukhono jarAya rAga mArA manamAM rahyo nathI.." "to pachI mitra, teM ATha mugdha kanyAo sAthe lagna zA mATe karyuM? mAtA-pitAnA mananA saMtoSa khAtara ane A AThanI saMmati meLavIne!" eTale, A AThane zuM tArA vairAgyanI khabara che?' hA.' "chatAM, temaNe tArI sAthe lagna karyuM?' hA." to mahAna koNa? tuM ke A ATha navoDhAo? kevuM adbhuta samarpaNa kahevAya A ATha strIonuM? kumAra, tAre tArA nirNayamAM punarvicAra karavo jarUrI che." jaMbUkumAranA mukha para smita ramI jAya che ane e prabhavane eka vArtA kahe For Private And Personal Use Only

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17. prabhavapratibogha| eka jaMgalamAMthI musApharono kAphalo pasAra thaI rahyo hato. acAnaka mArganI be bAjuthI DAkuo trATakyA. temaNe musApharone mAravA mAMDyA ane lUMTavA mAMDyA. musApharo bhayabhIta banIne cArebAju bhAgavA mAMDyA. emAMno eka musAphara, ekalo aTUlo gADha jaMgalamAM jaI pahoMcyo. teNe kSaNabhara UbhA rahIne cArebAju joyuM... tyAM bhayathI te dhrujI UThyo. DAkuothI to te bacI gayo hato, paraMtu eka jaMgalI hAthI potAnI lAMbI sUMDha uchALato... karALa kALa jevo tenA tarapha dhasato AvI rahyo hato. musAphara muThThIo vALIne doDavA lAgyo. hAthI tenI pAchaLa doDavA lAgyo. musAphare mArganI bAjumAM eka kUvo joyo. kUvAnA kAMThe eka totiMga vaDanuM vRkSa joyuM. e vRkSanI eka vaDavAI kUvAmAM laTakI rahI hatI. musAphara kUvAnA kinAre jaIne kUdyo. vaDavAI pakaDI lIdhI ane UMDA kUvAmAM laTakI paDyo. tenI pAchaLa ja hAthI Avyo. teNe potAnI sUMDha kUvAmAM laMbAvIne musApharane pakaDavA prayatna karyo... paraMtu tenI sUMDha musAphara sudhI pahoMcI nahIM. hAthI e vRkSanI DALIone potAnI sUMDhamAM bharAvI tene hacamacAvavA mAMDyo... e vRkSamAM madhamAkhIono eka moTo madhapUDo hato. hajAro mAkhIo UDavA lAgI. pelA musApharane vaLagI paDI! musAphare kUvAmAM nIce joyuM to eka ajagara moDhuM phADIne paDelo che! jo musAphara nIce paDe to sIdho ajagaranA moDhAmAM ja jAya! bIjA sApa paNa phaNA mAMDIne tene joI rahyA hatA. je DALIne te laTakI rahyo hato, te DALIne keTalAka kALA ane dhoLA uMdaro potAnA karavata jevA dAMtathI kApI rahyA hatA... musApharanA zarIre parasevo vaLI gayo... paraMtu tyAM pelA madhapUDAmAMthI madhanAM TIpAM TapakavA mAMDyAM. A musAphare moDhuM phADyuM. pelAM TIpAM moDhAmAM paDavA mAMDyAM. musApharane e TIpAM khUba mIThAM lAgavA mAMDyAM... te jIbha lapalapAvIne cATavA mAMDaco.. e madhubiMduonA svAdamAM evo pAgala thaI gayo ke bIjuM badhuM bhUlI gayo! prabhava, A tane eka upanaya-kathA meM saMbhaLAvI. have tane enuM rahasya samajAvuM chuM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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prabhava pratibodha 119 pelo musAphara eTale saMsArI jIva. jaMgala eTale saMsAra. hAthI eTale mRtyu. kUvo eTale manuSyajanma. ajagara eTale narakagati. bIjA sApa eTale krodha-mAna-mAyA ane lobharUpa kaSAyo. vaDanI vaDavAI eTale jIvAtmAnuM AyuSya, sapheda ane kALA udara eTale zuklapakSa ane kRSNapakSa. madhamAkhIo eTale aneka prakAranI Adhi-vyAdhi ane upAdhio ane pelAM madhubiMdu eTale vaiSayika sukho. prabhava, AvI vikaTa paristhitimAM mAnI le ke koI deva athavA vidyAdhara AvIne kahe : "he musAphara, tuM AvI jA mArA vimAnamAM, huM tane surakSita jagAe pahoMcADI dauM..." to game ke nahIM?" kumAra, kema na game? jarUra game." mitra, to pachI, deva ane vidyAdhara karatAM caDhiyAtA gurUdeva zrIsudharmA svAmI mane maLI gayA. mane A bhavanA jaMgalamAMthI ugAranArA maLI gayA... mane game ke nahIM? mAre temanI pAse javuM joIe ke nahIM? keTalI badhI vyAdhio ne Apattio che A bhavanA jaMgalamAM? temAM vaiiSayika sukha che mAtra madhubiMdu jeTaluM eTalAM sukhano rAga zA kAmano? cAre bAjunAM duHkhono vicAra karavAmAM Ave to e rAga Take ja nahIM. AvI paristhitimAM uddhAraka gurudeva maLI jAya to koNa rahe A bhavavanamAM?' prabhava enA jIvanamAM AvI vAto pahelI ja vAra sAMbhaLI rahyo hato. ene jaMbUkumAranI vAto samajAI kharI, paraMtu pUrepUrI nahIM. eTale teNe kahyuM H kumAra, tArI jAta mATe teM karelo vicAra mane gamyo; paraMtu tAre zuM tArAM mAtA-pitAnI ane tArI A premALa patnIono vicAra na karavo joIe? emanA pratye zuM tArAM koI kartavya nathI? tuM A badhAMno tyAga karIne sAdhu banI jaIza. to tArA pratye agAdha prema dharAvanArA tArA A svajano keTalAM duHkhI thaze? zuM A badhAne duHkhI karIne tuM sukhI banIza? e rIte sukhI banavuM zuM yogya che? zuM tuM mane Ano javAba ApIza?" avazya javAba ApuM chuM, prabhava." jaMbUkamAre ATheya patnIo sAme joyuM. ATheya strIo tanmaya banIne je bU-prabhavano vArtAlApa sAMbhaLI rahI hatI. jiMbUe kahyuM : "prabhava, huM tane eka vArtAnA mAdhyamathI tArA prazanano pratyuttara ApuM chuM." sAMbhaLatAM tane AnaMda thaze te vAta saraLatAthI samajAI jaze. For Private And Personal Use Only

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120 eka rAta aneka vAta mathurA nAmanI nagarI hatI. te nagarImAM "kuberasenA' nAmanI eka vezyA rahetI hatI. kuberasenAe putra-putrInA eka joDalAne janma Apyo. putranuM nAma pADyuM kuberadatta ane putrInuM nAma rAkhyuM kuberadattA. dasa divasa sudhI bannene kuberasenAe stanapAna karAvyuM. pachI eka majabUta peTImAM gAdI pAtharIne bannene suvADI dIdhAM. bannenI pAse temanA nAmanI be sonAnI vIMTI mUkI. peTI baMdha karIne yamunA nadImAM taratI mUkI dIdhI. te peTI taratI taratI zaurIpurI nagarInA kinAre pahoMcI. prabhAtano samaya hato. zaurIpurInA be yuvAna zreSThIo pharavA mATe yamunAnA kinAre AvelA. temaNe nadInA pravAhamAM taratI suMdara ratnajaDita peTIne joI. temane Azcarya thayuM. temaNe peTI bahAra kADhI. banne zreSThIoe parAmarza karyo. peTImAMthI je nIkaLaze te aDadhuM-aDadhuM laI laIzuM.' temaNe peTI kholI... be bALakone joyAM. bALako suMdara hatAM. eka putra lIdho, bIjAe putrI lIdhI. bALakonA nAmanI sonAnI vIMTIo paNa laI lIdhI. (nAma uparathI temaNe anumAna karyuM ke A bhAI-bahena che.) bALakone teo potapotAnA ghera laI gayAM. bALako puNyazALI hatAM, eTale lADakoDathI ucharavA lAgyAM. bhaNI-gaNIne banne kuberadatta ane kuberadattA moTAM thayAM. banne zreSThIoe A benI sarakhesarakhI joDI che," ema jANIne bannene paraNAvI dIdhAM. bhAI-bahena pati-patnI banI gayAM. bannenI vIMTIo bannenI pAse hatI. bhale banne pati-patnI banyAM, paraMtu ekabIjA pratye temano moha jAgato nathI. viSayavAsanA jAgatI nathI. eka divasa banne sogaTAM-bAjI ramavA beThAM. ramatAM ramatAM kuberadattanI vIMTI AMgaLImAMthI nIkaLIne kuberadattAnA khoLAmAM paDI. kuberadattAe potAnI vIMTI sAthe e vIMTIne sarakhAvIne joI. te vicAramAM paDI gaI. "A banne vITI samAna che. zuM ame be bhAI-bahena to nahIM hoIe? zuM te mATe ja amane ekabIjA pratye kAmavAsanA nathI jAgatI?' teNe kuberadattane kahyuM : "ApaNe ApaNA mAtA-pitAne A viSayamAM pUchIe to?' kuberadane hA pADI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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prabhava pratibodha. 121 kuberadatte potAnI mAtAne pUchyuM : "mA, sAcuM kahe, amArA banne vacceno sAco saMbaMdha zuM che?' mAtAe badhI vAta kahI dIdhI. kuberadatta ane kuberadattA Azcaryacakita thaI gayAM. kuberadatte kahyuM : "sAruM thayuM ke amAro zArIrika saMbaMdha thayo nahIM... ame nirmaLa rahyAM chIe." kuberadattA enA pitAnA (pAlaka pitA) ghera gaI ane kuberadatta vepAra mATe te nagarane choDIne cAlI nIkaLyo. - kuberadattAnuM mana saMsArathI virakta banI gayuM. teNe dIkSA lIdhI. te sAdhvI banI gaI. ugra tapa karIne te avadhijJAnI banI. kuberadatta vepAra mATe mathurA nagarImAM pahoMcyo. mathurAmAM te kuberasenA vezyAnA ghera Utaryo. teNe kuberasenAne khUba dhana ApIne potAnI patnI banAvI lIdhI ane tenI sAthe bhogavilAsa karavA lAgyo. teNe mathurAmAM moTA pAyA para vepAra karavA mAMDyo ane lAkho rUpiyA kamAvA mAMDyo. sAdhvI kuberadattAe avadhijJAnanA prakAzamAM "kuberadatta kyAM che ne zuM kare che te joyuM. teNe mathurAmAM kuberasenA sAthe raMgarAgamAM lIna kuberadattane joyo. te dhrujI UThI "arere, potAne janma ApanArI mAtA sAthe ja kuberadatta bhogavilAsa kare che... ghora anartha thaI gayo. e loko ekabIjAne oLakhatAM nathI.. huM jaladI tyAM jAuM ane anarthane rokuM...' sAdhvI kuberadattA vihAra karIne mathurA AvyAM. e arasAmAM kuberasenAe eka putrane janma Apyo. sAdhvI kuberadattA vicAre che : "A bene kevI rIte upadeza Apavo...? dharmazAstrano upadeza to sAMbhaLaze nahIM, koI bIjI ja rIte yuktithI upadeza Apavo paDaze. ne yathArthatAno bodha karAvavo paDaze...' kuberadattA kuberasenAnA ghare gayAM. "huM tamArA A navajAta zizune sArA saMskAro ApIza, tene mIThAM mIThAM hAlaraDAM saMbhaLAvIza... mArI pAse ramyA karaze. ane eTalo samaya tamane avakAza maLI jaze..... zuM huM tamArA gharamAM rahI zakuM?' kuberasenAe sAdhvI kuberadattAnI vinayabharI madhura vANI sAMbhaLI. sAdhvIno saumya... zItala.. suMdara cahero joyo. teNe sAdhvIne potAnA gharamAM rahevA anumati ApI. anya sAdhvIonI sAthe kuberadattAe tyAM nivAsa karyo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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122 eka rAta aneka vAta kuberadatta, potAnI bahena kuberadattAne oLakhI zakato nathI. kAraNa ke kuberadattAe ugra tapazcaryA karIne potAnA zarIrane kRza karI dIdhuM hatuM ane te sAdhvInA vezamAM hatI. kuberasenA roja potAnA putrane sAdhvInI pAse mUkI jAya che ane sAdhvI hasatAM jAya che, bALakane hasAvatAM jAya che ne eka hAlaraDuM gAtAM jAya che bhAI tuM, beTA tuM mAharo devara vaLI bhatrIja, pItarAIne potra Ima tujathI cha saMbaMdhanA bIja. bhAI, pitA, pitAmaha, bhartA, beTo, sasaro teha, cha saMbaMdha dharuM chuM tAharA janakathI huM sasaneha. mAtA, pitAmahI, bhojAI, vahu sAsu vaLI zoka, cha saMbaMdha dharAve mujathI mAtA tuja avalokasAdhvI evA svare A hAlaraDuM gAya che ke kuberadatta ane kuberasenA paNa sAMbhaLe. roja-roja gAya che. kuberadattane eno artha samajAto nathI. eka divase teNe sAdhvIne pUchayuM : he pUjyA, Apa mArA A putrane roja roja je hAlaraDuM saMbhaLAvo cho, eno artha mane samajAto nathI. jANe tame aTapaTuM bolatAM ho, asaMbaddha bolatAM ho, evuM lAge che." sAdhvI kuberadattA je avasaranI rAha jotAM hatAM, e avasara AvI lAgyo. temaNe kahyuM : kuberadatta, A tArA putra sAthe mAre cha prakAranA saMbaMdha che. tArI sAthe cha prakAranA saMbaMdha che ane A bALakanI janetA sAthe mAre cha saMbaMdha che! ema kula 18 prakAranA saMbaMdha thAya che tamArA traNa sAthe! kuberadatta sAdhvInI vAta sAMbhaLI AzcaryamAM garakAva thaI gayo. teNe kahyuM: kRpA karIne mane aDhAra prakAranA saMbaMdho samajAvo." sAdhvIjIe kahyuM : 1. A bALakanI ane mArI mAtA eka che, mATe A bALaka mAro bhAI thAya. 2. A bALaka mArA patino putra hovAthI mAro paNa putra kahevAya. 3. mArA patino A bALaka nAno bhAI hovAthI te mAro diyara thAya. tamArA patine ane A bALakane janma ApanArI eka ja strI kuberasenA che.) For Private And Personal Use Only

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prabhava pratibodha 4. mArA bhAIno putra hovAthI mArce te bhatrIjo thAya. 5. mArI mAtAnA patino bhAI hovAthI mAro kAko thAya. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir 6. ane mArI zokyanA dIkarAno dIkaro che. eTale pautra kahevAya! 7. A bALakano, pitA che te mAro bhAI che! kAraNa ke amArA bannenI mAtA eka ja che. 123 8. A bALakano pitA, huM (kuberadatta) mArI mAtAno pati hovAthI mAro pitA thAya. 9. tuM mArA kAkA (A bALaka)no pitA che, eTale mAro pitAmaha che! 10. huM tane paraNI hatI eTale tuM mAro pati che. 11. A kuberasenA tArI bIjI patnI che eTale mArI zokya che, eNe tane janma Apyo che mATe tuM mAro putra paNa kahevAya. 12. ane mArA diyarano tuM pitA hovAthI mAro sasaro paNa che! kuberadatta, sAdhvInI vAto sAMbhaLI bhramita jevo thaI gayo. te bebAkaLo banIne sAMbhaLI rahyo. 13. he kuberadatta, je tArI mAtA che te mArI mAtA che. 14. A bALaka ke je eka saMbaMdhe mAro kAko thAya che tenI je mAtA che te mArI pitAmahI thAya. 15. tuM mAro bhAI che, tArI A patnI kuberasenA, mArI bhAbhI kahevAya. 17. vaLI mArI zokyanA dIkarAnI (tArI) strI che A kuberasenA, eTale mArI putravadhU kahevAya. 17. mArA patinI (tArI) A kuberasenA mAtA che, eTale mArI sAsu thAya. 18. mArA patinI (tArI) bIjI strI che A kuberasenA, eTale mArI zokya kahevAya. - kube2datta dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDyo. - kuberasenA haiyAphATa rudana ka2vA lAgI. * banne ghora pazcAttApanI AgamAM tapavA lAgyAM. kuberadatta kuberadattAne oLakhI gayo. kube2dattAe potAnI pAse vastramAM bAMdhI rAkhelI banne vIMTI paNa kADhIne batAvI. tyAM kuberasenA paNa AvI gaI. eNe be vIMTIo oLakhI lIdhI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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124 eka rAta aneka vAta - kuberadatta saMsAranAM sukho pratye virakta banyo. - teNe saMsAratyAga karyo, sAdhu banyo. * kubairasenAne putrapAlana karavAnI javAbadArI hovAthI teNe zrAvikA jIvananAM vato grahaNa karyA. - sAdhvI kuberadattAe tyAMthI anyatra vihAra karyo. "he prabhava, have tuM ja kahe ke A saMsAramAM saMbaMdhonuM kevuM ane keTaluM mahattva che. evA saMbaMdhomAM jakaDAyelA rahevuM keTaluM ucita che?" prabhave kahyuM : "kumAra, saMsAranA saMbaMdhonI niHsAratA teM samajAvI te mane jacI, paraMtu te chatAM, meM eka vakhata rAjyasabhAmAM AvelA eka vidvAna saMnyAsInA mukhe sAMbhaLeluM ke "jene putra na hoya tenI sadgati nathI thatI. putra vinAnA pitRo marIne narakamAM jAya che. A dRSTie tAre gRhasthAzrama mAMDavo joIe. putraprApti karavI joIe... ne te pachI tAre saMnyAsa levo hoya to leje ." jaMbUkumAre kahyuM : "maputrazya tirnAsti' A vacanano artha je teM sAMbhaLyo che te bhramapUrNa che. putro nathI to pitRone tAratA ke nathI DubADatA. prabhava, A viSayamAM paNa huM tane eka sAcI banelI ghaTanA saMbhaLAvuM chuM ke je meM zrI sudharmAsvAmIjInA mukhe sAMbhaLI che. tApralipti nAmanI eka nagarI hatI. temAM mahezvaradatta nAmano eka dhanADhya vepArI raheto hato. tenA pitAnuM nAma samudradatta hatuM. aDhaLaka saMpatti hovA chatAM e lobhI hato. mahezvaranI mAtAnuM nAma bahulA hatuM. bahulA khUba mAyA-kapaTa karanArI hatI. aneka pApo karIne teNe potAnuM jIvana vyartha gumAvyuM hatuM. - samudradattanuM mRtyu thayuM. te marIne e ja nagarImAM pADo thayo. - bahulAnuM mRtyu thayuM. te marIne e ja nagaramAM kUtarI thaI! mahezvaradatte potAnAM mAtA-pitAnuM uttarakArya karyuM ane potAnA vyApAramAM magna banyo. mahezvaranI patnInuM nAma hatuM gAgilA. gAgilA para mahezvarane apAra prema hato. paraMtu gAgilA vyabhicAriNI hatI. jyAre jyAre mahezvara bahAragAma jato tyAre gAgilA enA eka premI sAthe viSayasukha bhogavatI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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125 prabhava pratibodha eka divasanI vAta che. mahezvara bahAragAma javA gharethI nIkaLyo. nakkI karelA samaye gAgilAno premI mahezvaranA ghera AvI gayo. gAgilA enI sAthe viSayasukha mANavAmAM lIna banI, paraMtu tyAM mahezvara aDadhe rastethI ja ghare pAcho Avyo. teNe gharano daravAjo khakhaDAvyo. gAgilAnAM vastro astavyasta hatAM. eno premI paNa kaDhaMgI sthitimAM tyAM Ubho hato. gAgilAe daravAjo kholyo. mahezvarane jotAM ja te bAvarI banI gaI. bhayabhIta banI gaI. mahezvare pelA durAcArInA vALa pakaDIne jamIna para paTakI dIdho ane mAravA mAMDyo. gAgilA gharanA oraDAmAM bharAI gaI. mahezvare pelAne mArI mArIne adhamUo karI nAMkhyo. lAkaDI laIne tene paTavA mAMDyo. ghasaDIne gharanI bahAra dUra medAnamAM pheMkI dIdho. maravAnI chellI kSaNomAM e durAcArInA manamAM vicAra Avyo : "mArA pApanuM ja A phaLa mane maLyuM che.." A vicAranI sAthe ja teNe manuSya gatinuM AyuSyakarma bAMdhI lIdhuM. ne thoDI ja vAramAM te marI gayo. marIne te gAgilAnA ja peTamAM garbharUpe utpanna thayo. gAgilAe strIcaritra ajamAvIne mahezvarane manAvI lIdho. kALAntare gAgilAe putrane janma Apyo. mahezvara putrajanmathI khUba rAjI thayo. gAgilAnI bhUlane bhUlI gayo. putrane khUba premathI ucheravA lAgyo. khUba lADa laDAvavA mAMDyo. e arasAmAM tenA pitAnA zrAddhano divasa Avyo. teNe e divase viziSTa : bhojana karavAnuM vicAryuM. te mAMsAhArI hato. teNe mAMsa mATe eka pADAne kharIdyo. pADAno vadha karAvI tenuM mAMsa raMdhAvyuM. svAdiSTa bhojana taiyAra karAvyuM. patnI ane putra sAthe te bhojana karavA lAgyo. gharanA dvAre eka kUtarI AvIne UbhI rahI. mahezvare kUtarIne paNa khAvA mATe mAMsa nAMkhyuM. kutarI khAvA lAgI. e vakhate eka munirAja bhikSA mATe pharatA pharatA mahezvaranA dvAre AvI caDhyA. munirAjane eka mahinAnA upavAsanuM pAraNuM hatuM. sAthe sAthe munirAja avadhijJAnI hatA. temaNe potAnA jJAnanA prakAzamAM, For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra 127 - putrano pUrvajanma joyo. - pADAno pUrvajanma joyo. - kUtarIno pUrvajanma joyo! eka rAta aneka vAta nirvedathI temanuM mana bharAI gayuM. saMsAranA saMbaMdhonI vicitratAthI temanuM mana vairAgyathI chalakAI gayuM. teo ghara choDIne AgaLa cAlyA. mahezvara doDI Avyo. teNe munirAjane pUchyuM : 'mahAtman, Apa mArA gharethI bhikSA lIdhA vinA kema cAlyA?' munirAje kahyuM : 'ame mAMsAhArInA gharethI bhikSA letA nathI. eTaluM ja nahIM, bIjuM paNa eka rahasyamaya kAraNa che.' 'zuM kAraNa che e mahAtman' 'tAre jANavuM che?' 'hA jI, mAre jANavuM che...' to sAMbhaLa, tArI patnInA premIne teM mAryo hato, te marIne A tAro putra thayo che. - tuM je pADAnuM mAMsa khAya che, e pADo tAro pitA hato. ane A kUtarI tArI mAtA hatI! tane jo A vAto para vizvAsa na thato hoya to A kUtarI, tArA gharamAM daTAyelA dhananI jagA batAvaze!' kUtarIe jagA batAvI. mahezvare e jagAe khodyuM to dhana maLI AvyuM. mahezvara mahAtmA sAme joI rahyo ne bolyo : 'he mahAtmanU, Ape kahelI rahasyabhUta vAtone huM mAnuM chuM... A saMsAra 5ra mane vairAgya thayo che. dhikkAra che... A badhAM vaiyika sukhone ane kapaTabharyA badhA saMbaMdhone. mane ApanAM caraNonI sevAmAM laI lo gurudeva.. huM A ja kSaNe A gharano tyAga karuM chuM.' jaMbUkumAra prabhavane kahe che : 'mitra, mahezvare sAdhutA svIkArI. marIne te devalokamAM deva thayo. kahe, tene devabhava koNe Apyo? putre ke dharme? dharmathI ja jIva sadUgati pAme che. dharma ja jIvane durgatimAM paDato bacAve che. putra, patnI, mAtA, pitA vagere nathI to jIvane durgatithI bacAvI zakatAM ke nathI sadgatimAM laI jatAM... have tane mAro tyAgano saMkalpa jace che?' For Private And Personal Use Only prabhave kahyuM : 'kumAra tArI vAtoe mane gaMbhIra vicAramAM nAMkhI dIdho che. tArI vAta sAcI lAge che.'

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18. samudrazrI ane padmazrI prabhava ane jaMbUkumArano vArtAlApa jaMbUkamAranI ATheya navoDhAo ekAgra citte sAMbhaLI rahI hatI. jyAre jaMbUkumAre aneka tarkathI ane dRSTAMtothI prabhavane prabhAvita karI dIdho tyAre vAtano dora samudrazrIe potAnA hAthamAM laI lIdho. samudrazrIe potAnA AsanethI UbhI thaIne jaMbUkamAranAM caraNomAM praNAma karyA, mastake aMjali joDI. Asana para besIne madhura zabdomAM te bolI : prANezvara, zuM Apa kharekhara saMsArano tyAga karazo? nA, nA, nAtha Apano viraha amArAthI sahana nahIM thaI zake. Apa amArA para kRpA karIne amane choDI na jazo. amArA mAtA-pitA pAsethI amane Apano nirNaya jANavA maLyo hato, chatAM ame Apane varI chIe.. kAraNa ke amane daDha vizvAsa che ke Apa amAro tyAga nahIM karo. paraMtu A rAja kumAra sAtheno Apano vArtAlApa sAMbhaLI mAruM mana khaLabhaLI UThya che. * nAtha, Ape khUba gaMbhIratAthI ane dIrghadRSTithI vicAra karoM joIe. bhAvAvezamAM karelA nirNayathI ane bharelAM pagalAMthI chevaTe pastAvuM paDatuM hoya che. kAraNa ke bhAvAveza dIrgha samaya Takato nathI. jyAre bhAvanAM pUra UtarI jAya che tyAre ghora nirAzA gherI vaLatI hoya che. A viSayamAM eka kheDUtanI vArtA mane yAda Ave che. susIma nAmanuM gAma hatuM. temAM bako" nAmano eka kheDUta potAnA parivAra sAthe raheto hato. bakA pAse eka nAnuM khetara hatuM. comAsAmAM e khetaramAM kodarA vAvato hato ane enA para enuM gujarAna cAlatuM hatuM. khUba saMtoSathI e jIvato. hato. eka divasa bako bAjunA gAmamAM potAnA svajanane ghera gayo. svajanane bakA upara prema hato. teNe bakAnI suMdara mahemAnagati karI. tene goLa ane roTalI khAvA mATe ApI. bakAe jiMdagImAM kyAreya goLa-roTalInuM bhojana karyuM na hatuM. e khUba rAjI thaI gayo. peTa bharIne eNe bhojana karyuM. teNe yajamAnane kahyuM : "AvuM bhojana to ame svapnamAM joyuM nathI bhaIsAba! kaMgu ane kodarA khAI khAIne peTa baLI gayuM che. tame kharekhara sukhI cho. amArA For Private And Personal Use Only

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128 eka rAta aneka vAta jIvanane dhikkAra che. paNa hA, tame eTaluM to batAvo ke tame AvuM bhojana kevI rIte banAvyuM?" yajamAna saraLa hato. teNe kahyuM : "bakAbhAI, tame je roTalI khAdhI te ghauMmAMthI bane che. khetaramAM ame ghauM vAvIe chIe. ghauM vAvIne reMTanA pANIthI khetara siMcIe chIe. ghauno pAka maLe eTale te ghauMne daLIne loTa banAvIe chIe. te loTanI roTalI bane che! evI ja rIte khetaramAM zeraDI vAvIe chIe. zeraDI UgyA pachI tene yaMtramAM pIlIne teno rasa kADhIe chIe. zeraDIno rasa bahu ja mITho hoya che. e rasamAMthI goLa banAvIe chIe. hA, jo tamAre goLa banAvavo hoya to amane kahevarAvajo. ame tamane enI rIta batAvIzuM." bako paTela yajamAnanI vAta sAMbhaLIne khuza thaI gayo. teNe manomana potAnA khetaramAM ghauM ane zeraDI vAvavAno nizcaya karI lIdho. te potAnA gAme gayo. teNe potAnA khetaramAM kaMga ane kodarA vAvelAM hatAM. dAtaraDuM laIne e to upaDyo khetara ane khetarane laNavA mAMDyo. bakAnA moTA dIkarAe bakAne kahyuM: "bApA, tame A zuM karo cho? AnA upara to ApaNo gujAro thAya che... ne tame khetarane ujADI rahyA cho...?' dIkarA, tane samajaNa na paDe. A kaMga ane kodarA ukhADI nAMkhI ApaNe ghauM ane zeraDI vAvIzuM.... pachI goLa ane roTalInuM majedAra bhojana karIzuM!' bako nAcavA lAgyo. dIkarAe kahyuM : bApA, thoDA divasamAM ja ApaNe kaMga ane kodarAno pAka laI laIzuM. pachI tame bhale ghauM ane zeraDI vAvajo.. nahIMtara pachI pelI kahevata jevuM thaze - "keDanuM bALaka jatuM karavuM ne peTanA bALakanI AzA rAkhavI!' paNa bakAne to goLa ane roTalInuM ghena caDhayuM hatuM ne! teNe dIkarAnI sAcI ane sArI vAta na mAnI. teNe khetarane laNI nAkhyuM. kaMga ane kodarAno pAka naSTa thaI gayo. pachI bakAe khetaramAM kUvo khodavo zarU karyo. ghauM ane zeraDIne pANI pAvA reMTa banAvavo hato ne ghaNo UMDo khADo khodyo, paraMtu pANI na maLyuM. bako thAkI gayo. lamaNe hAtha daIne beTho. pANI vinA to ghauM ye na Uge ane zeraDI paNa na pAke. eka bAju eNe kaMga ane kodarA khoyA.. ane bIjI bAju ghauM-zeraDIno pAka na thaI zakyo. goLa-roTalInA bhojananA manoratha svapna banI gayA! pachI to bakAne ghaNo pazcAttApa thayo. paraMtu zuM karavAno e pazcAttApane? For Private And Personal Use Only

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129 samudrazrI ane pAzrI he prANezvara, bakAnI jema tame paNa banne gumAvI besazo to pazcAtApano pAra nahIM rahe. ATha-ATha strIo ane navANu kroDa rUpiyAno tyAga karIne.. muktinAM sukha meLavavAnI vAto karo cho. enA pariNAmano vicAra karavo joIe. vadhAre to zuM kahuM nAtha? Apa mArA karatAM ghaNA mahAna cho.' jaMbUkamAranA mukha para smita pharakI gayuM. teNe samudrazrI sAme snehabharI dRSTie joyuM ane kahyuM : puyazAlinI, tArI vAta sAcI che, paraMtu huM tArA bakA paTelanI jema tuccha phaLanI icchAvALo nathI, huM zreSTha phaLanI icchA rAkhuM chuM, vaLI vaiSayika sukhonI icchAono to aMta ja nathI Avato, je vaiSayika sukhonA bhogaupabhoga mATe te Agraha kare che, te sukho vAstavamAM sukha nathI. pariNAme mahAduHkharUpa che. A vAta tamane eka kAgaDAnI upanaya-kathAthI samajAvuM chuM. viMdhyAcalanI bihaDa aTavImAMthI narmadA nadI vahI jatI hatI. aDAbIDa jaMgala ane narabharI nadI! eTale DhagalAbaMdha pazuono nivAsa. narmadAnA kinAre eka kALA pahADa jevo vRddha hAthI raheto hato. vRddhAvasthAnA kAraNe te azakta banI gayo hato. vRkSonI DALIo paNa toDI zakato na hato. tenA dAMta paDI gayelA hatA. tethI te khAI zakato na hato. tenuM zarIra cAmaDAnA jaMgI thelA jevuM banI gayuM hatuM. unALAnA divaso AvyA. nadInuM pANI sukAI gayuM hatuM. nadIno paTa sUko thaI gayo hato. jyAM tyAM pANInA khAbociyAM bharelAM paDyAM hatAM. eka divasa pelo vRddha hAthI retImAM phasAIne nIce paDI gayo. bhUkhyo tarasyo marI gayo. hAthInA mRtadehanuM mAMsa khAvA jaMgalanAM pazuo bhegAM thaI gayAM. hAthInA gudAdvArane cIrI nAkhyuM. moTuM bAkorUM pADI dIdhuM. jANe koI parvatanI guphA joI lyo. e bAkorAmAMthI pazuo ne pakSIo hAthInA peTamAM jaI jaIne mAMsa khAvA lAgyAM. eka kAgaDo roja hAthInA peTamAM jato, mAMsa khAto ne bahAra nIkaLato. eka divasa kAgaDo khUba UMDANamAM gayelo. mAMsa khAvAmAM lIna hato, tyAM sUryanA tIvra tApathI hAthInuM zarIra saMkocAI gayuM. bahAra nIkaLavAno mArga baMdha thaI gayo. kAgaDo aMdara purAI gayo! jANo sApa karaMDiyAmAM purAI jAya, tevI rIte te purAI gayo. tyAM acAnaka muzaLadhAra varasAda Avyo. narmadAmAM pUra AvyuM. pANInA dhasamasatA pUramAM hAthInuM zarIra taNAyuM. zarIramAM beThelo kAgaDo paNa taNAyo! nadImAMthI taNAtuM zarIra samudramAM pahoMcI gayuM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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130 eka rAta aneka vAta saMkocAyeluM zarIra dhIre dhIre phulavA mAMDyuM. gudAmArganuM bAkoruM khUlI gayuM. kAgaDo tarata ja bahAra nIkaLIne zarIranI upara besI gayo. teNe samudramAM cArebAju joyuM. cArebAju pANI ja pANI hatuM. upara AkAza ne nIce pANI! kinAro dekhAto na hato. kinAre pahoMcavA te UDe che.. thAke che. pAcho hAthInA zarIra para AvIne bese che. vAraMvAra prayatna karavA chatAM e kinAre na pahoMcI zakyo. bIjI bAju, samudranA magaramacchAe hAthInA zarIrane pANImAM kheMcI javA mAMDyuM. zarIranI sAthe kAgaDo paNa pANImAM DUbIne marI gayo. devI, A vArtAno upanaya have samajAvuM chuM. - marelA hAthInuM zarIra te strI che. - samudra te saMsAra che. - kAgaDo te viSayAMdha puruSa che. huM kAgaDAnI jema saMsArasAgaramAM DUbavA nathI icchato. huM to sarva baMdhanonebAhya ane AMtarika, toDIne parama pada pAmavA icchuM chuM. he bhoLI, tuM mane bhoLavavA icche che, paNa ema huM bhoLavAI jAuM evo nathI. alabatta, kAminInA nayanakaTAkSothI ane vacanavilAsathI aneka buddhimAno paNa mohabrAnta bane che. paraMtu je mahApuruSonuM mana jJAna-dhyAnamAM lIna rahe che, temane e strIo kAMI ja karI zakatI nathI. strIono vANIvilAsa mRgajaLa samAna hoya che. jema mRgajaLane joI, mRga pANI pIvA doDyo jAya che, paraMtu tene pANI nathI maLatuM; garama-garama retI maLe che. tenuM moTuM dAjhe che. tevI rIte, strInA nayanakaTAkSothI ne vANIvilAsathI AkarSAIne puruSa enI pAse doDI jAya che. enA madamAtA yauvanane bhogavavA... paraMtu tyAM ene maLe che jheranA pyAlA... ene maLe che vedanA ane baLatarA... jeo jJAna-dhyAnane bhUlI jaIne, navayauvananA rUpasauMdaryamAM mugdha bane che teo, jema zikArInA tIrathI mRga vIMdhAI jAya che, tema strInA kaTAkSabANothI vIMdhAIne jamIna para DhaLI paDe che. aneka anartho pAme che ane ribAI ribAIne mare che. jJAna-dhyAnarahita moTA moTA tapasvIo paNa strInA mohapAzamAM jakaDAIne barabAda thaI gayAnAM aneka dRSTAMto jovA maLe che." jaMbUkumAranI kathA, teno upanaya ane upadeza sAMbhaLIne bIjI patnI padmazrI For Private And Personal Use Only

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samudra zrI ane padmazrI 131 UbhI thaI. mastake aMjali joDI jaMbUkumAranA caraNomAM praNAma karyo ane potAnA Asane beThI. vinayapUrvaka teNe kahyuM : "he prANezvara, Apa buddhinidhAna cho. aneka guNothI suzobhita cho. he priyatama, te chatAM Apa kema magazeLiyA paththara jevA banI gayA cho? muzaLadhAra varasAda varasavA chatAM magazeLiyo paththara bhIMjAto nathI... Apa paNa ApanI priyatamAnI premabharI ane hitakArI vAta sAMbhaLIne jarAya bhIMjAtA nathI. Azcarya thAya che, nAtha! ApanA jevA rUpavAna, guNavAna yuvAna pati to potAnI priyatamAone premarasathI bhIMjavI nAMkhe. jyAre Apa to sAva alipta thaIne beThA cho. khera, samudrazrInI vAta Ape kAne na dharI, bhale, ApanI marajI. pharIthI evI ja hitakArI vAta huM Apane kahuM chuM, te chatAM Apa haThAgrahI banIne ApanI ja vAtane vaLagI rahezo to kevo anartha thaze.. te Apa samajI zako cho. keTaluM badhuM sukha Apane maLyuM che? duniyAmAM AvuM sarva prakAranuM sukha karoDomAMthI ekAda manuSyane maLe che. Apane apAra dhanasaMpatti maLI che. mamatAbharyA mAtA-pitA maLyAM che. pUrNa samarpita pativratA strIo maLI che. suMdara nIrogI zarIra maLyuM che. yaza.... Ijjata... pratiSThA maLI che. apUrva saubhAgya maLyuM che! badhuM ja zreSTha maLyuM che... zuM ATalA sukhathI saMtoSa na karavo joIe? A badhAM sukho tyajIne, AnAthI paNa caDhiyAtAM sukhonI icchA karavI ne e sukho le. ajANyA pradezamAM javuM.. te zuM ucita che? mane to jarAya ucita lAgatuM nathI. juo, eka vAMdarA-vAMdarInI vArtA kahIne, mArI vAtane spaSTa karuM chuM. nAtha, mArA bolavAmAM ajANatAM koI avinaya thaI jAya to mane kSamA karajo. - upavana jevuM eka vana hatuM, e vananI vRkSaghaTAmAM eka vAMdaro ane vAMdarI rahetAM hatAM. khUba AnaMdathI, ullAsathI teo potAnuM jIvana pasAra karI rahyAM hatAM. vRkSo para sAthe caDhatA ne sAthe nIce UtaratAM. teo nirbhaya banIne mukta manathI kriIDA karatAM hatAM. jyAM vAMdara jAya tyAM vAMdarI jAya, ne jyAM vAMdarI doDI jAya tyAM vAMdaro doDI jAya. e vanamAMthI gaMgA nadI vahetI hatI. kinAre moTAM moTAM vRkSo DolatAM hatAM. A vAnara-vAnarI tyAM pahoMcI gayAM. vRkSo upara caDhavA-UtaravA lAgyAM. eka DALI parathI bIjI DALI para kUdakA mAravA lAgyAM. tyAM acAnaka vAMdaro nIce, gaMgAnA kinArA para paDI gayo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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132 eka rAta aneka vAta paDatAMnI sAthe eka camatkAra thayo. vAMdaro manuSya banI gayo! vAMdarI A camatkAra joIne nAcI UThI! te paNa DALI parathI nIce kUdI paDI ne teya manuSya-strI banI gaI. A camatkAra e tIrthabhUmino hato. manuSya banI gayelA e vAMdarA-vAMdarIe rahevAnuM to e vanamAM ja rAkhyuM. jaMgalanA phaLo khAya che ne nadInuM pANI pIe che. saMsAranuM sukha bhogave che. eka divasa puruSa kahe che : "ApaNe pharIthI jhADa upara caDhIne nIce paDIe... to manuSyamAMthI deva banI jaIe! deva-devI banIne divya sukho bhogavIe." strI kahe che : "nA, nA, ApaNe deva-devI nathI banavuM. ATaluM sukha maLI gayuM, te ghaNuM che. vadhu lobha sAro nahIM. ApaNo deva-devI karatAMya vadhAre sukhI chIe. koI vighna vinA ApaNe svecchA mujaba sukha bhogavIe chIe." paraMtu puruSane strInI vAta na gamI. strIe ene vAraMvAra vAryo, chatAM deva banavAnI tIvra icchAthI te vRkSa upara caDhIne nIce kUdI paDyo. jevo jamIna para paDyo tevo te punaH vAMdaro thaI gayo! e tIrthabhUmino evo prabhAva hato ke pazu hoya te manuSya banI jato ane manuSya hoya te deva banI jato! vAMdarIe bhUla nA karI. e manuSya strI-rUpe ja rahI. alabatta, ene potAno pati vAMdaro banI javAthI ghaNuM duHkha thayuM, paraMtu have bIjo upAya na hato. banne sAthe rahe che, sAthe harephare che. e arasAmAM, e vanamAM rAjAnA mANaso AvI caDyA. temaNe A strIne joI. strInuM rUpa adbhuta hatuM. ane eno kaMTha paNa madhura hato. rAjAnA mANaso e strIne rAjA pAse laI gayA. rAjAe tenI sAthe lagna karyo, tene rANI banAvI. pelA vAMdarAne eka madArI pakaDIne laI gayo. vAMdarAne nAcatAM zikhavADyuM. vAMdaro jAta jAtanAM nRtya kare che ne madArIne kamANI karAve che. eka divasa madArI vAMdarAne laI, rAjAnA rAjamahele Avyo. rAjA-rANI vAMdarAnA khela jovA jharUkhAmAM AvyAM. vAMdarAe rANIne joI.. te rovA mAMDyo. rANIe kahyuM : "he vAnara! have tuM e vRkSa uparathI nIce paDavAnuM yAda karIne 23 nahIM.' For Private And Personal Use Only

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samudrazrI ane padmazrI 133 padmazrIe jebUkumArane kahyuM : "he nAtha! je sukho Apane maLyAM che, e sukho choDIne Apa jo muktinAM sukha levA jazo to A vAMdarAnI jema pAchaLathI pastAvAno samaya Avaze. mATe mArI Apane vinaMtI che ke Apa saMsAranAM sukhono tyAga na karazo.* jaMbUkamAra ekAgratAthI padmazrInI vAta sAMbhaLI rahyA hatA. temaNe padmazrIne madhura zabdomAM kahyuM : pAzrI, AtmajJAnIne pastAvAno samaya Avato ja nathI. huM AtmapremathI tRpta chuM. ane jeno AtmA AtmapremathI tRpta hoya che tene duzamano paNa kAMI karI zakatA nathI. adhyAtmadRSTivALA manuSyo jaMgalamAM paNa maMgala manAve che! ane jyAM sUnakAra vyApelo hoya che tyAM vAtAvaraNane praphullita banAvI de che. viSayavAsanAthI bharelA manuSyanAM to tana ane mana, banne baLe che. enI viSayatRSNA kyAreya zAnta thatI nathI. viSayatRSNA viSayopabhogathI zAnta nathI thatI, paraMtu jJAnarUpI amRtarasanA siMcanathI zAnta thAya che. bhale manuSya parasanAM madhura bhojana karIne tRpti mAne! enI tRpti kSaNika hoya che. bhale manuSya zRMgArAdi nava rasomAM lIna bane. tenI lInatA alpajIvI hoya che. meM evA zAntarasanI, adhyAtmarasanI tRpti meLavI che ke je kyAreya cAlI jatI nathI. devI, je meLavavA jevuM hatuM te meM meLavI lIdhuM che. mArA ghaTamAM badhI riddhi pragaTa thaI gaI che. saMsAranAM sarva sukho AtmAnAM baMdhana mATe che. paraMtu e vaiSayika sukhomAM jarAya Asakti nathI. eka vAta nizcita che ke AtmajJAnamAM jenuM citta sthira thayeluM che tene koI divasa duHkha AvatuM nathI. duHkhI e thAya che ke je tRSNAmAM jakaDAyelo che. tRSNA ja sarva duHkhonI mAtA che. padmazrI, A viSayamAM tane eka bodhakathA kahuM chuM. kolasA banAvavAno dhaMdho karanAra eka mANasa kolasA banAvavA jaMgalamAM gayo. unALAnA divaso hatA. khUba tApa paDato hato. teNe potAnI sAthe ghaNuM pANI lIdhuM hatuM, kAraNa ke tApanA kAraNe tarasa khUba lAgatI hatI. te pANI pIto hato paNa tenI tarasa bhAMgatI nahIM. jema-jema AganA bhaDakA vadhatA jatA tema-tema tenI tarasa vadhatI jatI hatI. te pANI pIto jato - hato. pANI khUTI gayuM. pANI zodhato e jaMgalamAM bhaTakavA lAgyo ane khUba thAkI javAthI aDadhe raste jamIna para paDI gayo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra 134 www.kobatirth.org eka rAta aneka vAta bhAgyayoge e vRkSanI chAyAmAM paDyo. ThaMDI-ThaMDI havA hatI. ene tarata ja nidrA AvI gaI. nidrAmAM tene eka svapna AvyuM : - Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir te eka pANIthI chalochala bharelA sarovara pAse gayo... pANI pIvA mAMDyo. AkhuM sarovara pI gayo, chatAM enI tarasa chIpI nahIM. te eka vAvaDI pAse gayo. vAvaDImAM UtarIne pANI pIvA mAMDyo. AkhI vAvaDI khAlI karI nAMkhI, pachI te eka taLAva pAse gayo. taLAva pI gayo...! te chatAM tenI tRSNA zAMta na thaI, te eka khAbociyA pAse gayo! khAbociyAmAM pANI bahu ja thoDuM hatuM... khobo bharAya eTaluM paNa na hatuM. tethI te UMdho paDIne pANI cATavA lAgyo... ane enI AMkho khUlI gaI! te tarasyo ja paDyo hato! have A upanaya-kathAno upanaya batAvuM chuM : kolasA banAvanAro puruSa saMsArI jIva che. - svapnamAM joyelA sarovara, taLAva... vAva. e devonAM sukha che. - khAbociyAnuM chIcharuM pANI e manuSyanAM sukho che. sarvajJa vItarAga paramAtmA kahe che, ApaNo jIva anaMtavAra devalokamAM janmelo che. anaMtavAra devalokanAM divya sukho bhogavelAM che. chatAM jIvane tRpti nathI thaI, to pachI manuSyanAM tuccha sukhothI kevI rIte tRpti thAya? manuSyanAM sukho, khAbociyAnAM chIcharAM pANI jevAM che. sAcuM sukha mokSamAM ja che. tyAM ja AtmA parama tRpti anubhavI zake che. * saMyoganA aMte viyoganuM duHkha nizcita hoya che. gusse thayelA sarpanI phaNA jevAM, bhogasukho caMcaLa che. - janmanI sAthe mRtyu nizcita che. - indriyonI uttejanAnA paritApathI samagra jIvaloka dagdha thayelo che. - kyAreya indriyo, vaiSayika sukhothI tRpta thatI nathI. padmazrI, tuM jene sukha mAne che, mArI dRSTimAM te sukha che ja nahIM... mAtra sukhAbhAsa che. evAM sukhono tyAga karI sAcuM sukha ke je AtmAnuM potAnuM che, te meLavavA mATe puruSArtha ka2vo joIe. For Private And Personal Use Only

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19. padmasenA | padmazrI mauna thaI gaI; paraMtu padmasenAe vAtanuM anusaMdhAna karatAM kahyuM : nAtha, sukha ane sukhanA AbhAsa vaccenuM aMtara koNa samajI zake? sukhane huM to manuSyanA mananI eka kalpanA ja mAnuM chuM. du:kha paNa manuSya mananI mAtra kalpanA ja che. vAstavamAM ApaNuM jIvana kalpanAnI duniyAnuM jIvana che. svAmInAtha, eka mANasa jemAM sukha mAne che, bIjo mANasa emAM du:kha mAne che! Apa saMsAramAM duHkha mAno cho, ame saMsAramAM sukha mAnIe chIe... dareka mANasa potapotAnI mAnyatAne laIne jIvana jIvye jAya che... ane temAM dareka manuSya bAhya-AMtarika saMgharSamAMthI pasAra thato hoya che. evA ja eka saMgharSamaya jIvananI vArtA kahuM chuM. ApaNA A rAjagRhI nagaranI ja A vArtA che. A nagaramAM devadatta nAmano sonI raheto hato. tenA putranuM nAma devaditra. devaditranI patnInuM nAma duliA ... duMilA catura hatI ane rUpavatI hatI. jyAre e suMdara vastra-alaMkAro paherIne nadIkinAre pANI bharavA jatI tyAre sAkSAtu jaladevI jevI dekhAtI. corecauTe beThelA yuvAno ane dhArI dhArIne joI rahetA. enA rUpa upara mugdha banI jatA. eka divasanI vAta che. dulA nadImAM snAna karatI hatI. tenI bIjI sakhIo paNa snAna karatI hatI. "amane ahIM koI jotuM nathI." ema mAnIne nirvastra banIne svacchaMdapaNe snAna karatI hatI. nagarano eka caritrahIna yuvAna eka vRkSanI pAchaLa chupAIne A strIone joI rahyo hato. jyAre snAna karIne dugilA nadInI bahAra AvI, vastro paherIne gAma tarapha cAlavA lAgI tyAre rastAmAM pelA yuvAne tene UbhI rAkhIne pUchyuM : "he suMdarI, A nadI tane pUche che, A vRkSo tane pUche che ane huM tane premathI pUchuM chuM - zuM teM sArI rIte snAna karyuM ke?' dugilAe e raMgIlA yuvAna sAme joI smita karyuM ane kahyuM : "nadIne sukha hajo, vRkSo AnaMdamAM raho... mane snAna karyAnuM pUchanAranI huM AzA pUrNa karIza.' ema kahIne dulA tyAMthI cAlI gaI. paNa pelo yuvAna tyAM ja Ubho rahyo. e vicAre che : "A rUpALI yuvatI koNa haze?" For Private And Personal Use Only

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136 eka rAta aneka vAta tyAM teNe eka vRkSa nIce 2matAM bALakone joyAM. bALakone pUchyuM : "hamaNAM ahIMthI gaI e strIne tame oLakho cho?' bALakoe kahyuM : "hA, hA, enuM nAma durmilA che. devadattanI putravadhU che." eka bAju dulA e yuvAnane maLavA jhaMkhe che, bIjI bAju pelo yuvAna durgalAne maLavA jhaMkhe che. banne upAya zodhe che. tyAM pelA yuvAnane eka bhaTakatI tApasI maLI gaI. tene managamatuM bhojana karAvIne khuza karI. tApasI catura hatI. teNe pUchyuM : "kahe yuvAna, tAruM zuM kAma karuM?' eka ja kAma che. devadattanI putravadhU durmilA sAthe mAro meLApa karAvI Apa. saMgamanI kabUlAta to meM enI pAsethI laI lIdhelI che... eTale tAre to mAtra sthAna ane samaya ja goThavI ApavAnAM che.' "yuvAna, tuM nizcita rahe, huM tarata ja tAruM kAma karI ApuM chuM.' tApasI bhikSA levA devadattanA ghare gaI. te vakhate durmilA vAsaNa mAMjatI hatI ane gharamAM ke AsapAsa koI dekhAtuM na hatuM. eTale dhIrethI tApasIe dugilAne kahyuM : "tane eka yuvAna cAhe che. tame banne rUpa, guNa, uMmara, caturAI vageremAM samAna cho, je divase eNe tane nadImAM nahAtI joI che te divasathI enuM mana tArAmAM lAgyuM che. gharamAM... bahAra sarvatra ene tArI ja laganI lAgI che..." duliAe bhavAM caDhAvIne kahyuM : "he tApasI, tuM AvI kharAba vAta na kara. AvI bhUMDI vAta amArA kuTuMbamAM thatI nathI. tArI AvI vAta sAMbhaLI huM to lAjI maruM chuM. he pAriNI, ahIMthI nIkaLa bahAra, ghareghare bhIkha mAMganArI... tAruM moDhuM jovAmAM paNa pApa che.' potAno Azaya chupAvIne teNe tApasIne dhamakAvI nAMkhI. tApasI jevI pITha pheravIne cAlavA lAgI, durmilAe enI pITha para meMzathI kharaDAyelA hAthathI thApo mArI dIdho. tApasI khIjavAI gaI. te sIdhI pelA yuvAna pAse pahoMcI ane je vAta thaI te kahI saMbhaLAvI. yuvAna hasyo. teNe tApasInI pITha upara duliAnA hAthano thApo joyo. te samajI gayo. "kALI pAMcamano saMketa che.' paNa sthAnano saMketa maLyo nahIM, eTale yuvAne tApasIne manAvIne samajAvIne pharIthI dugilA pAse mokalI. | darzilAe tApasIne pharIthI AvelI joI, tene gaLethI pakaDI pAchalA bAraNethI azokavADImAM thaIne bahAra kADhI. tApasIne potAnuM ghora apamAna For Private And Personal Use Only

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pAsenA 137. lAgyuM. teNe pelA yuvAna pAse AvIne badhI vAta karI. yuvAne tApasIne khUba mIThAI ApIne khuza karI. tene maLavAnI jagAno saMketa maLI gayo. "azokavADImAM kALI pAMcame te maLaze." teNe tApasInI sAme durzilA pratye napharata vyakta karI. tApasI cAlI gaI. yuvAna kRSNapakSanI pAMcamanI rAha jovA lAgyo. e divasa AvI gayo. rAtrInA samaye te yuvAna suMdara vastro paherIne durgilAnI pAse pahoMcI gayo. darzilA enI rAha jotI UbhI hatI, azokavADImAM khATalo pAtharelo hato. be prahara sudhI e bannee kAmakrIDA karI. pachI e ja khATalAmAM banne ghasaghasATa UMghI gayAM. durcilAno sasaro devadatta, e ja samaye jaMgala javA mATe UThyo. te azokavADImAM Avyo. teNe khATalAmAM duliAne ajANyA puruSa sAthe sUtelI joI. e krodhathI dhrujI UThyo. tenA manamAM zaMkA jAgI - "mAro putra to nathI ne A?' te gharamAM gayo. teNe putrane ekala sutelo joyo. tene khAtarI thaI gaI ke "A koI laMpaTa puruSa sAthe ja sUtI che." "zuM karuM? eNe kSaNabhara vicAra karyo. teNe sAcavIne dugiMlAnA pagamAMthI jhAMjhara kADhI lIdhuM! savAre A jhAMjhara devaditrane batAvIne, A kulaTAne sajA karAvIza." jhAMjhara laIne devadatta gharamAM cAlyo gayo, paraMtu dulA jAgI gaI. ene khabara paDI gaI ke enA paganuM jhAMjhara eno sasaro kADhIne laI gayo. te catura hatI. teNe potAnA premIne jagADIne ravAnA karI dIdho. jatAM jatAM ene kahyuM : "jarUra paDye buddhipUrvaka madada karaje.' dugilA gharamAM AvIne potAnA patinI sAthe sUI gaI. thoDIvAra pachI teNe devaditrane kahyuM : "ahIM mane khUba garamI lAge che, cAlone ApaNe azokavADImAM jaIne sUIe!" devaditra ane durmilA azokavADImAM jaIne e ja khATalAmAM sUtAM, ke jemAM dugiMlA pelA yuvAna sAthe sUtI hatI. devaditrane to tarata ghasaghasATa UMgha AvI gaI, paraMtu durgilA jAgatI paDI hatI. thoDIvAre te UThI ane devaditrane jagADIne bolI : "nAtha, A tamArA gharamAM Avo te kevo kulAcAra che? huM tamArI sAthe ahIM sUtI chuM ne? hamaNAM ja tamArA pitA mArA pagamAMthI jhAMjhara kADhIne laI gayA... AvI avasthAmAM sUtelI putravadhUne aDI ja kema zakAya?' devaditra vicAramAM paDI gayo. teNe kahyuM : "huM savAre pitAjIne jarU2 Thapako ApIza. emanI sAThe buddhi nAThI che." For Private And Personal Use Only

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138 eka rAta aneka vAta dugilAe kahyuM : "ema nahIM, tame hamaNA ne hamaNAM ja pitAne vAta karo, sAcuM karAvo. savAre to kaheze ke huM koI bIjA sAthe sUtI hatI." devaditre kahyuM : "teM kahyuM te ja sAcuM che. huM bIjAnuM kazuM ja mAnIza nahIM.' duMilA potAnA manamAM rAjI thaI. savAre devadinne devadattane Thapako Apyo. devadatta je sAcI vAta hatI te kahI diIdhI. paraMtu devadine pitAnI vAta na mAnI. durmilAe gusse thaIne kahyuM : tamArA pitAe mArA para kalaMka mUkyuM che. huM e sahana nahIM karuM. daivI-prayoga karAvIne huM khAtarI karAvI ApIza. gAmanI bahAra zobhana yakSanuM maMdira che. e yakSanA be paga vaccethI nIkaLIne huM mAruM zIla sAbita karI ApIza. je duHzIla hoya che te temAMthI nIkaLI zakatuM nathI.' devadatte e kabUla rAkhyuM. dagilAe enA premIne nadIkinAre maLIne yojanA samajAvI dIdhI hatI. bIje divase savAre nAhIne, zvetavastra dhAraNa karI, dhUpa, puSpa vagere sAmagrI laI, yakSanI pUjA karavA nIkaLI. rastAmAM eno premI yuvAna gAMDo banIne doDato Avyo... ne badhAnI vacce dugilAnA gaLe vaLagyo. "A to gAMDo che." kahIne lokoe tene hAMkI kADhyo. - dugilAe pharI snAna karyuM ane yakSanI pUjA karI. yakSane prArthanA karI : "mAre eka ja bhartAra che e, ane mAre gaLe vaLagelo pelo gAMDo, A be sivAya mArA zarIre bIjA koI paNa puruSe sparza karyo hoya to te yakSa, tArA paga vacce mane bhIDI rAkha. nahi to mane sukharUpa nIkaLI javA de.' yakSa vicAramAM paDI gayo... tyAM to eka kSaNanoya vilaMba karyA vinA dugilA yakSamUrtinA be paga vaccethI nIkaLI gaI. lokoe harSathI pokAra karyo - e zuddha che.. e zuddha che...!" rAjapuruSoe dugilAne puSpamALA paherAvI. vAjate-gAjate duliA potAnA ghare AvI. devadinne umaLakAbhera tene AvakArI. devadattanI UMgha UDI gaI. "mArI putravadhUe yakSa jevA yakSane chetaryo? kevuM gahana hoya che strIcaritra?" ene evo UMDo AghAta lAgyo ke AkhI rAta ne rAta jAgato ja rahevA lAgyo. nagaranA rAjAne rANIvAsanI rakSA mATe AvA ja mANasanI jarUra hatI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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pAsenA 139 rAjAne khabara paDI ke "devadatta sonI AkhI rAta jAgato rahe che. tene bolAvIne rANIvAsanA rakhevALa tarIke niyukta karI dIdho. have rANIvAsanI vAta kahuM chuM svAmInAtha!' pAsenAe jaMbUkumArane kahyuM. jaMbUkamAra, prabhava ane jaMbUkumAranI patnIo padmasenAnI vArtAmAM rasalIna hato. devadatta sonI rANIvAsanI barAbara cokI kare che.' eka divasa eka rANI, madhyarAtrinA samaye dhIme pagale mahelanA gokha tarapha javA lAgI. te devadatta tarapha vAraMvAra jue che. "A UMghe che ke jAge che." devadatta paNa UMghavAno DhoMga karyo. rANI mahelanA gokhamAM pahoMcI gaI. gokha (jharUkho) lAkaDAno hato. eka pATiyuM kADhIne rANI gokhanI bahAra nIkaLI, tyAM hAthInI sUMDha upara AvI. hAthIe rANIne potAnI sUMDhamAM pakaDIne nIce utArI. rANI hAthInA mahAvata sAthe premamAM hatI. mahAvate hAthIne A rIte rANIne pakaDIne nIce utAravAnI tAlIma ApelI hatI. devadatta paNa dhIre dhIre e gokhamAM jaIne besI gayo ane nIce zuM cAle che, te jovA lAgyo. rANI jevI mahAvata pAse gaI ke mahAvata gusse thaIne bolyo : "Aje kema moDI AvI?' ne lokhaMDanI sAMkaLa rANInA baraDAmAM phaTakArI. rANIe kahyuM : mAre to vahelA AvavuM hatuM paNa navo rakhevALa rAtre UMghato ja nathI. paNa ene jevuM jhokuM AvyuM ke huM te taka jhaDapIne ahIM AvI chuM.' - pachI e rANI ane mahAvata kAmakrIDAmAM lIna thaI gayAM. - pAchalI rAte rANI hAthI dvArA mahelamAM AvI gaI. - devadatta vicAravA lAgyo : "kharekhara, vidhAtA paNa samajI na zake tevuM strIcaritra hoya che. rAjAnI rANI to sUrya paNa joI zakatI nathI. chatAM jo AvI vyabhicAriNI hoya to pachI bIjI strIo to pANI bharavA ane bIjA ghaNAM kAme gharanI bahAra jAya che, temanuM zIla zI rIte Take? mArI putravadhUno paNa zo vAMka? strIo kharekhara, caMcaLa cittanI hoya che..." devadattanuM mana halakuM thaI gayuM. tene UMgha AvI gaI. savAra paDI chatAM te UThyo nahIM. dAsIe tene jagADavA prayatna karyo, chatAM te jAgyo nahIM. dAsIe For Private And Personal Use Only

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14o. eka rAta aneka vAta jaIne rAjAne vAta karI. rAjAe kahyuM : "ene UMghavA de. jyAre te jAge tyAre tene mArI pAse laI Avaje.' - devadatta sonI sAta divasa ne rAta ghasaghasATa UMdhyo. jyAre te jAgyo, te rAjA pAse gayo. rAjAe tene kahyuM : "huM tane abhayadAna ApuM chuM. tane AvI UMgha kema AvI gaI?' teM je kaMI joyuM hoya ke jANyuM hoya, te kahI de." devadatte rANI ane mahAvatanA premanI vAta kahI dIdhI. rAjAe devadattane khUba dhana ApIne nokarImAMthI chUTo karyo. te potAnA ghare jaIne rahyo. 0 0 0. rAjAne e khabara na paDI ke kaI rANI mahAvatanA premamAM che eTale rANIonA caritranI parIkSA karavAno teNe nirNaya karyo. rAjAe lAkaDAno eka suMdara hAthI banAvarAvyo. te pachI teNe potAnI ATheya rANIone bolAvIne kahyuM : "Aje mane evuM svapna AvyuM ke mArI badhI rANIo nagna thaIne lAkaDAnA hAthI para beThI che! mATe huM e svapna sArthaka karavA icchuM chuM. meM ekAMtamAM lAkaDAno hAthI Ubho rAkhyo che. tame nagna thaIne enA para beso.' sAta rANIo to nagna thaIne hAthI para besI gaI; paraMtu eka rANI bolI: "mane to hAthIno Dara lAge che... huM nahIM besuM." eTale rAjAe tenA upara kamaLanAM phUlothI prahAra karyo... eTale e rANI mUcchita thaIne jamIna para paDI gaI! rAjA samajI gayo ke "A ja rANI mahAvata sAthe premamAM che." tarata ja rAjAe e rANInI pITha joI... to lokhaMDanI sAMkaLanA prahAranAM cihUno hatAM. rAjAe te rANIne kahyuM : "re durAcAriNI, unmatta hAthI para caDhI zake che ne lAkaDAnA hAthIthI Dare che? sAMkaLanA mArathI harakhAya che ne kamaLanA prahArathI mUrchA AvI jAya che? he duSTA, je hAthI dvArA tuM tArA premI pAse jAya che te hAthI ane premI sAthe tAre yamalokamAM javAnuM che.' rAjAe mahAvatane bolAvyo ne sajA pharamAvI : "hAthI upara besIne tame banne pahADa upara jAo. ne pahADanA zikhara parathI tame traNeya nIce paDo." traNeya pahADa para caDhyAM. lokoe jyAre A vAta sAMbhaLI, rAjAne vinaMtI karI : "mahArAjA, hastIratnano nAza na karo." For Private And Personal Use Only

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141 pAsenA rAjAe mahAvatane kahevarAvyuM : "tuM ane rANI, zikhara parathI kUdI paDo. hAthIne jIvato nIce utAra." mahAvate kahyuM : "amane bannene abhayadAna maLe.. to ja huM hAthIne pahADathI nIce utAruM.' rAjAe mahAvatane ane rANIne dezanikAlanI sajA karI. hAthIne jIvato rAkhyo. 0 0 0 rANI ane mahAvata cAlI nIkaLyAM. cAlatAM cAlatAM rAta paDI. teo bIjA koI gAmanA pAdare pahoMcI gayAM hatAM. gAmanI bahAra eka jUnuM zivAlaya hatuM. banne zivAlayamAM jaIne sUI gayAM. lagabhaga aDadhI rAta vItI haze. gAmamAMthI corI karIne eka cora bhAgyo. nagararakSako tenI pAchaLa paDyA. pelo cora A zivAlayamAM ghUsI gayo. nagararakSakoe zivAlayane gherI lIdhuM. zivAlayamAM ghora aMdhakAra hato. jyAM rANI ane mahAvata sUtelAM hatAM, tyAM cora Avyo. mahAvata ghasaghasATa UMghato hato... rANI jAgatI hatI... core aMdhArAmAM * rANIne sparza karyo. rANIe corano hAtha pakaDI enA kAnamAM kahyuM : jo tuM mArI sAthe bhoga bhogave to "tuM mArI pati che,' ema nagararakSakone kahIne tane bacAvI laIza." core hA pADI. tene to bhAvatuM'tuM ne vaide batAvyuM,' enA jevuM thayuM. eTalAmAM hAthamAM mazAla laI nagararakSako maMdiramAM AvyA. temaNe A traNeyane joyA. pUchyuM : "tame koNa cho?" rANae corane batAvIne kahyuM : "A mArA pati che. ame bIje gAma jatAM ahIM rAtavAso rahyAM chIe." nagararakSakoe vicAryuM : "jenI AvI lakSmI jevI sArI patnI hoya te to corI na ja kare. mATe A sUvAno DhoMga kare che, te ja cora hovo joIe." nagararakSakoe mahAvatane cora tarIke pakaDyo. mahAvate rANI sAme joyuM. paraMtu rANI to enA navA premInI sAthe zivajInI mUrti sAme AMkho baMdha karIne be hAtha joDIne UbhI hatI! For Private And Personal Use Only

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142 eka rAta aneka vAta nagararakSako mahAvatane pakaDIne laI gayA. tene rAjAe zULI para caDhAvavAnI zikSA karI. bIjA divase savAre tene zULI para caDhAvyo. mahAvatane khUba tarasa lAgI hatI. jatAM AvatAM loko pAse te pANI mAgato hato. paraMtu koI ene pANI ApatuM na hatuM. tyAM jinadAsa nAmano eka zrAvaka tyAMthI pasAra thato hato, teNe kahyuM : 'bhAI, huM tane pANI lAvI ApuM chuM, tyAM sudhI tuM "namo rihaMta' bolyA kara.' jinadAsa pANI laIne Ave, te pahelAM ja "namo arditA'no jApa karato mahAvata mRtyu pAmyo. marIne deva thayo. 0 0 0 pelI kulaTAe cora sAthe maMdiramAM bhoga bhogavyA. savAre banne cAlI nIkaLyAM. rastAmAM nadI AvI. core rastAmAM ja vicAra karyo hato : "je strIe enA pahelA premI sAthe dago karyo, te mArI sAthe dago kema nahIM kare?' nadIkinAre core rANIne kahyuM : "tArAM vastra ane ghareNAM bhAre che. enI sAthe tane upADIne huM sAme kinAre na pahoMcADI zake. eTale pahelAM tuM mane tArAM vastra ane ghareNAM ApI de, te huM sAme kinAre mUkIne AvuM. tyAM sudhI tuM A vRkSaghaTAmAM saMtAIne besaje. gabharAIza nahIM huM AvIne tane nadI pAra karAvIza." rANIe ene potAnAM vastra ane ghareNAM ApI dIdhAM. cora te laIne nadInA sAmA kinAre pahoMcI gayo.... ane e badhuM laIne bhAgavA mAMDyo. rANIe tene bhAgato joyo... te nagna avasthAmAM ekadama nadInA pANI pAse AvI bUmo pADavA lAgI : "are, tuM mane ekalI choDIne kema bhAgI jAya che?' core kahyuM : "A avasthAmAM tuM mane rAkSasI jevI lAge che.. tuM mane khAI jAya to. mane Dara lAge che...!' ema kahIne te bhAgI gayo. rANInI AMkhomAMthI AMsu vahevA lAgyAM. tyAM acAnaka eka ziyALa AvyuM. tenA mukhamAM mAMsano TukaDo hato. te mAMsano TukaDo nadInA kinAre mUkIne te pANImAM rahelI mAchalI khAvA doDyuM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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143 pavasenA paraMtu mAchalI pANImAM UMDe cAlI gaI ane mAMsano TukaDo eka pakSI upADI gayuM! rANI A joI rahI hatI. teNe ziyALane kahyuM : "he ziyALa, tArAM mAMsa ane mAchalI banne gayAM!" ziyALa manuSya-vANImAM bolyuM : "te patine choDI premIne meLavavA gaI, to bannene khoyA. tuM nagna banIne Amatema zuM joyA kare che? re cAritrabhraSTa, tArA moMDhA para thuM..." rANI ziyALanI vANI sAMbhaLIne dhrujI gaI. teNe pUchyuM : 'tame koNa cho?" ziyALe potAnuM daivI rUpa pragaTa karIne kahyuM : "huM tAro premI mahAvata chuM. zrI navakAra maMtranA prabhAvathI huM marIne deva thayo chuM. mATe te paNa tArAM pApa dhovA dharmanA mArge cAla.' e deve, rANIne sAdhvIjI pAse laI jaI dIkSA apAvI. tene sAdhvI banAvI mokSamArge vALI. 0 0 0. padmasenAe jaMbUkumArane kahyuM : "he nAtha, mArI A vArtAmAMthI je sAra grahaNa karavo hoya te karo. mAre to eka ja vAta kahevI che ke je maLyuM nathI te meLavavAnI lAlace, tamane je maLyuM che te choDI na do." For Private And Personal Use Only

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20. kanakasenA ane nabhaNenA pAsenA, tArI kahelI vArtA upara tuM bIjI dRSTithI vicAra kara. dugilAnuM adha:patana zAthI thayuM? rANInA vyabhicAranuM mULa kAraNa zuM hatuM? eka mAtra viSayavAsanA. vaiSayika-daihika sukhanI tIvra icchA. paraMtu, tArI e duMilA ane pelI rANI, e to sAmAnya strIo hatI, huM tane eka vidyAdhara puruSanI vArtA kahuM chuM. vidyAdhara jevo vidyAdhara puruSa paNa jo vaiSayika sukhamAM lapaTAI jAya che to enuMya kevuM ghora patana thAya che, e sAMbhaLa. vaitADhya parvata upara vidyAdharonI duniyA che. tyAM gaganavallabha nAmanuM nagara che. e nagaramAM be yuvAna vidyAdharo rahetA hatA. ekanuM nAma megharatha ane bIjAnuM nAma vighunAlI. eka divasa megharathe vidyumbhAlIne kahyuM : "jo ApaNe viziSTa vidyAsAdhanA karavI hoya to manuSyonI duniyAmAM javuM joIe. tyAM ApaNe nIca kuLanI kanyAne paraNIne eka varasa sudhI brahmacaryanuM pAlana karavuM joIe. jo tArI icchA hoya to ApaNe jaIe." vidyumbhAlI taiyAra thaI gayo. banne mitro A ja bhAratanA vasaMtapura nagaramAM gayA. temaNe nIca kuLanI kanyAo sAthe lagna karavAnAM hatAM ne! eTale te banne cAMDAlonA vAsamAM jaIne rahyA. AvA sArA gharanA ane rUpavAna yuvAnone cAMDAloe potAnA vAsamAM rahelA joIne pUchyuM : tame amArA vAsamAM kema AvIne rahyA cho?' zuM karIe, amArA mAtA-pitAe amane gharamAMthI kADhI mUkyA che.' "cAMDAloe kahyuM : "to bhale ahIM raho, amArA jevuM kAma karo. ame tamane amArI kanyAo paraNAvIzuM. tamane koI kAMI kaheze nahIM." banne vidyAdhara yuvAno cAMDAlonA vAsamAM rahyA. megharathane cAMDAloe eka kANI kanyA paraNAvI. vidyumbhAlIne eka moTA dAMtavALI cAMDAla kanyA paraNAvI. megharathe to paraNIne potAnI patnIne kahyuM : "eka varSa sudhI tAre mane aDavAnuM nathI. huM vidyAsAdhanA karIza. pachI tane khUba sukha ApIza.' A rIte For Private And Personal Use Only

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kanakasenA ane nabhasenA. 145 megharathe to vidyA siddha karI lIdhI. paraMtu vidyumbhAlI cAMDAla kanyAmAM Asakta banyo. te brahmacarya na pALI zakyo. tenI patnI garbhavatI banI. megharathe varSanA aMte vidyumnAlIne kahyuM : "cAlo, have ApaNe ApaNI vidyAdhara duniyAmAM jaIe. mAre vidyA siddha thaI gaI... tAre ?" vidyummAlI zaramAI gayo. teNe potAnI vAta kahI dIdhI. megharathe ene Thapako Apyo. vidyumbhAlIe kahyuM : "have eka varSa sudhI brahmacarya pALIne vidyAsAdhanA karIza. tuM eka varSa pachI mane levA Avaje.' megharatha potAnA gaganavallabha nagaramAM pahoMcI gayo. vidyumbhAlInI patnIe putrane janma Apyo. vidyumbhAlI khuza thaI gayo. brahmacarya pALavAnuM bhUlI gayo. pharIthI tenI patnI garbhavatI banI. varSanA aMte megharatha tenI pAse Avyo. vidyummAlInI viSayAsakti joI teNe kahyuM : "mitra, jo vaiSayika sukha bhogavavAM hatAM to ApaNI vidyAdharonI duniyAmAM zreSTha sukho rahelAM che. AvI cAMDAla strImAM tuM zuM joIne mohita thayo che?' paraMtu vidyummAlInA mana para koI asara na thaI. e to patranA mUtrane sugaMdhI jala mAnato hato ane cAMDAla patnI ane mAratI to paNa e ene cAhato hato! A vighanmAlI have vidyAdhara duniyAmAM nahIM Ave. ene A naraka jevI duniyA gamI gaI che.' ema samajIne megharatha potAnA nagaramAM cAlyo gayo. te rAjakumAra hato. tenA pitAe teno rAjyAbhiSeka karI dIkSA lIdhI. megharatha rAjA banI, rAjyanuM dIrdhakALa pAlana karI chevaTe dIkSA lIdhI ane AtmakalyANa sAdhyuM. vidyumnAlI mohanA aMdhakAramAM aTavAIne ghaNA bhavomAM bhaTakyo. he padmasenA, mohAsakti bhayAnaka che. jhera khAvuM sAruM, paNa viSayavAsanAmAM lapaTAvuM khoTuM. jherathI eka vAra mRtyu thAya, jyAre viSayavAsanAthI anekavAra mRtyu thAya che." 0 0 0. jaMbUkamAranI dhIra-gaMbhIra vANIe sahune vicAra karatA karI mUkyA. kSaNabhara khaMDamAM sannATo chavAI gayo. jANe ke vairAgyanuM ghanaghora vAdaLa gherAI AvyuM. paraMtu bIjI ja kSaNe kanakasenA nAmanI strIe carcAmAM praveza karatAM kahyuM : svAmInAtha, "tti sarvatra varjayate' koI paNa vAta "ati sArI nahIM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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146 eka rAta aneka vAta saMsAramAM rahIne zuM tyAga na karI zakAya? sarvatyAga karavo ja zuM jarUrI che? ame ApanI patnIo ATa-ATalo Agraha karIe chIe chatAM ApanuM ja gANuM gAyA karo cho te mane yogya lAgatuM nathI. madhyama mArge cAlavAmAM zANapaNa che. nahIMtara pachI pelA khetarakSaka kheDUtanI jema chevaTe pastAvAno samaya Avaze. sAMbhaLo e vArtA. zAligrAmamAM eka kheDUta raheto hato. "zaMkhanAda" enuM nAma hatuM. roja rAtre zaMkha vagADIne potAnA khetaranI rakhevALI karato hato. mAMcaDA para caDhIne te zaMkha phUMkato, pazuo bhAgI jatAM. eka divasa keTalAka coro gAmamAMthI gAyonI corI karI, zaMkhanAdanA khetaranI pAse UbhA hatA. rAtrino samaya hato. zaMkhanAde zaMkha phUMkavo zarU karyo. pelA cora gabharAyA. temaNe vicAryuM : "grAmarakSakoe gAyone bacAvavA zaMkha phUMkyo lAge che... hamaNAM rakSako Avaze...' teo gAyone tyAM ja mUkI bhAgI gayA. savAre gAyo caratI caratI zaMkhanAdanA khetaranI sAme AvI gaI. zaMkhanAde te gAyo gAmanA lokone soMpI dIdhI. gAmalokoe zaMkhanAdanI prazaMsA karI, tene dhanyavAda ApyA. zaMkhanAdane zUrAtana caDhayuM. have te vadhAre jorathI zaMkha phUMkavA mAMDyo. eka divasa pharIthI coro gAyone pakaDI lAvyA. tyAM temaNe zaMkhano nAda sAMbhaLyo. te coroe vicAryuM : "nakkI koI kheDUta khetaranI rakhevALI karavA zaMkha vagADato lAge che. kharekhara, ApaNe pahelAM chetarAyA hatA. A to eno e ja avAja rAtrinA aMdhArAmAM teo dhIre dhIre zaMkhanAdanA khetaramAM ghUsyA. teo khUba krodhe bharAyelA hatA. rUnI vATa karatA hoya tema hAtha ghasatA-ghasatA, vAcharaDAM jema gAyanA AMcaLane dabAve tema hoTha ane dAMta dabAvatA dabAvatA, hAthI jema sUMDha pachADe tema lAkaDIo pachADatA-pachADatA ane baLadanI jema dhAnyanA choDavAone pADatA-kacaDatA te coro khetaramAM dAkhala thayA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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kanakasenA ane nabhasenA 147 pachI e coroe te kheDUtane lAkaDIothI khUba mAryo. tenAM kapaDAM utArI lIdhAM ane doraDAthI kacakacAvIne bAMdhyo. savAre bIjA govALo tyAM AvyA. temaNe kheDUtane AvuM banavAnuM kAraNa pUchuyuM. kheDUte kahyuM : "zaMkha phUko, bhale phUMko, paNa vadhAre na phUkavo. kAraNa ke vadhAre phUMkavAthI kAma bagaDe che. pahelI vakhata zaMkha phUMkavAthI meM je meLavyuM hatuM te vadhAre kavAthI cAlyuM gayuM. mATe koI kAma 'ati' na karavuM.' he nAtha, zaMkhanAda kheDUtane jema bhAna thayuM tema tamAre paNa "ati' no Agraha choDI, madhyama mArge cAlavuM joIe. gRhavAsamAM rahI mokSamArganI ArAdhanA karavI, te madhyama mArga che.' 0 0 0 jaMbUkumAre caMdana jevI zItala vANImAM kahyuM : "kanakasenA, tuM karmabaMdhananI dRSTithI vicArIza to gRhavAsamAM rahevAno Agraha choDI daIza. huM 'karmabaMdhanA siddhAMtane jANuM chuM. jeo A siddhAMtane nathI samajatA teo ajJAnavaza ane rAga-dveSa paravaza banI kevAM cIkaNAM pApakarma bAMdhe che, ane e pApakarmo jIvane durgatiomAM laI jaI kevAM ghora duHkha Ape che e vAto tuM sAMbhaLIza... to tuM paNa mArI sAthe dIkSA levA taiyAra thaI jaIza. tame sahu je gRhavAsamAM rahevA mane samajAvavA prayatna karo cho e gRhavAsamAM jIvane kevAM kevA pApa karavAM paDe che ane e vAsanAmAM jakaDAto jAya che, te samajAvavA eka upanaya-kathA kahuM chuM. viMdhyAcalamAM eka mahAkAya vAMdaro raheto hato. jANe e potAne vidhyAcalakumAra na mAnato hoya! hamezAM e vAMdarIonA jUthe sAthe jaMgalomAM vicaraNa karato. varSo vItyAM, vAMdaro gharaDo thayo. te chatAM e bIjA koI vAMdarAne jUthapati banavA deto na hato. paraMtu eka javAna vAMdarAe pelA gharaDA vAMdarAnI paravA karyA vinA, vAMdarIo sAthe pharavA mAMDyuM ane kAmakrIDA karavA mAMDI. te joIne gharaDA vAMdarAe javAna vAMdarA para humalo karyo. banne vacce bhayAnaka jhapAjhapI thaI. javAna vAMdarAe eka paththara gharaDA vAMdarAnA mAthe mArI, tenuM mAthuM phoDI nAMkhyuM. gharaDo vAMdaro tyAMthI bhAgyo. doDatAM. doDatAM e thAkI gayo. te eka jhADa nIce beTho. ene khUba tarasa For Private And Personal Use Only

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148 eka rAta aneka vAta lAgI hatI. teNe AsapAsa joyuM... dUra kaMIka camatuM dekhAyuM, teNe mAnyuM ke tyAM pANI che. te doDyo. jyAM pANI pIvA moDhuM nAMkhyuM... moDhuM coMTI gayuM! kAraNa ke e pANI na hatuM, paraMtu zilAjita hatuM. zilAjita khUba ja cIkaNuM hoya che. moDhuM chuThThuM karavA mATe teNe hAtha-paga zilAjitamAM mUkI jora karavA mAMDyuM. tenA hAtha-paga paNa coMTI gayA! pariNAme bhUkhyo ne tarasyo e gharaDo vAMdaro mRtyu pAmyo. hA, jo eNe hAtha-paga zilAjitamAM mUkyA vagara moDhuM choDAvavAnI mahenata karI hota, to kadAca bacI jAta. he kanakasenA, strInI vAsanA zilAjita jevI che. temAM coMTyA pachI UkhaDavuM ghaNuM muzkela hoya che. duniyAmAM A rIte strI-vAsanAmAM coMTI gayelA asaMkhya jIvo dekhAya che... temanAM du:kha... trAsa ane vedanA joIne, meM to brahmacarya pALavAnI dRDha pratijJA karI lIdhI che. kanakasenAe potAnI pAse beThelI nabhasenA sAme joyuM. nabhasenA jaMbUkumAra sAme ekAgratAthI joI rahI hatI. kanakasenAe sAcavIne enA hAthane sparza karyo. nabhasenAe kanakasenA sAme joyuM. tenA mukha para smita tarI AvyuM. te kanakasenAno izAro samajI gaI. vAtanuM anusaMdhAna karatI nabhasenA bolI : 'he prANanAtha, mArI spaSTa vAta kadAca kaDavI lAge to mane kSamA karajo, paraMtu huM spaSTa vAta ja karIza. meM ApanI vAta dhyAnapUrvaka sAMbhaLI che. Ape kahyuM ke 'jo te vAMdarAe zilAjitamAM potAnA hAtha-paga na mUkyA hota to e mukta thaI zakata.' zilAjita samAna strIono saMga karIne, vaiyika sukho bhogavIne zuM mahApuruSoe ane e mahAna strIoe dIkSA lIdhAnAM dRSTAMto nathI maLatAM? zrI nemanAtha ane zrI mallinAtha sivAyanA bAvIza tIrthaMkaroe zuM lagna nahotAM karyAM? zuM temaNe saMsArasukha nahotAM bhogavyAM? pachI teo saMsAratyAga nahotA karI zakyA? evI rIte bharata cakravartI, sagara cakravartI, sanatakumAra cakravartI vageree saMsArasukho bhogavIne cAritra nahotuM lIdhuM? tevI rIte Apa paNa amArI sAthe managamatAM saMsArasukha bhogavIne pachI dIkSA na laI zako? pachI brahmacarya na pALI zako? kharuM kahuM? saMsAranAM sukha bhogavyA vinA brahmacarya pALavAmAM koI majA ja nathI. bIjI vAta, mANase sukhI thavuM hoya to je maLyuM hoya temAM saMtoSa rAkhavo For Private And Personal Use Only

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kanakasenA ane nabhasenA 149 joIe. Apane je apAra vaiSayika sukho maLyAM che, temAM saMtoSa rAkho. A sukhothI caDhiyAtAM mokSanAM sukho meLavatA jatAM, maLelAM sukho choDI devAnI bhUla karazo to pastAvAnA divaso Avaze. bahu utAvaLA na thAo. jema saMsAranAM sukho vagara mahenate A janmamAM maLyAM ne? tevI rIte mokSanAM sukho paNa sahajatAthI maLaze! bhogavo tyAre mokSanAM sukha. atyAre, A janmamAM je sukha maLyAM che te bhogavo. kadAca, Ape mokSasukha meLavavA adhIra thayelA lokone saMsAranA sukho choDI sAdhu thayelA joyA haze... ne temane joIne Apane paNa e mokSasukha meLavavAno lobha jAgyo haze... paraMtu e lobha sAro nathI. juo, lobhI DosIonI eka vArtA kahuM chuM. eka gAmamAM buddhi ane siddhi nAmanI be vRddha strIo rahetI hatI. banne ekalI-ekalI hatI. potapotAnI jhUMpaDImAM rahetI hatI ane garIbImAM jIvatI hatI. eka divasa buddhi DosInA dvAre eka saMnyAsI Avyo. teNe buddhine kahyuM : 'gAmanI bahAra je bhotaka yakSanuM maMdira che, tyAM jaI traNa upavAsa karI yakSanI ArAdhanA kara. yakSa tAruM duHkha dUra karaze. tane sukhI karI deze." buddhi to gaI pakSanA maMdire. traNa upavAsa karIne yakSanI ArAdhanA karI. yakSa prasanna thayo. DosIne pUchyuM : tAre zuM joIe che?' evuM Apo ke jenAthI huM sukhamAM jIvuM." DosIe kahyuM. mArA paga pAsethI tane roja eka sonAno sikko maLaze, te tuM roja laI jaje." DosI bolI : "ApanI mArA para mahAna kRpA thaI. buddhine roja eka sonAno sikko maLavA lAgyo. thoDA divasamAM tenI raheNI-karaNI badalAvA lAgI. - moTuM suMdara ghara banI gayuM. - gharamAM cAMdInAM vAsaNa AvI gayAM. - eka hajAra gAyonuM gokuLa vasAvyuM. - buddhi suMdara vastro ane alaMkAro paheravA lAgI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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15o eka rAta aneka vAta lokone ghaNuM Azcarya thavA lAgyuM. paraMtu sahuthI vadhAre Azcarya to siddhine thayuM. te ghaNIvAra buddhine pUche che, paNa buddhi ane rahasya kahetI nathI. paraMtu baMne sakhIo hatI ne eTale eka divasa buddhie siddhine rahasya batAvI dIdhuM. siddhie paNa traNa upavAsa karI yakSanI ArAdhanA karI. yakSe prasanna thaI tene pUchyuM : 'kahe, tAre zuM joIe? siddhine buddhinI IrSyA hatI, eTale siddhie kahyuM : 'tame jeTaluM buddhine Apo cho tenAthI bamaNuM mane Apo.' 'tathAstu' kahIne yakSa adazya thaI gayo. siddhine buddhi karatAM bamaNI dhana-dolata maLavA lAgI, e joIne buddhine IrSyA thavA lAgI. teNe pharIthI yakSanI ArAdhanA karI. yakSa prasanna thayo. buddhie siddhi karatAM bamaNI saMpatti mAgI. tene maLavA lAgI. tethI siddhine IrSyA thavA lAgI. teNe paNa yakSanI pharIthI ArAdhanA karI. buddhi karatAM bamaNI saMpatti mAMgI. A rIte spardhA cAlatI rahI. chatAM bemAMthI koIneya tRpti na thaI... IrSyA vadhatI gaI. siddhie vicAryuM : "yakSa pAse jeTaluM huM mAnuM chuM, enAthI bamaNuM buddhi mAge che... bhale, have to huM evuM mAnuM ke buddhi mAMgavAnI kuTeva ja choDI de. teNe yakSane prasanna karIne kahyuM : "mArI eka AMkha phoDI nAMkho.. tenI eka phUTI gaI. A vAtanI khabara buddhine na paDI. eTale buddhie yakSane prasanna karIne kahyuM : "je siddhine ApyuM, tenAthI bamaNuM mane Apo!' eTale tarata ja tenI banne AMkho phUTI gaI! te du:khI du:khI thaI gaI. yakSe vicAryuM ke "A banne ekabIjAnI IrSyA kare che." eTale teNe bannenI badhI ja saMpatti laI lIdhI. pAchI e banne pahelAM jevI nirdhana banI gaI. eka kANI ane bIjI AMdhaLI! he nAtha, eTalA mATe kahuM chuM ke mokSasukhano lobha choDIne, je sukha saMsAranAM maLyAM che, te bhogavIne saMtoSa mAno.' nabhasenAe potAnI vArtA pUrI karI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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25. kanukazrI ane kamaLavatI) nabhasenA, tArI spaSTa vAta sAMbhaLIne huM rAjI thayo chuM. have tuM paNa mArI spaSTa vAta sAMbhaLa. tame sahu khUba premathI sAMbhaLajo. pahelI vAta to e che ke huM saMsAranA sukho pratye virakta banyo chuM. mArA manamAM eka mAtra mokSasukhanI jhaMkhanA che. saMsAranA sukho mane kema nIrasa... tuccha lAgyAM che, te tamane samajAvuM. je mANasane phAMsInI sajA thaI hoya, tene rasabharapUra bhojana ApavAmAM Ave, suMdara vastra ane kiMmatI alaMkAra ApavAmAM Ave.... zuM e mANasane gamaze? e bhojanamAM... vastramAM... alaMkAromAM sukha mAnaze? nahIM ne? tema mane "mRtyu" sAme bhAse che... anizcita mRtyu game tyAre bharakhI janAruM mRtyu kaho, pachI A badhAM bhogasukho game kharo? bIjI tarapha gaNadhara bhagavaMtazrI sudharmA svAmInA upadezathI meM AtmAne jANyo ane mokSane jANyo. mokSasukhane jANyuM ne jANyA pachI to... mane saMsAranAM sukha, sAce ja tuccha lAgI gayAM. nabhasenA, jeNe ghIne joyuM na hoya tene tela ja bhAve, tema jene mokSasukhanuM jJAna na hoya tene saMsAranAM viSayasukha game. saMsAranA ajJAnI jIvo duHkhathI to dUra bhAge che, paraMtu sujJa puruSo saMsAranAM vaiSayika sukhothI paNa dUra bhAge che. "vaiSayika sukhono upabhoga du:khone notare che." A vAta jANyA pachI e sukhone bhogavavA mana kevI rIte rAjI thAya? mATe huM tyAganA sIdhA raste cAlavA icchuM chuM. bhoganA ADA raste mAruM mana cAlavA nathI icchatuM. sIdhA raste cAlanAra sukhI thAya che. ADA raste cAlanAra duHkhI thAya che. eka ghoDAnI vArtA dvArA tane A vAta samajAvuM chuM. vasaMtapura nagaranA rAjAnuM nAma jitazatru hatuM. eka divasa jitazatru rAjA pAse azvapAla keTalAka ghoDA laI Avyo. rAjAne zreSTha ghoDo levo hato. teNe potAnA vizvAsapAtra azvaparIkSakane bolAvIne kahyuM : "sarvazreSTha lakSaNavALo azva batAvo.' azvaparIkSake evo eka zreSTha azva batAvyo. rAjAe enI pUjA karI, enI sAra-saMbhALa rAkhavA, e azva nagarazreSThI jinadAsane soMpyo. rAjAne jinadAsa zeTha upara khUba vizvAsa hato. For Private And Personal Use Only

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1para. eka rAta aneka vAta jinadAsa ghoDAnI sAra-saMbhALa rAkhe che. tene sarovare snAna karAvavA laI jAya che. rastAmAM eka jinamaMdira AvatuM, tenI traNa pradakSiNA karAvato, ane tyAMthI ene ghare laI Avato. zeThe ghoDAne evI Teva pADI dIdhI ke ghara, sarovara ane jinamaMdira A traNa sthaLa sivAya e bIje kyAMya jAya ja nahIM. AvA zubha lakSaNovALA ghoDAnA nimitte rAjAnI saMpatti dina-pratidina vadhatI cAlI. bIjA rAjAo ene vaza thavA mAMDyAM, eka zatrurAjAe jANyuM ke "jitazatru rAjAnI unnati enA lakSaNavaMtA ghoDAnA kAraNe thaI rahI che. mATe koI paNa upAya karIne e ghoDAnuM apaharaNa karUM athavA ene mArI nAkhuM..." A kAma eNe potAnA vizvAsu maMtrIne soMpyuM. maMtrI vasaMtapura Avyo. teNe jinamaMdiramAM jaI paramAtmAnAM darzana karyA. tyAMthI gurudeva pAse jaI guruvaMdana karyuM ane te jinadAsa zrAvakane ghera pahoMcyo. jinadAse tenI AgatA-svAgatA karIne pUchyuM : "tame kyAMthI Avo cho ane ahIM AvavAnuM prayojana zuM che?' maMtrIe kahyuM : "huM saMsArathI virakta thayo chuM. tIrthayAtrA karavA nIkaLyo chuM. tIrthayAtrAo karIne pachI huM gurudeva pAse dIkSA laIza.' jinadAse e kapaTI maMtrInA kapaTane na jANyuM. teNe maMtrIne potAnA gharamAM rAkhyo. maMtrI buddhizALI hato. teNe roja jinadAsane suMdara dharmakathA kahevAnI zarU karI. jinadAsane khUba AnaMda thavA lAgyo. eka divasa jinadAsanA eka snehI purUSe AvIne kahyuM : "jinadAsa, amAre ghare eka divasano utsava che, eTale huM tamane nimaMtraNa ApavA Avyo chuM. Apa amAre tyAM padhAro.' jinadAse kapaTI maMtrIne pUchuyuM : "jo tame A ghara ane A ghoDAne covIsa kalAka saMbhALo to A mArA snehInA ghare jaI zakuM." kapaTI maMtrIe hA pADI. jinadAsa snehInA ghare gayo. madhyarAtrinA samaye kapaTI maMtrIe ghoDAne lIdho, enA para savArI karI ane nagaranI bahAra doDAvI mUkyo. parata ghoDo to enI Teva mujaba jinamaMdiranI traNa pradakSiNA daI sarovara gayo ane sarovarathI ghara tarapha doDavA lAgyo. pelo maMtrI ene rokavA prayatna kare che... mAre che. paNa ghoDo to potAnI Teva mujaba ja ghara-jinamaMdirasarovara A traNa sthAna sivAya bIjA koI raste jato nathI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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kanakazrI ane kamaLavatI 153 AkhI rAta ghoDAe A rIte.... mAra khAdhA karyo ane ghara-jinamaMdira ane sarovaranA pherA karyA. prabhAta thayuM. tyAre chevaTe kaMTALIne ghoDAne choDI maMtrI bhAgI gayo. savAre jinadAsa ghare Avyo. AjubAjunA lokoe kahyuM : "tamArA mahemAne AkhI rAta bicArA ghoDAne khUba mAryo che... ne doDAvyA karyo che...' jinadAse mahemAnanI tapAsa karI. te bhAgI gayo hato. tenA manamAM khUba duHkha thayuM. eNe mane dharmanA bahAne chetaryo..' A vAtano ene viSAda thayo. jyAre du:kha paDavA chatAM dhoDAe ADo rasto na lIdho... bIjA raste na garyo, e vAtano khUba harSa thayo. teno ghoDA upara prema vadhI gayo. je manuSya duHkha sahIne paNa, khoTA raste nathI jato, e duniyAmAM vizeSa prema ane Adara pAme che. jinadAsanA ghoDAnI jema vizeSa AdaraNIya bane che. nabhasenA, pelo ghoDo jema unmArge gayo nahIM tema huM paNa unmArge jaIza nahIM. mokSanuM parama sukha ApanAra je mArga meM joyo che te huM have choDavAno nathI. sagurunI parama kRpAthI mane Avo zreSTha mArga jANavA maLyo che, e mArga choDIne huM ajANyA mArge zA mATe jAuM?" | nabhasenAe potAnI moTI-moTI AMkho jamIna para DhALI dIdhI. rAtrino bIjo prahara DhaLI gayo hato. vArtAno dora kanakazrIe pakaDI lIdho hato. madhura svare teNe kahyuM : "he nAtha, mAruM mana tamArAmAM ja lIna che. tamArAM laTakALAM nayana para mAruM mana mohI paDeluM che... he bhogI bhramara! tamArI madamAtI yuvAnI mane pAgala banAvI rahI che. Apa Apano Agraha choDIne mane yauvanarasanA pyAlA bharI-bharIne pAo. mane AvI badhI carcAomAM rasa nathI, ne AjanI rAta vaLI he sajana, yauvanarasa mANavA mATe hoya che... he prItama, ATalI sajjaDa pakaDa sArI nahIM. yuvAna strIo jyAre sAme hoya tyAre ATalo badho durAgraha rAkhI aLagA rahevuM vAjabI nathI. thoDA vyAvahArika banavuM joIe. nahIMtara pelA gAmamukhInA putra jaTAdharanI jema duHkhI thavuM paDaze. eka gAmano mukhI maraNapathArIe paDyo hato. teno ekano eka putra jaTAdhara tenI pAse beTho hato. tene mukhIe kahyuM : beTA, mArI eka aMtima zikhAmaNa mAnIza?" jarUra mAnIza pitAjI." For Private And Personal Use Only

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154 eka rAta aneka vAta 'to, je pakaDavuM te choDavuM nahIM!' "bhale pitAjI!' ne gAmamukhI marI gayo. eka divasanI vAta che. gAmanA kuMbhArano mAtelo gadheDo baMdhana toDI nATho. kuMbhAra enI pAchaLa doDyo, paNa gadheDo pakaDAyo nahIM. AgaLa jaTAdhara Ubho hato; teNe doDatA jatA gadheDAnuM pUchaDuM pakaDI lIdhuM. pelA kuMbhAre te joIne kahyuM : "jaTAdhara, pakaDI. rAkhaje, choDIza nahIM." jaTAdhara gadheDAnuM pUMchyuM pakaDI ghasaDAvA mAMDyo. gadheDo lAto mAravA lAgyo. lokoe bUmo pADIne kahyuM : "jaTAdhara choDI de gadheDAne...' jaTAdhara kahe che : "nahIM choDuM, mArA bApe kahyuM che... je pakaDavuM te choDavuM nahIM...' jaTAdhara lohIluhANa thaI jamIna para DhaLI paDyo. tenA prANa nIkaLI gayA. khoTI haTha pakaDavAnuM A phaLa che, mATe he nAtha, Apa paNa ApanI haTha choDIne saMsAranAM sukha bhogavo." kanakazrInI vArtA sAMbhaLI jaMbUkumAra sahita sahunA mukha para hAsya chavAI gayuM. jaMbUkumAre kanakazrInI vAtane haLavAzathI laIne kahyuM : kanakazrI, viveka vinAnI haThanuM pariNAma, teM kahyuM tevuM ja Ave. mArI haTha, mAro Agraha vivekapUrNa che. manuSya je koI satkArya karavAnuM nakkI karyuM hoya, te kArya karavA mATe teno daDha saMkalpa hovo ja joIe. daDha manobaLathI ja mahAna kAryo siddha thaI zake che. zuM tuM dRDha manobaLane "khoTI haTha' kahIne upekSA karavAnuM kahe che? mokSaprAptinA puruSArthane huM sAruM kAma mAnuM chuM. e karavA huM sajja thayelo chuM. mane bhogAsakti pratye dhRNA che. huM jANuM chuM bhogAsakta manuSyanI kevI durgati thAya che te sAMbhaLa eka vArtA. A vArtA kalpita nathI. jJAnI gurudevanA mukhe sAMbhaLelI che. eka nAnakaDA zaheranA koTavALanI A vArtA che. koTavALa pAse eka ghoDI hatI. koTavALa ghoDIne potAnI putrInI jema cAhato hato. tenI sAra-saMbhALa levAnuM kAma teNe "zalyaka' nAmanA nokarane soMpyuM hatuM. koTavALa, ghoDI mATe je sAro khorAka zalyakane Apato, te khorAka moTAbhAge zalyaka pote khAI jato ane thoDo khorAka ghoDIne Apato. For Private And Personal Use Only

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kanakazrI ane kamaLavatI 155 AvuM kapaTa karavAthI zalya ke pazuyonimAM javAnAM karma bAMdhyAM. te marIne pazuyonimAM janmyo. dhaNAM janma-maraNa teNe pazuyonimAM karyo... ema karatAM karatAM eno janma kSitipratiSTha nAmanA nagaramAM somadatta brAhmaNanA gharamAM thayo. tenuM nAma haridatta pADavAmAM AvyuM. pelI ghoDI paNa marIne ghaNA bhava saMsAramAM bhaTakI, kALakrame eno janma paNa kSitipratiSTha nagaramAM "kAma patAkA" nAmanI vezyAnA gharamAM thayo. tenuM nAma "mAlatI" rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. jyAre mAlatI bharayauvanamAM AvI tyAre tenI AsapAsa nagaranA aneka yuvAno pharavA lAgyA. eka divasa pelA haridatta paNa mAlatIne joI. haridatta mAlatImAM mohita thaI gayo. paNa te daridra hato, nirdhana hato. eTale mAlatInuM dehasukha ene maLe ema na hatuM. te mAlatInA ghare nokara rahyo. pANI bharavA lAgyo. anAja daLavA mAMDyo... ane bIjAM je kAma karavA paDe te karato. mAlatI enA para gusso karatI... ene mAratI... bhUkhyo rAkhatI... chatAM e jato na hato. enI kAmAsakti evI prabaLa hatI. he kanakazrI, huM e haridatta jevo strIlaMpaTa nathI; bhogAsakta nathI. ane A bhavamAM evAM karma paNa bAMdhavAM nathI ke AvatA janmamAM paNa AvI bhogAsakti maLe. mAre to pUrNa avikArI banavuM che.' jyAM jaMbUkumAre vAta pUrI karI, tarata ja kamaLavatIe be hAtha joDI, mastaka namAvI vinayathI kahyuM : "he prANanAtha, mArA bolavAmAM avinaya lAge to kSamA karajo; paraMtu ApanI badhI vAto sAMbhaLatAM ema lAge che ke ApanI kathanI ane karaNImAM bahu aMtara che! eka bAju Apa sukho choDavAnI vAto karo cho, bIjI bAju sukhonI pAchaLa doDavA taiyAra thayA cho! pelA "mAM sAhasa' pakSInI vArtA Apa jANatA hazo, chatAM kahuM chuM. eka majUra mANasa lAkaDAM kApIne lAvavA jaMgalamAM gayo hato. te eka pahADanI guphA pAse gayo. tyAM guphAmAM teNe vAghane sUtelo joyo. vAghanuM moDhuM khulyuM hatuM. tenA dAMtamAM mAMsanA kakaDAo coMTelA hatA. tyAM eka pakSI AvyuM "mA sAhasa" ema bolyuM ane vAghanA dAMtamAMthI mAMsano eka kakaDo laIne pAsenA vRkSa para jaIne beThuM. bIjI vAra te vAghanI pAse AvyuM. mA sAhasa' ema bolyuM, vAdhanA dAMtamAMthI mAMsano eka kakaDo lIdho ane UMDIne jhADa para jaI beThuM. A rIte "sAhasa na karo', ema bolatuM gayuM ane For Private And Personal Use Only

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153 eka rAta aneka vAta pote sAhasa karatuM gayuM! A joIne pelo majUra bolI UThyo- "are pakSI, A te tArI kevI kathanI ane kevI karaNI? sAhasa nahIM karavAnuM bole che... ne tuM sAhasa karIne vAghanA mukhamAM pese che!' he nAtha, tame pratyakSa sukhane choDavAnI vAta karo cho, ane parokSa sukha levA doDI rahyA cho...! AvuM kathanI-karaNInuM aMtara tamArA jevA zreSTha puruSane zobhatuM nathI.' jaMbUkumAre kahyuM : "kamaLavatI, tuM mArI vAtanuM tAtparya samajIza to tane mArI kathanI-karaNImAM aMtara nahIM lAge. huM anitya, parAdhIna ane bhayabharelAM sukhone dhikkAruM chuM. nitya, svAdhIna ane nirbhaya sukhone AvakAruM chuM. evAM zAzvatuM sukha dharmapuruSArthathI ja prApta thAya che. A dRSTie dharma ja sAco mitra che. sAcA mitrane sahu loko oLakhI zakatA nathI. avasara Avye ja sAco mitra oLakhAya che. he kamaLa, huM traNa mitronI eka vArtA kahuM chuM. kSitapratiSThita nAmanuM eka nagara hatuM. tenA rAjAnuM nAma hatuM jitazatru; ane rAjAnA purohitanuM nAma hatuM somadata. somadattanA traNa mitro hatAM. nityamitra, parvamitra ane praNAmamitra. niyamitra khAvA-pIvAmAM ane haravA-pharavAmAM sadA somadattanI sAthe raheto. parvamitra utsavonA divasomAM sAthe raheto ane praNAma-mitra rastAmAM maLatA tyAre mAtra hasIne praNAma karato. eka divasa purohita somadatta, rAjAnA koI aparAdhamAM phasAyo. somadatta gabharAyo. ene lAgyuM ke "rAjA mane phAMsI para laTakAvaze.' te rAtrinA samaye nityamitranA ghera gayo. "tuM mane tArA gharamAM saMtADI rAkha. nahIMtara rAjA mane phAMsIe laTakAvaze." nityamitre kahyuM : "jo bhAI somadatta, maitrI e to zeraDInAM phUla jevI che. jema zeraDInAM phUlanAM vakhANa karavAM khoTAM che tema rAjabhaya Ave tyAre maitrInAM vakhANa karavAM khoTAM che. mitrabhAve kazuM meLavavAnI AzA rAkhavI, e nirarthaka che. maitrInuM phaLa to potAno svArtha siddha karavAmAM raheluM che. svArthano tyAga karI bhoga ApavA kayo dubuddhivALo tatpara thavAno hato? tArI khAtara huM mArA kuTuMbane pAyamAla karuM? nA bhAI nA, tane mArA gharamAM chupAvI na zakuM... are, te jaladI mArA gharethI cAlyo jA.' For Private And Personal Use Only

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kanazrI ane kamaLavatI 157 nirAza thaIne somadatta nityamitranA dharamAMthI jevo bahAra nIkaLyo ke tarata ja nityamitre dhaDAka karIne daravAjo baMdha karI dIdho. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir somadatta parvamitranA ghera gayo. parvamitre tene Adara Apyo. premathI bolAvyo ne sArA Asane besADyo. somadatte tene potAnI badhI vAta karI. tenI vAta sAMbhaLIne parvamitre kahyuM : 'somadatta, aneka parva-utsavamAM teM mArA pratye apAra sneha batAvIne mane vaza karI lIdho che; mATe huM tArA duHkhamAM bhAga na lauM to mArA kuLane kalaMka lAge. tAre khAtara huM du:kha sahana karavA taiyAra chuM, paraMtu A che rAjabhayano mAmalo! tane Azraya ApatAM mAro parivAra pAyamAla thaI jAya. eka bAju tuM mane vahAlo che, bIjI bAju mArUM kuTuMba paNa mane vahAluM che. eka bAju vAgha che... to bIjI bAju UMDI khAI che... mATe he mitra, mArA kuTuMba pratye dayA rAkha ane tuM Azraya levA bIje jA. tArUM kalyANa thAo..' ema kahI parvamitra somadattane gharanA AMgaNA sudhI vaLAvIne pAcho gayo. somadatta nirAza... vyAkuLa ane vyathita thaI garyA. chevaTe te praNAmamitranA ghera pahoMcyo, praNAmitre tene AvakAra Apyo. somadatte potAnI sAcI paristhiti kahI saMbhaLAvI, ane kahyuM : 'mArI icchA rAjAnA rAjyanI hada bahAra nIkaLI javAnI che, tame mane madada karI zakazo? praNAmamitre kahyuM : 'he mitra, madada karavA mATe bahu gADha maitrInI jarUra nathI. saMtapuruSone sAta DagalAM sAthe cAlatAM maitrI thAya che.' ApaNI maitrI sAcI maitrI ja che. tamane madada karI, e maitrIne huM pavitra karavA ane kAyama rAkhavA mAguM chuM. tame bhaya na rAkho. huM tamArI rakSA karavA tamArI sAthe AvuM chuM. praNAmamitra, dhanuSya ane bANa laIne somadattanI sAthe cAlyo ane ene salAmata sthaLe pahoMcADI Avyo. he kamala, A vArtAnuM rahasya have tane samajAvuM chuM. - somadatta ApaNo jIva che. - nityamitra ApaNuM zarIra che. roja sAthe rahevA chatAM mRtyu thatAM te sAthe AvatuM nathI. - parvamitra ApaNA sagA-saMbaMdhIo che. teo smazAna sudhI vaLAvavA Ave che. - praNAmamitra dharma che. te mRtyu pachI paNa jIva sAthe Ave che ne kalyANa kare che. 'mATe huM dharmapuruSArtha ka2vA kaTibaddha thayo chuM.' For Private And Personal Use Only

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[22. jayazrI AThamI patnI hatI jayazrI. rAtrino trIjo prahara pUra thavAmAM hato. jayazrIe koI tattvacarcA na karatAM sIdhI ja vAta zarU karI he prANanAtha, tame pelI nAgazrInI jema khoTI-khoTI vArtAo zA mATe kaho cho? zA mATe samayane vyartha gumAvo cho? Avo, yauvanarasano lahAvo laIe. premarasanuM amRta pIne A jIvana sArthaka karIe. zuM tamane nAgazrInI khoTI vArtA saMbhaLAvuM? sAMbhaLo tyAre. ramaNIya nAmanuM nagara hatuM. te nagaramAM kathApriya nAmano rAjA hato. tene navI-navI vArtAo sAMbhaLavAno khUba rasa hato. prajAjano pAsethI te roja navI-navI vArtA sAMbhaLato. te nagaramAM rudra nAmano eka daridra brAhmaNa raheto hato. te ajJAnI hato. ane bolatAM enI jIbha acakAtI hatI. rAjasabhAmAM vArtA kahevA javAno eno vAro Avyo. rudranI patnInuM nAma somazrI hatuM. tene eka putrI hatI. tenuM nAma hatuM nAgazrI. nAgazrI catura hatI. rUpavatI hatI. Dhe nAgazrIne kahyuM : "beTI, AvatI kAle rAjasabhAmAM javAno mAro vAro che.. na mane to kAMI vArtA-bArtA AvaDatI nathI....' nAgazrIe kahyuM : "pitAjI, Apa ciMtA na karo. rAjasabhAmAM huM jaIza ne mahArAjAne vArtA saMbhaLAvIza." bIjA divase savAre nAhI-dhoIne svaccha, sAdAM vastra paherIne nAgazrI rAjasabhAmAM gaI. rAjAne praNAma karI teNe kahyuM. mahArAjA, mArA pitAjInA badale vArtA kahevA huM AvI chuM. mArA pitA rudrazarmA agnihotrI brAhmaNa che. temanI huM nAgazrI nAmanI putrI chuM. mArAM mAtA-pitAe caTTa nAmanA eka yuvAna brAhmaNa sAthe mArI sagAI karI. eka divasa mArA mAtA-pitA koI kAraNathI bIje gAma gayAM hatAM tyAre pelo caTTa-mAro bhAvi pati mArA ghera Avyo. te vakhate huM gharamAM ekalI hatI. enI AgatA-svAgatA karavA mATe gharamAM pUratI sAmagrI na hatI. teNe snAna For Private And Personal Use Only

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jayazrI 159 karI lIdhuM. meM bhojana karAvyuM, pachI sUvA mATe gharamAM je ekano eka khATalo hato te Apyo. gharamAM sApa bahu nIkaLatA, tethI huM jamIna para kevI rIte sUI zakuM? tethI mana makkama karIne huM tenI sAthe khATalAmAM sUtI... tethI te yuvAnamAM kAmavikAra jAgyo... paNa zaramathI te bolI zakyo nahIM. bahu ja muzkelIthI teNe kAmavikAro rokyA... tethI tene zULa UpaDyuM ane te marI gayo. mane lAgyuM ke "mArI bhUlathI ja tenuM mRtyu thayuM che. paNa A vAta huM kone kahuM? "meM gharamAM ja khADo khodyo, zabanA TukaDA karyA. khADAmAM dATIne upara mATI nAMkhI, jamIna sarakhI karI upara dhUpa karyo ane phUla pAtharyAM rAjAe pUchayuM : "he kumArikA, teM A kathA kahI te jUThI che ke sAcI?' nAgazrIe kahyuM : "mahArAjA, Apa jema bIjI kathAo sAMbhaLo cho, tema A paNa eka kathA che. te kathAo jo asatya hoya to A paNa asatya samajava!' jayazrIe jaMbUkumArane kahyuM : "he nAtha, Apa paNa banAvaTI vArtAo kahIne amane zA mATe chetaro cho?' jaMbUkumAre kahyuM : "jayazrI, duniyAmAM koI kathA banAvaTI ke kAlpanika nathI hotI. ApaNe ajJAnavaza jene kAlpanika kathA kahIe chIe, te paNa vItelA anaMtakALamAM satya ghaTanA rUpe rahelI hoya che. vaLI, mAre to tamane mAro sAco abhigama samajAvavo che. te samajAvavA mATe meM rUpaka kathAono Azraya paNa lIdho che. khera, jayazrI, tane eka sAcI kathA kahuM chuM, te tuM sAMbhaLa. vasaMtapura nAmanuM nagara hatuM. te nagaranA rAjAnuM nAma hatuM zatAyudha ane rANInuM nAma hatuM lalitAdevI. e rANI eTalI suMdara hatI ke jo e hajAra AMkhavALA indra sAme nayanakaTAkSa kare to enuM mana paNa harI le. te cosaTha kaLAomAM nipuNa hatI. jANe ke badhI ja kaLAo enA dehamAM AvIne vasI hatI. bhale tenAmAM rUpa hatuM ane kaLAo hatI, chatAM te cAritrahIna hatI. rAjA zatAyudhathI tene saMtoSa na hato... tenAmAM tIvra kAmAgni dhadhakato hato. eka divasa mahelanA jharUkhAmAM beThI beThI te rAjamArga para joI rahI hatI. tenI najara mArga parathI pasAra thatA eka khUbasuMdara yuvAna para paDI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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130 eka rAta aneka vAta te yuvAnanAM rUpa ane yauvana rANInA manamAM vasI gayAM, yuvAna to cAlyo gayo, paraMtu rANI enI pAchaLa kAmivaLa banI gaI... mohapAzamAM jakaDAI gaI. rANInI eka dAsI rANInI eka-eka kriyAnI noMdha karI rahI hatI. e rANInA mananA bhAva samajI gaI. te dhIrethI rANI pAse AvIne UbhI rahI. rANIe e dAsIne pUchyuM : 'hamaNAM eka suMdara vastra paherelo. rUpavAna yuvAna mArga uparathI gayo, te koNa che, tenI chUpI rIte tapAsa karI lAva.' ema kahI rANIe dAsIne potAnI vIMTI bheTa ApI. dAsI rAjI thaI gaI. te tarata ja e yuvAna aMge jANakArI meLavavA cAlI gaI. eka kalAkamAM te pAchI AvI. rANI khUba AturatAthI enI rAha jotI hatI. 'mahArANI, e phUTaDo yuvAna, nagarazreSThI samudrapriyano putra che. botera kaLAomAM nipuNa che. tenuM nAma lalitAMga che... have Apa kaho tema karUM.' dAsIe khUba dhImA svare rANInA kAnamAM kahyuM. 'e mane ekAMtamAM ahIM maLI zake, ema karI zakIza?' 'hA, hA, jarU2 eno meLApa karAvI ApIza. paraMtu e pahelAM Apa enA pa2 AmaMtraNa-patra lakhI Apo. huM ene ApI AvIza... pachI badhuM huM goThavI daIza.' rANIe lalitAMga upara prema-patra lakhIne dAsIne Apyo. dAsIe jaIne lalitAMgane Apyo. lalitAMga, rANIno premapatra vAMcIne Abho ja thaI gayo! teNe dAsIne kahyuM : 'kyAM te aMtepuramAM rahenArI rANI ane kyAM huM eka vaNikaputra! amAro meLApa azakya che.' dAsIe kahyuM : 'azakya kAMI nathI kumAra, huM zakya banAvI ApIza. tame taiyAra cho ne?' lalitAMge hA pADI, dAsIe avasara Ave maLavAnuM kahyuM. te cAlI gaI. have lalitAMga divasamAM traNa vAra rANInA mahelanI AgaLathI pasAra thAya che... ne rANI tene jue che... bannenI dRSTi maLe che... bannenAM mukha malake che... ne mauna premAlApa thAya che. ekabIjAne maLavA banne Atura banI jAya che. nagaramAM kaumudI mahotsavanA divaso AvyA. rAjAe rANIne kahyuM : 'cAlo ApaNe jaMgalamAM zikAra mATe jaIe.' For Private And Personal Use Only

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jayazrI 131 rANIe zArIrika asvasthatAnuM bahAnuM kADhyuM. rAjA zikAra karavA ekalo garyA. rANI mahelamAM rahI. teNe dAsIne A avasarano lAbha levA izAro karyo. aMtaHpuranA dvAre sazastra sainiko covIsa kalAka UbhA rahetA hatA. rAjA sivAya koI puruSa aMtaHpuramAM praveza karI zakato na hato. dAsIe lalitAMgane aMtaHpuramAM laI javAnI yojanA banAvI, nagaranI bahAra bagIcAmAM eka pAlakhI laI gaI. teNe aMtaHpuranA rakSakane kahyuM : 'mahArANInA AnaMdapramoda mATe eka yakSanI mUrti levA jAuM chuM. hamaNAM te laIne AvIza... paraMtu e mUrti, mahArANIjI sivAya koIe jovAnI nathI. baMdha pAlakhImAM lAvIza.' teNe pAlakhImAM lalitAMgane besADI dIdho. tenA upara lAla vastra oDhADI dIdhuM. pAlakhInI cAre bAju paDadA pADI dIdhA ane mANaso pAse upaDAvI te mahelamAM laI AvI. na tene koIe rokI, na koIe tene kAMI pUchyuM. rANI ane lalitAMga maLyAM. bannene jANe svarga maLyA jeTalo AnaMda thayo. banne yatheccha kAmakrIDAmAM lIna banI gayAM. dAsI zayanakhaMDanI bahAra, mahelanA pravezadvAra tarapha najara rAkhIne UbhI rahI. vaiyika sukhamAM lIna banelI lalitA rANIne samayanuM bhAna rahyuM nahIM... divasano cotho prahara zarU thaI gayo hato ane zikAre gayelo rAjA pAcho AvI gayo. bIjI bAju, aMtaHpuranA rakSakane rANInI dAsInI hilacAla zaMkAspada lAgI hatI. 'yakSanI mUrtine lAla kapaDAthI DhAMkIne zA mATe laI javAmAM AvI? zA mATe dAsI rANIvAsanA dvAre kyAranI ekalI beThI che...?' jyAre rAjA Avyo tyAre rakSake rAjAne yakSanI mUrtinI vAta karI ane sAthe sAthe potAnI zaMkA paNa vyakta karI. rAjAe kahyuM : 'huM hamaNAM ja rANIvAsamAM jAuM chuM.' dAsI catura hatI. teNe mahelanA dvAre mahArAjAnA ghoDAne joI lIdho. rakSakane mahArAjA sAthe masalata karato joyo... mahArAjAne ghoDA parathI nIce UtarI, bUTa kADhI dhIme pagale rANIvAsa tarapha AvatA joyA ... dAsIe zayanakhaMDanuM dvAra khakhaDAvyuM. rANIe potAnAM vastro ThIka karIne dvAra kholyuM. dAsInA mukha para gabharATa hato. 'mahArAjA AvI rahyA che...' rANI ane lalitAMga gabharAyAM. lalitAMge rANIne kahyuM : mane chupAvI de...' For Private And Personal Use Only

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162 eka rAta aneka vAta rANIe kahyuM : "ahIM kyAM chupAvuM? pakaDAI jaIza. to rAjA tane mArI nAMkhaze...' lalitAMga khUba gabharAI gayo. vicAravAno vadhu samaya na hato. rANIe ane dAsIe lalitAMgane upADIne rANIvAsanA pAchaLanA bhAgamAM avAvaru kUvAmAM pheMkI dIdho! rANI dAsI sAme joIne hasI. jANe ke kerIno rasa cUsI, goTalo bahAra pheMkI de tema lalitAMgane kUvAmAM pheMkI daI... rANI tRpta thaI hatI. tyAM rAjAe rANIvAsamAM praveza karyo. rANIe khUba ja svAbhAvikatAthI rAjAnuM svAgata karyuM. dAsI zayanakhaMDamAMthI bahAra nIkaLI gaI. rAjAe zayanakhaMDamAM cArekora joyuM... koI dekhAyuM nahIM. pelI yakSanI mUrti kyAM che?' "je Aje savAre ahIM lAvI hatI e?' "hA.' "e mUrti to pAchI mokalI dIdhI!' rANIe khUba hAvabhAva batAvI rAjAne bIjI vAtamAM caDhAvI dIdho. - lalitAga je kUvAmAM paDyo hato te kUvo bahu UMDo to na hato, paraMtu gaMdakIthI bharelo hato. kUvAmAM paDyo paDyo lalitAMga dhrUjI rahyo hato. rAjA tapAsa karato karato ahIM AvI caDhaze ne mane joI jaze to?' paraMtu jyAre eka... be.... traNa kalAka vItI gayA. tyAre te nirbhaya banyo, ane tene rANI yAda AvI. "rANIe mane upADIne ahIM kema pheMkI dIdho? kevI e svArthI.... kulaTA strI che? mArI sAthe manamAnyAM sukha bhogavyAM.... kevI premaceSTAo karI. ne jyAM eno svArtha ghavAto lAgyo. eNe mArI A durdazA karI? ahIM huM kevI rIte jIvIza? have. jo huM A kUvAmAMthI bahAra nIkaLuM to kyAreya A rIte parastrIno saMga nahIM karUM... kyAreya parastrI sAthe prema nahIM karUM ..." bIjA divase savAre rANInI dAsIe e kUvAmAM, bhojananI poTalI bAMdhI kUvAmAM nAMkhI. lalitAMge poTalI kholI bhojana karyuM... khUba bhUkha lAgI hatI... te badhuM ja khAI gayo.. ne kUvAnuM gaMduM pANI pIdhuM... bIjuM zuM kare? ema karatAM divaso vItyA ne mahinA vItyA. varasAdanA divaso AvyA. dhodhamAra varasAda varasavA lAgyo. khADA ane kUvA pANIthI UbharAvA lAgyAM. lalitAMga pANInA pravAhamAM taNAto nagaranA killAnI bahAra khAImAM taNAI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jayazrI 163 Avyo. taNAto-taNAto te khAInA kinAre pheMkAI gayo. te mUcchita thaIne kinAre paDyo hato, tyAM tene enI ja dhAvamAtAe joyo. tene oLakhyo. teNe tarata ghera jaIne zreSThI samudrapriyane vAta karI. rAtrinA samaye lalitAMgane gADImAM nAMkhI ghera lAvavAmAM Avyo. vaidyone bolAvIne lalitAMganI sAravAra zarU karAvI. cha mahinAnI sAravAra pachI lalitAMga svastha banyo. kahe jayazrI, have pharIthI pelI lalitArANI lalitAMgane bolAve to lalitAMga enI pAse jAya kharo? viSayasukhonA upabhoganAM AvAM mAThAM pariNAma jANyA pachI e viSayasukhomAM huM lalacAu kharo? je mANaso, vaiSayika sukhonA bhayAnaka vipAka jANIne saMyama dharmanuM pAlana kare che, vairAgya dhAraNa kare che, teo ja kharekhara sAco yaza prApta kare che. jayazrI, have tane huM A kathAnuM rahasya batAvuM chuM - saMsAramAM janma-mRtyu pAmanArA sarva manuSyo lalitAMganI jema kAmabhogamAM racyApacyA rahe che. viSayasukha te lalitArANInA upabhoga jevuM samajavuM. A viSayasukha AraMbha madhura che paNa aMte ghaNuM ja bhayaMkara che. lalitAMgane azucithI bharelA kUvAmAM rahevuM paDyuM te garbhAvAsa samajavo. garbhamAM rahelA jIvane mAtAno eTho AhAra levo paDe che, jema lalitAMgane dAsIno eTho AhAra levo paDato hato. gaMdakInA kUvAmAMthI khALamAM AvavuM te garbhamAMthI yoni vATe bahAra AvavA jevuM samajavuM, khAImAM paDavuM te pratikAgRhamAM paDavA jevuM che. khAInA kinAre mUccha khAIne paDavuM te yonimAM bahAra AvelA jIvanI mUccha jevuM samajavuM.. A rIte, A kathA ApaNA sahunI che!" 0 0 0 cotho prahara pUro thavAnI taiyArI hatI. jaMbUkamAre ATheya patnIo sAme joyuM. jANe ke e pUchavA mAgatA hoya ke- "bolo, have tamAre zuM karavuM che? meM mAro nirNaya to spaSTa batAvI dIdho che.' ATheya strIo paNa samajI gaI : "amArA nAtha kharekhara sAcA vairAgI che. emano vairAgya jJAnamUlaka che. temanI indriyo zAnta che. jANe ke emanI janama-janamanI sAdhanA cAlI AvatI nA hoya! ATheya strIoe eka-bIjInA sAme joyuM. pratyuttara ApavAnI javAbadArI samudrazrI upara nAMkhavAmAM AvI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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| 3. dIkSA...dIkSA... dIkSA...! prANanAtha, AkhI rAta ApaNo je vArtAlApa cAlyo, teno niSkarSa amane sahune eka ja samajAyo ke Apa gRhavAsa tyajI cAritra dharma ja aMgIkAra karavAnA cho. nAtha, amAro paNa e ja nirNaya che. ApanA pagale-pagale ame paNa cAritra dharmano svIkAra karIzuM." bolatAM bolatAM samudrazrInI AMkho bhInI thaI gaI. to zuM tamAro vaiSayika sukho pratyeno rAga osarI gayo che? kharekhara, zuM tame vairAgI banyAM cho?" nA, amArA hRdayamAM ApanA pratyeno rAga evo ja che. rAgano sAgara ghUghavI rahyo che.' to pachI tame cAritra dharma kevI rIte svIkArI zakazo?' "kAraNa ke ApanA vinA ame gRhavAsamAM rahI zakIe ema nathI, ane Apa gRhavAsamAM rahetA nathI." paraMtu cAritra dharmanuM pAlana vairAgya vinA kevI rIte karI zakazo? "barAbara karIzuM. vairAgI uparano rAga, cAritra dharmanA pAlanamAM bAdhaka nahIM bane ema mane lAge che. Apa vairAgI cho, ame ApanA rAgI chIe!' he suzIle, virati dharmanuM pAlana to kadAca tame karI zakazo. bhagavAna sudharmAsvAmI pAse meM sAMbhaLyuM che ke virati dharmanuM pAlana to rAgI jIva paNa karI zake paraMtu vairAgya prApta karavo ghaNo duSkara che." nAtha, vItarAga pratyeno rAga jema jIvane vItarAgatA tarapha laI jAya che tema vairAgI pratyeno rAga jIvane vairAgya tarapha nahIM laI jAya?' zakyatA kharI, nirNaya nahIM.' AtmasAkSIe amAro nirNaya che ke ApanA pratyeno rAga amane vairAgI banAvaze ja. kAraNa ke duniyAmAM sAce ja, ApanA sivAya koI puruSa pratye amArA manamAM AkarSaNa jAgyuM ja nathI. mATe ja jANavA chatAM ke "lagna karyA pachI amArA nAtha tarata ja cAritra dharma svIkAravAnA che, ame lagna karavAnI haTha karI hatI. amArA mAtA-pitAone lAgyuM hatuM ke "A chokarIo khoTI haTha kare che. nakkI thayelI sagAI to tUTI zake che. emAM samAjane koI vAMdho For Private And Personal Use Only

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dizA.. dIkSA... dIkSA... 165 ke virodha hoto nathI. jaMbUkamAra bhale dIkSA le, bIjA ghaNA zreSThIputro maLaze." amane emaNe kaheluM paNa kharuM. paraMtu ame zuM karIe? ApanA sivAya bIjA koI puruSa pratye manamAM jarAya AkarSaNa ja jAgatuM na hatuM. pachI bIjAne paraNIne zuM karavAnuM hatuM?" bIjAne nahIM paraNavuM eka vAta che, dIkSA levI bIjI vAta che." nAtha, ame lagna karatAM pahelAM ja nirNaya karI lIdho hato ke jo Apa dIkSA lezo to ame paNa dIkSA laIzuM.' e nirNaya bhAvAvezano haze, lAgaNInA pracaMDa pravAhamAM taNAIne karelo haze.. to dIkSA lIdhA pachI saMbhava che ke pastAvo thAya! kAraNa ke jIvana parivartanano nirNaya bhAvAvezamAM karavAno nathI hoto. A nirNaya zAMta manathI ane svasthatAthI karavAno hoya che. mananA bhAva sthira nathI hotA. kyAreka e bhAvo vardhamAna hoya che.... eTale ke caDhatA bhAva. kyAreka manobhAva hIyamAna hoya che, eTale ke paDatA bhAva. ane kyAreka manobhAva avasthita hoya che, eTale ke eka sarakhA. atyAre tamArA manobhAva caDhatA che, paraMtu e manobhAvane jo vairAgyano AdhAra nahIM hoya to e manobhAva adhogAmI banI jaze ne pazcAttApa karAvaze- "ApaNe dIkSA na lIdhI hota to sAruM thAta.. nakAmAM ApaNe bhAvAvezamAM taNAI gayAM. sAdhvIjIvananAM AvAM kaSTo ApaNAthI sahana nathI thatAM...' AvA-AvA vicAro AvI zake. eTale, tyAganA vicArone vairAgyanI bhUmikA maLavI joIe. vairAgyanI bhUmikA para jAgelA tyAganA vicAro daDha rahe che, dIrghakALa Take che..." "he prItama, atyAre to koI paNa saMyogomAM ame ApanA pratye vairAgI banI zakIe ema nathI. ApanA sivAya, samagra saMsAra pratye ame vairAgI chIe ApanA pratye rAga che... ne kadAca raheze paNa kharo.. ane saMbhava che ke jJAnanI, AtmajJAnanI pariNati vadhatI jaze to ApanA pratyeno rAga paNa dUra thaI jAya!' "mane eka saMzaya che. mArA uparano rAga, zuM AtmajJAnanI prAptimAM bAdhaka to nahIM bane ne?" nahIM bane nAtha, ApanuM virakta vyaktitva amane UrdhvagAmI banavAnI preraNA Apaze. ApanA pratyeno rAga amane vairAgyanA sAgaramAM laI jaze. AtmajJAnanI punita gaMgAmAM snAna karAvaze." For Private And Personal Use Only

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13 eka rAta aneka vAta ghaNA samayathI mauna beThelA prabhavanI cetanA saLavaLI UThI. "kumAra, tamArI vAtamAM vacce boluM to avinaya kahevAze, chatAM jo anujJA Apo to eka vAta kahuM.' "kahe prabhava! tuM bolIza te avinaya nahIM kahevAya." kumAra, zuM tame ema iccho cho ke A strIo ane huM - ame tamArA pratye paNa vairAgI banI jaIe? jo tamArA pratye vairAgI banIzuM to duniyA pratye rAgI banI jaIzuM. kaho, zuM pasaMda che tamane?'jaMbUkumAranA mukha para smita chavAI gayuM. ATha strIone paNa prabhavano tarka gamI gayo. prabhave kahyuM : - "A ATha mahAsatI che. teo to kadAca duniyA pratye rAgI na bane, paNa mArA jevo DAku ne A mArA sAthIo... amane jo tame tamArA rAgI banavAnI nA pADazo to ame kyAM jaIzuM? zuM amane prapaMcathI bharelI duniyAnA ja rAgI rAkhavA che? kumAra, A ATha strIo to tamArA pratyenA rAgathI ja tamane paraNIne AvI che, paraMtu ame kaMI rAgathI kheMcAIne ahIM nahotA AvyA. ame to tamArA navvANuM kroDa sonaiyA uThAvI javA AvyA hatA... tamArA dumana banIne AvyA hatA, paraMtu jema jema tamArI vAto ame sAMbhaLatA gayA tema tema ame tamArA anurAgI banI gayAM chIe. huM paNa kumAra, tamArA pagale-pagale cAritrano ja mArga grahaNa karIza.' prabhavanI A vAta sAMbhaLIne jaMbUkumAra palaMgamAMthI UbhA thaI gayA ne prabhAvane potAnA bAhupAzamAM jakaDI lIdho. A adbhuta dRzyane joI ATheya strIo harSathI gadgad thaI gaI. temanI AMkho harSanA AMsuthI UbharAI gaI. prabhava, kharekhara te addabhuta nirNaya karyo che." kumAra, mAro nirNaya vairAgya para AdhArita nathI, rAga para AdhArita che. tamArA pratye jANe... janama-janamano rAga hoya. tema hRdaya rAgathI UbharAI rahyuM che...' samudrazrIe pUchyuM : "nAtha, amArA sahuno ApanA pratyeno A rAga prazasta kharo ne?' huM aprazasta nahIM kahuM.' "je rAga manuSyane... jIvamAtrane tyAga ane vairAgyanA mArge laI jato hoya te rAga vAstavamAM rAga ja nathI, paraMtu prazasta prema che ane te upAdeya ja hoya.' For Private And Personal Use Only

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dIkSA... dIkSA... dIkSA... 'tArI vAta khoTI nathI samudrazrI! nAtha, to pachI amane ApanI sAthe ja cAritra dharma svIkAravAnI anumati Apo.' tamArAM mAtA-pitA mAnaze?" jarUra mAnaze; kadAca nahIM mAne to paNa have temanI AjJA amane baMdhanarUpa nathI. lagna pachI strI mATe patinI AjJA ja baMdhanarUpa hoya che. ApanI AjJA amane maLI gaI che.. basa, have ame mAtAjI pAse jaIe. teo amArI rAha jotA haze...' "hA, hA, "mArA beTAne rAgI banAvIne hamaNAM mArI putravadhUo mArI pAse Avaze!" ema ja ne?" jaMbUkumAre hasatAM hasatAM kahyuM. "mA to evI ja AzA rAkhe ne?' ema kahIne samudrazrI ane bIjI strIo UbhI thaI. mastake aMjali joDI jaMbUkumArane praNAma karyA ane dhAriNInA khaMDa tarapha cAlI gaI. 0 0 0 praNAma mAtAjI!" kahIne eka pachI eka strIe dhAriNInA khaMDamAM praveza karyo. dareke dhAriNInAM caraNomAM praNAma karyA. dhAriNIe khUba vAtsalyathI dareka putravadhUnA mastake hAtha mUkI AzIrvAda ApyA. dhAriNIe ATha putravadhUo mATe ATha Asana goThavAvI rAkhelAM hatAM. ATha strIo e Asano para vinayathI besI gaI. samudrazrIe dhAriNInI kuzaLapRcchA karI : "mAtAjI, zuM ApanI rAtri sukhapUrvaka pasAra thaI?" beTI, jyAM sudhI tamArA mukhe huM zubha samAcAra na sAMbhaLuM tyAM sudhI mane sukha kyAMthI hoya?" dhAriNInI AMkho Ameya ujAgarAthI thoDI bhArebhAre to hatI ja. bolatAM bolatAM AMkho bhInI thaI gaI, mAtAjI, tamArA putra to kharekhara vairAgI che! emane vairAgya daDha che, paripakva che.' eTale?" AkhI rAta temane samajAvavA ame ATheye prayatna karyA, paraMtu teo rAgI na banyA..." For Private And Personal Use Only

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168 eka rAta aneka vAta kharekhara?" hA mAtAjI, amArAM rUpa emane AkarSI na zakyAM. amArA nayanakaTAkSo temanA hRdayane bhedI na zakyA. amArAM mIThAM vacano temane samajAvI na zakyAM..." "pachI?' "temaNe amane samajAvI dIdhI! temanAM sAcAM ne mIThAM vacanoe amane mauna karI dIdhI. temanA nirvikArI vyaktitve amArAM mana mohI lIdhAM. temanA avicala saMkalpabaLe amane AkarSI lIdhAM..." eTale tame enI vAta mAnI lIdhI?" "hA mAtAjI, ame paNa temanI sAthe ja dIkSA laIzuM!" "zuM kaho cho tame?' dhAriNI bhadrAsana uparathI UbhI thaI gaI. eka pachI eka strInA caherA jovA lAgI. ATheya strIonA caherA praphullita hatA. "zuM tame ATheya dIkSA levAnI cho?' "hA mAtAjI.' meM AvuM nahotuM dhAryuM..." koI ja AvuM na dhArI zake mAtAjI, duniyAmAM loko evuM ja dhAratA hoya che ke strI Aga che ne puruSa maNa che. AganA saMparkamAM AvatAM ja mINa pIgaLI jAya che. ame paNa pahelAM to ApanA putrane mINa jevA mAnyA hatA! paraMtu teo to Agane bujhAvanArA pANInA dhodha jevA nIkaLyA, mAtAjI!" dhAriNI samudrazrInI vAta sAMbhaLatI rahI. samudrazrI bolatI rahI - "mAtAjI, Apa bIjI eka vAta sAMbhaLazo tyAre ApanA rome rome phUla khIlI UThaze!' evI bIjI zI ghaTanA banI rAtre, beTI?" coro corI karavA AvyA hatA. corono saradAra vidyAdhara hato. vidyAbaLathI teNe tALAM toDI nAkhyAM hatAM ane havelImAM sahune vidyAbaLathI UMghADI dIdhA hatA! eka mAtra ApanA putra upara enI vidyA na cAlI, teo jAgatA rahyA! eTaluM ja nahIM, e coronA saradArane paNa bodha ApI sanmArge lAvI dIdho! eNe kahyuM : "huM paNa dIkSA laIza!" zuM vAta kare che beTI?' sAcI vAta che mAtAjI, haju e saradAra ane enA sAthI beThA che tamArA putra pAse...!" For Private And Personal Use Only

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dIkSA... dIkSA... dIkSA... 179 'beTI, A badhuM zuM banI rahyuM che... mane to kAMI samajAtuM nathI. jyArathI jaMbU vairAgI banyo che... mArI to buddhi ja kAma karatI nathI. ATalAM badhAM sukha che... koI duHkha nathI, koI azAnti nathI... chatAM kema badhuM choDIne dIkSA levAnI e vAta kare che... ane adhUrAmAM pUruM ... tamane ATheyane paNa vairAgI banAvI dIdhI!' 'nA, nA, mAtAjI, ame vairAgI nathI banyAM. amane emanA upara evo ne evo ja rAga che... paraMtu have teo saMsAramAM rahevAnA nathI, saMsAranAM sukha bhogavavAnA nathI, to pachI ame saMsAramAM zA mATe rahIe?' 'mArI pAse rahejo beTI, bhale kumAra dIkSA le, tamane huM sArI rIte rAkhIza. koI vAte tamane ochuM nahIM AvavA dauM... tamAre zA mATe dIkSA levI joIe?' eTalA mATe mAtAjI, ke ame emanA vinA saMsAramAM nahIM rahevAno saMkalpa karelo che, e je sukho na bhogave, te sukho amAre nahIM bhogavavAnAM.' 'eTale tame paNa dIkSA levAnAM ja...' 'hA, mAtAjI...' 'prabhava, A che mArAM mAtAjI!' dhAriNInA khaMDamAM praveza karatAM jaMbUkumAre prabhavane dhAriNInI oLakhANa ApI, prabhava dhAriNInA pagamAM paDI gayo. prabhavanA sAthIdAroe paNa eka pachI eka dhAriNInAM caraNomAM praNAma karyA. 'mA, A che viMdhyarAjano jyeSTha putra prabhava...' 'mAtAjI, eka vakhate rAjakumAra hato, atyAre to DAku chuM...' vArtAlApa cAlato hato tyAM zreSThI RSabhadatte praveza karyo. ATheya putravadhUo tyAMthI potAnA khaMDamAM cAlI gaI. jaMbUkumAre RSabhadattane prabhavano paricaya karAvyo. prabhave kahyuM : 'kumArano saMsAratyAga karavAno nirNaya kharekhara, adbhuta che. A nirNayanI satyAsatyatA aMge AkhI rAta amArI carcA cAlI... kharekhara, ApanI ATha putravadhUo paNa vicakSaNa che, anokhI buddhipratibhA dharAve che. kevA suMdara tarka karyA temaNe! paraMtu kumAre temanA badhA tarkanA suMdara pratyuttaro ApyA... mArI jijJAsAo paNa saMtoSI...' ATaluM bolI teNe jaMbUkumAra sAme joyuM. jaMbUkumAre kahyuM : 'pitAjI, prabhava paNa saMsAratyAga karaze... ne cAritra dharma aMgIkAra karaze... hamaNAM te viMdhyarAja pAse jaze...' For Private And Personal Use Only

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10 eka rAta aneka vAta RSabhadattanI AMkho varasI paDI. temaNe prabhavane potAnI chAtIe lagADIne khUba vAtsalya varasAvyuM. jaMbUkamAre prabhavano paricaya Apyo. zA mATe te Avyo hato, te vRttAMta kahyo. e badhuM jANIne RSabhadatte kahyuM : "prabhava, tArA pUrvajanmanA koI puNya karmanA pratApe ja tane jaMbUno saMparka thayo che. jIvana parivartanano teM zreSTha nirNaya karyo che.' ATha strIo, dhAriNInI anujJA laI pota-potAnAM mAtA-pitAne maLavA ane "jaMbUkumAra sAthe ame paNa dIkSA levAnAM chIe" e nirNaya jaNAvavA, rathamAM besIne cAlI gaI. jaMbUkumAra prabhava ane enA sAthIonuM ucita Atithya karavA, temane laIne rasoIgRhamAM gayo. khaMDamAM rahI gayAM dhAriNI ane RSabhadatta. dhAriNIe RSabhadattanI sAme joyuM. RSabhadatta gaMbhIra hatA. UMDA ciMtanamAM DUbelA hatA. dhAriNIe dhImA svare pUchyuM : svAmInAtha, Ape jANyuM ne? ATheya putravadhUo jaMbUnI sAthe dIkSA levAnI che." "hA.' "pachI?' ApaNe paNa dIkSA laIe devI!" ApaNe?" hA, putra vinA ApaNe A gharamAM. saMsAramAM nahIM rahI zakIe. mATe putranI sAthe ja ApaNe cAritra dharma aMgIkAra karI laIe." sAcI vAta che ApanI. putra ane putravadhUo vinA mane to eka kSaNa paNa nahIM game...' paNa devI, tamArAthI sAdhujIvananAM kaSTo sahI zakAze?' kema nahIM? jo ATha-ATha putravadhUo cAritra-dharma pALI zakaze to huM kema nahIM pALI zakuM?' RSabhadattanI AMkho harSanAM AMsuothI chalakAI. gaI. teo tyAMthI potAnA khaMDamAM gayA. munImane bolAvI, rAjagRhI saMghanA agraNI zrAvakone bolAvI lAvavA ravAnA karyA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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4. sAthI prIta samudrapriya, samudradatta vagere zreSThIonA dvAre prabhAtanA samaye rathomAMthI kanyAo UtarI. nakkI karyA mujaba dareka kanyAe pota-potAnAM mAtA-pitAne zreSThI samudrapriyanI havelImAM bhegAM thavAnI vAta karI. AvelA rathamAM ja te te zreSThIo patnI ane putrI sAthe savAra thayA ane samudrapriya zreSThInI havelIe pahoMcyA. samudrapriya zreSThIe sahunuM bhAvabhInuM svAgata karyuM. havelInA madhya bhAgamAM eka vizALa suzobhita khaMDa hato. e khaMDamAM eka bAju ATha zreSThIo paMktibaddha goThavAyA, bIjI bAju zreSThIpatnIo paNa e ja rIte besI gaI ane temanI sAme ATha kanyAo besI gaI. vAtAvaraNamAM gaMbhIratA hatI. kAMIka viSAda hato ane Acho Acho bhaya paNa taravarato hato. tyAM samudrazrIe UbhA thaI, sarva vaDIlone praNAma karI vAtano AraMbha karyo : 'amArAM upakArI mAta-tAta, Apa jarAya Azcarya pAmyA vinA amArAM sahunI vAta sAMbhaLazo. ame dhAryuM hatuM ke lagna karIne ame pahelI ja rAte kumA2ne manAvI laIzuM emanA zuSka-vairAgI hRdayane rAganA nIrathI bharI daIzuM, teo dIkSAnI vAta bhUlI jaze. Apa sahue paNa ema ja dhAryuM haze. amArAM sAsu-sasarAe paNa ema ja dhAryuM hatuM. sAsue to amane zayanakhaMDamAM javA pUrve kahyuM hatuM : 'mane vizvAsa che ke mArA putrane tame ATheya maLIne rAgI banAvI dezo.' paraMtu vAta enAthI UlaTI ja banI gaI che. ame temane rAgI banAvI zakyAM nathI. AkhI rAta amAro vArtAlApa thato rahyo. ame ATheye saMsArapakSanI aneka tarkayukta vAto karI, dRSTAMto ApyAM, enI sAme emaNe paNa vairAgya pakSanAM sacoTa tarka ane dRSTAMto ApyAM. paraMtu hRdaya-parivartana mAtra tarka ane dRSTAMtothI thoDuM ja thAya che? kharekhara, teo nahotA bolatA, temanuM virakta hRdaya bolatuM hatuM. bhale, emanI vAtoe amane virakta na banAvyAM, paraMtu emanA pratye vizeSa anurAgI to avazya banAvI dIdhAM che. temanA pratye amAro Adara... amAro prema anahada vadhI gayo che. teo Aje ja gaNadhara bhagavaMta sudharmA svAmInAM caraNomAM cAritra dharma aMgIkAra karavA kRtanizcayI che. teo Aje, jema sarpa paLavAramAM kAMcaLI utArI nAkhe tema gRhavAsane tyajI aNagAra banI jaze. For Private And Personal Use Only

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172 eka rAta aneka vAta he amArAM mAtA-pitAo, ame paNa emanI sAthe ja A saMsArano tyAga karI sAdhvI banI javAno nirNaya karI lIdho che. emanA vinAnI A duniyA tarapha ame paNa vairAgI ja chIe." ATha mAtAo ane pitAnI AMkho samudrazrInI vAta sAMbhaLIne bhInI thaI gaI. samudrapriya zreSThIe kahyuM : beTI, lagna pUrve tame karelA saMkalpa mujaba tamAro nirNaya sarvathA ucita che, paraMtu yauvanakALamAM jyAre indriyo unmatta hoya che tyAre mahAvratonuM pAlana duSkara ja nahIM, ati duSkara hoya che. mahAvrato grahaNa karavAM sahelAM hoya che, pAlana karavuM ghaNuM duSkara hoya che. beTI, jaMbUkamArano vairAgya sahaja che, tame vairAgyathI prerita thaI dIkSA levA taiyAra nathI thayAM paraMtu jaMbUkamAra pratyenA tIvra anurAgathI prerita thaIne dIkSA levA taiyAra thayAM cho." samudrazrIe kahyuM : "pitAjI, jema virAgI sarvasvano tyAga karI zake che... ane bhayaMkara kaSTone sahI zake che, tema anurAgI paNa potAnA priya pAtranI khAtara sarvasvano tyAga karI zake che ne saLagatI AgamAM kUdI zake che. ame kaThora mahAvratonuM paNa pAlana karI zakIzuM. ame pUrNa vicAra karI lIdho che." samudrazrInI mAtA padmAvatIe kahyuM : "dIkarIoe to vicAra karI ja lIdho che. jamAI ane dIkarIo to dIkSA leze ja, mane to tyAre ja lAgeluM... jyAre lagna pUrve dIkarIoe vAta karI hatI. vicAra to have ApaNe karavAno che ane samaya ApaNI pAse thoDo che.' padmazrInI mAtA kanakamAlAe kahyuM, "sAcI vAta che, jo jamAI ane putrIo Aje ja saMsAratyAga karavAnAM hoya to ApaNe nakAmI carcAmAM na paDavuM joIe. juo sAMbhaLo, huM to jamAI ane putrInI sAthe dIkSA laIza... jo A loko bharajobanamAM saMsAratyAga karI zake che to zuM ApaNe have A umaramAM saMsAratyAga na karI zakIe?' to huM paNa dIkSA levAno nirNaya jAhera karUM chuM.' samudradatta zreSThIe potAno nirNaya jAhera karyo. padmazrI AnaMda-vibhora thaI gaI, teNe UbhA thaI potAnAM mAtA-pitAnA caraNe praNAma karyA. padmasenAnA pitA sAgaradatta pAsenAne kahyuM : "beTI, huM ane tArI mAtAame banne tArI sAthe ja saMsAratyAga karI mokSa mArge cAlI nIkaLIzuM.' padmasenAe mAtA-pitAnAM caraNe bahumAnapUrvaka vaMdanA karI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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sAcI prIta 173 kanakasenAnA pitA kuberadatta zreSThIe kahyuM : ApaNI putrIone huM kroDakoDa abhinaMdana ApuM chuM. yauvanakALamAM vratonuM pAlana duSkara hoya che evuM duSkara kArya ApaNI putrIo karI rahI che... beTI kanakasenA, huM ane tArI mAtA - ame banne tArI sAthe ja dIkSA laIzuM." kanakasenA harSathI nAcI UThI, teNe mAtA-pitAnAM caraNane AMsuthI bhInA karI dIdhAM. nabhasenAnI mAtA kanakavatIe kahyuM : "beTI nabhasenA, jo tArA pitA dIkSA mATe mane saMmati Ape to tArI sAthe huM paNa dIkSA lauM.' kanakavatIe zreSThI kanakasena tarapha joyuM. kanakasenanI AMkho bhInI hatI. putrI tarapha ati rAga dharAvatA kanakasene kahyuM : "beTI, ame banne Aje tArI sAthe ja dIkSA laIzuM." nabhasenAe mAtA-pitAno Adara karyo ne temano upakAra mAnyo. kanakazrInA pitA zramaNadatte zrISeNAnI saMmati izArAthI laI ja lIdhI hatI. temaNe kahyuM : "beTI kanakazrI, tame ATheya putrIoe amArI sAta peDhIne tArI nAMkhavAnuM puNyakArya karyuM che. ame banne paNa tamArI sAthe saMsAratyAga karIzuM.' kanakazrIe harSavibhora banI mAtA-pitAnAM caraNe praNAma karyA. kanakavatInA pitA vasuSeNe, potAnI dharmapatnI vIramatInI saMmati jANIne kahyuM : "beTI kanakavatI, ame banne tamArI sAthe cAritra dharma aMgIkAra karIzuM." kanakavatIe AnaMdita thaIne mAtA-pitAne vaMdanA karI, jayazrInA pitA vasupAlite kahyuM : "beTI, ame banne paNa tArI sAthe ja dIkSA laIzuM." jayazrI pulakita banI gaI. teNe mAtA-pitAne AdarathI praNAma karyA. samudrazrInAM mAtA-pitAe paNa samudrazrInI sAthe dIkSA levAnI jAherAta karI dIdhI. A rIte ATheya kanyAonA mAtA-pitA dIkSA levA tatpara banyAM. samudrapriya zreSThIe anya zreSThIone kahyuM : "have eka paLanoya pramAda karyA vinA ApaNe jaladIthI taiyAra thaI zreSThIzrI RSabhadattanI havelIe pahoMcavuM joIe.' sahu zreSThIo pota-potAnA nivAse pahoMcyA ane Avazyaka kAryone patAvavA lAgyA. 0 0 0 prabhava, tuM avazya viMdhyarAja pAse jaje, temanI anumati leje. aparAdhonI kSamA mAMgaje. nAnA bhAI prabhu sAthe paNa kSamApanA karI leje. cAritra dharma aMgIkAra karavA pUrve, sarva vera-virodhone upazamAvavA joIe. koInAya pratye ApaNA hRdayamAM vera-virodha na joIe. koInAya dilamAM ApaNA pratye vera-virodha na joIe. For Private And Personal Use Only

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174 eka rAta aneka vAta - "he kumAra, ApanI AjJA mane zirodhArya che... paraMtu meM to dhaNAM ghora pApa karyA che, dhaNA manuSyono vadha karyo che. ghaNA manuSyone lUMTaTyA che... pIDyA. che... ghaNA jIvonAM ghara saLagAvI dIdhAM che...' "prabhava, e badhAM pAponuM prAyazcitta cAritra dharma che. cAritra dharma aMgIkAra karatAM, e badhAM pAponuM prAyazcitta thaI jAya che. mATe ja cAritra dharma, pAponA mahAsAgarathI tAranAruM jahAja che. che mitra. tuM ghare jAya che... tArI patnIne jyAre tuM A vAta karIza... ke "huM dIkSA laIza, sAdhu banIza.' e bebAkaLI banI jaze, kalpAMta karaze. e vakhate tuM adhIra na banIza. tuM snehavivaza na banIza. A saMsAramAM jIvAtmA, sneha-anurAganA kAraNe ja duHkhI thAya che. rAga karIne aMte jhUrI-jhUrIne ja maravAnuM che. jema telanI nigdhatAthI tala pisAya che tevI rIte rAganI nigdhatAthI jIva A saMsAramAM pisAya che. prabhava, tAro AtmA jAgyo che, tuM jAgrata banyo che. have tuM bhramita nahIM bane; chatAM A saMsAra viSama che eTale tane sAvadhAna karuM chuM. saMsAranA sarva saMbaMdho mithyA che. e saMbaMdhonAM baMdhana toDI nAMkhavAnAM che. e mithyA saMbaMdhothI ja jIva saMsAramAM janma-maraNa karato rahyo che. sAco saMbaMdha sAdhupuruSano che. sAdhupuruSo sAthe bAMdhelo saMbaMdha AtmAne nibaMdhana banAve che. he prabhava, tAre tArA sAthIdArone paNa sAthe lAvavAnA che. temane paNa pratibodha pamADavAno che. kAma moTuM che...' bUkumAra aviratapaNe bolI rahyA hatA. prabhava ekAgra banIne sAMbhaLI rahyo hato. prabhave kahyuM : kumAra, tamArI vAta sAcI che. mArI sAthe rahelA.. mArA AdhAre rahelA. seMkaDo parivArone mAre samajAvavA paDaze." jaMbUkumAre kahyuM : "prabhava, mane lAge che ke tAre emane bahu nahIM samajAvavA paDe. tArA uparano anurAga ja temane tyAganA mArge cAlavA prerita karaze.' sAcI vAta che kumAra, e lokono mArA para agAdha prema che! bhale teo corI ane lUMTaphATanAM khoTAM kAma kare che, paraMtu teo saraLa prakRtinA loko che. temane koI sAco mArga sujhADanAra joIe, temane sanmArge cAlatAM vAra nahIM lAge." "prabhava, huM to Aje ja zrI sudhamA svAmInAM caraNomAM mAruM jIvana samarpita karIza... tuM pAcho AvavAmAM vilaMba nA karIza...' For Private And Personal Use Only

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sAcI prIta 175 kumAra, zuM tame Aje ja sAdhu banI ja zo? ATha patnIonuM zuM?" teo temanA pitRgRhe gaI che. AvI javI joIe..." eTale zuM teo tamArI sAthe ja dIkSA leze? 'hA' ane mAtA-pitA? prabhava, ame paNa Aje ja jaMbUnI sAthe dIkSA laIzuM.' RSabhadatta ane dhAriNIe jaMbukamAranA khaMDamAM praveza karyo... tevo ja prabhavano prazna temaNe sAMbhaLyo ne RSabhadatte javAba Apyo. mAtA-pitAne AvelAM joI jaMbUkamAra potAnA Asana parathI UbhA thaI gayA. prabhava paNa Ubho thaI gayo, bannee dhAriNI-RSabhadattanAM caraNomAM praNAma karyA. dhAriNIe jaMbUkumArane potAnI pAse besADI, tenA mAthe hAtha mUkI kahyuM : vatsa, meM ane tArA pitAe paNa Aje tArI sAthe ja cAritra dharma aMgIkAra karavAno nirNaya karI lIdho che...' jaMbUkumAra mAtAnI sAme joI rahyA. mAtAnA mukha para cAritra dharma aMgIkAra karavAnI daDhatA hatI. AMkhomAM nirNayAtmaka teja hatuM. RSabhadattanI dRSTi jamIna para sthira hatI. teo gaMbhIra hatA. dhIredhIre temaNe potAnI dRSTi jaMbUkumAra para sthira karI. pitA-putranI AMkho maLI. beTA, tAro ane putravadhUono nirNaya sAco che. jyArathI meM zrI sudharmA svAmIno upadeza sAMbhaLyo che tyArathI mArA manamAM maMthana to cAlatuM ja hatuM. AtmA... karma... mokSa jevAM tattvo aMge meM ghaNI rAtrIo ciMtana karyuM hatuM. kyAreka huM mArI jAtane nirvikAra anubhava karato hato. kyAreka AtmAnuM zuddha svarUpa khUba AkarSita karatuM hatuM. paraMtu e kSaNo vItI jatI hatI... ane tAro sukamALa suMdara cahero mArI sAme taravarato hato... punaH snehanA pravAhamAM taNAto hato. tArA pratyeno avihaDa rAga... tArI mAtA pratyeno agAdha prema... mArA vairAgya mArgamAM bAdhaka banatAM hatAM. vatsa, prabaLa rAganuM baMdhana Aje saraLatAthI tUTI gayuM che. saMsAranA saMbaMdhonI niHsAratA pratIta thaI che. AtmAne karmanAM baMdhanothI mukta karavAno puruSArtha karI levAno puNya saMkalpa thayo che. beTA, A badhuM zubha ane suMdara thavAmAM tuM ja nimitta banyo che. mArI ATha putravadhUo nimitta banI che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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176 eka rAta aneka vAta beTA, have ApaNe udyAnamAM gurudevazrI sudharmAsvAmI pAse javAnI taiyArI karIe." dhAriNIe pUchyuM : "zuM ApaNI sthAvara-jaMgama saMpattinI vyavasthA thaI gaI?' "hA, rAjagRhInA agraNI zrAvakone badhI saMpatti soMpI dIdhI che. A saMpattino upayoga jinamaMdiranA nirmANamAM thaze. duHkhI sAdharmikonA uddhAramAM thaze; ane garIbone anukaMpA-dAna apAze." bahu sArI vyavasthA thaI gaI!' dhAriNIe AnaMda vyakta karyo. 'have tame jaMbUnI snAnavidhi karo. ene zaNagAro. huM bhavya varaghoDAnI taiyArI karAvuM chuM.' 'zreSThIvarya, varaghoDAnI taiyArI mAtra tamArA putra ane putravadhUonI ja nathI karavAnI, amArA sahunI paNa karavAnI che!' samudrapriya zreSThIe khaMDamAM pravezatAM ja ullAsathI RSabhadattane bheTatAM kahyuM. "eTale?" "ame, ATheya kanyAonAM mAtA-pitA paNa temanI sAthe ja dIkSA laIzuM!' "dhanya che tamane sahune! tame adbhuta nirNaya karyo RSabhadatta ane dhAriNInI AMkho harSanAM AMsuothI chalakAI UThI. prabhave kahyuM : "he zreSThIvaryo, kamaranAM mAtA-pitAe paNa e ja nirNaya karyo che.. putra ane putravadhUo sAthe dIkSA levAno!' heM?' ATheya zreSThIo ane zreSThIpatnIo AzcaryathI ane ullAsathI jhUmI UThyAM. he zreSThIratna, Apano nirNaya kharekhara abhinaMdanIya che." zreSThI samudradatte hArdika anumodana karatAM kahyuM. ApaNe sahue ahIMthI ja prayANa karavAnuM che. prathama prahara pUro thaI gayo che. bIjA praharanA madhya samaye ahIMthI nIkaLavAnuM che. e rIte sahu nAhIne, vastrAbhUSaNa dhAraNa karIne taiyAra thaIe." RSabhadatte sahune taiyAra thavAnuM kahyuM ane svayaM dIkSAnA varaghoDAnI taiyArI karAvavA potAnA khaMDamAM cAlyA gayA. samagra rAjagRhImAM vAyuvege samAcAra phelAI gayA ke jaMbUkamAra sahita 27 svajano Aje saMsAratyAga karI sAdhujIvana svIkAraze. For Private And Personal Use Only

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5. prabhava jayapuramAM viMdhyAcalanA kotaromAMthI prabhava ane enA pAMca sAthIo azvArohI banI pasAra thaI rahyA hatA. badhA mauna hatA. azvo sahaja gatithI cAlI rahyA hatA. jayapurano rasto temano paricita hato. varSothI prajvalita roSAgni bujhAI gayo hato. te bhAI ane pitA pAse kSamAyAcanA karavA jaI rahyo hato. ene pitA viMdhyarAja anyAyI lAgyA hatA. nAnA bhAI prabhu pratye tenA manamAM ghora roSa bharelo hato... te azAnta hato, saMtapta hato. paraMtu eka ja rAtamAM e draSa, e roSa. badhuM ja dhovAI gayuM hatuM. prabhavanA manamAM niraMtara jaMbUkumAranA vicAro cAlI rahyA hatA. enI kalpanAmAM jaMbUkumAra... jaMbUkumAranI ATha patnIo.. jaMbUkumAranAM mAtApitA.. emanI vizALa havelI... apAra vaibhava... A badhuM ghumarAtuM hatuM.... - jaMbUkumAranI daDha anAsakti.. tIvra vairAgya ane svAbhAvika tyAgavRttie prabhavane hacamacAvI mUkyo hato. enA hRdayamAM jaMbUkumAra pratye prema jAgI gayo hato. jyAM jayapuranI hadamAM prabhave praveza karyo, tarata ja zastradhArI sainikoe prabhava ane enA sAthIone gherI lIdhA. prabhava ane enA sAthI sAdAM vastromAM hatA. temaNe eka paNa zastra rAkhyuM na hatuM. moDhA para bukAnI paNa nahotI bAMdhI. sainiko prabhAvane oLakhI na zakyA. sainikonA nAyake pUchyuM : koNa cho? kyAM jAo cho?" mAruM nAma prabhava..." prabhava?' jANe jherI vIMchInA DaMkha lAgyo hoya, tema sainiko hebatAI gayAM. be DagalAM pAchA haTI gayA. myAnamAMthI talavAro kheMcI kADhI. hA, mAruM nAma prabhava che, ne huM jayapura jAuM chuM, mArA bhAIne ane mArA pitAjIne maLavA.' prabhave sahajatAthI kahyuM. sainiko eka-bIjA sAme jovA lAgyA. nAyake pUchyuM : "zastro kyAM chupAvyAM che?" "zastro choDI dIdhAM che...' For Private And Personal Use Only

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178 eka rAta aneka vAta 'e zakya nathI. sAcuM bola, nahIMtara...' nAyake prabhavanA ghoDAnI lagAma pakaDI lIdhI hatI. prabhava ghoDA parathI nIce UtarI gayo hato. prabhavanA sAthIo paNa ghoDAo parathI nIce UtarI gayA hatA. 'huM sAcuM ja boluM chuM, paraMtu tamane mArI vAta 52 vizvAsa nahIM bese. bhale, tame cAlo amArI sAthe.' aneka gAmone saLagAvI denAra, seMkaDo mANasone motane ghATa utAranAra, aneka jAnone lUMTI lenAra... kharA bapore, bharabajAre gAmomAM jaI... chaDecoka lUMTa karanAra... evA prabhavane niHzastra joIne... nirlepabhAve cAlyo jato joIne sainikonA Azcaryano pAra na rahyo. nAyake prabhavanAM ane enA sAthIonAM vastra tapAsI lIdhAM. 'Avo khUMkhAra DAku zastra vinA A pradezamAM na Ave!' AvI dhAraNAthI sainikoe emane tapAsyA. eka paNa zastra na maLyuM. sainikonA cAMpatA paherA nIce prabhava ane enA sAthIo jayapura tarapha AgaLa vadhyA. rAjamahelanA dvAre pahoMcyA. prabhave rAjamahelanA dvAre UbhelA rakSakane kahyuM : 'mAre pitAjI viMdhyarAjane maLavuM che. temane kaho ke prabhava Apane maLavA Avyo che...' dvArarakSaka prabhavanuM nAma sAMbhaLatAM thatharI gayo... enI AMkho pahoLI thaI gaI. sAthenA sainikoe kahyuM : 'ame ahIM UbhA chIe. tuM jaIne mahArAjAne samAcAra Apa.' dvAra2kSaka utAvaLA pagale rAjamahelamAM doDyo. te pahelAM prabhu pAse gayo, dhrUjatA zarIre teNe prabhune kahyuM : 'mahArAjA, mahelanA dvAre prabhava AvIne UbhA che, ne pitAjIne maLavA icche che.' 'prabhava ekalo che?' 'nA jI, enI sAthe pAMca sAthIo che... paraMtu ApaNA sainikoe temane gherelA che...' 'eTale?' 'mahArAjA, prabhava ane emanA sAthIo pAse koI zastra nathI!' 'ema?' prabhune Azcarya thayuM. 'zastra vinA prabhava ahIM Ave kharo? zuM enuM koI kAvataruM to nahIM hoya? huM ja mahelanA dvAre jaIne ene maLuM...!' For Private And Personal Use Only

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prabhava jayapuramAM 179 prabhu hAthamAM khullI talavAra laI mahelanA dvAre pahoMcyo. teNe prabhavane joyo. prabhavanI AMkhomAM teNe roSa na joyo. banne bhAIonI AMkho maLI. prabhave be hAtha joDI prabhune praNAma karyA. ke prabhunA hAthamAMthI talavAra nIce paDI gaI. teNe paNa prabhAvane praNAma karyA. prabhu, pahelAM mAre pitAjIne maLavuM che.. pachI ApaNe maLIzuM...' prabhavane ane enA sAthIone laI prabhu mahelamAM Avyo. prabhave potAnA sAthIone mahelanA eka khaMDamAM besavAnuM kahyuM. "moTAbhAI ?' "prabhu!' eka prazna pUchuM?" "jeTalA pUchavA hoya eTalA pUcha...' "pitAjIne zA mATe maLavuM che?' mAre mArA aparAdhonI kSamA mAMgavI che...' A koNa bole che?" prabhava...!' "moTAbhAI, mane samajAtI nathI tamArI vAta...' koIne paNa na samajAya evI A vAta che... paNa prabhu, eka rAjakumAra DAku banI zake che, ne e vAta duniyAne samajAya che, tema eka DAku sAdhu banI zake che - zuM e vAta duniyAne na samajAya evI che?' banne bhAI cAlatAM cAlatAM eka bhavya khaMDanA dvAre AvI UbhA. A khaMDa vayovRddha rAjA viMdhyarAjano hato. khaMDanA dvAre UbhelA paricArake khaMDamAM jaI mahArAjAne prabhunA AgamananA samAcAra ApyA. prabhue prabhavanI sAthe khaMDamAM praveza karyo. viMdhyarAjanI uMmara eka so ne pAMca varSanI thaI gaI hatI. AMkhe ochuM dekhAtuM hatuM. kAne ochuM saMbhaLAtuM hatuM. chatAM temanI mAnasika sthiti sArI hatI. Arogya paNa sAruM hatuM. prabhue viMdhyarAjanAM caraNe praNAma karyA ane kahyuM : "pitAjI, jarA dhArIne juo to, A koNa AvyuM che? For Private And Personal Use Only

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180. eka rAta aneka vAta prabhava viMdhyarAjane praNAma karI, emanI pAse Ubho. viMdhyarAje prabhavanA mastakane be hAthe pakaDI... enA moDhAne jovA prayatna karyo... pitAnA komaLa ane vAtsalyabharyA hAthano sparza thatAM ja prabhavanI AMkhomAMthI AMsu TapakavA lAgyAM. vidhyarAja prabhavane oLakhI zakyA nahIM. temaNe pUchyuM: 'koNa che bhAI?' prabhava javAba na ApI zakyo. prabhue kahyuM : mArA moTAbhAI che, pitAjI!" koNa prabhava?" "hA, pitAjI!" bhale Avyo beTA!' prabhavanA mAthe potAnA be hAtha pheravatAM viMdhyarAja gaLagaLA thaI gayA. prabhu to kyAranoya raDI rahyo hato. khaMDamAM mauna chavAyuM. traNenAM haiyAM haLavAM thayAM. prabhave mauna toDyuM : "pitAjI, be kAma mATe ahIM Avyo chuM, temAM paheluM kAma che - mArA badhA ja aparAdhonI kSamAyAcanA karavAnuM. meM ApanA hRdayane khUba ja duHkha ApyuM che. Apane raMjADyA che... herAna karyA che... Apa mane kSamA Apo.. ane havethI Apano ja nahIM, koI jIvano paNa aparAdha nahIM karUM.' prabhavanI AMkho sajaLa banI gaI. teno kaMTha gaLagaLo banI gayo. "vatsa, huM paNa saraLa hRdaye tane kSamA ApuM chuM... ane kSamA mAguM chuM. rAgadveSathI meM paNa tArA pratye aparAdha karyo che..." pitAjI, Apano koI ja aparAdha nathI. Ape prabhune rAjya ApIne yogya ja karyuM che. rAjasiMhAsana para besIne rAjya karavA mATenA tamAma guNo enAmAM che.. e suyogya che. huM ahaMkArathI ane IrSyAthI baLyo. ghaNA anartho karyA..." prabhava, Aje tane tArI bhUla samajAI, te sAruM thayuM.. tArA vicAromAM AvuM suMdara parivartana AvyuM, tethI mane ghaNo AnaMda thayo che... have tame banne bhAI khUba premathI raho... ema huM icchuM chuM...' pitAjI, have samagra jIvasRSTi sAthe maitrIbhAvathI jIvavuM che, ane eTale ApanI anumati levA Avyo chuM..." For Private And Personal Use Only

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prabhava jayapuramAM zAnI anumati beTA?' cAritra dharma aMgIkAra karavAnI..." eTale?' "pitAjI, huM zrI sudharmA svAmInAM caraNe mAruM jIvana samarpita karIza. mArA zirachatra banaze jaMbUkumAra muni!' "koNa bUkumAra?' "rAjagRhInA nagarazreSThI RSabhadattanA putra! temanA ja saMparkathI. upadezathI mArUM jIvana... mAruM mana badalAyuM che... e mArA parama upakArI che..." prabhave viMdhyarAjane jaMbUkamArano samagra vRttAMta kahI saMbhaLAvyo. sAMbhaLatAM sAMbhaLatAM viMdhyarAjanI AMkho bhInI thaI gaI. prabhu stabdha banI gayo. prabhue kahyuM : "moTAbhAI, A rAjya huM ApanA caraNe samarpa chuM. Apa rAjasiMhAsana para ArUDha thAo. huM ApanA caraNono sevaka banIne rahIza, paraMtu Apa dIkSA na lo...' prabhue prabhavanA paga pakaDI lIdhA. te raDI paDyo. prabhave prabhunA mAthe hAtha pheravatAM kahyuM : prabhu, raDa nahIM, A rAjya.... A vaibhava.. A saMbaMdho. badhuM ja kSaNika bhAse che. kAMI ja zAzvatuM nathI... ke jenA mATe Aja dina sudhI huM gAMDo banIne bhaTakato rahyo. paraMtu e jaMbUkumAranA pratApe mane mArI bhUla samajAI... ne A bAhya jagatanAM sukhono moha dUra thayo. anaMta bhramaNAomAMthI bahAra nIkaLyo... ane e mahApuruSanI preraNAthI ja ahIM huM pitAjInI anumati levA Avyo chuM. mane e mahApuruSe kahyuM che : "prabhava, vilaMba nA karIza, anumati laIne jaladI AvI jaje !" eTale, pitAjI mane AzIrvAda Apo... basa, mAnavajIvanano zreSTha puruSArtha karI lauM!' viMdhyarAje kahyuM : "vatsa, tAro cAri dharma svIkAravAno nirNaya sAro che, sAco che.. paraMtu." "pitAjI, meM karelAM ghora pAponuM prAyazcitta paNa sAdhu banyA vinA huM nahIM karI zakuM ane pAponuM prAyazcitta karyA vinA ja mRtyu thaI jAya to jIvanI adhogati ja thAya. anaMta bhaviSyakALa duHkhamaya banI jAya." For Private And Personal Use Only

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182 eka rAta aneka vAta bhale vatsa, huM tArA mArgamAM avarodha nahIM karuM, paraMtu te ahIM Avyo che, to thoDA divaso ahIM rahe, pachI rAjagRhI jaje..." "pitAjI, mAre jaladIthI jaladI gurudeva pAse javuM jarUrI che. temAMya haju mAre mArI pallImAM javAnuM che. mArA 500 sAthI paNa mArI sAthe ja dIkSA. levA taiyAra thayA che. mAre temanA parivArone samajAvavA paDaze. te parivAronA jIvananirvAhanI vyavasthA karavI paDaze... emAM paNa mAro samaya javAno.... mATe mane Apa AzIrvAda Apo eTale huM ahIMthI ravAnA thAuM.' "zuM tArA pa00 sAthI paNa sAdhu banI jaze?" vidhyarAja Azcaryacakita thaI gayA. hA jI, emAMnA jeTalA mArI sAthe jaMbUkamAranI havelImAM hatA, temaNe to tyAM ja mArI sAthe dIkSA levAno saMkalpa jaMbUkumAranI sAme jAhera karyo hato, ane teo ahIM mArI sAthe AvelA che. e sivAyanA mArA sAthIoe, jyAre huM pallImAM gayo tyAre potapotAno nirNaya jAhera karyo...' vidhyarAje prabhune kahyuM : "beTA, prabhavanI sAthe AvelA enA sAthIone AdarapUrvaka ahIM bolAvI lAva ane emanuM ucita sanmAna kara... emano bhavya satkAra kara.' prabhu khaMDanI bahAra gayo. prabhavanA sAthIone premathI potAnI sAthe laIne khaMDamAM Avyo. prabhavanA e sAthIoe viMdhyarAjane praNAma karyA. viMdhyarAje kahyuM : bhAIo, zuM tame paNa prabhavanI sAthe ja saMsArano tyAga karI cAritra dharma svIkAravAnA cho?" hA jI, mahArAjA, amArA nAtha jo saMsAramAM na rahe, to amArAthI saMsAramAM kema rahevAya? ame sahu emanI sAthe ja sAdhu banI jaIzuM." 'tame sAdhu banIne zuM karazo?' amArA A nAtha (prabhAva) je kaheze te karIzuM." tamArA parivAranuM zuM thaze?' "emanA khAvA-pIvAnI ane rahevAnI vyavasthA amArA A nAyaka karI deze. amArI ciMtA paNa e ja kare che!" prabhu, prabhavanA sAthI DAkuonI sIdhI saraLa vAto sAMbhaLIne diMga thaI For Private And Personal Use Only

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prabhava jayapuramAM 183 gayo. DAkuono prabhava pratyeno adbhuta prema joIne tenI AMkhomAM harSanAM AMsu AvI gayAM. prabhue prabhavane kahyuM : 'moTAbhAI, ApanI sAthe ApanA badhA sAthI puruSo dIkSA le, to emanA parivAronI javAbadArI huM laIza... huM e parivArone saMbhALIza. ATalI sevA karavAnI mane taka Apo...' 'prabhu, teM A javAbadArI mAthe laIne, mArA mAthethI ciMtAno bhAra utArI nAMkhyo! A mArA sAthIono mArga saraLa karI dIdho bhAI!' prabhavanA pAMca sAthIoe kRtajJabhAve prabhu sAme joyuM. prabhue prabhavane kahyuM: 'moTAbhAI, mArA para karuNAM karI thoDA divaso ahIM rokAI jAo... mane ApanI sevA karavAno avasara Apo...' 'prabhu, tAro Agraha che to Ajano divasa ame ahIM rokAI jaIzuM. AvatI kAle prabhAte ahIMthI prayANa karIzuM, pallImAM jaIne parivArone samajAvIne eka-be divasamAM ja rAjagRhI pahoMcI jaIzuM.' 'huM ApanI sAthe pallImAM AvIza, jethI e lokone AzvAsana maLe ane mane emano paricaya thAya.' 'bahu sArUM prabhu! tuM amArI sAthe AvIza... tethI sahune AnaMda thaze.' mahArAjA viMdhyarAje kahyuM : 'prabhu, have A ApaNA atithione bhojana karAvo pachI teo vizrAma kare... cothA praharamAM pharI ApaNe bhegA thaIne vAto karIzuM.' sahue viMdhyarAjane praNAma karyA ane khaMDamAMthI bahAra nIkaLyA. prabhue eka anucara dvArA maMtrImaMDaLane ane nagaranA pramukha zreSThIone cothA praharamAM mahelamAM AvI javA AmaMtraNa mokalI ApyAM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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. . . - - - | 9.prabhu sAthe pakSImAM prabhu, kharekhara teM mane mUMjhavatA praznano ukela lAvI dIdho. mArI pallInA parivAronuM tuM pAlana sArI rIte karIza, e vAtanI mane zraddhA che. have pallInA mArA sAthIdAro nizcita banIne mArI sAthe dIkSA leze." pitAnA AzIrvAda laIne prabhave prabhunI sAthe jayapurathI prayANa karI dIdhuM. enuM mana khUba haLavAza anubhavatuM hatuM. pitA ane bhAI pAse teNe khullA hRdaye kSamAyAcanA karIne potAnA hRdayane haLavuM karI dIdhuM hatuM. banne bhAIonA azvo sAthe cAlI rahyA hatA. pAchaLa prabhunA aMgarakSakonA ane prabhavanA sAthIonA azvo cAlI rahyA hatA. jyAre prabhave prabhune uparanI vAta karI, prabhunI AMkho AMsuothI UbharAI gaI. te kAMI bolyo nahIM. prabhave enI sAme joyuM. "prabhu, svastha bana. kSaNe kSaNe parivartana pAmatA saMsAranuM ciMtana kara, AsaktinAM baMdhana to ja tUTaze." prabhu kAMI ja bolato nathI. prabhava paNa jaMbUkumAranA vicAramAM parovAyo. badhAM maunapaNe pallI sudhI pahoMcI gayAM. pallInAM strI-puruSoe potAnA saradAranuM bhAvabhInuM svAgata karyuM. prabhave prabhuno paricaya Apyo. sahue be hAtha joDI prabhune praNAma karyA. prabhue paNa sahunuM abhivAdana karyuM. saMdhyAno samaya thaI gayo hato. sahu loko pota-potAnA gharamAM cAlyA gayA. prabhune laI prabhava potAnA vizALa makAnamAM gayo. banne bhAIoe moDI rAta sudhI ghaNI vAto karI ane nidrAdhIna thayA. sUryodaya pahelAM ja pallIvAsIonI pravRttithI pallI dhamadhamI UThI hatI. prabhu ane prabhava prAbhAtika kAryothI nivRtta thayA. prabhavanI AjJA mujaba sarve pallIvAsIo prabhavanA gharanI bahAra vizALa medAnamAM bhegA thayA hatA. prabhu ane prabhAva temanI vacce jaIne eka UMcA Asana para beThA. prabhave sahunA upara eka premALa dRSTi nAMkhI. sahu zAnta hatAM. paraMtu potAnA saradAranI vAta sAMbhaLavA eTalAM ja utsuka hatAM. prabhave potAnI vAta kahevI zarU karI. 'tame sahu jANo cho ke ame rAjagRhI gayA hatA. gayA hatA zA mATe ane banI zuM gayuM.. e vAta mAre tamane kahevI che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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prabhu sAthe pallImAM 185 navvANu kroDa rUpiyA levA mATe ame rAtrinA samaye jaMbUkumAranI havelImAM pravezyA. tyAM ame jaMbUkumAra ane enI navoDhA ATha patnIone joI. mArI vidyAzaktithI badhAne meM mUcchita karI dIdhA hatA... eka mAtra jaMbUkamAra upara mArI vidyA asara na karI zakI. te jAgatA rahyA.... ane temaNe amane paNa jagADI dIdhA! tamane sahune jANIne Azcarya thaze. lagnapUrve ja jaMbUkumAre sAdhu banI javAno saMkalpa karyo hato! raMbhA ane urvazI jevI ATha patnIo ane navvANu kroDa rUpiyAno tyAga karavAno teNe nirNaya karI lIdho hato! to tame pUchavAnA ke evo ja nirNaya hato to pachI lagna zA mATe karyo? mArA bhAIo, duniyAmAM be vyakti evI che ke jenI khAtara mANasane potAno saMkalpa thoDo haLavo karavo paDe che, Agraha choDavo paDe che. e be vyakti chemAtA ane pitA! mAtA-pitAnA AgrahathI temaNe lagna karyA paraMtu je ATha kanyA sAthe lagna thavAnAM hatAM te ATheya kanyAonAM mAtA-pitAne temaNe pahelAM ja jaNAvI dIdhuM hatuM. 'lagna pachI bIjA ja divase huM sAdhu banI jaIza!' chatAM ATha kanyAo jaMbUkumArane ja paraNI ane temanI sAthe ja dIkSA laI lIdhI! AkhI rAta ame emanI vAto sAMbhaLI. mArA priya sAthIo, e badhI vAto sAMbhaLatAM sAMbhaLatAM.. ame paNa gaMbhIra vicAramAM DUbI gayA. amAro saMsArano moha nAza pAmyo ne ame paNa dIkSA levAnuM nakkI karI dIdhuM. meM mAro nirNaya jaMbUkumArane jaNAvI dIdho.. enI sAthe ja mArI sAthenA sAthIoe paNa potAno nirNaya jaNAvI dIdho. jaMbUkamAre mane kahyuM : "jAo, tame tamArAM mAtA-pitAnI AjJA laIne Avo. emanA AzIrvAda laIne Avo.. pachI dIkSA levAnI." eTale ame jayapura gayA. pitAjIne maLI, mArA A laghubhrAtAne maLI... kSamAyAcanA karI. pitAjInI anumati lIghI... ane ame ahIM AvyA chIe. ahIMthI have jaladI rAjagRhI javuM che. bhagavAna sudharmAsvAmI tyAM birAjamAna che. jebUkamAra, emanA mAtA-pitA ane patnI, patnIonAM mAtA-pitA.. ema 27 strI-puruSanI dIkSA thaI gaI haze! teo amArI rAha jotAM haze... mATe amane rajA Apo.... premathI rajA Apo... ane hA, ATalAM varSa ApaNe sAthe rahyA, jANatAM-ajANatAM mArAthI tamAro koI aparAdha thayo hoya... For Private And Personal Use Only

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186 eka rAta aneka vAta tamArAM dila dubhAyAM hoya... to huM tamArA sahunI kSamA mAguM chuM. tame sahu mane kSamA karajo...' tyAM beThelAM tamAma pallIvAsIo dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDyA. prabhunI AMkho paNa bhInI thaI gaI. ame ApanA vinA nahIM rahI zakIe.' eka sAthI Ubho thaI... prabhavanA, pagamAM paDI gayo. ame ApanA vinA jIvI nahIM zakIe." bIjo eka sAthI raDatAM raDatAM bolI UThyo. tame ciMtA nA karo. tamArI saMpUrNa javAbadArI prabhu laI le che... prabhu tamane saMbhALaze..' nAtha, huM to ApanI sAthe ja dIkSA laIza." prabhavanI patnIe potAno. nirNaya jAhera karyo. e nirNaya jAhera thatAM ja puruSo ane strIomAM gaNagaNATa cAlu thaI gayo. pAMca puruSoe UbhA thaI jAhera karyuM : "ame ApanI sAthe ja dIkSA laIzuM." basa, pachI to eka pachI eka UbhA thaIne jAhera karatA cAlyA : "ame - tamArI sAthe ja dIkSA laIzuM...' pallInAM 499 strI-puruSo dIkSA levA taiyAra thaI gayAM. prabhunA Azcaryano pAra na rahyo. e vicArato rahyo : "DAkuomAM Avo prema? AvuM samarpaNa? nathI samajAtuM A badhuM." teNe prabhavanI sAme joyuM. prabhava AMkho baMdha karIne gahana vicAramAM DUbI gayo hato. thoDIvAre AMkho kholI. prabhu sAme joyuM. moTAbhAI, A badhuM nathI samajAtuM." prabhu, A badhA pUrvajanmanA maitrIbharyA saMbaMdhonuM pariNAma che." eTale?' pUrvajanmamAM A badhA jIvo sAthe mAro koI saMbaMdha haze. e vinA ATalAM badhAM loko mArI khAtara saMsAra choDI sAdhu banavA taiyAra na thAya..." paraMtu A loko sAdhupaNuM pALaze kevI rIte? e kAMI ja jANatA nathI.." prabhu, e ghaNuM jANe che! emanAmAM je samarpaNabhAva che, e ja emanA jJAnanuM mULa che. "amArA saradAra kahe tema karavAnuM..." basa, sAdhujIvanamAM ATaluM ja jJAna joIe che. "jema gurudeva kahe tema karavAnuM For Private And Personal Use Only

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prabhu sAthe pallImAM huM e lokone pUchuM?' jarUra! pUchI jo." prabhue eka juvAnajodha yuvakane izArAthI potAnI pAse bolAvyo. te yuvake AvI prabhune praNAma karyA. juvAna, tuM paNa zuM prabhavanI sAthe dIkSA laIza? zuM sAdhu thaI jaIza?' "hA.' sAdhu thaIne zuM karIza?" je saradAra kaheze te!' tuM upavAsa karI zakIza?" hA.' "tuM bhikSA mAMgI zakIza?" hA." tuM dharmanuM jJAna meLavIza?' "hA." "tane nAhyA vagara cAlaze?" "cAlaze!' prabhue prabhava sAme joyuM. tenA mukha para smita relAI gayuM. prabhave kahyuM : haju tAre bIjAne bolAvIne pUchavuM hoya to pUcha. A loko mane pUrNa vaphAdAra che. mArA mATe prANa ApI devAnI temanI taiyArI che... pachI zuM joIe? "sAco prema che!' prabhue pelA yuvakane namana karyuM. yuvake paNa namana karyuM, te cAlyo gayo. prabhue prabhavane pUchyuM : moTAbhAI, 499 strI-puruSo ApanI sAthe dIkSA leze, pachI bahu thoDA ja loko, ke jeo vRddha che, apaMga che, nAnAM bALako che, te ja rahevAnAM. teone ahIM rAkhavAM che ke jayapura laI jAu?' ApaNe temane ja pUchIe. jo teo jayapura AvavA rAjI thAya to ghaNuM sAruM. to tane paNa emanI saMbhALa levI phAve." For Private And Personal Use Only

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188 eka rAta aneka vAta tarata ja prabhave e lokone bhegA karyA. temane pUchyuM. tamAre ahIM rahevuM che ke jayapura javuM che?' saradAra, jema Apa kaho tema karIe... Apa to amane choDIne javAnA..." ane vRddha strI-puruSo raDI paDyAM. mane ema lAge che ke tame jayapura jAo to sAruM. tyAM A mAro nAno bhAI tamArI saMbhALa rAkhaze." "ame jayapura jaIzuM." sahue hA pADI. prabhune AnaMda thayo. prabhAve prabhune kahyuM : A kukhyAta pallI ja ahIMthI UThI jaze... loko nirbhaya banI jaze.' lokonA Azcaryano pAra nahIM rahe moTAbhAI!' pahelAM to loko mAnaze ja nahIM ke prabhava ane enA 499 sAthI sAdhu bane che! kyAMthI mAne? DAku sAdhu bane-e vAta seMkaDo varSomAM ekAda vAra banatI haze..." banne bhAI mauna thaI gayA. prabhu viMdhyAcalanI taLeTImAM vaselI pallIne joI rahyo. e pradezane joI rahyo. "keTalo suMdara pradeza che A! A pahADI pradeza... A vRkSaghaTAo... A vahetAM jharaNAM.. mukta mane vihAra karatAM pazuo.. have A pallI UThI jaze... paraMtu pallIno romAMcaka itihAsa jaLavAI rahevo joIe. ahIM evuM kAMIka banavuM joIe ke je pa00 DAkuonA apUrva jIvana parivartananI sAkSI banI rahe. unmArge gayelAone sanmArge AvavAnI preraNA maLe.' "prabhu!" jI, moTAbhAI..." koI UMDA vicAramAM khovAI gayo! "hA... A pradeza mane khUba gamI gayo. ahIM kAMIka karavAno vicAra AvI gayo.' zuM karavuM che?' "bhavya smAraka!" konuM?" For Private And Personal Use Only

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189 prabhu sAthe pallImAM DAkuonA bhavya jIvana parivartananuM prabhava hasI paDyo. prabhue kahyuM : A dezanI prajAne seMkaDo-hajAro varSa sudhI preraNA maLatI rahe. ke eka sAthe pa00 DAkuoe abhuta parAkrama karyuM hatuM. teo jinamatanA sAdhuo banI gayA hatA! A koI nAnI-sUnI ghaTanA nathI. jevI adbhuta ghaTanA jaMbUkamAra ane emanA parivAranI banI che, eTalI ja addabhuta ghaTanA A banavAnI che. hajAro varSa sudhI A bhavya ghaTanAo duniyA bhUlI nahIM zake." prabhava viMdhyarAja prabhunA tejasvI mukhane joI rahyo. "prabhu je dhAraze te karaze ja.' prabhavane vizvAsa hato, paNa tene mana smArakanI vAta mahattvanI na hatI. tenA mATe mahattvanI vAta hatI jaladI rAjagRhI pahoMcavAnI! prabhu, ame kAle savAre ahIMthI rAjagRhI tarapha prayANa karIzuM. tuM pAchaLanuM badhuM kAma saMbhALI leje." moTAbhAI, huM ApanI sAthe rAjagRhI AvIza. mArA mANaso pAchaLanI vyavasthA saMbhALI leze.' "zuM tuM rAjagRhI AvIza? zuM pitAjI ciMtA nahIM kare?' meM pitAjIne kaheluM ja che. teo ciMtA nahIM kare. mAre gaNadhara bhagavaMta zrI sudhamAM svAmInAM darzana karavAM che. mAre mahAna vairAgI jaMbUkumAranAM darzana karavAM che... emane janma ApanArAM mAtA-pitAnAM darzana karavAM che. emanI parama tapasvinI patnIonAM darzana karavAM che. moTAbhAI, AvA uttama AtmAonAM darzana karavA mAtrathI manuSya puNyazALI banI jAya... ane jyAre Apa. mArA moTAbhAI tyAganA mArge jAya che.. tyAre vidAya to..." prabhu raDI paDyo. prabhavanI chAtImAM potAnuM mukha chupAvIne raDI paDyo. prabhAva prabhunA mastake potAno hAtha pheravato rahyo. "huM icchato ja hato ke tuM rAjagRhI Ave. mahApurUSa jaMbUkamAranAM darzana kare! kevI bharayuvAnImAM temaNe sukhavaibhavabharyA saMsArano tyAga karyo che! ane e ATha kanyAo? emanA tyAga ane samarpaNano vicAra karuM chuM. ne mana subdha banI jAya che... kAMI ja samajAtuM nathI. kevA e saraLa, niSpApa ane buddhinadhAna AtmAo che! kevA nirvikAra.. nirAzasa.. ne nirahaMkArI e AtmAo che! prabhu, kharekhara to mane e mahAtmAonuM sAMnidhya gamI gayuM.. samagra jIvana.. zeSa jIvana AvA mahAtmAonI sevAmAM vyatIta karavAnuM mana thayuM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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19o. eka rAta aneka vAta "moTAbhAI, A badhuM sAMbhaLatAM sAMbhaLatAM mArI romarAjI vikasvara thaI jAya che, to. emanAM pratyakSa darzanathI zuM thaze? pAchA jayapura pahoMcavuM muzkela banI jaze." prabhava mauna rahyo. prabhue kahyuM : jo mArA para A bevaDI javAbadArI na hota... pitAjInI ane rAjyanI, to huM paNa ApanI sAthe ja sAdhu banI jAta. paraMtu e mATe bhAgya joIe..." prabhu, jyAre tuM tArI javAbadArIothI mukta thaIza tyAre jarUra A mArge vaLaje... bAkI saMsAramAM to pANIne valovavA jevuM che..." avazya moTAbhAI, javAbadArIone saMbhALanAra taiyAra thaI jatAM huM ApanAM caraNomAM AvI jaIza. Apa jyAM hazo tyAM AvI jaIza... tyAM sudhImAM, A pallIne eka bhavya tIrthadhAma banAvI daIza. zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmInuM bhavya jinAlaya banAvIza. temAM bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmInI ratnamaya pratimA sthApita karIza. ane maMdiranI bhIMtomAM eka tarapha mahAtmA jebUkumAranA mahAbhiniSkramaNanA prasaMgone zilpamAM utAraza, bIjI bAju ApanA mahAna tyAganA prasaMgone zilpomAM kaMDArIza. zilpIone huM kalpanAcitra ApIza. maMdiranI pAse ja pathikAzramanI sthApanA karIza. je rastethI pasAra thanArA pathikonuM kAMI ja salAmata nahotuM rahetuM, e jagAmAM pathikone pUrNa vizrAma maLaze, pANI maLaze ne bhojana maLaze. cAre bAju naMdanavana jevuM ughAna banAvIza. viMdhyapradezanuM A eka parama AphlAdaka tIrtha banAvIza.. bhale jamIna uparathI A pallI UThI jAya, huM ene zilpamAM jIvaMta rAkhIza." prabhave prabhunI A vAtano mAtra smitathI pratibhAva Apyo. ane kahyuM : prabhu, kAle prabhAte ApaNe ahIMthI prayANa karavAnuM che. have ahIMnAM keTalAMka kAma patAvavAnAM che, te huM patAvI dauM... tuM vizrAma kara.' prabhava tyAMthI pallImAM cAlyo gayo. prabhu gaMbhIra vicAromAM khovAI gayo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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{ 27. prabhavanI dIkSA| prabhava, prabhu ane potAnA 499 sAthIo sAthe rAjagRhamAM Avyo. haju rAjagRhanA vizALa rAjamArgo para toraNo baMdhAyelAM paDyAM hatAM, je je mArgo uparathI jaMbUkumAra ane emanA svajanonI zobhAyAtrA pasAra thaI hatI, e mArgo para akSata ane sonA-rUpAnAM phUla dRSTigocara thatAM hatAM. prabhAtano samaya hato. rAjamArgo para lokonI sAmAnya avara-javara hatI... paraMtu loko mauna hatA. prabhava, prabhu ane 499 sAthIo rAjamArgo parathI pasAra thatA hatA. temane rAjagRhanI bahAra guNazIla caityamAM javuM hatuM. jinadharma-zAsananA sukAnI gaNadhara bhagavaMta sudharmAsvAmI vizAla munivRMda sAthe guNazIla caityamAM birAjamAna hatA. sAta divasa pUrve e guNazIla caityano suMdara parisara, jaMbukamAra ane temanA svajanonA dIkSA mahotsavathI zobhI UThyo hato. jyAM rAjagRhanA nava karoDAdhipatioe saMsArano tyAga kirI, sAdhutA svIkArI hatI. jyAM temanI dharmapatnIoe paNa patinA mArganuM anusaraNa karyuM hatuM. jaMbUkumAra ane emanI ATha navoDhA patnIoe jyAM gaNadhara bhagavaMtanAM pAvana caraNomAM jIvana samarpaNa karyuM hatuM, e guNazIla caityanuM udyAna prabhava ane enA sAthIonuM jANe svAgata karavA thanaganatuM hatuM. prabhu! jo A saMgemaramaranI havelI! A jaMbukamAranI havelI hatI." prabhava ane prabhu azvArUDha hatA. prabhave potAnA azvane Ubho rAkhI prabhune jaMbUkamAranI havelI dekhADI. rAjamahelane jhAMkho pADI de tevI e havelIne joIne prabhu Azcaryacakita thaI gayo. kharekhara moTAbhAI, AnI AgaLa ApaNo mahela kAMI nathI!" prabhu, A havelImAM rahenArAonI AgaLa ApaNe kAMI nathI!' "tadna sAcI vAta moTAbhAI..." banne azva AgaLa cAlyA. gaNazIla caityano parisara dekhAyo. parisarano zaNagAra haju jemano tema ja hato. banne bhAIo azvo uparathI nIce UtarI gayA. sAthIoe azvone saMbhALI lIdhA. sahue e paramapAvana parisaramAM praveza karyo, ke je parisaramAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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192 eka rAta aneka vAta zramaNa bhagavAnuM mahAvIra svAmIe cAturmAsa vyatIta karyA hatAM. paramAtmAnA pAdasparzathI je bhUmino kaNa-kaNa pavitra banelo hato, eka-eka paramANu jIvaMta banelo hato. eka UMcA kASThAsana upara ArUDha thayelA gaNadharazrI sudharmAsvAmI dRSTigocara thatAM ja prabhavanuM mastaka namI paDayuM. be hAthanI aMjali mastake aDI, tenA mukhamAMthI 'gurudevano jaya ho!" zabdo sarI paDyA. te be kSaNa Ubho rahI gayo. tenI sAthe prabhu ane bIjA sAthIo paNa natamastaka banyA. guNazIla caityanA e parisaramAM eka hajArathI paNa vadhAre sAdhupuruSo birAjamAna hatA. sahu pota-potAnI sAdhanA-ArAdhanAmAM lIna hatA. nisarganI adbhuta chaTA hatI. koI sAdhuo kAryotsarga dhyAnamAM magna hatA. koI sAdhuo zAstrasvAdhyAyamAM magna hatA. koI sAdhuo bImAra zramaNonI sevA karatA hatA, to koI sAdhuo pota-potAnI Avazyaka dharmakriyAomAM tatpara hatA. sarvatra zAnti hatI, prasannatA hatI, pavitratA hatI. prabhavanI AMkho, zramaNa banI gayelA jaMbUkumArane zodhatI hatI. tyAM to gaNadhara bhagavaMtano meghagaMbhIra dhvani kAne paDyo : "dharmalAbha!' prabhava harSavibhora banI gayo. gaNadhara bhagavaMtanA caraNomAM paDI gayo. tyAM enA kAne paricita dhvani athaDAyo : "mahAnubhAva! tuM AvI gayo!' prabhave sAme joyuM. munivezamAM jaMbUkumArane joyA!prabhava ekITase jaMbUkamArane joI ja rahyo! tenI AMkho bhInI thaI gaI. teNe jaMbUkumAranAM caraNa pakaDI lIdhAM. prabhava, teM vacana pALyuM! mane saMtoSa thayo." jaMbusvAmI bolyA. prabhavano kaMTha avaruddha thaI gayo hato. e kAMI nA bolyo. jaMbusvAmIe sudharmA svAmIne prabhava ane enA sAthIdAronI vAta karI ja hatI. sudharmA svAmInI jJAnadaSTie prabhavanA vyaktitvane mApI lIdhuM. vinA upadeze jenA pagale-pagale coro-DAkuo sAdhu banavA thanaganI rahelA temaNe joyA. "prabhava mahAna puNyazALI che. A vAtanI pratIti thaI gaI. prabhave jaMbusvAmI sAme joyuM. cAra AMkho maLI, prabhava bolyo : gurudeva, A bhavane meM roLI nAMkhyo... aneka ghora pApo meM karyo che. aneka niraparAdhI strI-puruSone meM mAryA che. aneka strI-puruSone lUMTI lIdhAM che. aneka ghara meM saLagAvI dIdhAM che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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prabhavanI dIkSA 193 he bhagavaMta, meM pazuonA vadha karyA che. mAMsAhAra karyo che... madyapAna karyuM che. Dagale ne pagale krUratA AcarI che. zuM thaze mArUM? prabho, zuM mAre narakamAM...' prabhava raDI paDyo. prabhu raDI paDyo. sAthI DAkuo raDI paDyA. jaMbUsvAmInI AMkho paNa sajala banI gaI. svAdhyAya karatA zramaNo mauna thaI gayA hatA. guNazIla caityano parisara stabdha banI gayo hato. magadhano khUMkhAra DAku potAnuM haiyuM kholI rahyo hato. potAnAM pApo prakAzI rahyo hato. bhagavAna sudharmA svAmIno komaLa kara prabhavanA mastake pharI rahyo hato. jaMbusvAmI ane bIjA nUtana zramaNo ekabAju AMkho baMdha karIne besI gayA hatA. mahAnubhAva!" sudharmA svAmIno karuNAbhIno gaMbhIra dhvani prabhavanA kAne paDyo. jI, bhagavaMta!' "manuSya pazcAttApa ane prAyazcittathI pApamukta thaI zake che. tAruM hRdaya pApono ghora pazcAttApa karI rahyuM che... ane sAdhutAnuM pAlana e tArUM prAyazcitta banaze. tuM avazya pApamukta banIza.' prabho, zuM Apa mAro ane mArA A 499 sAthIono uddhAra karavAnI kRpA karazo? zuM ApanAM pAvana caraNomAM amane sthAna Apazo?" prabhava, zramaNa bhagavAna vardhamAna mahAvIra svAmIe banAvelo zramaNa dharma tame sahu svIkArIne tamArA AtmAnuM kalyANa sAdhI zakazo. pAMca mahAvratamaya sAdhudharma svIkAravA mATe sarvaprathama tamAre sahue mana-vacana-kAyAthI pApono karaNa-karAvaNa ane anumodana rUpa tyAga karavo paDaze. sarvaviratirUpa sAmAyika tamAre grahaNa karavAnuM che. pachI hiMsA, asatya, corI, maithuna ane parigrahano mana-vacana-kAyAthI tyAga karavAno che. te pachI jIvanaparyata tamAre samyagu darzana, jJAna ane cAritranI ArAdhanA karavAnI che. bAhya ane atyaMtara tapazcaryA karavAnI che." - "he karuNAvaMta, ApanuM zaraNa pAmIne ame dhanya banI jaIzuM. ApanI pratyeka AjJAnuM ame pAlana karIzuM.' bhagavAna sudharmA svAmIe prabhavane ane enA 499 sAthIone dIkSA. ApI. prabhavane "prabhavasvAmI' nAma ApI, jaMbU svAmInA ziSya banAvyA. 499 munione prabhava svAmInA ziSyo banAvavAmAM AvyA, For Private And Personal Use Only

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194. eka rAta aneka vAta jyAre rAjagRha nagaramAM A mahAna ghaTanAnA samAcAra pahoMcyA tyAre hajAra strI-puruSo guNazIla caitya tarapha doDavA mAMDyAM. kukhyAta DAkuonuM thayeluM gajaba hRdayaparivartana ane jIvanaparivartana sahune AzcaryamAM garakAva karanAruM banyuM. thoDA divaso pUrve thayelI jaMbUkumAra vagerenI dIkSAoe rAjagRhane ja nahIM, samagra magadha sAmrAjyane halabalAvI mUkyuM hatuM. Aje pharIthI evo ja jabbara AMcako pa00 DAkuonA jIvanaparivartane Apyo hato. asaMbhava jevI lAgatI vAta saMbhavita banI gaI hatI. pAMcasoya nUtana munivaro paMktibaddha beThA hatA. sahunA mukha para apUrva samatAbhAva chalakAto hato. sahunI AMkhomAM saumyatA hatI. sahu prajAjano emanAM darzana karIne gadgad thaI jAya che. ahobhAvanA uddagAra mukhamAMthI sarI paDe che. zrImatI zramaNA banI gayA! DAkuo sAdhu banI gayA! zramaNa bhagavAna vardhamAna mahAvIranA dharmazAsananA loko mukta kaMThe guNa gAvA lAgyA. peTa bharIne prazaMsA karavA lAgyA. guNazIla caityamAM virATa mAnava maherAmaNa UbharAyo. Akho divasa lokonI avarajavara cAlu rahI. saMdhyA thaI. sahu zramaNoe pratikramaNa karyuM. nUtana zramaNone moTA zramaNoe pratikramaNa karAvyuM. te pachI sahu nUtana zramaNo bhagavAna sudharmAsvAmI pAse bhegA thayA. sudharmA svAmIe kahyuM : "he zramaNo, meM zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI pAse sAMbhaLyuM hatuM ke sAdhujIvanano prANa dayAdharma che. mATe tamAre koI paNa jIvane pIDA na thAya, duHkha na thAya e rIte dareka kriyA karavAnI che. - nIce joIne cAlavAnuM, koI paNa jIvane pIDA na thAya, enI kALajI rAkhIne cAlavAnuM. - vicArIne bolavAnuM, koI pApavacana, asatya vacana na bolI javAya, enI kALajI rAkhIne bolavAnuM. - koI paNa vastu levI hoya to e vastunA mAlikane pUchIne levAnI. bhikSA letI vakhate 42 doSamAMthI ekeya doSa na lAge tenI kALajI rAkhavAnI. 42 doSa tamane sthavira munio samajAvaze. - koI paNa vastu letAM-mUkatAM koI jIvanI virAdhanA na thaI jAya, enI kALajI rAkhavAnI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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prabhavanI dIkSA 195 - koI paNa vastu jamIna para nAMkhavI hoya, to pahelAM jamIna joI levI. koI paNa jIva mare nahIM, pIDA na pAme, enI kALajI rAkhIne nAMkhavAnI. - manamAM pApanA vicAro nahIM karavAnA. - sva-parane hitakArI ane priya vacana bolavAnAM. - anAvazyaka zArIrika kriyAo nahIM karavAnI. he AyuSyama- zramarNA, A pApamuktino sAco mArga che. tame A mArge cAlazo to avazya mukti pAmazo. tame sivRttithI A zramajIvana aMgIkAra karyuM che, siMhavRttithI jIvanaparyata enuM pAlana karavAnuM che. svecchAthI upasargo - kaSTa sahana karIne karma nirjarA karavAnI che. kaSTo Ave tyAre kAyara na banazo. vIra banIne kaSTa sahana karajo. samatAbhAvathI kaSTo sahana karanAra mahAtmA siddhigatine pAme che. he AyuSyamanuM zramaNo, tame eka kSaNa paNa pramAda nA karazo. ApaNe pratipaLa apramatta banIne jIvavAnuM che. pAMceya indriyone vaza karavAnI che, kaSAyono nigraha karavAno che. jo tame svAdhyAyamAM tamArA manane parovazo to tame sahajatAthI kaSAyavijaya meLavI zakazo. he AyuSyamanuM zramaNo, tamAre sarva prakAranAM mamatvano tyAga karavAno che. niHsaMga banIne jIvavAnuM che. tamArA vairAgyane sadaiva navapallavita rAkhavAno che." bhagavAna sudharmA svAmInAM vAtsalyabhaya vacanothI nUtana sAdhuonA AMtarabhAva ullasita banyA, nirmaLa banyA. rAtrino prathama prahara pUrNa thayA pachI, sahu vidhipUrvaka nidrAdhIna thayA. manthae vaMdAmi!' viMdhyarAja prabhue prabhAte guNazIla caityamAM AvIne gaNadhara bhagavaMtane vaMdanA karI. gaNadhara bhagavaMte "dharmalAbha'nA AzIrvAda ApyA. prabhue pachI jaMbU svAmIne ane prabhava svAmIne vaMdanA karI ane gaNadhara bhagavaMtanAM caraNomAM vinayapUrvaka beTho. prabhava svAmIe AvIne sudharmA svAmIne vaMdana karI kahyuM : "bhagavaMta, A mAro laghubhrAtA viMdhyarAja prabhu che." prabhue mastake aMjali joDIne kahyuM : he kRpAvaMta, mane niSpApa zramaNajIvana gamyuM che, paraMtu Aje huM e grahaNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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196. eka rAta aneka vAta karavA zaktimAnuM nathI, paraMtu huM sArUM gRhastha jIvana jIvI zakuM te mATe mArgadarzana ApavA kRpA karo." mahAnubhAva, tane zramaNajIvana gamyuM e tArA AtmAnI nirmaLatA sUcave che. ghaNo-ghaNo karmamaLa nAza pAme tyAre jIvAtmAne zramaNajIvana game! tane zramaNajIvana gamyuM eTale mokSamArga gamyo. mokSamArga gamyo eTale mokSa gamyo. mahAnubhAva, tAre pavitra gRhastha jIvana jIvavuM che, to tAre prathama zraddhAvAnuM banavuM joIe. te pachI bAra vrata aMgIkAra karavo joIe. gaNadhara bhagavaMte prabhune sudeva, sugurU ane saddharmanuM svarUpa samajAvyuM. prabhune gamI gayuM. tenA AtmAmAM sabhya - darzana - guNa pragaTI gayo. te pachI gaNadhara bhagavaMte tene bAra vratonuM svarUpa samajAvyuM. prabhue bAra vratone samajI lIdhAM ane svIkArI lIdhAM. he karuNAvaMta, huM Apane mArA viMdhyAcalanA rAjyamAM padhAravA vinaMtI karuM chuM. Apa jayapura padhAro. amAruM nagara pAvana karo. AhaMdu dharmano upadeza ApI hajAro strI-purUSone sanmArga batAvo." prabhue gaNadhara bhagavaMtane vinaMtI karI, jevI kSetrasparzanA prabhu!" gaNadhara bhagavaMte pratyuttara Apyo. prabhue vaMdanA karI ane te jaMbUsvAmI pAse gayo. jaMbU svAmIne vaMdanA karI emanI pAse vinayapUrvaka beTho. jaMbUsvAmIe tene "dharmalAbha" nA AzIrvAda ApyA. he kRpAnidhi, anujJA Apo. Aje huM jayapura tarapha ravAnA thavA icchuM chuM. ApanAM darzana karI huM dhanya banI gayo. kyAre ApanAM caraNomAM jIvana samarpita karI dhanyAtidhanya banIza..? he kRpALu, kyAreka jayapurane pAvana karajo. mArA jevA pApIno uddhAra karavA paNa padhArajo." prabhu raDI paDyo. teNe UbhA thaI, bAjumAM ja beThelA prabhava svAmIne vaMdanA karI. ane te guNazIla caityamAMthI bahAra nIkaLI, potAnA azva para ArUDha thayo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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28. jabUsvAmInuM nirvANa zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmInA nirvANa thaI gayA pachI, bhagavAne ja svayaM jemane potAnA uttarAdhikArI ghoSita karyA hatA te gaNadhara zrI sudharmA svAmIe dharmazAsananuM sukAna saMbhALI lIdhuM hatuM. alabatta, bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmInA prathama gaNadhara zrI gautama svAmI te kALe vidyamAna hatA, paraMtu teo sarvajJa-sarvadarzI banI gayA hatA. zAsananuM sukAna sarvajJa-vItarAga mahApuruSa na saMbhALI zake. anuzAsana mATe rAga-dveSa Avazyaka hoya che. sarvajJa-vItarAgI mahApuruSa rAga-dveSa rahita hoya che. eTale zAsananuM sukAna pAMcamAM gaNadhara zrI sudharmA svAmIne soMpavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. sudharmA svAmIe pacAsa varSanI uMmare sAdhutA svIkArI hatI. trIsa varSa sudhI temaNe zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmInI caraNasevA karI. bhagavAnanuM nirvANa thayA pachI paNa teo bAra varSa sudhI chadmastha rahyA. e arasAmAM zrI jaMbUsvAmI ane prabhava svAmInI dIkSAo thaI. bANuM varSanI uMmare zrI sudharmA svAmIne kevaLajJAnanI prApti thaI. teo vItarAgasarvajJa banI gayA. temaNe potAnA uttarAdhikArI zrI jaMbU svAmIne ghoSita karyA hatA. eTale tatkAlIna jinazAsananA teo sukAnI banyA. so varSanuM AyuSya pUrNa karI sudharmAsvAmI nirvANa pAmyA. samagra bhAratamAM zoka chavAI gayo. magadha deza to zokasAgaramAM DUbI gayo. aneka zramaNoe ane zramaNIoe anazana karI dIdhAM. aneka zrAvaka-zrAvikAoe saMsAravAsa tyajI daI zramaNajIvana aMgIkAra karyuM. sauthI vadhAre vedanA anubhavI zrI jaMbusvAmIe. gurudevanA virahathI teo khUba vyAkuLa banI gayA. atyaMta vyathita thaI gayA. paraMtu zrI prabhava svAmIe temane jJAnagarbhita AzvAsana ApI dhIre dhIre svastha karyA. hajAro sAdhu-sAdhvIonA yogakSemanI moTI javAbadArI zrI jaMbU svAmInA zire AvI. lAkho-karoDo jainonA teo zraddheya banyA. teo viziSTa jJAnI hatA. mahAnU puNayabaLanA svAmI hatA. samagra caturvidha saMghe temane potAnA ziracchatra mAnyA hatA. temane prabhavasvAmI jevA samarpita medhAvI ziSya maLyA hatA. prabhava svAmIne zrI jaMbUsvAmI pratye agAdha prema hato. pahelI ja mulAkAtamAM e banne vacce For Private And Personal Use Only

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198 eka rAta aneka vAta prItinAM poyaNAM khIlI gayAM hatAM. te pachI dina-pratidina e prIta pragADha banatI jatI hatI. paraMtu e prIti be jJAnI puruSo vaccenI hatI. eka AtmAnI bIjA AtmA sAthenI prIti hatI. e prItinAM mAdhyama jaDa na hatAM, paugalika na hatAM. emAM rUpa-saundaryanuM AkarSaNa na hatuM. e divya prIti hatI. e baMdhanamAM ja kaDanArI prIti na hatI. baMdhanamAMthI mukta karanArI prIti hatI. eka divasanI vAta che. zrI jaMbU svAmInI pAse prabhavasvAmI beThA hatA. pAse trIjI koI vyakti na hatI. sahu zramaNo thoDe dUra potapotAnA saMyamayogomAM lIna hatA. vAtAvaraNa khuzanumA hatuM. tyAM prabhava svAmInA manamAM keTalAya divasothI sUtelI jijJAsA jAgI gaI ane teo bolyA : bhagavaMta, eka jijJAsA che." pUcho..." keTalAya divasothI manamAM eka prazana ghoLAyA kare che. ApanA pratye mane prathama darzane ja pragADha prema kema thaya? te pachI niraMtara e prema vadhato kema jAya che? ane kyAreka kyAre ApanA virahanI kalpanA Ave che tyAre to hRdaya akathya vedanA anubhave che..." jaMbU svAmInA mukha para smita ramI gayuM. jANe ke A praznano uttara emanI pAse taiyAra hoya-evuM prabhava svAmIne lAgyuM. "prabhava, A prazna teM Aje pUchyuM, meM A prazna pUjya gurudevane pahelAM pUchI lIdho hato! huM?' prabhavasvAmIe jaMbU svAmInAM be caraNa pakaDI lIdhAM. "guru bhagavaMte zuM kahyuM?' 'tAra-mAro traNa janmono saMbaMdha che prabhava!' traNa janmono?" "hA..." jaMbUsvAmIe AMkho baMdha karI, ane atItamAM DUbakI mArI. temanA mukhamAMthI madhura vANI vahevA lAgI. A ja magadhamAM, sugrAma nAmanA gAmamAM, "rASTrakUTa' nAmanA dhanapatino huM putra hato. mAruM nAma bhavadeva hatuM. tuM mArI patnI hatI. tAruM nAma nAgilA' hatuM. paraMtu ApaNAM basa lagna ja thayAM hatAM. tArUM ne mAruM brahmacarya For Private And Personal Use Only

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jaMbusvAmInuM nirvANa 199 akhaMDa rahyuM. kAraNa ke lagna karIne ghera AvyA pachI.. e ja divase huM sAdhu banI gayo hato! tuM bAra-bAra varSa sudhI gharamAM sAdhvInI jema rahI tapa karatI rahI... pachI mane saMyama dharmamAM sthira karIne teM dIkSA lIdhI... chatAM ApaNo AMtarika prema kAyama rahyo. banne devalokamAM gayAM. tyAMthI mAro janma mahAvideha kSetramAM thayo. vItazokA nagarInA rAjA padharathane tyAM rAjakumAra thayo. mAruM nAma zivakumAra. ane e ja nagarImAM tuM sArthavAhanA putrarUpe janmyo. tAruM nAma "dRDhadharmA' hatuM. huM tane dharmeza kaheto. tArI mArI gADha dostI thaI. huM vairAgI banyo, paNa mAtA-pitAe mane dIkSA na levA dIdhI. gharamAM rahIne bhAvasAdhutAnuM pAlana karavAmAM te mane sahAya karI. mArA mATe teM tArAM bhogasukhono tyAga karyo. tAro-mAro AMtarasaMbaMdha pragADha banyo. AyuSya pUrNa thatAM ApaNe banne devalokamAM deva thayA. tyAMthI mAruM cyavana thayuM, mAro janma rAjagRhamAM thayo ane tAro janma jayapuranA rAja kulamAM thayo. te pachInI vAta badhI tuM jANe che." prabhavasvAmI stabdha banI gayA. A traNa bhavonI romAMcaka vAto sAMbhaLIne. temanuM hRdaya gad thaI gayuM. temanI AMkho AMsuothI chalakAI gaI. temaNe pUchuyuM : bhagavaMta, haju keTalA bhava sudhI ApaNo saMbaMdha cAlaze?' "prabhava, A mAro chello bhava che... tArA haju be bhava bAkI che. mane kaivalyanI prApti thaze. sarva karmonI nirjarA thaI jaze ane huM muktine pAmIza. tAre haju devalokamAM javuM paDaze, tyAMthI cyavIne mahAvidehamAM janma laIza. A saMsAramAM e tAro chello janma haze. tyAM tuM dIkSA laIza, sarva karmono nAza karI mukti pAmIza!' prabhavasvAmI UMDA vicAramAM paDI gayA. tyAM jaMbusvAmIe kahyuM : tArA praznanuM samAdhAna sAMbhaLI le! tuM ema vicAre che ne ke pahelAM mArI mukti thaze ke pahelAM tAruM AyuSya pUrNa thaze?' Ape mArA mananA bhAva jANI lIdhA gurudeva!' prabhava, pahelAM mArI mukti thaze!' For Private And Personal Use Only

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200. eka rAta aneka vAta to pachI mAruM zuM thaze?' prabhava svAmInI AMkho bhInI thaI gaI. svara taraDAI gayo. temaNe jaMbU svAmInA khoLAmAM mAthuM mUkI dIdhuM. "pachI tArA rAganuM baMdhana tUTI jaze, prabhava! ane tAre parama gurUdeva zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra devanA dharmazAsananuM netRtva karavuM paDaze. samagra caturvidha saMghanuM yogakSema karavuM paDaze.' prabho, e mATe zuM huM yogya chuM? mane mArAmAM e yogyatA nathI dekhAtI." "tane tArAmAM bhale yogyatA na dekhAya, mane dekhAya che. hajAro zramaNomAM tuM ja eka mAtra evI yogyatA dharAve che! zramaNapradhAna caturvidha saMghanA netA banavAnI samagra yogyatA tArAmAM ja che. prabhava, A prabhuno caturvidha saMgha e ja dharmatIrtha che. e dharmatIrthanuM jatana karavuM che. samagra bharatakSetramAM, bhavasAgara taranArAo mATe eka mAtra A dharmatIrtha sahAro che, Azaro che, zaraNa che. mATe enuM jatana khUba kALajIpUrvaka karavAnuM che.' prabhavasvAmI ekAgra citte jaMbu svAmInI vANInuM pAna karatA rahyA. ane eka agatyanI vAta kahI dauM. A bharatakSetramAM have pachI koI jIvAtmA mukti nahIM pAme, mArI mukti aMtima che." "evuM kema bhagavaMta?" prabhavasvAmIe pUchayuM. mukti pAmavA sarva karmono nAza thavo joIe. sarva karmono nAza karavA zukladhyAna joIe. have jIvo zukladhyAna nahIM karI zake. kAraNa ke temanAM mana te dhyAna karavA mATe yogya nahIM hoya. prabhAva, sarva karmono kSaya karavA mATe zarIrabaLa ane manobaLa apekSita hoya che. have pachI hajAro-lAkho varSa sudhI A bharatakSetramAM janma lenArA manuSyone evuM zarIrabaLa ane manobaLa prApta nahIM thAya ke jenA dvArA teo zukladhyAna karI zake. zukladhyAna vinA sarva karmono nAza na ja thAya. "prabho, dharmadhyAna to jIvo karI zakaze ne?' hA, karI zakaze, paraMtu pramAdanI prabaLatA vadhatI javAnI. tethI dharmadhyAnanuM pramANa ghaTavAnuM, ArtadhyAna vadhavAnuM te chatAM eTaluM dharmadhyAna to karI zakaze ke jenA pariNAme jIvo deva gatinuM AyuSya bAMdhI zakaze! ucca koTinI manuSya gatinuM AyuSya bAMdhI zakaze.' Avazyaka dharmakriyAono samaya thaI gayo hato. vArtAlApa pUrNa thayo. 0 0 0 For Private And Personal Use Only

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jaMbusvAmInuM nirvANa 201 jema-jema nirvANano samaya nikaTa Avato gayo tema-tema zrI jaMbusvAmI, prabhava svAmIne jinazAsananAM gahana rahasyo ApatA gayA. jinazAsananI rakSAnA, ArAdhanAnA upAyo batAvatA gayA. prabhava svAmInA hRdayamAM jinazAsananI sthira pratiSThA karI dIdhI. caturvidha saMghamAM paNa prabhava svAmInA tejasvI vyaktitvane prasthApita karyuM. mArA pachI tamArA sahunA netA prabhavasvAmI banaze. emanI pratyeka AjJAnuM tamAre sahue saharSa pAlana karavAnuM che. A vAta avasara-avasare kahetA rahyA. zrI jaMbusvAmIe gAmegAma ane nagara-nagaramAM vihAra karI lAkho lokone jinazAsana pratye zraddhAvAnuM banAvyA, jJAnavAnuM banAvyA ane cAritravAnuM banAvyA. hajAro strI-puruSoe emanA upadezo sAMbhaLI gharabAra choDyAM, sAdhujIvana svIkAryuM. bhagavAna mahAvIra devanA dharmazAsanane zobhAvyuM. dharmazAsananA teja vistAryuM. bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmInA nirvANane 60 varSa vItI gayAM hatAM. eka zubha divase zrI jaMbusvAmIe, prabhava svAmIne potAnA uttarAdhikArI ghoSita karI, jinazAsananuM netRtva soMpI dIdhuM ane pote ekAMtavAsa svIkArI lIdho. viziSTa dhyAnamAM lIna banyA. eka zubha divase temano zukladhyAnamAM praveza thaI gayo. cAra ghAtI karmono nAza thaI gayo, (jJAnAvaraNa, darzanAvaraNa, mohanIya, aMtarAya) ane teo vItarAga-sarvajJa banI gayA. deva-devendro nIce UtarI AvyA. sarvajJavItarAga zrI je be svAmIne vaMdanA karI. suvarNa kamaLanI racanA karI. tenA para jaMbusvAmI ArUDha thayA ane dharmadezanA ApI. devoe gIta-gAna ane nRtyo karyA. bhavya mahotsava karyo. prabhavasvAmI AnaMdavibhora banI gayA. sarvajJa banelA potAnA gurUdevane aneka zaMkAo, prazno pUchI mananuM samAdhAna karyuM. aneka zramaNo ane zramaNIoe paNa potAnI jijJAsA saMtoSI. 0 0 0 keTalAMka varSo sudhI kevaLajJAnI banI teo magadha dezamAM vicaryA, eka divase punaH zukladhyAna lAdhyuM. cAra aghAtI karmono nAza thaI gayo. (AyuSya, nAma, gotra, vedanIya) ane teo siddha-buddha-mukta banI gayA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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202 eka rAta aneka vAta - jaMbUsvAmIno mokSa thayo. - temano AtmA ajara, amara, akSaya banI gayo. - have teo kyAreya saMsAramAM janma nahIM le. - anaMta kALa... pUrNa sukha ane pUrNAnaMda anubhavatA raheze. 0 0 0 jaMbusvAmInA nirvANa sAthe kevaLajJAnIno yuga samApta thaI gayo. jinazAsananI, adhyAtma mArganI saMpUrNa javAbadArI prabhavasvAmIe uThAvI lIdhI. jaMbU svAmInA virahanI pAra vinAnI pIDA dhIre-dhIre ghaTatI cAlI. rAganAM baMdhana DhIlAM paDatAM gayAM. aneka kartavyonA pAlanamAM temanuM mana parovavA lAgyuM. jaMbU svAmInuM nirvANa sAMbhaLIne viMdhyarAja prabhu kSaNano ya vilaMba karyA vinA prabhavasvAmI pAse AvI pahoMcyo. 'bhagavaMta, jayapurane pAvana karo." prayojana zuM che prabhu?" A saMsAramAMthI mAro uddhAra karavAnuM prayojana che. Apa jayapura tarapha vihAra karo eTale huM rAjakumArano rAjyAbhiSeka karI mArI javAbadArIthI, mukta thAuM. Apa tyAM padhAro eTale ApanAM caraNomAM jIvana samarpita karuM." "tAro nirNaya ucita che prabhu, ame AvatI kAle jayapura tarapha vihAra karIzuM.' prabhue prabhava svAmInAM caraNomAM bhAvapUrvaka vaMdanA karI, ane te jayapura tarapha UpaDI gayo. prabhavasvAmIe zramaNa samudAya sAthe vidhyapradeza tarapha vihAra karyo. vihAra karatA karatA teo viMdhyAcalanI e taLeTImAM pahoMcyA ke jyAM pa00 DAkuonI pallI vaselI hatI. Aje tyAM bhavya ane suMdara jinamaMdira banI gayuM hatuM. pathikAzrama banI gayo hato. naMdanavana jevuM udyAna banI gayuM hatuM. jinamaMdiranA bAhya parisaranI eka bhIMta upara bUsvAmI ane emanI ATha patnIonuM mahAbhiniSkramaNa kaMDArAyeluM hatuM, to enI sAmenI bhIMta upara prabhAva ane emanA sAthIonA bhavya tyAganuM zilpamAM Alekhana thayeluM hatuM. tAdaza pallInuM citra ane pa00 DAkuonA jIvana parivartananuM jIvaMta dRzya! For Private And Personal Use Only

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203 jaMbusvAmInuM nirvANa eka rAtano tyAM vizrAma karI jayapura tarapha prayANa karyuM. rAjA prajAjanoe prabhava svAmInuM jayapuramAM bhavya svAgata karyuM. jayapure kyAreya je zaNagAra nahotA sajyA, tevA zaNagAra e divase sajyA hatAM, "amArA rAjA sAdhujIvana svIkAravAnA che, A vAta samagra vidhyapradezamAM prasarI gaI hatI, tethI hajAro strI-purUSo jayapura UmaTI paDyA hatA. prabhunI sAthe seMkaDo strI-puruSoe paNa saMsAratyAga karI prabhava svAmInAM caraNomAM jIvana samarpita karyuM. keTalAka divasa jayapuramAM sthiratA karI prabhavasvAmIe magadhapradeza tarapha vihAra karyo. cirakALaparyata prabhavasvAmIe jinazAsananuM saphaLa netRtva karyuM. potAnA uttarAdhikArI zrI svayaMbhavasUrine banAvyA ane AyuSya pUrNa thatAM svargavAsI thayA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jnyaanmNdir| kobA tIrtha Acharya Sri Kailasasagarsuri Gyanmandir Sri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra Koba Tirth, Gandhinagar-382 007 (Guj.) INDIA Website : www.kobatirth.org E-mail : gyanmandir@kobatirth.org ISBN: 978-81-89177-09-6 For Private And Personal Use Only