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Life And Works Of śrīmad Rajchandra such spiritual subjects only. He was also very very disinterested in living as a householder, but he had to live like one, as his past karmabandha required him to undergo all the activities as a householder. However, as a result of sādhanā, deep scriptural knowledge, coupled with vītarāgatā and ātmabhāvanā, he had developed in himself a confidence that he was like Mahāvīra and could preach and propogate religion as Mahāvīra did. This confidence of Śrīmad was, no doubt, rather unusual, but it was definitely justified, considering his deep knowledge of scriptures, and of the preachings of Mahāvīra and his own spiritual ahcievements.
In spite of the intense detachment from mundane life, he had to get married in his 22nd year. This event in his life, however, did not come in his way of Sādhanā. Srīmad has recorded an unusual incident that he was getting lightning flashes in circles from his left eye and there was a lot of light and strength overflowing through the eye. However, he says that his meditation was stable and peaceful.39 In course of time, he came to believe in idol-worship unlike the Sthānakavāsî sect of the Jains, Which does not believe in idol and idol-worship. Srimad mimself also, upto the age of about 22, did not believe in idol-worship. He came to believe in this mode of Worship because he was convinced that it is a good
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