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form passions, like anger, pride, greed, fear, hatred etc., and also from his family, wealth, children, wife etc..57
. He has described his feeling of loneliness in his 24th year by saying, “I am totally unconcerned or disinterested in the world, God and everything .. .Liberation is very close to me”. He said, “I am certain about it, my mind is not interested in anything except my soul.”58 Regarding his advanced stage of spiritual development he says that facing worldly problems dispassionately and peacefully and without getting disturbed internally is itself a spiritual sādhanā. Since he had been practising that sādhanā for quite some time, he felt liberated. He did not experience such feeling earlier, when he was engrossed in worldly problems. This achievement in the spiritual journey of an aspirant is very important. Though one may progress towards the goal of self- realization, one has to suffer or enjoy the fruits of one's past karmabandha and if those suffering or enjoying deter an aspirant, his progress towards the goal may be hindered.
It may be asked as to why śrīmad did not abandon worldly life and embrace monkhood; we find some people doing so, even though they have a lot of personal, family and worldly problems. Śrímad has answered
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