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Life And Works Of śrīmad Rajchandra everything and devote himself totally to spiritual pursuit. He also wanted to propagate the true religion, he had researched. But he was unable to do so. On one occasion, he made a very typical observation about his spiritual progress, especially about his ātmajñana and his inner state.46 He said that he was realizing the importance of his ātmajñāna and if he strove hard, he could soon achieve absolute bliss. He was very happy that he had been able to acquire doubtlessness, fearlessness, clarity of thinking and impartiality to a very great extent and he could also acquire those virtues fully. Regarding his inner state during this period he says that there was no doubt that he had achieved ātmajñāna and his kārmic bondage was slackening, but he had yet to accomplish pure ( nirvikalpa) samādhi. It had to be accomplished because it was a stepping stone for self-realization. One has to attain a stage where one is totally free from delusion (māyā) so that there is no difficulty in realizing the self. Śrīmad had decided to achieve such highest state of delusionlessness and then openly propagate true religion. Of course, for that he had to abandon householder's life, and then only he could guide others for welfare of their soul." He was confident that he
ld do what the Tirtharikaras had done, but he had to
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