Bahetar Jine ki Kala

Author(s): Chandraprabhashreeji
Publisher: Jain Shwetambar Panchyati Mandir Calcutta
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/003884/1

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behatara jInekI CPGT pravartinI candraprabhAzrI Education-international

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behatara jIne kI kalA behatara jIvana kA mArga darzAte gyAraha pAvana pravacana sva. pravartinI zrI vicakSaNazrI jI ma. kI suziSyA vicakSaNa-jyoti, prajJA-bhAratI pravartinI zrI candraprabhA zrI jI ma. For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrI sAMvaliyA pArzvanAthAya namaH zrI jinadattakuzala gurubhyo namaH zubhAzIrvAda pa.pU. vartamAna AcArya pravara zrI jina kailAzasAgara sUrIzvara jI ma.sA. saMpAdana munivara zrI zAMtipriya sAgara jI preraNA samayajJA viduSI sAdhvIvaryA pa. pU. candanabAlA zrI jI ma. saMkalana DaoN. suzrI saroja jI kocara dravya sahAyaka evaM prakAzaka zrI jaina zvetAmbara paMcAyatI mandira 139-kaoNTana sTrITa, kolakAtA - 700007 dUrabhASa : (033)22695949 anya prApti sthAna : zrI nAgezvara kuzalaguru dAdAvAr3I TrasTa po. unhaila, ji. jhAlAvAr3a sTezana - caumhalA (rAja.) mUlya : sadupayoga AvRti : prathama 5000 For Personal & Private Use Only

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prAkkathana adhyAtma yAtrA kA patha atyanta duruha hai / bhoga vilAsa ke daladala meM pha~sA sAmAnya vyakti isa mArga kA pathika nahIM bana sakatA hai| pariNAma svarUpa eka ora vaha saMsAra kI dhArA meM vibhinna yoniyoM meM vicaraNa karatA huA mukti maMz2ila kI ora agrasara hone meM asamartha rahatA hai| dUsarI ora bhautika cakAcauMdha ke duScakra meM pha~sane ke kAraNa tanAva yukta hotA jA rahA hai| aisI viSama paristhiti meM patha pradarzaka kI AvazyakatA hai jo maMz2ila taka pahu~cane ke mArga se paricita karavA de| zreSTha vyavahAra, mAnasika zAMti, adhyAtma kI dazA kA mAlika banA de|smyk patha-pradarzana ke lie guru hI vaha akhaNDa jyoti hai jo antara ke aNu-aNu ko parama prakAza se snAna karA sakate haiN| guruoM kI isI mahAna paramparA ke gagana maNDala meM dedIpyamAna sitArA pa.pU. vicakSaNa jyoti, prajJA bhAratI, mahAmAMgalika pradAtrI, AsthA kI AyAma pravartinI mahodayA zrI candraprabhA zrIjI ma.sA. ne apane 55 varSa ke saMyama jIvanaparyAya meM eka lAkha se bhI adhika ki.mI. ke vibhinna kSetroM meM vicaraNa karate hue lAkhoM logoM ko apane ojasvI aura AdhyAtmika vacanAmRta se siMcita kiyA hai| Apa adhyAtma kI gaharAI, anubhava kI U~cAI, jIvana kI saccAI ke apUrva cintana se yukta hai| Apa AdhyAtmika pravacana ke mAdhyama se saMgaThana, zikSA, sevA, svAvalambana, saMskAra Adi ke kSetra meM samaya-samaya para samAja ko nUtana nirdeza-sandeza se navIna dizA de rahe haiN| For Personal & Private Use Only

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unake pravacana Ama iMsAna ko jIvana kA sadmArga pradAna kara rahe haiN| vahIM unakA nirmala caritra hameM apane caritra nirmANa kI preraNA de rahA hai / pa. pU. pravartinI mahodayA ke AtmakalyANakArI AdhyAtmika pravacanoM se lAbhAnvita hone kA suavasara hama sabhI ko sadA prApta hotA rahe isI pavitra bhAvanA se kolakAtA ke paMcAyatI mandira TrasTa ne pa. pU. mAlavamaNi guruvaryA zrI jI ke pravartinI pada alaMkaraNa samAroha ke pAvana prasaMga para yugIna samasyAoM ke samAdhAna hetu sAragarbhita pravacanoM se sambaddha pustaka ko sarvajanahitAya kI maMgala kAmanA se prakAzita karane kA saMkalpa liyaa| prastuta pustaka 'behatara jIne kI kalA' usI saMkalpa aura soca kA pariNAma hai / etadartha TrasTa sAdhuvAda kA pAtra hai / prasannatA hai ki eka varSa pazcAt unakI bhAvanA sAkAra rUpa lene jA rahI hai / prastuta pustaka meM dharma, sadAcAra, sadvyavahAra, nIti, santoSa, karuNA, maitrI, ekyabhAvanA, dRSTi sAmya, sevA Adi se sambandhita viSayoM kA saMkalana hai / jinheM sarala, sugama zabdoM meM vizleSaNa - vivecana karane kA vinamra prayAsa hai / AzA hai, adhyetA AdhyAtmika pravacanoM ko hRdayaMgama kara samAdhAna evaM zAnti ko prApta kara AtmavedI para pratiSThita ho skeNge| anta meM eka tathya jise abhivyakta karanA Avazyaka hai ki pa. pU. pravacana prabhAvaka zrI lalitaprabha sAgara jI ma.sA. ke prati hama antaHstha se praNata hokara vandana karate haiM ki Apane sampAdana kArya ko navIna dizA pradAna kI / pravacanoM ko saMkalita karane kI saMpUrNa preraNA pa.pU. cintanazIlA sAdhvIratnA zrI candanabAlA zrI jI ma. sA. dvArA mujhe samaya-samaya milatI rahI / prastuta pustaka Apako guruvaryA zrI ke saMdezoM ko AtmasAt karane meM mitravat sahayoga pradAna kregii| Apa ise apane yAtrA - pravAsa meM bhI sAtha lekara jaaeN| isa pravacana pustaka se behatara jIvana kA mArga darzana pAte raheM / - DaoN. saroja kocara For Personal & Private Use Only

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janma adhyayana vicakSaNa jyoti, prajJA bhAratI, mahAmAMgalika pradAtrI parama pUjya guruvaryAzrI pravartinI zrI candraprabhA zrI jI ma. kI jIvana jhalaka vi.saM. 1995 mAghavadI terasa, bIkAnera (rAjasthAna) pitA kA nAma- zrI bAlacanda jI nAhaTA mAtA zrImatI dhApUbAI (dIkSA nAma zrI varddhamAna zrI jI ma.sA.) bhrAtA zrI manoharalAla nAhaTA dIkSA pUrva nAma - kumArI mohinI dIkSA - vi.saM. 2009 phAlguna zuklA dvAdazI, khujanera (ma.pra.) (14 varSa kI umra) dIkSA dAtA- pa.pU. vIraputra zrI jina AnaMdasAgara sUrIzvarajI ma.sA. dIkSA guru- pa.pU. jaina kokilA pravartinI mahodayA zrI vicakSaNa zrI jI ma.sA. dIkSA nAma- pa. pU. zrI candraprabhA zrI jI ma.sA. hindI, saMskRta, gujarAtI Adi bhASAoM kA, jaina Agama sAhitya -itihAsa, karmavAda Adi kA evaM jaina -jainetara graMthoM kA talasparzI adhyyn| vicaraNa kSetra - rAjasthAna, madhyapradeza, gujarAta, mahArASTra, kaccha,chattIsagar3ha, AMdhrapradeza,karnATaka, tamilanADU, jhArakhaMDa, ur3IsA, baMgAla, bihAra Adi aneka raajy| kAryakSetra - svaprerita jinamaMdira va dAdAvAr3I pratiSThita vi.saM. 2037 vaizAkha zuklA 10 nAgezvara tIrtha para zrI jinakuzala dAdAvAr3I pratiSThA samAroha (vizeSa - bhArata bhara meM kAussaga mudrA meM prathama pratimA ,kharataragaccha ke samasta pU. guru bhagavaMtoM kA sAnnidhya) vi.sa. 2063 - kolakAtA mahAvIra svAmI mandira ke antargata dAdAgurudeva kI pratiSThA evaM dAdAvAr3I parisara meM upAzraya kA nvnirmaann| vi.saM. 2064- ciMtAmaNI viMga mandira (zikharajI tIrtha) kA saMpUrNa jIrNoddhAra va prtisstthaa| vi.saM. 2043 - pIpAr3a siTI meM jIrNoddhAra saha dAdAvAr3I kI punaH prtisstthaa| vi.saM. 2045 - sUrata zahara (magadalA) tIrtha meM dAdAguru pratimA prtisstthaa| For Personal & Private Use Only

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vi.saM. 2045 - fa. H. 2049 - fa.fi. 2050 fa. H. 2056 - fa. H. 2057 - fa. H. 2057 - fa. H. 2057 - mAgha zuklA trayodazI sUrata zahara meM dAdAvAr3I parisara meM nUtana jinamaMdira pratiSThA / sahasraphaNA pArzvanAtha jinamaMdira meM aneka jinabimba pratiSThA / sikandrAbAda - eroDrAma roDa para nUtana jinamaMdira va dAdAvAr3I kI pratiSThA / maisUra zahara meM nUtana jinamaMdira va dAdAvAr3I kI pratiSThA / sujAlapura meM nUtana dAdAvAr3I kI pratiSThA / indaura ke gumAstAnagara meM nUtana dAdAbAr3I kI pratiSThA / bar3avAha nagara meM nUtana dAdAvAr3I kI pratiSThA / * koTA zahara meM vizAla dAdAvAr3I kA AmUlacUla jIrNoddhAra va punaH pratiSThA / jinamaMdira dAdAvAr3I kI preraNAsrota 1. baiMgalora (basavanaguDI) jinamaMdira- dAdAvAr3I - dharmazAlA, 2. icalakaraNajI jinamaMdira dAdAvAr3I, 3. koTTUra - dAdAvAr3I, 4. gAMdhIdhAma- jinamaMdira va dAdAvAr3I, 5. nalakheDA-jinamaMdira va dAdAvAr3I (nirmANAdhIna), 6. khujanera - jinamaMdira jIrNoddhAra prArambha, 7. haidarAbAda kAravAna dAdAvAr3I parisara meM nUtana jina maMdira kA nava nirmANa / jana kalyANArtha - zikSA - cikitsA Adi vividha kAryoM ke sAtha tapa-japa svAdhya hetu ArAdhanA bhavana - upAzrayAdi kI preraNA vicakSaNa sevA saMgha (cainnaI) 2. 1. 3. 5. 6. 7. 9. 11. 12. aneka padaviyoM se alaMkRta jinavANI - prabhAvikA-kekar3I, vicakSaNa jyoti - nAgezvara tIrtha, mAlava-maNiratalAma, marudhara adhyAtma dIpikA - bIkAnera, prajJA bhAratI- cainnaI, mahAmAMgalika pradAtrI - gAMdhIdhAma, zAsana candrikA - indaura, pravartinI padArohaNa - kolakAtA saMgha / jaina sevA samiti (bAr3amera) vicakSaNa vidyApITha (ratalAma) 4. sukhasAgara jaina gurukula (ratalAma) vicakSaNa jyoti gauzAlA evaM vicakSaNa DAyagonisTika senTara ( bhAnapurA) vicakSaNa bhavana, varddhamAna ArAdhanA bhavana (ujjaina) vicakSaNa ArAdhanA bhavana (riMganoda) 8. mahAvIra bhavana (bIkAnera) kuzala bhavana (bIkAnera) 10. pArasa - kuzala svAdhyAya bhavana (koTA) vicakSaNa ArAdhanA bhavana (maMdasaura) vicakSaNa ArAdhanA bhavana (kolakAtA) - For Personal & Private Use Only

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prastAvanA prasannatA vyakti kA janmasiddha adhikAra hai kyoMki yaha kisI vijJAna kI suvidhAoM meM nahIM varan vyakti kI soca meM nIhita rahA karatI hai| agara vyakti yaha phaisalA kara le ki vaha hara hAla meM prasanna rahegA phira cAhe citta gire yA puTa merI samajha se phira duniyA meM aisI koI tAkata nahIM hai jo use nAkhuza kara ske|kh'ushii bhI hamArI upaja hai aura nAkhuzI bhI kyoMki jisa bIja se phUla paidA hote haiM usI bIja se kA~Te bhii| kA~ToM ko dekhane kI bajAya phUloM ko nihArane kI dRSTi upalabdha ho jAe to iMsAna bhI phUla jaisA pharistA bana sakatA hai| . prastuta pustaka 'behatara jIne kI kalA' isI ciMtana kA pariNAma hai / AdaraNIya pravartinI zrI candraprabhA zrI jI ma. ne apanI aMtardRSTi se kucha maMtra udghATita kiye haiM jise manana karake manuSya mana ke sAtha jor3a le to usakA jIvana mahaka sakatA hai| pUjyA sAdhvIvaryA ne jo kucha prakRti-jagata, dharma-jagata, jIvana-jagata aura adhyAtma-jagata meM dekhA, samajhA aura anubhUta kiyA, unhIM preraNAoM ko sUrya kI kiraNoM kI taraha hamAre sAmane bikherA hai| ____jIvana kI saphalatA ke lie vyavahAra aura vyavasAya donoM hI aise ho jinase kisI kA ahita na ho kyoMki yahI jIvana vikAsa kA mUlamaMtra hai| prastuta pustaka meM : vANI se vyavahAra taka, soca se svabhAva taka, saphalatA se sakArAtmakatA taka, dharma se adhyAtma taka aura parivAra se lekara deza taka hara kSetrako zAmila kiyA gayA hai tAki iMsAna ko gAgara meM sAgara kA lAbha prApta ho ske| jo bhI vyakti apane jIvana kA prabaMdhana behatara tarIke se karanA cAhatA hai| apane ghara, parivAra aura sambandhoM meM mizrI kA miThAsa gholanA cAhatA hai aura AsamAna ke svarga ko apane Asa-pAsa ghaTita hotA huA dekhanA cAhatA hai unake lie yaha pustaka sUrya kI rozanI va caMdramA kI zItalatA kI taraha AnaMdita karane vAlI sAbita hoNgii| - muni zAMtipriya sAgara For Personal & Private Use Only

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1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. 11. anukramaNikA kaise badaleM duHkha ko sukha meM mana ko banAe~ apanA mIta zikSA ko jor3eM saMskAroM se vyasana + phaizana = TeMzana kaise sudhAreM vicAra aura vANI behatara vyavahAra hai zreSTha upahAra vinamratA kI cAbI thAmie, ahaMkAra kA hathaur3A nahIM aise sudhAreM aMtardRSTi ubareM ciMtA ke makar3ajAla se sevA se kareM samaya ko sArthaka jananI meM chipI jannata kI rAheM For Personal & Private Use Only 9-16 17-27 28-40 41-51 52-63 64-73 74-82 83-91 92-101 102 - 111 112 - 120

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kaise badaleM duHkha ko sukha meM z2iMdagI kI jaMga jItane kA artha hai Ane vAlI musIbatoM kA mukAbalA karane ke lie svayaM ko taiyAra rakhanA / qhUbasUrata naz2ara Ane vAlI yaha duniyA eka nATyazAlA hai / puNya aura pApa isake nirdezaka haiM / inake nirdezana meM hama aneka prakAra ke nATaka karate haiM, bhUmikAoM kA nirvAha karate haiN| apanI jhUThI caturAI meM hama nATaka khelate rahate haiM aura pApar3a belate rahate haiM / saMsArI nATaka kA pAtra bana jAtA hai vahIM sarvajJa mauna mUka darzaka banakara sAkSI bhAva meM jItA hai| saMsAra meM sarvatra pApa-puNya kA khela khelA jAtA hai / pApa-puNya ke khela meM vyakti sadA ghirA rahatA hai| Aja hama vahI phala pAte haiM jaise hamane bIja boye the pApa aura puNya rUpI bIjoM ke phaloM ko pAne se hameM koI nahIM roka sakatA hai / farka kevala itanA hI hai ki puNya zubha hotA hai aura pApa ashubh| jaise rAmalIlA koI rAma kI bhUmikA adA karatA hai aura koI rAvaNa kii| lekina donoM kI bhUmikA ke pIche puNya-pApa kAma kiyA karate haiN| jIvana meM hameM jo bhI pariNAma prApta hote haiM usameM ina donoM kI hI bhUmikA hotI hai| vaise puNya aura pApa donoM hI baMdhana hai magara eka zubha baMdhana hai to dUsarA ashubh| puNya sone kI ber3I hai to For Personal & Private Use Only | 9

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pApa lauhe kii|sone kI ber3I mana ko suhAtI to hai, para bhava-bhramaNa se mukta hone ke lie donoM jela kI taraha hai| videza meM eka jela hai| jisakI pratyeka koThI reDiyo, TelIvijana, TelIphona, phrija, e.sI., Danalapa Adi suvidhAoM se yukta hai| use eka vidvAna dekhane gyaa| dekhane ke pazcAt jela adhikArI ne vidvAna se pUchA, Apa salAha dIjie hama isameM aura kyA sudhAra kreN| vidvAna ne ha~sakara kahA - Apane isa jela ke kamaroM ko sabhI suvidhAoM se yukta banAyA hai, para svataMtratA binA suvidhAe~ kisa kAma kI; zAMti binA sampatti kisa kAma kii| suvidhAoM meM baMdhana to hai hii|kaidii ko sajA pUrNa karanI hI par3atI hai|| pApa kA pariNAma suvidhA rahita sajA hai aura puNya kA pariNAma suvidhAyukta sajA hai, para jIvana kA maz2A donoM sajAoM se mukta hone meM haiN| indriyajanya sukha kA kAraNa puNya hai aura indriyajanya duHkha kA kAraNa pApa hai| kuttA yadi puNyAtmA hai to karor3apati ke yahA~ atyanta sukha-suvidhAoM ko bhogegA para baMdhana sAtha rahegA aura kuttA yadi pApAtmA hai to galiyoM meM dara-dara kI DhokareM khAtA phiregaa| isa puNya-pApa ke tamAze ko saMsAra kA khela kahA gayA hai| itihAsa bhI sAkSI hai ki manuSya ke jIvana meM sukha-du:kha, puNya-pApa pahiye ke Are ke bhA~ti ghumate-phirate haiN| ____ maiMne kaI logoM ke mu~ha se bhagavAna se mauta mA~gate hue dekhA hai| jIvana meM thor3A-sA duHkha, pratikUlatA yA mana ke viparita hAlata banate hI vyakti ghabarA jAtA hai, nirAza ho jAtA hai use lagatA hai aisI jiMdagI kisa kAma kI ? eka pati apanI patnI se taMga A gyaa| vaha maMdira meM jAkara bhagavAna se prArthanA karane lagA, 'prabhu, mujhe duniyA se uThA le|' tabhI pAsa meM khar3I patnI ne kahA, 'prabhu, mujhe bhI turaMta uThA le|' pati ne kahA, 'prabhu, tU isakI suna, maiM apanI arjI vApasa letA huuN|' aisA socanA svayaM se hAranA hai, jIvana se hAranA hai| saMsAra kA satya yahI hai yahA~ hara cIz2a parivartanazIla hai, para vyakti sukha ko nitya mAna letA hai aura duHkha Ate hI hAra jAtA hai| jiMdagI kI jaMga jItane kA artha hai -jo vipatti ke samaya Ae kaSToM ko samabhAva se sahana kara letA hai, usa samaya bhI kisI ko apanA zatru nahIM samajhatA usI vyakti kI jIta hotI hai| 10 For Personal & Private Use Only

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eka vyakti hamezA kAle kapar3e pahanA karatA thaa| eka bAra ve kisI sajjana ke ghara ge| sajjana ne unheM dekhA aura kahA - 'Apa kAle raMga ke kapar3e kyoM pahanate haiM?' unhoMne javAba diyA - 'mere kAma, krodhAdi mitroM kI mRtyu ho gaI hai, unhIM ke zoka meM maiMne ye kAle vastra dhAraNa kie haiN|' sajjana ne unheM ghara se bAhara jAne ko khaa| ve cale ge| sajjana ne apane naukara ko bhejA aura unheM vApisa bulaayaa| ve phira aae| unake Ate hI sajjana ne phira cale jAne ko khaa| ve phira cale ge| isa prakAra una sajjana ne unheM qarIba 50 bAra bulAyA aura ghara se nikAla diyA, kiMtu phira bhI unake mukha para krodha yA viSAda ke bhAva nahIM aae| ___aMta meM sajjana ne unheM bulAyA aura kahA - 'sacamuca Apa kAle vastra pahanane ke yogya haiM kyoMki 50 bAra apamAna ke sAtha ghara se nikAle jAne para bhI Apake bhAva sthira rhe|' maiMne Apako krodha dilAne kI ceSTA kI kiMtu Apa vicalita nahIM hue|aakh'irkaar maiM hAra gyaa| unhoMne kahA - 'Apa bekAra hI merI prazaMsA kara rahe haiN| mujhase adhika kSamAzIla to becAre kutte hote haiM jo haz2AroM bAra bulAne aura dutkArane para bhI barAbara Ate-jAte rahate haiN| isameM koI prazaMsA kI bAta nahIM hai| sajjana samajha meM A gayA ki yaha vyakti apane durguNoM para vijaya prApta kara cukA hai, lekina phira bhI eka bAra aura parIkSA lene ke lie usane unheM phaTakArA aura jAne ke lie khaa| ve cale ge| sajjana vyakti ne phira naukara ko bhejA aura unheM bulaayaa| ve phira Ae lekina taba bhI unake bhAvoM meM koI aMtara nahIM AyA thaa| yaha dekhakara sajjana ne unheM praNAma kiyA aura yathocita satkAra kiyaa| use hakIkata meM hI jIvana meM mukti kA Ananda milatA hai jo sukha kI prApti hone para saMyama aura duHkha Ane para dhairya rakhA karatA hai| eka pyArI-sI kahAnI hai| eka vyakti atyanta g2arIba thaa| usakI patnI evaM do nanheM bacce 3-4 dina se kucha nahIM khAne ko milane ke kAraNa bhUkha se bilabilA rahe the phira bhI vaha apane parivAra kA bharaNa-poSaNa karane meM asamartha thaa| duzcintA se grasta, g2arIbI evaMdu:khoM se ghabarAkara vaha Atma-hatyA ke lie nadI kI ora jAtA hai| nadI ke kinAre eka kisAna kA kheta thaa| vaha apane kheta | 11 For Personal & Private Use Only

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meM makaI tor3akara ikaTThI kara rahA thaa| udhara se Ate hue vyakti ko dekhakara usane socA koI atithi brAhmaNa A rahA hai| yaha socakara usane usako tIna makaI dii| makaI prApta hone para usa vyakti ne Atma-hatyA kA vicAra tyAga diyaa| dazahare kA dina jAnakara usane rAjA bhoja ko inheM bheMTa meM dene kA vicAra kiyA kintu mArga meM kinhIM bAlakoM ne avasara dekhakara poTalI meM se makaI nikAlakara tIna adhajalI lakar3iyA~ rakha dii| vaha vyakti poTalI lekara darabAra meM calA gyaa| tIna adhajalI lakar3iyoM kI bheMTa dekhakara maMtrIgaNa evaM rAjA kruddha ho ge| tabhI vahA~ baiThe mahAkavi kAlidAsa ne usa vyakti ke prati dayA dikhAte hue bhoja se kahA - 'he rAjan ! ina tIna adhajalI lakar3iyoM meM eka rahasya chipA hai|' rAjA ne Azcarya se pUchA - 'lakar3iyoM meM rahasya! kRpayA Apa mujhe btaaie|' kAlidAsa ne kahA - 'ye tIna lakar3iyA~ darzAtI hai ki isa vizva meM tIna mahApuruSa hue haiN| una tInoM ne tIna burAiyoM ko khatma kiyaa| pahale haiM AdinAtha bhagavAna, jinhoMne sampUrNa kaSAyoM ko jalAkara mukti prApta kii| dUsare haiM hanumAna, jinhoMne mAna-kaSAya ke pratIka sone kI laMkA dahana kara khyAtiprApta kii| tIsare arjuna haiM - jinhoMne khANDava vana ko bhasma kiyaa| he rAjan ! Apa bhI sampUrNa g2arIbI ko jalAkara cauthI burAI ko qhatma kara sakate haiM / rAjA bhoja ne socA - kAlidAsa ThIka kaha rahe haiM / maiM isakI zurUAta isI g2arIba kI vipannatA ko dUra karake kara detA huuN| rAjA ne usa vyakti ko dhana-dhAnya se saMpanna kara diyaa| puNya-pApa kA, zubhAzubha kA khela kaba, kahA~ aura kaise kisa ora le jAegA, kucha kahA nahIM jA sakatA hai| jo g2arIba vyakti duHkhoM ke kAraNa Atma-hatyA kI ora agrasara ho rahA thA usake lie jaMgala meM bhI maMgala ho gyaa| isI taraha pApa kA udaya hone para mahala bhI jaMgala meM tabdIla ho jAtA hai| usa samaya vyakti kucha bhI kare nirAzA hI hAtha lagatI hai aura puNyavAna vyakti miTTI meM hAtha DAle taba bhI use sonA milatA hai| bar3I vicitratA hai kabhI sukha ke mahala meM rahane vAlA rAjA raMka bana jAtA hai aura dara-dara kI Thokara khAtA hai| irAka kA bAdazAha saddAma husaina isakA sAkSAta udAharaNa hai aura kabhI 500 rupaye kI naukarI karane vAlA dhIrUbhAI aMbAnI raMka se dhanavAna banakara mahaloM ke sukha kA upabhoga karatA hai| pApa-puNya ke khela ko samajhakara hameM na to sukha meM 12 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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abhimAna karanA cAhie na hI du:khoM se ghabarAnA caahie| upakArI ke upakAra ko kabhI nahIM bhUlanA caahie| sabhI se maitrI bhAva rakhate hue sahayoga aura sevA kI bhAvanA sadA rakhanI caahie| vizva ke jitane bhI mahApuruSa haiM, ve hameM sadA preraNA dete haiM jo tumhArA burA kare usakA bhI bhalA karo, samatA se saba kucha sahana kro|punny anukUlatA aura sukha pradAna karatA hai jaba ki pApa pratikUlatA aura duHkha kA kAraNa hai| yadi hamAre Upara pApa ke kAle bAdaloM kA udaya ho gayA hai to vyakti kitanA bhI parizrama kare use inheM jhelanA hI pdd'egaa| hameM duHkha se ghabarAne kI bajAya inakI jar3oM arthAt pApoM se dUra rahanA caahie| prakRti kA yaha niyama hai yahA~ jo apanI ora se diyA jAtA hai punaH vahI lauTakara AyA karatA hai| isalie tumheM apanI ora se dUsaroM ko vahI denA cAhie jo tuma dUsaroM se prApta karanA cAhate ho agara gAlI cAhate ho to gAlI aura gIta cAhate ho to gIta do| hama samajha gae hoMge ki puNya bhI loTatA hai aura pApa bhI lauTakara AtA hai| yadi duHkha se mukta honA hai to pApa se mukta honA hogaa| isa saMsAra meM pApI apane pApa se hI pakatA hai arthAt duHkhI hotA hai| duniyA meM pApiyoM kA jInA aura maranA donoM hI ahitakArI hai, kyoMki ve marane para aMdhakAra (durgati) meM par3ate haiM aura jIvita rahakara prANiyoM ke sAtha vaira bar3hAte haiN| jisase unheM isa saMsAra meM bhI aneka taraha se duHkha bhogane par3ate haiN| hAla hI meM gur3agAMva meM kiDaniyoM ko nikAla ke beca kara karor3oM kA farokta dhaMdhA karane vAlA DaoN. amita guptA Aja apane kiye karmoM para pachatA rahA hai aura duHkhoM ko bhoga rahA hai|ydi vaha aise g2alata kAryoM se svayaM ko dUra rakhatA to Aja vaha sukha kI roTI vacaina kI nIMda le rahA hotaa| babUla kA bIja bokara Ama kI AzA rakhanA vyartha hai vaise hI pApa kA Azraya le puNya-phala kI,sukha-prApti kI AzA rakhanA durAzA mAtra hI hai| sUtrakRtAMga meM kahA gayA hai - sIho jahA khuDDamigA caraMtA, dUra carati prisNkmaannaa| evaM ravu mehAvI samakkhi dhammaM, dUreNa pAvaM privjjejaa|| | 13 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jaise mRga carate-carate siMha kI AzaMkA se dUra rahatA hai| vaise hI vivekI vyakti bhI dharma kA AcaraNa karate hue pApa karma se dUra rahate haiN| pApa karate samaya jIva ko pariNAmoM kA khyAla nahIM rahatA parantu bAda meM vaha paravaza ho jAtA hai| isa paravazatA se bacane ke lie hameM bhItara meM pApa bhIrutA ko vikasita karanA caahie| bar3a kA bIja bahuta choTA hotA hai, parantu usameM vaTavRkSa banane kI kSamatA hotI hai| vaise hI choTe se pApa ko anukUlatA milane para vaha bhayaMkara rUpa dhAraNa kara letA hai| agni kI ciMgArI dikhane meM bhale hI choTI ho parantu vaha ghAsa yA ruI ke Dhera para gira jAe to vikarAla bana jAtI hai aura sarva vinAza kara detI hai| choTA-sA dUSita vicAra bhI kaSAyoM ke saMsarga se pUre jIvana ko dUSita karane vAlA bana jAtA hai isalie choTe se pApa ke vicAra se bhI hameM bacanA caahie| ajJAnI vyakti duHkha Ane para nimitta para doSAropaNa karatA hai, para apane kie gae pApa ke udaya kA vicAra nahIM krtaa| sabako kahatA hai usake kAraNa mujhe nukasAna huaa|amuk ke kAraNa merA ghara barbAda ho gyaa| bhItara-hI-bhItara vilApa karatA huA vaha ciMtA-tanAva magna ho jAtA hai aura apane citta kI prasannatA ko kho detA hai| duHkha kI isI sthiti meM jJAnI vyakti kI citta kI dazA ThIka viparIta hotI hai| saMkaTa kI ghar3I Ane para vaha socatA hai yaha mere kiye gae karmoM kA hI pariNAma hai / aisA vyakti kisI para doSAropaNa nahIM karatA aura Ae hue duHkha ko samabhAvapUrvaka sahana karatA hai| cANakya-nIti meM kahA gayA hai - yathA dhenu sahasreSu, vatso vindati maatrm| tathaivaiha kRtaM karma, krtaarmnugcchti|| haz2AroM gAyoM ke hone para bhI bachar3A sIdhA apanI mAtA ke pAsa jAtA hai vaise hI isa saMsAra meM kRta-karma apane kartA kA hI anusaraNa karatA hai arthAt usI ko sukha-duHkha kA phala detA hai| phrAMsa ke mahAkavi phrenkuisa apanI bAlyAvasthA meM medhAvI aura pratibhAvAn chAtra the, para yauvanakAla meM AvArA-aparAdhI mitroM kI saMgati meM A jAne ke kAraNa unake jIvana meM aparAdhoM kA praveza ho gyaa| jeba kATane se zurU 14 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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huA silasilA coriyA~, vezyAgamana aura luTera banane meM tabdIla ho gayA aura eka dina pulisa ke hAthoM ve pakar3e gye| prANadaMDa kI sajA sunAyI gii| ___ phrenkuisa kArAvAsa meM apane snehI-svajanoM se aMtima bAra mila rahe the| acAnaka nyAyAlaya ne sajA badala dii| prANadaMDa kI jagaha unheM dezanikAlA diyA gayA aura tIna dina meM perisa chor3akara cale jAne kA unako Adeza milaa| sajA meM parivartana karavAyA thA phAdara gyulaibhI ne / perisa meM phAdara gyulaibhI kA acchA prabhAva thaa|aacrnn aura upadezoM se unakA mahAn vyaktitva pUre deza meM chAyA haA thaa| unhoMne phrenkaisa kI prANadaMDa kI sajA sunI aura unakA hRdaya duHkhI ho gyaa| 'phrenkuisa ko sudharane kA eka aura maukA milanA cAhie, saMbhava hai usakI jIvanadhArA hI badala jaae|' unhoMne phrenca sarakAra se phrenkuisa ko kSamA karane kI prArthanA kii| sarakAra ne sajA badala dii| phrenkuisa jaba perisa chor3akara jAne lage taba phAdara gyulaibhI nagara ke daravAz2e taka pahu~cAne gye| phrenkuisa ko patA cala gayA thA ki prANAnta-daMDa se bacAne vAle phAdara gyulaibhI hI haiN| unhoMne phAdara kI A~khoM meM karuNA kA samudra dekhaa| mukha para prema kA prakAza dekhaa| ekAMta meM jIvana vyatIta karate unheM kabhI snehIjana yAda Ate to kabhI phAdara gyulaibhI kI premapUrNa mukhamudrA yAda AtI hai..... ina smRtiyoM ne usake marmasthAna kA sparza kiyaa| unake bhItara nayI jIvanadhArA mor3a lene lagI aura unhoMne nayA jIvana jIne kA saMkalpa kiyaa| unhoMne apanI pIr3A, vyathA, vedanA aura pazcAttApa ko kAvyoM meM utArA aura vedanA bhare kAvyoM kA evaM karuNApUrNa sAhitya kA sRjana kiyaa| yahI saMvedanAoM se bhare kAvya phrAMsa meM lokapriya bana ge| phAdara gyulaibhI ne jaba phrenkuisa ke kAvyoM ko par3hA to unakI A~kheM sajala ho gii| phrenkuisa kI gaNanA phrAMsa ke zreSTha kavi ke rUpa meM aura zreSTha sAhityakAra ke rUpa meM Aja bhI kI jAtI hai| pApa kI saMgati iMsAna ko girA detI hai aura puNya kI saMgati luTere ko bhI mahAna lekhaka banA detI hai| tabhI to kahA gayA hai - | 15 For Personal & Private Use Only

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'karmana kI gati nyArI' sukhI hone ke lie puNya kI saMgati va pApa kI nisaMgatA z2arUrI hai / Aja duniyA meM cAroM ora duHkha, bhaya aura saMtApa meM vRddhi hotI jA rahI hai / isakA ekamAtra kAraNa pApa se bhIti aura dharma se prIti kA abhAva hai / kucha loga pApa karane ke bAda use puNya se chipAnA cAhate haiM parantu vaha chipA nahIM raha sktaa| kahA gayA hai. - pApa karma meM lipta rahane vAle manuSya adhama hote haiM, rAjadaNDa ke bhaya se pApa AcaraNa nahIM karane vAle sAmAnya hote haiM / madhyama stara ke vyakti paraloka ke bhaya se, para uttama vyakti apane svabhAva se hI pApa kA AcaraNa nahIM karate haiM / pApa chipAye nA chipe, chipe to moTA bhAga / dAbI - dUbI nA rahe, ruI lapeTI Aga // azubha se zubha aura zubha se zuddha kI ora apane jIvana ko mor3a kara dharatI para prema, ahiMsA aura satya ke phUla khilAne haiM tAki na kevala hamArA jIvana mahaka se bhara jAe varan iMsAniyata bhI isase sarobAra ho jAe / 16 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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mana ko banAe~ apanA mIta baccoM kI caMcalatA va mana kI caMcalatA meM z2yAdA farka nahIM hai, jarUrata hai kevala samajhAne kI ' hamArI pA~coM indriyoM kA mukhya kendra mana hai| hama pA~coM indriyoM ko svaccha rakhate haiM, kintu mana kI svacchatA ko gauNa kara dete haiN| subaha uThate hI hAtha-mu~ha dhote haiM, dA~ta sApha karate haiM, zarIra ko svaccha-sundara banAte haiN| ghara ko khUba sApha-sutharA evaM vyavasthita rakhate haiN| saphAI kA kAraNa pUchane para ApakA eka hI z2avAba rahatA hai mujhe gaMdagI z2arA bhI pasaMda nahIM hai, para Apane kabhI socA ki ina indriyoM kA kAryavAhaka kendra mana kitanA svaccha hai ? Apa kabhI bhI yaha nahIM kahate haiM ki mujhe mana kI gaMdagI bilkula bhI pasaMda nahIM hai / maiM zarIra aura ghara kI taraha mana ko zuddha, svaccha rakhanA cAhatA huuN| hamAre mana meM apavitra, azuddha, evaM malina vicAroM kA kUr3A-karkaTa jamA huA hai| kyA hama kabhI inake bAre meM socate haiM ? purANoM meM mana ko malina banAne vAle bAraha doSa batAe gae haiN| nagara pAlikA kI kacarA peTI se bhI z2yAdA kacarA bharA par3A hai hamAre mana meN| zoka, krodha, lobha, kAma, mAyA-moha, Alasya, IrSyA, mAna, sandeha, 17 For Personal & Private Use Only

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pakSapAta aura dossaaropnn| ye bAraha mana ke doSa haiM, jinake kAraNa jIvana kI zAMti, sadbuddhi evaM mastI naSTa ho jAtI hai| inameM se eka doSa bhI anartha kA kAraNa bana jAtA hai phira adhika hone para to kahanA hI kyA? eka doSa iMsAna ko pAgala banA detA hai isalie choTe se doSa meM sAvadhAna rahanA caahie| aisA huA, eka pAgala AdamI AtmahatyA karane ke lie bijalI ke khambhe para car3ha gayA, pulisa aura aneka netAoM ke kahane para bhI vo nIce Ane ko taiyAra nahIM huA, kucha dera bAda eka dUsare pAgala ne kahA, agara tU jaldI se nIce nahIM AyA to maiM yaha khambA ukhAr3a kara pheMka duuNgaa| pahalA pAgala jhaTa se nIce A gyaa| patrakAroM ke pUchane para pahale pAgala ne batAyA ki netA aura pulisa vAle to sirpha kahate haiM, karate kucha nhiiN| yaha to pAgala hai, jo kahegA, vo kara ddaalegaa|hmaarii sthiti bhI aisI ho jAtI hai| phira kisI bhI zubhAzubha kRtya kA hameM dhyAna nahIM raha pAtA mukhya prazna hai mana kaise pAgala hotA hai ? usameM pAgalapana kI gaMdagI kaise AtI hai? ApakA socanA sahI hai jaba taka isakA jJAna nahIM hogA taba taka zuddhi kI bAta kaise kI jA sakatI hai? ___eka AdamI ne garmI ke mausama meM bahuta teja A~dhI calane se ghara ke sAre daravAz2e khir3akiyA~ baMda kara dI tAki miTTI Ane se ghara gaMdA na ho jAe, para ghara meM ghuTana hone se vaha bAhara Akara baiThatA hai / kapar3e gaMde hone se bace rahe isalie kurtA-baniyAna bhI utAra detA hai| ghara ke aura kapar3oM ke gaMde hone kI ciMtA meM usakA svAsthya bigar3a jAtA hai| sArA zarIra reta ke kaNoM se bhara jAtA hai, garma havA use bImAra kara detI hai| sacamuca, hamArA dhyAna ghara aura kapar3oM para jAtA hai, para svayaM para nahIM jaataa| ___yahI bAta hamAre mana ke saMbaMdha meM hai| cAroM ora qharAba vicAroM kI A~dhI meM pA~coM indriyoM ke viSayoM kI garma havA cala rahI hai aura manuSya apane dimAg2a ke kapATa ko baMda kara detA hai| jisase malina vicAra evaM viSayoM kI garma havA usake mana ko malina evaM dUSita kara detI hai| yadi indriyoM se galata AcaraNa ho rahA hai to doSa indriyoM kA nahIM, mana kA hai| sahI dizA meM daur3atA huA ratha yadi galata mArga para calA jAtA hai to doSa 18 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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ghor3oM kA nahIM sArathI kA hai| ye indriyA~ rela ke DibboM kI taraha haiM jisakA iMjana mana hai / yadi DibboM ko mana rUpI iMjana nahIM khIMcegA to indriyA~ rUpI Dibbe Age nahIM bar3ha sakate / svayaM dizA nahIM badala skte| unheM to jisa dizA meM iMjana le jAegA vaha usI tarapha cale jaaeNge| 'mana kI dizA aura dazA hI indriyoM kI dizA aura dazA hai / indriyoM ko vazIbhUta karane ke lie mana ko vazIbhUta karanA Avazyaka hai| mana sudharA to samajho saba kucha sudhara gayA aura mana bigar3a gayA to saba kucha bigar3a gayA / mana caMgA to kaThautI meM gaMgA / 1 jaba hamAre mana meM azubha vicAra Ate haiM taba hama unako bhagAte nahIM haiM, khader3ate nahIM hai, apitu vicAroM kI zrRMkhalA meM baha jAte haiM / aura ve vicAra hamAre mana meM praveza karake hameM dUSita banA dete haiM / yadi koI vyakti kisI kI niMdA karatA hai to karane vAlA tathA sunane vAlA ghaMToM taka nahIM thakate, para yadi prazaMsA karanI ho to dasa-pandraha minaTa bhI ghaMTe ke samAna lagate haiN| sunane vAle ko lagatA hai jaise vaha bora ho rahA hai / hameM kabhI-bhI azubha vicAroM ko apane bhItara dabA kara nahIM rakhanA caahie| yadi hama unakA saMcaya kareMge to eka na eka dina visphoTa hogA aura sAre jIvana ko le DUbegA / sAtha hI Asa-pAsa kA vAtAvaraNa bhI dUSita ho jaaegaa| isa prakAra ke visphoTa bAra-bAra hone para dharma, samAja aura vyakti sabhI prabhAvita hote haiN| gaMde vicAroM kI parateM mana ko azuddha evaM asvastha banA detI haiM / nirmala aura zreSTha jIvana ke lie hameM acchA cintana karanA cAhie, uttama saMgati meM rahanA caahie| jisa vAtAvaraNa, dRzya yA bhojana se mana vikRta ho, patana kI ora jAe usase hameM dUra rahanA cAhie / mAna lIjie ki Apa manoraMjana ke lie sinemA dekhane jAte haiM sIriyala yA nATaka dekhate haiM to adhikatara yahI kahate haiM kitane acche gAne haiM, madhura saMgIta hai, dRzya bahuta ramaNIya hai, kapar3e kitane sundara haiM, makAna AlIzAna hai, phAiTiMga meM to maz2A A gyaa| isI taraha kI noMka-jhoMka hameM acchI bhale hI lage, para jIvana kA nirmANa nahIM hone vAlA hai / isakI bajAya hama yaha grahaNa kareM ki usa vyakti kA jIvana sAdagI yukta hote hue bhI kitanA ramaNIya, sundara For Personal & Private Use Only | 19

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aura saumya thaa| amuka vyakti kA vyaktitva mere hRdaya ko chU gyaa| aisI aMtaraNA jIvana meM utArane para hamArA vikAsa hogaa| isa prakAra ke sAtvika vicAroM se hamArA mana nirmala hogA, pavitra hogA, svaccha hogaa| jIvana meM sahajatA, saumyatA, sundaratA kA praveza hogaa| vikRta mana ke kAraNa vyakti kAma, krodha, lobha, moha, IrSyA, niMdA se grasita ho jAtA hai aura yahIM se patana kI prakriyA zurU ho jAtI hai| patana kisI kA bhI ho sakatA hai phira cAhe vaha vidvAna ho yA mUrkha, amIra ho yA g2arIba / eka bAra jo sIr3hI se phisala gayA, phira vaha gayA kAma se| isalie jIvana kI hara sIr3hI meM sAvadhAnI rakhanA Avazyaka hai| do mitra balarAma aura zyAma zAstroM kA adhyayana karane ke lie ATha sAla se banArasa meM raha rahe the| adhyayana pUrNa kara donoM apane gA~va lauTa rahe the| rAste meM bhISaNa garmI thii| lU ke thaper3e cala rahe the| unase bacane ke lie unhoMne eka havelI meM 2-3 ghaMTe vizrAma karane ke lie Azraya maaNgaa| mastiSka para tilaka, gale meM janeU, dhotI, kurtA, thaile se yukta unako dekhakara seTha ne samajhA ye koI paMDita haiN| seTha apane ghara atithi vidvAna brAhmaNoM ko dekhakara atyadhika Ananda kA anubhava karane lgaa| unako svalpAhAra karavAkara snAna ke lie nivedana kiyaa| balarAma snAna karane gyaa| seTha ne unake jIvana, zAstrAdhyayana evaM svAdhyAya ke bAre jAnane ke lie zyAma ke sAtha satsaMga kiyaa| paMDita zyAma balarAma kI anupasthiti dekhakara svayaM kI tArIfa karane lagA, usane kahA maiM Apako kyA batAU~ saMskRta, vyAkaraNa, kAvya, nyAya, rAmAyaNa, mahAbhArata, gItA to mere roma-roma meM basa gae haiM / dhArApravAha saMskRta, prAkRta bolanA mere lie gaMgA pravAha kI taraha hai| veda, purANa to merI jihvA para hai| seTha ne balarAma ke lie kahA ve paMDita jI bhI vidvAna pratIta hote haiM / yaha sunate hI zyAma kA mana IrSyA se bhara gyaa| usane kahA - balarAma! vaha to bilkula gadhA hai use kucha nahIM aataa| vaha pUrA dina idhara-udhara khelane meM, khAne-pIne, mauja-zauka meM bitAtA thaa|pNddit zyAma ke mukha se ye vacana sunakara seTha jI hairAna raha gae unhoMne mana meM socA inhoMne zAstroM kA to jJAna prApta kara 20 / For Personal & Private Use Only

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liyA hai, para vyAvahArikatA, vinamratA, guNa grAhaka vyaktitva abhI bhI nahIM sIkha pAe~ haiM / kevala Atma prazaMsA karanA jAnate haiM / balarAma ke Ate hI zyAma snAna karane gyaa| seThajI ne balarAma kI bhAvanAoM se paricita hone, parIkSA lene aura adhyayana kI jAnakArI prApta karane ke lie usase zyAma ke bAre meM puuchaa| balarAma ne kahA, 'are seThajI! snAna se pavitra hue ke samakSa Apane kisa mUrkha kA nAma le liyA vaha to baila hai| banArasa meM usane par3hAI nahIM kii| mere sAtha hai isalie loga use bhI paMDita samajhate haiN|' ___ seTha bhojana ke prabaMdha karane kA kahakara cale ge| samaya hone para donoM paMDitoM ko sasammAna bhojana kakSa meM AmaMtrita kiyA gyaa| seTha ne unheM Asana grahaNa karane ke lie nivedana kiyaa| donoM ke samakSa alaga-alaga DhakI huI bhojana kI thAlI rakhI gii| ____ donoM ne jaise hI vastra haTAyA thAlI dekhakara Akroza meM bhara Ae, bhauheM Ter3hI ho gaI, hoTha phar3aphar3Ane lage, nAthUne phUlane laga ge| donoM cillAe - seThajI hamArA aisA ghora apamAna! yaha kyA parosA hai ? cU~ki, bhojana iMsAnoM kA na hokara jAnavaroM kA thaa| seThajI ne premapUrNa nivedana karate hue kahA, Apa donoM ne jo paricaya diyA usake anusAra bhojana aisA hI hotA hai| donoM ne eka dUsare ko dekhaa| seTha ke caraNoM meM girakara praNAma karate hue kahA- seThajI! Apane hamArI A~khe khola dI haiM / hamane mAtra qitAboM kA jJAna prApta kiyaa| sadvicAra, sadvyavahAra, saAcAra, satsaMgati ke abhAva meM hama ISyAlu, dveSa-bhAva se yukta ho gae the| svayaM ko zreSTha evaM dUsare ko nIcA dikhAne ke bhAva se hamArA mana grasita ho gayA thaa| aba hama samajha gae haiM ki jIvana kA satya kyA hai? mana kA pavitra honA Avazyaka hai| Aja isa saMsAra meM prema kI gaMgA sUkha gaI hai aura dharatI para cAroM tarafa vidveSa, kalaha aura vighaTana kI darAreM par3a gaI haiN| svayaM ko zreSTha batAkara dUsaroM ko nIcA dikhAne kI koziza ne iMsAna kA vikAsa avaruddha kara diyA hai| hameM mana ko zuddha karane ke lie IrSyA kI mAnasikatA kA tyAga karake zubha bhAvoM kA vistAra karanA caahie| zubha bhAvoM | 21 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ke vistAra ke lie sakArAtmaka soca ke sAtha sAMsArika dAyitva kA nirvAha karate hue Asakti se parata rahanA z2arUrI hai|| Asakti duHkha kI jananI hai| jitanI z2yAdA Asakti hogI utanI hI rAga-dveSa kI anubhUti hogI, utanA hI hama svayaM ko azAMta anubhava kreNge| mana ke azAMta rahane se vyakti kI sAttvika buddhi tirohita ho jAtI hai| karaNIya-akaraNIya kA viveka samApta ho jAtA hai| viveka ke samApta hone para AcaraNa aMdhA ho jAtA hai| yaha aMdhApana jIvana kA baMdhana hai aura isa aMdhepana se mukti hI jIvana kA mokSa hai| kahA bhI gayA hai - ____ mana eva manuSyANAM kAraNaM bandha mokssyoH| mana hI manuSyoM ke bandhana evaM mokSa kA kAraNa hai| hameM saMsAra kI cintA karane kI bajAya apane mana ko sudhAranA caahie| are sudhAraka! jagata kI, cintA mata kara yaar| terA mana hI jagata hai, pahale ise sudhaar|| hama ThIka isake viparIta kara rahe haiN| apane mana ko sudhArate nahIM haiM aura jagat ko sudhArane kI bAta karate haiN| mUla ko nahIM sIMcate haiM, usake pattoM aura zAkhAoM kA siMcana karate haiM / isI ke calate hamArA mana asvastha evaM azuddha ho rahA hai| bahuta se loga zarIra se hRSTa-puSTa, sukha sAdhanoM se paripUrNa hote haiM, para unheM rAta-dina ciMtA satAtI rahatI hai| ve vyakti kahIM bhI jAe unakI upasthiti na hone ke barAbara hotI hai| aise vyaktiyoM kA jIvana dayanIya bana jAtA hai| isakA mUla kAraNa hai mana kI vRttiyoM para niyaMtraNa kI kalA kA abhaav| pariNAma svarUpa z2arA-sI bAta meM mana caMcala, vyagra] cintAtura aura udAsa ho jAtA hai| mana kI sphUrti, prasannatA aura tAz2agI jisa prakAra kI rahanI cAhie vaha samApta ho jAtI hai| mana ko mitra banA lene para sArI duniyA svata: mitra bana jAtI hai| 'mana vijetA, jagato vijetA' jo mana ko jIta letA hai vaha sAre vizva ko jIta letA hai| * hama Aja itane azAMta kyoM haiM? yadi isake lie cintana kareM, svayaM kA avalokana kareM to pAeMge ki hamArI apanI pravRttiyoM ke kAraNa, kriyAoM ke 22 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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kAraNa aura soca ke kAraNa hI hama azAMta haiM / aisA huA, saMtA bhikhArI ne baMtA se kahA - maiM bahuta lAcAra hU~, kucha khAne ko de diijie| miseja baMtA bolIhaTTe-kaTTe to dikha rahe ho| hAtha-paira bhI salAmata haiN| phira kisa bAta se lAcAra ho?saMtA bhikhArI bolA- jI apanI Adata se| sahiSNutA kA hrAsa, dUsaroM kI unnati ke prati IrSyA-bhAva aura dUsaroM se svArtha yukta apekSAe~ rakhane ke kAraNa hama azAMta hote jA rahe haiN| hama isaliye duHkhI nahIM haiM ki hamAre pAsa kama hai hama isalie duHkhI haiM kyoMki par3osI hamase z2yAdA sukhI hai| ___ kisI jijJAsu ne mujhase pUchA, kyA kAraNa hai ki Apake pAsa kucha bhI nahIM hai, phira bhI Apa hamezA prasanna aura AnaMdita rahate haiM, jabaki mere pAsa saba kucha hai,phira bhI maiM du:khI aura parezAna rahatA huuN| maiMne usa jijJAsu se kahA - calo, bAhara calate haiN| vahIM baiThakara carcA kareMge aura maiM use lekara sthAna ke bAhara A gii| hama eka zilAkhaMDa ke pAsa baiTha ge| zilAkhaMDa ke eka tarapha to AkAza ko chUtA huA devadAra kA vRkSa thA, to dUsarI tarapha eka nanhA-sA gulAba kA paudhA thaa| maiMne jijJAsu se kahAina donoM vRkSoM ko z2arA gaura se dekho| inheM maiM kaI dinoM se dekha rahI huuN| inheM maiMne Apasa meM kabhI lar3ate-jhagar3ate nahIM dekhaa| maiMne inheM eka-dUsare se pratispardhA karate hue kabhI nahIM dekhaa| maiMne inheM kabhI eka-dUsare jaisA hone kI kuceSTA karate hue bhI nahIM dekhaa| balki maiMne dekhA ki havAoM ke bahane para jisa mastI meM devadAra jhUmatA hai usI mastI meM yaha nanhA paudhA bhI jhUmatA hai| maiMne dekhA hai ki jisa AnaMda meM bhara yaha choTA paudhA DolatA hai, usI AnaMda se bharakara vaha vizAlakAya vRkSa bhI DolatA hai| maiMne dekhA ki havAoM ke saMga jaise yaha devadAra nAcatA hai, ThIka usI laya meM yaha gulAba kA paudhA bhI nAcatA hai| maiMne anubhava kiyA hai ki devadAra apane hone meM rAz2I hai aura gulAba apane hone meM rAz2I hai| isalie donoM sukhI haiM aura maiM bhI apane hone meM rAz2I huuN| maiM jo bhI hU~, usameM saMtuSTa huuN| isalie maiM bhI sukhI huuN| lekina tuma apane hone meM rAz2I nahIM ho| tuma dUsaroM jaisA bananA cAhate ho, dUsaroM jaisA prApta karanA cAhate ho| basa, yaha dUsaroM jaisA banane aura hone kI kuceSTA hI tumhAre duHkha kA kAraNa hai| 23 For Personal & Private Use Only

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tuma bhI apane hone meM rAjI ho jAo to tumhAre bhI sabhI duHkha jAte raheMge aura sukhI ho jAoge, pIr3Ae~ jAtI raheMgI, parezAniyA~ kama ho jaaegii| svayaM ke pAsa jo kucha hai usase hama saMtuSTa nahIM haiM bhItara meM aura adhika pAne kI pralobhana-pravRtti bhI hamArI azAMti kA eka kAraNa hai| vyakti ko jaba jJAna se kahIM adhika abhimAna ho jAtA hai to vaha pAnI meM uThate hue bulabule kI taraha asthira ho jAtA hai, yaha bhI azAMti kA kAraNa hai| ___isI taraha jIvana jIte raheMge to qadama-kadama para hameM azAMti ke zUla cubhate rheNge| hameM una kAraNoM kA nivAraNa karate hue svayaM ke bhItara sakArAtmaka soca ko bar3hAnA hogaa| tabhI hama zAMti prApta kara skeNge| bhItara meM sakArAtmaka dhArA mana para vijaya prApta karane ke lie atyanta Avazyaka hai| adhikAMza vyakti yaha kahate hue pAe jAte haiM ki mana ko jItanA bahuta kaThina kAma hai| bar3e-bar3e yogI bhI asaphala ho gae hama to sAdhAraNa vyakti haiN| yaha soca g2alata hai| koI bhI kArya asaMbhava nahIM hai| vastu ko prApta karane kI vyakti kI prabala ruci aura use prApta karane kA prabala puruSArtha saphalatA ke lie paryApta hai| vyakti puruSArthI ho tathA vastu prApti kI tIvra abhilASA ho to koI bhI kArya kaThina nahIM hai| mana ko vaza meM karane kA sarvazreSTha evaM sarala upAya ke rUpa meM hameM isa maMtra kA upayoga karanA cAhie - . 'abhyAsavairAgyAbhyAM tannirodhaH' abhyAsa aura vairAgya, ina donoM se mana kA virodha hotA hai| bhagavadgItA meM karmayogI zrIkRSNa ne arjuna se kahA thA - 'abhyAsena tu kaunteya! vairAgyeNa ca guhyte|' he arjuna! abhyAsa aura vairAgya se mana kA nirodha hotA hai| vairAgya evaM abhyAsa kI niraMtaratA se caMcala mana ko vazIbhUta kiyA jA sakatA hai| sarkasa kampanI vAle hAthI, ghor3e, kutte ko bhalI-bhA~ti kArya ke anusAra zikSA dekara apane vaza meM kara lete haiM / ve apanI caMcalatA kA tyAga kara apane mAlika ke nirdezAnusAra karataba dikhAte haiM, jisase darzaka Azcaryacakita ho jAte haiN| kintu isa bAta kA sadaiva dhyAna rakhanA cAhie hama 24 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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mana ke ghor3e para savArI kareM, para kahIM aisA nahIM ho ki vaha hama para savAra ho jaae| brahmA vAhana haMsa kiyA, viSNu garur3a asavArI re| ziva kA vAhana baila banA hai, mUSaka guNadhArI re| mana vAhana para baiThe viralA, vA nara kI balihArI re|| jo mana ke ghor3e para savAra hone kI kalA jAnatA hai vahI vAstava meM sAdhaka hai, vidvAna hai, sArthaka jIvana kA mAlika hai| __ / sikandara vizva vijaya karane kI mahattvAkAMkSA se niklaa| asAdhAraNa pratibhA aura yogyatA kA dhanI aura niraMtara vijayI hone ke kAraNa usake dambha meM vRddhi ho gaI thii| eka tarapha dambha aura dUsarI tarapha vijaya prApta karane kA unmAda meM pAgala banA vaha haz2AroM nagaroM aura gA~voM ko dhvasta karatA gyaa| nirmamatApUrvaka narasaMhAra karate hue apAra dhana sampadA luuttii| aqhuta sampadA kA vaha kyA karatA? usane apane sainikoM ko bhI mAlAmAla kara diyaa| eka bAra vaha eka aise nagara meM gayA jahA~ ke sabhI puruSa yuddha meM pahale hI zahIda ho cuke the| striyA~ aura bacce asahAya ho gae the| sikandara ne zastrahIna striyoM ko dekhakara maiM inake sAtha kaise yuddha kruuN| yaha socakara usane eka ghara ke sAmane ghor3A rokaa| kaI bAra daravAz2A khaTakhaTAne para eka bur3hiyA ne ghara kA daravAz2A kholaa| bur3hiyA ghara ke bhItara gaI aura kapar3e se r3hakA thAla lekara aaii| usane thAla ko sikandara ke Age kara diyaa| sikandara ne thAla lekara bhojana karane ke lie usa para se kapar3A haTAyA, para usane dekhA ki thAla meM bhojana kI bajAya kucha purAne sone ke jevara the| sikandara ne krodha meM kahA - bur3hiyA! tuma yaha kyA lAI ho? kyA maiM ina sone ke gahanoM ko khAU~gA? maiMne to tumase roTiyA~ mA~gI thii| bur3hiyA ne bahuta hI vinamratA se kahA- sikandara, maiMne terA nAma logoM ke ghara ujAr3ane meM, lUTapATa karane meM bahuta sunA thaa|aaj terA sAkSAt darzana bhI kara rahI huuN|maiNne yaha bhI sunA thA ki sonA hI tumhArA bhojana hai| isa bhojana ko prApta karane ke lie na mAlUma tU kitanI lalanAoM kI mA~ga pauMchatA huA, mAtAoM kI | 25 For Personal & Private Use Only

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goda sUnI karatA huA, baccoM ko anAtha karatA huA, yahA~ AyA hai| yadi terI bhUkha anAja kI roTiyoM se miTatI to kyA tere deza meM roTiyA~ nahIM thI? phira tUjhe AkramaNa karane kI AvazyakatA kyoM par3I? sikandara ke dambha kA zikhara dharAzAyI ho gyaa| vaha bur3hiyA ke caraNoM meM gira par3A, mA~ tUne Aja merI A~kheM khola dii| phira bur3hiyA ne use snehapUrvaka bhojana kraayaa| lUTapATa karane vAle sikandara kA hRdaya parivartana ho gayA thA aura vaha bhakSaka se rakSaka bana gyaa| usane apanI lAlasAoM ko vaza meM kara liyaa| aura nagara meM kisI prakAra kA nukasAna na pahu~cAte hue jAne lagA, para nagara se jAte-jAte vahA~ eka zilAlekha lagA gayA - 'ajJAnI sikandara ko isa nagara kI eka bur3hiyA ne jagA diyA hai|' - hama mana ko jAnane va sAdhane kA prayatna nahIM karate haiM jabaki hameM isa para bAra-bAra cintana, manana, abhyAsa karate rahanA caahie| yadi hamArA mana vaza meM nahIM hai to ekAgratA aura svacchatA mana meM nahIM A sakatI, na hI mana samasyA se baca sakatA hai| mana kI hara samasyA ke sAtha bhItara meM samAdhAna bhI jur3A huA hai| isake lie z2arUrI hai, sakArAtmaka soca ke sAtha dRSTi kA badalAva tathA jJAna kA samyak honaa| yadi yaha badalAva AtA hai to nizcita rUpa se hamAre AcaraNa aura vyavahAra svayameva parivartita hoMge tathA hamAre samakSa nayA jIvana darzana hogaa| dRSTi meM badalAva ke pazcAt hamArI jIvana-zailI meM badalAva honA caahie| samabhAva meM rahane kI kalA ko vikasita karanA cAhie / jahA~ taka ho sake hameM manonigraha ke lie sahaja jIvana jInA caahie| atyadhika sakriyatA ke isa yuga meM dinabhara kAma karane vAle loga zAma taka na sirpha zarIra se thaka jAte haiM, balki mana se bhI azAMta ho jAte haiM / tana aura mana ke parizrama ko kaise pRthaka rakhA jAe, isa viSaya para eka bAra kucha ziSyoM ne apane gurudeva se prazna puuchaa| unakI jijJAsA isalie bhI thI ki ve dekhate the unake guru caubIsa ghaMTe atyadhika sakriya dikhate the, lekina phira bhI vicalita nahIM hote, cehare para thakAna nahIM aatii| gurudeva ne uttara diyA - sArA mAmalA keMdra para ghaTane vAlI zAMti se jur3A hai| manuSya kA keMdra yAnI mana yadi zAMta hai, mauna hai to paridhi para kitanI hI 26 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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sakriyatA ho, thakAna nahIM aaegii| isalie mahatvapUrNa yaha hai ki hama keMdra para kyA chor3a rahe haiN| unhoMne ziSyoM ko eka ghaTanA sunaaii| eka bAra brahmAjI ne saba devatAoM se pUchA - Apa logoM meM se prathama pUjane yogya kauna haiM ? isake uttara meM sabhI devatA Apasa meM ulajha ge| taba brahmAjI ne ghoSaNA kI ki pRthvI kI parikramA karake jo sabase pahale hamAre pAsa paha~cegA, vaha prathama pUjya hogaa| sabhI devatA apane-apane vAhanoM se cala die, lekina gaNezajI apane vAhana cUhe ke kAraNa bahuta zIghratA se nahIM cala paae| ve vicAra kara hI rahe the, usI samaya nArada jI vahA~ pahu~ce aura unhoMne salAha dI - pRthvI para rAma nAma likha lo aura usakI parikramA karake brahmAjI ke pAsa cale jaao| unhoMne aisA hI kiyaa| taba brahmAjI ne gaNezajI se prasanna hokara unheM prathamapUjya hone kA varadAna diyaa| gurujI ne apane ziSyoM se kahA - isakA pratIkAtmaka artha yaha hai ki keMdra meM yadi rAma yAnI Izvara, ekAgratA, bhakti, mauna haiM to paridhi para ApakI sakriyatA nizcita acche pariNAma degii| isa prakAra yadi mana ko sAdhane aura sudhArane kI kalA A jAe to zuddha mana se bar3e-bar3e kArya saMpanna kie jA sakate haiM / mUlata: mana mailA nahIM hotA hai saMsAra kI kusaMgati kI dhUla ise mailA kara detI hai| bhakti ke jala meM bhigo kara, jJAna kA sAbuna lagAkara, vairAgya se raMgane kA abhyAsa karake hama apane svarUpa ko pahacAna sakeMge, vahA~ taka pahu~ca skeNge| | 27 For Personal & Private Use Only

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zikSA ko jor3eM saMskAroM se AjIvikA zikSA kA eka sAmAnya pariNAma hai, zikSA kA vAstavika uddezya saMskAroM kA nirmANa karanA hai| svataMtratA divasa-samAroha meM mujhe Aja yahA~ upasthita hone kA saubhAgya prApta huaa| aitihAsika avasara hai, yazasvI kSaNa hai| jisake lie deza ke zahIdoM ne AjAdI kI lar3AI lar3I vaha svataMtratA hameM prApta hai| vizva meM aneka dezoM meM sattA ke lie saMgharSa calatA rahA hai| Apa logoM ne zAyada AjAdI kI lar3AI nahIM dekhI, hamane dekhI, para usa samaya hamArI bAlyAvasthA thii| isalie mujhe ThIka se smaraNa nahIM hai| hama AjAdI kI bAtacIta aura AjAdI ke gIta logoM se muskurAte aura ha~sate hue sunate haiM, para z2arA ciMtana kareM AjAdI ko pAne ke lie jAna nyauchAvara taka kI, svayaM kI kurbAnI dii|hmaare netAoM ko jela meM rakhA, golI se bhUna diyA gayA phira bhI una deza bhaktoM meM AjAdI pAne kI parAkASThA evaM deza ko mahAn banAne kI prabala bhAvanA, sarvasva nyauchAvara karane kI gaharI AkAMkSA thii| balidAna kI sIr3hI para ve cddh'e| aneka loga mare, mAtAoM kI goda sUnI huI aura mahilAoM kI maaNg| jisa AjAdI ko hamane itane prayAsa se pAyA kyA hama usake mUlyoM ko surakSita rakha pAye? yadi hama 28 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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gaharAI se ciMtana kareM to pAe~ge ki bhArata kI AjAdI, asmitA, zikSA kA mahAn gaurava, jIvana ke mahAn sUtra zanaiH zanaiH hamAre hAtha se chiTaka gaye haiN| ___ jIvana kA apanA dhyeya hotA hai, lakSya hotA hai| jisa zikSA meM jIvana jIne kI koI zailI nahIM hotI, koI mahAna lakSya nahIM hotA, vaha zikSA vyartha hai kyoMki manuSya meM jo zArIrika, mAnasika, Atmika zaktiyA~ vidyamAna hai, ve zikSA ke dvArA hI vikasita hokara jIvana kA sundara nirmANa kara pAtI hai| vAstava meM zikSA mAnava jIvana ko saundarya pradAna karatI hai| mAnava AtmA ke lie zikSA vaise hI hai jaise pASANa khaMDa ke lie shilpklaa| zilpI pASANa ko tarAzakara usameM prANa phUMka detA hai tathA usake sauMdarya meM aneka gunA vRddhi kara detA hai| usI prakAra sazikSA pAzavika vRttiyoM ko dUra kara AtmA ke divya svarUpa kA digdarzana karAtI hai| svayaM ke svArtha ke poSaNa meM, dUsaroM ke zoSaNa meM aura kurItiyoM, vikRtiyoM va aMdhavizvAsoM ko pAlane meM jo laga jAtA hai, usakI zikSA kA koI artha nahIM hai| manuSya jIvana evaM zikSA kI sArthakatA isameM nahIM hai ki maiM saba kucha prApta karU~, maiM hI khAU~, maiM hI oDhU~, maiM hI phnuuN| hamArI zikSA meM 'OM saha nAvavatu' kI punIta evaM saMgacchadhvaM kI arthAt hama saba sAtha-sAtha haiM, hama saba prApta kareM, khAe~, caleM aura sabhI Age bar3he jaisI aikya bhAvanA honI caahie| vastutaH Aja vizva meM isI prakAra kI maMgala bhAvanA kI AvazyakatA hai, jo 'jIo aura jIne do' ke rUpa meM astitva yukta hai| saMsAra kI sampUrNa kAmanAe~ U~cAiyoM ko tabhI prApta karatI hai jaba zoSaNa kI apekSA acchAiyoM ke poSaNa, kurItiyoM ke nirmUlana, unnati ke sopAna para agrasara hone kA bhAva ho| qhuda jIo saba ko jIne do, yahI maMtra apanAnA hai| eka bAra eka iMjana paTariyoM para aMdhAdhuMdha dhuMA chor3atA huA Age bar3hatA jA rahA thaa| usake DrAivara se pUchA gayA ki yaha itanA dhuMA kyoM chor3a rahA hai ? DrAivara ne tIvra AvAz2a meM pratyuttara diyA- jIvana kI pragati evaM usake pariSkAra ke lie vikAroM kA bahiSkAra paramAvazyaka hai| yadi hameM apane vikAroM kA bahiSkAra karanA hai to usake lie sakArAtmaka soca ke sAtha sakriya honA hogaa| varanA sarovara meM jamI kAI kI bhA~ti hamArI hAlata ho jaaegii| sarovara kA pAnI | 29 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kAI se AcchAdita thaa|ek vyakti ne kAI se pUchA- tumhAre AdhAra se jIvita rahane vAlI isa kAI ne tuma para adhikAra kaise jamA liyA hai ? sarovara ne pratyuttara diyA- merI niSkriyatA ne hI mujhe parataMtra banA diyA hai| isake lie hameM abhimAna gati kA tyAga karake vinamra, sahaja, sarala gati kA bananA hogA kyoMki sarala gati ke binA siddha gati nahIM hotI hai| bANa sIdhA hotA hai, isalie vaha apane lakSya ko bedha detA hai kintu dhanuSa Ter3hA-mer3hA hai isalie vaha apane sthAna para hI par3A rahatA hai| vikAroM ke Ter3hepana kA tyAga karane para hI vicAroM kI nirmalatA kA anubhava hotA hai| ___ Aja hama dekhate haiM ki zikSA kA artha aura uddezya bilkula badala gayA hai| hamAre ciMtana kA viSaya eka acche nAgarika ke rUpa meM honA caahie| jabaki Aja kA zikSita kahA jAne vAlA samAja kevala sAkSaratA ko hI zikSA mAnatA hai| vastuta: yaha ucita nahIM hai| Aja bhI hama aneka aise vyaktiyoM ko dekhate haiM jinhoMne kabhI skUla meM qadama bhI nahIM rakhA kintu unakI sUkSma, painI dRSTi meM aneka samasyAoM taka pahu~cane evaM samAdhAna karane kI kSamatA hai| jo unheM saikar3oM sAkSara vyaktiyoM se bhI behatara sAbita karatI hai|maatr pustakeM par3ha lene se zikSA kA uddezya pUrA nahIM hotA kyoMki korI akSara-zikSA jIvana kA vikAsa nahIM kara sktii| / aisA huA, DyUTI ke daurAna eka TikaTa caikara ne apane grAmINa pitA ko binA TikaTa paayaa| aphasaroM se prazaMsA pAne ke lie, usane sabhI ke sAmane pitA ko bhalA-burA kaha, naitikatA kA pATha par3hAte hue niyamAnusAra daMDa sahita kirAyA vasUla liyaa| mukhyAlaya pahu~ca kara usane apane nirIkSaka ko batAyA ki usane kartavyapAlana meM apane pitA ko bhI nahIM chodd'aa| iMspekTara ne ghaTanA likhita meM mAMgI tAki ucca adhikAriyoM se use puraskRta karA ske| tIsare dina mukhyAlaya se iMspekTara ko nirdeza mile ki use puraskAra pAne ke lie mukhyAlaya bhejA jaae| TikaTa caikara dUsare dina vahA~ pahu~cA / ucca adhikAriyoM ne usakI kartavyaparAyaNatA kI sarAhanA karate hue inAma ke rUpa meM use pacAsa rupae pradAna kie aura eka baMda liphAphA nirIkSaka ke lie diyaa| agale dina TikaTa caikara ne liphAphA iMspekTara ko sauMpa diyaa| liphAphe 30/ For Personal & Private Use Only

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- meM mile patra kA Azaya thA - TikaTa caikara ke kartavya nirvahana kI sarAhanA to kI jAtI hai, kiMtu rela prazAsana ko aise karmacArI kI sevAoM kI z2arUrata nahIM hai, jo apane pitA ke prati bhI anudAra aura aziSTa ho ! yadi vaha svayaM kI jeba se kirAyA bhara detA, to bataura karmacArI aura putra donoM rUpa meM naitikatA siddha kara sakatA thA / aisI naitika zikSA kisa kAma kI jo mA~-bApa kA Adara karanA na sikhAe / zikSA jIvana kA viveka sIkhane kI kalA hai mAtra pustakoM kA Dhera zikSA nahIM hai / vidyAlaya, mahAvidyAlaya, vizvavidyAlaya jAnA mAtra zikSA prApta karanA nahIM hai| apitu saMsAra ke sAtha, mAnava mAtra aura kriyA kalApoM ke sAtha tAlamela kaise baiThe, kaise samanvaya ho yaha zikSA hai / hamAre vicAra, AcAra aura vyavahAra kaise behatara baneM zikSA kA mukhya uddezya yahI honA caahie| usake dvArA manuSya apane zarIra, mana, mastiSka aura vibhinna indriyoM kA sadupayoga karanA sIkha jaae| kriyA hIna jJAna kI koI kImata nahIM hotI hai - 'jJAnaM bhAraH kriyA binA / ' arthAt AcaraNa rahita jJAna mastiSka kA bhAra hai / kyoMki korA jJAna vyakti ko abhimAnI banA detA hai| jisake kAraNa usakA hI abhimAna usake AcaraNa kI pUrNatA meM, jJAna kI pUrNatA meM bAdhaka bana jAtA hai / 1 V jaba saMgItAcArya ke pAsa eka AdamI saMgIta meM nipuNatA prApta karane kI icchA se AyA aura unase bolA, Apa saMgIta ke mahAna AcArya haiM aura saMgIta kalA prApta karane meM merI gaharI ruci hai / isalie Apa se nivedana hai ki Apa mujhe saMgIta kI zikSA pradAna karane kI kRpA kreN| saMgItAcArya ne kahA tumhArI itanI utkRSTa icchA hai mujhase saMgIta sIkhane kI, to mere ghara A jAo, maiM sikhA dU~gA / usa AdamI ne AcArya se pUchA ki isa kArya ke badale use kyA sevA karanI hogii| AcArya ne kahA ki koI qhAsa nahIM mAtra sau svarNa mudrAe~ denI hogI / sau svarNa mudrAe~ hai to bahuta z2yAdA aura mujhe saMgIta kA thor3A bahuta jJAna bhI hai, para ThIka hai maiM sau svarNa mudrAe~ ApakI sevA meM prastuta kara dU~gA / usa AdamI ne khaa| isa bAta para saMgItAcArya ne kahA - yadi tumheM pahale se saMgIta kA thor3A-bahuta jJAna hai taba to tumheM do sau svarNa mudrAe~ denI hogii| jijJAsu ne - For Personal & Private Use Only | 31

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hairAnI se pUchA - AcArya jI, yaha bAta to hisAba-kitAba ke anukUla nahIM haiM / merI samajha se bhI ekadama pare hai| kAma kama hone para qImata z2yAdA? AcArya ne uttara diyA - kAma kama kahA~ hai ? pahale tumane jo sIkhA hai use miTAnA, use bhUlAnA hogA taba phira nae sire se sIkhanA prAraMbha karanA pdd'egaa| kyoMki pahale se bhare hue pAtra meM kucha bhI aura DAlanA asaMbhava hai| vaha jJAna vAstavika jJAna nahIM hai jo AcaraNa meM nahIM utarA ho| jJAna kA artha hai kisI vastu ke Antarika evaM bAhya svarUpa ko jAnakara tadanukUla AcaraNa krnaa| yadi vyakti apane jJAna kA jIvana meM upayoga nahIM kara sakatA athavA tadanukUla AcaraNa nahIM karatA hai to vaha jJAna vikRta jJAna hai, adhUrA jJAna hai| mAtra pustakIya jJAna jJAna nahIM hai| vaha to hRdaya meM baiThanA cAhie, AtmA meM praviSTa honA caahie| jahA~ jJAna hRdaya meM samAviSTa nahIM hotA hai, jJAnendriyA~kamendriyA~ usa jJAna ke viruddha kAma karatI hai vaha jJAna vAstava meM ajJAna kI bhUmikA vAlA hai, avidyA hai| vaha mAtra AjIvikA kA sAdhana hai| svArtha kI AdatoM ke calate Aja AdamI AdamI kA hI ghAtaka bana gayA hai| usameM iMsAna ke sAtha iMsAniyata kI bhAvanA kI bajAya artha kI bhAvanA pradhAna ho gaI hai| giradhara gopAla gosvAmI ne AdamI para ThIka hI likhA hai - dhIre-dhIre AdamI ko jAnatA hai aadmii| ___ apane matalaba ke mutAbika, dhIre-dhIre AdamI ko mAnatA hai aadmii| bAta phUloM kI zurU kara, phira jar3oM se, dhIre-dhIre AdamI ko kATatA hai aadmii|| hama qadama calate hue ko, nIMda kI golI khilAkara, dhIre-dhIre AdamI ko lAMghatA hai aadmii|| dostI ke AIne se, jaba nikala jAtA hai, matalaba dhIre-dhIre AdamI ko tor3atA hai aadmii|| tIroM talavAroM se hI nahIM, pyAra se bhI, dhIre-dhIre AdamI ko mAratA hai aadmii|| 32 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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dhIre-dhIre AdamI ko jAnatA hai aadmii| jaba bhAratIya sabhyatA pUrNarUpa se unnata thii| taba hamArI zikSA praNAlI pUrNarUpeNa unnata thii| vidyArthI prakRti kI ramaNIya sthalI meM, AzramoM meM takSazilA, nAlandA jaise zikSA kendroM para zrama pUrNa jIvana vyatIta karate hue zikSA ke marma aura saMskAra ko jIvana meM utArate the| unameM zAlInatA, jJAna prApti kI tIvra abhilASA, anuzAsana, guruoM ke prati sammAna kA bhAva, deza-prema jaise Adarza bhAva the| hameM dekhanA hai ki hamArA vikAsa sadpravRttiyoM kI ora hai yA duSpravRttiyoM kI or| eka deza ke pramukha aspatAla meM marIjoM ko mukhya DaoNkTara ke Ane kA iMtajAra thaa| narsa, kaMpAuMDara Adi baiMcoM para zAMti se baiThe the, lekina laMbe kada kA eka AdamI laMbA caugA pahane, cahalakadamI karatA huA pratyeka sthAna aura vastu ko gaharAI se nirIkSaNa kara rahA thaa| tabhI apanI ora Ate bar3e DaoNkTara ko dekhakara vaha vyakti tthitthkaa| DaoNkTara ne pUchA, 'e misTara, kauna ho tuma? yahA~ kyA kara rahe ho? ' vaha bolA, 'DaoNkTara, mere pitA bahuta bImAra haiN|' isa para DaoNkTara bolA, 'bImAra haiM to unheM yahA~ bhartI kraao|' ve bahuta kamaz2ora haiN| unheM yahA~ lAnA saMbhava nahIM hai| Apa calie DaoNkTara, 'usa vyakti ne AdarapUrvaka khaa|' lekina DaoNkTara ne use jhir3aka diyA, 'kyA behUdagI hai ? maiM tumhAre ghara kaise jA sakatA hU~?' 'bhale hI rogI mara jAe, phira bhI Apa nahIM jA sakate?' vaha vyakti bolaa| DaoNkTara ne use DAMTate hue kahA 'z2yAdA bolane kI z2arUrata nahIM hai| tumheM mAlUma nahIM ki tuma kisase bAta kara rahe ho| cIpha sivila sarjana se isa taraha kI bAta kI jAtI hai? ' yaha sunakara vaha vyakti tilamilAte hue bolA - 'maiMne abhI taka to bahuta zarAphata baratI hai| tuma bhI nahIM jAnate ki tuma kisase bAta kara rahe ho|' aba DaoNkTara kA pArA car3ha gyaa| usane aspatAla ke vaoNrDa aTeMDeMTa ko bulAkara kahA - 'isa pAgala ko pAgalakhAne bhijavA do|' jaise hI aTeMDeMTa Age bar3hA, usa laMbe vyakti ne apanA cogA utAra pheNkaa| DaoNkTara ne dekhA, sAmane koI sAdhAraNa vyakti nahIM balki qhuda rASTrapati khar3e the| aba to DaoNkTara bhI sakapakA gyaa| deza ke rASTrapati ne Adeza diyA - 'DaoNkTara, aba tumhAre lie isa deza meM koI jagaha nahIM hai| maiM eka aspatAla kA nahIM, pUre deza kA anuzAsita senApati aura kartavyaniSTha | 33 For Personal & Private Use Only

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adhikArI huuN| jo loga apanA kartavya nibhAnA nahIM jAnate, unheM isa deza meM rahane kA koI haka nhiiN|' rASTrapati ke Adeza para tatkAla amala huaa| rASTra sevA pratyeka nAgarika kA sarvocca karttavya hai| ___Aja hamArI zikSA praNAlI dUSita ho rahI hai| saMskAra prAyaH samApta ho rahe haiM, sabhyatA se hama bhaTaka rahe haiN| eka jamAnA thA, jaba ekalavya apane guru droNAcArya ko aMgUThA kATakara dete the| Aja aMgUThA dikhAne kA jamAnA A gayA hai| vidyAlayoM meM bhI hiMsA aura AtaMka kA praveza ho gayA hai| abhI gur3agA~va meM 8vIM kakSA ke chAtra ne apane mitra chAtra se narAz2agI hone para golI mArakara hatyA kara dii| yaha saba zikSA kI girAvaTa ke kAraNa hai| z2arA-sI icchA pUrti hotI nahIM hai to usake kAraNoM kA, samasyAoM kA samAdhAna to hama karate nahIM haiM aura phira cAhe vidyArthI ho yA zikSaka har3atAla para utara Ate haiN| vidyArthiyoM ke vicAra to itane dhUmila ho gae haiM ki har3atAla karanA, baseM jalAnA, tor3a-phor3a karanA, sarakArI sampatti ko naSTa karanA gaurava kI saMskRti bana rahA hai| jabaki yaha anarthoM kI zrRMkhalA hai| hama har3atAla para jAkara yaha samajhate haiM ki hama rAjanetAoM se mila rahe haiM, aqhabAra meM merA nAma A rahA hai, phoTo A rahI hai loga hameM pahacAna leNge| isase hama prasanna hote haiN| hamane kabhI yaha nahIM socA ki sarakAra hamase alaga saMsthA nahIM hai, vahA~ kA nukasAna hamArA nukasAna hai| hameM yadi prasiddhi prApta karanI hai, aqhabAra meM nAma evaM phoTo denA hai to acchA kAma kro| isase saMskAroM kI rakSA bhI hogii| jApAna meM kArya divasa para har3atAla nahIM hotI hai| yadi kisI ko har3atAla karanI hai to chuTTI ke dina karate haiM / vaha bhI pratIkAtmaka rUpa meN| ve tor3aphor3a, AgajanI nahIM karate, apitu hAtha para, mastiSka para kAlI paTTI bA~dha lI mauna julUsa nikAla diyA, takhtI para apanI samasyA likha lii| Apa kaheMge ki chuTTI kyoM bigaadd'e| vahA~ kI vyavasthA yaha hai ki kArya ko kyoM banda kreN| kisI bhI prakAra kI sampatti ko kyoM nukasAna phuNcaayeN| usI prakAra hameM bhI apanI samasyAoM ko zAMti pUrNa tarIke se avagata karAnA caahiye| par3hAI chor3akara, kakSAoM se bhAgakara, tor3aphor3a pradarzana karate haiM to isameM hamArA hI nukasAna hai| Apa abhI yuvA haiM, vidyArthI haiM hameM dizAhIna nahIM honA hai| apanI maMz2ila, apane uddezya se nahIM bhaTakanA hai| kaue kI bhA~ti caMcala mana rakhane vAle vidyArthI kabhI 34 For Personal & Private Use Only

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bhI buddhimAna nahIM ho sakate haiN| prAcIna gurukula kI yaha praNAlI rahI hai ki vidyArthI adhyayana kI pUrNatA ke binA kisI bhI prakAra kI rAjanaitika gatividhiyoM meM bhAga nahIM lete the / zAlInatA rakhate the / ekaniSTha hokara vidyA prApta karate the, usameM nipuNatA prApta karate the| yuvAvasthA meM adhyayana kI samApti ke pazcAt deza, samAja, mAtApitA parivAra ke prati karttavya kA pAlana karate the Aja bhI isI paramparA ko nibhAne kI AvazyakatA hai / vidyArthiyoM ko vidyAdhyayana kI samApti taka kisI bhI prakAra ke rAjanaitika vivAdoM yA anya vivAda ke kSetroM meM bhAga nahIM lenA cAhie / vidyAdhyayana ko hI eka mAtra lakSya mAnakara saMskRti saMrakSaNa ke sAtha apanA sarvAMgINa vikAsa karanA cAhie / zikSA svayaM koI dhyeya nahIM hai, vaha jIvana ke dhyeya kI pUrti kA sAdhana mAtra hai / agara paryApta zikSA prApta karake bhI koI use vyavahAra meM nahIM lA sakatA to vaha adhUrI hai| zikSA kA jIvana aura jIvana kI samasyAoM se ghaniSTha saMbaMdha hai / jo jIvana hama vyatIta kara rahe haiM use behatara se behatara banAne kI ora agrasara karane kI sAdhanA hI zikSA hai / pustakoM meM mAtra akSara aura bhASA milatI hai, usakA artha sRSTi meM rahatA hai / para zikSA kA atyadhika mahattva hai / parantu dIkSita hue binA zikSA ke dvArA ghora anartha ho jAtA hai| azikSita manuSya ke dvArA samAja ko utanI hAni nahIM hotI jitanI dIkSArahita zikSita manuSya se hotI hai| hamAre prAcIna AcArya apane ziSyoM ko zikSA dene ke sAtha dIkSA denA kabhI nahIM bhUlate the / eka rAjA ne apane rAjakumAra ko kisI AcArya ke pAsa zikSA prApta karane bhejaa| jaba rAjakumAra kI zikSA ke samApta hone kA samaya AyA to mahArAjA svayaM use lene ke lie guru ke Azrama meM upasthita hue / rAjA ne AcArya se pUchA - bhagavan ! rAjakumAra kI zikSA samApta ho gaI ? guru ne uttara diyA - rAjan ! isakI zikSA pUrI ho gaI hai, sirpha dIkSA kA eka aura sabaka denA bAkI hai| vaha maiM abhI de detA hU~ / itanA kahakara gurujI ne rAjakumAra ko bulAyA aura pAsa meM rakhe hue kor3e se rAjakumAra kI pITha para tIna-cAra prahAra kie| tatpazcAt kahA For Personal & Private Use Only vatsa | 35

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jAo! tumhArA kalyANa ho| rAjA guru ke isa kArya se atyadhika cakita hue| unhoMne namratApUrvaka pUchA aparAdha kSamA ho gurudeva! rAjakumAra kI dIkSA kA yaha pATha mujhe samajha meM nahIM aayaa| guru ne manda-manda muskurAte hue kahA-are bhAI ! ise zAsaka bananA hai| apanI sattA aura zikSA ke mada meM agara yaha anyAya, atyAcAra aura mArapITa karane para utArU ho jAegA to Aja kA yaha sabaka ise yAda dilA degA ki mAra kI takalIpha kaisI hotI hai| binA darda sahe yaha parAe duHkha darda ko kaise samajha skegaa| kitanA suMdara udAharaNa hai hamAre manISiyoM ke sAmane bhUta, bhaviSya, hastakamalavat ke sAmane the| unakI divya dRSTi hara jagaha pahu~catI thI parantu Aja yaha viDaMbanA hai yadi zikSaka bacce ko do cA~Te lagA de to kaI abhibhAvaka skUla meM Akara Akroza vyakta karate haiM / pariNAmasvarUpa zikSaka bhI apane uddezya ko pUrNa nahIM kara rahe haiN| unakA uddezya vidyArthI ko Aloka yukta zreSTha jJAna denA honA cAhie tabhI vaha zikSaka saccA guru bana pAtA hai| jo chAtra ke suMdara vyaktitva nirmANa meM apanA vyaktitva vilIna kara de vahI guru, vahI gurupada kA adhikArI kahalA sakatA hai| zikSA sAmarthya hai aura dIkSA prakAza hai| agara vyakti apane sAmarthya kA upayoga aMdhere meM DhelA pheMkane ke samAna karatA hai to nizcaya hI vaha apane vinAza ko nimaMtraNa detA hai| usakA yaha saMkalpa honA cAhie ki vaha kisI bhI paristhiti meM apane bala kA durupayoga nahIM kregaa| usase karttavya bhAvanA ko bala milatA hai| karaNIya, akaraNIya kA viveka jAgrata hotA hai yahI dIkSA kI mahimA hai| sAmarthya evaM viveka virodhI kArya nahIM karane kA nirNaya kartavya parAyaNatA ke lie anivArya hai| eka vyakti ne mujhe batAyA maiM subaha-subaha nahA-dhokara utsAha se bharA huA apane nae skUla meM par3hAne ke lie phuNcaa| ghaMTA bajate hI maiM dasavIM kakSA meM gyaa|sbhii baccoM ne merA abhivAdana kiyaa| __ sabase pahale paricaya kA daura claa| tatpazcAt pIche kI paMkti meM baiThe hue 36 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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do-tIna chAtroM ne mere sAmane sigareTa aura khainI kI peza kii| maiMne unheM DAMTA ki yaha saba kyA hai ? unhoMne batAyA ki hamAre gurujI to hamase sigareTa maMgAkara pIte haiM / mujhe apane zikSaka hone para zarma AI / yadi zikSaka varga hI vidyA ke maMdira meM naitikatA kI sImA lAMgha jAegA, to isa bhAvI pIr3hI kA kyA hogA ? hama baccoM ke sAmane nainikatA kA udAharaNa nahIM baneMge, to svastha bhaviSya kA nirmANa kaise hogA ? 1 hama simaTa rahe haiM, saMkucita ho rahe haiN| zikSA ke mUlyoM kA hrAsa ho rahA hai, cAritrika patana ho rahA hai / rAvaNa ne apane avaguNa ke kAraNa sItA kA haraNa kiyA thA / pacAsa guNoM meM bhI yaha eka bahuta bar3A avaguNa thA / kintu unhoMne eka niyama liyA thA jaba taka sItA svIkRti nahIM degI taba taka maiM usakI deha kA sparza nahIM kruuNgaa| sItA ne svIkRti nahIM dI isalie rAvaNa ne sparza bhI nahIM kiyaa| aisA koI bhI zAstra upalabdha nahIM hai jisameM rAvaNa dvArA sItA kA upabhoga kie jAne kA ullekha hai / itanI niSThA thI rAvaNa ko apane niyama ke prati / vaha dambhI thA, para balAtkArI nahIM / Aja zikSA praNAlI ke mUlyoM meM girAvaTa Ane ke kAraNa cAritrika mUlyoM kA tIvratA se patana ho rahA hai aura to aura nArI asmitA praznoM ke dAyare meM hai ? abalAe~ lUTI jA rahI hai| balAtkAra kI ghaTanAoM meM dina-pratidina vRddhi hotI jA rahI hai / kamaz2ora AdamI mAta khA rahe haiN| yogya vyaktiyoM ko Age nahIM bar3hane diyA jA rahA hai / pratibhAoM ko dabAyA jA rahA hai / svastha samAja kI saMracanA ke lie hameM viSamatAoM ko jar3a mUla se dUra karanA hai / matabheda ThIka hai para mana bheda nahIM honA caahie| hama apane stara se Upara uttheN| | Aja kI zikSA praNAlI meM manuSya kI soca badalatI jA rahI hai| vaha nirmANakArI zikSA se dUra rahakara jahA~ svArtha kI pUrti nahIM hotI vaha vidhvaMsa karane ke lie taiyAra ho jAtA hai| vidhvaMsAtmaka pravRtti ke vidyArthI yaha bhalIbhA~ti nahIM samajha pAte ki vidhvaMsa sarala evaM sahaja hai / nirmANa kaThina evaM zramasAdhya hai| bigAr3anA sarala hai, para banAnA muzkila hai| hama hara hAlata meM tor3aphor3a se dUra raheM / For Personal & Private Use Only 37

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sitAra ke tAroM ko tor3ane kI sAmarthya sabhI meM hai, para una tAroM ko apanI komala aMguliyoM se bajAne kI, cher3ane kI sAmarthya saba meM nahIM hai| unameM madhura saMgIta utpanna karane, unheM bajAne hetu sAdhanA kI AvazyakatA hai, niraMtara abhyAsa kI z2arUrata hai para tAroM ko tor3ane hetu kisI abhyAsa kI AvazyakatA nahIM hotI hai| eka bahuta sundara imArata ke mAlika ne apane kArIgaroM se pUchA kyA tuma ise tor3a sakate ho? yadi hA~ to kitanA samaya lagegA? kArIgaroM ne kahA do dina meM pUrI imArata girA deNge| phira usI vyakti ne pUchA kyA isa imArata ko girAkara Apa sundara imArata do dinoM meM khar3I kara sakate ho? kArIgara ne kahA - sAhaba! khudAI karane vAle alaga, nakzA banAne vAle alaga, bilDiMga banAne vAle alaga, mArabala lagAne vAle alaga kArIgara hoNge| tabhI suMdara imArata khar3I ho paaegii| hama tor3anA nahIM, jor3anA sIkheM aura aisI zikSA grahaNa kareM jo hamAre sarvAMgINa vikAsa meM sahAyaka ho|) | zikSA se hamAre caritra kA vikAsa honA caahie| hamAre sara ko jo Upara uThAe vaha zikSA hai| vahI zikSA hamAre lie sarvAMgINa varadAna siddha hogii|aaj kI zikSA peTI bharane, DigrI prApta karake naukarI hAsila karane kA sAmAnya mAdhyama hai| ema.e., pI.eca.DI. ke vidyArthiyoM ko dekheM to na to unakI sahI rUpa meM abhivyakti hai, na hI nirNaya kI kSamatA hai, na hI jIvana ke prati koI sakArAtmaka dRSTikoNa hai / pustakoM kA bhArI bharakama bojha isa qadara bar3hatA jA rahA hai mAnoM koI pArsala paika ho| Thosa jJAna samApta prAyaH ho rahA hai| raTa-raTa kara dimAg2a ko dimAg2a nahIM eka phlopI yA sIDI banAyA jA rahA hai| agalI kakSA meM jAne vAle purAne adhyayana ko bhUla jAte haiN| kRpayA kevala tote kI taraha raTanA chodd'eN| sahI soca, sahI samajha, sahI ciMtana vikasita kareM tabhI hama Age bar3ha skeNge| aisA huA, eka vyakti kucha dina pahale jora-jora se ro rahA thaa| usake pAsa boriyA~ bhara ke DigrIyA~ thii| mAno vaha vyakti par3hAkU ho| usakI kAruNya dazA dekhakara maiMne pUchA Apake sAtha kyA anahonI ho gaI jo Apa ro rahe haiN| 38 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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usane batAyA, merI bIbI ghara ke naukara ke sAtha bhAga gaI hai aura maiM usakA kAraNa samajha nahIM pAyA Aqhira aisA kyoM huA? mujhe yaha sunakara jora kI ha~sI AI ki jo vyakti isakA kAraNa bhI DhU~r3ha nahIM pA rahA hai usake DigrIyoM kA kyA artha ? kahIM hamArI zikSA bhI to aisI nahIM hai| ____ hameM zikSA grahaNa karate samaya yaha ciMtana karanA hai ki hamArI jiMdagI kA uddezya kyA hai? usake AdhAra kyA hoMge? hama bhaviSya ko kaise ujjvala banAe~ge? jIvana meM parivartana ke AdhAra DhU~r3hate jAe~ge tabhI zikSA hamAre lie sArthaka ho paaegii| kahane kA abhiprAya yaha hai ki zikSA tabhI taka sazikSA kahalA sakatI hai aura sArthaka bana sakatI hai jaba hama use AcaraNa meM utArane kA prayatna kreN| vyakti apane jJAna ko ciMtana, manana, saMyama aura sAdhanA se vyAvahArika tathA Atmika unnati meM sahAyaka banA sakatA hai| jisa vyakti kA jJAna mAtra tarkavitarka, vAda-vivAda ke lie hotA hai vaha usake utthAna meM bAdhaka hotA hai| isake viparIta jo vyakti mithyAcAra, durAcAra, pApAcAra ko naSTa karake AdhyAtmika bala ko bar3hAtA hai| vaha jIvana-vikAsa ke sAre dvAra khola letA hai| ( jisa prakAra koI vyakti pAnI meM gote khAe binA tairAka nahIM bana sakatA usI prakAra zikSA ko AcaraNa meM nahIM lAe binA mAnava apane jIvana kA leza mAtra bhI bhalA nahIM kara sakatA hai| zikSA pariNAma tabhI detI hai jaba dIkSA usake sAtha jur3I ho| ___ kahate haiM eka bAra sItA ne rAma se kahA - 'bhagavan ! mere caraNa Apase z2yAdA suMdara haiM, kyoMki Apake zyAma hai aura mere gore haiN|' donoM meM saMvAda chir3a gyaa| isI bIca vahA~ lakSmaNa A ge| lakSmaNa ne pUchA - 'bhaiyA! Aqhira bAta kyA hai ?' rAma ne pUrI bAta batAI aura kahA - 'tU hamArA nyAyAdhIza hai| jaldI se batA aura nirNaya de ki donoM meM se kisake caraNa suMdara haiM ?' lakSmaNa yaha sunakara dharma saMkaTa meM par3a ge| socane lage - 'bhaiyA-bhAbhI ke jhagar3e meM merA kyA kAma!' rAma bole - 'nahIM, nirNaya tumheM hI karanA hai|' lakSmaNa parezAna ki yadi prabhu ke caraNa suMdara batAtA hU~ to sItA maiyA ko kaSTa hogA aura yadi sItA | 39 For Personal & Private Use Only

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maiyA ke batAtA hU~, to prabhu ko du:kha hogaa| dharmasaMkaTa ke ina kSaNoM meM lakSmaNa ne jaina dharma ke maulika siddhAMta anekAMta-syAdvAda kA sahArA liyA aura samAdhAna khojane ko tatpara hue| lakSmaNa ne rAma aura sItA kA eka-eka caraNa apane hAtha meM liyA aura gaura se dekhA aura bole - 'sItA maiyA ke caraNa suMdara haiM ' yaha sunakara sItA bar3I prasanna huii| bolI - 'dekho prabhu! maiMne to pahale hI kahA thA ki mere caraNa z2yAdA suMdara haiN|' lakSmaNa bole - 'mA~! pUrI bAta to suno, Apa to AdhI-adhUrI bAta sunakara hI nAca utthii|' lakSmaNa kahate haiM - 'mA~! kyA Apako patA hai ki Apake caraNa suMdara kyoM haiM ?' sItA bolI - 'nahIM, mujhe to nahIM ptaa|' lakSmaNa bole, 'mA~! Apake caraNa isalie suMdara haiM, kyoMki Apa prabhu ke caraNoM kA anugamana karatI hai|' yaha sunakara rAma prasanna ho ge| bole - 'dekhA, maiMne to pahale hI kahA thA ki mere caraNa suMdara haiN|' tabhI lakSmaNa bole, 'bhagavan ! Apa bhI AdhI-adhUrI bAta sunakara prasanna ho ge|' lakSmaNa ne rAma se pUchA - 'bhagavan ! Apako mAlUma hai, Apake caraNa suMdara kyoM haiM ?' rAma ne kahA, 'nahIM, mujhe to nahIM maaluum|' lakSmaNa ne kahA - 'prabhu! Apake caraNa nahIM, apitu ApakA AcaraNa suMdara hai aura ApakA AcaraNa suMdara hai isalie Apake caraNa suMdara haiN|' hama zikSA ko prApta karake use jIvana ke sAtha jor3ane kA prayAsa kareM tabhI hamArA AcaraNa pavitra hogA jisase suMdara jIvana kA nirmANa hogaa|suNdr jIvana apane Apa meM deza kI sabase bar3I sevA hai aura Izvara kI sarvopari pUjA hai|) 40/ For Personal & Private Use Only

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vyasana + phaizana = TeMzana sadA yAda rakheM ki burAI ke tyAga kA saMkalpa vastuoM ko bheMTa karane se adhika zreSTha hai / suMdara vAkya hai 'dullahe khalu mANuse bhave' arthAt manuSya janma atyanta durlabha hai| sabhI zAstroM evaM dharmaguruoM kA eka hI kathana hai durlabha manuSya jIvana se uttama dharma kA pAlana karo, zreSTha AcaraNa karo / jIvana kalyANa kI zreSTha bAteM bAra-bAra sunane ke bAvaz2Uda bhI manuSya ajJAna evaM AsAktivaza zarIra kA poSaNa karane meM use sajAne-saMvArane meM apanA samaya vyatIta karatA hai, para AtmA ko puSTa karanA bhUla jAtA hai / Aja kA manuSya jisa ora tIvratA se agrasara ho rahA hai vaha hai vyasana aura phaishn| ye donoM mAnava jIvana ke mahAroga hai| manuSya eka bAra yadi inheM pakar3a letA hai to chor3atA nahIM hai| yuvatI phaizana meM DUba rahI hai aura yuvaka vyasana meM / vaha ina donoM mahArogoM meM mAtra guNa hI dekhatA hai / inake prati doSa dRSTi banda ho jAtI hai| roga dRSTi aisI hai jo ki isase hone vAle ahita kA ciMtana karane nahIM detI hai / 1 vyasana kA artha hai burI Adata / 'vyasyati puruSaM zreyasa : iti-vyasanam' vyakti ko kalyANa mArga se vicalita karane vAle kArya vyasana haiM / manuSya | 41 For Personal & Private Use Only

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viSaya-sukha kI abhilASA se jisa akaraNIya kArya ko karatA hai vaha vyasana hI hai / sAmAnyatayA jo manuSya ko vyasta kare vaha vyasana hai / satkAryoM meM vyasta rahanA sadvyasana aura asatkarma meM laganA kuvyasana hai / kuvyasana pahale prANI ko lubhAte haiM, mohita karate haiM phira usake prANoM taka kA haraNa kara lete haiM / jaise anAja meM ghuna laga jAtA hai to vaha usa anAja ko khokhalA kara dete haiM usI prakAra vyasana manuSya ke zarIra ko cUsakara usako nisteja aura khokhalA kara dete haiM / yaha eka cepI roga hai jo pahale kisI mitra yA sAtha meM rahane vAle ke kusaMga se lagatA hai phira vaha dhIre-dhIre sabako apane grAsa meM le letA hai / isase guNoM ke sAtha vrata, tapa, teja naSTa ho jAte haiM / vyasana kA varNana karate hue nItikAroM ne kahA hai - duHkhAni teja janyante, jalAnIvAmbu vAhinA / vratAni tena dhUyante, rajAMsi bharutA yathA // jaise jala ke srota se jala prApta hotA hai vaise hI vyasanoM se du:kha prApta hote haiN| jaise vAyu se dhUli ur3a jAtI hai vaise hI vyasanoM se vrata dhUmila ho jAte haiM / vyasana meM DUbane para vyakti usase ubharane kI to koziza karatA nahIM hai / apitu jo use vyasana mukta hone kA sandeza detA hai usake samakSa kutarka karatA hai aisA huA, IsA masIha kA eka bhakta thA / jo roz2a girijAghara meM jAkara prArthanA karatA thaa| dayA- bhAva se yukta hone ke kAraNa g2arIboM kI bahuta sevA karatA thaa| lekina usameM zarAba pIne kI bahuta burI Adata thI / usake asvastha rahane para use DAkTaroM ne zarAba pIne se manA kiyA parantu apanI Adata ke Age maz2abUra thA / eka bAra vaha apane phaimilI DAkTara ke sAtha hoTala meM gyaa| vahA~ bhojana lene ke pazcAt usane zarAba maMgAyI aura pInI zurU kara dii| DAkTara ne kahA yadi Apa apanA bhalA cAhate haiM to ise chor3a deM yaha ApakI jAnI duzmana hai / DaoNkTara sAhaba kI bAta sunakara vyakti ne gaMbhIra hokara kahA sAhaba! ApakA kathana bilkula sahI hai| mujhe yaha mAlUma hai ise pIne se merI bImArI bar3ha rahI hai aura umra ghaTa rahI hai, para maiM bhI kyA kruuN| maiM maz2abUra hU~ / mere 42 | For Personal & Private Use Only - DAkTara -

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jIvana sarvasva, ArAdhyadeva mahAprabhu Izu ne kahA - 'duzmana ke sAtha bhI dostI rkho|' Apa hI batAie isa jAne duzmana zarAba kA maiM kaise tyAga kara duuN| isase kaise zatrutA rkhuu| yadi maiM isake sAtha mitratA nahIM rakhUgA to prabhu ke vacanoM kA ullaMghana hogaa| isalie maiM ise chor3a nahIM sktaa| . ____ manuSya kI aisI kutarka bharI dharma kI bAteM karanA durbhAgya hai| jaba hamArA apanI indriyoM para niyaMtraNa nahIM rahatA hai, hama vyasana, vAsanA ke gulAma hote haiM, to isI prakAra kI sthiti hotI hai| yadi hama svataH kisI burAI kA tyAga nahIM kara sakate haiM to hameM preraNA prApta karake sva viveka se burAI kA tyAga avazya karanA caahie| aise bhI aneka avasara hue haiM jisameM kaiyoM ne burAI kA tyAga karake sva kalyANa kiyA hai| eka dhanADhya vyakti kI zAdI huii| usane apane parivAra kI prathA ke anusAra patnI ko zIze meM jar3A huA eka patra bheMTa svarUpa bhejaa| navavivAhitA ne jaise hI vaha patra par3hA vaha harSa se nAca utthii| saba apane mana meM socane lage aisA kyA upahAra milA hai jisako prApta kara yaha itanI qhuza ho rahI hai ki jitanI to apanI zAdI ke samaya para bhI khuza nahIM thii| sabhI ne dikhAne ko kahA pahale to usane yaha gupta rakhane ko khaa| phira usane kahA - merA jIvana Aja dhanya ho gayA hai isase bar3A upahAra mere lie kucha bhI nahIM hai| maiM hI ise par3hatI hU~ usane batAyA isa patra meM likhA hai ki 'maiM bahuta zarAba pItA huuN| suhAgarAta ke dina bheMTa rUpa meM maiM yaha pratijJA karatA hU~ ki maiM jIvana kI sabase bar3I burAI zarAba kA Aja se tyAga karatA huuN|' sadA yAda rakheM burAI ke tyAga kI bheMTa vastuoM ke bheMTa karane se adhika zreSTha hai| juA, mAMsa-bhakSaNa, surApAna, vezyAgamana, corI, zikAra aura parastrI gamana ye sAta vyasana barbAdI ke kAraNa hai| ina sAta meM se eka vyasana kA bhI jo sevana karatA hai vaha sabhI ke upahAsa kA pAtra banatA hai| ___hara koI aise vyaktiyoM se apanA piNDa chur3AnA cAhatA hai patnI aise pati se, putra aise pitA se, aise bhAI yA mitra se nafarata karane lagate haiM kyoMki yaha sabakI tabAhI kA, parezAnI kA, ciMtA kA, badanAmI kA kAraNa bana jAtA hai| aisA huA eka zarAbI ne akhabAra par3hate hue apanI patnI se kahA : Aja khabara | 43 For Personal & Private Use Only

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chapI hai ki apanI kaoNlonI meM zarAba kI dukAna se z2aharIlI zarAba pIne se bIsa zarAbI mara ge| patnI ne kahA : maiMne kitanI bAra kahA hai tumase, apanI kaoNlonI kI dukAna ke alAvA zarAba mata piyA karo lekina tuma ho ki sunate hI nhiiN| aba maukA gayA na hAtha se| aise logoM ke dimAka kA divAlA bhI nikala jAtA hai eka AdamI ko bar3hiyA kisma kI zarAba upahAra meM milii| vaha bar3e utsAha ke sAtha nAcatAkUdatA ghara jA rahA thaa| botala milane kI khuzI meM vaha itanA magana ho gayA ki sAmane se AtI huI moTarasAikila vAlA use Takkara mAra gyaa| vaha utthaa| sar3aka pAra kara rahA thA ki use mahasUsa huA ki usake paira se kucha garma-sI cIz2a baha rahI hai| vaha bhagavAna se prArthanA karane lagA. 'he bhagavAna, kAza ye khana ho|' agara iMsAna cAhe to acchI AdatoM ko apanAkara prabhu bana sakatA hai nahIM to ye vyasana use pazu banAkara chor3a dete haiM / eka vyasanI ne pUchA - AdamI aura jAnavara meM kyA aMtara hai ? maiMne kahA - AdamI agara zarAba pI le, to jAnavara bana jAtA hai, lekina jAnavara ko zarAba pilAo, vaha AdamI nahIM bana sktaa| __ ataeva durlabha prApya mAnava jIvana ko saphala evaM sArthaka banAne ke lie vyasanoM se mukta rahanA atyanta Avazyaka hai| vyasana-mukta jIvana hI sArthaka hai| ye vyasana apane sAtha anya durvyasanoM ko bhI le Ate haiN| guTakA, jardA, zarAba, bhAMga, aphIma, carasa, gAMjA Adi jitane bhI nazIle padArtha haiM ye hamAre svAsthya para isa prakAra kA AkramaNa karate haiM ki vyakti ilAja karAte-karAte taMga A jAte haiN| pahale ina vastuoM ke bhakSaNa meM phira inase huI bImAriyoM ke ilAja meM paisA pAnI kI taraha bahAte haiM, para apane khoye hue samaya, AnaMda evaM svAsthya ko punaH prApta nahIM kara sakate haiM / vyasanoM meM paise kA durupayoga karatekarate vyakti daridra ho jAtA hai, svAsthya ke abhAva meM vaha jIvana meM parizrama nahIM kara pAtA hai phira pariNAmasvarUpa yahIM se zurU hote haiM kalaha, dveSa, jhagar3e, tanAva aadi| nazIlI vastuoM kA sevana manuSya ko gaira jimmedAra, AlasI, pramAdI, dharmadhyAna ke prati arucivAlA evaM asaMyamI banA detA hai| vyakti na kevala mAnavatA ko varan deza hita ko bhI vyasana ke calate tilAMjali de detA hai| eka vyakti ne kala batAyA ki vaha pichale somavAra ko 44 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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baiMka meM paise jamA karavAne gayA thaa| somavAra hone ke kAraNa kaiza kAuMTara para bhIr3a thii| jaba merI bArI AI, to maiMne dekhA ki kaiziyara mahodaya ne jeba se guTakhe kA paikeTa nikAlA aura mu~ha meM DAla liyaa| caMda sekeMDa bAda hI unhoMne lAla pIka kebina para thUka dii| jaba maiMne unheM manA kiyA, to ve bole, 'kyA yaha tumhArA ghara hai ?' unakI bAta se mujhe itanA duHkha nahIM huA jitanA unakI soca pr| kyA yahI hamArA karttavya hai, hamArI naitikatA hai ? hama apane gharoM ko svaccha rakhate haiM, para sArvajanika sampatti ko nukasAna pahu~cAne meM koI kasara nahIM chodd'te| yadi hama hI deza kI sampatti ke sAtha aise khilavAr3a kareMge, to dUsaroM ko kisa mu~ha se manA kareMge ? zAstroM meM sAta vyasana batAe gae haiM, para Aja sAta kyA anaginata vyasana hote jA rahe haiN| naye-naye vyasana ghusate jA rahe haiM jo vyakti ko adha: patana kI ora le jAte haiM / vyasana koI bhI ho duHkha meM DAlane vAlA hai, zreya mArga se girAne vAlA hai| indriyoM evaM mana para saMyama nahIM rakhane se vyakti durvyasana ke garta meM giratA jAtA hai / bAr3ha kA rUpa dhAraNa karatI huI nadI kI tIvra dhArA jaise kinAroM ko kATa detI hai vaise hI vyasana mAnava jIvana ke guNa, teja, Atmazakti ke taTa kA hrAsa kara dete haiM / isa kaTAva se vyakti kA jIvana nIrasa, tejahIna evaM phIkA ho jAtA hai / usakI zrI evaM buddhi donoM naSTa hotI hai| viveka evaM vikAsa kA mArga avaruddha ho jAtA hai / mana kI zAMti aura cehare kI kAMti donoM naSTa ho jAtI hai / AtmA kI svAbhAvika jyoti aura nirmalatA AcchAdita ho jAtI hai / Aja kA mAnava ArAdhanA ko chor3akara vAsanA aura phaizana kA gulAma banatA jA rahA hai kucha hada taka bana cukA hai| jaba taka hama vAsanA, vyasana, phaizana ke makar3ajAla se mukta nahIM hoMge taba taka upAsanA ke kSetra meM praveza nahIM kara sakeMge / itihAsa isa bAta kA sAkSI hai ki vyasana, phaizana ne apane AkarSaNa meM jIvoM ko pha~sAkara aneka jIvoM ko viSa pAna karAkara unake jIvana ko barbAda kiyA hai / phira bhI Azcarya hai ki zakti saMpanna mAnava isake jAla se mukta hone kA koI parAkrama kyoM nahIM karatA hai / eka vyakti ko katla ke mukadame meM sezana nyAyAlaya se AjIvana For Personal & Private Use Only | 45

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kArAvAsa kI sajA ho gaI thI / Aja ucca nyAyAlaya ne usakI apIla svIkArate hue use katla ke Aropa se barI kara diyaa| vaha qhuzI se jhUma utthaa| usane phona para apane gaiMga ke sadasyoM aura parijanoM ko sUcanA dI ki zAma taka vaha ghara pahu~ca rahA hai / pArTI kI taiyArI kara leN| barI hone kI qhuzI meM usane jama kara zarAba pI aura TaiksI kAra se apane gA~va kI ora cala pdd'aa| rAste meM vaha kAra kI dhImI gati se bAra-bAra jhuMjhalAne lagA aura aMta meM TaiksI cAlaka ko eka bhaddI-sI gAlI dete hue use z2abaradastI haTAkara qhuda kAra ko teja gati se laharAte hue calAne lgaa| kucha dera bAda hI vaha kAra para niyaMtraNa nahIM rakha sakA aura kAra sar3aka kinAre eka per3a se TakarA kara ulaTa gii| sira meM bhArI coTa ke kAraNa vaha mauke para hI mara gyaa| zAma ko usake parijana va mitra, kula qarIba savA - Der3ha sau loga, usake ghara para mAlAe~ lie usake svAgatArtha iMtajAra meM khar3e the zAma ko usakA mAlyArpaNa to huA lekina usake zava para / ye vyasana janma lete haiM hamAre netroM meM, rahate haiM dila meM, bar3hate haiM indriyoM ke saMsarga se aura marate haiM upAsanA ke ghara meM / isakA pratyakSa udAharaNa hamAre sAmane hai - rAvaNa kI A~kha bigar3I, mana bigar3A, vicAra bigar3e, bhASA bigar3I, jIvana bigar3A aura sampUrNa parivAra dekhate hI dekhate samApta ho gayA / yahA~ taka ki rAvaNa kA nAma bhI bigar3a gyaa| loga apanI saMtAna kA nAma rAma, kRSNa, bharata Adi to rakhate haiM para kisI ne apane bacce kA nAma Aja taka rAvaNa nahIM rakhA hai| kaI loga kahate haiM mahArAja zrI hamane puNya kiyA hai tabhI to hameM dhanadaulata milI hai / hama isakA upabhoga karake sukha prApta hI to kara rahe haiN| ve yaha nahIM jAnate ki vaha puNya kisa kAma kA jo hameM vyasanoM meM pha~sAkara barbAda kare / puNya vahI upAdeya hai jisase dharma Adi meM buddhi banI rhe| jo hameM durgati se bacAve | eka sAdhu bhojana karane kahIM jA rahe the / unhoMne dekhA eka zarAba kI dukAna para kucha vyakti paraspara atyanta prema evaM harSa ke sAtha zarAba pI rahe the / saMnyAsI guNa grAhaka vyaktitva kA dhanI thA usake mana meM vicAra AyA re mana ! prema sIkhanA hai to inase siikh| itanA prema to mere bhI mana meM nahIM hai| bhojana karane 46| For Personal & Private Use Only

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ke bAda ve vApisa lauTe to dekhA ki ve vyakti Apasa meM mArapITa, gAlI-galauja kara rahe the, phira unhoMne socA aisA prema kisa kAma kA jo sva-para ko duHkha meM DAla de| dhana-vaibhava kA upayoga,vyasana, phaizana, vilAsitA Adi meM karanA g2alata hai| dhArmika prabhAvanA, Atma kalyANa, dIna duHkhI kI sahAyatA ke kSetra dhanasadupayoga ke kSetra haiN| hama vyasana meM pha~sakara tanAva, azAMti, daridratA ko to bulAvA de rahe haiM sAtha hI asAdhya rogoM ke jarie mauta ko bhI bulAvA de rahe haiN| isase lobhI nirdayI DaoNkTaroM ke ghara bhI bhara rahe haiM tathA unake vicAroM ko kutsita bhI kara rahe jaTAzaMkara sigareTa, tambAkU, guTakhe kA vyasanI thaa| vaha rAste meM khoyA huA jA rahA thaa| use talaba lgii| usane jeba meM hAtha DAlA usakI donoM jeba khAlI thii| usane Asa-pAsa naz2ara daudd'aaii| eka sUTeDa AdamI naz2ara AyA vaha usake pAsa jAne meM pahale to hicakicAyA para bAda meM gyaa| jaTAzaMkara ne kahA - mahAzaya Apake pAsa guTakhA yA bIr3I hai| usa vyakti ne jeba meM hAtha DAlakara cAra-pA~ca guTakhe kI pUDI aura bIr3I kA baMDala thamAte hue kahA lo ye khAte-pIte rhnaa| jaTAzaMkara Azcarya meM par3a gyaa| usane kahA - mahAzaya! Apa to bahuta hI udAra haiM / ApakI mere se koI jAna-na-pahacAna / phira bhI..... usa vyakti ne kahA meM udAra nahIM huuN| maiM peze se DaoNkTara hU~ aura mere beTe ke davAI kI dukAna hai| maiM marIjoM ko bIr3I, sigareTa, guTakhe ke nukasAna batAtA thaka gyaa| eka-eka marIja para Adhe se eka ghaMTA detA tabhI marIja dekha pAtA thaa| isase merA dhaMdhA bigar3ane lagA tathA mere putra kI dukAna para bikrI kama hone lgii|hmne socA vyasana ke cakkara meM pha~sA AdamI nahIM saMbhala rahA hai, to hama kyoM na saMbhala kara apanA ghara bhreN| isalie guTakhA Adi bA~TatA huuN| pracAra karatA huuN| jisase merA aMdhA acchI taraha se cle| yadi loga inakA upayoga nahIM kareMge to kaiMsara nahIM hogaa| kaiMsara nahIM hogA to merA aura mere bacce kA vyApAra banda ho jaaegaa| DaoNkTara ke isa vyaMgyabANa ko vaha vyakti samajha gayA aura usane guTakhe | 47 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kI puDiyA tathA bIr3I kA baNDala usI DAkTara ke sAmane nAlI meM DAla diyaa| ___ hama bAra-bAra DaoNkTara ke samajhAne para bhI, vijJApana dekhakara, inase hone vAle nukasAna ko pratyakSa meM dekhakara bhI inako chor3a nahIM rahe haiN| hama svayaM hI bImArI ke kharIdadAra ho rahe haiM / isameM doSa kisI aura kA nahIM hai, hamArA apanA hai| bImAriyoM ke saudAgara cAroM ora khar3e haiM / lubhAvanI aura AkarSaka paikiMga evaM yojanAoM ke saath| hameM jAgarUka rahanA hai - AkarSaNa meM pha~sanA nahIM hai| vyasana aura phaizana manuSya ko svabhAvata: vinAza kI ora le jAte haiM aura zIla aura saMyama sRjana kI or| eka marusthala hai dUsarA suhAnA udyaan| eka zavayAtrA hai, dUsarI zivayAtrA hai| eka meM svabhAvikatA kA kSaraNa hai dUsare meM mukti kA varaNa hai / vikalpa Apake hAtha meM hai kise cuneN| _____ maiM Apako aba eka aise zakhsa ke bAre meM jAnakArI dUMgI jo phuTapAtha se uThakara apane camatkArika khela kI badaulata arabapati banA, magara vyasana aura phaizana kI mazagulatA ke calate Aja vaha dAne-dAne ko mohatAja ho gayA hai| Apane sunA hogA mAika TAyasana ko hAla meM giraphtAra kiyA gyaa| una para naze kI hAlata meM gAr3I calAne aura kokina rakhane kA Aropa lgaa| hAlAMki, kucha samaya bAda hI unakI rihAI ho gaI, lekina unakA adAlata ke cakkara lagAne kA silasilA aba bhI jArI hai| isa zakhsa ne kabhI sabase kama umra (20 varSa 4 mAha) meM vizva haivIveTa caimpiyana bana duniyA ko sakate meM DAla diyA thaa| TAyasana ne apane pahale 19 mukAbaloM meM ekataraphA jIta darja kI, aura isa khela ke jariye kula 1800 karor3a rupae baTore, lekina vyasana va phaizana parasta jIvana-zailI ke kAraNa Aja yaha paise-paise ko mohatAja hai, aura lAsa vegAsa (amerIkA) ke eka kesIno meM logoM kA manoraMjana karate dekhA jA sakatA hai, aura pariNAma dekhie yahA~ Ane vAle bhI use koI tavajjoM nahIM dete| TAyasana apane rahana-sahana para hara mAha karIba 1.8 karor3a kharca karatA thaa| 1992 meM unheM eka pUrva suMdarI se balAtkAra ke Aropa meM giraphtAra kiyA gayA, aura chaha varSa kI sajA sunAI gaI, magara unheM tIna varSa bAda hI maI 1995 meM rihA kara diyA thaa| eka varSa bAda TAyasana phira se riMga meM utare, 1997 meM unakA iMvADara holIphIlDa se bahucarcita mukAbalA huaa|maic ke daurAna unhoMne 48 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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holI phIlDa ke donoM kAna cabA DAle, aura maica raipharI ne unheM ayogya ghoSita kara diyaa| TAyasana kA keriyara utAra para thA, magara unake kharce bar3ha rahe the / unakA apane para niyaMtraNa samApta ho rahA thA / isI kA natIjA ki 1999 meM mArapITa ke Aropa meM unheM phira giraphtAra kara liyA gayA, aura pUre nau mahIne jela meM kATane pdd'e| jela se rihA hone ke bAda TAyasana ne haivIveTa caimpiyana noksa luIsa se lar3ane kI khvAhiza jAhira kI, magara nevAdA baoNksiMga kamIzana ne una para balAtkAra ke AropoM ko dekhate hue lAiseMsa dene se inakAra kara diyaa| usa samaya unakI kula sampatti mahaz2a pAMca haz2Ara DAlara raha gaI thI / isake bAda bhI TAyasana kaI dafA riMga meM utare, magara unheM kAmayAbI nahIM milii| 11 jUna, 2004 ko eka mukAbale ke daurAna TAyasana ne acAnaka baoNksiMga se saMnyAsa lene kA phaisalA kara duniyA ko cauMkA diyaa| yUesae TuDe ko die eka iMTaravyUha meM TAyasana ne apanI nirAzA kucha isa taraha jAhira kI, 'merA pUrA jIvana vyartha ho cukA hai| maiM vyasana - phaizana parasta z2iMdagI ke calate viphala ho cukA huuN| mujhe qhuda se aura merI z2iMdagI se Dara lagane lagA hai|' TAyasana jaba yaha iMTaravyU de rahe the, una para karIba 150 karor3a rupae kA RNa bakAyA thaa| aba ve kaisIno aura hoTaloM meM manoraMjana karake apanI z2iMdagI guz2Ara rahe haiM ye hai vyasana aura phaizana kA pariNAma | Apa dekha rahe haiM Aja phaizana bhI bhArata meM eka roga banatA jA rahA hai / jisake kAraNa haz2AroM parivAra tabAha ho gae haiM aura ho rahe haiN| Aja kulIna ghara kI beTI- -bahU bhI philmI abhinetriyoM kI taraha rahana-sahana meM bAjI mArane lagI hai| unake khAne meM phaizana, pIne meM phaizana, vastra pahanane meM phaizana, bolacAla rahana-sahana Adi ke sAtha sabhI kSetroM meM phaizana jIvana kA aMga bana gayA hai| yuvaka vyasana meM, yuvatI phaizana meM, pariNAma pUrA parivAra TeMzana meN| hAla hI meM amerikI rASTrapati jArjabuza ne laMdana nyUja sAkSAtkAra meM batAyA ki agara ve z2iMdagI meM bhayaMkara lata bana cukI zarAba ko nahIM chor3ate to ve kabhI-bhI rASTrapati pada taka nahIM pahu~ca paate| yaha mere keriyara kA sabase mAinasa paoNiMTa bana gayA thA, jisake kAraNa mujhe kahIM jagaha karArI zikasta khAnI pdd'ii| ataH maiMne maz2abUta saMkalpa lekara isako chor3a diyaa| isI saMkalpa Aja mujhe duniyA kA zaMhazAha banA diyaa| maiM apanI ora se pratyeka amerikI For Personal & Private Use Only | 49

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nAgarikoM ko sAvadhAna karanA cAhU~gA ki vaha apane jIvana meM ina vyasanoM ke cakkara meM uljhe| yaha hamAre ghara, parivAra, ijjata, keriyara aura mastIbharI jiMdagI ko tabAha kara detA hai| kyA hama bhAratavAsI isa para gaura kareMge? yuvAoM ko maiM nivedana karU~gI ki ve isa katle z2ahara se dUra raheM aura jo isa z2ahara ko pI rahe haiM unheM isase mukta hone kI preraNA deM aura vyasana-phaizana yukta sarakArI nItiyoM kA jamakara virodha kareM tAki deza va vizva kI Ana-bAna-zAna ko bacAyA jA ske| eka bAra jArja barnADe zA ko eka mahilA ne rAtri bhojana hetu nimaMtrita kiyaa| kAphI vyasta hone ke bAvajUda bhI unhoMne nimaMtraNa svIkAra kara liyaa| atyadhika vyasta hone ke kAraNa barnArDa zA kA jaise hI kArya samApta huaa| sIdhe usa mahilA ke ghara ge| unheM dekhate hI pahale to mahilA kI A~kheM qhuzI se camaka uThI kintu agale hI kSaNa usake cehare para nirAzA ke bhAva chA ge| usakA kAraNa thA ki zA atyanta mAmUlI vastra pahane hue the| usa aurata ne zA se kAraNa jJAta karanA caahaa| unhoMne kahA dera ho jAne ke kAraNa vastra badalane kA samaya nahIM mila paayaa| phira vastroM se kyA hotA hai? vaha mahilA nahIM maanii| usane kahA merA anurodha hai Apa jAkara acche vastra pahanakara aaie| zA ne kahA ThIka hai - yaha kahakara vaha apane ghara cale ge| bahuta kImatI vastra pahanakara Ae yaha dekha mahilA atyanta prasanna huii| ___bhojana prAraMbha hue thor3I dera ho gaI thii| sabhI zaoN se milanA cAhate the| sabane acAnaka dekhA ki zA AisakrIma tathA anya khAne kI cIz2oM ko vastroM para pota rahe haiN| sAtha hI kaha rahe haiM - bhojana karo mere kapar3oM, bhojana kro| tuma qImatI ho isalie tumhArA mUlya hai| nimaMtraNa tumhIM ko milA hai isalie bhojana bhI tuma hI kro| saba kahane lage - zaoN sAhaba Apa yaha kyA kara rahe haiM ? zaoN ne kahA- maiM vahI kara rahA hU~ mitroM jo mujhe karanA caahie| yahA~ nimaMtraNa mujhe nahIM mere vastroM ko milA hai| isalie Aja kA khAnA mere vastra hI kreNge| unake yaha kahate hI pArTI meM sannATA chA gyaa| nimaMtraNa dene vAlI mahilA kI zarmiMdagI kI sImA nahIM rhii| vaha samajha cukI thI ki vyakti kA mUlyAMkana vastroM se nahIM hotaa| pratibhA 50 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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se, guNoM se, saMskAroM se hotA hai| vastroM kA nirmANa huA thA tana Dhakane ke lie, para Aja phaizana kI yaha hAlata ho gaI hai ki striyoM ke, lakar3iyoM ke vastra sikuDate jA rahe haiM, tana khulatA jA rahA hai| TI.vI. kI bar3hatI saMskRti videzoM se naye-naye phaizana kA AyAta kara rahI hai| cAhe isa phaizana ke kAraNa zuddha dharma samApta ho jaae| zarIra mahAroga kA ghara bana rahA hai| manuSya kSaNika vaiSayika sukhoM kI cakAcauMdha meM zAzvata sukha ko vismRta kara rahA hai| vaha phaizana ke mAdhyama se apane ahaMkAra kI pratiSThA kI bhUkha ko zAnta kara rahA hai| zAdI-vivAha, baccoM ke janmotsava, gRha-praveza Adi sabhI sthaloM para yahA~ taka ki tapazcaryA, mandira, upAzraya Adi sthaloM para bhI phaizana pareDa hone lagI hai| pradarzana bar3hatA jA rahA hai| rozanI kI jagamaga, bijalI kI cakAcauMdha, philmI nAca-gAnoM kI bharamAra auroM ke sAtha-sAtha svayaM kI zAMti ko bhaMga karatI hai| hamAre sAdharmI bhAI, par3ausI yahA~ taka ki riztedAra parivAra ke hI sadasya g2arIbI se pIr3ita haiM, bhUkha se trasta haiM, tana Dhakane ko vastra nahIM hai, sira chipAne ko chappara nahIM hai, kintu hama phaizana parasta banakara AlIzAna vizAla vAtAnukUlita baMgaloM meM rahate haiM, zarAba ur3Ate haiM, pradarzana, dikhAve meM phijUla kharca karake apane ahaM kA poSaNa karate haiN| hameM donoM mahArogoM se avilamba chuTakArA pAnA caahie| vyasana jahA~ manuSya ko kAle nAga kI taraha DasatA hai vahA~ phaizana manuSya kI svAbhAvikatA para rAkSasa kI taraha AkramaNa karatI hai| ina donoM se manuSya kI sAtvikatA samApta ho rahI hai| yadi Atmonnati karanI hai to donoM se avilamba mukti pAnI hogii| tabhI manuSya mokSapada ke sopAna kI ora agrasara ho skegaa| anyathA ye paga-paga para avarodha utpanna kreNge| ___Aja manuSya ko sUkSma dRSTi se yaha dekhane kI AvazyakatA hai ki usakI jIvana naukA qhataranAka mor3a kI ora agrasara to nahIM ho rahI hai| yadi usa ora bar3ha rahI ho to tatkAla breka laganA cAhie tathA use sahI dizA kI ora agrasara karanA caahie| | 51 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kaise sudhAreM vicAra aura vANI yaha hamAre hAtha meM hai ki hama gale milane kI bAta karate haiM yA galA kATane kii| tattvArtha sUtra meM jIva ke pA~ca bhAva batAe haiM, audayika, aupazamika, kSAyopazamika, kSAyika aura paarinnaamik| jisa prakAra kAra cAlaka AvazyakatAnusAra giyara badalatA hai usI prakAra hamArA mana bhI vicAra rUpa giyara badalatA rahatA hai| yadi cAlaka usa kAra ko calAte samaya bhalI bhA~ti kanTrola nahIM kare to durghaTanA ho sakatI hai| aura yadi manuSya apanI vANI aura vicAra para kanTrola nahIM karegA to aneka duSpariNAma prApta ho sakate haiN| yadi sRSTi meM bhI kanTrola nahIM ho to vahA~ bhI vinAza lIlA hI dRSTi gocara hogii| hamAre sAmane jItA-jAgatA udAharaNa hai hIrozimA aura nAgAsAkI / yaha do bar3e zahara paramANu bama para kanTrola nahIM karane ke kAraNa vinaSTa hue aura aba taka na mAlUma kitane bama visphoTa hokara asaMkhya vyaktiyoM kI jIvana lIlA ko samApta kara rahe haiN| yaha visphoTa hamAre kutsita vicAroM ko kanTrola meM nahIM karane kA pariNAma hai| ThIka isI taraha vyavahArika jiMdagI meM mana aura vANI aniyaMtrita hone se bhayaMkara anartha ho sakate haiN| 52 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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eka saccI ghaTanA hai| yUropa ke eka deza meM do sAmAna rUpa se pratibhAzAlI gAyaka rahate the| ina donoM meM bar3I dostI thii| donoM ne duniyA bhara meM bar3I prasiddhi prApta kI aura dhana bhI kmaayaa| isa saba ke bAvajUda kisI bAta ko lekara donoM meM Thana gii|sulh-sphaaii kI sArI kozizeM bekAra ho gii| donoM ne ghoSaNA kara dI ki aba se ve kabhI eka-dUsare ke sAtha nahIM gaaeNge| sabhI kucha ThIka cala rahA thA ki inameM se eka misTara e ko blaDa kaiMsara ho gyaa|vh aisA samaya thA, jaba isa bImArI kA ilAja amerikA ke aspatAla meM hI ho pAtA thaa| aba isa ilAja meM aura bAra-bAra amerikA kI yAtrAoM ne e ko kaMgAla banA diyaa| unake lie aba Age ilAja karavA pAnA lagabhaga nAmumakina ho gyaa| kucha dostoM kI salAha para usane aisI saMsthAoM kI talAza kI jo sAdhanahIna logoM kI, ilAja meM sahAyatA karatI hai| bhAgya se, eka saMsthA ne use na sirpha madada denA svIkAra kiyA, balki usakI ilAja ke daurAna hara z2arUrata pUrI karane ko dhana bhI diyaa| isa ilAja ke natIje meM e svastha ho gyaa| dhIredhIre usane riyAz2a kara phira se gAnA bhI zurU kara diyaa| aba jaba usake pAsa phira se dhana-daulata kI vApasI huI, to usane socanA ki usI saMsthA kI taraha, jisane usakI madada kI thI, vaha bhI eka saMsthA banAe / isa uddezya se vaha usa saMsthA ke kAryAlaya pahu~cA aura usake gaThana aura kArya paddhati ke lie usake kAg2aja-pattara dekhe, to vaha hairAna raha gyaa| isa saMsthA kA gaThana usake dosta se duzmana bane misTara bI ne kiyA thA aura vaha bhI usake bImAra hone ke baad| usane isa bAta kA bhI pukhtA iMtaz2Ama kiyA thA ki isa bAta kA patA e ko bilkula na lge| usI zAma jaba bI eka kAryakrama de rahA thA, e sIdhe maMca para car3ha gayA aura hAla meM baiThe sAre logoM ke sAmane ghuTanoM ke bala khar3e hokara bI se mAphI mA~gI aura usakA zukriyA adA kiyaa|bii ne use uThAkara gale lagA liyaa| bI ne zrotAoM se kahA ki vaha maz2abUra thaa| vaha eka sAtha do cIjeM khone ko taiyAra nahIM thaa| eka dosta aura dUsarA itanA khUbasUrata gaayk| donoM gale mila ge| | 53 For Personal & Private Use Only

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eka ora bI donoM Aja bhI apanI saMsthAoM ke jarie z2arUratamaMda logoM kI sahAyatA kara rahe haiN| iMsAna jaisA mana se socatA hai aura vANI se bolatA hai vaise hI pariNAma use prApta huA karate haiM / aba yaha hamAre hAtha meM hai ki hama gale milane kI bAta karate haiM yA galA kATane kI / merI samajha meM sRSTi meM koI bhI vastu sarvathA heya yA upAdeya nahIM hai / upayoga ke AdhAra para heya - upAdeya bhAva AdhArita hai jaise agni acchI bhI hai aura burI bhI / dIpaka acchA bhI hai aura burA bhii| jaba agni khAnA banAne ke kAma Ave yA usakA sadupayoga ho to vaha acchI hai / kintu usase ruI ke godAma meM Aga laga jAe to vaha agni burI hai| dIpaka prakAza kare, aMdhakAra meM adhyayana meM sahAyaka ho to vaha acchA hai / kintu vahI dIpaka pustaka ko jalA de to burA hai| isI prakAra vANI hai, zabda hai / ye svayaM meM na to acche haiM na hI bure / jinendra kA guNagAna karane meM kisI ko sanmArga dikhAne meM, sammAna karane meM zabda upAdeya hai aura kisI ko gAlI de to zabda heya hai| kisI ko 'rAma' kahane se vyakti qhuza hotA hai 'rAvaNa' kahate hI jhagar3A ho jAtA hai| eka zabda se qhuzI hai eka se duHkha hai / zabda kA acchA burA honA upayoga karane vAle para nirbhara hai 1 yahI vANI jaba bhagavAna mahAvIra jaise tIrthaMkara puruSoM ke mukha se nikalatI hai to kaiyoM kA jIvana badala detI hai aura hiTalara, saddAma yA rAja ThAkare ke mu~ha se nikalatI hai to kaiyoM kA jIvana samApta kara detI hai / D aksara hama kisI bhI cIz2a kI burAI ko dhar3alle aura bebAkI se kara jAte haiM lekina kisI ke utsAhavardhana ke lie hamArI z2ubAna se zabda bar3I muzkila se nikalate haiN| yAda rakhie kisI kI tArIpha meM bole gae kucha utsAhavardhaka zabda z2iMdagI taka badala dene kI kSamatA rakhate haiN| vahIM kisI ko vyaMgyabANoM se dharAzAyI karanA isakA viparIta pariNAma detA hai| are vAha ! zarmA jI Aja to Apa sahI samaya para oNphisa A ge| bhaI, bahuta bar3hiyA / leTalatIpha zarmAjI ne jaise hI baoNsa ke mu~ha se ye bAta sunI, qhuza ho ge| usa dina ke bAda ve pUrI koziza karane lage oNphisa meM niyata samaya para pahu~ca jAne kii| isameM sahI kAma karane para tArIfa pAne kA moha to thA hI sAtha hI unheM apane leTalatIpha ke khitAba se bhI mukti mila gii| vahIM dUsarI ora zarmAjI kI hI taraha oNphisa dera se pahu~cane ke AdI nArAyaNa kA svAgata kiyaa| vAha ! 54 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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nArAyaNa Aja to sUrya nArAyaNa pazcima se nikala AyA jo samaya para tuma A ge| vahA~ maujUda sAre loga baoNsa kI isa bAta para khilakhilAkara ha~sa par3e aura nArAyaNa mAyUsa ho gyaa| Aja usane yadi koI acchI Adata apanAnI cAhI to use pratiphala ke rUpa meM tArIpha nahIM balki vyaMgyabANa sunane ko mile| kAza! nArAyaNa ke baoNsa zarmAjI ke sAhaba kI taraha do mIThe bola kaha dete to use bhI acchI Adata apanAne kI preraNA miltii| ___ manuSya vivekI hai| yadi koI choTA baccA kisI jAnavara ko satAtA hai, patthara mAratA hai to usa bacce ko mAtA-pitA kahate haiM beTA ! aisA mata kro| aisA karanA acchA nahIM hai| use zikSita karate haiN| galata kAma karane ke lie manA karate haiM, para yadi eka zikSita vyakti hI gAliyA~ dene laga jAe, mArapITa kare to zikSita evaM ajJAnI meM kyA antara raha jaaegaa| Aja hama dekha rahe haiM agni kA prayoga sArvajanika sarakArI sampatti, kAryAlayoM Adi ko jalAne meM kiyA jA rahA hai| sarvatra tor3aphor3a karate hue Aga lagAkara saba kucha svAhA karane vAle vidyArthI yadi apane ajJAna ko jalAe~ge to ve jJAnI bana jAe~ge, para viDambanA hai vaha apane ajJAna ko Aga nahIM lagAte, ajJAna kA nivAraNa karake jJAna ke prakAza ko prasArita karane vAle vidyAlaya-mahAvidyAlayoM ko Aga lagAte haiN| zreSTha kAryoM ke lie vicAroM ko zreSTha rakhanA hogaa| isa hetu vicAra aura vANI para aMkuza honA atyanta Avazyaka hai| yadi Apa vANI aura vicAroM kI pavitratA ko sthAyI banAnA cAhate haiM to sarvaprathama hameM vicAra aura vANI ke strota ko DhU~r3hanA caahie| vicAra kA strota mana hai, vANI kA udgamasthala vacana hai| mana se hI sampUrNa zubha-azubha vicAra utpanna hote haiM aura vANI se acchebure vacana nikalate haiM / jaisA hamArA mana hogA vaise hI vacana hoNge| mana ko zreSTha vicAroM hetu abhyasta kiyA jAe, AdhyAtmika ciMtana, sva-para kalyANa ke ciMtana kA AdhAra banAyA jAe prazikSaNa se pavitra kiyA jAe to niHsandeha yaha apavitra, ahitakArI manana ciMtana nahIM kregaa| jaba mana uttama hogA to vicAra bhI uttama hoNge| hameM mana ko bure vicAroM se haTAkara susaMskRta karanA caahie| dRr3hatApUrvaka bure vicAroM ko khader3anA caahie| yadi hama vicAroM aura vANI donoM | 55 For Personal & Private Use Only

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meM hI asAvadhAnI rakhI, durvicAra yA durbhASA ko dUra nahIM kiyA, unheM papolanA zurU kara diyA to ve hamako pachAr3a deMge, hama para hAvI ho jaaeNge| hama lAkha prayatna kareMge phira bhI ve jaldI se bAhara nahIM nikleNge| eka mA~ ne mujhe batAyA ki merA beTA zurU se par3hAI meM kAphI hoziyAra thaa| vaha kakSA meM hamezA prathama AtA thaa| jaba nauvIM kakSA meM hamane usakA dAkhilA dUsare skUla meM karavAyA, to usakI dostI eka aise lar3ake se ho gaI, jo par3hAI meM kamaz2ora thA aura bAtUnI thaa| vaha kisI-na-kisI bahAne hamAre ghara A jAtA thA aura apanA va mere beTe kA samaya barbAda krtaa| vArSika parIkSA ke natIje meM mere beTe kI dvitIya zreNI AI, jise dekhakara maiM bahuta duHkhI ho gii| mujhe lagA, natIjA bigar3ane kA ekamAtra kAraNa yahI bAtUnI dosta hai| maiMne apane beTe se usa lar3ake kA natIjA pUchA, to patA lagA ki vaha phela ho gayA hai| yaha bAta sunakara, mere mu~ha se nikalA, 'calo, acchA hI huA, kama-se-kama aba to usase pIchA chUTa hI jaaegaa|' / mere ye zabda sunakara merA beTA turaMta bolA, 'mammI, Apane to hamezA mujhe yahI samajhAyA hai ki kisI ke bAre meM burA mata soco, burA mata bolo aura Apa qhuda hI aisA kaha rahI haiN| mere aMka kama Ane para jaba Apa itanI parezAna ho rahI haiM, to usake perenTsa kitanI dukhI hoNge| mammI maiM agale sAla khUba par3hAI karU~gA aura cAhatA hU~ ki vaha bhI par3he aura pAsa ho jaae|' choTe-se bacce ke mu~ha se aisI samajhadArI kI bAta sunakara mujhe apanI kathanI-karanI meM atara kA ahasAsa haa| isa ghaTanA ke bAda maiMne Aja taka kabhI bhI dUsaroM kA burA nahIM socaa| mere se jitanA huA dUsaroM ke lie acchA karane kA prayAsa kiyaa| ___mUMga kA eka dAnA bhI bhUmi meM bo diyA jAe hai to bIja se paudhA bana jAtA hai| paudhe meM phaliyA~ lagatI haiM aneka dAne bana jAte haiN| isI prakAra hamArI eka choTI-sI zubha-azubha bhAvanA se, vicAra se anekAneka zubha-azubha phala prApta ho jAte haiN| bhAvanAoM meM arthAt vicAroM meM adbhuta zakti hotI hai| mahAn vicAra kArya rUpa meM pariNata hone para mahAn karma bana jAte haiM / vicAroM kA jIvana ke sAtha atyanta ghaniSTa sambandha hai| isalie yaha samajha lenA Avazyaka hai ki vicAra adRzya rUpa meM kAma karate haiM aura unase usI prakAra ke pariNAma nikalate 56 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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haiN| vANI para asaMyama anartha evaM vaira kI paramparA ko bar3hAne vAle haiN| yaha zrRMkhalA kaI janmoM taka calatI hai| bandUka kI golI yA talavAra ke prahAra se hone vAlA ghAva to do-tIna mAha meM bhara jAtA hai, parantu tIkhe evaM kaTuvacanoM ke prahAra se hone vAlA ghAva janma-janmAntara taka nahIM bhrtaa| kahate haiM : duryodhana jaba pANDavoM kA navIna bhavya rAjamahala dekhane jAte haiM taba draupadI mahala ke jharokhe meM baiThI huI thii| duryodhana rAjamahala kI isa vizeSatA se anabhijJa the ki kahA~ jala hai kahA~ bhUmi / jahA~ jala thA vo bhUmi-sI pratIta ho rahI thI, jahA~ bhUmi thI vo jala pratIta ho rahA thaa| duryodhana jala ko z2amIna samajhakara kudane lage aura z2amIna ko jala samajhakara zIghratA se calane lage jisase unake kapar3e bhIga ge| draupadI yaha dekhakara ha~satI hai aura vyaMgyapUrNa vANI meM kahatI hai Aqhira aMdhe ke putra aMdhe hI hote haiN|' isa tIvra vyaMgyavacana rUpI bANa se duryodhana ke tana-badana meM Aga laga gii| usane mana-hI-mana draupadI se badalA lene kA vicAra kiyaa| pariNAmasvarUpa usane pANDavoM ko juA khelane ke lie llkaaraa| jue meM hArane para draupadI ko dA~va para rakhA gyaa| use jItakara aura usase badalA lene kI tIvra abhilASA ke anusAra draupadI ko cIraharaNa karane hetu bulvaayaa| jisa mahAbhArata kA bIjAropaNa huA isake pIche vyaMgyapUrNa vANI hI uttaradAyI thii| agara draupadI vANI saMyama rakhatI to yaha anartha nahIM hotaa| ___vANI para saMyama hetu vicAroM kA saMyamita honA atyanta Avazyaka hai| mana kA kAma satat ciMtana-manana karanA tathA socanA vicAranA hai| cAhe vaha acchA vicAra kare yA burA, duzcintana kareM yA sucintana / kucha-na-kucha to karatA hI rahatA hai| agara Apa suvicAra ke dhanI nahIM baneMge to ApakA mana bure vicAroM meM pravRtta hogaa| vicAroM ke strota mana ko sucintana, AdhyAtmika cintana kI ora pravRtta karanA atyanta Avazyaka hai anyathA sAdhu ho yA gRhastha, rAjA ho rNk| sRSTi kA koI bhI jIva ho sabhI ko isake duSpariNAma bhugatane par3ate haiN| ___ daNDakAraNya ke mahArAjA kumbhakAra kI rAnI purandarayaza AcArya skandaka kI bahana thii| eka bAra AcArya skandaka apane pA~ca sau ziSyoM sahita apanI bahana ko pratibodha dene ke lie daNDakAraNya Ae aura zahara kI vATikA meM | 57 For Personal & Private Use Only

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Thahara gae / mahArAja kumbhakAra ke maMtrI pAlaka ne jaise hI AcArya skandaka ko dekhA use apane pUrva ke apamAna kA smaraNa ho gayA ki isane apane gRhastha jIvana meM bharI sabhA meM merA apamAna kiyA thaa| aba merA samaya A gayA hai maiM apane apamAna kA badalA lekara hI rahU~gA / yaha dRr3ha nizcaya karake usane vATikA meM rAtoM rAta pA~ca sau hathiyAra gar3avA die aura rAjA se Akara kahA - mahArAja ! Apake udyAna meM DAkU Akara Thahare haiM ve Apase Apake rAjya ko har3apanA cAhate haiM / rAjA kumbhakAra ne Azcarya cakita hokara kahA - maMtrIvara ! yaha tuma kyA kaha rahe ho / yaha tumhArA bhrama hai| udyAna meM jaina zramaNa Thahare haiM aura unake AcArya skandaka mere sAle haiN| ve DAkU nahIM hai / maMtrI rAjan yadi Apako vizvAsa nahIM ho guptacaroM kI sUcanA ke AdhAra para bhUmi khudavA kara dekha lIjie ki vahA~ hathiyAra gar3e hue haiM yA nahIM ? - kumbhakAra ne vAstavikatA ko jAnane ke lie, saccAI kI parIkSA ke lie prAta: kAla vATikA kI jamIna khudavAI to vahA~ se pA~ca sau hathiyAra prApta hue / rAjA Aga babUlA ho gayA / usakA jJAna tirohita ho gayA / ajJAna ke bAdala chA ge| viveka kA dIpaka bujha gayA aura rAjA kA AcaraNa aMdhA ho gyaa| rAjA ne maMtrI se kahA tumane bahuta bar3e saMkaTa se ubhArA hai / isalie tumhArI icchAnusAra sAdhuoM ke daNDa kI vyavasthA kro| maMtrI kA SaDayaMtra saphala huaa| mana kI murAda pUrNa ho gii| usane yojanA banAI eka kolhU uThAkara turanta udyAna meM pahu~cAyA gayA / jJAniyoM ne kahA ki soca kara samajha kara vicAra kiyA karo / kisI bhI kArya ko ekAeka mata karo, lekina krodhAndha, viSayAndha vyakti kucha nahIM dekhate / 58 prAta:kAla kI belA meM krodha meM dhamadhamAtA pAlaka zAMtipUrvaka adhyayana kara rahe AcArya skandaka ke pAsa gyaa| mahArAja skandhaka, maiM eka-eka sAdhu ko, tumhAre sAmane ghANI meM pIlU~gA phira tumhArA naMbara hai / AcArya skandaka ne kahA - binA kAraNa yaha saba kyA ? yadi tumheM pIlanA hI hai tuma mujhe pIlA do / - For Personal & Private Use Only

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ina saba niraparAdhiyoM ko kyoM pila rahe ho ? pAlaka ke sira para vaira kA badalA lene kA bhUta savAra thA / ataH usane eka-eka ziSya ko bhejane kA Adeza diyaa| kucha bhI sunane ko taiyAra nahIM huaa| skandaka ne apane muniyoM se kahA- sAvadhAna ! saMkaTa AyA hai / upasarga AyA hai / saMthAre kA pratyAkhyAna karo, sabase kSamA yAcanA karate hue moha - mamatA kA tyAga karo tathA paramAtmA meM hI lIna bano / - AcArya ke eka-eka ziSya apane guru ko vaMdanA karake saMthAre kA pratyAkhyAna kI ArAdhanA karane lge| AcArya mahArAja ne kahA * maMtrIvarya tuma sabase pahale merA naMbara le lo| tumheM jo kaSTa denA hai vaha kaSTa mujhe do| mere ina ziSyoM ko chor3a do| maMtrI ne kahA - maiM tumhAre hI sAmane tumhAre ziSyoM ko eka-eka karake pIlU~gA / phira tumhArA naMbara AegA / nara pizAca eka - eka ziSya ko ghANI meM pIla rahA hai / guru mahArAja ArAdhanA karavA rahe haiM / rakta kI dhArA pravAhita ho rahI hai / phira bhI maMtrI zAMta nahIM huaa| usane 499 sAdhuoM ko nidaryatA se kolhU meM pIla diyaa| aba eka bAla sAdhu bacA thaa| usake prati AcArya zrI kA moha jAgrata ho gyaa| unhoMne pAlaka se kahA - yaha merA choTA ziSya hai / ise bAda meM piilnaa| pahale merA naMbara lagA do / pAlaka nahIM maanaa| AcArya mahArAja ko krodha A gyaa| idhara choTAsA muni guru mahArAja se kaha rahA hai ki mere ko ArAdhanA karavAo, paccakkhANa karavAo para krodha ke vazIbhUta AcArya mahArAja ne eka nahIM sunii| unhoMne krodha ke vazIbhUta hokara kahA, agale bhava meM tumhArI kyA sthiti hogI ? yahA~ ve saMyama va maryAdA se cUka gae aura bolate gae / -- nirdayI pAlaka ne choTe se saMta ko kolhU me pIlA diyaa| isa prakAra pA~ca sau ziSya apane mana ko pUrNatayA nirmala, nirdvandva aura dRr3ha rakhane ke kAraNa ArAdhanA, sAdhanA karate hue mokSa cale gae, para apane choTe se ziSya kI bArI para AcArya zrI kA moha jAga gayA, bhAva bdle| ve apane mana ko pUrNatayA kaSAya rahita nahIM rakha pAe / pariNAma svarUpa azubha bhAva aura vicAroM ke kAraNa ve mokSa meM jAne se vaMcita raha ge| mAtra moha ke kAraNa utpanna azubha bhAva unake mokSa gamana meM bAdhaka bane / For Personal & Private Use Only | 59

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jisa prakAra kIcar3a meM girA huA sonA kIcar3a meM lipta nahIM hotA, ise jaMga nahIM lagatA usI prakAra jJAnI saMsAra ke padArthoM se virakta hokara karma karatA huA bhI karma se lipta nahIM hotaa| kintu jaise lohA kIcar3a meM girakara vikRta ho jAtA hai usameM jaMga laga jAtA hai usI prakAra ajJAnI vyakti padArthoM meM rAgabhAva rakhane ke kAraNa karma karate hue vikRta ho jAte haiM / karma se lipta ho jAte haiM / phalasvarUpa AtmA karmoM ke baMdhana meM baMdha jAtI hai| manuSya kI prasannatA, aprasannatA kA AdhAra usake vicAra hai| do vyakti samAna paristhiti, samAna pariveza ke hote haiM, para eka apane soca ke AdhAra para, vicAra aura bhAvanA ke AdhAra para viSAda, parezAnI kA anubhava karatA hai aura dUsarA usI paristhiti meM sadA sukha kA anubhava karatA hai| vAstava meM sukha aura duHkha kI anubhUti mana se hotI hai| aksara yaha bhI dekhA jAtA hai ki loga sukhI hone para bhI dUsaroM ko sukhI evaM svayaM ko du:khI samajhate haiN| apane bhautika evaM AdhyAtmika donoM hI sukhoM kI anubhUti nahIM kara pAte haiN| hara samaya apane jIvana meM khAlI gilAsa arthAt duHkha ko hI dekhate haiN| Adhe bhare gilAsa arthAt jo bhI sukha mila rahA hai usakA Ananda nahIM uThAte / kisI ne kahA bhI hai - bahuta se loga basa apane duHkhoM ke gIta gAte haiM, dIvAlI ho yA holI ho sadA mAtama hI manAte haiM, para duniyA unhIM kI rAginI para jhUmatI hai haradama, jo jalatI citA meM baiThakara vINA bajAte haiN| eka AdivAsI ne apane gA~va meM eka AdamI ke jIvana kI ghaTanA kA jikra karate hue batAyA ki sukharAma nAmaka vyakti jaMgala se lakar3iyA~ kATakara lAtA aura unheM becakara jo paise milate unase rUkhA-sUkhA khAkara rAta ko so jaataa| dinabhara kI thakAna se cUra hokara jaba vaha rAta ko apanI TUTI khaTiyA para sotA to subaha hI usakI A~kheM khultii| kisI bAta kI ciMtA yA fikra nahIM thI use| kucha daulata nahIM thI, paraArAma se do vaqta pUrA khAne ko mila jAe aura tana DhaMkane ko kapar3e, isI meM sukharAma masta thaa| lekina isake ThIka viparIta lakar3ahAre kI patnI ko itane meM saMtoSa nahIM thaa| vaha dina-rAta sukharAma ko kosatI rahatI ki koI aura aisA kAma kareM, 60/ For Personal & Private Use Only

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jisase use aura munAphA ho aura ve ArAma se apanI jiMdagI binA ske| jaba sukharAma patnI se ulAhane sunatA to aura adhika lakar3iyA~ kATatA, jisase adhika dhana mila ske| pahale vaha zAma hote hI lakar3iyA~ kATakara gadhe para lAdakara ghara cala detA thaa| lekina aba vaha aMdhdherA ghirane taka lakar3iyA~ kATane meM vyasta rhtaa| pahale se AmadanI to z2arUra adhika ho gaI thI, phira bhI vaha dhanI nahIM ho pA rahA thaa| __aise hI eka sardI kI aMdherI, ThiThuratI rAta meM dera taka lakar3iyA~ kATakara gadhe para lAdakara apane ghara kI ora lauTa rahA thA to per3a ke nIce se kisI kI AvAz2a sunakara ekadama se tthitthkaa|aaNkh gar3Akara dekhA to vahA~ eka RSi baiThe the| lekina ve sardI se kA~pa rahe the| sukharAma ko ThaharA dekhakara RSivara bole, 'bhAI, bahuta sardI hai, mujhe Aga tApane ke lie kucha lakar3iyA~ doge?' sukharAma tthitthkaa|saadhu mahArAja ne lakar3iyA~ mA~gI hai| agara nahIM degA to kahIM zrApa na de deM, aura agara de detA hai to usakA dera taka kiyA gayA zrama vyartha hI calA jaaegaa| vaha ulajhana meM par3a gyaa| use ulajhana meM par3A dekhakara RSivara bole, 'rahane do bhAI, tuma jAo, tumheM dera ho rahI hogii| maiM rAta kisI taraha gujAra luuNgaa|' yaha sunakara sukharAma lajjita ho gyaa| usane socA, 'dhana ke lAlaca meM vaha kitanA nIca ho gayA hai ki thor3I-sI lakar3I sAdhu ko dene meM saMkoca kara rahA hai|' apane Apa se lajjita hokara sukharAma ne gadhe se sArI lakar3iyA~ utArakara RSivara ke Age DAla dI aura Aga jalAne lgaa| jaba Aga jala uThI aura vAtAvaraNa meM thor3I garmAhaTa Ane lagI to vaha vahA~ se jAne ko taiyAra huaa| jaba RSi ne kahA, 'bhAI, tuma bhI kucha dera ke lie Aga tApa lo|' RSi ke Agraha para lakaDahArA Aga tApane to baiTha gayA, para use ghara kI ciMtA satAne lgii| vaha jAnatA thA ki ghara jAte hI usakI patnI jaba use khAlI hAtha dekhegI to dutkaaregii| ho sakatA hai ki vaha use khAnA bhI na prose| vaha ciMtA meM par3A huA thA aura RSivara use dekha-dekhakara muskarA rahe the| kyoM vatsa, duHkha ho rahA hai, magara ina lakar3iyoM ke badale meM maiM tumheM eka sone kI azarphI dUM to tumhArA kAma cala jaaegaa|' sone kI azarphI mila sakatI hai, yaha socakara lakar3ahArA to Azcarya meM par3a gayA aura sAdhu kI ora dekhane lgaa| usane to apane jIvana meM sone kI azarphI dekhI taka nahIM thii| | 61 For Personal & Private Use Only

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use kucha na bolate dekha RSivara ne apanA kamaMDala usakI ora bar3hAte hue kahA, 'acchA, to calo tuma ye merA kamaMDala hI rakha lo, isameM pA~ca azarphiyA~ haiM, inheM nikAla loge to isake andara se phira se pA~ca sone kI azarphiyA~ hI nikleNgii| lekina eka dina meM eka hI bAra ye pA~ca azarphiyA~ nikala sakatI hai| hA~ eka aura bAta dhyAna rakhanA, isa kamaMDala kI sadA rakSA karanA, agara eka bAra corI hokara dUsare hAthoM meM calA gayA to phira se ye camatkAra nahIM rahegA / ' 'maiM ise chAtI se lagAkara rakhU~gA mahArAja !' utAvalA sA sukharAma lagabhaga RSi ke hAtha se kamaMDala chInakara ghara kI ora bhaagaa| yahA~ taka ki use apane gadhe kA bhI khyAla nahIM rhaa| aba sukharAma ke to dina hI badala cuke the / vaha roz2AnA kamaMDala se pA~ca azarphiyA~ nikAlatA aura kharca karatA / kama kharca kara aura paise bacAkara usane nayA makAna banA liyaa| patnI ke pAsa nae kapar3e, jevara ho ge| lekina usakA sukha-caina jAtA rhaa| vaha hara samaya kamaMDala kI rakSA meM hI ciMtita rahatA / kabhI bhI use apane se alaga nahIM hone detaa| rAta bhara jAgatA rahatA, agara kabhI A~kha laga bhI jAtI to kamaMDala-kamaMDala kahate hue jAga uThatA / kucha hI dinoM meM mehanata ko sabase priya mAnane vAlA sukharAma aba pAgaloM jaisA ho gyaa| nIMda na Ane se parezAna eka dina vaha uThA aura nadI kinAre jAkara cupacApa se vaha kamaMDala usa nadI meM pheMka diyaa| kucha dera taka to kamaMDala nadI meM DUbatA - utaratA rahA, phira gahare jala meM DUba gyaa| isase sukharAma ko bahuta zAMti milii| vaha jaMgala kI ora cala diyA / itane meM hI use apane gadhe yAda Ae / unheM DhUMr3hakara vaha unase gale milA aura qhUba royA / pyAra se gadhe kI pITha thapathapAI / usI per3a ke nIce use apanI kulhAr3I bhI mila gii| basa, vaha tabhI se apane lakar3I kATane ke kAma meM laga gyaa| rAta ko lakar3I kA gaTThara A~gana meM DAlakara khAnA khAyA aura soyA to gaharI nIMda ke bAda agalI subaha hI usakI A~kha khulii| uThate hI usane apane hAthoM ko cuumaa| vaha jAna gayA thA ki yaha hAtha hI usake azarphI dene vAle 62 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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kamaMDala the| mAnava jIvana meM pAne kI pipAsA kabhI zAMta nahIM hotii| tRSNA eka aisA roga hai jo sArA sAgara pI jAne ke bAda bhI zAMta nahIM hotii| yahI kAraNa hai ki cAhie kA cakkara kabhI zAMta nahIM hotA aura anta meM cAhie kI cakkI manuSya ko pIsa kara rAkha kara detI hai| isalie he prANI, yadi do pAToM ke bIca meM pisane se svayaM ko bacAnA cAhatA hai to ' aura cAhie' kA cakkara chor3a de kyoMki yaha sArI samasyAoM kI jar3a hai / jisa dina tuma cAhie ko chor3a doge samajha lo tumhArA kalyANa ho jAegA / jIvana kI hara paristhiti meM vINA bajAne kA kAma ve hI kara pAe~ge jinakI bhAvanA evaM vicAra uttama hoNge| ve hI apane karma mala kA kSaya kara skeNge| Atmonnati kI jisake mana meM cAha hai usakA patha patharIlA, kaMTIlA ho sakatA hai / kyoMki utthAna kA mArga hI tyAga yukta hotA hai / hama vizleSaNa kareM, dekheM saMsAra meM, jinhoMne bhI vijaya prApta kI hai ve apanI nispRhatA, kSamA, tyAga, balidAna, sahiSNutA, samanvaya Adi anekAneka guNoM ke dhAraka rahe haiN| hamArA jIvana nadI ke pravAha kI bhA~ti prati pala Age bar3hatA jA rahA hai / hameM pratyeka qadama sAvadhAnIpUrvaka rakhanA hai| hama DagamagA nahIM jAe isake lie kutsita vicAra, aura kaTuvANI kA tyAga karanA hai| yadi mAnava jIvana meM hamAre qadama DagamagA gae to anya koI bhI bhava hameM mukti maMz2ila kI ora nahIM le jA sakatA hai| For Personal & Private Use Only 63

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behatara vyavahAra hai zreSTha upahAra apane vyavahAra ko aisA banAo logoM ko lage jaise Apa unheM phUloM kA guladastA bheMTa kara rahe ho / vyaktitva nirmANa ke jitane bhI caraNa haiM unameM sabase pramukha caraNa hai vyAvahArika honA / sad vyavahArI aura sadAcArI jahA~ jAtA hai vahA~ prema pAtA hai aura apanI ora se prema luTAtA hai / manuSya kA adhikAMza samaya kisI-nakisI ke sAtha nikalatA hai / jIvana kI saphalatA ke lie vyavahAra aura vyavasAya donoM hI aise hoM jinase kisI kA ahita na ho kyoMki yahI jIvanavikAsa kA mUla maMtra hai / sAmAjika evaM pArivArika jIvana kI saphalatA kA prathama sopAna sadvyavahAra hai| jaba taka zarIra hai, taba taka muTThI bhara anna kI AvazyakatA avazya hI pdd'egii| usa samaya taka vyavahAra-vyavasAya donoM hI karane hoNge| isalie vyavahAra avazya karo, kintu vyavahAra karate samaya viveka rkho| 64 | - eka pati ne patnI ko DA~Tate hue kahA * kitanI bAra kahA hai ki merI sabjI meM namaka kama DAlA karo / merA blaDa prezara pahale hI z2yAdA hai| tuma - For Personal & Private Use Only

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samajhatI kyoM nahIM ? patnI rasoI meM pati ke lie garmAgarma phulke seMka rahI thiiN| 'maiMne jAnabUjha kara aisA nahIM kiyA, z2aldabAjI meM aisA huA hai|' vaha vahIM se bolI / lAo maiM isa sabjI meM eka TamATara, do-tIna pyAja DAlakara puna: pakA DAlatI huuN| namaka bhI kama ho jaaegaa| vaha dhIme svara meM kaha baiThI / nahIM..... rahane do| mujhe nahIM karanA nAztA - vaashtaa| pati gusse meM bar3abar3AtA kAryAlaya calA gyaa| patnI kAma meM juTI rahI, usane bhI nAztA nahIM kiyaa| dopahara taka pati ne phona taka bhI nahIM kiyA, use / nahIM to kAryAlaya ke dUrabhASa se tIna-cAra bAra usase roz2a batiyA lete / dopahara meM jaba pati laMca karane Ae to patnI ne daravAz2e para muskurA kara unakA svAgata kiyaa| 'dekho maiMne tumhArI mana pasaMda Diza banAI hai, uMgaliyA~ cATate raha jAoge / ' vaha khAnA parosate kahane lagI / T use bhUkha satA rahI thI / vaha khAne para TUTa par3A thaa| usane patnI se itanA bhI nahIM pUchA ki tumane nAztA kiyA bhI yA nhiiN| khAnA khAte acAnaka lAITa baMda ho gaI, garma khAnA khAte-khAte pasInA bahA jA rahA thA / patnI jhaTa se paMkhA jhalane lgii| vaha khAnA khAte soca rahA thA, usakI patnI usakA kitanA khyAla rakhatI hai / kitanI acchI hai vaha / patnI, pati ko khAnA khAte dekhakara prasanna thI / use aisA anubhava ho rahA thA mAno usakI atRpta AtmA kI bhUkha miTatI calI jA rahI thI / sad vyavahAra krodhI ko bhI zAMta banA detA hai aura duzmana ko bhI mitra / sadvyavahAra ke lie agara koI jakharI tatva hai to vaha sahI dRSTi / kisI se bhI vyavahAra bigar3atA haiM to usake kAraNoM meM mUla kAraNa hai dUsaroM ke prati doSa dRSTi / dUsaroM ke doSa dekhane se hamArI A~kha, mana aura vANI dUSita ho jAte haiM / Aja kA manuSya itanA vyasta hai ki apane parivAra aura vyApAra ko eka pala bhI nahIM chor3a sakatA hai| phira bhI z2arA-sI bAta para lar3AI-jhagar3e aura phira korTa kacaharI ke cakkara lagAte hue loga naz2ara A jAte haiM / 'mahArAja ! mujhe aisA maMtra eka bhAI mere pAsa Ae / mujhase bole dIjie, jisake bala para korTa meM merI jIta ho / ' maiMne pUchA - 'kauna - sA kesa hai ?" - For Personal & Private Use Only | 65

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ve bole - 'apane bhAI ke viruddha maiMne dAvA kiyA hai ?" ve bole - 'merI Arthika sthiti ThIka nahIM thI / bhAI ne kahA, kirAye ke makAna meM na rahakara mere sAtha raha jAo / aba maiMne apanA makAna banavA liyA hai / maiMne unase kahA yadi tuma mujhe tIna lAkha rupaye do to maiM makAna khAlI kara dU~gA / unhoMne rupaye dene se iMkAra karate hue kahA tuma mere bhAI ho yaha ghara bhI tumhArA hai| jaba taka rahanA cAhate ho raha sakate ho maiM tumheM rupaye nahIM de sakatA hU~ / ' - bhAiyoM ke isa saMvAda ko sunakara merI Azcarya kI sImA na rhii| eka to corI phira sInA corI / vaha roja rAmAyaNa kA pATha karatA thA phira bhI rAma - bharata ke baMdhutva - prema kA usameM aMza mAtra bhI praveza nahIM huA / kaikayI ne jaba rAma se vana meM jAne ke lie kahA to binA kisI azAMti ke rAma ne kevala itanA hI kahA, 'mA~ tumane mere mana kI bAta kahI hai| merA bhAI bharata zAzvata sukha prApta kare isake lie to maiM hamezA ke lie vana meM rahane ko taiyAra hU~ / ' bharata ne bhI jaba taka rAma vana meM rahe, taba taka mahala meM rahakara bhI tapa kiyA / bharata ne bhI anna nahIM khAyA / Apa hI batAie kyA duniyA meM bhAiyoM kA aisA ucca vyavahAra milatA hai ? Aja rAmAyaNa par3hane vAle, mahAbhArata ko caritArtha kara rahe haiM / bhAI-bhAI koTa meM lar3ate hue dikhAI dete haiN| donoM kA hI nAza hotA hai kitanA Azcarya janaka hai| isakA kAraNa vyakti kI svArtha buddhi hai| jaba taka vyakti kA svArtha samApta nahIM hogA taba taka rAmarAjya kI sthApanA nahIM kI jA sakatI hai / Aja hama choTI-sI bAta para duHkhI ho jAte haiM aura socate haiM ki mujhe amukha vyaktiyoM ne apamAnita kiyA hai, amuka vyakti ke kAraNa merI yaha sthiti huI hai, para vaha yaha bhUla jAtA hai ki kahIM-na-kahIM merI bhI g2alatI rahI hogI / isalie mujhe samajhAyA gayA hai| apane sakArAtmaka soca ke abhAva meM, ahaMkAra meM yA svArtha vRtti ke kAraNa aisA hotA hai| maiM bar3A hU~ maiM jo socU~, kahU~ 66| For Personal & Private Use Only

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vaisA hI vyavahAra honA caahie| hama apanI hara bAta dUsaroM se manavAye yaha saMbhava bhI nahIM hai aura ucita bhI nahIM hai| eka putra ne apane pitA se Akara kahA - 'pitAjI aba hamArA parivAra bar3A ho gayA, merI bhI apanI icchAe~ haiM isalie maiM alaga honA cAhatA huuN|' pitA ekadama cauMkakara bole - 'kyA kahA tUne ! maiM mere jIte jI kisI ko alaga nahIM hone duuNgaa|smaaj meM kyA mu~ha dikhaauuNgaa|' putra ne kahA - 'isameM harja hI kyA hai ? jitane beTe hote haiM utane cUlhe to jalate hI haiM ?Aja Apa apane bhAiyoM ke sAtha haiM to kyA huA? Apake pUrvaja to anta meM alaga hue hI the| koI pahale ho yA bAda meM isameM kyA farka pdd'egaa| Aqhira Apako dera se hI sahI para yaha vyavasthA to karanI hI pdd'egii|' / pitA ne kahA - 'mujhe tumase aisI ummIda kataI nahIM thii| merI sAta pIr3hiyoM kI ijjata tU miTTI meM milA rahA hai| yaha saba sunane- dekhane se pahile maiM mara jAtA to ThIka thaa| maiM alaga nahIM kruuNgaa| yadi usake bAvajUda bhI tU alaga hotA hai to mujhe pAnI pIne kA tyAga hai|' yaha saMkalpa dekhakara putra pasIja gayA, pairoM meM girakara kSamA mA~gI aura apane svacchaMda vicAra tyAga die| umra meM bar3A hone se parivAra meM koI bar3A nahIM hotA jo samaya Ane para tyAga kA bar3appana dikhAyA karatA hai vahI apane vyavahAra se bar3A bana jAtA hai| isa ghaTanA meM hue pitA-putra ke vyavahAra evaM saMvAda para hameM ciMtana karanA hogaa| saMyukta yA ekAkI parivAra kI vyavasthA jIvana-zailI hai, aparAdha aura bojha nahIM hai| kisI ko bar3e parivAra meM rahane kA AnaMda AtA hai, kisI ko choTe parivAra meM rahane kaa| jahA~ parivAra kA koI bhI sadasya samasyA ko samajheM binA pratiSThA kA prazna banAtA hai to samAdhAna kI apekSA aura samasyAe~ utpanna ho jAtI hai| samajhadArI evaM samAdhAna isI meM hai ki apane pUrvAgraha kA tyAga karake, vAstavikatA kA anveSaNa kareM, kriyAviti kareM ise pratiSThA kA prazna nahIM bnaaveN| __kintu isa vArtAlApa meM uttaradAyitva se vimukha hone kA saMketa bhI hai| yadi karttavya se ghabarAkara, sevA ke dAyitva se bacakara nikalane kI socate haiM to yaha hamArI g2alata dizA hai, aparAdha vRtti hai, dUSita vicAradhArA hai| vAtAvaraNa ko | 67 For Personal & Private Use Only

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qhuzahAla evaM svastha banAe rakhane ke lie hama saba para bahuta bar3A dAyitva hai| yadi hamane isa ora qadama nahIM bar3hAe to cAhe yuvA varga hai yA vRddhajana koI bhI sukhI nahIM raha skegaa| Aja viDambanA hai ki parivAra meM koI gutthI ulajhatI hai to mila-baiThakara usakA samAdhAna nahIM kiyA jAtA hai apitu adAlatoM ke mAdhyama se nipaTAye jAte haiN| aise meM hamArA vyavahAra yaha honA cAhie ki baiThakara samajhAhaTa se, namratA se jhuka kara, prema-sneha yA dabAva se usakA samAdhAna kiyA jAnA caahie| kahA-sunI hone para gAMTha par3ane se pUrva samajhadAra ko cuppI rakha lenI caahie| kaTu vacanoM ko prasannatA se pI lenA caahie| tabhI iMsAna kA jIvana vikasita hogA, kuMdana kI taraha cmkegaa| manuSya kI sabase bar3I durbalatA hai ki vaha dUsaroM ke jIvana kI ora dRSTipAta karatA hai, para svayaM ko nahIM dekhtaa| dUsaroM ko binA mA~ge salAha detA hai, sujhAva detA hai jabaki svayaM ke jIvana meM caritArtha nahIM krtaa| hameM svayaM ko dekhanA caahie| dUsaroM ke ghara meM kyA hai, isako dekhane kI bajAya svayaM ke ghara ko, apane dAyitvoM ko nahIM bhUlanA caahie| dUsarA so rahA hai, jAga rahA hai, khA rahA hai yA nahIM isakI ciMtA nahIM karake, svayaM ko jAgRta karanA caahie| hama niraMtara dUsaroM ko dekhate hue apane amUlya mAnava jIvana ko khote jA rahe haiN| svadoSa darzana karake yadi usakA nirAkaraNa nahIM kareMge mAtra dUsaroM ko hI dekhate raheMge to aneka bAdhAe~ upasthita ho jaaegii| adhika sujhAva dene se bhI vyavahAra meM bAdhA AtI hai| kyoMki eka to isase sAmane vAle vyakti kI svataMtratA samApta hotI hai| phira Avazyaka nahIM hai ki sabhI sujhAvoM ko mAnA jaaeN| lekina nahIM mAnane para sAmane vAle kI nArAz2agI prakaTa hone lagatI hai| yathA - tuma socate ho ki jaba merI bAta mAnya nahIM hotI hai to maiM kyA jaanuuN| isa prakAra ke ciMtana se TakarAva prAraMbha hotA hai tathA saMbaMdhoM kI madhuratA dUra hone lagatI hai, TUTana prAraMbha hotI hai| jaba vyavahAra meM apekSA bhAva atyadhika bar3ha jAtA hai tabhI samasyA utpanna 68 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hotI hai| parivAra evaM samAja paraspara apekSAoM se jur3A huA hai| parantu jo kisI se bhI jitanI apekSA rakhatA hai vaha vyakti utanA hI du:khI hotA hai / mA~bApa yaha cAhate haiM ki hamArI saMtAna beTA aura bahU hamArI sevA kre| beTA-bahU hamArA kahanA maane| beTA-bahU yaha cAhate haiM ki mA~-bApa hamArI sampUrNa sukhasuvidhAoM kA dhyAna rakheM, para jaba yaha pUrNa nahIM hotI hai to pahale vyakti ke vicAroM meM TakarAhaTa hotI hai phira vyavahAra meM parivartana hotA hai| yadyapi cAhe parivAra hai yA samAja apekSA bhAva ke binA cala nahIM sktaa| yaha eka baMdhana hai jo eka-dUsare ko bAMdha kara rakhatA hai parantu jaba apekSA bhAva meM atyadhika vRddhi ho jAtI hai to kaThinAI hotI hai vyakti svArthI ho jAtA hai| isalie saMbaMdhoM evaM vyavahAra ko madhura banAe rakhane ke lie tyAga vRtti atyanta Avazyaka hai| ___ bahuta purAnI ghaTanA hai| kucha rAhagIra eka Trena meM jA rahe the| eka AdamI jo bhI unake koca meM the aura jisako sahAyatA kI AvazyakatA thI karatA jA rahA thaa| eka sTezana para gAr3I rUkI, kAphI bhIr3a thii| koca meM aneka rAhagIra car3ha rahe the utara rahe the| rAtri ho cukI thii| Trena apanA samaya hone para calane lgii| eka yAtrI jo vikalAMga usa AdamI ke sAmane khar3A thaa| usa AdamI ne apanI caddara bichAI ora vikalAMga ko sITa de dii| jaba unase pUchA gayA ki unhoMne aisA kyoM kiyA? to usane kahA yaha merA kartavya hai kyoMki maiM vikalAMga hone para bhI yadi khar3A hotA to yahI icchA karatA ki mujhe bhI baiThane ke lie koI sthAna de do| hama to yaha cAhe ki hameM koI sthAna de de aura svayaM nahIM de to yaha kaise saMbhava hai ? dUsare hamArI sevA kareM aura hama nahIM kareM yaha bhAva hamAre meM nahIM honA caahie| apekSA bhAva ke vyavahAra meM saMkIrNatA kI jagaha vizAlatA honI caahie| duniyA meM koI bhI kyArI aisI nahIM hogI jisameM mAtra phUla hI phUla yA kA~Te hI kA~Te ho| phira hamAre vyavahAra meM kA~ToM kI zaiyyA kyoM hai ? kucha aise haiM jo sabake lie phUla hI phUla bichAte haiN| kucha phUla aura kA~Te bichAte haiM to kucha kA~Te hI kA~Te bichAte haiM to vinAza hote dera nahIM lgegii| maiMne eka ghara meM dekhA ki ghara gaMdA par3A huA thA aura sApha-saphAI karane | 69 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kI bajAya bahU sajane saMvarane meM lagI thii| yaha dekhakara sAsa jhAr3a lagAne lgii| beTe se yaha dekhA nahIM gyaa| usane kahA- lAo mA~, maiM jhAr3a lagA detA huuN| mA~ U~cI AvAz2a meM bahU ko sunAte hue kahatI hai - are rahane de beTA, maiM hI lagA detI huuN| yaha sunakara bahU lipasTika lagAte hue kahatI hai - are jhagar3ate kyoM ho, kAma bA~Ta lo n| eka dina beTA jhAr3a lagA degA aura eka dina mA~ lagA degii| aisA vyavahAra dUsaroM ke diloM ko coTa pahuMcAtA hai| hama par3helikhe haiM to isakA matalaba yaha nahIM ki apane kartavya va sadvyavahAra ko bhUla jaae| ___vartamAna yuga meM nazA karanA, hoTaloM meM jAnA, juA khelanA, antarjAtIya vivAha, phaizana kA aMdhAnukaraNa hamAre vyavahAra rahana-sahana kA aMga banatA jA rahA hai| inase bacanA atyanta Avazyaka hai| kyoMki inase jIvana azAMta hotA jA rahA hai| zAMtimaya aura sadAcAra jIvana hetu svAdhyAya, tattvajJAna, saciMtana kI atyanta AvazyakatA hai| isake lie hameM bhautikatA kI ati se bacanA hogaa| eka bAlaka mele meM apane pitA kI aMgulI pakar3a kara cala rahA thaa| mele meM lagI dukAna, jhUle evaM anya vastue~ dekhakara yaha bahuta AnaMdita aura khuza ho rahA thaa| acAnaka usake hAtha se pitA kI aMgulI chUTa gii| bAlaka pUre mele meM ghabarAyA aura rotA huA ghUmatA rhaa| yadyapi mele meM aba bhI ve vastue~ vidyamAna thI jo pahile thI, jinheM dekhakara bAlaka prasanna ho rahA thA, ve vastue~ aba use prasanna nahIM kara pA rahI thii| pitA kI aMgulI mAtra chUTane se vaha atyadhika duHkhI va ghabarA rahA thaa| isI prakAra sabhI vaibhavAdi hote hue bhI dharma kA sahArA dharma kA Azraya, dharma kI pakar3a chUTa gaI to koI sukhI nahIM raha sakatA hai| use vaibhava Adi meM sukha naz2ara nahIM aaegaa| bAlaka kA jo bhramaNa pahale sukha kA kAraNa thA phira duHkha meM badala gayA usI prakAra jo vaibhava pahale sukhamaya pratIta hotA hai vahI duHkhAnubhUti karA detA hai| isalie dharma kA Azraya lekara pratidina AtmaciMtana hetu thor3A-sA samaya avazya nikAlanA caahie| isase hamAre vicAra, AcAra aura vyavahAra Anandayukta hote jaaeNge| ___ rogoM kA zarIra aura mana para kuprabhAva par3atA hai| isalie rogI cikitsaka 701 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ke pAsa ilAja karavAtA hai| mana kI rugNatA se vyavahAra evaM vicAroM kI rugNatA honA adhikAMzata: saMbhava hai| isalie hamArI zikSA dIkSA ke sAtha hara ghara meM eka phaimilI prazikSaka honA cAhie jisameM binA kisI kharca ke svastha mana aura svastha zarIra ko prApta kiyA jA ske| hameM bhUla ko svIkRti denA sIkhanA hogA / kamiyoM kA pracAra nahIM karake usake prati sAvadhAna aura sajaga honA hogaa| jisase punarAvRtti nahIM ho / eka rAjadUta se pUchA gayA .' ApakI saphalatA kA rAz2a kyA hai ?' usane kahA - 'maiM kisI ko burI bAta nahIM khtaa| agara kahatA bhI hU~ to jo samajhAne kA hai utanA hI kahatA hU~ / ' amerikI rASTrapati abrAhima liMkana ne apane jIvana kI saphalatA kA anubhava dete hue kahA ki tuma kisI kI AlocanA, niMdA mata karo tAki koI tumhArI bhI nahIM kre| bAta sahI hai yadi apane ghara kI sIr3hiyA~ gaMdI hai to hama par3ausI ko sIr3hiyA~ gaMdI hone kI zikAyata kaise evaM kyoM karate haiM ? usI prakAra hamAre mana meM gaMdagI vyApta hai to hama dUsaroM ko burA kyoM kahate haiM ? svayaM ko kyoM nahIM sudhArate haiM ? jIvana vyavahAra kI sundaratA, sarasatA, santulana evaM sAmaMjasya banAe rakhane hetu parama upayogI, sahI, bhUla batAne para bhI hama sabako cubhana hotI hai, pIr3A hotI hai| hamako bhUla batAte samaya vivAda nahIM karanA hai| kisI ko bhUla batAne ke lie sarvaprathama apanI bhUla batAnI caahie| yaha vizvAsa dilAnA cAhie ki jIvana meM bhUla kauna nahIM karatA hai / kintu bhUla ko sudhArakara saMzodhana karane vAlA bar3A hotA hai| isase hama sabakI hInatA kI graMthi khulegI tathA vyavahAra sudharegA / prasiddha baMgAlI patrikA 'pravAsI' ke saMpAdaka zrI rAmAnaMda caTTopAdhyAya eka bAra gagA taTa para paira phisalane se nadI meM girakara tez2a bahAva meM bahakara DUbane lge| eka kuzala tairAka yuvaka ne turaMta pAnI meM kUdakara unakA bacA liyaa| kucha dinoM bAda vahI yuvaka unake kAryAlaya meM Akara apanI kucha kavitAoM ko 'pravAsI' meM chApane kI z2ida karane lgaa| jaba rAmAnaMda jI ne kavitAe~ nimna stara kI pAkara manA kiyA, to vaha unheM kharI-khoTI sunAte hue kahane lagA, 'maiMne For Personal & Private Use Only | 71

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ApakI jAna bacAI aura Apa merI kavitAe~ bhI nahIM chApa skte|' rAmAnaMda jI ne prema se samajhAte hue kahA, 'saMpAdaka hone ke nAte zreSTha racanAoM kA cayana kara unheM pAThakoM ke sAmane lAnA merA kartavya hai| tuma cAhe, to mujhe phira se gaMgA meM Dubo sakate ho| vaha mujhe svIkAra hai, paraMtu apane pAThakoM ke sAtha vizvAsaghAta va chala karanA svIkAra nhiiN|' kartavya ke prati unakI aisI aTUTa niSThA ko evaM satyapriyatA ko dekhakara vaha yuvaka bhAvuka ho utthaa| usane kSamA mA~gate hue kahA isa bAra maiM inase bhI zreSTha kavitAe~ banAkara duuNgaa| isa taraha kA suvyavahAra yuvaka ke lie rozanI kA kAma kara gyaa| vyavahAra eka surakSA kavaca hai yaha kavaca banA rahanA caahie| isI meM vyakti kA, parivAra kA, samAja kA, rASTra kA hita hai| vyavahAra manuSya ke caritra kA darpaNa hai / jo vyavahAra hamAre lie samasyA bane hameM una kAraNoM ko DhU~r3hanA hai, samAdhAna karanA hai| bar3appana kI dhAraNA, ahaMkAra kA bojha, Adeza dene kI pravRtti, atyadhika apekSA kA bojha, sujhAvoM ke prati svIkRti kA bhAva, rugNa vyaktitva, ajJAnatA, zikSA kA abhAva, kusaMgati, pramAda, phaizana, vyasana Adi aneka kAraNa hai jinase hamAre vyavahAra bigar3ate haiN| hameM dUsaroM ke sAtha vahI vyavahAra karanA cAhie jaisA hama dUsaroM ke apekSA rakhate haiN| dUsaroM ke sAtha kiyA gayA zreSTha vyavahAra lauTakara AtA hai aura burA vyavahAra bhI lauTakara AtA hai| jahA~ taka ho sake hama dUsaroM se zreSTha vyavahAra kreN| burA kadApi na kreN| zreSTha vyavahAra hamArI chavi logoM ke diloM meM bhagavAna tulya banA detI hai / maiMne dekhA, mere pAsa eka sajjana baiThe the tabhI eka yuvA AyA, unake caraNoM meM paMcAga praNAma kiyA aura calA gyaa| maiMne unase pUchA, kyA yaha ApakA putra hai ? unhoMne kahA, merA putra nahIM hai, para mujhe devatA tulya mAnatA hai| kAraNa kA jikra karate hue batAyA varSa 1990 meM maiM madhya relave ke iTArasI sTezana para pleTaphArma DyUTI kama ArakSaNa TI.sI.' pada para tainAta thaa| pleTaphaoNrma naMbara do para kalakattA-mumbaI rela Ane kI ghoSaNA huii| gAr3I ke pleTaphArma para Thaharate hI 22-24 sAla kA eka lar3akA daur3ate hue mere pAsa aayaa| vaha mujhase bolA ki sAhaba maiM ilAhabAda se A rahA hU~ aura kucha dera 72/ For Personal & Private Use Only

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pahale hI merA baiga corI ho gayA hai|' maiMne usase pUchA ki baiga meM kyA thA ? to usane kahA ki usake sabhI zaikSaNika va anya pramANa patra usameM haiM aura vaha phAinala iMTarayU ke lie mumbaI jA rahA hai| vaha bahuta ghabarA gayA thA aura usake hAtha paira kA~pa rahe the / gAr3I pleTaphaoNrma meM sirpha pA~ca minaTa ke lie Thaharane vAlI thii| maiMne sTezana mAsTara se bAta kI to unhoMne epha. AI. Ara. darja karA gAr3I ravAnA karane kA Adeza diyaa| maiMne usa lar3ake ko vahIM rukane ko khaa| maiMne sthAnIya pulisa adhikAriyoM se bAta kara dera rAta taka usakA baiga use vApasa dilA bhI diyaa| lekina aba samasyA use mumbaI bhejane kI thI / use agale dina subaha kisI bhI hAlata meM mumbaI pahu~canA thaa| maiM usake sAtha bhopAla gayA aura vahA~ se plena se use mumbaI bhejA / una dinoM plena kA kirAyA z2yAdA thA aura merI pUrI tanakhvA usameM kharca ho gii| saubhAgya se usa lar3ake kA iMTaravyU meM naukarI ke lie cayana ho gayA / vaha Aja bhI mujhe devatA ke samAna yAda karatA hai / hama bhI aise vyavahAra ke mAlika baneM jo hameM bhI AnaMda de aura hamAre jAne A bAda bhI loga usase preraNA lete raheM / For Personal & Private Use Only 73

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vinamratA kI cAbI thAmie, aMhakAra kA hathor3A nahIM aMgara ApakA jIvana rUkhA-sUkhA ho gayA hai to turaMta usakI .. jar3oM meM vinamratA kA pAnI denA zurU kara diijie| vartamAna yuga meM jina guNoM kA hrAsa ho rahA hai, unameM eka hai - vinamra bhaav| haz2AroM varSoM se mAnava isa guNa ko AtmasAt kie hue thA para Aja aisA pratIta hotA hai ki usane apane guNoM kI zrRMkhalA meM anya katipaya guNoM ke sAtha 'vinaya' ko bAhara kara diyA hai| usake duSpariNAma udaMDatA, anuzAsanahInatA, aparAdhavRtti, caritrahInatA sAmane haiN| eka putra ne apane pitA se kahA, pitAjI Apa vinamratA ko sabase bar3A guNa mAnate haiM mujhe isake bAre meM prekTikala rUpa se smjhaaie| pitA ne mana meM socA putra ne bahuta acchI bAta kahI hai mujhe ise samajhAnA caahie| vaha apane putra ko lekara apane pitAjI ke pAsa jAtA hai aura jhukakara Adara ke sAtha praNAma karatA hai| putra ne yaha dekhA to samajhA ki pitAjI mAtra praNAma ke lie kahate hI nahIM hai karate bhI haiM / phira putra ne ina donoM ko saMgha ke adhyakSa ko namaskAra karate dekhaa| saMgha adhyakSa pradeza ke maMtrI ko, maMtrI muni ko aura muni kinhIM AcArya 74| For Personal & Private Use Only

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bhagavanta ko namaskAra kara rahe haiN| use yaha samajhate dera nahIM lagI ki vinamratA ke dvArA hama unnati ke sopAna kI ora bar3ha sakate haiM aura prabhu pada ko prApta kara sakate haiN| durvicAroM kA saMgaThana atyanta khataranAka hai| yaha vyakti ko paramAtmA taka pahu~cane nahIM detA hai / vinamratA kA guNa hamAre jIvana meM tabhI A sakegA jaba hama aham kA visarjana kreNge| 'maiM saba kucha jAnatA hU~' yaha mana kA dambha hai / mana ke isa dambha ko chor3a do| jIvana meM kucha pAnA hai, to ahaM se rikta honA pdd'egaa| jaise khAlI ghar3e meM hI pAnI A sakegA, bhare meM nhiiN| aura yAda rakheM duniyA meM koI bhI ghar3A jiMdagI bhara pAnI meM kyoM na rahe, para usameM eka bUMda bhI pAnI nahIM AegA vaha ghar3A pAnI se tabhI bhara sakatA hai jaba jhukane ko taiyAra hogaa| jaba ahaMkArI parivAra vAloM ko bhArI lagatA hai vahIM vinamra vyakti ko par3ausI bhI pyAra dete haiN| eka vidvAna saMta ke pAsa gyaa| usake mana meM apanI DigriyoM kA bar3A ahaMkAra thaa| vaha socatA thA ki maiM saba kucha jAnatA huuN| usane saMta se kahA, maiM ema.e., bI.eDa., pI.eca.DI dhAraka huuN| maiM bahuta jJAnI hU~, para jIvana kA jJAna adhUrA hai maiM pUrNa jJAna prApta karanA cAhatA huuN|sNt ne mana meM socA jaba taka isake mana meM aham hai ki mujhe bahuta jJAna hai taba taka yaha Atma-satya prApta nahIM kara sakatA hai| vidvAn ke samakSa saMta ne kAphI kI eka keTalI rkhii| vidvAna ke hAtha meM kapa-pleTa diyA tathA kAphI DAlane lgaa| kapa-pleTa donoM bhara gae kAphI nIce girane lgii| vidvAna ke peMTa zarTa kharAba ho rahe the| unhoMne saMta se kahA - yaha Apa kyA kara rahe haiM ? mere kapar3e kharAba ho gae haiN| maiMne Apase kAphI pilAne ke lie to nahIM kahA thaa| ____saMta ne vidvAna se kahA - maiM Apake savAla kA javAba hI to de rahA huuN| kAphI kahA~ pilA rahA huuN| usa vidvAna ne saMta se kahA maiM ApakI bAta samajha nahIM pAyA huuN|aap kRpA karake kucha spaSTa btaaie| saMta ne kahA - jaise bhare hue kapa meM kAphI DAlane para koI phAyadA nahIM huA balki Apake vastra kharAba ho gae, vaise hI Apake dila evaM dimAg2a rUpI | 75 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kapa-pleTa kA khAlI honA Avazyaka hai anyathA merA kahA huA satya bodha Apa hRdaya meM utAra nahIM paaeNge| hama cAhe kitanI bhI unnati kara leM para hameM apanI vinamratA kA tyAga nahIM karanA caahie| mAnavatA ko dhAraNa karane ke lie vinamratA kA guNa atyadhika sahAyaka hai| mAnava kahalAnA aura usake yogya honA donoM meM kAfI antara hai| ___ eka kamiznara eka jamIMdAra ke ghara caikiMga karane jAte haiN| vahA~ sabakI khuzahAlI ke samAcAra jJAta karake kahate haiM ki Apako ghabarAne kI koI AvazyakatA nahIM hai| hama Apake ghara kI jA~ca karane Ae haiM, pUrNa talAzI lii| eka do kamI thI vo ThIka karane kA kahakara jamIMdAra ko praNAma karake kAra se jAne lge| jamIMdAra kamIznara ke isa vinamra vyavahAra se bahuta prabhAvita huaa| usane kahA - maiM sATha varSa kA hU~ / na to maiM itanA vinamra hU~ kyoMki mere meM bhI jamIMdAra kA ahaM hai aura na hI maiMne itane bar3e pada ke 'nara' ko vinamra dekhaa| Aja taka maiM DaoNkTara, minisTara, kalekTara Adi sabhI se milA hU~ ve to 'Tara-Tara' hI karate rahate haiN| parantu yaha kamiznara 'nara' niklaa| nara meM laghutA honI caahie| laghutA meM hI vinamratA hai| viNaeva Naro gaMdheNaM, somayAi rynniyro| mahura raseNa amayaM, jaNapiyattaM lahada bhuvnne|| jaise sugandha ke kAraNa candana, saumyatA ke kAraNa candramA aura madhuratA ke kAraNa sudhA vizva priya hai, aise hI vinaya ke kAraNa nara loka priya banatA hai| vinamratA ke abhAva meM dharma kI kalpanA kaise saMbhava hai? devAdhideva paramAtmA mahAvIra svAmI ne kahA ki 'vinayamUlo dhmmo|' dharma kA mUla vinaya hai| jaise mUla ke binA vRkSa kI kalpanA nahIM kI jA sakatI hai| vaise hI vinaya ke binA dharma kI kalpanA karanA vyartha hai| vinaya dharma kA prANa hai| vinaya vRti ko apanA liyA jAe to dharma svataH ho jaaegaa| jaba jIvana meM vinaya kA samAveza ho jAtA hai to kSamA, mArdava, Arjava ityAdi sabhI kA samAveza svataH ho jAtA hai| yadi vinaya nahIM hai to anya kSetra bhI sUkhe raha jAte haiN| 76| For Personal & Private Use Only

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vinamratA eka aisA guNa hai jo sahaja hote hue vyavahAra jagata meM viziSTa guNa mAnA jAtA hai| isa guNa ke abhAva meM vyakti kisI ke sAtha AsAnI se sAmaJjasya nahIM biThA sakatA hai| vivAda evaM bahasabAjI se bacane hetu vinamratA amogha astra hai| kisI kA bahuta hI sundara kathana hai - vivAda karane vAlA udaMDa vyakti apane hAthoM apane uddezyoM kA eksIDeMTa karatA hai / calate-calate vaha vyakti svayaM kI dizA ko badala letA hai,para vinamra vyakti prakRti ke hara niyama kA sammAna karatA jAtA hai| jhukatA vahI hai, jisameM kucha jAna hai| akar3apana to khAsa, murde kI pahacAna hai| akar3ane se nAhaka, terA TUTegA sr| agara dara hai nIcA, to jhukakara gujr|| hama dekhate haiM ki calate-calate hamArA sira phUTa jAtA hai to yaha kahate haiM ki daravAz2A bahuta choTA thA isalie sira phUTa gyaa| sira to isalie phUTA kyoMki hama jhukakara calane ke AdI nahIM haiN| saccAI to yaha hai vinaya guNa ke sAmane bar3e-bar3e krUra hRdaya bhI prabhAvita hokara parivartita ho jAte haiN| ___ merA vizvAsa hai ki mAnava-jIvana meM mAtA-pitA dvArA pradatta saMskAra sthAyI hote haiN| yadi mAtA-pitA ke die hue saMskAroM ke sAtha dila meM dharma sthita hai to kahIM bhI jAie, ve saMskAra naSTa nahIM hoNge| mAtA-pitA se prApta saMskAra mRtyu ke aMtima kSaNa taka vidyamAna rahate haiN| eka vidhavA atyanta g2arIba thii| usake eka putra thaa| usa mahilA ne aneka kaSTa uThAkara silAI karake, mehanata-maz2adUrI karake putra ko par3hA-likhAkara yogya bnaayaa| putra bhI buddhimAna evaM hoziyAra thaa| apanI yogyatA se vaha senA meM bhartI ho gyaa| kucha samaya pazcAt vaha eka bahuta bar3A yogya adhikArI bana gyaa| mA~ ne use saba kucha sikhAyA para vinamratA nahIM sikhaayii| vaha yaha mAnatA thA ki jo kucha hU~, vaha maiM hI hU~, dUsarA kucha nahIM, saba mujhase choTe haiN| eka dina vaha kahIM jA rahA thaa| rAste meM bahuta bhIr3a thii| use pIche se halkA-sA dhakkA laga gyaa| krodha meM Aga babUlA hokara vaha sAmane vAle ko mArane lgaa| bhIr3a ekatrita ho gii| sainya adhikArI to vaha thA hI aura phira | 77 For Personal & Private Use Only

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usakI mAra se dUsarA vyakti lahulUhAna ho gyaa| vaha eka paira se usa ghAyala vyakti ko lAta mAratA hai, vahIM dUsarA paira sar3aka para par3e kele ke chilake para Ane se vaha gira jAtA hai| usakA pA~va TUTa jAtA hai| DaoNkTara cikitsA karate haiM para antataH pA~va ThIka nahIM hone ke kAraNa kATa diyA jAtA hai| vaha apane ghara meM par3A rahatA hai| paira nahIM hone se vaha apane ko asahAya mahasUsa karane lagatA hai| eka dina usa sainya adhikArI ne bahuta hI mAyUsa hokara apanI mA~ se kahA hai ki mA~ tUne mujhe saba kucha sikhAyA para yaha nahIM sikhAyA ki durabhimAna nahIM karanA caahie| vinamra honA caahie| aba mujhe laga rahA hai ki eka sAmAnya iMsAna hokara bhI maiM jagata meM U~cAI para pahuMca rahA thaa| lekina vinamra nahIM hone se vyAvahArika jagata meM maiM ahaMkAravaza hareka se lar3a par3atA thaa| isalie merI yaha sthiti huI hai| vAstava meM 'maiM' bahuta choTA hai aura duniyA bahuta bar3I hai| baccoM ke lie mAtA-pitA dvArA die gae saMskAra bar3e hI mahattvapUrNa huA karate haiN| parivAra se vinamratA, sadAzayatA cAritrika dRr3hatA Adi saMskAra prApta karake unakA pUrNarUpeNa pAlana karane para hI baccA Adarza nAgarika bana sakatA hai| jo jitanA jJAnI hogA vaha utanA hI vinamra bhI hogaa| per3a para adhika phala lagate haiM to per3a jhuka jAtA hai| akar3akara rahane vAlA hUMTha per3a sadA phala vihIna rahatA hai| mAnava yadi mAnavIyatA ke sAtha jItA hai to vaha prabhu tulya hai anyathA vaha manuSya hote hue pazutulya hai| sevA-bhAva, vinamratA, cAritrika dRr3hatA evaM nirvyasanatA ke sAtha jIvana vyatIta karanA hI mAnava jIvana kI sArthakatA hai| candrayaza muni dIkSA grahaNa karane se eka dina pUrva apane bahanoI ke sAtha AcArya rudradattamuni ke darzana hetu ge| bahanoI ne vahA~ maz2Aka meM AcArya zrI se kahA- hamAre sAle candrayaza jI Apake ziSya banane ke yogya haiN| AcArya rudradata atyanta raudra prakRti ke the| unhoMne bahanoI kI bAta sunate hI muTThI bhara rAkha candrayaza ke sira para malI aura kezoM kA loca kara diyaa| candrayaza ne kisI bhI prakAra kA virodha kie binA dIkSA ko aMgIkAra kiyA tathA muni-veza dhAraNa kiyaa| 78/ For Personal & Private Use Only

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candrayaza ke mana meM ekAeka thor3I dera meM vicAra huA ki mujhe sAdhu banA die jAne kA samAcAra sunakara mere parivAra vAle krodhita hoMge tathA AcAryazrI ko taMga kreNge| aisA socakara usane AcArya se vinamra zabdoM meM kahA ki hama yahA~ se abhI vihAra kara deM to adhika ucita hogaa| AcAryazrI ne krodhAveza meM kahA- tumheM dikhAI nahIM detA hai maiM cala nahIM sakatA huuN| ziSya ne kahA - maiM Apako kaMdhoM para le cluuNgaa| yaha sunakara AcArya zrI calane ko taiyAra ho ge| zAma kA samaya thaa| ghanaghora ghaTA chAyI huI thii| sUryAsta se pUrva hI aMdherA-sA hone laga gayA, rAstA sApha dikhAI nahIM de rahA thaa| dIkSA kA prathama divasa, naMge pA~va muni apane kaMdhe para AcAryazrI ko lekara Age bar3hate jA rahe the| kaMkara, patthara Ane para muni z2arA se DagamagAte to AcArya zrI krodhita ho jAte-aMdhe ho kyA? dekhakara nahIM clte| tumhAre hilane se mujhe kitanI takalIpha hotI hai| muni candrayaza mana hI mana pazcAtApa karate, are maiM kitanA pApI huuN| mere kAraNa gurudeva ko kitanI takalIpha ho rahI hai| ve calate-calate punaH punaH apane guruvara se kSamApanA karate aura vinaya ke ina bhAvoM se unake pariNAmoM meM itanI uccatA kA samAveza huA ki usI samaya unako kevala jJAna ho gyaa| aba unheM aMdhere meM bhI saba kucha dikhAI de rahA thaa| acAnaka cele kI cAla meM aMtara Ane se takalIpha kama hone ke kAraNa AcArya zrI ne zAMta bhAva se pUchA, aba to tuma aise cala rahe ho jaise prakAza meM calate ho, Aqhira kyA bAta hai? ziSya ne kahA gurudeva ApakI kRpA dRSTi ke kAraNa aMdhere meM bhI saba kucha dikhAI dene lagA hai| AcAryazrI cauNke| unheM saba kucha samajha meM A gyaa| ve mana hI mana prAyazcita karane lge| unhoMne socA dhikkAra hai mujhe| ajJAnatA ke kAraNa maiMne kevalajJAnI muni kI AtmA ko bahuta duHkha pahu~cAyA hai| unakA pazcAtApa atyadhika bar3hatA gayA aura unako bhI kevalajJAna kI prApti ho gii| isa prakAra vinaya guNa ke kAraNa muni candrayaza kA bhI tathA guru kA bhI Atma kalyANa huaa| | 79 For Personal & Private Use Only

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bhagavAna mahAvIra ne vinamratA kA mahattva batAte hue kahA 'viNao sAsaNe mUlaM, viNio saMjao bhave / viNayAo vippamukkassa, kao dhammo kao tavo // arthAt - vinaya jina zAsana kA mUla hai| saMyama tathA tapa se vinita bananA caahie| jo vinaya se rahita hai, usakA kaisA dharma aura kaisA tapa / buddha ne vinamratA ko dhyAna batAyA kyoMki isake dvArA satya se sAkSAtkAra kiyA jA sakatA hai / mahAtmA gA~dhI ne vinamratA ko ahiMsA kA rUpa diyaa| hama vinamra hokara hI ahiMsaka aura dhyAnI bana sakate haiM / sukarAta ke matAnusAra saphalatA kA svarNa sUtra vinamratA hai / unhoMne kahA ki yadi Apa duniyA ko vaza meM karanA cAhate ho to svayaM ko vaza meM karo aura isake lie z2arUrI hai sarvaprathama vinamra bno| yaha sabase bar3A vazIkaraNa maMtra hai / jo kArya Apa lAkhoM rupaye kharca karane para bhI nahIM karavA sakate haiM vaha Apa vinamratA ke bola se karavA sakate haiM / yadi vinamratA nahIM hai ahaM hai jisake kAraNa bar3e-bar3e vidvAna, dhanADhya loga bhI asaphalatA ke kagAra para pahu~ca jAte haiM / kaThoratA se eka bAra kArya meM avarodha utpanna ho sakatA hai para vinamratA se paidA huA avarodha bhI dUra hotA hai / - vinamratA ke sAtha hamAre vicAroM meM niSkaMpatA honI cAhie / jo antarmana se pavitra hotA hai vahI lambe samaya taka vinamratA, ziSTatA kA jIvana vyatIta kara sakatA hai| prazaMsA, anumodana, samarthana, protsAhana ye vinamratA ke samIpa rahate haiM / vinaya mana kI dAsatA nahIM hai apitu jIvana kI U~cAI hai| isalie hamArA usameM sahaja bhAva prakaTa honA cAhie / tapasyA ke bAraha prakAroM meM vinamratA, vAk niyaMtraNa, anuzAsana aura AcAra ina cAroM prakAroM ke anusAra vinaya ke sAta bheda batAe gae haiM, jisameM lokopacAra vinaya ko bhI sthAna diyA gayA hai| kAraNa spaSTa hai ki vyavahAra ke binA AcAra nahIM calatA hai| saMgha aura saMsthAoM ko yahI guNa jIvana va jIvaMtatA pradAna karatA hai / 80 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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eka prazna upasthita hotA hai ki dhyAnI aura vinayI meM kyA antara hai| jo svayaM ke mana kI ArAdhanA karatA hai vaha dhyAnI hai| jo sabake mana kI ArAdhanA karatA hai, vaha vinayI hai| samudra jaisA gAmbhIrya aura himAlaya jaisI acalatA sabhI meM honI caahie| samudra meM cAhe jitanI bhI nadiyA apane jala ko DAlatI hai para samudra kabhI chalakatA nahIM hai| apane andara sabhI ko samAviSTa kara letA hai| usI prakAra vinayI vyakti kar3ave-mIThe sabhI anubhavoM ko apane bhItara samAviSTa kara letA hai| jaise samudra meM ratna aura kaMkara ke lie samAna sthAna hai vaise hI vinayI vyakti ke mana meM sajjana, durjana ke prati samAna sthAna honA caahie| __IrSyA, dveSa, matsara, ahaMkAra Adi ye kSudra vRttiyA~ haiM inheM zrAvaka ko apane mana se dUra kara denA cAhie tabhI vinamratA kA guNa aaegaa|ahNkaar vinAza kA kAraNa hai| hanumAna meM namratA thI isalie unakA bala bhI amara bnaa| sAgara ke kinAre sabhI vAnara baiThe hue the| laMkA meM kauna jAe isakI carcA cala rahI thii| parantu hanumAna ekAMta meM baiThakara rAma-nAma kA jApa kara rahe the| jaba hanamAna se pUchA gayA to unhoMne kahA - 'samudra ko lAMgha kara laMkA meM jAne kI merI himmata nahIM hai, para rAma kA AzIrvAda hogA to maiM jA skuuNgaa|' hanumAna jaba samudra ko lAMgha kara laMkA meM pahuMce to unhoMne yaha nahIM kahA ki apane bAhubala se yahA~ A sakA hU~ parantu unhoMne yahI kahA ki maiM rAma ke bala se hI yahA~ A sakA huuN| isa prakAra hanumAna meM bala hone para bhI unakI nirabhimAnI vRtti se hI unakA bala ajara-amara bana sakA hai| sabhI meM isI prakAra kI nirabhimAnitA honI caahie|ahNkaar kI kSudra vRtti kA hRdaya meM sparza nahIM hone denA caahie| vinayI vyakti meM ahaMkAra kI kSudravRtti samApta ho jAtI hai| isa prakAra kI vRttiyoM ke samApta hone para hI mAnava vinayI hotA hai| jaise paira meM kAMTA laga jAe to eka qadama bhI Age nahIM bar3hAyA jA sakatA hai| vaise hI jaba taka hRdaya meM kSudravRttiyoM ke kAMTe bhare hoM taba taka pragatizIla jIvana nahIM banAyA jA sakatA | 81 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jisa prakAra dUdha meM makkhI gira jAne para mAnava use zIghratA se bAhara nikAla kara pheMka detA hai| usI prakAra mana meM kSudravRttiyoM ke A jAne para use zIghratA se nikAla denA caahie| kSudra vRtti se rahita mana ke dvArA hI hamAre jIvana kA kalyANa kiyA jA sakatA hai| __ hameM apane jIvana ko zreSTha banAne hetu jAganA z2arUrI hai| jAge binA viveka jAgRta nahIM hogA aura viveka ke binA jIvana kI upayogitA siddha nahIM hogii| badalAva yA sudhAra kA dUsarA nAma samyak jAgaraNa hai| jaba taka dIpaka rahatA hai aMdhakAra usake pAsa nahIM AtA hai| jAgRta aura sajaga jIvana meM burAiyA~ praveza nahIM kara sakatI hai| jAgane se tAtparya hai ghara meM lauTa aanaa| aise ghara meM jahA~ sukha ho, zAMti ho| 82 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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aise sudhAreM aMtardRSTi duniyA kAlI tabhI taka naz2ara AtI hai jaba taka sapheda cazmA na pahanA jaae| kaoNleja meM eka kampiTizana huA jisameM chAtroM ke eka samUha ko duniyA ke vartamAna sAta ajUboM ke nAmoM ke Age Tika lagAne ke lie eka sUcI sauMpI gyii| hAlAMki chAtroM meM isa silasile meM kaI nAmoM para asahamati dekhI gaI, magara nimna smArakoM ko ina chAtroM ke sarvAdhika mata mile-misra ke pirAmiDa, tAjamahala, graiMDa kainyana, panAmA nahara, eMpAyara sTeTa bilDiMga, seMTa pITarsa baisilikA aura cIna kI diivaar| vibhinna chAtroM ke matoM ko ekatrita karane ke daurAna TIcara ne pAyA ki eka chAtrA abhI bhI apanI sUcI taiyAra karane meM juTI huI thii| TIcara ne usase pUchA ki duniyA ke sAta AzcaryoM para Tika lagAne ke lie use jo sUcI pradAna kI gaI thI, usako lekara koI samasyA hai ? chAtrA ne tatkAla z2avAba diyA - 'hA~, TIcara merI thor3I samasyA hai, kyoMki pradatta nAmoM kI sUcI ko lekara maiM duvidhA meM pha~sa gaI huuN| isa z2iMdagI meM itanI khUbasUrata cIjeM haiM ki mahaja sAta ajUboM | 83 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kA nAma taya karanA mere lie behada muzkila ho rahA hai| isa para TIcara ne kahA - mujhe apanI samasyA batAo zAyada maiM tumhArI madada kara paauuN| chAtrA ne hicakicAte hue batAyA ki merI naz2ara meM duniyA ke sAta Azcarya haiM : aisI khUbasUrata cIz2oM ko dekhanA jinakI hamezA hama upekSA karate rahate haiM, hara eka ko pyArI lagane vAlI bAteM sunanA, logoM ke jIvana meM Dhera sArI khuziyoM kI barasAta karanA, aise logoM ko premapUrNa sparza denA jo mAnavIyatA ke sparza ke mohatAja rahe haiM, apane priyajanoM ke sukha-dukha meM zarIka honA aura unakA ahasAsa karanA, hara mauke-be-mauke khulakara ha~sanA aura prema se maharUma logoM ko prema se labAlaba krnaa| chAtrA kI bAtoM ko pUrA klAsa-rUma aise suna rahA thA jaise lagatA thA ki mAnoM vahA~ koI hai hI nhiiN| usakI bAta qhatma hone ke bAda bhI kucha paloM taka pUre klAsa-rUma meM stabdhatA chAyI rhii| saca bAta hai ki jina cIz2oM kI hama yU~ hI sAdhAraNa aura mahatvahIna samajhate hue upekSA karate jAte haiM, patA calatA hai ki asalI khUbasUratI unameM hI thii| sacamuca ve kitanI Azcarya se bharI huI thiiN| ___ jaba vyakti kI guNa grAhaka aMtardRSTi khulatI hai tabhI use jIvana kA satya prApta hotA hai| hamArI dRSTi kevala bAhara rahegI to sukha aura suvidhAe~ to hamAre hAtha meM A jAe~gI, para jIvana kI samRddhi hAthoM se chiTaka jaaegii| duniyA kI bahumUlya aura khUbasUrata cIz2oM ko mAnava dvArA na to nirmita kiyA jA sakatA he aura na hI kahIM se lAyA jA sakatA hai| manuSya ke jIvana meM samRddhi ho para dharma evaM zAMti nahIM ho to vaha jIvana zuSka hai, prayojana rahita aura nirarthaka hai| dharma evaM zAMtimaya jIvana ke lie sacitaMna kA honA atyanta Avazyaka hai| aisA koI bhI manuSya nahIM hai jo ciMtana zUnya ho| hA~ ciMtana kI rAha, citaMna kI dizA bhinna-bhinna ho sakatI hai aura vaha bhinna-bhinna hotI bhI hai| sabakA eka hI dhyeya hotA hai ki yena kena prakAreNa vyakti zAMti ko prApta kre| jaba manuSya apane doSoM ko zAMta karatA hai, unakA zamana karatA hai taba antaraMga se zAMti prakaTa hotI hai| bAhara kahIM bhI zAMti nahIM hai| zAMti svayaM meM hai, apane meM hai, isalie svayaM ko dekhanA-khojanA hI zAMti ko pAne kA sarala 841 For Personal & Private Use Only

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upAya hai| eka gA~va meM do parivAra ke dasa vyakti apanA sAmAna pAsa ke gA~va meM becane ge| lauTate samaya rAste meM par3ane vAlI nadI atyadhika vega meM thI / vahA~ koI nAva nahIM thI, para sabhI tairane meM kuzala the| unhoMne nizcaya kiyA ki tairakara hI nadI ke usa kinAre saba phuNceNge| saba ke pahu~cane para ikaTThe hI gA~va jAe~ge / saba nadI ke pAsa pahu~ce, dUsare kinAre para pahu~cane para mukhiyA ne sabako ginanA prAraMbha kiyaa| vaha bAra-bAra nau taka ginatA / koI bhI dasaveM vyakti ko nahIM gina pA rahA thaa| cAra-pA~ca logoM ke dvArA ginane para bhI jaba dasa kI ginatI nahIM ho pAI to unhoMne socA eka sAthI raha gayA vaha nadI meM DUba gayA hai| zoka meM unhoMne ronA prAraMbha kara diyaa| unheM jora-jora se rote dekhakara eka rAhagIra vahA~ rukA aura rone kA kAraNa puuchaa| rAhagIra ne sabako ginanA zurU kiyA ve pUre dasa the / yaha sunakara sabhI ko apanI bhUla kA ahasAsa huA ki pratyeka ginane vAlA vyakti sabako gina rahA thA, para apane-Apako nahIM gina rahA thA / sabako dekha rahA thA, para svayaM ko hI nahIM dekha pA rahA thA / hama dUsaroM ke doSoM ko dekhane meM laga rahe haiM apane lie nahIM socate, apane doSoM ko nahIM dekhate haiM / pratyeka vyakti svayaM kI ora dekhe, svayaM ko pahacAne / svayaM ko ddhuuNddh'e| dUsaroM ke doSoM ko, avaguNoM ko mata dekho| svayaM ke avaguNoM ko dekho| dekhane haiM to dUsaroM ke guNoM ko dekho| guNAnurAgI bano / guNAnurAgI hone se guNa hamArI tarapha AkarSita hoMge / jaise peTa bharane ke lie anna kI AvazyakatA hotI hai / banAkara koI de degA, parosa koI degA, khilA bhI koI degA, para svayaM ko cabAnA hogA, pacAnA hogA, tabhI rakta bnegaa| yadi Apa kaheM ki maiM bhojana nahIM karU~gA mere badale anya koI bhojana kare aura peTa merA bhara jAe to kAma nahIM clegaa| kyoMki jo vyakti bhojana karegA usI kA peTa bharegA, svayaM jitane, jisa prakAra ke anna kA upabhoga kareMge usI ke anusAra phala kI prApti hogii| isI prakAra hameM svayaM ko hI apane doSoM ko dekhanA hogA / usameM sudhAra karanA hogA / hameM bhalI bhA~ti heya - upAdeya ko, grAhya - tyAjya ko jAnanA hogaa| apanI dRSTi ko badalanA hogA / For Personal & Private Use Only | 85

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eka vyakti ne mujhe batAyA ki vaha eka DhAbe se khAnA khAkara nikala rahA thA ki pAsa meM khar3A eka bUr3hA bhikhArI hAtha phailAkara khAnA mA~gane lgaa| usane DhAbe se khAnA lekara usa bUr3he ko de diyaa| bhikhArI ne khAnA zurU bhI nahIM kiyA thA ki vahA~ do bacce Ae aura DhAbe se nikalane vAle logoM se khAnA mA~gane lge| lekina sabhI unheM dutkAra rahe the| usa bhikhArI ne una baccoM ko apane pAsa bulAyA aura apanA khAnA unheM de diyaa| vaha bhI vahA~ khar3A saba kucha dekha rahA thaa| usane bUDhe se pUchA- 'Apane khAnA to unheM de diyA aba Apa kyA khaaeNge|' to bUr3he ne javAba diyA - 'mujhe to tumhAre jaisA koI aura bhI khilA degA aura eka dina khAnA nahIM bhI milegA to koI bAta nhiiN| lekina mere sAmane choTe bacce bhUkhe raheM aura maiM khAnA khAU~ yaha mujhase dekhA nahIM jaataa|' bhikhArI hokara bhI vyakti apanI guNadRSTi se mahAna bana sakatA hai| jo vyakti ni:svArtha bhAva se sevA karatA hai, usake kArya kI hama prazaMsA kareM, usa kArya se anurAga rakheM to nizcita rUpa se hamAre vicAroM meM parivartana hogaa| hamAre qadama usa ora agrasara hoNge| isake viparIta jo paisA lekara, rizvata lekara kArya karate haiM, hama yadi unake kAryoM kI prazaMsA kareMge to hamAre jIvana meM bhI isa prakAra ke avaguNa vikasita hoNge| hameM niraMtara sadguNoM kI hI prazaMsA karanI cAhie, guNavAnoM ke prati anurAga rakhanA caahie| kisI vyakti se jhagar3A ho jAne para yadi Apa usa para kIcar3a uchAloge to yaha yAda rakhie pahile Apake hAtha-pA~va gaMde hoNge| Avazyaka nahIM hai kIcar3a vahA~ taka uchala kara calA jAe, usa vyakti para koI asara par3e, na par3e para Apake hAtha-paira to gaMde ho hI jaaeNge| galI-muhalle meM jhAr3a lagAyA para apane ghara meM nahIM lagAyA to svayaM kA ghara to gaMdA hI rhegaa| isalie apane hI ghara se saphAI prAraMbha karanI hogii| pahale svayaM ke doSa svayaM meM pahacAnane hoMge aura unase dUra hone kA prayAsa karanA hogaa| / doSa-dRSTi kAlI nAgina hai, jisase hRdaya kaluSita hotA hai| guNa-dRSTi mokSa kI sopAna hai isase hRdaya nirmala banatA hai| doSa-dRSTi sadA dUsaroM meM avaguNa dekhatI hai aura guNa-dRSTi guNoM ko|aadmii Aqhira vaisA hI banatA hai jaisA vaha dekhatA yA socatA hai| aksara AdamI dUsaroM ko badalanA cAhatA hai| 86/ For Personal & Private Use Only

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dUsaroM ko badalanA hamAre hAtha meM nahIM hai, para svayaM ko badalanA svayaM ke hAthoM meM hai| qhuda ko badalanA dUsaroM se prApta hone vAlI apekSA kI bajAya upekSA se mukta hone kA sarala upakrama hai| ___ eka karor3apati A~kha ke darda se kAfI parezAna thaa| usane behatAza auSadhiyA~ nigalI aura saikar3oM kI saMkhyA meM iMjekzana liye lekina sthiti DhAka ke tIna pAta kI taraha hI rhii|aakh'ir usane kAfI mazahUra eka bhikSu kI zaraNa lI, bhikSu ne usakI samasyA ko bArIkI se samajhakara use hare raMga para apanA dhyAna kendrita karane kI salAha dii| salAha para karor3apati ne peMTaroM se kahA ki ve hara usa cIz2a ko hare raMga meM raMga DAleM, jinake kAmakAz2a aura ghUmane-phirane ke daurAna usakI naz2ara meM Ane kI saMbhAvanA ho| / kucha dinoM bAda jaba vaha bhikSu karor3apati milane AyA to usake naukara hare peMTa se bharI bAlTI dauDe aura bhikSa ke Upara uDela diyaa| aisA karane kI vaz2aha jAnakara bhikSu apanI ha~sI cAhakara bhI nahIM roka paayaa| usane usa amIra AdamI se kahA - agara tuma itanA tAmajhAma aura UTapaTAMga upAya karane kI bajAya mahaja harA cazmA pahana lete to dIvAroM, per3a-paudhoM aura ghara ke dUsare bartanoM va sAmAnoM ko hare raMga meM raMgane kI z2arUrata hI nahIM pdd'tii| tuma duniyA ko to hare raMga meM peMTa nahIM kara skte| hameM sirpha apanI dRSTi meM badalAva karane kI z2arUrata hai, phira duniyA usI raMga kI dikhane lagatI hai| hameM svadoSa darzana, para doSa varjana karanA hai| svayaM ke doSoM ke darzana evaM unake tyAga se hI hameM zAMti milegii| hamAre Asa-pAsa sabhI doSa rahita hai para hamAre meM doSa hai to zAMti prApta nahIM hogii| hameM svayaM ko dekhane ke lie pahale sAdhanoM kA prayoga karanA hogaa| bahirmukhI jIvana jIne kI bajAya antarmukhI banane kA prayAsa karanA hogaa| cAhe kitanI hI bAdhAe~ Ae hameM pIche nahIM mur3anA hai| hameM maMz2ila taka pahuMce binA, iSTa taka pahu~cane se pUrva taka sAdhana kA tyAga nahIM karanA hai| hama eka bacce ko khar3A honA calanA sikhAte haiM, para baccA gira jAtA hai to bhI hama use khar3A karake calAnA sikhAte haiM / yaha kahate haiM ki paravAha mata kro| girane se maz2abUta hogaa| yadi sikhAe~ge nahIM to vaha khar3A kaise hogaa| jaba vyavahAra meM hama bAdhA Ane para, aneka saMkaToM ke upasthita hone para | 87 For Personal & Private Use Only

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bhI apane kArya ko nahIM chor3ate haiM to saphala ho jAte haiN| svadoSa darzana meM jo prAraMbha meM mana azAMta hotA hai, halacala hotI hai to hameM usakA tyAga nahIM karanA cAhie, doSa-darzana se utpanna vaha azAMti hameM antatogatvA zAMti kI ora le jaaegii| kyoMki hamane apane doSa ko dekha liyA, svIkAra kara liyA to palabhara bhale hI azAMti mile, para usake bAda to zAMti hI milegI / manuSya ke jIvana meM jaba taka anubhava nahIM ho taba taka lAbha nahIM hai mAtra zAstroM ke adhyayana se hameM anubhava prApta nahIM hogaa| zAstra jJAna se mukti nahIM hai anubhava jJAna se mukti hotI hai kyoMki zAstroM se hameM mArga milatA hai aura anubhava se hameM marma prApta hotA hai| zAstroM se jIvana nirmANakArI zikSA prApta kara sakate haiM para Age bar3hane ke lie anubhava sahAyaka hogaa| hama yadi rAste meM par3e patthara se Thokara khA jAte haiM to punaH Thokara nahIM lage hameM isa prakAra kI zikSA grahaNa karanI caahie| hamAre jIvana meM aneka burAiyA~, doSa-avaguNa hai unake zamana ke lie zAstrajJAna evaM suzikSA sAdhana hai, mArgadarzaka hai, Adarza bhI hai / jisa prakAra puSpa - phala-patte se rahita vRkSa kA koI mUlya nahIM hai loga use ThUMTha kahate haiM usI prakAra samyak darzana - jJAna- cAritra ke binA AtmA kA koI mUlya nahIM hai| pakSI hai para usake paMkha nahIM hai to vaha ur3Ana nahIM bhara sakatA / makAna meM TUTI IMTa ho to unheM haTAyA jAtA hai usI prakAra jIvana meM eka-eka guNa ko grahaNa kareMge, eka-eka doSa kA darzana karake use haTAte jAe~ge to jIvana bhI apanI U~cAiyoM taka pahu~cegA, unnatizIla hogA / guNoM se hI mAnava jIvana uttama hotA hai / isake lie hameM kSaNa bhara ke lie hI sahI para satpuruSoM kI saMgati avazya karanI caahie| unake guNoM kA darzana karanA caahie| jIvana meM koI-nakoI niyama isa taraha kA avazya honA cAhie tAki guNoM kA vistAra hotA rahe / mana ! yadi tuma buddhi kauzala pAne ke lie, ApadAoM ko haTAne ke lie, sanmArga para calane ke lie, kIrti pAne ke lie, asAdhutA ko dabAne ke lie, dharma kA sevana karane ke lie, pApa ke pariNAma ko rokane ke lie aura svarga mokSa kI saukhya zrI kA saMcaya karanA cAhate ho to guNavAnoM kI saMgati kro| jaise candrahIna AkAza zobhita nahIM hotA vaise guNahIna nara bhI zobhA nahIM pAtA hai / 888 | yadi ubhaya loka meM sukha pAnA hai to guNa ko grahaNa kareM / jahA~ kisI kI / For Personal & Private Use Only

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doSa kI bAta Ae to mauna ho jAnA caahie| jIvana bahuta jaTila hai| yadi doSa kI bAta meM Apa boleMge to Apa zabdoM ke gulAma ho jaaeNge|sunne vAle ApakI bAta ke aneka artha nikaaleNge| Amataura para yaha dekhA jAtA hai ki kisI kI prazaMsA karanI ho to pA~ca-dasa minaTa meM hamArI jihvA thaka jAtI hai aura yadi burAI karanI ho to ghaMToM vyatIta ho jAte haiM para thakatI nahIM hai| jabaki pratyeka meM acchAI aura burAI donoM hote haiM / jar3a aura cetana donoM meM acchAI rahatI hai, para pahacAnane kI dRSTi manuSya meM avazya honI caahie| catura zilpakAra patthara ke Tukar3e meM bhI devI-devatA aura rAjA-rAniyoM kI AkRtiyA~ dekha sakatA hai| isI prakAra para guNa darzana kI vRtti ho to sabhI meM guNa dekha sakate haiM aura prApta kara sakate haiN| dUdha aura pAnI mizrita kaTore ke pAsa rAjahaMsa AtA hai to mAtra dUdha hI grahaNa karatA hai| usameM mile pAnI ko chor3a detA hai| lekina kisI vyakti kA svabhAva hI aisA hotA hai ki vaha dUsaroM kI bhUloM aura truTiyoM ko hI DhU~r3hatA rahatA haiM / jaise cIMTI sarvatra chidra hI DhU~r3hatI hai| yaha chidrAnveSaNa kI pravRtti manuSyoM kI nahIM honI caahie| unakI dRSTi to guNAnveSaNa kI honI caahie| eka bAra zrIkRSNa bhagavAna tIrthaMkara neminAtha ke darzana karane jA rahe the| yAdava parivAra bhI unake sAtha thaa| rAste meM eka kutiyA thii| usake zarIra se rakta, pIpa baha rahI thii| durgaMdha A rahI thii| sabhI mu~ha phera kara nAka para rumAla rakhakara Age kI ora bar3ha rahe the, para karmayogI zrIkRSNa ne kahA-ahA! isake dA~ta kitane sundara hai| sar3e hue durgaMdha yukta zarIra para unhoMne dhyAna nahIM dekara usake dA~toM kI prazaMsA kii| isa prakAra kI guNa grAhakatA hamAre bhI honI caahie| hameM yadi dekhanA hai to svayaM ke doSoM ko dekhanA cAhie apane guNoM ko nhiiN| doSoM ko dekhanA zurU kara diyA to hama Age bar3ha sakeMge aura guNoM ko dekheMge to mana-hI-mana svayaM kI prazaMsA kareMge to ahaM kI puSTi hogii| makkhI svaccha sthAna para yA zarIra ke svastha sthala para nahIM jAkara phor3epha~sI yA ghAva para hI baiThatI hai| cIla kI dRSTi mare hue sarpa para par3atI hai| isI prakAra doSa dRSTi vAlA sarvatra doSoM ko hI dekhatA hai| manuSya ko cIla nahIM rAjahaMsa bananA hai| usakI dRSTi mare hue sarpa para nahIM apitu sacce motiyoM kI | 89 For Personal & Private Use Only

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mAlA para par3anI caahie| use phor3e-phuMsI para baiThane vAlI makkhI kI taraha nahIM bananA hai| apitu puSpa-parAga lUTane vAle bhramara kI taraha bananA hai / 'guNiSu pramodam' ke sUtra ko sArthakatA pradAna karanI hai / guNAnurAga se mAtsarya bhAva kA vinAza hokara vinaya, vinamratA Adi sadguNoM kI vRddhi hotI hai| manuSya kI jaisI dRSTi hotI hai vaisI hI use sRSTi dikhAI detI hai / " - mahAbhArata kA eka pyArA-sA ghaTanA prasaMga hai| kaurava evaM pANDava donoM apane vidyA guru ke pAsa abhyAsa karane jAte haiN| purAne jamAne meM vidyArthiyoM kI parIkSA karake jJAna diyA jAtA thaa| AcArya ne duryodhana aura yudhiSThira donoM kI parIkSA lI / duryodhana ko bulAkara kahA ki tuma isa gA~va meM jAo aura guNavAna manuSyoM kI ginatI kara Ao / yudhiSThira se kahA tuma isa gA~va meM jAo aura dekho kitane avaguNI vyakti hai| donoM apane-apane sthala para jAte haiN| duryodhana vApisa lauTakara AtA hai aura kahatA hai - gurudeva ! Apake kahe anusAra maiMne bahuta khoja kI, pUre gA~va meM ghUmA para mujhe eka bhI guNI vyakti isa gA~va meM nahIM milaa| koI ahaMkArI thA, koI kaMjUsa thA, koI juArI thA, isa prakAra amIra se lekara g2arIba taka sabhI meM avaguNa the / yudhiSThira bhI AcArya ke pAsa AyA aura kahA gurudeva ! Apane mujhe jisa kAma ke lie bhejA vaha maiM kara aayaa| maiM vyaktiyoM kI ginatI nahIM kara skaa| mujhe isa gA~va meM eka bhI avaguNI dikhAI nahIM diyA / nIca se nIca vyakti meM bhI koI na koI guNa avazya thA / kasAI meM apane dvArA kie jA rahe kArya ke prati niMdA kA bhAva thA, prAyazcita kA bhAva thA / vaha hiMsA kArya ko heya samajhakara chor3anA cAhatA hai, para AjIvikA ke samakSa maz2abUra hokara natamastaka hai| maiMne to jitanoM ko dekhA, sabhI meM koI na koI guNa avazya thA / yudhiSThira ke isa uttara se gurudeva prasanna hue / unhoMne socA ki yahI vAstava meM jJAna prApta karane ke yogya hai / vAstava meM zrAvaka kI dRSTi kRSNa kI taraha, yudhiSThira kI taraha honI caahie| isa saMsAra meM koyale evaM hIre donoM mila sakate haiN| Apa donoM meM se kisI ke bhI grAhaka bana sakate haiM, para yAda rakhie yadi koyale ke grAhaka baneMge 90 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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to usake kAlepana se Apake hAtha kAle hoNge| hIre ke grAhaka baneMge to usake prakAza se prakAzita hoNge| svayaM ke doSa darzana, para doSa varjana, para guNAnurAgitA se Apa unnati ke sopAna kI ora agrasara ho sakeMge / jaise eka citrakAra sundara citra banAne ke lie saundarya samUha ko apane mana meM saMjokara citra banAtA hai / usameM rahI kamiyoM ko dUra karatA hai| usake mana meM eka hI bhAva rahatA hai yena-kena prakAreNa yaha citra sundara bana jAe / usI prakAra svayaM ko bhavya rUpa dene ke lie hamAre andara sthita avaguNoM ko dekhakara hameM unheM ulIcanA hai / bAhara nikAlanA hai tathA guNa rUpI sundara AkRti se svayaM ko sajAnA hai / bAhya rUpa, raMga, saundarya kA koI mUlya nahIM hai| yadi mUlya hai to Antarika guNoM kA, saundarya kA / kahA bhI hai - sUrya kI zobhA AkAza se nahIM usake prakAza se hai / candra kI zobhA gagana se nahIM usakI zItalatA se hai| puSpa kI zobhA upavana se nahIM usake suvAsa se hai / manuSya kI zobhA rUpa se nahIM usake guNoM se hai / hama apane vicAroM se hI mahAn bneNge| vicAroM se hI deva, dAnava aura pazu bneNge| yadi Apane apane mana meM soca liyA ki mujhe apane doSoM kA tyAga karanA hai Apa apane isa acche vicAra para sudRr3ha haiM to bAhara se cAhe jitane jhaMjhAvAta Ae~, tUphAna Ae~, kitanI hI AlocanA kI A~dhiyA~ cale apane praNa evaM karttavya se nahIM haTa paaeNge| lar3AI kI hAra itanI hAra nahIM, vicAroM kI hAra hI sabase bar3I hAra hai| vicAroM kA vaibhava bAhya vaibhava se atyadhika mahattvapUrNa hai / isa vaibhava ke hone para manuSya saMsAra ke maidAna meM vijaya prApta kara sakatA hai / hameM apane suvicAroM para maz2abUtI se paira jamAe rakhane haiM / For Personal & Private Use Only | 91

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ubareM ciMtA ke makar3a jAla se kala kA dina dekhA hai kisane, Aja kA dina khoe~ kyoN| jina ghar3iyoM meM ha~sa sakate haiM, una ghar3iyoM meM roe~ kyoN| sabase choTe va pyAre putra kI sarpa daMza se mRtyu hone ke kAraNa eka pitA ciMtA se atyadhika vyAkula ho gyaa| usane sapere ko bulAkara sA~pa ko pakar3avA liyaa| pitA sA~pa ko mArane vAlA hI thA ki tabhI sA~pa ne kahA Apa mujhe kyoM mArate haiM ? maiMne to mRtyu ke Adeza kA pAlana kiyA thaa| daMDa denA hI hai to mRtyu ko daMDa do| pitA mRtyu ke pAsa gyaa| usase kahA - Aqhira tuma kauna hotI ho mere putra kI mauta kA Adeza dene vAlI? mRtyu ne kahA - mujhe samaya ne aisA karane ko kahA thA, pitA samaya ke pAsa gayA aura kahA - tumane mere putra kI mauta kA Adeza kyoM diyA? samaya ne kahA- mujhe karma ne aisA karane ko kahA thaa| pitA karma ke pAsa gayA aura pUchA ki vaha kauna hotA hai mere putra kI mauta kA Adeza dene vaalaa|krm ne kahA -maiM to jar3a huuN| karane vAlA to tumhArA putra hI thaa| tuma usI se jAkara pUcha lo ki sahI huA yA g2alata? 92 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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putra kI AtmA ne kahA- ye sabhI loga ThIka kaha rahe haiN| maiMne aisA karma kahIM chipakara kiyA thA, jisakA mujhe pariNAma prApta huaa| __jIvana meM kisI bhI viparita ghaTanA ghaTane ke pIche hama svayaM kisI-nakisI rUpa meM uttaradAyI huA karate haiM isalie usase ciMtita hone kI bajAya hama usake kAraNa kI qhoja kareM aura bhaviSya meM aisA na karane kA saMkalpa leN| sAtha hI ciMtA karane se kisI bhI samasyA kA hala nahIM hotA balki samasyA vikarAla rUpa dhAraNa karane lagatI hai| hameM sakArAtmaka ciMtana karate hue usase ubarane kA prayAsa karanA cAhie kyoMki hama sabhI jAnate haiM ki cintA karanA atyadhika hAnikAraka hai / yaha hamArI zakti kA samUla nAza karatI hai, vicAroM ko bhrAnta banAtI hai tathA AkAMkSAoM ko kuMThita karatI hai| cintA se mAnasika roga hote haiM isalie vyakti ko ciMtA karane kI bajAya jisa samasyA ke kAraNa ciMtA ho rahI hai usa samasyA kA samAdhAna karake isase Upara uThanA caahie| ___vyakti jaba bhUta aura bhaviSya kA bhAra eka sAtha vartamAna meM Dhokara calatA hai to vaha lar3akhar3A jAtA hai, phira cAhe koI kitanA bhI parAkramI kyoM na ho| bhUta se preraNA lekara bhaviSya kI yojanA banAkara Aja ko usake anurUpa saphala banAkara hama vartamAna meM jiieN| Aja kI paridhi meM rahane kA abhyAsa kreN| eka vyakti prabhu se prArthanA kara rahA thA - 'he prbhu| kevala Aja kA bhojana juTA do|' pAsa meM khar3e loga yaha sunakara ha~sane lage ki mA~ga kara bhI kyA mA~gA kevala Aja kA bhojana juTA do, kala kyA khAegA? z2arA dhyAna dIjie ki yaha prArthanA kevala Aja ke bhojana ke lie hI hai isameM kala kI roTI kI prArthanA nahIM hai| na hI yaha hai ki mujhe itanI roTI Aja de ki merA kAma kucha dina cala jaae| kala kI cintA chor3a do| kala apanI sudha svataH legaa| Aja kI kaThinAiyA~ hI Aja ke lie kyA kama hai ? Apa logoM kA yaha kahanA hogA ki 'kala kI cintA to karanI par3egI, parivAra meM haiM, usakI surakSA ke lie bImA bhI karanA hai, lar3akiyoM kI zAdI karanI hai, vRddhAvasthA ke lie bhI bacata karanI | 93 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ThIka hai bhaviSya ke lie yojanAe~ bnaaie| lekina unake lie Apako jIvana jIne kI kalA sIkhanI hogii| kahane ke abhiprAya ko samajhanA hogaa| kala para vicAra avazya kIjie, isa para manana kIjie, yojanAe~ banAie, taiyAriyA~ kIjie, kintu usake lie cintA mata kIjie, citiMta nahIM hoie| yadi jahAja DUba jAe to use Apa aura maiM Upara nahIM lA skte| jisa bhI truTi ke kAraNa use DUbanA thA vaha to DUbA hI aura DUbegA bhii| Apa aura maiM use nahIM roka skte| jo ho cukA usake lie sira pITane se to yahI acchA hai ki truTiyoM ko sudhAreM Age kI samasyAoM para vicAra kreN| soceM ki yadi aisI ulajhanoM se ulajhe raheMge to jIvana aura samaya donoM naSTa raheMge tathA jInA bhI muzkila ho jaaegaa| sahI aura g2alata vicAradhArA meM mukhya antara yahI hai ki sahI vicAra dhArA prayojana aura pariNAma para AdhArita hai| usase hama racanAtmaka kAryoM hetu prerita hote haiM / isake viparIta g2alata vicAra dhArA aksara udvega aura snAyu vighaTana kA hetu banatI hai| abhI hama bhUta aura bhaviSya ke saMdhi-sthala para khar3e haiM / bhUta to calA gayA kabhI lauTakara nahIM AegA, bhaviSya tIvratA se hamAre samIpa A rahA hai| vartamAna kI upekSA karake hama pala mAtra ke lie bhI donoM meM se eka ke hokara zAMti se nahIM jI sakate haiN| isase hamArI zArIrika evaM mAnasika zakti evaM zAMti kA hrAsa hotA hai| hameM jo prApta ho rahA hai usI meM saMtoSa kara lenA caahie| sUryAsta taka jo koI bhI miThAsa, dhairya, sneha aura pavitratA se raha sakatA hai isI ko jInA kahate haiM / jIvana kI hamase yahI apekSA hai| sukhI jIvana to vahI hai jo Aja ko apanA banA le| aura ho nizcinta kaha de jI liyA basa Aja maiM to 'kala', jo karanA ho tU kara le| kala kI cintA kyoM kare? zAha zujA kI putrI atyadhika dharma parAyaNa aura vairAgyapUrNa bhAvanAoM se 94/ For Personal & Private Use Only

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ota-prota thii| usake virakta bhAvoM ko dekhakara zAha ne usakA vivAha eka jJAnI phakIra se kara diyA, jisase usakI putrI kI dharma-bhAvanAoM ko kabhI Thesa nahIM pahu~ce aura vaha icchAnusAra apanA jIvana vyatIta kara ske| zAha zujA kI putrI phakIra pati ke sAtha atyanta prasannatA se kuTiyA meM rahatI hai| usane vahA~ kI saphAI karate samaya kuTiyA ke chappara se eka chIMkA laTakatA huA dekhA jisameM do sUkhI roTiyA~ rakhI thii| usane Azcarya se apane pati kI ora dekhA tathA pUchA - ye roTiyA~ yahA~ kyoM rakhI haiM ? __phakIra ne uttara diyA - kala hama eka-eka khA leNge| pati kI bAta sunakara patnI ne ha~sate hue kahA - mere pitA ne to Apako vairAgI aura aparigrahI phakIra samajha kara hI merA vivAha Apake sAtha kiyA thaa| kintu aphasosa hai, Apako kala ke khAne kI cintA Aja hI hai| phikra karane vAlA saccA phakIra nahIM ho sakatA hai| agale dina kI cintA to ghAsa khAne vAlA jAnavara bhI nahIM karatA hai phira hama to manuSya haiM / hameM yadi kucha milA to hama khA leMge anyathA AnandapUrvaka, premapUrvaka raheMge tathA qhudA kI baMdagI kreNge| phakIra ne jaba apanI patnI ke yaha vicAra sune to mana hI mana kahane lagA - he devI! tU dhanya hai / aba merA jIvana sArthaka ho gyaa| parantu mAnava kI yaha zocanIya pravRtti hai ki hama vastusthiti se palAyana kara jAte haiN| Aja kA kAma kala, parasoM yahA~ taka ki varSoM ke lie chor3a dete haiN| jIvana banAne ke lie bAlaka kA yaha kahanA hai ki abhI to maiM baccA hU~ bar3A hone para dekhuugaa| kizora kahatA hai ki yaha umra khelane-kUdane kI hai maiM yuvAvasthA meM kucha kruuNgaa|yuvaa kahatA hai ki yaha mauja-zauka kI umra hai bAda meM kruuNgaa| gRhastha banane para use usake jhaMjhaToM se hI mukti nahIM milatI aura vRddhAvasthA Ane para bahuta vilamba ho jAtA hai| jaba kAmakAja se chuTTI milatI hai taba atIta para dRSTipAta karane para aisA lagatA hai ki mAnoM saba kacha samApta ho gayA hai aura rahatA hai mAtra pazcAtApa / hamAre jIvana kI yaha choTI-sI zobhA yAtrA kitanI vicitra hai| khAlI hAtha Ae aura abhI nahIM bAda meM kareMge isa kAraNa khAlI hAtha jA rahe haiN| jabaki pratyeka pala kA pUrNa dohana hI jIvana kI sArthakatA hai| | 95 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hamArA jIvana nadI ke pravAha kI bhA~ti parivartanazIla hai| isalie hameM pratyeka kSaNa ko sArthaka karanA hai| niraMtara parivartita, anizcita, anabUjhe bhaviSya kI gutthiyA~ sulajhAne meM vartamAna ke sukha ko kyoM naSTa karate haiM ? Aja kI IzvarIya sRSTi meM cintA rahita hokara prabhu kA jo prasAda milA hai usI meM jieN|aaj kA svAgata kareM, yahI jIvana jIne kA sAra hai| kala kA dina dekhA hai kisane, Aja kA dina khoe~ kyoN| jina ghar3iyoM meM ha~sa sakate haiM, una ghar3iyoM meM roe~ kyoN| hama aneka bAra jIvana kI vikaTa paristhitiyoM kA sAhasa aura dhairya se mukAbalA kara lete haiM para choTI-choTI bAtoM ko apane para hAvI hone dete haiM unase kuprabhAvita ho jAte haiM jo ucita nahIM hai| miTTI meM milane se pahale jIvana kA pUrNatayA Ananda lo| jisase hama unnati zikhara kI ora agrasara ho ske| kaI bAra bImArI kA AdhAra zArIrika nahIM hotA hai| bhaya, cintA, ghRNA, svArthaparatA, pUrvAgraha, ahaM, rAga-dveSa Adi ke kAraNa utpanna sthitiyA~ vyAdhiyoM kA pramukha kAraNa hai| cintA svastha ko bhI rogI banA detI hai| cintA se svAbhAvika saundarya samApta ho jAtA hai| bhagavAna hamAre pApoM ko kSaNa bhara ke lie cAhe mApha kara de kintu snAyu saMsthAna hamArI kisI bhI bhUla hetu kSamA pradAna nahIM karatA hai| vikAroM ko utpanna karatA hI hai| __jo vyakti mAtra apane bAre meM hI socatA hai use jIvana meM kucha vizeSa prApta nahIM hotaa| vaha hara samaya atyanta duHkhI rahatA hai| kintu dUsaroM kI sevA ke lie svayaM ke jIvana ko bhUlane vAlA nizcita rUpa se sukha kI prApti karatA hai| khAlI samaya meM apane sukha-duHkha kA vicAra karanA hI hamAre du:khoM kA kAraNa hai| hameM inake bAre meM z2yAdA nahIM socanA caahie| cintA nivAraNa kA prathama niyama hai vyasta rahie, cintita vyakti ko cAhie ki vaha hara vakta vyasta rahe anyathA nirAzA meM DUba jaaegaa| hameM pratidina prabhu se yaha prArthanA karate hue isa prakAra kA jIvana jIne kI koziza karanI cAhie ki 96 For Personal & Private Use Only

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prabhu mujhe sadbuddhi do, jinheM maiM badala na sakU~, unheM svIkara kara lU~ / mujhe sAhasa do, ho sake to maiM sthiti ko badala dU~ / mujhe zakti do ki maiM sukhaduHkha se Upara uTha~ / honahAra ko, bhavitavyatA ko svIkAra karU~ 1 / svayaM ke durbhAgya evaM kaThinAiyoM hetu vyakti svayaM hI jimmedAra hai / use yaha cintana karanA cAhie ki apane adha: patana kA kAraNa kevala maiM svayaM huuN| maiM svayaM apanA sabase bar3A duzmana huuN| jaba hama apane zatruoM se ghRNA karate haiM to hama unheM apanI bhUkha, nIMda, raktacApa, sukha para hAvI nahIM hone dete haiN| hamAre zatruoM ko yadi yaha jJAta ho jAe ki ve hamAre vyavahAra se khinna hai, ve bhI hameM taMga karane kI koI yojanA banA rahe haiM / hAni pahu~cAne kI barAbarI ko sunakara zatru prasannatA se nAca uThate haiM / ve socate rahate haiM usakA sukha chinna-bhinna ho gayA hai / hamArI ghRNA zatru ko coTa nahIM pahu~cAtI apitu hamAre jIvana ko naraka banA detI hai / yadi Apako koI duHkhI banAne kA prayatna karatA hai to Apa use duHkhI nahIM kiijie| usakI upekSA kIjie, prasanna rahie para jaise ke sAtha taisA karane kA prayAsa mata kiijie| jaba Apa jaise ke sAtha taisA karate haiM to apane zatru ko duHkhI karane kI apekSA svayaM duHkha ke sAgara meM gote lagAte haiM / isase Apa tanAvapUrNa sthiti meM jIe~ge aura jaba ApakI IrSyA purAnI ho jAegI to Apa use jIta nahIM pAoge aneka rogoM ke zikAra ho jaaoge| apane zatru se bhI prema rkho| use bAra-bAra kSamA kara do| apane hRdaya kI kSamA, dayA, prema, karuNA Adi se hama svayaM ko atyadhika sundara banA sakate haiM / anya upacAra se nhiiN| ghRNA, cintA, thakAna hameM naSTa kara rahe haiM, hamArI AkRti ko vikRta kara dete haiM / yadi hama zatru se pyAra nahIM kara sakate haiM to kama se kama svayaM se to kreN| zatruoM ko nIcA dikhAne meM yA samApta karane meM aisA na ho ki tuma svayaM samApta ho jAo / zatruoM ko bhulAne kA eka sahI upAya hai ki kisI mahAn kArya meM laga jAe~, vyasta raheM / jo vyavahAra, soca Apako svayaM ke lie pasanda nahIM hai, dUsaroM ke lie vaisA socakara apanA eka pala bhI naSTa mata kiijie| usameM cintita nahIM hoie / cintA to citA ke samAna hai / For Personal & Private Use Only | 97

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merA eka aise vyakti se milanA huA jo pahale nirantara cintita rahatA thA ki mere pAsa amuka vastu kA abhAva hai, yaha nahIM hai, vo nahIM hai| usakI rAta kI nIMda gAyaba thI, dina ko caina nahIM thaa| maiMne use samajhAyA bhAI isa prakAra kalpanAoM ke U~ce mahala banAkara tuma svayaM ko naSTa kara rahe ho, amUlya mAnava jIvana ko vyartha hI ga~vA rahe ho| yadi tumheM jIvana meM sukha zAMti se jInA hai, abhAva kI jiMdagI se Upara uThanA hai to guNoM meM apane se Upara ko dekho tathA samRddhi meM apane se nIce ko dekho| vaha kahane lagA loga do-do haz2Ara ke jUte pahanate haiM para maiM hajAra-pandraha sau ke bhI nahIM pahana sakatA to e.sI. phleTa kI bAta hI kaise kruuN| maiMne use 10-15 minaTa rokA eka vikalAMga ko bulAyA aura usa vyakti se kahA - tuma isalie du:khI ho ki tumhAre pAsa zAna-zaukata ko prastuta karane vAle mahaMge jUte nahIM haiM, para isa vyakti ke paira hI nahIM hai phira bhI yaha kitanA prasanna hai / usa vikalAMga vyakti se prasannatA kA rAja pUchA to usane kahA mere eka paira, do hAtha, A~kha, kAna to hai hii| maiM apanA kAma svayaM kara sakatA hU~, para duniyA meM aneka loga aise haiM jo kucha bhI nahIM kara sakate, baizAkhI ke sahAre eka hI sthAna para par3e-par3e khAte-pIte haiM / phira jo nahIM hai usakA ciMtana karane se ve mujhe milane vAle nahIM haiM phira kyoM na jo mere pAsa hai maiM usakA Ananda lU~ aura agara Izvara kRpA se vo mila jAe~ge to usakA bhI Ananda le lU~gA yahI mere jIvana kI sukha-zAMti kA rAz2a hai| bhalA aba Apa hI batAie kyA aise logoM ko duniyA kI koI bhI tAqata yA abhAva duHkhI kara sakatA hai| ___Apake duHkha kA kAraNa dUsare nahIM Apa svayaM hI bana gae ho| kyA hama bhI kahIM abhAva ke lie to cintita nahIM rahate haiN| jo prApta hai usakA Ananda lekara usase prasanna hone vAle virale hI hote haiM / jo prApta hai use dekheN| pratyeka ghaTanA ke ujjvala pakSa ko dekheN| upalabdha vastuoM kA Ananda leN| anupalabdha kI cintA chodd'eN| hameM yaha cintana karanA cAhie hama kyoM abhAvoM ko dekha rahe haiM ? saundarya ke nandanavana meM rahakara bhI hama Ananda kA upabhoga kyoM nahIM kara rahe haiM? dUsaroM kI nakala nahIM kIjie, apane ko pahacAnie svayaM kI jo khUbiyA~ hai unheM bAhara Ane diijie| aisA karake hama apane jIvana kI khaTAsa ko miThAsa 981 For Personal & Private Use Only

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meM badala sakate haiN| hAni meM bhI vizeSa rUpa se lAbha uThAne kI koziza kiijie| eka vyakti ko kisI sAikila vAle ne Takkara mAra dii| vyakti krodhita to huA, para gAliyA~ nikAlane kI bajAya miThAiyA~ bA~Tane lgaa| logoM ne samajhA isakI buddhi saThThiyA gaI hai| Aqhira eka vyakti ne pUchA, yaha miThAI kI dAvata kaise? usane kahA - Izvara kI kRpA hai ki hamezA to yaha Traka calAtA hai saMyoga se Aja sAikila hI calA rahA thaa| yadi apane jIvana ko isa taraha se jInA zurU kara diyA to hamArI durbalatAe~, apratyAzita rUpa se hamArI sahAyaka bana jaaegii| jIvana kI hara ghaTanA ke prati apanAyA gayA samArAtmaka naz2ariyA vyakti ko sadaiva ciMtA aura tanAva se mukta rakhatI hai| ghaTanA prabhAvazAlI nahIM hotii| hamArI grahaNa karane kI dRSTi hI use sukha aura duHkha meM parivartita kara detI hai| eka vyakti ne mujhe batAyA do sAla pahale usake parivAra meM AuTiMga kA progrAma bnaa| saba apanI taiyAriyoM meM vyasta the| ghara ke hara sadasya ko usake hisAba se kAma bA~Ta die gae the| jAne se pahale saba kucha ceka karane ke bAda par3osiyoM ko hidAyata va jimmedArI dekara hama ghara se nikala pdd'e| sTezana pahu~ce, to patA lagA gAr3I 10 ghaMTe leTa hai| hama bahuta udAsa ho ge| hamArA ghara sTezana se 3-4 kilomITara hI thA, so hama ghara vApasa A ge| ghara pahu~ce to sAmane kA dRzya dekhakara bhauMcakke raha gae / pAnI kI TaMkI se pAnI bahakara ghara meM ikaTThA ho cukA thA aura pAnI kI moTara kA svica oNna thaa| gAr3I leTa ho gaI varanA moTara meM zaoNrTasarkiTa ho sakatA thA aura pUre ghara meM karaMTa phela jaataa| mA~ svica oNpha karanA bhUla gaI kyoMki usa bIca kucha dera ke lie bijalI calI gaI thii| sabake ceharoM para raunaka lauTa aaii| hamane Izvara ko dhanyavAda diyaa|agr gAr3I leTa na hotI, to na jAne kyA hotaa| hameM vizvAsa ho gayA ki jo hotA hai, acche ke lie hotA hai| cintA mAnava mastiSka ko vikRta kara detI hai, tana ko galA detI hai aura haz2Ara-haz2Ara bImAriyoM ko nimaMtraNa dekara bulAtI hai| 'cintA samaM nAsti zarIra zoSaNam' cintA ke samAna zarIra kA zoSaNa karane vAlI dUsarI koI vastu nahIM hai| For Personal & Private Use Only

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varSoM kA pAlA-poSA zarIra cintA se kucha dinoM meM kupoSaNa kA zikAra ho jAtA hai| citA cintA samAproktA, bindu mAtra vishesstH| citA dahati nirjivaM cintA sjiivmpyho|| citA aura cintA meM z2yAdA farka nahIM hai, kevala bindu mAtra kA antara hai| citA to murde ko jalAtI hai kintu cintA sajIva ko arthAt jindo ko bhI jalA detI hai| citA eka bAra jalAtI hai cintA haz2AroM baar| adhyAtma cintA uttama hai, moha kI cintA madhyama, kAma bhoga kI cintA adhama tathA dUsaroM kI cintA adhamAdhama hai| senApati phIlDa mArzala vehnala se kisI jijJAsu ne pUchA ki Apake sainika jIvana kI saphalatA kA rahasya kyA hai ? usane kahA - kaisI bhI bhayaMkara paristhiti kyoM na ho, maiMne kabhI bhI apane mana meM cintA nahIM Ane dii| jijJAsA ne kahA - kalpanA kIjie, Apa yuddha ke maidAna meM zatru se cAroM ora ghira gae haiN| kyA usa samaya bhI Apake mana meM cintA paidA nahIM hogI? senApati ne muskarAte hue kahA - Aja dina taka cintA se koI vipatti TalI nahIM hai / yadi usa samaya cintA hI karate rahe, samAdhAna nahIM kareM to aura adhika parezAnI ho jaaegii| vipatti para vijaya-vaijayantI phaharAne ke lie himmata kI AvazyakatA hai, cintA kI nahIM / himmata kI hI kImata hotI hai| yadi hama niyamoM kA pAlana karate rahe to eka dina saba ThIka ho jaaegaa| saMgharSa evaM dila dahalAne vAle avasaroM meM bhI cintA nahIM karanI caahie| dhArmika zraddhA cintA ko rokane kI rAmabANa davA hai| manuSya kI sRSTi jIne ke lie huI hai, mAtra jIvana ko samajhane ke lie nhiiN| ___apanI cintA nahIM kro| kyA khAoge, kyA pioge aura kyA pahanoge yaha mata soco| mauja-zauka aura khAna-pAna ke alAvA jIvana kA apanA vizeSa mahattva hai| ina ur3ate hue pakSiyoM ko dekho ve anAja nahIM bIte haiM, phasala nahIM kATate aura bhaMDAra bhI nahIM bharate haiM, phira bhI paramAtmA kI aisI vyavasthA hai ki unakA bharaNa-poSaNa hotA hai| phira Apa to jJAnavAna, vivekavAna haiM unase acchI sthiti meM hai| abhivyakti ke lie bhASA hai| kArya karane ke lie hAtha, 100 For Personal & Private Use Only

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calane ke lie pA~va hai phira kisa bAta kI ciMtA ? usakA upayoga karo aura usase jo mila jAe usameM masta raho / I paristhitiyoM se cintita mata hoie, ghuTane mata ttekie| ajeya hone para bhI mukAbalA karo / ajeya hone para bhI nirAza mata hovo, cintita mata hoo, usake viruddha saMgharSa karo, bhayabhIta nahIM bano, dUra mata bhAgo / jisako badala nahIM sakate ho usako svIkAra karane kA viveka rakho, bhale-bure ko samajho aura vyasta raho / phijUla ke tanAva yukta karane vAle kAma nahIM karake svayaM ko sadkArya meM lagAo / muskarAte raho, dUsaroM ko sukhI karane kA prayAsa karate hue svayaM ke duHkhoM ko bhUla jaao| apane bhAgya meM Ae hue acche bure ko svIkAra karate hue sahaja jIvana jIne kA prayAsa karo / aMbAnI baMdhuoM ke pAsa Aja koI kamI nahIM hai phira bhI dina-rAta na jAne kauna-sI kamI ko pUrA karane meM lage hue haiN| kharaboM kA mAlika hone ke bAvaz2Uda dhIrU bhAI aMbAnI kyA apane jIvana ko eka dina bhI z2yAdA bar3hA pAe~, dhana se jIvana ko kharIdA nahIM jA sakatA hai| isakA to aMta nahIM hai, para jIvana kA aMta z2arUra hai / jIvana kA aMta ho usase pahale hama anaMta kI ora bar3ha jAe~ / suvidhAoM kI kabhI-bhI pUrNatA hone vAlI nahIM hai, para zvAsa kI ghar3iyAM kabhI-bhI pUrNa ho sakatI hai| zvAsa pUrNa ho usase pahale hama zAMti kI ora qadama bar3hA le tAki jIvana ke saMdhyAkAla meM mukti ke AnaMda mahotsava ko ghaTita kiyA jA sake / For Personal & Private Use Only | 101

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sevA se kareM samaya ko sArthaka sevA karane vAle hAtha utane hI praNamya haiM jitane ki saMtoM ke crnn-kml| sevA dharma kA sarala evaM viziSTa aMga hai| yaha kisI paMtha-paraMparA yA sampradAya kA nahIM apitu mAnavIya dharma hai| eka jIva dUsare jIva kI sevA evaM upakAra karake hI jIvita raha sakatA hai| jo sevA ko dharma nahIM samajhate ve ajJAna meM hai| manuSya janmatA hai vaha apanA kalyANa karatA hai sAtha hI dUsaroM kA mArgadarzaka bhI bana sakatA hai| mArgadarzaka ke rUpa meM aneka bheda-prabheda ho sakate haiM, unameM eka bheda sevA bhI hai| kahA gayA ki ___ vaiyAvaccaM niyaMya kareha, uttara guNe dhstiaannN| savvaM kila paDivAI vaiyAvaccaM apddivaaii|| arthAt uttama guNa dhAraNa karane vAloM kI niyamita sevA kro| saba guNa bhUlAe bhI jA sakate haiM para sevA kA guNa kabhI nahIM bhulAyA jA sakatA hai| jo sukhI hai hama usakI sevA kareM to yaha sevA asalI sevA nahIM, sAmAnya sevA hai| vAstavika sevA to inameM haiM - 102 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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bAlavRddha yatInAJca, rogiNAM yad vidhiiyte| svazaktyA yatpratIkAro, vaiyAvRtya tducyte|| bAla, vRddha, rogI, sAdhu kI pIr3A kA jo apanI sevA-zakti se pratIkAra arthAta dUra karatA hai vaha sevA kahI jAtI hai| tamannA darde dila kI ho to, kara khidamata phakIroM kii| nahIM milatA hai yaha gauhara, bAdazAhoM ke khajAne meN| manuSya to kyA prakRti meM bhI nirapekSa-bhAva se sevA-bhAva dRSTigocara hotA hai| jaise-per3a, pahAr3a, nadiyA~ jharane aadi| prakRti kA hama para bahuta upakAra hai| bAdala samudra se grahaNa jala karatA rahatA hai| usakA mu~ha kAlA ho jAtA hai aura jaba vaha detA hai to detA rahatA hai jaba vaha nirantara detA hai taba usakA mu~ha dhavala, svaccha, ujjvala ho jAtA hai| isI prakAra manuSya yadi kevala letA hI rahA, degA nahIM to vaha dambhI, ahaMkArI ho jaaegaa| yaha saMsAra khatma ho jAegA kyoMki mUla pravRtti'parosparopagraho jIvAnAm' para kuThArAghAta hogaa| manuSya sadgati ko prApta nahIM kara skegaa| isalie sevA bhAva Avazyaka hai| ___'bhagavatI ArAdhanA' meM kahA gayA hai ki jo sevAbhAvI hai, paropakArI hai, jo mana-vacana-kAyA evaM tana-mana-dhana se sevA karate haiM unake tIrthakara prakRti kA baMdha hotA hai, para yaha baMdha tabhI hogA jaba sevA, dayA, kSamA, karuNA Adi dharmoM kA AcaraNa ahaM-mamatA kI vismRti ke sAtha ho, sahaja-svAbhAvika saMskAroM se yukta ho| sevA meM vAtsalya bhAva honA atyanta Avazyaka hai| jaba taka sevA meM vAtsalya kA jharanA pravAhita nahIM hogA, taba taka usameM tanmayatA, sarasatA, AtmIyatA nahIM aaegii| sevA meM ahaM, mamatA ke sAtha zarIrAdi kA vismaraNa, visarjana bhI atyanta Avazyaka hai| ___eka mA~ apane bacce ko goda meM lekara cupa karAtI hai, nahalAtI hai, sardI, garmI, varSA se usakI rakSA karatI hai| svayaM bhUkhI-pyAsI rahakara usakI bhUkhapyAsa se rakSA karatI hai| apane bhUkha-pyAsa kI cintA nahIM karake vaha bacce kI sevA meM tallIna rahatI hai| svayaM kA khAnA, pInA, sonA bhUlakara, zarIra kI paravAha kie binA khuda gIle meM sokara bacce ko sUkhe meM sulAtI hai| svayaM kI | 103 For Personal & Private Use Only

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bImArI kA dhyAna nahIM rakhakara bacce kI paricaryA meM lIna rahatI hai / parantu usI mA~ ko yadi koI yaha kahe ki tuma dina-rAta itanA kaSTa sahana karake ina baccoM kI sevA meM kyoM lagI huI ho| vaha mA~ yaha nahIM kahatI hai ki ye merA kartavya hai isalie maiM inakI sevA kara rahI huuN| vaha mu~ha se aksara kucha kaha nahIM pAtI hai, para usakA antarmana kahatA hai merA vAtsalya hI isa bacce kI sevA karA rahA hai / maiM isake binA nahIM raha sakatI / isane bhojana kara liyA to mAno maiMne bhojana kara liyA, mujhe tRpti ho jAtI hai| cAhe mere lie bace yA na bce| mAtA sevA ke lie nahIM karatI vaha vAtsalyamUrti bana kara svayaM vAtsalyamayI bana jAtI hai / santAna kI rakSA ke lie apanA sarvasva nyauchAvara kara detI hai / prakRti evaM manuSya kI sevA meM antara hai| prakRti jo sevA karatI hai use kucha prApti kI abhilASA nahIM hai| unakA jIvana hI paropakAra ke lie hai / per3a dhUpa sahana karatA hai, sardI sahana karatA hai, varSA sahana karatA hai taba phala pradAna karatA hai / pazu, pakSI aura mA~ kI sevA bhAvanA meM bhI thor3A antara hai| mA~ kI sevA vAtsalyamayI hone ke bAvaz2Uda bhI kiJcit svArthamayI hai| vaha yaha hai ki merA beTA bar3A hogA, U~ce pada para kAma karegA, usakI zAdI hogI, beTA-bahU hamArI sevA kareMge / pazu-pakSiyoM meM yaha bhAvanA nahIM hotI hai ki hamArI santAna bar3I hogI, anAja dAnA cuggA lAkara deNge| isa svArtha bhAva ke atirikta mA~ meM apane lar3ake-lar3akI ke lAlana-pAlana meM na to koI anya bhAva rahatA hai na hI kisI prakAra kA apekSA bhAva / Aja viDambanA hai ki kaSToM ko sahakara apanI santAna kA lAlana-pAlana karane vAle mAtA - pitA kI sevA bacce bar3e hokara nahIM karate haiM, unakA tiraskAra karate haiN| isa ghaTanA se yaha spaSTa ho jAegA ki Aja mAtA-pitA kI kyA sthiti ho rahI hai eka putra apanI mAtA ko patra likhatA hai ki Apa yAtrA ke lie taiyArI kara liijie| maiM ravivAra ko subaha A rahA hU~ / dopahara meM hama yAtrA ke lie jaaeNge| mA~-beTe kA patra prApta karake atyadhika qhuza hotI hai / bahU ko patra par3hAtI hai, mohalle evaM riztedAroM meM miThAI bA~TatI hai| loga pUchate haiM kisa sthAna kI yAtrA para jA rahI ho to mA~ kahatI hai mere lADale ne sthAna gupta rakhA hai| pahile se taiyArI karane ke lie likhA hai to dUra le jA rahA hogaa| mA~ apane 104 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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sAmAna ke sAtha rAste meM khAne-pIne kA bhAtA bhI pUrA taiyAra karatI hai| bahU se bhI sAmAna bA~dhane ko kahatI hai| ravivAra kA dina hai, beTA AtA hai| mA~ kI prasannatA kA pArAvAra nahIM hai| beTA kahatA hai mA~ hama tIna ghaMTe bAda yahA~ se yAtrA ke lie cleNge| mA~ sthAna kA nAma pUchatI hai| beTA kahatA hai mA~ tuma calogI to patA cala jaaegaa| beTA tIna ghaMTe bAda e.sI. kAra meM mA~ ko le jAtA hai| mA~ paramAtmA ko dhanyavAda karatI hai| do ghaMTe bAda eka Azrama ke Age kAra rukatI hai| mA~ socatI hai tIrtha sthAna kI dharmazAlA hogii| beTA mA~ kA sAmAna lekara kAryAlaya meM jAtA hai| phArma bhara kara rajisTara meM enTrI karatA hai| mA~ ko kamarA milatA hai vahA~ le jAkara beTA mA~ se kahatA hai - mA~! maiMne tumheM antima samaya meM yAtrA karavA dI hai| mere aura mInU ke lie aba tumhArI aura dekhabhAla karanA sambhava nahIM hai| yaha vRddhAzrama hai yahA~ tumhArI dekhabhAla kI, khAne kI koI kamI nahIM rhegii| maiMne sAla bhara ke paise jamA karavA die| hA~, yaha pA~ca sau rupaye lo| maiM tumheM hara mahine hAtha kharca bhI bheja duuNgaa| yaha sunakara mA~ avAka raha jAtI hai usake netroM meM A~sU girate haiM beTA-bahU mA~ ko chor3akara A jAte haiN| idhara Azrama meM mA~ bhajana-kIrtana meM dhIre-dhIre masta ho jAtI hai| dasa mahine bAda mA~ bImAra ho jAtI hai| beTe-bahU se milane kI icchA jAhira karatI hai| Azrama ke prabaMdhaka dvArA 3-4 patra beTe-bahU ko DAle jAte haiM, para niSThura bane hue ve aizo ArAma kI z2iMdagI vyatIta karane vAle mA~ kI sudha lene nahIM aate| eka mahInA aura bIta gyaa| mA~ nirantara apane lADale ko yAda kara rahI hai vo nahIM AyA pA~ca sau rupaye aura avazya A jAte haiM / mA~ kI hAlata bigar3ate hue dekhakara Azrama dvArA tAra bhejA jAtA hai| taba beTA bahU Azrama meM Ate haiN| Azrama meM praveza karane para beTe-bahU ko eka kakSa meM le jAte haiN| jahA~ apane beTe-bahU ke iMtajAra meM jisa mA~ ne apanA eka-eka pala vyatIta karate hue jaba apane jIvana kI antima ghar3iyA~ dekhI to Azrama ke adhikArI ko eka liphAphA thamAte hue kahA maiM to jA rahI hU~, merA putra bar3A adhikArI hai, kAma meM vyasta ho gayA hogaa| jaba bhI vaha Ave Apa yaha liphAphA use thamA denaa| maiM sadA-sadA ke lie apane ghara jA rahI huuN| Apa logoM ne merI jo sevA kI usakI maiM sadaiva RNI rhuuNgii| mere putra ke pAsa samaya nahIM hai Apa loga aMtima saMskAra kara denaa| idhara mA~ liphAphA dekara hAtha nIce karane lagatI hai usake prANa prakherU ur3a jAte haiN| - 105 For Personal & Private Use Only

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aura mu~ha taka Dhake hue vaha sadA-sadA ke lie so jAtI hai| beTA jaise hI kakSa meM pahu~catA hai apanI mA~ ko isa taraha leTe dekhatA hai samajha jAtA hai ki mA~ nahIM hai| putra kucha bole usase pUrva adhikArIgaNa eka liphAphA thamAte hue kahate haiM ApakI mA~ jAte samaya Apako bahuta yAda kara rahI thI unhoMne kahA yaha liphAphA mere putra ko de denaa| vaha bahuta bar3A adhikArI hai usake pAsa samaya nahIM hai| aura hama loga inakA dAha-saMskAra kara deN| AdhA ghaMTA pUrva hI inakA deha-visarjana huA hai| putra binA kucha bole liphAphA kholatA hai| mA~ ke A~suoM se bhIgI ciTThI aura eka kAg2aja meM kucha lipaTA hai / ciTThI par3hatA hai| priya putra, ___ tuma khuza rahate hue isI prakAra tarakkI krnaa| tumhAre jIvana kI vyastatA ko dekhakara maiMne socA ki tumane apanI mA~ kA itanA dhyAna to rakhA, para ho sakatA hai tumhArI vRddhAvasthA meM tumhArA putra yaha bhI nA kare kyoMki usane tumheM mA~-bApa kI sevA karate dekhA hI nhiiN| isalie jo noTa tuma mujhe bhejate the maiMne unhIM noToM ko tumhArI vRddhAvasthA ke lie saMbhAla kara rakha die haiM / tuma kAma meM le lenaa| tumhAre bur3hApe meM Azrama ke sAtha anya kharcoM ke lie merI sone kI cUr3I jamA karAI huI hai so le lenaa| ___abhI tuma aura bar3e adhikArI bno| apanA nAma rozana kro| tuma apane bApa ko to pahile hI bhUla cUke the isalie unhoMne isa saMsAra se jaldI alavidA lii| mA~ ke lie bhI tumhAre pAsa samaya nahIM hai| apanA samaya mata gNvaanaa| merA dAha saMskAra Azrama adhikAriyoM ko karane ke lie maiMne kaha diyA hai| tuma nirantara Age bar3hoM yahI merA shubhaashiirvaad| tumhArI mA~ putra ne patra par3hA, pazcAtApa ke do A~sU gira pdd'e| vahA~ saba yaha carcA kara rahe the ki yaha kaisA jIvana / bAra-bAra bulAne para bhI beTA-bahU dekhane taka nahIM aae| janmadAtrI mA~ isa saMsAra se antima samaya meM tar3apha-tar3apha kara mara gaI, calI gaI, para beTe-bahU ne kabhI khabara nahIM lii| 1061 For Personal & Private Use Only

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inakA vaibhava, sampatti bekAra hai| isa prakAra kA jIvana to pazuoM se bhI nimna stara kA hai| __mA~-bApa kI sevA karanA to santAna kA dharma hai| lekina apanA ghara basate hI santAna mA~-bApa ko bhUla jAtI hai| jo apane mA~-bApa kI sevA nahIM karate unase kaise apekSA kara sakate haiM ki unake jIvana meM tyAga kA, sevA kA, samarpaNa kA bhAva hai| Aja yuvAoM meM sevAbhAva, dAnavRti bar3hI hai, para maiM unase itanA nivedana avazya karUgI ki saMsthAoM, klaboM ke sadasya banakara vidyAlayoM meM, aspatAloM meM sAdhana hIna logoM kI sevA karanI acchI bAta hai, para ApakI sevA ke prathama adhikArI Apake mA~-bApa haiM / jo apane mA~-bApa kI duAe~ nahIM le pAyA maiM nahIM samajhatI ki g2arIboM kI duAe~ unakA bhalA kregii| sevA kI zuruAta bAhara se nahIM apane ghara se zurU karanI caahie| tabhI ApakI sevA sArthaka khlaaegii| sevA mAnavIya dharma hai| usakA tyAga kaise kiyA jA sakatA hai ? yadi hama mAnavIya dharma sevA kA tyAga kara dete haiM tathA mAlA japanA, zAstra par3hanA Adi karate haiM to ye saba adhUre haiM / mAtra bahiraMga hai / antaraMga se yaha zuddha bhAvanA ho ki 'prANI mAtra kA kalyANa ho' 'sukhI rahe saba jIva jagata ke isa taraha kA dayA bhAva rakhane se tIrthaMkara prakRti kA baMdha hotA hai| jaba se hama sevA-bhAva ko bhUla gae haiM / taba se du:khI haiM, kaSTa meM haiM, ekAMgI bana gae haiN| yadi hameM AnandapUrvaka jIvana jInA hai to sevA bhAva Avazyaka hai| sevA bhI apana apanI zakti evaM bhakti se kara sakate haiN| yadi Apake pAsa dhana ho to dhana se, tana se athavA mana se bhI sevA kara sakate haiN| manuSya sevA-bhAva se sukhamaya jIvana vyatIta kara sakatA hai| sevA karate samaya choTe bar3e kA vicAra mata kiijie| yaha mata socie ki yaha choTA vyakti hai maiM isakI sevA nahIM kara sakatA huuN| sevA meM koI choTA bar3A nahIM hotA hai| hameM sevA sadA ni:svArtha bhAva se karanI caahie| jo ise dharma nahIM mAnate ve ajJAna ke aMdhakAra meM bhaTakate rahate haiN| sevA karane vAle kabhI maile yA apavitra nahIM hote| sevA karane vAloM meM adbhuta zakti aura kriyAzIlatA hotI hai| sevA karane vAle hAtha prArthanA karane vAle hoThoM kI taraha pAvana va pavitra hI nahIM hote varan saMta-caraNoM kI taraha praNamya bhI bana jAte haiN| | 107 For Personal & Private Use Only

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Anandapura nagarI meM guru goviMda siMha pravacana de rahe the| kucha samaya pravacana dene ke pazcAt unhoMne jala pIne kI icchA prakaTa kii|gurujii ne kahA- jisake hAtha pavitra ho, vaha AdhA loTA jala lekara A jaae| eka dhanI vyakti ne anya bhaktoM se kahA ki Apa loga to dina-rAta sevA kArya karate hI rahate haiM Aja mujhe sevA kA avasara deN| usa dhanika ne jala lAkara gurujI ko diyaa| bartana pakar3Ate hue gurujI ke hAthoM kA sparza usa dhanika ke hAthoM se hone para gurujI ne kucha gaMbhIra hokara kahA - kyA tuma koI kAma nahIM karate ho| dhanika ne kahA - gurujI mere bar3I-bar3I pA~ca phekTrIyA~ haiM / qarIba 60 naukara cAkara usameM kAma karate haiN| AlIzAna makAna hai| gurujI ne kahA- itane komala hAtha to usI ke ho sakate haiM jo ArAma talaba vAle ho, dUsaroM kI sevA para Azrita ho| dhanI vyakti ne kahA - guru mahArAja! kyA kruuN| itane naukara cAkara haiM ki hAtha se kAma karane kA avasara hI nahIM miltaa| usI samaya goviMdasiMha ne jala kA pAtra nIce rakhate hue kahA -- tumane sadaiva dUsaroM se sevA karAI hai| svayaM nahIM kI hai| jina hAthoM ne sevA nahIM kI ve pavitra kaise ho sakate haiN| isalie yaha jala grahaNa karane yogya nahIM hai| dhanika vyakti para itanA prabhAva par3A ki usane dUsaroM kI sevA karanA apane jIvana kA lakSya banA liyA aura vaha dina-rAta sevA kArya meM laga gyaa| yaha bhI atyanta vicitra bAta hai ki kucha loga svArthavaza sevA karate haiM, kucha dhana ke lobha meM sevA karate haiN| DaoN. zaMbhulAla marIja varmA jI ko dilAsA de rahe the| ceka-vaika karane ke bAda kucha davAe~ dete hue usase bole - ye davAe~ lete raheM aura hara haphte bAda Akara mujhe dikhA diyA kreN| paira kA darda dhIre-dhIre ThIka ho jaaegaa| ciMtA kI koI bAta nhiiN| varmA jI bole - DaoNkTara sAhaba, agara darda ApakI TAMga meM hotA, to mere lie bhI ciMtA kI koI bAta nahIM hotii| eka vyakti kI sevA ke mAdhyama se nAma, rUpayA kamAne kI bahuta icchA huii| usane apanI jhoMpar3I ke sAmane daladala meM se kAra nikalavAne kA kArya kiyaa| eka nizcita dUrI thI jahA~ Ane-jAne vAlI kAra pha~sa jAtI thI vaha do-cAra AdamiyoM ko bulAkara kAra nikalavAtA loga inAma ke rUpa meM 10-20 108 For Personal & Private Use Only

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rupaye dete tathA usaka nAma pUchakara usakI sevA bhAvanA kI tArIpha krte| vaha vyakti Adhe rUpaye qhuda rakhatA bAkI ke una vyaktiyoM meM bA~Ta detaa| eka seTha kI kAra tIna dina taka Ate-jAte vakta usI sthAna para pha~sa jaatii| ve loga Akara kAra nikAla dete| seTha ne usa vyakti se pUchA kAra yahIM kyoM pha~satI hai| usa vyakti ne saca-saca sArI bAta kaha dI ki maiMne yahA~ daladala-kIcar3a banA rakhA hai| jaise hI koI gAMDI pha~satI hai maiM apane sAthiyoM ko bulAkara gADI nikalavA detA huuN| loga merI tArIpha bhI karate haiM tathA inAma bhI dete haiN| isa prakAra sevA bhI ho jAtI hai, merA yaza phaila jAtA hai, dhana kI prApti hone se mere parivAra kA kharcA bhI nikala jAtA hai| vaha vyakti paise evaM nAma ke lobha meM pahile daladala phailAtA hai| gAr3iyA~ pha~savAkara nikalavAtA hai| phira unakI sevArtha nAma kamAtA hai| kyA yaha ucita hai? kyA yahI sevA hai ? bhAgyazAliyoM merA to Apase yahI nivedana hai ki yadi Apa kisI saMkaTa meM pha~se vyakti yA prANI mAtra ko saMkaTa meM se nahIM nikAla sakate haiM, sevA nahIM kara sakate haiM to isa taraha pha~sAne kA kArya bhI mata krnaa| Aja aise eka nahIM aneka udAharaNa dekhane ko milate haiN| ___zikSA meM, cikitsA meM, sevA bhAvI saMsthAe~ Aja sevA ke nAma para svArtha ke khela khela rahI haiN| sasvArtha rakhakara kI jAne vAlI sevA, sevA nahIM iMsAniyata kA galA ghoTanA hai| vAsavadattA mathurA kI sarvazreSTha nartakI thii| atyanta sundara, gaura varNa kI hara koI use dekhatA prabhAvita ho jaataa| eka dina usane apane mahala ke jharokhe se eka sundara yuvaka ko dIna-hIna hAlata meM dekhaa| vAsavadattA usa yuvaka ke saundarya ko dekhakara mugdha ho jAtI hai aura zIghratA se sIr3hiyoM se utara kara nIce AtI hai| nIce Akara usane pukArA - 'bhaMte!' manda-manda gati se calate hue saMta samIpa AyA aura usane apanA pAtra Age bddh'aayaa| vAsavadattA ne kahA -Apa Upara pdhaareN| merA bhavana, sampatti, aizvarya aura svayaM maiM ApakI huuN| sabhI ApakI sevA ke lie hai Apa ise svIkAra kreN| saMta ne kahA - Aja ucita avasara nahIM hai| maiM tumhAre pAsa phira aauuNgaa| lekina tumheM apane cAritra kI rakSA karanI caahie| anyathA pariNAma bure bhI ho sakate haiN| vAsavadattA ne kahA | 109 For Personal & Private Use Only

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- maiM tumhAre matalaba ko nahIM samajhI, para tumheM avazya AnA hai|sNt Upara nahIM gayA usane kahA ucita avasara Ane para avazya aauuNgaa| ___ samaya bItatA gyaa| karma kI gati nyArI hotI hai| kahA gayA hai ki saundarya ho, sampatti ho aura yuvAvasthA ho usa samaya yadi koI sanmArga dikhAne vAlA nahIM ho to vyakti anartha meM calA jAtA hai| aisA hI huA vAsavadattA ke jIvana meN| samaya bItatA gyaa| apane durAcaraNa ke kAraNa vAsavadattA bhayaMkara rogoM se ghira gii| koI bhI usakI dekhabhAla karane vAlA nahIM thaa| usake aizvarya ke dinoM meM sabhI usake sAthI the, para aba sabhI nAka sikor3akara usake Age se jA rahe the| vAsavadattA rAjamArga para eka tarapha nirAzrita par3I thii| vastra phaTe hue the| zarIra para jagaha-jagaha ghAva ho gae the| ghAvoM ke kAraNa zarIra se atyanta durgandha A rahI thii| asaMkhya makkhiyA~ bhinna-bhinnA rahI thii| vaha eka ghuTa pAnI taka ke lie tarasa rahI thii| para koI usakI sudha nahIM le rahA thaa| pratyeka vyakti ko apane kiye kA pariNAma bhugatanA hI par3atA hai| agara hama apanI indriyoM kA upabhoga saMyama ke sAtha nahIM kareMge yahI indriyA~ aMtataH hamAre duHkha kA kAraNa bana jAeMgI aisA hI ghaTita huA vAsavadattA ke jIvana meN| acAnaka vaha saMta udhara se gujraa| sar3aka para par3I vAsavadattA karAha rahI thii| usakI zakti kSINa ho gaI thii| saundarya aura lAvaNya rogoM meM parivartita ho cukA thaa| apane eka-eka pala ko kaSTa se vyatIta karatI huI vAsavadattA para usa saMta kI dRSTi pdd'ii| usane pAsa jAkara bhalI-bhA~ti pahacAnakara kahA - bhane, maiM A gayA huuN| atyanta kaThinAI se vAsavadattA ne dhIre se kahA- bahuta dera kara dii| aba mere pAsa kyA rakhA hai| merA saba kucha naSTa ho gayA hai itanA kahakara vaha behoza ho gii| saMta ne mana hI mana socA - sampatti, rUpa, yuvAvasthA meM isake pAsa hara koI rahatA, saba isake bAhara ke saMsAra se jur3e hue the, mujhe mAlUma thA eka dina yahI loga isakA tiraskAra kara baittheNge| aba isake pAsa kucha bhI nahIM hone se isakA koI nahIM hai| lagatA hai mere 110 For Personal & Private Use Only

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Ane kA upayukta samaya to aba huA hai| mAnava dharma sevA karane kA to maukA aba hai / isa prakAra socakara usane use uThAyA Azrama meM le gyaa| svayaM pratidina usake ghAva prema-karuNA bhAvoM se sApha karane lgaa| dhIre-dhIre vaha svastha ho gii| usa saMta ne usase kahA maiM ucita avasara kI pratIkSA kara rahA thA, kyoMki jaba iMsAna ko cAroM tarapha nirAzA hAtha lagatI hai taba saMta hI usameM AzA kA saMcAra karate haiM aura saMsAra se mukta karate haiM / vAsavadattA jAgrata ho gaI / usane saMta ke caraNoM meM jIvana samarpita kara diyA aura mukta ho gii| - ise kahate haiM saccI, niHsvArtha sevA / usa saMta ne Atma kalyANa karate hue sevA-bhAva se vAsavadattA ko vAsanA se mukta kara sAdhanA meM niyojita kara diyA / jIvana jInA bhI eka kalA hai| sevA bhI usakA eka maulika caraNa hai AtmIyatA, karuNA, paropakAra, saMvedanA hone para hI hama sevA kara sakeMge / dikhAve meM, pradarzana meM, ahaM meM, nAma yaza kI bhAvanA se kI gaI sahAyatA meM sevA nahIM hai| hameM dUsaroM kI sevA meM saMlagna honA hai svayaM kI sevA karAne kA bhAva mana meM kadApi nahIM rakhanA hai| isake lie niSkAma bhAvanA kI, manobala kI mahatI AvazyakatA hai / vAstava meM hamArA dharma hI sevA hai, jaba taka samAja meM sevA bhAva nahIM hogA, ucca evaM Adarza samAja kI parikalpanA nahIM ho sakatI hai / mujhe aise aneka sadgRhastha mile jo cupacApa, gupta rUpa se sahAyatA karake prasanna hote haiM / vAstava meM sevA to tana-mana-dhana se ni:svArtha bhAva se hI honI caahie| yadi hama sevA nahIM kara sakate haiM to usakA anumodana avazya kareM arthAt apanI aMrtaAtmA se duHkhI vyakti ke svastha hone kI paramAtmA se prArthanA avazya kareM hamArI saccI duA bhI davA kA kAma kara jAyA karatI hai / + For Personal & Private Use Only | 111

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jananI meM chipI z2annata kI rAheM mA~ ke caraNoM se dina kI zuruAta va mA~ kI sevA se dina kA samApana karane vAlA putra dhanya hai| eka ni:saMtAna daMpati ne mujhe batAyA ki eka mahilA ke pA~ca bacce pahale the| chaThA hone vAlA thA aura ghara meM khAne ke lAle the| DaoNkTara sameta sabakI yahI salAha thI ki baccA girA diyA jaae| mA~ kI bhI yahI icchA thii| hameM isakI khabara lagI, to hama vahA~ daur3akara gae hamane usase kahA ki lar3akA ho yA lar3akI hama rakhane ko taiyAra haiN| tuma bacce ko janma do mahilA ne kucha socA aura hAmI bhara lii| hamane usa mahilA kI davA-dArU pauSTika khurAka aura ArAma kA pUrA qhayAla rakhA aura abhAvoM se jUjhate parivAra ko kucha Arthika madada bhI dii| ThIka samaya para usa mahilA ne eka svastha baccI ko janma diyA, lekina jyoMhI hama use le jAne Ae, vaha sApha mukara gaI, 'apanI baccI ko haragija nahIM duuNgii| Aqhira maiM eka mA~ huuN| g2arIbI ke Dara se apanI kokha-janmI baccI ko kaise de duuN| jaise bAkI pala rahe haiM, vaise ye bhI pala jaaegii|' mahilA kI yaha bhAvanA dekhakara hama bhAva vihvala ho gae aura vApisa lauTa aae| 112 For Personal & Private Use Only

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vAstava meM saMsAra meM mA~ ke pyAra kI koI sImA nahIM hai| mA~ kA pyAra anokhA pyAra hai| sabake pyAra ke samakSa yadi hama mAtR prema, mA~ ke pyAra ko, mamatvako, vAtsalya-bhAva ko dekheM to vaha sabase yazasvI dharAtala para sthita hai| hama svarga kI kalpanA karate haiM, usako prApta karane kI, usameM pahu~cane kI kalpanA karate haiM para mA~ ke prema ko svargamaya banAne kI, usako avirala rUpa se prApta karane kI koziza nahIM krte|maaN ke prema aura usakI nirmala mamatA meM hI jIvana kA svarga hai| kyA mA~ ke pyAra kI tulanA kisI se kI jA sakatI hai, jisane isa satya ko samajhA hai unake lie mA~ hI Izvara hai aura dharatI kA pahalA tIratha hai| Aja kA yuvA mA~-bApa kI upekSA bhale hI kara rahA ho, para yAda rakheM upekSA karane vAle kabhI bhI jIvana meM utthAna ke svarNima zikhara taka nahIM pahu~ca sakate haiM kyoMki mA~-bApa kI duAe~ hI unnati kI daulata prApti meM nIMva ke patthara kA kAma kiyA karatI hai aura itihAsa kI amiTa chApa bana jAtI hai| itihAsa isa bAta kA sAkSI hai ki kaI putra mAtRbhakta hue jinhoMne mA~ ke prema ke samakSa sabhI ko tilAMjali dii| kahA bhI gayA hai ki 'jananI janma bhUmizca svargAdapi griiysii|' aise bhI hue haiM jinhoMne mA~ kI AjJA ko zirodhArya karake apane jIvana meM mahAn pada se bhI istIphA de diyaa| AzutoSa mukharjI baMgAla ke sapUta, niSThA saMpanna jIvana ke dhanI the| unhoMne mA~ ke hRdaya ko samajha liyA thaa| yaha jAna liyA thA ki mA~ se bar3hakara koI nahIM hai| mA~ ke sammAna ko samajhakara unhoMne apane jIvana meM mA~ ko hI Izvara tulya sthAna diyaa| usa samaya bhArata AjAda nahIM huA thaa| bhArata ke tatkAlIna vAyasarAya ne hAikorTa ke nyAyAdhIza, baMgAla yUnivarsiTI ke upakulapati zrI AzutoSa mukharjI ko kAusiMla kA membara bnaayaa| hAlAMki taba kAusiMla ke membara kevala videzI hote the para AzutoSa kI yogyatA ke AdhAra para unakA cayana kiyA gyaa| itane bar3e padoM para AsIna hone ke bAvajUda bhI mA~ kI zikSA ke anurUpa ve hAtha se khAnA banAte, tharDa klAsa meM saphara karate, sabhI kI bhAvanAoM kA sammAna karate hue mA~ ko sarvopari sthAna dete| unakI viziSTa prajJA evaM yogyatA ko dekha vAyasarAya ne unheM videza bhejane kA nizcaya kiyaa| unhoMne kahA kaimbrija vizvavidyAlaya meM jAkara Apako 113 For Personal & Private Use Only

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vahA~ kI zikSA-paddhati kA adhyayana karanA hai| bhAratIya zikSA-paddhati meM kyA parivartana kiyA jAe isakI riporTa tumheM denI hai| vAyasarAya ke samakSa AzutoSa to kyA kisI bhI bhAratIya kI bolane kI himmata nahIM thii| koI unake samakSa bola nahIM sakatA thA, baiTha nahIM sakatA thA, para vAyasarAya ke samakSa atyadhika gahana artha se yukta sIdhe-sAde zabdoM meM AzutoSa ne kahA sara maiM mA~ se pUchakara z2avAba dUMgA / vAyasarAya kSaNabhara ke lie camaka gae, para cupa rhe| ____ kalpanA kIjiye yadi Apake samakSa isa prakAra kA to kyA, thor3A bhI U~ce pada kA yA kisI vizeSa sthAna kA oNphara Ae to kyA Apa apane mA~bApa se pUchakara javAba dene kA kaheMge? kaI yuvA to isameM mA~ se kyA pUchanA hai' yaha kahate hue hicakicAte bhI nahIM hai| balki yaha kahate haiM ki merI mA~ to purAne khyAloM kI hai vaha Adhunika jamAne ko kyA samajhe ? unake hamAre soca meM bahuta antara hai, para vAstava meM jIvana kI zAlInatA, anubhava kI paripakvatA, saMskAroM kA saMrakSaNa jo unameM hotA thA vartamAna yuga meM vo hamAre meM nahIM hai| hamArI mAnasikatAe~ bhautika cakAcauMdha ke yuga meM badalatI jA rahI hai| AzutoSa ghara Ae, mana meM videza jAne kA, navIna adhyayana karane kA svapna bhI thaa| ghara Ane para kRzakAya, jarjara, sikur3e hue zarIra vAlI nabbe varSa kI mA~ jo ki khATa para leTI huI thI unake caraNa sparza kiyA, aura kahA- mA~, mujhe videza jAnA hai| vAyasarAya mujhe Agraha pUrvaka bheja rahe haiM / mA~ ne pUchA- beTA, kisalie? AzutoSa - mA~! bhAratIya zikSA-paddhati meM kyA-kyA parivartana karane haiM isakA adhyayana karake, sarve karake batAnA hai yahA~ kyA-kyA parivartana honA caahie| vAyasarAya dvArA mere rahane, khAne Adi kI sampUrNa vyavasthA kara dI gaI hai| mA~ - AzutoSa hamArI zikSA paddhati meM kyA kamI hai? takSazilA, nAlandA meM to videzI loga Akara adhyayana karate the| phira beTA videza meM dhana to milegA para dharma surakSita rahegA isakI kyA gAraMTI hai ? tU mata jaa| tumhArI mA~ yaha nahIM cAhatI ki tU videza jaae| dharma saMkaTa meM pha~se AzutoSa socane lage ki idhara mA~ kI AjJA hai jise mujhe zirodhArya karanA hai, udhara vAyasarAya kA Adeza ki jisakI AjJA kA mujhe 114|| For Personal & Private Use Only

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pAlana karanA par3egA, para AzutoSa kI aMrtaAtmA ne mA~ kI AjJA ko zirodhArya karane ke lie prerita kiyA aura unhoMne upakulapati pada evaM kAuMsaliMga membara ke pada ko chor3ane hetu tyAga patra likhaa| ve vAyasarAya ke pAsa phuNce| vAyasarAya ne pUchA- kyA tumhArI mA~ ne hA~ kara dI ? AzutoSa ne jeba meM hAtha DAlA aura - kAgaja nikAlate hue nIcI naz2aroM se kahA sara, mA~ kI tanika bhI AjJA nahIM, hai ki maiM videza jAU~ / sara ! maiMne ApakI AjJA kA anAdara kiyA hai / Apa donoM padoM ke tyAgapatra svIkAra karake mujhe pada- mukta kareM / vAyasarAya ne pahalI bAra samajhA ki bhArata meM mA~ kA kyA mahatva hai / ve uThe, AzutoSa ke nikaTa pahu~ce aura kahA ki maiMne yahA~ Akara bhArata kI saMskRti se saMbaMdhita bahuta-sA sAhitya par3hA para pahalI bAra mA~ ke prati aho bhAva ko caritArtha hote dekhA hai / maiM abhibhUta huuN| tumheM videza nahIM jAnA hai tuma mere pAsa rhoge| yaha kahakara vAyasarAya ne tyAgapatra phAr3a diyA / zrI AzutoSa kI yaha ghaTanA kyA hameM apane kartavya kA bodha karAegI ? hamane bhautika jIvana meM jabadasta unnati kI hai| hamArI jIvana zailI meM bahuta bar3A parivartana hotA jA rahA hai| jisa mA~ ne hameM janma diyA hai aura pAlA-poSA bar3A kiyA usane aneka kaSToM ko sahana kiyA hai| mA~ to sirpha mA~ hI hotI hai / yaha vAtsalya kI pratimUrti hai| usake roma-roma meM apanI santAna ke prati apUrva prema kA jharanA satat pravAhita hotA rahatA hai| mA~ ke prema kI tulanA hama duniyA meM kisI se nahIM kara sakate haiN| usake jIvana kI eka hI abhilASA rahatI hai ki merI santAna qhUba sukhI rhe| mA~ kI sadA abhilASA rahatI hai ki merI santAna merI kokha ko lajjita nahIM kareM apitu usake gaurava ko bddh'aae| usakI Izvara kI ArAdhanA meM bhI yaha soca hotI hai ki he bhagavAna! merI santAnoM kA kalyANa kara / para Adhunika yuga meM sukhI jIvana kI abhilASA vAlI mA~ apane hI samakSa svapnoM ke sampUrNa mahala ko DhahatA huA dekha rahI hai / Aja pAzcAtya sabhyatA se prabhAvita hone ke kAraNa yuvA dUragAmI pariNAmoM ko dekhane kA prayatna nahIM karate haiN| ekAkI jIvana vyatIta karanA pasanda karate haiN| sirpha apanI patnI aura santAna ke atirikta cAhe mA~-bApa hoM yA anya parivAra ke loga sabhI ko ve bandhana mAnate haiN| vyakti saMvedanahIna banatA jA rahA hai / hamAre saMskAra, parivAroM ke aTUTa rizte samApta prAyaH ho rahe haiM yA choTe se dAyare meM simaTa rahe For Personal & Private Use Only | 115

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haiN| jabaki mA~ apane zizu meM pUrI jAna bhara detI hai / vaha use mahasUsa bhI karatA hai / nAsamajha zizu sabakI goda meM jAkara rotA hai kintu vahI apanI mA~ kI goda ke sukhada Azraya ko prApta karake, kara kamaloM ke sparza se surakSita-sA mahasUsa kara cupa ho jAtA hai| jo sukhAnubhUti mA~ ko apane bacce ko goda meM lekara, janma dete hue, pAlana-poSaNa karate hue hotI hai usakA varNana nahIM kiyA jA sakatA hai / hama mA~ kI mahattA ko samajhane kA prayatna kreN| hamAre bhautika prema meM AMzika hI sahI para vAsanA hotI hai, svArtha hotA hai, AkAMkSA hotI hai kintu mA~ ke prema meM na svArtha hai, na vAsanA, na hI mAMga hai, na hI AkAMkSA basa usameM to niHsvArtha prema hai, mUka vAtsalya bhAva hai, amRta tatva hai / isa akathanIya mamatva, pyAra, vAtsalya tyAga ko zabdoM ke mAdhyama se vyakta nahIM kiyA jA sakatA hai / 1 " kaurava aura pANDavoM ke yuddha meM droNAcArya kauravoM ke pakSa meM the / unakI yaha dRr3ha pratijJA thI ki azvatthAmA kI mRtyu ke samAcAra sunakara maiM turanta zastroM kA tyAga kara dU~gA / droNAcArya ke manobala to tor3ane ke lie eka bAra yudhiSThira ne kahA 'azvatthAmA hataH naro vA kuMjaro vA / ' yudhiSThira ne 'azvatthAmA hata:' zabda jora se kahA aura 'naro vA kuMjaro vA' zabda dhIre se kahA / azvatthAmA kI mRtyu ke samAcAra sunakara droNAcArya ne apanI pratijJA ke anusAra zastra chor3a die / azvatthAmA ko jaba yaha jJAta huA to vaha krodha se Aga babUlA huA aura usI rAtri meM pANDavoM kI hatyA karane kA dRr3ha saMkalpa kiyA / yuddha virAma kI ghoSaNA ke pazcAt azvatthAmA ne yuddhanIti kA ullaMghana kiyA tathA pANDavoM ke zivira meM phuNcaa| vahA~ pANDavoM ke pA~ca putra the| usane pANDavoM ke bhrama meM una pA~coM putroM kA vadha kara diyaa| apane pA~coM putroM kI akAla mRtyu se draupadI rone lgii| bhIma ne draupadI ko vacana diyA ki vaha apane putra ke hatyAre ko kala hI pakar3a kara lA degA / dUsare dina bhIma azvatthAmA ko ghasITakara draupadI ke samakSa lAtA hai aura use mauta ke ghATa utArane kI bAta kahatA hai / usa samaya putroM kI viraha vedanA se vyathita draupadI kahatI hai ki isane mujhe putra vihIna kara diyA hai| putra kA viraha kyA hotA hai ise maiM bhalI-bhA~ti samajha cukI huuN| maiMne sAkSAt anubhava kiyA hai aura maiM ise bhI mArakara apanI taraha, apanI guru- patnI ko putra - hIna nahIM banAnA 116 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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cAhatI huuN| kRpayA ise abhayadAna de do| yaha thA udAra hRdayA mA~ kA vAtsalya, pyAra aura prem|hm jaise-jaise svayaM ko Adhunika kahane lage haiM, samaya ko pahacAne binA usameM gote lagA rahe haiM vaise-vaise mAtA-pitA ke sammAna ko, RNa ko bhUla rahe haiN| jo mA~ prAta:kAla sabase pahale uThakara ghara ke kAryoM meM lagatI, dera rAta taka kArya karatI, gIle meM svayaM sotI para apanI santAna ko sUkhe meM sulAtI, svayaM bhUkhI rahatI hai para apanI santAna kA bharaNa-poSaNa karatI hai| usa mA~ ko patA hai samaya ke phera meM saba kucha badala gayA hai| use koI pUchane vAlA nahIM hai| putra kI zAdI hone para use svayaM ko svayaM kA prabaMdha karanA pdd'egaa| bImAra hone para koI beTA yaha nahIM socegA ki vaha rAta meM ThiThura to nahIM rahI, davA usake pAsa hai yA nhiiN| eka mA~ ke cAra beTe mA~ ke cAra Tukar3e to nahIM kara skte| eka-eka mAha apane pAsa dharmazAlA ke rAhagIra kI taraha rakhate haiN| yA paise kA prabandha karake use svayaM ke hAla para chor3a dete haiM / viDambanA hai ki cAra lar3ake milakara bhI eka mAtA-pitA ko pAla nahIM sakate, para akelI mA~ cAra ko pAla letI hai| vaha yaha nahIM socatI ki cAra ko kaise pAle? AlIzAna makAna meM putra apane mA~-bApa ko nahIM rakha sakate, rakhate haiM to pUrNatayA sevA dekhabhAla nahIM krte| vaha yaha bhUla jAte haiM ki hamArI santAna bhI hamAre isa duvyavahAra se zikSA le rahI hai| - aisI kaI ghaTanAe~ hamAre sAmane haiM jisameM hama dekhate haiM ki putra apane dAdA-dAdI kA tiraskAra dekhakara apane mA~-bApa kA hRdaya badala dete haiN| eka bur3hiyA mA~jI ke eka beTA thaa|maaNjii ne atyadhika kaSTa uThAkara beTe ko bar3A kiyA par3hAyA-likhAyA tathA hoziyAra kiyaa| beTe ne apanA dhaMdhA karanA zurU kiyaa| bur3hiyA bahuta AzAvAn thii| usake mana meM sadaiva yahI AzA rahatI hai ki merA beTA aba kamA rahA hai| mere sukha ke dina A gae haiN| bahU bhI AegI ghara meM khuzahAlI chA jaaegii| beTe kA vivAha kiyA gyaa| bahU AI zurU meM to bahU zAMta prakRti kI thI para zanaiH zanaiH usakI prakRti meM antara Ane lgaa| bur3hiyA ke pautra huaa| bur3hiyA kAphI prasanna rahatI thii| dhIre-dhIre pautra bar3A hone lgaa| idhara bahU ne mA~jI kI upekSA karanI prAraMbha kara dii| jaba pati ghara meM hotA taba to bahU DhaMga se | 117 For Personal & Private Use Only

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bolatI anyathA ghara kA sArA kAma usase krvaatii| miTTI ke bartanoM meM khAne ko detii| parivAra ke sabhI sadasya sTIla ke bartanoM meM khaate| mA~jI ko atyadhika duHkha hotA thA lekina vaha mana hI mana g2ama ko pI rahI thii| kisI se kucha nahIM khaa| ___ mA~jI pratidina bhojana karake miTTI ke pAtra ko dhokara pauMchakara ghara ke eka kone meM rakha detii| jisase kisI ko patA nahIM cle| eka dina bur3hiyA ke pote ne acAnaka mA~jI ko miTTI ke bartanoM meM bhojana karate dekhA to pUchA Apa ina bartanoM meM bhojana kyoM karatI ho? mA~jI ne socA ki yadi maiM ise satya batA dUMgI to mere sAtha aura bhI durvyavahAra ho sakatA hai| yaha socakara vaha mauna rhii| parantu pote ke atyadhika Agraha karane para usane socA ki jhUTha bolane se bhalA kyA lAbha? kaSTa to vaise bhI saha rahI huuN| maiM ise saca-saca sArI bAta kaha duuN| dAdI ne kahA - beTA, terI mA~ mujhe inhIM bartanoM meM khAnA detI hai| pote ne kahA- dAdI! ghara meM itane sTIla ke bartana haiM Apa usameM le liyA kro| dAdI ne apanI sArI vyathA sunAyI aura kahA tuma skUla cale jAte ho aura tumhAre pApA Aphisa pIche se tumhArI mA~ mujhase khUba kAma karavAtI hai, khAnA bhI rUkhA, sUkhA bacA huA detI hai, rasoI meM khAne nahIM detI isa taraha apanI vyathA ko khaa| mA~ usa samaya ghara se bAhara thii| isalie dAdI-pote ko bAta karane kA acchA maukA mila gyaa| usane batAyA ki kitane kaSTa uThAkara apane lar3ake ko par3hAyA, likhAyA, hoziyAra kiyA Aja usakA yaha natIz2A hai, para mujhe yaha bhI qhuzI hai ki meTA beTA-potA to ArAma meM hai| yaha kahate-kahate dAdI kI A~khoM meM A~sU A ge| dAdI kI bAteM sunakara pote ko bahuta kaSTa huaa| usane socA mujhe kucha bhI karanA karanA par3e para dAdI mA~ ArAma se rahe yaha to karanA hI hogaa| usane dAdI ko apanI yojanA batAI mA~ A gaI thii| isalie vaha vahA~ se haTa gyaa| dAdI bhI kAma meM laga gii| dUsare dina mA~jI ne miTTI ke bartana meM bhojana kiyA aura dhone ke bahAne una bartanoM ko tor3a diyaa| bartanoM ke TUTate hI bahU kA gussA AsamAna para car3ha gyaa| vaha nArAz2a hokara bolI aba tuma kisameM bhojana krogii| dekhakara kAma nahIM 1187 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hotA, eka cAra bartana bhI DhaMga se nahIM dho sakatI / aba kisameM khaaegii| - pote ne kahA * mA~ bartana purAne ho gae hoNge| roz2a kAma meM lene se ghisa gae hoNge| bartana dhote samaya acAnaka TUTa gae to isameM dAdI kA kyA doSa hai ? Apa to dAdI kA itanA dhyAna rakhatI ho| agara dAdI ko miTTI ke bartanoM meM hI khAne kA zoka hai to maiM bAjAra se bartana lA detA hU~ / potA bAjAra gayA aura miTTI ke bartanoM kI tIna jor3I le aayaa| Akara ve bartana usane dAdI ko dete hue kahA ki dAdI mA~ eka jor3I meM tuma bhojana karanA aura do jor3I surakSita rakha lenA / dAdI mA~ ne kahA beTA mujhe aura jor3I kI AvazyakatA nahIM hai| maiM to kaI sAloM se isI meM khA rahI thii| yaha to z2arA hAtha se yU~ hI chUTa gii| mA~ ne kahAbeTA itane bartana lAne kI kyA z2arUrata thii| isa bur3hiyA ke lie to eka jor3I hI kAphI the| tabhI pote ne kahA- mA~ eka jor3I dAdI kI hai do jor3I Apake lie| bur3hApe meM Apako bhI to z2arUrata pdd'egii| ho sakatA hai Apake beTA-bahU TUTane para miTTI kI thAlI kharIdakara na lAe / so maiMne do thAlI abhI se lAkara rakha dI tAki eka ke phUTane para dUsarI thAlI kAma A jaaegii| dAdI ne kahA beTA yaha tU kyA kaha rahA hai ? para bahU ne jaise hI yaha zabda sune vaha ekadama ghabarA gii| are! mere kar3ave karmoM kA phala mujhe bhoganA pdd'e| isa prakAra dAdI se unakI badatara hAlAta kA qhyAla karake usane apanI sAsa se mAphI mAMgI tathA sevA suzruSA meM laga gaI / yaha kaisI viDambanA hai ki vivAha ke pUrva apanI mA~ ke prati jo zraddhAsamarpaNa kI bhAvanA rahatI hai, yaha bhAvanA vivAha ke bAda Ajakala kAphI badala hai / jisa mA~ kI goda meM baiThakara bAlaka bar3A hotA hai usI mA~ ke pAsa pandraha minaTa bhI baiThane kI phursata nahIM hai / mA~ ke vacana karkaza lagate haiM patnI hI saba kucha ho jAtI hai| aise gharoM kI sukha-sampatti bhI samApta hone lagatI hai / hameM mAtA-pitA dvArA pradatta saMskAroM kI rakSA karane kA prayAsa karanA cAhie / itihAsa isa varNana se bhI bharA huA hai ki anekoM kaSToM ko sahakara mAtAoM ne apane svArtha ko tilAMjali dI to santAna ne una saMskAroM kI rakSA bhI kii| mA~ ke Adeza ko prApta karake AryarakSita dRSTivAda kA adhyayana karate haiM | 119 For Personal & Private Use Only

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tathA sva kalyANa ke sAtha hI apanA tathA apane parivAra kA kalyANa karate haiN| pazu-pakSIyoM meM bhI apanI santAna ke prati anUThA prema hotA hai to mAnava ke rUpa meM jo mAtA hai, usake dila meM apanI santAna ke prati kitanA prema hogA yaha zabdAtIta hai| vaha apane prANoM kA balidAna dekara bhI apanI santAna kI rakSA karanA cAhatI hai| mahArAnI vikToriyA kI putrI kA 10 varSa kA putra asAdhya roga se ghira gyaa| usake zarIra meM bhayaMkara roga phaila cukA thaa| vaha mRtyu zayyA para leTA thaa| chUta kI bImArI ho jAne ke kAraNa DaoNkTaroM ne yaha khAsa hidAyata dI thI ki koI bhI usake pAsa nahIM jaae| eka bAra sote hue rogI bAlaka kI acAnaka nidrA bhaMga hone para vaha darda ke kAraNa karAhane lgaa| mA~-mA~ kI pukAra karane lgaa| apane putra kI isa bhayaMkara vedanA ko sunakara mA~ raha nahIM sakI vaha bhI cIkhatI huI turanta daur3atI huI apane putra ke pAsa pahu~cI tathA use apanI goda meM le liyaa| usI samaya eka narsa vahA~ phuNcii| usane kahA - bahina jI! Apa to suzikSita haiM, samajhadAra haiM, Apako isa bAlaka ke pAsa Ane ke lie pUrNatayA manA kiyA gayA thA, phira bhI Apane isa bAlaka ko apanI goda..... __ bhAvAveza meM Akara bIca meM hI vaha bola uThI kyoMki maiM isakI mA~ huuN| mujhe koI nahIM roka sktaa| mA~ to sirpha mA~ hI hotI hai| ____mA~ to vAtsalya kI sAkSAt mUrti hotI hai| usake roma-roma meM santAna ke prati apUrva prema kA jharanA satat bahatA rahatA hai| mA~ kI tulanA jagat meM kisI se bhI nahIM kara sakate haiN| vartamAna meM mAtA-pitA kI bhakti, sevA-suzruSA kI upekSA karanA bhaviSya meM svayaM kI upekSA karavAne kA nimaMtraNa hai| unakI apekSAoM para kharA utarane kI bajAya unakI upekSA karanA vAstava meM bhAvI pIr3hI ke ujjvala bhaviSya ke lie khatare kI ghaMTI hai| Adarza putra banane ke lie hama zravaNa kumAra bneN| hamArA astitva mAtA-pitA ke kAraNa kI hai| isalie hama unake prati sadaiva'mAtR devo bhava', 'pitR devo bhava' kA bhAva rakheM 120/ For Personal & Private Use Only

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svayaM ko zAMti kA sarovara bnaaie| krodha kA peTrola-pampa nhiiN| sarovara meM agara koI aMgArA giregA bhI to bujha jAegA, vahIM peTrola para girA to gharaparivAra-samAja ko jalA ddaalegaa| *vaira, virodha aura vaimanasyatA kI syAhI se sanA huA vastra prema, AtmIyatA, kSamA aura maitrI ke sAbuna se hI sApha hotA hai| yAda rakheM bar3e AdamI ke krodha kI bajAya choTe AdamI kI kSamA kahIM jyAdA mahAna hotI hai| . vicAra hamAre svabhAva kA nirmANa karate haiM, svabhAva vyavahAra kA nirmANa karatA hai aura vyavahAra vyaktitva kA / vyaktitva ko behatara banAne ke lie vicAroM ko behatara bnaaeN| sar3aka para kisI ghAyala vyakti ko dekhakara use naz2ara aMdAja na kareM / saMbhava hai ki hama use kisI prakAra kA sahayoga na kara pAeM phira bhI ghAyala ko dharmamaMtra kA zravaNa avazya karavA deN| saMbhava hai aisA karake hama kisI dharaNendra-padmAvatI ke devasvarUpa ko janma dene kA saubhAgya prApta kara leN| . jo vyakti apane jIvana meM isa bAta kA bodha banAe raravatA hai ki maiM kriyA-pratikriyA ke bhaMvarajAla meM nahIM ulajhaMgA, vaha apane jIvana meM zAMti aura AnaMda ko barakarAra rakha sakatA hai| saMgaThana meM hI zakti hai |paaNc lakar3iyAM eka sAtha baMdhI hoM,to pAMca bhAI eka -sAtha milakara bhI nahIM tor3a sakate, para yAda rakheM biravarI lakar3iyoM ko koI bhI tor3a sakatA haiN| pravartinI candraprabhA zrI national For Personal & Private Use Only