Aatm Samprekshan

Author(s): Gunhansvijay
Publisher: Kamal Prakashan Trust
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/005779/1

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namo'stu tasmai jinazAsanAya AtmAnA doSone barAbara nihALavA eTale ja vAtma-saMprakSaNa AdhAra 8 zrI yogazataka grantha N

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@ Topa), DO NOT (@ AtmAmAM rahelA agaNitadoSone sUkSmadraSTithI nihALavA-pakaDavA eTale ja | Atma-saMpreaNa | : AdhAra : , sUripuraMdara zrI haribhadrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA viracita . yogazAtabdha : prera5 :) paM. candrazekharavijayajI ma. sAheba ': prakAzaka : (zrIzramaNapradhAna jainasaMgha) kamala prakAzana TrasTa

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prakAzakaH (zrIzramaNapraghAna janasaMdha) kamala prakAzana TrasTa jIvatalAla pratApazI saMskRti bhavana 2777, nizA poLa, jhaverIvADa, rIlipha roDa, amadAvAda-1 phona : 25355823, 25356033 lekhakaH siddhAnta mahodadhi, saccAritracUDAmaNi, sva. pUjyapAda A. bhagavaMta zrImadvijaya premasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA sAhebanA vinaya pU. paM. zrI candrazekharavijyajInA ziSya. muni guNahaMsakya AvRttiH prathama saMskaraNa : nakala : 2000 vi.saM. 2066 zrAvaNa vada 7, tA. 1-9-2010 mUlya rUA. 100/ TAIpaseTiMga arihaMta grAphiksa khADiyA cAra rastA, khADiyA, amadAvAda. mukaH bhagavatI ophaTa bAraDolapurA, amadAvAda.

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Namo tyu Na samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa E - sta H. 4 ji na gA sa nA 11111111 A bha Na 1 2 3 4 doSa naM.-1 - svArtha doSa naM.-2 - IrSyA doSa naM.-3 - ALasa-kAmacorI 5 doSa naM.-4 - Asakti da doSa naM.-5 - daSTidoSa 7 doSa naM.-6 - ahaMkAra 8 doSa naM.-7 - majAka-mazkarI 9 doSa naM.-8 - svadoSabacAva 10 11 2 12 133 13 anukramaNikA viSaya nihALIe oraDo Atamano doSa naM.-9 - apekSA doSa naM.-10 - jIda doSa naM.-11 - kadAgraha upasaMhAra pAna naMbara 1 thI 7 8 thI 15 16 thI 27 28 thI 38 39 thI 46 47 thI 56 57 thI 96 97 thI 103 104 thI 113 114 thI 124 125 thI 134 135 thI 144 145 thI 148 na FFEE EFF na ya A bha *. kSa Na

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Namo tthu Na samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa * NamA tthu Na samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa na ta sma viSamakALanA ApaNe saMyamIo ! kunimitto - kusaMskAro - kukarmo - kukALa vagerethI cArebAjuthI gherAyelA ApaNe saMyamIo ! eTale ApaNA AtmAmAM to cikkAra doSo hovAnI zakyatA che ja. jyAM sudhI enuM bArIkAIthI nirIkSaNa nahi TM karavAmAM Ave, tyAM sudhI e doSo ghaTaze nahi, doSo ghaTADavAnI buddhi ja utpanna nahi na maiM thAya. nA A bha prastAvanA sUripuraMdara zrIharibhadrasUrijI mahArAjAno eka adbhuta grantha yogazataka ! emAM TuMkANamAM darzAvAyelo eka padArtha "AtmasaMprekSaNa karavuM. arthAt AtmAmAM rahelA doSone barAbara jovA, zodhavA." ja mATe ja mane lAgyuM ke ApaNA badhA ja mATe A svadoSadarzana rUpa Atma-saMprekSaNa ati-ati Avazyaka che. emAM ya mArA mATe to mArA hita khAtara ghaNuM ghaNuM ghaNuM Avazyaka ! A kAraNasara zaru karyuM A lakhANa ! mAtra eka khulAso ! AmAM badhuM meM e rIte lakhyuM che ke "badhA prasaMgo mArA jIvananA ja hoya" ema lAge. paNa hakIkata e che ke - (A) keTaluMka mArA jIvanamAM anubhaveluM che. (B) keTaluMka bIjAonA jIvanamAM joyeluM che, chatAM meM 'mArA jIvananuM hoya' ema varNavyuM che. (C) keTaluMka kalpanA dvArA lakheluM che ke je kalpanAo koIkanA ne koIkanA jIvanamAM jIvaMta paNa banI hoya e zakya che. na S sta ta B sma nA na EFF 2000000dddddd sa nA ya A ma mArI sAthe aneka jIvone A vivecana upayogI thAya e mATe meM A rIte lakhyuM che. yogazataka granthanA AdhAre ja A vistRta vivecana kareluM che, e sUtra para pre vRttirUpa A vivecana samajavuM. aMte kSa kSa bebhAna mANasanuM peTa cIrI nAMkhavAmAM Ave to paNa tyAre tene kazI vedanA na r *. Y

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o mahAvIrassa Namo tyu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mara mottha NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassA { * F = * IF E F 45 = 5 E F = 1. thAya. ema jo ApaNe bhAre karmI-abhavI-mahA mithyAtvI hoIzuM to game eTalA . 3 doSorUpI zastro ApaNA AtmAmAM pravezelA haze, to ya ApaNane enI koI ja vedanA || * nahi thAya, koI pazcAttApa nahi thAya. paNa jAgatA mANasane to nAnakaDo kAMTo paNa vAge to e cIsa pADI uThe, ema tta ApaNAmAM jo samyakta-virati vagere zubha pariNAmo pragaTelA haze, eTale ke ApaNo AtmA jAgato haze to enAmAM nAnakaDo paNa doSa-kAMTo ghusatAnI sAthe e cIsa pADI uThaze, e pazcAttApa karI uThaze. ApaNe AvA ja banavuM che. mArA bhavodadhitAraka gurudevazrI svadoSadarzana nAmanA mahAna guNa mATe - jagaprasiddha che, teozrIe amane paNa vAcanAo dvArA e guNa keLavavAnI satata | Sii preraNAo karI che. A preraNAo prastuta pustaka dvArA mArA jIvanamAM saphaLa thAya evI ha paramakRpALu paramAtmAne prArthanA. A AkhA ya lakhANamAM jinAjJAviparIta kaMIpaNa lakhAyuM hoya to mana-vacanakAyAthI micchA mi dukkaDaM mAMguM chuM. S S 1 1 1 302 3. 0 0 0 0 guNahaMsavijaya vAva (satalAsaNA) dvitIya vaizAkha vada-10 vikramasaMvata - 2066. m 8 3 e 8 + 2. 60 = 8 = =

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pustako paNa dazavaikAlikasUTA bhAga-1 hajI ja A - pa.pU. paMnyAsazrI candrazekharavijayajI ma.sAheba likhita-prerita-anuvAdita adhyayanopayogI sAhitya.. (1) nyAyasiddhAMta muktAvali bhAga-1,2 (2) vyAptipaMcaka (mAthurI TIkA) (3) siddhAntalakSaNa bhAga-1,2 (4) sAmAnya nirukti (5) oghaniyukti bhAga-1,2 (6) oghaniryukti sAroddhAra bhAga-1,2 (7) sAmAcArI prakaraNa bhAga-1,2 (8) jaina zAstronA cUMTelA zloko bhAga-1 (9) dazavaikAlika sUtra - (hAribhadrI TIkA) bhASAMtara bhAga-1 thI 4 FI saMyamajIvanopayogI - upadezAtmaka sAhitya.. ? ma huM ke che Sa (1) gurumAtA (2) have to mAtra ne mAtra sarvavirati ! (3) saMvigna saMyamIonI niyamAvali (4) munijIvananI bAlapothI bhAga-1,2,3, (5) aSTapravacanamAtA (6) vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabI: ApaNAM sAdhu-sAdhvIjI bhagavaMto bhAga-1,2 (7) zUnya banIne pUrNa banuM (8) kyAre banIza huM sAco re saMta ! (9) dazavaikAlika cUlikA * * * a

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je jinaANA pALe. rAga-dveSane dUra karIne Atamazuddhi bhALe, dhana che dhanate munivaro re, je jina AzA mArA 1. nihALIe oraDo Atamano... ) ApaNe mAnIe chIe ke siddhazilAnI upara jaIne ApaNo AtmA kAyama mATe | tu sthira thaI jAya e mokSa ! A vAta jo ke sAcI ja che, paNa Avo mokSa koNa lAvI = Ape ? tame kahezo ke ATha karmono kSaya Avo mokSa lAvI Ape... A vAta paNa | sAcI che. paNa khabara che kharI ? ke siddhazilAmAM sthiratA ane aSTakarmakSaya A badhuM ja dravyamokSa che, bhAvamokSa to che, ratnatrayI ! ratnatrayImaya AtmA ! juo ne, adhyAtmasAramAM mahopAdhyAyajIe kahyuM ja che ne ? ke dravyamokSaH kSayaH karmadravyANAM nAtmalakSaNam / bhAvamokSastu taddheturAtmA ratnatrayAnvayI / bhAvamokSa AvI jAya eTale dravyamokSa ApameLe AvI ja javAno. eTale ApaNo badho puruSArtha che, bhAvamokSa meLavavA mATeno ! ratnatrayI meLavavAno ! ratnatrayI eTale anaMtajJAna-anaMtadarzana-anaMtacAritra ! - emAM ajJAna nAmano doSa jema jema ocho thato jAya tema tema jJAnaguNa 8 pragaTato jAya. mithyAtva nAmano doSa jema jema ocho thato jAya tema tema samyatvaguNa 9 8 pragaTato jAya. ' rAga-dveSa nAmano doSa jema jema ocho thato jAya tema tema cAritraguNa pragaTato ||jAya. bI. eTale ratnatrayInI prApti mATe ApaNe doSanAzanI ArAdhanA karavAnI che. A| bha| emAMya mukhyatve rAga-dveSa nAmanA be doSono nAza karavAnI ArAdhanA karavAnI che. tya A be doSonA peTA bhedo aneka che. | rAga : strIrAga - bhojanarAga - zarIra rAga - padavIrAga - ziSyarAga - yazarAga T- sattArAga - bhaktarAga - svaciMtanarAga - svapustakarAga - svasthApitatIrtharAga - | upakaraNa rAga - kSetrarAga - svamatarAga...vagere. . Sa : vyaktidveSa - AMbilaSa - cAritradveSa - svAdhyAyaSa - sahavartImunidveSa - gurudveSa - aMtarmukhatAddeSa - maunadveSa - paragacchaSa - pararASTraSa - zatruSa - mogram nihALIe oraDo Aratamano... 0 (1) 000

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durgati paDatA rAkhe munine daza kSAntyAdika dharmo. zubhabhAvathI pALe tenA dUra TaLe savi karmo, dhana te... 2 vagere... A badhA ya rAga ane badhAya dveSa vegaLA thAya to bhAvamokSa pragaTa thAya. A badhA ja doSomAMthI darekamAM judA judA prakAranA doSo rahelA hoya che eTale dareke potastu potAnA doSone zodhI kADhIne enuM nirAkaraNa karavAnuM che. Da na oooooo ta paNa e doSo zodhavA mATe AtmA rUpI oraDAno khUNe-khUNo pheMdI kADhavo paDaze. maiM kyAMya kacarAno nAnakaDo kaNa paNa rahI na jAya e mATenI satata - sakhata kALajI levI sme na paDaze. na zA sa nA ". lo zrutajJAnarUpI beTarI hAthamAM, enA prakAzamAM Atama-oraDo khUNe-khAMcare cakAsI lo. je koI doSo-kacaro dekhAya...ene dUra karo. eTale Atama-oraDo cokkho-caTa ! ratnatrayInI jhAkajhamALa sarvatra ! A aMtaranA oraDAne nihALavAnuM bhagIratha kArya karavAnI khUba ja suMdara vidhi zrI yogazatakasUtramAM gA. 52-53 vageremAM darzAvI che. kSa Na mana ane Atama A be vacce cAlatI praznottarIrUpe ApaNe A AtmasaMprekSaNanA padArthane spaSTapaNe samajazuM. mana : koNa che, rAgAdinA kaTTa2zatruo ? A Atama : rAgAdinA zatruonuM vistRtavarNana te te zAstromAM ApeluM che, tma paNa apekSAe to rAgAdinA zatru ja gaNAya. tAre sau prathama A kAma karavAnuM che ke rAgAdinA zatruonuM spaSTa varNana karanArA je je zAstro che, e zAstro tAre gokhI levA joIe, kaMThastha karI levA joIe. mana : e zAstro kayA che ? AtmA : (1) bhAvanAzruta pATha : mana ! tAre rAgAdi doSone khatama karavAnA che. e mATe tAre rAgAdi doSonA zatruonI sahAya levI paDaze. duzmanano duzmana e mitra ! e nyAye rAgAdi tArA duzmana che. enA duzmana je hoya te tArA mitra gaNAya, eno satata saMparka tAre rAkhavAno che. e zAstro na Atama H Ama to koIpaNa zAsra hoya, e rAgAdino nAza karanArA upAyo darzAve che chatAM je zAstro vizeSathI A mATe upayogI che, te nIce pramANe che. (1) vairAgyazataka 104 gAthA, (2) indriyaparAjayazataka 99 gAthA, (3) nihALIe oraDo Aratamano... (2) 1111 * #_______ F A bha saM pre kSa Na

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doSa vinA paNa Thapako Ape guru, h. 4 _*_* = F A , tene je sahetA. mUlya vinA maLatI miThAI' evA dhyAnane vahetA, dhana te...3 bha zAMtasudhArasa 230 gAthA, (4) adhyAtmakalpadruma 300 gAthA, (5) upadezamAlA 544 gAthA, (6) hRdayapradIpa SatriMzikA 36 gAthA. mukhyatve A cha grantho kaMThastha karI levA. A granthomAM e darzAvyuM che ke (1) rAgAdidoSone utpanna karanArA nimitto kayA che ? (2) rAgAdi doSonuM svarUpa zuM ? (3) rAgAdi doSonuM phaLa zuM ? mana : A zloko vAMcI javAnA ? gokhI javAnA ? E - Atama : nA, mAtra vAMcavAnA ke gokhavAnA nathI. paNa eno vidhisara pATha | F nA karavAno. zakya hoya to roja, chevaTe aThavADiyAmAM krama pramANe cokkasa rIte A nA ya badhAno pATha karavo. ya mana e zlokono pATha karavAnI vidhi zuM ? Atama : (1) maMda svare, chatAM spaSTa uccArapUrvaka dhImedhIme e zloko bolavA. (2) zAMta sthaLe, avarajavara vinAnA sthaLe besIne zloko bolavA. (3) padmAsanamAM ke palAThI vALIne besavuM ane AMkho baMdha rAkhavI. (4) bhIMta vagereno Teko na levo. (5) enA je sAmAnya artha hoya, emAM upayogapUrvaka pATha karavo. (6) e cokkasa samaya daramyAna vacce koInI sAthe vAtacIta na karavI, pAThanI dhArA akhaMDita rAkhavI. A rIte khUba pATha karavA dvArA e zloko AtmasAt karavA enuM nAma bhAvanAzrutapATha. (2) anekazaH tIrthazravaNa : tIrthanI pAse A zlokono artha sAMbhaLavo, e paNa ekavAra nahi, paNa anekavAra sAMbhaLavo. mana : tIrthanI pAse eTale ? pAlitANA-giranAra vagere tIrthonI najIkamAM jaIne pre A artha sAMbhaLavo ema ? na Atama : nA, nA, tIrtham = adhikRtazrutAzmayavid abhyastamAvanAmArga: AcArya:, je mahAtmA, (1) uparokta zrutanA ane enA arthanA jJAtA hoya. nihALIe oraDo Aratamano... (3) 000000 maiM praka ji EE F 111111111 A bha - . ~ ja

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na uccAre, mokSamArge sahAyaka jANI kopa namanaDe dhAre. dhana te. pITAke nAnA muni jyAre kaTakavacana uccAre. che. " (2) svayaM A badhI bhAvanAone vAraMvAra bhAvIne je bhAvita banelA hoya, (3) evA AcArya ke anya gItArtha suyogya sAdhu... e tIrtha kahevAya. I : emanI pAse jaI emanA mukhe A kRtano artha dhyAnapUrvaka sAMbhaLavo. mana : paNa AvA ja mahAtmAno Agraha zA mATe ? koIpaNa mahAtmA pAse tuM sAMbhaLIe to zuM vAMdho ? Atama: nA. je mahAtmA svayaM zruta + arthanA jJAtA na hoya, kadAca jJAtA hoya | to paNa enI niraMtara bhAvanAthI bhAvita na thayelA hoya te mahAtmA pAse artha sAMbhaLazo to tamane samyajJAna nahi thAya. emAM jo e mahAtmAne prastuta zruta ja AvaDatuM na hoya to eno artha kaheze na zI rIte ? zruta AvaDatuM hoya to paNa eno vyavasthita artha ja na AvaDato hoya to nA ya kAmanuM? e artha kaheze, to paNa game tema kaheze, khoTo kaheze, udho kaheze... | enAthI tamane samyagujJAna to kema thaze? ane enA vinA doSanAzanuM tamAruM lakSya : kema vIMdhAze ? mATe e mahAtmA prastuta kRtanA ane arthanA jJAtA hovA jarUrI che. e dhAro ke e jJAtA hoya, paNa jo emaNe A bhAvanAmArgano abhyAsa nahi karyo che hoya, to emano AtmA A bhAvothI bhIno bhIno nahi banelo hoya, to emano : a AtmA svayaM ja te te doSothI khadabadato hoya, emanI tamAruM hita karavAnI bhAvanA ES = paNa spaSTa nahi hoya.. emAM ya ghaNI malinatA hoI zake... have AvA jJAtA pAsethI ER 8 game eTaluM sAMbhaLIe to paNa hRdayane sparze, sADA traNa karoDa rUMvADe vyApe... evuM ke = samyajJAna to kema thAya ? niyama che ke "prAyo mAvAn bhavaprasUtiH' moTA bhAge bhAvamAMthI bhAvanI utpatti | A thAya che. jo e jJAtA svayaM bhAvahIna haze, to emanA moTA moTA pravacanothI paNa A mAM tamArAmAM bhAvanI utpatti nahi thAya. eTale ja prastuta kRta + arthanA jJAtA evA tathA e zrutanI vAraMvAra bhAvanA | karavA dvArA bhAvita banelA, vairAgI banelA, zAMta-prazAMta-upazAMta banelA, niHspRhI | banelA mahAtmA pAse ja prastuta zratono artha sAMbhaLavo. mana : paNa tame A zravaNa anekavAra karavAnuM kahyuM, e zA mATe ? eka - be mAM vAra zravaNa karIe to na cAle ? | AtamaH nA, kemake tAro kSayopazama ochA-vatto hoya, kyAreka samajapheranA kAraNe Na IIIIIIIIT nihALIe oraDo Aratamano... 0 () ANTITATI

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koI jIvane duHkha na devuM e nizcaya mana dhAre. paradu:khadAyI pravRttine svapne paNa nahi dhAre. dhana te...5 uMdhu samajAI jAya, ane e rIte jo viparItajJAna thAya to to enA AdhAre tArI pravRtti paNa viparIta thAya... kadAca enA kAraNe durgationI paraMparA paNa ubhI thAya. paNa jo anekavAra zravaNa karo, to badhAno artha vAraMvAra sAMbhaLavAnA kAraNe stu pUrve jo kaMIka uMdhu samajAyuM hoya, to tenuM samAdhAna maLI rahe. bhramaNAo dUra thaI nu jAya ane sAcuM jJAna prApta thAya. eTale ja A zravaNa ekavAra nahi, paNa vAraMvAra karavuM. ta smai ji na zA sa ya 0000000 A ma kSa P basa, A rIte karavAthI tane rAgAdi doSonA kAraNo + svarUpa + phaLa A traNa padArthanuM ekadama sacoTa-svastha-spaSTa jJAna prApta thaze. A AvI gaI tArI pAse samyajJAnarUpI beTarI ! have zarU karavAnuM che mukhyakAma ! Atama oraDAne cakAsavAnuM ! dhyAna daIne sAMbhaLaje A tattva ! (3) AtmasaMprekSaNa : (a) sau prathama ekAntasthAna zodho. emAM ja A AtmasaMprekSaNa karavuM. hA ! baMdha bAraNe na karavuM, paNa upAzrayanA vizALa holamAM, tIrthabhUminA pavitra vAtAvaraNamAM... A kAma karavuM. mana H ekAntamAM zuM kAma ? jAheramAM kema nahi ? FoF_ __r_mb_FF Fr vaLI cAra-pAMca kalAkano ArAma thaI gayo hovAthI mana ane zarIra baMne ekadama svastha-prasanna hoya, enA kAraNe dhyAnamAM saraLatA tarata ja maLe. e vakhate kyAMya ekAnta zodhavA javuM na paDe, upAzrayamAM ja ekAnta maLI rahe... nihALIe oraDo Aratamano... 7 (5) ta ma Atama : jyAM ghaNA badhAnI avarajavara hoya, AjubAju badhA vAto karatA hoya... tyAM jo A AtmasaMprekSaNa karavA besIza, to tAruM mana emAM lIna nahi bane. ghaDIkamAM AjubAjuthI saMbhaLAtI vAtomAM kAna jaze, ghaDIkamAM AvatA jatA lokone jovAmAM dRSTi jaze... AvI caMcaLatA vacce tAruM ISTa kArya siddha nahi thAya. kharekhara to ekAda mANasa paNa jyAM na pharake, evA zUnyasthAnamAM A kAma karavuM. AmAM jo rAtanA be-traNa vAgyAnA samaye uThIne AtmasaMprekSaNa karIza, to tane bha vadhu saphaLatA maLaze. jhaDapI saphaLatA maLaze, kemake A samaye lagabhaga badhA ja uMghatA hovAthI na to koInI Ava-jA thAya ke na to koInI vAtonA zabdo saMbhaLAya... ekadama nIrava zAMti hoya. na A pre sa Na

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me sahana karIne saunuM pRthvIne zaNagAre. dhana te. thI paNa mIThA vacano jeha sadA uccAre. pote sahana karIne saune na eTale A samaya AtmasaMprekSaNa mATe khUba ja upayogI che. - tuM sAdhu che, eTale jo A samaye kArya kare, to cheka bharaphesaranI sajajhAya sudhI ! Da kriyA karIne pachI e zAMtasthAnamAM Asana pAtharIne karaje. Asana upara padmAsana vagere ucita Asane besavuM. | (3) gurudevatApraNAma : zarUAtamAM khUba bhAvapUrvaka gurune ane devane praNAma- au vaMdana karavA. emanI stuti karavI, emanA guNo yAda karavA, emaNe karelo upakAra fa yAda karavo, emanA pratye vadhu ne vadhu bahumAnabhAva jagADavo. emanI pAse prArthanA na karavI ke ""o guruvara ! o paramezvara ! A AtmasaMprekSaNanA kAryamAM mane saphaLatA na " maLo, mane zIdhra A kAryamAM siddhi maLo.. ApanI asIma kRpAnA baLe ja huM saphaLa thai na thaI zakIza, jo Apano anugraha nahi hoya, to mane saphaLatA nahi maLe." | manaH zuM A rIte karavAthI kaMI lAbha kharo ? ApaNe AvuM karIe chIe evI to | = gurune ke devane khabara ja kyAM che ? ane khabara hoya to ya teo zuM karI zakavAnA ? | Atama ? Avo vicAra na karIza. mAtra vagerene yAda karIe, to mAtra vagerenuM ER 8 phaLa maLe ja che. ema deva-gurune bhAvathI yAda karIe, to enuM phaLa paNa maLe che. kharI vAta to e ke tArA manano deva-guru pratyeno bahumAna bhAva, "emanA che 4 anugraha vinA mane saphaLatA nahi maLe..." evo vizvAsabhAva e ja mahAna zubhabhAva Eii che e ja tane A kAryamAM saphaLatA apAvavAmAM agatyano bhAga bhajavaze. (ka) sthAna: bhIMta vagereno Teko daIne ke ADA paDIne ke paga para paga caDAvIne - AtmasaMpreSaNa na karavuM. paNa padmAsana vagere ucita AsanamAM besIne karavuM. mana : eno zuM lAbha ? A Atama: e rIte besavAthI zarIra ekadama sthira rahe, mana paNa saceta-sajAga rahe. bha vaLI jyAre AvA zubha AsanamAM besIe tyAre vicAra Ave ke ""ApaNA bha| prAcIna puruSo paNa A ja rIte padmAsanAdimAM besIne dhyAna dharatA haze, teo kevI uttama sAdhanA karatA haze ? emanI kRpAthI Aje emanI jema mane paNa sAdhanA karavAnI taka maLI." * vaLI e vakhate nizcaya karavo ke DAMsa-macchara game te karaDe, mAre e tarapha dhyAna | sI ja nathI ApavuM. mAre to AtmadhyAnamAM ja tallIna banI javuM che." (chatAM evuM satva vartamAnamAM tArI pAse na hoya, to chevaTe DAMsa-maccharAdi IIIIIIIII nihALIe oraDo Aratamano... 0 (HTTTTTTT

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khAI gamAvI, nijakebala tene oDhADa vatsalabhAva jamAvI. dhana tela ThaMDIthI dhrujatA munivarane dekhI svArtha gamAvI. nija Gi vinAnA sthAnamAM besavuM. evuM sthAna na maLe to gItArthasaMvigna gurune pUchIne eno niravadya upAya vicArI zakAya... vartamAnamAM gItArthasaMgni puruSo e mATe to maccharadAnIno upayoga sUcave che' ema jANyuM che.) basa, A badhI pUrvabhUmikA thaI gaI. have zarU thAya che tArI sAdhanA, AtmasaMprekSaNanI ! jo je! ekadama ekAgra banI jaje. manane kyAMya bhaTakavA deto nahi. siddhi tArA fi hAthamAM ja che, jo tuM A vidhinuM pAlana karIza to. mana : A AtmasaMprekSaNamAM zuM ciMtavavAnuM che ? AtamaH pahelA e citavavAnuM che ke "mane kayo doSa satAve che ?' pachI (1) e doSanA hetuo koNa che? eTale ke viSaya koNa che? (2) e kA ra doSanuM svarUpa zuM che ? doSanA viSayanuM svarUpa zuM che? (3) e doSanuM phaLa zuM? == ra doSanA viSayanuM phaLa zuM? have eka - eka doSane laIne A AkhI ciMtanadhArA joIzuM. Anil nihALIe oraDo ArAmano.. () InIT

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gaja pare je dhImA cAle. zubhapariNAmanI agnimAM je karma anaMtA bA re harSa anaMtA bALe. dhana te...8 dhomadhakhatA patha para gaja pere je dhImA cAle che, , 1 H. A 1 3 'le ke 2. doSa naM. 1 - svArtha (1) svArtha : upadhi, ziSyo, abhyAsa, zarIra, sthAna vagere saMbaMdhamAM huM mAro ST svArtha sAdhuM chuM. Ama svArthanA viSayo upadhi vagere bane che. | mAro svabhAva evo svArthI che ke ziyALAmAM ThaMDIthI bacavA mATe dhAbaDAonI 4 jarUra paDe ane saMghano mANasa kabATamAMthI 10-15 dhAbaDA kADhIne mUke, to huM tarata mArA mATe be dhAbaDA laI lauM chuM. mane e vicAra nathI Avato ke mArA sahavartIo ti 7| keTalA che? jo kula saMyamIo 15-20 hoya, to badhAnA bhAge mAMDa eka-eka Ave, 7 " mAre zI rIte be laI levAya ?.. paNa huM bhAna bhUlI jAuM chuM ane bIjAno vicAra | karyA vinA be dhAbaDA laI lauM chuM. vaLI mAro svArtha to keTalo durgadhI ! huM mArA ja be dhAbaDA paDilehaNa karuM. bIjA | badhA mATe paDilehaNa karavAno mane ullAsa nathI thato. "jene jene joIze, e badhA # jAte ja paDilehaNa karaze..." evo svArtha mane satAve che. badhA mahAtmAonI bhakti karavAno vicAra mane nathI Avato. ziyALAnA divaso hoya, saMghanA upAzrayamAM ke cAlu vihAramAM to kula vageremAM # ya ghaNIvAra utaravuM paDe che. ThaMDI kaMI mane ekalAne nathI lAgatI, badhAne lAge che... = paNa mane kadI mArA sAdharmika saMyamIonI ciMtA nathI thaI. huM tarata baMdhiyAra rUma zodhI emAM mAruM sthAna jamAvI dauM chuM. tyAM ThaMDI ochI lAge, hola vageremAM vadhAre ja lAge... paNa bIjA saMyamIoe holamAM saMthAro karavo paDe, enuM zuM? zuM emane ThaMDI : na lAge ? re ! keTalIkavAra evuM banyuM paNa che ke saMthArAnA samaye mAro sAdharmika saMyamI ThaMDIthI bacavA koIka baMdhiyAra sthAna zodhato hoya, meM ene joyo che, " A rUmamAM .. jagyA che?" evo prazna paNa eNe mane pUkyo che... paNa mArI svArthAndhatA to bApa ].. re bApa ! meM cokhkhI nA pADI dIdhI ke "ahIM jagyA nathI.' hAya ! mane vicAra na Avyo ke "lAva, thoDAka saMkocAI jaIne mArA sAdharmika |ii saMyamIne jagyA karI ApuM. lAva, huM sahanazakti keLavIne bahAra holamAM jato rahuM, | me mArA sAdharmikane aMdara AvavA dauM, enI ciMtA dUra karuM.." re ! AvuM kaMI to na khe kSa ja thayuM. paNa be mIThA-madhUrA zabdo bolavA jeTalI sajajanatA ya meM adhama banIne kSa ba gumAvI. "mahAtmana ! kharekhara bilakula jagyA nathI. bAkI to game te karIne Apane. GAMAIM svArtha 0 (8) ITI

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vAM hoDInI dhArA vahetA muktivayuno kakupagalI mAnI bahu harakhAtA, dhana che kAMTA ke patharAthI pagamAM lohInI dhAra 'T F S S = "E 45 F S E E E F = F S | .0000 0.0000 aMdara sthAna ApI deta... paNa... kSamA karajo, mahAtmana ! ApanI sevA nathI karI zakato..." AvA lAgaNIsabhara zabdone badale uddhatAIpUrvaka meM nA pADI dIdhI. hA ! kevI | | svArthAnyatA ! - vihAra karIne huM vahelo pahoMcuM, mArI pUrve pahoMcelA saMyamIe dorI bAMdhI hoya, emAM jagyA khAlI hoya to huM enA para mArA kapaDA sukavI daI mAro svArtha to sAdhI | lauM. paNa mane pAchaLa AvI rahelA 10-15 saMyamIono vicAra nathI e | Avato, 'lAva, mArI pAsenI dorI paNa bAMdhI dauM, pAchaLanA sAdhuone kAma Avaze. ne mane jema bIjAnI dorI maLI, to saMtoSa thayo, to mArI dorIthI pAchaLa AvatA | || sAdhuone paNa saMtoSa thaze. emAM ya pelA gharaDA sAdhu, pelA glAna sAdhu... e badhA zA mu muzkelIthI vihAra kare che. khUba thAkI jAya che, upAzraye AvyA bAda dorI bAMdhavAnI ke [ paNa emane hiMmata nathI hotI. jo huM nahi bAMdhu to e badhAe upAzraye AvIne dorI | ra bAMdhavI ja paDavAnI. teo trAsa pAmavAnA....zuM mArI pharaja nathI ke emane zAtA - 8 ApavI? paNa huM svArthI chuM. mArA kapaDA sukavavA mATe dorI para jagyA maLI gaI che eTale basa ! duniyAnI mAre zuM phikara ! gocarI mAMDalImAM ya mAro svArtha kevo vakaryo che ! mane pAtrAmAM managamatI che vastuo maLI gaI eTale huM khuza ! paNa "pelA hamaNA ja moTI oLInuM pAraNuM karI - 2 cUkelA mahAtmAne anukULa vastuo maLI ke nahi ? pelA pittanA prakopavALAne 2 ThaMDakavALI vastu maLI ke nahi ? A mArI pAse e AmaLA-gulakaMda AvyA ja che. 2 lAva, emane pUchuM to kharo ! mArA puNya-paryAya vadhu che, eTale gocarI vaheMcanAro Es mArI badhI kALajI kare, paNa pelA alpapuNyavALA, nAnA sAdhuonI kALajI koNa kare? lAva, huM emanI kALajI karuM..." evo parArthabhAva mane jAgyo nahi. tapasvIne pAraNA barAbara na thAya to ya mAre zuM ? pelA pittavALA mahAtmA " ThaMDaka karanArI vastu na maLavAthI garamIthI pIDAya to ya mAre zuM? navA- nAnA sAdhuo | mananI nabaLAInA kAraNe ja ISTa vastu na maLavAthI manamAM pIDAya, ArtadhyAna pAme, ugagrasta bane to ya mAre zuM ? o adhamAdhama jIvaDA ! tuM kevo svArthI ! paramAdhAmI jevo niSphara ! A zrI paMcamahAvratadhArI anaMtA bhave paNa durlabha, uttamottama saMyamI mahAtmAo maLyA pachI paNa zA emanA mATe tane kazI ja lAgaNI nahi ? hAya ! mArA jIva ! dhikkAra ho tane ! tAre banavAnuM hatuM mAkhaNa ! tuM banI gayo che, patthara ! svArthabhAve tArI hatyA karI che. MINITIATIVITHT svArtha 0 (9) DIWAITIIIIIII 8 8 ' ka =

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- kadI navi karatA. sAdhamikabhaktino lhAvo AmaMtraNa daI letA. dhanate . caTakA bharatA DAMsa ne macchara, dUra kadI navi karatA , sa ba = 'ba moTI mAMDalImAM nAnA mahAtmAo pAse be-traNa-cAra pAtrA-tarapaNIo dhovA , [; mATe paDyA hoya, mArI pAse ekeya na hoya, mAtra mAre mAruM vAparavAnuM pAtra dhovAnuM ? ' hoya... chatAM mane e IcchA nathI thatI ke "pelA mahAtmA pAsethI eka-be pAtrA dhovA ra laI lauM... e keTalA dhoze? gocarI kaMI e ekalA ja vApare che ? gocarI kaI emanA ja ekalA ja mATe Ave che? nA. gocarI mArA mATe paNa Ave che, huM paNa vAparuM chuM. trI to pAtrAo dhovAnI mArI pharaja che. huM kaMI AcArya thoDo chuM... paNa mArI vRtti kharAba che. kharekhara to mane A vicAra ja nathI Avyo, "nAnA ni 7sAdhuo pAse ghaNA badhA pAtrA dhovAnA paDyA che' e tarapha mArI najara ja nathI gaI, zA ane jo kadAca najara gaI che, ghaNA pAtrA dhovAnA dekhAyA che, to paNa mAre dhovA jJA ma na paDe e mATe meM enI upekSA ja karI che. | kevuM Azcarya ! bIjA sAdhu traNa-cAra pAtrA dhue, to mane vAMdho nahi. paNa koIka raNa divasa bhUlecUke mArI pAse be pAtrA dhovA mATe AvI gayA hoya ane bIjA pAse 8 ekapaNa pAtru dhovA mATe na hoya. to huM ene eka pAtru dhovA ApyA vinA rahI che ja zakto nathI. mane mArI sAthe anyAya thato lAge che ke "mAre be dhovAnA, eNe ekapaNa nahi ? e na cAlI zake.' mArA grupamAM traNa-cAra kalAka mATe paMDitajI pATha ApavA AvavAnA hatA. = sAdhuo ghaNA badhA, badhAne judA judA viSayo bhaNavA game. e badhuM traNa-cAra 8 kalAkamAM ja goThavI devAnuM hatuM. emAM amukanA pATha na paNa goThavAya. A vakhate meM ra. mAro vicAra pahelA karyo. guru mArI vAta mAne, eTale emane barAbara samajAvI daIne 2 be kalAka pATha to evo ja goThavI dIdho, ke je viSayo mane iSTa hatA. basa, mAro svArtha sadhAI gayo. bIjA keTalAkonA pATha rahI gayA, teone duHkha paNa thayuM, paNa huM to masta hato mArI goThavaNamAM ! kemake mArI apekSA pUrI thaI gaI hatI. mArA ziSyo mAruM pratilekhanAdi badhuM kAma karI jAya eTale bhayo bhayo ! pachI gacchanA vRddha sAdhuo - ziSya vinAnA vaDIla sAdhuo bhalene sIdAtA rahe, mAre zuM ? mArA ziSyo vihAramAM mArI upathi uMcakI le, mArI sAthe cAle....eTale huM sI prasanna !paNa gharaDAonI, mAMdAonI, tapasvIonI, azaktonI upadhi koNa uMcakaze ? e enI koI vyavasthA goThavAI ke nahi? emanI ciMtAone koIke dUra karI ke nahi? e kSa vicAro meM nathI karyA, kadI nathI karyA. 'E E F = 20000000 IIIIIIIIIIIIM svArtha 0 (10) TOMATO

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unALe jalauSNa vAparI thAye karmanA zoSaka. dhana te...11 haMDa jalache pApanuM vardhaka sukhazIlatAnuM poSaka unALe che ' 'E E F E gocarI mAMDalImAM mArI sattAnA jore, kapaTanA jore mArA ziSyone, mArA mAnItAone badhA ja prakAranI anukULa vastuo huM ApI dauM, apAvaDAvI dauM... It bhale ne bIjAnA ziSyone, nipuNyaka sAdhuone kazuM na maLe, teo manamAM ne manamAM 7 rIbAya... mAre to huM ane mAruM' e maMtra ja japavAno hato, e meM japyo. tuM | amAre traNa-cAra jaNane lonca karavAnA hatA, loca karanArA be jaNa hatA. loca agharo che, mane agharo paDe che, paNa mArA karatA paNa bIjAone to vadhAre agharo che li paDe che e mane khabara hatI. kemake e bIjA sAdhuo hajI navA hatA. mArI pharaja hatI na na ke sAro loca karanAra pAse e navAone karavA devo. mAre bIjA pAse loca karAvavo. 7 zA paNa hAya ! svArtha konuM nAma ! "mAro loca sauthI pahelA ! mAro loca A ja vyakti zA pAse !" meM jIda pakaDI lIdhI ane ema ja karAvyuM. mArI sAme koInuM na cAle. mArA | T ziSyonI ya meM to paravA na karI. kApa kADhatI vakhate ya huM to mAtra mArA ja vastrono kApa kADhe, mArA gurunA ya 8 be-traNa vastro kADhavAno mane jo kaMTALo Ave, to bAkInA vRddho-glAnono kApa 2 8 kADhavAno to savAla ja kyAM ubho thAya? mArA gurunA vastrono kApa bIjAo ja kADhe, paNa che tyAre huM to kyAMya bhAgI jAuM-chaTakI jAuM...hAya ! jemaNe mArA AtmAno kApa kADhI 2 Apyo, emanA vastrono kApa kADhavA jeTalI nAnakaDI kRtajJatA paNa mArAmAM nathI. meM 8 emAM ya jo kAraNasara mAre gurnAdinA kApamAM besavuM ja paDe, to mane AnaMda na thAya, R e kApamAM veTha utAruM, utAvaLa karuM, vastro melA rahI jAya to ya calAvI lauM... mArA zva 8 vastromAM AvuM kazuM ja na calAvuM, paNa "A kyAM mArA vastro che e vicArathI sAva sAva upekSA karuM...mane jo gurutattva pratye paNa kRtajJatAbhAva nathI, to bIjAo pratye to kyAMthI hoya ? * vaLI A paNa kevuM ? ke bIjA sAdhuo - ziSyo mAro kApa kADhI jAya, e mane !" khUba game, khUba AnaMdita banAve... paNa mAre bIjAono - khuda guruno kApa kADhavo paDe, tyAre khUba duHkhe, kaMTALo Ave... hada che kaMI mArA svArthanI ! mArI jhaDapa sArI, eTale vihAra karIne upAzrayamAM pahelo pahoMce. vaDIlo badhA saM ke dhIme dhIme pAchaLa Ave. huM to upAzrayamAM havAvALI, ujAzavALI jagyA para mAro che jANe ke haka jamAvI dauM. upAzrayamAM Tebalo ochA hoya to ya huM mArA mATe, mArA | . bhagavAna mukavA, mArA pustako mukavA, lakhavA mATe be Tebala to mArA kabajAmAM laI . 1Na 000000000000 svArtha 0 (11) B O TAD

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katA. karmakSapaNano avasara jANI je manamAM bahu hasatA. dhana te.. mAsanI madhyarAtrimAM kAussagrudhyAne rahetA. karmakSapaNano, 3, pa, ba sa sa la ya ' huM lauM... pAchaLa AvatA vaDIlone khUNAmAM besavuM paDe, aMdhArAvALA ke havA vinAnA sthAnamAM besavuM paDe, TebalAdi vinA muzkelI paDe... paNa mAre zuM levAdevA ! "e badhI javAbadArI mArI thoDI ja che " mAruM mana bolatuM. re ! vaDIlone mArI A vicitratA tuM na game, khUMce, kyAreka Takora paNa kare... paNa huM na sudharyo, na ja sudharyo. ahAhA ! zuM huM sAdhu kharo? paropakArI, parahitavatsala tIrthaMkaradevonA zAsanamAM | mArA jevA svArthIne rahevAno ya adhikAra kharo? huM to mANasa nahi, pazu chuM. pelI jai R kutarI potAnI bhUkha saMtoSavA potAnA bALakane ya khAI jAya, evo adhama chuM huM ! ni ne mAruM nAma hovuM joItuM'tuM "svArthasikyuvijaya'. svArthano dariyo ! nA nA ! |R gr svArthanA dariyAne paNa jItI janAro evo huM ! o mArA Atama ! zuM nathI sudharavuM ? tArA ArAdhyatattvo arihaMto ane saguruo parArthI ! tuM svArthI ! kema cAle ? vaLI AmAM nukasAna keTaluM ! . badhA loko mArA mATe bolaze ke "A nakaro svArthI che, svArtha sAdhavA game te kara ra karI bese evo che' koI paNa mAro AtmIya-mAro svajana nahi bane. badhA mArA svabhAvane jANyA para uM bAda mArAthI vegaLA ja raheze, ziSyo paNa samajaze ke ApaNA guru khUba khUba svArthI che 8 che..." emano paNa mArA pratyeno ahobhAva tUTI jaze. kadAca mArI sAthe raheze, E 8 bolaze to ya mana mArIne ! * "lobhIyA hoya tyAM dhUtarAo bhUkhe na mare" ema mane atyaMta svArthI jANIne | keTalAya dhUtArAo mArA svArtho poSI ApavAnA pralobhano mane Apaze. huM chetarAIza A ane e badhA mArA dvArA potAnA svArtho kaDhAvI leze. A rIte mAre puSkaLa parezAna A bha thavuM paDaze. svArthInuM puNya ghaTatuM jAya, pApa vadhatuM jAya... vaLI jo huM bIjAne mATe kazuM ja na karuM to bhaviSyamAM koIpaNa mArA mATe kazuM ja nahi kare... mAtra A ja bhavamAM / nahi, AvatA bhavomAM paNa mAre bIjAnI sahAyanI khUba jarUra haze. paNa koI mane | A sahAya karavA taiyAra ja nahi thAya, kemake meM bAMdheluM pApakarma ja emane aTakAvaze, mArA ma kSa sahAyaka banatA ! tuccha svArthamAM laMpaTa jIvono mokSa trikALamAM zakya nathI. mArA lamaNe jhIMkAze, Imja svArtha (12)

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kaTakavacana suNI gurunA, jena haiye harSa na mAto. 'kaho kaho o guruvara' kahetA, pAya paDI harakhAto. dhana ...13 moTI durgatio ! Atama ! 1111111111 basa...basa...basa... have tuM sudharI jA. tArA manane ane tArI pravRttine badalI nAMkha. bIjAno vicAra su ta karatA zIkha. dareke dareka vAtamAM tArA sahavartIono, tArA sAdharmikono vicAra kara. maiM emane mATe bhoga ApatA zIkha. emane mATe ghasAI chuTavAnuM zIkha emane tArA mATe sma nibhoga ApatA, ghasAI chuTatA aTakAva. tuM svayaM svAvalaMbI banato jA, bIjAone tAruM na 6 dRDha AlaMbana Apato jA. zA sa nA ya vakhANatA thAya, tevo tAro svabhAva banavo joIe. AvatIkAlano sUryodaya tArA mATe guNodaya banI rahevo joIe. have tuM jagatamAM tIrthaMkarono vArasadAra oLakhAvo joIe. loko tArI paropakAritAne be moDhe mArA pyArA Atama ! tuM banI jA caMdana ! jAte kapAI jaIne - ghasAI jaIne paNa bIjAne sugaMdha ApanAra paropakArI caMdana ! tuM banI jA puSpa ! suMdhanArAnA garamAgarama zvAso sahana karIne paNa ene sugaMdha bakSanAra paropakArI puSpa ! tuM banI jA pratimA ! zilpIoe mArelA mAranI bilakula phariyAda na karatI, hasatI ane jonArAne hasAvatI pratimA ! tuM banI jA vAdaLa ! dariyAnA khArA pANI pI-pIne emAMthI jagatane mIThAjalanI bakSisa ApatuM vAdaLa ! tuM banI jA gAya ! ghAsa khAvA ApanArA upakArIne dUdhanI bheTa ApIne sadaiva saM kRtajJatA pragaTa karatI gAya ! pre kSa Na tuM banI jA dharatI ! kodALInA ghA karIne potAne khodI nAMkhanArAone ya pANI-khanIja-ratnonuM dAna detI dharatI ! na tuM banI jA bhojana ! dAMtorUpI karavata vaDe potAnA TukaDeTukaDA karI nAMkhanArAne ya ajabagajabanI zakti detuM bhojana ! F F A tuM banI jA dhUpasaLI ! 'saLagavuM ane sugaMdha phelAvavI' e eka ja kartavya hasate A bha moDhe nibhAvatI dhUpasaLI ! svArtha 0 (13) | TW S 0000 4 4 + 4 4 4 4 ma tra kSa Na

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Apa tene UbhA thai sakAre, Asana daI sukhazAtA pUchI ucita vinaya ata pachI ucita vinaya avadhAre, dhana te...14 ratnAdhika Ave taba tene UbhA thaI sa. F S S = "R . 45 F F ko'ka kavie gAyelI e paMktione hRdayamAM jaDI de... hama na soce hameM kyA milA hai, hama ye soce kiyA kyA hai arpaNa / phula khuzIyoM ke bAMTe sabhI ko, saba kA jIvana bana jAe madhubana / mAre e nathI vicAravuM ke, "AkhI jIMdagImAM mane zuM maLyuM che ? badhAe mane zuM ApyuM che ?" mAre to e ja vicAravuM che ke "meM bIjAone zuM ApyuM ?" mAre to badhAne AnaMdanA puSponI prabhAvanA karavI che, jenI sugaMdhathI badhAyanuM jIvana madhuvana banI jAya. "gurue mane zuM ApyuM ? mane pATha Apyo ? mane ziSyo banAvI ApyA? mane I vAtsalya ApyuM? A badhuM mAre nathI vicAravuM. bhale emaNe mane na ApyuM, ochuM IT ApyuM paNa mAre eno vicAra nathI karavo. mAre to e ja jovAnuM che ke "meM gurune zuM ApyuM? meM gurunI sevA karI ? emanI ja AjJAo akSarazaH pALIne emane prasanna karyA ? emanA upakAro badala emanI para upabRhaNA karI? mukta kaMThe emanA zAsanakAryonI - ArAdhanAnI prazaMsA karI? mArA Et nimitte ekAda kSaNa paNa emane ciMtA karavI ja na paDe e mATenA prayatno meM karyA? # mAre e vicAravuM ja nathI ke "mArA sahavartI saMyamIo mane sahAyaka bane che ; 3 ke nahi? mArA pratye lAgaNI darzAve che ke nahi ? mArA vikAsamAM khuza che ke nahi? zuM mArA sukRtonI prazaMsA kare che ke nahi ? mArA tapamAM, mArI mAMdagImAM, mArI # azaktimAM, mArI muMjhavaNomAM mane anekAneka prakAranI sahAya kare che ke nahi ? 1 mAre to mAtra eTaluM ja vicAravuM che ke, huM mArA A sAdharmika saMyamIone 3. keTalI sahAya karuM chuM? mane emanA pratye lAgaNI che ke nahi ? emanA vikAsamAM mane A AnaMda che ke kheda ? emanA ziSyo thAya, emanA vyAkhyAno vakhaNAya, e tapa- A dha svAdhyAyAdimAM AgaLa vadhe emAM mane harSa kharo ke nahi ? huM emanA sukRtonI mA anumodanA karuM chuM ? emanI nAnI nAnI bhUlone bhUlI jauM kharo ? emanA tapa, mAMdagI, azaktimAM khaDe page sevA karavA tatpara rahuM chuM kharo ?" mAre e vicAravAnuM ja nathI ke "mArA ziSyo mArI AjJA mAne che ? mArI sevA kare che? mArI AmanyA jALave che? mArA pratye sadUbhAvavALA che ? aMdaroaMdara e kSa mArA mATe sArI vAta kare che ?' Na mAre to e ja vicAravuM che ke "me emanA hita mATe zuM karyuM ? bhaktone-zrAvakone 1 minimummy svArtha 0 (14) panimatnagar

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2UbhA rahetA, gurumukhavANI jinavANIsamanirvikalpa je grahetA. dhanate...15 che 3, 5 ba sa ba . ga # pa 4 4 3 ! 'vI e ka ka gauNa rAkhIne mArA ziSyone meM pATho ApyA ? kalAko ApyA ? emane vAtsalya na ApyuM ? emanI mAMdagImAM meM emanI jhINavaTabharI kALajI karI ? emanI mAnasika | Da muMjhavaNo vakhate meM emane bharapUra AzvAsana ApyuM? emane baLa pUruM pADyuM ? emane ! saMyamamAM daDha karavA mATe svayaM saMyamadaDha banyo ? | mAre e vicAravuM ja nathI ke, "zrIsaMgha enA ArAdhako, TrasTIo mArI vAta mAne che ke nahi ? teo meM mukelI yojanAomAM paisA lakhAve che ke nahi? meM sucavelA zai sudhArAo jhaTapaTa kare che ke nahi ? roja vaMdana karavA mATe Ave che ke nahi ? gocarI- 'tti pANImAM mArI kALajI kare che ke nahi ? bhaktibhAva darzAve che ke nahi ?' mAre to e ja vicAravuM che ke, "25mAM tIrthakara samAna zrIsaMgha mATe meM zuM bhoga zA Apyo ? zrIsaMgha mane tamAma prakAranI suvidhA maphatamAM Ape che, to evA zrIsaMgha pratye mArA manamAM uchaLato bahumAnabhAva che ? bharacaka pAponA kAdava vacce paNa para nAnA-moTA dharmAnuSThAnorUpI kamaLo e saMghasabhyomAM joIne mane ahobhAva thAya che ? - ra karI che meM emanI anumodanA? ke pachI pelA kAdavane ja joI joIne gALo ja dIdhI ? che, emane? emanA hita mATenA sAcA prayatno karyA che meM? ke pachI dareka jagyAe re 8 emanA dvArA mAtra mAro svArtha sAdhavAnA ja prayatno karyA che ?" A thayuM svArtha doSane laIne AtmasaMpreSaNa ! AnAthI AtmA banI jaze bhInobhI ! enI svArthapradhAna vAsanAo vaizAkhanI garamImAM himAlayano barapha ogaLe... ema ogaLavA mAMDaze. svaccha-spaSTa paropakAra 2 vAsanA enA rUMvADe rUMvADe pragaTelI anubhavavA maLaze. - Ano AnaMda kevo ! keTalo ! e to je anubhavaze, te ja kaheze. nA, nA. | A e ya nahi kahI zake. kemake zabdo enuM varNana karavA dharAra asamartha ja che, asamartha A . ja raheze. bhautika sukho to A AnaMdanI sAme viSTA karatA ya bhUMDA lAgaze, jovAya .. | na game - suMghavA ya na game - yAda karavA ya na game - aDavA to bilakula na game... evA lAgaze. T inf jAja svArtha = (15) HTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

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che paNa jeNe Apyo te guruvaranI, yogatrikathI mAvajIva bhakti karatA bhavataraNa. dhana te jJAna taNo akSara paNa jeNe Apyo che, 3. doSa naM. 2 - IrSA , 5 3, 5 ba .. mA H- >> 5 ya ka ( ka (2) IrSyA : mArAmAM IrSyA che ? pALasuvAdiSNurva durthI.. AvI maulika || tuM vyAkhyA che, ISyanI bIjAnA guNone, bIjAnA sukhone joIne trAsa thavo.. ene tu | guNo-sukho na maLe to sAruM. ene maLelA guNo-sukho dUra thAya to sAruM, ene duHkho- | | doSo khUba parezAna kare to sAruM, enAmAM rahelA duHkho-doSo dUra na thAya to sAruM.. ni A che IrSyAnuM sAmAnya svarUpa ! mane ISya doSa konA pratye satAve che ? hA ! je najIkamAM hoya, je mArA na A pratispardhI lAgyA hoya... basa, evA pratye mAro IrSyA doSa prajavalita bane che. je zA | dUra thaI jAya che, ke je mArA pratispardhI maTI jAya che... tyAM mAro ImpradoSa ITI prajavalita banato nathI. meM dIkSA lIdhI, mArI sAthe ja bIjI traNa-cAra dIkSAo paNa thaI. e uparAMta - AgaLa-pAchaLa ekAda varSamAM bIjI paNa dIkSAo thaI. ame 8-10 sAdhuo lagabhaga 4 B sarakhesarakhA jevA bhegA thayA. gurue amane gAthAo gokhAvavAnuM zarU karyuM. mAro 4 kSayopazama sAro, kalAkanI dasa gAthA to gokhI ja lauM, bIjA badhA karatA huM AgaLa = na hato. paNa eka-be sAdhu mArA karatA ya vadhu sakSama nIkaLyA. teo kalAkanI 15-20 = ra gAthA gokhatA, gokhI zakatA, ekAda mahinA bAda rAtre gurue badhAne svAdhyAya aMge 3 pRcchA karI, huM cha sAdhu karatA AgaLa paDato hato. paNa be sAdhu karatA pAchaLa hato. = 8 gurue mArI paNa uparjuhaNA karI, paNa pelA be sAdhunI prazaMsA to behada karI. "A che be mArA vArasadAra banaze, joradAra prabhAvaka banaze..." ane mArA AtmAmAM IrSAnA e bI ropAyA. 6 sAdhuthI AgaLa hovAno AnaMda to dUranI vAta, paNa be sAdhuthI pAchaLa A na hovAno gurunA hRdayamAM agresara na banI zakavAno kheda mane hacamacAvI gayo. e IT " be muni pratye mArI bhAvanAmAM IrSyA-dveSa-aruci bhaLI gaI. ame savAre sAthe gAthA gokhavA besIe, paNa emanA gokhavAnA zabdo | sAMbhaLIne paNa mAro AtmA saLagI uThato. mAro gokhavAno AnaMda haNAI jato. sI che emAM ya mArA karatA jaldI jaldI gAthAo gokhIne kaDakaDATa saMbhaLAvI detA. emane che A joIne mArI vedanA vadhI jatI, huM paNa ema karavA jato, paNa mArI gAthA kAcI ke : gokhAtI, bhUlo paDatI, guruno Thapako maLato... A badhuM baLatAmAM ghI homAtuM. 'la 1000 va ma la 3 2 s ru . ja ja ISya0 (16) 300000000000

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virAdhatA guruvarane durlabhabodhipaNuM te pAme, prasanna thAtA guru jenAthI te karatA hitakAme dhana te....17 S stu ta basa, e IrSyA vadhatI ja gaI. bahAra to koIne khabara na paDI, paNa aMda2 ne aMdara mArI e IrSyA vairabhAvanuM svarUpa pakaDavA lAgI. kyAreka e be sAdhu mAMdA paDI jAya, gAthAo gokhI na zake to mane AnaMda thAya. kyAreka teonI paNa gAthA kAcI gokhAya ane guru Thapako Ape to huM harSa pAmuM, kyAreka pramAda-thAkanA lIdhe e be stu sAdhuo uMghI jAya, pATha na kare to huM nAcI uThuM, kyAreka teo vikathAdimAM samaya maiM gumAve to huM rAjI rAjI thauM... TuMkamAM teono gAthA gokhavAno yoga je je rIte hInaM thAya, te te tamAma rItamAM huM khUba rAjI thato. hAya ! pelA adhamAdhamane paNa uttama kahevaDAvanAro ati-adhamAdhama huM pAkyo ! zuM muni tarIke mane A vicAro - jJA zobhe kharA ? huM samyaktvI paNa hoIza kharo ? re ! suSkRtAnumovanasya cAritrastrALatvAt ema zA maiM zAstro kahe che. mArI pAse sukRtonI anumodanA nathI. eTale ke cAritra to nathI ja. ulTuM e sukRto pratye bhArobhAra dhikkAra che, mATe ja to e sukRto khatama thAya, emAM ja huM prasanna banuM chuM. o prabho ! zuM thaze mAruM ? ji ji na sa nA nA gra ya 1111111111111 ma na kSa F ta sma hajI AgaLa.... ame badhA saMskRta-kAvyo-nyAya, Agamo vagere badhuM bhaNyA. paNa darekamAM A ja muzkelI ubhI thaI. cha karatA huM AgaLa, paNa be karatA huM pAchaLa... pAThamAM amArA vidyAguru koI prazna pUche to pelA cha to lagabhaga javAba na ja ApI zake, ame traNa ja jaNa javAba detA. paNa emAM mArA karatA e benA vicAro vadhu sacoTa-spaSTa rahetA. vidyAguru emanA uttarone vadhu vakhANatA, huM pAcho paDato, kyAreka to huM rItasara khoTo paDato, vidyAguru mArA javAbathI kyAreka to hasI paDatA, kemake mArA javAbamAM emane moTI mUrkhatA kyAreka dekhAI jatI. Ama badhAnI vacce huM bhoMTho paDI jato, badhA mArA javAba 52 mazkarI karatA... e vakhate mArI aMdaranI Aga bhaDake baLatI. paNa huM kazuM karI na zakato, re ! koIka prazna aMge carcA upaDatI ane aMte mAre hAravAnuM AvatuM, mArI dalIlo buThThI paDavA lAgatI tyAre mAro gusso vadhI jato, mArA zabdomAM Aveza bhaLI jato... sAdhuo samajI jatA ke,'A bhAIne hAra asahya banI rahI che' koIka saMto vaLI hiMmata karIne kahI detuM ke 'juo, khoTA paDIe eTale gusso karavo e kaMI saM vyAjabI nathI. gussAthI jUThane satya banAvI zakAtuM nathI...' ane e zabdo mane muMjhavI nAMkhatA. A pre kSa Na basa, e IrSyAe ja mArAmAM niMdAno AviSkAra karI dIdho. have vAte vAte huM e bene toDI nAMkhavA, emane khoTA pADavA, emane kharAba cItaravA prayatna IrSyA 7 (10) 0 we do do do do do do A bhA Na

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vinaya mULa che jinazAsananuM, vinaya mULa guNonuM. vinaya vinAno bahuzrutadhArI, maDaduM jIva vinAnuM. dhana te... 18 karato...basa, mArA A vartanane lIdhe mAro aMdarano IrSyAdoSa jagatamAM jAhera thaI gayo. catura loko samajI gayA ke,'A muni IrSyAthI saLage che...' na mA S ta ta mArAmAM mAtra A be pratye ja IrSyA hatI. evuM nahi, viSaya badalAto, ema 5 stu IrSyAnA pAtro paNa badalAtA. svAdhyAyakSetre mane emanA pratye IrSyA hatI. paNa stra tapakSetre mane vaLI bIjAo pratye IrSyA hatI. e be jaNa ekAsaNA ja karatA, huM maiM avAranavAra vardhamAnatapanI oLIo karato, paNa e tapamAM mArAthI caDiyAtA ma - sAdhuo paNa hatA. mArI oLIno AMkaDo nAnakaDo ! mArI sAtheno tapasvI sAdhu mArA |na karatA jarAka AgaLa ! e AMkaDA aMgenI spardhA ane IrSyA mane thayA karatI. mAre 7 zA AgaLa vadhavuM hatuM. paNa e mAtra AMkaDAthI ! anAsaktithI nahi ! huM AMkaDAmAM ja zA " mokSa samajI beTho. eTale ja e mahAtmAnI oLI tUTe, e mAMdA paDe ane oLI choDI de, evA vicAro mane AvatA. emanuM pAraNuM thAya eTale huM khuza ! sa nA E E F ya A bha 'gurujI ! A sAdhune barAbara pAraNA karAvo. emanuM zarIra nabaLuM che. vadhu oLI karaze, to bhaviSyamAM khalAsa thaI jaze...' ema huM gurune kaheto, bahAra ema lAge ke 'mane emanA pratye lAgaNI che' paNa mArI jAtane pUchuM to mane cokhkhuM dhyAnamAM che ke 'e sAdhune tapamAM AgaLa vadhato aTakAvavAnI mArI melI murAda ja AmAM kAma karatI hatI. lAgaNI nahi, paNa krUratA ja AmAM bhAga bhajavatI hatI.' pAraNAmAM e Asakta bane, khUba mIThAI khAya, maMgAve e mane game. paNa e jo pAraNAmAM paNa tyAgI bane to mane khUMce. emane vaparAvavAno prayatna bhaktinA bahAne huM karuM, aMdarakhAne to emano vairAgya toDavAno, emanI tyAgI tarIkenI chApa bhAMgavAno ja adhyavasAya ! A mA2I manovRtti kevI halakI ! dekhAva bhaktino, bhAva emane patita karavAno ! na H A bhA A rIte IrSyAnA pApothI khadabadatA mana sAthe meM ghaNI oLIo karI, zuM mAruM hita karaze ? o bhagavAna ! mArI badhI mahenata pANImAM jaze ? atyAre paNa mArI oLIo cAlu che, e sAdhu mAMdA paDavAthI oLIo karI pre zakatA nathI, huM have AgaLa chuM... eTale ja e mArA pratispardhI maTI gayA che. eTale pre kSa emanA taraphanI IrSyA khatama thaI gaI che. mane lAgyuM ke,'mAro doSa ghaTyo che, ghaTI che.' paNa A ya mArI bhramaNA ja to nathI ne ? kAraNa ? e ja IrSyA mane irSyA kSa Na Na , IrSyA 7 (18) ........................

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gocarI-pATalA-beThaka-lekhanI ItyAdika vAparatA. vaDIlo laI le tyAra pachI guruzeSa mAnI je letA. dhanate...19 ekabIjA nUtana tapasvI pratye jAgrata thaI che. ta pelo nUtana dIkSita DhagalAbaMdha oLIo kare che, jo ke mArI oLIo karatA S to e ghaNo pAchaLa che. paNa toya mane enA pratye IrSyA thAya che. kemake huM stu AMbilakhAtAnuM vAparuM chuM. mizrAdidoSavALuM vAparuM chuM. DhokaLA-DhokaLI vagere paNa lauM stu chuM. jyAre e mahAtmA AMbilakhAtAnuM kazuM ja letA nathI, mAtra be dravyanA AMbilo kare che. gacchanA sAdhuo emanI khUba khUba anumodanA kare che. mArI oLInA moTA stra AMka sAme emanI nAnI oLIno paNa uttamatyAga badhAnI najare vaLagyo che... basa ! ji 7 e banI gayA mArA pratispardhI ! have emanA patananI IcchA, emanA patanamAM 7 zA AnaMda, emanA vikAsamAM baLApo... e ja mArA adhyavasAyo cAle che. ta |zA sa sa nA na mAM 111111111111111 cokhkhuM lAge che ke 'IrSyA marI nathI, mAtra enuM gha2 ja badalAyuM che e to ghara badalIne vadhu tagaDI banIne jIve che.' emAM vaLI baLatAmAM ghI homAyuM. mArA karatA ghaNA nAnA e nUtana sAdhunA saMsArI paricita mitromAMthI be jaNa enA ziSya banavA taiyAra thayA, trIjo eno ja nAno bhAI taiyAra thayo. eka sAthe traNeka ziSyonI gurupadavI ene maLe evI vAto taiyArIo thavA mAMDI. na A ya O o O o O o O o eeeeeee mAro mAtra eka ja ziSya ! e paNa badhI rIte nabaLo ! na tapasvI, na vaiyAvaccI, na svAdhyAyI ! jyAre nAnA sAdhunA thanArA traNeya ziSyo tejasvI lAgatA hatA, bharayuvAna hatA, A badhuM mane kema game ? e sAdhu pAse dIkSAprasaMga nimitte aneka zrAvako Ave, enA bhakto bane, enI ja vAha vAha gacchamAM cAle, upAzrayamAM je Ave, e emanI ja pAse jAya... A A badhuM huM joI na zakyo paNa zuM karuM ? zuM karI zakuM ? manathI meM gho2-atighora pApo bAMdhyA. " e traNanI dIkSA rada thAya to sAruM. eksIDanTa vageremAM koIka marI jAya to sAruM. game te rIte e traNa jaNano pelA sAdhu pratyeno bhAva khatama thaI jAya to sAruM...' A bha mA o arihaMta ! huM zetAna banyo. mArI jAtane cAritrarAgI kahevaDAvato huM pre bIjAo cAritra ja na le evA halakaTa vicAro karI beTho. kevuM ghorAtighora pre cAritramohanIya bAMdhyuM meM ! kSa kSa ane e dIkSAprasaMgano divasa ! badhA AnaMdamAM, ullAsamAM ! huM bhAre Na rA DOOT IrSyA (19)

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seSTa bhAre karmI te durgatinA pagathAre. dhanate.. 20 2-vANIbalathI parane je tRNa gaNI tucchakAre mArgabhaNa bhArekha 3, pA 1 5. ) j. 4 pa tra 5 d ka 'be ya MIN A khedamAM ! ekeeka prasaMga mane zarIramAM apAtA DAma jevo asahya duHkha denAro , banyo. traNeya mumukSuonuM apratima teja ! 8-10 hajAranI mAnavamedanI ! | zrImaMtAIne lIdhe lAkho rUpiyAmAM jatA eka-eka caDAvAo ! khuda guru dvArA e IS nAnA sAdhunI bharapeTa prazaMsA ! jAheramAM prazaMsA ! mArA jevAnA astitvanI to tuM noMdha suddhA paNa nahi. e badhuM meM kema sahyuM? mane ja khabara nathI. traNa pradakSiNAo vakhate meM paNa mumukSuo nUtana dIkSito upara vAsakSepa nAMkhyo, jo moDhethI bolyo, 'uttama saMyamI banajo, zAsanaprabhAvaka banajo..." paNa haiyAnA bhAva! jo koIne kahuM to koIpaNa mane dhikkAryA vinA na rahe. thoDAka divaso bAda traNamAMthI ekane meleriyA thayo. navakArazI - AdhAkarmI - zA | hospITalAdi doSomAM e lapeTAyo, huM khuza ! cAra-pAMca divasamAM sAjo thaI pharI ekAsaNA para e caDI gayo, huM duHkhI ! bIjo sAdhu enA gurunI sAme ekavAra uMcA ! avAje bolato saMbhaLAyo, mane khabara paDI ke e guru-ziSya vacce koIka aNabanAva ka banyo che, ane mAruM mAnasika svAthya ekadama sudharI gayuM. sAMje vaMdana karavA AvelA ziSyane meM kahI dIdhuM ke "tArA guruno svabhAva thoDo vicitra ja che. amAre to varSono 2 anubhava che. paNa tuM ciMtA na karIza. kaMIpaNa takalIpha paDe, to mane kaheje..." ema 8 gurunI viruddhamAM enA kAna bhaMbherI paNa nAMkhyA. paNa mArI IcchA phaLI nahi. be ja divasa bAda e ziSya enI gurunA khoLAmAM 8 8 mAthuM mUkIne dhrusake dhrusake raDato dekhAyo, ene pazcAttApa thayo, e pAcho gurune saMpUrNa ra samarpita thayo. bIjA ja divasathI e potAnA guruno vadhu sAro ziSya banI gayelo ke dekhAvA lAgyo. e baMne vacce tirADa paDe, evI mArI manokAmanA adhUrI rahI, mAruM A durbhAgya (!) ! o AtmAnuM ! tuM ATalo badho adhama kema ? ATalo badho nIca kema ? che koI bAkI ? ke je tArA saMparkamAM Avyo hoya ane tane enA tarapha ISya sA na thaI hoya. - sAdhuone pATha ApavAnI bAbata AvI, to paNa bIjA pAThakonI tane IrSyA ke kSa thaI ja. e pAThakonI prazaMsA tuM sAMbhaLI na zakato, emanI bhUlo joyA karavAnuM tane | Na khUba mana thatuM. tane kaMI na samajAya to paNa bIjA pAThakone pUchIne e zaMkA dUra karavAno Na IIIIIIIII ISya0 (20) IIIIIIMii. A 3 g - ja.

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A sarvAdhama aparAdhI krodha para mahAkopI muni banatA. dhanate. karI parakopI banatA, ajJAnI bahu dIsatA. sarvAdhamaaparAdhI koi - tane vicAra na Avyo, pravRtti paNa na thaI. | vyAkhyAnakSetre paNa mArI A ja dazA ! mArA vyAkhyAno karatA mArA sahavartInA vyAkhyAno vakhaNAyA. loko enA vyAkhyAnanI mAMgaNI kare. khUba prazaMsA kare, guru , te paNa lokonI mAMgaNI joI ene vadhu vyAkhyAna soMpe. huM moTo hovA chatAM khUNAmAM na ta besI rahuM... vyAkhyAna bAda divasa daramyAna ghaNA gRhastho e sAdhu pAse Ave, ene prazno pUche, uttaro pAmI prasanna thAya. mArI pAse koI na Ave, koI Ave ! bese ki to ya vAtavAtamAM pelA sAdhunA vyAkhyAnanI prazaMsA karI bese ane huM saLagI uThuM. li - huM koI saMghamAM jAuM, ane tyAMnA TrasTIo - gRhastho bIjA gacchanA sAdhunA na ga vyAkhyAnonI prazaMsA kare, enA tattvajJAnAdine anumode to e paNa mane kyAre gamyuM ! | che? e badhAne jhAMkhA pADI devAnA abharakhA ghaNA thayA che, "mArA gurubhAIo karatA 'paNa mAruM vyAkhyAna zreSTha banI rahe, badhA mArA vyAkhyAnamAM doDe-hola bharacaka banI | 8 jAya - mArA gurubhAIo moDhAmAM AMgaLA nAMkhatA thaI jAya, gurunA mArAM para bAra : = hAtha thaI jAya, saMghamAM mAruM prabhutva sthapAI jAya - mAro paDagho bola jhIlAya... 8 3 vagere vagere zekhacallInA vicAro meM ghaNA karyA che, IrSyAthI prerAIne karyA che. 8 2 paNa puNya vinA A badhuM kaMI bane ! ullu badhuM udhuM ja banyuM. mArI A badhI ja 8 apekSAo dharatI para utarI kharI, paNa mArA jIvanamAM nahi, mArA gurubhAIonA 4 jIvanamAM ! nAnA-moTA ghaNA gurubhAIo mArA karatA ghaNA AgaLa nIkaLI gayA, 8 ghaNI bAbatamAM AgaLa nIkaLI gayA. mArI alpapuNyAI para mane khUba gusso Avato. bIjAnI bahupuSpAInuM darzana | mArA e gussAne bamaNo banAvI detuM. paNa gusso saphaLa karavA mATe ya puNya joIe ne ? A.. - "e gurubhAIonA vyAkhyAna niSphaLa jAya, emanA vyAkhyAnamAM ghaNI ochI ,, T saMkhyA thAya, loko emanA vyAkhyAnamAM kaMTALe, emanuM vyAkhyAna zarU karavA bhAIo bhegA karavA paDe, nakkI karelA samaya karatA 15 miniTa bAda zrAvako Ave, e paNa e pAMca-dasa ja Ave ane mAMDa vyAkhyAna zarU thAya. be-pAMca zrAvako emanA vyAkhyAnanI so pre niMdA kare, bhUlo kADhe, e gurubhAIo paNa vyAkhyAnamAM baphATa karI bese - gusso karI che bese. paisAdinI bAbatamAM apriya banI jAya... A badhuM thAya to khUba-khUba sAruM, AvA mArA adhamAdhama ciMtano saphaLa na thayA. kyAreka saphaLa thayA to huM khUba hasyo. MATIOja ISya0 (21) BHARAT

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sijadoSo-paraguNanuM darzana karatA. kuragaDu-mRgAvatI samate vege mukti vasa, mane vege mukti varatA. dhana te..22 sarvaprasaMge nijadoSo-paraguNanuM ' 'E va ) H. I .1 , ) = "E T F kyAreka mArA A svapro AkhA uMdhA paDatA dekhAyA, tyAre huM khUba raDyo, khUba saLagyo, nI khUba trAsyo. Da, vaiyAvaccakSetre vicAruM to ya A ja hAlata ! huM mArA gurunI vaiyAvacca karuM kharo, Da paNa mArA gurubhAI vadhu sArI vaiyAvacca kare, gurune paNa emanI vaiyAvacca phAve, guru tu ta e eka-be vaiyAvaccInI prazaMsA paNa kare, mArI vaiyAvaccanI khAsa noMdha na levAya, meM emAM vaLI gurue mane ekAdavAra Thapako Apyo ke, "gurunI vaiyAvacca kevI rIte karavI, je li e A be pAse zIkha. tane vaiyAvacca karatA nathI AvaDatI." guru to sahaja rIte ja ne bolyA, paNa mArAmAM ISyano aMkuro phUTI gayo. basa, mAruM mana e vaiyAvaccIonI 7 nA vaiyAvaccanA doSo zodhatuM thaI gayuM, mArI vANI e mana vaDe zodhAyelA doSono pracAra zA karatI thaI gaI. " e vaiyAvaccIo bhale game eTalI vaiyAvacca kare, paNa emanA bhAvo kevA ! ka che, e to mane khabara che. A rIte gurune khuza karIne potAnA badhA svArtha sAdhavAnuM ka 8 kAma kare che. guru prazaMsA kare, eTale gurunA bhakto emanA bhakta banI jAya. guru pAse 8 AvelA mumukSuo emanA mumukSu banI jAya, A che e kahevAtA vaiyAvaccIonI ra cAlabAjI !" AvA AvA vicAro-vacano dvArA meM ja mArI jAtane khUba malina karI. 3 3 . kyAreka guru e vaiyAvaccIonI bhUla badala gusse thayA, vaiyAvaccIne sakhata 3 Na Thapako Apyo. "tane vaiyAvacca soMpAya ja nahi, tadana jaDa che" ema paNa bolyA. A che R badhuM meM joyuM, sAMbhaLyuM. huM to rAjI rAjI thaI gayo. paNa mAyA karatA mane ghaNI re 8 AvaDe. huM tarata guru pAse gayo, "zuM thayuM? zuM thayuM ?' ane gurue gussAmAM ja e paNa vaiyAvaccInI bhUlo mArI AgaLa raju karI. huM to aMdarakhAne mastI mANavA lAgyo, . paNa bahArathI meM kahyuM, "e to bhUla thaI jAya. Apa kSamAzIla cho, mAphI ApI do, pharI bhUla nahi kare..." bahArathI to meM emanI tarapheNamAM hovAno dekhAva karyo, paNa '' " mane pAkI khabara che ke "mArA manamAM zuM hatuM ?' e divase meM doDhI gocarI vAparI, "| | khUba prasannatAthI vAparI. je maLyA, e badhAne pelo prasaMga ThAvakAIpUrvaka kahyo ane sa "e vaiyAvaccInI vaiyAvacca bhUlothI bharapUra che. gurune paNa nathI gamatI." e vAta e upasAvavAno meM mArI zakti ullaMghIne ya prayatna karyo. basa...basa...basa... bhagavAna ! o mArA tAraka paramezvara ! vadhu zuM kahuM tane ? eka paNa jIvane mAryA CHAL A ISya 0 (22) 00000000000001.

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upakArI svajanone tyAgI dIkSA lIdhI vege, saMyamaghAtaka gurudrohAdika doSa kemanA tyAge ? dhana te...23 vinA mAtra malinabhAvothI sAtamI nAkamAM janama thAya, e AnuM nAma ! jyAM pramodabhAva nathI, bIjAnA guNo-sukho-vikAso badala harSa nathI, tyAM S bAhyacAritra bhale ne game eTaluM mahAna hoya, bhale ne huM 100 oLIo pUrNa karIne stu 'vardhamAnataponidhi' banI gayo houM, bhale ne huM 45 Agamono abhyAsa karIne stu 'AgamajJAtA' banI gayo houM, bhale ne huM zreSThatama, vyAkhyAno karIne, meM 'pravacanaprabhAvaka' banI gayo houM, bhale ne huM 25-50no guru banIne sma la 'anaMtAnaMtopakArI' banI gayo houM, bhale ne huM nava vADonuM aNizuddha pAlana karIne na 7 'vizuddha brahmacaryano svAmI' banI gayo houM.... ta 4' 5 # F ya paNa zuM karavAnA A abajo rUpiyAnI kiMmatanA ghareNAone ? ke jyAre A cAritrazarIrano prANa ja khatama thaI gayo hoya. bhalA kaMI maDadAne abajo rUpiyAnA ghareNAono zaNagAra karAto haze ? e karIe toya e zobhato haze ? irSyAnA kAraNe mana satata baLApo anubhave. evA mananI asara zarIra para thAya. lohI baLI jAya, khAdhelAnI zakti bane nahi, zarIra nabaLuM paDavA lAge. = to bIjAnA sukRto badala harSa, enI khUba prazaMsA, bIjAnA vikAsa mATenI AMtarika IcchA... A badhuM to cAritrano prANa che. e ja mArAmAM marI paravArelo che, mATe ja mArA cAritrazarIramAMthI IrSyAnI durgaMdha Ave che. AvA durgaMdhI bAhyAcAritradeha 52 vardhamAnataponidhi AgamagAtA anaMtAnaMtopakArI - vizuddhabrahmacaryadhAraka vagere vagere amUlya ghareNAo caDAvAtA haze ? e caDAvIe toya zobhatA haze ? pravacanaprabhAvaka mane A IrSyAnA kAraNe keTaluM badhuM nukasAna thaze ! - IrSyA karanArAnuM mAtra mana ja baLe che, eTaluM nahi, paNa puNya paNa baLI A jAya. nipuNyaka banelA mane pachI tamAma kSetromAM niSphaLatA - niSphaLatA ja maLaze. A ma - - na mA OM ->> saM bIjAnI IrSyA karavAthI enuM to kazuM bagaDavAnuM nathI, ulTuM e irSyAnA kA2Ne mAruM ja duHkha vadhavAnuM che. mArI ja prasannatA khaMDita thavAnI che, mAro ja AnaMda luMTAI javAno che. FEE EFFI na AET * tra sa - A badhA nukasAno karatA ya moTuM nukasAna e che ke AmAM mAro AtmA kSa |Na guNasamRddhi sAdhI nahi zake. kemake guNaprAptino eka anivArya upAya che guNAnurAga ! Na IT IrSyA 0(23)

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mAta kane jemabAlaka timagara AgaLa khullA thAtI, sUkSmapAya paNa lAja tyajI garane vistarathI kahetA, dhana te... 24 na guNAnumodanA ! guNaprazaMsA ! paNa mArI pAse e nathI, kemake mArAmAM IrSyA che. have jo upAya ja na hoya, to guNaprApti kema thaze ? ane e vinA mokSa to na ja thAya. jo mokSa nahi, to bAkI rahyo mAtra saMsAra ! durgatiothI bharacaka saMsAra ! mAre koIpaNa bhoge A dhruSNadoSane kADhavo ja paDaze. khatama karavo ja paDaze. stu e mATenA je je upAyo hoya, te mAre AcaravA ja paDaze. emAM sauthI prathama upAya che 'jeone AvI irSyA satAvatI nathI, tevA sma H guNAnurAgIonA e guNAnurAga nAmanA guNanI bharapUra anumodanA ! hArdika ni na anumodanA !' S sta ta H || 5 F nA ya 200000000 FF > E have vajrajamuni to uMmaramAM sAva nAnA, dIkSAparyAyamAM paNa nAnA ! emanI pAse koNa taiyAra thAya pATha levA ? huM houM to mane mArA guru u52 ja gusso Ave. 'gurunuM magaja ThekANe nathI...' evA vicAro Ave. paNa e munioe karkoI ja vicAra na karyo. 'vajramuni mArA karatA AgaLa nIkaLI gayA' evI IrSyA na karI, emanI niMdA mazkarI paNa na karI. ta E FEE nA Aje mArI sthiti evI che ke jo mArA karatA nAno sAdhu AgaLa vadhe, to huM khamI na zakuM, emAM ya jo guru mane e nAnA sAdhu pAse bhaNavAnuM kahe to to mArI hAlata ja bagaDI jAya.' enI sAme pelA AryasiMhagirinA ziSyo keTalA mahAna !! ya teo dIrgha paryAyavALA hatA. tyAgI - tapasvI - saMyamI - jJAnI hatA... chatAM gurue emane jyAre kahyuM ke, 'have vajramuni tamane vAcanA Apaze' to eka ja paLamAM e vAta svIkArI lIdhI. sa 11111111 mATe ja to zAstrakAroe e munionI anumodanA karI che. umadezamAlAmAM kahyuM A che ke, 'siMhazisuinnIsALa mad guruvayanuM sadaMtALa | vo ri vAdi vAyatti navi joviyaM A vayAM' mA bha saM saM prabhuvIre samavasaraNamAM karoDo devo - mAnavonI samakSa dhannA aNagAranI prazaMsA karI,'mArA 14 hajAra sAdhuomAM uttamottama sAdhu A dhanno che. enA adhyavasAya roja vardhamAna ja rahe che." AvuM sAMbhaLavA chatAM gaNadhara mahArAjAone ke hajAro pre sAdhuone dhannA pratye irSyA na thaI. 'prabhu khoTekhoTI prazaMsA kare che, enA karatA to kSa amAro tapa-vaiyAvacca joradAra che..' evA vicAra nathI AvyA. ulTuM badhAe prabhunA kSa vacanone saharSa svIkAryA. dhannA aNagAranI bharapeTa prazaMsA karI. Na Na IrSyA 1 (24)

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kroDamUlyanuM ekabiMdu camake netromAM jene, e pazcAttApI munivarane muktivadhu paNa khoLe, dhana te... 25 mArI hAlata to sAva kharAba che. guru jo ghaNA sAdhuonI vacce ke ghaNA zrAvakonI vacce bIjA koI sAdhunI prasaMsA kare, mArA sahavartInI prazaMsA kare, ene OM khUba khUba mahAna tarIke varNave to huM to IrSyAthI saLagI ja uThuM. e mahAtmAnI prazaMsA to dUranI vAta, paNa ulTuM gurune mATe ya game tevA vicAro karI besuM. 'guru pakSapAtI stra che...guru bhoLA che. e mAtra pelA sAdhunA bAhya ADaMbaramAM aMjAI jAya che, aMdaranI ta kazI khabara nathI... e sAdhue vaiyAvacca karI karIne gurune Avarjita karI lIdhA che...' na F F ta 101010101010101 AvA AvA keTalAya vicAro mane AvI jAya. Ina na re ! prabhuvIranA ziSyo to javA do, paNa mArA vRMdamAM paNa keTalA uttama munio | F zA che. teo kadI IrSyA nathI karatA, gurunA mukhe bIjA sAdhunI prazaMsA sAMbhaLIne teo phA harSa pAme che, pramoda dhAraNa kare che... huM kyAre banIza Avo ? sa sa nA nA basa, mAre mukhyatve A ja kAma karavuM che. ya ya A bha jo kSamAguNa meLavavo hoya, to mAre kSamAzIla mahAtmAonI hArdika anumodanA karavI ja paDe. jo brahmacaryadguNa meLavavo hoya, to mAre nirmaLazIla pAlakonI hArdika anumodanA karavI ja paDe. na mA to e ja rIte mAre guNAnurAga nAmano guNa meLavavo che, to mAre guNAnurAgIonI, IrSyAdoSa vinAnAonI hArdika anumodanA karavI ja rahI. A zAsrIya upAya che. zAMtasudhArasamAM kahyuM che ke pramomAsAdya gujaiH parevAM yeSAM matirmajjati sAmyasindhau / dedIpyate teSu manaHprasAdo, guNAstathaite vizadIbhavanti / A eka sauthI agatyano, sauthI mahattvano upAya che. A sivAya bIjA paNa ghaNA upAyo che, e mAre ajamAvavAnA che. ro E ji Con A saM je mahAtmA pratye mane IrSyA hoya, e mahAtmAnA kAryo mAre hoMze hoMze karavA, tma emanI sevA karavI, bhakti karavI, bhale manamAM IrSyA cAle, paNa enA nAzanI samyak bhAvanA sAthe mAre e mahAtmAnA kAryo karattA rahevuM. e mahAtmAnA vastronuM pratilekhanAdi karavuM, gocarImAM mArI pAse AvelI anukULa vastu e mahAtmAne vaparAvavI, avasare avasare emanI anumodanA karavI, prazaMsA karavI, emanA doSo kSa dekhAya to paNa e aMge kazuM na bolavuM. emanI sAthe mIThAza bharapUra vAto karavI... kSa Na hA ! hajI manamAM emanA pratye IrSyA che ja, chatAM A badhuM ja mAre e doSanA nAza Na - IrSyA 7 (25) wor sa

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bI-IrSALu kapaTarahita je bole. dhana te.26 vairAgI dekhAvA kAje mAyA-mRSA navi bole, huM koLI mATe mana manAvIne karavAnuM ja che. e kapaTa nahi ja gaNAya, kemake huM tArA AzayathI : A kAma karuM chuM. Saa Ama karavAthI emanA pratyenI mArI IrSyA ghaTaze-maTaze. A upAya paNa zAstromAM ja darzAvelo che ne ? meM SoDazakaprakaraNamAM sUripuraMdara tu 7 zrI haribhadrasUrijInuM vacana vAMcyuM ja che ke "kSaNaM paratyeSya yonaH para zuSo zeyara I THIrya vairyavavo malliviyAtavara:' dAkSiNyaguNa mAtsaryano = ISyano ghAta ai tti karanAro kahyo che. dAkSiNyano artha spaSTa ja che ke mAre mArA kAmo choDIne gauNa karIne ni 7| bIjAnA kAmo karavA, sADA traNaso gAthAnA stavanamAM upAdhyAyajIe kahyuM ja che ke na nija kArya chAMDI karI, kare anya upakAra, sudambinna jana sarvane upAdeya vyavahAra. zA eka vAta so TacanA sonA jevI che ke jyAM maitrIbhAva sAco hoya, tyAM ISya 3 ja hoI ja na zake. mane mArA ziSyo pratye maitrIbhAva che, emanA hitanI bhAvanA che || che to mane emanA vikAsamAM AnaMda ja thAya che. paNa jyAM maitrIbhAva kAco hoya, tyAM : # ja IrSyA utpanna thAya. eTale jenA tarapha mane IrSyA thAya che, enA tarapha mAro maitrIbhAva nabaLo che, # e hakIkata mAre mAnavI ja rahI. mAre maitrIbhAva vadhAravo ja rahyo, jo maitrIbhAva vadhaze nahi to ISya doSa ghaTaze nahi ja. ' maitrI eTale ? pativanA jenA tarapha mane IrSyA che, enA hitanI mAre ciMtA 3 karavAnI che, bhale zarUAtamAM e parahitaciMtA hArdika nahi paNa thAya, ekabAju e ? 8 parahita ciMtA ane bIjI bAju IrSyA e baMne sAthe paNa cAle... paNa e rIte ja 9 dhIme dhIme IrSA nabaLI paDaze. A pelo sAdhu khUba bhaNe che, enI mane IrSyA thAya che...to roja rAtre sUtI vakhate A| & mAre AvuM ciMtana karavuM ja che ke "arihaMtadeva ! e sAdhu khUba vidvAna bano, dhi mahAgItArtha bano, mArA karatA hajAragaNo AgaLa vadho. enAthI zAsanane ja lAbha | thavAno che ne ? ane mArI A bhAvanA hArdika banavA lAgo.' pelA nAnA sAdhunA vyAkhyAno vakhaNAya che, ziSyo dhamadhamATa karatA vadhI rahyA | khe che... huM saLaguM chuM, A badhuM joIne ! to mAre roja rAtre AvuM ciMtana karavuM ja che e kSa ke ""e sAdhu joradAra prabhAvaka bano. pAMca hajAra mANaso enA vyAkhyAnamAM ekaThA kSa Na thAo. loko enA vyAkhyAnane khUba ja vakhANe evuM bano. pacAsa - so - basoNa grammami ISya 0 (26) hindi moving,

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devadurgati-mUka mAnava-narakAdika yoni bhAre, mAyAmRSAnuM phaLa jANIne saraLa svabhAvane dhAre. dhana te...27 ziSyo e mahAtmAnA caraNe samarpita bane... to khUba sarasa ! bhale A badhuM mane na maLyuM. paNa e mahAtmA thakI A kAma thaze to paNa sAruM ja che ne ? vaLI anumodanA dvArA mane paNa eTalo ja phAyado thaze.... " " F mA pelo sAdhu gurune mAnIto banI gayo che, guru vAte vAte ene bolAve che, enI stu salAha le che, enI prazaMsA kare che, ene potAnI sAthe ja rAkhe che. # mAnIto nathI, e mane kyAreka ja bolAve, mane Thapako paNa Ape... ta 010101010101011 A |2| pelo sAdhu mArI IrSyAno viSaya banelo che, to roja mAre rAtre ciMtana karavuM ja che maiM ke,'e sAdhu gurunI ciMtA dUra karanAro bano. guru pachI gurunuM pada e ja saMbhALo. 7 zA mAruM puNya ochuM, lAyakAta ochI... mATe huM guruno lADIlo na banI zakyo. paNa zA emAM zuM ? pelo sAdhu mAro gurubhAI ja che ne ? e AgaLa vadhe e to mAro ja sa nA vikAsa gaNAya.'' kSa na E" F AvI ciMtanadhArA mAre mArA ISmadoSano viSaya banelA pratyeka vyakti tarapha vahAvavI che: A maitrIbhAvanA e evuM pANI che ke je IrSyAmelane dhoIne sApha karyA vinA nahi ja rahe. hA ! mAre rAha jovI paDe, utAvaLe AMbA na pAke. A traNa upAyo e ja have mArI sAdhanA banAvI daIza. A thayuM IrSyAdoSane laIne AtmasaMprekSaNa ! 0000 IrSyA (20) 1111 jyAre huM gurune A badhAnA kAraNe sma re #dir; F nA ya A bha kSa Na

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rAtadina saMyamamAM guru-laghu aticAro je lAge, eka-ekane yAda karI micchA midukkaDaM mAMge, dhana te. 28 ALasa kAmacorI Ga (3) ALasa-kAmacorI : mA-bApano lADIlo hato huM ! eTale ja gharamAM nAnA6 moTA koI kAma karato na hato. A saMskAro mane bhAre naDatararUpa banyA nathI ne ? su saMsArIpaNAmAM ja huM thoDoka moTo thayo te pachI bA mane gharanA nAnA-moTA kAmo maiM bhaLAvatI, tyAre mAruM moDhuM caDI jatuM, bA gusso karatI tyAre ka-mane huM kAma karato, maiM x paNa manamAM to bAne ya jema tema saMbhaLAvato. ta na mo F 4. doSa naM. 3 10 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 - na na sa nA game tema to ya e mArI bA hatI, mArA pitA hatA... emaNe to mArA A zA doSane nabhAvI lIdho, paNa enuM pariNAma e AvyuM ke e doSa majabUta banyo. guruno saMga thayo, vairAgya jAgyo ane raMgecaMge dIkSA thaI. veSa palaTAyo, paNa ya svabhAva palaTAyo nahi, huM paNa e vakhate sAva abujha hato, 'dIkSA eTale tha svabhAvaparivartana karavAnI prakriyA !' A satya hakIkatane huM jANato na hato, huM to rAjI rAjI thaI gayo, mane sAdhuveSa maLavA badala ! tyAre huM nUtanadIkSita hato, eTale thoDA divasa to mane phUlanI jema sAcavavAmAM Avyo, gocarI-pANImAM paNa mArI aMgata kALajI karavAmAM AvI, spaMDila-mAtrupaDilehaNAdimAM mane bharapUra sahAya karavAmAM AvI. bhAro kApa paNa kADhI ApavAmAM Avato. saMsArIpaNAmAM bhogavelI zeThAI thoDAka divasa to ahIM paNa cAlI. - 4 4 | 6 |__ __... k paNa Akhare mahemAna jayAre gharano ja mANasa banI jAyaM, pachI enI mahemAnagIrI roja na ja hoya ne ? mahemAna Ave, tyAre ghare mIThAI bane. paNa gharanA mANaso mATe rojeroja mIThAI na hoya. Ano artha e nathI ke 'mahemAna vadhu vahAlA A lAgyA che...' paNa Ano artha eTalo ja che ke mahemAna kyAreka ja Ave, eTale emane mIThAI khavaDAvAya. gharano mANasa to kAyamano hoya, eTale have ene mIThAI khavaDAvavAnI na hoya. bha huM mahemAna hato, thoDAka divasa mATe ! have banI gayo gharano mANasa ! dIkSAne 7-8 divasa thayA, ane eka divasa gurue mane kahyuM ke,'tAruM paDilehaNa koNa kare che ? ogho koNa bAMdhI Ape che ?' meM kahyuM ke,'sAdhuo kare che...' gurue kahyuM ke, 'e tAre pre kSa jAte karavAnuM. badhA sAdhuo tArA karatA vaDIla che, emanI pAse kAma karAvAya ?' meM kSa kahyuM ke,'mane ogho bAMdhatA nathI AvaDato' ane gurue tarata eka sAdhune mane oljhe Na Na ALasa - kAmacorI (28) ( A ma

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40 vANImAM te kArya saraLa banI mana-vaca-kAyAthI zuddhinA svAmI sadAye che. ' nA svAmI sadAye. dhana te.. 29 je manamAM te vANImAM ne, vANImAM. - bAMdhatA zIkhavADavAnuM kahyuM. ane e divasathI mAro parizrama vadhI gayo. ogho - | bAMdhavAmAM roja aDadho kalAka thato, mane e samaya bagaDato lAgato, mAre to bhaNavuM ? | hatuM, A badho samaya mane abhyAsamAM vighnarUpa lAgato. kharI vAta e ke mane zeThAI gamatI hatI. saMsAramAM to bA mArA kapaDAne IstrI karatI, gaDI karatI ane mane paheravA | ApatI... have bA na hatI, sAdhuo pAse karAvavAnuM na hatuM, IstrI baMdha thaI, kapaDA Ai | mAre ja paDilehaNa karavAnA, gaDI karavAnA. Si saMsAramAM to rAtre palaMga taiyAra ja hoya, kyAreka pathArImAM uMghavuM paDe to paNa | | bA ja pathArI pAtharI ApatI, paNa have game eTalI uMdha AvatI hoya to paNa mAro ? chA saMthAro mAre ja pAtharavo paDato. A badhuM thoDAka divasa AkaruM lAgyuM, pachI TevAI zA gayo. mArA zarUAtanA be-traNa kApa to sAdhuoe kADhI ApyA, paNa e pachI gurue | ka pAchuM mane kahyuM ke, "A rIte tArA kapaDA vaDIlo dhUe, e keTaluM kharAba lAge...have 8 tAre e zIkhI levAnuM..." ane jIMdagImAM pahelIvAra kapaDA dhovAnuM kAma meM karyuM, 8 sAdhuo mane zIkhavADatA hatA, paNa mane manamAM ajaMpo thayo. huM sAdhu chuM ke dhobI ! ra evA vicAro AvyA. huM na samajI zakyo ke, "zAstrajJApUrvaka vastro dhovA e paNa saMyama s a) uM. va 1 ba 3. pI. Ama karatA karatA mArA kAmo to mane kamane jAte karato thaI gayo. paNa mArI ra kharI kasoTI have thaI. mArI vaDIdIkSA thaI gaI. joDo pUrA thaI gayA... eTale eka 2 divasa vyavasthApake mane bolAvIne samajAvyo ke, "ahIM mAMDalInA kAryonI vyavasthA (goThavavAmAM Ave che, koI pANI lAve, kAjo kADhe - luNA kADhe - gocarI lAve...vagere . bolo tamane zuM phAvaze ?" savAre pANI lAvavuM phAvaze ? cAra ghaDA lAvavAnA..." have mAro kAmacorI doSa barAbara kAma karavA lAgyo. "mAre to bhaNavAnuM che. IT mane A badhuM nahi phAve." tarata nA pADI dIdhI. vyavasthApake jarAka kaDakAI sAthe kahyuM ke "Ama na cAle. bIjA sAdhuo tamArA mATe gocarI lAvaze. tamAro kAjosa luNAM kADhaze, to tamAre emanA mATe kaMIka to karavuM ja joIe. nahi to teo paNa e tamAruM koI kAma nahi kare, tamAre tamArA badhA kAma karavA paDaze. pANI-gocarI-kAjo- | & luNA...badhuM ja. bolo, che maMjura !" A tyAre mane bhAna thayuM ke, "ahIM mArI bA nathI, ahIM mArA karatA vaDIla munio [" che aNagamA sAthe meM savAre pANI lAvavAnuM svIkAryuM. MATIRITANT ALasa - kAmacorI 0 (29) ATTITI a & 5

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zrI gopavatA nA doSa kadIye, chedAdikanA bhayathI. dhana te.. yazakIrtinI lAlacathI ke gurnAdikanA bhayathI gopavatA nA ' = = 49 F E F = bIjA divasathI ja mArI agniparIkSA zarU thaI gaI, sAta vAgyAno sUryodaya na hato ane huM to poNAsAte ghaDAo taiyAra karavA lAgyo. vaDIle kahyuM ke, "sUryodaya bAda A ja ghaDA paDilehaNa karAya.." ane paMdara miniTa mATe nakAmI (!) pasAra karavI paDI, | te sAta vAgyA bAda ghaDAo taiyAra karI pANI levA gayo, tyAM pAMca miniTanI vAra hatI. | . eTale tyAM rAha jovI paDI. ghaDAo lAvIne meM to mUkI dIdhA ane mArI jagyAe besI " gayo. tarata vaDIla mArI pAse AvyA. "AvuM dhagadhagatuM pANI koNa pIe ? A badhuM pANI parAtamAM ThAravAnuM, TharI jAya pachI gALavAnuM, gurune pahoMcADavAnuM...' huM akaLAI gayo, moDhuM macakoDIne ubho thayo, dhaDAdhaDa parAto goThavavA mAMDyo, zA tyAM vaLI bIjA sAdhu AvyA, "mahAtman ! A parAtone puMjaNIthI pUMjI levI paDe. nahi to emAM jo nAnA-moTA jIvo hoya to garama pANIthI marI jAya. ane nIcenI jamIna paNa barAbara pUMjI levAnI. utAvaLa karo e na cAle.' manamAM to mane gusso Avyo, sAme bolavAnuM mana thaI gayuM. paNa huM nAno- ka 8 navo hato. sAmenI vyakti sAcI vAta karatI hatI, eTale mahAmahenate meM gusso 8 dabAvI rAkhyo. ArtadhyAna sAthe parAto pUMjIne emAM pANI ThAryuM. aDadho kalAka bAda trIjA mahAtmA mArI pAse AvyA, "mahAtmana pANI 8 gALavAnuM che...' huM kaMI na bolyo, bhAre ajaMpA sAthe meM pANI gALyuM...Ama 2 3 gacchabhaktinuM sau prathama kAma ArtadhyAna-asadbhAva-aruci-aNagamA sAthe meM pUrNa 3 rU karyuM. mane evA vicAro na AvyA ke "paMcamahAvratadhArI, ratnAdhika tamAma 8 mahAtmAone ThaMDu pANI pIvaDAvavAno A moMgho avasara anaMtabhavomAM kyAreya maLe A ema nathI. A to aNamola lhAvo che, jeTalo luMTAya eTalo luMTavAno che. A mane evA vicAro na AvyA ke, "e ja mahAtmAo divasa daramyAna mane paNa ghaNI sahAya kare ja che. bIjA kALanuM pANI teo lAve che, huM vAparuM chuM. baporanI gocarI teo lAve che, huM vAparuM chuM. gocarImAM DhoLAyelo mAro kAjo teo kADhe che, | huM nahi. mArA pAtrA luMchavAnA luNA teo dhUe che, huM nahi..to emane savAre sI che, zItalajala vaparAvavAnuM eka bhaktikRtya mAre na karavuM joIe ?' mane e vicAro na AvyA ke, "mahAtmAone zItalajala vaparAvavAne badale che emane game tevuM pANI vaparAvanArA mAre kadAca AvatA bhavomAM koIka raNapradezamAMtha DISTRICT ALasa - kAmacorI 0 (30) TI

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abhimAnI jemaApa prazaMsA karatA kadI nA thAke, temamunivara nijapApane kahetA leza na rahetA vAMke, dhana te...31 tarasyA maravAno vAro Ave to navAI nahi. vaizAkhanI garamImAM bapore be vAge 7 pANInI tarasa lAgI hovA chatAM dhagadhagatuM pANI ja mAre nA-chuTake pIvuM paDe...evI dazA mArI thAya to navAI nahi. S stu paNa ALasa-kAmacorIe mane mUDha-nirlajja banAvI dIdho ane rAtre vyavasthApaka stu pAse jaIne meM cokhkhI nA pADI dIdhI ke 'huM pANI nahi lAvuM, mane bIjuM kAma soMpo...' vyavasthApaka muni hasI paDyA. 'tamane je game te kAma soMpuM...' ta 100000000000000 eTale ja kAjo kADhavAnA kAmamAM paNa mArI agniparIkSA thaI. banyuM evuM ke mArI gocarI to jaldI patI gaI, paNa vizALa gocarI mAMDalI pUrNa thatA bIjo aDadho kalAka lAgyo. mAre rAha jovI paDI. e pachI huM jhaTajhaTa daMDAsanathI badho kAjo bhego karavA lAgyo. paNa mArI utAvaLa joIne tarata eka sUcanA uccArAI 'mahAtmA ! A rIte to kAjo bhego thavAne badale cArebAju verAI jaze. jarAka dhIme karo. ane daMDAsana barAbara pharevo, vacce ghaNI jagyAmAM to daMDAsana pharatuM ja nathI. tyAMno kAjo rahI jaze...kIDIo thaze... saMmUcchima thaze...' ane vaLI mananA kheda sAthe mAre mArI lAparavAIne aTakAvavI paDI. FF F IF meM vicAra karyo ke,'bapore kAjo levAnuM kAma saheluM che, jaladI patI jAya...' ni maiM ane meM mAro prastAva mUkI ja dIdho, e tarata pasAra thaI gayo. zA sa paNa ALasa-kAmacorI e evo doSa che ke je doSa koIpaNa kAmamAM utAvaLa karAve, kAmane khaMtapUrvaka saMpUrNa ane yogya rIte pAra pADavAne badale locAo vALavA ya tarapha prere. 'kAma bagaDe to ya cAle' evI manovRtti manamAM ubhI karI de. nA ( ALasa kAmacorI 7 (31) S - ta EEEE E F G bha kAjo supaDImAM lIdhA bAda luMchaNiyAthI dhaDAdhaDa mAMDalInI jagyAnA supa vagerenA A DAghAo luMchavA lAgyo. paNa khorAkanI sugaMdhane lIdhe ghaNI kIDIo Amatema pharavA A lAgI hatI. eTale pAchI sUcanA thaI ke,'dhIme karo, juo, kIDI marI gaI. badhI kIDI dUra karo, pachI A luMchaNiyuM pheravo...' ane kIDIo dUra karavAmAM ja khAssI mahenata paDI, khAsso samaya lAgyo...kyAMka to jIvadayAnA e kAmamAM upekSAnA bhAvo ya jAgI gayA. kIDIne bacAvavAne badale samaya bacAvavo, parizrama bacAvavo e mAruM pre lakSya banI gayuM. eTale ja utAvaLa karI, eTale ja be-cAra kIDI marI gaI, mAro pre saMyamapariNAma marI gayo ke maravA paDyo... paNa chatAM mAro svabhAva na sudharyo. kAmacorInA eka doSathI mAruM cAritra khatama thayuM. huM ghaNI moTI kiMmata cUkavI rahyo saM kSa kSa cha Na OC bha

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kAma-krodha-IrSyA rasagArava-madamAyAdika doSo, sUkSmathI Atamadarzana karatA haratA karmanA koSo. dhana te...32 hato, mArA eka doSanA kAraNe... e bhAna mane na AvyuM. kAjo kADhyA bAda, kAjo paraThavIne pAcho Avyo tyAM to vaLI navI phariyAda ! S 'mahAtmA ! mAMDalImAM nAnA kaNiyAo rahI gayA che, kAjo barAbara lo. pharIthI 5 stu ekavAra vyavasthita daMDAsanathI kAjo bhego karo...' ane dIvela pIdhelA moMDhe meM pharI stu kAjo lIdho, ghaNA kaNiyA nIkaLyA, chatAM mane mAro doSa na dekhAyo. ta ta tyAM vaLI eka parIkSaka hAjara thayA,'are ! ahIM to supanA DAghA rahI gayA sma tti che, barAbara sApha karavuM paDaze, nahi to kIDIo thaze. mahAtmA ! ekavAra barAbara . 7 luMchaNiyuM karI lo... upAzrayanI jagyA AvI bagaDelI hoya e kema cAle ?.....' || huM trAsI gayo, badhA mane TokaToka karatA hatA, paNa zuM karuM ? nAno ane navo ! muMge moMDhe e asahya vedanAne sahana karI rahyo. pharI luMchaNiyuM karyuM..... 4a E E F QQ l l l l l l l l l l l l 5 x 5 sa be-cAra divasa AvI jAtajAtanI muzkelIo kAjo kADhavAmAM AvI... chevaTe huM ya kaMTALyo ane vyavasthApakane parakhAvI dIdhuM ke,'huM kAjo nahi kADhuM. . .luNA kADhIza.' ane A trIjA kArya mATe mAro abhiSeka thayo. paNa mAruM durbhAgya ! ke huM emAM ya prasanna rahI na zakyo. gocarI pate, tyAM sudhI rAha jovI paDI, badhA luNA sarphamAM palADI dIdhA bAda huM e dhovA beTho. paNa meM joyuM ke luNA ghaNA vadhAre hatA. sAdhuo hatA 20-25, ane luNA hatA 30 upara ! meM tarata ja phariyAda karI ke,'jeTalA sAdhu eTalA ja luNA hoya, vadhAre nahi. huM vadhArAno kApa nahi kADhuM... ane meM vadhArAnA palaDI gayelA luNA vyavasthApakane ApI dIdhA, mArA A uddhatAI bharelA vartanano emaNe koI javAba na vALyo. eTalA luNAnI emaNe alaga vyavasthA karI. paNa e 20-25 luNA kADhavAmAM ya mane kaMTALo A Avyo, sarpha-sAbu be pANI.... e pachI badhA luNA sukavyA, e melA pANImAM A gocarInuM luMchaNiyuM ghasI ghasIne dhovuM paDyuM, e pANI paraThavavA be mALa utaravA paDyA, bha e Dola nItaravA mUkI, parAta paNa nItaravA mUkI, paNa aDadho klAka bAda e Dola parAta uMcakIne, nItareluM pANI luMchavAnI javAbadArI to ubhI ja rahI. sukAyeluM luMchaNiyuM ane sukavelA luNA nIce utArI levAnuM kAma to bAkI ja rahyuM... A badhuM pre karavA chatAM phariyAdo AvI ke,'luNA barAbara nIkaLyA nathI, luMchaNiyAmAM paNa DAghA pre rahI gayA che...' vagere. emAM kyAreka nItareluM pANI luMchavAnuM rahI gayuM ane saMmUcchimanI virAdhanA thaI eno Thapako ya mane maLyo. bhA saM kSa kSa Na ( ALasa - kAmacorI 0 (32) ma

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nIrasa thaI rasavatIne nirmaLatamapariNA teno svAmI, namo nircamImI. nIrasa rasavatI rasathI jamata, nIrasa che traNa-cAra divasamAM meM A luNA kADhavAnI nokarI (!) paNa choDI dIdhI, ane gocarI javAnuM kAma svIkAryuM. paNa pelI kahevata che ne ! ke "Apa bhalA to jaga bhalA' e kahevata mArAmAM tu uMdhI rIte lAgu paDI. "Apa bUrA to jaga bhUrA.' Tii huM ja kAmacora ! ALasu ! eTale nAnA-moTA koIpaNa kAma mane kaMTALo | tra janmAve, utAvaLa karAve,Thapako maLe to gusso pragaTAve, aruci-dveSanI Aga | saLagAve... saMyamanI mastI to javA do, paNa A ArtadhyAna-krodha-aruci- 1 aNagamAnI hoLI je mane duHkhI duHkhI duHkhI karI mUke. aDadho poNo ki.mI. dUra gocarI levA javuM - gharo na maLe to Amatema pharavuM | | - gocarI na maLe to kalAka sudhI badhe pharavuM - vajananA kAraNe hAtha rahI jAya - parasevAnA TIpAo paDe - taDako mAthAne ane pagane beyane tapAve... ema karatA upAzraye pahoMcuM ane tyAM ya zAtA na maLe. "ATalo moDo kema Avyo? badhI jhoLI - AvI gaI. tuM paMdara miniTa moDo che. Ama na cAle, samayasara AvI javAnuM' gurue Thapako Apyo. . mane gusso Avyo, "mArA parizramanI prazaMsA to dUranI vAta ! ahIM to gALo ja khAvI paDe che... paNa huM cUpa rahyo. mArA kapaDA sukavI huM vAparavA Avyo to ja = mArI gocarI ochI hatI. e vadhaghaTamAM lAvavA mATe mahAtmA gayA, mAre rAha jovI = ka sa sa s - 3 ) # TITIOaa ra paDI... eka di' gocarI ghaNI vadhI, sAdhuo herAna thayA. mane Thapako maLyo ke "gaNIne lAvo cho ? ke jema tema ? A bilakula nahi cAle...' A be-cAra di' gocarI ghaNI ghaTI, to vaLI eno ya Thapako vyavasthApake mane Apyo A ke, "jeTaluM kahyuM hoya, eTaluM lAvavuM paDe. tame 50-60% uMcakIne cAlI Avo e na ma. cAle. vadhaghaTamAM keTaluM maMgAvAya ?...' ' huM kharekhara kaMTALI gayo. ATalA sakhata puruSArthathI to kaMTALyo ja, sAthe apayaza ja mAthe paDavAthI paNa kaMTALyo. L ane meM gocarInI paNa nA pADI dIdhI. kSa basa, have bAkI zuM rahyuM ? mArA varSonA varSo A rIte kAmabadalI karavAmAM ja sI | Na vItyA. huM ArtadhyAnAdimAM ja pIDAto rahyo. Aje mane khyAla Ave che ke doSa e CLINIMIT ALasa - kAmacorI 0 (33) IIIIIIIIII.

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sta Atmana ! mArA pyArA Atama ! bola, tane vaDIlonA vastronuM pratilekhana karavA stu javuM game che ? nA-chuTake karavuM paDe tyAre eka-be vasra karIne ja tuM jato rahe che ? ta maiM 'vaDIloe svAvalaMbI banavuM joIe, nAnAo pAse kAma na karAvavuM joIe' evA sma vikalpo tane jAge che ? ta Ina sa nA na Atmana ! guru mAtru karavA jAya, tyAre pyAlo paraThavavAno lAbha levA tuM jaldI 7 zA tyAM pahoMcI jAya che ? ke tyAM ja tuM ubho hoya to ya tyAMthI dUra jato rahe che ? Atmana ! koI azakta, koI vaDIla, koI gharaDA sAdhu kApa kADhavA bese tyAre thatuM badhuM paDatuM mUkI emane sahAya karavA dhasI jAya che ? ke dUra beTho beTho joyA kare che ? vastro sukavavA mATe paNa ubho thato nathI ? 'sAme ja besIza, to zaramanA kA2Ne paNa mAre emanuM kAma karavA javuM paDaze' evuM vicArI e jagyA choDIne bIjI jagyAe jato rahe che ? 11111111ppppp lAnAdikane ucita vastu lAvI hete vaparAve bhakti karI savi sAdhujananI vadhaghaTa kukha padharAve. dhana te...34 kAryono nathI, doSa mArI ALasano che, ALasa na hoya, 'koIpaNa kAma e saMyama che, e mAre AdaravuM che. umaMgabhera AdaravuM che' evo adamya utsAha hoya to emAM kadI kaMTALo na ja Ave. FF 'F' raja FEE = E F Godadhik Atmana ! acAnaka keTalAka sAdhuo vihAra karIne Ave, to emanA mATe gocarI-pANI lAvavAno, kAjo kADhavAno, dorI bAMdhavAno tane ullAsa thAya che ? ke pachI sAdhuo AvatA dekhAya to ya tuM ubho paNa nathI thato ? gocarI-pANI levA javuM na paDe, guru Adeza na karI bese e mATe gurunI najara sAmethI dUra thaI jAya che ? gacchamAM kyAreka be-traNa sAdhu mAMdA paDe, kyAreka be-cAra jaNane upavAsa-chaThTha vagere hoya... e vakhate mAMDalInuM kAma vadhI paDe, tane eno khyAla paNa Ave, chatAM A zuM tuM kyAreya paNa sAmethI vyavasthApaka pAse gayo che ? teM kahyuM che ? ke 'mane be-traNa kAma soMpajo, ciMtA na karatA, AvA prasaMge mane lAbha Apajo.' re ! vyavasthApaka khuda sAmethI tane be kAma soMpe, mAMdagI-tapa vagerenA kAraNa darzAve tyAre zuM teM ullAsapUrvaka be kAma svIkAryA che ? ke moDhuM bagADI dIdhuM che ? ke vepA2I jema bhAvatAla kare, ema kAma ochuM karAvyuM che ? ke pachI nirlajja banIne cokkhIcaTa nA ja pADI dIdhI che ? saM pre ke 'huM mAruM eka kAma karIza. vadhArAnA kAma bIjAne soMpo, huM ekalo ja dekhAuM chuM pre tamane ?' bha ma kSa hA ! mane pratikramaNa bAda tarata suI javuM game, ATha kalAka ghoryA karavuM game, Na - ALasa - kAmacorI (38) MI A

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-saMyamapariNAmonI zuddhi vigaIbhojI navi pAme, emamAnIne aMtaprAnta AhArathI tRpti pAme. dhana te...35 bapore paNa gocarI bAda aDadho kalAka ughavuM game. ghare ghare gocarI pharavAne badale rasoDAmAMthI - vihAradhAmomAMthI - ekasAthe badhI gocarI lAvavI game, mane kazuM kAma na soMpAya e game, mAruM kAma bIjA karI jAya e game, vihAro ka2vA na paDe - karavA stu paDe to ya upadhi uMcakavI na paDe e game.... mA~ HE FE E F ya 001000101010111111 na game mane, jo koI potAnuM kAma mane soMpe to ! na game mane, jo vihAramAM mAre mArI upadhi paNa uMcakavI paDe to ! na game mane, vRddhone - glAnone sAcavavAmAM ghasAI chuTavAnuM ! na game mane, gurvAdinA kApAdi kAryo karavAnuM ! A badhuM zuM barAbara che ? AnA nukasAno keTalA ? - badhA mane 'ALasuno pIra, kAmacora, zeTha' vagere vagere birudothI navAje che, mAro ayaza phelAya che. - jema huM bIjAnA kAryomAM, mAMDalInA kAryomAM upekSA karuM chuM. ema bIjAo paNa mArI kALajI nathI karatA, mArA kAryomAM upekSA kare che, mane jarUra hoya tyAre paNa koI mane sahAya nathI karatuM, ochI kare che. - mArA A svabhAvane lIdhe koI mArI sAthe rahevA taiyAra nathI thatuM. kemake huM kAma na karuM...ochuM karuM... eTale badho bojo sAthenA sAdhu para Ave, e ene na game e svAbhAvika che. eTale jo huM mAro svabhAva nahi badaluM to bhaviSyamAM sAva ekalo paDI jaIza. koI mane cAhaze nahi, sAthe raheze nahi. na - vihAramAM ghaNA badhA tIrtho Avaze, prAcIna jinAlayo Avaze, paNa enA darzana karavA mATe 1-2-4 ki.mI. vadhu cAlavuM paDe evuM ghaNIvAra bane. have mArAmAM ALasa che, eTale aDadho ki.mI. vadhatuM haze, to ya huM darzana karavA nahi jAuM... kSa ochAmAM ocho vihAra karavAnuM ja gaNita rAkhIza. Na AnA kAraNe e prAcIna tIrtho, e prAcIna pratimAo... e badhAnuM darzana, ( ALasa - kAmacorI 0 (35) m "F " F redeg_E_x_5_FF A - ALasanA nukasAna ochA nathI, guru vagere vaDIlo AvatA haze to paNa A huM ALasanA kAraNe ubho nahi thAuM. A avinaya cAritrane malina ka2ze, mArA A tma avinaya badala guru mane apAtra jANI zruta vidyA padavI vagere kazuM ja nahi Ape. bha mArA baMne loka bagaDaze. da kSa Na

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Asakti jAge to paNa jinaNA manamAM lAvI kadI na letA vigaI-doSitabhojana manane manAvI. dhana te...36 enAthI jAganArA bhAvo, ethI thanArI samyaktva vizuddhi.... A badhuM ja huM na gumAvIza. S - ALasa doSa mane doSita gocarI vaho2vA pre2ze. 1 ki.mI. dUra sthaMDila stu javAne badale vADAmAM jaI AvavA pre2ze, mAsa thayA bAda sthAna choDI devAne badale stu eka ja sthAne lAMbo samaya 2hevA mATe mane preraze, glAna-vRddhanI sevA karavAne badale meM e badhAnI upekSA ane mATe ja emano tyAga karavA mane preraze. ta ->> mane sattara saMDAsApUrvaka vidhisara kriyA karAvavAne badale beThA-beThA, 7 avidhivALI kriyA karavA mATe preraze. A rIte mArA cAritrAcAramAM puSkaLa puSkaLa 7 jJA malinatA ubhI thaze. prab E F hAya ! mAtra eka ALasadoSa mArI ratnatrayIne khatama karI nAMkhe, ane mAre = joyA karavAnuM ? huM have saMkalpa karuM chuM ke mAre kAmacora banavuM nathI, ALasuM banavuM nathI. e meghakumAre be AMkha sivAya AkhuM zarIra vaiyAvaccamAM ApI dIdhuM. mAre to rojanA vadhumAM vadhu mAtra be-traNa kalAka ja gacchanI - sAdhuonI vaiyAvacca mATe phALavavAnA che. e mane kema na phAve ? pelA saMsArIo parivArane sAcavavA rojanI 8-10 kalAkanI majurI hoMze-hoMze kare che... chatAM teo parivArane poSIne paNa aMte to pApa ja bAMdhe che. jyAre A Akho gaccha saMyamI munivaro mAro parivAra che. emanI bhakti mATe divasamAM mAre mAMDa ekAda kalAka ke vadhIne doDha-be kalAka mAMDalI vagerenA kAryo karavAnA che. emAM vaLI bhaktibhAvane kAraNe ekAnte karmakSaya, apAra puNyabaMdha... A ja mane maLavAnuM A che. to mAre e kAmamAM zIdane ALasa karavI ? bha FFF #FFFFFF pelA bAhu-subAhue khUba bhakti karI, to gurunI bharapUra prazaMsA pAmyA, kALadharma pAmIne aMte bharata ane bAhubalI banyA. e che tAkAta gacchabhaktinI ! mAruM zarIra sAruM che. sakSama che... huM paNa divasanA be kalAka A kAmamAM zA mATe na phALavuM ? saM 7 ALasa - kAmacorI - (36) A mA ane e to hakIkata che ke je ALasuM na hoya, udyamazIla hoya ene ja saphaLatAo maLe. loko ene ja jhaMkhe, ene pUje. ene prazaMse, ene cAhe... bhale kSa mAre e bhautikatA nathI joItI. paNa A guNanI viziSTatA to AnAthI sAbita kSa Na thAya ja che ne ? Na

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mAtA nija bALaka khAtara jIvana paNa tyAgI detI jagakhAtara munivara jagamAtA Asakti uDatI. dhana te....37 have huM mAro svabhAva badaluM chuM. mAM koIpaNa kAma mane soMpAya, tarata hA pADIza. bamaNA ullAsa sAthe hA pADIza. kAma patAvavA nahi, paNa khUba sarasa karavA udyama karIza, utAvaLa choDI cIvaTa stu rAkhanAro banIza, vyavasthApakane nizcita banAvI, daIza. jarUra paDe tyAre be-cAra kAmo stu karavA sadAya tatpara rahIza. ALasane kAyama mATe khaMkherI nAMkhIza. mAruM nAma #'kAmacora'ne badale 'kAmora' banAvI daIza. arthAt dareka kAmo jo2thI-ullAsathI ma ta karIza. mA 8. pa na ma vaLI mahatvanI vAta e che ke meM mArA svabhAvamAM kAmacorI to anubhavI che 7 VIR ja, paNa e uparAMta 'bIjA sAdhuo mArA karatA ochuM kAma kare ane mAre vadhAre kAma karavuM paDe...'...e mane vadhAre khUMce che. bIjAnuM cAra ghaDA pANI lAvavAnuM kAma 20 miniTamAM patI jatuM hoya ane mane gocarImAM poNo - eka kalAka thato hoya eTale tarata mAruM mana baLavo kare, 'mAre poNo kalAka kAma karavAnuM ane ene 20 ja miniTa ! A anyAya kahevAya, AvuM na cAle.' nA ya 100000000 5 E F gra ema mane pahelInuM pANI lAvavAnuM kahyuM hoya, emAM ThAravA-gALavA vageremAM poNo kalAka thato hoya ane bIjInuM ThaMDu pANI lAvanArane e kAma 20 miniTamAM patI jatuM hoya, to tyAM ya mAruM mana baLavo kare ke, 'ene to pANI ThAravAnuM - gALavAnuM kazuM ja nahi... mAre badhuM karavuM paDe. A kaMI vyavasthA che ?' AvuM badhA ja kAma aMge bane che. mArA sahavartIo jeTaluM kAma kare enA karatA vadhu, doDhagaNuM, bamaNuM kAma jo mAre karavuM paDe to mAruM mana kuvicAromAM caDI jAya che. paNa jo bIjInuM pANI lAvanAre 4nA badale 6 ghaDA lAvavAnA hoya, e paNa A garama pANI AvavAthI ene paNa ThAravA-gALavAnA hoya ane eTale ene pAko kalAka A thato hoya, mA2A ka2tA enuM kAma moTuM thatuM hoya, to huM kadI phariyAda nathI karato ke 'mane kema moTuM kAma ?' bhA saM A paNa mananI eka vicitratA ja che ne ? mane poNo kalAka kAma karavAno vAMdho nathI. paNa e tyAre ja ke mArA sahavartIo paNa poNo-eka kalAka mArA jeTaluM ke mArA pre karatA vadhAre kAma karatA hoya. paNa jo emanuM kAma mArA karatA poNA bhAganuM - aDadhA kSa bhAganuM hoya to mane e ja poNo kalAka kAma karavAmAM moTo vAMdho che. za huM e bhUlI gayo ke jinazAsanamAM to sahana karavuM e ja nyAya che. " ALasa - kAmacorI 7 (30) m bha kSa

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chebIjI bAja jinaANA. zAzvata sukhakara ANI tyAgI mahAmurakha kahevANA para , hevANA. dhanate.. 38 eka bAju bhojanAdika sukho bIjI bAja ji. 'T F It "E 45 F E F 5 vyavasthApakanI pharaja bhale e hoya ke badhAne sarakhuM kAma soMpavuM, paNa mArI = eka - saMyamInI pharaja to e ja hoya ke mAre pratIkAra na karavo. vadhu kAmane saharSa svIkAravuM. te gharamAM bA Akho divasa keTaluM kAma kare che ? enA bALako to kazuM kAma karatA s 7 nathI, urdu bALako kAma vadhAre che, chatAM bA hoMze hoMze Akho di kAma kare ja che tuM ne? kemake ene bALako atyaMta pyArA che. bA nathI vicAratI ke "mAre ja roTalI- | | roTalA banAvavAnA ? traNa TAIma mAre ja rasoDAnI garamI sahana karavAnI ? jhADuM- jo tti potA mAre ja karavAnA ? kapaDA mAre ja dhovAnA ? A bALakoe kazuM nahi karavAnuM ? | e na cAle. bALakoe paNa kAma karavuM ja paDaze. gharanA badhA sabhyoe sarakhe bhAge zA kAma karavAnuM...' bA bALako pAse AvI koI apekSA rAkhatI nathI. badhA kAma khUba ullAsathI | kare che, kAraNa ? kAraNa ke e bA che, bALako ene atyaMta pyArA che. { A tamAma sAdhuo zuM mAne pyArA nathI? atipyArA nathI? emanA pratye mAruM = ja vAtsalya ochuM che? sAdharmikavAtsalya nAmano samyatvano AcAra mArAmAM nabaLo che? 9 9 e cAlI zake kharuM ke ? mAre to e snehabhAvathI ubharAI jaIne e munivaro mATenA 9 3 kAryo hoMze hoMze karavA joIe. emAM vaLI sarakhe sarakhA kAma vaheMcavAnI vAta ja = 8 kema ubhI thAya ? 8 bALako tophAnI paNa hoya, jIddI paNa hoya. avaLacaMDA paNa hoya... chatAM bAne 2 mana badhA sarakhA ! ema koIka sAdhu ALasu-pramAdI ! koIka sAdhu krodhI ! koIka sAdhu 9 ra mArA tarapha ja arucivALo... chatAM mAre mana badhA sarakhA ! kemake e nAnA-nAnA doSo hovA chatAM teo sAdhu che - mahAtmA che. eka mAtAnuM vAtsalya, eka moTAbhAInuM vAtsalya mAre mArAmAM pragaTAvavAnuM che. A AT basa, pachI mane kema vadhAre kAma ? pelAne kema ochuM kAma ?' evI tuccha phariyAdo | mArA manamAM nahi pragaTe. prabho ! mane A kAryamAM sahAyaka banaje ! A thayuM ALasa-kAmacorI doSanI apekSAthI AtmasaMpreSaNa ! . * la, C ommon ALasa - kAmarI 0 (38) ALasa - kAmacorI 0 (3) 2

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sanmukha Ave nArI rUpALI to ye na netre bhALe, tIzuM te ja tAraka muni jagano, jinazAsana ajavALe, dhana te...39 5. doSa naM. 4 - Asakti (4) Asakti : saMsArIpaNAmAM jyAre vairAgya pAmyo na hato. tyAre to mane S stu jIbhanA caTAkA bhAre hatA. amuka zAka khUba bhAve, amuka zAka bilakula na bhAve, stu 7 amuka dALa be vATakI pI jauM, amuka dALa moDhe paNa na aDADuM, sAMjanI rasoImAM ta # pharasANa khAvA joIe, bhAkharI-khIcaDI-DhokaLI banAvI hoya to mane gusso Ave. sma bAne be-cAra saMbhaLAvI deto, jamavAnuM choDI deto. nA-chuTake mArI bAne mArA mATe - roja kaMI ne kaMI pharasANa banAvavuM paDatuM. Ina zA sa F G 111111111111111 hoTalonA jalasA ThaMDA pINA lArI para maLatI caTAkedAra AITamo-zA AIskrImo... chappanIyA dukALamAMthI Avelo bhUkhyo DAMsa mANasa na houM ema huM 5 khUba khAto-pIto. paNa saMsAramAM to AvuM ghaNA karatA hoya eTale 'A doSa che' evuM koIne na lAge, mane paNa na lAgyuM. paNa, guruno saMparka thayo, vairAgya pAmyo, abhakSya tyAgyA, ekAsaNA-besaNAAMbilAdi karato thayo, mane lAgatuM ke 'mArI Asakti ghaNI ghaTI gaI che. e vinA huM ATalo badho tyAga kema karI zakuM ?' paNa zuM e mArI bhramaNA hatI ? jAtane oLakhavAmAM meM kaMI thApa khAdhI che ? A ma na dIkSA thaI, ekAsaNA zarU thayA, have svajanono paricaya baMdha thayo, mitronI maitrI baMdha thaI, TI.vI-sinemAno saMparka baMdha thayo, chApAnA vAMcana baMdha thayA, mastIbharI niMdrA baMdha thaI, ga2mAgarama rasoI baMdha thaI, IcchA pramANe bA pAsethI mAMgI levAnuM baMdha thayuM. hoMze-hoMze mane manabhAvatI AITama khavaDAvatI bA have alopa thaI gaI... EEF F H A bha manane prasanna karanArI aneka bhautika vastuo sAtheno saMparka tUTyo. jANe ke sAva nIrasa jIvana zarU thayuM. mane khyAla che ke mane have khAvAmAM vadhAre rasa paDato hato. mAruM dareka vastunuM pramANa vadhatuM jatuM hatuM. gocarI mAMDalImAM kaMIpaNa sArI vastu AvelI dekhAya eTale 'e mane maLe to sAruM' evA vicAro jhaTapaTa ubhA thavA lAgyA. saMsArIpaNAmAM to ghare koIpaNa sArI vastu banatI tyAre tarata sAdhubhagavaMtono pre kSa lAbha levAno vicAra Avato, vinaMti karIne sAdhuone ghare bolAvato. sAdhuo kSa 'basa, basa' karatA, ane huM pAtrA-tara5NI chalakAvI deto. e supAtradAnano anero Na Na - Asakti (39)

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strInA zabdanuM zravaNamAtra paNa kAmavikAraka gaNatA, strIdarzana zabdAdika jyAM thAtuM te vasatine tyajatA. dhana te... 40 AnaMda anubhavato. paNa Aje ? e ja sAdhuo mArI sAme che, e ja tapasvIo-jJAnIosvAdhyAyIo-vRddho-gurujano-vaDIlo mArI sAme che. chatAM mane kema evo vicAra nathI stu Avato ke 'lAva, Aje mArA pAtrAmAM sArI vastu AvI che, huM e mahAtmAne stu vaparAvuM.' ta B nA eka tathya e ke gRhasthapaNAmAM to manane saMtoSa ApanArI ghaNI vastuo mArI pAse hatI. mitro-svajano-be-traNa TAIma bhojana-chApAo-mastI bharelI uMdha... ya vagere. jyAre manane ATalo badho khorAka maLato hoya, tyAre mana bIjI koI apekSA na rAkhe.. ekAda vastu ghaTe to enI phikara na kare, kemake mananuM peTa bAkInA khorAka dvArA bharAI javAnuM che. eTale huM mahAtmAone badhuM ja vahorAvI zakato, tyAgIne paNa prasanna rahI zakato. zuM e mahAtmAo supAtra maTI gayA che ? zuM mAro emanA pratyeno sadbhAva " H ghaTI gayo che ? nA, nA, evuM to nathI lAgatuM. to pachI Ama kema ? na mane AmAM be tathyo dekhAya che. T ma 00000000 karoDapatio lAkha rUpiyA dAnamAM Ape, to ya te khuza ja hoya, kemake bIjA karoDo rUpiyA emanI pAse che, eTale emane lAkha rUpiyA dAnamAM ApavAmAM kazuM duHkha na thAya... evI ja hAlata mArI saMsAramAM hatI. na FGF H ta - Asakti 7 (40) ji FB Fr || tooth had not do paNa dIkSA bAda ? aMdara AdhyAtmika AnaMda hajI evo pragaTyo na hato, saMyamayogonI anerI mastI mANI na hatI, kriyAo badhI thatI, paNa emAM AnaMda mANavA maLyo na hato. bIjA bAju bhautika prasannatA bakSanArA tamAma nimitto A chinavAI gayA hatA. na svajano, na mitro, na chApAo, na gappA-sappA, na snAna, A na haravA-pharavAnuM...bAkI hatuM mAtra bhojana ! emAM ya rojeroja to kaMI jIbhaDI saMtoSAtI na hatI. vaLI eka ja vAra vAparavAnuM hatuM. have AvI paristhitimAM mane koIka divasa suMdara majhAnI vastu maLI jAya to e bIjAne ApavAnuM mana kema thAya ? 'huM ja khAuM. mane ja maLe' evA ja vicAro jAge ne ? bha ma pre garIba mANasa, Arthika taMgImAM muMjhAto mANasa zI rIte pAMca rUpiyA paNa pre kSa dAnamAM Ape ? ema jyAre mAruM mana ja sukha mATe bhUkhyuM hoya, tyAre huM zI rIte kSa sukhanI sAmagrIne tyAgI zakuM ? cha Na mm

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mA mohathI ghAyala thAtI. kAna-nAka-galhItha rahita vRddhAne paNa nahi ne. ne paNa nahi jotA. dhanate. 41 mAtaputra paNa pApa karatA, mohathI ghAyata 'r E F E E F zrImaMta mANasa hajAro garIbone jamADe e zakya che kemake enI pAse khAvAnuM : ghaNuM che. paNa garIbo to lAInamAM ubhA rahI bhojana levA mATe paDApaDI ja karavAnA, - S bIjAne ApavAnI vAta to dUranI, paNa bIjAnuM chinavI levAya to ya AnaMda IS pta mANavAnA. - ema aneka bhautika sukho vacce mahAlatuM mAruM mana ekAda bhautika sukhane tyAgI | jai de, e zakya che. kemake enI pAse bIjuM ghaNuM hatuM. paNa atyAre to mAruM mana ja che li bhikhArI che, eTale e to levAnI-jhUTavAnI ja tamannAmAM rAce ne ? R| Ano artha eTalo ja ke tyAre ke Aje mArI AhArasaMzA to tIvra ja hatI. | nA pharaka mAtra eTalo ke te vakhate bIjI badhI saMjJAo poSAI javAthI AhAra saMjJA tIvra nA dekhAtI na hatI. sAdhupaNAmAM bIjI ghaNI saMjJAo upara saMpUrNa kAbu AvI javAthI ke - ekamAtra AhArasaMjJA ja tIvra svarUpe dekhAvA lAgI. | strIne traNa dikarA hoya, to eno sneha traNamAM vaheMcAI jAya, paNa eka ja = 3 dikaro hoya to e badho ja sneha ekamAM ja parovAI jAya ne ? eka mANasane ghaNA = mitro hoya, to vArApharatI badhAne maLavA jAya, paNa eka ja mitra hoya to ene ja 9 vAraMvAra maLavAnuM thAya ne ? rAjAne aneka patnI hoya to e vArApharatI badhI patnI 8 8 pAse jAya, paNa eka ja patnI hoya to ? ema saMsAramAM manane prasannatA meLavavA ke mATenA sAdhano DhagalAbaMdha hatA. eTale te mana vArApharatI badhA sAdhanomAM jatuM, kAyama 2 sa mATe AhAramAM ja coMTIne na rahetuM. paraMtu bIje badhe paNa pharI AvatuM. paNa dIkSA bAda re ghaNA badhA sAdhano ghaTI gayA. manane mATe eka ja dIkaro-eka ja mitra - eka ja strI ( je gaNo te mukhyatve eka ja bhojana nAmanI vastu bhautika prasannatA meLavavA bacI rahI. 1. eTale ja mana emAM coMTI jAya, emAM tallIna banI jAya e banavAnuM ja. - Ama mane Asakti thavAnuM eka kAraNa e che ke bIjA badhA sAdhano ghaTI gayA | " che. mATe ja huM sArI vastu bIjAne ApavA taiyAra thato nathI. bIjuM kAraNa e ke gRhasthapaNAmAM mAre je vastu sAdhuone ApI daIne tyAgavAnI sI hatI, e kaMI saMpUrNa to tyAgavAnI na ja hatI ne? eno bhogavaTo to mAre karavAno so e ja hato. kemake gharamAM to e vastu moTA pramANamAM hatI ja. dUdhIno halavo vahorAvuM, e A to mane halavo khAvA na maLe evuM to hatuM ja nahi. eTale mAruM sukha akabaMdha rahetuM sa | hatuM, eTale tyAre tyAgavAmAM kazI muzkelI na hatI. III bhA | Na migramming Asakti, (41) MAHITIATIMINI

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paNa nArI paricaya sAdhutA aMta karAruM. dhana te...4 tAlapuTa jhera tALave aDatAnI sAthe hAra 5, pA pa la ke ya che " paNa Aje ? mane je maLyuM hoya, eTaluM ya mane ochuM paDatuM hoya... to jo , : bIjAne ApuM to mAruM sukha chinavAI ja jatuM hatuM. be TukaDA mane maLyA, e ApI * dauM eTale mArI pAse pachI kazuM ja rahetuM na hatuM. eTale huM ene tyAgI zakato nathI. IT nuM paNa A badhuM vicAratA eka vAta cokkasa lAge che ke AdhyAtmika AnaMda hajI tuM = joIe tevo, tRpti Ape tevo pragaTyo nathI, eTale ja A khAvAnI Asakti roja 7 e mane satAve che. mArI najara mAMDalImAM pharyA kare che, sArI vastu jovA talasyA kare che, je zi e dekhAI jAya to e meLavavA mana taDapyA kare che. e maLI jAya to hajI vadhu maLe - ni ne bIjAne apAI na jAya evA vicAromAM mana aTavAyA kare che. | pUrvabhavonI vAta to dUra rahI, mAtra A ja bhavanI vicAraNA karuM to A ja sAdhujIvanamAM ja keTalI roTalI meM khAdhI ? mAro paryAya thayo 10 varSa, enA | IT 3600 divasa, rojanI 10 roTalI ! 36000 to roTalI khAdhI. ema dALa- IT Na zAka-bhAta-dUdha-phUTa-mIThAI-pharasANo... keTaluM badhuM khAdhuM ! chatAM hajI e ja 5 vastuo mATe Asakti ! enA ja vicAro ! enuM ja ArtadhyAna ! ane e mATe meM keTalI mAyA karI ! vaheMcanArAnA hAthamAM jADI roTalI joI meM nA pADI ke "nA, mAre AhAra AvI ? 8 gayo ane pAchaLathI pataLI roTalI AvI to laI lIdhI, mAMDalImAM veDamI AvelI 3 joIne AhAra na lIdho, ocho lIdho. veDamInI rAha joto rahyo.. joyuM ke 3-4 TokasIomAM gurnAdi mATe anukULa vyaMjana AveluM che, guru vAparaze pachI be-traNa 3 3 ToksI vadhaze.. e meLavavA mATe pahelA jANI joIne vyaMjana ochuM lIdhuM. jethI 8 sAmAnya vyaMjana badhAne apAI jAya ane chelle anukULa vyaMjana mArA bhAge Ave. evuM ja karyuM takrapAka mATe ! takrapAka Avelo joI supa ochuM lIdhuM. "bIjAne A . Apo, mAre to moDethI cAlaze.." ema udAra hovAno dekhAva karyo ane chelle mArI | mAyA saphaLa thaI. takrapAka mane maLyo. mane je mISTa bhAvatuM na hatuM, ene mATe meM bahAnA kADhyA ke, "A mArA zarIrane | | pratikULa che. A nahi cAle." ane e rIte bIjuM anukULa mISTa vyavasthApake mane ApavuM sa | e ja paDe evI pharaja pADI. re ! kabajIyAta-ajIrNanA bahAnA kADhIne roTalI bilakula | kSa na lIdhI, paNa emAM ya anukULa mISTa-pharasANa vAparyA... koIpaNa samajI zake ke jo thI ajIrNamAM roTalI na khavAya, to enAthI paNa bhAre mISTa to na ja khavAya...paNa Na 11111111111 = = = 1 ma. che, A inpAIIIIIIIIIIM Asakti 0 (42) DIAMOTION

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kAraNa viNa vigaIbhakSaka, muni hitarakSaka jo dhAruM, devalokathI sthUlabhadra, dharatI para utaryA vicAre. dhana te...43 meM mUDha banIne AvI mAyAo karI. kyAreka meM gocarI vaheMcI, paNa tyAre mArA mATenI anukULa vastuo meM judI S kADhI lIdhI, koIne na ApI... chelle meM ja vAparI. gocarI vaheMcavAmAM AvI to stu keTalIya ramato huM ramyo. mAtra ne mAtra AsaktinA pApe ! ta na Ini na gA sa nA bapore payasa AvyuM to ga2ma payasa badhuM laI lIdhuM. ThaMDA payasanI cokhkhI nA pADI. payapAka Avyo to maMgAveluM payasa paNa na lIdhuM... jyAre paNa gocarI vadhI paDatI, tyAre huM khapAvavA leto kharo, paNa sArI sArI ni vastu ja ! je mane pasaMda na hoya, e khapAvavA na leto. koI baLajabarI ApI de | F to paraThavI deto. zA sa guru ke vaDIlo jyAre kaDakAI karatA, amuka vastuo lAvavA para pratibaMdha mUkatA, tyAre mane bilakula na gamatuM. paNa zuM karuM ? re ! AThama-caudazAdi tithinA divase ja kyAMka svAmivAtsalya hoya, ane pAMca tithi gurunA AdezathI mAMDalImAM mISTa lAvavAnuM na hoya, tyAre mane khUba saMkleza thato. 'A jamaNavA2 tithi sivAyanA divase hota, to sAruM thAta.' evA vicAro AvyA. na FF mArI Asakti eTalI hade vakarI ke jo mane mArI ISTa vastu na maLe, to huM vaheMcanAra 52 AkSepa karI deto ke,'A pakSapAtI che, mane Apato nathI. mArA pa2 | T ene vairabhAva che.' guru mane sArI vastu na vaparAve to emanA para mane asadbhAva thato ke,'emane badhI vAte jalasA che, emane amArI kALajI karavAnI koI ja paDI nathI.'' saM A lezyA evI bagaDI ke huM zrImaMto-sukhIonA ghare ja gocarI jAuM. garIbo ke madhyamavargane tyAM gocarI na jAuM. gAmaDAo meM kAyama mATe tyAgI dIdhA ane pre zaheromAM rahevAnuM zarU karyuM, kemake mArI jIbha ahIM ja prasanna rahI zake che. kSa o bhagavAna ! mane mATe ja gacchavAsa na gamyo. gacchamAM to vizALa mAMDalImAM Na sArI vastu vAparanArA ghaNA hoya, eTale AvelI vastunA bhAgIdAra ghaNA thavAthI mane 0 Asakti (43) ta smai cha'rI pAlita saMghomAM javAnuM mane khUba gamatuM, kemake tyAM roja jAtajAtanuM ane A bhAtabhAtanuM vAparavA maLatuM. ema upadhAnomAM, zibiromAM, navvANunA rasoDAomAM A paNa huM khUba khUba Asakti poSato. e pavitratama dharmAnuSThAnone meM mArA mATe to pApAnuSThAno banAvI dIdhA. bhA ma 11111111111 pre kSa Na

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gati daMDA tole. vaMdana mATe nAlAyaka te neminAtha emabole. dhanate rAgathI strIdarzana karato muni durgati duHkhaDA tole. vaMdana 4* 5) H. I s \ H al? to ochuM ja maLe ne? zarama paNa naDe ne ? paNa sarakhe sarakhA be-traNa jaNa hoIe , | to to majA AvI jAya. koI bhAga paDAvanAra nahi, koI rokanAra nahi, koInI : zarama naDe nahi... ahAhA ! mahAna gacchavAsane paNa meM mArI Asaktio poSavA jAtajAtanA bahAnAo heThaLa keTalI badhI vAra tyAgyo comAsuM alaga karavAnA nA bahAne, koIka prasaMgo sAcavavAnA bahAne, koIkanI vaiyAvaccanA bahAne ke jAtanI sai mAMdagInA bahAne huM guruthI ane gacchathI alaga paDato ja rahyo ane alaga paDIne be mArI Azaktio poSato ja rahyo. meM je maryAdAo bhAMgI che, je mApa vinAnuM khAdhuM | che... e badhuM to yAda karatA ya mane zarama Ave che. | mane gamato hato ziyALo ! kemake emAM ghaNuM ghaNuM maLI rahe. mane unALo paNa gamato hato, kemake emAM ya dharatInuM amRta kerI maLe. mane comAsuM paNa gamatuM kemake emAM saMghamAM bhAta-bhAtanA tapa thAya ane e # dvArA mane to majA ja paDe. Ama to huM ekAsaNA karuM, paNa kyAMka savAranI navakArazI hoya to enI manabhAvatI AITamo mArA mATe laI AvuM ke bIjA sAdhu 9 pAse maMgAvI lauM...pachI bapore ekAsaNAmAM vAparuM. paNa mArI Asaktino bhoga B na ApI zakuM. # hada to e vakhate AvI ke Asaktine parAdhIna banIne meM AdhAka paNa vAparyuM. cokhI khabara hatI ke "A to mArA mATe mAMsa barAbara kahevAya paNa e badhI 8 3 samajaNane dabAvI daIne meM ghora pApa karyuM. tithionA divase AMbila karyA, e ya Asakti poSavA ! kemake AMbilakhAtAnA DhokaLA-DhosA vagere pharasANo mane khUba ja bhAvatA. eTale ja e AMbilo to apekSAe mAre mATe vigaI karatA paNa bhaMDA navaDyA. meM vigaIo tyAgI navapadanI oLIo karI. e vairAgyathI nahi, paNa A bhojananA gADharAgathI ja ! gocarI vahoravAmAM paNa viveka cUkyo. "vahorAvanArAM adharma pAmaze" eno paNa meM vicAra na karyo. na vahoryA meM roTalI-zAka-dALa-bhAta ! vahoryuM mAtra mISTa ! e sa paNa ghaNA moTA pramANamAM ! vahorAvanArAnA hAtha paNa vacce vacce thaMbhI gayA, chatAM sI mane bhAna na AvyuM. cheka cheDA sudhI tApaNIo bharAvI dIdhI...AvuM to keTalIyavAra banyuM haze ne ? keTalAya loko adharma pAmyA haze ne ? bIjAne adharma pamADIne huM | durlabhabodhi ja banIza. AvatA bhavamAM have sAdhupaNuM to nahi ja, paNa jainadharma paNa IIIIIIIIIIIIIM Asakti 0 (44) MAHITIHITTITUT

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Ama viSayasukhonI yAdI saMyama svAdhyAye hIna banI, saMskAranI kare baradhArI kAranI kare barabAdI. dhana te.... 45. vAnarane madirAM pAvA sama, viSayasAmonI yAdI ke sa = 1 a) * = 3 4 4 2 - nahi maLe. | yAda Ave che e divasa ! huM vahoravA nIkaLelo. vahorAvanArA vinaMti karatA | hatA. "sAheba ! roTalI lauM." "nA..." "zAka?" "nA." "bhAta." "nA." "mAlapuA.' "hA, lo." ane ATheka mAlapuA vahorI lIdhA. * "dUdha lauM?" "nA." "dUdhapAka che, lauM?" "lo." ane be cetanA dUdhapAka vahorI rja lIdho..."dharmalAbha !' bolIne nIkaLI gayo. hajI to daseka DagalA ja dUra gayo ane tti gRhasthonI vAtacItanA zabdo saMbhaLAyA. "sAdhuone to bhAI ! jalasA karavA che. ne emane sAdu na cAle..." A mArA haiye ghaNo AghAta lAgyo. A sAdhuniMdA-saMghaniMdAnuM nimitta huM banato | hato. mArI Asaktie ja mane A rIte niSphara banavA preryo hato. - dasa varSanA paryAyamAM AhAra saMjJAne lIdhe meM A je anekAneka doSo sevyA che, e badhAnuM vistRta varNana karuM, to prAyaH 200 pAnA bharIne lakhavuM paDe, to ya pUruM na thAya. jo huM hajI paNa nahi sudharuM to... - sahavartIo, jANakAro mane "Asakta, laMpaTa...' kahyA vinA nahi rahe. - mAruM zarIra bagaDaze, Asakti adhikodarI karAve, enAthI prAyaH rogo che thavAnA ja. ' a - A AsaktimAM ja AyuSya baMdhAyu, to koIka mIThAImAM kIDA tarIke mAro re janma thaze. - - Asaktine poSavA mAyAo karIza, to AryamaMgunI jema kyAMka koIka | gaTarano bhUta thaIza. - anekone adharma pamADanAra huM kadAca anaMtakALa mATe jainadharma gumAvI besIza. tya basa, AjathI mAre mArI A pravRttimAM dharakhama pheraphAra karavo che. bhale huM eka ja dhaDAke mArI Asaktine daphanAvI nahi zakuM paNa ene maryAdita to banAvI ja zakIza. . te mATe mAre ATalA saMkalpa karavA ja che ke + gharomAM ke rasoDAmAM huM kyAMya ekalI mIThAI-ekalA phUTrasa-ekaluM pharasANa * nahi vahoruM. sAthe roTalI-zAkAdi paNa vahorIza. e mATe mIThAI vagere ochI taka che I nIna Asakti 0 (45) AnninInche.

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vacana zradaDI doSadRSTine cheDe. dhana te..46 roSa paramAM dekhuM te mujamAM pragaTI daDe, dharmadAsanA vacana zradahI do 3, 5 sa ba pa tra va ke - vAparavI paDe, to paNa eTaluM to manane keLavIza ja. TuMkamAM koIne adharmanI prabhAvanA karanArI pravRtti to nahi ja karuM. S + mIThAI vagere paNa alpapramANamAM vahorIza. gacchane mATe vadhu pramANamAM tu mIThAI vahoravI jarUrI hoya to paNa vahorAvanArA adharma na pAme, A mATenI ucita nuM kALajI avazya karIza. + AsaktikAraka vastuo paNa jo AdhAkarmAdi doSavALI hoya to to nahi ja jo | vAparuM. nirdoSa maLe, to te vAparavAnI jayaNA rAkhuM chuM. + Asakti poSavA mAyA-kapaTa nahi karuM, bhale kadAca mArI jAta Asakta zA dekhAze, paNa daMbha karIne anAsakta dekhAvAno prayatna nahi karuM. + mArA pAtrAmAM je je anukULa vastuo Ave, emAMthI kamasekama ekAda nAnAmAM nAnA TukaDo huM bIjA sAdhune vaparAvIza. e rIte vAtsalyaguNa vikasAvavA = prayatna karIza. + gurnAdi ke vaheMcanAra pratye koIpaNa AkSepa nahi karuM, asadbhAva nahi karuM. 3 mArA lAbhanaMtarAyano, bhogAntarAyano ja vicAra karIza. 8 + moTA jamaNavArAdimAM traNa-cAra mIThAI hoya, to emAMthI koIpaNa eka ja 3 vAparIne, bAkInI mIThAIno tyAga karIza. evuM ja pharasANa - phUTa vageremAM karIza. 3 evuM sattva na uchaLe to kula mIThAImAMthI ekAdano to tyAga karIza ja. cAra haze, 4 che to koIpaNa traNa ja laIza, eka tyAgIza... = prabho AsaktivijayanI mArI A sAdhanAmAM mane saphaLatA bakSaje e ja TprArthanA ! A A che AsaktidoSane laIne AtmasaMpreSaNa ! 'vI che IiO Asakti 0 (46) DIAMGAM

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deha taNI suMkhazIlatAnA yoge bhaTakyo bhava anaMtA' kaTTarazatru mAnI dehane kaSTa bahu je detA, dhana te...47 dRSTidoSa ta ta (5) dRSTidoSa H anAdikALanI maithunasaMjJAmAMthI pragaTa thato A doSa mArAmAM S stu nAnapaNamAM to na hato, kemake e doSanI utpatti mATe yauvanavaya jarUrI che. huM skulamAM stu bhaNato hato, lagabhaga AThamA dhoraNamAM hato ane mArAmAM A doSa jAgrata thayo. skulamAM kharAba chokarAonI sobate paNa A doSane utpanna karavAmAM bhAga bhajavyo. meM ni raste jatI chokarIone jovI, mazkarI karavI, aMdaroaMdara kharAba vAto karavI... eka na - jaina to zuM, paNa kuLavAna ajainane ya na zobhe evA AcAra-vicAra-uccAramAM huM 7 zA lapeTAyo. emAM ya vaLI 'A kharAba kahevAya, AvuM na karAya' evuM kahenAra koI na maLyuM. ulTuM AvuM kharAba karanArA ane karAvanArAo ja ghaNA maLyA. eTale A doSa mane tyAre kharAba lAgyo ja na hato. sa nA ya 111111111111111 A bha 6. doSa naM. 5 STRON gayA, uMmara vadhatI gaI, nimitto vadhatA gayA, niSThuratA vadhatI gaI, vikAro vakaratA emAM vaLI mane TI.vI.no, pikcarono zokha ! emAM to keTaluM kharAba batAve ? mane rokanAra koI na hatuM... keTalA kalAko-divaso-mahinAo-varSo A doSanA sevanamAM meM veDaphI nAMkhyA. kAyika pApanI to hiMmata na hatI, samAja naDato hato...paNa mAnasika-vAcika pApomAM cakacUra banyo ja. kAyAnuM pApa mukhyatve eka ja sevAtuM 'dRSTidoSa !' TI.vI.mAM ke sinemAmAM ke chApAonI pUrtimAM ke derAsaramAM ke svAmivAtsalyamAM ke pavitra tIrthasthAnomAM ke raste jatA-AvatA ke skulomAM ke paDozamAM ke...badhe nimitto maLatA. ane AMkha tarata e rUpa jovA kheMcAI jatI. jANe ke mArI AMkho AkarSaNI vidyAno bhoga banI na hoya ! vyavahAramAM ekapaNa strI mArI na hatI, paNa manathI...? na E sa nA ya HI A ma mAruM sadbhAgya jAgyuM ane eka divasa sadguruno saMparka thayo. emanA pravacano sAMbhaLyA. brahmacaryano mahimA sAMbhaLyo. abrahmanA nukasAno jANyA...mane yAda che ke e pravacano sAMbhaLatI vakhate huM khUba raDelo. be hAthamAM moDhuM chupAvIne, AjubAju saM beselAo sAMbhaLI na jAya e rIte rUdananA DusakAone dabAvIne, codhAra AMsue saM pre raDelo. meM karelA pApo mane khUba pazcAttApa karAvatA hatA. mArI bahena samAna srIo . pre mATe meM kevA vicAro karyA ? meM emanA tarapha kaI dRSTie joyuM ? zuM joyuM ? anaMtAnaMta upakAra e gurubhagavaMtono ! ke jemaNe dezanA dvArA mane palALyo, kSa kSa Na Na ( dRSTidoSa 7 (40)

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rayogomAM ramatA munivara durgati dUra phagAvI. dhana te..., sAtamI naraka ne mota taNA dukhasakhanI mata A ya = kA ne raDAvyo, mane mArA doSa jovAnI AMkho ApI. meM saMkalpa karyo ke "mAre have pavitra ja rahevuM che. strI sAme najara ja karavI nathI. kemake e ja badhA pAponuM udgamasthAna che.' nA paNa mArA jevA nabaLA mananA mAnavInA saMkalpo paNa nabaLA ja ne! pattAnA tu mahelanI mAphaka e saMkalpone tUTatA zI vAra? guruno viraha thayo, divaso pasAra thayA nuM ane pelA saMkalpo badhA dharatImAM daTAI gayA. pharI AMkho pharakavA lAgI, rUpa jovA lAgI, vikRtino bhoga banavA lAgI... paNa eka phAyado thayo ke have A pApo thatA, li chatAM emAM uDe uDe DaMkha paNa raheto. "huM khoTuM karuM chuM." evo bhAva paNa raheto. re! lA ne ghaNIvAra derAsaramAM stutio bolatI vakhate huM dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDato. A zubhabhAvo na zA ja mArA sahAyaka banyA ane e doSa AgaLa vadhato aTakyo. emAM pharI gurubhagavaMta zA * padhAryA, pharI pravacano...pharI saMkalpa.. A vakhate guruvarano aMgata paricaya thayo. | emanI preraNAthI meM bhavAlocanA karI, 200 pAnA bharIne meM mArA aparAdho lakhI nAMkhyA. hA ! kharekhara lakhIne nAMkhI ja dIdhA, AtmAmAMthI dUra pheMkI dIdhA. anarAdhAra AMsuo vahetA ane huM ammalitagatie mArI bolapena calAvato... cokkasa anaMtAnaMta pApo mArA e azrudhodhamAM dhovAI gayA haze. guruvare AlocanA vAMcIne mane bolAvyo, mArI pITha thAbaDI. khUba dhanyavAda ra ApyA. mArA AtmAnI uttamatAne vakhANI, mokSamArge AgaLa vadhavA preraNA karI. R saMyamajIvananI mahattA-nirdoSatA darzAvI... ane mArA pracaMDatama puNyodaye A uM jIvanamAM sau prathamavAra mane eka bhAva jAgyo ke huM sAdhu banuM, saMsAratyAgI zramaNa 8 banuM, patitapAvana aNagAra banuM, sthUlabhadrajIno vArasadAra banuM..." e pachI to svajano sAthe jhaghaDIne mumukSupaNAmAM rahyo, tAlIma lIdhI, pelo . daSTidoSa lagabhaga have satAvato na hato. mane lAgyuM ke "mAro e doSa khatama thaI . " gayo haze..." paNa mane ghaNI vakhata bAda khabara paDI ke "e mAro bhrama hato. I " mArI dIkSA thaI, sAva aMtarmukhatAnuM jIvana zarU thayuM. paNa koNa jANe kema ? " | mane kaMIka adhuratA anubhavAtI hatI. manamAM kaMIka becenI, kaMIka ajaMpo, kaMIka taDapa sa anubhavAtI hatI. mane ghaNIvAra vicAra Avato ke, "mAre je joItuM hatuM, e to mane sI e maLI gayuM che chatAM mana ekadama prasanna kema nathI ? kema mAruM mana becena banI jAya che ?" ane dIkSA bAda eka divasa rastAmAM acAnaka koIka strI para dRSTi paDI gaI, | huM LIMINALIA dRSTidoSa 0 (48) LIMIT

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thApI tIrakaraNA sparzI, kAraNa viNa nahi jAve. dhana te..49 - eka Daga cAle to paNa aticArI pove, jagavyApI vIrakaraNA sparza karI niSkAraNa eka Daga cAle to , 'IT F S S = " E meM jANI joIne joyuM na hatuM paNa acAnaka ja dRSTi paDI, paNa e atiAkarSaka rU5 | paLabhara joIne mAruM mana cakaDoLe caDyuM. meM AMkha to kheMcI lIdhI, paNa mana pAchuM kheMcI | na zakyo. uMDe uDe kaMIka vicitra prakAranuM saMvedana thayuM. e rUpadarzana mane gamyuM, e IST rUpa pharI jovA maLe to sAruM.. evuM kaMIka mane anubhavAyuM. e divase vAraMvAra e tu vicAroe mane parezAna karyo, rUpanuM smaraNa thatuM ja rahyuM. | bIjA divase pharI rastA para bIjA rUpanuM darzana thayuM. A vakhate meM ja jANI joIne tti najara uMcI karelI, jANI joIne pApa kareluM paNa AtmAnI khAnadAnI kharI ke jethI 7| tarata ja pAchI AMkha kheMcI lIdhI. paNa A prasaMgo mArA mATe AdhyAtmika patananA bIjarUpa banI gayA. dhIre dhIre : e chUTa vadhatI gaI. mAro mana parano ane netro parano kAbu ghaTI gayo, alabatta ; evA koIpaNa kharAba pApo to meM na karyA, paNa A eka kalaMka huM mITAvI na zakyo. 5 Na saMsArIpaNAno e doSa pharI jAgrata thayo. rUpa joto ane mana tRpta (!) thatuM. paNa = e tRpti kaMI sAcI hoI zake ? | o mArA Atmana ! devalokanA anaMtA bhavo teM karyA che, anaMtI devIo sAthe 8 anaMtavAra saMsAra te bhogavyo che. tRptinA jhAMjhavA jaLamAM tuM keTaluM doDyo, keTaluM ? 8 taDapyo... tane maLI che mAtra ne mAtra viSayatRSNA ! tArI tRSNA vadhI che, A ka = doDadhAmathI ! e jhAMjhavAjaLa tRpti zI rIte Ape tane ? urdu e doDadhAma ja tRSNA vadhArI de ne ! eTale ja A munibhavamAM rUpa joI joIne sukhI thavAnI tArI A halakaTAI 8 atyaMta niMdanIya che. o bhagavAna ! mArI bhramaNAo bhAMgI gaI che. Atmika AnaMda keTalo keTalo . keTalo badho durlabha che, e mane have kaMIka samajAya che. mArI pAse svAdhyAya che, e prabhubhakti che, gurunI sevA che, pratikramaNa-pratilekhanAdi saMyamayogono bhaMDAra che. chatAM rUpadarzana vinA huM na rahI zakuM, eno artha zuM? dUdhapAka choDIne viSTA cATanArA bhUMDa jevI bhUMDI dazA mArI na gaNAya? jo A svAdhyAyAdimAM mAro Atmika AnaMda e pragaTI cUkyo hota, to A viSTA jevA rUpadarzanAdimAM mane AkarSaNa thAya ja kema? vijhA pre. kSa joIne cItarI caDe, viSTAthI dUra bhAgI javAnuM mana thAya.. evuM mane A strIrUpa kSa. T mATe kema nathI thatuM? kema badhI samaja hovA chatAM jANI joIne e rUpa tarapha huM dRSTi che daSTidoSa 0 (49) DIAMONDALI

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cha mani tapti kadI navi pAme. dhana te...50 lobhI dhananI prAptimAM saMtoSa kadI navi pAme, svAdhyAyAdika che 1 0 5. 5) . ga sa la va l pADI ja dauM chuM ? | nakkI mArA AtmAmAM uMDe uMDe moTI garabaDa che. jema kSaya vagere rogo aMdarathI ne Da zarIrane khatama karatA jAya, paNa bahAra kazI khabara na paDe... ema bahArathI to huM Da te svAdhyAyI-saMyamI-tapasvI-vaiyAvaccI - prabhubhakta chuM ja, paNa AtmAnA uMDANamAM koNa tuM jANe zuM paDyuM che ? e roga kevo chUpAyelo che ? e kyAre uthalo mAraze ? ta. mane to ema lAge che ke mArA yoga badhA AtmAnaMda mATenA ! paNa mAro je upayoga to bhogAnaMdano ja che. mane khAvA-pIvAmAM keTalo rasa paDe che ?, mane | vAtacItomAM keTalo rasa paDe che? mane upadeza devAmAM kevI majA paDe che ? mane vaMdana Saa levAmAM kevI anubhUti thAya che? huM mArI prazaMsA sAMbhaLavAmAM kevo ekAgra banI jAuM | chuM ? mane A rUpadarzanAdimAM keTalI mastI anubhavAya che ? enI sAme kriyAomAM mAruM mana bhaTake, vaiyAvaccamAM mAruM zarIra thAke, | svAdhyAyamAM mArA gaLe zoSa paDe, prabhudarzanamAM mArI AMkho kaMTALe, vAcanAzravaNamAM mArI AMkho gherAvA lAge. A badhuM zuM? 9 e baheno mArA pratye keTalo badho pavitrabhAva dharAve che? rastAmAM e baheno mAthuM namAvI - hAtha joDI mane mayUeNa vaMdAmi' kare, tyAre # 2 na derAsaramAM e baheno ajoDa zraddhA sAthe mArI pAse nAnA-moTA paccakakhANo 8 mAMge, e badhA jAte paccakakhANa laI zakatA hovA chatAM A sAdhuo pavitratama che, ja emanA mukhe paccakakhANa laIe, to ApaNI ArAdhanA ghaNI sArI thAya' evI ja pUjayatama bhAvanAthI mArA mukhe paccakhANa sAMbhaLavA mane vinaMti kare, tyAre huM ? A upAzrayamAM hoMze hoMze vaMdana karavA Ave, khUba bhAva sAthe mane vaMdana kare, A zAtAmAM cho ? kaMI kAmakAja che ?' e keTalA badhA nidababhAvathI mane pUche, "sAdhubhagavaMtonA vAsakSepathI ApaNuM kalyANa thAya" evI alaukika zraddhAthI mane | vinaMti kare ke, "sAhebajI ! vAsakSepa nAMkhI Apazo ?" ane mastaka namAvI de, mArA "tarapha nAnakaDI paNa zaMkA emanA manamAM kyAMya na jAge. mArA pratyeno agAdha e vizvAsa ! avicaLa zraddhA ! akhaMDa sadbhAva ! zuM e bahenonI pavitratama bhAvanA, | kSa e vakhatanI ! paNa tyAre huM...? Na huM gocarI vahoravA zrAvakonA ghare jAuM, tyAre parapuruSane - ajANyA puruSane Na. Community( daSTidoSa 0 (50) ja ka. 7

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meru Dage ne caMdrasUrya vimAno aTake pharatA, to paNa niSkalaMka saMcamI nAnI paNa bhUla nahi karatA. dhana te... 51 ta mATe je gharano daravAjo kadI na khUle, e ja gha2nI zrAvikAo mAtra mArA 'dharmalAbha' zabdane sAMbhaLI, mArA veSane joIne niHzaMka banIne daravAjo kholI de. eTaluM ja nahi, paNa 'padhAro, padhAro' ema madhura AvakAra Ape. cheka rasoDA sudhI javAnI mane berokaToka chUTa ! mArI koI tapAsa karavAmAM na Ave. ''sAdhuveSa paherIne koI cora-stu luMTAro to nathI Avyo ne ?'' evo vicAra paNa karavAmAM na Ave. keTalA badhA harSa sAthe, keTalA badhA supAtradAnanA uchaLatA bhAva sAthe e baheno mane vinaMti kare. meM moMghI vastuo paNa mane niHsaMkoca banIne vahorAve. strIo parapuruSa taraphathI je ji 7 AzaMkA, avizvAsa, bhaya rAkhe..emAMnu kazuM ja ahIM jovA na maLe. jANe ke huM 7 emanA sagA bApa, sagA bhAI, sagA dIkarA karatA paNa emane mATe vadhu zraddheya, vadhu jJA maiM vizvasanIya banI rahuM chuM. paNa tyAre huM..? nA ya e baheno mane guru mAne, to mArI emanA pratyenI pharaja zuM ? zuM emanA tarapha vikAraSTi karavI e mane zobhe kharuM ? ta e bahenone mArAmAM pUyatAnA darzana thAya, to mAre teomAM zenA darzana karavA ? teo mArAmAM agAdha vizvAsa rAkhe, to zuM e vizvAsano ghAta karavo e mArI khAnadAnI che ? e mArI sAdhutA che ? teo gocarI-pANI vagere dvArA mArA para keTalo badho upakAra kare che, enI sAme AvA doSo sevIne zuM kRtaghna banavuM che ? e upakArano badalo vALavAne badale upakAronI ja hatyA karavI che mAre ? IEEE EEE FF00000000000 na S sa nA ya A pelA sthUlabhadrajI to vezyA sAme ya vikArardaSTi na kare, ke je vezyA emane evA ja malinabhAvathI jotI-jhaMkhatI hatI. jyAre huM ? vratadhArI-zIlasaMpanna-kulavAna strIo sAme vikArathI daSTi karuM ? vAto karavAnA bahAne mArI saMjJAnuM poSaNa karuM ? o arihaMta ! bacAva, bacAva tuM mane ! A bhA ma saM mArA karatA to pelA caMbalakhINanA DAkuo, luMTArAo, khUnIo paNa sArA ke jeo zatrunI strI para paNa kadI kharAba dRSTi na rAkhatA. jo potAnA sAgarIto evI pre koI harakata kare, to zatru srInA zIlanI rakSA mATe e sAgarItone motane ghATa utArI pre |kSa detA vAra na lagADatA. enI sAme huM konI sAme najara bagADuM chuM ? tIrthaMkarone paNa kSa pUjanIya evA zrIsaMghanA ja eka ghaTaka rUpa zrAvikAo upara ? A to saMghanI ghora Na Na 0000001 dRSTidoSa (51)

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biradadhArI nijAje nijatana rIpe. dhanate...para TikIma takhaloha samazrAvakane nijakAja kaThInata, ba = pa la E E F = = = = 'ka AzAtanA che. mane to teomAM mAtRtvanA - bhaginItvanA darzana thavA joIe, saMgha tarIke : pUjayatAnA darzana thavA joIe. ene badale...? mane koNa bacAvaze? huM sAmethI ja maravA paDyo chuM, pachI koNa mane bacAvI zake ? tu vaLI A doSanA nukasAno keTalA ! - mArI A kharAbadaSTi jo e bahenone khyAla Ave to ? atyAre to ghaNA A nA badhA loko catura hoya che. eTale mAtra mArI AMkha uparathI mArI malinavRtti spaSTapaNe ni, pakaDAI paNa jAya. ane jo ema thAya to teo zuM vicAre ? sAdhusaMsthAne dhikkAre ne? | A sAdhuo pratyeno sadbhAva hArI bese ne ? seMkaDo lokone teo kaheze ne ? ke "sAdhuo = pAse javA jevuM nathI. emanI najara kharAba che, emanI pAse dharma pAmavA jatAM moTA = adharmo khaDakAI jaze. ane A rIte keTalAya loko durlabhabodhi bane. dIkSAnI | = bhAvanAvALAo dIkSA letA aTakI jAya. mArI bhUlanA kAraNe pavitratama AkhI ya re sAdhusaMsthAnI vagovaNI thAya. sAMbhaLyuM che ke chApAomAM evuM lakhANa AveluM ke, "A = sAdhuo dIkSA bAda seMkaDo strIo para najara bagADe, enA karatA saMsAramAM ja rahIne # eka strI sAthe paraNIne rahyA hota to zuM khoTuM hatuM?" AvA lakhANonI pAchaLa mArA rU jevAnI adhamatA ja nimitta banI gaI haze ne ? - kahevata che ke "abrahmacArInuM ciMtavyuM kadIya saphaLa na thAya' bhale kAyAthI 9 pavitra houM, paNa manathI to...? ane to pachI koIpaNa kSetramAM mane maLaze mAtra E niSphaLatA ! mAruM puNya baLI jaze. kadAca pApAnubaMdhI puNyanA jore koIka saphaLatAo 3 | maLatI dekhAya, to ya enI pAchaLanuM bhaviSya to bhayAnaka ja haze. , A dRSTidoSa AvatIkAle AgaLa vadhe evI zakyatA pAkI ! bhAna bhUlIne A dha ko'ka gojhArIpaLe huM kAyika doSa paNa sevI besIza to? emAM jo pakaDAI jaIza to AI lokomAM mArI ghorAtighora niMdA thaze. loko mane mAraze, mArA kapaDA kADhI nAMkhIne ghara bhego karaze. zuM AvI hAlatamAM mArA mA-bApa-bhAI-bahena paNa mane rAkhaze sa kharA ? nA re nA ! AvA patitane to teo paNa dhikkAraze. kadAca mane rAkhaze to * me ya mArA tarapha emanI dRSTimAM aNagamo spaSTa haze. e pachInI mArI jIMdagI pazu kSa karatAya badatara banI raheze. Dhora majurI karavI paDaze mAre, mAruM peTa bharavA ! koI kSa ba strI mArA jevA patitane paraNavA taiyAra nahi thAya. je taiyAra thaze, te evI ja vicitra | 0 0 0 0 . ! IMATIOLaT dRSTidoSa 0 (52) III

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rekarbha te pApa anaMtA bAMdhe. dhana te..paNa sArAcAra sukhazIlatAthI padhAnI . ma. = 4 = 3-4 at 1. 5 : haze ke je mArA saMsArane saLagAvaze. ane A rItanI jIMdagI jIvyA pachI aMte ? : anaMtasaMsAra ja ne ? durgatio ja ne ? T - dhAro ke mAruM pApa na pakaDAya, to ya huM khAnagImAM guru pAse AlocanA : zuM karuM, to paNa mane chedAdinuM prAyazcitta Avaze. sAdhuo paraspara vAto karaze ke, "ANe na kaMI garabaDa karI lAge che ane chedaprAyazcitta apAyuM che..." Ama badhAnI najaramAM tA mArI tarapha zaMkAno kIDo saLavaLato dekhAze. nAnA sAdhuo paNa mArI avahelanA karaze. zI rIte jIravI zakIza AvI jIMdagIne ! jemAM Dagale ne pagale apamAnanA kaDavA | dhuMTaDA pIvA paDe... | - dhAro ke huM sAdhutAnuM khUna karIne, saraLatAne saLagAvI daIne, AlocanAne | aTakAvI daIne, niSphara banIne mArA pApo chupAvI dauM, na kahuM gurune ke na kahuM ! prAyazcittadAtAne ! to zuM huM bacI jaIza ? nA, nA, nA. A to AtmAmAM utpanna ra thayelo bhayAnaka roga che. jo gurune enI jANa na karAya, to e roga vakare ja, jAna - ka laIne ja jaMpe. arthAt jo huM doSanuM nivedana nahi karuM to kaMI e doSa zAMta nahi paNa paDe, e to vadhu jorathI jAgaze. mane pharI e ja pApo karavA preraze. chevaTe kyAMka kSa 3 to ughADo paDI ja jaIza. Akhare kyAM sudhI A pApo DhaMkAyelA rahe? e to chApare caDIne pokAra karavAnA ja. pachI ? gaccha, guru, sahavartIo koI mane bacAvI nahi zake. mAre A vAta barAbara samajI levI joIe ke jo rogI oparezana-Ijakezana- ra a davA vagerenA bhayathI DokTarane potAno roga na jaNAve, chupAvI rAkhe to e 8 chupADAyelo roga maTI na jAya. thoDoka samaya bhale e chAno rahe, paNa eka divasa e to e vakaravAno ja, e vakarelo roga badhAne dekhAvAno...paNa pachI eno koI ja A IlAja nathI hoto. pachI to DokTaroe paNa mRtyunA divaso ja gaNavAnA hoya che. ... ema huM kadAca mArA kAyikAdi pApone chupAvI paNa dauM ne ? to ya e lAMbA samaya sudhI chupA nahi ja rahe. e pApo vakaraze, vadhaze ane duniyAne narI AMkhe e | dekhAze. pachI to guru paNa mane bacAvI nahi zake. kadAca chApAomAM mArA phoTA | chapAze. mArA pApo pragaTa thaze, sarvatra "dhik dhik no dhvani mArA kAnone pIDA ApanAro ubho thavAno ja. - atibhayaMkara pApAnubaMdhI puNyanA pratApe kadAca anekAneka vAra pApo karavA ka ka sa ga za jo R 2 ka. 2 PI ' HADAK daiSTidoSa 0 (53) 10 IDIOT

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avidhinuM khaMDana vidhipAlana vidhibahumAna ne vidhimaMDana, ajoDa pravacanabhaktidhArI nizcayathI kare bhavakhaMDana. dhana te...54 na chatAMya huM na pakaDAuM evuM ya hajI kadAca bane, paNa maryA pachI ? huM to zAstro bhaNyo chuM. karmanA gaNita jANuM chuM, maraNa pachInI duniyA mATenI mArI lAcArI mane khabara mA che. durgationI bhayAnakatA meM sAMbhaLI che - vAMcI che. najaronajara nihALI che. ta S ta stu puruSabhAvano durupayoga karanArAone anaMtakALa mATe napuMsaka banIne tiryaMcomAM jIvavuM astu paDe e vipAka paNa zakya ja che. hA ! e badhI vAto khoTI che' ema mAnI lauM, to paNa mAtra mArI mAnyatAthI kaMI vAstavikatAmAM thoDo ja pheraphAra thavAno che ? me ji eTale ja jo A bhayAvaha nukasAnomAMthI mAre bacavuM hoya to koIpaNa bhoge 7 mAre mArA brahmacaryanI rakSA karavI ja rahI. e mATe mAre sau prathama dRSTidoSa TALavo 7 ja rahyo. kemake abrahmanI utpatinuM mULa kAraNa A dRSTidoSa che. je rUpAdi AMkhamAM zA pravezatA nathI. te rUpAdi manamAM ya pravezatA nathI. e uparAMta bIjI paNa ghaNI nA bAbatomAM mAre sajAga banavuM ja paDaze. sa ya ma + vRddhA ke yuvAna koIpaNa strI sAme mAre najara na nAMkhavI. najara bhUlathI paDI jAya to tarata ja najara pAchI kheMcI levI. e vakhate azucibhAvanA bhAvavI athavA to emAM mAtAno ke bahenano ja saMkalpa karI kharAba vicAro aTakAvI devA. + sUryodaya pUrve ane sUryAsta bAda upAzrayamAM koIpaNa strIno praveza thavA na devo. sagI bA maLavA Ave to paNa savinaya ene nA kahevI. + divasa daramyAna paNa ekalA bahenone upAzrayamAM na AvavA devA. vaMdana mATe ekalA AvatA bahenone sAdhvIjI bhagavaMta pAse paccakkhANa vaMdana mATe javAnuM jaNAvavuM. na + bhAIo sAthe baheno Ave to paNa teo maryAdAsabhara vastro paherIne Ave, e mATe zakya hoya to upAzrayanA daravAjA pAse borDa mukAvavuM ke 'bahenoe maryAdAsabhara vastro paherIne AvavuM...' A bha + sAdhvIjIo ane baheno sAthe patravyavahAra bilakula na karavo. FF #FFEE E F A bhA saM + chApAo, megejhIno vAMcavA ja nahi, ke jemAM kharAba phoTA-kharAba lakhANa Ave che. saM pre + vigaIo upara kAbu rAkhavo. arthAt bhale huM AMbila na karI zakuM, paNa zakya kSa eTalo vigaItyAga karuM. dUdha-ghI-mIThAI A badhuM brahmacaryano ghAta karanAra che. to mAre kSa cha e na levuM - zarIrane jarUra paDe to maryAdita pramANamAM levuM. rojeroja levAne badale Na ( dRSTidoSa 0 (54)

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patajinaAzA pALI mota ne mahAta kIdhA. dhana te...55 Aja lagI yamarAje muninA maraNa anaMtA kIdhA , - S It "E 45 -3-6-10 divasanA aMtare levuM. + + roja sthUlabhadrajI vagere mahApuruSone yAda karIne bhAvathI vaMdana karavA. emanI Da pAse nirmaLa brahmacaryanI prArthanA karavI. vartamAnamAM paNa mArA guru, mArA sahavartI vageremAM jeomAM mane nirmaLa brahmacarya spaSTa jaNAya, emanA pratye vizeSathI bahumAna dhAravuM. emanI vizeSathI sevA karavI. + roja derAsaramAM caityavaMdana bAda prabhu pAse khUba bhAvathI prArthanA karavI | tti ke, "prabho ! mArA brahmacaryanI rakSA karaje. mArI AMkhomA ya vikAra na pragaTe evI na, pavitratAnuM dAna karaje. tArI ane gurunI kRpA vinA A guNanI prApti azakya za che. tArI ane sadguruthI kRpA utare, to mArA mATe A guNa meLavavo ramata vAta che. zA = paNa prabho ! tuM kRpA karaje, tArA bALanI rakSA karaje...' + divasa daramyAna je koI kharAba vicAra AvyA hoya, je koI dRSTidoSa jAgyA B hoya, e badhAne rAtre yAda karI karIne hAtha joDIne e pApo badala hRdayathI kSamApanA :mAMgavI. micchA mi dukkaDanI Aga e pApo rUpI ghAsa para saLagAvavI. ane avasara pha maLe tyAre sadguru pAse nirdabhabhAve, nirlajja banIne e pAponI AlocanA karavI. 1 + sauthI agatyano upAya che satata svAdhyAyAdi yogomAM lIna rahevuM. manane eka ex 9 paLa paNa navaruM na paDavA devuM. enA para sakhata bojo mUkI devo. vikAronuM 8 uddabhavasthAna to chevaTe mana ja che ne ? bAkI badhA enA nimittakAraNo che. ane manane ? kAbumAM rAkhavAno ati mahattvano upAya che svAdhyAya ! adhyayana ane enAthI ya vadhu che # caDiyAtuM adhyApana ! basa, mAre A bene mArA jIvanamAM AtmasAta karI levA che. ka hA !. huM pratikramaNa-pratilekhana-vaiyAvacca vagere yogo to barAbara sAcavIza ja. || A svAdhyAya mATe e badhA Avazyaka yogomAM huM garabaDa nahi ja karuM. paNa e Avazyaka che yogo to AkhA divasamAM cAra-pAMca kalAkanA ja hoya che. AkhA divasamAM ochAmAM 7. ochA dasa-bAra kalAka to mArI pAse bace ja che. e badho ja samaya huM have svAdhyAyamAM | ja lAgI jaIza. eka miniTa to nahi, paNa eka sekaMDa paNa nahi bagADuM. huM have saM barAbara bhaNIza, bIjAone bhaNAvIza. kadAca koIka agharA grantho mane nahi AvaDe sa che to ya zuM? have to gujarAtI pustako paNa ghaNA maLe che, je khUba ja sarasa hoya che. e enAthI paNa e agharA grantho besI jAya. rAtre uMghatI vakhate paNa mArA mana para svAdhyAyano bojo hoya, 'hajI ATaluM bAkI JAI COMMITTT daSTidoSa 0 (55) IITIIIIIII

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halakA devo icche paNa apramattane kadI navi bAdhe, saMyamazakti anupamajoI sarvapramAdane kADhe, dhana te...pa6 che...' ema roja udhArakhAtuM ja cAlatuM hoya, eTalo sakhata svAdhyAya mAre karavo che. na mana to kharekhara DAhyuM che, kahyAgaruM che. jema koI sArA mANasane bhUkha lAge, to e bhojana mAMge ja. ene sAdu-zuddha bhojana maLe to e khAI le, peTa bharI le, stu mAMsa-abhakSya paNa khAvA na jAya. paNa bhUkha lAgavA chatAM bhojana na maLe, to chevaTe stu 'nasthi chuhAsamA veyA' e nyAye e mAMsa-abhakSya paNa khAI bese. doSa eno nathI, meM doSa ene bhojana na ApI zakanArAone che. 0000000000000 sa ji ema mAruM mana paNa sukha-saMtoSa-tRptinI bhUkha dharAve che. enI e bhUkha dUra ni |TM karavI e mArI pharaja che. huM ene jo adhyayana-adhyApanAdi zuddha bhojana khAvA ApI na zA dauM, to e badhuM khAIne mana zAMta thaI jAya che, pachI e kaMI mAMgatuM nathI, tophAna gA karatuM nathI. paNa huM ene bhUkhyuM rAkhuM, to to e bicAruM zuM kare ? pachI e bhUkhane lIdhe je maLe e khAvA lAge. e kAmavikAromAM lapeTAya, dRSTidoSamAM lapeTAya...badhuM ja bane. paNa emAM doSa eno nathI, doSa mAro che. mArI pharaja che ke mAre mArA bALaka samAna manane pUratuM bhojana-zuddha bhojana ApavuM. basa, ATalA upAyo huM have ajamAvIza. pachI ? kSa rA F" F huM banI jaIza sarvathA nirvikArI ! huM banI jaIza vizuddha brahmacArI ! huM banI jaIza hajAro lokone pavitratAnI bheTa ApanAra pavitra urjAno mAlika ! FEE F tot nA jo pelA nArado jhaghaDA karAvanAra, yuddhonA rasika, saMnyAsI banIne pharanAra hovA A chatAM mAtra eka brahmacaryanA pratApe mokSa pAme, to huM to jhaghaDAkhora-yuddhasika nathI, A tmA huM to have brahmacArI banI ja rahevAno. mArAmAM to bIjA paNa aneka guNo che, mokSa to e nArado karatA ya vadhu jhaDapI thavo joIe, ane thaze ja. mAro bha have koIpaNa bahenonA vizvAsano ghAta nahi karuM huM ! have koInI zraddhA para talavAra pheravavAnuM pApa nahi karuM huM ! kSa have koIne paNa durlabhabodhi banAvI denAra vikArardaSTino bhoga nahi banuM huM ! devAdhidevo - zAsanadevo - saMyamarAgI devo mArA sahAyaka bano. A thayuM dRSTidoSane laIne AtmasaMprekSaNa Na daSTidoSa (56)

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mAtAnA khoLe pocA, bALaka nirbhaya bane 'T F AjanA mAja F S S = = E E = = F | maLadvanirbhaya banI jAtA. aSTamAtanI gode ramatA, dugatithI na gabharAtA che. bharAta. dhana te...57 ( 7. doSa naM. 6 ahaMkAra (6) ahaMkAra : mArAmAM ahaMkAra che ke nahi? enI khabara zI rIte paDe? A IST tu badhA doSone kaMI zarIra nathI ke e narI AMkhe dekhAI jAya. A to AtmapradezomAM ta saMskArarUpe avaguNarUpe paDelA doSo che. # mane Ama to mArI jAta nirahaMkArI lAge che, kemake ahaMkArI mANasa to koIne | niA na name, e potAnA gurune ya na name. huM kaMI evo nathI. huM to guru pAse khUba ja ni ne namra banIne rahuM chuM. gurune roja bevAra vaMdana avazya karuM chuM. mArA vaDIlajanone paNa u| | roja vaMdana karuM ja chuM ne? e paNa aMdhArAmAM ke jematema nahi, paraMtu vidhipUrvaka vaMdana karuM chuM. # huM kaMI khabhA uMcA karIne ke chAtI bahAra kADhIne pharato nathI. are, koI mArI 4 prazaMsA kare, to paNa huM eka ja vAta kahuM chuM ke 'badhuM devagurunI kRpAthI che. mAruM kazuM : chuM nathI. mArI koI ja kiMmata nathI. A to devagurunI anahada kRpA mane maLI che... 4 eTale A zaktio vikasI che." zuM ahaMkArI mANasa AvuM bole kharo ? e zuM kAma 2 bIjAnI kRpAnI vAta kare ? e potAnA puruSArthane ane potAnI buddhine ja yaza na ka Ape ? e to ema ja bole ne ? ke "A saphaLatAo emane ema nathI maLatI. meM ka a mAruM tana nicovI nAMkhyuM che, rAtanA bAra-bAra vAgyA sudhI ciMtano karyA che. tyAre mane A badhI saphaLatAo svAdhyAyAdi kSetre maLI che.' paNa AvuM to meM kyAreya koIne 4 2 kIdhuM nathI. eTale mArAmAM ahaMkAra nahi hoya. - koI mane kahe che ke, "sAheba ! Apano rAga khUba ja madhura che. Apa je A ajitazAMti bolo cho, je stavano bolo cho... ame to DolavA lAgIe chIe. .. amArI jIMdagImAM ame Avo rAga sAMbhaLyo nathI. paNa e vakhate huM eka ja vAta karuM chuM ke, deva-guru pasAya !" - koI mane kahe che ke, "sAheba ! ApanA pravacano eTalA badhA dhAradAra che ke jema arjunanuM eka paNa bANa niSphaLa na jAya, ema ApanA ekapaNa pravacana niSphaLa |sa na jAya. eka paNa vAkyo niSphaLa na jAya. mArA jevAnA to hRdaya vIMdhAI jAya che. e kSA sAheba ! kharuM kahuM chuM ke mane to ApanA pravacano sAMbhaLatA dhrusake dhrusake raDavuM Ave & che. are, mAtra huM nahi, ghaNIvAra AkhI sabhA raDatI hoya che, mane to lAge che ke | ame jANe tIrthaMkaranI dezanA ja sAMbhaLI rahyA chIe." ane AvI behada prazaMsA bAda | TITLOOT ahaMkAra 0 (50) ITI ITI

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a no bArIkAIthI zodhe, mAragamAM temamuni jIvone najare najare noMdhe . henajare nodhe. dhana te...58 jema vepArI khovAyA ratno bArIkAIthI zoke , 3, pA pa pa la ke che 'la paNa meM kadI mArA vakhANa karyA nathI, meM mAtra eTaluM ja kahyuM che ke, devagurupasAya ! - koI mane kahe che ke, "sAheba ! Apa to gajabano svAdhyAya karo cho. ApanA : Da gurujI paNa ApanI khUba prazaMsA kare che. ghaNIvAra bole che ke A sAdhu to mAro hIro Da che, mArA grupano prANa che." Ape 10 hajAra gAthA gokhI che ? sAcI vAta ne ? / = bhAre kahevAya. pAchI badhI moDhe AvaDe. bApa re bApa ! ane huM to chellA mahinAthI je jouM ke Apa AkhA divasamAM kadI eka miniTa paNa bagADatA nathI. savAre pAMca - tti vAgyAthI rAtre agyAra vAgyA sudhI Apa apramatabhAve svAdhyAya karatA dekhAo cho. ti || AvI dhagazavALA sAdhuo meM to pahelIvAra joyA. ApanI aMtarmukhatA jabarI che zajo dIkSA lauM ne ? to ApanI pAse ja lauM. mane to ApanA jevA guru game." A paNa e vakhate ya mAro javAba eka ja hoya che devagurupasAya ! | - koI mane kahe che ke, "sAheba ! Apane paMdara varSathI akhaMDa ekAsaNA cAle | Na che? e vAta sAcI? ane emAM ya varSamAM dasa mahinA to AMbila ja karo cho ? - ra atyAre Apane 90mI oLI cAle che? ahoho ! sAheba ! upavAsanA pAraNe paNa 3 ekAsaNuM karo cho? ane pAchuM AMbila khAtAnuM levAnuM nahi, DhokaLA vagere badhuM baMdha ! a B mAtra roTalI-dALa-zAka-bhAta upara ja A badhI oLIo karo cho ? o bhagavAna ! re 8 Apano vairAgya to bhayaMkara che. amane to sAMbhaLatA ja cakkara Ave che. ApanI re 2 prazaMsA cAre bAju khUba sAMbhaLI che. vaLI, vihAramAM nirdoSa gocarI na maLe to ekalI para roTalI, ekalA bhAta vAparIne paNa calAvI levAnuM ApanuM sattva to cothA ArAnA 8 sAdhuomAM ja jovA maLe. amane to ApanA darzana maLyA, basa ! dhannA aNagAranA darzana maLyA. sAheba ! amane ya AziSa Apajo ke ame ya ApanA tapanA karoDamAM bhAga jeTalo tapa karIe to ya ghaNuM." ' ane ema bolatA bolatA e anumodako rItasara raDI paDe, mArA caraNe mAthuM | DhALI de... paNa tyAre ya mAro javAba eka ja devagurupasAya !" - koI mane kahe che ke, "sAheba ! Apa A be gharaDA sAdhuone je rIte sAcavo saM cho ne? e joIne to amane zAsana pratye anahada rAga pragaTe che. saMsAramAM sago so che dIkaro potAnA bApane na sAcave, eTalI badhI kALajI Apa A benI karo cho. Azcarya che. e to e che ke nathI A be gharaDAo ApanA ziSya ! nathI koI saMsArI sagA ! chatAM ja | mAtra gurue Apane ekavAra sUcanA karI ke "A gharaDAone koNa sAcavaze?' ane Ape ! ma niinInITIHAS ahaMkAra (58) minion :

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pahapanI vinA te karuNAsAgara dAkhyo. dhana te... 59 zima viNa bhASaka ghAtaka pakAyano bhAkhyo, nA bole muhapanI vinA te kaDa. mukhatrikAviNa bhASaka 4 = 3 4 5 eka paLamAM e vAta svIkArI lIdhI. ame to najaronajara ApanI vaiyAvacca nihALIe chIe. gharaDA sAdhune IMDila 1 5 thaI jAya, jhADA thaI jAya ane Apa bilakula dugaMchA karyA vinA badhuM jAte sApha karo !! tu cho. aThavADiyA pahelA ja meM joyeluM ke melerIyAmAM e gharaDA sAdhune ulaTI thaI, pyAlo | | najIkamAM na hato. to Ape to Apano hAtha ja dharI dIdho, e ulaTI laI levA !Ita sAheba ! huM to e dRzya joI paNa nathI zakato, jyAre Apa to sAkSAta Acaro | cho...kamAla ! kamAla ! . jo ApanA jevA 10-20 vaiyAvaccI paNa A zAsanamAM hoya ne ? to gharaDAo na | kadI asamAdhi na pAme. ApanA ziSyo hovA chatAM Apa svayaM ghasAI chUTo cho. zA | ziSyo upara badhuM kAma DhoLI detA nathI. | vaLI AvA prabhAvaka hovA chatAM, bhakto keTalAya maLavA AvatA hovA chatAM 4 9 e gharaDAo pAse jaIne aDadho-aDadho kalAka beso cho, emane AzvAsana Apo cho, = hasAvo cho, Apa to A maryaloka upara svargamAMthI utarelA masIhA cho, deva cho." = AvI sarvottama prazaMsA sAMbhaLavA maLI, chatAM meM kyAM mArI prazaMsA karI che ? ? # huM to mAtra eTaluM ja bolyo chuM ke, devagurupasAya !" - koI mane kahe che ke, "sAheba ! ApanI prabhubhakti to AMkhe uDIne vaLage evI che. Aje ja derAsaramAM meM Apane raDatA joyA. Ame ya ghaNIvAra meM Apane | derAsaramAM jhUmatA joyA che. Apa be hAtha UMcA karI, mAthuM DolAvI je rIte prabhu ? B sAthe vAta karo cho, e jotA to ema ja lAge ke ApanI sAme jANe ke sAkSAta 8 bhagavAna ja birAjamAna hoya. A vaLI amAre to aSTaprakArI pUjA karavAnI hoya, eTale kalAka saheje thaI jAya. A to jayAre Apa to mAtra stuti, caityavaMdanamAM ja roja kalAka-be kalAka mastIthI beso cho... e to Azcarya ja lAge. sAheba ! vidvAno - prabhAvako - tapasvIo - vaiyAvaccIo ghaNA joyA, paNa e badhAmAM prabhubhakti dekhAI na hatI. eTale ja e badhAmAM mane ghaNIvAra emanI * e zakti badalano ahaMkAra dekhAyo hato. ame paNa anubhavI chIe, bhale bolIe kazuM pre kSa nahi, paNa badhuM samajI laIe. prabhubhakti vinA kaMI ahaMkAra jato haze ? kSa. | Apa pahelA mane evA maLyA cho ke jemanAmAM ATalI badhI zakti che. chatAM Na ITI III IITnA ahaMkAra 0 (59) MANINAM

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aSAyanI jananI, bhUmidoSa paNa pariharI karatAM zuddhagocarIkaraNI, dhanate...ka doSitagocarI zubhamatinAzaka, viSayakaSAyanI jananI, che. 3, 5. kha ? 5 la 5 ya ka ahaMkAra mane dekhAyo nathI. enuM ekamAtra kAraNa ApanI prabhubhakti che. A mAruM : tAraNa che ane mAro anubhava kadI khoTo paDato nathI." Da ane mArI prabhubhaktinA vakhANa sAMbhaLatA sAMbhaLatA paNa meM kadI mArI | tta vizeSatA darzAvI nathI. bolyo chuM, mAtra eka ja vacana ! "devagurupasAya !' T - koI mane kahe che ke, "gaIkAle ApanA bA-bahena maLavA AvelA ne? chatAM te je Ape to maLavAnI ja nA pADI dIdhI. jabaruM kahevAya. Ape namratA sAthe paNa keTaluM che tti spaSTa kahI dIdhuM ke, 'tame ekalA kema AvyA? sAthe koI bhAI nathI ? huM tamArI sAthe vAta na karI zakuM are, sAheba ! huM to A joI coMkI gayo. Apano paryAya paMdara varSa ! Apa jAheramAM - holamAM ja beThelA. ApanI sagI bA ane sagA bahena ! chatAM | * ApanI A kaTTaratA ! e bA-bahene AjIjI karI, tyAre chevaTe Ape mArA jevAne tyAM besADIne paMdareka ra 3 miniTa vAto karI. paNa sAheba ! meM joyuM ke paMdara miniTa daramyAna Ape ekAdavAra = paNa bA-bahena sAme joyuM nathI. mArI sAme moDhuM rAkhIne ja vAta karatA hatA. = sAheba ! AvI brahmacaryanI kaDakAI meM kharekhara pahelIvAra joI. amArA saMsArIonI vAta javA do, paNa zramaNasaMsthAmAM paNa jyAre kALA kalaMko lAgI rahyA # hoya, tyAre Apa jevA muni to mane kalikAlanA sthUlabhadrajI ja lAgo cho. gaIkAlanA 8 prasaMga bAda AjathI huM Apane mArA gurupade sthApuM . basa, mane paNa ApanA jevo ; brahmacArI banAvajo ." AvA harSadAyaka zabdo sAMbhaLyA pachI paNa meM eTaluM ja kaheluM ke, "devagurupasAya ! A to deva-gurunI kRpAnuM phaLa che... bAkI mArA jevA AvA A brahmacArI na banI zake." A - koI mane kahe che ke, "sAheba ! Apane narI AMkhe prathamavAra jouM chuM. chatAM , parokSa rIte Apane seMkaDovAra maLI cUkyo chuM. Apano mArA para anahada upakAra thaI | cUkyo che. varSothI mArI IcchA hatI, Apane maLavAnI ! paNa cheka Aje mArI e | bhAvanA saphaLa thaI. T sAheba ! huM pApomAM cakacUra hato. moDhethI bolI na zakAya, hAthethI lakhI nAkhe | zakAya evA badatara pApomAM huM khUMpelo hato. adhaHpatana zabda paNa mArA adhaHpatana kSa sAme sAva vAmaNo lAge evI mArI durdazA hatI. zuM kahuM Apane ? sAheba ! A guNa w IIIIIIIIIM ahaMkAra (60) MINIST

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tA tyAM joI pramArjana thAya. dhana te....61 . grahoto, gaccha te tyAjya gaNAya, sarvavastu letA mukatA tyAM joI, paMjyA viNa jyAM daMDa mahAto.. 'F E E = "E 49 F E E F G | AjanA saMsAramAM je rItanA pApo vakarelA che, enuM varNana thaI zake ema nathI. Apane 3 to badhuM samajatA ja hazo. sAheba ! sAtamI nAraka paNa mArA mATe ochI paData, evA pApo..! paNa IS sAheba ! eka divasa mArA ghare acAnaka ApanuM pUrve pappAe kharIdeluM pustaka hAthamAM na AvyuM. kutUhalathI eka pAnuM vAMcyuM. kaMIka rasa paDyo ane khurazI para besI vAMcavAnuM | zarU karyuM. | sAheba ! zuM ApanI kalamano kasaba ! zuM ApanI saMvedanazIlatA ! zuM ApanI na padArthone raju karavAnI kaLA ! zuM ApanI zabda zabda jovA maLatI saraLatA - nikhAlasatA. ! 300 pAnAnuM e pustaka saLaMga 6-7 kalAka eka ja beThake huM vAMcI zaT Eaa gayo. khUba khUba raDyo. koI mane joI na jAya, e mATe bAraNA baMdha karIne raDyo. mAro rUmAla bhInobhI thaI gayo, paNa AMsuo rokAvAnuM nAma na le...sAheba !] bIjA ja divasathI meM mArA pApo lakhavAnA zarU karI dIdhA. eka ja saptAhamAM 200 pAnA lakhI nAMkhyA. eka AcArya bhagavaMta pAse badhI AlocanA lIdhI, zuddha thayo. 2 prAyazcitta vahana karI rahyo chuM. paNa te pachI mArA jIvananA tamAma pApo dUra pheMkAI gayA. Aje loko mane 2 dharmiSTha kahe che.. e mAtra ne mAtra ApanA pustakano prabhAva che. e pachI to ApanA ka DhagalAbaMdha pustako vAMcyA. ApanA pustakono eka kabATa meM mArA ghare rAkhyo che. B mitrone vAMcavA ApuM chuM. sAheba navA pustako lakho, vitaraNa karo to emAM pAMceka lAkha rUpiyAno 2 | lAbha levAnI mArI bhAvanA che, mane lAbha Apajo...." A ane mArA pustako para ApharIna pokArI janArA e yuvAnanI dardanAka kathanI e sAMbhaLyA bAda, mArI bharapUra prazaMsA sAMbhaLyA bAda paNa mArA moDhethI to e ja vAkya | nIkaLyuM ke ""devagurupasAya ! A badhuM mArA deva-gurunI kRpAnuM phaLa che." jo A badhuM vicAruM chuM to ema lAge che ke meM eka jabaradasta koTinI siddhi meLavI che, ahaMkAra nAzanI sarvottama sAdhanAmAM ! vaDIlo ane gurujanonA mukhe sa sAMbhaLyuM che ke, "doSono rAjA ahaMkAra che, rAjA mare to bAkInuM sainya bhAgAbhAgI che karavA mAMDe." ane kharekhara mAro ahaMkAra lagabhaga khatama thaI gayo lAge che, huM dhanya kSA banI gayo. dhanyAtidhanya banI gayo. E E F = 00000000000000 WITTTTTTTT ahaMkAra0 (1) 1aman

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laghu-vaDInIti avidhithI karatA zAsana hIlanA pAme. bodhidurlabhatA virAdhanA doSathI muni virAme dhana te...62 paNa, paNa, paNa... eka miniTa ! mAre koIpaNa nirNaya karavAmAM utAvaLa nathI karavI. jo bhUlathI ya huM bhramaNAno bhoga banIza, to to mAruM AtmotthAna kadI nahi thAya. gaIkAle ja meM peluM pustaka vAMceluM, jemAM e vAta lakhelI ke,'ApaNAmAM ahaMkAra che ke nahi, e jANavAnA upAyo...' meM e badhuM dhyAnathI vAMceluM. lAva, e upAyo pharI yAda karuM, mArA jIvanamAM e bAbato che ke nahi, e cakAsI lauM. basa, e pachI ja mAre nirNaya karavo che ke,'mArAmAM ahaMkAra che ke nahi.' stu ni e pustakamAM lakheluM ke na + tame koI sArA kAma karo, nAnI-moTI saphaLatAo meLavo, jAtane ghasI 6 gA nAMkho... chatAM e vakhate koI tamArA mATe thoDuM paNa sAruM na bole, tamArA e sArA kAmanI-saphaLatAnI-ghasArAnI koI noMdha na le... to tamane akaLAmaNa thAya che kharI ? sa nA ya 000000000 0 0 0 0 mA S tamane uMDe uMDe koIkanA tamArA mATenA sArA zabdo sAMbhaLavAnI apekSA rahe che kharI ? Na + koI tamArA sArA kAmanI prazaMsA to kare, paNa emAM vacce vacce be-traNa bhUlo dekhADe, e sudhAravAnuM kahe, to e vakhate AnaMda thAya che ? ke prazaMsA sAMbhaLavAthI utpanna thayela AnaMda rUpI mIThAImAM kaDaka kAMkarA jevI e hitazikSA lAge che ? arthAt e hitazikSA khUMce che ? e hitazikSA na apAI hota to vadhAre AnaMda ane e hitazikSA apAI eTale harSamAM ghaTADo... evo anubhava thAya che ? + koI tamArI bharacaka prazaMsA kare. tamArI mahAnatA varNave, koI hitazikSA na Ape... paNa e pachI tamArA sivAya bIjA koInI paNa e ja viSayamAM prazaMsA kare, emanI paNa mahAnatA varNave... tyAre tamane AnaMda thAya che ? tamArI jema e bIjI vyakti dvArA paNa anekono uddhAra thayo, e bamaNA harSanI vAta hovA chatAM e vakhate kheda-pazcAttApa to nathI thato ne ? tamArI prazaMsAnA zravaNathI ubho thayelo harSa ghaTI to nathI jato ne ? e bIjI vyaktinA kAryomAM doSo zodhavAnI IcchA to nathI thatI ne ? e bIjI vyaktinA kAryomAM doSo maLI jAya to ene pragaTa karIne e vyaktine halakI cItaravAnI malinapravRtti to nathI thatI ne ? A A bhA ma saM + evuM to nathI ne ? ke tamArI jAta ahaMkAra vinAnI che, e dekhADavA ane pre mithyA AtmasaMtoSa meLavavA mATe ja tame khUba namra bano cho, tame tamArI prazaMsA pre nathI karatA, tamArA nAma AgaLa vizeSaNo nathI lagADatA, tamArA sAmaiyA nathI kaDhAvatA, pATa choDI nIce ja beso cho, badhAne madhuratAthI AvakAro cho, nAnAne paNa kSa| kSa Na ahaMkAra 0 (62) re_z_e_E_FOL

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dha ne pAdika Apatti moTI. asaMyamakeruM phaLa jANI, sAdhe saMyamakITI , dhe saMyamakoTI. dhana te... 63 dharatIkaMpa, dukALa ne yuddhAdika Apatti moTI ' 3, 5 S { ba la pa 4P F = = ka = | - sanmAna Apo cho... | A badhA pAchaLa nirahaMkArI dekhAvAno, e rItanI prazaMsA meLavavAno to uMDe ? | uDe Azaya nathI ne ? arthAt tamArI nirahaMkAritAno ja tamane ahaMkAra nathI ne ? koI tamane kahe tu a ke "tame ahaMkArI cho' to khoTuM lAge che? gusso Ave che ? tamArI namratA sAbita rja karavA mATenI yuktio ApavAnuM mana thAya che? jo evuM hoya to nirahaMkAritAno jai ahaMkAra hovAnI zakyatA kharI: + svaprazaMsA karavI game, sAMbhaLavI game, phelAvavI game, koI phelAvo kare te game... >> - + paraprazaMsA karavI na game, sAMbhaLavI na game, phelAvavI na game, koI phelAvo ja kare to na game... + paraniMdA karavI game, sAMbhaLavI game, phelAvavI game, koI phelAvo kare to 8 game... 8 + svaniMdA karavI na game, sAMbhaLavI na game, phelAvavI na game, koI phelAvo 8 kare te na game... 2. hA ! AvA AvA upAyo e pustakamAM lakhelA hatA, ahaMkAradoSanI zodhakhoLa kara ra karavA ! nAnakaDA sUtra rUpe lakhAyelA e upAyo upara mAre ciMtana karavuM paDaze, e ciMtana dvArA mane khabara paDaze ke mArAmAM ahaMkAra doSa che ke nahi ? FR. - mAro rAga ghaNo sAro che, ema huM mAnuM chuM. jyAre jyAre huM gAuM chuM. tyAre tyAre lagabhaga badhA prazaMsA kare che. Ama jayAM prazaMsA thaI che, tyAM to meM A devagurupasAya' kahyuM che paNa mane e comAsuM yAda Ave che ke e comAsA daramyAna A bhAM huM ghaNA stavano bolyo, ajitazAMti bolyo. paNa koI mArI pAse AvI prazaMsA karatuM tya nahi. pratikramaNa bAda huM rAha joto ke "zrAvako trikALavaMdanA karavA Ave ane mArA | stavana-ajitazAMtinA vakhANa kare mane rItasara yAda Ave che ke huM trikALavaMdanA karavA ; AvanAra zrAvakanA moDhe kaMIka sArA zabdo sAMbhaLavA taDapato hato. paNa be-cAra | zrAvako to mAtra vaMdanA karIne nIkaLI gayA, kaMI ja bolyA nahi. aMte mArI dhIraja me kSa, khUTI gayelI, ane meM e pachI vaMdanA mATe AvelA zrAvakone pUchI lIdhuM ke, "AjanI kSa |Sa ajitazAMtinA rAgo to barAbara hatA ne ? kaMIka sudhAro karavA jevuM hoya to guNa ahaMkAra 0 (8) TALATI

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AwI 3, pa H. A ? 5 6 + IT Felleeeeeeeeeeee sArA savakiyAo vidhipUrvaka je karatA. deva jemanATakamAM riyAmAM lInatAne dharata kahejo ..." A zabdomAM ya kapaTagarbhita ahaMkAra ja hato ne ? jo huM ema pUchuM ke tamane gI Da mAro rAga kevo lAgyo ?" to huM mArA rAgano mAzuka chuM, ahaMkArI chuM ema jAhera IST tu thaI jAya. mAre mArI jAta evI dekhAvA devI na hatI, eTale ja "sudhAro karavA jevo nuM hoya to..." evI uMdhI bhASA meM vAparI. paNa e vakhate mAruM mana zuM jhaMkhatuM hatuM? "koI to mane sudhAro sUcave ane huM e rIte pheraphAra karuM' evI mArI bhAvanA hatI ? nA, je nA. kharekhara to A prazna dvArA e zrAvakonA moDhAmAMthI prazaMsAnA zabdo ubhA na | karAvavAnI, mArA svara vize teonA madhura abhiprAya jANavAnI lAlasA hatI. IT mATe ja to jayAre A praznanA uttaramAM e zrAvako bolyA ke "rAga sAro hato, | game tevo hato.." paNa e pachI vizeSa koI zabdo na bolyA, ubhA thaIne jatA IS rahyA. tyAre mane aMdara kheda thayelo ja ne? bhale emaNe rAgamAM bhUlo na kADhI, paNa IT evo umaLako paNa kyAM batAvyo? huM to evuM jhaMkhato hato ke teo mArA para varasI sa, paDe 'are, sAheba ! adbhUta ! adbhUta ! eka avarNanIya AnaMda amane thayo che, 8 8 A ajitazAMti sAMbhaLatA !.." paNa evuM kazuM na thayuM, eTale ja mAro utsAha maMda 3 paDI gayo ne ? emanA gayA bAda bIjA be-traNa zrAvako trikALavaMdanA karavA AvyA. e 3 sAmethI bolyA ke "Aje Apa ajitazAMti sArI bolyA, judA judA rAga besADavAnI para mahenata sArI karI che, Ape.." ane mAro AnaMda e zabdo sAMbhaLatI vakhate keTalo che badho vadhavA mAMDelo, paNa mane eka paLa bAda ja khabara paDI ke e hoMziyAra zrAvaka ra pANI pahelA pALa bAMdhI rahyo hato. koIne enI bhUlo dekhADavI hoya to thoDIka . prazaMsA karIne, Avarjita karIne bhUlo dekhADIe to e AghAta vadhAre na lAge. A| to kaDavI goLI mane kaDavI na lAge, e mATe suger cotted karIne e zrAvaka mane ApI rahyA hatA. tarata ja emaNe kahyuM ke, "paNa, sAheba ! AmAM ghaNA rogo tUTI jAya che. kyAMka mArI-macaDIne besADelA hoya evuM lAge che. kyAMka ekadama jhaDapathI bolavuM | sa paDe, kyAMka zabdomAM adhavacce toDaphoDa karavI paDe... prAsa barAbara besato nathI. ane saM che sAheba ! Apa jayAre uMce avAje bolavA jAo cho, tyAre Apano avAja nAkamAMthI che nIkaLato hoya evuM lAge che..." ane e pratyeka zabda mAro caDelo pAro utaravA lAgyo hato, eTaluM ja nahi , ja A A M ODI ( ahaMkAra(4) jI

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ahI bhInI AMkho luMchatA. dhana te..25 , dharatI para bhUkhyA tarasyA sutI, emavicArI karuNA lAvI bhInI AMkho ke, agaNitajIvo A dharatI para bhakhyAtara, la 5 x 3 4 5. paNa e zrAvaka pratye arucinI lAgaNI paNa pragaTavA lAgI hatI. hajI pAMca ja miniTa A pahelA "rAgamAM sudhAro karavA jevo hoya to..." evuM pUchanArA ane kharekhara koIe T sudhAro sUcavyo, tyAre ene saharSa svIkArI levAne badale huM kevo mijAja gumAvI beTho | sta hato. meM mAro bacAva karavA kaheluM ke "bhale rAga thoDo ghaNo tUTe, paNa A judA judA ju rAgo ja lokone priya bane che. tame jo prAsa pramANe gAvA jAo, to eka sarakho rAga ja bolavo paDe, emAM kaMI majA na Ave. ane nAkamAMthI avAja Ave che, e | to huM jANI joIne mAro rAga tINo karuM chuM. mane to evo khyAla che ke evo tINo | roga lokone khUba ja game che. chatAM emAM sudhAro karI laIzuM..." Ama bacAva karyA bAda vaLI mArI namratA dekhADavA meM kaheluM ke "tame sUcana karyuM, e sAruM karyuM. bIjuM paNa koI sUcana hoya to kahejo hoM !" paNa mane spaSTa lAge che ke paheluM sUcana paNa jo mane Aga lagADI gayuM, to mArI bIjA sUcananI mAMgaNI | { mAtra namratAno dekhAva karavA karatA vadhAre kaMI ja na hatI. tyAM vaLI eka zrAvaka Avyo, amArI ajitazAMti aMgenI vAto sAMbhaLIne ke eNe potAno anubhava raju karyo ke "sAheba ! phalANA mahAtmAnI ajitazAMti to AkhA jainasaMghamAM vakhaNAya che. emanuM ahIM comAsuM hatuM, to caudazanA divase emanI ajitazAMti sAMbhaLavA mATe ghaNA loko pratikramaNa karavA AvatA. amArI saMkhyA sAmAnya caudazo karatA doDhI thaI jatI. ane zuM emano laheko ! zuM emano bulaMda 2 svara ! zuM emanI gAvAnI paddhati ! ame to sAheba ! bhAna bhUlI jatA. dara caudaze 8 emanI pAse ja ajitazAMti bolAvaDAvatA.' - ' bicArA e zrAvakane kyAM khabara hatI ke e ajANatA mArA baLatA haiyAmAM dhI ! homavAnuM kAma karI rahyo hato. ane e vakhate e paraprazaMsA sahana na thavAthI huM kevo , niMdAnA kasuMbA ghUMTavA lAgI paDyo hato. meM kahyuM hatuM e vakhate ke "jo bhAI ! emano rAga sAro, e vAta sAcI ! | paNa e prazaMsavA jevo nathI. kemake e mahArAja pIkyaranA gItonA AdhAre ja badhA rAgo besADe che. e gItoya prAcIna hota to hajI samajayA. paNa bibhatsa zabdovALA e navA gItonA AdhAre e ajitazAMti bole che. mane ghaNAe phariyAda karI che ke e ! tra mahArAjanI ajitazAMti sAMbhaLatA amane e navA gIto, enA dazyo yAda Ave che, ' mana vikRta banI jAya che. have tame ja kaho ! zrotAone pApo ubhA karAvatI AvI .. ajitazAMtinI prazaMsA kema karAya ? che ahaMkAra 0 (5) HTTITUTION ja 2 ka. 2 ' ||

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aAve. Indrapujya banatA muninuM jIvana sahune zaramAve, dhanate . tikathA karatA munio tidukasura navi bhAve. IndrapUjya banatA maninuM jIvana. . 3, pA A . ga pa 6 = R H vaLI tamane khabara che ke potAno rAga ekadama sAro rAkhavA e mahArAja roja . | haLadara-mIThuMvALuM garamAgarama dUdha spezyala karAve che. A rIte saMyamamAM doSo lagADIne 11 | gaLuM sAruM rAkhavuM ane lokone khuza karavA e mokSamArga nathI. huM to kadI AvuM na 7 karAvuM. rAga thoDoka kharAba hoya, ADI-avaLo hoya to cAle... paNa ApaNuM saMyama ta sAruM hovuM joIe... paralokamAM saMyama ja sAthe Avaze, rAga nahi..." | mAruM A pravacana (!) sAMbhaLIne zrAvako cUpa thaI gayA hatA. paNa mane Aje tri spaSTa lAge che ke bhale kadAca mArI vAta sAcI ja haze, paNa e sAcI vAta bolavA pAchaLano mAro Azaya to cokkasa malina ja hato. | o mArA mAlika ! A badhuM yAda Ave che, tyAre pelI mArI bhramaNA bhAMgI zA 5 jAya che ke "mane ahaMkAra nathI. kemake ahaMkAranuM sUcana karI janArI, pustakamAM lakhelI | bAbato mArAmAM mane spaSTa dekhAya che. + Ano artha e che ke jyAre jyAre mane mArA rAga mATe behada prazaMsA sAMbhaLavA = # maLelI, tyAre tyAre huM mAtra devagurupasAya ! bolato hato, paNa e zabdo haiyAnA 9 ja nahi, mAtra hoThanA hatA. jamavA beThelA mANasane puSkaLa bhojana pIrasavAmAM Ave, 8 pelo khUba khAI khAIne dharAI jAya, ane pachI ene pharI mIThAI pIrasavAmAM Ave, to e nA pADI de, sArAmAM sArI mIThAI paNa na le... paNa eno artha e nathI ke 8 ja ke "e mANasa anAsakta che." bharapeTa khAdhA bAda bhojananI nA pADanAro para 3 anAsakta na mAnI zakAya, ema puSkaLa prazaMsA sAMbhaLIne dharAI gayelo huM pachI mAtra 2 'devagurupasAya !' bolIne aTakI jAuM, eTalA mAtrathI "mane mArI prazaMsA nathI ? gamatI, mane koI ahaMkAra nathI' ema kema mAnI levAya ? ' - bhUkhyo mANasa bhojana maLavA chatAM spaSTa nA pADe, peTa khAlI hovA chatAM mIThAI . vAparavAnI nA pADe... to manAya ke ene mIThAI pratye anAsakti che. bAkI puSkaLa |. mIThAI khAdhA bAda nA pADavAmAM zuM dhADa mArI ? ema hajI koI mArI prazaMsA zaru ja kare ane huM ene aTakAvI dauM ke "tamAre mArI hAjarImAM mArI prazaMsA nahi karavI. e mane ISTa nathI." athavA to mArI prazaMsA zarU thAya ke tarata e sthAna choDIne cAlyo jAuM, to mArI nirahaMkAritA hajI kahI che zakAya. paNa prazaMsAnA badhA ja zabdo sAMbhaLavA, peTa bharI levuM ane pachINa * = taka che AnnuIDIK ahaMkAra(6)

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hI nahi karato. paMcamahAvatI hAsyavikathA phogaTa zIda ne karatI? dhana doDha kIda ne karato pana te.., 60 samaju zrAvaka anarthadaMDanA pApa kadI nahi , 'la e che ke 5 IF IT E F F = devagurupasAya !' karavuM, emAM uDe uDe mArAmAM to mane garabaDa hovAno pAko - 2 ahesAsa have thAya che. bIjI vAta e ke peTa bharAI gayA bAda be mANasa vadhArAnuM bhojana jAte bIjAne ! tu Ape, apAvaDAve... e kaMI moTI vAta nathI. potAne bilakula maLyuM na hoya ke ochuM / | maLyuM hoya chatAM mANasa bIjAne Ape, apAvaDAve.. to e kharo dAnavIra kahevAya. ta jo ema mane vizvazreSThanuM biruda maLI jAya, prazaMsAthI mAruM peTa phATI javA jeTaluM rva ni bharAI jAya, ane e pachI huM boluM ke "bIjAno rAga paNa sAro che. mArAthI ya na na caDiyAtA ghaNA che..." e paraprazaMsA kaMI moTI vAta nathI. paNa mArA rAganI bilakula na prazaMsA na thAya athavA to sAva ja ochI thAya, tyAre paNa huM muktakaMThe, haiyAnA bhAva | sAthe bIjAnA rAganI bharapUra prazaMsA karI zakuM, koI prazaMsA karatuM hoya to hasatA haiye, IR | hasatA moDhe, hasatI AMkhe sAMbhaLI zakuM... to huM kharo nirahaMkArI gaNAuM... paNa AvuM mAre che ? nA, nA, nA ja. . o bhagavaMta ! paramezvara ! tAraNahAra ! nAtha ! khUba khUba khUba upakAra tAro mAnuM chuM ke bhale mArAmAM ahaMkAra che. paNa "huM E 3 ahaMkAra vinAno chuM." evI mArI bhramaNA bhAMgI nAMkhavAmAM teM mane sahAya karI che. == E mArI namratAmAM chupAyelA mArA ahaMkAranA darzana karavAnI atIndriya AMkho teM mane ApI che. mithyA kalpanAonA AkAzamAM uDatA mane vAstaviktAnI dharatI para teM ja = hemakhema utAryo che. ==. jo mArA gaLAnA rAga aMgenI A samajaNa sAcI che, mArI jUnI samajaNa khoTI 1 che. to e ja rIte vaiyAvacca - svAdhyAya - zAsana prabhAvanA - lekhana - saMyama - brahmacaryAdi aMgenI paNa mArI jUnI samajaNa jhAMjhavAnA jaLa jevI to nahi hoya ne? A mAre Aje e badhuM vicArI ja levuM che. mArI jAtanuM cokhuM darzana karI ja levuM bha che. prabhue jo mane atIndriya AMkho ApI ja dIdhI che, to Aje mAre eno | sadupayoga karI ja levo che. - pajusaNamAM gurujInA kahevAthI anyasaMghamAM pravacana karavA gayo. sAthe eka sAdhu - gurujIe ApelA paNa e pravacanAdi kare evA na hatA. badhuM meM ekale hAthe saMbhALyuM. mi kSa ATha divasanA satata pravacanothI loko khuza thayA. mArI bharapeTa anumodanA karI. mane sa @ bIjA comAsA mATe vinaMti karI. mArA gurujI pAse jaI khUba karagaryA... Akho saMgha Na 1000 1000 8aa CuminInIIIMAG( ahaMkAra 7 (ka)

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svAdhyAyAdika yogothI pragaTyA je zubhapariNAmo, tenA mAraka hAsyavikAnA, svapna na karatA kAmo. dhana te. 68 gAMDothelo thaI gayo... meM to badhuM gurunI kRpA para ja DhoLeluM. paNa S ta oLImAM eka bIjA sAdhu mArI sAthe AvyA, gurujInA kahevAthI amAre aDadhAstu aDadhA vyAkhyAno karavAnA hatA. mArI kasoTI have thaI. e bIjA mahAtmAnA su vyAkhyAno paNa sArA thayA. loko emanA paNa vakhANa karavA lAgyA. emanI pAse besavA lAgyA, emanA vyAkhyAnamAM rasika banavA lAgyA... A badhuM mane na gamyuM. sma ni mArA vyAkhyAno paNa sArA thatA hovA chatAM e sAdhu mane pratispardhI lAgyA. emanA ni 7 mATe saMgha sAruM bole, gurujI pAse jaI emanI paNa prazaMsA kare e mane ISTa na hatuM. 7 IT zrAvako to potAnI ruci pramANe baMne bAju bolanArA maLavAnA. keTalAka zrAvako sa nA 5 mastI Ave che. emanA pravacana zaru thAya eTale uMgha ja AvavA lAge che...' ane 5 mane e niMdAzravaNamAM rasa paDato. huM bolato ke 'e hajI navA che. eTale vyAkhyAnanI AvaData na hoya e svAbhAvika che... bAkI to mArA karatA ya vadhAre sakSama che...' paNa mArA manamAM to emanI A alpazaktino AnaMda ja thayelo ne ? mane kahetA ke sAheba ! emanA vyAkhyAnamAM majA nathI AvatI, ApanA vyAkhyAnamAM FFF #FFFFF keTalAka zrAvako mane kahevA AvyA ke 'sAhebajI ! A nAnA sAdhunA vyAkhyAna khUba ja tAttvika hoya che. amane khUba majA paDe che. e rAtre paNa vyAkhyAna Ape, to amane majA paDe. ame emane vinaMti karI. paNa e vinayI che, e ApanI rajA levAnuM kahe che. basa, Apa rajA Apo...' mArA peTamAM dIvela reDAyuM. sUDI vacce sopArI jevI mArI hAlata thaI. 'hA pADavI, emanA bamaNA pravacano thavA devA... e ya mane kema game ? to nA pADIne zrAvakonI najaramAM nIcA utaravAnuM paNa kema paravaDe ? ta H A A bha bha aMte meM kevI cAlabAjI karI. 'juo, atyAre e bhaNe che, emane mAtra aDadho kalAka prekTIsa karavA mATe ja vyAkhyAna ApyuM che. ApaNe emane taiyAra thavA devA joIe. to ja e bhaviSyamAM mahAna prabhAvaka bane. tamAre kAcI kerInuM kasUMbara karavuM saM che ? ke pAkI kerIno rasa kADhavo che ?' ane meM vyAkhyAna uDAvyuM. paNa mArI A pre pravRttimAM uDe uDe to ahaMkAra ja hato ne ? mATe ja to mArA karatA e sAdhu AgaLa saM kSa vadhyo. eTale mAro ahaMkAra ghavAyo ane eTale ja enA vikAsane rUMdhavAnA prayatno meM karyA. mArA puNyodaye (!) huM saphaLa paNa thayo. Na ................................. ahaMkAra (68) O kSa TA

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agItArathane eka zabda paNa bolavo zAstra rokyo zuddhagItAratha paNa kAraNa viNa, maunadharo avalokyo. dhana te...29 evA to keTalA badhA prasaMgo ! guru jyAre mArA vyAkhyAnanI badhA AgaLa prazaMsA kare, tyAre huM 'ApanI kRpA ma S che, mAruM kazuM nathI' ema bolato. paNa guru jyAre bIjA vyAkhyAnakAranI khUba prazaMsA stu karatA, tyAre mane e kyAM gamatuM hatuM ? mane ema ja vicAro AvatA ne ? ke 'guru stu khoTe khoTI prazaMsA kare che. koIe khoTI rIte gurune emanI vyAkhyAnanI vAto moTI karIne kIdhI lAge che...' ta A IF kyAreka to mArA AtmAnA mithyAsaMtoSa mATe huM ema vicArato ne ? ke 'e na maiM to e sAdhune khoTuM na lAge, mATe gurue mazkA mAravA paDe che. bAkI guru paNa jANe zA che ke enA vyAkhyAnamAM keTalo dama che !' sa p #___ __FFFF nA mane vyAkhyAna karavA maLatuM, eTale huM rAjI rAjI thato. paNa emAM jyAre bIjA 5 sAdhune aDadhuM vyAkhyAna ApavuM paDatuM, tyAre mane bilakula na gamatuM. kemake mArA ya ahaMkAranA poSaNamAMthI aDadho bhAga ocho thavAthI mAruM ahaMkAranuM peTa khAlI rahI jatuM hatuM. ta 00001 smai mArA vyAkhyAna vakhate keTalAka zrAvako ane zrAvikAo noTamAM mArA vAkyo utAratA joIne mane AnaMda thato. 'mArA vAkyo keTalA kiMmatI che.' ema mane lAgatuM. paNa je divase khabara paDI ke 'e gRhastho to atyAra sudhImAM AvA so-baso vyAkhyAnakAronA vAkyo potAnI noTamAM TapakAvI cUkyA che. emano A svabhAva ja banI gayo che.' tyAre mArA vAkyo bIjA so-basonI sAthe samAna thaI jatA mAro AnaMda kevo osarI gayo hato ! emAM vaLI meM te noTo jovA lIdhI, emAM jUnA pravacanakAronA DhagalAbaMdha vAkyo ane mArA pravacananA ochA vAkyo TapakAyelA dekhAyA, e paNa mane dajhADanAruM baneluM ne ? zuM mArA vAkyo eTalA aphalAtUna nathI ? A mArA pravacanamAM kyAreka lAgaNIzIla banIne huM bolato, e sAMbhaLI sabhA raDatI... e joI mane paNa raDavuM AvatuM. 'zAsana jayavaMtu che, keTalA haLukarmI AtmAo A zAsanamAM che. kevA raDI paDe che !' vagere vicAro AvatA. mane tyAre x ema lAgeluM ke A mAro zAsanarAga che dharmarAga che. mATe ja to dharmane pAmatA saM pre lokone joIne mane AnaMda thAya che ne ? seMkaDo aThThAI-aTThamo thAya, hajA2o AMbilo- | pre ekAsaNAo thAya, seMkaDo upadhAno thAya... A badhuM joI mane harSa ubharAI Ave e mAro dharmarAga ja che ne ? kSa kSa - ahaMkAra (69) " bha

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vyAkhyAnI tapasI svAdhyAyI saMyamI che huM sAdhu" AtmaprazaMsA paranI niMdA karatA jIvana virAvuM. dhana te...70 na mA S paNa jo kharekhara mArAmAM dharmarAga ja hota, to jyAre mArA nAnA-moTA gurubhAIonA pravacanomAM paNa loko khUba-khUba raDyA, rItasara DusakAnA avAja saMbhaLAyA... e badhI mane khabara paDI, tyAre mane kema AnaMda na thayo ? mArA TM sahavartIonA pravacano dvArA mArI apekSA karatA doDho tapa thayo, doDhA upadhAna thayA, stra doDhA AMbilAdi thayA... e vakhate kema mAruM mana-moDhuM karamAI gayA ? jo mane kharekhara dharmarAga hota, to to e bIjA sAdhuo dvArA je dharma phelAyo, emAM mane doDho AnaMda thavo ja joIe. paNa mane evo AnaMda nathI thayo, e to huM khuda jANuM ja 7 chuM. to zuM pelo dharmarAga bogasa ! pelo dharmarAga hakIkatamAM ahaMkAranA poSaNa nAmanA nA caherA uparano mahoro hato ? ke jethI pAchaLa rahelo cahero mane na dekhAyo ? ji sa nA ya na mA ta pelA comAsAmAM kevI bhUla meM karelI ? mArAthI eka ki.mI. dUra bIjA saMghamAM bIjA koI pravacanakAra hatA. emanA pravacanomAM be-traNa hajAra mANasa bheguM thatuM. hola nAno paDato, bIjI bAju mArA pravacanamAM 400-500 mANasa hatuM. hola moTo paDato. mArA saMghamAMthI paNa keTalAya gRhastho eka ki.mI. dUra tyAM pravacana sAMbhaLavA jatA. e pachI mane maLavA AvanArA e zrAvako muktakaMThe e bIjA sAdhunA pravacananI anumodanA karatA. bhoLA loko samajatA na hatA ke 'teo mane ajANapaNe uzkerI rahyA che.' ane eka divasa mArA pravacanamAM meM e pravacanakAranI ADakatarI rIte kevI niMdA karI ! ma IF P na zA sa nA ya deododend A "sAdhuoe mokSamArganI dezanA ApavAnI che. lokone hasAvavA-raDAvavA e lokaraMjana sAdhu mATe ucita nathI. evA lokaraMjana to ajaina saMnyAsIo ghaNA kare che. paNa zAsananuM kamabhAgya che ke zAsananA ja sAdhuo lokaiSaNAmAM taNAI jaIne lokone khuza karavA mATe mokSamArganI dezanA choDI jokso-vArtAo vagere para utarI gayA che. paNa e badhuM barAbara nathI. saMkhyAnI paravA karyA vinA mokSamArganI ja dezanA ApavI joIe. A bAbatamAM huM ekadama kaTTara chuM, be mANasa Avaze, to cAlaze bha paNa zAstrIyadezanA choDavAnI mArI taiyArI nathI. ame jinAjJAne vaphAdAra chIe, A saM mUrkha lokone nahi....' vagere vagere bolelo, sAMbhaLanArAo samajI gayelA ke A saM pre badhuM pelA eka ki.mI. dUra rahelA vyAkhyAnakArano virodha karavA rUpe ja bolAyuM che. paNa e badhA zuM bole ? pre kSa kSa ja paNa zuM mArI A vAta sAcI hatI ? huM ya zAstro bhaNyo chuM. lokone AkarSavA Na mATe AkSepaNI kathA karavAnuM zAstromAM kahyuM ja che, e huM jANuM ja chuM ne ? to pelA IT ahaMkAra 7 (90) A da

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rahIne bole, te munivara malakAto, dhana te... 71 pachI vicAryA viNa bole, te asaMzI kahevAto buddhi trAjave tolIne bole, IT 'E >> E - vyAkhyAnakAre zuM khoTuM karyuM ? re ! upamitibhavaprapaMcI kathAmAM meM ja vAMcyuM che ke "zrotAne dharmamAM rasa paDato na hato, to gurue artha-kAmanI mIThI mIThI vAto karIne ene ? AkarSyA, ane pachI dharma pamADyo." to e vaktA paNa e rIte kaMIka karatA hoya to | tuM khoTuM zuM ? * vaLI huM pote paNa badhAne pravacanamAM rasa paDe e mATenI vArtAo - muddAo zodhuM jo ja chuM ne ? to mArAmAM lokeSaNA na kahevAya? kharI hakIkata have spaSTa samajAya che tti ke mArA vyAkhyAna karatA e muninA pravacano caDaDyA, mAro ahaMkAra ghavAyo, mArA Raa aramAno bhAMgI paDyA eTale huM chaMcheDAyo, eTale ja meM pelA muninI niMdA karI. | hA ! have to spaSTa khyAla Ave che ke mArAmAM vyAkhyAnano ahaMkAra kevo che? keTalo | = E IS 5 E F to zuM svAdhyAya bAbatamAM paNa mArI A ja dazA che ? gurae tapasvInA tapanI bharapeTa anumodanA karI, mArA aghora svAdhyAya mATe : kazuM na bolyA. tyAre mane vicAra Avelo ne ? ke "gurunI gItArthatAmAM khAmI che. # oLIo - mAsakSapaNo e bAhyatapa che, svAdhyAya e atyaMtara tapa che. zAsana # tapasvIo nahi, svAdhyAyIo calAvavAnA che. jo guru A rIte tapano ja mahimA 3 gAze, to badhA e tapasvInA ja cAhaka banaze. AmAM mane to vAMdho nathI. paNa zAsananuM zuM thaze ? mArA jevA svAdhyAyIoe khUNAmAM besavuM paDe e to ThIka, paNa ja B enI sAthe sAcuM zAsana paNa khUNAmAM ja samAI jAya e keTaluM bhayaMkara ! paNa gurune 3 ke koNa kahe ? ThIka ! jevI bhavitavyatA !" - kharekhara to huM svAdhyAyI ! huM badhA karatA mahAna !" e mAro ahaMkAra ja mane AvA vicAro karAvI gayo. eka vAra vaDIla munioe mane pAse besADIne kaheluM ke "tame ajoDa svAdhyAyI cho, tame keTalAyane bhaNAvo cho ! bhaviSyamAM paNa tamArA dvArA keTalAya loko taiyAra thaze. tamArA mATe amane gaurava che. ame to ghaNIvAra tamArI muktakaMThe prazaMsA karIe chIe." - ATalo dUdhapAka mane pIvaDAvyA pachI mane kaDavA lImaDAno rasa pIvaDAvavAno zaru karyo 'paNa tamAre be-traNa bAbatomAM sudhAro karavAnI jarUra che. tame svAdhyAya mATe | mAMDalInA kAmamAM veTha utAro, e kema cAle? kyAreka ekanA be kAma karavA paDe tyAre guNa : * AAAAAAAAAAM ahaMkAra (1) In million

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sAcI paNa parapIDAkArI vANI judI bhAkhI hita-mita-prItikArI vANI sAcI jinajIe dAkhI. dhana te...72 moDhuM bagADI do e kema cAle ? vaLI ApaNA grupamAM vaDIlo-vRddho che. tame bhale sevA na karo. kemake tamAro viSaya alaga che. paNa kamasekama AkhA divasamAM ekAda vA2 emanA paDilehaNAdimAM to hAjarI ApavI ja joIe ne ? AmAM tamAruM ja hita che. stu nahi to tame grupamAM priya nahi bano...' ane dUdhapAkanA pAnathI prasanna baneluM mAruM mana-mukha e vakhate lImaDAnA rasanA # pAnathI kevuM karamAI gayuM hatuM, bagaDI gayuM hatuM. vaDIlo sAme javAba na Apyo, paNa sma "mArA svAdhyAyanI A badhAne IrSyA Ave che, vaDIlone mAro vikAsa khaTake che, mArI 7 pAse emaNe sevA levI che. mATe ja mane A badhuM kahe che." evA vicAra mane AvelA |aa ja ne ? H sa nA ya 11111111111111 FF"FFFFFF svAdhyAyano ahaMkAra na hota to emanI zikhAmaNa mane madha jevI mIThI lAgata. paNa mane e lImaDo lAgyo, kaDavo jhera ! kSa Na pelA divase rastAmAM samudAyanuM ja bIju grupa pahelIvAra maLeluM. teo paMdara sAdhuo ! ame pAMca ! e sAdhuo bolelA ke 'tamArA svAdhyAya vize ghaNI ghaNI vAto sAMbhaLI che.' tyAre meM kaheluM ke 'kaMI nathI, e to badhuM deva-gurunI kRpAthI cAle che.' paNa mArA sahavartIe mAro guNAnuvAda zaru karI dIdho. 'are ! A mahAtmAnA svAdhyAyanI to vAta ja na karo. rAtre traNa vAge uThIne pATha kare. divasamAM bAra kalAka bhaNe. cAlu vihAramAM paNa padArthonuM ciMtana kare. bhaNAvavAnI AvaData to bejoDa...' askhalitadhArAe e anumodanA cAlelI. e vakhate meM ene kema na aTakAvyo ? huM tyAMthI ubho thaIne jato kema na rahyo ? enI A vANI mane madha jevI mIThI kema lAgelI ? e vakhate mAruM mukha malakAvA kema lAgeluM ? e muni be-cAra mahattvanI bAbato kahevAnI bhUlI gayA, to meM ADakatarI rIte mArI e vAto 2ju ka2I ja dIdhI. enuM zuM kAraNa ? huM e vakhate bolelo ke 'deva-gurunI kRpAthI have stavano - sajajhAyo banAvavAmAM paNa khUba pakaDa AvI gaI che. saMskRta zloko paNa banI jAya che. bhaviSyamAM saMskRta grantho lakhavAnI bhAvanA che. A to guruvaryoe mane vyavasthA karI saM ApI, eTale mArA 45 Agamo vaMcAI gayA. bAkI na vaMcAta... upakAra badho ja saM pree guruvaryono che.' guruvaryonA upakArane yAda karavAnA bahAnA heThaLa meM mArI pre zaktio, svAdhyAya kevo hoMziyArIpUrvaka darzAvI dIdhelo ! A A ma bhA kSa "tamAre cheda grantho vaMcAI gayA ?" sAmethI sAdhuoe prazna karyo, ane mane 2: 11111 1111 ahaMkAra (02) nA ya IIIIIIIIIIIII

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nA AgrahathI sumapRSA paNa je navi bole, vacanasiddhi saMgrahaNIdhana mAyAthI, ke hAsyathI, bhayathI ke paranA AgrahathI , 'IT F T F garbhitarIte mArI prazaMsA karavAno pharI avasara maLI gayo. "Ama to nAnA paryAyamAM , - e grantho vAMcavA na maLe. paNa koNa jANe? mArA guruvaryone mArAmAM koIka pAtratA | | dekhAI haze, eTale teoe sAmethI mane chedagrantho vAMcavAnI chUTa ApI. eTaluM ja IT 7 nahi, jAte ja vAMcavAnI paNa chUTa ApI. mAro bhAgyodaya ke huM guruvaryono vizvAsa nuM jItI zakyo. e pachI to eka-be vAra cheda bhaNAvI paNa dIdhA. emAM eTalA badhA , navA navA ciMtano prApta thayA, ke na pUcho vAta ! badhuM lakhI rAkhyuM che." zrotA munio bicArA bhoLAbhaTTajI hovAthI mArA tarapha bhAre ahobhAvanI ni lAgaNI dharAvavA lAgyA, zuM khabara paDe emane? ke mAnakaSAye mArA para kevI kapaTajALa bichAvIne mane emAM phasAvI dIdho che. A to Aje AtmasaMpreSaNa karuM chuM, tyAre zA - bhAna thAya che ke e mArI kapaTavRtti pAchaLa ghorAtighora ahaMkAra ja paDelo hato. IF e ja vakhate sAmenA grupanA vidvAna munie jijJAsAthI keTalAka prazno pUchelA. IT Na huM guMcavAI gayelo, javAbo spaSTarUpe mArI pAse na hatA. paNa have jo javAba na ApI ke B zakuM, to mArI vidvAna tarIkenI chApanuM zuM thAya? ane meM ADA-avaLA javAbo ApI 3 chaTakavAno prayatna karelo, paNa pelo vidvAna sAdhu dhAryA karatA vadhu catura nIkaLyo, eNe 3 sAcA bhAvathI sAcA prazno cAlu rAkhyA. mArA javAbo koIne paNa saMtoSadAyaka | lAgatA na hatA. thoDIvAranI carcA bAda mane khyAla AvI gayo ke "AmAM mArI hAra tra nizcita che..." chatAM e svIkArI levAne badale "Ano mane khyAla nathI." e 2 saraLatA, namratA dAkhavavAne badale meM javAba dIdho "juo ! A viSaya ghaNo uMDo re re che. Ama uparachallI vAtothI enA khulAsA ApavA agharA che. tame rItasara mArI ER pAse bhaNo to kramazaH badhI zaMkA dUra thAya. bAkI addharatAla praznottarImAM krama na jaLavAya to saMtoSa kema thAya ?" ane meM e rIte emane bolatA baMdha karyA. kevo bhayaMkara ahaMkAra mAro ! khoTo huM, chatAM meM emane sAbita karyA ajJAnI " tarIke ! alabatta e badhA mArI A cAlAkI samajI ja gayA haze, paNa rAjAne koNa * kahe ke "tAruM moDhuM gaMdhAya che." enA jevI dazA ubhI thaI hatI. se jyAre paNa koI moTA prasiddha vidvAno maLe, tyAre huM emane judA judA granthonA saM aneka prazno pUchuM chuM. guMcavADAvALA ane jaldI ukela na maLe evA e prazno puchavA che. % pAchaLa mAro Azaya atyAra sudhI to huM ema ja mAnato hato ke "mArI zaMkA dUra 0% karavAno hato. paNa mane Aje ema lAge che ke e praznono javAba vidvAnone paNa ' Apavo bhAre paDe. teo muMjhAya, meM ApelA joradAra pATho joI Azcarya pAme, mArI | IIIIIIIIIIT ahaMkAra 0 (03) DITIATI. T TTTTTT 5 x 3 1 02 - 2 g

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haiyA cIratA niSThura vacano je nirdaya uccAre karmarAja jIbha chinavI sthAvara nAraMka karIne mAre, dhana te...74 vidvAna tarIkenI gherI chApa emanA para paDe... evI ja koIka malinavRttio mArA na manamAM hatI. mATe ja to jyAre teo bolatA ke 'tame to ghaNuM uMDu ciMtana karyuM che.' mA tyAre mane kevo AnaMda Avato. e vAta mArA gurune huM kaheto. re ! e vidvAno guru S stu AgaLa mArI bharapeTa prazaMsA kare, evI apekSA mane rahetI. ane evuM thatuM to huM su gAMDodhelo banI jato. ta FE_F ta sa paNa jyAre koIka vidvAnoe mArA praznonA jaDabAtoDa javAba paLavAramAM ApI maiM ; dIdhA, mArI keTalIka samajaNamAM bhUlo dekhADI, zeranA mAthe savAzera jevA mane 7 maLyA... tyAre huM kevo jhaMkhavANo paDI gayelo ? jo mane jJAnapipAsA hota, to mArI aa zaMkAonA spaSTa samAdhAna maLI javAthI mane AnaMda ja thAta, paNa mane to kheda zA thayelo, mAruM moDhuM nisteja banI gayeluM... Ano artha zuM samajavo ? mane mArA nA praznonA uttaro meLavavAmAM rasa na hato, paNa bhalabhalA vidvAno paNa mArA praznonA ya uttara na ApI zake... evuM jovAmAM mane rasa hato, jyAre e na banyuM, tyAre mAro jIva becena banI gayo. kemake mAro ahaMkAra tUTI-phUTI jato hato. ane e pachI jayAre e vidvAnoe mArA guru AgaLa mArI phariyAda karI ke 'tamArA ziSyano bodha kAco che, emanA prazno parathI ja aMdAja AvI jAya che ke te hajI zAsrIya vyavasthAone, paddhatione, rahasyane samajyA ja nathI. emaNe ghaNo puruSArtha karavo jarUrI che...' tyAre e zabdo sAMbhaLIne huM kevo duHkhI duHkhI thaI gayelo. mane dharatImAM daTAI javAnuM mana thayeluM. koIpaNa sAthe vAtacIta karavAnA mArA hoMza uDI gayelA... pAMcasAta divase enI asara ochI thatA mAMDa mAMDa svastha thayo hato. 1111111000 [P FEE Foodont have khyAla Ave che ke mArA svAdhyAyanI - vidvattAnI bejoDa prazaMsA sAMbhaLyA bAda mArA moDhAmAMthI nIkaLelA 'devaguru pasAya !' zabdo keTalA vAhiyAta, zaktihIna, saMmUcchimavacanatulya hatA. A bha na A ja rIte 'meM tapa mATe paNa keTalI badhI DaMphAza hAMkI. mArA svajanone khabara na hatI ke huM 98mI oLI karI rahyo chuM. mAre emane jaNAvavAnI IcchA hatI ja, saM paNa e IcchA evI uMDI hatI ke huM ja ene samajI zakato na hato. eka divasa svajano | saM maLavA AvyA ane mane pUchayuM ke 'ApanI tabiyata to sArI rahe che ne ?' ane e ! pre takano lAbha laI meM mArI tapayAtrAnuM varNana karI ja dIdhuM. 'tame ema nahi mAnatA ke saMsAramAM ja zarIra sAruM rahe, saMyamajIvanamAM bagaDI jAya. saMyamano prabhAva aparaMpAra che. Aje paMdara varSa thaI gayA mane dIkSA lIdhAne ! emAMthI tera varSa to meM AMbila ........................... ahaMkAra 7 (04) kSa kSa Na Na A bha

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vana paNa sonuM agnitApita koNa svIkAre ? dhana te...75 ntabatithI hitakArI paNa kaTuka vacana noccAre malyavAna H. J CH 1 3, pI karyA che. e paNa AMbilakhAtAnI gocarI lIdhA vinA ! chatAM zarIra eTaluM badhuM sAruM - rahe che ke nA pUcho vAta ! Aje tamane paNa khabara na paDe ke mane A tapa cAle che. C mAre mArA tapane jAhera karavAno na hoya, paNa tamane saMyamanI tAkAtamAM zraddhA bese, | tta mATe A kahuM chuM. bAkI to mArA karatA ya vadhu ghora tapasvIo che ja, huM mahAna nathI. | paNa mane Avo ghorAtighora tapa karavAmAM sahAya karanAra zAsana mahAna che..." | - svajano Azcarya pAmyA, ahobhAvathI mArI sAme jotA rahyA, temanI AMkhamAMthI jai harSAzru sarI paDyA. "amArA mahArAja kevA tapasvI ! chatAM kevA niHspRhI ! paMdaravarSe ni | Aje ApaNane A vAta jaNAvI. A to amArA kuLanA dIpaka banyA..." za ane A AkhA ya prasaMgathI mane paramasaMtoSa (!) anubhavAyo. paNa mAre hajI zA A AMcako khAvAno bAkI hato. banyuM evuM ke svajano mArA gurujIne vaMdana karavA gayA, ne huM paNa sAthe gayo. vAsakSepAdi thayA bAda mArA svajanoe phariyAda karI ke A 4 "sAhebajI ! amArA mahArAjane 98 oLI thavA AvI, ane amane khabara paNa na ; 3 ApI. e to na kahe paNa Ape to kahevuM joIe ne? AmAM to zarIra kevuM khalAsa 8 ra thaI jAya emanuM !" ane mArA gurujI bolyA ke "ame tapa khAnagI ja rAkhIe chIe, paNa 3 vaLI AmAM zarIra ghasAtuM jAya che, e vAta khoTI che. tamArA A munivara varSe be 8 8 mahinA pAraNA kare che... tyAM ja amArA grupanA eka ghora tapasvI tyAM AvI che 2 pahoMcyA, tarata gurujI bolyA ke "A tamArA mahArAjanI tapazcaryA to kaMI nathI, kharI che hai tapazcaryA to A mahAtmAnI che. atyAre 171 mI oLI cAle che. ane chellI 71 ra 2 oLI saLaMga karI che. pAraNuM nahi, ekapaNa nahi. zaruAtanI 100 oLI paNa mAtra ra sADA cauda varSamAM pUrI karI che. e koIpaNa oLInA pAraNA pa-7 divasa karatA vadhAre . nathI karyA. emAMya tamAma mIThAI-pharasANa to baMdha ja ! mAtra dUdha-ghI thoDAka le... * bolo, ATalo tapa A sAdhu kare che. chatAM ame emanA ghare paNa nathI jaNAvyuM..." " mArA svajano cUpa thaI gayA, paNa e karatAya mane hADohADa lAgI AvyuM. kemake * - mArA karatA ya ghora tapasvIne joIne svajano mane "advitIya tapasvI' na ja mAne ne ? saM vaLI gurunA manamAM paNa mArA karatA e tapasvInuM sthAna vizeSa ja che, e sAbita saM che thatuM hatuM. jo ke Azcarya to e che ke khuda meM ja mArA svajanone kahyuM hatuM ke "mArA che 4 karatA to ghaNo ghora tapa karanArA ghaNA che." paNa chatAM jyAre najaronajara e ghora | tapasvI sAme AvyA, tyAre huM jhaMkhavANo paDI gayo. mArI mahAnatA DhaMkAI javAthI | 1 zokagrasta banI gayo. III III IIM ahaMkAra 0 (05) A MANDAL

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arapaNAbhAkhI te bhASA bhava taravA nAvaDI, dharmadAsajIe daLa IdAsajIe dAkhI. dhana te...76 AjJAbhaMjaka paNa je sAdhu, samUtraprarUpaNAbhAkhIne, " . to mArI 98 oLInI ghora sAdhanA mokSa mATe na hatI? "huM tapasvI' evA - mithyAbhimAnamAM rAcavA mATe hatI? lokomAM 'tapasvI' tarIkenI prazaMsA meLavavA mATe : Cii hatI ? to zuM AMbila khAtAmAM ghaNA vahorAvanArA hoya, tyAre DhokaLA-DhosA- 7 khIcIyAdinI spaSTa nA pADIne, emanI vinaMtine ThukarAvIne mAtra roTalI-dALa || vahoravAnI mArI pravRtti paNa lokomAM mArI "vairAgI' tarIkenI khyAti janmAvavA mATe ja | hatI? e vakhate e vahorAvanArAone AMjI devAno uMDo uMDo bhAva zuM mArA manamAM ti na hato ? jo ke huM kharekhara AMbilamAM pharasANo nathI vAparato, paNa chatAM zA vahorAvanArAo samakSa e na vahoravAnI pravRttimAM ahaMkArabhAva bhaLe che, e to zA hakIkatane ? mArA vicAromAM eTalI malinatA to AvI ja jAya che, e to hakIkata || ne ? mATe ja to jayAre zrAvakoe mane kahyuM ke "phalANA mahArAja to AMbilakhAtAnI IS pa roTalI-dALa paNa nathI letA. kemake e doSita thAya che. tyAre e mahArAja mArA karatA vadhu vairAgI sthApita thavAthI mane e vAta gamI na hatI ne ? "AMbilakhAtAmAMthI tra roTalI-dALa levAmAM koI doSa nathI...' evo meM mAro bacAva karelo kharo ne ? AvuM ja vaiyAvaccakSetre paNa nathI banyuM ? gharaDAonI khUba sevA karuM chuM e vAta sAcI. paNa enAthI maLelA yazane huM re kyAM pacAvI zakyo chuM? pelA divase sAMjanA samaye eka sAdhu vihAra karIne AvI 8 pahoMcyA, meM tarata emanA mATe gocarI lAvI ApI, emanI bhakti karI... vAparyA che 8 bAda e sAdhu mArI pAse AvyA, svAdhyAya karatA mane kahyuM ke "Apano bhaktiguNa 3 1 ghaNo sAro che. huM Avyo ne jhaTapaTa tame gocarI pUchI, lAvI bhaNavA besI gayA...' . e hajI potAnI vAta pUrI kare tyAM to A prazaMsAthI toramAM AvI gayelA meM 1 ahaMkAranuM pradarzana zaru karI dIdhuM hatuM ne? ke "sAdhujIvanamAM mahAtmAnI bhaktino lAbha | " kyAre maLavAno ? huM to A bAbatamAM ekadama sajAga chuM. pahelA sAdhubhakti !. pachI | badhI vAta ! e mATe game eTalA ghasAI javuM paDe to paNa ciMtA nahi. eTale A sa to mAro svabhAva ja che, meM kaI dhADa nathI mArI..." mAruM pravacana aTakatuM ja na hatuM, tyAre chevaTe pelA munie vacce ja mane kevI che | spaSTa sUcanA karI ke "paNa, mahAtmana ! mAre to tamane eka vAta karavAnI che. tamAro | bhaktiguNa cokkasa sAco che. paNa emAM vivekanI jarUra che. tamane e khyAla hovo | | joIe ke mArA jevA koIpaNa sAdhuo jo sAMje paNa vAparatA hoya, to enuM kAraNa ! TWITTTTTTTTTTTT ahaMkAra 0 (os) www ja jI. Friitwa

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e vairAgI manaDuM kare nA viSayasukhonI yArI. dhana te..77 makSikAje siha sAthe yuddha caDavAnI taiyArI, e verAgI mana kare 'r = "E 45 = 5 E koI ne koI mAMdagI ja hoya che. have AvA mAMdA mahAtmAo mATe jayAre paNa gocarI , | lAvavAnI hoya, bIjuM koI vAparanAra na hoya, sAMjano samaya hoya... e vakhate jo te T mApasara lAvavAne badale vadhAre vahorI lAvo to mArA jevA to ghaNA herAna thAya. IS 4 mAMdagI vadhe, ghaTe nahi. meM jeTaluM payasa maMgAveluM. enAthI bamaNuM Apa laI AvyA... | huM tamAro doSa nathI kADhato, paNa tame vivekI banazo, to ja tamArI bhakti khIlI | uThaze. khoTuM lAgyuM hoya to kSamA karazo.." tyAre huM kevo gamagIna banI gayelo ? e sUcanA karanAra muni mane upakArI | lAgavAne badale niMdaka-doSadRSTA ja lAgelA ne ? emanA mATe mArA manamAM aruci | utpanna thayelI ne ? eTalA ja mATe ne ke "huM sAdhuvaiyAvaccI chuM.' evA mArA nA + abhimAnanI ImAratane e mahAtmAnA zabdo rUpI bombe jamInadosta karI nAMkhI | hatI, emAM huM kacaDAI gayo hato. E "jAvuM mAre pUrvamAM, ne pazcimano che paMtha' e kaDI mArA jIvanamAM lAgu nathI paDatI 8 ne ? mAre jAvuM che mokSamAM, chatAM vaiyAvaccAdi badhuM karuM chuM, yaza-kIrti-pratiSThAB prazaMsAdi mATe.. bhale spaSTa nahi, paNa uDe uDe e badhAnI lAlasA mArAmAM paDelI = B che, evuM mane cokakhuM dekhAya che. - "bhogo taNI bhUkha puSTa karavA nAtha ! tujane huM bhajuM e paMkti paNa mArA jIvanamAM 3 lAgu paDatI lAge che. A vaiyAvaccadi e eka prakAranI prabhubhakti to che ja. paNa che e bhakti huM mArA bhogonI = yazAdinI bhUkhane puSTa karavA mATe ja karI rahyo houM... che evuM mane lAge che. te mATe ja to aThavADiyA pahelA ja pelA vRddha sAdhunA dIkarA vagere emane maLavA A AvelA, ane emanI sAthenI vAtacItamAM e vRddha sAdhue mArA mATe phariyAda karelI 1. ke, "A mahAtmA amane sAcave che kharA, chatAM vizeSa kALajI nathI karatA. paNa have ]... emane keTaluM kahIe ? e ATaluM sAcave che, e ghaNuM che...' e zabdo huM sAMbhaLI gayelo ane huM kevo gusse bharAyelo. emanA dIkarAo mArI pAse vaMdana mATe AvyA, | | tyAre emanA pitAmuni mATenI keTalI phariyAdo karI beThelo ! emanA gayA bAda pelA ke vRddhamunine meM kevA dhadhaDAvI nAMkhelA ke "tamArA mATe huM ATalo bhoga ApuM chuM. ane e mA badalAmAM tame mane apayaza ja Apo cho ! mArI niMdA karo cho ! tamArAmAM kRtajJatA vya paNa nathI. mArA sivAya jo koI bIjo hota, to tamane rakhaDatA mUkIne cAlyo jAta...' IITRATORY ahaMkAra 0 (oo) DIWALI TO 09 ! A

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jinazAsana pAmelA munivara tucchasukha jo rAce, daza accherA jhAMkhA karatuM e accheruM sAce. dhana te...78 pelA vRddhamunie mArI kSamA mAMgI, chatAM Aja sudhI mArA manano emanA taraphano arucibhAva kyAM ocho thayo che ? na 1111111101101010101010 F cha InA IH na have rahI vAta mArI prabhubhaktinI ! cokkasa e vAta sAcI ke mane prabhubhaktimAM 1 jJA ghaNIvAra AMsu paDe che. koI hoya ke na hoya paNa mArA doSo badala, prabhunA guNo na sa nA ya badala huM ghaNIvAra rahyo chuM. mane evuM saMvedana paNa thAya che. paNa A mArA AtmAmAM pragaTelA prabhubhaktinA guNane huM pacAvI kyAM zakyo chuM ? mane to e ahaMkAranAzaka guNano ja ahaMkAra AvI gayo che. ane mArA jIvananA te te nAnA prasaMgo parathI paNa Aje mane e vAta barAbara samajAya che. A badhuM ahaMkAranA kAraNe ja thayuM ne ? mArI vaiyAvaccanA badalAmAM mAre emanI pAse prazaMsA joItI hatI ne ? mATe ja to jyAre emaNe mArI niMdA karI, tyAre mAro stu krodha bhabhUkI uThyo ne ? bAkI jo vaiyAvaccanA badalAmAM mane karmanAzanI ja IcchA ta hota, to e to mane maLI ja gayo hato. e vRddha mArI niMdA kare, to ya eTalA sma mAtrathI mane maLeluM phaLa thoDuM ja bhAgI javAnuM hatuM ? bha zA F F F 20000 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 00 sa nA huM lagabhaga roja poNo eka kalAka derAsaramAM prabhubhakti roja karuM chuM. ekavAra mArA gurujI pAse badhA bhegA beThelA ane vAtavAtamAM e vAta nIkaLI ke ApaNA vRMdamAM prabhubhakto koNa koNa che ? gurujI traNa-cAra sAdhuonA nAma bolyA, e vakhate mArA manamAM e IcchA pragaTelI ja ke 'gurujI mAruM nAma paNa bole.' paNa emAM mAruM nAma na AvatA mane kheda thayelo. tyAM ja eka sAdhue mArI siphArIza karI. ke 'A muni roja prabhubhakti kare che, poNothI eka kalAka !' e zabdo sAMbhaLatA ja mane AzA baMdhAI ke gurujI kadAca mAruM nAma bhUlI gayA haze. to have yAda AvavAthI mane prabhubhaktamAM gaNaze. paNa mArI AzA rezamanA tAMtaNA mAphaka tarata ja tUTI gaI. e bhale poNo-eka kalAka derAsaramAM bese, paNa huM jevI prabhubhakti mAnuM chuM. evI enAmAM mane dekhAtI nathI.' gurujInA e zabdoe mane AdhAta lagADyo hato. eno artha spaSTa ja che ke 'mane mArI prabhubhaktino ahaMkAra janmI cUkyo hato.' mATe ja e ahaMkArane khAvAnuM na maLatA huM du:khI du:khI thaI gayo hato. gurujI pratye paNa saM pre mane asadbhAva jAgI gayo hato. A pre kSa pelA divase kevuM baneluM ! saMghanA mAnanIya zrAvake AvIne mane kaheluM ke 'ApanA grupanA phalANA sAdhune huM roja savAre be kalAka sudhI bhagavAna sAme beThelA jouM chuM. kSa Na Na TET ahaMkAra 7(08) A bhA

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, chI zobhe nirmala Atamajano, zvAse zvAse vadana karatAM AtamathAya majeno . Atama thAya majeno. dhana te...79 niHspRhatabhUSaNathI zobhe nirmala Ana, , 5 - 4 6 na ke 'ya miNiVITHT = 4 = e je stavano-gIto madhura svare lalakAre che. je hAtha-mukhanA hAvabhAva kare che... huM to bhagavAnane badale emane jovAmAM tallIna banI jAuM chuM..." Da e sAdhunI prabhubhakta tarIkenI AvI prazaMsA bahumAnya zrAvakanA moDhe sAMbhaLIne | e vAtane puSTa karavAne badale meM ene toDI nAMkhI hatI. "juo zrAvakabhAI ! cokkasa tu e roja be kalAka derAsaramAM bese che, madhurasvare gIto gAya che, hAvabhAva kare che... 1 jo paNa A badhI zarIranI kriyAo che. eka vAta barAbara samajI rAkho ke prabhubhakti jo ki e manano-AtmAno guNa che. moDhAno ke zarIrano nahi. pUjano bhaNAvavA AvanArA RU saMgItakAro traNa-cAra kalAka gIto gAya ja che, hAvabhAva kare che... chatAM e 7 zA prabhubhakta kahevAya kharA? bhagavAnane joI AMkhamAMthI azrudhArA jo na paDe, "bhagavAna zA mAruM sarvasva che. emanA vinA huM anAtha chuM." evI saMvedanA jo na pragaTe, prabhuvirahanuM | smaraNa thatA ja rUMvADe rUMvADe akathya vedanA jo na anubhavAya to mAtra be kalAkanA IT ja gIto parathI ke moDhAnA hAvabhAva uparathI koIne prabhubhakta mAnI na levAya. 8 pIksaramAM ekTaro mAtApitAnA bhakta hovAnI ekTIMga keTalI joradAra kare che ! paNa che 8 suparahITa janArA e pIkacaronA ekTaro mATe badhA samaje che ke "emanI ekTIMganA 8 AdhAre emane rAma mAnI levAnI bhUla na karAya. A to ekTIMga che, nATaka che." 2 alabatta ApaNA A mahAtmAmAM to prabhubhakti paNa haze ja, e kaMI daMbha-kapaTa che ra kare che, evuM nathI kahevuM. paNa tamArA jevA pIDha zrAvako bhaktinuM sAcuM svarUpa samaje 8 e mATe A vAta karI che. prabhu sAme cAra zuM, cAlIsa ke cAraso kalAka moTe moTethI ra B rAgaDA tANo, to ya samyakta na maLe evuM bane. ane kyAreka mAtra ekAda miniTanA EB prabhudarzanamAM cheka virati sudhInA pariNAmo pragaTI jAya, evuM bane..." mArI A vAta 100% sAcI hatI, paNa e bolavA pAchaLa mArA bhAvo 100% 0. | khoTA hatA, enuM zuM? e mahAtmA prabhubhakta tarIke vakhaNAya ane mArA mATe koI IT prabhubhakta nAma na paDe te mane na gamyuM, mATe ja A niMdA karI ne meM ? " re ! ghaNIvAra derAsaramAM mane bhakti karatI vakhate evA vicAra paNa AvI jAya || saM che ne? ke A vakhate zrAvako mane jUe, to sAruM. pelA TrasTIo mane jUe to sAruM. sa. ke mArA AMkhanAM AMsu joI teone sahaja rIte mArA tarapha sadbhAva thavAno ja, mArA che. tarapha AkarSaNa thavAnuM ja. ema A ja samaye mArA gurujI darzana karavA Ave, pAchaLathI mane bhakti karato jUe, to emano mArA pratyeno Akho bhAva ja badalAI jAya. teo | mane prabhubhakta mAnavA lAge... pelA yuvAno mane jUe to sAruM. temAMthI ya phalANo TWITTITWITY ahaMkAra 0 (09) NITIATIVITI II 2 s & & ja S

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vyAkhyAtRtva ke vidvattA lekhanazakti ke kavitva, ziSyabhaktabhojanastrIsaktane bhavamaMce nRtyatva, dhana te...80 yuvAna dIkSA le evo che, e jo mane A rIte dhrusake dhrusake prabhu sAme raDato jUe, to mane gurupade sthApI de... na mA mo S S hAya ! sAcI bhaktithI sAcA AMsu to pragaTyA, paNa e pachI A kevA su cakkaramAM phasAI gayo huM ! zekhacallInA vicAronI hAramALA sarjI nAMkhI meM to ! stu zuM A pavitra AMsuonI ATalI ja kiMmata che ke enAthI TrasTIo, gurujI, mumukSuo maiM mArA tarapha sadbhAvavALA bane ! ta 11111111 ta ji huM ratnono vepArI chuM ke bharavADa ! amUlya ratno samAna AMsuonI-na 7 prabhubhaktinI kiMmata mArA manamAM to mAtra kAMkarA jeTalI ya na rahI. prabhubhakti vakhate 7 huM 52mAtmAne to joto ja, paNa e vakhate 'koI mane jUe che ke nahi' e jovA Aju bAjunA loko tarapha paNa joto. emAM jo koI mane ja joI rahyuM hoya to mane e OM khUba gamI jatuM. paNa koIne mArA tarapha lakSya na hoya to mAro utsAha maMda paDI jato. ya sa nA A badhuM zuM sUcave che ? je sAdhuo pAMceka miniTamAM ja darzana karIne AvI jatA, prabhubhaktimAM bhIMjAtA nahi... emanA pratye mane asadbhAva paNa thato hato. "bhagavAnanA nAme carI khAvAnA dhaMdhA A loko kare che. jyAM prabhubhakti nathI, tyAM sAdhutA Take ja zI rIte ? A sAdhuone to huM sAdhu ja nathI mAnato. jemane prabhunA darzana karavAmAM, prabhune maLavAmAM AnaMda, ullAsa na hoya, emane maLavAmAM ke emanA moDhA-jovAmAM mane to sakhata trAsa thAya che...' AvA vicAro-uccAro meM karelA. sma E E F Indian bha bha zuM A mArA mATe ucita che ? cokkasa mAnI laIe ke e sAdhuo prabhubhakti vinAnA che, e paNa mAnI laIe ke emanAmAM sAdhutA nathI... paNa eTale zuM emane A dhikkAravAno, emane tiraskAravAno adhikAra mane maLI jAya kharo ? mAre to karuNA A bhAvavAnI hoya ne ? rastAmAM bhUkhyA kaNasatA bhikhArIone joIne. katalakhAnAmAM kapAtA pazuone vicArIne, nArakInA jIvonI asahya vedanAo sAMbhaLIne jo mane e jIvo pratye mAtra ne mAtra karuNA bhAvanA ja pragaTe che, to A bhaktihIna sAdhuo saM pratye paNa mAtra ne mAtra karuNAbhAvanA ja bhAvavI joIe mAre ! paNa kadIpaNa e saM pre bhaktihIna sAdhuo mATe mArI AMkhamAM AMsu TapakyA nathI. A kevuM ? eka bhava duHkha pre pAmanArA tiryaMcAdine joIne mane AMsu paDe, paNa bhavobhava bhayaMkara duHkho pAmavAnI taiyArI karI rahelA AtmAo mATe mane thoDuM paNa raDavuM na Ave ? A zuM mArI sAdhutA kahevAya ? jo pelA sAdhuo bhakti vinAnA hovAthI sAdhu na kahevAtA hoya to huM ahaMkAra 0 (80) kSa kSa Na ha (

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& zAsanahIlanA kAmanAvAraka vastro jIvana dIpAve, dhanate..8 dhoLA vastro muninA mananA malinabhAva daI 'r 'r E D E F F E F F = ) > jIvo pratyenI karuNA vinAno hovAthI zI rIte sAdhu kahevAuM? meM haMmezA garIbone, tiryaMcone sukhI karavAnA prayatno karyA che, "e garIbo nakAmA che. emanA pUrvabhavanA pApe teo garIba banyA che. emAM ApaNe zuM?.." | | AvuM kadI bolyo nathI. emanI niMdA ke emanA para tiraskAra kadI karyo nathI. to tuM | pachI A bhaktihIna sAdhu vagere tarapha paNa mAro bhAva kevo hovo joIe? lAgaNIthI 7 2 emane bacAvavAnA prayatno meM karyA che ja kyAM ? mAtra gALo bhAMDavAnA ja kAma karyA che li che. hAya ! prabhubhakti nAmanI mIThAI meM eTalI badhI vadhAre khAI lIdhI che ke e ka mane pacI nathI. ane eTale ja ajIrNa thayuM che mArA AtmAne ! eTale ja jema ? nA ajIrNavALAne atyaMta durgadhI apAnavAyu chUTe, aneka rogo thAya... ema mane paNa nA " A niMdA-tiraskAra-dhikkAra vagere rogo utpanna thayA che. mArA moDhAmAMthI apazabdo rUpI durgadhIvAyu nIkaLe che. kevuM Azcarya ! prabhubhakti aneka doSo pedA kare, e AnuM nAma ! ane A vAta lagIre khoTI nathI. meM vairAgyakalpalatAno zloka gokhelo che ke - yaH sAdhuvAdI kRtakarmazuddhirAgADhabuddhizca subhAvitAtmA ! ___ na so'pi hi prAptasamAdhiniSThaH parAbhavannanyajanaM svabuddhayA // A zloka pramANe to je suMdara vaktA hoya, sAdhukriyAo zuddhatama Acarato hoya, AgADhabuddhivALo hoya ane mahattvanI vAta e ke jeno AtmA bAra bhAvanA : # - prabhubhakti vagerethI bhAvita thayelo hoya... to paNa jo e AtmA bIjA jIvone 3 tra potAnI buddhinA baLe halakA pADe, tiraskAre, dhikkAre, niMde to e sAdhu samAdhimAM rasa lIna na kahevAya. A A zloka cokhkhuM kahI de che ke bAra bhAvanAo, prabhubhakti vagere hoya to paNa A jo pragaTelA ahaMkArathI paraniMdAdi doSo cAlu ja hoya to e jIva samAdhistha na ||kahevAya. eTale mArAmAM kharekhara bhakti che, AMsu che, saMvedanA che... e badhuM ja sAcuM. paNa mArAmAM samAdhi = upazamabhAva, zAMtacitta nathI. kemake ahaMkArathI mAro Atama khadabade che. e ja granthamAM pelo zloka paNa kevo majhAno che ! 'jJAnI tapasvI paramakriyAvAn samyaktvavAnapyupazAntihInaH / prApnoti taM naiva guNaM kadApi samAdhizAlI labhate zamI yam / ' ahaMkAra (81) LIMDIMAAL

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rA vigaI-parivarjana, traNa mahArathi brahmacaryanuM karatA nitya samarthana. dhana te linavarA, vijAtIya paricayatyAga, vigaIkAlika 'r E 1 ba 1, po s 4 1 3 4 ? H. F ) huM jJAnI chuM, tapasvI chuM, cAritranI suMdaratama kriyAo AcaruM chuM, prabhubhakti , ' vagere guNonA kAraNe samyasvI paNa chuM. paNa ahaMkArathI bharelo hovAthI anya hIna " jIvo pratye tiraskAra-dhikkAravALo chuM, upazamabhAvarahita chuM. mATe ja mane evo lAbha tu to nahi ja thAya, jevo lAbha samAdhimAna-zamavAna jIvane thAya. | eTale ja prabhubhakti mAtrathI, AMsu mAtrathI saMtoSa mAnI levAnI mUrkhatA karavA jai jevI nathI. paramAtmabhaktane paramAtmabhaktino ahaMkAra jAge, to e jIvamaitrI- je ni jIvakaruNAdi guNone gumAvI de ane jIvazatrutA-jIvadhikkArAdi doSono bhoga 7 bane... e vAta mArAmAM mane akSaraza anubhavAya che. T basa, ahaMkAra aMge have mAtra be ja vastumAM mAre ciMtana-AtmasaMpreSaNa karavAnuM zA * bAkI che. brahmacaryamAM ane lekhanakaLAmAM ! have ATaluM badhuM AtmasaMprekSaNa karyA pachI to AMtaradoSo pakaDI pADavA mAre mATe saraLa thaI gayA che. saraLa thaI gayA che. strIo sAthe ekalA vAto karanArA sAdhuone joI mane Aveza Avyo che, meM = emane dhikkAryA che, tiraskAryA che, niMdyA che. teo khoTA hatA e vAta sAcI, paNa 3. emanI sAthenuM mAruM A vartana paNa sAcuM to na ja hatuM. B. emanA doSa joIne emanI bhAvi durgatio badala mane AMkhomAM AMsu paDyA = kharA ? nA. khAnagImAM vAtsalyabhAve emane samajAvIne doSamukta karavAno prayatna karyo ? B kharo ? nA. = bhale kaDaka zabdo bolavA paDe, paNa aMdarakhAne mane bilakula veSa na hato, lAgaNI ThatI evuM banyuM kharuM ? nA. A to A badhuM pragaTelA brahmacaryaguNanuM ajIrNa ja nathI zuM ? tmAM gurue eka evA tapasvInI prazaMsA karI ke jene strIparicayanI kuTeva hatI, eka mAM TevA prabhAvakanI prazaMsA karI ke jene dRSTirAga doSanI kuTeva hatI. e dareka vakhate mArI prazaMsA na thaI, tyAre mane e vicAra Avelo ke "gurune mArI brahmacaryanI kaTTaratA dekhAtI ja nathI, mArI zuddhi dekhAtI ja nathI. A badhAnA mAtra bAhya anuSThAno ja dekhAya che..." A vicArano artha evo kharo ja ne ? ke mane uDe uDe mArA brahmacaryanI mA kSa prazaMsA sAMbhaLavAmAM rasa che. | vaLI koIpaNa saMghamAM, ke maLavA AvelA zrAvako sAme huM mArA vakhANa karI beTho Na ( ahaMkAra (82) INDIA I A

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dika jANI hitamita Aroge. dhana te...83 mAnadhika vAparatA vAsanA jAge, ALasa, roga, kaSAyAdika jANI hitaci.. annaprAna paNa mAtrAdhika , 1 - vaE F + 30' = = - chuM ke "amane amArA guruvaryonA saMskAra eTalA uttama maLyA che ke "ame brahmacaryanI - bAbatamAM ekadama kaTTara chIe. sUryAsta bAda bahenono praveza baMdha - divasa daramyAna A paNa ekalA bahenono praveza baMdha - ekalA baheno sAthe vAtacIta baMdha..." A badhI IT tu vAta sAcI ja che. kharekhara mArA guruvaryono mArA para A akathya upakAra che. paNa ! - A badhuM bolavA pAchaLa mArI apekSA to e hatI ne ke "zrotAo mane saMyamInA brahmacArI mAne, vizuddha mAne...' eTale ja jayAre koIke ema kahyuM ke "sAhebajI ! svAmInArAyaNa saMpradAyamAM to 7 ApanA karatA paNa vadhu kaTTaratA che. tyAM to divase paNa sAdhu sagIbA-bahenane maLe ? ja nahi, sAmuM jUe nahi.' e vakhate meM kevo javAba dIdhelo "jUo bhAI ! DuMgaro dUrathI paNa * raLIyAmaNa bhale lAge, bAkI najIkamAM jAo. tame mAtra bahArathI vAto sAMbhaLI che, IR A aMgata saMparkamAM nathI. bAkI aMdaranI ghaNI vAtonI tamane khabara paDe ne ? to tame paNa che emanuM moTuM paNa na jUo.." AkrozamAM e zabdo to bolyo, paNa mArI jAtane ja pUchuM ke huM paNa kyAM emanI aMdaranI vAto jANuM chuM. mAMDa be-traNa prasaMgo meM re sAMbhaLelA che. paNa evA to prasaMgo meM jaina saMsthAmAM paNa kyAM nathI sAMbhaLyA? to 8 ame badhA sarakhA ja thaI gayA ne? kadAca A AcAra bAbatamAM teo amArA karatA re vadhAre AgaLa paNa haze. e ja rIte jayAre koIke ema kahyuM ke "amuka gacchamAM to strIparicayAdi to nathI 3 ja, paNa kAyama badhAne AMbila cAle, varSamAM ekAda-be mahinA pAraNA kare to paNa 2 e tamAma pAraNAmAM mIThAI-taLeluM-dUdha na le. mAtra roTalI-zAka-dALa-bhAta..." tyAre paNa mane e gamyuM na hatuM. mArA karatA bIjo koI sAdhu vadhu brahmacArI gaNAya, vadhu . vakhaNAya ? e mane khUMcyuM ja che. - huM lekhaka banyo, ghaNA pustako lakhyA. dareka pustakomAM zarUAtamAM chapAvyuM ke "T'tamAro abhiprAya mokalavo.' e pachI vAcakonA je je lekhita abhiprAyo AvatA, | emAM moTA bhAge bharapUra prazaMsAnA zabdo ja bharelA AvatA. paNa e patro huM sa vAraMvAra vAMcato. mArA mATe vaparAyelA vizeSaNo dhyAnathI vAMcato. "paramatAraka - saM che taraNatAraNahAra - paramagurudeva - lekhaka ziromaNI...' vagere vagere vizeSaNo dasa dasa che vAra vAMcavA chatAM mane e vizeSaNo dara vakhate navA jevA ja lAgatA. e patro meM bhegA karI rAkhyA, e pAThavyA nahi, enI phAIla banAvI dIdhI. nA keTalAya lokone e patro vaMcAvyA. A badhuM ja cokhe cokhkhuM ahaMkAranuM ja pratIka che ne?!" AMITI 10TH ahaMkAra (83) ITI III III m sa 3 g

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saMkhaDisthAne gocarIkAje Daga paNa kadI navi mAMDe, tyAgadharmathI jaga janatAne samakItardaSTi pamADe. dhana te... 84 e patronI hAramALAmAM vacce vacce kyAreka mArA pustakomAM bhUlo darzAvatA, na kyAreka mIThI Takora karatA, kyAreka tIkhI-kaDavI Takora karatA patro paNa AvyA. e patro vAMcatA mArA manane sakhata AghAta lAgelo. e dareka divase mArI uMgha harAma pta thaI gaI hatI. ta e patro meM tarata phADI nAMkhelA, zA mATe ? eTalA mATe ke emAM mArI bhUlo # dekhADAI hatI ? e patro meM koIne ya vaMcAvyA na hatA, zA mATe ? eTalA mATe ke sma e vAMcIne darekane mArA pustako aMgenI prAmANiktAmAM saMdeha thavAno hato InA ji na are ! DokTara jyAre rogonI davA lakhIne Ape, tyAre huM e kAgaLa sAcavI na gA rAkhuM chuM. jethI 'mAre kaI davA, kyAre levAnI che... eno mane khyAla rahe' to mArA lakhANamAM bhUlo e mAro roga ja che. ene dUra karavAnA sUcano karatA patro e DokTare lakhI ApelA kAgaLa jevA che. kharekhara to mAre e ja sAcavI rAkhavA joIe, jethI sa nA ya o e o d d d d e e e e e e e roga dUra karavAnA kAmamAM eno vAraMvAra upayoga karI zakAya. paNa ene badale meM tarata ja e patro phADI nAMkhelA. kAraNa ? e ja ne ke mAre mAtra ne mAtra prazaMsA ja joItI hatI. sUcano - bhUlonuM darzana vagere nahi. lekhaka banyo na hato tyAM sudhI huM bIjAnA pustako Atmahita mATe vAMcato. lekhaka banyA bAda have moTA bhAge to bIjAnA pustako vAMcato ja nathI. jo vAMcu to paNa e Atmahita mATe nahi, paraMtu AtmaghAta mATe ja thAya che. 'A pustako karatA to mAruM lakhANa vadhAre sAruM.' ema vicArI kyAreka mithyAsukhamAM rAcuM. bha FFFF to kyAreka bIjA pustako kharekhara aphalAtUna hoya, enI sAme mArA pustako ane A enuM lakhANa mane tuccha bhAse, tyAre mAro utsAha tUTI jAya che, prasannatA naMdavAI A jAya che. bha kyAreka vaLI e bIjA pustakomAMthI bhUlo kADhIne bIjAne batAvuM 'A lokone lakhatA AvaDatuM nathI. zuM karavA pustako chapAvatA haze. nakAmI Ijjata bagADe che...' ema vicAruM-boluM, E FE FA pre kyAreka jo koIka pustakanA lekhake potAnA pustakamAM mAro ke mArA pustakAdino kSa ullekha karelo hoya to e pustaka huM mAruM samajIne vAMcu chuM. e lekhaka mATe mane lAgaNI kSa thAya che. Na Na ahaMkAra 0 (84)

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.. tA. bhISaNabhavasaMsAre jANI, niHsaMgabhAve ramatA. dhanate... bojanabhaktane tanu mUchIthI caudapUrvI paNa bhamatA. bhISaNabhaTa 'T - T F E F 45 = = F F EFFpril = ; " kyAreka koIka lekhake potAnA pustakamAM mArI ke mArA pustakonI TIkA karI hoya te tu to mane e pustaka, e lekhaka mATe bhayaMkara aruci thaI jAya che. Saa eka patra Avelo mArA upara, pratiSThita vidvAna mahAtmAno ! emaNe mane lakheluM IS nuM ke "tamAruM lakheluM pustaka jovAmAM AvyuM. karuNAbhAvathI tamane sUcana karuM chuM ke AvI tu DhagalAbaMdha bhUlovALI pustikA chApavAnuM vahelI take baMdha karI do. tamArA lakhANanAta | ThekANA nathI, kalamamAM tAkAta nathI. gItArthatAno bhAre abhAva dekhAya che. tamArA | pustako zAsanane mATe kuhADI samAna banI raheze." | e patra vAMcatA mAro AghAta AsamAnane AMbelo, pratiSThita vidvAnano || zA pratikAra karavAnI mArI zakti na hatI, to emanA zabdo vAMcyA bAda lekhaka tarIkenI zA - mArI mithyA bhramaNAo khatama thavAthI prasanna rahevAnI paNa mArI zakti na hatI. | 2 sAta sAta divasa sudhI mAruM ArtadhyAna ghaTyuM na hatuM. pachI vaLI navA patro prazaMsAnA paNa AvyAgurae mArI prazaMsA karI, sahavartIoe pelA jalada patra lakhanArA vidvAnanA doSo gAyA... tyAre mane mAMDa mAMDa TADhaka vaLI. Azcarya evuM ke koIpaNa sAdhu-sAdhvI zAstro vAMcatA dekhAya emAM mane jeTalo 3 AnaMda thAya enA karatA paNa mArA pustako vAMcato dekhAya emAM mane vadhu AnaMda ra thAya, ghaNo vadhu harSa thAya. eno artha e ke mane zAstrakAra mahApuruSo ane emanI 8 racanAo karatA huM ane mArA pustako vadhu mahAna lAge che. A keTalo bhayaMkara ahaMkAra re 8 gaNAya ! e mArA pustako vAMcanArAne huM avazya maLuM, patrAdi dvArA paNa emano saMparka : karuM. "kema? pustaka kevuM lAgyuM? kaMI bhUla hoya to kahejo..." ema avazya karyuM ane ke jo teo ghaNI prazaMsA kare to 'devaguru pasAya paNa avazya boluM. paNa have to huM . ya samajI gayo chuM ke e "devaguru pasAya' to kamyuTaramAM phITa karI devAyelA zabdo jevA hatA. jevI koI svIca dabAve ke tarata kapyuTara e zabdo pragaTa karI de. emAM * kapyuTarane koI bhAva na hoya. mArA zabdo basa evA bhAvavihIna ja hatA. bIjA lekhakonI prazaMsA na gamavI, emanI niMdA gamavI, bIjA lekhakonA saM pustako hajAronI saMkhyAmAM bahAra paDe to na gamavuM, e pustako na vaMcAya ane pastImAM saM e paDelA maLe to AnaMda thavo, e pustako super Flop jAya tevI UMDe UMDe tamannA thavI, che ane e tamannA saphaLa thAya to mastI utpanna thavI, bhUlecUke paNa mArA moDhe anya mA lekhako mATe sArA zabdo na bolavA, mArA ja pustakono pracAra karavo, bIjAnA pustako sArA hoya to paNa eno pracAra na karavo, e pustaka vAMcavA aMge koI salAha mAMge IIIIIIIIIIIT ahaMkAra (85) IIIIIIIIIIIM.

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jasaMyamaraNArthe leve na bhaktanI bhakti. dhana te....06 hatI jemapArakA puruSanuM darzana kadI navi karatI, temamuni nijasaMyamarakSArthe yaa 'T 'r F E S S " = "E = "E 45 F S E E F E E F G FI E to tarata e pustakanI nA pADI ADakatarI rIte mAruM lakheluM pustaka vAMcavAnI bhalAmaNa karavI... A mArA lekhanakaLAnA ahaMkAre utpanna karelA khUba vhAlA-pyArA saMtAno Da banI gayA che. basa, mane tamAma viSayomAM mArA AtmAmAM dekhAI gayo che, ahaMkAra ! bhAMgI gaI che mArI bhramaNAo ke huM nirahaMkArI chuM. jo udayaratna mahArAja potAnA jIvana mATe ema bolatA hoya ke huM to manathI | na mUkuM mAna, tuM to mAnarahita bhagavAna to mArI hAlata zuM? e mahApuruSanI AgaLa ni na huM mArI jAtane nirahaMkArI kahevAnI hiMmata karuM e ya mAro ahaMkAra ja che. prabho ! khUba khUba khUba micchA mi dukkaDe mAMgu chuM huM mArI A malinavRttio | = badala ! tuM mane kSamA Apaje. mArA para karuNA karaje, mArA jevA duSTane paNa nibhAvI leje. mane sAco nirahaMkArI sAdhu banAvaje. A namratA-tapa-vaiyAvacca-svAdhyAya-prabhubhakti vagere vagere badhA guNo jANe ke : * mane kahe che ke ame badhA tamAruM rakSaNa cokkasa karazuM, tamane durgatimAM nahi javA 4 4 daIe, paNa e mATe eka ja zarata che ke amane rakSaNa maLavuM joIe. jo ame ja E? 3 ahaMkAranA sakaMjAmAM phasAyelA hazuM to ame tamAruM rakSaNa nahi karI zakIe. 4 e guNonI vAta to sAcI ja che ne ? A bhArata dezanuM rakSaNa karavAnI tra javAbadArI vaDApradhAnanI che. paNa jo emanuM ja rakSaNa barAbara na thAya, Body Guard 3 na rAkhavAmAM na Ave, to arakSita vaDApradhAna pote ja muzkelImAM mukAya, e zI rIte ? rASTranuM rakSaNa kare ? jo Body Guard mANaso emanuM barAbara rakSaNa kare to ja teo == rASTranuM rakSaNa karI zake. A| ema A guNo mArA AtmA rUpI rASTranA vaDApradhAna jevA che. teo mArA A AtmAnI durgati vagerethI rakSA karanArA che. paNa jo e guNone saMrakSaNa na maLe, ahaMkAra doSa e guNone pachADe - parezAna kare, to e guNo mAruM rakSaNa kema karaze ? mahopAdhyAyajI mahArAje A guNa-ahaMkArane khatama karavA mATe keTalI suMdara. 8 gAthAo ApI che. lAva, Aje huM enuM ciMtana karuM. guNairyadi na pUrNo'si kRtamAtmaprazaMsayA / guNairevAsi pUrNazcetkRtamAtmaprazaMsayA / o Atmana ! zuM tuM tamAme tamAma guNothI pUrNa banI cUkyo che? ekapaNa guNa paNa IIIIIIIIIIIM ahaMkAra (86) ANIMATION 1000000000

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kolaMTAruM snehI-svajanane jANI, sarvajIva para sneha dharatI vRti maninI tA . ni maninI vakhANI. dhana te....87 AtamadhananA cora-luMTAruM snehI-sta IF 'E 9 > E = "E E F E F 45 = - tAre have meLavavAno bAkI nathI ne ? to pachI tuM svaprazaMsA karavAnuM choDI ja de ne ?" - tuM AtmaprazaMsA karIne zuM meLavavA mAMge che? kema ke tAre kazuM meLavavAnuM bAkI ja ! nathI. badhA guNo tArAmAM AvI ja gayA che. to A svaprazaMsA karIne nAhakano pta parizrama zA mATe kare che? tAre mokSa joIe che, e mATe tAre guNonI ja jarUra che, ane e to te badhA meLavI ja lIdhA che ne ? jai jo tu ema kaheto hoya ke nA, nA. "hajI mAre ghaNA guNo meLavavAnA bAkI ki che. huM sAdhu banyo, paNa yathAkhyAta cAritra meLavavAnuM mAre bAkI che, hajI kriyAomAM satata upayogabhAva keLavavAno bAkI che, hajI saMyojanA vinA sAdI gocarI zA vAparavAnI siddhi meLavavAnI bAkI che, hajI vihAranA be-traNa kalAka satata zA T IryAsamitaiino. upayoga rAkhatA zIkhavAnuM bAkI che. hajI 42mAMno nAnAmAM nAno ke A doSa paNa mane lAgI na jAya, evI nirdoSa gocarIcaryA apramattabhAve karatA thavAnuM IT ra bAkI che, hajI UMghamAM paNa paDakhuM pheravatI vakhate zarIra ane saMthAro oghAthI puMjavo e svabhAva banAvI devAnuM bAkI che, hajI pratyeka jIvo pratye, mAruM ahita karanArAo : B pratye paNa maitrI ane karuNAno dhodha vahAvavAnuM bAkI che, hajI strInA bhayaMkara upadravo e B vacce paNa leza paNa vikAra na jAge evuM brahmacarya meLavavAnuM bAkI che...' R to bhalA mANasa ! tane tArI svaprazaMsA karatA zarama nathI AvatI ? mUkI de che 2 DaMphAsa mAravAnI ! zatrunA lAkho sainikomAMthI ekAda-bene mArI nAMkhIne koI sainika ra nAcavA lAge ne bolavA maMDe ke huM mahAna ! meM zatruone mArI nAMkhyA.. jIta mArA ra ke hAthamAM che.' to enA jevo murakha koNa ? hajI to lAkho bAkI che, parAjayano ER mahAbhaya mAthe ja che. zI rIte svaprazaMsAmAM khUMpI javAya ? vana-De mecamAM pratipakSIne " . jItavA mATe 50 ovaramAM 350 rana karavAnA hoya ane prathama bolamAM doDIne be " rana lenAro beTasamena harSa dhAraNa karIne kudavA mAMDe ke "juo, huM kevo mahAna ! meM bhI be rana lIdhA. huM mArI TImane jItADI daIza." to e hAsyAspada ja lAge ne ? ema bha| jyAre tAre mokSamArgamAM ghaNI ghaNI ghaNI maMjhila kApavAnI bAkI che, ghaNI ghaNI ghaNI siddhio meLavavAnI bAkI che... tyAre nAnakaDI siddhionA vakhANa karavA besI javuM che e leza paNa zobhatuM nathI. cUpa rahe ane ArAdhanA karato jA. zreyodrumasya mUlAni svotkarSAmbhaHpravAhataH / puNyAni prakaTIkurvanphalaM kiM samavApsyasi // , IIIIIIIIIIIIIM ahaMkAra (80) MAINTIMINITIN

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saMsArI paNa nAma potAnuM yAda kadI nahi karatA q, pa . H. P + H = 'la | A htAnuM yAda kadI nahi karatA. durghaTanAsama nija saMsArI jIvana bhalI te ghora tapa karyo - 98 oLI karI, sarasa ! te 45 Agamo vAMcI lIdhA, vaMcAvI lIdhA, sarasa ! teM pravacano dvArA hajArone sAcA zrAvaka banAvyA, sarasa ! teM pustako dvArA lAkhone bacAvyA, sudhAryA, ugAryA, sarasa ! teM prabhubhaktimAM karoDo azrubiMduo pADyA, sarasa ! te brahmacaryanI guptio niSkalaMkapaNe bharayauvanamAM paNa pALI, sarasa ! teM tArA madhura rAgathI seMkaDo lokone stuti-stavananA rasika banAvI dIdhA, sarasa ! teM tArA 15 varSanA saMyamamAM ghaNuM ghaNuM-ghaNuM-ghaNuM sukRta karyuM, sarasa ! sarasa ! sarasa ! A badhA sukRtonI tAkAta ajabagajabanI che. e tane pracaMDapuNya baMdhAvI 9 Apaze, enAthI svargalokamAM sArA sthAne janma ! e pachI manuSyagatimAM sArA ja zrImaMtakuLamAM rUpavAna-sazakta zarIra sAthe janma ! tyAM deva-guru-dharmanI prApti ! = 3 viziSTa ArAdhanA... paraMparAe mokSa ! TuMkamAM sukhe sukhe mokSamAM pahoMcADavAnI tAkAta A tArA sukRtonI che. tArA sukRto che mULa ! puNyakarma-svargaloka-sukuLa... e badhuM kramazaH aMkurA-thaDa3 DALI-phaLa rUpa che. paNa tane khabara che ke mULIyA kyAM hoya ? e to jamInamAM hoya, e dekhAya nahi. enA phaLo dekhAya. mULIyA jamInamAM che ne, mATe ja e AkhA ya vRkSane ugADI zake che, TakAvI zake che. paNa jo e mULa koIpaNa rIte jamInamAMthI ukhaDI jAya, bahAra AvI jAya, dekhAvA mAMDe to khalAsa ! e have vRkSane ugADI nahi zake. game eTalA tma sohAmaNA mULa paNa have nakAmA banI rahe. o mugdha ! tuM AvuM mUrkhatA bhareluM kAma ja kare che ne ? tuM tArA A sukRtone || | tArA moDhe ja gAto phare che, badhAne kaheto phare che, svaprazaMsA vinA tuM rahI zakato | ja nathI. tArI vidvattA-tapa-vaiyAvaccAdino dekhADo karavAno tAro umaMga tuM zamAvI T zakato ja nathI. paNa A svotkarSa e dhasamasato evo to jalapravAha che ke je tArA e badhA ja sukRtone AtmabhUmimAMthI ukheDIne bahAra pheMkI de che. hA ! e sohAmaNA sukRtone badhAthI CM ahaMkAra (8) I n bha,

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A jinazAsananI hoLI ziSyalAlasA dugatidAyI munivRtti aNamolI, dhana ziSyanI corI pApanI ToLI jinazAsana - joze, tuM paNa joze, eno kSaNika AnaMda mANaze... paNa have A sukRto tane sadgati : Apaze ? nA. tane sAro mAnavabhava Apaze ? nA, tane pharI dharmArAdhanA Apaze ? hanA, are, pAgala ! zuM meLavyuM te A gAMDapaNa karIne ? AlokanI gaNyA gAMThyA | ta lokonI tuccha prazaMsA meLavavA khAtara te tArA kiMmatI sukRtone ughADA karI nAMkhyA? cai zuM maLavAnuM tane Ama karavAthI ? tti tane khabara to che ke vepArIo aNamola ratno tijorImAM chupADIne rAkhe, e ti 7 koIne dekhADe nahi, jAheramAM mUke nahi. avasare e ratno moTA kAmamAM Ave. paNa gA jo koIka vepArI lokonI prazaMsA meLavavA mATe ratno jAheramAM mUke, to ene prazaMsA maLaze kharI paNa moTuM nukasAna e thaze ke ratno corAI jatA vAra nahi lAge. - ema Atmana ! tArA sukRtone AtmatijorImAM chupADI de. koIne ya dekhADIza - nahi. jo dekhADaze, to e corAI jaze, arthAt enuM phaLa tAre gumAvavuM paDaze. ___ AlambitA hitAya syuH, paraiH svaguNarazmayaH / aho svayaMgRhItAstu pAtayanti bhavodadhau // be mANaso hoDI uMdhI vaLI javAthI bharasamudramAM DubI rahyA hatA. tyAM moTuM vahANa 8 AvyuM. vahANanA mANasoe DubatA mANasone bacAvavA mATe jADA-moTA doraDA E pANImAM nAMkhyA. baMne mANasoe doraDuM pakaDI lIdhuM. doraDAnA AdhAre vahANa para caDI ne gayA, bacI gayA. - jagatamAM AvuM bane che, paNa AdhyAtmikakSetramAM eka jabaruM Azcarya sarjAya che. ka | te e che ke DubanAro eka mANasa jema jema doraDuM pakaDato jAya, tema tema e vadhu ne A vadhu Dubato jAya. bAkI badhA mANaso e ja doraDAne pakaDIne upara caDatA jAya, bacI A [ jAya. kaMI samajAyuM tane AnuM rahasya ! na samajAyuM ? to sAMbhaLa ! tArI pAse pravacanazakti-vaiyAvaccazakti-brahmacaryazakti-nirmaLasaMyama-ghoratapa- ' adbhuta-svAdhyAya-adhyApana-lekhana-zuddha AlocanAdAna. vagere vagere DhagalAbaMdha | guNo che, guNo eTale doraDuM ! A doraDuM jo bIjAo pakaDe, arthAtu bIjAo tArA || sa A guNonA vakhANa kare, prazaMsA kare to teo guNAnurAgI banyA kahevAya. tenA pratApe | Na teo zuddhi pAmI vahelA mokSe jAya. thIIIIIIIIIIIIT ahaMkAra 0 (89)

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A aninidA bIjI moTI, ziSyAdika kAje muni niMdA karatA bhavanI koTI , zithilAcAra e prathamamurkhatA muninidA bIjI zoka rU. 5 1 ba - 5 H.. ga pa 6P pa 6P | 'ka | la ya paNa e ja doraDuM jo tuM pakaDIza, tuM ja tArA guNo gAIza-gavaDAvIza-gAnArAne anumodIza, 'huM vaiyAvaccI ! tapasvI ! svAdhyAyI ! sarvaguNasaMpanna !' ema kulAto ? * jaIza. to tuM taravAne badale vadhu ne vadhu saMsAramAM Dubato jaIza. nuM kAraNa? kAraNa e ja ke tuM ja tArI prazaMsA kare - karAve, to e ahaMkAradoSa kahevAya. e nIcagotrAdi pApakarmo baMdhAve. enAthI saMsAra vadhe to emAM koI ja Azcarya nathI. A ahaMkArano nAza karavA koI upAya kharo ? hA ! mahopAdhyAyajI e upAya darzAve che ke uccatvadRSTidoSotthasvotkarSajvarazAntikam ! pUrvapuruSasiMhebhyo bhRzaM nIcatvabhAvanam // huM bIjA badhA tapasvIo karatA sAro tapasvI chuM." huM bIjA badhA svAdhyAyIo karatA sAro svAdhyAyI chuM.' huM bIjA badhA prabhAvaka pravacanakAro karatA, bIjA badhA vaiyAvaccIo karatA, 9 bIjA badhA saMyamIo karatA vadhu sAro pravacanakAra, vadhu sAro vaiyAvaccI, vadhu sAro saMyamI chuM.' = A mArI jAtamAM huM je uMcAInA darzana karuM chuM, e eka moTo doSa che. enAthI 8 3 ja mArA AtmAmAM ahaMkAra nAmano tAva utpanna thayo che. jema zarIramAM kaMI paNa 3 kharAbI hoya, doSa hoya, to enA vikAra rUpe tAva vagere mAMdagI Ave. ema 3 ne mArAmAM A je mArI uMcAInA darzana karavAno, doSa paDelo che, enA ja kAraNe ? ahaMkArarUpI tAva utpanna thayo che. A e tAvano nAza karavA mATeno upAya e ja ke ene utpanna karanAra doSane tageDI bha mUkavo. doSa dUra thaze, eTale ApoApa ja tAva dUra thaI ja jaze. uccatvadaSTi e doSa che, ene kADhavA mATenuM rAmabANa auSadha che, nIcatvabhAvanA ! mArA guNo amukanI apekSAe uMcA che. mATe mane e darzanathI ahaMkAra jAge che. paNa mArA e ja guNo keTalAya mahAtmAonA guNonI apekSAe to sAva nIcA | ja che. e jo vicAruM, to mAro badho ahaMkAra ogaLI jAya. kabula che ke navakArazI-ekAsaNA-besaNAdi karanArA karatA 98mI oLI karanAro CINNIndiding ahaMkAra 0 (90)

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parananI rAje, tehI ja gurupadalAyaka ziSyo guru banatA hitakAje, dhana che dha, - gItAratha AcAranA pAlaka guruparInTI rAje. teDI , 1. 'r E 1 ke 3 4 5 ? F ; - huM mahAna chuM. 97 oLI sudhInA tamAma tapasvIo karatA paNa huM uMco chuM. paNa vartamAnamAM jainazAsanamAM 100 upara oLI karI cUkelAo 300 jeTalA mahAtmA che. | S' e badhAthI huM sAva nIco chuM. bhUtakALamAM to 10 hajArathI paNa vadhAre upavAso IT tta karanArA chaThAsaMghayaNavALA paNa thaI gayA che... to mArA tapanI kiMmata keTalI ? tuM ta, kabula che ke meM 45 Agamono abhyAsa karyo che, paNa meM e Agamo gokhyA maiM nathI. jayAre be-cAra mahAtmAo to Aje paNa evA che ke jemaNe 45 Agamo gokhyA ja tti che. vaLI meM to Agamo vAMcyA ja che, keTalAka mahAtmAoe to enA upara addabhuta na 7) ciMtana karIne moTA moTA pustako lakhyA che. keTalAka vaLI AgamanA mahattvanA na zI padArthonuM saMkalana karatA saMskRta grantho racI rahyA che. mArI pAse Agama bhaNanArA mAMDa zA * pAMca dasa jaNa ja che, jyAre phalANA mahAtmAe to atyAra sudhImAM 50 thI 100 5 mahAtmAone bhaNAvI dIdhA. raka basa A ja rIte badhI bAbatamAM mAre samajI levuM che. AmAM pUrvanA mahApuruSo karatA nIcatAnI bhAvanA karavAnuM jaNAveluM che. enuM 9 B kAraNa e lAge che ke pUrvanA mahApuruSonI to dareka kSetramAM sogaNI - hajAragaNI - B 8 lAkhagaNI siddhi jovA maLavAnI, ane eTale e DuMgarane jotA ja mArA jevAnuM zarU B potAnI guNa-TekarInuM abhimAna kakaDabhUsa thaI jAya che. paNa (1) pUrvanA mahApuruSo najara sAme nathI, (2) te badhA to viziSTa saMghayaNavALA hatA, mATe A badhuM karI zake, (3) temane nimitto ghaNA sArA maLatA hatA, mATe teo AvuM karI zake... AvA AvA vicAronA kAraNe jo mane pUrvanA mahApuruSonI mahAnatAnuM ciMtana A ahaMkAranAza mATe upayogI na bane, to paNa vartamAnamAM paNa mArA karatA ghaNA sArA A | mahAtmAo dareke dareka viSayamAM che ja, bhale emanA guNo DuMgara jeTalA nahi hoya, mAM paNa e mArI guNaTekarIne jhAMkhI pADI de eTalA TekarA jeTalA to kharA ja. e mArI || najara samakSa hovAthI, teo lagabhaga mArA jevA ja saMghayaNavALA hovAthI tathA amane badhAne nimitto lagabhaga sarakhA maLelA hovAthI emane joIne mAro ahaMkAra ogaLavAno e pAkI vAta ! zarIrarupalAvaNyagrAmArAmadhanAdibhiH / / varSa: papaH rilAyanI ja che ane huM 0000000000000 ahaMkAra (91) I T

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miSTanuM bhojana nArIdarzana bhaMDAdika paNa tyAge, svacchaMdatA choDI guruparataMtrI banatA hitarAge. dhana te...92 mAro AtmA jJAnAnaMdamaya che. pudgalo sAthe mAre koI saMbaMdha nathI. chatAM 'mAruM zarIra keTaluM majabuta - kahyAgaruM - nIrogI che.' ema vicArIne mane zarIrano ahaMkAra jAge che. 'mAruM rUpa adbhuta che. sapheda cAmaDI, sapramANa uMcAI, pAtaLuM chatAM mAMsala zarIra...' A badhuM vicArIne - joIne mane mada jAge che. ema e zarIranuM lAvaNya, mane stu ja guru tarIke mAnatA te te gAma-nagaro-saMgho, mArA tAbAmAM rahelA tIrthonA manohara bagIcAo, mane bhakto taraphathI maLatA karoDo rUpiyA... A badhAno nazo mane caDe che. are ! A to badhA pudgalanA paryAyo che. zuM lAge vaLage mAre enI sAthe ? 7 mAre to ratnatrayI sAthe ja nisbata ! A pudgalaparyAyo kyAM koInA zAzvata TakyA gA che, ke mArA Take ? enuM abhimAna karavAno matalaba zo ? ta ji zuddhAH pratyAtmasAmyena paryAyAH paribhAvitAH / azuddhAzcApakRSTatvAnnotkarSAya mahAmuneH // A jagatanA jIvomAM be paryAyo jovA maLe che. AtmAnA zuddhaparyAyo ane pudgalo saMbaMdhI azuddha paryAyo ! mArAmAM paNa A baMne prakAranA paryAyo che. mane emAMthI zeno ahaMkAra jAge che ? EF FUL sabhyajJAna, samyagdarzana, samyapcAritra A ratnatrayI AtmAno zuddhaparyAya che. enI sAme 25-50 ziSyonuM gurupada - Adeya nAmakarmAdinA kAraNe pravacanomAM hajAro lokonuM Agamana - cArebAju mArA mATe mIThImIThI suvAsa - hAjara javAbIpaNuM buddhinI atyaMta tIkSNatA - zarIra tapathI ogaLI javuM... A badhA to pudgalathI utpanna thayelA azuddha paryAyo che. - na F F 5 ta sma FFFFF Wor bha bha zuM mane mArAmAM pragaTI gayelI ratnatrayInuM abhimAna che ? arthAt mArI pavitra A pariNatinuM abhimAna che ? 'bIjAomAM cAritrapariNati nirmaLa nathI, mArI pariNati A mahAna che, bIjAomAM samyaktva nabaLuM che, mArAmAM sabaLuM che. bIjAomAM suvivekanI khAmI che, mArAmAM saMpUrNatA che...' AvA badhA ahaMkAra jo mane satAvatA hoya to mArA mATe e bilakula yogya nathI. kemake e zuddhaparyAyo to dareke darekamAM sarakhA ja che, samAna ja che. pharaka mAtra eTalo ja che ke mArA zuddhaparyAyo amukaaMzamAM pragaTI pre cUkelo che, teonA zuddhaparyAyo hajI DhaMkAyelA che. paNa emAM kaMI mAre garva karavA jevo pre kSa che ja nahi. cha kSa jema chokarAne janma ApI cUkelI mA paNa mA kahevAya che, to garbhavatI strI paNa Na " ahaMkAra (62) m

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zika para rAkhI daLoSa, dhanate..97 tarakAdikamAM sthApe jIvane saMnidhi nAme doSa, tala ke 3, pA (H pa tra sa va | 'ka mA ja kahevAya che. ene chokaro janmyo nathI, paNa enAthI kaMI jhAjho pharaka nathI , paDato. Aja-kAlamAM eno janma thavAno ja che. " koIka vepArI potAnA karoDo rUpiyAnA ratnone tijorImAMthI bahAra kADhIne S] 7 joto hoya - dekhADato hoya to bIjA vepArInA ratno enI tijorImAM ja paDelA hoya. RpaNa baMne karoDopati ja kahevAya che. jenA ratno tijorImAM DhaMkAyelA che. e kaMI ! OM bhikhArI nathI kahevAto. pahelo vepArI evuM abhimAna karato ja nathI ke huM vadhu je zrImaMta ! juo mArA ratno ! pelo vepArI bhikhArI !' ema mArA zuddhaparyAyono janma thaI gayo che, to bIjAnA zuddhaparyAyo garbhamAM Sii che. mArA zuddhaparyAyo pragaTa thayelA che, to bIjAnA zuddha paryAyo tijorImAM che. paNa A A che to badhAnA sarakhA ja. eTale zuddha paryAyonI daSTie huM koInAthI paNa mahAna chuM. ja nahi, to mAre eno ahaMkAra kema karAya ? hA ! je azuddhaparyAyo che, emAM cokkasa huM bIjA karatA AgaLa chuM. # mArI 15 ziSyo che, mArA vaDIla sAdhuo ziSya vinAnA ke ekAda-be EE # ziSyavALA che. mArI pravacanazakti jagamazahUra che. bIjA sAdhuonA vyAkhyAnamAM E mANasa ja thatuM nathI. mAruM rUpa-mArI prabhAvaktA lokone AMjI denArI che. bIjAo = B svayaM lokothI aMjAI-DaghAI janArA che. huM vidhavidha bhASAmAM seMkaDo pustako lakhI = 3 cUkyo chuM, bIjAo to vAMcI zakavAmAM ya asamartha che. huM 98 oLI karI cUkyo chuM, 8 bIjAone to 98 AMbilanA ya phAMphAM che... 3 AvI AvI to DhagalAbaMdha bAbato mArI pAse che. paNa eka ja miniTa ! A A azuddhaparyAyonI kiMmata keTalI ! pelA anaMtakALa mATe anaMtasukha denArA A mAM zuddhaparyAyonI sAme A azuddhaparyAyo to sAva sAva tuccha ja che ne ? kyAM kohInUra ratna ! kyAM gaMgAkinAre lokonA pagataLe chuMdAto kAMkaro ! kyAM svarganI apsarA urvazI ! kyAM hAtha-paga-nAka-kAna vinAnI 100 varSanI DosalI ! kyAM vanarAjasiMha ! kyAM beM beM karatuM bakaruM ! - A badhAnI upamA karanAro ya mUrkhAonA saradAranI sAthe upameya banI jAya. | Na to kyAM e paramapavitra - zAzvatasukhadAyaka zuddhaparyAyo - ratnatrayI ! NATITANANIT ahaMkAra 0 (93) DIWAITIATIVITI,

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ane jenAthI, e niSparigrahatAguNadhArI munivara bhAgyasaMgAthI. dhanate Teva nA zreSThi savi janatA dAsa bane jenAthI ema kyAM A malina - nazvara - saMsAravadhUnamAM samartha azuddhaparyAyo ! AvI tuccha vastuno ahaMkAra thAya ja zI rIte ? kayo vepArI evo ahaMkAra karato dekhAyo che ke huM vizvano mahAna mANasa chuM. tti kemake mArI pAse nadI kAMThe khuMdAto kAMkaro che." kyo Doso evo ahaMkAra karato dekhAyo che ke huM sauthI bhAgyazALI puruSa chuM. te tra ke jenI pAse A hAtha-paga-kAna-nAka vinAnI 100 varSanI DosalI patnIrUpe | birAjamAna che." [ kayo zikArI evo ahaMkAra karato dekhAyo che ke have ApaNe gabharAvAnI jarUra ja nathI. mArI pAse bakaruM che. jaMgalamAM e siMhano sAmano karaze. ApaNane rakSaNa pUruM IT TpADaze." to paudgalika paryAyonI tucchatA - nazvaratA - malinatA jANyA bAda eno ja re ahaMkAra thaI ja na zake. kSomaM gacchansamudro'pi svotkarSapavaneritaH / guNaughAn budbudIkRtya vinAzayasi kiM mudhA // pAtALakaLazomAM pragaTelo vAyu jyAre UMco-nIco thAya tyAre enI upara raheluM che 8 samudranuM pANI paNa uchALA mAre, pariNAme e pANImAMthI nAnA nAnA abajo abajo re 3 TIpAo AkAzamAM - dharatI para chuTA-chavAyA verAya, parapoTA rUpa bane.. ane e rIte e abajo TIpAo nAza pAme. mArA AtmAmAM jayAre svotkarSa - svAbhimAna rUpI vAyu pragaTe che, tyAre ? | enAthI AtmaguNo rUpI pANI bahAra pragaTavA mAMDe che, emAMnA keTalAya guNo A A ja rIte parapoTA jevA banI banIne nAza pAmavA mAMDe che. zuM A rIte mAre mArA A tma guNone khatama karI nAMkhavA yogya che? nirapekSAnavacchinnAnantacinmAtravRttayaH / yogino galitotkarSApakarSAnalpa-kalpanAH // munio to mAtra AtmapariNatimAM, AtmAnaMdamAM masta hoya. e anaMta * AtmAnaMdane koI paNa parapadArthanI apekSA ja nathI, e anaMta AtmAnaMda zAzvata che. * * koI ene chedI zakatuM nathI. saMsArI jIvone halakA-nAnA jIvone joIne potAnAmAM je utkarSanI hajAro paNa CITIATIVITTH ahaMkAra 0 (94) MOTIVATION

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bhavabhItA, rahe aparigraha rAkhe, dhana te...9 eka vadhu muhapanI rAkhI te bhaTakyA bhava mATe. mahA 1 | H. 5 F P 45 F # E F F 5 - kalpanAo thAya che, emAMnI ekapaNa kalpanA A yogIone thatI nathI. te to e ja saMsArIjIvo moTA-mahAna jIvone joIne potAnAmAM je apakarSanI re Da hajAro kalpanAo kare che, jAtamAM dInatA anubhave che, laghutAgranthino bhoga bane che, paNa mATe ja Depression jevA mAnasikarogomAM aTavAya che emAMnI eka nAnakaDI kalpanA tu paNa A yogIone satAvatI nathI. emanI vicAradhArA ekadama spaSTa che. tamAma jIvomAM ratnatrayI eka sarakhI che, enuM abhimAna mAre hoya ja nahi. nA badhA sarakhA chIe. paugalika paryAyo mArA che ja nahi, to pArakI vastuno ahaMkAra | mAre hoya ja nahi. kamAla karI che mahopAdhyAyajIe 8 gAthAnA gAgaramAM sAgarano avatAra karIne ! || mArA jevA keTalAya ahaMkArIonA magajamAM bharAI gayelI rAI kADhI nAMkhavAnuM kAma ra A mahAtmAe karyuM che. have to mAre A aSTakanuM ciMtana vAraMvAra karavuM che. utpanna 4 thatA ahaMkArane zAMta karavA mATe A ciMtana parama auSadha banI raheze. - hA ! e sivAya paNa mAre ghaNA vyavahAru upAyo ajamAvavA che. - huM mArA guNonI - mArA kAryonI - mArI zaktinI prazaMsA kadI nahi karuM, re jAherAta kadI nahi karuM. - - huM bIjAnA guNonI - kAryonI - zaktinI prazaMsA avazya karIza, jAherAta re avazya karIza. R - mArA guNonI - kAryonI - zaktinI prazaMsA koI kare, to huM e sAMbhaLIza nahi, e sthAna tarata choDI daIza. mArI prazaMsA karanArA koIpaNa patro Ave, huM e A vAMcIza nahi. vaMcAI jAya to ya tarata ja phADI nAMkhIza. eka karatA vadhAre vAra to A mAM nahi ja vAMce. ane bIjAne vaMcAvIza nahi. mArA nAma AgaLa tapasvIratna-pravacanaprabhAvaka - lekhaka ziromaNI... vagere vagere koIpaNa vizeSaNo huM nahi lakhAvuM. (zrAvako enI meLe lakhI nAMkhe, mane khabara che [ na hoya e judI vAta !). - huM bIjAnA guNomAM - kAryomAM - zaktimAM truTio dekhavAnuM, e badhAne * dekhADavAnuM, eno pracAra karavAnuM halakaTa kRtya nahi AcaruM. - - huM mArA guNonuM - kAryonuM - zaktinuM smaraNa - ciMtana nahi karuM. kemake e Na CO M ahaMkAra (5) che 1000

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para jaI malinasthaLa-alpamUlyanA vastrothI rahetA hoze. dhanate. .. chAtI che komaLa vastro, vaLI sukhazIlatA pope jIrNa-palina-sthaLa - r = * = - mane nazo karAvanAra bane che. - je je bAbatomAM mArI viziSTatA mane dekhAya che, te te bAbatonI vadhu , Cii joradAra viziSTatA dharAvanArA pUrvanA mahApuruSone ane vartamAnanA mahAtmAone huM ! roja bhAvapUrvaka be hAtha joDI - mastaka namAvIne vaMdana karIza. A che ahaMkAranAza mATenA sarvottama upAyo ! mArA prabhu ! tame mane mArI A sAdhanAmAM sahAyaka banajo . H o 3, 5) = *E IS S T F = ka a s \ / H. 5 &che che $ huM $ 2 * - . 8 ka jha o | Innnnnnnnnnnng ahaMkAra 0 (6) ANTIMINFINIT. T

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8. doSa naM. 7 majAka-mazkarI (7) majAka-mazkarI : Ama to A majAka-mazkarI sArI lAge. kemake emAM badhA stu hase, gamagInInuM vAtAvaraNa na rahe. badhAne paraspara lAgaNIbhAva vadhe... eTale mane tu ghaNIvAra ema lAgatuM ke 'A kaMI khoTuM nathI.' paNa zAstro vAMcyA ane jIvanamAM paNa meM keTalAka prasaMgo anubhavyA, e pachI meM na to cokkasa lAge che ke saMsAramAM ane mugdhajIvomAM majAka-mazkarI bhale AnaMdadAyaka ni - vastu gaNAtI hoya, paNa e AdhyAtmika kSetre bhayaMkara nukasAna karanArI vastu che, e na aa AlokamAM paNa kyAreka moTA anartho khaDA karI de tevI vastu che. mArA dvArA thayelI majAka-mazkarI koIkanA bhAvaprANano nAza karI denArI vastu paNa banI zake che. huM A vAta nahi samajuM to mAre ghaNA apAyo bhogavavAno vakhata Avaze. sa nA ya ta hwa spe khaNavA maje eka taNakhaluM karakaMDu muni rAkhe, to ye traNa pratyekabuddhono mITho Thapako cAkhe. dhana te...97 ma in ekavAra gurujI pAse ame badhA sAdhuo alakamalakanI vAto karatA hatA, tyAre gurUjIe kaheluM ke "ApaNe jaina sAdhuo videzamAM jaI na zakIe; eTale tyAM jainadharmano pracAra thato.nathI. eTale ja jainetaro tyAM phAvI jAya che. ApaNA zrAvako jo A viSayamAM taiyAra thAya to ja kaMIka kAma thAya." ane e vakhate meM eka sAdhunI mazkarI karI ke 'gurujI ! ApaNo A sAdhu Ama paNa mAMdo che. vihAramAM takalIpha paDe che, navakA2zI ka2vI paDe che, ene ApaNe yati banAvI daIe. brahmacarya pALe ane vimAna-gADImAM besIne dharmano pracAra kare...' mA majAka-mazkarI (90) wh F bha huM to mastImAM A zabdo bolI gayo. paNa eno AghAta pelA sAdhune keTalo badho lAgyo enI khabara to mane dasa divasa bAda tyAre paDI ke jyAre e sAdhu mArI pAse AvIne mane kahevA lAgyA ke chellA dasa divasathI mane tamArA pratye khUba A asadbhAva thayo che. tame mane yati banAvI devAnI vAta karI. enAthI mane ghaNo ja AghAta lAgyo. mAruM zarIra nabaLuM che. eTale mAre navakA2zI ka2vI paDe che, vihAramAM muzkelI paDe che. paNa eTale huM zuM asaMyamI banI gayo ? mane paNa saMyama game che. saM kuragaDu traNavAra khAvA chatAM ya kaivalya pAmyA che. badhAnI vacce tame mane bhUtakALanA pre zithila yati tarIke jAhe2 ka2Ine mAruM ghora apamAna karyuM che. A ja kAraNe dasa pre divasathI mAruM mana khUba pIDita che. Aje kSamA mAMgIne huM A doSathI chuTavA Avyo chuM...' sa kSa Na red__5_FF D ya - mR.

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nIkaLatA paLa lAge, viNamAMge paNa maLatI vastu niSparigrahI tyAge. dhana che, | Aga lAge to savi upAdhi saha nIkaLatA paha, 'r , pA E - E = "E_45 F E E F | G | arerere ! mArI nAnakaDI mazkarI eka mahAtmAne dasa dasa divasa sudhI pIDA Ape. - |ene ArtadhyAna karAve e keTalo moTo doSa ! A to sAruM thayuM ke bIjuM kaMI na banyuM? IpaNa jo e ja dasa divasa daramyAna emane AyuSyano baMdha paDe to? kaSAyabhAvanA | 7 kAraNe durgati ja thAya ne? koI sAdhu to vaLI AvA vakhate dIkSA choDI de ke ApaghAta ta paNa karI le... jo doSa e mahAtmAno bilakula nathI, paNa mAro che. prabhue AvI majAka karavAnI ja cokhIcaTa nA pADI che, paNa meM AjJA toDI tyAre ja AvuM banyuM ne ? nA eka saMghamAM eka zrAvaka roja sAMje pratikramaNa karavA AvatA hatA. paNa vacce nA traNeka divasa e na dekhAyA ane cothA divase emano avAja saMbhaLAyo ke "sAmAyika * levAno Adeza ApazojI' ane meM vaLI majAka karI ke kema ? zrAvakajI ! jIvo cho ne? traNa divasa dekhAyA nahi? | sAmethI koI javAba na maLyo. meM Adeza ApI dIdho. pratikramaNa pUrNa thayA la bAda e zrAvaka mArI pAse AvyA. badhAnI vacce lAlacoLa thaIne kevuM bolyA hatA ? 9 e vakhate ! "Aje huM tamArA gurujIne patra lakhavAno chuM. tamane bolavAnuM bhAna nathI, 3 e emane kahevAno chuM. huM traNa divasa kAraNasara na Avyo. eTale tame mane marelo B mAnI lIdho ? ke jethI tame pUcho cho ke "jIvo cho ne ?' A praznano artha zuM? zuM ? 3 huM marI gayo hato ?.." tyAre mane bhAna thayuM ke mArA majAkanA zabdoe AkhuM pratikramaNa emane krodhanI 8 # AgamAM bhabhUkatA rAkhyA hatA. meM khUba mAphI mAMgI mAMDa mAMDa zAMta pADyA. 8 ekavAra huM kApa kADhavA mATe kasamaye pANI levA gayo, koI mANasa vahorAvanAra | A hAjara na hato. meM cAra-pAMca miniTa tapAsa karIne eka zrAvakane bolAvIne pANI A vahoNuM, upara be ghaDA mUkI AvI bIjA be ghaDA vahoravA nIce utarato hato, tyAM mitra che. munine joIne mazkarImAM huM bolyo ke "cAlone, mane pANI vahorAvavA Avo ne ?' nIce koI vahorAvanAra nathI." T emanuM moDhuM caDI gayuM, javAba Apyo nahi. pAchaLathI mane samAcAra maLyA ke che e munie badhAne kahyuM ke "huM kaMI nokara chuM? huM kaMI saMsArI chuM? ke mane pANI pre kSa vahorAvavAnuM kahe che. e mane sAdhu nathI mAnatA, saMsArI mAne che, mATe ja evuM kahe kSa dha ne ?' MAINMMIL majAka-mazkarI 0 (98)

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apasA paraniMdAnA vacanona dharatA kAne, dhanate...99 " kAnamAM paDatA dhagadhagatA sIsAnA rasasamajANe. AtmaprazaMsA paramiMdAmA 'IT 'fr F E S S F = "E 45 45 F F S E T F F S ) RF mArA jIvanamAM AvA to keTakeTalA prasaMgo banyA che ! AnA nukasAno paNa |keTalA badhA thAya che ? - majAka-mazkarIthI bIjA mahAvratano bhaMga thAya che. e bhISmapratijJAne E tu kuhADIno ghA lAge che. - majAka-mazkarI karanArAone kAMdapika kakSAnA sAdhuo kahyA che. AvA strI sAdhuo ekAdabhava kAMdapikadevomAM janma pAmI, e pachI A majAka-mazkarInA pApe ghaNo lAMbo saMsAra bhaTake evI zakyatAo zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra vageremAM spaSTa | dekhADelI che. - majAka-mazkarI karanAro svayaM hase bIjAone hasAve, bIjAone paNa A joI majAka-mazkarI karavAnuM mana thAya, pachI to vAraMvAra ghaNA sAdhuo nAnA-moTA ja prasaMgomAM majAka-mazkarI karyA ja kare. svAdhyAyano ghAta thAya, samaya bagaDe.... - majAka-mazkarI karavI - hasavuM e paNa eka vikAra che. AvI mukhamudrAvALA = 8 sAdhune joIne koI strIne vikAra jAge to navAI nahi. ane to pachI patananA bIja 9 vavAtA jAya to paNa navAI nahi. jema puruSone gaMbhIra strIne badale hasatI strIne # joIne vadhu AkarSaNa jAge, evuM ja strIone puruSa mATe che. eTale ja sAdhue gaMbhIra rahevuM joIe. enA mukhanI udAsInatA-gaMbhIratA joI koI strIne enA tarapha # AkarSaNa na thAya. eTale ja patananA koIpaNa nimitto ubhA na thAya. . - zrI sthAnAMgasUtrakAra vagere mahApuruSo spaSTa lakhe che ke svAdhyAya-dhyAna- E vaiyAvacca vagere zubhayogomAM lIna banavAnA lIdhe je zubhabhAvonI dhArA pragaTI hoya - je aMtarmukhatA pragaTI hoya - je AtmamastI pragaTI hoya... ene aTakAvavAnuM - A toDavAnuM - nestanAbuda karavAnuM kAma kare che hAsya-majAka-mazkarI ! je bhAvadhArA A . kevalajJAna ApavAnI tAkAta dharAve, ene toDIne anaMtasaMsAranI zakyatA ubhI || [ karanArA A doSane sahI kema levAya ? upekSI kema zakAya ? - A ThaThThAmazkarImAMthI ja kyAreka moTA vairabhAvo janma pAmatA hoya che. draupadI hasatA hasatA ja bolIne ke "saMghe 1 putra graMtha' ane karoDo mAnavono e sarvanAza veratuM mahAbhAratanuM yuddha pragaTa thayuM. guNasena rAjakumAre nAnapaNamAM majAkanA | kSa mUDamAM ja brAhmaNaputra agnizarmAne ghaNo satAvyo, ane e jherIbIjanA phaLa kevA kSa LA ugyA, bhavobhava sudhI kevo vairAnubaMdha cAlyo... e badhA jANe ja che. jene huM mAro majAka-mazkarI 0 (99) INITIATION

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nirdhAra. svane paNa tRNamAtra parigraha karatA bahu bhaya dhAre. dhana te... 1 sakala vizvane kAmaNagArI niHsaMgA nirdhAra, svapna paNa nA - 'F S S 49 F E F F paramamitra mAnato houM, enI ja jo huM ghaNAnI vacce majAka karuM - mazkarI karuM... : to kadAca ene evo ghA lAgI jAya ke e kAyama mATe mAro kaTTara zatru banIne rahe. A ' Ama mitratAne mArI nAMkhavAnuM kAma A ThaThThAmazkarI kare che. - ghaNA badhAnI vacamAM koI mArI mazkarI kare, mArA upara badhA hase, huM bhoTho R paDI jAuM... to zuM e mane game che ! mane apamAna lAge che ne ? mane pArAvAra eka duHkha thAya che ne ? to sIdhuM gaNita eTaluM ja che ke je majAka-mazkarI koI mArI kare, je tti to mane nathI gamatuM, to e ja majAka-mazkarI huM koInuM karuM to e tene paNa nahi ja | game, ene apamAna lAgaze, kadAca e nAno haze. zaktihIna haze to bhale sAmo A pratikAra nahi kare, paNa aMdara to atyaMta duHkhI banaze ja. eka sAdhu tarIke huM jo pRthvI nA 5 vagere sthAvarajIvone pIDA nathI Apato, to mahAvratadhArI mahAtmAne pIDA ApavI IT e koIpaNa rIte yogya nathI, nathI ne nathI ja. Na majAka-mazkarI karanAro ghaNuM jUTha bole... eTale ja enA vacanonI AgeyatA na rahe. jeo gaMbhIra hoya, kyAreka bolatA hoya, alpa bolatA hoya.. emanA para B vacano atyaMta AdaraNIya bane. e je bole, ene bIjAo dhyAnathI sAMbhaLe, svIkAre. 8 8 eTale huM A hasAhasImAM paDIne mArI ja kiMmata ghaTADuM chuM. mArI jAtane jokara banAvuM che 3 chuM. e kSaNika AnaMda bhale Ape, te vakhate badhA bhale hase... paNa mArI AdeyatA che a - mArI AdaraNIyatA - mArI upayogitAmAM dharakhama ghaTADo thAya che. e mATe bilakula 8 bhUlavuM na joIe. mane mArA jIvanamAM sAkSAta anubhavAya che ke mArAmAM A ThaThThA-mazkarI majAka- ka hAsyanA saMskAro eTalA badhA vadhI gayA che ke nAnA-moTA dareka prasaMgamAM mAnasika. vAcika-kAyika nAnI-moTI majAka satata karyA karuM chuM. dIkSA-vaDI dIkSAnA prasaMgamAM jayAre nUtana dIkSita para cokhA-vAsakSepa nAMkhavAnA Ave, tyAre AgaLa beThelA ke AjubAjumAM beThelA munio para paNa vAsakSepa nAMkhuM, emane vAsakSepathI raMgI dauM... A rIte hoLI ramavI e paNa eka | majAka che ne? moTA prasaMgomAM pAchaLa beTho beTho AgaLanA sAdhuonA kapaDAomAM gAMTha lagAvuM che kSa e paNa eka mazkarI ja che ne ? koIka sAdhune jAte ja paDilehaNa karavAnI bAdhA hoya, e mane khabara hoya, e ] majAka-mazkarI 0 (100) INDIAN

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svAdhyAya uvekhe, gacchAcAre nindo jANI svAdhyAye mana rAkhe, dhanate para upakAra kAje paNa munivara svAdhyAya uvekhe , po) 4 mahAtmAne jarUra na hoya chatAM khAnagImAM jaI emanA vastronuM paDilehaNa karuM, e sAdhu A buma pADe eTale bhAgI jAuM... A paNa eka majAka-hAsya ja che ne ? kApa kADhatA kADhatA koInA para pANI DhoLavuM - koInA para chAMTA uchALavA... | tu A badhuM paNa majAka ja che ne ? - gAthAo gokhatI vakhate kyAreka jANI joIne moTA avAje bolavuM, citra- | | vicitra avAjo karavA, game tevA rAgamAM bolavuM, ... A paNa eka majAka ja che - 5 ? 5 ke 1 te te sAdhuonI vyAkhyAnazailinI ekTIMga karavI, te te vyaktinI cAlavAnI- | bolavAnI-khAvAnI paddhatinI ekTIMga karavI, A rIte badhAne hasAvavA... e paNa eka majAka ja che ne? joksa kahevA, vAte vAte dvi-arthI zabdo bolavA eTale ke sAmevALo pUche kaMI che ane huM zabda-chaLa karIne javAba ApuM kaMI... e paNa eka majAka ja che ne ? pratikramaNAdimAM sAdhune dhakko mAravo, coka-pena vagerethI pITha pAchaLa lakhANa karavuM.. A badhuM paNa majAka ja che ne ? 8 emAM ya dvi-arthI zabdo bolavA rUpa eTale ke zabdachaLa karavA rUpa majAka to 3 huM keTalI badhI karuM chuM. + koI pUche "tamArI tabiyata kema che?" ane huM javAba ApuM ke "e to e tabiyatane ja pUcho ne ? ke e kevI che? mane zuM kAma pUcho cho ?' = + gocarI mAMDalImAM sAdhu pUche ke 'payasa AvyuM che? AvyuM hoya to Apo ? |ne?" ane huM pANIno ghaDo emanI pAse mUkI dauM "lo, A payasa !" pelA kahe ke A dUdha che ke nahi?" ane huM kahuM ke "tame payasa mAMgyuM che, A payasa ja che ne ? saMskRtamAM A A payasa ja kahevAya. + huM koInuM paDilehaNa karavA jAuM ane e kahe ke "mAre paDilehaNa karAvavAnI bAdhA che." eTale huM kahuM ke "tamAre paDilehaNa karAvavAnI bAdhA che ne ? paNa tame kyAM paDilehaNa karAvo cho ? huM sAmethI ja karI jAuM chuM. eTale tamArI bAdhA tUTatI nathI." + gocarImAMDalImAM huM koIne mISTa vaparAvavA jAuM ane e kahe ke "mAre pAMca | drivyanI bAdhA che, ane mAre pAMca dravya thaI gayA che.' e vakhate huM boluM ke "tame to Na kAyama eka dravya ja vAparo cho. tamAre pAMca dravya thayA ja nathI. roTalI-zAka-dALa- guNa CINITIATIMIT majAka-mazkarI 0 (101) DITINITIATI TWITTTT ) H. I .1 + , 4 = 'vI che

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piTi paNa rAte, zAstravacana jozI paLa paNa na bagADe phogaTa vAte dhanA dhana : bagaDe phogaTa vAta. dhanate...102 pAvasAdika pATha kare gacchAdhipati paNa (T F S S = "E 45 - bhAta-dUdha A badhuM ja pudgala nAmanuM eka ja dravya che. tame pudgala sivAya kyAM kaMI Eii vAparo cho. A mISTa paNa pugala ja che, eTale tamane cAlaze.' + koI sAdhu kahe ke "mArI jagyAethI davAnuM jhoLIyuM Apazo. ane huM badhI ! a davA emanI jagyAe khAlI karIne ekaluM jhoLIyuM e sAdhune ApuM. e sAdhu mArI . 7 sAme jUe, ane huM hasatA hasatA kahyuM ke "tame to davAnuM jhoLIyuM ja maMgAvyuM che ne ? je e tamane ApyuM. tame davA kyAM maMgAvI che ! eTale ja davA tamArI jagyAe mUkI che. li Avyo ?' - + koI pUche ke "mAre mAMDalInuM zuM kAma karavAnuM che?' ane huM kahuM ke "basa ! bapore gocarI vAparavAnI, pachI UMghI javAnuM, tarasa lAge tyAre pANI vAparavAnuM, rAtre pratikramaNa karavAnuM, pachI UMghI javAnuM. bolo, phAvaze ne? na phAve to kahejo, T bIjAne soMpI dezuM. kAma karanArA ghaNA che." { + koI pUche "tamane dIkSA lIdhAne keTalA varSa thayA ?' ane huM kahuM "saMsAra = choDyAne jeTalA varSa thayA eTalA.", + koI pUche "tame darzana karI AvyA?" kahuM 'hA'. e pUche ke "to bolo. 4 # bhagavAnane mAthe mugaTa hato ke nahi ? bhagavAnane AMgI caDAvelI hatI ke nahi ? 8 tame dhyAnathI darzana karyA che ke bedhyAna banIne ? enI mAre parIkSA karavI che." = ane huM javAba dauM ke "huM prabhunA mukha para ja eTalo badho ekAgra banI gayelo ? ke mAthe mugaTa ke zarIre khokhuM jovAnI mane phurasada ja na hatI. vaLI huM bhagavAnanA B darzana karavA jAuM chuM, mugaTanA nahi." T + koI pUche "tame bapore ArAma karo cho?' ane huM javAba dauM ke "huM bapore A ke rAte uMghato ja nathI." "zuM vAta karo cho ? rAtre paNa nahi." "nA. mithyAtva e e ja nidrA che. huM to samakitI chuM, sAdhu chuM. eTale huM kyAreya mithyAtvarUpI nidrAmAM poDhato nathI. bAkI dravya nidrA to bapore kalAka ane rAtre 7 kalAka hoya che.' | + meM eka sAdhune kahyuM ke "tamane cAra-pAMca sAdhuo maLavA AvelA." pelA | | sAdhue pUchayuM ke "koNa hatA? kayA samudAyanA? kyAMthI AvelA?' meM kahyuM ke "saMsAra | - samudAyanA hatA. amadAvAdathI tamane ahIM muMbaI maLavA AvelA." mAro kaTAkSa e samajI gayA "e to pAMca gRhastho AvelA. e ja ne ? tame | Na jUTha kema bolo cho ke sAdhuo maLavA AvelA? 'E Is - E F F S S000000 meM IIIIIIIIIIIM majAka-mazkarI 0 (102) IIM Ahmin

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sapada denArA, sarvazreSTha vAgyAyayoga maladhArIjI kahenArA, dhana yoga asaMkhya jinazAsanamAM muktipada denArA, sarvo. Na A A A A ? 5 la ka ma ke meM kahyuM "je sahana kare te sAdhu! bicArA e pAMce gRhastho saMsAramAM keTaluM sahana che. na kare che. gaIrAte gADImAM keTaluM badhuM sahana karatA ja AvyA che. mATe e sAdhu kahevAya." AvA AvA to dvi-arthI zabdo, zabdachaLa koNa jANe meM keTalA badhA karyA haze? | seMkaDo ? hajAro? kadAca lAkho to nahi hoya ne ? paNa A nAnAmAM nAno doSa paNa mArA saMyamamAM aticAra lagADe che. mArA | AtmAnI pavitratAmAM nAnuM kalaMka utpanna kare che. basa, have mAre gaMbhIra banavuM che. na cenacALA ! na dvi-arthI zabdo ! na majAka ! na mazkarI ! na joksa ! eka sAcA sAdhune zobhe evI gaMbhIra mukhamudrAnA dhAraka mAre sadA mATe banavuM che. mAre nIcenA niyamo barAbara pALavA che. (1) "koI hase evA vacano mAre bolavA nahi, evA hAvabhAva mAre dekhADavA ra nahi, evI ekTIMga mAre karavI nahi. (2) joksa kahevA nahi. ' (3) jyAM ThaThThAM-mazkarI thatI hoya e sthAne mAre javuM nahi, tyAM zaru thAya to sthAna mATe choDI devuM. (4) more roja vicAravuM ke "sAdhu potAnA doSo badala, enAthI baMdhAtA karmo 8 badala, enAthI utpanna thanArI durgatio badala satata ciMtita hoya, eTale ja gaMbhIra 8 hoya. enA moDhA para khaDakhaDa hAsya kadI na zobhe. e to jagatanA jIvonA duHkho 8 1 vicArIne karuNArta banelo hoya. enI AMkhomAM svadoSonA pazcAttApanA AMsu, jIvonI karuNAnA AMsu, jinazAsanarAganA AMsu cokkasa zobhe, paNa batrIzI | A dekhADatuM hAsya na zobhe..." jo A niyamo pALIza, to mArI gaMbhIratA-AdeyatA-vacanasiddhiyaza vadhaze, tya mArI AMtarika guNasamRddhi paNa vadhaze. huM banuM prabhuvIrano sAco aNagAra ! huM banuM jinazAsanano sAco zaNagAra ! huM banuM jIvono sAco tAraNahAra ! Imam majAka-mazkarI 0 (103) ITIHAS

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gAyAdika zaktipAcana karatA, te ja muni jinazAsananI sAcI sevAne nI sAcI sevAne karatA. dhanate.. 104 taiyAvarathI svAdhyAyAdika zaktipAcana , 9. doSa naM. 8 - svadoSa bacAvo r 'F jamAnAnA nAnA jAmIna 45 Yr 5 E (8) svadoSa-bacAva : mane mokSanI IcchA nathI evuM to nathI. cAritra gamatuM tuM nathI evuM to nathI. paNa chatAM evI vicitratA mArAmAM che ke huM mArA doSono 7 ekarAra jaldI karI zakato nathI. e doSo mArA pakaDAI na jAya, e mATenA prayatno ti 2 karato rahuM chuM. bhUlathI jo doSo pakaDAI jAya to pachI emAM mAro bacAva jeTalo vadhu jo thaI zake eTalo vadhu karavAno prayatna karuM chuM. e mATe thoDAka jUTha, thoDIka mAyA paNa na = sevI besuM chuM. huM mArA doSa chupAvuM chuM ke eno bacAva karuM chuM, enI pAchaLanA kAraNo e . A che ke kyAMka mane yaza-kIrti vagere ghaTI javAno bhaya rahe che, kyAMka guru vagereno Thapako | maLavAno bhaya rahe che. kyAMka moTA prAyazcitta maLavAno bhaya rahe che... ane kyAMka che to evo koI bhaya hoya ke na hoya paNa basa eka saMskAra ja paDI gayA che ke mArI - 8 jAta kharAba dekhAvI na joIe. # ekavAra gurujIe mane kahyuM ke ahIMthI doDha ki.mI. dUranA saMghamAM pajusaNa B karAvavA javAnuM che. paNa tuM atyAre tyAM jaI Ava. comAsA pahelA kSetra joI levuM ? 3 sAruM ane muhapattInuM paDilehaNAdi vidhi karIne emanI pAse yAcanA karavAnI ke "ame 8 9 pajusaNamAM Avaze tyAre tamArA pATa-pATalAdino vaparAza karazuM." 8. gurujInA kahevA pramANe badhI vidhi karIne pAcho to Avyo, paNa pelI yAcanA B karavAnI rahI gayelI, gurujIe mane pUchayuM ke "jaI Avyo ! pATa-pATalA vAparavAnI 8 rajA mAMgI lIdhI ?' A e vakhate mane bhAna thayuM ke "nA, e rajA to meM mAMgI ja na hatI. paNa have A dha jo huM nA pADuM to gurujI mane Thapako Apaze. kadAca pAcho mokalaze. ATaluM nAnuM kAma huM barAbara na karI zakyo, eTale emano mArA parathI vizvAsa uThI jaze. ane eTale meM mAro doSa chUpAvI dIdho ke "hAjI ! badhuM patAvIne Avyo chuM." dIkSA bAda ekAda varSane AMtare mArA saMsArI mitro mane maLavA AvelA, mane | che. eka varSanI vAto sAMbhaLavAno ane kahevAno utsAha paNa khUba hato. maitrI hovAthI sa aMgata lAgatI paNa ghaNI hatI. paNa dIkSAjIvanamAM A rIte mitro sAthe lAMbo samaya kSA vAto karavI e gurune kema game ? gacchanA sAdhuone paNa kema game ? INa yeon IIIIIIIIIIIM svadoSa bacAva 0 (104) IIIIIIIIIIM

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4 Adine zAtA Ape, jIvanasamAdhi maraNasamAdhi te zAzvata sukhane maLe che. sasakhane mApe. dhana te A taiyAvaccathI lAnavRddha Adine zAtA Ape che 105 chatAM huM mArI lAgaNIne rokI na zakyo. upAzrayamAM koIka ekAMtasthAne mitro, - sAthe vAto karavA beTho. gurujInA paDilehaNamAM paNa na gayo, gurujInI vAcanAmAM paNa | S na gayo. mArI gerahAjarInI noMdha thaI, cheka sAMje vaMdana vakhate mane gurujIe pUchayuM | 7 ke "kema Aje paDilehaNa-vAcanAmAM hAjara na hato ?' e vakhate meM mArI bhUla chupAvI. 'ka jUTha bolyo "jI ! tabiyata thoDIka sArI na hatI. eTale...?' gurujI catura hatA emaNe zAMta chatAM spaSTa avAje pUchayuM ke "tArA mitro maLavA gaM AvelA, temane maLyo ke ?' "hAjI ! javAba dIdho. keTalA kalAka emanI sAthe beTho ?' gurujIe pUchyuM, huM kharekhara traNeka kalAka mitro sAthe beThelo. paNa e kahI dauM to mArI chApa || kevI paDe? gurujI mane Thapako Ape, eTale ja huM khacakAtI jIbhe bolyo "aDadho kalAka jeTaluM beThelo.' 3 gurujI mArI vAta sAMbhaLI mArmika rIte hasyA, huM jhaMkhavANo paDI gayo. "zuM E 8 vAto karI ?' navo prazna pUchyo. pharI meM ardhasatya uccAryuM "dharmanI vAto karI, meM ER upadeza Apyo...' 8 chevaTe gurujIe mane kevI majAnI zikhAmaNa ApelI ke "jo ! doSa sevavo enA B karatA sevAyelA doSane chupAvavo e vadhu bhayaMkara che. tuM traNeka kalAka mitro sAthe beTho EB che, e mane khabara che. dharma sivAya paNa ghaNI badhI saMsAranI vAto paNa thaI che, e ? E= mane khabara che ane atyAre tuM tArA doSane chUpAvavAno prayatna kare che, e paNa mane trA khabara che. AvuM na karavuM. A to ThIka che ke A bhayaMkara doSa nathI. paNa A rIte A jo svapApone chupAvavAnA, svabacAva karavAnA saMskAra paDI jaze, to AvatI kAle A | moTA doSo paNa sevAI jaze, e paNa tuM chupAvaze, ane eno aMjAma zuM Avaze e ya tane khabara che ?' gocarI vahoravAmAM mAro hAtha chUTo ! maMgAvyA karatA vadhAre ja gocarI mArA |. bahAthe Ave. gaNavAnI kALajI paNa na karuM. ghaNIvAra mArA mATe A phariyAda thayelI, I paNa mAro svabhAva na sudharyo. paNa ekavAra to mAMDalImAM kula AvelI gocarImAMthI pre | aDadho-aDadha gocarI vadhI paDI. emAM mISTa vagere paNa ghaNuM ja vadhyuM. gurujI ane sa vyavasthApaka akaLAI gayA. jAheramAM prazna pUchyo ke "gocarI koNa lAve che ?' paNa IIIIIIIIIT svadoSa bacAva (105) IIIIIIIIIIIII

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rAja tIrthakarapadavInuM kAraNa vaiyAvacca je karatA zAstra pramANe svArtha cho , 4 1 0 ame pAMceka sAdhuoe AMgaLI uMcI karI. 'tame badhA gaNIne lAvyA cho ?' - gurujIe prazna pUchayo, ane vArApharatI badhAe 'hA' pADI. huM gaNyA vinA lAvelo. :) C chatAM jo sAcI vAta karuM to... ane meM javAba dIdho "hA jI ! gaNIne lAvelo. paNa mArA svabhAvathI paricita eka mahAtmAe tyAre ja gurujIne phariyAda karI ke "e na dara vakhate vadhAre lAve che, emano hAtha bhAre che..." ane meM mAro joradAra bacAva karyo ke gurujI ! gocarI vadhavAnA traNa kAraNo s \ a s 4 ) B- 4 0 0 10000 (A) ame maMgAvyA karatA vadhAre lAvIe, (B) athavA vyavasthApaka noMdhAvelI kula gocarI karatA vadhAre maMgAve ke pachI nA gocarI ja barAbara na noMdhe (C) athavA gocarI vAparanArA noMdhAvyA pramANe gocarI na le - ochI le... 1. B eTale AmAM mAtra lAvanArano doSa nathI....... 8 aMte gurujIe vAta TuMkAvI dIdhI. kema Aje besaNuM karyuM ? Aje to caudaza che. caudaze to AMbila karavuM joIe. ene badale besaNuM ? ane emAM ya A savAre ja cakAra-mIra maMgAvyA? AvuM kema ? 8 cAle ?' hitecchuoe eka caudaze mane Thapako Apelo, paNa bacAva karavA huM taiyAra ? 2 ja hato. "mAruM mAthuM duHkhe che ane zarIramAM azakti lAge che, eTale cakAra ane 4 mISTa maMgAvyA che..." = huM na kahI zakyo ke "savAranI jAhera navakArazI joI mana lalacAI gayuM, ane 4 eTale ja meM besaNuM karyuM che. mAthAno duHkhAvo - azakti to meM ubhA karelA che. e kAraNo che kharA, paNa e mATe besaNuM karavuM paDe evuM to nathI ja.' koIe mane kahyuM ke "sAheba ! Apano avAja dhImo che, badhAne vyAkhyAnamAM mAM saMbhaLAtuM nathI. ApanuM gaLuM khulluM nathI." ane meM tarata bacAva karyo ke "huM to 5000 mANasane saMbhaLAvI zakuM eTalo samartha chuM. paNa huM sabhA pramANe avAja kADhuM chuM. mane ema ke A nAnI sabhAmAM nAno * avAja pahoMcI jaze. paNa jo na pahoMcato hoya to AvatIkAlathI avAja moTo kADhIza." bIjA divase vyAkhyAna bAda pharI e ja phariyAda AvI, thoDoka ja sudhAro thayelo Na svadoSa bacAva . (10) 10000 s 8 . 8 e .

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paNa mAsakSapaNatapadhArI, nirAhAra banavAnI sAdhanA AhAra tyajI mati banI AhAra tyajI muni dhArI. dhana te.... 107 bAvIsajinanirvANakALe paNa mAsa 3, pa, { . A ? - jANavA maLyo. ane meM navuM bacAva-zastra choDyuM "A hola ghaNo moTo ane uMco che, [; eTale zabdo phelAI jAya che, mATe avAja nathI pahoMcato. hola nAno-nIco hoya te A to vAMdho na Ave.' | trIjA divase nAnA-nIcA holamAM vyAkhyAna goThavyuM, paNa pharI pAchI e ja phariyAda ! mAtra thoDIka maMda phariyAda ! bacAva mATe trIjuM zastra meM kADhyuM ke "A holanI najIkamAM ja rastA upara vAhanonI-lokonI avarajavara che, eTale pAchaLa beThelAone jo 'avAja nathI saMbhaLAto..." cothA divase vaheluM vyAkhyAna goThavyuM, jethI vAhanono avAja na naDe. paNa 17] | navakArazI pUrve goThavAyelA e vyAkhyAnamAM paNa chelle avAja spaSTa na saMbhaLAto | hovAnI phariyAda ubhI ja rahI. ane mAro bacAvapakSa paNa ubho ja rahyo ke "bhAI ! A to ATalo avAja paNa pahoMcyo, e Azcarya che. bAkI navakArazI vAparyA vinA A huM to mArAthI bolI ja nathI zakAtuM. A to bhagavAnano prabhAva ane tamArA badhAno : - puNyodaya... eTale vagara vAparyuM ATaluM bolI zakyo...' kharI hakIkata eTalI ja che ke mAro avAja kharekhara dhImo che. huM game eTalu B moTethI boluM to paNa 600-700 mANasathI vadhAre mANaso sudhI mAro avAja nathI 8 pahoMcato. paNa A sAva sIdho sAdo mAro zArIrika doSa svIkArI levAne badale meM bahAnAo ja kADhayA. vaLI A kaMI mAruM pApa na hatuM, chatAM A mAro svabhAva ja che B che ke "huM khoTo paDuM-nIco dekhAuM - bhUla karanAro dekhAuM.. e mArAthI sahana na thAya. 2 (Ama jovA jaIe to A ahaMkArano ja eka aMza che...) gurujIe mane pUchyuM ke "Aje gAthA kAcI kema che? roja to ekadama pAkI hoya che...' ane meM bacAva karyo ke "gurujI ! A AjubAju badhA bolabola kare che, enA kAraNe gAthAmAM bhUla paDe che. zAMti hoya to bhUla na paDe..." paNa mArI bhUla meM na kabulI ke "hA ! Aje gAthA gokhavA moDo beThelo. eTale ocho samaya maLavAthI meM utAvaLe - utAvaLa gAthA gokhI che, ane eTale ja barAbara sI pAkI nathI karI..." mAMDalImAMthI phariyAda AvI ke "pANI barAbara TharatuM nathI. koNa pANI lAve che ? kSa veTha utAravAmAM Ave e na cAle." ane e phariyAdane AdhAre vyavasthApake pANI | lAvanAra mane Takora karI ke "AvuM kema cAle ?' EFF Frilliliin mammja svadoSa bacAva (100) Inning

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devo kesaramizritajalathI dIkSotsava muja karatA, locathI vahetI rudhiranI dhArA joI AnaMdane varatA. dhana te...108 tarata meM bacAva karyo ke 'pavana ocho hoya che, eTale pANI TharatuM nathI. vaLI parAto paNa ochI che. eTale pANI TharatuM nathI. emAM huM zuM karuM ?' na Da paNa kharekhara to kAma patAvavA mATe huM jaldI jaldI pANI gaLI leto hato, 5 stu lAMbo samaya TharavA deto na hato. eka-be ghaDA jo alpa garama pANInA maLyA hoya, stu | ta to 'ghaDAmAM paDyuM paDyuM A pANI TharI jaze.' ema vicArIne ghaDAmAM ja mUkI rAkhato. ta maiM paNa e ThArato-gALato nahi... A badhA mArA doSo meM pragaTa na karyA ane ocho sma pavana-ochI parAto ane chelle ghaDA rIDhA thaI gayA hovAnuM bahAnuM AgaLa karI mArI 6 jAtane zuddha dekhADavA prayatna karyo. Ina nA ya zA 'bahAra eka ki.mI. 52 sthaMDila javAnI jagyA maLe ja che, to tame kema vADAmAM zA sa jAo cho. emAM to doSa lAge.' eka vaDIle mane kahyuM ane meM bacAva karyo ke 'huM vADAmAM nathI jato, pyAlAmAM jaI bahAra paraThavI AvuM chuM.' tarata vaDIle kahyuM ke 'bhale tame pyAlo paraThavI detA hazo, paNa jyAre sIdhI ja jagyA maLatI hoya, tyAre pyAlAno upayoga zA mATe karavo ? A to sukhazIlatA che. najIkamAM game tyAM paraThavI devAya, dUra javuM na paDe e mATe AvuM karo e bilakula barAbara nathI...' mArA 52 sukhazIlatAno - pramAdano - niSThuratAno Aropa Avato hato, huM zI rIte mArI bhUla svIkAruM ?, mArI buddhi rUpI bhAthAmAMthI eka navuM bacAvazastra kADhI mukha rUpI dhanuSya para caDAvI meM e bANa choDI mUkyuM ke 'mane eka ki.mI. javAmAM koI vAMdho nathI. paNa mane jyAre sthaMDilanI zaMkA thAya che tyAre utAvaLa thaI jAya che. huM eka ki.mI. pahoMcI ja na zakuM. vaLI mane e jagyAmAM barAbara phAvatuM nathI. 'bhUlathI paNa koI AvI caDaze to ?' evA bhayanA kAraNe mArI peTazuddhi barAbara nathI thatI. mATe ja huM pyAlAno upayoga karuM chuM.' A ma 11 FFF #FFFFF za A ma huM vahelI savAre mAruM paDilehaNa karIne vaDIlonA vastronuM paDilehaNa karavA nIce utaryo, paNa vaDIloe mane Tokyo ke 'hajI to aMdhAru che, ATaluM vaheluM paDilehaNa kema karo cho ? thoDoka prakAza thavA do. pachI karajo...' tyAre huM aMdhArAmAM paDilehaNa saM karanAro asaMyamI sAbita thaI rahyo hato, eTale meM bacAva karyo ke 'amAre uparanA saM prema mALe to bahAranI gelerImAM prakAza vahelo thaI jAya che, eTale ja meM paDilehaNa karI pre sa lIdhuM. A nIcenA holamAM prakAza moDo thAya che. bAkI meM mAruM paDilehaNa to prakAzamAM ja karyuM che.' | kSa Na svadoSa bacAva 0 (108) 11111111IIIIIII

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zaraNya cho deva kRpA karone, mohAnyakAre dIvaDo dharone, vizvAsa vizve jinajI tamAro, nathI anero sahAro amAro. 1 'kaima mahAtmana ! varasAdanA chAMTA to cAlu hatA, chatAM tame derAsare kema gayA ?' derAsarathI pAchA pharelA mane vaDIloe sUcanA karI, ane meM tarata bacAva karI ja lIdho ke 'nA, nA ! chAMTA AvatA na hatA. mane to saMpUrNa varasAda baMdha lAgyo eTale ja darzana karavA gayelo...' FEE FEE F hakIkata spaSTa hatI ke jIvadayAnA mArA pariNAma nabaLA ! eTale ja rojanI ta maiM Avazyaka vidhio dhaDAdhaDa patAvI devAnI mane kuTeva che. emAM jIvahiMsA thAya to paNa sma - mane sadbuddhi jAgatI nathI. pachI jyAre koI Thapako Ape, tyAre bIjI-trIjI vAto ni 7 lAvIne nirdoSa chuTavAno prayatna karuM. 11111111 ekavAra meM hoMzamAM ne hoMzamAM aThThamanuM paccakkhANa laI lIdhuM. paNa pahelA ja divase sAMje to evo azakta thaI gayo ke besI rahevAnA paNa mArAmAM hoMza na rahyA. mArI A hAlata joIne keTalAka sAdhuoe tarata mane pRcchA karI ke "upavAsa sAro nathI thayo lAgato, tamAruM zarIra nabaLuM che. to zA mATe khoTA uchALA mAro cho..." S stu huM nabaLo chuM ane huM khoTe khoTo caDI janAro chuM, evuM mArA svabhAvamAM raheluM duSaNa huM svIkAravA taiyAra na hato. meM bacAva karI ja dIdho ke 'Ama to mAruM zarIra sAruM che. aDhAI karuM ne, to paNa mane vAMdho na Ave. paNa gaIkAle atta2vA2NuM barAbara na thayuM. emAM vaLI rAtre be-traNa vAra sthaMDila javuM paDyuM, eTale Aje azakti vadhAre lAge che. bAkI to mAruM zarIra joradAra che. huM koInA caDAvavAthI caDI jAuM evo nathI.' #FF000dddddddd na zA sa nA ya ekavAra meM svAmIvAtsalyanI manabhAvatI mIThAIo AsaktithI prerAIne vadhAre vAparI, enuM phaLa mane maLyuM ja. jhADA thavA lAgyA, ajIrNa thaI gayuM. sahavartIoe tarata kahyuM ke 'tame gaIkAle mISTa vadhAre vAparyuM ne, eTale A hAlata thaI. pramANasa2 vAparyuM hota to vAMdho na Avata.' A bhA paNa A zabdo dvArA to huM 'khAudharo-Asakta' sAbita thAuM ne ? e mArAthI kema sahana thAya vaLI bhaviSyamAM mane pharI A rIte mISTa vAparavA na maLe. A siM badhA mane aTakAve... eTale meM mArI bhUlo DhAMkavA mATe kALo kapaDo oDhI lIdho ke saM pre'mISTa to AnA karatA doDhuM vAparuM ne, to paNa mane pacI jAya che. paNa gaIkAle pre kSa pUrIo kAcI hatI, mogaradALa paNa ekadama kAcI hatI. vaLI mAMDalImAM baMne vastu kSa vadhelI, eTale maMgAvyA uparAMta khapAvavA paNa levI paDI. khapAvavAnI nA kema paDAya ? r Na 111 ( svadoSa bacAva 7 (109) A ma

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kAne visA jinajI amone, to yena bhulIye kadIye tamone , mokSe gayA deva toye tamArA, dhyAne ramo citta sadA amArA ba pa tra ka - jo pahelethI khabara hota ke A baMne vastu vadhavAnI che. to huM mITa leta ja nahi. mAre E kaMI mISTa levuM ja paDe evI Asakti nathI. paNa kharekhara to A kAcI pUrI ane kAcI ; | dALa pacI nahi, enA kAraNe A jhADA thaI gayA che.' ekavAra eka vidvAna AcArya mane maLyA. "keTalo dIkSA paryAya thayo ?' emaNe = mane pUchayuM. "paMdara varSa" meM javAba dIdho. "keTaluM bhaNyA ? atyAre zuM vAMco cho ?' 'ta jo emaNe prazna karyo ane mAro saMtApa vadhI gayo. meM sAcI vAta jaNAvI ke "be buka je ki hamaNA ja pUrI thaI. gautamapRcchA vAMcuM chuM." e AcArya AghAta pAmyA "basa ? mAtra be buka ja thaI che ? paMdara varSanA 17 zA paryAyamAM ATalo ja abhyAsa ? javA do e vAta ! cAra prakaraNa-karmagrantha vagere thaI ? gayA? kula keTalI gAthA moDhe AvaDe che?' teozrIe mane pUchyuM. meM udAsa cahere IF IT ane namelA mastake dhImA svare javAba dIdho ke "jIvavicAra-navatattva thayuM che, bIjuM A paNa badhuM bAkI che. dazavaikAlikanA cAra adhyayana pAkA che. pAMcamuM gokheluM paNa kAcuM che... 8 e sivAya vairAgyazatakAdi gokheluM che kharuM, paNa hAla upasthita nathI.' AcAryazrIe lAgaNIsabhara bhASAmAM mane Takora karI ke "mahAtmana ! A to ? bahuM khoTuM kahevAya. tamAro kSayopazama tIvra bhale na hoya, paNa maMda paNa nathI. tamArA jevA kSayopazamavALA mArA ziSyo to pAMca-sAta varSamAM keTalo badho abhyAsa karI re 2 cUkyA che. kammapaDi sudhIno badho abhyAsa teone thaI gayo che. be buka-nyAya- ra Agamo-prakaraNo... tame emane pUchazo to khabara paDaze ke teo zuM bhaNyA che? mane para to bhAre Azcarya thAya che, tamAro A anabhyAsa sAMbhaLIne !' dIkSA bAda pramAda-bhakto-bhojana-niMdrA... A badhAmAM samaya veDaphI nAMkhazo to A parabhava to bagaDaze ja, paNa A bhava paNa bagaDavAno ja.." e AcArya ane pramAdI - vAtoDIyo - uMghaNazI mAnI rahyA hatA, e badhA mArA . | duSaNo DhAMkavA huM kevuM ghora pApa karI beTho. meM mArA aparAdho svIkAravAne badale mArA paramatAraka guru upara ja khoTA Aropo karI dIdhA... | "AcAryazrI ! mAre Apane A vAta karavAnI ja hatI. huM ApanI salAha ja | che levA Avyo chuM. hakIkata e che ke amArA grupamAM svAdhyAyanI koI vyavasthA ja nathI. e amArA gurujIe dIkSA bAda mane bhaNAvavA mATe koI vizeSa prayatno nathI karyA. basa, kSi | dara varSe mAre bIjA sAthe comAsu javuM paDe, mArI koI kALajI letuM nathI, mArA la AjanA mAM ke . I T svadoSa bacAva 0 (110) Dani

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AzA tamArI hRdaye dharUM chuM, to ye mahA-moha thakI marUM chuM, haiye bhulono baLApo dharuM chuM, to ye zarIre huM pApo karUM chuM. 3 svAdhyAya mATe koI dhyAna rAkhatuM nathI. mAre AmathI tema rakhaDyA karavuM paDe che. have Apa ja kaho ke mAre zuM karavuM ? guru ane gurubhAIo ja jo mA2I sariyAma upekSA kare, to huM zI rIte bhaNI zakuM ?' na S ta ta e vakhate to meM mArA gurujI 52 ja badho doSa DhoLI dIdho. paNa Aje mArI stu jAta nihALatA mane lAge che ke e mAtra mAro bacAva hato. kAraNa ke zaruAtanA maiM varSomAM gurujIe mane abhyAsa mATe vAraMvAra preraNA karelI ja, khuda e pote mane pATha ma 6 ApatAM hatA. paNa meM ja bhaNavAmAM ocho rasa dAkhavyo. huM ADA-avaLA pustako 7 vAMcato, sAdhuo sAthe vAto karavA besI jato, bapore ane rAtre vahelo uMghI jato... | F zA chelle thAkIne mArA gurujIe mArA mATe svAdhyAyanI apekSA tyAgI dIdhI. svAbhAvika jJA che ke huM bhaNato na houM, to saMghATaka tarIke mane mokale, e rIte zAsananA kAryo sAcave emAM emano zuM doSa ? sa nA Chandrade na mAM mArA karatA nAnA sAdhuo paNa Aje mArA karatA dasa-vIsa gaNuM bhaNI cUkyA che. jo mAsa grupamAM abhyAsanI vyavasthA ja na hota, to teo zI rIte bhaNata ? vaLI mane gAthAo gokhatA koNa rokI zakatuM hatuM ? jo meM rojanI eka gAthA gokhI hota, to paNa Aje 5000 jeTalI gAthAo mane kaMThastha hota... paNa mane to 500 gAthA paNa kaMThastha nathI. bha F #_ __EN mAro vikathA-niMdrA-pramAda-vAtocIto-hasAhasI-bahirmukhatAdino svabhAva DhAMkI devA mATe meM gurvAdi pUjyone halakA cItaravAnuM kevuM ghora pApa bAMdhyuM ? tame kAjo barAba2 kADhajo. gocarI mAMDalImAM gaIkAle dANA rahI gayelA, kIDIo thaI gayelI...' vyavasthApake mane phariyAda karI ane tarata meM kahyuM ke 'huM to A barAbara kAjo kADhuM chuM. paNa sAdhuo gocarI vAparyA bAda potAnuM Asana jo2thI khaMkhere che, eTale Asana paranA dANA dUra sudhI uDe che. huM to vAparavAnI jagyAe kAjo kADhuM chuM. eTale dUra paDelA dANA rahI jAya che...' saM kharekhara to mAro doSa spaSTa hato ke jo mane khabara ja hatI ke A rIte dANA dUra sudhI uDe che, to mAre thoDoka dUra sudhI kAo levo ja joIe ne ? athavA to pre sAdhuone Asana dhImethI khaMkheravA kahevuM joIe ne ? paNa e karyuM nahi ane chatAM pre mArI bhUla na hovAno bacAva cAlu rAkhyo. kSa kSa ekavAra luNA mATe phariyAda AvI ke 'tame mAMDalImAM luNuM lAvatA nathI, bIjAnuM Na 0 svadoSa bacAva (111) A ma T

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bhAvo pavitra pragaTe na haiye, svAmI kahI kemapavitra thaIe, karmo nacAve amane bhulAve, pApo vinA kAMI yAda nA Ave. 4 vAparo cho, e na cAle.' ane tarata meM kahyuM 'mAruM luNuM koIne koI laI jAya che, pachI huM zuM karuM ?' S Da ta 15 varSanA mArA itihAsamAM jo AvA nAnA-moTA prasaMgo yAda karuM to mane stu lAge che ke hajAro prasaMgo mArA jIvanamAM banyA haze. paNa e dareka prasaMgamAM mArI stu 7 bhUla thaI gaI. Ape mane cetavyo, e sAruM karyuM. mArAmAM pramAda-ALasa-upekSA# niSThuratA che... Apano khUba upakAra...' e zabdo kharA hRdayathI raDatI AMkhe mAre sma tri bolavA jarUrI hatA, mArI bhUla hatI ja, je mAre svIkAravAnI hatI. paNa dara vakhate | meM mArI buddhino upayoga karI game te rIte mAro bacAva karyo, mAro doSa nabaLo ke tra jJA nahivat sAbita karavA prayatna karyo. sa nA nA ya e vAta sAcI ke e dareka prasaMgamAM huM 100% gunhegAra na hato. paNa e vAta paNa eTalI ja sAcI ke ekeya prasaMgamAM huM 100% nirdoSa paNa na hato. kyAMka 10%, 6 kyAreka 25%, kyAreka 80% paNa mArI bhUla to hatI ja. paNa eTalI bhUlanI kSamA mAMgavAno, sudhAro karavAno vicAra mane na Avyo. AnA nukasAno mAre ja bhogavavA paDyA che. ->> jo doSo svIkAryA hota, kharA manathI kSamA mAMgI hota, sudharavAnA prayatno karyA hota to zaruAtamAM ja e bhUlo dUra thaI jAta. mAro svabhAva sonA jevo banI jAta. paNa bacAvo ja karato rahyo eTale e bhUlonA saMskAro vadhatA ja gayA, gADha banatA gayA... ane jema jUno roga sAta dhAtumAM prasarI gayA bAda prAyaH mota sudhI paNa deha na tyAge, ema have A bhUlo-saMskAro AkhI jIMdagI mArAmAM ghara karI jaze. 000000000000 F F bha -> bhale sAdhuo mArI sAme vadhu dalIla na kare, paNa huM jo ema mAnato houM ke 'meM mAro karelo bacAva emane sAco lAgyo che.' to e mArI murkhatA che. munio A A catura che, badhuM samajI ja jAya che. teo mane khoTo sAbita karI zake che, paNa teo khAnadAna che, bIjAne duHkhI karavA nathI cAhatA, eTale ja teo mauna rahe che. paNa A rIte mArI chApa keTalI kharAba paDe ! bhaviSyamAM koI mArI sAthe rahevA taiyAra na thAya. mArA mATe eka apayaza cArebAju phelAya ke 'A sAdhu bhAre jIddI che. pre kadI potAnI bhUla svIkA2ze nahi. tame ene ekAda bhUla paNa dekhADazo to sAme e pre kSa dasa dalIlo karIne ja raheze.' saM kSa rogI jo DokTara AgaLa paNa potAnA rogo pragaTa na kare. DokTara sAmethI Na Na ( svadoSa bacAva (112) - FEE GOPIN ma .

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zA saMga sadA game hA, devAdhidevA dahejo vikAro, mukti kinAre amane ha. vairAgya sAco hRdaye vase nA, rAgI taNA saMga sadA ga ba , pa. E ^ S' , . ga t "E P 5 F T F 'va A roga darzAve, chatAM "nA, nA ! mane to A roga che ja nahi." ema jIda pakaDe to - - bahu ja spaSTa vAta che ke paropakArI DokTara paNa e dardInI upekSA karaze. A rIte e ? roganI davA nahi thavAthI roga vakaraze, chevaTe mota Avaze. | ema huM guru pAse paNa mArI bhUlo na svIkAruM, e mane sAmethI bhUlo darzAve | chatAM huM jIda pakaDI rAkhuM ke "mArI bhUla che ja nahi' to mArA paramopakArI guru paNa jo mArI upekSA karaze. ane mArA e doSo vakaraze, chevaTe mane chaThInA dhAvaNa yAda rtha karAvanArI durgatio bakSI deze. upadezamAlAmAM keTalI badhI masta vAta karI che ke nnaDaVT dore..! | zA mRgAvatIe potAnA aparAdhano svIkAra karyo. bacAva karavA mATe ghaNA tarko hovAnA Eaa chatAM guraNI sAme bacAva na karyo, page paDIne bhUlanI kSamA mAMgI, to e ja vakhate mRgAvatIne kevalajJAna utpanna thayuM. - mokSaprApti mATeno A keTalo suMdara-saraLa upAya ! svadoSono hRdayathI svIkAra ! AkhA vizvamAM AnA jevA sarvottama zabdo kadAca eke ya nahi hoya ke "hA # mArI bhUla thaI gaI. mAro doSa che, meM khoTuM karyuM... huM mAphI-kSamA mAMguM chuM." mAre have AvA banavuM che. dareka prasaMgamAM mAro je 1%, 2%.... 80% jeTalo E # doSa hoya. e mAre svIkAravo ja che. mArI nirdoSatAnA 99%, 98%.. 20% ne ? 3 mAre AgaLa nathI karavA, kemake e bacAva karavAno svabhAva mArA 1-2-80% doSa E bAbatamAM paNa bacAva karato karI de, evI saMbhAvanA pAkI che. 8. bhagavaMta ! bhAvanA to che mRgAvatI banavAnI ! paNa mAro jIvaDo che pAcho ? vAMko ! e kaMI mArI bhAvanAne sIdhesIdhI pAra utaravA nahi de, eTale tAre mArA A sahAyaka banavuM paDaze, to ja A mahAyuddhamAM huM vijaya meLavI zakIza. sahAya karazo ne ? mArA mAlika ! 5 | 000000000000 svadoSa bacAva 0 (113) 100 100.00

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cha ane bhikhArI, tuM nAtha mAro hasato nihALI, emAM vadhe nA yazakIrti tArI, samaje te tArI, samaje have svAmI laI lyone tArI, huM dAsa tAro bhamato libArI taka ( 10. doSa naM. 9 - apekSA , , 5 (r E ,1 81 E . ga = "H ? 6 5 3 1 2 = ( (9) apekSA : meM dIkSA zenA mATe lIdhI che? eno javAba mana to Ape che ke "mokSa mATe !" huM savAra-sAMja pratikramaNa zenA mATe karuM chuM? mokSa mATe ! huM khUba | bhaNuM chuM zA mATe ? mokSa mATe ! huM gurujInI khUba vaiyAvacca-bhakti karuM chuM zA mATe? | mokSa mATe ! saMyamajIvananA seMkaDo-hajAro yogo huM ArAdhuM chuM, zA mATe ? eno javAba mane ri | | mana taraphathI eka ja maLe che ke "mokSa mATe !' paNa A mahAkapaTI-luccA-badamAza mArA mana upara mane have bharoso nathI. e A | mana mAruM hovA chatAM mAruM nathI. mArA zatruonuM jAsusIkAma A mana kare che. mane na | badhI khabara che, chatAM huM ene mArI zakato nathI, ene bhagADI zakato nathI... khera ! | toya eka vAta to nakkI che ke mane mana para vizvAsa nathI, lagIre vizvAsa nathI. re mana mane kahe che ke "huM niHspRha chuM, nirapekSa chuM, nirAzasa chuM... mane koI 3 9 pAse kazI ja apekSA nathI. mane mAtra ne mAtra mArI Atmavizuddhino ja khapa che. e ? sivAya kazAyano nahi." paNa mAre A vAta mAnatA pahelA mArI jAte A badhI ja 3 # tapAsa karavI che ke zuM huM kharekhara evo chuM kharo ? ke jevo mAruM mana mane kahe che ?' ? ekavAra eka vaDIla muninA mumukSuo AgaLa meM e ja vaDIlanA doSo gAyA. enAthI gabharAI gayelA mumukSuo ghare jatA rahyA. vaDIlamunine mArA para asadbhAva na thayo ane e to svAbhAvika ja che. bIjI bAju pAchaLathI mane pazcAttApa thayo, "meM vaDIlanI niMdA karIne ghora pApa A bAMdhyuM che, pelA mumukSuonA bhAvone meM haNI nAMkhyA, arere ! keTaluM ghora cAritramoha A| mAM bAMdhyuM meM ! kamasekama enI kSamApanA to mAMgu..." ema vicArI jApa karavA beThelA mAM vaDIla pAse jaI pagamAM mAthuM mUkI meM kSamA mAMgI, mAro aparAdha svIkArI lIdho. e vakhate mane ema lAgyuM ke "mAro AtmA mosaikalakSI che, mATe ja to bhUla thatAnI sa sAthe bezarama banIne mAphI mAMgavA mATe mAro AtmA taiyAra thaI gayo. paNa vaDIle mane kSamA na ApI, u mane Thapako Apyo ke, "tamArI kSamAno ke kSa koI artha nathI, tame anekavAra AvA pApo karI cUkyA cho ane hajI karo cho. zuM sa | kiMmata AvA nATakanI !" TNa TWITTTTTTTTTT apekSA 0 (11) DITINITING

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ATaluM to Apaje bhagavan mane chellI ghaDI, nA rahe mAyA taNA baMdhana mane chellI ghaDI, ATaluM... ane mAro krodha bhabhUkI uThyo. tyAM to kaMI na bolyo, paNa bIjA sAdhu pAse jaI vaLI vaDIlanI niMdA karI ke 'e keTalA bhArekarmI che ! huM mAphI mAMgu chuM, to kSamA ApavAne badale mArA para gusso kare che. zuM karavAnA AvA vaDIlone...' na zA Aje A prasaMga yAda karuM chuM to ema lAge che ke kSamA mAMgavA pAchaLa mArI stu uMDe uMDe koIka apekSA hatI 'vaDIla mane kSamA Ape, mArI nikhAlasatA mATe be sArA zabdo bole, 'e ja apekSA hatI ne ? eTale ja jyAre e apekSA pUrI na thaI ke . ma - tarata ja krodha jAgI ja gayo. nA jo mane mAtra AtmazuddhinI ja jhaMkhanA hota to e to kSamA mAMgavAthI mane maLI 1 ja gaI hatI. vaDIla mane kSamA Ape ke na Ape enAthI mArI zuddhine koI pharaka paDato gA sa nathI ja. agnizarmAe guNasenane ane koNike zreNikane kSamA nathI ApI, to paNa guNasenAdinI zuddhi aTakI nathI. eTale AtmazuddhinI mArI apekSA to pUrI thaI ja gaI hatI, chatAM mane gusso Avyo, eno spaSTa artha A ja ne ? ke mArA manamAM vaDIla pAsethI kSamAdAnanI be mIThA zabdonI apekSA hatI. ya gurujI eka glAnasAdhunI sevA karavAnuM mane soMpI gayA, eka mahinA sudhI meM joradAra sevA karI. huM ema ja mAnato hato ke 'meM sevA karavAmAM kazI kamI rAkhI nathI.' .. mahinA bAda gurujI AvyA. glAnasAdhune maLyA bAda mane bolAvIne Takora karI ke 'jo, glAnanI sevA karavAnI hoya, tyAre svAdhyAya-zrAvakaparicaya-vyAkhyAnAdi badhuM gauNa karavuM paDe. glAna sAdhue mArI AgaLa phariyAda karI che ke ghaNI badhI bAbatomAM e tArI upekSAthI herAna thayA che...' x = ^F_b_r_FFFF OU A bhA ma huM to coMkyo. A zabdo mAre sAMbhaLavA paDaze e to meM svapnamAM paNa vicAreluM A nahi. meM gurujIne rokaDuM kahI dIdhuM ke 'A eka mahino meM tana toDIne sevA karI che. koI kamI rAkhI nathI. eno Aje mane A badalo maLe che ? mArI kadara karavAnI vAta to dUra rahI, ene badale mArI halakAI cItaravAmAM Ave che ? meM zuM zuM karyuM che e Apa sAMbhaLo...' kahIne meM mArI vaiyAvaccanuM varNana karyuM. gurujIe pelA saM pre glAnasAdhune bolAvyA ane gurujInI sAme ja meM emanA 52 badho ubharo ThAlavI pre kSa dIdho. mahAtmana ! tame AvA kRtaghnI banazo evuM meM dhAryuM na hatuM. meM tamArA pa2 kSa keTalo upakAra karyo, tame badalA rUpe mane apayaza-niMdA ja ApI ? kabula che ke mArI cha Na DO apekSA (115)

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arihaMta ! tArA smaraNathI bhavakoTinA pAtika TaLo, he nAtha ! tArUM nAmaraTatA prANa mArA nIkaLajA, ATaluM... bhUlo thaI haze, paNa tamane e bhUlo ja dekhANI ? meM karelI sevA mATe ekAda vAkya paNa sAruM bolavAnuM tamane na sUjhyuM ?' 1010101010101010 meM glAnasAdhune to cUpa karI dIdhA, paNa Aje e prasaMgano bhAvArtha vicAruM to stu ema lAge che ke 'e vaiyAvacca karavA pAchaLa uMDe uMDe paNa mane evI apekSA hatI ke stu 'glAnasAdhu mArI prazaMsA ka2ze, mAro upakAra mAnaze, guru AgaLa mArA mATe be sArA # zabdo bolaze. enAthI mane 'vaiyAvaccI' tarIkeno yaza maLaze...' ane eTale ja to stra ji jyAre mArI apekSA uMdhI thatI dekhAI-anubhavAI, tyAre mAro Akroza AsamAnane 7 AMbavA lAgyo ne ? ta phaLa to mane tyAre ne tyAre maLI ja gayuM che. jinazAsanamAM to rokaDIyo vepA2 ja cAle che. jyAre dharma karo, tyAre ja puNyakarma + nirjarA nAmanuM dhana maLI jAya, bhale pachI eno upayoga parabhavomAM thAya. eTale mane jo mAtra nirjarA ja joItI hota, to e maLI ja gayelI. pachI glAnasAdhu mArI niMdA kare ke na kare, mane yaza Ape ke apayaza Ape, mAro upakAra mAne ke na mAne... enAthI zuM pharaka paDavAno ? paNa mane to enAthI ja moTo pharaka lAgyo, eno artha e ja ke mane vaiyAvacca pAchaLa uMDe uMDe bIjI badhI apekSAo paNa hatI to kharI ja. || bAkI e vAta to spaSTa ja hatI ke meM jeTalI vaiyAvacca karI che, enuM nirjarArUpI jJA sa nA mArI 95mI oLInuM pAraNuM thayuM ane pAraNAnA divaso cAlatA hatA. paNa mAMDalImAM mISTAdi vizeSavastuo alpapramANamAM AvatI hatI. gurvAdine mATe ane glAna sAdhuo mATe e vastuo vaparAI jatI, mArA bhAge alpa mISTa AvatuM.. tyAre mane kevA vicAro AvelA ? -> A gurujIne mArI kaMI paDI ja nathI, mAre 95mI oLInA pAraNA cAle che. bhA to paNa gurune ema nathI thatuM ke 'lAva, A tapasvIne vaparAvuM.' enA badale pote sArI vastuo vApare, paNa ekeya vAra e ema nathI bolyA ke 'A tapasvIne vaparAvo, pAraNA cAle che.... na 10001 => F apekSA - (116) H re_z_FE FOR gurune mArA tapanI koI kiMmata ja nathI. kyAreya mArA tapa mATe be mIThA zabdo saM pre bolyA che kharA ? ulTuM pAraNAnA divase paNa kevA kaDavA zabdo uccArelA ke jo je. pre pAraNAmAM bhAna bhUlato nahi, viveka rAkhaje. ghaNA tapasvIo pAraNAmAM dATa vALI nAMkhe che.' kSa kSa Na Na sa OM da

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nathI nAtha mArI pAse kAMI, zuM tane arpaNa karUM, karUM koTikoTi vaMdanA, svIkArajo svAmI tame, ATaluM... zuM gurunI pharaja nathI ke ziSyanA tapanI anumodanA karavI, ene badale hitazikSA ApavAnA bahAne mAruM avamUlyana ja karyuM ne ? zuM huM khAudharo chuM ? ke mane AvI zikhAmaNa ApavI paDe. Ga i - ta ta tu 'mArA pAraNA na sacavAyA, mane sArI vastuo vaparAvavAmAM na AvI, su pAraNAmAM koIe mArI kALajI lIdhI nahi, mArI 95mI oLInI koIe potAnI mana noTamAM noMdha na karI...' e badhuM mane keTaluM badhuM AghAta pamADI gayeluM. guru pratye- ma sahavartIo pratye keTalA badhA khoTA vicAro janmAvI gayeluM, mATe ja to bIjA grupanA - sAdhuo AgaLa huM kevI niMdA karI beThelo ke 'amArA grupamAM bhAIcAro bilakula 1 gA nathI. guru ane sahavartIo badhA svArthI che. koIne koInI paDI ja nathI.' ji sa zuM meM pAraNAmAM sArI vastuo vAparavA tapa karelo ? 'badhA mane vaparAvavAno Agraha kare.' evuM sanmAna meLavavA karelo ? jAheramAM guru mArA mATe uccatama zabdo bole e mATe karelo ? guru mane anAsakta tarIkeno mukuTa paherAve e mATe karelo ? hA ! hA ! mATe ja to A badhI apekSA naMdavAtA, huM naMdavAI gayo ne ? bAkI mAro tapa mane nirjarA-kAmavikArazamanAdi aneka lAbho to karAvI ja cUkyo hato. kharekhara niHspRhatAnA sohAmaNA mahorA nIce chupAyelo apekSAonA jhuMDathI kharaDAyelo bibhatsa cahero keTalo badho bhayAvaha che ! pAraNA vakhatanA gurunA e hitazikSAnA zabdo mAre to amRta mAnavAnA hatA, pAraNAnA dUdhamAM sAkara samAna mAnavAnA hatA, paNa mane e zabdo lImaDAnA rasa jevA lAgyA. 'pAraNAmAM mArI vizeSa kALajI na thaI.' e to mAre anAsaktinI apUrva sAdhavAno avasara mAnavAno hato, paNa mane e mArI ghora upekSA, ghora apamAna samAna avasara lAgyo. A na bhA maiM ka. kaI rIte huM mArA mananI vAta mAnI zakuM ke 'huM niHspRha chuM.' mArA paricayamAM AvelA eka yuvAnane meM khUba bhaNAvyo, ghaNI hitazikSAo ApI, mahAnAstika ene pratikramaNa-ekAsaNA-pauSadhAdi anekAneka dharmomAM ekadama dRDha banAvI dIdho. dhIre dhIre ene dIkSAnA bhAva thayA, e mumukSu tarIke paNa mArI saM pAse rahyo, meM ene saMyamajIvananI tamAma prakAranI tAlima ApI. pAMca mahAvratonuM pre sUkSma svarUpa samajAvyuM. pauSadhamAM lAMbo samaya rAkhI aSTapravacanamAtAnuM jIvana jIvato pre karI dIdho. dasa zramaNadharmo ane dasa sAmAcArInA ya pATho zIkhavADyA. mana mUkIne, samaya ane zramane gaNakAryA vinA huM mumukSu upara upakAravarSA karato ja rahyo. tyAM saM kSA kSa Na Na m apekSA ) (110) mmm E_d_r_FF E F 5 da

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4 bI he viSayamAM laMpaTa banI, have AMkha khUlI paNa zuM karuM, A mIta uok. che ke, A mota ubhuM bAraNe, ATaluM... tuja ANa nA pALI zakyo chuM visthA, la ya 1 3 4 - - sudhI mane kadI mArA AtmAmAM DokIyuM karavAno vicAra paNa na Avyo. paNa, eka divasa gurue mane bolAvyo, kahyuM ke pelo mumukSu Aje mane maLI S gayo, dIkSA levA taiyAra thaI gayo che. ghare mAtA-pitAe paNa hA pADI dIdhI che. IT teM ene taiyAra karyo che, eTale e tAro upakAra khUba mAne che. paNa e guru tarIke tuM | bIjA ja sAdhunuM nAma sUcave che. e tAro ziSya thavA mAMgato nathI. bola ! zuM karavuM? a baLajabarI karIne tAro ziSya karuM emAM majA nahi. tuM hA pADe to ene enI IcchA tti pramANe guru banAvI ApuM..." mane lAgyuM ke mArA paga nIcethI dharatI sarakI rahI che... mArA haiyAnA TukaDe ne! | TukaDA thaI rahyA che, mArA mastakanA cUrecUrA thaI rahyA che... taddana aNadhAryo - zA| : akathyo A prasaMga mane hacamacAvI gayo. "Apane jema yogya lAge tema karo, mArI | [ saMmati che' ema bolIne mArA sthAne jato rahyo, paNa manamAM kevuM dhamAsANa yuddha cAlyuM. pta - "ene mArAmAM zuM khAmI dekhAI? ke e mane guru banAvavA taiyAra nathI. meM ene paNa 9 kadI khakhaDAvyo nathI, bhoga ApavAmAM bAkI rAkhyuM nathI. enA AtmAmAM ja 3 saMyamarAgathI mAMDIne aneka guNo ugADanAro mALI huM chuM. e phUla kema A mALIne 8 3 tiraskAre che ? " 8. mane lAge che ke koIe mArA viruddha ene bharamAvyo haze. mArA sahavartIoe ra 8 ene mArA doSo dekhADyA haze. hA ! e badhAmAM mArA guru paNa sAmela hoya to navAI che nahi. kemake e mumukSu jeno ziSya thavAnuM kahe che, e sAdhu guruno lADalo che. huM gurune 2 eTalo badho vahAlo nathI. guru potAnA lADalA mATe Avo pakSapAta kare, mumukSune 8 mArA viruddha caDAve evuM paNa banyuM hoya. evuM ja banyuM haze. bAkI e vinA mArI , tarapha DhaLI gayelo mumukSu Ama acAnaka nirNaya kema badale ? mane guru tarapha, e sAdhu tarapha bhAre asadbhAva thayo. ekavAra to gaccha choDI LI " devAnuM mana thaI gayuM. paNa jAuM kyAM ? koNa mArI sAthe Ave ? e mumukSune mArI pAse bolAvyo "tane mArAmAM zuM khAmI dekhAI ? kema te sa mane guru tarIke svIkAravAno InkAra karyo? tane koIe caDAvyo to nathI ne ? sAcuM sa e bola. zuM kahyuM gurue tane ?" mArA zabdomAM thoDoka Aveza - bharapUra vedanA - me duHkhiyArA tarIkenI pratIti karAvatI lAgaNI bhaLI gaI hatI. | mumukSue mane kahyuM "mane koIe caDAvyo nathI. paNa ATalA vakhata huM rahyo, paNa 3 g COMMODIT apekSA 0 (118) IMIT

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.. bI je ghora pApo meM karyo, te Asuo pADI pakhALuM durgatimaya tA. sao pADI pakhALuM durgatimaya vAravA. mATaluM.. tuja zikhAmaNa avagaNI je thI, E F 45 F S E F " emAM mane ApanA karatA paNa e mahAtmA vadhu sArA lAgyA. ApanAmAM mane koI . : khAmI nathI dekhAI, paNa e mahAtmAmAM mane vadhu uMcAI dekhAI che. Apa mArA nA Saa upakArI cho ane rahevAnA cho. bhaviSyamAM e upakAra huM sadA yAda rAkhIza. paraMtu..."ST tuM e rAtre huM raDelo, AMkhomAMthI vahetI azrudhArAe himAlayamAMthI vaheto tuM gaMgApravAha yAda karAvI dIdho. sUryanI garamIthI barapha pIgaLe, ane pANI banIne parvata parathI nIce utaravA lAge, ema saMtApa-AghAtanI garamIthI mAruM haiyuM pIgaLI re tti rahyuM hatuM, enA phaLa rUpe AMsuo vahI rahyA hatA. aMte meM mumukSu gumAvyo, mArI najara sAme e bIjAno ziSya thaI gayo. paNa Aje paNa mane yAda che ke mumukSue je divasathI bIjA sAdhune guru tarIke nakkI karyA, e divasathI meM enI kALajI karavAnuM choDI dIdhuM, ene hitazikSA ApavAnuM, enAmAM guNo ugADavAnuM kAma tarachoDI dIdhuM. enI sAthe vAta karavAnuM ? paNa lagabhaga choDI dIdhuM. # zuM A badhuM meM yogya kareluM? atyAra sudhI ene bhaNAvyo - tAlIma ApI enI # # pAchaLa, zuM uDe uDe e apekSA hatI ja ne ke "e mAro ziSya thAya..." ane mATe ja jyAre ? # e apekSA bhAMgI, tyAre huM paNa bhAMgI paDyo ne? jo meM mAtra paropakAra karavA mATe ? ja ane enA dvArA Atma-kalyANa mATe ja tAlIma ApI hota, to e mumukSu bhalene game ke teno ziSya thAya, mane zuM pharaka paDe ? eka AtmAne jJAna-saMyama ApavA dvArA meM enA ka 8 upara upakAra karyo che, e rIte meM mArA AtmA para paNa upakAra karyo che. basa, jo re 8 AtmavizuddhinI ja lAlasA mane hota, to e mArI pUrI thaI ja gaI hatI. paNa . paNa jyAM sudhI "e mumukSu mAro ziSya thavAno che' evI dhAraNA hatI tyAM sudhI A enA upara upakAronI helI varasAvI. ane jevI khabara paDI ke "e mAro ziSya A thavAno nathI tyArathI huM bAravarSIya duSkALanA AkAza jevo banI gayo, jemAMthI upakAronI helI to zuM? paNa upakAranuM eka TIpuM paNa e mumukSu para na varase. ekadama spaSTa vAta che ke huM te vakhate lAlacu hato, saspRha hato, apekSAvAna || | hato. bicArA e mumukSuno zuM vAMka ! ene potAnA guru nakkI karavAno haka che. ene sI mATe AkhI jIMdagIno prazna che. potAnI jIMdagI mATeno nirNaya e laI ja zake che. e mArI zeha-zaramamAM AvIne e potAnI jIMdagI hoDamAM mUke e to yogya nathI ja. kSA ba zAstroe guru mATe bAra varSa 700 yojana sudhI tapAsa karavAnuM pharamAna karyuM che... C RIMIT apekSA 0 (119) DIGITAL

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rAibato yadAsa huM tAro, dugati vAro sugati Apo, dAsanI rakSA karo, chuM hIna-adhamAdhama-narAdhamato ya dAsa che nA gapyA che. ni - to eNe paNa mArI parIkSA karI, huM barAbara na lAgyo, to eNe bIjA gurune - svIkAryA... emAM eno aparAdha zuM ? koI ja nahi. Saa re ! kadAca guru vageree ene mArI viruddhamAM vAto karI hoya toya zuM? mAruM IST nuM puNya ochuM hoya to ja gurnAdine mArA mATe uMdhu bolavAnA vicAra Ave ne ? emAM na a emano koI ja doSa nathI. paNa A badhA parathI eTaluM tAraNa to nIkaLe ja che ke te mananI vAta dharAra khoTI che ke "huM niHspRha chuM - nirapekSa chuM - AtmakalakSI chuM - me | mozaikalakSI chuM." A badhA ja e mArA mananA TADhA pahoranA gappA che. AvI to apekSAo uDe uDe mArAmAM keTalI badhI dharabAyelI paDI haze. te apekSA hatI ke "guru mane vyAkhyAnakAra banAve, mane svataMtra comAsuM Ape, mane A | sAruM moTuM kSetra Ape, sAthe sArA saMghATaka sAdhu Ape..." A apekSA hatI, mATe ja va jyAre zaruAtanA varSomAM bIjAne vyAkhyAna karAvatA, mane vyAkhyAna karavA na detA 4 - e mane na gameluM ne ? mATe ja mane svataMtra comAsuM ApavAne badale potAnI sAthe - = rAkhatA e na gameluM ne? mATe ja jayAre svataMtra comAsuM ApyuM tyAre paNa bIjAone 3 3 moTA kSetro ApyA ane mane nAnuM kSetra ApyuM e na gameluM ne? mATe ja bIjAone 5 yuvAna-sakSama-sArAsvabhAvavALA ghaNA saMghATako ApyA, paNa mane gharaDA-glAnasAcavavA paDe tevA eka-be saMghATaka ja ApyA e mane na gameluM ne ? apekSA hatI ke "mArA vyAkhyAnamAM gRhastho samayasara AvavA joIe." mATe ja ka 2 emane moDA AvatA joIne meM jAheramAM khakhaDAvI nAMkhelA ne? bIjA divasethI moDA 8 8 vyAkhyAnamAM na AvavAno Adeza gussA sAthe karI dIdhelo ne ? apekSA hatI ke "mArA vyAkhyAnamAM hola bharAI javo joIe" mATe ja jyAre 25% A hola paNa mAMDa bharAyo, tyAre vyAkhyAnamAM meM saMgha para baLApo kADhelo ne ke "tamArA saMghamAM koIne dharmano rasa ja nathI. AvA kSetramAM to eka divasa paNa na rahevAya..." apekSA hatI ke "nAnA sAdhuo mAruM pratilekhanAdi karavA roja Ave, mATe ja to jayAre teo pratilekhanAdi mATe AvatA na hatA. mAre badhuM karavuM paDatuM hatuM e |ii vakhate meM e nAnAo mATe apazabdo vAparelAne ke A badhA uddhata che avinayI sa | me che. vaDIlonI AmanyA sAcavatA nathI. e badhA game eTaluM bhaNe ke saMyama pALe, paNa e kSa e badhuM vinaya-vaiyAvacca vinA nakAmuM che." I apekSA hatI ke mArA mAtA-pitA-bhAI-bahena-mitro vagere mane varSamAM bevAra Na imminmi[TI apekSA 0 (120) Dwaming |

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che mAyA karI, corI karI, avatAra bhuMDa bhave have aTakAvajo svAmI.) vo svAmI tame, ATaluM. AhArasaMDAnA baLe mAyA kI. 'r E > E = "E_45 F S ) -- to maLavA Ave ja. eTale ja jyAre teo doDha-be varSe paNa maLavA na AvyA, tyAre te patra lakhyA vinA, emAM na maLavA ApavAno Thapako ApyA vinA ane jaldI | Da maLavAno Adeza ApyA vinA huM rahI na zakyo. khuda mArA janmazaheramAM huM pahoMcyo, tta chatAM ghaNA badhA mitro mane divaso sudhI maLavA na AvyA, e huM sahI na zakyo ane | | mATe ja jyAre paMdara-vIsa divase maLavA AvyA tyAre "padhAro, padhAro moMgherA | mahemAna !' ema kaTAkSabhASA vAparyA vinA huM rahI na zakyo. | apekSA hatI ke gurujIne mArA para eTalo badho vizvAsa hoya ke e badhI khAnagI | 7 vAta paNa mane kare. mATe ja to jayAre gurujIe mane amuka mITIMgomAM AvavAnI nA ? nA pADI, huM bhUlathI pahoMcI gayo to mane bahAra mokalI dIdho... e vakhate mane gurujI para zA * asadbhAva thayelo. 'have to gurujI koIpaNa kAma mATe mane kahe - pUche to paNa mAre karavuM ke 3 nathI, javAba Apavo nathI." evo rIsAmaNAno svabhAva mane bhAgI gayelo. apekSA hatI ke A saMghamAM sukhI-zrImaMta-bhaktivALA gharo hovAthI gocarImAM pa anukULa vastuo maLaze ja... mATe ja to jyAre 8-10 ghare pharavA chatAM sAdI gocarI 3 ja maLI, tyAre kheda utpanna thayelo, upAzraye AvIne bolelo ke "ahIM kazA para 3 bhaktibhAva nathI, A kSetra sAva lukhyuM che. badhA zrImaMta kharA, paNa bahArathI ja. 8 aMdarathI badhA bhikhArI che...' 8 apekSA hatI ke "gAmegAma mAruM sAmaiyu nIkaLe, emAM ya cAturmAsapraveza vakhate 8 abhUtapUrva sAmaiyuM nIkaLe." mATe ja to je je gAmomAM sAmaiyuM na thayuM, zrAvako levA para R na AvyA, te te gAmomAM vyAkhyAna vakhate zrAvakone kaTuvacano saMbhaLAvI dIdhA. 2 cAturmAsapraveza vakhate viziSTa beMDa AveluM na hovAthI huM risAI gayo hato. A apekSA hatI ke "saMghamAM zrImaMtazrAvako meM zaru karAvelA moTA tapamAM udAratAthI A 1. bhAga leze. tapasvIone moTI prabhAvanAo thaze.." mATe ja to jayAre ghaNI preraNA | karavA chatAM paNa mArA dhAryA pramANenuM phaMDa na thayuM, tyAre cAlu vyAkhyAne vyaktigata rIte eka eka zrAvakane cokkasa rakama lakhAvavA mATenI preraNA karelI, keTalAkoe mArI zaramanA kAraNe e rakama lakhAvI, to keTalAkoe jAheramAM mArA vacanane utthApyuM, e saM vakhate e paisA nahi lakhAvanArAo "kaMjusa-jaDa-bhogI' vagere rUpe mane lAgelA. | apekSA hatI ke huM eka kalAka gocarI pharIne lAvyo chuM. to mArA mATe to badhI sa gocarI kADhI ja rAkhaze. mane anukULa vastuo Apaze...... mATe ja to jayAre kapaDA ALLAMATI apekSA 0 (121) TITHIS

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niSkara banI ghaNIvAra meM utthApI AzA tArA 1 1 3 I # 1 4 32 3 4 va la ma ka hazApI ANA tAharI nathI narakamAM mAre javuM, tuja caraNamAM rAkho mana . rAkho mana, ATala sukavIne mAMDalImAM Avyo ane joyuM ke "badhAne gocarI vaheMcAI gayelI, mArA mATe : thoDIka gocarI kADhelI, bAkInI mAre vadhaghaTamAM maMgAvavAnI hatI, ane emAM ya ; anukULa vastu to kADhI ja na hatI." tyAre manamAM gusso AvI gayelo. badhA svArthI sta lAgelA. "mAre kazuM maMgAvavAnuM nathI' ema rIsa caDAvIne kahI dIdheluM. jayAre badhAe | kahyuM ke "maMgAvI lo ne? gocarI to ochI che tyAre manano Aveza zabdamAM vyakta karI ja dIdho ke "eka to eka kalAka gocarI mATe pharavAnuM, ane e pachI paNa pAchA | vadhaghaTanI rAha jotA besI rahevAnuM ! A kaMI vyavasthA che !' jo zAMta vicAre vicAruM chuM to ema lAge che ke huM je kaMIpaNa dharma karuM chuM, emAM mokSanI - karmakSayanI IcchA to haze ke kema ? e bhagavAna jANe. paNa AvI bIjI A jAta jAtanI IcchAo - apekSAo to uDe uDe - na dekhAya - na parakhAya e rIte A dharabAyelI ja paDI che. A to Aje AtmasaMprekSaNa rUpI mazInathI AtmAnA peTANamAM ha dRSTi karuM chuM, tyAre badhuM samajAya che. 3 huM duHkhI chuM, mane Aveza Ave che, ane bIjAo pratye tiraskAra pragaTe che... A badhAnI pAchaLa mukhya kAraNa eka ja che. "huM apekSAvALo chuM, koI ne koI spRhAvALo chuM." = pratikramaNa-svAdhyAyAdi pavitratama anuSThAnonA sarvottama phaLo anubhavAtA ra nathI, enI pAchaLa kadAca A kAraNa paNa hoI zake ke e badhA ja anuSThAno koIne paNa tra koI malina apekSAothI melA thayelA che, mATe ja nabaLA paDelA che. bhale huM bahAra 2 moTA avAje bolato houM ke mAre mokSa sivAya kazAnI apekSA nathI. huM je kaMIpaNa kare dharma karuM chuM, mAtra ne mAtra mokSa mATe ja karuM chuM..." paNa mArAmAM jAta jAtanI keTalI badhI apekSAo paDI che, e to mAro AtmA ja jANe che. khoTo jasa khATavAno | kharekhara koI ja artha nathI. mahopAdhyAyajIe niHspRhatASTakamAM keTalI suMdara majhAnI vAto karI che. e aSTakathI paNa jo huM mArA AtmAne bhAvita karuM ne, to mAruM kalyANa thaI jAya. svabhAvalAbhAtkimapi prAptavyaM nAvaziSyate / ityAtmaizvaryasaMpanno niHspRho jAyate muniH // . Atmazuddhi sivAya mAre kazuM ja meLavavAnuM bAkI nathI. AvI | Na AtmasamRddhivALo muni niHspRha banI jAya che. g 2 . ru 2 s IIIIIII apekSA che (122) IT

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vAta tArI mAnavI che, roka tuM mane Toka tuM. ATaluM... " tuM rokato mane Tokato paNa nA kadAzi , pI 'IT 'E la ba E - va = "E 45 F la ma va S ka E la saMyojitakaraiH ke ke prArthyante na spRhAvahaiH / amAtrajJAnamAtrasya niHspRhasya tRNaM jagat // bicArA jAta jAtanI apekSA rAkhanArAo to dIna banIne hAtha joDI joDIne | 7 keTalAyanI pAse bhIkha mAMganArA banI jAya che. dhanyavAda che e jJAnI mahAtmAone ! ke jeo sAcI samajaNane AtmAmAM | | utArIne niHspRha banyA che. emane to koI AkhuM vizva bheTamAM Ape ne ! to ya li teo ene ghAsanA taNakhalAthI vizeSa kazuM ja mAnatA nathI. chindanti jJAnadAtreNa spRhAM viSalatAM budhAH / mukhazoSaM ca mUrchA ca dainyaM yacchati yatphalam // koIpaNa prakAranI apekSA e jherI velaDI che. je spRhAvALo bane, te 'potAnI apekSA pUrI karavA mATe seMkaDo loko pAse bhIkha mAMgI mAMgIne moTuM IT | sukavI deze. potAnI apekSA pramANe kaMIka maLatuM dekhAze, to emAM gADha Asakta ra ra banI jaze, bicArAnA moDhA para bhIkha mAMgatI vakhate dInatAnA spaSTa darzana thaze. 2 jJAnI puruSo jJAnarUpI, dAMtaraDAthI ja A viSavelane kApI nAMkhe che. niSkAzanIyA viduSA spRhA citagRhAd bahiH / anAtmaraticANDAlI-saGgamaGgIkaroti yA // sajjana-kuLavAna puruSo potAnI patnI jo koI nIca kuLanI strI sAthe vadhu = paricaya kare to gusse thaIne, paravA karyA vinA patnIne gharamAMthI kADhI mUke. 2 A spRhA nAmanI AtmAnI patnI paNa kusaMge caDe che. e kAyama mATe paNa anAtmarati nAmanI cAMDAlIno saMparka kare che. arthAtu jene spRhA hoya ene AtmAmAM nahi, paNa parapadArthomAM ja rati hoya che, ... AvI kusaMgakAriNI | spRhA patnIne to AtmArthIe manarUpI gharamAMthI bahAra kADhI mUkavI joIe. spRhAvanto vilokyante laghavastRNatUlavat / mahAzcaryaM tathApyete majjanti bhavavAridhau // A eka moTuM Azcarya che ke spRhAvALA jIvo Ama to ghAsa ane rUnI jema sI | ekadama laghu dekhAya che. chatAM teo saMsAra samudramAM Dube che. | ravaM pauravantatvIbhratiSThavaM pratikathA : | rAtiM rAti muOIQI prAduna ni:spRhA ! hae a & 8 apekSA 0 (123) 0 0000

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hetA AMsunI lAja nA rAkhI prabhu. ATaluM. jo poSavA kaDa-kapaTanI DhagalA kayAM, tArA nayanathI vahetA ApI, muja lAlasAo poSaka nagaranA hajAro loko mane vaMdana kare che, mArA bhakta che... mATe huM mahAna - | chuM." Avo to vicAra nispRha AtmAne svapnamAM paNa na pragaTe. * "cAre bAju mArA pratiSThA-yaza-kIrti phelAyela che, huM eka pratiSThita mANasa chuM.' | Avo vicAra niHspRhane svapnamAM paNa na pragaTe. "mArI jAti uMcI ! huM mahAna !" evI potAnI prasiddha karavAnI dhRSThatA ne jo mUrkhatA niHspRha na kare. bhU zayyA bhaikSamazanaM jIrNaM vAso vanaM gRham / tathA'pi niHspRhasyAho cakriNo'pyadhikaM sukham // niHspRha mahAtmAo pAse uMghavA mATe pathArI nathI, che mAtra dharatI ! khAvA A mATe rasoDA nathI, che mAtra ghera ghera pharIne - bhikSA rUpe lAveluM lUkhuM-sUkuM anna ! " paheravA mATe navA nakora - raMgaberaMgI vastro nathI ! che mAtra jUnA - phATavAnI ja taiyArIvALA - melA - zveta vastro ! rahevA mATe baMgalo phaleTa nathI, che mAtra jaMgala ! ra jaMgalanA jhADonI nIcenI dharatI ! chatAM Azcarya che ke teo cakravartI karatA paNa sukhI che. paraspRhA mahAduHkhaM niHspRhatvaM mahAsukham / / etaduktaM samAsena lakSaNaM sukhaduHkhayoH // duHkhanI sAva TuMkI - Taca - sIdhI-sAdI - spaSTa vyAkhyA eTalI ja che ke paraspRhA = e ja duHkha ! sukhanI sAva TuMkI - Taca - sIdhI-sAdI - spaSTa vyAkhyA eTalI ja che ke niHspRhatva eja sukha ! che. A basa mAre have mAtra niHspRha dekhAvuM nathI. niHspRha banavuM che. tamAma anuSThAnomAMthI spRhA rUpI kAMTAne kheMcI kADhavo che. jayAM sudhI anuSThAno rUpI pagamAM | spRhArUpI kAMTo khUMcelo raheze, tyAM sudhI mokSa mArge jIve laMgaDAtA page, dhIme dhIme saM cAlavuM paDaze. che paNa jevo e kAMTo anuSThAna rUpI pagamAMthI kheMcAI gayo ke jIva tarata e che A anuSThAna rUpI paganA sahAre mokSamArgamAM mAtra cAlaze nahi, doDaze ya kharo. niHspRhatA keLavavAnI A sAdhanAmAM prabho ! tame uttarasAdhaka banajo hoM ! | IIIIIIIIIIII apekSA 0 (124) AnninIn

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jIvana, huM, he nAtha tuM ugAraje. ATaluM.. vaDI meM karI, ghaTatuM na Ayu nihALyuM meM, hArI gayo munijIvana, huM. tenA paMcAta parikI meM karI , ) ( 11. doSa . 10 - jIda 85 ba H. 5 'va sa pa (10) jIda : koI game eTaluM samajAve to paNa je vastu pakaDAI gaI che, e S koIpaNa hisAbe na choDavI, enuM nAma jIda ! guru jevA guru paNa mArI sAme medAnamAM tu | utare to paNa huM mArA mananA vicArone vALuM nahi, mAruM paNa nahi. kadAca gurunA |a baLa sAme mananA vicArone tatkALa mArI nAMkhu to ya ene sAcA mArge to vALuM ja jo li nahi, enuM nAma jIda ! A doSa mArAmAM che kharo ? saMsArIpaNAmAM to mArA bA-bApujI mArA mATe ghaNIvAra evuM bolatA sAMbhaLelA ke "A chokaro bhAre judI che. e koInuM mAne nahi. koIne gAMThe nahi, enA manamAM . ja ene je game te ja kare. koNa jANe enuM bhaviSya zuM haze ?' re mane dIkSAnA bhAva thayA, gurunI saMmati maLyA bAda meM ghare dhamAla zaru karI. Es che gharethI badhA hA to pADatA ja hatA, paNa cAra mahinA moDuM karavA mAMgatA hatA. huM E3 jIde caDyo. a "mAre koIpaNa hisAbe mahAsuda pUnamanA divase dIkSA levI ja che. gurujIe muhUrta kADhI ApyuM che." huM eka divasa paNa vilaMba nahi karuM. mArI jIda sAme svajano = jhUkyA. paNa e vakhate mArI A jIda lokomAM ane khAsa karIne sAdhuomAM vairAgyanA # nAmathI vakhaNAI. badhA mane kahetA ke "tAro vairAgya jabaro che, eka divasa paNa vilaMba ; na thavA devA mATe te bhAre jahemata uThAvI..." kharekhara zuM mane viratino agAdha prema jAgI gayelo ane eTale eka divasa paNa A vilaMba karavo mArA mATe asahya banelo ? ke pachI mArA manamAM mahAsuda punamanA A divase dIkSA laI ja levAno vicAra mArA svabhAva mujaba jIdanuM svarUpa dhAraNa karI mAM beThelo ke jenA lIdhe ja e jIdane vaza banIne meM svajano sAthe bAtha bhIDI ? eno || nirNaya Aje paNa huM karI zakato nathI. dIkSAnI utAvaLa pAchaLa mAro vairAgyaguNa preraka . | hato ? ke mAro jIddI svabhAva preraka hato ? e to bhagavAna jANe. paNa e pachInA e paMdara varSomAM meM je anubhavo mArA jIvanamAM karelA che, enAthI cokkasa ema lAge ke kSA che ke kharekhara jIddI chuM, haThI chuM, aprajJApanIya chuM. prazastanA nAme kharekhara to meM kSa mAro jIddI svabhAva ja popyo che. Connche jIda 9 (125) In 1000000

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mithyAbhimAno dUra thayA, sAcI samaja have sAMpaDI, tArA caraNa choDI have nathI kyAMya jAvuM mAhare. ATaluM.... gurujIe mane kaheluM ke 'mArI uMmara moTI thaI gaI che, tuM mAro praziSya bana, ziSya nahi. to tArA juvAna guru tane barAbara sAcavaze.' Ga paNa gurujInI DhagalAbaMdha samajaNa pachI paNa meM mArI jIda na choDI 'huM Apane stu ja mArA guru banAvIza, je thavuM hoya te thAya.' mArA sadbhAgye (!) gurujI sivAya stu badhAe mArI A jIdane 'guru-prema' tarIke biradAvI. ta dIkSAnA bIjA ja divase meM oLI zaru karavAnI rajA mAMgI. gurue nA pADI. skrU na 'joga thaI javA de, pachI vAta !' paNa divasamAM be-cAra vAra gurujI pAse jaIne meM na |na judI judI rIte rajA mAMgyA ja karI. chelle gurujIe mane anicchAe rajA ApI. mArI | 7 zA jIda saphaLa thaI. paNa ahIM paNa mArI jIda lokomAM to 'tapano rAga' zabdathI bhAre zA sa prasiddhi pAmI. nA ya gurujIe mane kaheluM ke 'rAtre dasa vAgyA bAda svAdhyAyAdi na karavA. saMthAro karI devo, zarIrane ArAma Apavo, nahi to lAMbu nahi kheMcAya...' paNa meM e vAta avagaNIne mAro svAdhyAya cAlu ja rAkhyo. eka-be vAra to gurujI mane rAtre 11 vAge svAdhyAya karatA joI gayA. mane Thapako Apyo, 'tuM mArI vAta kema nathI mAnato ? gurvajJA vinAno tAro badho svAdhyAya niSphaLa jaze. tuM sudhara, jIddI na bana.' na jIda ta paNa sAMbhaLe ane Acare e bIjA, huM nahi. meM javAba to na Apyo, paNa mArI pravRtti paNa na choDI. mane evuM paNa na lAgyuM ke 'huM gurvajJAbhaMga karuM chuM.' mane to ema ja lAgyuM ke 'huM kyAM pApa karuM chuM. huM to svAdhyAya mATe ja A kAma karuM chuM ne !' ane kharekhara badhA mArA A svAdhyAyane bharapeTa anumodatA hatA. A eTale ja mArI jIda ghaTavAne badale vadhI paDI. mane e mAro svAdhyAyarAga nAmano A tma guNa dekhAyo. ma (126) EE FEE saM dIkSAnA cothA varSe comAsAmAM gurujIe mane kahyuM ke 'tuM A vakhate pajusaNamAM vyAkhyAna karavA jaIza ? mArI IcchA che, pustako taiyAra che...' paNa e kuMbhAra jevA gurunI sAme gadheDA jevA meM doDhaDahApaNa karyuM. 'gurujI ! mAre bahirmukha nathI banavuM. vyAkhyAna e bAhya pravRtti che. eTale ja huM e karavAno nathI.' gurujIe mane be-cAra kSa vAra samajAvyo. paNa meM vAta na svIkArI. ahIM paNa mArI jIda saphaLa thaI. chatAM huM kSa pre pre to yaza ja pAmyo. badhAe mArI aMtarmukhatAne vakhANI. kharekhara to mArI vAta sAcI Na Na m m

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parabhave bhale nirdhana banuM, bhale narakanA duHkho maLe, haiye maLe zAsana tamArUM eTalI karajo kRpA. ATaluM... hoya to ya gurujIne spaSTa nA kahevAno mane koI adhikAra nathI. huM khAnagImAM emane vinaMti karI zakata... paNa jIddI svabhAve mArI pAse uddhatAI bhareluM vartana karAvI ja dIdhuM. vaLI mArI samajaNa paNa zAstraviruddha ! jo vyAkhyAna e bahirmukhatA ja gaNAya, to tIrthaMkarothI mAMDIne mArA gurujI sudhInA badhAne bahirmukha mAnavA paDe, kemake badhA stu vyAkhyAnakAra che. smai ta 'gurvAzA na mAnavI e bahirmukhatA che.' e sIdhI-sAdI vAta mane tyAre na sma - samajANI, paNa 'vyAkhyAna bahirmukhatA che' e taddana asatya vAta mArA manamAM ghara || karI gaI. zA trFF?_ _z__FFFF gurujInI vaiyAvacca bAbatamAM paNa huM jIddI banyo. guru nA kahe to paNa emanA gA badhA kapaDA laIne kApa kADhI nAMkhato e mane Thapako paNa ApatA ke 'A barAbara nathI. ema game tyAre kApa na kaDhAya, jyAre mane yogya lAgaze, tyAre huM kahIza.' paNa e sAMbhaLavA mArA kAna ke e sAMbhaLIne aTakavA mArA hAtha-paga taiyAra ja kyAM hatA ? huM gurujInI vAtane hasI kADhato. gurujI du:kha pAmatA, paNa mane to ema ja lAgatuM ke 'huM vaiyAvacca karuM chuM. bhakti karuM chuM. mAro guruprema avvalakoTino che. A rIte jIda karIne gurunI rajA vinA paNa gurunA vastrono kApa kADhavo e bhakti ja che, guNa ja che.' ane mugdha loko mArI samajaNane protsAhita karavA taiyAra ja hatA. Ama dIkSAjIvanamAM ghaNI badhI vAra mAro jIddI svabhAva tagaDo ne tagaDo banato ja gayo. mAruM durbhAgya eTaluM ke e jIdano bAhya dekhAva khUba sarasa - sAro - prazasta hato, eTale ja mane mAro A doSa kadI pakaDAyo nahi, mugdha loko paNa e doSane A guNa samajI prazaMsI ja rahyA eTale e doSa AtmAnA peTANamAM khUba khUba khUba uMDo utarI gayo. A bha ma paNa A avidhi hatI, zAsrAjJAbhaMga hato... ane eno paraco maLyA vinA rahe kharo ? saM saM mArI prazasta gaNAtI jIda dhIme dhIme aprazastarUpe paNa pariNamavA lAgI. ekavAra gurujIe mane kahyuM ke 'tuM A vakhate phalANA sAdhu sAthe comAsuM jaIza ? kSa tane mokalyA vinA cAle tema nathI...' kSi za mAre e sAdhu sAthe javuM na hatuM, kemake emAM lAMbo vihAra karavo paDe ema hato Na jIda (127) M m.....................

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muja AtamA jAgyo have tuja zaraNathI muja baLa vadhyuM, saMgrAmaAMtarazatru sAthe khelavo mAre have. ATaluM.... ane mArA paNa keTalAka svArtha ghavAtA hatA. meM kahyuM ke 'mane emanI sAthe nahi phAve.' gurujIe nahi phAvavAnuM kAraNa pUchyuM. meM svabhAvadoSa vagere jaNAvyA. gurujIe e aMge paNa badhA samAdhAna ApyA. paNa stu mAre to koIpaNa hisAbe javuM na hatuM, 'e sAdhu sAthe mAre rahevuM nathI.' e jIda mArA stu manamAM pAkI thaI gaI hatI. ane gurujInI vAtane meM ThukarAvI dIdhI. vaDIloe paNa mane ghaNo samajAvyo; paNa mane mAro vicAra ja sAco lAgyo. ta na pahelIvAra evuM banyuM ke mArI A jIda vakhaNAI nahi, paNa vakhoDAI. badhAe na mane spaSTa kahyuM ke, 'tame A barAbara nathI karatA,' paNa colamajIThanA raMga jevI jIda zA have A AtmArUpI kApaDa parathI ukhaDe e zakya na hatuM. sa nA ya 100000000 0 oo ooo na zA sa nA mane nyAyanA grantho bhaNavAnI IcchA thayelI. paNa gurujIe ane vaDIloe e vakhate mane nA pADI ke 'atyAre prakaraNo - Agamo vAMco, avasare nyAya karAvazuM. ya atyAre tamAruM kAma nahi.' paNa mArA manamAM jIda hatI ane eTale ja badhAnI uparavaTa thaIne meM nyAya zaru karyo. mane agharo paDyo, kAco thayo, chatAM meM game te rIte kAco kAco paNa nyAyano abhyAsa karelo. 85mI oLI vakhate 35 AMbila bAbata huM jherI meleriyAmAM paTakAyelo, garamagarama davAonI sAthe jo dUdha na jAya to vaLI moTA nukasAno thAya e zakyatA jANIne badhAe mane ghaNo samajAvyo, gurujIe to Adeza paNa karI dIdho ke 'tAre pAraNuM karavAnuM che.' paNa meM oLI cAlu rAkhelI. pariNAme rogamAM sudhAro jaldI na thayo, hospITalamAM ghaNA divaso rokAvuM paDeluM, virAdhanAo khUba vadhI gayelI. ATalI badhI virAdhanAo karIne paNa oLI cAlu rAkhavAnI mArI A jIda joIne badhAne khUba duHkha thayeluM, badhA aMdara aMdara vAto karatA hatA ke 'A bhAre jIddI che. bhagavAna paNa Ane samajAvI na zake...' A bha ma. pa jIda (128) odddddddd A mAruM adhaHpatana vadhavA lAgeluM. huM roja sUryAsta bAda derAsara jato. gurujIe kahyuM ke 'ApaNe vahelA derAsara jaI AvavAnuM, ane emAM ya tuM sUryAsta bAda aDadhosaM aDadho kalAka bhakti kare, e sAruM na lAge. derAsaramAM dIvA thaI jAya, enI ujaInI pre virAdhanA lAge, tuM cheka aMdhAruM thayA bAda upAzrayamAM pAcho Ave... A badhuM bilakula pre yogya nathI.' kSa paNa meM jIda pakaDI 'mane dIvAnA prakAzamAM joradAra bhAva jAge che. AtmAne Na m A ma 1101 .. tra ja Na

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rasa makI ArzIvacana saMbhaLAva tuM, tilaka kara mArA kapALe, bAthamAM hAtha, che. bAthamAM laIne mane, ATaluM. muja mastake tuja hasta mukI ArzIvacana, F 1 - gA T F 45 F ka la S E F = - anero AnaMda maLe che. huM A choDI zakuM ema nathI." ane meM mArI prabhubhakti (!) .. na cAlu ja rAkhelI. Da mane japa karavAno zokha hato, eka beThake roja be-aDhi kalAka japa karuM. mArA Da gurajIe mane ghaNIvAra samajAvyo ke "tArI uMmara nAnI che, tuM to sArAmAM sAruM bhaNI re | zake ema che. zarUAtanA varSomAM to svAdhyAya agatyano che. eka bAMdhI navakAravALI mai cokkasa gaNavAnI, paNa bIjo badho japa atyAre na karAya." paNa meM kahyuM ke "mane AmAM apUrva bhAvo jAge che. Avo japa huM na choDI zakuM. RbIju badhuM choDI dauM, paNa japa nahi." | mArA svabhAvane jANI cUkelA gurujIe vAta choDI dIdhI. paNa ekavAra pharI : gurujIe preraNA pharI ke "tuM japa kare enI nA nahi, paNa e be kalAka daramyAna acAnaka ja koI kAma AvI paDe to paNa tuM ubho na thAya, e na cAle. gaIkAle ja 10 mahemAna sAdhuo AvelA, tuM emane AvakAravA paNa ubho na thayo, vyavasthApake tane kahyuM ke : 3 mahemAno mATe gocarI lAvavAnI che, tamane phAvaze?" to te muMgA muMgA ja nA pADI 4 8 dIdhI ke "mAre japa cAlu che, be kalAka huM ubho thato nathI" jo, A badhuM barAbara nathI. 2 | aucityasevana ati mahattvanuM che. japa-svAdhyAyAdi badhuM ja bIjA naMbare che. sAdhuone 8 AvakAravA ubhA na thavuM.... A badhuM na cAle...' 3 paNa A badhuM ja mane uMdhu paDyuM. 'tamane badhAne mArA japa pratye dveSa che. eTale ? tame eka yA bIjI rIte mane herAna karo cho. mArI japanI niSThAne, be kalAka sudhInI ke akhaMDa palAThIne prazaMsavAne badale kAyama mane TokyA karo cho. vyavasthApaka paNa mAro para fjapa toDAvavA mATe ja mane hAthe karIne kAma soMpe che. bIjA ghaNA sAdhu hatA, teone A gocarI lAvavAnuM kahI zakAta, chatAM mane ja zA mATe pakaDe che ?' A ane "tArI vAta barAbara che. amArI bhUla thaI gaI' kahIne gurujI cUpa thaI | gayA. Aje bhAna Ave che ke mAro Akroza, mArI jIda joIne hoMziyAra gurujIe | | AkhI vAta vALI lIdhI. ekavAra mArA saMsArIpaNe sagAmAM thatAM be-traNa sAdhvIjIo mane vaMdana karavA AvyA, sAthe be mumukSu baheno paNa hatA. sAdhvIjIone zAstrIya bAbatomAM ane pre kSA bahenone dIkSA levA bAbatamAM amuka prazno hatA, teo aDadho kalAka mArI pAse beThA. mArI vAto sAMbhaLI emane khUba rasa paDyo. teo bIjA divase paNa pAchA | MAMTAT jIda 0 (129) ITIATIMATI .

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sArI avagaNIza, he nAtha ! tArI ANa mArA zvAsocchavAse huM smarIjha cchavAse huM smarIza. ATaluM... have pApa nA huM AcarIza, ANA na tArI avagaNI, 'r F 45 F 'r E F F = F che = ! = , maLavA AvyA, aDadho kalAka praznottarI cAlI... AvuM traNa divasa cAlyuM. cothA - | divase gurujIe mane bolAvyo. "jo, tuM chellA traNa divasathI sAdhvIjIo ane mumukSu | " baheno sAthe vAto kare che, e vyavahAra sAra nathI lAgato. tuM pavitra che. te jAheramAM IT 7 ja bese che. tuM emanA praznonA samAdhAna Ape che... e badhuM sAcuM. paNa A badhuM | | ApaNA samudAyamAM cAlatuM nathI. navA sAdhuo jUe, to emanAmAM saMskAro khoTA na paDe. ThIka che, eka-be divasa Ave e hajI samajyA...' tti paNa jIda mAro svabhAva ! "kSamA karajo, gurujI ! paNa ApanI A nIti mane | = yogya nathI lAgatI. sAdhvIjIonA praznonA samAdhAna na ApIe, to teo muMjhAyA | ja karavAnA. mumukSu bahenone mArgadarzana na ApIe to emanA dIkSAnA bhAva paDI zA A paNa jAya; teo saMsAra mAMDI bese, A badhAnuM pApa konA mAthe lAge ? huM kaMI e ke | badhAne sAmethI bolAvato nathI, teo ja jijJAsAthI maLavA Ave che. Apane jarApaNa zaMkA hoya to Apa ja mArI bAjumAM besajo ... Apa ja uttaro Apajo..." meM sAdhvI paricaya - bahenono paricaya na tyAgyo. lagabhaga dasa divasa sudhI 8 9 A pravRtti cAlu rahI. mArA gurujI khUba vyathita hatA, paNa chatAM mArI jIda sAme e lAcAra hatA. mArI pAse be yuvAno dIkSA levA mATe taiyAra thayA. uMDe uDe mane paNa ziSyo ra karI levAnI vRtti jAgI to hatI ja. meM gurujIne pUchayuM ke "e bene tAlIma ApavA B sAthe rAkhuM." gurujIe kahyuM ke "e dIkSA le, e to sArI vAta che ! paNa hajI tAro che 2 paryAya ghaNo nAno che. tuM bhaNI-gaNIne taiyAra thaI jA, pachI tuM ziSyo karIza, to vadhu sAruM paDaze. atyAre tArA mAthe A bojo Avaze, to tuM bhaNI nahi zake. chatAM tane ThIka lAge tema !' mArA jIddI svabhAvane jANI gayelA gurujIe mane koIpaNa bAbatamAM dabANa " karavAnuM choDI ja dIdheluM, chatAM emanA zabdomAM anicchA spaSTa dekhAtI hatI. paNa | e anicchA avagaNIne paNa meM mumukSuone sAthe rAkhyA. mAro paryAya e vakhate cha sa varSano hato. che vIseka divasa bAda bIjA sAdhuoe mane Takora karI ke "A mumukSuo supAtra che kSa nathI lAgatA, emanAmAM vairAgyano aMza paNa dekhAto nathI. teo navakArazI kare che, &i ane zrAvakonA ghare traNe ya TAIma bharapUra vApare che. eTaluM ja nahi, tyAM TI.vI. 1 0000 ja ja huM * sa And jIda 9 (130) INDIAN

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khI banIza. tArA caraNane mIzara. ATaluM... che tAharI, te huM nahIM hAruM have, nirbhaya banyo vijayI banIza. tA. - jene sahAya che tAharI, te hanI * T' Ir *IS IT F E F T jovA besI jAya che. bapore be-traNa kalAka zrAvakonA ghare pasAra karI de che. kyAreka | to gharomAM ja sophA para uMdhI jAya che. AkhA divasamAM traNeka sAmAyika paNa karatA tene nathI... AvA mumukSuone rAkhavAmAM majA nathI.' paNa huM ya jIde caDyo. "hajI navA che, dhIme dhIme ghaDAze.." ema kahIne e ja baMnene mArI pAse ja rAkhyA. chevaTe ekavAra gRhasthanA ghare kaMIka garabaDa karI beThA. | gRhastha AvIne mane dhamakAvyo, "mahArAja ! A mumukSuo nathI, corI-capATI e | karanArA lebhAgu yuvAno che. Ane kADhI mUko. nahi to tamAruM nAma badanAma thaze." ni | tyAre nAchuTake meM e bene ravAnA karyA. paNa gurujInI ke sAdhuonI sAme to meM jIda 7 zA choDI nahi ja. | mArI IcchA hatI ke "comAsAmAM zreNItapa karAvavo." meM cAturmAsa pravezanA pahelA divase ja jAherAta karI. game te kAraNa hoya paNa tapasvInA nAma ghaNA ochA ! - AvyA. mAtra 38 ! 3 zrIsaMghe kahyuM ke "sAheba ! Apa bIjo koI tapa karAvo. A tapa agharo ane moTo hovAthI vadhu saMkhyA nahi thAya. ane mAtra 38 mATe besaNAdi karAvavA e moMghu B paNa paDe." paNa meM TrasTIone kahI dIdhuM ke "nA, tapa A ja karAvavAno. saMkhyA ochI thAya ka ke vadhAre enI ciMtA na karo. ane moMghu paDe to ya zuM vAMdho ? paisA sArA kAmamAM B ja vaparAya che ne ?' - TrasTIoe mane ghaNI nA pADI, eka TrasTI to gusse paNa thaI gayA, "mahArAja ! = A tamArI kevI jIda ! sAdhune AvI jIda zobhe....... paNa bIjA TrasTIoe emane - A zAMta pADyA ane chevaTe emaNe namatuM jokhyuM, 38 jaNAe zreNItapa zaru karyo, emAM A dha 9 jaNAe vacce ja paDato mUkyo. 29 jaNano zreNItapa pUro thayo. - pajusaNa pUrve meM upadhAnanI jAherAta karI. paNa koI dAtA taiyAra na thayA. meM TTrasTIone bolAvIne kahyuM ke "upadhAna to karAvavAnA ja che, eno kharco koNa karaze ?' * eke ya TrasTI taiyAra na thayA. mane hADohADa lAgI AvyuM. "juo, jo upadhAna karAvavAnI | - e tame vyavasthA nahi karo, to huM saMvatsarInuM pratikramaNa nahi karAvuM..." meM dhamakI ApI. | la TrasTIone bilakula na gamyuM. paNa zuM kare ? chevaTe badhAe bhegA maLIne upadhAna mATe kharco kSa karavAno nirNaya karyo. paNa teo mArAthI khUba ja nArAja thaI gayA. M E "IIIIIIIIIIIIIT jIda 9 (131) IIIIIIIIIIIIM

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jo harSa bharelA muja hRdayamAM nAtha ! tuM AvI vase, to ghora pAponA savi baMdhana tUTe paLavAramAM. ATaluM... upadhAnanI 90 mALa thaI. caDAvAnI 2kama meM mArA kahevA pramANe 8-10 jagyAe ApI devAnuM jaNAvyuM. TrasTIoe anya sthAne vA52vAnI IcchA darzAvI. teo paisA to kharca ja nAMkhavAnA hatA, paNa 'e mArA kahelA sthAne na kharce, e stu na cAle' e jIda meM pakaDI. paNa have TrasTIone mArI garaja na hatI. emaNe mane dAda stu na ApI. ta ta mArI jIda pramANe teo na vartyA, eTale mane caDyo gusso ! cAturmAsanA sma - aMtimadine parivartana vakhate vyAkhyAnamAM huM kevo gusse thaI gayelo. 'A TrasTIo amArA bApa banI jAya che. teo potAnuM dhAryuM kare che. bhaviSyamAM A saMghamAM huM. kadI 7 zA comAsuM na karuM...' vagere vagere kevA apazabdo bolelo. sa nA ya Q O O O O O O O ooooooo basa, e pachI to ekeya TrasTI mane maLavA paNa na AvyA, mArA vihAra vakhate paNa badhA ja gerahAjara rahyA. vAte vAte mAro jIdano svabhAva AvA saMkalezo janmAvato rahyo. 'divALInA vekezanamAM bALakonI zibira to goThavavI ja paDaze. emane joradAra prabhAvanA ApavI ja paDaze.' bha 'ravivAranI zibiramAM jamaNavAra rAkhavo ja paDaze. ane badhAne vyavasthita bhojana karAvavuM ja paDaze.' 'dareke dareka TrasTIe kamasekama divasamAM ekavAra to mane vaMdana karavA AvavuM ja paDaze.' 'ame sAta vAge pratikramaNa cAlu karI dezuM, koInI rAha nathI jovAnA. ahIMnA zrAvakone na phAve to teo jUduM karI le, ame emanA mATe sADAsAtano samaya ka2vA A nathI.' FF * F #FF000mmmm zA sa nA A 'comAsA daramyAna mArA bhakto-mahemAno bahAragAmathI Ave, to emane ma jamavAnI vyavasthA zuM ? emane mATe cAra mahinAnuM mahemAno mATenuM rasoDuM kholavuM ja paDaze. ame kyAM vAraMvAra badhAne gRhasthonA ghare mokalIe ? tathA e badhAne rahevA mATe ekAda khAlI phaleTa paNa rAkhavo paDaze...' .. 'tamAre badhAe vahelo vihAra karavo hoya toM karajo. huM to moDo ja vihAra kSa karavAno. bhalene game eTalo moTo vihAra hoya, aMdhArAmAM vihAra thoDo ja karAya. sa Na tame badhA jatA rahezo to huM chelle ekalo AvIza, mane koIno bhaya nathI.' Na D jIda 7 (132) mmmm

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bhagavao mahAvIrassa # Namo tthu Na samaNassa bhagavA samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa motthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao maDA la ba 5, po . ga zaruAtamAM prazasta gaNAyelI jIda eTalI hada sudhI aprazasta banI ke emAM meM - | mAruM gurupAtatya gumAvI dIdhuM, cAritramAM DhagalAbaMdha aticAro sevI beTho. aSTakaprakaraNamAM meM vAMcyuM che ke "sAcI bhAvazuddhi to e ja kahevAya ke jemAM | tu gItArthonuM mArgadarzana, gItArthonI salAha-sUcanA khUba game." mane to mArA gurunI ekeya salAha gamatI nathI. dareka salAhamAM mArI buddhinA ne AdhAre kutarko ubhA karuM chuM, ane chelle mAruM dhAryuM karuM chuM. mArI jAtane nirdoSa mAnuM baM li chuM. paNa aSTakaprakaraNa pramANe to spaSTa lAge che ke mArI pAse bhAvazuddhi nathI. tyAM na || cokhuM lakhyuM che ke na puna: strI pradyAtmi potAnI mAnyatAne pakaDI rAkhavA rUpI Tii bhAvazuddhi e sAcI bhAvazuddhi ja nathI. | 'huM ekalo ja sAco, bAkI badhA khoTA ! varSono anubhava dharAvanArA | zAstrajJAtA mArA guru ya khoTA, mArA vaDIlo paNa khoTA, mArA sahavartIo paNa khoTA, ja TrasTIo-zrAvako ya khoTA ! sAco mAtra ne mAtra huM !" A kaMI vyAjabI to na ja E sa gaNAya ne ? 4. meM mArA A jIddI svabhAvane kAraNe mArA ja paga para kuhADo mAryo che. kemake meM mane sAcI salAha ApanArA sanmitro gumAvyA che. nathI to guru mane kaMIpaNa kahetA B ke nathI to vaDIlo-sahavartIo-zrAvako mane kazuM kahetA ! sAcI zIkha nahi maLavAthI 8 mArA dvArA DhagalAbaMdha khoTA nirNayo levAvAnA, DhagalAbaMdha bhUlo thavAnI... chatAM badhA 3 udAsIna banI joyA karaze. kemake badhA eka ja vAta vicAraze, "A jIddI che, ene 4 parezAna karavAmAM majA nathI. ene kazuMka kahevAmAM ya majA nathI." - so vAtanI eka vAta ! mAre have jIda choDI devI che, mAre prajJApanIya banavuM Or :F F* = H IE F E F F ja A che. $ 2 4 2. 5 huM Aje ja guru pAse jAuM, mArA tamAma aparAdhonI kSamA mAMgu, ane emanI | pAse ja pratijJA lauM ke have pachI ApanuM vacana-ApanI IcchA e ja mAruM jIvana banI raheze. mAre je sahana karavuM paDe, te karIza. alabatta huM mArI muMjhavaNo raju karIza, * paNa nirNaya to Ape ja ApavAno.." che guru kahe ke "bIje mALathI nIce kudako lagAva." to huM kudako mArI daIza, bhale , kSa mArA hADakA bhAMge...' INa guru kahe ke "aAInA paccakakhANa kara." to huM ATha divasanA upavAsa karIza, guNa ka C T jIda 0 (133)

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Namo tthu Na samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa bhale azaktinA kAraNe mAre herAna thavuM paDe... guru kahe ke 'traNe TAIma traNa-traNa jummA jeTaluM vApara' to huM vAparIza, bhale ma mA ne enA kAraNe mane jhADA chUTI jAya...' guru kahe ke 'Aje bAra kalAka uMghI jA.' to stu huM uMghI jaIza, bhale ne pachI uMgha na AvavAnA kAraNe paDyA rahevuM paDe ane kaMTALo stu anubhavavo paDe... hA ! guru kaMI covIsa kalAka to mArA para dhyAna na ApI zake, emane to mArA jevA keTalAyane sAcavavAnA hoya. to huM guru uparAMta A vRMdanA bhaNelA-gaNelA, - saMyamI be vaDIla mahAtmAone paNa mArA mAthe svIkAruM chuM. e be paNa je kahe e mAre ka2vAnuM. bhale mane e game ke na game. hA ! e baMne jUdI jUdI salAha Ape, to chelle gurune pUchI laIza. paNa e baMne ekamatavALA bane. to mAre emanI vAta svIkA2vAnI ja. ta spe mAre mArA gItArtha-saMvigna gurumAM dRDha vizvAsa mUkavAno che ke e je kaMIpaNa sma ni kaheze, e mArA hita mATe ja karaze. e je kaMIpaNa karaze, e mArA hita mATe ja karaze. jJa 1 mAre e vAta svIkArI ja levAnI. za sa A uparAMta bIjA sAdhuo ke zrAvako mane kaMIpaNa sUcana,kare, to e paNa mAre sAMbhaLavuM. e mATe mAre nakkI karelA be vaDIlonI ane chelle gurujInI salAha laI levI ke 'mane anya sAdhuo ke zrAvako upara mujaba sUcanA kare che, to mAre zuM karavuM ?' pachI e be vaDIlo ke guru je kahe e mAre apanAvI levuM. mArA mATe e zreSThatama sAdhanA banI raheze. tapa karavo, svAdhyAya karavo, vaiyAvacca karavuM e badhA karatA ya manane gurucaraNe vosirAvI devuM. mananI mAnyatAonuM A gurucaraNe samarpaNa karI devuM... e ghaNuM ghaNuM ghaNuM agharuM che. paNa e ati-ati-ati agharI sAdhanA paNa huM karIza. bha Na mArA pyArA paramezvara ! mArI sAdhanAnI saphaLatAno eka mAtra AdhAra mAtra ne mAtra tuM che, have mArI jIdane saLagAvI nAMkhavAnuM A aghora kRtya karavAmAM tuM sadaiva sahAyaka banaje. ........................ jIda (134) na FF?_ __E F mm 113 ta sa ya A ma - *. ja che

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Namo tthu Na samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassAmA tthu Na samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa 12. doSa naM. 11 - kadAgraha na mA S (11) kadAgraha : Ama jovA jauM to kadAgraha ane jIda baMne eka ja doSa mane 5 stu lAge che. chatAM emAM ati mahattvano sUkSma bheda e pADI zakAya ke kadAgraha na zAstrIyapadArtho aMge hoya, jIda rojIMdA vyavahAramAM hoya. rojIMdA vyavahAranI jIda maiM karatA zAsrIya padArtho aMgeno kadAgraha e atibhayaMkara doSa che, kema ke e sIdhI maiM mithyAtvanI ja bheTa Ape che. ta na ma nA Aje mAre e vicAravuM che ke pAMca mahAvratonA bhaMga karatA paNa vadhu bhayAnaka zA tarIke lekhAto A doSa mArAmAM to nathI ne ? eka ja paLamAM jinazAsananI bahAra dhakelI deto, nirbhava banAvI deto A doSa mArAmAM to nathI ne ?' zAsrabahumAna| zAstrarAga-zAsrazraddhA-zAsraniSThA vagere vagere majAnA lebalonI vacce mArAmAM jANeajANe kadAgraha doSa to phAlyo-phulyo nathI ne ? tArI tadnethI ca yAt... e yogabindunI gAthA mArAmAM to sAcI nathI paDatI ne ? ke jemAM ema darzAvyuM che ke 'zAstra pramANe pravRtti karanArAo keTalAka to hakIkatamAM zAstranA zatru ja banI rahe che...' adhyAtma sAramAM kahyA pramANe mAro zAsrabodha - zAstracustatA (!) mane saMsAravardhaka to banatI nathI ne ? A rahyo e zloka ! 'dhaninAM putradArAdi yathA saMsAravRddhaye / tathA pANDityaddaptAnAM zAstramadhyAtmavarjitam // ' kadAgrahanA svarUpa aneka prakAranA hoI zake che. + ApaNA jainazAstromAM lakheluM hoya e ja sAcuM. bIjAnA zAstromAM lakheluM hoya A te khoTuM ja hoya. 111111111111111 sa ma 21 + jainomAM paNa zvetAMbarazAstromAM lakheluM ja sAcuM. bIjA zAstromAM lakheluM hoya te khoTuM ja hoya. FFEE F gra 111111111111111 A ma sa + zvetAMbaromAM paNa amAro gaccha je artho kare che, amAro gaccha je padArtho mAne che, e ja sAcA... bIjA gaccho je artho kare che, je padArtho mAne che... e khoTA ! emane kaMI AvaDatuM ja nathI... + mArA guru je artha batAve e ja sAco. bIjAo je artha batAve e khoTo. kSa + huM bhaNelo chuM, mArI pAse zAstrono sUkSmabodha che. meM puSkaLa ciMtana kareluM Na (934) mmmmmm m kadAmaha

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samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassaH Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavaomakI ne che. seMkaDovAra agharI-agharI paMktionA artho meM besADyA che ane vidvAnone paNa . : Azcaryacakita karI dIdhA che. dareka paMktinA akSara-akSarano sacoTa artha karavAnI koIka ne : AgavI sUjha mArAmAM che, ane e mATe huM AkhA ya zramaNa samudAyamAM prakhyAta banI | 7 cUkyo chuM. eTale huM je ciMtana karuM, huM je artha karuM e ja sAco hoya. bIjAo to tuM | pANImAM chabachabiyA ja karI jANe che. paNa zAstrasamudranA peTALamAM jaIne mahAmahenate rahasyaratno lAvavAnuM kAma to mAtra mane ja phAve che. eTale mArA ciMtana-mArA padArtho , = so TacanA sonA jevA ja hoya. Raa. mArAmAM AvA aneka jAtanA kadAgraho hatA ane e dhIre dhIre ogaLatA paNa te nA gayelA. eka vAta to spaSTa ja che ke huM jainakuLamAM janmelo eTale nAnapaNathI mane satata ja * e ja sAMbhaLavA maLatuM ke "ApaNA bhagavAna ja sAcA-mahAna ! ApaNA zAstro ja TET | sAcA !" satata AvuM sAMbhaLavAnA kAraNe mArA manamAM eka vAta ekadama dRDha thaI IST gayelI ke "ajainonA zAstronI tamAme tamAma vAto khoTI !" jainadarzana 100% satya che, e vAta sAcI hovA chatAM enA AdhAre bIjAo 3 upara je dhikkAranI, tiraskAranI lAgaNI pedA thaI e to khoTI ja hatI. paNa A re 3 vAta te vakhate huM samajI zakyo na hato. eTale ja jainetaronI koIpaNa sArI bAbata che Ave to paNa huM spaSTa bolato ke "e badhA to mithyAtvI che, eNmanI prazaMsA ApaNe re e na karAya. emanA to dharmakAryo paNa adharmakAryo ja gaNAya...' mIrAMnI kRSNabhaktinI vAto sAMbhaLato, tyAre bolato ke "A rIte bharabajAramAM 8 gIto gAvA, e kaMI bhakti kahevAya ! A to naryo aviveka che. bhakti to che | jainazAsananI ! jemAM bharapUra vidhi ane viveka bhaLelA che...' koI bhagavadgItAnA zlokonA behada vakhANa karatuM tyAre huM bolato ke "e kapaTI kRSNa banAvelA zlokonI zuM kiMmata ! caMDAlanA gharanuM pANI game eTaluM mIThuM hoya, kuLavAna mANasothI e pANI na pIvAya. ema bhale ne gItAmAM sArAmAM sArA zloko / hoya, paNa chevaTe to e eka kapaTI-rAjakAraNI-mithyAtvI kRSNa ke tenA anuyAyIoe e banAvelA zloko ja ne ? ApaNe enI prazaMsA na karAya. ApaNA granthomAM hajAro- saM lAkho zloko che ja, enI prazaMsA ja ApaNe kema na karIe ? kuMbhameLAmAM karoDo hiMduo bhegA thAya e mane mazkarIpAtra lAgatuM, ajainonA gaMgAsnAnAdi kAryonI huM bharapeTa majAka karato, ajaina saMnyAsIo lAkho hinduone a ro D IAMO kadAgraha0 (136) DITION

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Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa Namo tthu Na samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa na huM mArA abhimAnamAM hato, samajaNanI khAmIno mane aMdAja na hato. paNa mAruM stu parama sadbhAgya ke eka divasa mArI AMkha ughaDI. bhegA karIne prabhubhakti karAvatA, sajjana banavAnI vAto karatA... e badhuM mane vAhiyAta lAgatuM. meM adhyAtmasAra nAmano grantha joyo, emAM bhagavadgItAnA ja kula 40 zloko maiM sAkSIpATha tarIke levAmAM AvelA meM joyA. mane bhAre Azcarya thayuM. mahopAdhyAyajI sma ni jevA mahAtmA paNa bhagavadgItAnA suMdara zlokone sanmAna Ape che, to huM e badhAne 7 gALo kema bhAMDI zakuM ? zA nA Sor3azaka prakaraNamAM dRSTisaMmoha doSanuM svarUpa joyuM. tyAM paNa mane mArI bhUla pakaDANI. jainadarzana pAMca mahAvrata kahe che, jainetaro e ja vastune yama kahe che. have A to mAtra nAmano ja bheda che, padArtha to eka ja che. chatAM 'yama khoTA ane mahAvrata sAcA' ema mAtra jaDatA pakaDIne bolavuM te dRSTisaMmoha che. have huM to lagabhaga AvuM ja karuM chuM ne ? jainetaronI ghaNI badhI vAto jainadarzanane maLatI hovA chatAM huM to 'A jainetara bAbata che, .mATe khoTI' ema kahIne ene dhutkArI kADhato hato. mane bhAna thayuM ke huM dRSTisaMmohano bhoga banelo chuM. A HD | batrIza-batrIzImAM jyAre meM vAMcyu ke 'jainetara zAstromAM paNa je suMdara padArtho che. e badhA jainadarzanamAMthI ja pragaTelA che, eTale ja e padArtho kharekhara to dvAdazAMgInA ja padArtho kahevAya. A hakIkata hovAthI jo jainetarazAstronA e yogya padArthone khoTA kahevAmAM Ave, to e dvAdazAMgInI ja AzAtanA gaNAya.' mArI ghaNI badhI bhramaNAo bhAMgI gaI, mane pelo zloka yAda AvI gayo ke 'pakSapAto na me vIre na ca dveSaH kapilAdiSu / yuktimad vacanaM yasya tasya kAryaH parigrahaH // ' REF_^F_ #_b_5_FF sUripuraMdarazrI keTalI vizALadRSTi dharAve che ! e kahe che ke 'mane vIraprabhumAM koI pakSapAta nathI, ke kapilAdi jainetaro para dveSa nathI. to jenuM vacana sAcuM jaNAya, eno svIkAra karuM chuM. saM ta ya A bha A badhA karatA ya jyAre meM yoganA grantho vAMcyA, anubhavIo pAse eno kSa nicoDa meLavyo, tyAre to huM kharekhara ati-ati Azcarya pAmyo. yoganI ATha sa paNa dRSTiomAMthI prathama cArardaSTi to mithyAtvaguNasthAnakanI ja che, ane chatAM emAM ghaNo Na m................................. kadAgraha 7 (13)

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Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa badho sAco AtmavikAsa darzAvAyo che. e dRSTiomAM rahelA mithyAtvI jIvone mArgAnusArI gaNavAmAM AvyA che, re ! hada to e thaI ke sUripuraMdarazrIe gautamabuddha ane sAMkhyamatapravartaka kapila vagerene sarvajJa tarIke svIkArI lIdhA, emane asarvajJa x sAbita karanArI dalIlonA samAdhAno ApyA. teonI niMdAne jIbha kapAI javA stra karatAMya bhayaMkara kharAba darzAvI. teonA RSimuni 'kAlAtIta'ne mahAtmA zabdathI # navAjyA, maharSi pataMjaline mokSamArgAnusArI prajJAnA mAlika darzAvyA... ta H na mAro kadAgrahano himAlaya yogagranthonI kALajhALa garamImAM ogaLIne sApha thaI gayo. Itaradarzano pratye Aga varasAvatI mArI AMkhomAM have amRtanAM siMcana tra gA thayA, Itaradarzano pratye mAdhyasthyabhAva pragaTa thayo. 'je sAruM te mAruM' evI zA udAttabhAvanA mArA AtmAmAM ghuMTAvA lAgI. 'je pArakuM te kharAba' e bhAvanAM ghasAvA lAgI. ma sa nA nA ya 11111111 atyAra sudhI ajainonI koIpaNa bAbatamAM doSo kADhavAnI, doSo jovAnI ja Teva paDI gayelI, paNa A granthonA abhyAsa bAda ajJAAtkAramuddhot e nyAya sahaja rIte mArA AtmAmAM vaNAI gayo. ajainonI kharAba bAbatomAM paNa je sAruM hatuM, e jovAnI kuneha mane prApta thaI. enAthI mane jainadarzana pratyeno ahobhAva kudake ne bhusake vadhato ja gayo. jainadarzananI udAratA-guNagrAhitA pratye mane bhAre-atibhAre Adara pragaTa thayo. r F paNa 'mane digaMbaro khoTA lAgatA hatA' e eTalA mATe ke huM zvetAMbarakuLamAM janmelo, sa jo huM digaMbarakuLamAM janmyo hota to mane zvetAMbaro ja khoTA lAgata ne ? eTale mAro cha .................................... kadAgraha 0 (138) 100000000000000 jema jo ke hajI mAre kadAgrahano ghaNo lAMbo paMtha oLaMgavAno bAkI hato. bhAIo paraspara jeTaluM jhaghaDe, enA karatA dUranA sAthe ochuM jhaghaDe. najIkanAo sAtheno jhaghaDo bhAre - atibhAre hoya. ema ajaino to mArAthI ghaNA A dUra hatA, paNa huM zvetAMbara, ane eTale ja digaMbaro ajaino karatA ghaNA najIkanA lAge. emAM ya digaMbaramatanI utpatti-teoe tIrtho pacAvI pADyA - srImuktiniSedha vagere vagere utsUtro digaMbaroe phelAvyA... e badhuM meM nAnapaNathI ja sAMbhaLeluM. eTale ja huM zvetAMbara hovAthI teo pratye uMDe uMDe ajaMpo thaI ja gayelo. cokkasa sa digaMbaro khoTA ja che, paNa digaMbaronI tamAme tamAma bAbato khoTI ja hoya... evo saM pre mAro dveSabhAva - vyaktidveSa paNa kyAM sAco hato ? mAro bodha kaMI joradAra na hato. pre ma kSa A bhA

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Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrasma vAta e Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao maha E F , satyano pakSapAta mAtra kuLarAgathI prerAyelo hato ne ? emAM sAcI samajaNa to bhaLI te na hatI ne ? paNa kammapayaDinA kSetramAM digaMbaronI uMDAI joI, zvetAMbara pakSanA karmagranthonI | tu jema digaMbarIyagranthomAM paNa uMDANa jovA maLyuM, keTalAka jaTila praznonA samAdhAna | digaMbara granthonA AdhAre prApta thayA... tyArathI e kSetramAM paNa mAro kadAgraha mAMdo la je paDyo. karmagrantha bhaNatI vakhate amuka prazno ubhA thayelA, enuM tatkALa samAdhAna na ni maLeluM. mane keTalAka vidvAnoe sUcana kareluM ke "tame digaMbaranA amuka grantho vAMco..." 7paNa e vakhate meM spaSTa nA pADelI ke "emanA granthamAM kazuM na hoya...' paNa jyAre | nA amuka bAbatomAM emanA granthomAMthI sArA samAdhAno maLyA, tyAre mane thayeluM ke "nA, * mAre jAgrahI na banavuM joIe. mAre tattvagrAhI banavuM joIe. to ja mane sAcA ka padArtho prApta thAya. e vAta cokkasa ke zvetAMbara paraMparAmAM tamAma padArtho 100 paNa TacanA sonA jevA che. paraMtu vacce vacce je dharatIkaMpAdi moTA AkramaNo AvyA, enA para 2 kAraNe ApaNA ghaNA zAstro khatama thaI gayA. emAMnI koIka bAbato jo digaMbara 2 granthomAM sacavAI gaI hoya to e meLavavAmAM zuM vAMdho ? A be karatA vadhu kharAba kadAgraha hato gacchIyamAnyatAno ! paNa A badhI va samajaNa bAda mAre e kadAgraha choDI devo che. jema mAro gaccha e gaccha che, ema ra bIjo gaccha paNa gaccha ja che. jema mArA gurujano suvidita che. zAstrajJAtA che... ema tra bIjA gacchanA vaDIlo paNa zAstrajJAtA hoI ja zake che. 8 vaLI jyAre paNa koIka padArtha aMge vivAda utpanna thAya to eno nirNaya levA re mATe baMne pakSanI badhI vAto sAMbhaLavI joIe, vicAravI joIe. mAtra eka ja pakSanI | vAta sAMbhaLIne nirNaya karavAmAM Ave, to to e nirNaya khoTo levAI javAnI zakyatA | pokI che. korTamAM paNa jayAre kesa cAle, tyAre jaja baMne pakSanI badhI vAto sAMbhaLyA - vicAryA bAda ja nirNaya Ape che, ekAdapakSanI vAta sAMbhaLIne nahi. korTano siddhAnta che ke "hajAra doSIo nirdoSa chUTI jAya e cAle, paNa eka nirdoSane khoTI rIte che sajA na thavI joIe..' alabatta A laukika korTa che, paNa jinazAsanamAM paNa enI che e amuka bAbato to lAgu paDe ja ne? huM amuka gacchano chuM, eTale e ja gacchanI badhI vAta sAcI mAnuM, bIjAnI vAta sAMbhaLuM vicAruM paNa nahi. "mArA gacchane mAnya 'CATIO kadAgraha0 (139) IIMIT

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Namo tthu Na samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa mAM padArthane sAco sAbita karavA AkAza-pAtALa eka karuM ane bIjA gacchane mAnya vAtane na khoTI sAbita karavA jAnanI bAjI (!) lagAvI dauM' A badhuM zuM sUcave che ? A mAro tattvarAga che ? ke gaccharAga ? AnaMdaghanajI bolyA che ke 'gacchanA bheda bahu nayaNa sta nihALatA. tattvanI vAta karatA na lAje..' e vacanano 5ramArtha zuM mAre samajavAnI stra jarUra nathI ? S ITION ta ji mArI pharaja eka ja che ke je vivAdAspada bAbato che, emAM (1) baMne pakSanI sme badhI vAto dhyAnathI vicArIne tattvanirNaya karavo. (2) jyAM sudhI e zakya na bane, 7 tyAM sudhI mAre mArA gacchanI vAta mAnavI kharI, paNa emAM 'Itara gacchanI vAta khoTI 7 zA ja che' evA vicAra para na AvavuM. mAtra 'huM jJAnI nathI, eTale hAla mArA guru zA sa je kahe, te pramANa...' ema vicAravuM. nA ya A bha kharI hakIkata to e che ke ubhayapakSanI vAta sAMbhaLyA pachI paNa 'sacoTanirNaya ja levAya, e nirNaya sAco ja hoya...' evo ekAMta nathI. koI ekapakSane vyavasthita rajuAta karatA na AvaDe, to e hArI paNa jAya. paNa eTalA mAtrathI e khoTo ja hoya evuM jarUrI to nathI ja. jUone, ApaNA jainAcArya bauddho sAme be-be vAra vAdamAM hArelA, zuM Ano artha e che ? ke 'jainadarzana khoTuM che, bauddhadarzana sAcuM che ?' e ja jainAcArya trIjIvAra jItI gayA... A badhuM jotA. ema cokkasa lAge ke ubhayapakSanI vAto sAMbhaLyA pachI nirNaya cokkasa levo, paNa emAMya jaDa AgrahavALA na banavuM. syAdvAda ghaNo vizALa che, zakya che ke koIka koIka apekSAe e khoTo lAgato mata paNa sAco hoI zake che... pelA siddharSigaNine 17 vAra bauddhamata sAco lAgyo ane 17 vAra jainamata sAco lAgyo tathA e baMne ya mato 17-17 vAra khoTA FF?_ _____ na kadAgraha (140) paNa lAgyA. A mArA vAmaNA jJAnanA AdhAre huM ekAMte ema kahuM ke 'A bAbatamAM ame ja sAcA chIe, bIjA badhA khoTA che...' e mArI moTI bhUla che. bha m nA saM mane to pelI yogadRSTinI prarUpaNA kharekhara Azcarya pamADe che. pUrvAcArya ema saM kahe che ke 'bauddha-kapila vagere sarvajJa hatA...' tarata prazna thayo ke jo badhA sarvajJa ja hatA, to badhAnI dezanA ekasarakhI hovI joIe, kemake badhAnuM jJAna ekasarakhuM ja pre che, to prarUpaNAmAM bheda na paDavo joIe. jyAre ahIM to badhAnI prarUpaNA paraspara viruddha che. mATe emane sarvajJa kema manAya ?' kSa Na m ja

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vIrassa Namotthu Na samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIramA motyu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIra = = * = (1 M = "E 5 42 E ' AcAryazrI haribhadrasUrijIe pratyuttara Apyo ke - '(1) e badhAnI dezanA to eka ja hatI. paNa zrotAonA AdhAre enA || ' arthaghaTana jUdA jUdA thayA. jema varasAdanuM pANI samAna hovA chatAM nadI-taLAva-samudra vagerene AdhAre e jUdI jUdI rUpe pariName che, ema ahIM samajavuM. Ama hakIkatamAM nuM | badhAe eka sarakhI ja dezanA ApI che. (2) athavA to ema paNa zakya che ke jema DokTaronuM jJAna ekasarakhuM hovA chatAM ja tti dardIne AdhAre jUdI jUdI davA Ape, ema ahIM badhA sarvajJonuM jJAna eka sarakhuM ja na hovA chatAM sAme rahelA zrotAonI pAtratAne AdhAre sarvajJoe jUdI jUdI dezanA zA ApI hoya... Ama dezanA jUdI jUdI hovA chatAM paNa teo sarvajJa hoI zake che. - A keTalI badhI Azcaryajanaka bAbata ! ApaNe to bahu ja spaSTa rIte mAnIe ja chIe ke "gautamabuddha vagere sarvajJa nathI ja. enI sAme sUripuraMdarazrI e tamAmane | sarvajJa sAbita karavAnA bharapUra prayatno kare che. (AvuM karavA pAchaLa emano koIka : Azaya cokkasa haze ja..) # jo gautamabuddha jevAne sarvajJa sAbita karavAnI yuktio ApavA rUpa vizALatA jaina-AcAryo darzAvatA hoya to eno bhAvArtha to e ja ne ? ke ItaragacchanI # mAnyatAo pAchaLa paNa zuM yuktio haze ?.. kamasekama eTaluM to mArA jevAe ka vicAravuM ja joIe. vagara vicAryuM dhar3a daIne emane khoTA jAhera karI devA e mArI 3 vadhu paDatI jaDatA kahevAya. "e badhA ItaragacchavALAo usUtraprarUpako che, zAstrabodha ? vinAnA che, adhakacaruM bhaNelA che. taddana ajJAnI che..." vagere vagere vicAravuM-bolavuM ? e zuM mArA mATe yogya kharuM ? A gacchIyakadAgraha vagere karatA paNa sauthI vadhu bhayAnaka che. svaciMtanakadAgraha ! mArA gacche ke mArA gurue je mAnyuM e karatA paNa meM je svayaM ciMtana kareluM hoya enA | para mAro rAga sahajarIte ja vadhAre hoya che. kemake gaccha ane guru paNa chevaTe to mArI | jAta karatA ghaNA dUra gaNAya. mArI jAtano mArI sAthe to abheda che. eTale ja meM | sa, je padArtha daDha karelo hoya, e to huM lagabhaga choDI ja na zakuM. mane yAda che ke huM ekavAra 7-8 mahAtmAone pATha Apato hato. eka paMktino kSA artha meM mArI rIte karyo, bIjA badhAe to e artha svIkArI lIdho. paNa eka munie kSa emAM eka-be doSo darzAvyA, ane potAnI rIte anya artha darzAvyo. mane paNa e ja IiAL 100 kadAgraha 0 (141)

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Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIra motthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIra r = 5 6 = "E | S E F vakhate uDe uDe eTalo anubhava to thayo ja ke "AnI vAta sAcI che...' paNa e . : apragaTa anubhava para mAro ahaMkArano dhAbaDo evo to goThavAI gayo ke e bilakula IT pragaTa ja na thAya, ane meM kutarko karavAnA zaru karyA. e munie paNa mArA kutarko sAme ; 7 sutarko karyA. paNa mArI pAse vidyAguru tarIkenI sattA hatI, vaDIla tarIkenuM Adhipatya na hatuM... aMte meM emane cUpa karI dIdhA, kadAca e muni svayaM ja mAro kadAha joI 2 cUpa thaI gayA. li e pachI zAMtithI meM e padArtha vicAryo to mane spaSTa lAgeluM ke "mArI ja bhUla | na hatI. emaNe besADelo artha ja sAco hato...' paNa have zuM karavuM ? mArI pharaja hatI ? jA ke e badhAnI hAjarImAM mArI bhUla svIkAravI. "meM karelo artha khoTo hato." e nA - svIkAravuM. e munine sAco artha karI ApavA badala dhanyavAda ApavA... 1 paNa A mArI pharaja huM na nibhAvI zakyo. mArI bhUla huM badhAnI AgaLa || ha svIkAravA taiyAra na thayo. mArA manamAM meM kutarka paNa zodhI lIdho ke "A rIte paNa 3 ekAdavAra pelA muni sAcA paDe, eTalA mAtrathI e kaMI mahAna nathI banI jatA. jo ka ke huM mArI bhUla svIkArIza, to badhA ema vicAraze ke "ApaNA vidyAguru paNa khoTA ka 2 artho kare che kharA." ane pachI to badhI bAbatomAM mArA mATe zaMkA karaze. mArA taraphanI 8 3 zraddhA gumAvI besaze. badhA svataMtra rIte potAnI buddhi lagADaze. AmAM e badhAne re ghaNA nukasAno thAya. mATe ja mAre jAheramAM mArI bhUlano svIkAra na karAya. emanA para uM gurusamarpaNabhAvAdinI rakSA mATe mAre mAphI na mAMgavI e ja ucita che..." ane meM mAphI na mAMgI. "badhA udho artha samajelA che, AnA kAraNe moTI che (1 anavasthA cAlaze, usUtraprarUpaNA mAro anaMtasaMsAra vadhArI deze...' vagere vagere . sAcI samajaNane meM aMtaramAM ja dATI dIdhI. A kevo doSa ! jinavacana sAthe A kevA ceDA ! jinavacanano A kevo LI I apalApa ! AmAM samyakta paNa kema TakI zake ? mArA lakhelA eka pustakanA cArebAju vakhANa thayelA, seMkaDo patro ane prazaMsAnA sI maLelA. paNa eka vidvAne e ja pustakanI pAMca-sAta bAbatomAM bhUlo darzAvI. enA sI e khulAsA karavAnuM jaNAvyuM. zaruAtamAM to tyAM paNa meM mArI tamAma kutarkazakti e pAMca-sAta bAbatone sAcI sthApita karavAmAM lagADI dIdhI. | chatAM aMte vidvAnamuninI sAme mArA tamAma kutarko tUTI gayA. have vAro Avyo che IIIIIIIIIIT kadAgraha0 (142) IIIIIIIIIIII

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Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa Namo tthu Na samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa e khoTI bAbatone khoTI tarIke svIkAravAno, jAhe2 ka2vAno ! e mArA mATe khUba kapUruM thaI paDyuM. je pustakanI cAre bAju be moDha prazaMsA thatI hatI, e pustakamAM bhUlo hovAno jAheramAM svIkAra kema karavo ? adhUrAmAM pUruM e pAMca-sAta padArthomAMnA ja stu be-traNa padArtho evA hatA ke je 'adbhuta-adbhuta' tarIke navAjAyA hatA. Aje mAre e 'adbhuta' padArthone utsUtra tarIke svIkAravAnA hatA. Qia ta ma na ta IcchA na hatI, chaTakavuM hatuM paNa vidvAna vaDIla, guru vagerenA AdezathI mAre stra e bhUlono svIkAra karavo paDyo. paNa emAM ya meM keTalI badhI mAyA karI ! e TM kSamApanA ekadama TuMkamAM karI, koIne vizeSa samaja ja na paDe e rIte karI. je jANakAra 7 nA hoya, je vizeSa dhyAna Ape e ja samajI zake... e rIte e kSamApanA karI. sa jayAre adhyAtmasAra vAMcyuM, teno kadAgrahatyAga adhikAra vAMcyo, tyAre mane nA lAgyuM ke mahopAdhyAyajI mArA ja mananI vAta karI rahyA che. enA 22 zlokomAM mahopAdhyAyajIe kadAgrahadoSanuM vAstavika svarUpa varNavI dIdhuM che. ya teo lakhe che ke aMdarakhAne jene potAnI mAnyatAno rAga bhaDake baLato hoya, tenA manamAM e kadAgrahanI AganI vacce tattvano bodha thavA rUpI velaDI uge ja kevI rIte ? mATe ja e AtmAmAM prazamabhAva rUpI puSpo na hoya, e bIjAno hitopadeza sAMbhaLe e paNa kyAM zakya che ? ma Shi S FY F EE FOR pelA nihnavoe vrato AdaryA, tapa paNa ghaNo karyo, nirdoSagocarI mATe sakhata prayatna karyo chatAM emane phaLa na maLyuM e emanA matarAgano ja pratApa che. kadAgrahIo pAse buddhi to che. sadguru emane zrutadAna karanAra che. chatAM pelo A kadAgraha e kadAgrahIonuM gaLuM pakaDI rAkhe che, emane samyakzrutanuM bhojana karavA deto A nathI.. bha A kadAgrahIone potAnA jevA kadAgrahIonI - mUDha lokonI ja sobata game che. emane gItArtho sAthe paricaya karavo bilakula na phAve. kemake tyAM to emano sa kadAgraha cAlI ja na zake ne ? kharekhara kAgaDAone to viSTAmAM ja cAMca mAravAnuM ja game ne ? emane mISTAnna jamavuM gamatuM haze ? kAgaDAno svabhAva ja evo che ! pre sa moTI muzkelI e che ke A kadAgrahIo pote je padArtha mAnelo hoya, ene sAco kSa Na sAbita karavA mATe AkAza-pAtALa eka karI bese. badhI yuktio, badhA zAstrapATho Na m kadAgraha 7 (143) O

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bhagavao mahAvIrassa #NamA tthu Na samaNassa bhagavaora samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrasya Namo tyu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mA (r - E - E "F F "B potAnA padArthane sAco sAbita karavA kheMcI kheMcIne joDavA maMDe che. hakIkatamAM 3 yuktio ane zAstrapATho je padArtha darzAvatA hoya, e tarapha eNe zraddhA karavI joIe, ene badale teo to udhuM ja kare che. tuM laMgaDA-lUlA rAjakumArane jo rAjA na banAvAya, to kadAgrahIne zrutajJAna na ja na apAya. - kadAgrahIna to guNo paNa doSarUpa banI rahe che. emanI caturatA kapaTane mATe tti upayogI bane che. emanuM zAstrajJAna pApo AcaravAnI chUTa levA mATe upayogI bane zi na che. emanI pratibhA-paTutA bIjAone ThagavA mATe ane emanI daDhatA abhimAna mATe upayogI bane che. vidyA-viveka-vinaya-vizuddhizAsrarAga-udAratA A badhA ja guNo kadAgrahathI nAza | 2 pAme che. jema dAvAnaLanA kaNiyAthI ghAsanI gaMjI saLagIne sApha thaI jAya, tema ! { AvI to aneka bAbato te adhikAramAM varNavI che. mAre AvA kadAgrahI banavuM nathI, huM evA gaccharAga-svamatarAga tyAgIne 8 tattvarAgI banIza. "je sAcuM te mAruM e vAstaviktAne huM AtmasAta karIza. prabho mArI A sAdhanAmAM sahAyaka banaje. E E F E F F S E F 0 000 = = * = & $ C| IIIIIIIIT kadAgraha 0 (144) INDI

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maNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavAna 'T 13. upasaMhAra , 5 F ba E la F "E - 5 F E A rIte 14 jeTalA doSo para AtmasaMprekSaNa karyuM. AmAM nIcenI bAbato dhyAnamAM rAkhavI - + AtmasaMprekSaNamAM je je prasaMgo-TucakAo lIdhA che, e "koIkanA jIvanamAM te je banelA ja che' evuM nathI. paNa mAnavInA svabhAva pramANe te te daSTAnto kalpanA dvArA fa, paNa darzAvavAmAM AvyA che. arthAt amuka prasaMgo kAlpanika paNa hoI zake che. hA ! na ne kharekhara koInA jIvanamAM evA prasaMgo banyA hoya evuM saMbhavita paNa kharuM. 17 + dareke dareka doSomAM anekAneka daSTAnto darzAvyA che. Ama to eka-be nA daSTAntathI paNa padArtha darzAvI zakAya. paraMtu darekanA jIvanamAM eka sarakhA prasaMgo nA ya banatA nathI hotA, eTale ja dasa-bAra prasaMgo darzAvAya, to emAMthI eka-be to enA dara jIvanamAM lAgu paDatA saMbhavI zake che. eTale ja enA AdhAre e potAno doSa kare = svIkArI zake, samajI zake. A mATe ja pratyeka doSamAM aneka prasaMgo darzAvyA che. dara + ghaNA prasaMgone lIdhe lakhANa lAMbu paNa lAge. saMkSeparucivALAne rasa na paNa E paDe... chatAM vistAra rucivALA mATe A upayogI banaze. ema samajIne vistRta = lakhANa kareluM che. + A badhuM vAMcIne koIka vaLI ema samajI bese ke "sAdhu-sAdhvIjIomAM to chekeTalA badhA doSo che... jUone ! A AtmasaMprekSaNanA lakhANamAM seMkaDo prakAranA Esa doSo darzAvyA che." || A samajaNa barAbara nathI. kemake A - pratyeka saMyamImAM AvA seMkaDo prakAranA doSo che ja nahi, amukamAM amuka A| bha hoya, te bIjAmAM vaLI bIjo ! - jema A doSo che, tema bIjI bAju seMkaDo prakAranA guNo paNa saMyamIomAM che ja. 100 mArkanA peparamAM 20 praznomAM khoTo javAba Ave, to paNa vidyArthI [ 80% vALo sAro abhyAsu gaNAya che. 20 cokaDI joIne koI e vidyArthIne DaphoLa " ma nathI kahetuM. paNa 80 rAITa joIne ene First Class Pass thayelo ja gaNe che. mAM * ema saMyamImAM nAnA-nAnA 25-50 doSo hoya, to ya tenI sAme 250-500 lo jeTalA guNo paNa che ja. e 90% guNo joIne emane zAbAzI ApavI ghaTe, 10% | upasaMhAra (145) mani TO C

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yo tyaNaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavaoma . . ! e doSo joIne gALo devI barAbara nathI. 3 - saMyamInI pharaja che ke potAnI 10% ke 20% bhUlo paNa dUra karavAno tanatoDa Da prayatna kare. jayAre bIjAonI pharaja che ke saMyamIonA AvA 10, 20% doSone tuM jovAne badale 90,80% guNone joIne pramoda dhAraNa karavo. - eka sArA zikSaka hoMziyAra vidyArthIone emanI nAnI-nAnI bhUlo pakaDI* pakaDIne batADavAnA ja. jethI hoMziyAra vidyArthIo e nAnI nAnI bhUlo paNa dUra | karIne sauthI vadhu guNAMka lAvI zake. paNa e vakhate loko jo ema bole ke "A na, vidyArthIo bhoMTha che. jUone ! zikSake emanI keTalI bhUlo kADhI' to hakIkatamAM e ra| A loko ja bhoMTha che. ema viSamakALamAM paNa pratyeka saMyamI vadhumAM vadhu guNavikAsa kare, e mATe guru 2 to ene enA nAnA-moTA doSo zodhI zodhIne batAvaze ja, paNa e joIne koI vaLI - e saMyamIone doSabharapUra mAnI bese, to kahevuM paDaze ke e jIvaDo svayaM mUrkha che. prazna : Ape zaruAtamAM kaheluM ke A badhuM AtmasaMprekSaNa karatA pahelA bhAvanAzrutano pATha karavo. arthAt zAMtasudhArasa-vairAgyazataka-Indriya parAjayazatakaadhyAtmakalpadruma... vagere vagere zratono puSkaLa pATha karavo ane pachI AtmasaMpreSaNa karavuM. paNa A AtmasaMpreSaNa to e zAstronA pATha vinA paNa thaI zakaze ne ? emAM e sUtrapAThanI AvazyaktA zuM che ? e hajI samajAtuM nathI. uttara : zrI yogazatakavRttikAre kahyuM che ke "paripatamanasvaMsanatyaM saMpAI ? ava' A (1) sUtrano pATha, (2) tenA arthanuM sadguru pAse zravaNa, (3) AtmasaMprekSaNa A A Akho krama darzAvAyo che. emAM jo sUtrapATha karyA vinA sIdhuM ja enA arthonuM mAM zravaNa karavAmAM Ave to e kAco maLa nIkaLI javA barAbara che. Azaya e che ke jema khorAka khAdhA bAda amuka khorAka lohI vagere rUpe bane, ane bAkIno khorAka maLa rUpe banIne zarIramAMthI nIkaLI jAya. paNa jayAM sudhI lohI " vagere banyuM na hoya tyAM sudhI e maLa kAco maLa kahevAya. e jo nIkaLI jAya, to ke kSa zarIramAM zakti utpanna ja na thAya. ema jo sUtrapATha vinA artha zravaNa karavAmAM Ave, kSa Na to e jhAjho lAbha na kare. va 1 + 20 TOaa CommigramTM upasaMhAra (146) jaminimming

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yo mahAvIrassa Namo tthu NaM samaNassa bhagavaomakA Namo tyu NaM samaNassa bhagavaomakA 'r E spaSTa rIte kahIe to arthazravaNa AtmasAta karavA mATe je kSayopazamanI jarUra che. e kSayopazama pragaTAvI ApavAnuM kAma kare che vidhipUrvakano sUtrapATha ! | ' hojarI jo nabaLI hoya to zIro khAvA chatAM azakti dUra nahi thAya. kemake ! tuM zIro pacavAno ja nathI. ullu kapha-jhADA vagere rogo ja thavAnA. eTale sauprathama to tuM na hojarIne tagaDI banAvavI paDe, e mATe jarUrI auSadho levA paDe. enAthI hojarI | sai tagaDI bane, pachI zIro khAIe to e pace, zarIramAM zakti Ave. li e vAta sAcI che ke zarIramAM je zakti joIe che, e zIrAthI ja AvavAnI | na che, auSadhathI nahi. paNa e vAta paNa eTalI ja sAcI che ke auSadha dvArA hojarIne nA tagaDI banAvyA vinA to zIro pacavAno ja nathI. |ii ema A AtmAmAM viziSTaguNonI utpatti arthazravaNAdithI ja pragaTa thavAnI | che, mAtra sUtrapAThathI nahi. e vAta jeTalI sAcI che, eTalI ja e vAta paNa sAcI ja Na che ke sUtrapATha karyA vinA AtmAmAM evI pAtratA ja utpanna nathI thatI ke e - arthazravaNadine pacAvI zake, enA dvArA viziSTaguNo utpanna karI zake. chuM. eTale ja sauprathama vidhisara sUtrapATha karavA dvArA AtmAmAM pAtratA keLavavI, e 4 pachI enA artho sadguru pAse sAMbhaLavA, enA dvArA viziSTaguNonI utpatti ekadama 3 sahaja banI jaze. pharIthI A vAta dhyAnamAM lo. AtmA = zarIra. AtmAnI pAtratA = tagaDI hojarI pAtratA lAvanAra sUtrapATha = nabaLI hojarIne tagaDI banAvanAra auSadha viziSTaguNotpatti = zarIramAM viziSTa zakti. sUtrapATha vinA arthazravaNa = auSadha vinA nabaLI hojarImAM ja zIrAnuM bha| bhojana... sUtrapAThano mahimA mATe ja ghaNo badho che. (1) zrutajJAnamAM uddezo-samudezo-anujJA ane anuyoga hoya che. emAM uddezAdi IN [traNamAM to sUtra gokhavuM pAkuM karavuM vagere che. e thayA bAda ja arthazravaNa rUpa anuyoga karavAmAM Ave che. udezAdi vinA sIdho anuyoga karAto nathI. ' (2) zAstramAM bAra varSa sudhI mukhyatve sUtrapATha karavAnuM kahyuM che, e pachInA bAra MILANDIT upasaMhAra 0 (140) DOMINIMUM . EF F F Willulle A '

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o mahAvIrassa Namo tthu Na samaNassa bhagavao mahAlI Namo tyu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAra je . ga .1 % 3, 5, = 4 5 g 5 ? be varSa mukhyatve artha pATha karavAnuM kahyuM che. e paNa sUtranI mahattA darzAve che. ': (3) upAdhyAya jevuM viziSTapada mAtra ne mAtra sUtrapATha mATe phALavavAmAM AvyuM | ' che. emane mukhyatve A eka ja kAma soMpAyuM che "sUtradAna'jo sUtranI viziSTa kiMmata 5 tu na hota, to ene mATe upAdhyAyapada jevuM moTuM pada rAkhavAmAM na Avata. (4) sUtra na bhaNe tene ane bhaNeluM sUtra bhUlI jAya ene.. baMnene prAyazcitta | darzAvAyuM che. | (5) kAlagrahaNAdi tamAma vidhi - yogodvahanavidhi mukhyatve sUtra mATe che. (6) amuka amuka kALamAM amuka sUtro na bhaNI zakAya. vagere je nirUpaNa che. A e paNa dekhADe che ke sUtranI kiMmata ochI nathI. ' hA ! arthazravaNa mukhya che, enI nA nathI. paNa sUtrapATha prathama che, e paNa | bhUlavuM na joIe. evuM paNa lAge che ke Aje zakti hovA chatAM ApaNe sUtrapATha karatA nathI, ane je R sIdhA artho ja vAMcIe.. sAMbhaLIe chIe. mATe ja e artho buddhimAM utaravA chatAM, e che jIvanamAM utaratA nathI. e zrutajJAnamAMthI pariNationuM prakaTIkaraNa thatuM nathI. eTale ja pharI A vAta dhyAnamAM lo ke (1) sUtrapATha. (2) sadaguru pAse arthazravaNa. (3) sUtra ane arthanA AdhAre AtmasaMpreSaNa . A kramamAM garabaDa na thavI joIe. emAM jeTalI garabaDa, saphaLatA eTalI ochI ! A traNeyamAM zAstrIyavidhinuM barAbara pAlana karavAmAM Ave, to saphaLatA A eTalI moTI ! eka vizALakadanA lakhANarUpa A AtmasaMprekSaNamAM jinAjJAviparIta kaMIpaNa bhI lakhAyuM hoya to mana-vacana-kAyAthI micchA mi dukkaDe mAMguM chuM. 2 '= ka. namo'stu tasmai jinazAsanAya 2 = 2 $ 9 $ C O upasaMhAra. (148) US

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ra zAsanapati trilokaguru zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra deva ! AtmAnA pradeza pradeze saMskAra rUpe gADha banelA DhagalAbaMdha doSonA nAza mATe sau prathama to sadgara pAse e tamAma doSono bhInI AMkho sAthe ekarAra karavo jarUrI che. paNa e mATe e doSone barAbara jovA-nihALavA e atyaMta jarUrI che. | doSo spaSTa rIte joI zakAya, e mATenI divyadRSTi to mAtrane mAtra te ja ApI zake che. * basa !evI kRpA varasAva ke, (1) mArA tamAma doSone huM barAbara nihALI zakuM, (2) ghora pazcAttApa sAthe puSkaLa raDI zakuM, (3) ahaMkAra choDIne sadgara pAse mArA tamAma pApono ekarAra karI zake, (4) pharI kyAreya e aparAdho ta karavA mATenuM pracaMDa saQphoravI zakuM. ATalI kRpA varasAvazo ne ? li. tArA zAsananA sAcA zramaNa-zramaNI banavA jhaMkhatA AtmArthI zramaNa-zramaNIo