Aptavani 09

Author(s): Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Mahavideh Foundation

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and more information from the scriptures, his suspicion increases more and more; once he reaches a stage of 'I don't know anything, he is ready for real knowledge. The knowledge that gets rid of kashayas i.e. anger, greed, pride, deceit, is real knowledge; it is Gnan. Where there is suspicion, there is agony. The sign of knowing the Soul is a permanent suspicion free state.
To have suspicion is to have an awareness of a kind. 'Did I do this or did someone else do it?' To have such a suspicion is called higher awareness. 'I became engrossed (with the relative-self), this suspicion that occurs after Self-realization is also a form of awareness of knowledge. In the final stage there prevails, at all times, an awareness of: 'I never become tanmayakar (engrossed) at all.'
In Gnani Purush's state, all the worldly interactions are done by the pudgal, the relative self and He remains vitarag (detached). In spite of interacting with the world at every moment, for Him there is no intense mental note (nondha) of anything. One's vision becomes muddy when an intense mental note (nondha) is made. Always seen in the eyes of the Gnani Purush is vitaragata, a state of freedom from all attachments.
it is wrong to keep an intense mental note' then it will come into his experience (anubhav) and then ultimately it will express in his conduct (charitra). This is the scientific process through which things express in one's conduct.
There will be revenge (vair) in the mind if an intense mental note (nondha) is kept. Half the pain vanishes by not keeping such a note. Gnani Purush never keeps a note. When you keep a note, the opposing party will also keep one too.
First begins the taking of a note (nondha), then starts the mind's battle, then the battle of words and finally it can end up in a physical battle. Therefore, it is best to pluck out the root!
The person wanting liberation must get rid of the 'notebook'. For those who stop taking notes (nondha), their worldly interactions come to an end.
Those who are certain in the worldly interactions remain uncertain about liberation. Certainty in the world means supporting the worldly interactions.
In order to dissolve the innate nature (prakruti) of taking notes, what does Akram Vignan say? It says that note taking is done by the innate nature (prakruti) and the real Self has to simply know that. It is not objectionable that a note is made, but if the Self's agreement with taking notes goes away, the note too will go away.
The habit of 'taking note nondha' will not be given up without the help of the Science (Vignan). The innate worldly nature will choose to die rather than give up taking intense mental notes.
How can a note be made of the karmas that are changing: karmas that are constantly rising and setting?
What is the process of making a note? For whatever reason, if one has the slightest like or dislike via a nimit (an
Where there is true love, there is no intense mental note (nondha). Where there is no intense mental note, there is a tension free state!
The worldly love is the love that keeps intense mental notes, it is known as attraction-fondness (aasakti). Love that vacillates, love that goes up and down is called infatuation only.
The moment one says "This is what you said to me that day!' is regarded as keeping an intense mental note and as a result, one's love will vanish. By keeping such a note about the wife who is considered to be your own, will result in turning a loving life in to a poisonous one.
First comes into one's conviction (pratiti) the opinion of