Moksh Tamari Hathelima

Author(s): Yashovijaysuri
Publisher: Omkarsuri Gyanmandir Surat
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/009271/1

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AdhArasUtra tassa puNa vivAgasAhaNANi causaraNagamaNaM, dukkaDagarihA, muDAva | paMcasUtra, prathama sUtra tene (tathAbhavyatvane) paripakva dazAmAM lAvanAra tattvo A che : catuH zaraNa gamana, duSkatagaha, sukRtAsevana (sukatAnumodana).

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1 maiM Ayo zarana tihArI namaskAra mahAmaMtra dvArA sAdhakane maLatI namaskAra bhAvanI sAdhanAne ja paMcasUtranI A sAdhanAtripadI Avartita kare che : svIkAra, duSkRtagahaM, sukRta anumodanA. zaraNa ApaNI sAdhanAmAM AvatA avarodhone A sAdhanA kaI rIte haTAve che e jANatAM romAMcita thaI javAya. prabhunAM ane sadgurudevanAM caraNomAM, anAyAse ja, mastaka jhUkI rahe. 2 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM Shrenik I E / Tahijay-2013Mukahu Tamari Hathela (24-6-2015) - 1st & 2nd 24-4-2015 / 98 28-2-2011 ApaNI sAdhanAne traNa avarodho naDe che : rAga, dveSa, ahaMkAra. padArtho ane vyaktio pratyeno gamo sAdhanAmArgathI sAdhakane cyuta karI zake. e ja rIte padArtho ane vyaktio pratyeno aNagamo paNa sAdhanAmArgathI sAdhakane dUra laI jAya. ahaMkArane kAraNe to sAdhanA khoDaMgAyA vagara rahe ja nahi. joke, gamA ane aNagamAnA (rAga ane dveSanA) mULamAM ahaMkAra che. mane je game che te sAruM, mane je na game te kharAba. eTale ke ahaMkAranuM penDalama eka bAju jaze to gamo; bIjI bAju jaze to aNagamo; kendramAM aham rahyuM. A 'huM' kevuM to vyApaka che ! eka jAgRta sAdhaka tarIke jo tame tamArI vicArayAtrAnuM avalokana karo to tame dhrUjI ja jAva. tamane vAraMvAra tamAro 'huM' dekhAyA karaze : meM Ama kahyuM ane pelI vyakti kevI prabhAvita thaI gaI ! meM Ama karyuM ane pelA bhAI khuza thaI gayA... mArI abhivyaktithI bauddhika zrotAvRnda jhUmI UTheluM : vAha ! AvI prastuti to pahelI ja vAra anubhavI.' zuM karavuM A 'huM'nuM ? khyAla che ke Ano koI artha nathI ane chatAM e kUMDALAmAM ja paga paDyA kare che. sAta abaja mANasothI gherAyelI A pRthvI para tamane pacIsa-pacAsa mANasoe jANyA to paNa zuM ane na jANyA to paNa zuM ? maiM Ayo zarana tihArI A 3 Shrani I E / Yashovijay-2013Muksha Tamari Hathelu (24-4-2015) - 1st & 2nd 24-4-2015 134-28-4-2015

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'huM'thI para UThelA koI saMtanI vAta ApaNane prabhAvita paNa karI jAya che; evA banavAnI jhaMkhanA paNa thaI rahe che; paNa pharI pAchA 'huM'nI capeTamAM AvI javAya che. pelA saMta hatA nAnakaDI guphAmAM. bahu ja nAnakaDI guphA. sAdhake pUchyuM : Apa ItanI saMkarI guhA meM kyoM hai ? saMte kahyuM : maiM aura mere bhagavAna do to yahAM Thahara sakate hai. phira tIsare kA yahAM kAma bhI kyA hai ? emane bIjAnI koInI AvazyakatA nahotI; kAraNa ke 'huM' simeTAI gayuM hatuM. ApaNane bIjAonI Dagale ne pagale jarUriyAta paDe che; teo ApaNA 'huM'ne pramANita kare ne ! hA, ApaNA 'huM'ne toDanAra vyaktitvo ApaNane nathI gamatA. ApaNA 'huM'ne puSTa karanAra vyaktitvo ja ApaNane game che. A 'huM'e to manuSyone be chAvaNImAM pheravI nAkhyA : sArA ane kharAba. 'huM'ne puSTa karanArA sArA; bIjA kharAba. 'huM'nI A gaDamathalamAM sAdhanA kaI rIte AgaLa vadhe ? namaskAra mahAmaMtra namaskAra bhAvanI sAdhanA ahIM Ape che. namo, jhUko... tamAruM jhUkavuM ghaTita thavuM joIe... namaskAra bhAva Avyo. ahaMkAra ghU... namaskAra bhAva... ahaMkArane e zithila kare. 4. mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM Shrenik I E / Tahijay-2013Mukahu Tamari Hathela (24-6-2015) - 1st & 2nd 24-4-2015 / 98 28-2-2017 namaskAra bhAva... pApamukti / karmamukti bhaNI e laI jAya. namaskAra mahAmaMtramAM ja kahyuM : "eso paMca namukkAro, savvapAvappaNAsaNo..." namaskAra bhAvathI jyAre astitva otaprota bane che tyAre tamAruM oNrAsarkala evuM to majhAnuM bane che ke emAM navAM karmono praveza thato nathI. ahaMkAra bhAvamAM, 'huM'ne sAcavavAnI paLojaNamAM vikalponI paraMparA cAlaze ane e vikalpo karmabaMdha karAvaze. 'huM' zithila thayuM, vikalpo zithila banyA; have karmabaMdha kyAMthI ? yAda Ave mahopAdhyAya zrIyazovijayajI mahArAja : 'nirvikalpa upayogamAM nahi karmano cAro...' e ja rIte, sattAmAM rahela karma udayamAM Avaze; paNa prabhunAM caraNomAM jhUkelo sAdhaka, prabhunA tattvajJAnane pAmelo sAdhaka udayanI kSaNone joze; emAM vaheze nahi. enI cetanA udayAdhIna nahi, paNa svasattAdhIna banaze. have paMcasUtranI sAdhanA-tripadIne joIe. keTalI to e hRdayaMgama che ! ane e ahaMkArane kevI to salUkAIthI nikALI de che ! tripadInI pahelI sAdhanA : catuH zaraNa svIkAra... arihaMta prabhu, siddha bhagavaMta, sAdhu bhagavaMta ane prabhubhASita dharmane zaraNe javuM. maiM Ayo zarana tihArI pa Shrani I E / Yashovijay-2013Muksha Tamari Hathelu (24-4-2015) - 1st & 2nd 24-4-2015 134-28-4-2015

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zaraNe koNa jAya ? jene potAnI jAta asahAya lAgatI hoya. lAge ke prabhunI, sadgurunI kRpA vinA, emanAM caraNone pakaDyA vinA, sAdhanAmArge eka iMca ke eka senTimiTara paNa AgaLa vadhI zakAya tema nathI; te ja zaraNe jaze ne ! ahaMkAranI capeTamAMthI prabhu ane sadguru ja choDAvI zake. apekSAe, prabhunuM zaraNa svIkAravuM saheluM lAge. sadguruzaraNa svIkAra agharuM lAge. sadguru pratyenuM pUrNa samarpaNa AvI gayuM to AnaMda ja AnaMda. paNa buddhi ane ahaMkAra paranI AsthA thoDIya rahI gaI to zaraNasvIkAra azakya ghaTanA banI jAya. ApaNane joIe pUrNa samarpaNa. mRgAvatIjI sAdhvIjI yAda Ave. prabhunA samavasaraNamAMthI upAzraye AvatAM moDuM thaI gayuM. prabhunA pyArA, pyArA zabdo... samayano khyAla zI rIte rahe ? upAzraye AvatAM ja guruNIjI candanAjIe temane ADe hAtha lIdhAM : tamArAM jevAM sAdhvIjI... ane ATaluM moDuM AvavAnuM ! kevuM aMdhAruM thaI gayuM che ! mRgAvatIjI guruNIjInAM caraNone potAnAM AMsu vaDe pakhALatAM, pakhALatAM temanI A prasAdIne mANI rahyAM che. vicAre mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM Shrenik I E | Travijay-2012Maksha Tamari Hathalia (24-6-2015) + 1st & 2nd 24-8-2015/34-28-2-2015 che : 'kevAM sarasa sadguruNIjI mane maLyAM che ! kevuM yoga-kSema kare che !' A samarpaNanI dhArA emane kaivalya sudhI laI gaI. ahIM jo buddhi ane ahaMkAra AvI jAya to ? huM vAcanAmAM ghaNIvAra A prasaMgane A rIte samajAvato houM chuM : ApaNA jevA ziSyone AvuM thayuM hoya ane guru jo AvuM kahe to tarata ja dalIla karIe 'paNa AmAM mAro vAMka zo ? prabhunA pyArA zabdonuM sammohana kevuM hoya ! ane tyAM to jhaLAMhaLAM prakAza hato. aMdhAruM thaI gayuM eno khyAla paNa zI rIte Ave ?' buddhi AvI gaI vacce. sAdhanAnI dhArA aTakI gaI. ane kyAreka raMgAyela hAthe pakaDAI javAya ane gurudeva Thapako Ape tyAre ahaMkAra murita bane. 'barobara che, mArI bhUla hatI. paNa e mATe tame mane ekAntamAM kaho. Ama jAheramAM zuM kaho cho ?' ahaMkAre yAtrA Thapa karI dIdhI. .. sadguruzaraNa... e zaraNa-svIkAra thaI gayo to ApaNe kazuM ja karavAnuM na rahe. je kaMI karavAnuM che, te sadgurue ja karavAnuM che. niSNAta meDikala suparavijhanamAM rahela dardI. eNe zuM karavAnuM che ? ArAmathI sUI javAnuM che. phaLano rasa apAya tyAre e pIvAno che ane davA apAya tyAre e levAnI che. maiM Ayo zarana tihArI 97 Shrant / E / Yashovijay-2013Muksha Tamari Hathe ml (26-4-2015) - 1 & 2nd 24-2015 14-28-2-2015

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A saMdarbhamAM ja samarpita sAdhakanI sAdhanAnuM samIkaraNa A rIte apAyuM : 100 TakA kRpA. ahIM prayatna che ja nahi. kevI majhA ! eka miniTa... hRdayamAM DUbakI lagAvIne juo ke tame AvI rIte kyAreya koI gurudeva pAse gayelA? mA AnaMdamayI pAse eka sAdhaka vIsa varSathI jato hato. ekavAra AMkhamAM AMsu sAthe eNe kahyuM : "mA ! tamArI pAse vIsa varSathI huM AvuM chuM. ane chatAM mArI bhItara koI pharaka to vartAto nathI.' dardIne peTamAM dukhe che, asahya dukhAvo che. sonogrAphI vagere karAvyuM. DaoNkTare riporTsa joIne kahyuM : kazuM ja nathI. tame ekadama o.ke. cho. bIjA eka niSNAte e ja riporTsa joyA ane bhItara chupAyela dardane pakaDI pADyuM. ane ene anurUpa davA ApI. kayA DaoNkTara game? o.ke. kahe tevA ke dardane zodhI kADhe tevA ? mAe kahyuM : "beTA ! huM tane kyAranI kahuM chuM ke tuM marI jA, marI jA... paNa tuM marato nathI, huM zuM karuM ?' dekhItI rIte, A vaibhAvika mRtyunI vAta hatI. ane A sandarbhamAM guru-ziSyanI majhAnI vyAkhyA A pramANe che : je vibhAvazUnya banavA rAjI hoya te ziSya. je ziSyane vibhAvazUnya banAve te guru. have ApaNI vAta karIe to, sadguru ApaNane kevA game ? ApaNane o.ke. kahe tevA ke ApaNI sAdhanAmAM rahela avarodhone pArakhI Ape evA ? prabhunA, sadgurunA, prabhunI sAdhanAnA zaraNe gayA eTale tamane maLI gayuM surakSAcakra. have kayo avarodha rahyo AntarayAtrAnA sandarbhe ? mArI pAse ghaNA sAdhako Ave che. teo kahetA hoya che : 'gurudeva ! ame tamArI pAse mAtra ne mAtra eTalA mATe AvyA chIe ke amArI sAdhanAmAM rahelI truTione tame batAvo. sAmAyika karIe chIe, svAdhyAya karIe chIe; pariNAmarUpe Apa je rAga-dveSanI zithilatA kaho cho, te maLatI nathI. to, gurudeva ! amArI sAdhanAne pariNAma tarapha laMbAvanArI banAvo sAdhanAtripadInuM bIjuM caraNa : duSkRtagartA. atItanI sapharamAM ane A janmamAM je paNa duSkRtyo thayAM hoya tenI gurusAkSIe nindanA. pote karela duSkRtyonI vaNajhAra jayAre sAme dekhAtI hoya tyAre ahamane rahevAnuM kayuM sthAna rahe ? 8 ; mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM meM Ayo zarana tihArI che 9 shrink/E/rahullary-2018usha Taraf Halhelma ( 2 015) * 1st 2nd aw-abi 512 015 shtant/E/ Yashwly-201iusa Tamari Hathi hu 2 015) * 1st & 2nd 2-3151d-wat15

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to, duSkRtagartA paNa 'huM'ne zithila karavAnuM mAdhyama banI rahe. meM nAkhela pANIne kAraNe dariyAmAM keTalI bharatI Ave che trIjuM caraNa tripadInuM : sukRtAnumodanA. anyo dvArA thayela sukRtyonI anumodanA. prazaMsA. atyAra sudhI mAtra potAnA dvArA thayelAM nAnakaDAM sukRtyone vistRta - enlarge karIne joyAM... have najara jAya che anya mahApuruSo Adi dvArA thayela sukRtyo para. e sukRtyonI thatI anumodanA potAnA 'huM'ne saMkocI le emAM zI navAI ! thavuM zuM joIe ? ApaNAM kRtyo... kevAM hoya che e ? ApaNuM vyaktitva nAnuM. ApaNuM kRtitva ethI paNa nAnuM hovAnuM. zo matalaba eno ? marAThI kavi viraMdIkaranI eka racanA thoDAka pheraphAra sAthe : huM dariyAne kAMThe gayo mArA hAthamAM rahela pyAlAmAMthI meM pANI UMDelyuM dariyAmAM. ane pachI Ubho rahIne jovA lAgyo ke ApaNuM vyaktitva prabhunA prAgaTyanuM mAdhyama banavuM joIe. koInI sarasa vAta joI. AMkhamAM anumodanAnA layamAM harSAzru Ave. huM kahIza ke prabhu tamArI AMkhomAM pragaTyA. koInI sarasa vAta sAMbhaLI. anumodanAnA layamAM sarasa vAto tame e mahAnubhAva mATe karI. huM kahIza ke prabhu tamAre kaMThethI pragaTyA. yAda Ave ravIndranAtha TAgora. kahe che teo prabhune : prabhu ! huM to bAMsurI chuM. tuM havA thaIne mArI bhItarathI vahe che ane tyAre saMgIta mArI bhItarathI pragaTe che. prabhu ! e saMgIta tAruM sarjana che. keTalI majhAnI vAta ! ApaNA jIvananI bAMsurI. 'enA hoTha. saMgItanI kSaNomAM have vahyA ja karAya, vahyA ja karAya. 10 ; mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM meM Ayo zarana tihArI re 11 shrink/E/rahullary-2018usha Taraf Halhelma ( 2 015) * 1st 2nd aw-abi 512 015 Bhian/Etvahalay-201wusalamurahma ( 2 015) * 1st & pd z -i511d--asis

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paramapAvana paMcasUtraka grantha tathAbhavyatva (mokSe javAnI AtmAnI yogyatA)ne paripakva karavA mATe A sAdhanAtripadInI vAta kare che. kevI majhAnI A sAdhanAtripadI ! e upAdAnane nirmala, nirmala banAvI de... ane AntarayAtrA cAlu ! AdhArasUtra tahA pasaMtagaMbhIrAsayA sAvajjajogavirayA paMcavihAyArajANagA parovayAranirayA paumAinirdasaNA jhANajjhayaNasaMgayA visujjhamANabhAvA sAhU saraNaM // - paMcasUtra, prathama sUtra prazAnta ane gaMbhIra cittavALA, sAvadya yogathI virata, paMcavidha AcArane jANanAra, paropakAramAM otaprota, kamaLa jevA asaMga, dhyAna ane adhyayanathI yukta ane vizuddha, vizuddhatara bhAvathI saMpanna sAdhubhagavaMtonuM zaraNa ho ! 12 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM Shranik / E / Yashovijay-2013/Mukha Tamari Hathelia (24-6-2015) - st & 2nd 24-6-2015/3rd-28-6-2015

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2 sAdhanAnI saptapadI gItAMjalimAM zrI ravIndranAtha TAgora kahe che : muja sakala aMgo para tAro sparza lAgelo ja che divasa-rAta yAda rAkhI sadA e vAta rAkhIza muja zarIra haMmezAM pavitra, prANezvara... mArA manamAM virAje che tuM, he parama jJAna ! sadA smaraNamAM rAkhI e mArA sarva dhyAna ane sarva vicAromAMthI sarva prayatna huM rAkhIza dUra sarva mithyAne... muja hRdayamAM rahyuM che tAruM acala Asana dhyAnamAM rAkhI e karIza huM zAsana sakala kuTila dveSa ane sarva amaMgala premane rAkhIza sadA praphulla, nirmala... sarva karmomAM pravarte che tava zakti ema jANI sakala karmomAM pragaTAvavA tane karIza mathAmaNa..." prabhu ! mArA sarva aMgo para, mArA astitva para tAro sparza chavAyelo che. eTale have huM huM na rahyo, barobara ne ? satata A vAta mArA smRti paTa para rahe che ke mArA nAthano hAtha mArA astitva para pharI rahyo che ane ethI apavitratA mArI najIka paNa kyAMthI TUMkI zake ? ane je hatI apavitratA, e tArA punita sparze kharI gaI. sAdhanA... paramAtmAno pyAro, khAro sparza. rome rome parama sparza. astitvanA chellA pradeza sudhI paramano sparza maLe te sAdhanA. e sAdhanA hRdayane nirmala banAve. zubhamAMthI zuddhamAM sAdhakane e pratiSThita kare. 14 je. mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM sAdhanAnI saptapadI je 15

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tAro sparza... lAge ke tuM ja tuM ja che have. agaNita janmothI mane pajavanAra 'huM'nA to phuracA ja UDI gayA. prabhu ! ema kahuM ke meM tane mAruM mana samarpita nathI karyuM kadAca; paNa tuM evI rIte mArA manamAM AvIne vasI gayo che ke have e mana tAruM ja che. ane eTale ja to vicAromAM ATalI pavitratA che ne ! mArA nAtha ! kevI tArI A karuNA ? tane lAgyuM ke cAlo, e samarpaNa nathI karI zakato enA manane, to zuM thaI gayuM ? che to e mAruM bALaka ja ne ! ane tuM mArA manamAM chavAI gayo. mAre karavAnuM kAma teM karyuM ! Ama paNa, huM to asahAya ja chuM ne ! huM zuM karI zakuM ? ane prabhu ! huM asahAya rahyuM emAM ja mane phAyado che ne ? mArA taraphathI huM karI karIne keTaluM karIza ? ane tuM karaze tyAre kaMI bAkI ja nahi rahe. majhAnuM subhASita che : 'paDyuM hradyate nirik'..... prabhunI kRpA pAMgaLAne paNagiri kudAvI Ape che. huM emAM Dva umeruM chuM : pazumeva jAyate zirim'.... pAMgaLAne ja prabhunI kRpA parvata caDhAvI Ape che... tamAre tamArA paga para caDhavuM hoya to prabhukRpA kyAMthI Ave ? 16 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM bhagavadgItAnI be paMktio che : 'dvaretAtmanAtmAnam...' ane 'teSAmahaM samuddhartA...'beu vidhAno Amane-sAmane thayAM. eka bAju kahevAyuM ke bhakte cAlavAnuM che. bIjI bAju kahevAyuM : bhaktono uddhAra karanAra huM chuM. vinobAjInI sUkSma prajJAe ahIM sarasa samanvaya karI Apyo che : bhakta eka Daga ja bharavAnuM che... athavA to kaho ke cAlavAno vicAra karavAno che... 'e' tene enI bAMhomAM samAvI le che. prabhu ! kevI tArI kRpA ! teM mAruM badhuM ja kArya karI lIdhuM. mAre zuM karavAnuM ? basa, huM to tane joyA karIza... ane eTale ja to te AcArAMga sUtramAM mane 'tIi' kahela che ne ! tArA dvArA maLela e vizeSaNane pahelIvAra sAMbhaLyuM tyAre kevo khuza thayelo huM ! thayeluM ke prabhue mAruM avatArakRtya eka zabdamAM mane ApI dIdhuM : huM 'e'nA tarapha mITa mAMDIne besI ja rahuM, besI ja rahuM... prabhu ! e kSaNono AnaMda kevo to apUrva hoya che ! tane jouM, tArA mukha-kamala para rahela divya AnaMdane jouM, vItarAga dazAne jouM; basa, pachI joyA ja karuM, joyA ja karuM. ane eka kSaNa AchIsI pratIti thAya ke mArI bhItara zuM AvuM nathI ? che to evuM ja badhuM. paNa enuM prakaTIkaraNa kaI rIte karavuM ? prabhu ! lAge ke tane joyA karavo e ja mArI sAdhanA banI raheze... sAdhanAnI saptapadI 17

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barobara chuM ne, prabhu ? tane joyA karIza ane mAro anAdino saMgI dveSa jharI jaze... mArI rAga-dazA adRzya thaze. ahaMkArane to rahevAnI jagyA ja kyAMthI raheze ? paMcasUtramAM A ja gaMgotrI binduthI zarU thayelI sAdhanAnI saptapadI apAI che : prazAnta ane gaMbhIra citta, sAvadyayoga virati, paMcavidha AcAranuM jJAna, paropakArazIlatA, kamala jevI asaMgatA, dhyAna ane adhyayananI otaprotatA ane bhAvonI vizuddhi. kramasara e caraNomAMthI pasAra thaIe. mArA tanamAM tuM, mArA nayanamAM tuM, mArA hRdayamAM tuM... to pachI, ahaMkAra (huM) rahe kyAM ? kevI majhA AvI gaI mane ! nirmala citta che sAdhanAnuM gaMgotrI bindu. sAdhanAnI gaMgA kAyAnA paTa para relAya, vacananA stara para paNa e vistare; paNa tenuM ugama bindu che nirmala citta. A ja sandarbhe SoDazaka yAda Ave : puSTi ane zuddhivALuM citta te sAdhanA. rAga, dveSa ane ahaMkAranI zithilatAvALuM citta te sAdhanA. vairAgya, kSamA ane namratAnI puSTivALuM citta te sAdhanA. pahelA caraNe prazamAnubhUti. pUjyapAda AnavimalasUri mahArAja eka gAmamAM vihAra karatAM padhAryA. eka zreSThInA gharamAM emano utAro hato. moTuM ghara. pAchaLa moTuM udyAna. munio badhA sAdhanAmAM otaprota thaI gayA. zreSThIno putra mANekacaMda. zraddhAvihoNuM vyaktitva. e mAnato ke A sAdhu-sAdhvIomAM koI sAdhanA hotI nathI. mAtra peTa bharavA mATe AvI rIte A loko nIkaLI jatA hoya che. rAtanA samaye udyAnamAM eka munirAja vRkSa nIce dhyAna karI rahyA hatA. mANekacaMde emane joyA. vicAryuM ke AmanuM dhyAna kevuM che, tenI parIkSA karuM. teNe eka saLagatuM lAkaDuM hAthamAM lIdhuM. munirAja pAse te Avyo. munirAjanI dADhInA vALane eNe saLagatuM lAkaDuM aDADyuM. dADhI baLavA lAgI. moDhAno bhAga dAjhI gayo. paNa munirAja dhyAnamAM magna ja rahyA. A dezya mANekacaMda para gherI asara pADI. ene thayuM ke kharekhara A loko sAdhako che. 1. puSTi: zuddhaH vittI... (SoDazaka) 18 ka moTA tamArI hatheLImAM sAdhanAnI saptapadI : 19

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A mANekacaMda te ja bIjA janmamAM thAya che mANibhadra yakSarAja. munirAjanI kevI gADha prazama dazA ! prazAnta cittavRtti. prazAntavAhitA. trilocanasUri mahArAja ApaNA yugamAM thayA. ekavAra teo vihAra karI rahyA hoya che. ziSyo AgaLa-pAchaLa che. tevAmAM eka Traka temanI ekadama najIkathI pasAra thaI. saheja dhakko lAgyo. AcArya bhagavaMta paDI gayA. thoDuMka vAgyuM. DrAIvara hataprabha banyo. ene thayuM ke mArI bhUla hatI; meM ekadama najIka Traka laI lIdhelI. teNe Traka UbhI rAkhI. te nIce Utaryo ane kahyuM : mahArAja sAheba ! tamane huM haoNspiTalamAM laI jAuM ? bhUla mArI hatI... sAhebe kahyuM : bhAI, mane evuM nathI lAgyuM ke tarata haoNspiTalAIjhuDa thavuM paDe. hamaNAM mArA ziSyo Avaze. kadAca huM nahi cAlI zakuM, to te loko sTrecaramAM mane sAme gAma laI jaze. tame cintA na karo. je banavAnuM hatuM te banyuM. tame nimittarUpa nathI A ghaTanAmAM... tame jatA raho ! bIjA loko AvI jaze ane tamArA Trakano naMbara lakhI phariyAda karaze to tame upAdhimAM paDazo... tame jatA raho ! prazamanuM jharaNuM sAdhakanA cittamAM satata khaLakhaLa karatuM vahI rahyuM hoya. e jharaNAmAM cittamAM rahelI gaMdakI vahI ja javAnI ne ! cittamAM hoya prazama; tyAre nimitta jevI ghaTanA hotI nathI. huM ghaNIvAra kaheto houM chuM ke bhaktanA zabdakozamAM pAne pAne nimitta zabda che. "prabhue mane nimitta banAvyo ane A kArya thayuM...' jyAre sAdhakanA zabdakozamAM nimitta zabda ja nathI... 'ANe Ama kahyuM ke karyuM ethI mane gusso Avyo evuM sAdhaka nahi kahe. e kaheze ke mAruM upAdAna azuddha hatuM, tethI mane krodha Avyo." paraMtagaMbhIrAsayA..." kevI majhAnI A prazamAnubhUti ! prazAnta cittavRtti. kadAca nimittonI asara thatI hoya to evo eka saMkalpa karAya ke divasamAM paheluM je nimitta maLaze, enI asaramAM huM nahi AvuM. saMkalpa tIvra hoya, ane banI zake ke pahelI ja ghaTanA tIvra hoya; hacamacAvI de tevI; chatAM enI asaramAM na avAya to eka AtmavizvAsa jAge ke nimittothI aprabhAvita banI zakAya. sAta caraNo paikInuM paheluM caraNa : 'pasaMtagaMbhIrAyA...' sAdhakanI cittavRtti prazAnta ane gaMbhIra joIe. 20 % mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM sAdhanAnI saptapadI 4 21

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ekAda kSaNa kadAca rAga, dveSane kAraNe paramAM jatuM rahevAya. paNa bIjI ja kSaNe, jAgRtine kAraNe, khyAla AvI jAya ane paramAMthI nIkaLI javAya... prazAntavAhitAnI anubhUti. gaMbhIracittatAnI anubhUti. ko'ke ko'ka mATe kaMIka ghasAtuM kahyuM. kadAca e saMbhaLAI paNa gayuM. paraMtu sAdhakanA cittamAMthI e vAta bahAra nahi prasare. eTaluM ja nahi, je vyaktinuM kaMIka ghasAtuM saMbhaLAI gayuM che e vyakti pratye saheja paNa tiraskAra thaze nahi. lAge ke AvA doSo meM paNa agaNita janmothI AcaryA che ane mATe ja to mAruM bhavabhramaNa cAlu rahyuM che; A saMyogomAM bIjAnA tevA doSo pratye ke e vyakti pratye hIna bhAvanA kaI rIte thaI zake ? gaMbhIra cittavRtti hoya sAdhakanI. sAdhakanuM eka sarasa lakSaNa ahIM maLyuM : jenI jAgRti prabaLa che, te sAdhaka. - sAdhakane, kadAca kyAreka, durvicAra AvI zake; durbhAva to ene na ja sparze. be-pAMca sekanDa rAga-dveSamAM taNAI javAyuM te durvicAra. ane miniTo, kalAko sudhI e ja pravAhamAM rahevAya te dubhava. prazAntavAhitAnI A anubhUti svAnubhUtinI dhArAmAM laI jaze. bIjuM caraNa, tethI, AvyuM sAvaghayogavirati. pApakAryothI aTakI javuM, paranI dhArAthI vimukha banavuM. rAga, dveSa ane ahaMkAramAM agaNita janmothI rahela vyaktitva paranI anubhUtimAM rahela che. have e svAnubhUti bhaNI Daga mAMDaze. durvicAra Avyo... jAgRti mukharita banI. durvicArano cheda UDI jaze. durbhAvanI ghaTanA to nIpajaze ja zI rIte ? cittamAM AvelI prazAntavAhitA thaze gaMgotrI. jyAMthI sAdhanAnI gaMgA vahyA karaze. samabhAva ane vibhAva Amane-sAmane che. samabhAvanI anubhUti je kSaNomAM haze, vibhAvamAM kaI rIte javAze ? pramAdanI kSaNomAM vibhAva sparzI jAya evuM bane; paNa jAgRti AvatAM ja samabhAvanI anubhUtimAM javAze. to, sAdhaka paLe paLe jAgRta hovo joIe. prazAntavAhitA. eka madhuro jhaMkAra. adbhuta anubhUti. have paramAM javAnuM mana nathI thatuM. hiMsA Adi kaMI paNa karavuM nathI, karAvavuM nathI ane koI karatuM hoya to tene sAruM mAnavuM nathI. 22 % mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM sAdhanAnI saptapadI 4 23

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samabhAva ane sAvadyayoganI virati (vibhAvamAM che pApavRttimAM na javuM) A be caraNone paramapAvana 'karemi bhaMte !! sUtramAM paNa kevA sarasa rIte vaNI levAmAM AvyAM che ! : 'karemi bhaMte ! sAmAiye, sAvajja joga paccakhAmi...' huM samabhAvamAM sthira thAuM chuM ane sAvadyayogamAM, pApavRttimAM na javAnI pratijJA jaDa padArthone kaI rIte jANazuM ? padArtha padArtha che. e sAro paNa nathI. kharAba paNa nathI. ThaMDI vAI rahI che. have sapheda zAla sArI ke krIma kalaranI sArI evo vikalpa tyAM hoto nathI. ThaMDI UDe evuM kaMI paNa joIe... Ane upayogitAvAda kahevAya che. zarIranI maryAdAne DhAMkavA mATe vastro joIe. paNa e AvAM hoya to sArAM ane AvAM na hoya to sArAM nahi AvI vAta sAdhakanA manamAM hotI nathI. vastra vastra ja hoya che. jJAtAbhAve. jaDa padArthone mAtra padArtho tarIke jovA che. te sArA che ke kharAba che e vicAravuM nathI. svAnubhUtinI pagathAre ja AgaLa vadhavuM che. trIjuM caraNa che : 'paMcavihAyArajANagA...' paMcavidha AcAranI evI jANakArI, je anubhUtinA stara para vistaryA kare. sAdhakanA sandarbhamAM samyagrajJAnAcAra eTale jJAtAbhAva. samyagadarzanAcAra eTale draSTAbhAva. samyaphacAritrAcAra eTale udAsInabhAva. samyaktapAcAra eTale dhyAna, kAyotsarga AdinI lInatA. samyaguvIryAcAra eTale AtmazaktinA vaheNanuM sva tarapha vaLavuM. kramaza: pAMce AcArone AtmasAt kaI rIte karavA te joIe. have dareka AtmAne kaI rIte joIzuM ? dareka AtmA anantaguNothI paripUrNa che e rIte jovuM che. atyAra sudhI potAnA sivAyanA bIjAone sArA mAnavAnuM kadAca nathI thayuM. bIjAone sArA mAnavA te agaNita janmonI bhUlanuM prAyazcitta thaze. jJAtAbhAva. paramapAvana dazavaikAlika sUtramAM eka sarasa sAdhanA ApaNane apAI che : sarvamitratAnI. bhagavAna zayyabhavasUri mahArAja kahe che : "savamUyaukhUbasa...' sAdhaka pUchaze : gurudeva ! sarvamitratAnI sAdhanA Ape mane ApI. e sAdhanAne TakAvI rAkhavA mAre zuM karavuM joIe ? gurudeva kaheze : 'samuM mUyADuM pAso...' te samyapha rIte prANIone jo . atyAra sudhI tuM bIjAone tyAre ja sArA mAnato hato jyAre e upayogI zeyone jANavA chatAM temAM rAga, dveSa Adi na thAya te jJAtAbhAve. joyone traNa vibhAgamAM vaheMcIe : jaDa, cetana (anya), sva. 24 : mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM sAdhanAnI saptapadI : 25

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bIjAo tane sAro mAnatA. have tuM emane samyak rIte jo. anaMta guNothI yukta e AtmAo che e rIte tuM jo. atyAra sudhI bhUla zuM thayelI ? manuSyone be chAvaNImAM vaheMcI nakhAyelA : sArA ane kharAba. sArA kyAre ? jyAre tamArA ahaMkArane e thapathapAve. kharAba kyAre ? jyAre e tamArA ahaMkArane khotarI nAkhe. jJAtAbhAvanI bhUmikA para Avela sAdhaka dareka AtmAne e sArA ja che e rIte joze. dareka AtmA anaMtaguNothI yukta ene dekhAze. jJAtAbhAva dvArA svane jANavAnI prakriyA kevI che ? atyAranA ApaNA svarUpamAM rahelA doSo paNa dekhAze. ane ApaNI bhaviSyanI nirmala cetanAne paNa joI zakAze. jJAtAne - jANanArane jANI zakAze. jJAnasAra prakaraNe sarasa vidhi AnA mATe ApI che : AtmA AtmAne AtmA vaDe AtmAne viSe jANe. sAdhakarUpe pratiSThita thayela AtmA potAnA nirmala svarUpane jANe. kaI rIte jANe ? AtmA vaDe. AtmAne viSe. AtmA vaDe eTale potAnI jJAnazakti vaDe. AtmAne viSe eTale ananta guNo ane paryAyovALA Atmatattvane viSe. 2. AtmAtmacena thaI nAnAvAtmAnamAtranA || 26 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM jJAnAcAra pachI darzanAcAra. draSTAbhAva. 'adhyAtma upaniSad' yAda Ave : draSTAnuM darzananI kSaNomAM rahevAvuM te ja mokSa. ane dRzyonI sAthe cittane ekAkAra karI rAga, dveSanI kSaNomAM pravezavuM te saMsAra... draSTAbhAva. tame draSTA cho. mAtra jonAra. ghaTanA ghaTI rahI che. tame ene joI rahyA cho. mAtra joI rahyA cho. rAga, dveSa, ahaMkAra emAM bhaLato nathI, to draSTAbhAva. AInsTAIna amerikA gayelA. vaoNziMgTananA eNraporTathI vhAITa hAusa sudhIno pravAsa khullI kAramAM thaI rahyo che. hajAro loko phUTapAtha parathI ane makAnonI aTArIomAMthI AInsTAInane joI rahyA che. premapUrvaka emane harSollAsathI vadhAvI rahyA che. je adhikArI AInsTAInanI joDe beThela, temaNe kaheluM : 'sara, AvuM sanmAna koI rAjanetAne haju sudhI maLyuM nathI.' AInsTAIna A ghaTanAthI saheje prabhAvita na thayA. temaNe kahyuM : 'A ja mArga para eka jirApha ke hAthI pasAra thAya to AthI ya vadhu mANaso ene jovA Ave...' kevo sarasa draSTAbhAva ! 3. dradhruvatA mutti-daivaijAtanuM vaprama: I sAdhanAnI saptapadI 27

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pAMcame guNaThANe deza cAritra. jJAtAbhAva ane draSTAbhAvamAM udAsInatA bhaLaze. chaTTe guNaThANe vadhu bhaLaze. sAtame ethIya vadhu. nirlepatA gherI ne gherI banyA karaze. subhASacandra bojha eka jAhera sabhAne saMbodhI rahyA hatA. eka virodhIe junuM hAthamAM lIdhuM ane subhASacandranA kapALane tAkIne lagAvyuM. saheja nizAnacUka thaI. subhASacandranA paga pAse jutuM paDyuM. kadAca ko'ka hataprabha banI jAya. paNa A to subhASa bojha hatA. emaNe pravacana cAlu rAkhyuM. dhIrethI nIce jhUkIne peluM junuM hAthamAM lIdhuM ane kahyuM : "huM paheruM chuM e juttAM karatAM A vadhu sAruM che. je sajjane A jUtuM pheMkyuM che, temane vinaMtI karuM ke bIjuM paNa ahIM pheMkI de. temane to Ama paNa bIjuM have nakkAmuM ja che... huM beu navAM juttAM laI mArAM juttAM ahIM choDIne vidAya thaI jAuM.' tIrthakara bhagavaMtonI udAsIna dazA gRhasthapaNAmAM paNa prabaLa hoya che. eTale teo cothA guNaThANe hovA chatAM chaThThI dRSTimAM hoya che. aMjanazalAkAnA prasaMgomAM prabhuno lagnotsava ane rAjyAbhiSekanA prasaMgane jhINavaTathI jovAya to e kSaNomAM paNa prabhunA caherA paranI parama udAsIna dazA ApaNane sparzI jAya. ApaNe e samaye mAtra prabhunA mukhane ja jotA rahIe... draSTAbhAva. ghaTanAne jovAno eka viziSTa dRSTikoNa... prabhunI kRpAne A rIte jhIlIe... tapAcAra. tapa eTale nijaguNabhoga. yAda Ave mahopAdhyAya zrIyazovijaya mahArAja : 'tapa te ehi ja AtamAM, varate nijaguNa bhoge re...' cAritra eTale udAsIna dazA. udAsIna zabda be zabdonA joDANathI banela che : ud + AsIna. UMce beThela. ghaTanAonI nadInA pravAhane udAsIna dazAnI bhekhaDa para besIne mAtra jovAno che. prazama rasanI pragADha anubhUtinI kSaNomAM tame ho cho nijaguNabhogI. jJAtAbhAva, draSTAbhAva... potAnA guNono bhoga. paranA bhAgane alavidA. dhyAna ane kAyotsarganI kSaNomAM hoya che A nijaguNabhoga. udAsIna dazA. gherI aliptatA. cothA guNaThANe jJAtAbhAvadraSTAbhAva che. jaNAya che, jovAya che; thoDuMka alipta rahevAya che. vIryAcAra. AtmazaktinA vaheNanuM mAtra sva bhaNI vahevuM te vIryAcAra. 28 : mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM sAdhanAnI saptapadI je 29

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mana, vacana, kAyAnA yogone pravartita karavA mATe upayoganI - AtmazaktinI jarUrata paDaze. ajJAnadazAmAM Atmazakti mana, vacana, kAyAnA azubha yogone pravartita karavA mATe ja vaparAI. have e zaktine prabhu AjJApAlana mATe vAparavI che. mana, vacana, kAyAnA yogonI prabhu AjJAsammata pravRtti eTale ja pAMca samitio ane traNa guptio. yA to zubha vicAromAM, zubha bhAvomAM rahevAya; yA to nirvikalpa dazAmAM. yA to niravadya, prabhusammata vacanaprayoga thAya athavA to saMpUrNa maunamAM rahevAya. yA to niravadya rIte, prabhu AjJA sammata zarIranI kriyAo thAya athavA to saMpUrNatayA kAyagupta, kAyAthI nizcala, akaMpa rahevAya. tame jAva ane hiMsAno vicAra tamAro, laIne gayA ho toya, adRzya thaI jAya. satya jemaNe siddha karyuM hoya te mahApuruSanA khaMDamAM koI vyakti, juThuM bolavAno vicAra karIne praveze toya, juThuM bolI zake nahi. sAdhanAnI Toca para pahoMcela sAdhakanI siddhinAM A Andolano... e AndolanothI sabhara kSetramAM tame pravezo ane e AndolanonI asara tamArA para thAya ja. siddhi ane viniyoga. sAdhanAne ghUMTavA dvArA je zakti maLe te siddhi. sadguru dvArA maLelI sAdhanAne ghUMTavI che. e sAdhanA ghUMTAI gaI. have emano eka zabda ane viniyoga. emanAM Andolano ane viniyoga. rAga ane dveSamAM UMDe sudhI DUbI gayela vyaktineya guru kahe : 'jA, tAro A kacaro nIkaLI gayo !! mAtra eka A vacana. ane pelI vyaktinA rAga-dveSa zithila banI jAya. sAdhanAnuM cothuM caraNa : paropakAramAM otaprotatA. 'parovavAranirayA...' paropakArane eka vizeSaNa apAyuM che : ekAttika. muktinI dizA tarapha niraMtara cAlatI yAtrA te ekAntika paropakAra... paropakArI munirAja evo paropakAra kare che, je sAmI vyaktine, eka pachI eka pagathiyuM kudAvI, mokSa bhaNI laI jAya. jo ke, Avo paropakAra viniyoganI kakSAno hoya che. ane viniyoga siddhine varela vyaktitva ja karI zake. yogaviMzikA TIkAmAM siddha vyaktitvanI siddhinI majhAnI vAta Ave che. ahiMsAyoga jeNe siddha karyo hoya tevA sadgurunA khaMDamAM 4. pare inivA--tavI rupe niratA: pavrfrfr: I (paMcasUtra-TIkA) ekAntika paropakAra. munirAja dezanA Ape, prabhue prabodhelI vAto tamArI bhASAmAM tamane samajAve. A pravacana e che sadgurunuM throiMga. evuM throiMga, je zrotAnA astitva sudhI UtarI jAya. pravacanakAranuM AvuM throiMga, prakSepaNa ane zrotAnuM e zabdo sAthenuM tAdAbhya; zuM na karI zake e ? 30 ja mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM sAdhanAnI saptapadI je 31

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A sandarbhamAM huM ghaNIvAra zrotAone pUchato houM chuM : koNa sAMbhaLe che ? tamArA kAna sAMbhaLe che, mana sAMbhaLe che ke tame sAMbhaLo cho ? paropakAra karanAranI bAju joIze sAdhanAnI siddhi; jene te bIjAne ApavA Icche che. paropakAranI e dhArAne jhIlanAra pAse joIze hRdayanI bhInAza. ahobhAvayukta hRdaya. - pravacanakAra mahAtmAe dhUMAdhAra pravacano ApyAM. tamArA kAnane majA AvI. pravacanakAra mahAtmAe evI vAto karI, je tame kyAreya sAMbhaLI nahotI; azrutapUrva; tamArA manane occhava thaI jAya. paNa AmAM tame kyAM ? e pAvana zabdo sAMbhaLatAM tamArI cetanA e zabdo sAthe ekAkAra banI rahe.. ekAntika paropakAra thaI rahe. paropakAranI ekAntikatAnI pAchaLa paropakAra kartAno zubha Azaya che. Azaya eka ja che : sAmI vyaktinuM kalyANa kramikarUpe cAlyA ja kare. A Azayane kAraNe ane te yoganI siddhine kAraNe emanA zabdomAM evo vega Avaze, je sAmI vyaktimAM te sAdhanAne sthira karI Apaze. paropakArane eka vizeSaNa apAyuM : ekAntika. bIjuM apAyuM che : Atmattika, Atmattika paropakAra eTale sarva duHkhonI mukti, sarva sukhonI prApti. e ja janmamAM siddhipadane pAmanAra vyaktine bodha ApanAre Atmattika upakAra karyo kahevAya. arjune rAdhAvedha karelo. rAdhA nAmanI lAkaDAnI pUtaLI staMbha para goLa goLa pharatI hoya... pUtaLInI nIce be-cAra cakro Amatema pharatAM hoya; koI dhIme, koI jhaDapathI; e vakhate nIce jaLakuMDamAM arjune dRSTi rAkhavI che. ane evI eka cokkasa kSaNa Ave jyAre badhAM cakrone samAntara pUtaLInI AMkha Ave; e ja kSaNe bANa chUTe ane pUtaLInI AMkha vIMdhAya. sadgurunuM kArya arjunanA rAdhAvedha karatAM agharuM che. pUtaLInI AsapAsa traNa-cAra cakro hoya; zrotAnA je bhItarI manane saddagurue vIMdhavuM che, tyAM zabdabANa pahoMcADatAM pahelAM keTalAM cakra vIMdhavAM paDe ? kaoNnsTara mAInDa, saba kaoNnsTara mAInDa... A ane AvAM keTalAMya cakrone samAntara bhItarI mana Ave ane tyAre zabdabANa e ja kSaNe chUTe ane manovedha thaI rahe. paropakAra ekAntika. paropakAra Atmattika. zabdabrahma sAthenuM thatuM joDANa parabrahmane prApta karAvI Ape. 'jJAnasAra" yAda Ave : zabdabrahmane pUrNatayA pAmIne muni svasaMvedya parabrahmane pAme che." 5. adhigatyAkhilaM zabdabrahma zAstradRzA muniH / svaseve para EITnAyata | - rAnasAra 32 ; mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM sAdhanAnI saptapadI cheka 33

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praphulla paMDyAe racela 'zabdabrahmanuM gIta' hamaNAM ja vAMceluM : je zabda gaganamAM gAje che, e zabdanI pAse pahoMcuM to, mane lAge ke kaMIka vAta banI... je zabda bhItarane tAge che, e bhItaramAM jo jaI pahoMcuM to, mane lAge ke koI ghAta TaLI... A bhItara mahIM je tUTe che, eka eka karIne graMthi, jenAM casake casakAM UThe che, e vAta kahone kema karuM ? je aMdara tUTe phUTe che, e nIta navInanI duniyA, enA mIThA che bahu phaTakA, kahone kema karIne kahuM ? je zabda AgamAM lAge che, e AganI pAse pahoMcuM to, mane lAge ke zuM bhItaranI dhULa paNa khAka banI ? have basa zabda AMkhamAM pesIne, jo kaiMka alaukika dekhADe to, lAge ke koI bhAta banI ! 34. mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM je zabda gaganamAM gAje che, ne DaMko jeno vAge che, che DaMkAnI e nAta navI ! bhItaranA AkAzamAM guMje che anAhata nAda. cittAkAzamAM guMje che prabhunA mIThA zabdo... e nAdanuM anusaMdhAna ane e zabdonuM anusaMdhAna thAya to lAge ke kaMIka ghaTanA ghaTI. prabhunA e pyArA zabdo bhItarI je avasthA bhaNI AMgaLI cIMdhaNuM kare che, te bhItarI avasthAno AsvAda AMzikarUpe paNa pAmuM to lAge ke sAdhanAmArganA avarodho TaLyA. prabhunA pyArA zabdo bhItara pahoMcyA. ne thayo camatkAra. rAga ane dveSanI gAMTho eka eka karIne tUTavA lAgI. kevo majhAno A anubhava ! zabdomAM ene kaI rIte kahI zakAya ? paryAyo satata badalAyA kare che. e badalAhaTanI - e nityanUtanatAnI duniyAne mAtra joyA karavI, e kevuM to majhAnuM che ! huM ene anubhavuM chuM. paNa ene kahI zakato nathI. prabhuno zabda bhItara pahoMcIne bane che prakAzamaya. jyotirmaya. hRdayamAM zabda pahoMce ane e jyotirmaya bane. AMkhomAM e zabda praveze ane alaukika-pAralaukika dazyo dekhAvAM lAge. sAdhanAnI saptapadI 35

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kaThopaniSadrano manTo yAda Ave : nAyamAtmA pravanena naJ: dhayA na vahunA kRtena aa na pravacana-zravaNa vaDe AtmA maLe, na buddhi vaDe, na ghaNAM zAstrAdhyayana vaDe... Atmopalabdhi mATe joIe mAtra anubhUti. prabhunA pyArA pyArA zabdothI jhaMkRta banela hRdaya ane pAvana banelI AMkho. AMkhomAM zabda pahoMcaze prabhunA mohaka svarUpanA - rUpanA libAsamAM. zabda DhaLaze rUpamAM. ane e rUpa dekhAI gayuM eTale...? pUruM vizva bane jhaLAMhaLAM. yAda Ave sUradAsajI : 'jina AMkhina meM navi rUpa vaso, una AMkhina se aba dekhiyo kyA ?" deza-kALanA sImADAne bhedIne jarmana kavi rilkanA kaMThethI paNa A ja vAta punaruccArita thaI : 'Put out my eyes, and I can see you still.' (ThArI de tuM dIpa nayananA; tava darzanane kAja, mane A kAca nathI kaMi khapanA...) 'parovavAnarayA...' sadguru upadeza Ape che tyAre teo zrotAnI upAdAnazuddhine mukhya gaNe che. e vyaktinuM upAdAna zuddha haze to tene mArI vAta svIkArya banaze. nimitta para - potAnI jAta para - bhAra na mUkavAnA kAraNe na to temane glAni thaze ke na ahaMkAra Avaze. upAdAna zuddha hatuM tenuM, to tene maLI gayuM. upAdAna zuddha nathI, to na maLyuM. sAme pakSe, zrotA saddaguru para - nimitta para bhAra mUkaze. sadgurue kRpA karIne potAno amUlya samaya mane Apyo. nizcaya-vyavahAranuM kevuM majhAnuM A sAmaMjasya ! zabda ane zabdabrahma. anubhUti vagarano zabda te zabda. anubhUtithI sabhara te zabdabrahma. anubhUti hoya che nirdandra. zabdo - korA zabdo dvone | vikalpone sarje che. jJAnasAra bhAvakane sarasa prazna pUche che : nirNandra anubhUti vinA tame nirdandra brahmane - AtmasvarUpane zI rIte jANI zako ? vAMcana, zravaNa ke anuprekSaNa dvando sarajaze. tamAre dvandAtIta anubhava bhaNI javuM ja paDe. 'parovavAnarayA..' siddhi ane viniyoganuM majhAnuM saMgIta. 6. pazyatu brahma nirdvandva, nirdvandvAnubhavaM vinA / the tripamI -vAMka thA manomI 1 jJAnasAra 36 8 mola tamArI hatheLImAM sAdhanAnI saptapadI # 37

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ane paMkhIo pAse che. mAchalI ane mAkhI jevI siddhiono zo matalaba ?' gurudayALa mallike eka sUphI phakIrane vinaMtI karI : mane siddhio meLavavAno mArga batAvo ! sUphI phakIre kahyuM : amArA sUphIomAM siddhio meLavavA mATe seMkaDo varasothI eka mULa maMtra para bhAra mUkavAmAM Avyo che : gosabaMdha, cazmabaMdha, lalabaMdha... arthAt kAna baMdha rAkho, AMkho baMdha rAkho ane hoTha baMdha rAkho. aMdarano sUkSma dhvani sAMbhaLavo hoya to kAna baMdha rAkhavA, aMdarano jhaLahaLATa jovo hoya to AMkho baMdha rAkhavI ane zabdomAM sAdhya ane siddhine veDaphavAM na hoya to hoTha baMdha rAkhavA. je sAdhakane svamAM sthira thavuM che tene anubhavonI spRhA nathI hotI. abhivyaktino moha nathI hoto... sAdhanAnuM pAMcamuM caraNa : kamaLa jevI asaMgadazA. 'paumAInidaMsaNA.' kamaLane paMkaja kahevAya che. kAdavamAM (paMkamAM) utpanna thAya che kamaLa. pANImAM e Uchare che. paNa kAdava ane pANI beuno saMga choDIne te asaMga dazAmAM vihare che. muni karmarUpI kAdavamAM Upaje che. matalaba ke karmanA anusAra manuSyayonimAM teo AvyA. ane bhogarUpI jaLamAM teo Uchare che. IndriyonA bhogo rUpI pANI... paraMtu muni A beuthI upara UThI jAya che. karmanA udaye kadAca kurUpatA Adi maLI hoya, to tene paNa oLaMgI jAya che teo. ane bhogothI paNa upara teo UThI jAya che. siddhi nirahaMkAra dazA vaDe zobhe che. rAbiyA ane hasana eka jagyAe bhegA thayA. hasane kahyuM : 'sAme ja taLAva che. cAlo, taLAvanI sapATI para caTAI pAtharI goThaDI karIe.' hasana pAse pANI para, jamIna para besAya tevI rIte besavAnI vidyA hatI. hakIkatamAM, parama bhoga, sva-bhoga emanI pAse ja che ne ! rAbiyAe kahyuM : 'e karatAM, cAlo ne, havAmAM UDatAM UDatAM vAto karIe." rAbiyA havAmAM UDI zakatA. hasana jhaMkhavANA paDI gayA. emane havAmAM UDatAM AvaDatuM nahotuM. asaMgadazA. parano asaMga barobara paramano saMga. paranA saMgathI zuM maLyuM ane zuM maLI zake ? atyAra sudhI rahyA paranA saMgamAM. bhagavAne eka majhAnI sAdhanA ApI. zarIra parano saMga kare; karI le; mana paramanA ja saMgamAM hoya. munirAja vAparatA hoya tyAre rAbiyAe hasatAM hasatAM kahyuM : 'mitra ! tamArI pAse je siddhi che, te dareka mAchalI pAse che. mArI pAse che, te mAkhI 38 % mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM sAdhanAnI saptapadI # 39

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temanA manamAM eka gAthAsUtra ramatuM hoya che : 'ane biLedi..' prabhue kevI nirdoSa bhikSAcaryA ApI che ! mokSanA sAdhanarUpa dehanuM poSaNa thAya ane virAdhanA thAya nahi... kAyA gocarI vAparatI hoya... mana hoya asaMgabhAvamAM kevI majhA ! eka munivRnda vihArayAtrAmAM hatuM. sAmethI bIjuM munivRnda AvI rahyuM che. khUba premathI vandanAdi thayAM. e pachI eka munivare pUchyuM : 'tame jyAMthI Avo cho, tyAM amAre javAnuM che. to tame kAle rahelA e upAzraya kevo hato ? garamInA A divasomAM havA Ave evo hato ke kema.' pelA munivare uttara ApatAM kahyuM : 'sAhebajI, ame to e upAzrayamAM gayA. vasati yAcI. kAjo lIdho. sUtra porisI, artha porisI, darzana, gocarI, pratilekhana, svAdhyAya karyA. sAhebajI ! te upAzrayamAM bArIo Adi kaI dizAmAM ke keTalI hatI, teno bilakula khyAla nathI. hA, svAdhyAya samI sAMja sudhI thaI zakyo'to, eTale prakAza Avato'to...' zarIranA saMgathI kevI A para dazA ! ane to ja sAdhanAno AnaMda mANI zakAya ne ! 40 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM pUjyapAda dAdAgurudeva saMghasthavira AcArya bhagavaMta siddhisUrIzvarajI mahArAjAnA ziSya hatA pUjyapAda meghasUrIzvarajI mahArAja. meghavijaya mahArAjanI dIkSA pachInuM prathama cAturmAsa ratalAmamAM. gurudeve temane pUrA divasano sAdhanAkrama goThavI Apelo... gurudatta sAdhanAkramAnusAra teozrI savAre Avazyaka kriyA karI sUtra porisI, artha porisI karatA. madhyAhne prabhudarzana. ekAsaNuM, pratilekhana. pharI sAMja sudhI svAdhyAya. temanA svAdhyAya mATenI jagyA paNa gurudeve nakkI karI ApelI. pU. meghavijaya mahArAja madhyAhUne derAsare jAya tyAre tyAM lagabhaga koI na hoya. sAMje pratikramaNa samaye upAzrayamAM aMdhAruM hoya... majhAnI ghaTanA e ghaTI ke kArtikI pUrNimAnA divase vihAra samaye bheTa bAMdhIne teo nIkaLyA tyAre loko ekabIjAne pUchavA lAgyA : A mahAtmA koNa ? cAturmAsamAM to emane kyAMya joyA nathI. kevI lokavimukhatA ! cAturmAsa karIne eka munivRttta zaMkhezvara mahAtIrthamAM AvyuM. nUtana munirAja eka hatA e vRndamAM. be-traNa varSanA dIkSA paryAyavALA... jemane gocarIe javAnuM nahotuM. derAsara bAjumAM ja hatuM. zaMkhezvara tIrthamAM cAturmAsavALA gAmanA eka bhAI AvelA. temaNe A nUtana munirAjane joyA. teo oLakhI gayA. pUchyuM : sAdhanAnI saptapadI 41

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'sAhebajI, zAtAmAM ?" munirAje nIcI najare, mukha para muhapattI rAkhI kahyuM : "devagurupasAya..." pachI bhAIe pUchyuM : 'sAhebajI, mane oLakhyo ?" munirAje kahyuM : 'khyAla nathI Avato.' 'are, sAhebajI, Apa cAturmAsa karIne AvyAne tyAM upAzrayanI sAme ja to mAruM ghara hatuM..." munirAjane kharekhara A khyAla na hato. kevI paranI asaMgavRtti ! tame jojo, nadInA pravAhane. jayAM pANI vahI rahyuM che tyAM te ekadama svaccha haze. paNa jyAM khUNo banyo, pANI sthira thayuM; tyAM lIla bAjhI jaze. vahetA pANI jevI nibaMdha vihArayAtrA munivaranI che. 'varati, vati...' nadInI AkharI maMjila samaMdara hoya che. muninI saMyamayAtrAmAM ya AkharI dhyeya paramacetanAmAM potAnI cetanAnuM nimajjana hoya che. 'jJAnajJALasaMsAyA...' para bhaNInI A asaMgavRtti ja svanI duniyA bhaNI sAdhakane mokalI zake. prabhu jANe ke sAdhakane kahI rahyA che ke, beTA ! tArI pAse zarIra che, moTuM pudgala che; eTale khorAka ane vastranAM pugalono tane khapa paDaze... beTA ! tuM pudgalono, parano upayoga karI zake che, paNa tuM paramAM upayoga rAkhI zakato nathI. kevI majhAnI prabhunI A zIkha ! sAdhanAnuM A chaThuM caraNa. dhyAna ane adhyayanathI yukta dazA. dhyAna eTale svanI anubhUti. ane adhyayana eTale svane pUrepUruM jANavuM te. kArya-kAraNabhAvanI majhAnI zRMkhalA ahIM ApI. svAdhyAya te kAraNa. dhyAna te kArya. kAraNa/sAdhana vAstavikarUpe kAraNa/sAdhana kyAre kahevAya ? jyAre e kAryasAdhyanI prApti karAvI Ape. sAdhananuM sAdhanatva sAdhyaprAptinA sandarbhamAM ja che. to, jema jema svAdhyAya karIe, svAnubhUti bhaNI javAnuM thAya ja. eka vAta, A saMdarbhe, huM ghaNIvAra kaheto houM chuM : anuprekSA anubhUtimAM pariName to ja te sArthaka, je anuprekSA anubhUtimAM na 'paDamAnadresanA...' kamaLa jevA asaMga munivaro. zaradaRtunA nirmala jaLa jevA asaMga munivaro. pANI nadInA be kinArAnI vacce vahyA ja kare che... vahyA karavuM e ja to enuM jIvanavrata che. 42 % mola tamArI hatheLImAM sAdhanAnI saptapadI 46 43

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pariName; tethI, bIjAne kadAca lAbha thaI zake; sAdhakane potAne to nahi ja. dhyAna maMjila che, adhyayana mArga che; ane eTale pahelAM dhyAna zabda mukAyo che. e zabda ema sUcave che ke lakSyAnusaMdhAna na hoya to yAtrA zarU thaI ja na zake. maMjilanI sApekSa ja mArga che ne ! kyAMya jene pahoMcavuM ja na hoya, mAtra TahelavuM ja hoya; ene mATe koI cokkasa mArga che ja nahi. prabhunI sAdhanAmAM nizcaya sAdhanArUpa maMjila sAthe vyavahAra sAdhanArUpa mArgane vaNI levAmAM Avela che. A mATenuM prasiddha sUtra yAda Ave : maharSi rAmakRSNa paramahaMsa kahetA ke duniyAno nakazo kAgaLa para chApela hoya. keTalA dariyA emAM che ? paNa koI e nakazAne muThThImAM dabAvI jora lagAve toya TIpuM pANI nahi paDe. kAgaLanA dariyAmAMthI jaLabiMdu kema karI Tapake ? ema korA zabdonA ke korA vicAronA dariyAmAMthI anubhUtinuM jaLa zI rIte Tapake ? sAdhakane te zabdo ane vicAro kAmanA che, jemAMthI anubhUti nIpaje. saMta kabIrajI kahe che : "zabda zabda bIca aMtarA, sAra zabda grahI leya; jo zabda sAhiba mile..' - eka che sAra zabda. eka che asAra, nirarthaka zabda, sArA zabdanI vyAkhyA zI ? majhAnI vyAkhyA AvI : 'jo zabda sAhiba mile...' je zabda paramAtmA sudhI, paramanA (svanA) anubhava sudhI laI jAya te ja sAra zabda. nizcayadeSTi hRdaye dharI jI, pALe je vyavahAra; puNyavaMta te pAmaze jI, bhava samudrano pAra. dhyAnanA lakSyAMka sAthe - nizcaya sAdhanA sAthe svAdhyAyanI vyavahAra sAdhanAne ahIM kevI sarasa rIte joDI devAmAM AvI ! dhyAna eTale svamAM hovuM. being. A svascaryanI vAtane sAdhanAnAM hArda tarIke samajAvatAM mahopAdhyAya zrIyazovijaya mahArAje zrIpALarAsamAM kahyuM : Agama noAgama taNo, bhAva te jANo sAco re, AtamabhAve thira hojo, parabhAve mata rAco re... sAdhanAnI saptapadI je 45 'jJASphayAsaM yA...' dhyAna ane adhyayanathI yukta A majhAnI dazA. 44 6 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM

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pistAlIsa Agama granthomAM apAyela jJAnano ane pUrI sAdhanApaddhati (noAgama)no sAra ATalo che : AtmabhAvamAM sthira thavuM. parabhAvamAM javuM nahi. 'visujJamALamAvA...' vizuddhacamAnabhAvadazA ... bhItarI bhAvo satata vizuddha thatA rahetA hoya evI dazA. sAdhanAnuM sAtamuM caraNa... prazamAnubhUtinA gaMgotrI binduthI nIkaLela sAdhanAnI gaMgAno pravAha sAgara-milananA AtyaMtika tabakke AvI gayo. prazamAnubhUtithI zarU thayela sAdhanA para-ramaNatAno tyAga (sAvadyayogavirati), jJAtAbhAva AdinI prApti (paMcavidha AcAranuM jJAna), parArtha ramaNatA (paropakAra otaprotatA), kamaLa jevI asaMgadazA (padma jevI asaMgatA), dhyAna ane adhyayananI prApti dvArA satata vizuddha thaye jatI bhAvonI dazAne pAme che. keTalo majhAno A pravAha ! gaMgotrI-bindu paNa majhAnuM, gaMgAnA eka eka paDAvo yAtrAsthaLa sama bane ane gaMgAsAgaramAM gaMgAnA milananI kSaNo to adbhutathI ya adbhuta ! 46 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM 'madhurAdhipatehiAM madhuram' hoya to madhurAdhipati prabhue ApelI sAdhanA madhurI, madhurI ja hoya ne ! sAdhanAnuM prAraMbhabiMdu majhAnuM. vacalA paDAvo ya majhAnA. aMtima bindu paNa eTaluM ja madhuruM. @ bhAvonI vizuddhinuM pRSThabaLa anubhUtinI pragADha thatI jatI dazA che. prazamAnubhUti jema jema abhyasta thatI jAya che, ghUMTAtI jAya che tema bhAvadazA nIkharatI jAya che. 'karemi bhaMte !' sUtra dvArA sadgurunA zabda-zaktipAtarUpe maLela prazama anubhUtimAM rUpAntarita thAya che. anubhUtinuM e jharaNuM vizALakAya nadInA pravAhanA rUpamAM pheravAya che. upAdAna zuddhine kAraNe AvelI bhAvonI nirmalatA ahIM che. prazamanI abhyastadazAne kAraNe AvelI pariNatinI prazAntavAhitA ahIM che. have to, bhAvonI A nadI khaLakhaLa karatI vahyA ja karaze. zubhanA gaMgotrI binduthI zuddhanA gaMgAsAgara bhaNI. ... sAdhanAnI saptapadI - 47

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AdhArasUtra hou me eehiM saMjogo / hou me esA supatthaNA / hou me ettha bahumANo / hou me io mokkhabIyaM / - paMcasUtra, prathama sUtra 3 prArthanAnuM UMDANa mane A badhAnI sAthe (arihaMta bhagavaMta, gurudeva ane kalyANa mitranI sAthe) saMyoga thAo. A arihaMta AdinA saMyoga viSayaka mArI A prArthanA suprArthanA thAo. mane ahIM - arihaMtAdinI saMyoga viSayaka prArthanAmAM - bahumAna thAo. kavivara zrI ravIndranAtha TAgoranI eka prArthanA yAda Ave : A prArthanAthI mane mokSabIjanI prApti thAo. aMtara garva thakI phUlI UThe, - jyAre tuM gAna gAvAnuM kahe mane, banne AMkho muja thatI chalochala, nimiSa bhUlI nIrakhI rahuM tane... kaThora, kaTu che je muja prANe, pIgaLI jAya amRtamaya gAne, 48 ; mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM prArthanAnuM UMDANa 4 49

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saghaLAM sAdhana ArAdhana mArAM, paMkhI sama UDavA jhaMkhe... e pravAhamAM mArI sAdhanA paNa vaheze. "saghaLAM sAdhana ArAdhana mArAM, paMkhI sama UDavA jhaMkhe..." A tAro ja prabhAva che, prabhu ! pipIlikA gati sAdhanAnI je hatI, te vihaMgama gatimAM pheravAI che. sAdhanAnI be gati che : pipIlikA gati ane vihaMgama gati. pipIlikA eTale kIDI... sAdhanA manthara gatie, dhIme dhIme cAlatI hoya tyAre ene pipIlikA gati kahevAya che. ane jyAre sAdhanA eka paDAvethI bIjA paDAve kUde che, tyAre ene vihaMgama gati kahevAmAM Ave che. 'saghaLAM sAdhana ArAdhana mArAM, paMkhI sama UDavA jhaMkhe...' prabhu ! mAre mArI sAdhanAmAM vega lAvavo che. joIe che tArI kRpA. tRpta thato tuM muja gItarAge, gIta tane vahAlAM muja lAge... jANuM chuM A gAnanA ja baLe, besI zakuM chuM tava sanmukhe... manathI jayAM huM pahoMcI na zakato, caraNo te gIta thakI sparzI zakato, svaranI dhUnamAM bhUlIne nijane, 'baMdhu' kahI saMbodhuM prabhujIne... | (anuvAda : prasAda brahmabhaTTa) prArthanA prabhu karAve che... (hou me esA supatthaNA.) bhaktanI kevI majhAnI A bhakti ! bhaktimAM hovAnI A kSaNo... 'banne AMkho muja thatI chalochala...' AMkhanAM e AMsu ja kaMIka kahI zake... zabdomAM e kaI rIte vyakta thaI zake ? ane e AMsunI dhAramAM, e gAnanA vahevAmAM kaMIka vahI jAya che. 'kaThora, kaTu che je muja prANe, pIgaLI jAya amRtamaya gAne...' viga. utsAha, sAdhanA karuM ane bhItarathI jhaMkAra pragaTe. eka eka kriyA samaye A sAdhanAtripadI ApaNI pAse hovI joIe. kriyA karatAM pahelAM utsAha, thanaganATa... 'prabhue kahelI amRta kriyA karavA maLaze. prabhunA pyArA zabdo sAMbhaLavA maLaze..." kriyA samaye tanmayatA. mana pUrepUruM emAM bhaLela hoya. 50 % mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM prArthanAnuM UMDANa kI 51

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ane to, kriyA pachI raheze kepha... vAha ! kevo AnaMda AvI gayo !? prArthanA...bhaktanI prArthanA che; 'hoya che parda saMgoLo...prabhu! mane tArI joDe ane sadguruo tathA kalyANa mitro joDe saMyoga thAo ! 'tRpta thato tuM muja gItarAge, gIta tane vahAlAM muja lAge...' prabhu ! A mArI kalpanA che ke vAstava ? zuM kharekhara tane mArAM gIto game che ? nAradaRSi jyAre kahe che ke tane bhInA, bhInA zabdo game che tyAre AzvAsana maLe che. bhaktonI vANIne emaNe bhInI, bhInI kahI che. pyAruM sUtra 'bhaktisUtra'mAM AvyuM : MvarodharomAnthAzrama: parasparaM lapamAnA: pAvayanti kulAni pRthivIM ca / gaLethI vahetAM DUsakAM, nayanothI vahetAM nIra ane zarIranA romAMca vaDe bhakto prArthanA kare che. saguyoga. saddaguru samarpaNa. Arya suhastisUrijI mahArAjanA be ziSyo bhikSAe nIkaLelA. eka gharethI vahorIne teo bahAra nIkaLyA ane eka bhikSuke kahyuM : mahArAja sAheba ! mane thoDuMka khAvAnuM Apo. huM bhUkhyo chuM. munivaroe kahyuM : bhAI ! ame to bhikSA bhegI karanAra chIe. A bhikSA para adhikAra amArA gurudevano che. bhikSuka upAzraya Avyo. gurudevane vinaMtI karI : mane khAvAnuM Apo ? gurudeve jJAnathI joyuM : oha ! A to bhaviSyano, AvatA janmano samrATa saMprati ! A prArthanA bhaktane parama samIpe pahoMcADe che. prArthanA prabhunAM caraNomAM bhaktane besADe che. 'manathI jyAM huM pahoMcI na zakato, caraNo te gIta thakI sparzI zakato..." gurudeve kahyuM : bhojana tane maLaze. paNa vidhi karavI paDaze. bhikSuke kahyuM : vidhi je karavI hoya te karo. mane jamavAnuM Apo. gurudeve dIkSA ApI. vAparavA besADyA bhikSuka munirAjane. aneka ziSyo hatA gurudevane. eka paNa ziSyane e savAla nathI thayo ke A rIte bhikSukane dIkSA kema ApI zakAya ? sadgurune je ThIka lAge te karI zake, Guru is the supreme boss. pa2 = mola tamArI hatheLImAM prArthanAnuM UMDANa 4 53

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pUrI sAdhanA paddhati para gurudevano ja to ekAdhikAra che ne ! gurudeva che, to sAdhanA che... prabhue kahelI sAdhanA sadgurudeva dvArA ApaNane maLe. tatkAlIna zrAvakavarganuM samarpaNa paNa kevuM ajoDa hatuM ! eka zrAvakane manamAM vicAra nathI Avato ke gurudevathI AvuM kArya kema karI zakAya ? UlaTuM, sAMje te zrAvako pratikramaNa mATe AvyA ane temane khyAla Avyo ke navA munirAjane peTamAM dukhe che; to tarata teo temanI sevA mATe AvI gayA. temanA paga dabAvatAM te zreSThIo kahe che : sAheba, Apa to baDabhAgI cho ke sadgurudevanI amIdiSTa ApanA para paDI ane Apane prabhuno sAdhanAmArga maLI gayo. prabhuno pyAro veSa maLI gayo. A kSaNomAM nUtana munivarane prabhunA veSa 52 ane e veSanA dAtA sadgurudeva para bahumAnabhAva chalakAyo. e ja rAtre temano kALadharma thAya. bIjA janmamAM teo saMprati nAmanA rAjakumAra thAya. nAnI vayamAM temane sAmrAjya maLe. rathayAtrAmAM cAlatA gurudevane samrATa saMprati jue ane temane jAtismaraNa jJAna thayuM. gurudevanAM caraNomAM DhaLyA teo. vicAra Ave ke gurudevano keTalA kalAkano temane paricaya ? sAMje gurudeva pratye bahumAnabhAva chalakAyo. rAtre ciravidAya. cArapAMca kalAkano e paricaya. paNa eNe munirAjanA astitva para 54 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM gurudevanI kevI to chabI aMkita karI, ke janma badalAya che; e chabI evI ne evI rahe che. A che gurubahumAna. sAdhaka A layamAM prArthanA kare che : "hoDa me di saMgoLo...' sadguru Adi sAthe mAro saMyoga ho ! bahumAnabhAvathI otaprota saMyoga. mAtra bahArI saMyoga nahi. Antarika saMyoga. A sadgurusaMyoga mATe ja prArthanAsUtra 'jayavIyarAya'mAM 'suhagurujogo' - sadguruyoganI prArthanA karAI che. huM ghaNIvAra kaheto houM chuM ke bhaktanI A prArthanA manovaijJAnika AyAmavALI che. bhakta ema nathI kaheto ke prabhu ! tuM mane sadguru Apa ! e kahe che : prabhu ! mane sadguruyoga maLavo joIe. khyAla che ke atItanI yAtrAmAM zreSTha guruo maLyA hatA. kadAca mahAna haribhadrAcAryajI ke pUjya hIravijayasUridAdA jevA sadguruno bheTo thayo haze. paNa sadguruyoga kyAM hato ? sadgurunAM caraNomAM saMpUrNa samarpaNa kyAM hatuM ? kadAca, potAnuM vyaktitva kendramAM hatuM ane sadgurucetanAne parighamAM rAkhela hatA. ane gaNitano niyama che ke parigha kendrane anusAre niyukta thayeluM hoya. to, je sadgurune kendramAM mUkavAnA prArthanAnuM UMDANa 55

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janmomAM pahoMcelA saddaguruo maLavA chatAM potAno emanI sAthe saMbaMdha-yoga na thayo. hatA, temane parighamAM mukAyA. parighamAM jeNe rahevAnuM hatuM te ApaNuM huM kendramAM rahyuM. sadguru hatA; parighamAM hatA; sadguruyoga kyAM hato ? koI bhakta kahe ke amuka guru to mArA guru che, bahu saraLa che; ApaNe kahIzuM tema teo karI deze... have e vidhAnamAM bhAra kyAM mukAyo che? guru zabda para ke mArA zabda para ? yAda Ave barTAnDa rasela. gAMdhIjI rAunDaTebala konpharansa mATe laMDana gayelA. eka gAMdhIbhakta barTrAnDa raselane pUchyuM : Ape gAMdhIjIne nikaTathI joyA che. Apane lAgyuM haze ke teo zreSTha koTinA saMta che. mArA guru. bhAra jayAre mArA zabda para haze tyAre guru bahArI jagatamAM kevA prakhyAta ke pratibhAzALI che, te jovAze. mAruM ghara lakajhariyasa hoya, mArI kAra lAMbI ane damAmadAra hoya to mArA guru kevA hoya ? paNa jo "guru" para bhAra mukAze to...? to, bhavodadhitAraka sadagurunuM nAma tamane bhIMjavI jaze. baDabhAgI chuM ke AvA saddaguru mane maLyA che. pApanA mArge, virAdhanAnA mArge huM eka DagaluM bharuM e emanAthI sahana na thAya. emanI karuNA mane e mArgethI pAcho pherave. rasela labdhapratiSTha sAhityakAra hatA. vinodI paNa hatA. emaNe kahyuM : gAMdhIjIne mahAtmAomAM bIjo kramAMka jarUra ApI zakAya. gAMdhIbhaktone thayuM ke rasela khristI che. to Isukhristane pahelA naMbare mUke ane gAMdhIjIne be naMbara para mUke to vAta to sArI ja kahevAya. paraMtu jijJAsA evI vastu che ke emanAthI pUchaDyA vinA na rahevAyuM : to pahele naMbare koNa ? rasele kahyuM : pahelo naMbara huM mArA mATe ja rAkhuM chuM. bIjAthI ja huM zarUAta karuM chuM ! ApaNA mATe paNa AvuM ja che ne ! ApaNe ApaNI jAtane pahelA kramAMka para mUkIzuM. bIjA kramAMkathI bIjAo mATe vicArazuM. saddaguDhyoga. kendramAM saddaguru. parighamAM bhakta. sAdhakanI A prArthanA che : 'hoya haM saMgo...' khyAla che ke prArthanA vinA, prabhuzakti vinA potAnA 'huM'ne A rIte tirohita karavo e zakya nathI. mATe ja to agaNita pote naMbara eka para. guru kayA naMbara para...? para ja mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM prArthanAnuM UMDANa 4 57

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'hoya che paraM saMgo...' mane sadguru sAthe saMyoga thAo ! sadguru pratyenuM bahumAna. je 'tanvayanasevA' - sadguruvacana pAlanA - mAM pheravAze. sadguruvacanano svIkAra bhaktinI majhAnI cAdara para thaze. e bhaktimAM sadgurunI apAra zaktinI anubhUti haze. sadguruvare kahyuM. have emanI zakti ja A kArya karAvaze ema anubhavAze ane tethI tatkAlIna potAnI zakti mATe azakya jevuM kArya haze to paNa ziSya karaze. 'mAre kyAM kaMI karavAnuM che ? "e" karAvaze...' AvI anubhUti ziSyanI hoya che. mArA gurudeva pUjayapAda GaOMkArasUri mahArAjAnI dIkSAne traNeka varSa thayelA. ane dAdAgurudeva pUjayapAda bhadrasUridAdAe kahyuM : kAravijaya ! Aje tAre pravacana ApavAnuM che. gurudeve dAdAgurudevanI AjJA svIkArI. pravacana ApyuM. pAchaLathI A ghaTanAnuM varNana karatAM gurudeva kahetA : mAre kyAM kaMI bolavAnuM hatuM ? gurudeva mAre kaMThethI bolavAnA hatA ne ! ziSyanuM sAkSI tarIke pragaTavuM; sadgurunA sAdhanAmArganA pUrepUrA kartutvanI anubhUti sAthe; e ja to sadguyoga che ne ! takalIpha tyAre zarU thAya che jyAre sAkSI kartA banI jAya che ane kartAne sAkSI tarIke kalpavAmAM Ave che. ane AvuM thAya che tyAre ziSyanI dekhItI ucca kakSAnI sAdhanA paNa pariNAmalakSI banI zakatI nathI. araNika muni vezyAne tyAMthI AvyA. saddagurue temanA mastaka para hAtha pheravI zaktipAta karyo ane sAdhanAjagatanA zikhara para muni ArUDha thayo. savAla e thAya ke araNika muni e hatA. gurudeva e hatA. zaktipAta pahelAM kema na thayo ? javAba e maLe che ke gurudeva taiyAra hatA zaktipAta karavA. araNika muni tene jhIlavA taiyAra nahotA. zuM hoya zaktipAta jhIlavA mATenI sajajatA ? e che ahobhAvanI tIvratA. prAraMbhika sAdhanAjIvanamAM araNika muni mAnatA hatA ke sAdhanA mAre karavAnI che. gurudeva to mAtra sAkSI che. sAdhanA-tapazcaryA AdinI IcchA huM karuM, gurudevanI anumati laI te sAdhanAne huM AtmasAt karuM. kevI moTI bhUla thaI ! je karyA che sAdhanA jagatamAM, sadguru; temane sAkSI mAnI levAmAM AvyA. je sAkSI hato, sAdhaka; te kartA banI beTho ! vezyAne tyAMthI pAchA pharyA pachI araNika munine samajAyuM ke gurucaraNo vinA eka kSaNa paNa rahI zakAya nahi. gurudeva pratye atyaMta bahumAnabhAva pragaTa thayo. gurudeva karAve to ja sAdhanA thaI zake, emanI kRpAthI ja sAdhanAmArge eka iMca ke eka senTimiTara AgaLa dhapI zakAya. emanI kRpA vinA eka DagaluM paNa sAdhanAmArge bharI na 58 % moSa tamArI hatheLImAM prArthanAnuM UMDANa ja pa9

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zakAya... A vicAradhArAe sadguru pratyeno bahumAnabhAva vadhAryo. zaktipAtane jhIlavAnI sajjatA AvI. sadgurue zaktipAta karI dIdho. 'doDa me padi saMboo...' sarasa majhAnI prArthanAH mane paramAtmasaMyoga maLo ! sadguru saMyoga maLo ! kalyANamitrasaMyoga maLo ! paramAtmAnI anarAdhAra kRpAdhArA sAthe saMbaddha thavuM te 5ramAtmasaMyoga. paramAtmAnI kRpAdhArA agaNita samayathI varasyA ja kare che ane chatAM ApaNuM astitva che koruMkaTa. 'logassa' sUtra para svAdhyAya karatAM ghaNIvAra eka prazna huM pUchato houM chuM : 'tistyayarA me pakSIyaMtu...' (tIrthaMkara bhagavaMtono prasAda mArA para varaso !) e zreSTha prArthanA che. paNa kharekhara AvI prArthanA kaI rIte karI zakAya ? savAranA nava vAgela hoya tyAre koI evI prArthanA na kare ke sUraja Ugo ! bhaIlA, sUraja to kyArano UgI gayo che ! tema prabhuno prasAda satata varasyA ja kare che, varasyA ja kare che; to 'varaso !' evI prArthanA kema ? prArthanAnuM hArda evuM che ke bhaktane potAne prabhunI kRpAno sparza thato nathI, mATe e kahe che ke prabhu ! tArI kRpAno sparza thAya evuM kaMIka karI Apa. prArthanAnA uttaramAM prabhuzakti gurucetanAne ApaNI pAse mokalI Apaze ane e gurucetanA ApaNA ajJAnanA paDane e rIte dUra karaze ke ApaNane prabhunI kRpAno sparza thAya. 60 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM mahopAdhyAya zrIyazovijaya mahArAjanI kephiyata yAda Ave (zrIpALarAsamAM AvelI) : mAhare to gurucaraNa pasAye, anubhava dilamAMhi peTho re; Rddhi vRddhi pragaTI ghaTamAMhi, Atamati huI beTho re... e anubhava te ja kRpAno sparza. A vAtane emaNe A rIte mUkI tUTho tUTho re muja sAhiba jagano tUTho; e zrIpALano rAsa karatAM, jJAna amRta rasa vUTho re. anubhava (jJAna) : guNono, anubhava : svarUpano. * sadgurunuM eka vacana astitvanA stare pahoMcI jAya to buddhi ane ahaMkAranI dhULa kharI jAya. pachI anubhUti kyAM dUra che ? lIci sadguru pAse pahelI vAra Avyo. guru to pheIsa rIDiMganA mAsTara. cahero joIne nakkI karyuM ke janmAntarIya vairAgyanI dhArAmAM jhUmI AvatuM A vyaktitva che. vairAgyano aMgAro bhItara dhadhakI rahyo che. mAtra janma badalAvAne kAraNe thoDIka vismRtinI rAkha e aMgArA para AvI gaI che. e rAkhane uDADavA mATe gurue phUMka mAravI zarU karI. pUche che guru : dIkSA kyAre levI che ? prArthanAnuM UMDANa 61

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lIci kahe che : dIkSAno vicAra to che ja. paNa kyAM levI, konI pAse levI, kyAre levI e avaDhavamAM chuM. ane gurue vegIlI phUMka lagAvI : vAha ! tuM kharo mANasa che. je buddhie tane agaNita janmomAM durgatimAM rakhaDAvyo; e buddhine tuM pUche che ke kyAM levI, kyAre levI dIkSA... vAha ! basa, rAkha UDI gaI. vairAgyano aMgAro dhadhakavA lAgyo. eNe kahyuM : gurudeva ! Apane yogya lAge tyAre dIkSA Apo... mArA taraphathI huM taiyAra chuM. gurue lIcine dIkSita karyo. paramAtmasaMyoga, sadgurusaMyoga ane kalyANamitrasaMyoga mane thAo evI prArthanA suprArthanA ho ! sarasa rIte vAtane AgaLa vistAravAmAM AvI : satsaMyoganI A prArthanA zAbdika na rahevI joIe. mAruM pUruM astitva emAM bhaLeluM hoya. ane tyAre prArthanA suprArthanA bane. prArthanAmAM UMDANa Ave che AMsuthI ane tanmayatAthI, tanmayatA. doDe che pArdi saMgom... prabhu sAthe, sadguru sAthe ane kalyANamitra sAthe mane saMyoga ho ! kalyANamitra... 'te'maya - prabhumaya banI UThavuM. 'huM'mayatAmAMthI 'te'mayatA tarapha javuM.. eka ghaTanA yAda Ave che. vilAyata khAnanuM saMgItanA kSetre aNamola pradAna che. emanA jIvananI eka ghaTanA... nAnapaNamAM saMgItajJA mA dIkarAne rIyAjha karavA uThADe. garIbI gharamAM bharaDo laI gayelI. ziyALAnI rAtamAM na pUratuM oDhavAnuM maLyuM hoya. savAre UThyA pachI na tApaNe tApavAnuM maLe. na sveTara jevuM kaMI paheravA maLe. ThaMDImAM zarIra dhrUjatuM hoya ane mA ene rIyAjha karAvarAve : "sA...re.........." vilAyata khAna kahetA : mA ! ThaMDIthI zarIra dhrUje che. atyAre zI rIte rIyAjha karuM ? nathI tApaNuM, nathI kaMI oDhavAnuM. AvI hAlatamAM kaI rIte rIyAjha thAya ? je satata kalyANamArge ja javAnI preraNA ApyA kare. saubhAgyathI AvA kalyANamitrono saMyoga thAya che... kalyANamitra sAthe sadA mAro saMyoga ho. hou me esA supatthaNA / 62 % moSa tamArI hatheLImAM prArthanAnuM UMDANa ja 63

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mA kahetI : beTA ! tuM saMgItamAM DUbI jA. emAM khovAI jA. tanmaya banI jA. pachI ThaMDI kevI ? ThaMDI che ja nahi. ane beTA ! tuM tanmaya nahi bane, to sUro para | saMgIta para tAro kAbU kaI rIte Avaze ? tAre saMgItanI duniyAmAM tArA nAmane pratiSThita karavAnuM che. mAnI zIkha vilAyata khAne svIkArI. teo tanmaya banI jatA. ThaMDInuM bhAna ja na rahetuM. ane vilAyata khAna diggaja saMgItajJa chuM ke tame svica oNna karo ane paMkho pharapharI UThe ke svica oNna karo ne battI jhagI UThe emAM paNa prati prati prati sekanDa lAgatI hoya che. prArthanA tatsaNa - on that very moment - phaLadAyinI thAya che. 'hoya che so movIye...' banyA. A prArthanA dvArA mane mokSabIja maLo. pravAhathI kuzaLa anubaMdhavALuM karma e mokSabIja . prArthanAmAM AvelI tanmayatA prArthanAne vAstava ghaTanAmAM badalI Ape che. evI anukULatAo sAdhanAyAtrAmAM AgaLa ne AgaLa maLatI jAya ke sAdhanA puSTa thatI jAya ane mokSa najIka dekhAya. sAdhanA janmAntarIya dhArAmAM AgaLa cAle. huM sAdhanAne janmonA khaMDa para taratI sAdhanA kahuM chuM. eka ghaTanA yAda Ave. ATha varSano eka dIkaro. hou me ettha bahumANo / mane A prArthanAmAM bahumAna pragaTo ! prArthanAne suprArthanAmAM pheravavA mATe jarUrI che bahumAna. prArthanA huM karuM eTalI ja vAra; enuM phaLa mane tarata maLavAnuM ja che... vaLI prArthanAnI kSaNomAM je hRdayanI bhInAza hoya che, ethI keTalAM karmo khapI jAya ! A bhAvadhArA prArthanAmAM bahumAnabhAva pragaTAve che. bahumAna : prArthanAnI agAdhazakti paranI pUrNa zraddhA. prArthanA keTalI to jhaDapathI sakriya bane che enI vAta karatAM huM kaheto houM sadguru pAse Avyo. kahe : mane dIkSA Apo ! saddagurue enA caherAne joyo. joyuM ke janmAntarIya vairAgyanI dhArAmAM jhUmI AveluM vyaktitva che. paraMtu AjubAju thoDIka vyaktio beThelI. gurudeve temane lAbha thAya e mATe bALakane pUchyuM : beTA ! tane vairAgya kema thayo Avo ? 64 % mola tamArI hatheLImAM prArthanAnuM UMDANa ja 5

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bALake kahyuM : gurudeva ! gaI kAlanI ja ghaTanA che. mA rasoI karatI hatI. huM enI joDe besela. cUlA para mArI najara gaI. meM joyuM ke moTAM lAkaDAM dhIre dhIre rAkhamAM pheravAyAM. nAnAM lAkaDAM jhaDapathI rAkhamAM pheravAI gayAM. gurudeva ! huM paNa nAnakaDuM lAkaDuM chuM. mahAkAlanI bhaThThImAM kyAre huM khatama thaI jaIza e khabara nahi paDe. gurudeva ! mane mahAkAlanI bhaThThImAMthI bahAra kADho ! mane dIkSita karo ! gurudeve tene dIkSA ApI. prArthanAnuM kevuM to majhAnuM UMDANa A sAdhanAsUtramAM AvyuM ! paramAtmA, sadguru ane kalyANamitra joDenA saMyoganI prArthanA karI. e prArthanAmAM antastara potAnuM bhaLe e rIte prArthanAne vistAravAmAM AvI. prArthanAno e vistAra bahumAnabhAva vaDe UMDANavALo thAya mATe prArthanAmAM bahumAnabhAvanI prArthanA thaI. ane e prArthanA vaDe sAdhanAyAtrA nirantara cAle evI prArthanA thaI. ... 66 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM ma AdhArasUtra hou me esA aNumoyaNA sammaM vihipuvvigA, sammaM suddhAsayA, sammaM paDivattirUvA sammaM niraiyArA, paramaguNajuttaarahaMtAdisAmatthao | acitasattijuttA hi te paramakallANaheu sattANaM / bhagavaMto vIyarAgA savvaNNU paramakallANA - paMcasUtra, prathama sUtra mArI A anumodanA paramaguNayukta arihaMta prabhu AdinA sAmarthyathI, samyak vidhipUrvaka thAo, samyak zuddha AzayavALI thAo, samyak pratipattirUpa thAo ane samyak niraticAra thAo... acittvazaktiyukta te arihaMta Adi bhagavaMto vItarAga, sarvajJa, paramakalyANavALA ane jIvonA parama kalyANanA hetu che.

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paramAtmAe sadgurucetanAne je kArya soMpyuM che, e kArya sadgurucetanAe karavAnuM che. A layamAM huM kaheto houM chuM ke paramacetanA paramasakriya. gurucetanA parama niSkriya. kAraNa ke gurucetanAe potAnI IcchAthI kaMI karavuM nathI. prabhunI AjJA pramANe badhuM karavuM che. sadguru dAdU aDhI miniTathI dvAre UbhA che. raidAsanI palako UcakAI nathI. ane karuNAmaya guru khoMkhAro khAya che. khoMkhArAno avAja. raidAse palakone UMce uThAvI. joyuM : sadguru dvAre AvIne UbhA che. pachI to, soya-doro eka bAju ane juttAM bIjI bAju. raidAsa sASTAMga daMDavat thaI gurunAM caraNomAM paDyA. gurune Asana para birAjamAna karyA. e samaye, raidAsanI AMkhomAMthI zrAvaNabhAdaravo varasyAM kare che. DUsakAMmAMthI caLAI AvatA emanA zabdo hatA : gurudeva ! huM kevo pramAdI ! tame mAre dvAre AvyA ne mane khyAla suddhAM na rahyo. Aje gurune jalaso paDI gayo. evuM nahotuM ke guru pahelAM raidAsane AMgaNe nahotA AvyA... evuM paNa nahotuM ke raidAsa gurunA Azrame na gayA hoya... Aje raidAse gurune bhInI kSaNo ApI. 4 bhInAzano dariyo saMta dAdU bhakta raidAsane AMgaNe AvyA. paidAsa potAnA kAmamAM DUbelA che : juttAM sAMdhavAnA. khyAla nathI e bhaktane ke saMguru potAne dvAre AvIne UbhA che. eka miniTa, be miniTa, aDhI miniTa... guru UbhA ja che. raidAsa potAnA kAryamAM magna, ane chatAM, guru jatA nathI pAchA. mArA layamAM kahuM to, guru pAchA jaI zakatA nathI. bhInAza... mATIno loMdo bhIno bhIno hoya ane kuzaLa kalAkAranA hAthamAM e Ave to majhAnA zilpamAM ja e pheravAI jAya ne ! raidAsanI bhInI kSaNo, 68 % mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM bhInAzano dariyo ja 29

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guruno nipuNa hAtha, kuzaLa zilpa taiyAra. anumodanA zabda be zabdonA joDANathI banelo che : anu ane modanA. anu eTale pachI. modanA eTale harSa. koInA majhAnA kRtyane joyA pachI hRdayamAM harSanA bhAvonI bharatI UbharAya te anumodanA. kevI rIte sadguru kAma kare che ApaNA para, enI jhalaka ahIM maLe che. gurue kahyuM : beTA ! huM to aDhI miniTathI tAre dvAre Avyo chuM. tane pazcAttApa thAya che ke gurudeva kyAranA mAre AMgaNe AvyA, ne mane khyAla suddhAM na rahyo. huM tane pUchuM chuM ke beTA ! prabhu tAre tAre kyAranA AvI UbhA che ane tArI pratIkSA karI rahyA che; tane khabara che ? have coMkavAno vAro raidAsano hato. 'prabhu mArI pratIkSA karI rahyA che !' e ja kSaNe e gurunI pAchaLa pAchaLa, prabhune bheTavA mATe cAlI nIkaLyA. anumodanA che asIma dharma. dharmane karavAnI eka sImA hoya che, dharma karAvavAnI zaktinI paNa eka sImA hoya che, anumodanA sImAone pele pAranI ghaTanA che. eka sAdhaka eka divasamAM tapa keTalo karI zake ? cauvihAra upavAsa. svAdhyAya eka divasamAM e keTalo karI zake ? nava kalAka, daza kalAke. eka jJAnIsAdhaka eka divasamAM pAMca-sAta kalAka pacAseka vidyArthIone bhaNAvI zake. A ja rIte cAritra pALavAnI ke paLAvavAnI vAta lo to, eka divasamAM eka sAdhaka keTalI sAdhanA karI/karAvI zake ? dharma karavAnI ane karAvavAnI vAtamAM eka sImA AvI gai. AnI sAme anumodanAne juo to...? eka sAdhaka mahAvidehakSetramAM rahela so kroDa sAdhu bhagavaMto ane teTalAM ja sAdhvIjI bhagavatIonI saMyama-sAdhanAnI anumodanA karI zake. kevo virATa, asIma che A anumodanA dharma ! bhInAza, je prabhunuM milana karAvI Ape. bhInAza, je karmone kheravI nAkhe. bhInuM hRdaya, bhInI AMkho... 70 % mola tamArI hatheLImAM bhInAzano dariyo 6 71

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anumodanA dharma. e asIma paNa che. agharo paNa. agharo e saMdarbhamAM che ke ahIM ahaMkArane toDavAnI vAta che. potAnA nAnAmAM nAnA guNane moTo karIne jovAyo che. paNa bIjAnA moTAmAM moTA guNane najaraaMdAja ja karyo che. 'meM sAdhanA karI...' AmAM sAdhanA to bahu nAnA phalaka para hoya che. 'huM'no ja vyApa moTo raheto hoya che. ApaNe tyAM eka kahevata che : 'kamADa karatAM ulALo bhAre...' sAdhanAjagatamAM evuM ja thayuM ne ! sAdhanA hatI bahu nAnI. paNa 'huM' moTuM hatuM ne ! ane e 'huM'nI mAyAjALamAM bIjAnA guNo dekhAyA ja nahIM. to, anumodanA agharI jarUra che, paNa prabhunI kRpAthI e thaze ja. 'paramamuLaguttaJarahaMtAvisAmastyo...' ApaNI tAkAta nathI ke anumodanAnA pravAhamAM ApaNe vahI zakIe. paraMtu prabhunI kRpA hoya to....! to agharuM zuM che ? kaMI ja nahIM. 'e' karAve to ja kaMIka thAya; 'huM' karavA jAuM to kaMI na thaI zake. .. anumodanA : guNadRSTi. prabhunI kRpAthI A daSTi UghaDe. bIjAnA guNo dekhAyA kare. ane dareka vyaktimAM guNavaibhava to hoya ja che ne ! mAtra ene jovAnI dRSTi joIe. prabhu e cakSu Ape ne ! 'cakSudayANuM.' 72 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM gulAbane tame jozo tyAre kAMTA ya joDe dekhAze. beunuM sahacarya hoya che ne ! paNa tame e dRzyane kai rIte jozo ? gulAbamAM kAMTA bhoMkAi rahyA che evuM jozo to tamane glAni thaze. paNa kAMTAmAM gulAba kevuM majhAnuM khIlyuM che evuM jozo to...? to prasannatA thaze. bIjA sAdhakamAM rahela guNo kaI rIte joI zakAya enI majhAnI ghaTanA yAda Ave che. muMbaImAM eka sAdhake soLabhattuM karela. paryuSaNanA pAraNAnA divase tenuM pAraNuM hatuM. AmaMtraNa patrikA saMbaMdhIone pahoMcI. eka saMbaMdhI uttara gujarAtanA eka zaheramAM hatA. patrikA maLI, paNa tyAM mahAtmA cAturmAsArthe birAjamAna. ane paryuSaNa pachIya rathayAtrA, tapasvI bahumAna Adi kAryakramo hatA. e bhAie vicAryuM ke aThavADiyA pachI muMbaI javAnuM che tyAre tapasvInI zAtA pUchato AvIza. muMbaI javAnuM thayuM. tapasvIne tyAM pahoMcatAM rAtanA daza vAgI gayA. pelA bhAi to pAraNA pachI oNphise jatA thai gayelA. ne rAtre poNA daze AvI DAiniMga Tebala para besI bhAkharI-zAka khAi rahyA hatA. ane pelA bhAi zAtA pUchavA AvyA. emane A dRzya jotAM kevI bhAvAnubhUti thai e pachI kahuM; sAmAnyatayA kayo vicAra Ave ? kadAca e vicAra Ave ke lo, A soLabhattuM karyuM ke lajavyuM ? savAre nAsto karyo haze. bapore TiphinanA roTalI-zAka khAdhA haze. bhInAzano dariyo 73

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pachI cA pIdhI haze. phuTsa ke jyusa lIdhela haze. ane toya rAtre bhUkhyo DAMsa thai gayo ke rAtre daza vAgye khAvA besI gayo ? bhAi, teM soLabhaLuM karIne zuM karyuM ? A gulAbamAM kAMTA jovAnI vAta thaI. pelA uttara gujarAtavAsI zrAvake kAMTAmAM gulAba jovAnuM kArya karyuM. e to A dezya joi AnaMdavibhora banI gayA. lITaralI (zabdazaH), teo pelAnA page paDyA. bhAvavibhora banIne temaNe kaheluM : "vAha ! dhanya che prabhuzAsanane. dhanya che gurudevanA paccakhANane. ane dhanya che e paccakhANanI zakti jhIlanAra tamane. tame soLabhanuM kareluM ! vAha ! kevuM adbhuta. savAre tame nAsto karIne gharethI oNphise gayA hazo. bapore TiphinanA roTalI-zAka tame jamyA hazo. pachI cA ane phuTa lIdhA haze. chatAM tamAre atyAre jamavuM paDe che. tamArAmAM kevI zaktino saMcAra thayo ke tame soLa soLa divasanA upavAsa karyA ! dhanya che tamane. upavAsanI TevavALo mArA jevo mANasa aThThama, aThThAi ke soLabhajuM karI le, prabhunI kRpAthI... paNa tame...! adbhuta, adbhu ta." bolo, AvI rIte kAMTAmAM gulAba joi zakAya ne ? sAdhanAmArgamAM eka DagaluM paNa "e'nI kRpA vinA zakya nathI. kalikAlasarvajJa hemacandrAcAryajI mahArAja kahe che : 'bavatrasAvenaivAmiyata prapito muvam..' stavanAmAM A ja vAta mahopAdhyAya zrIyazovijaya mahArAje Avartita karI : ItanI bhUmi prabhu! tuma hi ANyo... A ja layamAM mahopAdhyAyajIe kahyuM : "tuM gati, tuM mati Asaro, tuM AlaMbana muja pyAro re...' sAdhanAmArgamAM gati prabhu che. enI kRpA vinA eka DagaluM paNa AgaLa vadhI zakAtuM nathI. saddagurune paNa prabhu ja to mokale che ne ! ane sadgurunAM caraNomAM jhUkavAnuM... e koNa karAvaze ? 'e ja to vaLI ! ane eTale to bhakta prabhunI samakSa prArthanAmAM kahe che : suhagurujogo. saguyoga, prabhu ! tuM Apa ! prabhu saddaguru Ape. prabhu saddaguruyoga Ape. ane e sagurusamarpitatA sAdhanAmArge calAve. sadgurunuM mArgadarzana che sAdhanAmArga tarapha, sadgurunAM caraNomAM samarpaNa che bhakta tarapha. have sAdhanAmArge doDavAnuM ja rahyuM ne ! hakIkatamAM, sadgurunI karuNA to haMmezA mArgadarzana ApavA taiyAra hatI ja. bhakta e svIkAravA taiyAra kyAM hato ? sadgurucaraNe samarpaNa vinA svIkAra kaI rIte thAya ? anumodanA dharma. bahu agharo che e : jyAre ApaNe ApaNI zaktithI karavA jaIe tyAre. prabhunI kRpAthI jayAre e thAya tyAre saraLa, saraLa che. 74 6 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM bhInAzano dariyo 75

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samarpaNa kaI rIte thAya ? prabhu ja e kArya karaze. mATe bhakta kahyuM : suhagurujogo... prabhu ! tuM mane sadgurunAM caraNomAM samarpita karI Apa ! anumodanA dharma. keTalA to vyApamAM phelAyelI A sAdhanA ! arihaMta prabhu samavasaraNamAM besIne dezanA ApI rahyA che. bhAvaka anumodanA kare che : vAha, prabhu ! tame keTakeTalAne tArI rahyA cho ! anumodanA arihaMta prabhunA AIjyanI. anumodanA siddha bhagavaMtonI svarUpa sthitinI... amRtavelanI sajajhAyanI kaDIo yAda Ave : vizva upakAra je jina kare, sAra jina nAma saMyoga re; teha guNa tAsa anumodIe, puNya anubaMdha zubha yoga re... siddhanI siddhatA karmanA, kSayathakI UpanI jeha re; jeha AcAra AcAryano, caraNa-vana sIMcavA meha re.. jeha vijhAyano guNa bhalo, sUtra sajhAya pariNAma re; sAdhunI je vaLI sAdhutA, mUla uttara guNa dhAma re... jeha virati deza zrAvaka taNI, jeha samakita sadAcAra re; samakita dRSTi suranara taNo, teha anumodIe sAra re... anyamAM paNa dayAdika guNo, jeha jinavacana anusAra re; sarva te citta anumodIe, samakita-bIja niradhAra re... pApa navi tIvra bhAve kare, jehane navi bhavarAga re; ucita sthiti je seve sadA, teha anumodavA lAga re... (16-21) samavasaraNamAM ApaNe sahu jaIne AvyA chIe. e samavasaraNIya kSaNone jhaMkhanAnA stara para AgaLa laMbAvIe tyAre bhaktanI manobhAvanA kevI hoya ? vItarAgastotramAM kalikAlasarvajJa hemacandrAcArye prAsAdika varNana ApyuM che. prabhu ! samavasaraNamAM Apa birAjamAna ho ane pAdapITha para ApanAM caraNo prasthApita thayela hoya. pAdapITha pAse mastaka hoya. mAruM. ane e mastaka para ApanI caraNaraja kharyA kare...!! ane tamane jouM tyAre kevo bhAvAveza mane thAya ? tamane jotAM ja AMkho harSAzruthI bharAI UThe.2 1. pAdapIThaluThanmUni, mayi pAdarajastava / ciraM nivasatAM puNyaparamANukaNopamam / / 20,1 // 2. vajuvAra, 4IvALanattaff:... 20,rA. anumodanAne cAra vizeSaNo apAyAM che : samyapha vidhipUrvikA, samyaka zuddha AzayathI yuktA, samyapha pAlanArUpA, samyapha niraticAra nirvAhanA svarUpA... 76 cheka moTA tamArI hatheLImAM bhInAzano dariyo : 77

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kramazaH cAre vizeSaNone joIe. doDatA doDatA doDatA doDiyo, jetI mananI re doDa... sAdhanAnA mArgamAM mananI doDe doDavAnuM hoya che. mananI doDa. apUrva utsAha. anumodanA hoya vidhipUrvikA. zAstramAM darzAvela vidhipUrvakanI anumodanA. vidhi AvI che : yathAzakti, saMvega vaDe anumodanA karavI. saMvega eTale rAgAdi rahita AtmAno zuddha pariNAma. ane A ja pariNAmabhAva mAre pragaTa karavo che evA tIvra abhilASapUrvakanI anumodanA te vidhipUrvakanI anumodanA. tIvra abhilASA, zaktipUrvakano saMvegano pariNAma sAdhakanI sAdhanAmAM eka vega lAvaze. anumodanA haze; saMvegapUrvakanI haze; paNa emAM tIvratA nahi bhaLI hoya to e dUragAmI asara nahi pADI zake. anumodanAne karaNa sudhI laMbAvavI che sAdhake. ane e mATe vega jarUrI che. vega. zakti mujaba, saMvegapUrvakanI anumodanA te vidhipUrvakanI anumodanA. zakti, phorsa, vega... anumodanAmAM evo vega umerAze ke zakya haze tyAM anumodanA kRtyamAM pheravAze. munijIvana joIne tIvra layanI thayelI anumodanA sAdhakane munitvanI pagathAra sudhI pahoMcADI de. kadAca bhAvamunitva sAthenuM dravyamunitva na maLe toya bhAvanirjhanthatvanI bhUmikA sudhI to e pahoMcADI ja de.. bhAvanirjhanthatvanI vyAkhyA 'samAdhi zataka" pratye A rIte ApI : kevala Atamabodha hai, paramAratha zivapaMtha; tAmeM jinakuM maganatA, so hi bhAvanirjhantha... pAramArthika - naiRRyika mokSamArga che AtmAnubhUti. temAM je sAdhaka DULyo, te bhAvanirjhantha. anumodanA sAdhakane keTalo to UMcake che ! baMdUkanI goLI koInA hAthamAM hoya ane te bhIMtane aDakADe to plAsTara paNa kadAca na khare. paNa e ja goLI baMdUkamAM bharI ene choDavAmAM Ave to...? to e bhIMtamAM kANuM pADI de. sAdhanAmAM lAvavAnA veganI carcA pUjayapAda AnaMdaghanajI mahArAje paMdaramA stavanamAM karI : 3. vigare nahIsI semi suvarDa - paMcasUtra, prathama sUtra 78 ka mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM bhInAzano dariyo : 79

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kSamA yAcI. himmatabhAIe kahyuM : are, bhAI ! tamArA kAraNe to mane moTo lAbha maLI gayo. pUrI rAta mArI kAyotsarga dhyAnamAM vItI... emanI A sAdhanAnI vAta jANI ApaNuM astitva romAMcita thaI ja UThe ne ! anumodanAne apAyela paheluM vizeSaNa : samyapha vidhipUrvikA anumodanA... pahelAM vidhinA samyakajJAna vinA, gatAnugatika rIte anumodanA karI hoya; je kadAca vAcika ja hoya; have anumodanAne zAstrokta vidhipUrvaka karavI che. kyAreka, gatAnugatika rIte thatI anumodanA ahaMkArane vadhAre tevuM paNa bane. koI tapasvIe sarasa tapazcaryA karI che. eka vyakti anumodanAnA layamAM pravacana kare. paNa manamAM e hoya ke mAruM pravacana prabhAvazALI lAge lokone. have anumodanA kevI karIzuM ? ghaNIvAra AvuM thatuM hoya che : prabhue je amApa kRpA varasAvI che, tenA RNamAMthI mukta thavA sAdhaka prabhunAM caraNomAM nAnakaDuM sAdhanAnuM puSpa samarpe che... paNa e samaye prabhu taraphathI evI AnaMdanI varSA thAya ke sAdhakane thAya ke Avyo'to RNamukta thavA ane RNe vadhI gayuM ! rAga, dveSa, ahaMkAranI zithilatA tarapha ApaNane laI jAya tevA bhAvanA prAgaTyavALI ane emAM umerAto vega. koI sAdhakanI sAdhanA joI ApaNuM astitva halI UThe. anumodanAnI tIvratA ane e sAdhanAnuM AMzika anubhavana. himmatabhAI beDAvALA jevA sAdhakazreSThanI kAyotsarga-sAdhanAnuM varNana sAMbhaLIe ane halI UThIe. kevI hatI emanI sAdhanA ! emanA gAma beDAnI najIkamAM dAdAI tIrtha che. ekavAra sAMjanA teo bhakti karavA gayelA. bhakti pachI eka staMbhanI pAchaLa teo kAyotsarga dhyAne UbhA. aMdhAruM thaI gayeluM. pUjArIe AratI utArI derAsara mAMgalika karyuM. ene khyAla na Avyo ke himmatabhAI derAsaramAM che. savAre pUjArIe derAsara kholyuM tyAre ene khyAla Avyo ke himmatabhAI aMdara hatA. e gabharAI gayo. eNe e parama sAdhakanI anumodanAne apAyeluM bIjuM vizeSaNa : samyapha zuddhAzayA. hRdaya hoya bhInuM, bhInuM. AMkhomAM hoya harSAzru. eka satyaghaTanA yAda Ave che. pacIseka varSano eka yuvAna. gharanuM mALiyuM sApha karatAM eka phoTo nIkaLyo. nAno pAMca-cha varSano dIkaro hato e phoTAmAM. paNa eNe coLapaTTo paherelo. kapaDo oDhelo. hAthamAM tarANI ane DAbhaDiyo... yuvAne e phoTAne joyo. mAne pUchayuM : "mA ! A phoTo kono che ?' mAe kahyuM : "e tAro phoTo che, dIkarA ! tuM pAMca varSano hato tyArathI tArA hRdayamAM vairAgyanI bharatI evI to UThatI ke 80 % mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM bhInAzano dariyo ja 81

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na pUcho vAta. tuM kaheto : mA ! mAre dIkSA levI che. ane ekavAra te sAmAyikanI dhotIne coLapaTTAnI jema, khesane kapaDAnI jema oDhela. tarANI-DAbhaDiyo gharamAM hato ja. ane tuM mahArAja sAhebanI jema rasoDA pAse Avyo. ane dharmalAbha kahI Ubho rahela. te vakhate koIe tAro phoTo pADI dIdhela..." bolatAM mAnI AMkhamAM AMsu AvyAM. yuvAne pUchyuM : "mA ! to pachI mArI dIkSA kema na thaI ?" mAnI AMkho vahevA lAgI. 'beTA ! tuM taiyAra ja hato. mAro moha ADe AvI gayo... meM e vakhate tane koI gurudeva pAse mokalyo nahi. beTA ! bhUla mArI che. nahitara, tuM jainazAsananA jyotirdharA zramaNa tarIke Aje sohato hota...' dIkSA thaI ThAThamAThathI. dIkSA pachInuM gurumahArAja sAthenuM bALamuninuM cAturmAsa pAlItANAmAM nizcita thayuM. mane thayuM ke huM paNa cAturmAsa pAlItANA karuM. jethI mArA bALamunine cAra mahinA sudhI huM joI zakuM. comAsuM zarU thayuM. mAe paNa gurudeva hatA e ja dharmazALAmAM eka rUma lIdhI. zatruMjaya tIrthamAM prabhunI bhakti, gurudevonI sevAno lAbha maLe. sAdhanA AnaMdapUrvaka cAlatI. paraMtu, mAe joyuM ke jayAre paNa te gurudevane upAzrayamAM vandana karavA jAya. bALamuni kyAreka koInI sAthe vAto karatA hoya.. kAM to bIjuM kaMIka karatA hoya... eNe pustaka laIne vAMcatAM ke gokhatAM bALamunirAjane joyA nahi. ene ciMtA thaI. meM mAro dIkaro prabhuzAsanane samarpita karyo che; prabhuzAsananI sevA mATe. e bALamuni abhyAsa na kare to cAle kema ? eNe tyAM ja niyama lIdho : jyAM sudhI bALamuni traNa hajAra navI gAthA kaMThastha na kare tyAM sudhI mAre cha vigaIno tyAga. be-traNa divasa pachI AThama ke caudazanI tithi hatI. bapore munivaro ekAsaNAM | AyaMbila mATe beThela. bALamuni vAparI rahela. thoDIka gocarI khUTatI hatI. gurudeve bALamunine kahyuM : tamArI saMsArI mAtuzrInI rUme jaI ATaluM vahorI Avo ! mAne mukhethI A vAta sAMbhaLatAM yuvAnanI AMkho paNa bhInI banI... ane A vAta vAMcatAM tamArI AMkho paNa bhInI banI haze. mAnI kevI prabaLa jhaMkhanA ! AvI ja eka mAnI vAta karuM. ATha varSano ekano eka dIkaro. gurudevanA saMgamAM Avyo. janmAntarIya vairAgyanI dhArA pragaTa thaI UThI. mAne kahyuM : mA ! mAre dIkSA levI che. mAnI AMkhomAM harSAzru : mAro lADalo prabhuzAsanane samarpita thAya ethI vadhu mAruM sadbhAgya kayuM hoI zake ? bALamuni vahoravA cAlyA. 82 mola tamArI hatheLImAM bhInAzano dariyo 83

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bALamuninI A sAdhanAne joI emanuM hRdaya bhInuM, bhInuM thaI gayuM. rUme jaI dharmalAbha kahyo. mA ekAsaNuM karavA beThela. badhI tapelI bAjumAM... 'dharmalAbhano avAja sAMbhaLyo. are, mArA lADalA bALamuni Aje to vahoravA AvyA che ! kahyuM : 'padhAro !" bALamuni bahu ja vicakSaNa hatA. eka kSaNamAM mAnI thALI para najara paDatAM ja coMkyA. mAne ekAsaNuM che, to pachI lukhkhI-sUkI roTalI kema ? mAne pUche che bALamuni : 'tamAre zuM che Aje? ekAsaNuM ke AyaMbila ?' 'ekAsaNuM." to pachI lukhkhI roTalI kema ?" samyapha zuddhAzayA anumodanA. anumodanAmAM keTaluM vaividhya Ave che ! eka sAdhaka keTalA yogomAM niSNAta hoya ? be-cAra yogomAM... e sAdhaka bIjAone keTalA yogomAM joDI zake ? nizcitarUpe, be-cAra yogomAM. jyAre anumodanA tame aneka yogonI karI zako. ko'ka bhaktanI prabhubhaktinI anumodanA... ko'ka sAdhakanI kAyotsarga sAdhanAnI anumodanA. A ja rIte dhyAna, svAdhyAya, vaiyAvacca... keTalA badhA yogo ! A badhA yogonI anumodanA... keTaluM to vaividhya anumodanA dharmanuM... AvI anumodanAnI sAdhanA zuddha AzayavALI ja hoya ne ! paNa emAM mahattva anumodakanuM nahi, te te mahAtmAnA guNonuM che. eka tattvaze kahyuM che : saMtonA guNone joI ApaNe prasanna banIe ke emanAM guNagAna karIne temAM mahattva ApaNuM nathI; mahattva e saMtonA guNonuM che. hA, bahArathI guNahIna jevA dekhAtA koI vyaktitvanA chUpA guNone joI tame prasanna bano tyAre tamAruM mahattva pragaTa thaI zake. mAne lAgyuM ke emane mATe ja to niyama lIdho che. pattAM khullAM karavAmAM vAMdho nathI. mAe kahyuM : 'tame traNa hajAra navI gAthA kaMThastha na karo tyAM sudhI cha vigaIno mAre tyAga che." bALamunie kahyuM : "are, ATalI ja to vAta che ne !" vahorIne teo upAzraye gayA. ane e divasathI dhUNI dhakhAvI dIdhI abhyAsanI. rojanI traNaso ane cAraso gAthAo... ATha divasamAM traNa hajAra gAthA navI kaMThastha karI lIdhI. mAne kahyuM : traNa hajAra gAthA navI pUrNa thaI. tamAro niyama Aje pUrNa thayo. mAnI AMkhamAM hatAM harSAzru. 84 jeka mola tamArI hatheLImAM bhInAzano dariyo 85

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samyak zuddhAzayA anumodanA. anumodanA dharma zuddha AzayathI bharapUra hoya ja. kAraNa ke anumodanAnI gaMgotrI pote ja gaMgAsAgaranA virATa phelAvamAM pheravAI jatI hoya che. tamAre mAtra prAraMbha karavAno ja hoya che. pachI hoya che mAtra bekasITa jarnI. tame anAyAsa ja, AgaLa vadhyA karo cho. A vRddhine mATe sarasa upamA sUjhe che : 'tela biMdu jima vistare jI, jaLamAMhi bhalI rIti...' pANImAM telanuM TIpuM paDyuM... majhAnI e pRSThabhU para e telabiMdu vistaratuM ja jAya, vistaratuM ja jAya. anumodanA dharmanI jaLasapATI. anumodakano nAnakaDo zubha bhAva... have e vistaryA ja karaze, vistaryA ja karaze... .. anumodanAno A vega, sahajarUpe ja kRtyanA rUpamAM pheravAya che. je AjJAdharmanI anumodanA thayelI, e ja AjJAdharma pAlananA rUpamAM maLI jAya che. anumodanA dharmanuM A kevuM virATa dAna ! samyak pratipattirUpA anumodanA... anumodanA dharmane apAyela trIjuM vizeSaNa. mAtra pAlanA (pratipatti) nahi, samyak pAlanA. 86 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM AjJApAlanamAM samyaktva saccAI kyAMthI pragaTI ? anumodanAnI kSaNomAM je harSAzrunI dhArA vahI; te dhArAmAM ja sAdhakanuM vahevAnuM thAya che. A vahevAnI kSaNo te ja sAdhanAnA samyaktvanI, sAdhanAnA UMDANanI kSaNo. prabhue samavasaraNamAM besI sAdhanA prarUpI. gaNadhara bhagavaMtoe dvAdazAMgImAM e sAdhanAne AlekhI. guruparaMparA dvArA e sAdhanA ApaNI pAse AvI. sAdhanA ApanAra sadguru. e sAdhanAne ghUMTAvanAra sadguru. AmAM ApaNuM kRtya keTaluM thaze ? sAdhanAnuM eka pRthakkaraNa yAda Ave : 99 TakA prabhunI kRpA / sadgurunI kRpA. eka pratizata ApaNo prayatna. A pRSThabhU para sAdhanAne ghUMTanAra sAdhakanI AMkho harSAzruthI chalaka chalaka chalakAtI haze. anumodanAnI gaMgA cittanA beu kAMThAne sparzIne cAlatI haze. 'prabhunI kevI anarAdhAra kRpA ! sadgurunI kevI adbhuta kRpA.' sAdhanA Ape 'e'. sAdhanA ghUMTAve 'e'. bhInAzano dariyo 87

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nadImAM taranArAono eka anubhava hoya che ke emaNe kazuM karavAnuM hotuM nathI. nadIno pravAha emane vahAvyA kare che. anumodanA A ja kAma kare che. yAda Ave prabhu mahAvIra devanI anarAdhAra kRpAvarSAnI eka ghaTanA. caMDakauzika sarpane prabhue pratibodhita karyo. pratibuddha thayo e sarpa. hiMsAnI dhArAmAMthI e ahiMsAnI, parama ahiMsAnI dhArAmAM Avyo. potAnI AMkhomAM rahela jhera vaDe hajArone khatama karanAra e sarpa evo to ahiMsaka banyo ke bharavADaNo dvArA thayela dUdha-ghInAM chAMTaNAMnI sugaMdha vaDe Avela hajAro kIDIo enA zarIre coTI gaI tyAre paNa e sApa pUMchaDI paTapaTAvato nathI ke zarIrane halAvato nathI; pelI kIDIonI rakSA mATe ja to ! prabhu dvArA maLela sAdhanAne eNe svIkArI. pachInI ghaTanA adbhuta che. prabhu paMdara divasa sudhI tyAM ja rokAyA : potAnAM divya Andolano vaDe enI sAdhanA surakSita rahe e mATe. sarpanuM nidhana thayuM, pachI prabhu AgaLa padhAryA. sAdhanA Ape sadguru. sAdhanAne ghUMTAve sadguru. sAdhanAne sAdhakanA astitva sAthe ekameka banAve sadguru. sAdhaka zuM kare ? sadgurunA A pradAnane e jhIle. e jhIlavAnI kSaNo bane harSAzruthI bhInI, bhInI. sAdhakano mArga che A bhInAza. pote vahAvela AMsunI dhArA e ja che sAdhakano mArga. AMsunA pUramAM basa, vahyA ja karavAnuM che... anumodanAnI A dhArA sAdhaka pAse to che ja. ene sAdhanAnuM hArda ApanAra sadguru pAse paNa e ja che. sUtronA yogodrahananI prakriyAmAM jyAre ziSya kahe che ke mane sUtra Apo ! tyAre saddagurudeva ema nathI kahetA ke huM tane A sUtra ApuM chuM; paNa teo kahe che : "khamAsamaNANuM hatyeNuM...' guruonA (atItanA saddaguruonA) hAthe huM A sUtra tane ApuM chuM. sadguru kahevA mAge che ke guruonI paraMparA vinA gaNadhara bhagavaMte racela A sUtra mArI pAse paNa kyAMthI Avata ! AvI ja eka vAta paraMparAmAM che. ziSya (pAkSika khAmaNAmAM) jyAre kahe che ke, gurudeva ! Ape mane sUtra, pada AdinuM jJAna ApyuM... huM Apano khUba khUba khUba AbhArI chuM. tyAre gurudeva kahe che : "AyariyasaMtiya...' AmAM mAruM potAnuM kaMI ja nathI. gurudevoe mane ApeluM huM tane ApuM chuM. kartutvanI dhArA chUTe. anumodanAnI dhArAmAM rahevAnuM cAlyA kare. 88 % mola tamArI hatheLImAM bhInAzano dariyo ja 89

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anumodanAnI A sAdhanA ApaNA kartRtvanI dhULane kevI to AsAnIthI dUra karI de che ! kartRtvanI pATInA lisoTA para anumodanAnAM jaLabiMduo lAgyAM ane pelA lisoTA thayA chU ! sAdhanAnI prAptinA caraNanI prApti karAvyA pachI anumodanA niraticAra sAdhanAnI prApti karAve che. samyak niraticArA anumodanA. cothuM vizeSaNa anumodanAnuM. jAgRti eTalI prabaLa haze ke aticAro / doSo lAgaze nahi. Ama paNa, sAdhanA eTale kSaNakSaNanI jAgRti ja che ne ! sAdhaka pAse hoya che AvI jAgRti. pramAda ke ahaMkAra Adi koI paNa doSa lAgavAnI kSaNanI pUrve ja jAgRti mukharita banI jatI hoya che ane niraticAra sAdhanAnI dhArA cAlyA kare che. ... prAraMbhika sAdhaka pAse hoya che sAdhanAnI A tripadI : AntaranirIkSaNa, saMkalpa, jAgRti. banI zake ke AveganI paLomAM gusso AvI gayo ke Asakti tIvra banI gaI; rAtre nIrava zAMtinI paLomAM sAdhaka besaze tyAre ene potAnI bhUla dekhAI Avaze. ane e nakkI karaze ke have A bhUlanI punarAvRtti na thavI joIe. kama se kama, eka mahinA sudhI to nahi ja. AntaranirIkSaNanI paLo pachI Avela A saMkalpa. have joIze jAgRti. jyAre rAga, dveSa ke ahaMkArane UThavAnI kSaNo 90 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM Avaze tyAre jAgRti mukharita banI jaze : nahi, A nathI ja karavAnuM. sAdhanAmAM dIrgha abhyAsane kAraNe eka kuzaLatA Avaze, jene kAraNe paNa sAdhanA niraticAra banaze. zikhAu DrAIvara ane kuzaLa DrAIvara; keTalo badho pharaka che ! zikhAu DrAIvara ghaNIvAra muMjhAI paNa jAya; kyAreka eksiDenTa paNa sarjAI zake; kuzaLa DrAIvara mATe to kahevAya ke e gADIne DrAIva karato nathI. gADI ApameLe cAlyA kare che. eTale ja, sAdhanAmAM nirantara abhyAsa, dIrghakAla abhyAsa ane satkArapUrNa abhyAsanI vAta karAyelI che. lAMbA samayathI, varSothI sAdhanA ghUMTAyA karAvI joIe. e paNa nirantara. eTale ke thoDA divasa ghUMTI ane thoDA divasa na TI ema nahi; sAtatyapUrNa abhyAsa joIe. ane e abhyAsa mAtra kAyAnA starano abhyAsa ema nahi; hRdayano bhAva emAM bhaLavo joIe... anumodanA hoya vidhipUrvikA. anumodanA hoya zuddha AzayavALI. anumodanA hoya anumodanIya tattvanI sAdhanAnI prApti pUrvakanI. 4. meM tu dIrghAna-nainayaM-sArAsevito ratabhUmi: / - pAtaMjala yogasUtra bhInAzano dariyo 91

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anumodanA hoya niraticAra sAdhanAnI prApti pUrvakanI... anumodanA dharmamAM A UMDANa Avaze prabhunI kRpAthI. acinyazaktithI yukta te bhagavaMto che. teo paramakalyANasvarUpa che. dareka prANIonuM kalyANa temanA prabhAva vaDe thAya che... AdhArasUtra ANAkaMkhI, ANApaDicchage, ANAavirAhage, ANAniSkAyage tti / - paMcasUtra, dvitIya sUtra anumodanAmAM vidhi Avaze saddaguruyoga vaDe. ane saddaguruyoga to prabhu ja Ape che ne ! anumodanAmAM pavitra bhAva bhaLyo. pavitra bhAva koNe Apyo ? eka paNa sAro vicAra, eka paNa sAro bhAva prabhunI kRpAthI ja maLe che ne !" anumodanAmAM vRttine stare UThela ghaTanA pravRttinA stare ke niraticAra pravRttinA stare Ave e paNa "e"nI kRpAthI ja thAya ne ! AjJAkAMkSA, AjJAsvIkAra, AjJA avirAdhana, AjJAnuM aucityapUrvakanuM pAlana... (zrAvaka tarIkenA sAdhanAkALamAM paNa sAdhaka potAnA kalyANamitranI AjJAne A rIte svIkAre che...) 5. bhajavataprasAvatrakhyatvat yugallAvarca... (lalita vistarA paMjikA) | 92 ja mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM

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5 tuma ANA zira dhArI, gurudeva ! sAMjanA samaye gurudeve be ziSyone kahyuM : savAre tamAre vaiyAvacca mATe pelA gAme javAnuM che.' ziSyoe gurudevanA vacanano, umaLakA sAthe, svIkAra karyo. bIjI savAre teo taiyAra thaIne AvyA. gurudevane temaNe vaMdanA karI ane kahyuM : 'gurudeva ! jaIe ame ?' e samaye gurudeve kahyuM : 'tamAre nathI javAnuM.' beu ziSyo gurudevanI e AjJA svIkArI potAnA Asana para jaI svAdhyAyAdi kare che. 94 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM banI zake ke bIjA be ziSyone gurudeva taiyAra thavAnuM kahe ane temane vaiyAvacca mATe mokale. pelA be ziSyone savAla paNa na thAya ke potAne zA mATe nA pADI ane bIjAone zA mATe mokalyA ? gurudevanI je paNa AjJA maLe; vicAronI cAdara para nahi, paNa gurudeva pratyenA tIvra bahumAnanI cAdara para AjJAne jhIle che vinIta ziSya. vicAronI sAthe ApaNA rAga, dveSa, ahaMkAra vaNAyelA che. vicAro Avaze tyAre rAga, dveSa emanI sAthe dhasI Avaze. gurudeve eka ziSyane kahyuM : tAre A mahAtmA sAthe cAturmAsa mATe A gAme javAnuM che. ziSya pAMca-daza sekanDamAM paristhitine joI le che : jemanI sAthe javAnuM che e mahAtmA majhAnA che. jyAM cAturmAsa karavA javAnuM che e sthaLa sAruM che... to kaMI vAMdho nathI. ane e kahe : 'tatti...' A'tatti'- vacana svIkAra - konI thaI ? gurudevanA vacananI ke potAnI anukUlatAnI...? gurudevanI AjJAno svIkAra ahIM anukUlananI cAdara para thayo. IcchAnI gaMdI cAdara para guruAjJAnuM phUla jhIlI zakAya kharuM ? garabaDa kyAM thaI ? sAdhanAnA prAraMbhika starathI ja AjJAne jhIlavA mATe eka vidhi batAvavAmAM AvI che. e vidhine samucita rIte pALavAmAM Ave to AjJAdharmano svIkAra tIvra Adara ane ahobhAvanI cAdara para thaze. .. tuma ANA zira dhArI, gurudeva ! 5

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kaI che e vidhi ? AjJAkAMkSA, AjJAsvIkAra, AjJAnuM ArAdhana (avirAdhana) ane AjJAnuM pAlana A vidhi che. paheluM caraNa : AjJAkAMkSA. zrAvakane kalyANamitranI AjJAnI ane sAdhu bhagavaMtane gurudevanI AjJAnI eka prabaLa jhaMkhanA hoya... kyAre sadgurudeva mane AjJA Ape ! ziSya e vakhate hoya gurumukha prekSI... eka pyAsa hoya che sadgurudevanI AjJAnI. kyAre sadgurudevanI kRpA AjJArUpe mArA para varase ! banI zake ke AjJA ekAda pyAlo pANI lAvavAnI paNa hoya. paNa ziSyanI dRSTi e vakhate hoya che sadguru para. sadgurue kahyuM che ne ! kevo baDabhAgI chuM ke sadgurudevanI AjJA mane maLI gaI. pUjyapAda AcArya bhagavaMta udayasUrijI mahArAjanA prAraMbhika sAdhanAkALanI eka ghaTanA yAda Ave. gurudeva, mahAzAsanaprabhAvaka AcArya bhagavaMta zrImadvijaya nemisUrIzvarajI mahArAjAe eka rAtre pratikramaNa pachI ArAma pharamAvatAM ziSyane yAda karyo. bUma mArI : udaya ! ziSya mATe AvI ghaTanAo jIvananI avismaraNIya ghaTanAo hoya che. udayavijaya mahArAja ke pAchaLathI udayasUri mahArAja tarIke emane saMbodhanAra ghaNA hatA. paraMtu 'udaya' kahIne gurudeva vinA bIjuM koNa saMbodhI zake ?) 96 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM pUjya udayavijaya mahArAja hAthamAM daMDAsaNa laI pUMjatAM pUMjatAM gurudeva pAse AvyA. ane e vakhate gurudeva yoganidrAmAM sarI gayA. pUrA divasano zrama... rAtre saMthAratI vakhate ekAda vAta udayavijaya mahArAjane kahevAnI yAda AvI... 'udaya !' kahIne bUma mArI. paNa udayavijaya mahArAja Ave e pahelAM teo saMthArI gayA. ziSyanI pAse hatI AjJA mATenI tIvra jhaMkhanA. gurudeva mane kaI AjJA ApavA mAgatA haze. gurudeve bolAvyo ne huM gurudeva pAse AvI gayo. have teozrI na kahe tyAM sudhI potAnA Asana para kema javAya ? rAtanA navathI savAranA traNa sudhI udayavijaya mahArAja gurudevanI pATa pAse UbhA rahyA. gurudeva pAse jhUkelI mudrAmAM ja rahevAya e khyAla hato. teo cha kalAka jhUkelI mudrAmAM UbhA rahyA. savAre traNa vAgye gurudeva UThyA tyAre ziSyane e rIte Ubhela joIne khyAla Avelo ke pote rAtrinA prAraMbhamAM ene bolAvela. kevI AjJAkAMkSA ! e cha kalAka zuM ghUMTAyuM haze pUjya udayavijaya mahArAjanA manamAM ? gurudevazrI hamaNAM yoganidrAmAMthI UThaze ane potAne AjJA pharamAvaze... gurudeva taraphathI AjJA maLe e pahelAM ziSya pAse A AjJAkAMkSAno tabakko hovo atyaMta jarUrI che. AjJAkAMkSAnI pRSThabhU para AjJAsvIkAra kevo sarasa sohI rahe ! .. tuma ANA zira dhArI, gurudeva ! 97

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AjJAkAMkSA. AjJA mATenI jhaMkhanA... ahaMkendritatAnI sAme gurukendritatAnI pratiSThA. kevA guru game tamane ? tamArA ahaMkArane paMpALe tevA ke ahaMkArane cIrI nAkhe tevA ? mane je paMDitajI 'tarkasaMgraha' grantha bhaNAvatA hatA; emaNe granthano chevaTano thoDo bhAga bAkI rAkhyo. kahyuM : "zeSa zrIgaNezAya. basa, have AgaLa nahi." meM pUchyuM : "kema nahi ?" emaNe kahyuM : 'amAre tyAM paraMparA che ke grantha pUrNa nahi karavo. pUrNa karIe grantha to ahaMkAra Ave ke A grantha huM bhaNI gayo. mATe thoDoka grantha bAkI rAkhavAno." kevI majhAnI A paraMparA ! tamArA ahaMkArane ko'ka paMpALe; ane e tamane game; to emAM e vyakti tamane gamI ke tamAro ahaMkAra thapathapAvAyo te gamyuM ? A ja vAta sadgurunA sandarbhamAM laIe to, ahaMkArasApekSatAthI guru game che ke ahaMkAranirapekSatAthI ? bhaNavAnuM kharuM, paNa eno ahaMkAra na rahe tevI A paraMparA... AjJAkAMkSA... IcchA viruddha AjJAnA vijayanI vAta. AjJAmAM dharma (bALApa dhammo)nI sAme sUtra che IcchAmAM adharma (phUchI adhI ). zubha IcchA ziSyanI hoya ane chatAM sadguru ene toDe evuM bane. zubha IcchAnI pAchaLa rahelA ahaMkArane | Agrahane saddaguru toDatA hoya che. eka ziSya 100mI vardhamAna tapanI oLI karI rahela che. so AyaMbila enA thaI gayA. ekaso ekamAM divase upavAsa thAya eTale oLI pUrNa thAya. banI zake ke ekaso ekamA divase guru ene upavAsane badale ekAsaNAnuM paccakakhANa Ape. ziSya premathI A ekAsaNAnA paccakakhANano svIkAra karavo joIe. sadguruno Azaya e paNa hoya ke ene 108mI oLI paripUrNa thaze, to ene eno ahaMkAra Avaze... to so AyaMbila bhale karyA; ekaso ekamA divase upavAsa nathI karAvavo. zubha IcchA sadgurunAM caraNomAM mUkI zakAya. paNa Agraha na joIe. vardhamAna tapanI oLI karavAnI IcchA thaI zake. gurunAM caraNomAM e IcchA mUkI zakAya... paraMtu gurudeva nA pADe toya premathI e 'nA'no svIkAra karI zakAya evI cittavRtti joIe. beMtAlIsamI oLI zarU karavAnI bhAvanA thaI. gurudevanAM caraNomAM e IcchA mUkI paNa kharI. gurudeva nA paNa pADI zake. gurudevane lAge ke eka mAMdA munivaranI sevA A muni ja karI zake tema che. ane AyaMbilanI oLI ane sevA beu te sAthe karI zake tema nathI, to oLInI nA pADI zake... ahIM to ApaNe paDadA pAchaLanI vAta jANI ke kyA kAraNe gurudeve nA pADI. hakIkatamAM, ziSyane e jANavAnI paNa iMtejArI na thavI joIe ke kayA kAraNe gurudeve nA pADI che. - 98 4 mola tamArI hatheLImAM tuma AjJA zira dhArI, gurudeva ! % 9

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eka ziSyane guru bolAve che. ziSya gurunAM zrIcaraNomAM vandana kare che. pUche che : "bhagavad ! zI AjJA ? pharamAvo !" gurudeve kahyuM : "gaMgA nadI kaI bAju vahe che, kaI dizA tarapha vahe che, te joI Ava.' ziSya 'tatta' karIne gurudevanuM vacana svIkAryuM. kapaDokAMbaLI oDhI, hAthamAM dAMDo laI teo traNa-cAra gAu dUra Avela gaMgA nadInA pravAha pAse pahoMcyA. pA kalAka tyAM UbhA rahyA. nadInA pravAhamAM vahetAM lAkaDAM Adi pUrva dizA bhaNI vahetA'tAM, e parathI nizcita karyuM ke gaMgAno pravAha pUrva bhaNI vahe che. be-cAra mANasone pUchIne paNa khAtarI karI. pAchA pharI upAzraye AvyA. IriyAvahI paDikkamI gurudevane vandana karI temaNe kahyuM : "bhagavad gaMgA nadI pUrva bhaNI vahe che." munirAjanA manamAM e savAla nahoto thayo ke gaMgAnA pravAhanI dizA jANavAnuM gurudevane zuM kAma paDyuM ? vaLI, lagabhaga lokone khyAla che ke gaMgA nadI pUrva tarapha vahe che, to A vAtane cakAsAvavAnI gurudevane zuM jarUra paDI ? nahi, koI prazna nahoto munirAjanA manamAM. nahoto koI vicAra. saddagurunI AjJAne mAtra jhIlavAnI tyAM vAta hatI. AjJAkAMkSAnI pRSThabhU para AjJAsvIkAra tyAM hato. paDadA pAchaLanI vAta ApaNe jANI zakIe chIe. eka rAjAne savAla thayelo ke amArA karmacArIo to amArI AjJA svIkAre. kAraNa ke ame emane tagaDo pagAra ApIe chIe. gurunA ziSyo A rIte gurunI AjJA kema uThAve ? zAsanaprabhAvanAnuM kAraNa, A ghaTanAmAM, joI AcArya bhagavaMte kahyuM : 'tamArA jUnA, vizvAsu karmacArIne tame eka AjJA Apo. mArA navA ziSyane huM AjJA ApuM. bannenI pAchaLa tamArA jAsUso mUko.' rAjAe A vAta svIkArI. potAnA vizvAsu karmacArIne bolAvIne kahyuM : "gaMgA nadI kaI bAju vahe che, te joI Ava." pelAe kahyuM : "jI. jaI AvuM." bahAra nIkaLIne e vicAre : 'rAjAone navarA beThAM tukkA ja sUjhe che ne ! badhA jANe che ke gaMgA nadI pUrvamAM vahe che. pachI jovAnI jarUrata ja kyAM che ?" e to ghare jaI UMghI gayo. pAMca-cha kalAke rAjA pAse Avyo. kahe : "sAheba, jaI Avyo. gaMgA nadI pUrvamAM vahe che.' rAjAnA jAsUsoe paDadA pAchaLanI vAta rAjAne kahI. tyAre rAjAne jinazAsananI A AjJAsvIkAranI paraMparA para anahada zraddhA jAgI. AjJAkAMkSA che majhAnI pRSThabhU, je para AjJAsvIkAra thAya che. atyAra sudhI AjJAno svIkAra thayo haze, paNa enI pRSThabhU zuM ? khyAla na Ave e rIte paNa pRSThabhU para ahaMkAra paDela hoya che. gurudeva potAne satata joDe rAkhe, to ziSya mATe, e parama saubhAgyanI ghaTanA che... paNa e saubhAgyanI ghaTanAne paNa bhInA bhInA hRdaye svIkAravI, e tyAre banI zake, jyAre ApaNI bAju ahobhAvanI bhUmikA hoya. 100 % mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM tuma ANA zira dhArI, gurudeva ! cheka 101

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eka gurudeva eka ziSyane potAnI joDe ja rAkhatA. bIjA ziSyone kyAreka kyAreka koI prasaMge bahAra mokalatA paNa A ziSyane potAnI joDe ja rAkhatA. e ziSye A ghaTanAne potAnA ahaMkAranI uttejaka banAvI. ekavAra e ziSya bhaktavRndane kaheto hoya che : 'gurudevanI kevI aparaMpAra kRpA che mArA para. bIjA koI ziSyane kyAreka gurudeva bahAra mokale. mane to na ja mokale.' zabdomAM vAta e rIte AvI ke gurudevanI kRpA mArA para khUba che. enA hRdayanI vAta e hatI ke gurudevane mArA vinA cAle nahi. yogAnuyoga kevo ke enuM e bolavuM ane gurudevanuM tyAMthI pasAra thavuM. gurudeva e zabdo sAMbhaLI gayA. sAMje ziSya vandanArthe gayo tyAre gurudeve ene kahyuM : 'tuM pelA loko sAme zuM zekhI vadhArato hato ? tane kadAca khyAla nahi hoya ke tane huM zA mATe mArI joDe rAkhuM chuM. tuM evo gaMbhIra dardI che ke tane mArA sAMnidhya vinA rAkhI na zakAya.' ziSyanA ahamnI dhULa gurunI A zabdalAkaDI vaDe khaMkherAI. pUjya AnaMdaghanajI mahArAja yAda Ave : 'guru mohi mAre zabda kI lAThI, cele kI mati aparAdhinI nAThI.' .. AjJAkAMkSAmAM che samarpitatAnI AchIsI jhalaka. gurudeva dvArA maLatI vizeSa AjJA ja mane UMcakI zake evI eka zraddhA. 102 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM ane ethI ja, ekAda-be kalAka ke eka-be divasa sudhI kalyANamitranI ke gurudevanI AjJA na maLe to sAdhaka becena banI jAya. A becenI, A taDapana e ja e pRSThabhUmikA che; je para AjJAno svIkAra thaI zake. pyAsI dharatI varasAdanAM biMdu-biMdune AtmasAt karI le che. e ja rIte bhaktanI pyAsI cittavRtti sadgurunI AjJAne AtmasAt kare che. AjJAsvIkAra. hRdayathI gurudevanI | kalyANamitranI AjJAno svIkAra. kyAreka evuM banI jAya che ke kAyAnA stara para AjJAnuM pAlana thaI rahe; paNa hRdayanA stara 52 eno svIkAra na thayelo hoya. mAtra khAnadAnIne vaza, ke bahAra potAnuM kharAba na lAge te mATe kAyAnA stara para AjJA paLAI jAya. have A ja kramathI AjJAnA pAlana bhaNI javuM che : AjJAdharma mATenI jhaMkhanA, hRdayathI AjJAno svIkAra, AjJAdharmanuM avirAdhana (gurudeve Apela AjJAdharmane tenI ucita vidhine jANIne te rIte ja pALavAno dRDha saMkalpa. jethI AjJAdharma pratye leza paNa anAdarabhAva na thAya.) ane aucityapUrvaka AjJAnuM pAlana. tuma ANA zira dhArI, gurudeva ! 103

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kadAca sAdhaka vikalpothI mukta na banela hoya to gurudeva ene nirvikalpa banAve che. ane e paNa kevA pyArathI... ApaNe jotAM ja diMga thaI jaIe. hRdayapUrvaka AjJAno svIkAra eTale ke vicAranI cAdara para AjJAne jhIlavAnI vAta have nathI. huM ghaNIvAra kaheto houM chuM ke prabhunA sAdhanAmArgamAM hArdikonuM ja kArya che. bauddhikonuM kAma nathI. ziSya pAse buddhi keTalI joIe ? gurudevanI AjJAne samajI zake teTalI. ethI vadhu buddhi na hoya to cAle. Akhare, hospiTalamAM dAkhala thanAra dardInuM meDikala noleja keTaluM joIe ? e dardIne je sUcana ApavAmAM Ave tenuM eNe anusaraNa karavuM joIe. enI pAse auSadhIyajJAna bilakula nathI to paNa cAle. AthI ja, sAdhanAmArgamAM huM korI sleTa jevA sAdhakone pasaMda karuM chuM. jeo mAtra sadgurudevanI AjJAne anusare che. korI sleTa jevo sAdhaka. vikalponA lisoTA jenA cittamAM nathI; tevo sAdhaka. baporanA samaye ziSya gurudeva pAse Avyo. traNa-sADAtraNa vAgyA haze. ajavALuM upAzrayamAM barobara hatuM. gurue ziSyane kahyuM : "kevuM aMdhAruM che !' ziSya kahyuM : 'tahatti, gurudeva !' manamAM vicAra nathI UThato ke atyAre aMdhAruM che ema gurudeva kema kahe che... e sadgurunA vacanano svIkAra kare che. ane gurudeva kahe che : 'ajJAnanuM aMdhAruM kevuM vyApaka che !' pratikramaNamAM sAMje sAdhaka gurudevane pUche che : "savamsa vi devasia ducitie dubhAsinI ducikrie IcchAkAreNa saMdisaha bhagavad !" (divasa daramyAna kharAba cintana thaI gayuM che, kaMIka azubha bolAI gayuM che, kaMIka sAvadya kArya thaI gayuM che. gurudeva ! huM zuM karuM ?) gurudeva javAba Ape che : 'paDikkameha.' tuM pAcho pharI jA. A badhAM ja atikramaNothI mukta thA. pratikramaNa kara. majhAnI vAta e che ke varSothI savAra ane sAMja pratikramaNa karato sAdhaka roja gurudevane A prazna kare che... ane gurudeva pyArathI e ja uttara Ape che : 'paDikkameha." gurunA A vAtsalyano khyAla Ave che ? 'gurunA vAtsalyanI nadIne kinArA nathI hotA' e vidhAna ahIM caritArtha thAya che. eka dRSTAMtathI vAta spaSTa karuM. nAno dIkaro. pAMca-cha varSano. zaradI thaI. mammAne kahyuM. mammAe viksa veporaba ghasI ApyuM. sAriDonanI TIkaDI ApI. ane kahyuM : AIsa kenDI nahi khAto ho ! dIkaro svastha thaI gayo. tyAM ja AIsa kenDIvALAnI ghaMTaDI vAgI. dIkaro tyAM pahoMcI gayo. AIsa kenDI khAdhI... pharI zaradI... mammA pAse. "mammA ! zaradI thaI gaI !' mAe pharI TIkaDI ApI. viksa ghasI ApyuM. pharI kahyuM : "beTA ! kenI nahi korI sleTa jevo sAdhaka. 104 mola tamArI hatheLImAM tuma AjJA zira dhArI, gurudeva ! # 105

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ne sAdhanAmArgamAM ! ('tuM gati...') prabhunA mArga para cAlavAnI jhaMkhanA sAdhakanI. paga upADavAno eNe. calAvavAno prabhue. khAvAnI...' paNa svastha thaI gayA pachI bALaka e bhUlI ja javAnuM. ne kenDI khAvAnuM... ne mammA pAse javAnuM... pAMca-sAtavAra AvuM banyA pachI mammA gusse thaI zake. 'tane keTalI vAra kahyuM : AIsa kenDI nahi khAvAnI. ane chatAM tuM khAdhA kare che. kema cAlI zake A ?' ane ahIM gurudevanA vAtsalyane jarA juo to ! keTalAMya varSothI rAga-dveSamAM javAnI bhUlo ApaNe karatAM AvyA chIe ane chatAM gurudeva kyAreya gusse thatA nathI. e ja vAtsalyasabhara avAje teo kahe che : beTA ! have AvuM na karato ho ! pAcho pharI jA ! hRdayanA stara paranA AjJApAlananI eka ghaTanA yAda Ave che. pyArA saMte potAnA ziSyane kahyuM : 'pelo sApa jaI rahyo che, enA dAMta gaNa to !' gurudevanuM amApa vAtsalya ane ziSyano hRdayanA stara para e vAtsalyano, vAtsalyapUrNa AjJAno svIkAra. kArya zarU... athavA kaho ke kArya pUrNa. Akhare, sAdhanAmArgamAM cAlavAnuM keTaluM che ! be DagalAM ja to ! sAdhanAmArge sAdhake cAlavAnuM ja kyAM che ? prabhu ja to gati che ziSya tarata sApa pAse jAya che. sApane dAMta hoya ke na hoya e vicAravAnuM eNe che ja nahi ne ! kAraNa ke e bauddhika nahi, hArdika che ! eNe sApane pakaDyo. moDhA pAse AMgaLI rAkhI moTuM kholavA jAya tyAM sApe DaMkha mAryo. DaMkhanI vedanAne kAraNe sApa hAthamAMthI chUTI gayo. ziSya pharIthI sApane pakaDavA jAya che. haju dAMta kyAM gaNAyA che ! gurudeva e vakhate kahe che : "javA de ene !' ne ziSya sApane javA de che. ene na sApa joDe saMbaMdha che, na enA dAMta sAthe... ene saMbaMdha che gurunI AjJA sAthe... zA mATe gurudeve sApane pakaDavAnuM kahyuM, zA mATe ene javA devAnuM kahyuM; koI vicAra ene Avato nathI. ApaNane vicAra Ave ke gurudeve zA mATe dAMta gaNavAnuM kaheluM. ziSyane eka evo roga hato; jenA auSadharUpe sApanuM jhera asarakAraka hatuM. ziSya sApane pakaDyo. sApe DaMkha mAryo. gurue tuma ANA zira dhArI, gurudeva ! # 107 10e & mola tamArI hatheLImAM

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joyuM ke joIe eTalI mAtrAmAM jhera AvI gayuM hatuM enA zarIramAM. have gurue kahyuM : sApane javA de ! .. majhAnI vAta e che ke ahIM pahelAM che hRdayathI svIkAra. pachInA caraNe buddhi AvI zake ke kaI rIte sadgurunI AjJAne amalamAM mUkavI. ApaNe cUka ahIM ja karatA hoIe chIe. pahelAM buddhi AvI jAya che ke sadgurudevanI A AjJA mArI tatkAlIna sAdhanA joDe saMbaddha che kharI ? are, bhAI ! tAre A vicAravAnuM nathI. tAre to sadgurunI AjJAno hRdayathI svIkAra karavAno che. sadgurue kevI AjJA kyAre ApavI joIe e sadguruno viSaya che. yAda Ave pUjyapAda zrutasthavira jaMbUvijayajI mahArAja sAheba. teo darzanazAstramAM atyaMta nipuNa hatA. gurumahArAja bhuvanavijayajI mahArAje kahyuM : jaMbU ! darzanazAstranI nipuNatA tane khyAti ApI zake. anubhUtinI duniyAmAM UMDe UtaravA mATe prabhunA pyArA zabdonuM - Agama granthonuM - avagAhana jarUrI che. pUjyazrIjIe gurudevanI e AjJA svIkArI. ane Agama granthonA UMDA avagAhanamAM temaNe ghaNo samaya Apyo. teozrIjI mATe A hatI 'tavyayaNasevaNA...' tavyayaNasevaNA - guruvacanasevanA / pAlanAnI eka majhAnI vAta e che ke ahIM dviguNa AnaMda sAdhakane maLe che. je yoganI 108 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM pAlanA thAya teno AnaMda to hoya ja, emAM guruvacanapAlanAno AnaMda umerAya... e sAdhanA karatAM kSaNe kSaNe hRdaya AnaMdita bane : gurudeve mane A sAdhanA karavAnuM kahyuM ane temanI kRpAthI ja A sAdhanA thaI rahI che. gurukRpAno A prabhAva pUjyapAda jaMbUvijayajI mahArAje anubhavyo. Agama granthonA saMpAdananuM kArya temaNe saMbhALyuM. darzanazAstromAM teo atyaMta nipuNa hatA. paraMtu A kArya alaga hatuM. tajJone paNa lAgatuM hatuM ke Agama-saMpAdananA kAryane teo ucita nyAya nahi ApI zake. tajJoe gurukRpAnI vAtane dhyAnamAM nahi lIdhelI ne ! pUjya jaMbUvijayajI mahArAja sAhebe pahelAM ja AcArAMga sUtranuM saMpAdana hAthamAM lIdhuM. emano e grantha prakAzita thatAM tajjJo paNa emanA saMpAdana para ovArI gayA. trIjuM caraNa che AjJAdharmanuM avirAdhana. hRdayathI AjJAne svIkAryA pachI gurudeve Apela AjJAne ucita vidhipUrvaka pALavAno saMkalpa, te che AjJAnuM avirAdhana. AjJAno hRdayathI svIkAra karyA pachI sAdhaka vicAre che ke A AjJAdharmanuM samyak pAlana kaI rIte thaI zake ? pahelAM ja kahyuM hatuM ke sAdhaka pAse eTalI ja buddhi hovI apekSita che ke gurudevanI AjJAne samajI zake e ane samyak rIte tenuM pAlana karI zake. tuma ANA zira dhArI, gurudeva ! 109

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paraMparAmAM eka kathA Ave che. zeThe nokarane kahyuM : 'saindhavamAnaya.' saindhavane lAva. sainyava eTale sindha dezamAM pAkatuM mIThuM. jene siMdhAlUNa ApaNe kahIe chIe. bIjo artha thAya saindhava eTale sindha dezamAM janmela ghoDo. zeTha jamavA beThela haze ane kaheze : saindhava lAva ! nokara mIThuM lAvaze. zeTha dukAne beThA haze ane kaheze : saidhava lAva ! nokarI ghoDo laI Avaze. | ziSya A ja rIte, sadgurunA uddezane jANI leze. e ja sandarbhamAM paramapAvana uttarAdhyayana sUtra kahe che : "ziyArasaMpanna, se vinItta purva...' gurunI nAnakaDI ceSTAne ke gurunA manobhAvone (gurunA mukhane joIne) je jANI le che, te vinIta ziSya che. ziSya najIka Avela che ekadama. gurunAM caraNomAM besela che. ane guru pharIthI ene saMbodhita kare che : "ramyaghoSa !' ziSya eka kSaNa vicAramAM paDI gayo. dekhItI rIte, dUrastha vyaktine enA nAmathI saMbodhI najIka bolAvAya ane najIka Ave tyAre AjJA apAya. ahIM gurudeva najIka Avela ziSyane pharI saMbodhI rahyA che. be miniTa ziSya beTho. ane gurudeve pharIthI kahyuM : "ramyaghoSa !" ramyaghoSa pAmI gayo ke gurudeva zuM kahevA mAgatA hatA. enA nAma dvArA ene pote je sAdhanA Apela che, tyAM sudhI e pahoMcyo ke nahi e gurudeva jANavA mAgatA hatA. ramyaghoSa nAma gurue eTalA mATe Apela ke e bahArI kolAhalane choDIne potAnI bhItara cAlI rahela manohara nAdane sAMbhaLI zake. Aje guru pUchatA hatA ke tuM ramyaghoSa ja che ne ? kolAhalamAM aTavAyela vyaktitva to tuM nathI ne ? cothuM caraNa : AjJAdharmanuM aucityapUrvakanuM pAlana. AjJApAlananI e kSaNo... AjJApAlana. sadgurudevanI eka nAnakaDI AjJA... ekAda ghaDo pANI lAvavAnI... ziSyanuM astitva nAcI rahyuM che. sagurudevanI AjJAnI pAchaLa temano je bhAva che, ziSyanI karmanirjarAno, tene ziSya anubhave che ane AnaMdathI e nAcI rahe che. eka gurue thoDe dUra beThelA ziSyane bolAvyo : 'ramyaghoSa !" ziSya ramyaghoSa gurudevanI pAse Avyo. gurudevane vandanA kare che ane Icche che ke gurudeva koIka AjJA potAne Ape. paramAIta kumArapALa mahArAjA "AtmanindA dvAtrizikA'mAM kahe che : 'aa kAzIraLatatattva:'... prabhu ! tArI AjJAnA pAlananA AnaMdamAM jhUmIne huM kyAre Aptatattva banIza ? tattvone mAtra jANavA te jJAtatattvatA. ane AjJApAlananI bhUmikA para emane pAmavA te AptatattvatA. 110 #ka mola tamArI hatheLImAM tuma ANA zira dhArI, gurudeva ! cheka 111

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AdhArasUtra IryAsamiti AdinA pAlananI prabhunI AjJA mAtra jANavAnA stara para hoya to e jJAtatattvatA. paNa e AjJApAlana pachInI je dazA haze bhItarI, tene AptatattvatA kahevAze. eka vAcanAmAM meM IryAnA pAlana dvArA thatA lAbhonI vAta karelI. dazeka divasa pachI eka sAdhaka maLyA. emaNe kahyuM : sAheba, A to adbhuta anubhava hato. roja vIsa-pacIsa miniTa IpUrvakanuM cAlavAnuM thayuM, savAre gharethI upAzraya sudhI; paNa je anubhava thayo che... vicAro sAva kharI paDyA hoya tevuM anubhavyuM... A AptatattvatA. AjJApAlananA divya AnaMdane anubhavavAnI A kSaNo. sa evamabhipavvaie samANe suvihibhAvao kiriyAphaleNa jujjai / visuddhacaraNe mahAsatte / - paMcasUtra, caturtha sUtra abhipravrajita thayelo sAdhaka suvidhibhAva vaDe (grahaNazikSA ane AsevanazikSA vaDe) kriyAnA phaLane (uttarottara saMyamanA kaMDakasthAnanI vRddhi rU5 phaLane) pAme che. vizuddha cAritravAna ane sattvayukta hovAthI prastuta sAdhakanI kriyA samyaka kriyA che. ane tethI e kriyA vaDe phaLanuM anusaMdhAna thAya che. AjJAnI tIvra jhaMkhanA, hRdayathI AjJAdharmano svIkAra, AjJAne samyapha rIte pALI zakAya e mATenuM cintana ane samyapha AjJApAlana. A cAra caraNo keTalAM to majhAnAM che ! gurudevanI (kalyANamitranI) AjJA hRdaya, mana ane kAyAno kabajo laI le. tame have tamArA nahi, tamArA vaibhAvika svarUpanA nahi, tame cho gurudevanA AjJAMkita ziSya. 112 : mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM

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6"prabhunI mahere te rasa cAkhyo, antaraMga sukha pAmyo...!" 'besavA de ne lagIra tArI kane kevaLa kSaNabhara mane, ... ...nIrakhyA viNa tuja mukha sAme, hRdaya muja virAma na pAme, .... Aje kevaLa ekAMte besIne, tava nayanonA nIDamAM pesIne, jIvana samarpaNa karuM gAna gAvuM nIrava thaI ekatAna..." A che paramAtmAnuM parama sammohana. paNa A paramanI prItinA mULamAM zuM che ? mULamAM che "e"nI ApaNA paranI cAhata. "e"nI e cAhata, 'e'nI kRpAdhArA ApaNane ahIM sudhI - sAdhanAnI A bhUmikA sudhI laI AvI... kevo che "e"no ApaNA parano prema ? zrI ravIndranAtha TAgora "gItAMjali'mAM e premanI mArmika abhivyakti Ape che : saMsAra mahIM vase che aneka evA, niraMtara kare mane prema tevA paNa teo mujane rAkhe pakaDI, kiThina baMdhanamAM jakaDI... abhivrajyA ane pravrajyA. abhivrajyA. paramAtmAnuM parama sammohana. pravrajyA. paramAtmA sivAyanAM bIjAM badhAMthI chUTakAro. paramAtmAnA parama sammohana viSe vAta karatAM kavivara zrI ravIndranAtha TAgora gItAMjalinA eka gItamAM kahe che : 114 4 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM prabhunI mahere te rasa cAkhyo. # 115

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sauthI rUDI to tArI prIti, sauthI anokhI tArI rIti... bAMdhe nahi, tuM rahe chupAI mukta mane rAkhI, o sAMI... bIjA sahu bhUluM e bhayathI mane ekalo na rahevA de, dina para dina vahI jAya chatAM tuM to nava dekhA de... tujane sAda karuM ke nA karuM, mane game te karato rahuM... rahI che tAkI tArI prIti, bhaNI mArI prati prabhu ! saMsArIo prema to kare che, paNa e premamAM sAmAne svArthIya rItimAM pakaDavAnI vAta hoya che. AnaMdaghanIya bhASAmAM kahuM to sopAdhika prema. devacandrIya layamAM kahuM to saviSa prIti che e. sauthI zreSTha che prema tAro prabhu ! tuM koIne bAMdhato nathI. tArA premamAM che muktino AnaMda. anyonI prItimAM che bandhana. tArI prItimAM che muktino ahesAsa. ane mATe ja to huM tArI prItimAM pAgala banuM chuM ne ! 116 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM bIjI eka vizeSatA tArA premanI... bIjA loko mane ekalo nathI rahevA detA; emane bhaya che ke huM emanAthI vikhUTo paDIza ane emane bhUlI jaIza... jyAre tuM to mane darzana paNa Apato nathI. eka jhalaka dekhADane, prabhu ! tArI... teM mane kevo cAhyo che, prabhu ! tane pukAruM ke na pukAruM; tuM mane cAhyA ja kare che... tArI cAhata che anokhI, prabhu ! tArI karuNA kevI adbhuta che, prabhu ! e karuNAnI vAta ravIndranAtha TAgoranA zabdomAM : mArI kAmanAno nahi pAra, vaMcita karI rahyo, karI muja para kRpA kaThora kRpALa... vaNamAgye dIdhAM je dAna, AkAza Aloka tanu mana prANa, tene yogya kare tuM mujane dIdha je dAna apAra, ati IcchAnA saMkaTamAMthI rAkhI mujane bahAra... ko dina bhUluM, ko dina cAluM tava patha lakSya dharIne, tuM niSThura evo ke jAto dagathI sarI sarIne... jANuM nAtha, kRpA e tArI, levA mATe mUke che kADhI, prabhunI mahere te rasa cAkhyo... 117

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pUrNa karI leze A jIvana, milana taNI haju vAra, aradhI IcchAnA saMkaTathI rAkhI mujane bahAra. prabhu ! mArI kAmanAono pAra nathI. ane tArI karuNA paNa asIma ja che ne ! mArI azubha kAmanAothI mane vaMcita rAkhIne, dUra rAkhIne te kevI majhAnI nigraha kRpA karI che muja para ! kyAreka ahaMkArano phuggo phulAyo hoya ane tyAre tArI nigraha kRpA TAMkaNI rUpe dezya bane... ane ahaMkArano phuggo phU...sa... karatoka ne vilAI jAya. tuM kevI to kSaNa-kSaNanI khabara rAkhe che ! evI kSaNomAM loganAhANaM' padanI 'lalitavistarA' vRtti vAMcatAM ke 'yogakSema vahAmyaham" (bhagavadgItA) jevuM sUtra vAMcatAM AMkhomAM jhaLajhaLiyAM AvI jAya che. ane sahasA yAda Ave vItarAga stotra : 'nAdUtasahAyattvam...' bhakta pukAre nahi, chatAM ene pUrI sahAya pUrI pADanAra tame cho... prabhu ! naraka ane nigodamAM huM hato tyAre tamane pukAravAnI sUdha paNa mArI pAse kyAM hatI ? ema chatAM tame mane UMcakIne ahIM sudhI laI AvyA...! "e upakAra tamAro kadIya na vIsare..." ane sAme, mAre mATe jarUrI keTaluM badhuM teM vaNamAgye ApI dIdhuM che ! AkAza, prakAza, zarIra, mana, prANa... yAdI lAMbI che. binajarUrI kAmanAonA vaLagaNathI mane dUra rAkhIne tuM tArA A dAnane svIkAravA mATe mane yogya banAve che. tArA batAvelA patha para cAluM chuM. kyAreka barobara calAya che. kyAreka patharcyuta paNa banAya che. tuM AMkhothI ojhala banI jAya che tyAre ja to ! nAtha ! huM jANuM chuM ke A paNa tArI kRpA che. tuM thappaDa mArIne, nigraha kRpA karIne paNa mane tArA mArga para calAve che. anAhUtasahAyattvam... manvandhavAndharva: | 'asaMbaMdha-bAndhava...' saMbaMdha na hovA chatAM mArA parama sakhA. mArA parama upakArI. joke, asaMbaMdha-bAMdhava prabhu zI rIte ? mArI bAjuthI huM prabhu joDe saMbaddha nahoto. oLakhato ja nahoto prabhune, to saMbaMdhanI to vAta ja kyAM rahe ? paNa prabhue to mane svIkArelo ja hato ne ! prabhue potAnA bALa tarIke mane svIkAryo ja hato... hA, dviSTha (bemAM rahelo hoya te saMbaMdha, AvI saMbaMdhanI vyAkhyA svIkArAya to kahI zakAya : 'tvam sattvazvavIjava:'... prabhu ! tArI anugraha kRpA to khUba mANI che. nigraha kRpA paNa mANI che. ane e mANI tyAre khyAla Avyo ke e paNa kevI mIThI che ! tamAro paNa... tArI hatI ke, mArA nAtha ! tAro prasAda mIThaDo ja hoya ne ! 118 : mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM prabhunI mahere te rasa cAkhyo... cheka 119

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mAgyA vagara sahAya ApanAra prabhu. saMbaMdha vinAnA bAndhava prabhu. ane - kAraNa vinA vAtsalyanI jhaDI varasAvanAra prabhu. 'tvamaravatsala'. joke, ahIM paNa niSkAraNatA mane mArA tarapha dekhAya che. 'e'nI tarapha to sakAraNatA ja che. mane jarUra lAge ke mArA jevA 52 e zI rIte ATaluM badhuM vahAla varasAve ? bhaktinI sAme ja kRpAdhArAnuM vahevuM hoya che... to, mArA taraphathI bhakti kyAM hatI ja ? to pachI, e zI rIte ATaluM badhuM varasyo ? paNa 'e'nI bAju to, sakAraNatA hatI. eNe mane tAravAnuM nakkI karI dIdhuM hatuM, ethI e vAtsalya varasAvIne ja mane Ucake ne ! abhivrajayA. paramAtmAnuM parama sammohana. paNa kharekhara to, eNe ja mane cAhyo; ene huM cAhI zakuM e bhUmikA para paNa eNe ja mane mUkyo... atyAre huM paramane cAhuM chuM, enuM kAraNa che mAtra 'e'no mArA taraphano prema... 120 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM eNe mane behada cAhyo che. huM ene keTalo cAhI zakyo chuM, e 'e' ja jANe. hA, e antaryAmI che ne ! abhiyA. paramAtmAnuM parama sammohana. tame eka kSaNa 'e'nA vinA rahI na zako. yAda Ave pUjya AnaMdaghana mahArAja : 'AnaMdaghana bina prANa na rahe china, koTi jatana karI lIje...' tame karoDo yatna karo; paNa paramacetanA vinA tame eka kSaNa na rahI zako. Akhare, e ja to ApaNuM jIvana che ne ! 'e' na hoya to ApaNI pAse zuM rahe ? veNIzaMkara purohita prabhune kahe che : 'tamArA vinAnA ame amArA vinAnA...' .. AvI virahAvasthA kyAre pragaTe che ? vihAvasthAnI pUrve milanano AnaMda jarUrI che. alapajhalapa prabhunA milanano AnaMda anubhavyo; zI enI mIThAza...! e mIThAza anubhavyA pachI 'e'nA vinA rahevuM zuM pAlave ? pUjya mAnavijaya mahArAja e milananI... e kSaNonI kephiyata rajU karatAM kahe che : 'kahIe aNacAkhyo paNa anubhava rasano TANo maLiyo...' agaNita janmomAM kyAreya cAkhavA na prabhunI mahere te rasa cAkhyo... 121

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maLyo hoya evo e rasa... e rasAsvAdanI kSaNo... 'e'nI ApaNA mATenI cAhatanI kSaNo... mAnavijayajI mahArAja AgaLa kahe che : 'prabhunI mahere te rasa cAkhyo, aMtaraMga sukha pAmyo; mAnavijaya vAcaka Ima jaMpe, huo muja mana kAmyo...' prabhu ! tArI kRpAthI e divya rasa cAkhavA maLyo ane je antaraMga sukha maLyuM che... adbhuta... manamAM eka kAmanA hatI, yogIonI Antara dazA jotAM, ke mane AvuM bhItarI sukha kyAre maLaze ? prabhu ! tAro bahu ja RNI chuM ke teM e sukha mane ApyuM. 'antaraMga sukha pAmyo...' antaraMga sukha... sukhane maLeluM A sarasa vizeSaNa : antaraMga. enuM virodhI vizeSaNa thaze bahiraMga. dunyavI padArthonI prApti tamane je AbhAsI tRpti Ape che, te che bahiraMga sukha... paramAtmAnA milananI kSaNomAM je tRpti thAya che, te che antaraMga sukha. abhivrajyA. paramanuM sammohana ane paramanuM milana. paramAtma milana. paramAtma sAkSAtkAra. paramAtmAmAM rahela AnaMda, vItarAgadazA, kSamA Adi guNonuM ke emanI nirmala svarUpa dazAnuM sAdhakanA hRdayamAM thatuM vedana, anubhavana e che paramAtmasAkSAtkAra. 122 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM A sAkSAtkAranI prakriyA varNavatAM mahopAdhyAya zrIyazovijaya mahArAje zrIpALa rAsamAM kahyuM : arihaMta pada dhyAto thako, danvaha guNa pajjAya re; bheda cheda karI AtamA, arihaMtarUpI thAya re... arihaMta padanuM dhyAna karanAra sAdhaka potAnI cetanAne arhanmayI banAvI de che. dhyAna eTale anubhUti. prabhunA nirmala svarUpanuM anubhavana thAya ke prabhunA AnaMda, vItarAgadazA Adi guNonuM anubhavana thAya tyAre sAdhakanI cetanA arhanmayI bane. prakriyAmAM thoDAka UMDA UtarIe. prabhu mahAvIra devanuM darzana bhakta kare tyAre prabhunA sAdhanAkALanI ghaTanA yAda Ave : prabhunA kAnamAM anADI manuSya khIlA ThokI rahela che ane e vakhate prabhunI AMkhomAMthI azrubuMda vahe che. 'A AtmA to mAro upakArI che. mArA karmone kheravavAmAM e sahAyaka che. atyAre durbhAvagrasta banI e zuM durgatimAM jaze ?' A bhInAza ApaNane sparzI jAya. prabhunI pAse mAMgavAnuM mana thAya ke prabhu ! tArI pAse to kSamAbhAvano samudra che. emAMthI khoboka jaLa tuM maneya Apa ne ! prabhunI mahere te rasa cAkhyo... 123

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A prArthanA svIkArAya che. sAdhakanA antastarathI kSamAbhAvanuM jharaNuM pravAhita thAya che. kSamAbhAvanI A anubhUti te sAkSAtkAra. abhivrajayA. paramanI duniyA tarapha bharAyela be Daga. 'e'nA bhaNI tame cAlyA... ane je AnaMdanI anubhUti thAya... paranI duniyAne alavidA thaI rahe, pravrajyA. 'sva'nA AnaMdanI, AchIsI anubhUti ane paranuM chUTI javuM. 'para'ne choDavuM nathI paDatuM. e chUTI jAya che. eka sadgRhastha nAnakaDA gAmamAM nAnA gharamAM rahe. dIkaro zaheramAM gayo. sAro dhaMdho enA hAthamAM AvI gayo. pitA zaheramAM Ave tema nahotA. eTale gAmamAM ja potAnA gharanI najIkamAM eka ploTa laI temAM baMgalo banAvavAnuM vicAryuM. ArkiTekTa ane konTrAkTaroe kAma zarU karyuM. baMgalo vizALa, bhavya thaI rahyo che. pelA sagRhastha kArIgarone pUche : A baMgalo koNa karAve che ? emaNe kahyuM : ame to konTrAkTaranA mANaso chIe. e amane pagAra cUkave che. baMgalo kono e amane khabara nathI. dIkaro pitAne 'saraprAIjha' ApavA mAgato hato. je divase baMgalo pUro thaI gayo ane vAstu hatuM, te divase te Avyo ane kahyuM : pitAjI, A ApaNo baMgalo che. tamAre have ahIM rahevAnuM che. 124 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM sagRhasthane jUnuM ghara choDatAM keTalo samaya lAge ? chUTI ja jAyane tarata ! AvuM ja svanI duniyAmAM paNa che. 'sva'nI AchIsI anubhUti... e divya AnaMdano anubhava... para chUTI jAya. paramAtmAnuM parama sammohana te abhijyA. sAdhakanA layamAM A rIte kahevAze A vAta : svanuM parama sammohana ('sva'nI anubhUti pachInuM) te abhivrajyA. paramAtmA sivAyanA bIjA badhAnuM pravrajyA. - paranuM; chUTI javuM te sAdhaka che abhipravrujita. abhivrajyA vattA pravrajyA eTale abhipravrajyA. AvI sAdhanAthI yukta sAdhaka che abhipravrujita. eka majhAnuM samIkaraNa ahIM AvyuM che : abhipravrujitatA vattA suvidhibhAva barobara saMyamayogonI vRddhi. suvidhibhAva eTale grahaNa zikSA ane Asevana zikSA. saMyamijIvananA prAraMbhamAM paramapAvana 'dazavaikAlika' sUtranA adhyayana dvArA sAdhaka saMyamijIvana viSe saiddhAntika (thyorIkala) jJAna meLave che prabhunI mahere te rasa cAkhyo...... 125

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grahaNazikSAmAM sUtra maLyuM ke badhA AtmAone mitra tarIke ja jovAnA che. upaniSadUnuM sUtra yAda Ave : mitrasya vakSasI paDyuM ! mitranI AMkhathI tuM badhAne jo ! sAdhujIvanamAM AcArasaMhitA paNa e rIte cAlI ke A grahaNazikSA AsevanazikSAmAM palaTAi gai. ane sadgurucaraNomAM rahevAthI, AjubAjunA saMyamIonA jIvanane avalokavAthI e saiddhAttika jJAna (grahaNa zikSA) prAyogika (prekTikala) jJAna (Asevana zikSA)mAM pheravAya che. jemake, paramapAvana dazavaikAlika sUtranA cothA adhyayanamAM eka sUtra AvyuM : savvapUthappamUjhasa, samuM pUruM pAso; ffmAsavasa taMtasa, parva janma ne vaMdharU || sAdhaka sarvabhUtAtmA, sarva prANIono mitra hoya che. kai rIte sarva prANIonA mitra thavAya ? bahu ja majhAnI vAta AvI : samyapha rIte prANIone jovAthI. matalaba e thayo ke atyAra sudhI sAdhake prANIone samyaka rIte joyA nathI. zuM thayeluM ? potAnI jAtane sAdhaka kendramAM mAnIne jIvato hato. ane ethI potAne anukULa AtmAo ene sArA lAgatA hatA; potAnA ahaMkArane kheravanArA manuSyo tene sArA nahotA lAgatA. paNa, jo kendra badalAi jAya to...? kendramAM Ave prabhunI AjJA... parighamAM hoya huM. vizuddha cAritravAna AtmA prabhunAM vacanone yathArtha rIte samajavAnI kozIza kare che ane te sAttvika saMyamI hovAthI te vacanone anurUpa pravRtti karI saMyamayogomAM vRddhine pAme che. abhivrajyAthI prAraMbhAyela majhAnI gaMgotrI saMyamijIvananA yogonI vizuddhirUpa gaMgAnA suvistIrNa pravAhamAM pheravAya che... Ama paNa, zramaNajIvanamAM kendramAM to prabhu ! prabhunI AjJA ja hoya ne ! 126 : mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM prabhunI mahere te rasa cAkhyo... cheka 127

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AdhArasUtra Ayao gurubahumANo avaMjhakAraNatteNa / ao paramaguru saMjogo / tao siddhI asaMsayaM / - paMcasUtra, caturtha sUtra gurubahumAna te ja mokSa che; mokSanuM avasthakAraNa hovAthI. gurubahumAnathI paramaguruno saMyoga thAya che. ane tethI niyamA siddhi maLe che. 7 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM ekalavya guru droNa pAse jAya che ane kahe che : "dhanurvidyA Adi vidyAonI zikSA mane Apo !' guru droNe tene bhaNAvavAnI nA pADI. ekalavya gurunI e 'nA'no paNa premapUrvaka svIkAra kare che. ekalavyanI ziSya tarIkenI A majhAnI sajjatA. e vicAre che ke gurue zuM karavuM joie, e e jANe; mAre to sadgurunAM vacanano svIkAra karavo ja joie. 128 jeka mola tamArI hatheLImAM mokSa tamArI hatheLI mAM" cheka 129

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ghaNIvAra huM eka vAta kaheto houM chuM : guru pAse gayA pachI, gurue potAne zuM kahevuM joie ke gurue zuM karavuM joie AvuM je nakkI kare tene huM paramagurunI padavI ApuM. kAraNa ke gurue zuM karavuM joie e to gurunA guru ja nakkI karI zake ne ! ekalavya potAnI jhUMpaDIe jAya. mATInI guru droNanI mUrti banAve ane roja te para puSpo caDhAvI bhAvathI roja kahe : gurudeva ! mane vidyA zIkhavo... ekalavya dhanurvidyAmAM khUba AgaLa vadhyo. .. prazna thAya ke guru droNe nA kema pADI ? ApaNI buddhie Apelo pratyuttara Avo hoya : arjuna Adi rAjakumArone bhaNAvavAmAM gurune khyAti maLe. bhIlanA A dIkarAne bhaNAvavAthI gurune zuM maLe ? mATe gurue nA pADI. hakIkata judI hatI... guru droNa eka siddhAMta ApaNane samajAvavA mAgatA hatA ke tamArI bhItara guru pratyenuM bahumAna hoya e ja moTI ghaTanA che. tame guruthI zArIrika rIte najadIka ho te jarUrI nathI, tame bhAvAtmaka rUpe sadguruthI najadIka ho te jarUrI che. eTale ja, cinmaya (jIvaMta) guru droNa pAsethI arjuna je na meLavI zakyo, te mRDmaya (mATInA) droNa pAsethI ekalavya meLavI zakyo. ekavAra jaMgalamAM pharavA gayela arjune eka nizAna vIMdhAyeluM joyuM ane e camakyo : 'mArA sivAya AvuM nizAna amArAmAMthI 130 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM koi vIMdhI zake tema nathI. ane meM A nizAna vIMdhyuM nathI, to koNe vIMdhyuM ?' eNe gurune pUchyuM. guru droNe kahyuM : 'e ekalavye vIMdhyuM che.' matalaba ke gurune A khyAla hato ja. .. pachInI ghaTanA ethIya vadhu romAMcaka che. guru droNa ekavAra ekalavyanI jhUMpaDIe Ave che. ekalavya to gurune joine ahobhAvathI bhIno, bhIno banI jAya che. gurune Asana para birAjamAna kare che. AMkhomAMthI ahobhAva jharI rahyo che. 'gurudeve mArI jhUMpaDIne pAvana karI !' 'gurudeva ! ApanAM caraNomAM zuM samarpI zakuM huM ? badhuM ja ApanuM che.' ane guru droNe ekalavyano hAthano e aMgUTho mAgyo, je ApavAthI dhanurdhara tarIke enuM mRtyu ja thai jAya. bhIlano dIkaro hato ekalavya. cappu pAse ja hatuM. tarata ja aMgUTho kApIne gurunAM caraNomAM mUkyo. .. A ghaTanAne paNa buddhi vaDe nihALavAmAM Ave to buddhie Apela pratyuttara A ja hoya : guru arjunane ajoDa dhanurdhara banAvavA mAgatA hatA, ane eTale emaNe ekalavyano aMgUTho mAgI lIdho... 'mokSa tamArI hatheLI mAM 131

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hakIkata judI che. ekalavya A ghaTanA pachI paNa ajoDa dhanurdhara rahyo che. guru A ghaTanA dvArA e prasthApita karavA mAgatA hatA ke sAdhana yogya hoya ke na hoya, jo sAdhaka pAse gurubahumAna che, to te potAnI vidyAmAM AgaLa vadhI zake che. .. ekalavyanuM A gurubahumAna Azcarya upajAve tevuM che. janmAntarIya dhArAnI A sAdhanA hoi zake. ema thAya ke prAraMbhanI dRSTiomAM rahela vyaktitva pAse ATaluM gurubahumAna ! e mAnadaMDane AgaLa vadhArIe to ApaNI jAtane pUchavAnuM mana thAya ke pAMcamI ke chaThThI daSTimAM kevuM gurubahumAna hoya ? .. guru-bahumAna mATenI sAdhanA kai ? astitvanA stara parathI 'huM'ne bhUMsavAnI. yAda Ave bhaktimatI mIrAM. mIrAMne ko'ke pUcheluM H teM prabhune zI rIte meLavyAM ? mIrAM kahe che : 'aMsuana sIMca sIMca premabeli boI...' AMsunA thaDe ghaDA ThAlavIne prabhune meLavyAM che. praznakartAe AgaLa pUchyuM : keTalA ghaDA AMsu ThAlavIe to prabhu maLe ? mIrAM kahe che : tamAruM huM jeTalA ghaDA AMsuthI bhUMsAya, eTalA ja AMsunI jarUriyAta che. ethI eka paNa buMda vadhu nahi. 132 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM lAge ke mIrAMe astitvanA stare rahela 'huM'ne bhUMsIne tyAM prabhune birAjamAna karyA hatAM. astitvanA stare prabhune lAvavA mATe eNe prabhune ja prArthanA karelI : 'sadA sevA karatI hUM, sumirana dhyAna meM citta dharatI huM; bhakti mAraga dAsI ko dikhalAo, mIrAM ko prabhu ! sAMcI dAsI banAo !' kaDInA pUrvArdhamAM mIrAMe potAnI te samayanI sAdhanAnI vAta karI che. ane uttarArdhamAM te sAdhanAne AgaLa vadhAravA mATe prArthanA karI che. 'sadA sevA karatI hUM...' prabhu ! mAruM zarIra tArI AjJAnA pAlanamAM vyAvRta che. adbhuta che AnaMda e AjJApAlanano. mIrAM yoganI potAnI dRSTi para sthira rahI te dRSTimAM darzAvAyela AcaraNone AtmasAt karI rahI che. AjJApAlanano AnaMda. yAda Ave zrAvaka zreSTha RSabhadAsajI. sAdhanAnA AnaMdane varNavatAM temaNe kaheluM : eka khamAsamaNa detAM eTalo to AnaMda Ave che ke hRdayanuM nAjuka taMtra ene sahana karI zakaze ke kema enI vimAsaNa thAya. 'moTA tamArI hatheLI mAM 133

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AjJApAlanane kAraNe sAdhanAnA UMDANane lIdhe zarIramAM vahetI UrjA (oNrA) kevI pavitra banI rahe che enI eka ghaTanA yAda Ave che. zazikAntabhAi mahetA, candrakAntabhAi, prANalAlabhAi dozI Adi sAthe himmatabhAi badrInI yAtrAe gayelA. AvI ja khumArI badrImAM haMmeza mATe rahetA TATabAbAmAM teoe nihALelI. mAtra kaMtAnanuM uttarIya paheratA e saMtane loko TATa (katAna) bAbA tarIke saMbodhatA. badrImAM bahu ThaMDI paDe tyAre koI ja manuSya lagabhaga na hoya. paNa TATabAbA to tyAM ja hoya. emane pUchavAmAM AvyuM : koI na hoya tyAre bhikSAno prabaMdha zI rIte thAya ? rastAmAM, mArgathI thoDe dUra, eka saMta eka guphAmAM rahe che e khyAla Avyo. badhA e guphA tarapha cAlyA. bIjA badhA guphAmAM pahoMcI gayA. saMtanI joDe carcAmAM gUMthAyA. zrI himmatabhAi dhIre cAlatA. teo pAchaLathI guphAmAM pravezyA. jevA teo pravezyA ke saMta UbhA thai gayA. sAme AvyA. ane kahyuM : Apa kyAM yahAM padhAre ? Apa to mujhase bhI baDe saMta hai ! eka miniTa, ardhI miniTa, guphAmAM himmatabhAinI UrjA patharAi, vistarI ane saMta e UrjAnI baLavattA pAmI gayA. hasatAM hasatAM emaNe pratyuttara vALelo : 'kyA tuma bhikSA denevAle hote ho ? vaha to uparavAlA hI hotA hai...' kevI A khumArI ! je sAdhanA dvArA AvI pavitratA ane khumArI maLe che, te sAdhanAno abhyAsa mIrAM satata karI rahyAM che. 'sadA sevA karatI hUM.' pachI kahe che : 'sumirana dhyAna meM citta dharatI huM... zarIra AjJApAlanamAM... mana che smaraNa ane dhyAnamAM. sAdhanAnuM UMDANa kevI to pavitratA Ape che ! mAtra pavitratA ja nahi, khumArI paNa arpe che sAdhanAnuM UMDANa. zrI himmatabhAi Adine te ja pravAsamAM thayelI eka anubhUti. mArgathI thoDe dUra, guphAmAM saMta che ema sAMbhaLI teo badhA tyAM gayA. bahu ja nAnakaDI guphA hatI. saheje ja puchAI gayuM : "Apa ItanI saMkarI guhA meM kyAM ?" saMte kahyuM : "meM aura mere bhagavAna do to yahAM Thahara sakate hai, phira tIsare kA kAma bhI kyA hai ?" smaraNa cAlyA karatuM hoya che prabhunuM. prabhunA upakAronuM. smaraNa gADha bane che ane dhyAnadazAmAM sarI javAya che. dhyAnadezA pAMkhI bane che ane smaraNa cAlu thaI jAya che. smaraNa ane dhyAnanuM eka dvandra ahIM ApyuM. AvuM ja kaMndra zAstromAM apAyuM che bhAvanA ane dhyAnanuM. 134 4 mola tamArI hatheLImAM mola tamArI hatheLI mAM" = 135

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anitya Adi koI paNa bhAvanAnuM bhAvana karatAM sAdhaka dhyAnamAM lIna bane... dhyAna pAMkhuM thatAM vaLI bhAvanAmAM e potAne paryavasita kare. ane bhAvanAthI bhAvita thaI pharI dhyAnadhArAmAM dhyAtA ArUDha bane. mIrAM kahe che : 'sumirana dhyAna meM citta dharatI hUM'... zarIra AjJApAlanamAM, mana smaraNa ane dhyAnamAM. ATalI bhUmikA mIrAM pAse che. have teNI prArthanA kare che : "bhakti mAraga dAsI ko dikhalAvo, mIrAM ko prabhu sAMcI dAsI banAvo...' prabhu ! mane bhakti mArga have batAvo ! tamArI sAcI dAsI mane banAvo ! A vAta astitvanA staranI bhaktinI che. zarIra ane mananA stara para sAdhanA AvI gaI. have joIe che astitvanA staranI sAdhanA. ahIM je dhyAnanI vAta thaI e sAmAnyastaranI nirvikalpatAnI pRSThabhU paranI dhyAnanI vAta thaI. jyAM vikalponA AMzika abhAvane kAraNe jhilAtI zAMtino anubhava thAya che. paNa jyAre astitvanA staranI sAdhanA jhilAze tyAre ApaNI bhItara vahetA AnaMdanA jharaNAno anubhava thaze. astitvanA staranI A sAdhanA zI rIte maLe ? be caraNomAM kArya ahIM thaze : (1) upayogane paramAMthI pAcho haTAvavo ane (2) sva bhaNI upayogane laI javo. prabhue kevI to saraLa sAdhanA ApI che ! amane lokone - sAdhuone prabhue ema nathI kahyuM ke tamAre roja AyaMbila ke ATalA upavAsa karavA paDaze. prabhue kahyuM ke tame yathAzakti tapa karo; paNa gocarI lo tyAre upayoga e khAdya padArthomAM na rAkho. svamAM rAkho. bhojana lenAra zarIra che. pANI pInAra paNa zarIra che. ane sUI janAra paNa zarIra che. tame cho mAtra draSTA. - bhojana zarIra laI rahyuM che. tame mAtra joI rahyA cho. e khAruM che ke mIThuM, eno khyAla tamane na hoya. evA sAdhako joyA che, jemane bhojana pachI puchAya ke zuM jamyA ? tyAre teo kaheze : khyAla nathI. thALImAM mukAyeluM, te khavAI gayuM. nokarane tame kahyuM : pANI lAva. have nokarI mATalI pAse pANI levA jaze, tame enI pAchaLa jazo ? nA. nokaranuM nAma nokara karaze, e ja rIte, zarIra bhojana karaze tyAre tame zuM karazo ? amArI vAta karuM to, amArI gocarI-yAtrA ahobhAvayAtrA banI rahe che. munibhagavaMto ane sAdhvIjI bhagavatIo vAparatI vakhate eka sUtranI anuprekSA karatA hoya che : aho jirNahiM asAvajajA, vittI sAhUNa desi; mukhasAhaNa heussa, sAhudehasa dhAraNA... 136 4 mola tamArI hatheLImAM mokSa tamArI hatheLI mAM" = 137

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prabhue kevI to majhAnI niravadya (nirdoSa) bhikSAvRtti amane ApI che ke mokSanA sAdhanarUpa sAdhudehanuM poSaNa thaI jAya ane bIjA koI jaMtunI virAdhanA na thAya... tame paNa koI majhAnI stavanAnI kaDI manamAM ciMtavI zako. ane e rIte upayogane emAM rAkhI zako. upayogane paramAMthI haTAvavo che... ApaNI pUrI sAdhanA enA mATe ja che... sarasa jhena-kathA yAda Ave. jotAna nAmano sAdhaka guru yAkusana pAse Avyo. guru pAse te pAMca varSa pahelAM paNa Avyo hato. guru tene oLakhatA hatA. jotA caraNomAM jhUkyo ane gurue pUchyuM : tuM koNa che ? (yAda rAkho, guru enuM nAma nathI pUchatA.) jotAne kahyuM : huM jotAna. gurue kahyuM : 'pAMca varSa pahelAM paNa tuM jotAna hato. ane Aje paNa tuM jotAna che ? tArA 'neImalesa eksapIriyansa'nuM zuM ? nAma sAthenuM vaLagaNa kema na chUTyuM tAruM ?' guru e kahevA mAgatA hatA ke nAma to samAje ApelI vyavasthAnI cIja che. e para che. enAthI te tArI jAtane alaga kema na karI ? yAda Ave 'amRtavela'nI sajhAyanI kaDI : deha mana vacana pudgala thakI, karmathI bhinna tuja rUpa re; akSaya akalaMka che jIvanuM, jJAna AnaMda svarUpa re... deha, mana, vacana, pudgalo ane karmapudgalothI tamArI jAta taddana aLagI che. joke, saiddhAMtikarUpe to A vAta jANelI hoya che. prAyogika rUpe have A dhArAmAM javuM che. zarIramAM tAva Avyo... e vakhate sAdhakanI bhASA kaI haze ? 'Ane tAva Avyo che...' mane nahi. huM to AnaMdaghana AtmA chuM. mahApuruSone roga zarIramAM Ave tyAre tenAthI keTalI to bhinnatA rahetI, enI meM joyelI eka ghaTanA kahuM. mArA dAdAgurudeva pUjyapAda bhadrasUridAdA. rAdhanapura (gujarAta)mAM pUjyazrIjInuM cAturmAsa. e cAturmAsamAM ja lIvaranuM kensara thayuM. kensara eDa-AuTa thatuM jatuM hatuM. te vakhatanI sImita auSadhi praNAlinA saMdarbhamAM pUjayazrInuM jIvana laMbAI zake evI koI saMbhAvanA dekhAtI nahotI. agnisaMskAra mATenuM sthaLa paNa nakkI thaI gayuM. te vakhate pAlanapuramAM DaoN. saiyada bahu sArA DaoNkTara gaNAtA. temanuM nidAna bahu sAruM gaNAtuM. abhiprAya mATe temane bolAvAyA. 138 : mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM mokSa tamArI hatheLI mAM' : 139

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zuM thayeluM ahIM ? | upayoga zarIramAM hato, tyAM sudhI vedanA hatI. upayoga jyAM prArthanAmAM gayo; prabhunA guNomAM gayo; have vedanA kyAM che ? temaNe pUjayazrIjIne joyA. riporTsa joyA. pachI kahyuM: 'mahArAjazrInA paTTaziSya kyAM che ? ApaNe bahAra besIne carcA karIe.' pUjyazrInuM vaya te samaye 84 varSanuM. temaNe kahyuM : "DaoNkTara ! bahAra javAnI jarUra nathI. je kahevuM hoya te ahIM kahI zakAze. tamAre ema kahevuM haze ke mahArAjazrI thoDAka divasa ke thoDAka kalAkanA mahemAna che. DaoNkTara, koI ja vAMdho nathI. ahIM pUrI taiyArI che." coryAsI varSanI vaye e raNako... joke, e pachI dAdA gurudevazrInuM jIvana ghaNuM laMbAyuM. 103 varSanI vaye teozrIno dehavilaya thayo. upayogane paramAMthI haTAvavo e paheluM caraNa che. bIjA caraNamAM upayoga svamAM sthira thaI jAya che. vimalA tAIne saMta tukaDojI mahArAja joDe nAnapaNathI satsaMga hato. ekavAra saMte vimalAjIne bolAvyAM. kahyuM : mArA zarIramAM kensare pariSada bharI che. vIkharAvAnuM nAma letI nathI. pachI hasatAM hasatAM kahe : 'jIvavuM kema te to meM tane zIkhavyuM che. have maravuM kema te zIkhavavA tane bolAvI che." upayogane zarIramAMthI haTAvI levAya to keTalI majhAnI sthiti udbhavI zake e vAta meM eka saMtanA jIvanamAM joyelI. e saMta padayAtrAmAM hatA. acAnaka eka tIkSNa kAMTo pagamAM bhoMkAyo. teo nIce besI gayA. ziSyo AvyA. temaNe kAMTo kADhavAnI zarUAta karI, paNa kAMTo eTalo UMDo gayelo ke saheja halatAM ja pIDA thaI rahe. bhajana karatAM karatAM dehavilaya thayo, saMtano. bhagavadgItAnA 'vAmAMfsa gIni vathA vihA...'no kevo A jIvaMta anuvAda ! jUnAM vastrone choDI navAM vastro koI pahere enI jema ja yogI mRtyu dvArA jIrNa thayelA zarIrane choDI navA zarIrane dhAre che. acAnaka saMte kahyuM : "UbhA raho ! mane prabhunI prArthanAmAM javA do ! mAruM mana pUrepUruM prArthanAmAM vahevA lAgaze tyAre tame kAMTo kADhI lejo.' evuM ja banyuM. guru prArthanAmAM DULyA. kAMTo kaDhAI gayo. lohIno phuvAro UDyo. pATo baMdhAI gayo. guru prabhumAM lIna hatA. thoDIvAra pachI temaNe AMkho kholI, joyuM ke kAMTo nIkaLI gayo che. kahyuM : cAlo ! zarIramAMthI 'huM'paNAno bodha zithila thatAM ghara AdimAMthI mArApaNAno bodha paNa zithila bane che. eka sAdhakane AMgaNe mahemAna AvyA. gharamAM sophA, khurazI Adi kaMI ja rAcaracIluM nahotuM. mahemAnane navAI lAgI. eNe pUchyuM : sophA, khurazI, palaMga kaMI ja gharamAM nathI ? jajamAne kahyuM : 140 % mola tamArI hatheLImAM mokSa tamArI hatheLI mAM' 141

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tamArA sophA vagere kyAM che ? ahIM goThavI daIe. mahemAna kahe : huM thoDo sophA vagere ahIM lAvela houM ? A ghara thoDuM mAruM che ? jajamAne kahyuM : mAruM paNa evuM ja che, A ghara mAruM thoDuM che ? zarIrane rahevA mATe Azraya che ghara... mAre ne gharane zuM levAdevA ? kaI rIte ? gurubahumAna vaDe paramagurusaMyoga ane tenAthI mukti. traNe caraNonI yAtrA karIe. astitvanA staranI sAdhanAne puSTa karavA mATe be caraNonI vAta cAlatI hatI : upayogane paramAMthI haTAvavo.... kudaratI rIte, e svamAM AvI jaze. bhItara AnaMdanuM jharaNuM cAlI ja rahyuM che. paraMtu upayoga paramAM che, vikalpomAM che ane ethI AnaMdanA jharaNAno madhura avAja saMbhaLAto nathI. vibhAvo - rAga, dveSa, ahaMkAra cittamAM zI rIte Ave che ? vikalponI pAMkha para savAra thaIne Ave che. eTale ja upayogane nirvikalpa banAvavA para bhAra mukAyo che : 'nirvikalpa upayogamAM, nahi karmano cAro...' gurubahumAna. ahIM saddagurunA guNo paranA bahumAnanI vAta che; jene asaMga pratipatti kahevAmAM Avela che. sadguru prAptino ApaNo krama Avo che : guruvyaktinI prApti ane pachI gurucetanAnI prApti. prAraMbhika stara para sAdhaka eka guruvyakti sAthe joDAya che. enI paNa majhAnI pRSThabhU che. huM eka vAta ghaNIvAra kaheto houM chuM : There's the same fragrance and same taste in all the respected gurus. (dareka pahoMcela sadguruomAM eka sarakhI sugaMdha ane eka sarakho AsvAda hoya che.) A sugaMdha ane AsvAda hoya che paramacetanAno. saddagurunuM hRdaya ahaMzUnya banyuM, te ahaMzUnyatAnI majhAnI pRSThabhU para parama cetanAnuM avataraNa thayuM. A rIte, dareka saguruo samAna hovA chatAM kyAreka ko'ka sadguru sAthe ApaNI cetanAnuM anusandhAna jhaDapathI thatuM hoya che. banI zake ke e sadguruvara sAthe janmAntarIya RNAnubaMdha hoya. mIrAM astitvanA staranI bhaktinI dIkSA mAgI rahI che. sAdhanA astitvanA staranI ja joIze. ahIM gurubahumAnanA astitvanA staranI vAta che. 'mAyo guruvaMdumALo.' gurubahumAna te ja mokSa. 142 : mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM mokSa tamArI hatheLI mAM" ka 143

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sadguruvyakti sAthe ApaNo saMbaMdha thayo; ane e sadguruyoga hoya to e saMbaMdha guNAtmaka saMbaMdha racAze. eTale ke e saMbaMdha guruvyakti sAtheno hovA chatAM gurucetanAnA saMbaMdhamAM pariNamyo. sadguruyoga... adbhuta ghaTanA che e. huM sadguruyoganI vyAkhyA ApatAM kahuM chuM : One plus one equals to one. eka vattA eka barobara eka. ziSyanI IcchA na rahe, vaibhAvika rUpanuM 'huM' ziSyanuM bhUMsAI jAya ane te sadgurunI AjJAnI ja pratIkSA satata karanAro hoya ane sadgurunI AjJA pramANe ja vartanAro hoya. A thayo ziSyano sadguruyoga. tamArI IcchAonI pAchaLa hoya che tamAruM huM. eTale tamArA huMne zithila banAvavA mATe sadguru tamArI IcchAone bheMsI kADhaze. tamArI sArI IcchAnI pAchaLa paNa tamAruM huM dekhAze to gurudeva te IcchAne bheMsI kADhaze. IcchA, huM ane vikalpa evo eka krama che. IcchAonI pachavADe che huM. ane huM ja che vikalponuM udbhavasthAna eka jAgRta sAdhaka tarIke tame tamArA vikalponI DAyarIne jojo. vahelI savArathI moDI rAta sudhInA tamArA vikalpomAM kendrasthAne huM ja UbharyA karaze. meM Ama kahyuM ane pelI vyakti prabhAvita thaI gaI... meM Ama karyuM ne...' 144 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM AkhI A zRMkhalA - IcchA, huM, vikalponI - ne toDavA paraMparAe be mArgo ApyA. IcchAone toDo, zRMkhalA gupacAI jaze. athavA vikalpone toDo, zRMkhalA zI rIte raheze ? .. ziSya guru pAse Ave che. enI IcchA anazana (jIve tyAM sudhI bhojana-pANIno tyAga) svIkAravAnI che. enA mATenI prAraMbhika sajjatA paNa eNe keLavI che. gurune e pUche che : huM anazana svIkAruM ? guru nA pADe che. ziSya tarIke eno dharma hato : gurunI AjJAne svIkAravAno. paNa ahIM enI IcchA prabaLa banIne bahAra Ave che. 'huM anazana svIkArI zakuM ema chuM, tame nA kema pADo cho ?' dekhItI rIte, ahIM IcchA, A AgrahazIlatAnI pAchaLa ziSyano huM hato... loko ene ugra tapasvI tarIke svIkAre evI enI jhaMkhanA haze. gurue kaThora banIne paNa A Agrahane toDavo ja rahyo. Agrahane paMpALavAno artha thayo enA 'huM'ne uttejita karavAnuM. bAya dha ve, ApaNe vicArIe. ApaNane kevA guru game ? IcchAne toDe tevA ke IcchAne paMpALe tevA. 'mokSa tamArI hatheLI mAM 145

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DaoNkTara kevA game ? gUmaDAne paMpALe tevA ke gUmaDAne cIrI nAkhe tevA ? tyAM ApaNe loko bahu ja spaSTa hoIe chIe. rogane dUra kare tevA ja DaoNkTara game che ApaNane. ahIM kema Ama nathI thatuM ? zarIra para rAga hovAne kAraNe rogo khaTake che. nirmala caitanyane pAmavA tarapha dRSTi jAya to tenI prAptimAM avarodhaka IcchA, huM, vikalpo badhuM khaTake ja. ziSya gurune pUchyuM : tame mane anazana svIkAravAnI nA kema pADo cho ? A zarIramAM have zuM rahyuM che ? lohI, mAMsa, carabI badhuM to sukAI gayuM che. hADapiMjara jevuM zarIra che A. ane ema bolatAM bolatAM teNe potAnI eka AMgaLIne baTakI ane kahyuM : juo, zuM che AmAM ? gusso Avyo... (bAkI huM to kSamAvatAra ja chuM ne !) AvA vikalpo sAmI vyaktine doSita tarIke cItaraze. potAnI jAtane nirdoSa. ane e rIte vaibhAvika layanuM huM ema ne ema raheze. guru A vikalpone kaI rIte toDaze ? jJAnasAra'nuM zamASTaka yAda Ave : anicchan karmavaiSamyaM, brahmAMzena samaM jagat / AtmA'bhedena yaH pazye - dasau mokSaM gamI zamI / / karmakRta viSamatAne eka bAjue rAkhavAnI ane cetanAnI nirmala dazAne ja mAtra joIne doSI AtmAne paNa vizuddharUpe jovAno. ane Avo sAdhaka mokSane pAme che. - tamArI sAme gussAthI koI dhANIphUTa bolato hoya tyAre tame e vyaktimAM rahela siddhAtmatAne joI zako ? gurue kahyuM : A ja to che ! tAro A ahaMkAra A rIte dhvanita thai rahyo che. ziSyanI pAse potAnA hune joI zake evI AMkha nahotI, eNe gurucakSu thavuM ja joItuM hatuM ne ! ane, to kevI majhAnI ghaTanA ghaTe ? e vyakti krodhamAM tamane kahI rahI hoya. tamane enAmAM bhaviSyano siddhAtmA dekhAya. tame enA caraNamAM jhUko, pelI vyaktine navAI lAge. "A mANasa... gussAthI bhabhUkI UThavo joIe. ene badale jhUke kema ?' tamane e pUche, ne tame kahI do : tame bhaviSyanA siddhAtmA cho ne ! to, 'huM'ne toDavA sadguru bemAMthI game te mArga apanAvaze. kyAreka IcchAone toDaze. kyAreka vikalpone toDaze. guru kaheze : tArA vicAro... tArA vikalpo... ethI zuM maLe ? ApaNA vikalpo lagabhaga ApaNA 'huM'ne ja puSTa karanArA hoya che. pelI vyaktie Ama kahyuM ke Ama karyuM mATe mane uttara gujarAtanA bhIlaDiyAjI tIrthamAM upadhAna tapanuM Ayojana hatuM. saMkhyA dhAryA karatAM vadhI gayelI. bhAIone to amArA upAzrayamAM rAkhela. baheno mATe rUmo hatI. saMkhyA vadhI javAne kAraNe eka eka rUmamAM daza-daza bahenone Ayojakoe rAkhela. 146 # mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM mokSa tamArI hatheLI mAM" cheka 147

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rUmanA kada pramANe saMkhyA kharekhara vadhu hatI. bahenoe Ayojako pAse phariyAda karI. temaNe kahyuM : saMkhyA vadhI gaI che. zuM thAya ? rAtorAta to navI rUma bane nahi. baheno mArI pAse AvI. meM emanI vAta sAMbhaLI. meM paNa joyuM ke bIjo koI mArga Ayojako pAse nahoto. meM kahyuM : dareka rUmamAM daza sAdhikAo che. eTale ke tamArA sivAyanA nava to bhaviSyanA siddha bhagavaMto che. e siddha bhagavaMtonI joDe rahevAnuM saubhAgya tamane maLyuM ! IcchAno cheda UDe ane huM UDe. vikalpono cheda UDe ane huM UDe. pariNAme, upayoga svamAM Ave. pUjya devacandrajI mahArAje paramatAraka zrI abhinandana prabhunA stavanamAM prabhunI sAdhanAno rasa, svamAM DUbavAno rasa kevI rIte maLe enI majhAnI vidhi batAvI : 'pudgala anubhava tyAgathI, karavI jasu paratIta...' pU. devacandrajI mahArAja pratItinI - anubhUtinI duniyAnA puruSa che. ane tethI, teo kahe che : tame paranA anubhavano tyAga karo, tamane svanI anubhUti thaze. yAda rahe, teo paranA anubhavanA tyAganI vAta karI rahyA che. paranA tyAganI vAta teo karatA nathI. sAdhaka pAse zarIra che, to tene bhojana levuM paDaze. pANI paNa pIvuM paDaze. moTuM pudgala - zarIra che, to nAnA pudgalo joIze; 148 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM paNa e khorAka letI vakhate e sAro che ke kharAba ema mAnIne rAga-dveSanI dhArAmAM javuM nathI. .. Ayao gurubahumANo... kevuM adbhuta che A sUtra ! gurubahumAna te ja mokSa. kAraNa ke gurubahumAna paramagurusaMyoga dvArA mokSa apAve che. sadgurunA guNo pratyenuM bahumAna. sadgurune joIe ane ahobhAvathI bhInA bhInA banIe. sadgurunA jIvananI ghaTanAne vAMcIe ke sAMbhaLIe ane bhInA banAya. pUjyapAda devacandrajI mahArAja eka gAmamAM padhArelA. teozrInuM pravacana cAlI rahyuM hatuM e vakhate pAchaLanI jhADImAMthI eka sApa Avyo. gurudevanuM jANe ke AkarSaNa na thayuM hoya tema te pATa para caDyo. pachI gurudevanA zarIra para caDyo ane khoLAmAM thaI pelI bAju nIkaLI gayo. gurudevanuM pravacana cAlatuM ja rahyuM. kevo adbhuta A sAkSIbhAva ! emanA sAkSIbhAvanI eka bIjI ghaTanA : mahAvidehamAM saudharmendra ekavAra prabhu sImaMdhara bhagavAnane pUchyuM : prabhu ! 'mokSa tamArI hatheLI mAM 149

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bharatakSetramAM atyAre zreSTha anubhUtivAna mahApuruSa koNa ? ane te samaye prabhue devacandrajInuM nAma ApyuM. saudharmendra sAmAnya manuSyanA rUpamAM tyAM Ave che. te vakhate pU. devacandrajI mahArAja pravacana ApI rahyA hoya che. potAnA jJAna vaDe emane khyAla AvI gayo ke saudharmendra AvyA che. paraMtu bilakula nirlepa e mahAtmA... jevuM pravacana ApatA hatA, te ja layamAM ApatA rahyA. saudharmendrane prabhAvita karavAnI koI IcchA ja nahotI ne ! .. sadgurunI A nirlepadazA paranuM bahumAna sAdhakane paramAtmAnA guNa sAthe joDI Ape. thAya ke chadmastha gurudevanI nirlepatA AvI che, to arihaMta prabhunI vItarAga dazA to kevI adbhuta hoya ! samavasaraNamAM 'apsarA dhUMghaTa khola ke Age nAcate...'nI ghaTanA apsarAo tarapha khUle. prabhu to mAtra svamAM DUbela hoya. bhaktiyogAcArya kAntivijaya mahArAja paramatA2ka suvidhinAtha prabhunI stavanAmAM kahe che : 'trigaDe ratanasiMhAsana besI, cihuM dizi cAmara DhaLAve re; arihaMta pada prabhutAno bhogI, to paNa jogI kahAve re...' samavasaraNamAM birAjela paramAtmA... cAmaro DhaLAI rahyA che. devaduMdubhi vAgI rahI che... aizvarya ja aizvarya cAre bAju che. paNa e to bhakto mATe. prabhu to svamAM DUbI gayA che. .. 150 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM huM ghaNIvAra bhaktone pUchato houM chuM : prabhunuM darzana karIne tame AvyA. prabhue zuM kaheluM ? bhakto kahe : gurudeva ! prabhue kaMIka kahyuM haze, paNa zuM kahyuM haze te khyAla nathI Avyo. tyAre huM kahuM : prabhue potAnI mudrA vaDe kaheluM ke huM svamAM sthira thayelo chuM. tuM paNa svamAM sthira thaI jA ! zaMkhezvara pArzvanAthadAdAnA darabAramAM pUname daza hajAra bhaktonI bhIDa lAgelI hoya. ekamanA pAMcaso bhaktoya na hoya... paNa ethI zuM ? prabhu to svamAM ja sthira che. koI AvyA ke na AvyA, e ApaNI tarapha khUlatI ghaTanA che. prabhu tarapha to che mAtra svanI vaibhavapUrNa, AnaMdamaya duniyA. sadgurunA guNo paranA bahumAna vaDe sAdhaka paramAtmAnA guNo sAthe saMbaddha thAya che. athavA to ema paNa kahevAya ke sadguru pratyenuM bahumAna temanI AjJAnA svIkAramAM pariNamaze. ane sadguru ApaNane mAtra prabhu sAthe saMbaddha karI Apaze. eTale ke sadguruvacanabahumAna dvArA paramaguru-saMyoga. sadgurunuM potAnI tarapha khUlatuM kArya potAnI bhItara, bhItara javAnuM che. ApaNI tarapha khUlatAM temanAM be kAryo che : prabhunI pyAsa nathI jAgI ApaNane to teo ApaNane pyAsa jagavI de. ane pyAsa jAgelI hoya to teo paramAtmatattvanI prApti karAvI de che. 'mokSa tamArI hatheLI mAM 151

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AdhArasUtra sadgurunI pAse jayAre paNa tame jAva, teo prabhunA aizvaryanI vAto evI mohaka rIte karaze ke tame prabhunA divya sammohanamAM paDI jAva... to, gurubahumAnathI paramaguru saMyoga. ane te dvArA mokSa. prabhu ApaNI muktinuM kAraNa kaI rIte che enI majhAnI carcA pU. devacandrajI mahArAje paramatAraka ajitanAtha prabhunI stavanAmAM karI che. stavanAnA prAraMbhamAM ja emaNe kahyuM : 'jJAnAdika guNa saMpadA re, tuja anaMta apAra; te sAMbhaLatAM UpanI re, ruci teNe pAra utAra...' prabhu ! tArA guNone joIne ruci pragaTI che; e guNo antastarathI gamyA che; A gamavAnI mUDI para tuM mane pAra utArI de! prabhunAM guNonuM darzana e nimitta kAraNa che ane ruci te upAdAna kAraNa che. prabhunA guNo jovAyA, to ruci thaIne ? ethI potAnI siddhinuM kAraNa paramAtmAno saMyoga che, tema bhakta kaheze. 1 , 1 , na saMdhe, , = Br, refthaf .... savvahA niravekkhA, thimiyA, pasaMtA / prasaMnofNa ghaNA re .... se sarUvasaMThie / - paMcasUtra, paMcama sUtra siddhAtmA zabda nathI, rUpa nathI, gaMdha nathI, rasa nathI, sparza nathI, te che arupiNI sattA. te sattA sarvathA nirapekSA che. te stimita (nistaraMga samudra jevI) che ane te prazAnta che. tathA asAMyogika AnaMdavALI che. te siddhAtmA svarUpamAM saMsthita che. guruguNabahumAna, paramagurusaMyoga ane mokSa... kevo majhAno athavA to kaho ke guruvacanabahumAna, paramagurusaMyoga ane mokSa. be ja DagalAmAM mokSa ! 152 % mola tamArI hatheLImAM

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AnaMdaghana cetanamaya mUrata, sevaka jana balI jAhI... 'nA hama manasA.' huM mananI bhUmikA para nathI. ahIM mana zabdathI saMjJA prerita mana levAyuM che. evuM mana, je rAga, dveSa ane ahaMkArathI prabhAvita che. AvuM prabhAvita mana rati ane aratinAM dvandramAM ja sAdhakane laI jAya ne ! ko'ke kahyuM : tame bahu sArA cho, tamArI vidvattA apUrva che... A zabdo manamAM ratibhAvanI sukhanI lahero pedA karaze. paNa ko'ka kaheze ke tame barobara nathI. to zuM thaze ? aratibhAvanI pIDA zarU thaze. mananI A saMjJAprabhAvitatA, A ghaTanAprabhAvitadazA evI hoDI jevI che, je samudranAM mojAM sAthe AmathI tema phaMgoLAya che. AnI sAme, bhakta hoya che ghaTanA-aprabhAvita. AjJAprabhAvita manano svAmI. 8 nA hama darasana, nA hama pharasana pUjyapAda AnaMdaghanajI bhagavaMte svarUpAvasthA para eka majhAnuM pada ApyuM che : nA hama manasA, nA hama zabadA, nA hama tana kI dharaNI; nA hama bhekha, bhekhadhara nAMhi, nA hama karatA karanI; nA hama darasana, nA hama pharasana, rasa na gaMdha kachu nahi; ghaTanAprabhAvita, samAjaprabhAvita mana para samAjano adhikAra hoya che. je samAjamAM pote Ucharela che, e samAjanI mAnyatA A vyakti para hAvI thAya che. ane prabhuprabhAvita manamAM ghaTanAonI koI asara rahetI nathI. rAbiyAne tyAM eka phakIra AvyA. phakIre rAbiyAnI saMta tarIkenI moTI khyAti sAMbhaLelI. AvyA pachI joyuM to rAbiyAnI 154 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM nA hama darasanA, nA hema pharasane jaipha 155

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jhUMpaDI tUTelI-phUTelI hatI. palaMganA paNa traNa pAyA ThIka hatA; cotho pAyo tUTelo hato. tyAM paththara mUkelo. are, pANI bharavAnI eka mATalI hatI. emAM adhavacce hatuM kANuM. traNa loTAthI vadhu pANI emAM bharAI na zake... phakIre kahyuM : bIjuM to ThIka che. A jUnI mATalIne badale navI mATalI huM mUkI zakuM ? rAbiyAe nA pADI. phakIre kAraNa pUchyuM. rAbiyA pAse ghaTanAone jovAno navo - fresh dRSTikoNa hato. emaNe kahyuM : A mATalIne ahIM A rIte rAkhIne prabhu mArI niHspRhatAne vadhArI rahyA che. rAbiyA pAse ghaTanAprabhAvitatAno dRSTikoNa nahoto. emanI dRSTi prabhuprabhAvita hatI. 'nA hama manasA.' saMjJAprabhAvita, samAjaprabhAvita manane sthAne joIe prabhuAjJAprabhAvita mana. pahelA manamAM huMno mahimA vistRta hoya che. bIjA manamAM huM zithila thayeluM hoya che. sokreTisane emanA samakakSa gurue pUcheluM : tamArA ziSyo AvA cunaMdA kaI rIte che ? tamArI ziSyane pasaMda karavAnI rIta kaI che ? sokreTise kahyuM : mArI pAse dIkSita thavA AvanArane huM jaLakuMDa pAse mokaluM chuM ane pUchuM chuM ke zuM dekhAyuM hatuM ? jo e kahe ke 156 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM sevALa, taratI mAchalIo Adine teNe joyela. to huM ene pasaMda karuM chuM. paNa eNe eno cahero ja jaLakuMDamAM joyela hoya to huM tene nakAruM chuM. sAdhakanI ahaMkendritatAne parakhavAnI A kevI majhAnI rIta ! ane kadAca ahaMkendritatA hoya to...? mahAtmA buddha e mATe majhAno prayoga karatA. emanI pAse eka sAdhaka Avyo. buddhane lAgyuM ke enuM huM eTaluM zithila nathI banyuM. jeTaluM banavuM joIe. temaNe sAdhakane kahyuM : A nagaranA smazAnagRhamAM tAre savA2thI sAMja sudhI eka mahinA sudhI rokAvAnuM che. bapore jamavAnuM tyAM maMgAvI leje. pahelA ja divase eka aMtyeSTi AvI. pUchyuM : konI A aMtimayAtrA ? kahevAmAM AvyuM ke A nagarazreSThInI aMtimayAtrA che... sAdhakane khyAla Avyo ke e nagarazreSThI vAraMvAra kahetA ke 'huM chuM to A nagara cAle che... nahitara zuM thAta A nagaranuM ?' e zreSThI cAlyA gayA ane nagara to doDatuM rahyuM. be-cAra divase AvI aMtimayAtrA AvatI gaI. ane e jotAM sAdhakanuM huM zithila banyuM. e pachI tene dIkSA maLI. nA hama darasana, nA hama pharasanI 157

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'nA hama manasA... nA hama zabadA...' zabda che paugalika ghaTanA. huM chuM jyotirmaya caitanya. zabda mAruM svarUpa nathI. 'nA hama zabadA'nI eka asara e thAya ke koI vyakti sAdhakane kaDavA zabdo paNa kahI de to enI asara enA para na thAya. zabda zabda che, huM huM chuM. mAre ane e zabdone zI levA-devA ? hA, e zabdomAMthI mArA jIvana mATe jarUrI kaMIka pAtheya maLatuM haze to laI laIza. gurjiephane eka vyaktie kahyuM : misTara eksa tamArI bahu ja nindA karatA hatA. gurjiephe hasatAM hasatAM kahyuM : mi. eksano to mane khyAla nathI, paNa lijjatabharI mArI TIkA sAMbhaLavI hoya to mi. vAya pAse javuM. majhA AvI jAya. | gurjiephe umereluM : ekavAra huM kaoNphI hAusamAM aMdhArAmAM beThelo. tyAM mi. vAya emanA mitro sAthe AvyA. doDheka kalAka sudhI emaNe mArI je dholAI karI che; lijjatadAra nindA... majhA AvI gaI mane. 'nA hama tana kI dharaNI...' zarIra te huM nathI. zarIramAM huM rahuM chuM. 'jiMdagI eka kirAye kA ghara hai, eka dina to badalanA paDegA; mauta jaba tuma ko AvAja degI, taba ghara se nIkalanA paDegA..." saMtane raktapittano roga lAgu paDyo. bhakta pUchyuM : AnaMdamAM ? saMte kahyuM : ekadama AnaMdamAM... 'are, paNa A roga...!' saMta kahe che : A to che prabhunuM varadAna. 'kaI rIte ?" majhAno uttara maLyo : zarIra anitya che, gaMdakIthI bharela che evuM vAMcato, anyone kaheto paNa kharo; paraMtu mAro deharAga zithila nahoto thato... prabhue kRpA karI. aMdaranI gaMdakI bahAra AvI... dehAdhyAsanA phuracA UDI gayA ! gurjiephe eka tattvadraSTA tarIke zabdone parAyA mAnyA ane ethI emanI joDe emano saMbaMdha na baMdhAyo. 'nA hama bhekha, bhekhadhara nAMhi." agaNita janmomAM aneka veSone dhAraNa karyA... na to AtmA veSa che, na to te veSadhara che. veSa zarIra joDe saMkaLAyela ghaTanA che. nirmala caitanya joDe ene koI saMbaMdha nathI. kapaDAM koNa pahere che ? tame ke zarIra ? pUjA karIne tame ghare AvyA. tamArA mATe mukAyela vastra-jhabhbho, leMgho tame paheryA. pachI nAsto karyo. have eka miniTa AMkho baMdha karIne tamArI jAtane pUcho ke Aje tame kayAM vastro paheryAM che ? javAba barobara na maLe (tamane cokkasa khyAla ja na hoya ke kayAM vastro paherelAM ? zarIrane paherAvI dIdhela...) to tame sAdhaka tarIke barobara kahevAva. javAba sAco maLe to eno matalaba e thAya ke hA, zabdo joDe saMbaMdha tyAre bAMdhavo che, jayAre e zabdo paramAtmAnA che ane e zabdo anubhUti bhaNI ApaNane laI jaI zake tema che. 158 8 mola tamArI hatheLImAM nA hama darasana, nA hama pharasana ka 159

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mAtra zarIre ja nahi, tame paNa vastra paheravAnI e kriyAmAM UMDA Utarela mullAjI rAjadarabAramAM javA mATe taiyAra thayA. te ja vakhate temanA mitra ghare AvyA. mullAjI khuza thayA. kahe : cA pI lyo. pachI ApaNe beu sAthe rAjadarabAre jaIe. mitra kahe : paNa huM to kapaDAM badalyA vagara Avyo chuM. tamAre tyAM AvavAnuM hatuM ne ! paNa rAjadarabAramAM javuM hoya to... A jhabhbho to juo, kevo gaMdo che ! mullAjIe potAnuM paheraNa emane ApyuM. mitre te paheryuM. beu cAlyA. vacce eka adhikArI maLyA. mullAjIe praNAma karyA. pachI kahe : A amArA mitra che. ekadama abhinnahradaya mitra che. ame evA abhinna chIe ke emaNe paherela khamIsa mAruM che ! have AvI rIte te kaMI paricaya apAya ? mitre virodha karyo. mullAjIe kahyuM : have AvuM nahi thAya. AgaLa gayA. bIjA eka adhikArI maLyA. mullAjIe mitrano paricaya Apyo : A mArA mitra che. bahu moTA zrImaMta che. bahu moTI jamIna emanI che... ane chelle umeryuM : emaNe paherela paheraNa paNa emanuM ja che ! mullAjInA manamAM emanuM potAnuM paheraNa hatuM, te koIpaNa rIte nIkaLye ja chUTako hato ne ? 160 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM mitra bagaDyo. e kahe : huM jAuM chuM. tame jAva. tamAruM kAma karI Avo. huM tamArI sAthe nahi AvuM... mullAjIe dilagIrI dAkhavI. have paheraNanI vAta bilakula nahi uccAruM. cAlo... eka adhikArI maLyA. mullAjIe mitrano paricaya Apyo. teonA sthaLano, kArobArano, khetIvADIno badho ja paricaya Apyo ane kahyuM : emanA aMgenI badhI ja vAto meM tamane kahI. eka ja vAta rahI gaI. emaNe paherelA paheraNanI. paNa e viSe kazuM na kahevAno meM nirNaya karyo che ! .. 'nA hama bhekha, bhekhadhara nAMhi.' vastro joDe levA-devA mArA zarIrane che. mAre zuM ? "nA hama karatA karanI.' vaibhAvika jagatamAM AtmA kartA paNa nathI, kArya paNa nathI. khAvAnuM kArya zarIra kare che, pIvAnuM kArya paNa zarIra kare che. ane sUI jAya che koNa ? zarIra ja to ! ethI to bhagavAne zrI AcArAMga sUtramAM kahyuM : "muLiLo sayA gAti / ' munio sadA jAgRta hoya che. thAke che zarIra, thAke che jJAta mana. je thAke che, te sUI jAya. sAdhaka zA mATe UMdhe ? atyAranI yaugika duniyAmAM eka zabda prasiddha che : kaoNnsTasa slIpa, jAgRta nidrA. zarIra sUtuM hoya ane tame jAgRta ho. nA hama darasana, nA hama pharasana 161

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kaI rIte A bane ? ujAgarane nidrAmAM bheLavIe to e thaI zake. ApaNI pAse atyAre traNa avasthA che : jAgRti, svapna, nidrA... emAM ujAgaranA aMzane bheLavavo che. ujAgara avasthA eTale nirvikalpatAnI pRSThabhU para svaguNAnubhUti ke svarUpAnubhUtinI kSaNo. Ama, ujAgara avasthA terame guNaThANe hoya che. paraMtu enuM nAnakaDuM saMskaraNa ApaNI pAse AvI zake. pahelAM jAgRtimAM ujAgarane bheLavAya. pachI svapnAvasthA pakaDAya. pachI nidrAvasthA. jAgRtimAM ujAgarane bheLavavAnI prakriyAne huM jAgaraNanA samudramAM ujAgarano TApu kahuM chuM. dariyAmAM hoDI laIne jato yAtrI baporanI tIvra garamI AdithI kaMTALyo hoya ane tyAM ene beTa maLI jAya to...! ThaMDAM vRkSonI chAyAmAM rahI zakAya tyAM. mIThAM phaLo khAI zakAya ane mIThuM pANI pIvA maLe... jAgRtinA samayamAM vikalponuM ghoDApUra cAlatuM hoya che ane eno thAka kaMI ocho hoya che ? eka majhAnI vAta karuM. vikalpono thAka bahu ja raheto hoya che. paNa rAtanI ghasaghasATa UMghamAM vikalpo chU thatAM hoI divase thoDI tAjagI varatAya che. aThavADiyuM rAtre UMgha na Ave te mANasanI hAlata juo to khyAla Avaze ke vikalpono thAka kevo che! ujAgarano TApu kaI rIte khaDo karIzuM ? 162 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM daza-paMdara miniTa zAMta rIte besavuM che. pahelAM thoDIvAra 'namo arihaMtANaM' padano bhASya jApa. e pachI 2-3 miniTa e ja padano mAnasa jApa. emAM ekAgratA Ave tyAre e padane choDI devAnuM. have zAMta dazAmAM besavuM che... padamAM ekAgra thavAne kAraNe vikalpo ghaNA chUTI gayA hoya... ane zAMta avasthAmAM bhItarI samabhAvano anubhava thaze. nirvikalpatAnI pRSThabhU para samatva guNanI anubhUtirUpa ujAgarano aMza jAgRtimAM ahIM bhaLyo. ujAgaranA A aMzane svapnAvasthAmAM paNa bheLavI zakAya. ane nidrAvasthAmAM paNa. sAmAnyatayA sAdhakane svapno na Ave. zarIra thAke to e sUI jAya. UMgha pUrI thaI. sAdhanA cAlu. tandrAvasthA Ave ja nahi, to sapanAM kyAMthI Ave ? mahAtmA buddhanI pAse eka sAdhaka Avelo. tene dIkSA levI hatI. buddha pUche che : tane sapanAM Ave che rAte ? pelo kahe : prabhu, mane to sArAM ja sapanAM Ave che ho ! buddhe kahyuM : tuM ravAnA thaI jA ! jene sapanAM Ave tene huM dIkSA nathI Apato... have nidrAvasthA pakaDAya. emAM ujAgara bheLavo. evuM bane ke tamAro hAtha mAthA nIce hoya, zarIra sUteluM hoya ane tamane khyAla hoya ke tamAro hAtha kyAM che. tamAruM zarIra, kaI rIte sUtela che. nA hama darasana, nA hama pharasana 163

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e mATe ja 'saMthArA porisI' sUtramAM kahevAmAM AvyuM : 'ataraMta pamaM mUTH...' sAdhaka rAtre paNa paDakhuM pheravatI vakhate caravaLA ke othA vaDe paDakhAne ane nIcenI jagyAne pUMje. 'nA hama karatA karanI." vaibhAvika jagatamAM huM kartA paNa nathI, kArya paNa nathI... kArya paugalika saMghaTanA che. huM jyotirmaya saMghaTanA chuM. vaibhAvika kAryono kartA rAga, dveSa, ahaMkAramAM AthaDato hoya. huM e badhAthI para chuM. kazuM joItuM ja nathI, to apekSA kyAMthI ? ane apekSA ja nathI; tenA kAraNe thatI ratibhAvanI bharatI ke aratibhAvanI oTa paNa nathI; to nirmala cetanA nistaraMga sAgara jevI ja hoya ne ! e nitaraMga sAgara jevI zAMta, bhItarI dazA prazama rasathI chalakAtI hoya che. ane tyAM che AnaMda ja AnaMda. 'yogasAra' granthamAM nirapekSadazAne parama AnaMdadazA tarapha sarakatI batAvI che. pyAro zloka tyAM Avyo : nairapekSyAdanautsukya-manautsukyAcca susthatA / susthatA ca parAnanda-stadapekSAM kSayenmuniH // nirapekSadazAthI anusUkadazA, tenAthI susthatA (svasthatA) ane susthatA e ja parama AnaMda, apekSA haze to utsukatA thaze. 'pelA bhAIe mArA mATe zuM kahyuM ? pelA lokone mAruM pravacana gamyuM ?'.... utsukatAne kAraNe asvasthatA thaze. yA to ratibhAva. yA aratibhAva... to, krama kevo majhAno thayo ? nirapekSadazA, anutsukadazA, susthatA... ane e svasthatA; svanI aMdara rahevApaNuM te ja to parama AnaMdanI kSaNo ! 'nA hama darasana, nA hama pharasana, rasa na gaMdha kachu nahi...' huM rUpa nathI, huM sparza nathI, huM rasa ke gaMdha paNa nathI... A badhI ja paudgalika ghaTanAo che... huM jyotirmaya ghaTanA chuM. A ja layamAM paMcasUtra kahe che : 'sad, na sUve, na vaMdhe, ne se, na pAse, vaLI sattA...' nirmala cetanA zabda nathI, rUpa nathI, gaMdha nathI, rasa nathI, sparza nathI... e che arUpiNI sattA. niSedhAtmaka mukhe to nirmala cetanAnuM svarUpa batAvyuM... vidheyAtmaka rUpe darzAvavAmAM Ave to e kevuM che ? 'sarvedI niravekkhA, thimiyA, pasaMtA, asaMjogie esANaMde...' sarvathA nirapekSa, svimita (nistaraMga samudra jevI), prazAnta ane asAMyogika AnaMdathI bharapUra nirmala cetanA che. yogasArano parama AnaMda te ja paMcasUtrano asAMyogika AnaMda. ratibhAvathI AnaMdane alaga pADanAra A asAMyogitA che. padArtho ke vyaktionA saMyoga dvArA maLe te ratibhAva. asaMyogajanya te AnaMda... 194 & mola tamArI hatheLImAM nA hama darasana, nA hama pharasana ke 5

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sArI cA pIdhI ane tamane majhA lAgI, te ratibhAva... sAruM bhojana lIdhuM ane sAruM lAgyuM, te ratibhAva... ko'ke kahyuM : tame keTaluM sarasa stavana gAyuM ! ane bhItara ahaMkArano uchALo Avyo te ratibhAva. ane tame zAMta rIte beThA cho, ane tamArA samatvano tame anubhava karyo te AnaMda. ahIM bahArI koI padArtha vyakti ghaTanAno saMyoga nathI. rati ane ati... lAge ke sAmAnya manuSyanuM jIvana kevuM to parataMtra banI gayuM che ! bIjAnA hAthamAM ja enAM sukha-du:khanI cAvI ! kapaDAM sArAM paherIne koI vyakti nIkaLI. enI dRSTie e sArAM vasro hatAM. ko'ke kahyuM : are, AvuM ghadhdhA jevuM zuM paheryuM che ? bIjAe kahyuM : A kayA jamAnAno pozAka tame paheryo che ? khalAsa, e kapaDAM khIMTI para TIMgAI jaze. tamArI rIte tame kema jIvana na jIvI zako ? tamArI ja svataMtra dRSTi hoya. goMDalanA mahArAjA. goMDalamAM pharavA nIkaLe tyAre paNa sAdAM vastromAM. ghoDAgADI paNa nahi. cAlatAM nIkaLe. ko'ke kahyuM : bApu ! tame to mahArAjA cho. AvAM vastro tamAre thoDAM cAle ? 166 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM mahArAjA kahe : ahIMnA loko mane oLakhe che. vastro sAdAM hoya ke bhapakAdAra; zo pharaka paDe ? ekavAra mahArAjA IMglenDa gayelA. garamInA divasomAM, laMDananI saDako para teo sAdA veSe pharatA'tA. eka goMDalavAsI temane tyAM sAdAM vastromAM joI navAI pAmyo. 'bApu ! ahIM paNa tame sAdAM vastromAM ?' mahArAjA hasyA. 'ahIM bhapakAdAra kapaDAM paherIne pharuM toya mane koNa oLakhavAnuM che ?' keTalI sarasa dRSTi ! sArvajanika sthaLa ke sArvajanika haoNlamAM svica borDa para DhAMkaNa hoya che ane tene tALuM mAravAmAM Ave che. kAraNa e che ke evA sthaLe ghaNA loko AvatA hoya. nAnAM bALako paNa AvatAM hoya... jo svica borDa khulluM hoya to nAnAM bALako svico pADI divase paNa battIo bALe. khoTA paMkhA pherave... ene badale DhAMkaNa ane tALAnI vyavasthA hoya. vaoNcamena pAse cAvI hoya. e jarUrI svico ja oNna kare... sAmAnya manuSyanA svica borDanI hAlata kevI hoya che ? na hoya DhAMkaNa. tALAnI to pachI vAta ja kevI ? svicane oNna ke oNpha koI paNa vyakti karyA kare. navuM ghara banAveluM hoya. koI kahe : bahu sarasa ghara che !' svica oNna thaI gaI. koI kahe : 'svataMtra ploTamAM makAna banAvyuM nA hama darasana, nA hama pharasana 167

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thAya che. hakIkatamAM, ghaTanAo ApaNane pIDita karI zakatI nathI. ghaTanAono ApaNA manamAM thayelo praveza ApaNane pIDita toya tame havAnI dizAno to khyAla ja na rAkhyo.' AkhuM makAna nakAmuM thaI gayuM ! svica oNpha ! sAdhakanA svica borDa para DhAMkaNa hoya che ane tALuM enI potAnI pAse hoya che. bAya dha ve, tame sAdhaka cho ne ? padArtho, vyaktio ke ghaTanAonA saMyogathI Upajato ratibhAva ke aratibhAva te saMyogajanyatA... bhItarathI nIpajato AnaMda te asAMyogikatA... asAMyogika AnaMda te ja parama AnaMda... A AnaMda ApaNo svabhAva che. ane eTale ja pU. AnaMdaghanajI mahArAja kahe che : 'AnaMdaghana cetanamaya mUrata, sevakajana balIjAhI...' nirmala cetanA AnaMdaghana che ane ene joIne bhakto e AnaMdaghanatA para ovArI jAya che. hA, tame ja AnaMdaghana cho ! eka vidvAna saMtane eka gAmanA lokoe potAne tyAM AvavA nimaMtraNa ApyuM. saMte nimaMtraNa svIkAryuM. gAmalokoe svAgatayAtrA kADhI. ghare-gharethI loko phUlano hAra laI temanA kaMThamAM Arope. gAmamAM eka mANasa saMtano virodhI. teNe AkhI rAta mAthe laI juttAMno hAra banAvelo. saMta enA ghara pAsethI pasAra thayA tyAre eNe saMtanA gaLAmAM juttAMno hAra paherAvyo. loko stabdha. 'ApaNA ja gAmanA A mANase AvuM karyuM ?' majhAmAM hatA saMta. khuzakhuzAla hatA teo. svAgatayAtrA pUrI thaI. pravacana zarU thayuM saMtanuM. pravacanamAM emaNe kahyuM : "Aje bahu majhA AvI. roja huM jyAM jAuM tyAM mAtra loko phUlanA hAra ja paherAve. mane nirAzA thAya ke mALIonA A gAmamAM phUlanI zI pratiSThA ? paNa Aje eka camAra maLyo, to thayuM ke ahIM mALIonI paNa Ijajata thaze. phUlonI paNa..." ghaTanA pratikULa hatI. paNa saMtano jovAno dRSTikoNa alaga hato ne ! tethI ghaTanAno aMtaHpraveza na thayo. 'AnaMdaghana cetanamaya mUrata...!" ApaNe AnaMdaghana hovA chatAM viSAdAnapIDAghana kema banIe chIe ? kyAreka evuM lAge ke amuka pratikULa ghaTanAo ApaNane pIDAghana banAve che. kaMIka bhUla tyAM thAya che. samAje Apela mAnyatAne ApaNe ema ne ema svIkArI laIe chIe. mATe AvI bhramaNA manamAM ramaNa maharSine eka bhakta pUcheluM : ApanA kaMThamAM jyAre phUlonA hAra ladAya tyAre Apano pratibhAva zuM ? 198 4 mola tamArI hatheLImAM nA hama darasana, nA hama pharasana : 169

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ramaNa maharSie kahyuM : bhagavAnanA rathane joDAyela baLadonA gaLAmAM phUlonA hAra ladAya tyAre baLadone bhAra vadhe, ethI vadhu zuM thAya ? jayA mahetAe zrI sureza dalAlane pUcheluM : tame jyAM paNa jAva tyAM prazaMsakothI tame gherAyelA ho cho. tamArA oNTogrApha mATe loko paDApaDI karatA hoya che. e vakhate tamane zuM thAya ? zrI sureza dalAle kaheluM : huM saMta nathI ke evo dAvo karuM ke mane ahaMkAra sparzato nathI. paraMtu A badhAnI bahu asara thatI nathI. nahAvA mATe beThela hoie ane zarIra parathI pANI vahI rahyuM hoya tyAre mana enI noMdha paNa letuM nathI hotuM. evI ja A rojiMdI prakriyA banI gaI che. zarIra vyAdhigrasta banyuM. teo nijAnaMdamAM DUbelA hatA. vaidyoe davA ApI : savAra, sAMja dUdha sAthe levAnI. savAre pAtra pratilekhana karI eka ziSya dUdha vahoravA mATe javA taiyAra thayA. gurudeve ene najIka bolAvI nA pADI : dUdha lAvavAnuM nathI. kAraNa ke davA levI nathI. gurudevanI dRSTi bilakula spaSTa hatI. roga vadhyA karavAno che. potAne asamAdhi azAtA jevuM lAge to pote jarUra davA laI le. paNa evuM lAgatuM nahotuM. to zA mATe davA levI ? roganA paryAyone pUjayazrI jotA hatA. teo svarUpadazAnA, sAkSIbhAvanA AnaMdane mANI rahyA hatA. pU. AnaMdaghanajI mahArAjanA zabdomAM teo hatA 'kAyAdikano sAkhIdhara..." dehamAM kaMIka thaI rahyuM che. teo to hatA mAtra sAkSI. 'se savasaMgi'. siddhAtmA svarUpamAM saMsthita che. svarUpasaMsthiti... kevI to e divya ghaTanA ! 'se savasaMkig..' siddhAtmA che svarUpasaMsthita... svamAM DUbavAno eka alaukika AnaMda mANI rahyA che teo. zabdone pele pArano e AnaMda. hA, tame enI nAnakaDI jhalaka meLavI zako. yAda Ave yogazAstra. kalikAlasarvajJa hemacandrAcArya mahArAja potAnI anubhUtine zabdomAM DhALatAM kahe che : parama AnaMda evo anubhavAI rahyo che, jemAM badhAM ja sukho nagaNya bhAse che...' sAkSIbhAvanA zikhara para ArUDha thayelA koI mahApuruSanA ke koI sAdhakanA jIvanano divya AnaMda jotAM thAya ke siddha bhagavaMtonI svarUpasaMsthiti kevI to adbhuta haze ! jagadaguru hIrasUri mahArAjA. unAmAM teozrInuM cAturmAsa. bhItarI AnaMda... 1. mokSo'stu mA'stu yadi vA, paramAnandastu vedyate sa khalu / yasminnikhilasukhAni pratibhAsante na kiJcidiya // 1251 // 170 % mola tamArI hatheLImAM nA hama darasana, nA hama pharasana ke 171

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zabdone pele pAranI ghaTanA... hA, tame ene kahI na zako. paNa anubhavI to zako je. jinahI pAyA tinahI chipAyA, na kahe kou ke kAna meM; tArI lAgI jaba anubhavakI, taba samaje sahu sAna meM.... aMjanamAMhi niraMjana rahIe, joga jugata Ima pAIe; 'nAnaka' jIvatayAM mara rahIe, aisA joga kamAIe... bhItarathI AnaMdanuM jharaNuM vahyA kare che; ane anAyAse dhUna, anAhata nAda cAlu thAya che. gharamAM potAnI bhItara zuM che eno khyAla have Ave che. rAga-dveSanAM nimitto AjubAjumAM hovA chatAM sAdhakane e nimittono sparza thato nathI. anubhUti. jyAM zabdo vilIna thayA che. vicAro chU thayA che. yogazAstra yAda Ave : udAsInabhAvamAM DUbela sAdhaka kaMI ja vicArI zakato nathI. kAraNa ke vicAro eTale ja cittanI asthiratA. cittanuM prakaMpana. udAsInabhAva che anubhUti...2 anubhUtinI parAkASThAnuM varNana kalikAlasarvajJazrIe A rIte karyuM : jAgRta avasthAmAM je sAdhaka bhItara DUbI gayo che, tene muktinA sukhano AsvAda maLe ja.3 le savasaMTaNa.' svarUpasaMsthiti... guru nAnakanuM eka pada che : nijhara jhare, sahaja dhUna lAge, ghara hI paracA pAIe, pU. mahopAdhyAya zrIyazovijayajI mahArAja yAda Ave : "saba meM hai aura saba meM nAMhi, tuM naTa rUpa akelo; Apa svabhAva vibhAve ramato, tU guru aura tU celo...' sAdhaka upayogarUpe AjubAjunA potAnA vaparAzamAM AvatA padArthomAM hoya. paNa e mUrchArUpe kyAMya hoto nathI. prAraMbhika sAdhaka kadAca, jAgRtinA abhAve, paramAM upayoga rAkhanAro hoya; jAgRta sAdhaka to svamAM ja upayogavALo hoya. aMjanamAMhi niraMjana rahIe...' asAdhako jenA dvArA lepAI zake, te badhAmAM sAdhaka nirlepa hoya. 'nAnaka jIvatayAM mara rahIe... aisA joga kamAIe...' jIvanmuktadazAnI vAta ahIM thaI. zaMkarAcArye karelI jIvanmuktadazAnI vAta yAda Ave : 2. audAsInyaparAyaNavRttiH, kiJcidapi cintayennaiva / yatsaGkalpAkulitaM, cittaM nAsAdayet sthairyam // 12 // 19 // 3. vo nAIJvAyAM, svastha; vra titi natha0: | zvAsocchvAsavihIna; sa hIyate na khalu muktijuSaH // 12 // 47 / / 172 : mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM nA hama darasana, nA hema pherasane cheka 173

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atItAnanusandhAnaM, bhaviSyadavicAraNam / audAsInyamapi prApte, jIvanmuktasya lakSaNam // bhUtakALa joDenuM anusaMdhAna nahi. bhaviSyano vicAra nahi. vartamAnakSaNamAM paNa udAsInabhAve rahevAnuM. A che jIvanmukti. Ama juo to, sAdhanA keTalI nAnakaDI thaI gaI ! eka ja kSaNa... ane ene udAsInabhAve bharI devAnI. na rAga hoya, na dveSa hoya, na ahaMkAra... 'paMcaviMzatikA'mAM mahopAdhyAya zrIyazovijaya mahArAje jIvanmuktadazAnI vyAkhyA ApatAM kahyuM : jAgratyAtmani te nityaM, bahirbhAveSu zerate / udAsate paradravye, lIyante svaguNAmRte // AtmabhAvamAM satata jAgRti, bahirbhAvamAM suSupti; parapadArthomAM udAsInabhAva... ane e rIte svaguNonI dhArAmAM vahevuM te jIvanmuktadazA. AtmabhAvamAM - alipta ane akhaMDAkAra cetanAnI dhArAmAM vahevuM. kevo to romAMcaka anubhava ! bahirbhAvamAM javAnuM have thayuM baMdha... have kyAM che gamo ? kyAM che aNagamo ? kyAM che ahaMkAra ? 1744 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM hA, para padArtho vAparavAnuM thaze, paNa te kSaNomAM udAsInabhAva vartato haze. 'se sarUvasaMti'... svarUpasaMsthitinuM nAnakaDuM saMskaraNa A jIvanmuktadazA. ... nA hama darasana, nA hama pharasana 175

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racanAnI kSaNomAM jUnADIsA : UrjAthI chalakAtI nagarI jarmana mahilA prophesara. bauddha granthonAM viduSI. ekavAra eka grantha vAMcatAM teo bhAvavibhora banI gayAM. temane e granthanA bhAvo evA to sparzI gayA ke emane thayuM ke pote cAraso varasa moDAM janmyAM. AvI abhivyakti ApanAra gurunI anubhUti kevI haze ! ane e anubhUtivAna dehamAMthI nIkaLatI UrjA kevI to pavitra haze ! be-cAra divaso thayA. paNa evI UrjA pakaDAtI nathI. prophesare Akho maTha pharIthI joyo. ane vicAryuM ke saMbhavita rIte AvA guru kayA khaMDamAM rahetA hovA joIe. chevADAno eka khaMDa emaNe baMdha joyo. sIla lagAveluM. "A khaMDa kholavAnI manAI che.' tevuM tyAM lakheluM paNa vAMcyuM. e khaMDa je rIte Avela hato, ekAntamAM, e jotAM emane thayuM ke guru A ja khaMDamAM rahetA hovA joIe. ane kadAca, tethI ja, tyAMnAM Andolano akabaMdha rahe mATe koI adhikArI vidvAne A nirNaya lIdho haze : khaMDa baMdha rAkhavAno. prophesare maThanA sattAdhIzone samajAvI e khaMDa kholAvarAvyo. tyAM teo dhyAnamAM beThAM ane tarata ja e UrjA pakaDAvA lAgI; je emane joItI hatI... gurunA bhAvo emane sparyA. e UrjAnA pravAhamAM vahevuM temane bahu ja AnaMdadAyI lAgyuM. thoDAka divaso tyAM rahIne teo e sadgurunA sAnnidhyamAM rahyAM. prophesaranI maThamAMthI vidAya pachI tarata e khaMDa baMdha karI devAmAM Avyo. pavitra Andolanone surakSita rAkhavAnI kevI majhAnI A paraMparA ! acAnaka emane thayuM ke e guru tibeTanA je maThamAM varSo sudhI rahelA e maThamAM emanI UrjA mane maLI zake ja. cAraso varSano gALo koI moTo gALo nathI. temaNe e maThanA sattAdhIzone puchAvarAvyuM ke pote e maThamAM dhyAna mATe thoDA divaso AvI zake ? sAmethI svIkRti maLI. prophesara tibeTa gayAM. maThanI bAjunI hoTelamAM UtaryA. roja kalAko maThamAM gALatAM. pelA gurunI UrjA pakaDavA mATe. pavitra sametazikharajI mahAtIrthanI yAtrAe janAra eka yAtrika mane pUcheluM : gurudeva ! mArA mATe khAsa sUcana... hitazikSA...? meM kaheluM : RjuvAlikA nadIne kAMThe be-traNa kalAka rahI zakAya tevuM hoya to dhyAnamAM jaIne prabhunA kaivalya samayanAM Andolanone 176 ka mola tamArI hatheLImAM nA hama darasana, nA hema pharasane 177

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pakaDavAno prayatna karaje. kALanA niravadhi samaMdaramAM pacIsasochavvIsaso varSano gALo bahu ja nAnakaDo gALo che. prabhune kaivalya utpanna thayuM e kSaNonAM Andolano dharatImAM, vRkSomAM jhilAyAM hoya... tame ene meLavI zako dhyAnadazAmAM. kalyANaka sthaLonI yAtrAnI pAchaLa A ja to uddeza hoya che ne ! emanA caherA paranA harSathI abhivyakta thato hato. e harSano zAbdika anuvAda Avo thaI zake : abhuta AnaMda maLyo ArAdhanAno...! sAdhvIjI puNyadarzanAzrIjI (51 upavAsa), sAdhvIjI AtmadarzanAzrIjI (31 upavAsa) tathA sAdhvIjI bhavyarasAzrIjI (aThThAI)nI tapazcaryA sAthe sAdhvIjI samayajJAzrIjI, sAdhvIjI guNajJAzrIjI ane sAdhvIjI paramadhArAzrIjIe potAnI janmabhUminA dAdAnAM caraNomAM 36 upavAsanI sAdhanAnuM puSpa sAdara samarpita karyuM. sAdhvIjI hemavardhanAzrIjI tathA sAdhvIjI parArthavardhanAzrIjIe siddhitapanI sAdhanAnuM puSpa samarpita karela. zrAvaka vargamAM 7 mAsakSamaNa, 50 aThThAI, siddhitapa, bhadratapa, zreNitapa Adi tapazcaryA thayela. rAyaNa vRkSanI nIce dhyAna dharIe tyAre prabhu RSabhadeve kaivalya prApti pUrve karela dhyAnadazAnAM Andolano ApaNane maLe. 45 sAdhu-sAdhvIjIonA yogodvahana thayela. jUnADIsAnuM amAruM vi.saM. 2071nuM cAturmAsa paNa pUrva mahApuruSonI sAdhanAnI UrjAne prApta karavAnA lakSya sAthe yojAyuM hatuM. pUjyapAda, prazAntamUrti AcArya gurubhagavaMta zrImadvijaya aravindrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjAnI pAvana nizrAmAM AcArya zrIyazovijayasUrijI, AcArya zrIrAjapuNyasUrijI, AcArya zrIbhAgyazavijayasUrijI, muni zrIdivyaratnavijayajI, muni zrImahAyazavijayajI Adi 31 munivaro ane sAdhvIjI taruNacandrAzrIjI, sAdhvIjI mayUrakalAzrIjI, sAdhvIjI jayazIlAzrIjI Adi 114 sAdhvIjIo cAturmAsamAM hatAM. eka to A UrjAkSetra. ane emAM UrjApuruSa, paMcotera varSanA dIrdhasaMyamI pUjyapAda AcArya bhagavaMtazrInI pAvana nizrA. anubhava bahu ja anokho rahyo. sahunI sAdhanA ahIMnI UrjAne kAraNe UMcakAI. cAturmAsa pravezathI paryuSaNa parva sudhI rahela seMkaDo ArAdhakono ane paryuSaNA mahAparva mATe Avela saMkhyAbaMdha ArAdhakono anubhava jUnADIsAmAM kalikAlasarvajJa AcArya bhagavaMta hemacandrasUri mahArAjA ane pUjyapAda AcArya bhagavaMta hIravijayasUri mahArAjAe sAdhanA karelI che. emanI sAdhanAnAM Andolano A UrjAkSetramAM patharAyela che. ApaNA yuganA sAdhanAmaharSi pUjayapAda AcArya bhagavaMta zrImadvijaya bhadrasUri mahArAjA, pUjayapAda niHspRhaziromaNi AcArya bhagavaMta zrImad kIrtisAgarasUri mahArAjA, pUjayapAda zAsanaprabhAvaka AcArya bhagavaMta zrImadvijaya vaeNkArasUri mahArAjA , 178 ka mola tamArI hatheLImAM nA hama darasanA, nA hema pharasane ke 179

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pUjyapAda zAsanaprabhAvaka AcArya bhagavaMta zrImad subodhasAgarasUri mahArAjA, pUjyapAda zAsanaprabhAvaka AcArya bhagavaMta zrImadvijaya jinaprabhasUri mahArAjA tathA namaskAra mahAmaMtrArAdhaka upAdhyAyapravara zrImahAyazavijayajI mahArAja AdinI sAdhanAthI maMDita A urjAkSetramAM sAdhanA karavAno AnaMda sahue mANyo. paMcasUtra candranAM keTalAMka sAdhanAsUtro para svAdhyAya cAlu hato. ene paNa A UrjAkSetranI pRSThabhU maLI. ahIM sAdhanA karavAno paNa eka anokho AnaMda maLe che. bhaktino paNa apUrva AnaMda ahIM prApta thAya. svAdhyAya karavAno AnaMda to ahIM maLe ja, paNa ahIMnAM Andolano svAdhyAyane svAnubhUti sudhI laI pa ApaNAM prAcIna tIrthasthaLo UrjAkSetro ja che ne ! bhakti, sAdhanA ane svAdhyAyamAM UMDANa lAvavA mATe A UrjAkSetro ApaNA mATe khUba ja sahAyaka che. jUnADIsA bhA.su.8, 2071 21-9-2015 180 mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM 5.pU.AcArya covijayasUri mahArAja dvArA lakhAyela pustako - darisana tarasIe ..... bhA. 1-2 (dvitIya AvRtti) (bhAgavatI sAdhanAnI sasUtra vyAkhyA) * bichurata jAye prANa .....' (dvitIya AvRtti) (pUjyapAda siddharSi mahArAja kRta jinastavanA para saMvedanA) "AtamajJAnI zramaNa kahAve .....' (dvitIya AvRtti) (uttarAdhyayana sUtranA 15mA sabhikhkhu adhyayana upara saMvedanA) "mere avaguna citta na dharo .....' (dvitIya AvRtti) (kumArapALa bhUpALa kRta 'AtmanindA dvAtriMzikA' para saMvedanA) * RRSabha jinesara prItama mAharo re ..... (zrIAnaMdaghanajI mahArAjanI stavanAo para saMvedanA) (stavana-1 thI 5) * prabhuno pyAro sparza (parama pAvana zrI dazavaikAlika sUtra (1 thI 4) paranI vAcanAo) * AtmAnubhUti (yogapradIpa, jJAnasAra Adi grantho tathA pU. cidAnaMdajI mahArAjanAM padomAM maLatAM sAdhanA-sUtro para vizleSaNa) * astitvanuM paroDha (hradayapradIpa SatriMzikA para svAdhyAya) * anubhUtinuM AkAza (pU. devacandrajI mahArAjanI aSTapravacana mAtAnI sajjhAya pa2 anuprekSA) * rome rome paramasparza (devAdhideva prabhu mahAvIranI sADAbAra varasanI lokottara sAdhanAnI AMtara kathA) prabhunA hastAkSara (parama pAvana uttarAdhyayana sUtranAM keTalAMka sAdhanAsUtro para svAdhyAya) * dhyAna ane kAyotsarga (dvitIya AvRtti) (dhyAna ane kAyotsarga vizeno zAstrIya sandarbho sAtheno svAdhyAya) pravacana aMjana jo sadguru kare (navapada sAdhanA) nA hama darasana, nA hama pharasana 181

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AcAryazrI DAri jJAna maMdira graMthAvalI | ekAntano vaibhava (tRtIya AvRtti) (smaraNa yAtrA) * raso hai saH (dvitIya AvRtti) (pUjyapAda devacandrajI mahArAja kta zrI abhinandana jinastavanA para svAdhyAya) * sAdhanApatha (dvitIya AvRtti) (pujyapAda devacandrajI mahArAjana zrI suvidhinAtha jinastavanA para svAdhyAya) parama ! tArA mArge (dvitIya AvRtti) (pUjyapAda devacandrajI mahArAja kRta prabhu mahAvIra stavanA para svAdhyAya) pragaTyo pUranA rAga (pUjayapAda devacandrajI mahArAjakRta prabhu neminAtha stavanA para svAdhyAya) sAdhanAnuM zikhara (pUjayapAda dAdAgurudevazrI bhadrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjAnA jIvanaprasaMgonuM Akalana) vAtsalyano ghUghavato sAgara (pUjayapAda gurudevazrI omakArasUrIzvarajI mahArAjAnA jIvanaprasaMgonuM Akalana) samAdhi zataka (bhAga-1 thI 4) (pUjayapAda mahopAdhyAyazrI yazovijayajI mahArAjata samAdhizataka grantha para vivecanA) samuMda samAnA baMda meM (pUjayapAda adhyAtmayogI AcArya bhagavaMta zrImadvijaya kalApUrNasUrIzvarajI mahArAjanI zabdaprasAdI para svAdhyAya) * svAnubhUtinI pagathAre | (pUjayapAda mahopAdhyAyazrI yazovijayajI mahArAjakRta savAso gAthAnA stavananI keTalIka kaDIo para svAdhyAya) sadgaH zaraNaM mama: (sadguru tatva para bhinna bhinna anuprekSAothI sabhara graMtha) * niraMjana nAca mohi kaise mileMge ? (bhaktiyoganA udgAtA, sAdhanAmanISI pUjayapAda paMnyAsabhagavaMtazrI bhadraMkaravijayajI mahArAja sAheba dvArA apAyela bhaktisUtro para svAdhyAya) dila aTako torA carana kamala meM... | (pUjayapAda mahopAdhyAya zrIvinayavijaya mahArAja racita zrI RSabhajina stavanA para saMvedanA) prabhuvANI prasAra sthaMbha (yojanA-1,11,111) 1. zrI samasta vAvapathaka zvetAMbara mUrtipUjaka jaina saMgha-gurumUrti pratiSThA-smRti 2. zeThazrI caMdulAla kilacaMda parIkha parivAra, vAva 3. zrI siddhagiri cAtumasa ArAdhanA (saM.2057) daramyAna thayela zAnakhAtAnI AvakamAMthI haste : zeThazrI dhuDAlAla punamacaMdabhAI hakkaDa parivAra, DIsA, banAsakAMThA 4. zrI dharmottejaka pAThazALA, zrI jhIMjhuvADA jaina saMgha, jhIjhuvADA 5. zrI suIgAma jaina saMgha, suIgAma 6, zrI vAMkaDiyA vaDagAma jaina saMgha, vAMkaDiyA vaDagAma 7. zrI garAMbaDI jaina saMgha, garAMbaDI 8. zrI rAMderaroDa jaina saMgha-aDAjaNa pATIyA, rAMderaroDa, surata 9. zrI ciMtAmaNI pArzvanAtha jaina saMgha pArlA (IsTa), muMbaI 10. zrI AdinAtha tapAgaccha zvetAMbara mU.pU.jaina saMgha, katAragAma, surata 11. zrI kailAsanagara jaina saMgha, kailAsanagara, surata 12. zrI ucosaNa jaina saMgha, samubA zrAvikA ArAdhanA bhavana, surata zAnakhAtethI 13. zrI vAvapathaka jaina zve. mU.pU. saMgha, amadAvAda 14. zrI vAva jaina saMgha, vAva, banAsakAMThA 15. ku. nehalabena kumudabhAI (kaTosaNa roDa)nI dIkSA prasaMge thayela AvakamAMthI 16, zrI AdinAtha zvetAMbara mUrtipUjaka jaina saMgha, navasArI 17. zrI bhIlaDIyAjI pArzvanAtha jaina derAsara peDhI, bhIlaDIyAjI 18. zrI navajIvana jaina che. mU.pU. saMgha, muMbaI 19. zrI jazavaMtapurA jaina saMgha - zrAvikA bahenonA zAnadravyamAMthI 20. zrI pAMDava baMglojha ane sImA ro-hAusa, aThavAlAInsanI ArAdhaka baheno taraphathI... prerikA sAdhvIzrI bhAvapUrNAzrIjI ! prabhuvANI prasAraka (yojanA-61,111) ! 1. zrI dipA zvetAMbara mUrtipUjaka jaina saMgha, rAMderaroDa, surata 2. zrI sImaMdharasvAmI mahilA maMDaLa, pratiSThA kompalekSa, surata 3. zrI zreNIkapArka jaina zvetAMbara mUrtipUjaka saMgha, nyU rAMderaroDa, surata 182 % mola tamArI hatheLImAM mokSa tamArI hatheLImA cheka 183

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je che v 4. zrI puNyapAvana jaina saMgha, IzitA pArka, surata 5. zrI zreyaskara AdinAtha jaina saMgha, nIjhAmapurA, vaDodarA 6. zrI amarolI jaina saMgha - amarolI, surata 7. zrI gurUgautama lablinidhAna jaina saMgha, mAdhava resIDansI, surata 8. zrI mayaNA zrIpAla je.mU. jaina saMgha, maNIbhadra resIDansI, pAla, surata 9. zrI akSarajyota je.mU. jaina saMgha, rAMdera roDa, surata sAdhvIzrI prasannacaMdrazrIjInI preraNAthI... | | prabhuvANI prasAra anumodaka (yojanA - 31,111) | 1. zrI moravADA jaina saMgha, moravADA 2. zrI umarA jaina saMgha, surata 3. zrI zatruMjaya TAvara jaina saMgha, surata 4. zrI caumukhajI pArzvanAtha jaina maMdira TrasTa zrI jaina zvetAMbara tapAgaccha saMgha gaDhasivAnA (rAja.) 5. zrImatI tArAbena gagaladAsa vaDecA-ucosaNa zrI sukhasAgara ane malhAra epArTamenTa suratanI zrAvikAo taraphathI 7. ravijyota epArTamenTa, suratanI zrAvikAo taraphathI 8. aThavAlAInsa jaina saMgha, pAMDavabaMgalo, surata zrAvikAo taraphathI 9. zrI AdinAtha tapAgaccha zve.mUrtipUjaka jaina saMgha, katAragAma, surata 10. zrImatI varSAbena keNavata, pAlanapura 11. zrI zAMtiniketana saradAranagara jaina saMgha, surata 12. zrI pArzvanAtha jaina saMgha, nyu zamAroDa, vaDodarA 13. pAMDava baMgalo (aThavAlAinsa) suratanI ArAdhaka baheno taraphathI, surata 14. zrI mADakA je.mU. jaina saMgha, mADakA (vAvapathaka) 15. zrI kalApUrA jaina saMgha, bhInamAla, rAjasthAna 16. zrI vAvamathaka dharmazALAnI ArAdhaka baheno (2070) pAlItANA 17. zrI pArzvanagara 1-2-3 (aDAjaNa pATIyAnI ArAdhake baheno) surata 18. zrI sImA ro-hAusa, ghoDadoDa roDa, surata. ArAdhaka baheno taraphathI.. prabhuvANI prasAra bhakta (yojanA - 15,111) { 1. zrI desalapura (kaMThI) zrI pArzvacaMdragaccha 2. zrI dhrAMgadhrA zrI pArzvacaMdrasUrIzvaragaccha 3. zrI aThavAlAInsa jaina saMgha, surata zrAvikA upAzraya 4. zrImatI prajJAbena kIrtibhAi zAha (L.A. amerikA) 5. zrI maMgalacaMdajI muNota - jodhapura vAva nagare pUjya AcArya bhagavaMta kArasUri mahArAjAnI ! gurU mUrti pratiSThA smRti 1. rUA.2,11,111 zrI vAva zvetAMbara mUrtipUjaka jaina saMgha 2. rUA. 1,11,111 zrI vAva5thake the. mUrtipUjaka jaina saMgha, amadAvAda 3. rUA. 31,000 zrI suIgAma jaina saMgha 4. rUA. 31,000 zrI beNapa jaina saMgha rUA. 31,000 zrI ucosaNa jaina saMgha rUA. 31,000 zrI bharaDavA jaina saMgha 7. rUA. 31,000 zrI asArA jaina saMgha 8. rUA. 31,000 zrI garAMbaDI jaina saMgha 9. rUA. 31,000 zrI mADakA jaina saMgha 10. rUA. 31,000 zrI tIrthagAma jaina saMgha 11. rUA. 31,000 zrI koraDA jaina saMgha 12. rUA. 31,000 zrI DhImA jaina saMgha 13. rUA. 31,000 zrI mAlasaNa jaina saMgha 14. rUA. 31,000 zrI moravADA jaina saMgha 15. rUA. 31,000 zrI vardhamAna the.mU.pU.jaina saMgha, katAragAma daravAjA, surata 16. rUA. 11,111 zrI vAsaraDA jaina saMgha, sevaMtIlAla ma. saMghavI 184 mola tamArI hatheLImAM mokSa tamArI hatheLImAM cheka 185