Aptavani 09

Author(s): Gnani Purush Dadashri
Publisher: Gnani Purush Dadashri

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Who is the one who receives insults and respects? The Soul-Self? Soul? No. This is the affliction of the ego. If You are the Self, no one can insult you. Does respect or insult have any connection to the Soul?
In Akram Vignan, You become separate the moment You say, 'the one who got insulted is not l'.
If the person throwing the insults is seen as the one who is oblidging you, then it erodes the pride within.
In the ignorant state, if the fear of insult leaves, one may become shameless and hurtful to others, whereas after receiving Gnan, if the fear of insult leaves, one becomes completely independent.
There are various phases of extra pride. Pride with myness abhimaan false arrogance ghamand , hot temper tumakhi, head strong tundmijaji, self-respect swamaan, false pride and false myness mithyabhiman.
'I am Lalvo, 'is ego ahamkar. 'I am Lallubhai.' (with emphasis on the self) is pride maan. 'I am Lallubhai the lawyer, did you not recognize me? How do you like my office? That is ego with rich materials, pride with 'my-ness', abhimaan. Even if he has no strength but he says, 'I can beat you up.' That is ghamand. One who does not have a drop of knowledge nor any money yet he has a lot of arrogance tundmijaji . The one who is tumakhi will insult and scorn respected members of the community! A ghemraji is someone who has no substance within and without, and yet puts everyone down. He would say, 'I can travel around the whole world'; when he is not capable of going even two miles away.
'Hum, hum 'I am everything is different, and ego ahamkar is different. Ego can go away but 'Hum' does not go away easily, it arises where there is nothing. 'Hum' is different from 'I am something'!
Ego is the false imposition of the Self, saying 'I am where I is really not. The existence of ego is there in everyone except in Gnani Purush.
Extension of ego is pride. Pride associated with my-ness mamata is abhimaan. To exhibit, this is my house, this is my motorcar is ego with myness, abhimaan.