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५३२९. SPIRITUAL LIGHT. गम्भीरसंसारमहाऽऽपदाजले कालो गतोऽयं ब्रुडतो ममाऽखिलः । कस्याऽपराधोत्र मया विचार्यते ! प्रमाद एतस्य ममाऽपचेतसः॥२६॥ पाप्याऽपि बोधि परमां मनोवचःशरीरदुश्चेष्टिततो मयैव हि । स्वमस्तके ज्वालित आशुशुक्षणिः कोऽत्रापराधी परिभाव्यतेऽपरः॥२७ स्वाधीनतायामपि मुक्तिवर्मनो भ्रान्त्या स्वयं पातित एष चेतनः । भिक्षां यथाऽटेदुपलब्धराज्यको मोक्षे स्वतन्त्रेऽपि तथा भवभ्रमः॥२८॥ एवं हि रागादिकदृषणेभ्यो जाता अपायाः परिचिन्तनीयाः। यस्मिन्नुपाया आप तत्प्रणाशे ध्यानं द्वितीयं तदपायनाम ॥ २९ ।।
This soul wandered for a long time in this world-revolution as it did not stick to the spiritual path. Beings subject to passions such as love etc., cannot themselves be out of dense forest (of passions).
Ah i what variety of sins have I not committedI, whose mind is over darkened by infatuation ? Oh 1 what terrible miseries have I not undergone in the hell and in the animal and human lives?
My whole time is totally wasted in seeking in the deep waters of great miseries of this worldocean, whose fault is it ? It is my own foolish self.
Though I obtained the highest knowledge ( of reality ) I cause the fire ( of misery ) to burn on my. head through sins committed by mind, speech and body. Who can be found. fault with.! Surely I and I alone. Though the path of absolution was at my clisa.
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