Laboratary

Author(s): Ratnasundarsuri
Publisher: Ratnasundarsuriji
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/008909/1

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mArA karatAM vadhu dharmI mArAthI vadhu duHkhI kema ? mArA karatAM vadhu kharAba-durjana ane pApI mANasane mArA karatAM vadhu sukhI huM jouM chuM ane mArA manamAM UMDe UMDe eka prakAranI vedanA UbhI thaI jAya che. kudaratanA rAjyamAM A aMdhera? dharmI duHkhI ane pApI sukhI?" paNa sabUra! tamArA karatAM vadhu sArA-sajjana ane dharmI mANasane tamArA karatAM vadhu takalIpho bhogavato tame juo, vadhu duHkhono zikAra banato tame juo, vadhu vedanAonI vacce jIvana gujArato tame juo tyAre tamane evo vicAra Ave kharo ke 'kudaratanA rAjyamAM A anyAya? huM ocho dharmI ane chatAM mane sukha vadhu jyAre sAmo vadhu dharmI ane chatAM ene duHkha vadhu! A kema cAle?'

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dAna svIkAranAra upakArI lAgyA? kheDUte verelAM bIja jamIne jo svIkAryA ja na hota to kheDUta zrImaMta banI ja zI rIte zakyo hota? choDane pAyeluM pANI jo choDe svIkAryuM ja na hota to mANasa e choDa para UgelA puSpanI suvAsa mANI ja zI rIte zakyo hota? javAba Apo. dAna cAhe pAMjarApoLamAM ApyuM che ke pAThazALAmAM ApyuM che. maMdira mATe ApyuM che ke sAdhu-sAdhvInI bhakti mATe ApyuM che. bhikhArIne ApyuM che ke sAdharmikane ApyuM che. dAnane svIkAranAra ja upakArI lAgyA che evuM kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM aMtaHkaraNa che kharuM? emaNe dAna svIkAravAno jo

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vedanA che ke saMtoSa ? pAMcamA dhoraNamAM bAbo pAMcamI vAra nApAsa thayo ane tamAro piDo phATyo, 'nAlAyaka ! skUlamAM tuM bhaNavA jAya che ke hajAmata karavA?' ane bAbAe tamane ThaMDe kaleje javAba ApI dIdho, pappA ! huM cothA dhoraNamAM to nathI AvI gayo ne?' javAba Apo. jIvanamAM Aje je paNa dharma che e Ajano ja che ke varasono che? jo varasono e dharma che to ATalAM varaso bAda paNa e dharmamAM ApaNe vadhAro nathI karI zakyA enI ApaNane vedanA che ke pachI varaso pachI ya e dharma ApaNe TakAvI zakyA chIe e badala ApaNe saMtuSTa ja chIe? bAbAe jo AgalA dhoraNamAM javuM ja joIe to dharmamAM ApaNe paNa AgaLa vadhavuM ja joIene?

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parivArane pApamArge vALI devA taiyAra ? jeonA jIvanamAM dharma jevI koI cIja nathI ane pApo pAra vinAnAM che evA mANasonAM sukho [3] ne joIne mana vAraMvAra eka vicAranuM bhoga banI jAya che ne ke 'pApIo A jagatamAM jalasA kare che ane dharmIo badhAribAya che.' eka praznano javAba Apazo? sAce ja jo tamane ema lAgI rahyuM che ke pApIo ja sukhI che ane dharmIo duHkhI ja che. to tamArA samasta parivArane eka vAra besADIne tame ema kahI devA taiyAra cho kharA ke "ApaNe badhAe have dharma choDIne pApane mArge ja vaLI javAnuM che! kAraNa ke duHkhI ApaNe thavuM nathI ane dharmanA mArge duHkha sivAya kAMI che nahIM. sukhI ApaNe thavuM che ane pApanA mArge sukha ja sukha che!" A mATe tame taiyAra?

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mananI prasannatAnA duzmana : AsaktibhAva-mAlikIbhAva mane gamI gayela strI mArA sivAya bIjA koIne ya gamavI na joIe ane mane maLI gayela gADI mArA sivAya bIjA koIne ya maLavI na joIe? basa, AkhI jiMdagI A AsaktibhAva ane mAlikIbhAvanA gulAma banIne ja jIvavAnuM ane jIvanabhara atyaMta trasta ane vyathita ja rahevAnuM javAba Apo. mananA A trAsathI sAce ja chuTakAro meLavI levAnI aMtaranI icchA che? A AsaktibhAva ane mAlikIbhAva mananI prasannatAnA jAlima duzmana che e vAta anubhavathI samajAI gaI che? to eka kAma karo. AsaktinA sthAne bhaktine goThavI do. mAlikIbhAvanuM sthAna saMtoSabhAvane ApI

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pApamAM rasa nathI, nakkI ? haMmezAM pravacanomAM sAMbhaLatA AvyA cho ke "dharma rasapUrvaka ja karavo joIe ane chatAM dharma rasa vinA ja thato hoya evuM lAge che ema ne? eka kAma karavuM che? dharmane rasapUrvaka karavAnI vAta ApaNe pachI karazuM. pahelAM tame ATaluM nakkI karI do ke jIvanamAM pApo jeTalAM paNa cAlu che e badhAMya dharmanI jemanirasatA sAthe ja karavAM che. jo dharmamAM rasa nathI Avato to pApamAM rasa nathI rAkhavo! bolo, nakkI?

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dharmamAM rasa che ja, nakkI ? saMsAranI eka eka kriyA - cAhe e kriyA bhojananI hoya ke phona karavAnI hoya, kokane maLavA javAnI hoya ke TI.vI. jovAnI hoya, bajAramAM javAnI hoya ke bagIcAmAM javAnI hoya-atyaMta rasapUrvaka ja thAya che ema ne? eka kAma karo. dharmanI je paNa kriyA karatA ho - cAhe e kriyA prabhudarzananI hoya ke navakAra gaNavAnI hoya, guruvaMdananI hoya ke sAmAyikanI hoya - atyaMta rasapUrvaka ja karavI che eTaluM nakkI karI do. pApakriyA jo rasa sAthe ja thAya che to dharmakriyA paNa rasa sAthe ja karavI che. bolo nakkI?

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che dhamarAdhanAnA ullAsamAM kaDAko nahIM ja. nakkI ? jamInamAM vAvelA badhA ja dANA UgavAnA nathI eno kheDUtane khyAla hovA chatAM ya jamInamAM e dANAMo vAvato ja rahe che. khAdhelo badho ja khorAka pacI javAno nathI eno barAbara khyAla hovA chatAM mANasa peTamAM khorAkapadharAvato ja rahe che. javAba Apo. dharmArAdhanA karatI vakhate ApaNo A abhigama kharo? karelI badhI ja dharmArAdhanAo vidhi-bahumAnAdinI kacAzanA kAraNe kadAca phaLavatI na paNa banatI hoya to ya dharmArAdhanA karatA rahevAnA ApaNA ullAsamAM koI ja kaDAko bolAto nathI e kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM ApaNuM aMtaHkaraNa kharuM?

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- to ya dharmArAdhanA cAlu ja ? taMdurastI maLI ja javAnI bAyaMdharI DaoNkTara nathI paNa ApatA ane chatAM huM DaoNkTara pAse jaIne davA lauM chuM. kesa jItADI devAnI gerenTI vakIla nathI paNa ApatA to ya mAro kesa emane huM soMpuM ja chuM. sahIsalAmata icchita sthaLe pahoMcADI devAnI bAyaMdharI TaeNksIDrAivara nathI paNa Apato toya huM TaeNksImAM musApharI karuM ja chuM. javAba Apo. adhyAtmajagatamAM paNa ApaNo A ja abhigama che ema kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM ApaNe chIe kharA? bhale, prasannatAnI bAyaMdharI nathI maLI paNa prabhupUjA cAlu ja che. bhale samatAnI gaeNranTI nathI maLI paNa sAmAyika cAlu ja che. bhale saMkalpa-vikalpanAzanI bAyaMdharI nathI maLI paNa svAdhyAya cAlu ja che. Ama ApaNe kahI zakIe tema chIe kharA?

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saMpatinI gADI mATe sTezana nakkI karyuM bhalene gADI mArI pAse sarasa che. gADImAM peTrola paNa bhale ne paryApta che. DrAiviMga paNa bhale ne mAruM masta che. rasto paNa bhale ne sarasa che paraMtu jo e rastAne kyAMya cheDo ja nathI to e rastA para huM gADI satata bhagAvato ja nathI raheto. cokkasa sthaLa para gADI huM UbhI rAkhI ja dauM chuM. javAba Apo. puNya tamAruM bhale pracaMDa che. puruSArtha karavAnI tamArI kSamatA paNa bhale prabaLa che. paNa lobhano je rasto che e rasto kyAMya pUro thato ja nathI eno tamane khyAla che kharo? jo hA, to e rastA para cAlI rahela jIvananI gADIne saMAinA koka nizcita AMkaDA para ke uMmaranA koka nizcita varasa para UbhI rAkhI devAnuM tame nakkI karI dIdhuM che kharuM ? jo nA, to yAda rAkhajo ke e rasto tamane vaheluM mota ApIne durgatimAM ja dhakelI devAno che, 10

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zemAM rasa ? dezI hisAbamAM ke komarsamAM ? bhale ne dezI hisAbamAM huM ema zIkhyo hato ke je mArI pAse rahe che e 'jamA thAya che ane je mArI pAsethI jAya che e 'udhAra' khAte noMdhAya che paraMtu; kaoNlejamAM jevo meM komarsano viSaya lIdho tyAM AkhuM samIkaraNa ja badalAI gayuM. tyAM ApyuM te 'jamA" khAte noMdhAyuM ane rAkhyuM te 'udhAra' khAte khatavAyuM! javAba Apo. ApaNane saMsArajagatanA dezI hisAbanA gaNitamAM zraddhA che ke adhyAtmajagatanA komarsanA gaNitamAM zraddhA che? rAkhIe" to "jamA" bAju vadhe e ApaNI jIvanazailI che ke 'ApIe" to "jamA" bAju vadhe e ApaNI jIvanazailI che? atyAre calaNamAM komarsanuM gaNita ja che e ApaNA khyAlamAM to kharuM ne?

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hatutumAMthI khokhomAM AvI javAnI taiyArI kharI ? ramata to hututu nI paNa huM ramyo chuM ane 'kho kho' nI paNa ramyo chuM; paraMtu anubhava ema kahe che "hututu'nI ramate mane thakavI nAkhyo che jyAre 'kho kho' nI ramate mane hasato rAkhyo che. kAraNa? 'hututu' mAM sAmAnI TAMga kheMcavAnI hatI jyAre 'kho kho' mAM sAmAne dAva ApI devAno hato. javAba Apo. jIvananI A jamIna para atyAre kaI ramata cAlu che? pratispardhAnI ke sahakAranI? bIjAne pachADatA rahevAnI ke bIjAne AgaLa vadhavA devAmAM saMmata thaI javAnI? covIseya kalAka manane anubhava zeno rahe che? prasannatAno ke udvignatAno? haLavAzano ke tanAvano? ullAsano ke ukaLATano? yAda ja haze ke "hututu' nI ramatamAM zvAsa ekadhAro TakAvI rAkhavo paDe che ane emAM hAMphI javAya che. phAvI javuM che jIvanamAM? "kho kho' para AvI jAo.

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sAmAnya dharma sAcavIne pachI ja vizeSadharma ? jyAre paNa zarIra para Ara chAMTyuM che, zarIra para vaLelo, pasIno lUchyA bAda ja chAMTyuM che ne? kapaDAM laoNnDrImAM istrI karAvavA jyAre paNa ApyA chetyAre dhoIne jaApyA che ne ? jo hA to javAba Apo. jIvanamAM jyAre paNa viziSTa dharma Adaryo che tyAre sAmAnya dharmane AcarIne ja Adaryo che e nakkI kharuM ? prabhu pAchaLa pAgala banyo chuM, mAtA-pitAne sAcavIne ja ! mAsakhamaNanI tapazcaryA karI che. rAtribhojana tyAgane amalI banAvIne ja ! lAkhonI uchAmaNI bolyo chuM, nAnA mANasonA dilane sAcavIne ja! Ama kahI zakavAnI taiyArI kharI? 13

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'meciMga' kharuM ? penTa sAthe TopI che navI ja jAmatI, cA sAthe roTalI jo nathI ja bhAvatI, eka karoDanA phlaeNTamAM bhAMgalI-tUTalI khurazI jo nathI ja cAlatI, kesaranA cAMdalA para kolasAnI bhUkI jo nathI ja zobhatI, vararAjAnI savArI gadheDA para jo nathI jajAmatI. to prabhupUjA sAthe TI.vI. paNa kyAM jAme che ? tapazcaryA sAthe haoNTala paNa kyAM zobhe che? stavana sAthe gALa paNa kyAM 'meca' thAya che ? vyAkhyAna zravaNa sAthe paraniMdAzravaNa paNa kyAM zobhe che ? javAba Apo. adhyAtmajagatanA A 'meciMga'ne anurUpa jIvananI zailIkharI? 14

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klaoNrophArma ke komA ? eka ja DaoNkTaranA hAtha nIce be dardI hatA. baMneya bhAnamAM nahotA ane chatAM eka dardI aMge DaoNkTara | nizcita hatA jyAre bIjA dardI aMge saciMta! kAraNa spaSTa hatuM. prathama dardIne DaoNkTare klaoNrophaoNrma suMghADyuM hatuM. enuM bhAnamAM AvavAnuM nizcita hatuM jyAre bIjo dardI komAmAM sarI gayo hato. enA bhAnamAM AvavA aMge koI AgAhI karI zakAya tema nahotI. javAba Apo. adhyAtmajagatanA kSetre ApaNI hAlata atyAre zI che? jiMdagI samApta thatA pahelAM mohanI nIMdamAMthI ApaNe bahAra AvI ja jazuM evI AgAhI ApaNA mATe koI karI zake tema che kharuM ke pachI "rAma bolo bhAI rAma' thAya tyAM

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samAdhAna kharuM ? ceka barAbara-sahI barAbara-baeNnka barAbara ane chatAM ya e ceka para rakama na maLI tyAre khyAla AvI gayo ke khAtAmAM belensa ja na hoya to rakama kyAMthI maLe? gADI barAbara, sTIariMga barAbara, badhAM ja mazIna barAbara, DrAivara barAbara ane chatAM gADI cAlI ja nahIM tyAre khyAla AvI gayo ke gADImAM peTrola ja na hoya to gADI cAle jakyAMthI? javAba Apo. samyaka puruSArtha pachI yate-te kSetramAM lamaNe jyAre niSphaLatA jhIMkAya che - pemenTa AvatuM nathI, dhaMdho jAmato nathI, zarIramAMthI roga javAnuM nAma leto nathI, parivAra anukULa thato nathI, AjJA koI mAnatuM nathI - tyAre mana samAdhimAM rahe che ke pachI saMklezagrasta ja rahe che? niSphaLatAmAM anya paribaLone javAbadAra mAnIne mana tanAvagrasta rahe che ke pachI "mArI pAse puNyanI mUDI ja na hoya tyAM lamaNe niSphaLatA na jhIMkAya to bIjuM thAya zuM?' A vicAre mana haLavuMphUla rahe che?

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AkarSaNa nathI, aphasosa nathI garIbanA gharamAM rahela naLa bhale lokhaMDano hato ane zrImaMtanA bAparUmamAM rahela naLa bhale sonAno hato, e baMne prakAranA naLamAMthI je pANI AvatuM hatuM emAM koI ja taphAvata nahoto. ja garIbanA peTamAM bhale roTalo ja jato hato ane zrImaMtanA peTamAM bhale bharaphI jatI hatI. e baMnenA peTamAM banatA maLamAM koI ja pharaka nahoto. garIbano agnisaMskAra bhale jaMgalanAM lAkaDAmAM thayo hato ane zrImaMtano agnisaMskAra bhale caMdananAM lAkaDAmAM dho hato, e baMnenA zarIranI thaI gayela rAkhamAM koIjataphAvata nahoto. javAba Apo. hAya-kaMkaNa ane ArasI jevI A spaSTa vAstavikatA AMkha sAme anekavAra joyA pachI have manamAM zrImaMtAInuM koI AkarSaNa rahyuM nathI ane garIbIno koI aphasosa rahyo nathI evuM kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM ApaNuM aMtaHkaraNa che kharuM ?

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baMnenA rastA alaga : sAikalanI je breka hatI e ja breka skUTaramAM goThavavAno prayAsa na ja karAya e samajaNa to kyAranI ya AvI gaI che. skUTaramAM je lAiTa hoya e ja lAiTo vimAnamAM na lagADAya e akkala paNa varasothI AvI gaI che. paNa javAba Apo. duHkhane aTakAvavA je puruSArtha karIe chIe e ja puruSArthathI doSone aTakAvavAmAM saphaLatA nathI ja maLavAnI ane sukha meLavavA je rastA apanAvIe chIe e ja raste saddaguNo upArjita karavAmAM saphaLatA nathI ja maLavAnI e akkalanuM svAmitva Aje paNa ApaNI pAse upalabdha kharuM?

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khabara paDe ke na paDe - pApa nahIM ja parIkSAmAM corI karIne vidyArthI pAsa thaI javAmAM saphaLa jarUra banI gayo paNa e hoziyAra to na ja thaI zakyo ! TI-zarTa paherIne bahAra pharavAthI yuvaka chAtInA kaeNnsarane chupAvI rAkhavAmAM saphaLa jarUra banI zakyo paraMtu kaeNnsaranI vedanAthI mukta rahevAmAM saphaLa to na ja banI zakyo! javAba Apo. cAlAkInA sahAre, buddhinA baLe athavA to pracaMDa puNyanA udaye pApa karavA chatAM na pakaDAI javAmAM huM kadAca saphaLa banI zakIza paraMtu bhavAMtaramAM e pApakarmane udayamAM AvatuM aTakAvavAmAM to mane saphaLatA nathI ja maLavAnI e bAbatanI ApaNane pUrepUrI zraddhA kharI ? e zraddhAne sahAre koIne khabara paDe ke na paDe, koI jANe ke na jANe, pApa karavAthI ApaNI jAtane ApaNe dUra ja rAkhIe chIe e nakkIkharuM?

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salAha konI ? dhaMdhA vagerenA kAraNe jene satata bahAra ja pharatA rahevuM paDe che e mANasa roja bhale 'laoNja'mAM jamato hoya che paraMtu e ja mANasanuM jyAre peTabagaDe che tyAre elaoNjachoDIne gharamAM jamavAnuM zarU kare che. kAraNa ? laoNjamAM je hoya te khAI levuM paDatuM hoya che jyAre gharamAM potAnuM peTana bagaDe evAM dravyo e khAI zakato hoya che. javAba Apo. saMsAranA A bajAramAM cAlu saMyogomAM bhale ApaNe game tevI vyaktinAM salAha sUcano svIkArIne ApaNuM jIvana gabaDAvatA rahIe chIe paraMtu jIvanamAM jyAre koI takalIpha UbhI thAya che, vyakti sAthe duzmanAvaTa UbhI thaI javAnA saMyogo UbhA thaI jAya che, mana krUra vicAronuM zikAra banI jAya che tyAre to ApaNe AptapuruSonI-ziSTapuruSonI ke gurudevanI salAha ja laIe chIe ane emanI salAhAnusAra ja takalIphonA nivAraNamAM AgaLa vadhIe chIe e nakkI kharuM? 20

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nirbhayatA : naphaTAInA gharanI ke nirdoSatAnA gharanI ? bhIkhArIne corano Dara na hoya e judI vAta che ane siMhane sasalAno Dara na hoya e judI vAta che. naphaphaTane samAjano Dara na hoya e judI vAta che ane pavitra puruSa koInA bApathI ya na Darato hoya e judI vAta che. vezyA koI paNa puruSathI naDaratI hoya e judI vAta che ane satItvanA tejathI jhaLahaLatI sItA jevI koka satI strI rAvaNa jevA baLavAna puruSathI ya na DaratI hoya e judI vAta che. nAgo ane pAcho gAMDo mANasa paoNlIsathI na Darato hoya e judI vAta che ane nirdoSa mANasa paoNlIsathI Darato hoya e judI vAta che. javAba Apo. ApaNe nirbhaya chIe kharA? jo hA, to ApaNI nirbhayatA naphaphaTAInA gharanI che ke nirdoSatAnA gharanI ? nAstikatAnA gharanI che ke pavitratAnA gharanI? guNakSetre sarvathA daridratAnA gharanI che ke guNakSetre zikhara para AruDha chIe enI che? pApabhaya nathI enI che ke jIvanamAM pApa ja nathI enI che?

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pAtratA vinAno puNyodaya ? durgatimAM mokalI deze. hojarI sarasa hovA chatAM jene bhojanamAM roTalo ja maLe che enI ApaNane kAMI dayA nathI AvatI paraMtu hojarI jenI ekadama narama hoya che ene bhojanamAM jyAre guMdarapAka maLe che tyAre e joIne ApaNA moDhAmAMthI hAyakAro nIkaLI jAya che. 'a222) AnuM yo zuM ?' javAba Apo. ApaNA jIvana mATe ApaNI manaHsthiti zI che ? yogyatA sarasa hovA chatAM puNya alpa hoya enI ApaNane vyathA ke yogyatAnA kSetre kaDAko bolAyo hoya ane sAme puNya pracaMDa udayamAM AvatuM hoya enI ApaNane vedanA prayAsa ApaNA kayA kSetranA ? yogyatAne vikasita karavAnA kSetranA ke puNyane vadhu ne vadhu hRdayamAM lAvatA rahevAnA kSetranA? yAda rAkho. nabaLI hojarImAM guMdarapAka hospiTalamAM ja mokalaze, pAtratA vinAno puNyodaya to durgatimAM ja ravAnA karI deze. sAvadhAna!

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mota vakhate samAdhi ze Takaze ? kapaDAM jema jema jUnAM thatAM jAya che, enA pratyenuM AkarSaNa ghaTatuM jAya che. gADI kharIdyA pachI jema jema divaso pasAra thAya che, enA pratyenA mohamAM oTa AvavA ja lAge che. baMgalo jema jema jUno thato jAya che, enA pratyenA rAgabhAvamAM kaDAko bolAto ja jAya che. eTaluM ja nahIM, Aje jenuM moDhuM joyA vinA cena nathI paDatuM e patnI pratyenuM AkarSaNa paNa samaya jatAM ghaTatuM ja jAya che. paNa sabUra ! zarIranI bAbatamAM anubhava AnAthI bilakula viparIta ja che. zarIra jema jema jUnuM thatuM jAya che, enA pratyeno rAga ghaTavAnI vAta to dUra rahI, enA pratyeno rAga vadhu ne vadhu majabUta thato jAya che, ene sAcavatA rahevAnI ane paMpALatA rahevAnI vRddhi vadhu ne vadhu balavAra banatI jAya che. javAba Apo. A ja manaHsthiti che ApaNI ? jo hA, to mota vakhatanI samAdhinuM zuM thaze enI ciMtA ApaNI cAlu che kharI ? jo nA, to paralokamAM ApaNe jazuM kyAM ?

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abhiprAyamAM rAjI ke anubhavamAM? zarIramAM roga che paNa enuM cokkasa nidAna thatuM nathI. tame DaoNkTara pAse jAo cho. badhA ja riporTa NORMAL Ave che. DaoNkTara tamane kAMI ja nathI' nuM sirTiphikeTa ApI de che ane toya tamArA caherA para camaka nathI AvatI. kAraNa ? DaoNkTaranA abhiprAya karatA tamane tamAro anubhava bilakula alagaja lAge che. ApaNuM aMtaHkaraNa spaSTa kahe che ke ApaNAmAM ThIkaThIka pramANamAM bagADo che ja ane ApaNAM bAhyAcaraNane jonArAo ema kahI rahyA che ke 'tame to khUba sajjana mANasa cho.' javAba Apo. 'sarjana' hovAnA e abhiprAyo ApaNane sAcA lAge che ke pachI 'durjana' hovAno ApaNo anubhava ja ApaNane sAco lAge che? sArA abhiprAyathI ApaNe rAjI ke sArA banI javAnA ApaNA puruSArthane vega ApavAnA ApaNA prayAso?

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mana kyAreya khoTuM lAgyuM kharuM ? dhajAnI pharakavAnI dizA aMge AgAhI karavAnuM ApaNe eTalA mATe TALIe chIe ke ApaNane spaSTa khyAla che ke dhajAne kaI dizAmAM pharakavuM eno nirNaya pavane potAne hastaka rAkhyo che. mana kaI paLe kaI vyakti mATe kevo abhiprAya ApI besaze ke kayA saMyoga mATe kevo abhigama apanAvI besaze enI cokkasa AgAhI karavI sAce ja muzkela che. kAraNa ke enI caMcaLatAno ApaNane pUrepUro anubhava che. aneka vakhatano anubhava che. Ama chatAM javAba Apo. ApaNA khudanA jIvana mATe ApaNAM ja mana taraphathI je-je salAhasUcano maLe che enA para ApaNane Aja sudhImAM kyAreya zaMkA jAgI che kharI? caMcaLa mana taraphathI maLatAM salAha-sUcano galata paNa hoI zake che evuM ApaNane kyAreya lAgyuM che kharuM? prabhuvacano para zaMkA ane mananAM salAha-sUcano para zraddhA?

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dharmakriyA jhaDapathI ? zvAsocchavAsa jhaDapathI cAlavA lAge e hakIkata ja mane bhayabhIta karI devA paryApta che. zarIramAM lohI jhaDapathI pharavA lAge e vAstavikatA sAce ja zarIranI taMdurastI mATe jokhamI che e bAbatamAM mane koI ja zaMkA nathI. javAba Apo. je paribaLothI ApaNe ApaNA paralokane saddhara banAvI devAno che e prabhunAM darzana ApaNe jhaDapathI patAvatA hoIe tyAM ApaNane ApaNA AtmAnuM ahita thaI rahyAno khyAla Ave che kharo? tAraka evI dharmakriyAo jhaDapathI patAvI detAM koI vedanA anubhavAya che kharI? saMpatinI lhAyamAM upakArI mAtA-pitA pAse paNa besavAno samaya nathI raheto eno koI trAsa thAya che kharo?

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sAce ja ApaNe trAsyA chIe ? vALa kapAvavA ja che mAre ane eTale ja hajAmane mAthuM soMpI detA mane koI ja hicakicATa thato nathI. rogajanya vedanAthI mukta thavuM ja che mAre ane eTale ja oNparezana Tebala para sUI jaIne DaoNkTarane zarIra soMpI detA mane koI takalIpha thatI nathI. cokkasa sthaLe pahoMcavuM ja che mAre ane eTale ja rikSA DrAivarane jIvana soMpI detA mane bIjo koI ja vicAra Avato nathI. javAba Apo. sAce ja ApaNe vAsanAnI satAmaNIthI trAsyA chIe? krodhanA vAraMvAranA humalAothI ApaNe sAce ja herAna chIe ? lobha ApaNA mATe sAce ja asahya banI rahyo che? A tamAma praznono javAba jo 'hA' hota to deva-guru-dharmanuM zaraNa svIkArI levAmAM ApaNane koI paribaLapratibaMdhaka banyuM nahota!

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nANA S6 mAMDavA mAMDavALa karI daIe ema ?' eka ja pArTImAM pemenTa pAMca varasathI aTakyuM che. pAMca varasamAM pacAsa vAra tame e pemenTa mATe pArTI pAse ugharANI karI che ane chatAM pemenTa tamane maLyuM nathI. javAba Apo. e pemenTa mATe tame kAyama mATe mAMDavALa karI do kharA? zarIramAM pAMca pAMca varasathI ghara karI gayelA rogane dUra karavA tame varasothI niSNAta DaoNkTaranI davA karI rahyA cho ane chatAM e rogamAM eka TakA paNa rAhata tamane anubhavavA nathI maLatI. javAba Apo. davA levAnI tame kAyama mATe mAMDavALa karIdo kharA? jo, nA. to javAba Apo. satkAryamAM saMpanio sadvyaya karavAnI tame gurubhagavaMta pAse bhAvanA vyakta karI ane chatAM gurubhagavaMte tamane e aMge koI cokkasa kSetra na batAvyuM. tame vAraMvAra e mATeno Agraha cAlu ja rAkho ke pachI mana sAthe samAdhAna karI lo ke "ApaNe to bhAvanA vyakta karI paNa gurudevalAbha ja na Ape to zuM karIe?

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DikSanarImAM na chapAyelA zabdo nathI ja bolavA. nakkI ? jenA nAmanuM tamArA copaDAmAM khAtuM ja na hoya enI pAse to tame 2kama mAgavA na ja jAo ne? je baeNnkamAM tamAro eka rUpiyo ya jamA na hoya e baeNnkamAM jaIne tame tamAro ceka to kaeNziyarane na ja Apo ne? je sAmAna para tamAruM nAma ja na hoya e sAmAna uThAvIne tame TrenamAM besavAno prayAsa to na ja karo ne? jenI sAthe tamAre bolavA vyavahAra ja na hoya enI sAthe tame rastA vacce taDAphaDI to na ja karavA lAgo ne? eka kAma karavuM che? tame nakkI karI do. DikSanarImAM je zabdo chapAyA ja nahIM hoya evA zabdono prayoga huM jiMdagImAM kyAreya nahIM karu! kaTokaTI cAhe game tevI AvI jaze, sAmI vyakti taraphathI herAnagati cAhe game tevI thaze, nukasAnI game tevI | lamaNe jhIMkAze paNa moDhAmAMthI e zabdo to nahIMja nIkaLe ke je 1 DikSanarImAM nahIMchapAyA hoya ! nakkI?

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mAvajata konI ? vRkSanI ke bIjanI? AMbAnA vRkSa pAse bhogI pahoMcI to gayo paNa eNe eka ja dhyAna rAkhyuM ke e vRkSa para lAgela kerIo koI toDI na jAya, koI corI na jAya. - e ja vRkSa pAse mALI paNa pahoMcI gayo paNa eNe eka ja kAma karyuM, mULane pANI pAtA rahevAnuM! | bhogIe vRkSane sAcavyuM, phaLa mATe, mALIe mULane sAcavI lIdhuM, vRkSa mATe! javAba Apo. ApaNI bhUmikA zenI che? bhogInI ke mALInI? ApaNe puNyanA cAhaka ke dharmanA cAhaka? ApaNe puNyarakSaka ke dharmarakSaka? ApaNe sukhapremI ke guNapremI? ApaNe puNyanA udayamAM pAgala ke puNyanA baMdhamAM pAgala? yAda rAkhajo, vRkSanI mAvajatamAM thoDAMka phaLo ja maLe che paraMtu bIjanI mAvajatamAM to zuM nathI maLatuM e prazna che! 30

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, e cora Ave tyAre cokIdAra bhAgI jAya ? cokIdArane pagAra ApatA ho tame 5000no ane kharekhara cora Ave tyAre e cokIdAra jo bhAgI ja jato hoya to e cokIdArane tame nokarI para cAlu rAkho kharA? jo nA, to pralobhanonI upasthitimAM mana kheMcAI jAya pralobhanomAM, AcarI bese akArya, karI bese pApa ane jIvana kharaDAI jAya duSkAryothI, AvuM kAMI ja na bane e mATe ApaNe svIkAratA hoIe vrata-niyamo, pratijJApUrvaka svIkArI letA hoIe niyaMtraNo paraMtu AMkha sAme pralobhano upasthita thatAM ja mana jo niHsatva banIne vrata-niyamo toDI besatuM hoya ane niyaMtraNo phagAvI besatuM hoya to pachI svIkArelA e vrata-niyamonuM karavAnuM zuM? - TUMkamAM, cora Ave tyAre cokIdAre jo e corane haDaselI ja devo joIe to pralobhano upasthita thAya tyAre vrata-niyamoe e pralobhanone paDakAravA ja joIe. A bAbatamAM ApaNe 'pAsa' kharA?

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saMpIi khudanI rakSA nathI karI zakatI. tamArI karaze ? nokarIe rAkhelA gurakhAne tame pagAra apAtA hatA 5000no paNa tame ene gaI kAle nokarImAMthI chUTo karI dIdho. kAraNa ? rAtanA coro AvyA ane tamArI saMpatinI rakSA karavAmAM e dharAra niSphaLa gayo. javAba Apo. saMpatinI rakSA karavAmAM niSphaLa banatA gurakhAne jo , nokarImAM cAlu rakhAya nahIM to je saMpa itamArA khudanI rakSA karavAmAM saphaLa nathI banavAnI, tamArA mananI prasannatAne cirasthAyI banAvI devAmAM je saMpa ijavAba nathI ja ApavAnI e saMpanei A Uma jIvanano saMpUrNa samaya ApI devAnI je bhUla tame atyAre karI rahyA cho e bhUlathI pAchA pharI javAnI tamArI taiyArI kharI?

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bhojana pachI to bhUkha zamI ja jAya ne ? bhUkha sakhata lAgI hatI paNa peTamAM bhojananAM dravyo gayA ane bhUkha samApta thaI gaI. thAka sakhata lAgyo hato paNa besavA mATe gADI maLI gaI ane thAka UtarI gayo. tarasa sakhata lAgI hatI paNa pANI maLI gayuM pIvA ane tRSA zAMta thaI gaI. manamAM krodhanA saMskAro jAlima hatA, vAsanAnI satAmaNI paNa ochI to nahotI ja, lobhavRIi paNa sateja hatI, svacchaMdatAnuM jora paNa ThIkaThIka pramANamAM hatuM paNa prabhunAM vacano sAMbhaLyA ane e tamAma doSomAM ThIkaThIka pramANamAM kaDAko bolAI ja gayo, ema kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM ApaNuM aMtaHkaraNa kharuM ? bhojana pachI bhUkha zamI ja jAya to pravacanazravaNa pachI doSo ghaTI jAya evuM nahIM? 33

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paisA ochA karI devAno vicAra kyAreya Avyo kharo ? gADI. meLavavA jo tame paisA kharacavA taiyAra cho. taMdurastI prApta karavA jo tame DaoNkTarane lAkho rUpiyA ApavA taiyAra cho. bAbAne skUlamAM eDamizana apAvavA jo tame hajAro rUpiyA veravA taiyAra cho. are, paisA vadhAravA jo tame dhaMdhAmAM paisA rokavA taiyAra cho to javAba Apo. paisA ochA karavAthI mananI prasannatA jaLavAI rahetI hoya to e mATe tame taiyAra kharA? paisA choDI devAthI sagAbhAI sAthenA saMbaMdhamAM mIThAza jaLavAI rahetI hoya to e mATenI tamArI taiyArI kharI ? paisA pAchaLanI doDadhAma ghaTADI devAthI jIvanamAM zAMti anubhavAtI hoya to e mATe tame taiyAra kharA? samAdhi, saguNo ane sagati e traNe ya paisA ochA karavAthI nakkI thaI jatA hoya to e mATe u4

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saMpati jeTalI paNa maLe, ochI ja lAge che ? peTamAM padharAvelA bhojananAM dravyo jyAre vadhI gayAnuM anubhavAya che tyAre peTamAM rItasara akaLAmaNano anubhava thAya che. pAMca ja jaNane, samAvI zakatA oraDAmAM jyAre dasa jaNane samAvavAmAM Ave che tyAre akaLAmaNa anubhavAya ja che. tRSA karatA vadhu pANI pIvAI javAya che tyAre akaLAmaNano anubhava thAya ja che. javAba Apo. jarUriyAta karatAM vadhu saMpIi jyAre hAthamAM AvI jAya che tyAre akaLAmaNano anubhava thAya che ke oDakArano anubhava thAya che? vipula saMpanuiM svAmitva trAsano anubhava karAve che ke hAzano anubhava karAve che? A praznanA javAbanI sAme tamAruM e bayAna to nathI ne ke "amane saMpara game teTalI maLe che, ochI ja lAge che, vadhu lAgatI ja nathI pachI akaLAmaNano anubhava thavAno to prazna ja kyAM rahe che?'

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prabhu ! mane e durjanatAthI tuM dUra ja rAkhaje mAthA pachADavAnuM mana thAya, rAtonI rAto taraphaDatA rahIne pasAra karavI paDe, maravAnI satata icchA thayA kare ane chatAM mota Ave ja nahIM, AMkhamAMthI vahetAM AMsu aTakavAnuM nAma le ja nahIM" AvI vedanA kaeNnsaranA dardIne hoya che. sAcuM bolo. AvuM sAMbhaLatA ema thAya ja ne ke AvA dardano zikAra he bhagavAna ! huM kyAreya na ja bane evI karuNA tuM varasAvaje ! have javAba Apo. prabhu pAse javAnuM mana na thAya, paisA khAtara sagA bApa sAthe ya duzmanAvaTa karavAnuM mana thAya, sagI bahenane ya vikArI najare jovAnI durbuddhi jAge, bhakSyAbhaDhyano ke peyApeyano koI viveka ja na rahe" AvAM lakSaNo durjananA hoya che. AvuM jyAre paNa sAMbhaLavA maLe tyAre prabhune prArthanA karavAnuM mana thAya ja ne ke he prabhu! AvI durjanatAthI tuM mane bacAvato ja raheje. mAtra A janama mATe ja nahIM, janamajanama mATe!" 3 6

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nabaLA-nakAmA-nirarthaka vicAro manamAM nahIM ! ghara ATaluM badhuM sarasa eTalA mATe lAgI rahyuM che ke A gharamAM nabaLI-nakAmI ke nirarthaka vastuono saMgraha karavAmAM Avato ja nathI. zarIranI taMdurastI e hisAbe jaLavAI rahI che ke peTamAM saDelA ke nakAmA eka paNa dravyane kyAreya padharAvavAmAM AvatA ja nathI. javAba Apo. manane A ja abhigamanA sahAre svaccha-svastha ane pavitra rAkhavAmAM Aje ApaNe saphaLa banI ja rahyA chIe ema chAtI ThokIne ApaNe kahI zakIe tema chIe kharA? nakAmA vicAro, nirarthaka vicAro, nukasAnakArI vicAro, nakArAtmaka vicAro ane nirAzAjanaka vicAro, ApaNA manane ApaNe evA vicArothI mukta ja rAkhIe chIe ane ema karavA dvArA manane sadAbahAra prasanna ja rAkhIe chIe ema kahevAmAM ApaNane koI ja rokI zake tema nathI e nakkIkharuM? 37

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prabhune choDIne anyatra kyAMya dila TharatuM nathI lAiTanA game teTalA jabaradasta prakAza chatAM ya sUrajamukhI phUla e prakAzamAM nathI ja UgatuM. plAsTikanuM puSpa bhale ne gajabanAka sauMdarya , laIne beThuM che, bhamaro e phUla tarapha AkarSita nathI ja thato. nakalI noTa bhale ne ekadama AkarSaka dekhAya che, vepArI ene svIkAravA , taiyAra nathI ja thato. javAba Apo. padArtho game teTalA cikkAra maLavA chatAM ya, AkarSaka ane anukULa maLavA chatAM ya ApaNe paramAtmAne choDIne kyAMya TharatA nathI ane jAmatA nathI, prasannatA anubhavatA nathI ane mastI mANI zakatA nathI ema kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM sAce ja ApaNuM aMtaHkaraNa kharuM?

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ApaNe stabdha kharA ? haoNspiTala kaeNnsaranI ane chatAM emAM rahela dardIne tame hasato juo, tamane Azcarya thAya ja ne? majUra kAma karato hoya kolasAnI khANamAM ane chatAM enAM kapaDAM ; thoDA-ghaNAM paNa UjaLAM dekhAtAM hoya to tamArI AMkho AzcaryathI pahoLI thaI ja jAya ne? mANasa page khoDakhAMpaNa laIne beTho hoya ane chatAM , oNlimpikamAM doTanI harIphAImAM e naMbara laI Ave to tame ! stabdha thaI ja jAo ne? javAba Apo. anaMta anaMta karmothI gherAyelo ane anAdinA kusaMskArono zikAra banelo saMsArI AtmA, enAmAM ApaNane koka guNa dekhAya, koka sampravRti enA jIvanamAM jovA maLe, savyavahAranI alapajhalapa enA jIvanamAM anubhavavA maLe, ApaNe e badhuM joIne stabdha banI ja jaIe, e badhuM ApaNane Azcaryavibhora, banAvIne ja rahe enizcita kharuM? 38

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aMtaramAM "hAza'nI anubhUti kharI? dardanI upasthitimAM mane DaoNkTara maLI jAya tyAre to hAza thAya ja che, davA maLI jAya tyAre to prasannatA huM anubhavuM ja chuM paraMtu 'davAkhAnA'nuM borDa vaMcAtAM ya mArA caherA para camaka AvI jAya che. mane AzA baMdhAya che ke "cAlo, dardamAM have to rAhata thaze ja.' javAba Apo. rastA parathI pasAra thatAM maMdiranA zikhara para pharakI rahela dhajA jotAM AvI ja kaMIka haLavAzanI anubhUti ApaNane thAya che kharI ke "hAza, vAsanAnI satAmaNImAM have kaMIkato rAhata thaze ja." sAmAyikanuM kaTAsaNuM dekhAtAM ja aMtaramAM ApaNane hAza thAya che kharI ke cAlo, krodhanA AvegamAM have kaMIka to kaDAko bolAze ja." davAkhAnAnuM borDa paNa manane jo haLavuM phUla banAvI zakatuM hoya to pachI maMdira paranI dhajA ane sAmAyikanuM kaTAsaNuM, haLavAzathI anubhUti kema na karAve?

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'repara' kADhyA vinA cokaleTanuM sevana ? kalesAM khUba lagAvyA ane chatAM nAvaDuM kyAMya pahoMcyuM ja nahIM kAraNa ke 'laMgara' uThAvavAnuM ja bhUlAI gayuM hatuM. peDala khUba lagAvyA ane chatAM sAikala kyAMya pahoMcI ja nahIM kAraNa ke sAikalane 'sTaeNnDa' parathI nIce utArI devAnuM ja bhUlAI gayuM hatuM. caoNkaleTa eka kalAka sudhI moDhAmAM rAkhI mUkI ane chatAM svAdano koI ja anubhava na thayo kAraNa ke caoNkaleTanI uparanuM 'raipara' kADhavAnuM ja bhulAI gayuM hatuM. javAba Apo. prabhunI pUjA cAlu hovA chatAM prasannatAnI alapajhalapa paNa jo anubhavano viSaya nathI banatI, varasothI dAnano abhyAsa cAlu hovA chatAM mUrchAmAM jo AMzika paNa kaDAko bolAyo hovAnuM nathI anubhavAtuM, sAmAyikanI sAdhanA rojanI cAlu hovA chatAM samatvabhAvanI hRdayamAM AMzika paNa pratiSThA thayAnuM jo nathI anubhavAtuM to tyAM pUjA vagerenI tAkAta para zaMkA pedA thaI jAya che ke pachI ApaNAM ja khudanA manano abhigama ApaNe samyaka nathI banAvI zakyA enA para najara jAya che ? 41

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dharmakAryo : lagnanA varaghoDAmAM cAlatA jAnaiyAnI jema varaghoDo lagnano hato. pablika cikkAra hatI paNa jAnaiyAo badhA ja dhIme dhIme ane prasannatApUrvaka emAM cAlatA hatA. prasaMga smazAnayAtrAno hato. pablika emAM ya ghaNI hatI paraMtu DAghuo sahita sahu emAM utAvaLe utAvaLe ane udvignatApUrvaka cAlatA hatA. javAba Apo. paropakAranA ke dharmArAdhanAnA, tyAganA ke sevAnA jIvanamAM je paNa kAryo ApaNe karIe chIe e badhAM ja kAryo lagnanA varaghoDAmAM cAlatA jAnaiyAonI jema ja ApaNe karIe chIe ane svArthanA ke pAponAM je paNa kAryo ApaNA jIvanamAM cAlu che e badhAM ja kAryo smazAnayAtrAmAM sAmela DAghuonI jema ja thAya che ema kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM ApaNe kharA?

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jyAM zarIra, tyAM mana hAjara kharuM? hato to e satkAra samAraMbha paNa e satkAra samAraMbha, emAM hAjara rahenAra tamAma mATe banIgayo majAka-mazkarInuM kAraNa ! kAraNa? A ja ke jeno satkAra samAraMbha hato e vyakti khuda ja e samAraMbhamAM gerahAjara | hatI ! loko to ApasamAM tyAM sudhI gapasapa karatA hatA ke "prasaMga jeno hoya e khuda ja hAjara na hoya ane bIjA badhA ja hAjara hoya e prasaMgane to 'uThamaNAM' no prasaMga kahevAya, satkAra samAraMbhano prasaMga zuM kahevAya? javAba Apo. AMgaLI ApaNI prabhunI pratimA para jyAre paNa hoya che tyAre ApaNuM mana tyAM hAjara hoya ja che, sAmAyikanA kaTAsaNAM para jyAre ApaNe beThA hoIe chIe tyAre ApaNuM mana tyAM upasthita hoya ja che, dAna ApatA laMbAyelA hAtha vakhate manano upayoga emAM hoya ja che ema ApaNe kahI zakIe tema chIe kharA? yAda rAkhajo. satkAra samAraMbha koIpaNa saMyogamAM | uThamaNAMrUpa to na ja banavo joIe. 43

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dharma: patnInA sthAne ke erahosTesanA sthAne ? jene satata vimAnamAM ja pravAsa karavAnA hoya che e vyakti eka bAbatamAM khUba spaSTa hoya che. vimAnamAM sevA ApanArI eNra-hosTesa game teTalI rUpALI hoya che to ya e enA para mohI nathI paDato ! hA. enI sevA e jarUra leto rahe che paNa enA para mohI paDavAnI vAta? bilakula nahIM. saMsAranI A yAtrA para ApaNe Dagale ne pagale puNyakarmanI sevA levAnA prasaMgo to AvatA ja rahe che ane AvatA ja rahevAnA che paNa javAba Apo. ApaNe enI sevA laIne ene rAma-rAma karI daIe chIe ke pachI enA para mohI paNa paDIe chIe? yAda rAkhajo. dharma bhale thoDoka kaSTadAyaka che paNa enuM tha | na .. YY

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e adezya paribaLanI tapAsa karI ? e mANasa garIba hato. khAvAnA ya ene vAMdhA hatA tyAM mAMdagI Ave tyAre davA meLavavA to ene cAre ya bAju doDadhAma karavI paDatI hatI paNa khabara nahIM, acAnaka ene kokanI gupta sahAya maLavA lAgI. dara mahinAnI pahelI tArIkhe enA gharanI bahAra rAtanA ja koka ghI-goLa-tela-ghauM-juvAra-bAjarI vagere mUkI javA lAgyuM ane eNe tapAsa AdarI ke mane AvI gupta sahAya pahoMcADanAra che koNa? javAba Apo. rastA para ApaNo eksiDanTa thato nathI. gharamAM dAkhala thaIne ApaNuM khUna koI karI jatuM nathI. rAtanA sUtA pachI ApaNo koI puruSArtha na hovA chatAM ApaNe hemakhema UThIe chIe. Ano artha eTalo ja che ke ApaNane koka adeya paribaLa 45

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jIvanazelI madhyAhna jevI ? sUryane udayAcale joyo che ne ? ene namaskAra karanArAo kadAca lAkhonI saMkhyAmAM che. ene astAcale joyo che ne? enAM darzana karavA janArAo kadAca hajAronI saMkhyAmAM che paNa sabUra ! e jyAre madhyAhna hoya che tyAre nathI to koI ene namaskAra karatuM ke nathI to koI enAM darzana karatuM. kadAca acAnaka kokanI najara enA para paDI paNa jAya che to ya turta ja e tyAMthI potAnI ! najara pAchI kheMcI le che. kAraNa ? madhyAhnano sUrya mAtra prakAza ja nathI Apato, sAthe garamI paNa | pheMke che. loko prakAza icche che. garamI nathI icchatA! javAba Apo. ApaNI potAnI jIvanazailI ApaNe kevI banAvI che? udayAcalaastAcala jevI ke madhyAhna jevI? ApaNe sahune prakAza ja ApI rahyA chIe ke prakAza sAthe ugratA ane uSNatA paNa ApI rahyA chIe? ApaNI najIka rahevA icchanAro vargavadhu che ke ApaNAthI , dUra rahevA icchanAro vargavadhu che?

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saMgraha nahIM, sadupayoga tAkAtavAna ! potAnA ja paisA vepArI potAnI pAse rAkhI mUkavA karatA baeNnkamAM mUkavAnuM vadhu pasaMda kare che. potAnI pAse rahela biyAraNa potAnI ja pAse rAkhI mUkavAne badale kALI mATImAM vAvavAnuM kheDUta vadhu pasaMda kare che. kAraNa ? eka ja. mUDInA saMgraha karatAM mUDInuM rokANa vadhu phAyadAkAraka hoya che eno e baMnene barAbara khyAla hoya che. javAba Apo. zakti-sAmagrI ane saMpatinI bAbatamAM ApaNI A zraddhA kharI ? e tamAmano saMgraha jeTalo tAkAtaprada che enA karatAM anekagaNo tAkAtaprada to eno sadupayoga che. e tamAmano bhoga jeTalo AnaMdaprada che enA karatAM anekagaNo AnaMdaprada to e tamAmano sanmArge thato tyAga che. e tamAmanI Asakti manane jeTalI bahelAvI zake che enA karatAM mananI anekagaNI prasannatA to enAthI thatI kokanI bhakti ApI zake che. A zraddhA ApaNane kharI?

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AtmAne sAcavI levA tyAga mATe mana taiyAra ? tabiyata acAnaka ekadama bagaDe che ane mANasa najIkamAM rahela davAkhAne pahoMcI jaIne ajANyA evA paNa DaoNkTarane potAnI tabiyata batAvIne e mAge eTalA rUpiyA ApI de che. oNphisamAM acAnaka "reDa' paDe che ane mANasa ajANyA evA paNa oNphisaranA hAthamAM be-pAMca lAkha pakaDAvI devA taiyAra thaI jAya che. prazna to manamAM e UThe che ke tabiyata sAcavavA ajANyA , DaoNkTarane ane paisA sAcavavA ajANyA oNphisarane be-pAMca lAkha pakaDAvI devA taiyAra thaI jato mANasa potAnA AtmAne sAcavI levA, potAnA hRdayanA komaLa bhAvone sAcavI levA ajANyA garIba mANasane ke bhikhArIne be-pAMca rUpiyA ApI devA taiyAra kema nahIM thato hoya? aMtaHkaraNa pAsethI A praznano javAba meLavI lejo.

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dharma sAtheno vyavahAra kevo ? svajana jevo ke parajana jevo ? ghare AvI caDelA ajANyA AMganaka pratye zarUAtamAM evI koI AtmIyatA darzAvI nahIM paraMtu ekAda kalAka bAda khyAla Avyo ke ghare je bhAI AvyA che emanA cakI ja A dharanI badhI jAhojalAlI UbhI che ane e ja paLe emanA pratye AtmIyatAno eka bhAva Ubho thaI gayo ane pachI to emanI sarabharAmAM pAchA vaLIne joyuMjanahIM. sAcuM bolo. zuM zarIranI taMdurastI ke zuM mananI svasthatA, zuM saMpadminI prApti ke zuM parivArajanonI vaphAdArI, A badhAMyanA mULamAM 'dharma' ja che eno ApaNane barAbara khyAla che kharo ? jo hA, to enI sAtheno ApaNo vyavahAra AtmIyajanano che ke pachI parAyAjanano che ? A praznano aMtaHkaraNa pAsethI sAco javAba meLavI lejo. 49

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pApa sAtheno vyavahAra rUkSa kharo ? dharamAM dAkhala thayela vyakti bhale sarvathA aANI hatI paraMtu eNe paherelAM kapaDAM eTalA badhA AkarSaka hatAM ke sahajarUpe ja enI pAchaLa pAgala banI javAnuM mana thaI jAya, enI bharapura AgatA svAgatA karI to kharI paraMtu eka klAka bAda mitranA Avela phona parathI khyAla Avyo ke AvanAra AgaMtuka bIjuM koI ja nathI, paraMtu pappAnA 1 karoDa rUpiyAnA jeNe dabAvI dIdhA hatA e dagAbAja bhAgIdAra ja che. e ja paLe enA pratyenA haiyAnAM aMta osarI gayA. 'kyAre e gharamAMthI ravAnA thaI jAya" e vicAromAM mana ramavA lAgyuM. kabUla, AkarSaka kapaDAMnAM kAraNe pApa pratye haiyuM kUNI lAgaNI dharAvI rahyuM che paraMtu anaMtajJAnIonA A vacana para ApaNane zraddhA che kharI ke je pApane te tAruM dila ApI dIdhuM che e pApe ja to tArA AtmAnA janamojanama barabAda karI dIdhA che. tArA tamAma duHkho enI sAthenI tArI prItane to AbhArI che !' jo A zraddhA ApaNAM haiyAmAM sthira che ja evuM ApaNane lAgatuM hoya to enI eka ja parIkSA che. pApa sAtheno ApaNo vyavahAra rUkSa che kharo? 50

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saMpa ipAchaLanI doTa keTalI ? jamaNavAramAM jemaNe jemaNe paNa dUdha pIdhuM e tamAmane haoNspiTala bhegA ravAnA karavA paDyAnuM tame sagI AMkhe joyuM hoya e pachI to tame e dUdha pIvAthI jAtane dUra rAkhI ja do ne? ke pachI yajamAnano Agraha thAya to e dUdha pIlo? saMpIi pAchaLa jemaNe jemaNe paNa AMdhaLI doTa lagAvI, vipula saMpI meLavavA jemaNe jemaNe paNa nIti-niyamo neve mUkyA, game te raste paNa saMpI meLavIne ja raho" AvI mAnyatAnA zikAra banIne jemaNe jemaNe paNa saMpI khAtara ekavAra sagA bApa sAthe yaduzmanAvaTa karI lIdhI e tamAmanAM jIvanamAM saLagelI azAMtinI hoLI, e tamAmanAM zarIramAM jokhamI rogoe nAkhelA DerA-taMbU, e tamAmanAM veravikhera thaI gayelAM parivAro, A badhuM joyA pachI to tame saMpa pAchaLa AMdhaLI doTa lagAvavAnuM sthagita karI ja dIdhuM che ne? saMpatinI vipulatAnA nazAthI tamArA manane mukta karI ja dIdhuM che ne? aMtaHkaraNane pUchIne javAba Apajo .

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'bArAkhaDImAM sauthI vAMkocUko akSara "huM rasto khUba vAMkocUko hoya che, gADI calAvavAmAM majA nathI AvatI. galI khUba vAMkI-cUkI hoya che, cAlavAmAM majA nathI AvatI. zeraDI khUba vAMkI-cUkI hoya che, cUsavAmAM majA nathI AvatI. saLiyo vAMko hoya che, makAnamAM goThavavAmAM majA nathI AvatI. eka vAtano khyAla che ? AkhI ya bArAkhaDImAM sahuthI vadhu vAMkocUko koI akSara hoya to e che "huM". ane kamAlanuM Azcarya e che ke ApaNane sauthI pyAra koI eka akSara para hoya to e che "huM. A "huM" paranA ApaNAM behada pyAre ja to ApaNane nathI prabhunA bhakta banavA dIdhA ke nathI jIvonA mitra banavA dIdhA. nathI svastha banavA dIdhA kenathI zuddha banavA dIdhA. javAba Apo. 'huM' sAthenA ApaNA behada pyAramAM ApaNe kaDAko bolAvavA taiyAra kharA? Lpara

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pApa : bAhyasvarUpa AkarSaka kabUla, ghare padhArelA muni bhagavaMte zarIra para dhAraNa karelAM vastro ThIka ThIka pramANamAM malina hatA e chatAM emanAM darzana thatAveMta haiyuM AnaMdavibhora banI gayuM. e vyaktinA kapaDAM ekadama AkarSaka hatA paNa jyAM khyAla Avyo ke ghare Avela e vyakti InkamaTekSa oNphisara che, haiyAmAM kaMpArI chUTI gaI. javAba Apo. dharmanuM bAhya svarUpa kaSTadAyaka hovAnA kAraNe manane ekadama jAmatuM nathI jyAre pApanuM bAhya svarUpa AkarSaka hovAnA kAraNe mana enA tarapha ekadama kheMcAI jAya che. paNa varasothI pravacanazravaNa karI rahelA ApaNane dharmamAM malina vastraparidhAna karI rahela munibhagavaMtanAM ane pApamAM AkarSaka vastra paridhAna karI rahela inkamaTeksa oNphisaranAM darzana ja thAya che evuM kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM chIe kharA?

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sAdhanA 8 mApIne ja saMtuSTa nahIM ne ? zAkabhAjI kharIdavA janAra 'kilogrAma'nA hisAbe zAka halaI Ave e to samajAya che. dUdha levA janAro liTara' nA mApe dUdha kharIdI lAve e ya samajAya che. jamIna kharIdavA janAro 'skvera phUTa' nA hisAbe jamIna kharIdee paNasamajAya che. paNa adhyAtmajagatamAM praveza karato sAdhaka sAdhanA mATe AmAMnA koI paNa mApano jo upayoga karavA lAge to e kevuM behUduM lAgI jAya ? javAba Apo. sAdhanAne ApaNe mApIe chIe ke hRdayanA mAvothI madhamadhatI banAvIe chIe ? 54

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najara : lakSaNa tarapha ke kAraNa tarapha ? parIkSAnuM pariNAma kharAba AvyuM ane vidyArthIe akaLAI jaIne pariNAmano e kAgaLa bALI nAkhyo..! bagalamAM mUkela tharamaoNmiTaramAM 105 DigrI tAva Avyo ane cIDAI gayelA dardIe e tharamaoNmiTarane phoDI nAkhyuM ! TI.vI.nA paDadA para dekhAI rahela meca bhArata hArI gayuM ane AvezamAM AvI gayela darzake TI.vI. toDI nAkhyuM ! javAba Apo. jyAre jyAre paNa jIvanamAM kaSTa-agavaDa-duHkha-pratikULatA AvyA che tyAre tyAre ApaNe e duHkho para ja tUTI paDyA chIe ke e du:khone janma ApI cUkelAM kAraNopara? lakSaNa tarapha ja ApaNI lAla AMkha rahI che ke kAraNa tarapha ApaNI lAla AMkha rahI che? duHkhamukti mATe ja ApaNe dhamapachADA karatA rahyA chIe ke pApamukti mATe ApaNe prayatnazIla banI gayA chIe? ApaNAM bhAvino nirNaya ApaNA vartamAna abhigamanA AdhAre ja thavAno che e ApaNe satata yAda rAkhavA jevuM che.

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akaLAmaNa zenI ? agninI upasthitinI jANa karatAM dhumADAthI akaLAI javuM, emAM koI navAI nathI. sAcuM parAkrama to e che ke agnine utpanna karanAra dIvAsaLIthI ja dUra thaI javuM ! dIvAsaLIthI ja dUra thaI janAra pAse dhumADo najIka AvavAnuM nAma ja kyAM le che? javAba Apo. ApaNI akaLAmaNa zemAM ? pApasevananI jAherAta karatA duHkhamAM ke pachI pApasevana mATe lalacAvatAM ane manane uzkeratAM pApanimomAM ? yAda rAkhaze. dIvAsaLI sAthenI dostI pachI dhumADAthI nathI ja bacI zakAtuM. pAiinama sAthenI dostI pachI pApathI ane duHkhathI nathI ja bacI zakAvAnuM !

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prabhuthI bhaya ke prema? puSpathI DaravAnuM to huM vicArI ya nathI zakato kAraNa ke puSpa to suvAsa ane sauMdarya laIne beThuM che. enAthI DaravAnuM hoya ke pachI enI pAchaLa pAgala banI javAnuM hoya? enI sAthe to pyAra karavAno hoya ke enAthI bhayabhIta thavAnuM hoya? anaMta guNonA mAlika che paramAtmA. anaMta puNyanA mAlika che paramAtmA. aizvaryamAM emano jo koI joTo nathI to guNavaibhavamAM ya emano koI joTo nathI. javAba Apo. AvA prabhuthI ApaNe DarIe chIe ke AvA prabhune ApaNe cAhIe chIe? AvA prabhu pratye ApaNA haiyAmAM premanAM pUra UmaTI rahyAM che ke hRdayamAM emanA pratyenA bhayasthAna jamAvyuM che? bhUlazo nahIM. premamaya banI cUkelAprabhupratye prema ja hoya, bhayana ja hoya!

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ApaNe sarasa kharA ? davAkhAnuM sarasa. DaoNkTara sarasa. emaNe lakhI Apela priskripzanano kAgaLa sarasa. emanA akSara sarasa. davA sarasa paNa A badhAye 'sarasa'nI saphaLatAno AdhAra koNa ? dardI pote. dardI jo davA le to ja A badhuM ya 'sarasa' saphaLa bane anyathA 'sarasa" badhuM yaniSphaLa. paramAtmA sarasa. emanAM vacano ApaNA kAna sudhI pahoMcADanAra gurudeva sarasa. emanAM pravacano sarasa. maMdira sarasa. maMdiramAM birAjita thayela prabhunI pratimA sarasa. AlaMbano sarasa nimiA sarasa. anuSThAno sarasa. paNa A tamAma "sarasa'nI saphaLatAno AdhAra koNa ? sAdhaka pote ja. sAdhaka A tamAma "sarasa' paribaLone aMtaHkaraNathI apanAvIne jo ene svajIvanamAM ArAdhe to ja pote doSamukta thAya. javAba Apo. AvAsAdhakamAM ApaNo naMbara kharo?

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bhava-bhAva-svabhAva Dukkarane viSTA gUMthatuM joyuM chatAM enA pratye hRdayamAM tiraskArano bhAva na jAgyo. kAraNa ? viSTA sUMghavAnI enI kriyA enA 'bhava' ne AbhArI che ema mAnIne mananuM samAdhAna karI lIdhuM. dArUnA nazAmAM cUra rahelA dArUDiyAnA mukhamAMthI apazabdo nIkaLyA ane chatAM enA pratye dveSa na jIgyo. kAraNa? apazabdo bolavAnI enI ceSTAne svabhAva' khAte khatavIne mananuM samAdhAna karI lIdhuM. javAba Apo. cAlu saMyogamAM ko'ka vyaktinA ApaNA pratyenA galata vartAvane ApaNe enA bagaDelA 'bhAva' khAte khatavIne mananuM samAdhAna karI zakIe chIe kharA ? bhava-bhAva-svabhAva, traNe ya viparIta vartana karAvI jazakechene? 59

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kiMmatI keTalA ? gADI 10lAkhanI hoya ane emAM kacaro bharelo hoya to e na ja game ne ? thALI sonAnI hoya ane emAM khAvA mATe pAuM-bhAjI pIrasAyA hoya e behUduM ja lAge ne ? vRkSa AMbAnuM hoya ane ane enI DALIe kAgaDAnuM piMjaruM laTakAvyuM hoya e pAgalatA ja lAge ne? javAba Apo. ApaNane maLela taMdurasta indriyo ane svastha mana, e keTalAnI kiMmatanAM ? kadAca ene AMkaDAmAM mApI ja na zakAya. AvA abajonI kiMmatanAM indriyo ane mana jo ApaNe bekAra ane tuccha gaNAtA padArtho para ja rokI dIdhA hoya to ApaNo naMbara zemAM? mahA mUrkhamAM ke pachI mahA pAgalamAM? O

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bhADAnAM makAna pAchaLa A pAgalatA ? je makAnamAM e to kahato e makAna khAssuM evuM moTuM hatuM. chatAM enA caherA para tAjagI nahotI, udAsInatA hatI. kAraNa ? e makAna bhADAnuM hatuM. zarIra para eNe je ghareNAM paheryA hatA e ghareNAM kadAca lAkhonI kiMmatanA hatA chatAM enA mukha para koI camaka nahotI. kAraNa ? e dhareNAM uchInAM lAvelA hatA. kabUla, zarIra ApaNuM alamasta hovAnI sAthe AkarSaka paNa che. taMdurasta hovAnI sAthe kamanIya paNa che, sazakta hovAnI sAthe rUpALuM paNa che. paNa javAba Apo. A zarIra bhADAnuM che eno ApaNane khyAla kharo ? bhADAnA makAnamAM varaso sudhI rahevA chatAM makAnamAlika tamane emAMthI bahAra na kADhI zake e bane paNa bhADAnA A zarIrane ApaNe koI paNa paLe khAlI karI ja ApavuM paDaze eno ApaNane spaSTa khyAla kharo? jo hA, to pachI A zarIra pAchaLa ATalI badhI pAgalanA zenI? 1

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jIvanamAM takalIpho vadhu ke anukULatA ? varasanA chellA divase eNe hisAba meLavyo Avaka ane jAvakano. enA caherA para prasannatA chAI gaI. kAraNa ke jAvaka karatAM AvakanuM je khAtuM hatuM e tagaDuM hatuM. kharca jeTalo thayo hato, varSa daramyAna enA karatAM kamANI vadhu thaI hatI. kabUla, jIvanamAM takalIpho che ja. duHkho ane kaSTo che ja. agavaDo ane Apaoi che ja paNa, sAthosAtha sagavaDo paNa che, sukho ane anukULatAo paNa che. suMdara sAmagrIo ane saMyogo paNa che. anukULa parivAra ane vaphAdAra mitro paNa che. javAba Apo. takalIpho je che jIvanamAM evadhu che ke anukULatAo jIvanamAM vadhu che? jo, takalIpho karatAM anukULatAo vadhu hovAnuM anubhavAya che to takalIphonA khyAle mana vyathita rahe che ke anukULatAnAkhyAla AnaMdita?

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ApaNe ciMtita keTalA ? enAM mukha para UpasI AvelI ciMtAnI rekhAo eTaluM ja sUcavatI hatI ke e kaMIka mUMjhavaNamAM che ja! kAraNa pUchyuM tyAre khyAla Avyo ke Avakano AMkaDo jAvakanA AMkaDA karatAM khUba nAno hato. kabUla, jIvanamAM dharmArAdhanAo nathI ja evuM nathI, sadguNonAM kSetre paNa sAva devALuM ja che evuM nathI paNa prazna e che ke jIvanamAM dharma vadhu che ke pApa vadhu che? guNo vadhu che ke doSo vadhu che? jo dharma karatAM pApo ane guNo karatAM doSo vadhu hovAnuM aMtaHkaraNa kahetuM hoya to javAba Apo. e badala ApaNe ciMtita keTalA? vyathita keTalA? trasta keTalA? udvigna keTalA?

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DemanA daravAjA kyAreka kholavA paNa paDe che. Dema bhale ne pANInA saMgraha mATe ja bAMdhavAmAM Ave che. paNa ema chatAM ya - emAM daravAjA to rAkhavAmAM Ave ja che. jyAM DemamAM pANInI Avaka dhAryA karatA vadhI jAya che tyAM DemanA daravAjA kramazaH kholI nAkhavAmAM Ave che. ane kyAreka to badhA ja daravAjA khullA karI devAmAM Ave che. tAtpayArtha Ano eTalo ja che ke saMgraha mATe ja jenuM sarjana thayuM hoya, emAM visarjana mATenI vyavasthA paNa rAkhavI to paDe ja che. javAba Apo. kabATamAM rahela tijorI mATe paNa A satya eTaluM ja lAgu paDe che e vAtamAM mana saMmata che kharuM? Dema chalakAI jAya tyAre ya daravAjA na kholavAmAM jo jokhama raheluM dekhAya che to tijorI chalakAI jAya tyAre ya dAnanA mArge saMpatino vyaya na karavAmAM pUrepUruM jokhama che ema mana kahe che kharuM? DemanA daravAjA kholI nAkhyA pachI je | svasthatA sAdhIzo anubhave che evI ja prasannatA dAnanA mArge saMpatino sadvyaya karyA pachI Aja sudhImAM kyAreya anubhavI che kharI?

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mana bhale ThekANe na hoya kAyAne to ThekANe ja rAkhajo parIkSAmAM bAbo pAsa na paNa thato hoya to ya pappA enA, ene skUle to mokalatA ja rahe che. kama se kama bAbo game tyAM rakhaDato to na rahe! gharAko na paNa AvatA hoya to ya bApa potAnA yuvAna dIkarAne dukAne to mokalatA ja rahe che. kama se kama enuM mana dhaMdhAmAM coTeluM to rahe! kabUla, kAyA maMdiramAM hoya che tyAre yamana kyAreka bajAramAM bhaTakatuM hoya che. kAyA tapamAM joDAyelI hoya che tyAre ya manamAM kyArekakhAvAnAvicAro cAlatA hoya che. javAba Apo. Ama chatAM ya dharmArAdhanA ApaNe prasannacio cAlu ja rAkhIe chIe e nakkI kharuM? kAyA dharmamAM joDAyelI rahe e lAbha paNa jevo-tevo nathI e ApaNI zraddhA majabUta kharI?

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aMmbesaDara ke mArUti ? eka samaya jarUra evo hato ke gADI tame zarU karo tyAre zarUAtamAM enI gati 10 kilomITaranIja hoya. pachI kramaza: enI gati vadhatI jAya. paraMtu vijJAne A muzkelI atyAre dUra karI dIdhI che. evI gADIo eNe bajAramAM mukI dIdhI che ke tame ene cAlu karI nathI ane sIdhI eko jhaDapa pakaDI nathI. javAba Apo. sadguNakSetre Aje ApaNI sthiti embeseDara jevI che ke mAruti jevI che ? doSanA kSetre ApaNI manaHsthiti jUnA jamAnAnI gADI jevI che ke navA jamAnAnI gADI jevI ? dAnanI jhaDapa turta ja pakaDAya che ke lobhanI jhaDapa ? krodha zarU thatAM ja sIdho carama DigrI para pahoMcI jAya che ke kSamA paLabharamAM ja zikharane sparzI jAya che. 99

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juniyara-siniyaranI vyavasthA nahIM vakIla varaso sudhI vakIlAta karyA bAda cAlu korTanA nyAyAdhIza bane, cAlu korTanA nyAyAdhIza varaso sudhI e ja sthAna para rahyA bAda hAIkorTanA nyAyAdhIza bane ane e ja sthAna para varaso sudhI rahyA bAda suprIma korTanA nyAyadhIza bane. A vyavasthA sarakArI taMtramAM lagabhaga barAbara rIte cAlI rahI che. paraMtu eka roganA kSetre ane bIjuM motanA kSetre karmasAe A vyavasthAnA lIrelIrA uDADI nAkhyA che. pahelAM paga duHkhe, pachI peTa duHkhe, pachI mAthuM duHkhe. pachI zaradI thAya, pachI tAva Ave, pachI gAMTha thAya ane pachI ja kaeNnsara thAya, evo krama karmasAnA rAjyamAM nathI, to pahelAM 80 varasanI vayavALAnuM mota Ave, pachI 75 varasanI vayavALAnuM mota Ave, evo koI krama paNa karmasAe nakkI rAkhyo nathI. koI paNa roga ekAeka ane koInuM paNa mota ekAeka. A vyavasthA che karmasAnA rAjyamAM. javAba Apo. karmasAnI A vyavasthA satata AMkha sAme kharI?

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kyAM jaIza ? rastAnI baMne bAju vRkSo hoya, vAtAvaraNa masta hoya, gADI navI hoya, zarIra taMdurasta hoya, vALa havAmAM UDI rahyA hoya, AvA samaye mANasa rastA para pUrajhaDape gADI bhagAvato hoya emAM kAMI Azcarya nathI paraMtu rasto acAnaka pUro thaI jAya che tyAre mANasa ciMtAmAM paDI jAya che, have AgaLa jaIza kyAM? puNyano udaya prabaLa hoya che, jIvananI gADI anukULatAnA rastA para saDasaDATa cAlatI hoya che tyAM sudhI to mANasane yAda paNa nathI AvatuM ke A jIvana pUruM thavAnuM ja che. javAba Apo. 'jIvananI samApti bAda huM jaIza kyAM?' e atyArathI vicArI rAkhyuM che kharuM?

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ciMtA zenI ? mAruM zuM thaze enI ke pAchaLavALAnuM zuM thaze enI ? DaoNkTare spaSTa zabdomAM jaNAvI dIdhuM hatuM ke "pappA have be kalAkathI vadhAre jIvavAnA nathI." pappAne potAne paNa A hakIkatano khyAla AvI gayo ane chatAM pappA eka ja ciMtAmAM vyasta rahyA 'mArA maryA pachI sAsare rahela dIkarInuM zuM thaze ? amerikA bhaNI rahela dIkarAnuM zuM thaze ? gharamAM rahela maMdabuddhi dIkarAnuM zuM thaze? dIkarAnI mammInuM zuM thaze?" A ja ciMtAmAM ne ciMtAmAM pappAe jIvananA AkharI zvAsa choDI dIdhA. ApaNI jAtane ApaNe samajadAra mAnIe chIe ne? dharmanA kSetramAM ThIka ThIka AgaLa mAnIe chIe ne? javAba Apo. ApaNane ciMtA zenI che? mArA maryA pachI pAchaLavALAnuM zuM thaze, enI ApaNane ciMtA che ke pachI maryA pachI AgaLa mAruM zuM thaze, enI ApaNane ciMtA che? pAchaLavALA mArA vinA du:khI thaI jaze enI ciMtA ApaNA manano kabajo. jamAvI beThI che ke pachI dharma vinA huM AgaLa du:khI thaI jaIza enI ciMtA ApaNA manane korI rahI che ? pahelI ciMtA ApaNo paraloka bagADI nAkhaze jyAre bIjI ciMtA ApaNo *, paraloka sudhArI nAkhaze.

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doSa jAhera thaI jAya : ApaNe prasanna ke nArAja ? zarIramAM chupAIne paDyo hato roga, koIne ya nahotI enI jANa ane acAnaka eka vaidarAje enA caherAne joIne enA zarIramAM chupAIne paDelA roganI ene jANa karI dIdhI. enA AnaMdano pAra na rahyo. enuM mastaka vaidarAja pratyenA ahobhAvathI jhUkI gayuM. javAba Apo. manamAM koka evo doSa paDyo che ke jenI jANa ApaNA sivAya bIjA koIne ya nathI. ane acAnaka koka vyakti ApaNA e doSane pakaDI paNa pADe che ane anekanI vacce jAhera paNa karI de che. sAcuM bolo. e vakhate ApaNAM mananI sthiti zI? doSa jAhera thaI gayo e badala ApaNe prasanna? doSa pakaDI pADanAra pratyenA ApaNAM haiyAno sadbhAva akabaMdha? 90

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pApanimio pAse sAme caDIne to ApaNe jatA nathI ne ? guMDo gharamAM AvavA mAgato hoya to ene aTakAvavo paDe, parANe paNa AvI jAya to ene gharanI bahAra kADhavo paDe, parANe paNa sophAseTa para besI jAya to ene bahAra kADhavA polIsane bolAvavo paDe A to saMsAra che. pApanimiono ahIM koI toTo nathI. ane A to mana | che. kusaMskAronuM jora enA para keTaluM che enuM koI varNana thAya tema nathI. A sthitimAM mana kaI paLe pApavicAromAM ramatuM na thaI jAya e prazna che. javAba Apo. pApanimio pAse ApaNe sAme caDIne jatAM ja nathI e nakkI kharuM? sAmethI pApanimiDo ApaNI pAse AvI jAya che to ene dUra dhakelI devA ApaNe prayatnazIla banI jaIe chIe e nakkI kharuM ? pApanimiAnI mana para asara zarU thatAM ja ApaNe prabhuzaraNe cAlyA jaIe chIe e nakkI kharuM?

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ApaNI pAsenI DAyarI kALI to nahIM ne ? eka sajjananA hAthamAM polIsanA khIsAmAMthI paDI gayela DAyarI AvI gaI. DAyarI kholI tyAre khyAla Avyo ke emAM gAma AkhAnA je 'utAra' mANaso hatA e tamAmanAM nAmo hatA. khUnI, baLAtkArI, cora-lUMTAru, laphaMgo A tamAmanAM nAmothI DAyarInAM ekeeka pAnAM bharAyelA hatA. javAba Apo. ApaNA mananI DAyarInAM pAnAMo zenAthI bharAyelA che? e pAnAM para dAnezvarInAM nAmo che ke zrImaMtonAM? tIrthasthAnonAM nAmo che ke paryaTana sthaLonAM ? pavitra AtmAonAM nAmo che ke abhinetA ane abhinetrIonAM ? guNavAna AtmAnA nAmo che ke pApIonAM? tapasvIonAM nAmo che ke khAudharAonAM? yAda rAkhajo. polIsa pAse rahetI DAyarI game teTalI kALI haze, polIsa kALo nahIM hoya paNa ApaNI pAse rahela DAyarI jo kALI haze to...

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prabha para avizvAsa ? ApaNe UThI jaze peDhI sarAphI hatI. varasothI zaheramAM enuM nAma hatuM. zAkha enI jabaradasta hatI paNa game te kAraNasara bajAramAM e peDhI 'kAcI paDyA' nI aphavA UDI. lokono e peDhI parathI vizvAsa UThI gayo. ane pariNAma? e peDhI UThI ja gaI! - prabhunI pUjA varasothI cAlu hatI ane chatAM dhaMdhAmAM khoTa AvI ! tapazcaryA jIvanamAM cAlu hatI ane chatAM zarIramAM rogoe dekhA dIdhI ! dAnadharmanI ArAdhanA jIvanamAM ThIkaThIka pramANamAM cAlu hatI ane chatAM lAkhonI ugharANI DUbI gaI ! jIvadayAnAM kArmo jIvanamAM khUba karyA hatA ane chatAM eksiDanTamAM page phrekTara thaI gayuM. javAba Apo. ATaATalI pratikULatA chatAMya prabhu parano, dharma parano ApaNo vizvAsa UThI jato to nathI ne? yAda rAkhajo. peDhI para avizvAsa, peDhI UThI jAya che, paNa prabhu paranA avizvAsamAM to ApaNe ja UThI jaIe chIe! 73

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prabhudarzana ke nAmasmaraNa ? dhaMdho e vadhAravA mAgato hato, e mATe ene bahAra pharavuM ja paDe tema hatuM. gharamAM phona hato kharo paNa Akho divasa gharamAM besI rahevAthI dhaMdho thAya tema nahoto. mobAila phona eNe vasAvI lIdho! kabUla, prabhunAM darzana karatA rahevAnA bhAva enA manamAM gajabanA hatA paNa muzkelI e hatI ke derAsara enA gharathI 3 kilomITara dUra hatuM. eka divasamAM derAsara to keTalI vAra jaI zakAya? javAba Apo. A bhAI tame ja ho. tame zuM karo ? phonanA sthAne rahela prabhupratimAnAM darzana ekavAra karIne mobAilanA sthAne rahela prabhunuM nAmasmaraNa vAraMvAra karatA raho ne? 74

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AkarSaNa zene ? ramakaDAnuM ke dUdhanuM ? ramakaDAMono khaDakalo hato e bALakanI AsapAsa ane chatAM e bALakanI AMkhanAM AMsu sukAtAM nahotAM. kAraNa? enI pAse dUdha nahotuM. e bALakanI AsapAsa eka paNa ramakaDuM nahotuM ane chatAM enI prasannatAno pAra nahoto. kAraNa ke ene paryApta pramANamAM dUdha upalabdha hatuM. javAba Apo. manane AkarSaNa zenuM che? ramakaDAMnA sthAne rahela bhautika sAmagrIonuM ke pachI sukhanA sthAne rahela dUdhanuM? yAda rAkhajo. sAdhananI vaNajhAra bhogIo pAse hoya che jyAre sukhanI anubhUti tyAgIo pAse hoya che. ramakaDAM jevI sAmagrIothI thoDAka samaya mATe manane bahelAvI zakAya che paNa prasannatAnI anubhUti mATe to tyAganA zaraNe gayAvinA cAlavAnuM ja nathI pUchajo aMtaHkaraNane. ramakaDAM ke dUdha?

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mana bharavuM che ke AtmAne bacAvI levo che ? bhUkhasakhata lAgI hatI ane yuvakanI najara rastAnA nAka UbhI rahela pAuMbhAjInI lArI para paDI. enI AMkhamAM camaka AvI gaI. paga eNe vALyA e lArI tarapha ane peTa bharIne eNe khAI lIdhA pAuM-bhAjI! paNa kalAka ja pasAra thayo ane zarU thaI gayA ane jhADAUlaTI. dAkhala thaI javuM paDyuM ane hoMspiTalamAM! javAba Apo. peTa bharAI jAya paraMtu svAsthya bagADI nAkhe evAM dravyone jo peTamAM padharAvAya nahIM to mana bharAI jAya paraMtu AtmAnI pavitratAne raphedaphe karI nAkhe, susaMskAronI hoLI karI nAkhe, sadguNonuM devALuM kADhI nAkhe evAM paribaLonA zaraNe javAya kharuM ? TI.vI. para AvatAM ati halakaTa koTinAM dazyo e manane bharIne AtmAne bagADI nAkhatAM paribaLo che eno khyAla kharo ? 76

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krodha na karyo, paNa prema Apyo ? ghare AvelA mahemAnanI thALImAM ApaNe kacaro na mUkIe e to barAbara che paraMtu miThAI na mUkIe e to na ja cAle ne skUlamAM pAMcamA naMbare pAsa thayela bAbAne lApho na lagAvI daIe e to barAbara che paNa ene kadaranA be zabdo paNa na kahIe e to na ja cAle ne ? kabUla, ApaNI apekSA toDanAra pratye ApaNe krodha na karyo paraMtu ApaNe ene prema na Apyo enuM zuM ? trAhita vyaktinI ApaNe niMdA na karI e to sarasa karyuM paNa enAmAM rahela sadbhUta paNa guNonI prazaMsAna karI enuM zuM ? koka kAraNasara ApaNA svArthamAM pratibaMdhaka kIka banI gayuM. enA pratye ApaNe tiraskAra na karyo e to barAbara paNa enA pratyeno sadbhAva ApaNe TakAvI nazakyA enuM zuM? 77

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uMdara bilADInA zaraNe ? uMdarane macchara karaDyo ane enA trAsathI bacavA e bilADInA zaraNe gayo ! enuM zuM thayuM haze e sukhethI kalpI zakAya che, sAmethI AvI rahela vAghathI bacavA e gAMDItUra nadImAM - potAne taratAM nahotuM AvaDatuM toya - kUdI paDyo ! enI hAlata zI thaI haze e kalpI zakAya che. manano khAlIpo pUravA TI.vI.nI sAme goThavAI javuM saraLa che, hatAzAne dUra karavA vyasanonA caraNomAM besI javuM saraLa che, mananI ekalatAne dUra karavA gaMdA sAhityane hAthamAM pakaDI levuM saraLa che, duHkhathI bacavA pApanA mArga para doDatA rahevuM saraLa che paNa e tamAmano aMjAma keTalo badho khataranAka AvavAno che e jANavA samajavA mATe to prabhunI dRSTine ja kAme lagADavI paDe. javAba Apo. gharmanA phaLa mATe ApaNe je rIte prabhudRSTine svIkArI lIdhI che, pApanA phaLane paNa ApaNe prabhudRSTithI jovAnuM cAlu karI dIdhuM che kharuM? 78

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samyakdezyo joIe ke samyaphadarzana ? jhUMpaDapaTTI vistAramAM e raheto hato ane udyAna nihALatA rahevAnA enA mananAM aramAno hatA! e du:khI na thAya to bIjuM zuM thAya? jyAM e raheto tyAM enA gharanI baMne bAju khullI gaTara hatI ane e icchato hato ke covIseya kalAka puSponI suvAsa mane anubhavavA maLe ! e vyathA na anubhavato raheto bIjuM thAya zuM? vilAsanA ane vAsanAnA vAtAvaraNa vacce ja rahevAnuM ApaNAM lamaNe jhIMkAyeluM che ane ApaNe icchIe chIe ke covIseya kalAka mane pavitra dazyo ja jovA maLatA rahe!lamaNe hatAzA najhIMkAtI rahe to bIjuM thAya zuM? javAba Apo. ApaNI icchA kaI ? satata samyaka dazyo ja jovA maLatA rahe e ke pachI ApaNe sammadarzananA svAmI banI jaIe e? ApaNA prayAso zenA? samyaka dazyone nirmANa karavAnA ke pachI samyakadarzanane pAmI javAnA? yAda rAkhajo . ekamAM saphaLatA saMdigdha che. bIjAmAM niSphaLatA saMdigdha che.

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khAdhe-pIdhe sukhI thavuM che ke paise-Take ? kabUla, vaibhavI vistAramAM eno phleTa nahoto. moMghI dATa gADI enA gharanA AMgaNAmAM nahotI. moMghAdATa vastro enAM zarIra para dekhAtA nahotA. eno mitravarga bahu bahoLo nahoto. samAjamAM enI evI koI khAsa pratiSThA nahotI ane chatAM e prasanna hato. kAraNa ke e taMdurasta hato. vaibhavI vistAramAM enuM hevAnuM hatuM. 2 gADI, 3bagalA, pa phaeNkTarI, 25 karoDanuM Tarna-ovara, pradhAno sAthe gajabanAka gharobo, e enI AgavI oLakha hatI ane chatAM enA caherA para camaka nahotI kAraNa ke DAyAbITIsa, kaoNlasTrola, lohInuM UMcuM dabANa, alsara vagere rogo enA zarIramAM DerA-taMbUnAkhIne besI gayA hatA ! javAba Apo. icchA zI che ApaNI ? khAdhe-pIdhe sukhI thavAnI ke paise Take sukhI thavAnI? gADI baMgalAvinAnI taMdurastI ApaNI pasaMdagI che ke pachI bImAra avasthA sAthenI gADI-baMgalA ApaNI pasaMdagI che ? 80

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zikAra zenA ? durbuddhinA ke arucinA ? hAthamAM je lADavo che e jheravALo che ane A bAju vyaktine bhukha sakhata lAgI che. pariNAma? mota hAthamAM je lADavo che e saMpUrNa zuddha ane svAdiSTa che. ane A bAju vyaktinI bhUkhasarvathA marI gaI che. pariNAma ? mota ! puNyano udaya A bAju joradAra che ane bIjI bAju mana kalpanAtIta hade bhogalaMpaTa che, pariNAma ? durgati ! saddanio anesalaMbanonI AkhI ne AkhI phoja A bAju AMkha sAme che ane bIjI bAju dilamAM dharmArAdhanAnI koIrucija nathI. pariNAma? durgati ! javAba Apo. ApaNI sthiti zI che ? puNyanA udayamAM durbuddhi kesiinamAonI hAjarImAM aruci ? baMneya jokhamI che. jAtano naMbara emAM dekhAto hoya to bahAra nIkaLI javA jevuM che. 81

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to prasannatA sAthe ApaNe saMmata kharA ? kamAla che ne ? aMdaranI saccAIne pragaTa karI detA eNksa-re'mAM mANasane koNa jANe kema paNa ruci ja nathI. DaoNkTara pAse gayA bAda DaoNkTara taraphathI jo "eNksa-re' kaDhAvI levAnI mANasane salAha maLe che to ene AnaMda thavAne badale UMDe UMDe paNa ene bhaya rahe che. "kAMka aMdarathI garabaDa to bahAra nahIM Avene?" javAba Apo. sAce ja ApaNAM manamAM je kAMI cAlI rahyuM che enI rajerajanI vigata jANanAra paramAtmA ApaNI sAme ja hAjara thaI jAya ane badhAyanI vacce e vigata jAhera karavA taiyAra thaI jAya to ApaNe pUrNa prasannatA sAthe

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ApaNe kemerA premI to nahIM ne ? ApaNane barAbara khyAla che ke kaeNmero eka evuM sAdhana che ke je ghaNuM badhuM nabaLuM chupAvI zake che ane na hoya evuM ghaNuM badhuM dekhADI zake che. ane Ama chatAM ApaNI 'kaeNmerAprIta' no koI joTo nathI. 'mAro phoTo koka pADI rahyuM che evo ApaNane khyAla Avyo nathI ane ApaNe kemerA sAme UbhA rahI javA jhavA nAkhyA nathI. ApaNAmAM rahela nabaLAIo chupAvI devAnI kaLA jene hAthavagI hoya ane na hoya ApaNAmAM je guNo ene cAlAkIthI rajU karavAnI ustAdI jenI pAse hoya evo kaeNmerA jevo khuzAmatakhora ApaNane nathI ja gamato evuM aMtaHkaraNapUrvaka kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM ApaNe kharA? 83

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duHkha : ApaNI ja avaLacaMDAI, sukha : prabhunI ja karuNA kamAla che ne AjanA mANasanI manovRIi ? parivAramAM kokanAM lagna hoya che tyAre e je patrikA lakhe che emAM ema chapAve che ke "A lagna ame niradhAryA che ane parivAramAM kokanuM maraNa thaI jAya che tyAre enA samAcAra sagA-vahAlAne pahoMcADavAmAM e kALA akSaramAM je patra lakhe che emAM ema lakhe che ke "bhagavAnane gamyuM te kharuM !' javAba Apo. ApaNane maLatI anukULatAne ApaNe kone khAte khatavIe chIe ? prabhunI karuNA khAte ke pachI ApaNA buddhikauzalyapUrNa puruSArtha khAte? ApaNe lamaNe jhIMkAtI pratikULatA vakhate ApaNe doSano Topalo konA mAthe nAkhI daIe chIe? ApaNAM avaLA puruSArtha khAte? ApaNAM pApakarmanA udaya khAte ke pachI prabhunI upekSA khAte? yAda rAkhajo, sukha badhuM ja prabhunI karuNAnuM phaLa che ane duHkha badhuM ja ApaNIavaLacaMDAIno aMjAma che. A ja sAco javAba che.

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sukhaprAti : Azcarya ! maMdImAM kamANI e "Azcarya' ja lAge ne ? dUSita vAtAvaraNa vacce 'taMdurastI" e kamAla ja lAge ne ? raNapradezamAM mIThA pANInuM 'sarovara' e camatkAra ja lAgene? javAba Apo. duHkhamaya A saMsAramAM ApaNane maLI rahela 'sukha' e ApaNane Azcarya lAge che kharuM ? garbhapAtanI bolabAlAvALA A yugamAM ApaNo thaI gayela janama e ApaNane 'kamAla' lAge che kharuM ? rogonA janmadAtA ane jIvanadAtA AjanA pradUSita vAtAvaraNamAM jaLavAI rahela ApaNAM zarIranI 'nirAmaya avasthA' ApaNane camatkAra lAge che kharI? jo A tamAma praznono ApaNo hakArAtmaka pratisAda che to ja ApaNe svastha chIe. anyathA lamaNe hatAzAnA zikAra banyA rahevAnuM nizcita ja che.

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1dharmanuM kSetra zodhavA nIkaLyA ? eka gharAka sAthe dhaMdhAno sodo karI levAnA prayAsamAM vepArIne saphaLatA na maLI, e bIjA gharAkanI zodhamAM nIkaLI paDyo. je bAtharUmamAM e yuvaka snAna karavA dAkhala thayo, e bAtharUmanA naLamAM pANI na AvyuM, e yuvakabIjA bAtharUmamAM dAkhala thaI gayo. je hajAma pAse e vidyArthI vALa kapAvavA gayo e hajAma bImAra hovAthI salunamAM Avyo ja nahoto. e vidyArthI bIjA yuvakane laIne bIjA hajAma pAse pahoMcI gayo. javAba Apo. dAna karavA mATe cokkasa sthaLe besatA bhikhArI pAse tame pahoMcI gayA. paNa bhikhArI tyAM hato ja nahIM. tame bIjA bhikhArIne zodhavA nIkaLo ja e nakkI kharuM? je kSetramAM tame dAna karavA mAgatA hatA e kSetramAM jarUrI dAna AvI ja gayuM. tame anya saetramAM dAna karIne ja raho e nakkI kharuM? dhaMdhA mATe gharAka jo bIjo zodhavA nIkaLI zakAya to dAnadharma mATe anya satrane pakaDI kema na zakAya?

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saba-kucha tamArA magara hukama hamArA. ghaNI chokarIo joyA bAda khUba vicAra karIne gaNatarIpUrvaka eka chokarI sAthe saMbaMdha nakkI karyo ane chatAM e lagnajIvana paNa bhaMgANanA Are AvIne UbhuM rahI gayuM. bajAranI rUkhane barAbara samajIne eka kaMpanInA 25 lAkhanA zaira lIdhA ane chatAM e gaeNranA bhAva taLiye jaIne beThA ane 25 lAkhanI kiMmatanA e zaira 5 hajAranI kiMmatanAM kAgaLiyAM banI gayA! javAba Apo. saMsArano A svabhAva - ahIM gaNatarIpUrvaka badhuM thatuM nathI. puNya pramANe ja badhuM thAya che - e satata AMkha sAme kharo? pratyeka kadama bhale phUMkI phUMkIne mUkIe, puruSArtha bhale prabaLa karIe, gaNatarI bhale barAbara mAMDIe paNa icchita pariNAma maLaze ja e bilakula nakkI nahIM. "sabakucha (puruSArtha] tumhArA magara hukama piriNAma] hamArA [karma mujaba ja]' A satyane asthimajjA banAvI dIdhA vinA samAdhi TakI rahevI sarvathA asaMbhavita che.

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samAdhinI kaLAnA svAmI kharA ? darzaka banIne mANasa jo pizcara joI zake che, nATaka joI zake che, meca joI zake che, sarakasa joI zake che, ghoDAonI doDa joI zake che ane potAnI svasthatA paNa TakAvI zake che. to pachI svajIvanamAM banatA jAtajAtanA ane bhAtabhAtanA prasaMgone dRSTA banIne nihALatA rahevAmAM ApaNane takalIpha kyAM paDe che? baeNTsamaeNna zUnya rane AuTa thaI gayo chatAM svasthatA TakI rahI kAraNa ke mANasa darzaka hato. dhaMdhAmAM eka paNa rUpiyAnI Aje boNI na thaI ane chatAM prasannatA TakAvI rAkhavI che ema ne? darzaka banI jAo. javAba Apo. kadAca tame vAtacItanA ane dhaMdhAnA khelADI hazo. krikeTanA ane TenisanA khelADI paNa hazo paNa samAdhi TakAvI rAkhavAnA tame khelADI kharA? samAdhinI kaLAnA tame svAmI kharA? jo hA, to tame jIvana jItI gayA cho!

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dharma H vadhAravo che ke bacAvavo che ? sapaDAI gayo hato e zrImaMtano nabIro guMDAnI galImAM. Ama to e rUpiyAnI thappIo laIne nIkaLyo hato bajAramAM javA mATe paNa gaphalatathI enA paga vaLI gayA guMDAnI galImAM. ane jyAre ene vAstavikatAno khyAla Avyo tyAre eNe nakkI karI dIdhuM ke ahIM paisA kamAvAnI mahenata have karavA jevI nathI. je paNa mahenata karavAnI che e paisA bacAvavAnI ja karavAnI che. ane cAlAkIpUrvaka judI judI galInA vaLAMko para vaLatA rahIne e mukhya rastA para AvI gayo, paisA bacAvI levAmAM e saphaLa banIgayo. - gharethI bahAra nIkaLo cho tame prabhunA maMdire javA. darzana prabhunA karIne tame tamArI AMkhane banAvI devA mAgo cho nirmaLa paNa sabUra ! maMdire pahoMcatA pahelAM tamArI AMkha sAme AvatA rahe che pikyaranAM azlIla posTarsa. enA para tamArI najara paDI nathI ane tamAruM samagracetanAtaMtra vAsanAthI vyApta banyuM nathI. javAba Apo. AvA samaye tame karo zuM? dharma karavAnA prayAso ke dharma bacAvI levAnA prayAso? nirvikArabhAvanI mUDIne vadhAravAnA prayAso ke pavitratAnI je paNa mUDI hAthavagI che ene TakAvI rAkhavAnA prayAso?

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jheranA ApaNe saMgrAhaka ? ema to khisakolI paNa jamIna para ja cAlatI-doDatI rahe che ane sarpa paNa jamIna para ja cAlato-bhAgato rahe che. Ama chatAM ApaNe khisakolIthI bilakula DaratA nathI jyAre sarpa dUrathI paNa najare caDI jAya che ane ApaNe bhAgI chUTIe chIe. kAraNa? eka ja. jherano saMgraha karavAnuM kAma sarpa karato hoya che, khisakolI nahIM. javAba Apo. anaMtajJAnIoe krodhane, vairane ane hiMsAne jheranI upamA ApI che e ApaNA khyAlamAM kharuM? sarpanA zarIramAM saMgrahita thayeluM jhera game teTaluM kAtila haze to ya e jherathI sarpa to nathI ja marato jyAre jIbha para pragaTa thatuM krodhanuM jhera, manamAM saMgrahita thatuM vairanuM jhera, AMkhamAM jhabakatuM hiMsAnuM jhera to enA saMgraha karanArane janamojanama mAratuM rahe che eno ApaNane khyAla kharo? jo hA, to e jheranA ApaNe saMgrAhaka nathI ja enizcita kharuM?

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anumAna A ja karIe ne ke... acAnaka tamArI najara tamArA gharanI bilakula sAme ja rahelA bilDiMga para gaI. pahelA mALe khullAM gharanI bArImAMthI tamane je kAMI dekhAyuM e joIne tame stabdha thaI gayA. sophAseTa para beselA 24 varasanI vayanA dIkarAnA gaLAmAM mAtA-pitA hAra paherAvI rahyA hatA. enI traNeya baheno enA kapALa para tilaka karI rahI hatI. bALako enA mukhamAM peMDo ApI rahyA hatA. sAcuM bolo. A dRzya joIne tame kalpanA zenI karo? A ja ne ke eNe cokkasa kaMI evuM sAruM kAma karyuM haze ke jenA kAraNe parivAranA sahu sabhyo atyAre enuM abhivAdana karI rahyA che. javAba Apo. A jagatanI koI paNa vyaktine sukhI-svastha-masta ane taMdurasta joIne tame A ja anumAna karo ne ke "nakkI eNe A janamamAM ke gata janamamAM kaMIka to satkAryo karyA ja che ke jenA kAraNe kudarate ene ATaATalAM sukho ApyA che ! bAkI jo enA copaDe duSkAryo ja noMdhAyA hota to to kudarata enI hAlata bagADI nAkhata paNa ene maLelAM ane maLI rahelAM sukho e nakkI enAM satkAryasevananuM ja phaLa tamAruM A anumAna pAkuM?

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sajA konA AdhAre ? bhale, gunegAra jagatanI dRSTie bhAre aparAdhI che. eNe Acarelo guno bhale aneka lokoe potAnI sagI AMkhe joyo che. suprIma korTamAM eno kesa bhale pAMca varasathI cAlI rahyo che. paNa, suprimanA nyAyAdhIza eno je paNa cukAdo Ape che e cukAdo emaNe kAyadAnI kalamanA AdhAre ja Apavo paDe che, potAnI marajInA AdhAre nahIM. kabUla, sAmI vyaktie kAraNa vinA ApaNane herAna karI che. pAMca lAkhanI ApaNI ugharANI kAraNa vinA eNe dabAvI rAkhI che. je aparAdha ApaNe Acaryo ja nathI e aparAdhane ApaNA nAme caDAvIne samAja vacce eNe ApaNane badanAma karyA che. paNa javAba Apo. enI sAme ApaNe je paNa pagalAM laIe, ene je paNa sajA karIe e prabhunI salAhAnusAra ke zAstrAnusAra ja karIe e nakkIkharuM?

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meM kyAMka to garabaDa karI ja haze... rastA parathI tame pasAra thaI rahyA hatA ane acAnaka tamArI najara rastAnA nAke rahela khullI dukAna para paDI. pAMca sAta yuvAno bhegA thaIne eka yuvAnane berahamIthI mArI rahyA hatA. tame tyAMthI bhale AgaLa to nIkaLI gayA paNa e dazya joyA bAda tamArA manamAM eka kalpanA to avazya UbhI thaI hoya ke 'e yuvake kAM to dukAnamAM potAno hAtha ajamAvyo haze ane kAM to koka yuvatInI cheDatI karI haze. e sivAya enA para Avo sItama koI na ja gujAre." javAba Apo. svajIvanamAM jyAre paNa duHkho Ave che tyAre A vAta yAda Ave che kharI ke nakkI, koka ne koka bhavamAM mArA hAthe kaMIka no aparAdha thaI ja gayo haze e vinA mArA para duHkho Ave ja zI rIte ? kudaratane mArA para duHkho jhIMkavAno koI zokha nahIM hoya paNa meM pote ja bhUla karI hoya to mane sajAto thAya ja ne ? 93

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kiMmata AMkI kharI ? AkarSaka baMgalo AMkha sAme AvI jIya ane pahelo prazna manamAM Aja UThe ke 'keTalAno banyo haze?' rastA parathI pasAra thaI rahelAM AkarSaka gADI dekhAI jatAM manamAM pahelo prazna ja UThe ke 'keTalAmAM AvI haze?" kokanA gharamAM rahela AkarSaka pharnicara otAveMta manamAM pahelo prazna A ja UThavA lAge ke 'keTalAmAM banyuM haze ?' javAba Apo. A mAnava zarIra, emAM goThavAI gayela AMkha, kAna, paga, hAya, ane mana e badhAMyanAM darzane-upayoge manamAM A prazna kyAreya UThyo kharo ke "A badhAMyanI kiMmata keTalI ?' kadAca ema lAge che ke A prazna kyAreya UThyo nathI evuM ja A pariNAma che ke AMkha TI.vI. sAme, paga thiyeTara tarapha, kAna niMdAmAM, mana durvikalpamAM ane zarIra AkhuM ya pApo tarapha vaLI gayuM che. 94

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cAra pagathiyAM caDavA taiyAra ? ha hamaNAM ja to tame TAioNiDanI bImArImAMthI uThyA hatA. zarIramAM hajI joIe tevI zakti paNa nahotI. khorAka paNa hajI barAbara laI zakAto nahoto ane chatAM acAnaka tamArA mitro pAlItANAnI yAtrAe jaI rahyA hatA ane e sahue tamArI samakSa paDakAra pheMkyo, 'zatruMjayanI yAtrA tuM cAlIne caDIne kare to ame mAnIe ke tuM sAco marda che. sAco prabhuno bhaktache.' ane tame e paDakAra jhIlI lIdho. pAlItANAnI yAtrA cAlIne-caDIne karI lIdhI. sAMbhaLyuM che ke tamArA sagAbhAI sAthe chellA keTalAka vakhatathI bolavA vyavahAra nathI. enA ghare tame varasothI gayA ja nathI. javAba Apo. azakta zarIre zatruMjayano parvata tame caDI gayA cho. mana majabUta banAvIne nAnA bhAInA gharanAM pAMca pagathiyAM caDI javA tame taiyAra kharA 95

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aparicitanI niMdAmAM ApaNe sAmela ? paoNsTamaeNne tamArA ghare AvIne pUchyuM, "cImanabhAI tamAruM ja nAma?" ane tame nA pADI. 'mAruM nAma to ramezabhAI che' ane paoNsTamaeNna potAnA hAthamAM rahela cImanabhAInA nAmanI TapAla laIne AgaLa nIkaLI gayo. javAba Apo. jeno tamane paricaya ja nathI, jene tame kyAreya maLyA paNa nathI, jeNe tamArA jIvanamAM koI hastakSepa karyo ja nathI evI vyakti mATe tamArA kAne game tevI nabaLI vAta Ave, halakI vAto Ave to tame ene gALo na ja Apo, enI niMdA na ja karo, enI thaI rahela badanAmImAM sAmelana ja thaI jAo e nakkI kharuM? aparicita vyaktinI TapAla tame na lo to pachI aparicita vyaktinI thaI rahelaniMdAmAM tame sAmela zuM kAma thAo?

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vidhavA mAM ApaNo naMbara ? je strInAM lamaNe vaidhavya jhIMkAyuM hoya che e strInAM darzanane 'apazukana mAnanArA varganI saMkhyA ahIM nAnIsUnI nathI. e varganI e mAnyatAnI carcAmAM na paNa paDIe to ya eka vAta to nizcita che ke jenuM saubhAgya naMdavAI gayuM hoya che enA darzanane loko bane tyAM sudhI TALatA rahe che. javAba Apo. magaja jenuM satata garama ja rahetuM hoya, vAte vAte jenAM mukhamAMthI kaThora zabdo nIkaLatA hoya, krodha jenI jIvanazailI banI gayo hoya, enI sobata tame jhaMkho kharA? enI sAthe dostI tame karo kharA? enAM darzanamAM tame prasannatA anubhavo kharA? jo nA, to Ano artha to eTalo ja thayo ke krodhathI vyaktinuM saubhAgya naMdavAI jAya che. AvI 'vidhavA mAM ApaNo naMbara nahIMne?

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nAmacIna ke nAmAMkita ? e mANasanuM nAma konA moDhe nahotuM e prazna hato kAraNa ke e mANasa nAmacIna hato. enuM nAma sAMbhaLavA mAtrathI loko DaratA hato. e mANasa nAmAMkita hato kAraNa ke satkAryonI vaNajhAra e ja to enI jIvanazailI hatI. ane eTalA ja mATe loko enuM nAma pUrNa Adara sAthe letA hatA. javAba Apo. kaI dizA tarapha atyAre ApaNuM jIvana cAlI rahyuM che? manamAM jAgatI tamAma icchAo jo saphaLa banI jAya to ApaNane padavI kaI maLe ? nAmacInanI ke pachI nAmAMkitanI ? yAda rAkhajo, nAmacInane loko oLakhe che jyAre nAmAMkitane to loko cAhe che!

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A bevakUphI karo kharA ? rastA para tame ane tamArI patnI sAthe ja cAlI rahyA ho ane koka khuNAmAM UbhelAM anya pati-patnI tamArA baMnenI najare caDI jAya. tame e strI sAme ane tamArI patnI e puruSa sAme e tAkItAkIne joyA ja karo evuM bane kharuM ? e jo hagija nahIM to javAba Apo. tame banne jaNA TI.vI.nA paDade evuM kAMI ja jotA nathI ne ke jenA duSpariNAme tamane baMnene eka bIjA pratye napharata pedA thatI ja rahe ! tamArI patnI bAjumAM beThI hoya ane tame koka nakharAbAja strIne TI.vI.ne paDade DoLA phADIne jotA raho ? tame khuda tamArI patnInI bAjumAM beThA ho ane chatAM tamArI patnI koka lapharAbAja puruSane TI.vI.ne paDade vAsanAbhUkhI najare joyA kare ? kamAla ! 99

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e badhuM ya mAruM ja sarjana che kATa lokhaMDamAMthI ja pedA thAya che eno to ApaNane khyAla che, UdhaI kAgaLamAMthI ja pedA thAya che eno ya ApaNane khyAla che. pANI vAdaLamAMthI ja Tapake che eno ya ApaNane khyAla che. roga ApaNA zarIramAM ja pedA thAya che enI ya ApaNane samaja che. paraMtu javAba Apo. jIvanamAM je paNa takalIpho ke agavaDo che, duHkho ke kaSTo che e badhAMya mArA potAnA ja sarjana che enI ApaNane samaja che kharI? jo hA, to agavaDonA e samayamAM A samajanA sahAre ApaNe samAdhi TakAvI ja rAkhIe chIe e nakkIkharuM? 100