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precise causes of innumerable wanderings in all the four gatis (existences) of this saṁsāra I have fully realised that sensual pleasures result in great miseries. I have now clearly recognised that this world is full of troubles of birth, death, disease, sorrow etc. I have not in the least, any love for this Samsāra. I do not like the sensual pleasures which look pleasant, because they turn out to be miserable for an endless period of time. There is none who can afford shelter, when one is over-powered by calamities of old-age, death etc. At the time of experiencing the disastrous consequences of evil Karmas, the individual wandering in the Samsāra, alone acquires the gati (the condition of existence) suitable to the rise of the prevailing Karmas. Although there may be millions of servants and family- members, the individual goes alone to the next world, and he is born alone. At that time, nothing else than the mass of good or evil Karmas, comes with him or goes with him. One is never happy, unless he becomes free from the fears of birth, death, disease etc. The sensual enjoyments appear pleasing like the licking of a sword besmeared with honey, but they are agonizing in the end. They are positively terrific like a spear-point to a thief or wicked person. With your permission, I am desirous of taking Bhāgavati Diksā which is like a marvellous remedy for destroying the miseries of birth, death, disease etc. Innumerable persons have already attained the Bilssful State through the medium of that wonderful remedy. I am desirous of having Bhāgavati Diksā. Please, therefore, give me your permission for it.'
On listening to these words of Salibhadra, his highly affectionare mother instantly fell down on the ground in a swoon. Her maids and attendents at once ran to her, and she was brought to her senses by cooling winds and cold applications
Lamentations of Bhadrà Séthani
On regaining her full senses, Bhadră Śethäņi, with her heart pierced by the agony of separation from her only son,
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