Jivan Sarvasva

Author(s): Ratnasundarsuri
Publisher: Ratnasundarsuriji
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/008925/1

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gurudeva kahate haiM... sAgara se pUchie, kitanI nadiyoM ko svIkAra karane ke pazcAt tuma aura nadiyoM ko svIkArane se inkAra karoge? Aga se pUchie, kitanI lakar3iyoM ko nigalane ke pazcAt tuma aura adhika lakar3iyoM ko nigalane hetu taiyAra nahIM hoogI? zmazAna se pUchie, kitane zavoM ke amisaMskAra ke pazcAt tuma aura adhika zavoM ke agnisaMskAra se sApha inkAra kara doge? mana se pUchie, indriyoM ke mAdhyama se kitane viSayasukhoM ko bhogane ke pazcAt tuma nizcit tRpti kI anubhUti karoge? 25 varSa kI yuvAvasthA meM cAritrasvIkAra kaMTha meM jhNkaar|vaannii meM mdhurtaa| A~khoM meM amRtApramAda se duzmanI aura sadguNoM se dostii| buddhi meM tIkSNatA aura jIvana meM srltaa| prabhubhakti meM ekAgratA aura gurubhakti meM tanmayatA / sva ke prati kaThoratA aura sarvajIvoM ke prati komltaa| sAhityasarjana meM asaMtuSTa aura upakaraNoM ke samyak upayoga meM sNtusstt| gocarI meM nirdoSatA aura vyavahAra meM nishchltaa|jiivn meM sAdagI aura svabhAva meM taajgii|jiiv mAtra ke prati vAtsalyabhAva aura jar3a mAtra ke prati viraktabhAva / apramattatA ke AgrahI aura vicArazailI meM niraagrhii| zakti kavitva kI aura kalA vaktRtva kI ! stavanoM meM rAga adbhuta aura pravacanoM meM vairAgya bharapUra / nidrA alpa aura tapasyA tIvra ! vihAra meM thakAna nahIM aura adhyApana meM ArAma nhiiN| jinazAsana ke prati anurAga tIvra aura durguNoM ke prati dveSa tIvra ! dRSTi meM nirmalatA aura vRtti meM pavitratA! pramAdasthAnoM ke sAtha samajhautA nahIM aura saMghoM meM kahIM saMgharSa nhiiN| sanmArgapravartaka saMyamiyoM ke aura sanmArgadarzaka yuvAoM ke| gurudeva! AmavRkSa para Ama lagate haiM, cIkU aura seva nahIM ! Apake jIvanavRkSa para kaunase sadguNa prakaTa nahIM hue the yaha prazna hai|

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(BLOGOUP gurudeva kahate haiM... paramAtmA ke astitva ke prati zraddhA rakhane vAle mana ko yadi paramAtmA kI acintyazaktisaMpannatA para zraddhA nahIM hai to kevala astitva ke prati mana kI zraddhA AtmA ke lie lAbhadAyI athavA hitakArI siddha ho yaha saMbhAvanA nahIM ke barAbara hai| saMpatti ke astitva ke sAtha saMpatti kI zakti para bhI yadi hameM prakhA hotI hI hai to paramAtmA ke astitva ke sAtha paramAtmA kI acintyazaktisaMpannatA para hameM zraddhA kyoM nahIM? ACA ruci vardhamAnatapa kI olI meM aura saphalatA karmoM kI holI meM svAdhyAya meM na dekhane ko mile vyagratA aura vANI meMna dikhAI de ugratA / doSoM kI upekSA nahIM aura doSita kI avahelanA nhiiN| bahirmukhatA meM ruci nahIM aura aMtarmukhatA meM nirasatA nhiiN| vAtsalya meM sAgaratulya aura saMkalpa meM merutulya A~kheM jhukI huIM aura mastaka unnata! saphalatA vaMdanIya, para saralatA anukaraNIya / vaya se vRddha, parantu kAyA se yuvaa| doSoM ke viSaya meM dRSTi atyanta gaharI aura guNoM ke viSaya meM dRSTi siddhazilA para dina ke ujAle meM zAsana ke kAryoM meM vyasta aura rAtri ke aMdhakAra meM jinavacanoM ke lekhana meM mgn| gocarI meM nirdoSatA ke AgrahI aura saMyamacaryA meM apramattatA ke aagrhii| viSayoM meM lalacAne kI bAta nahIM aura kaSAyoM meM ulajhane kI bAta nhiiN|mn atyanta spaSTa aura aMta:karaNa bilkula svcch| hRdaya pavitra aura citta prasanna / paraloka pratipala dRSTi meM aura paramapada hara kSaNa smRti meN| auroM ke satkAryoM kI prazaMsA meM kRpaNatA nahIM aura svayaM ke pramAda ke sAtha kabhI koI samajhautA nhiiN| gurudeva! ina tamAma guNoM ke dhAraka Apa aura phira bhI Apako inase koI saMtoSa nahIM? Apa hara pala adhika se adhika guNoM ke prAdurbhAva hetu tarasate rahe ! tar3apate rahe ! Apa kitane bar3e lobhI? R YSURAHA

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gurudeva kahate haiM... upakAriyoM kA droha, pUjya puruSoM kI nindA aura dharma kiiraaii-ye| hiMsA-durAcAra Adi pApoM se bhI ati bhayaMkara pApa haiN| kAraNa ? hiMsA-durAcArAdi pApoM meM saMbhava hai ki hadaya komala ho, ati saMkliSTa aura niturana bhI ho, parantu upakAriyoM ke droha, nindA Adi pApoM meM to havaya ke bhAva nizcita rUpa se mahAsaMkliSTa evaM nihura hote haiN| aura isIlie usakA dIrghakAlIna galata prabhAva hotA hI hai| yaha durgatiyoM ke bhavoM meM jIva ko bhaTakA detA hai| 1964 kA varSa thaa|sthl thA aclgddh'| samaya thA garmI kI chuTTiyoM kaa| Ayojana thA eka mAha ke yuvA zivira kA | maiM upasthita thA vahA~ eka zivirArthI ke rUpa meN| jIvana meM pahalI bAra maiMne Apake darzana kiye| gurudeva ! saca kahU~ ? ApakI tapomayI dubalI-patalI kAyA ko dekhakara mere mana meM vicAra AyA thA- "are ! yaha sAdhu hameM par3hAyegA yA hameM yahA~ se bhAga jAne ke lie majabUra kara degA?" parantu...ApapravacanapIThikA para virAjamAna hue|hm saba zivirArthI yuvA ApazrI ke sammukha baitthe| Apake kaNThase utphulla vANI phUTI,mAlakAMza rAga meM Apane navakAramaMtra kA gAna kiyA jo aMtara kI gaharAiyoM meM samA gyaa| usa samaya ApazrI kI jo mukhamudrA thI vaha Aja bhI sAkSAta merI najaroM ke samakSa hai|aapshrii ke donoM hAtha jur3e hue the| A~kheM lagabhaga baMda thIM aura kaNTha navakAra ke gAna meM rata thA |bs, ApazrI ke usa maMgalAcaraNa ke zravaNamAtra se maiM bhItara taka hila gayA / bhItara hI bhItara mujhe yaha mahasUsa hone lagA ki yahA~ kucha hai| Apake pAsa nizcita hI kucha hai-kucha alaga hI vaibhv| gurudeva! mujhe kalpanA bhI nahIM thI ki mujha jaise anagar3ha patthara para eka suvikhyAta zilpI kI dRSTi pdd'egii| prazna kevala samaya kA hI thaa| chenI kI eka hI coTa par3I aura parimArjana praarNbh....|

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COMINOR gurudeva kahate haiM... kevala svayaM kI anukUlatA ko dRSTigata rakhanA aura dUsaroM kI pratikUlatA kI paravAha na karanA, yaha jaharIlI haTi hai|muul meM haTiyadi malina hai-jaharIlI hai to vaha kaSAyoM kA haba baMdhana hai aura isIlie hama anya kisI bhI dharma athavA tapa ke lie kaSTa kareM, guNasthAnaka para agrasara nahIM ho skte| sthala piNddvaadd'aa|smythaa dipAvalI-avakAza kaa| mAtra 2530 yuvA vahA~ upasthita the| unameM maiM bhI eka thaa|aapshrii hama sabhI ko pratidina 4-4 pravacana dete the| isa daurAna eka bAra rAta meM ApazrI ne mujhe bulAyA aura apane pAsa bitthaayaa| "isa saMsAra meM koI sAra nahIM hai|" "para maiM kisI bhI taraha duHkhI nahIM huuN|" gurudeva ! merI isa tuccha bAta ke javAba meM ApazrI ne cAMdanI ke saumya prakAza meM mujhe jo dRSTAnta tarka sahita diye aura saMsAra kI asAratA tathA saMyamajIvana kI sArabhUtatA samajhAI unheM sunakara maiM stabdha raha gayA thaa| "mujhe saMyama kA mArga apanAnA hai|" "nirNaya pakkA?" aura una maMgala kSaNoM meM ApazrI ne mere sara para AzIrvAda kI varSA kara dI thI, aura maiMne ApazrI ke samakSa jIvanabhara ke lie brahmacaryavrata aMgIkAra kara liyA thaa| ApazrI ke samakSa maiMne atyanta Ananda aura nizcintatA kI anubhUti kI thii| gurudeva! jisa kuzalatA se Apane merA"oNparezana" kara diyA thA vaha vAstava meM mere jIvana kA zreSThatama camatkAra thaa|

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gurudeva kahate haiM...... dharma ne hI hamArI durgati ke mahAroga dUra kiye, pApodaya kA mahAdAridraya dUra kiyA aura prazaMsanIya mAnavagati meM sthAna diyaa| to phira usake prati kitanI kRtajJatA honI cAhie ? usake prati hRdaya meM bahumAnabhAva kaisA honA cAhie ? soco to ! mumukSu avasthA se hI maiM par3hAI meM kaisA kamajora thA yaha to Apa jAnate hI haiM nA ? kisI bhI taraha maiM "vaMdittu" sIkhane ke lie taiyAra nahIM thA, kyoMki usameM 50 zloka the| para Apane gajaba kA nuskhA apanAyA / mujhe bulAkara itanA hI kahA, "tumheM pahale dina pahalA zloka yAda karanA hai aura dUsare dina pacAsavA~ zloka ! tIsare dina dUsarA zloka yAda karanA hai aura cauthe dina unapacAsavA~ zloka ! zloka kI rela meM eka DibbA Age se jor3ate jAnA aura eka DibbA pIche se jor3ate jAnA / yaha karate karate tumhArA "vaMdittu" pUrA ho jAyegA / "para vaMdittu bolane kA maukA AyegA taba kyA zloka meM gar3abar3a nahIM hogI ?" "tuma mana ke gaNita ko nahIM jaante| vaha zlokoM ko usake krama meM hI racatA jaayegaa| tuma eka bAra isa taraha yAda kara lo, phira dekho kaisA camatkAra hotA hai !" aura gurudeva, kamAla ho gayA / 50 veM dina mujhe saMpUrNa vaMdittu yAda ho gayA aura usI dina zAma ko pratikramaNa meM eka bhI galatI kiye binA maiM pUrA vaMdittu bola bhI gyaa| mere isa parAkrama (?) se maiM khuda kaisA acaMbhita thA, AnaMdita thA ? gurudeva ! acche-acche mAnasazAstriyoM ko bhI Apake sAmane ghuTane Teka dene kA mana ho jAe aisI adbhuta yukti-prayuktiyA~ thIM Apake pAsa mana ko samajhane kI samajhAne kI ! kamAla ! kamAla !! -

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gurudeva kahate haiM... abhayadAna sabhI jIvoM ko diyA jAtA hai| anukaMpAdAna dukhiyoM ko diyA jAtA hai| parantu, dharmopagraha-dharmopakArI dAna dharma ko puSTa karane vAlA dAna hai, ata: vaha nizcita rUpa se dharmaniSTha mahAtmAoM ko hI diyA jAtA hai| "tumheM sammedazikhara nahIM jAnA hai|" mere hAthoM meM "TUra'" meM sammedazikhara yAtrA para jAne kA TikaTa thA aura gurudeva, Apane mujhe yaha AjJA de dii| maiMne socA, "dIkSA ke bAda to sammedazikhara kaise jA pAU~gA? aura yahA~ to gurudeva mumukSu avasthA meM bhI sammedazikhara jAne ke lie manA kara rahe haiN| calo, TikaTa vApasa kara deNge|" muzkila se do mahIne bIte hoMge aura gurudeva, Apane mujhe bulAkara kahA, "eka mumukSu ke sAtha tumheM sammedazikhara kI yAtrA para pandraha dina ke bAda jAnA hai| taiyArI kara lenaa| tumhArA TikaTa A gayA hai|" aura gurudeva, usa dina zAma ko Apane mujhe bulAkara itanA hI kahA, "dekho, TUra meM yAtrA para jAne se maiMne tumheM isalie manA kiyA thA ki TUra meM bahaneM Trena ke Dibbe meM hI vastra badalatI haiN| tuma yuvA ho| AtmA para anaginata kusaMskAra lade hue haiM aura AtmA nimittavAsI hai| ekAdha galata dRzya ke darzana se cAritra apanAne kI tumhArI bhAvanA khaNDita ho jAe to hogA kyA ? basa, isa vajaha se maiMne tumheM yAtrA para jAne se rokA thaa| para isa bAra to tuma do mumukSuoM ko hI sAtha jAnA hai, isalie isa bhaya ko koI sthAna nahIM hai| gurudeva! AtmA ke bhAvaprANoM ko surakSita kara dene vAlI ApakI isa nirmala prajJA ko jhuka-jhukakara vaMdanA karane ke alAvA maiM aura kucha bhI nahIM kara sktaa|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... dUsaroM kI galatI na dekhakara usake saMyogoM para vicAra karanA cAhie aura svayaM ke kamA~ ko dRSTigata rakhakara unheM hI jimmedAra mAnanA cAhie tathA jahA~ svayaM kI galatI dikhAI de vahA~ usake parimArjana ke lie adhika-se-adhika zubha kArya karane kI tamannA rakhanI caahie| saMyamajIvana kA vaha prathama cAturmAsa hI thaa| sthAna thA malAr3adevakaraNamUlajI jaina upAzraya / dina thA cturdshii| saMdhyAsamaya pratikramaNa karane ke bAda saMthArA porisi kI vidhi ke bAda maiM so gayA thaa| acAnaka koI mujhe jaise uThA rahA ho aisA mujhe mahasUsa huaa|maiNne A~kheM kholIM dekhA to sAmane gurudeva Apa hI khar3e the|maiNttkaal khar3A ho gyaa| "rAtri svAdhyAya kiyA?" "nhiiN|" "kyoM?" "Aja upavAsa bhI hai aura sira meM darda bhii|" "to kyA huA?" "svAdhyAya karane kI icchA nahIM ho rahI gurudev|" "mana kI icchA ke anusAra calanA cAhie athavA prabhu kI icchA ke anusAra ? suno, rAtri-svAdhyAya to sAdhutA kI parIkSA hai| gRhastha hajAroM musIbatoM ke bIca bhI yadi naukarI para jAtA hI hai to kyA hameM musIbatoM meM ArAdhanAoM ko chor3a denA cAhie? Asana para baiTha jAo aura eka ghaNTA svAdhyAya karo, phira cAho to sojaanaa|" rote rote bhI Apane mujhase svAdhyAya karavAyA hI! gurudeva! ApakI isa kaThoratA ke kendra meM karuNA hI thI yaha samajha una dinoM mujhameM hotI to saca usa samaya merA citta Apake prati durbhAva se grasta nahIM huA hotaa|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... bAhya anyAya se to aMtara ke kAma-krodha-lobha, rAga-dveSa, mAna-mada-mAyA jaise ghora anyAyoM kA sAmanA karanA ucita hai| yaha AMtarazatruoM ke sAtha hI yuddha karane jaisA hai| javAba doanyAya ke viruddha lar3a rahe ho yA AMtarazatruoM ke viruddha? saM.2023 kA vrss| prathama cAturmAsa mlaadd'|sNgh meM huI ArAdhanAoM kI anumodanA hetu saMgha dvArA AyojitathA aSTAhmikA mhotsv| bIca meM Ayojana thA rathayAtrA ke varaghor3e kaa| gurudeva! saMgha ke agraNiyoM ne Apako rathayAtrA meM padhArane hetu vinatI kI aura hama saba Apake sAtha rathayAtrA meM sammilita hone ke lie taiyArI karane lge| acAnaka ApakI naz2ara mujha para pdd'ii| "ratnasuMdara, yahA~ aao|" maiM Dara gyaa|"jrur mujhase koI galatI huI hogii|" gurudeva, maiM Darate Darate Apake pAsa AyA aura Apane zrAvakoM kI upasthiti meM hI merI jamakara dhulAI kara dI! "kamalI isa taraha apa-Tu-DeTa or3hanI cAhie? kisako dikhAnA hai tumheM? tumheM patA hai ki dazavaikAlika sUtra meM strIsaMsarga aura veSa-vibhUSA ko tAlapuTa viSa kI upamA dI gaI hai? tumane jisa taraha kamalI oDhI hai usakA samAveza vibhUSA meM hotA hai| saMyama yadi acchI taraha pAlanA hai to vastra vyavasthita z2arUra pahano, para apa-Tu-DeTa pahananA baMda kro|" gurudeva! hamAre jIvana ko patana kI ora jAne se rokane ke lie Apane hamAre mana ko tor3ane kA jo abhiyAna calAyA thA usa abhiyAna ne hI hameM Aja saMyamajIvana meM svastha, masta aura pavitra banAye rakhA hai| 15

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gurudeva kahate haiM... "mere pAsa tatva kI samajha hai hI" - yadi yahI hamArI mAnyatA hai to tatva kI samajha kA pahalA sadupayoga yaha hai ki AtmA meM ajJAnavaza jo azubha bhAva jAgRta hue haiM, unheM hama tatva kI samajha ke sahAre rokeM aura unheM zubha bhAvoM meM parivartita kreN| parantu, kyA hamArA prayAsa aisA hai ? M jJAnapaMcamI ke upavAsa nimitta Aja sabhI ko pArane the| alabattA, upavAsa ke pArane ekAsanA karane vAle munibhagavaMta bhI the, parantu adhikatara bhagavaMto ko subaha hI AhAra lenA thaa| navakArazI ke paccakkhANa bhI A gaye aura navakArazI kI gocarI bhI A gii| gurudeva, Apa sahita hama sabhI AhAra grahaNa karane hetu baiTha gaye, para huA yU~ ki jo munibhagavaMta sabako dUdha de rahe the unase thor3A dUdha jamIna para gira gyaa| "dhyAna rakhakara dUdha nahIM de sakate ?" gurudeva, ApakI isa DaoNTa kA munibhagavaMta koI pratyuttara de usakI pratIkSA kie binA hI Apane Age bolanA jArI rakhA "Apa sabako yaha lagatA hogA ki jarA sA to dUdha girA hai, usameM mujhe itanA gussA karane kI kyA jarUrata thI ? para yaha mata bhUlo ki itane dUdha meM to garIba AdamI ke ghara ke pA~ca logoM kI cAya bana jaatii| hama saMyamI itanI jAgRti nahIM rakheMge to aisI jAgRti kI apekSA kisase kareMge ? gurudeva ! atyanta choTe-se prasaMga ko bhI Apa jisa dRSTi se nirakha sakate the usa dRSTi ne hI to hameM Apake pAvana nAma ke Age "saMghahitaciMtaka' vizeSaNa lagAne ke lie majabUra kiyA hai nA ? 17

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gurudeva kahate haiM... moha ke nATaka athavA krodhAdi bhAva krUra kasAI jaise haiN| ye cAkU lekara khar3e haiN| jIva ko mAno kaha rahe haiM"tuma hamAre cuMgala meM A jaao| tumheM churiyoM se ghAyala kara anaMtakAla kI durgati kI yAtrA para bheja deNge|" "gurudeva, yahA~ bahuta ThaNDI havA cala rahI hai| Apako ThaMDa laga jaayegii| ApakA Asana sAmane kI dIvAra ke pAsa lagA dete haiN| vahA~ havA lagabhaga nahIM hai| eka to yaha ThaNDa kA mausama hai aura phira Apako zIta kI parezAnI pahale se hai| nAhaka svAsthya bigar3egA to parezAnI khar3I ho jaayegii|" "nahIM merA Asana yahIM ThIka hai / " gurudeva, Apake isa javAba ko sunakara maiM kucha kahU~ usake pahale hI Apa bola uThe "dekho ratnasuMdara, isI jagaha merA Asana rakhane kA merA Agraha sakAraNa hai| isa jagaha se sabhI sAdhuoM para merI naz2ara rahatI hai, eka kAraNa yaha hai aura dUsarA kAraNa yaha hai ki koI bhI vyakti cAhe vaha puruSa ho yA strI, yuvA ho yA yuvatI, bAlaka ho yA bAlikA - yadi upAzraya meM AtA hai to yahIM se AtA hai| maiM yahIM baiThUM to bhItara kauna jA rahA hai, kauna kisake pAsa baiThA hai yaha mere dhyAna meM rahegA nA ? kAla atyanta viSama hai| saMyama kA pAlana dina-pratidina kaThina hotA jA rahA hai aura isIlie yahI vyavasthA banAye rakhanA mujhe adhika hitakArI lagatA hai| gurudeva! AzritoM kI surakSA ke lie aura unakA saMyama TikAne evaM use vizuddha va nirmala banAye rakhane ke lie Apa svayaM kI deha ke prati bhI isa hada taka kaThora ho sakate the-hamAre sadbhAgya kI yaha parAkASThA hai, isake alAvA aura kyA kahU~ ? W 19

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A gurudeva kahate haiM... pApa ke udaya meM jIva ko kleza, saMtApa, asamAdhi bahuta hotI hai, islie| AtmA azubha karma ke baMdhana se durgati kI bhAgI hI nahIM, dharmahIna bhI banatI hai| ata: aise pApa se bacane ke lie puNya caahie| evaM puNya ke binA sadgati aura sad dharma kI sAmagrI nahIM miltii| ata: puNya kI AvazyakatA hotI hai| aisI samajha ke kAraNa yadi puNya kA lobha rahe to aise lobha ko galata nahIM kahA jA sktaa| vaha sthAna thA muMbaI-naminAtha upAzraya / saMyamajIvana aMgIkAra kiye mujhe abhI eka varSa bhI pUrNa nahIM huA thaa| maiM apane Asana para baiThebaiTheHERO pena kA Dhakkana dekha rahA thaa| suvarNa raMgI Dhakkana dekhakara mere cehare para chalaka AI manabhAvana khuzI, gurudeva! ApakI najaroM meM A gii| "ratnasuMdara....' maiMturanta Apake nikaTa aayaa| "kyA kara rahe the?" "vizeSa kucha nhiiN|" "pena kA Dhakkana..." "jI, vahI dekha rahA thaa|" "bahuta suMdara hai nA?" "jI hA~" aura gurudeva, ApazrI ne eka munivara ko bulaayaa| pAtra raMgane kA kAlA raMga maMgavAyA aura munivara ko suvarNaraMga ke Dhakkana ko kAlA raMga lagAne kI AjJA dii| "gurudeva, Dhakkana kharAba ho jAegA..." "Dhakkana kharAba ho jAe to koI bAta nahIM, para Dhakkana para rAga prakaTa karane se tumhArI AtmA kaluSita ho jAe, yaha kaise calegA? gurudeva! Atmahita kI aisI cintA karane vAle ApazrI jaise gurudeva ko pAkara mujhe aisA mahasUsa hotA hai ki sacamuca maiM jIvana kA bahuta bar3A yuddha jIta gayA huuN|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... sarva pApoM ke tyAga ke lie azakti darzAne vAlA mana, yadi saMbhava pApoM ke tyAga ke lie bhI satva prakaTa karane hetu taiyAra nahIM hai to nizcit samajho ki "pApa bhayaMkara hai", mana kI yaha zraddhA kevala svayaM ke sAtha ThagI karane ke sivAya aura kucha bhI nahIM hai| muMbaI se vihAra ke bAda hama jA rahe the ahamadAbAda kI or| bIca meM AyA vaapii| vahA~ pAca dinoM ke lie sthiratA thii| eka dina sNdhyaasmy| pratikramaNa karane ke bAda bahuta nIMda A rahI thii| gurudeva, maiM ApakI anumati lene AyA aura Azcarya, Apane mujhe so jAne kI anumati de dI! saMthArA bichAte bichAte maiM soca rahA thA, "aisI udAratA (?) gurudeva, yaha to pahalI bAra darzAyI aapne| thor3e samaya meM meM so to gayA, parantu gaharI nIMda meM mujhe lagA, koI mujhe uThA rahA hai / A~kheM kholIM- dekhAgurudeva Apa hI the| "uttho|" acAnaka merI nigAha dIvAra para lagI ghar3I para gii|do baje the|maiN Age kucha vicAra karU~ isake pahale Apa hI bola uThe, "rAta ko tuma ATha baje so gaye the nA? abhI do baje haiN| cha: ghaNTe kI nIMda pUrI ho gii| aba baiTha jAo svAdhyAya karane ke lie| rAta lambI hai| AsamAna meM candra khilA hai, svAdhyAya meM Ananda aayegaa| dekho meM bhI abhI candra ke prakAza meM likhane hI baiTha rahA huuN|" gurudeva! rAta meM jaldI so jAne kI Apane jaba mujhe anumati dI tava mujhe patA nahIM thA ki usameM ApakI udAratA nahIM, vaNikavaddhi thii| "AcAryoM jinadharamanA vakSavyApArI zUrA", yaha ApakI hii| racanA hai nA?

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gurudeva kahate haiM... bAta-bAta meM jise 'purA' laga jAtA ho aura bAta-bAta meM jise 'da:kha' laga jAtA ho usake sAtha mitratA karane se apane Apako sadA dUra hI rakho, kyoMki use khuza rakhane ke prayAsa meM ApakI jindagI hI pUrI ho jaaegii| yAda rakhanA, yaha jindagI to prabhu ko khuza karane ke lie aura usake dvArA AtmA ko sukhI banAne ke lie milI hai| isa jindagI meM isake alAvA aura kucha karane kI AvazyakatA nahIM hai| sthAna thA ahamadAbAda / cAturmAsa hamArA thA dazAporavAr3a sosAyaTI meN|pryussnn parva kI ArAdhanA karavAne muni bhagavaMta alaga alaga sthAnoM para gaye the aura isIlie gurudeva ke sAtha hama do hI sAdhu the| mujhe saMvatsarI kA upavAsa to thA hI, para upavAsa bahuta kaThina huA thaa| rAta ko kisI bhI taraha nIMda nahIM A rahI thii| saMthAre meM par3A par3A karavaTe badala rahA thA aura acAnaka mujhe ulTI ho gii| ulTI kI AvAz2a sunakara gurudeva ApajAga gye|turnt mere saMthAre ke pAsa aaye| nIce jamIna para par3I ulTI ko Apane apane hAthoM se uThAkara kaTore meM bhraa|jmiin sApha kii|niice jAkara ulTI ko paraThane kI vidhi kI, aura Upara Akara merI kamara bhI dabA dii| gurudeva, subaha Apane mujhe pratikramaNa krvaayaa| apane vastroM kA paDilehaNa to kiyA hI, parantu mere sabhI vastroM kA paDilehaNa bhI Apane hI kiyaa|mujhe puna: sulAkara mere atyanta pIDita zarIra ko Apane dabA diyaa| kucha svasthatA Ane ke pazcAt Apa svayaM merA hAtha pakar3akara mujhe maMdira darzana karane le gye| gurudeva! Aja bhI yaha prasaMga smRtipatha para A rahA hai aura mujhe yaha bhI samajha meM A rahA hai ki saMyamajIvana meM mujhe kabhI 'khAlIpana' kA anubhava kyoM nahIM huA?

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gurudeva kahate haiM... kAmapuruSArtha to pazugati meM bhI sulabha hai| arthapuruSArtha / to adharmI ko bhI sulabha hai| paraMtu, durlabhatama puruSArtha yadi koI hai to vaha hai dharmapuruSArtha / uttama jIvana ko saphala banAnA ho to isa puruSArtha ko apanA liijie| boTAda zahara meM rAta ko kevala puruSoM kI sabhA ke samakSa usa pravacana meM gurudeva, dhannA aNagAra kI sajjhAya sunAte sunAte Apa kaise Anandita ho gaye the yaha to Apako bhI yAda hogA aura usameM bhI dhannA dvArA prabhu vIra se mA~ge gae abhigraha ko varNita karane vAlI yaha paMkti, "chaTTatapa AyaMbila pAraNe, karavo jAvajjIva'' bolate bolate Apa atyanta gadgad ho gaye the, yaha khuda maiMne dekhA thaa| dUsare dina maiMgocarI meM Apake pAtra meM miThAI kA Tukar3A rakhane AyA aura Apane muskarAte hue inkAra kara diyaa| "para kyoM?" "basa, aise hii|" "nahIM, Apako yaha grahaNa karanI hI hogii|" aura gurudeva, usa samaya ApakA uttara mujhe Aja bhI acchI taraha yAda hai / "kala dhannA kI sajjhAya bolatebolate mujhe apane Apapara ghRNA ho AI / dhannA yadi jIvanabhara ke lie bele ke pAraNe AyaMbila kara sakatA hai to maiMjIvanabhara ke lie miThAI tyAga bhI nahIM kara sakatA? basa, usI samaya pravacana ke pATa para hI maiMne jIvanabhara ke lie miThAI tyAga kI pratijJA le lii|" gurudeva! aNAhArI pada pAne kI ApakI isa tar3apana ko samajhane kI jarA sI bhI buddhi mujha meM yadi hotI to mujhe lagatA hai ki tapa-tyAga ke mAmale meM Aja merI yaha daridratA nahIM hotii|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... Aga, saoNpa aura bAgha ke sAtha khelate rahane ke bAvajUda bhI jIvana ko salAmata rakhanA saMbhava hai,para kunimittoM ke bIca rahakara sadaguNoM ko surakSita rakhane meM saphalatA milanA sarvathA asaMbhava hA sadguNoM ko salAmata rakhanA hai ? kunimittoM se tatkAla dUra ho jaaie| ahamadAbAda ke jJAnamaMdira meM cAturmAsa karane kA nirNaya lagabhaga ho cukA thaa| sirpha ghoSaNA karanI bAkI thii| anya sthAnoM para bhI cAturmAsa ke lie muniyoM ko bhejanAthA / kise kahA~ bhejanA hai isa cintA meM gurudeva, Apa vyasta the aura tabhI maiMne Apase pUchA thA "pUjyapAda paMnyAsajI zrI hemaMtavijayajI mahArAja cAturmAsa meM hamAre sAtha rahane vAle haiM?" "nhiiN|" ApakA yaha javAba sunakara mujhe bar3A Azcarya isalie huA ki mujhe pakke samAcAra mile the ki pUjya paMnyAsa zrI hemantavijayajI mahArAja jJAnamaMdira meM hamAre hI sAtha cAturmAsa karane vAle haiN| mere cehare kI ulajhana dekhate hI gurudeva, Apane mujhe kahA thA "dekho ratnasuMdara, pU.paM zrI hemantavijayajI mahArAja mujhase bar3e haiN| ve hamAre sAtha cAturmAsa nahIM karane vAle, balki hama unake sAtha cAturmAsa karane vAle haiN|aakhir tuma vinayadharma kI mahattA samajhate ho ki nahIM?" gurudeva! Aja samajha meM AtA hai ki Apa sabhI ke lie itane "madhura" kyoM the? Apake jIvanadUdha meM vinaya kI miThAsa sadA aura sarvatra maujUda hotI hI thii| Apako dUra rakhanA kise acchA lagegA?

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MORY gurudeva kahate haiM... yadi guNa gAne haiM yA prazaMsA karanI hai to dUsaroM kI karo aura nindA karanI hai to svayaM kii| kAraNa? zubha koTi kI AtmanindA to eka aisA asarakAraka rasAyana hai jo bhayaMkara karma ke roga ko bhI kSaNabhara meM dhvasta kara detA hai| "yahA~ Ao devasuMdara,yaha patra Apane likhA hai?" saMsArI ke nAte mere pitAjI aura saMyama ke nAte mere gurujI yAni devasuMdara mhaaraaj|gurudev, Apane unheM bulaayaa| "hA~, maiMne likhA hai|" "usameM Apane kyA likhA hai isakA Apako kucha khayAla hai bhalA? "nhiiN|" "dekho, isa posTakArDa meM Apane kisI ko likhA hai, "tumhAre pitAjI kI AjJA kA pAlana krnaa| hamane saMyamajIvana svIkAra kiyA hai| hama aisA likha sakate haiM bhalA?" "kyoM nahIM likha sakate?" "nahIM likha skte|" "para kyoM?" "usake pitA use vyApAra meM anIti kA AcaraNa karane kI AjJAbhI de sakate haiM, hoTala meM jAne kI AjJA bhI de sakate haiM aura rAtribhojana karane kI AjJA bhI de sakate haiN| ye sabhI AjJAe~ kyA use mAnanI cAhie ?" "nhiiN|" "basa, isIlie ApakA dhyAna AkarSita karanA cAhatA hU~ ki kisI ko bhI patra likho taba itanA vizeSa rUpa se dhyAna rakho ki usakI kisI bhI prakAra kI pApapravRtti meM hamArI sahamati kadApi na ho|" gurudeva! AtmA ke pratyeka pradeza para pApa se sadaiva dUra rahane kI vRtti Apane kaise AtmasAt kI hogI ki nitAMta choTI dikhane vAlI bAta meM bhI Apa itanI sAvadhAnI rakha lete the| vaMdana hai Apake "pApabhaya"guNa ko|

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"gurudeva ! Aja to saptamI hai|" "mujhe mAlUma hai|" "ApakA svAsthya bhI acchA nahIM hai|" "maiM jAnatA huuN|" "DaoNkTara ne bhI abhI tapa karane se..." "mujhe inkAra kiyA hai|" "phira bhI Aja Apane ekAsanA kara liyA?" gurudeva kahate haiM... dUdha ke pahale cUMTa meM hI hameM patA cala jAe ki dUdha meM zakara DAlanI raha gaI hai, aura pratikramaNa pUrA ho jAne ke bAda bhI hameM patA na cale ki pratikramaNa kI isa maMgala kriyA meMhadaya ke zubha bhAva milAnA hama bhUla gaye haiM, yadi aisI hamArI sthiti hai to hameM nizcit rUpa se samajha lenA cAhie ki ekAgratA aura ahobhAva vihIna yaha maMgalakArI kriyA bhI hamAre lie utanI phaladAyI siddha nahIM ho sakegI jitanA phala dene kI usameM zakti hai| "para koI kAraNa?" ahamadAbAda-usmAnapurA ke cAturmAsa ke daurAna maMdira meM darzana karane ke bAda gurudeva, maiMne Apase yaha prazna kiyA thaa| "kala zAma ke pratikramaNa meM eka choTA-sA baccA "zAMti" bolA thaa| tumane sunI thI?" "hA~" "vaha 'zAMti' kaisI bolA thA?" "bahuta hI suMdara! basa, vaha bolatA hI rahe aura hama sunate hI raheM aisI madhura thI usakI aavaaj'|" "basa, to usa bacce dvArA bolI gaI zAMti' kI anumodanA meM Aja maiMne ekAsanA kiyA hai|" gurudeva! satkAryoM ko karane ke avasara kA lAbha to Apa uThA hI lete the, para satkAyoM kI anumodanA karane ke lie bhI Apa svayaM avasara khar3e kara lete the| kamAI karate hI rahane kI ApakI kalA kamAla kI thI!

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S gurudeva kahate haiM... dharmapravRtti meM pApavicAra ko bhUla se bhI praveza mata denA, para pApapravRtti meM dharmavicAra ko praveza diye vinA kabhI mata rahanA-pApapravRtti kI ruci ko vaha tor3akara hI rhegaa| bIja ko miTTI mila jAtI hai aura vaha svayaM ke vikasita hone kI kSamatA prakaTa kiye binA nahIM rhtaa| syAhI kI bU~da ko blaoNTiMga pepara mila jAtA hai aura vaha pUre blaoNTiMga pepara para phaile binA nahIM rahatI / vyApArI ke putra ke hAthoM meM bhale eka hI rupayA ho, lAkhoMkaror3oM rupayoM kI uthala-puthala karane hetu daur3a lagAye binA vaha nahIM rhtaa| sAvarakuMDalA kI ora vihAra karate hue eka gA~va meM eka zrAvaka ke gRhamaMdira meM gurudeva, hama Apake sAtha caityavaMdana karane baiThe the| kevala sAta-ATha iMca kI choTI-sI dhAtu kI banI zAMtinAtha prabhu kI pratimA ke samakSa apanA caityavaMdana ho rahA thA aura gurudeva, isa caityavaMdana meM Apa aise ota-prota ho gaye the ki eka sAtha tIna stavana aura vo bhI alaga-alaga rAgoM meM bolane ke bAda hI Apa ruke the| bAhara Ane ke pazcAt Apane kahA thA ki- "candradarzana se sAgara meM yadi lahareM uchalane lagatI haiM to prabhu darzana se bhakta hRdaya meM bhAvoM kI lahareMna uchaleM, yaha ho hI kaise sakatA hai?" gurudeva! viziSTa ArAdhanA karane vAlA mahAn banatA hai aisA nahIM hai,parantu, jo AtmA pratyeka ArAdhanA ko viziSTa rUpa se karatI hai vahI mahAn bana sakatI hai| isa bAta kA sabUta Apa svayaM hI the, yaha maiMne aneka bAra ApazrI meM dekhA thaa|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... laghutA vyakta karanA alaga bAta hai aura prazaMsA prApta karane ke lie laghutA kA dikhAvA karanA alaga bAtA laghutA kA dikhAvA karane se to abhimAna puSTa hotA hai, jabaki laghutA vyakta karane se abhimAna TUTa jAtA hai| yaha yAda rkhnaa| mana kI mohanIya ke sAtha gAr3hI mitratA hai| isa mitratA ko akhaNDita rakhane ke lie mana sabhI prakAra ke svAga dharane ke lie taiyAra rahatA hai| "gurudeva, Apato vardhamAna tapa kI oliyoM para oliyA~ kiye jA rahe haiM, pArane meM miThAI to lete hI nhiiN| Apako nahIM lagatA ki zarIra kI zakti banI rahe isake lie hI sahI, thor3I miThAI to Apako lenI hI caahie| "ratnasuMdara, tuma to miThAI khAte ho nA?" "haaN|" "eka ghaNTe meM kitane kilomITara cala sakate ho?" "pA~ca athavA sADhe pA~ca kilomiittr|" "aura maiM ? maiM AsAnI se cha: kilomITara cala letA huuN|" "yahI to merI ulajhana hai ki hama miThAI khAne vAloM ke mukAbale miThAI nakhAne vAle ApameM itanI adhika zakti aura sphUrti kahA~ se AI ?" "tuma jAnate ho, hama jaba mA~ ke garbha meM the nA taba hamArI mA~ ne bhArI (gariSTha) khAdya khAnA baMda kara diyA thA? isakA artha ? yahI ki hamAre zarIra kI saMracanA sAmAnya padArthoM se hI huI hai, bhArI padArthoM se nhiiN| yadi hama apane zarIra ko sphUrtimAna rakhanA cAhate haiM to hama use jitane halke dravya deMge utanA hI vaha adhika sphUrta rhegaa| merI sphUrti kA rahasya yahI hai / bolo, miThAI khAte rahanA hai yA phira chor3a denA hai? gurudeva! kadAcit jIvana pUrA ho jAtA to bhI yaha vAstavikatA mere dhyAna meM nahIM aatii| miThAI AtmA ke lie ayogya hai yaha maiM jAnatA thA, para zarIra ke lie bhI vaha anukUla nahIM hai yaha samajha to Apase hI prApta kamAla ! kamAla!! GCC

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"svAdhyAya ho gayA?" gurudeva kahate haiM... sukha bAhAvastu kA dharma nahIM hai, vaha to AtmA kI cIz2a hai| parantu, usakI anubhUti tabhI hotI hai jaba hRdaya meM koI cintA na ho, mana meM koI bhaya na ho, aMtara meM koI saMtApa na ho, koI AkulatAna ho|mnjdy-aNtr nizcinta, nirbhaya, zAnta aura AtmA AnaMdita ho to hI sukha kA-sacce sukha kA anubhava ho sakatA hai| aisA sukha pradAna karane kI zakti kevala dharma meM hI hai| "pUrA svAdhyAya?" ''kevala pandraha minaTa kA svAdhyAya hI zeSa rahA hai, vaha hama kala kara leNge|" "para abhI hI kara lo to?" "rAta ke paune bAraha baja cuke haiM aura hama sabako gaharI nIMda A rahI hai| vaise bhI pratidina to hama bAraha baje taka svAdhyAya karate hI haiN| sabhI ko "kammapayar3I'' kA pATha acchI taraha AtA hai, kala hama pUrA svAdhyAya kara leNge|" ahamadAbAda-jJAnamaMdira kI gailarI meM baiThe-baiThe Apacandra ke prakAza meM divyadarzana sAptAhika kA vivaraNa likha rahe the aura hama sabhI ko svAdhyAya samApta karake Asana kI ora jAte dekhakara Apane hameM rokakara yaha prazna pUchA thaa| "dekho, zarIra hai isalie nIMda to AyegI hii| eka kAma kro| tuma sabhI 25-25khamAsamane de do, nIMda ur3a jaayegii|" hama sabhI binA khamAsamane diye sIdhe svAdhyAya karane baiTha gye| hameM yaha saudA jyAdA sastA (?) lagA! gurudeva! ApazrI hameM bAra bAra kahate the ki-"gadhe ke pAsa kAma karavAne ke lie kumhAra gadhe ke "mUDa" ko nahIM dekhtaa| sAdhanA mArga meM zarIra kA kasa nikAlanA ho to usake 'mUDa' kI bahuta cintA mata kro| 39

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gurudeva kahate haiM... zarIra aura mana kI mulAyamatA-sukumAratA, AtmA meM kAyaratA tathA niHsatvatA paidA karatI hai aura isIlie usase AtmA ko bacAne ke lie zarIra ko tapa-tyAga meM evaM mana ko zubhavicAroM meM jor3ate jaao| "kauna?" "maiNrtnsuNdr|" "kitane baje hoMge abhI?" "lagabhaga caar|" upAzraya kI chata ke nIce gurudeva, Apa baiThe haiN| kar3Ake kI ThaNDa hai| Apake pUre zarIra para kamalI lipaTI huI hai| kevala do hAtha kamalI ke bAhara haiN| eka hAtha meM puSTe para rakhe panne haiM aura dUsare hAtha meM pena hai| maiM Apake nikaTa aayaa| "gurudeva,nIce pdhaarie|" "AnA to par3egA hI!" "yahA~ Apa kaba padhAre gurudeva ?" "rAta ke 10 baje se baiThA huuN|" "avirata cha: ghaNTe?" "haaN|" "kamAla karate haiM gurudeva!" "ratnasuMdara, kamAla to prabhuvacanoM kA hai| una para likhane ke lie jaba kalama uThatI hai taba vaha kahIM thamane kA nAma hI nahIM letii|tumne aba taka isakA svAda nahIM cakhA, isalie tumheM jyAdA to kyA kahU~ ? para, eka bAra tuma ise cakhakara dekho to phira tumheM bhI mujha jaisA hI nazA A jaayegaa|" gurudeva! zarIra nAma ke upakaraNa kA Apane jisa hada taka sadupayoga kara liyA, usa hada taka sadupayoga Aja ke kAla meM kisane kiyA hogA yaha prazna hai| hama sabake lie Apa AlaMbana bhI haiM aura Adarza bhI haiN|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... jIvana meM pravRtti koI bhI jArI ho, para mana ko kadApi duSita nahIM karanA caahie| kAyA pApa meM rata ho to bhI mana ko bhItara se dharma aura vairAgya kI bhAvanAoM meM magna rakhanA cAhie, kyoki mana kI kaluSitatA se jo kSati hotI hai usakI bharapAI kabhI nahIM kI jA sktii| patA nahIM kyoM, para gurudeva Aja Apake cehare para kucha udAsI jhalaka rahI thii|aapne subaha kI gocarI grahaNa kI to sahI, para Apa bhItara se vyathita haiM aisA Apake cehare para spaSTa dikhAI de rahA thaa| Apa pravacana meM jAne ke lie taiyAra ho rahe the aura taba maiMne himmata karake Apase pUcha hI liyA "gurudeva, svAsthya maiM kucha gar3abar3a?" "nhiiN|" "ApakA ceharA yaha batA rahA hai ki Apa abhI kucha vyathA kA anubhava kara rahe haiN|" "tumhArA anumAna sahI hai|" "kyA maiM kAraNa jAna sakatA hU~?" "jAnate ho tuma Aja kyA tithi hai ?" "puunm|" "pUrI rAta candramA AkAza meM rahA / usakA prakAza upAzraya meM satat AtA rhaa| maiMne socA thA ki maiM ekAdha ghaNTe meM uTha jaauuNgaa| lekina patA hI nahIM calA aisI gaharI nIMda Aja mujhe kaise A gaI ? ujAle kI pUrI rAta vyartha gii| kucha bhI likhanA nahIM huaa|tum hI batAo, prasannatA kaise TikegI?" gurudeva! Apa yaha mAnate rahe ki "nIMda A gaI to rAta bigdd'ii|", jabaki "nIMda na Aye to rAta bigar3I", yaha hamArI mAnyatA hai| aise meM kyA Apako lagatA hai ki hamArA uddhAra ho pAegA bhalA?

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plnnn ktv gurudeva kahate haiM... isI janama meM 40 vaSoM meM pratidina kI 4-4 roTiyoM ke hisAba se lagabhaga 56,000 roTiyA~ to hama khA cuke aura pratidina ke 4 lITara pAnI ke hisAba se 56,000 lITara pAnI hama pI cuke, phira bhI khAnapAna kI bhUkha nahIM mittii| aisI rAkSasI bhUkha ko isa janama meM, pavitra Atmahita kI sAdhanA meM pradhAnatA kabhI mata do| "yaha to choTA-sA gA~va hai| yahA~ pakkA namaka milAhI kaise?" gurudeva, ApakA zarIra 104 DigrI bukhAra kI ghoSaNA kara rahA thaa| vardhamAna tapakI 108 vI olI prAraMbha kie abhI cAra hI dina hue the| muMbaI kI ora hamArI vihArayAtrA prAraMbha ho cukI thii| Apa AyaMbila karane baiThe the aura phIkI dAla meM namaka DAlane ke lie Apake sAmane namaka rakhA to sahI, para Apake isa prazna se hama saba niruttara eka-dUsare kA mu~ha dekhane lage the| Apa samajha gye| hamAre pratyuttara kA intajAra kiye binA Apane itanA hI kahA "yahA~ zrAvaka kA koI ghara nahIM hai| merI AyaMbila kI gocarI Apa anya gharoM meM jAkara le Aye ho| mujhe lagatA hai ki nikaTa ke zahara se jarUra koI zrAvaka gocarI lAye haiM aura usameM se hI yaha pakkA namaka tumane grahaNa kiyA hai| sabhI ke cehare yaha kahate haiM ki maiM saca bola rahA huuN|ek kAma karo-yA to yaha namaka Apa meM se koI eka upayoga meM le lo yA usake paraThane kI vidhi kara lo, mere peTa meM to yaha namaka kataI nahIM jaayegaa|" gurudeva! ApakI pApabhIrUtA-pramAvabhIrutA-bhavabhIratA-AjJAbhaMgabhIrutA aura azubhakarmabaMdhabhIrutA Aja hamAre svapna kA viSaya bhI nahIM bana paaii| kyA yaha hamArI bhArIkarmitA hI hai?

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OM gurudeva kahate haiM... choTI-choTI bAtoM ko pradhAnatA dete rahane kI daridratA, vyathita hote rahane kI durbalatA aura vyathA se hone vAlI kSati ko samajha na pAne kI mUrkhatA to maiM kabhI nahIM karuMgA-jIvana meM yaha dRr3ha nirdhAraNa kabhI Apane kiyA hai? saurASTra kA eka choTA-sA gA~va hai|shaam ko hama usa gA~va meM pahuMce haiN| jainoM ke bIsa-paccIsa ghara hoMge yahA~ / bhAvika jainetaroM ke ghara bhI acchI saMkhyA meM hai| ThaMDa kA mausama hai| rAta ke nau bajane vAle haiN| maiM sone kI taiyArI kara rahA hU~ aura gurudeva, tabhI acAnaka maiMne dekhA ki 8-10 bhAI Apake pAsa Akara vinatI kara rahe haiM "sAhaba, pravacana deMge?" maiM Apake pAsa hI khar3A thA gurudev| Apane mujhase pUchA, "ratnasuMdara, pravacana dene jAoge?" "gurudeva, bar3I nIMda A rahI hai|'' "tuma so jAo, maiM khuda jA rahA huuN| zrAvakoM kI itanI bhakti svIkAra lete ho aura jaba unheM prabhu ke vacana sunAne kI bAta AtI hai taba apane zarIra kI sukhazIlatA kI puSTi karate ho? jinazAsana ke ananta RNa se mukta hone kI koI vRtti hI nahIM ? ananta kAla se zarIra saMbhAlate Aye ho, sahalAte Aye ho aura usI ne AtmA kA bhavabhramaNa bar3hAyA hai| uttama saMyamajIvana ko pAne ke bAda bhI yahI mUrkhatA karate rahanA, yaha kahA~ taka ucita hai ? gurudeva! Apake isa Akroza ke garbha meM base saMghaprema ko dekhakara havaya Apake caraNoM meM jhuka jAtA hai| saMgha ko namaskAra karane ke bAda hI prabhu dezanA pharamAte -isa ukti ko vAstava meM Apa apane jIvana meM caritArtha karate rhe|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... vairAgya kA pramANa bar3hAne se saMsAra ke pavArtha adhika asAra, ni:satva aura saMsAra kI kriyAe~ adhika vyarthaniSphala lagatI haiN| vairAgya kA artha hI yahI hai ki sAMsArika padArtha asAra aura sAMsArika kriyAe~ vyartha lgeN| asAra arthAt bilkula satva rahita aura vyartha arthAt bilkula niSphalabekAra-phijula / jaba vairAgya kA pramANa bar3hAne se sAMsArika padArtha adhika niHsatva aura niSphala lagane lage taba pahale ina padArthoM ke moha ke prabhAva ke kAraNa jo dharmasAdhanAe~ rasahIna hotI thIM ve hI dharmasAdhanAe~ moha kA prabhAva na rahane ke kAraNa bhAvabharI hone lagatI haiM aura dharmasAdhanAoM meM joma-jozaullAsa bar3hate haiN| usa varSa cAturmAsa thA lAlabAga-mumbaI meM / gurudeva, sabhI Apake vairAgyarasa se bharapUra pravacanoM ke pIche paaglthe|aapke pravacanoM kA samaya thA prAta: 9:00 se 10:00 kA, aura Apane mujhe 10:00 se 10:30 baje taka"bhImasena caritra" para pravacana karane kI AjJA dI thii| kamAla kI bAta to yaha thI ki Apane svayaM hI mere adhyayana kA samaya nizcitkara diyAthA-prAta:8:30se 9:15aura 10:35 se 11:15 zurU meM isake pIche nihita kAraNa ko maiM samajha na sakA, para paryuSaNa ke bAda rAta ko Apane pUchA thA, "ratnasuMdara, par3hAI acchI cala rahI hai?" "hA~ jI" "usI samaya para?" "hA~ jI" "Aja tumheM maiM eka bAta kahanA cAhatA huuN| tumhAre adhyayana kA yahI samaya nizcit karane ke pIche merA eka hI uddezya thA-tuma gRhasthoM ke samparka meM Ao hI nhiiN|aakhir tumheM saMyama ko saMbhAlanA hai nA? isa umra meM gRhasthoM ke samparka se tumhArA saMyama kaise saMbhalegA?" gurudeva! lokasaMparka se dUra karake zlokasaMparka meM mujhe otaprota kara dene kI ApakI isa dIrghadRSTi kA abhinaMdana karane hetu mere pAsa koI zabda nahIM hai|

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za gurudeva kahate haiM.... dhyAna jaisA ho, manuSya usake anusAra sukhI athavA duHkhI hotA hai, khuzI yA g2ama mahasUsa karatA hai| ataH sukhI hone kA rAja yahI hai ki dhyAna malina nahIM, nirmala ho / gauNa vastu ke prati nahIM, mukhya vastu ke prati kendrita ho, jisase kheda - udvignatA leza mAtra bhI chU na ske| aise nirmala zubha dhyAna se paraloka ke lie bhI zubha karma kA hI upArjana hotA hai| ata: vahA~ bhI sukha-suvidhA prApta hotI hai| isa prakAra yahA~ ke sukhaduHkha aura paraloka kI acchI-burI sthiti yahA~ ke acche-bure dhyAna para nirmita hotI hai| ataH dhyAna jIvana meM atyanta mahatvapUrNa kArya karatA hai| sthAna- jAmanagara plaoNTa upAzraya ArAdhanA cala rahI thI upadhAna tapa kI / vAtAvaraNa meM kar3Ake kI ThaNDa thii| gurudeva, ApakA bhI galA zIta se *kharAba thA / merA kaMTha bhI zIta se pIr3ita thaa| Apane mujhe pravacana dene kI AjJA subaha hI de dI thii| bajane vAle the / zrAvaka pravacana ke lie vinatI karane aaye| gurudeva, ApakI anumati lekara meM pravacana karane gyaa| pravacana pATa (pIThikA) para baiThA / abhI to maiMne maMgalAcaraNa prAraMbha hI kiyA thA ki eka munivara mere pAsa Akara bole "gurudeva bulA rahe haiN|" maiM stabdha raha gyaa| abhI to maiM gurudeva kI anumati lekara AyA hU~ aura acAnaka aisA kyA kAraNa upasthita huA hogA ki gurudeva mujhe bulA rahe haiM ? kucha bhayamizrita manobhAvoM ke sAtha maiM pATa se utraa| gurudeva, jisa kamare meM Apa birAjamAna the usameM maiM dAkhila huaa| kucha socU~ usake pahale Apane mujhe kahA "ratnasuMdara, galA ThIka nahIM hai nA ? dekho, abhI abhI garma cAya AyI hai / thor3I-sI grahaNa kara lo, phira pravacana meM jAo / galA acchA calegA to pravacana bar3hiyA hogaa| " gurudeva ! ApakI yaha karuNA, ApakA yaha prema, ApakA yaha vAtsalya-ye hI to mere saMyamajIvana ko rasapUrNa banAne vAle rasAyana the nA ! jIvana ApakA tapomaya aura mujha jaise ajha ke prati ApakA yaha asIma prema ? 51

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"gurudeva, merA koI patra AyA thA?" "aThAraha panne kA?" gurudeva kahate haiM... kabhI aisA ho sakatA hai ki krodha karane se sAmane vAlA daba jAe aura vaha bAhara krodhana bhI dikhAye, para...usake dila meM hamAre prati jo sadbhAva hai use coTa z2arUra phuNcegii| aura kabhI sAmane vAlA daba jAe aisA na ho to usa becAre ke mana meM krodha jAgRta hogA athavA bddh'egaa| ina donoM hI paristhitiyoM meM krodha hamAre lie nukasAnadAyaka hai| eka bAhya cIja bigar3ane para dUsarI bAhya cIja bigAr3ane kA mUrkha vyApAra kyoM? "eka yuvaka kA likhA huA?" "hA~, para tumheM ye saba pUchane kI kyA AvazyakatA hai?" "gurudeva, patra likhane vAlA yuvaka Upara ke khaMDa meM hI khar3A hai| usane mujhe kahA ki, 'merA rajisTarDa e.DI.se bhejA huA patra mila gayA hogA, usakI rasIda para Apake gurudeva ke dastakhata haiN| Apako vaha patra mila to gayA hai nA? basa, isIlie Apako yaha pUchane hetu maiM yahA~ AyA huuN|" "vaha patra maiMne phAr3a diyA hai|" gurudeva, usa vakta mere cehare ke bhAvoM ko dekhate hI Apane mujhe pAsa biThAkara vAtsalyabhare zabdoM meM kahA thA, "yuvaka dvArA tumhe likhe gaye usa patra meM usane tumhAre pravacanoM kI mukta mana se prazaMsA kI thI, para mujhe yaha mahasUsa huA ki yaha prazaMsA tumhAre vikAsa ko sthagita bhI kara sakatI hai, kyoMki prazaMsA ko hajama kara sake itanI paripakvatA tuma meM A gaI ho aisA mujhe dikhAI nahIM detaa|aur isI kAraNa vaha patra tumheM na dekara maiMne phAr3a diyA hai|" gurudeva! merI AtmA kI aisI cintA vigata anaMta bhavoM meM kisI ne kI hogI yA nahIM, isameM mujhe saMdeha hai| eka vinatI karUM? Apa abhI jahA~ bhI ho vahIM se merI aisI hI cintA karate rhiyegaa| tabhI maiM merI AtmA ko bacA paauuNgaa|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... AtmA kI svataMtratA kA upayoga malina bhAvoM ko rokane evaM zubha bhAvoM ko vikasita karane meM hI karanA caahie| "gurudeva! do minaTa" rathayAtrA ke varaghor3e meM jAne ke lie gurudeva, Apa Asana chor3akara khar3e ho gaye haiN| kapar3A Apane oDha liyA hai| ka~dhe para kamalI bhI DAla lI hai aura eka munibhagavaMta ko daMDA le Ane hetu sUcita bhI kara diyA hai| "kyoM? kyA huA?" "Apane kapar3A bhI acchI taraha nahIM dhAraNa kiyA aura ka~dhe para kamalI bhI ThIka taraha se nahIM DAlI ! hama rathayAtrA ke varaghor3e meM jA rahe haiN| Apa tRtIya pada (AcArya pada) para virAjamAna ho cuke haiN| sabhI kI dRSTi Apa para hogI aura Apa aise astavyasta ? kaisA lagegA?" "ratnasuMdara, eka bAta sadA smRtipatha meM rkhnaa| jIvana meM jo sAdagI ko apanAtA hai usakA sAdhujIvana bahuta suMdara banA rahatA hai| bhojana ke dravya sAde, upakaraNa sAde, cAlacalana sAdA, tamAma vastue~ sAdI / saMkSipta meM, jIvana yadi sAdagIbharA to saMyamajIvana kI surakSA nizcit |kaal atyanta viSama hai| paise lekara ghUmane vAlA baniyA kisI kI naz2ara meMna Aye tabhI taka surakSita raha sakatA hai| isI taraha, dUsaroM kI dRSTi hama para na par3e, hamArA saMyamajIvana taba taka hI surakSita hai|" gurudeva! saMyamajIvana aura saMyama ke pariNAma surakSita rakhane ke lie Apa jisa hada taka jAgRta aura sAvadhAna the usa jAgRti aura sAvadhAnI kA mUlya samajhane kI dRSTi bhI hamAre pAsa kahA~ hai bhalA? garincha

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gurudeva kahate haiM... choTe-bar3e pApoM ko lekara aMtara meM bhArI pachatAvApIr3A-vyAkulatA prakaTa honI caahie| vaha bhI aisI ki vaha jarA bhI caina na par3ane de, najaroM ke sAmane una pApoM ke kaDu vipAkarupa durgati ke duHkhabhare janma dikhAI dene lage aura * pariNAmasvarUpa una pApoM kA pratipala bhaya lagA rahe tathA una pApoM ke prati pApakArI svayaM kI AtmA ke prati ghRNAtiraskAra banA rhe| "ratnasuMdara ! pravacana to tuma karate hI ho, aba thor3A likhanA bhI zuru kara do|" pAlanapura - khor3A lImar3A ke upAzraya kA vaha sthAna thA / samaya thA lagabhaga dopahara ke 2:30 baje kaa| "gurudeva ! bolanA alaga bAta hai aura likhanA alg| bolane meM viSayAMtara cala sakatA hai, para likhane meM viSayAMtara kaise cala sakatA hai ? aura dUsarI bAta, Apa to jAnate hI haiM ki Aja bhI maiM kisI ko eka patra bhI vyavasthita rUpa se nahIM likha paataa| aisI sthiti meM maiM kucha likhanA zurU karU~ yaha merI kSamatA ke bAhara hai|" mere isa nAdAna javAba ko sunakara gurudeva, Apa turaMta bole"ratnasuMdara, tumheM mere vacana para vizvAsa nahIM hai ?" aura eka pala kA bhI vilamba kiye binA maiMne ApakI goda meM apanA sara rakha diyA thaa| Apane sUrimaMtra ke jApa kA vAsakSepa mere mastaka para * DAlate samaya jo hAtha pherA thA usa sparza meM vAtsalya kA kaisA mahAsAgara umar3a par3A thA vaha mere smRtipatha meM Aja bhI sthira hai / basa, usI kSaNa se prAraMbha huI thI merI lekhanayAtrA, jo Aja taka akhaNDita rUpa se jArI hai| gurudeva ! hRdaya meM yaha zraddhA nitAMta sthira ho gaI hai ki guru ziSya ko kevala AjJA hI nahIM dete, AjJA ke sAtha AjJApAlana kA bala bhI dete haiN| isake bagaira mere jIvana meM isa camatkAra kA sarjana hotA hI kaise ? 57

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will gurudeva kahate haiM... hRdaya ke bhAvoM ko nirmala karane ke tIna lAbha1. azubha karmabaMdhana meM rukAvaTa / 2. zubha karmoM kA upArjana / 3. pUrva baMdhita pApakamoM kA kSaya / samasta saMgha meM Aja AnaMda hI AnaMda thaa| usameM bhI vizeSa AnaMda to hama sAdhuoM ko thA / kevala pA~ca-sAta dina bAda ApakA vardhamAna tapa kI 108 vIM olI kA pAranA thaa| kitanA prabala satva prakaTa karane ke bAda Apa isa maMz2ila ke nikaTa pahu~ca pAye the| jIvana ke lagabhaga 6000 dina Apane isa tapa meM bitAye the| isa avadhi meM kabhI Apako bukhAra bhI AyA to kabhI piliyA bhI ho gayA, kabhI to Apako yaha tapa bIca meM hI chor3a denA par3A thA to kabhI Apako isa tapa kI pUrNAhuti khIMcakara bhI karanI par3I thii| parantu, vAstavikatA yaha thI ki sabhI saMgharSoM se pAra utarakara Apa maMjila ke bilkula nikaTa A pahu~ce the| parantu, na jAne kyoM Apake cehare para ina dinoM AnaMda nahIM, balki vyathA thI ? eka rAta sahaja hI maiMne Apase isakA kAraNa puuchaa| ApakA javAba thA 'ratnasuMdara, vigaI meM jAne kA AnaMda kaisA ? anaMta anaMta kAla se jina vigaiyoM ke sevana ne AtmA ko vikRtiyoM kA zikAra banAkara durgatiyoM meM Dhakelane kA hI kAma kiyA hai vaha vigaIsevana nikaTa A rahA hai, usameM khuzI ? kadApi nhiiN|' gurudeva ! mahAvideha meM jAne kI bajAya kyA Apa hama jaisoM ke lie udAharaNarUpa banane ke lie hI bharatakSetra meM avatarita ho gaye the ? 59

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gurudeva kahate haiM.... jar3a jagat ke viSaya meM jitanA jyAdA jAnane kA prayAsa karoge utanA jyAdA ronA par3egA aura jitanA z2yAdA dekhane kA prayAsa karoge utanA jyAdA bhaTakanA pdd'egaa| jabaki, jIva jagat ke viSaya meM jitanA jyAdA jAnate rahoge utanI nirmalatA bar3hatI jAyegI aura jitanA z2yAdA isa jagat kA guNavaibhava dekhoge utanI mukti nikaTa aayegii| taya kara lo, A~kha aura mana ko kahA~ rokanA hai ? jar3ajagat para yA jIvajagat para ? oNparezana thieTara se bAhara Ane ko abhI do hI ghaNTe hue the / gurudeva, Apa ke gale ke bhItarI hisse meM bar3ha rahe phor3e kA abhIabhI oNparezana huA hai| Apa pUrNarUpa se hoza meM haiN| oNparezana karane vAle DaoNkTara Apake samIpa hI khar3e haiN| unhoMne Apa se jora dekara eka anurodha kiyA hai ki- "abhI cAra ghaNTe taka Apa eka bhI zabda nahIM boleNge| jo bhI kahanA ho vaha izAroM meM hI kaheMge / " "sAhabajI bhojana meM kyA le sakate haiM ?" "cAya dI jA sakatI hai| " itanA kahakara DaoNkTara to cale gaye, para gurudeva, dopahara ke eka baje ApakI sevA meM upasthita munivara ne jaba Apase pUchA ki "cAya le AU~ ?" taba DaoNkTara kI mauna rahane kI salAha ke bAvajUda Apane jo javAba diyA thA use sunane kA sadbhAgya mujhe bhI prApta huA thA / "abhI dopahara ko eka baje nirdoSa cAya to kisI ke ghara nahIM milegii| tIna baje kahIM jAkara AnA, kadAcit usa samaya kahIM nirdoSa cAya mila jAe / " gurudeva ! zAstrapaMktiyoM ko Apane kevala kaMThastha hI nahIM kiyA thA, balki jIvanastha bhI kiyA thaa| isake bag2aira aisI asvasthatA meM bhI nirdoSa cAya kA Agraha rakhane kI sadbuddhi kaise sujhatI ? 61

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gurudeva kahate hai... jaise mRtyu ke lie koI anavasara nahIM hai, vaise dharma ke lie koI akAla nahIM hai| mRtyu yadi kisI bhI samaya A sakatI hai to mRtyu kA sAmanA karane vAle aura mRtyu ko sudhArane vAle dharma ke lie koI bhI avasara ucita kyoM nahIM hai? yaha bAta saca hai ki abhI mRtyu nahIM AI, para kauna kaha sakatA hai ki isake bAda jo bhI pala Ane vAlA hai usameM mRtyu AyegI hI nahIM? "Aja rAta eka sAtha do lAbha hue|" rAta hamane eka skUla meM bitAI aura subaha vihAra thaa| usa samaya vaMdana hetu ekatrita hue tIna-cAra muniyoM ke samakSa jaba Apane uparokta bAta kahI taba sahasA maiM pUcha baiThA, "kaunase do lAbha?" "eka lAbha yaha ki pUrI rAta candra kA prakAza skUla ke kamare meM AtA rahA aura isalie prabhu ke vacanoM para merA manocintana likhane meM bahuta Ananda aayaa|" "aura dUsarA lAbha?" "ye bAlamuni haiM nA? khuda ke saMthAre se loTate loTate ve mere saMthAre meM A gye| AcArya ke saMthAre meM sone ko milA phira to pUchanA hI kyA? pUrI rAta mere saMthAre meM hI sote rhe| subaha jaba unheM pratikramaNa ke lie uThAyA tabhI utthe| pUrI rAta maiM baiThA rahA mere saMthAre ke bAhara aura ye bAlamuni soye rahe mere saMthAre meN|baalmuni kA aisA lAbha mujhe milA, yaha merA puNya hI hai nA? kaI varSoM ke bAda eka hI rAta meM mujhe ye do do lAbha mile hoMge!" gurudeva! Apake isa nirmala vAtsalya ke anubhava ke Age kisI bhI prakAra ke khAlIpana ke Tikane kI saMbhAvanA hI kahA~ hai ? saca kahU~, Apake aise vAtsalya ke sAgara meM jisako bhI DUbane kA saubhAgya milatA hai, vAsanA, vedanA, vilApa aura vyathA usase dUra hI rahate haiN|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... Aja dharma karane se aura pApa chor3ane se inkAra karane vAle mana se itanA hI pUcha lo ki dharma yadi Aja nahIM karoge to kaba karoge? aura, pApa yadi Aja nahIM chor3oge to kaba chor3oge? "mere Asana para par3e akhabAra ko kisane hAtha lagAyA? bulAo saba sAdhuoM ko yahA~ mere paas|" jalagA~va ke cAturmAsa ke daurAna eka dina pravacana samApti ke pazcAt Apako aisA lagA ki ApakI anupasthiti meM kisI ne avazya akhabAra par3hA hai| Apakrodhita ho uThe aura palabhara meM to hama sabhI sAdhu Apake samakSa upasthita ho gye| "akhabAra ko kisane hAtha lagAyA?" yaha bolate vakta ApakA ugra ceharA dekhakara hama saba kA~pa uThe the, para sabase jyAdA viSama sthiti merI thI, kyoMki akhabAra par3hane kA gunAha maiMne hI kiyA thaa| "gurudeva, maiM gunahagAra huuN|" "merI anupasthiti meM mere Asana ko lAibrerI banAyA ? tumheM akhabAra par3hane kI ijAjata kisane dI? kyA par3hanA hai akhabAra meM? svAdhyAya meM DUba jAne kI umra meM akhabAra par3hate ho? khabaradAra, Aja ke bAda kabhI akhabAra ko hAtha lagAyA to! saMyamajIvana khatma ho jaayegaa|" gurudeva! 11varSa ke saMyamajIvana ke paryAya ke bAda bhI mujhe akhabAra ke vAcana se dUra rakhakara vAstava meM ApazrI ne mere bhAvaprANoM ko surakSita kara diyA thaa| Apake isa upakAra kA varNana karane ke lie mere pAsa koI zabda nahIM hai|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... karma to "ka" ke samAna haiN| baiMka meM"caika"jamA karane para Apako rakama to mila jAtI hai para bAda meM vaha "ka" kensala ho jAtA hai| zubha yA azubhakarma jaba udita hote haiM taba ve Apako sukha-duHkha dete haiM, para vaha dene ke bAda ve zubha yA azubha karma zeSa nahIM rahate, samApta ho| jAte haiN| Aja subaha, pandraha kilomITara ke vihAra meM bhI maiM thaka gayA thA, aura zAma ko ATha kilomITara kA vihAra phira huaa|shriir isa hada taka zramita ho cukA thA ki kaba pratikramaNa pUrA ho aura kaba maiM so jAU~? Akhira pratikramaNa pUrA huaa| vizrAma ke lie maiM saMthArA bichA rahA thA aura gurudeva, Apane yaha dekha liyaa|aapko dhyAna meM A gayA ki maiM sone kI taiyArI meM hI hU~ aura Apane mujhe AvAja lagAI, "ratnasuMdara!" saca kahU~ ? ApakI yaha AvAja sunakara usa pala to mana meM yaha vicAra AyA ki maiM Apase kaha dU~-"kala subaha hI maiM Apase miluuNgaa|" para mana kI yaha bAta mana meM hI rakhakara maiM bemana se Apake pAsa pahu~cA / "ratnasuMdara, pratidina rAta ko calane vAlA tumhArA vizeSAvazyaka bhASya kA pATha kAphI samaya se maiMne nahIM sunA hai| merI icchA hai ki Aja tumhArA yaha pATha maiM sunuuN|bolo, sunAoge nA?" aura sacamuca gurudeva, usa vakta Apane khudane merA pATha Adhe ghaNTe taka sunaa| gurudeva! AzritoM ko pramAdasevana se dUra rakhane ke lie Apa vividha prakAra kI jo yuktiyA~ AjamAte the unase aisA lagatA thA ki sacamuca AzritoM ke lie "bhavasAgarataraNasetUbandhakalpAnAm" hI the aap|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... hama kisameM khuza? kacarA sApha ho usameM yA AbhUSaNa kama ho usameM? vu:kha meM pApa kI holI aura kacarA sApha hone se AtmA ke lie divaalii| sukhasaMpatti meM puNya kI holI aura puNyadhana jAne se AtmA kA divAlA / bolo, du:kha meM duHkhI hone jaisA hai bhalA? sukha meM pApI banane jaisA hai bhalA? tithithI cturdshii| cAturmAsa thA surata meN|gurudev, hama saba darzana karane ke lie bar3AcauTA ke jinAlaya kI ora jA rahe the| acAnaka patA nahIM kyA huA? Apa khar3e raha gye|maiN Apake pIche cala rahA thaa| Apake nikaTa aayaa| Apane kahA, "ratnasuMdara! AhArasaMjJA ko tor3anA hai yA rahane denA hai|" "tor3anA hI hai" "sacamuca?" "to suno| yahA~ baDAcauTA ke upAzraya meM cAturmAsa hetu virAjamAna pUjyapAda AcArya bhagavanta kumudacaMdrasUrIzvarajI mahArAja haiM nA, saMbhavatayA vartamAna meM unake samAna tapasvI jinazAsana meM aura koI nahIM hai| darzana uparAMta hama unake pAsa hI jA rahe haiN| hama sabako apane mastaka para DalavAnA hai unake varada hastoM se vaaskssep| apane puruSArtha se bhI jisa AhArasaMjJA ko hama nahIM tor3a sakeMge vaha AhArasaMjJA aise vaMdanIya tapasvI AcArya bhagavanta ke AzIrvAda se svata: TUTane lgegii|" gurudeva! ApazrI kI isa guNAnurAgitA ko kina zabdoM meM vaMdana karU~ ? Apa svayaM tapasvI aura phira bhI anya samudAya ke tapasvI pUjyazrI ke pAsa AzIrvAda lene kI ApazrI kI yaha udAtta vRtti? vaMdana hai ApakI udAravRtti ko|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... hRdaya to hamArA hI hai nA ? usameM kaisI saMvedanAe~ paidA karanI athavA kaisI nahIM karanI, yaha jaba hama para hI nirbhara hai to kyoM na zubha saMvedanAoM ko paidA kareM aura azubha saMvedanAoM ko dabAte raheM? (c) CG sthala thA khaMbhAta osavAla jaina upAzraya / vahA~ aMjanazalAkA mahotsava cala rahA thaa| Aja prabhu ke janmakalyANaka ke nimitta 56 dikkumAriyoM kA maMcIya kAryakrama thA aura gurudeva, prAtaH kAla meM vandana hetu ekatrita sAdhuoM ke samakSa Apane jo udbodhana diyA thA vaha Aja bhI mujhe acchI taraha yAda hai| "dekho, Aja maMca para 56 dikkumAriyoM kA kAryakrama hone vAlA hai| ve dikkumAriyA~ 10 varSa se adhika umra kI nahIM honI cAhie isa saMbaMdha meM maiMne AyojakoM ko spaSTa hidAyata pahale hI de dI hai, phira bhI merI spaSTa icchA hai ki tuma saba yahIM upAzraya meM rahakara svAdhyAyAdi kro| maiM do-cAra vRddha sAdhuoM ke sAtha kAryakrama meM jAkara lauTa AU~gA / dikkumArikAe~ bhale hI choTI umra kI hoMgI, phira bhI unakA strIzarIra hai / hama saMyamI unake darzana se bacate raheM isI meM hamArA Atmahita surakSita hai| yaha prabhubhakti kA prasaMga hai isalie maiM tumheM na Ane kI AjJA to nahIM detA, para merI yaha jo icchA thI vaha tuma sabako batAnA cAhatA thaa|" gurudeva ! hama saba kI pavitratA kI cintA karane vAle Apane apane hRdaya ko kisa hada taka pavitra banAye rakhA hogA isakI kalpanA karate karate Aja bhI A~khoM meM A~sU chalaka Ate haiN| Apake jaise zirachatra ko pAkara hama sabhI dhanya ho gaye haiN| 71

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gurudeva kahate haiM... mAnavajIvana yoga ke lie hai bhoga ke lie nhiiN|yh jIvana pAkara yoga kI sAdhanA kare vaha bhAgyazAlI aura bhoga meM hI DUbA rahe vaha abhaagii| maiM una varSoM meM ApazrI kI AjJA se gujarAta meM ruka gayA thA aura ApazrI padhAre the dakSiNa meN| iror3a meM ApazrI kI pAvana nizrA meM huI bhavya aMjanazalAkA ke samAcAra sunane ke bAda gurudeva, maiMne ApazrI ko patra meM likhA thA ki "ApazrI kI pAvana nizrA meM huI abhUtapUrva aMjanazalAkA ke samAcAra sunakara atyanta Ananda huaa|" mere isa patra ke pratyuttara meM Apane mujhe DA~Tate hue likhA thA-"tumhAre pAsa zabdoM kA acchA khAsA khajAnA lagatA hai|"abhuutpuurv'' zabda likhate hue tumheM zarma nahIM AI?"abhUtapUrva" zabda kA artha kyA tumhAre dhyAna meM hai ? bhUtakAla meM kabhI na huA ho use kahA jAtA hai "abhUtapUrva" kyA bhUtakAla meM isa kSetra meM aisI aMjanazalAkA kabhI nahIM huI hogI? maiMne aura tumane bhUtakAla kitanA dekhA hai? Aja taka bhUtakAla kitanA gujara cukA hai isakA tumheM patA hai? khaira, Aja ke bAda patra likhane meM zabdoM kA prayoga karane se pahale viveka kA avazya upayoga krnaa|" gurudeva! ApakI isa sUkSmabuddhi aura zuddhabuddhi para usa samaya maiM phidA ho gayA thA / vAstava meM Apake jJAnAvaraNa ke tIvra kSayopazama ko mohanIya ke kSayopazama kA jabaradasta sahArA thaa| isake binA aisI dIrghadRSTi hone kI saMbhAvanA hI kahA~ hotI?

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gurudeva kahate haiM... duSkRta ke tIvra pazcAttApa meM yadi duSkRta ke bIja ko jalA dene kii| tIva zakti hai to sukRtoM kI jI bharakara kI jAne vAlI anumodanA meM sukata ke bIja ko surakSita rakha lene kI maMgala zakti hai| duSkRta ko surakSita karane vAlI dubi se mukta ho jAnA cAhate ho tathA sukRta ko jIvanta rakhane vAlI sadbuddhi ke mAlika bane rahanA cAhate ho to pazcAttApaanumodanA ke svAmI banakara hI rho| ghATakopara navarojI lena kA upAzraya-samaya lagabhaga zAma ke pA~ca baje kA, aura gurudeva, Apako AvazyakatA par3I Apake eka upakaraNa kI jisakA Apa pratidina upayoga karate the| ApakI sevA meM niyukta munivara ne vaha upakaraNa lAkara Apako de to diyA, parantu Apane satarka dRSTi se turanta parakha liyA ki yaha upakaraNa vaha nahIM hai jisakA upayoga Apa pratidina karate haiN| Apane pUchA, "purAnA upakaraNa kahA~ hai?" "usako durusta karane ke lie eka gRhastha ko diyA hai|" "kaba diyA?" "kala zAma ko|" "Aja kA pratilekhana?" "raha gayA hai|" "kala mujhe upavAsa hai|" aura gurudeva, hamAre lAkha samajhAne para bhI Apa Tasa se masa nahIM hue|duusre dina ghATakopara se sIdhA muluMDa kI ora vihAra thA, phira bhI Apa upavAsa krke| hI rhe| gurudeva! AjJApAlana ke lie isa hada taka ApakA Agraha dekhane ke bAda hmeN| nahIM lagatA ki yaha saMsAra Apako dIrgha samaya taka yahA~ rahane de| 75

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gurudeva kahate haiM... jIvana jIne meM sahArA kisakA liyA jAe ? vaibhavasAmagrI aura AtmaprazaMsA kAyA bhAgya ko balavAna banAne vAle dharmatatva kA? koI javAba? zAma ko Aja lambA vihAra thA to subaha kA vihAra bhI lambA hiithaa| gurudeva, Apa sahita hama sabhI ke zarIra bhArI zramita the| zAma ko hama saba vaMdana hetu jaba ApazrI ke samakSa upasthita hue taba ApazrIne hama saba ko kahA bhI ki "Aja apanA vihAra bahuta lambA ho gayA hai| jo bhI thaka gaye hoM aura baiThe baiThe pratikramaNa karanA cAhate hoM unako merI anumati hai..." parantu, pratikramaNa zuru ho usake pahale gurudeva, Apane mujhe bulAyA, "jarA kamalI or3hakara aanaa|" maiM kamalI or3hakara gurudeva, Apake pAsa AyA aura Apane bhI kamalI oDhI / maiM soca meM par3a gyaa| "abhI kahA~ jAnA hogA?" maiM kucha bolU~ usake pahale Apane kahA, "dekho, Aja ujAlI aSTamI hai / candra kA prakAza kahA~ milegA yaha hama jarA dekha leN| rAta ko likhane ke lie maiM sIdhA vahIM pahu~ca jAU~ nA! vaise bhI, usa jagaha kA abhI se khayAla A jAe to kAjA Adi lene kI vidhi meM bhI AsAnI rhegii|" gurudeva! janmoM-janma AtmA ke lie "adhikaraNa" rUpa banane vAle zarIra ko Apane jisa kuzalatA se "upakaraNa"rupa banA diyA thA use dekhane ke pazcAt karmasattA ne bhI kadAcit nirNaya kara liyA hogA ki Apako aba azarIrI avasthA kA upahAra denA hI hai| 77

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gurudeva kahate haiM.... manuSya tIna prakAra ke hote haiM1. jar3a-saMpatti meM hI surakSitatA kA anubhava karane vAle-mUka mnussy| 2. saMpatti ke kAraNabhUta puNya meM surakSitatA kA anubhava karane vAle-kucha samajhadAra mnussy| 3. deva-guru-dharma kI zaraNa meM surakSitatA kA anubhava karane vAle-vAstava meM vivekI manuSya / avasara thA tapovana (navasArI) meM aMjanazalAkA mahotsava kaa| zatAdhika padastha-pUjyoM kI upasthiti meM mahotsava atyanta bhavyatA se manAyA jA rahA thaa| gurudeva, una dinoM jaba bhI samaya milatA, ApakI vAcanA calatI rahatI thii| jIvanabhara saMyama kI vizuddhi hetu jAgRta evaM prayatnazIla rahane vAle Apa, una vAcanAoM meM jo prabhuvacana prastuta karate the unheM sunakara hama sabhI Anandita ho jAte the| eka dina saMpUrNa vAcanA "rAtrisvAdhyAya'' kI mahattA ko kendra meM rakhakara huii| jabase mumukSuavasthA meM maiM Apake sAtha rahA, maiMne dekhA hai ki ApazrI rAtrisvAdhyAya ke lie kitane AgrahI rahe haiN| acAnaka vAcanA ke daurAna Apake mukha se zabda nikala par3e"ratnasuMdara aba sayAnA ho gayA hai nA! isalie usane rAtri-svAdhyAya chor3a diyA hai| varanA, vizeSAvazyaka bhASya kA usakA svAdhyAya sunakara to maiM svayaM Anandita ho jAtA thaa| para lagatA hai, aba ve dina gye|" gurudeva! Apake mukha se nikale ina zabdoM ko sunakara maiM itanAzarmidA nahIM huA thA jitanA Anandita ho gayA thA / kitanA puNya rahA hogA merA jo sau se adhika pUjyoM ke bIca Apake ye zabda mujhe sunane ko mile the|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... puNya to dhokhebAja hai, kaba dhokhA de jAe yaha kahA nahIM jA sktaa| puNya ke hone mAtra se naye puNya kA upArjana nahIM hotA, puNya ke mAla ko dharma meM lagAo to hI naye puNya kI vRddhi hotI hai| puNya kA svabhAva to udaya meM Akara vidA ho jAnA hai! aise puNya meM hI 'surakSitatA kA anubhava karanA ucita nahIM hai| Aja vAcanA meM Apa atyanta prphullitthe|caaluu vAcanA meM Apane hamAre samakSa eka prazna rakhA "zarIramAdyaM khalu dharmasAdhanam", isa paMkti kA artha btaaie| hama sabako samajha meM A hI gayA thA ki hama jo bhI artha kareMge, Aja gurudeva usase kucha alaga hI artha btaayeNge| varanA, aisA sarala prazna gurudeva hameM kyoM pUchate ! phira bhI eka munivara ne javAba diyA, "zarIra dharma kA prathama (mukhya) sAdhana hai|" gurudeva, yaha javAba sunakara ApamuskurAte hue basa itanA hI bole, "AdyaM zarIraM khalu dharmasAdhanam". isa prakAra yadi paMkti kI racanA kI jAe to isakA artha yaha hotA hai ki "prathama zarIra arthAt zarIra kI prathama yuvAvasthA hI dharma kA sAdhana hai"| aura bAta bhI saccI hI hai nA ? sAdhanAoM meM yadi gati bar3hAnI hai, tapasyA ke kSetra meM abhinava zikhara phataha karane haiM,khUna-pAnI eka karake svAdhyAya kara lenA hai to yaha saba yuvAvasthA meM hI saMbhava hai| Apa saba abhI yuvAvasthA meM hI ho nA? satva prakaTa kara sAdhanAe~ kara hI lenA!" gurudeva! zAstrapaktiyoM ke gUr3ha rahasyoM ko prakaTa karane vAlI ApakI nirmala prajJA ne hI to Apake varada hastoM se "paramateja" jaise najarAne svarupa graMtha kA sarjana karavAyA thA nA!

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gurudeva kahate haiM... "vinaya" ko AtmasAt karane meM kula cha:prakAra ke lAbha hai1.jinAjJApAlana kI icchA kA shubhbhaav| 2. namratA kA shubhbhaav| 3. upakAriyoM ke upakAroM ke prati kRtjnybhaav| 4.guNavAnoM ke guNoM kA anurAga, yaha shubhbhaav| 5. karmakSaya kI icchA kA shubhbhaav| 6."dharma kI jar3a vinaya hai" ata: anya dharma ko lAne kA shubhbhaav| aise zubhabhAvoM kA khajAnArupa 'vinaya dharma' agaNita kamoM evaM anya aneka guNoM kA lAbhadAtA hai| "eka mAmale meM maiMmAra khA gayA huuN|" gurudeva, Aja Apa Azcaryacakita kara dene vAle "mUDa'' meM the| rAta ko hama cAra-pA~ca sAdhu Apake pAsa baiThe the| Apane bAta zurU kI thii| "kyoM, kyA huA?", hamane puuchaa| "Aja aisA laga rahA hai ki vardhamAna tapa kI 100 oliyA~ pUrNa karane ke bAda mujhe 108 vI olI taka nahIM pahu~canA cAhie thaa|" "para kyoM?" "kyoMki aba 109vIM olI pUrNa kara sakU~ aisA svAsthya nahIM hai| yadi 100vIM olI pUrNa karane ke bAda maiMne naye sire se pAyA DAlA hotA nA, to choTI-choTI kitanI hI oliyA~ maiMne AsAnI se pUrNa kara lI hotI! 101 se 108 olI taka maiM pahu~cA to sahI, para usameM kula milAkara AyaMbila hue lagabhaga 800, jabaki pAyA DAlakara oliyA~ zuru kI hotI to Aja taka kama-se-kama 1500 se 2000 AyaMbila pUrNa ho gaye hote! aba isa zarIra meMna 109 vIM olI karane kI kSamatA hai aura na hI vardhamAna tapa kA pAyA DAlane kii| gurudeva! Apa gaNalobhI to the hI, para tapasyAlobhIbhI the| Apa ArAdhanA ke lobhI to the hI, para karmanirjarA meM bhI Apake lobha kA koI anta nahIM thaa| aise lobha aura lobhAMdhatA, kyA Apa hameM nahIM de sakate gurudeva ?

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gurudeva kahate haiM... sukha-saMpatti meM puNya kI sahAyatA kA kaI bAra anubhava kiyaa| Apatti meM deva-gurudharma kI sahAyatA kA kyA kabhI anubhava kiyA ? sUrata aThavAgeTa ke upAzraya meM gurudeva, rAta ko maiM Apake pAsa baiThA thaa| ApakI tabIyata kucha narama thii|aahaar kI aruci, nidrA meM vikSepa, ye takalIpheM to thI hI, parantu ciMtAjanaka takalIpha yaha thI ki Apake zarIra para lakave kA sAmAnya hamalA ho cukA thaa| "gurudeva, eka vinatI hai|" "bolo" "Aja bambaI se Ae DaoN.baMsala eka bAta vizeSarupa se kahakara gaye haiN|" "kyA?" "Apake gurudeva ko khar3e khaDe pratikramaNa mata karane denaa| yadi saMtulana ga~vA baiThe aura gira par3e to brena hemareja hojAyegA athavA hArTa-aTeka AjAegA yA phira lakave kA isase adhika bar3A hamalA ho jaayegaa|" "matalaba? tuma kahanA kyA cAhate ho?" "aba Apa baiThe-baiThe hI pratikramaNa kiijie|" "dekho ratnasuMdara, tumheM mere irda-girda do-tIna sAdhuoM ko khar3e karanA ho to kara denA, lekina pratikramaNa mujhase baiThe-baiThe to kataI nahIM hogA!" gurudeva! zarIra ko sahalAne kI bAta to kabhI Apake dimAga meM AtI hI nahIM thI, para zarIra ko saMbhAlane kA samaya AyA taba bhI Apane prabhu kI AjJA kA paripAlana karanA hI ucita smjhaa| ApakI isa ni:spRhatA ko hamAre ananta-ananta vaMdana!

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gurudeva kahate haiM... mana jaba taka iTaaniSTa, rAga-dveSa aura harSa - zoka meM jakar3A huA rahatA hai, inhIM meM lagA huA rahatA hai, taba taka AtmA ko jJAnadRSTi, tatvadRSTi tathA zubhadhyAna kI prApti nahIM ho sktii| vAstava meM zubhadhyAna kA svAmI bananA ho to iSTa-aniSTa janita harSazoka se bAhara nikala jAo / G sUrata - OMkArasUri ArAdhanA bhavana kA sthAna ! rAta ke lagabhaga do baje kA samaya, aura gurudeva ! Apane mere pAsa eka munivara ko bhejA / maiM gaharI nIMda meM soyA thaa| munivara ne mujhe uThAkara basa yahI kahA "gurudeva bulA rahe haiN|" maiM stabdha raha gyaa| mana meM cintA kI eka lahara - sI daur3a gii| "svAsthya meM koI gar3abar3a to nahIM hai ? samudAya kA koI gaMbhIra prazna to khar3A nahIM huA hai? mujhe kucha kahanA cAhate hoMge ?" aisI aneka prakAra kI zaMkA-kuzaMkAe~ karate-karate maiM nIce aayaa| Apake kamare meM praveza kiyaa| Apake pAsa baiThA, aura gurudeva, Apane bAta zuru kI "ratnasuMdara ! Avazyaka kriyA ke sUtra kitane gaMbhIra rahasyoM se bhare par3e haiM! sUtra kA uccAraNa karane ke sAtha mana yadi usake artha ciMtana meM DUba jAe to AtmA anaMta anaMta azubhakarmoM kI holI jalAne meM saphala ho sakatI hai ! prazna mere mana meM yaha uThatA hai ki sAdhu Avazyaka kriyAe~ isa taraha karate hoMge yA phira bemana se karate hoMge ? tuma pratidina sAdhusAdhviyoM ko vAcanA dete ho nA ? usa vAcanA meM isa viSaya para thor3A jora dete jAo / yahI batAne ke lie tumheM abhI jagAyA hai !" gurudeva ! rAta ke do baje hamAre lie aisI cintA se Apa vyathita ? saca kahU~ ? mujhe hamezA yaha mahasUsa hotA hai ki hama sAdhu bhale hI pA~cave Are ke haiM, para hameM Apa to cauthe Are ke hI mila gaye haiM! 87

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gurudeva kahate haiM... saMsAra meM eka bhI vastu aisI nahIM hai jisake prati sneha karane ke bAda kabhI aruSi kA bhAva paidA na huA ho ! patnI bhale hI rupa ke aMbAra jaisI milI ho yA karor3oM kA hIrA hAtha kI aMgulI meM ho, para kyA usake prati rAga akhaNDita rahatA hai? usake prati bhI kabhI ghRNA paidA hotI hai yA nahIM? sUrata-OMkArasUri ArAdhanA bhavana meM maiM mere Asana para baiThA thaa| aura gurudeva, yaha saMdezA milA "gurudeva bulA rahe haiN|" maiM turanta khar3A hokara Apa jahA~ virAjamAna the usa kamare ke dvAra taka pahu~ca to gayA, para vahA~ mujhe zAsanaprabhAvaka, pUjyapAda paMnyAsa shrii| candrazekharavijayajI mahArAja bhI mila gaye aura AcArya (usa vakta / paMnyAsa) zrI hemaratnasUri bhI mila gye| "kyoM abhI?" "gurudeva ne bulAyA hai|" hama tInoM bhItara aaye|"drvaajaa baMda kro|" gurudeva, Apa basa itanA hI bole aura hama tInoM ko lagA ki Aja nizcit hI apanI acchI-khAsI dhulAI hone vAlI hai| tabhI Apane bAta zurU kI, "dekho, tuma tInoM pravacana to acchA hI karate ho para pravacanoM meM bAra-bAra AgamagraMtha tathA prakaraNoM ke nAma ke sAtha unakI zAstrapaMktiyA~ bhI bolate jaao| aisaa| karane se zrotAoM ke mana para gaharA asara hogaa| zAstroM aura zAstrakAra paramarSiyoM ke prati unake mana meM AdarabhAva paidA ho jAe, yaha bhI pravacana kii| choTI-moTI phalazruti nahIM hai|" gurudeva! "zAstroM ko pradhAnatA dene se vItarAga ko hI pradhAnatA dii| jAtI hai|" yaha bAta Apake mana meM kitanI dRr3harUpa se baiThI hai, yh| pratIti hama tInoM ko usI samaya ho gaI thii| DG

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gurudeva kahate haiM... hamAre jIvana meM paristhiti kaisI bhI kharAba nirmita huI ho, parantu usake bAre meM jAnane ke bAda sAmAnyajana kucha bhI acchAna kara sakeM aura ulTA usase kaSAyavRddhi karate hoM, hamArI kavAyavRddhikA kAraNa banate hoM tathA bAhara usakA pracAra karake adhika viSama paristhiti kA sarjana karate ho to aisI paristhitiyoM ke saMbaMdha meM unheM kucha batAne se kyA lAbha? "pichale kucha dinoM se gurudeva, Apane apanA vyavahAra kucha badala liyA hai, aisA najara A rahA hai| pahale to gocarI grahaNa karane ke bAda turanta hI khar3e hokara Apa apane Asana para pahu~ca jAte the aura sUrimaMtra ke jApa meM baiTha jAte the| lekina, abhI ApagocarI ke bAda bhIgocarI mAMDalI meM hI baiThe rahate haiM aura vahIM panne ma~gavAkara jinavacanoM kI anuprekSA likhate rahate haiN| jaba taka gocarI grahaNa kara sabhI sAdhukhar3e nahIM ho jAte taba taka ApavahIM baiThe rahate haiN| isakA kAraNa kyA hai gurudeva?" saMdhyA ke samaya vandana karane ke bAda maiMne Apase namrabhAva se yaha pUchA thaa|aapkaa javAba yaha thA "ratnasuMdara! apanI gocarI mAMDalI saMyamiyoM kI hai, vaha pikanika rupa to kabhI nahIM bananI cAhie nA? tuma dekha hI rahe ho ki gocarI mAMDalI meM jaba taka maiM upasthita rahatA hU~ taba taka kitanI zAMti rahatI hai ? alabattA, sabhI sAdhu zAlIna haiM, phira bhI merI upasthiti yadi itanI prabhAvazAlI banI rahatI ho to yaha acchA hI hai nA! sabakI gocarI jaldI ho jAe nirarthaka bAtacItana ho, saMyama kI mastI kA anubhava karane ke lie bhI yaha jarUrI hai|" gurudeva! ApakI hama sabhI ke hita kI kAMkSA ko smaraNAMjali dene ke lie na hamAre pAsa zabdoM kA vaibhava hai aura na hI saMvedanAoM kI abhivyakti! Apa hamAre lie kyA nahIM the, yaha prazna hai|

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gurudeva kahate haiM... kSatriya kI talavAra kA upayoga kSINa-kamajora prANiyoM ke vadha ke lie nahIM hotaa| isI prakAra, dharmAtmA kI buddhi kA upayoga kSudra vicAroM aura dUsaroM para varcasva jamAne ke lie nahIM hotaa| gurudeva, ApakA svAsthya kucha jyAdA hI narama thaa| pairoM meM lakave kA sAmAnya asara thA / AhAra kI koI ruci nahIM thii|shriir meM kamajorI bhI thii| sone ke bAda Apa apane Apa baiTha sakeM aisI koI saMbhAvanA to thI hI nahIM, parantu hama sAdhuoM ko bhI Apako biThAne meM bar3I parezAnI hotI thii| ina takalIphoM meM kucha ArAma pAne ke lie DaoNkTara ne Apako palaMga para sulAne kA vizeSa anurodha kiyA thaa| aspatAla se palaMga maiMgavAkara rakha diyA aura vaha bhI haiMDalavAlA, jisase Apako baiThane meM koI takalIpha na ho|aapkii bilkula anicchA ke bAvajUda Apako palaMga para sulAne meM hameM saphalatA to milI, lekina parezAnI to taba huI jaba hamane heMDala kA upayoga karake Apako bitthaayaa| Apane pUchA, "maiM baiThA kisa taraha?" palaMga se heMDala nikAlakara, gurudeva, Apako dikhAyA aura Apane turanta pUchA, "isa heMDala ko palaMga meM DAlo taba palaMga ke isa pole hisse ko pU~janA kaise saMbhava hai? nahIM! isa palaMga para maiM hargiz2a nahIM souuNgaa|" aura Apane palaMga chor3akara apanI pATa kA hI upayoga kiyA! gurudeva! "yatanA hI saMyamajIvana kA prANa hai|" isa zAstrapakti ko Apane jIvana meM najAne kitanI bAra doharAyA hogA ki aisI pratikUla paristhiti meM bhI Apako yatanA yAda A gaI / yatanA ke prati aise prema kA yaha dAna Apa hameM nahIM deMge?

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gurudeva kahate haiM.... jaise tA~be, pItala para kalAI car3hAne ke bAda usa para jaMga nahIM lagatA vaise hI, AtmA para vItarAga paramAtmA ke dharma kA raMga car3hane ke bAda usa para anAvazyaka rAgAdi pApoM kA jaMga nahIM lgtaa| svAsthya, gurudeva, ApakA aba acchA khAsA bigar3a gayA thaa| vizeSakara, khAne ke prati aruci, kamajorI aura anidrA-ye tInoM takalIpheM to roja kI ho cukI thiiN| phira bhI Apa mana se masta, prasanna evaM svastha the| isa sthiti meM bhI hama sabake kalyANa kI cintA karate the / prAta: kAla vaMdana hetu ekatrita hone vAle hama sabako choTI-sI hitazikSA bhI dete hI the| para, bAkI samaya Apake kakSa kA dvAra lagabhaga baMda rahatA thA jo Apake svabhAva ke viparIta thaa| mujhe isa bAta se Azcarya hotA thaa| eka dina dopahara meM maiM Apake pAsa baiThA thA aura Apane svayaM hI bAta nikAlI "ratnasuMdara, mujhe lagatA hai ki Agama evaM zAstroM ke vAcana meM maiM aba pUrNarUpa se DUba jAU~ / jIvanabhara sabako bahuta sNbhaalaa| jimmedArI thI isalie zrAvakoM ke sAtha paricaya bhI kiye, lekina aba lagatA hai ki basa, bahuta huA / tuma sAdhuoM ko mere pAsa bhejA kro| 'yogadRSTi samuccaya' para maiM una sabako adhyayana karAnA cAhatA huuN| isake alAvA bhI kisI ko aura kisI graMtha kA adhyayana karanA ho to bhale hI ni:saMkoca A jAe mere pAsa / para suno, aba adhyayana-adhyApana ke alAvA aura kisI bhI viSaya meM mujhe ruci nahIM hai|" gurudeva ! jIvanabhara Apane vaise bhI anya kisI nirarthaka viSaya meM kahA~ ruci rakhI hai ? ApakI ruci arihanta, aMtarmukhatA, apramattatA, ahobhAva, adhyayana, adhyApana meM hI to rahI hai nA ? 95

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A kir* gurudeva kahate haiM... koI hamArA bhalA kare yA na kare,hameM sabakA bhalA karanA caahie| acchA koI bhI kArya kabhI vyartha nahIM jaataa| vaha puNya ke khAte meM jamA hotA hai, vaha paraloka kI pUMjI meM jamA hotA hai| ata: duniyA jAne yA na jAne, acche kArya vipula pramANa meM karate hI jaao| sone ke lie bacce ko eka ora mulAyama gaddI mile aura dUsarI ora mA~ kI god| baccA gaddI ko chor3akara goda ko hI pasaMda kregaa| kAraNa? gaddI meM kevala suvidhA hai, jabaki mA~ kI goda meM kyA nahIM hai, yaha prazna hai| gurudeva! ApakI goda kI cAha meM maiMne kabhI galatI nahIM kI, ise maiM apane jIvana kA ekamAtra zreSThatama saubhAgya mAnatA huuN| mumukSu avasthA meM maiM thA taba bhI isa goda meM loTane kA Ananda maiMne lUTA aura varSoM ke saMyamaparyAya ke bAda bhI goda meM loTane kI anumati dene kI ApakI udAratA kA bharapUra phAyadA uThAne meM bhI maiM sadaiva Age hI rahA huuN| Aja maiMdAve se yaha kaha sakatA hU~ ki saMyamajIvana ke itane varSoM meM, goda meM loTane ke isa saubhAgya ke alAvA anya kisI bhI vastu ne mujhe AkarSita nahIM kiyA, mujhe lobhAnvita nahIM kiyaa| gurudeva! mukti na mile taba taka, pratyeka janma meM mujhe ApakI goda meM loTane kA saubhAgya prApta hotA rahe,prabhu se maiM pratidina yahI yAcanA karatA huuN| merI isa yAcanA se Apako koI aitarAja to nahIM hai nA gurudeva?

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gurudeva kahate haiM... isa duniyA meM suvidhA jitanI adhika milatI hai AtmA utanI hI adhika malIna, parataMtra aura parAdhIna banatI hai| usI prakAra svArtha aura moha meM kaise duniyA ke jIvoM ko jo samarpita hotA hai usase bhI dInatA, parAdhInatA aura pApa kI vRddhi hotI hai| duniyA ko samarpaNa karane meM AtmA kI avanati hai| guru ko samarpaNa karane meM AtmA kI AbAva unnati hai| prANoM se pyAre gurudeva! hAtha pakar3akara saMsAra ke viSaya-kaSAya aura AraMbhasamAraMbha ke kIcar3a se mujhe bAhara nikAlane ke bAda bhI Apane merA hAtha nahIM chor3A, balki saMyamajIvana kA dAna karake usa jIvana meM bhI maiM kahIM galatI na kara bai- isa hetu jIvanabhara ke lie use thAme rkhaa| basa, isa hAtha ke sahAre hI Aja maiM saMyamajIvana ke pAlana meM anUThI prasannatA mahasUsa kara rahA huuN| Aja isa dharatI para jaba Apa sAkSAt vidyamAna nahIM haiM taba ApazrI ke samakSa maiM yahI yAcanA karatA hU~ ki ApazrI ne merA hAtha yadi hamezA thAme rakhA hai to jIvana ke aMtima pala taka isa hRdaya meM maiM Apako jakar3akara hI rakhU aisI sadbuddhi mujhe dIjiyegA / ApazrI ne saMyamajIvana ko vizuddha rakhane ke jo zreSThatama Adarza evaM AlaMbana mujhe diye, una AdarzoM aura AlaMbanoM ko maiM jIvana ke pratyeka kSaNa meM smRtipatha meM akSuNNa rakha sakU~. aisI kuzAgra smRti mujhe diijiyegaa| isa viSaya meM maiM saphala banU~ aisI zakti bhI ApazrI hI mujhameM paidA kiijiyegaa| isase jyAdA ApazrI se maiM dUsarA kucha mA~ganA bhI nahIM cAhatA... dUsarA kucha prApta karanA bhI nahIM caahtaa| itanI karuNA mujha para barasAnA gurudeva! ApakA hI.... ratnasuMdara MOH 60A0