Matrubhakta Mahavir

Author(s): Jinchandra Muni
Publisher: Prerna Prakashan
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/022872/1

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(bhakata mahAvI, mIta bhakata ' na munizrI jinacandrajI

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mAtRbhakata mahAvIra pravacanakAra munizrI jinacandrajI (baMdhutripuTI) Hai preraNA prakAzana TrasTa : tIthala, bhArata

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MATRU BHAKAT MAHAVIR A discourse on Bhagwan Mahavir's Matru Bhakti MUNISHREE JINCHANDRAJI (c) PRERNA PRAKASHAN TRUST First Edition, 1997 Fifth Edition, 2001 Copy : 1000 Price : Rs. 20/ Typesetting Yogesh Khatri, Mandvi-Kachchh. Title Photo Ramesh Soni, Mumbai. Printers Urmi Printers Ahmedabad. Ph. 5620838 Publisher PRERNA PRAKASHAN TRUST Shantiniketan Sadhana Kendra Tithal, Dist. Valsad, Gujarat. Pin 396 006. INDIA Phone : (02632) 48074

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prakAzakIya jIvanamAM zAMti ane samAjamAM krAMtino saMdeza vizvabharamAM prasAratA pUjya baMdhutripuTI mahArAja jainadharmanA mahAna prabhAvaka ane AgavI jIvana draSTinA upAsaka che. vizvanA aneka dezomAM cAlatI temanI dharmayAtrA daramyAna thatA teozrInA pravacanomAM dharmanA maulika siddhAMtonI vaijJAnika rajUAta ane jIvanasparzI abhigama sahunA hRdayapaTa upara amITa chApa upasAvI jAya che. AvuM ja eka atyaMta preraNAdAyI pravacana eTale A "mAtRbhakta mahAvIra' A pravacana sAMbhaLIne aneka vyaktionA hRdayanA tAra jhaNajhaNyA che. anekanI AMkho AMsubhInI banI che. seMkaDonI saMkhyAmAM samAjamAM vaheMcAyelI A pravacananI oDiyo-viDiyo keseToe paNa aneka parivAromAM manomaMthana jagADyuM che ane jIvana parivartanano eka romAMcaka ItihAsa sajaryo che ! AjathI pAMca varSa pUrve tIthalanA zAMtiniketana sAdhanAkendramAM paryuSaNa parva daramyAna tejasvI vaktA pUjayazrI jinacandrajI mahArAje ApeluM atyaMta hRdayasparzI A pravacana Aje pAMcamI AvRttirUpe punaHmudrita thaIne ApanA karakamalamAM mUkAI rahyuM che tenuM amane gaurava che. - A pAMcamI AvRttimAM pravacananI pUrvabhUmikA' e zIrSaka heThaLa lagabhaga 12 pejanuM meTara navuM umeravAmAM AvyuM che jemAM jainadharmamAM Izvara vizenI mAnyatAnI chaNAvaTa karavAmAM AvI che je dhyAnathI vAMcavA bhalAmaNa che. bhagavAna mahAvIranA hRdayamAM mAtRbhaktino jevo bhAva hato tevo bhAva A pustikAnA vAMcana dvArA ApaNA sahunA hRdayamAM paNa jAge tevI zubhakAmanA sAthe, A pustikAnA prakAzanamAM tana-mana-dhanathI sahayogI thanAra sarvenA ame AbhArI chIe. TrasTImaMDaLa - preraNA prakAzana TrasTa

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pUjya zrI jinacandrajI mahArAje paryuSaNa parvanA pavitra prasaMge ApeluM atyaMta preraNAdAyI pravacana mAtRbhakata mahAvIra ahIM be vibhAgamAM vaheMcAyeluM che. pahelA vibhAgamAM upakArI mAtApitA pratye bALakonA hRdayamAM kevo bhAva hovo joIe ? ane bIjA vibhAgamAM mAtApitAnI zuM pharajo che ? saMskArono vAraso ApavA mATe mAtApitAe kevI kALajI levI joIe ? e viSayanI dayasparzI rajUAta * karavAmAM AvI che.

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mAtRbhakta mahAvIra [pravacananI pUrvabhUmikA]. bhAratanI A pavitra dharatI upara prAcInakALathI ja saMto, mahaMto ane arihaMto avataratA rahyA che ane jagatanA jIvone kalyANano mArga cIMdhatA rahyA che. A bhAratanI dharatI para je keTalAka dharmo prAraMbhathI vikasyA, emAM mukhyatve traNa dhArAo rahI : (1) hiMdu paraMparAnI sanAtana dharma paraMparA (2) baudhdha dharmanI paraMparA (3) jaina dharmanI paraMparA A traNeya paraMparA bhAratanI atyaMta prAcIna dharma paraMparA che ane traNeya paraMparAoe pAyAnA keTalAka maulika tattvono svIkAra karyo che. Atma tattvano svIkAra karyo che, paramAtma tattvano svIkAra paNa karyo che ane paralokanI mAnyatAne tathA punarjanmanI mAnyatAne paNa traNeya dharmoe svIkArI che.

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A badhI vyApaka ane sarvagrAhI ApaNI sAttvika mAnyatAo che. paraMtu e AtmAnA svarUpa viSe ane paramAtmAnA svarUpa viSe, A pratyeka dharma paraMparAomAM prAcInakALathI ja keTalAka alaga alaga draSTikoNa rahyA che ane e alaga draSTikoNane ghaNI vakhata na samajanAra vyaktio gerasamaja karI besatI hoya che ane evI keTalIka gerasamaja ApaNA samAjamAM phelAyelI che. emAMnI eka gerasamaja "jaino nirIzvaravAdI che, e Izvarane nathI mAnatA, bhagavAnane nathI mAnatA' AvI eka vyApaka mAnyatA bahujana samAjamamAM phelAyelI che. paraMtu mane ema lAge che ke A mAnyatA ghaNI bhUlabharelI ane ajJAnabharelI che. jaino kyAreya nirIzvaravAdI rahyA nathI. darzana haMmezAM Izvarano svIkAra karIne ja cAlyuM che paraMtu e Izvara vizenI je kalpanA che, Izvara vizeno je khyAla che, enA svarUpa aMgenI je mAnyatA che emAM jaina darzana, anya darzano karatAM jarAka jUduM paDe che. jo jaina darzana nirIzvaravAdI hoya to tame vicAro ke jaina dharmamAM maMdironuM astitva hoI zakata kharUM? mUrtionuM astitva hoI zakata kharUM? bhaktimArganuM astitva hoI zakata kharUM? stavana-stutiprArthanAnuM astitva hoI zakata kharuM? jo bhagavAnane mAnatA na hoya to prArthanA konI karavAnI? to konA maMdiro banAvavAnAM? to konI mUrtionAM nirmANa karavAnAM ? jaina darzana parama Astika darzana che. te Atmatattvane paNa

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mAne che ane paramAtmatattvane paNa mAne che paraMtu 5ramAtmA vizenI enI bahu spaSTa samajaNa che ane spaSTa khyAlo che. jaina dharme koI eka vyaktine pahelethI paramAtmA tarIke haMmezane mATe svIkArelI nathI ke mahattva ApyuM nathI paNa eNe kahyuM ke koIpaNa AtmA jo sAdhanA karato karato AgaLa vadhe ane pUrNatAe pahoMce to e paramAtmA banI zake che. dareka AtmAnI aMdara paramAtmA banavAnI zakyatA rahelI che. e AtmAe potAnI yogyatAne pragaTa karavI paDe ane evI rIte sAdhanA karatAM karatAM je parama AtmA bane enuM ja nAma che Izvara, enuM ja nAma che paramAtmA. ApaNe tyAM AtmAnI traNa bhUmikAo batAvelI che. AtmA zabda jyAM joDAyelo hoya evA traNa zabdo ApaNe tyAM pracalita che. (1) bahirAtmA (2) aMtarAtmA (3) paramAtmA. A traNa ThekANe AtmA zabda joDAyelo che. AmAM AtmA komana zabda che. paNa enI AgaLanA vizeSaNo badalAya che. bahira + AtmA bahirAtmA aMtara + AtmA = aMtarAtmA ane = parama + AtmA = paramAtmA AtmA eka ja che paNa e AtmAnI A traNa bhUmikAo che. 3

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jyAM sudhI AtmA dehanI bhUmikAe, IndriyonI bhUmikAe, sthUla padArthonI bhUmikAe ke sthUla jagatanA khyAlonI aMdara aTavAyelo che, bahAranA bAhya jagatanI sAthe e baMdhAyelo che tyAM sudhI e AtmA bahirAtmA kahevAya che. kyAreka e ja AtmAne e khyAla Ave che ke "A dehadhArI, A nAmadhArI, A rUpadhArI je bAhya vyaktitva che te huM nathI. huM to enAthI koIka juduM ja tattva chuM. mAre mArA AtmAne nirmaLa karavo che. ane e jIva bahAranA jagatathI thoDoka pAcho vaLIne AMtarajagata tarapha potAnuM dhyAna kendrita kare che, AtmAnA guNono vikAsa karavAno prAraMbha kare che ane sAdhanAnA mArge e jyAre Daga mAMDe che tyAre e ja bahirAtmA have aMtarAtmA kahevAya che. kAraNa ke e AtmA aMdaramAM vaLyo che, aMtarmukha banyo che. ane e rIte aMtarmukha banelo e AtmA sAdhanA karatAM karatAM jyAre pUrNatAe pahoMce che ane potAne lAgelAM karmanAM baMdhano, vAsanAnAM baMdhano, kusaMskAronAM baMdhano A tamAma AvaraNone bhedIne, AtmA potAnA pUrNa svarUpane, zudhdha svarUpane, jyAre pUrNatAthI prApta karI le che tyAre e ja AtmA paramAtmA kahevAya che. Ama AtmAnI je A traNa bhUmikAo che emAM koIpaNa AtmA bahirAtmAmAMthI aMtarAtmA bane ane aMtarAtmAmAMthI paramAtmA thavAnA mArge AgaLa vadhe to e AtmA paramAtmA banI zake che. 4

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e paramAtma tattvanAM paNa jaina darzanamAM be svarUpa batAvavAmAM AvyA che. e tattvane be vibhAgamAM vaheMcavAmAM AvyuM (1) arihaMta ane (2) sidhdha. namo arihaMtANaM," "namo sidhdhANaM"..... mALA gaNI jaIe chIe paNa arihaMta ane sidhdha e bemAM pAyAno zuM pharaka che eno ja ApaNane koI khyAla nathI. baMne ApaNA upAsya ane ArAdhya che. paraMtu e baMnemAM keTaloka pharaka che. je AtmAo aMtarAtmA banIne paramAtmA bane che. pUrNatAne pahoMce che. evA AtmAone sidhdha kahevAya che. paraMtu keTalAka AtmAo evA paNa che ke jemaNe AtmAnA mULabhuta guNone dhakko pahoMcADanArAM cAra ghAtakarmono kSaya karI dIdho che paNa aghAtI karmo AtmA upara lAgelA hovAthI hajI je dehanI aMdara baMdhAyelA che evA AtmAone jainadharmamAM "arihaMta' ke "kevaLI" kahevAmAM Ave che. dehAtIta thaI gayelA parama AtmAone ApaNe sidhdha kahIe chIe. ane dehanI aMdara rahelA parama AtmAone arihaMta kahIe chIe. (1) je sarvajJa banyA che, (2) je vItarAga banyA che, (3) je karUNAmUrti che, (4) je anaMtazakti saMpanna che ane tIrthakara nAmakarmano udaya jemano cAlI rahyo che tevA je dehadhArI parama AtmAo

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temane ApaNe arihaMta kahIe chIe paNa jyAre e paNa dehAtIta banI jAya che tyAre e sidhdha kahevAya che. eTale ke e sAkArarUpe devatattvanI upAsanA karavI che to jaina darzane kahyuM ke 'arihaMta'nI upAsanA karo. ane nirAkAra rUpe devatattvanI upAsanA karavI che to 'sidhdha' paramAtmAnI upAsanA karo. devanAM (1) sAkAra ane (2) nirAkAra baMne svarUpone anya dharma paraMparAoe paNa mAnyAM che. paNa jainadharmamAM 'sAkAra' ane 'nirAkAra' zabdano prayoga karavAne badale ene 'arihaMta' ane 'sidhdha' evA be zabdo ApI devAmAM AvyA che. jaina paraMparAnI aMdara - sidhdho potAnA AtmAnuM kalyANa karI le che. potAnA ja AtmAne, potAnI cetanAne zudhdha karIne - nirmaLa karIne pUrNatAe pahoMcADIne te kRtakRtya banI jAya che ne tyAM emanuM kArya pUruM thAya che. jyAre arihaMtanA AtmAomAM eka vizeSatA che ke potAnA AtmAnI nirmaLatA to e prApta kare ja, paraMtu sAthe sAthe 'tIrthaMkara nAmakarma' nAmanuM eka evuM viziSTa puNyakarma emanA udayamAM Ave che ke jenA kAraNe e jagatanA kalyANa mATeno jabaradasta ane saraLatAbharyo purUSArtha paNa kare che. evA arihaMta koI paNa AtmA banI zake che. ahiM beThelA AtmAomAMthI paNa saMbhava che ke koI aciMhatano AtmA paNa hoI zake. jo e potAnI bahirAtma dazAmAMthI bahAra Ave, aMtarAtma dazAmAM praveza kare ane sAdhanA karatAM karatAM pUrNa sthAne pahoMcI ne 6

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arihaMta banI zake to emAM koI Azcarya nathI ane evA arihaMto dareka kALanI aMdara covIsa tIrthakaronA rUpamAM thatAM rahyAM che. jaina dharmanI kALagaNanA paNa thoDI alaga che. hiMdu paraMparAmAM dvAparayuga, tretAyuga, satayuga ane kaLiyuga nA vibhAgo karI kALagaNanA karavAmAM AvI che. jaina dharme kALagaNanA jarA judI rIte karI che. ene utsarpiNI kALa ane avasarpiNI kALa tarIke oLakhavAmAM Ave che. (caDato kALa ane paDato kALa) AvA eka eka utsarpiNI kALa ane avasarpiNI kALanA cha-cha TUkaDAo pADavAmAM AvelA che jene jainadharmamAM cha ArA kahevAmAM Ave che. atyAre ApaNe e viSayamAM UMDA nathI utaravuM. utsarpiNI kALamAM paNa 24 tIrthaMkaro thAya che ane avasarpiNI kALamAM paNa 24 tIrthaMkaro thAya che. dareka eka kALanA TUkaDAmAM 24 AtmAo potAnA AtmakalyANanI sAthe sAthe jagatakalyANano jabaradasta purUSArtha karIne, dharmatIrthanI sthApanA karIne, dharmazAsananuM nAvaDuM taratuM mUkIne anaMta AtmAonA kalyANanuM kAraNa banI jAya che ane evA AtmAono paramAtma tattva tarIke, paramAtmA tarIke jainadharmamAM svIkAra karyo che. paraMtu pharaka kyAM paDe che? jainone nirIzvaravAdI kema gaNavAmAM AvyA ? evI bhUla kema thaI ? evI gerasamaja kema thaI ? enuM kAraNa e che ke keTalIka dharma paraMparAoe jagatakartA tarIke Izvarane svIkAryo. jyAre jaina paraMparAe Izvara tattvano svIkAra to karyo paNa

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ene jagatakartA tarIke svIkAryo nathI. kAraNa ke jagatano kartA jo Izvarane mAnIe to emAM ghaNI badhI samasyAo ubhI thAya che, ghaNA badhA prazno ubhA thAya che ke jenA kA2Ne IzvaranuM divya ane adbhUta svarUpa khaMDita thAya che. eka mAnyatA evI che ke brahmAjIe duniyAnuM sarjana karyuM. zAmAMthI karyuM ? to kahe H eka IMDu hatuM, e phUTyuM ane emAMthI duniyA banAvI ! : savAla tyAM Avaze ke, IMDu kyAMthI AvyuM ? IMDAne koNe banAvyuM ? brahmAjIne koNe banAvyA ? bhagavAnane koNe banAvyA ? to kahe : e to hatA ja. eTale ke e to anAdi kALathI hatA ja evuM svIkArI lIdhuM. have jo ema mAno ke bhagavAne A duniyA banAvI che, bhagavAna ja badhuM calAvI rahyA che to emAM kyAMka bhagavAnanuM svarUpa thoDuMka khaMDita thAya che. pahelI vAta e ke, bhagavAna kevA hoya ? zaktizALI hoya ke nabaLA hoya ? pUrNa zaktizALI ja hoya ne ! bIjI vAta : bhagavAna dayALu hoya ke kaThora hRdayanA hoya ? svAbhAvika che ke dayALu ja hoya. to je mANasa zaktizALI che, dayALu che e duniyAne AvI vicitra zuM kAma banAve ? koIkane duHkhI banAvyo, koIkane AMdhaLo banAvyo, koIkane laMgaDo banAvyo, koIkane pAMgaLo banAvyo, koIkane mUrkha banAvyo, koIkane budhdhizALI banAvyo. bhagavAna koI divasa pakSapAtI hoI zake kharA ? A savAla ubhA thayA.

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jagatanA kartA tarIke jo Izvarane svIkArIe to ema karavAthI enI karUNA khaMDita thAya che, enuM anaMta sAmarthya khaMDita thAya che, tethI jaina darzane paramAtmAno svIkAra karyo paNa pa2mAtmAne jagatanA kartA tarIke na svIkAryA. paramAtmAne draSTA tarIke svIkAryA. kartA ane bhoktA tarIke nahi, paraMtu jJAtA ane draSTA tarIke paramatattvano svIkAra karyo. jaina darzane arihaMta paramAtmAno jo koI mukhya guNa darzAvelo hoya to e temanI karUNA che, koI paNa AtmA tIrthaMkara tyAre ja banI zake jyAre enA hRdayanI aMdara jagatanA jIvo pratyenI karUNA parAkASTAe pahoMce. koI paNa jIvAtmAnuM duHkha enAthI joyuM na jAya. "kyAre mArAmAM zakti Ave, kyAre mane evI taka maLe ke jagatanA tamAma jIvone duHkhanA tamAma baMdhanomAMthI mukta karI dauM ane saune sAcA sukhanA raste caDAvI dauM" A bhAvanA jyAre prabaLa bane che tyAre e AtmA tIrthaMkara nAmakarma bAMdhe che. tIrthaMkara thavAnuM nizcita karI nAMkhe che. koIpaNa tIrthaMkara tIrthaMkara thAya enA pUrvanA trIjA bhave e tIrthaMkara nAmakarmane emanI utkaTa karUNAne kAraNe nikAcita kare che. 66 " sarve emanA manamAM satata eka ja bhAvanA ramatI hoya che ke savi jIva karuM zAsana rasI aisI bhAva dayA mana ullasI jIvone A dharma zAsananA rasiyA banAvI dauM, kAraNa ke AtmA jyAM sudhI dharmanA raMge nahi raMgAya, dharmano rasa ene nahi lAge tyAM sudhI 9 ,,

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e duHkhanA kAraNothI dUra nahi jaI zake. e duHkhI thaze ane A jagatanA jIvonA duHkho mArAthI jovAtAM nathI. kyAre evI tAkAta Ave ke saune duHkhathI mukta karIne sukhanA sAcA raste caDAvI dauM !" dharmanA mULamAM karUNA che. e karUNA parAkASTAe pahoce che tyAre ja koI paNa AtmA tIrthakara bane che ane evA karUNAmUrti tIrthakaro "savi jIva karuM zAsana rasI" nI bhAvanA kare che. ane e dvArA ApaNane bIjo paNa eka mUka saMdeza Ape che. tame tIrthakara na ho to jagatanA badhA jIvone zAsananA rasiyA bhale na banAvI zako, bhale dharmanA raMge na raMgI zako, paNa kamasekama jyAM tamAro hAtha pahoMcato hoya, jyAM tamArI javAbadArIo hoya tyAM tamArA vArasadArone, tamArA parivArane, tamArA putraputrIone dharmanA rasiyA banAvo. kAraNa ke jo teo dharmanA raMge nahi raMgAyA hoya to jIvanamAM kyAreya sAcA sukhano anubhava nahi karI zake. bhagavAna tIrthakaronA jIvananA eka eka prasaMgo, e mAtra prasaMgo tarIke mUlavavAnA nathI hotA, paNa emAMthI ghaNI badhI adbhuta preraNAo ApaNane prApta thatI hoya che ane e preraNAone ApaNe jhIlavAnI che. emaNe jagatanA sarva jIvone dharma rasiyA banAvavAnI zA mATe ciMtA karI ? kAraNa ke emaNe potAnA anaMtajJAnamAM joyuM ane jIvanamAM paNa e anubhavyuM ke AtmAnuM sAcuM sukha to dharma dvArA ja maLe che. 10

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ApaNe paNa ApaNA parivArane, ApaNA bALakone sukhI jovA IcchatA hoIe to, ApaNe emane kyo vAraso soMpavo? e vicArI lejo. tamArA saMtAnone tamAre kyo vAraso Apavo che? mAtra dhaMdhAno ja vAraso Apazo ? mAtra paisAno ja vAraso Apazo ? ke dharmano ane saMskArano paNa vAraso Apavo che? yAda rAkhajo, jyAM sudhI AtmA dharmanI sAthe nahi joDAya tyAM sudhI enA jIvanamAM duHkhono aMta AvavAno nathI, dhana tamane sukhanI sAmagrI apAvI zakaze paNa sukhanI anubhUti nahi apAvI zake. sukhanI sAmagrI maLavI eka jUdI vastu che ane sukhanI anubhUti maLavI e judI vastu che. saMpatti-paiso e tamane sukhanAM sAdhano apAvI zakaze, sAmagrIo apAvI zakaze, paNa sukha apAvI zakaze evI bhramaNAmAM rahetA nahi. aDhaLaka saMpattinA svAmIo paNa Aje bhayaMkara du:khI che. dharmanI anubhUti vinAnA zrImaMto jeTalA dayApAtra Aje kadAca bIjA koI nahi hoya. e aMtarathI duHkhI che, kAraNa ke emanI pAse saMpatti che, paNa dharma nathI. je zrImaMtoe mAtra paisAne prAdhAnya ApyuM haze, e udyogapati haze, mIlamAlika haze, ke game evo moTo vepArI haze, paNa enI pAse jo koI sAdhana nahi hoya, paramAtmAnI koI upAsanA nahi hoya, jo tattvajJAnanAM jharaNAM enA hRdayane bhIjavatAM nahi hoya to e zrImaMta hovA chatAM AMtarika rIte bhayaMkara duHkhI haze.

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sukhanI anubhUti apAvavAnI tAkAta mAtra dharma ane adhyAtmanI aMdara che. jainadharmanI Izvara vizenI kalpanA, Izvara vizenI mAnyatA A che, eNe Izvarane jagatanA kartA tarIke nahi paraMtu vizvanA sarva jIvo pratye karUNA vahAvatA gaNyA che, emaNe evA mahAna AtmAone Izvara tarIke svIkAryA che ke je dharmanI gaMgA vahAve che, dharmano mArga cIMdhe che ane jagatanA jIvone sAcA sukhano rasto batAve che. jaina darzana Izva2tattvane to svIkAre ja che paraMtu enuM spaSTa maMtavya che ke jIve potAnA purUSArthathI potAnA jIvananA ghaDavaiyA banavAnuM che. bhagavAna koInuM jIvana ghaDavA besatA nathI, e koI kriyeTara nathI. anya dharmanI paraMparA karatAM jainadharmanI mAnyatA ahiM jUdI paDe che. anya paraMparAmAM Izvarane jagatanA kartA tarIke, kriyeTara tarIke svIkAryA che. jyAre jainadharme emane upadezaka tarIke svIkAryA che. mArgadarzaka tarIke svIkAryA che, dharmapravartaka tarIke svIkAryA che paNa Izvarane svIkAryA to che ja. dareka utsarpiNI kALamAM ane avasarpiNI kALamAM AvA covIsa-covIsa tIrthaMkaro je thAya che te tamArA-mArAmAMthI ja koIka thAya che. ApaNA ja jevA, eka vakhatanA sAmAnya AtmAo, paNa sAdhanA karIne parama AtmA banI zake che. 12

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A paNa eka bahu moTo AzAvAda che. jainadarzanamAM kyAMya vyakti pUjA nathI ke kyAMya koI vyaktine cokkasa bhagavAna tarIke besADI dIdhelA nathI. jainadarzana to ema kahe che ke temano AtmA paNa pAmara dazAmAM hato. ane pAmaramAMthI e parama banyA che. to tame kema na banI zako ? | tIrthaMkaro kahe che, " bhAI, tuM paNa jAgI jA, mAMhyalAne DhaMDhoLa, kadama upADa. tuM paNa parama banI zakIza" ApaNane Avo AzAvAda ApanAra e tIrthakaro ApaNA parama upakArI che ane evA tIrthakaro paNa eka vakhata to ApaNA ja jevA AtmAo hoya che. paNa e aMnatanI bhavayAtrA karatAM karatAM tIrthakara tarIke A vizvamAM jyAre avatare che enI pahelAMno emano chello bhava, devalokano ja hoya che, devalokamAMthI ja tIrthakarano AtmA A mRtyulokamAM mAtAnI kukSIe avatarita thato hoya che. tIrthaMkaranA AtmAo pUrvanA e chellA bhavamAM devalokanA domadoma sukhonI vacce paNa jAgRta rahIne satata nirlepapaNe potAno samaya vitAve che ane tyAM rahyA rahyA paNa enA hRdayamAM eka ja tamannA satata cAlatI hoya che ke kyAre A janmanuM AyuSya purUM thAya, kyAre manuSyalokamAM janma lauM, kyAre sAdhanA karuM, kyAre pUrNatAne pAmuM ane kyAre A jagatanA kalyANa mATe dharma zAsananI sthApanA karIne duniyAnA duHkhane dUra karAvanAruM eka dharmanuM nAvaDuM taratuM mUkuM. 13

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devalokanA sukhonI vacce rahelo paNa e AtmA satata jhaMkhe che jagatanA jIvono uddhAra ane vizvanuM parama kalyANa. jagata kalyANanI A utkRSTa bhAvanA ane tIvra tamannA sAthe e tIrthakarono AtmA manuSyalokamAM garbharUpe avatare che. 14

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mAtRbhakata mahAvIra bhagavAna mahAvIranAM mAtA trizalAno garbhakALa pUro thayo ne emaNe putrane janma Apyo. rAjA siddhArthanA parivAramAM AnaMda AnaMda chavAI gayo. samagra nagarImAM vardhamAnakumAranA janmano mahotsava maMDAyo. e jyArathI garbhamAM AvyA tyArathI rAjA siddhArthane tyAM dhana, samRddhi, yaza-kIrti, Arogya vigere badhuM vadhatuM ja rahyuM hatuM. eTale e lokoe nakkI karyuM hatuM ke jyAre ApaNe tyAM putra janma thaze tyAre enuM nAma vardhamAna evuM ApIzuM... ane e rIte putranuM nAma 'vardhamAnakumAra' pADavAmAM AvyuM. vardhamAnakumA2 dhImedhIme moTA thaI rahyA che, ucharI rahyA che. e sAta-ATha varSanA thayA ne emaNe keTalAka mitro banAvyA. mitronI 15

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sAthe e hare che, phare che, rame che, badhuM ja kare che. duniyAnI kriyAo paNa e alipta bhAve kare che paNa emanA hRdayamAM to udAsInatA ja 2me che. ema karatAM karatAM e yuvAna thAya che... ne yuvAna thayelA vardhamAnakumAranAM mAtAnA manamAM jAtajAtanA manoratho jAgavA lAgyAM. saMsAranI koIpaNa strI hoya, dIkarAne janma ApyAno ene AnaMda hoya che, pachI dIkarAne moTo karIne ucheryAno AnaMda hoya che ne dIkaro jyAre moTo thaI jAya tyAre enA manamAM eka ja manoratha hoya che ke "kayAre dIkarAne paraNAvuM.'' trizalA paNa A saMsAranI eka strI hatI. "" bhale e tIrthaMkaranI mA hatI paNa Akhare e eka strI hatI. ene paNa ema thayuM ke "kayAre vahunA mukhanAM darzana thAya ? kayAre huM mArA dIkarAne varaghoDe caDhAvuM ? kayAre huM enA lagnano AnaMda mANuM ?' paNa bIjI bAju vardhamAnakumA2no eNe nAnapaNathI ja anubhava karyo che. ene khyAla che ke mAro dIkaro virakata che. saMsAranI koI pravRttimAM ene rasa nathI. e to kAyama koI ciMtanamAM khovAyelo rahe che. eNe kayAreka koIka vAto karI che to eka ja vAta karI che ke 'mA, A saMsAranAM du:kho jovAtA nathI. mAre sahune sAcA sukhano rasto batADavo che, mAre A jagatanA jIvonuM kalyANa karavuM che.' enA vicAro, enI vAto, badhuM ja kaMIka alAyaduM che. ene saMsArano koI raMga sparzato hoya evuM dekhAtuM nathI. evA vairAgI vardhamAnakumA2ne paraNavAnI vAta zI rIte karavI ? mAtA trizalA manamAM mUMjhAya che. evAmAM samaravIra rAjAnI kuMvarI yazodAnuM mAguM vardhamAnakumA2 16

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mATe AvyuM. eTale trizalAe manathI nakkI karyuM ke AvuM sarasa mAguM AvyuM che to ene to vadhAvI ja levuM joIe. paNa vardhamAnakumArane e mATe vAta zI rIte karavI ? pahelAM bhUmikA to banAvavI joIe ne ? eTale mAtA trizalAe vardhamAnakumAranA mitrone bolAvyA ane kahyuM ke "tamAre mAruM eka kAma karavAnuM che." mitro mAnuM kAma karavA taiyAra hatA. emaNe kahyuM : "bolo mA.' mAe kahyuM, "tamAre vardhamAna sAthe kevI maitrI che ? tamArI vAta vardhamAna mAne ke na mAne ?' mitro kahe, "are hoya kaMI ? vardhamAna to amAro parama mitra che eTale e to amArI vAta mAne ja." mA kahe, "paNa jo jo hoM bhUlA na paDatA." Ama kahIne mAe mitrone TAITa karyA ne pachI kahI dIdhuM ke vardhamAnakumAra mATe rAjakumArI yazodAnuM mAguM AvyuM che ne tamAre e mATe ene taiyAra karavAno che.' mitro kahe, "mA kaMI vAMdho nahi, ame hamaNAM ja jaIe chIe. ane mitro upaDayA vardhamAnakumAra pAse. vardhamAnakumAra rAjamahelamAM tattvaciMtanamAM beThA hatA. tyAM mitro AvI pahoMcyA. mitro kahe, "vardhamAna zuM vicAre che ?' vardhamAne AvakAra Apyo, "Avo bhAIo." ane vAtacIta cAlI. mitro kahe, "juo Aje ame cokta kAma mATe AvyA

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chIe. tamAre hA pADavAnI ja che. bolo, ame je kaMI kahIe enI hA pADazo ne ? vardhamAna kahe, 'zI vAta che te to kaho, vAta jANyA sivAya zI rIte hA pADuM ?' mitro kahe, 'tame hA pADo ke nA pADo kaMI cAlavAnuM ja nathI... tamAre hA pADavAnI ja che. ame kAMI ema-neema AvyA nathI. amane tamArI mAtAe mokalyA che. tamArA mAtApitA kaMIka Icche che ne ame emanI IcchAnI vAta laIne AvyA chIe ne tamAre e mAnavI ja paDaze.' Ama kahIne mitroe vAta rajU karatAM kahyuM, 'samaravI rAjAnI putrI yazodAnuM mAguM tamArA mATe AvyuM che. mAtA trizalA Icche ke tame enuM pANigrahaNa karo.' mitro ATalI vAta kare che tyAM to mAtA trizalA AvI caDhayAM. mAne acAnaka AvelAM joI vardhamAnakumAra potAnA siMhAsana parathI ubhA thaI gayA. 'mA, tame kema ahIM padhAryA ? mane bolAvI levo hato ne ? kaMI kAma hoya to huM ja tamArI pAse AvI jAta. tame kema AvyAM ? mArA vinayamAM zuM khAmI dekhANI ?' trizalA kahe, 'beTA, tArA vinayamAM te khAmI hoya ? tArA vinayamAM meM kayAMya khAmI joI nathI... tArA mATe mane koI zaMkA nathI... paNa huM tane bolAvuM ne tuM Ave eTalo tArA darzanamAM vilaMba thAya e mArAthI sahana thayuM nahi mATe tane maLavA doDI AvI chuM.' vardhamAnakumAra kahe, 'kaho mA, zuM kAma che ?' 18

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mA kahe, "zuM nakkI karyuM teM ? tArA mitronI vAta teM dhyAnamAM lIdhI ke nahi ? basa e ja vAta karavA AvI chuM." vardhamAnakumAra nIcI najara nAkhI jAya che. emane tarata ja potAno bhUtakALa yAda Ave che ne vicAre che "atyAre to huM mArI bhAvanAomAM rAcato rahuM chuM. paNa bhUlI jAuM chuM ke huM mAtAnA garbhamAM hato tyAre meM eka saMkalpa karelo che." vardhamAnakumArane garbhAvasthAmAM karelo e saMkalpa yAda AvI gayo ne mAne nA pADavAnI hiMmata gumAvI beThA. nIcI najara nAkhIne besI rahyA ane mAne joI rahyA. mA trizalA pUche che, "beTA, zA vicAramAM khovAyo che ?" paNa vardhamAnakumAra kAMIja bolatA nathI. ne vardhamAnakumAranA maunamAM mAe hA vAMcI lIdhI. mAnA AnaMdanI koI avadhi na rahI. kumAra vardhamAnane garbhakALa daramyAna pote karelI pratijJA yAda AvI gaI che ane teo enA ja vicAramAM khovAI gayA che. koIpaNa tIrthaMkarano AtmA jyAre garbhamAM hoya che tyArathI ja e traNa traNa jJAna sAthe ja avatarato hoya che : matijJAna, zrutajJAna ane avadhijJAna. garbhamAM paNa mAtAno sukhano vicAra : evA avadhijJAnI tIrthakara mahAvIranA AtmAe garbhAvasthAmAM joI lIdhuM ke hajI to mAro janma paNa nathI thayo, hajI to huM garbhamAM ja chuM chatAM mArA mAtApitA keTalAM khuzamAM che ! emanA hRdayamAM mArA mATe keTakeTalo prema uchaLI rahyo che !.. jyAre mAro janma thaze ne 19 :

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mAruM moTuM joze tyAre emano e prema, emano mArA pratyeno anurAga kevA uchALA mAraze ? AvA premALa mAtApitAne duHkhI to kema karAya?' ema vicAra karatAM vaLI pAcho AgaLa vicAra Avyo, "atyAre huM A garbhamAM AghopAcho thAuM, hAthapaga halAvuM to mArI mAtAne keTaluM badhuM kaSTa pahoMce ? je mane ATalo prema Ape che ene mArAthI kaSTa zI rIte ApI zakAya ? nA, nA... mAre mAne du:khI nathI karavI. enA karatAM to huM zAMtithI sthira paDayo rahuM to kevuM sArUM!' eTale vardhamAnakumAre garbhamAM rahyuM rahyuM hAthapaga halAvavAnAM baMdha karyA. aMgopAMga sthira karI dIdhA. mAtAne kaSTa na thAya, ene takalIpha na thAya te mATe vardhamAnakumAre to garbhamAM halanacalana baMdha karyuM paNa e sadUbhAvanA mAtAne duHkhI karanArI banI gaI. eka divasa gayo, be divasa gayA, traNa divasa gayA ne mAtA trizalA to udAsa thaI gayAM. emane ema thaI gayuM ke "pahelAM to mArA zarIramAM garbha hAlato hato, ne hamaNAM hamaNAM be divasathI garbhanuM e halanacalana baMdha thaI gayuM che... zuM thaI gayuM haze ? garbha paDI gayo haze ? bALakanuM mRtyu thayuM haze ?.. are re, mAruM A zuM thaI gayuM?" ..ne manathI duHkhI thayelA mAtA trizalA kALuM kalpAMta karavA lAgyAM. e khAtAM nathI, pItAM nathI, koInI sAthe bolatAM nathI. e to udAsa thaIne besI rahe che, mArA garbhanuM zuM thayuM haze ema vicArIne codhAra AMsue raDe che. 20

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....ne garbhamAM rahelA vardhamAnakumArane khyAla AvI gayo ke "are, meM to mAnA bhalA mATe, mAne duHkha na thAya e mATe halanacalana baMdha karyuM ke A to ulaTuM thayuM, mA duHkhI duHkhI thaI gaI che." mAne duHkhI thatI joI emaNe pAchA hAtha-paga halAvavA mAMDayAM. ne jyAM halanacalana zarU thayuM tyAM mArA jIvamAM jIva Avyo. mArA garbhane kazuM thayuM nathI evo hAzakAro anubhavyo, enuM mana AnaMdathI nAcI UThyuM. emane khuza thayelAM joyAM... ne e pahelAM emane atizaya duHkhI thayelAM paNa dIThelAM eTale garbhamAM rahelA vardhamAnakumArane vicAra Ave che ke "A jagatanA jIvonuM duHkha mArAthI joyuM jAtuM nathI, ane vairAgyanA vicAro mArA manamAM uchALA mAre che. paNa huM verAgya laIza ne kayAMka huM saMsAratyAganuM pagaluM bharI besIza to mArAM mAtApitA keTalAM duHkhI thaze ? jagatanA jIvonuM duHkha mArAthI joyuM jatuM nathI to mArA mAtApitAnuM duHkha zI rIte joI zakAze ?" janma pahelAM ja mahAvIre karelI pratIjJA : garbhamAM rahyuM rahyuM ja vardhamAnakumAra vicArI rahyA : "eka bAju mArI vairAgyanI bhUmikA che ane bIjI bAju mArAM mAtApitAne mArA mATe anahada lAgaNI che e lAgaNI ane vAtsalyathI ubharAtuM mArI mAnuM hRdaya mane saMsArano tyAga karavAnI anumati to nahi Ape. to pachI zuM karavuM ? mAbApanI rajA lIdhA vinA, emanA AzIrvAda vinA ja zuM sAdhu banavuM ? nA, nA, evuM to kema karAya?" eka bAju mAtApitAno anahada sneha ane ubharAtuM vAtsalya 21 '

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che, to bIjI bAju mArA aMtaramAM uchALA mArato vairAgya che, A baMnemAMthI ekeyanI upekSA thaI zake ema nathI tyAre mAre zuM karavuM ?' "mane lAge che ke mAro A uchaLato vairAgya bekAbu banI jaze ane huM kadAca saMsAratyAganuM utAvaLiyuM pagaluM bharI besIza to? mArA pratye atyaMta anurAga dharAvatAM mAtApitA mArA e viyogane na sahI zake ne kadAca emanA mRtyunI durghaTanA thaI jAya to ?" mAre to saMsAranA jIvone mAtApitA pratye vinaya ane viveka rAkhavAnI vAto karavI che. upakArI mAtApitAnuM lAgaNIzIla hRdaya kayAreya paNa na dubhAya enI kALajI rAkhIne jIvana jIvavAno sahune upadeza ApavAno che. enAthI UMdhuM ja vartana jo mArAthI thaI jaze to huM duniyAne kayA moDhe kahIza ke mAbApano vinaya karo, mAbApanI sevA karo ? duniyAne Avo saMdeza huM kayA moDhe ApI zakIza ?' nA... nA... A to khoTuM thaI jaze. mArA vairAgyane atyArathI ja mAre nAthavo joIe.' ...ne Ama vicArIne vardhamAnakumAre garbhamAM ja saMkalpa karyo, Teka laI lIdhI ke jyAM sudhI mAtApitA jIvaMta haze tyAM sudhI emane duHkha thAya evuM koI vartana nahi karuM, tyAM sudhI mArA saMsAratyAganA vicArane paNa mokupha rAkhIza. tyAM sudhI huM sAdhupaNAnI dIkSA nahi lauM." zAstronA pAne noMdhAyelI ane jainasamAjamAM bahu ja jANItI A ghaTanA che paNa A ghaTanA ApaNane ghaNuMbadhuM kahI jAya che.

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bhagavAna mahAvIre garbhamAM rahIne ApaNane Apelo A pahelo ane sahuthI mahatvano thUMka saMdeza che. emaNe mAtApitAnA sukha mATe potAnA kalyANanI vAta paNa bAju para mUkI dIdhI, vairAgyanI vAtane paNa thoDo samaya vegaLI rAkhI. dIdhI, sAdhanAnI jhaMkhanAne TADhI pADI dIdhI... kAraNa eka ja lakSya hatuM ke 'mAtApitAne du:kha thavuM na joIe, mAbApanI AMtaraDI kakaLavI na joIe.... ne e mATe je karavuM paDe te karavA mATe taiyAra rahevuM joIe.' potAnA garbhakALa daramyAna bhagavAna mahAvIre Apelo A bahu moTo saMdeza che. jIvanamAM saphaLa thavuM hoya to mAtApitAnI lAgaNIono vicAra haMmezAM karajo. emanI AMtaraDI kayAreya kakaLAvazo nahi. bhagavAna mahAvIranA ApaNe upAsako, jaina dharmanA ApaNe ArAdhako, paryuSaNa parvanA ApaNe sAdhako... ApaNe ApaNA aMtarAtmAne pUchavAnI jarUra che ke 'ApaNI buddhinA phAMkAne lIdhe kayAMka mAtApitAnI sAthe meLa na paDayo to ApaNe mAbApanI avagaNanA to nathI karatA ne ? mAbApanI AMta2DI to nathI kakaLAvatA ne ?' mArA mahAvIre sAdhupaNAnA saMkalpane jato karyo, paNa mAtApitAnA hRdayane sAcavI levAno saMkalpa karI lIdho. ane evI pratijJA karIne mane ane jagatane saMdeza Apyo che ke mAtApitAno vicAra sauthI pahelAM karajo. duniyAmAM sauthI moTuM tIrtha hoya to mA che. enAthI caDhiyAtuM tIrtha A duniyAmAM bIju koI na hoI zake. 23

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AvA tIrtha svarUpa mAtApitAnA upakArono ApaNe koI divasa vicAra karyo che kharo ? bijhanezamAM koIke jarAka madada karI hoya, sArI oLakhANa karAvI ApI hoya, koI sodo karAvI Apyo hoya to eno upakAra mAnI ApaNe AbhAra vyakata karIzuM ke emaNe ApaNane ghaNI madada karI ! paNa koI divasa mAtAnA upakAranAM gANAM gAyAM che kharAM ? koI divasa evo vicAra karyo ke "mArI mAtAe mArA mATe zuM gajabanI kamAla karI che ! enA khoLAmAM besIne huM pezAba-jAjarU karI jato hato, gaMdakI karato hato chatAM mAe mane kadI thapATa paNa nathI mArI.... mane premathI sApha karyo che, mArAM gaMdA kapaDAMne cokhkhA hAthathI dhoyAM che, ne mane premathI dhavaDAvyo che ! mArI mAnA A upakArone huM kayAreya bhUlIza nahi, mArI mAnA mArI upara anaMta upakAro che enuM RNa huM kayAre pheDI zakIza ?' kaho, Avo vicAra kadI karyo che ? daza jaNAnI vacce mAbApanAM guNo gAvAnuM mana kadI thAya che? ejyukeTeDa thaIne, apa-Tu-DeTa kapaDAM paherIne sabhya samAjanI vacce ke koI mITIMgamAM beThA ho ne e vakhate elIghelI game tevA kapaDAM paherelI tamArI mA kadAca tyAM cAlI Ave to UbhA thaIne mAnA pagamAM paDavAnuM mana thayuM che kayAreya ? "e mA je hoya te, bhale abhaNa hoya, gamAra jevI hoya paNa mArI mA che'... evo vicAra jo ApaNA manane ane hRdayane dravita karI na zake, ane jo e mAnA caraNamAM ApaNuM mastaka jhUkI na zake

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to yAda rAkhajo ApaNI hoMziyArI, ApaNuM jJAna, ApaNo kahevAto dharma, badhuM ja nakAmuM che. jeNe mAtApitAnI AMtaraDI nathI ThArI, jeNe mAbApanA aMtaranA AzIrvAda nathI lIdhA enI buddhinA phAMkA ene eka divasa DUbADI deze. enI saMpatti ene eka divasa avaLA ravADe caDhAvI deze. jevI hoya tevI paNa e ApaNI mA che.' basa, A eka ja vAta ApaNA mATe basa che. vAtavAtamAM mAtApitAnI avagaNanA karanArAo, mAbApane tucchakAranArAo, 'besa, besa tane khabara na paDe' ema kahenArAoe bahu vicAravAnI jarUra che. A paryuSaNa parvanA divaso AtmaciMtananA divaso che. huM tamane bahu premathI kahevA mAguM chuM ke mAtApitAnA upakArone kayAreya bhUlazo nahi. bhagavAna mahAvIre garbhakALamAM rahye rahye Apelo A mUka saMdeza che ke 'dharmano pahelo pAyo che mAtApitAnA upakAro pratye kRtajJatA.' mAtApitAnA upakArone samajavA bahu jarUrI che. Aje ApaNe ApaNI jAtane eTalI hoMziyAra mAnatA thaI gayA chIe ke ApaNe mAtApitAnA upakArono vicAra ja nathI karatA. enI avagaNanA karIe chIe. bhale mAe kazuM na karyuM hoya chatAM eNe ghaNuM badhuM karyuM che. tame Aje je kaMI cho te tamArI mAtAnA kAraNe cho. enI 25

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tamane khabara che ? tame to garbhamAM rahyuM rahyuM ene lAto mArI haze, ene duHkhI karI haze, janmyA pachI enA khoLA gaMdA karyA haze, maLa ane mUtra vaDe ene gaMdI karI mUkI haze, Akho divasa ne rAta raDI-raDIne ene herAna-parezAna karI mUkI haze, ene uMghavA dIdhI nahi hoyane e vakhate tamArAthI kaMTALI jaIne, tamArI nAnakaDI-anAtha avasthAmAM eNe tamArI Doka maraDI nAkhI nathI e zuM eno ocho upakAra che? kalpanA karo ke e vakhate tamArA trAsathI kaMTALelI mAe tamArI Doka maraDI nAkhI hota to tame A duniyAmAM hota kharA ? tamane janmatAMnI sAthe ja tarachoDIne, rakhaDatA mUkIne mA cAlI gaI hota to tame A duniyAmAM kayAM hota ? "mAbApe zuM karyuM amArA mATe ?" Avo savAla koI yuvAna kare tyAre ema thAya che ke A mANasa mANasa kahevaDAvavAne lAyaka nathI. "mArI mAe mArA mATe zuM karyuM ?' ema kahenArane ema kahevAnuM ke "tArI mAe tArA mATe zuM nathI karyuM ? nava-nava mahinA sudhI tane peTamAM upADIne cAlI, garbhamAM tane sAcavavAnI keTalI kALajI rAkhI, pachI ghaNI vedanA veThIne ane cIso pADIne paNa tane janma Apyo, janma ApyA pachI tArI satata saMbhALa rAkhI, tane takalIpha na thAya e mATe eNe khAvA-pIvAnuM choDavuM, uMghavAnuM choDayuM, enuM haravA-pharavAnuM choDayuM, eNe potAnA mojazokha choDayA, e badhA mAnA ochA upakAro che ?'

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AvA upakArone koNa bhUlI zake ? e upakAronA badalAmAM ApaNe zuM karyuM ? anAthAzramanI mulAkAta lejo H mAe tamArA mATe zuM karyuM e jovuM hoya to tamane eka bhalAmaNa khAsa karUM chuM ke derAsaromAM bhale roja jajo paNa kayAreka mahinAmAM ekAda divasa koIka anAthAzramamAM paNa jarUra jajo . tyAM tamArA jevAM ja be hAtha-pagavALAM bALakone jojo, emanI mA koNa che enI emane khabara nathI, emano bApa koNa che enI paNa emane khabara nathI. evAM anAtha bALakone lAcArIthI ucharatAM jojo. ane tyAre tamane khabara paDaze ke tamArI mAe tamArA mATe zuM karyuM che. tamArI mAe tamane janmatAMnI sAthe ja tarachoDI daIne anAthAzramamAM mokalI na ApyAM e zuM eno upakAra nathI ? meM evI anAthAzramanI mulAkAto lIdhI che. AjathI vIsa varSa pahelAM amadAvAdanA anAthAzramamAM eka divasa mATe 'sadvicAra parivAra'nA upakrame anAtha bALakone AzIrvAda ApavA javAnuM thayuM hatuM. tyAM nisteja ane lAcAra cahere 'mA'nI lAgaNI vinAM TaLavaLatAM bALakone joIne meM akathya vedanA anubhavI hatI. sane 1985mAM mATuMgA khAte cAturmAsa hato tyAre 'mAnava sevA saMghamAM mArUM vyAkhyAna goThavAyuM hatuM ane vyAkhyAna pachI sevA saMghanA TrasTIoe mane kaheluM ke 'mahArAja sAheba, ahIM uparanA mALe ja anAtha bALako che emane AzIrvAda ApavA padhAro ne mAMgalika 27

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saMbhaLAvo ne ! ane huM anAthAzramamAM gayo hato. ane mane Aje paNa barAbara yAda che ke anAthAzramanAM bALako pAse jaIne upAzraye pAchA AvyA pachI, gocarI AvI gaI hatI chatAM meM ene choDI dIdhI hatI, huM khAI zakyo na hato. kAraNa, tyAM kaMgALa hAlatamAM, dayApAtra bALakone joIne mArUM hRdaya kakaLI uThayuM hatuM. nAnAM nAnAM ghoDiyAmAM, eka-be divasanAM janmelAM bALako lAcAra hAlatamAM sUtAM hatAM, emanI mA janma ApIne, e kayAMka gerakAyadesara janmyAM haze te mATe samAjanA bhayane kAraNe potAnuM janmeluM bALaka rastA para, ke TrenanA pATA para choDI daIne cAlI gaI haze. e bALakone meM joyAM, mAruM hRdaya dravI gayuM, mane khAvAnuM na bhAvyuM. eka mAe enA eka ja divasanA janmelA bALakane TrenanA pATA para choDI dIdhuM hatuM ane potAnA hRdaya para paththara mUkIne enI mA cAlI gaI hatI. - rAtre jaMgalI uMdaraDAoe tAjA janmelA e bALakanuM nAka kocI khAdhuM. mAnava sevAsaMghanA kAryakarone khabara paDIne e doDyA, bALakane anAthAzramamAM laI AvyA. e bALaka mane batAvyuM. bicArAnuM komaLa nAka uMdaraDAnI dADhonI vacce cavAI gayuM hatuM. ane e lAcAra bALaka AMkho mIMcIne anAthAzramanA ghoDiyAmAM paDayuM hatuM ! AvA dayApAtra bALakanI durdazA joyA pachI tame mane kaho, khAvAnuM zI rIte bhAve ? - 28 ;

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amArA mAbApe amArA mATe zuM karyuM' evo vicAra Ave to tarata ja badhAM kAma paDatAM mUkIne anAthAzramamAM pahoMcI jajo, ne tyAM lAcAra sthitimAM rahetAM bALakone joIne vicAra karo ke tamArI mAtAe e bALakonI jema tamane tarachoDI na dIdhA e eno moTo upakAra nathI zuM ? be traNa varasa pahelAM AcArya zrI suzIlakumArajI mahArAjanI sAthe rAjakoTa javAnuM thayuM. tyAM keTalAMka pravacano yojAyAM hatAM. evA pravacana nimitte tyAM paNa eka anAthAzramamAM javAnuM thayuM. tyAM to nAnAM-nAnAM traNa-cAra varasanA lagabhaga 100 anAtha bALako hatAM. ame e AzramanI mulAkAta lIdhI tyAre e bALakone jamavAno samaya hato. AzramanI saMcAlikA baheno e nAnA nAnA bhUlakAMone premathI jamADatI hatI paNa chatAM "mA"nI khoTa kayAMthI pUrAya ? eka sagI mA potAnA bALakane khavaDAve ne eka pArakI strI bIjAnA bALakane khavaDAve e be vacce pharaka che te jovA maLI gayo. tame jamyA pachI tamane khAvA-pIvAnuM kazuM bhAna nahotuM tyAre tamArI mAtAe koLIyA taiyAra karIne tamArA moMmAM premathI mUkayA tenA kAraNe ja tamAruM zarIra baMdhAyuM che enI tamane khabara che ? ane chatAM amane janma Apyo ke ucheryA emAM zuM moTo upakAra karyo amArI mAe ?' ema kahevAnI hiMmata karo cho ? sokreTIsanI abhUta jIvanadraSTiH sokreTIsanI patnIe potAnA chokarAne kaMIka Thapako Apyo 29

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haze eTale e bALaka sokreTIsa pAse phariyAda karavA gayo. sokreTIsa to philosophara hatA, tattvajJAnI hatA, eNe dIkarAne kahyuM ke "beTA, pahelAM tuM mane kahe ke tane janma koNe Apyo, meM ke tArI mAe ?" chokarAe javAba Apyo "mArI mAe' pachI sokreTIse pUchayuM, "janmyA pachI tArI saMbhALa koNe lIdhI ? meM ke tArI mAe ?" chokarAe kahyuM, "mArI mAe" vaLI sokreTIse AgaLa pUchayuM, "tuM jyAre nAno hato ne tAruM zarIra tAvathI dhakhI rahyuM hatuM tyAre AkhI rAta jAgIne tArA mAthe potAM koNe mUkatAM ? ke tArI mAe ?' to chokarAe kahyuM, "mArI mAe'. chelle sokreTIse pUchayuM, "tuM game tevI dhULamAM ramIne kapaDAM gaMdAM karIne gharamAM game tyAM pheMkI deto hato tyAre tArAM gaMdAM thayelAM kapaDAM koNa dhotuM hatuM ? huM ke tArI mA ?' tyAre chokarAe kahyuM, "mArI mA." Ama sokreTIsa mAnA upakAranI eka eka vAta yAda karAvatA jAya che ane kahe che, "tArA mATe ATaluM badhuM jeNe karyuM evI mAne mATe phariyAda laIne mArI pAse AvatAM tane zarama nathI AvatI ? cAlyo jA ahIMthI, khabaradAra, jo havethI tArI mAnI phariyAda laIne mArI pAse Avyo che to ! huM tane vahAlo lAguM chuM ne jeNe tAruM ATaluM badhuM dhyAna rAkhyuM te tArI mA tane aLakhAmaNI lAge che ? tArI mA mATe phariyAda laIne kayAreya mArI AvIza nahi.' mA mATenI phariyAda laIne bApa pAse ke bApa mATenI phariyAda laIne mA pAse bALaka jAya tyAre samajadAra mAtApitAe kevo abhigama svIkAravo joIe te sokreTIsanA A prasaMgamAMthI dareka mA bApe zIkhavA jevuM che ! 30

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bhagavAna mahAvIra garbhamAM rahyA rahyA saMkalpa ane pratijJA kare che ke jyAM sudhI mArAM mAtApitA jIvaMta haze tyAM sudhI emanA hRdayane duHkha thAya evI saMsAra tyAganI vAta huM nahi karUM. bhagavAna mahAvIrano ApaNA saune mATe A pahelo saMdeza hato. mAtApitAnA upakAro samajo. emane kayAreya duHkhI karazo ghaNI vakhata zrAvakonA ghare bhIkSA vigere mATe javAnuM thAya ane koIka mAnI sAthe enAM chokarAMne jhaghaDatAM joIe tyAre eTaluM badhuM du:kha thAya ke ApaNe konA ghera AvI gayA chIe ? kayAreka evAM dRzyo paNa jovA maLe che ke chokaro sophA para beTho hoya, TI.vI. joto hoya, rimoTathI cenalo badalato hoya ne gharamAM bicArI mA rasoDAmAM dhUmADo khAtI khAtI kAma karatI hoya, tyAM acAnaka chokarAno orDara chUTe, 'mammI, pANI Apaje ne ?' A joIe tyAre ema thAya ke mA kAma karI rahI che, chokaro juvAnajodha thaI gayo che, sophA para beTho beTho TI.vI. jue che ne mAne pANI lAvavAno hukama kare che ! Avo hukama karatAM ene zarama nahi AvatI hoya ? hA, jyAre tame nAnA hatA tyAre tamArI mAe tamane pANI pAyuM, dUdha pAyuM, tamArA mATe badhuM ja karyuM ! mAnI tame ghaNI sevA lIdhI, paNa have tame moTA thayA, sazakata thayA pachI paNa mA tamArI sevA ja karyA kare ? nahi. 31

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have to e divaso AvyA che ke tamAre mAne kahevuM joIe ke "mA ! teM amArA mATe ghaNuM karyuM, gharanI sevAmAM meM tArI jAtane ghasI nAkhI, paNa have ame moTA thaI gayA chIe. have ame tArI sevA karIzuM, tuM zAMtithI besa, cAla huM tane pANI pAuM ! je loko pratyakSa upakArA mAbAponA upakArone samajI zakatA nathI evA loko kadAca dIkSA paNa laI le to jene gurU banAvaze e gurUnA upakArone zuM samajaze ? je mAbApano vinaya karI zakato nathI e gurUno vinaya zuM karaze ? ane je pratyakSa mAbApa ane gurU ke je jIvaMta che temanA upakArone nathI samajI zakato nathI e parokSa upakArI evA paramAtmAnA upakArone zuM samajI zakavAno hato ? kRtajJatAnA A guNa vinAnI dharmanI badhI vAto nakAmI che. dharmanI vAta to pachI Avaze, pahelI A pAyAnI vAto che. paNa, ApaNI pAse e pAyAnI vAtonAM ThekANAM nathI ne ApaNe dharmanA ThekedAro thaIne pharIe chIe. duniyAnA duHkho dura karavA nIkaLelAne pUchajo ke pahelAM teM tArA mAbApanAM duHkho dUra karavAnI ciMtA karI che kharI ? emanAM hRdayamAM tArA mATe koI asaMtoSa to nathI ne ? samAjanI sevA karavA nIkaLelAne pUchajo ke teM tArA bhAIone ThekANe pADyA che kharA ? A pAyAnI vAtanI upekSA karIne ApaNe dharmanI vAto zI rIte karI zakIe chIe ? - 32

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hiMdu dharma hoya, muslIma dharma hoya, bauddha dharma hoya ke jaina dharma hoya, badhA dharmo eka ja kahe che : sauthI pahelo upakAra janmadAtA mAtAno che. bIjo upakAra pAlaka pitAno che. e mAtA ane pitA tarapha jenA hRdayamAM zraddhA nathI, lAgaNI nathI, prema nathI e mANasa game eTalo hoMziyAra haze to paNa potAnI jIMdagImAM niSphaLa javAno che. jeNe potAnAM mAbApanI AMtaraDI kakaLAvI e jIvanamAM kayAreya sukhI thaI zakavAno nathI. mArI jIMdagImAM evA sAdhuo joyA che, jemane mAbApanI rajA nahotI, mAbApanI AMtaraDI kakaLatI hatI, mAbApa raDatAM hatAM chatAM vairAgyanA khoTA jozamAM AvI jaIne, mAbApanI lAgaNIone kacaDIne sAdhu to banI gayA paNa emanuM sAdhujIvana dIpyuM nahi. mAtApitAnA AzIrvAda lIdhA vinA sAdhu banelAne niSphaLa jatA meM joyA che. varasonAM varasa emanAM mAMdagImAM gayAM che, sAdhanA eka ThekANe rahI gaI che ne zarIra rogothI bharAI gayuM che. prasannatA korANe rahI gaI che ne mana saMgharSomAM sapaDAI gayuM che. mA-bApanI AMtaraDI kakaLAvIne sadhu thazo teya bhalIvAra nahi Ave. mA-bApanI AMtaraDI kakaLAvIne game eTalA mojazokhanAM sAdhano vasAvyAM haze toya e tamane zAMti nahi ApI zake. Aje tamArI pAse bhale lAkho rUpiyA hoya, paNa yAda rAkhajo, mA-bApanI AziSa meLavyA vinA zAMti maLavAnI nathI. 33

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tamAro bhUtakALa yAda karo. je divase tamane paherAvavA mATenAM kapaDAM paNa pUrAM pADavAnI zakita tamArI mAtAmAM nahi hoya, tamane bhaNAvavAnI tAkAta tamArA pitAmAM nahi hoya te divase pote eka TaMka bhUkhyAM rahIne paNa e mA bApe tamane bhaNAvyAM haze. ane mAtra tamane ja nahi, cAra cAra bALakone kadAca emaNe ucheryA haze. paNa ApaNA samAjanI kevI kamanazIbI che ke eka mA-bApa potAnI jIMdagImAM cAra-cAra chokarAne ucherI zake che, moTA karI zake che, bhaNAvI-gaNAvIne taiyAra karI zake che paNa evA taiyAra thayelA, bhaNelA-gaNelA ne sukhI thayelA cAra-cAra chokarAo eka mA-bApane sAcavI zakatA nathI ! vRddha thayelA mA-bApa mATe chokarAoe vArA karavA paDe che ke eka mahine eka chokarAne ghera mA-bApa raheze, bIjA mahine bIjA chokarAne ghera raheze, trIjA mahine trIjA chokarAne ghera raheze ne cothA mahine cothA chokarAne ghera mA-bApa raheze !! peTe pATA bAMdhIne cAra cAra chokarAone ucheranAra ne bhaNAvI-gaNAvI ucca sthitie pahoMcADanAra mA-bApanI emanAM ghaDapaNamAM dhanavAna dIkarAo dvArA kevI durdazA !! AnA ja pariNAme ApaNe tyAM paNa have vRddhAzramo vadhatA jAya che. vRddhAzramo joIne rAjI na thazo. e ApaNA samAjanI taMdurastInuM nahi, bimArInuM pratIka che. samAja have saDI gayo che, sahu svArthI ane sva kendrita banyA che, mATe ja vRddhAzramo vadhAravA paDe che. - gharaDAM thaI gayelAM, azakata thaI gayelAM, ne rogothI gherAyelAM mAbApane AjanA dIkarAo emanI rojanI kacakaca ne paMcAtathI chUTavA 38

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vRddhAzramamAM mUkI Ave che ane mAbApane kahe che ke "tame have ahIM ja rahejo. dara mahIne ame tamane paisA mokalI daIzuM. tamane koI takalIpha nahi paDe." AvA svArthI dIkarAone koNa samajAve ke tuM tArI mAne ane bApane paisA ApIne chUTI jaIza paNa ene putrano prema koNa Apaze? vRddhAzramanA pagAradAra mANaso Apaze ? tArI mA paisAnI bhUkhI nathI, e to tArA premanI bhUkhI che. ene bIju kaMI nahi, hRdayanI lAgaNI Apa ne ! pachI tuM ene lUkhI roTalI ApIza toya ene bahu mIThI lAgaze. kaho, ApaNe zuM karIe chIe ? bhagavAna mahAvIranuM jIvana paryuSaNanA divasomAM eTalA mATe vAMcavAmAM Ave che ke enA eka eka prasaMgomAMthI ApaNane AvI preraNA maLe. bhagavAna mahAvIrano AtmA devalokamAM hato tyAMthI paNa ApaNane eNe preraNA ApI che, e AtmA garbhamAM Avyo tyAre tyAMthI paNa eNe preraNA ApI che ane eNe janma lIdhA pachI paNa potAnA jIvanamAMthI preraNA ApI che. mitronI sAthe beThelA vardhamAnakumAra carcA karI rahyA che tyAM ja mAtA trizalA pahoMcI gayAM. mAtAne joIne vardhamAnakumAra ubhA thaI gayA ne mAne pUchayuM, "mA, tame kema AvyAM ? tame AjJA karI hota to huM AvI na jAta ?' yAda karo, sophA para beThA beThA TI.vI. jotA ho ne mA Ave rUpa

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ke turata ubhA thAo cho kharA ? Aje to chokarA sophA para beThA hoya che ne mA jamIna para beThI hoya che ne chatAMya chokarAne zarama AvatI nathI ke mA nIce ema ne ema beThI che ne huM ArAmathI beTho chuM e mArA mATe zobhAspada na gaNAya. AvAone ApaNe dharmAtmA kahevA ? saMskArI kahevA ? bahu gaMbhIratAthI vicAravAnI jarUra che ke ApaNe kayAM chIe? ane kyA mArge jaI rahyA chIe ? tame badhAM bhAgyazALI cho, mahAna AtmAo cho ke tamane saMskArI mAtAnI kUkhe janma maLyo che. tame jamyAM hazo tyAre tamane kAMI gatAgama nahi hoya. eve TANe pahelo navakAra maMtra tamArI mAtAe tamArA kAnamAM nAkhyo hato e vAtanI khabara che tamane ? duniyAno sarvazreSTha maMtra tamane jo koI zIkhavanAra ke sahu prathama tamane saMbhaLAvanAra hoya to te tamArI mA che. ' are, tamane koI gatAgama nahotI, cAlatAMya sarakhuM zIkhyA nahotA, tyAre tamArI AMgaLI pakaDIne tamane dhIme dhIme maMdiramAM laI jaIne bhagavAnanAM darzana koNe karAvyAM hatAM ? tamArI mAe karAvyAM hatAM ! e mATe tame kema bhUlI zako ? enA upakArone kema bhUlI zako? Aje paristhiti bahu zocanIya banI che. dharmanI vAto vadhI che, dharmanAM sthAno vadhyAM che, dharmanI kahevAtI pravRttioya vadhI che, paNa, pAyAnA dharmo bhUlAyA che. eTale ja dharmanI vAto, dharmanAM sthAno ne dharmanI pravRttio ApaNA jIvana para sAcAM dharmano prabhAva pADI zakatI nathI. 36.

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Ama kahIne huM koI tamArI bhUlo batAvavA mAMgato nathI. huM to mAtra preraNA ApavA mAMguM chuM. eka dharmAtmA tarIke tamArI upara mane mamatva che, AtmIyatA che, prema che ane e premane kAraNe ja samAjanuM darzana karatAM mane je darda thAya che te darda kayAreka AvI rIte vyakata thaI jAya che. mArI jhaMkhanA eka ja che ke samAja kema ujaLo bane, kema kartavyaniSTha bane ane ghara-gharamAM prema, sadbhAvanAnAM jharaNAM zI rIte vahetAM thAya. huM tamane bahu ja premapUrvaka kahuM chuM, Aje A pravacana sAMbhaLanArA ahIM beThA che temane paNa kahuM chuM ne pachIthI kebala TI.vI. upara lAkho loko jyAre A vAta sAMbhaLatA haze e jaina hoya ke jainetara hoya, e tamAmane kahIza ke tame je dharmanA ho te tamAma dharma eka ja vAta kare che ke mAtApitAnAM caraNomAM pahelAM jhUkI jajo, emanA upakAronuM smaraNa karatAM rahejo, ne emanA hRdayane koI ghA na lAge, emanI AMtaraDI nA kakaLe enI haMmezA sAvadhAnI rAkhajo. A mATe tamArA ahaMkAra choDavA paDe to choDI dejo. emanI khAtara be mojazokhane choDavA paDe to choDI dejo. emanA mATe tamAre koIpaNa vastuno tyAga karavo paDe to karI dejo paNa tamArA jIvanamAM paheluM sthAna tamArI mAnuM hojo. tamArA jIvanamAM paheluM sthAna pitAnuM hojo ane pachI ja bIjA badhAno praveza hojo. basa A ja vAtane tamArA jIvanano mudrAlekha banAvI dejo. Ama karazo to dharmanI sAcI yogyatA tamArAmAM pragaTI jaze. 37

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jemanA hRdayamAM vairAgya uchALA mArI rahyo che, e bhagavAna mahAvIra pAse mAtA trizalA Ave che eTale bhagavAna ubhA thaI jAya che ne hAtha joDI pUche che ke "mA kema AvI? tyAre mAM kahe che, "beTA, tArAM mukhanAM darzana karavAnI talapa lAgI eTale doDI AvI. beTA, mAre to tArA samAcAra sAMbhaLavA che eTalA mATe doDI AvI chuM. beTA, tuM nA pADIza nahi, nA pADIza to mAruM hRdaya tUTI paDaze. beTA, eka vakhata mArA AtmAne rAjI karavA khAtara hA pADI de. samaravIranI e kanyA yazodharAnuM pANigrahaNa tAre karavAnuM che.' ane mahAvIrane potAnI pratijJA tarata ja yAda AvI gaI ke meM to garbhakALamAM pratijJA lIdhI hatI ke, mArI mAne duHkha thAya evuM koI pagaluM huM nahi bharuM, ane teo jyAM sudhI jIvatA haze tyAM sudhI huM saMsArano tyAga nahi karuM. ane Aje mArI mA mArA jIvanano eka maMgaLa prasaMga jovA mAge che ne enA AtmAne AnaMda thato hoya to bhale thAya." bhagavAna mahAvIranA jIvananA ekeeka prasaMgo adbhuta che, ApaNA mATe eka AdarzarUpa che. mahApuruSonA jIvanacaritrone caritronI rIte mAtra sAMbhaLazo nahi. vArtAne vArtAnI rIte mAtra vAMcI jazo nahi paraMtu e badhAmAM Dagalene pagale jIvananI saphaLatAnA rahasyo paDelAM che, preraNAo paDelI che ene jhIlavAno prayatna karajo. mahApuruSonA jIvanacaritro to ApaNA jIvana mATenA mArgadarzaka nakazA che, jIvananA plAna che enA AdhAre ApaNe ApaNA jIvanano mahela ubho karavAno che. 38

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koIpaNa makAna banAvavuM hoya to jema ArkiTekaTa eno plAna-nakazo taiyAra kare che. tema ApaNe paNa ApaNA jIvananI jamInamAM dharmanI mahelAta ubhI karavI hoya to tenA mATeno nakazo mahApuruSonA jIvanacaritro che. enA vaDe ApaNe jIvananuM plAnIMga karatAM zIkhavAnuM che. to ja sAMbhaLelI badhI vArtAo lekhe lAgavAnI che, nahi to nakAmI banI jaze. ane yAda rAkhajo, A saMskAro ApaNe nAnapaNathI ja nahi keLavIe to bALakomAM kayAMthI Avaze ? tame tamArA mAtApitA sAthe yogya rIte nahi varte to samajI rAkhajo ke tamArA bALako paNa tamArI sAthe e rIte ja vartaze. bALako e joI rahyAM che ke mArA pappA potAnA pappAnI sAthe kevI rIte vartI rahyA che. emAMthI ja emane zikSaNa maLavAnuM che, saMskAra maLavAnA che ane e jarAka moTA thaze, svataMtra thaze, vicAratA thaze eTale e paNa tame tamArA mAtApitA sAthe je rIte varte cho e rIte ja e tamArI sAthe vartavAnAM che ne e rIte tamArA sAthe ja tamAruM bhaviSya ghaDAvAnuM che. tamAre zuM karavuM che e tame ja vicArI lo. tame jo tamArAM mAtApitAne vRddhAzramamAM mUkI Avazo to tamArA bALako paNa tamane vRddhAzramamAM mokalavAnAM ja che e samajI ja rAkhajo jyAre tame tamArAM mAbApane vRddhAzramamAM mUkavA jAo tyAre pacIsa varSa pachI tamAruM paNa vRddhAzramamAM dAkhala thavAnuM plAnIMga karI rAkhajo ane tamAruM rIjharvezana paNa karAvI lejo kAraNa ke tamAro 39.

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dikaro paNa tamArA mATe tamArA jevo ja rasto apanAvavAno che. ane te vakhate tamArAM mAbApanI kakaLI uThelI AMtaraDInA abhizApa tamane bUrI rIte naDavAnA che. A paryuSaNa parvanA divasomAM bhagavAna mahAvIranuM jIvana ApaNane pAyAnI preraNA Ape che. jemaNe potAnA mAtApitAnA upakArone satata smaraNamAM rAkhIne, emanA AtmAne ThArIne emanI AMtaraDInI AziSa meLavI che emanA jevuM dhanyavAdane pAtra A duniyAmAM bIjuM koI nathI. | mAtApitA hoya tyAre emano bhAva paNa pUcho nahi ne pachI koIka pAMjarApoLamAM jaI pAMca-dasa hajAra rUpiyA ApIne emano phoTo mUkAvI Avo eTale tame mAtApitAnA bhakata banI gayA cho ema na mAnatA. emano phoTo nahi mUkAvo to cAlaze paNa emanI lAgaNI nahi saMbhALo te nahi cAle. AjanA divase mAre tamane ATaluM ja kahevAnuM che. ApaNe ApaNA kartavyo pratye jAgRta banIne bALako pratyenI pharajo paNa vicAravAnI che ne mAtApitA temaja vaDIlo pratyenI pharajo paNa vicAravAnI che. A rIte vicArI zakIzuM to ja ApaNe dharmanA sAcA adhikArI banI zakIzuM. paryuSaNa parvanA divasomAM sAcuM ciMtana jAge, AvI preraNAo dvArA ApaNo aMtarAtmA jAge ne ApaNuM jIvana parivartananA paMthe vaLe to ja A paryuSaNa parvanI ArAdhanA saphaLa thaI gaNAze. paryuSaNa parvanI ArAdhanA dvArA ApaNe ApaNA jIvanamAM saphaLatAnA zikharo sara karIe e ja zubhecchA. 42

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mAtRbhakata mahAvIra vibhAga bIjo : mAtA pitAnuM kartavyaH saMtAnone samRddhino ja nahi saMskArono paNa vAraso Ape. jainadarzane arihaMta paramAtmAno jo koI mukhya guNa darzAvelo hoya to te karUNA che. koIpaNa AtmA tIrthaMkara tyAre ja banI zake che, jyAre enA hRdayamAM jagatanA sarva jIvo pratyenI karUNA parAkASThAe pahoMce, jyAre koIpaNa jIvAtmAnuM duHkha enAthI joyuM na jAya. "kayAre mArAmAM evI zakita Ave, kayAre mane evI taka maLe ke jagatanA tamAma jIvone tamAma duHkhomAMthI mukata karI dauM ane saune sAcA sukhanA raste caDhAvI dauM." A bhAvanA jyAre prabaLa bane che tyAre te AtmA tIrthaMkara thavAnuM nakkI karI nAkhe che. 'savi jIva karUM zAsana rasI, aisI bhAva dayA mana ullasI' enI eka ja jhaMkhanA hoya che ke sarva jIvone A dharmazAsananA 41

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rasiyA banAvI dauM, kAraNa ke jIvAtmA jyAM sudhI dharmanA raMge nahi raMgAya, dharmano rasa ene nahi lAge tyAM sudhI e duHkhanAM kAraNothI dUra nahi jaI zake. e duHkhI thaze ja. jagatanA jIvonAM du:kho mArAthI jovAtAM nathI. kayAre evI tAkAta Ave ke saune duHkhothI mukata karI sAcA sukhanA raste caDhAvI dauM ! AvI jhaMkhanA bhagavAna mahAvIranA hRdayamAM paNa sadA ghUMTAtI rahI che. dharmanA mULamAM karUNA che. e karUNA jyAre parAkASTAe pahoMce che tyAre AtmA tIrthaMkara bane che. ane bIjI paNa eka mahattvanI vAta e che ke tIrtha karo "savi jIva karUM zAsana rasI'nI bhAvanA seve che. sarva jIvone dharmazAsananA rasiyA banAvavAnI bhAvanA dvArA e ApaNane eka mUka saMdeza Ape che ke tame bhale tIrthaMkara na ho, bhale tame jagatanA tamAma jIvone zAsana rasiyA banAvI na zako, bhale tame AkhA jagatanA jIvone dharmanA raMge raMgI na zako, paNa kama se kama jyAM tamAro hAtha pahoMcato hoya, jyAM tamArI javAbadArIo hoya, tyAM to, tamArA vArasadArone to, tamArA parivArone to, tamArA putra-putrIone to dharmanAM rasiyAM banAvo ja! - jo tame emanAM hitaciMtaka ho, jo tame emane sukhI jovA IcchatA ho, to tame temane dharmanA rasiyA banAvo. kAraNa ke, tamArAM svajano, tamArAM saMtAno, jo dharmanA raMge raMgAyA nahi hoya, to emane mATe jIvanamAM duHkhI thavAnI pUrI saMbhAvanA che. bhagavAna tIrthakaronA jIvananA eka eka prasaMgo mAtra prasaMga tarIke mUlavavAnA nathI hotA, paNa emAMthI ghaNI badhI adbhuta 42

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preraNAo ApaNane prApta thatI hoya che ene jhIlavAnI hoya che, pakaDavAnI hoya che ane jIvanane dharmanA raMge raMgavAnuM hoya che. bhagavAna mahAvIre ApaNane zAsananA rasiyA banAvavAnI zA mATe ciMtA karI ? eTalA mATe ke dharma dvArA ja jIvanamAM sukha AvavAnuM che enI emane khabara hatI ne ApaNane sAcA sukhI banAvavAnuM emanuM lakSya hatuM. ApaNe paNa ApaNA parivArane, ApaNAM bALakone sukhI jovA IcchatA hoIe to ApaNe emane kayo vAraso soMpIzuM ? mAtra dhanano ja vAraso ? mAtra dhaMdhAno ja vAraso ke dharmano vAraso paNa soMpIzuM ? saMskArano vAraso paNa soMpIzuM ? samAjanuM AMtarika darzana karyA pachI huM evA nirNaya para Avyo chuM ke je parivAranA vaDIlo, je parivAranAM mAtApitAo, potAnAM saMtAnone mAtra paisAno, samRddhino, vyavahArika bhaNatarano vAraso ja ApavAno prayatna kare che, paNa saMskArano vAraso, dharmano vAraso ApavA mATe jAgRta nathI rahetAM, ke e mATeno prayatna nathI karatA emane kayAreka ne kayAreka pastAvAno vAro jarUrathI Ave che. evA aneka prasaMgo aneka parivAromAM mane jovA maLyA che. eka banelI satyaghaTanA tamane kahyuM : eka vicAra preraka satyaghaTanAH sane 1989mAM pahelI vakhata amAre jyAre amerikA javAnuM thayuM tyAre amerikAnI dharmayAtrA daramyAna amAre keneDA javAnuM paNa thayuM. keneDAnA mukhya zahero-ToraMTo, oTAvA, monTrIyala vagere badhe 43

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sthaLe pravacano goThavAyAM hatAM. roja pravacano thatA ane te sAMbhaLavA ghaNA badhA bhAviko umaTatA. eka divasa pravacana pUruM thayA pachI eka zrAvaka mArI pAse AvyA ane mane kahe, 'mAre ApanI pAse aDadho kalAka besavuM che, Apa A dharatI para prathama vakhata AvyA cho ne meM Apano kAryakrama joyo te pramANe Apa amerikAnA ghaNA badhA zaheromAM javAnA cho to Apa dvArA sarasa kArya thAya te mATe ahIMnI thoDIka paristhitino khyAla mAre Apane Apavo che.' meM kahyuM, 'mane paNa gamaze. kAraNa ke ame pahelI vakhata A dezamAM AvyA chIe ane ame cokksa lakSya laIne AvyA chIe ke ahIMnI ApaNI prajA dharmathI vimukha na thaI jAya, emanAmAM dharmanA saMskAro vadhe te mATe kaMIka karavuM. ATalA mATe ja ame ATaluM jokhama veThIne AvyA chIe eTale tamArA taraphathI amane koI mArgadarzana, koI sUcana, kaMIka khyAla maLaze to te levAnuM amane paNa gamaze. ApaNe cokksa maLIe. ame samaya nakkI karyo ne maLyA. pelA zrAvaka ke je tyAMnA eka nAmAMkita DaoNkaTara hatA te mane kahe, 'mahArAja sAheba, pahelAM eka vinaMti karUM. ahIM bIjA badhAne pachIthI upadeza Apajo, navI UgatI peDhIne preraNA ApavAnI ciMtA paNa pachIthI karajo paNa ahIMnAM mAtApitAne preraNA ApavAnI kALajI pahelI lejo.' meM vAtavAtamAM kahyuM, 'tame badhA to InDIyAmAMthI saMskAra laIne AvyA cho, paNa ahIM je bALako janmyAM che, ahIM je navI peDhI ucharI rahI che, enA saMskAronuM zuM ? e dharmathI vaMcita na thaI jAya, 44

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e mAMsAhAranA ravADe na caDhI jAya, e dArU, carasa ke kephI dravyonA cakkaramAM bharAI na paDe ne koIka amerikanane paraNIne lagnajIvanane asthira na banAvI de e nahi jovAnuM ? ahIM to A bahu moTI samasyA che. emAM ame kaMIka nimitta banI zakIe, ahIMnA samAjane A dUSaNathI bacAvIne sAcA mArge vALIe e bhAvanAthI te ame ahIM AvyA chIe. meM Ama vAta karI eTale pelA DaoNkaTara mane kahe, "mahArAja sAheba, tame ema kaho cho ke navI peDhIne Ama nA thAya, tema nA thAya, khoTA mArge caDhI na jAya te mATe, ame AvyA chIe to mArI Apane be hAtha joDIne vinaMti che ke e karatAM pahelAM tame amane sajAga karajo ne preraNA Apajo. navI peDhIne preraNA ApatAM pahelAM mAtApitAne preraNA ApavAnI bahu jarUra che." Ama kahyA pachI emaNe emanA potAnA jIvanano eka anubhava mane kahyo. mane kahe, "mahArAja sAheba, huM dAjhelo chuM. mArA paga nIce relo Avelo che ane eTale ja huM Apane vinaMti karI rahyo chuM ke ahIMnAM pratyeka mAtApitAne kahejo ke dhaMdho ocho karajo, be paisA ochA kamAvAya to ochA kamAjo paNa bALakonI upekSA to na ja karazo. tamArAM bALako mATe thoDoka samaya to jarUra kADhajo. e vAta mahArAja sAheba, ahIMnAM pratyeka mAtApitAne khAsa kahejo. dareke dareka gAmamAM jyAM jyAM ApanAM vyAkhyAna thAya tyAM tyAM ATaluM jarUra kahejo." mane emanI vAta agatyanI lAgI. meM pUchayuM, "tamane AvuM kema lAgyuM ? tame A vAta upara ATalo badho bhAra kema mUko cho?" 45

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DaoNkaTara mane kahe, 'mahArAja sAheba, mArA para vItI cUkI che mATe.' Ama kahIne emaNe potAnI vAta kahI: 'mane ahIM AvyAne varSo vItI cUkayAM che. ahIM huM Avyo'to DaoNkaTarInuM bhaNavA mATe, bhaNyo, DIgrIo meLavI, sArI hospITalamAM joba maLI gaI, dhIme dhIme DaoNkaTarI vyavasAyamAM huM jAmato gayo, ne ema karatAM karatAM nAmAMkita DaoNkaTara banI gayo. e daramyAna mArI uMmara thaI, eka kanyA sAthe mArAM lagna paNa thayAM, e kanyA paNa khUba saMskArI hatI. bhAratathI potAnAM mAtApitA pAsethI dharmanA saMskAra laIne AvI hatI. amArUM lagna jIvana khUba AnaMdathI pasAra thatuM cAlyuM. ema karatAM amAre tyAM be bALako paNa thayAM, eka dIkaro ne eka dIkarI.' 'mahArAja sAheba, amAre koI kamI nahotI, dhAraNA karatAM vadhu nAma maLyuM hatuM, dhAryA karatAM vadhu paisA maLavA lAgyA hatA, thoDAMka varSo pachI jIvana sukha-sAmagrIthI bharapUra banI gayuM'tuM. divaso AnaMdathI vItatA hatA, eka ja dhUna hatI 'bhAratathI amerikA AvyA chIe to * vadhune vadhu kamAI laIe. ane e dhUnanA kAraNe savArathI sAMja sudhI ame pati-patnI baMne paisA kamAvAnI doTamAM ja paDayAM rahyAM.' 'ame bhUlI gayAM ke amAre tyAM be AtmAo bALakarUpe AvelA che. emanI pratye paNa amArI koI pharajo che, amArI koI javAbadArIo che. A mahattvanI vAta ame bhUlI gayAM, emane mATe ame kayAreya joIe evuM dhyAna na ApyuM. mAro dIkaro hAIskUlamAM bhaNI rahyo hato, mArI dIkarI kolejamAM bhaNI rahI hatI te vakhate emane saMskAra ApavAnI kALajI lIdhA vinA ame baMne kevaLa kamAvAmAM 46

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ja racyA-pacyAM hatAM... ne eka divasa amArI AMkha ughADanAro banAva banI gayo. A huM sane '89nI vAta karI rahyo chuM, e vakhate DaoNkaTare mane kahyuM, "sAheba, AjathI traNa varSa pahelAMnI vAta karI rahyo chuM. paryuSaNa parva AvyAM. mArI patnIne aThThAInI tapasyA karavAnuM mana thayuM ane temaNe ATha divasanA upavAsa karyA. ahIM to bhArata jevuM koI vAtAvaraNa nA maLe. na amAre tyAM derAsara, na amAre tyAM upAzraya, na koI mahArAja sAhebanA saMjogo, na koI vyAkhyAnavANInA lAbha, na koI bIjI dharmapravRttio, eTale bIjuM to zuM karIe." mArI patnIe aThThAInA upavAsa to karyA, paNa TAIma kayAM pasAra karavo ? huM mArI hospiTale cAlyo jAuM ne mArI patnI amArA baMgalAnI aMdara enA rUmamAM bhagavAnanI pUjA jevuM rAkheluM emAM bhagavAna mahAvIranI mUrti pAse besIne e sAmAyika karyA kare, mALA gaNe, dhArmika pustakanuM vAMcana kare, ne ema karIne Akho divasa vitAve. pachI sAMjanA huM ghera AvuM eTale ame be bhegA thaIne bhagavAnanI AratI karIe." "A rIte eka pachI eka divaso pasAra thaI rahyA hatA, jotajotAmAM ATha divasa pasAra thaI gayA. mArI patnIe keneDA jevA dezamAM AvIne jIMdagImAM pahelIvAra aThThAI karI hoya eTale svAbhAvika hatuM ke pAraNAne prasaMgane umaMgabhera ujavavAnI mane hoMza jAge. ahIM sagAvahAlAM ke bIjuM koI hoya nahi, paNa mArA ghaNA mitro hatA. thoDA ghaNAM dUranA svajano hatAM. emAMnAM keTalAMka amerikA rahenArAM

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paNa hatAM. e badhAMne phona karIne pAraNA prasaMge meM ghare padhAravAnuM nimaMtraNa ApyuM.' "pAraNAnA divase savAranA sAta vAgyA ne loko AvavA lAgyA, lagabhaga savAso mANasa bheguM thayuM. mane mArI patnInI pahelI aThThAInAM pAraNAM premathI karAvavAno umaLako hato. ATha vAgI gayA hatA. pAraNAnI badhI taiyArIo paNa thaI cUkI hatI. meM mArI patnIne kahyuM ke "cAlo, badhAM AvI gayAM che, have tame besI jAo, ame pAraNAM karAvIe." tyAre mArI patnIe evo bhAva vyakata karyo ke, "pAraNuM pachI karIza, gharamAM ja bhagavAna mahAvIranI mUti che, pahelAM ApaNe badhA bhegAM maLI bhagavAnanI AratI karIe.' A to mArA jIvanano yAdagAra prasaMga che eTale Aje huM, tame ne ApaNAM baMne bALako - badhAM sAthe maLIne saparivAra bhagavAna mahAvIranI AratI karIe, pachI huM pAraNuM karIza." meM kahyuM, "kaMI vAMdho nahi. cAlo, huM hamaNAM ja bALakone bolAvuM." mahArAja sAheba, mArA gharamAM dIkarIne mArI dIkarI baMnenA beDarUma gharamAM pahelA mALe hatA. A bAju chokarAMnI mAne ATha divasanI aThThAInAM pAraNAM karavAnAM hatAM ne mahemAno ATalAM badhAM AvI gayAM hatAM. chatAM chokarAM hajI emanI rUmamAM hatAM. potAnI mAno Avo virala prasaMga ujavavAno jANe ke emane koI umaLako ja hoto ! bhUla emanI nahotI, amArI hatI ke ame emane evA sArA saMskAra ApyA nahotA, ame phakata paisAnI doTamAM ja rahyAM hatAM.' mahArAja sAheba, uparanA beDarUmamAM javA mATe gharanI aMdarathI sIDI hatI. tenA dAdarA pAse nIce UbhA rahI meM bALakone bolAvavA 48

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bUma mArI ke, "beTA, zuM karo cho ?' meM bUma mArI eTale kolejamAM bhaNatI mArI dIkarI sIDInA uparanA pagathIyA pAse AvIne UbhI rahI. meM kahyuM, "beTA, tarata ja nIce AvI jAo." dIkarI pUche, "zuM che ?' kahyuM, "beTA, khabara nathI ke tArI mammIne Aje upavAsa pUrA thayA che ane mammInI IcchA che ke Aje pAraNuM karatAM pahelAM ApaNe bhagavAnanI AratI karIe. mATe beTA, jaldI karo, taiyAra thaIne nIce Avo, ApaNA bhagavAnanI AratI karavAnI che." haveno je DAyaloga che te dhyAnathI sAMbhaLavA jevo che. - pelA bhAI mane kahe, "mahArAja sAheba, savAso mANasa gharamAM AvI gayAM che, huM nIcethI bUma pADuM chuM. kolejamAM bhaNatI mArI dIkarI upara UbhI che. huM jyAre kahuM chuM ke, "cAlo, ApaNA bhagavAnanI AratI karavI che tyAre mArI dIkarI uparathI ja mane pUche che ke, "DeDI, hu Ijha avara goDa ?' jenA gharamAM nAnakaDuM paNa maMdira che, emAM bhagavAna mahAvIranI mUrti che, jenI mAe aThThAI karelI che, aThThAI daramyAna je roja sAmayika kare che, ne roja AratI kare che e gharamAM rahetI chokarI enA bApane pUche che ke, "DeDI, hu Ijha avara goDa ?' A banelI ghaTanA tamane saMbhaLAvI rahyo chuM. je mAbApo hoya emaNe dhyAnathI sAMbhaLavAnI jarUra che. jo saMtAno para dhyAna nahi rAkhyuM to yAda rAkhajo, kAla kevI Avaze tenI tame kalpanA nahi karI zako. tame ApelA saMpattinA vArasA para pANI pharI vaLaze. tamArA paisA ja tamArAM saMtAnone avaLA ravADe caDhAvI denAra banaze. tamArAM dIkarA-dIkarIo tamAruM nAma DUbADaze ke ujALaze enI kalpanA tame 48

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nahi karI zako - jo tame pAyAnA saMskAro ApavAnI javAbadArI adA nahi karI hoya to. juo to kharA, jainakuLamAM janmelI ane dhArmika mAtApitAne tyAM ucharelI dIkarIne e paNa khabara nathI ke ApaNA bhagavAna koNa ? Aje paNa evA keTalAka parivAro haze ke jemAM ucharela bALakone kadAca jainadharma vize ke bhagavAna mahAvIra vize kAMIja khyAla nahi hoya ! kadAca navakAra maMtra paNa nahIM AvaDato hoya ! paNa Ane mATe javAbadAra koNa ? pelI chokarI pitAne pUche che ke 'hu Ijha avara goDa ?' 'ApaNA bhagavAna koNa ?' tyAre pelA DaoNkaTara kahe che, 'beTA, tane khabara nathI ? mahAvIra svAmI ApaNA bhagavAna che. cAlo beTA, ApaNe ApaNA bhagavAnanI AratI karavAnI che.' tyAre pelI chokarI dhaDa daIne enA pitAne kahI de che ke DeDI, mahAvIra svAmI Ijha noTa avara goDa, baTa yora goDa, mahAvIra svAmI 'ApaNA' nahi tamArA bhagavAna che.' pelA DaoNkaTara mane kahe che, 'mahArAja sAheba, meM ene tarata ja pUchyuM ke, 'hu Ijha yora goDa ? to pachI tArA bhagavAna koNa che?' tyAre mArI dIkarI mane kahe che, 'mAya goDa Ijha jIsasa krAIsTa, noTa mahAvIrA !' DaoNkaTara mane kahe, 'mahArAja sAheba, kApo to lohI na nIkaLe evI hAlata amArI hatI. ATaATalA umaLakAthI prasaMga ujavavAnI taiyArI karI hoya, ekeeka mitro ne svajano AvI cUkayAM hoya ne e badhAnI vacce ja aThThAI karanAra mAnI peTanI jaNelI dIkarI ema kahe ke, 'mahAvIra mArA bhagavAna nathI' to mahArAja 50.

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sAheba, amArI hAlata zuM thAya ?' "mAya goDa Ijha jIsasa krAIsTa, noTa mahAvIrA' pelIe dhaDa daIne kahI dIdhu ne amAro mUDa khatama thaI gayo. amArI dIkarI konvenTa skUlamAM bhaNatI hatI, krizciyana mizanarInI kolejamAM ejyukezana lIdhuM hatuM ne roja tyAM chAtI-mAthA para krosa karavAnI Teva paDI gaI hatI paNa koI divasa enI mAe premathI besADIne ene kahyuM nahotuM ke, "beTA ApaNe jaina chIe, cAlo, ApaNe bhagavAna mahAvIranI AratI utArIe." saMpatti bhale vadhAro. tamArA puNyanA udayathI tamane je maLayuM hoya te tame meLavo, paNa eTalAmAM ja jo aTavAI gayAM to gaMbhIra pariNAma Avaze. puruSone paisA kamAvAmAMthI UMcuM jovAnI phUrasada nathI ane bahenone thoDuM ghaNuM kAma karyA pachI maMDaLo ane kamaMDaLomAM javAnI lata eTalI lAgI gaI ke nA pUcho vAta ! Aje A maMDaLamAM javAnuM che, kAle pelA maMDaLamAM javAnuM che, Aje ahIM mITIMga rAkhI che, ne kAle tyAM mITIMga rAkhI che, enuM mANaso eTaluM gaurava le che ke, "ame to A maMDaLanA membara chIe ne pelA maMDaLanAM membara chIe !' - pharyA karo tame kalabomAM ane chokarAMone pharavA do jyAM pharavuM hoya tyAM !.. to pariNAma zuM Avaze ? bALako mATe roja thoDo samaya kADhoH mAre tamane Aje bahu lAgaNI sAthe kahevuM che ke A badhuM pharavAnuM ochuM karo ane gharamAM Tharo jarA! AvA puNyazALI bALako 51

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tamane maLyA che to roja thoDo samaya emanI sAthe kADho. emanA jIvananI eka eka ghaTanAomAM UMDo rasa lyo. emane premathI pAse besADIne pUcho ke tArA manamAM koI mUMjhavaNa to nathI ne beTA ? tuM AnaMdamAM che ne ? Aje skUlamAM zuM bhaNI Avyo ? cAla, tane lezana karAvavAmAM madada karUM ? lAva, tArA pAThayapustako batADIza mane ? mAre jovuM che tane zuM zuM bhaNAvavAmAM Ave che. tamArA bALakonA pAThayapustako kayAreya hAthamAM lIdhAM che kharAM ? e pAThayapustakomAM zenA pATha Ave che, e zuM bhaNe che eno vicAra tame karyo che ? iMDAmAM keTalI kelarI, mAchalAMmAM keTalAM pauSTika tattvo che evuM enA magajamAM zuM zuM bharavAmAM Ave che enI kALajI tame lIdhI che ? tamAro dIkaro zALAmAM game te bhaNIne Avyo hoya paNa e pachI enuM breIna voza karavAno prayatna karyo che ke A copaDI khoTI che, AvAM bhUMsAM magajamAM bharato nahi, samajI le ke, A iMDA khAvAnI koI jarUra nathI. proTInsanI jarUra hoya to beTA, kaThoLa khA. magamAM jeTalAM proTInsa che eTalAM iMDA ke mAchalAMmAMthI nahi maLe evuM enuM breIna voza karyuM che kharUM ? Aje mAre tamane bahu premapUrvaka A badhuM pUchavuM che. paryuSaNanA divasomAM thoDuM AtmaciMtana karajo ke, meM mArI bApa ke mA tarIkenI keTalI javAbadArI adA karI che ?' je bApane ATha kalAka dhaMdho karavAno samaya maLe che, bIjhanesanI mITIMgo karavAno samaya maLe che. je mAne bIjI pravRttio karavAno 52

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samaya maLe che e mAbApo potAnAM ja bALako mATe roja eka kalAkano samaya na phALavI zake zuM ? tame jo saMtAnonI upekSA karatAM ho to tame mAbApa thavAnI bhUla karI che ema mAnajo. zA mATe tamAre AMgaNe Avela koI puNyAtmAnA jIvanane barabAda karI rahyAM cho ? A vAtane gaMbhIratAthI vicAravAnI jarUra che. pelA DaoNkaTara mane kahe ke, 'mahArAja sAheba, dIkarIno Avo javAba sAMbhaLIne ame to stabdha thaI gayA ! pAraNAno utsAha to amAro sAva khalAsa thaI gayo! jema tema karIne prasaMga patAvyo, mitro ane svajane potapotAnA ghare cAlyA gayA, UMDI vyathAmAM sunamuna banIne ame Akho divasa pasAra karyo ne rAta paDI. paNa amane AkhI rAta UMgha na AvI. huM ane mArI patnI banne jaNAM amArA beDarUmamAM codhAra AMsue raDayAM, ke A zuM thaI gayuM ? ane rAte ne rAte ame nirNaya karyo ke, 'vahelAmAM vahelI take A bALakone laIne InDiyA bhegAM thaI jaIe. ApaNA bALakone InDiyAmAM pheravIe ane temane batAvIe ke ApaNI saMskRti zuM che ? ApaNAM tIrtho kevAM che ! ApaNA sAdhu-saMto kevA che ! A badhuM batAvatAM batAvatAM emanuM jo breInavoza thaI jaze to ApaNI jiMdagI sudharaze, nahi to A chokarAM hAthamAMthI jatAM raheze.' DaoNkaTara kahe ke, 'bIjA divase huM hospiTalanuM menejamenTa saMbhALanArA mukhya mANasa pAse gayo. meM cha mahinAnI rajA mAgI, te to mArI sAme joI ja rahyA ke amerikAmAM cha mahinAnI rajA koI joba parathI mAge to ene maLe ?... tyAM to traNa aThavADiyAthI vadhAre 53

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rajA maLatI nathI. tyAM meM emane kahyuM ke "mAre cha mahinAnI rajA joIe che." eTale pelA mArI sAme joI rahyA, mane kahe ke, "DaoNkaTara, zuM bolo cho ? tamane kaMI bhAna che ? to meM kahyuM ke, "mane bilakula bhAna che. mAre cha mahinA InDiyA javuM che.' to kahe, "ImposIbala, tamane rajA nahi maLI zake.' pachI ghaNIbadhI mAthAkUTa karI ke "eTaluM badhuM mahatvanuM kAma AvyuM che ke, mAre gayA vinA chUTako ja nathI. sAheba, mane rajA Apo.' ane chevaTe bahu rakajhaka pachI mane menejamenTa taraphathI evuM kahevAmAM AvyuM ke, "sorI DaoNkaTara, tamAro jo e ja Agraha hoya to tamAre nokarI choDavI paDaze. tamArI nokarI jaze, ame to bIjA DaoNkaTaranI nimaNUMka karI laIzuM." ane meM turata ja eka miniTamAM nirNaya laI lIdho ke have nokarI jAya to bhale jAya paNa dharma javA devo nathI. ona dha spoTa meM hospiTalamAMthI chUTA thavAno nirNaya karyo, meM kahyuM ke, "sAruM, lyo A mAruM rAjInAmuM.' meM mAruM rAjInAmuM ApI dIdhuM, nokarI choDI dIdhI, chokarAMone laIne ame InDiyA bhegAM thayAM. ane mahArAja sAheba, ochAmAM ochA divaso ame amArAM sagAMvahAlAMne tyAM gayAM chIe. ame amArAM chokarAMone AkhA bhAratanI yAtrA karAvI. ame emane ApaNA eka eka tIrthamAM laI gayAM, emane pAvApurI, pAlItANA ne giranAra laI gayAM, temaja Abu ne rANakapura paNa laI gayAM." eka eka tIrthamAM javAnuM, tyAM nirAMte be divasa, cAra divasa rahevAnuM, tyAMno ItihAsa tyAMnA pujArIo ane mahetAjIo pAsethI 54

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jANavAno, aMgrejI bhASAmAM chokarAMone samajAvavAnuM ane emane khyAla ApavAno ke A derAsaro vastupALa-tejapALe banAvelAM, pachI vastupALa-tejapALa koNa hatA, emane keTalo kharca thayelo, kevI rIte emaNe derAsaro banAvyAM vagere dvArA pUrvajonI bhAvanAno khyAla Apyo, emane tyAMnI kalA-samRddhi, adbhUta kotaraNI, zilpa-sthApatya vagerenAM darzana karAvyAM, kayAMka sAdhu-sAdhvIjI mahArAjanA samAcAra maLe to emanI pAse paNa laI jaIe, emanI sAthe tattvacarcA karAvIe, dharmano bodha apAvIe. ema karatAM karatAM amAro pravAsa AgaLa vadhato gayo tema tema amArAM bALakone ema thatuM gayuM ke, "ahoho... ApaNo dharma ATalo badho mahAna che ? ApaNA tIrtho ATalAM badhAM jAjaramAna che? ApaNA sAdhu-saMto AvA tyAgI che ? ApaNuM tattvajJAna ATaluM badhuM vaijJAnika che ?... ane dhIme dhIme emane ApaNA dharma mATe prAuDanesa AvatI gaI... emanuM hRdaya gauravathI bharAtuM gayuM." ane mahArAja sAheba, cAra mahinAnI e dharmayAtrA, bhAratabharanI tIrthayAtrAo, sAdhu-saMtonA samAgama karIne ame keneDA pAchA pharyA tyAre amArAM saMtAno "rITarna Tu homa" ghara tarapha saMskRti bhaNI pAchAM pharI cUkayAM hatAM !" "mahArAja sAheba, ame ahIM AvI gayAM. pahelAM to amAro chokaro nonaveja khAto thaI gayo hato paNa bhAratanI A yAtrA pachI ene ja samajAI gayuM. meM ene mAMsa choDavA nathI kahyuM chatAM e svayaM zAkAhArI banI gayo, mAMsAhAra eNe choDI dIdho.' papa

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eka vakhata thapATa lAgelI eTale ame paNa eTalA ja sAvadhAna banI gayAM hatAM. koIpaNa dharmapracAraka sAdhu-saMta AvyA hoya, ApaNI saMskRti aMgeno koIpaNa kalcarala kAryakrama so-baso kilomITara dUra hoya to paNa ame amArAM chokarAMne laIne tyAM pahoMcI jatAM hatAM... pArTIsIpeTa karAvatAM hatAM... ne enA kAraNe e bALako dhIme dhIme ApaNA dharmane raMge raMgAvA mAMDayAM, bhAratIya saMskRtithI teo prabhAvita thatAM gayAM, pariNAma adbhUta AvyuM. e divase DaoNkaTara mane kahe, "mahArAja sAheba, have bIjo eka prasaMga tamane saMbhaLAvuM. be mahinA pahelAMnI vAta che. skUlamAMthI pikanIka javAnI hatI. mAro dIkaro e skUlamAM bhaNe. skUlanAM sau bALako pikanIka para gayAM. AkhA divasano kAryakrama hato. jamavAnI vyavasthA e lokoe tyAM ja hoTalamAM karI hatI. svabhAvika che ke mizanarI skUlanA phAdharo ane TIcaro temaja bALako tyAM ja jamavAnAM hoya. svimIMga, bIjI ramatagamata, AnaMdapramoda badhuM thayA pachI jamavAno TAIma thayo eTale badhAM jamavA beThAM, nonavejanI DIso AvavA mAMDI. mAro dIkaro to pyora vejITeriyana thaI gayo hato. eTale eNe nA pADI ke, "AmAMnuM kaMI ja mane nahi cAle. mane khAlI eka kokAkolA ApI do, e pI laIza.' badhAM chokarAM khAya ne e bhUkhyo rahe e svAbhAvika rIte ja koIne game nahi, eTale mitroe kahyuM ke, "tuM ekalo besI rahe ne ame khAI laIe ema na cAle eTale tuM paNa khAvA besI jA." badhAe Agraha karyo paNa mArA dIkarAe kahyuM ke, "nA bhAI, huM vejITeriyana chuM. AmAnuM huM kAMI nahi khAuM. mane phakata kokAkolA 'pada

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ApI do." e na mAnyo eTale badhA mitro emanA TIcarane kahevA lAgyA. TIcara AvyA. kahe ke, "zuM che, khAvAnI kema nA pADe che ?' to eNe kahyuM, "huM vejITeriyana chuM, AmAnuM huM kaMI nahi khAuM. mane kokAkolA ApI do." tyAre TIcare ene kahyuM, "to tArA mATe bIjuM kaMIka maMgAvIe...' ne enA mATe bIjI spezyala DIza maMgAvavAmAM AvI. paraMtu enI paNa eNe nA pADI dIdhI.... ne kahyuM, "AmAM iMDA che, eTale mane e paNa nahi cAle, kAraNa ke huM pyora vejITeriyana chuM eTale mane iMDAM ke mAchalI kazuM na cAle. huM A paNa nahi lauM." Ama kayAranIya rakajhaka cAlatI hatI. chokarAo kayAranIya mAthAkUTa karatAM hatAM. have TIcara sAthe paNa jIbhAjoDI cAlI eTale e TIcara paNa akaLAI gayA. e kahe, "have khAto hoya to sIdhesIdho khAI le. khoTe khoTAM nakharAM zuM kare che ? bahu moTo vejITeriyana thaI gayo che. huM nonaveja nathI khAto ema kahyA kare che, paNa iMDA te kAMI nonaveja kahevAya ?' tyAre mArA dIkarAe DaryA vinA kahyuM, "hA, A nonaveja kahevAya." eTale enA TIcare kahyuM, "jo tuM Ane nonaveja kaheto hoya to pachI milka proDakaTa badhI kema khAya che ? dUdha kema pIe che ? e paNa pazunA dehamAMthI ja nIkaLe che ne ?' ane e pachI mArA dIkarAe je javAba Apyo enAthI to meM bahu ahobhAva anubhavyo. mahArAja sAheba, ame koI divasa A bAbatamAM dIkarAne kazuM ja kahyuM na hatuM. chatAM vAtAvaraNa badalAyuM ne saMskArono pravAha zarU thayo enuM pariNAma juo.' | mArA dIkarAe TIcarane javAba Apyo, "sara, dUdha to mArI mAnuM paNa pIuM chuM, paNa eTale zuM huM mArI mAnuM mAMsa paNa khAuM ? paDa

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mAnuM dUdha pIvAya, paNa mAMsa na khavAya.. sara, dUdha to tame paNa tamArI mAnuM pIdhuM haze, paNa tame zuM tamArI mAnuM mAMsa khAzo ?" ne Ano koI javAba pelA TIcara pAse nahoto, e cUpa thaI gayA ne mAro dIkaro mAtra kokAkolA pIne pAcho Avyo.' DaoNkaTara kahe, "mahArAja sAheba, sAMje ghare AvIne mArA dIkarAe mane A vAta karI tyAre eNe Apela javAba sAMbhaLIne to huM ene bheTI paDayo ke, "beTA ! je javAba ApatA mane paNa na AvaDe evo javAba ApatAM tane AvaDayo !... ame ghaNI mITIMgomAM jaIe chIe tyAre amane paNa AvA ja pazno naDatA hoya che paNa e vakhate je javAba ApatAM amane nahoto Avayo e javAba tane AvaDyo beTA, dhanya che tane.' "mahArAja sAheba, huM mArA dIkarAne bheTI paDayo. eNe to enA TIcarane ema paNa kahyuM hatuM ke, sara ! ame to gAyane paNa amArI mAtA mAnIe chIe eTale ame enuM dUdha pI zakIe, paNa enuM mAMsa amArAthI na khavAya." saMtAnone saMskAro ApavAnI jAgRti mAbApo rAkhe to kevuM rUDuM pariNAma AvI zake che enI sAbitI A satyaghaTanA Ape che. | DaoNkaTare bhAvavibhora thaIne kahyuM, "mahArAja sAheba, je chokarIe mane ema kahyuM hatuM ke, "mAya goDa Ijha jIsasa krAIsTa, noTa mahAvIrA' e ja chokarIe bhAratanI yAtrA karIne bhAratIya saMskRtino khyAla meLavyA pachI, sAdhu-saMtono samAgama karyA pachI enA hRdayamAM jaina dharma mATe evuM gaurava jAgyuM ke eno kolejano abhyAsakrama pUro thayA pachI eNe mane kahyuM, "DeDI ! mAre jainIjhama para pI.eca.DI. karavuM che, 58

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kAraNake jaina philosophI jevI duniyAmAM bIjI koI UMcI philosophI nathI.' dIkarIe bApane AvuM kahyuM haze tyAre bApanuM haiyuM kevuM gajagaja uchaLatuM haze ! emane keTalo badho AnaMda thato haze ! eka divasa dIkarI ema kahetI hatI ke, 'mahAvIra mArA bhagavAna nathI...' ne e ja dIkarI ema kahe ke, 'jaina tattvajJAna jevuM bIjuM koI tattvajJAna nathI !' A keTaluM moTuM parivartana !! kaho, saMtAnone kayo vAraso Apavo che, saMpattino ke saMskRtino? tIrthaMkaronAM jIvanacaritro ApaNane preraNA ApanArAM banI rahevAM joIe. emAM adbhUta preraNAo bharelI che. koIpaNa tIrthaMkarano AtmA pUrvanA trIjA bhave sarva jIvone dharmazAsananA rasiyA banAvavAnI tIvra jhaMkhanAvALo bane che. ane pariNAme tIrthaMkara nAmakarma bAMdhe che. jyAM sudhI AtmA dharmanI sAthe nahi joDAya tyAM sudhI enA jIvanamAM duHkhono aMta AvavAno nathI. dhana, sukhanI sAmagrI apAvI zakaze, paNa sukhanI anubhUti karAvI nahi zake. sukhanI sAcI anubhUti to dharma ja karAvI zakaze. sukhanI sAmagrI meLavavI eka bAbata che ane sukhanI anubhUti meLavavI judI bAbata che. saMpatti tamane sukhanAM sAdhano apAvI zakaze paNa e 'sukha' apAvI zakaze evI bhramaNAmAM na rahetA. aDhaLaka saMpattinA svAmIo paNa bhayaMka2 du:khI hoya che. saMskAra vihoNA zrImaMto jevA dayApAtra Aje bIjA koI nahi hoya. aMtarathI e bahu du:khI hoya che kAraNa ke emanI pAse dhana hoya che, 59

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paNa dharma nathI hoto. emanI pAse jo dharma haze to e AnaMdathI jIvatA haze ne mahAnatAnA mArge AgaLa vadhatA haze. je zrImaMtoe mAtra paisAne prAdhAnya ApyuM haze, e bhale udyogapati haze, mIla mAlika haze ke game tevo moTo vepArI haze, bhale eNe paisAno khaDakalo vadhAryo haze, paNa enI pAse jo koI sAdhanA nahi hoya, paramAtmAnI koI upAsanA nahi hoya, tattvajJAnanAM jharaNAM enA hRdayane bhIMjavatAM nahi hoya to e game evo moTo zrImaMta hovA chatAM AMtarika rIte bhayaMkara duHkhI haze. sukhanI sAmagrI ane sukhanI anubhUti, e be judAM judAM tattvo che. sukhanI anubhUti karAvavAnI tAkAta ekamAtra dharma ane adhyAtmanI aMdara ja che. bhagavAna mahAvIra ane anya tIrthakaro paNa evuM nathI vicAratA ke, mAruM puNya pracaMDa che to enA vaDe duniyAmAM saMpattinI relamachela... relAvI dauM. je jIvAtmA mArI sevAmAM rahevAnA che temanA mATe aDhaLaka saMpatti relAvI dauM ne emane sukhI karI dauM." Avo vicAra paNa emaNe nathI karyo. emaNe dhAryuM hota to e badhuM thaI zakayuM hota, samRddhinI relamachelamAM mahAlI zakyA hota, paNa evo vicAra karavAne badale saune dharmazAsananA rasiyA banAvavAno vicAra karyo. kAraNa ke emane samajaNa hatI ke saMpattithI kayAreya sukhI thavAtuM nathI, kevaLa saMskArothI ja sukhI thavAya che. dharma mahAsattAnA zaraNe javAthI ja sukhI thavAya che. bhagavAna tIrthakaranA jIvananA prasaMgo ApaNane A preraNA Ape che. FO

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emaNe vizvanA sarva jIvo mATe je vicAra karyo te vicAra kama sekama ApaNA parivAra pUrato, ApaNA saMtAno pUrato avazya karIe, ne saMtAnone kevaLa saMpattino vAraso ApavAne badale sAcA saMskArono vAraso ApavAnuM ja lakSya rAkhIe emAM ja ApaNA jIvananI dhanyatA che. 61

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saMtAno mAtA-pitAnA upakAronuM smaraNa kare emanA hRdayanI lAgaNIone samaje ane ananya upakArI evA mAtA-pitA pratye bhakitabharyo samarpaNa bhAva keLave mAtA-pitA potAnA bALako pratyenI javAbadArIo ane kartavyone samaje bALako mATe roja thoDo samaya phALave ane e puNyazALI bALako pratye sneha ane vAtsalyano dhodha vahAve to gharagharamAM ubhA thatA ghaNA badhA prazno ane samasyAo Aje ja ukalI jAya ema nathI lAgatuM zuM ? dara

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(preraNA prakAzana TrasTanuM mananIya sAhitya) zAMtiniketana smRtigraMtha zrI jinacandrajI mahArAjanI pravacana prasAdI kSamApanA samarpaNanI suvAsa duHkhathI Dare te bIjA mAtRbhakta mahAvIra sahunA sukhamAM mAruM sukha jAga re, jaina samAja saMskAronA guNAkAra Words of Wisdom zrI kIrticandrajI mahArAjanI jJAna prasAdI mumukSune mArgadarzana zrI municandrajI mahArAjanI kAvya prasAdI havAne havAle kema rahevAya kaho chAnA ? sva. munizrI amarendravijayajI mahArAjanI jJAna prasAdI cittadhairyanI keDIo 63

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preraNA prakAzana TrasTa: eka paricaya jJAna, prema ane AnaMdanI mUrtisamAM pUjaya baMdhutripuTI munivaronA aMtaramAMthI vahetI jJAnagaMgAne.. emanI hRdayasparzI madhuravANIne pustako dvArA ane oDiyo-viDiyo keseTo dvArA gharagharamAM pahoMcADavAnuM kArya "preraNA prakAzana TrasTa' dvArA chellA paMdara varSathI thaI rahyuM che. atyAra sudhImAM pUjaya baMdhutripuTI munivaronA preraNAdAyI pravacanonI 250 thI paNa vadhu oDiyo keseTo ane lagabhaga 100 thI paNa vadhu viDiyo keseTo A TrasTa dvArA pragaTa thaI cUkI che. AjanA yugamAM bhAratIya saMskRtinA maMgalamaya tattvone tathA mAnavamAtra mATe upayogI evI prabhu mahAvIranI vANIne ame dezavidezamAM guMjatI karI zakyA chIe tenuM amane gaurava che. jJAnaprasAranuM A kArya hajI vadhu sArI rIte ane vyApaka rIte karavAnI amArI jhaMkhanA che. preraNA prakAzananuM mukhya kAryAlaya tIthala mukAme zAMtiniketana sAdhanAkendramAM AveluM che. pUjya baMdhu tripuTI munivaronI oDiyoviDiyo keseTo tathA pustako vigere saghaLuM sAhitya nIcenA saranAmethI maLI zake che. jijJAsuoe saMparka karavA vinaMti che. preraNA prakAzana TrasTa, zAMtiniketana sAdhanAkendra mu. tIthala - 396 006. ji. valasADa (da.gujarAta) phonaH (02632) 48074 pheksaH (02632) 47974

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deza-videzamAM baMdhutripuTI tarIke jANItA krAntikArI traNa jaina munivaromAM sauthI nAnA munizrI jinacandrajI mahArAja mAtA sarasvatInA kRpApAtra tejasvI vakatA che. temanI hRdayasparzI madhuravANI paththaradilane paNa pIgaLAvI zake che. kacchathI keliphorniyA sudhI yojAyelAM temanA hRdayasparzI pravacanoe jIvanaparivartanano eka navo ItihAsa sarjayo che. tIthalanA samudrataTe lIlIchama vRkSavADIo vacce zAMtiniketana sAdhanA kendra chellA paMdara varSathI temanI AtmasAdhanAnuM ane lokakalyANanI anekavidha pravRttionuM mukhya kendra rahyuM che, jyAM temanuM sAnidhya mANavA deza-videzathI jijJAsuono pravAha satata vaheto rahe che.