Vishvani Adhyatmik Ajayabio Aapna Sadhu Sadhvio Part 04

Author(s): Gunhansvijay
Publisher: Kamal Prakashan Trust
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/022596/1

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ApaNA sAdhu-sAdhvIjI bhagavaMto kuMjara samA zUravIra je che, siMha sama nirNaya vaLI... gaMbhIratA sAgara samI jenA hRdayane che varI, jenA svabhAve saumyatA che pUrNimAnA caMdranI evA mahAvratadhArIne paMcAMga bhAve huM namuM AkAzabhUSaNa sUrya jevA, dIpatA tapa-tejathI vaLI pUratA digaMtane, karuNA upekSA maitrIthI harakhAvatA je vizvane muditA taNA saMdezathI evA mahAvratadhArIne paMcAMga bhAve huM namuM bhAga-4 je zaradaRtunA jala samA, nirmala manobhAvo vaDe upakAra kAja vihAra karatA, jevibhinna sthaLo vize jenI sahanakita samIpe pRthvI paNa jhAMkhI paDe evA mahAvratadhArIne paMcAMga bhAve huM namuM yugapradhAna AcAryasama pU. paM. zrI candrazekharavijayajI ma.sA.

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samarpaNama vartamAnakALanA tamAme tamAma saMyamIone... * jeonuM sAmAnya jIvana paNa vizvane mATe Azcaryajanaka che. * jeonA pazcAttApanA AMsuonI kiMmata zatruMjaya tIrthAdhirAjanA prakSAla karatA paNa anaMtaguNI che. * jeonuM haiyuM matabhedo-gacchabhedone gauNa karIne guNAnurAganA madhura pravAhanuM - jharaNuM baneluM che. * jeo jinazAsanane jANavA-mANavA-pracAravA-pamADavA mATe kamara kasI rahyA che. * jeonA caraNonI dhULa hIrAbajAranA atikiMmatI hIrAone zaramAvavAnuM kAma kare che. # jeonI AMkhonuM amRta vaizAkhanI kALajhALa garamImAM TADhaka ApanAro dhodhamAra varasAda che. jeonA snehALa, premALa, hetALa zabdo pASANa jevA hadayone paNa mAkhaNa jevAM komaLa banAve che. jeonuM bhAvasabhara haiye darzana mohanIyakarmanA virATa jaMgalamAM jvALA peTAvavAnuM kAma kare che. jeo mArA sAdharmika che, jeo mArA mATe pUjyatama che, jeo zubha-pravRttio mATe mAruM prerakabaLa che, e tamAma saMyamIonA karakamalamAM A pustaka bahumAnapUrvaka samarpita karuM chuM. eka ja bhAvanA sAthe ke, mArA saMyamIo sau prathama svAdhyAya-samrATa bane, enA AdhAre pachI saMyama-samrATa bane, chelle svabhAva samrATa bane mArA pUjyapAda gurUdevazrIe seMkaDo vAra prarUpelI A svAdhyAyasaMyama-svabhAvanI tripadIne pAmIne sau siddhigAmI bane... -muni guNahaMsa vi.

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F-31-131038 namo'stu tasmai jinazAsanAya vizvanI zAsana samrATa bhavana zrI vijaya nomasUri-jJAna zALA kramAMkaH 0|SAv roTha haThIsiMhanI vADI, amadAvAda 2411-4: 13.10 AdhyAtmika ajAyabI : ApaNA sAdhu-sAdhvIjI bhagavaMto yugapradhAnAcAryasama 5.pU.paM.zrI candrazekharavijayajI ma.sAheba bhAga - 4 prakAzaka Dong kamala prakAzana TrasTa

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A vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo prakAzaka karI kamalaprakAzana TrasTa jIvatalAla pratApazI saMskRti bhavana 2777, nizA poLa, jhaverIvADa, rIlipha roDa, amadAvAda-1 phonaH 25355823, 25356033 Rocco trI lekhaka zIla siddhAnta mahodadhi, saccAritracUDAmaNi, sva. pUjyapAda A. bhagavaMta zrImadvijaya premasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA sAhebanA vinaya pU.paM.zrI candrazekharavijyajInA ziSya muLaguNahaMsavaryu AvRttiH nakalaH 1000 vi.saM. 2070 mUlya rUA. 60/ SCOLOROROS muka : yathArtha pablikezana 1-riddhi pelesa, 80 phUTa roDa, bhAyaMdara (vesTa) mo. 98336 16004, Teli. : 28184599

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo) prastAvanA sAdhu-sAdhvI-zrAvaka-zrAvikA e caturvidha saMgha zramaNasaMgha kahevAya che. zramaNonI (ane zramaNIonI) pradhAnatAvALo saMgha e zramaNasaMgha. caudarAja lokanA sarva jIvonI hitakAmanAvALA jainazramaNo ane zramaNIo lAkho zrAvaka-zrAvikAo mATe parama pUjanIya tattva hatuM ane che. zrAvako ane zrAvikAo mATe to paMcamahAvratapAlaka zramaNa-zramaNIo 'bhagavAnatulya che' ema kahIe to emAM kazuM khoTuM nathI. bhagavAna RSabhadevanA samayathI mAMDIne zrAvaka-zrAvikAo Aja sudhI zrIsaMghamAM zramaNonI ane zramaNIonI prabhutA svIkAratA ja AvyAM che ane Aje paNa e zrAvaka-zrAvikAo zramaNa-zramaNIo mATe gajaba koTino AdarabhAva - bahumAnabhAva dharAve che e niHzaMka hakIkata che. paNa A avasarpiNIkALa! paDato kALa! emAM vaLI pAMcamo Aro! e ya vaLI huMDA avasarpiNIno pAMcamo Aro ! enI asa2 samAjanA dareke dareka kSetramAM ochA-vattA aMze paDI che - paDe che... eno niSedha to koNa karI zake ? paraduHkhabhaMjana mahArAjA vikramanI paraMparAmAM Aje karoDo prajAjanonAM duHkhone dUra karavAnI javAbadArI UThAvanArA seMkaDo rAjanetAo keTalI hade prajAjano u52 duHkhanA DuMgarAo ThAlavI rahyA che, e koNa nathI jANatuM ? samagra prajAne nirogI banAvavAnuM bIDuM jhaDapanArA lAkho DokTaro mAtra svArtha khAtara, dhanapati banavA khAta2 karoDo rogIonA vizvAsano ghAta karI rahyA che, nakAmI davAo ApI rogI tarIke ja kAyama rahevA daI potAno svArtha sAdhI rahyA che. re! nirogIone rogI banAvavAnA bhayAnaka kAvatarA karI rahyA che, paropakAranA amUlya sAdhana samAna potAnA kAryane rUpiyA kamAI levAno dhaMdho banAvI rahyA che e koNa nathI jANatuM ? lAkho vepA2Io ImAnadArI-saccAIno ToTo pIMsI nAMkhI vizvAsaghAta, bheLaseLa, lAMcaruzavata 3

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo> dvArA mAtra ne mAtra potAnI tijorIo bharacaka karavAnA kAmamAM parovAI jaIne nItidharmane kyAMya vecI rahyA che... e koNa nathI jANatuM ? sAcA-nirdoSa mANasone nyAya apAvavA laDanArA vakIlo ane sAco nyAya ApanArA jajo keTalA? to paisAnI lAlace khoTAne sAcuM sAbita karanArA, bhayAnaka doSavALAone sAva nirdoSa jAhe2 ka2nA2A vakIlo ane jajo keTalA? puSkaLa bhoga ApIne karoDo vidyArthIone sArA-sAcA saMskAra ane sAruM-sAcuM zikSaNa ApanArA zikSako keTalA? to zikSaNanA nAme vidyArthIo pAsethI ke sarakAra pAsethI cikkAra paisA paDAvanArA, skUlomAM bhaNAvavAne badale speziyala Tyuzano goThavAvI emAM ja abhyAsa karAvavA dvArA bamaNI - traNa gaNI Avaka UbhI karanArA, dhamakIo ApI vA2-tahevAre haDatALa pADanArA zikSako keTalA? prAcIna kALamAM badhA ja sArA-sAcA hatA, evuM nathI kahevuM paNa prAcInakALamAM 95% sArA-sAcA ane 5% kharAba-khoTA hatA. jyAre vartamAnamAM 5% sArA-sAcA ane 95% kharAba-khoTA... ATalo moTo taphAvata nathI lAgato zuM? samAjanAM koIpaNa kSetramAM UMDANapUrvaka dRSTipAta karazuM to A khedajanaka chatAM taddana sAcI hakIkata najara sAme AvyA vinA nahi rahe. zramaNa-zramaNIo paNa samAjathI sAva-sAva alaga to nathI ja ne ? aneka jAtanA AkramaNo zramaNa-zramaNI saMgha upara AvyA ja che ne ? AnA kAraNe bIjA badhA kSetronI mAphaka zramaNa-zramaNIonI viziSTatAmAM, AcArasaMpannatAmAM, vicArazuddhimAM thoDo-ghaNo ghaTADo thAya, pheraphAra thAya e zakya nathI zuM ? emAM ya vartamAnamAM to sAcA saMyamadharmanI ArAdhanA mATenI anukULatAo ghaNI ghaNI ghaTI gaI che. 2500 varSa pUrve zrI dharmadAsagaNi ja kahI gayA che ke bhAI ! vAtassa ya parihALI saMnamanuArUM sthi svettArUM bhAI! paDato kALa che, have saMyamayogya kSetro rahyAM nathI... have jo bhagavAna mahAvIrasvAmInI hAjarImAM emanA ziSyaratne A zabdo uccAryA hoya to Aje 2500 varSa bAda bhayAnaka vijJAnavAdanI bhUtAvaLanI hAjarImAM to zuM dazA hoya? vartamAnakALamAM gRhastha jIvanamAM keTalAM badhAM kharAba nimitto bhaTakAya che, e to badhA jANe ja che. have e kunimittonA kAraNe keTalAya gRhastho jAtajAtanA pApono, kusaMskArono bhoga banatA hoya... emAMthI koIne koI dIkSA laI ahIM Ave, vairAgya sAco hoya paNa pelA kusaMskAro paNa tagaDA hoya... emAM vaLI ahIM sAdhujIvanamAM paNa evA koIka kunimitto maLI jAya. kusaMskAro jAgrata thAya. vairAgyabhAva nabaLo paDe, ane zramaNo ke zramaNIonAM jIvanamAM nAnA-moTA doSa ghUsI jAya. koIka ayogya prasaMga banI jAya. AvA prasaMgo zrAvaka-zrAvikAo jue, sAMbhaLe.... kyAMka vaLI chApAomAM ane megejhinomAM e viSaya-kaSAya saMbaMdhI prasaMgo sArI rIte cagAvI-cagAvIne chApavAmAM AvelA hoya te vAMce ane UMDe UMDe zramaNa-zramaNIo pratye aNagamo-aruci emanA manamAM upasatAM thAya, 'badhA sAdhu-sAdhvIo AvA ja haze. A badhA pAse javA jevuM ja nathI.'' evA vicAro dhIme dhIme dRDhatA pakaDatA jAya ane pachI sAdhu-sAdhvIo pAse javuM-vaMdana ka2vA - vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLavA... A badhAM ja kAryo baMdha thatAM jAya. 4

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo emAM ya vaLI keTalAka zAsanazatruo to zramaNa-zramaNIonuM jainazAsanamAM prabhutva khatama thAya ane e dvArA jainasaMgha chinnabhinna bane evuM IcchatA ja hoya che. teo to AvA koIka ADAavaLA prasaMgonI kAgaDoLe rAha jotA hoya che. AvA koIka prasaMgo bane eTale tarata eno cArebAju pracAra kare. e prasaMgo zramaNa-zramaNIonA jhaghaDA vagerenA hoya ke bIjA paNa hoya paNa eno evo pracAra kare ke bicArI bhoLI prajA, jainazrAvaka-zrAvikAo sAdhu-sAdhvIo pratyenA agAdha sadbhAvane - ahobhAvane gumAvI bese. teo pachI sAdhu-sAdhvIo pAse javAne badale bIjA mArge dorAya. e lAkho zrAvaka-zrAvikAo zramaNazramaNIone badale have vidvAna-jANakAra tarIke prasiddha gRhastho pAsethI ja badhu mArgadarzana meLavavA lAge, e gRhastho paNa emanA kAnamAM zramaNa-zramaNIsaMgha pratye vadhu ne vadhu jhera reDatA jAya ane caturvidha saMgha be ne vibhAgamAM vaheMcAI jAya, tUTI jAya. eka bAju mAtra zramaNa-zramaNIo ane bIjI bAju mAtra zrAvaka zrAvikAo ! je rIte aMgrejoe bhAratane barabAda karyuM, e rIte keTalAko jANe ke ajANe jainasaMghane chinnabhinna karavAnuM kAma karI rahyA che. bhAratIya prajA potAnA rAjAone bhagavAna tarIke jotI, ene vaphAdAra rahetI. aMgrejoe e rAjAomAMthI keTalAka rAjAone jANIjoIne amuka doSomAM phasAvyA. pachI e doSo-pApo prajAmAM jAhera karyA. prajA rAjAne dhikkAravA lAgI. rAjA pratyeno sadbhAva gumAvI besI. pariNAme rAjAone ukheDI nAMkhI potAnI sattA jamAvavI e aMgrejo mATe sAva ja saraLa thaI paDyuM. Aje je keTalAko zramaNa-zramaNIonuM prabhutva nathI IcchatA, lAkho jaina zrImaMta gRhasthomAM potAnuM Adhipatya jamAvavA Icche che, teo jANe-ajANe AvA ja kAmo karI bese che. kALaprabhAvAdine lIdhe keTalAka ADAavaLA prasaMgo bane eTale A zAsanazatruo ene cArebAju phelAve. gRhasthavargamAM zramaNasaMgha pratye tiraskAra utpanna karAve. chevaTe e gRhasthomAM potAnuM Adhipatya jamAvavAmAM saphaLa bane. kadAca koIne evo vicAra AvI zake ke 'zramaNo pratye zrAvaka-zrAvikAo vimukha bane emAM zramaNazramaNIone zuM vAMdho che? emane kyAM zrAvaka-zrAvikA saMghanI jarUra che? zuM teo emanuM varcasva-prabhutva Icche che? zramaNa-zramaNIo enI lAlasAvALA che?'' eno javAba e che ke sAcA zramaNo ke zramaNIo koIpaNa prakAranI malina apekSAvALA hotAM nathI ja chatAM e sAcA zramaNo evI jhaMkhanA cokkasa rAkhe ke "jinazAsanamAM suzramaNonuM prabhutva, suzramaNonI pradhAnatA akabaMdha rahevI ja joIe.'' kemake te zramaNo jinazAsananA sAcA anurAgI che. teo jANe che ke jo jinazAsanamAM zramaNonuM prabhutva khatama thaze to jinazAsana ja chinnabhinna thaI jaze. kabUla che ke zramaNomAM doSo paNa UbhA thayA che. keTalAka zramaNomAM ghaNA moTA doSo paNa UbhA thayA haze. paNa eTalA mAtrathI jo AkhI ya zramaNasaMsthAne kharAba gaNAvI jo zramaNonI prabhutA khatama karAze to je hAlata bhArata dezanI thaI, e hAlata jainasaMghanI thaze. bhAratanA rAjAomAM dUSaNo ghuselA. keTalAka rAjAomAM ghaNA moTA doSo paNa hatA paNa aMgrejoe e doSone cArebAju phelAvI dIdhA, rAjAonI prabhutA khatama thaI, aMgrejo adhipati banyA. pariNAme bhAratanI je barabAdI thaI e badhA ja jANe ja che. evuM ahIM paNa banI zake ema che. jo keTalAka zramaNonA koIka doSone ughADA pADI daI AkhI ya 5

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A vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo - zramaNa saMsthAne vagovavAmAM Ave ane e rIte enI prabhutA khatama karavAmAM Ave to emAM nukasAna suzramaNone nahi, paNa jinazAsanane - saMghane cokkasa thAya. eTale ja suzramaNo potAnI prabhutAnI lAlacavALA to bilakula nathI ja, chatAM teo zramaNonI prabhutA - pradhAnatA jaLavAI rahe e to Icche che ja. kemake emAM ja saMghanuM hita chupAyeluM che. sAra eTalo ja ke kukALa-kunimittAdinA kAraNe jaina zramaNomAM paNa kyAMka kyAreka aNaghaTatI bAbato banI hoya, banatI hoya... paNa eTalA mAtrathI zrIsaMghamAM AkhIya zramaNasaMsthA vagovAya, zrIsaMghamAM zramaNonI pradhAnatA para prahAra thAya, gRhasthonI pradhAnatA vadhatI jAya e zrIsaMghanA hitamAM nathI ja. A mATe sauthI jarUrI bAbata e che ke zrAvaka-zrAvikA vagerenA manamAM sAdhu-sAdhvIo pratyeno sadbhAva-bahumAnabhAva akabaMdha rahe, vadhe... jo ema thAya to ja teo sadAya mATe zramaNa-zramaNIonA mArgadarzana mujaba ja pravRtti kare ane to ja saMghanuM hita sacavAya. vaLI kyAreka to evuM paNa bane che ke keTalAka mugdha sAdhu-sadhvIo paNa koIka koIka prasaMgo sAMbhaLIne ema mAnatA thaI gayA che ke "have ApaNo zramaNa saMgha lagabhaga khalAsa thaI cUkyo che..." Ama khuda keTalAka zramaNa-zramaNIo paNa potAnA ja ghara uparanI zraddhA gumAvI bese che. haMmezAM kharAba vAto vadhu bahAra AvatI hoya, vadhu phelAtI hoya eTale e badhI vAtonI asara jaladI thAya e svAbhAvika che. A tamAmane vAstavikatA darzAvavI e atyaMta mahattvanuM kArya che. emane e jaNAvavuM jarUrI che ke "jyAM samAjanA lagabhaga pratyeka ghaTakamAM 5% zuddhi bacI che, tyAM A zramaNasaMghamAM 75% thI 80% zuddhi akabaMdha che, e vAta tame na bhUlo." emane e jaNAvavuM jarUrI che ke "Aje paNa AvI bhayaMkara avasthAmAM paNa seMkaDo zramaNa-zramaNIo Azcaryajanaka-bahumAnajanaka-agAdha sadbhAvajanaka benamUna ArAdhanA karI rahyA che. AvA uttama zramaNazramaNIothI bharelA saMgha pratye upekSA-tiraskAra-niMdAbhAva bilakula ucita banI zakato nathI." A jaNAvavA mATe, zramaNa-zramaNIsaMgha pratye caturvidha saMghane utkRSTa, vAtsalyavALo, AdaravALo, sabhAva-sanmAnavALo banAvavA mATe A pustikAmAM kula judA judA zramaNa-zramaNIonA prasaMgo AlekhavAmAM AvyA che. Azare 60 jeTalA prasaMgo cothA bhAgamAM levAmAM AvyA che. jainasaMghanA pratyeka sabhyoe A avazya vAMcavuM joIe ane e vAMcIne manamAM bharAyelI khoTI khoTI vAtone dUra phagAvavI joIe. koIka doSavALAonI niMdA karavAne badale AvA uttamottama saMyamIonI hArdika prazaMsA e ja svapakalyANano nirdoSa mArga che. AmAM nIcenI vizeSatAo dhyAnamAM rAkhavI (1) lagabhaga tamAme tamAma prasaMgo vartamAna ke najIkanA ja bhUtakALanA sAdhu-sAdhvIjI bhagavaMtonA che. bahu jUnA prasaMgo lagabhaga lIdhA nathI tathA gRhasthonA prasaMgo paNa mAMDa 4-5 lIdhA che. (2) A dareka bAbata tadana satya che. emAM ame jarAya vadhArI vadhArIne lakhyuM nathI. aNuno meru banAvyo nathI. hA, keTalAka prasaMgo dveSa-niMdAdAdinA nimitta na bane e hetuthI thoDAka badalIne lakhyA che. (3) viratidUta parIkSAmAM eka prazna pUchelo ke "sAdhu-sAdhvIjIo potAnA jIvanamAM anubhavelA suMdara prasaMgo amane lakhI mokale." Azare aDhIso-traNaso saMyamIoe parIkSA ApI. potAnA jIvanamAM

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----------vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ------ --jAte joyelA - anubhavelA ke sAMbhaLelA prasaMgo amane jaNAvyA. emAMthI paNa je vadhu AkarSaka, vadhu viziSTa jaNAyA, e prasaMgo judA tAravI A pustaka taiyAra karyuM che. ame to mAtra saMyamIoe lakhelA prasaMgone amArI bhASAmAM DhALyA che, ghaNI jagyAe to e badhA prasaMgo te te saMyamInI bhASAmAM ja sIdhe sIdhA lakhI dIdhA che. (4) A prasaMgomAM keTalAka prasaMgo e rIte paNa lakhyA che ke "jANe te te saMyamI pote ja potAnA anubhava lakhato hoya..." dA.ta. "amArA guruNInI sahanazakti ajabagajabanI hatI." AvI rIte Akho prasaMga lakhelo hoya. to emAM amArA = e prasaMga lakhanArA sAdhvIjI pote ja. guruNI = e sAdhvIjInA guruNI. emAM amArA = A pustakanA lekhakane na samajavA. mAro dIkSA paryAya e vakhate mAtra be varSano hato, tyAre.." AvuM lakhANa hoya, tyAM mAro = A pustakanA lekhakano nahi, paNa e prasaMga je sAdhue-sAdhvIjIe lakhelo hoya - emano.. TUMkamAM e prasaMgo emanA ja zabdomAM DhALelA che. eTale vAMcatI vakhate jyAre AvA prasaMgo Ave tyAre khyAla rAkhavo. (5) koI ema na samaje ke "A to mAtra 60 ja prasaMga! to bIjA badhAnuM zuM?" kemake ame to viziSTa ane AMkhe UDIne vaLage evI ArAdhanAono ullekha karelo che. je ghaNA badhAmAM sAmAnya ArAdhanAo hoya, tevI to hajAro che. e badhAno ullekha atre karyo nathI. dA.ta. 100-150 sAdhu-sAdhvIjIo 100 vardhamAnatapanI oLIo karI cUkyA che paNa e badhAno ame judo judo ullekha nathI karyo. Ama nAnI nAnI DhagalAbaMdha bAbato ame noMdhI ja nathI. vaLI AnA vadhu bhAga paNa chapAze. (6) AmAM lagabhaga ame koInA paNa nAma lakhyA nathI. ADakatarA nirdeza karelA hoya e saMbhavita che. (7) A koI eka grupa ke eka gacchanA badhA prasaMgo nathI. paNa judA judA lagabhaga 15-17 gacchonA prasaMgo A pustikAmAM che. (8) zrI saMghane vinaMtI ke AvA koIpaNa viziSTa prasaMgo tamArA khyAlamAM hoya to e amane mokalAve. "AziSa e. mahetA, 7, sunISa epArTamenTa, ratnasAgara skUla sAme, gopIpurA, kAjInuM medAna, surata. (gujarAta)." A saranAme e lakhANa mokalavuM. kavara upara sukutAnumodananA prasaMgo ema zabda lakhavo. je koIpaNa zAstrAnusArI viziSTa prasaMgo haze teno have pachInA vibhAgomAM samAveza karavAmAM Avaze. koIpaNa samudAyanA sAdhu-sAdhvIjIo AvA viziSTa prasaMgo mokalI zake che. e prasaMgoArAdhanAo mAtra sAdhu-sAdhvI saMbaMdhI ja hovA joIe. (9) "kevA prasaMgo vadhu asarakAraka ane viziSTa gaNAya." e A pustaka vAMcavAthI khyAlamAM AvI zakaze. . (10) saMyamIoe amane nAnA-moTA ghaNA prasaMgo lakhelA, emAMthI ame cUMTIghUMTIne A prasaMgo lIdhA che. koIka koIka saMyamIe lakhelA prasaMgo AmAM na paNa AvyA hoya. teo pAse ame hArdika kSamA mAgIe chIe.

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-~~-~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo-~~~-~+ (11) keTalIka anumodanA evI hoya ke jemAM bIjAnA doSono ullekha AvavAno. dA.ta. koI sAdhvIjInI abhuta kSamAnI anumodanA karavAnI hoya tyAre emanA para krodha karanArAnA e krodha doSano ullekha AvavAno ja. jo krodhAdi thayA ja na hota to AmanI kSamA siddha ja na thAta. eTale AvI anumodanAmAM ADakatarI rIte koIkanA doSono ullekha thavAno paNa tyAM emanI niMdA karavAnI nathI, e karmavaza hovAthI evuM vartana karI beThA ema samajavAnuM che. ApaNe to kSamAzIla sAdhvIjInI kSamAnI anumodanA ja mukhya banAvavAnI che. (12) mithyazAmaTayuparasA... manuvAdItyanumo pAma: zrI zAMtasudhArasanI A gAthAmAM kahyuM che ke "mithyAtvIonA paNa che je mokSamArgAnusArI guNo - anuSThAno che, tenI huM anumodanA karuM chuM." arthAt mArgAnusArI koIpaNa kRtya anumodanIya bane, bhale pachI e mithyAtvIonuM paNa kema na hoya? have A to badhA saMyamIo che, emanA je je kRtyo mArgAnusArI hoya e anumodanIya banavAnA ja. emAM gacchabheda jovAno na hoya. (13) A je koIpaNa prasaMgo maLelA che. e moTAbhAge viratidUtanI parIkSAnA uttarapatromAMthI prApta thayA che. sAdhu-sAdhvIjI bhagavaMtoe kamala prakAzana upara uttarapatro mokalyA. e tapAsavAmAM je je suMdara prasaMgo prApta thayA, tenuM saMkalana A pustakamAM karavAmAM AvyuM che. sAdhu bhagavaMto ke sAdhvIjI bhagavaMto pAsethI sIdhA ja A prasaMgo sAMbhaLyA nathI ke patrathI paNa jANyA nathI. uttarapatromAM lakhAyelA prasaMgane AdhAre A badhuM lakhANa che. eTale bhUlathI koIka prasaMgomAM thoDoka phera thaI gayo hoya to e aMge kSamA cAhIe chIe. ame badhAne vinaMtI karIe chIe ke A pustaka vAMcyA bAda tame paNa tamArI AsapAsanA sAdhusAdhvIjIomAM je koIpaNa mokSamArgAnusArI anuSThAno-guNo joyA hoya, te vyavasthita lakhIne amane mokalAvazo. jethI e sukRto ghaNA loko sudhI pahoMcADI zakAya. (14) A pustaka vaMcAI jAya, eTale emane ema mUkI na rAkhazo, paNa bIjAne vAMcavA Apazo. koIpaNa eka jaNane A AkhuM pustaka vaMcAvI devuM e ja A pustakanI sAcI kiMmata cUkavelI gaNAze. aMte jinAjJAviruddha kaMIpaNa lakhAyuM hoya to trividha trividha micchA mi dukkaDaM. - muni guNahaMsavijaya lekha mokalavAnuM saranAmuM : AziSabhAI mahetA hitezabhAI gAlA 7, sunISa epArTamenTa, bI-17, tRpti sosAyaTI, ratnasAgara skUlanI sAme, hanumAna roDa, vile pArle (pUrva), kAjInuM medAna, gopIpurA, surata. muMbaI- 400 057. mobAIla : 9374512259 mobAIla : 9820928457

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OM vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo prAptisthAna hitezabhAI gAlA bI-17, tRpti sosAyaTI, hanumAna roDa, vile pArle (pUrva), muMbaI- 400 057. mobAIla : 9820928457 AziSabhAI mahetA 7, sunISa epArTamenTa, ratnasAgara skUlanI sAme, kAjInuM medAna, gopIpurA, surata mobAIla: 9374512259 kumArabhAI zAha 604, sukhasAgara epArTamenTa, Indora sTeDiyamanI sAme, dhoDa doDa roDa, surata. mobAIla : 9825299487 dIpezabhAI dIkSita bI-2, amara epArTamenTa, DIvAIna lAIpha skUlanI sAme, bereja roDa, vAsaNA, amadAvAda. mobAIla : 09428608279 9

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che $ $ M -~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + anukramaNikA) | ka. viSaya karI pAna na. 1. mAruM AyakhuM khUTe je ghaDIe................................................ 2. rUkve ichadde nIniyA neva sAthe TUMkuM samAginnA.... deva jema nATakamAM kiriyAmAM lInatAne dharatA... dhana te munivarA re............. ApaNuM samyakatva nirmaLa kharuM ke ? . koIkanA kaTu zabdothI ApaNane khoTuM lAge che kharuM? ............. guru mode mAre zabdo kI nArI..... 7. e mAta-tAtane dhanya che.......... ......... 23 8. sUkSmavRdhdha satA reyo dharma .................................... ............ mahApuruSonI muThThI uMcerI mahAnatA .... eka munirAjanI preraka satyaghaTanA ... 11. je acala che. .................................. 12. eka TuMko patra . 13. tarasyAo mATe paraba kholIe. ........... 14. AvuM sAdhuvaMda sarvatra hojo . ziSyo mATe bhoga ApanAra gurujano mahAna ! ................................ 16. mArA gurunI mahAnatA meM sAkSAta nihALI ..... 17. lokapriya te bane che, je bIjA mATe ghasAI chUTe che. .............. moTAonI moTAI ........... 19. 88 varSanI uMmaranA eka saMyamI mahAtmAno suMdara majAno patra.... 20. sAdhUnAM varNane puSyam ................. 21. vinaya vaDo saMsAramAM .................. 22. gauvitye nanamAnyatA ..... 3. karaNAbhInI AMkhomAMthI... ..... 4. sarva nIvanedaMiIH: varitram .......... .............. 25. sasalA, sAbara, mRga ane rojhaDA..................... 26. ghaDapaNamAM zANapaNa ....... ....... ra7. je kSApa kSamaM mumukULa niramagharIkha thAtum ................ 28. na kSaNamapi kSamaM mumukSUNAM nirabhigrahANAM sthAtum ......... 60 29. aNajANItI eka mahAvibhUti .. 15. ...........

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------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo-------------- ....................... 30. duSpratikArau mAtApitarau ........6 6 31. tame Avo abhigraha lIdho che kharo? 32. zAstro vAMco nahi, pacAvo rU. samartha royama ! nA payiA .......... 34. uccakoTinI khAnadAnI. ...............**** rU. jayaNA ya dhammajaNaNI.. 36. kula cAra anumodanIya bAbato.. 37. bhAvonuM sanmAna karo... .. 38. jananInI joDa sakhI nahi jaDe re lola .............. 39. mArA dAdI guNI ................................... AcAraH prathamo dharmaH! 41. muja AtmA jAgyo have... 42. jainatvaH janmathI nahi, paNa karmathI che.......... 43. sumaMgala-AcAryanA pratinidhio jaya ho................... 44. eka ajaina vaidyanuM jainAcAryanA AcArothI parivartana......... 45. saMvignatAno pavitrapuMja eTale vartamAnanA eka vayovRddha AcArya ................... 46. anavasthA aTakAvo 47. savo guNehi gaNo ....... 48. pU.A.bha.zrI municandrasUrijInA mukhe sAMbhaLelI nAnakaDI ghaTanA ...... 49. eka mITho anubhava . **************................................... 50. parigrahano parityAga pamADanAra prakRSTa bodha. .. 101 nirAjanI 1 varSanA dIkSAparyAyanI svAdhyAya-sAdhanA ....... .......... 101 52. zuM vRddho ArAdhanA na karI zake?... ........... 103 53. bIjAnA bhAvone sAcavo................ .................... 105 54. udAratA keLavo. .... 5. kU tharma: satAvA: ....................... pa6. 35ra saMrakSaya pratyena....... .... 57. me vAtA sarasvatI ................ .... ........... 114 58. upayoga sadA karazo, tame pUrI niSThAthI. .......... 116 59. no zahIda hue hai nakkI.... ......... 117 60. ApaNane jinavacana sAMbhaLavA-jANavA-mANavAno rasa keTalo? ....................... 123 vA ............. 1 1 -

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- : vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo * kaccha saujanya ka yugapradhAna AcAryasama pUjyapAda paMnyAsa zrI candrazekharavijayajI ma.sA. prerita tapovana saMskAra dhAma - (navasArI) jJAna khAtAmAMthI tathA zrImatI nilAbena kIrtabhAI vorA parivAra (ghATakopara-muMbaI) ka cutabhaktino lAbha lIdho e badala khUba khUba dhanyavAda.... li. kamala prakAzana TrasTa A pustaka jJAnakhAtAmAMthI chapAyeluM hovAthI zrAvakoe AnI mAlikI karavI nahIM. ( 1 2

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~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo * mAruM AyakhuM khUTe je ghaDIe... jo dIkarA ! dhyAnathI sAMbhaLa. barAbara sADA cAra kalAka bAda mAruM mRtyu thaze. atyAre cha vAgyA che. tuM eka kAma kara. pelA benane bolAvI lAva ke jemane puNyaprakAzanuM stavana AvaDe che. e mane aMtima ArAdhanA karAvI de." 42 varSanI uMmaranI eka mAe potAnA 12 varSanA nAnakaDA dIkarAne A sUcanA karI. muMbaI operAhAusa pAseno e phaleTa ! rAdhanapuranagarInA e dharmiSTha zrAvikAbena ! 39 varSanI uMmare ja vidhavA thayA. paNa paise Take sukhI hovAthI bIjI koI ciMtA na hatI. e bahenane 42 varSanI uMmare kensara thayuM, upacAro cAlu thayA, cha mahinA pasAra thayA ane eka vahelI savAre cha vAge e bAe potAnA dIkarAne upara mujaba sUcanA karI. dIkaro hato to nAno ! mAtra 12 varSano ! paNa ghaNo samaju, Tharela ! dIkarAne Azcarya cokkasa thayuM ke bAne e khabara kevI rIte paDI ke sADA cAra kalAka bAda mAruM mota che." paNa atyAre enI carcA karavAno avasara na hato. "bA ! ApaNA sagA-vhAlAone bolAvI lauM." dIkaro bolyo. nA ! atyAre jinapUjAno samaya che. ApaNe koIne emAM aMtarAya nathI karavo. vaLI mAre je ArAdhanA karavI che. emAM e badhAnuM Agamana naDatarabhUta bane. tuM e badhAne pachI bolAvaje..." bAe tarata nA pADI. "bhale bA ! paNa puNyaprakAzanuM stavana to mane paNa AvaDe che. te ja mane zIkhavADeluM che. mane badhI ArAdhanA karAvatA AvaDe che. to huM ja tane ArAdhanA karAvI dauM to?" 12 varSano dikaro bolyo. bAe saharSa rajA ApI ane dIkarAe badhI ArAdhanA karAvI. e pachI dIkarAe najIkanA lokone bolAvyA, davA karatA DokTarane paNa bolAvyA. DokTara IMjekzana taiyAra karavA lAgyA paNa bAe kahyuM ke "DokTara sAheba ! Aje tamane enA mATe nathI bolAvyA, Aje tamane mAruM mRtyu jovA bolAvyA che..." bAnA e spaSTa zabdo badhAne acaMbo pamADatA hatA. pathArImAM paDyA paDyA chellI miniTomAM paNa bA keTalA badhA svastha lAgatA hatA ! Aje mArI bhAvanA upavAsa karavAnI hatI, paNa jo huM davA na lauM to mane maraNa vakhate samAdhi TakavI agharI hatI. eTale nAchUTake navakArazInuM paccakakhANa karyuM che, davA lIdhI che. jethI samAdhithI maruM." bAe dIkarAne kahyuM ane pazcAttApanA AMsuoe bAnI AMkhone bhIMjavI nAMkhyA. 10-2pano samaya thayo, bA bolyA "huM mArI rIte navakAra boluM chuM. jo mArI jIbha aTakI paDe to pachI tame badhA navakAra bolavA mAMDajo..." ane khAmo arihaMtApa dhIme chatAM aSToccAra sAthe bAe navakAra bolavAnA zaru karyA...

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-~-~~- 2 vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo -~~- ~ 10-30no samaya thayo ane 'pAmo no savvasAhU' chellA zabdo bolI bAe prANa tyAgI dIdhA. AvuM samAdhimaraNa dIkarAe najaronajara nihALyuM. (Aje e dIkaro 62 varSanI uMmare che, muMbaI govAliyATeka saMghamAM sUryakiraNa epArTImAM rahe che. 21 varSanI vaye mA ane bApa baMnene gumAvyA bAda paNa mAtApitAnA saMskAronI mUDI sAthe dhArmika jIvana pasAra karyuM. nAnI bahenanI javAbadArI nibhAvI dIdhI. dIkSA levAnA bhAva ane prayatno karyA paNa chevaTe dIkSA lIdhA vinA ja saMsAramAM rahI dharmiSTha jIvana pasAra karyuM. uparano prasaMga kahetA kahetA emanI AMkhomAM pANI bAjhI gayA.. prabho ! je paLe ame A deha choDatA hoIe, tyAre amArI pAse Avajo, hitazikSA Apajo, samAdhimaraNanA dAtA banajo.) iccesiM chaNhaM jIvanikAyANaM neva sayaM daMDaM samArambhijjA.... kema mahAtman ! saMthAro nathI karavo? sADA dasa to thaI gayA?' muMbaInA eka parAmAM phaleTamAM 20 sAdhuo utarelA hatA. taddana navuM makAna banatuM hatuM. paNa pahele mALe cAra phaleTo taiyAra hatA, koI rahevA AvyuM na hatuM. saMghano upAzraya nAno hovAthI saMghe A cAra phaleTamAM 20 mahAtmAono utAro rAkhyo hato. tyAM rAtre sADA dasa vAge eka mahAtmAe bIjA sAdhune upara mujaba prazna karyo. basa, saMthAro karavAnI jagyA ja zodhuM chuM." munie javAba vALyo. "are, ATalI badhI jagyA khAlI paDI ja che ne ? dorI paNa bAMdhelI ja che, eTale maccharadAnI nAMkhavAnI paNa sagavaDa che ja. pachI jagyA zodhavAnI kyAM rahI ?' munie vaLato prazna karyo. ApanI vAta sAcI. paNa jUo, bAjunI jhuMpaDapaTTImAM Thera Thera balba cAlu che. e badhAno prakAza pAradarzaka kAcamAMthI A badhI jagyAe Ave che. eTale ujaInI virAdhanA thatI hovAthI ahIM to saMthAro karI nahi zakAya.' jIvadayApremI munie pratyuttara vALyo. prathamamuni bhoMThA paDI gayA. emane upayoga thayo ke "badhethI ujaI Ave che." paNa emaNe navI tapAsa zaru karI. e muni e ja jagyAe nIce besI gayA, pachI joyuM to ujaI dekhAtI na hatI. eTale emaNe pAchI zikhAmaNa ApI ke "juo munivara ! tame ubhA raho to ja ujaI Ave. beThA pachI ujaI nahi Ave. uMdhyA pachI to bilakula nahi Ave. eTale nizcita banIne ahIM saMthAro karo."

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo paNa e jIvadayApremI muninI dRSTi atyaMta sUkSma hatI. emaNe namratApUrvaka javAba Apyo ke "vaDIla munivara ! ApanI vAta sAcI. paNa ahIM to puSkaLa maccharo hovAthI maccharadAnI nAMkhavAnI ja che. huM bhale ADo paDIne uMghI jaIza, paNa maccharadAnI to ubhI ja rahevAnI ne ? globanI ujaI AkhI rAta e maccharadAnI para paDe. ApaNI upadhithI A virAdhanA thAya e to na cAle ne ?" prathamamuni A javAba sAMbhaLI khUba AnaMda pAmyA. jIvadayAnI AvI pariNati nihALIne kone AnaMda na thAya ? aMte e mahAtmAne jagyA na maLI. bIjI je jagyA upara ujaI AvatI na hatI e jagyAmAM dorI bAMdhI zakAya evI zakyatA na hatI. dorI vinA maccharadAnI paNa na baMdhAya ane e vinA AkhI rAta A bharapUra maccharo vacce uMgha kema Ave ? paNa e munirAja mATe saMyamapAlana sAhajika hatuM. ujaI vinAnI jagyAe, maccharadAnI bAMdhyA vinA kapaDo oDhIne saMthArI gayA, paNa virAdhanA calAvI levAno vicAra paNa na karyo. (vaDIdIkSA vakhate ApaNe badhAe caturvidhasaMgha samakSa pratijJA lIdhI che ke 'SaTkAyanI hiMsA huM karIza nahi. karAvIza nahi...' tejasakAyanI virAdhanA na karavI e ApaNI pratijJA che, yAvajjIva e pALavAnI che. bhale ApaNe ujaIno sAkSAta upayoga nahi karatA hoIe, paNa - bArI-bAraNAmAMthI ujaI AvatI hoya, e vakhate tyAMthI pasAra thavuM paDe to kAmaLI paherIne ja pasAra thavAno yatna karIe kharA ? ke pachI eka-be sekanDa mATe e ujaI vaccethI ja pasAra thaI jaIe ? kAmaLI paheravAnuM kaSTa (!) TALIe ? - ApaNuM zarIra to nahi ja, paNa ApaNI udhi paNa ujaImAM na ja hovI joIe... e rItanI kALajI rAkhIe kharA ? ke pachI dAMDo-pyAlo vagere vastuo ujaImAM paNa paDI hoya to cAle ? - phona-pheksa-mobAIla - jherokSa-kampyuTarAdimAM tejasakAyanI virAdhanA che, e to khyAla che ne ? ApaNe A virAdhanA svayaM karavAnI nathI, to bIjA pAse karAvavAnI ya nathI. karanArAnI anumodanA karavAnI nathI... e to ApaNane khabara che ne ? hA ! gADha kAraNa hoya to judI vAta ! paNa nAnI nAnI vAtomAM tejasakAyanI virAdhanA aMge ApaNe upekSAvALA banIe e cAle kharuM ?) 15

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo deva jema nATakamAM kiriyAmAM lInatAne dharatA... dhana te munivarA re.. eka sAdhvIjInA zabdomAM amArA sAdhvIvRMdanA eka sAdhvIjI aNamola ratna samAna che. aNamolaratna eTalA mATe ke emanI AvazyakakriyAo pratye je ruci che. te bhAgye ja jovA maLe che. dIkSA lIdhA bAda emaNe saMkalpa karyo che ke 'mAre savAranuM ane sAMjanuM baMne pratikramaNa sUtra + arthanA upayogapUrvaka karavuM. mAtra sUtrano ja nahi, paNa arthano upayoga paNa rahevo joIe. jo aDadhuM-poNuM pratikramaNa patyA bAda paNa mAro upayoga sUtrArthane badale bIjI koI cIjamAM cAlyo jAya, pratikramaNopayoga tUTe, to mAre AkhuM pratikramaNa pharIthI karavuM.' ApaNe jANIe chIe ke manane A rIte kAbumAM rAkhavuM keTaluM agharuM che, mane to mAro ja anubhava che ke mana sUtramAM ke arthamAM coMTavAne badale bIjA-trIjA vicAromAM caDI ja jAya. khAvA-pIvAmAM ke saMsArIpaNAmAM pIkcaro jovAmAM mana je rIte tallIna thAya che, enA somAM bhAga jeTaluM paNa e kriyAomAM tallIna thatuM nathI. AvI paristhitimAM amArA A sAdhvIjIno saMkalpa ze saphaLa thAya ? paNa emaNe bhAre puruSArtha Adaryo. zarUAtanA varSomAM sUtronA artho ekadama upasthita na hatA, to e mATe emaNe sUtrArthanuM jADuM pustaka vihAramAM sAthe rAkhyuM, uMcakyuM. ame joyuM savA2nuM pratikramaNa karatA emane aDhIthI traNa kalAka thaI jatA. jarAka upayoga jAya, eTale e pAchuM karavA lAgI paDatA. sAMjanuM pratikramaNa traNathI cAra kalAke pUrNa thatuM. paNa enI phariyAda nahi, utAvaLanuM nAma nahi... amArA guruNIe paNa emanI AvI viziSTa ArAdhanA nihALIne emane e rIte ArAdhanA karavAnI rajA ApI. svAbhAvika che ke ATalo badho samaya eka ja pratikramaNamAM jAya, to paDilehaNAdi kAryo kyAre thAya ? paNa emane mATe svAdhyAya gauNa karIne A saMyamayogonI ekAgratAno yoga mukhya karAyo che. emAMthI je samaya maLe, temAM e svAdhyAya kare che. Aje A vAtane varSo thaI gayA che. have to varSonA abhyAsathI upayogapUrvaka pratikramaNa emane mATe sahaja thavA lAgyuM che. pratikramaNa zaru kare eTale ApoApa ja mana emAM coMTI ja jAya. have emaNe pustaka paNa rAkhyuM nathI. (pavana karatA paNa mananI gati vadhAreM che, evuM ApaNe saue sAMbhaLyuM che, ane anubhavyuM che. pavanane rokavo agharo che, to caMcaLatama manane rokavuM to dhoLe dahADe AkAzamAMthI tArA toDI lAvavA jevuM kaparuM kAma che. AnaMdaghanajI kaMI emane ema ja nathI 16

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-~-~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~ lalakAratA ke "mana sAdhyuM, teNe saghaLuM sAdhyuM. enI pAchaLa A gaNita kAma kare ja che. ApaNI jAtane ja pUchIe ke - ApaNuM savAranuM pratikramaNa keTalI vAramAM ? 15-20 miniTamAM ja ? ke 40-50 miniTa lAge ? > e ubhA ubhA, sattarasaMDAsA pUrvaka ? ke beThA - beThA athavA puMjavAdi kriyA vinA ja? > sUtroccAra spaSTa kharA ? ke pachI manamAM ja bolatA hovAthI ghaNA zabdo khavAI jAya ? azuddhi rahe ? - dhAro ke 20 miniTa pratikramaNa karatA thAya, to emAMthI keTalI miniTa sUtrArthamAM upayoga ? kula pAMceka miniTa paNa kharo ? ke eTalo paNa nahi ? - savAre uThavAmAM vilaMba thayo hoya athavA to vihAra hoya ane moDA uThyA hoIe to pratikramaNAdi kriyAmAM paNa ApaNe utAvaLa karavA mAMDIe kharA ? ke ekadama zAMtithI ja kriyA karIe ? > koIka saMyamIo A rIte zAMtithI pratikramaNa karatA hoya, to emane joIne AnaMda thAya? anumodanA karIe ? prazaMsA karIe? ke emane vedIyA, jIdI, kriyAjaDa.. vagere vizeSaNothI mazkarIpAtra banAvIe ? jo zubhakriyAomAM ApaNane ruci na hoya to ApaNe caramAvartI paNa hazuM ke kema? e eka moTo prazna ja rahe che ne ? ApaNuM samyakatva nirmaLa kharuM ke ? "sAhebajI ! mArA pautranA gajabanAka saMskAro joI mane khUba ja AnaMda ane Azcarya thAya che. mAtra poNAcAra varSanI uMmara ! chatAM enI samajaNa bhalabhalAne acaMbo pamADI de tevI !" muMbaI navajIvana jainasaMghanA upAzrayamAM eka dAdAe vaMdana karyA bAda munirAja AgaLa bhAre ullAsa sAthe upara mujaba rajuAta karI. kema? evo koI prasaMga banyo? zuM saMskAro dekhAyA tamane tamArA pautramAM?" munirAje sAme prazna karyo. sAhebajI! banyuM evuM ke amAro Akho parivAra thoDAka divaso pahelA eka zaheramAM koIka prasaMgamAM hAjarI ApavA gayelo. tyAMthI ame najIkamAM AvelA eka tIrthane jovA mATe gayA. e sthAna amane badhAne gamyuM. e sthAnamAM pharatA pharatA ame jyAM eka muni birAjamAna hatA, te holamAM gayA...

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------------vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ------------ ghaNA varSo pUrve emaNe sAdhvAcAra choDI dIdho che. teo plenamAM besI videza paNa jAya che, gADImAM phare che... vagere bAbatano amane khyAla hato. teo cArebAju jainadharmano pracAra kare che, e sAcuM. paNa ApaNI zAsanavyavasthA pramANe e sAdhu tarIke to na ja gaNAya ne? chatAM teo sapheda kapaDA pahere, saMsArIo karatA alaga tarI Ave ane prabhAvazALI lAge eTale holamAM emane joIne ame badhAe sahaja rIte ja hAtha joDI dIdhA. paNa meM joyuM ke mAro pautra muni sAme ane AjubAju Tagara Tagara joyA karato hato... eNe hAtha joDyA na hatA, khamAsamaNuM ApyuM na hatuM. navajIvanasaMghamAM jayAre paNa mahAtmA hoya, tyAre huM mArA pautrane tyAM vaMdana karavA laI jato. eTale ene vaMdananA saMskAra to hatA ja. sAdhune jUe ke tarata hAtha joDavA, namavuM.. e badhuM e enI meLe ja karato thaI gayelo. eTale ja ahIM eNe hAtha na joDyA - namana nA karyu... e joI mane kaMIka vicitra lAgyuM. "beTA ! hAtha joDo, mahArAja sAhebane !" meM ene kahyuM. eNe DokuM dhuNAvI nA pADI, hAtha na joDyA. mAthuM na namAvyuM. A AkhuM dazya pelA muni joI ja rahyA hatA. emaNe mArA pautrane ja pRcchA karI. "kema beTA ! amane hAtha nathI joDato ?" tyAre mArA pautre je javAba Apyo, e sAMbhaLI huM cakita thaI gayo. enAmAM AvI samajaNa kevI rIte AvI ? e mane ja khabara nathI. eNe kahyuM ke "sAdhu bhagavaMto kyAreya paMkho na vApare, amArA saMghamAM koIpaNa sAdhune meM paMkho vAparatA joyA nathI. jyAre tamArA upara to paMkho phare che. to tame sAdhu zI rIte kahevAo? tamane huM hAtha nahi joDuM." ame enA javAbathI hebatAI gayA. mahArAja sAhebane khoTuM lAgaze, evo amane bhaya lAgyo. paNa ma.sAhebe e bALakanI saraLa-spaSTa bhASAno vaLato javAba Apyo ke "beTA ! ahIM to videzIo paNa mane maLavA Ave. teo to ahIMnI garamI sahana na karI zake. teo mATe paMkhA to kamasekama rAkhavA ja paDe..." tarata ja mArA pautre javAba dIdho "paNa atyAre to ahIM ekapaNa videzI hAjara ja nathI. to atyAre A paMkho konA mATe cAlu che? hamaNA to A paMkhAnI jarUra ja nathI ne ?" e muni A sAMbhaLI kaMI na bolyA. ame tyAMthI vidAya lIdhI. sAhebajI ! ame kadI ene AvuM to zIkhavADyuM nathI. chatAM vAraMvAra sAdhuono paricaya - 18

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ene thato hato. kadAca enAthI ja enA manamAM A vicAra dRDha thayo hoya ke "ApaNA sAdhuo paMkho na vApare..." (alabatta e bALakanI samajaNa ghaNI lAMbI ke uMDI nathI. paNa ATalo nAnakaDo prasaMga ApaNane ghaNuM badhuM kahI jAya che. jeo jinAjJAone vaphAdAra rahe, teo sAcA sAdhu ! teo ApaNA mATe vaMdanIya bane. e bAbatamAM koInI zeha-zaramamAM taNAI javuM nahi, dIna banavuM nahi, khumArI gumAvavI nahi. ApaNe devAdhideva zramaNa bhagavAnamahAvIrasvAmInA adakerA sevaka banavAnuM che. bhale kadAca ApaNe pramAdAdinA kAraNe ocho-vatto AcAra pALIe, nabaLuM jIvana paNa jIvIe paNa ApaNuM samyaktva to sphaTika jevuM nirmaLa ja hovuM joIe. ApaNuM mastaka game tyAM name nahi, jinAjJAo pratyeno ApaNo anurAga colamajIThanA raMga jevo hoya. game tevI paristhiti e raMgane na dhoI zake evI ApaNI muThThI uMcerI mahAnatA hovI joIe. ane enuM ApaNane gaurava hovuM joIe. "ApaNA mATe to badhA sAdhuo sarakhA ! ApaNe badhAne vaMdanAdi karavAnA. temanA pApa emane mAthe ! ApaNe zuM ? teo game tevA hoya ApaNe zuM ? ApaNA karatA to teo mahAna ja che ne ? vaLI vaMdana karavAmAM ApaNuM zuM bagaDe che ? ApaNe zuM kAma vaMdanIya-avaMdanIya vagere bheda pADI mana bagADavuM ?" AvA vicAro zuM zAstrAnusArI gaNI zakAya ? zuM saMsAranA kSetre badhI bAbatomAM badhAne sarakhA gaNIe chIe ? koIka hajAma ne DokTara beyane sarakhA gaNI hajAma pAse oparezana ane DokTara pAse mAthuM muMDAvavAnuM kAma karIe chIe kharA ? hA ! vartamAnamAM uttaraguNonI zithilatAne hajI kadAca najaramAM na lAvIe, paNa mUlaguNonA moTA doSo sevanArAo, moTA pApo karIne prAyazcittAdi na karanArAo zuM ApaNA mATe vaMdanIya kharA ? zuM e badhuM jANyA pachI paNa ApaNe e moTA doSa vALAone vaMdana karI zakIe kharA ? alabatta 'paMkhA vApare eTale avaMdanIya ja' evo ekAnta nathI kahevo, paNa A badhI bAbatomAM vivekanI jarUra to kharI ja. jinazAsananI khumArI, jinAjJAnuM bahumAna... A badhuM ApaNe sastA bhAve veMcI to nathI mAryu ne ?) 19

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- ~~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + koIkanA kaTu zabdothI ApaNane khoTuM lAge che kharuM ? bAlamuni eTale bAlamuni ! emane bolavAnuM bhAna na paNa hoya, manamAM pApa na hoya to ya jyAre je manamAM sUjhe te game tema bolI ya nAMkhe. ane ekavAra e grupamAM evuM banyuM paNa kharuM ! 40-45 varSanA dIkSAparyAyavALA, 100 oLInA ArAdhaka, paMnyAsapadavIdhAraka eka mahAtmA pratye e bAla munine koIka kAraNosara gusso bharANo, ane jAheramAM jema tema bolavAnuM zaru karyuM. paMnyAsajI mauna rahI sAMbhaLI ja rahyA. jAheramAM apamAna ! apazabdonI aganavarSA ! paNa jANe ke cakravartInuM kavaca paherI na lIdhuM hoya ema ekeya akSara bolyA vinA, mukharekhA paNa badalyA vinA sahana karI ja rahyA. aMte bAlamuni thAkyA, cUpa thayA. potAnA sthAne besI gayA... aDadho-poNo kalAka gayo ane bAlamuninA peTamAM kukaDekuka thavA lAgyuM. bhUkha lAgI. pote jAte to gocarI vahoravA jatA na hatA. AvaDatuM paNa nahi. ka-samaye gocarI levA javAnuM kone kahe ? bAlamuni bolyA, "mane khUba bhUkha lAgI che." ane bIjI ja paLe paMnyAsajI ubhA thaI gayA, tarapaNI laI "hamaNAM ja gocarI lAvuM chuM hoM ! ciMtA na karatA." ane gocarI levA nIkaLI gayA. thoDIvAramAM ja pAchA pharI khUba vAtsalyathI bAlamunine gocarI vaparAvavA lAgyA. bAlamuni potAnI adhamatA ane paMnyAsajInI mahAnatA spaSTapaNe anubhavI rahyA, gocarI vAparatA vAparatA emanI AMkho bharAI AvI. sagI mAnI jema paMnyAsajIe je heta varasAvyuM, e emanA haiyAne spardhyA vinA kema rahe? gacchanA sau munio A adbhuta prasaMga anubhavIne prasanna banyA. 2020mAM dIkSA lenAra A paMnyAsajI Aje 45 varSano dIrgha paryAya dharAve che. 100 oLInI ArAdhanA karI cUkyA che. - mAMDalInI gocarI laI AvyA bAda potAnI gocarI lAve, ane AMbila kare. rAjasthAnanA vihAramAM ghaNIvAra bAra vAge pahoMcavAnuM thAya to ya mastIthI AMbila kare. ghaNIvAra khIcaDI ane pANIthI paNa calAvI le. > ekavAra 800 AMbila saLaMga karyA, ane e bilakula balavaNa-mIThA vinAnA, aluNA karyA. (mIThA vinAnI rasoI eka divasa vAparavI paNa keTalI kaparI che, e ApaNe jANIe chIe.) - 108 oLI vi.saM. 2043mAM pUrNa karI. e pachI varSItapa zaru karyA. atyAre 18mo varSItapa cAlI rahyo che. - atyAre uMmara 70 varSanI ! tapazcaryA cAlu ! chatAM AkhI mAMDalInI gocarI pote

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-~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~~ ja lakhe. kula ThANA-13 ! koI emanI bhaktimAM bhAga paDAve, sahAya karavA Ave to emane na game. mane ekalAne bhakti karavA do." evo svArthI (!) svabhAva ! vAparanArA jeTalA vadhe, mahemAna sAdhuo vadhe eTalo emano AnaMda AsamAnane AMbe. je emane Thapako Ape, emanI e vizeSathI bhakti kare. "khoTuM lAgavuM eTale zuM?" e kadAca emaNe potAnI jIMdagImAM anubhavyuM nahi hoya. - oghAno pATo bharavo - pAtrA raMgavA - ogho TAMkavo vagere tamAma sAdhujIvananA kAryomAM e pAvaradhA. pU.pAda nItisUrijI samudAyanA AcAryadeva pU. hemaprabhasUrijI ma.nA grupanA A mahAtmA kyAMka maLI jAya to darzana-vaMdanano lAbha cUkazo nahi. (guru Thapako Ape, ne ApaNane khoTuM lAge, gocarI mAMDalImAM vyavasthApaka ApaNane anukULa vastu na Ape to ApaNane khoTuM lAge, zrAvako ApaNA kahyA pramANe na kare, to ApaNane khoTuM lAge... guru pAse ApaNI jAta-jAtanI apekSAo hoya, guru e pUrI na kare to khoTuM lAge... ApaNo svabhAva kevo? vAte vAte khoTuM lAgI jAya, abolA laI laIe, sahavartIo sAme paNa moTuM caDAvIne pharIe, guru sAme paNa bhAre mauna-udAsIna moDhuM rAkhIne emane muMjhAro ubho karAvIe. ahaMkAramAMthI ubho thato A doSa ApaNA mitrone, kalyANamitrone ApaNAthI dUra dhakele che. ApaNe ataDA-krodhI-cIDiyA svabhAvavALA - jIddI banI jaIe chIe. prastuta paMnyAsajIne yAda karIne saMlpa karIe ke "mAre have koIpaNa bAbatanuM khoTuM lagADavuM nathI.") guru mode mAre zabdo jI nA... zuM samajo cho tame tamArA manamAM ? mArI najara sAme poNo kalAkathI pelA chokarA sAthe gappA mAro cho, tamane mAro bhaya paNa nathI ? svAdhyAyane badale AvA dhaMdhA karavA beThA cho ? e bilakula nahi cAle..." muMbaI prArthanAsamAjanA upAzrayamAM banelo A prasaMga ! - gurue potAnA yuvAna ziSyane sakhata Thapako Apyo. rAtre pratikramaNa bAda ziSyane koIka chokarA sAthe vAto karato joI, najara sAme ja poNo kalAka sudhI e vAtacIta thatI dUrathI joIne gurune khUba dukha thayuM. svAdhyAyane badale A rIte gappA mAravAnI pravRtti potAnA ziSyo kare e emane bilakula

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-~ ~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo pasaMda na hatuM. eTale ja e ziSyane tyAre ne tyAre ja pAse bolAvIne sakhata Thapako Apyo. ghaNAnI vacce, pelA chokarAnI sAme A rIte potAnuM apamAna thavA chatAM paNa ziSya kazo pratIkAra na karyo. gurunA pagamAM paDIne mAtra eTalI ja vAta karI ke, "mArI bhUla thaI, gurudeva! have kALajI rAkhIza. paNa Apa mane avazya kahejo... Apa kahezo to ja mAruM hita thaze..." ziSya gayA bAda gurue pelA chokarAne prazna karyo ke "zuM vAtacIta cAlatI hatI ?" e chokaro varSo pUrve A ja guru pAse dIkSA mATe tAlIma levA Avelo, paNa tAlIma agharI paDatA dIkSAno vicAra mAMDI vALelo. eNe vAta karI ke "sAhebajI ! Aje ghaNA varSo bAda pharI dIkSAnI IcchA pragaTI che. mAre ApanI pAse ja dIkSA levI che. eTale Apane maLavA Avelo, ApazrI kAmamAM hatA, eTale ApanA ziSya mArA saMsArI mitra hovAthI, mumukSupaNAmAM sAthe rahyA hovAthI emanI pAse beThelo. meM mArI bhAvanA vyakta karI eTale emaNe mane dIkSAno mahimA, dIkSAno AnaMda, ApanA dvArA levAtI kALajI... vagere vAto karI, mArA bhAvane vadhAravA mATe khUba ja suMdara vAto karI..." gurune khyAla AvI gayo ke meM bhUla karI che. ziSya gappA nathI mAryA, ziSya gurunA guNo gAyA che, eka mumukSunI bhAvanAne vadhAravAnuM kAma karyuM che. meM to khulAsA vinA ja ene khakhaDAvI nAMkhyo. A to enI khAnadAnI ke eNe potAnI sAcI vAtano paNa khulAso na karyo ne mAro Thapako saharSa jhIlI lIdho. jAheramAM thayeluM apamAna gaLI gayo. gurue e ziSyane pAcho bolAvI, enI khUba ja prazaMsA karI, enI sahiSNutA aMge pITha thAbaDI. (nAnakaDA A prasaMgamAMthI ghaNuM badhuM zIkhavA maLe che. > koIpaNa vastunI pAkI tapAsa karyA vinA jhaTa koI nirNaya laI levo nahi. kyAreka najara sAme dekhAtI vastu paNa kaMIka judI ja hoI zake che. > vaDIlajano khoTo Thapako Ape, to paNa saharSa ene sahI levo... khulAsAo dvArA jAtane nirdoSa sAbita karavAno prayatna na karavo, vaDIlajano pratye asabhAva na karavo.... e khAnadAna ziSyanA lakSaNo che. > ApaNI bhUla samajAI jAya to nAnA pAse paNa mAphI mAMgatA lezapaNa zarama na rAkhavI, kSamA mAMgavAmAM haMmezA AgaLa rahevuM. - AnaMdaghanajInI eka paMkti guru mode mAre zo vazI nADI, vene vaNI mati parathanI nAvI . ziSyanA manamAM utpanna thayelo azubhabhAva gadheDo che, guru ene zabdo rUpI lAkaDI mAre eTale e gadheDo tyAMthI bhAgI gayA vinA na rahe....).

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + e mAta-tAtane dhanya che... "sAhebajI ! gocarIno lAbha Apo neamArI pAse nAsto che." nA, e amArAthI na vahorAya, tame cheka muMbaIthI amArA mATe - tamArA dIkarA mahArAja mATe lAvyA cho, eTale amane doSa lAge." nA jI ! sAhebajI ! amAre to pAlitANA javAnuM ja che, e mATe ja A nAsto sAthe rAkhyo che. zrAvikAne tabiyatanA hisAbe bahAranuM bilakula khAvAnuM nathI, eTale nAsto sAthe rAkhavo ja paDe. Ama paNa moTI musApharImAM AvuM to kAyama sAthe rAkhIe ja chIe. eTale Apa thoDo ghaNo lAbha Apo." amadAvAda memanagara upAzrayamAM muMbaIthI AvelA mA-bApa ane vaDIla sAdhu vacce rakajhaka cAlatI hatI. mA-bApanA putra muni tyAM hAjara hatA. nirdoSa lAgavAthI vaDIle atyaMta alpa lAbha to Apyo. paNa sAthe sAthe kahyuM paNa kharuM ke "amArA gurudeva A bAbatamAM kaDaka che. bhaktone lAbha ApavA mATe bilakula taiyAra nathI. mane to bAdhA ApI che ke jo svajanAdie lAveluM vAparavAnuM thAya, to bIjA divase upavAsa karavAno. Aja sudhI ekapaNa upavAsa karavo paDyo nathI." khUba ja AnaMda thayo ApanI vAta sAMbhaLIne !" bolatA bolatA pitAno svara bhIno thaI gayo. "sAhebajI ! kharI vAta kahuM? mane paNa A ja game che. mArA dIkarAne nava varSa thayA dIkSA lIdhAne ! pUcho emane ! ekapaNa vAra ame emane mATe vastu lAvyA chIe kharA ? mArA dIkarAnuM cAritra nirmaLa rahevuM ja joIe, emAM DAghA lAge e mane pasaMda nathI. huM to mAnuM chuM ke jene khAvA-pIvAnA caTakA na hoya e ja sAco sAdhu banI zake. mArA jevAne to khAvA-pIvAnI bAbatamAM puSkaLa cenacALA che, mATe ja to huM dIkSA leto nathI. sAhebajI ! dIkSA bAda nava varSamAM mArA dIkarA mahArAje ekapaNa patra ghare lakhyo nathI, ekapaNa phona karAvyo nathI... eno mane khUba ja AnaMda che. mAro dIkaro chelle sudhI Avo ja saMyamI rahe, evI mArI aMtarathI bhAvanA che. mahArAja sAheba !" mA vacce bolI "meM upAzrayomAM mobAIlamAM pAvara bharAtA joyA che, ne ghaNuM joyuM che. (bAjumAM ja beThelA dIkarA mahArAjane uddezIne) tame kyAreya A badhAmAM paDatA nahi, tamAre bhagavAnanI AjJAne vaLagIne rahevAnuM che. amArA eka sagapaNamAM sAdhvIjI ma. che. ame tyAM paNa vaMdanAdi mATe jaIe chIe, paNa Aja sudhI ame ekapaNa vAra gocarI laI gayA nathI, bIjA badhA svajano gocarI laI jAya che, paNa amane A gamatuM nathI." 2 3

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-~~~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ------------ te marI gayA hoya, tevo anubhava che. vaLI ghaDAmAM to pANI jhare, e badhuM pANI nakAmuM jAya... dareka TIpAmAM asaMkhyajIvonI virAdhanA che. tathA ghaDAnA ThaMDA pANImAM Asakti thAya, pachI zIta na maLe to saMkaleza thAya... eTale zAstrIyamArga pramANe ame tuMbaDu ke loTa ja vAparIe chIe. prazna : meM joyuM ke tame tamArI jagyAe pANI nAMkhIne luMchaNiyuM pheravI nAMkhyuM... AvuM zA mATe ? uttara H ApaNI jagyAe ApaNA mATe mANaso kacarA-potA kare emAM to puSkaLa virAdhanA thAya. e jayaNA sAcavavAno nathI eTale kIDI vagerenI hiMsA thAya. potuM karavA mATe Dola bharIne pANI bagADe, e badhuM game tyAM nAMkhe.. A badhAmAM cikkAra virAdhanA thavAnI ja. jo ukALelA pANIthI potuM kare to eTaluM pANI vadhAre ukALavuM paDe... e badhuM ja ApaNA mATe ukaLe... bApa re ! emAM SakAyanI virAdhanA... eTale ja chellA be comAsA daramyAna ame upAzrayamAM potuM karAvatA ja nathI. emAMya amArI jagyAe to nahi ja. kAjo barAbara kADhyA bAda pAMca-sAta divase cUnAnA pANIthI ame jAte ja potuM karI laIe. e vakhate upAzrayano daravAjo baMdha rAkhIe, jethI koI zrAvaka jue nahi, ane eTale ene ajugatuM na lAge. Ama kacarA-potAnI virAdhanAthI to ame bacI ja gayA chIe. Ama to ghaNuM nathI pALatA, chatAM jeTaluM paLAya eTaluM to pALIe. prazna : meM eka vAta dhyAnamAM lIdhI ke atyAre bhayaMkara garamI hovA chatAM tame pAMgaraNI kAyama paherI ja rAkho cho. ame badhA to pAMgaraNI vinA paNa besIe, koI zrAvako vagere Ave to pAMgaraNI paherI laIe. bAkI khullA zarIre besavuM vadhAre game. garamI keTalI che !... uttara : tame tamArI dRSTie sAcA hazo, paNa huM eka moTA grupamAM gayelo, tyAMnA vidvAna mahAtmAe e grupamAM pAMgaraNI avazya paheravAno Adeza karelo. meM jyAre prazna karyo tyAre mane kahe ke - pAMgaraNI eTale chaThuM mahAvrata ame mAnIe chIe. khullI chAtIe kadI besavuM nahi. acAnaka koI zrAvakAdi AvI caDe ane ApaNe tyAre pAMgaraNI paheravA jaIe, paNa e pUrve to emaNe ApaNane khullI chAtIvALA joyA ja hoya.. e kyAreka kharAba paNa lAge. vaLI paraspara sAdhuo paNa ekabIjAnA khullA zarIrane na jue, e vadhu sAruM. kALa paDato che. eTale ame A nirNaya lIdho che. mane emanI vAta gamI gaI, tyArathI meM mArA grupamAM A niyama banAvI dIdho che ke game eTalI garamI hoya, koI hAjara hoya ke na hoya paNa pAMgaraNI paherIne ja rAkhavAnI. (chAtIpeTa vagere uparano bhAga DhAMkavAnuM vastra e pAMgaraNI..)

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-~-~~- ? vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ------- prazna : tamArAmAM A gharaDA mahArAjane kriyAmAM bahuvAra lAge che, kema ? uttara : e khUba ArAdhaka che. dareka sUtro arthaciMtana sahita bolavAmAM emane khUba AnaMda Ave che. tame mAnazo? emane savAranuM pratikramaNa karatA doDhathI poNA be kalAka thAya. sAMjanA pratikramaNamAM jo sUtro jhaDapathI bolAya, to emane na game. ame paNa emane kahI dIdhuM che ke "tamAre A ArAdhanA barAbara karavI, chellA varSomAM karAyelI A ArAdhanA khUba lAbhadAyI banaze. kazI utAvaLa na karavI." amAre sADApAMcano vihAra hoya to traNa-sADA traNa vAge emane uThADI devA paDe. to ja e samayasara taiyAra thAya. ame paNa emanI ArAdhanAmAM kyAreya utAvaLa karAvatA nathI... Akhare ApaNe kyAM koI gADI pakaDavAnI che... saMyama ja pALavAnuM che ne ? praznaH meM joyuM ke, pelA loko vahorAvavA mATe ATalI badhI sAmagrI lAvyA hatA, temAMthI tame kazuM vahoryuM, ane pachI pelA bhAI pAse kApaDano tAko maMgAvyo. ema kema ? te ja kApaDa, pelA loko paNa lAvelA.. uttara : ApaNe krata-abhyAhata doSayukta kApaDa vahoravuM to paDe ja che. paNa je loko ATalI badhI sAmagrI laIne vahorAvavA nIkaLe che, teo (1) kApaDanI kharIdI karavA paNa Special gADI laIne jatAM AvatAM hoya te zakya che. (2) ATalI badhI sAmagrI kharIdIne ApaNane vahorAvavA mATe rAkhI mUke, te sthApanA doSa (3) gADI laIne vahorAvavAnA uddezathI ja nIkaLe, te virAdhanA badhI ApaNane lAge, jo ApaNe temAMthI vahorIe to ! meM je bhAIne kApaDa lAvavAnuM kahyuM, tenI potAnI ophisa kApaDa bajAramAM ja che. eTale ApaNA nimitte tyAM levA nahIM jAya. vaLI te roja ahIM darzanAdi mATe Ave che, eTale ApaNane vahorAvavA khAsa nahIM Ave eTale virAdhanA ghaNI ghaTI jAya... sthApanA paNa na lAge. eTale temanI pAse maMgAvyuM. meM to nakkI ja karyuM che ke gADI laIne vahorAvavA AvanArA pAsethI kadI kazuM na vahoravuM. prazna : tame A gocarInI jhoLImAM sAbu kema lAvyA ? uttaraH sAbunI goTI ke pAvaDara ApaNe zrAvaka pAse maMgAvIe to krata-abhyAhata doSo lAge, te vAhana (skUTara vi.) laIne levA jAya to cikkAra virAdhanA thAya eTale jyAre sAbuno khapa hoya tyAre, gocarI samaye gharomAMthI yAcanA karIne laI AvIe chIe - je bilakula nirdoSa maLe. pAvaDarano khapa hoya to nAnakaDI DabbI laI jaIe ane gharomAMthI bharI AvIe. cAturmAsa pUrve paNa 8-10 divasa roja e rIte karIe, eTale comAsA mATeno sAbu bhego thaI jAya. bilakula nirdoSa !

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo prazna H tame ATalA badhA patro lakho cho, to peDa kema nathI rAkhatA ? AvA raddI jevA kAgaLo para kema lakho cho ? uttara H peDa maMgAvavAmAM paNa krIta/abhyAhata doSo che. tenA karatAM, skUla/kolejomAM bhaNatAM chokarAonuM varSa pUruM thAya, tyAre noTomAM vadhelA je kAgaLo hoya, te ja maMgAvI lauM chuM. jo ke temAM paNa abhyAhata doSa che, paNa je zrAvaka vaMdanAdi mATe AvatAM ja hoya, tenI pAse ja maMgAvuM chuM. eTale te doSa bahu alpa lAge. (aSTaka TIkAkAranA mate na ja lAge.) jeTaluM bacI zakAya teTaluM bacavuM, te ja jayaNA che ne ! ane temAM ja pariNati Take che ! A rIte taiyAra maLatAM tarapaNInA dorAmAM AdhAkarmI doSa... banAvavAmAM mAtra krIta/abhyAhata... ghaDiyALane mAtra rAtre cAle teTalI ja cAvI ApavI - divase to upAzrayanI ghaDiyALa dekhAya kAma cAlI jAya... (alabatta, ApaNe vadhAre buddhimAna ane sudhArAvAdI hoIe to A badhA uttaro ApaNane jaDatA bharelA ya lAge... paNa saMyamakhapI AtmAo to A vAto sAMbhaLIne avazya AnaMda ja pAme. moTA tapa, moTA vihAro, vyAkhyAno... A badhuM agatyanuM kharuM, paNa enA karatA ya sUkSmaprajJAne kAme lagADIne jhINI jhINI bAbatomAM ya SaTkAyanI yatanA karavI, SaT mahAvratanI ArAdhanA karavI e mahAna dharma che. aSTakakAre bahu ja spaSTa zabdomAM kahyuM che ke sadA mATe dharma sUkSmabuddhithI jANavo. sthUlabuddhithI karAto dharma kharekhara to dharmanAzaka ja banI raheze.... ApaNe ApaNI skUla bAhmakriyAomAM ja to dharma mAnI nathI beThA ne ?) mahApuruSonI muThThI uMcerI mahAnatA prAyaH vikrama saMvata 2029nI sAlanI A vAta che. te vakhate saMvatsarIparvanI ArAdhanA judA judA divasomAM AvatI hatI. betithipakSanI saMvatsarI somavAre ane ekatithipakSanI saMvatsarI maMgaLavAre ! e jamAnAmAM tithino prazna saLagatA aMgArA jevo ! eTale badhAne gabharATa to hato ja. muMbaInA eka nAnakaDA saMghanA mukhya TrasTIe betithipakSanA mukhya AcArya bhagavaMtane vinaMti karI ke "AkhuM comAsuM sAdhu ApI zako, to sAruM. amAre ArAdhanA thAya." mukhya AcArya bhagavaMte eka paMnyAsajI sahita traNeka sAdhuo ApavAnI vAta maMjura karI lIdhI. 27

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo divaso vItatA gayA ne pajusaNane ekAda mahinAnI vAra haze, tyAre saMghanA keTalAka zrAvakoe mukhya TrasTIne vinaMti karI ke "ApaNA saMghamAM pajusaNanI ArAdhanA betithipakSanA sAdhuo karAvavAnA che. e bhale karAve, paNa ame badhA ekatithi pramANe ArAdhanA karanArA chIe. amArI saMvatsarI maMgaLavAre Ave che, to tamArI somavAranI ArAdhanA patI gayA bAda maMgaLavAre ame ekatithipakSanA sAdhuone bolAvIne emanI nizrAmAM saMvatsarInI ArAdhanA karI zakIe kharA ?" | mukhya TrasTIe sahajabhAve kahyuM ke "hA ! emAM mane to koI ja vAMdho nathI. tame paNa saMghanA sabhya ja cho ne? khuzIthI thaI zake. mAtra ame je sAdhuone cAturmAsa mATe lAvyA chIe, emane pUchI levuM paDe. e ApaNA mahemAna che. emanI rajA vinA koI nirNaya na levAya. paNa mane lAge che ke e nA nahi pADe. tame sAthe ja cAlone ? ApaNe bhegA maLIne vAta karIe." ArAdhakabhAIo sAthe mukhya TrasTI upAzrayamAM cAturmAsa birAjamAna paMnyAsajI pAse AvyA ane kahyuM ke "A loko somavAre ApaNI saMvatsarI patI gayA bAda maMgaLavAre ekatithivALA sAdhuone bolAvI lAve, temanI nizrAmAM ArAdhanA kare to vAMdho nathI ne ?" paMnyAsajI kahe ke "amane koI vAMdho nathI, paNa A viSayamAM to amArA mukhya AcAryanI ja rajA levI paDe ne ? ame emanI AjJAthI ja AvyA chIe ne ? teo jema kaheze, tema karazuM..." mukhya TrasTIne A vAta vyAjabI lAgI, nAnA sAdhuo to mukhya AcAryanA kahyA pramANe ja kare e svAbhAvika che. emaNe ArAdhakone kahyuM ke "tame mArI sAthe cAlo, ApaNe mukhya AcArya bhagavaMta pAse jaIe. tyAM rajuAta karIe." paNa game te kAraNosara ArAdhakoe sAthe AvavAnI taiyArI na batAvI. mukhya TrasTI ekalA ja keTalAka divasa bAda mukhya AcArya pAse vinaMti karavA gayA, badhI rajuAta karI. e vakhate be tithipakSanA mukhya AcArya bhagavaMte je zabdo uccAryA, mukhya TrasTIe kAnokAna sAMbhaLyA, mukhya TrasTIe amane e zabdo kahyA te A pramANe - "juo, ekatithipakSanA ArAdhako maMgaLavAre emanI saMvatsarInA divase ekatithi pakSanA sAdhuone lAvavA IcchatA hoya to khuzIthI lAve. mArA sAdhuo emAM kyAMya ADakhIlI ubhI nahi kare. eTaluM ja nahi. jo kadAca maMgaLavAre emane ekatithipakSanA sAdhuo na ja maLe ane teo Icchaze to mArA sAdhuo emane maMgaLavAre paNa bArasAsUtra saMbhaLAvaze ane maMgaLavAre paNa saMvatsarI pratikramaNanI ArAdhanA karAvaze. jAo, emane jaIne kahI do ke jarAya ciMtA na kare..."

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo mukhya TrasTI to Azcarya sAthe AnaMda paNa pAmyA. A udAratA tyAM sudhI vistarI ke "saMghanA derAsa2nI bahAra be borDe mukavA, emAM eka-eka borDa upara kramazaH somavAra ane maMgaLavAranI saMvatsarInI ArAdhanAnI vigato lakhavI. tathA lakhavuM ke "jeo je divase ArAdhanA karavA mAMge, te divase ArAdhanA karI zakaze." Avo nirNaya paNa chelle levAyo. (e mukhya TrasTI hAla ekatithipakSanA ArAdhaka che. chatAM Aje e spaSTa zabdomAM kahe che ke "ApaNe koInA paNa pratye pUrvagraha bAMdhI na devo. mukhya AcArya bhagavaMtanI uccakoTinI udAratA meM kAnokAna sAMbhaLI che. huM AjepaNa ArAdhanA ekatithipakSanI karuM chuM. paNa koIpaNa pratye dveSa-aruci-tiraskAra rAkhato nathI. sAhebajI ! ghaNIvAra to vaccenAo ja mIThuM-maracuM bhabharAvIne badhuM bagADatA hoya che. mukhya vyaktio nirdoSa hoya, to ya A vaccenI vyaktio dvArA teone kalaMka lAgatA hoya che. zuM thAya ?" paNa A udArabhAvanA jo badhA keLavI letA thaI jAya to keTaluM sarasa !) AjJAdhanaM sarvadhana - pradhAnam eka munirAjanI preraka satyaghaTanA "IcchakArI bhagavan ! pasAya karI paccakkhANano Adeza dezo jI. tIrthAdhirAjanI pAvanabhUmi... bhaktonI bhIDathI ubharAtI taleTInI nikaTano pradeza... prabhAtano samaya... lagabhaga 55 varSanI vayanA eka munirAja prAbhAtika pratikramaNa pratilekhana - sajjhAyAdi kriyAothI nivRtta thaIne potAnA gurudeva pAse upasthita thayA ane vaMdanAdi vidhi karIne temaNe uparokta Adeza mAMgyo. hA, e munirAja tapamAM AgaLa hatA. 'tapasvI'nA upanAmathI potAnA vRMdamAM teo oLakhAtA paNa jarUra hatA. paNa jyAre A Adeza teo mAMgI rahyA hatA tyAre te divase teo koI viziSTa pratyAkhyAnanI nahi paNa mAtrane mAtra sAmAnya (biyAsaNa-ekAzanAdi) pratyAkhyAnanI dhAraNAthI ja potAnA gurudeva samakSa upasthita thayA hatA. "zenuM pratyAkhyAna karazo ?" gItArtha gurudeve prazna karyo. > "gurudeva ! Apa je Apo te pramANa." vinayAvanata mastake e munie uttara Apyo. ane... gurudevanA mukhethI sarasvatI vahI nIkaLI... sUre uggae abhattaDhuM aArasabhanaM paccakkhAI..." 29

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---------------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~~ ziSyanI lAyakAtane jANanArA gurudeve sIdhuM ja aDhAInuM paccakhkhANa ApI dIdhuM. ne pelA vinayI munie tene hasate mukhe svIkArI lIdhuM. khyAla rahe ke dhAraNA vihAramAM 20 ki.mI.nI hoya ne e vihAra pUrA 20 ki.mI.no nIkaLe tyAre e karI javo AsAna che. paNa 12 ki.mI.nA vihAranI dhAraNA hoya ne sthAna e vihArathI cAra-pAMca ki.mI. vadhu dUrI para nIkaLe tyAre e vadhArAno vihAra pUrNa karatA - karatAM ApaNuM mana kadAca kadame-kadama ucATano anubhava karavA lAge che. ema ja kadAca ekAsaNa athavA to AyaMbilanA pratyAkhyAnanI apekSAthI joDAyelo hAtha sIdhA ja aThThAI tapane to svIkArI zuM zake ? eya vaLI mukha para jarA ya viSAda, udveganI rekhA dekhADyA vinA ne umaLakAbhera... alabatta, A munirAje e karI dekhADyuM. jo ke prasaMga kAMI ATalethI na aTakato nathI. pAraNAno divasa Avyo tyAre e munirAja pharI gurudeva pAse gayA. paccakhkhANa mAMgyuM ne e divase e gItArtha gurudeve navakArazI ke biyAsaNuM nahi, balka AyaMbilanuM paccakhkhANa uccarAvyuM. vaLI bIje divase AvyA. paccakhkhANa mAMgyuM. ne gurudeve vaLI aThThAInA paccakhANa karAvyA. pAraNAnAM divase pAchuM AyaMbilanuM paccakhkhANa ne bIje divase vaLI e ja upakrama - trIjI aThThAInA pratyAkhyAna. pelA munirAja hasate mukhe pratyAkhyAna svIkAre jatA hatA ne pelA prabhAvaka gurudeva jANe emanI lAyakAtanI agniparIkSA karI rahyA hatA. trIjI aThThAInuM pAraNuM AvyuM. vaLI AyaMbila ane upara aDhAInA paccakkhANano e ja silasilo cAlyo. je lakSyanI maryAdA sunizcita hoya ene to hajI hAMsala karavuM saheluM banI jAya. bhale ne pachI kadAca e thoDuM vadhu dUra kema na hoya ! paNa jenI maryAdA - aMta ja khabara na hoya evA lakSyane prApta karavuM to kharekhara muzkela ja bane. A agniparIkSAno aMta kyAre Avaze tenI jANa A munirAjane aMze ya nahotI paNa emaNe to jANe e parIkSAmAM so TakA saphaLa thavAnI Teka ja lIdhI hatI ane eTale ja potAnI apekSA bahAranA ATalA kaThina pratyAkhyAnanuM pAlana paNa teo ullAsathI karI rahyA hatA. A upakrama saLaMga cAra vakhata cAlyo. cAra aThThAI ane traNa AyaMbilanA pratyAkhyAna thaI cUkyA hatA. cothI aThThAInA pAraNe vaLI e munirAja paccaSmANa mATe AvyA tyAre e kaThinaparIkSAno aMta lAvatA gurudeve temane biyAsaNAnuM paccakhkhANa ApyuM. te samaye pelA gurudevanI AMkho potAnI agni parIkSAmAM savAyA saphaLa thayelA potAnA

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo vinayI munine nihALI harSathI bhInI banI, to e vinayI ne tapasvI muninA nayano paNa potAnA gurudevanA dareka vacanone sAdara svIkRta karIne sAkAra karyAnA AnaMdathI ubharAI uThyA. e tapasvI munirAja, eTale .! ane e prabhAvaka gItArtha gurudeva eTale pUjyapAda yugadivAkara AcAryadeva zrImadvijayadharmasUrIzvarajI mahArAja. A munirAjanI anya paNa keTalIka vizeSatAone nIhALI laIe x vaya vadhavA chatAMya A bhoLA-bhadrika munirAja bhAvanAmAM satata AgaLa rahetA. * mahAnizItha AgamasUtrayogamAM dareka (bAvana) AyaMbila mAtra eka ja dravya (tuveranI dALa) dvArA karyA hatA. * koI vizeSa tapa na cAlato hoya tyAre vardhamAnatapanI oLIo karatA rahetA. zarIre sAtha Apyo tyAM sudhImAM 68 vardhamAnatapanI oLIo karI. * tapamAM AgaLa rahetA A munibhagavaMta zramaNonI vaiyAvaccamAM ya agresara rahetA.* gocarImAM ya A munirAja sArA khapI banI rahetA. kyAreka mahAtmAone gocarI vadhu pramANamAM vadhI jAya to e badhI ja gocarI pote khapAvavA laI letA. ne pachI bIje ja divasathI chaTTha-AThama AdinA paccakkhANa karI letA. * ghaNIvAra ekAzanAdi mAtra payasa, caTikA vagere eka-eka dravyathI karI letA. * pratidina potAnI gocarI lAvIne sAthenA mahAtmAone teno lAbha ApavA bhAvabharI vinaMti karatA. sAthenA mahAtmAo kyAreka badhI ja gocarIno lAbha Ape to khUba AnaMda anubhavatA, to kyAreka mahAtmAo jarA paNa lAbha na Ape to e gocarI svayaM khapAvavAnI ya taiyArI rAkhatA. * vi.saM. 2049mAM amadAvAda mukAme badhI ja ArAdhanAonA saravaiyAM rUpe samAdhimRtyune pAmyA hatA. je acala che. dIkSAparyAya 26 varSa ! uMmara 82 varSa ! eTale ke 56 varSanI moTI uMmare dIkSA ! chatAM emaNe karelI ArAdhanA tarapha jarAka najara to karIe. * kula 27 mAsakSamaNa karyA che. jemAM 56, 60, 61 upavAsanI paNa ArAdhanA karI che. * 95mI oLI cAlu che. * 89mI oLImAM chelle 7 divasa bAkI hatA, ane mAsakSamaNa zaru karyu, mAsakSamaNanA pAraNe 90mI oLI cAlu ja rAkhI. chellA trIsa divasa bAkI hatA, tyAre pharI mAsakSamaNa karI pAraNuM karyuM. 31

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------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo-~~-~* 4 varSamAM 20 sthAnakanI saMpUrNa ArAdhanA pUrNa karI. (eTale ke cAra varSamAM 400 upavAsa...) * e ja divase banAvelI mIThAI vAparavAnI chUTa ! bAkI badhI mIThAI baMdha ! * tamAma mAsakSamaNanA pAraNA prAyaH oLIthI ja karyA che. ATalI moTI uMmaramAM paNa je potAnI ArAdhanAmAM acala = aDaga = sthira che, temane joIne ApaNA jevA saMyamIoe kaMIka bodhapATha meLavo jarUrI nathI lAgato zuM ? eka TuMko patra viratidUta mATe yogya jaNAya to levuM. mArA jIvanamAM mArA pUjya guru mAe mane vaiyAvacca yogamAM taiyAra karyo, te teozrIno mArA upara mahAna upakAra che. meM pUjayonI asIma kRpAthI ghaNA ghaNA sAdhu mahAtmAonI sevAbhaktino lAbha lIdho che, A mAro atigamato yoga che. Aje mArA jIvanamAM je kAMI sAru che, te AvA glAna munione ApelI samAdhithI mane prApta thayelA emanA AziSano prabhAva che, evuM mane ghaNIvAra lAge che. mArA jIvanamAM eka nAnakaDo prasaMga banelo. huM eka vaDIla, glAna sAdhunI sevAmAM hato. huM sArAmAM sArI sevA karato. chatAM pelA glAna sAdhu svabhAvanA thoDAka tIkhA ! jarAka bhUla thAya, eTale gusse thaI jema tema bole. meM trAsI jaIne ekavAra mArA gurujIne phariyAda karI. gurujI ! ATalI sArI vaiyAvacca karuM chuM, chatAM enuM phaLa A ?...." "jo...! ApaNe lAbha levo hoya, kamANI karavI hoya to badhuM sahana karavuM paDe. gALo paNa khAvI paDe ane mAra paNa khAvo paDe, to ja sAcI kamANI thAya. "glAna sAdhu mane vaiyAvaccano lAbha ApIne mArA upara upakAra kare che." evuM lAgaze to ja sAcI vaiyAvacca-bhakti thaze." pUjya gurujIe mane hitazikSA ApI, ane kharekhara e pachI mArI badhI ja phariyAda baMdha thaI gaI ane Aje to vaiyAvaccAdi karavAmAM ghaNo ja ullAsa-AnaMda Ave che. glAnasevAnA kAraNe mAro je kSayopazama maMda hato, te paNa tIvra thayo che. AMtarika ughADaprabhubhakti-vaDIlasamarpaNa vageremAM paNa ghaNo ja lAbha thayo che. mane kamaranA maNakAnI takalIpha hatI, eTale mAre to cAlavAnuM paNa baMdha thaI gayeluM. 3 2

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~~~~~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo -------------- paNa vaiyAvaccodinA prabhAve e paNa sAruM thayuM. Aje 25/30 ki.mI.no vihAra paNa nirvine thAya che. nAma lakhato nathI, kSamApanA. | (sIdhI-sAdI bhASAmAM, suMdara majhAnA zabdomAM lakhAyelo A eka patra ghaNuM ghaNuM kahI jAya che. vRddhonI - vaDIlonI - glAna sAdhuonI sevA-bhakti-vaiyAvacca pratyeka saMyamInI aMgata pharaja che... e vaiyAvacca ja mohanIyakarmano bhukko bolAvI deze... ApaNe mukhyatve to mohanAzanI ja sAdhanA karavAnI che ne !) tararayAo mATe paraba kholIe. (eka munirAjano Avelo patra.). mahA vada-10 godharA. (A patra lakhyAnI tArIkha che.) keTalAya sarasa anubhavo vihAra daramyAna thaI rahyA che. ame ema.pI.mAM baDanagaramAM pravezI rahyA hatA. savArano 17 ki.mI.no vihAra ! ThaMDaka hovAthI ajavALAmAM ja vihAra.. ane bapore sADA dasa vAge eka bhAI potAnI gADImAM goDAuna para jaI rahyA hatA. amane baMnene joIne Azcaryacakti banI gayA. emane Azcarya eTaluM ja ke "sAdhu bhagavaMto AvavAnI koI pUrva sUcanA to maLI nathI." ane acAnaka emaNe tarata gADI pAchI vALI. "maFeNa vaMdAmi' kahI nIce utaryA, "padhAro, padhAro sAhebajI' kahIne amane khUba ja umaLakA sAthe derAsara-upAzraya batADyA. cAlo, Aje Apane gocarI mATenA gharo paNa batADuM" ane mArI sAthe aDadho kalAka pharIne badhA gharo batAvyA. meM vacce kahyuM paNa kharuM ke "tame to gADImAM kyAMka bahAra jatA hatA ne? tamane moDuM to nahi thAya ne ?" paNa smita sAthe eka ja javAba Apyo "Ame ya ghaNuM moDuM thayuM ja che. phikara nahi." bapore badhuM kAmakAja pUchI karIne gayA. rAtre e bhAI maLavA AvyA. "maFeNa vaMdAmi ! sAhebajI, besI zakuM chuM?" "hA, hA ! besAze."

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo eka prazna pUchuM? ahIM je paNa Ave che, e pahelethI samAcAra mokalI de che, ke ame A divase ATalA ThANA AvavAnA chIe... ane e yogya paNa che. upAzraya-pANI vagere taiyAra rAkhavAnI khabara paDe ne ! to Apa kema kazuM kahevaDAvyA vinA AvyA ?" "amAre muMbaI pahoMcavAnuM che, pUjya gurubhagavaMta pAse ! teozrIe amane jaNAvyuM che ke kyAMya sUcanA ApavI nahi ke kAryakrama nizcita karavo nahi. kAraNa ke rastAmAM AvatA gAmozaheromAM saMghonI lAgaNI, bhAvanA hoya to kyAMka ekanA be-traNa divasa paNa rokAI javuM jarUrI bane. jo pahelethI sUcanA ke nizcita kAryakrama AgaLanA sthAnomAM ApI dIdho hoya, to vaccenA pyAsA kSetromAM rahI na zakAya. A ja kAraNasara koI kAryakrama paNa chapAvatA nathI." "to haveno progrAma zuM che ?" "koI progrAma nathI. basa, AvatI kAle vihAra karazuM." "e bilakula nahi cAle." bolatA bolatA bhAIno svara bhIno banI gayo. emAM lAgaNI mizrita Agraha bhaLI gayo hato. "tame ja kahyuM che ke guruvare kAryakrama nizcita karavAnI nA pADI che. to AvatIkAlano vihAra zI rIte nizcita karyo ? Ape AvatIkAle to rokAvuM ja paDaze. pravacana Apajo ane parama di' vihAra karajo." "bapore sAdhvIjI AvelA, te badhA paNa vinaMti to karI ja gayA che." meM kahyuM. ane ame tyAM rokAI gayA. mahA suda-1no divasa ! jogAnujoga e ja divase upAzrayamAM taddana navI bhavya pATanuM uddaghATana hatuM. enA thoDAka ja divasa pUrve upAzrayanuM udghATana sAdhvIjI ma.nI nizrAmAM thaI gayeluM. sAdhvIjIe pATa mATe kaheluM ke "AnuM udghATana sAdhu bha.nA hAthe karAvajo." amane e pATanuM udghATana karavAno lAbha maLI gayo. Apane jANIne Azcarya thaze ke je bhAIe amane rokelA, e bhAI chellA eka mahinAthI ghare sutA rahelA. saTTAmAM nukasAna thavAne kAraNe ati hatAza thayelA ane AtmahatyAnA vicArothI trasta hatA... paNa emanuM kahevuM ema hatuM ke ApanA mukha paranI saMyamanI prasannatA joIne te ja divasathI huM DIprezanamAMthI bahAra AvI gayo." pravacana bAda zrIsaMgha ubho thayo. "AvatI kAle haju eka pravacana karavuM ja paDaze, e pachI ja tamane javA daIzuM." Azcarya e thayuM ke baDanagara bAda AgaLa ame je je gAmamAM pahoMcIe, te te gAmamAM ame jaNAveluM na hovA chatAM pahelethI badhAne khabara paDI jatI hatI. eka nAnA gAmamAM adhyakSe AvIne mane kahyuM "amAre svAmivAtsalya karavuM che."

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo "zA mATe ? jarUra nathI." meM kahyuM. "amAre karavuM ja che." e jIde caDyA, ane amAre hA pADavI paDI. pAchaLathI khabara paDI ke baDanagaravALA pelA bhAIe ja adhyakSazrIne kaheluM ke "mAre tamArA gAmamAM mahArAja sAhebanA Agamana nimitte svAmivAtsalya karavuM che." eTale gAmavALAe kahyuM ke "bahAravALA AvIne ahIM lAbha zAnA mATe laI jAya ? ame ja svAmivAtsalya karazuM." meM baDanaga2vAsI bhAIne kahyuM "tame AvuM kema karo cho ? zA mATe AgaLa amArA AgamananI sUcanA mokalo cho ?" "juo mahArAja sAheba !" emanI AMkhomAM motI zobhavA lAgyA." "je sAdhuo potAnI sUcanA na mokalatA hoya, tenI sUcanA ame mokalAvavAnA ja.... ane A to kasturInI dalAlI... amArI pahoMca-oLakhANa jyAM sudhI haze, tyAM sudhI ame to sUcanA mokalAvatA ja rahezuM. A bhAInI ghaNI badhI vAto jaNAvavAnI che, e pachI kyAreka jaNAvIza. atyAre to eTaluM ja kahuM ke "zrAvaka sAdhunA AcArothI keTalA ahobhAvayukta thAya che ?" te jANIne saMyamane jhUkI jhUkIne vaMdana karavAnuM mana thayuM. (ahIM patra pUrNa thAya che.) (huM atyAre unALAmAM tarasathI pIDAtA pazu-paMkhI-mAnavo mATe pANInI paraba kholavAnI vAta nathI karato. paNa gujarAta bahAranA seMkaDo gAmomAM saMyamIonA vicaraNanA abhAvane kAraNe tarasyA banelA hajAro-lAkho jainonI tarasa chipAvavA mATe saMyamIone vinaMti karuM chuM ke "Please ! Quite Gujarat. and Mumbai..... ane bahAra tamArI dhArmikajalanI paraba kholo.") AvuM sAdhuvRMda sarvatra hojo 17 sAdhuono e parivAra ! be AcArya, eka paMnyAsa ane 14 sAmAnya munio ! emanI tapazcaryAnI eka AchI jhalaka ja ApaNe jovAnI che. (1) AcArya bhagavaMta-1 : (2) AcArya bhagavaMta-2 : (3) paMnyAsajI : 100 + 88 oLI. pustaka lekhana - saMpAdana saMkhyA 50-60. 32 varSano dIkSA paryAya, 100 + 90 oLI. saLaMga 500 AMbila 1 vAra. saLaMga 1400 AMbila - 1 vAra. chellA ATha varSathI ThAma covihAra ! 35 -

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(4) muni : (5) muni : (6) muni : (7) muni : (8) muni : (9) muni : (10) muni : (11) muni : vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo100 + 13 oLI (12) muni : (17 sAdhumAMthI 12 sAdhuo AvA AmAMthI dhvanita thAya che ne !) 90 thI 100 sudhInI oLI saLaMga ! 90 oLI 100 + 33 oLI (dIkSAparyAya 19 varSa) 100 + 44 oLI. 91 oLI 100 + 33 oLI 1 thI 25 oLI saLaMga. 78 thI 100 ane e pachI 1 thI 33 A badhI ja oLI saLaMga ! chellA 8 varSathI saLaMga AMbila cAlu che. (Azare 3000 AMbila saLaMga thayA.) chellA 10 varSathI ThAma covihAra kare che. AyaMbilanI ArAdhanAmAM ja ekavAra 36 upavAsa ane ekavAra 31 upavAsa ! 100 + 61 oLI. 100 oLI 16-17 varSamAM karI. 500, 600, 760, 1168 AMbila eka-eka vAra saLaMga karyA che. chellI 31 thI 61 oLI saLaMga cAlu ja che. chellA 12 varSathI ThAma covihAra kare che. 63 varSanI uMmare dIkSA ! Aje 78 varSanI uMmara ! gRhasthapaNAmAM cosaThapraharI pauSadha sAthe 20 aThThAI ! 108 aThThama ! 58 oLI ! 3 mAsakSamaNa ! 1 vAra 36 upavAsa ! 1 vA2 19 upavAsa ! caitra-vaizAkha mAsamAM 60 divasamAM 44 upavAsa karelA. chellA be varSathI ThAma covihAra. ghorAtighora tapasvI che. "saMga evo raMga" e ja vastu 36

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- ~~ ~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~ ~~+ ziSyo mATe bhoga ApanAra garajano mahAna ! "gurujI ! A zuM? Ape pANI levA javuM paDe che? A zI rIte mArAthI sahana thAya. nathI javuM mAre bhaNavA ! huM ApanI sAthe ja rahIza, ahIM jeTaluM bhaNAze eTaluM bhaNIza..." 22 varSanI uMmaranA bAlavaye dIkSita thayelA, madhyama kSayopazamavALA eka sIdhA-sAdA saMyamI mahAtmA potAnA gurune kahI rahyA hatA. kula 6 sAdhuonuM e grupa ! emAM sauthI moTA be sAdhuo saMsArIpaNAnA sagA bhAIo ! 30 varSanI AsapAsano dIkSAparyAya ! paMnyAsapadavInA dhAraka ! trIjA sAdhu vRddha ! A baMne paMnyAsajIonA saMsArIpaNAnA pitAjI ! lagabhaga parAdhIna ! bAkInA traNa yuvAna sAdhuo ! paNa emAM ya eka bAlamuni ! bIjA eka muni kAyama mATe vRddha pitAnI sevAmAM ja parovAyelA rahetA. eTale gocarI-pANI-kAjo-luNA vagere vagere tamAma kAryono moTA bhAgano bhAra A 22 varSanA munirAja para hato ane e pUrNa utsAhathI e bhaktino lAbha letA. guruvaryo emane bhAra na paDe, e mATeno pUro prayatna karatA, paNa aMte to A sAdhu guruvaryonA upakArane barAbara samajanArA hatA. vaLI emane bhAra lAgato ja na hato. "saMsAramAM roja ATha-ATha kalAka majurI nathI karavI paDatI ? ahIM to vadhI-vadhIne traNa-cAra kalAka mAMDalInA kAma rahe, e ya karmanirjarA ja karAve che ne !" e emanI vicAradhArA ! paNa mAtra svArtha sAdhe evA A paMnyAsajI na hatA. teo aMtarathI IcchatA hatA ke "A munirAja bhaNI-gaNIne taiyAra thAya." eTale ja atyAra sudhI to paMDito vagere dvArA abhyAsa karAvyo. emanA abhyAsa mATe aNagamatA sthAnamAM paNa rahyA. paNa eka prasaMga evo Avyo ke jemAM eka vidvAna muni pAse A munine bhaNavA mATe mukavAnI emane bhAvanA thaI. vidvAna munirAje aneka sAdhuone khUba sArA taiyAra karelA hatA, eTale guruvaryone thayuM ke "AmanI pAse ApaNA ziSyane mukazuM, to ghaNo badho abhyAsa thaze." ane paMnyAsajIoe dabANa karIne ziSyane bhaNavA mATe mukyo. ziSyanI IcchA guruthI chUTA paDavAnI nahi, paNa gurvAjJA sAme e zuM karI zake ? ane A rIte A muni guruthI chUTA paDyA. | doDheka mahinA bAda A muni vidyAgurunI saMmati laIne be divasa mATe gurune vaMdana karavA pahoMcyA hatA. tyAM emane khyAla Avyo ke "have mArA baMne gurujano ghaNuM kAma kare che. hA ! savAre pANInA ghaDA paNa lAve che." | muninI AMkhamAMthI AMsu paDI gayA. "mAre A rIte bhaNavuM nathI." evo emaNe dRDha nirdhAra karI lIdho ane guru pAse upara mujaba rajuAta karI.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo hasatA hasatA paMnyAsajI kahe "AvuM gAMDapaNa na karAya. tuM atyAre bhaNI le, tane bhaviSyamAM khUba phAyado thaze. ane jo, atyAre tuM uttarAdhyayana vAMce che ne ! e badhuM ja tAre ahIM AvIne mane bhaNAvavAnuM che. mATe barAbara bhaNaje. vaLI A be sAdhu paNa thoDI-ghaNI sahAya to kare ja che. e vAta sAcI ke eka sAdhu pitA muninI sevAmAM che, ane bIjA nAnA che. emane kyAreka moDuM thaI jAya, to pANI ame lAvIe... paNa emAM khoTuM zuM che ? ame zuM pANI na lAvI zakIe ?' ziSya potAnA gurujanonI udAratA joIne khUba raDyo, eNe vidyAguru vidvAna munirAja pAse AvIne badhI vAta karI, ane gurujanoe lakhI Apelo patra paNa Apyo. vidvAna muninI AMkhomAM ya harSAzru chalakAI gayA. emaNe A AkhI ghaTanA patra sAthe viratidUta mAsikane lakhI mokalAvI. e gurujanoe vidvAna munirAja upara je patra lakhelo, enA agatyanA aMzo atre chApIe chIe. jJAnopAsanA, jJAnAbhyAsa dvArA zuddha pariNatine khIlavanArA vidvarya mahArAja ! taraphathI anuvaMdanA ! nirmaLatAne prApta jJAnAmRta kuMDamAM snAna karatA, anekone karAvatA, Atmika prasannatA karatA sukhazAtAmAM hazo. ApanA pU. gurudevazrI sukhazAtAmAM haze. ApazrInA vidyArthI pAsethI jJAnAbhyAsanA suMdara anubhavo jANyA. Apa padArthonuM viziSTa rIte vivecana karo, bIjA paNa e rIte karAvI zake tenI keLavaNI Apo... e badhuM sAMbhaLyuM, Apa ApanA amUlya samayanuM dAna karavA dvArA moTo upakAra karI rahyA cho. suMdara majAnuM jIvana ghaDatara karI rahyA cho. have Apane soMpyA che, Apane je je yogya lAge, te sarva hakka Apane AdhIna che. meM ApanI pAse mukyA, tyArathI huM nizciMta chuM, eTaluM ja nahi paraMtu atyaMta vizvAsa che Apa je paNa karazo, te enA hita mATe ja karazo. Ape ochA samayamAM emanI zakti sArI khIlavI che. sahavartI bIjA sAdhu bha.ne pA ApavAnuM kAma emane soMpIne emanI zaktino ughADa karavAnuM kAma Ape karyu, e jANI khUba ja AnaMda thayo. grupamAM bhaviSyamAM anekone AgamAbhyAsa karAvI zake evI pakaDa Ave, tevo prayatna paNa Apa karo cho. e kahetA hatA ke "mAro kSayopazama anya munio karatA ocho hovAthI mane na samajAya tyAre eka-be vAra samajAvIne padArtha spaSTa karAve che." 38

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~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~ "sahAya kare te sAdhu" e sAdhujIvanano guNa Apa sArthaka karI rahyA cho. ApanA dvArA emanA jIvanamAM svAdhyAya-pariNati pragaTe, sva-paranA upakAra mATe nIvaDe e ja abhyarthanA. li. .......... (vidvAna munino paryAya baMne paMnyAsajIo karatA aDadho che, padavI paNa nathI. chatAM paMnyAsajI bhae patramAM Apa. Apa.. no ullekha karyo che. AnuM nAma namratA bIjAnA guNonI prazaMsA-anumodanA zI rIte karavI ? e paNa A patrathI ApaNane samajAya che. - ApaNA ziSyo mATe jo bhoga ApazuM, to e ziSyo bhaviSyamAM jinazAsananuM ratna banaze, anekonA tAraNahAra banaze, supAtra ziSyo ApaNA balidAnane nahi ja bhUle eTalo vizvAsa to ApaNe rAkhavo ja rahyo.). mArA nI mahAnatA meM sAkSAta nihALI . (aSADha suda-pAMcama saMvata 2069nA roja kAMdivalIthI eka munirAje viratidUtane je patra lakhI mokalAvelo, emAM lakhelo prasaMga emanA ja zabdomAM paNa amArI bhASAmAM atre raju karyo che.) - thoDAka divaso pahelAnI vAta ! - rAtre bAra-eka vAgyA haze, huM to kyArano ya ghasaghasATa uMghI gayelo. paNa mane e vakhate koIkanA dhrusake dhrusake raDavAno avAja saMbhaLAyo. mArI uMgha uDI gaI, ekAda miniTa to saMthArAmAM ja paDyo rahyo. DusakA spaSTa saMbhaLAvA lAgyA. huM saphALo beTho thaI gayo, maccharono upadrava hovAthI huM maccharadAnImAM ja hato. - mAro svabhAva Darapoka ! zaruAtamAM to mane evo ja vicAra Avyo ke "koI bhUta-preta raDe che." (jUnI vArtAomAM AvA prasaMgo vAMcelA ne !) paNa meM jarAka dhyAnathI joyuM to mane khyAla Avyo ke upAzrayamAM ja mArA saMthArAthI dUra mArA gurubhAIno saMthAro hato ane tyAM mArA gurujI paNa ubhaDagapage beThelA hatA, dhrusake dhrusake raDatA hatA. - ame kula traNa ja ThANA hatA. huM sauthI nAno ! dIkSAparyAya traNa varSa ! gurujIno paryAya ra7 varSa ! gurubhAI paryAyamAM moTA, paNa uMmaramAM nAnA ! 17 varSa emanI uMmara ! khUba hoMziyAra ! bhaNavAnI joradAra rucivALA ! paNa uMmaranA kAraNe TIkhaLa karavAnA, hAsya-majAka karavAnA svabhAvavALA ya kharA !

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo eka khAnagIvAta kahuM ! game te kAraNasara mane gurujI pratye vizeSa bahumAna-lAgaNI na hatA. e mAruM ja durbhAgya ! emanI sAthe AtmIyatA nahi, eTale ja emanAthI huM gabharAto. emanI sAthe mana mUkIne vAta karavI e mArA mATe to eka svapna ja hatuM. eTale ja A Akho prasaMga jovA chatAM ya maccharadAnImAMthI bahAra nIkaLIne gurujI pAse pahoMcIne 'zuM thayuM ?' e puchavAnI hiMmata na karI zakyo. basa, "koIno kALadharma thayo hovAnA samAcAra AvyA haze ? zuM thayuM haze ?" evA evA tukkA doDAvato maccharadAnImAM ja saMthArAmAM ja ADo paDIne kAna khullA karIne sAMbhaLavAno prayatna karI rahyo. gurujInI maccharadAnI khAlI hatI ane gurubhAI pAse ubhaDagapage koIka beThuM hatuM, eTale eTalA dazya uparathI eTalo khyAla to AvI ja gayo ke gurujI ja tyAM beThA che. paNa e raDatA hatA, gurubhAInA page paDatA hatA, gurubhAI ema karatA emane aTakAvatA hatA... A badhuM ADA paDyA paDyA joIne eTalo khyAla to AvI ja gayo ke "AmAM koInA kALadharmanI vAta nathI. nahi to gurujI gurubhAInA page kema paDe che ?" acAnaka ja mane Tube-Light thaI. Aje bapore gurubhAI majAka-mastI karatA hatA, gurujIne e badhuM bilakula nApasaMda ! emaNe eka-be vAra aTakAvyA, paNa gurubhAI svabhAvane parAdhIna ! ane gurujIne gusso AvI gayelo. daMDAsana hAthamAM laIne be-cAra ThokI dIdhI hatI gurubhAIne ! hAthathI paNa be dhola lagAvI dIdhA hatA gurubhAIne ! gurubhAI tarata zAMta thaIne, gaMbhIra banIne pAchA kAme lAgI gayA hatA. na rIsa ! na baLApo ! Akho divasa gurujInI bhaktinA kAryo paNa mana daIne karyA hatA. paNa e prasaMga bAda gurujI udAsa banI gayA hatA. Akho divasa kazuM bolyA na hatA. tyAre to mane e badhuM vizeSa dhyAna para AveluM nahi, paNa hamaNA gurujIne dhrusake dhrusake raDatA joIne mane badhuM brahmajJAna prApta thayuM. tame mAnazo ? aDadho-poNo kalAka sudhI gurujI raDatA ja rahyA. gurubhAI pAse vAraMvAra mAphI mAMgatA ja rahyA, are ! enA pagamAM paDI paDIne royA. pachI to mane spaSTa zabdo saMbhaLAyA. "tuM mane mApha kara ! meM ghora aparAdha karyo che. tane mAravAno mane zo adhikAra !" sAme gurubhAI bolyA "Apane to sarva adhikAra che. Apano ziSya banyo, tyArathI ja mAruM mAthuM kApI nAMkhavAnI paNa sattA meM Apane soMpI dIdhI che, pachI A mArI bhUla badala be lAphA mAravAno adhikAra to Apano hoya ja. have juo, gurujI ! Apa zAMta thaI jAo. Apane 91mI oLI cAlu che, tabiyata sArI nathI, vadhAre raDazo, to kyAMka tabiyata para asara paDaze. Please ! have Apa saMthArI jAo.'' 40

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-~~-~~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo --------* gurubhAIe mAMDa mAMDa gurujIne ubhA karyA, emanI maccharadAnI pAse laI jaI suvaDAvyA, pharI AzvAsana ApyuM. paNa e pachI ya dasa-paMdara miniTa sudhI gurujInA DusakAM saMbhaLAyA. basa, e pachI e baMne to saMthArI gayA. paNa mane uMgha na AvI. zuM mArA gurunI mahAnatA ! 27 varSano paryAya ! zAsana prabhAvaka ! 91 oLInA ArAdhaka ! ziSyane bhUla badala be lAphA mAravAno adhikAra to emane hoya ja ! chatAM ATalo badho ghora pazcAttApa ! rAtre 1 vAge aDadho-poNo-eka kalAka sudhI dhrusake dhrusake raDe, potAnA ziSyanA, cAra-pAMca varSanA ja dIkSA paryAyavALA, nAnI uMmaranA ziSyanA pagamAM paDIne mAphI mAMge... duniyAmAM AvuM dazya jovA na maLe. basa, A divasathI mAMDIne mAro bahumAnabhAva khUba khUba vadhI gayo, mArA gurujI upara ! emane to khabara ja nathI ke mane A badhI khabara che. paNa A joyA pachI mane thayuM ke A prasaMga viratidUtamAM khAsa ApavA jevo che, eTale Apane lakhI mokalAvuM chuM. Apane vinaMti che ke A prasaMga viratidUtamAM khAsa lejo. ziSyone ane guruone A prasaMga uparathI ghaNuM zIkhavA maLaze. guru ahaMkAra tyAgIne ziSyanA caraNe namI paNa zake, to ziSya gurunA daMDAsano-lAphAo khAIne ya hasato rahI zake. ApanuM svAthya sAruM thaze. devagurukRpAthI mAre paNa thoDo ghaNo svAdhyAya thAya che, paNa doSo hajI pIchehaTha karatA nathI, chatAM AnaMdamAM chuM, prasanna chuM. saMtoSa che - je maLyuM che tenAthI ! kAmakAja jaNAvazo. mane ApanuM lakheluM AtmasaMprekSaNa pustaka mokalavA khUba AgrahabharI vinaMti ! Apano mArA para ghaNo upakAra che. ApanuM viratidUta vAMcIne ghaNuM baLa maLe che. li. ......................... lokapriya te bane che, je bIjA mATe ghasAI chUTe che. (muMbaI nagarInA hoMziyAra yuvAne dIkSA bAda potAnA zArIrikabaLano utsAhabhera vaiyAvacca kSetre je upayoga karyo che, enuM varNana emanA ja gurubhAIe (saMsArIpaNAnA karNATaka bAjunA vatanI, saMsArIpaNAmAM pAyaloTa hovAthI atyAre paNa pAyaloTa mahArAja tarIke prasiddha) amane mokalI ApyuM che. enA AdhAre A lekha taiyAra karelo che.) * 1 comAsAmAM 120 divasamAM kula 170 kApa anya mahAtmAonA kADhI ApyA. * ekavAra comAsA pUrve ekasAthe mahAtmAonA 20 saMthArAno kApa kADhI Apyo.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo * emanI upadhinuM vajana kadAca tamAma sAdhu-sAdhvIomAM sauthI vadhAre haze. badhuM uMcakIne ja vihAra kare. * e eka vRddha sAdhunI sevAmAM hatA. savAre vRddha sAdhune emanA Asana sAthe pote ekalA ja upADI le, ane cheka derAsaramAM bhagavAnanI sAme uMcakIne laI jAya, tyAM caityavaMdana karAvIne vaLI pAchA uMcakIne cheka emanA sthAne lAvI mUke. * eka glAna vRddha sAdhune phrUTa vaparAvavAno Adeza DokTaroe karelo. e sAdhune phrUTa phAve nahi. paNa vaparAvavuM anivArya hatuM. eTale A mahAtmA to phrUTa laI AvyA ane vRddha sAdhune vAparavA ApyuM e joIne emane eTalo gusso Avyo ke tyAM ne tyAM jorathI eka tamAco mArI dIdho. "tamane khabara to che ke mane A phrUTa nathI phAvatuM." lApho khAvA chatAM muni mauna rahyA, hasatA rahyA ane samajAvI-paTAvIne e phrUTa glAnavRddhane vaparAvI ja dIdhuM. * eka vAra eka sAdhue A muninI upadhi-vajana joIne kaMIka Aveza sAthe kahyuM "tamAre ATaluM badhuM uMcakavAnI zI jarUra che ? tame kaMI majura cho ? keTalI nakAmI vastu uMcakI che ?" jogAnujoga e ja divase e sAdhune Thesa lAgavAdi kAraNosara vAgyuM, AjubAjunA DokTara maLyA nahi. tarata ja A munie First Aid Box kADhI emAM rAkhelI davAthI phaTAphaTa upacAra karI ApyA. pachI kahyuM ke "mArI upadhi ekAda divasa paNa koIka mahAtmAnA kAmamAM Ave, to mAro janmAro saphaLa thAya. A ja kAraNasara A badhI nakAmI dekhAtI vastuo paNa rAkhI che." pelA mahAtmAne paNa khyAla Apyo ke "samartha sAdhu mATe A rItano parigraha paNa zAstrIya = vAstavika che..." * emane pAkI zaMkA ke "tIrthasthAno vageremAM pANI ukALanAra mANasone kazI khabara hotI nathI. teo traNa ukALA lAvatA nathI." eTale e dareka jagyAe potAnI najara sAme traNa ukALA Ave, e pachI ja pANI vahore. (zrAvakonA gharomAM e zaMkAnuM koI kAraNa nathI, mATe tyAM vahore) * jyAre emane mAMDalInuM pANI lAvavAnuM kAma soMpAyuM, tyAre vyavasthApake emane kaheluM ke "tamAre traNa ghaDA pANI ThArI, gALIne ghaDAmAM bharavuM." AmanI jIvadayAnI kALajI khUba sArI ! eTale e traNa ghaDA pANI parAtomAM ThAre to kharA, paNa e parAto jo khullI rahe to mAkhI vagere uDatA trasa jIvo pANImAM paDIne marI jAya. AvuM na thavA devA mATe te maccharadAnI bAMdhe, ane enI aMdara parAto goThavI rAkhe. pANI TharI jAya, pachI maccharadAnI kADhI nAMkhIne ghaDAmAM pANI bhare. * ekAsaNuM 48 miniTa pUrve ja pUrNa karI de. 42

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo * tapasvInI 103mI oLInA pAraNAno Adeza 1 lAkha kalAka maunanI bAdhA rAkhIne lIdho. Aje lagabhaga roja 8-10-12 kalAka to mauna ja rAkhe. * emane bAdhA che ke "dasa varSano dIkSAparyAya na thAya, tyAM sudhI pravacana karavAnA nahi. mAtra gurunA Adezane hisAbe paryuSaNanA pravacano karavA bAbatamAM jayaNA !' * zaMkhezvaramAM pU.kalApUrNasUri guru maMdiranI pratiSThA vakhate doDhaso upara sAdhuo ekatra thayelA. emAM eka divasa bhaktinA atirekamAM khyAla na rahetA bamaNuM pANI sAdhuo laI AvyA. pachI ciMtA thaI ke ATalA badhA pANInuM karazuM zuM ? A munie moTuM pIpa maMgAvyuM, emAM badhuM pANI bheguM karI cUno naMkhAvI dIdho. "AvatI kAle AnAthI badhA mahAtmAonA kApano lAbha lezuM." ema jaNAvyuM. bIjA sAdhuo muMjhAI gayA. ATaluM badhuM pANI ! eka sAthe kApa zI rIte kADhavo ? tyAre AmaNe AgevAnI lIdhI. bIjA divase 10 mahAtmAo emanI sahAyamAM joDAyA, kula 5 kalAka saLaMga kApa cAlyo, 40 thI 50 mahAtmAono kApa kADhI Apyo. badhAne emanA vastro vyavasthita pahoMcADavAthI mAMDIne tamAme tamAma goThavaNa evI to adbhuta karI ke vRddho-vaDIloglAna sAdhuo badhA khUba khUba prasanna thaI gayA. * emanI bhAvanA evI ke "AkhuM kalpasUtra = 1200 gAthAnuM bArasAsUtra kaMThastha karIne saMvatsarInA divase moDhe ja bolavuM." e rIte gokhavAnI zaruAta karI, kula 700 gAthA gokhAI gaI. tyAM ja gacchAdhipatizrIe Adeza karyo ke "amuka glAna sAdhunI sevAmAM javAnuM che." tarata ja badhuM bAju para rAkhI sevA karavA doDI gayA. emAM vaLI eka gItArtha sAdhue kahyuM ke "A rIte 1200 gAthA moDhe bolavA dvArA tamAre zuM saMghamAM vAha-vAha ja meLavavI che ne ! tamArA mATe A ucita nathI lAgatuM." ane e ja divasathI emaNe kalpasUtra kaMThastha karavAnuM choDI dIdhuM. * eka tIrthanI pratiSThAnA divase A sAdhue kula 108 oghA bAMdhyA. * vRddha sAdhune kyAreka saMthArAmAM ja sthaMDila thaI jAya, to A sAdhu potAnA hAthe badhuM sApha kare, paNa koIne e kAma na karavA de. bagaDelA saMthArAno kApa paNa jAte ja kADhe. * pote je vRddhanI sevAmAM hatA, e jyAM sudhI gocarI vAparI na le, tyAM sudhI pote paNa gocarI na vApare. * bapore eka-be ki.mI. sudhI dUra gocarI jAya, pachI ekAsaNuM kare. * vRddha mahAtmAne ghaDiyALa upara rAga baMdhAI gayelo, A sAdhue kunehapUrvaka emano badho rAga dUra karAvIne ghaDiyALa choDAvI. 43

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-~~~-~~-- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~-~ moTAonI moTAI (eka munie jaNAvelo potAno anubhava) mArA gurujIne bhagavatIjInA joga cAle. suratathI pAchA amadAvAda jatA hatA. gurujIne kriyA karAvavA mATe vihAramAM vaDIla padavIdharanI nizrA jarUrI hatI. eTale ame yogIpuruSa tarIke prasiddhi pAmelA AcArya bhagavaMtanI sAthe ja vihAra karatA. be AcArya bhagavaMto sAthe hatA. pAlejano upAzraya lAMbo ghaNo ane pahoLAI ochI ! vihAra karatA karatA ame pAleja pahoMcyA, eka divasa tyAM rokAyA. bIjA divase vahelI savAre vihAra ! yogIpuruSa upAzrayanA eka cheDethI cheka bIjA cheDA sudhI pahoMcI gayA hatA, vihAra mATe nIce ja utaratA hatA, tyAM acAnaka ja emane kaMIka yAda AvyuM eTale aTakI gayA. potAnA gurubhAI-vaDIla AcAryazrI mATe emane upayoga Avyo. moTA sAheba nIce utarI gayA ?" emaNe ziSyane prazna karyo. "nA jI ! Apa padhAro. ame emane laI AvIe chIe." ziSya bolyo. paNa yogIpuruSa to eka paNa akSara bolyA vinA pAchA pharyA, lAMbo hola cAlIne cheka bIjA cheDe pahoMcyA, "sAhebajI ! taiyAra thaI gayA cho?" mIThAzapUrvaka pUchayuM, pachI jAte potAnA hAthano Teko ApIne moTA AcAryane ubhA karyA, ane emane potAnA hAthano Teko ApIne cAlavA lAgyA. huM to A joI Azcarya pAmyo. yogIpuruSa khuda eka AcArya hatA, mahApuNyazALI hatA, moTA AcArya emanA guru na hatA, mAtra moTA gurubhAI hatA ane vizeSa koI prabhAvaka paNa na hatA. vaLI yogIpuruSanI uMmara paNa 65 AsapAsanI to kharI ja! e kaMI juvAna na hatA. chatAM moTA AcArya mATe pAchA pharavuM, ziSyathI kAma patI zakatuM hovA chatAM svayaM Avo vinaya karavo... A badhuM mArA mATe to Azcarya ja hatuM. e yogIpuruSa kema banyA che ?" e have mane samajAyuM. e pachI to meM ghaNIvAra jhINavaTapUrvaka emanI prakriyAo nihALI. emAM AMkhe uDIne vaLage evI eka vAta e ke yogIpuruSa vihArano je kAryakrama rojeroja nakkI thayo hoya, e moTA AcAryane jaNAvavA mATe jAya. jAte potAnI pATa uparathI ubhA thaI moTA AcArya pAse jAya, je kAryakrama nakkI thayo hoya, e jaNAve "phAvaze ne ?" ema pUchI le, mIThAza to jabaradasta ! pharI yAda karAvuM ke moTA AcAryazrI saMyamI kharA ! paNa bhaktabaLavALA, pravacanabaLavALA nahi. zAMta ! prazAMta ! jemanI noMdha kadAca mArA jevA ya vadhAre na le, evuM vyaktitva ! chatAM yogIpuruSanI A muThI uMcerI guNavattAe mAruM haiyuM corI lIdhuM. pelA moTA AcArya paNa khUba ja guNavAna ! eno anubhava paNa mane A ja vihAra 44,

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-~~-~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo --------------daramyAna thayo. banyuM evuM ke "moTA AcAryanA ziSyonI evI IcchA ke pAlitANA jaI AvIe, tyAMthI amadAvAda jazuM." yogIpuruSane to pAlItANA javuM Avazyaka hatuM ja. paNa moTA AcAryane vihAramAM takalIpha vadhu paDatI. eTale emanI IcchA evI hatI ke "huM sIdho amadAvAda pahoMca, tame vaDodarAthI pAlitANA jaIne amadAvAda Avo." paNa jevI moTA AcAryane khabara paDI ke "mArA ziSyonI bhAvanA pAlitANAnI che", ke tarata ja emaNe pAlitANA javAnuM nakkI karI lIdhuM. meM emane pUchyuM paNa kharuM "sAhebajI ! Apane to herAnagati vadhaze." to mane kahe "sahAya kare ane sahana kare e sAdhu ! mArA ziSyonI bhAvanAne pUrNa karavAmAM huM sahAya karuM to ja sAco sAdhu ! e mATe thoDIka takalIpha sahana karuM to ja huM sAco sAdhu ! jo huM amadAvAda sIdho ja jAuM, to mArA ziSyoe paNa amadAvAda ja AvavuM paDe. teo kaMI nA nathI pADavAnA, paNa mAre mArI pharaja nibhAvavI ja joIe ne ! ziSyo mArI mana mUkIne sevA kare che, to emanI ekAda IcchA pUrI karavI e zuM mArI pharaja nathI !" huM to Abho ja banI gayo. nahi gurupadano kepha ! nahi svArthavRttinI durgadha ! nahi Avezano dAvAnala ke nAno agnikaNa ! jinazAsana sarvotkRSTa zAsana che emAM have Azcarya ja zuM? 88 varSanI uMmaranA eka saMcamI mahAtmAno suMdara majAno patra (vizALa sAdhu vRMdamAM A vRddha mahAtmA uMmara ane paryAya baMne rIte vaDIla che. emaNe potAnA ja vRMdanA eka nAnA sAdhune je patra lakhyo che, enA atyaMta upayogI aMzo nIce lIdhA che. AtmA kevo bhAvanAsnAna karato hoya? kevo jAgrata hoya? enI A patra uparathI badhAne pratIti thaze. AmAM sAmAnya pheraphAro karelA che, moTA bhAge akSarano paNa pheraphAra karyA vinA ja Akho patra lIdho che.). viddhavarya munirAjazrI ! mArA jIvanamAM aMtima divaso ke mahinAo hAla cAlI rahyA hovAno AbhAsa thAya che. kAlanI khabara nathI. je thAya te avayaMbhAvI mAnI levuM rahyuM... khera !

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo) pU.pA.gacchAdhipatizrI atidUra che. pU.pAda tAraka gurudeva paNa svAsthyanA kAraNe hAla niSkriya che. anya koI AtmIya gItArtha mahAtmA mArI najIkamAM nathI. mAtra ne mAtra, taddana najIka - gurubhAI ane vizeSa karIne kalyANamitra tarIke, prabuddha zAstrIyabodhavALA ane lAgaNIvALA tame ja cho, ema meM mAnyuM che, svIkAryuM che. tame paNa tema ja svIkArazo - ane vartazo evI mArI tIvra abhilASA rahe che. (dIkSAparyAyamAM 35 varSa nAnA ane uMmaramAM 50 varSa nAnA sAdhune A rIte lakhavuM e A mahAtmAnI vinayAdiguNonI parAkASThA sucave che.) mArA jIvananA bhUtakALa aMge kaMI puchavuM nathI, je vartamAna mArA hAthamAM che, tene mATe, avasare tamane puchAvIza - puchato rahIza. te aMge tame jarUra purato samaya kADhIne zIghra javAba lakhatA rahezo evI vinaMti. atyAranI mArI sthiti nAjuka ane parAdhIna gaNAya. sevA karanArA sAdhu che - sevA kare che ja. paNa mArA svAsthyamAM garabaDa thayA ja kare che. AMkhanI nabaLAInA kAraNe nAnA akSaro vAMcavAmAM takalIpha rahe che. moTA akSaro vAMcI zakAya che, te jANazo. (1) paMcasUtra (paheluM roja pAMca vAra vAMcu chuM.) (2) laghu zatruMjayakalpa roja be vAra vAMcu chuM. (3) sAta smaraNasUtro roja 1 vAra sAMbhaLuM chuM. (4) samAdhinI sIDI roja eka ke be vAra vAMcuM chuM. moTA akSaro che ane mane khUba game che. (5) rAtre 7 thI 8 sutA sutAM tIrthavaMdanA + caityavaMdanA + saMghavaMdanA + sAdhuvaMdanA thAya che, AnaMda Ave che, phAve che. (6) jApa roja aDadho-poNo kalAkano bapore karuM chuM. (7) sImaMdhara svAmInI bhAvayAtrA aDadho kalAka thAya che. A badhAyamAM kyAreka khADo paNa paDe che. davAo vAraMvA2-TAImasara levI paDe che tethI mAnasika svasthatA rahetI nathI. thakAvaTa lAge che. samagra zarIre baLatarA - pagano dAha... Adi takalIpho che, jethI vizeSa ArAdhanAnI IcchA hovA chatAM karI zakAtI nathI. veTha utAravAthI phAyado paNa nathI, e tame samajI zako cho. mAro keza-prakRti AdithI tame jANakAra cho, chatAM repharansa mATe lakhyuM che. chatAM kaMI vizeSa dhyAnamAM Ave to jaNAvavuM. 'sukRtAnumodana mahAna dharma che' e lekha sAcavIne rAkhyo che, vAraMvAra vAMcu chuM. mane tethI khUba ja AnaMda rahe che. tamane te mATe jeTalA dhanyavAda lakhuM te ochA ja gaNAze. mArAthI thaI zake evI e pravRtti che. (sutAnumodana)... zatazaH dhanyavAda. 46.

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-~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo evI ja koI vAta-viSaya, aMtima divasonI ArAdhanAmAM upayogI jaNAya to mane jarUra jaNAvazo. sArA akSaronuM lakhANa haze, to jherokSa karAvIne mArI rojIMdI phAIlamAM mUkIza, vAMcIza. mArI samAdhi banI rahe - TakI rahe ane sadgati thAya, temAM tamAro sAtha-sahakAra pUrepUro mane che ane raheze evA prabaLa vizvAsathI lakhyuM che. mArA mATe A lakhavAno zrama paNa ghaNo thaI rahyo che... paNa zuM karuM ? meM svIkArela sarvavirati dharma uttama che, zreSTha che. AtmakalyANano A eka ja mArga che, temAM mIna-mekha phera nathI. tene mATe aTala vizvAsa che ja. mAtra, mArA aMtima divasomAM mokSa mArganI utkRSTa ArAdhanA thAya, pariNati banI rahe - TakI rahe - e ja tamAre karavAnuM che - sahAyaka banavAnuM che. "mAgyA vinA mA paNa na pIrase' e laukIka nIti che. paraMtu A to lokottara dharma che. mAgyA vinA paNa sAmethI doDI AvIne samAdhimAM sahAyaka bane e sAdhu che. ("samAdhimaraNa mATenI kevI tIvra jhaMkhanA hovI joIe," e A mahAtmAnA patra uparathI anubhavAya che. ApaNe jo koIkane maraNa vakhate samAdhi ApanArA banazuM, to cokkasa ApaNane paNa koIka samAdhi ApanAra maLI Avaze. eTale ja vRddhonI, emAM ya maraNa najIka rahelAonI sevA-suzruSA karavAmAM ApaNe pramAda, upekSA na ja karavI joIe.) sAdhUnAM darzanaM puNyam sAhebajI ! nIcenA mALe padhArazo ?" zAnA mATe ? "mArI dIkarIne mAMgalika saMbhaLAvavA ?" zuM thayuM che?" kamaLo thayelo, roga vakaryo ane kamaLI thaI. enA lIdhe ja komAmAM jatI rahI che. bebhAna che. DokTara kahe che ke "be-cAra kalAka mAMDa jIve"... Please ! padhArazo ?" bolatA bolatA e dIkarInA bApano svara bhIno banI gayo. | muMbaInI hospITalamAM ATheka mahinA pUrve banelo A prasaMga ! eka vRddha mahAtmAne hospITalamAM dAkhala karelA, emanI sevAmAM je yuvAna sAdhu rokAyelA, emane pelA bhAIe karagaratA hoya, ema vinaMti karI. mahAtmA to tarata ja nIce utaryA, rUmamAM gayA. Akho parivAra hAjara ! joyuM to chokarInuM

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo AkhuM zarIra ekadama pILuM paDI gayeluM. uMmara haze Azare 21 varSa ! mahAtmA vicAramAM paDyA. 'A bahena to komAmAM che, bebhAna che. huM mAMgalika saMbhaLAvuM, paNa e kyAM sAMbhaLavAnA che ?' 'zuM nAma che tamArI dIkarInuM ?' bhAIe nAma kahyuM. 'jarAka nAmathI ene bolAvo ne ?' "sAhebajI ! e to sAta divasathI komAmAM che. ene nAmathI bolAvavAno koI artha nathI." 'chatAM ekavAra nAmathI bolAvo to kharA ?' mahAtmAnA Agrahane kAraNe pappAe dIkarIne nAmathI bolAvI. ane Azcarya sarjAyuM. dIkarIe eka ja paLamAM AMkha kholI. je kAma sAta divasanI davAothI mAMDIne koIpaNa upAyathI na thayuM. e kAma khAlI nAmanA ullekha mAtrathI thaI gayuM. Akho parivAra AnaMdanA AMsu vahAvavA lAgyo. mahAtmAe navakAra-mAMgalika saMbhaLAvyuM, chokarIe hAtha joDI sAMbhaLyuM. chelle mahAtmAe ogho uMco karyo. 'A rajoharaNa laIne pachI ja jIvana pUruM karazo ne ?' 21 varSanI kanyAe bhayaMkara bimArI vacce, AMkho paTapaTAvIne, jarAka mAthuM halAvIne saMmati ApI ane mA-bApanI AMkhamAMthI codhAra AMsu sarI paDyA. e ja paLe chokarIe chellA DacakA khAdhA, prANa nIkaLI gayA. (mAtra chellI pAMca-dasa miniTa mATe AMkha khulavI, sAdhunA ane oghAnA darzana thavA, enI hArdika saMmati ApavI... ane tarata ja prANa nIkaLI javA... AvuM uttama maraNa ApaNane saune maLe e ja prabhune aMtarathI prArthanA !) vinaya vaDo saMsAramAM kArataka vada caudasa 2068nA vahelI savAre 8 mahAtmAo uttara gujarAtanA eka zaheramAM jaI caDyA. gAmanA upAzrayamAM mAtra be ja kalAka rokAIne sosAyaTImAM jatA rahevAno ane tyAM ja mahino rokAI javAno nirNaya gAmanA lokonI lAgaNIsabhara vinaMtine joIne badalavo paDyo ane mAgasara suda agyArasa sudhI tyAM ja rokANa karavAmAM AvyuM. ATha mahAtmAomAM be vaDIla munivaro hovA chatAM, nAnA sAdhu paNa taiyAra thAya, e hetuthI 18

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- ~~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~ nAnA sAdhunA pravacano goThavavAmAM AvyA hatA. sAdhu paNa ekaMdare abhyAsu hovAthI pravacana uparanI pakaDa sarasa hatI ane mATe prajAne emAM rasa paNa paDato. savAre 7-15 thI 8-15nuM nitya pravacana ! pravacana pahelA ane pravacana pachI baMne vakhata vaDIla pAse AvI, caraNomAM mastaka namAvIne AziSa levA e pravacanakAra sAdhuno nitya krama hato. paNa eka divasa utAvaLamAM ja te pATa para besI gayA, mAMgalika zaru karatI vakhate ja emane yAda AvyuM ke "vaDIlanA AziSa levAnA bAkI che. huM Aje pramAdanA kAraNe vinaya cukyo. zuM karuM ? mAMgalika aTakAvI pATa parathI nIce utarIne vaDIlanA AziSa lauM ? ke pachI have pravacana pUruM karI nAkhyA pachI ja jAuM ?" gaDamathalamAM ja mAMgalika to cAlu karyuM, paNa mAMgalika pUrNa thatA sudhImAM to sAdhue makkama nirNaya laI lIdho. "eka miniTa' ema kahIne pATa parathI ubhA thaI nIce utaryA. AkhI sabhA Azcarya pAmI, paNa e badhAnI paravA karyA vinA mahAtmA to vaDIla pAse pahoMcI gayA, caraNomAM namIne AziSa mAMgyA. "micchA mi dukkaDaM ! sAhebajI ! bhUlI ja gayelo. utAvaLamAM sIdho pATa para jaI beTho." vaDIlane khUba AnaMda thayo. mahAtmAno zaktivikAsa karatA paNa guNavikAsa vaDIlane sparzI gayo. bapore pravacanakAra vidvAna sAdhu pAse baMne vaDIlo + anya be sAdhuo pATha laI rahyA hatA, tyAM siddhacakrapUjananI rakSApoTalIo maMtrita karAvavA mATe bhAIo AvI caDyA. pAMceya mahAtmAoe vaDIlanA sUcanathI hAthamAM vAsakSepa laIne maMtrita karyo, emAM vidvAna nAnA sAdhue vAsakSepa maMtrita karyA pachI paNa hAthamAM ja rAkhyo, bIjA sAdhue maMtrita karavA Takora karI, tyAre AMkhathI ja IzAro karI dIdho ke hajI vaDIla mahAtmAe rakSApoTalI para vAsakSepa nAMkhyo nathI, e maMtrajapa karI rahyA che. jyAM sudhI e na nAMkhe, tyAM sudhI mAre na naMkhAya..." vaDIlone pATha ApanAra, vidvAna, pravacanakAra evA paNa e sAdhuno Avo vinaya joIne badhA khUba ja rAjI thayA. | (sAva nAnakaDo AcAra paNa bahu ja moTI asara ubhI karI deto hoya che. mATe ja vaDIlAdinA vinayamAM, aucityamAM leza paNa khAmI na AvavA devI.)

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + aucityaM janamAnyatA "tamArI muhapattI mane Apazo ? kolejamAM pravacana karavA javAnuM che. badhA jainetaro che. mArI muhapattI melI che. tamArI cokhkhI che. eTale joIe che. be kalAka pachI ApI daIza..." "are, sAhebajI ! Apa to vaDIla cho, upakArI cho, AvuM puchavAnI ke khulAso karavAnI kyAM jarura ja che ? Apa mane lAbha Apo." kahIne nAnA sAdhue vaDIlane potAnI muhapattI ApI ane vaDIlanI vadhu melI muhapattI pote laI lIdhI. be kalAka bAda "lo, A tamArI muhapattI pAchI !" vaDIle muhapattI pAchI ApatA kahyuM. "sAhebajI ! be divasa pachI ApuM to cAlaze ?" kema ?" "ApanI mukhapattI meM be kalAka vAparI. enA upara mAruM thuMka uDyuM ja hoya. vaLI e melI paNa che. eno kApa eka-be divasamAM kADhIne ApI daIza. thuMkavALI, melI muhapattI ApuM to ApanI AzAtanAno doSa lAge." paNa to pachI pahelA tamArI muhapattI mane kema ApI ? e paNa tamArA thuMkavALI ja hatI ne ?" "hA jI ! paNa tyAre to Apane jarura hatI, eTale huM zI rIte nA pADI zakuM? atyAre to ApazrI pAse mArI muhapattI rahe e ja sAruM ne ?" vaDIla sAdhu khUba ja khuza thaI gayA. nAnakaDA sAdhuno A aucitya, vinaya guNa emanA aMtarane sparzI gayo. - X - X - "sAhebajI ! tamane daMDAsananI dasIo bAMdhatA AvaDe che?' eka nAnA sAdhue moTA sAdhune pUchyuM. hA ! AvaDe che. kema? bAMdhavI che?' moTAe javAba dIdho. gacchamAM to e paNa nAno sAdhu ja hato. - "banyuM evuM ke meM mAruM daMDAsana maLatuM na hatuM, eTale paMnyAsajI ma.nuM daMDAsana vAparyuM. paNa mane e meluM dekhAyuM. IcchA thaI ke eno kApa kADhIne pAchuM ApuM. e mATe daMDAsananI dasIo choDavI to paDe ne ? paNa e pAchI bAMdhatA nathI AvaDatuM eTale tamane pRcchA karI.' ema tyAre ! ema kahone ke tamane vaDIlanI bhakti karavAnI bhAvanA thaI che. tame dasI choDI do, kApa kADhI lo, cokkasa huM bAMdhI ApIza." moTA sAdhue utsAhapUrvaka javAba dIdho. e ja divase e nAnA saMyamIe kApa kADhI, dasI baMdhAvI paMnyAsajI ma.ne daMDAsana pAchuM

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-~~~-~~-~- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo-------------- ApyuM. ghaNA vakhatathI malina banelI dasIo acAnaka ja ujaLI banI gayelI joIne paMnyAsajI mane paNa AnaMda thayo. hA ! vibhUSAno nahi, paNa nAnA sAdhumAM rahelA avvalakoTinA vinayavaiyAvacca-aucitya-utsAha guNanI vibhUSAno ! (moTA gacchamAM aneka padavIdharo hoya. ema A gacchamAM paNa A paMnyAsajI pelA nAnA sAdhunA guru na hatA, upakArI paNa na hatA, viziSTa prabhAvaka paNa na hatA. AvuM kaMIka hoya, ane nAnA sAdhune bhaktino bhAva uchaLe e banI zake. ene badale mAtra "e vaDIla che, saMyamI che." e bhAvathI ja nAnAe AvuM aucityasevana karyu che. Akhe uDIne vaLage evuM che ? karuNAbhInI AMkhomAMthI... "gurujI ! galuDIyAonI cIso kyAranI ya saMbhaLAya che. 2-3 vAra bahAra joI AvI, paNa kyAMya dekhAtA nathI." eka sAdhvIjIe potAnA gurujIne vAta karI. e samaya hato jAnyuArI-phebruArIno ! kaDakaDatI ThaMDIno ! rAtrinA 11-30 thI 12-00no ! sthAna hatuM auraMgAbAda zahera ! eno eka upAzraya ! sAdhvIjIe gurujIne uThADIne upara mujaba vAta karI. "are, tuM hajI jAge che? ATalA moDA sudhI? zuM thayuM?" uThelA gurujIe sAmo prazna karyo. "saMthAro karI ja dIdhelo, paNa galuDIyAonI cIso sAMbhaLIne uThI gaI. be-traNa vAra bahAra paNa najara karI AvI, paNa galuDIyA kyAMya dekhAtA nathI. A to rAtano samaya ! eTale Apane uThADyA. eka vAra pharI dhyAnathI joI AvuM." eTaluM kahIne sAdhvIjI upAzrayanA bAraNAmAMthI jarAka bahAra nIkaLyA, gurujI jAgI gayA hovAthI have bhaya na hato. eTale jarAka dhyAnathI najara karI to upAzraya pAsethI ja je jamInamAM gaTara pasAra thatI hatI, emAMno ekAda patthara haTI gayelo, game te rIte bicArA 3-4 galuDIyAo eka pachI eka paDI gayelA. bahAra nIkaLI zake ema na hatA, rAtanI ThaMDI atisakhata hatI, gaTaranI bhInAza, vahetuM thoDuMka pANI... e vaLI vadhAre ThaMDI ubhI karatA hatA. sAdhvIjI galuDIyAonuM e duHkha joI na zakyA, raDavA lAgyA, tarata pAchA pharIne gurujIne vAta karI. "Apa mane rajA Apo, huM e galuDIyAone bahAra kADhI laIza. atyAre koI gRhastha che ja nahi. nahi to to ene vAta karata. ane rAte bAra vAge kone kahevA javuM? zuM AkhI rAta galuDIyAone duHkhI thatA joyA karavAnuM? ane bicArA rAte ja marI jAya to? hajI to pAMceka kalAka vahelI savAra paDatA ochAmAM ochA bAkI che.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo 'gurujI ! mArAthI e cIso saMbhaLAtI nathI. Apa mane...' sAdhvIjInA hRdayadrAvaka zabdo sAMbhaLIne ane gaLagaLA banelA svarane anubhavIne gurujIe apavAdarUpe saMmati ApI. e sthAna nirbhaya hatuM eTale bIjo koI prazna na hato. sAdhvIjIe baMne hAthamAM plAsTIkanI kothaLIo paherI lIdhI, pachI pANI laIne gaTara pAse pahoMcI gayA. gaTara thoDIka ja uMDI hatI. (eka-doDha hAtha jeTalI) paNa galuDIyA eTalA badhA gabharAI gayelA ke sAdhvIjI emane hAthathI pakaDe. to gabhasaTathI e ja chaTakIne pAchA aMdara paDI jatA. emane zuM khabara paDe ? ke sAdhvIjI amane bacAvavA mAMge che... eTale ja emane bahAra kADhavAmAM ghaNI muzkelI paDI. paNa karuNArdra sAdhvIjIe vArApharatI badhAne bahAra kADhyA, cUnAnA acittapANIthI sApha karyA, eka garama kaMtAnathI badhAne luMchI nAMkhyA. garama kaMtAnano garamATo maLavAnA kAraNe galuDIyAone khUba ja zAtA maLI. cIso baMdha thaI. tAnamAM ja badhA galuDIyA zAMtithI sUI gayA. sAdhvIjIne paNa e pachI ja saMthArAmAM zAMtithI nidrA AvI. emane para saMtoSa hato. (cokkasa, A eka apavAdamArga che. sAdhvIjIne gaTaranA kAcA pANI vagereno saMghaTTo paNa thayo. chatAM najara sAme paMcendriyo pIDAtA hoya, emAM potAnA bhAvaprANa khatama thatA hoya, evA vakhate eka saMyamI zakya eTalI jayaNApUrvaka jIva bacAve, emAM lAgelA doSonuM pAchaLathI prAyazcitta paNa karI le, to e apavAdamArga rUpe yogya gaNI zakAya. saMyamIno karuNAno pariNAma kevo hoya ? enI karuNAbhInI AMkhomAMthI azruno pravAha kevo vaheto hoya ?.... e badhuM ja AnA uparathI samajI zakAya che. sarvajIvasnehapariNAmaH cAritram 'cI, cI, cI...' bhayAnaka cIso jhADIvALI dizAmAMthI AvI rahI hatI. vaDInIti jaIne pAchA pharI rahelA eka sAdhvIjIe e cIso sAMbhaLI. "pAlitANA jevI pavitra tIrthabhUmi para paNa bhUMDono zikAra karavA mATe avAranavAra zikArIo Ave che, bhUMDone pakaDI jAya che. mArIkApIne mAMsano dhaMdho kare che..." A badhI jANakArI hovAthI sAdhvIjI samajI gayA ke atyAre paNa zIkhaDA jevA zikArI mANaso bhUMDone pakaDavA AvyA lAge che..." kSaNabhara to gabharATa thayo. bacAvavA javAnuM mana thayuM, paNa pote ekalA ! pAchA strI jAti ! bIjA be-cAra sAdhvIjIo paNa hatA, paNa sAme zikArI, guMDA jevA hiMsaka mANasono pratIkAra karavA koNa hiMmata kare ? 52

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~~~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~ ~ ~ - "cI, cI.." vaLI cIso saMbhaLAI. atitIrNa cIso ! have sAdhvIjI na rahI zakyA. tarata ja e dizA tarapha jhaDapa vadhArI mUkI, joyuM to kalpanA sAcI TharI. e ya ! choDI do bhUMDone !" sAdhvIjIe moTethI bUma pADI. paNa pelA zikArI zIkhaDAo to hasavA lAgyA. koNa jANe ? paNa sAdhvIjImAM kyAMthI sakhata hiMmata AvI gaI ke bAjumAM paDelA patharAo uMcakI uMcakIne jora jorathI ghA karavA lAgyA. zIkhaDAo gabharAyA. AvA aNadhAryA humalAnI kalpanA paNa na hatI, ane sAdhvIjI pUrA joza sAthe, pUrA jhanuna sAthe patharAo mAratA hatA... sAthe bacAva mATe jorathI bumo pADatA hatA. zIkhaDAone lAgyuM ke "jokhama karavAmAM majA nathI.' ane badhu paDatuM mukIne zIkhaDAo bhAgI gayA. to ya be miniTa sudhI to sAdhvIjIno jusso zAMta na thayo, jyAre emane vizvAsa beTho ke "have e zIkhaDAo pAchA nahi Ave tyAre emano zvAsa heTho beTho, e pAchA pharyA. dUra ubhelA bIjA sAdhvIjIo A badhuM joI ja rahyA hatA. banAva eTalo badho jhaDapathI banI gayelo ke emane kazI sujha ja paDI na hatI. paNa jyAre pUrI saphaLatA pAmIne sAdhvIjIne pAchA pharatA joyA, tyAre badhAe eka sAthe puchayuM "tame to ghaNA bIkaNa cho. tamArAmAM vaLI AvI tAkAta kyAMthI AvI caDI ?" smita sAme emaNe javAba Apyo "mota jyAre najara sAme dekhAya, tyAre game evA bIkaNamAM ya hiMmata AvI jAya." "paNa e zIkhaDAo tamane IjA pahoMcAData to ? kadAca cappa mArI deta to ?" "prabhunA pyArA jIvonuM je rakSaNa kare che, temanuM rakSaNa karavA to prabhu svayaM padhAre che. pachI mAre zI ciMtA ?" agAdha zraddhA sAthe sAdhvIjI bolyA. ('AvuM badhAe ja karavuM' ema kahevAno bhAva nathI. paNa saMyamInI karuNA kevI phATatI hoya... mAtra eTaluM ja batAvavAno Azaya che. uparano prasaMga je sAdhvIjIno che, emanuM haiyuM jIvamAtra pratyenI prItithI - lAgaNIthI, karUNAthI bhInuM bhInuM zI rIte thayuM ? e jANavA mATe emanA gurujInA jIvanamAM banelo eka prasaMga khAsa jANavA jevo che. je AvatA aMkamAM lezuM...) sasalA, sAbara, mRga ane rojhaDA... "chIcha ! bilakula avAja nahi karatA, mArI pAchaLa pAchaLa cAlyA Avo..." guruNIe potAnI be ziSyAone ekadama dhImA avAje sUcanA karI, ane ubhA thaIne upAzrayanA mukhya bAraNAnI bahAra nIkaLI gayA. be ziSyAo paNa bahAra AvI gaI.

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-~~-~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo-------------- rAtanA pratikramaNa pUrNa thaI gayA bAda aDadho kalAka vItyo haze, e vakhatanI A vAta ! upAzraya aMdhArAvALo hato, AjubAju jhADI paNa kharI ! "zuM thayuM gurujI !" ziSyAe prazna karyo. "upAzrayamAM lAMbo sApa ghusI gayo che." gurujI ekadama zAMtithI bolyA. "zuM ? sApa ? kyAM ? Ape kevI rIte joyo ?" baMne ziSyA rItasara bhaDakI ja gaI. "aMdhArAmAM dekhAya to nahi, paNa pratikramaNa bAda huM uvasaggaharano japa karatI hatI, e vakhate mArA pagane lIso lIso sparza thayo, paga upara caDIne kaMIka sarakatuM hoya, evuM lAgyuM. enA AdhAre khyAla AvI gayo ke "A nakkI sApa Avyo che' ene paga parathI pasAra thatA ghaNIvAra lAgI, eTale nirNaya thaI gayo ke sApa lAMbo che. paNa Apane bhaya na lAgyo ? cIsa na paDI gaI ?" ziSyAo hajI vAta sAMbhaLIne ja dhrujatI hatI. gurujInI ATalI badhI zAMti emane mATe to Azcarya ja hatuM. bhaya zeno lAge ? e ya chevaTe eka jIva ja che ne ? mAre badhA jIvo pratye sarakho ja bhAva ! jo cIsa pADu, doDuM, to sApa paNa gabharAI jAya, ghaNA badhA bhegA thaIne sApane mArI nAMkhe, mAre evuM kaMI ja karavuM na hatuM. tuM eka kAma kara, bAjunA gharethI zrAvakane beTarI sAthe bolAvI lAva. sAthe bIjA be-cAra yuvAnone paNa laI Ave... ema kaheje." thoDI ja vAramAM cAreka bhAIo AvI gayA. aMdara sApa ghusyo lAge che. sAvacetIpUrvaka tapAsa karavI paDaze." bhAIo paNa coMkyA. ame sAMbhaLIne ya gabharAIe chIe, ane A sAdhvIjI. beTarI karIne bhAIo aMdara gayA. bItA bItA tapAsa karI, to pATanI nIce lAMbo, kALo, jADo sApa paDelo hato. jotAnI sAthe ja AkhA zarIramAM dhrujArI chUTI gaI. be hiMmatabAja yuvAnoe lAkaDIo jamIna para pachADI, sApane jarAka aDADI aDADIne ene mAMDa mAMDa upAzrayamAMthI bahAra kADhyo. guruNI to tarata aMdara AvI pAchA jApa karavA lAgI gayA. paNa bIjA badhA to sApanA gayA pachI paNa ekadama bhayabhIta banI rahyA. satata eno ja vicAra AvyA kare, bIjI bAju guruNInI nirbhayatA joIne atyaMta AnaMda paNa thayo. AvA guruNInA e ziSyAe bhaMDone ane galuDIyAone bacAvyA hatA, jenA prasaMgo pUrve ApI dIdhA che.) | (ApaNane AvI bAbatomAM kyAreka zraddhA na paNa bese. "upAzrayamAM kaMI sApa Avato haze." evo vicAra paNa AvI jAya. paNa traNeka mahinA pahelA ja Avo anubhava thaI gayo. tapovananA upAzrayamAM lAMbo sApa aMdara ghusI gayo, gocarIrUmanA bAraNAnI pAchaLa lapAI

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---------------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo~~~~~~ gayo. sAdhue sApane tyAM jatA joyo, eTale vaDIlane vAta karI. vaDIle nAchuTake sApa pakaDanAra ahiMsaka bhAIne bolAvyo, eNe sApane pakaDIne baraNImAM pUryo.. A badhuM mArI hAjarImAM ja banyuM. paNa mane eTalo badho Dara ke nIce A badhI dhamAla cAlatI hatI, tyAre huM upara pahelA mALe ja rahyo. sApa joIne paNa, yAda karIne paNa mane bhaya lAgato, to A sAdhvIjI Akho ne Akho sApa paga parathI sarakI jAya ane chatAM kazo bhaya na lAge e keTalI moTI siddhi gaNAya ? eTale "AvA prasaMgo bogasa che ke khoTA che evuM lagIre na mAnazo. saMyamIno ahiMsaka pariNAma kevo hoya ? e mATe zAstramAM lakhyuM che ke sasalAo, kabutaro, haraNAo nirbhaya banIne saMyamInA khoLAmAM besI jAya... snehathI moTuM suMdhe.. ApaNe AvI pavitratAnA svAmI kyAre banazuM ? atyAre bhAvanA to bhAvIe, to bhaviSyamAM saphaLatA maLaze. ghaDapaNamAM zANapaNa amane e nathI samajAtuM ke AMkhethI dekhAtuM nathI, ane pote ekalA rahe che, upAzraya moTo che, to e Akho divasa pasAra kevI rIte kare che ? gocarI kevI rIte lAve ? aMDilamAtrunuM zuM ? A to bhAre Azcarya kahevAya." uttaragujarAtanA eka dharmiSTha nAnakaDA zaheramAM mukhya zrAvakone meM prazna puchyo. ame gAmamAM rokAyA hatA, amArA upAzrayanI bAjumAM ja moTA upAzrayamAM eka vRddha sAdhvIjI varSothI rahetA hatA. Ama to vRddhanI sevAmAM koIka saMyamI hoya ja, paNa kyAreka kAraNasara evI goThavaNa na paNa thaI hoya. zarUAtanA pAMca-sAta divasa to amane A vAtanI khabara ja na hatI, pachI acAnaka khabara paDI, eTale javAbadAra zrAvakone ja A prazna karyo. ane zrAvakoe je javAba Apyo, e sAMbhaLIne bhAre AMcako lAgyo. "A sAdhvIjInI jagyAe ame hoIe to ?" e praznano javAba manane muMjhavaNamAM nAMkhI de evo hato. mahArAja sAheba !" lAgaNIsabhara haiye vaDIla zrAvake bolavAnI zaruAta karI. "atyAre 82 varSanI uMmara che. 6ra varSano dIkSAparyAya che. uMmara moTI thayA bAda chellA ghaNAM varSothI ahIM ja sthiravAsa hatA. paNa tyAgabhAvanA khUba ! bAreka varSa pahelA upAzrayamAM ja paDI gayelA. hospITalamAM laI javAmAM AvyA, yurIna (mAtra) baMdha thaI gayuM hatuM, eTale zarIramAM sojA paNa vadhI gayelA. DokTare kahyuM ke "DAyAlisIsa karAvavuM ja paDaze." lAyansa hospITalamAM cAra DAyAlisIsa karAvyA, paNa sudhAro na thayo. 5 5 -

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------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo --~~~~ emAM vaLI aSADha suda caudasa ekadama najIka AvI. sAdhvIjI bha. amane kahe "mane eka divasa mATe upAzraye laI jAva. mArA kAraNe bIjA sAdhvIjI paNa herAna thAya che ane badhAnI ArAdhanA bagaDe che." (te vakhate bIjA sAdhvIjI sevAmAM hatA.) ame muMjhAyA, saMghanA pAMca-cha mANasoe bhegA maLIne zaheranA mukhya mukhya cAra-pAMca DokTaronI salAha lIdhI. badhAno eka ja javAba ! "AvuM jokhama bilakula na karazo, hospITalamAM ja rAkhavA paDe." paNa sAdhvIjI bha.no nizcaya pAko hato, chevaTe badhAnI uparavaTa thaIne ame emane upAzrayamAM lAvyA. e ja divase eka zrAvaka (je atyAre muni banI gayA che, emane vaMdana karavA AvyA, paristhiti joIne kahe ke "chaganalAla nAmanA eka sArA vaidya che, nimbArka phArmasI pAse rahe che. huM bolAvI lAvuM.." ane thoDA ja samayamAM vaidya sAthe hAjara thaI gayA. vaidya ajaina ! chatAM jaina sAdhu-sAdhvIone sASTAMga daMDavata praNAma kare ane emanI davAno eka paNa rUpiyo na le. emaNe sAdhvIjIne sparza paNa karyA vinA kahI dIdhuM ke "A eka ja divasamAM maTI jaze. huM paDIkI ApuM chuM. 100 grAma pANImAM nAMkhI 20 grAma pANI thAya, tyAM sudhI ukALavAnuM, pachI sAdhvIjIne e ukALo vaparAvavAno. dara eka kalAke A rIte karajo." ane, sAhebajI ! savArathI sAMja sudhImAM ame ATha-dasa vAra A rIte vaparAvyuM, bIjA divase ja enI dhArI asara thaI. DokTaronI divaso sudhInI davAo kazuM karI zakI na hatI. ahIM eka ja divasanI davA bAda poNA be lITara jeTaluM mAguM thaI gayuM, 80% sojA utarI gayA. bIjA divasanI davA bAda badhuM ja gAyaba ! zarIra para DAghA paDelA, e paNa vaidhe ApelI davA lagADavAthI gAyaba thaI gayA. vaidya kahe "mahArAja sAheba! A mArI davAono nahi, paNa ApanA saMyamajIvanano prabhAva che..." chellA daseka varSathI AMkhe dekhAtuM lagabhaga baMdha thaI gayuM che. emanI sevA mATe kAyamI vyavasthA to thaI nathI, paNa koIka sAdhvIjIo ahIM hoya, to avasare sAcavI le che. e sivAya emanI badhI ja kALajI saMghanA baheno kare che. "gocarI ?" "mArA gharethI ja jAya che. paNa sAhebajI ! meM Apane kahyuM ne ? emano tyAga gajabano che. savAre navakArazImAM dUdha na le, mAtra khAkharo laI le. ame pUchayuM to kahe ke "dUdha vAparavAthI jhADA thaI jAya, to e badhI muzkelI vadhI paDe ne? huM to joI zakatI nathI. eTale kapaDA bagaDe... vagere kaMIpaNa thAya to tamAre ciMtA vadhe... mATe mAtra lukhA khAkharA ja vAparI laIza..." bapore paNa ekadama ochI ane sAdI gocarI le. mIThAI vagerene to prAyaH aDatA ja nathI. sAhebajI ! saMyamano pariNAma kevo ? e Apane kahyuM... ame puchayuM ke "tame ochA dravyo kema lo cho ? savAre cAra-pAMca vastu, bapore sAta-ATha vastu... e rIte lo, to bhAve paNa kharuM."

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo tyAre amane kahe "jeTalA vadhu dravyo, eTalA vadhu vAsaNomAM tamAre lAvavuM paDe ne ? eTalA vadhu vAsaNo tamAre dhovA paDe. e badhAnuM pApa mane lAge. enA badale ochA ane sukA jevA dravyo hoya to A pApa to mArA mAthe na Ave ne ?" bolo, sAhebajI ! dravya saMkSepa karavA pAchaLa paNa keTaluM lAMbu gaNita ! hajI Aje paNa pAMcatithi ekAsaNA-AMbila-upavAsa karI le che, koI phariyAda nahi..' AvI AvI vAto sAMbhaLIne huM to Abho ja banI gayo. AMkha hoya to to pustako vagere vAMcIne paNa samaya pasAra thAya, A sAdhvIjIne to AMkho ja nathI, ane sAthe ghaNA sAdhvIjIo hoya, to vAtocIto dvArA paNa samaya pasAra thAya, paNa ahIM to evuM ya nathI, zI rIte 24 klAka nIkaLe ? AkhI rAta zI rIte pasAra thAya ?.... ciMtAthI mAruM magaja kharekhara bhAre banI gayuM. "mAre emane maLavuM che, tame sAthe Avazo ?" meM zrAvakane puchyuM ane bIjA ja divase sAdhvIjInA upAzrayamAM zrAvakane laIne pahoMcyo. sAMjano samaya ! eka oraDI jevI jagyAmAM ekalA beThA beThA kaMIka kAma karatA hatA, zrAvake mArA AvavAnI jANa karI, emanA mukha para rItasara AnaMda chavAI gayo. aupacArika vAto bAda meM pRcchA karI. "tamAro Akho divasa zI rIte pasAra thAya che ?'' "navasmaraNa, sAdhukriyAnA sUtro, pambhisUtra vagere vagereno maukhika svAdhyAya karuM chuM, 62 varSamAM je kaMI zravaNa-vAMcana-manana karyu che, enuM ciMtana karuM chuM. zrAvikAbaheno Ave tyAre emanI ruci pramANe upadeza ApuM chuM." "paNa vaDInItinuM zuM ? tamane to dekhAtuM nathI ?" "mahArAja sAheba ! A juo. A kramazaH be-traNa pATo goThavI che ne ? enA Teke Teke huM cheka chelle sudhI pahoMcuM. tyAM pyAlo vagere goThaveluM ja che, eTale mane phAvI jAya che. divasamAM ekavAra bhaMgiyaNa AvI jAya che. have to TevAI gaI chuM. e ja rIte laghunItinI paNa vyavasthA thaI gaI che." "paNa ekalA rahevuM phAve che ? trAsa, udvega, kaMTALo nathI Avato ?" "nA re nA ! koI sAdhvIjIo Ave, to AnaMda cokkasa thAya, paNa koI na hoya to ya ekadama prasannatAthI jIvuM chuM. basa, have samAdhimaraNa maLe, eTalI ja apekSA che. bAkI saMghanA bhAI-baheno khUba-khUba kALajI kare che..." tarata zrAvakabhAI bolyA "ma.sA. ! ahIM bahenonI avarajavara cAlu ja hoya che. vacce aDadho klAkanuM paNa aMtara nahi paDatuM hoya ke jemAM baheno na hoya. vadhumAM vadhu 20-25 miniTa Akho upAzraya khAlI rahe, evuM bane..." (apavAdamArge A rIte sAdhvIjI bha. sAthe gRhasthanI hAjarImAM sAdhvIjInA ja upAzrayamAM 57

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo jaIne vAta karyA bAda jyAre pAcho pharato hato tyAre...) "sAhebajI ! Aje Apa padhAryA, eno mane khUba ja AnaMda thayo che. e nimitte huM 2000 gAthAno svAdhyAya karIza." mukha paranA uchaLatA bhAva sAthe e 82 varSanA vayovRddha sAdhvIjI bolyA. e dRzya joI, emanA zabdo sAMbhaLI AMsunA buMda TapakI paDyA. "jinazAsanamAM, jainasaMghamAM khUNe-khAMcare paNa kevA uttama sAdhvIratno birAjamAna che." e vicArathI harSanA ! ane A uMmare A paristhitimAM paNa saMpUrNa prasanna rahI zakanArA A sAdhvIjI kyAM ! ane bharayuvAna vayamAM paNa nAnI nAnI bAbatomAM prasannatA TakAvavA mATe mahenata karavI paDe evI bhUmikAvALo huM kyAM !" e vicAre khedanA ! upAzraye AvIne sAMjanA pratikramaNa bAda sau munione satyaghaTanA jaNAvIne preraNA karI ke "jIvanamAM game tevI paristhiti vacce paNa prasanna rahetA zIkhajo, AvA Adarzone najaramAM rAkhajo. dIna banI na jatA, khumArI gumAvI na besatA, motane yAda karavA na mAMDatA..." (A AkhA prasaMganA AdhAre keTalIka agatyanI bAbato. - saMyamIoe vRddha saMyamIone sAcavavA mATe bhoga Apavo joIe. A karelI sevA kadI niSphaLa nahi jAya. ApaNI samAdhinuM bIja A sevA ja banI raheze. hA ! ghaNA saMyamIoe prastuta sAdhvIjInI vArApharatI sevA karI ja che... - yuvAna uMmaramAM roga thAya, to davAono-DokTarono Azaro levo paNa paDe. roga maTe, to lAMbo kALa saMyama pALI zakAya. paNa 60-70 varSanI uMmara thAya, eTale rogo utpanna thavAnA ja, mota najIka AvavAnuM ja... e vakhate samAdhi TakAvavA mATe davAo levI paDe e ThIka ! bAkI jaldI jaldI hospITalo - DokTaronA panAre paDavA jevuM nathI. puSkaLa virAdhanAo sAthe be-traNa varSa vadhu jIvavuM (ane emAM ya vadhu bhayaMkara rogo ubhA thavAnI zakyatA ! eTale ja chelle asamAdhinI zakyatA) ene badale eTaluM AyuSya ochuM jIvIe, paNa virAdhanAo... asamAdhithI bacIe, e vadhu, ghaNuM vadhu yogya ! - zrIsaMgha jo A rIte 1-1 vRddha saMyamIone sagA mA-bApa banIne barAbara sAcavI le, ghasAro sahana karavA taiyAra thAya, ghaDapaNanA kAraNe pragaTelA doSone gauNa karato thAya... to jinazAsananI mahAna sevA karavAno lAbha e zrAvaka-zrAvikAsaMghane maLe. sau saMyamIo ghaDapaNamAM AvuM zANapaNa keLavanArA sAdhvIjI bha.no Adarza najara sAme rAkhe e ja paramakRpAlu paramAtmAne prArthanA !) (tA.ka. thoDAka mahinA pahelA ja emano kALadharma thaI gayo che.) 58

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo na kSaNamapi kSamaM mumukSUNAM nirabhigrahANAM sthAtum eka yuvAna munirAja roja ekAsaNA to kare ja, paNa emAM dararoja judA judA prakAranA abhigraho dhAraNa kare. (1) 'eka ja ghare vahoravA javuM, tyAMthI je maLe enAthI ja ekAsaNuM karavuM, ane e ghare potAnA AgamananuM kahevaDAvavAnuM paNa nahi.' A rIte eka ekAsaNuM ! (2) mAtra sapheda dravyo vAparavA. (eka divasa.) (3) pAMcamAM mALanA gharomAMthI je gocarI maLe, e ja vAparavI. (4) koI zrAvaka (zrAvikA nahi) dUdha vahorAve, to ja vAparavuM, nahi to upavAsa ! (5) gharomAM puruSa vyakti je dravyo vahorAve, e ja vAparavAnA, bIjA nahi. (6) tithinA divase kaThoLano tyAga ! (eTale vyaMjana-supa baMdha ja thaI gayuM.) (7)upAzrayamAM pAMca zrAvako potAne vaMdana karI jAya, pachI ja ekAsaNuM karavuM.' e divase bapore sADA traNa vAge abhigraha pUro thayo. (8) eka ja pAtrAmAM gocarI vAparavI. (badhuM emAM bheguM karavAnuM) (9) mAtra jamaNA hAtha sivAya AkhA zarIrane sthira rAkhIne vAparavuM. (10) badhA dravyomAM 1-1 ToksI pANI nAMkhIne vAparavuM. dUdhamAM - dALamAM - zAkamAM - bhAtamAM - roTalImAM badhAmAM 1-1 TokasI pANI nAMkhIne vAparavuM. (11) ekAsaNAnA tamAma dravyomAM kariyAtuM nAMkhIne vAparavuM. (12) saMyojanA vagara vAparavuM. (13) zuddha AMbila karavuM. (mAtra bhAta vAparavA, emAM upara cAra AMgaLa jeTaluM pANI tare, eTaluM pANI nAMkhavuM.) (14) savA2nI mAMDalImAM je vadhyuM hoya, e ja bapore vAparavuM. (15) svAmivAtsalya patI jAya, badhA mANaso paNa jamI le, e pachI je vadhe e ja vAparavuM. (je divase svAmivAtsalya hatuM, e divase A niyama lIdhelo.) (16) tarapaNI - cetanAmAM je dravyo Ave, e ja vAparavAnA. pAtrAmAM vahorAIne AvelA nahi. (17) avaDhanA paccakkhANe ekAsaNuM ! (18) badhA ja dravyomAM sudarzanacUrNa nAMkhIne vAparavuM. (19) koI mahAtmA kahe ke "pANI vAparo..." to ja ekAsaNuM karavuM (e divase koIe evI vinaMti karI na hatI, eTale covihAra upavAsa thayelo.) 59

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-~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo khAsa - > A niyamo koIne paNa kahevAnA nahi, manathI ja dhAravAnA. - A niyamo eka-eka divasanA hatA, kAyamanA nahi. roja navA navA niyamo letA jAya. (zrI upadezarahasyamAM mahopAdhyAyajI pharamAve che ke mokSArthI AtmAe eka kSaNa mAtra paNa abhigraha lIdhA vinAnA rahevuM nahi. roja nAnA-moTA, navA navA abhigrahothI AtmAne bAMdhavo. emAM vairAgya vadhe che, saMvegabhAva vadhe che. ApaNe emanA vacanane saphaLa banAvavuM joIe. A eka ja mahAtmA zuM kAma A badhA abhigraho le? ApaNe paNa ApaNI zakti pramANe ochA-vattA abhigraho laI zakIe ne ?) na kSaNamapi kSamaM mumukSUNAM nirabhigrahANAM sthAtum eka mahAtmAnI 108mI oLInI anumodanA mATe prastuta munie pharIthI vardhamAna tapano pAyo nAMkhyo, ane e 20 divasa viziSTa prakAranI tapazcaryA karI. te A pramANe - (1) traNa dattithI AMbila ! (eka sAthe jeTaluM vahorAvAya te eka datti ! dA.ta. zrAvaka ekavAramAM eka sAthe traNa roTalI ja vahorAve, to e eka datti ! zrAvikA eka camaco dALa vahorAve, to e bIjI datti ! ane pANI ekadhArathI jeTaluM vahorAve e trIjI datti ! basa, ATalAthI ja AMbila karI levAnuM. AmAM pramANa ochuM ke vadhAre paNa thaI zake che.) upavAsa. pahelA divase je vastu AMbilakhAtAmAM na banI hoya, ane Aje trIjA divase banI hoya, te vastuthI ja AMbila ! ATha dravyo vAparavA. dareka dravya judA judA dhAnyanuM ja levAnuM. dA.ta. ghauMnI be vastu nahi. aDadanI be vastu nahi. ghauMnI eka, aDadanI eka, caNAnI eka.. upavAsa. grupamAM jeTalA mahAtmAone AMbila hoya, te badhAne koIpaNa eka dravyanuM nAma bolavA kahevuM. teo je nAmo bole, e ja vAparavA. (ekabIjAne ekabIjAe kahelA nAmo kahevA nahi, eTale eka ja nAma be vAra paNa bolAya, to e eka ja dravya vAparavAnuM thAya.). grupamAM jeTalA mahAtmAone AMbila hoya, te badhAne koIpaNa eka dravyanuM nAma

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo) bolavA kahevuM. teo je nAma bole, e dravyo nahi vAparavAnA, paNa e sivAyanA dravyo vA52vAnA. (8) (9) (10) kariyAtuM nAMkhIne vAparavuM. (11) sehulabhAI nAmanA eka zrAvake pAyo nAMkhelo, emaNe AMbilamAM jeTalA dravyo e divase vAparelA hoya, eTalA ane e ja dravyo vAparavA. (12) AyaMbilakhAtAmAM banAvelA tamAme tamAma dravyo vahoravAnA, badhA eka pAtrAmAM dAdAguru + guru + anya eka mahAtmA ema traNa jaNa je eka-eka dravyanuM nAma bole, e ja eka-eka dravya vAparavA. (kula traNa ja dravyo thAya.) upavAsa. bhegA karIne vAparavAnuM. eTale ke badhA ja prakAranA pravAhI khorAko + roTalI, roTalA vagere + pharasANa + odana + thulI vagere badhuM ja eka ja pAtrAmAM bhegA karIne vAparavAnA. (13) navapadanI oLI cAlu hatI, eTale ghaNA badhA munione AMbila cAlu hovAthI traNa jhoLI AMbila khAte jatI hatI. emAMthI rUpAtIta vi. nAmanA sAdhunI jhoLImAM je dravyo Ave, e ja dravyo vAparavAnA. bIjI jhoLImAM AvelA dravyo nahi. (e paNa pahelethI kahevAnuM nahi.) upavAsa. (14) (15) pahelI vAranI gocarImAM AMbilamAM je dravyo na AvyA hoya, tenAthI ja AMbila karavuM. (e bIjIvAramAM maMgAvI levAnA.) (16) tarapaNI cetanAmAM je dravyo AvyA hoya, enAthI ja AMbila... (17) sehulabhAIe je dravyo vAparyA hoya, e sivAyanA ja dravyo levAnA, vAparavAnA. (18) alepakRta sukA khAkharA-caNA-dhANI vagere dravyo ja vAparavAnA. (19) (A lekha mokalanAre 19mAM divasanuM lakhela nathI...) (20) upavAsa. = ghATakoparanA comAsA daramyAna A munie abhigrahothI viziSTa evo pAyo ArAdhI ApaNane saune eka AlaMbana Apela che ke manane bAMdhI na rAkhavuM. badhuM ja cAle, badhA prakAranuM cAle. da22oja paristhiti badalAya, to dararoja emAM jAtane barAbara goThavI devI, uMcA-nIcA na thavuM. abhigraho levA pAchaLanuM eka kAraNa A paNa che ke rUTIMga lAIphane badale badalAtI paristhitiomAM jIvavAthI tana ane mana badhI ja rIte ghaDAya. 6 1

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIoaNajANItI eka mahAvibhUti Azare 183 varSa pahelA vi.saM. 1885 caitra vada 6nA divase mathurA pAse cAMdapora gAmamAM eka brAhmaNa parivAramAM eka bALakano janma thayo. 9 varSanI uMmare e bALakane mAtApitAe jainayati rUpacaMdajI pAse bhaNavA mATe mukyo. abhyAsa ane vairAgya tIvra thayA tyAre vi.saM. 1903mAM makSIjImAM yatidIkSAno svIkAra karyo. (arthAt 18 varSanI uMmare dIkSA thaI.) dIkSA bAda keTaloka samaya A muni A.mahendrasUri pAse rokAyA ane pachI potAnA vidyAguru yati rUpacaMdajI pAse muMbaI pahoMcyA. thoDAka vakhata bAda samajaNa prApta thatA yatidIkSA tyAgIne saMvigna sAdhu tarIkenI dIkSAno aMgIkAra karyo. e ghaTanA A pramANe banI. kalakattAmAM zrI pArzvanAtha bha.nuM dhyAna dharatA dharatA A munine kALo sarpa dekhAyo. emane thayuM ke "dharaNendradeva mane kaMIka kahevA mAMge che...' e ciMtananA pariNAme emaNe yatimAMthI saMvigna sAdhu banavAno nirNaya karyo. (yati eTale Ama jaina sAdhu ! paNa chUTachATovALA sAdhu...) vi.saM. 1930mAM ajameramAM saMbhavanAtha bha.nA jinAlayamAM emaNe saMvegI dIkSA lIdhI. emanA jIvananA prasaMgo (1) "sAhebajI mane gocarIno lAbha Apo." vaMdana mATe AvelA sirohInA rAjA kesarIsiMhe sirohImAM ja A munine vinaMti karI. "tame rAjA cho, eTale tamAro piMDa amane na cAle. paNa jo tame dhAro to anna-pANI karatA paNa uMcI bhikSA mane ApI zako." munie hoziyArIpUrvaka javAba vALyo. 'mAMgo, zuM ApuM ?' "rAjan ! dazerAnA divase pADAno je vadha thAya che, te baMdha karAvo ane pazusaNamAM amArinI ghoSaNA karAvo." rAjAe prasanna thaI pADAnuM balidAna to baMdha karAvyuM ja, e uparAMta zrAvaNa vada-11thI bhAdaravA vada 11 ema eka mAsa sudhI zirohImAM tamAma katalakhAnA baMdha rAkhavAnuM pharamAna karyuM. rohIDAmAM jinAlaya banAvavAnI saMmati rAjA dvArA meLavI ApI. brAhmaNavADAmAM jinAlayano kabajo jainetaronA hAthamAM hato, e zirohInareza dvArA jainonA hAthamAM apAvyo. (2) vi.saM. 1936nI vAta ! osiyA gAmanI bahAra muni vaDInIti mATe gayA. tyAre retInA TekarAmAM dAMDo cheka aMdara jato rahyo. ane kazIka nakkara cIja sAthe athaDAyo. munine lAgyuM ke nIce kazuMka zilpa-sthApatya hovuM joIe. munie jodhapura ane phalodhinA saMghane preraNA 62

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-~~~-~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo karI. saMghe khodakAma karAvatA AkhuM jinamaMdIra nIkaLyuM, jeno jIrNoddhAra karavAmAM Avyo. (3) jodhapuranA divAna AlamacaMdajI A muninI vANIthI vairAgya pAmyA. vi.saM. 1937mAM ghaNA ThATha sAthe dIkSA lIdhI. nUtanamuninuM nAma paDyuM, AnaMdavijaya ! A prathama ziSya hatA. (saMvegIdIkSA bAda sAta varSe ziSyanI prApti !). (4) jeThamalajI nAmanA eka zrAvaka A muni pAse zaMkA-samAdhAna mATe AvatA. chevaTe pratibodha pAmI dIkSita thayA. (5) ekavAra AtmArAmajI ma. sirohImAM pratikramaNa pachI "..... mahArAjanI jaya" sAMbhaLIne camakyA. "A vaLI koNa? jenI jaya A rIte zrAvako bolAve che ?' tapAsa karatA emane prastuta muninA darzananI IcchA pragaTI. jodhapuramAM maLyA, vArtAlApa pachI to AtmArAmajI ma.ne emanA pratye AdarabhAva ghaNo ja vadhI gayo. (6) e AdarabhAva evo vadhyo ke jyAre suratanA saMghe AtmArAmajI ma.ne suratamAM bIjuM comAsuM karavAnI vinaMti karI, tyAre emaNe tarata kahyuM ke "tame A munine comAsA mATe bolAvo." ane vi.saM. 1946mAM munie suratamAM comAsuM karyuM. comAsA daramyAna ja muMbaInI vinaMti AvI, yati avasthAmAM muMbaI gayA hatA. paNa saMvegI sAdhu banyA bAda nahi. emaNe vadhu lAbha samajIne muMbaInI vinaMti svIkArI. e vakhate vasaInI khADI pAra karavA mATe relvenA pula uparathI ja javuM paDatuM. e sivAya bIjo koI vikalpa na hato. (hAIve roDa vagerenI vyavasthA nahi...) relve pAsethI ghaNA prayatno karIne maMjurI meLavavAmAM AvI. muMbaImAM emanuM bhavya sAmaiyuM thayuM. saMvegI sAdhuno muMbaImAM A prathama praveza hato, bhAvikoe harSollAsathI prerAIne emane sonA-cAMdI-motIthI vadhAvyA hatA. jANakAro kahe che ke brITIza vAIsaraoNya ripananA muMbaI Agamana vakhatanA sAmaiyA karatA A muninuM sAmaiyuM vadhu prabhAvaka hatuM. mAdhavabAgamAM vyAkhyAnamAM eTalI badhI medanI umaTavA mAMDI ke tAtkAlika moTo hola bAMdhavAnI jarura paDI. bAbu buddhisiMhe 16 hajAranA kharce eno lAbha lIdho. motIzAnA bAga tarIke jANIto upAzraya lAlabAga tarIke jANIto banyo. - comAsuM zaru thaI javA jatAM varasAda bilakula nahi. lokonI ciMtAno pAra nahi. munivare kahyuM ke "rathayAtrAno varaghoDo kADho. bharataDakAmAM varaghoDo zaru thayo ane varaghoDo aDadhe ja pahoMcyo haze, tyAM to muzaLadhAra varasAda zaru thaI gayo. - (7) munizrI mAtaratIrthamAM hatA, tyAre jANavA maLyuM ke navarAtrimAM pADAne zaNagArIne saraghasa kADhavAmAM Ave che, ane pachI ene mArI nAMkhavAmAM Ave che." munizrIe kahyuM ke "huM e badhuM baMdha karAvIza."

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A vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo saraghasa pharatuM pharatuM upAzraya pAse AvyuM, tyAre munie pADA upara maMtrita vAsakSepa karyo, ane pADo evo to tophAne caDhyo ke cAre page uchaLavA lAgyo. nAsabhAga thaI. daivIprakopa hovAnI vAta vahetI thaI. grAmajano upAzrayamAM AvyA. | muni kahe "mAtA saMtAnanA vadhathI rAjI na thAya. tame saMkalpa karo ke balidAna Aje paNa nahi, ane kyAreya paNa nahi to pADo zAMta thaI jaze." ane kharekhara ema ja thayuM. (8) katAragAma suratamAM zatruMjayAvatAra AdinAtha jinAlayanI pratiSThA prasaMge moTo mAnava maherAmaNa ekaTho thayelo. vijJasaMtoSIoe "gaMdakI-rogacALo-marakI thaze" enI phariyAda karI. goro kalekTara Avyo, vyavasthA joI khuza thayo. munizrInA AzirvAda laIne pAcho pharyo. (9) sauthI agatyanI vAta A munie saMvegI dIkSA lIdhelI kharI, paNa e tapAgacchamAM nahi, kharataragacchamAM ! kharataragacchIya AcArya sukhasAgarajInA e ziSya banelA hatA. vi.saM. 1941mAM pATaNamAM sthiratA daramyAna emaNe jJAnabhaMDAro vyavasthita karAvyA. tyAMnA zrAvakoe kahyuM ke "ame tapAgacchanA chIe, Apa amane tapAgacchanI sAmAcArI pramANe kriyA karAvazo ?" munizrIe javAba Apyo ke "jo ke atyAra sudhI meM kharataragacchanI sAmAcArInuM ja pAlana karyuM che. paNa mArA manamAM sAmAcArI bAbatamAM evo koI Agraha nathI. mAre have gujarAta bAju ja lagabhaga rahevAnuM che, ane ahIM tapAgacchanA ArAdhako vadhAre che. tame badhA varSothI tapAgacchanI sAmAcArIthI TevAyelA cho. gujarAtamAM moTA bhAge A sthiti che. mATe havethI huM tapAgacchanI sAmAcArI pALIza." ane e divasathI munizrIe tapAgacchanI sAmAcArI pALavAnI zaru karI dIdhI. paNa thoDAka vakhata bAda muMbaImAM munizrI pAse kalakattAthI bAbu badrIdAsa vagere zrAvako maLavA mATe AvyA, ane vinaMti karI ke "madhyapradeza mAravADamAM kharataragacchanI sAmAcArI karAvanAra sAdhuonI achata che, tyAM enI khAsa jarUra che. eno upAya karo." munizrIe vicAra karIne kahyuM ke huM to have tapAgacchanI sAmAcArI pALuM chuM. paNa tame phikara na karo. mArA ziSya thazamuni vagere havethI kharataragacchIya sAmAcArI pALaze ane harSa muni vagere tapagacchanI sAmAcArI cAlu rAkhaze." munizrIe muMbaImAM harSamunine paMnyAsapadavI paNa ApI. (sAmAcArI bAbatamAM ATalI badhI udAratA e kadAca eka moTo ItihAsa ja gaNI zakAya.) (10) pATaNanA bAbu amIcaMda pAnAcaMda vAlakezvara rahetA. tyAM jinAlaya na hatuM. bAbu to lAlabAga AvI darzana karatA, vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLatA. paNa zeThANI kuMvarabAIne darzana-pUjAnI agavaDa hatI. A muninA mArgadarzana heThaLa derAsara ane upAzraya banyA, paNa hajI derAsaramAM bhagavAna padharAvavAnA bAkI hatA, prabhujI nakkI karavAnA ja bAkI hatA. tyAM eka divasa zeThANIne svapnamAM AdinAtha bhagavAnanA darzana thayA. paNa e prabhujI kyA sthaLe che ?" e

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-~~~-~~-vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~~~~ khabara na paDI. munine vAta karI. munie kahyuM ke "tame khaMbhAta jAo. tyAM ciMtAmaNi pArzvanAtha bhagavaMtanA bhoMyarAmAM 41 IMcanA tame joyelA ja AdinAtha bhagavAna maLI jaze." bAbu ane kuMvarabena pahoMcyA khaMbhAta ! ane kharekhara ciMtAmaNI pArzvanAthanA derAsaranA bhoMyarAmAM svapnamAM joyelI ja pratimA joIne kuMvarabena to AnaMdavibhora banI gayA. "munine A badhI khabara zI rIte paDI ? emaNe kyAM svapna joyuM che ?' vagere prazno thayA, paNa eno uttara kyAM hato pAse ? khaMbhAtasaMghe kuMvarabenanI vinaMtithI ane munizrInI bhalAmaNathI e pratimAjI ApavAnI taiyArI batAvI ane Aje paNa muMbaI vAlakezvara tInabattInuM bAbu amIcaMdanuM e bhavya jinAlaya tIrthabhUmi tarIke prasiddha che. (11) vi.saM. 1949mAM pAlitANAmAM bAbunA derAsaranI pratiSThA paNa munizrIe karAvelI che. (12) zikAgo vizvadharmapariSadamAM AtmArAmajI ma.nA pratinidhi tarIke vIracaMda rAghavacaMda gAMdhI gayA ane sarasa pravacano vagere kya. paNa e kALe videzagamanano prathama prasaMga hovAthI eno virodha thayelo. e vakhate AtmArAmajI ma.e paMjAbathI muMbaInA saMghane jaNAvyuM ke "A bAbatamAM prastuta munizrI je kahe, te mane mAnya che.' | munizrIe AtmArAmajI ma. jevA pracaMDa prabhAvaka mahAtmAno paNa keTalo vizvAsa jItyo haze ? munizrIe gAMdhIne eka snAtra bhaNAvavAnuM prAyazcitta ApIne virodha zAMta karyo hato. (13) jIvanano aMtakALa najIka AvatA munijIe muMbaIthI pAlitANA tarapha vihAra zaru karyo. surata AvyA pachI tabiyata lathaDI, katAragAma caitrI punamanA divase pAlitANAne badale AdinAtha jinAlaye ja darzana karIne saMtoSa mAnyo. caitra vada-11nA divase potAnA aMtakALano khyAla AvI jatA tApInA kAMThe agni saMskAra mATenI jagyA zuddha karavA mATe devasura gacchanA yatine mokalyA, badhA joDe kSamApanA karI. harSamuni ane yazamunine jarurI bhalAmaNo karI ane baporanA samaye teo kALadharma pAmyA. munizrI prabhAvaka hatA, AcAryapadavInuM ghaNuM dabANa AvavA chatAM emaNe lIdhI na hatI. emanA ziSyo judA judA gacchanI sAmAcArI pALatA hovA chatAM milanasAra hatA. emanA ziSya Rddhimunie muMbaImAM eka comAsAmAM eka bhAdaravAmAM kharataragacchanA ArAdhakone emanI sAmAcArI pramANe ane bIjA bhAdaravAmAM tapagacchanA ArAdhakone emanI sAmAcArI pramANe pajusaNa karAvelA. tapAgacchIya cidAnaMdamunie kharataragacchanA munine padapradAna kareluM. ArAdhakonI prasannatA khAtara teone anukULa AcaraNa kareluM. durAgraha-kadAgrahane badale samajAvaTa, prema, vAtsalyathI vartavAno saMdeza emanA jIvanamAMthI maLe che. suratamAM emanA nAmathI upAzraya paNa che. - pU.A.municandrasUrijI ma.e mokalela lekhamAMthI A badhuM prAyaH kazo sudhAro-vadhAro karyA vinA chApela che.)

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + duSpratikArau mAtApitarau (eka sAdhvIjInA zabdomAM) amadAvAda operAhAusa AmrapAlI epArTamenTamAM ame rahetA. yuvAnavaya thaI, tyAM sudhI jaina sAdhu-sAdhvI kone kahevAya ? enI paNa mane khabara na hatI. pappAno mArA para atizaya lADa ! nAnapaNathI ja rAjakumArInI mAphaka uchera thayelo. koleja lAIphanI jIMdagI keTalI badhI svacchaMdatA bharelI hoya, e to sau koI jANe ja che. huM kAyama mATe skula-kolejamAM pharsTa ja AvI chuM. eka divasa huM kAIneTIka para besIne koleja jatI hatI, rastAmAM eka mANasa sAthe athaDAmaNa thaI. e bhAI paDI gayA, emane thoDuM vAgyuM paNa kharuM. huM muMjhAI gaI. bhUla mArI hatI, have zuM karavuM? 'tame mArI pAchaLa besI jAo, huM tamane davAkhAne laI jAuM." meM saraLabhAve vAta karI. pelA bhAI hasI paDyA "bahena ! tame jaldI bhAgI jAo. nakAmA jo badhA bhegA thaze, to tamAre ThapakA khAvA paDaze... ane amAre-mAre tamArI pAchaLa besI ja na zakAya..." chellI vAta huM kaMI samajI nahi, paNa mArAthI emane nukasAna thayuM hovA chatAM e mArA mATe kALajI kare... AvI vyakti meM jIMdagImAM prathamavAra joI. huM tyAMthI bhAgI to gaI, paNa huM e bhAIne, emanI nikhAlasatAne bhUlI na zakI. kolejamAM mana na coMTya, satata e prasaMga ja yAda AvyA kare. "mane Thapako ApavAne badale, moDhuM bagADavAne badale AvA prasaMgomAM ya hasatA rahevAnI siddhi meLavanAra e bhAI jabarA kahevAya. - ghare AvIne meM pappAne A vAta karI, "koNa hatA e bhAI ?' pappAe prazna karyo, paNa mArI pAse eno koI javAba na hato. bIjA divase huM pappAnI sAthe skuTara para jatI hatI, tyAre jogAnujoga e ja bhAI mane raste jatA dekhAyA. pATo bAMdhelo paNa dekhAyo. "pappA ! meM je bhAInI vAta gaIkAle karelI, e ja A bhAI !" meM e bhAI sAme AMgaLI karIne pappAne vAta karI. pappA hasI paDyA, "gAMDI ! tane ATalI paNa khabara nathI? e to ApaNA jaina dharmanA sAdhu ma. che..." tyAre mane bhAna AvyuM ke A badhA amArA sAdhuo kahevAya. (jainasAdhuo joyA hoya, paNa emane kayA nAmathI oLakhAya, eno aMdAja na hoya, atyAre nyu janarezana sAdhu-sAdhvIone aMkala-AMTI kahe che ne ?) basa, e pachI e sAdhu bha.nA paricayAdithI dharmanA mArge AgaLa dhapI, dIkSAnI bhAvanA

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + thaI, paNa pappAe atirAganA kAraNe nA pADI. chevaTe pAlitANAmAM badhAnI uparavaTa jaIne bhAgIne dIkSA lIdhI. samAcAra maLatA ja parivAra doDI Avyo, mane sAdhvIveSamAM joIne pappA bebhAna thaI gayA. hospITala laI javA paDyA. cAra pAMca kalAke AghAta ocho thayo, pAchA mArI pAse AvyA, khUba-khUba raDyA, paNa chelle zikhAmaNa ApI "have lIdhI ja che dIkSA ! to barAbara pALaje. emAM DhIlI na paDIza." pitAjI dIkSA bAda anekavAra vaMdana mATe AvatA. emaNe traNa-cAra prasaMgomAM mArA para sAco Atmika upakAra karyo che. mArI AMkho ughADI che. > ekavAra sUryAsta thavAnI taiyArI hatI, tyAre te upAzraye AvI caDyA, bahAra ja ubhA rahyA. huM upAzrayanA holamAMthI bahAra AvI, jethI saMsArI pitAjI vaMdana karI zake... (arthAt mayUeNa vaMdAmi...) paNa huM jevI daravAjA pAse pahoMcI ke tarata ja pitAjIe mane kaTAkSanI bhASAmAM kahyuM ke "tame to bhAgIne dIkSA lIdhI che, barAbara ne ?" kema AvuM pucho cho ? e to tamane paNa khabara ja che ne ?' eTale tamArI dIkSAmAM upakaraNonA caDAvA nathI bolAyA, badhA upakaraNo tamane to maphata ja maLI gayA, barAbara ne ?' eTale ?' huM muMjhAI gaI. eTale ja tamane e maphatamAM maLelA upakaraNonI kiMmata na hoya, e svAbhAvika che. mATe ja tame hamaNA upAzrayamAMthI cAlatA cAlatA ahIM AvyA, tyAre upAzrayamAM aMdhAru hovAnA kAraNe jamIna para jIvo na dekhAtA hovA chatAM daMDAsana ke oghAthI puMjavAnI kriyA karyA vinA ja ahIM AvyA. tamane daMDAsananI kiMmata nathI. jo caDAvA bolAyA hota, to daMDAsananI hajAro rUpiyAnI kiMmata tamArA dhyAnamAM Avata.' tyAre mane bhAna thayuM ke pitAjI mArA asaMyama mATe vyathita banyA hatA, ane mATe ja lAgaNIsabhara kaDaka bhASAmAM mArI AMkha ughADI rahyA hatA. meM tarata bAdhA lIdhI ke "upAzrayamAM aMdhAruM thAya, nIce spaSTa dekhAtuM baMdha thAya eTale mAre tarata daMDAsanano upayoga zaru karI ja devo." zaMkhezvara bAjunA vihAramAM rasto kAMkarIvALo kharAba AvavAthI huM pagamAM mojA-joDA paherIne cAlatI hatI. jogAnujoga pitAjI mane vaMdana karavA mATe nIkaLelA ane emaNe gADImAMthI joyuM ke "huM pagamAM joDA paherIne vihAra karuM chuM." ame sthAne pahoMcyA, e paNa tyAM AvyA. aupacArika vAto bAda mane kahe "ma.sA. ! tame dIkSA lIdhI, tyAre e to khabara ja hatI ne ? ke saMyamajIvanamAM AvA kAMTA-kAMkarA jevA

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------------vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo~~~~~~~ aneka kaSTo AvavAnA ja. e badhuM sahana karavAnI taiyArI sAthe ja dIkSA lIdhelI ne? to atyAre kema DhIlA paDI gayA ? tamArA pagamAM joDA joIne mArI AMkhomAM AMsu paDe che. mArA dIkarI mahArAja AvA nabaLA na hoya..." emanI saMvedanazIlatAnI dhAradAra asara mArA para thaI. ane meM tyAre bAdhA lIdhI ke "have pachI AvA najIvA kAraNosara joDA nahi paheruM. sahana karIza. tAkAta vadhArIza." > ekavAra huM luNA vagere vastrono kApa kADhatI hatI, e ja vakhate pitAzrI AvI caDyA. meM jaldI kAma patAvavA mATe mumukSu bahenane e luNA sukavavA ApI dIdhA. mumukSu bahena to khUba ja AnaMdamAM AvI gayA ke "Avo lAbha kyAMthI maLe ?' paNa huM jevI pitAjI pAse beThI ke tarata emaNe aupacArika vAto bAda pAchI Takora karI ke "ma.sA. ! koIpaNa saMsArIne kAma soMpavuM Apane zobhe kharuM ? kapaDA sukavavAnuM kAma to Apa jAte karI ja zakata ne ? to mumukSune zA mATe bhaLAvyuM ? A hAtha vagere sAmagrIno jo saMyamayogonA pAlanamAM ucita upayoga na thAya, to to A sAmagrI bhaviSyamAM pharI nahi maLe ne ?" emanI kaDavI lAgatI hitazikSA paNa mane gamatI ane eTale ja AvI Takora maLe, eTale huM tarata bAdhA laI letI. meM bAdhA lIdhI ke "huM karI zakuM evuM mAruM kAma gRhasthone kadI bhaLAvIza nahi." ekavAra sAdhupaNAmAM mane moTI mAMdagI AvI, saMsArI mammI mArA mATe aneka vastuo banAvI lAve, vahorAve... saMsArI pitAjIe mammIne spaSTa kahI dIdhuM ke "tuM emane nIce na pADa. emane kharekhara jenI jarura che, e ja Apa. ochAmAM ochA doSathI patAva. tArI lAgaNImAM emanuM saMyama jIvana malina bane e na cAle..." A zabdo sAMbhaLIne mAMdagI vacce ya mAruM haiyuM prasannatAthI pulakti banI jatuM. (zAstromAM mAtApitAne upakArI kahyA che, paNa e sAmAnyathI laukika upakAranI apekSAe ja ! evA upakArano badalo vALavo paNa duSkara batAvAyo che, to je mAtA-pitA lokottara kakSAno upakAra kare, saMyama apAve, saMyamamAM majabuta kare... emanA e upakArano badalo to zI rIte vALI zakAya ? sadgurunI jema emano upakAra paNa ghaNo ghaNo ghaNo moTo kahI zakAya.) tame Avo abhigraha lIdho che kharo ? upadezarahasyano pATha ApuM chuM, emAM gaIkAle ja e padArtha Avyo ke "munioe roja navA navA abhigraho levA joIe." to mArI paNa IcchA che ke huM eka abhigraha lauM. paNa Apa rajA Apo to ja...' uMjhA gAmamAM eka rAte 22 varSanA hoMziyAra, vidvAna, capaLa saMyamIe potAnA vidyAgurune

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-~~-~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~ vinaMti karI. bAra sAdhuonuM e grupa zeSakALamAM uttara gujarAtanI sparzanA karI rahyuM hatuM. kayo abhigraha levo che ? e jaNAvo. pachI badhI vAta." vidyAgurue pahelethI baMdhAyA vinA addharatAla javAba Apyo. huM roja bapore gocarI jAuM chuM. jo mane pahelA ja ghare dUdhInA zAkanI vinaMti kare, to ja pachI mAre zAkanI chUTa ! tyAM sudhI sukuM-lIluM badhA ja zAka baMdha!" munie rajuAta karI. 'tamArA badale bIjA koI mahAtmAne dUdhInI vinaMti thAya to ?' nA ! e nahi cAle. mane ja vinaMti thAya to ja..." dUdhIne badale bIjuM koI zAka...' to to AvatI kAle ja bAdhA pUrI thaI jAya. ziyALAmAM dUdhI jaldI nathI maLatI, eTale enI dhAraNA karI che." pahelA gharane badale bIjA, trIjA ghare vinaMti thAya to ?..." nA. e paNa na cAle." juo, tame hamaNAM ja ekAsaNA zaru karyA che. enAthI ochuM paccakakhANa karavAnuM nathI. bapore tame dUdha mAphaka na hovAthI letA nathI. tame zAka paNa baMdha karazo, to mAtra roTalI-dALabhAta-miSTa... upara calAvavuM paDaze. taLeluM to tamAre AkhI jIMdagI baMdha che. A badhuM vicArIne nirNaya lejo. A bAdhA lAMbI cAle, to mahInAo ke varSo sudhI paNa pUrI na thAya. ane ApaNe koInI pAse jANI joIne zAka banAvaDAvIne to pAraNuM karavAnuM ja nathI. je nirdoSa maLe, enAthI ja calAvavAnuM che." vidyAgurue badhA bhayasthAno batAvI dIdhA. "Apa sau vaDIlonI kRpA haze, to kazo vAMdho nahi Ave." munie vizvAsapUrvaka javAba Apyo, calita na thayA, gabharAyA nahi... ane abhigrahanI zaruAta thaI gaI. divaso para divaso vItatA gayA, paNa pratijJA pUrI thatI na hatI. eka divasa nisIhinA moTA harSasabhara dhvani sAthe munie upAzrayamAM praveza karyo. vidyAgurune lAgyuM ke Aje bAdhA pUrI thaI gaI lAge che. rojanA avAja karatA ghaNA moTA avAje muni bolyA che. kema ? Aje maLI gayuM ne, dUdhInuM zAka !" hA jI ! maLI gayuM, paNa pahelA nahi, bIjA ghare !' arere ! to to bAdhA pUrI na thaI. to ATalI moTethI nisIhi kema bolyA?' vidyAgurue kheda darzAvyo. khUba AnaMda thayo Aje ! jo bIjA ja ghare pahelo gayo hota, to to bAdhA pUrI thaI jAta. paNa e na gayo, emAM mAro tyAga vadhaze."

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo atyaMta prasannatA sAthenA e zabdo sAMbhaLIne vidyAguru ane sau koI rAjI thayA. lagabhaga 45 divasa sudhI zAka vinA (chuMdo-murabbo-gulakaMda... kazuM ja nahi...) emaNe pasAra karyA. aMte adAlaja gAmamAM pahelA ja ghare e zAka maLI jatA emano abhigraha pUro thayo. tyAre sau munioe eka sAthe bhegA maLIne e zAkathI ja emane pAraNuM karAvyuM. jANe ke koIne somI oLInuM pAraNuM na karAvatA hoya... evo harSollAsa chavAI gayo. (uMjhAmAM ja vidyAgurue 'dUdhInuM zAka' bhUlathI vyAkhyAnamAM jAhera karI dIdhuM, eTale pachI e divasathI zAka badalyuM, ane 'keLAnuM zAka' dhAryuM. adAlajamAM e zAkathI pAraNuM thayuM. 22 varSanI yuvAna uMmare to jalasA karavAnuM mana thAya, sAdhupaNAmAM ya AvA badhA tyAga karavAnuM kadAca ochuM game. paNa jinazAsana evI khANa che ke koIpaNa kALamAM A khANamAM ratno pedA thayA ja kare che, khANa kadI khAlI thatI nathI. nIkaLelA ratno vidAya leze, paNa e badhAnI janmadAtrI jinazAsanamAtA to navA navA ratnonI bheTa dharatI ja raheze.) zAstro vAMco nahi, pacAvo 'ziyALAmAM vadhAre ThaMDI paDe, to sAdhu badhA kapaDA kADhI khullAmAM ubho rahe. ThaMDI sahana kare, e pachI baMdha jagyAmAM Ave, to ApoApa ThaMDI ochI ja lAge...' pATaNamAM odhaniyuktino pATha ApatI vakhate vidyAgurue traNa nUtana munione A padArtha paMkti pramANe samajAvyA. e ja rAtre 10-30 vAge 24 varSanA eka munivara khullI jagyAmAM khullA zarIre kAussagga karavA ubhA rahI gayA. saMthAro + dhAbaDo pAtharIe ane eka kAmaLI + be dhAbaDA oDhIe, to ja ThaMDI na lAge... eTalI bhayaMkara ThaMDImAM, bapore bAra vAge gocarI jatI vakhate paNa kAmaLI oDhavI paDe evI ThaMDImAM, gocarI mAMDalImAM paNa kAmaLI oDhyA vinA na cAle evI ThaMDImAM A munirAje to jabaradasta sattva phoravyuM. upara chata, bAkI badhI dizA khullI... e rIte ane rAtre 12/24 vAge... game tyAre aDadho poNo kalAka sudhI ubhA ubhA kAussagga karIne emaNe sau munione eka Adarza pUro pADyo. (tame evuM mAnatA ja nahi ke "have jamAno badalAyo che. navuM janarezana vairAgya vinAnuM, nabaLuM ja Ave che." muMbaInA rahevAsI A badhA yuvAno prabhuvIranA mArgane Aje paNa keTalI badhI sarasa rIte ArAdhI rahyA che, enuM pratyakSa darzana karavA maLe che. zA mATe Negative vicAravuM ? zA mATe nabaLu`jovuM ? tagaDuM joIne tagaDA na banIe ? 06

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-~-~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo * khUba khUba vaMdana ho AvA vairAgI munivarone ! pUrve je labdhidhArI mahAtmAno lekha A viratidUtamAM Avelo, e ja munivarano A prasaMga che.) samayaM goyama ! mA pamAyae / cAra muni bhagavaMto abhyAsa mATe eka vidvAna sAdhu bhagavaMta pAse nizrA svIkArIne rahyA. nitya ekAsaNA - suMdara svabhAva - svAdhyAyanI dhagaza... vagere aneka guNo e vRdamAM hatA. phAgaNa suda pAMcamanA divasathI AcArAMga sUtranA abhyAsa sAthe e svAdhyAya yAtrA zaru thaI, ane cheka kArataka vada pAMcama sudhI e svAdhyAya yAtrA aalita rIte cAlatI ja rahI. anekAneka granthonuM jhapATAbaMdha, vidhisara vAMcana thatuM ja rahyuM. lagabhaga ATha mahinA sudhI A svAdhyAyano yajJa dhamadhokAra cAlyo. - vidvAna munirAje mana mukIne pATho ApyA. are, tyAM sudhI ke zeSakALanA cAlu vihAramAM koIpaNa pustakanA AlaMbana vinA moDhe-moDhe ja cAlatA cAlatA jIvavicArAdi cAreya prakaraNo, karmagranyAdino abhyAsa karAvI dIdho. ane e vRdamAMthI 20 varSanA sauthI hoMziyAra sAdhue vidvAna munino sauthI vadhu lAbha lIdho. e bhaNatA ja rahyA, bhaNatA ja rahyA, lUMTa calAvatA ja rahyA... comAsA bAda judA paDavAnuM thayuM. ane cAreka mAsa bAda e hoMziyAra munie vidvAna sAdhu para kRtajJatA darzAvato suMdara majAno patra lakhyo. emAMnI sauthI vadhu anumodanIya je bAbata hatI, te nIce pramANe hatI... Apa to mArA para anarAdhAra vyutavarSA karavA mATe kAyama taiyAra ja hatA, paNa meM eka gaMbhIra bhUla karI che, enA kAraNe huM ghaNuM meLavavAnuM cUkI gayo chuM. roja bapore viseka miniTa ArAma karato hato, Aje huM eno vicAra karuM chuM, to mane ema lAge che ke kula 8 mAsa = 240 divasa ApanI sAthe huM rahyo. e daramyAna rojanI 20 miniTa meM bapore ArAma karyo, eTale 240 x 20 = 4800 miniTa meM divase ArAma karyo. eTale ke kula 80 kalAka meM pramAdamAM bagADyA. jo A pramAda meM na karyo hota, to kula 80 kalAkano pATha ApanI pAse vadhu laI zakyo hota. eka kalAkamAM lagabhaga daseka pAnAnuM zAstravAMcana thAta, to ya 80 kalAkanA 800 pAnAnuM vAMcana thAta. eTale ke 400 pAnAvALA be moTA granthonuM vAMcana ApanI pAse mAre thaI jAta. Apano eTalo anubhava, eTalI kRpA paNa mane maLata. paNa e 8 mAsa daramyAna A vicAra ja mane na Avyo. Aje ApanAthI chUTA paDyA ( 7 1 -

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N , , , , , , , -~~~-~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ------------ bAda A vicAra Ave che ane kharekhara aMtaramAM ghora valopAta thAya che, A lakhatI vakhate paNa AMsuothI AMkho bhIMjAyelI che. mArA A pramAda badala Apa mane kSamA ApazojI. li... (chUTA paDyA bAda e munirAje mAtra pAMceka varSamAM to jabaradasta moTI haraNaphALa bharI. 8 mAsanA svAdhyAyathI zAstrAbhyAsa karavAmAM to pakaDa AvI ja gaI hatI, pachI potAnA pradAdA gurudevanA mArgadarzana pramANe pIstAlIza AgamonuM TIkA sAthe vAMcana saMpUrNa karyuM. eka uttama koTinA jJAnasaMpanna adhyApaka muni banyA. Aje emanA grupamAM Azritone bhaNAve paNa che ane svayaM pote bhaNe paNa che.) uccakoTinI khAnadAnI munivara ! ApaNe eka kAma karIe. pATha levA mATe jarAka aMdaranI bAju besIe. juo, ApaNe A lobImAM khullA bhAgamAM beThA chIe ne? to sAme ja vaDalA nIce baheno beThelA che. ApaNI emanA para ke emanI ApaNA paNa najara paDe, e sAruM na lAge ne ?" pATha ApanArA sAdhue nUtana munirAjane Takora karI. kalikuMDa tIrthanuM e ramaNIya vAtAvaraNa sthApanA zatruMjaya pAsenA upAzrayanI cAre bAju khullI lobI jevI besavAnI jagyA ! sAMjano cha vAgyAno samaya ! zizupAla vadha kAvyano pATha levA ApavA mATe be mahAtmAo rojIMdA krama pramANe tyAM beThA. nUtanamunine barAbara dIkSAnA be mAsa pUrNa thayA hatA. adhyApaka sAdhu gaMbhIra-pIDha-paripakva! e sthAne beThA bAda emane khyAla Avyo ke sAme je moTuM jhADa che, tyAM yAtrika baheno sAMjanA samaye vAto karatA karatA Time Pass karatA hatA. eTale ja adhyApaka munie e jagyA choDIne jarAka aMdaranI bAju besavAnuM sUcana karyuM. paNa nUtanamunino mUDa e vakhate judA prakArano hato, vaLI navA hovAthI potAnA gurunA sUcana pramANe barAbara cAlavAnI emanI bhAvanA paNa jabarI ! gurue emane kaheluM ke "tamAre svAdhyAya mATe alAyadA besavuM. e lobInuM sthAna tamArA mATe khUba ja sarasa che, eTale tyAM ja besajo. tamArA svAdhyAyamAM vikSepa nahi paDe." eTale emaNe atyAre vaDIla + adhyApaka evA mahAtmAnI vAta tarata svIkAravAnA badale

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-~~~-~~-~- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo -------- sAme dalIla karI ke "mane to gurujIe ahIM ja besavAnuM kahyuM che. eTale mAre ahIMthI haTAya nahi." "gurujIe kahyuM haze, paNa tamArA gurujIne atyAranI paristhitino khyAla nahi ja hoya ne ? ke sAme jhADa pAse baheno beThA che..." paNa baheno beThA hoya, emAM ApaNane zuM vAMdho ? e to dUra che. ApaNuM mana cokhuM che, pachI..." "juo, munivara !" adhyApaka muni ekadama zAMtasvare emane samajAvatA ja rahyA "ApaNe vyavahAra paNa pALavAno ne ? e badhAnI ApaNA para vAraMvAra najara paDe ke ApaNI emanA para paDe, e zobhAspada to nathI ja ne ? tame eka ja kAma karo. atyAre mArI vAta mAnI lo, ApaNe jarAka aMdaranI tarapha besI jaIe. pratikramaNa bAda ApaNe tamArA gurune A AkhI vAta kahezuM. pachI e jo mArA nirNayane khoTo kaheze, to huM prAyazcitta laIza. basa ! Akhare e tamArA guru mArA paNa vidyAguru che..." ane nUtana munirAje vAtano svIkAra karyo, Tebala upADIne pAMceka DagalA aMdaranI bAju sarakI gayA. pATha levAno zaru to thayo, paNa adhyApaka munine spaSTa lAgyuM ke nUtanamunino mUDa off thaI gayelo che, moDhA para udAsInatA che, zloko besADavAmAM mana coMTatuM nathI. roja karatA Aje puSkaLa bhUlo thaI rahI che. A paristhitimAM pATha levAthI zuM phAyado ? adhavacce ja pATha aTakAvIne adhyApaka muni mIThA-madhurA svara sAthe bolyA, munivara ! tamane mArA nimitte khoTuM lAgyuM che, bolo ! sAcI vAta ne ? tamAre tamAruM sthAna choDIne aMdara AvavuM paDyuM, e tamane gamyuM nathI. mATe ja tamArA mukha para bhAre udAsInatA dekhAya che. kharuM ne? "nA !" eka ja paLamAM nUtane spaSTa nanaiyo saMbhaLAvI dIdho, ane bharapUra pazcAttApathI bharelA haiyA sAthe bolavA mAMDyA... tame mArA vidyAguru cho, vaDIla cho, gaMbhIra cho. mane mArI jAta upara dhikkAra chUTe che ke meM eka ja jhATake ApanI vAta zA mATe na svIkArI? zA mATe huM dalIlo karavAmAM paDyo? A meM keTaluM khoTuM karyu? meM ghora pApa bAMdhyuM." adhyApaka muni to emanI udAsInatAnuM A kAraNa sAMbhaLIne harSathI raDI paDyA. zuM A 19 varSanA nUtanamuninI gajabakoTinI khAnadAnI ! zuM emano potAnI bhUla svIkAra karavAno jabaradasta ullAsa ! - basa, pachI to cheka 7.10 vAgyA sudhI e ja vAto cAlyA karI, parasparanI AtmIyatA vadhu ne vadhu ghuMTAvA lAgI. adhyApakanI navI navI sUcanAne nUtana muni amRtanI jema pIvA lAgyA. zizupAlavadhano pATha to bAju para ja rahI gayo.

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-~~-~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~~~ e divase e kAvyano prathama sarga pUro karavAnI bhAvanA hatI, agharA-agharA 6 zloko karavAnA hatA. roja ekAda kalAkamAM pAMceka zloko thaI zakatA. 7.10 vAge baMnee pATha pAcho zaru karyo, paNa have utsAhamAM AvI gayelA nUtana muni dhaDAdhaDa zloko besADavA mAMDyA. mAtra 20 ja miniTamAM, 7.30 vAgyA sudhImAM cha zloko pUrA thaI gayA, bIjA sargano 1 zloka paNa thaI gayo. "tame to Aje kamAla karI. itihAsa sarjI dIdho. roja kalAkamAM cha! Aje 20 miniTamAM 7 ! vAha re vAha !' nA, nA ! AmAM mArI koI hoMziyArI nathI. paNa meM je pazcAttApa karyo, ApanI pAse kSamA mAMgI, enA pratApe mAro kSayopazama ekadama tAtkAlika vikasI gayo che..." nUtana munie rajuAta karI. A Akho ya prasaMga rAtre adhyApaka munie nUtananA gurune kahyo, ane eTaluM ja kahyuM ke "A nUtanamuninA pitAjI vagere rAjasthAnanA uccakuLanA che, A emanI khAnadAnI, emanuM lohI bole che." (kula ke lohInI khAnadAnImAM to hajI vyabhicAra AvI zake che, paNa AtmAnI khAnadAnImAM kadI vyabhicAra Avato nathI. e khAnadAnI vinA koI uMce caDatuM nathI, caDavAnuM nathI.) jayaNA ya dhammajaNaNI eka munirAja tapovananA derAsaramAM savAre darzana karavA padhAryA, raMgamaMDapamAM roja savAre cAraso bALako sAmUhika aSTaprakArI pUjA kare, alpezabhAInuM saMgIta emAM sahAyaka bane. prabhubhaktinA A mAholane mANavA mATe derAsaramAM aDadho kalAka besavAnI dhAraNAthI munirAja padhArelA. garamIno samaya ! eTale IcchA thaI ke "kAmaLI bahAra laTakAvIne aMdara jAuM." ane emaNe derAsara bahAra paDelA borDa para kAmaLI laTakAvI to kharI, paNa tarata yAda AvyuM ke "A to khullI jagyA che, uparathI bhale derAsarano ja bhAga che. paNa cArebAjuthI pavana AvavAthI kAmaLI uDyA karavAnI. nakAmI aDadho kalAka sudhI vAyukAyanI virAdhanA thavAnI." | munie tarata ja borDa uparathI kAmaLI laI lIdhI. derAsaranA raMgamaMDapamAM praveza karyo. je jagyAe kAmaLI bilakula na uDe, evA sthAna para = daravAjA upara e kAmaLI laTakAvI dIdhI.

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A vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo (kAmaLIkALamAMthI AvelA hovAthI tarata to enI gaDI karAya nahi ne ?). bapore bALakomAM vAcanA ApavA mATe ahiMsA peveliyana (upAzrayane A nAma ApavAmAM AveluM...) nA holamAM jaI caDyA. moTA sTejanI sAme traNaso bALako goThavAI gayelA hatA. munirAje joyuM ke sTeja para caDavA mATe traNa vikalpo hatA. (1) be bAju lAkaDAnI banAvaTanA dAdarAo goThavelA hatA, je jamIna sAthe kAyamI phITa nahi. halAvI-calAvI zakAya evA ! (2) be bAju sTejanA ja eka bhAga rUpa, sTejanI sAthe kAyamI phITa evA pagathiyA hatA. (3) koIpaNa dAdarAno upayoga karyA vinA ja jarAka paga uMcA karIne paNa sTeja para caDI zakAya ema hatuM. - munie e divaso daramyAna bIjA-trIjA vikalpano ja upayoga karyo. ekavAra chokarAoe jijJAsAthI A aMge prazna karyo, tyAre javAba vALyo ke "juo, lAkaDAnA asthira dAdarA upara paga mUkuM, tyAre e dAdarA dabAya che, eTale jo e jagyAe kaMthavA-kaDI-karoLIyAdi koIpaNa jIvo hoya, to dAdarA + jamIna vacce dabAI javAthI marI jAya. mATe AvA asthira dAdarA upara amArAthI paga na mukAya." - unALAnA e divasomAM vAcanA vakhate traNaso bALakonI upara rahelA paMkhAo koIke zaru karI dIdhA. muninI uparanA paMkhA zaru na karyA, muni kaMIka bole, e pahelA to bALakone saMbhALanArA eka moTAbhAIe ja moTA avAje spaSTa sUcanA karI dIdhI ke "paMkhAo baMdha karI nAMkho, tamane zarama nathI AvatI, ke ApaNe muninI sAme besIne pravacana sAMbhaLI rahyA chIe. ApaNe pIkyara-nATaka jovA nathI AvyA. muni covIza kalAka A garamI sahana kare che, ApaNe mAtra poNo kalAka sahana na karI zakIe ?' enA zabdomAM sAdhuonA tyAgadharma pratyeno je chalochala bahumAnabhAva nItarato hato, ene joIne-sAMbhaLIne-anubhavIne muni atyaMta prasanna thayA ane emaNe enI bharapUra prazaMsA paNa karI. (zrI mahAnizIthasUtramAM pharamAvyuM che ke susaDha nAmano sAdhu utkRSTa tapa karato hato, paNa pajIvanikAyanI rakSA-jayaNA bAbatamAM ajJAnI hovAthI ane mATe ja jayaNA sAcavI zakato na hovAthI emano saMsAra vadhI gayo... tapazcaryA jo Avazyaka che, to enA karatA lAkhagaNI Avazyaka che jayaNA ! ApaNA nimitte SakAyanI hiMsA ubhI na thAya., sAkSAtu na thAya, anumodita na thAya enI kALajI ApaNe rAkhavI ja rahI.)

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo kula cAra anumodanIya bAbato (1) eka sAdhvIjIno dIkSA paryAya 25 varSa ! dIkSAdinathI mAMDIne Aja sudhI kaDAvigaIno mULathI tyAga ! bilakula chUTa nahi ! chellA 15 varSathI lIlA zAka, phaLo... badhuM baMdha ! 25 varSamAM 100 oLI saMpUrNa ! e uparAMta... (1) vAsasthAnaka tapa, (2) varSItapa, (3) siddhitapa, (4) mRtyuMjaya tapa, (5) AThanava upavAsa, (6) 100 thI vadhu chaTha, (7) 96 jinatapa, (8) 96 thI 100 oLI saLaMga... (2) eka sAdhvIjI bhagavaMtane kula 900 prAcIna stavano kaMThastha che. (arvAcIna = navA nahi...) eTaluM ja nahi, teo roja 30 stavano dvArA prabhubhakti kare che, roje roja navAnavA 30 stavano bole. A rIte eka mahinA sudhImAM emane 900 stavanono pATha thaI jAya che. eka mahinA sudhI ekapaNa stavana punaH bolavuM paDatuM nathI. (bhAva vadhatA hoya, ane eka ja stavana pharI pharI bolavAmAM Ave, to kaMI doSa nathI. paNa anya stavano na AvaDavAnA kAraNe eka ja stavana punaH punaH bolyA karavuM paDe, to to....!) (3) pU.A.bappabhaTTasUrijI 1 divasamAM navI 1 hajAra gAthA kaMThastha karI zakatA hatA. matAMtare 6000 gAthA kaMThastha karI zakatA hatA. (4) 18 varSanI uMmarano eka mumukSu mArI pAse tAlIma mATe rokAyelo, huM ene bhoLo ane jamAnAnA vyavahArano bilakula bodha jene nathI... evo samajato hato. paraMtu eka divasa vAta-vAtamAM e mumukSue je zabdo vAparyA, e sAMbhaLIne AnaMda ane Azcarya baMne ekasAthe manamAM upasthita thayA. A navuM janarezana keTakeTalA vicAro karI rahyuM che ? eno spaSTa khyAla Avyo. mumukSue kahyuM ke - "maiM bambai meM jisa paMDitajI ke pAsa dhArmika abhyAsa karatA huM, unhone mujhe bolA thA ki 'dekha ! guru banAne meM jaldabAjI mata karanA / guru meM do guNa kI khoja avazya karanA / eka, guru kA brahmacarya nirmala honA cAhie / ora dUsarA... jo guru tuje bAra bAra eka hI preraNA kare ki 'tuM dIkSA le, merA ziSya bana jA / kisI ora kA mata bananA...' usake pAsa kabhI dIkSA mata lenA / lAlacu guru kabhI supAtra nahi ho sakate / " - (bolo, Aje A navI peDhInI prajJA keTalI badhI vikAsa pAmI che ? e tamArI-mArIApaNI parIkSA kare che hoM ! e kaMI prajJAcakSu banIne ApaNI sAthe nathI rahetA.)

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + bhAvonuM sanmAna karo... sAhebajI ! mAtra eka ja miniTanuM kAma che. aMdara avAze ?' 75 varSanA vayovRddha zrAvake amadAvAda AyojananagaranA upAzrayamAM daravAjo ADo karIne aMdaranI bAju beThelA pravacanakAra muni pAse aMdara AvavAnI paravAnagI mAMgI. vi.saM. 2067nA cAturmAsano e samaya ! zrIsaMghe muzkelIthI paryuSaNa mATe be sAdhuo meLavelA. paryuSaNanI ArAdhanA ekaMdare sArI cAlatI hatI. pravacanakArane pravacananI taiyArI karavA mATe mahenata karavI paDatI, samaya kADhavo paDato. eTale rUmamAM to nahi, paNa upara caDavAnA dAdarA pAse je bAraNA hatA, e ADA karIne e dAdarAnA peseja pAse besIne pravacananI taiyArI karatA. bAraNuM ADuM karavAnuM kAraNa e ja ke koIpaNa emane vikSepa ubho na kare. paryuSaNamAM vaMdanapaccakakhANa vagere mATe sahaja rIte ja vadhu avarajavara rahetI hoya, emAM pravacananI taiyArI karavI e navA pravacanakArane agharI paDatI hatI, eTale emaNe A vikalpa ajamAvyo. loko bahAra bIjA nAnA + navA mane vaMdanAdi karIne tyAMthI ja vidAya thaI jatA. vRddha zrAvakanI vinaMti sAMbhaLIne prathama tabakke to pravacanakAra munine vikSepa thavAthI aNagamo thayo, paNa moTAbhAganI taiyArI thaI gaI hovAthI ane zrAvakanA mukha upara viziSTa koTinA bhAva dekhAvAthI aNagamo dUra thaI gayo ane "avAze, bolo zuM kAma che ?' ema bolI uThyA. tarata ja aMdara AvIne hAthamAM rahelI vastu muninI sAme dharatA bolyA "sAhebajI ! Apano samaya nahi bagADuM. basa, A sopharAmAIsIna Apa rAkhI lo. ane Apane paga nIce je bhAga upara cAmaDI ukhaDI gaI che, tyAM lagADI dejo ... ATalo mane lAbha Apo..." bolatA bolatA to rItasara vRddhanI AMkhomAMthI AMsu varasavA lAgyA. pUrvanA divase bapore Body viSaya para munie pravacana ApeluM, emAM emaNe kaheluM ke zarIra paranuM ApaNuM mamatva keTaluM badhuM hoya che. mAre paganI ghuMTInI pAsenI cAmaDI ukhaDI gaI che, to e bhAga jamInane na sparza, e mATe huM pUrI kALajI karuM chuM. bhUle cuke paNa jo jamInane sparzI jAya, to tarata ja uMhakAro nIkaLe che, tarata paga pAcho vyavasthita goThavI dauM chuM, A che mAro deharAga !' munie jAheramAM e ukhaDI gayelI cAmaDIvALo bhAga dekhADelo. pelA bhAI khurazI para besIne pravacana sAMbhaLatA hatA, emaNe cAmaDI ukhaDI gayelo lAla bhAga barAbara joyelo, emanAthI e sahana na thayuM. bIjA divase savAre sopharAmAIsInanI Tyuba laIne AvI gayA. pahelA emaNe bahAra beThelA mumukSune puchayuM ke "mahArAja sAhebane A Tyuba ApavI che."

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-~~~-~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo~~~ DAhyA (!) mumukSue tarata ja nA pADI dIdhI "comAsAmAM A badhuM vahorAya nahi, mArA gurujI nahi le.." paNa tyAM ja beThelA nAnA munie kahyuM ke "nA, nA ! evo ekAMta nathI. tame eka kAma karo, aMdara jAo ane sAhebajIne pUchI juo..." eTale ja vRddha zrAvake hiMmata karI, ane rajA maLatAM ja aMdara jaI, jaldI jaldI potAnA mananI vAta raju karI dIdhI. e vakhatanA emanA moDhA paranA bhAva ane AMkhanA AMsu joIne pravacanakAra muni khUba ja AnaMdita banI gayA. taiyArI karavAnI utAvaLa bAju para rAkhIne e bhAI sAthe vAte caDyA. juo, tamArI bhAvanA uttama che. paNa mAre evI koI gaMbhIra muzkelI nathI ke mAre comAsAmAM A Tyuba vahoravI paDe." munie hasatA hasatA kahyuM. "sAhebajI ! nA nahi pADazo. Apano e lAla bhAga mArAthI joI na zakAyo. mATe ja A lAvyo chuM. ma.sA. ! mArA sagA bahene paNa vIseka varSanI uMmare raMgecaMge dIkSA lIdhelI...' "ema? kyAM che?" kALadharma pAmyA, dIkSA bAda tarata ja !" bolatA bolatA e vRddha zrAvaka pharI gaLagaLA thaI gayA. "sAhebajI ! gaIkAlanA prasaMgathI emanI yAda khUba tAjI thaI. mAre emanA darzana to ghaNA ochA thayA. paNa Aje ApanA jevA mahAtmAnI A nAnakaDI sevA maLe, to paNa..." bhAI AgaLa bolI na zakyA, haiyuM bharAI AvyuM, rUmAla kADhIne AMkho luMchavA lAgyA. lAvo, tamArI Tyuba ! tamArI sAme ja eno upayoga karI lauM, basa ! A mAtra ne mAtra tamArI bhAvanAne vadhAravA mATe...' ane emanI sAme ja thoDIka Tyuba ghA para lagADI dIdhI. pAMca ja miniTamAM pravacana zaru thayuM, vacce munie sopharAmAIsIna Tyuba hAthamAM uMcI karIne sabhAne prazna karyo ke "AnI kiMmata keTalI ?' badhA vicAramAM, AzcaryamAM paDyA. "pacIseka rUpiyA haze...' nA ! abajo rUpiyA paNa A sopharAmAIsIna kharIdavA mATe ochA paDe..." ema kahIne munie e bhAInI pavitra bhAvanAnI ane AkhA prasaMganI vistArathI rajuAta karI. AkhI sabhAnI AMkho ane haiyuM baMne bhInA bhInA thaI gayA. (pravacanakArone eka vinaMti ke moTA bhAge ApaNane vRddho pratye have aNagamo thato hoya che. "mAre pravacanomAM gharaDAo na joIe, e badhA navarA beThA hoya, eTale TAIma pAsa karavA AvI paDe che..." vagere. paNa A yogya nathI. zarIra yuvAna ke vRddha hoya, paNa AtmA kyAM kadI paNa yuvAna ke gharaDo hoya che ? eno tiraskAra, enI upekSA... e ApaNI zAsananI aNasamajanuM sUcana che...

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~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo -~ e samajI rAkhavuM. hA ! yuvAnone vizeSathI jarura che.. vagere bAbatono niSedha nathI. paNa AtmakalyANa to vRddhone paNa Avazyaka ja che. ane have to vRddhonI zibiromAM paNa puSkaLa saphaLatAo maLavA mAMDI che...) jananInI joDa sakhI nahi jaDe re lola... "sAdhvIjI bhagavaMta ! A mAro bAra varSano dIkaro che, thoDAka ja samaya pahelA ene mAMdagI AvI, chevaTe rIporTa karAvatA khyAla Avyo ke ene chellA sTejanuM kensara thayeluM che. e have varSo to nahi ja, paNa mahinAo kADhe to ya ghaNuM che." muMbaI mohamayI nagarInA eka upAzrayamAM sAdhvIjI bhagavaMta pAse dIkarA sAthe vaMdana-darzana mATe pahoMcelI Adhunika jamAnAnI chatAM dharmanA raMge raMgAyelI eka mAtAe bhInA svare potAnA lADIlA dIkarAnA mRtyunI AgAhI karI dIdhI. | mukhya sAdhvIjI bhagavaMta avAcaka banI gayA. zuM javAba Apavo? zuM AzvAsana ApavuM? e samajI na zakyA. paNa sAdhvIjI kaMI bole, e pUrve ja e mammI bolavA lAgI. "sAhebajI ! mArA ghare Avelo A AtmA koIpaNa bhoge durgatimAM to na ja javo joIe. mArI A eka ja bhAvanA che. mAro dIkaro to mAre gumAvavo ja paDavAno, paNa dIkaro sadgati na gumAvI de e mArI IcchA che. huM ApanI pAse e mArgadarzana levA AvI chuM ke huM evuM zuM zuM karuM ke jethI A chellA divaso-mahinAo mAro dIkaro atyaMta dharmamaya jIvana jIvIne sadgatine pAme.." bahena bolyA ane vahAlathI emano hAtha dIkarAnA mastake, pITha para pharavA lAgyo. zabdomAM vedanA, khumArI, lAgaNI... badhuM ja bheguM hatuM. - sAdhvIjI bolyA, "tamArI bhAvanA ati-uttama che. paNa e mATe have tamAre sakhata bhoga Apavo paDaze. pahelI vAta to e ke haiyuM patthara jevuM kaThora banAvavuM paDaze, raDavAnuM nahi, dIna banavAnuM nahi, pUrI makkamatA rAkhavAnI. A maMjura karo. bAdhA lo, pachI bIjI vAta !" kabula che, sAhebajI ! mAnuM haiyuM che, eTale dIkarAnI vadhatI jatI e vedanAone zI rIte muMgA moDhe ke hasatA moDhe joI zake. chatAM ApI do bAdhA ! enA prANa nIkaLyA bAda ja mArI AMkhomAMthI AMsu Tapakaze. e pUrve kadApi nahi." sAdhvIjIe bAdhA ApI, ane e pachI ArAdhanAo sucavI. - "nitya aSTaprakArI pUjA-puNyaprakAzanuM stavana - sArA pustakonI vAto kahevI - maraNa vakhate prasanna rahenArA mahApuruSonI kathAo kahevI... roga AgaLa vadhe ane chelle pathArIvaza banavAnuM thAya, to ghare eka rUmamAM cArebAju tIrthanA-prabhujInA moTA phoTAo lagADI devA. ene satata enA

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo darzana thayA kare, enI prasannatA - samAdhi vagerene bilakula bAdha na Ave, e rIte ja karavuM." bahene ghare jaIne patine kahI dIdhuM "jyAM sudhI mAro dIkaro jIvato che, tyAM sudhI huM tamArA mATe marI gayelI chuM, ema ja samajazo. sAmAjika ke anya koIpaNa bAbatamAM bilakula mArI apekSA rAkhatA nahi. mArA covIsa kalAka have mArA dIkarAnI paralokanI ArAdhanA mATe che." ane bahenanI e abhUtapUrva sAdhanA zaru thaI. dIkarAne porasa caDAve. 'mota sAthe bheTavAmAM khUba majA che, tAre have bhagavAnane maLavA javAnuM che.' vagere vagere kahe, uttamottamakoTinA dravyothI pUjA karAve, sAdhu-sAdhvIonA darzana-vaMdana karAve, ghare saMyamIone gocarI mATe bolAvI lAve, ane bharapUra bhaktibhAva sAthe dIkarAnA hAthe ja supAtradAna karAvaDAve. mA putramaya banI gaI. divaso vItatA gayA, tabiyata lathaDavA lAgI, pathArIvaza banavuM paDyuM, bahene gharamAM ja eka rUmamAM cArebAju phoTAo lagADI dIdhA. dIkarAnI barAbara sAme zrI zaMkhezvara pArzvanAthaprabhuno moTo phoTo lagAvI dIdho. bahene rUmanI bahAra borDa lagAvI dIdhuM 'Please ! raDanArA, DhIlI vAta karanArAoe rUmamAM praveza karavo nahi.' ane kharekhara bahena makkama banIne A zaratanuM pAlana karAvatA. koIka jo aMdara gayA pachI raDe, 'arere ! bicAro chokaro ATalI nAnI uMmare...' ema DhIlA vacano bole, to lAla AMkha karIne spaSTa zabdomAM kahI de 'tame bahAra nIkaLI jAo. mArA dIkarAne leza paNa durdhyAna thAya, evuM ahIM nahi cAle.' lokone khoTuM lAgavAnI phikara karyA vinA ja ekadama sakhata banIne bahena nirNayo levA mAMDyA. aMtima divasa... bahenane aMdAja AvI gayo. kensaranI pIDA hada vaTAvI rahI hatI. bahene eka paLa paNa dIkarA pAsethI dUra na thavAno saMkalpa karI lIdho. jo beTA ! AMkha ughADIne jo. pArthadAdA tane bolAve che, have raDato nahi. hasavA lAga. prabhu kevA hase che ? ema tAre paNa hasavAnuM. Aje tAre prabhu pAse javAnuM che.' kharekhara bahenanI mahenata lekhe lAgI. dIkaro AMkho ughADI prabhu sAme joI rahyo, prasannatA enA mukha para bharacaka pIDA vacce paNa dekhAvA lAgI. vattara mAM.... no gaMbhI2 nAda guMjavA lAgyo, dIkarAe potAnI meLe ja be hAtha joDI dIdhA. bahena (mammI)nI najara satata enA mukha para hatI, paLa-paLano hisAba cAlato hato. acAnaka eka DacakuM AvyuM, tIvra vedanA upaDI... tyAM ja eka DusakuM saMbhaLAyuM, bahene pAchaLa dhAradAra najara nAMkhI, joyuM to potAno pati, dIkarAno bApa dIkarAnI A hAlata sahI na zakAvAthI raDI paDelo. paNa bahenanI tIvra najaramAM 80

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~~~~ ~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~ ~ patie Adeza vAMcI lIdho eka sekaMDamAM bahAra nIkaLI jAo. tamArA kAraNe dIkarAno paraloka bagaDaze." ane pati doDIne bahAra jato rahyo. vattAri sara parvajJAmi... bahenanA madhura zabdo.... bIjI AMcakI.... rihaMta sara.. trIjI AMcakI.... dIkarAnI prabhu samakSa khullI AMkho, be hAtha joDelA ane prANa nIkaLI gayo. eka-be paLa, bahena zAMta besI rahyA. dIkarAnI be AMkho baMdha karI dIdhI. ane mahinAothI rUMdhI rAkhelI azrudhArA bAre khAMge varasI paDI. dIkaro sadgati pAmyo, samAdhimaraNa pAmyo..." enA harSAzru ane mAtRtvathI prerAyelA neharAgabhInA viyogAzru ! badhAe emane raDavA dIdhA, pati bhInI AMkhe pAcho pharyo, saunA manamAM eka ja vicAra ! "mA maLo, to AvI !" e bahena saune Aje to vaMdanIya, pUjanIya lAgyA. (laukika jagatamAM "mAtAnI joDa na ja maLe', ema kahyuM che. paNa tyAM mAtAnA laukika upakArone najara sAme rAkhIne A zabdo vaparAyA che. lokottarazAsana eTaluM ja kahe che ke jo mammI saMtAnone dharmamArge vALI, A rIte utkRSTa kakSAnuM samAdhimaraNa apAve, to ame paNa e bolavA taiyAra chIe ke jananInI joDa sakhI !....) mArA dAdI guNI (eka sAdhvIjInA zabdomAM...) * 80 varSanI uMmara thaI, tyAM sudhI 6-7 ki.mI.no paNa vihAra ja karatA, DoLI-vhIlacera na vAparatA. * 90 varSanI uMmara sudhI kyAreya divase uMdhyA nathI. * 96 varSanI pAkaTa uMmare to zarIra nabaLuM paDe ja ne ? derAsarano uMbaro oLaMgavAmAM paNa muzkelI ! chatAM prabhudarzananI tIvra tamannA, eTale derAsaranA moTA pagathiyA mahenata karI karIne paNa caDe ane darzana kare e pachIja emane saMtoSa thAya. ame kahIe ke "bahArathI ja, nIcethI ja darzana karI lo ne ? upara aMdara caDavA-javAnI zI jarUra ?' to javAba Ape "emAM darzanano AsvAda nathI Avato..." (ApaNane darzanamAM bhAva na jAgato hoya, utAvaLa karavAnuM thatuM hoya... to enI sAme A Adarza vicAravA jevo nathI zuM ?) * ame gocarI laIne AvIe, tyAre dara vakhate aNadhAryA prazno pUchI nAMkhe.. dA.ta.: Aje kula keTalA gharomAM pharyA? saMkhyA gaNIne kaho. AmAM loTano kALa pukyo che ?

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-~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo-~~~-~AmAM mAvo che ? bajArano ke gharano ? e pucheluM? AmAM pAkuM mIThuM nAMkheluM ke kAcuM ? pucheluM kharuM ke ?... ame jo pramAda-upekSA karIe, to pakaDAI ja jaIe, pachI Thapako Ape ke "ApaNe saMyamI chIe, garabaDa calAvavI saMsArIonuM kAma! ApaNuM nahi..." * eka vAra zarIramAM garamI thaI, ame kahyuM... "nALiyeranuM pANI vAparo..." tarata ja javAba hAjara! "nA, kAcA garbhane phoDIne mAre pANI vAparavuM nathI. bIjA jIvane azAtA ApIne ApaNane zAtA na maLe... * 80 varSanI uMmara pachI paNa roja navuM gokhavAnuM cAlu roja 5 thI 6 kalAka granthapustakAdinuM vAMcana! nI 25 mALA, 10 bAMdhI navakAravALI, 350 logassano kAyotsarga, dara varSe kula 2 vAra savAlAkha-savAlAkha navakAramaMtrano japa.. * vihAramAM koIpaNa sAdhvIjIo vihAra karIne Ave, to pote Asana parathI ubhA thaI pAse jAya ja... gocarI-pANI aMge pUche ja... e sAdhvIjIo sva ke para samudAyanA...nAnA ke moTA... kazuM ja jovAnuM nahi. * 83 varSanI uMmare taLAjA tIrthanI yAtrA caDIne karI. * kyAreya paNa bhIMtane Teko ApIne beThA nathI, sadA mATe apramata! * amane zikhAmaNa Ape "vaiyAvaccamAM-kAma karavAmAM kyAreya paNa kaMTALo na Avavo joIe. "e to rokaDo vepAra che, tarata puNyabaMdha ane karmanirjarA thAya.. * saMghamAM koIpaNa prakAranI mAMgaNI na kare, apekSA na rAkhe.... " * bhUlathI koI bole ke "gurujI! A anukULa che, A vAparo...' to e vastuno e divase tyAgI * koIka ghare anukULa vastu ekavAra vahorI hoya, pachI vadhaghaTamAM e vastu e ghare na vahoravA de. * saMghATakagocarIno Agraha ghaNo! cokhkhuM kahe ke "be hoya, to ekabIjAnA sAkSI banI rahe, bhUla na thAya." * emano upadeza hato ke pATe besanAra jeTalAne dharma pamADe, enA karatA uttama gocarIcaryA karanAra vadhu dharma pamADe." * Aje pratikramaNa bAda jo ame bhegA maLI vAto karatA hoIe, to Takora karI ja de.. konI caTaNI karo cho ?' evA koIka vAkyothI amane sAvaceta banAvI ja de... * koIpaNa sAdhvIjIo vihAra karIne Ave, eTale pahelA emane badhI parAto ApI de, bIjI paNa badhI vastu pahelA emane ApI de, amane bIjInuM pANI paNa na lAvavA de.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIokahe ke 'pahelA e sAdhvIjIo laI Ave, pachI tame lAvajo... emane ghaTavuM na joIe.' A rIte sAdharmikabhakti kare. vaLI kahe ke 'tame dUra gocarI jajo, najIkanA gharo emane batAvI dejo, jethI emane jaldI gocarI maLI jAya... bIjA gacchanA sAdhvIjIo mATe paNa Avo zreSTha sAdharmikavatsalabhAva! * emanA eka ziSyA eTale ke amArA eka gurubahenanI nizrAmAM kyAMka koIka kAryakrama haze, enI patrikA chapAyelI, e patrikAnA mukhya pAnA para guruNInuM nAma ja nahi. amArAthI koIke tarata ja guruNIne kahyuM A zuM ? ApanI ziSyA ApanuM nAma paNa na lakhAve ?' zAMtabhAve javAba vALyo, 'bhUlI gayA haze, tamAre e badhI paMcAta karavAnI zI jarUra! jenuM nAma teno nAza...' * 96 varSa sudhI eTaleke mRtyu sudhI zArIrika dardanI kadI phariyAda karI nathI, ame puchIe ke 'azakti lAge che ?' to Azcarya sAthe sAme pUche 'azakti eTale zuM ?' * ekavAra emane bArIno paDado pakaDI rAkhIne beThelA joI ame puchyuM 'zuM karo cho ? A paDado kema pakaDI rAkhyo che ?' to kahe "pavanathI uDyA kare che, vAyunA jIvonI hiMsA thAya. tame ene barAbara bheravI do, jethI uDe nahi..." * dara varSe 12 vA2 12 upavAsa kare. (eTale ke kula 144 upavAsa...) dIkSA lIdhI, tyArathI A tapazcaryA karatA hatA. * jIvananA chellA prabhAte zrIsImaMdharasvAmI, zrI zatruMjyagirivara... baMnenA caityavaMdana jAte prasannacitte bhAvapUrvaka karelA, e ja divase emaNe paralokanI vATe vidAya lIdhI. AvAraH prathamo dharma:! (eka sAdhvIjI taraphathI...) ame vihAra karatA karatA eka sthAnamAM AvyA, tyAM eka paricita bahena vaMdana karavA mATe AvyA, mArA guruNIane bahena vacce je vAtacIta thaI, te nIce pramANe hatI. guruNI : A vakhate to tamAre tyAM sarasa sAdhu bhagavaMta hatA, vyAkhyAnano lAbha sAro maLyo haze... :: bahena : are, ma.sA.! zuM vAta karuM ? A varSe mane khabara paDI ke meM to mAruM AkhuM jIvana barabAda karI nAMkhyuM. AvuM jinazAsana... AvuM zramaNajIvana... vagere badhuM maLavA chatAM paNa huM enI kadara na karI zakI. zuM sAdhuo hatA... e badhAno vihAra thatA to jANe mArA jIvanamAMthI ullAsa paNa vihAra karIne cAlyo gayo... (ATaluM bolatA bolatA to e bahena dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDyA...) 83

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo gurujI! zuM e badhAnuM alaukika jIvana... ame ravivArAdinA moTA vyAkhyAna bAda kyAreka tyAM beThA hoIe, tyAre teo je baporano kALaveLAno kAjo kADhe... e eTalI badhI kALajIthI kADhe ke enI mArA para gherI chApa paDI. badho kAjo bhego kare, barAbara jue, pachI ucitasthAne paraThavI Ave. meM kadI AvI kALajIthI jhADuM nathI vAparyu... teo jyAre bhIMtano Teko le, tyAre paNa bhIMta ane pITha baMne barAbara pUMjIne ja Teko le. vaMdanAdi karavA gayA, tyAre AvuM anekavAra jovA maLyuM. gurujI! caravaLo laIne Aja sudhI bhale ghaNA badhA sAmAyika karyA, paNa ATalo sUkSma upayoga tyAre zIkhI... emanuM pAtrapratilekhana paNa gajabanuM! eka-eka pAtru kALajIthI jue, pUMje... amane to 11.30 thAya, eTale jamavAnI utAvaLa... ane A sAdhuone badhAne ekAsaNa hovA chatAM paNa kevI prasannatA! mahAtmAo ghaNA... lakhavA mATe badhAne Tebala to joIe ne! pravacanakAre vyAkhyAnamAM jAherAta karI ke' jene tyAM lakhavA mATe upayogI thAya, evA prakAranA Tebala hoya, teo amane ApI zake... pachI je Tebalo maLyA, e dareka Tebala para jenA hatA, te zrAvakanA nAmanI kApalI coMTADI dIdhI, jethI comAsA bAda pAchA ApavAmAM garabaDa na thAya. ane kharekhara comAsA bAda darekanA ghare e Tebalo vyavasthita pahoMcADI dIdhA, jarAka paNa garabaDa na thavA dIdhI. ghare gocarI vahoravA Ave, to paNa keTakeTalI puchaparacha karIne ja vahore... ghare ochA sabhyo hoya, to ochuM vahore... vadhAre hoya to e rIte vahore... mane to ghaNIvAra ema thatuM ke kyAMkathI ghaNA mANaso bolAvI lAvIne, e badhA mATe tapelA bharIbharIne rasoI karuM, eTale bharelA tapelA ane ghaNA jamanArA joIne 'sAdhuo gocarI vahore... paNa roja ATalA badhA mahemAno mAre kyAMthI bhegA karavA ? jyAre paNa emane vahoravavAno lAbha maLato, tyAre huM gAMDI gAMDI thaI jatI. paNa jabaradasta tyAga! phrUTa vagere ghaNI vastuo baMdha... badhA sAdhuo gurunI bhaktimAM otaprota! gurujI ubhA thAya, to tarata Asana laI le, gurujIne jyAM besavuM hoya, tyAM tarata ja ziSyo Asana pAtharI de. eka ja IzAro kare, ke tarata potAnA sthAnethI ubhA thaI 'hAjI' bolatA bolatA gurujInI pAse AvI jAya. ma.sA.! meM to mArA mA-bApanI paNa AvI bhakti nathI karI. 84

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo e bahena harSamAM AvIne bolatA ja gayA, bolatA ja gayA.. sAdhu bhagavaMtonI jIvanacaryAno eTalo badho prabhAva e bahena upara paDayo ke e bahene paNa phrUTa-mIThAI-abhakSya-bahAranuM-hotelnuM... badhuM ja baMdha karI dIdhu. parigraha paNa (kapaDA vagereno) ghaNo badho ghaTADI dIdho. DhagalAbaMdha pacca. laI lIdhA. eka ja vAta bolyA kare che 'have to huM paNa kyAre e sAdhu bhagavaMto jevI banI jAuM.' koI vizeSa abhyAsa vagara... koIpaNa prakAranI dIkSA mATenI vizeSa preraNA vagara... sAdhvIjI bha.nA paricaya-satsaMga vagara... mAtra saMyamajIvananA suMdara AcAra-vicAra, parasparano mIThAza bharelo vyavahAra joIne e bahena, emano parivAra saMyama mATeno talasATa pAmI cUkyo che. (loko bhale game eTalA bhogavAda tarapha kheMcAyA hoya, lokone game to che tyAgavAda! ulaTuM ema lAge che ke emano bhogavAda vadhyo hovAthI ja emanI tyAgaprIti vadhI che. tyAga emane Azcarya pamADe che... ApaNe zuM karavuM ? e svayaM vicArI levuM.) muja AtmA jAgyo have.. "gurujI! TrasTIone kahIne vADA sApha karanArane tAtkAlika bolAvavo paDaze. traNa divasathI bhaMgI Avyo nathI. badhA pyAlA ema ne ema paDyA che. bhAre muzkelI thaze.' eka sAdhvIjIe vizALagrupanA potAnA guruNIne vAta karI... emanI vAta sAcI hatI. gacchamAM badhA pota-potAnI zaktine anusAre vaDInIti bahAra javAnuM ke paraThavavAnuM ke chevaTe vADAno upayoga karavAnuM karatA hoya che. roja bhaMgI AvIne pyAlAo sApha karI jAya, eTale e pyAlAno bIjA divase pharI upayoga thaI zake... e rIte badhuM cAlatuM hatuM. paNa traNa divasathI bhUMgI na Avyo, eTale pyAlA paNa ghaTI paDyA, vADAno upayoga karanArA saMyamIone ciMtA thAya, e svAbhAvika che. 'pachI vAta, sAMje TrasTIne ke koIka mahatvanI vyaktine vAta karazuM...' guruNIe kahyuM. bapore gocarI patI, ane koIka sAdhvIjI vADAmAM gayA haze, tyAM joyuM to tamAme tamAma pyAlA sApha thaI cUkelA... e Azcarya pAmyA, bhaMgI Avyo na hato, e to emane pAkI khabara ja hatI. to pachI A saphAIkAma koNe karyu ? 85.

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-~-~~-~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~~~ emaNe AvIne guruNIne vAta karI, e paNa Azcarya pAmyA, AnaMda paNa thayo. paNa AvuM kAma koNe karyuM haze ? e jANavAnI IMtejArI ekadama vadhI gaI. emaNe jAheramAM badhA sAdhvIjIone prazna karyo. koIe javAba na vALyo, chevaTe eka sAdhvIjI bolyA.. gurujI! mane khabara che ke A mahAna vaiyAvacca koNe karI che..." ema kahIne emaNe eka sAdhvIjI pratye AMgaLI cIMdhI. gocarI vahelI patAvIne e vADAmAM gayA, badhA pyAlAnI azuci teo jAte dUra jaI paraThavI AvyA, badhA pyAlA dhoI karIne mUkI dIdhA. koIne khabara paNa na paDavA dIdhI. emaNe to mArI AMkha ughADI che." sAdhvIjIno svara bhIno thaI gayo. saunI AMkho bharAI gaI. kAraNa ke badhA jANatA hatA ke A kAma karanAra sAdhvIjI muMbaInA atisukhI parivAranA dIkarI hatA. emaNe kadI rasoDAnuM kAma karyuM na hatuM, jIMdagImAM cA-kophI banAvavA jeTalo paNa parizrama lIdho na hato. AvA e sAdhvIjI Aje mAtra pa-6 varSanA dIkSA paryAyamAM AvA prakAranI azakyaprAyaH vaiyAvacca zI rIte karI zake ? paNa, na to emane jugupsA thaI, na Ano ahaMkAra jAgyo, na emaNe svanI prazaMsA ke paranI niMdA karI, saMyamIonI bhaktino lAbha levAnA eka mAtra udezathI emaNe AvI zreSTha vaiyAvacca karI... (gocarI-pANI-saMthArAdinI bhakti sahelI che, paNa laghu-vaDInIti vagerenI...? A sAdhvIjInA bhAIe emanA jIvanathI prabhAvita thaIne gharamAM Tv.... phrIja... vagere kazuM ja vasAvyuM nathI. A sAdhvIjInA mammIe dIkarIne khuza karavA bhaNavAnuM zarU karyuM, ane 50 varSanI uMmare bhaNavAnuM cAlu kareluM hovA chatAM 4 prakaraNa - 6 karmagranthano abhyAsa karyo, atyAre bIjI bukano abhyAsa cAle che. A sAdhvIjInA pitAzrI nivRta thaIne zAsananA kAryomAM tana-mana-dhanathI joDAI gayA che.) 86

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo jainatva: janmathI nahi, paNa karmathI che. 'mArA gurubahenanI ziSyAnuM svAsthya barAbara nathI. gurubahenano patra Avyo che, vinaMti karI che ke 'koIka vaiyAvaccIne mokalI zako, to AbhAra...'mArI pharaja che ane mArI aMtaranI IcchA che ke emanI sevA karavA mATe tamArAmAMthI koIka jAya... bolo, konI bhAvanA che...' vizALa ziSyAvRMdanA guruNIe badhAne bhegA karIne potAnI IcchA pradarzita karI. bIjA sAdhvIjIo javAba Ape-na Ape, e pahelA to mAtra doDha ja varSanA dIkSA paryAyavALA sAdhvIjIe tarata utsAhabhera javAba vALI dIdho 'gurujI! A lAbha mane Apo. ane, gurujI! mAtra A eka comAsA mATe ja nahi, jyAM sudhI ApanI IcchA haze, tyAM sudhI huM sevA karIza. bhale game eTalA varSa thAya...' vadhu agatyanI vAta to e hatI ke 'e sAdhvIjI janme ajaina hatA, sAdhvIono paricaya pAmIne dIkSita thayelA hatA...' Aje e vAtane sADAtraNa varSa thaI gayA che. avirata paNe mAsIguruNInA ziSyAnI sevA karI rahyA che. e glAna sAdhvIjIne ekavAra svAsthya vadhu bagaDavAthI divasamAM cAra-pAMca vAra vaDInIti javuM paDyuM. emane A vaiyAvaccI sAdhvInI khUba ciMtA ! 'ATalI badhI vAra emaNe paraThavavA javuM paDe, e mane na zobhe...' glAne kahI dIdhuM 'huM vADAmAM jaI AvIza, tamAre ATalI badhI vAra paraThavavA nahi javuM. tame thAkI jAo...' ATaluM sAMbhaLatA to vaiyAvaccI e nAnA sAdhvIjInI AMkhamAM pANI AvI gayA "sAhebajI! Avo to Apa vicAra paNa nahi karatA. jyAM sudhI mArI zakti che, tyAM sudhI Ape A virAdhanA karavI ja zA mATe paDe ? Aje Apane badale mAre 4-5vAra sthaMDila javuM paDe, to huM jAuM ke nahi paraThavavA ? to eTalI ja bhakti mAre ApanI karavAnI che..." ane pUrA ullAsa sAthe potAnuM vaiyAvaccakArya A jainetarakulamAM janma pAmIne jainasAdhvIjI banAvelA A sAdhvIjI karI rahyA che. 87

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo sumaMgala-AcAryanA pratinidhio jaya ho. zeSakALamAM vihAro cAlu hoya, e vakhate eka upAzrayamAM judA judA pAMca-sAta sAdhvIgrupo bhegA thaI gayA. grupo alaga, paNa sAmAcArI eka hovAthI paraspara pratilekhanAdino vyavahAra kharo ! emAM eka sAdhvIjI... uMmara khAssI moTI... cAlavAmAM paNa bhAre takalIpha... 'vokara'no upayoga karIne emaNe cAlavuM paDe... paNa e divasanI emanI carcA joIne tamAma sAdhvIo moMmAM AMgaLA nAMkhI gayA. vokarathI dhIme dhIme cAlatA e vArApharatI sAdhvIjIo pAse phare, ane kahe 'lAvo, mane tamArA paDilehaNano lAbha Apo...' 'tame, rahevA do, tame have gharaDA thayA.' badhA Avo ja javAba vALe. 'bhale vRddha thaI, paNa AvuM kAma to huM karI ja zakuM chuM. bIjA badhA kAma mArAthI thatA nathI, to kamasekama ATaluM karIne to gacchabhakti karuM...' ane kharekhara e rIte ghaNA sAdhvIjIonA pAtrAdi-paDilehaNano lAbha lIdho. (sumaMgala AcArya AcAryadezamAM apaMga rAjakumAra tarIke janmyA, pUrvabhavanA ziSyoe emane pratibodha pamADI dIkSA ApI, paNa e apaMga hovAthI vihAra karI zakatA na hatA. ziSyo emane khabhe uMcakIne vihAra karAvatA. e rIte bhUtapUrvagurunuM RNa cUkavatA. to enI sAme sumaMgalAcArya (atyAre rAjakumArano bhava)paNa upAzrayamAM DhasaDAtA DhasaDAtA badhAnA sthAne pahoMcIne badhAnA pAtrAdipratilekhanano lAbha letA. AtmA dhAre, to zuM na karI zake ?... nAnI-moTI mAMdagImAM tarata ja sevA levA besI javuM, bIjAnA vaiyAvacca karavAnA svabhAvano durupayoga karavo, svAdhIna jIvana jIvavAnI zakti hovA chatAM paNa hAthe karIne parAdhIna jIvana jIvavuM, ALasu banavuM, bIjA 52 bojA rUpa banavuM... e vyAjabI keTaluM ? kalpanA karo A sAdhvIjI mATe! vokarathI ja cAlavuM paDe, emaNe bIjAnI vaiyAvacca na karavAno kAyadesara hakka ja maLI jAya ne ? ApaNe hoIe, to ema ja karIe ne ? ene badale... karoDo vaMdana ho emanA A udAtta svabhAvane !) 88

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo eka ajaina vaidhanuM jainAcAryanA AcArothI parivartana (eka vaidyanA zabdomAM) AjathI paMdareka varSa pahelAnI vAta che. e pUjya AcArya bha. junAgaDhathI vihAra karIne dhorAjI AvatA hatA, ane sAMje pAMca vAgyA pachI sakhata tAva ane jhADA lagabhaga 15 thI 20 vAra thayA. H.P. mAtra 5% thaI gayu. sIvIyara D-hAIDrezana hatuM. rAtre nava vAge dhorAjInA saMghapramukha bacubhAI davAvALA ane mArA dharmapremI mitra nareza mAMDalIyAe mane samAcAra ApyA 'tAtkAlika vaidyanI tamArI jarUra che, jaldI Avo.' = huM gayo ane joyuM to paristhiti ekadama kathaLelI hatI. 'tAtkAlika bATalA caDAvavA paDaze, IMjekazana lagAvavA paDaze.' meM kahyuM. A vAkya sAMbhaLIne pUjyazrI ekadama ubhA thaI gayA. mane kahe 'A loko ema kahe che ke tuM vaidya che.' to amane sAdhuone A hiMsaka davAno khapa kyAMthI hoya ?' meM kahyuM 'sAheba ! ApanI badhI vAta sAcI. paNa AgADha kAraNamAM ane ImarajansImAM A davA levAmAM koI doSa na lAge. AmAM bATalA caDAvavA paDe, nahi to takalIpha vadhI jAya.' 'huM savAre houM ke na houM, tenI ciMtA tAre karavAnI nathI' teozrI bolyA 'tArI pAse aNAhArI kaDavI ke tUrI davAnI phAkI hoya, to mane Apa, pachI tuM chuTTo!' jIva karatA zivane vahAlo karanArA, AvuM kaDaka AjJApAlana karanArA meM pahelA sAdhu joyA. meM emane kaDachAla cUrNa ApyuM. e kaDavuM hoya che, tAva ane jhADA baMne maTADe. pANI vinA ja A davA eka camacI jeTalI cUsI-cUsIne lIdhI, ane savAre paga para paga caDAvIne beThA hatA. mane kahe 'A AyurvedamAM tane zraddhA nathI, tArAthI vadhAre mane zraddhA che. tuM je davA Apato hato, e hiMsaka davA melI vidyAnA deva jevI hatI. tAtkAlika sAruM thAta. paNa mArA aneka bhavo vadhI jAta.' e pachI sAteka divasa tyAM rokAyA, tyAre khabara paDI ke teozrIne prosTejanI paNa khUba ja takalIpha che. rAtre 8-10 vAra mAtru javuM paDe che, sakhata baLatarA thAya, lohI paNa paDe. tAtkAlika koIka sarjana pAse oparezana karAvavAnI jarUra! mane kahe, 'tArI pAse nava divasa che. AMbilanI oLI sudhI ahIM chuM. koI dezI davA lAgu paDe, to koziza kara. mAre pApa mAthe caDAvavuM nathI. DaoNkTara ane vaidya to ghaNA che. tAre rAtribhojanano tyAga karavo hoya, to ja mArI davA karaje. nahi to kaMI jarUra nathI.' zrI zAsanadevanI kRpAthI mAruM rAtribhojana gayuM ane sAhebajI punarnavAnI phAMkIthI sArA thaI gayA. 89

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-~-~~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~ meM rAtribhojanatyAganI pratijJA to lIdhI. paNa tabIbI vyavasAya evo ke game tyAre rAtre vijhITa para javuM paDe, ane rAtre bhUkha-tarasa jAge, 2-3 varSa to game tema kADhyA, paNa pachI manobaLa nabaLuM paDatA huM pUjyazrIne amadAvAda maLavA gayo. "sAheba! khUba ja takalIpha che. sArA-naravA prasaMge ane saMjogovazAta mahinAmAM pAMca divasa rAtribhojananI chUTa Apo..." meM karagarIne kahyuM. mane kahe "huM jainAcArya rAtribhojananI chUTa kema ApuM? takalIpha to karmAnusAre AvavAnI ja. are, sAmethI AhvAna karIne muzkelIne bolAvI levAnI...' meM kahyuM "sAhebajI! sAmAnya nahi, vizeSa muzkelIo paDe che.' to kahe "kasoTI to Ave ja, dharma kare enI kasoTI thAya. Aje 10 varSathI devo mArI kasoTI kare che. ATalA tapa pachI A uMmare jo mArI paNa kasoTI thAya, to kyAM tAruM tapa ane kyAM tArI uMmara ' basa, e pachI akhaMDapaNe pratijJA pALI rahyo chuM. bhUkha-tarasa bhUlI gayo chuM. (ApaNuM AcAra pAlana, AcAracustatA madhyamajIvone khUba ja Avarjita kare che...) saMvignatAno pavitrapuMja eTale vartamAnanA eka vayovRddha AcArya vi.saM.2068-69nA comAsAnI A vAta che. 84 varSanA e AcArya bhagavaMte amadAvAdamAM aSADha suda pAMcamanA divasathI roja ekAsaNA zarU karyA. aSADha suda cothanA divase potAnA ziSyane kahI dIdhuM. "AvatIkAle mArA gurudevanI zatAbdI nimitte paMca divasIya mahotsava zarU thavAno che, e nimitte mAre AvatIkAlathI roja ekAsaNA karavA che..." gurudeva! Apa A zuM bolo cho ? ApanI uMmara keTalI che? enuM Apane bhAna che ke ? tabiyata zI rIte sacavAze...' ziSya to bebAkaLo banI gayo. tuM khaTapaTa nahi kara. mane saMketa maLyo che, eTale ekAsaNA karavAnA ja che. ane sAMbhaLa, ekAsaNa paNa mAtra be dravyanA ja karavAnA che. dALa ane roTalI... tAre koI dalIla karavAnI nathI. kAlathI gocarImAM dhyAna rAkhaje..." AcArye sattAvAhI svare AjJA karI dIdhI. pelo ziSya to bAgho ja banI gayo, enuM cAle paNa zuM ? lagAtara savA mahinA sudhI be ja dravyanA ekAsaNA karyA. e be dravyo paNa pAchA pAkA bAMdhelA! emAM koIpaNa jAtano pheraphAra nahi, dALane badale dUdha ke zAka... nahi ja. ema roTalIne badale paNa kazuM nahi.

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* vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ziSya ghaNIvAra bhAkharI, thepalA, roTalA vagere ApavAno prayatna karyo, bahAnA kADhyA ke 'A badhuM AhAra ja gaNAya. sAdhupaNAmAM A badhA dravyo alaga nathI gaNAtA.' paNa AcAryazrI ziSyanI cAlAkI samajatA ja hatA, emaNe roTalI sivAyanI dareke dareke vastuno tyAga karyo. dALa garama-ThaMDI game te Ave, tuvera-maga game te Ave... badhuM cAle. roTalI ThaMDI-garama, jADI-pAtaLI, nAnI-moTI, kAcI-pAkI... badhu cAle, ziSye kaMTALIne moTA AcAryane phariyAdano patra lakhyo, tyAMthI orDara Avyo ke 'tamAre be nahi, paNa traNa dravya vAparavA...' eTale savA mahinA bAda dALa+roTalI+keLA ema traNa dravyano ekAsaNA AkhuM comAsuM karyA. ghaDapaNanA kAraNe ziSye ekavAra dALa-roTalI cUrIne DhokaLI banAvIne ApI, to nA pADI dIdhI, 'bahu suMvALA nahi banavAnuM, dAMtane kasarata karAvavI paDe.' 'ApanuM zarIra utarI gayuM che-' AvI pharIyAda karI, to javAba hAja2 ja hato. 'Ama paNa chellI uMmaramAM zarIrano meda utAravAno ja hoya che. eTale huM to prabhunI AjJA ja pALuM chuM...' enI pUrvenA comAsAmAM paNa 3 dravyanA ekAsaNA karelA. (A AcArya bha. sAthe gayA varSe doTha-be mahinA sAthe rahevAno lAbha mane paNa maLelo, emanI eke-eka jIvanacaryAmAM saMyama nItaratuM jovA maLe. prakAMDa vidvAna, mahAna saMyamI Azcarya janaka jIMdagI... 84 varSanI uMmare paNa AvuM jIvana jIvI zakAya che... vhIlacera na vAparavI paDe, e mATe moTA bhAge amadA.mAM ja alaga alaga saMghomAM vicare che. emanI keTalIka viziSTa bAbato pharI kyAreka jozuM...) anavasthA aTakAvo "sAhebajI! eka prazna pUchuM ? meM hamaNA ApanA ziSya pAsethI sAMbhaLyuM ke 'Apa giranArajI gayA, chatAM giranArajInI yAtrA na karI.' e zuM sAcI vAta ?' 76 varSanA eka vRddha munirAjane meM zaMkhezvaramAM prazna karyo. divasa hato mArca 10 thI mArca 22 sudhIno! vi.saM.2069! phAgaNa mAsa! Azare soLeka sAdhuonuM e vRMda! A vRddha mahAtmA emanA guru! paNa padavI nahi. dIkSAparyAya 38 varSa AsapAsa!

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIoe giranArajIthI zaMkhezvara cha'rI pAlita saMgha laIne padhArelA. emanA ziSyo mArI pAse AvatA. prazno pUchatA, samAdhAno meLavatA... atyaMta guNiyala mahAtmAo! na IcchIe to ya sneha baMdhAI jAya evA guNiyala munivaro! eka divasa ekAda ziSyanA moDhethI meM vAta sAMbhaLI ke 'amArA gurujIe giranArajInI yAtrA na karI...' eTale mane thayuM ke A jabaruM kahevAya. bhAratabharanA lAkho loko zAzvatA tIrtha giranArajInI yAtrA karavA jAya che. ane A zuM karI rahyA che ? mane kutUhala thayuM... eTale upaDayo emanI pAse! sukhazAtApRcchAdi patAvIne avasara joIne prazna pUchI lIdho. e vayovRddha saMyamI mahAtmA bolyA... "mahArAja ! ame comAsuM pAlitANA hatA. tyAMthI giranArajIno vihAra hato, cha'rI pAlitasaMgha ja hato. meM saMgha nIkaLatA pahelA pAlitANAmAM eka yAtrA karI, paNa have AvyuM che ghaDapaNa! zarIranI zaktio kSINa thavA lAgI che. eTale e yAtrA mAre bhAre paDI, pachI to tarata ja saMgha cAlu thayo. rojanA 15-20 ki.mI. cAlavAnuM! huM DoLI-vhIlacera vAparato nathI. eTale A badho vihAra paNa mAre kheMcIne karavo paDyo. ema karatA ame pahoMcyA giranArajI! tyAMthI tarata ja zaMkhezvarano saMgha hato. eTale mane vicAra Avyo ke 'jo ahIM yAtrA karIza ane mAruM zarIra DhIluM paDI jaze, to A saMgha aTavAI jaze, kheMcavuM bhAre paDaze. nakkI karelA saMghane have kaMI baMdha karAya nahi, badhI vyavasthAo goThavAI gaI hoya... eTale meM giranArajInI yAtrA na karI. "" 'ApazrI giranArajI pahelA kyAreya gayA cho ?' 'nA, dIkSAjIvanamAM ja nahi, paNa AkhI jIMdagImAM ya prathamavAra gayelo.' 'zuM kaho cho ? to Apane IcchA na thaI yAtrA karavAnI ? are, sAdhu-sAdhvI bhagavaMto seMkaDo ki.mI.no vihAra karIne yAtrA karavA Ave che, ane Apa tyAM pahoMcyA pachI paNa yAtrA nathI karatA ? gajaba kahevAya.' 'paNa kevIrIte karuM ? zarIranI zakti hovI joIe ne ?' 'DoLImAM thaI zakta ne ? Apa kyAM vajanavALA cho... sAva sukalakaDI kAyA che. tyAM to DoLInI vyavasthA che ja. ApanA to DhagalAbaMdha zrImaMto bhakto che. zuM koI DoLInA paisA cUkavavA taiyAra na hatuM ?' paisAno to prazna ja nathI, mahArAja!' e vRddhamuni hasyA, mArmika hasyA, '10,000 rU|. thAya ke lAkha thAya to ya prazna nathI.' 92

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo to ? prazna che maryAdAno! prazna che anavasthAno! mane A rIte yAtrA mATe DoLIno upayoga karavo ucita nathI lAgato. jo bhagavAnanI AjJA mArA haiyAmAM che, to neminAthadAdA mArI sAcI bhaktine samajaze ja. Aje huM ArIte DoLI vAparuM, AvatI kAle mArA ziSyo paNa AgaLa vadhavAnA ja, e anavasthAnuM pApa mAre na khape. mahArAja! Aje paNa 20 ki.mI.nA ke game eTalA vihAra cAlIne ja karuM chuM. 'paNa have to 76 varSa thayA. have vadhu varSo kheMcI zakAze nahi. to pachI zuM karazo ?' 'sthiravAsa!' kharekhara ? Apa to prabhAvaka cho. ghaNA badhA kAryo ApanA bhakto dvArA dara varSe thatA ja rahe che. e badhu baMdha thaI jaze ?' huM emAM nahi houM, e nakkI che. mArA ziSyo hoya, ke bIjA hoya... 'paNa DoLImAM evuM tamane zuM moTuM pApa lAgI gayuM che ke ATalA badhA anuSThAno tame choDI devA mAMgo cho ?' mahArAja! huM mArA mATe A gaNita lagADuM chuM. mane ema lAge che ke mArA mATe to DoLIne badale sthiravAsa ja ucita che. bIjA mATe bIjuM paNa ucita hoI zake che, mAre kaMI eno virodha nathI karavo. hamaNAM ja mArA eka ziSyane pAlitANAmAM oparezana karAvavuM paDela che. have e vihAra karI zake ema nathI. uMmaralAyaka paNa che. emanA mATe meM atyAre vhIlaceranI vyavasthA goThavI che. paNa emane vihAramAM pheravato nathI. amAruM comAsuM rAjasthAna che, emane sIdhA tyAM ja bolAvI lIdhA che. ane mArI bhAvanA che ke jo e mAnI jAya, to rAjasthAnamAM ja eka sthAnamAM emane sthiravAsa karAvI devo.' tyAM ja emanA eka ziSya bolyA "e muni ema ja kahetA hatA ke mAre have DoLIvhIlacerano upayoga karIne kyAMya pharavuM nathI." A pachI aupacArika vAto karIne huM mArA sthAne pAcho Avyo. (saMyamIo! kamasekama A prasaMga upara khullA manathI, taTastha banIne, mananA vicArone bAju para mUkIne kaMIka ciMtana karajo. * apavAda dareke dareka bAbatamAM che, e zAstravacana che. paNa e apavAda kyAre levo ? keTalo levo ? kaI rIte levo ? e to nakkI karI levuM paDe ne ? 93

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--~~-~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~-~-~ * puSTakraNa hoya to bahArano moTo doSa paNa apavAda che. dA.ta. kamaLAnA dardIne zeraDIno rasa! ane puSTakraNa na hoya, to bahArano nAno doSa paNa aticAra che. dA.ta. koIkane tyAM suMTha-pAvaDara mukAvaDAvavo, roja tyAMthI vahorAvavo.. eTale ApaNo doSa dekhItI rIte nAno hoya, to paNa moTo hoI zake che. bIjAono doSa dekhItI rIte moTo hoya, to paNa nAno ke nahivata hoI zake che. AvuM dareka bAbatomAM samajI levuM. * pUjyapAda gurudevazrI kahetA "pU.A.bhuvanabhAnusUrijI ma.nuM chelluM comAsuM amadAvAda! e pUrve amadA. jatI vakhate teozrIe amArA gurudevazrIne kaheluM ke "mAre tIrthAdhirAja upara dAdAne bheTavuM che, have mAro jhAjho kALa bAkI na gaNAya. mana bharIne bhakti karI lauM." to ahIMthI pAlitANA nIkaLI jaIe." gurudevazrI bolyA. (prAyaH vaDodarA AsapAsa A vAta thaI hovI joIe.) nA, tuM joto nathI? atyAre huM DoLImAM chuM. mAre DoLImAM yAtrA nathI karavI, e to huM amadA. jaIza. tyAM barAbara sAjo thaIza. pachI mAre vihAra karIne, cAlatA cAlatA zatruMjaya pahoMcIne ja yAtrA karavI che. paNa evI zakti na AvI to ?' "to yAtrA nahi...' * sAdhu ke sAdhvIjIone atyAranA saMyogomAM sthiravAsa mATenI yogya jagyA na maLatI hoya, kadAca maLe to bIjA ghaNA duSaNonI saMbhAvanA hoya... A badhA kAraNosara vihArane badale sAdhanano upayoga karavo paDe... e saMbhavita che. paNa eno upayoga sadupayoga rUpe thAya e ghaNuM sAruM. savo guNahiM gaNo "AvatI kAle eka AcArya bha. ahIM padhAravAnA che. sAMje ja vihAra che. 108mAM rokAze, mAre paricaya sAro che. emano paricaya khAsa karavA jevo che. huM tamane emano paricaya karAvIza." pU.A. yazovijayasUrijI ma.nA vaMdanA bhadrika munirAja mahAyazavi.e mane zaMkhezvaramAM zihorInA upAzrayamAM upara mujaba vAta karI. ame cAra mahAtmAo pU.paM.vajasena ma.nI saMmati meLavIne navakAra ArAdhanA bhavanamAM rahelA. tyAM bhoMyaruM ane bhaMDAra... eTale svAdhyAyanI anukULatA sArI hatI. mu. mahAyaza vi.ma.no paricaya mane tyAre ja thayo. ekadama saraLa, udAra, bhadrikasvabhAvI! "paNa jo, jo! tame pAchA emanA doSo jovA nahi besI jatA." mane hasatA hasatA emaNe Takora karI.

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-~ ~ RE vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~~ eTale ?' koIpaNa AtmA sarvaguNasaMpanna na hoya, paDatA kALane lIdhe AcAramAM thoDI ghaNI DhIlAza hoya paNa kharI. jo ke evI koI moTI DhIlAza nathI. paNa tame jhINuM jhINuM jovA jazo... to...?" sAhebajI! e phikara na karazo. doSadaSTine kADhI nAMkhavAno saghana puruSArtha karuM chuM. jyAM sAco guNa dekhAya, tyAM aMtarathI vaMdana! jyAM doSa dekhAya, tyAM karuNA, chevaTe upekSA!" meM mAro bacAva karI lIdho. bIjA divase savAre 9.15 thI 10.15 navakAra ArAdhanA bhavananA bhoMyarAmAM huM caturvidha saMghane pravacana Apato hato. tyAM sAdhu-sAdhvIo vadhu hovAthI pravacanano viSaya saMyamavairAgyalakSI vadhu rAkhelo. mAruM pravacana cAlu ane mane eka mahAtmAe IzAro karyo ke "tame tamArI DAbI bAju juo...' meM najara karI, to eka pacAseka varSanA sAdhu pATanI pAse nIce besI gayA hatA. mAre emano koI paricaya nahi, mane mahAtmAe kahyuM ke "A AcArya..." huM coMkyo, eka AcArya mArA jevAnA pravacanamAM Ave, e paNa kazuM kahyA vinA Ave, cUpacApa sAMbhaLavA mATe besI jAya, pravacana' na DahoLAya, e mATe nIce jamIna para besI jAya... e emanI namratA guNanI parAkASThA hatI. pachI to meM emane pATa para besADyA... pravacana bAda teozrI zihorI upAzrayamAM pU.mu.mahAyaza vi.ma.nI pAse gayA, huM paNa tyAM gayo. saMmati laIne beTho. amArA vacce je vArtAlApa thayo, te nIce mujabano hato. "meM sAMbhaLyuM che ke Apa to bahu moTA sAdhaka cho. puSkaLa maMtrajApa karo cho..." "mahArAja ! evuM kazuM vizeSa nathI. mArI zakti pramANe karuM chuM..." vacce ja pU. mahAyaza ma. bolyA. e zuM kare che? e huM kahuM. rAtre 9 thI mAMDIne 1 thI 2 vAgyA sudhI akhaMDa japa-sAdhanA kare che. cAra-pAMca kalAka! jabaradasta sAmarthya che. - A pAchuM ekAda divasa nahi, paNa kAyama mATe !" eka navakAravALI paNa caMcaLatA sAthe gaNatA mArA mATe A vastu to bhAre Azcaryajanaka hatI. mANasa AkhA divasano thAka pachI paNa 9 thI 1 sudhI eka ja Asane apramatta zI rIte besI zake?

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo Apa zrI zeno japa karo cho ? koI viziSTa maMtrono ? koI deva-devInI sAdhanA...' nA, mahArAja! evo koI ekasTrA maMtra gaNato nathI. 'namo arihaMtALa savvapAvappaLAto' A be padonI 108 navakAravALI. logassano 108 vAra japa. saMtikarano 108 vAra japa. uvasaggaharaMno 108vAra japa. mane AmAM khUba zraddhA che. mane AnaMda thayo. koI bIjA-trIjA japane badale emaNe yogya japa ja svIkAryo hato. 'eka prazna pUchuM ? Apa ATalo badho jApa karo cho... varSonA varSothI karo cho, to Apane kyAreya deva-devInuM pratyakSa darzana thayuM che kharuM ? pratyakSa anubhava thayo che kharo ?' 'nA, mahArAja! nathI thayo.' eTalI jhaDapathI, eTalI badhI nikhAlasatAthI emaNe nA pADI, ke je mATe mAruM mana taiyAra na hatuM. sAdhaka tarIke oLakhAtA mANaso kaMIka uMcI uMcI vAto kare ja... paNa evuM kaMI jovA na maLyuM. mane emanA mukha uparanI bALaka jevI nirdoSatA joIne khUba khUba AnaMda thayo. 'kharekhara ekapaNa vAra pratyakSa anubhava nathI thayo ? loko to Apane moTA sAdhaka kahe che.' meM pharI pUchyuM. 'loko je kahe te, satya vAta A che. hA! ghaNA agharA kAryomAM paNa saphaLatA maLe, e vakhate anumAna karuM ke parokSa rIte daivIsahAya maLI hoya... paNa e anumAna che, pratyakSa nahi.' pU. mahAyaza ma. bolyA 'AmaNe zAsana mATenA amuka amuka je nakkara kAryo karyA che ne, e evA che ke je badhAne kahI paNa na zakAya. (emaNe mane evA be-traNa kAryo kahyA, e vAta 100% sAcI hatI. paNa e badhAne kahevAya evA nathI... mATe...) A dekhAvamAM sAva zAMta-namra che, tamane ema ja lAge ke 'AmanAmAM zuM che ?' paNa mahArAja! rAjakAraNathI mAMDIne bhalabhalA kSetromAM emaNe gajabanA kAryo karelA che. tame emane sAmAnya AcArya na mAnatA...' e AcArya bha.ne tyAre arhadyAna vi.e pANI ApyuM, pANI vAparyA pachI e jAte ja pANI lUMchavA mAMDyA. e munie pAtrI mAMgI... paNa emaNe na ApI. 'ATalo lAbha to amane levA do...' meM paNa pAtrI luMchavA mAMgI. nA mahArAja! huM mArA pAtrA koIne luMchavA nathI Apato... 'kAraNa ?' meM pUchyuM e jarAka hasyA. 'amArA gurudeve 85 varSanI uMmara sudhI kyAreya amane ziSyone paNa pAtrA luMchavA nathI ApyA. ame 8-10 mahAtmAo hatA, jIda paNa karatA. paNa e kaDakAI 96

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo sAthe nanaiyo saMbhaLAvatA. e kahetA 'mArA eMThA pAtrA luMchavA mATe meM tamane dIkSA nathI ApI. tamArA mA-bApe tamane mane soMpyA che, e tamArA saMyama-svAdhyAyAdinI unnati mATe! tamArI pAse huM AvA kAma karAvuM, to huM pApamAM paDuM...' ane mahArAja! tame mAnI zakzo ke kema ? paNa eka satya hakIkata kahuM ke 85 varSanI uMmara sudhI emaNe potAno mAtrAno pyAlo paNa amane koIne paraThavavA Apyo nathI. amArI jIda, amArI samajAvaTa... badhI niSphaLa! vayovRddha uMmare paNa potAno mAtrAno spaMDilano pyAlo paraThavavA jAte jAya... e kahetA 'tamArA pAse huM jo spaMDila-mAtrA paraThavAvuM, to mane Abhiyogika nAma karma baMdhAya. AvatA bhavamAM mAre nokara thavuM paDe, AvA kAryo karavA paDe.' (alabatta sadguru 'ziSyamAM vinaya-vaiyAvaccAdi guNo vikase...' evI pavitrabhAvanAthI sevA karAve, to guru paNa nirjarA ja pAme che. paNa bhAvanA pavitra hovI jarUrI che.) mahArAja! gurujInA e saMskAra TakAvI rAkhavAno prayatna karuM chuM. mArA ziSyone - mArA pAtrA-pAtrI luMchavA Apato nathI. huM ja luMchuM chuM. - mAro kApa kADhavA Apato nathI. muhapattI jevI vastuno kApa paNa huM ja kADhuM chuM. huM sAMbhaLI ja rahyo... emanA mukha upara kyAMya kapaTa ke ahaMkArano aMza paNa pakaDAto na hato. nItaratI hatI mAtra nikhAlasatA! je paNa emane vaMdana kare, e tamAma mahAtmAonA caraNono sparza karyA vinA e na rahe. mahAtmA vaMdana mATe nIce namelA hoya, eTale eno geralAbha (!) uThAve. emane khabara paDe, e pahelA A AcArya bha.nuM kAma pUrU thaI jAya. pU. mahAyaza ma.e mane kahyuM 'meM Amane ghaNIvAra kahyuM, ke tame ujjavaLa paraMparAmAM AvelA gacchanA AcArya cho, gacchAdhipati cho. tamAro gaccha AgaLa cAlavo joIe. e mATe sAdhuo vadhavA joIe... tame kema enA mATe prayatna nathI karatA ? tyAre emaNe mane (pU.mahAyaza ma.ne) javAba Apyo 'mahArAja! yogya prayatna karuM ja chuM, paNa A kAmanI pAchaLa nathI paDato. vAta rahI gaccha TakAvavAnI... mahArAja! 84 gaccho hatA ne, Aje moTA bhAganA gaccho mULathI sApha thaI gayA che. to emAM mAro-amAro gaccha paNa kyAreka to khatama thavAno ja, enuM mamatva zuM ? hA! gaurava cokkasa che, paNa A vastunI taiyArI paNa che.' (A mahAtmA je gacchamAM che, e gacchanA pUrvajomAM prathama koNa che ? e khabara che ? ke jemanA nAmathI hAla A gaccha cAlI rahyo che. na khabara hoya to sAMbhaLo. 97

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-~ ~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo je mahAtmAnA DhagalAbaMdha stavano lAkho jainonA moDhe ramatA thaI cUkyA che. e jJAnavimalasUri ! emanA nAmathI cAlI rahelo vimalagaccha! saMyamI mAtra pratye ananya lAgaNI dharAvatA vartamAna gacchAdhipati kyAMka maLI jAya, to uparanA guNone yAda karIne emanI anumodanA karavAnuM kadI cUkatA nahi.) pU.A.bha.zrI municasUrijInA mukhe sAMbhaLelI nAnakaDI ghaTanA pAlitANAmAM eka moTA derAsaranI bAjumAM eka upAzrayamAM eka AcArya bhagavaMta rokAyelA hatA. derAsara hatuM kesariyAjInuM ! mAre mArA gurudeva pU.A. OMkArasUrijI ma. sAthe avAranavAra javAnuM thatuM, tyAM bhaMDAra sAro hato, mAre abhyAsa mATe pustako joItA, eTale jato. e AcArya bha. udAratA pUrvaka koIpaNa pustaka laI javA detA. ame jotA ke e potAnI barAbara sAme ane pAse sthApanAjI muktA. bAjumAM Tebala upara, jarAka dUra pATa upara sthApanAcAryajI mUkI zakAtA hatA, ane ghaNI badhI jagyAe ApaNe e rIte ja mukIe chIe. paNa emano A AcAra amane acaMbo pamADato hoya. eTale ekavAra mArA gurujIe pUchI lIdhuM "sAhebajI! Apa sthApanAcAryajI satata najara sAme ja kema rAkho cho ? AnuM zuM kAraNa che ? tyAre e AcArya bhagavaMte javAba Apyo. A pAlitANA che, ghaNA badhA loko vaMdana mATe Ave. huM evuM koI uttamajIvana jIvato nathI. mArI pAse evA koI viziSTa AcAro nathI. zAstromAM darzAveluM jIvana mAre mATe ghaNuM dUra che. eTale lokonA vaMdana levAmAM mane saMkoca thAya che. sIdhI to nA pADI zakato nathI. ... eTale vacalo mArga apanAvyo, mArI sAme ja najIkamAM ja sthApanAjI rAkhuM chuM, ema ja mAnuM ke "A vaMdana A sudharmasvAmIjIne che, mane nahi...' e rIte saMtoSa mAnI lauM chuM. (bhale kALa pramANe ApaNe badhA AcAra-vicAromAM majabuta-makAma na rahI zakatA hoIe, ane eTalA mAtrathI ApaNe kaMI sAdhutA gumAvI ja besIe chIe... evuM paNa nathI paNa ApaNI khAmIono raMja to ubho ja rahevo joIe. enA aneka prakAra hoI zake. emAMno A eka prakAra che. gRhasthonA vaMdana bhale laIe, nA bhale koIne paNa na pADIe, paNa aMdaranI jyota to jalatI rAkhIe ne ?) 98

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo eka mITho anubhava (eka sAdhvIjI bhagavaMtanA zabdomAM...) 'yahA~ skula meM Apa nahi hara sate / turI khAdda meM nAC' jhArakhaMDanA eka zaheramAM skulanA vahIvaTadAre amane tyAM utaravAnI nA pADI. upAzrayonI vyavasthA gujarAtamAM maLe, AvA jhArakhaMDa jevA pradezomAM nahi! amAre mATe ja tyAM skulamAM utaravAnuM hatuM. paNa tyAMnA mANase spaSTa nA pADe. 'jyo ? jyAM tattISTha hai ?' ame sahaja rIte prazna karyo. 'yahA~ pe amI 10 aura 12 vhI parIkSA pata rahI hai, satip manAD vara rahe hai / vAM Apa naine saMta-satI o niSedha vane jA joD vAraLa ddI nahIM hai / ' e bhAIe namratApUrvaka javAba Apyo. chevaTe amAre bIjI jagyA zodhavI paDI. tyAM eka muslimabhAInI dharmazALAmAM utaravAnI jagyA maLI to gaI. paNa jagyA nAnI! musApharonI Avana-jAvana! rAta pasAra karavI duSkara! chevaTe makAnanI bahAra nIkaLI koIka sajjana mANasane pUchyuM. 'isa dharmazAlA kA mAlika kauna hai ?' 'vaha to amI hAjoTa meM hoMge...' hameM hAikorTa kA rAstA dikhAoge..... ame vinaMti karI, paNa enI anukULatA na hovAthI ame ja hAIkorTano rasto puchatA puchatA tyAM pahoMcyA. aMdara jatA hatA, tyAM vocamene puchyuM... "jjA nAnA hai" 'vAra jo, maiM AtA hUM.' kahIne e aMda2 rajA levA gayo. rajA maLatA ja ame jajanI ophisamAM dAkhala thayA. amane jotAnI sAthe muslima jaja ubho thaI gayo, enA moDhA para ahobhAva-sadbhAva nItarato dekhAto hato. Aie, Aie! Apa to zvetAMbara jaina sAdhvIjI haiM na ? hA nI ?' kaho, maiM ApakI kyAM sevA kara sakatA huM ? hama pUre bhAratabhara meM paidala vicaraNa karate hai, hameM kahIM kabhI koI takalIpha nahi hui, lekina Apa ke jille meM hame sthAna nahi mIla rahA / 99

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo I hama ApakI hI dharmazAlA meM ruke hue hai / lekina vo choTI haiM, aura vaha putro kI AvanajAvana haiM, jo hamAre jIvana kI surakSA ke lie ucita nahi hai / Apa kyA itanA kara sakate hai ki Aja eka rAta dharmazAlA me koI bhI puruSa kA praveza na ho... aura Age bhI hame Thaharane kI jagaha mIlatI rahe..... kyA Apa hame itanI sahAya kara sakate hai / ame saumya ane spaSTa zabdomAM TuMkamAM rajuAta karI dIdhI. Apa kA saba kAma ho jAegA / Aja rAta dharmazAlA meM eka bhI puruSa kA praveza nahIM hogA / ora... ye merA kArDa lIjIe... Age bhI Apa jahA~ jAaige, mere ye kArDa se ApakA kAma ho jAegA / Apa hamAre atithi hai / emaNe kArDavALo hAtha amArA tarapha laMbAvyo. 'kSamA kIjIegA, hama Apake hAtha se le nahi sakate / isa taraha hama Apako chU nahi sakate..' 'oha! Good! I am very Sorry!' hIne khebho arDa Tejasa para bhUyu. 'ApakA AbhAra! lekina Apa Tebala se Taca hai, kRpayA Apa Tebala kA sparza choDa dIjie, usake bAda hama ye kArDa le sakeMge...' hAIkorTanA jaja Azcarya pAmyA, emanA moDhA para ahobhAvanI lAgaNIo ubharAtI hatI. se jolyA... ApakA to bhagavAna mahAvIra se sneha hai, Apako to samaMdara meM DubakI lagAke isa sneha meM para utaranA hai / jaba koleja meM thA, taba digaMbara - zvetAMbara bhagavAna mahAvIra kA cepTara paDhA thA, Aja Apane mujhe bhagavAna mahAvIra kI yAda dilAI hai / emaNe phaLo ane cA maMgAvyA, amane ApavA lAgyA. ame savinaya nA pADI. e vakhate emanI ejyukeTeDa parsana tarIkenI AbhA ame je camaka joI te joIne prabhuzAsananI AcAravyavasthA upara amAruM hRdaya ovArI gayuM. (saMyamIo! sAva sthUlakakSAnA AcAro paNa bAlajIva para ATalI uMDI chApa pADI zake che, sUkSma AcAro ane uttamapariNati e kramazaH madhyama ane uttamajIvone mATe khUba ja suMdara majhAnuM AlaMbana banI rahe che. AmAM ApaNuM potAnuM hita paNa sacavAya ane paranuM hita paNa sadhAya... AvA dRSTAntone nabhara sAme rAjazo...) 100

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~+ parigrahano parityAga pamADanAra prakRSTa lodhA (pU.A.municandrasUrijI ma.pAsethI sAMbhaLela) dakSiNa gujarAtanA sthAnomAM amAre vicaravAnI bhAvanA hatI. paNa e kSetramAM ame taddana ajANyA! navA! tyAMnA jANItA ane tyAMnA kSetranuM kheDANa karI cUkelA eka AcArya bhagavaMta sAthe ame joDAyA. emanI nizrAmAM eka saMgha jato hato. emAM ja ame joDAI gayA. e AcArya bha. khUba ja nikhAlasa! prasaMga emane hovA chatAM paNa amane ghaNuM vadhAre paDatuM sanmAna Ape. eka divasa vAta-vAtamAM emaNe kahyuM ke... "eka vAra mArA tapasvI guru mahArAje mane bolAvyo. kahe ke "Aje bAdhA le. tArI mAlikInuM eka paNa poTaluM rAkhavAnuM nahi. ane koIpaNa TrasTa ke saMsthAmAM tArI sattA dharAvato nahi." mArA guru mahArAja kahe ane huM na mAnuM e na bane. meM emanI vAta svIkArI, baMne bAdhA lIdhI. Aje to e vAtane varSo thaI gayA. paNa mArI bAdhA meM barAbara pALI che. mArA nAmanuM kAyamI poTaluM, parigraha kazo rAkhyo nathI. mArA gurujInA kALadharma bAda emanA sthAne moTuM gurumaMdIra banAvaDAvyuM, paNa bhaktodvArA e kAma thaI gayA bAda eno badho ja vahIvaTa sthAnika TrasTIone soMpI dIdho. huM emAMthI kAyama mATe nIkaLI gayo." Aje paNa A AcArya bhagavaMta baMne pratijJAonuM barAbara pAlana kare che. A AcArya bha. DhagalAbaMdha aMjanazalAkAo, pratiSThA karAvI cUkyA che. paNa emano saMkalpa che, nirNaya che ke prAcIna mahApuruSoe je pratiSThA karAvI hoya, e emane ema rahevA de. pratimAjIne haTAvyA vinA AkhuM derAsara navuM thavA de... pratimAjI halAvavA na de. (jyAM moTI jagyA na maLavAdi kAraNonA hisAbe pratimAjI khaseDavAno nirNaya nAchuTake levo ja paDe... e alaga vAta!) eka munirAjanI 1 varSanA dIkSApacayanI ravAdhyAya-sAdhanA uMmara mAtra 19 varSa ! - dIkSA bAda 1 mAsanA dasa vai.nA joga! e pachI unALAmAM ja aDhiso ki.mI.no vihAra! e pachI comAsu ane e pachI potAnI vArSika prathama dIkSAtithi! - 101 - -

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----------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~ AvI paristhitimAM keTalo abhyAsa thaI zake ? keTalo karyo ? e joIe. (1) saMskRtanI be buka. (2) sakalA+bhaktAmara+kalyANamaMdIra+raghuvaMza+karAta+zizupAlaka+naiSadha... e sAta kAvyo... (3) dasa vai.samutisAdhunI TIkA (60% thaI, pachI bIjo viSaya cAlu thavAthI aTakI...) (4) upadezamAlA - siddhirSigaNi TIkA... (pa44 gAthAno. virATa grantha, TIkA kaparI...) (5) tarkasaMgraha - pratyakSakhaMDa (6) muktAvali - pratyakSa + anumAna be khaMDa... (7) anuyoga dvAra- maladhArI hemacandrasUrijInI TIkA (8) ArAdhaka-virAdhaka caturbhagI (9) kUpadAnta vizadIkaraNa. (10) cAra prakaraNatraNabhASya (pUrve karelA, te punaH karyA) (11) dharmabindu (sAdhu-adhikAranA adhyAyo...) (12) piMDaniryukti (70% jeTalI bAkI...). (13) oghaniryukti (hAla bhaNavAmAM cAlu...) (14) sAmAcArI prakaraNa (mahopAdhyAya yazovijayajI ma.no suMdara+kaThinagrantha...) A munivarano kSayopazama tIvra che ke khUba mahenata kare che... evuM lagIre na mAnazo. kemake 1 varSamAM emaNe kula 1200 AsapAsa ja gAthA gokhI che. divasanI pAMca paNa nahi. ekAda kalAkamAM e mAMDa traNa-cAra ke pAMca gAthA gokhI zake che, vadhAre nahi. ane emanA guru vAraMvAra preraNA kare, tyAre vagara vihAre paNa 24 kalAkamAMthI vadhI vadhIne dasa kalAka ja abhyAsa thAya che... e paNa satata nahi. moTA bhAge vihAra vinA ATheka kalAkA vihAra hoya to pAMceka kalAka! A tamAma granyo bhaNAvI paNa zake, navuM hovAthI bhUlo bhale paDe... paNa bhaya nahi. A svAdhyAyasAdhanA sAthe saMyamasAdhanA paNa ekaMdare sAcavI che. * kAyama ekAsaNA... (mAMdagInA divaso bAda... paNa evA pAMceka...). * chellA cAreka mAsathI dara caudaze upavAsa, pAraNe savAre mAtra suMTha-goLano nirdoSa ukALo! * koIpaNa gAmamAM jaina-jainetara badhe niHsaMkoca gocarI jaI zake, emane ekapaNa ghara batAvavA na paDe, e potAnI meLe ja badhuM zodhI le. * guru je Ape, e ja vApare, vastunuM pramANa ke vastunI choice baMne svayaM nakkI na kare. gurue kyuM ke "sAdI vastumAM tamAre ja nakkI karavAnuM..." tyArathI ema kare. paNa miSTAdimAM kadI maMgAvavAnuM nahi... badhuM gurunA mAthe!

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo * guru saMthAro na kare, tyAM sudhI jAgatA rahe. gurune ghaNIvAra mITIMgamAM 11/12 paNa vAge, to paNa pote beThA ja rahe. chevaTe gurue Thapako ApIne A rIte baMdha karAvavI paDI. chatAM moTA bhAge to A AcAra pALe ja che. * ekapaNa gRhastha sAthe paricaya karavAno vicAra suddhA paNa nahi. saMyama svAdhyAya sivAya 24 kalAkamAM vikathAnA sAdhanabhUta eka paNa AvI vastu nahi... na gRhasthaparicaya... na chApA... na megejhIno... C.A.nI C.PT.nI parIkSAmAM 153 mArkasa lAvI AkhA bhAratamAM 39mAM krame AvanAra. karATemAM bleka belTa sudhInI siddhi prApta karanAra, kamyuTaramAM mAsTarI meLavanAra A yuvAna Aje to munirAjanA veSamAM sAva sIdhu-sAdu jIvana jIvIne eka evo Adarza sthApita karI rahyA che ke jIvanaparivartana mATe mAtra daDha saMkalpapUrvaranA samyagu puruSArthanI jarUra che. mANasa dhAre, to paLavAramAM ItihAsa badalI zake che. racI zake che. sudhArI zake che. jeTalA paNa nUtana dIkSito hoya, emanA gurujano hoya.. teo A daSTAntane najara sAme rAkhe... mArI najara sAme to che ja... koIne zaMkA hoya, to mane maLajo... pUchajo... pratyakSa darzana karAvIza A munirAjanA zuM vRddho ArAdhanA na karI zake? ma.sA.! kema Aje AMbila?' kaMIka Azcarya ane anerA AnaMdathI ubharAtA haiye meM pUchyuM. oLI cAlu che...... 58 varSanI uMmaranA vRddha mahAtmAe namratAthI javAba Apyo. keTalAmI ?" meM bharapUra bahumAna sAthe pUchyuM... "ekatAlIsamI..." phAgaNavada bArasa vi.saM. 2069no e divasa! sthAna hatuM. zrIbhIlaDIyAjI tIrthano upAzraya! saradArapurAthI cAra-cha divasano cha'rI pAlita saMgha Avyo hato, chellA be divasa zaniravi! ravivAre mALano kAryakrama! 2000 uparAMta mANasono jamaNavAra! ame kula traNa samudAyanA 25 jeTalA sAdhu bhagavaMto! gocarI vyavahAra hovAthI ravivAre badhA gocarI vAparavA eka ja holamAM sAthe beThelA. saMghapatinI udAratA gajabanI hatI, cAra-cAra mIThAIovALuM bhaktisabhara svAmivAtsalya! huM vAparavA to beTho, anukULa vastuo vAparI paNa kharI... paNa manamAM muMjhAro thato hato. zuM mArA pU. gurudevazrI hAjara hota, to huM A rIte vAparI zakta? emane A badhuM gamata? teozrInuM smaraNa thatA AMkho bhInI thaI gaI.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo emAM vaLI mArI sAme krosamAM 58 varSanA eka munine AMbila karatA joyA, eTale to emanA pratye atizaya sadbhAva pragaTyo. mane khabara hatI ke emano dIkSAparyAya hato mAtra traNa varSa ! mane khabara hatI ke emane AMbilamAM pArTanara tarIke koI na hatuM, e ekalavIra hatA. amArA tapasvI muninuM Aje ja pAraNuM hatuM. mane khabara hatI ke ATalI badhI viziSTatama gocarI najara sAme hoya, nirdoSa hoya, sau vAparatA hoya... e vakhate badhAnI sAme pUrI prasannatA TakAvI rAkhIne AMbila karavuM e keTaluM kaparuM kAma che... chatAM e munirAja ekadama prasanna lAgatA hatA. e pachI to emanA jIvananI aneka bAbato jANavA maLI, je nIce mujaba che. (1) gRhasthapaNAmAM 108 aThThama ane 229 chaThThanI ArAdhanA karI che. (2) dIkSA bAda pahelA varSe kerI sivAya tamAma zUTano, bIjA varSe badAma sivAya tamAma DrAyaphUTano ane trIjA varSe tamAma pharasANano (taLeluM+bApheluM) tyAga karyo. (3) trIjA varSathI bhAta ja choDI dIdhA. (4) gocarImAM roTalI-zAka-dALa-bhAta... badhu eka ja pAtramAM bheguM karIne vApare. kAyama mATe A rIte ja vApare. (5) ATalI uMmare paNa vIseka ki.mI.no vihAra saLaMga karavo hoya, to paNa ArAmathI karI zake. (6) eka dIkSAprasaMga joIne emane evo bhAva gRhasthapaNAmAM jAgelo ke emaNe tyAre ne tyAre saMkalpa karelo ke jo AvatA mAgazara suda-10 sudhImAM mane dIkSA na maLe, to mA.suda11thI mAre upavAsa karavAnA... ane mAtra traNa ja mahinAmAM potAnI tamAma javAbadArIo pUrI karIne sakhata puruSArtha karavA lAgI paDyA. barAbara mAgazara suda chaThThanA divase emanI rajoharaNanI prApti thaI gaI. emane pratijJA pramANe saphaLatA maLIne ja rahI. (7) eka vAra katAragAma suratamAM emaNe abhigraha lIdho ke 'mAre mAtra dasa ja gharomAM javAnuM, e gharomAM mAre kazuM mAMgavAnuM nahi, teo jeTalI vinaMti kare, emAMthI ja mAre levAnuM. dasa gharomAMthI jeTaluM maLe, teTalAthI ja mAre ekAsaNuM karavAnuM...' (8) tyAM ja emaNe ekavAra evo niyama lIdho ke 'pahelA ghare mane je vastuonI vinaMti thAya, bIjA-trIjA-cothA ghare mAre e ja vastuo levAnI. bIjI ekapaNa nahi, ane mAtra cAra ja ghare pharavAnuM...' ane cha divasa A abhigraha pALyo. (pahelA ghare roTalI+zAka ja maLe. to bAkInA traNa 104

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~~~~~~EUR vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo~~~~~~ gharamAM e ja levAnuM.. dALa-bhAta nahi... ema pahelA ghare mAtra bhAta ja maLe, to badhe mAtra bhAta ja vahoravAnA...) (9) emanI dIkarIe paNa dIkSA lIdhelI che. ekavAra to dIkSA levA mATe, dIkSAnA vino nivAravA mATe surata gopIpurA vAsupUjyasvAmI derAsaramAM lagAtAra cha mAsa sudhI tapa-japabhaktinI viziSTa ArAdhanA karI hatI. chellA divase derAsaramAM nAnakaDI mahApUjA rAkhelI, saunI hAjarImAM vAsupUjya svAmInuM uparanuM chatra lagAtAra cAra kalAka sudhI enI meLe halatuM ja rahyuM. (prAyaH enI sAlagIrInA divase paNa e hale che...) (10) A munivare evI IcchA vyakta karI che ke varSe varSe evI mahatvanI vastuno tyAga karato rahIza, e rIte tyAganA saMskAra daDha karIza. (11) gayA varSe divALInI AkhI rAta emaNe jAgaraNa karyuM. ADA paNa na paDyA. traNaso logassano kAussaggA... vagere aneka prakAranI ArAdhanA karI. emaNe saMkalpa karyo che ke have dara varSe caitrI punama ane Aso punama A be divasa rAtrijAgaraNa karavuM. enA dvArA zarIra paranuM mamatva ghaTADavuM. ArAdhanA vadhAravI... e mATeno je prayatna karavo. (12) e jaDa nathI, mAtra rukSa ArAdhanA kare che..." evuM paNa nathI. emane jJAnano paNa eTalo badho rasa! saMskRta bhaNyA nathI, paNa oghaniryukti+piMDaniryukti A be granthanA bhASAMtara vAMcI lIdhA. evA to aneka pustako vAMcyA ja kare che. (budhdhinA abhAve ke alpabuddhinA kAraNe zrutajJAna meLavI na zakanArAo paNa mArgAnusArI bodhanA kAraNe, prajJAranIyatAdi guNonA kAraNe Atmika vikAsamAM ghaNA AgaLa nIkaLI jatA hoya che. e vikAsa eTalI hadano hoI zake che ke buddhimAno je vikAsane budhdhithI parakhI zakatA hoya, AtmAthI sAdhI zaktA na hoya... e vikAsa e jIvo budhdhithI parakhI zakatA na hoya, AtmAthI sAdhI zaktA hoya...) bIjAnA bhAvone sAcavo sAhebajI! Apano to amane lAbha ja maLato nathI. amArI gocarI moDI Ave che, ane tyAM sudhImAM ApanI gocarI to vaparAI jAya che...' nirdoSa gocarInA AgrahI eka tapasvI munirAje eka vidvAna AcArya bhagavaMtane lAvelI gocarI batAvatA batAvatA kharekhara sAcAbhAvathI kheda vyakta karatA karatA upara mujaba zabdoccAra karyo. e divasa hato caitra suda-2 vi.saM. 2069! sthAna hatuM bhIlaDIyAjI tIrtha! eka samudAyanA ATha ane anya samudAyanA cAra... ema bAreka munio vijayabhagadra...mAM rokAyelA hatA. mAMDalI vyavahAra sAthe ja hato, paNa traNeka munivaro

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-~~~-~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo -~~-~jainetaronI nirdoSa gocarI vAparatA. bIjA badhAne dUra sudhI jainetaromAM javAnI anukULatA na hovAthI ane unALo paNa bhAre hovAthI teo bhojanazALAnI mizrakakSAnI gocarI vAparatA. bhojanazALAnI gocarI 12-30 AsapAsa AvI jAya, eka vAgyA sudhImAM e gocarI pUrI thavA Ave, tyAre jainetaromAM jatA munivara nirdoSa gocarI laIne Ave... A rIte be mAMDalI AgaLa-pAchaLa thaI gayelI. | munivarane evI bhAvanA kharI ke pU.AcArya bha.nI bhaktino lAbha maLe.... paNa e Ave... tyAre to pU.AcArya bhInI bhaktino lAbha maLe... paNa e Ave tyAre to pU.AcArya bha.nI gocarI pUrI ja thaI gaI hoya.. eTale Aje sahaja rIte muninA mukethI pazcAttApanA zabdo sarI paDyA. pU.AcArya bha.nI gocarI thaI gayelI, maMjana paNa karI lIdheluM... chatAM emaNe cetano kholIne sIMgadANAno eka dANo potAnA moDhAmAM mUkI dhIdho. pelA muninA bhAva sAcavavA mATe... ane AMkhathI ja javAba ApI dIdho "have to saMtoSa ne..." pU. AcArya bha.nA gayA bAda emanA ziSya kahyuM "munivara! tamAro pracaMDa bhAgyodaya kahevAya. bAkI amArA gurudeva maMjana thaI gayA bAda kyAreya paNa ekapaNa dANo moDhAmAM na nAMkhe. emane oparezana karAveluM che dAMtanuMeTale DaoNkTare spaSTa sUcanA karI che ke roja khAdhA pachI maMjana karI levAnuM. nahi to jo dANo phasAze, to vaLI upAdhi thaze... eTale maMjana bAda bhAtano dANo ya moDhAmAM na nAMkhe.. paNa tamArA uchaLatA bhaktibhAva sAcavavA saMgIno kaDaka dANo laI lIdho...' pelA munine to khUba AnaMda thayo. sAMje badhA vaMdana mATe bhegA thayA, tyAre munie pU.AcArya bha.nI prazaMsA karI. "Ape mArA bhAva sAcavavA khAtara A rIte karyuM, khUba anumodanA!" e vakhate AcAryazrIe nikhAlasatA sAthe javAba Apyo "juo mahArAja! mane kazI takalIpha paDe ema nathI. dAMtamAM dANo bharAya, to takalIpha paDe. dANo kyAre bharAya ? ene cAvIe to ne ? meM cAlyuM ja nathI, emane ema dANo gaLI ja gayo chuM. eTale be ya kAma thaI gayA. tamArI bhAvanA paNa sacavAI gaI ane mArA dAMta paNa bacI gayA...' (koIkane koIka divasa ApaNI bhakti karavAnA bhAva jAge, to ene toDavA nahi. eno ullAsa vadhavA devo, e vakhate ApaNe thoDuMka sahana karavuM paDe. kaMIka gauNa karavuM paDe to karavuM. ApaNI e saMbaMdhamAM bAdhA hoya, to paNa phikara zAnI ? vaDIlane pUchI levuM. vizeSa kAraNasara vaDIla bAdhAmAM chUTa Ape to e svIkAravI. dA.ta. koIkane dIkSAdivase bAdhAnuM paDilehaNa karavuM hoya, ane e vakhate ApaNane jAte ja paDilehaNa karavAnI bAdhA hoya. to vaDIla kahe e pramANe karavuM...) 10

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + udAratA keLavo "meM evuM sAMbhaLeluM che ke ApanA gurudevane pratipakSIoe mUThanA prayogathI khatama karyA. kAraNake ApanA gurudeva zAsananA kAryamAM khUba ja agresara hatA." eka rAtre e ja AcArya bane meM bhIlaDIyAjImAM prazna karyo. Akho divasa ame badhA svAdhyAyamAM! AcArya bha. saMzodhanAdi kAryomAM! cheka sAMje aMdhAruM thayA bAda badhA bhegA thaIe, rAtre 10 vAgyA sudhI pU.A.bha. pAse besIne navA navA anubhavo meLavIe. emanI guNavattA nihALIne mana kheMcAI gayeluM, coMTI gayeluM. eka rAte vAta vAtamAM meM upara mujaba prazna karyo, emaNe bIjI ja paLe nikhAlasatA sAthe varSo pUrve thayelA potAnA gurudevanA kALadharmanI hakIkata vistArathI jaNAvavA mAMDI.. ane aMte kahyuM "juo, tame jyotiSI pAse jazo, to e kaheze ke amuka grahanA kAraNe A mUlya thayuM che. DaoNkTara pAse jazo, to e kaheze ke amuka roganA kAraNe mRtyu thayuM che. bhuvAo phakIro vagere pAse jazo, to e kahezeke amuka prayogAdinA kAraNe malina devo dvArA A mRtyu thayuM che. tame vaidya pAse jazo to e vAta-pitta-kaphanA gaNita Apaze... darekanA uttaro alaga alaga maLavAnA. AmAM sAcuM zuM? eno nirNaya thaI ja na zake. meM tamane je ghaTanA kahI, e mujaba to pU. gurudevazrInuM mRtyu zArIrika pratikULatAne kAraNe ja thayuM hovAnuM huM mAnuM chuM. emAM bIjA koI upara Aropa mukavo mane ucita nathI lAgato..." huM ekadama sahaja rIte bolAtA e zabdo sAMbhaLI ja rahyo. meM zabda vAparelo "pratipakSI..." paNa emanA mATe to koI pratipakSI' hato ja nahi. koIpaNa bahAne kahevAtA pratipakSIo upara nAno moTo Aropa mukavAnuM koNa cUke che? are, nAnI nAnI vAtamAM paNa ApaNe, ApaNA koIka mATenA baMdhAI gayelA pUrvagrahanA pApe dhaDAdhaDa rajuAta karI detA hoIe chIe..." A to AmaNe ja karyuM haze... e che ja evA ! e AvuM na kare to Azcarya!' ene badale mArA jevA sAme cAlIne evI vAtane daDha karavA jAya che. tyAre e vAta para bilakula vajana mukavAne badale badhAnA manamAM sau pratye maitrI bhAvanA vadhe.. evI ja suMdara majAnI rajuAta! A mAsakSamaNa nathI, A navvANuM nathI, A ghorAtighora japa nathI... A hajAro gAthAono kaMThastha pATha nathI... paNa A badhA karatA paNa vadhAre evuM kaMIka che... e che udAra-udAtta pariNati! 107 -

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-~~~-~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo~~~~~~ mAruM mana-tana emanA caraNomAM anaMtI vaMdanA ardhI rahyuM. ame lagabhaga eka mahino bhIlaDIyAjImAM sAthe rahyA. hakIkatamAM huM, ame cAra sAdhuo mAtra 1 ja divasa rokAvAnA hatA, cheka bhIlaDIyAjImAM AvyA, tyAM sudhI A ja vicAra hato ke bIjA divase savAre vihAra karavo. puSkaLa gharovALA DIsAmAM rokANa karavuM. paNa e vicAra meM mAMDI vALyo. ane mane Aje ema lAge che ke mArA mahApuNyodaye ja mane A sabuddhi sujhADI. mane eka ati uttama AcArya bhagavaMtanA guNonuM pAna karavA maLyuM... keTalIka bAbato pAchI evI hoya che ke je mAtra anubhavI zakAya che, varNavavI zakya nathI hotI. kadAca A prasaMgo vAMcanArAne AmAM bahu viziSTatA na paNa lAge. kadAca vAMcanArAone ArAdhanAnI saMkhyAnA moTA moTA AMkaDAo ja Azcarya utpanna karAvanArA bane. paNa mane to ema lAge che ke A guNo sauthI moTuM Azcarya che. tameya kyAreka ekAda mahino A AcArya bha. sAthe rahejo... kadAca tameya mArI jema khUba AnaMda pAmazo. evI bIjI keTalIka nAnI-moTI bAbato... AcArya padavI+moco paryAya+moTI uMmara+moTI viratA hovA chatAM paNa savAra ane sAMja baMne samayanA prati... mAMDalImAM ja kare. prati mAM kharzI para besavuM paDe, paNa AkhuM prati. ubhA ubhA kare. ca.suda-ranA savAre 9 10 vAge huM pacca. levA mATe teozrIne vaMdana karavA mATe emanA moTA rUmamAM pravezyo. eka khurazI para besIne teozrI navA chapAI rahelA AgamanuM mupha joI rahyA hatA, saMzodhana karI rahyA hatA... teozrIne vikSepa na paDe, e rIte traNa-cAra pagalA dUra rahIne meM vaMdana karyA. avAja na thavA dIdho, paNa badhA khamAsamaNA ubhA thaI thaIne ApyA... mAruM vaMdana pUrNa thayuM, paNa emane kazI khabara ja napaDI. hA! meM vaMdana pAchaLathI karyA na hatA. AgaLathI ja, jarAka krosamAM ubhA rahIne karelA... paNa emano dhyAnabhaMga na thayo. mane khyAla hato ke "gurunA dhyAnano vyAghAta na thavA devAya..." eTale meM pacca. na mAMgyuM, mArI jAte laIne jato rahyo... e rAtre jayAre meM pU.A.bha.ne pRcchA karI ke "meM Apane savAre vaMdana karelA, e khyAla che ?" nA, mane kazI khabara nathI." sIdhosaTa javAba! eka rAtre emaNe mane pUchyuM, tamArA pU.ga.patizrIe tamArA gurudevane maraNottara evI yugapradhAna-AcAryanI padavI ApI che... e vAta sAcI ?" - 108 -

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-~~A vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo hA jI!" AgaLa zuM bolavuM ? e mane khabara na paDI. A vAtato ghaNI prasiddha thaI ja cUkelI, eTale emane e vAtano khyAla hoya ja. paNa e enA virodhamAM che ke tarapheNamAM ? enI mane khabara na paDI. e AcArya bha. amArA samudAyanA na hatA, eTale ja amArA pU.ga.patizrInA nirNaya mATe e game te abhiprAya dharAvI zake, raju karI zake. emAM vaLI A to moTA vidvAna AcArya emanI vidvatA AmAM kAma kare ja... "ApanuM zuM mantavya che ?" meM sIdhuM emane ja pUchI lIdhuM. meM anubhaveluM ke teozrI zabdo chupAvatA nahi, mAyA-kapaTa emanA svabhAvamAM na hatA. jANe ke janmajAta saraLatA guNa keLavIne ja AvelA... dIkSA-bAda ekAdavAra paNa emaNe Aveza karyo hoya, gusso karyo hoya.. evuM emanA parivAramAMthI ekapaNa sAdhune yAda nathI. je jIvadaLa ghaDavA mATe mArA jevA talase che, taDape che.. e emane jANe ke bhagavAna taraphathI bheTamAM maLela che. ekadama nikhAlasa haiye, spaSTa-saumya bhASAmAM emaNe kahyuM, jo mahArAja! vyaktigata rIte huM evuM mAnuM chuM ke emanI paMnyAsajI bhagavaMta tarIkenI je prasiddhi che. e zreSTha che. vaLI A nimittane laIne AvatI kAle bIjA sAdhuo potAnA sAmAnya kakSAnA guruone paNa game tevA birudo ApavA mAMDaze, ane ene koI aTakAvI nahi zake... paNa pU.gacchAdhipati saMvigna-gItArtha mahAtmA che, anubhavI AcArya che. pariNatisaMpanna che. agAdhajJAnanA mAlika che. emane hemendrabhAIne tyAM pratiSThA prasaMge evI koI aMta phuraNA thaI, eTale emaNe A jAherAta karI. emanI A bhAvanAne, A jAherAtane saue mAna ApavuM joIe. Akhara e koI jevA tevA mahAtmA nathI, ekadama uttama mahAtmA che, uttama AcArya che. hamaNA ame thoDA vakhata pUrve emane maLelA, huM emanI pAse beThelo... tyAM eka bahena AvyA... ma.sA.! eka patra ApavAno che" bahene kahyuM. jayasuMdara vi.ne ApI do." nirlepabhAve emaNe javAba vALyo. nA agatyano che, Apane ja ApavAno che. hAthohAtha ApavAno che." bahene Agraha karyo. "sAru, lAvo.' teozrIe patra lIdho. bahena gayA eTale pUjya suMdaravijayajI ma.ne patra mokalAvI dIdho. pachI mane kahe "meM lagabhaga saMpUrNa nivRtti svIkArI lIdhI che. badhuM ja kAma jyasuMdara vi.ne soMpI dIdhuM che. gRhasthone mATe emanuM kAma agatyanuM hoya, ane teo mArI apekSA rAkhe.. paNa mane khabara che ke A badhuM ja jayasuMdara vi. saMbhALI ja zake che. eTale koI Avo Agraha kare, to saMtoSa khAtara huM patra laI lauM, pachI badhuM ene ja bhaNAvI dauM... hA! atigaMbhIra bAbata hoya, to judI vAta!" (109

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- ~~ ~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + ApanA gacchAdhipatinuM svAthya sAruM che, uMmara 76 AsapAsa che, eTale evI koI moTI uMmara nathI. koI gaMbhIra bimArI paNa nathI. chatAM potAnA AtmAnI ArAdhanA mATe A virATa samudAyanA saMcAlanAdimAMthI nivRtti laI levI e kaMI khAvAnA khela nathI. sattAnA sthAna para beThA bAda sattA na bhogavavI e azakya jevuM che. chatAM emaNe e AtmasAta karI lIdhuM che. AvA guNavAna gacchAdhipatinI AvI phuraNA ke jAherAta ApaNane game ke na game, to ya emanA sanmAna khAtara, emanI guNagarimA pratyenI zraddhAthI prerAIne paNa svIkAravI joIe. hA! teo svayaM potAno nirNaya badale, javAbadAra vyaktio temane namratApUrvaka vinaMti karIne nirNaya badalAve... ane kharekhara teo svecchAe e svIkAre to e sAruM ja che. bAkI "emaNe khoTuM karyu, bArabara nathI karyu vagere bolavuM na joIe. mArI AMkhomAMthI to Tapaka Tapaka AMsu vahevA mAMDyA. A kaMI amArA pU.ga.patizrInA ziSya na hatA, A kaMI amArA samudAyanA AcArya na hatA, pU.ga.patizrI ke mArA gurudeva emanA sAkSAta ke paraMparAe upakArI paNa na hatA... A kaMI mugdha-aNasamaju-mazkAbAja na hatA,... chatAM Avo vizALa dRSTikoNa ? kAraNake A hatA dIrghadaSTA, vicArazIla, udAramanA AcAryadeva! je smAna kadAca huM ya mArA pU.ga.patizrI mATe A rItanuM kalpI na zakuM, e A sAva parAya AcArya bha.nA haiye ane hoThe hatuM. pU.ga.patizrIe ApeluM biruda Take, na Take... e bhaviSyamAM je thAya te... paNa mane sauthI vadhu AnaMda e vAtano hato ke Aje paNa AvA bhayAnaka kaLiyugamAM paNa, AvI virATa, vizuddha, viziSTa vicAradhArA dharAvanArA AcArya bhagavaMto jinazAsana pAse che. (alabatta rahevAnA ja, ghaNA rahevAnA! paNa mAre ghaNo badho najIkathI anubhava thayo, eTale mane vadhu AnaMda Ave ne..) parasamudAyanA paNa vaDIla AcArya bhagavaMta vagere pratye ApaNA manamAM kevo AdarabhAva, pUjyabhAva, ahobhAva, namrabhAva hovo joIe... enuM sAkSAta daSTAnta A AcAryadava pUruM pADI rahyA hatA. chellA 20 divasathI roja rAtre eka-doDha kalAka teozrI pAse besavAnuM thAya che, hajI caitrI punama sudhI cAlu raheze... paNa kyAreya paNa koIpaNa samudAyanA koIpaNa mahAtmA mATe ekeya vAra niMdA-TIkAnA zabdo emanA mukhethI mane sAMbhaLavA nathI maLyA... (ApaNe mITIMgo karIe. tyAre zuM zuM vAto hoya ? enI jarAka noMdha karI levA jevI kharI.)

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIomuurto dharmaH sadAcAraH "ma.sA.! matthaeNa vaMdAmi! huM ApanI zuM sevA karI zakuM ? Apane je kaMI khapa hoya, eno mane lAbha Apo...' kherALu uttaragujarAtanA vihAranA eka rastA para jhADanI nIce kAmaLIthI AkhuM zarIra DhAMkIne beThelA jaina sAdhuone eka bhAIe vinaMtI karI. eka AcArya bha. ziSya parivAra sAthe savAre vihAra karIne kherALu tarapha jaI rahyA hatA, paNa ziyALAnA kAraNe acAnaka dhummasa phATI nIkaLyuM. zAstrajJAtA ane AcAra pAlaka AcArya bha. ziSyonI sAthe rastAnI eka bAju, aMdaranI tarapha kAmaLI oDhIne besI gayA. bhayaMkara ThaMDImAM jema Akhu zarIra DhAMkI daIe. ema e vakhate akAyanA jIvonI rakSA mATe badhuM ja DhAMkIne besI gayA. pagano aMgUTho paNa bahAra nahi. e vakhate kherALu gAmanA vatanI DaoN.bharatabhAI jaina koIka kAma mATe tyAMthI skuTara upara pasAra thatA hatA... emaNe sAdhuone joyA. DaoNkTara jaina kharA, paNa sAdhujIvananA sUkSma AcAronI emane vizeSa kaMI samajaNa nahi. e ema samajyA ke "A sAdhuoe vahelI savAre vihAra karyo haze, paNa pachI ThaMDI asahya banI jatAM cAlI nahi zaktA hoya, eTale A rIte eka bAju kAmaLI oDhIne besI gayA haze...'' eTale emane vicAra Avyo ke "emane cA-pANInuM zuM ? jaina tarIke mArI pharaja che, ke emane sahAya karuM...' eTale skuTara eka bAju pArka karI najIka AvI upa2 mujaba prazna karyo. AcArya bha. e javAba ApavA mATe nA-chuTake moDhA parathI kAmaLI dUra karI... "tame koNa ?" "DaoNkTara chuM, jaina chuM, kherALumAM ja rahuM chuM... Apane ThaMDImAM herAna thatA joI..." "nA bhAI nA ! ame ThaMDInA kAraNe nahi, paNa dhummasanA kAraNe kAmaLI oDhIne beThA chIe. ane ame badhA ekAsaNAvALA chIe, eTale navakArazInI koI ciMtA nathI. tame amArI ciMtA na karo, ame kherALu AvIe, tyAre jo amane maLavA Avazo, to badhuM vyavasthita samajAvIza." kahIne AcArya bha. e pAchI kAmaLI oDhI lIdhI. DaoNkTarane Azcarya thayuM, bahumAna thayuM, jijJAsA utpanna thaI. dhummasamAM AvI rIte besavAnuM kAraNa jANavAnI bhAvanA utpanna thaI. AcArya bha. kherALu pahoMcyA, tyAre DaoNkTara maLavA AvyA. jainadharmanA saMskArane kAraNe vaMdana karatA AvaDatA hatA, vaMdana karIne beThA... vAtacIta cAlu thaI. AcArya bha. e dhummasano padArtha vistArathI samajAvyo, pANInA jIvonI surakSA mATe prabhue batAvelI jyaNA darzAvI. 111

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo DaoNkTara bhaNelA hatA, yuktio samajI zakatA hatA... emane A badhuM khUba gamI gayuM. pachI to emaNe IriyAvahi vagere gokhavAnuM zarU karyu. AjanI paristhiti e che ke e kherAlu gAmamAM uttama zrAvaka gaNAya che. sAdhu-sAdhvI bhagavaMtonI adbhuta bhakti kare che. emanA davAkhAne to musalamAnAdi badhA ja Ave. emanI chApa eka sajjana DaoNkTara tarIkenI! eTale emanI vAtamAM badhAne zraddhA bese, emaNe e musalamAnAdione paNa jaina sAdhuonI ahiMsA samajAvI emanA pratye sadbhAvavALA kyAM che. (pU.dharmabodhi ma. jyAre traNa varSa pUrve kherALu gayelA, tyAre A bharatabhAI DaoNkTara sAta ki.mI. sudhI emanI sAthe vihAramAM cAlelA, vaLAvavA AvelA. e vakhate pUjyazrIe prazna karelo ke 'tamAruM parivartana zI rIte thayuM ?' tyAre enA javAbamAM DaoNkTare uparano Akho prasaMga kahI saMbhaLAvelo. DaoNkTaranA zabdo "ma.sA.! IriyAvahinA osA zabdanA varNana vakhate AcArya bha.e mane akAyanA aneka bhedo samajAvelA, e badhuM sAMbhaLIne mArI jainadharma paranI zraddhA khUba vadhI gayelI, e pachI ja A yatatkaMcit vikAsa sAdhI zakyo chuM) (saMyamIo! ApaNo eka nAnakaDo AcAra paraMparAe cheka anAryakakSAnA musalamAnomAM paNa dharmabIjanI sthApanA karanAro banI zakato hoya, to enI upekSA karAya kharI ? thoDuMka sahana karIne paNa AcArapAlanamAM DhIlAza na AvavA devI.) upakaraNaM saMrakSaNIyaM prayatnena "tamAro ghaDo ATalo badho rIDho kema rAkhyo che ? kADhIne navo laI lo ne ? have to AmapaNa unALo cAlu thAya che. ThaMDA pANI mATe amadAvAdI ghaDo sAro paDaze..'' meM mArA sahavartI, amArA samudAyanA eka sAdhvIjI bha.ne prazna karyo. emanI pAseno mATIno ghaDo ekadama-ekadama rIDho hato. mane khabara hatI ke emane ThaMDu pANI vadhAre phAve che... chatAM mane e khabara na hatI ke e Avo ghaDo kema rAkhatA haze ? "bIjo ghaDo to lauM, paNa A ghaDAnuM zuM karuM ?" emaNe hasatA hasatA prazna karyo. "koIpaNa upAzrayamAM mUkI devAno... AvatA jatA sAdhvIjIo vAparaze..." "paNa A to sAva rIDho che, koI na vApare to ? emAM karoLIyAnA jALA bAjhe to ? emAM jIvato phasAI phasAIne mare to ? e badhuM pApa mane lAge ne ?'' emaNe pharI dalIla karI. "evo bhaya lAgato hoya to TukaDA karIne paraThavI do ! pachI koI virAdhanA na thAya..." meM kaMTALIne chello javAba Apyo. "zuM e rIte upakaraNanA TukaDA karI devAya kharA ? " 112-

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-~ EUR vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo * "to zuM karavAnuM? kyAM sudhI sAcavazo ? "jyAM sudhI e sacavAya, na tUTe... tyAM sudhI..." "paNa keTalA varSa..." "25 varSa to thavA AvyA" e sAdhvIjIe gaMbhIratAthI javAba Apyo. zuM ? 25 varSa ? eTalo to tamAro dIkSaparyAya che..." "hA ! dIkSA lIdhI, tyArthI mAMDIne Aja sudhI mAtra be ja ghaDA vAparyA che. A bIjo che. barAbara sacavAya che, upakaraNa pratye mamatA nathI, paNa enI kALajI karavI e saMyamI tarIke mArI pharaja bane che ne..." emanA mukhamAMthI amRtanI varSA thatI hatI. " pacIsavarSamAM mAtra be ja ghaDA ? to pAtrA-tarapaNI..." "badhA dIkSA divasanA ja che. ekapaNa vAra tUTyA nathI, sAMdhavA paDyA nathI. akhaMDa che. hA! sahavartIone vAparavA ApavAmAM kyAreya paNa nA paNa nathI pADI. paNa hajI sudhI tUTyA nathI. ane e paNa kahI dauM ke mArA koIpaNa sahavartIthI tUTaze, to bilakula kaSAya nahi jAge... manamAM eTaluM sAdharmika vAtsalya to keLaveluM ja che. ane jo mArAthI tUTaze, to pUrepUruM prAyazcita vahana kahIza." emaNe makka manathI bilakula ahaMkAra vinA potAno bhAva raju karyo. mArA mATe A Azcarya hatuM, varSamAM be-cAra ghaDA badalavA e to ramata samajanAra mAra mATe A eka aitihAsika ghaTanA hatI. kadAca ghaNA badhA saMyamIo mATe A ghaTanA eka Adarza ja haze... e hetuthI viratidUtane A prasaMga lakhI mokalAvyo che. A prasaMga pachI to huM sAMjanA vihAramAM emanI sAthe ja cAluM chuM. mArA ghaDAnuM ThaMDu pANI emane vaparAvavAno lAbha lauM chuM. mane khabara che ke "e kyAreya sAmethI ThaMDA pANInI mAMgaNI nahi kare...' paNa emane e mAphaka Ave che, e paNa mane khabara che. AvA saMyamInI bhaktino mane kyAre lAbha maLavAno ? huM emane pANI vaparAvuM, pachI emanA ghaDAmAMthI mArA ghaDAmAM pANI bharI dauM... cAlatA cAlatA pharI e pANI ThaMDu thaI jAya... pharI bhaktino lAbha maLe. tame ema na vicArazo ke "jo ThaMDu pANI pIvuM ja hoya, to potAnI pAse emaNe navo ghaDo rAkhavo joIe ne ?" nA ! ThaMDu pANI anukULa hovA chatAM e mATe jUnA ghaDA kADhyA karavAnuM ane navA ghaDA lIdhA karavAnuM asaMyama poSavA mATe e taiyAra nathI. vaLI ThaMDu pANI na maLe, to game tevA pANIthI calAvI levAnI emanI saMpUrNa taiyArI huM spaSTa paNe anubhavuM chuM. A sAdhvIjInA eka ziSyAne hAla maLavAnuM thayuM. emano ghaDo paNa rIDho! keTalA varSa thayA A ghaDAne ?"

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo) "jeTalA mArI dIkSAne ! dIkSAne 11 varSa thayA che, ghaDAne paNa!' "eTale ? dIkSA divasano ja A ghaDo hajI sudhI TakAvI rAkhyo che ?" 'hA jI !' emaNe javAba Apyo. have mane Azcarya na thayuM. emanA gurunA saMskAro emanI ziSyAmAM Ave, emAM vaLI navAI zuM ? (phebruArI-2013nA aMkamAM bALadIkSAno lekha vAMcyA bAda eka sAdhvIjI bhagavaMte pAlitANAthI AvA be-traNa prasaMgo lakhI mokalAvyA. emaNe potAnuM nAma lakhyuM na hatuM. paNa ekavAra pravacanamAM A prasaMga jAheramAM kahyo, tyAre pravacanamAM AvelA sAdhvIjI bhagavaMtoe pAchaLathI mArI pAse khulAso karyo ke "A sAdhvIjIne ame oLakhIe chIe, e amArA ja vRMdanA che. pU.pAda A.bha. dIkSAdAnezvarI guNaratnasUrijI ma.nA sAdhvIjIonA vRMdanA!") (AmAMthI nIcenI bAbato ApaNe zIkhavAnI che. ApaNI tamAma vastuno sArAmAM sArI rIte upayoga karavo. navI meLavavA jUnI vastu pheMkI na devI. ApaNe je saMyama pALI zakyA na hoIe, pALatA na hoIe... e pALanArAonI khUba anumodanA karavI, emane sahAyaka banavuM, IrSyA bilakula na karavI... 25 varSanA paryAyavALA A sAdhvIjIno pahelo ghaDo pAMca varSa cAlyo, bIjA ghaDAne 20 varSa thayA. jemaNe A prasaMga lakhI mokalAvyo che. A saMyamI sAdhvIjI emanA saMsArI kajhIna bahena che. be varSa pUrve kacchanI yAtrA daramyAna emane A anubhava thayelo, je emaNe raju karyo. na me vAtA sarasvatI (eka sAdhvIjI bha.nA zabdomAM) "ATalo moTo thelo kema rAkhyo che ? zuM bharyu che emAM ? ATalo moTo thelo vihAramAM uMcake che ?" meM bAla mumukSune prazna karyo. bharUcamAM eka sAdhu bha.nI sAthe e bAlamumukSu vihAranI tAlImamAM Avelo. uMmara varSa mAtra 10 varSa ! ame moTA mahArAjane vaMdana karavA gayA, tyAre A bALakane ane thelAne joIne vicAramAM paDyA. khAnagImAM bolAvIne prazna karyo. e eka varSathI mumukSupaNAnI tAlImamAM hato. eNe potAnA thelAmAMthI eka moTuM bhAre bokSa kADhyuM. emAM First aidno badho ja sAmAna hato. glukojha, tAvanI goLI vagere vagere ghaNuM badhuM... "ATaluM badhuM uMcakIne phare che ? zA mATe ?" meM puchyuM. "vihAramAM koIka sAdhune kAMTo vAge, koIkane Thesa vAge, koIkanI cAmaDI ghasAI jAya, 114

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-~-~~-~~~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~~~~ koIkane phollo paDe, koIkane paga duHkhe, koIkane tAva Ave, koIkane azakti lAge... to mArI pAsenI A vastuno upayoga thaI zake. mane puSkaLa lAbha maLe. mane jaldI cAritra udayamAM Ave. ane kharekhara thoDAka samaya bAda enI dIkSAnI jaya bolAI gaI. suratamAM varSIdAnano varaghoDo! aDadho varaghoDo thayA bAda bahenone cAlu varaghoDAmAM nAcavAnI IcchA thaI. badhA bhAIbaheno baeNDanI AgaLa nAcavA lAgyA. A joIne bALamumukSu varSIdAna ApatA aTakI gayA. pitAjIne pAse bolAvIne kahyuM ke A varaghoDAmAM baheno garabA vagere le, te jarApaNa ucita nathI. jo A baMdha nahi karAvo, to huM A rathamAMthI utarI jaIza. pitAe vicAra karyo "A to bALaka che, e zuM jANe ?" emaNe upekSA karI. potAnI vAtano pratyuttara tema ja pratibhAva na maLatA bALamumukSue pharIthI pitAne bolAvIne kaDaka svare kahyuM ke "huM to ahIMthI have A cAlyo ghare... tamAre je karavuM hoya, te karo.. baheno rastAmAM Ama nAce, e zuM jinazAsananI sobhA che ?" pitAjIne lAgyuM ke "have jo vAta nahiM sAMbhaLuM, to A rathamAMthI utarI jaze. pachI emane manAvavA bhArI paDaze." eTale beMDavALA je bhAI hatA, (jemanA hAthamAM mAIka hatuM..) temanA dvArA jAherAta karAvI ke "baheno tarata sAdhvI bha.nI pAchaLa AvI jAya..." badhA bahenono ekavAra to muDa off thaI gayo, paNa mumukSunA pitA dvArA karAvAyelI jAherAtane anusaravuM joIe. eTalo to emanAmAM viveka hato ja. prAyaH aThavADiyA bAda mumukSu je samudAyamAM dIkSA levAno hato. e samudAyanA prabhAvaka AcArya pAse pahoMcyo, tyAre enA pitAzrIe varaghoDAno prasaMga kahI saMbhaLAvyo. AnaMda sAthe kahyuM ke "Ape mArA dIkarAne pAko dIkSArthI banAvyo che." pU.AcAryazrIe bALamumukSune pAse bolAvIne vahAlathI prazna karyo "te kema bahenone nAcavAnI nA pADI. tane A koNe zIkhavyuM ?" mumukSue javAba Apyo. ekavAra huM cha'rI pAlita saMghamAM ApazrInI sAthe sAthe cAlato hato, tyAre chellA sTopa pAlitANAmAM bahu moTuM sAmaiyuM hatuM. koI sAdhvIjI bha. dvArA ApazrIne samAcAra maLyA ke "utsAhamAM AvIne saMghavaNa baheno rAsa-garabA vagere le che." e sAMbhaLIne ApazrI khUba ja gaMbhIra banI gayA. tyAre huM bAjumAM ja hato, Ape mane Adeza karyo ke "tuM jA, ane nAcatA bahenonI AjubAjumAM ubhA rahelA koI saMghapati moTA bhAIne mAro saMdezo pahoMcADa ke "AcArya bhagavaMte Adeza karyo che ke baheno e varaghoDAmAM nAcavuM ucita nathI..."

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo e prasaMga mane mArA varSIdAnamAM yAda AvI gayo, eTale meM paNa badhuM aTakAvyuM. kema sAhebajI ! meM barAbara ja karyu ne ? viratidUtamAM pUjanano prasaMga vAMcyA bAda mane A prasaMga yAda AvI gayo, mATe Apane lakhI mokalAvyo che. 'pUjana ekabAjuthI ja vAparato hato' evuM paNa e phebruArI-2013nA lekhamAM lakheluM. mArA moTA bena ma.ne paNa gocarI vAparatA khUba vAra lAge. amane pAchaLathI khabara paDI ke teo paNa A rIte ja vApare che. emanA mukhamAM DAbI bAjunA dAMta badhA ja ghasAI gayelA ane jamaNIbAjunA badhA ja dAMta jarApaNa vaparAyA vagaranA ekadama sAbadA! 'gamatAno gulAla karIe' e hetuthI kaMIka lakhavAnI IcchA thaI, eTale A lakhyuM che. (jIvanI uMmara bALa hoya, paNa enI buddhi, enI vANI prauDha paNa hoI zake che. ene AjubAjunuM vAtavaraNa kevuM maLe che ?... enA upara ghaNo moTo AdhAra che.) upayoga sadA karazo, tame pUrI niSThAthI (eka sAdhvIjI bhagavaMtanA zabdomAM...) "ma.sA.! AvatI kAle savAre 9.00 thI 11.00nA samaya daramyAna vyAkhyAna rAkhela che. ApazrIe khAsa padhAravAnuM che. pAlitANAnA tamAma sAdhu-sAdhvI bhagavaMtone vinaMtI karI che. bhArapUrvaka jaNAvyuM che, ApazrIe paNa AvavAnuM che." pAlitANAmAM pratiSThita zrImaMto amane vinaMti karavA AvyA. "paNa amAre AvIne zuM karavAnuM ? vyAkhyAna to sAdhuoe ApavAnuM che. amAre to mAtra besI ja rahevAnuM che ne ? to ame zuM karIe AvIne ? amAro svAdhyAya bagaDe." amArA vaDIle namratA sAthe niSedha pharamAvyo. "ma.sA.! ApanI vAta sAcI. paNa e be kalAka mAtra tyAM pravacana ja nathI, bIjo paNa eka agatyano prasaMga che." mukhyabhAI bolyA, emaNe spaSTatA sAthe vadhu rajuAta karI... "ma.sA.! ame kula 10 basa laIne AvyA chIe. bhAratabharamAM je jaino apaMga, aMdha, maMdabuddhivALA... vagere che, emAMthI kula 500 jaNane ahIM lAvyA chIe. amArI IcchA hatI ke e badhAne zAzvata girirAjanI yAtrA karAvavI. Aje e badhAne yAtrA karAvI dIdhI. je apaMga bhAI-baheno caDI zake ema na hatA, e tamAme tamAma mATe DoLInI vyavasthA karI dIdhelI. AkhI yAtrA daramyAna koIne kazIpaNa takalIpha na paDe, e mATe badhA sAthe ochAmAM ochA be-be svayaMsevako rAkhelA.

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- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo * have AvatIkAle e apaMgone-aMdhone-maMdabuddhikone seMkaDo sAdhu-sAdhvI bhagavaMta vaMdanadarzana-nizrAno lAbha maLe, e mATe A progrAma goThavyo che. agatyanI vAta e ke AvatIkAle teo badhA potAnA hAthe ja sAdhu-sAdhvI bhagavaMtone kAmanI vahorAvaze, darekane vahorAvaze... emane badhAne lAbha maLaze. A pavitra kSetramAM teo supAtradAna dvArA aDhaLaka karmanirjarA karIne pharIthI jinazAsana pAme e mATe ja A prayatna karyo che." emanI pavitra bhAvanA nihALIne bIjA divase ame badhAe e prasaMgamAM hAjarI ApI. paNa tyAnuM dRzya jotAnI sAthe ja AMkho karuNAthI varasI paDI. e 500 bhAI-baheno aMdha-apaMga-maMdabuddhika... A kevA bhayAnaka pApakarmo! tyAre ja meM saMkalpa karyo have huM kyAreya paNa saMyamayogomAM pramAda nahIM karuM... gocarI javAmAM ALasa nahi karuM... bahAnA nahi kADhe... koI mahAtmA kAma bhaLAve tyAre kyAreya paNa nA nahi pADuM... pratikramaNAdi tamAma kriyAo ubhA-ubhA ja karIza... (AvA niyamo emaNe zA mATe lIdhA haze ? enuM kAraNa khabara paDI ? jeo potAne maLela vastuono, anukULatAono sadupayoga na kare. kudarata kAyama mATe emanI pAsethI e vastuo, anukULatAo chinavI le che. mATe pramAda tyAgIne utsAha pherAvIne saMyama-svAdhyAya-svabhAvanA triveNIsaMgamamAM ApaNe sau snAna karIe. no zabda supa3I . "martyaeNa vaMdAmi! sAhebajI! Ape mane oLakhyo ?" "nA, bhAI! tame kyAMthI Avo cho ?" bhIvaMDIthI! gokulanagara jainasaMghamAM chuM... Apa kadAca mane nahi oLakho. paiNa huM Apane oLakhuM chuM. A mArA zrAvikA che, A mArA bhAbhI che... ame roja sAmAyikamAM besIne ApanuM pustaka "AtmasaMprekSapaNa" bhegA besIne vAMcIe chIe "mArA zrAvikAnI tabiyata thoDAka vakhatathI sArI nathI rahetI. emane zaMkhezvaradarzana

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo karavAnI IcchA thaI, eTale ahIM AvyA chIe. borDa para ApanuM nAma vAMcyuM, eTale khUba AnaMda thayo, darzana-vaMdana karavA doDI AvyA." e bhAI khUba ja harSollAsa sAthe badhI rajuAta karatA hatA. mArca tArIkha 7 thI 22 sudhI ame zaMkhezvaramAM rokAyA. navakAra ArAdhanA bhavanamAM amAro cAra sAdhuono utAro! atyaMta zAMta vAtAvaraNa! pU.paM.vajrasena ma.nI preraNAthI taiyAra thayelo upAzraya! emanI udAratA gajabanI! koIne paNa tyAM rokAvA de, hA-nAno prazna ja nahi... tyAM nIce bhoMyaruM! pU.paM.bhadrakaravijayajI ma.nI pratikRti! jJAna bhaMDAra! ujAsa ghaNo sAro! svAdhyA-dhyAna-lekhana-ciMtana mATe zreSTha sthAna! huM nIce bhoyarAmAM ja besato, savAre 9.30 thI 10.30 caturvidhasaMghanA pravacana bAda huM tyAM mArA sthAne beThelo, ane eka bhAI be baheno ane eka nAnI bebI sAthe mArI pAse AvyA. e pravacanamAM hAjara ja hatA. mArA pustakanI prazaMsA sAMbhaLI mane AnaMda thayo, paNa e ja vakhate e bhAIe vAtane vaLAMka Apyo. "ma.sA.! Apa lalitabhAIne oLakho..?" "koNa lalitabhAI ?" meM yAda karavAno prayatna karyo. "bhIvaMDIvALA lalitabhAI! lalitabhAI vakIla!' e bhAI bolyA, "oha!..." mane kaMIka yAda AvyuM, bhUtakALa tarapha meM najara karI, eka bhayAnaka prasaMga mane yAda AvI gayo. meM pAkuM karavA puchyuM. "jemane bapore 11.30 vAge jAhera rastA upara be-traNa goLI mArIne musalamAnoe khatama karI nAMkhyA hatA... e ja ne ?'" "hAjI! sAheba!' "to tame emanA koNa thAo ?' "huM emano sago nAno bhAI chuM. A emanA zrAvikA che, mArA bhAbhI! A mArA zrAvikA ane bhAbhI baMne sagA baheno ja che...' emanA svaramAM lAgaNInI bhInAza pragaTa thavA mAMDI hatI. barAbara 11 varSa pahelAno bhUtakALa meM yAda karI joyo. e vakhate pU. gurudeva sAthe ame bhIvaMDI pahoMcelA. gokulanagaramAM ja rokAyelA. eka rAtre lalitabhAI pU. gurudevazrIne maLavA AvelA. emanI uMmara mAtra ne mAtra 34 varSanI! khUba ja tejasvI, sphUrtimAna, utsAhI yuvAna! 118

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ame badhA tyAre pU. gurudevazrI pAse ja beThelA, badhI vAta sAMbhaLelI. lalitabhAIe kaheluM ke "bhIvaMDImAM muslima vastI puSkaLa che. gerakAyadesara cikkAra pazuhatyA karavAmAM Ave che. ApaNA yuvAno jAnanA jokhame Trako pakaDe che, e pachI enA kesa cAle che, e badhA kesa laDavAnuM ane pazuone bacAvavAnuM kAma mAruM! atyAra sudhImAM hajAro pazuone bacAvI zakyo chuM. eno apAra AnaMda che...'' "paNa AmAM tamArA mAthe motano bhaya nahi ?" pU. gurudevazrIe pucheluM. "kharo! muslimoe mane dhamakI ApI ja che ke tuM A kAmamAMthI haTI jA, nahi to tane mArI nAMkhIzuM... paNa gurudeva! me emane paTAvI dIdhA che ke 'huM to vakIla chuM, mAruM kAma to kesa laDavAnuM ! paisA kamavA mATe huM koIno paNa kesa laDuM... tamAro paNa laDuM...' eTale gurudeva! vAMdho nahi Ave." "chatAM lalita! tuM sAvadha raheje. koIka boDIgArDa sAthe rAkha..." A badhI vAto thayelI... lalitabhAInA gayA bAda pU.gurudevazrIe ciMtA paNa vyakta karelI "pazuone bacAvavA jatAM ApaNe AvA uttamottama yuvAno na gumAvI besIe..." ane niyati trATakI. bhIvaMDIthI vihAra karIne ame nAsika tarapha AgaLa vadhyA, mAMDa be-cAra divasa thayA haze ane AghAtajanaka samAcAra maLyA. "bhIvaMDImAM bapore 11.30 vAge traNa rastA para skuTara para rahelA lalitabhAIne goLIo mArIne jAheramAM ja khatama karavAmAM AvyA..." 11 varSa pahelAnI e AkhI ghaTanA mArA mAnasapaTa para tasvIra uThI, huM dhrujI uThyo. e vakhate to huM nAno hato, svAdhyAyamAM ja lIna hato, eTale A badhA prasaMgo upara vizeSa lakSya ApyuM na hatuM. paNa Aje 11 varSa bAda e prasaMge mArA aMtarAtmAne hacamacAvI dIdho. anAyAse ja mArI naja2 svargastha lalitabhAInA zrAvikA upara paDI. mane karuNA jAgI gaI." AmanA upara zI vItI haze ?" "tamAruM nAma ?" meM pelA bhAIne pRcchA karI. "saMjaya!" AgaLa zuM bolavuM ? e mane khabara na paDI. have 11 varSa bAda emane AzvAsana ApavuM ? ke pachI...? "AmanI uMmara keTalI ?" meM saMjayabhAIne ja prazna karyo, emanA bhAbhIne uddezIne! "42 varSa! kema sAhebajI ?" "to lalitabhAInuM mRtyu thayuM, tyAre emanI uMmara mAtra 31 varSanI ja ne ?" 119

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~ vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo + hAjI! sAheba! "koI dIkarA-dIkarI kharA?" hAjI! e vakhate be dIkarA hatA, eka pAMca varSano ane eka traNa varSano..." eka bahena 31 varSanI uMmare vidhavA bane... be nAnakaDA bALakonI javAbadArI mAthe hoya... e zuM e jIravI zake ? ene dharma mATe ja asaddabhAva na thaI jAya ? "bahena! eka prazna puchavo che... sAco javAba Apazo?" meM lalitabhAInA zrAvikAne puchyuM. ekapaNa akSara bolyA vinA emaNe mukhanA bhAvathI ja saMmati ApI, "pUcho, sAhebajI!" "mAtra 31 varSanI uMmare patinuM khUna thayuM, be nAnA bALakonI mAthe javAbadArI! hajI moTI jIMdagI pasAra karavAnI bAkI! A vakhate zuM tamane dharma tarapha tiraskAra na thayo ? kAraNake pazuonI dayA karavAmAM ja tamArA patie jAna gumAvavo paDyo ne ? tamane evo vicAra na Avyo ? ke "mArA pati zuM kAma A pazuonI paMcAtamAM paDyA... enA badale bIjA dharma karavAmAM kyAM vAMdho hato... e to gayA, sAthe amane badhAne anAtha karatA gayA... pazuonI karuNA mATe patnI ane bALako paranI karuNA choDI dIdhI..." "bilakula nahi, ma.sA.! bilakula nahi..." rAjasthAnanuM lohI jenA dehamAM vahI rahyuM hatuM, evA e vIrAMganA bahena pUrI majabutAI sAthe bolyA. "ekapaLa mATe paNa mane e vicAra na Avyo. pati pratyenA rAgathI raDavuM to Ave ja ne? dIkarAonI ciMtA to thAya ja ne? paNa dharma mATenI zraddhAmAM to eka kAMkarI paNa kharavA dIdhI nathI. ma.sA.! Apane kadAca vizvAsa paDe ke na paDe, paNa A 100% sAcI vAta che. ulaTu emanA mRtyubAda chApamAM jyAre evuM chapAtuM ke "gAze nirdoSa pazujha va vavAne vAle lalitabhAI kA khUna kiyA gayA, aba vo hajAro pazuo ko kaTate hue kona bacAegA? na 3nI sthA/ vogA ?" tyAre e vAMcIne huM ghaNI raDuM chuM. mane e ja vicAra Avelo ke amArA traNa jaNane emanI jeTalI jarUra hatI,enA karatA A hajAro pazuone emI ghaNI ghaNI vadhAre jarUra hatI. kemake emanA vinA ame traNa jaNa marI javAnA na hatA, game te rIte jIvI javAnA hatA. paNa emanA vinA pelA hajAro pazuo to bicArA motane ghATa ja utarI javAnA..." e bahenanA khumArI bharelA zabdo sAMbhaLI huM to harSathI raDI paDyo. AvuM sattva, AvI khumArI, AvI dharmaniSThA, AvI patiparAyaNatA, AvI virATa manovRtti... bhAgye ja bhAgye ja jovA maLe che, meM to pratyazramAM pahelIvAra ja joI. hA! ma.sA.! takalIpha zuM paDatI hatI, e paNa Apane kahuM. mArA baMne dIkarAo skulamAM bhaNe, emAM ghaNIvAra phorma vageremAM mammI ane pappA baMnenI alaga alaga sahI karavAnI Ave.

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo * emAM huM mammI tarIke mArI sahI karI ApuM. pappAnuM sthAna khAlI rAkhuM. e bALako skulamAM phorma Ape, eTale tarata prazna thAya "pappAnI sahI kema nathI?" bALako javAba Ape "pappA nathI..." tarata prazna thAya "marI gayA che ?..." bicArA nAnA bALako A badhI vAtothI mAnasika rIte khUba ja parezAna thatA. AvuM eka-be vAra banyA bAda to bALako jIda karIne mane kahetA ke "mammI! "pappA"nI jagyAe tuM ja sahI karI nAMkha. akSaro jarAka badalI nAMkha. amane badhA sAthe carcA karavI gamatI nathI. "ame pappA vinAnA chIe" ema jANIne badhA jAta-jAtanI vAto kare che. amane bicArA gaNe che..." ma.sA.! AvA AvA prasaMgo sahana karavAnA AvyA. paNa have to bALako paNa moTA thaI gayA che. hamaNAM parIkSA cAlu che. eTale sAthe nathI lAvyA. bAkI ma.sA.! eka vAta daDharIte kahuM... A bhavamAM mAre emanI sAthe mAtra ATha varSa ja rahevAnuM thayuM. mAre jo AvatA bhavamAM lagna karavAnA ja hoya, to huM ema icche ke emanA jevI ja karuNAvALA pati mane maLo, bhale mAtra ATha ja miniTa mATe mane maLe, bhale pachI e dharma mATe khuvAra thaI jAya, bhale mAre ATha ja miniTa bAda vidhavA banavuM paDe... paNa game tevA pati mAre na joIe..." paNa tame A 11 varSa zI rIte kADhyA ?" "prabhubhaktimAM..." saMjayabhAI bolyA. lalitabhAInA mRtyu bAda mAtra cha ja mahinA pachI ame amArA ghare zrI saMbhavanAthaprabhunI pratiSThA karAvI, gRhacaitya baMdhAvyuM. bhAbhI prabhubhaktimAM otaprota thaI gayA. roja be-traNa kalAka emAM ja mastI mANe. mArA zrAvikA emanA sagA bahena che, eTale parasparanI lAgaNI pUrI che..." ma.sA.!" bahena gagaMdasvare bolyA. "A mArA diyare ane bahene mane puSkaLa sAcavI che, mane kyAreya ochuM AvavA dIdhuM nathI. teo kyAreya ekalA pharavA jatA nathI. mane badhe sAthe laIne jAya che. mArI pAchaLa emaNe paNa ocho bhoga nathI Apyo... e vakhate amArA saunI AMkho bhInI hatI, dareka jaNa alaga alaga rIte azruo dvArA potAnI pavitra lAgaNIone vahAvI rahyA hatA. tame traNeya mahAna cho, vaMdanIya cho..." meM bhAvAvezamAM kahyuM. "nA, nA sAhebajI! mahAna to A hajAro saMyamIo che. ame to saMsAramAM khuMpelA pALI jIvaDAo chIe. A amArA bhAbhIne kyAreka kyAreka dIkSAnI bhAvanA thayelI kharI, paNa e mATe sAhasa karI zaktA nathI. dIkarAonI lAgaNI-javAbadArI paNa emane aTakAve che..." saMjayabhAI bolyA. e zabdo mAtra jIbhanA nahi, haiyAnA paNa hatA. tame keTalA vAge javAnA cho ?'

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---------- vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo -------- "sAMje sAteka vAge..." "eka kAma karazo ? bapore 3.30 thI 4.30 ahIM ja pAchuM caturvidha saMghanuM pravacana che. jijJAsu yAtriko, sAdhu-sAdhvIo badhA Ave che. tame e vakhate Avazo ?" "cokkasa! ame to sAMbhaLavA AvavAnA ja chIe, paNa Apane kaMI kAma che ?" "e pachI vAta! tame Avo to kharA.." ane meM e badhAne ravAnA karyA. baporanA pravacanamAM e traNeya uttama AtmAone ubhA karI zrIsaMghane emanI oLakhANa karAvI, upara lakhelI AkhI ghaTanA vistArathI kahI saMbhaLAvI. (have mArA taraphathI eka vinaMti... tame koIne paNa patra lakho cho kharA? ke patra lakhavAnI bAdhA che ? jo lakhatA ja ho, to eka kAma karazo ? jo A prasaMga jANIne tamane kharekhara e uttama ArAdhako pratye bahumAna-sabhAva pragaTyo hoya to eka kAgaLa ane eka kavara hAthamAM lo, tamane je yogya lAge, e zabdothI emanI anumodanA e kAgaLa para lakho. tame P..paNa lakhI zako cho, posTa kavara paNa karI zako cho, AMtaradezIya paNa lakhI zako cho, 15-20 rUpiyA kharacavAnI taiyArI hoya to kuriyara paNa karI zako cho... tame evo koI mahAna bhoga ApI zakyA nathI... vAMdho nahi. paNa jemaNe Avo mahAna bhoga Apyo che, kama se kama emanI anumodanA to karI zakIe ne ? zabdo lakhavAmAM kaMjusAI na karazo, haiyAnA bhAva barAbara emAM utArajo... e bahenanI bhAvanAo najara sAme rAkhIne saMyamIo mAtra eTaluM ja vicAre ke svAdhyAya-vaiyAvaccAdi ApaNe karyA, chatAM enuM phaLa zuM?..." evI koI malina bhAvanAnA bhoga ApaNe banavuM nathI. bhoga Apavo ja che, bhoga levo nathI ja. pelI kavipaMkti puna mItre ya aMgAre, te vazI rAdaY vanatA vata... patra lakhavAmAM ALasa hoya, jaldI anumodanA karavI hoya... to tame to mobAIlanA mAlika cho... (e bahenanuM nAma puchavAnuM bhulAI gayuM... eTale lakhI zakto nathI. have e paNa yAda Ave che ke varSo pahelA pU.gurudevazrInI sAthe vahelI savAre emanA ghare darzana paNa karelA.. kyAre ? e pAkuM yAda AvatuM nathI.) saranAmuM : hiteSabhAI gAlA. bI-17, tRpti sosAyaTI, hanumAna roDa, vile pArle (pUrva), muMbaI - 400057. mo. 9820928457 -- - 1 2 2 -

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vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ApaNane jinavacana sAMbhaLavA-jANavA-mANavAno rasa keTalo ? zaMkhezvaramAM eka ravivAre rAjakoTanA eka daMpatI vaMdana mATe AvyA. amArA rAjakoTanA cAturmAsa pUrve emano kALa nahi pAkyo hoya, eTale bIjI-trIjI jagyAe jatA, navakAra mAMDa AvaDato. be varSa pUrve emanA sagA mAsI ma.sA.nuM comAsuM rAjakoTa khAte hovA chatAM dhArmikakSetre vikAsa bAbatamAM lagabhaga zUnyAvakAza! jo ke e mAtra kALa ja kAma kare che... suzrAvaka dhImantabhAInA ja zabdomAM... mA.sA.! mArA zrAvikAne mAtra navakAra AvaDato, dharmano rasa nahi, hoTalomAM javuMpIkcaro jovA... e badhuM to sAva sAmAnya hatuM. mAre dara ravivAre pa00 rUA.no kharco to ochAmAM ocho samajI ja levAno. paNa A comAsAmAM emano kALa pAkI gayo. rojanA savAre-bapo2e baMne pravacanomAM hAjarI! e mATe kula 8 ki.mI.nI rojanI sapha2! bhale potAnA vAhanamAM Ave, paNa ATalI badhI hADamArI kone game ? be varSa mATe ema baMne jaNe saMpUrNa rAtribhojanatyAga svIkArela che. agatyanI vAta e che ke comAsAmAM pahelA karmagranthanA artho barAbara bhaNI lIdhA. have emaNe bIjo karmagrantha pU.sA.cArulocanAzrIjI ma. pAse chellA eka mahinAthI zarU karyo che. ma.sA.! ame ghare kula pAMca jaNa! ame be, mammI-pappA ane 9 varSanI bebI! A badhAnuM sAcavavAnuM! mammI ane ene mA-dIkarI jevo saMbaMdha che. pappA paNa badhI ja rIte anukULa che. chatAM putravadhu tarIke eNe potAnI pharaja to nibhAvI ja paDe ne ? dIkarIne savAre 5.30 vAge basamAM besADI devAnI, enI skula dUra che. e cheka bapore be vAge Ave. eTale ANe savAre 4.30 ke moDAmAM moDA pAMca vAge to uThavuM ja paDe. uThIne dIkarI mATe roja garama nAsto taiyAra karI ApavAno. dIkarIne taiyAra karIne ene vaLAvI de, pachI badhAnA navakArazInI paNa taiyArI karavAnI... e badhuM gharakAma patAvI 7.30 vAge gharethI be ki.mI. dUra maNiyAra upAzrayamAM sAdhvIjI pAse pATha levAno. e patAvIne ghare AvI baporanI badhI taiyArI! baporanuM pate, tyAM be vAge dikarI ghare Ave, ene jamADavAnI... bapore ekAda kalAka ArAma karI le... tyAM vaLI sAMjanI rasoInI taiyArI... kAraNa ke have ghare badhA ja covihAra kare che... e badhuM pate, pachI dIkarIne lesana karavAnuM, bhaNAvavAnuM... ane uMghADI devAnI cheka rAtre

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-~~vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo ~~~~~ daseka vAge, tyAre A Free thAya. e pachI e bIjA karmagranthanuM pustaka khole. ene emAM khUba ja rasa paDe che. sakhata mahenata kare che. "ramyareNu pustakanA AdhAre bhaNe che. badhuM gokhe che, lakhe che(gAthA nahi, paNa padArtho pAkA kare...) sAhebajI! Apane Azcarya thaze, paNa A kharI vAta che ke e roja rAtre be vAgyA sudhI svAdhyAya kare che, sADA-traNa-cAra kalAka rAtri svAdhyAya! pachI udhe ane savAre 4.30 ke pAMca vAge to uThI ja jAya. mAtra aDhi-traNa kalAkanI ja rAtanI uMgha ? cAlI rahe che ? divase jhokA nathI AvatA ? tabiyata para asara nathI pahoMcatI ?" meM AbhA banIne pUchI lIdhuM. chellA eka mahinAthI AvuM cAle che. divasano 1 kalAkano ArAma umerIe to 24 kalAkamAM mAtra cAra ja klAkanI uMgha! mane paNa Azcarya ane ciMtA baMne thAya che... paNa have je thAya te kharuM..." (pU.sAgarasamudAyanA sAdhvIjI bha. zIlavarSAzrIjInA ziSyA pU.sA.maitrIvarSAzrIjI dhImantabhAInA sagAmAsI ma.sA. thAya. A pati-patnInI uMmara 38-35 varSanI! ekadaMre sArA sukhI! mane je ravivAre zaMkhezvara maLavA AvyA, enA AgalA be divasathI e bhAIne 100101 DIgrI tAva raheto hato. emAM vaLI zanivAre emanI cazmAnI dukAnamAM zorTasarkITa thavAthI be e.sI.saLagI gayA, cAra lAITo gaI, kamyuTara paNa baLyuM... hajI sAMje A prasaMga banyo che.. chatAM badhI paravA karyA vinA, tAvavALI hAlatamAM paNa rAtre dasa vAge basamAM besIne vahelI savAre pAMca vAge zaMkhezvara AvI pahoMcyA. "gurubha.nA darzana mATenI kevI tIvra tamannA A jIvomAM che...' e narI AMkhe dekhI zakAya... - saMyamIone to mAtra eTaluM ja kahevuM che ke... eka saMsArI, pariNIta, zokhIna bahena jo abhyAsa mATe Avo bhayaMkara puruSArtha karatA hoya... to ApaNe to saMyamI, brahmacArI, vairAgI... chIe... ApaNo puruSArtha kevo hovo joIe ? jo mAtra dasa ja varSa svAdhyAya-mArgadarzikA pramANe ke chevaTe sagunA mArgadarzana pramANe nakkara abhyAsa karavAmAM Avaze, to saMyamIo! tamAruM bhaviSya bhavya/atibhavya bhavyAtibhavya banI raheze e nizcita hakIkta che.) / namo'stu tasmai tava zAsanAya // - 1 2 4 -

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OM svAdhyAyopayogI pustako sAdhana grantho (1) kalyANa maMdira (2) raghuvaMza (1-2 sarga) (3) kIrAtArjunIya (1-2 sarga) (4) zizupAlavadha (1-2 sarga) (5) naiSadhIyacaritam (1-2 sarga) nyAya siddhAMta muktAvali (bhAga 1-2) zloka, artha, samAsa, anvaya, bhAvArtha sahita. gujarAtI vivecana sahita. vyAptipaMcaka... candrazekharIyAvRtti sahita * siddhAnta lakSaNa (bhAga 1-2)... candrazekharIyAvRtti sahita sAmAnyanirukti (gujarAtI vivecana) * avacchedakatvanirukti (gujarAtI vivecana) oghaniryukti (bhAga 1-2) o.ni. sAroddhAra (bhAga 1-2) dasavaikAlika sUtra (bhAga 1 thI 4) Avazyaka niryukti Agama grantho droNAcArya vRtti + gujarAtI bhASAMtara (pratAkAre) viziSTa paMktio upara vivecana (pratAkAre) hAribhadrIvRtti + gujarAtI bhASAMtara uttarAdhyayana sUtra (hAribhadrI vRtti - gujarAtI bhASAMtara sahita bhAga 1 thI 8) (zAMtisUrivRtti - gujarAtI bhASAMtara sahita adhyayana-1) upadezamALA-siddharSigaNivRtti (54 gAthA) (gujarAtI bhASAMtara sahita) siddhAntara vittu: (oghaniyuktinI viziSTa paMktionuM rahasya kholatI navI candrazekharIyA saMskRta vRtti) saMyama-adhyAtma-pariNatipoSaka grantho sAmAcArI prakaraNa (bhAga 1-2) candrazekharIyAvRtti gujarAtI bhASAMtara sahita (dasavidha sAmAcArI) yogaviMzikA candrazekharIyA vRtti sahita svAdhyAyIo khAsa vAMce svAdhyAya mArgadarzikA (silebasa) zAstrAbhyAsanI kaLA (zI rIte grantho bhaNavA?' enI paddhati) mumukSuone-nUtanadIkSitone-saMyamIone atyaMta upayogI pustako * munijIvananI bALapothI (bhAga 1-2-3) 7 saMvigna saMyamIonI niyamAvalI * have to mAtra ne mAtra sarvavirati. gurUmAtA vaMdanA zaraNAgati mahApaMthanA ajavALA virATa jAge che tyAre 7 tribhuvanaprakAza mahAvIra deva mahAbhiniSkramaNa - uMDA aMdhArethI... virAganI mastI A naveka pustako ne pratyeka AtmArthIe avazya vAMcavA jevA che. * dhana te munivarA re...(dasavidha zramaNadharma para 108 kaDI + vistRta vivecana * vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabI (bhAga 1-2-3-4)...(450 AsapAsa zreSTha prasaMgo) * aSTapravacana mAtA...(ATha mAtA upara vistRta vivecana) * mahAvrato...(pAMca mahAvrato upara vistRta vivecana) * jainazAstronA cUMTelA zloko bhAga 1-2 (arthasahita) * AtmasaMprekSaNa...(AtmAnA doSo kevI rIte jovA ? pakaDavA ? enuM virATa varNana) * mumukSuone mArgadarzana...(dIkSA levAmAM naDaratabhUta banatA aneka praznonuM samAdhAna.) 0 350 gAthAnuM stavana (bhAga-1-2-3)...pAMca DhALa upara vistRta vivecana sahita 7 supAtradAna viveka (zrAvikAone bheTamAM ApavA-sAcI samaja ApavA maMgAvI zakazo.) * AtmakathA (viratidUtanI 11 AtmakathAono saMgraha) - dasavaikAlikacUlikAnuM vivecana zalyoddhAra (AlocanA karavA mATe upayogI sUkSmatama aticAra sthAnono saMgraha) viratidUta mAsika 1 thI 120 aMkano Akho seTa jene paNa joie, te meLavI zake che.

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toDavuM harame jinazAsanavA vizvanI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo 'paMca mahAvratadhArI sAdhu-sAdhvIjIo eTale jevA! yuddhamAM karmazatruonI sAme bhayaMkara zUravIratA dekhADe. 'jevA! upasargothI DeparaSAthI kadI na gabharAya. jevA! bIjAnI bhUlone, gupta bAbatone gaMbhIratAthI manamAM samAve. ' jevA! zaraNe AvanArane parama zItaLatAnI bheTa Ape. jevA ! ApaNuM mana mAnavA ja taiyAra na thAya evA vapanA tejathI dIpe. jevA! potAnAmAM rahelI karuNA maitrI-mAdhyaracya bhAvanAne badheja prasarAve. ? jevA! pramodano saMdezo sarvatra prasarAve. jevA!nirmaLa pAradarzI manobhAvone dhANa re. jevA! vizvAsaghAta vagere badhuM ja sahana kare. A pustaka vAMcazo, to tamane lAgaze che haLAhaLa ThalayugamAM paNa AvA sAdhu-sAdhvIjIo birAjamAna che. e ja che ApaNI AdhyAtmika ajAyabIo