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I am the Soul
buried, and breaks out of the earth. The Soul gets agitated. The absence of the experience of Self drives the perturbed Soul to probe its own depths. Like the pearl-diver who braves death and dives deep into the sea to fetch its wealth, the Soul too is eager to be named hungry after the wealth of faith. It can bear falsehood no more. It realises the futility of lying about in the darkness of ignorance. It cannot relish living without goodness. Unable to bear even the slightest delay, and with the help of the great turmoil that has arisen within, the Soul realises the true self in its knowledge, and now begins to believe the self within. Knowledge is the means and experience is the achievement. This state has been called the revelation and by several other names by the wise men. The reason is evident in that, the devout who has achieved, is way ahead of the common-place religious beings. His avowed silence and meditation and such faculties develop naturally. No special efforts are required to achieve inner austerities, which come naturally, needless to say the external austerities become superfluous. This natural phenomenon encompasses faith, devotion and balance. Hence, the saying
faith is extremely rare - has its justification here.
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Everything else may be easily attained but darshan - the state where the soul begins to experience - is rarely attained. Rarer still would be the setting right of the being which had remained for ages like an upside-down earthen pot unable to receive anything and now having turned right-side up, is able to receive the knowledge, which had until now been the reason for the being's travails in the universe, which now instantly turns itself into a great instrument of detachment from the world. As if the pot - the inner consciousness is now filled with a feeling of total detachment. her as
नाहमत्रस्स कस्सइ
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I am alone, nobody is mine and I belong to nobody - is the feeling that is experienced deep within.
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Although this experience is only momentary, it is absolutely essential. Such pacifying experiences are only momentary owing to the conditioning of the soul. But unless a jiva is exposed to
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