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I am the Soul
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Similarly those who perform Swadhyaya say, 'The Swadhyaya that we perform is wonderful!' Do you know what they do? Some 10-20 Brothers and Sisters get together to read a Spiritual Text and say, 'Look at our Swadhyaya! How we do it!' Do they really know what Swadhyaya means? That in which there is the search of the self, there is the realisation of the self. As the search goes on deeper, it becomes a self-study. When the self steadies within itself, experiences the state of self-realisation, that is Swadhyaya. How can we see a Soul which is trying to experience its own true form? Is it something that can be seen? It is being experienced within. It cannot be related to others. So when they say, 'What we do is dharma', it is nothing but external ritual. Besides they take pride and say, 'what we do is right'.
It was because of this that Srimadji had to say that this Jiva too is a Matarthi. He might well be doing the Dharmic rituals, but still he is a Matarthi. And such a Jiva has no right to achieve the supreme essence - paramartha. Brothers! Before achieving anything one has to acquire the rights to it. Without right nothing can be had - be it in the worldly field or in the dharmic field. Only so much as one has a right to, can be received. Ah! If you want acceptance and status in the social circles, you need the ability for it.
Today, who is respected in the society? The rich one! Who would care if you had no money? Nobody would care. But if the same person were to get money, they would flatter him. And again if he were to lose money, nobody would even ask him, 'Brother! Have you eaten or not?' For they say,
नाणां वगरनो नाथियो ने नाणे नाथालाल
that is, in any field if anything is required, if anything is to be achieved, then the respective qualification is necessary.
Here is the case of attaining the supreme essence. Who can attain the paramartha? One in whose inner feelings the desire
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