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three-four hours it gets empty and demands again. There is no such solution that when once the stomach is filled up then it will not demand anything again ever. Oh! Just think this over! How much have you eaten until now? Is there any count? Let us do some calculation. Assume you eat four chapatis a day. So that will be 120 a month. A 1,440 in a year and now try multiplying this figure by your age. Look! If you are 50 then it is 72,000 chapatis, if 60 then 86,400 and at 70 they will number 1,08,000! How much have we poured into this stomach! And besides how many other items? We have emptied stores together into this stomach, and yet it is not satisfied. Not only this, we have indulged in all that is there to be enjoyed in this world through the five senses. And yet we act as if we have not had anything at all. There is not a burp of satisfaction. This is the web of infinite desire.
So long as there are such desires lying within, Atmarth will never awaken. The Matarthata is not leaving and hence Srimadji has said, 'Pluck the feelings of wishes and desires from your inside and throw them out, only then will the flow - vega- of your thoughts, which is presently in the wrong direction, take the right direction, and only then sanvega will awaken. Only when there is a rein on the indulgence will the desires die out, not otherwise. But the jiva living in ignorance does not let go of the indulgence, and by learning a little prayer and chanting begins to think of himself as an atmarthi.
If an atmarthi is also going along as the wind blows today, how do we accept him as one? Today there is a competition among the rich families. What wealth one shows off, the other has to show off a little more. I have heard of ladies from such rich families spend Rs. 10 - 15,000 on a saree they wear. And once worn in one wedding it cannot be repeated in another, so they need another costlier one worth Rs. 20,000. This is the blind spectre of social prestige! This is how it has been going on and the society is moving on the path of descent. Every such malaise leads to another, but the jiva does not understand!
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