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I am the Soul
It is alright with such jivas, but I have seen one such lady, who used to be called atmarthi, was the leader of her pack, but would not give up even one of her cosmetics. She would always be busy with efforts in making her body beautiful! How would some one have awakened feelings of Moksa, if there is such attachment with the body, if desires are not quenched? Where there is thought of the material world, there cannot be a thought of Moksa. Both can never be together. So the name tag that she carried as atmarthi was also false! Pardon me, Brothers! Since this is a discussion on the characteristics of atmarthi, it is necessary to reveal the truth. Hence, it is necessary to state how ugly is the inner state of such name-sake atmarthi jivas.
So, then Atmarthi Jiva is above all the feelings for inanimate, hence he has no desire other than the ultimate result of the spiritual existence - Moksa.
In spite of infinite births and deaths the jiva has not achieved any thing. He is now wearied of the journey through one life to another. He has wandered endlessly, yet he is still at square one. Whether he enjoyed the happiness of a good birth or suffered the hardships of a lower gati, he remembers nothing Believing he has never experienced any happiness or sorrow ever, he now harbours the perpetual, endless desire of going into the Deva gati with an intention of enjoying unending happiness, and since he does not want sorrow at all, he is determined not to go into the lower births like in hell. But in spite of this, he does not pursue the good intentions that would make him eligible for a higher birth, nor does he abandon the evil intentions which contribute to a lower birth. As a result he holds on to a desire of a higher birth and keeps wandering in the lower echelons.
But Srimadji says here - The Jiva who has understood the wandering through births, the jiva who has experienced the loss of the Soul's bliss having gone there, such a jiva now desires from deep within, “I neither want a good nor a bad birth. I am
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