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I am the Soul
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Otherwise, those sages who are renounced and not yet selfrealised, yet always nurturing a grief over it; always carrying the feeling, 'Oh Lord! What a parody! I have no interest either in the world or in the worldly affairs, the craving for attaining the Soul is in me always, why then am I not receiving the True Faith - Samyag Darshan?' And such grief leads to a determination in the mind that “Now I shall rest only after attaining Samyagdarshan. Of what good is my becoming a human if I do not attain Samyag Darshan? Of what good is my becoming a Sadhu?' A Sadhaka with such awakening is well on the path of a tremendous effort. A refuge with such Sages is also suitable for the soul-seeker.
The matarthi jiva is mistaken in accepting a Guru with a superficial renunciation. Not only that -
अथवा निजकुळधर्मना, ते गुरुमां ज ममत्व but he accepts that Guru, who has been traditionally accepted as the family-Guru, by the family in which he is born, and keeps feeding that feeling of attachment. To him it does not matter whether that person is fit enough to be a Guru or not, whether his refuge will lead to an upliftment of the self or not. He suffers in the stubborn belief that “this is my Guru and he is the greatest'.
Here, acceptance of one's own family-Guru is not totally prohibited. But a family-Guru, who is superficially renounced and incapable of leading a jiva across, who is merely masquerading as one but is a total fraud, is worth rejecting, not worthy of serving at all.
Such Gurus may sometimes devastate a man altogether. I shall tell you about a metropolis. A lady from a rich family used to come to the prayer-hall daily. I once asked her, “You come here, but how come your children never do?” She replied, “Mahasatiji! Earlier my children used to come, but after an incident at our place they never feel like coming."
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