________________
256
I am the Soul
and a channelisation of the activities resulting from these attitudes! Channelisation which refers to activities as excesses. Indeed how very relevant is this process of performing Pratikraman! At the outset, in the first Kayotsarga, while telling us why it is done, it is said - 31109r Flagtref of $3411 - I perform Kayotsarga to reflect upon my excesses.
Kausagga - Kayotsarga is for the recounting and contemplation of all ripples of attitudes that awaken in the mind in a whole day, whether they remain in the form of mental chain of thoughts, or appear as spoken words or get converted into action. One counts the type of excesses one after the other and recounts whether any of those was committed during the day. Thus, in all 99 aberrations for 99 excesses have been mentioned. It is possible that many of those may have been committed. You may not have committed many of those. It is not that all the people commit all the excesses all the time. But of course, there is a likelihood of having committed one or two excesses. Those have to be recounted.
And later in the fourth 311091as the 99 excesses of jnana, darshan, charitra and tapa are recounted aloud. At that time, the faults - attitudes recounted earlier have to be repented for. In doing so, we learn to check and verify all our attitudes daily. And if we keep checking, perhaps someday we may even learn to accept our own faults. Capitulation of faults is very much necessary, yet it is very difficult. It does not come about at all! For, owing to the practice of infinite time we have become ‘habitual offenders'. These terms sound a bit harsh. But Brothers! No other term applies better to describe us.
But here acceptance is easier. For while performing Pratikramana, the capitulation we have to make, does not require to be to told to anybody else. It is required to be done within. Although it hurts our ego, it can still be done.
Jain Educationa International
For Personal and Private Use Only
www.jainelibrary.org
