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I am the Soul
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of the soul - an experience with the self, can the fruit of Moksa become available.
Having understood this, we would now like to know what if, in spite of having woven renunciation and detachment into the activity of every moment of our life, in spite of the conscious inquiry and the influence of previous detachment having invoked a disinterest towards the world in the mind, in spite of the life being totally immersed in religious activity, and for that matter, in spite of the mind and intellect having accepted the greatness of self-experience, self realisation does not appear? At such junctures, many would experience a dejection. The mind would begin to waver. Sometimes even detachment and the like begin to seem meaningless, and the mind begins to question the genuineness. What should be done then?
It is to draw such a practitioner (sadhaka) out of the dejection and to make him see the reality that Srimadji has added the last two phrases of this gatha. Consoling the sadhaka with great love he says, “Brother! Be patient! Don't lose faith. The feelings of renunciation - detachment, the disinterest within, the unaffectedness now awakening in you, will sooner or later, certainly help you realise the soul, because these feelings are the best means to achieve selfexperience”. Renunciation and detachment are to be used as devices. If appropriately applied, the core of these devices will extract itself from the kernel and lead you up as if on the rungs of a ladder at the end of which is the destination - Moksa.
What is meant by the appropriateness of renunciation and detachment? First of all it is evident that a jiva is not so well acquainted with renunciation as he is with enjoyment. He has not learnt renunciation at all and he does not need to be taught enjoyment. Just think, Brothers! Has this jiva ever abandoned enjoyment? Wherever he went, in whatever lesser or greater species he was born, yet from times immemorial he has been wandering with the enjoyment. Even when born with uni-sensory ability his enjoyment has continued unabated.
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