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I am the Soul
A being too, experiences internal delineation. That is a feel of the Self time and again, and the experience of joy along with it. But when does this happen? Only when the being gives up the interest in knowing material things outside and directs the same inquisitiveness towards discovering the Self. A being bogged down in rituals gathers all the superficial knowledge. He even keeps performing rituals in the name of religion. But he is not concerned with the Self. His religious performances are for the benefit of the body. He fails to understand what leads to the true uplift of the Soul. He works in the blind belief that performing difficult rituals alone will fetch omniscience - kevaljnana. But he is blissfully unaware of what this kevaljnana is, or what the welfare of the Soul is.
Kevaljnana is the constant experience of the Soul. The cause of this constant experience, and the cause of the short-time realisation of the Soul is the thought about the inner Self. One bereft of this thought about the inner Self, mistaking the thoughtless rituals alone for everything and keeping the rigorous penance and unbearbale tortuous efforts of the great men in mind, goes on to merely imitate their outwardly actions, yet his countless effort will not generate the faith of 'I am the Soul' in him. On the contrary, he will always nurture doubts about the very existence of his own Soul.
Such ignorant beings perform so much outwardly penance that the body shrivels up. Why, many of them have been heard to say that this body is itself the hurdle in the way of the being. If there is no body then the Soul is bound to find liberation, hence this body should be dried up, it should be withered away. Performing such outwardly penance for years together, one manages to wither away the body but the passions of the inner self, the habits die hard.
These strong passions within us which provoke the five senses, have to be controlled with a full knowledge and
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