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same lot has befallen you again. remove the unexpected visitor. My You proceed more determined this idea is that he should see, for a time, but the soul too is wise en- few seconds, if he is so much ad ough to lead you astray with vanced in practice as to go on with still stronger force. She cries "And his meditation calmly, otherwise have you forgotten all about your he should get rid of his intervener love?" and you are lost once more. rather than haste over the remainIn this way you are deceived sever ing beads mindlessly and trembl. ral times through your five senses, ing all through, to come to the and the mind, till at last you grow main subject. Having tried your experienced and determined. By patience to the utmost and fully constant practice you become all- satisfied herself 89 to your anxiety absorbed in deep self-meditation to klow her, the soul welcomes you and cease to deviate from the path. saying, “ you have now fully deserv. It is, then, that the soul receives ed to learn about me.” She then you with open arms, though even appears in her right colour, glowing then she does net disclose herself with a pure white transcendent to you. She keeps silent to make lustre, and begins to divulge her you wait till you reach the stage true nature to the seeker after when the powers of your senses' knowledge thus :are all benumbed, 80 much so, that
I am what you call Jiva if a needle be pricked into your Dravya. From eternity I am in the body, you do not feel it.
company of matter (Pudgal ) which It is to be observed, by the is another Dravya quite distinct, way, that it requires a great deal and having opposite qualities. I am of practice before men can so com: mixed up with it like ore metal. I pletely engage in self concentration have always been faithfully attachas not to be affected at all by out. ed to this my companion, consider. ward influences or inward feeling. ing him to be my friend but on It does no good to a man to deceive later thoughts, I find him my enemy himself by pretending that he has
in disquise. I have ever loved . &quired self.concentration. He must
him most affectionately. I have de. try self-control and get accustomed
rived pleasure in his pleasure and to it. Our Jaina Sadlus suffered
grived in his grief. He has been attthe twenty-two pains, or Prisabas &cked by disease and I have cried, As they are called, not so much to misfortunes have befallen him and 1 be purposely and intentionally sub
have wept, honours have been bestject to them as to focus their tho.
owed upon him and I have rejoiced, in ught towards their Atma so that
fact, I have wholly given myself up they may not be disturbed by any to bim, become one with him, 'lost my thing from without. Supposing & individuality as it were trusting that beginner is repeating his formula he would never mislead ine; but just on the rosary when & wasp comes see, how he has requitted my love fying and sits on his nose. Now and regard for bim. He has utterly some Jaina, (with some pretension blinded me. He has made me forget to have read the Cbarnanuyog& my true self, my true attributes, my section of our Shastras ) would u. true function, and to cut the matter doubtedly say that he should, on short, my true everything. He has po account, lift up his finger to not only blinded me but crippled me
Shree Sudharmaswami Gyanbhandar-Umara, Surat
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