Anandmai Maa Santvani 04

Author(s): Adhyatmanand Saraswati
Publisher: Navjivan Prakashan Mandir Ahmedabad
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/005977/1

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saMtavANI graMthAvali (1) zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA

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zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA (Shri Shrima Anandamayee Ma) saMkalana zrI svAmI adhyAtmAnaMda sarasvatI (hapIkeza) navajIvana prakAzana maMdira amadAvAda-380014

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A graMthAvalinAM 28 pustakonI kiMmata rU.300 thAya che. graMthAvalino saMpuTa kharIdanArane te rU. 200nA rAhata dare ApavAmAM Avaze. prAptisthAna (1) navajIvana prakAzana maMdira gUjarAta vidyApIThanI pAchaLa, po. navajIvana, amadAvAda -14 (2) navajIvana TrasTa (zAkhA) , 130, zAmaLadAsa gAMdhI mArga, muMbaI - 400 002 (3) divya jIvana saMdha zivAnaMda Azrama, jodhapura TekarI, zivAnaMda mArga, amadAvAda-15 (4) divya jIvana saMgha zivAnaMda bhavana, rAmajI maMdiranI poLa, sarakArI presa sAme, AnaMdapurA, vaDodarA-390 001 (5) divya jIvana saMgha, zizuvihAra, bhAvanagara - 364 001 (6) divya jIvana saMgha, mohana oNpTiziyana, AjhAda coka, valasADa-396 001 nava rUpiyA (c) gujarAta divya jIvana saMgha trIjI AvRtti, prata 3,000, jUna 1999 punarmudraNa, prata 3,000, oNkaTobara 2006 kula prata : 6,000 ISBN 81-7229-237-6 (set) mudraka ane prakAzaka jitendra ThAkorabhAI desAI navajIvana mudraNAlaya, amadAvAda - 380 014

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prakAzakanuM nivedana navajIvana ane divya jIvana saMghanA saMyukta upakrame "saMtavANI graMthAvali'ne 28 pustikAono A saMpuTa vAcakonA hAthamAM mUkatAM AnaMda thAya che. sarvadharmasamabhAvanA uddezane dhyAnamAM rAkhI A 'saMtavANI graMthAvali' saMpuTa brahmalIna zrI svAmI zivAnaMdajInI zatAbdI nimitte gujarAta divya jIvana saMgha dvArA taiyAra karavAmAM Avyo hato. te taiyAra karavAmAM aneka mitrono sahakAra maLyo hato. chatAM tenI pAchaLanI ekadhArI mahenata sva. ucharaMgabhAI svAdiyAnI hatI te noMdhavuM joIe. A graMthAvalinI pahelI AvRtti capocapa UpaDI gayA pachI 1985mAM tenuM punarmudraNa karavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. paraMtu te pahelI AvRttinI jema ja jhaDapathI vecAI jatAM graMthAvali ghaNAM varasathI upalabdha na hatI. gAMdhIjI prasthApita saMsthAnI badhA dharmonI sAcI samajaNa phelAvavAnI javAbadArI che. vaLI ucca zikSaNamAM have mUlyazikSaNa tathA tulanAtmaka dharmonA zikSaNanuM mahattva vadhatuM jAya che. kendra sarakAranA yojanA paMce mUlyonA zikSaNane protsAhana ApavAnuM samarthana karyuM che. Ane anulakSIne A pustaka saMpuTa sAmAnya vAcako uparAMta ucca zikSaNamAM kArya karatA sahu koIne upayogI thaI paDaze. gujarAta divya jIvana saMghe A graMthAvali A yojanAmAM punarmudraNa mATe sulabha karI te mATe ame temanA AbhArI chIe. "saMtavANI graMthAvali'nA A pustaka saMpuTanA prakAzanathI gAMdhIjInA sarvadharmasamabhAvano saMdezo sarvatra vasatAM gujarAtI kuTuMbomAM prasaraze evI AzA che.

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navajIvana TrasTanA dastAvejamAM tenA uddezonI pUrti sAru je je pravRttio karavAnuM sUcaveluM che temAM hindamAM vaselI badhI judI judI komo vacce aikyano pracAra karavAnuM sUcavavAmAM AvyuM che. te hetu mATe navajIvane gUjarAta vidyApIThamAM prasthApita karelA anAmata kozamAMthI A saMtavANI graMthAvali'nuM punarmudraNa jUna 1999mAM prasiddha karI rAhata dare ApavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. 'saMtavANI graMthAvali'nI mAMga cAlu rahetAM navajIvana taraphathI tenuM A trIjuM punarmudraNa prasiddha karavAmAM AvI rahyuM che. ane tenI kiMmata sAmAnya vAcakane paravaDe tevI rAkhavAmAM AvI che te noMdhavA jevuM che. amane AzA che ke sarvadharmasamabhAvanA pracArArthe thatA A prakAzanane vAcako taraphathI yogya AvakAra maLavAnuM cAlu raheze. tA. 2-10- '06

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anukramaNikA 1, janma ane bAlyAvasthA 2. lagna ane mAtRpada 3. daivI zaktino AvirbhAva 4. bhaktajanonI vacce 5. mahAprayANa 6. mAtRsatsaMga' 7. mAtRvANI 8. prasAda - zrI.A.mA.-2

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1. janma ane bAlyAvasthA baMgALa prAMtamAM tripurA jillo ane kheDA nAme gAma, tyAM bipinacaMdra bhaTTAcArya ane mokSadAsuMdarI nAmanuM Adarza dAmpatyajIvana yApana karatuM eka madhyama varganuM kuTuMba, temAM bIjuM saMtAna te nirmaLA. A dIkarIno janma thayo baMgALI saMvata 1303nA vaizAkha mahinAnI 19mI tithie, guruvAre rAtre traNa vAgye. enuM nAma nirmaLA, paNa badhAM tene nirI kahIne ja bolAvatAM. tenAM mAtApitAne ATha saMtAno thayAM, paNa jIvyAM mAtra cAra, te saumAM nirmaLA moTI. bIjAM saMtAnonAM nAma hatAM - subAlA, hemalatA ane sauthI nAno bhAI mAkhana. nirI - nirmaLAsuMdarInA janma pahelAM tenI mAtAne svapnamAM aneka devadevIonI mUrtio dekhAtI. nirInA janma pachI paNa A svapnadarzana thatAM rahyAM. Azcarya to e hatuM ke, janma vakhate e kanyA raDavAne badale hasatI rahI! pAchaLathI emaNe pote ja kahyuM hatuM ke, "raDe zuM kAma? huM to te vakhate khaparaDAnI phATamAMthI Amra vRkSane jotI hatI!'' pahelI dIkarI jIvI nahotI eTale sagAMsaMbaMdhIonA dilamAM zaMkA peThI ke A dIkarI paNa kadAca gumAvI besIzuM, eTale janmI evI ene navaDAvIne gharaAMgaNe tulasIkyAre, bhoMya upara loTAvI (gabaDAvI) AvyA. prArthanA karI ke, ""A dIkarInI rakSA karaje, e lAMbu jIvajo.'' tyAre kone khabara hatI ke, e dIkarI aneka jaNanI rakSA kare evI samartha thavAnI che. aneka jaNanI "mA" thavAnI che ane pachI to

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zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA thoDIka moTI thaI eTale nirI jAte jaIne tulasIkyAre ALoTI AvatI. A nAnI chokarI bhajanakIrtana sAMbhaLatAM ja bhAvamAM tallIna thaI jatI. uMmara moTI thaye pote ja khulAso karIne kahetI, "mArI mA jANatI ke huM UMghI jAuM chuM, paNa tyAre huM nAnI bALakI hatI; zI rIte javAba ApatI? paNa kIrtananI sAthe ja mAruM mana koI ucca pradezomAM cAlyuM jatuM, are! tyAM je je pado gavAtAM hatAM te badhAM mane yAda che,'' ema kahI te badhAM ja kIrtana gAI saMbhaLAvatI. . eka vAra gAmanA taLAvamAM zivanI mUrtinuM visarjana karavAnuM hatuM. badhAMnI jeDe ene paNa javAnuM thayuM, paraMtu je dazya bIjAe joyuM tethI vizeSe eNe joyuM hatuM. pAchaLathI eNe varNana kareluM ''zivane DubAvyA to kharA paNa e pAchA pANI upara AvyA, nAcyA, loko pakaDavA mathe paNa e pakaDAyA nahIM, huM besI nahotI rahI mA. ziva nAcatA hatA te jotI hatI. e jaMgama ziva hatA.'' bhAvanI avasthA samajapUrvaka ke yatnapUrvaka nathI AvatI, e sahaja thAya che. emAM nAnAmoTAno prazna nathI hoto tema jJAnIajJAnI jevo bheda paNa nathI hoto. yamevaiSa vRNute tena labhyastasyaiSa AtmA vRNute tanUM svAm // (kaTha. 1-2-23) e AtmA jene pasaMda kare che tene ja e maLe che, tenI AgaLa AtmA potAnuM svarUpa prakaTa kare che. ene khAvA besADe tyAre e ghaNI vAra AkAza tarapha ja joyA

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janma ane bAlyAvasthA karatI. aNasamajamAM vaDIlo ene Thapako ApatAH "khAvAmAM dhyAna Apa ne, upara zuM joyA kare che?'' paraMtu eno javAba tyAre to koNa Ape? moTA thayA pachI eNe pote ja vAta kahelIH "devadevIo suMdara vimAnomAM AvIne mArI sAmenA AkAzamAM UbhAM rahetAM, huM to emane ja joI rahetI.'' jagatanuM kapaTa ene haiye vasyuM na hatuM, tethI ja tenI mAtA ane anya sau tene tuM saraLa che, niSkapaTa che, tema kahevA mATe tuM sIdhI che'' tevuM kahetAM. krame karIne nirIne badale sau tene sIdhI kahevA lAgyA. tethI eka divasa taLAvathI nAno ghaDo bharIne e pANI lAvI. ghaDo keDe mUkelo ne vAMkI vaLIne cAle. raste je maLyuM tene te kahetI gaI : ""tame badhAM mane sIdhI kahyA kaho cho ne? lo Aje huM vAMkI thaI gaI chuM, basa!'' bALapaNathI ja tenI vinodavRtti jIvananA chellA divaso sudhI TakI rahI hatI. eka divasa zivAnaMda AzramanA koI mahAtmA temane darzane AvyA tyAre teozrIe zrI svAmI cidAnaMdajI mahArAjanA khabaraaMtara pUchatAM, mahAtmAe jaNAveluM ke teo amerikA gayA che. thoDA divasa pachI bIjA mahAtmA darzane AvatAM temaNe jaNAvyuM ke teo iMgleMDa gayA che; Ama vAraMvAra judA judA dezonI sapharanA samAcAra sAMbhaLI; teozrI vinoda karatAM bolelAM keH ''zivAnaMda AzramanA svAmI kRSNAnaMdajI to jJAna-lAinamAM che, svAmI mAdhavAnaMdajI te bhakti-lAInamAM che, paNa svAmI cidAnaMdajI to era lAInsamAM che...!'' nirIne nizALe mUkI. mAmAjInA makAnamAM bAlikA vidyAlayanA eka zikSaka rahe. temane tyAM dAkhala karI. emaNe

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- zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA pahele divase a, A vagere svaro zIkhavyA. bIje divase ka, kha vagere mULAkSaro zIkhavyA, ema je zIkhave te badhuM nAnI nirI zIkhI letI. e joI zikSaka to cakti thaI gayA. pahelAM mAnyuM ke, koIe ghera zikhavADIne nizALe mUkI che, paNa tapAsa karI tyAre khAtarI thaI ke nizALe AvI te pahelAM eNe copaDI hAthamAM lIdhI ja nathI. ghera bALako mAMdAM hoya ke emane saMbhALavAnAM hoya eTale nizALamAM roja javAnuM banatuM nahIM. nizALa hatI paNa dUra. e chatAM smRti evI sarasa hatI ke copaDI ughADe ne kavitA vAMce te moDhe thaI jatI. e joIne IspekTara evA rAjI thayA ke ene upalA vargamAM besADI. ene nizALe javAnuM ghaNI vAra nA bane ane vargamAM lesana to cAlatuM rahe eTale e doDe ane sarakhuM karI le. zikSaka kahe vAcanamAM alpavirAma ke pUrNavirAma Ave tyAre aTakavuM joIe, vacamAM nA aTakI zakAya. eTale e ekazvAse vAMce, vacamAM zvAsa aTakI jAya to pahelethI pharI vAMce. pUrNavirAma Ave tyAre ja aTake. atyaMta bAlyAvasthAmAM, eTale sudhI ke janmasamaye paNa 'mA'nuM jJAna saMpUrNapaNe hatuM. pAchaLathI "mA' e eka divase kahyuM hatuM ke, ""mArA janmathI teramA divase jagadAnaMda kAkAnA pitAjI zuM mane jovA nahotA AvyA?'' zrImA'nI jananIne A vAtanuM smaraNa thayuM ke kharekhara te eka divasa AvyA hatA. zrI mAtAjInuM jIvana abhutathI paNa abhuta che. A mahimAmayI mAtAnA alaukika jIvanavRttAntanAM anya pAsAMone ApaNe AgaLanAM prakaraNomAM vAMcIzuM.

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2. lagna ane mAtRpada eka vAra nAnI nirI upara ramatamAM koI puruSe pANI chAMTara eTale eNe paNa pANIno loTo bharIne enA upara DhoLyo baMnene khUba moja thaI, khUba hasyAM, paNa jananIne khabara paDe eTale eNe duHkha vyakta karyuM. saMtAnane Thapako detAM mAtAe kahyuM "koI puruSa upara pANI chaMTAya ke!'' basa ATalo izAre pUrato hato. e pachI nirInA ThaThThAmazkarInA divaso pUrA thayA. mAtAe je kahyuM te eNe yogya mAnyuM. enI carcA nahIM ke sAmo javAba nahIM. AjJA guruNAm hi avicAraNIyA / jevuM nirInuM rUpa hatuM evo ja mITho eno kaMTha hato, tema tevuM ja tenuM smita paNa virala hatuM. te smita sthAyI banyuM hatuM. mukha upara vAtsalya ane karuNAnA bhAva to hatA ja, paraMtu enI sAthe smitanI zobhA saune AnaMda ApatI. ema karatAM bAra varSa vItI gayAM. DhAkA vikramapuramAM AThapADA gAma. tyAM zrotriya jagabaMdhu cakravartI ane tripurAsuMdarI rahe. emane nava saMtAno hatAM. temanA vacalA dIkarA ramaNImohana sAthe nirmaLAsuMdarIne baMgALI saMvata 131panA mahA mahinAnI 25mI tithie lagna thayuM. te samaye kanyAnI vaya bAra varSa ane dasa mahinAnI hatI. lagna vakhate ramaNImohana polIsa khAtAmAM nokarI karatA hatA. tripurAsuMdarI to gujarI gayAM hatAM. moTAbhAI revatImohana relavemAM kAma karatA hatA ane DhAkA-jagannAthagaMja bhaNI zrIpura,

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zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA nardI vagere sthaLoe sTezanamAstara hatA. emane tyAM nAnI vahune rahevAnuM thayuM. patie ene AjJA karI ke gharanuM kAmakAja badhuM ja karavuM. e mujaba vahue gRhasaMsAra saMbhALI lIdho. A nAnI kuLavadhU mATe koIe sADI ANI. baMgALamAM kuLavadhUo sADIno cheDo mAthethI moM upara kheMcI ghUMghaTa rAkhe; ema eNe paNa karyuM, tyAre enuM rUpa DhaMkAI javAne badale khIlI UyuM. emanA sAsarAnA pakSanA eka saMbaMdhI kSetrabAbu enuM rUpa joIne evA to prabhAvita thaI gayA ke ene devI kahIne praNAma karavA lAgyA. kSetrabAbunI vahue nAnI vahune joyelI nahIM ethI patramAM puchAvyuM ke, ""ramaNIbAbunI vahu kevI che, kALI che ke rUpALI che!'' enA javAbamAM kSetrabAbue harSathI lakhyuM ke ''phAnasanI aMdara jema dIvo baLe che, evI e che.' haMmeza ghUMghaTa rAkhIne bahAra nIkaLatI lAvaNyamayI strI vize e varNana barobara ja hatuM. gharanuM saghaLuM kAma karatAM vaDIlonI maryAdA paNa nirIvahu barobara pALatI hatI. jeThanI sevAzuzruSA paNa kALajIthI karatI. jeTha enA upara ghaNo sneha rAkhatA. evAmAM lagnane bIje varSe ramaNIbAbunI nokarI chUTI gaI. traNacAra varSa lagI navI nokarI maLI nahIM. e divasomAM baMne moTAbhAIne tyAM rahyAM. te divasomAM vahu kadIka sUnamUna thaI jatI. rasoI karatAM karatAM paNa enuM bhAna jatuM rahetuM. koI vAra pIrasatAM pIrasatAM dALabhAta heThe paDI jatAM tyAre jeThANI be AkarAM veNa saMbhaLAvatI. nAnI vahu kSobha pAmatI, zaramAI jatI, pharI kAme lAgatI. e koIno vAMka kADhatI nahIM. koI upara mAThuM lagADatI nahIM eTale vAta bhulAI jatI. pADozIo

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lagna ane mApada ane sagAMsaMbaMdhI aMdara aMdara vAto karatAM ke vahu UMghaNazI che. koI vahune moDhe ja kahI nAkhatuM, paNa e sahI letI-na koI khulAso, na koI vivAda. eka divasa patie kahyuM: ''nokarI maLatI nathI. e kaMI ghara khoLatI nahIM Ave, mAre ja enI zodhamAM javuM joIe. tane koI jagyAe rAkhavAnI tajavIja huM karato jaIza.'' tyAre vahue dhairya rAkhavAnuM kahyuM. traNa divasa rAha juo ema kahIne emane rokI rAkhyA ane banyuM paNa evuM ke trIje divase aSTagrAmamAM DhAkAnA navAbanA sarve seTalamenTa khAtAmAM emane nokarI maLI gaI. eTale baMne aSTagrAmamAM rahevA gayAM. tyAM e loko jayazaMkara senanA makAnamAM rahetAM hatAM. emanI patnI A sadA hasatA mo vALI nAnI vahune joI evI khuza thaI gaI ke lADamAM ene 'khuzIra mA' (AnaMdanI mAtA) kahIne bolAvavA mAMDI. e nAma ADozapADozamAM jhaDapabhera phelAI gayuM ane nAnI vahu nirI acAnaka AnaMda mA banI gaI. e sena bAbuno dIkaro zAradAzaMkara. enuM bIjuM nAma harakumAra paNa hatuM. e bahu bhaNelagaNela na hato, tethI tene koI kAyamI nokarI maLatI nahIM; A 'khuzIra mA' temanA kuTuMbamAM rahevA AvyAM tethI tene bevaDo AnaMda thayo. bALapaNamAM ja enI janmadAtrI mA gujarI gayelI. basa! harakumArane jANe janetA maLI hoya tevo bhAva thato. te AnaMdamAnA rasoDAmAM jaI pahoMcato, cUlAmAM lIlAM lAkaDAM saLagAvatAM, AkhA gharamAM dhumADo thato, tyAre te sUkAM lAkaDAM lAvI kaheto, '"lo mA, AnAthI rasoI karo.'' paNa khuzIra mA kadIye tenI sAthe bolatI kA A 3

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zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA nahIM tema ghUMghaTa paNa UMco karI tenI sAme jotI paNa nahIM. A mauna harakumArathI sahevAyuM nahIM. eka vAra to eNe roSamAM saMbhaLAvI dIdhuM: ""mA, tuM to sAva paththara jevI cho! tane mA kahIne marI jAuM paNa tuM bolavAnI nathI. ATalI vAra meM jo paththarane kahyuM hota to enAmAM paNa jIva Avata. Akhare bALaka AgaLa mAne zuM zaramAvAnuM hoya ke? AvI vinaMtI kare to paNa na to 'mA'e ghUMghaTa haTAvyo ke na to moMmAMthI akSara kADhyo: 'mA' khAvA beThI hoya tyAre e hAtha dharIne Ubho rahe, ""mane thoDo prasAda Apo,'' ema vAraMvAra kahe. e vakhate "mA" khAvAnuM baMdha karI che ane tyAMthI khasI jAya. eTale eNe vahunI sAme varane phariyAda karI vinaMtI karI ke, ''tame ene rajA Apo." eno bhAva pArakhI ramaNIbAbue vahune kahyuM: ''thoDuM Apaje.'' patinI AjJA maLI eTale mAe prasAda jeTaluM ApavA mAMDyuM. ethI harakumAra prasanna raheto. have ene savArasAMja mAne praNAma karyA vagara cena na paDatuM; basa eka ja dhUna lAgI ke mAne koI vAtanuM kaSTa na paDavuM joIe. mAne roja pUchato, "bajAramAMthI zuM zuM lAvavAnuM che?' pADozIone teno A vyavahAra sAro na lAgyo. paraMtu e zeno darakAra kare? e kaheto, ""meM tane 'mA mA', kahIne bolAvI che, te joje eka divasa sau loka ane AkhI duniyA tane "mA' kahIne bolAvaze." harakumAranI A bhaviSyavANI satya TharI che. gharamAM mA Asana ke mudrA karavA lAgyAM emAM patie kazo vAMdho nA lIdho. koI koI vAra emAM bhaLatA paNa kharA. eTale lokoe emanuM nAma bhoLAnAtha rAkhyuM, ane e nAma paNa

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daivI zaktino AvirbhAva . 8 pracalita banI gayuM. aSTagrAmanAM kIrtanomAM loko mAne jovA AvatA. keTalAka loko kutUhalathI paNa AvatA. emane samajavuM hatuM ke A badhuM zuM che! evAmAM maMdire jatAM jatAM eka sajjane mAne sADI ApI. e sADImAM mAnuM rUpa evuM to prakAzI UThyuM ke jonArA cakita thaI gayA. koI mAne devI kahevA lAgyuM to koI sASTAMga praNAma karavA lAgyuM. A aSTagrAmamAM e lokoe cAra varSa gALyAM hatAM. e samaye DhAkAnA navAbanA TrasTI tarIke rAyabahAdura yogezacaMdra ghoSa kAma karatA hatA. emanA nAnA jamAI zrI bhUdevacaMdra vasu bAjitapuranI vADInA Asi. suparinTenDenTa hatA. emaNe bhoLAnAthane e vADInA munazI nImyA. emanI patnI mA upara ghaNo sneha rAkhatI ane mA emanAM bALako upara heta karatAM. e vakhate mA ekavIsa varSanAM hatAM. UrdhvapaMthe ArohaNa thavAnI paLa samIpa AvI rahI hatI. 3. daivI zaktino AvirbhAva mAnA jIvananI viziSTatAnI have pragaTa thavAnI taiyArI thaI rahI hatI. divase gRhiNInAM badhAM kAmakAja barobara kare, rasoI kare, vAsaNa mAMje, jhADu kADhe, patinI sevA kare ema badhuM barAbara cAle. paraMtu e badhI bahAranI kriyAo hatI. rAte bhoLAnAtha jamIne ArAma kare tyAre sUvAnA oraDAnA eka khUNAmAM jaIne mA potAnuM Asana mAMDa, dhyAna kare, bIjI kriyAo paNa kare. e

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10 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA vakhate zarIramAM vividha kriyAo ApoApa cAle, hAthanI mudrAo thAya, zarIra kheMcAya, AMkho mIMcAI jAya ke visphArita thAya, zvAsa jhaDapathI cAle ke maMda paDI jAya. e samaye pUjA paNa kare ane emanuM zarIra tejathI lIMpAI jAya. bhoLAnAtha koI vAra sUtA hoya, koI vAra sUtAM sUtAM jotA hoya, to vaLI koI vAra Azcarya pAmI beThA thaI joI rahe. mA ekAMtamAM beThAM hoya paNa pAse hovA chatAM pavitratAnA AvaraNamAM e keTalAMya mahAna lAge. emanA dhyAnanA oraDAnI cAre tarapha e pote lIMpIgUMpI khUba svacchatA rAkhatAM. hAthamAM dhUpadAnI laI cAre dizAmAM pharatAM. aMdarabahAra badhuM vAtAraNa ja badalI nAkhatAM. A vAta pragaTa thaI tyAre bhUdevabAbunI jema bIjAoe paNa mAnyuM ke A vyAdhi che. ane bhUvAo A bhUtano vaLagADa kADhavA AvyA, paraMtu mAnI bhAvasthiti samaye teo jAte ja bebhAna thaI jatA ane kazuM ja karI zakatA nahIM. mAnI bhAvasamAdhi UtaratI paNa bhUvAo bhAnamAM AvatA nahIM. paNa bhoLAnAthanI vinaMtIthI, mAnI amIdaSTithI bhUvAo dhIre dhIre hozamAM AvatA, ane jatAM jatAM page paDatA ane kahetA ke amAruM gaju nathI, bAbA, A to sAkSAt devI bhagavatI che. to koI vaLI kAlI kacchanA DaoN. mahendra nandIne bolAvI lAvyuM, emaNe mAne tapAsyAM, prazno pUchyA paNa koI roga hoya to ne? aMte emaNe bhoLAnAthane kAnamAM kahyuM: 'A to UMcI avasthA che, ene bImArI nA mAnazo, jene tene batAvavA mATe athaDAzo nahIM.' e pachI bhoLAnAthe paNa lokonuM sAMbhaLI

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devI zaktino AvirbhAva ahIMtahIMnA upacAra karavAnI vAta choDI dIdhI. nizikAnta bhaTTAcArya mAnA mAmAnA dIkarA bhAI thAya. temaNe bhoLAnAthane kahyuM, ""A zuM dhatiMga calAvI rahyA cho? kema kaMI kahetA nathI? rokatA kema nathI?'' bhoLAnAtha to kaMI bolyA nahIM, paNa rasoDAmAMthI mA ekAeka bahAra AvyAM temano bhAva badalAyelo hato. mAthethI sADIno cheDo sarI paDyo hato. ghaNAM aMga khullAM thaI gayAM hatAM, vALa vIkharAI gayA hatA, nizikAnta to A bhayaMkara svarUpa joIne DaghAI ja gayA. A joIne mA khaDakhaDATa hasyAM, tyAre thoDI vAre svastha thaIne nizikAne pUchyuM: 'tame koNa cho?' "pUrNa brahma, nArAyaNa.' uttara maLyo. e sAMbhaLI sau cokI UThyA. patine paNa Azcarya thayuM ane emaNe pharI pUchyuM: " "tuM koNa che?'' javAba maLyo: 'mahAdevI, mahAdeva!'' A asAdhAraNa ghaTanA hatI. nizibAbue vaLI pUchyuM: " "maMtrataMtra karo cho paNa tenI dIkSA lIdhI che?'' mAe hA bhaNI. eTale vaLI pUchyuM: ''ane ramaNIbAbue paNa dIkSA lIdhI che zuM?'' mAe kahyuM: "nA, pAMca mAsamAM, saura agahanakI 15 tArIkha ko bRhaspativAra dvitIyA tithi ko hogI!'' "nakSatra kayuM?'' "pUcho jAnakIbAbune. atyAre e taLAva upara maLaze.'' jAnakIbAbu jyotiSa jANatA. A samaye e kacerImAM hoya paraMtu tapAsa karI to taLAve ja e maLyA. emaNe AvI paMcAMga UthalAvyuM to badhuM barobara maLyuM. jAnakIbAbu cakita thaI gayA ane ''tame te cho koNa?'' ema AzcaryathI bolI UThyA.

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zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA ''pUrNa brahma, nArAyaNa.'' e ja uttara emane paNa maLyo. paNa patine zuM sUchyuM ke emaNe kahyuM: ""koIka paraco batAvo to mAnuM!'' mAM UbhAM thayAM ane emanA mAthethI paga sudhI AMgaLI pheravI. emanI to AMkho UMce caDI gaI. zarIra behoza banI gayuM. eka kalAka ema ja vItI gayo. eTalAmAM nizALethI Azu ghera Avyo. joyuM to kAkA behoza. mAnI hAlata paNa ajaba. sau cUpacApa, bhayabhIta. Azu ta raDI paDyo. Azu te revatI-mohanano-jeThano-putra, e mArI pAse raheto hato. have jAnakIbAbue hAtha joDyA, kahyuM: 'bhoLAnAthane ThIka karI do.' mAe pharI AMgaLI pheravI ane emane jAgrata karyA. e saphALA UThIne bolyA: ""are, huM kyAM hato? keTalo AnaMda! kevo avarNanIya anubhava!'' e pachI mA paNa svastha thaIne beThAM, jANe kaMI banyuM ja nathI. dIkSAno divasa ane samaya AvatAM, bhoLAnAthane snAna karI AvavAnuM kahyuM, navuM vastra paherIne Asana para besavA kahyuM. A tamAma samaya daramiyAna mAnA moMmAMthI maMtro nIkaLI rahyA hatA. tyAra bAda temane bIjamaMtra Apyo, ane tenA japa karavA kahyuM. mAMsAdika AhArano tyAga karavA kahyuM ane hRdayathI zuddha rahevA jaNAvyuM. mA patinA gurupade beThAM. mA emanA patinAM paNa mA banI gayAM. saM. 1979nA varSamAM mAe mauna dhAraNa karyuM. A mauna traNa varSa sudhI rahyuM. paraMtu bhUmi upara koI koI vAra e rekhA doratAM, ane maMtroccAra karatAM. eve samaye mA vAta karI zakatAM, paraMtu

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13 devI zaktino AvirbhAva rekhA kyAre thaze teno koI niyama nahoto. e samaye mA bIjAne tyAM jatAM paNa nahotAM. DhAkAmAM siddhezvarI mAtAnuM maMdira hatuM. emAM kAlI mAtAnI mUrti hatI. enAM darzane mA ghaNI vAra jatAM. tyAre emanA bhaktonI saMkhyA adhika nahotI. eka divasa bapore taDakAmAM ja maMdire javA nIkaLyAM. sAthe bhoLAnAtha sivAya bIjuM koI nahotuM. maMdire pahoMcIne mA eka jagyAe thobhyAM, jANe sthAna pasaMda karyuM. enI pradakSiNA karI. tyAM kUMDALuM doryuM ane besI gayAM. mukhamAMthI ApoApa maMtro nIkaLatA gayA. hAtha mATImAM ghUsavA lAgyo. e ja jagyAe bhoLAnAthe hAtha mUkI joyo to jaNAyuM ke tyAMthI lAla garama pANI nIkaLe che. e jagyAe vedI banAvI. koI vAra mA tyAM jaIne besatAM, bhajanakIrtana cAlatAM. koI vAra bhaktone evo anubhava thato ke tyAM mAnAM vastro che, paNa emanuM zarIra nathI, zarIra adazya thaI jatuM. e sthaLe oraDo banyo. eka veLA mA vedImAM beThAM hatAM, tyAre loko prazno pUchavA lAgyA ane mAe je javAba ApyA tethI sau Azcarya pAmyA. Ama prazno puchAtA ne pachI kIrtana cAlatuM ane mA bhAvAvezamAM AvI jatAM. eka samaye (1929) snAna karIne mA pUjA karavA jamIna upara beThAM ane pUjA karatAM karatAM sahasA bhoLAnAthajIne kahyuM: ''besuM chuM, tame pUjA karo!'' pati mUMjhAyA eTale mA 1. pAchaLathI jyAre zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI saMghanI sthApanA karavAmAM AvI tyAre vedImAM prajavalita agni'nuM pratIka saMghanuM cihna nakkI karavAmAM AvyuM.

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zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA aTTahAsya karI mUrti pAse gayAM. kSaNabharamAM vastronuM baMdhana chUTI gayuM. jIbha bahAra nIkaLI. dehamAM jagajjananIno AvirbhAva thayo. e pachI bhoLAnAthathI vilaMba thaI zakyo nahIM. emaNe mAnI pUjA karI. e pUjAnAM phUlo vaDe mAnI mUrti ghaNI manohara lAgatI hatI. 14 loko A ghaTanAonI carcA karatA. A vAto chAnI rahe evuM kyAMthI bane? dUranA pradezanA emane na oLakhanArA mANaso paNa emanAM darzane AvavA lAgyA. AvanArAomAM sau nAtajAtanA loko hatA. loko mAnI pUjA karatA, ane AnaMda pAmatA. cAreka loko citravicitra sugaMdha, bhAva ke vAtAvaraNano paNa anubhava karatA. mA jagannAthapurImAM hatAM tyAre eka vArtAlApamAM emaNe e vAtanuM rahasya jaNAvyuM hatuM: ''tame sau jema A zarIranI pAse Avo cho tevI rIte bIjA aneka (azarIrI) loko Ave che. tamArI jema e paNa zarIre, page, mAthe hAtha pherave che. ghaNI vAra tame nA ho tyAre paNa emanA vaDe A ghara bharAyeluM rahe che.' ,, mA jyAre bAlyAvasthAmAM hatAM te vakhatanI vAta che. pitA harinuM gIta gAtA haze te samaye mAe emane pUchyuM: ''pitAjI, hiranuM nAma lIdhAthI zuM thAya?'' pitAe emane samajAvyuM: ''tAruM nAma che nirmaLA. huM, 'nirmaLA', 'nirmaLA' kahIne bolAvuM to tuM kevI mArI pAse Ave che! ema 'hari'ne bolAvIe to e paNa pAse Ave, ApaNAM du:kha dUra kare. jenI jenI icchA-mAgaNI-prArthanA karIe te badhI e pUrI kare.'' ''hira kevaDA haze?'' mAe sahaja pUchyuM. nAnA bALakanI

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15 devI zaktino AvirbhAva jema ja. "bahu moTA." ''sAme khulluM medAna che emAM samAya evaDA?'' "nA, nA. ethIya moTA!'' pitAe kahyuM. ane vizvAsa dIdho ke, "tuM prArthanA karIza to e Avaze. eTale tane samajAze.'' emaNe harinAma levA kahyuM ane zikhavADyuM paNa kharuM. ajANatAM emaNe mAnI gupta rahelI zaktino baMdha choDI nAkhyo. e ja kSaNathI mAmAM parivartana thavA lAgyuM. bAlyakALa hato, mana nidaoNSa hatuM. bIjI koI vAtanuM kheMcANa nahotuM eTale harirasamAM sthira thatAM zI vAra lAge! nAma bolatAM gayAM ane emAM tAla ApoApa goThavAto gayo. e pachI zvAsocchavAsamAM paNa japa cAlavA lAgyo. mAmAM koI vakhata bALaka kRSNano AvirbhAva thato. koI vAra kAlImAtAnAM darzana thatAM ane koI vAra zaMkara virAjatA. mAne asaMkhya devadevIo dekhAtAM eTaluM ja nahIM, paraMtu emanI bhASAmAM vAtacIta paNa thatI. mA emane sAtha ApatAM. zivanI sAthe pArvatI ane nArAyaNa sAthe lakSmI thaI jatAM. koI vAra harihara ane koI vAra ardhanArIzvaranA bhAvamAM AvI jatAM. aMgomAMthI devatAo pragaTa thaI pRthak thAya te pahelAM mA prANAyAma, trATaka, Asana vagere yoganI kriyAo karatAM. Asano keTalAya prakAranAM thatAM. padmAsana vALI mAthuM pAchaLa namAvatAM ane kapALa jamInane aDADatAM. mA zIrSAsana paNa karatAM. emAMthI vaLI evI sthiti AvatI ke be AMgaLIo bhUmi upara rAkhI zrI.ema.-4

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zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA emanuM zarIra havAmAM adhdhara jhUlatuM ane koI vAra AkAzamAM caDatuM. e kahetAM ke, ''yoganI keTalIka evI kriyAo paNa che ke yogya rIte thAya to bhAvaparivartana svAbhAvika bane.'' 16 emane avakAzamAM yaMtro aMkita thayelAM dekhAtAM. judA judA raMganA prakAza jaNAtA, vartuLo dekhAtAM ane potAnA zarIra upara yaMtro vagere dorAyelAM jotAM. koI vAra vibhinna jyoti dekhAtI ane koI vAra akhaMDa. e potAne paNa jyotirUpe joI zakatAM. sUrya ane caMdra judA judA AkAramAM emanI samIpa AvI emanA dehamAM samAtA ane chUTA paDatA. emanAM saMvedano tIvra banyAM hatAM. gharanI bahAra koI gAyane lAkaDI mAre to enI pIDA mAne thatI. koI vAra pRthvI upara ThokavAnA AghAtathI paNa emane vedanA thatI. tenI sAthe sAthe have emane vibhUtio prApta thavA lAgI. dUranI cIjo samIpa jovI; dUranI vAto sAMbhaLavI, sUkSma dehathI dUra gamanAgamana karavuM, zarIra haLavuM ke bhAre thaI javuM, ekAgra thaIne koI vastunuM jJAna meLavI levuM, e avasthAo sahaja banI. keTalIya vAra e nizcala banI beThAM hoya ke sUtAM hoya tyAre paNa yogakriyAo aMdara cAlatI hoya ema banatuM. samAdhimAM bahArathI to jaDatA dekhAtI, paraMtu bhItaramAM vAta judI hatI. mAe eka vAra mauna zarU karyuM. te divase emaNe AkAzavANI sAMbhaLI. prazno pUchanAra mA, ane uttara denAra emanI bhItaranI zakti, ethI mAne paNa Azcarya thayuM ke huM pote ja potAne kahI rahI chuM. pachI to AvaraNa haThI gayuM. mA dhIragaMbhIra banI gayAM. keTalAke Azcarya mAnyuM ke mA acAnaka kema badalAI gayAM?

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bhaktajanonI vacce 17 e sthitimAM emane lAgyuM ke, e pote sarvazreSTha che, pote ja sarvasaMcAlaka che, sarva vibhUti mArI ja che, huM ja sarva chuM. paraMtu A bhAvane mAe tarata saMkelI lIdho. mA have mAkhana, Azu, senabAbu, zAradAbAbu, harakumAra ke anya bhaktonAM ja 'mA' rahyAM nahotAM; aSTagrAma, vighAkUTa, bihAra ke uttara pradezanI sImA vaTAvIne emano AnaMda udadhi divyApI banI gayo hato, ane e sAgarane have nahotAM rahyAM sImA ke tIra; have to mAnA daivatvanuM prAkaTya jagajAhera thaI cUkayuM hatuM... aba to bAta phaila paDI, jANai saba koI! 4, bhaktajanonI vacce eka vAra siddhezvarImAM zrI vAsaMtInI pUjA hatI. zrI saptamInI saMdhyAe AMdhI ane vRSTi zarU thayAM. mA kIrtanamAM masta hatAM. paNa vAvAjhoDuM joIne mA bahAra nIkaLI paDyAM. te vakhate lAvaNya nAmanI eka chokarI mAne vaLagI paDI. mAne pakaDatAMnI sAthe ja e chokarI bhAvAvezamAM AvI kAdavamAM ALoTavA lAgI. enAM mAbApa vyagra thaI gayAM te joIne mAe kaMIka karI dIdhuM, jethI lAvaNya dhIre dhIre svastha thaI; paraMtu traNa divasa lagI teno Avo vihvaLa bhAva kAyama rahyo. sAdhAraNa rIte mA nAmamAtrano Ahara letAM. paraMtu koI vakhata ethI UlaTuM karI besatAM. eka strIe joyuM ke mA to khAtAM nathI eTale Agraha karIne khIrano bhoga Apyo. pachI to emane je je ApavAmAM AvyuM te te khAtAM ja gayAM, mAgIne khAdhuM. je

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18 zrI zrImA AnaMddamayI mA je vastu mAgI te AvatAM vAra lAge to e raDI UThatAM. emane mATe pharIthI rasoI karavI paDI. mA koIne ajITho prasAda ApatAM nahIM, paraMtu paraMparA mujaba patinI thALImAM jamI letAM. mA koIne caraNasparza karavA detAM nahIM. eka divasa mA bhAvAvezamAM badhAnA paganI caraNaraja levA Atura banyAM. koI taiyAra thayuM nahIM tyAre nAnA bALakanI jema emaNe raDavA mAMDyuM. e samaye patideve kahyuM: ''tuM tArA paganI ja caraNaraja le.'' ema karyAthI emano e bhAva zamI gayo. eka vAra e pANImAM kUdI paDyAM. ane koI paNa rIte bahAra AvatAM na hatAM. eve vakhate AsapAsanA loko mUMjhAI jatA, herAna thaI jatA. nisaraNI upara caDavAnuM thAya to acAnaka evo bhAva thAya ke zarIra AkAzamAM maLI gayuM che! caDatAM caDatAM ja e samAdhistha thaI jatAM. jagannAthapurInA samudramAM nAhatAM nAhatAM paNa evo bhAvAveza thaI Avyo hato. mA kahetAM: ''sAdhanAmAM jAtajAtanI avasthAo che. te badhI A zarIramAM Ave che.'' paraMtu je je avasthA AvatI te lAMbuM TakatI nahI ane pharI evI avasthA dekhAtI nahIM. sAdhanAnI avasthAono krama pUro thayo te pachI eka svAbhAvika pUrNabhAva vikasita thaI UThyo. vismRti to hatI ja nahIM. koInI pAsethI mAe dIkSA lIdhI hoya ema jANyuM nathI. graMtho vAMcyA hoya ke e sAMbhaLyA hoya ane emAMthI jJAna meLavyuM hoya evuM paNa nathI. emanI pAse je daivI saMpatti che te emanI sAthe ja AvelI che, koInI ApelI nathI tema yatnapUrvaka meLavelI paNa nathI. enI emaNe nathI icchA karI ke

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bhakatajanonI vacce 19 nathI mathAmaNa karI. e emane sahaja maLI che. emAM rUpa che ane rUpamAM bhaLeluM lAvaNya paNa che. emAM kaMThanuM mAdhurya che. emAM nikhAlasa vANI che. emAM aneka kaSTo svecchAthI sahana karavAnI titikSA che ane tAkAta che. emAM sau koI upara sneha DhoLavAnI tatparatA che. emAM aTapaTA praznone ramatAM ramatAM ukelI nAkhavAnuM jJAna che. emAM bhoLapaNa paNa che ane agAdha UMDANa paNa che. eka vAra mA bhaktajanonI vidAya laIne AzramamAMthI eka vanne bahAra nIkaLI paDyAM. e vakhate bhAvAvezamAM AkhuM stotra nIkaLyuM. pAchaLathI emaNe te utarAveluM paNa kharuM. eno bhAvArtha Avo hatoH ""tame jyoti svarUpa cho, pragaTa thAo. tamArAmAMthI sRSTino vistAra thaI rahyo che. bhavabhayahArI tame ja cho, pragaTa thAo. jemAM huM avasthAna karuM chuM te tame ja cho. amArA bhaktomAM paNa tame birAje cho. tame mane tamArAmAM AkarSI lo, tamArAM ja be rUpa cheH mumukSu ne mokSadAtA, huM ja mahAbhAva ne mahAmAyA. mArI bhakti te mokSano hetu che, je kAryakAraNAtmaka rudra che, temanI huM stuti karuM chuM.' mA kahetAM ke emanA dehamAMthI chUTI paDelI jyoti avakAzamAM phelAI jatI emaNe nIrakhI che. bhaktone e samajAvatAM ke tamArI sAdhaka avasthAmAM pratyakSa kamoMnI pachavADe ghaNAM parivartano parokSa rIte thatAM rahe che. jamInamAM vAvelA bIjane aMkuro phUTe te kyAM dekhAya che? koI vAra pathArImAMthI UThatAMveMta mA kahetAMH ""huM hamaNAM ja paNethI AvuM chuM. tyAM AvuM banyuM.'' pAchaLathI khabara maLatI ke emaNe kaheluM barobara hatuM. ema parokSa rIte koI vAra

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20 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA saMdezo mokalatAM. AvI rIte ja emaNe kaheluM ke, DhAkAmAM maMdiranI racanA karo. e pote to DhAkAthI 300 mAIla dUra hatAM. jema azarIrI AtmAo emanI samIpa AvatA ane emane mA joI zakatAM, tema kayA roganI kevI mUrti hoya che, te paNa e joI zakatAM. emanI avarajavara jotAM, paNa rokatAM nahIM. mA kahe: jyAre eka huM ja chuM, tyAre tyAga kono ane grahaNa konuM? e Ave ke jAya badhuM AnaMda ja che!'' kramazaH emanI sAdhanAe temane vaizvika paribaLo sAthenuM aikya bakyuM hatuM. have te ane vaizvAnara be pRthapha nahIM rahetAM mAtra eka ja sattAnuM AdhiMpatya zeSa rahyuM hatuM. upaniSadomAM IzvarIya sattAnAM varNano che. te tyAM che, ahIM paNa che; pUrva, pazcima, uttara, dakSiNa sarvatra che. ane nathI paNa. potAnI mahattAne zUnyavat karI nAkhavAnI sthiti ane chatAMya mahatuM tattvamAM birAjavAnI kSamatA; zUnya ane samaSTino addabhuta saMgama; eTale ja mA! sUrya Uge eTale ajavALuM thavAnuM ja. zrImAM game teTalAM cupacApa ekAMtamAM jaIne rahe topaNa temanAM darzana mATe moTI bhIDa jamA thaI ja jatI. zrImA pote ja kahetAM: ""madhanuM TIpuM paDe eTale mAkhIo Ave ja ne!'' zrImAnI sAdhanA ane siddhisopAno uparanI divya sthitinI suvAse deza-paradezamAMthI aneka bhaktone AkarSyA. sva. vaDA pradhAna zrI javAharalAla neharu, ane temanAM dharmapatnI zrImatI kamalA neharu, zrI saradAra vallabhabhAI paTela tathA rASTrapati sva. DaoN. rAjendraprasAda vagere vAraMvAra temanAM darzane AvatAM. zrI

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bhakatajanonI vacce jamanAlAla bajAjane paNa zrI gAMdhIjIe ja mA pAse mokalelA, ne pachI zrI bajAja to mAnA parama bhaktomAMnA eka banI, mAnI sAthe divasonA divaso pasAra karatA. zrImAe eka vAra I. sa. 1942nA phebruArImAM pU. gAMdhIjIne sevAgrAmamAM jaIne darzana ApyAM hatAM. sau pahelAM DhAkAmAM '29mAM ramaNAzrama zarU thayo, tyAra pachI aneka sthaLe Azramo baMdhAyA che. himAlayanAM zikharothI mAMDIne rAmezvarama sudhIno pradeza emanI caraNaraje pAvana thayo. azikSita kheDUtothI mAMDIne paradezanA elacIo tema ja uccocca padavIdhara sudhInA loko emanAM vacanAmRtathI punita banyAM. nAnuM-moTuM, kALuM-dhoLuM, hindu, musalamAna koI emane mana parAyuM na hatuM. koI sthaLa paNa emane mana ajANyuM na hatuM. jyAM jAya tyAM evI rIte ja varate ke jANe e sthaLathI teo cira-paricita na hoya! emano Agavo ja koI saMpradAya paNa nathI. teo sadeva kahetAM: ''huM jANIbUjhIne kAMI karatI ja nathI. jyAre je vakhate tamAre anukULa je kAMI hoya che te ja te vakhate mArAthI ApoApa karAI jAya che.' aniSTa rivAjo dharmanA nAme paNa mA calAvI letAM nahIM. emanAM nikaTatama ziSyA guru priyAdevInA pitAnA nAme dara varSe bali ApavAnI prathA hatI. te emaNe baMdha karAvelI. tema chatAM dhArmika prasaMgo samaye karavAmAM AvatAM vidhividhAno ane karmakAMDanA niyamo ane anuzAsana pALavAmAM ane paLAvavAmAM teo lezamAtreya bAMdhachoDa karatAM nahIM. koI koI vAra teo ajJAtavAsamAM paNa cAlyAM jatAM. teo

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22 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA bhAIjI ane bholAnAtha je prathama gADI maLe temAM caDI besavuM, ke gADImAMthI game tyAre UtarI paDavuM te temanI ajJAta vAsamAM javAnI rIta hatI. AvA ja eka ajJAta vAsamAM teoe deharAdUna pAse AvelA rAyapura gAmanA eka purANA zivamaMdiramAM AvI, nava-daza mAsa gALelA. I. sa. 1938mAM mA kumbha meLAmAM gayelAM. te ja arasAmAM kizanapura AzramamAM bholAnAthajIno deha paDyo. zrImAne emano laukika saMbaMdha to kyAre hato ke mAne du:kha thAya? paNa emano eka parama ziSya gayo. 'khuzIramA', AnaMdamA, zrImA AnaMdamayI, AnaMdI maiyAnA nAmathI have zrImAno prakAza ane prabhAva jagajAhera thaI gayo hato. saMdaiva saMtonA saMgamAM teo rahetAM. saMta mAtrane pitAjI kahIne saMbodhana karatAM. gaMbhIramAM gaMbhIra ke gahanamAM gahana vAtane rahasyamaya rIte paLamAtramAM khUba ja saraLatAthI samajAvI detAM. mA sadaiva kahetAM, 'A to Dhola che, jevuM bajAvazo evo tAla nIkaLaze.'' emaNe to darekanA jIvana mATe Ama kahyuM che, paraMtu emanI potAnI vAta paNa evI ja che. RgvedamAM IzvaranuM varNana karatAM RRSi kahe che ke, e virATa che, ene hajAra AMkho che ne hajAra hAtha che. mA paNa kaMIka evuM ja kahe che. emane maLavA Ave che te badhAM emanAM zarIro che, e hAtha te emanA hAtha che, emanAM momAM bIjA koLiyA bharAve tyAre te khAya; tyAre paNa te ema ja kahe ke mArA ja hAtha vaDe huM AroguM chuM. AvuM tAdAtmya mAne sahaja che. e saumya vANIthI ke jJAnathI nathI paraMtu, AtmAthI che. tethI bIjAnA bhAva e

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bhakatajanonI vacce 23 tarata samajI le che ane emanI vANI lokone saraLa rIte sparza che. jyAM jyAM manuSyo emanA prati hetabhAva vadhAre che tyAM mA darzana de che ne emanAM vidgo TALe che. emAM aMtarano bAdha naDato nathI. tyAre mAnI zakti zuM karI rahI che? e sau koIne kema sarakhI nathI jaNAtI? enA camakArA jaNAyA che to paNa enuM darzana koI koIne ja kema sulabha banyuM che? emanI AsapAsa jema satata AnaMdanI havA laherAya che ane pavitratAnuM teja patharAya che tema zaktino vyaya kema vyakta nathI thato? AvI zaMkAo te ApaNI maryAdA che. ApaNe ApaNI AMkhe e vyaya jovA mAgIe te nahIM bane. e teja ne e AnaMdano prasAda kvacit maLI jAya - aMtara sudhI pahoMcI jAya to ene sadbhAgya samajavuM. mAno guNa mAnI te badala kRtajJa thavuM. A dezamAM hajI paNa AvI vibhUtio AvatI ja rahe che tenuM gaurava karavuM. mIrAMe enA kRSNa mATe kahyuM: "meM to lIno tarAju tola.' paraMtu je trAjavAM mIrAM pAse hatAM evAM ApaNI pAse nathI. e pachI paNa tulanA karavAnI Teva rAkhavI te zA kAmanI? narasiMha mahetA kahe cheH ""mAdhavane vecavAne cAlI re govAlaNa!'' je mAlikI dharAvI zake te vecI paNa zake. temanuM eTaluM tAdAmyuM hatuM, ApaNuM che? mA te mA cheH ATalo bhAva rAkhIne emanI samIpe javuM ne emanAM caritranuM ciMtana karavuM temAM ja ApaNA saunA jIvananI sArthakatA! tethI ja to zrImAnA pUjya zrI svAmI cidAnaMdajI mahArAje zrImAnA janmadivase zrI rAmatIrtha Azrama, rAjapura

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24 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA khAte kaheluM ke, ''jemane zrImAnI kRpA varI che, temano to beDo pAra che ja! ane tenI pUrti karatAM kaheluM ke zrImA to karuNAmayI mA che, tenAM saghaLAM saMtAno prati eka ja sarakhI amISTa ane amIvRSTi karI rahI che! tene jhIlavAnI pAtratA ja ApaNe to keLavavAnI che.'' idaM te na AtapaskAya, na abhakUtAya kadAcana / mAne jovAM ane emanAM darzana karavAM e baMnemAM phera che. prIti haze to bhakti thaze. mA to bhaktajanonAM mA che, ane jemaNe eka vAra mA mAnyAM che te evuM ja mAnatA AvyA che, emane saMbhArIne pavitratAnA bhAvo dilamAM bharyA che, AnaMda mANyo che, ethI gadgada bhAve nAma lIdhuM che: 'AnaMdamayI mA!' 5. mahAprayANa sUraja Uge eTale pRthvIne ajavALe; madhyAhne prakhara pracaMDa tApathI prajALe paraMtu saMdhyAnA salUNA raMgonI vacce sUrajadAdA kSitijanA ovArAomAM DUbakI dAva rame tyAre aMdhAruM dhapa! paNa saMtonA jIvananuM evuM nathI. emano to jJAnasUryano pracaMDa prakAza jIvanasaMdhyAe vadhu ugra ane prabhAvazALI hoya che. zrI zrImAnuM nAma jema jema saMto, bhaktone haiye vasatuM gayuM tema tema deza, paradezanI daze dizAomAMthI ToLAMbaMdha loko zrImAne darzane AvavA lAgyAM. ane mA! eTale mA! teno to badhAM ja bALako pratye eka sarakho bhAva! chatAM je bALaka mAtA sudhI na pahocI zake, tyAM mA svayaM pahoMcI jAya. tema zrImAnI yAtrAo, pUrvamAM baMgALamAM kalakattA, dinAjapura, AsAmathI

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25 mahAprayANa AraMbhIne pazcimamAM, gujarAtamAM goMDaLa, bhAvanagara, porabaMdara sudhI ane tevuM ja upara zrInagara AlamoDAthI nIce eka madrAsa, beMglora, maisUra sudhI, satata cAlyA ja karatI. eka vAra zivAnaMda AzramanA eka saMta potAnA nirdiSTa kAryakrama anusAra satata bhramaNarata hatA tyAre pUrA agiyAra mahinA sudhI temanI ane zrI zrImAnI yAtrA samAMtara dizA ane gatimAM ja cAlI; tyAre zrImAnA aMgata sevaka svAmI bhAskarAnaMdajI mahArAje te svAmIjIne pUchyuM: "zrImAnA kAryakramo pramANe tame tamArA kAryakrama ghaDo cho ke tamArA kAryakrama mujaba zrImAM potAnA kAryakramo nakkI kare che?" te saMte, svAmI bhAskarAnaMdajIne kahyuM ke, "ApaNe zrImAne ja pUchIe.'' ane mA paNa bALasahaja sulabhatAthI bolI UThyAM, bAbA! donoM kA progrAma eka hI banAtA hai!'' satata IzvarIya anusaMdhAna ane sAtatyanI parAkASThA ane sAdhanAnI ucca kakSAnI sthitinuM A javalaMta udAharaNa che. kAma nAnuM hoya ke moTuM adhyAtmanuM hoya ke jagata vyavahAranuM; paraMtu A badhA vacce sthiti eka ja! zrImA eTalA mATe ja kahetAM keH ""yAtrAe jazo tyAre gADI rokAze, cAlaze, taDako chAMyo lAgaze, paNa kyAM sudhI jyAM sudhI nirdiSTa sthAne pahoMcyA nathI tyAM sudhI! mATe cAlatA jAo! cAlyA karo to - avazya pahoMcI jazo; ane eka vAra pahoMcI gayA pachI AvAgamana nahIM!'' emane mana eka ja satya hatuM, ""anaMta brahma!'' tethI ja to bhAvavibhora thaIne teo cheka chellA divaso sudhI A ja kIrtana

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26 karatAM: zrI zrImA AnaMHmayI mA satyaM jJAnaM anaMta ekameva advitIya brahma | brahma || brahma | satyaM brahma, anaMta AnaMda brahma, pUrNa brahma / / ane paramatattvanA sAkSAtkAra pachI jagatanA mithyAtvamAM temaNa sampUrNata: nirasatA dAkhavelI. chatAM janasAdhAraNamAM nArAyaNadarzana karatAM, strIkeLavaNI, ane sevA-zuzruSA arthe davAkhAnAM, haoNspiTalonA nirmANa saMbaMdhI temaNe jAgarUkatA sevI ja hatI. tema chatAM AvI sevAparAyaNatA dAkhavatA sevako paNa potAnI sAdhanAmAM DhIla na kare, te bAbate paNa temaNe kadIye AMkha ADA kAna nahotA karyA. temanA janmadivasanA daza divasa pUrve temanA bhakto zrImad bhAgavata saptAha, zrI rAmacaritamAnasanA pATha, pArAyaNa Adi karatA, to zrImA paNa zrIviSNusahasranAmanA 1008 pATha ke zrI hanumAna-cALIsAnA 24 kalAka sudhI akhaMDa pATha karavAno Adeza ApatAM. vAraMvAra atirudra yajJa, ane ekAdaza rudra yajJa tathA tenI sAthosAtha ja mahAtmAonA bhaMDArA, dakSiNA ane daridranArAyaNa sevAnAM Ayojana paNa karatAM. koI paNa mahAtmAnuM Agamana thAya tyAre sanmAnapUrvaka temane Asana, puSpamALA, phaLa vagerethI temanuM sanmAna karavAnI temanI prathA, eka paramAtmAnI dayALutA ke udAratA athavA eka 'mA' zabdanI sArthakatA ja darzAvatI tema kahIe to lezamAtra asthAne nahIM gaNAya.

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mahAprayANa prativarSa temanA dvArA Ayojita saMyama saptAho dvArA sAdhakonA jIvanamAM sAdagI, bhojana vyavahAramAM saMyama, AcAra-vicAramAM saMyama, tapasyAno bhAva rahe ane te daramiyAna saMtonAM pravacanono eka mahAna jJAnayajJa, bhAratabharanA vividha pradezomAM Ayojana karatAM. dara varSe temano janmadivasa alaga alaga jagyAe temanA bhakto ke saMto potAne tyAM bolAvIne UjavatA. I. sa. 1982no temano 87mo janmadivasa me mahinAnI bIjI tArIkhathI 11 tArIkha sudhI kanakhala AzramamAM UjavAyelo. te pUrve phebruArImAM aneka bhaktonA atizaya Agrahane vaza thaI temaNe cheka gujarAtamAMthI AsAma sudhInI thAkajanaka yAtrA kheDelI. A pravAsamAMthI mArcanA madhyamAM teo kanakhala AvyAM tyAre taddana naMkhAI gayAM hatAM. zrI zrImAnuM Arogya muddala sAruM nathI, evuM to chellAM traNacAra varSathI saMbhaLAtuM, paraMtu jyAre jyAre saMto temanAM darzane jatA tyAre mA UThIne besatAM ane atyaMta AdarapUrvaka saMtonuM darzana karatAM tathA temanAM amRtamaya vacano sAMbhaLatAM. paraMtu '82nA varSe to kuMbha samaye prayAgarAjamAM hatAM, pAlakhImAM besIne saMgama sudhI gayelAM, paraMtu mAtra saMgama tIrthanAM darzana karIne ja zrI zrImAM pAchAM pharelAM. paraMtu tethIye vizeSa AsAmathI kanakhala Azrama pAchAM pharyA pachI to jANe saghaLI maryAdA chUTI gaI. teo jANe lAcAra banI gayAM hoya tevo anubhava karatAM. zarIra kAma ApatuM na hatuM. chatAM savAra-sAMja agaNita bhakto temanA nivAsasthAnanI jALImAMthI temanAM

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28 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA beThelAM ke sUtelI sthitimAM darzana karatAM. have A zarIra rahevAnuM nathI, tema Adeza ApatAM hoya tema temano '82nA varSano janmotsava prativarSanI jema khUba ja dhAmadhUmathI UjavAyo, tyAre mahAtmAonAM pravacano, bhAgavata kathA vagere thayAM paraMtu zrI zrImAM pravacana sabhAkhaMDamAM eka paNa divasa padhArI na zakyAM. sarve bhaktone mana AzA hatI ke temanA janmadivasa nimitte rAtre traNa vAgye je pUjA mAtAjI grahaNa kare che te mATe to teo zrI zaMkarAcArya maMdira ane sabhAmaMDaLamAM padhAraze ja paraMtu bhaktonI A AzA phaLI nahIM. kAtila ThaMDI ane varasatA varasAda vacce aneka rAjyonA gavarnaro, aneka jUnAM jjavADAMnAM rAjA-rANIo, deza-videzathI AvelA anekAneka rAjadUto ane vepArIo paNa aMte to sau eka ja mAtAnA bhakto hatA ne! sau bhakto eka ja khullA AkAza nIce, palaLatA UbhA rahyA. zrImAnA pUjAkakSamAM zrImad svAmI cidAnaMdajI mahArAja, zivAnaMda AzramanA anya traNa mahAtmAo ane zrI dakSezvara maMdiranA mahaMta tathA nivaNI akhADAnA mahaMtazrIne ja mAtra praveza ApavAmAM Avyo. * bhaktonI bhaktinI A AkarI parIkSA hatI. mAnI anupasthitimAM Izvaracitana nahIM choDavA mATe zrImA dvArA apAtI tAlImanuM A maMgaLAcaraNa hatuM. me mahino UtaratAM zRMgerImaThanA zrI zaMkarAcAryajI mahArAja, uttarakAzInA mArge zrI zrImAnA AzramamAM padhArela. temanA sanmAnamAM eka vizeSa utsavanuM Ayojana zrImAnA AzramamAM thayuM hatuM, ane zrI zrImA te samagra utsavamAM upasthita rahyAM

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mahAprayANa hatAM. A Ayojana mukhya sabhAkhaMDamAM ja thayuM hatuM. bhaktoe zrI zaMkarAcAryajIne vinaMtI karI hatI ke "mA" tabIbI sAravAra letAM nathI; auSadha grahaNa karavAnI paNa nA pADe che, svAthya paNa kathaLatuM jAya che, to sau vatI ApazrI pUjya mAtAjIne vinaMtI kare; prArthanA kare. ane zrI zaMkarAcAryajIe mAne A saMbaMdhI prArthanA karI paNa kharI... javAba maLyo. "aba isa zarIrakA lenadena chUTa gayA hai.. basa aba to avyakta ke sAtha khIMcAtAnI cala rahI hai...!'' ATalo Adeza bhaktone mAtAjInA lIlA saMvara karavA mATe pUrato hato. sau sAbadAM thaI gayAM ane mAtAjInI anumatithI temane kizanapura(daherAdUna)nA AzramamAM vadhu ekAMta mATe laI gayAM. tyAM zrImAnuM darzana aThavADiye eka vAra mAtra ravivAre ja sAdhAraNa janasamAjane karAvavAmAM AvatuM. vaDA pradhAna IndirAjI vAraMvAra zrImA pAse AvatAM; A divaso daramiyAna rASTrapramukha zrI lasiMga paNa mAnAM darzane AvI gayA. paraMtu mAtA jANe sarva baMdhanothI svayaM mukta hatI. tema potAnAM bALakone paNa mAyA choDAvatAM jatAM hatAM. zrImAnAM mAtuzrIe paNa pAchalI avasthAmAM saMnyAsa lIdho hato, ane zrI svAmI muktAnaMdagIrIjI nAmathI prasiddha thayelAM. bhoLAnAthajI to saMnyAsI jIvana ja jIvyA hatA. mAtAjIe pote to saMdeva zveta vastro dhAraNa karyo, paNa gaMgAjaLa samANuM temanuM jIvana pavitra rahyuM. temAM temanI mAyA jemanAthI sauthI vadhu hatI te guru priyAdIdIe paNa A divaso daramiyAna ja samAdhi laIne deha

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30 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mAM choDyo. ane have teo jyAre mahAprayANa arthe taiyArI karI rahyAM hatAM tyAre dharma, artha, kAma, mokSa, kSamA temanA cAra saMgI sAthI rahyA. mahAtmAo ke jeo aneka varSothI zrI zrImAnI nizrAmAM sAdhana nirata hatA teo, zrI svAmI bhAskarAnaMdajI mahArAja, svAmI nirvANAnaMdajI mahArAja vagerene zrImAe kailAsayAtrAe mokalI ApyA. jema jema bhaktone mAnI gaMbhIra ruNatAnA samAcAra prApta thatA gayA tema tema dUra dUrathI loko temanAM darzane AvatA gayA. zrI zrImAe aneka varSothI anna grahaNa karavAnuM to tyAgeluM ja hatuM, ane aMtima divasomAM dUdha ane phaLanA rasano paNa tyAga karyo hato, paraMtu chellA thoDA divaso to gaMgAjaLano paNa tyAga karyo hato. chatAM ra3mI oNgasTa 1984ne ravivAre, dara aDavADiye jema sAdhAraNa janasamAjane mAnuM darzana karAvavAmAM AvatuM tema karAvavAmAM AveluM. e aThavADiyAmAM zrImAe cAra pAMca vizeSa mulAkAtIone darzana ApyAM hatAM, ane temanI sAthe satsaMga paNa karyo hato. oNgasTanI 27mI tArIkhe, guruvAre RSipaMcamI hatI; ane ramIe rAdhA aSTamI. A suMdara suyoga jANIne zivAnaMda AzramanA mahAsaciva zrImad svAmI kRSNAnaMdajI mahArAja ane temanI sAthe AzramanA viziSTa pUjAonA tAMtrika pUjaka zrI svAmI pamukhAnaMdajI mahArAja 27mI oNgasTanI sAMje kizanapura AzramamAM zrImAnAM darzane padhAryA. zrImAnAM darzane AvatI vakhate mAtAjIne janmadivasa samaye athavA to durgApUjana samaye jevI pUjA arpaNa karavAmAM Ave che tevI

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31 mahAprayANa sAmagrI paNa teo sAthe lAvelA. zrI svAmI kRSNAnaMdajI mahArAje e puNya saMdhikALa, saMdhyA samaye zrI zrImAne jagadaMbAne arpaNa karavAmAM Ave tevI banArasI rezamanI sADI oDhADI, suMdara gulAba puSponI mALA paherAvI. kapALamAM kumakuma tilakanI arcanA karI. phaLaphUla, miSTAnnanuM naivedya arpaNa karIne, navadIpaka jyoti zikhAnI AratI zaMkha, ghaMTArava nAda sAthe utArI. tyAra bAda zrI mAtAjInI pradakSiNA karIne pUjya svAmIjIe khUba ja dIna bhAve mAtAjIne pUchyuM: ""mAtAjI! kahiye. ApakI kyA sevA kara sakate hai?'' zrImAe kahyuM, ''abhI jo dila bole'' ane svAmIjI pAMca miniTa sudhI mauna dhAraNa karIne aMtarmukha thayA. pachI dhIrethI AMkho kholIne bolyAH ""mAtAjI! abhI dila hI kahetA hai ki jagata kI zAMti aura kalyANa ke liye paramAtmA ke divya svarUpa kA dhyAna, aura prArthanA karanA cAhiye!'' pharIthI mAtAjIe kahyuM: ""ThIka hai! vahI karo!'' tarata ja svAmIjIe potAnA manamAM phurelo suMdara bhAva rajU karyo: ''mAtAjI? Apake zubhanAma ke saMkalpa se kala prAtaH kAla se zivAnaMda Azrama meM zrImad bhAgavata saptAha karege. pUrNAhuti para daridranArAyaNa sevA, sAdhu bhojana kareMge!'' ane pharIthI mAtAjInA zrImukhethI amRta varSA samAna be mautika niHsRta thayAM: "nArAyaNa hari OM namaH zivAya' '' oNgasTanI 28mI tArIkhe zukravAre zivAnaMda AzramamAM rAtre

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32 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA bhikSA ane prArthanA bAda AkAzavANI prasAraNamAM teoe saMvAdadAtAnA samAcAramAM sAMbhaLyuM ke, ""aneka bhaktonI adbhuta mAtA, ke jeNe samagra jIvana eka Azcarya ane rahasyamaya jIvana jIvyuM che, te zrI AnaMdamayImAnuM kizanapura Azrama (daherAdUna) khAte rAtre ATha ne daza miniTe nidhana thayuM che. temanA pArthiva zarIrane bIjA divasa savAra sudhI sAdhAraNa janasamAjanAM darzana mATe khulluM rAkhavAmAM Avaze; tyAre temanA kanakhala Azrame laI javAmAM Avaze, ane ravivAre 30mI oNgasTe bapore kanakhala AzramamAM temane sthaLa-samAdhi ApavAmAM Avaze; bhAratanAM vaDA pradhAna zrImatI indirA gAMdhI paNa aMtyeSTi kriyAmAM hAjara raheze. jaMgalamAM lAgelI tophAnI AganI jema jotajotAmAM A samAcAra samagra vizvamAM prasarI gayA. AkAzavANI ane rASTrIya prasAraNanA dUradarzana kAryakramomAM paNa tenuM puna: prasAraNa thatAM dezabharamAMthI hajAro mANaso zrImAnA pArthiva zarIranAM darzane. kanakhala UmaTI paDyAM, zoka saMdezAonA paNa DhagalA thayA. dezavidezanA adhyAtma pathikone mana eka ja vAta hatI ke adhyAtma vizvanuM paribaLa bhAMgI paDyuM che. svAmI cidAnaMdajI mahArAje paradezanA pravAsamAMthI tAra karelo ke ""vizvanA adhyAtma jagatano AdhArastaMbha tUTI paDyo che, A khoTa kadIye pUrI zakAze nahIM!'' mahAna gAyikA zrImatI ema. esa. subyulamIe tAra karyoH ""mA! mAmA !''

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mAtRsatsaMga 33 temanA pArthiva dehanAM darzananI vyavasthA sarakAre saMbhALI hatI, ke jethI vyavasthita rIte vadhu loko temanAM darzana karI zake. ravivAre 30mI oNgasTe bapore doDha vAgye temanA pArthiva dehane kanakhala AzramanA prAMgaNamAM sthaLasamAdhi ApavAmAM AvI. 6. "mAtasatsaMga prazna : mAtAjI! bhagavAnanuM svarUpa kevuM hoya che? mA : je jevuM cAhe che tevuM. basa, barAbara, tevuM ja svarUpa che. je je jevuM Icche che tevuM ja te pAme che. arUpa paNa te che, rUpamAM paNa te che. je jevA lakSyathI bhaje che, tevA ja lakSamAM ene te maLe che. prazna : mA, Atmadarzana eTale zuM? mA : rUpamAM ane arUpamAM jema barapha ane pANI tema AtmatattvanuM ja sAkAra ke nirAkAra evuM rUpa che. eka 'AtmA' ja che, bIjuM zuM che? prazna : Atmadarzana kaI rIte thAya? mA : potapotAnA guru batAve te rIte. prazna : guru kone banAvavo? mA : guru to guru ja che, jene je guru maLavAno hoya te ja maLe che. guru to "e ja che, basa e ja che. guruneya adhikAra to hoya ne? jagadguru e ja guru banI zake che. je jagata eTale ke gatimAMthI, eTale ke duniyAnAM sukhadu:khamAMthI ApaNane uThAvI zake te ja guru, svayaM 'te' ja che e mATe ja kahyuM che ke gurune manuSya

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34 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA tarIke jovo te pApa che. zivamAM paththara buddhi rAkhavI te ThIka nathI. gurune bhagavAna svarUpe jovo e ja uttama che. prazna : gurunI AvazyakatA kharI? mA : guru bina jJAna nahIM, binA jJAna bhagavAna nahIM, binA jJAna zAMti nahIM, binA jJAna AnaMda nahIM, guru hI guru! jIvanamAM AvazyakatA! nArAyaNa! prazna : sAdhana mArge barAbara pragati thAya che ke nahIM te kaI rIte jANavuM? mA : jema bhojanathI peTa bharAya che, tema ja. e ja rIte tame vicAro. tamArAmAMthI vAsanA, kAmanA keTalI ghaTI? zarIranA bhogavilAsanI vRtti keTalI ochI thaI? enA tarapha mana keTaluMka vaLyuM? mana kyAM jAya che? zuM cAle che? e badhuM vicAro, ne khabara paDaze ke tame keTalA AgaLa vadhyA cho ke keTalA pAchaLa paDyA cho. prazna : maMda sAdhanAthI tIvra sAdhanAmAM AvavAnI IcchA che. ane jo AkAMkSA ja che to badhuM ja choDavAthI e maLaze ke saMsAramAM rahyA chatAM paNa e maLaze? mA : je gharamAM Aga ja lAge che e gharamAM to rahevAnuM ja nathI. thoDI Aga lAge to dhIre dhIre sAmAna kaDhAya che. jaladI Aga lAge to sAmAna levAnuMya bhAna rAkhyA vinA mANasa jAte ja bahAra kUdI paDe che. e mATe ja kahyuM che ne ke potAnI jAtane jANavI. AtmAne ja meLavavo. AtmAne meLavavAthI badhuM ja meLavI zakAya che. thoDAMnI IcchAthI thoDuMka ja maLaze, ne thoDAMthI to kAMI vaLatuM ja nathI. thoDA mAlanI saMbhALa mATe

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mAtRsatsaMga 35 thoDI vAsanA rAkhavI paDe che ne? je potAne ja jANI le, te juo! badhuM meLavI le che. kema pitAjI kharuM ne! prazna : mA! kRpA to jarUra thavI joIe ne! mA : bhagavAnanI kRpA to sadA che ja. e to varasAdanI mAphaka varace ja jAya che. je thoDAnI IcchA rAkhe che, ene thoDI maLe che. judAM judAM binduo cAhe ene alaga alaga binduo maLe. cAhanA-vAsanA rAkhavI eTale 'riTarna TikiTa' (AvAgamanano paravAno) kaDhAvI rAkhavI. jeTalA manuSyadeho che eTalA bhAgadeho che. keTaluM suMdara! bhagavAnanA rAjyamAM jeTaluM cAho eTaluM maLe! vAsanAnA rAjyamAM AvuM ja bane ne? eka vAsanA hoya che zuddha, bIjI hoya che azuddha. badhIye vAsanAnuM lakSya to hoya che AnaMda. pahelI jAtanI vAsanA(bhogavAsanA)thI janmelA AnaMdamAM paNa bhaya vagere maLe che. vaLI e AnaMda kSaNika che, jyAre bIjI jAtano vAsanAjanya AnaMda to paramAnaMda che. sAMsArika prApti vagerethI (paisAthI) bhaya prApta thAya che. cora vagereno bhaya rahe che. abhaya mAtra bhagavAnamAM ja che. prazna: ame loko samajatA hovA chatAM paNa kema UMdhe raste jaIe chIe? mA : je Aga che ema kharekhara jANo to enI pAse nahIM jAo. vicAro jANyA pachI amalamAM na mUkIe to teno kAMI artha nathI. sAdhanamAM cAlatAM cAlatAM graMthibheda thAya che, eno sAkSAtkAra thAya che. jevI rIte Aga pratyakSa lAge che. bahu khAI lIdhA pachI pAchaLathI apaco thAya che. khyAla rAkhavo joIe ke

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36 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA evuM karyA pachI pastAvo karavA vakhata na Ave. jene pratyakSa jJAna che e to Ama UlaTuM nahIM ja kare. pratyakSa jJAna thayuM nathI hotuM eTale ja Ama viparIta lAge che. enAthI mANasa Darato hoya che. sAdhanAmAM AgaLa ne AgaLa dhapavAthI to bhoga ane tyAga dosto banI jAya che. have brahma dvitIyonAgati. eka e ja che. bIjuM to kazuM che ja nahIM. duniyA che mATe dvidhAbhAva che. kharuM to eka ja che. eka ja che chatAM bhinna bhinna upAsako bhinna bhinna rUpe pUje che. jevI rIte zakti upAsako ene "mA' rUpe pUje che. basa tanmayatA joIe... eka vAta sAMbhaLo. eka sAdhaka. mA...mA karato hase ane ahIMtahIM bhaTake... eka patipatnI tyAMthI nIkaLatAM A to hasato rahyo; patine teno vartAva sAro na lAgyo, eTale teNe tene mAra mAryo, lohIluhANa karI teo tene raste paDyA. thoDI vAre tyAMthI eka bhakta nIkaLyo; teNe sAdhakane oLakhyo. pUchyuM ke zuM thayuM? sAdhake kahyuM, "mane mArI mAe mAya' pAchaLathI pati patnIe A vAta jANI tyAre temane pastAvo paNa thayelo. e mATe kahyuM che jyAM jIva tyAM ziva. jyAM nArI tyAM gaurI. tasvarUpa samajIne jANavuM joIe ke te te ja che, te ja che. bhagavAna pote ja bhaktarUpe, pUrNarUpe, AtmarUpe, aMzarUpe khele che. badho khela e ja khele che. prazna : je sAco rasto hoya te Apa batAvI zakazo? mA : badhAmAM tabuddhi rAkho. prema rAkho. badhAMnI tabuddhithI sevA karo. bALakonI bALagopALa rUpathI, strInI devInA bhAvathI sevA karavI te uttama che. sAroya saMsAra prabhuno

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"mAtRsatsaMga ja sarjelo che. eno ja che. barAbara che ne? jyAre kharo samaya Avaze tyAre to koI pUchazeya nahIM, kharI "maeNnejarI' enI ja che ne? badhuM enuM ja che ne? huMya enI ja chuM ne? je karAve che te ja karuM chuM. enuM dhyAna dharavAthI te ApaNane mArga dekhADato ja rahe che, ApaNuM kAma karato ja rahe che. prazna : koI gRhastha potAnA kuTuMbano baMdobasta karyA vinA saMnyasta laI zake che? mA : pote AcaraNa karIne ja dharma batAvavo joIe. caitanya mahAprabhue mAtA-pitA, yuvAna strI, badhAMne choDIne bharayuvAnIe saMnyasta lIdhuM hatuM. khyAla rAkhavo joIe ke mArA jIvananuM mahA kartavya prabhuprApti che. e mATe koInA paNa manamAM je e jAtano prakAza thaI jAya, ne saMnyasta laI le to ene mATe koI pApa nathI. pApane manamAM lAvavuM te ja pApa che. saMnyAsIne koI potAnuM nathI. koI parAyuM nathI. koInA mRtyunuM sUtaka paNa lAgatuM nathI. saMnyAsI bhagavA pahere che kAraNa, eNe pahelethI ja sAMsArika vAsanAo jalAvI dIdhI che. bhagavo raMga e to agninuM pratIka che. prazna : zAstramAM to ema lakhyuM che ke gharabAranI vyavasthA karyA vagara saMnyasta levuM te pApa che. ' mA : zAstramAM paNa kahyuM che ne ke jyAre tIvra vairAgya thAya che tyAre badhuM choDI devAya che. ane huM kahuM chuM ne ke kazuM pApa nathI lAgatuM. prazna: mA! lakSa japa karavAthI bhagavAna maLe? mA : guru pAse eka ziSya gayo ne pUchyuM, "gurujI! prabhu kevI rIte maLaze?' guru kahe, "eka lAkha japa karo." ziSya to japa

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38 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA zarU karyA. AMkho baMdha karIne dhyAna Adare. jarAka khakhaDATa thAya ke ene lAge ke bhagavAna AvyA! e rIte dhyAnamAM beThelo, ne eka vAra garoLI AvI. kaMIka khakhaDATa thayo. sAdhakane lAgyuM ke bhagavAna AvyA! bhagavAna pAchA nAsI jAya e pahelAM ene joI lauM ema dhArIne eNe to ekadama AMkho ughADI. e rIte dhyAna daramyAna eNe keTalIye vAra dhyAnabhaMga karyo. prabhu to kAMI maLyA nahIM. e te guru pAse Avyo ane kahyuM, "gurujI, lakSa japa to karyA paNa bhagavAna to na maLyA.'' guru kahe, "kevI rIte maLe? ekalakSathI karavA joIe." gurunI vAta khoTI hoya? A zarIra to kahe che ke ekaniSTha thaIne japa karo. akhaMDabhAvathI japa karo. dhyAna karo to zuM azakya che? paNa karavuM joIe. Akhare to karavAno ja savAla che. mazIna ghasAtAM ghasAtAM Aga utpanna thaze. Aga eTale jyoti. jyoti svarUpa to bhagavAna ja che. juone kevo che bhagavAna. A bALakIne pakaDI pakaDIne A badhI vAto karAve che. huM to kahuM chuM A to sneha che. prazna : mA! ApanI vANI to upaniSada che! mA : A to ghaMTa che. jevo vagADe tevo vAge. vagADanAra joIe. huM to kAMI jANatI nathI. je jevI rIte vagADaze evo avAja e sAMbhaLaze. prazna : mA A badhuM to sAMbhaLyuM, paNa ahIMthI UThIne jaIzuM eTale badhuMya cAlyuM jaze. vIsarAI paNa jaze. mA : e mATe ja kahuM chuM ne ke aMdara-bahArathI eka thaI jAo. jabarajastIthI davA khAvI joIe, IMjekSanathI ja

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1 . "mAtRsatsaMga ArAma thaze. prazna : paNa mA! jabarajastIthI ApanAra koI nathI mA : (khaDakhaDATa hasIne) eka vAta yAda AvI. kahuM. eka zeTha hatA. khUba paisAdAra. ene dvAre eka jogI AvI caDhyo. ene joI zeThe nokarane kahyuM, "are maganiyA, kADha Ane. nAkha eka paiso, eTale raste paDe.'' jogI kahe, ""zeTha! paisAbesA to kucha nahIM cAhatA huM. basa! eka daphe rAdhegoviMda bolo.' zeTha kahe, ''are, bhAga jAva yahAMse.'' jogIne to bhAI bhagADI dIdho. jogIe paNa manamAM vicAra karI lIdho ke zeThane zikSaNa to ApavuM ja joIe. sAMje zeTha pharavA gayA. barAbara e moko meLavIne zeThanuM rUpa laIne zeThanA gharamAM AvyA. patnI kahe, 'kema, Aja vahelA?' zeTha kahe, "are! are! Aja to gAmamAM eka bahurUpI Avyo che. te jenuM tenuM rUpa laIne jenA tenA gharamAM pesI jAya che ne lUMTaphATa kare che. mane Dara lAgyo tethI jevI vAta sAMbhaLI ke tarata ja pAcho Avato rahyo.' thoDI vAra thaI tyAM to pelA lAlajI pharIne AvyA. patnIe emane joyA ne bUma pADI, ""are! koI che ke? doDajo. bahurUpI Avyo. kADho bahAra, mAro.' daravAna doDI Avyo, nokaro AvyA, putro AvyA. badhAMe bhegAM thaIne lAlajIne to sArI peThe sAlamapAka jamADyo. bicArAne adhamUA karIne hAMkI kADhyA. e to evI ja lohIluhANa dazAmAM gayA polIsa thANe. jamAdArane jaIne badhI vAta karI. mArA gharamAM mAruM rUpa laIne koI harAmakhora pesI gayo che, ne nIkaLato nathI. jamAnadAre lAlajIne ghera jaIne tapAsa karI, to barAbara evo ja bIjo

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40 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA zeTha joyo! sAcuM koNa? eNe to mAMDI phariyAda. korTamAM kesa cAlyo. be vyaktio sAmasAmI pAMjarAmAM UbhI rahI. jaja paNa vicAramAM paDyo ke sAcuM koNa? parIkSA kevI rIte karavI? Akhare vicAra karIne lAlAne pUchyuM, ""bolo, tamArA pahelA dIkarAnuM lagna kyAre thayeluM? emAM keTaluM kharca thayeluM?'' lAlajI thotharAtAM thotharAtAM bolyA, ""sAheba, mane to kazI khabara nathI. munIma badhuM jANe che' pachI bahurUpIno vAro Avyo. e kahe, "sAheba, phalANI alamArInA phalANA khAnAmAM upara ja eka copaDo paDyo che, enA amuka pAnA upara eno hisAba che. lagnamAM kula kharca vIsa hajAra rUpiyA, ATalA AnA, ATalI pAI thayeluM." bahurUpIjI to sAcA TharyA, ne lAlajIne kADhI mUkyA! bicArAne Azaroya koNa Ape? bhUkhyAtarasyA nadIkAMThe paDyA rahIne divaso gujAravA lAgyA. Akhare eka divasa sAMje pelo jogI emanI pAse gayo. jaIne kahe, ''kemAM zeThA aba to rAdhegoviMda bologe nA!'' zeTha ekadama jogIne oLakhI gayA, page paDyA, mAphI mAgI. jogI kahe, "jAo, tame tamArA ghera pAchA jAo. A mAra paDyo che enA ghA thoDA divasa chupAvajo. nahIM to ghera pAchA oLakhAI jazo to herAna thavuM paDaze." zeThanI AMkho khUlI gaI! ghera jaI milakatanI yathAyogya vyavasthA karI prabhumaya jIvana tarapha vaLyA. bhagavAnanI be prakAranI kRpA hoya che. eka che nigraha kRpA, bIjI che anugraha kRpA. nigraha kRpA eTale DaMDA mArI kRpA karavI te. koI koI vAra anugraha kRpA kare che. nigraha kRpA eTale kaDavI davA. anugraha kRpA eTale mITho sIrapa pIvaDAve te.

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mAtRvANI prazna : saMzaya zA mATe rahe che? mA : saMgathI saMzaya jAge che. tame je avasthAmAM raho cho emAMthI saMzaya jAge che. AganI pAse raho ne garamI na lAge evuM bane? koI koI kAma karavAthI paNa saMzaya vadhe che. koI koI kAmathI ghaTe che. ''basa, harikathA hI kathA; aura saba vyathA hI vyathA!!'' harine meLavavAthI ja saMzaya maTe che. 7. mAtavANI bhaktizraddhAthI nAmajapa kare to hRdaya drave. mATe niyamAnusAra japa vagere karatAM raho. vakhatasara bhojana levAmAM Ave che tema prArthanA paNa niyamita thavI joIe ane haratAMpharatAM jema phaLa, sopArI, cavANuM, laviMga vagere khAtA raho cho tema IzvaranuM nAma letA rahevuM. manuSya koI vastu ke vyakti tarapha kheMcAya che tyAre ene potAnuM kaMI choDavuM paDe che. niyama A che - jeTaluM choDazo eTaluM meLavazo. kazAno tyAga karyA vinA badhuM meLavavuM hoya to te kadI nahIM bane. IzvarabhAvamAM prANa - mana jeTaluM coMTaze teTalA pramANamAM vAsanAono kSaya thato jaze. jate divase mana IzvarabhAvamAM lIna thaI jaze.

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42 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA ''bhagavAnane maLavuM che?'' ema to ghaNA mANaso hA bhaNe paraMtu mana ane prANathI eka enI ja jhaMkhanA karo to e jarUra maLaze. e abhilASA kevI hoya che? nAva DUbavA mAMDe tyAre aMdara beThelA mANaso kinAre pahoMcavA kevA talase che! saMtAna khovAI gayuM hoya ane ene pAchuM meLavavA mA kevI Atura hoya! evA bhAvathI tame bhagavAnane maLavA jAo to e jarUra maLaze. jojo, amaMgaLanuM sarjana tame jAte ja karazo nahIM! azubha vicArone manamAM Azraya Apazo nahIM. nahIM to enI ja zRMkhalAo tamane bAMdhI leze. yAda rAkho, zuddha bhAva haze to sAdhanA sahelI thaze, eTale pahelAM jAtane taiyAra karo. pote suMdara thaIne cirasuMdarane bolAvo ane suMdara hRdayAsana upara emanI pratiSThA karo. pachI badhuM ja suMdara lAgaze. * kIrtana vakhate mRdaMganA tAle ghaNA loko gAya che, nAce che chatAM emane vAghanI khabara rahetI nathI. A jagatanA mRdaMgane vagADanAro eka ja jaNa che. paraMtu enuM bhAna keTalAne rahe che! eNe dIdhelA AnaMdamAM divaso ane varSo vItI jAya che, paraMtu ene oLakhavA koNa cAhe che! * jeNe himAlaya joyo nathI te mAnaze ke himAlaya eka parvata che. paraMtu enI samIpa jaIne joze to seMkaDo pahADo, lAkhonAM

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43 mAtRvANI lAkho vRkSo, nadIo, jharaNAM, jIvajaMtuo vagere laIne keTalAye mAIlomAM himAlaya vyApyo che. sAdhanAnA rAjyamAM paNa AvuM che. je najIka jaIne aMdara praveza karaze te samajI jaze ke eka ja che te bahurUpa dekhAya che ane je bahurUpe dekhAya che temAM raheluM tattva eka ja che. ekamAMthI badhAMno avirbhAva thayo che ane badhuM ekamAM ja laya pAmaze. evI ekanI pUrNatA che! A eka ja sarva che ane sarva te eka che. emAM dhyAna kendrita karo. tame zarIrane halakuM rAkho to mana paNa halakuM raheze. AvaraNa ke AbharaNa vadhArazo to tene choDatI vakhate duHkha lAgaze. jevI rIte ghaDiyALane roja cAvI ApavI jarUrI che, tevI rIte bhagavadbhAvanI cAvI pheravatA rahevAthI cittazuddhimAM sahAya kare che. bIjAnA doSo na joyA karo. AthI AMkha ane mana baMne malina bane che, pApano boja vadhe che. aMdarabahAra tamArA bhAva saraLa haze, to mana praphulla raheze ane vicAra ke buddhi zuddha thaze. pachI badhe ja sAruM dekhAze, koI jagyAe kharAba dekhI zakazo nahIM. pUrNa to eka bhagavAna che. bIjAnA guNo dekhatAM dekhatAM te badhA tamArAmAM AvI jaze.

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44 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA bIjAnA guNa grahaNa karavAthI je tRpti maLe che, teTalI tRpti potAnA guNo joIne maLatI nathI. emAMthI to ahaMkAranI vRddhi thAya che ane emAMthI ja bIjAnA doSo ane durbaLatA upara daSTi jAya che. potAnI AMkhanI kIkImAM potAnI chAyA dekhI zakAtI nathI. tethI potAnI niMdA AgrahapUrvaka sAMbhaLavI joIe. emAM AtmanirIkSaNanI suvidhA rahelI che. prazaMsA sAMbhaLavAthI evuM thatuM nathI. niMdAthI Darazo nahIM, prazaMsAthI rIjhazo nahIM. dharma jIvanamAM niMdA-stuti baMne upara udAsIna banyA sivAya AMtarika sthiratA AvatI nathI. pataMga uDAvIne bALaka dora hAthamAM rAkhe che, pavana ApameLe tene upara caDAve che. tame paNa bhagavAnano dora hAthamAM rAkhazo to jIvanano pataMga e ja upara caDAvaze. emanuM eka nAma ciMtAmaNi che. sarva kAmanAone e pUrNa kare che. tame saraLa thazo to sukhI thazo ane anya loko paNa tamArI pAse AvavAthI sukha pAmaze. ghaNA loko kahe cheH "harikIrtananA dhamapachADA amane sArA lAgatA nathI. tenA karatAM cAlo, ekAMtamAM enuM dhyAna karIe.''

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- 45 mAtRvANI paraMtu manane pUchI juoH ''dhyAna karatAM tuM saMsAramAM rakhaDe che ke bhagavAnamAM rahe che?' kIrtananA bola, karatAla ke tAla ke rAga tarapha lakSa na rAkhazo. sAmAnya loko mATe sthULa saMganI ghaNI jarUra che. nAmanuM raTaNa karatAM karatAM bhAva Upaje che. pachI kIrtananA bhAva samajAya che. pachI japa-dhAraNA vagere saraLa bane che. mATe harikIrtanamAM javuM joIe, sadA sagAMsaMbaMdhIone sAthe rAkhIne harikIrtana karatA raho. e vakhate eka enAmAM dhyAna parovajo, ne nahIM to e mAtra vAdyotsava banI jaze. haMmezAM kaMI ne kaMI dharmaciMtana karatA rahezo, to samaya upara IzvaraprApti mATeno prabaLa Agraha hRdayamAM utpanna thaze. A taddana nakkara satya che. saraLa zuddha bhAvathI karelo satata abhyAsa te AtmajJAnanuM prathama pagathiyuM che. zarIranI kiMmata che ane nathI. nadInI A pAra rahyA ho tyAM lagI naukAnI mAyA rahe che. eka vAra sAme pAra UtarI jAo pachI naukA yAda paNa rahetI nathI. zarIranI sArthakatA paNa evI che. mamatvano lopa thaI jaze tyAre zarIra ke jagata badhuM paDadAnI pAchaLa cAlyuM jaze. ekAMta sevyA vagara zrIkAMtanAM darzana thatAM nathI. parama puruSanI

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- 46 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA sAdhanA mATe himAlaya khUba anukULa jagyA che. enI godamAM anaMtanuM ciMtana sahaja bane che. bhAva vaDe jemane AgaLa vadhavuM hoya, temane mATe samudratIra khUba upayogI che. enA taraMge raMge bhAvanA hilloLI UThaze. ' jene sAdhanapaMthanA pathika thavuM hoya, temane mATe nirjana ramaNIya sthAna jarUrI che. sAmAnya gRhasthAzramI mATe gharanA khUNAmAM nakkI karelI jagyA Avazyaka che. ane jeNe bhagavat premamAM sarvane tyajyAM che ane je sarvamAM bhagavAnane joI zake che, tene mATe sthAnanI koI kamI nathI. manane niyamamAM lAvIne badhI avasthAnI upara UThavA yatna kare, to jaNAze ke, sthAna-asthAnanuM hRddha cAlyuM gayuM che. zaheromAM divasa-rAta pANInI jarUra hoya to naLa paNa divasa-rAta calAvavo paDe che, ema hRdayane bhagavarasathI pUrNa rAkhavuM hoya to avirAma enuM smaraNa rAkhavuM joIze. manamAM IzvaranuM ciMtana satata hovuM joIe. eTalA mATe kIrtana, pUjA, yajJa, pATha, tIrtha, sAdhusaMga evAM aneka sAdhano rAkhyAM che. eno abhyAsa vadhaze tyAre cAvIvALA pUtaLAnA hAthapaga phare che tevI rIte mANasanAM badhAM kama ApameLe sahaja bhAve thatAM raheze. agni upara mUkelA vAsaNanuM pANI garama thaze eTale emAM zakti AvavAnI ja, pachI e DhAMkaNuM kholIne bahAra nIkaLavA dhasI jaze. ema nAmajapa vagere paNa prANanI aMdara zakti pedA kare che. enuM nAma bhAva. bhAva hRdayamAM jAge che, paraMtu eno

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prasAda prakAza bahAra thAya che. bhAva pahelAM kSaNika hoya; paraMtu bhajana vagere dvArA puSTa bane che; kema ke hRdayamAM mahAbhAva virAjamAna che. suyoga maLatAM ja mahAbhAva potAnuM kAma karavA mAMDe che. bhAva vinAnuM bhajana vilAyatI phUla jevuM gaNAya; dekhAvamAM suMdara, paraMtu emAM sugaMdha nathI. kIrtanamAM paNa bhIDa sArI hoya ane dhAmadhUma ghaNI hoya, paraMtu bhAva nA hoya to devatAono AbhAsa nahIM thaI zake. devatA to bhAvavAhI che. 8. prasAda kathAnI pUrNAhutimAM prasAda maLavo ja joIe. mAno kRpAprasAda samagra bhAratabharamAM vaheMcAyo che. aneka sthaLoe zrImAe yAtrA karI hatI. teozrInuM Agamana thavAnuM che enA samAcAra jotajotAmAM phelAI jatA, ane nimaMtraNanI rAha joyA vinA loko zrImAnAM darzane jaI pahoMcatA ane jyAre darzana pachI pAchA vaLatA tyAre emanA aMtaradIpakanI saMkocAyelI vATane saMkorIne, zraddhAbhaktinuM tela jANe purAyuM hoya tevo anubhava laIne jatA. koI navo zubha saMkalpa karatA, koI kSamAyAcanA karatA ane koI mAtra namana namIne pAchA vaLatA tyAre emanAM haiyAM khIlI jatAM. mAno prasAda pAmIne sau kRtArtha banatA. zrImA'nI kathAno vistAra moTo che. emanA upadezonuM amI paNa akhUTa che. eno pravAha vaheto rahyo che. nathI ADaMbara, nathI pracAra. koI rokaToka nathI. sAmAnya loko to zrImAnAM darzane AvatA ja paraMtu emanA nivAsasthAna ke

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TI zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA mukAma AgaLa mAIla lAMbI moTaronI katAra lAgatI. emAM kone yAda karavA ane kone nahIM? ema kyAM aMta Ave? zrImAnA darabAramAM AvyA-gayAnI nahIM, "hari bola'nI mastInI visAta che. emanI AsapAsa AnaMdanAM mojAM laherAtAM ane temAM taraboLa thavAne ja sau AvatAM. A nAnA saMkalanamAM zrImAnA jIvananI vAto atyaMta saMkSiptamAM ja karelI che. kRSNanA dehotsarganA sthAna prabhAsamAM zrImAM pahoMcyAM tyAre emaNe mRtyuno anubhava karI lIdhelo. poMDicerImAM gayAM tyAre to tyAM zrI mAtAjI sAthenuM temanuM milana jANe gaMgA-yamunAno saMgamAM rAmezvara setubaMdhamAM sAgarasnAna karyuM tyAre sUkSma dehI mahApuruSo emanI samIpa AvyA ane dvArakAmAM emanI sAthe mahA milana thayuM. vRMdAvanamAM zrI vijaya gosvAmI sAthe paNa evuM ja milana thayuM. evA aneka prasaMgo che, kAzImAM, tAMjoramAM, porabaMdaramAM, kuMbhakoNamamAM, ema Thera Thera kaMIka avanavuM thatuM rahyuM che, enI noMdho pragaTa thaI che. mAnI vicAraNA, emanA upadezo ane emano prasAda satata che. bhAratabharanA vartamAna sAdhupuruSone maLavAnuM e cUkyAM nathI. emanuM sanmAna karIne e potAnuM bahumAna thayuM hoya evo harSa pragaTa kare che. emaNe bhAgavata saptAho mAMDI, durgApUjA ane sarasvatI pUjA ke annapUrNA pUjA athavA vAsaMtI pUjAo yojI. kuMbhameLAmAM jaI bhaktonI sagavaDa mATe sAro prabaMdha karAvyo. koI jagyAe vRkSAropaNa karyuM to koI jagyAe pratiSThA

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40 ' prasAda vidhio karyA. nA dhAryuM hoya tyAM e jaI caDatAM ane na mAgI hoya tenA upara kRpA varasAvatAM. DaoN. rAdhAkRSNa eka IspitAlamAM bImAra hatA ane koIne maLavAnI rajA nahotI, chatAM zrImA tyAM pahoMcI gayAM ane temanA mastake varada hasta thApIne AvatAM rahyAM. AvA to aneka prasaMgo che. eka vAra zrImA gAMdhIjInI prArthanA sabhAmAM gayAM. sAthe vRMdAvananA betraNa mahAtmAo paNa hatA. saune mATe prArthanAmaMca upara sthAna thayuM. pAchA vaLatAM gAMdhIjIe kahyuM: "koI eka jagyAe nathI rahetAM, nA?'' mA kaheH "huM to eka ja sthAna para chuM, A Akho eka ja bAga che, emAM pharatI ghUmatI rahuM chuM.' aTTahAsya karIne gAMdhIjIe vAtanuM samarthana karyuM. mA kahetAM ke "huM emanI samIpa ja rahuM chuM.' sevAgrAmamAM paNa e gayelAM ane sabhAmAM paNa beThelAM tyAre nikaTanA eka sAthIe pUchyuM: ""mA tamane AvI sabhAmAM jatAM saMkoca na thayo?' mA kaheH ""mane vaLI saMkoca zAno thAya!'' javAharalAla mAne maLavA AvatA ane prasanna thaIne vidAya letA. zaMkarAcArya sAthe emanI mulAkAta thatI ane zrI araviMda sAthe paNa sUkSma darzana thayuM hatuM. zrImA uttarakAzI ane tethI AgaLa jaIne gaMgotrI tathA zrI badarInAtha vagere paNa gayelAM. temaNe triveNImAM paNa snAna kareluM. sAvitrI yajJo karyA. purInA mahAsAgaramAM nAhyAM ane mathurA vRMdAvanamAM satsaMga kIrtana karyA. narmadAnAM cANoda karanALImAM paNa mA padhArelAM. hiMdavAsIonA hRdayamAM Aje je tIrtha, je anuSThAna, je mahAtmA AdarapUrvaka vasyA che emanI sanmukha mA pragaTa thayelAM ane tyAre e tIrtho,

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50 zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA anuSThAno, ne puruSo zrImAnA AgamanathI, sparzathI, vANIthI, sAmIpyathI ne pratiSThAthI prabhAvita banela che. kahe che ke, bhAratIya sAtvikatA zrImAnA pavitra rUpamAM sarvatra vicarI rahI che; dharmanI abhivRddhi karI rahI che. A dezamAM je zubha ane pAvanakArI che tenuM teja zrImAe vadhAryuM che. pitA rakSA kare, mAtA heta kare. Izvarane ApaNe baMne rUpe pUjyA che. paramezvarane anAdi mAnyA che ane emanI yogamAyA prakRtine paNa anAdi mAnI che. baMnenI bhakti to eka ja che paNa bhAva judA che. mA AnaMdamayI jene jene maLatAM tene kadIye temaNe upadezanA bhArathI gUMgaLAvI dIdhA nathI ke nathI muzkelIo cIMdhI gabharAvyA; vyaMga ke roSa to teo kare ja zenAM? bhaktajanonI vacce e sadA AnaMda phelAvatAM. dharatI upara paDelAM phUlane uThAvIne haLavethI koI UMcA sthAne mUkI de evuM bhaktone haMmezAM lAgatuM. bhaktone haMmezAM eka spaSTa anubhava thato ke zrImad bhagavaddagItAmAM bhagavAna zrIkRSNa uccArelI vANI zrI zrImA sArthaka karI rahyAM che. teSAmahuM samuddhartA mRtyusaMsArasA RI(gItA. a. 12-zloka. 7) e bhaktonAM mA to hatAM ja, paraMtu vizeSataH e bhAratIya paraMparAnI jananI hatAM. AryasaMskRtinAM hajAra hajAra varSonuM zubha zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mAnI aMdara ekatra thayeluM nIrakhIne aneka hiMdavAsIonI sarvatomukhI dharmazraddhA daDha banI che, e ja che samagra rASTrane ane rASTranI AvatI peDhIone mATe zrI zrImAno zreSTha prasAda.

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kiMmata 2-00 9- 00 | cha 0 0 | cha 0 0 | ja 0 0 T6 | che 0 0 | je 0 0 18- 00 | cha 0 0 9- 0 9- 00 10-00 | 0 0 0 | 0 0 0 saMtavANI graMthAvalI - 2006 1. jagadaguru zrI Adi zaMkarAcArya 2. zrIrAmakRSNa paramahaMsa 3. svAmI vivekAnaMda 4. zrI zrImA AnaMdamayI mA 5. bhagavAna mahAvIra 6. mahAtmA gAMdhIjI 7. Izu khrista 8. maharSi vinobA bhAve 9, hajarata mahaMmada payagaMbara 10. bhagavAna gautama buddha 11. svAmI sahajAnaMda 12. azo jarathuSTra 13. guru nAnakadeva 14. saMta kabIra 15. mahAprabhu zrIvallabhAcArya 16. zrI svAmI rAmadAsa (kanahanagaDha-kerAlA) 17. maharSi dayAnaMda 18. zrImad rAjacaMdra 19. sAdhu vAsavANI 20. pUjya zrImoTA 21. zrI ramaNa maharSi 22. maharSi araviMda 23. zrI raNachoDadAsajI mahArAja 24. zrI raMga avadhUta 25. zrI punita mahArAja 26. svAmI muktAnaMda ra7. svAmI zivAnaMda sarasvatI (hRSIkeza) 28. svAmI cidAnaMda sarasvatI | 0 0 0 | re 0 0 0 | 0 0 0. ' | che 0 0 | 0 0 . ra | 0 0 9-00 10-00 12-00 10-00 0-00 9- 00 | 7 0 0 12-00 12-00 300-00 A graMthAvalinAM 28 pustakonI kiMmata rU.300 thAya che. graMthAvalino [ saMpuTa kharIdanArane te rU.200nA rAhata dare ApavAmAM Avaze. rU.200 (seTanI) ISBN 81-7229-237-6 (set)