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Usually anger is directed towards others, is it not? Generally people get angry with other people; however anger that is directed towards one's self is called artadhyan by the Lord. People are no fools; they get angry with others but not themselves. Are there people who get angry with themselves? Do they not get angry with others? Getting angry with someone is same as having intent (bhaav) to hurt that person. Anger is considered intent to hurt. Greed (lobha) is intent of depriving others. Deceit (kapat) and illusion (maya) is intent of depriving others by harming them. Pride (maan) is the intent of disrespecting, rejecting others and considering them inferior. All the four passions, anger, pride, deceit and greed are raudradhyan because they hurt others.
What is artadhyan?
Do you have some guests you like and some you do not? When people you don't like come to your home, you think, "Why did they have to come?" You are overcome with dread the moment they enter your home, and yet you have to say, "Come on in. Have a seat", don't you? You have to say that in order to maintain your reputation in the community. On the outside you invite them into your home but from within you are dreading their stay. The Lord calls this artadhyan. Artadhyan is the dhyan that makes only you suffer. Now typically when guests come, they don't leave right away, do they? So welcome them and remember that the Lord has said not to let artadhyan occur and if it does, then do pratikraman. Ask the Lord for forgiveness: 'Lord, why does artadhyan occur? I do not want to do so.'
When people you like come to stay with you, you feel good but that too is artadhyan. And at the time of their departure, when you feel sad and wish they did not have to leave, that too is artadhyan. If you get angry with someone, it is raudradhyan, but if you repent afterwards, it is converted into artadhyan.
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There are people who justify their anger by saying, "It was necessary to get angry." Defending your anger is doubling the raudradhyan! Raudradhyan occurs when you get angry and by defending and supporting your anger, you double the raudradhyan. If you feel remorse after getting angry, your repentance reduces raudradhyan to artadhyan.
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A bhaav (inner intent) of making money is raudradhyan because it is the intent of taking money away from others. Therefore, the Lord has said, "Do not have intent for making money at all." What one gets in this life is correct.
Dadashri : Do you have to do dhyan in order to take a bath everyday?
Questioner: No Sir.
Dadashri: You still get water for your bath, even when you don't do dhyan for it, correct?
Questioner: That is correct.
Dadashri : Just as you get water for your bath it is a rule that each person will get money necessary for him or her. But people needlessly do dhyan for money.
Do you worry all daylong whether you will have a mattress to sleep on? But as soon as the morning comes, you think about nothing but money, money, and money. What kind of a guru did you have? Which foolish guru has made you run after money? The morals in your family have declined, your health is deteriorating, your blood pressure has increased and you are preparing for a heart attack. Which guru has taught you to run only after money?
When a person does not find a guru, the worldly peer pressure (lokasangnya) becomes his guru. One believes as the world believes that happiness comes from money. If this disease of chasing money is caused by worldly influence, then which
