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(ashuddha and ashubha meaning impure intellect that which binds demerit karmas), avyabhicharini buddhi (that which binds merit karma) and samyak buddhi (right buddhi which leads towards the Self). In any one of these three states, if a person has had the 'darshan' of an enlightened being (jina), then samyak buddhi will arise within him. If he has done darshan of the pure enlightened one, and he places his faith there, that causal seed will not go unrewarded, leading to samyak buddhi which finds the path of liberation very easily.
A grocer gets in a dispute with one of his customers for not paying him 2000 Rupees, in the altercation the customer slaps him. The matter goes all the way to a court. Here, he has not been paid yet and there is a court case. He keeps saying "I am very unhappy. This whole mess has made me very miserable." He has invited all this misery upon himself! No misery will visit anyone, if it is not invited. Miseries arise because of the viparit buddhi. Viparit buddhi is like cutting vegetables with the wrong side of the blade: the vegetables will not cut and your finger will bleed
The one who is clever, over wise (akkal) will not achieve moksha. The one whom the world considers as very clever is really very dumb and stupid (from the perspective of liberation) The one with cleverness digs his own grave. That is what 'we' call stupidity. 'We' are without any intellect or akkal. 'We are abuddha. If 'We had a slightest of buddhi, it will give rise to all kinds of interference and dhyans, and in our business 'we' would feel, 'He charged me too much. He did this and he did that.' It would destroy Gnan altogether.
Limit to using buddhi We were sitting at Dadar station at seven o'clock in the morning when all of a sudden all the lights went out, so one man with buddhi asks, "Why did they turn off the lights?" Well! What do you need lights for when you have the light from the rays of
the rising sun? What 'we' are saying is, after acquiring the full light of the Self, turn off the light of the buddhi. Just as people have concern about wasting electricity, we should be concerned about wasting away the light of our Self by using the buddhi. Whenever we use the light of the buddhi, we waste and weaken the main energy, the light of the Self. And when you stop using the light of the buddhi, the light of the Self will increase and become more effulgent.
Questioner: The light of the buddhi will always remain, will it not?
Dadashri : Yes buddhi will present itself for help when it is needed, but you don't have to keep its switch pressed on all the time. It will come on automatically. The switch should not remain in the on position. The buddhi shows you where the benefits of worldly comforts lie. Buddhi is used in every worldly activity of the non-self), whereas, 'I am Shuddhatma' is use of Gnan.
The Self is in its natural and spontaneous state, but it can remain that way only when the prakruti i.e. the non-self also becomes natural and spontaneous. When can prakruti become natural and spontaneous? It will become natural when buddhi takes a break. You needed buddhi when you were studying in college, but now that you have completed college, do you need it? Now you can tell 'he' to stay at home because you do not need her anymore. Just retire her. Buddhi makes you unsettled and that is why you do not experience the bliss of naturalness and spontaneity of the Self. Only the non-self is unsettled but if you put buddhi aside, then you will experience the natural bliss. When you see a dog, the buddhi will tell you, 'This dog looks like the dog that bit someone yesterday. What if it bites me too?' What control does the buddhi have? The dog will bite you if that is in your vyavasthit. Indeed if anything were under one's control, would people not do everything positive for themselves? But that does not happen. The buddhi makes one suspicious and
