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concentrate on the air that flows in and out of your nostrils. Breaths flow in and out, but what in the dickens are you going to do with that focus? What in the dickens do your nostrils have anything to do with it? Let go of this foolishness! Why don't you do this when you get an asthma attack? How can you? They say that when the breath goes in, it makes the sound 'so' and upon exhalation it sounds like 'hum'. From that you get 'sohum' 'sohum', 'humso', 'humso', and they tell you to meditate on that. But the Soul is neither 'sohum' nor 'humso'. The Soul is not to be found in that word. Vitarag Lords have used the word 'Atma' as a way for us to understand the Soul in a word form. However, the Soul is not to be found in books or in the scriptures, here only the word 'Atma' is to be found. The real or true Atma is to be found only with the Gnani. Do you think that by observing your breaths in and out, you will remain in samadhi? No. What happens there? The mind gets destroyed. The mind is like a boat; it is necessary to cross the ocean of the worldly life and reach across to the other shore.
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Meditating as the Self is the true meditation. And the other thing is that if you keep dhyan (pay attention) in making khichadee, then your khichadee will be ready for you eat. Just keep these two dhyans. All others are crazy (useless) meditations. If one remains in the dhyan of 'Dada' it is fine, even if he does not have any other understanding, because he will then become 'that'. The Gnani Purush is your own Self; therefore, you will gradually become that.
Attaining the Soul is atmadhyan i.e. meditation as the Self. And in worldly meditation you are to meditate on the work at hand. For example while cooking pay attention to the items of food that you are cooking. All other dhyans being taught elsewhere become burdensome. Meditation is only meant for those who suffer from an agitated mind, but where is it necessary for others? Who knows where this kind of meditation
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The Lord has said for one to pay attention to (dhyan) one's meals and one's husband in the relative life, and if not these then the Self. Besides, what will you do with all other dhyans? Why do you need other dhyans for internal peace? All others are meditations that have nothing to do with the Self. They merely sound pleasing to the ear. Some people find it pleasant to their mind and for others it appeals to their intellect. It all depends on one's mind.
During the time of Lord Mahavir, prominent businessmen would attend the congregation. The Lord's speech was so sweet and attractive to listen. These shethiyas would be so absorbed in listening to the Lord that they would have their meals brought to them as they listened to the Lord. The Lord's speech was so melodious to their ears that they would not go home. Today, 'we' recognize and see the same shethiyas around. 'We' see them cheating their customers as they stretch the material they are measuring. Ask them where their dhyan is focused. Their dhyan is nothing but raudradhyan (harmful adverse meditation). Furthermore they will defend their actions by telling you, "Other merchants cheat this way too!" The fools! Other merchants may jump into a well, but why must you?
Cure for purifying the chit
'Our' speech is unique and powerful; it is speech that has never been heard before. If you keep listening to 'our' speech, and absorb and support (dharan) it within, and speak exact same words, then during that time the chit will begin to become amazingly focused. The pure chit (shuddha chit) is pure anyway, but the worldly chit; the chit that wanders (vyavaharik chit) becomes instantly purified. For the duration one listens to film songs, the chit becomes impure (ashuddha). It was impure to begin with, but now it becomes even more impure! On the other hand, when you are absorbed in singing Kavi's pads (devotional hymns for the Self), as you absorb the words, the chit becomes pure for that duration of time. Even a small child
