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the seeker, is vikalpi ('I am Chandulal', he has ego because he does not have the knowledge of the Self), then how can one do dhyan? Still, the scriptures say because a vikalpi does dhyan of the nirvikalpi, he will one day become nirvikalpi. But it does not allow one to become nirvikalpi and one continues to say, "I have to do this. I have to do that." If one gets drowsy, he will say he wants to eat less, hence he will have to fast. So they meditate on the nirvikalp state, in order to climb out of the hole of a vikalpi state.
When the mind, body and speech become 'silent' for eight minutes, the Lord calls it the beginning of samayik (to 'see the non-Self by being the Self) and if this state of silence remains up to forty-eight minutes, the Lord calls it samayik. This state of 'silence' cannot remain for more than forty-eight minutes, for anyone. Samayik is to remain in the Self.
'Bhagwan unge bhasheeyo, samayik arth,
Samayik pun atma, the-re sidho arth.' 'The Lord has defined the meaning of samayik as: 'Samayik
is Atma and Atma is samayik.
'We have not just given you a nirleyp Atma i.e. a Soul which remains absolutely free from all worldly entanglements, but 'we' have also given you nirvikalp samadhi. In the Kramic path one attains nirvikalp samadhi only when his ego becomes completely purified to the point of egolessness. Wherever one has to undergo a process of renunciation or acquisition, there will always be vikalp there, namely 'I have to renounce' or 'I have to attain. Vikalp is bound to occur whenever something significant has to be attained and trivial things have to be renounced. There is not just one vikalp but infinite vikalps. To be strict with disciples or to discipline them is also a vikalp.
True darshan is one that brings samadhi by just looking at the person. There are some people who make you vomit the moment you set eyes on them. Why do people constantly do four' darshan? It is because what they see gives them samadhi. What is this samadhi like? It is a samadhi which will not go away even if you try to get rid of it! If you tell the samadhi to go, it will not. Once the ego of doer-ship is gone, it can never come back. Samadhi remains in all that you do, when you eat, drink, walk, talk, etc., the knower, the Self, remains separate from it all.
The Lord has said, "If you are in the non-self (kalpana) then you are guilty if you do not think. And if you are the Self (nirvikalp) then you are guilty if you think."
