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therefore he cannot say, "I am the Soul." As long as the awareness and the belief, 'I am Chandulal', 'I am a priest', 'I am an ascetic' etc., 'has not gone, how can he say, 'I am a pure Soul?' And until then how can he attain nirvikalp samadhi (bliss of the egoless state)? All these are merely words and everything remains only as words. Only vitarag Lords and their followers were in nirvikalp samadhi. They simply remained 'knower' of all that unfolded whether right or wrong. They were 'knower' of stones that were hurled at them as well as 'knower' of garlands of flowers that were offered to them. How can you call them vitarags if they are not knower'? But some assert, 'We are in nirvikalp samadhi, just because their awareness of the body is gone. Awareness of the body is absent even during sleep, so that too can be called nirvikalp samadhi, right? Those who lose awareness of their body when they are awake and see light when their chit is actively projecting are experiencing only that, nothing else. That is not the ultimate state. It is a grave mistake to believe and affirm so. In nirvikalp samadhi there is complete awareness of the body, as well as the Self. Otherwise, vitarag Lords would not be able to see anything in their keval Gnan.
No one really understands nirvikalp samadhi; everyone has different connotations of it in their own language bhasha). People have also interpreted the Soul in their own language and yet they say, "I want to have knowledge of the Soul."
The impurity of the chit of the sant purush (a saint who is in the process of seeking liberation) or those who have reached similar spiritual level is significantly reduced. So they punish their body whenever a desire for something worldly arises within them, 'Why do you have these desires?' They even put chili pepper in their eyes! Now what would foreigners say about such a gnan (knowledge)? They will say, "He must be crazy. "Muslims too would think they are crazy. But people here (Hindus) regard them as wise. They put chili pepper in their eyes because the eyes made a mistake in seeing 'something wrong
Here the fault lies with the one who sees.
People in India are such that they will even put a lock on their mouth! These people believe that loss of bodily awareness is nirvikalp samadhi. They believe they have entered the dimension beyond the senses (atiindriya state, nirvikalp state) because the information through the senses is not coming through (nirindriya state). They think that they have entered the nirvikalp state (atiindriya state). No! The atiindriya state is way beyond that. They have discarded awareness of the senses: they have not yet attained the state of atiindriya state. So where are they? They are in a nirindriya state; a state void of senses. And in this nirindriya state, they keep saying, 'Hum, hum ('I am something. I am something'), and believe they are in the state of a nirvikalp samadhi.
Still, their intentions are good. Their intention behind putting chili powder in their eyes is good; therefore they will attain liberation some day.
In the Kramic path, nirvikalp samadhi begins when one is very near to attaining the final liberation, whereas here in the Akram path, you (addressing the mahatmas who have received Gnan) have already attained the state of nirvikalp samadhi. In the Kramic path you have to suffer all necessary penance till the very end. You have to suffer the penance of loach; hair plucking ritual, and other penances and rituals. In the Kramic path the doer is a separate entity, karma is separate, the knower is separate but at the same time one claims, "I have to do dhyan." Hence there the 'doer' (the one meditating), the goal (dhyeya), and the process of meditation (dhyan), are all separate. But only when these three unite as one, can there be a little experience of the bliss of nirvikalp. But in the Kramic path, the sense of doer-ship remains till the end. That is why they say, "I am doing dhyan"
Dhyeya, which is the goal is to be nirvikalpi and dhyata;
