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know what is under your control. The Lord says, "It takes so many causes to come together for you to be able to kill even a single bug. " The killer merely does the bhaav, 'I want to kill', but so many other circumstances have to come together too besides this intent created by the killer. Do you think your father owns this world? If he did, don't you think he would have thrown you out a long time ago? But really there is no telling when one is going to drop dead. It is merely the ego that gets hurt the ego becomes exposed in all this; that is all. The Lord has said, "You have to have inner intent of compassion (bhaav-daya)." Bhaavdaya does not mean to save the bugs from being killed, but the bhaav one gets to kill the insects, causes destruction of your Self. And because it kills your self, you should have compassion towards your Self (bhaav- daya). That is bhaav-daya, to have compassion for your precious Self. You should be primarily concerned with compassion for your own Self; insects and people have brought their own karmic accounts with them. Every living being brings his own karmas with him; they are all independent. Otherwise, would America allow the cold war to go on for such a long time? They are claiming that they can wipe off Russia within an hour!
Protect and preserve your intent only
No one has the independent control over anything; therefore you simply need to be careful that you do not become instrumental in the killing of your own self. When you have intent to kill any living being you are actually killing your atmabhaav, your Self. That is why you should maintain kindness towards your own Self (bhaav-daya). The Lord did not tell us to have kindness towards others and yet people are preoccupied with doing just that. Let go of this madness! How can you feel sorry for others when there is no telling what is going to happen to you? And then one becomes heavily laden with the ego in doing so, "I feel terribly sorry for them...I feel very sad for them..." you foolish people, why don't you worry about yourself first?
What kind of a creature are you?
A butcher and a sanghpati (administrative head of a religious organization) approached the Lord. The sanghpati told the Lord, "I rescued ten cows from being slaughtered by the butcher." The Lord said, "You are right, you saved ten cows." The butcher says, "Sir, I killed ten cows. Now which one of us will achieve liberation first?" The Lord replied, "Neither of you should talk about liberation. You are both egotistic and not fit for liberation. You have an ego of killing cows and he has the ego of saving them. Why don't you save your aging father? Why are you saving the cows? You are letting your eighty-year-old father die; why are you letting him die? If you are the savior, if you can save lives forever, then why don't you save your own father?" This is nothing but over wise-ness. This is over-wise madness Do not interfere with worldly entanglements; remain within boundaries. These are all over wise people looking for fame. What are they looking for? They want fame and in due time they may get it here in the worldly life but over there (in the laws of karma); they will make minced meat out of them! There is nothing but pure justice in nature's hand and absolutely no one has any influence over that. The Lord has said, "You have the ego of saving ten cows and you have the ego of killing ten cows. Neither of you should come here to listen to talks of liberation, because you will get the fruit of saving ten cows and you will get the fruit of killing ten cows. The lives you have saved will return the favor through benevolence towards you and those you have killed will verily be the ones who will torment you. This is the only account there is. I do not interfere in that and it has nothing to do with liberation.
If you pass a few college students in their exams, when they grow up, they will say, "He is the professor, who passed us," and they will appreciate you that way. Naturally, it is the same for all living beings you save. The Lord has not said that in order to attain liberation it is necessary to save lives. People
