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intoxication (keyf) increases. As one's intoxication of 'I know something' increases, elimination of the veils of ignorance covering vision (darshan-avaran) comes to a halt and so does the elimination of knowledge covering veils (gnan-avaran). Nothing except your obstinacy hinders your progress towards moksha. The greatest areas of danger (bhaisthan) you should fear is swachhand (to act according to your own wishes) and the intoxication of 'I know something'.
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If the sadhu maharajs (spiritual preceptors) stop just the one mistake of reveling in pride of doer ship as their karma unfolds (garva of udaya karma), then their work is done. You do not have to look at their external conduct, it is acceptable even if they have kashays (anger, pride, attachment and greed) but they must not relish this sense of doer-ship (garva ras). That is all one has to look for in a maharaj (Jain spiritual master).
Anyone who destroys even one mistake of his own is worthy of being called God. You will find many who will show you your mistakes but they are not able to destroy them for you. What is more, they must know how to show you your mistakes, if one does not know how, then he should admit that he is the one with mistakes. It is a task of tremendous responsibility to show someone his mistakes. The one who destroys mistakes in others is God. Only a Gnani Purush can do that. 'We' do not see anyone accountable or guilty in this world. Whether it is a pickpocket or someone with degraded conduct; 'we' see them both as faultless. That is why a Gnani can destroy your mistakes. No one else is capable of doing so. God has never considered worldly faults as a fault. Ignorance of the Self' is the greatest fault. As long as the fault of 'I am Chandulal' exists, all other faults exist. Once you attain the knowledge of the Self, then all other faults will leave.
Impartial vision
One cannot see one's own faults without the knowledge
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of the Self. In the absence of real knowledge there prevails the belief, 'I am Chandulal, I do not have any faults and I am a very nice man.' After Gnan one becomes impartial. After Gnan one is not partial to the mind, body and speech and that is why he can see his own mistakes. The one who can find his mistakes, the one who can see his mistakes at every moment, who sees the mistakes whenever they occur, has become parmatma. He has become Lord Mahavir! After attaining 'our' Gnan, you become impartial because you realize that you are not Chandulal but a pure Soul. Your spiritual work is done when you begin to see all your faults but none in others. Previously the feeling of 'I am Chandulal' used to prevail and therefore you could not be impartial. Now that you have become impartial, you will begin to see all your own faults. You do not see faults in others because your awareness is towards the relative self. When you begin to see your own faults, it means that the Gnan 'we' have given you is beginning to produce results. When you see faults in yourself, it means you do not see faults in others. To see faults in others is a terrible fault in itself. How can you see faults in others when no one is at fault in this flawless world? The ego is at fault, and until the ego is cleansed, the faults will remain. As long as the faults remain, the ego remains. You have to continuously destroy your faults until the ego is completely destroyed.
Faults can be destroyed through pratikraman. You begin to see your faults when conflict arises, those faults will remain concealed and latent if conflicts do not occur. When you begin to see up to five hundred or so of your faults per day, then realize that omniscience is approaching. After Gnan, 'we' could see thousands of faults daily. As you begin to see the faults, they decrease and as the faults decrease, the awareness of the Self increases. Now, only subtlest (sookshmatam) and subtler (sookshmatar) faults remain within, which 'we' see and know. These faults do not hinder anyone. It is due to the current era
