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realize that it is not going to get any food and so it will leave. A man used to visit me at my home. He was a manager somewhere and had a good salary. He was married but he had no children. One day he tells me, "Dada I am very tight fisted. I cannot let go of money. If I am asked to serve food at someone's wedding, I serve very little. People comment loud enough for me to hear, 'This man is so stingy. My wife too complains about it. But what can I do? I cannot get rid of this greedy nature. Please show me a way out. This greed makes me look ugly even when I am asked to give at someone else's cost." So 'we' told him, "When you come to satsang every day, do not walk but take a rickshaw and on your way here, get ten rupees worth of loose change and drop it along the way." He did what 'we' told him and he succeeded. Doing this stops greed from being fed and the mind becomes broad. Your acceptance of your mistakes destroys them
Once you start to recognize your mistakes, those mistakes will be destroyed. There are some cloth merchants who stretch the fabric while measuring it and boast that they shortchanged their customers by quarter of a yard. This is tremendous raudradhyan and what is more they are protecting it. A mistake should not be protected. When a vendor deceptively adulterates his ghee (clarified butter) and makes 500 Rupees on the side, he is planting a whole tree instead of a seed which will ruin his endless lives to come.
Questioner : But Dada I can only see a few of my faults and mistakes, I cannot see more.
Dadashri: By sitting here in the satsang, many veils of ignorance are shed and the more they are shed, the more mistakes you will see.
Awareness of seeing faults Questioner: How can the awareness to see more faults
be attained?
Dadashri : There is a lot of awareness within you but the intent (bhavna) to see your faults has not arisen. When a policeman has an intention of looking for robbers, he will find them. But if he says, "There is no need to look for robbers, I will arrest them when they come", would the robbers not have fun? These mistakes lie hidden. They can be easily found if you look for them.
What is the benefit for all your earnings? If you are able to see your own faults, then you have truly earned something You can say that you have earned something only when you are able to see your faults, one after another. This satsang is for you to be able to see all your faults. And those faults will leave only when you see them. When will you be able to see your own faults? It is when you become the Soul, Self-realized. The one who can see his own fault is great and advanced spiritually. When You become completely impartial towards your body, speech and conduct, then will you be able to see all your faults.
In the Kramic path a person can never see his own faults. If you tell me, "I have many faults but I can only see a few". then 'we' would believe that you are worthy of moksha. But the one who says, "I see only a few faults within me", that person has infinite faults and yet he claims he has only a few! Just because you see only a few, does that mean you should believe you have only a few?
When can you say that you have attained the path of Lord Mahavir? When you are able to see hundreds of your faults everyday and when you do hundreds of pratikraman everyday, then you can say you are on the path of Lord Mahavir. Swaroop Gnan or knowledge of the Self is way beyond this stage, but people walk around intoxicated with the belief that they have attained it after reading just a few books of the scriptures. They have not attained even a drop of the Self! Where Gnan stops,
