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Aptavani-2
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You cannot see raag-dwesh in the maharaj (Jain preacher) when he is giving a discourse; he comes across as a vitaragi, but you will see the venom of his competitiveness when his competitors come. Here, in front of the Gnani Purush, if a Sthanakvasi (Jain sect) priest were to sit next to a Deravasi priest, even then they would not be able to tolerate each other. Nowadays wherever there are competitors, there is abhorrence. Ordinarily these priests manage to remain detached everywhere but if they learn that there is another person higher than them, then dwesh will arise within. That is why 'we' say that one has to rise above all competition.
If two diamond merchants become competitive with each other, dwesh will arise but they may also develop raag towards each other, then the two will sit and dine together.
What does the Lord consider raag? 'I am Chandulal'. 'I ate', that is raag. I am the mere observer of the one who is eating.' is not raag. Tam Chandulal and this is all mine', is raag.
Attachment towards ignorance is called attachment; and if you have attachment for Gnan, then you are a 'vitarag'.
Everyone in the world has misunderstood the meaning of raag. They believe raag is passion for anything, but that is not raag, it is the attraction and infatuation. The whole world is trapped in raag. Infatuation means attraction.
Love for ignorance is raag. Love for Gnan is vitarag.
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Vengeance
What is the reason for perpetuation of this worldly life? It is vengeance (veyr). If there is no intention to have vengeance (veyr bhaav), then nothing will remain. Vengeance is the primary reason for perpetuation of worldly life and that is why 'we' tell you to settle all your 'files' with equanimity (sambhav). By settling 'files' with equanimity, effect of vengeance of the past life is settled. Do not create any new vengeance after that.
One day, there is a difference of opinion between two brothers which begins within their minds. They do not agree and see eye to eye. The next day the distance increases, which gradually develops into a dislike for each other. Then enmity is created between the two. How long are they likely to stay together after that?
Do not keep pampering the body too much. The world has come about because the non-self and the Self have become one. One wonders, 'Why do I end up doing things which I have no desire to do?' Becoming one with the non-self is the dakho (interference) which then leads to the interference (dakhal) and this keeps the 'fire' of inner turmoil burning. Once the separation from the non-self has occurred, remain as the Self and let the fire rage. It is not going to burn You, who is the knower and the
seer.
Is there not a relationship between a shopkeeper and his customers? And does this relationship end when the shopkeeper closes his shop at night? No, of course it does not. The customers will remember if the shopkeeper sold them adulterated or damaged goods. They will remember to take revenge and
