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'This' is the station that you have arrived at, where you can get your work (for moksha) done. Therefore eat, drink and enjoy the circumstances that are directly in front of you and do not be concerned about the circumstances that are not.
Bliss will arise from within. Instead people are searching for it externally.
Why does one have thoughts about becoming an ascetic? It is because he remembers the beatings he has taken in endless past lives from having a mother-in-law, a father-in-law, other worldly miseries, a husband, a wife, children etc. That person will even find a nimit, someone who will tell him there is no happiness in the worldly life. And that is why he thinks about taking dixa (diksha; renounce worldly life) and he ends up doing so.
All your pains will go away in the presence of the Gnani Purush. All your pains can disappear in front of this Gnani, provided you do not have any desires. If you have a dressing on your wounded leg and the Gnani tells you not to remove it and you still do, then what can anyone do? How can you ignore the instructions of the Gnani?
Every morning when you get up, recall Dada and make a firm decision and recite five times, "Let there not be any hurt to any living being in the world through my mind, speech and body, even in the slightest degree." When you make such a firm decision (nischay) the inner 'police department' is thus alerted. There is a huge army of enemies within. You attain tremendous energies by reciting this in the presence of the Gnani Purush and those energies will not ever leave you. Make this decision by keeping Dada as your witness. Then you should not give any nourishment to the army of inner kashays even if they arise. Kantado: displeasure of boredom and fatigue
Dadashri : What is the meaning of kantado (physical
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Questioner: It is when you do not like anything.
Dadashri: It is the state that one is in when he sleeps on a bed of thorns. Do you do anything to remove it? Do you take any medicine when this sets in?
Questioner: There is no medicine for it anywhere. Dadashri: But you must be doing something for it? Questioner: I just go out for a walk.
Dadashri : That is tantamount to sending back those whom you owe. What does kantado tell you? What is nature telling you? It is asking you to make a due payment. But you say, "No, I will not do that", and then you run away unnecessarily. You are pushing away the displeasure of boredom and fatigue (kantado). What will happen when they all collectively come to make a demand on you? When kantado sets in, one goes out to watch a movie. This is dealing with it in a wrong manner. One is resorting to a contrary solution. If you remain still when this state of displeasure of boredom and fatigue sets in, you will be able to find out what it is and where it came from. You will be able to look for the reasons behind it. This gives you the opportunity to awaken the process of going towards the Self (purusharth dharma). But instead, you go in the wrong direction and push it away.
Questioner: It does not go away even when I go out.
Dadashri : By going out during kantado, the blood circulates and therefore the circumstances of displeasure disperse.
Questioner: There are some who will drink whiskey when this happens.
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Dadashri They are trying to solve the problem of boredom by drinking and running around. That is a kind of an
