Rag Virag

Author(s): Bhadraguptasuri
Publisher: Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra Koba
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/009638/1

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rAga-virAga zrI priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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rAga-virAga vivecanakAra AcArya zrI vijayabhadraguptasUrijI mahArAja [zrI priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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punaH saMpAdana jJAnatIrtha-kobA tutIya bhAvRti vi.saM.2066, bhAdrapada zukla 11, di. 18-09-2010 upalakSa zrutoddhAraka AcArya zrI padmasAgarasUrIzvarajI 77vA~ janmavarSa hIraka samAroha pUrNAhuti bhavAnIpura, kolakAtA mUlya pakkI jilda : rU. 68 kaccI jilda : rU. 30 Arthika saujanya zeTha zrI niraMjana narottamabhAI ke smaraNArtha ha, zeTha zrI narottamabhAI lAlabhAI parivAra prakAzaka zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdira kobA, tA. ji. gAMdhInagara - 382007 phona naM. (079) 23276204, 23276272 email : gyanmandir@kobatirth.org website : www.kobatirth.org mudraka : navaprabhAta prinTarsa, ahamadAbAda - 9825598855 TAITala DIjAina : bijala grAphIksa - 9376125757 For Private And Personal Use Only

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pUjya AcArya bhagavaMta zrI vijayabhadraguptasUrIzvarajI zrAvaNa zuklA 12, vi.saM. 1989 ke dina pudagAma mahesANA (gujarAta) meM maNIbhAI evaM hIrAbahana ke kuladIpaka ke rUpa meM janme mUlacandabhAI, juhIM kI kalI kI bhAMti khilatIkhulatI javAnI meM 18 barasa kI umra meM vi.saM. 2007, mahAvada 5 ke dina rANapura (saurASTra) meM AcArya zrImad vijayapremasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA ke karamakamaloM dvArA dIkSita hokara pU. bhuvanabhAnusUrIzvarajI ke ziSya bane. muni zrI bhadraguptavijayajI kI dIkSAjIvana ke prAraMbha kAla se hI adhyayana adhyApana kI sudIrgha yAtrA prAraMbha ho cukI thI.45 AgamoM ke saTIka adhyayanoparAMta dArzanika, bhAratIya evaM pAzcAtya tatvajJAna, kAvya-sAhitya vagairaha ke 'milasTona' pAra karatI huI vaha yAtrA sarjanAtmaka kSitija kI tarapha mur3a gaI. 'mahApaMthano yAtrI' se 20 sAla kI umra meM zuru huI lekhanayAtrA aMta samaya taka athaka evaM anavarata calI. taraha-taraha kA maulika sAhitya, tatvajJAna, vivecanA, dIrgha kathAe~, laghu kathAe~, kAvyagIta, patroM ke jariye svaccha va svastha mArgadarzana paraka sAhitya sarjana dvArA unakA jIvana saphara dina-ba-dina bharApUrA banA rahatA thA. premabharA ha~samukha svabhAva, prasanna va mRdu AMtara-bAhya vyaktitva evaM bahujana-hitAya bahujana-sukhAya pravRttiyA~ unake jIvana ke mahattva capUrNa aMgarUpa thI. saMgha-zAsana vizeSa karake yuvA pIr3hI. taruNa pIDhI evaM ziza-saMsAra ke jIvana nirmANa kI prakiyA meM unheM rUci thI... aura isI se unheM saMtuSTi milatI thI. pravacana, vArtAlApa, saMskAra zibira, jApa-dhyAna, anuSThAna evaM paramAtma bhakti ke viziSTa AyojanoM ke mAdhyama se unakA sahiSNu vyaktitva bhI utanA hI unnata evaM ujjvala banA rahA. pUjyazrI jAnane yogya vyaktitva va mahasUsa karane yogya astitva se sarAbora the. kolhApura meM tA.4-5-1987 ke dina gurudeva ne unheM AcArya pada se vibhUSita kiyA.jIvana ke aMta samaya meM lambe arase taka ve aneka vyAdhiyoM kA sAmanA karate hue aura aise meM bhI satata sAhitya sarjana karate hue dinAMka 19-11-1999 ko zyAmala, ahamadAbAda meM kAladharma ko prApta hue. For Private And Personal Use Only

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prakAzakIya pUjya AcArya zrI vijayabhadraguptasUrijI mahArAja (zrI priyadarzana) dvArA likhita aura vizvakalyANa prakAzana, mahesANA se prakAzita sAhitya, jaina samAja meM hI nahIM apitu jainetara samAja meM bhI bar3I utsukatA aura manoyoga se par3hA jAne vAlA lokapriya sAhitya hai. pUjyazrI ne 19 navambara, 1999 ke dina ahamadAbAda meM kAladharma prApta kiyA. isake bAda vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTa ko visarjita kara unake prakAzanoM kA punaH prakAzana banda karane ke nirNaya kI bAta sunakara hamAre TrasTiyoM kI bhAvanA huI ki pUjya AcAryazrI kA utkRSTa sAhitya janasamudAya ko hamezA prApta hotA rahe, isake liye kucha karanA cAhie. pUjya rASTrasaMta AcArya zrI padmasAgarasUrijI mahArAja ko vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTamaMDala ke sadasyoM ke nirNaya se avagata karAyA gayA. donoM pUjya AcAryazriyoM kI ghaniSTha mitratA thI. antima dinoM meM divaMgata AcAryazrI ne rASTrasaMta AcAryazrI se milane kI hArdika icchA bhI vyakta kI thI. pUjya AcAryazrI ne isa kArya hetu vyakti, vyaktittva aura kRtittva ke AdhAra para saharSa apanI sahamatI pradAna kI. unakA AzIrvAda prApta kara kobAtIrtha ke TrasTiyoM ne isa kArya ko Age cAlU rakhane hetu vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTa ke sAmane prastAva rakhA. vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTa ke TrasTiyoM ne bhI kobAtIrtha ke TrasTiyoM kI divaMgata AcAryazrI priyadarzana ke sAhitya ke pracAra-prasAra kI utkRSTa bhAvanA ko dhyAna meM lekara zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobAtIrtha ko apane TrasTa dvArA prakAzita sAhitya ke punaH prakAzana kA sarvAdhikAra saharSa sauMpa diyA. - isake bAda zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobA ne saMsthA dvArA saMcAlita zrutasaritA (jaina buka sTaoNla) ke mAdhyama se zrI priyadarzanajI ke lokapriya sAhitya ke vitaraNa kA kArya samAja ke hita meM prArambha kara diyA. ___ zrI priyadarzana ke anupalabdha sAhitya ke punaH prakAzana karane kI zRMkhalA meM "rAga-virAga" graMtha kI tRtIya AvRtti ko prakAzita kara Apake kara kamaloM meM prastuta kiyA jA rahA hai. prathama saMskaraNa meM isakA nAma kAmagajendra thA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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zeTha zrI saMvegabhAI lAlabhAI ke saujanya se isa prakAzana ke liye zrI niraMjana narottamabhAI ke smaraNArtha, haste zeTha zrI narottamabhAI lAlabhAI parivAra kI ora se udAratA pUrvaka Arthika sahayoga prApta huA hai, isaliye hama zeTha zrI narottamabhAI lAlabhAI parivAra ke RNI haiM tathA unakA hArdika AbhAra mAnate haiM. AzA hai ki bhaviSya meM bhI unakI ora se sadaiva udAratA pUrNa sahayoga prApta hotA rahegA. __ isa AvRtti kA prUphariDiMga karane vAle DaoN. hemanta kumAra tathA aMtima prUpha karane hetu paMDitavarya zrI manojabhAI jaina kA hama hRdaya se AbhAra mAnate haiM. saMsthA ke kampyUTara vibhAga meM kAryarata zrI ketanabhAI zAha, zrI saMjayabhAI gurjara va zrI bAlasaMga ThAkora ke hama hRdaya se AbhArI haiM jinhoMne isa pustaka kA suMdara kampojiMga kiyA. ___ Apase hamArA vinamra anurodha hai ki Apa apane mitroM va svajanoM meM isa preraNAdAyaka satsAhitya ko vitarita kareM. zrutajJAna ke pracAra-prasAra meM ApakA laghu yogadAna bhI Apake liye lAbhadAyaka siddha hogA. punaH prakAzana ke samaya graMthakArazrI ke Azaya va jinAjJA ke viruddha koI bAta raha gayI ho to micchAmi dukkar3am. vidvAna pAThakoM se nivedana hai ki ve isa ora hamArA dhyAna AkRSTa kareM. anta meM naye AvaraNa tathA sAja-sajjA ke sAtha prastuta graMtha ApakI jIvanayAtrA kA mArga prazasta karane meM nimitta bane aura viSamatAoM meM bhI samarasatA kA lAbha karAye aisI zubhakAmanAoM ke sAtha... TrasTIgaNa zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobA For Private And Personal Use Only

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dvitIya AvRtti kA udbodhana.... ___vikrama kI navama zatAbdi meM AcAryazrI udyotanasUrijI ne 'kuvalayamAlA' nAma ke kathAgrantha kI racanA kI hai| prAkRta bhASA meM yaha grantha likhA gayA hai| prAkRta-bhASA kA yaha zreSTha kathAgrantha mAnA gayA hai| udyotanasUrijI 'dAkSiNyacihnasUri' ke upanAma se jainAcAryoM kI paramparA meM prasiddha haiN| kavIzvara udyotanasUrijI ne svayaM kahA hai kI isa grantha kI racanA unhoMne 'hrIdevI' kI sahAya se kI hai| 13 hajAra zloka pramANa isa mahAn grantha meM 'rAga virAga' kA kathAvastu prApta hotA hai| mere isa dhArmika upanyAsa kA AdhAra grantha hai 'kuvalayamAlA' | ___ kAmagajendra rAjakumAra hai| priyaMgumati ke sAtha usakI zAdI hotI hai| priyaMgumati kA vyaktittva kitanA mahAna thA? vAstava meM dekhA jAya to isa upanyAsa kA nAma 'priyaMgumati' hI rakhanA cAhiye thA, parantu AdhAra graMtha ke anusAra maineM 'rAga-virAga' nAma pasanda kiyA hai| dUsarI patnI banatI hai jinamati! AdhAra grantha meM dUsarI patnI kA nAma nahIM diyA gayA hai| maiMne usako 'jinamati' nAma diyA hai, jo ki sArthaka nAma hai| kAmagajendra meM jisa prakAra raMga aura bhogavilAsa ko pracuratA dikhAI detI hai vaise hI usake Antara jIvana meM tyAga, vairAgya aura utkRSTa prema kI abhivyakti dikhAI detI hai| maiMne isa kahAnI ko gujarAtI bhASA meM 'rAgavirAganA khela' nAma se likhI aura prakAzita bhI ho gii| yaha kahAnI sabase pahale 'arihaMta' (hindI mAsika patra) meM chapI thii| bAda meM pustakarUpa meM bhI pragaTa huii| aba vApasa dvitIya saMskaraNa ke rUpa meM Apake pAsa pahuMca rahI hai| hindI bhASI janatA ke lie yaha kahAnI rocaka, bodhaka aura preraka banegI, aisI merI zraddhA hai| nUtanavarSa vi. saM. 2041, madrAsa bhadraguptavijaya For Private And Personal Use Only

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rAga-virAga sadiyoM se, juga juga se calA A rahA hai rAga aura virAga kA saMgharSa! do aMtimoM ke bIca se hara eka ko gujaranA hotA hai| mAnava jIvana ajIbogarIba hai mana ke kurukSetra para pratipala yaha saMgrAma calatA hI rahatA hai! rAga Aga banakara jhulasA detA hai to virAga bAga banakara jiMdagI ko bahAroM se bhara detA hai! saca hI to kahA hai: rAga rahita mana hai bhavapAra rAga sahita mana hI saMsAra! vivecanakAra AcArya zrI vijayabhadraguptasUrijI mahArAja [zrI priyadarzana] For Private And Personal Use Only

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uttarakozala tatkAlIna bhArata kA mahatvapUrNa gaNarAjya thA | gaMgA ke ramyasuramya kinAre para basI zrAvastI nagarI uttarakozala rAjya kI zAna thii| gaMgA ke pavitra nIra zrAvastI kI sujalA-suphalA dharatI ko harA-bharA upavana sA banAe rakhate the| Aja sArA zrAvastI nagara Ananda se Alor3ita bana rahA hai| cAroM tarapha eka hI carcA hai, eka hI bAta hai : bhagavAna mahAvIra apane ziSyagaNa sahita Aja zrAvastI ke upanagarIya udyAna meM padhAre haiN| zrAvastI ke rAjamArgo para bar3I cahala-pahala najara A rahI hai| loga bar3I utkaMThA se sarvajJa tIrthaMkara ke darzanArtha jA rahe haiN| vasanta kI bahakI-bahakI havA udyAna ke vRkSoM ko jhulA rahI hai| cAroMtarapha hariyAlI hI hariyAlI! kadamba-DAlI para koyale kUka rahI haiN| Ama kI DAliyoM para mora nRtya karate-karate apane kekArava se vAtAvaraNa ko bharA-bharA banA rahe haiN| raMga-biraMge phUloM kI khUzabU hara eka ke tana-badana ko mahakAmahakA banAtI huI phailI jA rahI hai| aise meM bhagavAna mahAvIra padhAre | mAnoM dharma kI alabelI ghar3iyA~ A gii| zrAvastI ke nara-nArI dharma ke mahakate mausama kA svAgata kara rahe haiN| devoM ne zrAvastI nagara kI sImA meM sundara samavasaraNa kI racanA kI hai| zrAvastI kI janatA aisI alaukika evaM nayanaramya racanA dekhakara daMga raha gii| hara eka jIva ke lie, prANI mAtra ke lie, samavasaraNa ke dvAra khule the| sabhI khuzI ke mAre jhUma utthe| deva aura dAnava! pazu aura mAnava! strI evaM puruSa! zramaNa evaM zramaNI! samavasaraNa ke bhItara baiThe karuNAmUrti paramAtmA mahAvIra kI amRtamayI dezanA sunane lge| zrAvastI ke adhikAMza nara-nArI Aja samavasaraNa meM A pahuMce haiM | azoka vRkSa kI zItala chAyA! surasarjita divya dhvani ke mIThe-mIThe mAdaka suroM ke bIca paramAtmA kI dhIra, gambhIra aura madhuratama dezanA! ahA! kauna pyAsA rahegA isa vakta? saba lIna bane hue haiM dezanA ke pravAha meN| hara eka jIva apanI sudhabudha kho cUkA hai| hara eka kI A~kheM paramAtmA ke mukhAravinda para lagI hai| paramAtmA kI A~khoM se ajastra bahatI karuNAdhArA meM jIvAtmAe~ apUrva zAnti, tRpti aura prasannatA kA anubhava kara rahI haiN| koI ciMtA nahIM, koI vikSepa nahIM! lagatA hai 'paramAtmA ke sudhApUrNa vacanoM kI varSA anavarata hotI hI rahe! hama apane Apako isa sudhAvarSA meM bhigote rahe / ' eka prahara biitaa| pUre tIna ghaNTe bIta cuke / paramAtmA ne dezanA pUrNa kii| tabhI eka vyakti ne khar3e hokara vinayapUrvaka vandanA karake prabhu se prazna kiyA "he vizvavatsala! kala rAta maiMne jo dekhA, ekAnta ke kSaNoM For Private And Personal Use Only

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kAma gajendra meM jo anubhava kiyA aura jo sunA, kyA vaha bilkula satya hai? koI devamAyA yA indrajAla to nahIM?' __ 'devAnupriya! vaha saba satya hai|' tIrthaMkara kI madhura AvAja vAtAvaraNa meM ghaMTiyoM sI gUMjatI rhii| vaha vyakti vaMdanA karake ahobhAvabharI A~khoM se paramAtmA ko dekhatA huA apane sthAna para baiTha gyaa| bhagavaMta ke caraNoM meM hI indrabhUti gautama jo ki mahAvIrasvAmI ke prathama gaNadhara evaM pramukha ziSya the, baiThe the| gautamasvAmI ko mahAvIra ke prati gAr3ha anurAga thA | mAnoM ki janama-janama kI prIta isa janama meM AkAra le baiThI thii| aise paramAtmapremI gautamasvAmI ne bhagavAna se savinaya prazna kiyA- 'prabho! isa vyakti ne abhI Apako kyA pUchA aura Apane kyA pratyuttara diyA? kyA Apa hameM isa sAMketika prazna evaM javAba kA rahasya kholakara batAne kI kRpA kareMge? ina vAkyoM meM chipI kahAnI Apa hameM kahane kI kRpA kareMge?' samavasaraNa meM baiThe hara eka manuSya ko gautamasvAmI kA prazna acchA lagA, samayocita lgaa| kyoMki sabake mana meM usa prazna pUchane vAle vyakti ke prati jijJAsA paidA ho cukI thii| prazna jitanA gUr3ha thA, pratyuttara utanA hI gahana evaM rahasyapUrNa thaa| kucha samajha meM nahIM A rahA thA logoM ko! saba ke saba bar3e utkaMThita the javAba sunane ke lie| sabakI nigAheM mahAvIra ke mukhAravinda para jama gii| ___ vAtAvaraNa kI nIravatA meM mahAvIra ke mIThe bola gUMja uThe- 'gautama! yaha kahAnI lambI hai, para hai ati rsmy| saMsAra ke kSetra meM rAga aura dveSa ke kaise yuddha khele jAte haiM, karmaparavaza jIvAtmA kaisI pavanonmukhI bana jAtI hai aura jaba usakI jJAnadRSTi khula jAtI hai, to vo kitanA bhavya dharmapuruSArtha karake virakti kI rAha para Age kadama bar3hAtI huI mukti kI maMjila para calatI jAtI hai, yaha bAta rAjakumAra kAmagajendra kI isa kahAnI meM chipI hai|' ___'mere prabho! kAmagajendra kI kahAnI hameM avazya sunaaiye| kahAnI sunakara aneka bhavya jIvAtmAoM kI rAga kI jaMjIreM virakti kI varamAlA meM badala jaayegii| vairAgyarasalIna banakara aneka jIvAtmAe~ Atmasiddhi kA prabala puruSArtha karane ke lie prayatnazIla bneNgii|' gautamasvAmI kI madhura maMjula vANI gUMja utthii| __ paramAtmA mahAvIradeva ke madhura zabdoM meM kahI gaI kahAnI rAga virAga ke sadAkAla se cale A rahe saMgharSa ko ujAgara karatI hai| vahI kahAnI nayenikhare rUpa meM prastuta hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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kAma gajendra 1. kAma gajendra aruNAbha nagara thaa| ratnagajendra rAjA aruNAbha ke balazIla samrATa ke rUpa meM vikhyAta the| rAjA ko mAtra eka hI saMtAna thI aura vaha thA kAmagajendra / kAmagajendra sacamuca kAmadeva jaisA hI thA / rUpa to mAnoM vidhAtA ne usako hI diyA thaa| sundaratA ke sAtha-sAtha usameM aneka guNa bhI the| vinamratA, premapUrNa vyavahAra, dayA, karuNA Adi guNa usake vyaktitva ko nikhAra rahe the| rAjA ne kumAra ko bahattara kalAe~ sikhlaayii| kAmagajendra ne kizorAvasthA kI dahalIja ko lA~ghakara yauvana ke A~gana meM praveza kiyaa| mAtA-pitA ko kAmagajendra bar3A pyArA thA aura kyoM na ho? kitanA vinayI, suzIla aura saMskArI thA vaha! rAjA ne bar3I dhUma-dhAma se priyaMgumati nAmaka sundara, suzIla aura guNavatI rAjakumArI ke sAtha usakI zAdI kii| kAmagajendra priyaMgumati ke sAtha saMsAra ke sukhopabhoga meM apanA samaya vyatIta karatA hai aura caina se apanA jIvana bitA rahA hai| para yaha saMsAra hai! isa saMsAra meM kisake sukha sadAkAla Tike hai? yadi saMsAra meM zAzvat sukhopalabdhi ho jAtI to hamAre RSi-muni mokSa kI, tyAga aura vairAgya kI bAteM karate hI kyoM? kitanI karuNatA bharI hai saMsAra meM? manuSya ko jarA se sukha kI prApti hotI hai aura vo use zAzvat mAna letA hai, sukhoM maiM kho jAtA hai! para aMjAma kitanA duHkhada evaM vedanApUrNa AtA hai! jaba una sukhoM kA viyoga hotA hai, ve sukha use chor3akara cale jAte haiM, taba vo sara paTaka-paTaka kara karuNa rUdana karatA hai| bebasa banakara nirAzA ke gahana aMdhakAra meM DUba jAtA hai| ___ hA~, isase ve loga baca sakate haiM ki jinhoMne apanI dRSTi meM jJAna kA aMjana A~ja liyA ho / jJAnadRSTiyukta strI-puruSa saMsAra meM bhI raheM, sukhopabhoga bhI kareM, para una sukhoM meM tIvra Asakta nahIM bneNge| sukhoM kI vinazvaratA aura caMcalatA ve jAnate haiN| priyaMgumati jo ki kAmagajendra kI sahacAriNI thI, vaha jJAnadRSTi vAlI thii| sAMsarika sukhopabhoga meM vo ati Asakta nahIM thii| kAmagajendra ke ramaNIya mahala ke ThIka sAmane aruNAbha nagara ke eka rAjamAnya zreSThi kI bar3I havelI For Private And Personal Use Only

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kAma gajendra thii| rAjamahala kA jharokhA aura seTha kI havelI kA jharokhA, donoM ThIka Amane-sAmane the| jaba sUrya vizvayAtrA pUrI karake astAcala para saMdhyA ke A~cala tale chipa jAtA taba kAmagajendra apanI sahacAriNI priyaguMmati ke sAtha vArtA-vinoda karatA huA pazcima ke jharokhe meM baiThA karatA thaa| usI samaya seTha kI havelI kA jharokhA eka devakanyA jaisI rUpavatI yuvatI ke sauMdarya se jhagamagA uThatA thaa| usa yauvanA kI caMcala dRSTi bAra-bAra rAjamahala ke jharokhe para calI AtI thii| eka dina kAmagajendra kI nigAheM bhI calI gayI usa havelI ke jharokhe meM khar3I sadyasnAtA navayauvanA ke cehare para | donoM kI nigAheM mila gyii| eka pala...eka kSaNa donoM stabdha raha gaye aura prIta kI raMgolI raca gaI A~khoM hI A~khoM meM | prema ke phUla khilane lage nayanoM ke bAga meM | pyAra ke bAdala umar3ane lage mana ke gagana meN| kAmagajendra ke manamastiSka meM vaha yuvatI samA gii| yuvatI to pahale se hI rAjakumAra ko mana hI mana apanA priyatama mAna baiThI thii| aba kAmagajendra kA mana priyaMgumati se ukhar3A-ukhar3A rahane lgaa| usake dila meM eka bAta bAra bAra uThatI ki- 'usa yuvatI ke binA saba kucha sUnA hai| jIvana adhUrA hai|' kAmagajendra to basa usa navayauvanA meM hI apanA sarvasva dekhane lgaa| __pAsa meM hI sundara patnI hai| prema kA pradAna karatI hai, sneha kI saritA bahAtI hai, phira bhI dUra rahI eka anajAna yauvanA ke yauvanApAza ne kAmagajendra ke dilo-dimAga ko bA~dha liyaa| A~khoM meM usI yauvanA ke sapane sajane lge| mana aura nayana donoM usa yauvanA ko pAne ke lie becaina bana uThe / manuSya mana kI kaisI asthiratA hai! bhAvoM kI kitanI parivartanazIlatA hai! priyaMgumati kuzala thii| usakI painI dRSTi se kAmagajendra aura zreSThikanyA kA chupA praNaya chupa na skaa| usake hRdaya ko TIsa phuNcii| vaha socane lagI, kucha socakara usane kAmagajendra se kahA, 'prANanAtha! mujhe kucha becainI sI mahasUsa ho rahI hai| maiM zayanagRha meM jAkara vizrAma karanA cAhatI huuN|' kAmagajendra ne priyaMgumati kI tarapha dekhA, priyaMgumati praNAma karake zayana kakSa meM calI gii| usakA mana asvastha ho cukA thaa| phira bhI usane svasthatApUrvaka socane kA nirNaya kiyaa| usake samakSa gaMbhIra samasyA upasthita ho gayI thii| apane pati ko anya strI meM Asakta pAkara bhalA kauna aurata ciMtita nahIM hogI? 'maiM kyA karU~? maiMne inheM apanA sarvasva samarpaNa kara diyA hai| mere mana meM For Private And Personal Use Only

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kAma gajendra to ye hI ArAdhya deva haiM, mere sarvasva haiN| mujhe yAda nahIM AtA ki kabhI maiMne inake dila ko tanika bhI pIr3A paha~cAyI ho| kabhI maiMne inheM kaTu zabdoM ke tIra se biMdhA ho / kabhI inheM parezAnI yA ulajhana kA zikAra banAyA ho| para koI jarUrI to nahIM ki apanI patnI se asaMtuSTa puruSa hI anya strI kI tarapha AkarSita hotA hai| apanI strI se pUrNa saMtuSTa puruSa bhI ho sakatA hai ki anya strI kI tarapha khIMcA calA jaay| vaise hI strI bhI pati se pUrI santuSTi milane para bhI anya puruSa kI ArAdhanA karane lge|' priyaMgumati mAnava mana ke parivartanoM kI sahajatA para soca rahI hai| usake mana meM kAmagajendra ke prati bhI gussA yA pratizodha kI Aga nahI sulaga rahI hai| koI nArAjagI yA udAsI ke andhere meM vaha nahIM bhaTaka gaI hai| jJAnadRSTi vAlI AtmA ko gussA kaisA? nArAjagI kaisI? krodha, abhimAna Adi doSa to ajJAnadRSTi-bahirdRSTi kI A~khamicauliyA~ hai| priyaMgumati ciMtana kI, vicAroM kI gaharAiyoM meM DUbI jA rahI hai| nIMda usakI bairana bana cukI hai| vaha vicAroM ke jhUle jhUla rahI hai| 'mujhe inheM sAvadhAna karanA caahiye| mujhe inheM kaha denA cAhiye ki tumhAre jaise acche AdamI ke lie kyA yaha zobhAspada hai? yadi maiM inheM nahIM rokU~gI to phira merA kyA hogA? nahIM, nahIM, mujhe aisA kyoM socanA cAhie? hA~ zAyada mujhe inakI tarapha se sukha milegA...nahIM milegA... kabUla hai, para mujhe vizvAsa hai ki ve mujhe duHkhI to kareMge hI nahIM aura yadi mere aise hI pApakarmo kA udaya hogA to duHkha bhI A sakatA hai| saMsAra meM aisA to hotA hI rahatA hai| mujhe samatA-bhAva se sahana kara lenA hogaa|' priyaMgumati samajhatI hai ki kAmagajendra rAjakumAra hai, yuvA hai... use eka hI patnI karane kA koI pratibaMdha nahI hai| phira bhI usa samaya vaha kAmagajendra kI priyA thii| priyaMgumati ko kAmagajendra kA pUrA pyAra mila rahA thaa| milA huA sukha kauna chinane degA? mile hue kA baMTavArA bhalA kauna maMjUra karegA? usake mana ke sAgara meM asaMkhya vicAroM kI taraMge uTha rahI haiN| ___ 'ye zreSThikanyA para mugdha bane haiM, yaha hakIkata hai| zreSThikanyA bhI zAyada mana hI mana inake prati AkarSita ho rahI ho, yaha bhI ho sakatA hai| isakA pariNAma yahI hogA ki donoM zAdI kara leMge, maMjUra hai mujhe / yadi aise ye sukhI banate hoM to bhalA maiM kyoM inake bIca dIvAra banU~? Akhira inakA sukha inakI khuzI, inakI prasannatA hI to merA saba kucha hai| merA kartavya hai inheM sukha dene For Private And Personal Use Only

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kAma gajendra kA! inase mujhe sukha milanA na milanA yaha to kismata ke hAthoM meM hai| sukha milatA hai bhAgya se, sukha milatA hai puNyodaya se / ' priyaMgumati kA bhArI mana halkA ho gyaa| zayanagRha meM ratnoM ke diye jagamagA rahe the| rAta kA prathama prahara pUrA ho cUkA thaa| kAmagajendra zayanagRha meM Akara priyaMgumati ke pAsa palaMga para baiTha gyaa| priyaMgumati kI A~khoM meM koI nArAjagI yA baicenI nahIM thii| usakI A~khoM meM vahI prema kA payodhi laharA rahA thaa| usake cehare para pUrvavat apanatva kI AbhA phailI huI thii| kAmagajendra usakI tarapha khIMca gayA / puruSa prakRti kI goda meM samA gayA / prakRti puruSa kA sAnnidhya pAkara pulakita bana gii| kAmagajendra nidrAdhIna ho cUkA hai| priyaMgumati kI A~kheM usake nirdoSa cehare para ghUma rahI hai| vaha vicAroM ke jhUle para phira car3ha baitthii| nIMda to jAne Aja use aMgUThA hI batA rahI thii| __vaha zreSThikanyA hai, apariNitA hai, vaha koI parastrI nahIM hai| hA~, yadi ve kisI parastrI kI tarapha mugdha baneM to mujhe inheM rokanA cAhiye / para yadi donoM kI sahamati se, prasannatA se zAdI ho to kyA bUrA hai? yadi ve isase sukhI banate hoM to maiM inheM kyoM rokU~? maiM bhI use apanI choTI bahana banAkara rakhUgI aura usakA ceharA bhI kitanA bhalA-bholA aura pyArA hai! kitanI mAsUmiyata tairatI hai usakI jhIla sI A~khoM meM! vaha irSyA, dveSa Adi doSa vAlI nahIM dikhatI, bar3I zAMta aura suzIla lagatI hai| priyaMgamati kI A~khoM ke samakSa vaha jharokhA aura usa jharokhe meM khar3I nirdoSa harinI sI vaha yuvatI sAkAra bana gyii| usake aMtaHkaraNa meM vatsalatA kI vAri umar3ane lgii| 'para mujhe lagatA hai ki mere prANanAtha to zarma ke mAre yaha bAta kara nahIM paayeNge| unheM saMkoca hogaa| mujhe hI sAmane calakara inheM anumati de denI caahiye| Akhira inakA sukha hI to merA sukha hai|' priyaMgumati kA divya prema usake cehare para jhilamilA uThatA hai| apane sukha kI koI cintA vaha nahIM kara rahI hai| pati ke lie apanI tamAma sukhAkAMkSAoM ko priyaMgu bhUla rahI hai| apanI tamAma vAsanAoM ko kucala rahI hai| yahI prema kI parAkASThA hai| yahI prema kA pavitra svarUpa hai| apane svArthoM kA mukhauTA pahane prema kI bAteM karane vAloM ne prema kI pavitratA ko kalaMkita kiyA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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kAma gajendra kitanI bholI-bhAlI hai yaha yuvarAjJI! kitanA manamohaka hai isakA Antara-bAhya vyaktitva! apane priyatama ke prati kitanA samarpaNa! _ 'kala hI meM jAnakArI prApta kara lU~gI usa zreSThikanyA ke bAre meN| vaha kauna hai? vaha khuda kyA cAhatI hai? phira maiM khuda unase bAta karU~gI ki 'Apako isa yuvatI se zAdI karanI hai?' vaha bar3e asamaMjasa meM par3a jaayeNge| unheM bar3A Azcarya hogaa| merI tarapha Tukura-Tukura dekhate rheNge| para maiM khuda hI ina donoM kI zAdI karavADhUMgI nA? phira? phira maiM kabhI inake bIca dIvAra nahIM bnuuNgii| inakI kuzalatA cAhatI huI apane dina bar3I prasannatA se biitaauuNgii| jaba mujhe inakI smRti ho uThegI aura ye mere mahala meM padhAreMge to maiM inakA svAgata kruuNgii| apane hRdaya meM inheM samA luuNgii|' ___ rAtri kA antima prahara prArambha ho cukA thaa| priyaMgumati kI palakeM alasA rahI thii| usakI A~khoM meM nIda samA rahI thI aura vaha svapnaloka meM kho gyii| eka gahana tRpti... eka divya prasannatA usake cehare para damaka utthii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jinamati 2. jinamati 'devI, usa havelI ke mAlika to yazovarma seTha haiN| apane nagara ke rAjamAnya evaM pratiSThA sampanna zreSThi haiN| unakI dharmapatnI kA nAma yazodattA / rUpavatI aura guNavatI yazodattA vAstava meM usa havelI kI jIvanta lakSmI hai| usakA mRdu svabhAva, usakI priya hRdayaMgama vANI, usakI mehamAnanabAjI, saca devI, Apa usa nArI ko dekhogI to bar3I prasannatA hogI aapko|' priyaMgumati ko vizvasta dAsI kalyANI, priyaMgumati kI sUcanAnusAra havelI ke bAre meM jAnakArI prApta karake priyaMgumati ko havelI kA paricaya de rahI hai| __ 'mahAdevI, vo yazodattA pA~ca saMtAnoM kI mAtA hai| cAra putra evaM eka putrii| putrI to sacamuca devakanyA hai, apane nagara meM to aisI saundaryazIlA kanyA nahIM dekhI! are, apane pUre rAjya meM bhI hogI yA nahIM, yaha savAla hai|' 'usakA nAma?' priyaMgumati ne puuchaa| 'jinamati' kalyANI ne javAba diyaa| 'kitanA pyArA nAma hai! priyaMgumati ko nAma pasaMda A gayA | 'jinamati kumArikA hai| seTha aura seThAnI ko isI eka bAta kI ciMtA satA rahI hai| isake yogya dUlhA bhI to milanA cAhie na? jinamati ko seTha aura seThAnI ne bar3I gambhIratA se sundara saMskAra diye hai| acchI zikSA dI hai| aneka kalAe~ sikhAyI hai|' kalyANI ne sArI bAteM batA dii| 'kyA terA jinamati se paricaya hai?' priyaMgumati ne puuchaa| kalyANI vaise thI to dAsI, para usake pAsa bhI rUpa, yauvana aura lAvaNya thaa| yuvAnoM ko AkarSita kare vaisA saundarya thA / bolane kA tarIkA thaa| buddhi bar3I kuzAgra aura samayocita thii| priyaMgumati kA usane acchA vizvAsa saMpAdana kiyA thaa| 'paricaya to nahIM hai, bar3e ghara kI kanyAoM ke sAtha aise hI paricaya kisalie? 'aba karane kA hai| 'jaisI ApakI AjJA'. kalyANI kI painI buddhi priyaMgumati ko samajhane ke For Private And Personal Use Only

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jinamati 9 lie chaTapaTAne lgii|' yuvarAjJI ko kyA lenA-denA eka zreSThikanyA se? use kyoM itanI gaharI abhiruci hai jinamati ke bAre meM?' kalyANI ke lie yaha eka bar3I samasyA bana gaI / para usane apane mana ko samajhA liyA, 'Aja nahIM to kala, bheda to khulegA hI / ' kalyANI ne jinamati se acchA paricaya kara liyaa| kyoMki jinamati bhI to aisA hI cAhatI thii| vaha bhI to kAmagajendra kA naikaTya prApta karane ke lie tarasa rahI thii| use to kalyANI kA sahavAsa bahuta bhA gayA / mAnava mana kA yaha eka svabhAva hai / apanI prabala cAhanA ko, apanI tIvra kAmanA ko jahA~ pUrI hote dekhatA hai, usameM jo-jo pUraka mAdhyama hote haiM, unake prati usakA mana komala aura snehArdra banA rahatA hai / kalyANI mAdhyama bana rahI thii| kAmagajendra ke sAtha jinamati ke milana meM / jinamati kI najaroM meM kalyANI kI bar3I upayogitA thii| kalyANI ne priyaMgumati ke bAre meM acchI-acchI prazaMsA - pUrNa bAte karake jinamati ko priyaMgumati kI tarapha AkarSita banA DAlI thii| vaise jinamati ne priyaMgumati ko jharokhe meM se kaI bAra dekhA thA / usakA bAhya saundarya to use AkarSaka lagA hI thA para jaba kalyANI ne priyaMgumati ke AMtara- saundarya kI pahacAna dI to vaha aura jyAdA khIMca gayI yuvarAjJI kI tarapha / usakA sarala hRdaya prasannatA anubhava karane lgaa| para gahare meM usake mana meM eka kasaka bArabAra uThatI rahI- 'aisI sundara aura snehala patnI ko pAkara kyA kAmagajendra mujhe cAheMge? mujhe svIkAra kareMge?' bhaya! kalpanA kA bhaya! mAnava ke dimAga meM aise asaMkhya bhaya bhare par3e haiM / ghaTanAoM kI oTa meM bhaya vyakta hokara jIvAtmA ko becainIbharI ulajhana kA zikAra banA detA hai / jinamati palabhara ke liye bar3I mAyUsa bana gaI para kalyANI kI rasapUrNa bAtoM ne usakI mAyUsI ke mukhauTe ko utAra pheNkaa| jinamati kA hRdaya bar3A sarala thA / bhAvuka thA / kalyANI kI tarapha vaha khIMcatI hI clii| usake cita meM priyaMgumati se pratyakSa milane kI prabala cAhanA paidA ho cukI thii| dUsarI ora use kAmagajendra kI nikaTatA prApta karane kI AturatA bhI banI rahatI thiiN| eka dina kalyANI ne jinamati se pUchA : 'jinamati, kyA tU rAjakumAra ke mahala meM nahIM calegI kabhI? yuvarAjJI tujhase milanA cAhatI haiN|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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jinamati 'tUne priyaMgumati se mere bAre meM bAteM kI hogI, nahIM?' 'unheM aisI bAteM acchI lagatI hai / maiM kisI ke viSaya meM acchI bAteM karU~ to vaha bar3e pyAra se una bAtoM ko sunatI haiN| unakA yaha mahAna guNa hai / ' 10 'sacamuca priyaMgumati meM rUpa aura guNa, saundarya aura zIla kA subhaga samanvaya huA hai, nahIM?' jinamati kI A~kheM kalyANI ke cehare para jama gayI / kalyANI kI nirdoSa A~khoM meM Ananda jhUma rahA thA / jinamati mana - sarovara meM eka vicAra ke kaMkara ne lahareM paidA kara dI ciMtA kI / 'itanI pyArI pavitra hRdaya vAlI patnI jise milI hai, usa rAjakumAra ke hRdaya meM kyA merA sthAna bana pAyegA ? zAyada vaha svIkAra bhI kara leM to yuvarAjJI ko kitanA anyAya hogA? usake dila ko kitanI gaharI coTa lagegI ? priyaMgumati ke sukha zAMti evaM prasannatApUrNa jIvana jharane ko maiM kaise sUkhA sakatI hU~? nahIM, nhiiN|' jinamati ke dila meM eka dardabharI TIsa kasakane lagI / eka suzIlA sannArI ke jIvana- mahala ko Aga lagAkara usakI rAkha para apane sukha aura apane jIvana kA mahala banAnA use maMjUra nahIM thaa| vaha kabhI priyaMgumati se kAmagajendra ko chInane kI bAta soca hI nahIM pAtI thI / jinamati ke mu~ha para udAsI ke Avarta bikhara Aye... aura kalyANI kI nigAhoM se ve chUpa na sake / For Private And Personal Use Only usane pUchA- 'kyoM, kyA bAta hai ? koI gahare soca meM... 'nahIM, kucha bhI nhiiN|' jinamati svastha banane kA prayatna karane lagI / hoThoM para muskarAhaTa lAkara kalyANI ke kaMdhoM para apane hAtha rakha diye aura usakI A~khoM meM jhA~kate hue bolI : 'kalyANI, mujhe yuvarAjJI ke darzana karane hI hoNge| " kaba AU~ lene ke lie?' 'jaba una devI kI icchA ho taba / ' jinamati kA hRdaya priyaMgumati kI tarapha sneha se chalaka gayA / kalyANI ko vidA karake jinamati apanI havelI ke jharokhe meM jA phuNcii| usane sAmane jharokhe meM najara DAlI para vahA~ koI nahIM thaa| jharokhA khAlI thA / Aja jinamati kA hRdaya bhara AyA thA / usakI jhIla sI gaharI A~khoM meM vedanA ke A~sU palakoM ke kinAre jhUla rahe the| vaha jharokhe meM rakhe hue eka Asana para baiTha gaI /

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11 jinamati jinamati ke pAsa madabharA yauvana thA para vaha unmatta nahIM thii| usake hRdaya meM sukhoM kI kAmanA thI para dUsaroM ke sukha chInakara apane sukha ko prApta karane kI vAsanA nahIM thii| usake manomaMdira meM kAmagajendra basa cukA thA, para vaha priyaMgumati kI tarapha bhI itanI hI sahAnubhUtipUrNa evaM snehArdra thii| usane kAmagajendra ke rUpa ko Tukura-Tukura dekhA thA para kAmagajendra ke vyaktitva se, usake svabhAva se aparicita thii| rUpavAna vyaktittva guNavAna ho hI aisA koI niyama nahIM, guNavAna vyakti rUpavAna na bhI ho| ___ 'kAmagajendra rUpavAna to hai para usake vyaktitva ko maiM jAnatI hI nahIM... aura maiM kalyANI ko pUrvI bhI kaise? vaha rAjakumAra ke bAre meM kucha batAtI hI nahIM hai / maiM yadi pUch to yaha kyA socegI mere bAre meM? para hA~... vaha hI batAye rAjakumAra ke guNa, to bAta bane / ' jinamati kA mana dvandva se ghira gyaa| 'are, para maiM kitanI bholI huuN| koI jarUrI to nahIM ki rAjakumAra mujhe cAhate hI hoM? vaha mere sAmane dekhate haiM, roja merI najareM unakI nigAhoM se TakarAtI hai, para isakA artha yaha kaise ho sakatA hai ki ve mujhe cAhate hI hoMge? ho sakatA hai cAhate bhI hoM, para vaha cAhanA... vaha prema strI-puruSa kA... prakRtipuruSa kA hI ho, isakA sabUta kyA? kyA ve mujhe nirlepa bhAva se, nirmala dRSTi se to nahIM dekhate hoMge? maiM unheM jina nigAhoM se dekhatI hU~ kyA ve bhI unhIM nigAhoM se dekhate hoMge? aisA mAna kara maiM kucha bhUla to nahIM kara rahI hU~?' jinamati kA mana kasaka utthaa| usane apanI hatheliyoM ke bIca sara ko dabA diyaa| yuvA hRdaya kabhI-kabhI aisI bhUle kara baiThatA hai| koI usakI tarapha snehala A~khoM se jhA~ke, thor3e smita ke sAtha bAta kare yA thor3A sneha pradarzita kare, yuvA hRdaya mAna letA hai ki 'yaha to mujhe cAhatI hai, yaha to mere sAtha prema karatI hai|' prema kI paribhASA Aja to mAtra thor3A zArIrika milana... kalpanA kI ur3AnabharI raMgIna bAteM...aura thor3A sA sahavAsa | yaha koI jarUrI nahIM ki sAmane vAle vyakti ke smita yA dRSTipAta meM yaha saba ho hI! ho sakatA hai mAtra usake prati prema Adara... sammAna kA bhAva! bhakti kI bhAvanA! yA phira bhAIbahana ke nirdoSa sneha kI dhArA kA pravAha! jinamati ko bhaya lagA- kahI rAjakumAra mujhe bhaginI-bhAva se to nahIM dekhate hoMge? maiM to unheM mere manamandira kA devatA banAkara pUja rahI hU~! nahIM For Private And Personal Use Only

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12 jinamati nahIM, aisA nahIM... usakA hRdaya dahaka utthaa| vaha jharokhe meM se daur3akara apane kamare meM calI aayii| sUraja apanI kiraNoM kA jAla sameTatA huA pazcima kI tarapha Dhala rahA thaa| jinamati kI pratijJA thI sAyaMkAlIna bhojana se pUrva sAmAyika vrata karane kii| zuddha vastra pahanakara svaccha Asana bichAkara usane sAmAyika vrata dhAraNa kiyaa| do ghaTikA ke isa vrata meM jinamati kabhI namaskAra mahAmantra kA dhyAna krtii| kabhI AtmazAMti ke mArgadarzaka dharmagranthoM kA adhyayana-parizIlana krtii| samatva kI sAdhanA kA yaha vrata use bahuta priya thaa| bhayaMkara garmI se vyAkula manuSya zItala jala ke jharane meM snAna kare aura use jaisI sphUrti aura prasannatA mile vaisI sphUrti aura prasannatA jinamati ko sAmayika vrata meM milatI thii| jinamati ne sAmayika lekara zrI namaskAra mahAmantra ke dhyAna meM apane mana ko kendrita karane kA prayAsa kiyA, para use saphalatA nahIM milii| bAra-bAra prayatna karane para bhI use niSphalatA hI milii| usakA mana kabhI kAmagajendra ke to kabhI priyaMgumati ke, kabhI kalyANI ke vicAroM meM ulajha jAtA hai| vaha nahIM cAhatI ki sAmAyika meM usakA mana kahIM idhara-udhara bhaTake, para apane mana para usakA niyaMtraNa nahIM rhaa| usane dharmagrantha ko par3hanA prArambha kiyaa| jIvana ko udAtta evaM unnata banAnevAle dharmagrantha meM usakA mana rama gayA aura mana ko ArAma bhI mila gyaa| ___ bhArI mana ko halkA karanA bahuta jarUrI hai| mana ko halkA karane ke sAtvika upAya haiM, para satvaguNI vyakti hI una upAyoM ko pasaMda karatA hai| rajoguNI evaM tamoguNI manuSya to nimnastarIya upAyoM ke dvArA mana ko halkA karane kA prayatna karate haiN| vAstava meM usase mana halkA hotA hI nhiiN| zAMti kA AbhAsa mAtra hotA hai| jabaki mana kA bhAra bar3hatA hI calA jAtA hai| sAmayika pUrNa karake jinamati rasoIgRha meM jA phuNcii| yazodattA, usakI mA~, vahIM para thii| yazodattA apanI dRSTitale hI bhojana taiyAra karavAtI aura apane parivAra ko svayaM hI parosatI | yazovarma seTha ke parivAra meM rAta ko khAnA nahIM khAyA jAtA thaa| sUryAsta se pUrva sabhI bhojana kara liyA karate the| jinamati apanI mA~ ke kArya meM hamezA sahayogI bntii| hAlA~ki yazodattA jinamati se kArya karavAnA cAhatI hI nahIM thI para jinamati hameMzA apanI mA~ ke kAryabhAra ko kama karane kA prayatna krtii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jinamati 'jinu, ina dinoM kalyANI apanI havelI meM AtI-jAtI hai, nahIM?' yazodattA ne apanI lAr3alI beTI ko bar3e pyAra se puuchaa| 'hA~ mA~, merI sahelI jo bana gayI hai! 'rAjakumAra ke mahala kI dAsI hai nA, yaha to?' 'hA~ mA~, bar3I catura aura premabharI hai| bAteM bhI kitanI acchI-acchI karatI hai! jinamati ne kalyANI ke bAre meM apanA mata vyakta kiyaa| 'Akhira sahelI kisakI hai? koI airI-gairI to sahelI banegI hI kaise merI lAr3alI kI?' yazodattA kI A~khoM meM apAra vAtsalya chalaka utthaa| itane meM seTha aura lar3ake A gaye bhojana ke liye | mA~ aura beTI ne sabako bhojana prosaa| sabake bhojana karane ke pazcAt yazodattA aura jinamati ne sAtha baiThakara bhojana kiyaa| bhojana se nivRta hokara jinamati apane gRhamaMdira meM phuNcii| paramAtmA kI vandanA-stavanA karake apane kamare meM gayI to vahA~ kalyANI usakI pratIkSA karatI khar3I hI thii| 'kala prAtaH maiM tujhe lene ke lie aauuNgii|' 'kala hI?' jinamati Azcarya evaM romAMca se sihara utthii| hA~ kala hI, AyegI nA? taiyAra rahanA...acchA, to maiM cluuN| kahakara vaha calI gii| jinamati use jAtI dekhatI hI rhii| usake manomastiSka meM aneka vicAra-pravAha A-Akara use jhakajhorane lge| eka sukhada kalpanA usake aMga aMga meM siharana paidA kara rahI thii| usakA mana-mayUra jhUma uThA thA!' kala kitane karIba se apane manodevatA ko nayanoM meM samA lU~gI! para ve nahIM hoMge vahA~ to? unako jisase pyAra hai, sneha hai, aisI yuvarAjJI se milakara hI maiM nAca uluuNgii| yuvarAjJI kitanI bhAgyazAlI hai? use yuvarAja kA kitanA pyAra mila rahA hai? vaha yuvarAja kI kitanI sevA kara pAtI hai? kAza! maiM bhI merA pUrA jIvana yuvarAja ke caraNoM meM arpita kara pAU~? vilIna kara dU~ to? For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra dIdI 14 3. dIdI 'Ao, jinamati! kitane dinoM se tumheM milanA cAhatI thii| priyaMgumati ne kalyANI ke sAtha jinamati ko Ate dekhakara prasannatA vyakta kI / 'hA~, mahAdevI, maiM bhI bar3I utsuka thI Apase milane ke lie| jinamati priyaMgumati ke nikaTa AtI huI bolI / 'oha udhara nahIM, idhara Ao na ! mere samIpa baittho|' priyaMgumati ne jinamati jo ki bIca meM rakhe hue bhadrAsana para baiTha rahI thI, ko apane pAsa paMlaga para baiThane kA izArA kiyA / jinamati kucha jhijhakatI huI palaMga para jA baiThI / priyaMgumati ne jinamati ke hAthoM ko apane hAthoM meM lete hue kahA- 'kitanI acchI ho tuma! mujhe kalyANI ne tumhAre bAre meM bahuta sI bAteM batAyI hai ! tumhArA nAma kitanA pyArA hai!' 'mahAdevI, Apa nAhaka hI merI prazaMsA ke pula bA~dha rahI ho| mujhameM aisI koI vizeSatA nahIM hai| Apake vyaktitva ke Age to maiM sUraja ke sAmane juganU kI bhA~ti lagatI huuN| mujhe kalyANI ne Apake bAre meM kucha bAteM batAyI hai, saca kahU~? maiM to kalyANI kI bAteM sunakara mana hI mana Apase pyAra karane lagI hU~!' 'acchA, to kalyANI ne tumheM mere bAre meM saba jhUThI bAteM hI batalAyI hai, bhalA, maiM kahA~ itanI vaha hU~ jo tuma mujhe sAtaveM AsamAna para car3hAne lagI!' 'nahIM mahAdevI, Apake guNoM kI carcA to hara eka nagaravAsI kI jubAna para hai aura bhalA, kalyANI kyoM mujhe galata bAteM batAegI? hA~, eka bAta yaha bhI to hai, yadi kalyANI mujhe Apake bAre meM nahIM batAtI to phira maiM Apase mila bhI to nahIM pAtI na? maiM Aja kitanI khuza hU~ Apa se milakara !' jinamati bhAvukatA meM baha clii| For Private And Personal Use Only 'jinamati, ye kyA 'mahAdevI' aura 'Apa-Apa' lagA rakhA hai ? vaise maiM koI umra meM bhI tumase jyAdA bar3I to nahIM aura phira mujhe Apa kahalAnA pasanda bhI nhii|' priyaMgumati ne jinamati kI ora arthasUcaka najara se dekhA / jinamati kI A~khoM meM pyAra kI machaliyA~ tairane lagI / " para Apa bhI to mujhe 'jinamati' kaha rahI haiN| maiM kyA Apase bar3I hU~ ?'

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dIdI 15 'acchA bAbA, aba se nahIM kahU~gI basa? hA~, dekho maiMne tumhAre lie eka bar3A pyArA nAma khoja rakhA hai, batAU~ kyA hai vaha nAma? kaha dU~? tumhe pasanda AyegA? 'kahie nA?' jinamati bhAvavibhora ho utthii| 'dekho, maiM to tumheM 'jinu' kahU~gI aura merI choTI bahana mAnUMgI tumheM, bolo, kabUla hai nA? 'dIdI' bolatI huI jinamati kI A~khoM meM sneha hilora lene lgaa| ___ 'Aha Aja maiM kitanI khuza hU~! mujhe merI choTI bahana milii| mujhe koI 'dIdI' kahakara pukArane vAlA milaa| merI jinu!' priyaMgumati ne use, apane pAsa khIMca liyA aura apane aMkoM meM bhara liyaa| jinamati kA roma-roma pulakita bana rahA thaa| priyaMgumati ke zvAsoM kI saghanatA usake mana mastiSka ko Ananda kI anubhUti se bhara rahI thii| phira to donoM bAteM karatI hI calI... AtmIyatA ke Aloka meM donoM eka dUsare ke aMtastala kI gaharAiyoM ko chUne lgii| eka prahara bIta gyaa| jinamati ne vidA maaNgii| 'dIdI, maiM jAU~ aba? mA~ rAha dekha rahI hogii|' "kala AogI nA, jinu?' 'prayatna karU~gI diidii| 'nahIM jinu AnA hI hogaa| mujhe kitanI prasannatA milI tumase milane meM / jinu, saca maiM tujhe bahuta cAhatI hU~, mere hRdaya meM apane lie kitanI jagaha kara lI tUne?' 'acchA dIdI, avazya aauuNgii| kahakara jinamati lauTa AI apane ghara | dina bItate haiN| priyaMgumati aura jinamati ke bIca AtmIyatA kI anubhUti gAr3ha banatI calI, bar3hatI clii| varSoM kI snehalatA mAnoM mUrta ho utthii| priyaMgumati jinamati ko apane manobhAva kI jarA bhI gaMdha nahIM Ane detI hai| kAmagajendra bhI svayaM kA manomaMthana priyaMgumati se chipAne kA niSphala prayAsa kara rahA thaa| jinamati to muktamana se priyaMgumati ke pAsa AtI hai| ha~sI ke phavvAre aura khilakhilAhaTa ke bIca donoM eka dUsare meM aikya kI anubhUti pAte haiN| kAmagajendra bhI chipI najaroM se jinamati ko dekha letA hai para priyaMgumati ko kisI bhI taraha kI zaMkA na ho isakI pUrI sAvadhAnI rakhatA hai| kAmagajendra soca rahA thA- 'patnI preyasI ko kabUla nahI krtii|' vaha mana For Private And Personal Use Only

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dIdI 16 hI mana jinamati ko apanI preyasI mAna baiThA hai| hAlA~ki aba taka kAmagajendra ne jinamati ke sAtha jarA sI bhI bAta nahIM kI thii| hA~, usakA mana avazya jinamati ke sauMdaryapAza meM baMdha gayA thaa| para vaha apane mana ko niyaMtrita karane kA prayatna karatA thaa| priyaMgumati ke dila ko jarA bhI duHkhI karanA vaha nahIM cAhatA thaa| vaha priyaMgumati ko samagratA se pyAra karatA thaa| priyaMgumati ke sahavAsa meM use koI duHkha nahIM thA, koI zikavA yA zikAyata nahIM thii| phira bhI mAnava mana hai na? bar3I majabUra avasthA bana jAtI hai, kabhI-kabhI mAnava mana kii| ___ priyaMgumati kI tarapha se use jarA bhI asaMtoSa nahIM hai| phira bhI kAmagajendra jinamati ko apanI svapnasundarI mAna baiThA hai, usane sapaneM sajA rakhe haiN| jinamati ke sAtha pyAra ke sapane! para aisA kucha karane ko vaha sahasA taiyAra nahIM hai ki jisase priyaMgumati ko pIr3A ho, usakA hRdaya TUTa jaaye| aisA kucha bhI karane ke lie vaha taiyAra nahIM hai| ___ jaba jinamati kA mahala meM Ana-jAnA bar3ha gayA, priyaMgumati aura jinamati paraspara nikaTa Ane lagI, unake sambandha gAr3ha banane lage to kAmagajendra ke mana ko bhI eka anajAna tRpti kA ahasAsa hone lgaa| para priyaMgumati kI painI najara kAmagajendra ke cehare kA barAbara adhyayana kara rahI thii| jinamati ke lie vaha kitanA kucha soca rahI thii| priyaMgumati ne jinamati meM Adarza patnI ke aneka lakSaNa dekhe| 'kAryeSu mantrI karaNeSu dAsI' ke anusAra usane usameM eka puruSa ke abhinna sacce mitra banane kI yogyatA paayii| vAtsalya bharI mAtA, prema bharI pramadA, maitrI bharA mitra, rUpayauvanapUrNa lalanA...eka strI ke aneka rUpa usane jinamati ke vyaktitva meM pAye, itanA hI nahIM, usakI sahanazIlatA kI parIkSA karake usameM sarvasahA dharitrI kA rUpa bhI paayaa| dhArmikatA ke bhAva bhI usane jinamati ke prANoM meM prANavAna paaye| ___ priyaMgumati kA yaha apUrva adbhuta nirIkSaNa aura parIkSaNa thaa| usakI eka hI manokAmanA thI- kAmagajendra ko jyAdA se jyAdA sukha mile| cU~ki vaha kAmagajendra ko apane pUre hRdaya se cAhatI thii| usake lie kAmagajendra kI prasannatA se bar3hakara dUsarA kucha nahIM thaa| vaha jAnatI thI ki kAmagajendra jinamati ko mana hI mana pyAra karatA hai aura jinamati ke mana kI gaharAiyoM ko usane chU liyA thaa| kAmagajendra ke prati jinamati kI AMtara prIti bhI usase aparicita nahIM thii| yadi jinamati kAmagajendra kI patnI bane to vaha svayaM khuza thii| cU~ki vaha cAhatI thI apane pati kI AMtara-bAhya prasannatA ko / For Private And Personal Use Only

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17 dIdI vaha apane pati ko svaira vihArI banA dekhanA nahIM cAhatI thii| vaha apane pati ko unmArgagAmI banAnA nahIM cAhatI thii| priyaMgumati kAmagajendra ko pUrI taraha samajha pAyI thii| kAmagajendra kI car3hatI javAnI thii| vaha rAjakumAra thaa| usake pAsa yauvana thaa| vaibhava thaa| itanA hI nahIM, usameM kaI vizeSa guNa bhI the| eka patnI apane pati se jo cAhanA rakhe vaha saba pUrI karane kI usakI kSamatA thii| jaise usane apane pati ko pahacAnA thA vaise usane jinamati kA bhI acchI taraha adhyayana kiyA thaa| usakI samajhazakti ne, usakI caMcalatA ne, premArdratA ne, usake bhAvukatA bhare vyavahAra ne priyaMgumati ko kAphI prabhAvita kara diyA thaa| __ priyaMgumati kA hRdaya jinamati kI tarapha isa kadara khIMca gayA thA ki jinamati ko hamezA ke lie apane pAsa rakhane ke sapane vaha dekhane lgii| usane yaha bhI mahasUsa kiyA ki jinamati mana hI mana kAmagajendra ko apanA sarvasva samajha baiThI hai! rAjya ke mahattvapUrNa kArya se kAmagajendra ko tIna dina ke lie dUra ke gA~va jAnA pdd'aa| priyaMgumati kI premabharI kAmanAoM ko lekara kAmagajendra calA gyaa| priyaMgumati apane zayanakhaMDa meM kalyANI ke sAtha bAteM karatI baiThI thii| itane meM jinamati ne praveza kiyaa| priyaMgumati kI A~kheM camaka utthii| ___ 'A, jinu! kitanI lambI Ayu lekara AI hai tU? maiM abhI terI hI bAteM kara rahI thI kalyANI ke sAtha! maiM soca hI rahI thI ki Aja kA pUrA dina kaise bitegA? acchA huA tU A gyii|' jinamati ko apane pAsa biThAkara usake mastiSka ko apane sIne se lagAte hue priyaMgumati jinamati ke sara ko sahalAne lgii| 'dIdI, saca kahU~? mujhe to yaha mahala, merI dIdI aura...yaha saba bar3A pyArA lagatA hai|' jinamati kI A~khoM meM pAradarzinI saralatA jhalakane lgii| yaha saba terA hI to hai jinu, aura terI dIdI bhI to terI ho cukI hai|' priyaMgumati ke cehare para muskarAhaTa chA gyii| jinamati kI A~kheM chalachalA sI gyii| ___'dIdI, aise kahIM apanA mAnane se thor3e koI apanA ho jAtA hai? apanA manacAhA tabhI to milatA hai jaba puNya kI parAkASThA ho' jinamati ke svara meM darda kI TIseM ubhara aaii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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dIdI 18 'merI jinu kitanI puNyazAlI hai! jinamati ko apane pAsa khIMcakara apane sIne se lagA lii| vaha jinu kI nIlama sI camakatI A~khoM meM jhA~kane lgii| ___ kalyANI jA cUkI thii| khaMDa meM mAtra do saheliyA~ hI raha gaI thii| eka cuppI sI chA gaI thii| 'jinu, eka prazna pUchU?' 'eka nahIM aneka, dIdI! lagatA hai tuma mujhe pUchatI hI calo, maiM tumheM javAba detI hI rhuuN| tumhArI ghaMTiyoM sI AvAja mere manomaMdira meM sadA ke lie gUMjatI rhe| dIdI, merI pyArI dIdI, mujhe tuma... aura jinamati ne apanA ceharA priyaMgumati'ke utsaMga meM chipA diyaa| 'jinu!' priyaMgu ne usake cehare ko Upara uThAte hue, usakI A~khoM meM jhA~kA | "jinu, tUne dharmagranthoM kA adhyayana kiyA hai na?' 'hA~ dIdI, jyAdA to nahIM para thor3e bahuta granthoM kA adhyayana kiyA hai|' 'para tUne adhyayana kiyA to hai na?' 'hA~ merI mAtA ke Agraha se|' 'terI mA~ bahuta dharmazIlA haiN| nahIM?' 'bahuta dhArmika vicAra-vyavahAra vAlI hai mA~, para itanI hI premabharI aura vAtsalya ke vAridhi sI hai merI mA~! hA~, para dIdI Apa kyA pUcha rahI thI?' 'ye phira Apa... Apa...' 'acchA dIdI, aba nahIM... bhUla ho gii| 'jinu, kyA eka puruSa do patnI nahIM kara sakatA hai? aura kare to kyA dharmaviruddha hogA? vaha?' priyaMgu ne apane mana meM dabe prazna ko Akhira pragaTa kara diyaa| ___ 'jinamati pahale to cauka uThI, para turanta sahaja banakara javAba diyA : dIdI, kyA bhagavAna RSabhadeva ko do patniyA~ nahIM thI? caramazarIrI bharata cakravartI ko kyA hajAroM rAniyA~ nahIM thI? to kyA ve mahApuruSa dharmaviruddha AcaraNa karane vAle the?' 'dekha jinu, tIrthaMkara aura cakravartiyoM kI bAta alaga hai| tIrthaMkaroM ne jo kiyA vaha apana nahIM kara sakate, para unhoMne jo kahA hai vaise karane kA hai|' 'acchA, calo jAne do isa bAta ko | para tIrthakaroM ne manA thor3I hI kI hai For Private And Personal Use Only

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19 dIdI aneka patniyA~ karane kI?' jinamati ne prazna kiyaa| 'tIrthaMkaroM ne parastrIgamana kA niSedha kiyA hai| apanI patnI ke sAtha sahavAsa kI manAhI nahIM kI hai|' 'para patniyA~ kitanI?' 'puruSa kI pAlana karane kI, rakSaNa karane kI aura saMtuSTa karane kI zakti ho utnii| 'para Upara-Upara se dekhA jAya aura AtmadRSTi se socA jAya to yaha rAgadazA ko puSTa karanA hI hogA na? isase to kAmavAsanA prabala banegI nA? isase samAja kA kitanA ahita hogA?' 'dIdI, basa vahI to bhramaNA hai| kyA jise eka hI patnI ho usakI kAmavAsanA prabala nahIM banatI hai? kyA eka hI strI meM lubdha jIvAtmA durgatigAmI nahIM banatI? aura kyA aneka patnI vAle mukti ke yAtrI nahIM banate? ekAnta se to koI niyama nahIM hai|' 'hA~, vaha to hai hii| aneka striyoM kA tyAga karake bhI kaI jIvAtmAe~ muktigAmI banI haiN|' "to phira isakA artha yaha huA ki eka patnI ho yA aneka patnI ho, mukta banane ke lie to Asakti meM se bAhara nikalanA jarUrI hai| aisA koI niyama nahIM hai ki eka patnIvAlA jalda anAsakta banatA hai aura bahupatnIvAlA dera se anAsakta banatA ho... saca to yaha hai ki jisakI jJAnadRSTi khula jAya vaha anAsakta banatA hai, cAhe phira vaha eka patnIvAlA ho yA aneka patnIvAlA ho|' 'terI bAta to jinu, vicAraNIya hai|' 'nahIM dIdI, vicArane jaisI kyoM? merI dRSTi meM to yaha bAta spaSTa, satya evaM sahaja lagatI hai| tumhIM soco : jo puruSa eka hI strI meM, apanI patnI meM, santuSTa nahIM hote haiM, yadi unheM dUsarI patnI ke lie niSedha kara deM to kyA ve durAcAra kI rAha para nahIM cale jAte? vaha to kitanA bar3A pApa hogA para yadi puruSa samartha hai, dUsarI striyoM kA poSaNa karane meM, saMtuSTa karane meM sakSama hai aura aneka striyoM ko kisI bhI taraha ke saMgharSa ke binA sahajIvana kA Ananda de sakatA ho to vaha kara sakatA hai dUsarI strI se zAdI, bIcameM...,thor3A rukakara usane bAta Age bar3hAI : For Private And Personal Use Only

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20 dIdI 'hA~, para yadi patniyoM ke bIca mela-jola na ho, ISyA-dveSa vagairaha paidA hote hoM to phira becAre usa puruSa kI pUrI bAraha kaba baja jAyegI! aura jinamati khilakhilA utthii| ___ 'para jinu, striyoM meM ISyA aura usameM bhI apanI sauta para to DAha ho hI jAtI hai| __ 'hotA hai aisA bhI, para sabhI kI bAta aisI nahIM hotii| striyA~ udAra vicAravAlI gambhIra hRdaya kI bhI hotI hI haiN| are, vaha bAta chor3o, apane to puNya kA siddhAnta mAnate hai nA? to phira sIdhI aura saca bAta yahI hai ki puNyazAlI puruSa ko striyA~ bhI itanI sarala aura anukUla hI milegii| yadi usakA pApodaya hogA to use eka patnI bhI aisI karkazA milegI ki nAkoM canA cabavA degii| jinamati kI ha~sI meM priyaMgumati kI ha~sI bhI mila gyii| ___ 'jina, vaidika dharma to eka hI patnI kA siddhAnta mAnatA hai nA?' 'hA~ dIdI! bar3e bholepana se usane kahA- "rAma ko eka patnI hone kI bAta karate hai parantu kRSNa ke kitanI patniyA~ thI? kitanI gopiyoM ke sAtha kRSNa ne rAsa racAye the? 'hA~, yaha to bar3I behUdI bAta lagatI hai|' priyaguMmati jinamati kI tarkazakti para ApharIna ho utthii| jinamati kI najara pazcima ke vAtAyana kI tarapha gyii| sUrya astAcala kI tarapha Age bar3ha rahA thaa| sA~jha kI belA ghira rahI thii| vaha cauka utthii| 'dIdI, acchA to aba maiM calU~ / mA~ rAha dekha rahI hogii| pitAjI aura bhaiyA bhI to bhojana ke lie A gaye hoNge|' ___ 'tuma saba sAtha hI khAnA khAte ho,?' 'hA~ dIdI, zAma kA khAnA hama saba sAtha hI khAte haiN|' 'kitanA pyArabharA parivAra hai terA! saca, tU bar3I bhAgyazAlinI hai| acchA, batA, vApasa kaba lauTegI?' 'tuma kaho taba diidii| __ 'to Aja zAma ko devadarzanAdi se nivRta hokara A jaanaa| mA~ ko bola denA- rAta yahIM rukanA, bAteM kreNge|' 'para yuvarAja...?' For Private And Personal Use Only

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dIdI 1 've tIna dina ke lie yAtrA para gaye haiM Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir 21 'acchA, aba bAta samajha meM AI ! isalie hI mujhe nimantraNa milA hai|' vaha priyaMgumati se bAteM karatI thI para usakI A~kheM to kAmagajendra ko hI khoja rahI thI / usake mana kI duvidhA miTa gaI / 'are! jinu, tujhe nimantraNa kaisA? icchA ho to merI bahana ko yahIM rakha lU~ mere pAsa ?' 'acchA dIdI, rAta ko A jaauuNgii|' jinamati tvarita gati se vahA~ se calI gaI / kalyANI ne bhojana kI thAlI lekara praveza kiyA / 'Aja to jinamati kAphI dera taka baiThI, nahIM?' kalyANI ne thAlI rakhate hue pUchA / 'hA~, bAtoM meM kho gaye the|' For Private And Personal Use Only 'kitanI acchI hai jinamati ! Apa to usako chor3atI hI nahIM ! saca aisI kanyA apane nagara meM to dUsarI hai hI nahIM / ' 'hA~, na jAne kyoM mujhe jinu se itanA sneha ba~dha gayA hai!' kahakara priyaMgumati bhojana kI taiyArI karane lagI /

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra mana kI bAta 22 4. mana kI bAta priyaMgumati jinamati kI buddhi ko nApanA cAhatI thI aura usane nApa liyaa| jinamati meM usane kaI asAdhAraNa guNa dekhe, jo ki adhikAMza striyoM meM nahIM pAye jaate| rUpa aura yauvana ke sAtha-sAtha usameM viziSTi guNa evaM kuzAgra buddhi thI, svatantra vicArazakti bhI thii| dUsarI ora usane apanA aura kAmagajendra kA bhI vicAra kara liyA / use kAmagajendra para aTUTa vizvAsa evaM pragAr3ha zraddhA thI ki kAmagajendra usako - priyaMgumati ko kabhI bhUlegA nahIM / usake prema meM koI kamI nahIM AyegI / are! jinamati svayaM hI kAmagajendra ko mujha se dUra karanA nahIM caahegii| yaha usa samaya kI bAta hai jaba rAjakumAra aneka zAdiyA~ karate the| sAmAjika dRSTikoNa se aneka zAdI anaitika yA anucita nahIM mAnI jAtI thii| priyaMgumati ne jinamati kI zAdI kAmagajendra ke sAtha kara dene kI mana meM ThAna lii| kAmagajendra gA~va ke daure para se lauTa AyA thaa| priyaMgumati ne Aja hI bAta karane kA nirNaya kiyA / sA~jha kI belA jhUma rahI thI / mahala ke jharokhe meM donoM baiThe the| pyAra manuhAra kI bAteM cala rahI thI aura vahA~ jinamati A pahu~cI / use patA nahIM thA ki kAmagajendra A gaye haiN| vaha to 'dIdI' kahakara cillAtI huI havA kI taraha jharokhe kI ora calI AyI, para kAmagajendra ko dekhate hI vaha mAre zarama ke pAnI-pAnI ho gii| dIvAra ke sahAre jheMpatI huI khar3I hokara usane A~kheM jhUkA dI / 'A, jinu !' priyaMgumati jinamati ko jheMpatI huI dekhakara ha~sa par3I / kAmagajendra to jinamati ko tAkatA hI rahA / zarma se lAla bane usake cehare kA nikhAra, yauvana se alasAyI usakI deha dekhakara vaha stabdha sA raha gayA / 'dIdI, maiM bAda meM AU~gI / ' kahakara priyaMgumati kI tarapha eka madhura smita pheMkakara jinamati vahA~ se hiranI kI bhA~ti daur3a gii| For Private And Personal Use Only 'pichale kucha dinoM se mere sAtha itanI ghula-mila gayI hai ki basa, dina meM do bAra na Aye to, na to ise caina par3atA hai aura na hI mujhe / ' priyaMgumati ne kAmagajendra kI ora dekhakara kahA /

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23 mana kI bAta ___ 'bar3I zarmilI hai na?' kAmagajendra ne Aja sarvaprathama jinamati ke bAre meM apanI jubAna kholii| 'ApakI upasthiti meM to becArI zaramA hI jAyegI na?' kAmagajendra mauna rhaa| priyaMgumati ko lagA ki aba bAta karane kA acchA maukA hai| 'mujhe isase bahuta pyAra ho gayA hai| itanA apanatva ho cukA hai ki basa...apane pAsa hI rakha lU~ isako sadA ke lie! aisA hI AtA hai dimAga meM! __'to phira rakha le na!' kAmagajendra ke hAsya se vAtAvaraNa bhara gyaa| 'para ApakI ijAjata bhI to cAhiye nA!' 'are! bhalA isameM merI ijAjata kI kyA jarUrata hai?' 'kyoM nahIM? maiM koI ise apanI dAsI banAkara thor3e hI rkhuugii| 'to?' kAmagajendra priyaMgumati ko dekhatA hI rhaa| usakI pAradarzI A~khoM meM pyAra, samarpaNa aura sahajatA kA sAgara uchala rahA thaa| 'to kyA?' use to merI bahana banAkara rakha sakatI huuN| aba batAiye, isameM ApakI ijAjata cAhiye yA nahIM?' 'Aja terI bAta merI samajha meM nahIM A rahI hai|' 'saca-saca batA dU~? 'niHsNkoc|' 'Apa jinamati ke sAtha zAdI kara lo|' kAmagajendra stabdha sA raha gyaa| hAlA~ki usakI manokAmanA yahI thI para priyaMgumati svayaM yaha prastAva rakhegI aisA to usane socA bhI nahIM thaa| vaha sihara utthaa| usakI A~kheM priyaMgumati kI A~khoM meM kho gii| priyaMgamati ne bar3e pyAra se usake hAtha ko apane hAtha meM liyA aura sahalAte hue bolI : 'mere deva, merI prArthanA ko svIkAra kro|' 'priyaMgu, tU kyA bola rahI hai? kucha socA bhI hai isa viSaya meM?' 'maiM ApakA vicAra nahIM karU~gI to kisakA karU~gI? Apa kahie na khulakara | mujhase Apa paradA kyoM rakhate haiM? kyA Apa jinamati se mana hI mana pyAra nahIM karate? kyA Apa usake binA becaina nahIM haiM?' 'terI bAta saca hai, para maiM zAdI nahIM kara sakatA! For Private And Personal Use Only

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24 mana kI bAta kAmagajendra ne nIlAkAza meM najara pheNkii| candramA kI zItala kiraNoM kA jAla pRthvI para bichA jA rahA thaa| khilI huI cA~danI aura samIpa ke udyAna meM mahakate hue rajanIgaMdhA ke phUla vAtAvaraNa ko suhAvanA banA rahe the| usake cehare para gambhIratA chA gayI / ___ 'are, Apa itane nArAja kyoM ho rahe ho? Akhira Apa manA kyoM kara rahe haiM?' priyaMgumati ne kAmagajendra ke cehare ko apanI hatheliyoM meM bA~dha liyaa| ___ 'maiM tere pyAra ko dhokhA denA nahIM caahtaa|' priyaMgumati ke sAmane binA dekhe hI kucha dardabharI AvAja meM kAmagajendra ne khaa| "jinamati ke sAtha zAdI karane meM mere pyAra ko dhokhA kaise? maiM hI to Apako kaha rahI hU~, bar3I prasannatA se kaha rahI hU~, jinamati ko maiM bahuta cAhatI hU~, use maiM hamezA-hamezA ke lie mere samIpa, mere pAsa... ___ 'hA~, maiM samajha gayA devI, tuma jinamati ko kyoM cAhatI ho? cU~ki tuma mujhe cAhatI ho, mere sukha kI khAtira, mere mana kI vAsanA hetu tuma apane sukha svecchayA tyAga kara rahI ho|' kAmagajendra ne priyaMgumati ke hAthoM ko apanI hatheliyoM meM jakar3akara priyaMgumati kI ora dekhA / prema aura samarpaNa kI sAkAra pratimA kA rUpa usane priyaMgumati ke vyaktitva meM paayaa| 'tUne mujhe kyA nahIM diyA? tere meM kamI bhI kyA hai?' kAmagajendra kI AvAja meM TIseM ubhrii| usakI A~kheM chalachalA gyii| 'maiM ApakI hI hU~ na? ApameM hI to maiMne apanA sarvasva vilIna kiyA hai| ApakI khuzI ke lie maiM hara samaya taiyAra huuN| Apase bar3hakara bhalA mere lie kyA hogA?' 'to phira kyoM jinamati ke sAtha zAdI karU~?' mere lie, jinamati ke lie, vaha Apako hRdaya se cAhatI hai, kyA Apa nahIM pahacAna pAye usakI manokAmanA ko? abhI-abhI vaha kaisI lAjavantI kI bhaoNti zaramA gayI thI Apako dekhakara? usakI hara dhar3akana meM mAnoM ApakI hI smRti hai| pichale kaI dinoM se vaha AtI to hai mujhase milane ke lie, para usakI A~kheM Apako hI DhU~r3hatI rahatI hai| Apako dekhakara usakA ceharA kaisA khila uThatA hai? usakA pUrA astitva mahaka uThatA hai| priyaMgumati kI kalpanA meM jinamati kI sokara uThe hue nirdoSa mRgachaune sI alasa A~kheM taira aayii| 'devI, maiM nahIM cAhatA tumase mere mana kI bAta chipAnA, mujhe jinamati ke For Private And Personal Use Only

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25 mana kI bAta prati gaharA anurAga hai| jabase maiMne use mahala ke sAmane ke jharokhe meM dekhA hai taba se vaha mere mana-mastiSka para chA cukI hai| usane mere dilo-dimAga para adhikAra jamA liyA hai| para... _ 'para kucha nhiiN| Apa merA vicAra kara rahe ho nA? mata kro| jinamati saMsAra kI sAdhAraNa striyoM jaisI nahIM hai| usameM asAdhAraNa guNa hai| vaha apane bIca kabhI dIvAra banegI hI nhiiN| vaha mujhe Apase alaga karegI hI nhiiN| vaha svArthI, abhimAnI yA DAhavAlI nahIM hai| Apa vizvAsa rkhiye|' __ mahala kI mu~Dera para ratnoM ke diye jhagamagA rahe the| rAta kA prathama prahara bIta rahA thA / yuvarAja evaM yuvarAjJI vArtAlApa meM kho gaye the| kAmagajendra priyaMgumati ke AMtara-vyaktitva meM khoyA jA rahA thaa| priyaMgumati kI udAratA, gambhIratA aura samarpaNa kI uccatama bhUmikA dekhakara usakA hRdaya sneha se chalachalA utthaa| _ 'khaira, mAnaliyA, jinamati suyogya kanyA hai| vaha svArthI nahIM, kabUla hai para maiM khuda hI usameM kho gayA to? aura phira tujhe bhulA diyA to? puruSa ke bhramara se mana ko tuma jAnatI ho nA?' ___ 'ophphoha! kaisI bAteM kara rahe ho Apa? Apa mujhe kabhI bhulA hI nahIM skte| mujhe vizvAsa hai| aura kabhI Apa jinamati meM kho bhI jAyeMge to kho jAnA, jinamati meM bhI Apa priyaMgumati ko pAyeMge!' 'parantu isase tujhe kyA sukha milegA?' 'ApakA sukha vahI merA sukha / Apako sukhI aura prasanna dekhakara maiM bhI sukhAnubhava kruuNgii| daihika sukha se bhI mAnasika sukhAnubhUti jyAdA prasannatAdAyI banatI hai|' 'kyA tuma mujhe parAjita karogI?' 'jaba Apane mere tana-mana...are samagra jIvana ko hI jIta liyA hai, phira bhalA ApakI hAra kaise? merI jIta vaha ApakI hI jIta hai nA? kyA apana alaga haiM? Apa aura mere bIca meM bheda ho to bAta hai nA?' kAmagajendra bhAvavibhora ho gyaa| usane priyaMgumati ko snehapAza meM jakar3a liyaa| priyaMgumati ke cehare para prasannatA ke gula khila utthe| dvArapAla ne prathama prahara pUrNa hone kI sUcanA dii| priyaMgumati aura kAmagajendra jharokhe meM se mahala ke bhItara A gaye aura zayanakhaNDa meM cale gye| For Private And Personal Use Only

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mana kI bAta 26 ___ priyaMgumati kA kArya bana gyaa| usakA mana zAMta thaa| palaMga meM girate hI use nidrAdevI ne apanI goda meM khIMca liyA | para kAmagajendra becaina thA / usake lie bar3I ulajhana paidA ho gayI thii| vaha priyaMgumati ke divya premAI vyaktitva ko dekha rahA thaa| pati ke sukha ke lie yaha nArI apanA sarvasva lUTA rahI hai| apanI tamAma AkAMkSAoM ko kucala rahI hai| isake cehare para kitanI apUrva prasannatA chAyI hai! vaha dekhatA hI rahA priyaMgumati ke cehare ko| mere manobhAva isane jAna liye the, phira bhI isane mujhe jarA sI bhI bhanaka nahIM Ane dI ki yaha mere manobhAva jAna cukI hai| na koI pratirodha! na koI gussA! balki jinamati ke sAtha zAdI karavAne ke lie taiyAra ho gii| yaha isakI kitanI uttamatA hai| para merA kartavya kyA? kyA maiM jinamati ke sAtha zAdI kara lU~? yaha ucita hogA? isane to merI anumati le lii| hAlA~ki vAstava meM to mujhe pasanda hI hai| kyA maiM nahIM cAhatA hU~ usa yuvatI ko? maiM kyoM khIMca gayA usakI tarapha? kitanA vAsanA-vivaza hai merA mana? maiM kahA~ aura yaha sAdhvI jaisI priyaMgumati kahA~? kAmagajendra manomaMthana meM se tattvaciMtana meM calA jAtA hai| 'merI kaisI vikAra-vivaza dazA hai? ina kAmavikAroM ko maiM acche nahIM' maantaa| AtmA kI aghogati ke kAraNa haiM, ye kAmavikAra | phira bhI maiM ina kAmavikAroM meM bahatA calA jA rahA huuN| samajhatA hU~ ye sAre karmajanya bhAva haiN| merI AtmA to usake mUla svarUpa meM zuddha hai, adhikArI hai| parantu vaha svarUparamaNatA A nahIM rhii| indriyoM ke viSayoM meM lubdha banatA jA rahA hU~, ina indriyoM ko cAhe jitane priya viSaya mile para ye kabhI tRpta hone kI nhiiN| kyA jinamati kA sahavAsa milane para merI manovRtiyA~ tRpta ho jAyeMgI? nahIM, veM to aura jyAdA dhadhaka uttheNgii|' pAsa meM soyI huI priyaMgumati ne karavaTa bdlii| usake mukha meM se aspaSTa zabda nikala rahe- "jinu! unhoMne merI bAta mAna lii| tU merI choTI bahana... kAmagajendra bhItara taka saMvedanA se sihara uThA' are! yaha to sapane meM bhI jinamati ke pAsa calI gii| isake mana meM jAne eka yahIM bAta basI hai!' kAmagajendra ne vicAroM meM hI rAtri kA dUsarA prahara pUrNa kiyaa| nidrA to Aja usake pAsa hI nahIM A rahI thii| vicAroM se mukta banane ke lie usane parameSThi-padoM ke dhyAna meM apanI cetanA ko bA~dhanA caahaa| zayanakhaNDa ke dIpa For Private And Personal Use Only

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27 mana kI bAta maddhima-maddhima rauzanI de rahe the| madhyarAtri kA samaya ho cukA thaa| kAmagajendra kA citta vAtAvaraNa kI nIravatA meM vicAroM se mukta hone lgaa| pazcima se Ane vAlI manda-manda havA ke jhoMke kAmagajendra ko sparza kara rahe the acAnaka priyaMgumati kI A~kheM khula gii| 'are, kyA Apa abhI bhI jAga rahe haiM?' vaha uThakara palaMga meM baiTha gii| 'aba nIMda A rahI hai|' kAmagajendra priyaMgumati kI goda meM sara rakhakara so gyaa| priyaMgumati usake kAle-kAle dhuMgharAle bAloM ko apanI karAMguliyoM se sahalAne lgii| kAmagajendra ko nIMda A gii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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do deha eka prANa 28 || 5. do deha eka prANa / jinamati kI zAdI kAmagajendra ke sAtha bhalI-bhA~ti ho gii| priyaMgumati kA socA huA kArya pUrA ho gyaa| kAmagajendra kI kAmanA pUrI huI aura jinamati ke manoratha bhI pUrNa ho gye| ___ saMsAra meM aise sambandha ba~dha to jAte haiM para dIrghakAla, jIvanaparyaMta aise sambandha bane rahanA mumakina nhiiN| isakA kAraNa jIvAtmA ke puNya-pApa haiM, aisA dharmagrantha kahate Ae haiM | mAnavazAstrI isa bAta ko mAnava svabhAva ke guNadoSa ke siddhAMta se samajhAte haiN| kAmagajendra kA sneha donoM patniyoM para hai| priyaMgumati kA sneha kAmagajendra aura jinamati donoM para barasa rahA hai| jinamati bhI kAmagajendra aura priyaMgumati para apanA samUcA prema ur3ela rahI hai| parivAra meM na to saMgharSa hai aura na hI tanAva / na to IrSyA aura na hI spardhA | sneha guNa-doSa kI ora najara karatA hI nhiiN| guNa-doSa ke mAdhyama se ba~dhA sneha lambe arase taka nahIM Tika sakatA, akhaNDa nahIM raha pAtA, bar3hatA nahIM jaataa| jinamati, priyaMgumati aura kAmagajendra kA paraspara kA sneha pragAr3ha aura gaharA thaa| kAmagajendra kA bAhya vyaktitva rAga aura vilAsa se raMgA huA dikhatA hai para antarAtmadazA to bilkula hI bhinna hai / antarAtmA se vaha virAgI hai, virakta hai| jJAtA hai, draSTA hai| kyA aisA virodhAbhAsI vyaktitva ho sakatA hai? hA~, ho sakatA hai| manuSya bAhara se jaisA dikhatA ho andara se vaisA hI ho aisA koI sanAtana niyama nahIM hai| jaisA andara meM ho vaisA hI bAhara se dikhanA cAhie, aisA bhI koI sarvamAnya siddhAnta nahIM hai| bAhara se sAdhu dikhane vAlA bhItara se zaitAna bhI ho sakatA hai| andara se sAdhu ho para bAhara se hameM zaitAna dikhAI de, yaha bhI zakya hai| bhItara se bhI sAdhu aura bAhara se bhI sAdhu, aisI virala AtmAe~ bhI ho sakatI haiN| ina zakyatAoM kA apalApa hama nahIM kara skte| zreSThikanyA rAjakumAra kI patnI bnii| jinamati ke pAsa yauvana thA para unmAda nahIM thaa| usake pAsa rUpa evaM saundarya thA para garva nahI thaa| usake pAsa mIThe bola the para vAcAlatA nahIM thii| jinamati kAryakuzala thI para For Private And Personal Use Only

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29 do deha eka prANa ahaMkAra use chU bhI nahIM pAyA thaa| jinamati ke sahavAsa meM kAmagajendra vaiSayika sukha pAne lgaa| jinamati ne kAmagajendra ko apanA sarvasva sauMpa diyaa| kAmagajendra ke samUce vyaktitva ko apane prema se bharA-pUrA banA diyaa| kAmagajendra ne bhI jinamati ke tana-mana ko tRpta karane meM kamI na rkhii| ___ eka dina jinamati priyaMgumati ke khaNDa meM, priyaMgumati ke utsaMga meM apanA sara rakhakara priyaMgumati se vArtAlApa kara rahI thii| ___ 'jinu, terA mahala taiyAra ho gayA hai, mujhe Aja hI mahAmantrI ne samAcAra diye| 'merA mahala? to phira yaha mahala kisakA hai dIdI?' jinamati ne priyaMgumati kI jhIla sI gaharI A~khoM meM jhaaNkaa| 'tere lie svatantra mahala cAhie na! isIlie maiMne hI banavAyA hai|' 'to kyA maiM yahA~ paratantra hU~? yahA~ kabhI tumane mujhe udAsa dekhA? azAMta dekhA? kyA merA tumhAre sAtha rahanA tumheM acchA nahIM lagatA? kyA maiM tumheM acchI nahIM lagatI?' jinamati kI A~khoM ke kinAre A~sUoM se chala-chalA utthe| 'jinu, priyaMgumati ne usako apane samIpa khIMcakara usakI A~khoM meM jhA~kA | tU mujhe kitanI pyArI hai, kyA maiM zabdoM meM kaha batAU~? tU to merI dUsarI AtmA hai| 'to kyA apanI AtmA ko dUra karogI, dIdI? tumhAre sAtha rahakara maiM kitanI khuza hU~, prasanna hU~, mujhe apanI pyAra-bharI mA~ kI bhI yAda nahIM satAtI / mujhe dUra mata karo, diidii| mujhe alaga mahala nahIM caahie| maiM isa goda meM hI rahU~gI, merA mahala to yahI hai| jinamati ne apanA sara priyaMgumati ke sIne para rakha diyaa| priyaMgumati ne usako apane aMkapAza meM bharate hue kahA- "acchA jinu, terI icchA nahIM to tujhe maiM apane se dUra nahIM karU~gI basa! / jinamati ke hoMTha muskarA uThe / vo priyaMgumati ko 'dIdI' kahatI huI lipaTa gyii| priyaMgumati kA hRdaya bhI pyAra se bhara gyaa| ___ donoM bAteM kara rahe the, itane meM kalyANI ne Akara sUcanA dI, "mahAdevI, mahArAjakumAra udyAna meM padhAra rahe haiM, Apako yAda kara rahe haiN|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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do deha eka prANa 30 ___ priyaMgumati khar3I ho gii| jinamati ko sAtha Ane ke lie kahA para jinamati ne kAmagajendra ke bhojana kI vyavasthA kI jimmedArI khuda uThA rakhI thI, ataH usane kahA- "dIdI, tuma jaao| maiM rasoIghara meM jaauuNgii| samaya ho cukA hai| ___ priyaMgumati jaba kAmagajendra ke pAsa pahu~cI, kAmagajendra ratha meM baiTha gayA thaa| priyaMgumati bhI ratha para baiTha gii| ratha nagara ke bAhara udyAna kI tarapha daur3ane lagA | jaba ratha nagara ke bAhara zUnya pradeza meM A pahu~cA taba kAmagajendra ne priyaMgumati ke cehare para najara pheNkii| 'devI! 'svAmina! 'jinu ke lie nayA mahala banavAyA?' 'rAjaparivAra kI yahI paramparA hai|' 'jinu ko vahA~ acchA lagegA?' 'nhiiN| 'to phira? 'vaha isI mahala meM rhegii| 'mujhe thA hI ki tere binA vaha naye mahala meM nahIM raha sktii|' 'kaise rahegI? merI dUsarI AtmA jo hai|' 'pahalI AtmA kauna hai?' 'aap|' udyAna A gyaa| ratha ko udyAna ke bAhara chor3akara donoM ne udyAna meM praveza kiyA / koyala kuhaka uThI / phuloM kI khuzabU mahaka rahI thii| manda-manda samIra jhUma rahA thaa| nisarga kI zobhA ne donoM kA svAgata kiyaa| eka vana-nikuMja meM, sundara latAmaMDapa tale jAkara donoM baiTha gye| kAmagajendra ne priyaMgumati kI tarapha dekhA / priyaMgumati ne kAmagajendra kI nigAhoM ko samajha liyaa| kAmagajendra ke bhAvAloka meM priyaMgumati ke alAvA dUsarA koI dRzya nahIM thaa| mAtra priyaMgumati ke rUpalAvaNya kI hI rasikatA nahIM hai| strI kA rUpa For Private And Personal Use Only

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do deha eka prANa 31 lAvaNya hamezA puruSa ko AkarSita nahIM krtaa| strI kA sthAyI AkarSaNa usameM rahe hue ucca koTi ke guNa banate haiN| priyaMgumati meM rahe hue aise guNoM ne kAmagajendra ko priyaMgumati kI ora satata AkarSita rakhA hai| priyaMgumati mAtra patnI nahIM hai| kabhI mitra to kabhI dAsI bhI bana jAtI hai| virakta hRdaya bhI aise vyaktitva para anurAgI bana jAtA hai| virakta meM bhI guNarAga to chipA huA hotA hI hai| kAmagajendra priyaMgumati ko mAtra apane bhoga-vilAsa ke sAdhanarUpa meM nahIM dekhatA hai aura bhI bahuta sI adbhuta bAteM tathA advitIya guNa usane pAye hai isa sannArI meN| ___ 'priyaMga, terI AtmA saca hI mahAn hai|' kAmagajendra ne priyaMgumati para apanI A~kheM sthApita kii| priyaMgumati kI palakeM Dhala gii| ___ 'yaha maiM terI prazaMsA karane ke liye yA tujhe prasanna karane ke lie nahIM khtaa| mere hRdaya meM jo bhAva paidA hote haiM, mujhe jo lagatA hai, vahI kahatA huuN| kabhI-kabhI to terI mahAnatA ke Age maiM apane Apako baunA pAtA huuN|' _ 'nahIM aisA mata kahie, Apa mahAn haiM isalie ApakI dRSTi meM mahAnatA hai aura maiM Apako mahAna lagatI huuN| 'tU aisA hI kahegI, tU hamezA vinamra rahI hai, phaloM ke bhAra se jhukI DAliyoM kI bhA~ti tU guNoM ke bhAra se jhukI huI rahI hai | maiMne kabhI tere meM abhimAna nahIM paayaa| saca, merA mana tuma para mugdha ho jAtA hai| maiM cAhatA hU~ Aja tU mujhase kucha mA~ga le| tU jo mA~gegI, maiM duuNgaa| diye binA mujhe caina nahIM pdd'egaa|' ___ 'Apa hI mere ho, phira bhalA maiM kyA mA~gUM? jo ApakA hai vaha saba merA hI hai nA! Apase alaga merA kyA hai?' ___ 'nahIM, phira bhI kucha to mA~ganA hI hogaa|' kAmagajendra ne priyaMgumati ke hAthoM ko apanI hatheliyoM meM bA~dha liyA / priyaMgumati ko eka vicAra A gyaa| usake cehare para prasannatA damaka utthii| usane kahA- "acchA, eka vacana mA~gatI huuN|' 'avazya, bol| 'Apa jo kucha nayA dekho, nayI bAteM socoM yA nayA kArya karo to mujhe usase anajAna nahIM rkhnaa| hA~, sapanoM se bhI anajAna mata rkhnaa|' 'tathAstu! terA vacana maMjUra! For Private And Personal Use Only

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do deha eka prANa 32 priyaMgumati ne kaisA vacana mA~gA ? pati ke vicAroM se bhI vaha paricita rahanA cAhatI thii| pati para use tanika bhI saMdeha na thA, svayaM kI asurakSA kA koI bhaya nahIM thA / vaha cAhatI thI svayaM pati kI chAyA banakara rhe| kAmagajendra kI icchAnusAra vaha apanA jIvana banA sake / kabhI use yogya salAha bhI de sake / use upayogI bhI bana sake / kAmagajendra ko patnI para kitanA vizvAsa thA ki apane mana ke vicAra aura sapane bhI apanI patnI ko batA dene kA vacana de ddaalaa| use priyaMgu para pUrNa zraddhA thI ki merI kisI bhI bAta kA vaha durupayoga nahIM kregii| pati-patnI ke bIca kA aisA gaharA prema, itanI utkRSTa zraddhA to zAyada kahIM dekhane ko bhI nahIM milegI / mAtra zarIra ke rUpa-raMga meM aura vaibhava - sampatti kI jhilamilAhaTa meM cakAcaundha bane yuvAvarga ke liye to kalpanA ke bAhara kI hai ye sArI baateN| para ye koI mAtra bAteM nahIM haiM, zuSka kalpanA aura AdarzoM kI ur3Ane nahIM haiN| mAnava mana prema kI aisI U~cI avasthA ko pA sakatA hai, aisI gaharI zraddhA ko prakaTa kara sakatA hai, para cAhie nirmala hRdaya aura gaharI samajha vAlA mana / 'nAtha! aba nagara meM caleM, bhojana kA samaya ho gayA hai|' 'hA~, sUrya astAcala kI ora bhAgA jA rahA hai|' pazcima kI ora A~kheM pherakara kAmagajendra ne kahA aura donoM latAmaNDapa meM se nikala kara udyAna ke bAhara ratha meM jA baitthe| azva nagara kI tarapha daur3ane lge| mahala kI aTTAlikA meM khar3I jinamati ne ratha ko Ate dekhA / vaha zIghra nIce AI / mahala ke bhItara daravAje para khar3I ho gyii| ratha meM se utarakara kAmagajendra aura priyaMgumati ne mahala meM praveza kiyaa| bhItarI dvAra para khar3I jinamati ne donoM kA muskarAhaTa ke sAtha svAgata kiyaa| jinamati kA hAtha pakar3akara priyaMgumati mahala ke andara calI gayI / Avazyaka kAryoM se nivRta hokara tInoM bhojana ke lie bhojanagRha meM pahu~ce / pratidina kramAnusAra donoM rAniyoM ne pAsa baiThakara kAmagajendra ko bhojana krvaayaa| jinamati ke banAye bhojana meM itanI mIThAsa hotI thI ki kAmagajendra prasanna ho utthtaa| bAda meM donoM rAniyA~ sAtha baiThakara bhojana karatI / bhojana karate-karate priyaMgumati ne jinamati se pUchA - " jinu, tU bhojana banAte hue Uba nahIM jAtI? tujhe thakAna nahIM lagatI ? hamAre sAtha udyAna meM AI hotI to?' For Private And Personal Use Only

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do deha eka prANa 33 'thakAna? bhojana banAne meM mujhe kitanA Ananda AtA hai, yaha maiM kaise batAU~? bhalA, apane svAmI ke lie bhojana banAne meM thakAna kaisI ? para bhojana to acchA banA hai na? unheM pasanda AyA na?' 'tU khuda hI unheM pasanda A gayI phira terA bhojana to kitanA pasaMda AtA hogA! ve to tere bhojana kI prasaMzA karate nahIM aghAte / ' jinamati zaramA gayI... usake cehare para muskarAhaTa phaila gyii| jaba se rAjamahala meM jinamati AyI hai, taba se sabhI sUryAsta se pahale bhojana kara lete haiN| mahala ke dAsa-dAsI bhI rAtri bhojana nahIM krte| mAMsAhAra to kadApi nhiiN| jamIkanda bhI mahala meM AnA banda ho gyaa| jinamati kI icchA se kAmagajendra ne mahala ke hI bhumibhAga meM eka sundara jinAlaya kA nirmANa karavA diyaa| jinamati kAmagajendra ko apane sAtha hI paramAtmapUjA ke lie le jAtI hai| priyaMgumati bhI sAtha meM hotI hai| sabhI bhAvavibhora hokara paramAtma-pUjana aura stavana meM lIna hote haiN| zAma ko AratI bhI saba milakara utArate haiN| kAmagajendra priyaMgumati evaM jinamati ke sAtha itanA sukhopabhoga karatA hai ki jitanA zAyada indra bhI raMbhA evaM urvazI ke sAtha nahIM karatA hogA ! For Private And Personal Use Only

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yogI yA bhogI 34 || 6. yogI yA bhogI | AkAza nirabhra thaa| sUraja astAcala kI oTa me chipa gayA thaa| kSitija para saMdhyA ke raMga aThakheliyA~ kara rahe the| paMchI apane-apane nIr3a kI ora lauTa rahe the| vAtAvaraNa meM eka mauna snigdhatA Tapaka rahI thii| pazcima ke vAtAyana meM se kAmagajendra kI A~kheM kSitija kI sataha para raMgabiraMgI cUnara or3he zaramAtI dulhana sI saMdhyA para jAkara ThaharI thii| eka sundara bhadrAsana para baiThA huA kAmagajendra dharA-gagana ke milana-sthala para Taka-TakI bA~dhe mugdha sA ho gayA thaa| usake cehare para gambhIratA chAyI thii| usakI jhIla sI gaharI A~khoM meM gIlApana risa rahA thaa| usakI mukhamudrA zAMta-prazAMta aura suhAvanI laga rahI thii| ___ samIpa ke bhadrAsana para jinamati na jAne kaba se Akara baiTha gayI, kAmagajendra ko isakA AbhAsa bhI na rhaa| jinamati ne dUra hI se kAmagajendra ko saMdhyA kI ora TakaTakI bA~dhe dekhA thA, kucha gahare vicAroM meM DUbA huA dekhA thA, usane jarA bhI khalala na kii| usakI A~kheM bhI saMdhyA ke badalate raMgoM meM jA phuNcii| kucha kSaNeM bIta gii| saMdhyA ke khile-khile raMga rAta kI kAlI cAdara kI oTa meM chipa gye| saMdhyA bIta gaI, rAta kA andherA dhIme-dhIme apanI kAlI cAdara phailAne lagA | kAmagajendra ne gaharI sAMsa lI aura A~kheM mUMda lii| A~kheM kholakara najara kI to pAsa meM hI jinamati baiThI huI thii| usakI A~kheM jinamati meM khilI-khilI saMdhyA kA rUpa nirakhane lgaa| vaha dekhatA hI rhaa| eka zabda bole binA... apalaka nigAhoM meM dekhatA rhaa| jinamati jheMpane lgii| usane apanI palakeM girA dI para turanta hI kAmagajendra ke donoM hAthoM ko apanI hatheliyoM meM bA~dhatI huI pUcha baiThI : 'Apa kuzala to hai na?' 'kuzalatA? isa saMsAra meM kaisI kuzalatA, jinu? Adhi, vyAdhi aura upAdhi se bhare pUre saMsAra meM hama kuzala ho bhI kaise sakate haiM?' 'mere devatA, ApakI bAta sahI hai para maiM to...' 'merI vartamAna kuzalatA pUcha rahI ho nA?' For Private And Personal Use Only

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35 yogI yA bhogI 'jI haaN|' 'jinu, vartamAna hamezA eka hI samaya kA hotA hai| eka samaya kI kuzalatA meM kyA khuza hone kA? ananta bhUtakAla kA vicAra kara, ananta bhaviSya ko dekh| 'Aja abhI ye sAre vicAra karane ke hai?' jinamati ke cehare para smita kI dAminI damaka uThI, para jaba usane pAyA ki kAmagajendra kI gambhIratA akhaNDa hai, to usane bhI gaMbhIratA dhAraNa kara lii| __'vicAra karane se nahIM hote haiM jinu, ve to cale Ate haiM dariye meM acAnaka uThatI laharoM jaise, kabhI kucha dekhakara, kucha sunakara, kucha par3hakara, socakara aura kabhI-kabhI smRtiyoM dvArA saheja kara rakhe saMkalana se| kabhI acche to kabhI bure|' kAmagajendra kI A~kheM jinamati se uThakara vAtAyana ke bAhara jA phuNcii| bAhara ghanA andhakAra chAyA thaa| usane A~kheM mUMda lii| ___ 'maiMne Aja saMdhyA ke donoM rUpa dekhe| eka khilA huA aura eka murajhAyA huaa| eka thA sauMdarya kI raMgabiraMgI sAr3iyoM meM mahakatA huA to dUsarA thA rAta kI kAlI makhamalI cAdara meM lipaTA huaa| jinu, kyA yaha tana, yauvana, yaha jIvana aisA hI nahIM hai? khilI-khilI saMdhyA kA saundarya kitanA lubhAvanA thA? para utanA hI kSaNika! isa jIvana kA saundarya bhI to aisA hI alpakAlIna hai nA!' ___ jinamati ne sammatisUcaka sira hilAyA / kAmagajendra jinamati kI A~khoM meM jhA~kane lgaa| jinamati Aja pahalI hI bAra kAmagajendra ke A~tara-jIvana kI gaharAiyoM meM praveza kara rahI thii| use pala bhara lagA ki kyA yaha mere pati kAmagajendra bola rahe haiM yA phira koI yogI bola rahA hai?' kAmagajendra ne apanA Asana thor3A sA khiskaayaa| jinamati ne bhI apanA Asana kAmagajendra ke sannikaTa khiskaayaa| 'jina! Aja maine saMdhyA kI aThakheliyoM meM yauvana ko dekhaa| jIvana ko dekhA | mujhe to kSaNika lage ye sAre raMga, eka dina yaha saba phIkA par3a jaayegaa| yaha saba mATI ke mola bika jAyegA aura jIvana kI kSitija para a~dhere hI a~dhere A ghireNge| 'tIrthaMkaroM ne bhI aisA hI kahA haiM priya!' jinamati bola utthii| 'Aja merI AtmasaMvedanA bola rahI hai| jinu, pUrNapuruSoM kI vANI kA For Private And Personal Use Only

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36 yogI yA bhogI anubhava dhanya ghar3iyoM meM hotA hai|' 'para vaha anubhava, vaha AtmasaMvedana hotA hai, alpakAlIna hI!' 'anubhava alpakAlIna ho sakatA hai jinu, para usakA AsvAda kSaNika nahIM hotA / anubhava calA jAya para usakI smRti nahIM jaatii| vaha AsvAda punaH punaH AtmabhAva kI ora le jAtA hai|' 'ThIka, vaise hI, pA~coM indriyoM ke viSayasukhoM kA anubhava bhI to kSaNika hI hotA hai nA? parantu usakA AsvAda raha jAtA hai | vaha AsvAda hI AtmA ko punaH punaH viSayabhoga meM dhakela detA hai|' jinamati kA svara mAdhurya se chalaka utthaa| 'yahI to saMgharSa hai jinu, kabhI vaha anubhava jIta jAtA hai kabhI yaha anubhava apanI cAdara tAna detA hai|' ___'para adhikAMza to vaiSayika sukhoM kA anubhava hI jIvAtmA ko jyAdA lalacAtA hai na? ___ 'hA~ bilkula sahI hai| AtmAnubhava kabhI-kabhI ho AtA hai| para vo kabhIkabhI hone vAlA AtmAnubhava jIvAtmA ko viSayopabhoga meM nimagna nahIM banane detaa| dariye meM DubakI lagAnA aura bAta hai jinu, aura DUba jAnA dUsarI bAta hai|' kAmagajendra ne jinamati ko apanA dRSTikoNa smjhaayaa| ___ 'mujhe kabhI vaiSayika sukha pyAre lagate haiM, bar3e acche lagate haiM para kabhI kucha kSaNoM meM to unakA AkarSaNa bilkula hI nahIM rhtaa| kaisA bhI vaiSayika sukha merI aMtazcetanA ko nahIM khIMca paataa|' 'mohanIya karma kI tIvratA aura maMdatA rAga-virAga meM tIvratA-maMdatA lAtI hai| jinamati ne karmasiddhAntoM kA adhyayana gaharAI se kiyA thA, para vaha apane jJAna kA pradarzana karane ke lie nahIM parantu kAmagajendra kI bAta ko hetu dvArA siddha karane ke lie bolii| 'jinu, Aja bhI maiMne merI smRtiyoM kI sIpa meM anubhava kA motI sahejakara rakhA hai| vaha rAta! priyaMgu usake mAyake gaI thii| mujhe ekAMta milA thA... Atma-svarUpa ke ciMtana meM aisI prasannatA milI thI ki bs...|' 'sArI rAta jage hoMge Apa! 'hA~, nIMda AyI hI nahIM thI para vaha sacamuca Aja bhI mujhe prasannatA de jAtA For Private And Personal Use Only

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37 yogI yA bhogI hai| aisA anubhava thA, amRta kA anubhava / ' 'phira Apane vaha anubhava dIdI ko sunAyA thA?' jinamati ha~sa pdd'ii| kAmagajendra ke hoThoM para bhI hAsya phaila gyaa| 'hA~, kahA thaa| use kahane meM eka aura rAta kA jAgaraNa ho gayA! 'mahAdevI ko Apake anubhava kI bAteM pasanda AyI?' 'use merI sArI bAteM pasanda AtI hai| rAga kI bAta karU~ to bhI aura virAga kI bAta karU~ to bhii|' __'cUMki Apa hI unheM pasanda A gaye ho nA! jinamati kI khilakhilAhaTa ne vAtAvaraNa ko rasa diyaa| usake hAsya ne kAmagajendra ko sUkSma bhUmikA ke ciMtana meM se sthUla bhUmikA para lAnA cAhA para kAmagajendra ne phira ciMtana kI gaharI jhIla meM DubakI lagA lii| ___'pasanda AnA yaha rAga hai aura pasanda na AnA yaha dveSa hai| rAga aura dveSa meM AtmA jhUla rahI hai, lagatA hai ye rAga aura dveSa hI sAre duHkhoM kI jar3a hai|' 'parantu priya, strI ke prati pati kA rAga to sukha kA mUla hai nA?' 'kauna sA sukha jinu? indriyoM ke iSTa viSayoM kI prApti ke sukha hI nA? ve sukha kahA~ haiM? ve to mAtra sukhAbhAsa haiM | jo duHkhoM ko saMga lAye use sukha kaise kahanA? viSayopabhoga kA pariNAma to Akhira durgati ke dIrghakAlIna duHkha hI hai nA? 'para itanA jAnane para bhI rAga to ho hI jAtA hai|' 'ho sakatA hai, para itanI jAgRti rahanI cAhie- "maiM rAga kara rahA hU~, yaha merI AtmA ke lie ahitakara hai, yaha bAta yAda rahanI caahie|' "aisA kahA~ yAda rahatA hai? iSTa viSayoM meM mana daur3a hI jAtA hai|' ___ 'kahA~ taka daur3egA? kitanA daur3egA? kabhI to thakegA hI na? jaba vaha khar3A rahegA usa samaya to AtmA yAda AyegI na? 'hA~ taba to AyegI! jinamati kA hRdaya Ananda se bhara gyaa| use lagA kAmagajendra bAhara se cAhe bhogI ho para bhItara se to usakI antarAtmA yogI hai| usakA hRdaya vairAgI hai| santahRdaya kA kaMta use bar3A pyArA lgaa| ___ kAmagajendra mauna ke mahAsAgara meM gote lagAne lgaa| nayana mUMdakara vo kisI ajJAta, agocara pradeza kI yAtrA para pahu~ca gyaa| samIpa meM rakhe hue For Private And Personal Use Only

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38 yogI yA bhogI ratnadIpaka kA prakAza usakI saumya sarala mukhAkRti para par3a rahA thaa| usakA gauravarNa mukha damaka rahA thaa| jinamati kAmagajendra ko dekhatI hI raha gayI thii| pala bItate cale...para donoM meM se koI adhIra nahIM bana rahA thaa| jinamati to kAmagajendra ke aise bhavya AMtara-vyaktitva kA sparza pAkara nAca uThI thI, usakA royA~-royA~ prasannatA se pulaka rahA thaa| usakA lAlana-pAlana, usake saMskAra, usakI zikSA aise hI vAtAvaraNa ke bIca huI thii| usake pitRgRha meM arhat dharma kA vAtAvaraNa thaa| usakI zikSA aura saMskAra AtmA, mahAtmA aura paramAtmA ke trikoNa ke AsapAsa race hue the| usakA samUcA vyaktitva arhakendrita thaa| usakI antarecchA usake prANoM kI abhIpsA to AtmA ke UrcIkaraNa kI hI thii| samAna abhirUci vAle vyaktitva jaba milate haiM, to unake vyaktitva ke sAtha vAtAvaraNa bhI prema ke parAnubhavoM se bhara jAtA hai| jinamati ko aba taka kalpanA bhI nahIM thI ki rAgaraMga aura bhogavilAsa meM jhUmatA huA kAmagajendra sthUla-bAhya duniyA se dUra sUkSma, agocara, agama pradeza meM bhI jA pahuMcatA hai| vaha svayaM kI ora pUrA jAgrata hai| 'jinu! 'nAtha! 'AtmA ke zuddha svarUpa ke dhyAna meM DUba gayA thA maiM / tU akele-akele cuppI sAdhe baiThe rahane se Uba to nahIM gaI na?' Apake sahavAsa meM, ApakI chAyA meM, isa taraha ghaMToM taka mauna baiThe rahane meM bhI apUrva Ananda kI anubhUti hotI hai, mere paramapriya! kitanI nIravatA hai! kitanI adbhuta prasannatA ke phUla khile haiM! ___ 'AtmA ke zuddha svarUpa ke dhyAna meM aisI avarNanIya prasannatA kI anubhUti huI ki basa maiM kaha nahIM sktaa|' 'cAhe varNana na karo para mujhe bhI aise dhyAna meM sAtha le calie nA! 'saca?' 'hA~, saca kaha rahI huuN| vItarAga paramAtmA kI sphaTikamaya mUrti ke sAmane maiM kabhI-kabhI bhAvavibhora banakara paramAtmA ke dhyAna meM kho jAtI thii| jaba maiM choTI thI, mujhe yAda hai- kabhI-kabhI merI banda palakoM ke kinAre A~sU chalaka jAte... mere roe~-roe~ meM siharana paidA ho jaatii| merA hRdaya gadgada ho jAtA thaa|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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38 yogI yA bhogI 'apana kabhI sammetazikhara jAyeMge, tujhe yAtrA pasanda hai nA?' 'bahuta! paramAtmabhakti to mere jIvana kA parama dhana hai! jinamati kI A~kheM chalaka aayii| usane apane A~cala se A~sU poNche| usakA hRdaya pyAra se chalaka rahA thaa| 'nAtha, Apako pAkara maiM dhanya bana gaI hU~...mujhe lagatA hai maiM kitanI sukhI hU~! mujhe koI AMtara-bAhya duHkha nahIM hai|' __ kAmagajendra ne jinamati ke sAmane dekhaa| phira vAtAyana se bAhara kI ora najara DAlI | nIla gagana kI goda meM TimaTimAte tAroM ke bIca cA~danI barasAtA cA~da / atyaMta AlhAdaka vAtAvaraNa chAyA huA thaa| 'samaya kAphI bIta gayA hai|' 'cAhe pUrA jIvana hI aise bIta jaaye|' 'vaha isa saMsAra meM zakya nahIM hai jinu, aisA eka sA...anaMtakAlIna eka sA AnandapUrNa jIvana to hai usa siddhazilA para | zuddha-buddha-mukta AtmA kA svataMtra jIvana | janma aura mRtyu se | mukta akSaya aura ananta jiivn| nirdvadva aura nirAvadha jiivn|' 'nAtha, Apa to usa siddhazilA para jA baseMge thor3e hI bhavoM meM! para, kyA Apa mujhe isa saMsAra meM aise hI chor3akara cale jAyeMge?' jinamati kAmagajendra ke jyAdA nikaTa A gayI aura kAmagajendra kI A~khoM meM jhA~katI huI bolI / ___ 'kauna kisako le jAyegA jinu? kisako mAlUma hai ve ajJAta kAla kI rekhAe~? 'hA~, vahA~ apanI Atmajyoti paraspara mila jaayeNgii| apanA vaha milana zAzvata hogA / AtmA se AtmA kA milana / ' bujhate diye kI lau ko teja karane ke lie kalyANI ne khaNDa meM praveza kiyaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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ujjayinI kI rAjakumArI 40 / 7. ujjayinI kI rAjakumArI ) dina paMkherU bana kara ur3ate jA rahe haiN| samaya kI zUnyatA atIta kI Aga meM svAhA banatI jAtI hai| kAmagajendra jinamati, priyaMgumati aura rAjakumAra dizAgajendra (priyaMgumati kA putra) ke snehapUrNa sahavAsa meM apanI jindagI kA saphara taya kara rahA hai| aruNAbha nagara meM pichale dinoM se eka videzI citrakAra carcA kA viSaya bana cukA hai| eka se eka sundara citroM kI pradarzanI meM hajAroM nagarajanoM ne usako sAdhuvAda diyA hai| vaha citrakAra apane sAtha eka sundara citra lekara AyA hai| rAjasabhA meM vaha citra lekara AtA hai| kAmagajendra usakA svAgata karatA hai| citrakAra apanA citra kAmagajendra ke hAthoM meM detA hai| kAmagajendra kI A~kheM usa citra para jA cipakatI hai| vaha usa citra ko dekhatA hI rahatA hai, TukuraTukura | vo citra hai eka rAjakumArI kA, para lagatA hai aisA ki svarga kI apsarA kI vaha anukRti ho! kAmagajendra citrakAra kI ora dekhatA huA bola uThatA hai : ___citrakAra, kisI jJAnIpuruSa ne bilakula sahI kahA hai ki 'rAjA, citrakAra aura kavi ye tInoM marakara naraka meM hI jAte haiN|' 'mahArAja kumAra yaha kaise ho sakatA hai?' citrakAra ne sAzcarya apanI jijJAsA vyakta kI! 'cUMki pRthvI para jisakA astitva hI nahIM hotA hai ve saba rAjA, citrakAra aura kavijana karate haiM! nirA jhUTha! aura jhUTha kA phala to naraka hI hotA hai|' 'rAjakumAra, kSamA kiijiyegaa| rAjA ke lie to ApakI bAta mAnI bhI jAya, kyoMki rAjanIti to chala-kapaTa se bharI hotI hai| hiMsA, krUratA aura chalanA to rAjanIti ke abhinna aMga se bana jAte haiM, kabhI-kabhI! isalie rAjA naraka meM jAya, yaha to mAna bhI liyA, para kavi aura citrakAra ke lie to ApakI bAta jarA anupayukta sI pratIta hotI hai| Akhira ve to A~khoM dekhA, kAnoM sunA aura anubhUta satya ko hI abhivyakta karate haiN| hA~, unameM kalpanAoM ke raMga ve jarUra bharate haiM, para vAstavikatA ke saundarya ko jarA bhI vikRta kiye binaa|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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41 ujjayinI kI rAjakumArI 'yaha jisakA citra hai, kyA tumane usa vyakti ko A~khoM se dekhA hai? aisA achUtA saundarya kyA isa dharatI para hai?' kAmagajendra ne citrakAra ko tIkSNa nigAhoM se dekhate hue khaa| __'jI rAjakumAra, maiMne yaha saundarya apanI A~khoM se dekhA hai, jaisA dekhA hai vaisA hI citrita kiyA hai| ho sakatA hai, merI tulikA ne isa saundarya kA svastha Alekhana na bhI kiyA hoM, kyoMki Akhira nakala to nakala hI hogii|' 'kahA~ dekhA? yaha kisakA citra hai?' citra para A~kheM gar3Aye kAmagajendra kI AvAja meM komala vihyalatA A basI / 'ujjayinI ke samrATa aMvati kI rAjakumArI kA yaha citra hai| maiMne rAjakumArI ko dekhA aura vahIM para usakA citra binA kisI atizayokti ke bnaayaa|' kAmagajendra ko citrakAra kI bAtoM para sahaja vizvAsa ho gyaa| vaha apalaka netroM se citra ko dekhatA rhaa| usakI A~kheM haTatI hI nahIM vahA~ se / saundarya aura lAvaNya se bharepUre usa citra ne kAmagajendra ko avaza banA diyaa| citra ko apane pAsa rakhakara, citrakAra ko atithigRha meM snAna-bhojanAdi se nivRta hone ke lie bheja diyaa| citra ko lekara kAmagajendra apane AvAsa meM AtA hai | palaMga para baiThakara usa citra ke saundaryapAza meM vaha apane Apako bA~dha letA hai| usakI nigAheM TakaTakI bA~dhe citra para jamI hai| use khyAla hI nahIM AtA ki priyaMgumati bilkula karIba Akara khar3I ho gayI hai| kAmagajendra kI tallInatA dekhakara usake hoThoM para ha~sI ke gulAba bikhara par3e | vaha pUcha baiThI : ___ 'nAtha! kyA maiM yaha citra dekha sakatI hU~?' kAmagajendra eka dama sakapakA jAtA hai| vaha citra ko apane hAthoM meM chipAne kI koziza karatA huA priyaMgumati kI ora dekhatA hai| usakI A~khoM meM sandeha ke Dore khIMca Ate haiM, para priyaMgumati kAmagajendra ke hAthoM se citra lekara dekhatI hai aura palaMga para baiThakara bar3e pyAra se pUchatI hai : 'yaha kisakA citra hai?' 'ujjayinI kI rAjakumArI kA / ' 'kitanA pyArA ceharA hai, nahIM?' 'rAjakumArI svayaM aisI hI hai, jaisA citra hai!' 'kitanA bholApana aura mAsUmiyata taira rahI hai cehare para / ' For Private And Personal Use Only

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42 ujjayinI kI rAjakumArI 'saca, bar3A hI sundara rUpa hai!' sunepana kI sarasarAhaTa phira vAtAvaraNa meM chA jAtI hai| donoM kI A~kheM citra para sthira hai| priyaMgumati kAmagajendra ke cehare para chAyI huI barphIlI khAmozI kI parata dara parata chIlakara usake antastala meM pahu~ca jAtI hai| kAmagajendra jheMpatA huA priyaMgumati kI A~khoM se apanI becainI ko chipAne kA nirarthaka prayAsa karatA hai| priyaMgumati ke cehare para smita kI cA~danI chiTaka rahI thii| snehArdratA meM tairatA usakA badana, nirdoSa mRgachaune se usakI A~kheM, kAmagajendra kI A~kheM alasA jAtI hai| 'devI! 'nAtha!' 'yaha rAjakumArI tumheM acchI lagatI hai?' 'bahuta, kitanI pyArI hai yaha! 'merA mana usako pAne ke lie pyAsA bana gayA hai|' kAmagajendra ke zabdoM meM Akhira usakI manokAmanA kI halkI sI chAyA A baitthii| rAjakumArI ko pAne kA mujhe eka rAstA sUjhatA hai| priyaMgumati ne kahA : 'kyA? jaldI btaao|' 'jisane yaha citra banAyA, usI citrakAra ke pAsa ApakA eka citra banAkara avaMtipati ke pAsa bhejA jaay| rAjakumArI ApakA citra dekhakara avazyameva ApakA hI varaNa karane kA nizcaya kregii|' ___ 'yojanA acchI hai| citrakAra ko maiMne roka rakhA hai| use bulavAkara merA citra banAne ke lie kaha detA huuN|' kAmagajendra kA royA~-royA~ khila utthaa| vaha priyaMgumati para khuza ho gyaa| ___ kaisI rAga dazA hai kAmagajendra kI!! raMbhA aura urvazI sI do rAniyoM ke hote hue bhI vaha citra kI rAjakumArI para mugdha bana gayA hai| kitanA adabhuta samarpaNa hai priyaMgumati kA!! koI IrSyA yA DAha nahIM, koI svArtha kI cAhanA nahIM! apane priyatama kI prasannatA meM hI apane Ananda ko pAne vAlI yaha nArI thI! kAmagajendra rAjakumArI kA citra lekara calA gyaa| priyaMgumati vahIM baiThI For Private And Personal Use Only

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ujjayinI kI rAjakumArI 43 rhii| vaha kAmagajendra ke bahuAyAmI vyaktitva kI gaharAiyoM ko nApane lagI / eka ora rAga-bharapUra vyaktitva to dUsarI ora virAgadazA ke lie ajIba sI chaTapaTAhaTa! bAhara se Asakta aura bhogI kAmagajendra bhItara se anAsakta aura yogI puruSa thA ! donoM vyaktitva yathArtha the| vairAgya kA mukhauTA nahIM thA / mana aura indriyA~ jaba prazAnta banI rahatI taba vaha virAgatA ke sopAna car3hatA jAtA, para jaba rAgadazA meM vaha apane Apako bA~dha letA to usI Asakti kI aganapipAsA meM usake prANa ba~dha jAte / jinamati priyaMgumati ko khojatI huI kAmagajendra ke AvAsa meM A phuNcii| priyaMgumati ko akelI aura vicAroM meM lIna banI dekhakara vaha sahama sI gayI, para priyaMgumati ne use dekha liyA / 'jinu, A,' jinamati ko pAsa meM biThAkara priyaMgu usakI ora dekhatI rahI / 'oha dIdI! Aja kisa vicAra meM itanI gaharI DUba gayI ho ?' priyaMgu ke donoM hAthoM ko apanI hatheliyoM meM bA~dhatI huI jinamati ne pUchA / 'rAga aura virAga ke vicAroM meM / ' 'kyoM? kyA huA acAnaka ? jinamati ne tIvra jijJAsA vyakta karate hue khaa| priyaMgumati ke cehare para smita ke phUla khila utthe| 'hA~, kucha nayA-navIna bane taba hI to aise vicAra Aye nA ? isa saMsAra meM kabhI bhI kucha ho sakatA hai!' 'aisA kyA ho gayA dIdI ? jinamati kI A~khoM meM pAradarzI saMvedanA sihara utthii| priyaMgumati ne usako apane pAsa khIMca liyA / 'ujjayinI kI rAjakumArI kA citra lekara eka citrakAra AyA hai| adbhuta hai vaha citra aura advitIya rUpa-lAvaNya se bharIpUrI hai vaha rAjakumArI / ' 'samajha gayI dIdI ! vaha citra apane svAmI ko pasanda A gayA, yahI na?' 'bilakula saca hai terI kalpanA jinu ! vaha citra to pasanda AyA hI, unheM to rAjakumArI bhI pasanda A gayI aura saca kahU~? maiMne to use prApta karane kA upAya bhI unheM batalA diyA / ' 'dIdI ! kyA kahatI ho ? jinamati kI A~kheM phaTI-phaTI sI raha gaI ! anahonI kI pratikSA meM usakI sAMseM thama sI gii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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ujjayinI kI rAjakumArI 44 'jinu, tujhe to mAlUma hai nA! unheM mujha para kitanA etabAra hai ? ve apane mana kI koI bhI bAta mujha se chupAte nahIM hai / jo unakI icchA vahI merI icchA ! unakI prasannatA, unakI khuzI se bar3hakara apane liye aura kyA hai jinu ? unake prANa jaise pulakita bane, unakI AtmA ko jaise prasannatA mile, usameM hI apanA saba kucha hai! maiMne unase kevala pyAra kiyA hai jinu ! aura prema hamezA samarpaNa karatA hai| AdAna kI abhyarthanA vahA~ hotI hI nahIM / merI aura koI kAmanA nahIM hai| maiM to apane astitva ke antima aMza taka unheM samarpita hU~ !' priyaMgumati apane astitva ke sAtha saundaryamugdha kalpanAloka meM bahI jA rahI thI / 'dIdI, saca tumhArA pyAra adbhuta hai|' usake palakoM ke kinAre cUne lge| usakA dila bhara AyA / vo jyAdA kucha bhI na bola sakI! donoM rAniyA~ kAmagajendra ke AvAsa meM se nikala kara bhojanagRha meM pahu~ca gyii| idhara kAmagajendra atithigRha meM pahu~ca gayA thA / citrakAra snAna - bhojana vagairaha se nivRta hokara alasA rahA thA ki yuvarAja ne Akara use uThAyA / 'dekho bhaiyA, tumane jaisA isa rAjakumArI kA citra banAyA hai, vaisA hI merA citra banA do, citra lekara tumheM ujjayinI jAnA hogA aura vaha citra rAjakumArI ko dikhalAnA hogA, samajhe?' 'avazya kumAra, ApakA citra maiM yahIM banAkara Apako batA dU~gA / Apako pasanda Ane para hI maiM use lekara ujjayinI jAU~gA, parantu...' 'parantu kyA...? maiM tumhArI acchI kadradAnI karU~gA, cintA mata kro|' 'yuvarAja, aisI koI bAta nahIM hai, maiM to aura hI bAta kahanA cAhatA hU~...' 'kyA ? kaha do...' 'ujjayinI kI rAjakumArI puruSadveSiNI hai| vaha kisI puruSa ko dekhanA bhI nahIM cAhatI hai| isalie...' 'usakI cintA mata karo citrakAra / tuma merA citra use batAnA to sahI, usakA sArA dveSa pAnI-pAnI ho jAyegA / ' kAmagajendra ke zabdoM meM anUThA AtmavizvAsa Tapaka rahA thaa| 'jaisI ApakI AjJA / Aja hI maiM ApakA citra banAnA prArambha kara detA For Private And Personal Use Only

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ujjayinI kI rAjakumArI 45 citrakAra ne kAmagajendra kA nayanaramya citra banA diyA / kAmagajendra ne use khUba pasaMda kiyaa| usane citrakAra ko mUlyavAna svarNahAra dekara santuSTa kiyA... aura ujjayinI kI ora bheja diyaa| citrakAra ne ujjayinI jAkara rAjA avaMti ko kAmagajendra kA citra batalAyA / rAjA mantramugdha sA use nihAratA hI rhaa| citrakAra ne kAmagajendra kA paricaya bhI diyaa| citra antaHpura meM bhejaa| rAnI ne rAjakumArI ko citra btlaayaa| rAjakumArI to citra para A~kheM rakhate hI mugdha ho gyii| usakI A~kheM citra para jama gyii| usakA roma-roma thiraka utthaa| usane mana hI mana nirNaya kiyA : 'merA jIvanasAthI to ise hI bnaauuNgii|' mAnoM janama-janama kI prIta ke phUla khila uThe / anajAna ajanabI meM apanatva kI AsthA jAga utthii| apanI manokAmanA vaha rAnI se na chipA skii| rAnI ne rAjA ko sahamati de dii| rAjA ne maMtrI ko bulavAkara sUcanA dI ki 'tuma aruNAbhanagara jAo aura rAjA kAmagajendra se prArthanA karo ki ve rAjakumArI ke sAtha pANigrahaNa karane ke lie ujjayinI padhAreM! maMtrI apane sAthiyoM ke sAtha cala pdd'e| kucha hI dinoM meM aruNAbha kI sImA unhoMne chU lii| kAmagajendra ko unhoMne avaMtIrAjA kA saMdeza dekara ujjayinI padhArane kA sasneha nimaMtraNa diyaa| kAmagajendra kI khuzI kA pAra nahIM rhaa| usane apanI donoM rAniyoM ko sArI bAteM khii| priyaMgumati ne alpa dinoM meM hI ujjayini kI ora prayANa karane kI taiyAriyA~ kara lii| maMgala muhUrta meM apanI pUrI taiyArI karake kAmagajendra ne priyaMgumati ke sAtha ujjayinI kI ora prayANa kiyA / ___ kAmagajendra kI kAmanAe~ mUrta banane lagI thii| isakI kalpanA useM hI nahIM balki samUce parivAra ko khuzahAlI bA~TatI thii| para kismata kI kAlIna para kucha aura hI raMga bikhare the, jo ki kAmagajendra se anajAna the| kAmagajendra ko kaise patA lage ki vaha nikalA hai kahA~ jAne ke liye aura paha~cegA kahA~ para! usakA prArambha use kisI ajJAta kI ora prerita kara rahA hai| isakI kalpanA kAmagajendra ko nahIM thii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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bindumatI / 8. bindumatI alakApurI ke udyAna se eka suhAvane bagIce meM kAmagajendra ne apanA par3Ava DAlA hai| cAroMtarapha sainikoM ke tambU laga cuke haiN| bIcobIca kAmagajendra ke lie eka sundara AvAsa khar3A kiyA gayA hai| nizA kI nIravatA chAyI hai| gagana ke nIlapaTa para raMgabiraMge phUloM sI tAroM kI cAdara bichI hai| sainikoM ke vArtAlApa, hAsya-vinoda aura ha~sI-majAka kI AvAjoM ke alAvA zAnti banI hai| kAmagajendra priyaMgumati ke sAtha vArtAvinoda karate hue nidrAdhIna ho jAtA hai| madhyarAtri kA samaya thA, par3Ava ke cAroM ora sainikoM ke daste barAbara gazta lagA rahe the| kAmagajendra ko lagatA hai kinhIM komala hatheliyoM kA sparza use jagA rahA hai| usakI A~kheM khula jAtI hai| vaha ThiThaka jAtA hai| usake sAmane do saundaryavatI yuvatiyA~ khar3I thii| benamUna saMgamaramara meM tarAzA huA ruup| lAvaNya ke lAsya se bharA pUrA badana / zarIra kA eka-eka aMga sauSThavayukta aura gadarAyA huA / sundara mUlyavAna vastroM meM sajA zarIra aura usa para bahumUlya alaMkAra | cehare para cA~dI sA camakatA hAsya aura A~khoM meM pyAra kI nmii| kAmagajendra ko lagA ki 'kyA vaha vAstivika dRzya dekhatA hai yA svapnaloka meM hai?' usane apanI A~khoM ko hatheliyoM se masalA... phaTI-phaTI A~khoM se vaha una donoM yuvatiyoM ko dekhatA hI rhaa| 'tuma donoM kauna ho aura yahA~ kisaliye AyI ho?' 'kumAra, hama vidyAdhara kumArikAe~ haiM aura eka mahatvapUrNa kArya ke lie Apake pAsa AyI huuN|' 'aisA kyA kArya hai jo AdhI rAta gaye tumheM yahA~ AnA par3A?' 'hameM pahale vacana deM ki Apa hamArI AjJA pUrI kreNge|' 'kumArikAoM! hamAre dara para AzA lekara Ane vAle kisI ko hama nirAza nahIM karate, yaha to hamArA kulAcAra hai|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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bindumatI 47 'bar3I khuzI kI bAta hai kumAra, to aba hamArI bAta Apa dhyAna se suniye / ' "priyaMgumati gAr3ha nidrA meM thI / kAmagajendra ne usakI ora dekhA aura Agantuka sundariyoM ko izAre se sAmane par3e hue bhadrAsanoM para baiThane ko kahA / donoM sundariyoM ne Asana grahaNa kiyaa| donoM meM se eka ne bAta prArambha kii| ' yahA~ se uttara dizA meM 'vaitADhya' nAma kA parvata hai| usake do vibhAga haiN| uttara zreNI aura dakSiNa zreNI / uttara zreNI meM sundarAnanda mandira nAma kA nagara hai| vahA~ ke rAjA kA nAma hai pRthvIsundara aura rAnI kA nAma hai mekhlaa| unakI eka ati sundara kanyA hai 'bindumati' / hama donoM usa bindumati kI aMtaraMga saheliyA~ haiM / bindumati rUpa aura guNoM se vidyAdharoM kI duniyA meM advitIya hai / parantu durbhAgya se vaha puruSadveSiNI bana gayI hai| koI bhI puruSa ko dekhanA use pasanda bhI nhiiN| mAtA-pitA kI yaha sabase bar3I cintA banI huI hai / eka dina hama tInoM AkAzamArga se dakSiNa zreNI ke eka upavana meM krIr3A karane ke lie jA phuNcii| hama upavana meM krIr3A kara rahe the ki hamAre kAnoM meM madhura maMjula gItoM ke zabda sunAI diye| hama khelanA bhUlakara gIta meM DUba gaye / eka kinnara aura kinnarI kA yugala gIta gA rahA thaa| usa gIta kA bhAva kucha aisA thA : rUpa meM kAmagajendra sA aura loka meM mahAna yazasvI kAmagajendra hai, puNyahIna manuSya to usako dekha bhI nahIM sakatA hai,' yaha sunakara bindumati ne mujhe kahA : pavanavegA, tU jA usa kinnara yugala ke pAsa aura yaha kAmagajendra kauna hai aura kahA~ rahatA hai? pUchakara A / ' maiMne jAkara unase pUchA to ve ekadama jha~jhalA uThe : 'arI vidyAdhara kanye, tUne kAmagajendra ko dekhA to nahIM para kyA usakI prazaMsA, usakA yaza bhI nahIM sunA ?' kinnarI ne merA upahAsa kiyaa| maiMne gusse meM Akara usase pUchA : 'arI, aba tU bahuta jyAdA jAnatI hai mujhe mAlUma hai, para TAlamaTUla kiye binA kAmagajendra ke bAre meM batalA de / ' kinnarI ne kinnara kI tarapha izArA karake usase pUchane ko khaa| maiMne kinnara se puuchaa| usane mujhe kahA : 'kAmagajendra aruNAbhanagara ke rAjA raNagajendra kA putra hai / vaha itanA bhAgyazAlI hai ki usakI bAtoM ko lekara kaI gIta, kaI khaMDa kAvya aura mahAkAvya banA-banA kara gAyaka loga gAte haiM / hamAre kinnaroM kI duniyA meM to For Private And Personal Use Only

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48 bindumatI kAmagajendra ke gIta hara eka kI jabAna para hai| usake rUpa aura guNoM kA pAra hI nhiiN|' _ maiMne jAkara ye sArI bAteM bindumati ko khii| hama tInoM eka latAmaMDapa meM baiThe the| bindumati mujhe bAra-bAra pUchane lgii| saca kyA kAmagajendra itanA sundara hai? kyA vaha itanA guNavAna aura yazasvI hai? maiMne kahA : hA~, hogA hii| cU~ki kinnarayugala ko jhUThI bAteM karane se phAyadA bhI kyA? unhoMne saca hI kahA hogaa| merI bAta sunakara bindumati gahare vicAra meM DUba gii| phira to khar3I hokara bagIce meM akelI-akelI ghUmane lgii| usake cehare para viSAda kI badalI ghira aayii| A~khoM meM se A~sU girane lge| eka ajIba sI becainI meM chaTapaTAne lgii| hamase hamArI sahelI kI mAyUsI sahI na gyii| hamane usako pyAra se bulAyA...usake hAthoM meM vINA dI... cUMki vo vINA bajAne kI behada zaukIna hai| para usane to vINA ko paTaka dI...vaha ThaMr3hI AheM bharane lgii| phira to vaha phaphaka-phaphaka kara ro pdd'ii| hamAre sAre prayatnoM ke bAvajUda usakI A~kheM barasatI hI clii| usane hamase bhI mu~ha mor3a liyaa| ___ hama usakI manaH sthiti ko samajha cukI thii| jindagI meM pahalI bAra vaha kisI puruSa ke lie becaina thii| kAmagajendra kI kalpanA ne usake mana ko pAgala sA banA diyA hai| vaha svayaM to kAmagajendra kA nAma nahIM letI hai para jaba bhI hamAre hoThoM para se kAmagajendra nAma sarakatA hai to usakA ceharA lAla TesU sA nikhara AtA hai| vaha zaramA jAtI hai| usane hamase kahA : sakhi, mujhe kAmagajendra kA nAma sunAtI raho, usase mujhe bahuta zItalatA milatI hai| kAza! mujhe ve mila paate| hamane usake mana kI khuzI ke lie eka jhUThA-jhUThA maMtra bhI taiyAra kara DAlA : OM saraso samuha dakkhoM dayAlu daakkhinno| aveNau tujjha bAhiha kAmagai doti hUM svAhA!! para aupacArika sAMtvanA se sane jhUThe aura bejAna zabdoM kA Akhira asara kyA hogA? kucha bhI nahIM! pAnI ke binA tar3apatI machalI jaisI sthiti bindu kI ho gyii| vaha na to apane gama ko saha sakatI thI aura nahIM vaha use kaha For Private And Personal Use Only

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bindumatI sakatI thii| hamArI baicenI kA pAra na rhaa| hamane socA : yadi kAmagajendra se isakA milanA na huA to zAyada vaha jindA bhI raha sakegI yA nhiiN| isaliye kaise bhI karake kAmagajendra ko yahA~ le AnA caahie|' aisA socakara hamane bindu se kahA : 'sakhi, tU' yahIM para rahanA! hama donoM kAmagajendra ko khojakara le AtI haiN|' vaha mAna gaI hamane usako parvata kI eka guphA meM patthara kI zilA para tAje khile hue kamala-patroM kI zaiyyA banAkara sulA diyA aura AkAzamArga se cala dii| ____ aneka nagara, parvata aura jalAzayoM meM DhU~r3hatI huI hama yahA~ ke pradeza meM phuNcii| phira bhI tumhArA nagara hameM nahI mila pAyA! 'tumheM kahA~ khojanA?' hamArI kaThinAI bar3hatI jA rahI thii| Akhira hArakara hamaneM 'prajJapti, nAma kI vidyA devI ko yAda kiyaa| unhoMne hameM ApakA yaha sthAna batalAyA aura hama Apake pAsa Ane ke liye bhAgyazAlI rhii| vidyAdhara kumArI ne sAMsa lI aura kAmagajendra ke cehare para ubharate bhAvoM ko samajhane kA prayatna karane lgii| kAmagajendra to tallIna banakara kumAriyoM kI bAtoM meM kho gayA thaa| usake mana meM bindumati kI tarapha pUrI sahAnubhUti paidA ho cUkI thii| 'mujhe usa rAjakumArI ko bacAnA hI caahiye|' socakara usane pUchA : 'kaho, aba kyA kiyA jAya tumhArI priya sakhI kI sAMtvanA ke lie?' ___ 'rAjakumAra, eka hI upAya hai| yadi ApakA darzana-ApakA sahavAsa use mile to hI vo baca sakatI hai| Apako avilamba usake pAsa calanA cAhie, yadi usakI jindagI ko bacAnA hai to| mujhe to lagatA hai kahIM vaha mauta kI nIMda meM na jA baiThe...!!' vidyAdharI kA svara saMvedanA se sisakane lgaa| kAmagajendra ne khaa| 'derI karanI hI nahIM hai| aisI paristhiti meM bhalA dera karanA bhI koI buddhimAnI thor3e hI hogI? para mujhe yaha sArI bAta priyaMgumati se karanI hogii|' 'priyaMgumati kauna?' donoM sundariyA~ cauMkatI huI bola utthii| 'yaha jo so rahI hai| vaha / ' kumAra ne izAre se paMlaga para soyI huI priyaMgumati ko dikhAyA! ___ 'to kyA Apa itanI rahasyapUrNa bAta aurata ko kaheMge? nItizAstra to manA karate haiM gupta bAtoM meM striyoM ko zAmila karane kaa|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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anubhUta Azcarya 50 ___ 'para yaha gupta bAta bhI to eka strI kI hI hai nA? aura priyaMgumati kA vyaktitva hajAroM meM eka hai| hara eka bAta meM apavAda to rahatA hI hai| nItizAstra ke sAre niyama sabhI jagaha para mAnya nahIM hote| priyaMgumati merI patnI hI nahIM, balki eka acchI mitra bhI hai| merA kucha bhI usase chipA nahIM hai|' ___ 'para ApakA yaha vizvAsa jyAdA nahIM hai?' pavanavegA ne strIsahaja kotuhala se pUcha liyaa| 'nahIM jarA bhI nahIM... vaha to merI dUsarI AtmA hai|' 'to jaisI ApakI icchA- Apa kaha sakate haiN|' donoM ne sahamati de dii| kAmagajendra ne priyaMgumati ko jagAyA! vaha ekadama khar3I ho gyii| apane AvAsa meM divya kAnti vAlI do striyoM ko dekhakara stabdha raha gyii| kAmagajendra ne use sArI bAta saMkSepa meM kaha dI aura kahA : ___ 'devI, maiM abhI ina vidyAdhara kanyAoM ke sAtha jA rahA hU~ aura jalda hI vApasa lauTUMgA!' 'jaisI ApakI icchA | ApakI icchA ko bhalA maiM kaise rokU~? para ina donoM kanyAoM se vinatI karU~gI ki merI yaha dharohara mujhe vApasa lauTA denaa|' donoM ne priyaMgumati kI bAta ko svIkAra kiyaa| priyaMgumati asvastha bana gii| udvignatA usake cehare para chA gyii|' kyA yaha aindrajAlika mAyA hai? svapna hai? kisase bAta karU~? kahA~ jAU~? jinamati bhI sAtha nahIM hai! kyA saca ve donoM deviyA~ hoMgI? kyA mAyAvI chalanA kA zikAra to nahIM bana gayI kahIM maiM! kyA mere prANapriya vApasa lauTa sakeMge? ophphoha, maiMne kyoM unheM akele jAne diyA! maiM bhI sAtha calI jAtI... vaha apane Apako na sambhAla sakI palaMga para auMdhI giratI huI vaha sisakiyA~ bharane lagI : usakA royA~-royA~ ananta anutApa se bhara aayaa| usake A~sU bahate hI cle| para koI nahIM thA vahA~, usakI palakoM ke motiyoM ko bahane se rokane vAlA! antataH kAmagajendra ke kuzala kI kAmanA karatI huI vaha paramAtmA ke dhyAna meM lIna banane kA prayatna karane lgii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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anubhUta Azcarya 51 |9. anubhUta Azcarya priyaMgumati ke prANa pIr3A se baicena bane jA rahe the| usakI A~khoM kI putaliyA~ jalavihIna tAlAba meM niSprANa aTaka jAne vAlI machaliyoM sI chaTapaTA rahI thii| bAra-bAra usakI palakoM kI oTa tale becainI ke bAdala AA kara barasate the| AkAza kI ora TakaTakI bA~dhe vaha baiThI thii| usakA mana aneka AzaMkAoM se ghira gayA thaa| kAmagajendra ke bagaira jindagI kI kalpanA hI use rulA detI thii| rAtri kA samaya saraka rahA thA / antima prahara pUrA hone meM thaa| kSitija para halkI sI rauzanI damaka rahI thii| itane meM eka vimAna tIvra gati se AtA dikhAyI diyaa| priyaMgumati ke prANa pulakita ho utthe| vaha AvAsa ke bAhara aayii| vimAna ko samIpa ke maidAna meM utaratA usane dekhaa| vimAna meM se kAmagajendra aura una donoM vidyAdhara sundariyoM ko utarate dekhA / kAmagajendra una donoM ke sAtha par3Ava para A gyaa| priyaMgamati ke svAgata karate hue hoThoM para hAsya bikhara aayaa| vidyAdhara kanyAoM ne priyaMgumati se kahA : 'devI! ApakI dharohara Apako vApasa karate haiN| hamAre Upara gussA mata karanA!' aura cehare para smita kI cA~danI chiTakAtI haI donoM kanyA, AkAza mArga se calI gii| kAmagajendra kI A~kheM AkAza meM sthira sI ho gii| priyaMgumati ne kAmagajendra kI ora dekhA, usake cehare para glAni, udAsI aura gambhIratA ke mile-jule bhAvoM kA melA jamA thA / usakA zarIra thakA huA thaa| kAmagajendra ke caraNoM meM praNAma karake atyanta mRdu svaroM meM usane kahA : 'svAmina! Apa thaka gaye lagate haiM, vizrAma kiijiye|' kAmagajendra ne priyaMgumati para nigAheM jmaayii| usakI A~khoM meM alasAtI ArdratA ko vaha dekhatA hI rhaa| 'aba kyA vizrAma karU~? prAtaH kAla to ho cUkA hai|' 'to kyA abhI Age prayANa karanA hai?' 'prayANa? kisa ora? aba ujjayinI kI ora prayANa nahIM karanA hai!' kAmagajendra ke cehare para raMjiza kI rekhAe~ ubhara aayii| priyaMgumati kA kautUhala bar3ha gyaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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52 anubhUta Azcarya 'para yaha to kahie ki Apako ve do vidyAdhara kanyAe~ kahA~ le gayI thIM aura Apane vahA~ kyA dekhA? kyA anubhava kiyA? aura Apa vApasa kaise lauTe?' priyaMgumati ne apane dimAga meM Aye hue praznoM kA jAla bikherate hue khaa| 'pahale senApati ko kahalA do ki Aja yahIM rukanA hai, prayANa nahIM karanA hai|' ___ 'jaisI ApakI AjJA / ' priyaMgumati ne pratihArI ko bulAkara senApati ko sUcanA bhijavA dii| usake mana meM vicAra AyA : 'maiMne mere prazna unase pUcha to liye, para yadi ve snAna Adi se nivRta ho jAyeM, svastha bana jAyeM to zAyada unakI prasannatA bar3hegI aura bAteM karane meM jyAdA majA aayegaa|' usane kAmagajendra ke lie garama aura zItala jala kI vyavasthA karake kAmagajendra ko snAnAdi se nivRta hone ke lie nivedana kiyaa| snAna vagairaha karake kAmagajendra ke zarIra kI thakAna dUra ho gii| glAni bhI halkI ho gyii| priyaMgumati ne usake pAsa baiThate hue kahA : 'svAmin, aba Apa mujhe sArI bAteM batalAiye!' ___ kAmagajendra ne eka nigAha priyaMgumati ke cehare para DAlI aura A~kheM baMda karake bolane lagA : 'vidyAdhara kanyAoM ke sAtha nIlAkAza meM hamArA vimAna bAdaloM ke ArapAra hokara ur3a rahA thaa| zarada kI rAta aise bIta rahI thI jaise naI navelI dulhana ke pA~va uThate hoM apane priyatama ke pAsa jAne ko|' gagana kI goda meM tAroM kI cUnara or3he candramA kAphI khUbasUrata laga rahA thaa| vimAna meM se pRthvI, bar3I suhAvanI lagatI thii| __pahAr3oM kI zrRMkhalAe~...vRkSoM kI paMktiyA~...sarovara...nadiyA~...sabhI saundarya se bhare pUre najara Ate the| mujhe lagatA thA 'kyA maiM deva hU~?' vo donoM vidyAdhara kanyAe~ mujhe mIThe-mIThe svaroM meM kahatI thI : ___'dekho! kAmagajendra, usa jaMgala meM vaha hAthI kaisI mastI meM hai| hathinI ke kuMbhasthala para apanI sUMDa ko phailAkara kitanI mastI meM so rahA hai! ye camakate asaMkhya tAre! mAnoM gagana para kisI ne phUloM kI cAdara bichA dI ho! madhura cA~dI kI ghaMTiyoM sI gUMjatI unakI AvAja meM ye sArA prakRti-darzana mujhe apUrva anubhUti kI ora le jA rahA thA / hama eka parvata para jahA~ unakA nivAsa sthAna For Private And Personal Use Only

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anubhUta Azcarya 53 thA, phuNce| eka gupta guphA meM pahu~cakara jo ki ratnoM se Alokita thI, maiMne kamalapatroM kI zayyA meM soI rAjakumArI ko dekhA / ' kAmagajendra rukA aura usane priyaMgumati kI ora dekhA / priyaMgumati ne pUchA : 'vaha vidyAdhara kumArI kaisI thI ?' 'usake gale meM komala phUloM kA gumphita hAra thA, usake zarIra para candana aura kapUra kA vilepana kiyA huA thA / kele ke patroM se usakA urabhAga AcchAdita thaa| usake rUpa saundarya ko zabdoM meM bA~dhanA zakya nahIM hai|' mere sAtha kI kumArikAoM ne usako maMjula zabdoM meM jagAte hue kahA : 'priya sakhI, tU jAga aura dekha! terA priya svajana tere sannikaTa hai / tere samIpa khar3A hai| tU uTha use nihAra to sahI / ' sakhiyoM ne usake cehare para se kamalapatra haThAte hue usakI ora gaura se dekhA / hama tInoM ghabarA utthe| rAjakumArI kI A~kheM mU~dI huI thii| aMgopAMga zithila bana cuke the| donoM kanyAoM ne usake zarIra para hAtha phiraayaa| usake zvAsozvAsa ko chUne kA prayatna kiyA, para ve to baMda the| sIne kI dhar3akana baMda thii| donoM phUTa-phUTa kara rone lgii| merI ora A~sUbharI nigAheM uThAte hue kahA : 'dekho kAmagajendra, hamArI yaha sahelI hameM rotI bilakhatI chor3akara calI gii| hAya, niyati ne yaha kyA kara DAlA? kismata kI kAlIna para kaisI mAyUsI ke kadama chA gaye ?' una donoM kI dardanAka raMjiza ne mujhe bhItara taka chalanI sA banA ddaalaa| maiM bhI usa mRta rAjakumArI ke samIpa jA baiThA / merI palakoM kI oTa meM A~sUoM kI bAr3ha sI A rahI thii| mere hoTha phar3aphar3A uThe : 'o anajAna mugdhe ! priyatame! isa taraha kyoM mere viraha se tumane prANa tyAga diye ? eka bAra to A~kheM khola, merI tarapha dekha | maiM kAmagajendra terI hara kAmanA ko sAkAra karane ke lie taiyAra huuN| yoM bolate-bolate maiM svayaM behoza ho gyaa| alpa samaya meM merI behozI dUra ho gii| donoM vidyAdhara kumAriyoM kI vedanA asahya thii| mRta rAjakumArI ko apanI goda meM lekara ve karuNa svara meM rone lgiiN| unhoneM mujhe kahA : 'o kAmagajendra ! hamane jisakI bAta kahI thI tumase, vo hI yaha hamArI prANapriya sahelI aura rAjakumArI tumhAre viraha meM subaka- subaka kara jIvana mukta bana gii| aba hama isake mAtA-pitA ko kyA javAba deMge ? aba hama kareM bhI kyA ? yoM kahatI huI ve rone lgiiN| merA mana bahuta mAyUsa thA / 'kyA karU~ aura kyA na karU~ ?' mujhe kucha sUjhatA hI nahIM thaa| maiMne kahA : 'yaha aisI akalpya ghaTanA hai ki khuda mujhe bhI kucha For Private And Personal Use Only

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54 anubhUta Azcarya nahIM sUjha rahA hai| maiM bhI mUr3ha bana cUkA huuN|' itane meM sUryodaya ho gyaa| una donoM ne mujhase kahA : ___ 'rAjakumAra, aba to sUryodaya ho cUkA hai, isalie rAjakumArI kA agnisaMskAra kara denA caahie|' yoM kahakara donoM gayI aura candana kI lakar3iyA~ bInakara le aayii| eka bar3I citA taiyAra kI aura rAjakumArI bindumati ke deha ko citA para rkhaa| Aga sulagA dI gii| jyoM citA dhadhaka uThI... una donoM kA vilApa bhI bar3hatA hI calA : o sakhi, tU hameM chor3akara kahA~ calI gayI? tere binA hama kaise jiyeMge? hamArA jInA bhI kisa kAma kA? hama bhI tere sAtha hI jleNge|' yoM bolatI huI donoM citA meM kUda par3I!!! maiM jhallA uThA...daur3A unheM pakar3ane ko| 'aisA sAhasa mata karo, isa taraha jala maranA anucita hai!' maiM cillAtA rahA aura ve donoM kanyAe~ Aga meM jalakara rAkha bana gii| mere zarIra meM mAnoM eka sAtha hajAroM talavAroM ke ghAva kI vedanA ho aayii| merI A~kheM barAbara rotI hI calI... 'are re...yaha kyA bana gayA? merI khAtira, mere viraha meM pAgala banakara bindumati ne mauta ko gale lgaayaa| usake pIche ye do kanyAe~ bhI jala mrii| tIna-tIna striyoM kI hatyA ke pApa se maiM ghira gayA / aba merI jindagI kA matalaba hI kyA rahA?' aura maiMne bhI citA meM kUda par3ane kA saMkalpa kiyaa| __priyaMgumati kAmagajendra ke mu~ha se kabhI nahIM sunI huI bAteM suna rahI thii| kAphI uttejanA aura bebasIbharA mAhaula bana gayA thaa| kAmagajendra bhAvukatA ke pravAha meM khIMcA jA rahA thaa| 'devI, usa samaya mere kAnoM para eka AvAja sunAyI dI! 'he priye, dekho isa pattharadila vyakti ko| isakI priyA citA kI lapaToM meM leTI hai aura yaha pAsa meM khar3A-khar3A dekha rahA hai!' eka dUsarI AvAja AtI hai| 'priye, pati ke pIche patnI prANoM kA tyAga kare vaha ucita hai, para strI kI taraha puruSa ko AtmaghAta karanA ucita nahIM hai, cUMkI puruSa satvazIla hotA hai| kAyara kI bhA~ti jindagI hAra jAnA usake lie kalaMka hai| kisI vidyAdhara yugala kI isa bAtacita ne mujhe bhItara taka saMvedanA se bhara diyA | mana meM socA : 'kAyara kauna? dhadhakatI citA meM kUda giranevAlA yA nahIM kUdanevAlA?' khaira, usa samaya mere manomastiSka meM tumhArA vicAra kauMdha uThA : 'maiM yadi Aga meM kUda jAU~ to priyaMgu aura jinamati kA kyA hogA? ve donoM mere binA kaise For Private And Personal Use Only

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anubhUta Azcarya 55 jiyeNgii|' mere sAmane hI tIna-tIna striyoM ko Aga meM jala kara rAkha banate hue dekhA hai| vaha AghAta bhI mere liye asahya thA... jindagI pahalI bAra karuNatA kI bAhoM meM simaTa AyI thii| ___ 'devI, mujhe ve vidyAdhara kumAriyA~ kyoM le gayI thI? mere mana meM kaise divya sukhopabhoga kI kalpanAe~ thI aura kitanI dAruNa ghaTanA ke zikAra bana gaye hama sabhI? sukha kI sArI kalpanAoM ke mahala gira gaye aura apAra vedanAoM ne mujhe bA~dha liyaa| citA aba zAMta bana cukI thii| aba kevala vahA~ rAkha bacI thii| maine socA : aba mujhe kyA karanA cAhie? maiMne AsapAsa najareM ddaalii| guphA ke samIpa hI eka kuMDa thaa| maiMne vahA~ snAna karake pAnI lAkara isa citA para chiTakane kA socaa| priyaMgumati Akhira apane kautUhala ko na dabA skii| para kyA Apane yaha nahIM socA ki yadi ve vidyAdhara kumAriyA~ jala marI to phira aba mujhe vApasa kauna le jAyegA? Apako isakI cintA nahIM huI?' ___ 'priye usa samaya mujhe apanA svayaM kA khyAla nahIM thaa| maiM to usa akasmAt banI ghaTanA se itanA mUr3ha bana cukA thA ki maiM yaha bhI bhUla gayA ki 'maiM kahA~ se AyA hU~ aura mujhe vApasa lauTanA bhI hai! yaha vicAra hI mujhe nahIM AyA aura Aye bhI kaise aisI sthiti meM?' 'Apane vahA~ para kAphI mAnasika dabAva aura duHkha pAyA, nahIM?' priyaMgumati kI palakeM chalachalA utthii| usane kAmagajendra ke kaMdhe para apanA sara TikA diyaa| 'maiMne vahA~ jitanA kaSTa pAyA usase bhI jyAdA jo sukhAnubhUti mujhe huI hai vaha to maiM aba sunAtA huuN|' kAmagajendra kI A~khoM meM camaka A gyii| priyaMgumati ne A~cala ke chora se apanI palakoM ko poMchA aura kAmagajendra ke usa sukhada anubhava ko sunane ke lie lAlayita ho utthii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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maiM dhanya banA! 10. maiM dhanya banA! devI, mRta kumArikAoM ko jalAMjali dene ke liye maiM usa kuMDa meM utraa| maiMne apane kapar3e utArakara kinAre para rakha diye the| maiMne kuMDa meM gahare DUbakI lagAyI...merI A~kheM baMda thI.. yakAyaka jaba merI A~kheM khulI to maiM kuMDa ke bAhara A cukA thA... kuMDa ke bAhara Akara maiMne apane kapar3e pahana liye| kuMDa ke kinAre para khar3A-khar3A maiM usakI sphaTika ratnoM se nimita dIvAra ko dekha rahA thA... svaccha bilorI raMga ke usake pAnI ko dekha rahA thA ki acAnaka eka camatkAra huA... vaha kuMDa eka divya vimAna meM badala gayA... maiM usa vimAna meM ArUr3ha hokara dUra-dUra taka ur3atA rahA...Akhira eka nayI dharatI para vaha vimAna utarA...maiM bhI vimAna se nIce utara kara Azcarya evaM mugdhatA ke bhAvoM meM ghirA huA idhara-udhara dekhane lagA to mujhe vaha duniyA hI kucha ajIba sI lagI! sundara vizAla harI-bharI pRthvI! gagana ko chUne vAle dIrgha-sudIrgha vRkSasamUha! khajUrI ke per3a se bhI bar3e-bar3e jAnavara! bar3e U~ce-U~ce AdamI... maiM to una sabake Age cir3iyA ke bacce sA laga rahA thA... are... kyA yaha devaloka hai? kyA yaha vidyAdharoM kI duniyA hai? nahIM-nahIM, maiM socane lagA...oha, yaha to mahAvideha kA ilAkA laga rahA hai...cU~ki maiMne mahAvideha ke bAre kAphI bAteM suna rakhI thI, to vahA~ kA vAtAvaraNa hUbahU vaisA hI laga rahA thaa| ___ kaise bar3e-bar3e AdamI... jAnavara! hajAra hAtha se bhI U~ce per3a...vRkSa...aura na jAne kyA-kyA? ___ maiM soca rahA thA...kise jAkara pUchU : 'yaha dharatI kauna sI hai? yaha saba kyA camatkAra hai?' socate-socate maiM Age bar3hane lagA... svarga jaise nagara...naMdanavana se bagIce...saundarya ke sarovara se yuvaka...apsarA bhI zaramA jAye vaisI yuvatiyA~...vaibhava kalA aura kArIgarI ke uttama namUnoM se makAna...mahala! mujhe apanI duniyA to ina sabake sAmane tuccha sI lagI...bejAna sI lgii...|| For Private And Personal Use Only

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maiM dhanya banA! 57 vahA~ maiMne do baccoM ko dekhaa| ve bhI mujhe kautUhala se nihAra rahe the| the to bacce hI, parantu unakI U~cAI mere se aTThAraha hAtha jyAdA thii| saundarya unake aMga-aMga se Tapaka rahA thA, aneka suMdara alaMkAra unhoMne pahane the| mujhe bar3e pyAre se lage bacce / maiMne unase prazna kiyA : 'o pyAre baccoM! mujhe tumase kucha pUchanA hai|' merI AvAja sunakara ve donoM ThiThaka gye| ve najadIka Aye! kautUhala ke kAraNa kamara se jhukakara mujhe ThIka vaise dekhane lage jaise ki apana kIr3e yA anya bArIka jantu ko dekhate haiM! vahIM eka ne dUsare se kahA : 'dekhodekho! dosta, manuSya ke AkAra vAle aura manuSya kI bhASA bolate hue isa kIr3e ko to dekho!' dUsarA bAlaka bhI jhUma uThA : 'saca hai terA kahanA! kitanA pyArA lagatA hai! manuSya ke AkAra kA aura manuSya kI bhASA meM bolatA huA kIr3A hama ne pahalI bAra dekhA! yaha hai kauna?' 'zAyada mujhe lagatA hai yaha vanya pradeza ke kisI pazu kA baccA hogaa| becArA mA~ se judA ho gayA lagatA hai| dUsare bacce ne kahA : 'para apane pradeza meM aise vanya pradeza hai hI kahA~? aise jAnavara bhI to nahIM hai nA? apane kSetra ke Asa-pAsa sAre hI nagara haiN| sAre nagaroM ke janapatha janasamUha se chAye rahate haiN| apane mahAvideha meM vanya pazu kahA~ rAste meM par3e haiM, jo isa taraha nagara meM cale AyeM | yaha vanya pazu nahIM lagatA, kyoMki isane to itane sAre AbhUSaNa pahana rakhe haiN| ye alaMkAra manuSya ke dvArA hI nirmita haiM aura manuSya ke pahanane ke liye hI haiM! isa bAta se mujhe yaha khyAla A gayA ki 'maiM mahAvideha kI dharatI para A pahu~cA huuN|' mujhe bar3I prasannatA milii| itane meM usa bacce ne apane dosta se kahA : 'yaha kauna hai? isakA nirNaya apana nahIM kara skeNge| apana to isako paramAtmA sImaMdhara svAmI ke samIpa le cleN| vahA~ samavasaraNa meM ise dekhakara koI to avazya hI paramAtmA se isake bAre meM prazna karegA ki 'yaha kauna hai?' dUsarA mitra bhI khuza hotA huA tAlI dene lagA : 'hA~ terI bAta ThIka hai| sarvajJa paramAtmA ke pAsa hI javAba mila jAyegA!' ___ maiM to yaha sunakara mAre khuzI ke jhUma utthaa| 'mujhe sImaMdhara paramAtmA ke darzana hoMge! unake caraNoM meM baiThane kA maukA milegaa| mere bhAgya kitane ujale haiM!' merA to royA~-royA~ anaMta Ananda se bhara gyaa| itane meM unameM se eka ne mujhe aise uThAyA jaise ki apana kisI goraiyA ke bacce ko uThAte haiN| hA~, mujhe pIr3A na pahu~ce isakA dhyAna unhoMne pUrA-pUrA rakhA thaa| maiMne soca rakhA thA ki For Private And Personal Use Only

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maiM dhanya banA! 58 paramAtmA ke samakSa apane sAre prazna rakha dUMgA ki "mere jIvana meM yaha saba kucha kyA huA jA rahA hai|' __ hama jA pahu~ce samavasaraNa meM, mujhe apanI hathelI meM rakhakara ve donoM bacce samavasaraNa meM eka jagaha para baiTha gye| maiMne bhagavanta ko dekhA 'ahaa| kitanA sundara rUpa! kitanI vizAla kAyA? kitanI pyArI aura madhura vANI! samavasaraNa meM deva-deviyA~! devendra aura narendra! strI aura puruSa | sabhI paramAtmA kI vANI sunane meM lIna bane the| mujhe le jAne vAle una donoM baccoM ne kAnAphUsI kI 'abhI to prazna karanA ucita nahIM hogaa| abhI isa kIr3e ko batAnA ucita nahIM hogaa| phira jaba gaNadhara bhagavanta prazna kareMge taba dekhA jaayegaa|' aisA kahakara ve donoM paramAtmA kI vANI sunane meM dattacita bana gye| __paramAtmA ne AtmA aura karma kA saMbaMdha smjhaayaa| karmoM ke baMdha, udaya, kSaya, kSayopazama vagairaha smjhaayaa| sabhI mugdha banakara suna rahe the| sabhI ne paramAtmA ke vacanoM ko svIkAra kiyaa| usa samaya avasara jAnakara una baccoM ne mujhe sImaMdhara svAmI ke pAsa rakha diyaa| sabhI kI nigAheM mere Upara laga gyii| deva-devI, strI-purUSa sabhI ko Azcarya hone lgaa| maiMne sImaMdhara svAmI ko tIna pradakSiNA dekara vandanA kI aura bhagavanta ke sAmane khar3e hokara stuti kii| 'he jIvamAtra ke bandhu! saMsAra-samudra meM naukA samAna Apa jayazIla bno| janma-jarA mRtyu se mukta bhagavanta Apa jayavaMta bno| he puruSasiMha trilokavyApI yazasvI paramAtman! sarvajJa sarvadarzI! Apa vijayazIla bano! moha ko naSTa karake siddhagati ko prApta karane vAle o jinendr| Apa jayazIla bno| he prabho, maiM ApakI zaraNa aMgIkAra karatA huuN|' isa taraha prArthanA karake maiM prabhu ke caraNoM meM jhuka gayA aura bAda meM apane sthAna para jA baitthaa| devI! usa samaya vahA~ baiThe hue eka rAjA ne natamastaka hokara bhagavAna se prazna kiyA : he prabho! yaha manuSya hai yA dUsarA koI? yaha yahA~ para AyA kaise? kyoM AyA aura ise yahA~ kauna le AyA hai? yaha saba jAnane kI mujhe tIvra utkaMThA hai, to Apa sArA rahasya udghATita karane kI kRpA kareM / ' yoM kahakara vaha rAjA bhagavaMta ke caraNoM meM jhukaa| bhagavaMta ne karuNA karake madhura suroM meM kahA : 'rAjan! isa jambUdvIpa meM 'bharata' nAma kA eka khaMDa hai, vahA~ madhya khaMDa meM aruNAbha nAma ke nagara kA yaha kAmagajendra nAma kA rAjakumAra hai| isake pUrva janma ke mitra jo ki abhI deva For Private And Personal Use Only

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maiM dhanya banA! ____59 bane hue haiM, unhoMne kAmagajendra kI AtmA ko pratibuddha karane ke liye eka mAyAjAla kI racanA kI / 'kAmagajendra strImugdha hai, vaha saundarya kA cAhaka hai, yoM jAnakara una donoM mitra devoM ne vidyAdhara kumArikAoM kA rUpa kiyA aura kAmagajendra ko vaitADhya parvata kI ghATI meM le aaye| vahA~ bindumati nAma kI rAjakumArI dikhAyI : 'yaha tere viraha se mara gayI hai, aisA batAkara agnisaMskAra kiyA aura usa citA meM ve do kumAriyoM kA rUpa dhAraNa karane vAle devoM ne bhI praveza kiyaa| yaha dekhakara kAmagajendra bhI jala marane ko taiyAra ho gayA para mitra devoM ne vidyAdhara yugala kA rUpa banAkara use jala marane se rokaa| phira jaba kAmagajendra kuMDa meM utarA to usa kuMDa ko hI vimAna banAkara use yahA~ le aaye| unhIM donoM mitra devoM ne bAlakoM kA rUpa banAkara 'yaha kisI jaMgalI jAnavara kA baccA hai, aisA majAka kiyA aura isako yahA~ samavasaraNa meM le Aye / 'sarvajJa vItarAga ke darzana karake yaha samyakatva pAyegA,' aisA samajha kara use mere sAmane rkhaa|' ___ 'prabho, mitra devoM ne aisA kyoM kiyA?' rAjA ne prazna kiyA / 'rAjan! gata janma meM ye pA~ca mitra the| una pA~coM ne paraspara nirNaya kiyA thA eka dUsare ko pratibuddha karane kA / yaha kAmagajendra una pA~coM meM se eka mohadatta kI AtmA ___ maiM to yaha saba sunakara bhAvavibhora ho utthaa| bhagavanta kI karuNAmayI dRSTi mere Upara girii| ___ 'kAmagajendra! tU pratibuddha bana / karmoM kI kuTilatA ko samajha! karmoM kI jaMga lagI jaMjIroM ko kATane ke liye kar3A puruSArtha karanA hogaa| taba hI mokSadazA prApta hogii| saMsAra to bhISaNa sAgara hai| usako tairanA-pAra karanA AsAna nahIM hai| mana aura indriyoM kI caMcalatA kI aura kaSAyoM kI durzayatA ko samajha | viSayopabhoga antatogatvA duHkhadAyI hai| jinavacana prApta honA mahA muzkila hai| ataH samyagadarzana ko aMgIkAra kara | yathAzakti viratidharma ko bhI aMgIkAra kr|' ___ 'priyaMgu! paramAtmA kI pAvana vANI mere antastala ko chU gyii| merI A~khoM meM khuzI ke A~sU chalaka utthe| mere roma-roma ullasita ho gye| hRdaya meM asIma Ananda kA udadhi uchalane lgaa|' maiMne khaa| 'he karuNAnidhAna / ApakI AjJA mujhe zirodhArya hai| Apake vacana maiM svIkAra karatA huuN|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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sahI dizA kI ora 60 kAmagajendra priyaMgu ke sAmane yaha bolate-bolate gadgada ho utthaa| priyaMgu kI bhI A~kheM A~suoM se camaka rahI thii| usakA svara bharrA gyaa...| 'phira kyA huA svAmin?' phira usa rAjA ne pUchA : 'bhagavaMta yaha kAmagajendra manuSya hai to yaha sAta hAtha hI U~cA kyoM hai? hama to pA~ca sau manuSya kI U~cAI vAle haiN|' ___ 'mahAnubhAva, yaha mahAvideha kSetra kA hai aura kAmagajendra to bharata kSetra kA hai| yahA~ hamezA sukhamaya kAla hotA hai, vahA~ aba duHkhamaya samaya zurU hogaa| yahA~ zAzvat samaya hai, jabaki vahA~ samaya kI avadhi hai | yahA~ dIrghAyuSya hai, vahA~ alpAyuSya hai| yahA~ adhika puNyazIla prANI haiM, vahA~ alpa puNyazAlI loga haiN| yahA~ satvazIla AtmAe~ haiM, vahA~ satvahIna puruSa haiN| yahA~ jyAdA sajjana aura kama durjana haiM, vahA~ kama sajjana aura jyAdA durjana haiN| vahA~ ke loga jar3amati aura vakra svabhAva vAle haiN| yahA~ zAzvat mokSamArga hai, vahA~ azAzvat muktimArga hai| yahA~ zubha pariNAmayukta aura manohara padArtha haiM, vahA~ zubha pariNAma vAle padArtho kA hrAsa hotA jA rahA hai|' ___ 'devI, jaba maiMne yaha saba sunA to mujhe lagA ki apanA kSetra kitane guNoM se rahita hai| vaha mahAvideha kSetra dhanya hai jahA~ sarvajJa sarvadarzI, jagatabaMdhu devendrapUjita, munipUjita, sarvajIvapratibodhaka, sarvottama, sarvAMga sundara, sabhI saMzayoM ko dUra karane vAle jinezvara bhagavanta vicarate haiN| maiMne mana hI mana paramAtmA kI bhAvapUrNa stuti kii| stavanA karate-karate maiM prabhu ke caraNoM me jhukA | merI A~kheM mUMda gyii| jaba maiMne sira uThAyA A~kheM kholI to maiM una donoM vidyAdhara kumArikAoM ke sAtha vimAna kI sIr3hiyA~ utara rahA thaa|' ___ kAmagajendra priyaMgumati ko premapUrNa najaroM se dekha rahA thA, itane meM paricArikA ne Akara nivedana kiyA : 'dugdhapAna kA samaya ho cukA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra sahI dizA kI ora 61 11. sahI dizA kI ora kAmagajendra kI bAta sunakara priyaMgumati vicAroM kI gaharAI meM DUba gii| usake cehare para glAni aura Azcarya kI mizrita rekhAe~ ubhara aaii| usane kAmagajendra kI ora dekhA ... kAmagajendra A~kheM mU~dakara palaMga para leTA thA / priyaMgumati ke mana meM aneka vicAroM ke Avarta phailane lge| kyA ye sArI bAteM sahI hoMgI? unake jAne aura lauTane meM mAtra eka prahara kA samaya bItA hai| eka prahara meM kyA itanI ghaTanAe~ ho sakatI hai ? itanI sArI ghaTanAoM meM to tInacAra prahara nikala jAnA AsAna hai / to kyA yaha indrajAla hai ? svapnalIlA hai ? priyaMgumati kA mana bhArI bhArI ho gyaa| usake cehare para cintA kI rekhAe~ phailatI dekhakara kAmagajendra ne uThakara apane hAthoM meM usakI hatheliyoM ko bA~dhate hue kahA : 'devI! abhI bhI mere manopaTa para hUbahU sImaMdhara svAmI kI AkRti ubhara rahI hai| jaise ki maiM unake caraNoM meM natamastaka khar3A hU~ aura unake karuNApUrNa nayanoM se karuNA barasa rahI ho ! saca, yaha dRzya mujhe abhI-abhI dikhAI diyA / ' ' para mujhe to yaha saba samajha meM nahIM aataa| eka prahara ke alpa samaya meM ApakI kahI huI sArI ghaTanAe~ ho kaise sakatI hai? Apa jaba se gaye taba se maiM jAga rahI huuN| eka prahara bhI muzkila se bItA hai| kyA yaha svapna yA indrajAla nahIM ho sakatA ?' 'devI, maiMne jo kucha bhI kahA vaha saba merA apanA anubhUta satya hai, ataH svapna yA indrajAla kA to prazna hI paidA nahIM hotaa| alabatta, mere ye sAre anubhava daivI duniyA ke haiM, mujhe yahA~ se le jAne vAle mere pUrvajanma ke mitradeva haiN| mujhe vApasa lauTAne vAle bhI vahI haiN| isalie jAne-Ane meM to jyAdA samaya gayA hI nhiiN| vaitADhya parvata kI guphA meM kuNDa meM bhI aura phira mahAvideha kSetra meM eka prahara bIta jAnA svAbhAvika hai / para devI, saca kahU~ to vaha saba dezakAla ke baMdhanoM se pare thA / apUrva aura adbhuta thA / ' For Private And Personal Use Only kAmagajendra ke cehare para eka divya AbhA damaka utthii| usake kamala se ardhanimIlita nayanoM meM divya anubhUti kI saMvedanA nRtya karane lagI / paramAtmA sImaMdhara svAmI ke mukhAravinda se usane 'bindumati' aura usakI donoM vidyAdhara

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sahI dizA kI ora 62 kumArikAoM kI kahAnI kI kAlpanikatA aura hetutA samajha lI thii| mitradevoM dvArA usakI strI-Asakti ko tor3ane ke lie racI huI indrajAla kI to use pratIti ho gayI thI, para sImaMdhara svAmI ke darzana meM yathArthatA kI use zraddhA thii| mitradeva use mahAvideha meM le gaye the, yaha bAta sampUrNa satya aura tathyapUrNa thii| inhIM vicAroM meM khoyA-khoyA vaha apanI kalpanAsRSTi ko 'mahAvideha kA rUpa de baitthaa| sImaMdhara svAmI ke samavasaraNamaya usakI dRSTi bana gii| usa sRSTi meM usane kabhI jisakA anubhava na kiyA ho aisI prasannatA prApta kii| aindrika bhUmikA se uThakara usane divya sukhAnubhUti kii| usane mana hI mana apanI samagratA se paramAtmA ko caahaa| isa cAha meM usane paramatRpti kA anubhava kiyaa| kAmagajendra ke samUce jIvana para eka prahara ke isa anubhava ne gaharA prabhAva DAlA | usakI indriyA~ zAnta ho gyii| unakA mana prazAMta bana gyaa| 'svAmin! priyaMgumati ke zabdoM ne kAmagajendra ko vicAra bhUmi se vAstavikatA kI vedI para khiiNcaa| 'kyA?' 'mujhe eka vicAra AyA!' 'bolo!' kAmagajendra kI A~kheM priyaMgumati para ThaharI / 'samIpa kI dharatI para caramatIrthaMkara paramAtmA mahAvIrasvAmI virAjamAna haiM, apana paramAtmA ke darzanArtha caleM aura vahA~ ApakA rAtri-anubhava unase nivedana kareM to?' 'sundara vicAra hai devI! bhagavanta ke darzana kA lAbha milegA aura anubhUti kI yathArthatA bhI siddha ho jaayegii| ratha taiyAra karane kI sUcanA de do|' 'jaisI ApakI AjJA', priyaMgumati ne pratihArI ko bulAkara ratha taiyAra karane kI sUcanA de dii| kAmagajendra ne zuddha kapar3e phne| priyaMgumati ne bhI zveta rezamI vastroM se apane ko sjaayaa| kAmagajendra kA suzobhita ratha zramaNabhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ke samavasaraNa kI ora daur3a rahA thaa| prakRti ne apanA nayA zRMgAra kiyA thA, para use dekhane kI utkaMThA na to kAmagajendra ko thI na hI priyaMgumati ko thii| donoM gahare vicAroM meM DUbe the| jaba manuSya ke hRdaya meM koI prazna paidA hotA hai, jaba-taka usakA sukhada nirAkaraNa nahIM AtA taba-taka use bAhara kI duniyA kA saundarya bhAtA nahIM hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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sahI dizA kI ora dUra se devaduMdubhi kI dhvani sunAI dene lgii| utuMga azoka vRkSa kI DAliyA~ jhUla rahI thii| kAmagajendra kI AtmA pulakita bana utthii| usakA roma-roma vikasvara hone lgaa| ratha samavasaraNa ke samIpa jA rahA thaa| samavasaraNa meM AsIna paramAtmA mahAvIra svAmI ke darzana hue | kAmagajendra aura priyaMgumati ke mana jhUma utthe| samavasaraNa ke dvAra para ratha meM se utarakara dampati samavasaraNa ke sopAna car3hane lage| paramAtmA ke sAmane Ate hI donoM ne mastaka para aMjali racAkara, praNAma kiyA, tIna pradakSiNA dekara bhagavanta ke sAmane savinaya baiTha gye| kAmagajendra kI nigAheM paramAtmA ke saumya evaM zItala Anana para TikI thii| karuNA se bhare vItarAga ke nayanoM kI AbhA se kAmagajendra kI AtmA prasanna bana gii| usane paramAtmA se vinayapUrvaka prazna kiyaa| 'he bhagavanta, gata rAtri meM maineM jo anubhava kiye, kyA ve anubhava saca haiM yA phira merI cetanA aindrajAlika vyAmoha meM pha~sI rahI? isakA pratyuttara dene kI kRpA kreN| ___ 'he mahAnubhAva tere sAre anubhava saca haiN|' sarvajJa kI mIThI madhura vANI ne kAmagajendra evaM priyaMgumati ke cehare para gaMbhIratA evaM Azcarya ke bhAvoM kA sammizraNa paidA kiyaa| bhagavaMta ne kAmagajendra ko kahA : ___ 'he kAmagajendra, karmoM kI gati viSama hai| anaMta-anaMta jIvAtmAe~ karmoM kI parAdhInatA se isa du:khamaya saMsAra meM anaMta-anaMta duHkhoM ko jhelatI huI bhaTakatI haiN| puNyakarmoM ke udaya se jaba jIvoM ko kSaNika sukha prApta hote haiM taba jIva pApa karmoM kI bhayaMkaratA ko bhUla jAtA hai| azAzvat bhogasukhoM meM mUr3ha sA bana jAtA hai aura pApa karmoM kA baMdha karatA hai, jaba ve pApakarma udaya meM Ate haiM taba dAruNa duHkhoM kI dAhakatA use bebaza banA detI hai| aisA duHkhamaya yaha saMsAra hai| puNyakarmoM ke udaya se jIvAtmAoM ko jaba priyajanoM ke saMyoga milate haiM, jIvAtmA sneha ke baMdhanoM se baMdhatA hai| para jaba usa saMyoga kA viyoga hotA hai, taba usakI vedanA kI sImA nahIM rahatI hai| isI taraha pA~ca iMdriyoM ke viSayopabhoga karate hue jIva jaba rogoM se ghirate haiM, viSayasukha dUra-dUra jAte haiM taba usake duHkhI mana ko kauna samajhA sakatA hai? viSayavAsanAoM ke pAza meM pha~sI jIvAtmA naraka-tiryaMca vagairaha durgatiyoM meM bhaTaka jAtI hai| vahA~ para asaMkhya varSoM taka zArIrika evaM mAnasika trAsa kA zikAra bana jAtI hai| kAmagajendra, yaha viSacakra Ajakala kA nahIM hai, anaMta-anaMta kAla se yaha For Private And Personal Use Only

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64 sahI dizA kI ora saba cala rahA hai| yaha manuSyajanma to maukA hai, isa ghaTanAcakra se mukta hone ke liye pracaMDa puruSArtha karane kA! muktimArga terI A~khoM ke sAmane hai| ___ eka bAta acchI taraha se samajha lenA ki mukta... sAre karmoM ke bandhanoM se mukta AtmA kA sukha hI sadAkAlIna zAzvat, akhaMDa aura avikala hai| vaha sukha prApya hai| para isake lie jJAna, darzana aura cAritra kI ArAdhanA karanI hogii| vItarAga ke batalAye mArga kI sAdhanA karanI hogii| kaThora karmoM ke sAmane dhIra-vIra banakara yuddha cher3anA hogaa| vijaya kI varamAlA terA intajAra kara rahI hai| kAmagajendra! terA jIvana isalie hI hai! prabuddha bana! kaba taka mAnasa kA haMsa gandI-ghinaunI talaiyA ke pAnI meM khelatA rahegA? kAmagajendra kA hRdaya harSa se paripUrNa bana gyaa| usakI pAradarzI A~khoM ke kinAre A~suoM kA kAphilA utara aayaa| usakI antarAtmA viSayasukhoM se virakta banane lgii| paramAtmA ke caraNoM meM apanA jIvana samarpita karake sAdhanA ke saphalatama zikharoM para pahu~cane kI abhIpsA AtmA ke pradeza-pradeza meM jAga utthii| usane khar3e hokara paramAtmA ke caraNoM meM puna:-punaH vaMdanA kii| priyaMgumati ne bhI bhAvapUrNa mana se vandanA kI aura donoM samavasaraNa se bAhara nikle| rathArUr3ha banakara apane par3Ava para jA phuNce| dainika kRtyoM se nivRta hokara kAmagajendra aura priyaMgumati apane AvAsa meM jAkara baiThe | kAmagajendra ne priyaMgumati kI ora dekhakara kahA : / ___'devI! apana ko yahIM se vApasa lauTanA hai| aba ujjayinI jAne kA koI prayojana nahIM hai| merA mana vaiSayika sukhoM se dUra-dUra jA rahA hai| aba koI AkarSaNa nahIM rahA hai! 'saca hai svAmin! virakta AtmA ko anurakti pasanda kaise AyegI?' "devI mere mana meM aisA apUrva bhAva paidA huA ki isa saMsAra ko chor3akara, saMyama kI rAha ko aMgIkAra karake karmoM kA nAza karanA hai| AtmA kI svabhAvadazA ko pAnA hai|' 'ApakI manokAmanA uttama hai| ApakA bhAva pavitra hai, zreSTha hai| maiM bhI inhIM bhAvoM meM DUbI hU~| jaba se tribhuvanatAraka paramAtmA mahAvIra deva kI gaMbhIra vANI ko sunA hai, merA mana bhI virakti kI ora khIMcA jA rahA hai| maiM bhI Apake sAtha saMyamadharma ko svIkAra karU~gI aura AtmA kI zuddhAvasthA ko pAU~gI' priyaMgumati ke zabdoM ne kAmagajendra ke prANoM ko AnaMda se bhara diyaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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65 sahI dizA kI ora virakta AtmAoM ke AnaMda kI anubhUti viSayAkta AtmAoM kI kalpanA ke bAhara kI vastu hai| virakti meM zuSkatA nahIM hotii| zuSkatA meM virakti kA TikanA muzkila hai| rAga kA Ananda aura virAga kA Ananda! hai donoM Ananda, para donoM ke bIca jahara-amRta kA antara hotA hai| ___ 'devI, tumhArA saMkalpa mere saMkalpa ko majabUta banAtA hai| tumhAre zabdoM kI sahAnubhUti merI virakti ko aura jyAdA puSTa kara rahI hai| apana aruNAbha nagara cleN| jinamati ko bhI apanI manokAmanA batAnI hogii| phira yuvarAja dizAgajendra kA rAjyAbhiSeka bhI karanA hogA aura bAda meM apana saMyama kI rAha para prayANa kareMge!' 'sahI hai ApakA kahanA! jinamati Apake saMkalpa ko sunakara tAjjuba raha jAyegI! ujjayinI kI rAjakumArI ke citra para mugdha bane Apako jaba vaha eka virakta vyakti ke rUpa meM pAyegI, Azcarya hogA hI! rAjakumArI para mugdha bane Apako vaha bhagavAna mahAvIra para mugdha bane pAyegI to usakA Azcarya duganA ho jaayegaa|' ___ 'saca hai devI, mAnava ke Akasmika parivartanoM se duniyA ko Azcarya hotA hI hai! jinamati bhI AzcaryAnvita hogI hI parantu...' kAmagajendra bolate-bolate ruka gyaa| priyaMgumati samajha gii| 'svAmina, vaha prasanna hogii| Apake Antarika vyaktitva se vaha bhalIbhA~ti paricita hai| Apa bAhara se rAgI haiM aura bhItara se virAgI haiM, yaha bAta hama donoM acchI taraha jAnatI haiN| isa viSaya meM hamArI kAphI carcA bhI huI hai| apana donoM ke saMkalpoM kA vaha svAgata karegI aura usakA apanA bhI yahI saMkalpa hogaa|' 'to kyA vaha bhI saMyamajIvana pasanda karegI?' 'avazya! jo Apako pasaMda vahI usakA jIvana dhyeya! vaha Apako itane gahare se pyAra karatI hai ki alaga pasandagI kA to prazna hI nahIM hotaa| 'taba to kitanA acchA! apana sabhI sAtha hI AtmA ke avinAzI sukhoM ko paayeNge| sadAkAla ke lie jyota meM jyota mila jaayegii| kabhI viyoga nahIM, koI dUrI nhii| __palabhara ke lie kAmagajendra kI kalpanA meM jinamati kI saumya snehabharI chavi taira aaii| usakA mana bola uThA : 'vaha bhI terI rAha sviikaaregii|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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66 jyota, jo sadA jalatI rahegI 'svAmin senApati ko bulavAkara vApasa lauTane kI sUcanA de deN|' 'hA~, pratihArI bhejakara senApati ko bulA lo|' priyaMgamati ne pratihArI ko sUcanA dii| pratihArI calA gyaa| priyaMgumati apanI taiyArI meM laga gii| senApati turanta A gyaa| kAmagajendra ne usako aruNAbha nagara lauTane kI sUcanA dii| senApati ke cehare para Azcarya kI rekhAe~ ubhara aaii| usane mauna rahakara AjJA ko svIkAra kiyaa| para kAmagajendra kI A~khoM ne usakI jijJAsA ko bhA~pa liyaa| usane kahA : __ 'hama svayaM apanI icchA se vApasa lauTa rahe haiM, apane ko koI kaSTa yA vidhna nahIM pahuMcA hai| jo vizeSa kAraNa hai vApasa lauTane kA, vaha aruNAbha nagara jAne ke bAda mAlUma hogaa|' kAmagajendra ke Anana para smita ke phUla khila utthe| senApati ne zIghra par3Ava uThavA liyA aura sainya ko aruNAbha nagara kI ora lauTane kA Adeza diyaa| sabhI ke cehare para Azcarya ke bhAva ubhare the| cale the ujjayinI kI rAjakumArI ko lene ke lie aura vApasa lauTa rahe haiM khAlI hAtha! Akhira aisA kyoM? For Private And Personal Use Only

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jyota, jo sadA jalatI rahegI 67 || 12. jyota, jo sadA jalatI rhegii| aruNAbha nagara ke strI-puruSa Azcarya, AzaMkA aura prabala jijJAsA ke bhAvoM meM DUba gaye, jaba kAmagajendra aura priyaMgumati apane sainya ke sAtha rAste meM se hI vApasa lauTa aaye| saba yahI jAnate the ki 'rAjA kAmagajendra ujjayinI kI rAjakumArI ke sAtha zAdI karane ke liye gaye haiN|' jaba binA zAdI kiye rAste meM se hI vApasa lauTe to Azcarya honA sahaja thaa| jinamati bhI Azcarya se cauMka utthii| vaha turanta kAmagajendra ke AvAsa meM jA phuNcii| priyaMgumati bhI vahIM para baiThI thii| jinamati ne kAmagajendra ke caraNoM meM namana kiyA aura priyaMgumati ke pAsa A baitthii| unakI praznabharI A~kheM kAmagajendra ke cehare para jamI thii| priyaMgumati gaura se jinamati ke sAmane dekha rahI thii| 'Apako kuzalatA to hai na svAmin?' 'bahuta prasanna hU~ jinu! kaho tuma kaisI ho?' 'ApakI kuzalatA aura ApakI prasannatA vahI merA saba kucha hai, Apa prasanna haiM to maiM bhI khuza hU~! 'jinu! jindagI meM kabhI nahIM pAyI aisI AMtaraprasannatA se merA roma-roma pulakita hai| vaiSayika sukhoM ke upabhoga meM mujhe jo Ananda na mila sakA vaha Ananda vaha apUrva rasAnubhUti mujhe zrI sImaMdhara svAmI ke darzana evaM bhagavAna mahAvIra kI dezanA ke zravaNa se milI!' 'para sImaMdhara svAmI to mahAvideha meM haiN| unake darzana? merI samajha meM nahIM A rahA kucha...?' ___ kAmagajendra ke cehare para divya teja kI AbhA camaka rahI thii| jinamati ko ulajhate dekha usake cehare para smita kI cA~danI utara aayii| usane priyaMgumati ko dekhaa| priyaMgumati ne ha~sate hue kahA : 'rAtri kI vaha adbhuta ghaTanA Apa hI jinamati ko sunAyeM!' kAmagajendra ne jinamati ko atha se iti taka sampUrNa vRtAMta kaha sunaayaa| sAtha meM bhagavAna mahAvIra ke upadeza se usakA hRdaya virakta banA hai aura vaha saMyama kI rAha para jAne ko lAlAyita hai, yaha bhI usako batA diyaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jyota, jo sadA jalatI rahegI 68 jinamati ne dhar3akate hRdaya se...Azcarya...anutApa...kautUhala aura virakti ke bhinna-bhinna bhAvoM ke sAtha kAmagajendra kI bAtoM ko sunaa| __'ApakI bAteM adabhuta pratIta ho rahI haiN| ApakA nirNaya bhI zreSTha hai| tyAga kA rAstA hI AtmA ke sukhAnUbhava kA eka mAtra sahI mArga hai|' __'jinu, maiMne bhI svAmI kA saMkalpa svIkArA hai| maiM bhI unake sAtha saMyama sviikaaruuNgii|' 'dIdI, Apane apanA hI nirNaya kyoM kahA? merA bhI nirNaya Apako kahanA cAhie thA?' 'cAritra bina mukti nahIM, yaha bAta to mujhe mA~ ne dUdha ke sAtha pilAyI hai | jIvana kA antima Adarza saMyamajIvana hI hai| maiM bhI cAritra kA hI mArga luuNgii|' jinamati ne prasanna mana se para dRr3ha svara meM apanA saMkalpa batA diyaa| priyaMgamati usake pratibhAsaMpanna cehare kI ora dekhatI hI rhii| jinamati A~kheM mUMdakara vicAra meM DUba gayI thii| kAmagajendra AvAsagRha ke vAtAyana se nIlagagana meM mukta mana se ur3a rahe pakSiyoM ko dekha rahA thaa| 'jinu!' 'dIdI!' jinamati priyaMgumati ke pAsa saraka AyI / 'saMyamamArga grahaNa karane kA nirNaya bar3I samajhadArI ke sAtha karanA cAhie | bhAvukatA ke pravAha meM bahakara nhiiN| paripakva ciMtana aura dIrgha vicAra karake hI nirNaya lenA cAhie | saMyama kA mArga sarala nahIM hai| bhoga meM DUbe jIvoM ke liye tyAga kA jIvana zAyada kaThina ho sakatA hai|' jinamati ne priyaMgumati kI bAta sunii| vaha mauna rhii| usakI A~kheM nimilita thiiN| usakI kalpanA-sRSTi meM saMyamajIvana sAkAra bana gyaa| usane apane Apako sAdhvI ke rUpa meM dekhaa| saMyama kI sAdhanA meM tallIna bane mana ko dekhA / cita kI apUrva AnandAvasthA kA anubhava kiyaa| harSa aura zoka ke dvandvoM se mukta, sukha aura duHkha kI kalpanAoM se mukta cita kI samAvasthA kA anubhava kiyaa| vikArarahita AtmA-sthiti kI anubhUti ne use prasanna kara dii| 'dIdI! 'jinu! 'merA saMkalpa sudRr3ha hai| merA nirNaya merI antaHpreraNA kA hai| maiM apane Apako saMyamamArga kI ArAdhanA meM lIna banA skuuNgii| 'kammesUrA te dhammesUrA' kI bAta sArthaka hI hogI na?' jinamati kI A~kheM camaka utthii| priyaMgumati ne For Private And Personal Use Only

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69 jyota, jo sadA jalatI rahegI usako apanI ora khIMca liyaa| donoM patniyoM kA vArtAlApa mauna rahakara suna rahe kAmagajendra ne kahA : 'tuma donoM kA nirNaya mere sAtha hI cAritra grahaNa karane kA hai to phira vilamba karanA ucita nahIM hogaa| rAjakumAra dizAgajendra kA rAjyAbhiSeka karake apana zramaNa bhagavanta mahAvIra svAmI ke caraNoM meM pahu~ca jAyeM / ' ___ 'ApakI bAta sahI hai| rAjakumAra ke rAjyAbhiSeka ke lie Apa mahAmantrI ko bulavAkara bAtacIta kreN| rAjakumAra ko bhI to apanA nirNaya batalAnA hogaa|' priyaMgumati ne bhadrAsana para se khar3e hote hue khaa| jinamati bhI priyaMgumati ke sAtha hI kAmagajendra ko praNAma karake Avazyaka kArya hetu bAhara nikala AyI | kAmagajendra vahA~ se uTha kara maMtraNAlaya meM calA gayA / dvArarakSaka ko bulavAkara mahAmantrI ko bulAne bheja diyA, itane meM rAjakumAra dizAgajendra vahIM para A phuNcaa| __ kAmagajendra ne dizAgajendra ko apane pAsa biThAyA aura apanA abhiprAya use btaayaa| dizAgajendra kI A~kheM chalachalA gyii| kAmagajendra ne usako pyAra se thapathapAte hue sAMtvanA dI aura 'mAnava jIvana kI saphalatA saMyama se hI hai, yaha bAta smjhaayii| dizAgajendra ke A~sU barabasa bahe hI jA rahe the| mahAmantrI maMtraNAgRha meM praveza karake kAmagajendra kA abhivAdana kara, rAjakumAra ko praNAma kara Asana para baitthe| 'maiM Apake sandeza kI rAha dekha hI rahA thA ki ApakA sandeza milaa| Apa kuzala to haiM nA?' mahAmantrI ne bAta-cIta prArambha kiyaa| 'bar3I prasannatA hai mahAmantrI! ina dinoM to antarAtmA kI prasannatA meM DUbA jA rahA huuN|' 'mahAmantrI jI, pitAjI ne saMyama grahaNa karane kA nirNaya kiyA hai|' dizAgajendra kI AvAja bharrA gyii| mahAmaMtrI cauMka utthe| 'kAmagajendra aura saMyamamArga?' kAmabhoga yakAyaka saMyama kI rAha para? unakA mana kabUla nahIM karatA hai| ve kAmagajendra kI ora dekhate haiN| 'dizAgajendra kI bAta sahI hai| maine saMyama-jIvana grahaNa karane kA nirNaya kiyA hai| paramAtmA mahAvIra svAmI ke AzIrvAda mujhe mile haiN| paramAtmA sImaMdhara svAmI kI preraNA maiMne pAyI hai|' 'mahArAja, saMyamamArga zreSTha hai, AtmA kI pUrNatA ko pAne kA yaha eka hI For Private And Personal Use Only

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70 jyota, jo sadA jalatI rahegI rAstA hai, para itanI jaldI bhI kyA hai? utarAvasthA meM Apa saMyama le sakate 'utarAvasthA? mahAmantrI bAdala kI chA~va sI caMcala isa jindagI kA kyA bharosA? pUrvAvasthA meM jaisI saMyamaArAdhanA ho sakatI hai, vaisI utarAvasthA meM nahIM ho sakatI aura jaba mana hI uTha gayA hai bhogasukhoM se, phira derI kisa lie?' 'ApakI bAta sahI hai parantu...' vayovRddha maMtrI kI A~khoM meM A~sU bhara Aye! unakI AvAja darda se chalaka ne lgii| ___ Apake binA yaha rAjamahala, yaha nagara...yaha rAjya...sabhI kucha sUnA-sUnA ho jaayegaa| ApakA viraha kaise sahana hogA? Apa isa kadara niSThura mata bniye| 'mahAmantrI, saMyoga hai vahA~ viyoga hai hI 'saMyogA hi viyogAntaH koI milana zAzvat nahIM hai| hara milana ke pIche viraha kI kAlimA lagI haiN| saMyoga sadAkAlIna hai hI nhiiN| vaibhava kSaNika hai | kAmabhoga dArUNa vipAka vAle hai!' kAmagajendra askhalita rUpa se bola rahA thaa| mahAmantrI bAra-bAra utarIya vastra se apanI A~khoM ko poMcha rahe the| dizAgajendra jamIna para A~kheM gar3Ae baiThA thaa| ___ 'mahAmantrI, dizAgajendra kA rAjyAbhiSeka karanA hai| usakI taiyAriyA~ bhI karanI hogii| apane mitra rAjyoM meM sUcanA aura nimaMtraNa bhI bhejanA hogaa| aba maiM vilamba karanA nahIM cAhatA hU~!' 'para Apa merI eka bAta sunie, kyA mahAdevI aura rAnI jinamati ne sammati de dI? Apake binA ve donoM...!' 've donoM mere sAtha saMyama leNgii| unhoMne apanA nirNaya mujhe batA diyA hai|' __ mahAmantrI stabdha the! kAmagajendra ke isa acAnaka parivartana ne unake barasoM ke anubhava ko jhakajhora diyA thaa| unhoMne rAjA ko praNAma kiyA aura AjJA zirodhArya kii| dizAgajendra ke sAtha kAmagajendra bhojana ke lie rAjamahala meM gayA aura mahAmaMtrI apanI havelI kI ora cala diye| aruNAbha nagara hI nahIM balki sAre rAjya meM samAcAra phaila gyaa| mitra rAjA aura AjJAMkita rAjA aruNAbha nagara meM Ane lage | zubha dina aura zubha muhUrta meM dizAgajendra kA rAjyAbhiSeka kara diyA gyaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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71 jyota, jo sadA jalatI rahegI zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI bhI aruNAbha ke bAhya pradeza meM padhAra gaye the| bhavya dIkSA mahotsava kA Ayojana huaa| nagara ke aneka strI-puruSa saMyamamArga grahaNa karane ke lie taiyAra ho gaye the| vizAla rAjyaparivAra ke sAtha, lAkhoM nAgarika strI-puruSoM ke sAtha, aneka rAjA-mahArAjAoM ke sAtha kAmagajendra samavasaraNa kI ora calA | kAmagajendra, priyaMgumati aura jinamati rAjahAthI para ArUr3ha the| pIche dUsare rAjahAthI para dizAgajendra ArUr3ha huA thaa| samavasaraNa ke dvAra para sabhI A phuNce| kAmagajendra apanI donoM priyAoM ke sAtha hAthI para se utarA aura samavasaraNa ke sopAna car3hane lgaa| bhagavaMta ke samakSa jAkara praNAma karake tIna pradakSiNA dii| phira mastaka para aMjalI racAkara bhagavaMta ko prArthanA kI : he tribhuvana guru ! hameM cAritradharma dekara isa bhavasAgara se tArane kI kRpA kreN| hameM ApakI zaraNa ho / ' ___'he rAjendra, parama Ananda pAne kA yahI saccA rAstA hai, muktisukha ko pAne kA yahI eka saccA upAya hai|' bhagavanta ne rAjA, donoM rAniyoM evaM aneka strI-puruSoM ko cAritradharma pradAna kiyA / devoM ne phUloM kI varSA kii| divyadhvani gUMja utthii| vAjitroM ke nAda hue | sabhI loga apane-apane sthAna para lauTa gye| bhagavanta bhI vahA~ se apane ziSya-parivAra ke sAtha anyatra vihAra kara gye| zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ke zramaNa saMgha meM kAmagajendra kA praveza ho gayA thaa| priyaMgumati aura jinamati kA paramAtmA ke AryAsaMgha meM praveza ho gayA thaa| sabhI AtmabhAva kI vizuddhi karate hue, prazamabhAva meM nimagna banate hue mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA meM pragati kara rahe the| paradravyoM se niHsaMga banakara, svadeha se virakta banakara kAmagajendra muni jJAna-dhyAna aura tapazcaryA karate hue AtmabhAva meM rama rahe the| na thI kisI parabhAva kI abhilaassaa| ___ mahAmuni ne mana ke kAmavikAroM para vijaya pA liyaa| abhimAna kI Aga ko namratA ke nIra se bujhA diyaa| __viSaya aura kaSAya se mukta banakara jIvanamukta banane kI dizA meM prayANa kiyaa| eka dina unheM antaHsphuraNA huI : merA AyuSya alpa hai, unhoneM bhagavaMta kI For Private And Personal Use Only

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72 jyota, jo sadA jalatI rahegI AjJA lekara 'anazana, svIkAra kiyaa| apane sthAna para Akara darbha ke Asana para AsIna hokara, mastaka para aMjali racAkara, unhoMne AtmasAkSI se Atmanivedana kiyaa| 'he triloka guru ! he caubIsa tIrthaMkara bhagavaMtoM! Apako praNAma karake maiM sAmayika vrata grahaNa karatA huuN| he, bhagavaMta mana-vacana-kAyA se maiM koI pApa karU~gA nahIM, karAU~gA nahIM, anumodana bhI nahIM karU~gA | maiM rAga-dveSa se mukta banakara madhyastha-bhAva meM sthira banatA huuN|' he bhagavaMta, mere saMyama jIvana meM kabhI bhI lobha yA moha se mere dvArA kisI sUkSma yA bAdara jIva kI hiMsA huI ho...hAsya se, bhaya se, krodha se, lobha se yA moha se maiMne kucha bhI asatya bolA ho, kisI kI koI bhI vastu binA diye lI ho... kisI bhI taraha kA maithuna saMyoga mana meM bhI vicArA ho...kisI bhI taraha kA parigraha ikaTThA kiyA ho...to vaha merA duSkRtya mithyA ho! maiM manavacana-kAyA se una duSkRtyoM kA tyAga karatA hU~| saMpatti, taruNa striyoM, sonA-rupA yA ratnoM kI tarapha mere mana meM mamatva paidA huA ho... vastra, pAtra, daMDa, upakaraNa yA ziSyoM ke prati mamatvabhAva paidA huA ho...putra-putrI, patnI, bhAI-bahana vagairaha svajana yA parijanoM ke prati merA mana anurakta banA ho, zayyA, saMstAraka vagairaha upakaraNoM kI tarapha yadi koI apanatva jagA ho,...mere deha ke prati rAga paidA huA ho...mere ve sAre duSkRtya mithyA ho / maiM una sabakA tyAga karatA huuN| deza, nagara, galI, muhallA, ghara tarapha bhI kabhI mamatva paidA huA ho, mIThe zabda, sundara rUpa, suvAsita gaMdha, madhura rasa aura mulAyama sparza kI icchA huI ho, kisI bhI jIvAtmA para mUr3hatAvaza maiMne krodha yA roSa kiyA ho, merA vaha duSkRtya mithyA ho... sabhI jIva mujhe kSamA kreN| kisI bhI jIvAtmA ko maiMne pIr3A dI ho...kaSTa diye hoM...rAga se maiMne kisI kI cugalI khAyI hoM, satya ko asatya kiyA hoM, kisI ko kaThora zabda kahe hoM, marmavacanoM ke dvArA kisI ke hRdaya ko dukhAyA hoM to una sAre jIvoM se maiM kSamA cAhatA hU~| ve sabhI mujhe kSamA pradAna kreN| ___maiMne kisI ko dene kA diyA na hoM, kisI kI AjJA ko tor3A hoM,...kisI ko dete hue rokA ho, dIna, duHkhI aura vyAdhigrasta jIvoM kI masakharI kI hoM, ve saba mujhe kSamA kreN| gata janmoM meM maiMne kisI ko kaTu yA karkaza vacana kahe hoM, ve mujhe kSamA deM! he mitroM, mujhe kSamA do! amitra aura madhyastha jIva bhI mujhe kSamA deM! merI AtmA maitrI aura amaitrI se mukta madhyastha banI hai| taTastha banI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jyota, jo sadA jalatI rahegI 73 hai| maiM saba jIvoM ko kSamA detA huuN| sabhI merI tarapha madhyastha baneM rho| isa saMsAra meM zatru mitra banate haiM aura mitra zatru banate haiM / isalie mitra - amitra kA vargIkaraNa karanA ucita nahIM hai| svajana aura parijana sabhI kSamA deN| maiM sabhI ko kSamA detA hU~ / svajana aura parijana, sabhI mere lie samAna haiM / devaloka meM devoM ko yA tiryaMcagati meM pazuoM ko maiMne duHkha diyA ho, naraka meM nAraka jIvoM ko aura manuSyabhava meM manuSyoM ko maiMne duHkha diyA ho, to una sabhI jIvoM ko maiM bhAvapUrvaka kSamA detA huuN| ve sAre jIva mujhe kSamA kreN| chaha jIvanikAya ke jIvoM ko rAga-dveSa yA moha se, jAne-anajAne meM bhI maiMne duHkha diyA ho to ve sabhI mujhe kSamA deveM / maiM unako kSamA detA huuN| mahAmuni kAmagajendra ke cehare para apUrva saumyatA ubhara AI / ve samatAyoga meM sthira bana gye| bAda meM unhoMne viziSTa dhyAnasAdhanA 'kSapakazreNi' lagAyI aura ghAtI karmoM kA kSaya karake ve sarvajJa - vItarAga bana gaye / usI samaya aghAtI karmoM kA bhI kSaya ho gayA aura kAmagajendra mahAmuni dehamukta bane, unakA nirvANa huaa| unhoMne parama pada mokSa prApta kiyA / kAmagajendra ne paramAnanda svarUpa prApta kiyA, yaha samAcAra sAdhvI priyaMgumati aura AryA jinamati ko milaa| ve zokAkula vyAkula ho utthii| 'aba hameM kabhI una mahAmuni ke darzana nahIM hoMge!' isa vicAra ne donoM ko vyathita kara diyA / sarvajJa paramAtmA mahAvIra deva ne una donoM AryAoM ko apane pAsa bulAkara unakA udvega dUra kiyA: he Arye! tuma kyoM vyAkula ho rahI ho? tuma donoM bhI carama zarIrI ho| isI bhava meM sAre karmoM kA kSaya karake tuma mokSa-pada ko prApta krogii| kAmagajendra kI AtmA kI jyoti meM tumhArI jyota mila jAyegI / tumhArA Atmamilana zAzvata hogA / ' paramAtmA kI premabharI sAMtvanA ne donoM sAdhviyoM ko prasannatA dii| donoM ne prabhu ko pa~cA~ga namaskAra kiyA aura apane sthAna para calI gyii| donoM sAdhviyoM ne yathAsamaya anazana kiyA aura samUce karmajAla ko kATakara siddha, buddha, mukta aura niraMjana - nirAkAra pada prApta kiyA / bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ke samaya meM khelA gayA yaha rAga aura virAga kA adbhuta jIvana - khela isa taraha pUrNa hotA hai| rAga para virAga kA vijaya paramapada kA virATa niHsIma sAmrAjya detA hai / virAga para rAga kA vijaya dAruNa naraka kI yAtanAe~ detA hai / For Private And Personal Use Only

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Acharya Sri Kailasasagarsuri Gyanmandir Sri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra Koba Tirth. Gandhinagar-382007 (GU) INDIA Website : www.kobatirth.org E-mail: gyanmandir@kobatirth.org ISBN: 978-81-89177-24-9 For Private And Personal Use Only