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Dadashri: It is an error of his knowledge (gnan). He does not have the decision about what real knowledge is. It is because of ignorance that bhaav arises. He worries that if I don't do it this way, what will become of me in this world? This means that his nischay (decision), even on his own knowledge, is broken. He knows that his knowledge is wrong. Now, this knowledge is not for liberation. It is knowledge of the worldly life. It is purely temporary and it continues to change according to circumstances.
The Flow of Worldly Life Every living being is 'flowing in the river of life. Just like the water flowing in the Narmada River, we are not doing anything. The flow itself takes us ahead. In the past life if one is on the ninth mile and everything there is green and lush with all kinds of wonderful mango trees, almond trees, different fruit trees, and beautiful gardens. In this life one arrives at the tenth mile where there is nothing but desert all around. So then he is troubled and gnawed from within, by the gran of the ninth mile. He asks for mangos and almonds here in this life, but without success. This is how one 'flows' forward on and on. This is the work of niyati; a natural progression of evolution of a soul, life after life. However, niyati is only one of the factors; it is not there as a doer. There is no one or no single entity in this world who is the doer. At the same time however, this world has not come about without a doer. Nevertheless, they are all instrumental doers in the process (naimitik karta; apparent doer) and not independent doers. If they were independent doers, then they would become bound by their actions. The instrumental doer (naimitik karta) does not become bound by his actions.
Questioner: So in this the one who is the doer, is he to believe that he is instrumental (nimit) in the process?
Dadashri: Yes, he has the understanding that, 'I am a nimit'. Many people tell me, 'Dada you did this for me', or
'you did that for me. But I know that I am just a nimit in all that. The one who becomes the doer binds karmas. Do you become a doer of anything?
Questioner: From morning until night, I become the doer. The Belief, 'I Am the Doer', Is the Seed of
Next Life Dadashri: Now, do you want to see the proof of whether you truly are a doer or not?
Questioner: Yes.
Dadashri: You say, 'I have to go to sleep by ten and get up at six in the morning.' Then when you get into bed and pull a blanket over your head, what do you start thinking about? All of a sudden, you have a thought that you forgot to make a note in your ledger of the five thousand rupees you loaned to someone. Would you then be able to sleep? When sleeping is not under your control, then what is? You even have to set an alarm when you want to wake up early, do you not?
Questioner: Yes.
Dadashri: That too is not under your control. Even going to the toilet is not under your control. Nothing is under your control. Everything happens naturally, but you 'adjust' to it by saying, 'I am doing it.' Everything is operating due to some other energy. Neither God nor you are the doer. The very belief, 'I am the doer, is the seed of next life. Will you not have to understand all this one day?
That is why Saint Akha said: 'Karta mitey toh chhutey karma, ey chhe mahabhajan no
marma. If doership leaves, karmas leave; that is the essence of the
highest quest.'
