Aptavani 05

Author(s): Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Mahavideh Foundation

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intellect is showing, where the chit is roaming, whether the ego within is being depressed or elevated; to continuously see all this is verily our Drashta (the Self). The vishay (subject matter) of the vision (drashti) is the object (drashya) and You are the Seer (Drashta).
Questioner: Whatever unfolds during any external or internal situation, if I know that this is not my swabhav (nature) then I will gain the experience (anubhav), will I not?
Dadashri: Yes, of course you will! The one who understands that, this is not my nature', he becomes established in the nature of the Self. This Gnan is such that your awareness
jagruti) does not leave, no matter how much agitated 'Chandubhai' (the relative self) becomes. Besides, agitation is bound to occur because it is sitting within as a stock (an effect of past life causes), is it not?
Discharge is like 'vomiting'. You cannot get upset with anyone who vomits on you, because it happens against the wishes of that poor person. What can he do? The kashays discharge just like vomiting. Then everything empties within and becomes clean.
upayog, You have to immediately say, 'Chandubhai, you lost your upayog, it should not be this way.'
If someone gives me a change for a five or a ten-rupee note, I do not count the change. He may give me 25 or 50 paisa less but how much of my time would be wasted in counting? You do not have to become uninterested - disinclined (nispruha) towards money but do not ruin your upayog behind it. The upayog is the most important thing.
For how long do you have to keep applying this upayog? To the point where you keep remembering 'Dada' day and night. You miss His presence and suffer (viraho). When light with the agony of His absence (viraha), 'electricity' will spark and enlighten everything within! This is the Light of the Self. Intense Agony of Separation from the Gnani
The suffering of separation is viraha. What does the separated one (virahi) mean? Nothing can quell the restlessness. Then understand, that the freedom from worldly entanglements has occurred. The chit of a new bride will be with her husband when he is at work, even though she is cooking a wonderful meal at home.
The reality is that the Parmatma (the absolute Self) is abheda swaroop - there is no separation from any living being. If you long to be with the one who is abheda swaroop, then your worldly life will run very smoothly and beautifully. The worldly life is something that can run naturally but people continue to interfere with its natural process. Just as everything within the body works naturally after you eat a meal, the external world runs even more naturally. The rule of nature is that it will secrete digestive juices in just the right amount so that they will last you for the rest of your life, but if the foolish humans have anything to do with it; they will put in so much today that they will run short the next year!
What is focused awareness of the Self (upayog) like? If you were counting thousand rupee notes, would your focused awareness drift towards something else? That is called upayog. That is how My upayog is, all the time. Yours too will be the same if you stay with Me.
Questioner: Does that happen because one has varying interest in different states or other things?
Dadashri: There is no need to cultivate interest. You simply have to apply the upayog. You have to say, 'Chandubhai, you are sitting in the realm and presence of Dada. So whatever is happening here, going on here, apply your upayog and proceed.' Then You have to continue 'seeing', if he misses the