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Chandubhai') that binds karmas.
Nirant and Nirakudata Where the ego is at zero (shunyata), there nirakudata (the bliss of the Self) is attained. Not even for a second does the state of nirakudata arise until the ego comes to zero. One may attain nirant (a state free from botheration and uneasiness; relative peace). There is a great difference between nirant and nirakudata.
Questioner: Please explain the difference.
Dadashri: Nirakudata arises after the ego goes away and nirant occurs when bothersome circumstances are absent. People look for nirant. Nirakudata is one eighth of the attribute of the Siddha Lords (the absolute Self).
Questioner: In the complex of the mind-intellect-chit; the chit has the most shakti (energy and power), does it not?
Dadashri: The chit is mishrachetan (mixture of the Self and the non-Self) and the others are matter (pudgal) by nature. The chit is a mixture of knowledge and vision (gnan and darshan). When it becomes pure one becomes Shuddhamma. As long as one likes the worldly life, when the chit is wandering in the worldly life, then the Shuddhatma is not there. The chit becomes steady when it becomes pure through the splendor of this Gnan. The Support of the Ego and the Egoless State
You can demolish a palace that you had built yourself, but this "palace' (the body complex) has been built by the prakruti (the non-Self complex). Therefore You need to do everything after careful and systematic understanding.
The Gnani Purush knows how this palace' was built; where the core foundation that supports the entire structure is: what will cause the first floor to collapse and what will cause the
second floor to cave in. The Gnani knows all that.
The world exists and is sustained, because of support of the belief that 'I am Chandubhai'. Now that you are a Shuddhatma; because of, 'I am Shuddhatma', the support for, 'I am Chandubhai', is no longer there; hence everything will collapse or leave. This thing in my hand is held up because of the support of the hand; if I move the hand away, it will fall. Otherwise, it will not leave even if you tried.
Questioner: How can one become free from the tendencies (vruttis) that are attached to the support?
Dadashri: Does the awareness (laksha) of 'I am Shuddharma' remain with you?
Questioner: Yes.
Dadashri: Then there is no support (adhaar). No tendencies remain. Whatever tendencies there are, they are of the one without support ("Chandubhai"), not the one with support (the Self). From the moment the support, by the one giving support, leaves, all those tendencies (vruttis) are with the one who has become supportless (niradhaar). You should have this in Your awareness, that those tendencies are not Yours. There is no such thing as tendency in You. After becoming the Self, Your tendencies are that of the Self (nijvrutti), and they remain in the Self.
The Non-Doer and the Mind When the self becomes the Self (Shuddhatma), You become the non-doer (akarta). Then the tubers of the mind will continue to be destroyed. As the tubers of the mind sprout, it will give rise to another mind, if one becomes the doer (karta). The tubers of the mind will continue to sprout even when you are the non-doer. Even when the mind is restless, it continues to discharge but You should remain in your upayog (applied awareness as the Self), and see what
